1 00:00:12,520 --> 00:00:16,520 Speaker 1: Okay. So I went to the Heidi Klum party last night. 2 00:00:17,040 --> 00:00:20,720 Speaker 1: So I saw Heidi Klum at the Laurel fashion show 3 00:00:20,800 --> 00:00:25,759 Speaker 1: in Paris. She was super sweet, so supportive, and when 4 00:00:25,800 --> 00:00:28,440 Speaker 1: I got the invite, I think there was a connection 5 00:00:28,560 --> 00:00:30,640 Speaker 1: she had just seen me. Unless I'm reading too much 6 00:00:30,640 --> 00:00:33,040 Speaker 1: into it, but I think I've been to her party 7 00:00:33,479 --> 00:00:35,599 Speaker 1: once before, a long time ago. I don't remember how 8 00:00:35,600 --> 00:00:38,320 Speaker 1: I got invited. It was much bigger. I think I 9 00:00:38,360 --> 00:00:40,199 Speaker 1: went a share with an ex and it was much 10 00:00:40,200 --> 00:00:43,000 Speaker 1: bigger and overwhelming, and I didn't know what to expect. 11 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:47,640 Speaker 1: So I went with my friend Dan and I was 12 00:00:47,800 --> 00:00:51,840 Speaker 1: wonder Woman. And I love the costume I chose because 13 00:00:51,880 --> 00:00:55,200 Speaker 1: for me, it was comfortable. It wasn't unwieldy, it wasn't 14 00:00:55,240 --> 00:00:58,200 Speaker 1: a ton of makeup. I feel like wonder Woman lately, 15 00:00:58,800 --> 00:01:01,840 Speaker 1: and I feel like I stuck the landing. I did 16 00:01:02,160 --> 00:01:05,800 Speaker 1: original wonder Woman, seventies wonder Woman, Linda Carter wonder Woman, 17 00:01:06,360 --> 00:01:09,520 Speaker 1: you know, original makeup, original costume, had it made, took 18 00:01:09,560 --> 00:01:12,400 Speaker 1: it seriously, did it within a week and a half. 19 00:01:12,440 --> 00:01:14,440 Speaker 1: Two weeks though. It was like a cram, but I 20 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:16,640 Speaker 1: didn't really think about it. It wasn't dramatic. I'm not one 21 00:01:16,680 --> 00:01:18,880 Speaker 1: who wants to do seventy five fittings and stress out 22 00:01:18,920 --> 00:01:21,200 Speaker 1: about something. I just think the things you think of 23 00:01:21,480 --> 00:01:23,959 Speaker 1: kind of towards the last minute and just pull it together. 24 00:01:24,319 --> 00:01:27,120 Speaker 1: Always work best, and I do it all myself. Like 25 00:01:27,319 --> 00:01:29,560 Speaker 1: the makeup, I had a makeup artist do it, but 26 00:01:29,680 --> 00:01:33,080 Speaker 1: I really directed how I wanted it to be done exactly, 27 00:01:33,600 --> 00:01:36,360 Speaker 1: and even like right when it was done and the 28 00:01:36,360 --> 00:01:37,920 Speaker 1: people around me thought it looked good, I was like, no, 29 00:01:37,959 --> 00:01:39,399 Speaker 1: we need to pop this, We need to pop that, 30 00:01:39,480 --> 00:01:40,840 Speaker 1: we need to do this, we need to do that. 31 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:43,720 Speaker 1: So I'm getting more and more involved. And I always 32 00:01:43,800 --> 00:01:47,560 Speaker 1: dress myself. I never borrow clothing. I only like to 33 00:01:47,640 --> 00:01:50,800 Speaker 1: buy or be given. I just I like. I like 34 00:01:50,880 --> 00:01:54,040 Speaker 1: styling myself. It's become this sort of creative thing that 35 00:01:54,080 --> 00:01:56,200 Speaker 1: you try to figure out for the event, what makes 36 00:01:56,240 --> 00:01:59,000 Speaker 1: sense in your life in the moment, like what it means, 37 00:01:59,560 --> 00:02:03,040 Speaker 1: and I don't rush, Like I will have an outfit 38 00:02:03,160 --> 00:02:05,559 Speaker 1: with tags on it in my closet or a dress 39 00:02:05,960 --> 00:02:08,560 Speaker 1: for years, I buy it on sale, it's sitting in 40 00:02:08,560 --> 00:02:12,959 Speaker 1: my closet and then the moment arrives where it's perfect. 