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Speaker 1: Hello, So Hi, what is your name?

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Speaker 2: My name's NICKI go by Nikki the Star.

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Speaker 1: Uh Niki? What's going on? How can I how can

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Speaker 1: I get you today?

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Speaker 3: I'm so excited.

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Speaker 2: I'm ecstatic to be gecked.

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Speaker 1: Well, it says here you wanted to talk about being

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Speaker 1: homeless by choice for the past two years.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it's kind of been like a house hopping situation,

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Speaker 2: to be.

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Speaker 1: Honest, Okay, what's the deal.

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 2: It's like more peaceful and I kind of get to

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Speaker 2: like be wherever I want. Like I live in the

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Speaker 2: middle of nowhere in Ohio and I've gotten to like

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Speaker 2: go everywhere in Ohio in a sense.

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Speaker 1: So when you say that you are okay, so you've

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Speaker 1: been homeless by a choice. So you say that you've

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Speaker 1: been the house hopping for the past ten Yeah, what

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Speaker 1: does that mean?

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Speaker 4: So?

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Speaker 2: I just went through my third toxic roommate.

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Speaker 3: This one was the worst of it.

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Speaker 2: I went over to his house to pick up my

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Speaker 2: staff ultimately, and he kicked the side mirror off of

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Speaker 2: my friend's car and like throwing the blatta gun and everything.

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Speaker 1: It was before we get that what. So, So you're like,

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Speaker 1: what is house hopping mean? Like what do you do?

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Speaker 1: Whose houses are you hopping?

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Speaker 2: It's kind of just I'm a stripper and a porn star. Okay,

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Speaker 2: like this that's my full time profession. But it's kind

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Speaker 2: of just like it's really toxic men that I shouldn't

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Speaker 2: move in with, and it's it's not great. I can't

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Speaker 2: get out of the cycle at this point.

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Speaker 1: So okay, so the homeless. So you're homeless by choice,

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Speaker 1: hopping around the houses of different guys and you're living

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Speaker 1: there for a little bit of time, and you've been

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Speaker 1: doing this for two years all over Ohio.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, No, I'm no, I don't know what Chat's saying

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Speaker 2: because I'm not.

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Speaker 1: I don't don't, I don't. I don't want to talk

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Speaker 1: about the chat. We're not. I'm not this is We're

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Speaker 1: just don't don't think about the chat, don't think about

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Speaker 1: just I'm just curious, okay, we don't think about any

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Speaker 1: that stuff. I'm just I'm just asking, you know, So,

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Speaker 1: is that so that's what you're doing?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I've been.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, Okay, how is that gone?

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm homeless as of yesterday, But ultimately, like my

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Speaker 2: biggest thing is I've had the money at multiple points,

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Speaker 2: like I'm homeless, carless. I've never bought an apartment or

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Speaker 2: anything like, and I've had the money to do so,

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Speaker 2: but for some reason, it feels more comforting to do

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Speaker 2: it how I'm doing it, So I call myself like

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Speaker 2: nomadic by choice.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so you've so you've made money stripping and doing porn,

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Speaker 1: and you've made enough money that if you really want it,

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Speaker 1: so you could rent an apartment.

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Speaker 2: But yeah, like I've had all the I've had all

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Speaker 2: the things to put my life back together, and I

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Speaker 2: really just have.

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Speaker 1: It, Okay, And so instead you're how are you meeting

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Speaker 1: these guys that you're you're living at their houses?

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Speaker 2: I don't actually know. It's a really bad habit of

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Speaker 2: kind of moving in with strangers. I'm just like, I'm

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Speaker 2: careless in a destructive sense.

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Speaker 1: How do you meet these strangers that you move in with?

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Speaker 2: I'm not sure. I have like memory issues from a

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Speaker 2: little brand image, and I can't remember the stories of

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Speaker 2: how I meant most of them. But I do end

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Speaker 2: up moving in like shortly after meeting these people.

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Speaker 1: How many different people's houses if you stayed.

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Speaker 2: At over the passage, I think over four or five.

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Speaker 2: It only lasts a couple of months and then I

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Speaker 2: kind of like gotta fund one.

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Speaker 1: And are you, like, do you have stuff? Like what

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Speaker 1: do you what do you do with your stuff?

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Speaker 2: I've lived in toads, right, I own three totes worth.

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Speaker 1: Of planes and I kind of just live like that,

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Speaker 1: all right, And what uh in these past like five

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Speaker 1: dudes houses that you've lived in, what has the experience

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Speaker 2: Well, most of them ended up really badly and me

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Speaker 2: getting kicked out in like a really traumatic manner.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So if you have the money, why do you

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Speaker 1: not get your own place?

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Speaker 2: Well, currently I'm on like probation and stuff, but prior

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Speaker 2: to this, I don't I'm I don't know. I have

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Speaker 2: like a weird outlook on life. I've been through like

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Speaker 2: a lot of trauma and a lot of like changing experiences.

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Speaker 2: I got really heavily into like a lot of psychedelics

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Speaker 2: for a while too, So I feel like introspective about

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Speaker 2: the world. But like, I have a condition where I

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Speaker 2: have seizures if I get too stressed out. So in

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Speaker 2: order to like keep my seizures to a minimum, I

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Speaker 2: have to live completely stressed free. So I don't like

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Speaker 2: everything about owning a house or in a parka.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to stop you. I need to stop you

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Speaker 1: right there. Oh no, I'm sorry. Would you say your

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Speaker 1: name was again?

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Speaker 2: Nikki the Star?

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Speaker 1: You're telling me by choice, you believe that you being

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Speaker 1: homeless and staying at the houses of strangers that you

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Speaker 1: just met is less stressful than just having your own apartments. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I how did you come How did you come to

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 2: It's also just like I started off doing this when

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Speaker 2: I was in like a really bad position, Okay, and like,

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Speaker 2: ultimately mean it's it's easier and less stressful for me

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Speaker 2: not to change my situation.

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Speaker 1: Nikki, do you do you want better for your life?

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Speaker 4: I don't.

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Speaker 2: I don't know that better is like a good word, is.

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Speaker 1: A good word. I think better is a good word

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Speaker 1: in this situation.

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Speaker 2: I'm going to be one hundred percent honest. Even in

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Speaker 2: my situation, my current situation, it's not optimal. I'm sure

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Speaker 2: nobody dreams of this life. I feel the best I've

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Speaker 2: ever felt in my life. I feel I feel honestly fantastic.

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Speaker 5: About my life.

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Speaker 2: Okay, part I mean it's not all optimal, but I

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Speaker 2: mean I've been to the bottom of the barrel because

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Speaker 2: I feel like every I get to enjoy everything else

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Speaker 2: a lot more. The little things in life mean a

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Speaker 2: whole lot more.

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Speaker 1: So tell me more why you feel like you know

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Speaker 1: these these past two years. Why do you feel why

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Speaker 1: do you feel like your life is the best it's

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Speaker 1: ever been.

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Speaker 2: I had like a whole traumatic assault case when I

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Speaker 2: was really young. I was like fourteen fifteen, and my

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Speaker 2: whole childhood I was just like sheltered this like I

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Speaker 2: turned eighteen. I got kicked out before I turned eighteen,

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Speaker 2: and this is when all of this has started.

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Speaker 3: But like I chose to.

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Speaker 2: Spend my adult life so far not worrying about being

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Speaker 2: an adult as much as like, okay, enjoy, like I

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Speaker 2: have a good quality in life, which I don't feel

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Speaker 2: like a lot of people can say. And that's what

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Speaker 2: I've been working on. Okay, my mental health and my

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Speaker 2: physical health are really bad off.

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Speaker 3: So you're right, Yeah, No, I'm not crying. I'm sorry.

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Speaker 1: No I'm going to you're not. That's what a great sentence. No,

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Speaker 1: I'm not crying. I'm just smoking a joint. Okay, sure,

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Speaker 1: all right, you know what, But all right, there's so

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Speaker 1: many things going on here that are interesting.

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Speaker 4: Uh.

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Speaker 2: You know what, when I think, actually I watched I

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Speaker 2: watched all of the adults in my childhood. I'm happy

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Speaker 2: with their life because they never spent time trying to

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Speaker 2: find quality in life and they just spent time living life.

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Speaker 1: I I I really, Nikki, I really do feel like

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Speaker 1: you are reaching positive conclusions and then making wrong decisions

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Speaker 1: based off of those positive Because here's the thing. I'm

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Speaker 1: really I'm happy to hear that you are. It sounds

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Speaker 1: to me like you're just like, oh, things were so

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Speaker 1: grateful for that. And I think that's sick. But I

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Speaker 1: still don't understand why. By if you're telling me the truth,

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Speaker 1: and this really is by choice, that by choice, you

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Speaker 1: are opting to meet strange guys in ways that you

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Speaker 1: don't even remember and sleep at their houses instead of

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Speaker 1: just getting an apartment with the.

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Speaker 2: Money, and it sounds really bad for everybody. Well, I'm

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Speaker 2: not saying that I had money at the time that

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Speaker 2: I moved into their house. I'm more so saying I'm talking.

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Speaker 1: I'm talking about today, I'm talking about I'm talking about

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Speaker 2: Well, right now, I just got kicked out of the

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Speaker 2: last one. I don't currently have money for all that

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Speaker 2: because life's been a shit show this year. But like

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Speaker 2: I'm just saying, everybody kind of looks at my life

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Speaker 2: from a distance and doesn't really understand it.

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Speaker 1: What do you think people don't understand about your life?

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Speaker 2: Like I I nobody, nobody would do the things I

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Speaker 2: ourselves goblins and we just kind of like I've been

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Speaker 2: living the past two years is just like a street goblin.

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Speaker 1: Okay, what do you think people don't understand about being

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I do goblin shit twenty four seven.

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Speaker 2: It's it's permanent goblin time over here. Just my whole

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Speaker 2: day is dedicated to whatever the fuck flies to me,

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Speaker 2: and like it's it's always goblin shit.

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Speaker 1: So look, I think that you can kind of do

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Speaker 1: long as you're safe. Do you feel like you're safe?

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Speaker 4: I do?

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Speaker 1: Can I ask you this too? Like you're like, what's

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Speaker 1: your what's your deal with your family?

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Speaker 2: My family is not great and I have I don't know.

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Speaker 2: They just didn't like how it turned out, which I

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Speaker 2: get it. I mean, I'm a stripper in porn starr

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Speaker 2: and I do like let people know this proudly. Okay,

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Speaker 2: I'm proud of my career choices and my family doesn't

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Speaker 1: Okay, and you said you have a you have a

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Speaker 1: goblin friend. What's how do you How do you know her?

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Speaker 2: My goblin friends? I actually met at the strip club

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Speaker 2: the first time we ever met. She worked at a

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Speaker 2: sixth store at the time, and she had it they'll

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Speaker 2: give you freezies when you work there if they're like

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Speaker 2: getting rid of stuff, and they gave her butthole loop

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Speaker 2: and she does not do any so, so we befriended

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Speaker 1: Okay. Do you do you have any concerns at all

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Speaker 1: about the way that you live or about or or okay,

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Speaker 1: well how about this? How about this with this? If

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Speaker 1: not any concerns about your present, do you have any

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Speaker 1: concerns for the future.

