Speaker 1: Did you guys know you're supposed to brush your teeth
Speaker 1: twice a day and you're supposed to floss. I went
Speaker 1: to the dentist the other day. They gave me something
Speaker 1: called a water pick. Do you guys know what that is?
Speaker 1: They told me If I don't use it, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: get some sort of gun disease. And I still haven't
Speaker 1: used it.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 1: It takes up so much time flossing and brushing your teeth,
Speaker 1: and god fuck. You go to the dentist and like,
Speaker 1: all right, here's why your teeth throw fucked up. And
Speaker 1: you have to do these things that are gonna take
Speaker 1: a half hour. It's gonna take it a half hour
Speaker 1: in the morning and at night. And then you go
Speaker 1: you try to pay your taxes and they say says
Speaker 1: something's wrong, that doesn't work. And then you go to
Speaker 1: the knee doctor and your knee is fucked up. And
Speaker 1: then you get a text from someone it's like five
Speaker 1: paragraphs long, and so you have to also write five
Speaker 1: paragraphs or also looks like you're snubbing them, and you're
Speaker 1: just like fuck this, I'm gonna go play Super Mario
Speaker 1: sixty four. All right, let's take calls, It goes on
Speaker 1: the line. Take your calls.
Speaker 3: All from bloony.
Speaker 1: Blooney.
Speaker 4: Hey, So.
Speaker 1: Did you brush your teet this morning? No?
Speaker 5: I didn't.
Speaker 6: Why not? Did you?
Speaker 1: Why didn't you brush your teeth this morning?
Speaker 7: I never do?
Speaker 1: You never brush your teeth hardly ever, it's been in
Speaker 1: the years. Are you okay? Or the decaying?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 5: Yeah, they're pretty bad?
Speaker 6: Does that?
Speaker 1: Does that bother you?
Speaker 4: Say?
Speaker 1: What does that bother you?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 7: A little bit, Like I'll probably go get in six eventually,
Speaker 7: but I just haven't uh.
Speaker 4: Happened yet.
Speaker 1: You know what I find interesting about this is that
Speaker 1: imagine two types of guys. Uh, there's one who doesn't brush,
Speaker 1: who just never brushes their teeth, hasn't brushed the teeth
Speaker 1: in years, but it's kind of like, eh, I'll get
Speaker 1: a fixed latter, versus a person who obsessively compulsively brushes
Speaker 1: their teeth twice a day, lost mouth washed, the whole gambit,
Speaker 1: but is consistently is but does so because they're just
Speaker 1: so worried. They have so much stress about having perfect teeth.
Speaker 1: They want it so badly, they're so scared which person
Speaker 1: is doing better? The one that has the thing but
Speaker 1: is so worried about losing it, or the one that
Speaker 1: doesn't have it but doesn't even seem to want it.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I mean I don't know. I don't really worry
Speaker 7: about things. I don't have a lot of stress, but
Speaker 7: I mean I don't really take care of my so
Speaker 7: some probable we're not going to live that long.
Speaker 1: So that sound amazing. How how old are you know?
Speaker 4: Thirty eight?
Speaker 8: Thirty eight?
Speaker 1: That's pretty good.
Speaker 7: I mean, yeah, I heard the over bus on my teeth. Yeah,
Speaker 7: it's not too bad.
Speaker 6: All right.
Speaker 1: We were talking about this earlier. You know, I was
Speaker 1: trying to meet someone who lived pretty long, but without
Speaker 1: having ad donal hygiene. You lived pretty long. You have
Speaker 1: no stress, you have nothing stresses you out?
Speaker 5: Well, I mean I have stress.
Speaker 7: I mean like I have, you know, work issues and things,
Speaker 7: you know, relationship issues. It's things that everybody has, but
Speaker 7: I just try output about them.
Speaker 1: Have you ever been in love?
Speaker 5: Oh? I think so?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 7: I mean I mean I'm married, so I mean I
Speaker 7: should trouble we say, yeah, I.
Speaker 1: Mean, are you not sure whether or not you love
Speaker 1: your wife?
Speaker 5: I mean, what is love?
Speaker 4: Really?
Speaker 1: I think that's up for each individual to decide on
Speaker 1: their own. Yeah, what do you think they answer that question.
Speaker 7: I've ever been in love? What I think the answer is?
Speaker 7: I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't know what is love? What is Is this
Speaker 1: something you've thought about that much?
Speaker 7: Even a little bit, not a whole lot. Chocolate's pretty close,
Speaker 7: I think, mm hmmm, But uh, yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 1: Do you think your wife loves you?
Speaker 9: Not really?
Speaker 6: Nah?
Speaker 7: I mean she tolerates me. Uh you know, it's kind
Speaker 7: of a symbiotic relationship.
Speaker 4: I guess does she love me?
Speaker 8: Like?
Speaker 5: Maybe? I don't know.
Speaker 1: Why do you think she doesn't love you?
Speaker 5: She's just kind of mean?
Speaker 1: This mean to you?
Speaker 5: What do you mean to every?
Speaker 7: And that just means she's just kind of a person.
Speaker 1: Can I get like a concrete example of your wife
Speaker 1: being mean? Like a situation of some kind and which
Speaker 1: choos mean, even.
Speaker 5: If it's a small one.
Speaker 7: It's it's little things like she'll you know, move myself,
Speaker 7: Like I'll have something in a certain place and you
Speaker 7: know she maybe she doesn't like fair, so she'll put
Speaker 7: it somewhere else. Then I gotta go find it, you know,
Speaker 7: little things like.
Speaker 1: That, And she just so intentionally just to make your
Speaker 1: life harder.
Speaker 7: I think so, I mean I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 7: maybe she really doesn't want anything on the counter. Maybe
Speaker 7: she's like impulsive about that, but.
Speaker 5: It's annoying.
Speaker 10: You know.
Speaker 1: That doesn't sound so much mean as it does like
Speaker 1: she's trying to clean the common spaces of your house.
Speaker 7: Well, I mean, okay, let's talk about like your bathroom
Speaker 7: for instance, Like do you have a perfectly empty counter
Speaker 7: and next to your sink except really maybe be a
Speaker 7: soap bottle on your toothbrush?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 1: Well, I mean that's just it seems like part of
Speaker 1: the just the the difficulties of having a shared space
Speaker 1: with someone, unless so like a marital thing.
Speaker 7: Well, the thing is, this is kind of like not
Speaker 7: necessarily my own private bathroom, but it's like the bathroom
Speaker 7: attached to my office and nobody else really uses it,
Speaker 7: so it's kind of like my personal space. Not really similar.
Speaker 4: Hard.
Speaker 1: Do you have a kid?