41 00:02:13,400 --> 00:02:15,799 Speaker 1: And if you force something for the wrong event, it's 42 00:02:15,840 --> 00:02:17,720 Speaker 1: not perfect, So you got to kind of just trust 43 00:02:17,760 --> 00:02:20,560 Speaker 1: the process and so many different types of things you 44 00:02:20,600 --> 00:02:24,440 Speaker 1: get invited to dictate what you'll wear. I just went 45 00:02:24,480 --> 00:02:29,040 Speaker 1: to a Madman themed wedding, you know, Like I went 46 00:02:29,120 --> 00:02:32,280 Speaker 1: to the US Open and wore this cute, like denim 47 00:02:32,440 --> 00:02:34,720 Speaker 1: flirty skirt that I've been wanting to wear for long, 48 00:02:34,880 --> 00:02:38,120 Speaker 1: like maybe two years. I just like sort of deciding 49 00:02:38,720 --> 00:02:41,400 Speaker 1: based on that year, that experience, and who you're going 50 00:02:41,480 --> 00:02:44,680 Speaker 1: to see, what you're going to do. So I love Halloween, 51 00:02:44,720 --> 00:02:46,880 Speaker 1: but I only love it when you're doing it right, 52 00:02:47,400 --> 00:02:50,480 Speaker 1: meaning like the half asked when you go trick or 53 00:02:50,480 --> 00:02:52,280 Speaker 1: treating with your kids and just stick on the skeleton 54 00:02:52,360 --> 00:02:54,160 Speaker 1: suit or the witch hat. Like I have all that, 55 00:02:55,080 --> 00:02:56,960 Speaker 1: and that's fine for the neighborhood, but I always feel 56 00:02:57,000 --> 00:02:59,440 Speaker 1: kind of like, make make an effort. I have a 57 00:02:59,520 --> 00:03:03,520 Speaker 1: massive Halloween box, so I have a big plastic storage 58 00:03:03,560 --> 00:03:07,400 Speaker 1: bin that all costumes are separated by zip block bags, 59 00:03:07,400 --> 00:03:11,160 Speaker 1: and then I have wigs separated by zip block bags, accessories, 60 00:03:11,200 --> 00:03:16,440 Speaker 1: jewelries separated, shoes separated, and I just edited it today 61 00:03:17,080 --> 00:03:19,920 Speaker 1: thinking that it was already organized because I've organized it, 62 00:03:19,960 --> 00:03:22,120 Speaker 1: but now I went through every single costume taking it 63 00:03:22,160 --> 00:03:24,080 Speaker 1: out of its bag. Looking at it, does it look cheap? 64 00:03:24,440 --> 00:03:26,680 Speaker 1: Is the wig grows? Is it too ratty? And I 65 00:03:26,760 --> 00:03:30,440 Speaker 1: just threw out one giant, entire bin of old Halloween stuff. 66 00:03:30,440 --> 00:03:33,720 Speaker 1: It felt so good. So I also like to purge 67 00:03:34,320 --> 00:03:37,920 Speaker 1: holiday stuff, not just like normal clothes. I'm constantly refreshing 68 00:03:37,960 --> 00:03:40,920 Speaker 1: and purging and organizing, and today was a day that 69 00:03:41,000 --> 00:03:43,520 Speaker 1: I did that for Halloween and it felt so good. 70 00:03:43,520 --> 00:03:46,240 Speaker 1: It's just nice to go back and like, no, you 71 00:03:46,320 --> 00:03:48,960 Speaker 1: have all good things. Or if your kids coming over 72 00:03:49,200 --> 00:03:53,520 