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Speaker 2: I do have concerns for the future, definitely.

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Speaker 1: Okay, what are your concerns for the future.

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't spend too much time worrying

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Speaker 2: about like what's going to happen, because I do have

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Speaker 2: some significant brain image, Like I got to focus on

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Speaker 2: I don't really do like plans or schedules or anything

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Speaker 2: like that. I don't worry horrifically about the future, but

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Speaker 2: I do, like I have been wondering lately if there's

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Speaker 2: something else that's going to be better one day?

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Speaker 1: what do you think about this goblin mode that you

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Speaker 1: are describing? This freedom? This? I do what I want.

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Speaker 1: I think that's cool for real, I do, okay, But

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Speaker 2: Like I'm not saying I disagree at all, Okay, but

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Speaker 2: I just I mean, I'm happy. My quality of life

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Speaker 1: Not hav great and that's great. And I don't know

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Speaker 1: But uh, well, Nikki, is there anything else you want

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Speaker 2: I just love walking your show. I'm excited to see

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Speaker 2: this episode. I've been waiting forever. I was sitting there

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Speaker 1: Well, take care of NICKI good luck, good luck, good luck?

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Speaker 1: A shit, I don't know, man. It's like, it's like

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Speaker 1: It's like if like, what's the story, what's that that?

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Speaker 1: Into the wild? You guys know, into the wild? It's

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Speaker 1: christopherm you can look this up. Look up. I don't know, people,

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Speaker 4: Hello, Hello, Hi Gach.

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Speaker 1: What is your name?

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Speaker 4: Millie?

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Speaker 1: Millie? What's going on has life?

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Speaker 4: Well, I guess I just kind of wanted to talk

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Speaker 4: Whenever me or my brother don't talk to him for

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Speaker 1: How does he say that he passed away? Does?

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Speaker 6: Who?

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Speaker 4: Yeah, that's what we don't really know.

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Speaker 1: So he just so like, what, what's what's your dad's name?

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Speaker 4: Jacob?

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Speaker 1: Okay, So Jacob goes, Jacob Frankfort, that's your fake last name.

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Speaker 1: Jacob Frankfort has died. Post by Jacob Frankfort.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, So what exactly happened was he changed his Facebook banner.

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Speaker 4: Like what's going on? I'm like, oh God, what do

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Speaker 1: How many times did he fake his own death.

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Speaker 4: On Facebook? Only the once? But he's doing it again.

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Speaker 4: So that was about a year ago, and he never

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Speaker 4: And I don't try to get him to tell me,

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Speaker 6: Like, so.

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Speaker 1: A year ago, when he posts that he's dying, how

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Speaker 5: Do you?

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Speaker 1: How do you when you when you find out that he's.

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Speaker 4: Not dead, He'll just keep posting again like nothing happens.

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Speaker 4: are we gonna see on Facebook again?

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Speaker 1: He so, what? What's what? It seems like you, in

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it's I don't like I love him a lot,

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Speaker 4: well by tried. I'm like, what do you mean you try?

439
00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:41,119
Speaker 4: You called at five in the morning?

440
00:27:42,720 --> 00:27:44,040
Speaker 1: So he's dying again?

441
00:27:46,119 --> 00:27:47,119
Speaker 4: Yeah?

442
00:27:47,840 --> 00:27:48,639
Speaker 1: Is he really dying?

443
00:27:48,680 --> 00:27:48,800
Speaker 4: Why?

444
00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:50,600
Speaker 1: He say? Why does he say he's dying again?

445
00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:58,119
Speaker 4: He just threatens that. I guess. Like I talked to

446
00:27:58,200 --> 00:28:02,280
Speaker 4: him very often. I keep up with him. I ask

447
00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:05,399
Speaker 4: him about his health and he always says everything's fine,

448
00:28:06,320 --> 00:28:13,359
Speaker 4: until like, either I don't talk to him for a

449
00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:19,040
Speaker 4: few days, or my brother goes off on him, then

450
00:28:19,080 --> 00:28:20,000
Speaker 4: suddenly he's dying.

451
00:28:20,720 --> 00:28:22,360
Speaker 1: Is does your dad? Is your dad married?

452
00:28:23,960 --> 00:28:24,240
Speaker 4: Yeah?

453
00:28:25,119 --> 00:28:28,200
Speaker 1: Okay, what's going on with his wife?

454
00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:38,480
Speaker 4: So they take care of his mom and she does

455
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:42,040
Speaker 4: like the day shifts and he does night shifts. So

456
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:48,560
Speaker 4: as far as he tells me, they don't really get

457
00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:53,680
Speaker 4: to spend much time together. Wife either happily Yeah, I mean,

458
00:28:54,520 --> 00:28:55,520
Speaker 4: they're happily married.

459
00:28:56,160 --> 00:28:58,040
Speaker 1: So this is not This is not a guy who's

460
00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:01,760
Speaker 1: just completely alone and is trying to get attention from

461
00:29:01,760 --> 00:29:08,320
Speaker 1: his kids because because he's lonely, he's happily married. Yeah,

462
00:29:08,760 --> 00:29:10,240
Speaker 1: how long has he How long has he been like

463
00:29:10,280 --> 00:29:11,239
Speaker 1: doing shit like this?

464
00:29:13,880 --> 00:29:22,560
Speaker 4: A long time? I mean the threatening of dying. I

465
00:29:22,600 --> 00:29:30,800
Speaker 4: can't even remember. Honestly, he is, like he's such a

466
00:29:30,880 --> 00:29:36,760
Speaker 4: smart man, but he's so dramatic and like says the

467
00:29:36,880 --> 00:29:42,960
Speaker 4: craziest things, like just the other night, he was mad

468
00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:46,960
Speaker 4: that I didn't reply to him within thirty minutes and

469
00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,960
Speaker 4: then he texts me, you're selfish, you know what, Just

470
00:29:50,720 --> 00:29:59,720
Speaker 4: don't bother. Karma seeks those who seek it, So this.

471
00:29:59,840 --> 00:30:02,800
Speaker 1: Is probably what I assume a real therapist would tell

472
00:30:02,840 --> 00:30:05,120
Speaker 1: you that your dad has no boundaries.

473
00:30:06,840 --> 00:30:09,200
Speaker 4: Uh, huh?

474
00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:12,160
Speaker 1: Have you attempted to set boundaries with your dad?

475
00:30:15,120 --> 00:30:21,000
Speaker 4: When I do, he start screaming and saying that we

476
00:30:21,040 --> 00:30:26,400
Speaker 4: don't care about him, and like I keep saying, he

477
00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:29,720
Speaker 4: will go back to the I'm dying and you don't care?

478
00:30:29,760 --> 00:30:33,560
Speaker 4: And I'm like, is he dying?

479
00:30:33,600 --> 00:30:38,920
Speaker 6: I mean, as far as I know, no, how.

480
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:40,560
Speaker 1: Does your brother deal with all this ship? How does

481
00:30:40,600 --> 00:30:41,760
Speaker 1: your brother deal with all this ship?

482
00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:46,040
Speaker 4: He tells me that I should block him.

483
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:48,479
Speaker 1: I assume that means your brother has him blocked?

484
00:30:50,200 --> 00:30:55,200
Speaker 4: He has? I mean, I'm the only one of his

485
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:57,760
Speaker 4: kids that he has, like an actual.

486
00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:02,200
Speaker 1: Really with how many kids does he have?

487
00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:08,960
Speaker 4: Four? And that also don't talk to him anymore.

488
00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:12,880
Speaker 1: Okay, so you're the last one that like wants to

489
00:31:12,880 --> 00:31:15,480
Speaker 1: put up with him.

490
00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:17,480
Speaker 4: Yeah.

491
00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:20,480
Speaker 1: So I'm curious, and I mean I don't This is

492
00:31:20,520 --> 00:31:25,320
Speaker 1: not a leading question in any way, shape or form,

493
00:31:26,600 --> 00:31:32,960
Speaker 1: but I'm curious. Why do you put up with him?

494
00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:36,480
Speaker 4: That's a good question. That's what my brother asks. Because

495
00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:45,880
Speaker 4: I love him, That's the simple answer. Like he drives

496
00:31:45,880 --> 00:31:50,800
Speaker 4: me crazy and he says crazy hurtful ding sometimes, but.

497
00:31:52,720 --> 00:32:02,719
Speaker 1: Like I don't know, You're right, Milly, Oh yeah, Okay,

498
00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:08,120
Speaker 1: how much longer. Do you think you can put up

499
00:32:08,160 --> 00:32:14,320
Speaker 1: with them?

500
00:32:14,440 --> 00:32:17,920
Speaker 4: I don't know. I mean, this has been happening for

501
00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:22,200
Speaker 4: a long time, Like this isn't just the only crazy thing.

502
00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:27,440
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, he faked his own death twice. That's two

503
00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:34,680
Speaker 1: crazy things. Have you ever spoken to a real therapist

504
00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:42,360
Speaker 1: about this? No? Okay, you probably should, but I assume

505
00:32:42,400 --> 00:32:45,520
Speaker 1: they would tell you. Uh uh, I don't know. I

506
00:32:45,520 --> 00:32:47,320
Speaker 1: don't fucking know what a real therapist would say in

507
00:32:47,360 --> 00:32:52,880
Speaker 1: this situation. But fucking.

508
00:32:56,240 --> 00:32:59,600
Speaker 4: Everyone that I talked to about it, they say, don't

509
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:10,400
Speaker 4: deal with this, you don't deserve this. But if I

510
00:33:10,400 --> 00:33:12,720
Speaker 4: I feel like, if I really stop talking to him,

511
00:33:12,760 --> 00:33:16,720
Speaker 4: who knows what he would do? Like if he acts

512
00:33:16,760 --> 00:33:20,800
Speaker 4: like this when he doesn't get a text back in

513
00:33:20,880 --> 00:33:21,520
Speaker 4: thirty minutes.

514
00:33:24,520 --> 00:33:27,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, but okay, you know what, Look, I'm gonna actually like, uh,

515
00:33:28,240 --> 00:33:29,840
Speaker 1: let loose on this one a little bit. How how

516
00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:30,840
Speaker 1: old is your dad.

517
00:33:32,880 --> 00:33:33,520
Speaker 4: Sixty two?

518
00:33:33,920 --> 00:33:36,240
Speaker 1: Sixty two? Is he mentally competent?

519
00:33:38,560 --> 00:33:38,840
Speaker 4: Yeah?

520
00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:47,200
Speaker 1: Okay, he's not. There's not like something divergent about him.

521
00:33:48,160 --> 00:33:50,400
Speaker 4: No, I mean he drinks a lot.

