WEBVTT - Mid-Week Mom Chat: Breast Feeding/ Pumping/ Formula.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, friends, welcome to this midweek mom chat. I am

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<v Speaker 1>going to be talking to you about breastfeeding, pumping, feeding,

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<v Speaker 1>all of it. So I've been reluctant to do this

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<v Speaker 1>episode even though I get so many messages from you

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<v Speaker 1>amazing ladies about breastfeeding and feeding in general and what

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<v Speaker 1>my schedule is, um, how we do it, because to

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<v Speaker 1>be honest with you, it has changed weekly. I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like every single week of Sunny's four and a half

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<v Speaker 1>month life, we've done kind of something different. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes I'll get in a groove for like a few weeks,

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<v Speaker 1>but it is evolving and changing, and I'm sure that

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<v Speaker 1>you all feel that same way. So when Sunny was

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<v Speaker 1>first born, I actually did a whole episode on this

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<v Speaker 1>when she was firstborn, like within the first month of

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<v Speaker 1>her life, and then I deleted it and never posted

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<v Speaker 1>it because I changed. I was we changed right after that,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was like, this isn't what we're doing anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't post this. So I wanted to start with

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<v Speaker 1>that it changes all the time. And if you're trying

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<v Speaker 1>to find your groove and you feel like you can't

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<v Speaker 1>find your groove, UM, just know that's how I am

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<v Speaker 1>also I've sort of found a groove, and I'll get like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh yeah, I'm in my groove, and then my group

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<v Speaker 1>just changed last week, so my supply dropped last week.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I was having this excess supply, feeling so confident

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<v Speaker 1>and my milk supply, and then all of a sudden,

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<v Speaker 1>I cannot make enough bottles to save my life. So

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<v Speaker 1>I'll be trying something new starting today. So let me

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<v Speaker 1>just get into it. When she was first born, UM,

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<v Speaker 1>I was only breastfeeding. I breastfed her. She latched right away.

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<v Speaker 1>It was awesome. But she would only feed for like

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<v Speaker 1>ten minutes on one side and then maybe five minutes

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<v Speaker 1>on the other side, which was totally cool when she

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<v Speaker 1>was just a little bitty baby because she wasn't needing

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<v Speaker 1>that many ounces, and we did that probably for the

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<v Speaker 1>exclusively UM, and I would time it. I would try

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<v Speaker 1>to make it even on both sides. My night nurse

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<v Speaker 1>did tell me that you should try to feed as

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<v Speaker 1>much as you can on one breast because your breast

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<v Speaker 1>milk is like layers. And Paula Power as my night

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<v Speaker 1>nurse at Nashville Baby Boss. She's the best. UM. Check

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<v Speaker 1>her out if you are in Nashville. And need and

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<v Speaker 1>you need a night nurse. She totally changed the game

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<v Speaker 1>for me and taught me everything I needed to know

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<v Speaker 1>about parenting, being a mom, baby schedules. I actually have

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<v Speaker 1>a podcast up with her, so check that one out. Um. So,

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<v Speaker 1>she told me that your breast milk comes in layers,

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<v Speaker 1>Like the first little bit that your baby is getting

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<v Speaker 1>is the skim milk, and then you have like the

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<v Speaker 1>two percent, and then you have the good whole milk

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<v Speaker 1>at the end. So you want to feed on one

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<v Speaker 1>breast as long as you can, preferably until empty. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't want to necessary switch at like half. You

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to just switch in the middle and just

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<v Speaker 1>go to the other boob, because you want to keep

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<v Speaker 1>it even. You want to go ahead and get that

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<v Speaker 1>one breast all the way empty because that's where the good, strong,

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<v Speaker 1>thick milk is. I would never have known that. So

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<v Speaker 1>I would try to feed as long as I can

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<v Speaker 1>on one boob until I until it was as empty

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<v Speaker 1>as I could get it, and then I would just

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<v Speaker 1>top off the other one. Um top signing off with

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<v Speaker 1>the other boob. So we did that for the first

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<v Speaker 1>solid month to two months, and it was great. I

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<v Speaker 1>was only breastfeeding, although actually that's not true. See this

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<v Speaker 1>is what I'm telling you, It changes all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>At about when she turned one month, I started working

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<v Speaker 1>in bottles, and so I would be I would breastfeed only,

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<v Speaker 1>but then I would pump like once a day. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>During that time, I would pump like after her first feeding. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>I would pump, and I was still only breastfeeding. In

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<v Speaker 1>the beginning with, I would pump and I was building

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<v Speaker 1>up a supply. And then about one month I started

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<v Speaker 1>working in bottles and what I would do then as

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<v Speaker 1>I would breastfeed her and I would top her off

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<v Speaker 1>with a bottle afterwards, just to make sure she was

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<v Speaker 1>getting enough, and she would always take like an ounce

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<v Speaker 1>or two. So I felt really good about that. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, Okay, this is good. I just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>make sure she's getting enough milk. So we did that

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<v Speaker 1>for about the first month. In the second month, we

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<v Speaker 1>really started working hard on trying to get her to

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<v Speaker 1>sleep through the night, because that was a huge priority

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<v Speaker 1>for me being an older mom. I have seeing so

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<v Speaker 1>many and my friends struggle with getting their children to sleep,

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<v Speaker 1>and so that's why I hired Paula Power My Night

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<v Speaker 1>nurse um to really teach me how to set up

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<v Speaker 1>methods for Sonny to sleep well, and she knocked it

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<v Speaker 1>off the park. And Sonny is an incredible sleeper and

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<v Speaker 1>I's been sleeping through the nights and she's two months old.

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<v Speaker 1>And I owe all of that to Paula for teaching

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<v Speaker 1>Sonny and me how to get on a great rhythm

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<v Speaker 1>and routine. So at two months, I started working in

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<v Speaker 1>bottles because she was having that middle of the night

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<v Speaker 1>feeding at like three am, and if I would breastfeeder,

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<v Speaker 1>she would just eat for like five minutes and then

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<v Speaker 1>go back to sleep. If I would bottle feeder, she

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<v Speaker 1>would eat the full bottle. And I think at that

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<v Speaker 1>point she was eating four ounces um, so she would

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<v Speaker 1>eat the full bottle and I wanted her to get

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<v Speaker 1>that full bottle so she would sleep the rest of

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<v Speaker 1>the night. And I also around two months started giving

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<v Speaker 1>her a bottle as the last feeding of the day only,

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<v Speaker 1>so instead of feeding her on my boob that last

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<v Speaker 1>feeding of the day, around two months, I would feed

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<v Speaker 1>her a bottle because I wanted her to get a

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<v Speaker 1>full feeding before entering into the night's sleep. Because we

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<v Speaker 1>were really working hard to get her to sleep through

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<v Speaker 1>the night. So we did that and it started working

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<v Speaker 1>and she started sleeping through the night and we dropped

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<v Speaker 1>that middle feeding. So I actually if she started sleeping

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<v Speaker 1>through the night at two months, we probably started doing

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<v Speaker 1>that around a month and a half, where I was

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<v Speaker 1>giving her a bottle. At two months, I mean at

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<v Speaker 1>the end of the day her last feeding, and then

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<v Speaker 1>in the middle of the night feeding, I was giving

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<v Speaker 1>her two bottles without breastfeeding. So that's what we did

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<v Speaker 1>probably starting a month and a half, and then at

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<v Speaker 1>two months I was just giving her a bottle only

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<v Speaker 1>at that last feeding. I was breastfeeding all day, topping

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<v Speaker 1>off with a bottle to see if she wanted any,

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<v Speaker 1>and then that last feeding of the day before bedtime,

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<v Speaker 1>I would give her a bottle. Okay, So now we're

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<v Speaker 1>at two months. Um the book I'm following is Moms

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<v Speaker 1>on Call, and I can't remember exactly what It's so

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<v Speaker 1>crazy how you forget so fast because now we're at

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<v Speaker 1>four months and we're on a I'm on this schedule,

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<v Speaker 1>so I can't totally remember the schedule that we were doing,

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<v Speaker 1>but I think it's always been about five bottles that

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<v Speaker 1>we give her UM or five feedings, and so I

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<v Speaker 1>just really go by those feedings and I will make

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<v Speaker 1>sure that I give her um whatever the ounces is

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<v Speaker 1>that she's supposed to be getting based on her age.