Speaker 1: with their friends, like you have a costume for them. 73 00:03:53,960 --> 00:03:55,480 Speaker 1: I don't know. I like being that mom that my 74 00:03:55,560 --> 00:03:57,320 Speaker 1: daughter comes over with her friend and looks through the 75 00:03:57,800 --> 00:04:01,240 Speaker 1: costume bin and chooses something. So that was a big 76 00:04:01,280 --> 00:04:03,600 Speaker 1: task today. But back to the party. So it's Heidi 77 00:04:03,640 --> 00:04:06,600 Speaker 1: Klum's party. She came with her life partner. I don't 78 00:04:06,600 --> 00:04:09,280 Speaker 1: know if they're actually married, but as like Et, like 79 00:04:09,360 --> 00:04:12,120 Speaker 1: aliens like Et and missus Et, and it was so 80 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:15,600 Speaker 1: amazing and the eyes were real and like she goes 81 00:04:15,800 --> 00:04:20,360 Speaker 1: all the way in, like she goes eyeballs deep in 82 00:04:21,240 --> 00:04:24,559 Speaker 1: the costume and that's a commitment and she really really 83 00:04:24,600 --> 00:04:29,560 Speaker 1: owns Halloween. And her party is iconic and it's a brand, 84 00:04:29,680 --> 00:04:31,480 Speaker 1: and it's every year, and this year it was at 85 00:04:31,520 --> 00:04:33,840 Speaker 1: the hard Rock Hotel in New York City, which was 86 00:04:33,880 --> 00:04:36,520 Speaker 1: like New York Times Square, and I didn't know there 87 00:04:36,640 --> 00:04:38,919 Speaker 1: was a hard Rock hotel in New York City. And 88 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:41,080 Speaker 1: all I could tell you is this venue was amazing. 89 00:04:41,240 --> 00:04:46,560 Speaker 1: It wasn't gigantic. It was a reasonably sized venue that 90 00:04:46,640 --> 00:04:54,279 Speaker 1: had like velvet booths, banquettes, and it felt special. It 91 00:04:54,440 --> 00:04:57,479 Speaker 1: felt adult. It didn't feel cheesy. It didn't feel like 92 00:04:57,640 --> 00:05:02,039 Speaker 1: young kids doing drugs, didn't feel like too celebrity. There 93 00:05:02,080 --> 00:05:05,359 Speaker 1: were celebrities, but it wasn't like a powerhouse a list 94 00:05:05,760 --> 00:05:08,719 Speaker 1: with security group. It was like, you know, it was 95 00:05:08,760 --> 00:05:12,000 Speaker 1: like me and Mario Canton and Nicole Scherzinger, like a 96 00:05:12,120 --> 00:05:16,880 Speaker 1: kid from outer Banks, like what's his name? Stokes? Is 97 00:05:16,880 --> 00:05:20,800 Speaker 1: it Chase Stokes? Like great celebrities, but it just was eclectic. 98 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:23,919 Speaker 1: And Heidi Klum is obviously a big celebrity, but it 99 00:05:24,080 --> 00:05:27,440 Speaker 1: just wasn't giving diva. It was giving like people that 100 00:05:27,600 --> 00:05:30,440 Speaker 1: came and wanted to have fun, but not out of control. 101 00:05:30,520 --> 00:05:32,560 Speaker 1: Sometimes Halloween can be a little scary, like it gets 102 00:05:32,560 --> 00:05:34,560 Speaker 1: a little freaky and everyone's wearing costumes and you feel 103 00:05:34,560 --> 00:05:36,560 Speaker 1: a little dark, and you just feel like it just 104 00:05:36,600 --> 00:05:39,359 Speaker 1: gets overwhelming. It's too crowded. You drink, you feel like 105 00:05:39,400 --> 00:05:42,880 Speaker 1: you can't breathe, like you're suffocating your costume. Someone's on 106 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:44,680 