522
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:55,960
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm so your dad's sixty two, so in my opinion,

523
00:33:55,960 --> 00:34:00,800
Speaker 1: And how old are you? That was in his thirties,

524
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:06,320
Speaker 1: he decided to have a kid. And with that decision,

525
00:34:06,560 --> 00:34:10,120
Speaker 1: it's like a crazy decision to make. That was thirty,

526
00:34:10,360 --> 00:34:15,400
Speaker 1: he decided to have a kid, and he kind of

527
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:18,880
Speaker 1: has to take on one of the responsibilities of doing that,

528
00:34:19,400 --> 00:34:23,440
Speaker 1: which is to not consistently call your kid yelling at

529
00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:27,839
Speaker 1: her and saying heartful things, you know, And it kind

530
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:32,400
Speaker 1: of sounds like he you know, I mean, he's he

531
00:34:32,640 --> 00:34:34,560
Speaker 1: has he shown you any remorse at all?

532
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:42,160
Speaker 2: Yes, but.

533
00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 4: Like it's really passive aggressive, We're backhanded. Like I mean,

534
00:34:51,680 --> 00:34:57,040
Speaker 4: for example, when when he went off on me the

535
00:34:57,120 --> 00:35:00,279
Speaker 4: other day for no reason, started doing that I don't

536
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:04,120
Speaker 4: care about his health and stuff. I was like, what

537
00:35:04,320 --> 00:35:09,240
Speaker 4: makes me selfish? Like what am I doing?

538
00:35:09,680 --> 00:35:12,800
Speaker 1: Your dad is? Take your dad is? Is I'm playing?

539
00:35:13,200 --> 00:35:15,640
Speaker 1: I mean, I guess it's my job to play armchair therapist.

540
00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:18,120
Speaker 1: I guess that's what I fucking do. But to play

541
00:35:18,239 --> 00:35:23,560
Speaker 1: armchair therapist your dad sounds like he's taking all of

542
00:35:23,600 --> 00:35:27,240
Speaker 1: his problems and unleashing them upon to you and making

543
00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:32,600
Speaker 1: them your problems, which is truly a horrible thing for

544
00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:36,839
Speaker 1: a parent to do to their kid. I believe he.

545
00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:39,880
Speaker 3: Had always done that too, and like, yeah, that's not.

546
00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:43,600
Speaker 1: That's not it's a terrible fucking reason to have a kid.

547
00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:51,239
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's really it's really frustrating because like I have

548
00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:53,520
Speaker 4: my own ship going on, I have my own life,

549
00:35:54,000 --> 00:36:00,680
Speaker 4: Like I can't answer at five in the morning, you know,

550
00:36:04,239 --> 00:36:11,040
Speaker 4: I don't know. Me and my brother thought, like after

551
00:36:11,080 --> 00:36:14,000
Speaker 4: we found out that he was okay, obviously, like we

552
00:36:14,080 --> 00:36:20,879
Speaker 4: thought it was pretty funny two right on your own

553
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:23,960
Speaker 4: Facebook as yourself that you passed.

554
00:36:24,320 --> 00:36:31,480
Speaker 1: No, no, no, it's really really funny. It's very funny.

555
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:35,040
Speaker 1: It's very funny to do that. And then afterwards, you know,

556
00:36:35,200 --> 00:36:37,440
Speaker 1: update your fucking candy crush scores.

557
00:36:38,080 --> 00:36:43,640
Speaker 4: Uh yeah, twenty four hours later he's posting his candy.

558
00:36:43,320 --> 00:36:46,200
Speaker 1: Crush that's funny. You know, I almost I actually, jen

559
00:36:46,360 --> 00:36:49,319
Speaker 1: I feel I like, for real, I feel bad for

560
00:36:49,400 --> 00:36:51,560
Speaker 1: your dad because I don't know why. I don't know

561
00:36:51,600 --> 00:36:56,360
Speaker 1: why he he he uh like that that's kind of

562
00:36:56,360 --> 00:36:57,799
Speaker 1: how I feel. Like, I feel bad for your dad

563
00:36:57,800 --> 00:37:01,200
Speaker 1: because clearly he's in a lot of pain, but he doesn't.

564
00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:04,120
Speaker 1: I feel bad for you because he's unleashing his pain

565
00:37:04,719 --> 00:37:08,440
Speaker 1: upon to you, which is not a cool thing for,

566
00:37:09,440 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 1: you know, a parent to do to their kid. And

567
00:37:11,600 --> 00:37:14,040
Speaker 1: I don't think you I don't think you're required to

568
00:37:14,040 --> 00:37:14,680
Speaker 1: put up with it.

569
00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:20,080
Speaker 4: I feel Badrahim too, and I guess that's why I

570
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:23,200
Speaker 4: keep responding in right.

571
00:37:23,239 --> 00:37:25,399
Speaker 1: But but you, I think you can feel bad for

572
00:37:25,600 --> 00:37:30,920
Speaker 1: him and want him to be better without taking a

573
00:37:31,000 --> 00:37:38,399
Speaker 1: loan out of the bank of your sanity. Yeah, and

574
00:37:38,480 --> 00:37:40,440
Speaker 1: I know, by the way, that's an extremely hard thing

575
00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:44,200
Speaker 1: to do. I actually have no idea, you know, like

576
00:37:44,320 --> 00:37:48,279
Speaker 1: this is like we're we're discussing a pretty like emotionally

577
00:37:48,800 --> 00:37:55,240
Speaker 1: distressing and complex thing that's way easy, easier, easier said

578
00:37:55,360 --> 00:38:00,840
Speaker 1: than easier said by a gecko than done. But you know,

579
00:38:02,040 --> 00:38:03,719
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, It's it's a really it's it's

580
00:38:03,760 --> 00:38:08,120
Speaker 1: it's a tough situation. I feel I I I feel

581
00:38:08,120 --> 00:38:08,680
Speaker 1: your stress.

582
00:38:10,719 --> 00:38:16,239
Speaker 4: Yeah, he'll spam text me late at night, Like one

583
00:38:16,320 --> 00:38:21,239
Speaker 4: second it's really sweet, like I love you so much,

584
00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:23,640
Speaker 4: you mean the world to me, and then ten minutes

585
00:38:23,719 --> 00:38:27,320
Speaker 4: later it's shame on you.

586
00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:30,359
Speaker 1: Tell you tell your dad to get help. I mean

587
00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:34,319
Speaker 1: that that's you know what, That's probably what I would

588
00:38:34,360 --> 00:38:38,560
Speaker 1: do if I was you. Unfortunately, I'm just trying to

589
00:38:38,600 --> 00:38:42,640
Speaker 1: I'm trying to put myself in your shoes. Is like

590
00:38:42,960 --> 00:38:47,640
Speaker 1: I would just like your your dad like like you

591
00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:50,880
Speaker 1: can set up a kind of I guess, like an ultimatum,

592
00:38:50,920 --> 00:38:52,400
Speaker 1: a thing where it's like, look, you can be a

593
00:38:52,400 --> 00:38:55,040
Speaker 1: part of my life, but you gotta fucking get help, dude,

594
00:38:55,560 --> 00:38:58,920
Speaker 1: Like you gotta go, you gotta there's something going on

595
00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:00,560
Speaker 1: with you. Your brother did that.

596
00:39:00,520 --> 00:39:05,120
Speaker 4: Exact thing, but yeah, a few days ago, and that's

597
00:39:05,239 --> 00:39:07,040
Speaker 4: what unleashed this.

598
00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:11,680
Speaker 1: I mean, if that's your brother, I mean, dude, if

599
00:39:11,680 --> 00:39:13,239
Speaker 1: that's what your brother did, then the ball is in

600
00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:14,000
Speaker 1: your dad's court.

601
00:39:15,239 --> 00:39:17,759
Speaker 4: He just doesn't reply to him, and then he calls me,

602
00:39:18,719 --> 00:39:21,640
Speaker 4: yelling at me that we don't care. It's just the

603
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:26,720
Speaker 4: same cycle, like so frustrating.

604
00:39:27,200 --> 00:39:29,439
Speaker 1: I I think you should tell your dad he's gotta

605
00:39:29,520 --> 00:39:32,080
Speaker 1: he's gotta get help. He's got to work on himself.

606
00:39:33,239 --> 00:39:37,120
Speaker 1: If if you're gonna talk to him, because he can't

607
00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:40,319
Speaker 1: just like because like you want. He's your dad, you

608
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:44,920
Speaker 1: clearly love him and you want him to not be insane,

609
00:39:45,320 --> 00:39:48,960
Speaker 1: But he's gotta also want himself to not be insane

610
00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:51,200
Speaker 1: and not just take it out on you.

611
00:39:53,480 --> 00:39:58,760
Speaker 4: Yeah. I don't sorry, I don't see how he doesn't realize,

612
00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:09,920
Speaker 4: like what he is doing is unfair and crazy.

613
00:40:10,480 --> 00:40:13,160
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know. I don't I don't know.

614
00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:19,200
Speaker 4: And he's smart, like he is. He's smart. So that's

615
00:40:19,320 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 4: another reason I don't understand how he could act like this.

616
00:40:26,480 --> 00:40:30,840
Speaker 4: And we're nothing but completely rational too to him. And

617
00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:39,879
Speaker 4: it's a good thing he deleted his Facebook, because.

618
00:40:39,880 --> 00:40:42,440
Speaker 1: It's a good thing he deleted his Facebook. I think

619
00:40:42,480 --> 00:40:45,720
Speaker 1: Facebook was too powerful a tool for him and frank Frankly,

620
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:49,800
Speaker 1: I mean frankly, too powerful a tool for us, several

621
00:40:49,840 --> 00:40:52,239
Speaker 1: people of his age. I think I love you. You

622
00:40:52,239 --> 00:40:54,600
Speaker 1: ever go on Reddit? You ever go to r slash

623
00:40:54,640 --> 00:40:56,080
Speaker 1: insane people Facebook?

624
00:40:57,880 --> 00:40:59,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've seen some stuff.

625
00:41:00,239 --> 00:41:04,839
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, there's there's thousands and thousands of your

626
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:08,680
Speaker 1: dad's out there also faking their own depth on a

627
00:41:08,719 --> 00:41:12,439
Speaker 1: daily basis. So I so I hope you don't feel

628
00:41:12,480 --> 00:41:22,160
Speaker 1: alone in that. H what's your name again, Millilli? Well

629
00:41:22,200 --> 00:41:26,160
Speaker 1: listen Millie again. You know this is a tough situation,

630
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:30,759
Speaker 1: but I hope you do whatever is best for you.

631
00:41:30,800 --> 00:41:33,719
Speaker 1: I know that's that's like an empty thing to say.

632
00:41:33,760 --> 00:41:36,920
Speaker 1: I'm bad at ending conversations, but I feel like we

633
00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:38,839
Speaker 1: got some good stuff out in the middle of this,

634
00:41:39,480 --> 00:41:40,799
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like if you judged it

635
00:41:40,840 --> 00:41:43,239
Speaker 1: on the middle, not on the end when I said

636
00:41:43,440 --> 00:41:45,960
Speaker 1: a platitude to you, I think it would have been

637
00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:47,080
Speaker 1: a good I think it was a good. Do you

638
00:41:47,120 --> 00:41:49,080
Speaker 1: think was Was this a helpful conversation to you in

639
00:41:49,080 --> 00:41:53,319
Speaker 1: any way, shape orfore? Yeah, I think it was okay, cool.

