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Speaker 1: Hello, guys, what's up, what's up? What's up? What's up?

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Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? What's up? Anyway, Welcome, It's another

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Speaker 1: episode of Horrible Decisions that we are in the studio

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Speaker 1: once again. Goddamn, we've been in the studio whole fucking

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Speaker 1: live bringing motherfucking context, y'all. I'm your girl, Mandy B.

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Speaker 1: And we are here yet again. I'm super excited. UM.

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Speaker 1: Before we introduced our guests this week, something we haven't

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Speaker 1: done in a while was kind of catch you guys

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Speaker 1: up with anything that's been new with us or going

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Speaker 1: on um with us. And so, as you guys know,

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Speaker 1: and as you guys have seen on my social media,

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Speaker 1: I am super excited. I fucking graduated and I don't

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Speaker 1: know how. I haven't even announced it Jesus Christ, but

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Speaker 1: I'm sucking finally done with school. As y'all know, UM,

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Speaker 1: for the last like six months, even the beginning of

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Speaker 1: this year, I dealt with busy season UM at my

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Speaker 1: part time job that I was at that I just

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Speaker 1: recently left because I have a new job offer on

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Speaker 1: the table that I start probably by the time this

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Speaker 1: episode drops that I'm super excited for I'm done. Um.

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Speaker 1: With school and I'm just super excited. Now it's on

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Speaker 1: to try to fucking prep for the motherfucking' c p A.

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Speaker 1: Good God, Jesus, I'm fucking nervous and already stressed about

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Speaker 1: doing that, But I'll start that in September. You can

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Speaker 1: spell cp A, but you just you just did c

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Speaker 1: p A CP what certified public account controlling, y'all, I'm like,

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Speaker 1: what the fuck you? She really trying to c p A. UM. Also,

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Speaker 1: I guess um as y'all may have noticed me talk

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Speaker 1: about him, and I know y'all have seen me in

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Speaker 1: the gym and cooking for him. Fellam Bay is goddamn

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Speaker 1: back slightly in the motherfucking pick. He came to the

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Speaker 1: live show. He was at the live show. So our

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Speaker 1: guest was looking like all bug eyed right now because

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Speaker 1: she was at the live show. But yeah, he came

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Speaker 1: to the live show. I don't know where I still

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Speaker 1: stand with him. Of course, all of y'all are like that,

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Speaker 1: because so even after the conversation with Mouse like, I

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Speaker 1: the live show. I don't know if he's someone I

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Speaker 1: I like him, I like his company, I like our

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Speaker 1: time together. He put way too much pressure on that,

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Speaker 1: Like even after the mouse episode, I was kind of

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Speaker 1: annoyed because I was talking about how I wasn't in

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Speaker 1: a situation ship or whatever, but like everything needs way

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Speaker 1: too much definition and it's exhausting, and I don't think

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Speaker 1: it matters if you like that, And they can like

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Speaker 1: I like, I don't see a long term like I mean,

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Speaker 1: but to me, like, I'm really big on not wasting

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Speaker 1: my time time if you enjoy but I'm not going

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Speaker 1: to commence to him without me feeling like there's a future.

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Speaker 1: We've had to talk like He's like, what if I

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Speaker 1: want to make my girlfriend, I don't want to make

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Speaker 1: you my boyfriend. That's the thing. A lot of us

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Speaker 1: start using terms like burbage, like I'm wasting my time

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Speaker 1: or I wasted this time. If you enjoyed it, and

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Speaker 1: you're enjoying it and you continue to enjoy it, then

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Speaker 1: what the funk? Why is it such a big deal.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I enjoyed something for five years and it

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Speaker 1: kind of dragged me down. So I enjoyed something for

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Speaker 1: five years and kind of dragged me down. That something

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Speaker 1: we'll get out, You'll get something out of this either

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Speaker 1: the perspective, it's crazy because that's that's my concern. I'm like, well,

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Speaker 1: what am I really going to get out of this?

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Speaker 1: And and and I think that that's a good time.

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Speaker 1: I mean, but yeah, but I think it'sday night. What's

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Speaker 1: the big deal? Right? So I'll have him come over.

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Speaker 1: But to the point where we are talking about you know, commitment,

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Speaker 1: conversation and so if he's looking for more, is he

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Speaker 1: also expecting me to cut seven off? So like we've

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Speaker 1: had this conversation and it sucks because I do like him,

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Speaker 1: but having that more thing, I also I'm sure he's

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Speaker 1: to change with my body. He's doing that and he's

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Speaker 1: definitely will say this again. Um, the future is definitely

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Speaker 1: something what I'm looking for. Like I thought my five

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Speaker 1: I can't if I can't see a future with you,

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Speaker 1: If I can't see straight on longevity, I'm not And

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Speaker 1: that's kind of where I'm at. So he is back

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Speaker 1: in the picture. So I guess fella bay is a

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Speaker 1: hashtag again, because you'll be righting me. They laughed at

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Speaker 1: the mouth, saying he was sucking fourteen in the head.

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Speaker 1: Still I ain't got time for y'all. That mouse was like,

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Speaker 1: I think it's still fourteen, so what's been new? I

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Speaker 1: guess with with you Weezy, a lot of people have

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Speaker 1: been seeing you know, your friends came in town. You

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Speaker 1: like y'all still got to catch up to episodes. Guy,

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Speaker 1: like some girl wrote me, was like, tell me when

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Speaker 1: you'll break up so I could just catch up. I mean,

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Speaker 1: I don't know, Like I think I even confused myself

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Speaker 1: during that Determining the relationship episode because like, like I mentioned,

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Speaker 1: like the label world like, I mean, some people are

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Speaker 1: we're definitely open and you know, we're sucking other people together.

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Speaker 1: But I think I think you're you're you're dating like

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Speaker 1: Not that you can't handle only one person, but do

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Speaker 1: like that, that yeah, there's certain like I don't want

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Speaker 1: five months. You you you want to have an open

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Speaker 1: Every single thing, even when I went to see Jesus

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Speaker 1: in Meryll and the really big deal about that is

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Speaker 1: like I had to introduce him to it to like it.

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna tell you. I don't want to sit

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Speaker 1: that moment. I know he enjoyed it, and I know

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Speaker 1: But I wonder, like, is this what I'm supposed to have?

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Speaker 1: And that's what's confusing me because I'm not unhappy. Why

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Speaker 1: am I looking for something if you're not happy? Because

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Speaker 1: long term and open relationship is gonna work. And if

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Speaker 1: I invest too much in one person, what if something

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Speaker 1: no one? You know I didn't? I mean, and that's

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Speaker 1: the thing about dating one person. If something goes wrong,

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Speaker 1: I was gonna say elders, like respect your elders. I

422
00:20:42,760 --> 00:20:45,840
Speaker 1: don't want elderly. But I have been watching old young porn.

423
00:20:46,160 --> 00:20:49,159
Speaker 1: What is old young born? Old niggas like old like

424
00:20:50,440 --> 00:20:54,040
Speaker 1: over sixt So what's crazy is I don't even talk

425
00:20:54,080 --> 00:20:55,920
Speaker 1: the niggas When they say thirty three, I'd be like

426
00:20:56,040 --> 00:20:59,760
Speaker 1: you just made it like over thirty three. Oh, like

427
00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:08,320
Speaker 1: the n ship, same ship. I'm getting into this like

428
00:21:08,400 --> 00:21:14,119
Speaker 1: Daddy dom kind of cuttish, like just there's like this

429
00:21:14,280 --> 00:21:16,520
Speaker 1: d d l G which is Dom, Daddy and little

430
00:21:16,560 --> 00:21:19,920
Speaker 1: Girl and like it's kind of like perverted but dirty,

431
00:21:19,960 --> 00:21:22,000
Speaker 1: but like it's more like a master kind of thing.

432
00:21:22,200 --> 00:21:25,280
Speaker 1: Different word, and like every time I imagine it when

433
00:21:25,280 --> 00:21:27,800
Speaker 1: I'm masturbating, I think, because you're a whole last sub bro,

434
00:21:28,240 --> 00:21:30,920
Speaker 1: this funk I think of old people. I don't know

435
00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:33,800
Speaker 1: what it is. Also a part of me that gets

436
00:21:33,840 --> 00:21:36,840
Speaker 1: really turned on is the sugar baby porn, Like maybe

437
00:21:36,840 --> 00:21:39,640
Speaker 1: because I have been a sugar baby that I kind

438
00:21:39,680 --> 00:21:42,480
Speaker 1: of get. So like, you want gray hairs, sprinkled face,

439
00:21:43,080 --> 00:21:45,159
Speaker 1: but like give me salt and pepper vibes. Yeah, I

440
00:21:45,400 --> 00:21:48,520
Speaker 1: don't know, seasoned, I don't like. I don't know. I

441
00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:51,480
Speaker 1: don't want a saggy as because see I look at

442
00:21:51,560 --> 00:21:53,880
Speaker 1: salt and pepper and I'm like, okay, See Shamar Moore,

443
00:21:54,040 --> 00:21:55,840
Speaker 1: he's oldest funking. He could probably get it, but they

444
00:21:55,880 --> 00:21:58,240
Speaker 1: got a look like Shamar More. I know I'm shallow

445
00:21:58,320 --> 00:22:01,679
Speaker 1: as he is. He's like forty five or something, right,

446
00:22:01,920 --> 00:22:04,480
Speaker 1: he's old as fuck. I mean, listen, I just said

447
00:22:04,520 --> 00:22:06,600
Speaker 1: thirty three over thirty three to me is old. I

448
00:22:06,640 --> 00:22:09,960
Speaker 1: don't know what you're like three? What what I'm just saying?

449
00:22:10,040 --> 00:22:12,320
Speaker 1: I like him kind of young? What what that tell

450
00:22:12,400 --> 00:22:17,399
Speaker 1: to me is even kind of young? Denzel is definitely okay,

451
00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:21,240
Speaker 1: but I mean always you know, I'll take a Denzel,

452
00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:26,399
Speaker 1: but only Denzel. I'll take will Smith, will Smith, but

453
00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:29,159
Speaker 1: you don't want Forest Whittaker because of the eyebro. Just

454
00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:34,560
Speaker 1: you know, it's really black panther. It's so bad. I

455
00:22:34,840 --> 00:22:38,159
Speaker 1: said that. That fucking accent was terrible. It's the eyebrow.

456
00:22:38,240 --> 00:22:40,359
Speaker 1: It's not his age. Don't bring up Forest Whittaker. He

457
00:22:40,480 --> 00:22:44,320
Speaker 1: can't talk in the belly another old well Smith to

458
00:22:44,440 --> 00:22:51,240
Speaker 1: get it? Not damn um it just elba. Why do

459
00:22:51,359 --> 00:22:54,440
Speaker 1: they not cat? They're in their fifties. Okay, So so

460
00:22:54,720 --> 00:22:57,000
Speaker 1: you want to so let's go to ugly niggas is

461
00:22:57,040 --> 00:23:00,480
Speaker 1: what we're talking about. Old ugly old Simon coll or something.

462
00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:07,600
Speaker 1: Simon call okay from American idol. Morgan Freeman. Oh that's

463
00:23:07,640 --> 00:23:10,600
Speaker 1: what you're asking about. Could you suck Morgan Freeman off

464
00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:15,840
Speaker 1: for your little only because I'm gonna tell you, Morgan Freeman,

465
00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:17,719
Speaker 1: I went on a date with this really old guy.

466
00:23:17,760 --> 00:23:20,480
Speaker 1: It was like a sugar date the whole time, my

467
00:23:20,600 --> 00:23:22,600
Speaker 1: young lady friend with like a martini and I was like,

468
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:25,080
Speaker 1: and it's kind of like this thing where like, you know,

469
00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:26,399
Speaker 1: I'm young and high and you know you have to

470
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:28,480
Speaker 1: pay for it. And I kind of enjoyed that Morgan

471
00:23:28,560 --> 00:23:31,440
Speaker 1: Freeman would open the sex scene like and you knew

472
00:23:31,480 --> 00:23:36,080
Speaker 1: to open You're like, you know, he narrates everything. Wouldn't

473
00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:38,200
Speaker 1: be the whole goddamn, I wouldn't want to be sucking

474
00:23:38,240 --> 00:23:44,280
Speaker 1: his dick, and him saying I don't want to Samuel L. Jackson,

475
00:23:44,359 --> 00:23:48,200
Speaker 1: bitch would your fun? Yes, the motherfucker I don't like that.

