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Speaker 1: R and b's money.

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Speaker 2: Honey, we are thanks take volatility. We are the authority

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Speaker 2: on all things R and B ladies and gentlemen. My

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Speaker 2: name is Tank. If this is the R and B

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Speaker 2: Money Podcast, the authority.

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Speaker 1: Yes, when all things are in south Side see what happens?

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Speaker 2: Jay is because we've been doing this for so long

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Speaker 2: to think that we aren't tapped in mm hmmmm with

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Speaker 2: the new young hot Yeah, the new young sensations, the

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Speaker 2: youth of R and by taking this motherfucker game. We

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Speaker 2: know who you are south Side Phoenix. Yeah, we know

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Speaker 2: who you are here. Yeah, we're gonna get into your ship.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, we're gonna talk about your exes.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna talk about your axes. Shy podcast.

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Speaker 4: Yeah wait, I'm sorry. First first, Yes, you hit your

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Speaker 4: nails manicured.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely, they look great. Yeah, this is jail.

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Speaker 4: Wait you get John your now.

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Speaker 1: Yeah yeah this has to last.

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Speaker 5: Yes, long lasting.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm not playing to you called me on the day.

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Speaker 1: Werein't no color on it? Yeah? Yeah I do, I do? Black?

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Speaker 1: Black is my color?

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Speaker 4: Okay, good yeah black us.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. You know I dig into my rock started. I

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Speaker 1: go to a Liny crab.

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Speaker 5: You want to know we love that do I want

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Speaker 5: to know?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, nba oh boy.

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Speaker 4: Oh okay, I'm not going to call you that, you know,

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Speaker 4: kind of dangerous.

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Speaker 1: But he's a young woman. His nails.

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Speaker 3: He was like, yeah, yeah, that's that's what.

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Speaker 1: That's what. That's My kids. My kids was like.

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Speaker 2: My daughter was like, what are you doing?

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Speaker 1: Is everything okay? That's fine?

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Speaker 5: What made you want to do?

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Speaker 1: That? Just seemed like fun?

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Speaker 5: And is it?

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Speaker 1: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm like, I'm impulsive, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 2: I'm impulsive, whether it be me too, whether it be

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Speaker 2: spending going somewhere, like, I'm impulsive. He's my voice of reason.

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Speaker 2: I'm like, let's do it. He's like this, you better not.

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Speaker 5: I'm surprised by that.

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Speaker 2: Actually he's my voice of reason. Oh no, for sure,

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Speaker 2: that's that's our balance, you know what I'm saying. But like,

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Speaker 3: When he painted his nails, all the comments said, yay,

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Speaker 3: you let him.

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Speaker 2: Do this for me?

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Speaker 4: For sure, I'll literally be doing I don't know, some

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Speaker 4: bad little kid like I right now would be walking

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Speaker 2: So, so he would call me at like at like

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Speaker 2: six in the morning and he would say, Tank, you can't.

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Speaker 2: You have to stop me. Stop in the comments. You

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Speaker 2: and I would I would let motherfuckers have it. And

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Speaker 2: because I felt personally attacked, I didn't know that they

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Speaker 2: weren't real people. I didn't. I didn't know that it

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Speaker 3: No, most of the people ain't real.

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Speaker 1: Some are, yes.

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Speaker 6: And when I say real in terms of ghost accounts, really.

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Speaker 2: Real conversations, right, because people are hiding behind things, and

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Speaker 2: rise something. It's not us sitting right here and you

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Speaker 1: It's not real. You're not gonna say that in my face.

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Speaker 2: But since you, you know, since you're hidding, you feel

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Speaker 2: me insane. Stop the funk ship as you just call it.

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Speaker 1: As you so eloquently.

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Speaker 6: Nigga ha a Twitter battle against a nigga with a

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Speaker 3: It's like, so I'm cussing myself out.

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Speaker 1: Because yeah, because wouldn't do this.

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Speaker 4: Like, so, do you look at the comments like all

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Speaker 2: No, not really, And if I and I look at

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Speaker 2: That's not like, uh got it. It doesn't matter in

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Speaker 2: That's not what that world is for. The truth is

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Speaker 4: And this ship mm hmm, that's nice, wise words.

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Speaker 1: Giving you my old man.

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Speaker 3: I got a feeling you'd be looking at the comments

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Speaker 5: I'm an angel.

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Speaker 4: No, so I actually used to read all the comments

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Speaker 5: This mind does, yeah, exactly. And I used to read.

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Speaker 4: The negative ones would stick out so hard, and then

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Speaker 2: Yeah, where people don't realize, right, you never win that.

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Speaker 2: It's an ongoing right, And so here's the part. Here's

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Speaker 2: the part he said something that was a long time ago.

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Speaker 2: He's like, you skip past all that love to respond

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Speaker 1: Ain't the man comment? Why not? Nigga? Why the fuck not? Yea?

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Speaker 2: Who do you think you are?

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Speaker 1: Who is you? Better not say? You better not reminded.

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Speaker 3: Me of that?

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Speaker 5: Have you seen that video?

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Speaker 4: This is new to me, by the way, because I

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Speaker 4: he's like, who do you think you are? Oh?

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Speaker 6: Yeah, have you seen that's his name?

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Speaker 3: Doesn't feel something?

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Speaker 6: Yes, yes, yes, I know exactly you talking about he'osuld

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Speaker 1: Who do you think you are?

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Speaker 2: I am?

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Speaker 4: After he gets to strike, it's so good.

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Speaker 1: Well we are now at this point we're mature.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm twenty six.

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Speaker 1: Okay to grow into this.

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Speaker 2: What we like to do at the Army Money Podcast

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Speaker 2: to go to the beginning, right of where somebody looked

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Speaker 2: You looked in the mirror one day and was like,

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Speaker 2: I'm nice with this. When was that moment? Probably young,

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Speaker 2: Probably started really young. Going through my notes, I say

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Speaker 2: it started really young for you. So let you tell

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Speaker 4: Yeah, so it starts when I was My mom says,

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Speaker 5: She taught me.

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Speaker 4: She was a teacher, so she taught me the ABC's early.

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Speaker 5: And then my mom was like yeah.

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Speaker 4: And then automatically she's just like she grew up in

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Speaker 5: I was doing pageants. I was taking.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, that was like four years old.

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Speaker 4: Crown those series, I have so many Crowns I have around, so.

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Speaker 2: I those are those are different though for people who

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Speaker 4: And I wasn't in None of them were like you

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Speaker 4: And the one that I did mostly my whole childhood.

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Speaker 4: it was in your head if you lost, that's what, yes,

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Speaker 4: Because no, like I'm undoing a lot of this shit

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Speaker 4: taught me how to be a great performer, how to

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Speaker 4: was like, oh I didn't say this answer right enough.

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Speaker 4: I have so much anxiety going on social media. Even

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Speaker 4: this gives me anxiety, like because I feel like if

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Speaker 4: of sentences, then I'm like gonna lose.

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Speaker 5: That's what's been built up in my head.

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Speaker 3: But we bring winners on here.

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Speaker 1: And we don't give a fuck.

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Speaker 6: We don't give this is we're entertaining ourselves.

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Speaker 1: This is a safe don't give a space.

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Speaker 2: You got a.

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Speaker 5: Crown, you know. Though, Like, even though there was all

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Speaker 5: that pressure, I did. I'm not trying to I mean,

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Speaker 5: I'll brag, but I.

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Speaker 4: Did win Almost every year I competed because I was

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Speaker 4: just myself, Like I would make funny ass faces on stage,

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Speaker 4: like I would do a lot of the ship that

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Speaker 4: because the whole thing is about being perfect. But I

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Speaker 5: But also be perfect.

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Speaker 4: I think it's because I was just They found it

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Speaker 2: Real because everybody has their their prop answers that were

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Speaker 5: I said, you give me a good topic early.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, how many years were your passions?

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Speaker 5: From four to like fifteen, four to fifteen?

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Speaker 6: I'm sorry, what, Yeah, this is a real thing. She's

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Speaker 5: It seemed like miss Universe.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because because I had an ex that was in

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Speaker 5: Did you feel like that was a personal attack on you?

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Speaker 2: I felt like I felt like it was an attack

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Speaker 1: So you're doing.

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Speaker 2: Pageants and all of these things. Mom says you're a star.

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Speaker 1: What did I said?

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Speaker 3: It was early eighteen eighteen. He just has bad man.

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Speaker 1: When is the singing recognized?

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Speaker 4: I think actually my stardom was recognized first because everyone

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Speaker 5: Like, she's a star. Oh my god, your daughter's a star.

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Speaker 4: Like it was always about like how hyper I was,

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Speaker 5: Yeah, it grew up a musical theater. Everything I've been.

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Speaker 3: Doing this trained.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it's still learning so much every day.

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Speaker 6: But that's the thing about music, theater, all these different things.

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Speaker 6: You never stopped learning. It's always something new, it's always evolving. So,

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Speaker 3: Thing that we have.

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Speaker 6: And then especially when you become a professional, because just

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Speaker 3: World.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, learning that was something I really That's that was

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Speaker 3: That's never easy.

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Speaker 6: That's never easy because it's just it gets thrown at

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Speaker 6: then as the artist, you have to find it in

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Speaker 3: And that's when it gets tricky.

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Speaker 2: In this business. It's tough because as artists, I think

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Speaker 2: of fashion. You know what I'm saying, finding that lesson

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Speaker 3: That's your friend, ain't your friend? That's your friend?

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Speaker 2: As your friend that that that that next check may.

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Speaker 1: Not come right?

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Speaker 3: Did the friend and put their name on the on

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Speaker 1: It's so much to worry.

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Speaker 4: If I could make my eye twitch, would twitch?

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Speaker 1: I have you been through some time?

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Speaker 3: This is what it is?

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Speaker 1: Though? Is what it is?

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Speaker 2: When is your When is your first moment of like, Okay,

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Speaker 2: it's time to really like the rubber.

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Speaker 1: Is starting to meet the road.