Speaker 1: top of you, poking you with an angel wing. It 107 00:05:44,839 --> 00:05:47,359 Speaker 1: wasn't like that. I call it alchemy. There was an 108 00:05:47,400 --> 00:05:49,520 Speaker 1: alchemy that was great in the room. The DJ was 109 00:05:49,560 --> 00:05:52,880 Speaker 1: a ten, the venue was a ten, the energy was 110 00:05:52,920 --> 00:05:55,279 Speaker 1: a ten. I was just hanging out with Randos. I 111 00:05:55,279 --> 00:05:57,080 Speaker 1: had a really great booth. I had like the best 112 00:05:57,160 --> 00:05:58,960 Speaker 1: booth in the place besides Tidi Klum like. I had 113 00:05:58,960 --> 00:06:03,479 Speaker 1: a corner but mac Daddy like, I'm Madonna. Booth like. 114 00:06:04,080 --> 00:06:08,320 Speaker 1: It was legit, and you know, they gave us beautiful cocktails. 115 00:06:08,320 --> 00:06:10,440 Speaker 1: But as someone who had been given this ball or 116 00:06:10,480 --> 00:06:12,880 Speaker 1: booth like, I participated in the party. If that makes 117 00:06:12,880 --> 00:06:15,440 Speaker 1: any sense. I posted on social media. I tagged Heidi. 118 00:06:15,880 --> 00:06:18,520 Speaker 1: I invited other people over to my booth. Mario Cantone, 119 00:06:18,520 --> 00:06:20,800 Speaker 1: who is the guy from Sex and City, the funny 120 00:06:20,880 --> 00:06:24,080 Speaker 1: you know, gay guy who's Charlotte's best friend, who's in 121 00:06:24,120 --> 00:06:26,880 Speaker 1: and just like that, I invited him over with his 122 00:06:27,000 --> 00:06:29,080 Speaker 1: husband of thirty four years and they ended up hanging 123 00:06:29,080 --> 00:06:30,800 Speaker 1: out like I felt like I was being hospitable, if 124 00:06:30,800 --> 00:06:33,000 Speaker 1: that makes any sense. Jonathan Cheban came and I haven't 125 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:35,680 Speaker 1: seen him for years. He said we should do a 126 00:06:35,720 --> 00:06:38,280 Speaker 1: food video. I invited him to sit with me. Like 127 00:06:38,720 --> 00:06:40,839 Speaker 1: it was a nice experience. I really it was a 128 00:06:40,880 --> 00:06:44,560 Speaker 1: really nice experience. And it was very like I said, 129 00:06:44,560 --> 00:06:47,640 Speaker 1: adult DJ was amazing, the dancing was amazing, but you 130 00:06:47,680 --> 00:06:50,599 Speaker 1: just didn't feel like a fucking hot mess at one 131 00:06:50,640 --> 00:06:53,480 Speaker 1: o'clock in the morning. But you just felt like, Okay, 132 00:06:53,760 --> 00:06:57,320 Speaker 1: the music's changing and it's time, and it's I am 133 00:06:57,360 --> 00:06:59,640 Speaker 1: a person that knows when to leave a party. Like 134 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:01,359 Speaker 1: you just kind of it gets repeent, like you're on 135 00:07:01,400 --> 00:07:03,320 Speaker 1: a loop. You've done it, You've danced to it, it's 136 00:07:03,360 --> 00:07:05,560 Speaker 1: been amazing, You've talked to people, you went to the 137 00:07:05,640 --> 00:07:07,240 Speaker 1: dance floor, you came back, you had a drink, you 138 00:07:07,240 --> 00:07:09,680 Speaker 1: had another drink, you took pictures, you did video whatever, 139 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:12,600 Speaker 1: you hung with your friends, you had good conversations, and 140 00:07:12,640 --> 00:07:14,880 Speaker 1: then like it starts all over again. You're like, Okay, 