Speaker 5: That's the way I feel? Well, yeah, several kids?
Speaker 1: How many kids?
Speaker 4: Three?
Speaker 9: And four?
Speaker 1: Yeah? Why did you have to think about how many
Speaker 1: kids you have?
Speaker 4: Well?
Speaker 5: It depends like not all of them are mine.
Speaker 7: Biologically, but there are four people I would consider my children.
Speaker 1: Okay, that's what matters. Do you love them?
Speaker 6: I do?
Speaker 9: Love my kids.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think, And maybe I don't know.
Speaker 7: Maybe I wasn't really thinking about them when you question earlier.
Speaker 7: Maybe that's a different kind of love that I wasn't
Speaker 7: really associating with no love.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I actually totally think it's a different kind of love.
Speaker 1: Like when I think about well, I've thought about this
Speaker 1: personally in a long time. I'm like, I could see
Speaker 1: myself like if I had if I had a child,
Speaker 1: I could see myself really loving a child. I could
Speaker 1: understand that kind of love. But romantic love is a
Speaker 1: bit trickier. It feels like it's a whole another category.
Speaker 7: I mean, it's, uh, there's other things to consider, you know,
Speaker 7: it's uh, you know, there's sexual relationships. Do you really
Speaker 7: love them or do you just want to have sex
Speaker 7: with them?
Speaker 4: Like you know, that can be hard to figure out.
Speaker 7: But you know with with kids, like for me, at
Speaker 7: least like the moment they're born, Like I wasn't sure
Speaker 7: like before my kids were born, And this is the
Speaker 7: same like for each kid, well especially most especially the
Speaker 7: first one, but before they're born, like I don't, I mean,
Speaker 7: I don't know this person, they're not born yet. Am
Speaker 7: I going to love them? When they come out. And
Speaker 7: I didn't know the answer to that until the first
Speaker 7: one came out. Like this is a new person. I
Speaker 7: love this person. I'll do anything for this person.
Speaker 6: Hm.
Speaker 7: And uh yeah, I feel that way about all my kids.
Speaker 7: I think I would do anything for them. Maybe that's
Speaker 7: what love is, being in that position where you would
Speaker 7: do anything, including giving your life for them. M.
Speaker 5: Did I answer your question?
Speaker 4: I might have.
Speaker 5: I forgot things sometimes M.
Speaker 1: Yeah. M it is interesting, you know. I mean I
Speaker 1: don't have a wife or have kids, but I can
Speaker 1: imagine that that those are two very different kinds of love.
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, definitely.
Speaker 1: Why do you stay with your wife if you don't
Speaker 1: love her and if she's.
Speaker 7: Mean to you because my teeth are fucked up and
Speaker 7: no one else will be with me?
Speaker 1: Does that bother you?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 7: Not really, because I'm kind of like I don't really
Speaker 7: care about relationship but anymore, uh Like, I still like
Speaker 7: I would like to have like a active, like sexual relationship,
Speaker 7: and we we I do have that with my wife.
Speaker 4: It's not like all the time, but you know, it's
Speaker 4: it's it is there.
Speaker 7: So like I'm not really like interested in getting in
Speaker 7: with anybody else. I wouldn't really cheat on my wife
Speaker 7: even if you know I could. But I mean, it's
Speaker 7: just it's more convenience. I guess, like we've been married,
Speaker 7: we've been we haven't really been married that long where
Speaker 7: we've been together a very long time. And uh, you know,
Speaker 7: we have four kids together, so I don't really want
Speaker 7: to put them through some of the same situations that
Speaker 7: I went through when I was a kid with a
Speaker 7: single mom and all that. So, you know, random dudes
Speaker 7: coming in and out of the house. You know, I
Speaker 7: don't want to put them in that situation. So at
Speaker 7: least trying to keep saying stable and together as long
Speaker 7: as they're still with us.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, like a guy who doesn't care about anything,
Speaker 1: you s gonna make you care a lot about your
Speaker 1: kids at least.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I do care about my kids.
Speaker 7: I just maybe I don't really care about myself as
Speaker 7: much as I should, but I do care.
Speaker 5: About my kids.
Speaker 1: Do you feel like you should care more about yourself?
Speaker 7: Probably? Yeah, for their sake, But I mean I think
Speaker 7: it's a I know you're not a real therapist. I mean,
Speaker 7: you're not qualified to give any advice. I'm not looking
Speaker 7: for that, but I think it probably is, you know,
Speaker 7: mental health issues, things like that.
Speaker 4: I probably should go see a real therapist.
Speaker 7: But again, like, uh, you know, the depression and anxiety
Speaker 7: and things like that keep it to make it difficult
Speaker 7: to even go out and seek that kind of help
Speaker 7: you need.
Speaker 1: Sometimes I've heard that, uh, having kids helps with that
Speaker 1: a little bit, at least, at least in like giving
Speaker 1: you something outside of yourself to care about. So like
Speaker 1: if you don't care about yourself, least you care about
Speaker 1: something you have some purpose.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, at the same time, like.
Speaker 7: I feel like I don't necessarily want to be defined
Speaker 7: by that either, Like I would be more than you know.
Speaker 7: I mean, I try to be a good dad, but
Speaker 7: that's like not all that I am. That's not what
Speaker 7: the only thing I want to be remembered for. But
Speaker 7: then like at the same time, like that I even
Speaker 7: want to be remembered.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 1: Do you have ideas of things that you would want
Speaker 1: to be? You know, you say you don't want to
Speaker 1: define yourself just by your kids. Do you have other
Speaker 1: things that you would like to be defined by.
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 7: See, there's kind of like a lot of things that
Speaker 7: means that I never found like one specific thing that
Speaker 7: I really liked.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 7: Ah, I guess I never really figured out who I
Speaker 7: wanted to be.
Speaker 4: I see you like you therapy decades, can go.
Speaker 7: On the internet and talk people just up in a gecko.
Speaker 7: So that's that's really awesome.
Speaker 4: I love that.
Speaker 7: I think that's cool that you found something that you
Speaker 7: can be. Maybe you don't want to be remembered that forever.
Speaker 7: Maybe you'd rather be ferred.
Speaker 5: As while I don't know, but I have no idea, Like.
Speaker 7: There's so many options and I couldn't even pick one,
Speaker 7: or even if I did, I don't know if that
Speaker 7: I was the courage to actually like follow through and
Speaker 7: do it.
Speaker 1: M Yeah, dude, I actually I mean, you know, if
Speaker 1: you're bringing me into it a little bit, you know, yeah,
Speaker 1: I think i'd like to be, you know, doing more
Speaker 1: than just being a gecko. I like being a gecko.
