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Speaker 1: Radio Radio Radio Commies of Myth and Bullshit a radio

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Speaker 1: phonic novella radio hosted by Malamn. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi,

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Speaker 1: look amotis welcome to season four of Look Radio rosas

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Speaker 1: Assina's wanted for Crimes against the Patriarchy. Look At Radio

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Speaker 1: is a radiophonic novella archiving the brilliance and legacies of

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Speaker 1: women and fems of color. I'm Diosa and I'm Mala,

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Speaker 1: and we are Las Mammies of Myth and bullshitas locals

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Speaker 1: of radio radio phonic novella, which is just a really

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Speaker 1: extra way of saying a podcast. Welcome. It's season four.

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Speaker 1: It's so much newness, so much newness, also so much

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Speaker 1: sameness at the same time. It's fun. Yes, I'm excited

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Speaker 1: to introduce our season four concept to talk about it. Yes,

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Speaker 1: by now you have hopefully seen a flyer announcements circulating

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Speaker 1: on Instagram four season four with some new visuals. Absolutely

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Speaker 1: so to recap season three we were from revenge never

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Speaker 1: sounded so sweet and this year season four, new season,

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Speaker 1: new theme. We are us wanted for crimes against the

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Speaker 1: patriarchy and we're just continuing along with the idea of

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Speaker 1: seeking revenge against machismo and the patriarchy, and now we

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Speaker 1: are probably on the run for our crimes and they're

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Speaker 1: not going to catch us because they can't keep up.

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Speaker 1: And that's where we're at. Yeah, you can't keep a

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Speaker 1: bad bitch down, basically, you can't. You cannot kill a

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Speaker 1: bad bitch. No, no, no, indestructible. Yes. And then when

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Speaker 1: thinking about our visuals and our concept we were looking

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Speaker 1: back at the Roaring twenties, right, so if you look

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Speaker 1: at our hair and the flyer, definitely like inspired by

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Speaker 1: the Roaring twenties and thinking about how we are literally

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Speaker 1: in now so kind of like an old meats new

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Speaker 1: futuristic at the same time, Yes, like everything all at once,

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Speaker 1: but make it futuristic and sort of like a neo

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Speaker 1: noir feel. We had the pink suspenders. Um, we sort

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Speaker 1: of like business bitch vibes, like a hard film mafiosa vibes.

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Speaker 1: That's the feeling. So we want to shout out Chapin

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Speaker 1: Michelle our visuals team for helping us out as far

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Speaker 1: as photography, editing, putting the posters together. Um, it's really

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Speaker 1: fun collaborating, Like we come up with the concepts, the ideas.

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Speaker 1: Robbert our makeup artists helps us like look lamb and

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Speaker 1: put it out together and that's teamwork and then it's

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Speaker 1: a beautiful thing. Yeah. Yeah, this is one of my

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Speaker 1: favorite shoots. It was definitely the most professional shoot we had.

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Speaker 1: We booked a location, we had to make up artist in,

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Speaker 1: hair stylist Robert doing everything um And it's so funny

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Speaker 1: because he asked us, like, so you'all would just do

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Speaker 1: this yourselves before and we were like, yeah, it was

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Speaker 1: a mess. But we're leveling up this year and in

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Speaker 1: one year, that's a big leap to make from doing

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Speaker 1: every little thing ourselves and like building the set in

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Speaker 1: choppin Michelle's living room, to like having a location and

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Speaker 1: all these different elements. It's a good leap. It's a

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Speaker 1: good leap. I mean, okay, I think this episode is

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Speaker 1: going to be a lot of um us ambiguously talking

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Speaker 1: about the the glow ups that we're working on that

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Speaker 1: up the aesthetics in that way. Yeah, it's exciting. It's

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Speaker 1: exciting to see the grow like from season one, like

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Speaker 1: we took our our very first episode promo picks we

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Speaker 1: took in Mala's neighborhood. Yeah, you know on my my

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Speaker 1: DSLR camera. Yes, that's all We'll say. We'll leave it

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Speaker 1: there and then we you know, did pictures at Vista

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Speaker 1: Mosta one year. We worked with Ruth and Truth another

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Speaker 1: year where we did the Pink BoA's That was like

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Speaker 1: we did. So we've just like progressively become more ridiculous

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Speaker 1: we want to thank Getty that Los Angeles for the

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Speaker 1: earrings that we're wearing in the shoot. Uh. Those are

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Speaker 1: like gold dollar sign earrings, dangly ones that were both wearing.

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Speaker 1: So shout out Getty the Los Angeles for the drip

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Speaker 1: Getty the Los Angeles dot big Cartel dot com. She

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Speaker 1: she has beautiful accessories if you want to check her out.

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Speaker 1: Thanks to her again for providing the jewels for our

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Speaker 1: Thank you for full transparency. When we realized we weren't

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Speaker 1: We are like determined to really grow this Patreon absolutely,

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Speaker 1: not hold them accountable, but as someone that works with

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Speaker 1: folks with developmental disabilities, we actually have clients that were

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Speaker 1: in a car accident and then now all of a

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Speaker 1: sudden have this developmental disability right have to be an

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Speaker 1: assisted living you know. So it's like, I don't know,

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Speaker 1: there's it would have been it would have been worth

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Speaker 1: spending time on, but it wasn't. Yeah, So you know,

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Speaker 1: the question of things like sympathy and empathy come up

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Speaker 1: and are hard to wrestle with, and um, I try

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Speaker 1: not even to necessarily go there or think about things

434
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Speaker 1: like sympathy in these cases because it's there's there's a

435
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Speaker 1: very real tragedy in like people were killed and that's

436
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Speaker 1: just a fact of of that, and we don't want

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Speaker 1: to avoid or overlook that reality. But I think that

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Speaker 1: is the point of these types of docuseries or documentaries,

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Speaker 1: not just There and Hernandez one, but you know, even

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Speaker 1: like Ted Bundy, Ted Bundy was that that was a

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Speaker 1: Netflix original too, right, it was like a Ted Bundy series,

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Speaker 1: and like all the folks on Twitter that we're like,

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Speaker 1: oh Ted Bundy was so fine or whatever that I

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Speaker 1: never understood. I don't under she was a serial killer.