141 00:07:14,920 --> 00:07:17,200 Speaker 1: we're on a loop. Like we did it. Let's leave 142 00:07:17,240 --> 00:07:19,680 Speaker 1: a party at its peak. Let's leave a party at 143 00:07:19,680 --> 00:07:35,400 Speaker 1: its peak. So I am grateful to have been invited 144 00:07:35,480 --> 00:07:37,600 Speaker 1: I would definitely go next year. I just think it. 145 00:07:37,920 --> 00:07:42,960 Speaker 1: She personifies Halloween, and I think that, like everything else, 146 00:07:43,200 --> 00:07:46,280 Speaker 1: every year, people perfect their stuffing recipe, their Thanksgiving, their 147 00:07:46,360 --> 00:07:49,960 Speaker 1: birthday party. Every year, she's perfected this party. I've been before, 148 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:52,320 Speaker 1: and I feel like I think it was Bronson van 149 00:07:52,360 --> 00:07:54,120 Speaker 1: Wick who planned it. There's no food there. They had 150 00:07:54,120 --> 00:07:57,000 Speaker 1: butter fingers on the table. Who's a sponsor? Good alcohol 151 00:07:57,080 --> 00:07:59,920 Speaker 1: per No Recard was the sponsor, and like that's all 152 00:08:00,120 --> 00:08:01,840 Speaker 1: you needed. We had cocktails, we had good music. It 153 00:08:01,920 --> 00:08:06,080 Speaker 1: started at nine. Also, also I got there, I have 154 00:08:06,160 --> 00:08:08,840 Speaker 1: to say, like nine to twenty five. I knew it 155 00:08:08,880 --> 00:08:11,000 Speaker 1: was at nine. We're sort of like Losory. We're gonna 156 00:08:11,040 --> 00:08:12,840 Speaker 1: be on the front end of people getting there, you 157 00:08:12,840 --> 00:08:14,960 Speaker 1: know what. Good for us because I don't want to 158 00:08:14,960 --> 00:08:17,120 Speaker 1: get there at ten thirty in jockey for position. We 159 00:08:17,160 --> 00:08:19,560 Speaker 1: got there early. We got a great table. I tipped 160 00:08:19,600 --> 00:08:22,640 Speaker 1: the people that helped us at our table because I 161 00:08:22,640 --> 00:08:26,360 Speaker 1: think that's important. And like pigs get fat and hogs 162 00:08:26,360 --> 00:08:28,000 Speaker 1: get slaughtered, I don't need to roll in there at 163 00:08:28,000 --> 00:08:29,880 Speaker 1: ten fifteen, waiting at home for what I'm gonna do 164 00:08:29,920 --> 00:08:31,880 Speaker 1: and looking to like look cool when I get there. 165 00:08:32,160 --> 00:08:33,920 Speaker 1: None of that was important to me. It's important to 166 00:08:33,960 --> 00:08:36,600 Speaker 1: me is good real estate. So even if I wasn't 167 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,720 Speaker 1: graciously given a beautiful table, I could have found a 168 00:08:39,760 --> 00:08:41,840 Speaker 1: corner and found a chair and made my own real estate. 169 00:08:41,880 --> 00:08:44,880 Speaker 1: I'll always figure it out. I'm that bitch. So we 170 00:08:44,920 --> 00:08:47,679 Speaker 1: got there early, early bird gets the booth. I was happy. 