WEBVTT - GECKMAIL: “I TURNED MY FRIEND INTO A FROG” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:04.160 Hello, what's up? How's it going? How is life? Uh? 0:00:04.240 --> 0:00:07.920 This is gek Mail. This is a segment of my 0:00:08.080 --> 0:00:13.440 show that I do where I read viewer mail and 0:00:13.640 --> 0:00:17.520 talk about it. You know, people send me words, they 0:00:17.560 --> 0:00:24.000 send stuff to therapy Gecko mail at gmail dot com, 0:00:24.200 --> 0:00:27.480 and I respond to it. In the last gek Mail, 0:00:28.120 --> 0:00:33.120 I took phone calls while I was doing emails, and 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:36.040 I'm not gonna do that today. And the reason is 0:00:36.080 --> 0:00:39.159 that I don't feel like it. This is I'm this. 0:00:39.400 --> 0:00:44.000 I'm gonna make this podcast in particular, This episode in 0:00:44.040 --> 0:00:48.840 particular is gonna be a selfish endeavor, and I'm going 0:00:48.920 --> 0:00:53.720 to be the only voice that you will hear for 0:00:54.320 --> 0:00:59.040 the duration of the episode. Maybe next episode I'll bring 0:00:59.080 --> 0:01:01.880 calls back. I don't no, it depends on my mood. 0:01:02.600 --> 0:01:06.640 And today I'm actually in a chill mood. Today. I'm 0:01:06.640 --> 0:01:11.640 in Tokyo. Right now, I'm in Tokyo. I'm just hanging 0:01:11.680 --> 0:01:16.400 out here and it's pretty sweet. It's pretty great. I 0:01:16.440 --> 0:01:22.480 am in a hotel room wearing a Gecko costume, speaking 0:01:22.520 --> 0:01:27.800 into a microphone, looking at a bunch of unread emails. 0:01:29.120 --> 0:01:33.280 I was on the phone yesterday with my mom for 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:36.880 like forty five minutes. It is great. You should call 0:01:36.920 --> 0:01:39.800 your mom. If you're lucky enough that your mom is 0:01:39.840 --> 0:01:41.920 around and you guys have a good relationship, you should 0:01:41.920 --> 0:01:45.400 call your mom. I called my mom and I found 0:01:45.440 --> 0:01:50.320 out apparently my grandfather. I was talking to my mom 0:01:50.320 --> 0:01:53.320 about like Japan, and my mom randomly was I didn't 0:01:53.360 --> 0:01:55.760 know this, but my mom was like, apparently my grandfather 0:01:56.000 --> 0:01:59.800 like spent four months out of the year in Japan 0:02:01.720 --> 0:02:06.120 for like twenty years, and like spoke fluent Japanese. And 0:02:06.200 --> 0:02:08.360 my mom was like, Oh, your grandfather would be super 0:02:08.400 --> 0:02:12.520 happy that you're running around in Japan. And I'm like, oh, 0:02:12.520 --> 0:02:14.600 that's pretty cool. That's pretty cool. So I don't know, 0:02:14.639 --> 0:02:21.000 I feel I feel I feel good, and I feel relaxed, 0:02:21.680 --> 0:02:26.519 and I feel happy, and I'm ready to just kind 0:02:26.520 --> 0:02:30.400 of hang out and take some emails. So wherever you 0:02:30.520 --> 0:02:35.320 are in the world listening to this, I hope you're 0:02:35.480 --> 0:02:39.840 feeling chill too, And let's have a chill time reading 0:02:40.240 --> 0:02:45.640 some emails, shall we. Okay? This is from Jamie. Subject line, 0:02:45.800 --> 0:02:48.720 Hey Lyle, what color is your pee? Oh? This is 0:02:48.720 --> 0:02:51.520 a long Okay, this email is too long for me 0:02:51.639 --> 0:02:54.920 to read. You know, I'll read you know, I'm gonna 0:02:55.120 --> 0:02:58.359 I'm gonna just read this until I don't want to anymore. Okay, 0:02:58.520 --> 0:03:02.040 this is from Jamie. Sorry for the intrusive question, but 0:03:02.080 --> 0:03:04.480 I've had the color green on my mind lately, and 0:03:04.520 --> 0:03:07.320 I was wondering why the color of my pea has 0:03:07.360 --> 0:03:11.639 such a significant impact on my mood. All right, I'm intrigued, 0:03:11.720 --> 0:03:14.040 all right. Line by line, I'm gonna decide whether I 0:03:14.040 --> 0:03:16.120 want to keep reading this email, and after that line, 0:03:16.120 --> 0:03:19.440 I'm down to keep reading a bit about me. My 0:03:19.560 --> 0:03:23.800 favorite color is sage. What