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Speaker 1: Er No, but it's like we have this weird fascination

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Speaker 1: with men that are serial killers. It's true individuals. Okay. Also,

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Speaker 1: can I just say, like, if we are going to

448
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Speaker 1: talk about attractive serial killers, it's not Ted Bundy. It's

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Speaker 1: not Ted Bundy. I mean, like you know, like, of

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Speaker 1: course like not to glamorize, but if we're going to

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Speaker 1: talk about like hotties, no, one ever ever mentions Richard Ramirez.

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Speaker 1: Knew you were going to say an amazing bone structure,

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Speaker 1: was a monster, got married in prison, he had hell

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Speaker 1: of women writing to him, showing up for his court dates,

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Speaker 1: sitting in the audience, like, listen, if he wasn't a

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Speaker 1: serial killer, I would sit here and say, Richard Ramires

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Speaker 1: is a baddie, like with perfect bone structure. But you

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Speaker 1: know he was a monster and terrorised the youth side. Like,

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Speaker 1: let's not forget that. But I'm just saying, if we're

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Speaker 1: engaging in that conversation and I call bullshit, it's not sucking,

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Speaker 1: Ted Bundy, I called bullshit. This is whild I met

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Speaker 1: this out. This took I meant every word I said.

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Speaker 1: Do not edit this out? Alright, So moving on, speaking

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Speaker 1: of um, new year, same hose, how's your year treating

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Speaker 1: me so far? This has been a long January. Okay,

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00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:36,480
Speaker 1: I feel already ever ending? Yeah, um, but no, I

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00:28:36,640 --> 00:28:41,120
Speaker 1: feel like refreshed. I feel ready lots of changes coming.

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00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:45,120
Speaker 1: I feel good about it. I feel like we've been

469
00:28:45,120 --> 00:28:47,160
Speaker 1: talking so much about all the things that we're planning

470
00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:49,959
Speaker 1: in like we're also seeing it come to life already.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, Yes, we are reaping. We're reaping the

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00:28:54,600 --> 00:28:58,280
Speaker 1: benefits already. We have been sewing a lot of seeds.

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Speaker 1: And even just in the past like seventy two hours,

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Speaker 1: so many things have just come towards into the inbox.

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Speaker 1: Is a treasure trove right now, keep it coming, keep

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Speaker 1: it up. Like even like last night late I get

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00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:19,840
Speaker 1: a text from the ASA. Um what with the screenshot

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Speaker 1: containing details I will not share, but it was very exciting,

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00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:32,200
Speaker 1: you know. It was more more announcements to come, like

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Speaker 1: a lot more. But anyway, this is a good time

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Speaker 1: to share that we will be at U C. Davis

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Speaker 1: February eight and we will be doing a platica about sexuality,

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00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:48,040
Speaker 1: sex education, pleasure consent. See. Yes, there will be a

484
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Speaker 1: sex toy raffle if Davis or in the surrounding area.

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00:29:51,720 --> 00:29:56,600
Speaker 1: Definitely come through. More details to come. Um, yes, that's

486
00:29:56,640 --> 00:29:59,280
Speaker 1: going to be great. Oh. I just remembered something that

487
00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:03,000
Speaker 1: I wanted to air today. We had a little birthday

488
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Speaker 1: party for my grandpa. Happy birthday. Um, he's been stressed

489
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Speaker 1: recently because of everything going on in Puerto Rico and

490
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Speaker 1: like all of his sisters you know, live on the island,

491
00:30:13,920 --> 00:30:18,960
Speaker 1: and very weird. All these earthquakes like not normal for

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Speaker 1: the region, so people people are freaking out obviously, and

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Speaker 1: Pierre has just been through a lot with the hurricanes

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Speaker 1: and all that stuff. So anyway, so we had a

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Speaker 1: birthday party for him today, and last year, in towards

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Speaker 1: the end of the year, he said that I was

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Speaker 1: at this morning, he said, I was a chingana nice.

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Speaker 1: I like that shift and like this is a good sign.

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Speaker 1: Is looking Maybe you were in a better mood. Maybe

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Speaker 1: you've been in a better mood. I have been in

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Speaker 1: a better mood. I was. I was that year. It

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Speaker 1: was a little bit kick my ass. I'm not going

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Speaker 1: to share exactly what I went through at the end

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Speaker 1: of the year because I'm going to save that story

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Speaker 1: for something else because it's really fucking funny. But just

506
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:10,080
Speaker 1: know that I was like down for the count, like

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00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:13,600
Speaker 1: I was done. Like I stayed home for New Year's

508
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,520
Speaker 1: tried to keep me there, but I survived. I made

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Speaker 1: it to the other side. I'm here, bitch, intact one

510
00:31:22,840 --> 00:31:28,400
Speaker 1: piece that it was crazy. Oh but I downloaded Hinge

511
00:31:29,080 --> 00:31:32,480
Speaker 1: and back on the apps. Did you delete it yet? Okay? Look,

512
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Speaker 1: I asked my i G community on my story if

513
00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:39,480
Speaker 1: I should delete hinge. One hundred percent of people that

514
00:31:39,600 --> 00:31:43,560
Speaker 1: responded said yes, bitch, delete that ship or not an app.