640
00:41:55,320 --> 00:42:01,760
Speaker 4: Yeah, you kind of just said what everyone in my life.

641
00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:05,359
Speaker 1: I absolutely assume I'm not the first person to tell

642
00:42:05,400 --> 00:42:10,640
Speaker 1: you all of these things. But listen, listen. Similar to

643
00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:12,319
Speaker 1: how you can tell your dad that he needs to

644
00:42:12,360 --> 00:42:14,880
Speaker 1: do something all he wants, at the end of the day,

645
00:42:14,880 --> 00:42:16,279
Speaker 1: he's the one that's got to make the choice, and

646
00:42:16,320 --> 00:42:18,680
Speaker 1: as are you the one that has to make yours.

647
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:21,440
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

648
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:22,799
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

649
00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:30,239
Speaker 4: If your dad ever writes on his own Facebook that

650
00:42:30,320 --> 00:42:37,920
Speaker 4: he passed away and you're not sure and it's probably not.

651
00:42:37,800 --> 00:42:42,680
Speaker 1: True, I don't I don't know, I have no idea.

652
00:42:42,800 --> 00:42:57,239
Speaker 1: Facebook's kind of crazy. Okay, bye, Milly, bye talking to you. Yeah,

653
00:42:57,280 --> 00:42:58,400
Speaker 1: you know what this is kind of so I kind

654
00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:00,720
Speaker 1: of wanted to go look at crazy face Facebook stuff.

655
00:43:00,800 --> 00:43:03,560
Speaker 1: There's still people on there. Do you know that you

656
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Speaker 1: ever log into Facebook to see who's still on there?

657
00:43:08,480 --> 00:43:12,920
Speaker 1: It's it's pretty uh like I remember being on Facebook

658
00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:18,480
Speaker 1: in like twenty seventeen and seeing people facebook into the void.

659
00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:21,759
Speaker 1: You know, you know those people who are facebooking into

660
00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:27,200
Speaker 1: the void, like whoever, whoever, you whoever when you were

661
00:43:27,239 --> 00:43:30,160
Speaker 1: on Facebook in twenty seventeen, was facebooking into the void

662
00:43:30,200 --> 00:43:32,320
Speaker 1: and you were looking at them their statuses and going,

663
00:43:32,880 --> 00:43:36,120
Speaker 1: how does this person keep making these Facebook statuses for

664
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:38,799
Speaker 1: no one? I guarantee, Like, if you have someone in

665
00:43:38,800 --> 00:43:42,360
Speaker 1: your head, I guarantee if you log into your Facebook

666
00:43:42,440 --> 00:43:46,120
Speaker 1: right now, they posted an hour ago and they're still

667
00:43:46,160 --> 00:43:51,759
Speaker 1: doing it. And you know what. Actually, and by the way,

668
00:43:51,800 --> 00:43:53,480
Speaker 1: by the way, I don't mean to say this as

669
00:43:53,520 --> 00:43:57,680
Speaker 1: a as a dick thing, like, oh, that person's crazy.

670
00:43:57,719 --> 00:44:00,280
Speaker 1: I don't. I actually don't think that person is crazy.

671
00:44:00,320 --> 00:44:05,160
Speaker 1: I fully understand why people facebook into the void. It's

672
00:44:05,200 --> 00:44:08,560
Speaker 1: like journaling. They're basically they're basically journaling. That's what they're doing.

673
00:44:08,600 --> 00:44:12,880
Speaker 1: They're journaling, and they're like, it kind of feels good

674
00:44:13,640 --> 00:44:17,680
Speaker 1: to take my journal and throw it into the void

675
00:44:18,040 --> 00:44:21,799
Speaker 1: just so it's there. That's what That's what it is, man.

676
00:44:22,239 --> 00:44:24,560
Speaker 1: That's why we that's why they're facebooking. We all just

677
00:44:24,600 --> 00:44:26,799
Speaker 1: want to be seen. I think I think we all

678
00:44:26,840 --> 00:44:34,600
Speaker 1: just want to be seen, felt, heard, understood, loved, and

679
00:44:34,640 --> 00:44:39,440
Speaker 1: that's why we publicly and that's why Farmville works, because

680
00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:42,160
Speaker 1: we just want to be seen. That's why people Facebook

681
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:44,480
Speaker 1: into the void, that's why that's why people fake their

682
00:44:44,520 --> 00:44:47,680
Speaker 1: own deaths. That's why if you go on in sane

683
00:44:47,680 --> 00:44:50,120
Speaker 1: people Facebook, it's just it's just a bunch of people

684
00:44:50,160 --> 00:44:54,359
Speaker 1: who want to be loved, which is kind of as

685
00:44:54,640 --> 00:44:57,920
Speaker 1: stupid to say, but it's I guess that's true. And

686
00:44:58,000 --> 00:45:04,960
Speaker 1: sometimes love makes you say completely insane horrible things on Facebook,

687
00:45:06,040 --> 00:45:06,760
Speaker 1: is what I'm saying.

688
00:45:08,160 --> 00:45:12,719
Speaker 6: Okay, from Hi my it was Bob out of twenty two.

689
00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:17,919
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, what's your name?

690
00:45:19,480 --> 00:45:20,400
Speaker 6: My name is Bob.

691
00:45:21,960 --> 00:45:24,400
Speaker 1: Well, Bob, what's going on? How can I get you today?

692
00:45:25,680 --> 00:45:29,040
Speaker 6: Well? I actually have a question. I mean, it's just

693
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:32,239
Speaker 6: because I'm mostly a podcast listener, but I've noticed you

694
00:45:32,239 --> 00:45:34,319
Speaker 6: don't really ever get anyone on the show that's like

695
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:39,200
Speaker 6: super trolley, Like there's never anyone who's called in and

696
00:45:39,280 --> 00:45:42,360
Speaker 6: been like a boobs or whatever. Then hung up. I

697
00:45:42,440 --> 00:45:43,759
Speaker 6: was kind of curious about why that was.

698
00:45:44,520 --> 00:45:48,040
Speaker 1: Well, it's interesting that you say that that nobody has

699
00:45:48,080 --> 00:45:51,200
Speaker 1: called in and gone ah, boobs whatever, because I too

700
00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:55,080
Speaker 1: thought when I first started this, that there would be

701
00:45:55,120 --> 00:45:59,879
Speaker 1: a lot more people calling in and saying ah boobs yeah,

702
00:46:00,480 --> 00:46:03,160
Speaker 1: and I'll set the show. So the way, like I

703
00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:05,400
Speaker 1: don't know how much I talk about this on the podcast,

704
00:46:05,440 --> 00:46:08,880
Speaker 1: but this show first started as a thing that I

705
00:46:08,920 --> 00:46:12,480
Speaker 1: would do on the Reddit Public Access Network back in

706
00:46:12,600 --> 00:46:14,600
Speaker 1: like twenty twenty. I don't know, are you familiar with

707
00:46:14,600 --> 00:46:16,040
Speaker 1: the Reddit Public Access Network?

708
00:46:17,440 --> 00:46:19,080
Speaker 6: Yeah? I never really got like on it, but like

709
00:46:19,080 --> 00:46:20,680
Speaker 6: I knew of it.

710
00:46:20,160 --> 00:46:23,000
Speaker 1: It never took off. It was this weird thing where

711
00:46:23,160 --> 00:46:27,359
Speaker 1: for like a year or two, maybe not even that long,

712
00:46:27,520 --> 00:46:31,320
Speaker 1: about a year, Reddit was had live streams where you

713
00:46:31,360 --> 00:46:34,160
Speaker 1: could go live and if your streams got popular, they'd

714
00:46:34,160 --> 00:46:36,239
Speaker 1: go to the front page of Reddit. And so the

715
00:46:36,239 --> 00:46:40,880
Speaker 1: way that this show first started is I was fucking

716
00:46:40,920 --> 00:46:47,000
Speaker 1: around as therapy Gecko taking phone calls on Reddit. And

717
00:46:47,080 --> 00:46:49,920
Speaker 1: when I was doing that, that was a lot that

718
00:46:50,040 --> 00:46:53,160
Speaker 1: was like my streams would go to the front page.

719
00:46:53,600 --> 00:46:57,880
Speaker 1: So I'd have like forty two thousand concurrent viewers watching

720
00:46:57,920 --> 00:47:03,000
Speaker 1: the show, and like almost all of them had no

721
00:47:03,080 --> 00:47:07,520
Speaker 1: idea who I was, or cared or anything like that.

722
00:47:07,960 --> 00:47:11,160
Speaker 1: And so I was definitely getting fucked with a lot

723
00:47:11,239 --> 00:47:15,919
Speaker 1: more back when I was doing that. Other people would

724
00:47:15,920 --> 00:47:18,960
Speaker 1: call in and just like try to you know, be

725
00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:28,040
Speaker 1: an asshole. But true. But even dude, even back then, truly,

726
00:47:28,560 --> 00:47:34,080
Speaker 1: I was astounded at how little that would happen, even

727
00:47:34,120 --> 00:47:37,120
Speaker 1: back then, Like surely maybe like once a month someone

728
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:41,680
Speaker 1: would call in just to you know, say something bad

729
00:47:42,600 --> 00:47:45,680
Speaker 1: and hang up. But I thought it was gonna happen

730
00:47:45,760 --> 00:47:48,120
Speaker 1: every single time I went live. To be honest, I

731
00:47:48,120 --> 00:47:50,319
Speaker 1: thought I was gonna be my stream was just gonna

732
00:47:50,320 --> 00:47:53,840
Speaker 1: get kind of vandalized. When people kept telling me that,

733
00:47:53,840 --> 00:47:55,480
Speaker 1: They're like, I would never put up a phone number

734
00:47:55,480 --> 00:47:57,719
Speaker 1: because someone's gonna say something and I'm gonna get banned

735
00:47:57,719 --> 00:48:00,840
Speaker 1: from Twitch, And I'm like, I don't people, that doesn't

736
00:48:00,840 --> 00:48:03,000
Speaker 1: really happen. And even when it would happen, I wouldn't

737
00:48:03,040 --> 00:48:04,960
Speaker 1: make it a big fucking deal. I wouldn't be like,

738
00:48:05,000 --> 00:48:06,840
Speaker 1: I wouldn't stop the stream and be like I do

739
00:48:06,960 --> 00:48:10,080
Speaker 1: not condone. I would just I would just be like,

740
00:48:10,480 --> 00:48:13,080
Speaker 1: that was stupid, Okay, let's move on, you know, because

741
00:48:13,080 --> 00:48:14,319
Speaker 1: it's what they want you to do. They want you

742
00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:17,759
Speaker 1: to get pissed off and make a whole big deal

743
00:48:17,800 --> 00:48:21,160
Speaker 1: out of it because they want attentions. I mean, that's

744
00:48:21,160 --> 00:48:29,920
Speaker 1: really it. But dude, for real. I am very pleasantly

745
00:48:29,960 --> 00:48:34,360
Speaker 1: surprised that like ninety nine point nine nine percent of

746
00:48:34,480 --> 00:48:38,560
Speaker 1: people that I have spoken to the thousands of fucking

747
00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:40,880
Speaker 1: phone calls I've taken since do it on the Reddit

748
00:48:40,960 --> 00:48:45,840
Speaker 1: streams and the Twitch streams and the podcast alsoff genuine

749
00:48:45,880 --> 00:48:49,800
Speaker 1: people for real, like genuine cool They just want to talk.

