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Speaker 1: This is Wins and Losses with Clay Trevis. Play talks

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Speaker 1: Now here's Clay Trevis. Welcome in weekly podcast Wins and Losses.

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Speaker 1: I hope you guys are enjoying this series. We are

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Speaker 1: having a lot of fun. If you're enjoying it, go

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Speaker 1: our most recent guest, Joel Klatt. You can also make

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Speaker 1: fun of our current guest, Rachel Bonetta at Rachel Getta

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Speaker 1: on Twitter. She is already there and we are ready

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Speaker 1: every single weekday Monday to Friday, now that we're into

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Speaker 1: season two, from at four thirty Eastern, three thirty Central

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Speaker 1: I don't know a lot about Rachel Bonetta's back or

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Speaker 1: out some of this information myself. So Rachel, first of all,

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Speaker 1: thanks for coming on. First off, I'm really sorry I

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Speaker 1: can join the excited to be here, excited to chat

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Speaker 1: with you. Um, you're right. We worked together every single day,

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Speaker 1: and I think that we know kind of like surface

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Speaker 1: I mean, I would say more than surface level because

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Speaker 1: But that's how we're gonna start. We really don't talk

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Speaker 1: first of all, I hear what I Here's what I

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Speaker 1: So that's kind of what we were dealing with. And

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Speaker 1: that was tough for my mom also too. Like I said,

432
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Speaker 1: she's such a caregiver and her husband the love of

433
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Speaker 1: her life. They had such an amazing I'm so thankful

434
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Speaker 1: that my parents had an incredible relationship. They were married

435
00:20:52,080 --> 00:20:54,879
Speaker 1: for like thirty one years, um, and you know that

436
00:20:55,000 --> 00:20:57,120
Speaker 1: was like her first priority. So you know, you also

437
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Speaker 1: have this like blossoming young daughter who's trying to pursue

438
00:21:01,560 --> 00:21:04,280
Speaker 1: all of these things, but you know, your first priority

439
00:21:04,320 --> 00:21:06,080
Speaker 1: is going to be making sure that your husband can

440
00:21:06,119 --> 00:21:08,359
Speaker 1: get up and walk down the stairs because he couldn't

441
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Speaker 1: do that by himself. So it was a lot, it was.

442
00:21:11,880 --> 00:21:15,680
Speaker 1: It was a tough few years, sir. So from Mike

443
00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:18,440
Speaker 1: eight to sixteen, this is when this is going on. Yeah,

444
00:21:18,520 --> 00:21:23,120
Speaker 1: he passed away, she thought the way when I was seventeen, Um,

445
00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:27,280
Speaker 1: I graduated high school in June or whatever, and he

446
00:21:27,320 --> 00:21:31,920
Speaker 1: passed away that February, right before, right before you graduated.

447
00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:35,840
Speaker 1: So I mean a part of this is you probably

448
00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:37,600
Speaker 1: I don't know if you even like sit around and

449
00:21:37,640 --> 00:21:40,960
Speaker 1: try to psychoanalyze yourself a lot. But if you're sixteen

450
00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:43,200
Speaker 1: and you're so driven to grow up that you're doing

451
00:21:43,240 --> 00:21:47,199
Speaker 1: these reporting assignments, I mean, is that partly like you

452
00:21:47,240 --> 00:21:50,159
Speaker 1: were just ready to be off on your own because

453
00:21:50,280 --> 00:21:52,840
Speaker 1: in some way you had to kind of raise yourself,

454
00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:55,159
Speaker 1: right because your mom has to focus so much on

455
00:21:55,200 --> 00:21:57,920
Speaker 1: your dad. Yeah, no, absolutely, I talked about this in

456
00:21:57,960 --> 00:22:01,959
Speaker 1: therapy every week, but um, yeah, it's it's exactly that.

457
00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:05,800
Speaker 1: And it's, um there's like a fear as well, like

458
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Speaker 1: going home. I when it was just my dad and I,

459
00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:10,680
Speaker 1: like sometimes I'd be sitting in the living room and

460
00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:13,200
Speaker 1: I would here like a crash, and it was because

461
00:22:13,240 --> 00:22:15,480
Speaker 1: like my full grown father has fallen to the ground

462
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Speaker 1: and there's like a fifteen year old I have to

463
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Speaker 1: now pick up his like deadweight body and bring him

464
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Speaker 1: into the living room. Somebody can sit like that's not

465
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Speaker 1: only embarrassing for him and hard for him to deal with,

466
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Speaker 1: it's like, oh my god, I can't profess this, Like

467
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Speaker 1: what is this? And so I was constantly I never

468
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Speaker 1: ran away, per se, but I was always running away.

469
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Speaker 1: I was always trying to get out of that house.

470
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Speaker 1: I moved away as much as I wanted to support

471
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Speaker 1: my mom and stay home for even like a semester.

472
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Speaker 1: I went away to college as fast as I can

473
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Speaker 1: and and I was like always out of the house,

474
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Speaker 1: always at my boyfriend's house, who was like a disaster um.

475
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Speaker 1: And it was yeah, it was really it was a

476
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Speaker 1: really dark place. Home. Home's was a really dark place

477
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Speaker 1: for me the first eight years, not right when everything

478
00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:02,719
Speaker 1: before he got sick, and then it's like just all

479
00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:04,760
Speaker 1: of a sudden, the chapter changes in your life is

480
00:23:05,160 --> 00:23:07,960
Speaker 1: completely altered. Yeah, I mean the first eight years. I

481
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Speaker 1: think that that's why I am, you know. I feel

482
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Speaker 1: like there's this big goofy side to me, and I

483
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Speaker 1: feel like that comes from early on, like the first

484
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Speaker 1: eight years when I had like free range on creativity

485
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Speaker 1: and I had a great relationship with my parents, and

486
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Speaker 1: my parents had a great relationship, and my brothers and

487
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Speaker 1: I were always like goofing and laughing, and they introduced

488
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Speaker 1: me to comedy and and then I feel like around

489
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Speaker 1: like nine, that's when that joyful side just like culpit

490
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Speaker 1: and stopped. And I feel like a big part of

491
00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:41,000
Speaker 1: my life now is like trying to get that back

492
00:23:41,040 --> 00:23:44,000
Speaker 1: and and trying to really live in this like fun

493
00:23:44,080 --> 00:23:46,679
Speaker 1: space because I love that that, like we always talk

494
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Speaker 1: about in therapy, not to get too deep into this,

495
00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:53,200
Speaker 1: like but that, um my my kids like kid Rachel, Um,

496
00:23:53,240 --> 00:23:55,040
Speaker 1: you know, she needs to be taken care of because

497
00:23:55,640 --> 00:23:58,880
Speaker 1: around like eight or nine, she stopped having people look

498
00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:01,080
Speaker 1: looking out for her. She was looking out for herself

499
00:24:01,080 --> 00:24:05,800
Speaker 1: because everyone else was focused on my father and so, um, yeah,

500
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Speaker 1: it's a lots. It's a lot to deal with for

501
00:24:07,600 --> 00:24:10,240
Speaker 1: a really young kid. I didn't even know it, Like

502
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Speaker 1: I said, my mom couldn't even explain to me what

503
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Speaker 1: was happening at this point in my life because it's like,

504
00:24:17,480 --> 00:24:20,159
Speaker 1: how do we even tell how old are your kids? Clay, Like,

505
00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:22,240
Speaker 1: imagine telling them no. I mean that's what I'm thinking

506
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Speaker 1: about now. I've got eleven and eight and a four

507
00:24:24,400 --> 00:24:27,680
Speaker 1: year old, and so they've had explained to them totally

508
00:24:27,840 --> 00:24:31,600
Speaker 1: idyllic existence right now, and if if something like that happened,

509
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Speaker 1: it would be like they would be, you know, almost

510
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Speaker 1: full pedaling into a wall, right like everything is perfect

511
00:24:36,960 --> 00:24:39,920
Speaker 1: and then it's like a line of demarcation and everything

512
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Speaker 1: changes in their life. And I think there's probably a

513
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Speaker 1: lot of people out there listening right now who maybe

514
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Speaker 1: not have had as serious of an incident as you have,

515
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Speaker 1: but they can go to a point in their life

516
00:24:49,320 --> 00:24:53,400
Speaker 1: and be like this changed everything, right and and whatever

517
00:24:53,440 --> 00:24:57,000
Speaker 1: else comes afterwards, I can't get over what might have

518
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Speaker 1: happened at this age. By the way, you're listening to

519
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Speaker 1: Winds and Losses. I'm Clay Travis. We're talking with Rachel

520
00:25:02,160 --> 00:25:06,280
Speaker 1: Bonetta and so you you you're doing this thing at

521
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Speaker 1: sixteen years old. You're doing local news and and it's

522
00:25:09,040 --> 00:25:12,720
Speaker 1: interesting because you have a and I'm sure people here

523
00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:14,919
Speaker 1: as this goes on, if they watched the show, certainly

524
00:25:14,960 --> 00:25:18,720
Speaker 1: you know this. You have a really great sense of humor.

525
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Speaker 1: But a part of that a lot of times comedians

526
00:25:21,080 --> 00:25:23,639
Speaker 1: have great sense as a humor because it's a coping mechanism, right,

527
00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:27,640
Speaker 1: I mean, otherwise you just kind of wallow in, uh

528
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Speaker 1: in the things that are bad in your life, and

529
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Speaker 1: that's a way to escape the darkness, right, um. And

530
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Speaker 1: and I think the humor that you have, whether it's

531
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Speaker 1: on Instagram or on social media are certainly on our

532
00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:44,280
Speaker 1: show comes through a lot, but it's almost like a

533
00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:46,480
Speaker 1: self defense mechanism in some ways. Not to mean that

534
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:48,720
Speaker 1: you're not funny, but it's it's interesting where that comes

535
00:25:48,720 --> 00:25:51,480
Speaker 1: from Yeah, no, for sure. I mean my dad was

536
00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:54,199
Speaker 1: a very quick like honestly, and I think that a

537
00:25:54,200 --> 00:25:57,040
Speaker 1: lot of times he was always trying to lighten the

538
00:25:57,040 --> 00:25:59,240
Speaker 1: mood because he was sick and all of us, like

539
00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:01,840
Speaker 1: he probably felt from his daughter like, Oh, she's afraid

540
00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:03,960
Speaker 1: of me now because she's afraid of losing me. So

541
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:06,679
Speaker 1: she's gonna push me as far as she can away

542
00:26:06,720 --> 00:26:08,880
Speaker 1: because she doesn't want to get hurt. And so his

543
00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:11,520
Speaker 1: way of cracking the ice with me was being funny

544
00:26:11,600 --> 00:26:14,040
Speaker 1: and like watching funny things in same with my brothers,

545
00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:17,000
Speaker 1: like I was introduced to like sn L and SETV

546
00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:20,760
Speaker 1: and mad TV and in Living color, all of those

547
00:26:20,760 --> 00:26:23,680
Speaker 1: things when I was really young, because it was so

548
00:26:23,800 --> 00:26:26,960
Speaker 1: depressing in our household that what we watched at night

549
00:26:27,040 --> 00:26:29,479
Speaker 1: had to be something that made us laugh. And so

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Speaker 1: I'm thankful that I grew up in a in a

551
00:26:31,640 --> 00:26:33,480
Speaker 1: family that had a sense of humor and was able

552
00:26:33,520 --> 00:26:35,199
Speaker 1: to laugh about some stuff. Like my dad would make

553
00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:37,119
Speaker 1: jokes when he was bald and like had peach fuzz

554
00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:40,880
Speaker 1: and um, you know, he he was ridiculous and super goofy,

555
00:26:40,920 --> 00:26:43,640
Speaker 1: and I will hold those memories super close to my heart.

556
00:26:43,680 --> 00:26:45,720
Speaker 1: But um, that was definitely a way to all of it.

557
00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:47,639
Speaker 1: It wasn't just me. All of us were trying to

558
00:26:47,680 --> 00:26:50,359
Speaker 1: cope with this through our sense of humor because that

559
00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:52,159
Speaker 1: was literally the only way that we could keep breathing.

560
00:26:53,720 --> 00:26:58,040
Speaker 1: So sixteen year old Rachel is a local news star, Um,

561
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Speaker 1: you're dealing with your dad. You said, I don't even

562
00:27:00,920 --> 00:27:02,680
Speaker 1: know if your your boyfriend might listen to this. He

563
00:27:02,720 --> 00:27:05,080
Speaker 1: probably doesn't want to hear it because you probably that

564
00:27:05,160 --> 00:27:07,080
Speaker 1: you never had a boyfriend before. But you said you

565
00:27:07,119 --> 00:27:10,159
Speaker 1: had an awful high school boyfriend. Oh. Yeah, he was

566
00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:12,000
Speaker 1: a jerk. He was a jerk. I didd him for

567
00:27:12,040 --> 00:27:14,720
Speaker 1: like five years to five years of a long time

568
00:27:14,760 --> 00:27:18,000
Speaker 1: in high school. So what initially attracted you to him? Oh,

569
00:27:18,560 --> 00:27:21,040
Speaker 1: I don't know. You have like a shaved head. He

570
00:27:21,160 --> 00:27:24,199
Speaker 1: was a skateboarder. That's why I was really into skateboarders

571
00:27:24,240 --> 00:27:25,879
Speaker 1: at the time. But I started dating him like the

572
00:27:25,960 --> 00:27:29,000
Speaker 1: end of my Our junior high was right next to

573
00:27:29,040 --> 00:27:30,600
Speaker 1: our high school, and still there was probably only a

574
00:27:30,680 --> 00:27:34,120
Speaker 1: total of like five hundred people, um combined with all

575
00:27:34,160 --> 00:27:36,480
Speaker 1: of those grades. So it was partly because there was

576
00:27:36,560 --> 00:27:39,879
Speaker 1: nobody else. But I met him at like the end

577
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:41,359
Speaker 1: of the eighth grade and I broke up with him.

578
00:27:41,400 --> 00:27:43,280
Speaker 1: As soon as I went to college, I was like, later,

579
00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:46,760
Speaker 1: so what does he do now? I have no idea

580
00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:50,239
Speaker 1: and I do not want to know. So legitimately you

581
00:27:50,240 --> 00:27:53,080
Speaker 1: have no idea, like he hasn't tracked, have no idea. No, no,

582
00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:55,040
Speaker 1: I think that once. Once I got to college, I

583
00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:56,800
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, I gos a jerk. Like,

584
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Speaker 1: for instance, I'll give you a little glimpse in our relationship,

585
00:28:01,400 --> 00:28:05,880
Speaker 1: um my twelfth grade. Um, you know, it was really

586
00:28:05,920 --> 00:28:07,480
Speaker 1: just like a waiting game when my dad he was

587
00:28:07,520 --> 00:28:11,040
Speaker 1: not doing well. This was probably in November. The doctors

588
00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:13,080
Speaker 1: told us that my dad had until Christmas to live.

589
00:28:13,160 --> 00:28:16,760
Speaker 1: Basically what a date, right, Oh yeah, celebrate Christmas as

590
00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:19,200
Speaker 1: your dad? And I like the next day. Um, and

591
00:28:19,240 --> 00:28:23,439
Speaker 1: so I found out in November my boyfriend broke up

592
00:28:23,440 --> 00:28:26,320
Speaker 1: with me. And I was devastated because literally going through

593
00:28:26,359 --> 00:28:28,520
Speaker 1: the worst time in my life. Now, I've lost the

594
00:28:28,520 --> 00:28:31,040
Speaker 1: only person that I can really you know, he's like

595
00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:34,320
Speaker 1: my number one shoulder to cry on. He broke up

596
00:28:34,320 --> 00:28:37,280
Speaker 1: with me the next day. He's love with my best

597
00:28:37,280 --> 00:28:40,600
Speaker 1: friend and all of this stuff is going on, and

598
00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 1: so I was just like, uh, you know, I stupidly.

599
00:28:45,000 --> 00:28:46,520
Speaker 1: Why am I telling you this stuff? For the first place,

600
00:28:47,560 --> 00:28:50,000
Speaker 1: I got back together with him after my dad passed away,

601
00:28:50,480 --> 00:28:52,800
Speaker 1: and then it literally as soon as I left for college,

602
00:28:52,840 --> 00:28:54,720
Speaker 1: I was just like, get this guy into my life.

603
00:28:54,760 --> 00:28:58,320
Speaker 1: I'm so much better off. So yeah, like high school,

604
00:28:58,400 --> 00:29:00,560
Speaker 1: Rachel was all over the place. She was mess. You

605
00:29:00,560 --> 00:29:02,760
Speaker 1: did not know how to function. The only thing that

606
00:29:02,800 --> 00:29:05,360
Speaker 1: she was like worried about with school and her career,

607
00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:09,520
Speaker 1: which is like kind of still the same. Um, But uh, yeah,

608
00:29:09,600 --> 00:29:12,480
Speaker 1: I was going through it. I think about that Rachel now,

609
00:29:12,520 --> 00:29:15,640
Speaker 1: and I couldn't make me cry sometimes because I was

610
00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:18,600
Speaker 1: really being put through the ringer And what you wish

611
00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:20,440
Speaker 1: what do you wish you you could go back in

612
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:23,040
Speaker 1: time and tell yourself when you were in high school.

613
00:29:27,360 --> 00:29:29,600
Speaker 1: I don't know, but everything's gonna be okay, I guess.

614
00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:31,800
Speaker 1: But I always had the sense that it was going

615
00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:33,400
Speaker 1: to be all right. Like I do think I deal

616
00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:37,240
Speaker 1: with trauma pretty fairly well, whether it's like you know, uh,

617
00:29:37,600 --> 00:29:40,160
Speaker 1: somebody passing away or like me losing my passport in

618
00:29:40,160 --> 00:29:42,120
Speaker 1: a foreign country. Like I'm very I'm a very good

619
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:46,000
Speaker 1: problem solver. Um. But I think that there's always been

620
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:49,840
Speaker 1: the fear of I will say this, Ever since my

621
00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:51,880
Speaker 1: dad passed away, and even before that, there's I've I've

622
00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:56,360
Speaker 1: had an irrational fear of people leaving me and death

623
00:29:56,480 --> 00:29:58,400
Speaker 1: and and losing people. Whether I can deal with it

624
00:29:58,520 --> 00:30:00,840
Speaker 1: or not, just the fear of it happening absolutely terrifies me.

625
00:30:00,880 --> 00:30:03,520
Speaker 1: So just like letting myself know when it comes to that,

626
00:30:03,760 --> 00:30:06,520
Speaker 1: like I'm I'm okay, I'm gonna be okay, and I'm

627
00:30:06,520 --> 00:30:09,360
Speaker 1: gonna get through this and at least I'm gonna live.

628
00:30:09,480 --> 00:30:11,800
Speaker 1: We know that I don't even know that it's in

629
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Speaker 1: a rational fear based on what you've been through, uh

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Speaker 1: I know. Be sure to catch live editions about Kicked

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Speaker 1: the Coverage with Clay Travis week days at six am Eastern,

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00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:24,800
Speaker 1: three am Pacific, talking to Rachel Bannetta wins and Lost

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Speaker 1: his podcast I'm Clay Travis. You can follow Rachel at

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00:30:27,200 --> 00:30:29,200
Speaker 1: Rachel bannetto on Twitter. You can watch her every single

635
00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:32,720
Speaker 1: day on uh FS one Walk it In alongside of me,

636
00:30:32,840 --> 00:30:35,160
Speaker 1: cousin sal and Todd Ferman. All right, so you go

637
00:30:35,280 --> 00:30:38,080
Speaker 1: off to college. You've probably given everything that you are

638
00:30:38,120 --> 00:30:41,040
Speaker 1: going through in high school, are desperate to go away

639
00:30:41,080 --> 00:30:43,120
Speaker 1: to college? Where do you go? How do you pick

640
00:30:43,160 --> 00:30:45,240
Speaker 1: it and what is your focus when you go away

641
00:30:45,280 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 1: to college. So I moved into the city. I moved

642
00:30:49,200 --> 00:30:52,120
Speaker 1: into the city. I've got Toronto meeting meeting, the city

643
00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:55,240
Speaker 1: of Toronto, Yeah, the big city. I think two of

644
00:30:55,240 --> 00:30:56,800
Speaker 1: my brothers were living there at the time, so at

645
00:30:56,880 --> 00:30:59,840
Speaker 1: least I had some kind of you know, safety with

646
00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:03,560
Speaker 1: having them somewhat close. But I decided that I wasn't

647
00:31:03,560 --> 00:31:06,520
Speaker 1: going to audition, uh to go to school for theater

648
00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:11,320
Speaker 1: because I was too scared. I think that, um, you know,

649
00:31:11,320 --> 00:31:13,120
Speaker 1: everything that had happened. I was just like, I just

650
00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:16,400
Speaker 1: want to go to school for something I know that

651
00:31:16,440 --> 00:31:18,200
Speaker 1: I can get into, for something that I know I'm

652
00:31:18,200 --> 00:31:19,960
Speaker 1: already good at, and for something that I know that

653
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:22,960
Speaker 1: I'm slightly interested in. And at least, um, you know,

654
00:31:23,040 --> 00:31:25,960
Speaker 1: part of the school processes that I can take improv classes,

655
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:27,840
Speaker 1: which was so exciting for me and I still take

656
00:31:27,880 --> 00:31:31,560
Speaker 1: those to this day. Um. So I applied for broadcast journalism.

657
00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:34,520
Speaker 1: I think I was a shoe in because, as you said,

658
00:31:34,520 --> 00:31:41,160
Speaker 1: I'm a sixteen year old television star at uh uh. Yeah.

659
00:31:41,200 --> 00:31:42,920
Speaker 1: So I moved into the city. I moved out of

660
00:31:42,960 --> 00:31:47,320
Speaker 1: my house. My mom sold our house and moved into

661
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:49,360
Speaker 1: like a really small house and like a small town

662
00:31:49,360 --> 00:31:53,760
Speaker 1: far away, further away from me. Um and uh, I

663
00:31:53,840 --> 00:31:57,080
Speaker 1: failed and I feeled hard. I was doing this talk

664
00:31:57,200 --> 00:31:58,920
Speaker 1: about mental health a couple of years ago for the

665
00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 1: Big East, and there were it was like all coaches

666
00:32:02,080 --> 00:32:04,360
Speaker 1: that were in the room, and I was a volleyball player,

667
00:32:04,440 --> 00:32:07,160
Speaker 1: was a varsity volleyball player, and I brought in my

668
00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:10,800
Speaker 1: transcripts from my first semester of my first year, and

669
00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:12,960
Speaker 1: it was all like f f F d F c

670
00:32:13,240 --> 00:32:16,360
Speaker 1: f f F like failed, like literally everything I could

671
00:32:16,400 --> 00:32:19,760
Speaker 1: have failed, I failed pretty much. Um. And it was

672
00:32:20,080 --> 00:32:21,840
Speaker 1: I was telling these people because I was just like

673
00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:24,880
Speaker 1: I was depressed and anxious and going through the dealing

674
00:32:24,880 --> 00:32:28,720
Speaker 1: with the loss of my father and and those times

675
00:32:28,720 --> 00:32:30,560
Speaker 1: the coach, I'm seeing my coach more than I'm seeing

676
00:32:30,560 --> 00:32:33,160
Speaker 1: my teachers. Um. And so I was kind of saying

677
00:32:33,160 --> 00:32:34,680
Speaker 1: that like this is this was my story, and I

678
00:32:34,760 --> 00:32:36,760
Speaker 1: was telling them and oh my god, I just bombed

679
00:32:36,840 --> 00:32:40,520
Speaker 1: so bad because like my I was just going through

680
00:32:40,560 --> 00:32:45,000
Speaker 1: a world of pain and I forgot everything that I learned. Um,

681
00:32:45,040 --> 00:32:48,960
Speaker 1: you know at first local and it was a it

682
00:32:49,000 --> 00:32:52,200
Speaker 1: was tough, It was really tough. I thought about quitting.