515
00:31:44,480 --> 00:31:46,840
Speaker 1: I don't know what I need. Not an app. You

516
00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:48,840
Speaker 1: need to meet someone at the dog park. I need

517
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Speaker 1: a dog dad to help me co parent baba. You

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Speaker 1: know what I was realizing. I'm tired of being responsible

519
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:59,240
Speaker 1: for like my own survival, like my own life force,

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00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:01,840
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And I want to outsource

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00:32:02,040 --> 00:32:04,600
Speaker 1: my survival to someone else, like I need a partner

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00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:07,200
Speaker 1: to It's really nice having that, Yes, you know what

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Speaker 1: I mean, like saying, keeping myself alive is so much work,

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00:32:11,240 --> 00:32:15,840
Speaker 1: so much work. Um. Fernando often asked me like, well,

525
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Speaker 1: I thought you were a strong, independent woman, and I

526
00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:19,800
Speaker 1: always respond, no, I am not. I need you to

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Speaker 1: take care of me exactly, because that's his way of

528
00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:26,120
Speaker 1: like trying to be like, you can do this, go

529
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:28,840
Speaker 1: do that, do this, and no, I don't want to

530
00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:35,520
Speaker 1: take care of me exactly. Stomps foot. Yeah. And then

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Speaker 1: we also had the conversation of how I'm actually a brat. Yeah,

532
00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:43,560
Speaker 1: that's true, that's true, and feed her. She gets angry.

533
00:32:43,600 --> 00:32:45,560
Speaker 1: I get really angry. And I didn't know this until

534
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:49,120
Speaker 1: we started working. Oh my god, I didn't know this

535
00:32:49,200 --> 00:32:51,800
Speaker 1: about myself. I like see it coming. And if we're

536
00:32:51,840 --> 00:32:53,480
Speaker 1: like working with people, I'm like, oh my god, oh

537
00:32:53,560 --> 00:32:56,040
Speaker 1: my god, I'm god. And I like run and I

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00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:58,280
Speaker 1: like get food for her, and then I like to

539
00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:05,800
Speaker 1: bring her an offering. I'm like, please don't hurt that anyway.

540
00:33:08,320 --> 00:33:10,520
Speaker 1: I get really tired and I need snacks. I need

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Speaker 1: constant snacks. This happened to me at work this past

542
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Speaker 1: week where I didn't pack enough snacks and I'm not

543
00:33:15,360 --> 00:33:17,960
Speaker 1: really cranky. So then that same day, I went to

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Speaker 1: Trader Joe's and I bought a bunch of stuff and

545
00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:22,600
Speaker 1: I made my own trail mix that's so cute. It

546
00:33:22,720 --> 00:33:25,240
Speaker 1: was delicious. So I packed myself that all week. So

547
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:27,640
Speaker 1: I needed to have multiple snacks about the day. So

548
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:29,760
Speaker 1: I'm trying to be more on top of that so

549
00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:33,720
Speaker 1: that I'm not cranky and I'm not out buying. I

550
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:37,200
Speaker 1: spend so much money on food. I spend so much

551
00:33:37,280 --> 00:33:40,160
Speaker 1: money on food. It's so much easier to just pack

552
00:33:40,360 --> 00:33:44,200
Speaker 1: the snacks and the lunches. Pack the snacks. Yeah girl, um,

553
00:33:44,280 --> 00:33:47,959
Speaker 1: if there's any Snacks sponsors that want to place an

554
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:51,840
Speaker 1: ad here, yeah, okay, specifically, I'm going to put out

555
00:33:51,880 --> 00:33:55,040
Speaker 1: a request, you know, like the adult lunchables, the like

556
00:33:56,000 --> 00:34:00,640
Speaker 1: the portable charcooterie. Basically that's what I anybody out there,

557
00:34:01,040 --> 00:34:03,640
Speaker 1: that's the sponsorship we want. Those are the snacks we're

558
00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:08,080
Speaker 1: looking for. Those really get you through, They really do,

559
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:10,800
Speaker 1: they really really do. I'm gonna like wish, make a

560
00:34:10,840 --> 00:34:19,080
Speaker 1: wish on that. Let's hope that it comes true. Let's pray. Alright, y'all,

561
00:34:19,200 --> 00:34:21,160
Speaker 1: So we are going to get started with our last

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Speaker 1: segment of the day of this episode. Ye look as

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00:34:25,760 --> 00:34:30,239
Speaker 1: my favorite segment, the best segment. Let's see what y'all

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00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:33,120
Speaker 1: want to know about. Look as here we go. Okay,

565
00:34:33,760 --> 00:34:37,720
Speaker 1: so this first question is how do you allow yourself

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Speaker 1: to leave a job that isn't fulfilling, fulfilling, feeling that guilt,

567
00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:48,080
Speaker 1: leave a job that isn't fulfilling, feeling that guilt. Well, Um,

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Speaker 1: the second I get an offer from a job where

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00:34:52,560 --> 00:34:54,800
Speaker 1: they're offering me more money, I'm going to take it

570
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:57,400
Speaker 1: and not feel bad about it. Because we live in

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00:34:57,440 --> 00:35:02,439
Speaker 1: a capitalist society and we have to exchange our labor

572
00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:07,160
Speaker 1: for money to eat and have housing. I cannot feel guilty.

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00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:11,160
Speaker 1: I can't feel guilty. Yeah, and also because your employer

574
00:35:11,200 --> 00:35:16,279
Speaker 1: will replace you easily, immediately. Immediately, they will replace you.

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00:35:17,040 --> 00:35:22,640
Speaker 1: So I wouldn't feel guilty if you are in a

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00:35:22,719 --> 00:35:26,879
Speaker 1: position to leave without having another job lined up, meaning

577
00:35:26,960 --> 00:35:31,120
Speaker 1: you have enough savings, you have you know, housing is secure,

578
00:35:31,200 --> 00:35:33,520
Speaker 1: all those different things like that's an option for you.