the fuck is sage? Because 0:03:23.840 --> 0:03:26.720 I like that shade of green and I recently quit 0:03:26.760 --> 0:03:30.480 my job with nothing else lined up. So don't worry, 0:03:30.800 --> 0:03:34.360 except I'm gonna okay. Except I'm in a fortunate position 0:03:34.400 --> 0:03:36.640 as it stands, so don't worry. I'm okay on the 0:03:36.760 --> 0:03:40.240 job front. I have a step mom who works slash 0:03:40.320 --> 0:03:44.880 manages in a company responsible for local recruitment. It's mostly 0:03:45.000 --> 0:03:48.880 factory work, but her clients are always outsourcing. What Okay, 0:03:48.920 --> 0:03:56.160 this has nothing to do with pe Okay, Yeah, I 0:03:56.160 --> 0:03:58.040 don't want to keep reading this email. Let's do another one, 0:03:58.760 --> 0:04:01.960 all right. This is from N eight, subject line I 0:04:02.040 --> 0:04:05.080 jumped off a balcony at a party and broke my ankle. 0:04:06.080 --> 0:04:09.160 Ghek I did a dun Three weeks ago. I was 0:04:09.200 --> 0:04:11.920 at a holiday party and was super drunk. There was 0:04:11.960 --> 0:04:15.320 an indoor balcony overlooking the main level where the majority 0:04:15.320 --> 0:04:19.560 of the people were. Fifty people watched me jump fifteen 0:04:19.680 --> 0:04:22.960 feet off the balcony onto a couch. It was gonna 0:04:23.000 --> 0:04:28.080 be so epic. Unfortunately, my left foot missed the couch 0:04:28.200 --> 0:04:31.000 and took all the impact at a weird angle, which 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:36.400 resulted in my ankle traumatically dislocating. My foot was on 0:04:36.800 --> 0:04:40.359 a fifty My foot was at a forty five degree angle, 0:04:40.440 --> 0:04:45.200 and the whole room freaked out. It was honestly really funny, 0:04:45.440 --> 0:04:48.400 But as the pain set in, I began to realize 0:04:48.440 --> 0:04:51.240 this was going to seriously affect my life for a while. 0:04:53.800 --> 0:04:55.440 Was that really? You know, I have a lot of 0:04:55.560 --> 0:04:57.200 You know, Nate, if you're listening to this, I have 0:04:57.240 --> 0:05:03.360 a lot of respect for you because I like that 0:05:03.520 --> 0:05:08.360 your first thought when your fucking foot turned forty five 0:05:08.400 --> 0:05:13.479 degrees is that it was funny. That's a good way 0:05:13.480 --> 0:05:16.240 to look at life. You know, you get hit by 0:05:16.240 --> 0:05:22.760 a car, that's probably funny to someone watching you. You 0:05:22.839 --> 0:05:27.400 get diagnosed with cancer. That's so, that's a just God's 0:05:27.440 --> 0:05:32.720 sense of humor. You get your arm cut off by 0:05:32.760 --> 0:05:37.400 a machine and a freak accident, it's funny. It is funny. 0:05:37.480 --> 0:05:40.560 It is funny. Okay, anyway, have you ever broken a bone? 0:05:40.839 --> 0:05:42.839 I know you're not into thrills. How do you know 0:05:42.880 --> 0:05:46.240 I'm not into thrills. I like thrills. Actually, that's that's true. 0:05:46.240 --> 0:05:48.039 I'm not into thrills at all. I hate doing stuff 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:50.640 where I could possibly get hurt. Have you ever done 0:05:50.640 --> 0:05:53.560 anything this dumb? Yeah, that's what he said. Have you 0:05:53.560 --> 0:05:55.479 ever done anything this dumb? Uh? Yeah. Yeah. When I 0:05:55.560 --> 0:05:59.680 was younger, I would jump off of stuff and then yeah, 0:05:59.760 --> 0:06:03.599 like at the like on the playgrounds, I would jump 0:06:03.640 --> 0:06:09.279 off of high platforms and I remember I did it 0:06:09.320 --> 0:06:11.400 once and I had a little limp for a while. 