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<v Speaker 1>I would really work hard to make sure she got those,

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<v Speaker 1>and I would I kind of figured out how many

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<v Speaker 1>ounces are in my breast because I would pump them,

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<v Speaker 1>and I would know, like when you pump that you

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<v Speaker 1>start to learn your boobs. So like in the morning,

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<v Speaker 1>they're my mostful because I do. I pump at ten

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<v Speaker 1>thirty at night and then I go all night and

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<v Speaker 1>I won't pump again until like eight thirty in the

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<v Speaker 1>morning because Sunny wakes up. She is a great sleeper,

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<v Speaker 1>so she'll wake up like seven thirty or eight, and

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<v Speaker 1>I always feed her first and get her on her

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<v Speaker 1>play mat, and then I'll pump afterwards. And so my

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<v Speaker 1>and so I had been just strictly pumping and doing

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<v Speaker 1>bottles for this past few weeks, but now we're back

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<v Speaker 1>to breastfeeding again. So I'll talk about that because it

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<v Speaker 1>changes every single day. So I would pump in the

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<v Speaker 1>morning and I would get I mean, I would get

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of milk. I'm talking like eight or nine

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<v Speaker 1>ounces in my power boob, which is my left boob,

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<v Speaker 1>and then like five ounces in my right tube until

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<v Speaker 1>this past week when it has dropped significantly, which is

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<v Speaker 1>stressing me out. But that was my normal as I

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<v Speaker 1>was getting just a ton of milk in my left

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<v Speaker 1>boob and then in my right boob, I would be

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<v Speaker 1>getting a solid amount and then I would pump again,

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<v Speaker 1>so that would be like at nine um thirty nine pump,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I pump again around one thirty and I

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<v Speaker 1>would probably get four or five ounces and my um

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<v Speaker 1>left boob, and then about three ounces in my right boob,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I pump again around sixty seven and I'd

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<v Speaker 1>probably get like four ounces of my left boob, like

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<v Speaker 1>three ounces in my right boob, and then I pump

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<v Speaker 1>again at ten thirty and I'll get like kind of

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<v Speaker 1>the same or a little bit less. So that was

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<v Speaker 1>my schedule, and that's been my schedule for the past

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<v Speaker 1>um month and a half, I would say, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>been going great and over the over Chris Smiths holidays,

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<v Speaker 1>So the past three weeks, I kind of stopped breastfeeding

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<v Speaker 1>because we were traveling on planes so much and we're

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<v Speaker 1>around people all the time. We took three trips over

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<v Speaker 1>the holidays. We went to South Carolina to see Michael's family,

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<v Speaker 1>went to Texas to see my family, and then we

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<v Speaker 1>had a band retreat that we do every year with

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<v Speaker 1>a thousand Horses band family because all you guys who

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<v Speaker 1>follow me know my husband's in a band of thousand Horses.

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<v Speaker 1>There's four guys in that band. And then all the

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<v Speaker 1>guys are married and we're all best friends. The wives

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<v Speaker 1>and the um husbands were all best friends. We've been

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<v Speaker 1>in this band together now for like ten years, and

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<v Speaker 1>so we have this band retreat every year in Aspen

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<v Speaker 1>because Amanda, who's married to Bill, the guitar player, her

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<v Speaker 1>family has a house in Aspen, and so we've made

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<v Speaker 1>it a tradition to go there every year and just

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<v Speaker 1>like reset our intentions be with the band, um get

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<v Speaker 1>clear about you know, just united and clear about our

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<v Speaker 1>visions for the year. It's really amazing and awesome. It's

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<v Speaker 1>really cool that it's become a tradition. We love it.

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<v Speaker 1>And Sunny came this year to Aspen. So we're traveling

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<v Speaker 1>now for three weeks over Christmas. We had some space

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<v Speaker 1>in between each trip we'd come back to Nashville, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's just like so much traveling, so many airplanes. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>I just I don't know. It was stressful for me

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<v Speaker 1>to think about trying to breastfeed with all that travel,

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<v Speaker 1>because we were in planes, were in cars, were around people,

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<v Speaker 1>were She's off her schedule like crazy, and I just

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I just didn't want to be whipping

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<v Speaker 1>up my bob and trying to make sure she got

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<v Speaker 1>a full feed when we're in some place that I

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<v Speaker 1>can't find a good place to settle into and get

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<v Speaker 1>her really comfortable. And she's a great bottle feeder. So

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<v Speaker 1>over the holidays, over those three weeks, I found myself

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<v Speaker 1>not breastfeeding, and I kinda was sad about it. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, oh my gosh, is it over? Are we

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<v Speaker 1>done breastfeeding? Like I'm mourning this loss a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>And I talked to my sister Catherine, and she is

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<v Speaker 1>such a positive in influence in my life. Katherine's like, listen,

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<v Speaker 1>if something is working for you and things are going well,

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<v Speaker 1>then don't mourn it. Like the goal is always to

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<v Speaker 1>have a healthy baby, Like, yes, you can just let

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<v Speaker 1>it go. Try not to look at it is a

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<v Speaker 1>sad thing. Look at it is I'm still I'm providing

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<v Speaker 1>for my child her nutrients. However, you do that even

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<v Speaker 1>if you can't breastfeed or pump and get milk, if

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<v Speaker 1>you're using formula, you're providing nutrients for your baby. You're

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<v Speaker 1>doing the best you can and just let it go.

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<v Speaker 1>If something has left your life, then don't mourn it.

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<v Speaker 1>Embrace where you are. And that really helps me. Every

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<v Speaker 1>time I want to feel sad about something, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my gosh, is this over, I'm just like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>it's okay. This is what we're doing right now. This

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<v Speaker 1>is working, Sunny is thriving, and I'm not gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>sad because I want I want to be I'm mourning

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<v Speaker 1>the loss of breastfeeding. We're healthy, We've got something that's

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<v Speaker 1>working for us. So I'm gonna be happy because we

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<v Speaker 1>are having health. And I'm always gonna be thankful for health.