683
00:32:52,400 --> 00:32:54,400
Speaker 1: I was just like I'm not I need to take

684
00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:56,400
Speaker 1: some time off, Like clearly my brain is not right.

685
00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:58,520
Speaker 1: I'm not in a right space to be learning and

686
00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:00,800
Speaker 1: to be caring about anything other than thinking about my

687
00:33:00,840 --> 00:33:04,400
Speaker 1: dad dying. Like it was rough. So you went to

688
00:33:04,520 --> 00:33:06,960
Speaker 1: class and you were making it like, I mean, how

689
00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:09,040
Speaker 1: how did you fail? Everything right? Because I mean I

690
00:33:09,040 --> 00:33:12,280
Speaker 1: would go into class, I was listening to the lecture,

691
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:15,320
Speaker 1: I was being given the homework, and I was saying

692
00:33:15,400 --> 00:33:17,920
Speaker 1: f you, and I was gooding, And I would go

693
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:21,600
Speaker 1: to volleyball practice and I'd go home, sleep, wake up

694
00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:23,080
Speaker 1: the next day to do it all over again. I

695
00:33:23,120 --> 00:33:25,680
Speaker 1: was not handing in any assignments. I was having trouble

696
00:33:25,720 --> 00:33:28,040
Speaker 1: going to class sometimes because I couldn't get out of bed.

697
00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:31,040
Speaker 1: This was like my first real bout with depression like

698
00:33:31,080 --> 00:33:33,920
Speaker 1: I had never really felt. Not only was I moving

699
00:33:33,960 --> 00:33:36,440
Speaker 1: away um from home and like what I know and

700
00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,080
Speaker 1: what I love, and I broke up with my boyfriend,

701
00:33:38,120 --> 00:33:40,040
Speaker 1: which is like, you know, any teenager is going to

702
00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:42,520
Speaker 1: have a problem with that, and it's gonna like face

703
00:33:42,560 --> 00:33:44,960
Speaker 1: some kind of repercussion in their feelings and their emotions.

704
00:33:45,320 --> 00:33:48,600
Speaker 1: But also I just had like a catastrophic event happened

705
00:33:48,600 --> 00:33:51,440
Speaker 1: in my life. Um, and I just couldn't handle it.

706
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:52,760
Speaker 1: I couldn't deal with it. So I would not get

707
00:33:52,760 --> 00:33:55,840
Speaker 1: into bed, I would not do my assignments. And it

708
00:33:55,920 --> 00:33:59,120
Speaker 1: showed so for a full year or a full semester,

709
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:03,960
Speaker 1: just a full semester. After I got those the grades back. UM,

710
00:34:04,040 --> 00:34:06,280
Speaker 1: my volleyball coach threatened to kick me off the team.

711
00:34:06,400 --> 00:34:10,880
Speaker 1: UM My mom was very disappointed in me, and I

712
00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:14,319
Speaker 1: just snapped. I had this moment of being like you,

713
00:34:14,480 --> 00:34:16,480
Speaker 1: I had this really beautiful moment with my dad right

714
00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:19,239
Speaker 1: right before he passed away. I'm gonna try and get

715
00:34:19,239 --> 00:34:22,440
Speaker 1: through this. Um. And uh, you know, we we knew

716
00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:24,160
Speaker 1: about a week before he passed away. They pulled me

717
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:26,279
Speaker 1: out of school and they brought my brothers home and

718
00:34:26,280 --> 00:34:27,839
Speaker 1: we're like, spend as much time as with your dad

719
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:29,839
Speaker 1: as you can, because he's gonna be he's not gonna

720
00:34:29,840 --> 00:34:32,319
Speaker 1: make it pass this week. He's stopped eating, and so

721
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:34,360
Speaker 1: all of us took turns going up into his bedroom.

722
00:34:34,400 --> 00:34:36,520
Speaker 1: He had like a hospital bed pulled into our house,

723
00:34:36,760 --> 00:34:41,080
Speaker 1: and um, when he was awake and around and you know,

724
00:34:41,160 --> 00:34:43,000
Speaker 1: with it, we would go up and we would have

725
00:34:43,040 --> 00:34:45,799
Speaker 1: conversations with him, and I got to tell him right

726
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:48,560
Speaker 1: before he passed away, like a couple of days before that,

727
00:34:48,640 --> 00:34:51,480
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm gonna go and kick ass and

728
00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:53,520
Speaker 1: I'm inna I think also the first time that I

729
00:34:53,520 --> 00:34:55,000
Speaker 1: swore in front of my dad, I remember being like,

730
00:34:55,000 --> 00:34:56,319
Speaker 1: oh my god, I hope it's not gonna be mad

731
00:34:56,360 --> 00:34:58,879
Speaker 1: at me, but I'm gonna go kick ass, and I'm

732
00:34:58,880 --> 00:35:00,839
Speaker 1: gonna go make you so out, and I'm gonna take

733
00:35:00,880 --> 00:35:03,359
Speaker 1: care of mom. And I'm just gonna go and and

734
00:35:03,480 --> 00:35:05,200
Speaker 1: just kill it at school and I'm going to be

735
00:35:05,560 --> 00:35:08,560
Speaker 1: a star and and you don't have to worry about anything.

736
00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:10,920
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take care of everybody. From one of the

737
00:35:10,960 --> 00:35:12,760
Speaker 1: last things that you said to me ever, was seeing

738
00:35:12,800 --> 00:35:16,000
Speaker 1: the movie's kids, Well it makes me want to vomit. Um,

739
00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:21,560
Speaker 1: I know, right, sor right? But I had this moment

740
00:35:22,280 --> 00:35:24,360
Speaker 1: after that first semester that I was like, I have

741
00:35:24,560 --> 00:35:26,680
Speaker 1: not lived up to everything that I told my dad,

742
00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:28,440
Speaker 1: and he would be so disappointed in me. And I

743
00:35:28,480 --> 00:35:31,400
Speaker 1: think even my maybe somebody had said that, like, you know,

744
00:35:31,600 --> 00:35:33,279
Speaker 1: do this for your dad, and I was just like,

745
00:35:33,320 --> 00:35:37,520
Speaker 1: all right, screw this, buckled down started like caring so

746
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:40,719
Speaker 1: much really put like literally great change from like f

747
00:35:40,800 --> 00:35:42,640
Speaker 1: T A S because I was I'm a smart person

748
00:35:42,680 --> 00:35:44,799
Speaker 1: and I'm creative, and that's exactly what all these things

749
00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:46,920
Speaker 1: we're calling for. It's like make a video, go and

750
00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:50,080
Speaker 1: do a documentary, be an improv class, like you know,

751
00:35:50,160 --> 00:35:56,120
Speaker 1: go and cover Blockbuster, shutting down whatever it is, excuse um.

752
00:35:56,160 --> 00:35:57,920
Speaker 1: And uh I just snapped, and I was just like,

753
00:35:58,040 --> 00:36:01,080
Speaker 1: I this is my chance to prove myself and I

754
00:36:01,120 --> 00:36:03,160
Speaker 1: don't want to fail. And I'm not going back to Orn. No,

755
00:36:03,280 --> 00:36:06,640
Speaker 1: good lord, I'm not going back to Orno. And uh

756
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:09,240
Speaker 1: I just snapped. And I have not since that moment,

757
00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:12,719
Speaker 1: Since that semester, I have never looked back and have

758
00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:15,560
Speaker 1: just gone gung home with my career. And I think

759
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:18,680
Speaker 1: that's a huge part of the reason why I'm twenty

760
00:36:18,680 --> 00:36:21,480
Speaker 1: seven and I'm hosting a show in Los Angeles, of

761
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:24,640
Speaker 1: all places, three thousand, five hundred miles away from where

762
00:36:24,640 --> 00:36:27,839
Speaker 1: I grew up, and I'm still like, not backing down,

763
00:36:27,920 --> 00:36:29,719
Speaker 1: still going full till all right. I want to go

764
00:36:29,760 --> 00:36:31,839
Speaker 1: back to that pivot point because there are a lot

765
00:36:31,880 --> 00:36:35,280
Speaker 1: of people who face challenges, and obviously for your age,

766
00:36:35,400 --> 00:36:40,080
Speaker 1: the challenges that you faced wor substantial, and is you

767
00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:43,280
Speaker 1: said that like you suddenly had this realization in your mind,

768
00:36:43,400 --> 00:36:46,160
Speaker 1: but you go home for Christmas. I'm assuming I don't

769
00:36:46,160 --> 00:36:49,200
Speaker 1: know exactly how the Canadian school schedule is, but you

770
00:36:49,520 --> 00:36:51,400
Speaker 1: have to show your mom the f's and the d's

771
00:36:51,480 --> 00:36:55,520
Speaker 1: that you have made. Where exactly do you make that

772
00:36:55,600 --> 00:36:58,080
Speaker 1: decision that things change for you? It's a pivot point.

773
00:36:58,120 --> 00:36:59,520
Speaker 1: Like you said, you could have ended up back in

774
00:36:59,680 --> 00:37:04,000
Speaker 1: Orno uh and uh and people like you're surrounded probably

775
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:05,040
Speaker 1: by a lot of the people that you went to

776
00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:08,000
Speaker 1: high school with, and you're living a life where it's

777
00:37:08,080 --> 00:37:10,640
Speaker 1: it's kind of a quiet scream of anonymity, right Like

778
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:13,759
Speaker 1: you're you're feeling like you didn't do what you wanted

779
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,759
Speaker 1: to do. And look, I mean you're still young. I mean,

780
00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:17,840
Speaker 1: even if you had made that decision for a few years,

781
00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:20,400
Speaker 1: you could have still had a pivot point. But for you,

782
00:37:20,480 --> 00:37:23,560
Speaker 1: it happened at eighteen or nineteen years old. What do

783
00:37:23,640 --> 00:37:27,080
Speaker 1: you attribute that too to the mental toughness and the

784
00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:29,640
Speaker 1: ability to make that pivot, Because I feel like there's

785
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:31,759
Speaker 1: a lot of people listening right now the podcast is

786
00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:33,880
Speaker 1: called Wins and Losses who get to that point and

787
00:37:33,920 --> 00:37:36,560
Speaker 1: it may not have as many significant factors that that

788
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:39,439
Speaker 1: bring it to bear as yours did. But that they're

789
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:42,000
Speaker 1: at a quarter life crisis or their midlife crisis or

790
00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:45,200
Speaker 1: whatever it is, and maybe they're younger and they might

791
00:37:45,239 --> 00:37:47,160
Speaker 1: not go in the direction that you did to pour

792
00:37:47,480 --> 00:37:50,640
Speaker 1: positivity into the situation. What do you attribute to how

793
00:37:50,680 --> 00:37:55,880
Speaker 1: you were able to do it? Um, I think it

794
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:58,080
Speaker 1: would be easy for somebody. Let let's say my dad

795
00:37:58,080 --> 00:37:59,960
Speaker 1: didn't pass away, and I went to school and I failed.

796
00:38:00,920 --> 00:38:03,960
Speaker 1: I think it'd be easy for me to be like, um,

797
00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:06,040
Speaker 1: is screw this, Like I'm not I'm just not cut

798
00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:07,520
Speaker 1: out for it. But I think that when you have

799
00:38:07,600 --> 00:38:11,520
Speaker 1: a parent pass away or something traumatic happening, you automatically

800
00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:15,879
Speaker 1: become a tougher person because you've been knocked down and

801
00:38:16,640 --> 00:38:19,239
Speaker 1: you've in the process, you've just like grown this like

802
00:38:19,320 --> 00:38:23,040
Speaker 1: outer shield or whatever you want to call it, UM,

803
00:38:23,080 --> 00:38:25,480
Speaker 1: And nothing can hurt you as bad as that first

804
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:28,680
Speaker 1: thing that happened to you that was traumatic. And I

805
00:38:28,680 --> 00:38:31,040
Speaker 1: don't know what it is. I always just call it snapping.

806
00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:34,359
Speaker 1: I just snapped, and I went home, and I saw

807
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:38,799
Speaker 1: how disappointed my mom was, And UM, I know how

808
00:38:38,920 --> 00:38:41,920
Speaker 1: much she gave to my dad and to this family.

809
00:38:42,680 --> 00:38:45,279
Speaker 1: I know, like she took so much time off from work,

810
00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:49,480
Speaker 1: she was oh my god, probably in the deepest of depressions.

811
00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:52,760
Speaker 1: She actually just sent me a text with kissing emojis.

812
00:38:52,920 --> 00:38:55,439
Speaker 1: Isn't that weird? She literally just sent me that. That's

813
00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:58,640
Speaker 1: so strange. Um, But you know, she was just the

814
00:38:59,040 --> 00:39:01,520
Speaker 1: toughest of off. And I went home and I saw

815
00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:03,440
Speaker 1: how disappointed she was, and I think that she just

816
00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:06,799
Speaker 1: I was disappointed in the situation. No one did anything wrong.

817
00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:08,759
Speaker 1: My parents didn't treat me like ship like it was

818
00:39:08,800 --> 00:39:12,000
Speaker 1: just a shitty situation. And I think that part of

819
00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:14,960
Speaker 1: her was like, I'm so sorry that this has happened

820
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:17,640
Speaker 1: to you. Like she was upset and disappointed, but I

821
00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:20,680
Speaker 1: think also part of her was like, I'm just so

822
00:39:20,719 --> 00:39:22,680
Speaker 1: sorry that this is the life. These are the cards

823
00:39:22,680 --> 00:39:25,200
Speaker 1: that you've been dealt, and this is clearly affecting you.

824
00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:27,840
Speaker 1: And maybe I was hoping that it wouldn't affect you

825
00:39:27,920 --> 00:39:30,080
Speaker 1: as much as it as it is. And I just

826
00:39:30,160 --> 00:39:33,759
Speaker 1: remember seeing that face and how upset she was, and

827
00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:35,799
Speaker 1: I was just like, I cannot do this. My mom

828
00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:38,719
Speaker 1: has been through too much already. I need to be

829
00:39:38,760 --> 00:39:41,400
Speaker 1: the tough person that I am that my dad has

830
00:39:41,440 --> 00:39:43,400
Speaker 1: made me and my mom has made me, and I

831
00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:46,440
Speaker 1: need to I need to snap. I need to take

832
00:39:46,480 --> 00:39:48,000
Speaker 1: care of my mom like I promise. I need to

833
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:49,640
Speaker 1: take care of my family like I promised. And this

834
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:52,360
Speaker 1: is not taking care of This is adding more stress

835
00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:55,839
Speaker 1: and more pain. And I've already felt the worst of it.

836
00:39:56,160 --> 00:39:58,319
Speaker 1: I can be better and be stronger. And then I

837
00:39:58,360 --> 00:40:01,239
Speaker 1: just went back after Christmas or whatever it was Thanksgiving,

838
00:40:02,760 --> 00:40:04,520
Speaker 1: and I just I woke up one day and was

839
00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:06,440
Speaker 1: just like re energized, and I thought about my mom

840
00:40:06,520 --> 00:40:08,520
Speaker 1: all the time, and I thought about how sad she was,

841
00:40:08,560 --> 00:40:10,560
Speaker 1: and I was just like, I am not contributing to that.

842
00:40:10,600 --> 00:40:13,279
Speaker 1: There's no chance that I am going to be part

843
00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:15,560
Speaker 1: of the reason that my mom is worse off than

844
00:40:15,600 --> 00:40:17,600
Speaker 1: losing her husband. Like, I'm not going to add to that.

845
00:40:18,120 --> 00:40:19,960
Speaker 1: And so she was a really big part of me

846
00:40:20,040 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 1: going back and just going like full till crazy. And

847
00:40:24,360 --> 00:40:28,440
Speaker 1: you are incredibly smart and incredibly talented. Uh, not that

848
00:40:28,480 --> 00:40:31,759
Speaker 1: you deserve compliments from me, but in that uh And

849
00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:33,319
Speaker 1: and I don't want you to get used to them,

850
00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:36,719
Speaker 1: but in that in that scenario, it's also interesting to

851
00:40:36,760 --> 00:40:41,320
Speaker 1: me because people sometimes have talents and they aren't willing

852
00:40:41,360 --> 00:40:44,080
Speaker 1: to acknowledge them themselves that they have them, and so

853
00:40:44,200 --> 00:40:46,200
Speaker 1: they can fall back on Oh, this is just not

854
00:40:46,320 --> 00:40:48,160
Speaker 1: for me. I'll go back to something that's safe. So

855
00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:50,960
Speaker 1: you pour yourself into it. You already knew that you

856
00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:53,520
Speaker 1: were driven in some sense at sixteen, when you're doing

857
00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:57,040
Speaker 1: these local television reports. Uh, and what are you doing?

858
00:40:57,239 --> 00:40:59,320
Speaker 1: And and how quickly does it? The pivot happens. You

859
00:40:59,360 --> 00:41:02,400
Speaker 1: start getting as are you doing more television? Are you

860
00:41:02,440 --> 00:41:05,120
Speaker 1: doing more? Like? What what exactly are you doing while

861
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:09,600
Speaker 1: you're in school? Um? I started looking for internships, and

862
00:41:09,640 --> 00:41:11,640
Speaker 1: I started being like, I am really good in the field,

863
00:41:11,719 --> 00:41:14,160
Speaker 1: so I need to start looking at like the local

864
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:17,400
Speaker 1: news stations or um. You know. I was just expanding

865
00:41:17,560 --> 00:41:19,759
Speaker 1: my mind. I was like, how can I get better

866
00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:21,640
Speaker 1: at this? How can I do? I want to start

867
00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:24,160
Speaker 1: branching out and do acting stuff like I was just

868
00:41:24,239 --> 00:41:26,560
Speaker 1: instead of like feeling sorry for myself all the time

869
00:41:26,640 --> 00:41:28,800
Speaker 1: and and thinking about other things that didn't matter or

870
00:41:28,840 --> 00:41:31,320
Speaker 1: didn't pertain to school, it was the complete opposite. I

871
00:41:31,400 --> 00:41:33,040
Speaker 1: was like, how do I be the best of the

872
00:41:33,080 --> 00:41:36,600
Speaker 1: best at this? UM? And I just poured all of that,

873
00:41:36,880 --> 00:41:40,120
Speaker 1: you know, sad energy that I did have into going

874
00:41:40,160 --> 00:41:42,600
Speaker 1: full throttle. So I did an internship with our local

875
00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:44,200
Speaker 1: news station that was in Toronto, which was like a

876
00:41:44,320 --> 00:41:46,160
Speaker 1: much bigger deal. I remember one of my first days

877
00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:49,239
Speaker 1: was like Osama bin Laden being shot and and and

878
00:41:49,560 --> 00:41:51,880
Speaker 1: assassinated or whatever happened. Um, and that was like the

879
00:41:51,960 --> 00:41:54,120
Speaker 1: first taste of like live news, and I was like,

880
00:41:54,160 --> 00:41:56,920
Speaker 1: oh my god, this is this isn't the Picnics that

881
00:41:56,960 --> 00:41:59,680
Speaker 1: I was covering. And on first local I was like

882
00:41:59,719 --> 00:42:02,560
Speaker 1: Allly moly, buckle up. Uh. And then for a really

883
00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:04,239
Speaker 1: long time I thought I wanted to do news, and

884
00:42:04,280 --> 00:42:07,400
Speaker 1: so I was like constantly trying to get in with

885
00:42:07,440 --> 00:42:09,680
Speaker 1: those spaces. Never once did I want to do sports.

886
00:42:09,960 --> 00:42:12,719
Speaker 1: I remember even at school we would have to like

887
00:42:12,800 --> 00:42:15,879
Speaker 1: sporting reports, and I was like, I hate this. I'm

888
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:18,840
Speaker 1: not interested at all. I played the sports. I played volleyball.

889
00:42:18,880 --> 00:42:20,439
Speaker 1: I'm the athlete. I don't want to be talking about

890
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:23,799
Speaker 1: other athletes. I just wasn't interested in whatsoever. So it's

891
00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:25,640
Speaker 1: hilarious what I've ended up doing with my life. But

892
00:42:26,560 --> 00:42:29,080
Speaker 1: um so yeah, I just like I just poured myself

893
00:42:29,080 --> 00:42:30,880
Speaker 1: in and I went I would stay up late, I

894
00:42:30,880 --> 00:42:33,520
Speaker 1: would be at school until you know they kicked me out,

895
00:42:33,680 --> 00:42:36,720
Speaker 1: editing pieces and and really branching out and just carrying

896
00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:40,440
Speaker 1: so much more. Really that wasn't were you good at volleyball?

897
00:42:40,480 --> 00:42:43,480
Speaker 1: By the way, I was excellent a volleyball. I didn't

898
00:42:43,480 --> 00:42:47,120
Speaker 1: have crazy hops, like I couldn't jump very so they

899
00:42:47,120 --> 00:42:48,799
Speaker 1: would oftentimes put me in the backup as like a

900
00:42:48,840 --> 00:42:52,279
Speaker 1: designated pass er. Um. But I was pretty good. Our

901
00:42:52,320 --> 00:42:55,920
Speaker 1: team wasn't great, But I played for thirteen years. Like

902
00:42:56,000 --> 00:42:57,600
Speaker 1: that was one thing that I kind of like after

903
00:42:57,680 --> 00:43:00,560
Speaker 1: I played hockey. U my mom was al players, so

904
00:43:00,600 --> 00:43:01,799
Speaker 1: she's like, why don't you try this? And so I

905
00:43:01,840 --> 00:43:05,040
Speaker 1: played rap like travel volleyball for thirteen years. It was insane.

906
00:43:05,760 --> 00:43:07,560
Speaker 1: I didn't even know there was travel volleyball. Is that

907
00:43:07,600 --> 00:43:10,120
Speaker 1: a Canadian thing? I think it might. Well, no, there's

908
00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:12,920
Speaker 1: a big amen travel volleyball in America. I don't know.