Speaker 1: Maybe it's in a similar way of like, you know,
Speaker 1: you want to be more than just your kids, but
Speaker 1: you of course love your kids.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I mean I guess you could probably consider like therapy,
Speaker 7: getto like that's your baby, right, Do you love therapy?
Speaker 4: Gecko?
Speaker 1: I actually think of therapy gecko like he's my boyfriend.
Speaker 6: That's good.
Speaker 5: We didn't ask the question, or do you love therapy.
Speaker 1: Like as a child?
Speaker 5: In anyway?
Speaker 4: I don't know whatever, whatever you whatever love means to you.
Speaker 4: How do you feel about therapy?
Speaker 1: Peco oh man, I don't know if well, you know,
Speaker 1: I also I don't really have a similar I don't
Speaker 1: really have a definition of love either. I don't know
Speaker 1: if I believe in love. Well, like I was saying,
Speaker 1: it's a romantic love, I don't know. But I could
Speaker 1: love a child, I think not. You know, I could
Speaker 1: love my child.
Speaker 5: Yeah, well that's something you just don't really know until.
Speaker 7: You experience it yourself.
Speaker 1: I think, Yeah, I think so too.
Speaker 7: I mean I know you have, I said, baloney, I
Speaker 7: just really wanted to agree say that because everybody was
Speaker 7: woman that read a chat talking about Bologne.
Speaker 5: How're gonna talk about belonging?
Speaker 7: So I just had to give that to them.
Speaker 1: What were you going to say before I asked her
Speaker 1: your name?
Speaker 11: Was?
Speaker 7: Uh?
Speaker 5: What we was I gonna say? I think you?
Speaker 7: I know you have a sister and you brought her
Speaker 7: on her before.
Speaker 5: I mean, you love her sister?
Speaker 1: Yeah, of course I love my sister. So you feel
Speaker 1: but I mean, I think that that's a different love too,
Speaker 1: Like I don't think I love my sister in the
Speaker 1: same way that I would love someone romantically, or that
Speaker 1: I would love my kid.
Speaker 7: Yeah, familiarly, I.
Speaker 1: Probably love my sister in a similar isshu way that
Speaker 1: I love my parents, you know, familial love.
Speaker 7: Yeah, that's that's a separate thing from romantic for our child.
Speaker 1: Really, what did you say? Your name was Bologna. Thank
Speaker 1: you for sharing with us this evening, Bologney.
Speaker 5: Yeah, no problem yet.
Speaker 7: I'll talk to you again later.
Speaker 1: It's pleasure talking.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yep, all from Katie.
Speaker 1: Katie.
Speaker 12: Hey, what's up, Katy?
Speaker 1: What year were you born?
Speaker 12: Ninety seven?
Speaker 1: Ninety seven? That was a good year.
Speaker 13: Were you alive for that?
Speaker 1: What do you do for a living.
Speaker 12: Right now? I stay at home and I'm a dog mom.
Speaker 1: You're dog mom?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 1: How old the dog?
Speaker 12: I think it's too We just rescued him and arrest you.
Speaker 1: You there's a lot of purpose that one receives when
Speaker 1: they're taking care of something, when something is required requires
Speaker 1: them to get out of bed in the morning in
Speaker 1: order for them not to die.
Speaker 12: Yeah, exactly. You hit the nail on the head with
Speaker 12: that one. Yeah, I have a question for you, since
Speaker 12: you are a therapy get goo.
Speaker 10: Oh boy, yeah, I know.
Speaker 12: It's a big one. So I kind of lost a
Speaker 12: lot of respect from my friends and family recently, and
Speaker 12: I told a story that I thought was going to
Speaker 12: go over really well. I thought it was going to
Speaker 12: be hilarious from my childhood, and I think they were
Speaker 12: just disgusted and horrified instead. And I can tell that
Speaker 12: I've definitely lost their respect, So I'm not sure if
Speaker 12: there's a way to regain it.
Speaker 1: Why is your family's respect important to you?
Speaker 12: Because I love them, I want them to respect me.
Speaker 1: You can love someone without requiring their approval.
Speaker 12: To be fair, the story I told was pretty gross,
Speaker 12: so I could understand why they lost respect for me.
Speaker 13: I just wanted know.
Speaker 12: How to get it back.
Speaker 1: I think you should reevaluate why it's important to because
Speaker 1: I don't think you fully understand. It doesn't appear to me.
Speaker 1: Do you have a good reason for wanting your family's respect.
Speaker 12: Well, I guess that's fair, But I have friends that
Speaker 12: I kind of chose for myself and my partner, so
Speaker 12: I'm kind of worried.
Speaker 1: Well, here's the thing, right, here's the thing, you know,
Speaker 1: I think it's more important for you to be able
Speaker 1: to speak open and honestly about the experiences of your
Speaker 1: life than it is for you to have the approval
Speaker 1: of the people around you. But you know that's a choice, right,
Speaker 1: That's not a choice for me to make for you.
Speaker 1: That's choice for you to make for yourself. It's more
Speaker 1: important you being able to live freely or you having
Speaker 1: positive approval of your family.
Speaker 12: Can I tell you the story so you can analyze
Speaker 12: whether you think it was an appropriate response from them.
Speaker 1: It's really short, can I? And by the way, did
Speaker 1: you did you just call it? Tell the story?
Speaker 12: I mean kind of yeah, okay, but I mean I
Speaker 12: did just recently tell this story in front of my
Speaker 12: friends and family and lost respect.
Speaker 1: So look, there's nothing wrong with that, because it seems
Speaker 1: like you just want you want to tell a story.
Speaker 1: What's the story?
Speaker 12: Well, the story I hadn't told anyone before, so that's
Speaker 12: kind of why I wanted to call in and get
Speaker 12: your opinions. Yeah, I told them, Well, my parents knew this,
Speaker 12: but my new family, my partner didn't know.
Speaker 3: I never told you.
Speaker 12: No, I hadn't told anybody before.
Speaker 13: When I was a little.
Speaker 1: Kid, I wasn't how long I can keep this conversation
Speaker 1: going before you tell the story. And I think it's
Speaker 1: going to happen. I think, I think we're going to
Speaker 1: hear this. I think we'll hear the story, right, happen.
Speaker 12: Yes, it's going to happen.
Speaker 1: As soon as you was talking, I thought just now
Speaker 1: about hanging up, because that would be really funny for me,
Speaker 1: But I think that hurt my feelings.
Speaker 12: Fuck all right, well, let me just tell you.
Speaker 1: Why would I hurt your feelings if I hung up
Speaker 1: on you?
Speaker 12: Because I've been calling you, trying to reach you and
Speaker 12: to tell you my story and get your opinion on it.