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<v Speaker 1>And that is always my my truth and I always

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<v Speaker 1>come back to that, I am thankful for health because

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<v Speaker 1>health is wealth. And if we can be healthy and

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<v Speaker 1>we have something that's working for us, then praise God

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<v Speaker 1>because that is just a blessing. And we all know

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<v Speaker 1>how much of a blessing health is. And if we

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<v Speaker 1>don't have our house, we deal with it. But if

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<v Speaker 1>we have our health, I'm going to be thankful. And

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<v Speaker 1>so that is my mantra always and Katherine, my sisters

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<v Speaker 1>really helped me get there. Um And so we're only

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<v Speaker 1>bottle feeding over the holidays, and she was eating seven

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<v Speaker 1>ounces because she is a good eater, six to seven

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<v Speaker 1>ounces every time, and that was around three months we

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<v Speaker 1>started traveling. She turned three months December tenth, and we

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<v Speaker 1>started traveling probably a week after that. So she was

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<v Speaker 1>three months eating six to seven ounces, and I was

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<v Speaker 1>giving her five bottles a day. She's having three naps

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<v Speaker 1>a day, so she still has five bottles a day

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<v Speaker 1>and three naps a day. Over the holidays, we I

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<v Speaker 1>had to let go of control because we'd be on

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<v Speaker 1>planes sometimes and she would just have to take cat naps,

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<v Speaker 1>or we'd get in a car and she would take

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<v Speaker 1>like a thirty minute nap here with it at a

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<v Speaker 1>family dinner, or a forty five minute nap here in

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<v Speaker 1>a car, or she would take a thirty minute nap

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<v Speaker 1>on a plane or we've been an airport, and like

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<v Speaker 1>she was a champ. I had anxiety obviously, because I

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<v Speaker 1>love to have anxiety about new things with her, which

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<v Speaker 1>I'm working on this year, letting go of my anxiety,

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<v Speaker 1>um and just trusting the process and just trusting Sonny

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<v Speaker 1>because she's got this, so let's just roll baby, that's

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<v Speaker 1>my goal. Um. So we had to let go of

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<v Speaker 1>our schedule. So, but what I always stuck to was

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<v Speaker 1>the five bottles. And that's another reason why I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to do bottles, because I couldn't depend on my knap

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<v Speaker 1>schedule anymore. And so with the knap schedule, you can

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<v Speaker 1>like feed nap feed nap feed nap feed, feed nap feed,

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<v Speaker 1>not feed nap feed. Is that and so that I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, it ended up being when you have a schedule,

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<v Speaker 1>it's easier to like stay on track with feedings. But

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<v Speaker 1>since we didn't have a schedule, I stayed on track

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<v Speaker 1>with my bottles. So I always had five bottles that

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<v Speaker 1>I would get her during a day. And that's how

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<v Speaker 1>I knew she got enough milk. And that gave me

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<v Speaker 1>just more peace of mind knowing that, Okay, this is

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<v Speaker 1>this is what I can control, is the amount of

0:14:20.920 --> 0:14:25.000
<v Speaker 1>milk she gets each day. So we would do five

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<v Speaker 1>bottles a day. Uh really, I mean most of the time,

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<v Speaker 1>it's six seven ounces, but sometimes traveling it would be

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<v Speaker 1>five ounces. I would always try to get five to

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<v Speaker 1>seven ounces in during one of her five feedings during

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<v Speaker 1>the day. Her schedule that she's on now is she

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<v Speaker 1>goes to bed or between seven thirty and eight thirty.

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<v Speaker 1>Whenever she's tired, she lets me have her tired cry,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know when she's ready for bed. We're in

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<v Speaker 1>a sleep sack now, so that's awesome. We're out of

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<v Speaker 1>the swaddle. We got out of the swaddle a little

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit before three months. She sleeps great, um,

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<v Speaker 1>and then she'll wake up around seven thirty, between seven

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<v Speaker 1>thirty and honestly sometimes nine. She loves to sleep, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm knock on wood. I am grateful for that. We

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<v Speaker 1>worked hard on that though. And you can follow moms

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<v Speaker 1>on call that book and they will really help you

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<v Speaker 1>get on a good sleep schedule. Or talk to my

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<v Speaker 1>night nurse Paula Power, she does consults Nashville Baby Bus,

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<v Speaker 1>and she'll help you get on a good schedule. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>So when she wakes up, we feed and then study

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<v Speaker 1>goes speed um five to seven ounces, usually it's seven

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<v Speaker 1>because she's hungry. Then she plays and then she'll go

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<v Speaker 1>down like an hour and a half later, for about

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<v Speaker 1>an hour and a half to two hours. That's her

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<v Speaker 1>big nap. We have one big nap, then she wakes up,

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<v Speaker 1>we feed again, five to seven ounces, Um, we play,

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<v Speaker 1>she goes down again, and she'll normally go down for

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<v Speaker 1>like forty five minutes to an hour. Then we wake up,

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<v Speaker 1>we feed again, we play. Then she'll go down again

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<v Speaker 1>for like forty five minutes to an hour, and then

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<v Speaker 1>we wake up. We feed, we play, and we stay

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<v Speaker 1>up then and then I'll give her a bath and

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<v Speaker 1>then we'll play some more, walk around, owned um, just

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<v Speaker 1>do whatever. And during the afternoon, I always if I can.

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<v Speaker 1>Obviously with holidays, we were traveling and I couldn't do that,

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<v Speaker 1>but if I can, I love to get her that

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<v Speaker 1>big nap at home, just that solid nap, because that's

0:16:13.560 --> 0:16:14.840
<v Speaker 1>when she has her hour and a half to two

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<v Speaker 1>hour nap in the morning. And if she can get

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<v Speaker 1>that one, I feel great. And then we catch the

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<v Speaker 1>two other forty five minute naps to an hour. We

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<v Speaker 1>can catch those in a car, we can be mobile.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't worry so much about those because they're quick.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's been awesome, is just to be able to

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<v Speaker 1>be free in the afternoons, and I can take her places,

0:16:36.840 --> 0:16:39.640
<v Speaker 1>Michael and I can take her places because she's just

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<v Speaker 1>getting this little forty five minutes in our naps, so

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<v Speaker 1>that's awesome. And then I'll feed her again after the

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<v Speaker 1>bad time, and then we do bad time, and we'll

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<v Speaker 1>do a quick story. We'll do maybe a little more

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<v Speaker 1>playing Michael Holder. We watch a little TV and then

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<v Speaker 1>I feed her that bottle, get her cozy, put on

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<v Speaker 1>a lotion in and brush her little hair, her little

0:17:02.120 --> 0:17:06.320
<v Speaker 1>bald spot. She doesn't have much hair. And then I

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<v Speaker 1>will rock her just kind of like hold her and

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<v Speaker 1>rock her and seeing to her, and then put her sleep,

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<v Speaker 1>and then she sleeps in the morning. So that is

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<v Speaker 1>our schedule. That is what we're doing now. And I

0:17:15.200 --> 0:17:18.360
<v Speaker 1>was only doing bottles. So once we got back from

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<v Speaker 1>a holiday, so I was like, man, is breastfeeding over

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<v Speaker 1>for me? Like? Is it done? I feel sad a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit, like I'm fine with it because like I

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<v Speaker 1>told y'all, I don't want to ever feel sad for health,

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<v Speaker 1>So I don't feel set. Let me reframe that. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, man, maybe I would like to try to

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<v Speaker 1>breastfeed again. Maybe it's not over. Maybe we can work

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<v Speaker 1>it back in just a little bit. Even though she's

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<v Speaker 1>thriving on the bottles. So I started breastfeeding her again