909
00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:15,120
Speaker 1: I've never even heard of anybody doing that. I'm sure

910
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:17,400
Speaker 1: they do. Um, but there was like a lot of

911
00:43:17,400 --> 00:43:19,320
Speaker 1: girls in my high school were really into volleyball, and

912
00:43:19,560 --> 00:43:20,960
Speaker 1: I played when I was a junior. I played on

913
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:25,120
Speaker 1: the senior team. That's how good I was. UM, And uh, yeah,

914
00:43:25,160 --> 00:43:26,879
Speaker 1: it was pretty competitive. It was fun. We were playing

915
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:29,640
Speaker 1: tournaments like every weekend, all right, So you at that

916
00:43:29,680 --> 00:43:33,200
Speaker 1: point then have decided you've come through, Uh, the challenge

917
00:43:33,480 --> 00:43:36,759
Speaker 1: of finding motivation and everything else, and you kind of

918
00:43:36,800 --> 00:43:39,080
Speaker 1: know what you want to do. Do you feel like

919
00:43:39,160 --> 00:43:41,920
Speaker 1: school is unnecessary at that point because you're like, hey,

920
00:43:41,960 --> 00:43:43,920
Speaker 1: I know what I want to do for my career,

921
00:43:44,440 --> 00:43:46,760
Speaker 1: and you know, I think about this. For instance, at Fox,

922
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:50,080
Speaker 1: two of our bosses, I think, uh, Eric Shanks and

923
00:43:50,160 --> 00:43:54,080
Speaker 1: Brad Zeiger, neither one of them finished college because they're like,

924
00:43:54,239 --> 00:43:56,200
Speaker 1: I want to do you know, sports production? I want

925
00:43:56,200 --> 00:43:59,680
Speaker 1: to and now obviously very successful at Fox. Did you

926
00:43:59,719 --> 00:44:01,600
Speaker 1: feel like you were just wasting your time at that

927
00:44:01,600 --> 00:44:04,800
Speaker 1: point in college where a little I mean university in

928
00:44:04,840 --> 00:44:07,040
Speaker 1: college is different in Canada. So if you're going to university,

929
00:44:07,080 --> 00:44:09,000
Speaker 1: you're going for four years, which is college in the

930
00:44:09,080 --> 00:44:12,400
Speaker 1: United States, right, But if you're going to college in Canada,

931
00:44:12,520 --> 00:44:15,319
Speaker 1: it's usually two years and it's usually some kind of

932
00:44:15,360 --> 00:44:18,879
Speaker 1: trade or it's more hands on. So if I were

933
00:44:18,920 --> 00:44:22,960
Speaker 1: to go to university for broadcast journalism in Canada, the

934
00:44:23,000 --> 00:44:26,400
Speaker 1: first two years would be writing essays and theories about whatever,

935
00:44:27,160 --> 00:44:30,200
Speaker 1: and then the final two years would be in studio,

936
00:44:30,280 --> 00:44:32,920
Speaker 1: getting your hands dirty, going out into the field. And

937
00:44:32,960 --> 00:44:34,200
Speaker 1: I was just like, I don't want to waste my

938
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:36,200
Speaker 1: time with the first two years, like I've already been

939
00:44:36,200 --> 00:44:38,240
Speaker 1: out in the field. So I want to go to college.

940
00:44:38,280 --> 00:44:39,600
Speaker 1: I want to be done in two years, and I

941
00:44:39,640 --> 00:44:44,080
Speaker 1: want to be working in that third year. So um

942
00:44:44,120 --> 00:44:48,800
Speaker 1: so yeah. So by the second year, UM, I never finished.

943
00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:51,240
Speaker 1: I was missing one still to this day, i'm missing

944
00:44:51,280 --> 00:44:54,720
Speaker 1: one credit to graduate. I do not need it now. UM.

945
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:57,360
Speaker 1: But I was going to go back uh for a

946
00:44:57,400 --> 00:45:01,359
Speaker 1: final semester. And then um or I was gonna go back.

947
00:45:01,360 --> 00:45:02,880
Speaker 1: I was gonna go back to school for theater. I

948
00:45:02,960 --> 00:45:05,239
Speaker 1: decided that I did not want to do broadcast. I

949
00:45:05,280 --> 00:45:08,279
Speaker 1: didn't want to do broadcasting anymore. For whatever reason, I

950
00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:10,640
Speaker 1: really enjoyed those improv classes, and I was just like,

951
00:45:10,640 --> 00:45:12,399
Speaker 1: I've always wanted to be an actor, Like why am

952
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:15,200
Speaker 1: I still reading the news? This isn't exactly what I

953
00:45:15,239 --> 00:45:18,439
Speaker 1: want to do. I'm still thinking about acting all the time. Um.

954
00:45:18,480 --> 00:45:21,800
Speaker 1: And so I had one credit left and I was

955
00:45:21,840 --> 00:45:23,320
Speaker 1: just like, I'm not I'm not going to finish this

956
00:45:23,360 --> 00:45:25,000
Speaker 1: because I'm gonna go back to school for something else.

957
00:45:25,040 --> 00:45:28,439
Speaker 1: And then, in that interim period of deciding I wanted

958
00:45:28,440 --> 00:45:33,239
Speaker 1: to leave broadcast journalism behind and applying for universities for

959
00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:37,319
Speaker 1: theater programs, I got my first big job it's like

960
00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:41,799
Speaker 1: by accident. So then that kind of just led me astray.

961
00:45:41,920 --> 00:45:46,040
Speaker 1: So what was the job? So it was Toronto c

962
00:45:46,239 --> 00:45:50,040
Speaker 1: which is Major League soccer. It was the Dream Job contest,

963
00:45:50,280 --> 00:45:52,120
Speaker 1: So it wasn't even a job application. It was a

964
00:45:52,160 --> 00:45:54,239
Speaker 1: contest that I saw on Facebook and it was like,

965
00:45:54,280 --> 00:45:57,320
Speaker 1: whoever wins this contest gets to be on the jumble

966
00:45:57,400 --> 00:46:00,560
Speaker 1: tron at halftime and interview players and do all this

967
00:46:00,640 --> 00:46:01,960
Speaker 1: like fun stuff. And I was like, oh, this could

968
00:46:01,960 --> 00:46:04,600
Speaker 1: be like a perfect side thing while I'm going to school.

969
00:46:04,880 --> 00:46:06,360
Speaker 1: I still get to be in front of a camera.

970
00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:09,320
Speaker 1: I still get to, you know, like play in that space.

971
00:46:09,800 --> 00:46:11,799
Speaker 1: So like, why not, I'm probably not gonna win. I

972
00:46:11,800 --> 00:46:14,080
Speaker 1: don't know much about soccer, so let me just like apply.

973
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:18,520
Speaker 1: So I applied and just from my so you applied

974
00:46:18,520 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 1: by how like doing a video? Like what's what's the application?

975
00:46:21,560 --> 00:46:24,480
Speaker 1: First application process was literally just an application. It was

976
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:27,759
Speaker 1: like who are you? Why do you want this job? Um?

977
00:46:27,840 --> 00:46:31,520
Speaker 1: And I cracked top fifteen just by my application, and

978
00:46:31,680 --> 00:46:36,120
Speaker 1: my application was a little inappropriated. I made some I

979
00:46:36,200 --> 00:46:40,520
Speaker 1: made some choice. I the first I don't know how

980
00:46:40,560 --> 00:46:43,600
Speaker 1: I got hired off this, but the first line you

981
00:46:43,600 --> 00:46:45,319
Speaker 1: have to kind of like write a like a mini

982
00:46:45,440 --> 00:46:49,160
Speaker 1: essay on why you should be hired. The first line

983
00:46:49,360 --> 00:46:53,560
Speaker 1: of my essay was besides my love for balls dot

984
00:46:53,600 --> 00:46:57,560
Speaker 1: dot dot, this is why you should hire me. That

985
00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:01,840
Speaker 1: got me to crack the top fifteen. Somehow I have

986
00:47:01,960 --> 00:47:03,919
Speaker 1: not some of that must have line must have caught

987
00:47:03,960 --> 00:47:07,759
Speaker 1: somebody's eye. Um so you're handwriting this or do you

988
00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:11,200
Speaker 1: like you're typing this online submission? It was an online submission.

989
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:14,880
Speaker 1: Did you spend on the online submission? Oh? I remember,

990
00:47:14,960 --> 00:47:17,200
Speaker 1: like just like saying screw it, I'm not gonna win this.

991
00:47:17,440 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 1: So I remember maybe like twenty minutes, just like a

992
00:47:20,120 --> 00:47:22,080
Speaker 1: quick type up like who are you? How old? Do

993
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:25,600
Speaker 1: you send us a picture? And why you want this job? So?

994
00:47:26,480 --> 00:47:30,200
Speaker 1: Um so I cracked top fifteen, and then top fifteen

995
00:47:30,280 --> 00:47:31,920
Speaker 1: had to send in a video, and I was just like,

996
00:47:31,960 --> 00:47:34,920
Speaker 1: oh man, now I got this in the bag. So

997
00:47:35,080 --> 00:47:39,520
Speaker 1: I made uh like a two minute sketch comedy sketch

998
00:47:39,560 --> 00:47:42,040
Speaker 1: on why I should be hired. And I got this

999
00:47:42,080 --> 00:47:44,919
Speaker 1: guy to put on a brown wig and do keep

1000
00:47:44,920 --> 00:47:46,880
Speaker 1: you up eas like keep ups with a football with

1001
00:47:46,920 --> 00:47:50,320
Speaker 1: a soccer ball, and wear a duke, and we shot

1002
00:47:50,320 --> 00:47:53,040
Speaker 1: it as if it looked like I was doing, so

1003
00:47:53,080 --> 00:47:55,040
Speaker 1: they're like, oh, this girl is funny. And then I

1004
00:47:55,120 --> 00:47:57,600
Speaker 1: cracked the cracked the top five. That video is still

1005
00:47:57,600 --> 00:48:00,000
Speaker 1: available to watch on YouTube. By the way, I cracked

1006
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:02,279
Speaker 1: the top five, and I was just like, how do

1007
00:48:02,360 --> 00:48:04,240
Speaker 1: you mean you crack the top five? Like people vote,

1008
00:48:04,440 --> 00:48:06,840
Speaker 1: like how are you? How do you know where you're ranking.

1009
00:48:06,880 --> 00:48:09,359
Speaker 1: I think it was a combination of people voting and

1010
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:12,840
Speaker 1: also uh, their choice, like toront his choice. So I

1011
00:48:12,880 --> 00:48:14,360
Speaker 1: think that they thought that was funny and that I

1012
00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:16,719
Speaker 1: could do some different things, and they're like, all right,

1013
00:48:16,760 --> 00:48:18,960
Speaker 1: this girl's entertaining, like let's let's bring her in for

1014
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:23,000
Speaker 1: an interview. Um. So then I was top five and

1015
00:48:23,120 --> 00:48:25,680
Speaker 1: I went in for an interview and they know nothing

1016
00:48:25,719 --> 00:48:29,839
Speaker 1: about soccer, like Toronto captains. I had the captain's name,

1017
00:48:30,000 --> 00:48:33,800
Speaker 1: Porston Springs written in ink on my hand for the interview,

1018
00:48:34,520 --> 00:48:36,239
Speaker 1: so you could come out and like cheat if you

1019
00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:37,799
Speaker 1: need to, So I could look down and say if

1020
00:48:37,800 --> 00:48:39,200
Speaker 1: they asked me any questions, I could be like, at

1021
00:48:39,239 --> 00:48:41,160
Speaker 1: least I know who the captain is. I can I

1022
00:48:41,160 --> 00:48:46,120
Speaker 1: can work Towards and Springs into my bullshitting um and uh.

1023
00:48:46,160 --> 00:48:47,719
Speaker 1: And I just like I won them over in the

1024
00:48:47,719 --> 00:48:52,319
Speaker 1: meeting I was myself and uh. I remember I was

1025
00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:54,560
Speaker 1: working at the time at a bar. There was a

1026
00:48:54,640 --> 00:49:00,520
Speaker 1: torontof Sea bar um and so as a bartender, as

1027
00:49:00,600 --> 00:49:04,560
Speaker 1: a as a server, and so the final process of

1028
00:49:04,560 --> 00:49:06,560
Speaker 1: this contest, that is, they were going to invite all

1029
00:49:06,600 --> 00:49:09,520
Speaker 1: of us to center field at half time and announced

1030
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:11,640
Speaker 1: the winner. There was five of us left, but I

1031
00:49:11,680 --> 00:49:14,359
Speaker 1: had to work the shift before the game. So I

1032
00:49:14,400 --> 00:49:16,839
Speaker 1: was in the in the restaurant serving all of these

1033
00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:19,080
Speaker 1: Toronto Sea fans. And then my bosses let me go

1034
00:49:19,239 --> 00:49:21,840
Speaker 1: to the game to see if I won the contest,

1035
00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:23,520
Speaker 1: and my mom was with me, and it was raining,

1036
00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:25,680
Speaker 1: and I remember before we even went in, I was like, Mom,

1037
00:49:25,680 --> 00:49:26,920
Speaker 1: I don't want to do this, like I'm not gonna win.

1038
00:49:26,920 --> 00:49:28,919
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be embarrassed in front of the twenty people

1039
00:49:28,920 --> 00:49:30,719
Speaker 1: that are sitting in the stands right now. And She's

1040
00:49:30,760 --> 00:49:33,000
Speaker 1: like just go, like it's fine. What if you do

1041
00:49:33,120 --> 00:49:37,120
Speaker 1: win then? Uh? And I remember a halftime it was raining.

1042
00:49:37,120 --> 00:49:39,680
Speaker 1: They pulled us all out in the middle field and

1043
00:49:39,760 --> 00:49:42,600
Speaker 1: they called my name and I was just like, oh

1044
00:49:42,600 --> 00:49:47,759
Speaker 1: my god, I won and I sprinted. I shook some

1045
00:49:47,880 --> 00:49:50,959
Speaker 1: hands like oh my god, this is and I sprinted

1046
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:53,680
Speaker 1: to my mom because I knew where she was sitting,

1047
00:49:53,680 --> 00:49:56,200
Speaker 1: and we just like held each other and cried because

1048
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:58,080
Speaker 1: this was the first win. This was my first win.

1049
00:49:58,960 --> 00:50:03,480
Speaker 1: I didn't finish school. Dad passes away, which procious first semester.

1050
00:50:03,840 --> 00:50:05,319
Speaker 1: Holy crap, I just want to I just beat up

1051
00:50:05,320 --> 00:50:07,800
Speaker 1: five people for this job that I probably did not deserve.

1052
00:50:08,600 --> 00:50:11,120
Speaker 1: So her and I were just sobbing in each other's arms, like,

1053
00:50:11,160 --> 00:50:12,719
Speaker 1: oh my God, Like I'm gonna be able to take

1054
00:50:12,719 --> 00:50:14,279
Speaker 1: care of myself, You're not gonna have to pay my rent,

1055
00:50:14,400 --> 00:50:16,400
Speaker 1: me more, all of these things. It was just like

1056
00:50:16,400 --> 00:50:20,080
Speaker 1: a really beautiful moment. Uh. And then I was like, Okay,

1057
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:23,719
Speaker 1: I guess I'm gonna blow off school for a little

1058
00:50:23,760 --> 00:50:26,200
Speaker 1: bit longer and be this host because they hired me

1059
00:50:26,239 --> 00:50:29,640
Speaker 1: for some reason. They hired me Monday to Friday five,

1060
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:32,080
Speaker 1: but I was an arena host, like they wanted me

1061
00:50:32,120 --> 00:50:34,760
Speaker 1: to do so much more than the initial job entailed.

1062
00:50:34,800 --> 00:50:37,839
Speaker 1: So I was just like, Okay, they paid me forty dollars.

1063
00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:40,600
Speaker 1: I was like, that's an instant amount of money. Yeah,

1064
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:45,040
Speaker 1: you're what twenty years old. I'm twenty years old at

1065
00:50:45,040 --> 00:50:50,879
Speaker 1: the time. Yeah. Uh, that's literally the jackpot. You think

1066
00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:55,640
Speaker 1: you're rich with compared to the other twenty year olds,

1067
00:50:55,640 --> 00:51:00,719
Speaker 1: and so what does that job entail? Held nothing and

1068
00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:03,440
Speaker 1: entailed absolutely nothing. I had to go and show up

1069
00:51:03,440 --> 00:51:05,880
Speaker 1: on the weekends and be the arena hosts. But because

1070
00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:08,120
Speaker 1: I was sitting at a desk every single day and

1071
00:51:08,160 --> 00:51:12,160
Speaker 1: going berserk with boredom, YouTube was hot and fresh. I

1072
00:51:12,160 --> 00:51:15,160
Speaker 1: started making usy videos, and I started making sketches within

1073
00:51:15,200 --> 00:51:17,680
Speaker 1: the office and doing like weekly videos that I would

1074
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:20,759
Speaker 1: put out that the fans could watch, and um, those

1075
00:51:20,800 --> 00:51:23,400
Speaker 1: like kind of blew up in in like small YouTube terms,

1076
00:51:24,040 --> 00:51:27,480
Speaker 1: and uh, Major League Soccer. The head office in New

1077
00:51:27,560 --> 00:51:31,239
Speaker 1: York City started seeing these videos and being like, we

1078
00:51:31,320 --> 00:51:33,200
Speaker 1: really like what you're doing, or would you ever be

1079
00:51:33,200 --> 00:51:35,600
Speaker 1: interested in moving to New York City? And I had

1080
00:51:35,600 --> 00:51:37,959
Speaker 1: been to New York City one time in my life

1081
00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:40,800
Speaker 1: before that, and I had um, oh, I can't remember

1082
00:51:40,800 --> 00:51:42,520
Speaker 1: the name of it. I think a Carnegie Delhi. Does

1083
00:51:42,560 --> 00:51:44,400
Speaker 1: that sound right? I had a Deli napkin from New

1084
00:51:44,480 --> 00:51:47,959
Speaker 1: York City posted on my cubicle because I just loved

1085
00:51:48,040 --> 00:51:51,000
Speaker 1: New York City so much. Um and I even had

1086
00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:53,160
Speaker 1: written a contract to myself. I still have it. When

1087
00:51:53,200 --> 00:51:55,480
Speaker 1: I was about ten years old, I Rachel Bannetta will

1088
00:51:55,520 --> 00:51:59,000
Speaker 1: live in New York City by the time I'm twenty three, uh,

1089
00:51:59,000 --> 00:52:02,440
Speaker 1: and like signed with a in and everything. Uh. And

1090
00:52:02,480 --> 00:52:05,000
Speaker 1: so I spent a couple of years in Toronto, got

1091
00:52:05,000 --> 00:52:07,120
Speaker 1: this email, maybe like a year and a half in

1092
00:52:07,560 --> 00:52:09,239
Speaker 1: and they were like, we would like, we would like

1093
00:52:09,280 --> 00:52:10,560
Speaker 1: to bring you out to New York City if you're

1094
00:52:10,560 --> 00:52:12,879
Speaker 1: willing to move here. And so that's how I got

1095
00:52:12,920 --> 00:52:16,359
Speaker 1: to from Toronto to New York. What do you think

1096
00:52:16,360 --> 00:52:18,319
Speaker 1: would have happened if you hadn't seen that Facebook ad?

1097
00:52:20,000 --> 00:52:22,400
Speaker 1: I have no idea. I would probably be a waitress

1098
00:52:22,400 --> 00:52:23,960
Speaker 1: in Toronto trying to make it as an actress. And

1099
00:52:24,000 --> 00:52:26,120
Speaker 1: that sounds super depressing to me. There's so many points

1100
00:52:26,160 --> 00:52:27,800
Speaker 1: in my career, as I'm sure we'll keep on talking

1101
00:52:27,840 --> 00:52:29,959
Speaker 1: that I could have gone left, but I went right,

1102
00:52:30,080 --> 00:52:33,759
Speaker 1: and I have no idea what would have happened if

1103
00:52:33,760 --> 00:52:36,400
Speaker 1: I went left? Like it's insane. So you go to

1104
00:52:36,520 --> 00:52:38,600
Speaker 1: you take the MLS job, and I'm curious, I want

1105
00:52:38,640 --> 00:52:40,799
Speaker 1: to go back again because you said you're just bored

1106
00:52:40,840 --> 00:52:43,759
Speaker 1: at the office nine to five, like you are on

1107
00:52:44,000 --> 00:52:47,160
Speaker 1: you know, doing the games for Toronto FC. But that's

1108
00:52:47,160 --> 00:52:48,640
Speaker 1: where you come up with the idea of Hey, I'm

1109
00:52:48,640 --> 00:52:51,239
Speaker 1: going to do these videos? Do you ask anybody for permission?

1110
00:52:51,400 --> 00:52:53,960
Speaker 1: How do you go about taking the initiative there? Well,

1111
00:52:54,000 --> 00:52:55,839
Speaker 1: I knew how to operate a camera, I knew how

1112
00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:57,320
Speaker 1: to set up a tripod, and I knew how to

1113
00:52:57,360 --> 00:52:59,000
Speaker 1: plug plug in a mic. So I was just like,

1114
00:52:59,360 --> 00:53:00,840
Speaker 1: do you as mind a Like, I'm just like I

1115
00:53:00,840 --> 00:53:02,640
Speaker 1: got an idea. I'm just gonna go like shoot some

1116
00:53:02,640 --> 00:53:05,160
Speaker 1: stuff from I'm not doing anything anyways, and they're like, yeah,

1117
00:53:05,320 --> 00:53:06,759
Speaker 1: go go give it a shot. And I also knew

1118
00:53:06,760 --> 00:53:09,439
Speaker 1: how to edit, So I was going around and first

1119
00:53:09,520 --> 00:53:11,640
Speaker 1: I did these things called six and sixty, so six

1120
00:53:11,680 --> 00:53:14,359
Speaker 1: things to know about the game in sixty seconds. So

1121
00:53:14,480 --> 00:53:17,400
Speaker 1: I would go around the stadium six different spots and

1122
00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:20,120
Speaker 1: I'd be like, game time is six pm, and then

1123
00:53:20,200 --> 00:53:22,799
Speaker 1: like joke, joke, joke and character character character, and then

1124
00:53:22,880 --> 00:53:25,160
Speaker 1: number two would be like, you guys are gonna want

1125
00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:28,120
Speaker 1: to take the t TC, which is our trans transportation

1126
00:53:28,440 --> 00:53:31,640
Speaker 1: um like buses and trains and stuff like that in Toronto, uh,

1127
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:33,719
Speaker 1: and give them like traffic reports. And it was all

1128
00:53:33,760 --> 00:53:36,399
Speaker 1: it was like sixty seconds of just like fun. Uh.

1129
00:53:36,440 --> 00:53:38,760
Speaker 1: And I shot them myself, I wrote them myself, I

1130
00:53:38,920 --> 00:53:41,399
Speaker 1: vowed them, I edited them, and I put them all

1131
00:53:41,440 --> 00:53:43,480
Speaker 1: out myself. I just showed them like one or two

1132
00:53:43,480 --> 00:53:44,839
Speaker 1: and they're like, yeah, they look cool. Let's just put

1133
00:53:44,840 --> 00:53:47,080
Speaker 1: them on the on my YouTube on our YouTube channel,

1134
00:53:47,480 --> 00:53:49,920
Speaker 1: which was like not of consequence at the time because

1135
00:53:49,920 --> 00:53:52,840
Speaker 1: it was brand new and you know, uh, and so

1136
00:53:52,920 --> 00:53:54,480
Speaker 1: they put it up. But then people started to like them.

1137
00:53:54,480 --> 00:53:56,680
Speaker 1: So I started making more and more in depth and

1138
00:53:56,760 --> 00:53:59,799
Speaker 1: more creative and more weird, and like someone got really weird.