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Speaker 4: I think everything that came with X doing something was

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Speaker 4: when I really started to be like, oh okay, my

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Speaker 4: rent doesn't seem so scary. Now that's cool. So X

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Speaker 6: Was it like you had other situations before that, like

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Speaker 5: Kids bop.

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Speaker 1: But no checks at kids but not for me.

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Speaker 3: The niggas ain't got no checks at kids.

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Speaker 4: But sorry, jog on blast, Like this was a very

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Speaker 4: different time now, But at.

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Speaker 5: That time, yeah, I was not. Fuck I'm just gonna

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Speaker 4: I was not officially a kids Bop kid, even though

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Speaker 2: Remember the box, Yes, so the box this video channel

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Speaker 2: You could pay like ten to fifteen cents to order

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Speaker 3: No, No, it was some dollars, like some dollars or

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Speaker 2: Okay, so you order video and all of the video,

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Speaker 4: Because because you have seen clean, I only knew the

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Speaker 7: And sweet at the same.

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Speaker 1: I come here and raps.

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Speaker 7: I missed till the brother, you know, like get this, nigga.

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Speaker 1: Can't hang with us.

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Speaker 5: Damn about the anymore?

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Speaker 1: Did you say Bible?

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Speaker 6: So kids star They got labels and record deals, yeah,

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Speaker 4: No, I had no idea until they dropped me.

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Speaker 3: When you were signs for for two years.

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Speaker 4: Though, yeah, so in that time, I was just I was.

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Speaker 4: I moved to LA with my eighteen year old best

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Speaker 1: You came out to LA at sixteen by yourself, by yourself.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, And I was going back and forth for a

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Speaker 3: Got the record. The label was in La.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, No, well in New York most go to because

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Speaker 4: finally like nobody told me like, oh you have to

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Speaker 4: And so I was in a session one day and

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Speaker 5: And I was like okay.

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Speaker 4: So I met with these managers super cool, and then

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Speaker 4: basically at some point was just like listen, this shit's

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Speaker 5: I said, I was a really good kid.

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Speaker 4: My mum always told me like, as long as you

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Speaker 5: Keep by you.

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Speaker 3: They went from restricted, go fly, go for real for real.

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Speaker 4: So then, yeah, I came out to l A and

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Speaker 5: Fuck no, but I was teaching it.

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Speaker 4: Oh okay, I know.

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Speaker 6: Confused me too because I'm about to go into my

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Speaker 3: Like, so can you exactly.

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Speaker 5: To them to do it for real?

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Speaker 2: For real?

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Speaker 4: For real? I did have such a supportive mom and

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Speaker 4: the reason I did it, you know.

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Speaker 5: So I'm really lucky.

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Speaker 3: That I shut up.

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Speaker 1: Because it's like my mom.

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Speaker 2: My mom was as My mom and dad were as

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna be somebody. It was like, well, I mean,

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Speaker 2: and you know, but like you said, to have that

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna fight for that, for the for those words alone,

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00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:11,639
Speaker 2: because you believe in me. I'm gonna put in this

451
00:24:11,720 --> 00:24:14,520
Speaker 2: extra mile, you know what I mean, whatever fuel that is,

452
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:17,240
Speaker 2: whatever fuel you need to get you to the next breakthrough.

453
00:24:17,840 --> 00:24:21,960
Speaker 2: Like like, listen, I've been the star I've been. I've

454
00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:25,560
Speaker 2: needed security and then those same security guards wouldn't let

455
00:24:25,560 --> 00:24:30,840
Speaker 2: me in the club I've been. I get it, and

456
00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:33,320
Speaker 2: you just have to keep pounding until.

457
00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:38,920
Speaker 1: That next breakthrough. When is that next breakthrough? When does

458
00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:39,520
Speaker 1: that happen?

459
00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:46,040
Speaker 4: One? Yeah, like in my life now or about I'm like,

460
00:24:46,200 --> 00:24:48,320
Speaker 4: I don't know what tonight.

461
00:24:54,280 --> 00:25:00,240
Speaker 1: Both you get dropped out.

462
00:25:02,040 --> 00:25:03,160
Speaker 5: I cried about that part.

463
00:25:03,320 --> 00:25:07,560
Speaker 2: I love that you get dropped in seventeen you cried

464
00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:12,800
Speaker 2: the mom's I'm just gonna keep working. That work at

465
00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:15,440
Speaker 2: some point pays off. When is that?

466
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:20,440
Speaker 5: So? I actually the acting stuff paid off.

467
00:25:20,480 --> 00:25:20,800
Speaker 1: First.

468
00:25:22,119 --> 00:25:23,919
Speaker 5: I got a.

469
00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:28,800
Speaker 4: Role in Screamed TV series on MTV, which is great

470
00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:30,320
Speaker 4: because horror is my favorite genre.

471
00:25:31,040 --> 00:25:32,520
Speaker 5: So I was like, oh my god, I get to

472
00:25:32,560 --> 00:25:33,200
Speaker 5: die on a show.

473
00:25:33,960 --> 00:25:39,040
Speaker 4: I get that guy, and that's a whole other story

474
00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:40,120
Speaker 4: that will say for another time.

475
00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:42,200
Speaker 5: I had the best time dying.

476
00:25:42,840 --> 00:25:45,719
Speaker 1: So I were you on it for a minute though,

477
00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:46,200
Speaker 1: before you.

478
00:25:46,240 --> 00:25:48,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, I was ten episodes.

479
00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:51,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, ten, Yeah, that's called reoccurring. Yeah, recurrent.

480
00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:55,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know you've been around me kind of. It

481
00:25:55,320 --> 00:26:04,200
Speaker 1: was good.

482
00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:07,200
Speaker 4: Yeah.

483
00:26:07,240 --> 00:26:09,159
Speaker 5: So I got the role.

484
00:26:09,240 --> 00:26:12,879
Speaker 4: On Scream and that was, like, I mean, after so

485
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:14,920
Speaker 4: many years of nos, I was like, oh shit, I

486
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:16,320
Speaker 4: got a yes when I got the part, and then

487
00:26:16,359 --> 00:26:17,159
Speaker 4: I was like, oh.

488
00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 5: Should I still have to work? Like the yes is interesting. Yes,

489
00:26:20,240 --> 00:26:23,320
Speaker 5: It's like yes, and good job, Let's get to work.

490
00:26:23,760 --> 00:26:26,320
Speaker 4: So then moved to New Orleans for a little bit

491
00:26:26,440 --> 00:26:28,520
Speaker 4: to shoot the show, which also is my favorite place

492
00:26:28,520 --> 00:26:29,280
Speaker 4: in the entire world.

493
00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:31,960
Speaker 3: This is great, that's so beautiful.

494
00:26:32,880 --> 00:26:36,560
Speaker 4: It is so beautiful. So while I'm shooting that show

495
00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:43,199
Speaker 4: for those two years from when I'm fifteen to or no,

496
00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:46,120
Speaker 4: I got dropped to seventeen. So from seventeen to like nineteen,

497
00:26:46,760 --> 00:26:50,760
Speaker 4: for those two years, I was doing covers and releasing

498
00:26:50,760 --> 00:26:54,000
Speaker 4: covers every week, sometimes twice a week with one of

499
00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:57,159
Speaker 4: the producers and this producer duo that stuck with me

500
00:26:57,200 --> 00:26:59,040
Speaker 4: after I got dropped that had just started working, so

501
00:27:00,240 --> 00:27:01,120
Speaker 4: before they dropped me.

502
00:27:01,160 --> 00:27:04,520
Speaker 3: Yes, yeah, So how long are you doing the covers?

503
00:27:04,560 --> 00:27:07,639
Speaker 4: The covers, so I've been doing them now, probably for

504
00:27:07,720 --> 00:27:13,440
Speaker 4: like two years. And we did Hotline Bling and then

505
00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:19,280
Speaker 4: that one went ultra viral. And this was like at

506
00:27:19,280 --> 00:27:21,200
Speaker 4: the point where I was still pretty rare to get

507
00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:24,840
Speaker 4: a million views. And when I got my first million views,

508
00:27:24,880 --> 00:27:27,320
Speaker 4: I was like, like I couldn't believe it. I felt

509
00:27:27,320 --> 00:27:28,600
Speaker 4: like I was on top of the world. I was like,

510
00:27:28,640 --> 00:27:34,480
Speaker 4: what is going on? And so that happened while I

511
00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:36,240
Speaker 4: was shooting the show, so it was actually like a

512
00:27:36,240 --> 00:27:38,440
Speaker 4: perfect combination of everything happening at one time, and it

513
00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:40,480
Speaker 4: was just like, oh my god, Like my moment is

514
00:27:40,480 --> 00:27:41,879
Speaker 4: like starting up again, you know.

515
00:27:42,040 --> 00:27:43,480
Speaker 5: It felt amazing.

516
00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,040
Speaker 4: And after that, we just kept releasing covers and they

517
00:27:47,119 --> 00:27:47,960
Speaker 4: kept doing really well.

518
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:49,960
Speaker 5: And then I got a.

519
00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:54,040
Speaker 4: Call from my manager at the time and he was like,

520
00:27:54,119 --> 00:27:56,960
Speaker 4: all these regulators are caring me, like I think we

521
00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 4: should start talking, and I was like, oh my god.

522
00:28:00,119 --> 00:28:03,040
Speaker 4: And then I met with a few and then I

523
00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:09,359
Speaker 4: met with Republican. Republican I'm on now, they uh loved me.

524
00:28:09,520 --> 00:28:11,679
Speaker 4: We talked and I just felt like the right place

525
00:28:11,760 --> 00:28:12,040
Speaker 4: to be.

526
00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:14,520
Speaker 1: And then you got an advance.

527
00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:17,640
Speaker 5: Then I finally.

528
00:28:22,080 --> 00:28:23,679
Speaker 3: You know, you know my next question.

529
00:28:25,040 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 5: Yeah, Ace, Oh you know what.

530
00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:34,000
Speaker 4: Actually I think I put it into Yes, I did.

531
00:28:34,359 --> 00:28:37,840
Speaker 4: I put it into getting another car because I always

532
00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:40,360
Speaker 4: wrecked my cars back then, way better.