0:17:45.840 --> 0:17:49.000
<v Speaker 1>in the morning and now when we wake up her

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<v Speaker 1>first feeding off, feed her for like quick, it's not long,

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<v Speaker 1>five to ten minutes, and it's sweet and I love

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<v Speaker 1>it and I'm glad we're doing it right now. And

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<v Speaker 1>if it changes and we can't keep doing that, that's fine.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'll breastfeeder in the morning only that's the only

0:18:02.359 --> 0:18:04.879
<v Speaker 1>time I'm breastfeeding her, and then I'll give her a

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<v Speaker 1>bottle and she'll feed on me for like five to

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<v Speaker 1>ten minutes, probably get two or three ounces, not much,

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<v Speaker 1>and then she'll take a bottle and she'll take another

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<v Speaker 1>like five ounces. So I definitely top her off with

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<v Speaker 1>a bottle, like four to five ounces she'll take And

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<v Speaker 1>I've really enjoyed that. And that's what we're doing right now,

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<v Speaker 1>and we'll do that as long as it works, and

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<v Speaker 1>as soon as we need to change, we're gonna change,

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<v Speaker 1>because that's how it goes to the baby. And my

0:18:26.960 --> 0:18:29.800
<v Speaker 1>grandmother also always says, enjoy life's pleasures when you have them,

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<v Speaker 1>and when you don't don't mourn, and I think it's

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<v Speaker 1>really sweet and I'm loving breastfeeding just a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>with Sunny, and we're gonna keep it up until it

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't work or until we need to change. So that

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<v Speaker 1>is how that goes now. Pumping, I um, when I

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<v Speaker 1>was getting my most milk, which I'm about to start

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<v Speaker 1>doing again, I was pumping, like I told y'all, after

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<v Speaker 1>she wakes up and I feed her in the morning.

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<v Speaker 1>I pumped so like around anywhere between eight and nine,

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<v Speaker 1>I pump, and then I'll probably get it one thirty.

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<v Speaker 1>Then I'm probably at six thirty. Then I'm pumping in

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<v Speaker 1>at ten thirty. On vacation and got we were traveling

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<v Speaker 1>so much it was hard to find a place to pump.

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<v Speaker 1>I dropped one of my pumps in the middle of

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<v Speaker 1>the day, so I was pumping in the morning and

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<v Speaker 1>then I would pump around between five and six, and

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<v Speaker 1>then I would pump between like ten thirty. And it

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<v Speaker 1>worked for me over the holidays, but I guess it

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<v Speaker 1>really told my boobs that, oh, you don't need as

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<v Speaker 1>much milk, because now my milk supply has dropped dramatically,

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<v Speaker 1>and I am like diving into my reserve milk that

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<v Speaker 1>I have in the freezer, and it's freaking me out.

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<v Speaker 1>And so now that we're home and I'm not traveling

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<v Speaker 1>again for a long time, I am adding that fourth

0:19:43.480 --> 0:19:46.200
<v Speaker 1>pump back in. So instead of trying to get by

0:19:46.280 --> 0:19:48.040
<v Speaker 1>with three pumps a day, I will be moving back

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<v Speaker 1>to four pumps a day. So I'll be pumping between

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<v Speaker 1>nine eight nine in the morning, around one thirty in

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<v Speaker 1>the afternoon, around six thirty in the afternoon, I mean

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<v Speaker 1>in the evening, and then ten thirty at night. And

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<v Speaker 1>That's what I'll be doing. And I was talking to Paula,

0:20:02.240 --> 0:20:06.600
<v Speaker 1>my night nurse, and she um told me I should

0:20:06.600 --> 0:20:09.760
<v Speaker 1>power pump to build up my milk supply. So y'all

0:20:09.800 --> 0:20:12.879
<v Speaker 1>google that. Basically what it is is you during one

0:20:12.880 --> 0:20:15.200
<v Speaker 1>of your pump sessions, you pump like every ten minutes,

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<v Speaker 1>like pump your full boob and then wait ten minutes

0:20:18.480 --> 0:20:20.680
<v Speaker 1>and pumping in and then wait ten minutes and pumping

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<v Speaker 1>in for that full hour, and just like do that

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<v Speaker 1>for a few days to let your boobs know we

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<v Speaker 1>need more milk. So I'm gonna start power pumping um

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<v Speaker 1>for the next few days until my supply builds back up.

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<v Speaker 1>Because I do not like not having a full supply.

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<v Speaker 1>So I feel for all your mom is out there here,

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<v Speaker 1>like I pump and pump and pump and pump, and

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<v Speaker 1>I don't get any milk. That is so frustrating because

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<v Speaker 1>I am feeling that frustration right now, and I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>do everything I can to get it up. But you

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<v Speaker 1>know what I told him, Michael, last night, when I

0:20:46.080 --> 0:20:48.680
<v Speaker 1>pumped and I got like three ounces, it was so defeating,

0:20:49.760 --> 0:20:51.960
<v Speaker 1>or maybe I got like four ounces. I felt so defeated.

0:20:52.000 --> 0:20:54.440
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I'm not getting any milk. Like it's

0:20:54.440 --> 0:20:57.199
<v Speaker 1>a defeating feeling feeling. But I told him, I was like,

0:20:57.200 --> 0:20:58.760
<v Speaker 1>you know what, I'm gonna do everything I can to

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<v Speaker 1>get the supply back up. I'm starting today, like I

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<v Speaker 1>told you, I'm gonna add that fourth pump back in

0:21:03.040 --> 0:21:06.119
<v Speaker 1>and power pump, and I mean, if I need to,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll try to take some supplements. I don't have any

0:21:07.880 --> 0:21:10.520
<v Speaker 1>supplements to recommend to you guys, but um, I know

0:21:10.560 --> 0:21:11.960
<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of good ones out there that help

0:21:11.960 --> 0:21:15.879
<v Speaker 1>your milk supply. Actually, her drinking a beer helps your

0:21:15.920 --> 0:21:18.320
<v Speaker 1>milk supply, like a head a heavy beer. So I'm like, okay,

0:21:18.359 --> 0:21:21.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna drink a beer every day after one of

0:21:21.040 --> 0:21:23.160
<v Speaker 1>my pump sessions just to just see if it helps.

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<v Speaker 1>We'll see. Um. But I told Michael last night, if

0:21:26.880 --> 0:21:29.399
<v Speaker 1>we have to add formula into Sunday's life, that is okay,

0:21:29.480 --> 0:21:32.639
<v Speaker 1>even though like it's why is everything scary with your

0:21:32.720 --> 0:21:35.119
<v Speaker 1>especially with your firstborn? I'm like, how's it an affect her?

0:21:35.160 --> 0:21:36.960
<v Speaker 1>She hasn't been a formula. Is it gonna cause her

0:21:37.320 --> 0:21:39.359
<v Speaker 1>stomach to her? Is it gonna give her gas? Like

0:21:39.400 --> 0:21:41.119
<v Speaker 1>all these things? So it's like, you know what you

0:21:41.160 --> 0:21:43.440
<v Speaker 1>gotta do, what you gotta do, and if life calls

0:21:43.480 --> 0:21:48.199
<v Speaker 1>for you to add something in change something, it's okay.

0:21:48.359 --> 0:21:50.800
<v Speaker 1>And that's what I tell myself every day. It's okay.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing the best I can, the best I can,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know you guys are doing the best you can.