1139
00:54:00,680 --> 00:54:02,759
Speaker 1: But that's what MLS noticed and that's what they liked,

1140
00:54:02,840 --> 00:54:06,359
Speaker 1: so led me here. Oh yeah, for sure. Probably if

1141
00:54:06,360 --> 00:54:10,560
Speaker 1: you oh gosh, if you searched Rachel Bannetta six and

1142
00:54:10,600 --> 00:54:14,160
Speaker 1: sixty t t FC, I'm sure you'd find some real gems.

1143
00:54:14,560 --> 00:54:16,759
Speaker 1: So you get So this is pretty wild. It means

1144
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:20,600
Speaker 1: a pretty fast trajectory, right. You you get hired by

1145
00:54:20,680 --> 00:54:24,160
Speaker 1: Toronto FC. You you start to establish yourself. You're fortunate

1146
00:54:24,200 --> 00:54:26,759
Speaker 1: in that the MLS is still like kind of a

1147
00:54:26,800 --> 00:54:29,560
Speaker 1: new league, and obviously you're experimenting in a new arena

1148
00:54:29,680 --> 00:54:33,320
Speaker 1: with YouTube and kind of the social ability to advertise

1149
00:54:33,360 --> 00:54:35,239
Speaker 1: in that way. And you get to MLS and what

1150
00:54:35,239 --> 00:54:38,279
Speaker 1: do you do in New York? What's your job there? So? Uh,

1151
00:54:38,360 --> 00:54:40,120
Speaker 1: in New York. It's kind of like Free Range. They're like,

1152
00:54:40,120 --> 00:54:42,440
Speaker 1: we want you to be our digital host. So anything

1153
00:54:42,480 --> 00:54:44,480
Speaker 1: we need you for, we want you to do, we

1154
00:54:44,520 --> 00:54:46,960
Speaker 1: want to develop shows for you. So I got the

1155
00:54:47,000 --> 00:54:49,279
Speaker 1: show called Off Topic with Rachel Benetta, which is where

1156
00:54:49,280 --> 00:54:51,560
Speaker 1: I would like travel and meet up with an athlete

1157
00:54:51,560 --> 00:54:53,359
Speaker 1: and we would go out something, go out and do

1158
00:54:53,440 --> 00:54:55,359
Speaker 1: something that had nothing to do with what they did

1159
00:54:55,400 --> 00:54:57,359
Speaker 1: on the field. We would like go bowling or go

1160
00:54:58,000 --> 00:55:00,120
Speaker 1: you know, seeker shopping or whatever. And I was just

1161
00:55:00,160 --> 00:55:02,120
Speaker 1: it was all personality driven. It was like literally just

1162
00:55:02,160 --> 00:55:04,000
Speaker 1: me hanging out with these dudes. And again those became

1163
00:55:04,080 --> 00:55:07,359
Speaker 1: so popular that we had athletes coming to us and

1164
00:55:07,400 --> 00:55:11,200
Speaker 1: being like we would like to do this, which was

1165
00:55:11,239 --> 00:55:13,680
Speaker 1: insane because there was still I only spent a year

1166
00:55:13,680 --> 00:55:17,120
Speaker 1: with them less. It all happened so so quickly. Um

1167
00:55:17,160 --> 00:55:19,960
Speaker 1: so just like really fun, personality driven stuff. And I

1168
00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:22,000
Speaker 1: would also still do like comedy sketches that I would

1169
00:55:22,000 --> 00:55:25,919
Speaker 1: write and we would put out, um and uh yeah.

1170
00:55:25,960 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 1: It was like all Free Rangers are like, we willing

1171
00:55:27,680 --> 00:55:29,080
Speaker 1: to keep on doing what you like to do, and

1172
00:55:29,120 --> 00:55:30,600
Speaker 1: what you like to do is being yourself. So it

1173
00:55:30,680 --> 00:55:33,080
Speaker 1: was pretty It was a pretty fun job be sure

1174
00:55:33,120 --> 00:55:35,400
Speaker 1: to catch live editions of Out Kicked the coverage with

1175
00:55:35,480 --> 00:55:40,880
Speaker 1: Clay Travis week days at six am Eastern three am Pacific. Alright,

1176
00:55:40,920 --> 00:55:44,920
Speaker 1: So part of social media and the YouTube universe and

1177
00:55:45,040 --> 00:55:47,880
Speaker 1: just people being able to reach out to you comes

1178
00:55:47,960 --> 00:55:50,959
Speaker 1: with some negativity. Were you getting almost all positive stuff

1179
00:55:51,000 --> 00:55:53,960
Speaker 1: because soccer fans tend to be a happy, go lucky group,

1180
00:55:54,120 --> 00:55:56,680
Speaker 1: or were you getting because one of the challenges I

1181
00:55:56,719 --> 00:55:59,399
Speaker 1: think people have in general is putting themselves out there

1182
00:55:59,480 --> 00:56:02,880
Speaker 1: having this health confidence or the tough skin. And obviously

1183
00:56:03,239 --> 00:56:05,480
Speaker 1: just from the lifestyle that you have led, maybe your

1184
00:56:05,520 --> 00:56:07,960
Speaker 1: skin was tougher than most. But I feel like that's

1185
00:56:07,960 --> 00:56:09,960
Speaker 1: a big challenge, especially for people who were in their

1186
00:56:10,000 --> 00:56:13,520
Speaker 1: young twenties, because you may not you know, you don't

1187
00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:16,000
Speaker 1: have bubble wrap. People are mean on the internet. Did

1188
00:56:16,040 --> 00:56:17,960
Speaker 1: you read any of that or you just didn't read

1189
00:56:18,000 --> 00:56:19,840
Speaker 1: the comments or you haven't didn't really have it as

1190
00:56:19,840 --> 00:56:24,080
Speaker 1: an issue? Um. I mean, I I feel like, knock

1191
00:56:24,120 --> 00:56:27,400
Speaker 1: on wood, I've been really, really lucky even up until

1192
00:56:27,400 --> 00:56:28,799
Speaker 1: this point in my career that people tend to be

1193
00:56:28,800 --> 00:56:32,840
Speaker 1: pretty nice to me on social media. Um, but I

1194
00:56:32,880 --> 00:56:36,240
Speaker 1: think that when I was at MLS, it is such

1195
00:56:36,280 --> 00:56:41,120
Speaker 1: a niche sport. There is not a ton of It's

1196
00:56:41,160 --> 00:56:43,160
Speaker 1: growing for sure, but there's still a not a ton

1197
00:56:43,200 --> 00:56:47,120
Speaker 1: of people that watch. Uh I'm alive. So I was

1198
00:56:47,160 --> 00:56:49,319
Speaker 1: putting all these new videos who which were very new.

1199
00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:53,120
Speaker 1: They've never seen anything really like this female host digital host,

1200
00:56:53,280 --> 00:56:55,560
Speaker 1: she knows a bit about soccer. Okay, this is cool.

1201
00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:59,239
Speaker 1: That has probably been the time in my career that

1202
00:56:59,280 --> 00:57:01,960
Speaker 1: I have been like wreck niced in airports, more in malls.

1203
00:57:01,960 --> 00:57:04,080
Speaker 1: People would come up to me at restaurants because it's

1204
00:57:04,080 --> 00:57:07,840
Speaker 1: so niche. People want to soak up like every single

1205
00:57:08,000 --> 00:57:11,960
Speaker 1: ounce of content that we have um and and soccer

1206
00:57:12,000 --> 00:57:15,520
Speaker 1: fans are hardcore, like they're really into their teams. Um

1207
00:57:15,880 --> 00:57:17,919
Speaker 1: So it was really cool, like that was the first

1208
00:57:17,960 --> 00:57:19,760
Speaker 1: time that I actually felt like, oh my gosh, this

1209
00:57:19,840 --> 00:57:21,400
Speaker 1: is like a nice feeling. People like what I'm doing.

1210
00:57:21,440 --> 00:57:23,640
Speaker 1: People are watching what I'm doing. They're starting to follow

1211
00:57:23,680 --> 00:57:25,520
Speaker 1: me on social media. People are coming up to me

1212
00:57:25,600 --> 00:57:27,800
Speaker 1: in the stands at soccer games and being like, oh

1213
00:57:27,840 --> 00:57:29,520
Speaker 1: my god, I'm such a big fan off topic or

1214
00:57:29,520 --> 00:57:30,640
Speaker 1: I'm such a big fan to get me in there

1215
00:57:30,680 --> 00:57:32,920
Speaker 1: the other show I was doing. So it was a

1216
00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:35,760
Speaker 1: really exciting time. I remember the first time I hit

1217
00:57:35,800 --> 00:57:39,240
Speaker 1: like ten thousand followers on Twitter. Iuse was like, oh

1218
00:57:39,280 --> 00:57:41,800
Speaker 1: my god, I'm famous. And then people whenever I would

1219
00:57:41,840 --> 00:57:43,919
Speaker 1: go home, people started calling me Hollywood and I wasn't

1220
00:57:43,920 --> 00:57:46,440
Speaker 1: even living in l A. But just the even those

1221
00:57:46,880 --> 00:57:49,560
Speaker 1: so miniscul members compared to you know, people on social

1222
00:57:49,600 --> 00:57:53,439
Speaker 1: media today. Um, but it was a really exciting time

1223
00:57:53,480 --> 00:57:54,800
Speaker 1: for me. I so it's like, oh my gosh, people

1224
00:57:54,800 --> 00:57:56,240
Speaker 1: like what I'm doing. This is really cool. So it

1225
00:57:56,320 --> 00:57:58,880
Speaker 1: was also huge boost and confidence as well. So what

1226
00:57:58,960 --> 00:58:06,320
Speaker 1: happens then? So I was about six months into that job,

1227
00:58:06,440 --> 00:58:09,680
Speaker 1: and again, um, people started seeing what I was doing,

1228
00:58:10,920 --> 00:58:14,080
Speaker 1: and all of a sudden, I had ESPN and Fox

1229
00:58:14,080 --> 00:58:16,840
Speaker 1: Sports knocking on my door. And I have never told

1230
00:58:16,840 --> 00:58:19,240
Speaker 1: this story publicly. I told the story to you last week.

1231
00:58:19,240 --> 00:58:22,760
Speaker 1: And it took me a while to agree to tell

1232
00:58:22,800 --> 00:58:24,680
Speaker 1: this story, but I guess I guess I'll put it

1233
00:58:24,720 --> 00:58:29,320
Speaker 1: out there now. Um. So, uh, ESPN gave me a

1234
00:58:29,360 --> 00:58:32,360
Speaker 1: really great offer and I was still up to my

1235
00:58:32,680 --> 00:58:36,320
Speaker 1: ears in debt, and um, I just started dating somebody

1236
00:58:36,400 --> 00:58:38,640
Speaker 1: new in New York City who's still my current boyfriend now.

1237
00:58:39,280 --> 00:58:42,040
Speaker 1: And uh, as much as the offer with Fox Sports

1238
00:58:42,040 --> 00:58:43,720
Speaker 1: sounded like awesome, like oh my god, I want to

1239
00:58:43,720 --> 00:58:44,960
Speaker 1: move to l A. Oh my god, I want to

1240
00:58:44,960 --> 00:58:46,800
Speaker 1: work for the same company as Jay and Dan, who

1241
00:58:46,800 --> 00:58:51,480
Speaker 1: are like kings Kings Kings Kings from where I come from.

1242
00:58:51,600 --> 00:58:54,960
Speaker 1: Um uh, Like every every sign pointed to Fox Sports,

1243
00:58:54,960 --> 00:58:56,439
Speaker 1: but I was like, I don't want to move New York.

1244
00:58:56,480 --> 00:58:59,800
Speaker 1: I haven't even been living here a year yet, and

1245
00:59:00,120 --> 00:59:04,200
Speaker 1: more money, and so I chose ESPN. Plot twist. I

1246
00:59:04,240 --> 00:59:06,760
Speaker 1: said not to Fox Sports at first, and I went

1247
00:59:06,800 --> 00:59:11,920
Speaker 1: down the route of ESPN and um, everything was Seinfield delivered.

1248
00:59:11,920 --> 00:59:13,480
Speaker 1: They gave me my offer. I was like, a yes,

1249
00:59:13,600 --> 00:59:18,120
Speaker 1: police bank account is going to be looking good. They

1250
00:59:18,160 --> 00:59:22,600
Speaker 1: they got me my visa approved. Like everything was Seinfield delivered.

1251
00:59:23,440 --> 00:59:26,320
Speaker 1: And I was about to go to Africa because I

1252
00:59:26,360 --> 00:59:29,000
Speaker 1: just started volunteering with a nonprofit. I was like weeks

1253
00:59:29,040 --> 00:59:31,280
Speaker 1: away from going Africa. Um, and I was going to

1254
00:59:31,360 --> 00:59:33,400
Speaker 1: go to Africa, like the beginning of December and then January.

1255
00:59:33,480 --> 00:59:35,920
Speaker 1: Oh one, I was supposed to start with ESPN. So

1256
00:59:38,080 --> 00:59:41,320
Speaker 1: what year, Um, this was about like three and four,

1257
00:59:41,560 --> 00:59:46,560
Speaker 1: three years ago. So twenty six, you tell your mom, Hey,

1258
00:59:46,560 --> 00:59:49,640
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go work at ESPNE. I said, oh my god, Mom,

1259
00:59:49,760 --> 00:59:52,400
Speaker 1: I am gonna make in bee bee beep at ESPN,

1260
00:59:52,440 --> 00:59:57,520
Speaker 1: and she's just like, holy ship. It was. It was amazing,

1261
00:59:57,600 --> 00:59:59,600
Speaker 1: Like it was such an exciting time. Not that money

1262
00:59:59,680 --> 01:00:01,760
Speaker 1: is everything, but it was just like again, like, oh

1263
01:00:01,800 --> 01:00:03,200
Speaker 1: my god, You're gonna be able to be on your

1264
01:00:03,240 --> 01:00:04,600
Speaker 1: own now and I don't have to worry about you

1265
01:00:04,600 --> 01:00:05,880
Speaker 1: so much. You're gonna be able to pay off all

1266
01:00:05,880 --> 01:00:07,640
Speaker 1: your debt, You're gonna be living in New York City,

1267
01:00:07,680 --> 01:00:09,120
Speaker 1: you got a you got a nice boyfriend that I

1268
01:00:09,200 --> 01:00:11,320
Speaker 1: really like. Like from her point of view, she was

1269
01:00:11,400 --> 01:00:16,680
Speaker 1: just like, thank Jesus all Olivia. Um and so accepted

1270
01:00:16,680 --> 01:00:19,479
Speaker 1: everything everything Seinfield delivered. I remember I kept my ten

1271
01:00:19,880 --> 01:00:22,120
Speaker 1: that my agent gave me to sign the contract. I

1272
01:00:22,120 --> 01:00:26,120
Speaker 1: think I still probably have it somewhere. That is how

1273
01:00:26,200 --> 01:00:28,600
Speaker 1: well it's like ESPN, you know, like that's it's like

1274
01:00:28,640 --> 01:00:31,600
Speaker 1: a crazy I came from or no, No No, and all

1275
01:00:31,600 --> 01:00:34,200
Speaker 1: of a sudden, now I have Fox Sports and ESPN

1276
01:00:34,280 --> 01:00:36,800
Speaker 1: knocking on my door, two of the biggest sports places

1277
01:00:36,800 --> 01:00:39,200
Speaker 1: in the entire world. Holy crap. How did I end

1278
01:00:39,280 --> 01:00:43,000
Speaker 1: up here? Um? And uh and So I signed everything

1279
01:00:43,000 --> 01:00:46,440
Speaker 1: everything Seinfield delivered sent off about a couple of days

1280
01:00:46,480 --> 01:00:50,760
Speaker 1: before I leave for Africa. Um My, what would have been.

1281
01:00:50,760 --> 01:00:52,960
Speaker 1: My boss and I were chatting. We were like excited.

1282
01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:55,160
Speaker 1: We're talking about like where where my guest was gonna be.

1283
01:00:55,200 --> 01:00:56,919
Speaker 1: I was gonna still work out in Manhattan. I wasn't

1284
01:00:56,920 --> 01:01:00,480
Speaker 1: gonna have to go to Bristol um and Uh. I

1285
01:01:00,600 --> 01:01:03,400
Speaker 1: on an email from HR and they were like, hey,

1286
01:01:03,480 --> 01:01:05,880
Speaker 1: because we offered you the job and everything's like all

1287
01:01:05,880 --> 01:01:09,040
Speaker 1: Sinfield delivered. You didn't apply like a normal person, So

1288
01:01:09,120 --> 01:01:11,120
Speaker 1: we don't have any information about you. We don't have

1289
01:01:11,160 --> 01:01:12,840
Speaker 1: your email, we don't have your phone number, we don't

1290
01:01:12,880 --> 01:01:16,120
Speaker 1: have your emergency contact, we don't have your resume, like nothing,

1291
01:01:16,200 --> 01:01:18,200
Speaker 1: and as HR, we need all of those things to

1292
01:01:18,240 --> 01:01:20,520
Speaker 1: put on file. And I was like, sure, no problems,

1293
01:01:20,520 --> 01:01:22,840
Speaker 1: send send your applications like whatever, I'll fill it all out.

1294
01:01:23,440 --> 01:01:27,400
Speaker 1: So um, I'm filling it out. It's like emergency contact,

1295
01:01:27,560 --> 01:01:29,400
Speaker 1: cell phone number, email, did it out? Where did you

1296
01:01:29,440 --> 01:01:31,880
Speaker 1: go to school? What years did you go to I

1297
01:01:31,920 --> 01:01:34,880
Speaker 1: went Seneca College from two thousand seven to two thousand

1298
01:01:34,960 --> 01:01:39,880
Speaker 1: nine or two eleven whatever. It was not indicating that

1299
01:01:40,000 --> 01:01:43,080
Speaker 1: I did not graduate. I was probably making it seem

1300
01:01:43,160 --> 01:01:45,880
Speaker 1: like I had because at that point sein Field delivered,

1301
01:01:45,880 --> 01:01:48,280
Speaker 1: have this job. Who cares if I went to school?

1302
01:01:48,360 --> 01:01:50,720
Speaker 1: Or not period, whether I graduated or not as a

1303
01:01:50,720 --> 01:01:53,120
Speaker 1: whole other story. I've been working for like four years

1304
01:01:53,120 --> 01:01:56,440
Speaker 1: at this point. Um. And so I sent that off,

1305
01:01:56,520 --> 01:01:58,560
Speaker 1: didn't even think about it, flew to Africa, having a

1306
01:01:58,600 --> 01:02:01,680
Speaker 1: great time helping the children, YadA, YadA ya. I got

1307
01:02:01,720 --> 01:02:06,560
Speaker 1: an email from HR being like, hey, so we called

1308
01:02:06,600 --> 01:02:12,680
Speaker 1: Seneca and I was like, oh, no, ps, they're saying

1309
01:02:12,720 --> 01:02:15,960
Speaker 1: that you didn't graduate, um, that you're missing one credit,

1310
01:02:16,120 --> 01:02:18,680
Speaker 1: cared to explain, and I was just like yeah, totally.

1311
01:02:18,720 --> 01:02:21,840
Speaker 1: My dad didn't think it was that big of a deal. Like,

1312
01:02:21,840 --> 01:02:24,880
Speaker 1: like I said, signed contracts, everything signed, feel delivered. You

1313
01:02:24,920 --> 01:02:27,360
Speaker 1: already have like my direct deposit ready to go virganuary

1314
01:02:27,360 --> 01:02:29,160
Speaker 1: oh one, Like I already know where I'm sitting in

1315
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:33,400
Speaker 1: the office. So bad mistake by me, lazy mistake by me,

1316
01:02:33,600 --> 01:02:35,200
Speaker 1: just like kind of thinking that this was not going

1317
01:02:35,240 --> 01:02:38,120
Speaker 1: to be a big deal because I didn't I already

1318
01:02:38,120 --> 01:02:39,360
Speaker 1: had the job. I really didn't think that they were

1319
01:02:39,360 --> 01:02:41,200
Speaker 1: going to look into my past at all, minus like

1320
01:02:41,240 --> 01:02:44,320
Speaker 1: maybe a what you call it a criminal record, which

1321
01:02:44,320 --> 01:02:48,280
Speaker 1: I cleared I used. I'm a perfect person. Um but uh,

1322
01:02:48,400 --> 01:02:50,240
Speaker 1: and so I was just like, oh my gosh, this

1323
01:02:50,240 --> 01:02:53,520
Speaker 1: this is that like I didn't even know at that time.

1324
01:02:53,560 --> 01:02:55,760
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, sorry, I didn't pass. I'm missing

1325
01:02:55,760 --> 01:02:58,440
Speaker 1: one credit. Here's my transcript something my transcript which was

1326
01:02:58,440 --> 01:03:00,640
Speaker 1: showing that I was only missing one and I was like,

1327
01:03:00,760 --> 01:03:03,080
Speaker 1: totally my bad. Um. You know, I can talk to

1328
01:03:03,160 --> 01:03:05,560
Speaker 1: anybody who wants to to explain the situation, but I

1329
01:03:05,560 --> 01:03:07,280
Speaker 1: really don't think it's a big of you know, I'm

1330
01:03:07,320 --> 01:03:09,280
Speaker 1: going to go back to Africa and enjoy this time

1331
01:03:09,320 --> 01:03:10,960
Speaker 1: off that I have before I started crazy new job.

1332
01:03:11,320 --> 01:03:14,400
Speaker 1: And even what would have been my boss, Cam and

1333
01:03:14,440 --> 01:03:15,880
Speaker 1: I were talking. He's like, yeah, sorry, you have to

1334
01:03:15,880 --> 01:03:18,200
Speaker 1: deal like you know it's and I was like, I'm

1335
01:03:18,200 --> 01:03:20,960
Speaker 1: sorry that I had made this MS, but I'm gonna

1336
01:03:21,040 --> 01:03:23,280
Speaker 1: go back to what I was doing, still not really

1337
01:03:23,320 --> 01:03:26,120
Speaker 1: worrying about it. And then I got a phone call,

1338
01:03:26,560 --> 01:03:29,120
Speaker 1: maybe like twenty four hours later, and he's just like,

1339
01:03:29,200 --> 01:03:32,840
Speaker 1: are you sitting down house. I was like, oh, in Africa.

1340
01:03:33,280 --> 01:03:35,360
Speaker 1: He called me in Africa and was like are you

1341
01:03:35,360 --> 01:03:38,840
Speaker 1: sitting down? And ilse just like I am now and

1342
01:03:38,880 --> 01:03:43,160
Speaker 1: he's just like hr at ESPN. I guess because they

1343
01:03:43,200 --> 01:03:46,320
Speaker 1: are by the book something's happened in their past or whatever,

1344
01:03:47,680 --> 01:03:50,640
Speaker 1: or because it's owned by such a big company, Disney. Um,

1345
01:03:50,720 --> 01:03:54,280
Speaker 1: they are black and white. By the book, nothing can

1346
01:03:54,360 --> 01:03:56,920
Speaker 1: be off even after we've sent you the contract, everything

1347
01:03:56,920 --> 01:04:00,000
Speaker 1: sign feel delivered. Nothing can be false on your records.