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:18.320 But I've never broken a bone because I usually if 0:06:18.360 --> 0:06:27.599 I'm gonna jump off of something, I make mathematical propositions 0:06:27.640 --> 0:06:29.240 in my head to tell me whether or not I 0:06:29.279 --> 0:06:33.960 will get sincerely hurt. But again, I'm glad that you 0:06:34.120 --> 0:06:36.920 had a good sense of humor about this. And yes, 0:06:37.000 --> 0:06:39.000 this probably is going to seriously affect your life for 0:06:39.040 --> 0:06:41.680 a while. But I just want to let me just 0:06:41.720 --> 0:06:44.320 if I could give you this advice, Nate, whatever it 0:06:44.400 --> 0:06:47.720 is that was really funny to you about this when 0:06:47.760 --> 0:06:51.400 it first happened. Don't lose that, Okay. So when you're 0:06:51.440 --> 0:06:54.000 looking at your when you're like in a wheelchair or 0:06:54.000 --> 0:06:56.760 on crutches or whatever, like just every once in a while, 0:06:56.880 --> 0:06:59.599 just look down at your foot and just start laughing. 0:07:00.520 --> 0:07:04.400 Just realize that it's funny that your ankle is fucked up, 0:07:05.440 --> 0:07:08.240 and you'll be good. You'll be good. I think this 0:07:08.240 --> 0:07:17.280 guy's gonna be okay. This is from Michael. Subject line 0:07:18.120 --> 0:07:23.120 terrifying mushroom trips with a talking snake. All right, we 0:07:23.160 --> 0:07:27.160 got Harry Potter calling in. Hey, Lyle, I am Michael. 0:07:27.600 --> 0:07:30.240 I have been a long time listener. About a year ago, 0:07:30.360 --> 0:07:33.960 I took a large dose of penis envy mushrooms and 0:07:34.000 --> 0:07:37.920 had a terrifying trip in my apartment. At first, it 0:07:38.000 --> 0:07:40.320 started like any other trip, but then I started to 0:07:40.320 --> 0:07:42.760 feel nauseous and went to lie down in my bed 0:07:42.880 --> 0:07:46.360 and ended up closing my eyes. At first, the usual 0:07:46.400 --> 0:07:51.080 shapes like flower of life would appear and pulsate bright 0:07:51.200 --> 0:07:55.160 alternating colors. At what is the flower of life? I'm 0:07:55.160 --> 0:08:00.000 googling this. Hold on pausing the email here. Flower of Life. 0:08:01.240 --> 0:08:03.920 Flower of Life is a geometric symbol made of overlapping 0:08:03.920 --> 0:08:08.920 circles that represents life, creation, and unity. Okay, so yeah, 0:08:08.960 --> 0:08:11.320 you close your eyes and you see oh I did. 0:08:11.440 --> 0:08:13.440 Oh okay, yeah, okay, I've seen this before when I've 0:08:13.560 --> 0:08:18.680 closed my eyes and stuff, but I didn't know I 0:08:18.680 --> 0:08:23.680 had a name. I like that. After a while, the 0:08:23.720 --> 0:08:28.040 shapes disappeared, and instead I started seeing myself through a dark, purplish, 0:08:28.640 --> 0:08:33.079 purplish haze. Then I saw myself die in many horrible 0:08:33.120 --> 0:08:41.160 ways suicide, car crash, murder, choking, and a few dozen 0:08:41.200 --> 0:08:45.360 other ways. During this trip, I hallucinated the vivid moments 0:08:45.440 --> 0:08:48.840 and the aftermaths of these deaths. The trip really freaked 0:08:48.840 --> 0:08:51.320 me out, and I ended up throwing my stash of 0:08:51.360 --> 0:08:56.480 shrooms away because of this. Several months went by after 0:08:56.520 --> 0:09:00.800 that trip, and I periodically ruminated about what I had experienced. 0:09:01.320 --> 0:09:03.560 I wasn't sure what to make of it, and decided 0:09:03.600 --> 0:09:06.040 to take another large dose of the same type of 0:09:06.120 --> 0:09:10.400 mushroom with the intention of figuring out what the trip meant, 0:09:10.840 --> 0:09:14.800 if anything. So I took the shrooms, and once again 0:09:15.040 --> 0:09:18.280 I started to feel nauseous. Just like before, I went 0:09:18.320 --> 0:09:20.360 to lie down in my bed and closed my eyes. 0:09:20.840 --> 0:09:24.520 The same shapes appeared, the same colors, but this time, 0:09:25.200 --> 0:09:28.840 instead of the visuals transitioning into a purple haze, I 0:09:28.920 --> 0:09:33.640 saw a massive infinity symbol. This infinity symbol was moving 0:09:33.720 --> 0:09:37.120 and had iridescent scales. I'm so surprised I was able 0:09:37.120 --> 0:09:40.400 to read the word iridescent. But here we go, and 0:09:40.520 --> 0:09:45.480 once I noticed the scales, a serpent's head appeared. I 0:09:45.520 --> 0:09:50.320 wasn't terrified, but intrigued and curious. I spoke aloud to 0:09:50.559 --> 0:09:55.120 the serpent, what was the meaning behind the visions of 0:09:55.160 --> 0:09:59.680 myself that I saw before? The serpent responded it said, 0:10:00.240 --> 0:10:03.480 you have died a million deaths and will die a 0:10:03.520 --> 0:10:07.680 million more. This made me extremely unsettled, and I asked 0:10:07.800 --> 0:10:12.080 the serpent why. It told me that I was a prisoner, 0:10:12.640 --> 0:10:15.800 that every life in this universe is bound to a 0:10:15.920 --> 0:10:19.840 cycle of death for eternity, where we exist and die 0:10:20.280 --> 0:10:24.360 only to experience variations of suffering with each life as 0:10:24.400 --> 0:10:28.520 our punishment. I immediately asked what did we do? What 0:10:28.640 --> 0:10:31.480 did I do? But the vision started fading and the 0:10:31.520 --> 0:10:35.319 trip was winding down. Since then, I haven't touched a 0:10:35.440 --> 0:10:39.280 mushroom since I am still confused about how I should 0:10:39.320 --> 0:10:41.400 interpret the ordeal and was wondering if you could give 0:10:41.440 --> 0:10:45.160 me some perspective to process the entire experience. Also, should 0:10:45.160 --> 0:10:48.000 I try to trip again and discover more. Thanks for 0:10:48.040 --> 0:10:51.360 all you do and providing rational perspectives for our listeners. 0:10:51.480 --> 0:10:55.079 I'm okay, I'm about I'm about to be a bummer. 0:10:55.440 --> 0:10:57.439 Can I be a bummer? Michael, I'm going to be 0:10:57.440 --> 0:11:02.000 a bummer here. I'm gonna be I just by the way, Okay. 0:11:02.000 --> 0:11:03.440 I want everyone to know because I know that I'm 0:11:03.480 --> 0:11:05.240 about to say some stuff that they're gonna piss people 0:11:05.240 --> 0:11:09.880 off in comments sections and whatnot. I'm just letting you know. 0:11:10.000 --> 0:11:13.319 This is what my gut is telling me in response 0:11:13.960 --> 0:11:18.319 to this email, and I am open to being wrong. 0:11:19.360 --> 0:11:26.720 But look, man, here's the thing. I'm not super duper 0:11:27.440 --> 0:11:39.199 sould on like hallucinations really being anything more than just hallucinations. 0:11:39.480 --> 0:11:42.280 I think this right. I think that, like like, I 0:11:42.320 --> 0:11:46.320 believe in the subconscious, and I believe that, like you know, 0:11:47.040 --> 0:11:54.360 traumas and desires and thoughts and feelings exist in our 0:11:54.440 --> 0:12:00.320 subconscious and things like dreams and hallucinations can kind of 0:12:00.360 --> 0:12:06.400 bring those to the surface. And so maybe, you know, 0:12:06.400 --> 0:12:09.080 maybe I'm wrong. Maybe in that case, the hallucinations, uh, 0:12:09.280 --> 0:12:12.520 you know, do mean something. They mean things that you 0:12:12.559 --> 0:12:15.680 were already thinking about. And so I'm curious with this, 0:12:16.160 --> 0:12:20.320 What is it that you were already thinking about by like, 0:12:20.400 --> 0:12:24.080 this serpent is just you. You're not You're not contacting 0:12:24.160 --> 0:12:29.800 anything outside of your own self. Your serpent is you? This? 0:12:29.800 --> 0:12:33.200 This this snake? Okay? And so what did the snake 0:12:33.320 --> 0:12:37.480 say just said that? What is the meaning behind the 0:12:38.040 --> 0:12:40.040 Why why did it hold on? Why did it make 0:12:40.080 --> 0:12:43.600 you unsettled that the snake said, you've died a million 0:12:43.679 --> 0:12:46.920 deaths and will die a million more. It sounds like 0:12:46.920 --> 0:12:55.480 a fairly standard cycle. I don't I don't really know 0:12:55.520 --> 0:12:58.520 what happens after we die, but I it would makes 0:12:58.520 --> 0:13:02.880 sense to me that we die and then whatever the 0:13:02.920 --> 0:13:07.880 fuck it is that you know, propel whatever, our carbon 0:13:08.000 --> 0:13:13.360 or whatever the fuck goes back into the ground, and 0:13:13.440 --> 0:13:19.000 our ego dissolves and all of our memories dissolve. But 0:13:19.120 --> 0:13:23.880 like are the physical energy that we use to power 0:13:23.880 --> 0:13:27.760 our bodies, and shit like goes into the ground and 0:13:28.360 --> 0:13:32.560 you know, becomes like a dog or a lady bug 