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<v Speaker 1>And that is like my mantra I'm telling myself this

0:21:59.480 --> 0:22:02.120
<v Speaker 1>year because as the first few months of Sunny's life,

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<v Speaker 1>I was just overwhelmed with anxiety that I had to

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<v Speaker 1>do everything right and if I do anything wrong, something's

0:22:07.560 --> 0:22:09.760
<v Speaker 1>gonna happen and it's gonna be my fault. And I

0:22:09.800 --> 0:22:12.960
<v Speaker 1>put all this pressure on me. This year, I am

0:22:13.040 --> 0:22:15.200
<v Speaker 1>turning it over to God. I am turning it over

0:22:15.200 --> 0:22:19.159
<v Speaker 1>to God. I am turning Sunny over to God. Sonny

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<v Speaker 1>belongs to God. She is God's child. I have been

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<v Speaker 1>the lucky mama who gets to walk with her during

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<v Speaker 1>her life. I get to be her died and I

0:22:29.359 --> 0:22:32.560
<v Speaker 1>get to be her support. And I was chosen to

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<v Speaker 1>be her mama, And what a blessing for me. I

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<v Speaker 1>was just rocking her to bed before her nap, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was just singing to her, you are my son shine,

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<v Speaker 1>my only sunshine. Always seen that to her before she

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<v Speaker 1>goes to bed, and then I was just going through

0:22:48.080 --> 0:22:50.800
<v Speaker 1>how much I love her, how grateful I am for her.

0:22:50.880 --> 0:22:53.120
<v Speaker 1>I was speaking that over her. I was kissing her

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<v Speaker 1>because I think it's really important to speak that over

0:22:56.359 --> 0:23:00.800
<v Speaker 1>your child. I really do me personally. I think they

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<v Speaker 1>feel that love and I think it makes them feel

0:23:02.920 --> 0:23:05.800
<v Speaker 1>safe and secure. This is just my thoughts. But I

0:23:05.840 --> 0:23:08.880
<v Speaker 1>speak over Sonny how much I love her, how valuable

0:23:08.920 --> 0:23:11.679
<v Speaker 1>she is, that she has a purpose on this earth

0:23:11.840 --> 0:23:14.760
<v Speaker 1>to accomplish, and I'm going to be here to support her.

0:23:15.160 --> 0:23:18.440
<v Speaker 1>That we Michael and I love her and she is

0:23:18.480 --> 0:23:21.200
<v Speaker 1>special and important and needed and wanted, and she is

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<v Speaker 1>on this journey and we are here for it. And

0:23:23.600 --> 0:23:25.840
<v Speaker 1>I always love to kiss her. I like to have

0:23:25.960 --> 0:23:29.080
<v Speaker 1>her tons of kisses and tons of hugs because I

0:23:29.160 --> 0:23:31.040
<v Speaker 1>just think that makes the baby feel safe, because that's

0:23:31.040 --> 0:23:32.840
<v Speaker 1>what makes me feel safe. I mean, how good does

0:23:32.880 --> 0:23:36.439
<v Speaker 1>it feel when anyone speaks over you and tells you

0:23:36.480 --> 0:23:38.280
<v Speaker 1>how valuable you are and how needed you are and

0:23:38.320 --> 0:23:40.320
<v Speaker 1>how important you are, and then hugs you and kisses

0:23:40.320 --> 0:23:42.960
<v Speaker 1>you and makes you feel seen and loved. I mean,

0:23:43.119 --> 0:23:44.919
<v Speaker 1>don't we all love that? So I just want to

0:23:44.920 --> 0:23:49.800
<v Speaker 1>start sending off right now with all that, letting her

0:23:49.840 --> 0:23:53.199
<v Speaker 1>know she's seen and loved and important, and she is

0:23:53.240 --> 0:23:55.280
<v Speaker 1>meant to be here, and she has a purpose and

0:23:55.320 --> 0:23:58.760
<v Speaker 1>that purpose is beyond me. I am here to help

0:23:58.800 --> 0:24:01.000
<v Speaker 1>her achieve her purpose in any way I can. But

0:24:01.119 --> 0:24:03.359
<v Speaker 1>she is on her own journey. It is between her

0:24:03.400 --> 0:24:07.360
<v Speaker 1>and God and her soul's purpose. And so I'm trying

0:24:07.400 --> 0:24:09.920
<v Speaker 1>to remember that every single day that she is her

0:24:09.920 --> 0:24:14.359
<v Speaker 1>own individual, beautiful creature that came from Heaven and the

0:24:14.400 --> 0:24:17.919
<v Speaker 1>Greater Force, and she is having a life experience and

0:24:17.960 --> 0:24:19.680
<v Speaker 1>I get to be a part of it. And so

0:24:19.760 --> 0:24:24.080
<v Speaker 1>instead of me stressing out and missing all of the

0:24:24.160 --> 0:24:27.080
<v Speaker 1>joy that she is bringing into my life and the

0:24:27.200 --> 0:24:30.600
<v Speaker 1>blessing that she is for me and Michael, that we

0:24:30.640 --> 0:24:34.399
<v Speaker 1>get to experience this child instead of missing it because

0:24:34.440 --> 0:24:37.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm stressing out, worrying about every single thing that can

0:24:37.640 --> 0:24:40.960
<v Speaker 1>go wrong living with this yucky not in my stomach

0:24:41.000 --> 0:24:45.600
<v Speaker 1>of fear because I'm sitting here thinking I gotta control everything.

0:24:45.640 --> 0:24:48.399
<v Speaker 1>It's up to me, or else everything's gonna go wrong.

0:24:48.800 --> 0:24:52.199
<v Speaker 1>I'm done with it. I mean, knock on wood. I

0:24:52.280 --> 0:24:55.680
<v Speaker 1>literally knocked on wood. I am making a conscious choice.

0:24:55.840 --> 0:24:58.560
<v Speaker 1>My sister told me again, she's such a great asset

0:24:58.640 --> 0:25:00.720
<v Speaker 1>in my life. She said, listen, every time you have

0:25:00.760 --> 0:25:03.320
<v Speaker 1>a fearful thought, say three things that you're grateful for

0:25:03.480 --> 0:25:06.080
<v Speaker 1>and counteract it and push that fear away. Do not

0:25:06.400 --> 0:25:09.480
<v Speaker 1>hang on to the fear. I want to enjoy Sunny's life.

0:25:09.480 --> 0:25:11.600
<v Speaker 1>I want to be present for her life. I want

0:25:11.680 --> 0:25:15.800
<v Speaker 1>to soak up all of the new things that happened. Yes,

0:25:16.000 --> 0:25:19.119
<v Speaker 1>breastfeeding and feeding is a huge part of it, and

0:25:19.160 --> 0:25:21.080
<v Speaker 1>we have to feed our babies, and it's something that

0:25:21.119 --> 0:25:23.439
<v Speaker 1>we stress out and worry about. But I'm not going

0:25:23.480 --> 0:25:26.000
<v Speaker 1>to get hung up on worrying about every little thing.