1348
01:04:00,120 --> 01:04:02,520
Speaker 1: And because you put that you graduated, we have to

1349
01:04:02,520 --> 01:04:08,160
Speaker 1: revoke your offer. I'm in the middle of nowhere on

1350
01:04:08,240 --> 01:04:11,920
Speaker 1: the phone with somebody from New York City telling me

1351
01:04:12,000 --> 01:04:14,160
Speaker 1: that when I get back from Africa, I do not

1352
01:04:14,280 --> 01:04:18,120
Speaker 1: have a job. And so I was devastated. I was

1353
01:04:18,200 --> 01:04:21,440
Speaker 1: absolutely devastated. I was just like, all this hard work

1354
01:04:21,840 --> 01:04:26,200
Speaker 1: that I have been kicking my own ask for is

1355
01:04:26,240 --> 01:04:29,960
Speaker 1: down the drain because I wrote something on a piece

1356
01:04:30,000 --> 01:04:33,360
Speaker 1: of paper that I didn't put enough thought into, and

1357
01:04:33,560 --> 01:04:35,280
Speaker 1: I was thinking. I was like, oh my god, they're

1358
01:04:35,280 --> 01:04:37,200
Speaker 1: gonna take away my visa. I'm gonna have to move

1359
01:04:37,200 --> 01:04:39,080
Speaker 1: back in with my mom. I'm gonna have no way

1360
01:04:39,120 --> 01:04:41,360
Speaker 1: to make money. I've already said goodbye to everybody. I've

1361
01:04:41,360 --> 01:04:43,600
Speaker 1: already told everyone I'm going to ESPN what the hell

1362
01:04:43,640 --> 01:04:46,760
Speaker 1: am I going to do? And thankfully that that what

1363
01:04:46,800 --> 01:04:50,840
Speaker 1: would have been my boss. He was very understanding and apologetic.

1364
01:04:51,040 --> 01:04:52,720
Speaker 1: He was just like, I am so sorry that this

1365
01:04:52,760 --> 01:04:54,760
Speaker 1: is happening. This is insane. I've talked to everybody that

1366
01:04:54,800 --> 01:04:58,040
Speaker 1: there is to talk to, but this is the final stance.

1367
01:04:58,480 --> 01:05:00,320
Speaker 1: This is what we gotta do. And he was it's like,

1368
01:05:00,400 --> 01:05:01,760
Speaker 1: I will talk to people at box, I'll talk to

1369
01:05:01,760 --> 01:05:04,760
Speaker 1: people at MLS. Whatever you need to get those offers

1370
01:05:04,760 --> 01:05:06,600
Speaker 1: back on the table, Like I will really help you out.

1371
01:05:06,880 --> 01:05:10,080
Speaker 1: So did you call from Africa? How did like? So

1372
01:05:10,200 --> 01:05:12,880
Speaker 1: you hang up with that guy? You? Uh? And by

1373
01:05:12,920 --> 01:05:14,720
Speaker 1: the way, I'm Clay Travis is for Rachel ban Ada.

1374
01:05:14,720 --> 01:05:16,720
Speaker 1: You're listening to Winds and Losses, you hang up the

1375
01:05:16,720 --> 01:05:18,640
Speaker 1: phone and you do what when you're in Africa and

1376
01:05:18,680 --> 01:05:22,360
Speaker 1: you get that info? Cried, cried, and I think drank

1377
01:05:22,360 --> 01:05:25,240
Speaker 1: a beer because I was in shock. I was like,

1378
01:05:25,240 --> 01:05:26,840
Speaker 1: oh my god, I didn't even know that this could happen.

1379
01:05:27,840 --> 01:05:31,200
Speaker 1: Um and uh, I don't know what. I called my

1380
01:05:31,360 --> 01:05:33,439
Speaker 1: mom right away. I think I called my agent because

1381
01:05:33,440 --> 01:05:35,440
Speaker 1: I was just like, uh, and I had to explain

1382
01:05:35,480 --> 01:05:39,040
Speaker 1: to him when it happened, which explaining it was just embarrassing,

1383
01:05:39,120 --> 01:05:41,640
Speaker 1: Like I was like, this is such a stupid mistake

1384
01:05:41,720 --> 01:05:44,200
Speaker 1: on my part, Like it was just it was dumb.

1385
01:05:44,240 --> 01:05:47,040
Speaker 1: And I was starting to really be self conscious because

1386
01:05:47,040 --> 01:05:49,680
Speaker 1: I was like, wait, a sect, these people are gonna

1387
01:05:49,680 --> 01:05:51,920
Speaker 1: start thinking that I'm a liar like that I was

1388
01:05:52,040 --> 01:05:56,360
Speaker 1: trying to fib about like, you know, what happened at school,

1389
01:05:56,400 --> 01:05:59,200
Speaker 1: and that I was trying to pretend that I've asked.

1390
01:06:00,040 --> 01:06:01,560
Speaker 1: And so I had explained all this to my agent

1391
01:06:01,600 --> 01:06:03,919
Speaker 1: and he was just like Jesus, what did I sign

1392
01:06:04,000 --> 01:06:06,360
Speaker 1: up for? So that he immediately put out calls to

1393
01:06:06,400 --> 01:06:13,040
Speaker 1: Fox Sports and MLS. Thankfully, after some you know, massaging. Again,

1394
01:06:13,080 --> 01:06:14,760
Speaker 1: I had to tell everyone what happened, had to tell

1395
01:06:14,800 --> 01:06:16,880
Speaker 1: him LS what happened, had to tell Fox Sports what happened. Like,

1396
01:06:16,920 --> 01:06:19,240
Speaker 1: I was devastated. I was like, people are going to

1397
01:06:19,240 --> 01:06:22,439
Speaker 1: start questioning my character. This is by far the worst

1398
01:06:22,480 --> 01:06:25,640
Speaker 1: thing that's ever happened in my career. Still to this

1399
01:06:25,720 --> 01:06:29,760
Speaker 1: day gives me divers um. And uh, you know, I've

1400
01:06:29,880 --> 01:06:32,800
Speaker 1: I've never been one to get into trouble. I'm not

1401
01:06:32,880 --> 01:06:35,080
Speaker 1: that kind of I'm like a goody two shots minus

1402
01:06:35,080 --> 01:06:36,640
Speaker 1: the one time I got suspended in high school. It's

1403
01:06:36,640 --> 01:06:41,280
Speaker 1: a different story every day. Um we're talking about there.

1404
01:06:42,120 --> 01:06:44,880
Speaker 1: It was I, uh, this was like the first time

1405
01:06:44,920 --> 01:06:46,360
Speaker 1: that I ever felt like I was in trouble. Was like,

1406
01:06:46,360 --> 01:06:49,000
Speaker 1: oh my god. And uh so they put out a

1407
01:06:49,040 --> 01:06:51,360
Speaker 1: bunch of calls to people that knew me, that had

1408
01:06:51,400 --> 01:06:53,400
Speaker 1: worked with me before, and they were like, you know,

1409
01:06:53,400 --> 01:06:56,640
Speaker 1: as Rachel Shady, like what should we think about this?

1410
01:06:56,680 --> 01:06:59,560
Speaker 1: And they're like, oh my god, no, she's hard working.

1411
01:06:59,600 --> 01:07:01,840
Speaker 1: That like basically everything that I've told you about my career,

1412
01:07:01,920 --> 01:07:04,040
Speaker 1: people very much vouched for me, and they were like,

1413
01:07:04,080 --> 01:07:06,880
Speaker 1: this is a mistake. You need to hire this girl

1414
01:07:07,080 --> 01:07:12,120
Speaker 1: a sap And thankfully Fox Sports uh came back and

1415
01:07:12,120 --> 01:07:14,640
Speaker 1: they're like, we still really want you, and and even

1416
01:07:14,720 --> 01:07:17,240
Speaker 1: up to their offer in the first place, which was insane,

1417
01:07:17,320 --> 01:07:20,080
Speaker 1: like sinisoun heard of if anything, they would say any

1418
01:07:20,160 --> 01:07:22,840
Speaker 1: any other company would probably offer less because you could

1419
01:07:23,160 --> 01:07:26,440
Speaker 1: would have gone there for ten bucks um. And so

1420
01:07:26,480 --> 01:07:28,440
Speaker 1: I was like, yes it yes, fun for the yests.

1421
01:07:28,480 --> 01:07:29,600
Speaker 1: I wanted to sign with you in the first place.

1422
01:07:29,600 --> 01:07:31,880
Speaker 1: Oh my god, yes, I says a Jest signed Field.

1423
01:07:32,240 --> 01:07:34,840
Speaker 1: Fluid was like, looked. I had to tell all this

1424
01:07:34,880 --> 01:07:37,040
Speaker 1: to my boyfriend too. I was just like, I'm not

1425
01:07:37,160 --> 01:07:40,280
Speaker 1: gonna be living here in a week because everything happened

1426
01:07:40,320 --> 01:07:41,800
Speaker 1: so fast. I had to get rid of my apartment.

1427
01:07:41,840 --> 01:07:42,720
Speaker 1: I had to go to l A. I had to

1428
01:07:42,720 --> 01:07:44,560
Speaker 1: find an apartment. I had no money at the time,

1429
01:07:44,560 --> 01:07:47,439
Speaker 1: saved for a big cross country move like that, because

1430
01:07:47,440 --> 01:07:49,920
Speaker 1: I assumed that I was saying in New York, um,

1431
01:07:50,120 --> 01:07:53,080
Speaker 1: and I was just like, we gotta break up. I'm

1432
01:07:53,120 --> 01:07:55,840
Speaker 1: moving to l A. And this is devastating and but

1433
01:07:56,000 --> 01:07:58,520
Speaker 1: my career is number one and I gotta go. And

1434
01:07:58,600 --> 01:08:03,120
Speaker 1: so UM, I moved to l A and started working

1435
01:08:03,160 --> 01:08:06,680
Speaker 1: with Fox Sports and started working on their digital team,

1436
01:08:06,800 --> 01:08:12,959
Speaker 1: and um, they've been absolutely mind boggling incredible. In fact,

1437
01:08:13,000 --> 01:08:17,720
Speaker 1: I've resigned a new contract just about every single year

1438
01:08:17,760 --> 01:08:20,040
Speaker 1: that I've been here because they keep on making they

1439
01:08:20,400 --> 01:08:22,599
Speaker 1: they kept on making my role bigger and bigger. At

1440
01:08:22,600 --> 01:08:24,320
Speaker 1: first I signed on to do a digital thing, and

1441
01:08:24,320 --> 01:08:26,040
Speaker 1: then I signed on to do digital TV, and then

1442
01:08:26,080 --> 01:08:28,160
Speaker 1: I signed on to do digital and even more TV,

1443
01:08:28,280 --> 01:08:30,599
Speaker 1: and now I'm a full TV contract. Like they've just

1444
01:08:30,680 --> 01:08:34,120
Speaker 1: believed in me and pushed me. And I mean that

1445
01:08:34,120 --> 01:08:36,120
Speaker 1: that's insane. I've signed a new contract basically every single

1446
01:08:36,200 --> 01:08:37,840
Speaker 1: year that I've been here because my role just keeps

1447
01:08:37,840 --> 01:08:41,000
Speaker 1: on changing. Um. So, who went to bat for you

1448
01:08:41,040 --> 01:08:45,680
Speaker 1: at Fox? Um, Matt Schneider who ended up hiring me.

1449
01:08:45,800 --> 01:08:47,920
Speaker 1: And now it's one of my really good friends who

1450
01:08:48,000 --> 01:08:49,720
Speaker 1: is a good guy, and I hope he's listening here.

1451
01:08:49,800 --> 01:08:55,920
Speaker 1: So so he would that great higher, great Higher now

1452
01:08:55,960 --> 01:08:59,479
Speaker 1: at the NFL network. Yeah. And uh and Scott Riddell,

1453
01:08:59,479 --> 01:09:01,120
Speaker 1: who's still a reducer at Fox Sports. He was the

1454
01:09:01,160 --> 01:09:02,920
Speaker 1: one that kind of called around to a couple of people.

1455
01:09:02,960 --> 01:09:05,519
Speaker 1: Him and I were friendly, and he's just like, I

1456
01:09:05,640 --> 01:09:07,640
Speaker 1: know you're not this person, but I am going to

1457
01:09:07,760 --> 01:09:10,160
Speaker 1: go call some people that you've worked with and just

1458
01:09:10,240 --> 01:09:13,960
Speaker 1: kind of get an over, you know, more people who

1459
01:09:13,960 --> 01:09:15,559
Speaker 1: have your back. And so he called a ton of

1460
01:09:15,560 --> 01:09:18,280
Speaker 1: people and we're like, yes, hire her, yes, hire her,

1461
01:09:18,360 --> 01:09:20,400
Speaker 1: yes higher. So he could bring that to Schneider and

1462
01:09:20,439 --> 01:09:22,160
Speaker 1: be like, there's so many people vouching for her, like

1463
01:09:22,320 --> 01:09:25,759
Speaker 1: we need we need this girl. Um and and madel

1464
01:09:25,880 --> 01:09:27,719
Speaker 1: is also an awesome guy, by the way, and both

1465
01:09:27,760 --> 01:09:30,160
Speaker 1: of them, when we'll get to this in a minute.

1466
01:09:30,160 --> 01:09:32,600
Speaker 1: When walk it In happened, they immediately called me and

1467
01:09:32,640 --> 01:09:37,040
Speaker 1: they're like, you're gonna absolutely love working with Rachel. She's fantastic.

1468
01:09:37,600 --> 01:09:39,880
Speaker 1: Um And So, but did you think going back to

1469
01:09:39,920 --> 01:09:42,080
Speaker 1: that Africa when you get that call, did you think, like,

1470
01:09:42,160 --> 01:09:47,720
Speaker 1: my career is over? Oh? I remember sitting out. We

1471
01:09:47,720 --> 01:09:49,599
Speaker 1: would wake up early early because we were going into

1472
01:09:49,640 --> 01:09:52,640
Speaker 1: these really small villages that were like hours away. I

1473
01:09:52,720 --> 01:09:54,439
Speaker 1: remember sitting out at three thirty in the morning. We

1474
01:09:54,479 --> 01:09:57,320
Speaker 1: were getting our car packed and I was like three

1475
01:09:57,400 --> 01:10:01,720
Speaker 1: or four and the early morning prayer was happening, and

1476
01:10:01,760 --> 01:10:04,760
Speaker 1: so I remember sitting Maybes later on the day, I

1477
01:10:04,760 --> 01:10:08,479
Speaker 1: was remember sitting on the stoop listening to this prayer

1478
01:10:09,040 --> 01:10:12,560
Speaker 1: being just like shouted into one of just like sirens

1479
01:10:12,560 --> 01:10:15,559
Speaker 1: all over, just being echoed all over, and just looking

1480
01:10:15,560 --> 01:10:18,920
Speaker 1: into like this guy and being like it's over. I'm done.

1481
01:10:19,280 --> 01:10:23,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna help to go home and face the music.

1482
01:10:23,160 --> 01:10:25,679
Speaker 1: And I've really messed up this time and I need

1483
01:10:25,720 --> 01:10:28,640
Speaker 1: to grow up. And I was just really angry at

1484
01:10:28,680 --> 01:10:31,320
Speaker 1: myself because at that point, I was just like, this

1485
01:10:31,360 --> 01:10:34,519
Speaker 1: was an incredible experience. Now with the what am I

1486
01:10:34,560 --> 01:10:37,960
Speaker 1: gonna do? What which path am I on? Now? Like

1487
01:10:38,800 --> 01:10:40,880
Speaker 1: I just had no idea what was in store, and

1488
01:10:40,920 --> 01:10:43,680
Speaker 1: I had no idea that Fox was gonna put the

1489
01:10:43,720 --> 01:10:47,200
Speaker 1: offer back on the table. Thank thank god. I was

1490
01:10:47,240 --> 01:10:49,240
Speaker 1: just like, thank you so much. I would absolutely love

1491
01:10:49,320 --> 01:10:51,599
Speaker 1: to take this, but I'm going to go with option

1492
01:10:51,680 --> 01:10:53,679
Speaker 1: A because A, B, and C and I was actually

1493
01:10:53,840 --> 01:10:56,320
Speaker 1: Matt Niner the one that I turned down, and I

1494
01:10:56,320 --> 01:10:58,920
Speaker 1: think he understood. I was just like, I need to

1495
01:10:58,920 --> 01:11:00,920
Speaker 1: stay here. I've got a new boyfriend. I'm close to

1496
01:11:00,920 --> 01:11:02,760
Speaker 1: my family. My dad passed away a few years ago.

1497
01:11:02,800 --> 01:11:06,120
Speaker 1: I still need to be close to them. Um, YadA, YadA, YadA.

1498
01:11:06,120 --> 01:11:07,880
Speaker 1: And he was super understanding in the first place. I'm

1499
01:11:07,880 --> 01:11:09,240
Speaker 1: so glad that him and I had such a great

1500
01:11:09,240 --> 01:11:12,240
Speaker 1: connection because it was easier for me to call back

1501
01:11:12,280 --> 01:11:15,040
Speaker 1: and be like, hey, so this is what happened. Please

1502
01:11:15,040 --> 01:11:17,240
Speaker 1: take me back. So what do you do with Fox?

1503
01:11:19,400 --> 01:11:22,960
Speaker 1: You have Fox? Yeah? Started your digital videos, right, Yeah.

1504
01:11:23,000 --> 01:11:25,519
Speaker 1: I started working at this thing called at the Buzzer.

1505
01:11:25,760 --> 01:11:29,719
Speaker 1: So it was like any video of a guy getting

1506
01:11:29,760 --> 01:11:33,280
Speaker 1: like a softball to the nads, we would be like,

1507
01:11:33,400 --> 01:11:37,519
Speaker 1: oh my god, check out this viral video. Then maybe

1508
01:11:37,600 --> 01:11:39,760
Speaker 1: like thirty second things that we would Sometimes it would

1509
01:11:39,760 --> 01:11:41,720
Speaker 1: be like during commercials they would roll on Fox, So

1510
01:11:41,760 --> 01:11:44,320
Speaker 1: I was getting on TV in that way. But usually

1511
01:11:44,320 --> 01:11:46,280
Speaker 1: it was just like videos, like viral videos that we

1512
01:11:46,320 --> 01:11:49,559
Speaker 1: would put back out on Twitter. Um. But that ended

1513
01:11:49,600 --> 01:11:52,320
Speaker 1: about like a year after it got canceled a year

1514
01:11:52,360 --> 01:11:55,240
Speaker 1: after I started with Fox, and they're like, we still

1515
01:11:55,280 --> 01:11:59,040
Speaker 1: really want to use you, so we're gonna keep you around.

1516
01:11:59,120 --> 01:12:02,800
Speaker 1: You're gonna still do more digital videos, but we're gonna

1517
01:12:02,840 --> 01:12:04,960
Speaker 1: keep you in the soccer space. So that's kind of

1518
01:12:04,960 --> 01:12:08,000
Speaker 1: when I veered off at Fox and started doing like

1519
01:12:08,160 --> 01:12:12,439
Speaker 1: only soccer um And so I was doing soccer digital

1520
01:12:12,520 --> 01:12:15,080
Speaker 1: like literally up until last year, like last summer when

1521
01:12:15,080 --> 01:12:16,840
Speaker 1: I got locked in. I had just gotten back from

1522
01:12:17,000 --> 01:12:19,400
Speaker 1: the World Cup in Russia. So we'll get to that

1523
01:12:19,400 --> 01:12:21,080
Speaker 1: in a second. But so you and I meet for

1524
01:12:21,120 --> 01:12:23,960
Speaker 1: the first time that I remember at the Fox super

1525
01:12:24,000 --> 01:12:25,920
Speaker 1: Bowl party because you had done what did you do?

1526
01:12:25,960 --> 01:12:28,960
Speaker 1: Like a Lady Gaga video? Yeah, I wrote a sketch

1527
01:12:29,120 --> 01:12:31,599
Speaker 1: that they were actually gonna put in the pre show, uh,

1528
01:12:31,640 --> 01:12:33,759
Speaker 1: the night before the super Bowl, which was like still insane,

1529
01:12:33,800 --> 01:12:36,880
Speaker 1: it's crazy, uh, And so I wrote a sketch. So

1530
01:12:36,960 --> 01:12:38,960
Speaker 1: I was going for that, and then we were also

1531
01:12:39,000 --> 01:12:40,640
Speaker 1: just like going to go shoot some fun stuff for

1532
01:12:40,880 --> 01:12:42,720
Speaker 1: that was a beautiful thing about digital. It's just like,

1533
01:12:43,040 --> 01:12:45,479
Speaker 1: let's just go hang out, let's make some videos, let's

1534
01:12:45,479 --> 01:12:47,240
Speaker 1: put them up on Facebook and they'll probably get insane

1535
01:12:47,240 --> 01:12:49,120
Speaker 1: amount of views because that was just like the Facebook

1536
01:12:49,160 --> 01:12:51,479
Speaker 1: algorithm at the time, and and on Twitter and stuff

1537
01:12:51,479 --> 01:12:53,240
Speaker 1: like that too. So I went there and then I

1538
01:12:53,280 --> 01:12:55,880
Speaker 1: was also I did some stuff for Garbage Time for

1539
01:12:56,000 --> 01:12:59,000
Speaker 1: Kan Nolan Show, which was super fun. Uh, and so

1540
01:12:59,280 --> 01:13:01,479
Speaker 1: branching it. That was like the first time that my

1541
01:13:01,560 --> 01:13:05,360
Speaker 1: current boss, now Charlie, our crew boss, was just like, Hey,

1542
01:13:05,400 --> 01:13:07,000
Speaker 1: we want to start getting you more on TV. So

1543
01:13:07,040 --> 01:13:08,640
Speaker 1: you're gonna come to the super Bowl, You're gonna do

1544
01:13:08,640 --> 01:13:10,320
Speaker 1: garbage time, You're gonna do a couple of hits for them.

1545
01:13:10,320 --> 01:13:13,919
Speaker 1: And I was just like, okay, let's do it. Um.