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00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:36,080
Speaker 1: I would definitely explore that. If it's not, then I

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00:35:36,120 --> 00:35:40,480
Speaker 1: would start applying to new jobs. And also, I think

581
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:43,400
Speaker 1: it's important to be it's okay to be picky about

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00:35:43,440 --> 00:35:45,200
Speaker 1: the jobs that we applied to and even the jobs

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00:35:45,280 --> 00:35:47,600
Speaker 1: we accept. I know, the very first job that I

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00:35:47,640 --> 00:35:51,000
Speaker 1: applied to out of college, it seemed amazing, um, and

585
00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:53,520
Speaker 1: it was also my first job off for ever, and

586
00:35:53,640 --> 00:35:56,319
Speaker 1: I thought, well, how can I not accept this right?

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00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:59,759
Speaker 1: Even though the pay was decent, it was okay, it

588
00:35:59,880 --> 00:36:02,759
Speaker 1: was isn't great, um, but it was my first job offer.

589
00:36:02,880 --> 00:36:05,359
Speaker 1: And I could have waited and kept going and looking

590
00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:08,200
Speaker 1: and applying. But there's like so many things that play

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00:36:08,400 --> 00:36:10,600
Speaker 1: like if you've come from a working class background, if

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00:36:10,600 --> 00:36:12,480
Speaker 1: you're an immigrant, if you're all these different you know,

593
00:36:12,520 --> 00:36:15,360
Speaker 1: there's these different things, so many things, so many layers,

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00:36:15,640 --> 00:36:18,239
Speaker 1: which kind of just makes you accept these jobs and

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00:36:18,320 --> 00:36:20,239
Speaker 1: maybe aren't good for you in the long run. I mean,

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00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:23,080
Speaker 1: if you're able to, I'm like, do what you gotta

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00:36:23,160 --> 00:36:27,120
Speaker 1: do to survive and to achieve as much happiness as

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00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:30,280
Speaker 1: you can. Like, if you can maximize income and happiness

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00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:32,480
Speaker 1: at the same time, do it, do it, you know

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Speaker 1: what I mean. But if you've got to kind of

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00:36:34,360 --> 00:36:37,600
Speaker 1: hustle and get out of a bad environment in order

602
00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:41,520
Speaker 1: to maximize your happiness, sometimes you have to like sacrifice

603
00:36:41,520 --> 00:36:46,879
Speaker 1: some one area right to increase your happiness and overall productivity.

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00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:50,680
Speaker 1: Sometimes in other areas, if you hate your job, you're

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00:36:50,719 --> 00:36:54,960
Speaker 1: not necessarily actually like working, you know. Like you could

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00:36:54,960 --> 00:36:56,480
Speaker 1: be at a job and just hate it and not

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00:36:56,640 --> 00:37:00,480
Speaker 1: do shit. Yep, that's a thing, you know. Or you

608
00:37:00,520 --> 00:37:03,239
Speaker 1: could be at a job where they're just completely overworking you,

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00:37:04,120 --> 00:37:08,600
Speaker 1: you know. And so even for health reasons, it's always

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00:37:08,840 --> 00:37:12,600
Speaker 1: okay to choose your health over a stressful or unhealthy

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00:37:12,640 --> 00:37:15,080
Speaker 1: work environment. I agree, I mean always. I feel guilty

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00:37:15,160 --> 00:37:17,680
Speaker 1: taking a sick day. I feel guilty taking time off,

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00:37:18,480 --> 00:37:20,880
Speaker 1: Like I really that makes me feel guilty. But I

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00:37:21,000 --> 00:37:23,960
Speaker 1: like try to remind myself, like this is literally a

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00:37:24,040 --> 00:37:28,280
Speaker 1: lotted to me. I get sick days, I get paid vacation.

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00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:31,160
Speaker 1: Not everyone does, right, So I should use it. I

617
00:37:31,280 --> 00:37:34,600
Speaker 1: need to use it. It's here. If I don't use it,

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00:37:35,360 --> 00:37:38,640
Speaker 1: nobody else is going to use it. It's gonna not rollovers.

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Speaker 1: It's not. It's what's the point. I saw a tweet

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00:37:43,160 --> 00:37:45,000
Speaker 1: ones Oh my god, I hate that we reference Twitter

621
00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:49,960
Speaker 1: so much, but it's a thing we are um to

622
00:37:50,040 --> 00:37:53,920
Speaker 1: put things in perspective. This tweet was like, literally, if

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00:37:53,960 --> 00:37:57,719
Speaker 1: you were to die the next day, your employer is

624
00:37:57,800 --> 00:38:02,160
Speaker 1: like posting your job to be filled. They do not

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00:38:02,320 --> 00:38:05,839
Speaker 1: give a ship. The individual human people that you call

626
00:38:05,960 --> 00:38:10,320
Speaker 1: coworkers you might form relationships with, but the job, the company,

627
00:38:11,040 --> 00:38:16,400
Speaker 1: the organization, the infrastructure, the machine does not care. The

628
00:38:16,480 --> 00:38:21,080
Speaker 1: machine is feeling and needs to keep churning out product,

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Speaker 1: whatever it is. So you know, yeah, we're also in

630
00:38:27,920 --> 00:38:29,839
Speaker 1: like the position of we want to quit our jobs

631
00:38:29,920 --> 00:38:33,680
Speaker 1: to do this whole time in the mindset, in the mindset,

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00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:36,840
Speaker 1: in mind that that's our energy, right yeah, and that

633
00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:39,520
Speaker 1: we're not saying go quit your job, you know, not

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00:38:40,040 --> 00:38:46,040
Speaker 1: site us and say that, because watch we have there

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00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:49,520
Speaker 1: are a lot of creatives who like jump into the

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00:38:49,760 --> 00:38:54,000
Speaker 1: abyss and quit their jobs without necessarily having a plan.