476
00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:53,040
Speaker 1: Can't go ahead? But okay, come on, I don't think

477
00:23:53,080 --> 00:23:57,200
Speaker 1: you incida. Actually the problem is I don't know old

478
00:23:57,280 --> 00:23:59,119
Speaker 1: white man. Maybe we need to go to old white man.

479
00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:01,680
Speaker 1: I tell you who. Go ahead and remember sex and

480
00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:05,720
Speaker 1: the City. The Russian she dated Alexander Petrovsky him Mr

481
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:10,680
Speaker 1: Big No, yea what now? Wait, this is all in

482
00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:14,440
Speaker 1: like a sugar dating scene. No, this is not sugar dating.

483
00:24:14,560 --> 00:24:17,560
Speaker 1: This cake is an attraction to the elderly broke. You're

484
00:24:18,080 --> 00:24:20,119
Speaker 1: here adding money to the pos because then you go

485
00:24:20,520 --> 00:24:23,520
Speaker 1: because because now you're sitting here getting turned on by

486
00:24:23,560 --> 00:24:25,960
Speaker 1: the money that's coming with it. Okay, okay, okay, you

487
00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:28,600
Speaker 1: just gotta suck the old name like because the old name,

488
00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:33,760
Speaker 1: I mean, I like older. But to say it's not specific, no,

489
00:24:33,880 --> 00:24:36,800
Speaker 1: because respect your elder years. See you have to because

490
00:24:36,920 --> 00:24:40,240
Speaker 1: at nineteen and elder could be thirty. Right, Look she

491
00:24:40,480 --> 00:24:43,720
Speaker 1: looks she's just trying elder. Say you want to suck

492
00:24:43,760 --> 00:24:45,440
Speaker 1: a sixty five year old dick? And just call it

493
00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:50,800
Speaker 1: a sixty five years. Sixty five years. Oh, most developed

494
00:24:50,800 --> 00:24:54,960
Speaker 1: world counties have a chronological age of sixty five elderly. Damn.

495
00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:57,440
Speaker 1: I mean, I mean see when I think elderly, I

496
00:24:57,520 --> 00:25:01,080
Speaker 1: think like Kane and seventies and eighties. Oh that's really

497
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:03,520
Speaker 1: like I mean, sixty five is still old, like their

498
00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:06,160
Speaker 1: dick probably definitely looks different than when they were thirty.

499
00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:08,359
Speaker 1: I do it, You would do it, but only in

500
00:25:08,400 --> 00:25:11,040
Speaker 1: the premise of no, not for money, bro, not for money,

501
00:25:11,320 --> 00:25:15,240
Speaker 1: you gotta can't. I'm turned on at the idea that,

502
00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:18,120
Speaker 1: like someone is so old and they know they can't

503
00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:19,600
Speaker 1: have me, so they have to do all this ship

504
00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:23,160
Speaker 1: to get me. And then I'm kind of started on sugar. Yeah,

505
00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 1: but I'm not saying sugar with a young dude like that,

506
00:25:25,920 --> 00:25:31,360
Speaker 1: because to me, that a whole fact my last um,

507
00:25:31,720 --> 00:25:33,240
Speaker 1: sugar daddy. I'm gonna sew you what he looked like,

508
00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:36,160
Speaker 1: but he was. I just like the fact that something

509
00:25:36,280 --> 00:25:38,040
Speaker 1: like for me, he was white, so he doesn't look

510
00:25:38,080 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: for but he really was. I saw his id But

511
00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,280
Speaker 1: but maybe I should do that with the young for

512
00:25:44,440 --> 00:25:46,359
Speaker 1: a fact, like they would look at us and they

513
00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:48,399
Speaker 1: would know for a fucking fact that he had to

514
00:25:48,440 --> 00:25:50,760
Speaker 1: pay for it, and that ship got me off. I

515
00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:54,720
Speaker 1: can't tell you know what's crazy. That's why. That's why

516
00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:56,639
Speaker 1: even my sugar days, I don't like it to be

517
00:25:57,119 --> 00:26:01,920
Speaker 1: noticeable that I'm out with right, that's what we want

518
00:26:01,920 --> 00:26:04,920
Speaker 1: to see Beyonce down. He yeah, No, I can't do it.

519
00:26:05,520 --> 00:26:08,080
Speaker 1: I can't do it. I can't do it. Real rich

520
00:26:08,880 --> 00:26:11,879
Speaker 1: I mean even if there, even if they're still rich,

521
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:13,240
Speaker 1: I can't do it. I don't know. I'm just not

522
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:16,920
Speaker 1: interested in sixty dollars. Probably you ain't a man, No,

523
00:26:17,160 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 1: I don't. It's funny I looked at old. I was

524
00:26:20,280 --> 00:26:22,760
Speaker 1: with my homegirl Carla from the Ship on thirty podcast

525
00:26:22,880 --> 00:26:25,359
Speaker 1: yesterday and we was walking in Harlem and there were

526
00:26:25,359 --> 00:26:27,080
Speaker 1: these old white guys and she was like, how much

527
00:26:27,080 --> 00:26:30,320
Speaker 1: a month did you need? How much of what you

528
00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:32,679
Speaker 1: need to the nigga and the flowers and the one

529
00:26:32,720 --> 00:26:34,600
Speaker 1: in the black silk. Well, I've never been with like

530
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:39,840
Speaker 1: an unkept older man. That's another thing. Well, they they're

531
00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:42,680
Speaker 1: more season, they're more like I think sex what the

532
00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:45,960
Speaker 1: older man is more because they're definitely going to please

533
00:26:46,359 --> 00:26:49,960
Speaker 1: you and thinking, you know about their dicks. We have

534
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:51,359
Speaker 1: a friend of mine. I would say her name. She

535
00:26:51,440 --> 00:26:52,800
Speaker 1: has a friend of the show, but I don't know

536
00:26:52,800 --> 00:26:54,680
Speaker 1: if she's ready yet. But she found a sugar daddy

537
00:26:54,720 --> 00:26:58,960
Speaker 1: who is seventy four, and that she said, she said

538
00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:00,760
Speaker 1: she got fifteen it all of the first day and

539
00:27:00,800 --> 00:27:02,760
Speaker 1: all you did with liquor nipples, and she's like, now

540
00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:04,560
Speaker 1: that I'm a paid home, I don't know how I

541
00:27:04,600 --> 00:27:07,560
Speaker 1: feel about going back, and like he's super old. But

542
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:11,639
Speaker 1: it's also like, you know, these young niggas ain't. I'm sorry.

543
00:27:11,720 --> 00:27:14,080
Speaker 1: I've had young younger dudes give me money, but that

544
00:27:14,160 --> 00:27:16,840
Speaker 1: nigga bought me an apartment before he got well, I said,

545
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:19,840
Speaker 1: I don't know if again this is on a patron episode.

546
00:27:19,920 --> 00:27:22,840
Speaker 1: We kind of had a sugar in conversation. I think

547
00:27:23,480 --> 00:27:26,280
Speaker 1: my my oldest sugar daddy, well, I did have a

548
00:27:26,320 --> 00:27:29,399
Speaker 1: sugar daddy, like fifty, but my main sugar daddy is

549
00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:32,159
Speaker 1: like my main tricks, none of them are over. But

550
00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:34,639
Speaker 1: like with old niggas, you don't have to do you

551
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:36,320
Speaker 1: don't really got to do much. Like I mean, I

552
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:39,000
Speaker 1: was super young and I just want to make you happy, honey.

553
00:27:40,280 --> 00:27:43,439
Speaker 1: I love that ship. I'll be eating it, sweetie. How

554
00:27:43,600 --> 00:27:50,960
Speaker 1: was work like? Oh, you like like an older family friendly,

555
00:27:51,560 --> 00:27:54,800
Speaker 1: So I think you really want to own a swingers club?

556
00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:56,399
Speaker 1: Would you deal? Would you deal with an old man

557
00:27:56,520 --> 00:28:00,280
Speaker 1: in a swigger's club? I mean, see, it's still in

558
00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:03,120
Speaker 1: my head about like the money part. I really get

559
00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:05,280
Speaker 1: off at the fact that they know, like they can't

560
00:28:05,320 --> 00:28:08,119
Speaker 1: have me unless they do something. Yeah. Yeah, it is

561
00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:11,240
Speaker 1: so exciting to me. It's still I still get turned on. Like, bro,

562
00:28:11,359 --> 00:28:14,320
Speaker 1: I had amazing sex with him. I really did. I was,

563
00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:16,359
Speaker 1: but I think it was me feeling my own ego.

564
00:28:17,280 --> 00:28:18,760
Speaker 1: Like when I would take off my clothes and he

565
00:28:18,800 --> 00:28:20,040
Speaker 1: would look at me, I'd be like, I don't know,

566
00:28:22,280 --> 00:28:24,440
Speaker 1: it gives you that much more confidence, is like like

567
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:27,800
Speaker 1: this older dude really picked me. I'm that sexy. But

568
00:28:27,920 --> 00:28:29,840
Speaker 1: to me, an older guy is gonna pick you, like

569
00:28:30,320 --> 00:28:33,359
Speaker 1: I feel like an older woman would have that confidence

570
00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:37,960
Speaker 1: more like oh my god guys. Still yeah, absolutely, that

571
00:28:38,080 --> 00:28:40,040
Speaker 1: was really in my head when with the older dude

572
00:28:40,160 --> 00:28:44,400
Speaker 1: is like they are so they're so lucky that you

573
00:28:44,520 --> 00:28:47,239
Speaker 1: picked them, and they I've never been with the older man.

574
00:28:47,280 --> 00:28:49,560
Speaker 1: That didn't make me feel that way, Like they are

575
00:28:49,680 --> 00:28:52,880
Speaker 1: just so like excited, like you have any young He

576
00:28:52,960 --> 00:28:55,360
Speaker 1: would watch me, he used taking me to Miami and

577
00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:58,040
Speaker 1: like Bermuda and all the ship and we would go

578
00:28:58,200 --> 00:29:00,120
Speaker 1: and there would always be some young niggest servant us

579
00:29:00,160 --> 00:29:01,520
Speaker 1: and he'd be looking at me. He's like, I know

580
00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:03,040
Speaker 1: you like that, sweetie, and they're like that are not

581
00:29:03,280 --> 00:29:07,040
Speaker 1: with you, but also like and then niggers will be

582
00:29:07,120 --> 00:29:10,200
Speaker 1: looking at me like so I don't know. I'm still

583
00:29:10,320 --> 00:29:12,600
Speaker 1: just y'all know, I like my little young tenderwonis bro.

584
00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:16,320
Speaker 1: I like to be able to but but not only Yeah,

585
00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:18,440
Speaker 1: but it's this, but it's the same to die. Yeah,

586
00:29:18,520 --> 00:29:20,920
Speaker 1: but it's I don't one, don't nick about to die, bro,

587
00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:23,040
Speaker 1: I don't want about to die. But you sixty five,

588
00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:25,920
Speaker 1: you're tired, You have millions. They're not about to lie.

589
00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:28,760
Speaker 1: But you know we don't even work for your millions.

590
00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:30,880
Speaker 1: That just keeps Yeah, but you're saying like that, Um,

591
00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:34,440
Speaker 1: older guys are so like excited to be with younger girls.

592
00:29:34,520 --> 00:29:37,880
Speaker 1: But it's the same reaction from when I date younger

593
00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:40,560
Speaker 1: guys me being older than them. They like that somebody

594
00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:42,720
Speaker 1: else that wants to suck them. And that's the difference.