1546
01:13:14,000 --> 01:13:16,640
Speaker 1: So yeah, constantly just like putting me in situations so

1547
01:13:16,760 --> 01:13:19,320
Speaker 1: we're terrifying. But that made me grow so much in

1548
01:13:19,360 --> 01:13:21,559
Speaker 1: the process over the last two years. All right, so

1549
01:13:21,680 --> 01:13:25,599
Speaker 1: then you like do what like so you you had

1550
01:13:26,040 --> 01:13:28,519
Speaker 1: you set in for Cowherd a couple of times, like

1551
01:13:28,600 --> 01:13:31,280
Speaker 1: as as Fox starts to think, okay, maybe this girl

1552
01:13:31,320 --> 01:13:34,160
Speaker 1: can be on television. You said earlier you wanted to

1553
01:13:34,200 --> 01:13:37,519
Speaker 1: be an acting and actress and things like that. Were

1554
01:13:37,520 --> 01:13:40,400
Speaker 1: you doing any kind of any kind of things in

1555
01:13:40,439 --> 01:13:42,920
Speaker 1: that respect? And I think probably this is a long question,

1556
01:13:43,080 --> 01:13:45,519
Speaker 1: but people who have listened and are listening now can

1557
01:13:45,520 --> 01:13:47,840
Speaker 1: tell you're quick. Right, Like you said, you do a

1558
01:13:47,920 --> 01:13:51,840
Speaker 1: lot of improv but you think and talk rapidly, which

1559
01:13:51,960 --> 01:13:55,960
Speaker 1: is which is obviously good for unscripted television. What were

1560
01:13:56,000 --> 01:13:58,519
Speaker 1: you doing, like, what was the transition point from video

1561
01:13:58,560 --> 01:14:01,960
Speaker 1: to television. I is a part time student. Basically I

1562
01:14:02,000 --> 01:14:04,360
Speaker 1: was in class four times a week, whether it was

1563
01:14:04,400 --> 01:14:06,600
Speaker 1: like straight up acting class or improv classes that I

1564
01:14:06,640 --> 01:14:08,400
Speaker 1: was taking at ground Links, which is like ground Links

1565
01:14:08,520 --> 01:14:10,760
Speaker 1: is home to so many s and l alums like

1566
01:14:10,840 --> 01:14:15,519
Speaker 1: You've got Will Ferrell, Melissa McCarthy, Kristen Wiggs just to

1567
01:14:15,600 --> 01:14:17,640
Speaker 1: name a few, like Phewee Herman went there. So it

1568
01:14:17,680 --> 01:14:19,960
Speaker 1: was it's like the ultimate school for comedy in l A.

1569
01:14:20,800 --> 01:14:23,599
Speaker 1: So I was going to that taking uh, like straight

1570
01:14:23,680 --> 01:14:26,160
Speaker 1: up acting classes and just like really fully immersing myself

1571
01:14:26,200 --> 01:14:28,760
Speaker 1: into the creative process, which was all all helping with

1572
01:14:28,800 --> 01:14:30,439
Speaker 1: all of the comedy sketches that I was writing for

1573
01:14:30,479 --> 01:14:33,840
Speaker 1: the Fox digital side as well. UM. And as I

1574
01:14:33,920 --> 01:14:36,280
Speaker 1: was starting to do more comedy sketches like this has

1575
01:14:36,320 --> 01:14:39,200
Speaker 1: just been a trend in my career, like doing more

1576
01:14:39,400 --> 01:14:43,960
Speaker 1: creative stuff and putting it out there, I started getting UM.

1577
01:14:44,000 --> 01:14:47,240
Speaker 1: I started getting meetings with people on the studio side,

1578
01:14:47,280 --> 01:14:49,240
Speaker 1: on the TV side, and they're like, who are you,

1579
01:14:49,920 --> 01:14:53,240
Speaker 1: what are you doing, where did you come from, and

1580
01:14:53,280 --> 01:14:55,840
Speaker 1: how do we get you to do more? So it

1581
01:14:56,000 --> 01:14:59,240
Speaker 1: was UM I've always said over the past few years,

1582
01:14:59,240 --> 01:15:02,040
Speaker 1: as like I've develop a deep Fox from the beginning.

1583
01:15:02,120 --> 01:15:04,080
Speaker 1: I want to grow up here. I want to grow

1584
01:15:04,360 --> 01:15:06,920
Speaker 1: and become whoever I'm supposed to be at Fox, because

1585
01:15:06,920 --> 01:15:10,920
Speaker 1: they're so nurturing and so patient, and we'll we'll let

1586
01:15:10,920 --> 01:15:13,320
Speaker 1: you make a mistake, uh, and we'll let you grow

1587
01:15:13,720 --> 01:15:15,840
Speaker 1: in your space. And I feel like so many times

1588
01:15:15,920 --> 01:15:17,960
Speaker 1: people are like it not doing so good, let's grab

1589
01:15:17,960 --> 01:15:19,680
Speaker 1: her off, and they let me squirm and kind of

1590
01:15:19,680 --> 01:15:22,200
Speaker 1: figure it out myself, which I'm so thankful for. UM.

1591
01:15:22,240 --> 01:15:23,679
Speaker 1: But it was it was just a lot of meetings

1592
01:15:23,800 --> 01:15:25,240
Speaker 1: and sometimes I would get a chance. I remember the

1593
01:15:25,240 --> 01:15:29,479
Speaker 1: first time I filled in for on Coward Show, Chris

1594
01:15:29,560 --> 01:15:33,320
Speaker 1: Carter and Nick Wright. We're doing like a test run

1595
01:15:33,360 --> 01:15:36,320
Speaker 1: for their show that was being developed, and so they

1596
01:15:36,360 --> 01:15:38,640
Speaker 1: were filling in, so it wasn't even the herd. It

1597
01:15:38,760 --> 01:15:41,799
Speaker 1: was a three man team. And maybe they were testing

1598
01:15:41,840 --> 01:15:43,840
Speaker 1: me for to host that show as well, although that

1599
01:15:43,920 --> 01:15:46,040
Speaker 1: was pretty surely on. I don't think they were doing that.

1600
01:15:46,520 --> 01:15:51,080
Speaker 1: UM and I bombed, Oh my gosh, I bombed so hard.

1601
01:15:51,200 --> 01:15:53,280
Speaker 1: I could not figure it out because it was the

1602
01:15:53,320 --> 01:15:56,080
Speaker 1: first time I was on television and then in the US,

1603
01:15:56,920 --> 01:15:59,400
Speaker 1: and I remember somebody came out. I kept on screwing

1604
01:15:59,479 --> 01:16:01,599
Speaker 1: up because I was doing what would have been Christine

1605
01:16:01,640 --> 01:16:02,960
Speaker 1: like he's role at the times to just like the

1606
01:16:03,000 --> 01:16:07,000
Speaker 1: news updates, and there was like a um, you know,

1607
01:16:07,720 --> 01:16:09,800
Speaker 1: Colin would be like okay, and over to Christine with

1608
01:16:09,800 --> 01:16:11,720
Speaker 1: the news, and then there was like a doo doo

1609
01:16:11,720 --> 01:16:15,040
Speaker 1: doo dooo, like a musical thing, and I would never

1610
01:16:15,040 --> 01:16:17,280
Speaker 1: stop for the musical thing. I'd be like, Okay, the

1611
01:16:17,400 --> 01:16:19,720
Speaker 1: net of the day is And I did that like

1612
01:16:19,800 --> 01:16:25,679
Speaker 1: four times in a row, over talking over the music.

1613
01:16:25,800 --> 01:16:28,439
Speaker 1: You can't even hear what I'm saying anyways, and I'm like, oh,

1614
01:16:28,600 --> 01:16:31,000
Speaker 1: I just kept on forgetting about it. And I was

1615
01:16:31,040 --> 01:16:33,760
Speaker 1: also so nervous, and I remember somebody coming out I'd

1616
01:16:33,760 --> 01:16:36,720
Speaker 1: done it twice, somebody and I had a third hit

1617
01:16:36,800 --> 01:16:38,640
Speaker 1: in the show. Somebody came out and was just like,

1618
01:16:39,160 --> 01:16:41,800
Speaker 1: he screwed this up twice, don't take it three for three.

1619
01:16:43,520 --> 01:16:46,599
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh my god, I'm fired. I'm

1620
01:16:46,600 --> 01:16:49,320
Speaker 1: fired from a job. I don't even have um And

1621
01:16:49,360 --> 01:16:51,320
Speaker 1: it was just a bad day. I did you screw

1622
01:16:51,360 --> 01:16:52,560
Speaker 1: it up the third time or did you get it

1623
01:16:52,640 --> 01:16:54,000
Speaker 1: right on the third chap? I think I got it

1624
01:16:54,080 --> 01:16:56,559
Speaker 1: right for the third time, thankfully, but Chris and Nick

1625
01:16:56,600 --> 01:17:00,519
Speaker 1: were probably like, who is why were we up with her?

1626
01:17:00,560 --> 01:17:04,320
Speaker 1: Where's Christine? Uh? And so it was a while. It

1627
01:17:04,360 --> 01:17:06,160
Speaker 1: was it was a while where I was back on TV.

1628
01:17:07,240 --> 01:17:08,360
Speaker 1: Gave me a second to figure it out on the

1629
01:17:08,439 --> 01:17:12,000
Speaker 1: digital side. Um. But then uh, I just started feeling

1630
01:17:12,000 --> 01:17:16,440
Speaker 1: in like randomly, randomly here and there, uh for Christine

1631
01:17:16,680 --> 01:17:18,599
Speaker 1: and I actually got to sit in with Colin one time,

1632
01:17:18,680 --> 01:17:21,080
Speaker 1: then another couple of times. It was like Doug Gottlieb

1633
01:17:21,080 --> 01:17:24,280
Speaker 1: who fills in for calling sometimes. And then uh, I

1634
01:17:24,280 --> 01:17:26,639
Speaker 1: think the kicker was going away to the World Cup,

1635
01:17:27,120 --> 01:17:28,439
Speaker 1: and I was doing a lot of TV at the

1636
01:17:28,479 --> 01:17:31,360
Speaker 1: World Cup because we had so um, we had so

1637
01:17:31,400 --> 01:17:33,519
Speaker 1: many different programs happening. We had Tonight Show, we had

1638
01:17:33,520 --> 01:17:36,639
Speaker 1: a daily show, I had my digital show, which very

1639
01:17:36,720 --> 01:17:39,160
Speaker 1: much felt and looked like a television show. I was

1640
01:17:39,200 --> 01:17:43,320
Speaker 1: reading off prompter and we were doing it live and yeada, YadA, YadA.

1641
01:17:44,400 --> 01:17:50,080
Speaker 1: Oh my god, no, just once, I've been to Germany.

1642
01:17:50,439 --> 01:17:53,320
Speaker 1: Just that's it. So that's a big deal for people

1643
01:17:53,360 --> 01:17:55,759
Speaker 1: who don't realize you went over to Russia. The US

1644
01:17:55,880 --> 01:18:00,040
Speaker 1: misses the World Cup, which is like just devastating to

1645
01:18:00,120 --> 01:18:02,760
Speaker 1: be so bad. Where were you when the US got

1646
01:18:02,760 --> 01:18:05,000
Speaker 1: beat by Trinidad into Artago. I think it was right

1647
01:18:05,040 --> 01:18:09,240
Speaker 1: where Um. I was at a bar. We were doing

1648
01:18:09,240 --> 01:18:11,240
Speaker 1: a live stream we were doing I was doing a

1649
01:18:11,240 --> 01:18:13,280
Speaker 1: lot of soccer covers even leading up to the World Cup.

1650
01:18:13,320 --> 01:18:15,000
Speaker 1: We had like a pre show in a post show

1651
01:18:15,000 --> 01:18:18,240
Speaker 1: anytime the US had a qualifier. So I was at

1652
01:18:18,240 --> 01:18:20,360
Speaker 1: a bar and we had to go live seconds after

1653
01:18:20,840 --> 01:18:24,639
Speaker 1: they had gotten knocked out when I was just stew Holden,

1654
01:18:24,680 --> 01:18:26,600
Speaker 1: who used to be on the national team. He is

1655
01:18:26,640 --> 01:18:29,960
Speaker 1: an analyst for FS one now and calls crazy games

1656
01:18:29,960 --> 01:18:33,519
Speaker 1: like the World Cup final on Fox, and um him

1657
01:18:33,560 --> 01:18:36,320
Speaker 1: and I just had to like go through this fifteen

1658
01:18:36,400 --> 01:18:39,559
Speaker 1: twenty minute live show of being like, Okay, so the

1659
01:18:39,640 --> 01:18:42,040
Speaker 1: US is in the World Cup, but we're still going

1660
01:18:42,080 --> 01:18:43,640
Speaker 1: to the World Cup. We're gonna be in Russia in

1661
01:18:43,680 --> 01:18:46,519
Speaker 1: the summer. And it was just like a weird It was.

1662
01:18:46,600 --> 01:18:49,000
Speaker 1: It was a weird balance of like being excited and

1663
01:18:49,479 --> 01:18:52,880
Speaker 1: being sympathetic to all the American people watching that they

1664
01:18:52,880 --> 01:18:54,680
Speaker 1: didn't just make it into the World Cup. So um

1665
01:18:54,880 --> 01:18:57,519
Speaker 1: so I covered it every second leading up to it

1666
01:18:57,600 --> 01:18:59,360
Speaker 1: and then was there for the actual thing, which was

1667
01:18:59,360 --> 01:19:02,559
Speaker 1: pretty incredib ball, so it was incredible for everybody who

1668
01:19:02,560 --> 01:19:06,960
Speaker 1: watched it you also ended up hospitalized. What happened there? Um,

1669
01:19:07,000 --> 01:19:09,720
Speaker 1: I woke up. We were working insane hours, like I

1670
01:19:09,760 --> 01:19:11,559
Speaker 1: was doing my show like I mentioned, and then I

1671
01:19:11,600 --> 01:19:13,559
Speaker 1: was also doing this tonight show. So oftentimes I was

1672
01:19:13,560 --> 01:19:16,640
Speaker 1: working like twa like full days and uh and then

1673
01:19:16,680 --> 01:19:18,479
Speaker 1: also like going home and watching the games too, so

1674
01:19:18,520 --> 01:19:22,120
Speaker 1: it's not like I ever stopped. And um. So I

1675
01:19:22,160 --> 01:19:25,640
Speaker 1: woke up one day and I was really sick. I

1676
01:19:25,720 --> 01:19:28,439
Speaker 1: just did not feel good. I couldn't get out of bed.

1677
01:19:28,720 --> 01:19:30,519
Speaker 1: I showed up to work and they were like, go home.

1678
01:19:30,840 --> 01:19:33,519
Speaker 1: You look bad. If you get anyone else sick, we're

1679
01:19:33,600 --> 01:19:36,920
Speaker 1: in trouble. So you need to go home and rest. Um.

1680
01:19:37,000 --> 01:19:39,600
Speaker 1: And I didn't like vomit or anything like that. I

1681
01:19:39,640 --> 01:19:42,559
Speaker 1: just felt really weird. I felt weak, I felt like nauseous,

1682
01:19:42,600 --> 01:19:43,880
Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't know what's going on

1683
01:19:43,920 --> 01:19:47,400
Speaker 1: with me. So went home, slept for like fifteen hours

1684
01:19:47,400 --> 01:19:49,160
Speaker 1: something crazy, and then woke up the next day and

1685
01:19:49,200 --> 01:19:52,320
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, I feel pretty good, showed up to work,

1686
01:19:52,479 --> 01:19:55,599
Speaker 1: worked another crazy day. The next morning. I woke up

1687
01:19:55,960 --> 01:19:58,639
Speaker 1: usually because of the time difference, we were shooting later

1688
01:19:58,680 --> 01:20:00,639
Speaker 1: on in in the night, so I would finished until

1689
01:20:00,640 --> 01:20:02,400
Speaker 1: like three am, and I go home and then I

1690
01:20:02,400 --> 01:20:06,200
Speaker 1: would sleep until like noon or whatever. Um. I woke

1691
01:20:06,280 --> 01:20:07,880
Speaker 1: up at eight am the next day and I was

1692
01:20:07,920 --> 01:20:10,360
Speaker 1: just like, this is not good. I still need to

1693
01:20:10,360 --> 01:20:11,840
Speaker 1: be sleeping for a few hours if I'm going to

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01:20:11,880 --> 01:20:15,120
Speaker 1: be able to stand. Uh. And I felt really sick again,

1695
01:20:15,200 --> 01:20:17,839
Speaker 1: like super nauseous, and I just like I I just started

1696
01:20:18,280 --> 01:20:21,439
Speaker 1: huking like so bad. I texted our team doctor who

1697
01:20:21,520 --> 01:20:23,160
Speaker 1: was kind of like traveling around to all the different

1698
01:20:23,160 --> 01:20:27,439
Speaker 1: hotels that was in charge of Fox, and Uh. I

1699
01:20:27,520 --> 01:20:29,720
Speaker 1: was just like, I'm putting bad shape. You need to

1700
01:20:29,800 --> 01:20:32,080
Speaker 1: come to my room, like, please tell me. And he

1701
01:20:32,320 --> 01:20:35,960
Speaker 1: when he found me, I was on the bathroom floor

1702
01:20:36,000 --> 01:20:38,040
Speaker 1: because it was cold the tile, and I was like

1703
01:20:38,120 --> 01:20:41,240
Speaker 1: burning up and I just couldn't move. I was just like,

1704
01:20:41,280 --> 01:20:43,280
Speaker 1: if you touch me, I'm gonna throw up. I'm gonna

1705
01:20:43,280 --> 01:20:45,080
Speaker 1: throw up around your face, so we better not touch me.

1706
01:20:45,680 --> 01:20:48,280
Speaker 1: And uh. He took a shot of morphine and put

1707
01:20:48,320 --> 01:20:51,439
Speaker 1: it in a butt and that helped me to not vomit.

1708
01:20:51,600 --> 01:20:54,479
Speaker 1: And they've transported me from the tile floor in my

1709
01:20:54,520 --> 01:20:59,120
Speaker 1: bathroom to the hospital and uh and not in an ambulance, No,

1710
01:20:59,240 --> 01:21:02,920
Speaker 1: we had like some security cars so they transport transported

1711
01:21:02,920 --> 01:21:07,320
Speaker 1: me to the hospital, and um, I went in there

1712
01:21:07,320 --> 01:21:08,840
Speaker 1: and had like a bunch of scans and they're like,

1713
01:21:08,920 --> 01:21:12,040
Speaker 1: your gall bladder is more than twice its normal size

1714
01:21:12,240 --> 01:21:14,280
Speaker 1: and we have no idea why, so we're gonna have

1715
01:21:14,320 --> 01:21:17,519
Speaker 1: to do some tests. Um. At that point, thankfully I did.

1716
01:21:17,520 --> 01:21:21,120
Speaker 1: The morphine had made me stop vomiting, vomiting and feeling

1717
01:21:21,120 --> 01:21:24,559
Speaker 1: so nauseous. So I was like, Okay, at the time,

1718
01:21:25,160 --> 01:21:28,400
Speaker 1: you're in a Russian hospital, right, I'm in a Russian hospital.

1719
01:21:28,520 --> 01:21:32,040
Speaker 1: And as you can tell by my history, I hate hospitals.

1720
01:21:32,160 --> 01:21:34,800
Speaker 1: They give me anxiety. They freaked me out. I spent

1721
01:21:34,880 --> 01:21:36,559
Speaker 1: way too much time in them as a kid. I

1722
01:21:36,600 --> 01:21:40,280
Speaker 1: cannot stand hospital. So I'm like literally watching Netflix on

1723
01:21:40,320 --> 01:21:42,840
Speaker 1: my phone because like I can't think. I cannot be

1724
01:21:42,920 --> 01:21:44,760
Speaker 1: here in my mind, I Am not going to sit

1725
01:21:44,800 --> 01:21:48,880
Speaker 1: here and stare at the ceiling feeling like super nauseous still.

1726
01:21:48,960 --> 01:21:51,360
Speaker 1: And I remember at the time, I hadn't been fully

1727
01:21:51,360 --> 01:21:53,840
Speaker 1: admitted yet because they hadn't figured out my insurance, and

1728
01:21:53,880 --> 01:21:55,280
Speaker 1: so I was in like a weight like one of

1729
01:21:55,320 --> 01:21:57,240
Speaker 1: those like waiting rooms where there's like a ton of

1730
01:21:57,240 --> 01:21:59,880
Speaker 1: beds and you're only really separated by like a sheet. Um.

1731
01:22:00,080 --> 01:22:02,360
Speaker 1: I was in one of those for like probably three hours,

1732
01:22:02,960 --> 01:22:06,040
Speaker 1: and uh, I remember the wheeled this guy in. Keep

1733
01:22:06,080 --> 01:22:08,720
Speaker 1: in mind, I'm so nauseous. They wheeled this guy in

1734
01:22:08,840 --> 01:22:13,360
Speaker 1: from Boston of all places, and this guy has severe

1735
01:22:13,400 --> 01:22:15,920
Speaker 1: diarrhea and has had diarrhea for forty eight hours and

1736
01:22:16,000 --> 01:22:19,080
Speaker 1: would go into full detail in length for the next

1737
01:22:19,120 --> 01:22:22,160
Speaker 1: twenty minutes while I sat and choked down my vomit

1738
01:22:23,120 --> 01:22:26,000
Speaker 1: for it was it was laughable. I was just like,

1739
01:22:26,040 --> 01:22:28,240
Speaker 1: this is not happening to me. Why why are we

1740
01:22:28,280 --> 01:22:31,640
Speaker 1: both in this Russian hospital? So they ended up admitting me.

1741
01:22:32,280 --> 01:22:37,040
Speaker 1: I spent the next three days in the hospital begging

1742
01:22:37,080 --> 01:22:38,800
Speaker 1: them to let me go because I wanted to get

1743
01:22:38,840 --> 01:22:40,559
Speaker 1: back to work. I had to have a fill in

1744
01:22:40,720 --> 01:22:43,080
Speaker 1: which was just like this is my show. I need

1745
01:22:43,080 --> 01:22:44,840
Speaker 1: to get through the World Cup like this, I need

1746
01:22:44,880 --> 01:22:47,519
Speaker 1: a medal of honor. Once I finished it, uh, and

1747
01:22:47,560 --> 01:22:49,720
Speaker 1: I was, I was like devastated, and I just like

1748
01:22:49,800 --> 01:22:54,960
Speaker 1: watched TV and ate crutons and waited until my goldbladder

1749
01:22:55,000 --> 01:22:58,880
Speaker 1: went down to normal size. Fox Sports Radio has the

1750
01:22:58,960 --> 01:23:00,839
Speaker 1: best sports talk a lot end up in the nation.

1751
01:23:01,160 --> 01:23:04,080
Speaker 1: Catch all of our shows at Fox sports radio dot

1752
01:23:04,120 --> 01:23:07,160
Speaker 1: com and within the I heart radio app search f

1753
01:23:07,479 --> 01:23:11,160
Speaker 1: s R to listen live. I'm Clay Travis. Is Rachel

1754
01:23:11,160 --> 01:23:13,600
Speaker 1: Bannetta talking about our gallbladder on Wins and Losses and

1755
01:23:13,640 --> 01:23:16,000
Speaker 1: they figure out what caused your gallbladder to just like

1756
01:23:16,240 --> 01:23:18,840
Speaker 1: double in size. They said, it's a combination of things.

1757
01:23:18,880 --> 01:23:20,439
Speaker 1: It was like, it could have been stressed, it could

1758
01:23:20,439 --> 01:23:22,680
Speaker 1: have been eating different foods, which we absolutely were. The

1759
01:23:23,040 --> 01:23:25,920
Speaker 1: food in Russia was um as you can assume pretty

1760
01:23:25,920 --> 01:23:29,400
Speaker 1: different um not sleep, all of these things, and I

1761
01:23:29,439 --> 01:23:30,880
Speaker 1: was like, I check all those boxes. So yeah, it

1762
01:23:30,880 --> 01:23:34,040
Speaker 1: makes sense that I have a large callblatterer. But it

1763
01:23:34,120 --> 01:23:36,120
Speaker 1: just took. It took like three days and I started

1764
01:23:36,120 --> 01:23:37,720
Speaker 1: feeling a little bit normal. But then I couldn't eat

1765
01:23:37,760 --> 01:23:40,800
Speaker 1: normal food for like a couple of a couple of weeks.