533
00:28:41,120 --> 00:28:43,600
Speaker 5: I probably could listen.

534
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:47,560
Speaker 4: I was sixteen, had my license for two weeks when

535
00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:51,480
Speaker 4: I had moved to LA. In the car, I was

536
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:54,360
Speaker 4: like six, So I learned how to drive in LA.

537
00:28:55,920 --> 00:28:56,920
Speaker 5: That's hard, you.

538
00:28:56,920 --> 00:29:04,640
Speaker 4: Guys, Okay, right if you say so, yeah, what it

539
00:29:04,720 --> 00:29:05,320
Speaker 4: was hard for me?

540
00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:07,720
Speaker 5: Total?

541
00:29:08,760 --> 00:29:12,800
Speaker 4: I think, yeah, without it being my fault.

542
00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:16,960
Speaker 1: Okay, seems like you have a gift.

543
00:29:16,800 --> 00:29:25,880
Speaker 4: With it being my fault or shared faults.

544
00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:27,840
Speaker 5: I know it is with insurance.

545
00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:29,640
Speaker 1: Split this down in the middle.

546
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:37,000
Speaker 4: Let me think one, two, probably four or five. Oh

547
00:29:37,080 --> 00:29:39,520
Speaker 4: so okay, let me rewind really quick. So I had

548
00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:43,600
Speaker 4: actually learned a lot about songwriting when I first came here, too,

549
00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:49,280
Speaker 4: because when I wasn't in gymnastics teaching gymnastics that didn't

550
00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:53,040
Speaker 4: know how to do, I was in sessions, and my

551
00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:57,640
Speaker 4: from some of my sessions, it got around that I

552
00:29:57,680 --> 00:29:58,880
Speaker 4: was the one singing the demos.

553
00:29:59,080 --> 00:29:59,840
Speaker 5: So then some of.

554
00:29:59,800 --> 00:30:03,640
Speaker 4: Like the biggest pop people, we're hearing my demos and

555
00:30:03,640 --> 00:30:05,040
Speaker 4: would want me to come in demo thing.

556
00:30:05,080 --> 00:30:06,320
Speaker 5: So that's how I made some money.

557
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:08,200
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, you know what.

558
00:30:08,560 --> 00:30:11,480
Speaker 6: No, No, before we go any further, No, because we

559
00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:15,040
Speaker 6: like to. We like to we like to highlight like

560
00:30:15,160 --> 00:30:17,760
Speaker 6: things that you can do while you're trying to survive

561
00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:21,120
Speaker 6: this thing like outside listen, And I want to say

562
00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:26,200
Speaker 6: I commend you for having a job, because a lot

563
00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:28,520
Speaker 6: of people feel like when they get in this thing,

564
00:30:29,360 --> 00:30:31,600
Speaker 6: I don't have to have a job. No more are

565
00:30:31,640 --> 00:30:34,160
Speaker 6: there above a job. No, you have to take care

566
00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:37,280
Speaker 6: of yourself. So if you got to go teach wherever,

567
00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:40,040
Speaker 6: if you got to lie and tell people you know

568
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:41,600
Speaker 6: how to flip and you don't know how to flip,

569
00:30:41,840 --> 00:30:45,400
Speaker 6: and you get a job teaching flips, give one.

570
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:47,600
Speaker 4: I mean, I worked at CBS when I had my

571
00:30:48,120 --> 00:30:49,040
Speaker 4: record deal, So.

572
00:30:49,160 --> 00:30:50,480
Speaker 1: I have to have a job.

573
00:30:50,840 --> 00:30:55,280
Speaker 6: Take care of yourself, Like, this is not something that

574
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:57,440
Speaker 6: we get in that people just think that you just.

575
00:30:57,480 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 1: Hit the lottery.

576
00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:00,760
Speaker 6: No, this is not how it works. This is the

577
00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:06,080
Speaker 6: real journey. Your journey is a very real journey. And

578
00:31:06,120 --> 00:31:08,800
Speaker 6: like I said, I commend you for this journey because

579
00:31:08,800 --> 00:31:12,000
Speaker 6: that is something special that you were even of the

580
00:31:12,120 --> 00:31:15,120
Speaker 6: mind and didn't get I'm only sixteen, I don't have

581
00:31:15,120 --> 00:31:16,880
Speaker 6: to get no job, or just.

582
00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:18,960
Speaker 2: Didn't stand on ceremony like I got a record deal.

583
00:31:19,000 --> 00:31:20,960
Speaker 2: What I look like with a job. And when you have.

584
00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:23,480
Speaker 6: This record deal, this said record deal, if they were

585
00:31:23,560 --> 00:31:30,160
Speaker 6: giving you money, you're incurring debt, which artists never realize

586
00:31:30,160 --> 00:31:33,280
Speaker 6: and pay attention to. It's like I'm living here, No

587
00:31:33,440 --> 00:31:37,040
Speaker 6: records are happening, nothing is going on. Yet, these sessions

588
00:31:37,040 --> 00:31:41,080
Speaker 6: are adding up, This rent money is adding up. All

589
00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:43,920
Speaker 6: these things are going against my account, taking away and

590
00:31:43,960 --> 00:31:47,000
Speaker 6: taking away because at some point, labels also look at

591
00:31:47,840 --> 00:31:50,920
Speaker 6: getting a little upside down, a little too much in

592
00:31:50,960 --> 00:31:51,680
Speaker 6: the red.

593
00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:55,400
Speaker 2: We in the red on your rent, on your soul.

594
00:31:55,840 --> 00:31:58,800
Speaker 2: So wen, it's gonna make us put less into.

595
00:31:59,160 --> 00:32:02,680
Speaker 3: The artists, artists, so go get your job.

596
00:32:03,440 --> 00:32:07,560
Speaker 4: Job. And also like, even if you do feel above it,

597
00:32:07,840 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 4: there's so much ship in the industry. You could be doing,

598
00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:13,680
Speaker 4: like literally from square one ship you could be doing.

599
00:32:14,080 --> 00:32:16,840
Speaker 4: You could be getting voice lessons or guitar lessons or whatever.

600
00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:24,160
Speaker 4: Set a TV exactly and get more experience while you're

601
00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:24,600
Speaker 4: doing it.

602
00:32:24,720 --> 00:32:27,480
Speaker 6: The fact that you were also demo singing for people

603
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:33,480
Speaker 6: as a sign artists, that does not happen. I've watched

604
00:32:33,520 --> 00:32:39,200
Speaker 6: so many artists struggle financially because they won't go do something.

605
00:32:39,760 --> 00:32:46,760
Speaker 1: It's like, wait, why it's music. Yeah, I'll do anything, surviving.

606
00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:51,160
Speaker 2: This ship, keyboard player, you need, you need some backgrounds.

607
00:32:52,160 --> 00:32:52,800
Speaker 5: I'm the same way.

608
00:32:52,840 --> 00:32:56,800
Speaker 4: But I feel like people people come to La or

609
00:32:56,840 --> 00:33:00,480
Speaker 4: go to New York or whatever for fame, and that's

610
00:33:00,560 --> 00:33:04,480
Speaker 4: just so it's such a it's so unattainable. It's like

611
00:33:04,560 --> 00:33:07,280
Speaker 4: such a horrible thing to have as your goal. Like,

612
00:33:08,120 --> 00:33:10,640
Speaker 4: if that's what you're looking for, we all know it

613
00:33:10,680 --> 00:33:15,160
Speaker 4: goes like this. Like so for that to be the

614
00:33:15,200 --> 00:33:17,479
Speaker 4: thing that's like holding you down and like keeping you

615
00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:19,960
Speaker 4: in a city and keeping you in industry, that's going

616
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:23,560
Speaker 4: to be a very empty, empty dream in a very

617
00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:28,040
Speaker 4: unfulfilling life in my eyes, because you're literally always trying

618
00:33:28,080 --> 00:33:32,200
Speaker 4: to chase a feeling rather than chasing the feeling that

619
00:33:32,320 --> 00:33:35,680
Speaker 4: music gives you. Like I was always taught that music

620
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:39,040
Speaker 4: was like was therapy. It was something that was really

621
00:33:39,120 --> 00:33:44,160
Speaker 4: genuine and authentic, and so it was never about fame

622
00:33:44,240 --> 00:33:45,880
Speaker 4: for me, no matter how many times people were like,

623
00:33:45,880 --> 00:33:47,880
Speaker 4: she's a star, she's a star, she's a star. And

624
00:33:47,920 --> 00:33:50,640
Speaker 4: my childhood it was never about that. For me. It

625
00:33:50,760 --> 00:33:55,920
Speaker 4: was about music and how it made people feel. I

626
00:33:55,960 --> 00:33:59,080
Speaker 4: do this not to make things about me, but to

627
00:33:59,160 --> 00:34:02,240
Speaker 4: make it about how we connect as people, and how

628
00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:04,720
Speaker 4: I connected my fans. I always say, like when people

629
00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 4: come up to me, First of all, I still don't

630
00:34:06,560 --> 00:34:06,920
Speaker 4: believe it.

631
00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:09,280
Speaker 5: It's still crazy to me when people.

632
00:34:09,040 --> 00:34:10,719
Speaker 4: Come up to me. It's not that they're coming up

633
00:34:10,760 --> 00:34:13,400
Speaker 4: to me because I'm so important. It's I've had a

634
00:34:13,440 --> 00:34:16,560
Speaker 4: certain effect the music had said, has had some sort

635
00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 4: of effect on them so deeply, that connection that it

636
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:23,319
Speaker 4: reminds them and they look at me and they're like,

637
00:34:23,560 --> 00:34:26,680
Speaker 4: oh shit, Like this is the person that's saying that

638
00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:29,520
Speaker 4: one song that made me feel like this, Like I

639
00:34:29,520 --> 00:34:31,520
Speaker 4: remember I was the ex girl for so long. I

640
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:34,080
Speaker 4: was the hotline blin girl for so long, and I

641
00:34:34,160 --> 00:34:36,759
Speaker 4: was okay with that. I didn't care if you knew

642
00:34:36,800 --> 00:34:39,279
Speaker 4: I was Keana. Like if I'm the hotline blin girl

643
00:34:39,320 --> 00:34:41,520
Speaker 4: and hotline bling made you feel good, I'm the fucking

644
00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:43,879
Speaker 4: hotline blinking So then so.