595
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:44,840
Speaker 1: But you don't think people want to find old guys

596
00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:48,800
Speaker 1: too the same way you think it's not for free,

597
00:29:48,840 --> 00:29:50,880
Speaker 1: and them young niggles get some frette pussy. They'll get

598
00:29:50,920 --> 00:29:54,160
Speaker 1: some free pussy. There's groupies or something. Right, you ask

599
00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:57,520
Speaker 1: you right right? If you ever feel like, I know

600
00:29:57,600 --> 00:30:01,240
Speaker 1: it's gonna be hard for you, know you like, let's

601
00:30:01,280 --> 00:30:05,600
Speaker 1: not do eighteen enough? Why y'all be talking about can

602
00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:08,600
Speaker 1: we do? Know? Let's do let's say twenty to twenty

603
00:30:08,680 --> 00:30:12,120
Speaker 1: five for a boyfriend. Are you still on that um

604
00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:14,600
Speaker 1: I would date someone? You're absolutely because I feel like

605
00:30:14,960 --> 00:30:18,200
Speaker 1: even at this point, like so, all of my friends

606
00:30:18,560 --> 00:30:20,280
Speaker 1: like older guys, and all of my friends are in

607
00:30:20,320 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 1: their thirties, and the same um commitment issues, the same conversations,

608
00:30:25,240 --> 00:30:27,280
Speaker 1: the same things that they're getting from men in their

609
00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:29,800
Speaker 1: thirties are the same same things that I would get

610
00:30:29,840 --> 00:30:32,440
Speaker 1: from a man at twenty two, twenty four. At the

611
00:30:32,520 --> 00:30:34,720
Speaker 1: end of the day, if you look at all all

612
00:30:34,760 --> 00:30:38,320
Speaker 1: of us, even going back to high school, niggas have girlfriends,

613
00:30:38,560 --> 00:30:41,160
Speaker 1: niggas have boyfriends. It's all dependent on the man that

614
00:30:41,280 --> 00:30:44,200
Speaker 1: you meet and where he is in his life, his maturity,

615
00:30:44,280 --> 00:30:46,120
Speaker 1: and what he wants if he could put up, because

616
00:30:46,160 --> 00:30:48,280
Speaker 1: even at thirty, you may still deal with a nigga

617
00:30:48,280 --> 00:30:49,880
Speaker 1: who's still trying to get his dick wet the same

618
00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:54,560
Speaker 1: way is so, I mean, at what age do niggas

619
00:30:54,600 --> 00:30:57,600
Speaker 1: really just want to say, oh, we all want girlfriends?

620
00:30:57,640 --> 00:30:59,640
Speaker 1: Like to me, So it's dependent upon who you meet,

621
00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:03,560
Speaker 1: because there are niggas a twenty getting girlfriends. There are

622
00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:06,160
Speaker 1: you know, still niggas at thirty five who want to

623
00:31:06,200 --> 00:31:08,560
Speaker 1: have their fun. So I don't think it's age depend

624
00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:11,440
Speaker 1: to change your mind. But it's harder for me to

625
00:31:11,520 --> 00:31:16,719
Speaker 1: believe the more success you have with work or school

626
00:31:17,200 --> 00:31:19,640
Speaker 1: that a one year old is really that. But I

627
00:31:19,720 --> 00:31:21,680
Speaker 1: also deal with twenty one year old who a millionaires

628
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:26,640
Speaker 1: like when that's stimulating. But I'm childish, I mean, but

629
00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:29,440
Speaker 1: I also like like I'm childish as fun like. So

630
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,160
Speaker 1: I've been talking about child and ship, but I feel

631
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:37,000
Speaker 1: like I also enjoy being able to teach people or

632
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:39,720
Speaker 1: have conversations to know that I'm opening their minds to

633
00:31:39,840 --> 00:31:42,800
Speaker 1: new things and things like that. And I'm I hate

634
00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:46,240
Speaker 1: how a lot of older men are sometimes condescending. I

635
00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:48,440
Speaker 1: have lived quite a life, I've experienced quite a lot,

636
00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:50,680
Speaker 1: So to me, I don't need a man to teach

637
00:31:50,680 --> 00:31:52,600
Speaker 1: me anything. I like genuinely being able to know I

638
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:55,200
Speaker 1: could teach a man stuff, or or he's open to

639
00:31:55,320 --> 00:31:57,320
Speaker 1: learning new things. When you're dealing with the older man,

640
00:31:57,360 --> 00:32:00,640
Speaker 1: a lot of times they're said the condescending, but it's

641
00:32:00,680 --> 00:32:02,640
Speaker 1: definitely the part that gets them off, and maybe it

642
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:05,880
Speaker 1: is it does get off to do. Things I've learned

643
00:32:05,880 --> 00:32:07,200
Speaker 1: about money and what to do with my money have

644
00:32:07,240 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 1: been for older men. And really enjoy showing you because

645
00:32:10,640 --> 00:32:13,120
Speaker 1: not only like and the guy I dated a sugar

646
00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:14,719
Speaker 1: that got me that apartment and all that he used

647
00:32:14,760 --> 00:32:17,920
Speaker 1: to tell me, like this is the least money that

648
00:32:18,040 --> 00:32:19,760
Speaker 1: you'll ever get, Like I'm going to make you so

649
00:32:19,840 --> 00:32:22,040
Speaker 1: much money by yourself. You're gonna learn how to make

650
00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:23,880
Speaker 1: money because of me, and you're gonna think this was nothing.

651
00:32:24,160 --> 00:32:27,240
Speaker 1: But yeah, and that it's just that like they want,

652
00:32:27,320 --> 00:32:28,960
Speaker 1: they want to give you that, but they do that,

653
00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:32,680
Speaker 1: I think, And and our for us and our aspect again,

654
00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:34,680
Speaker 1: that's a submissive part because we're willing to learn, we're

655
00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:38,360
Speaker 1: willing to see. It's the submissive dullide little yeah, tell

656
00:32:38,440 --> 00:32:42,000
Speaker 1: me more. Yeah, yeah. I had to pretend at one

657
00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:43,640
Speaker 1: point because I saw his face when he took me

658
00:32:43,680 --> 00:32:45,360
Speaker 1: somewhere in Miami. I can't remember what hotel it was,

659
00:32:45,640 --> 00:32:48,080
Speaker 1: and I didn't act surprised, So the next time you

660
00:32:48,080 --> 00:32:50,960
Speaker 1: took a vacation, I was like, oh my god, I

661
00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:52,960
Speaker 1: just can't believe it. Here look at it, and we

662
00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:54,760
Speaker 1: can get him aside this and they need that ship

663
00:32:54,920 --> 00:32:57,400
Speaker 1: so bad. It's crazy because you keep bringing it back

664
00:32:57,480 --> 00:33:00,960
Speaker 1: to to the submissive as the a simness of her.

665
00:33:01,520 --> 00:33:03,800
Speaker 1: And I've talked about it a lot. I do enjoy

666
00:33:03,880 --> 00:33:07,560
Speaker 1: being more dominant, so that's probably where it also goes

667
00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:10,480
Speaker 1: into me wanting to have that that dominant role. But

668
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:12,480
Speaker 1: I mean I would switch on and off, like I

669
00:33:12,600 --> 00:33:15,080
Speaker 1: can be as submissive, especially if that's what turns my

670
00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:18,080
Speaker 1: man on. But yeah, I enjoy teaching. I enjoy you know,

671
00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:20,200
Speaker 1: being that go to I mean, I ain't gonna trick

672
00:33:20,200 --> 00:33:22,400
Speaker 1: off on my money. Is still gonna have money and

673
00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:28,760
Speaker 1: probably have more than me, but I still like right,

674
00:33:28,920 --> 00:33:31,800
Speaker 1: So there's just like, uh, I guess a mixture, like

675
00:33:32,120 --> 00:33:34,080
Speaker 1: everyone has their own preferences and stuff like that. But

676
00:33:35,080 --> 00:33:37,320
Speaker 1: I wanted to get into the horrible decision for this

677
00:33:37,720 --> 00:33:41,760
Speaker 1: um this show because it's really no and it's not sugarating, right.

678
00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:43,400
Speaker 1: We've just been a whole topic about that, but this

679
00:33:43,520 --> 00:33:48,480
Speaker 1: is very interesting and so we've talked about lesbian um, bisexuality,

680
00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:51,880
Speaker 1: um queers. Like, we had just a lot of conversations

681
00:33:51,960 --> 00:33:54,320
Speaker 1: in terms of sexuality, and I don't think that we've

682
00:33:54,360 --> 00:33:57,480
Speaker 1: ever even mentioned this on the show. So it's a

683
00:33:57,600 --> 00:34:03,240
Speaker 1: thing called hands sexuality. And could you define pan sexuality

684
00:34:03,280 --> 00:34:05,880
Speaker 1: because when I asked you more about yourself, you said, well,

685
00:34:05,920 --> 00:34:09,480
Speaker 1: I'm pants actual, So what is your definition of pants actuality?

686
00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:13,040
Speaker 1: I don't base it on gender, Okay, I don't. I

687
00:34:13,200 --> 00:34:17,040
Speaker 1: feel like if you can mentally stimulate me, and we

688
00:34:17,400 --> 00:34:21,120
Speaker 1: can for me, pan sexuality is a mental thing. It's

689
00:34:21,120 --> 00:34:24,840
Speaker 1: not on gender. It's not like okay you, it's not strict.

690
00:34:25,080 --> 00:34:27,800
Speaker 1: It's not based on a sexual attraction. No, it's it's not.

691
00:34:27,960 --> 00:34:31,799
Speaker 1: It's way more than that. Because I I think transgender

692
00:34:32,040 --> 00:34:36,759
Speaker 1: I've dated f tms. I'm into female to male transgenders.

693
00:34:37,239 --> 00:34:44,000
Speaker 1: I've um, I'm very interested in transgender um men men men.

694
00:34:44,239 --> 00:34:46,919
Speaker 1: I think they're fucking hot, um and I think they're

695
00:34:47,040 --> 00:34:50,120
Speaker 1: interesting as a person to learn to speak to, to

696
00:34:50,280 --> 00:34:54,560
Speaker 1: see you know, just how differently they they think of themselves.

697
00:34:54,640 --> 00:34:59,440
Speaker 1: Because that's a power to absolutely step to be a man.

698
00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:01,840
Speaker 1: But you want, you know, to just or cross just

699
00:35:02,120 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: whatever it is and and or female and just be

700
00:35:05,040 --> 00:35:07,920
Speaker 1: you play with it. I think that's so powerful. What

701
00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:11,480
Speaker 1: makes the difference between um, we did now I just

702
00:35:11,520 --> 00:35:14,040
Speaker 1: thought about it, James, I think describe himself as Spanish

703
00:35:14,040 --> 00:35:15,399
Speaker 1: sexual and we got into a whole of the topic.

704
00:35:15,960 --> 00:35:18,200
Speaker 1: But yeah, we didn't touch on it with But why

705
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:22,680
Speaker 1: not bisexual? Is it because it puts the binary terms? Yeah?

706
00:35:22,960 --> 00:35:25,359
Speaker 1: I think Okay, I think for for me at least,

707
00:35:25,400 --> 00:35:28,680
Speaker 1: it would because because it's either man or woman, right

708
00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:31,040
Speaker 1: and Anne is not that you're even attracted in a

709
00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:34,080
Speaker 1: sexual manner to anyone. It's like connection to whoever you're

710
00:35:34,160 --> 00:35:36,320
Speaker 1: connected with. You feel like you could be with that,

711
00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:38,879
Speaker 1: can be with that person because it's not just sex

712
00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:40,560
Speaker 1: and sex. You can have sex. I can, I've been

713
00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:42,160
Speaker 1: should I mean, I've been married for five years and

714
00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:44,520
Speaker 1: it was I can have a whole week worth of

715
00:35:44,560 --> 00:35:46,600
Speaker 1: sex and never touch my husband, or a whole week

716
00:35:46,640 --> 00:35:49,480
Speaker 1: of sex and touch my husband, or you know it's

717
00:35:49,560 --> 00:35:51,600
Speaker 1: it's so you were married to a man, Yes, I

718
00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:56,640
Speaker 1: was married. Well, I've been married to both female and man. Okay,

719
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:58,319
Speaker 1: And I think real quick, I want to like, wait,

720
00:35:58,360 --> 00:36:02,080
Speaker 1: like sis man or like you like it? You have

721
00:36:02,200 --> 00:36:06,239
Speaker 1: two different marriages, Okay, to go from woman and because

722
00:36:06,239 --> 00:36:08,200
Speaker 1: I wanted to bring that up even in terms of

723
00:36:08,239 --> 00:36:12,040
Speaker 1: you asking about bisexuality. With pan sexuality, you would date

724
00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:14,279
Speaker 1: and be committed to all of these people, of course

725
00:36:14,400 --> 00:36:16,480
Speaker 1: not and it doesn't care about their gender. Now, I

726
00:36:16,520 --> 00:36:19,200
Speaker 1: want to bring it back to bisexuality because even with me,

727
00:36:19,280 --> 00:36:23,800
Speaker 1: I would consider myself bisexual. Um, but I like to

728
00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:26,360
Speaker 1: be sexual with women. Even though I've been in a

729
00:36:26,440 --> 00:36:29,279
Speaker 1: relationship with a woman, I don't think at this point

730
00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:31,480
Speaker 1: in time I could see myself being because in my

731
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:33,719
Speaker 1: mind in the future, I see myself being with a man,

732
00:36:33,800 --> 00:36:36,600
Speaker 1: and I love the male anatomy. But sexually I like women.