0:13:32.960 --> 0:13:37.960 or a or a piece of tape or something, and 0:13:38.000 --> 0:13:40.760 then you know, eventually the dog dies and the piece 0:13:40.800 --> 0:13:45.600 of tape gets like stuck to your finger and you 0:13:45.600 --> 0:13:47.240 have to and you kind of have to throw it away, 0:13:48.280 --> 0:13:50.880 and then you know, everything dies, and then I guess 0:13:50.920 --> 0:13:54.880 it's born. So yeah, I mean, yeah, you are in 0:13:54.920 --> 0:13:59.840 a cycle in that sense. Yeah, every Yeah, like you said, 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:02.600 every life in the universe, I guess it is bound 0:14:02.679 --> 0:14:07.120 to a cycle of death. Sure, this is probably everything 0:14:07.120 --> 0:14:10.040 I'm Everything I'm saying is probably just something you were 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:14.240 already thinking about in your just you know, as a 0:14:14.280 --> 0:14:17.120 human being as you try to answer your existential questions. 0:14:17.640 --> 0:14:19.760 Everything I'm saying is something you probably already thought about, 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:23.440 and the serpent is just telling you. The serpent is 0:14:23.480 --> 0:14:26.480 just coming to conclusions for you that you've already been 0:14:26.520 --> 0:14:30.360 kind of inching towards in your head. But remember, there's 0:14:30.360 --> 0:14:33.680 no serpent, it's just you. You're just talking to yourself. So 0:14:34.040 --> 0:14:35.720 I was about I was about to go on a 0:14:35.720 --> 0:14:39.960 whole bummer thing about how, yeah, you took a drug 0:14:40.000 --> 0:14:43.880 and you're hallucinated and that's what drugs do. But I'm 0:14:43.880 --> 0:14:47.040 willing to believe that that not that not I'd like, 0:14:47.080 --> 0:14:50.520 I don't think you contacted a serpent. Like I don't 0:14:50.520 --> 0:14:55.400 think you left your own brain, but you went into 0:14:55.400 --> 0:14:59.440 your subconscious and this is what your subconscious had to say. Uh, 0:14:59.560 --> 0:15:02.600 should you trip again? No, you shouldn't. You should go 0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:08.320 for a walk and drink some water and eat a 0:15:08.320 --> 0:15:11.160 piece of eat a fucking banana and some peanut butter, 0:15:12.760 --> 0:15:17.160 and you should never do mushrooms ever again. Okay, okay, 0:15:17.160 --> 0:15:22.080 this is from Brendan subject line are Dorito's bread? Are 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:27.360 Dorito's bread? Hey? Gek. A few years ago at my 0:15:27.400 --> 0:15:30.040 bachelor party, me and my buddies were drunk and made 0:15:30.080 --> 0:15:34.280 a bunch of little turkey and cheese sandwiches using two 0:15:34.720 --> 0:15:41.840 full sized Doritos as the bread. Does this make Dorito's bread? No, 0:15:41.920 --> 0:15:44.520 that's a stupid question. Also, I like to call jet 0:15:44.520 --> 0:15:48.600 Skis botor cycles because they are the motorcycles of the sea. 0:15:48.800 --> 0:15:51.040 That's a stupid question. The Dorito's bread thing. But I 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:54.040 really I like whoever wrote this email a lot, because 0:15:56.120 --> 0:16:01.880 they they this. Whoever wrote this, This guy Brendan. He 0:16:02.080 --> 0:16:09.000 lives life by his own rules. No any every like 0:16:09.440 --> 0:16:12.840 you know what? Yeah, called jet Ski's motorcycles. That's not wrong. 0:16:13.680 --> 0:16:20.120 All all things are only anything because the collective society, 0:16:20.360 --> 0:16:23.960 the collective everything is only called something because like there's 0:16:24.000 --> 0:16:28.680 some collective consciousness of society said it was that. But 0:16:28.840 --> 0:16:31.320 let me tell you something. You're powerful as a human being. 