645
00:34:43,880 --> 00:34:46,399
Speaker 3: You're doing your own republic get the deal?

646
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:49,239
Speaker 1: Yeah?

647
00:34:49,280 --> 00:34:52,280
Speaker 3: How long is it until you get your hair record?

648
00:34:52,360 --> 00:34:53,960
Speaker 1: Though? How long? Like?

649
00:34:54,080 --> 00:34:57,400
Speaker 3: What's what's that end? Did you quit? Your job you

650
00:34:57,440 --> 00:34:59,120
Speaker 3: got when you got this deal? Did you quit your job?

651
00:34:59,719 --> 00:35:00,279
Speaker 4: Yeah?

652
00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:07,520
Speaker 5: I did. I think X was out.

653
00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:10,759
Speaker 4: I don't even remember how old I was. I'm not

654
00:35:10,760 --> 00:35:12,319
Speaker 4: I need to check the facts on that one, because

655
00:35:12,320 --> 00:35:14,480
Speaker 4: it all feels like one year up until this point.

656
00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:19,400
Speaker 4: But it was out for I think a year before.

657
00:35:20,360 --> 00:35:22,320
Speaker 4: It was like doing something on the radio.

658
00:35:22,840 --> 00:35:24,279
Speaker 3: Did you put it out? Like, did you leak it

659
00:35:24,400 --> 00:35:26,400
Speaker 3: or did the label? It was it like an official release?

660
00:35:26,480 --> 00:35:26,680
Speaker 6: It was?

661
00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:27,919
Speaker 3: It just wasn't catching at first.

662
00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:29,760
Speaker 4: Yeah, it was an official release, but it wasn't catching

663
00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:30,200
Speaker 4: at first.

664
00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:31,520
Speaker 5: But I feel like that's also like.

665
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:33,359
Speaker 4: R and B music, it takes a little bit of.

666
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:36,000
Speaker 3: Time too, you know, it's a slow burn with R

667
00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:36,160
Speaker 3: and B.

668
00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:40,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, so it wasn't. It wasn't a surprised me. It

669
00:35:40,239 --> 00:35:43,880
Speaker 4: was a surprise. I didn't really know what to expect.

670
00:35:43,800 --> 00:35:44,520
Speaker 3: It was when it did.

671
00:35:45,200 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 6: Was there something that that clicked or like, was it

672
00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:51,880
Speaker 6: a it popped on something or just over time people

673
00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:54,439
Speaker 6: just start taking to it, just overtime. So it wasn't

674
00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:57,080
Speaker 6: like a TikTok challenge that no kicked it off or

675
00:35:57,120 --> 00:35:57,719
Speaker 6: nothing like that.

676
00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:00,880
Speaker 4: No, when you guys find a TikTok song that I like,

677
00:36:01,040 --> 00:36:03,680
Speaker 4: that I can sing and everybody dances to it.

678
00:36:03,800 --> 00:36:06,400
Speaker 3: Let me know you like TikTok.

679
00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:10,239
Speaker 4: Isn't that I don't like the TikTok song. It's I

680
00:36:10,280 --> 00:36:13,319
Speaker 4: can't find I can't Okay.

681
00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,960
Speaker 1: You feel like was that shape?

682
00:36:16,960 --> 00:36:17,359
Speaker 2: It was not?

683
00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:18,320
Speaker 5: Shade was not shade?

684
00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:19,479
Speaker 3: Don't make TikTok song?

685
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:21,120
Speaker 1: No.

686
00:36:22,200 --> 00:36:23,880
Speaker 4: I actually did. Used to joke about that though. When

687
00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:26,359
Speaker 4: TikTok first came out during COVID, I used to call

688
00:36:26,400 --> 00:36:30,839
Speaker 4: it flip flaps and nick knocks and call it all

689
00:36:30,880 --> 00:36:34,120
Speaker 4: types of crazy shit. But that's because I'm like, oh,

690
00:36:34,239 --> 00:36:35,680
Speaker 4: I'm against social media in general.

691
00:36:35,719 --> 00:36:36,799
Speaker 5: I just hate social media.

692
00:36:36,840 --> 00:36:38,960
Speaker 4: But I understand that we have to do it for work,

693
00:36:39,360 --> 00:36:41,120
Speaker 4: so it literally feels like work to me. But I

694
00:36:41,160 --> 00:36:43,120
Speaker 4: just like hate. Even when I was in high school,

695
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:45,200
Speaker 4: middle school, all the ship, I stayed off of it,

696
00:36:45,320 --> 00:36:48,239
Speaker 4: like I did not like it. So I just don't

697
00:36:48,280 --> 00:36:50,120
Speaker 4: like social media in general. So when it first came out,

698
00:36:50,160 --> 00:36:54,440
Speaker 4: I was very resistant and we're like, yes, very anti okay.

699
00:36:54,520 --> 00:36:58,040
Speaker 2: So first of all, x Ex's Fire, thank you, super

700
00:36:58,080 --> 00:37:02,799
Speaker 2: super Fire and Platinum tough to do.

701
00:37:04,080 --> 00:37:05,120
Speaker 3: Where did you put your plaquet?

702
00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:08,600
Speaker 4: I actually don't have one yet.

703
00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:09,719
Speaker 1: I respect it.

704
00:37:09,760 --> 00:37:13,440
Speaker 6: I didn't have like listen, I purposely didn't for my

705
00:37:13,719 --> 00:37:15,280
Speaker 6: like the songwriter, I just wouldn't.

706
00:37:15,280 --> 00:37:16,680
Speaker 1: I didn't you don't want to play it, or you

707
00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:18,080
Speaker 1: just don't have I didn't want them for.

708
00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:18,560
Speaker 3: A long time.

709
00:37:18,680 --> 00:37:21,680
Speaker 4: It's not that I don't want it, it's that COVID happened,

710
00:37:22,040 --> 00:37:24,680
Speaker 4: so it stopped. Usually, like when I would get my plaques,

711
00:37:24,680 --> 00:37:26,680
Speaker 4: I would go to the label and it would be

712
00:37:26,719 --> 00:37:28,920
Speaker 4: like a whole presentation thing, and it was like it

713
00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:29,200
Speaker 4: was like.

714
00:37:29,480 --> 00:37:32,040
Speaker 1: More, well, I'll talk about it.

715
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:40,600
Speaker 2: I don't blacks come in for you.

716
00:37:41,440 --> 00:37:44,160
Speaker 1: We go to sky club and you know that's normally

717
00:37:44,239 --> 00:37:48,160
Speaker 1: what happens. You feel me.

718
00:37:50,640 --> 00:37:54,239
Speaker 4: No, Like when I got like my YouTube like a

719
00:37:54,400 --> 00:37:58,560
Speaker 4: million subscribers thing and some stuff.

720
00:37:58,239 --> 00:38:03,880
Speaker 6: Like call that talk that cool about your accomplishments, like

721
00:38:03,960 --> 00:38:06,040
Speaker 6: you earn ship.

722
00:38:06,400 --> 00:38:11,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, they need to know. Motherfucker's gotta know subscribers, subscribers.

723
00:38:11,840 --> 00:38:14,960
Speaker 2: They gotta know what subscribers is. People that's tuning in

724
00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:17,000
Speaker 2: on the motherfucking regular.

725
00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:22,000
Speaker 6: They got notifications, notifications they get they get a notifiation

726
00:38:22,280 --> 00:38:23,080
Speaker 6: when you're doing.

727
00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:28,680
Speaker 1: And they tune in you a million million up, you

728
00:38:28,719 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 1: know what I mean?

729
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:31,319
Speaker 2: People trying to get a hundred people to show up

730
00:38:32,360 --> 00:38:34,360
Speaker 2: you got a million that talk your plaques?

731
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:35,839
Speaker 3: She had a mean that means she got more, now

732
00:38:36,160 --> 00:38:36,440
Speaker 3: got more?

733
00:38:36,520 --> 00:38:41,160
Speaker 1: Now they talk? How ma you saying.

734
00:38:42,920 --> 00:38:51,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I like it getting on everybody, guys.

735
00:38:51,440 --> 00:38:54,280
Speaker 4: I'm here, I'm gonna remind myself.

736
00:38:55,239 --> 00:38:56,520
Speaker 5: Uh yeah, I know, I know.

737
00:38:56,600 --> 00:38:59,759
Speaker 4: I don't know why it's so hard for me to

738
00:39:00,160 --> 00:39:05,360
Speaker 4: like acknowledge my accomplishments and also like take credit for

739
00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:11,680
Speaker 4: shit like I am a million percent always like giving

740
00:39:11,680 --> 00:39:14,960
Speaker 4: flowers to my entire team, Like I know how much

741
00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:18,080
Speaker 4: it takes to do something. I couldn't fucking do this

742
00:39:18,120 --> 00:39:20,880
Speaker 4: shit about myself. Christine basicallyund my whole life, like she

743
00:39:21,040 --> 00:39:23,200
Speaker 4: is that bitch that's my manager. If you guys didn't

744
00:39:23,200 --> 00:39:30,000
Speaker 4: know what I was talking about, my daughter, you really did.

745
00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:33,200
Speaker 4: I like to use that with my stepdad as I

746
00:39:33,280 --> 00:39:39,760
Speaker 4: knew my mom before you did you.

747
00:39:43,080 --> 00:39:44,279
Speaker 5: Yeah?

748
00:39:44,680 --> 00:39:46,960
Speaker 4: But yeah, So, like I mean, Christine, I feel like

749
00:39:47,040 --> 00:39:51,360
Speaker 4: everybody else, I'm just the face of what the entire

750
00:39:51,400 --> 00:39:54,200
Speaker 4: team is working on. So that's also probably why it's

751
00:39:54,200 --> 00:40:02,799
Speaker 4: hard for me to like accept it, because I want

752
00:40:02,800 --> 00:40:06,960
Speaker 4: to give credit to everybody, and so it feels like

753
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:11,279
Speaker 4: it almost feel like selfish when I'm accepting these Well.