733
00:36:37,120 --> 00:36:38,880
Speaker 1: I mean, you you just like to have fun. You know,

734
00:36:39,080 --> 00:36:41,080
Speaker 1: you're at the same time you're a woman, so you're

735
00:36:41,120 --> 00:36:44,880
Speaker 1: gonna want to explore that and and just so for me,

736
00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 1: it would just be the exploring part. You're having fun

737
00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:51,440
Speaker 1: fun sexuality too. When you look at women, and I

738
00:36:51,560 --> 00:36:53,080
Speaker 1: think this is the same for me. We look at

739
00:36:53,120 --> 00:36:57,640
Speaker 1: them as like, oh, I like her sex attribute to

740
00:36:57,719 --> 00:37:00,359
Speaker 1: the woman like when i'm and that's what I think

741
00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:03,840
Speaker 1: makes it very bisexual more than pan sexual. I noticed

742
00:37:03,880 --> 00:37:07,560
Speaker 1: her hips, her lips, her voice, hair, like those things

743
00:37:07,640 --> 00:37:10,280
Speaker 1: coming to mind where I'm assuming for you. They don't mind.

744
00:37:10,520 --> 00:37:12,600
Speaker 1: It's more of the mind and who they are. I mean,

745
00:37:12,680 --> 00:37:14,279
Speaker 1: all right, you know sometimes you're a little vein and

746
00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:16,680
Speaker 1: you're like, oh, she's asked, is fat? Whatever? Ended? But

747
00:37:16,719 --> 00:37:19,560
Speaker 1: then once you do dig in, then there's nothing there

748
00:37:19,719 --> 00:37:21,640
Speaker 1: past that. It's like, all write, you're hot, Like what?

749
00:37:21,800 --> 00:37:24,759
Speaker 1: Because I actually separate the gender roles a lot in

750
00:37:24,840 --> 00:37:28,399
Speaker 1: my bisexuality. For me, it's it really is the mind.

751
00:37:28,560 --> 00:37:31,200
Speaker 1: I also realized my type has changed for women. I

752
00:37:31,280 --> 00:37:33,960
Speaker 1: think I'm into and I learned this yesterday at the

753
00:37:33,960 --> 00:37:37,000
Speaker 1: Pride for Aid. Butch fem. Oh, I love it. I've

754
00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:41,200
Speaker 1: been saying, don't know, that's not necessarily butch FM. She's

755
00:37:41,200 --> 00:37:43,839
Speaker 1: just butch, right, she's just butch. What is butch from?

756
00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:47,600
Speaker 1: Like androgynous and the way they dressed. Okay, so butch

757
00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:53,560
Speaker 1: fem is the girl that, yeah like it. Maybe heals

758
00:37:53,600 --> 00:37:59,279
Speaker 1: with like the Ruby Rose she was a girl, Um absolutely, yes,

759
00:37:59,600 --> 00:38:02,319
Speaker 1: okay Ruby Rose Okay, well yeah those and they're cute,

760
00:38:02,480 --> 00:38:05,120
Speaker 1: but it's like she's like any bits head on it,

761
00:38:05,200 --> 00:38:08,160
Speaker 1: like sports. I was like a good dog. So so

762
00:38:08,360 --> 00:38:11,000
Speaker 1: when did you realize that you were attracted to men

763
00:38:11,120 --> 00:38:15,400
Speaker 1: women and then possibly trans or cross stressors? Like, when

764
00:38:15,440 --> 00:38:17,600
Speaker 1: did you realize the fluidity and what you were attracted?

765
00:38:17,719 --> 00:38:21,600
Speaker 1: I was actually very young. Um, I was like eighteen

766
00:38:21,719 --> 00:38:26,640
Speaker 1: nineteen and I had just gotten out of a shitty

767
00:38:26,719 --> 00:38:31,680
Speaker 1: relationship with a dude. Uh huh, and I was I

768
00:38:31,719 --> 00:38:34,520
Speaker 1: mean my first kiss was a girl. For sexual experience

769
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:36,719
Speaker 1: was girl. Everything was the girl. Okay, it's such an

770
00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:39,480
Speaker 1: easy win. I mean, don't we all hump our friends?

771
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:41,200
Speaker 1: But that doesn't kind of sexual, right because I used

772
00:38:41,200 --> 00:38:43,880
Speaker 1: to play teacher and student with my friends all the

773
00:38:43,920 --> 00:38:46,839
Speaker 1: time and we just used to hump. But we we're

774
00:38:46,880 --> 00:38:49,759
Speaker 1: dry humping. I mean it's it's still sexual. Yeah, it

775
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:52,080
Speaker 1: is still sexual. But I think we all have house

776
00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:54,160
Speaker 1: but like house, Yeah, I think we've all had our

777
00:38:54,239 --> 00:38:57,040
Speaker 1: first sexual experiences with a girl first in real life. Yeah,

778
00:38:57,400 --> 00:39:02,400
Speaker 1: I remember specifically as a kid, and um, like no, no, no,

779
00:39:02,520 --> 00:39:06,200
Speaker 1: we're both daddies. We're both the mommies. Were both the mommies,

780
00:39:06,320 --> 00:39:08,800
Speaker 1: but we have the baby, so the mommies make the

781
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:11,640
Speaker 1: baby together. And my mom heard me say that I

782
00:39:11,680 --> 00:39:15,840
Speaker 1: think she used to play zippers, you know, like what

783
00:39:15,960 --> 00:39:18,920
Speaker 1: is zippers? So she was I used to live in

784
00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:21,520
Speaker 1: Florida whatever a long time ago. We would it was friends.

785
00:39:21,560 --> 00:39:23,600
Speaker 1: We would go in the shower together. It's like we'd

786
00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:25,120
Speaker 1: go we'd be in the pool all day or whatever

787
00:39:25,200 --> 00:39:28,120
Speaker 1: in the scott and then we're soaping and then we're

788
00:39:28,200 --> 00:39:31,279
Speaker 1: just zippers, like we would like make pretend we draw

789
00:39:31,400 --> 00:39:33,480
Speaker 1: zippers on our soapy bodies and then open it up

790
00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:42,480
Speaker 1: and can we play zippers as adult? I mean ship? Yeah? Right, So,

791
00:39:43,080 --> 00:39:46,279
Speaker 1: so you just realized that you kind of had an

792
00:39:46,320 --> 00:39:49,400
Speaker 1: attraction for everyone. It was it was the mental. It

793
00:39:49,480 --> 00:39:51,880
Speaker 1: was one like again I got out of a shitty

794
00:39:51,880 --> 00:39:54,719
Speaker 1: relationship with a dude. Um. I was talking to this

795
00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:59,880
Speaker 1: girl who looked like a girl at first. Once I

796
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:02,840
Speaker 1: started speaking more to her, She's like, yeah, I'm taking

797
00:40:03,000 --> 00:40:06,680
Speaker 1: tea and which is just tossed her own. She's transitioning.

798
00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:10,239
Speaker 1: And once I started speaking to her and her she

799
00:40:10,400 --> 00:40:12,520
Speaker 1: would open up to me about, you know, just her

800
00:40:12,600 --> 00:40:15,000
Speaker 1: life and her decision on wanting to do this. I'm like,

801
00:40:15,600 --> 00:40:19,480
Speaker 1: you're amazing, You're you're totally powerful. What are Your story

802
00:40:19,560 --> 00:40:21,279
Speaker 1: is getting really good and I'm gonna have to listen

803
00:40:21,320 --> 00:40:22,880
Speaker 1: back to some stuff. I have an emergency that I

804
00:40:22,960 --> 00:40:24,319
Speaker 1: have to leave for it. But I hope you guys

805
00:40:24,400 --> 00:40:26,880
Speaker 1: enjoyed this because I am so hyped that we had

806
00:40:26,920 --> 00:40:29,600
Speaker 1: a listener that's this dough. Yeah she'll sinking. All are

807
00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:32,160
Speaker 1: all dope, but like, we've only interviewed a few listeners

808
00:40:32,200 --> 00:40:33,799
Speaker 1: and Cake who was one of them too, So I'm

809
00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:38,439
Speaker 1: really excited. I can't leave one too bad. It's okay.

810
00:40:38,480 --> 00:40:41,160
Speaker 1: We could have continued this this conversation because I'm super

811
00:40:41,600 --> 00:40:45,959
Speaker 1: interested in it. So, how is dating as a pants

812
00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:48,080
Speaker 1: actually so real? Quick to go back to your story,

813
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:50,960
Speaker 1: you said that you noticed that she was transitioning, and

814
00:40:51,080 --> 00:40:53,280
Speaker 1: because you still had that attraction to her, you realized,

815
00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:56,160
Speaker 1: I'm not leaving because of this, and I still like

816
00:40:56,360 --> 00:40:59,040
Speaker 1: you for who you are, and then you realize, okay,

817
00:40:59,080 --> 00:41:02,359
Speaker 1: this could be a thing exactly. So when you now

818
00:41:02,480 --> 00:41:05,080
Speaker 1: that you realize this, that that relationship is over and

819
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:08,040
Speaker 1: now you realize that you are pants sectional, how did

820
00:41:08,080 --> 00:41:10,640
Speaker 1: you get into dating? What was your next? How do

821
00:41:10,680 --> 00:41:12,600
Speaker 1: you look for a partner? Do you even look for

822
00:41:12,640 --> 00:41:14,439
Speaker 1: a partner? Do you wait for them to just come

823
00:41:14,480 --> 00:41:16,080
Speaker 1: to you? Like? How does that work? And I never

824
00:41:16,160 --> 00:41:20,520
Speaker 1: really look so to say, but I mean, yeah, I

825
00:41:20,600 --> 00:41:22,960
Speaker 1: just it would be the whole conversation for me, bro

826
00:41:23,200 --> 00:41:28,840
Speaker 1: Like it's it's it became hard because it's like I

827
00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:31,040
Speaker 1: can look at you and be vain and be like,

828
00:41:31,120 --> 00:41:33,800
Speaker 1: oh I want you, but then it's like there's no

829
00:41:33,920 --> 00:41:37,080
Speaker 1: substance there because for me it is mental. It's mental.

830
00:41:37,160 --> 00:41:41,080
Speaker 1: So I'm the shallow person that I need to know.

831
00:41:41,160 --> 00:41:44,279
Speaker 1: I'll be times where it's like you hot, I need

832
00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:47,520
Speaker 1: you in my bed now, Like I got male stripper

833
00:41:47,600 --> 00:41:50,480
Speaker 1: friends right now that I'm like, I hate when you

834
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:54,320
Speaker 1: post becauld you make me want you like and so.

835
00:41:54,680 --> 00:41:58,840
Speaker 1: But then there's my friend was the transgender and she's

836
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:07,320
Speaker 1: fucking like just to see her her confidence, I think literally,

837
00:42:08,040 --> 00:42:10,960
Speaker 1: and motherfucker's be wondering how I'll be bagging and Nigga's

838
00:42:11,040 --> 00:42:14,440
Speaker 1: bag it's because a bit confident. Nigga definitely sense confidence.

839
00:42:14,480 --> 00:42:17,120
Speaker 1: So I want to ask you too, when what we

840
00:42:17,280 --> 00:42:21,280
Speaker 1: talk a lot in terms of lgbt Q and people

841
00:42:21,360 --> 00:42:25,880
Speaker 1: not being comfortable with telling their friends or telling their family.

842
00:42:25,920 --> 00:42:27,880
Speaker 1: I didn't even tell friends of mine that I was

843
00:42:28,040 --> 00:42:31,640
Speaker 1: gay until what like my first or second year of

844
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:35,400
Speaker 1: high school. Wow, and these and and I mean friends

845
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:39,239
Speaker 1: that we did the kinky ship with, how did they react? Um?

846
00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:41,759
Speaker 1: I mean if you did Kiki ship with him, if

847
00:42:41,800 --> 00:42:45,479
Speaker 1: they knew he was gay? It, Yeah, they already knew,

848
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:49,359
Speaker 1: but your family who the people who you ate. Well,

849
00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:53,960
Speaker 1: my family was different because I'm of Cuban descent, um

850
00:42:54,320 --> 00:42:57,080
Speaker 1: communist Cuba. Like my mother worked with Fidel Cash Show.