Speaker 1: I think that you what just her name was, Katie? Katie,
Speaker 1: You guys, stop valuing the approval of you know, your parents,
Speaker 1: of me, of your friends.
Speaker 13: I so deeply craved that.
Speaker 12: Honestly, it's a deep craving of mine. But I also
Speaker 12: kind of undermined that by telling people really gross stories
Speaker 12: from my childhood.
Speaker 1: Apparently for yourself, Katie.
Speaker 12: Yeah, I knew well anyway. I wasn't allowed to have
Speaker 12: sugar as a kid, or gum anything like that, so
Speaker 12: I was very repressed, and every time we went to
Speaker 12: a public restaurant, I did this little a game where
Speaker 12: I like to crawl under the table, and my parents
Speaker 12: would always get a kick out of it, thinking I
Speaker 12: was just playing down there, But what I was actually
Speaker 12: doing was finding the softest, most recently chewed pieces of
Speaker 12: gum and popping them in my mouth.
Speaker 1: That's it, Yeah, I mean gum underneath the table when.
Speaker 12: You were a child, Yes, And I would do it
Speaker 12: like every restaurant we went to. I'd like make it
Speaker 12: my goal to find like lime green gum or blue
Speaker 12: gum and just find all my faves, and the older
Speaker 12: they were, the worst they were. So I was always
Speaker 12: going for like the freshest pieces people would just stuck
Speaker 12: under there.
Speaker 1: And then your experience which uh, and then your experience
Speaker 1: which flavor was the most delicious?
Speaker 13: Oh, definitely minty ones.
Speaker 12: They seem to hold more of their mintiness than like
Speaker 12: the fruity gum.
Speaker 1: You should reevaluate your relationship with your parents and why
Speaker 1: you require their approval and then also why they would
Speaker 1: disapprove of you or something so silly.
Speaker 12: Caitlin, Yeah it is, Caitlin. Actually that was intuitive.
Speaker 1: That works out well. Thank you so much for calling Caitlyn.
Speaker 1: You have a the rest of the night, you too,
Speaker 1: get go bye.
Speaker 14: All from Kathy.
Speaker 1: Kathy, Hi, what's up? What are you doing right now?
Speaker 13: I'm laying in bed? So can I ask you a question?
Speaker 13: Do you think there are people predicting the long game
Speaker 13: of our society?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 13: Who do you think they are?
Speaker 1: Engineers? Leaders in tech and business?
Speaker 13: And how far out do you think they're planning?
Speaker 1: Probably at least fifty years?
Speaker 13: Isn't that fucking nuts?
Speaker 1: Do you fancy yourself a future ologist?
Speaker 4: Not?
Speaker 1: Really.
Speaker 13: I was reading a book about Homo sapiens and I
Speaker 13: just started thinking about that.
Speaker 1: You know what I did a long time ago. I
Speaker 1: haven't done this in a while. But there's this weird feeling,
Speaker 1: like go on Wikipedia and then you can find like
Speaker 1: there's Wikipedia articles for years like you could, like there's
Speaker 1: a Wikipedia article for like the year twenty one hundred,
Speaker 1: and like you know, the year twenty two hundred, the
Speaker 1: year like all these all these years in the future,
Speaker 1: and you can read about what will happen in those years,
Speaker 1: like what people predict will have happened.
Speaker 8: Uh whah.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 1: It's it's spooky to read about because you're like, hmm,
Speaker 1: the US will be x amount of carbonion emissions by
Speaker 1: this time, but I'll be it's weird to read about
Speaker 1: all these things that will happen when you're dead.
Speaker 13: And statistically, you know, some of them have to be
Speaker 13: are gonna happen like statistically you know, no.
Speaker 1: Like there's like, god, I can't think of any good examples,
Speaker 1: but if you go to like if you go on
Speaker 1: Wikipedia and you look at like the year twenty one
Speaker 1: three hundred, it'll say something like, I mean, there's it's
Speaker 1: everything from like the Happy Birthday song will be in
Speaker 1: the public domain to like, you know, I think that
Speaker 1: I've read this song is in the public domain. But
Speaker 1: it'll just tell you about little things that have had
Speaker 1: that are going to happen in the future. And then
Speaker 1: you think about, like damn, I won't be a live
Speaker 1: when that happens. Like it'll probably talk about like you know,
Speaker 1: commercial space travel, humans colonizing planets, interesting things that you
Speaker 1: know will be long dead.
Speaker 13: Wild. I love it though, But.
Speaker 1: We're live right now, isn't it cool? What's what is red? Sorry?
Speaker 1: Hold on, I said any of the things I just said,
Speaker 1: But hold on, I'm gonna redo that transition. But we're
Speaker 1: alive right now. What color is red.
Speaker 13: Red. I'm sorry I was. I was listening to this
Speaker 13: earlier today. Red is the Blood of Angry Men. Lame
Speaker 13: miss is on my brain?
Speaker 1: Is that is that from lam Is? Mm hmm. I've
Speaker 1: never seen Lamiz. I've actually never seen a movie longer
Speaker 1: than two hours.
Speaker 13: I haven't seen the movie. I've just seen the musical.
Speaker 1: What did you say? Your name was?
Speaker 13: Kathy?
Speaker 1: My stepmom's name is Kathy. When my dad met I
Speaker 1: think my parents got divorced in two thousand and five,
Speaker 1: and they met when they were like in their they
Speaker 1: reached in their late forties. They met on Jay Date.
Speaker 1: Kathy's not Jewish, my dad is, but she likes Jewish guys.
Speaker 1: So she went on Jada because you don't actually have
Speaker 1: to be Jewish to join Jada eight you know that.
Speaker 13: Oh no, I didn't know that.
Speaker 1: To be Jewish, but she like she wanted to date
Speaker 1: a Jewish guy. I don't know why that was like her, kay,
Speaker 1: And so she she met my dad and and they
Speaker 1: were in their late forties when people are out here like,
Speaker 1: oh no, I'm twenty nine, I'm not married yet. I'm like,
Speaker 1: they met in their late forties. That's incredible.
Speaker 13: Yeah, I feel like they that has more success online.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for sharing. Kathy, you ever wonder
Speaker 1: for us to name you too?
Speaker 13: Thank you.
Speaker 15: All from Dan.
Speaker 1: Dan My all right, Dan, Hi, we had a woman
Speaker 1: call in. Her name was Kathy, and uh I love
Speaker 1: Kathy was the name of my stepmother, the woman married
Speaker 1: to my father and Dan, would you know this? My
Speaker 1: mother a while after the divorce. Soon after the divorce
Speaker 1: remarried as well. Do you know the name of the
Speaker 1: man that she remarried? This first name?
Speaker 6: What was the remarried? Oh?