754
00:40:11,280 --> 00:40:12,839
Speaker 6: Let's Shout out the team right now, because it ain't

755
00:40:12,880 --> 00:40:14,640
Speaker 6: no ain't no clock on this right now.

756
00:40:14,640 --> 00:40:16,200
Speaker 3: Shout out the team, come on, come on.

757
00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:25,279
Speaker 4: Shout out to Christine first of all, okay, all the time.

758
00:40:28,160 --> 00:40:31,320
Speaker 4: Shout out to ten Summers, come on, come on, come on.

759
00:40:31,719 --> 00:40:34,480
Speaker 4: Shout out to l M A and Jesse J depending

760
00:40:34,520 --> 00:40:37,080
Speaker 4: on their tours. Also for being women and still doing

761
00:40:37,120 --> 00:40:37,879
Speaker 4: that talk.

762
00:40:38,680 --> 00:40:40,160
Speaker 1: No jealousy, no hate, no.

763
00:40:40,200 --> 00:40:41,320
Speaker 5: Jealousy, no hate.

764
00:40:41,360 --> 00:40:43,480
Speaker 4: No matter how much the industry wants to pin us together,

765
00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:45,480
Speaker 4: they said no, no.

766
00:40:46,600 --> 00:40:49,080
Speaker 5: Shout out to you guys for having me here. Shout

767
00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:49,960
Speaker 5: out to you guys.

768
00:40:49,719 --> 00:40:53,080
Speaker 3: Over there the shout outs.

769
00:40:53,760 --> 00:40:56,040
Speaker 4: It's just it's a good shout out to Republic.

770
00:40:56,400 --> 00:40:57,320
Speaker 1: Shout out Republic.

771
00:40:57,960 --> 00:40:59,719
Speaker 4: Shout out to my first label for let me go.

772
00:41:00,080 --> 00:41:01,040
Speaker 4: I could be somewhere else.

773
00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:03,719
Speaker 6: That's very important, very important, because they could have held

774
00:41:03,719 --> 00:41:07,000
Speaker 6: on to you. They could shout out to them, held

775
00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:08,480
Speaker 6: held you up.

776
00:41:10,480 --> 00:41:11,600
Speaker 3: Okay.

777
00:41:12,200 --> 00:41:14,440
Speaker 2: I also just want to say, I just want to

778
00:41:14,480 --> 00:41:19,759
Speaker 2: throw my two cents out there. Don't be afraid to

779
00:41:19,880 --> 00:41:25,360
Speaker 2: own it. You are who and what you are, and

780
00:41:26,000 --> 00:41:32,480
Speaker 2: it is okay to say I am her, I'm her.

781
00:41:34,239 --> 00:41:38,239
Speaker 2: Thank you to my team and everyone that helped make

782
00:41:38,280 --> 00:41:38,840
Speaker 2: this happen.

783
00:41:38,920 --> 00:41:43,359
Speaker 1: Thank you.

784
00:41:44,840 --> 00:41:45,799
Speaker 5: Yeah, and me, I.

785
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:51,400
Speaker 2: Like that because you know it's it's okay to to

786
00:41:51,640 --> 00:41:56,880
Speaker 2: appreciate yourself. It's okay to say, you know what, I

787
00:41:56,960 --> 00:41:59,759
Speaker 2: dug deep and we thought for that mm hmm. And

788
00:41:59,840 --> 00:42:03,759
Speaker 2: the recognize that in you, and that helps you identify

789
00:42:05,239 --> 00:42:08,520
Speaker 2: exactly what you're capable of, how much more you have

790
00:42:08,600 --> 00:42:10,160
Speaker 2: to do, how much more you can do, Like, all

791
00:42:10,160 --> 00:42:13,640
Speaker 2: of those things are important. Look at yourself and the man,

792
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:19,360
Speaker 2: I'm a bad motherfucker. You better notice sometimes sometimes a

793
00:42:19,400 --> 00:42:21,560
Speaker 2: motherfucker too would need to hear that from you. M

794
00:42:21,760 --> 00:42:26,319
Speaker 2: h what you're talking to I'm a bad motherfucker.

795
00:42:28,040 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 4: That to myself in the mirror.

796
00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:29,480
Speaker 1: Yeah.

797
00:42:29,960 --> 00:42:37,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've been on tour. No pay god deals, no advances.

798
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:40,600
Speaker 1: You see what I'm saying. They're not gonna do that again.

799
00:42:44,160 --> 00:42:47,200
Speaker 3: You paid your dues. You paid your dues for sure.

800
00:42:48,120 --> 00:42:50,680
Speaker 1: Okay. Now, what's what's next? What's going on? Talking to.

801
00:42:52,400 --> 00:42:54,080
Speaker 5: In the story? Are we now present day?

802
00:42:54,680 --> 00:42:57,000
Speaker 1: Right now? You are here? You just what did we

803
00:42:57,040 --> 00:42:59,400
Speaker 1: tell you earlier? Yeah, it's your world. We don't give up.

804
00:43:02,080 --> 00:43:10,080
Speaker 4: I forgot I am her, you are, I feel nicole,

805
00:43:13,040 --> 00:43:15,480
Speaker 4: all of us. So you're seeing those previous in the movies.

806
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:18,840
Speaker 4: Nicole was just like, we need the.

807
00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:20,600
Speaker 5: All of us.

808
00:43:20,640 --> 00:43:23,560
Speaker 4: Heartbreak feels good in a place like this sometimes I

809
00:43:23,600 --> 00:43:24,799
Speaker 4: want to like fall asleep to that.

810
00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:29,600
Speaker 2: No, I just want to understand. There's so many kids

811
00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:32,160
Speaker 2: here to see Spider Man, Like, what is she doing?

812
00:43:35,280 --> 00:43:35,760
Speaker 1: Sultry?

813
00:43:36,520 --> 00:43:43,280
Speaker 2: And if you're in this theater, you.

814
00:43:41,160 --> 00:43:44,640
Speaker 1: Yeah what I make?

815
00:43:46,880 --> 00:43:48,359
Speaker 5: Oh my god, that is good.

816
00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:51,600
Speaker 4: That's really what it feels like. That royalty is greeting

817
00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:53,239
Speaker 4: us and yeah, theater.

818
00:43:53,040 --> 00:43:57,440
Speaker 1: I'll take it. Okay. So now right now today, what

819
00:43:57,640 --> 00:43:58,560
Speaker 1: is happening.

820
00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:05,960
Speaker 4: To day? Well, I'm here with you guys, getting ready

821
00:44:06,000 --> 00:44:09,320
Speaker 4: to release the album.

822
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:10,560
Speaker 1: M what's the name of the album?

823
00:44:10,920 --> 00:44:11,600
Speaker 5: Grudges?

824
00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:12,200
Speaker 2: Oh?

825
00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:14,160
Speaker 3: I know?

826
00:44:14,400 --> 00:44:15,600
Speaker 4: Did that dig deep already?

827
00:44:16,040 --> 00:44:19,560
Speaker 1: That's exciting, like grudges. I like that. I love grudges.

828
00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:20,880
Speaker 4: Thanks?

829
00:44:21,040 --> 00:44:25,280
Speaker 3: Do you hold grudges? Boy?

830
00:44:25,520 --> 00:44:25,719
Speaker 1: Y'all?

831
00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:29,400
Speaker 6: Boy, listen, If you promised me something when I was five,

832
00:44:30,120 --> 00:44:31,360
Speaker 6: it still owe me.

833
00:44:31,880 --> 00:44:32,240
Speaker 4: Yes.

834
00:44:36,160 --> 00:44:38,080
Speaker 6: I ain't gonna say your name, but you're one of

835
00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:40,160
Speaker 6: my father's friends. You promised me a bike when I

836
00:44:40,200 --> 00:44:40,600
Speaker 6: was five.

837
00:44:41,239 --> 00:44:47,239
Speaker 1: Man, you did this again. It's you.

838
00:44:46,719 --> 00:44:49,359
Speaker 6: You can start and cannot ride with me in any

839
00:44:49,400 --> 00:44:57,680
Speaker 6: of my cars now, yeah, really car outside you can't

840
00:44:57,719 --> 00:44:59,960
Speaker 6: ride with us. She would have bought me that guy

841
00:45:00,040 --> 00:45:02,520
Speaker 6: and vick you and stopped trying to flost me because you.

842
00:45:02,440 --> 00:45:02,759
Speaker 1: Know what I mean.

843
00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:04,680
Speaker 3: He was around my daddy like you get the little

844
00:45:04,760 --> 00:45:07,160
Speaker 3: nigga bike man. You know what I mean?

845
00:45:07,000 --> 00:45:09,239
Speaker 1: You want we want to have You wanna bex.

846
00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:13,000
Speaker 3: Grudges? I'm holding mine.

847
00:45:13,120 --> 00:45:13,560
Speaker 1: It's cool.

848
00:45:16,239 --> 00:45:19,040
Speaker 4: I love grudges. I'm working on it though, I'm working

849
00:45:19,080 --> 00:45:22,879
Speaker 4: on being I'm trying. Okay, let me let me let

850
00:45:22,880 --> 00:45:26,719
Speaker 4: me rephrase that I'm trying to work on it. I

851
00:45:26,760 --> 00:45:28,360
Speaker 4: am journaling.

852
00:45:29,000 --> 00:45:33,719
Speaker 5: That's uh No. I think what I'm really doing now

853
00:45:34,040 --> 00:45:36,360
Speaker 5: is learning.

854
00:45:36,040 --> 00:45:41,360
Speaker 4: To forgive people that already hurts when I say it loud.

855
00:45:42,640 --> 00:45:47,359
Speaker 4: It's like I'm learning to forgive people because I have

856
00:45:47,440 --> 00:45:52,879
Speaker 4: no other choice for myself and like to not ever.