0:25:26.080 --> 0:25:29.159
<v Speaker 1>If things change, it's going to evolve that's fine. The

0:25:29.240 --> 0:25:30.800
<v Speaker 1>things I want to get hung up on are the

0:25:30.920 --> 0:25:33.960
<v Speaker 1>joyful moments that are happening in Sunny's life that I

0:25:34.000 --> 0:25:35.960
<v Speaker 1>get to experience. That is what I want to get

0:25:36.000 --> 0:25:37.439
<v Speaker 1>hung up on. I don't want to get hung up

0:25:37.440 --> 0:25:39.439
<v Speaker 1>on the news and seeing something terrible that happens to

0:25:39.440 --> 0:25:42.000
<v Speaker 1>a kid, because you know what, if something happens, I'm

0:25:42.000 --> 0:25:43.840
<v Speaker 1>going to deal with it when it happens. I Am

0:25:43.880 --> 0:25:47.919
<v Speaker 1>not going to worry about it before it happens. Once again,

0:25:48.840 --> 0:25:52.120
<v Speaker 1>my sister sent me Um Jesus Calling today. I want

0:25:52.119 --> 0:25:53.800
<v Speaker 1>to read it to you guys and all your mamas

0:25:53.840 --> 0:25:56.880
<v Speaker 1>who are having anxiety. This is from Jesus calling. It's

0:25:56.880 --> 0:25:59.560
<v Speaker 1>an app It's amazing. Here's what it says. I want

0:25:59.600 --> 0:26:01.560
<v Speaker 1>you to list into this. I want you to internalize this,

0:26:01.600 --> 0:26:03.040
<v Speaker 1>and I want you to live by this because this

0:26:03.080 --> 0:26:07.400
<v Speaker 1>is what I'm trying to live by. It says. It says,

0:26:07.760 --> 0:26:10.399
<v Speaker 1>Um God speaking, Come to me and rest in my

0:26:10.480 --> 0:26:13.760
<v Speaker 1>loving presence. You know that this day will bring difficulties,

0:26:13.840 --> 0:26:16.160
<v Speaker 1>and you are trying to think your way through these trials.

0:26:16.560 --> 0:26:19.080
<v Speaker 1>As you anticipate what is ahead of you, you forget

0:26:19.119 --> 0:26:22.440
<v Speaker 1>that I am with you now and always rehearsing your

0:26:22.480 --> 0:26:28.359
<v Speaker 1>troubles results and experiencing them many times. Rehearsing your troubles

0:26:28.440 --> 0:26:33.040
<v Speaker 1>results and experiencing them many times, whereas you were meant

0:26:33.080 --> 0:26:37.040
<v Speaker 1>to only go through them when they actually occur. Listen

0:26:37.080 --> 0:26:41.480
<v Speaker 1>to that, rehearsing your troubles results and rehearsing your troubles

0:26:41.480 --> 0:26:44.960
<v Speaker 1>results and experiencing them many times, whereas you were meant

0:26:45.040 --> 0:26:49.600
<v Speaker 1>to go through them only when they actually occur. Wow,

0:26:50.160 --> 0:26:53.480
<v Speaker 1>do not multiply your suffering in this way. Instead, come

0:26:53.520 --> 0:26:56.280
<v Speaker 1>to me and relax in my peace. I will strengthen

0:26:56.320 --> 0:26:58.720
<v Speaker 1>you and prepare you for this day, transforming your fear

0:26:58.800 --> 0:27:03.359
<v Speaker 1>into confident trust. And my word this year is trust.

0:27:04.560 --> 0:27:07.520
<v Speaker 1>I want to cry. I'm sorry, y'all know how I

0:27:07.520 --> 0:27:13.480
<v Speaker 1>get emotional. I really, this really really hits me. I

0:27:13.520 --> 0:27:16.720
<v Speaker 1>will strengthen you and prepare you for this day, transforming

0:27:16.840 --> 0:27:22.120
<v Speaker 1>your fear into competent trust. Isn't everything negative in our

0:27:22.160 --> 0:27:26.080
<v Speaker 1>life that we do based on fear? Our husband isn't

0:27:26.080 --> 0:27:28.040
<v Speaker 1>acting the way we want him to. We get upset.

0:27:28.280 --> 0:27:31.200
<v Speaker 1>We're what are we upset about? Fear that life isn't

0:27:31.200 --> 0:27:35.080
<v Speaker 1>going to play out the way we wanted to. Our baby,

0:27:35.600 --> 0:27:38.399
<v Speaker 1>We're worried about is our baby getting in a food?

0:27:38.720 --> 0:27:41.840
<v Speaker 1>Why is our baby crying? Our baby is fussy? We

0:27:41.920 --> 0:27:44.320
<v Speaker 1>hear something in the news that really freaks us out,

0:27:44.760 --> 0:27:46.639
<v Speaker 1>or something, I mean, who, I don't even know. I

0:27:46.640 --> 0:27:48.200
<v Speaker 1>don't even like to speak to these things out loud.

0:27:48.720 --> 0:27:52.200
<v Speaker 1>But it's like, isn't everything that feels bad and gross

0:27:52.280 --> 0:27:56.240
<v Speaker 1>and yucky and in our life fear? And isn't fear?

0:27:56.320 --> 0:27:59.800
<v Speaker 1>Doesn't that come because we feel the need to control? Yeah,

0:28:00.720 --> 0:28:04.320
<v Speaker 1>it does. So I don't want to control. I want

0:28:04.359 --> 0:28:06.520
<v Speaker 1>to do the very best I can. I have desires

0:28:06.520 --> 0:28:07.960
<v Speaker 1>that are put on my heart that I feel like

0:28:08.080 --> 0:28:11.439
<v Speaker 1>come from God. I want to follow those desires. I

0:28:11.520 --> 0:28:15.320
<v Speaker 1>want to trust my journey, and when I feel called

0:28:15.359 --> 0:28:16.879
<v Speaker 1>to do something, I want to do it. I'm going

0:28:16.920 --> 0:28:19.119
<v Speaker 1>to do the best I can with Sonny every single day.

0:28:19.160 --> 0:28:21.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna wake up and choose what's right for her

0:28:22.359 --> 0:28:24.760
<v Speaker 1>the best I can every single day. But then I'm

0:28:24.800 --> 0:28:27.359
<v Speaker 1>going to let the rest of it go because I'm

0:28:27.400 --> 0:28:30.240
<v Speaker 1>going to enjoy her life. I'm going to enjoy this experience.

0:28:30.560 --> 0:28:33.040
<v Speaker 1>I Am not going to be plagued by fear and anxiety.

0:28:32.640 --> 0:28:34.560
<v Speaker 1>I have declare that in the name of the Lord

0:28:34.640 --> 0:28:37.680
<v Speaker 1>right now I will not be plagued by fear and anxiety,

0:28:37.720 --> 0:28:40.040
<v Speaker 1>and I encourage you guys to say the same thing

0:28:40.120 --> 0:28:43.520
<v Speaker 1>out loud. I will choose love. I will choose to

0:28:43.520 --> 0:28:46.680
<v Speaker 1>embrace this journey. I will choose to embrace the beauty

0:28:46.760 --> 0:28:49.240
<v Speaker 1>in my life, in Sonny's life, in my marriage with Michael.