1766
01:23:40,800 --> 01:23:42,600
Speaker 1: I had to have like boiled chicken and rice just

1767
01:23:42,720 --> 01:23:45,160
Speaker 1: until my my body went back to normal. So you

1768
01:23:45,280 --> 01:23:49,479
Speaker 1: come back from you survive living in Russia, you come

1769
01:23:49,479 --> 01:23:53,960
Speaker 1: back and you want to do television maybe? And when

1770
01:23:53,960 --> 01:23:57,120
Speaker 1: did you hear so walk it In is being worked on.

1771
01:23:57,520 --> 01:23:59,680
Speaker 1: I guess that we're like the next summer, right, like

1772
01:23:59,680 --> 01:24:02,160
Speaker 1: the next summer after the after the World Cup? Or

1773
01:24:02,200 --> 01:24:07,240
Speaker 1: was it the same summer, I literally from from Russia. Like,

1774
01:24:07,439 --> 01:24:10,599
Speaker 1: let's say on a Friday, and I got an email saying,

1775
01:24:10,920 --> 01:24:13,240
Speaker 1: Charlie Dixon, who's our boss now, wants to have lunch

1776
01:24:13,240 --> 01:24:14,720
Speaker 1: with you on Monday. Are you around? And I was

1777
01:24:14,760 --> 01:24:17,200
Speaker 1: like yeah, sure, And so I come to the Fox

1778
01:24:17,280 --> 01:24:19,000
Speaker 1: lot and I have lunch with Charlie and Charlie's is

1779
01:24:19,080 --> 01:24:23,400
Speaker 1: like there, I'm developing a show, um and uh Chris,

1780
01:24:23,400 --> 01:24:26,400
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna host it. And I really want you

1781
01:24:26,640 --> 01:24:29,640
Speaker 1: to be the fill in, like whenever she's sick or

1782
01:24:29,680 --> 01:24:31,280
Speaker 1: wants to go on vacation. I want you to be

1783
01:24:31,320 --> 01:24:33,519
Speaker 1: the designated number one fill in. That way, you're gonna

1784
01:24:33,520 --> 01:24:36,400
Speaker 1: get reps on TV, you're gonna learn this space, You're

1785
01:24:36,439 --> 01:24:38,760
Speaker 1: it's it's just like the perfect place for you. And

1786
01:24:38,800 --> 01:24:40,120
Speaker 1: he says like, if it's not this, if you're not

1787
01:24:40,160 --> 01:24:41,880
Speaker 1: interested in this, it's something else, like we definitely want

1788
01:24:41,880 --> 01:24:43,639
Speaker 1: to get you on TV this year and and like

1789
01:24:44,000 --> 01:24:46,680
Speaker 1: you know, more experience in yeah, yah YadA. And I

1790
01:24:46,680 --> 01:24:49,360
Speaker 1: was just like I'm absolutely down, Like I will start

1791
01:24:49,800 --> 01:24:53,360
Speaker 1: tomorrow whatever you need. And he's like, okay, great, good here,

1792
01:24:53,640 --> 01:24:57,559
Speaker 1: glad you're into it. Blah blah blah blah. Somehow from

1793
01:24:57,600 --> 01:25:02,880
Speaker 1: that Monday to literally the following Monday, ship hit the

1794
01:25:02,920 --> 01:25:05,080
Speaker 1: van and he called me on money. He was like, okay,

1795
01:25:05,080 --> 01:25:06,599
Speaker 1: so how would you actually like to host the whole

1796
01:25:06,600 --> 01:25:10,160
Speaker 1: thing because that's that's that's up for graps now, UM.

1797
01:25:10,200 --> 01:25:14,120
Speaker 1: And I was just like, yes, yes, yes that's terrifying,

1798
01:25:14,120 --> 01:25:16,720
Speaker 1: but yes I'm in UM. And so he's like, Okay,

1799
01:25:16,760 --> 01:25:18,240
Speaker 1: we're gonna like test it out and you can meet

1800
01:25:18,240 --> 01:25:20,280
Speaker 1: the guys and and we'll see. He's like, I'm not

1801
01:25:20,360 --> 01:25:22,800
Speaker 1: promising anything, but let's just you know, go to the

1802
01:25:22,840 --> 01:25:25,280
Speaker 1: next step and and see what this looks like. And

1803
01:25:25,320 --> 01:25:28,519
Speaker 1: so we were all I mean, you guys were flowed

1804
01:25:28,520 --> 01:25:31,600
Speaker 1: to l A still had no idea. I think in

1805
01:25:31,600 --> 01:25:33,960
Speaker 1: their minds they were like, okay, well she's gonna host it.

1806
01:25:34,200 --> 01:25:35,800
Speaker 1: Still to me, I was just like, okay, this is

1807
01:25:35,880 --> 01:25:37,840
Speaker 1: very much like a tryout. I need to be very

1808
01:25:37,880 --> 01:25:42,479
Speaker 1: proper and like just like really well everybody. And uh

1809
01:25:42,560 --> 01:25:45,479
Speaker 1: so I showed up to the meeting, um Met stal

1810
01:25:45,640 --> 01:25:48,880
Speaker 1: Met Todd had met you once before, and uh we

1811
01:25:49,000 --> 01:25:51,280
Speaker 1: just had like a really great first table read. I

1812
01:25:51,320 --> 01:25:54,519
Speaker 1: don't know what it was, um, but do you remember

1813
01:25:54,520 --> 01:25:56,040
Speaker 1: that like all of us were just like clicking and

1814
01:25:56,120 --> 01:25:58,479
Speaker 1: driving and like making fun of each other from the

1815
01:25:58,520 --> 01:26:01,080
Speaker 1: get go. From the beginning, this is like how we

1816
01:26:01,120 --> 01:26:04,120
Speaker 1: have done this show. Uh. And I remember like people

1817
01:26:04,120 --> 01:26:06,200
Speaker 1: looking around at each other at the table and they're like, Okay,

1818
01:26:06,200 --> 01:26:08,599
Speaker 1: this is it. This is a group. Uh. And then

1819
01:26:08,640 --> 01:26:10,519
Speaker 1: like a couple of days later, they Charlie called me

1820
01:26:10,520 --> 01:26:12,960
Speaker 1: into his office and he's like, so we wanted to

1821
01:26:12,960 --> 01:26:16,120
Speaker 1: host this show, and I just pretend vomited. I was

1822
01:26:16,160 --> 01:26:20,680
Speaker 1: like okay, and uh yeah, and then we just did

1823
01:26:20,720 --> 01:26:22,160
Speaker 1: like a bunch of trier and so a bunch of

1824
01:26:22,160 --> 01:26:24,000
Speaker 1: rehearsals leading up to the show and then it was lunched.

1825
01:26:24,080 --> 01:26:26,519
Speaker 1: So probably from the time that I found out I

1826
01:26:26,560 --> 01:26:29,200
Speaker 1: was getting the show, it was like two weeks until

1827
01:26:29,240 --> 01:26:32,120
Speaker 1: it actually happened two weeks three weeks to be And

1828
01:26:32,360 --> 01:26:34,400
Speaker 1: by the way, Charrissa decided she had so much going

1829
01:26:34,439 --> 01:26:37,479
Speaker 1: on she couldn't do a daily one hour show, which

1830
01:26:37,520 --> 01:26:39,400
Speaker 1: then left it open for who was going to be

1831
01:26:39,439 --> 01:26:43,840
Speaker 1: the host, and you just swept right in. But talking

1832
01:26:43,840 --> 01:26:47,120
Speaker 1: about taking risks, and I'm Clay Travis, Rachel Barnetta Wins

1833
01:26:47,120 --> 01:26:48,680
Speaker 1: and Losses. You've taken a lot of risks and a

1834
01:26:48,720 --> 01:26:50,719
Speaker 1: lot of creative risk in your career, but you didn't

1835
01:26:50,720 --> 01:26:53,439
Speaker 1: know anything about gambling like that. You you you were like, yeah,

1836
01:26:53,479 --> 01:26:55,360
Speaker 1: I'll do the show, but you're I mean you said

1837
01:26:55,360 --> 01:26:57,320
Speaker 1: earlier like you didn't know much about soccer when you

1838
01:26:57,360 --> 01:27:00,320
Speaker 1: started MLS. You just kind of threw yourself into to it,

1839
01:27:00,439 --> 01:27:02,720
Speaker 1: and they gave you like a binder to try to

1840
01:27:02,840 --> 01:27:05,760
Speaker 1: learn as much as you could before gambling started. Right.

1841
01:27:06,320 --> 01:27:09,000
Speaker 1: One thing that I'm really saying full for is I'm

1842
01:27:09,000 --> 01:27:11,439
Speaker 1: a quick learner. If I'm if I'm like dedicated to something,

1843
01:27:11,439 --> 01:27:13,519
Speaker 1: then I will pick it up. Um. And so that, yes,

1844
01:27:13,560 --> 01:27:16,479
Speaker 1: they gave me a binder, the Gambling Bible, and I

1845
01:27:16,520 --> 01:27:19,479
Speaker 1: went home and I just started pairing through that thing

1846
01:27:19,600 --> 01:27:21,479
Speaker 1: and had somebody like sit with me and kind of

1847
01:27:21,520 --> 01:27:24,280
Speaker 1: like understood, like because gambling, I feel like when you

1848
01:27:24,320 --> 01:27:25,800
Speaker 1: first look at it's a lot of numbers. It's like

1849
01:27:25,840 --> 01:27:28,040
Speaker 1: super intimidating. It's like WHOA, this is the language that

1850
01:27:28,040 --> 01:27:31,320
Speaker 1: I don't even understand sometimes until somebody sat with me

1851
01:27:31,320 --> 01:27:34,640
Speaker 1: and talked to me as a human being and like

1852
01:27:34,800 --> 01:27:37,640
Speaker 1: discussed every kind of game that you could play in

1853
01:27:37,760 --> 01:27:40,320
Speaker 1: terms of sports gambling, and I just got it. I

1854
01:27:40,320 --> 01:27:41,880
Speaker 1: picked it up, and then I just had to learn

1855
01:27:41,920 --> 01:27:43,800
Speaker 1: the terms and like how to say the numbers and

1856
01:27:43,840 --> 01:27:46,120
Speaker 1: the way that we say it with the halves and

1857
01:27:46,120 --> 01:27:49,720
Speaker 1: and the plus and minus and YadA YadA, YadA um

1858
01:27:49,760 --> 01:27:51,879
Speaker 1: and then I just figured it out. But also, football

1859
01:27:52,000 --> 01:27:54,200
Speaker 1: is not something that I was like, I've covered soccer

1860
01:27:54,400 --> 01:27:56,120
Speaker 1: for the past few years, and even if it was

1861
01:27:56,200 --> 01:27:59,880
Speaker 1: something that I was watching, I haven't. I haven't covered

1862
01:28:00,040 --> 01:28:02,040
Speaker 1: in a way that you're full on talking about it

1863
01:28:02,080 --> 01:28:04,920
Speaker 1: every single day, especially on TV, and TV basically have

1864
01:28:05,040 --> 01:28:07,639
Speaker 1: to be pretty bang on about everything that you're talking

1865
01:28:07,640 --> 01:28:10,759
Speaker 1: about in terms of like facts, unless you're Clay Travis. Um.

1866
01:28:12,240 --> 01:28:14,000
Speaker 1: So that was also something I was having to learn

1867
01:28:14,040 --> 01:28:16,640
Speaker 1: as well. Uh So I dove into sports gambling, I

1868
01:28:16,640 --> 01:28:19,320
Speaker 1: dove into football, and I picked it up relatively quickly.

1869
01:28:19,640 --> 01:28:21,519
Speaker 1: But then it was also like finding the confidence to

1870
01:28:21,560 --> 01:28:23,840
Speaker 1: talk about it too, um and talk about it in

1871
01:28:23,880 --> 01:28:25,800
Speaker 1: like a way that you would talk to your friends,

1872
01:28:25,840 --> 01:28:27,880
Speaker 1: because that's exactly what our show is like, a bunch

1873
01:28:27,880 --> 01:28:30,439
Speaker 1: of people chatting about, you know, what games they like

1874
01:28:30,520 --> 01:28:32,720
Speaker 1: and what kind of bets they like. So it was

1875
01:28:32,760 --> 01:28:34,639
Speaker 1: a lot of work. It was a ton of work.

1876
01:28:34,640 --> 01:28:37,439
Speaker 1: I remember like being very close to panic attack a

1877
01:28:37,479 --> 01:28:39,360
Speaker 1: couple of the nights leading up to our first show

1878
01:28:39,360 --> 01:28:40,479
Speaker 1: because I was like, I don't know if I can

1879
01:28:40,479 --> 01:28:43,280
Speaker 1: do this, Like I think they've got the wrong person. Um,

1880
01:28:43,320 --> 01:28:47,360
Speaker 1: But thankfully things things went the right way. How So

1881
01:28:47,400 --> 01:28:49,559
Speaker 1: we talked about that first table read. We were it's

1882
01:28:49,560 --> 01:28:51,760
Speaker 1: not on the lot. We're sitting there. For people who

1883
01:28:51,840 --> 01:28:54,360
Speaker 1: may not understand what that's like. It's there's no cameras,

1884
01:28:54,720 --> 01:28:57,479
Speaker 1: there's no dress up, like, there's no you know, makeup

1885
01:28:57,560 --> 01:29:00,000
Speaker 1: or anything, or nobody's dressed in fancy clothes or any

1886
01:29:00,040 --> 01:29:01,840
Speaker 1: thing like that, but you just kind of do a

1887
01:29:01,920 --> 01:29:04,880
Speaker 1: mock show. And almost from the get go it was

1888
01:29:04,960 --> 01:29:07,719
Speaker 1: really really smooth. I mean, I knew Furman, I didn't

1889
01:29:07,720 --> 01:29:09,960
Speaker 1: know sal at all. I didn't. I didn't know you

1890
01:29:10,040 --> 01:29:12,840
Speaker 1: other than to have met you at that Super Bowl party,

1891
01:29:13,280 --> 01:29:16,000
Speaker 1: and so I don't think you knew anybody, right, Like

1892
01:29:16,040 --> 01:29:18,240
Speaker 1: you didn't know any of the three of us. No,

1893
01:29:18,360 --> 01:29:21,719
Speaker 1: I I didn't know anyone. I remember our boss calling

1894
01:29:21,760 --> 01:29:23,400
Speaker 1: me and being like, do you know who cousins Salas?

1895
01:29:23,400 --> 01:29:25,880
Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, that's that name. Sounds really familiar.

1896
01:29:26,160 --> 01:29:27,400
Speaker 1: And I had my computer in front of me and

1897
01:29:27,400 --> 01:29:29,000
Speaker 1: I looked it up and I'm like, oh, yeah, Jimmy

1898
01:29:29,040 --> 01:29:31,360
Speaker 1: kimbl Okay, I got that uh, and then I had

1899
01:29:31,400 --> 01:29:35,120
Speaker 1: met you literally one time before, um, and I didn't

1900
01:29:35,120 --> 01:29:37,120
Speaker 1: know Todd Furman, So I was just like I was

1901
01:29:37,160 --> 01:29:40,519
Speaker 1: going in pretty blind for sure. So how so first

1902
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Speaker 1: of all they announced the show and are you like

1903
01:29:44,240 --> 01:29:47,439
Speaker 1: people immediately are going to say things bad about me? Right? Like?

1904
01:29:47,520 --> 01:29:50,559
Speaker 1: I did anybody say anything bad about sal Or Furman

1905
01:29:50,640 --> 01:29:53,519
Speaker 1: to you? Um? I don't think so. I think it

1906
01:29:53,560 --> 01:29:55,479
Speaker 1: was all yeah. I remember my mom calling me and

1907
01:29:55,520 --> 01:29:58,479
Speaker 1: being like who, Like what is this Clay's guy? What

1908
01:29:58,600 --> 01:30:01,000
Speaker 1: is this deal? Like? Why is everyone one? You know?

1909
01:30:01,080 --> 01:30:04,280
Speaker 1: You would sink when you announced the show that everyone's

1910
01:30:04,280 --> 01:30:06,280
Speaker 1: going to be like raw raw raw, Yes, like this

1911
01:30:06,439 --> 01:30:08,960
Speaker 1: is amazing, congratulations and they're like I would watch it

1912
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Speaker 1: if Clay Travis wasn't on it. It's like what am

1913
01:30:12,200 --> 01:30:16,920
Speaker 1: I signing up for? Oh my goodness? Um, but I

1914
01:30:17,000 --> 01:30:19,000
Speaker 1: was excited. I remember there's a photo of my mom

1915
01:30:19,080 --> 01:30:21,519
Speaker 1: that my aunt's hook when I called her and told

1916
01:30:21,520 --> 01:30:23,200
Speaker 1: her that I got the job, and it's just like

1917
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Speaker 1: her with a huge smile on her face being like,

1918
01:30:25,840 --> 01:30:29,759
Speaker 1: oh my god. So that was pretty cool. But it's exciting.

1919
01:30:29,800 --> 01:30:33,280
Speaker 1: I mean, it's like a new venture and people that

1920
01:30:33,360 --> 01:30:36,080
Speaker 1: have watched you grow for as long as people have

1921
01:30:36,080 --> 01:30:38,360
Speaker 1: been watching me grow. I think when I say, like,

1922
01:30:38,520 --> 01:30:40,320
Speaker 1: all right, I'm moving on to TV, people are like

1923
01:30:40,439 --> 01:30:42,160
Speaker 1: that is awesome. Like I said, I've had a lot

1924
01:30:42,280 --> 01:30:45,040
Speaker 1: of I've been really lucky and had a lot of

1925
01:30:45,640 --> 01:30:51,160
Speaker 1: uh positive people following me, and so I I don't

1926
01:30:51,200 --> 01:30:55,479
Speaker 1: really get a lot of nasty stuff unless you're Tom

1927
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Speaker 1: Allen Bauld. Yeah, of course. So how nervous were you

1928
01:30:59,160 --> 01:31:03,080
Speaker 1: before the first show? Um, I was freaking out. I

1929
01:31:03,120 --> 01:31:04,920
Speaker 1: was freaking out, and I was freaking out for a

1930
01:31:04,960 --> 01:31:08,840
Speaker 1: long while after that. Like I the first half of

1931
01:31:08,840 --> 01:31:11,840
Speaker 1: of our season, I probably didn't sleep much. Like I

1932
01:31:11,880 --> 01:31:15,000
Speaker 1: was just like constantly in fear of getting something wrong.

1933
01:31:16,520 --> 01:31:19,719
Speaker 1: And like that dates back to when I was a kid,

1934
01:31:19,760 --> 01:31:23,800
Speaker 1: Like I didn't have somebody who was being like great job,

1935
01:31:23,920 --> 01:31:26,719
Speaker 1: Like you should have all the confidence in the world, because,

1936
01:31:26,760 --> 01:31:28,639
Speaker 1: like like I said, my parents were busy with other things.

1937
01:31:29,280 --> 01:31:32,599
Speaker 1: And so my therapist has helped me and navigate that road. Um,

1938
01:31:32,680 --> 01:31:35,639
Speaker 1: but uh so I'm constantly just in fear of like

1939
01:31:35,760 --> 01:31:39,240
Speaker 1: being wrong, saying the wrong thing, not doing well, screwing up,

1940
01:31:39,280 --> 01:31:41,840
Speaker 1: getting fired. I mean even yesterday we had our you know,

1941
01:31:41,880 --> 01:31:45,000
Speaker 1: we've we've had our season premiere of of season two

1942
01:31:45,000 --> 01:31:49,439
Speaker 1: of Blocking In, and um, my boss was just like, yeah,

1943
01:31:49,439 --> 01:31:50,720
Speaker 1: I got I got a couple of notes. I'm like,

1944
01:31:50,800 --> 01:31:52,439
Speaker 1: you know, you have to call me tonight and tell

1945
01:31:52,479 --> 01:31:54,200
Speaker 1: me those notes now or else I will think about

1946
01:31:54,240 --> 01:31:56,120
Speaker 1: it until tomorrow morning. And they were all good notes.

1947
01:31:56,560 --> 01:31:57,920
Speaker 1: But he called me like, I know, I had to

1948
01:31:57,920 --> 01:32:00,000
Speaker 1: call you because you're just gonna go crazy over these things.

1949
01:32:00,000 --> 01:32:01,680
Speaker 1: And he's like, I'm guess I'm glad that you know

1950
01:32:01,840 --> 01:32:03,840
Speaker 1: the kind of person I am now. Um, but it

1951
01:32:03,920 --> 01:32:06,720
Speaker 1: took a while to kind of find my footing and

1952
01:32:06,800 --> 01:32:10,599
Speaker 1: get comfortable. And live television is terrifying when you're first

1953
01:32:10,600 --> 01:32:14,040
Speaker 1: starting out, and I think people, I'm sure people realize

1954
01:32:14,080 --> 01:32:15,800
Speaker 1: that it's a scary thing, but when you're sitting in

1955
01:32:15,840 --> 01:32:17,880
Speaker 1: front of the camera, you feel so I felt like

1956
01:32:17,920 --> 01:32:20,040
Speaker 1: a kid. I felt like a child that first day, like,

1957
01:32:20,080 --> 01:32:22,559
Speaker 1: oh my god, somebody please hold my hand and walk

1958
01:32:22,640 --> 01:32:25,320
Speaker 1: me through this because I cannot do it alone. But

1959
01:32:25,360 --> 01:32:27,360
Speaker 1: thankfully I just like blacked out and got through it

1960
01:32:27,400 --> 01:32:28,720
Speaker 1: and got through the next day and the next day

1961
01:32:28,720 --> 01:32:30,000
Speaker 1: and the next day, and now I'm like, you know,

1962
01:32:30,320 --> 01:32:33,639
Speaker 1: pretty used to it and feel much more confident about

1963
01:32:33,680 --> 01:32:36,439
Speaker 1: everything in terms of you know what, we're talking about,

1964
01:32:36,439 --> 01:32:39,840
Speaker 1: but it was pretty scary there for a while. So

1965
01:32:40,040 --> 01:32:43,760
Speaker 1: what I think is fascinating about you in particular is

1966
01:32:44,200 --> 01:32:49,920
Speaker 1: you're young, um, but you don't like you can be

1967
01:32:50,000 --> 01:32:52,880
Speaker 1: made fun of on the television show in a way

1968
01:32:52,880 --> 01:32:55,760
Speaker 1: that I think a lot of people can't. Um, and

1969
01:32:56,280 --> 01:32:58,160
Speaker 1: like people make fun of me all the time. Whatever

1970
01:32:58,200 --> 01:33:00,760
Speaker 1: I'm forty, I've been through, you know, like that's kind

1971
01:33:00,800 --> 01:33:03,200
Speaker 1: of been my life story for a while. But I

1972
01:33:03,240 --> 01:33:05,960
Speaker 1: feel like in this Instagram age that we're in, so

1973
01:33:06,040 --> 01:33:08,640
Speaker 1: many people are like they want to put out a

1974
01:33:08,760 --> 01:33:13,200
Speaker 1: version of themselves is perfect, but you're comfortable in the imperfect.