851
00:42:57,160 --> 00:43:00,560
Speaker 1: Her father was Fidel Cashual sergeant at arms, things of

852
00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:03,759
Speaker 1: that nature, so side by side, checking us. So I

853
00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:09,040
Speaker 1: come from a super super strict like man, woman, baby married.

854
00:43:09,080 --> 00:43:10,520
Speaker 1: If you beat you, you're gonna deal with it. If

855
00:43:10,560 --> 00:43:12,960
Speaker 1: he cheats on you. So it's it's very and I

856
00:43:13,080 --> 00:43:16,240
Speaker 1: broke out of like I used to watch like Marie

857
00:43:16,520 --> 00:43:18,799
Speaker 1: or whatever, and I'd be like, mom, so what if

858
00:43:18,880 --> 00:43:22,200
Speaker 1: I told you I'm sucking this on you? Oh okay.

859
00:43:22,880 --> 00:43:25,000
Speaker 1: It was very Still a lot of people have that.

860
00:43:25,200 --> 00:43:28,600
Speaker 1: It's very, very scary. I had, I mean ship. My

861
00:43:28,719 --> 00:43:31,239
Speaker 1: mom literally walked in on walking on me one time

862
00:43:31,280 --> 00:43:35,880
Speaker 1: as soon as Shorty was done giving me head like litertural. Really,

863
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:39,600
Speaker 1: I was wearing like flimsy like boy boxers. And she

864
00:43:39,719 --> 00:43:42,239
Speaker 1: came over and my mom wasn't home yet, and she

865
00:43:42,440 --> 00:43:44,880
Speaker 1: was a total a g. She was like literally butched

866
00:43:44,960 --> 00:43:47,719
Speaker 1: like a g. And she's the aggressor all the way

867
00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:51,520
Speaker 1: you and all these goddamn acronyms. Beach, I ain't up

868
00:43:51,520 --> 00:43:54,440
Speaker 1: on him like every life you say MC sixty seventy

869
00:43:54,920 --> 00:43:58,239
Speaker 1: fucking a g fmt L, I don't even know. I'm like,

870
00:43:58,440 --> 00:44:01,160
Speaker 1: what are you talking about? Like I need a breakdown

871
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:06,400
Speaker 1: of ship hold literally wear her her strap. She didn't

872
00:44:06,440 --> 00:44:09,080
Speaker 1: get her period until we were actually together, and she

873
00:44:09,200 --> 00:44:12,680
Speaker 1: was like eighteen at the time, like she was super

874
00:44:13,000 --> 00:44:17,360
Speaker 1: buch she was, but she literally she went down on me.

875
00:44:17,480 --> 00:44:22,839
Speaker 1: I came and I literally just went and my mom said, hey, wait,

876
00:44:22,920 --> 00:44:25,279
Speaker 1: she was she knew what was happening. She didn't know,

877
00:44:25,440 --> 00:44:28,600
Speaker 1: she didn't she like, my mom just came in the

878
00:44:28,719 --> 00:44:31,960
Speaker 1: house from work and came into my room. So when

879
00:44:32,000 --> 00:44:36,120
Speaker 1: you had that shorty was like this, like wiping her mouth.

880
00:44:37,880 --> 00:44:41,040
Speaker 1: She was wiping her mouth and literally coming up off

881
00:44:41,120 --> 00:44:43,560
Speaker 1: of my pussy when my mother opened the door, and

882
00:44:43,600 --> 00:44:47,640
Speaker 1: I was like, hey mom, and I'm literally still like

883
00:44:47,760 --> 00:44:51,839
Speaker 1: in the shivers of even though these girls so are

884
00:44:51,960 --> 00:44:54,280
Speaker 1: at your house, your mom probably doesn't have any idea.

885
00:44:55,080 --> 00:44:57,399
Speaker 1: She didn't what I'm gonna say that what she did

886
00:44:57,520 --> 00:45:01,359
Speaker 1: say to that particular person was she's gonna break your heart.

887
00:45:01,440 --> 00:45:04,319
Speaker 1: Keep working. Well. I said what I thought my mom knew,

888
00:45:05,440 --> 00:45:08,600
Speaker 1: But my mom also knew that I'm I'm my friends

889
00:45:08,640 --> 00:45:11,920
Speaker 1: are very personally, very personal to me. So I have

890
00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:13,560
Speaker 1: a best friend of mine, Well she's not my best

891
00:45:13,560 --> 00:45:15,800
Speaker 1: friend anymore, but we're very still close friends. And you

892
00:45:15,880 --> 00:45:18,040
Speaker 1: can't tell me nothing about her even if we're not

893
00:45:18,080 --> 00:45:19,640
Speaker 1: talking for two three is bitch. I'm coming to bat

894
00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:21,440
Speaker 1: for you with u. But Mama always knows because I

895
00:45:21,800 --> 00:45:25,360
Speaker 1: had friends growing up, and my mom was that that

896
00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:28,200
Speaker 1: ain't your friends. That ain't your friends. So at what

897
00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:30,759
Speaker 1: point did you go to your mom and say, listen, mom,

898
00:45:30,880 --> 00:45:33,880
Speaker 1: this is me. So actually she came to me, I

899
00:45:34,200 --> 00:45:38,320
Speaker 1: was I actually had just gotten into Um okay, so

900
00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:41,520
Speaker 1: I got married for papers. Oh that guy's the one

901
00:45:41,560 --> 00:45:44,000
Speaker 1: in the marriages don't count, so that that makes that's

902
00:45:44,000 --> 00:45:48,080
Speaker 1: the one I didn't bring up. You have three marriages, yeah,

903
00:45:48,320 --> 00:45:53,160
Speaker 1: and I'm only gonna be thirty. Way three marriages before thirty, Okay,

904
00:45:53,200 --> 00:45:54,759
Speaker 1: real quick, And it's a little person. How much money

905
00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:56,600
Speaker 1: you got for that one? For the papers? Because because

906
00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:58,719
Speaker 1: my mama, I got married two more times after that.

907
00:45:58,840 --> 00:46:01,640
Speaker 1: So obviously he fucked up. Oh he clearly did, because

908
00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:04,839
Speaker 1: my daddy's talking about it. Because these Jamaicans right used

909
00:46:04,880 --> 00:46:06,720
Speaker 1: to be wanting to get their papers. Then my daddy

910
00:46:06,760 --> 00:46:10,640
Speaker 1: used to be like thirty thousand, but he didn't. Thirty

911
00:46:10,680 --> 00:46:13,440
Speaker 1: thousand is about the going, right, That's that's what are

912
00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:15,680
Speaker 1: willing to pay as well. You had to dish out

913
00:46:15,719 --> 00:46:18,320
Speaker 1: that thirty and he didn't, so he's still where he is.

914
00:46:20,280 --> 00:46:24,960
Speaker 1: Did get your paper? Right? Hey? Pay phone? Um? I

915
00:46:25,200 --> 00:46:28,480
Speaker 1: just came back from that and I was like, I

916
00:46:28,520 --> 00:46:30,759
Speaker 1: don't want no dude funk that. Like it was just

917
00:46:30,920 --> 00:46:34,479
Speaker 1: like I'm totally gonna just be free. I'm not going

918
00:46:34,600 --> 00:46:38,560
Speaker 1: to continue to look for just one thing. I open

919
00:46:38,600 --> 00:46:42,560
Speaker 1: back up from just dealing with dudes. And I was

920
00:46:42,640 --> 00:46:47,080
Speaker 1: talking to this girl and she was like, um, wheezy said.

921
00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:50,080
Speaker 1: She was like a kind of like Ruby Rose. Right.

922
00:46:50,640 --> 00:46:52,719
Speaker 1: She came over and I was like, hey, mom, can

923
00:46:52,800 --> 00:46:57,319
Speaker 1: she sleep over? She was like yeah, okay. I was like, okay,

924
00:46:57,320 --> 00:46:58,960
Speaker 1: We're gonna go to the house and get closed. She's

925
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:00,480
Speaker 1: like okay. So she calls me and I'm on the way.

926
00:47:00,560 --> 00:47:03,799
Speaker 1: She's like, are you coming back with the girl? I said, yeah, mama,

927
00:47:03,840 --> 00:47:05,759
Speaker 1: am we you know you said she could sleep over.

928
00:47:06,000 --> 00:47:09,560
Speaker 1: She's like, okay, let me ask you something. Is that

929
00:47:09,680 --> 00:47:12,520
Speaker 1: your girlfriend? She didn't, Oh no she didn't. She said,

930
00:47:12,719 --> 00:47:15,840
Speaker 1: she said, let me ask you something. Is that your girlfriend,

931
00:47:15,960 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 1: because you know I I don't know, and it feels funny.

932
00:47:21,239 --> 00:47:24,520
Speaker 1: I said, it feels funny. If it feels funny, I'm like, man,

933
00:47:24,560 --> 00:47:28,600
Speaker 1: what do you mean it feels funny? So so I'm like,

934
00:47:28,760 --> 00:47:35,520
Speaker 1: I'm like, I mean yeah, She's like, ah, okay. We

935
00:47:35,680 --> 00:47:40,840
Speaker 1: told later, I said, how is that talk? Never had it? Really?

936
00:47:40,920 --> 00:47:44,640
Speaker 1: I think at that point she I mean she at

937
00:47:44,640 --> 00:47:47,080
Speaker 1: the same time she had also let me go. You

938
00:47:47,160 --> 00:47:50,200
Speaker 1: get what I'm saying. I I she had moved. We moved,

939
00:47:50,239 --> 00:47:53,080
Speaker 1: picked up and moved to Spain together. I wasn't filling

940
00:47:53,120 --> 00:47:54,879
Speaker 1: it out there, and I came back home. I came

941
00:47:54,920 --> 00:47:57,360
Speaker 1: back to New York. So this was me what eighteen

942
00:47:57,440 --> 00:47:59,640
Speaker 1: years old, literally first time separated from my mom. And

943
00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:01,800
Speaker 1: it's not separated another state. I mean, so you're in

944
00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:05,520
Speaker 1: another country, different country, time zone. So it became very difficult.

945
00:48:05,560 --> 00:48:07,799
Speaker 1: Like if I wanted to call my mom at twelve

946
00:48:07,840 --> 00:48:10,239
Speaker 1: in afternoon, it's six o'clock, she's probably closing up the

947
00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:12,480
Speaker 1: bar to go. You know what I'm saying, it's it's

948
00:48:12,600 --> 00:48:16,239
Speaker 1: very different. So I had to I started not to

949
00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:19,279
Speaker 1: care about what really my mom said, and that relationship

950
00:48:19,440 --> 00:48:21,640
Speaker 1: and you know, and that relationship and it's like, you're

951
00:48:21,640 --> 00:48:24,200
Speaker 1: either going to respect me and understand that I am

952
00:48:24,360 --> 00:48:29,719
Speaker 1: still your daughter or I'm still your daughter. Either way,

953
00:48:30,120 --> 00:48:32,520
Speaker 1: he's gonna disown me and I'm your only child. So

954
00:48:32,560 --> 00:48:35,160
Speaker 1: how do you really feel about that? So when it

955
00:48:35,360 --> 00:48:40,640
Speaker 1: comes to now your family knows you're aware of yourself

956
00:48:41,200 --> 00:48:44,840
Speaker 1: and you have this mental craving, what are the sexual

957
00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:50,520
Speaker 1: craving attached to? Oh, it's it's pan sexuality. And do

958
00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:52,400
Speaker 1: you crave dick? Sometimes? Do you crave pussy? Do you

959
00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:55,959
Speaker 1: crave boobs? Do you crave? Asked? Like, are there parts?

960
00:48:56,160 --> 00:48:58,040
Speaker 1: Are there parts of people that you do crave? And

961
00:48:58,080 --> 00:49:00,880
Speaker 1: that's where you go first? Well? Absolutely, Like a lot

962
00:49:00,920 --> 00:49:04,080
Speaker 1: of times when i'm you know, with a man, is

963
00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:07,880
Speaker 1: it's about the penetration. I'm not I'm not big on penetration.

964
00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:11,640
Speaker 1: I'm not big on penetration. I can, honestly, I would

965
00:49:11,680 --> 00:49:16,200
Speaker 1: prefer to honestly either be with um. Penetration is just

966
00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:19,200
Speaker 1: not my thing. I can, I'm good. I'm good with penetration.

967
00:49:19,400 --> 00:49:22,480
Speaker 1: I can Clittoral simulation is all the way my thing.