637
00:38:54,640 --> 00:38:56,560
Speaker 1: That's a way to do it. Some people do that.

638
00:38:57,200 --> 00:38:59,279
Speaker 1: We have not done that. We still work full time

639
00:38:59,520 --> 00:39:01,040
Speaker 1: and do all of this, you know what I mean,

640
00:39:01,160 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 1: because we cannot be without income. We can't just we don't.

641
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:09,960
Speaker 1: We we don't have safety nets like that. There's nobody

642
00:39:10,320 --> 00:39:14,120
Speaker 1: paying our bills for us. We we don't have like

643
00:39:14,719 --> 00:39:20,160
Speaker 1: inheritance behind us. We don't have like, um, what's it

644
00:39:20,200 --> 00:39:24,680
Speaker 1: called generational wealth, so you know, like our parents don't

645
00:39:25,360 --> 00:39:30,360
Speaker 1: support us. So we have been working like triple time,

646
00:39:31,719 --> 00:39:33,719
Speaker 1: and we're only going to quit our jobs when we

647
00:39:33,760 --> 00:39:37,239
Speaker 1: are in a position to financially. So we would never

648
00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:39,520
Speaker 1: we never encourage people, Oh yeah, just quit your job,

649
00:39:39,560 --> 00:39:41,600
Speaker 1: follow your dream, no bitch, make sure you can pay

650
00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:45,319
Speaker 1: your bills and you can eat literally, yeah, you know, yeah,

651
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:47,800
Speaker 1: they sit and see it's hot. Because we're also of

652
00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:52,440
Speaker 1: the generation where like as millennials, it is said statistically

653
00:39:52,520 --> 00:39:55,600
Speaker 1: that like the majority of us only have a thousand

654
00:39:55,640 --> 00:39:58,359
Speaker 1: dollars in our savings account. And that's like even if

655
00:39:58,400 --> 00:40:00,560
Speaker 1: you have a savings account, because so many of us

656
00:40:00,600 --> 00:40:03,160
Speaker 1: can't even do not put money away right we have,

657
00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:08,560
Speaker 1: We literally spend it all on bills, student loan, debt, healthcare, rent,

658
00:40:08,800 --> 00:40:11,480
Speaker 1: like all these different things, gas, especially if you live here,

659
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:16,080
Speaker 1: so it is advised that you do have six months

660
00:40:16,280 --> 00:40:20,160
Speaker 1: worth of living expensive in your savings, and who and

661
00:40:20,239 --> 00:40:22,120
Speaker 1: who has that? I don't know who has that. I

662
00:40:22,320 --> 00:40:24,600
Speaker 1: know anybody that has that. It's also crazy because I

663
00:40:24,719 --> 00:40:26,880
Speaker 1: was explaining this to my partner because he doesn't have

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00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:30,000
Speaker 1: student loans. He didn't qualify for student loans for any

665
00:40:30,040 --> 00:40:33,239
Speaker 1: different reasons. So even if I were to get a raise,

666
00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:35,920
Speaker 1: Let's say I was to get a ten percent increase

667
00:40:35,960 --> 00:40:38,719
Speaker 1: in my salary, I would then have to report that

668
00:40:39,440 --> 00:40:43,560
Speaker 1: to my federal loans and private loans, and then my

669
00:40:43,640 --> 00:40:47,120
Speaker 1: payment will increase. So even if I making more money,

670
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:48,920
Speaker 1: more of it is going to get allotted to my

671
00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:51,880
Speaker 1: student loans. So I still can't put anything into my savings.

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00:40:52,080 --> 00:40:54,560
Speaker 1: It's a fucking mess. And then what's crazy to me

673
00:40:55,200 --> 00:40:59,719
Speaker 1: is sometimes having the loans and paying on them is

674
00:40:59,760 --> 00:41:02,160
Speaker 1: what boost our credit. I know that's the case for me,

675
00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:05,440
Speaker 1: that I've been paying on these loans monthly for years

676
00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:08,920
Speaker 1: and it actually is a benefit to my credit. And

677
00:41:09,040 --> 00:41:11,840
Speaker 1: then hearing about people once they pay off their loans

678
00:41:11,920 --> 00:41:14,719
Speaker 1: now their credit is negatively affected because now they're no

679
00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:20,600
Speaker 1: longer making those monthly high payments. You know what I mean?

680
00:41:20,840 --> 00:41:24,400
Speaker 1: How do you offset that. I don't know. We need

681
00:41:24,440 --> 00:41:28,920
Speaker 1: an accountant. That's the other thing we needed ant, A

682
00:41:29,120 --> 00:41:32,120
Speaker 1: good one, A good one. You know how to handle

683
00:41:35,080 --> 00:41:37,520
Speaker 1: whatever it is that we do it. If you know

684
00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:40,000
Speaker 1: how to handle this. We have W two and we

685
00:41:40,080 --> 00:41:44,879
Speaker 1: have we do so it's like a mess. It's it's

686
00:41:45,120 --> 00:41:47,840
Speaker 1: it's it's all over the place. So we need a

687
00:41:47,880 --> 00:41:50,320
Speaker 1: little help if you know an accountant out there, not

688
00:41:50,520 --> 00:41:53,600
Speaker 1: W two. We have W nine's and we have all

689
00:41:53,640 --> 00:41:57,879
Speaker 1: those thing of it. So hit us up. Come through. Anyways,

690
00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:02,760
Speaker 1: next as we went in, we went off on a tangent.

691
00:42:03,560 --> 00:42:10,720
Speaker 1: You can really tell we feel ways about employment. My god. Yeah, anyway,

692
00:42:11,880 --> 00:42:15,040
Speaker 1: this question with an eating disorder, what do you think

693
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:17,920
Speaker 1: is the best way to deal with food as a Latina?