Speaker 3: My god, hey, Stepsid. Hello, I have really spotty internet.
Speaker 3: So if you're just not talking right now, I'm going
Speaker 3: to assume I was disconnected.
Speaker 1: Why would you assume that? Why wouldn't you assume that?
Speaker 1: Why do I always say? Why does in all the
Speaker 1: conversations you have, are people just constantly talking all the time?
Speaker 15: No?
Speaker 3: I actually really enjoy just like long moments of silence
Speaker 3: in my conversations. But I am a little nervous talking
Speaker 3: to the gek for the first time. I was literally
Speaker 3: about to hop in the shower and you picked up.
Speaker 1: So I I'm not naked, are you dirty?
Speaker 6: Though?
Speaker 3: I'm filthy? I'm a disgusting little boy that needs to
Speaker 3: shower office.
Speaker 9: Since for the.
Speaker 1: Day, what do you what are you filthy with.
Speaker 3: Just a little sweat? Sweat and and COVID germs? Probably
Speaker 3: I was out and about in the world today, so
Speaker 3: I yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1: Let me ask you what activities did you partaken that
Speaker 1: led to a breaking of sweat?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 3: Oh, absolutely nothing.
Speaker 10: Oh.
Speaker 3: I guess this is anonymous, so I could just like
Speaker 3: say whatever I want, except that I get my name. Hello,
Speaker 3: I threw up in my car today, so I just
Speaker 3: got extremely car stick and I and so that was
Speaker 3: not fun.
Speaker 6: That was my day, all right.
Speaker 1: So you threw up in your car, and I'm less
Speaker 1: interested in that as I am Ian. Why you okay?
Speaker 1: You commented on the fact that this is anonymous and
Speaker 1: that no one will know who you are and that
Speaker 1: you threw up in your car. Why so concerned with
Speaker 1: people knowing that you threw up in your car?
Speaker 3: Wile I'm a people pleaser.
Speaker 9: This is a longstanding issue that I have.
Speaker 1: You're people pleas Why would someone be up okay? Why
Speaker 1: would someone be unpleased? All right, Look, if you're a
Speaker 1: people pleaser, if you're if you were in if there
Speaker 1: was someone in the passenger seat and you threw up
Speaker 1: on their laugh. I could understand why that person would
Speaker 1: be unpleased, but I don't see why a person would
Speaker 1: be displeased with you, just as a person, by the
Speaker 1: fact that you threw up in your car.
Speaker 3: This literally happened two years ago, like or last year,
Speaker 3: right before the pandemic started. I was like at a
Speaker 3: club with my friends for New Years and I was dd,
Speaker 3: and of course I was like about to head out,
Speaker 3: and then my friends, who were pretty sober, were like, Hey,
Speaker 3: we're gonna leave. You handle our extremely drunk friends, which
Speaker 3: I thought was kind of shitty, but I did, and
Speaker 3: I helped escort them out to my car, and I
Speaker 3: thought somebody was going to fight me, and there was
Speaker 3: a fight, like right outside of my car. Anyways, we
Speaker 3: had everybody, We're going home. Friend throws up in my
Speaker 3: back seat.
Speaker 9: No big deal.
Speaker 3: I try not to make a big deal out of
Speaker 3: it because I'm nice, and it.
Speaker 1: Wasn't a big deal because conness about you.
Speaker 3: Yes, that's true, my friend threw up in my car.
Speaker 1: Were you displeased with them?
Speaker 3: I was a little annoyed at the situation, but I
Speaker 3: can't be upset at a sick person. You know, that's
Speaker 3: just not cool.
Speaker 1: So why would you expect the world to give you
Speaker 1: a different level of understanding than you give to the world.
Speaker 3: I think I'm in denial because I found a Quiznos
Speaker 3: subs in my neighborhood and I thought they had completely
Speaker 3: shut down, so I went and I tried them out.
Speaker 3: And I don't want to blame Quizno's on me throwing
Speaker 3: up today, because it's much better than Subway, but I
Speaker 3: think it was Quizzos.
Speaker 1: Connor, all over the place right now, you're talking about Quiznos,
Speaker 1: you're talking about a party. You're talking about Super Mario
Speaker 1: sixty four DS, which is a port of Super Mario
Speaker 1: sixty four for the Antendo DS where you can play
Speaker 1: as Yoshi and Warrio and Luigi as well. All over
Speaker 1: the place.
Speaker 3: That's an actual port.
Speaker 1: What color is red?
Speaker 3: Red is anatomical Red is blood and like squelching guts
Speaker 3: and all that fun stuff.
Speaker 1: Did you look at the did you look at the
Speaker 1: throat after you did it? Did you see who was
Speaker 1: in there?
Speaker 16: Uh?
Speaker 3: Yeah, No, it wasn't red.
Speaker 1: It wasn't red.
Speaker 3: I found a plastic bag.
Speaker 1: It was all good, Connor. I want you to get
Speaker 1: comfortable with the idea of perhaps declaring to the world
Speaker 1: with pride that you threw up in your car this morning.
Speaker 6: Can do that?
Speaker 1: Your life would be Could you do that on stream? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Can you do whatever you want?
Speaker 3: He was up everyone, I threw up in my car
Speaker 3: today and I don't feel as bad about it anymore.
Speaker 1: Good. You shouldn't look. I don't see any movie again.
Speaker 1: Your car, your puke, your personal space. If you told
Speaker 1: me you threw up on your friend and you are
Speaker 1: feel bad about that because you feel like you displease them,
Speaker 1: but it would be one thing. But it makes sense
Speaker 1: that you feel like people will be displeased at the
Speaker 1: fact that you threw up in your own car. Think
Speaker 1: about this way.
Speaker 3: Look, can I tell you a story about me throwing
Speaker 3: up on a person?
Speaker 9: If that's okay for the street.
Speaker 1: Listen to Connor. Do you say your name is Connor?
Speaker 6: Right?
Speaker 1: No, it's Daniel calling you Connor only twice Dan. Oh shit,
Speaker 1: it's Dan. I went on the whole thing at the
Speaker 1: beginning of this call about how you're you should do
Speaker 1: whatever with your name, and then I forgot what your
Speaker 1: name is.
Speaker 6: Dan.
Speaker 1: Listen, Dan, people are gonna like you more knowing that
Speaker 1: you're a human being, that you're vulnerable, that you have
Speaker 1: moments of weakness. You know what I'm saying. You think
Speaker 1: that people will be uh, you know, judge you or
Speaker 1: not want to be friends with you because of your weakness,
Speaker 1: and you know, maybe they won't. But Connor, look, it
Speaker 1: can't be. You get to be vulnerable. Sometimes people actually
Speaker 1: find vulnerability attractive as long as you don't let it
Speaker 1: bother you. You know, if you have weaknesses and you're constantly
Speaker 1: complaining about them, you're constantly getting down on yourself about them. Yeah, people,
Speaker 1: I think they'll drive people away. But if you have
Speaker 1: weaknesses that you openly declare, but they don't appear to
Speaker 1: bother you, and you lever know that they don't bother you,
Speaker 1: people find that very tractice.