857
00:45:53,120 --> 00:45:56,319
Speaker 4: I just really try to be authentic and genuine and

858
00:45:56,400 --> 00:46:00,040
Speaker 4: loving to people. So I always ask my question. We

859
00:46:00,080 --> 00:46:03,279
Speaker 4: always do, like why would this person do this? Why

860
00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:07,440
Speaker 4: would they do this? And my best friend he just

861
00:46:07,440 --> 00:46:10,799
Speaker 4: passed away in August, and he that's okay, thank you,

862
00:46:10,880 --> 00:46:14,080
Speaker 4: And he would say to me, stop asking yourself that question,

863
00:46:14,120 --> 00:46:17,840
Speaker 4: because you'll never understand because you're not them. Everybody's different

864
00:46:18,520 --> 00:46:21,080
Speaker 4: and everyone lives by their own set of rules, and

865
00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:24,480
Speaker 4: that's fine. I just have to know what I put

866
00:46:24,560 --> 00:46:29,240
Speaker 4: up with. And once I decided like, hey, those morals

867
00:46:29,239 --> 00:46:31,560
Speaker 4: and rules just don't match up with mine, and that's okay.

868
00:46:32,040 --> 00:46:34,279
Speaker 4: So I don't have to now ask why would that

869
00:46:34,320 --> 00:46:36,080
Speaker 4: person do that? I just need to forgive them for

870
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:39,200
Speaker 4: having their own shit and decide it's not for me.

871
00:46:49,800 --> 00:47:03,160
Speaker 2: I know you're young. You are m hm singer Yeah,

872
00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:04,360
Speaker 2: an R and B singer.

873
00:47:04,480 --> 00:47:08,520
Speaker 6: Yeah, well trained, well trained since the Agent tree.

874
00:47:08,680 --> 00:47:12,799
Speaker 2: Just the age of Tree harmonies, since the tender age

875
00:47:12,800 --> 00:47:18,239
Speaker 2: of sixteen months. Yeah. So I know you have some

876
00:47:19,280 --> 00:47:22,800
Speaker 2: some favorites that you've been listening to all these years,

877
00:47:24,760 --> 00:47:29,560
Speaker 2: and we want you to put them into a top five,

878
00:47:32,920 --> 00:47:42,000
Speaker 2: your top five. Mm hmm, top five, your.

879
00:47:41,880 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 1: Top five only besing on that, bess ah, Well, you

880
00:48:07,160 --> 00:48:07,560
Speaker 1: want to know.

881
00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:10,239
Speaker 4: I want, I want to know. I want, I want

882
00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:12,080
Speaker 4: to know.

883
00:48:17,640 --> 00:48:22,360
Speaker 3: Yo fu.

884
00:48:35,560 --> 00:48:37,239
Speaker 6: Woo.

885
00:48:38,120 --> 00:48:41,600
Speaker 1: Some people feel me. I felt that some people feel me.

886
00:48:41,719 --> 00:48:43,040
Speaker 5: I thought you were going to do a couple more

887
00:48:43,080 --> 00:48:44,280
Speaker 5: of that high note at.

888
00:48:44,120 --> 00:48:45,279
Speaker 1: The end, though I was feeling it.

889
00:48:45,320 --> 00:48:46,680
Speaker 2: I was just, you know, I wanted to get to

890
00:48:46,760 --> 00:48:49,400
Speaker 2: your to the moment where you speak and talk.

891
00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:50,480
Speaker 4: I love that.

892
00:48:51,360 --> 00:48:58,240
Speaker 2: Kana mm hmmm. Your top five R and B singers,

893
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:10,000
Speaker 2: no particular order, no particular GENDERO, yes.

894
00:49:11,719 --> 00:49:20,839
Speaker 5: Yes, okay, it's kind of hard.

895
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:24,840
Speaker 4: Number one Jenne.

896
00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:32,680
Speaker 5: I just love her. She is always top of my list.

897
00:49:32,920 --> 00:49:37,719
Speaker 2: We love love. She's a vibe, but she's also very

898
00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:39,439
Speaker 2: technically sound. Yeah.

899
00:49:39,840 --> 00:49:40,279
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

900
00:49:41,000 --> 00:49:45,680
Speaker 2: She's just not singing to be singing like it's it's effortless.

901
00:49:45,719 --> 00:49:49,320
Speaker 2: There's a vibe there, but there is skill level.

902
00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:54,319
Speaker 6: Yeah, shut up, they got they got their whole thing

903
00:49:54,360 --> 00:49:56,640
Speaker 6: over there.

904
00:49:58,040 --> 00:50:04,719
Speaker 5: No, please give her usher mm hm million. I mean

905
00:50:04,840 --> 00:50:12,120
Speaker 5: I learned half of the runs I do from from Russia, Rihanna.

906
00:50:13,239 --> 00:50:16,120
Speaker 4: I have Rianna and Beyonce, which I think they both

907
00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:18,279
Speaker 4: kind of sit in the R and B for sure,

908
00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:22,480
Speaker 4: but also pop category because pop is popular.

909
00:50:23,840 --> 00:50:24,080
Speaker 1: Artist.

910
00:50:24,280 --> 00:50:27,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, if not the most one of the most incredible

911
00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:39,239
Speaker 4: performers we have ever period period period. And yeah, are

912
00:50:39,280 --> 00:50:47,200
Speaker 4: you It was so like gentle I said, I'm in

913
00:50:47,239 --> 00:50:47,760
Speaker 4: the behalf.

914
00:50:51,320 --> 00:50:51,879
Speaker 1: That was good.

915
00:50:52,680 --> 00:50:58,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean she's been she's been her absolutely, she'd

916
00:50:58,120 --> 00:51:01,520
Speaker 4: be fucking doing her ship. So Beyonce shout out to

917
00:51:01,520 --> 00:51:06,719
Speaker 4: Beyonce and then Frank Frank Ocean R.

918
00:51:06,719 --> 00:51:11,120
Speaker 2: And B songs. Yeah, you smiling like you got it together.

919
00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:15,799
Speaker 4: I was just watching the video. I realized I had

920
00:51:15,840 --> 00:51:19,560
Speaker 4: never watched it. But Pretty One's by Maxwell like one

921
00:51:19,640 --> 00:51:22,520
Speaker 4: of my favorite songs ever, and I've loved it since

922
00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:29,799
Speaker 4: I was younger. Lesson learned Alicia that song. I was

923
00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:33,400
Speaker 4: singing that song when I was in like third grade,

924
00:51:33,680 --> 00:51:37,480
Speaker 4: like walking around the park singing it, crying like I

925
00:51:37,560 --> 00:51:40,880
Speaker 4: knew about heartbreak, which I did, I didn't know about

926
00:51:40,920 --> 00:51:42,120
Speaker 4: the type of heartbreak you get.

927
00:51:42,600 --> 00:51:43,319
Speaker 1: I feel.

928
00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:46,640
Speaker 4: I'm sorry I had to look for my next one.

929
00:51:47,120 --> 00:51:48,280
Speaker 5: Oh Gibbers by Ryan.

930
00:51:48,200 --> 00:51:54,480
Speaker 3: Leslie, Ryan less Monster, give it up for.

931
00:51:58,719 --> 00:51:59,200
Speaker 4: So Good.

932
00:52:01,040 --> 00:52:02,879
Speaker 5: Eternal Sunshine by Janet.

933
00:52:05,400 --> 00:52:08,920
Speaker 4: I love that song because in the video too, you

934
00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:11,600
Speaker 4: can see she's like laying on a street and there's

935
00:52:11,640 --> 00:52:15,440
Speaker 4: a car accident in the back. And she had written it.

936
00:52:15,440 --> 00:52:20,279
Speaker 4: From my understanding, she had written it about how her

937
00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:25,720
Speaker 4: brother watches over her family. When her and her daughter

938
00:52:25,800 --> 00:52:29,040
Speaker 4: and her daughter's father were in the car, they had

939
00:52:29,120 --> 00:52:32,839
Speaker 4: an accident that they were supposed to like really not

940
00:52:32,880 --> 00:52:37,640
Speaker 4: be okay from, and they made it out. And that

941
00:52:37,760 --> 00:52:46,520
Speaker 4: song always spoke to me. But I was freaking out

942
00:52:46,520 --> 00:52:52,560
Speaker 4: about death for like a year and some change, and

943
00:52:52,640 --> 00:52:55,000
Speaker 4: just about how we have no control over it. I

944
00:52:55,080 --> 00:52:58,720
Speaker 4: never want to die scared of death, scared of anyone else.

945
00:52:58,800 --> 00:53:02,239
Speaker 4: Like my thing about death is like not only like

946
00:53:02,320 --> 00:53:07,759
Speaker 4: losing someone that's passed, but losing everyone when I pass,

947
00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:12,040
Speaker 4: Like I'm scared to miss everybody that I met in

948
00:53:12,080 --> 00:53:16,000
Speaker 4: this lifetime, you know. And so that's been something that

949
00:53:16,040 --> 00:53:19,040
Speaker 4: I was constantly thinking about. And then I lost my

950
00:53:19,080 --> 00:53:24,120
Speaker 4: best friend and it was real to me, like that

951
00:53:24,280 --> 00:53:30,440
Speaker 4: fear was validated, and I did feel this sense of

952
00:53:31,080 --> 00:53:35,600
Speaker 4: like we really don't have control, so we really have

953
00:53:35,680 --> 00:53:41,279
Speaker 4: to take every moment and live it fully. Before my

954
00:53:41,320 --> 00:53:46,040
Speaker 4: best friend passed away, I performed at Soul Bloom and

955
00:53:46,160 --> 00:53:49,080
Speaker 4: Janet was the headliner and.

956
00:53:50,800 --> 00:53:51,359
Speaker 5: I was.

957
00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:56,759
Speaker 4: Listening to her, and then her very last song she

958
00:53:56,800 --> 00:54:01,400
Speaker 4: did was Eternal Sunshine and there was like bubbles. I

959
00:54:01,440 --> 00:54:03,360
Speaker 4: was high as fuck on mushrooms too, so it was

960
00:54:03,400 --> 00:54:07,040
Speaker 4: like whoa. But because I was freaking out about death

961
00:54:07,040 --> 00:54:11,680
Speaker 4: for so long, I was crying so hard. And then

962
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:13,719
Speaker 4: that was a moment for me because Jane knew she

963
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:15,560
Speaker 4: asked me for a picture, so I was freaking out.