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00:42:18,360 --> 00:42:22,160
Speaker 1: Oh my god. I appreciate when these questions come up.

695
00:42:22,160 --> 00:42:24,120
Speaker 1: They do come up a lot for us, um, which

696
00:42:24,200 --> 00:42:26,480
Speaker 1: is valid because it's something we all deal with. But

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00:42:26,760 --> 00:42:30,560
Speaker 1: I don't I feel like I give a different answer

698
00:42:30,760 --> 00:42:33,399
Speaker 1: each time each time this question comes up. I don't

699
00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:36,920
Speaker 1: remember what my position is on this. Okay, well you

700
00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:38,959
Speaker 1: think about it. I'm going to answer. Go for it, Okay,

701
00:42:39,040 --> 00:42:40,959
Speaker 1: for it. So I have been thinking a lot about

702
00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:43,279
Speaker 1: intuitive eating and I have been trying to practice that.

703
00:42:43,840 --> 00:42:46,680
Speaker 1: So just letting your body tell you what it is

704
00:42:46,719 --> 00:42:49,800
Speaker 1: that you want and giving it that. And for me

705
00:42:49,920 --> 00:42:52,840
Speaker 1: that's helped because I have been like on a consistent

706
00:42:52,960 --> 00:42:55,920
Speaker 1: gym routine for the past three months. But I'm so

707
00:42:56,040 --> 00:42:58,080
Speaker 1: then I'm in diet culture and I'm in gym culture,

708
00:42:58,200 --> 00:43:00,680
Speaker 1: and then it becomes it can become are toxic if

709
00:43:00,719 --> 00:43:03,640
Speaker 1: you're recovering from an eating disorder. So I'm very cognizant

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00:43:03,719 --> 00:43:08,200
Speaker 1: of not getting into any like boot camps like um

711
00:43:08,880 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 1: what are they called um like fitness like six week

712
00:43:11,760 --> 00:43:15,600
Speaker 1: challenges type of thing, finish challenge challenges because they're all

713
00:43:15,719 --> 00:43:19,680
Speaker 1: about calorie counting and they offer you quote nutrition. But

714
00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:22,279
Speaker 1: it's really just it's not good if you've had an

715
00:43:22,320 --> 00:43:28,000
Speaker 1: eating disorder because it just will spiral into an eating

716
00:43:28,040 --> 00:43:32,400
Speaker 1: disorder once again. It's just hyper controlled eating is a

717
00:43:32,520 --> 00:43:36,080
Speaker 1: stepping stone, it really is. It's it's it's its own

718
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:40,759
Speaker 1: type of orthorexia. And even thinking about the fact that

719
00:43:40,920 --> 00:43:45,880
Speaker 1: those fitness things are framed as challenges and kind of

720
00:43:46,680 --> 00:43:51,319
Speaker 1: making people compete against their own bodies and metabolism, it's

721
00:43:51,440 --> 00:43:54,520
Speaker 1: very weird, like who really is winning? But any and

722
00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:57,000
Speaker 1: as we know, those things are like not sustainable, and

723
00:43:57,239 --> 00:43:59,960
Speaker 1: rapid weight loss is not something that you can keep

724
00:44:00,120 --> 00:44:02,719
Speaker 1: up with. You will gain the weight back if that's

725
00:44:03,120 --> 00:44:05,399
Speaker 1: if you're losing weight as a result of those things,

726
00:44:05,520 --> 00:44:09,359
Speaker 1: and it's just not organic, you know what I mean,

727
00:44:09,440 --> 00:44:13,440
Speaker 1: it's very forced. Um, I don't think I know the

728
00:44:13,560 --> 00:44:17,520
Speaker 1: best way to deal with food as a Latina in general, like,

729
00:44:18,000 --> 00:44:21,120
Speaker 1: even if you don't necessarily have a history of eating disorders, Like,

730
00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:25,400
Speaker 1: I think it's a constant battle because there's such a

731
00:44:25,480 --> 00:44:30,640
Speaker 1: deeply entrenched cultural like norm of commenting on people's bodies,

732
00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:34,759
Speaker 1: and especially women's bodies and weight and dress and and

733
00:44:35,120 --> 00:44:36,920
Speaker 1: presentation and the way we walk and the way we

734
00:44:37,040 --> 00:44:39,600
Speaker 1: sit and the way we do our makeup, Like, there

735
00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:45,040
Speaker 1: is constant commentary. So for me personally, especially because I

736
00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:48,440
Speaker 1: live with a lot of older people, and you know,

737
00:44:48,520 --> 00:44:54,760
Speaker 1: it's very hard to like change people's perspectives and minds

738
00:44:54,880 --> 00:44:59,359
Speaker 1: and ways of communicating. I don't try and do so much.

739
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:02,120
Speaker 1: When I was younger, I tried doing like educating and

740
00:45:02,719 --> 00:45:04,960
Speaker 1: boundary setting and that worked for a little bit, but

741
00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:08,279
Speaker 1: you know, they're very set in their ways and they

742
00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:11,560
Speaker 1: forget they're so old. My poor grandparents, you know, and

743
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:14,080
Speaker 1: my parents too in their own way. So I just

744
00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:17,880
Speaker 1: kind of like, I'm desensitized to things. I just let

745
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:20,160
Speaker 1: things roll off me. They really don't comment on my

746
00:45:20,239 --> 00:45:23,279
Speaker 1: body anymore, but they what they do a lot of

747
00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:25,400
Speaker 1: is like, oh, don't worry like this, this won't make

748
00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:28,680
Speaker 1: you fat. There's a lot of that stuff. There's a

749
00:45:28,719 --> 00:45:31,719
Speaker 1: lot of that stuff for like, oh, like if I

750
00:45:31,800 --> 00:45:36,120
Speaker 1: don't want a secondthea, it's like, oh, she's watching her figure.