171 00:08:47,960 --> 00:08:51,440 Speaker 1: It was wonderful. Halloween went off without a hitch. Everybody 172 00:08:51,480 --> 00:08:54,360 Speaker 1: thought it looked exactly like Linda Carter, like I overshot 173 00:08:54,400 --> 00:08:57,240 Speaker 1: the mark. I just wanted to look good. I had 174 00:08:57,240 --> 00:09:01,360 Speaker 1: an original seventies costume, like it was a replica. Thank 175 00:09:01,440 --> 00:09:05,400 Speaker 1: you Garro and his beautiful assistant, Like, I overshot the 176 00:09:05,440 --> 00:09:08,360 Speaker 1: mark because I took the wig and the detail in 177 00:09:08,440 --> 00:09:11,280 Speaker 1: the makeup so seriously. So I'm feeling myself. I was 178 00:09:11,280 --> 00:09:14,000 Speaker 1: feeling myself. It was great. But people are like, oh 179 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:16,240 Speaker 1: my god, you actually are a wonder woman, Like this 180 00:09:16,320 --> 00:09:19,760 Speaker 1: is not a costume and you are Linda Carter. People 181 00:09:19,760 --> 00:09:22,440 Speaker 1: were messaging me that they showed their daughters like the 182 00:09:22,480 --> 00:09:23,959 Speaker 1: original and me and like, oh my god, it's the 183 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:26,880 Speaker 1: same person. So that was amazing. And when you stick, 184 00:09:27,120 --> 00:09:29,920 Speaker 1: I've had expensive costumes that haven't landed. I had someone 185 00:09:29,920 --> 00:09:31,599 Speaker 1: do a costume for me that was like supposed to 186 00:09:31,679 --> 00:09:35,079 Speaker 1: be Barbie, and I ended up looking like Anna Nicole 187 00:09:35,120 --> 00:09:38,120 Speaker 1: Smith like back in that day. And I've had supposed 188 00:09:38,120 --> 00:09:40,400 Speaker 1: to be sharing. It doesn't land, and it sucks when 189 00:09:40,400 --> 00:09:42,959 Speaker 1: it doesn't land because someone has to do the makeup perfectly. 190 00:09:43,000 --> 00:09:45,840 Speaker 1: It all has to come together. Don't go. If you go, 191 00:09:45,840 --> 00:09:48,400 Speaker 1: go or stay home, like do it or don't. Don't 192 00:09:48,440 --> 00:09:50,920 Speaker 1: try to accomplish something you can't get done. Don't bite 193 00:09:50,920 --> 00:09:52,760 Speaker 1: off more than you could chew. Do something cute and 194 00:09:52,800 --> 00:09:55,959 Speaker 1: creative and be simple because often the best costumes are simple. 195 00:09:56,000 --> 00:09:58,680 Speaker 1: But don't like go in it's like too hard a recipe, 196 00:09:58,720 --> 00:10:00,000 Speaker 1: and then you can't do it, and then you get 197 00:10:00,200 --> 00:10:02,640 Speaker 1: in the middle and you suck. I've sucked my Hello 198 00:10:02,760 --> 00:10:07,640 Speaker 1: Kitty sucked, my Share sucked, My Barbie sucked. My Marilyn 199 00:10:07,679 --> 00:10:11,000 Speaker 1: Monroe crushed eight. I would say this is my Marilyn 200 00:10:11,040 --> 00:10:12,880 Speaker 1: Monroe are the two best of my entire life. So 201 00:10:12,960 --> 00:10:15,600 Speaker 1: that was good. So I already know what I'm gonna 202 00:10:15,600 --> 00:10:18,600 Speaker 1: be next year. You're welcome. Great time had by all. 203 00:10:18,960 --> 00:10:27,360 Speaker 1: Thank you so much, Heidi and crew. Let's talk about birthdays. Okay, 204 00:10:27,400 --> 00:10:30,800 Speaker 1: it is my birthday, it is my mother's birthday. My 205 00:10:30,800 --> 00:10:33,319 Speaker 1: mother passed away. I was born on her twentieth birthday. 206 00:10:33,400 --> 00:10:35,160 Speaker 1: That has always been triggering for me. It has always 207 00:10:35,160 --> 00:10:37,640 Speaker 1: been a weird day. I got sick every year of 208 00:10:37,679 --> 00:10:39,880 Speaker 1: my life on my birthday. I would throw up or 209 00:10:39,880 --> 00:10:41,640 Speaker 1: come down with something. I would be locked in my room. 210 00:10:41,640 --> 00:10:43,679 Speaker 1: I couldn't get out. I was a disaster my whole year. 211 00:10:43,720 --> 00:10:46,760 Speaker 1: On my birthday, I had a nervous breakdown on television 212 00:10:46,760 --> 00:10:48,640 Speaker 1: when I there was a surprise party for my birthday. 