750
00:48:50,440 --> 00:48:53,520
Speaker 1: Or if they are being trolley or saying boobs or whatever,

751
00:48:53,560 --> 00:48:56,560
Speaker 1: it's not out of any malice. Maybe it's just because

752
00:48:56,560 --> 00:48:59,080
Speaker 1: they're nervous so they don't know what to say, or

753
00:48:59,239 --> 00:49:02,160
Speaker 1: they were trying to be funny. Like nobody. I don't

754
00:49:02,280 --> 00:49:06,120
Speaker 1: think anyone's really come on here with true, honest to

755
00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:10,680
Speaker 1: god negative malice. And if they ever did, it was

756
00:49:10,840 --> 00:49:14,879
Speaker 1: you know, three out of a thousands, which is kind

757
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:16,560
Speaker 1: of crazy to me. It's kind of crazy to me.

758
00:49:16,880 --> 00:49:21,440
Speaker 1: It's funny. I've thought about this before. Of all the

759
00:49:21,480 --> 00:49:23,759
Speaker 1: people that I meet doing this, whether it's on the

760
00:49:23,800 --> 00:49:31,840
Speaker 1: phone or in person, again, like pleasant interactions, extremely pleasant

761
00:49:32,280 --> 00:49:35,759
Speaker 1: interactions over the phone and in person when I do

762
00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:38,760
Speaker 1: my live shows, Like, I really don't have any bad

763
00:49:38,880 --> 00:49:42,480
Speaker 1: experiences meeting talking to any of these people on the

764
00:49:42,480 --> 00:49:46,400
Speaker 1: phone or in person. It's mainly like on the comments

765
00:49:46,440 --> 00:49:50,239
Speaker 1: section of things and in the chats, you know what

766
00:49:50,239 --> 00:49:53,680
Speaker 1: I mean, where people are just going insane, you know.

767
00:49:54,040 --> 00:49:55,879
Speaker 1: I mean even I'll say that the twitch chat is cool.

768
00:49:55,920 --> 00:49:59,239
Speaker 1: The twitch chat it does not. But still it's like

769
00:49:59,280 --> 00:50:01,200
Speaker 1: it's so funny to me because I'll look at the

770
00:50:01,280 --> 00:50:05,560
Speaker 1: Instagram comments of like a clip of some kind that

771
00:50:05,600 --> 00:50:08,960
Speaker 1: I've posted, and you know, everyone is like people are

772
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:13,279
Speaker 1: getting into crazy fights and just acting like lunatics. And

773
00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:17,840
Speaker 1: then I meet these same people in person and everyone's awesome.

774
00:50:18,640 --> 00:50:20,520
Speaker 1: I don't, I know, it's funny, but and they're the

775
00:50:20,560 --> 00:50:22,880
Speaker 1: same fucking people. You know, it's crazy.

776
00:50:23,800 --> 00:50:25,400
Speaker 6: Yeah, that's what I was curious about, because like that

777
00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:27,080
Speaker 6: it sounds like I'm setting up for a bit, but

778
00:50:27,080 --> 00:50:29,000
Speaker 6: I promise you I'm not like do it.

779
00:50:29,080 --> 00:50:31,319
Speaker 1: I don't even wonder, No, I.

780
00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:33,000
Speaker 6: Re seriously would have a bit. I was just curious

781
00:50:33,040 --> 00:50:36,680
Speaker 6: because like I primarily listen to the podcast, and then

782
00:50:36,680 --> 00:50:39,040
Speaker 6: I had that thought. So then I start watching more

783
00:50:39,080 --> 00:50:42,560
Speaker 6: streams and I'm still like, the ratio here is insane

784
00:50:42,800 --> 00:50:44,799
Speaker 6: because I haven't ever seen anyone call in and do

785
00:50:44,800 --> 00:50:47,880
Speaker 6: anything stupid, Like I think most shows that are calling

786
00:50:48,600 --> 00:50:51,000
Speaker 6: have those kinds of people, and it just seems like

787
00:50:51,080 --> 00:50:53,040
Speaker 6: yours doesn't just nuts.

788
00:50:54,719 --> 00:50:57,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I you know, I'm very also, I'm also

789
00:50:57,400 --> 00:51:00,359
Speaker 1: very happy with like the size of my show. I'm

790
00:51:00,360 --> 00:51:03,560
Speaker 1: not like, like if whatever ex QC or someone like

791
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:05,960
Speaker 1: that open to their line to phone calls, I'm sure

792
00:51:05,960 --> 00:51:09,919
Speaker 1: that would happen a lot, but uh, I really I'm

793
00:51:09,920 --> 00:51:15,120
Speaker 1: at a fantastic perfect size of audience where the people

794
00:51:15,120 --> 00:51:17,640
Speaker 1: who listen are just like I mean, that's the dream,

795
00:51:17,719 --> 00:51:20,520
Speaker 1: right is You're you're popular enough that the only people

796
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:23,160
Speaker 1: who like know about you are people who are like,

797
00:51:23,520 --> 00:51:27,640
Speaker 1: you know, actually like give a fuck about what you're doing,

798
00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:30,279
Speaker 1: and not like, you know, people who not not not

799
00:51:30,320 --> 00:51:33,920
Speaker 1: being like someone someone crazy internet famous who people just

800
00:51:34,000 --> 00:51:37,920
Speaker 1: kind of will well we'll want to fuck with just

801
00:51:37,960 --> 00:51:43,120
Speaker 1: because it's funny. Yeah, Like I'm surprised. I'm I'm really

802
00:51:43,160 --> 00:51:45,399
Speaker 1: surprised that a bunch of like fourteen year olds into

803
00:51:45,440 --> 00:51:48,520
Speaker 1: discord chat have not been like, hey, let's go say

804
00:51:48,560 --> 00:51:53,960
Speaker 1: a bunch of horrible racist things on the Therapy Geckos stream.

805
00:51:54,080 --> 00:51:57,600
Speaker 1: You know, like that's that's happened. That's happened way way

806
00:51:57,760 --> 00:52:02,759
Speaker 1: way less than I thought it would. Sorry, what did

807
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:03,560
Speaker 1: you say?

808
00:52:03,000 --> 00:52:06,120
Speaker 6: That's why I'm like, I wonder if maybe I've just

809
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:09,920
Speaker 6: like missed it or because for whatever reason, like maybe

810
00:52:09,960 --> 00:52:11,960
Speaker 6: it's that it is happening on the show and it's

811
00:52:11,960 --> 00:52:14,880
Speaker 6: just cut out of the cast. But no, I guess not.

812
00:52:16,280 --> 00:52:16,320
Speaker 4: No.

813
00:52:16,440 --> 00:52:18,600
Speaker 1: I mean I cut a lot of phone calls off

814
00:52:18,640 --> 00:52:22,120
Speaker 1: of the Twitch stream before I put it into the podcast,

815
00:52:22,239 --> 00:52:27,880
Speaker 1: but nothing like with malicious intent. Part of me wonders

816
00:52:27,880 --> 00:52:30,320
Speaker 1: if because I'm probably gonna put this conversation on the podcast,

817
00:52:30,360 --> 00:52:33,040
Speaker 1: and part of me wonders if we're jinxing it a

818
00:52:33,040 --> 00:52:35,200
Speaker 1: little bit, But I don't think so. I don't even think.

819
00:52:35,280 --> 00:52:36,719
Speaker 1: I don't think that this is going to jinx it.

820
00:52:36,760 --> 00:52:37,120
Speaker 1: I don't.

821
00:52:38,480 --> 00:52:40,880
Speaker 6: I was hoping that like by calling it and asking

822
00:52:40,920 --> 00:52:45,000
Speaker 6: I wouldn't make it worse, because I'm sure that people

823
00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:45,799
Speaker 6: have had the same thought.

824
00:52:50,680 --> 00:52:53,080
Speaker 1: Well, I mean, that's the thing is that the people

825
00:52:53,280 --> 00:52:56,920
Speaker 1: like I think that the people who would want to

826
00:52:57,360 --> 00:53:00,120
Speaker 1: just like call in and vandalize the stream are the

827
00:53:00,120 --> 00:53:03,880
Speaker 1: people who they're not. They left, They left a long

828
00:53:04,040 --> 00:53:06,080
Speaker 1: time ago because they didn't actually give a fuck about

829
00:53:06,520 --> 00:53:08,440
Speaker 1: like being here and listening to any of this. So

830
00:53:09,280 --> 00:53:10,719
Speaker 1: it kind of makes sense when you think about it

831
00:53:10,760 --> 00:53:12,799
Speaker 1: like that, have.

832
00:53:12,880 --> 00:53:15,680
Speaker 6: There been any calls that you have that have been

833
00:53:15,719 --> 00:53:18,960
Speaker 6: super long. When did maybe you thought were with somebody

834
00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:21,279
Speaker 6: pulling your leg, because there's been a couple where I've

835
00:53:21,280 --> 00:53:23,560
Speaker 6: been like I feel like that was an act.

836
00:53:24,360 --> 00:53:27,280
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, sure, yeah, definitely hundred percent, one hundred percent.

837
00:53:29,360 --> 00:53:31,440
Speaker 1: You know, you know what I'm gonna say this, and

838
00:53:31,480 --> 00:53:33,360
Speaker 1: this is uh uh do you?

839
00:53:33,640 --> 00:53:33,799
Speaker 6: Yeah?

840
00:53:33,880 --> 00:53:39,000
Speaker 1: Fuck it? So the you remember a caller who talked

841
00:53:39,040 --> 00:53:42,200
Speaker 1: about jizzing on pizzas.

842
00:53:41,880 --> 00:53:43,480
Speaker 6: Yes, that was the one I thought of, Like that

843
00:53:43,600 --> 00:53:44,040
Speaker 6: was okay.

844
00:53:44,360 --> 00:53:48,839
Speaker 1: So like like a few days after I put that

845
00:53:49,320 --> 00:53:53,399
Speaker 1: out or whatever or had the call, and I went

846
00:53:53,480 --> 00:53:57,680
Speaker 1: on discord and I was just like browsing my discord

847
00:53:58,040 --> 00:54:02,200
Speaker 1: and I saw a guy in the cord. It'd be like, hey,

848
00:54:02,280 --> 00:54:04,799
Speaker 1: that was I was just that was me who was

849
00:54:04,800 --> 00:54:07,040
Speaker 1: talking about that. I was just pulling the prank. And

850
00:54:07,080 --> 00:54:09,960
Speaker 1: I was like and no, I didn't know. It wasn't

851
00:54:09,960 --> 00:54:11,680
Speaker 1: even funny. I was like, don't do that, man, I

852
00:54:11,719 --> 00:54:13,920
Speaker 1: hate that.