968
00:49:22,800 --> 00:49:25,200
Speaker 1: So but yeah, sometimes I all the way want penetration.

969
00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:28,719
Speaker 1: Sometimes I just wanted to see. Sometimes I just want

970
00:49:28,760 --> 00:49:32,680
Speaker 1: to really mentally be there with you. So it's it's

971
00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 1: it's it's crazy because some people, Um, and I want

972
00:49:38,840 --> 00:49:40,719
Speaker 1: to know how many people you're actually probably helping to.

973
00:49:40,880 --> 00:49:44,000
Speaker 1: I don't think people understand or or have this sense

974
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:46,839
Speaker 1: that they have to identify themselves. I'm straight or gay,

975
00:49:47,120 --> 00:49:49,880
Speaker 1: and there's there there, there's so many things in between

976
00:49:49,960 --> 00:49:51,880
Speaker 1: that you can be. You can find beauty and so

977
00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:55,959
Speaker 1: many things like I didn't. I didn't realize that once

978
00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:58,439
Speaker 1: I opened up my doors to a female to male

979
00:49:58,520 --> 00:50:03,880
Speaker 1: transgender the at um I would actually like, I mean,

980
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:05,480
Speaker 1: I don't I don't want to say like that, but yeah,

981
00:50:05,719 --> 00:50:07,600
Speaker 1: it's crazy because I don't know the right thing to say.

982
00:50:07,880 --> 00:50:11,000
Speaker 1: I said transgenders, and apparently you can't say it with

983
00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:14,040
Speaker 1: an S. It has to be transgendered people or I

984
00:50:14,080 --> 00:50:16,080
Speaker 1: don't know, there's just too many rules around that. I

985
00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:18,640
Speaker 1: know tranny is the bad word, but then, um, so

986
00:50:18,840 --> 00:50:20,440
Speaker 1: the swinger couple I had on they sent me a

987
00:50:20,520 --> 00:50:25,799
Speaker 1: party where um, there's transgender women strippers and it's called

988
00:50:25,880 --> 00:50:28,719
Speaker 1: tranny Thursdays. So I'm like, is it okay to say

989
00:50:28,760 --> 00:50:30,800
Speaker 1: because it's their own community. I'm just so confused that

990
00:50:30,840 --> 00:50:33,000
Speaker 1: all of the terminology that can be used because of

991
00:50:33,080 --> 00:50:35,359
Speaker 1: course dyke and butch are supposed to be bad words,

992
00:50:35,440 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 1: but if you identify as lesbian or gay, you could

993
00:50:37,719 --> 00:50:40,520
Speaker 1: say dyke and butch. You can't say the F word,

994
00:50:40,760 --> 00:50:42,719
Speaker 1: but if you're gay you could say it. Like it's

995
00:50:42,760 --> 00:50:45,879
Speaker 1: just it's too many rules attached to it, like I've

996
00:50:45,960 --> 00:50:49,359
Speaker 1: been called when when I was just with my ex

997
00:50:49,440 --> 00:50:51,160
Speaker 1: wife at the time, I was called the fat hag.

998
00:50:51,239 --> 00:50:54,359
Speaker 1: Excuse me, but um but yeah, so I was called

999
00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:58,640
Speaker 1: you know, it's it's different. Yeah, so for for any

1000
00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:00,600
Speaker 1: of you listening, And it's crazy because I actually just

1001
00:51:00,719 --> 00:51:03,279
Speaker 1: met a woman when I did UM the Girl Mom Day.

1002
00:51:03,560 --> 00:51:05,560
Speaker 1: It was a panel discussion and I was talking about

1003
00:51:05,800 --> 00:51:08,359
Speaker 1: sexual liberation, women empowerment, and I had a woman come

1004
00:51:08,440 --> 00:51:11,040
Speaker 1: to me and say that she was a sexual and

1005
00:51:11,120 --> 00:51:13,600
Speaker 1: scared to come to her partner, um, scared to tell

1006
00:51:13,640 --> 00:51:16,480
Speaker 1: her her mother about that. And so she doesn't really

1007
00:51:16,520 --> 00:51:19,600
Speaker 1: want kids, She has no desire to even have sex.

1008
00:51:20,200 --> 00:51:23,439
Speaker 1: Sex is not something that she craves. It's not something

1009
00:51:23,560 --> 00:51:27,840
Speaker 1: that she wants. But coming to terms with herself that

1010
00:51:28,239 --> 00:51:30,319
Speaker 1: this is how she is, and how to identify as

1011
00:51:30,400 --> 00:51:34,520
Speaker 1: it and how to tell her friends, that's yeah, that's something, Yes,

1012
00:51:34,840 --> 00:51:37,040
Speaker 1: I know and so there's there's all of these things

1013
00:51:37,160 --> 00:51:39,880
Speaker 1: that we can be as human beings. And I feel like,

1014
00:51:40,000 --> 00:51:42,560
Speaker 1: because there's all of these different titles that we feel

1015
00:51:42,600 --> 00:51:44,440
Speaker 1: like we have to fit in and all of the

1016
00:51:44,520 --> 00:51:47,279
Speaker 1: stereotypes that come with each of them, it's like, is

1017
00:51:47,360 --> 00:51:49,440
Speaker 1: this wrong? Is it right? Is it? You know? Am

1018
00:51:49,480 --> 00:51:51,600
Speaker 1: I wrong for likingness? Am I right for liking this?

1019
00:51:52,040 --> 00:51:55,680
Speaker 1: And and even what Raquel said, she said that you're not,

1020
00:51:56,080 --> 00:51:59,279
Speaker 1: you know, saying supposed to or should too to have

1021
00:51:59,520 --> 00:52:01,359
Speaker 1: those things in our mind. I think that's what keeps

1022
00:52:01,480 --> 00:52:05,560
Speaker 1: us from experiencing things sexually and being with people who

1023
00:52:05,640 --> 00:52:07,759
Speaker 1: we may want to be with, but we think that

1024
00:52:08,120 --> 00:52:11,600
Speaker 1: it's not the right thing to do. And so with

1025
00:52:11,840 --> 00:52:14,960
Speaker 1: you coming on and speaking about paint sexuality, if someone

1026
00:52:15,120 --> 00:52:18,000
Speaker 1: is listening that even maybe experiencing even now still to

1027
00:52:18,120 --> 00:52:20,640
Speaker 1: this day, what I'm going to be thirty, I've been

1028
00:52:21,200 --> 00:52:23,640
Speaker 1: I have understand my my pant sexuality since I was

1029
00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:27,400
Speaker 1: about eighteen nineteen. Even still now, I'm confused because you

1030
00:52:27,640 --> 00:52:30,600
Speaker 1: never know what is the one thing about this particular

1031
00:52:31,040 --> 00:52:35,440
Speaker 1: person that you like. Yeah, so again it goes on parole.

1032
00:52:35,480 --> 00:52:37,080
Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm supposed to like that either,

1033
00:52:39,880 --> 00:52:42,440
Speaker 1: something there there's something there you know mentally that just

1034
00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:45,839
Speaker 1: clicks for you and it makes you feel comfortable. I'm

1035
00:52:46,320 --> 00:52:47,759
Speaker 1: I mean I should. I don't want to say I'm

1036
00:52:47,760 --> 00:52:49,400
Speaker 1: a confused person, but I've been through so much in

1037
00:52:49,480 --> 00:52:52,400
Speaker 1: life that I just if I find beauty in the

1038
00:52:52,520 --> 00:52:54,520
Speaker 1: roles that grew out of the concrete, that's what it is.

1039
00:52:54,800 --> 00:52:56,840
Speaker 1: And I just want to let y'all know too. She

1040
00:52:57,040 --> 00:52:59,960
Speaker 1: has been with everyone and it's a consensus that everyd

1041
00:53:00,120 --> 00:53:04,560
Speaker 1: you just saying Ship right, it's not just Nigga, everybody, everybody.

1042
00:53:05,200 --> 00:53:07,680
Speaker 1: I need you all to know because I know a

1043
00:53:07,760 --> 00:53:09,719
Speaker 1: lot of times that's when I get into the mood

1044
00:53:09,760 --> 00:53:14,600
Speaker 1: of dealing with women. I've had more abusive situations with females,

1045
00:53:15,800 --> 00:53:19,680
Speaker 1: which I very I very much agree then, But we

1046
00:53:19,800 --> 00:53:22,520
Speaker 1: have the conversation with Chris Styles and Christie Memory on

1047
00:53:22,560 --> 00:53:26,160
Speaker 1: the domestic violence situation episode. They were talking about how

1048
00:53:26,560 --> 00:53:28,920
Speaker 1: women aren't even condemned for being violent and a lot

1049
00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:31,600
Speaker 1: of times women are violent and men can't speak up

1050
00:53:31,640 --> 00:53:34,000
Speaker 1: about getting hit on a getting because they won't even

1051
00:53:34,080 --> 00:53:37,760
Speaker 1: be believed sometimes. So it's just I just think everyone

1052
00:53:37,760 --> 00:53:40,680
Speaker 1: at SHIP. But I I'm still glad we were able

1053
00:53:40,719 --> 00:53:41,960
Speaker 1: to talk about this on the show. I want to

1054
00:53:41,960 --> 00:53:44,840
Speaker 1: get into the homemail before we leave out. UM and

1055
00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:48,520
Speaker 1: this is this is interesting, um and and we just

1056
00:53:48,600 --> 00:53:51,440
Speaker 1: got it in. It's called the realization. Um. It's from

1057
00:53:51,520 --> 00:53:54,279
Speaker 1: one of one of our male listeners. Um. He's like, Hello,

1058
00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:56,600
Speaker 1: I'm part of the batch of brilliant idiot fans that

1059
00:53:56,680 --> 00:54:00,319
Speaker 1: started listening to the podcast. I've always been a self

1060
00:54:00,360 --> 00:54:03,280
Speaker 1: deprecating kind of guy. I never saw myself as attractive

1061
00:54:03,280 --> 00:54:05,719
Speaker 1: because I was a bit short, always been a chubby guy.

1062
00:54:05,960 --> 00:54:08,480
Speaker 1: The act the exact opposite of what I'm always told

1063
00:54:08,520 --> 00:54:11,799
Speaker 1: everyone want, especially living in Brooklyn. See y'all Brooklyn people

1064
00:54:11,840 --> 00:54:15,759
Speaker 1: sucked up man, y'all Brooklyn people. Guy Damn, he says.

1065
00:54:15,800 --> 00:54:17,920
Speaker 1: I'm twenty and I'm coming to the realization that I'm

1066
00:54:17,960 --> 00:54:21,440
Speaker 1: fucking cute. Girls always told me. I. Um, girls always

1067
00:54:21,440 --> 00:54:23,239
Speaker 1: told me I was cute. But now it's starting to click.

1068
00:54:23,760 --> 00:54:26,719
Speaker 1: Feels awkward to say, but I am with this new

1069
00:54:26,760 --> 00:54:29,720
Speaker 1: found confidence though. I've been shooting my shot at places

1070
00:54:29,760 --> 00:54:32,000
Speaker 1: I never did because of my self confidence. And we

1071
00:54:32,080 --> 00:54:35,560
Speaker 1: talked about confidence. I'm friends with a lot of fun boys,

1072
00:54:35,880 --> 00:54:38,000
Speaker 1: and the only problem with that is I'm not that

1073
00:54:38,200 --> 00:54:42,120
Speaker 1: kind of guy. This is the question so my question

1074
00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:47,200
Speaker 1: is how do I go about respective respectfully saying that

1075
00:54:47,280 --> 00:54:50,480
Speaker 1: I don't want a full blown relationship. I was successful

1076
00:54:50,560 --> 00:54:52,759
Speaker 1: with doing it with one girl, but she's the one

1077
00:54:52,840 --> 00:54:57,080
Speaker 1: that started the conversation. So he's basically going about how

1078
00:54:57,320 --> 00:54:59,880
Speaker 1: can okay? So here he goes to say, how do

1079
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:03,279
Speaker 1: you go about even asking for friends with benefits? How

1080
00:55:03,400 --> 00:55:05,640
Speaker 1: do you want guys to approach you in the street?