Speaker 6: Can do you have any weaknesses?
Speaker 1: Get the fact that you can buy vanilo'sitt your roles
Speaker 1: on bulk on Amazon.
Speaker 11: It's dangerous.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for Sharon Connor. You have a
Speaker 1: funder for us to.
Speaker 9: The night you as well.
Speaker 6: Good night.
Speaker 1: Hey folks, it's Lyle here. I'll make this real quick.
Speaker 1: I currently do not have any sponsors for this podcast,
Speaker 1: but if you would like to support. If you would
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Speaker 1: you can make it a hell of a lot easier
Speaker 1: for me to continue to work on projects like these.
Speaker 1: And I said I'd make it quick. So let's get
Speaker 1: back into the calls.
Speaker 3: All from Stephen.
Speaker 1: Steven.
Speaker 17: Hello, hold on, he put me on the phone. Let
Speaker 17: me let me just knock.
Speaker 1: On the she's poop and he's poop, and you can
Speaker 1: leave my own weird what's happening? Hello is Stephen? Who
Speaker 1: just who answered the phone for you?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 6: That's my mom?
Speaker 1: Oh? How's how Uh? How is she doing?
Speaker 6: She's doing pretty good?
Speaker 2: Man?
Speaker 6: How are you doing? I'm more interested in you?
Speaker 16: Man?
Speaker 6: Wait?
Speaker 1: Why why did your mom answer the phone for you?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 9: Because I was waiting?
Speaker 11: Man?
Speaker 1: That was nice her. What I'm I'm still I need
Speaker 1: to I need you to explain, like what happened exactly
Speaker 1: like you put you called and then I answered and
Speaker 1: then she like what like what logistically took place just now.
Speaker 10: I was taking a dump and she was calling, and
Speaker 10: I was I was just like waiting for that knock,
Speaker 10: and then I heard that Big Bay paying and I
Speaker 10: was running.
Speaker 6: So she was.
Speaker 1: So you said to her mom, there's a gecko guy
Speaker 1: on the computer. Could you sit here and call him
Speaker 1: while I take a dump?
Speaker 9: Yeah?
Speaker 10: Yeah, pretty much.
Speaker 1: That's been nice for her to do that.
Speaker 6: No, for real, what a what a lovely lady?
Speaker 1: Can't talk to her?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 6: For sure, yo, ma.
Speaker 9: Yo ma, Yeah she's gone.
Speaker 6: I don't know where she was she left.
Speaker 10: Yeah, apparently, I don't know.
Speaker 9: Maybe she's taking the deuce.
Speaker 1: Check upstairs. Maybe I am upstairs, check downstairs.
Speaker 6: Oh man, I would, but then i'd have to leave.
Speaker 1: My different leave what the mic? What do you mean
Speaker 1: the Are you not on a you're on a phone?
Speaker 18: Nah?
Speaker 6: Nah, you don't got a call through a phone. You
Speaker 6: can call through the internet.
Speaker 1: Oh so your mom was sitting at your desktop calling me. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that was nice of her. Did you like was she
Speaker 1: when you asked your mom to sit and call me
Speaker 1: for you? Was she doing something else that you she
Speaker 1: had to You had let to interrupt her doing.
Speaker 6: Making me dinner, making me dinner. That's about it.
Speaker 1: What does she make? What does she make for dinner?
Speaker 6: That's cool that onions and salsa is actually fired her?
Speaker 1: Where where is she? She couldn't have just she she
Speaker 1: didn't just disappear.
Speaker 6: My mom just came back.
Speaker 9: Actually here she is.
Speaker 6: I forgot she?
Speaker 13: Uh, hello, hi mom?
Speaker 1: How are you? Oh?
Speaker 17: I'm okay? How are you?
Speaker 1: So you can I what your son's name is? Stephen?
Speaker 6: Right?
Speaker 1: Yeah, so you were calling me on behalf of him?
Speaker 13: Well, he was calling you. She had to be the phone.
Speaker 1: Uh, he was calling Okay, so he called, he dialed
Speaker 1: the number, handed you the phone, and then went to
Speaker 1: take a dump.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 17: I guess you can call him all night or something.
Speaker 17: He said. If you have her, just yell at him.
Speaker 1: Okay. What do you think of all this? What do
Speaker 1: you think about the situation that you've been put into?
Speaker 19: I do know.
Speaker 13: I don't know exactly what this is.
Speaker 17: I just know he's been trying to get in contact
Speaker 17: with you.
Speaker 1: That's fine. I don't know exactly what this is either.
Speaker 1: What's your relationship like with your son?
Speaker 11: Healthy?
Speaker 1: Healthy?
Speaker 17: We're very close, Yes.
Speaker 1: I can tell. Why do you guys think you have
Speaker 1: such a good relationship? What do you think The key
Speaker 1: is to that.
Speaker 13: Trust and communication.
Speaker 17: You know, he tails her things, he doesn't care and
Speaker 17: trouble for it. You know.
Speaker 1: How old is he?
Speaker 17: He just turned nineteen?
Speaker 6: Nice?
Speaker 1: Nice?
Speaker 17: Yeah, yeah, he actually just got a second job. I'm
Speaker 17: very proud of him.
Speaker 1: Oh I'm proud of him too. Where did you get
Speaker 1: the second job at?
Speaker 17: He's doing concrete?
Speaker 1: Nice? What do you do?
Speaker 17: I work at the banks?
Speaker 1: Has the bank ever gotten robbed?
Speaker 10: No?
Speaker 6: No, no.
Speaker 1: I work in corporate and someone says you put the
Speaker 1: money in the bag, and you're like and you're like,
Speaker 1: all right, just don't hurt me. I put the money
Speaker 1: in the bag.
Speaker 17: Luckily, never have that problem. I work in the call center.
Speaker 6: So that's good.
Speaker 1: That sounds like that would be a really scary situation.
Speaker 1: I'm glad you never had to deal with that.
Speaker 17: Yeah, me too, I'm very pleased.
Speaker 1: God, there's so many have you and Stephen always been
Speaker 1: very close? Uh?
Speaker 17: You know, he did have a trouble guy in his life,
Speaker 17: so you know, yeah, every boy goes through like the
Speaker 17: middle school phase or they hate their parents. So after that,
Speaker 17: I think we really decided to get closer.