853
00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:14,640
Speaker 6: That's crazy.

854
00:54:14,840 --> 00:54:14,880
Speaker 1: No.

855
00:54:15,000 --> 00:54:18,680
Speaker 6: The one is the I think there was this lady

856
00:54:18,680 --> 00:54:22,640
Speaker 6: who like thought she was like fucking of aliens or something.

857
00:54:22,719 --> 00:54:25,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, sure, the lady who I remember you're talking

858
00:54:25,760 --> 00:54:29,839
Speaker 1: about the lady who thought that she who she was,

859
00:54:30,000 --> 00:54:31,800
Speaker 1: she was like a high she claims to be a

860
00:54:31,880 --> 00:54:35,840
Speaker 1: high ranking government official who gets abducted by aliens regularly.

861
00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:38,480
Speaker 1: I okay that I know exactly what you're talking about.

862
00:54:38,560 --> 00:54:43,719
Speaker 1: I think, okay. The question of okay that one I

863
00:54:43,760 --> 00:54:48,400
Speaker 1: think I would say confidently whoever I was speaking with

864
00:54:48,600 --> 00:54:54,120
Speaker 1: on the phone believed what they were saying to be true.

865
00:54:54,760 --> 00:54:57,040
Speaker 6: Yeah, it was hard. It was a toss up for me.

866
00:54:57,120 --> 00:54:59,840
Speaker 6: Like part of me was like, this person is either

867
00:55:00,680 --> 00:55:04,239
Speaker 6: it's possibly mentally ill, foot pulling a break, but either way, like,

868
00:55:04,600 --> 00:55:07,080
Speaker 6: I think you handled it really well well.

869
00:55:07,160 --> 00:55:11,359
Speaker 1: Thanks. Also because I don't I think it's not fun

870
00:55:11,440 --> 00:55:14,719
Speaker 1: to constantly be like this is fake and stupid. I

871
00:55:14,960 --> 00:55:18,640
Speaker 1: I really someone was asking about this thing. I really believe,

872
00:55:20,400 --> 00:55:23,120
Speaker 1: like from sitting in the driver's seat of this thing.

873
00:55:23,680 --> 00:55:29,400
Speaker 1: My perspective is that the majority, you know, most people

874
00:55:29,480 --> 00:55:34,120
Speaker 1: are telling the truth and coming on here to be sincere.

875
00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:37,920
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, I think. I sure there's like a handful

876
00:55:38,000 --> 00:55:40,520
Speaker 1: that aren't. But like you look at the like I said,

877
00:55:40,640 --> 00:55:43,200
Speaker 1: you look at the YouTube comments and every there's every

878
00:55:43,239 --> 00:55:46,040
Speaker 1: fucking video. Someone's like, you know what, I'm actually really

879
00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:50,560
Speaker 1: smart and know everything and this is a fake And

880
00:55:50,600 --> 00:55:53,040
Speaker 1: it's like, dude, you don't like you don't. It's so

881
00:55:53,200 --> 00:55:55,480
Speaker 1: it feels like ignorant to me to like say that

882
00:55:55,520 --> 00:55:59,279
Speaker 1: everything is fucking fake and like that you know that

883
00:55:59,360 --> 00:56:01,960
Speaker 1: it's fake. It's I feel as I don't like it.

884
00:56:01,960 --> 00:56:02,960
Speaker 1: It feels ignorant.

885
00:56:03,080 --> 00:56:04,160
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's a weird flex.

886
00:56:04,680 --> 00:56:06,200
Speaker 1: It's a weird flex. It's a weird flex.

887
00:56:07,680 --> 00:56:10,600
Speaker 6: No. I think most comment sections that kind of have

888
00:56:10,680 --> 00:56:14,280
Speaker 6: their own vibe terrible. Like you look at the YouTube

889
00:56:14,280 --> 00:56:16,640
Speaker 6: comment section and this is completely stupid, but like in

890
00:56:16,680 --> 00:56:19,840
Speaker 6: the Reddit comment section, it's like people fighting over the

891
00:56:19,920 --> 00:56:22,000
Speaker 6: dumbest shit you've ever heard of in your life.

892
00:56:22,239 --> 00:56:23,960
Speaker 1: Actually, okay, I want to you know what, I want

893
00:56:23,960 --> 00:56:27,239
Speaker 1: to say this real quick. Thank you for giving me

894
00:56:27,320 --> 00:56:29,960
Speaker 1: the uh the opportunity to say this. I know I

895
00:56:30,040 --> 00:56:32,719
Speaker 1: said just like two seconds ago that everyone in the

896
00:56:32,760 --> 00:56:35,040
Speaker 1: YouTube comment section is crazy. I take that back. I

897
00:56:35,080 --> 00:56:39,800
Speaker 1: take that back. A lot of people in the Actually

898
00:56:39,800 --> 00:56:42,040
Speaker 1: in the YouTube comment section, I let people are pretty cool.

899
00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:43,480
Speaker 1: It's in the it's in like the short form, like

900
00:56:43,520 --> 00:56:45,680
Speaker 1: the TikTok the TikTok comments section is filled with the

901
00:56:46,040 --> 00:56:49,920
Speaker 1: same people. I will never take that back. But actually,

902
00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:54,279
Speaker 1: I've I've been reading all the YouTube comments, like on

903
00:56:54,400 --> 00:56:58,640
Speaker 1: the recent podcast because I'm curious because these conversations feel

904
00:56:58,680 --> 00:57:04,600
Speaker 1: like conversations that I'm having alone, and so after I

905
00:57:04,640 --> 00:57:06,440
Speaker 1: have them, I'm a little part of my brain is like,

906
00:57:06,440 --> 00:57:08,239
Speaker 1: did anyone else hear that at all?

907
00:57:08,320 --> 00:57:08,400
Speaker 6: Like?

908
00:57:08,520 --> 00:57:10,640
Speaker 1: Was that just a conversation? I know that they are

909
00:57:10,680 --> 00:57:12,759
Speaker 1: because I'm doing it as a fucking podcast, but I

910
00:57:12,880 --> 00:57:16,800
Speaker 1: still does it doesn't feel like. I mean, I'm the

911
00:57:16,800 --> 00:57:18,439
Speaker 1: only person in this room right now as I'm talking

912
00:57:18,440 --> 00:57:20,280
Speaker 1: to you. It feels like I'm just talking to you.

913
00:57:20,680 --> 00:57:23,320
Speaker 1: So I like going on YouTube and being like, what

914
00:57:23,360 --> 00:57:26,600
Speaker 1: do other people think about this guy? Like we had

915
00:57:26,600 --> 00:57:32,720
Speaker 1: that guy rowdy, that a kid who is obsessed with

916
00:57:32,800 --> 00:57:36,160
Speaker 1: his teacher, and I read I read every single comment

917
00:57:36,200 --> 00:57:38,440
Speaker 1: that people had to say about him and his situation,

918
00:57:39,000 --> 00:57:40,840
Speaker 1: and I want, I actually really want to say this.

919
00:57:41,240 --> 00:57:43,760
Speaker 1: I felt as though a lot of the people in

920
00:57:43,800 --> 00:57:47,120
Speaker 1: the YouTube comments section, if not again, if not the majority,

921
00:57:47,720 --> 00:57:54,520
Speaker 1: like a ninety nine percent, were very thoughtful, in very kind,

922
00:57:55,800 --> 00:57:59,480
Speaker 1: and very well intentioned in their responses. And that made

923
00:57:59,520 --> 00:58:02,440
Speaker 1: me very you know, because I think a lot of people,

924
00:58:02,520 --> 00:58:05,040
Speaker 1: especially for that call, I think a lot of people

925
00:58:05,080 --> 00:58:14,040
Speaker 1: maybe had a reflex to criticize and focus on the

926
00:58:14,400 --> 00:58:20,120
Speaker 1: things that were negative, And I was a little worried

927
00:58:20,120 --> 00:58:21,600
Speaker 1: that would have I'm bean worried. What I you know,

928
00:58:21,600 --> 00:58:25,160
Speaker 1: I can't control what other people think and say, but uh,

929
00:58:25,360 --> 00:58:27,400
Speaker 1: I was. I was pleasantly surprised that that was not

930
00:58:27,480 --> 00:58:30,520
Speaker 1: the case and that people were being thoughtful and helpful

931
00:58:30,520 --> 00:58:33,640
Speaker 1: because I was actually I was reading because in the podcast,

932
00:58:34,040 --> 00:58:39,320
Speaker 1: the kid talked about how he's gonna read he wants

933
00:58:39,400 --> 00:58:43,680
Speaker 1: to read the YouTube comments, and he was like, are

934
00:58:43,720 --> 00:58:45,200
Speaker 1: you gonna post us on YouTube? Because I want to

935
00:58:45,240 --> 00:58:46,720
Speaker 1: read the comments and I want to hear what other

936
00:58:46,760 --> 00:58:49,240
Speaker 1: people are saying about it. And so I was reading

937
00:58:49,280 --> 00:58:55,360
Speaker 1: the YouTube comments, imagining myself as that caller reading them,

938
00:58:55,880 --> 00:58:59,680
Speaker 1: and I was like, okay, I think nobody. I didn't

939
00:58:59,720 --> 00:59:01,560
Speaker 1: see any comments that I was like, that would be

940
00:59:01,640 --> 00:59:04,160
Speaker 1: a concerning idea to put in this dude's head, you

941
00:59:04,200 --> 00:59:05,560
Speaker 1: know what I mean. Like everything I read, I was

942
00:59:05,560 --> 00:59:07,840
Speaker 1: imagining him reading it, and I was like, Okay, this

943
00:59:07,920 --> 00:59:10,600
Speaker 1: is actually like seems as though it will be helpful

944
00:59:10,640 --> 00:59:14,920
Speaker 1: to this person to get these people's uh perspectives that

945
00:59:14,960 --> 00:59:19,120
Speaker 1: people came in with with good and positive perspectives. I

946
00:59:19,160 --> 00:59:20,680
Speaker 1: actually part of me was I was reading it. I

947
00:59:20,680 --> 00:59:24,680
Speaker 1: was considering making it like a segment of the podcast

948
00:59:24,720 --> 00:59:29,480
Speaker 1: where I would like read comments, Yeah, but I don't don't.