964
00:54:16,640 --> 00:54:18,040
Speaker 5: I didn't know what to do with myself.

965
00:54:19,719 --> 00:54:24,399
Speaker 4: And then after my best friend had passed away three

966
00:54:24,480 --> 00:54:27,480
Speaker 4: days later, I was in Atlanta because I had to

967
00:54:27,520 --> 00:54:30,720
Speaker 4: go perform somewhere, and I was just like so sad

968
00:54:30,760 --> 00:54:33,000
Speaker 4: because we needed to move the IDAs out of his

969
00:54:33,040 --> 00:54:34,560
Speaker 4: apartment and there was a lot of shit we had

970
00:54:34,560 --> 00:54:36,759
Speaker 4: to do and I couldn't be there for that, and

971
00:54:36,880 --> 00:54:38,759
Speaker 4: so it like broke my heart. And I was going

972
00:54:38,800 --> 00:54:42,880
Speaker 4: through all this like shock and grief and shit, and

973
00:54:43,000 --> 00:54:46,319
Speaker 4: it was just Christina and I and Atlanta, and we

974
00:54:46,320 --> 00:54:49,359
Speaker 4: were at this restaurant and I just really started thinking

975
00:54:49,440 --> 00:54:55,960
Speaker 4: about how uh he was murdered, and I started thinking

976
00:54:55,960 --> 00:54:58,400
Speaker 4: about how everything happened, because it's like that was like

977
00:54:58,520 --> 00:55:03,439
Speaker 4: really a really traumatic thing and sudden. And so as

978
00:55:03,440 --> 00:55:05,560
Speaker 4: I'm like about to cry in this brunch spot, I

979
00:55:05,560 --> 00:55:07,040
Speaker 4: think I was crying, and then I went to the

980
00:55:07,040 --> 00:55:08,480
Speaker 4: bathroom and I was like, I go to the bathroom.

981
00:55:08,520 --> 00:55:10,760
Speaker 4: I don't want to like cry in front of these people.

982
00:55:12,239 --> 00:55:16,920
Speaker 4: That song in this brunch spot starts playing and he

983
00:55:17,080 --> 00:55:23,520
Speaker 4: knows like how much I loved Janey and what like

984
00:55:24,160 --> 00:55:27,120
Speaker 4: that song means to me, And it just really came

985
00:55:27,160 --> 00:55:28,280
Speaker 4: full circle.

986
00:55:29,400 --> 00:55:33,080
Speaker 5: And she says, well, I've.

987
00:55:32,920 --> 00:55:34,920
Speaker 4: Seen the more that I know I don't know anything

988
00:55:34,960 --> 00:55:36,800
Speaker 4: at all, the more that I breathed and start to

989
00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:38,879
Speaker 4: go slow, Oh, all the many things, I can only

990
00:55:38,960 --> 00:55:42,439
Speaker 4: recall only the good things, good things, only the good things.

991
00:55:42,480 --> 00:55:46,160
Speaker 4: And it was like he's telling me that he's okay.

992
00:55:46,280 --> 00:55:48,719
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, he's telling me that.

993
00:55:51,400 --> 00:55:55,840
Speaker 4: Whatever things he experienced in his life, the good things

994
00:55:55,840 --> 00:55:59,080
Speaker 4: are what he's taking with him in whatever energy he's

995
00:55:59,160 --> 00:56:05,200
Speaker 4: leaving with you know. And I felt, really I'm like

996
00:56:05,280 --> 00:56:08,319
Speaker 4: crying and like singing the song and like talking to

997
00:56:08,400 --> 00:56:11,520
Speaker 4: him in the bathroom, Like whoever would have been in

998
00:56:11,560 --> 00:56:13,400
Speaker 4: that bathroom would have been like what the fuck is

999
00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:16,000
Speaker 4: going on? But like I'm talking to him out loud

1000
00:56:16,040 --> 00:56:19,080
Speaker 4: in the bathroom and I'm just like, okay, I get it,

1001
00:56:19,239 --> 00:56:20,240
Speaker 4: Like you're.

1002
00:56:20,080 --> 00:56:21,960
Speaker 5: Okay, I'm gonna be fine.

1003
00:56:22,000 --> 00:56:23,600
Speaker 4: Because he was also that person like I would cry

1004
00:56:23,600 --> 00:56:25,640
Speaker 4: to him a lot, and like every time I would

1005
00:56:25,680 --> 00:56:28,640
Speaker 4: cry to him, he'd be like it's gonna be okay.

1006
00:56:28,719 --> 00:56:30,920
Speaker 4: Like he would like pinch me or some shit and

1007
00:56:30,960 --> 00:56:32,640
Speaker 4: like joke with me. But then he would just like

1008
00:56:32,719 --> 00:56:34,640
Speaker 4: put his hands on my shoulders and smile and be

1009
00:56:34,719 --> 00:56:38,719
Speaker 4: like it's okay, Like You're gonna be okay. And so

1010
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:42,200
Speaker 4: that song felt really like perfect and comforting, and I

1011
00:56:42,239 --> 00:56:47,920
Speaker 4: really do think he put that energy into the world

1012
00:56:47,960 --> 00:56:50,400
Speaker 4: for that song. To come to me and play for me.

1013
00:56:50,480 --> 00:56:52,680
Speaker 4: So it has a really special place in my heart

1014
00:56:52,920 --> 00:56:55,200
Speaker 4: with that. I mean, obviously it's an incredible song, but

1015
00:56:55,239 --> 00:56:58,080
Speaker 4: that song just has even more meaning to me now

1016
00:56:58,760 --> 00:57:02,719
Speaker 4: to music, do to do, Yeah, for real, for real.

1017
00:57:05,400 --> 00:57:09,480
Speaker 4: And then my last one is lost Onelivan.

1018
00:57:10,800 --> 00:57:12,960
Speaker 5: That song she's just singing on.

1019
00:57:12,960 --> 00:57:18,440
Speaker 4: A whole other level and is different, different.

1020
00:57:18,400 --> 00:57:21,880
Speaker 3: Different, different. It's some people that I hear singing.

1021
00:57:21,680 --> 00:57:25,560
Speaker 4: I'm like, how right, how how.

1022
00:57:25,400 --> 00:57:26,520
Speaker 3: Do you sing this way?

1023
00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:30,120
Speaker 1: Let's get to your volt trump. Oh yeah, we're gonna

1024
00:57:30,480 --> 00:57:31,640
Speaker 1: create your.

1025
00:57:32,680 --> 00:57:36,320
Speaker 2: Your R and B artists. You're making the greatest R

1026
00:57:36,320 --> 00:57:38,880
Speaker 2: and B artists of all time, and you're gonna take

1027
00:57:39,560 --> 00:57:42,960
Speaker 2: You're gonna grab the vocal from somebody. You're gonna you're

1028
00:57:42,960 --> 00:57:47,920
Speaker 2: gonna grab the styling from somebody, the performance style from somebody,

1029
00:57:48,200 --> 00:57:50,920
Speaker 2: and the passion of the artist, the heart of the artist.

1030
00:57:51,320 --> 00:57:54,320
Speaker 2: If you're making your perfect R and B artists, who

1031
00:57:54,360 --> 00:57:57,160
Speaker 2: are you getting the vocal from?

1032
00:57:57,320 --> 00:57:59,440
Speaker 4: I think I'm getting the vocal from Brandy.

1033
00:58:00,280 --> 00:58:01,040
Speaker 1: That's where you're gonna go.

1034
00:58:02,080 --> 00:58:03,400
Speaker 3: Ye, very vocal.

1035
00:58:03,760 --> 00:58:06,600
Speaker 5: Yeah, her tone is just like.

1036
00:58:06,840 --> 00:58:07,360
Speaker 3: Out there.

1037
00:58:09,320 --> 00:58:16,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh you wow, Okay, who are you getting the

1038
00:58:16,720 --> 00:58:17,800
Speaker 2: styling from?

1039
00:58:18,560 --> 00:58:23,720
Speaker 1: What they're putting on. Who got that drip that you like?

1040
00:58:23,800 --> 00:58:24,520
Speaker 1: That appeals?

1041
00:58:26,600 --> 00:58:33,800
Speaker 6: I think Mariah hm hmm Mariah big gowns the versatility.

1042
00:58:34,000 --> 00:58:37,680
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, she does it all high to the grocery store.

1043
00:58:37,840 --> 00:58:40,120
Speaker 1: She can go from the gown to the Daisy Dukes.

1044
00:58:40,440 --> 00:58:51,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, Mariah, Okay, yeah.

1045
00:58:52,280 --> 00:58:52,680
Speaker 5: Out.

1046
00:58:54,880 --> 00:58:55,880
Speaker 4: Dinosaur outside.

1047
00:58:55,880 --> 00:58:58,200
Speaker 1: What was that? It's fine?

1048
00:58:59,040 --> 00:59:05,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's good.

1049
00:59:07,040 --> 00:59:11,240
Speaker 1: Okay, we got to keep that too. Who are you

1050
00:59:11,280 --> 00:59:13,160
Speaker 1: getting the performance style.

1051
00:59:12,960 --> 00:59:16,120
Speaker 2: From on stage?

1052
00:59:16,400 --> 00:59:17,280
Speaker 1: Going crazy?

1053
00:59:19,040 --> 00:59:19,440
Speaker 4: Beyonce?

1054
00:59:20,040 --> 00:59:20,440
Speaker 2: Why not?

1055
00:59:21,520 --> 00:59:25,760
Speaker 1: Why not go for it? I like where you're going

1056
00:59:25,800 --> 00:59:28,320
Speaker 1: with this, even all females is getting.

1057
00:59:28,840 --> 00:59:29,280
Speaker 4: Fuck you.