213 00:10:48,840 --> 00:10:51,160 Speaker 1: I don't do well. I'm off to a good start. 214 00:10:51,480 --> 00:10:56,040 Speaker 1: It's a ready lunchtime and I'm off to a decent start. 215 00:10:56,240 --> 00:10:58,360 Speaker 1: I have been getting better, and I think my mother 216 00:10:58,400 --> 00:11:01,320 Speaker 1: passing away has helped me to release something. Knowing that 217 00:11:01,360 --> 00:11:03,000 Speaker 1: she existed on this earth and that I was born 218 00:11:03,000 --> 00:11:06,600 Speaker 1: on her twentieth birthday on a cellular level affected me. 219 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:09,600 Speaker 1: Knowing that we didn't have a relationship, We didn't speak, 220 00:11:09,640 --> 00:11:11,040 Speaker 1: but she was like there and it was her birthday 221 00:11:11,040 --> 00:11:12,880 Speaker 1: and she alone, and what's it like and I and 222 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:15,760 Speaker 1: somehow going back to my childhood and thinking about all 223 00:11:15,760 --> 00:11:17,800 Speaker 1: my birthdays and what it must have been like to 224 00:11:17,800 --> 00:11:19,600 Speaker 1: have me on her twentieth birthday, and hearing that she 225 00:11:19,679 --> 00:11:21,960 Speaker 1: never wanted to have me for my stepfather any chance 226 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:25,960 Speaker 1: he's gotten to tell me. It just is a triggering day. 227 00:11:26,800 --> 00:11:30,439 Speaker 1: And I am so narcissistic about it because like I 228 00:11:30,559 --> 00:11:32,839 Speaker 1: don't want it, but then if I don't get it, 229 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:35,960 Speaker 1: I feel left out, Like I don't want a big 230 00:11:36,000 --> 00:11:38,120 Speaker 1: deal to be made, but I want a deal to 231 00:11:38,160 --> 00:11:39,839 Speaker 1: be made, so I want you to do something for me, 232 00:11:39,920 --> 00:11:41,400 Speaker 1: but I don't want you to do too much, and 233 00:11:41,440 --> 00:11:43,079 Speaker 1: I don't want the big singing at the table. I'll 234 00:11:43,120 --> 00:11:45,000 Speaker 1: have a panic attack, but I don't want no one 235 00:11:45,000 --> 00:11:46,800 Speaker 1: to notice it. And I want cake but I don't. 236 00:11:46,920 --> 00:11:48,600 Speaker 1: It's a nightmare, Like I don't know if you're like that, 237 00:11:48,640 --> 00:11:50,760 Speaker 1: but on the goldilocks of my birthday, I cannot get 238 00:11:50,760 --> 00:11:54,240 Speaker 1: the fucking temperature right. And I've been better. And I 239 00:11:54,320 --> 00:11:57,240 Speaker 1: don't set myself up for disaster by planning some over 240 00:11:57,320 --> 00:12:00,480 Speaker 1: the top crazy thing on the actual day, because I'll 241 00:12:00,480 --> 00:12:02,920 Speaker 1: have a meltdown, nervous breakdown, and then I like, well, 242 00:12:03,240 --> 00:12:05,920 Speaker 1: it'll be too much. What I do is I plan nothing, 243 00:12:06,000 --> 00:12:07,960 Speaker 1: and then like literally on the day of, which is 244 00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:10,520 Speaker 1: what