0:28:49.280 --> 0:28:51.440
<v Speaker 1>I will choose to embrace my friendships. I will choose

0:28:51.440 --> 0:28:53.680
<v Speaker 1>to embrace all the blessings in my life and choose

0:28:53.720 --> 0:28:56.040
<v Speaker 1>to see the blessings in my life. Yes, there are

0:28:56.040 --> 0:28:58.280
<v Speaker 1>areas in my life that I want to change that

0:28:58.400 --> 0:29:00.960
<v Speaker 1>I that do cause me stress, but I will not

0:29:01.080 --> 0:29:03.400
<v Speaker 1>focus on those. Instead, I will focus on the love

0:29:03.440 --> 0:29:05.880
<v Speaker 1>in my life. And I encourage every single one of

0:29:05.880 --> 0:29:07.719
<v Speaker 1>you guys to focus on the love in your life.

0:29:08.160 --> 0:29:09.640
<v Speaker 1>Even if you feel like you don't have any love

0:29:09.680 --> 0:29:12.280
<v Speaker 1>in your life, you do. There's something in your life

0:29:12.480 --> 0:29:15.760
<v Speaker 1>that you can love. Whether it's a pet, whether it's

0:29:15.800 --> 0:29:18.360
<v Speaker 1>a TV show, whether it's a podcast that you're listening

0:29:18.360 --> 0:29:20.520
<v Speaker 1>to that brings you love, whether it's a book that

0:29:20.560 --> 0:29:22.840
<v Speaker 1>you're reading that brings you love. Who knows what it is.

0:29:22.880 --> 0:29:24.880
<v Speaker 1>There is something in this world that can bring you love.

0:29:24.960 --> 0:29:27.800
<v Speaker 1>So focus on that and then keep bringing more love

0:29:27.880 --> 0:29:30.800
<v Speaker 1>into your life, because that is what is going to

0:29:30.880 --> 0:29:33.320
<v Speaker 1>be about for us, my friends, telling you that is

0:29:33.320 --> 0:29:35.400
<v Speaker 1>the goal of this podcast for me this year. To

0:29:35.440 --> 0:29:38.000
<v Speaker 1>focus on the love, to focus on the life, the light,

0:29:38.080 --> 0:29:41.200
<v Speaker 1>to enjoy our lives, to enjoy our lives and trust

0:29:41.320 --> 0:29:44.360
<v Speaker 1>that God has got us and that He will not

0:29:44.480 --> 0:29:46.360
<v Speaker 1>bring us as far to leave us. That is another

0:29:46.400 --> 0:29:47.840
<v Speaker 1>one of my favorite quotes. I don't know what the

0:29:47.920 --> 0:29:49.840
<v Speaker 1>verses in the Bible, but it says I did not

0:29:49.880 --> 0:29:51.960
<v Speaker 1>bring you this far to leave you. God did not

0:29:52.000 --> 0:29:54.080
<v Speaker 1>bring us here to leave us in the dirt. We

0:29:54.120 --> 0:29:55.640
<v Speaker 1>are meant to thrive, We are meant to have a

0:29:55.640 --> 0:29:58.160
<v Speaker 1>great life. We go through struggles, we go through hardships.

0:29:58.160 --> 0:30:01.120
<v Speaker 1>Look at any verse in the Bible, look at any

0:30:01.280 --> 0:30:06.120
<v Speaker 1>spiritual leader. Nobody goes through life without having trials and

0:30:06.160 --> 0:30:08.760
<v Speaker 1>tribulations and really hard things happened to them. But there's

0:30:08.840 --> 0:30:13.200
<v Speaker 1>always a bigger message. There's always a beautiful flip side

0:30:13.240 --> 0:30:16.000
<v Speaker 1>to it. If we can commit to God, commit to

0:30:16.040 --> 0:30:18.520
<v Speaker 1>trusting Him, and commit to finding it. And that is

0:30:18.560 --> 0:30:20.000
<v Speaker 1>my goal. And I am not going to live in

0:30:20.040 --> 0:30:21.920
<v Speaker 1>fear this year, and I pray that you don't either. Okay,

0:30:21.920 --> 0:30:24.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna answer a few questions about breastfeeding them. Gonna

0:30:24.040 --> 0:30:27.240
<v Speaker 1>wrap up. I love y'all. Okay, someone is wanting to

0:30:27.280 --> 0:30:29.560
<v Speaker 1>know what bottles do I use? My three month old

0:30:29.600 --> 0:30:33.160
<v Speaker 1>refuses all of them so far. Um, we love the

0:30:33.240 --> 0:30:35.760
<v Speaker 1>Dr Brown's bottles. There's a lot of pieces and parts

0:30:35.760 --> 0:30:37.000
<v Speaker 1>to it, so I know a lot of people get

0:30:37.000 --> 0:30:39.800
<v Speaker 1>turned off by them, but Sonny has never had gas

0:30:39.840 --> 0:30:42.640
<v Speaker 1>issues with them, and she took them right away. So

0:30:42.760 --> 0:30:45.200
<v Speaker 1>those are the ones we use. I did, I'd have

0:30:45.320 --> 0:30:49.240
<v Speaker 1>the advent Ones and um like a Tippy Tommy or something,

0:30:50.120 --> 0:30:52.640
<v Speaker 1>or the I don't know the Kuma Como. I don't

0:30:52.640 --> 0:30:54.360
<v Speaker 1>know what they're called. That. We have only used the

0:30:54.440 --> 0:30:56.760
<v Speaker 1>Dr Brown's bottles. I've never tried the other ones because

0:30:56.840 --> 0:30:59.120
<v Speaker 1>these worked for us. And I say, when you find

0:30:59.120 --> 0:31:00.960
<v Speaker 1>something that works, why shoul to get up? So that's

0:31:00.960 --> 0:31:04.120
<v Speaker 1>what we use and we love it. What is your schedule?

0:31:04.160 --> 0:31:06.600
<v Speaker 1>When do you breastfeed versus bottlefeed? Okay? Holly asked me

0:31:06.680 --> 0:31:10.720
<v Speaker 1>that I answered that in this podcast already. Um, someone

0:31:10.760 --> 0:31:16.000
<v Speaker 1>says all your breast milk bottles? Are all your breastmolk bottles?

0:31:16.000 --> 0:31:19.480
<v Speaker 1>Are you mixing breastfeeding to how many bottles per day? Okay?

0:31:19.640 --> 0:31:22.360
<v Speaker 1>So like I said, I answered that already I'm doing

0:31:22.360 --> 0:31:25.960
<v Speaker 1>five bottles per day, But follow Moms on Call that book.

0:31:26.880 --> 0:31:30.040
<v Speaker 1>If you're having questions. Moms on Call spells it out

0:31:30.120 --> 0:31:32.640
<v Speaker 1>to me the best of anyone. It is so simple.

0:31:33.000 --> 0:31:34.960
<v Speaker 1>They tell you exactly how many bottles and how many

0:31:34.960 --> 0:31:37.920
<v Speaker 1>ounces you're supposed to be feeding your baby depending on

0:31:37.960 --> 0:31:42.000
<v Speaker 1>their age UM, and they tell you the times to

0:31:42.040 --> 0:31:44.120
<v Speaker 1>do it. They talked to you about the nap schedule,

0:31:44.280 --> 0:31:46.480
<v Speaker 1>sleeping schedule, how to get them to sleep through the night.

0:31:47.040 --> 0:31:49.520
<v Speaker 1>To me, that is the book. If you're having questions

0:31:49.560 --> 0:31:53.800
<v Speaker 1>about feeding UM, sleeping, all of it, go to Moms

0:31:53.800 --> 0:31:57.560
<v Speaker 1>on Call. When did you start pumping? I started pumping

0:31:57.640 --> 0:32:01.760
<v Speaker 1>right away, UM. I started pumping right when Sunday was born.