949
00:59:29,480 --> 00:59:31,200
Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm gonna do that. It's the

950
00:59:31,240 --> 00:59:32,720
Speaker 1: real reason I don't know if I'm gonna do that

951
00:59:32,760 --> 00:59:36,200
Speaker 1: is because it's a bunch of fucking work. And I

952
00:59:36,240 --> 00:59:40,400
Speaker 1: also I also really like I want the podcast to

953
00:59:40,400 --> 00:59:42,880
Speaker 1: be like insular, Like I want it so that you

954
00:59:42,920 --> 00:59:46,280
Speaker 1: can click on any episode and there's no like like

955
00:59:46,360 --> 00:59:49,200
Speaker 1: some fucking podcasts are there about like their little in there,

956
00:59:49,280 --> 00:59:52,160
Speaker 1: like they're about like their inside jokes and their community

957
00:59:52,160 --> 00:59:54,080
Speaker 1: and stuff. And I don't like that. I like the

958
00:59:54,080 --> 00:59:56,200
Speaker 1: idea that you can you can click on any episode

959
00:59:56,400 --> 00:59:59,480
Speaker 1: and you don't need any backstory or context to know

960
00:59:59,480 --> 01:00:01,760
Speaker 1: what we're talking. But I guess I don't know. Maybe

961
01:00:01,800 --> 01:00:03,840
Speaker 1: I'm I don't know who cares, who cares about anything?

962
01:00:05,680 --> 01:00:07,640
Speaker 6: Yeah, I like that. Other I like the guy a lot. Yeah, ready,

963
01:00:07,640 --> 01:00:11,840
Speaker 6: scenes like like cool, but no, that's awesome. I guess

964
01:00:11,840 --> 01:00:14,040
Speaker 6: a lot of that has to do with this community,

965
01:00:14,080 --> 01:00:16,200
Speaker 6: because it's neat that a lot of people were on

966
01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:18,680
Speaker 6: their offering him some decent advice. I feel like a

967
01:00:18,680 --> 01:00:20,800
Speaker 6: lot of the times with like negative comments, it's more

968
01:00:20,840 --> 01:00:24,000
Speaker 6: on like the short form stuff. I don't really poke

969
01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:27,880
Speaker 6: around on like YouTube video comments, it's mostly like short.

970
01:00:28,880 --> 01:00:31,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, no, I agree. Yeah, that's why I was

971
01:00:31,760 --> 01:00:33,920
Speaker 1: saying that the TikTok comments are kind of insane because

972
01:00:34,280 --> 01:00:40,760
Speaker 1: it is mainly like short form, because because you don't

973
01:00:41,680 --> 01:00:44,440
Speaker 1: you really can't get a good perspective on on something

974
01:00:44,480 --> 01:00:48,240
Speaker 1: in you know, a minute, whereas these people are are

975
01:00:48,720 --> 01:00:51,240
Speaker 1: presumably you know, I mean, they could have just been

976
01:00:51,240 --> 01:00:53,880
Speaker 1: listening for one minute and gotten gone right to the

977
01:00:53,880 --> 01:01:01,200
Speaker 1: comments section. But these people are presumably listening for a

978
01:01:01,240 --> 01:01:04,800
Speaker 1: full fucking forty minutes to this guy talk about his life,

979
01:01:04,840 --> 01:01:07,800
Speaker 1: and they're getting invested and they come to know, they

980
01:01:07,840 --> 01:01:10,959
Speaker 1: come to you know, know him as a full human

981
01:01:11,000 --> 01:01:13,480
Speaker 1: being instead of well, as as much as you can

982
01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:14,920
Speaker 1: come to know somebody as a full human being in

983
01:01:14,960 --> 01:01:17,640
Speaker 1: forty minutes. But yeah, you can do that more than

984
01:01:17,640 --> 01:01:18,880
Speaker 1: forty minutes than you can in one.

985
01:01:19,200 --> 01:01:21,800
Speaker 6: So for sure there's still stuff you can relate to.

986
01:01:22,240 --> 01:01:24,560
Speaker 1: Do you not go on the internet?

987
01:01:24,880 --> 01:01:26,720
Speaker 6: Oh no, I do. It's not as much anymore.

988
01:01:28,200 --> 01:01:31,000
Speaker 1: You see, you sound like a healthy individual.

989
01:01:32,600 --> 01:01:35,840
Speaker 6: And yeah, I mean maybe I just I got off

990
01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:40,240
Speaker 6: of Reddit and I stopped caring about Reddit. I mean,

991
01:01:40,400 --> 01:01:44,280
Speaker 6: I watched YouTube during like lunches and stuff. I keep

992
01:01:44,360 --> 01:01:46,520
Speaker 6: up with news. I'm not like entirely disconnected. I'm just

993
01:01:46,560 --> 01:01:50,880
Speaker 6: not super like socially linked in you know. Yeah, I'm

994
01:01:50,880 --> 01:01:53,160
Speaker 6: on Instagram, Twitter, yeah all that.

995
01:01:53,320 --> 01:01:55,960
Speaker 1: Yeah. Twitter is horrible. I hate Twitter. I hate it

996
01:01:56,000 --> 01:02:00,640
Speaker 1: so much. It's horrible. I don't post on twit Twitter anymore.

997
01:02:00,640 --> 01:02:03,360
Speaker 1: I deleted my Twitter back and you know, years ago.

998
01:02:03,400 --> 01:02:05,880
Speaker 1: But I have, like I have like lurker accounts just

999
01:02:05,920 --> 01:02:09,280
Speaker 1: so I can like scroll and it's it's awful. I

1000
01:02:09,720 --> 01:02:12,200
Speaker 1: I was scrolling Twitter the other day on my little

1001
01:02:12,240 --> 01:02:14,120
Speaker 1: like burner account that I have just to read it,

1002
01:02:14,640 --> 01:02:19,479
Speaker 1: and I was like, why the fuck am I doing

1003
01:02:19,520 --> 01:02:21,600
Speaker 1: this every single time I come on here.

1004
01:02:21,680 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 6: It's just.

1005
01:02:23,960 --> 01:02:27,320
Speaker 1: Like it just makes me upset, you know, like there's

1006
01:02:27,360 --> 01:02:32,760
Speaker 1: no there's a reason for me to do this. And

1007
01:02:32,840 --> 01:02:35,400
Speaker 1: I was like, I was like, like I would type

1008
01:02:35,480 --> 01:02:40,280
Speaker 1: therapy Gecko into the search bar like a fucking crazy

1009
01:02:40,320 --> 01:02:43,360
Speaker 1: person to see if like anyone on Twitter was like

1010
01:02:43,560 --> 01:02:47,200
Speaker 1: talking about me or talking about the podcast. And it

1011
01:02:47,280 --> 01:02:48,480
Speaker 1: was like, what am I? This is just like a

1012
01:02:48,560 --> 01:02:50,760
Speaker 1: horrible and then I and then it's like, you know,

1013
01:02:50,920 --> 01:02:54,320
Speaker 1: you're like your social media programming or like your brain

1014
01:02:54,480 --> 01:02:57,960
Speaker 1: just like does things fucking automatically, Like I trained my

1015
01:02:58,000 --> 01:03:01,200
Speaker 1: brain to automatically do this and automatic actually scroll on Twitter,

1016
01:03:01,720 --> 01:03:03,640
Speaker 1: and I was and at a certain point was it

1017
01:03:03,680 --> 01:03:06,200
Speaker 1: was like snapping out of fucking brainwashing. I was like,

1018
01:03:06,240 --> 01:03:09,280
Speaker 1: what the fuck am I doing? This is insane, this

1019
01:03:09,320 --> 01:03:13,880
Speaker 1: is insanity. I'm dying. I'm slowly fucking dying, and I'm

1020
01:03:13,880 --> 01:03:19,160
Speaker 1: sitting on here like getting mad, like getting mad on Twitter,

1021
01:03:19,240 --> 01:03:21,320
Speaker 1: like what am I doing? Dude?

1022
01:03:21,640 --> 01:03:23,920
Speaker 6: I did this. I remember being on the toilet and

1023
01:03:23,960 --> 01:03:26,600
Speaker 6: being like I can't do this anymore. I'm too angry.

1024
01:03:27,200 --> 01:03:29,720
Speaker 6: The algorithms work way too well. Like I think that

1025
01:03:30,720 --> 01:03:32,120
Speaker 6: everyone has at the moment where they come out of

1026
01:03:32,160 --> 01:03:34,240
Speaker 6: it a little bit and they're like, I, this is

1027
01:03:34,360 --> 01:03:35,840
Speaker 6: this isn't working for me. This isn't healthy.

1028
01:03:36,560 --> 01:03:42,160
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. I mean even like I don't feel I

1029
01:03:42,200 --> 01:03:44,520
Speaker 1: don't feel bad playing video games anymore. I used to

1030
01:03:44,600 --> 01:03:46,560
Speaker 1: think maybe video games was a waste of time. But

1031
01:03:46,720 --> 01:03:53,880
Speaker 1: in this car, like in this uh timeline in twenty

1032
01:03:53,960 --> 01:03:58,520
Speaker 1: twenty four, if you in this world where like your

1033
01:03:58,560 --> 01:04:02,440
Speaker 1: attention is kind of being like taken away from you

1034
01:04:02,680 --> 01:04:07,240
Speaker 1: through like just the brainwashing of like I'm programmed to

1035
01:04:07,280 --> 01:04:11,840
Speaker 1: go on Twitter and scroll mindlessly if you can resist

1036
01:04:11,880 --> 01:04:15,400
Speaker 1: that and be like intentional with how you want to

1037
01:04:15,400 --> 01:04:20,320
Speaker 1: waste your time, Like there's almost something weirdly productive about that,

1038
01:04:20,760 --> 01:04:24,560
Speaker 1: Like I would like spending three hours mindlessly scrolling TikTok

1039
01:04:24,680 --> 01:04:29,600
Speaker 1: is way worse than spending three hours like playing a

1040
01:04:29,720 --> 01:04:32,600
Speaker 1: video game or watching a movie that you're reading a

1041
01:04:32,680 --> 01:04:37,600
Speaker 1: book that you intentionally chose to, you know, consume that

1042
01:04:37,720 --> 01:04:42,440
Speaker 1: was designed as like art. That's not just like weird

1043
01:04:42,760 --> 01:04:46,560
Speaker 1: brain even like a nice YouTube video essay or something

1044
01:04:46,680 --> 01:04:50,000
Speaker 1: like that. It's not just like a weird brain rotty

1045
01:04:50,160 --> 01:04:51,040
Speaker 1: fucking thing.

1046
01:04:52,400 --> 01:04:54,880
Speaker 6: Because then you're at least being like intentionally lazy, Like

1047
01:04:55,160 --> 01:04:57,280
Speaker 6: there's still soft skills you can get from like playing

1048
01:04:57,320 --> 01:05:00,280
Speaker 6: video games or reading or doing something else like the

1049
01:05:00,400 --> 01:05:03,120
Speaker 6: doom scrolling. It's you don't never get anything out of it,

1050
01:05:03,520 --> 01:05:07,000
Speaker 6: Like I I cannot remember what I looked at as

1051
01:05:07,000 --> 01:05:08,800
Speaker 6: soon as I put my phone down from like exactly

1052
01:05:08,920 --> 01:05:10,920
Speaker 6: like on TikTok or YouTube or whatever, like it just

1053
01:05:11,160 --> 01:05:13,080
Speaker 6: vacates my brain immediately, it's gone.