Speaker 1: So you think he made sort of a sort of
Speaker 1: a one where do you think your relationship started to
Speaker 1: really really take off right after middle school?
Speaker 17: You say, I'm not going after middle school. I think
Speaker 17: sometime in high school, probably right after just the u
Speaker 17: I he.
Speaker 1: Got a d uy. You say, yeah, why do you
Speaker 1: think him Do you think him getting a d u
Speaker 1: I made you guys closer somehow?
Speaker 17: Ah? Yeah, just because uh, you know we had to
Speaker 17: pay for it.
Speaker 1: O guess you paid for his DUI?
Speaker 17: Yeah, the lawyers and everything.
Speaker 1: Were you upset with him?
Speaker 9: Absolutely?
Speaker 17: Of course?
Speaker 1: How did you How did you react when you found
Speaker 1: out that he got a d U.
Speaker 17: I very heartbroken, also very tired, like I was. It
Speaker 17: was probably too free in the morning, damn. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Did you how old was he at the time, eighteen eighteen?
Speaker 1: Did you like talk to him? Did you punish him?
Speaker 1: Could you? Could you punish? Have punished him?
Speaker 4: At that?
Speaker 1: Like? What? What did you take any action against him
Speaker 1: in any way?
Speaker 17: I mean it was like the uh, the court system
Speaker 17: kind of punished him. It was like.
Speaker 19: You had to go to a A and that type
Speaker 19: of thing.
Speaker 17: So it was more like embasement on that end.
Speaker 6: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: Did you go with him day day?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 2: Yeah, mm hmm.
Speaker 1: But why do you think that made you guys closer
Speaker 1: was helping him through that process formed a stronger bond.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Mhm, who is this?
Speaker 13: Who am I talking to you?
Speaker 1: By the way, you've you've you've This is interesting because
Speaker 1: you've told me a lot, but you don't even know
Speaker 1: what this is you see?
Speaker 15: Are you?
Speaker 1: Are you very like generally trusting person?
Speaker 17: Oh? Yeah, this is like everyone we live in small
Speaker 17: town and everyone knows that's cool.
Speaker 1: A small town, like one of those kinds of places
Speaker 1: where no one even locks their door.
Speaker 17: Yeah, our Amazon package you stay on the porch for
Speaker 17: like a week at a time while we're bringing inside.
Speaker 1: Like it actually sounds quite lovely it is. Now. How
Speaker 1: often do you leave your small town? Uh?
Speaker 17: Not very often, especially with Therona.
Speaker 1: Yeah, for sure, Because I'm wondering, like, do do you
Speaker 1: feel like you get you to get taken advantage of
Speaker 1: if you employed your trusting practices in places outside of
Speaker 1: your your small community.
Speaker 17: Probably that's the reason why I don't leave very often.
Speaker 17: Like's just small town businesses that we usually go to,
Speaker 17: that type of thing. You know, we're very local center.
Speaker 6: Do you like that?
Speaker 19: Yeah?
Speaker 17: Absolutely, you know I love going to a restaurant and
Speaker 17: no one see the owner of the bar and that texting.
Speaker 1: Any interest ever? Does your son have any interest in
Speaker 1: moving outside of the small town or do you think
Speaker 1: he'll stay there?
Speaker 17: I know he does, but I'm really trying to keep
Speaker 17: him close to home.
Speaker 1: You know, why are you trying to keep close to home?
Speaker 19: I don't want my baby to go.
Speaker 1: But but he you know, don't you feel like he's
Speaker 1: got to live, you know, his life outside of you know,
Speaker 1: on his own terms in a sense.
Speaker 17: Yeah, someone's got to take care of me like I
Speaker 17: took care of him.
Speaker 11: Though mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Are you married?
Speaker 17: I am?
Speaker 1: What about your husband? Can he You guys take care
Speaker 1: of each other.
Speaker 17: Yeah, he's old though he's got some health issues. I
Speaker 17: don't think he's that gonna be around for as long
Speaker 17: as I am, to be honest, Yeah.
Speaker 18: Well you have some sorry, do you have what you
Speaker 18: were gonna say?
Speaker 17: I was gonna say, I got some brownies in the oven.
Speaker 17: I need need to check on.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I will.
Speaker 17: I don't know where my son he.
Speaker 6: Think?
Speaker 1: That's how you can just you can tell him. You
Speaker 1: can tell him, you can you like, you don't have
Speaker 1: to tell him anything.
Speaker 17: He knows, okay, And I don't think I ever call
Speaker 17: your name.
Speaker 1: My name is Lyle and and I'm a gecko too,
Speaker 1: but that I guess that doesn't matter. Well, Uh, thank
Speaker 1: you so much for sharing with us. Huh, you have
Speaker 1: a good rest of the.
Speaker 19: Night, do you too?
Speaker 14: All from Francis Francis.
Speaker 10: Francis, that's me, that is you.
Speaker 4: What's going on?
Speaker 6: Greg?
Speaker 1: Do you have a good handle on who you are?
Speaker 9: Uh? You don't have?
Speaker 10: Man, this a really excellent question. I answer this as
Speaker 10: I'm walking into the closet of my room because I
Speaker 10: don't want my roommates to hear what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Hm, hmmm. Why don't you think you want your roommates
Speaker 1: to hear what you're saying? Do you think that you're
Speaker 1: going to say something that is is Well, okay, you're
Speaker 1: talking on a stream right now. You're aware of that.
Speaker 10: Yeah, yeah, yeah, of course, yeah.
Speaker 1: Okay. So there's you know, I'm not going to put
Speaker 1: a concrete number on it, but there's people watching this.
Speaker 10: Yeah, well a couple of hundred, I think, right, I don't.
Speaker 1: Care what You don't care what they if they hear
Speaker 1: what you have to say.
Speaker 10: When you care with your roommates, you know what, I
Speaker 10: guess not that's a that's an excellent point.
Speaker 1: What is it that you have to say that's so secretive?
Speaker 10: Well, you know, I I feel like I've thought a
Speaker 10: lot about what I would say if I if I
Speaker 10: got here, But at this point, I'm I'm just nervous.
Speaker 10: I you know, it's just it's it's a big platform,
Speaker 10: isn't it.
Speaker 1: What is it that you would say these thoughts?
Speaker 10: Well, you know, and I know you always ask a question,
Speaker 10: but I guess I I had a question for you,
Speaker 10: and and that would be, you know, I I just
Speaker 10: moved to a new town for for grad school, and
Speaker 10: with cod and everything going on, it's been a little
Speaker 10: hard to meet some of the people in my class
Speaker 10: and things like that. So I don't know if if yeah,
Speaker 10: if you've got any experience, you know, just like figuring
Speaker 10: out how to I don't know how to meet people
Speaker 10: in that sort of same situation.