1058
00:59:32,040 --> 00:59:34,280
Speaker 1: Like it? Okay, all right, all right, we got one

1059
00:59:34,320 --> 00:59:36,640
Speaker 1: more thing. Who are you getting the passion from the

1060
00:59:36,680 --> 00:59:38,000
Speaker 1: heart of the at the heart.

1061
00:59:37,920 --> 00:59:42,520
Speaker 5: Rihanna m m yeah. I want that attitude.

1062
00:59:42,280 --> 00:59:47,000
Speaker 4: Like she is for her ship, but she also has

1063
00:59:47,040 --> 00:59:50,080
Speaker 4: that like kindness in her heart and she's able to

1064
00:59:50,280 --> 00:59:52,680
Speaker 4: fucking go off, but also like.

1065
00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:54,320
Speaker 5: Get down with that.

1066
00:59:54,400 --> 01:00:00,320
Speaker 4: What's that six songs she got up all the brain

1067
01:00:00,480 --> 01:00:01,040
Speaker 4: that one.

1068
01:00:03,360 --> 01:00:13,360
Speaker 5: Just get you? Yeah, yeah, she goes off.

1069
01:00:14,800 --> 01:00:16,680
Speaker 1: I like, I like, I like what you did.

1070
01:00:16,560 --> 01:00:17,360
Speaker 4: There, thank you.

1071
01:00:17,680 --> 01:00:18,520
Speaker 5: I feel good about that.

1072
01:00:18,760 --> 01:00:19,760
Speaker 1: No, no, no, ship.

1073
01:00:19,840 --> 01:00:22,320
Speaker 4: I'm really indecisive. So that was I'm proud of myself.

1074
01:00:22,480 --> 01:00:26,880
Speaker 6: I said, cold vote Trump, cold vote Trump, Oh, female vote,

1075
01:00:27,000 --> 01:00:29,960
Speaker 6: that's the best of the best. I like you say,

1076
01:00:30,000 --> 01:00:33,680
Speaker 6: I'm rolling. I'm rolling, but we got some way. He's

1077
01:00:33,720 --> 01:00:34,600
Speaker 6: back on this piano.

1078
01:00:34,800 --> 01:00:35,360
Speaker 4: I love it.

1079
01:00:35,440 --> 01:00:36,120
Speaker 2: Know what's coming.

1080
01:00:41,360 --> 01:00:44,320
Speaker 1: I ain't saying no names. I ain't saying no names.

1081
01:00:44,600 --> 01:00:45,880
Speaker 1: I ain't saying no names.

1082
01:00:46,320 --> 01:00:50,200
Speaker 2: Ain't saying no names. Were was weird.

1083
01:00:50,680 --> 01:00:56,680
Speaker 1: What you did? Don't say she I ain't saying no name.

1084
01:01:03,640 --> 01:01:11,680
Speaker 6: Yeah, very very very important segment, very important part of

1085
01:01:11,680 --> 01:01:14,840
Speaker 6: the show. It's called I ain't saying no that. We

1086
01:01:14,960 --> 01:01:18,120
Speaker 6: tell us a story funny or fucked up? Are funny

1087
01:01:18,240 --> 01:01:22,120
Speaker 6: and fucked up about your travels, your journey and.

1088
01:01:22,080 --> 01:01:27,520
Speaker 3: This ship the only thing, And you tell us this story.

1089
01:01:28,280 --> 01:01:30,320
Speaker 3: You can't say no names names.

1090
01:01:32,400 --> 01:01:34,240
Speaker 6: You know, we talk about one of the grudges if

1091
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:36,720
Speaker 6: you want to you know what I mean. I know,

1092
01:01:36,800 --> 01:01:38,880
Speaker 6: I know you probably got a studio grudge or something something.

1093
01:01:38,880 --> 01:01:41,280
Speaker 6: You got some grudges, somebody, somebody didn't pay you for

1094
01:01:41,320 --> 01:01:42,160
Speaker 6: one demo.

1095
01:01:41,960 --> 01:01:42,600
Speaker 1: You got some ship.

1096
01:01:45,560 --> 01:01:46,840
Speaker 4: There's so many things I want to say, but I

1097
01:01:46,840 --> 01:01:47,400
Speaker 4: got an nda.

1098
01:01:47,480 --> 01:01:55,960
Speaker 1: You guys, oh ship, actually ship. I love that. I

1099
01:01:56,040 --> 01:01:56,520
Speaker 1: love that.

1100
01:01:58,160 --> 01:01:59,320
Speaker 5: I'm sure you do.

1101
01:02:00,080 --> 01:02:02,480
Speaker 3: We're not gonna get you soup mid Well neal today.

1102
01:02:02,520 --> 01:02:03,600
Speaker 4: Maybe they won't remember this one.

1103
01:02:07,280 --> 01:02:09,880
Speaker 5: They Yeah, they probably won't remember.

1104
01:02:11,000 --> 01:02:15,080
Speaker 4: This is fucked up, stuck good, and this is something

1105
01:02:15,080 --> 01:02:17,320
Speaker 4: that women have to deal with in the industry, you know,

1106
01:02:18,360 --> 01:02:23,320
Speaker 4: mostly women. I was talking to some people that I

1107
01:02:23,360 --> 01:02:28,680
Speaker 4: was working with and it was around my birthday and

1108
01:02:28,720 --> 01:02:34,880
Speaker 4: I was turning twenty one, and these people were like,

1109
01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:38,640
Speaker 4: I think you should lie about your age. I said,

1110
01:02:39,600 --> 01:02:42,160
Speaker 4: I'm twenty one, and they were like, but I think,

1111
01:02:42,240 --> 01:02:44,120
Speaker 4: like it's a good idea for you to say you're twenty.

1112
01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:47,600
Speaker 4: I was like, what is one year going to do?

1113
01:02:48,720 --> 01:02:50,680
Speaker 4: And they were like, people lie about their age all

1114
01:02:50,720 --> 01:02:54,160
Speaker 4: the time. This person thirty this versus twenty seven this person.

1115
01:02:54,840 --> 01:02:59,439
Speaker 4: And I was like, but I'm twenty one, like twenty one.

1116
01:02:59,520 --> 01:03:01,400
Speaker 4: I really don't think it's a big deal.

1117
01:03:01,720 --> 01:03:02,280
Speaker 5: One year.

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Speaker 4: I think I'm good and I think like they probably

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Speaker 4: thought I could go under the radar and say I

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Speaker 4: was twenty for another like three years you thought I

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Speaker 4: was twenty three, right, Yeah, maybe i'm twenty three today,

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Speaker 4: I'm twenty three. People didn't about money, were they there

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Speaker 4: when I was born?

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Speaker 1: And they just wanted you to lie about your age.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, for one year.

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Speaker 4: Yep.

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Speaker 3: All the time, they thought that was going to get

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Speaker 3: you more cracking.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, they thought it was it was gonna give me

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Speaker 4: one more year to have a chance to be successful.

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Speaker 2: What yeah, yeah, twenty to twenty one. H see, because

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Speaker 2: if you aren't legal, legal, illegal drinker yet, then this

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Speaker 2: is a certain innocence that remains.

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Speaker 5: Exactly.

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Speaker 4: It's based off of this like wanting to keep women

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01:04:01,960 --> 01:04:07,520
Speaker 4: into this like weird, young innocent, naive. I always call it,

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01:04:07,560 --> 01:04:11,480
Speaker 4: like like people want well also it's this mentality of

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01:04:11,520 --> 01:04:13,120
Speaker 4: like you market.

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Speaker 5: For men, like you want to be hot, right.

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Speaker 4: And I always say, like a lot of men want

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01:04:24,160 --> 01:04:30,480
Speaker 4: a porn star virgin, like they want that sexiness.

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Speaker 2: But also not at all.

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Speaker 4: The man that I was around at that time. Okay,

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01:04:40,400 --> 01:04:44,760
Speaker 4: almost every single one of them wanted a virgin.

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Speaker 1: What demographic.

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01:04:57,480 --> 01:04:59,959
Speaker 5: That's yeah.

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01:05:00,560 --> 01:05:03,120
Speaker 4: I mean it's like this thing that we battle to

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01:05:03,640 --> 01:05:10,280
Speaker 4: fucking not seem too mature, not seem too smart. Like

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Speaker 4: it's just gross.

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Speaker 1: I don't like it.

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01:05:13,000 --> 01:05:17,960
Speaker 4: I know. Yeah, you guys have daughters, yes obviously, so

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01:05:18,080 --> 01:05:20,320
Speaker 4: you get it, like you get.

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Speaker 2: But I think even from a taste standpoint, like I

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Speaker 2: a woman, Yeah, even if it's a young woman woman, Yeah,

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Speaker 2: with something to talk about.

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Speaker 4: But you know, I think these people were pretty successful

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01:05:41,920 --> 01:05:45,440
Speaker 4: in like the nineties early two thousands when it's like

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Speaker 4: Britney and like even Alicia.

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Speaker 5: You know, everyone was.

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Speaker 4: Like seventeen when they were coming out. So it gave

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Speaker 4: you a couple more years. It would give me a

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01:05:54,760 --> 01:05:57,120
Speaker 4: couple more years. If I was twenty, it would give

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Speaker 4: me at least one more year, because God forbid, I

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01:06:02,560 --> 01:06:04,919
Speaker 4: have my moment at twenty eight.

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01:06:06,160 --> 01:06:07,919
Speaker 1: God forbid, God forbid.

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01:06:07,920 --> 01:06:11,120
Speaker 2: But if you're twenty seven, do.

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Speaker 4: You have an extra year?

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Speaker 2: Sometimes?

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01:06:13,800 --> 01:06:15,880
Speaker 4: Crazy, that's fucked up.

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Speaker 1: Whatever this is gonna.

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01:06:17,520 --> 01:06:19,640
Speaker 2: Look like she's talking about some ship on this album,

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01:06:19,920 --> 01:06:22,120
Speaker 2: getting off her chest.

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01:06:22,720 --> 01:06:27,880
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, telling you what it is you're doing wrong.

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01:06:29,200 --> 01:06:32,680
Speaker 1: You're doing wrong, you did it wrong?

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Speaker 5: You want to song?

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