1054
01:05:13,440 --> 01:05:17,280
Speaker 1: Exactly. I watched The Whale five days ago, thought about

1055
01:05:17,320 --> 01:05:18,080
Speaker 1: it every day since.

1056
01:05:19,880 --> 01:05:20,440
Speaker 6: The whale.

1057
01:05:20,720 --> 01:05:24,080
Speaker 1: The whale, you know, the whale, Brandon Frasier. Yeah, the

1058
01:05:24,120 --> 01:05:29,520
Speaker 1: guy's got a daughter and he's he's obese. Are you

1059
01:05:29,560 --> 01:05:30,040
Speaker 1: still there?

1060
01:05:30,880 --> 01:05:31,600
Speaker 6: Yeah? It was good.

1061
01:05:32,440 --> 01:05:34,520
Speaker 1: It's crazy. It's an I saw really un It's a

1062
01:05:34,560 --> 01:05:41,040
Speaker 1: really uncomfortable movie to watch, like uncomfortable. How like well,

1063
01:05:41,120 --> 01:05:44,160
Speaker 1: also here's also here's an I think I'm like, like,

1064
01:05:44,280 --> 01:05:45,920
Speaker 1: I don't look like the whale, but like I'm a

1065
01:05:45,960 --> 01:05:48,400
Speaker 1: little overweight, and I think if you're like a little overweight,

1066
01:05:48,480 --> 01:05:51,240
Speaker 1: it's more uncomfortable to watch because the guy is kind

1067
01:05:51,240 --> 01:05:54,920
Speaker 1: of like wheezing and having a heart attack the entire

1068
01:05:55,000 --> 01:05:59,360
Speaker 1: fucking movie, and you're it just it kind of makes

1069
01:05:59,440 --> 01:06:01,760
Speaker 1: your like, like I was watching it, and I felt

1070
01:06:01,800 --> 01:06:04,800
Speaker 1: like I was having a heart attack vicariously through him

1071
01:06:05,360 --> 01:06:09,920
Speaker 1: in the movie. It's terrifl No, it's terrible. It's not

1072
01:06:09,960 --> 01:06:11,320
Speaker 1: a fun movie. It's not a fun movie to watch.

1073
01:06:11,360 --> 01:06:13,600
Speaker 1: But it's it's great. It's a great movie. You should

1074
01:06:13,600 --> 01:06:16,440
Speaker 1: watch it, Okay, but it's gonna be streamingly uncomfortable. I

1075
01:06:16,440 --> 01:06:18,560
Speaker 1: watch that. I watched The inside Out. I thought about

1076
01:06:18,560 --> 01:06:21,960
Speaker 1: that a little bit. There's it's a very it's a

1077
01:06:22,040 --> 01:06:24,920
Speaker 1: really weird movie night inside Out in the Whale, But

1078
01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:27,040
Speaker 1: that's that's that's what it was.

1079
01:06:28,160 --> 01:06:33,840
Speaker 6: Yeah, no, kidding on a side I like super relate

1080
01:06:33,880 --> 01:06:38,160
Speaker 6: to uh problem with like snack food. I went through

1081
01:06:38,160 --> 01:06:40,840
Speaker 6: like an entire box of sentiments, like an hour ago.

1082
01:06:41,080 --> 01:06:43,760
Speaker 1: Oh, sinmons are great, They're great.

1083
01:06:43,880 --> 01:06:46,840
Speaker 6: Someone brought me like an entire box box because they

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Speaker 6: like go to like food pantries. Yeah, and they were like, yeah,

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Speaker 6: well someone has left this year. I got it for

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Speaker 6: free and I'm not going to eat them. So here

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Speaker 6: you I've got seven boxes of Oh.

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Speaker 1: That's not cool man, that's so that's so yeah, that's

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01:06:59,800 --> 01:07:04,200
Speaker 1: not cool man. But I once got uh a fucking

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01:07:06,720 --> 01:07:10,320
Speaker 1: the uh like I got I got Someone sent me

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Speaker 1: a thirty mister Beast bars. They were just sitting around

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Speaker 1: my house and that, and they weren't they weren't sitting

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Speaker 1: around for long. They were like full sized candy bars.

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Speaker 1: It was not It was not cool man. It was

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Speaker 1: not cool man. You know what I love is those

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Speaker 1: uh I go to this bodega every day and and

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Speaker 1: they always have a they have these chewy chips of

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01:07:35,440 --> 01:07:40,120
Speaker 1: hoys with reeses. And every single I go to that

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Speaker 1: badega every day for it to get like a whatever

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01:07:42,520 --> 01:07:47,000
Speaker 1: breakfast and ship and uh, I always look might I

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01:07:47,000 --> 01:07:51,360
Speaker 1: always make eye contact with the chewy chips of hoy races,

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01:07:51,440 --> 01:07:54,600
Speaker 1: and every day I have to answer the question what

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01:07:54,720 --> 01:07:57,360
Speaker 1: kind of day is today going to be? Because if

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Speaker 1: I buy those, I'm not gonna like it's not gonna

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01:08:01,120 --> 01:08:02,920
Speaker 1: be like a grocery. It's not gonna be like I

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01:08:03,080 --> 01:08:05,680
Speaker 1: have a few in there, like in the pantry, you know,

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01:08:05,760 --> 01:08:07,520
Speaker 1: I have them if guests come over whatever, it's like.

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01:08:07,560 --> 01:08:10,720
Speaker 1: If I buy them, I'm standing outside of the bodega

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01:08:10,800 --> 01:08:14,280
Speaker 1: and eating the entire package, and then and then and

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Speaker 1: then after. If that's how your days starts, there's no

1111
01:08:18,280 --> 01:08:21,240
Speaker 1: going back. You have to take Nike will and go

1112
01:08:21,280 --> 01:08:24,799
Speaker 1: to sleep and start over. You there's no returning from

1113
01:08:25,320 --> 01:08:27,160
Speaker 1: doing that with your morning, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, it's too much. It's vero much.

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01:08:30,080 --> 01:08:33,479
Speaker 1: It's too much. But again, you seem like a normal person.

1116
01:08:33,479 --> 01:08:35,760
Speaker 1: You seem like a well adjusted man.

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01:08:36,720 --> 01:08:38,240
Speaker 6: Oh, thank you, I hope.

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01:08:38,280 --> 01:08:40,960
Speaker 1: So is there anything wrong with you?

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01:08:42,479 --> 01:08:43,680
Speaker 6: Oh? I'm sure.

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Speaker 1: That that's a really awesome response. I respect that. Well. Well, thanks,

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01:08:51,720 --> 01:08:54,120
Speaker 1: I guess thanks for asking me these questions and letting

1122
01:08:54,200 --> 01:08:57,760
Speaker 1: me talk on this thing. It's fun to talk. I get.

1123
01:08:57,960 --> 01:09:00,320
Speaker 1: I get why people call in to talk on this thing.

1124
01:09:00,360 --> 01:09:01,200
Speaker 1: It's fun to talk.

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01:09:01,240 --> 01:09:05,519
Speaker 6: On it is. I mean, really, you're for answering it

1126
01:09:05,600 --> 01:09:08,200
Speaker 6: because it was mostly just to satisfy my own curiosity.

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01:09:08,479 --> 01:09:09,639
Speaker 1: Sorry, can you say that again?

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01:09:09,400 --> 01:09:12,280
Speaker 6: You got a good community. Oh we thank you for

1129
01:09:13,040 --> 01:09:14,840
Speaker 6: yeah answering my question.

1130
01:09:16,439 --> 01:09:18,639
Speaker 1: Do you have any more questions or comments or thoughts

1131
01:09:18,720 --> 01:09:19,800
Speaker 1: or concerns before we go?

1132
01:09:21,439 --> 01:09:23,960
Speaker 6: Mm hmm I don't think so. Now.

1133
01:09:25,240 --> 01:09:28,479
Speaker 1: Well, Bob, God bless you.

1134
01:09:28,880 --> 01:09:30,360
Speaker 6: And remember my name.

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01:09:31,120 --> 01:09:33,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, you never do your name. I remember your name

1136
01:09:33,840 --> 01:09:37,479
Speaker 1: and I never do that. I feel I feel mentally

1137
01:09:37,520 --> 01:09:41,000
Speaker 1: clear today in a weird way. I feel honored as

1138
01:09:41,040 --> 01:09:42,240
Speaker 1: you should be, as you should be.

1139
01:09:44,479 --> 01:09:48,720
Speaker 6: All right, thank you as the get bye Bob bye. O.

1140
01:09:50,000 --> 01:09:52,760
Speaker 1: That guy's awesome. I love that guy. Hello, folks, it's

1141
01:09:52,840 --> 01:09:56,519
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Speaker 7: And she like turns the phone around so I can

1152
01:10:35,600 --> 01:10:39,519
Speaker 7: see it, and in like the ten seconds that she's

1153
01:10:39,560 --> 01:10:44,160
Speaker 7: showing me her phone, a text drops down. And you know,

1154
01:10:44,200 --> 01:10:47,320
Speaker 7: I'm not like a snoopy person. I don't, but naturally,

1155
01:10:47,360 --> 01:10:50,720
Speaker 7: your eyes just kind of, you know, it kind of

1156
01:10:50,760 --> 01:10:52,840
Speaker 7: catches your eye. And the only thing I saw it

1157
01:10:53,160 --> 01:10:54,759
Speaker 7: was that it was a guy's name.

1158
01:10:56,080 --> 01:10:56,360
Speaker 4: Mark.

1159
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Speaker 5: It's spilled M A R C. And that's why I

1160
01:11:00,200 --> 01:11:02,160
Speaker 5: knew that it had to be the same guy, because

1161
01:11:02,160 --> 01:11:04,120
Speaker 5: the spelling was the same. And so now I'm in

1162
01:11:04,160 --> 01:11:07,599
Speaker 5: a situation where I found out just yesterday that I've

1163
01:11:07,640 --> 01:11:11,160
Speaker 5: invited both of these people to my birthday party this weekend,

1164
01:11:11,640 --> 01:11:13,640
Speaker 5: and she's going to show up and he's going to

1165
01:11:13,680 --> 01:11:15,599
Speaker 5: show up unless I do something about it.

1166
01:11:15,680 --> 01:11:19,280
Speaker 1: So it's just like a weird thing where she's seeing

1167
01:11:19,320 --> 01:11:22,280
Speaker 1: you romantically and him romantically at the same time.

1168
01:11:22,160 --> 01:11:26,480
Speaker 5: And we're about to be in the same house, right Okay.

1169
01:11:26,680 --> 01:11:28,760
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Speaker 1: episode description. That's therapy Gecko dot supercast dot com. All right,

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01:11:42,080 --> 01:11:45,960
Speaker 1: I have nothing else to say.

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01:11:44,400 --> 01:11:48,560
Speaker 4: Again, goes on the line making its own every.

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01:11:48,360 --> 01:11:53,000
Speaker 1: Night, goes to exact in the line

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Speaker 6: H