0:32:01.840 --> 0:32:03.400
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't even

0:32:03.440 --> 0:32:06.720
<v Speaker 1>know what pumping was. I just started pumping, and then,

0:32:06.880 --> 0:32:10.120
<v Speaker 1>like I said, it's changed over the course of Sunday's life.

0:32:10.200 --> 0:32:12.120
<v Speaker 1>Right now, I'm about to be back to four pumps

0:32:12.120 --> 0:32:16.080
<v Speaker 1>a day. To me, for if you're mainly exclusively pumping

0:32:17.480 --> 0:32:20.720
<v Speaker 1>and not breastfeeding UM, but mainly pumping and doing bottles,

0:32:21.360 --> 0:32:25.320
<v Speaker 1>I personally think four times is the magic number for me.

0:32:26.240 --> 0:32:28.120
<v Speaker 1>When I pumped three times. That is one of my

0:32:28.160 --> 0:32:31.800
<v Speaker 1>supply has dramatically dropped, So I will be pumping four

0:32:31.840 --> 0:32:34.400
<v Speaker 1>times a day as long as Sunny is needing a

0:32:34.440 --> 0:32:38.080
<v Speaker 1>lot of breast molt. And I don't know about y'all also,

0:32:38.120 --> 0:32:39.960
<v Speaker 1>but I feel so much more confident when I have

0:32:40.000 --> 0:32:42.080
<v Speaker 1>a reserve of breast milk and the freezer and my

0:32:42.360 --> 0:32:44.120
<v Speaker 1>I've been going through that reserve this week and that

0:32:44.240 --> 0:32:46.080
<v Speaker 1>is stressing me out, so I want to fill it

0:32:46.120 --> 0:32:48.640
<v Speaker 1>back up. So I don't just want to pump enough.

0:32:48.680 --> 0:32:51.080
<v Speaker 1>I want to pump an extra bottle a day so

0:32:51.120 --> 0:32:54.880
<v Speaker 1>I can feel my supply back up. So four times

0:32:54.920 --> 0:32:57.760
<v Speaker 1>a day is a magic number for me pumping. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>I love you guys. I wish you all he's this week.

0:33:01.120 --> 0:33:05.440
<v Speaker 1>I wish you joy, I wish you contentment. I hope

0:33:05.480 --> 0:33:08.440
<v Speaker 1>that you trust God or whatever higher power that you

0:33:09.120 --> 0:33:11.640
<v Speaker 1>believe in. If you don't have a higher power, I

0:33:11.720 --> 0:33:15.160
<v Speaker 1>encourage you to try to see if you can feel

0:33:15.200 --> 0:33:19.280
<v Speaker 1>something bigger outside of yourself. Because I talked to my

0:33:19.360 --> 0:33:22.880
<v Speaker 1>girlfriend's all the time, my sister and my mom and

0:33:23.560 --> 0:33:27.400
<v Speaker 1>pretty much any woman in my life, especially if you're

0:33:27.440 --> 0:33:30.040
<v Speaker 1>a mom. It is there are so many things to

0:33:30.080 --> 0:33:32.720
<v Speaker 1>worry about. There is so much fear to have, and

0:33:33.080 --> 0:33:35.720
<v Speaker 1>I lean on God for all of it. If I

0:33:35.720 --> 0:33:37.720
<v Speaker 1>did not have God in my life, I would not

0:33:37.960 --> 0:33:41.040
<v Speaker 1>be able to make it through in a happy, peaceful way.

0:33:41.160 --> 0:33:45.320
<v Speaker 1>And so I encourage you to find a greater source.

0:33:45.360 --> 0:33:50.120
<v Speaker 1>If you haven't, um, I don't know, I really. I mean,

0:33:50.160 --> 0:33:54.320
<v Speaker 1>if you're looking for some inspiration, anything Oprah does is amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>I am currently reading this amazing book called Vibrate Higher Daily,

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<v Speaker 1>Live Your Power. It's by I'm gonna say our name wrong,

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<v Speaker 1>La La Delia l A l A h d E

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<v Speaker 1>l i A. She is a beautiful spiritual writer. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not it's nondenominational. It's all about just finding the power

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<v Speaker 1>within yourself and connecting to something bigger. If you want

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<v Speaker 1>to start your year off right, I would recommend this

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<v Speaker 1>book Vibrate Higher Daily. It is bringing me peace, it

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<v Speaker 1>is bringing me light, it is bringing me joy. If

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<v Speaker 1>you are having anxiety, I just encourage you to reach

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<v Speaker 1>out to outlets that get you outside of yourself and

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<v Speaker 1>your brain and that that terrible self talk um tornado,

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<v Speaker 1>that we can get in where we just have fear

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<v Speaker 1>and worry and anxiety and anger and all of it.

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<v Speaker 1>Get out of there, Get out of their abort, abort, abort,

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<v Speaker 1>Do not stay there. That is not the place to be.

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<v Speaker 1>That is not where we want to live. Fear is

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<v Speaker 1>everywhere we can cling to it because it is easy

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<v Speaker 1>to cling to it. The world is feeding us fear.

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<v Speaker 1>But you know what the world is also feeding is

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<v Speaker 1>joy and beauty and light and adventure and love. And

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<v Speaker 1>we have a choice. There's a flip side to everything,

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<v Speaker 1>so you can choose to like dive into that fear. Which,

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<v Speaker 1>don't get me wrong, I have many times. Like I

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<v Speaker 1>told you, I'm coming out of a very anxious season

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<v Speaker 1>of my life, and I declare again in the name

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<v Speaker 1>of God, I will not live in fear this year.

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<v Speaker 1>I will live in the joy because I'm choosing the

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<v Speaker 1>other way. I do not like the way I feel

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<v Speaker 1>when I'm wrapped up in anxiety. I do not like

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<v Speaker 1>the way I fear feel when I'm wrapped up in fear.

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<v Speaker 1>And I do not like the way I feel when

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<v Speaker 1>I'm angry and frustrated and trying to blame anything but

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<v Speaker 1>myself for my feelings. I do not like that. So

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<v Speaker 1>I am walking in trust this year. I am letting

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<v Speaker 1>God lead. I am walking in love with Sonny and Michael.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trusting that God is going to open the right

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<v Speaker 1>doors for me and close the wrong ones, and I

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<v Speaker 1>am going to have a peaceful, happy year of enjoying

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<v Speaker 1>my life and not worrying. Things slam in my face

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<v Speaker 1>and something closes that I thought I wanted, I'm to say,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you God, Praise God. You took that away from

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<v Speaker 1>me that was not meant for me. Praise God. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not going to get upset about it. Maybe for a

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<v Speaker 1>second before I remember to praise God, I'll get upset,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm going to quickly turn it back to him

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<v Speaker 1>and be like, Lord, you you blessed me. I appreciate

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<v Speaker 1>that blessing because something better is on the way, and

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<v Speaker 1>I encourage you all to live that way. I love y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm grateful for you guys, and let's just keep making

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<v Speaker 1>this year the best year we've ever had, full of

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<v Speaker 1>the most loved, filled filled with joy, hope, and trust.