1975
01:33:13,400 --> 01:33:18,680
Speaker 1: Why do you think that is? Um? I don't know.

1976
01:33:18,960 --> 01:33:20,760
Speaker 1: I think I just want to be I know it's

1977
01:33:20,920 --> 01:33:24,080
Speaker 1: gonna sounds so losory, but I just want to be

1978
01:33:24,840 --> 01:33:28,439
Speaker 1: me because I look at so many other people on

1979
01:33:28,479 --> 01:33:31,400
Speaker 1: Instagram they're like putting out this perfect version of themselves

1980
01:33:31,400 --> 01:33:35,080
Speaker 1: and like, to be honest, I definitely curate my Instagram

1981
01:33:35,080 --> 01:33:37,160
Speaker 1: to what I wanted to be. I'm not like showing

1982
01:33:37,160 --> 01:33:41,519
Speaker 1: all the sad stuff that I've talked about on here, um,

1983
01:33:41,560 --> 01:33:43,639
Speaker 1: but I feel like it would be so easy for

1984
01:33:43,760 --> 01:33:49,759
Speaker 1: me to post photos where I'm like looking good and

1985
01:33:49,960 --> 01:33:52,679
Speaker 1: you know, feeling good, and I feel like my followers

1986
01:33:52,720 --> 01:33:56,479
Speaker 1: would probably jump way up. And you know, anytime I

1987
01:33:56,520 --> 01:33:59,280
Speaker 1: even post a selfie on my Instagram, it's like astronomically

1988
01:33:59,280 --> 01:34:01,639
Speaker 1: more like said, if I were to post the sunset picture,

1989
01:34:01,680 --> 01:34:04,280
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So I can see what works,

1990
01:34:04,840 --> 01:34:07,080
Speaker 1: but I just don't want to be that. I feel

1991
01:34:07,080 --> 01:34:10,479
Speaker 1: like I absolutely want to be an advocate for women

1992
01:34:10,680 --> 01:34:13,400
Speaker 1: in this space in sports and in television, and there's

1993
01:34:13,439 --> 01:34:15,880
Speaker 1: not a ton of us. And so when I'm looking

1994
01:34:15,880 --> 01:34:19,800
Speaker 1: at somebody, whether it's on social media or TV and

1995
01:34:19,840 --> 01:34:22,519
Speaker 1: I and they've got like, you know, gigantic boobs and

1996
01:34:22,520 --> 01:34:24,439
Speaker 1: they look perfect, I'm like, I can't do that. I

1997
01:34:24,479 --> 01:34:27,000
Speaker 1: can't be that person. But maybe if somebody's watching me

1998
01:34:27,080 --> 01:34:29,799
Speaker 1: and I'm being a goofball and totally imperfect and messing

1999
01:34:29,840 --> 01:34:33,160
Speaker 1: up my lines and laughing at myself, and maybe they're like, Okay,

2000
01:34:33,240 --> 01:34:35,439
Speaker 1: I can do that and be probably better than that.

2001
01:34:36,240 --> 01:34:38,720
Speaker 1: I just I do think about that a lot, and

2002
01:34:38,760 --> 01:34:41,640
Speaker 1: I would never want to be somebody that I'm not

2003
01:34:41,840 --> 01:34:46,439
Speaker 1: and and that version of you know, and kudos to

2004
01:34:46,479 --> 01:34:48,920
Speaker 1: those women who can feel comfortable in their skin and

2005
01:34:48,960 --> 01:34:50,679
Speaker 1: be sexy and all that stuff. That's just like not

2006
01:34:51,360 --> 01:34:55,120
Speaker 1: who I am, and I never want to be like that.

2007
01:34:55,200 --> 01:34:58,919
Speaker 1: I just want to be the goofy me that I am.

2008
01:34:59,120 --> 01:35:02,080
Speaker 1: Fox Sports Radio has the best sports talk lineup in

2009
01:35:02,120 --> 01:35:05,080
Speaker 1: the nation. Catch all of our shows at Fox Sports

2010
01:35:05,200 --> 01:35:08,280
Speaker 1: Radio dot com and within the I Heart Radio app

2011
01:35:08,360 --> 01:35:12,880
Speaker 1: search f s R to listen live. We're talking to

2012
01:35:12,960 --> 01:35:15,599
Speaker 1: Rachel bonetto wins and Losses. You get tagged a lot

2013
01:35:16,120 --> 01:35:18,639
Speaker 1: on things that I say or do, and people are like,

2014
01:35:19,600 --> 01:35:22,679
Speaker 1: how in the world can you stand that awful human being,

2015
01:35:22,720 --> 01:35:27,599
Speaker 1: Clay Travis. People, A lot of people who are listening

2016
01:35:27,640 --> 01:35:30,760
Speaker 1: to this right now are already going to like me

2017
01:35:30,880 --> 01:35:32,720
Speaker 1: or at least tolerate me. But also there will be

2018
01:35:32,760 --> 01:35:34,920
Speaker 1: people who are listening to this right now that are

2019
01:35:35,040 --> 01:35:37,320
Speaker 1: fans of yours that don't really know me, or they

2020
01:35:37,320 --> 01:35:39,519
Speaker 1: are fans, or they're just finding this, And I hope

2021
01:35:39,520 --> 01:35:41,439
Speaker 1: this is something people will listen to for a long

2022
01:35:41,479 --> 01:35:43,320
Speaker 1: time in the future, and they're listening to this after

2023
01:35:43,360 --> 01:35:46,360
Speaker 1: you just won an Emmy or after you after you

2024
01:35:46,439 --> 01:35:50,080
Speaker 1: just won some award for an acting related venture. But

2025
01:35:50,400 --> 01:35:53,280
Speaker 1: what I would argue is people don't have to agree

2026
01:35:53,280 --> 01:35:56,719
Speaker 1: on everything to like each other, right, And I address

2027
01:35:56,800 --> 01:35:59,000
Speaker 1: this because I'm sure that you're gonna get tagged as

2028
01:35:59,040 --> 01:36:00,320
Speaker 1: soon as I put it up, Like, how in the

2029
01:36:00,400 --> 01:36:02,320
Speaker 1: world can you spend time with Clay like you and

2030
01:36:02,360 --> 01:36:04,080
Speaker 1: I don't agree on a lot of different things in

2031
01:36:04,120 --> 01:36:05,960
Speaker 1: the world. I don't agree on one of different things

2032
01:36:05,960 --> 01:36:08,240
Speaker 1: with my wife or my parents everybody else. I tend

2033
01:36:08,280 --> 01:36:11,519
Speaker 1: to get along with everyone. And I feel like there's

2034
01:36:11,720 --> 01:36:13,679
Speaker 1: a sort of zeit guest that's out there right now

2035
01:36:13,800 --> 01:36:16,760
Speaker 1: of if you don't agree with everything, you shouldn't be

2036
01:36:16,840 --> 01:36:19,800
Speaker 1: hanging out with this person. And I feel like, even

2037
01:36:19,800 --> 01:36:22,160
Speaker 1: though we disagree on things, you probably agree with me.

2038
01:36:22,240 --> 01:36:24,559
Speaker 1: That life would be kind of boring if you only

2039
01:36:24,640 --> 01:36:26,599
Speaker 1: hung out with people who agreed with you on everything.

2040
01:36:27,280 --> 01:36:28,799
Speaker 1: I think that's true. And I think that, if anything,

2041
01:36:28,880 --> 01:36:31,479
Speaker 1: you have taught me that this year, because I feel like,

2042
01:36:32,439 --> 01:36:35,559
Speaker 1: you know, I'm, you know, pretty to the left and

2043
01:36:35,800 --> 01:36:38,599
Speaker 1: I don't agree with some of the things that that

2044
01:36:38,680 --> 01:36:41,519
Speaker 1: you post, and um, same with some of my family,

2045
01:36:41,600 --> 01:36:43,800
Speaker 1: Like some of my family voted for Trump and I

2046
01:36:43,800 --> 01:36:48,080
Speaker 1: don't necessarily agree with that, but um, that doesn't necessarily

2047
01:36:48,120 --> 01:36:52,439
Speaker 1: mean they're an absolutely atrocious person. And I think that, Um,

2048
01:36:52,800 --> 01:36:55,880
Speaker 1: it's like our society is a mess right now because

2049
01:36:55,880 --> 01:36:57,519
Speaker 1: all of us hate each other because of where we

2050
01:36:57,560 --> 01:37:01,000
Speaker 1: stand politically, and that's just never really been the case before,

2051
01:37:01,400 --> 01:37:03,320
Speaker 1: and it's only going to make problems worse. So I

2052
01:37:03,360 --> 01:37:05,519
Speaker 1: think that, you know, going into this show, I was like,

2053
01:37:06,040 --> 01:37:07,920
Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm gonna have to Travis. He was

2054
01:37:07,920 --> 01:37:10,080
Speaker 1: just talking about boobs on CNN, Like, how am I

2055
01:37:10,080 --> 01:37:11,760
Speaker 1: going to what you think? By the way, when you

2056
01:37:11,840 --> 01:37:13,519
Speaker 1: heard that, I said that I was the first amendment

2057
01:37:13,560 --> 01:37:16,640
Speaker 1: in boobs absolut you know, like you were Dingleberry, I

2058
01:37:16,680 --> 01:37:19,320
Speaker 1: was like, this guy's a loser. What is he doing?

2059
01:37:19,360 --> 01:37:21,240
Speaker 1: He's trying to get a right, like a rise out

2060
01:37:21,240 --> 01:37:24,840
Speaker 1: of women. And I was, I was, I remember you.

2061
01:37:24,960 --> 01:37:27,000
Speaker 1: I was talking to somebody, one of my girlfriends who

2062
01:37:27,080 --> 01:37:28,960
Speaker 1: was also working in sports, and we were talking about

2063
01:37:28,960 --> 01:37:31,040
Speaker 1: it the day that you did that, and I was

2064
01:37:31,080 --> 01:37:33,160
Speaker 1: just like I was pissed because it was at a

2065
01:37:33,200 --> 01:37:35,599
Speaker 1: time I think, like the me too stuff was happening,

2066
01:37:35,640 --> 01:37:37,439
Speaker 1: and it was just a time to be angry as

2067
01:37:37,439 --> 01:37:39,920
Speaker 1: a woman. And I was just like, how dare he?

2068
01:37:40,120 --> 01:37:42,320
Speaker 1: Like that's just so stupid. Give us a little bit

2069
01:37:42,360 --> 01:37:44,519
Speaker 1: more than that, and like talk about women in a

2070
01:37:44,520 --> 01:37:46,760
Speaker 1: way that we deserve to be talked about, not just

2071
01:37:46,800 --> 01:37:50,360
Speaker 1: like from our boobs, and I was. I was genuinely angry.

2072
01:37:50,520 --> 01:37:53,360
Speaker 1: And then you know, people I say stupid stuff too,

2073
01:37:53,400 --> 01:37:55,400
Speaker 1: and not to say that, you know, you should have

2074
01:37:55,439 --> 01:37:56,840
Speaker 1: said that. You shouldn't have said that. We don't need

2075
01:37:56,840 --> 01:37:59,040
Speaker 1: to go back into that. But I think that just

2076
01:37:59,080 --> 01:38:03,640
Speaker 1: because somebody tweet something or says something that does not

2077
01:38:04,120 --> 01:38:09,240
Speaker 1: tell you totally and completely who that person is. And

2078
01:38:09,280 --> 01:38:11,120
Speaker 1: I think that that's what I've learned this year from

2079
01:38:11,120 --> 01:38:12,479
Speaker 1: doing the show. And sal and I had a lot

2080
01:38:12,479 --> 01:38:14,439
Speaker 1: of conversations about this in the beginning because him and

2081
01:38:14,479 --> 01:38:17,880
Speaker 1: I are, you know, relatively similar, and you know what

2082
01:38:17,920 --> 01:38:19,760
Speaker 1: we what we think and what we feel. I don't

2083
01:38:19,800 --> 01:38:22,639
Speaker 1: mean to speak for him, but um, Tim and I

2084
01:38:22,680 --> 01:38:24,639
Speaker 1: have this conversation like we totally thought we were gonna

2085
01:38:24,640 --> 01:38:25,920
Speaker 1: hate you because we thought you were gonna be a

2086
01:38:26,000 --> 01:38:28,639
Speaker 1: butt head, and you're not. You invited my mom into

2087
01:38:28,640 --> 01:38:31,840
Speaker 1: your home, and my mom's met your mom, and our

2088
01:38:31,880 --> 01:38:34,760
Speaker 1: families have come together and you've been nothing but nice

2089
01:38:34,800 --> 01:38:37,280
Speaker 1: and supportive to me and my career. And it's a

2090
01:38:37,280 --> 01:38:39,280
Speaker 1: little bit disappointing that you're not as big of an

2091
01:38:39,280 --> 01:38:40,760
Speaker 1: asshole as I thought you were going to be, because

2092
01:38:40,800 --> 01:38:45,320
Speaker 1: I was fully prepared to hate you you are. You know,

2093
01:38:45,360 --> 01:38:48,800
Speaker 1: I think that you're right. I think that um, you know,

2094
01:38:48,840 --> 01:38:50,599
Speaker 1: I I'm not going to agree with everything that you say,

2095
01:38:50,600 --> 01:38:52,080
Speaker 1: and you're not gonna agree with everything that I say.

2096
01:38:52,120 --> 01:38:55,640
Speaker 1: But that doesn't mean that we should not try to

2097
01:38:55,840 --> 01:38:57,680
Speaker 1: be friends. Because what I've realized is that you and

2098
01:38:57,720 --> 01:38:59,759
Speaker 1: I do have a lot in common and we stand

2099
01:38:59,800 --> 01:39:01,760
Speaker 1: on the same ground in some places, and that's what

2100
01:39:01,880 --> 01:39:05,120
Speaker 1: makes people friends, and that's what makes relationships happen. And

2101
01:39:05,360 --> 01:39:08,719
Speaker 1: I think that more people should have, uh an outlook

2102
01:39:08,840 --> 01:39:11,320
Speaker 1: on that. And in fact, I spend some time with

2103
01:39:11,360 --> 01:39:14,280
Speaker 1: my my uncle who you know, otherwise I'm I have

2104
01:39:14,360 --> 01:39:16,000
Speaker 1: nothing in common with a couple of weeks ago and

2105
01:39:16,439 --> 01:39:18,479
Speaker 1: him and I had a conversation which we hadn't had

2106
01:39:18,600 --> 01:39:20,479
Speaker 1: in like a couple of years, and I tried to

2107
01:39:20,520 --> 01:39:23,080
Speaker 1: be on common ground because that's trying, like, that's me

2108
01:39:23,160 --> 01:39:26,320
Speaker 1: trying to look at the world in this light. Now,

2109
01:39:26,439 --> 01:39:29,280
Speaker 1: you know, Uh, last couple of questions for you, and

2110
01:39:29,320 --> 01:39:34,880
Speaker 1: thanks for all the times. Uh, the last couple of

2111
01:39:34,960 --> 01:39:36,840
Speaker 1: questions for you. You're not even ten years out of

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Speaker 1: high school. If that's weird, Yeah, And I still think

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Speaker 1: that's crazy. And I think there's a lot of people

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Speaker 1: who are going to be listening and think that's crazy too,

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Speaker 1: because you remember your ten year high school unions or

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Speaker 1: whatever else. But if you were about to have your

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Speaker 1: twenty year high school reunion, so eleven years from now,

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Speaker 1: a decade plus, what would you hope you have done

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Speaker 1: by thirty eight that you haven't done b by thirty eight.

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Speaker 1: I hope that, first off, I really just hope that

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Speaker 1: I'm happy, because we can. I feel like this phase

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Speaker 1: of my life, I'm realizing like I've already done a

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Speaker 1: ton of stuff with my career, and um, that's it.

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Speaker 1: It's it's not everything. Money, isn't everything your accolades, like,

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Speaker 1: it's just not It's not what you want to leave

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Speaker 1: the world with. So I hope that I'm in a

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Speaker 1: place that I am happy and not so career obsessed,

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Speaker 1: which I am right now. I hope that that kind

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Speaker 1: of like dies down a little teeny tiny bit and

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Speaker 1: I'm at a place that I'm happy with. But also

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Speaker 1: that I just like keep on growing and taking on

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Speaker 1: more opportunities and and just staying the same person and

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Speaker 1: not becoming, um a jerk or an asshole. And I

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Speaker 1: feel like going home helps that a lot, because my

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Speaker 1: mom still lives in a very very small town with

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Speaker 1: only like a hundred people. And so going back to

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Speaker 1: those places where no one knows who you are and

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Speaker 1: um you're treated like everybody else is is very grounding

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Speaker 1: and a beautiful thing for me. And then I just

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Speaker 1: keep on making stuff because we can, so we can

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01:41:05,840 --> 01:41:07,920
Speaker 1: get caught up in our busy day to day, Like

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Speaker 1: we do a live show every single day, it's almost

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Speaker 1: impossible to go home and have energy to do anything

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Speaker 1: like a freaking two hour podcast right now. But UM,

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Speaker 1: I hope I came on writing and making something that

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Speaker 1: I'm really proud of. And um, I've got some projects

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Speaker 1: on the on the back burner that I'm going to

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Speaker 1: try and put my all into this year and snap

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Speaker 1: again like I did when I was like ten years ago. Um,

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Speaker 1: And I just hope I'm happy, I said last, this

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Speaker 1: is the last question. So you are what I like?

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01:41:34,400 --> 01:41:37,240
Speaker 1: Is I like people who are honest, right and authentic

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Speaker 1: and just saying what they think and what they feel.

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Speaker 1: Um do you worry at all about being so open

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Speaker 1: and you know sort of an arrow where there are

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01:41:46,920 --> 01:41:50,320
Speaker 1: almost no privacy at times? Right? Um? Or is that

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01:41:50,400 --> 01:41:53,080
Speaker 1: just something you're naturally comfortable with because there's people who

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Speaker 1: are listening to this right now and they're going to say, Wow,

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Speaker 1: I love Rahl. I didn't know her before, and they're

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Speaker 1: gonna be like this. Every thing that she said in

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Speaker 1: this podcast was so honest and I knew you would,

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Speaker 1: but sometimes in our society that's rare. Yeah, well, I

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Speaker 1: think that, Um, I don't know for me, Okay, when

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Speaker 1: when I think about mental health, and I think about

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Speaker 1: depression and anxiety, and I also have obsessive compulsive disorder

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Speaker 1: that was really bad when I was younger. That used

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Speaker 1: to make me feel crazy. I used to think that

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Speaker 1: I was a crazy person and that nobody else on

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Speaker 1: this planet felt that way, and that made me feel isolated.

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Speaker 1: It made me feel disgusted when I thought about myself.

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Speaker 1: I hated myself for that. And it wasn't until you know, recently,

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Speaker 1: people have been more open about their mental health, and

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Speaker 1: I've learned more about obsessive compulsive disorder because people talk

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Speaker 1: about it more, and um, I've been able to feel

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Speaker 1: more comfortable in my skin, and so I feel like,

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Speaker 1: you know, there's there's nothing that I feel to attached

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Speaker 1: to in my personal life beside maybe like my personal relationship.

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Speaker 1: Would you guys like to make kind of almost every

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Speaker 1: single day. Don't know that he's ever going to propose

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Speaker 1: to you, to be honest. Besides that, like you know,

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Speaker 1: every everything that I've been through, I hope talking about

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Speaker 1: it helps other people go through it. Like the loss

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Speaker 1: of my father, that was something that I was really

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Speaker 1: really hard to overcome, and I can only hope. That's

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Speaker 1: why I talk about it, is that people talking about

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Speaker 1: things that pertain to me, when they're open about it,

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Speaker 1: it's made me feel better. So then I realize, Okay, well,

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Speaker 1: if I keep on pushing this and keep on talking

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Speaker 1: about whether it's mental health or grieving and death and

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Speaker 1: or success or being a female in sports, um or

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Speaker 1: being really lucky, you know, there's so many people that

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Speaker 1: could hear my story and be like, oh ship, like

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Speaker 1: it doesn't matter, Like if I work hard, I could

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Speaker 1: get lucky and and have this career that I've been

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Speaker 1: been I've been hoping for. So I think it's so

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Speaker 1: beneficial on in so many ways to be open about

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Speaker 1: your struggles and also your winds as well, because you

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Speaker 1: don't know who's listening, You don't know who it can

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Speaker 1: eventually help are you happy now. I'm pretty happy. I'm

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Speaker 1: getting there. I'm working on it. I go to therapy

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Speaker 1: every single week and that's been really helpful. It's do

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Speaker 1: you go to therapy? Do you talk to anybody? You

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Speaker 1: probably should? I have so many, so many voices in

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Speaker 1: my head. I just talked to them. Um No, I'm I'm.

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Speaker 1: I can say I'm definitely working on it. I think

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Speaker 1: I'm really I'm I'm finally this year, I'm like, wow,

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Speaker 1: I can't believe I've done so much, even even like

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Speaker 1: taking moments like this when I'm like looking back on

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Speaker 1: my career, even though it's been fairly short so far,

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Speaker 1: it's like I've done a lot and I've worked my

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Speaker 1: butt off, like I'm exhausted, and I'm still going and

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Speaker 1: I'm still so hungry for more. Um So, I don't

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Speaker 1: know if the lever be uh. I hope that one

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Speaker 1: day I can fully be like I'm good, I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: really happy in this space. I think that I'm just

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Speaker 1: so hungry right now for everything that's coming down the pipe,

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Speaker 1: and and for this new season will block it in

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Speaker 1: and next year and next year and next year, and um,

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Speaker 1: I'm just like so excited. I just want to do more.

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Speaker 1: I want to be exhausted at the end of every

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Speaker 1: single day, like you do Ray Go Show, you do

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Speaker 1: a podcast, you do television, Like do you probably feel

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Speaker 1: so fulfilled when you hit your pillow everything that you're

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Speaker 1: you're mentally and physically exhausted. I want to I want

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Speaker 1: to be feeling those things. Rachel Banantta Go follow her

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Speaker 1: on Twitter. She is outstanding. If you haven't before, I'm

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Speaker 1: telling you that in the years ahead, and I rarely

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Speaker 1: say this, in the years ahead, you're gonna do pretty

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Speaker 1: awesome stuff, and I'm excited to see all the things

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Speaker 1: that you're gonna do. But in the meantime, she's hanging

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Speaker 1: out with us on lock It In every single afternoon.

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Speaker 1: Go follower, And if you're listening to this year's down

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Speaker 1: the line, I think it'll be cool if you tag us,

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01:45:34,640 --> 01:45:38,080
Speaker 1: assuming Twitter still around in ten years or My hope

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01:45:38,160 --> 01:45:41,160
Speaker 1: is in doing these long form podcasts that they almost

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Speaker 1: stand as like, uh, you know, like different sort of

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Speaker 1: seminal moments where people can go back and be like, oh,

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Speaker 1: I hope that this is just as good to listen

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Speaker 1: to in a decade as it is next. Pretty cool,

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Speaker 1: very cool. Thanks for having anybody. Thank you. This Wins

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Speaker 1: the Losses. I'm Clay Travis Ratis on iTunes. This has

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