751
00:45:36,200 --> 00:45:38,960
Speaker 1: There's always that sort of commentary. And so it's not

752
00:45:39,160 --> 00:45:44,479
Speaker 1: like direct and intentionally like malicious, but it's still there.

753
00:45:45,320 --> 00:45:47,080
Speaker 1: And so in the past I might have said like, well,

754
00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:48,800
Speaker 1: maybe I want to gain weight, but now I just

755
00:45:49,360 --> 00:45:52,400
Speaker 1: I don't even need to say anything, you know what

756
00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:54,600
Speaker 1: I mean. Well, maybe that's my goal. Maybe I do

757
00:45:54,680 --> 00:45:56,120
Speaker 1: want to gain weight, Maybe I will, you know what

758
00:45:56,160 --> 00:45:59,799
Speaker 1: I mean. Now, I'm just like, what can one even

759
00:46:00,160 --> 00:46:03,520
Speaker 1: I'm tired, what can one even say? It doesn't matter? Um, Well,

760
00:46:03,600 --> 00:46:07,120
Speaker 1: I wanted to plug this uh Latina that I follow

761
00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:10,319
Speaker 1: on Instagram that's a nutritionist and she talks a lot

762
00:46:10,360 --> 00:46:14,120
Speaker 1: about recovery eating to sort of recovery and intuitive eating.

763
00:46:14,440 --> 00:46:16,480
Speaker 1: So I just wanted to shout her out because I'm

764
00:46:16,520 --> 00:46:20,359
Speaker 1: following her, and she can definitely you can learn more

765
00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:23,640
Speaker 1: about this subject because she is able to talk about it.

766
00:46:24,160 --> 00:46:28,759
Speaker 1: So your dot Latina dot nutritionist and she's a dominicana

767
00:46:28,800 --> 00:46:31,840
Speaker 1: and she has like really cool graphics that she makes,

768
00:46:32,840 --> 00:46:35,560
Speaker 1: and especially during the holidays, she was like posting a

769
00:46:35,640 --> 00:46:39,560
Speaker 1: lot about like it's okay to eat, you know, for

770
00:46:39,640 --> 00:46:41,600
Speaker 1: the holidays, Like it's okay, you know, So like all

771
00:46:41,640 --> 00:46:45,480
Speaker 1: those different things of normalizing eating because it is normal

772
00:46:45,960 --> 00:46:49,920
Speaker 1: and it's weird because it's like we make tons of

773
00:46:50,040 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 1: food and then at family gatherings there's tons of food, right,

774
00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:57,400
Speaker 1: but then we can't but then I did, I'm like

775
00:46:57,520 --> 00:46:59,279
Speaker 1: not supposed to eat it or I can't eat it

776
00:46:59,400 --> 00:47:04,920
Speaker 1: without some sideways commentary. It's very frustrating, but I'm like,

777
00:47:05,080 --> 00:47:08,879
Speaker 1: this is our culture and I am but one bitty bitch,

778
00:47:09,080 --> 00:47:12,640
Speaker 1: and I can't change the entire thing. I can only

779
00:47:12,760 --> 00:47:17,840
Speaker 1: control my little spear, you know, Yes, I agree, and

780
00:47:18,040 --> 00:47:22,000
Speaker 1: just control my language when I'm talking about food, you know,

781
00:47:22,800 --> 00:47:26,759
Speaker 1: and try and lead by example. You know. I'm just

782
00:47:26,880 --> 00:47:31,000
Speaker 1: tired over it's been so many years. It's st a lot.

783
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:35,320
Speaker 1: Yeah right now I'm like trying to I'm ok making

784
00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:37,680
Speaker 1: it okay and normalizing it to myself that I don't

785
00:47:37,719 --> 00:47:39,400
Speaker 1: have to go to the gym every day because I

786
00:47:39,520 --> 00:47:41,400
Speaker 1: used to be like when Mole and I started recording,

787
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:44,760
Speaker 1: I had a trainer, Like I was very hyper like active,

788
00:47:46,719 --> 00:47:50,680
Speaker 1: had a trainer, um and all of that. So okay

789
00:47:50,760 --> 00:47:52,440
Speaker 1: that I don't go to the gym five days a

790
00:47:52,480 --> 00:47:54,799
Speaker 1: week and really go to days two days. There really

791
00:47:54,880 --> 00:47:56,680
Speaker 1: is one day or not at all that week, and

792
00:47:56,760 --> 00:48:00,480
Speaker 1: it's fine. So just like normalizing your just jans and

793
00:48:00,640 --> 00:48:04,279
Speaker 1: like letting yourself know is okay. Yeah, that helps absolutely

794
00:48:04,360 --> 00:48:10,320
Speaker 1: at Thank you for that question. Last question, this is

795
00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:13,800
Speaker 1: a spicy one, and our listeners are constantly trying to

796
00:48:13,960 --> 00:48:17,399
Speaker 1: get us to fight each other on air. Don't think

797
00:48:17,480 --> 00:48:23,920
Speaker 1: we don't notice. What read the question? These instigators, what

798
00:48:24,160 --> 00:48:28,399
Speaker 1: is your favorite and least favorite thing about each other?

799
00:48:28,840 --> 00:48:36,319
Speaker 1: You believe let's start with least favorite. Okay, Well, they

800
00:48:36,400 --> 00:48:38,000
Speaker 1: really want to see a fight. They want to see

801
00:48:38,040 --> 00:48:39,719
Speaker 1: a fight. I'm here, We'll give them. We'll give them

802
00:48:39,760 --> 00:48:44,360
Speaker 1: a fight. Give them a fight, will you go for?