0:16:31.360 --> 0:16:36.240 I'm going on, I'm going fucking full on motivational speaker today. Okay. 0:16:37.040 --> 0:16:42.560 You're powerful, Brendan because you have the power to break 0:16:42.680 --> 0:16:47.240 away from the collective consciousness and decide in your own 0:16:47.360 --> 0:16:52.200 fucking reality that jet skis are called motorcycles and Dorito's 0:16:52.200 --> 0:16:59.080 are brand and I, in my own reality, also have 0:16:59.200 --> 0:17:03.360 the ability to declare that to be stupid, and we 0:17:03.400 --> 0:17:09.080 can both live together and make out and be harmonious 0:17:09.119 --> 0:17:11.159 with one another. And for that reason, I love you 0:17:11.280 --> 0:17:17.800 very much, Brendan. Okay, let's see here, all right. This 0:17:17.880 --> 0:17:21.320 is from someone who told me not to read their 0:17:21.359 --> 0:17:24.000 name on the stream, all right. This is from the 0:17:26.560 --> 0:17:31.240 whatever Jessica hi Gek in the Fall, I twenty six 0:17:31.640 --> 0:17:35.959 F matched with a girl twenty nine f on the apps. 0:17:36.280 --> 0:17:38.480 We hit it off right away and arranged a date 0:17:38.640 --> 0:17:40.879 for the next night. Hold on, let make sure I'm 0:17:40.880 --> 0:17:44.520 recording this all right? I am. We were supposed to 0:17:44.520 --> 0:17:47.320 meet up at a bar, but that got canceled. Due 0:17:47.320 --> 0:17:50.679 to one of her pets going to the emergency vet. Still, 0:17:50.760 --> 0:17:53.240 she invited me over to her place despite the fact, 0:17:53.520 --> 0:17:55.520 so I headed over with a bottle of wine, not 0:17:55.600 --> 0:17:58.920 knowing what to expect. Drove over and we were hanging out, 0:17:58.960 --> 0:18:01.720 just chit chatting. I learned on the date that she 0:18:01.920 --> 0:18:05.879 cams and does a lot of dom work online. I 0:18:05.920 --> 0:18:08.360 even got a tour of the room where she does 0:18:08.400 --> 0:18:12.160 her streams. She showed me all of the toys she uses, 0:18:12.520 --> 0:18:14.879 and I got to see her sink filled to the 0:18:14.880 --> 0:18:18.600 brim with dildos and butt plugs. We got food ordered 0:18:18.640 --> 0:18:21.960 to the house. She then invited me to jump into 0:18:22.000 --> 0:18:24.800 her hot tub. That's awesome. We made out under the 0:18:24.800 --> 0:18:27.320 full moon in the hot tub while it was raining. 0:18:28.160 --> 0:18:30.960 We moved things inside the house shortly after and had 0:18:30.960 --> 0:18:33.760 a good time. We hung out a little bit. Slash 0:18:33.880 --> 0:18:36.000 was texting a lot, but as of late November, I 0:18:36.040 --> 0:18:39.399 got ghosted. This was probably one of the craziest things 0:18:39.440 --> 0:18:41.600 I have ever done. She was a cool person, but 0:18:41.600 --> 0:18:44.359 I'm disappointed she didn't give me any proper closure to 0:18:44.440 --> 0:18:51.359 our weird situationship thing from k uh Yet. You know 0:18:52.000 --> 0:18:54.080 it's a bummer. It's a bummer when like if you 0:18:54.119 --> 0:18:57.160 go on a date with someone and you have an 0:18:57.280 --> 0:19:01.800 awesome time and then you get ghosted and you get 0:19:01.840 --> 0:19:04.240 you'll feel you get a little butt hurt. You're like, 0:19:04.320 --> 0:19:09.320 why didn't I get proper closure? And I think I 0:19:09.320 --> 0:19:12.959 I one of the greatest superpowers I think you can 0:19:13.000 --> 0:19:17.879 develop is uh And it's hard. It's hard, But like, 0:19:18.480 --> 0:19:23.760 if you can give yourself closure and kinda take this 0:19:25.240 --> 0:19:28.640 evening and go to you, if you can just get 0:19:28.720 --> 0:19:31.000 give yourself closure and just take this evening for what 0:19:31.119 --> 0:19:34.480 it is, right, I mean, that's like a microcosm for 0:19:34.560 --> 0:19:37.919 all of life. All of life is just fucking you know, 0:19:38.080 --> 0:19:41.560 anytime you get a anytime anything good happens to you, 0:19:41.560 --> 0:19:44.240 you have a good day, you have a good fucking minute, 0:19:44.240 --> 0:19:48.199 you have a sip of water. Yeez. Every life is 0:19:48.280 --> 0:19:51.760 really about taking whatever you can get. And so if 0:19:51.760 --> 0:19:53.480 you got to have a fun now, if you got 0:19:53.520 --> 0:19:56.040 to make out with a hot lady in a hot 0:19:56.080 --> 0:20:02.280 tub while she shows you her fucking a stream den 0:20:03.080 --> 0:20:06.440 under the full moon, like you got to have that night. 