1081
00:55:06,000 --> 00:55:09,479
Speaker 1: Most girls I've asked this way, um or when guys

1082
00:55:09,600 --> 00:55:12,399
Speaker 1: say this, they want to be confident and respectful, two

1083
00:55:12,480 --> 00:55:14,799
Speaker 1: things I got downpacked but now or less any more

1084
00:55:14,880 --> 00:55:17,920
Speaker 1: tips for that skill. So basically, guys, what he's asking

1085
00:55:18,200 --> 00:55:22,879
Speaker 1: is how can he ask to just have a friend

1086
00:55:22,920 --> 00:55:25,319
Speaker 1: with benefits or just fun a girl, but without being

1087
00:55:25,360 --> 00:55:27,680
Speaker 1: disrespectful about it? And I think this has a lot

1088
00:55:27,760 --> 00:55:29,839
Speaker 1: to do with girls being in their feelings a lot

1089
00:55:30,200 --> 00:55:32,640
Speaker 1: and we feel like a nigga's boy for quote unquote

1090
00:55:32,680 --> 00:55:35,560
Speaker 1: leading us on or I mean, you know, how do

1091
00:55:35,640 --> 00:55:38,719
Speaker 1: you go about doing that? I honestly have the conversation you.

1092
00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:40,719
Speaker 1: I can't feel no way about you if you're telling

1093
00:55:40,760 --> 00:55:42,560
Speaker 1: me from jump list and you know I want to

1094
00:55:42,600 --> 00:55:44,520
Speaker 1: have fun with you. I enjoyed the time together. I

1095
00:55:44,600 --> 00:55:47,399
Speaker 1: don't know where it's going or or what or even

1096
00:55:47,480 --> 00:55:49,120
Speaker 1: if it's not, you don't know where it's going. I

1097
00:55:49,320 --> 00:55:53,320
Speaker 1: like what we have. You know what's crazy? Like I

1098
00:55:53,480 --> 00:55:55,680
Speaker 1: feel like I feel like I feel like both of

1099
00:55:55,760 --> 00:55:59,480
Speaker 1: us got nigga mindes because I'd be like, I don't

1100
00:55:59,480 --> 00:56:01,879
Speaker 1: even want you then in real life. But a lot

1101
00:56:02,000 --> 00:56:03,759
Speaker 1: of women and I wish he was in here for

1102
00:56:03,800 --> 00:56:07,600
Speaker 1: this conversation too. I feel like a lot of women actually,

1103
00:56:08,560 --> 00:56:12,279
Speaker 1: well here that a man say I don't want a

1104
00:56:12,320 --> 00:56:16,160
Speaker 1: relationship and still go into it thinking that they could

1105
00:56:16,200 --> 00:56:19,520
Speaker 1: change that, they could mind a man's mind, get it,

1106
00:56:19,640 --> 00:56:22,560
Speaker 1: it's a whole Oh he's a white nose. Then he

1107
00:56:22,719 --> 00:56:25,239
Speaker 1: turned into any But he's not because from jump he

1108
00:56:25,280 --> 00:56:27,520
Speaker 1: already's put it out there he doesn't want this relationship,

1109
00:56:27,600 --> 00:56:29,840
Speaker 1: or he doesn't want to pursue this, or you felt

1110
00:56:29,920 --> 00:56:32,600
Speaker 1: like you can change him because the pussy's there. Whatever.

1111
00:56:32,760 --> 00:56:35,080
Speaker 1: Know that if a man does not want if a

1112
00:56:35,200 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 1: person for a man, if a person does not want something,

1113
00:56:38,960 --> 00:56:41,520
Speaker 1: they're not gonna get it. You're nothing you do is

1114
00:56:41,640 --> 00:56:45,040
Speaker 1: going to change that. And so for you asking for advice, honestly,

1115
00:56:45,040 --> 00:56:47,400
Speaker 1: I would say, just continue to be honest. Let them

1116
00:56:47,440 --> 00:56:50,080
Speaker 1: know that's not We're not a form and you know,

1117
00:56:50,600 --> 00:56:52,439
Speaker 1: just be open about it. I think that's what makes

1118
00:56:52,560 --> 00:56:54,760
Speaker 1: a nigga not a points when you lie, that's when

1119
00:56:54,800 --> 00:56:56,680
Speaker 1: you lie, and you become to play the games. And

1120
00:56:56,800 --> 00:56:58,920
Speaker 1: you I'm I'm leading you warm, but you over here

1121
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:03,360
Speaker 1: talking to Tash Keisha and and and ay, ain't nobody

1122
00:57:03,360 --> 00:57:04,880
Speaker 1: got time for Just tell me. Look, I'm gonna be

1123
00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:08,959
Speaker 1: talking to Tasha, Keisha, Lakwanda, but you too, Alright, cool,

1124
00:57:09,040 --> 00:57:11,880
Speaker 1: So now I'm gonna talk to you know, Rashawn and

1125
00:57:12,040 --> 00:57:14,320
Speaker 1: and Ken and I'm gonna do what the right. So

1126
00:57:14,440 --> 00:57:16,480
Speaker 1: now we we were just an understanding. So now I'm

1127
00:57:16,480 --> 00:57:18,280
Speaker 1: not putting all my eggs in one basket for you

1128
00:57:18,400 --> 00:57:20,360
Speaker 1: for you to then for me to feel like, oh

1129
00:57:20,480 --> 00:57:23,760
Speaker 1: you hurt me because you didn't know. We're gonna do

1130
00:57:23,840 --> 00:57:27,680
Speaker 1: one more HOMEO before we get out. This is one

1131
00:57:27,760 --> 00:57:30,320
Speaker 1: that ain't ship and I really, um, we have men

1132
00:57:30,400 --> 00:57:31,560
Speaker 1: in the room. Can I get one of y'all on

1133
00:57:31,600 --> 00:57:34,840
Speaker 1: the mic for this, Police King Chris, one of y'all.

1134
00:57:35,560 --> 00:57:38,160
Speaker 1: All right, we're gonna go ahead and bring um which

1135
00:57:38,160 --> 00:57:39,840
Speaker 1: one of y'all coming on the mic because this is

1136
00:57:39,880 --> 00:57:41,960
Speaker 1: the conversation we kind of had I want to welcome y'all.

1137
00:57:42,160 --> 00:57:46,720
Speaker 1: We have a king and brother Christopher joining us um

1138
00:57:46,960 --> 00:57:52,040
Speaker 1: from Combat Jack Show, Do Say Podcast just Loud Speaking

1139
00:57:52,200 --> 00:57:54,520
Speaker 1: network in the building because this is a really interesting

1140
00:57:57,240 --> 00:58:03,840
Speaker 1: this is like so so it says, Hi, Mandy and Wheezy.

1141
00:58:03,960 --> 00:58:05,720
Speaker 1: Weezy has left the room. But we're gonna We're gonna

1142
00:58:05,720 --> 00:58:08,800
Speaker 1: answer this question for you girl, I'm snow. I wanted

1143
00:58:08,840 --> 00:58:10,960
Speaker 1: to start off by saying that I love your podcast

1144
00:58:11,200 --> 00:58:14,520
Speaker 1: and you both haven't inspired me to be more liberated sexually.

1145
00:58:15,280 --> 00:58:18,640
Speaker 1: Here we go, guys. My question is would it be

1146
00:58:18,720 --> 00:58:23,520
Speaker 1: a horrible decision to sleep with my best friend's ex girlfriend.

1147
00:58:24,320 --> 00:58:27,400
Speaker 1: My best friend passed away a few years ago, her

1148
00:58:27,520 --> 00:58:31,280
Speaker 1: ex recently expressed interest in me and I also have

1149
00:58:31,520 --> 00:58:35,080
Speaker 1: feelings for her. Would this be completely disrespectful to my

1150
00:58:35,240 --> 00:58:37,960
Speaker 1: friend considering this was the love of her life or

1151
00:58:38,480 --> 00:58:41,440
Speaker 1: is it not a big deal? Thanks in advance for

1152
00:58:41,520 --> 00:58:48,160
Speaker 1: your advice, signed an unintentional help. So feeling guilt There

1153
00:58:48,240 --> 00:58:50,480
Speaker 1: has to be guilt in asking this. I mean what

1154
00:58:50,680 --> 00:58:52,960
Speaker 1: we need to know and wanted to answer this question

1155
00:58:53,280 --> 00:58:58,560
Speaker 1: correctly is the time period? So don't the time period matters?

1156
00:59:00,120 --> 00:59:04,120
Speaker 1: Years ago? The best front passed away a few years ago.

1157
00:59:04,600 --> 00:59:07,360
Speaker 1: But are you asking for how long the relationship they

1158
00:59:07,400 --> 00:59:11,080
Speaker 1: had was? Does that matter? How long before that? That

1159
00:59:11,160 --> 00:59:18,440
Speaker 1: don't matter. He's from y'all stay over there on that

1160
00:59:18,520 --> 00:59:23,000
Speaker 1: corner ship go over there. Yeah no, I don't think that.

1161
00:59:23,040 --> 00:59:26,960
Speaker 1: I don't think I hear. Yeah. No. So now you're

1162
00:59:27,000 --> 00:59:31,280
Speaker 1: bringing up the BRONX. I don't know. Yes, yeah, yeah,

1163
00:59:31,360 --> 00:59:36,600
Speaker 1: So listen, Look, no, it doesn't it doesn't, it doesn't.

1164
00:59:36,600 --> 00:59:39,080
Speaker 1: I don't think it matters for the time. So I

1165
00:59:39,120 --> 00:59:41,640
Speaker 1: wanted to get guys in on this. Three days after

1166
00:59:41,720 --> 00:59:44,680
Speaker 1: the passing. It's cool, Okay, So it's a few years

1167
00:59:44,720 --> 00:59:46,680
Speaker 1: after the passing. I'm wondering, does the amount of time

1168
00:59:46,720 --> 00:59:49,640
Speaker 1: they were in a relationship count? So our people are

1169
00:59:49,720 --> 00:59:54,040
Speaker 1: are people? So because they dated, yes, your front passed,

1170
00:59:54,320 --> 00:59:57,360
Speaker 1: but does that keep people still off limits because the

1171
00:59:57,440 --> 01:00:00,400
Speaker 1: person they were with died? I see, that's trying to do.

1172
01:00:00,600 --> 01:00:04,479
Speaker 1: That's really tricky because I mean it's really tricky because

1173
01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:07,160
Speaker 1: at the same time, it's like, again, you can connect

1174
01:00:07,200 --> 01:00:10,840
Speaker 1: with somebody through morning and it's you know, it's so

1175
01:00:11,120 --> 01:00:15,640
Speaker 1: it's it's just it's a very tender topic. Um, maybe

1176
01:00:15,680 --> 01:00:18,360
Speaker 1: they had maybe one day was working with each other.

1177
01:00:19,120 --> 01:00:22,840
Speaker 1: Maybe they had some type of feelings towards each other before,

1178
01:00:22,880 --> 01:00:28,440
Speaker 1: but they never really maybe, So it's crazy because I

1179
01:00:28,520 --> 01:00:31,200
Speaker 1: can't ask you if you died, would you be mad

1180
01:00:31,280 --> 01:00:34,120
Speaker 1: because you're already dead. So like it's like, who do

1181
01:00:34,200 --> 01:00:36,080
Speaker 1: you have the loyalty to me? Is it? Is it

1182
01:00:36,200 --> 01:00:38,760
Speaker 1: just a moral thing? Who put the poison in the drink?

1183
01:00:39,160 --> 01:00:43,440
Speaker 1: You would say something like that, Look all right, So,

1184
01:00:43,760 --> 01:00:45,800
Speaker 1: I mean honestly, if you if you want your partner

1185
01:00:45,840 --> 01:00:48,400
Speaker 1: to be happy after you're going, you would want them

1186
01:00:48,440 --> 01:00:51,520
Speaker 1: to move on. This is really you look at it.

1187
01:00:52,680 --> 01:00:54,360
Speaker 1: I don't want you to mourn me for the rest

1188
01:00:54,440 --> 01:00:56,640
Speaker 1: of your life and you've got another thirty years ago

1189
01:00:56,760 --> 01:00:58,960
Speaker 1: when you're not gonna move on. And I mean, look,

1190
01:00:59,040 --> 01:01:03,320
Speaker 1: it just so happens to be that you like someone

1191
01:01:03,400 --> 01:01:06,720
Speaker 1: who was my friend. I'm dead now this is on me,

1192
01:01:06,840 --> 01:01:12,720
Speaker 1: the ghost talking like you don't do that, don't do that.