I'm doing today, I'll throw it together and I'll 245 00:12:10,640 --> 00:12:12,880 Speaker 1: end up being a great dinner of like fourteen people 246 00:12:13,120 --> 00:12:14,719 Speaker 1: but it'll be like I'll have a core group of 247 00:12:14,760 --> 00:12:16,200 Speaker 1: a couple of people I want to see, make sure 248 00:12:16,240 --> 00:12:18,400 Speaker 1: I'm with my daughter, if I'm in a relationship, and 249 00:12:18,400 --> 00:12:20,959 Speaker 1: then I start layering in people. It could be people 250 00:12:21,000 --> 00:12:22,559 Speaker 1: that work for me at my house. It could be 251 00:12:22,559 --> 00:12:24,400 Speaker 1: an assistant, It could be a makeup person. It could 252 00:12:24,400 --> 00:12:26,040 Speaker 1: be a rando I saw yesterday. It could be an 253 00:12:26,040 --> 00:12:28,720 Speaker 1: old friend I just started speaking to. I throw it together. 254 00:12:28,760 --> 00:12:30,600 Speaker 1: It doesn't have to mean a lot, and everybody has 255 00:12:30,640 --> 00:12:33,480 Speaker 1: to know. It's a hodgepodge and it's a bunch of stragglers, 256 00:12:33,760 --> 00:12:35,439 Speaker 1: and everyone's going to be a good person and you're 257 00:12:35,480 --> 00:12:39,319 Speaker 1: going to have a good time, and that's it. No expectations, 258 00:12:39,640 --> 00:12:43,000 Speaker 1: good food. Let's say it happened and keep it fucking moving. 259 00:12:43,640 --> 00:12:45,640 Speaker 1: I always get nice flowers. People make a big deal. 260 00:12:45,679 --> 00:12:48,880 Speaker 1: I'm very grateful. I'm terrible at remembering other people's birthdays. 261 00:12:49,080 --> 00:12:51,960 Speaker 1: I hate when people remember mine because I always forget 262 00:12:52,000 --> 00:12:54,040 Speaker 1: everyone else's, and when they remember mine, I start to 263 00:12:54,040 --> 00:12:57,160 Speaker 1: feel self conscious about Oh my god, David was Song 264 00:12:57,360 --> 00:12:59,800 Speaker 1: remembers my birthday every year, and I've never once remembered 265 00:12:59,840 --> 00:13:01,400 Speaker 1: his because I don't even know what his is. And 266 00:13:01,440 --> 00:13:03,199 Speaker 1: now it's been so many years of him remembering mine. 267 00:13:03,200 --> 00:13:05,640 Speaker 1: I don't want to ask him what his is. Chuck Sodano, 268 00:13:05,760 --> 00:13:08,840 Speaker 1: same thing. I suck at that. I suck at remembering 269 00:13:08,840 --> 00:13:12,000 Speaker 1: if it's your birthday, whether you're my best friend or 270 00:13:12,040 --> 00:13:15,440 Speaker 1: anyone except for my child, I suck. So I will 271 00:13:15,480 --> 00:13:17,200 Speaker 1: remember it the week before and I'll send a gift, 272 00:13:17,200 --> 00:13:19,319 Speaker 1: But then I'll fucking forget on the day to text 273 00:13:19,320 --> 00:13:21,720 Speaker 1: you because I never know what day it is. So 274 00:13:21,800 --> 00:13:23,719 Speaker 1: that sucks too. So I suck at that, and I'm 275 00:13:23,760 --> 00:13:26,000 Speaker 1: really sorry, and I get self conscious. So happy birthday 276 00:13:26,040 --> 00:13:28,880 Speaker 1: to all of you. I will forget your birthday. I 277 00:13:28,960 --> 00:13:32,000 Speaker 1: am sorry. I care, I do it in different ways. 278 00:13:32,040 --> 00:13:35,439 Speaker 1: I'm not perfect. So I love you guys. Happy birthday 279 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:58,520 Speaker 1: to you and to me. Bye.