0:20:06.720 --> 0:20:08.480 You know, a lot many people don't even get to 0:20:08.520 --> 0:20:11.600 have the one good night. Most people have not had 0:20:11.640 --> 0:20:13.800 a good night in their lives. Their lives have just 0:20:13.840 --> 0:20:20.240 been toiling in dirt for forever. That's most of all 0:20:20.280 --> 0:20:24.119 of life for most people has been rolling around in 0:20:24.280 --> 0:20:29.040 dirt and starving to death. So you're either fact that 0:20:29.080 --> 0:20:31.199 you got even one night or you made out with 0:20:31.280 --> 0:20:34.080 a hot lady in a hot tub. I mean, pretty good, 0:20:34.800 --> 0:20:38.040 pretty good. Is it a bummer that it didn't work 0:20:38.040 --> 0:20:40.720 out into anything else? For Yeah, for sure, it's a bummer. 0:20:40.760 --> 0:20:45.160 And you know, I like, take a second to grieve it, 0:20:45.240 --> 0:20:47.399 be like, take a second, take a second to be 0:20:47.480 --> 0:20:50.919 pissed off and upset, and then yeah, move on and 0:20:50.960 --> 0:20:53.080 go all right, Well, I got to do one of 0:20:53.119 --> 0:20:57.960 the craziest things I've ever done, and I'm just gonna 0:20:57.960 --> 0:21:00.439 take that for what it is, and I'm gonna be 0:21:00.520 --> 0:21:08.520 confident optimistic that, you know, my life will continue to 0:21:08.560 --> 0:21:13.280 have interesting and cool things happen in it, even if 0:21:13.280 --> 0:21:17.760 it is not as a result of a continuation of this. 0:21:18.960 --> 0:21:20.639 That's cool and whatever. I don't know, if you miss her, 0:21:20.680 --> 0:21:25.000 you can watch her stream. I mean, as you probably 0:21:25.040 --> 0:21:29.160 don't do that. It's not healthy. But okay, let's see here. 0:21:31.040 --> 0:21:37.520 All right. This is from Hugh subject line PSA for 0:21:37.600 --> 0:21:41.480 the uncircumcised. Okay, I'm Jewish, so this does not apply 0:21:41.600 --> 0:21:44.440 to me. Hello, ghek, I am uncircumcised, and I found 0:21:44.440 --> 0:21:46.320 out at the age of eighteen that you were supposed 0:21:46.359 --> 0:21:49.959 to clean under the foreskin. My dad is circumcised and 0:21:50.000 --> 0:21:52.840 never taught me how to clean it properly. It'd be 0:21:52.880 --> 0:21:57.720 a little weird. I don't before I continue in this email, 0:21:57.960 --> 0:22:04.720 just so you know, there's I don't like. You only 0:22:04.720 --> 0:22:06.960 have right, You only have your own life experience to 0:22:07.040 --> 0:22:08.960 draw from, and you only have your own perspective. But 0:22:09.040 --> 0:22:16.520 just so you know, it's most people have not had 0:22:16.560 --> 0:22:19.520 a moment where their dad knocks on the door and 0:22:19.560 --> 0:22:21.400 comes into the room and goes, hey, let me show 0:22:21.440 --> 0:22:27.800 you how to clean your penis. So you're you're okay, okay. 0:22:27.840 --> 0:22:29.679 My dad never taught me how to clean up properly, 0:22:29.720 --> 0:22:31.960 so I didn't know you had to. If anyone listening 0:22:32.040 --> 0:22:34.119 is in the same boat, you are supposed to be 0:22:34.200 --> 0:22:37.640 able to pull the foreskin all the way back over 0:22:37.680 --> 0:22:41.000 the head and clean it. I again, I'm I'm I'm sirked. 0:22:41.200 --> 0:22:45.200 So I can't relate to any of this. I remember 0:22:45.240 --> 0:22:48.399 when I first started watching porn, like I thought, I 0:22:48.480 --> 0:22:50.760 thought all penises were like mine. And then when I 0:22:50.760 --> 0:22:53.960 first started watching porn and I saw a guy's dick 0:22:54.080 --> 0:22:58.720 like engulfed by foreskin, I was like, what the fuck 0:22:58.760 --> 0:23:02.159 is wrong with this guy's dick. The crazy thing though, 0:23:02.440 --> 0:23:05.000 that when I did pull it back for the first time, 0:23:05.080 --> 0:23:09.119 I had no smegma and I haven't had any smegma 0:23:09.280 --> 0:23:13.359 since then either. I think my dick learned to clean 