803
00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:48,680
Speaker 1: It's about to be what a girl fighting? Okay, honestly,

804
00:48:48,719 --> 00:48:52,680
Speaker 1: don't make me do this. I don't want to starts

805
00:48:52,760 --> 00:48:58,320
Speaker 1: the year like feuding, we disband like the friendship is ruins.

806
00:49:01,800 --> 00:49:06,680
Speaker 1: We like no no, no, no, no okay, um okay,

807
00:49:07,040 --> 00:49:11,839
Speaker 1: no you start, you say you say something, okay, um

808
00:49:12,280 --> 00:49:17,360
Speaker 1: let's see. Okay, my, what do you hate about me? Most?

809
00:49:17,640 --> 00:49:24,920
Speaker 1: You know what I hate about you? Nothing? Um okay,

810
00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:31,239
Speaker 1: Well we both do this, but what we both do this.

811
00:49:31,320 --> 00:49:34,640
Speaker 1: But if I had to pick one thing, I would

812
00:49:34,760 --> 00:49:40,600
Speaker 1: say that, Um, we and by we I meet you

813
00:49:41,719 --> 00:49:44,879
Speaker 1: run a little late. Yeah yeah, I mean I think

814
00:49:44,920 --> 00:49:49,480
Speaker 1: we run late at the same rate, and it's like,

815
00:49:49,640 --> 00:49:52,160
Speaker 1: you know, life happens. We live far away from each other.

816
00:49:52,920 --> 00:49:55,279
Speaker 1: Um yeah, I would say the same thing. That's it.

817
00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:59,359
Speaker 1: Nothing else. Never asked that question again. Okay, now what's

818
00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:03,279
Speaker 1: your favorite thing? Okay? My favorite thing about Mala. This

819
00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:06,800
Speaker 1: is easier. It's like, let me count the weight. The

820
00:50:06,920 --> 00:50:09,279
Speaker 1: first thing that I love about Mama. My favorite thing

821
00:50:09,320 --> 00:50:13,200
Speaker 1: about her is her eloquence. She is a really good

822
00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:16,920
Speaker 1: speaker wherever we go, whenever we do presentations, even on

823
00:50:16,960 --> 00:50:20,120
Speaker 1: the podcast. You have this way of just getting your

824
00:50:20,239 --> 00:50:23,880
Speaker 1: thoughts out so beautifully. Thank you, And that's one of

825
00:50:23,960 --> 00:50:29,240
Speaker 1: my favorite things about you. That's really nice. So that's beautiful.

826
00:50:30,160 --> 00:50:34,320
Speaker 1: Oh my goodness. There are so many wonderful qualities about you.

827
00:50:36,520 --> 00:50:40,319
Speaker 1: You have so many fabulous attributes, but I would say

828
00:50:40,400 --> 00:50:46,400
Speaker 1: that you are very very very perceptive and intuitive and

829
00:50:46,520 --> 00:50:49,799
Speaker 1: you notice things and catch on and like if there's

830
00:50:49,840 --> 00:50:53,000
Speaker 1: like a little hint of a of a clue of

831
00:50:53,560 --> 00:50:57,040
Speaker 1: a thing, you like see it right away. Like Fosa

832
00:50:57,120 --> 00:50:59,239
Speaker 1: is always sending me like her little oh Heath those

833
00:50:59,280 --> 00:51:02,520
Speaker 1: are always is always on the timeline like and she

834
00:51:02,719 --> 00:51:06,280
Speaker 1: peeps every Yes, I see it all and she sends

835
00:51:06,320 --> 00:51:11,040
Speaker 1: me things and I'm like all day. No, you're like

836
00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:16,080
Speaker 1: a low key detective. You're very sharp. You're very sharp.

837
00:51:16,160 --> 00:51:18,759
Speaker 1: I will piece it together accurately in a well yeah,

838
00:51:18,840 --> 00:51:25,480
Speaker 1: and I'm like, what, thanks crime solver. Well thanks girls, yeah,

839
00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:30,799
Speaker 1: thank you asked us questions like that, Yeah, hater, hater,

840
00:51:31,080 --> 00:51:35,320
Speaker 1: least favorite thing about each other? You'll find this account.

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00:51:35,920 --> 00:51:39,680
Speaker 1: I'm gonna block you right now, just killing you. Love

842
00:51:39,760 --> 00:51:44,960
Speaker 1: you so much. No, but seriously send us spicy questions. Um,

843
00:51:45,920 --> 00:51:49,120
Speaker 1: they tickle us. Yes, they're very funny. Yes, one time

844
00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:52,440
Speaker 1: we got to what's your least favorite? And we were like,

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Speaker 1: Doesn't make it make sense anyways, So, I mean, wow,

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Speaker 1: been really fun. It's been fun. This was a fun episode. Okay,

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Speaker 1: question do you all want this season to our listeners?

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Speaker 1: Do you all want more interviews? Less interviews? Right? What

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Speaker 1: do you what do you want you want from season four?

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Speaker 1: What do you want from it? We have like some

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Speaker 1: interviews planned. We love interviewing folks that are like doing

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Speaker 1: amazing work. And we're also wanting new segments this year.

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Speaker 1: Yes on the pod, so that will to keep it new,

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Speaker 1: to keep it fresh, have some new people, have some

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Speaker 1: new guests as well. But yeah, I mean, what do

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Speaker 1: in mind that you've always wanted us to interview? Do

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Speaker 1: you have topics in mind you've always wanted to hear

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Speaker 1: us discuss? Um? Let us know. Also, remember that we're

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Speaker 1: still indie. We're indie. This is still free. Um. If

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Speaker 1: You're at over five star ratings, woo woot. And we

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Speaker 1: have lots of beautiful comments. So you know, give us

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Speaker 1: We're greedy little bitches and we want more. Yes, we

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Speaker 1: well this has been the very first season four seventies six.

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