1193
01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:16,760
Speaker 1: That's that's underlying intentions, and you're just underlying the boy

1194
01:01:16,800 --> 01:01:20,240
Speaker 1: like you just like. But that's the thing. It's safe

1195
01:01:20,280 --> 01:01:23,320
Speaker 1: to it's safe to believe that there was always an

1196
01:01:23,360 --> 01:01:28,240
Speaker 1: underlying thought of that. I don't think, no, I don't

1197
01:01:28,280 --> 01:01:33,720
Speaker 1: know feelings for you. Now it's crazy. Well, I think

1198
01:01:33,840 --> 01:01:37,040
Speaker 1: that I agree with I think Christopher or or Queen

1199
01:01:37,080 --> 01:01:40,280
Speaker 1: Smith said it like you do gain feelings when you

1200
01:01:40,400 --> 01:01:43,200
Speaker 1: mourn somebody together, like you start to maybe spend more

1201
01:01:43,280 --> 01:01:45,160
Speaker 1: time around each other because you both are going through

1202
01:01:45,200 --> 01:01:47,320
Speaker 1: a loss at the same time. I think it has

1203
01:01:47,360 --> 01:01:51,440
Speaker 1: to do with just a guilty conscience and more. I

1204
01:01:51,480 --> 01:01:53,080
Speaker 1: don't know. I think that's what it is. I don't know.

1205
01:01:53,080 --> 01:01:54,600
Speaker 1: I just wanted the guys that put on this because

1206
01:01:54,640 --> 01:01:56,360
Speaker 1: to me, I feel like if you had a bit,

1207
01:01:56,400 --> 01:01:58,320
Speaker 1: you wouldn't want your nigga to fuck hurt if you

1208
01:01:58,440 --> 01:02:01,240
Speaker 1: died regardlessn't don't sit aroun down crying over me for

1209
01:02:01,360 --> 01:02:05,320
Speaker 1: too long. You gotta move on. Life goes on, right life, Okay, Okay,

1210
01:02:05,440 --> 01:02:08,040
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna say so, y'all. Advice to her would

1211
01:02:08,040 --> 01:02:10,720
Speaker 1: be go ahead and try this. I'll haunt the bit

1212
01:02:10,840 --> 01:02:13,120
Speaker 1: if you end up breaking that. So now we got

1213
01:02:13,200 --> 01:02:18,720
Speaker 1: a problem. Go ya, bit, you cheated. I'm a young

1214
01:02:18,800 --> 01:02:22,800
Speaker 1: knight tonight you're gonna wake up with scrap, y'all. Go

1215
01:02:23,000 --> 01:02:26,400
Speaker 1: forth and knocked boots. Okay, So and and see what

1216
01:02:26,480 --> 01:02:28,960
Speaker 1: it goes, because I mean, I guess you can't sit here.

1217
01:02:29,000 --> 01:02:30,680
Speaker 1: This could be your soul mate and you don't want

1218
01:02:30,680 --> 01:02:33,200
Speaker 1: it to stop happy because of a guilty conscience with

1219
01:02:33,240 --> 01:02:36,200
Speaker 1: a friendship that you had and that person has passed. Um,

1220
01:02:36,240 --> 01:02:38,520
Speaker 1: I think it's also something that you might want to

1221
01:02:38,560 --> 01:02:40,560
Speaker 1: look into. I don't know if you guys had mutual friends,

1222
01:02:41,040 --> 01:02:45,680
Speaker 1: but you're gonna be having a lot of people judging you, UM,

1223
01:02:45,800 --> 01:02:49,600
Speaker 1: so it may bring a little bit of drama with relationship. Respectfully,

1224
01:02:49,640 --> 01:02:51,760
Speaker 1: there's there's been a few years in the mix that

1225
01:02:51,840 --> 01:02:55,880
Speaker 1: you know, so I think it makes it okay. Okay,

1226
01:02:55,920 --> 01:02:58,000
Speaker 1: So I guess, I guess the consensuses you can go

1227
01:02:58,040 --> 01:03:00,240
Speaker 1: ahead and sunk her even though she dated your end

1228
01:03:00,320 --> 01:03:02,560
Speaker 1: and died and this just sounds all types of horrible.

1229
01:03:02,680 --> 01:03:05,080
Speaker 1: We get some crazy emails Jesus christ Um, I want

1230
01:03:05,120 --> 01:03:07,520
Speaker 1: to thank you for coming on, Um, thank you so much,

1231
01:03:07,560 --> 01:03:10,680
Speaker 1: and thank you a king and brother Christopher. But joining

1232
01:03:10,720 --> 01:03:12,680
Speaker 1: in on the homemail today, we we got a little

1233
01:03:12,720 --> 01:03:20,640
Speaker 1: bit of everybody you like that, everybody that high and left.

1234
01:03:20,760 --> 01:03:23,000
Speaker 1: But let go ahead and let our listeners know where

1235
01:03:23,120 --> 01:03:26,040
Speaker 1: they can find you, because y'all, y'all will be surprised.

1236
01:03:26,120 --> 01:03:27,600
Speaker 1: She does a whole lot that we didn't even talk

1237
01:03:27,600 --> 01:03:33,840
Speaker 1: about on the show. Real Quick, Real Quick, is your okay,

1238
01:03:33,920 --> 01:03:41,200
Speaker 1: So is your favorite girl? Yes, if you are, okay

1239
01:03:41,960 --> 01:03:46,720
Speaker 1: girl with pH okay, and then my my tweeter, oh

1240
01:03:46,800 --> 01:03:51,280
Speaker 1: my Twitter is that Mari rivera x X okay, and

1241
01:03:51,360 --> 01:03:58,720
Speaker 1: those are the only two platforms, isn't that? Queen is

1242
01:03:58,800 --> 01:04:02,360
Speaker 1: just the name because after three years of doing my

1243
01:04:02,760 --> 01:04:06,680
Speaker 1: my porn stuff, I actually developed, like I know, got

1244
01:04:06,760 --> 01:04:09,800
Speaker 1: mean sloppy fucking Yes, we threw that in there. Y'all

1245
01:04:09,840 --> 01:04:12,320
Speaker 1: thought we just had it in pen sexual on. I

1246
01:04:12,400 --> 01:04:19,000
Speaker 1: swear to guy, I'm on joh jackers last n y amateurs. Look, look,

1247
01:04:19,240 --> 01:04:20,720
Speaker 1: look we got the guys on the bike and that

1248
01:04:20,840 --> 01:04:24,560
Speaker 1: ease here, we got a porn starring video. Yeah. Yeah,

1249
01:04:24,680 --> 01:04:27,880
Speaker 1: I do porn Hub, so I don't. Well, so keep

1250
01:04:28,120 --> 01:04:30,160
Speaker 1: keep viewing, keep you on on porn Hub. I can

1251
01:04:30,200 --> 01:04:32,160
Speaker 1: find you on Hub. Yes you can't on Queen Spit

1252
01:04:32,280 --> 01:04:35,320
Speaker 1: Queen X spit X Oh no no no, not videos.

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Speaker 1: Look you know she said she don't funk with X videos. No,

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Speaker 1: she ain't finding with X video, So I'm not gonna lie.

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Speaker 1: I definitely want to see how you suck it, because

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Speaker 1: you're talking like you sucked dick better than anybody that

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Speaker 1: sucked dick. And I ain't gonna do all of that.

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Speaker 1: But I definitely liked the spit. I will I get Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you like spit, Like, yeah, I have an issue with

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Speaker 1: getting spit, but like my mouth just doesn't get as

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Speaker 1: spite as I needed to get, unless like gag, and

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Speaker 1: then I'll have to gag. You gotta get. I hate it.

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Speaker 1: I don't like feeling like I'm about to dive. Do

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Speaker 1: you have tons still? They're they're large, which is why

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Speaker 1: I have issues with even like because my weight is

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Speaker 1: down now I don't snore anymore. But they were talking

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Speaker 1: about removing my tenses and I was like, get them removed?

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Speaker 1: Why because then I want you could suck some dead

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Speaker 1: I want what I can't suck now get it back there? Really, yes,

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Speaker 1: I have My tons was removed when I was very little,

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Speaker 1: Just like the first thing. I was just like, you

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Speaker 1: ain't feel ship. I didn't even Joe dude, actually, so

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Speaker 1: I speak to do the first dick I've ever sucked.

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Speaker 1: He's like, I've never mind you. I'm going to be thirty.

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Speaker 1: We were in junior high school. You were sucking dick

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Speaker 1: and junior highs about to be and had a head start.

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Speaker 1: You had a head star and he was like, I

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Speaker 1: have never yet to got my dick sucked like that. Again,

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Speaker 1: I said, what I know, you got a kid. So

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Speaker 1: glad that we don't the same nigg is because I'd

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Speaker 1: be feeling special when they can say I'm the best

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Speaker 1: head they game. And I'm like, I got some friends

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Speaker 1: that the heart the same. So thank god I ain't

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Speaker 1: got to compete with my friends. Okay, ain't nobody got

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Speaker 1: time to be out here that what they've friend like, well,

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Speaker 1: which one of us sucked it better? And now it's

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Speaker 1: sad when I'm just saying when you well, in my

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Speaker 1: in my line of work, I've had a trick be

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Speaker 1: every everyone. Yeah, everyone's trick. And it's kind of like

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Speaker 1: after they got to me, it was like, look a

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Speaker 1: king is literally looking her up as we speak. Well, okay,

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Speaker 1: I think that you guys. I'm gonna put her names

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Speaker 1: as well, guys in the description, so that you guys

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Speaker 1: can look at her suck some motherfucking dick. Look, this

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Speaker 1: is from a man. What do you think about it

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Speaker 1: right now? Well, it's a little interview just passed like

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Speaker 1: a minute and a half. I have an oral fetish,

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Speaker 1: Like I literally like I have a little fixation. I like,

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Speaker 1: I keep things in my mouth literally like a lot

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Speaker 1: of cops fingers my nails. Like even when I do

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Speaker 1: like my silly short on Instagram, it's always a nail

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Speaker 1: in my yeah face yo, hey kings face right now,

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Speaker 1: so look it up. Look because they thought she was

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Speaker 1: a little innocent, bubbly little girl from Brookly, Brooklyn with

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Speaker 1: bro you and that looks like a big dick yo.

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Speaker 1: It's fun, bro, and you got it all in your mouth.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, my spit don't be hanging like that. Oh yeah,

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Speaker 1: we might need to talk girl, because I got you.

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Speaker 1: I get my spit to hang like that, cheese like

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Speaker 1: not to do it right? What's this is? How? You know?

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Speaker 1: It's fine? We know you don't it's good. But everybody, everybody,

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Speaker 1: he has no idea what you're doing. Well, we want

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Speaker 1: to thank you once again for coming onto the show.

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Speaker 1: Thank you. Where can they listen to more of you?

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Speaker 1: Since you just came onto our platform? You would talk

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Speaker 1: a texture right, yes, yes, so tell them like where

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Speaker 1: can they listen to talk tecture? Everywhere? Just listen, just subscribe,

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Speaker 1: rate and comments to every show a loud speakers. Bo.

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Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, and that's it. Shout out

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Speaker 1: the loudspeakers again. Decision everybody, and brother Christopher, you working

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Speaker 1: on anything that they can catch you at. I'm just

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Speaker 1: the hippie smoking weed and taking photographs. Yeah, wait, what

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Speaker 1: I've done? Right? Look, this is what happens when a

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Speaker 1: king gets on the mic to talk about sex. We

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Speaker 1: talk about cheese and g unit porn. I don't know

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Speaker 1: what the look. Look Look, I'm so excited you guys.

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Speaker 1: I hope that that that this episode maybe got your

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Speaker 1: mind open once again. I'm super excited at the amount

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Speaker 1: of people that were affecting. I literally want to say

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Speaker 1: thank you, thank you. Literally, I mean I wasn't in messing,

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Speaker 1: but I literally had a tear in my at the

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Speaker 1: live show. UM, knowing the amount of people that we've touched,

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Speaker 1: the emails that we're getting, UM, the changes that people

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Speaker 1: are making with their sexuality and their partners, and we

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Speaker 1: appreciate all of you for tuning in again hit us

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Speaker 1: up on all of our social media. We got Twitter

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Speaker 1: at Horrible Pod, and we got our Instagram at Horrible

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Speaker 1: Underscore Decisions. You guys know, y'all can always check me

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Speaker 1: at full Court Pumps every motherfucker Web. Thank you all

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Speaker 1: for being supporting of the Horrible Decisions podcast. This has

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Speaker 1: been yet another episode of Horror Decisions. Yeah Home,