0:23:13.440 --> 0:23:18.920 itself because I never cleaned it. Yeah, that's probably what happens. Uh, 0:23:18.960 --> 0:23:25.320 that's it. Love you, I love you too. PS. I 0:23:25.480 --> 0:23:29.439 was the incest guy from your Melbourne show. Okay, I know, 0:23:29.640 --> 0:23:32.240 I know who you are. I know what that is. 0:23:34.000 --> 0:23:38.080 Uh PPPs I think your face should be painted red. Okay, 0:23:38.080 --> 0:23:45.520 all right, let's move on. Let's see here. Oh uh 0:23:45.560 --> 0:23:56.919 this is from Henry. Oh now, let's give that one. 0:23:57.600 --> 0:24:03.840 All right? This was this? This is from Jeremiah. Subject 0:24:03.880 --> 0:24:09.520 line Jeremiah hey Gek. My father was a pastor. We 0:24:09.600 --> 0:24:13.520 grew up in a strict Christian household. We loved God 0:24:13.680 --> 0:24:16.240 and we used to do mission trips to Mexico. While 0:24:16.240 --> 0:24:18.840 I was there, I helped build four houses and one 0:24:18.960 --> 0:24:21.960 cinderblock wall for an orphanage in New Mexico for those 0:24:21.960 --> 0:24:25.120 in need. That's pretty sweet. The first time I went 0:24:25.160 --> 0:24:29.000 on a trip which we would drive thirty six hours 0:24:29.040 --> 0:24:32.600 from Canada to Warez in a van. Holy shit, Hold, 0:24:32.680 --> 0:24:34.520 I gotta let me give you a second map that out. 0:24:34.720 --> 0:24:39.640 You fucking drove from Canada to Mexico. Let me see 0:24:39.680 --> 0:24:42.199 where's where's Warez on the map? I gotta look at that, 0:24:43.280 --> 0:24:47.280 seeodad Warez. Okay, it's like near El Pass. Okay, it's 0:24:47.280 --> 0:24:53.360 like right on the border of Yeah. Damn, that's crazy, man, 0:24:54.119 --> 0:24:57.000 that's crazy. Yeah. See you daed Warez is like right, 0:24:57.119 --> 0:25:02.199 It's like l Paso, right on the border. U. Okay. 0:25:02.240 --> 0:25:03.680 My first time I went on a trip, we drove 0:25:03.720 --> 0:25:05.680 thirty six hours from Canada ware As in a van. 0:25:05.800 --> 0:25:08.760 I was nine years old. My father got cancer when 0:25:08.800 --> 0:25:11.240 I was thirteen and passed away when I was fourteen. 0:25:11.680 --> 0:25:15.480 I turned away from my faith, started partying recklessly and 0:25:15.560 --> 0:25:18.639 experimenting with drugs. I got into a lot of trouble. 0:25:18.960 --> 0:25:25.040 I also began making music beatboxing uncontrollably. That's a very 0:25:25.359 --> 0:25:29.879 funny way to describe that. I became a self proclaimed 0:25:30.000 --> 0:25:34.679 pioneer for beatboxing in Western Canada, performing all over British 0:25:34.760 --> 0:25:38.359 Columbia and Alberta. I learned how to beatbox from a 0:25:38.400 --> 0:25:43.919 Mexican boy named Domingo, son of the manager at the 0:25:44.080 --> 0:25:47.080 orphanage that we built the houses at, when I was 0:25:47.119 --> 0:25:50.439 eleven and he was thirteen. I still perform gigs, but 0:25:50.520 --> 0:25:53.280 not as often. I am thirty two now and still 0:25:53.359 --> 0:25:57.920 dealing with the grief eighteen years later. To anyone struggling 0:25:57.960 --> 0:26:00.600 out there, there was always hope and I love you all. 0:26:01.040 --> 0:26:05.040 Thanks for listening. Thanks for sharing that, Jeremiah. That's really cool, man. Yeah, 0:26:05.080 --> 0:26:08.600 this is one of those I like the I By 0:26:08.680 --> 0:26:10.639 the way, I know people keep saying everyone put your 0:26:10.640 --> 0:26:12.320 phone number in there so you can call the person, 0:26:12.359 --> 0:26:16.200 and I'm like, no, I don't. I prefer these episodes 0:26:16.200 --> 0:26:19.680 to just be me reading emails. But yeah, this is 0:26:19.720 --> 0:26:22.000 one of the If you, Jeremiah, if you can hear this, 0:26:22.119 --> 0:26:25.480 try to call me on one of the days that 0:26:25.560 --> 0:26:27.919 I'm streaming, because I want to. I want to hear 0:26:27.960 --> 0:26:31.600 more about your story. I want to know more about beatboxing. 0:26:32.480 --> 0:26:35.280 This is cool. This is a cool story. Thanks for sharing, Jeremiah. 0:26:35.680 --> 0:26:43.440