Speaker 6: You know.
Speaker 1: I used to be able to give what I thought
Speaker 1: was very good advice on how to make friends in college,
Speaker 1: But of course the thing is is in a COVID world,
Speaker 1: I have absolutely no idea. Yeah, yeah, you know COVID world.
Speaker 1: What I would have said is is uh, to find
Speaker 1: a community and then figure out a way to add
Speaker 1: value to that community. So, you know, let's say you
Speaker 1: go to the frisbee team, right, you you go to
Speaker 1: meetup dot com where you go to your school's whatever
Speaker 1: Facebook page, and you joined the frisbee team. And the
Speaker 1: first day you show up to the frisbee team, no
Speaker 1: one's gonna give a fuck who you are because they've
Speaker 1: all been in the frize be team for you know,
Speaker 1: the whole time they've been at school, so they're all
Speaker 1: friends with each other. But then what if you go
Speaker 1: in and you're like, hey, let's I'll host the frisbee
Speaker 1: team barbecue summer thing at my apartment and everyone's like
Speaker 1: all right. You know, you find little ways to add
Speaker 1: value to this community. And you know, look, if there's
Speaker 1: a community, the better, even better thing that you can
Speaker 1: do is if you know you have certain interests, uh,
Speaker 1: you create that community for yourself. You create the meetup
Speaker 1: or create the club on your interests, because then you're
Speaker 1: already in. You're you're the creator. You are are the
Speaker 1: ultimate source of value. But in the COVID world, it's
Speaker 1: it's hard to do these things, I believe, because yeah,
Speaker 1: everyone's distanced. So in the time. What are you saying
Speaker 1: to me?
Speaker 10: Was Nathan Francis.
Speaker 1: In the meantime Francis.
Speaker 10: Yeah, you're killing it.
Speaker 1: You ever you ever have you ever just been alone?
Speaker 9: Oh man?
Speaker 10: I mean of course, yeah, especially now, you know, I think.
Speaker 1: You just lean into it.
Speaker 10: Yeah, yes, yeah, and I think too much sometimes as well.
Speaker 10: I think nowadays, you know, there there can't be a
Speaker 10: single person who hasn't experienced some sort of loneliness at
Speaker 10: this point.
Speaker 1: And I don't mean I mean cultivating it as a
Speaker 1: skill to be alone Francis.
Speaker 10: Yeah, well, okay, I will people.
Speaker 1: To fill the void is right within them.
Speaker 10: Francis, I mean, if this is, if this is what
Speaker 10: you mean, I've I've certainly come to like enjoy some
Speaker 10: of my like you know, alone time and use that
Speaker 10: to be productive and use that to I don't know,
Speaker 10: figure things out about myself, but I think there comes
Speaker 10: a point where you just you just definitely need some
Speaker 10: of that social interaction. You know, I've left a lot
Speaker 10: of people behind once I left undergrad.
Speaker 1: And it's called the minimalism Francis.
Speaker 10: Minimalism.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, I'm not. You live a more a
Speaker 1: more remote life. You only have who you need and
Speaker 1: at the end of the day. You need yourself, Francis, Francis,
Speaker 1: what the hell was I gonna say to you? I
Speaker 1: was gonna say one thing. I forgot what it was. Yeah,
Speaker 1: of course, my brain, my brain is off. I have
Speaker 1: no idea what I'm talking about. I have no idea
Speaker 1: what I'm doing right now.
Speaker 10: You're doing great. I can pick it up.
Speaker 1: An insane I'm an insane green person on the computer.
Speaker 1: Don't take advice for me. I'm not a real I'm
Speaker 1: not a real color.
Speaker 10: Don't worry about what was.
Speaker 1: I gonna say? What was I gonna say? Hold on?
Speaker 6: Yeah, of course, hold on.
Speaker 10: I'm shaking with excitement. Don't shake, I mean doing sorry, Yeah, okay, yeah,
Speaker 10: So of course is all right, This is fine. We're
Speaker 10: having a moment together. Hold on, It's been a moment
Speaker 10: the whole time.
Speaker 1: We live in a noisy world, Francis, input from the internet,
Speaker 1: input from your family, input from your friends. Francis, who
Speaker 1: truly are you when there is no one else around?
Speaker 1: Okay in the answer to that question. By the time
Speaker 1: you do, the world will be open again and you
Speaker 1: can start the Frisbee Club.
Speaker 10: Oh shit, Okay, who truly am I? That's the question.
Speaker 1: Yes, that's your homework. I love me, Francis, and one
Speaker 1: day I believe that our souls will be bounded together
Speaker 1: for in the kingdom of heaven. I'll talk to you
Speaker 1: again soon.
Speaker 10: Yeah, sounds excellent.
Speaker 6: Love you, GEG, love you too.
Speaker 15: Good bye, all from Maddie.
Speaker 1: Maddie. Oh, Huck, how are you?
Speaker 15: I'm great? How are you.
Speaker 1: All right?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 15: Just vibing.
Speaker 1: What do you smell like, Maddie?
Speaker 15: Probably like a mixture of vanilla, coconut and honey.
Speaker 1: Vanilla coconut and honey.
Speaker 15: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Is that like? Did you use a vanilla coconut and
Speaker 1: honey shampoo of some kind or did you combine those
Speaker 1: elements on your own?
Speaker 15: No, I just I make it myself. No, like vanilla deodorant,
Speaker 15: honey shampoo, and coconut body wash.
Speaker 1: Wow, it's grooming and taking care of your body and
Speaker 1: the way it smells important to you.
Speaker 15: Yeah, I mean I don't want to smell bad. What
Speaker 15: about you?
Speaker 1: Why don't you want to smell bad? Are you nervous
Speaker 1: to smell bad? Is there a person smell good for.
Speaker 15: Us? Kind of? I suppose who are they?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 15: A guy I'm not gonna say his name. I'm not
Speaker 15: gonna put put put the boy on blast?
Speaker 1: Can you give me a name that substitutes for his
Speaker 1: real name?
Speaker 15: Well, he kind of looks like post Malone, so let's
Speaker 15: call him Posty.
Speaker 1: Posty. Yeah, how do you know Posty?
Speaker 15: We met on Tinder?
Speaker 1: Mm hm? And how long have you guys known each other?
Speaker 1: Have you have you met up in person yet? H?
Speaker 15: Yeah? We hang out like once a week?
Speaker 1: Oh really?
Speaker 6: M h?
Speaker 1: How many times?
Speaker 11: Oh?
Speaker 4: God?
Speaker 15: A lot? Because like we've been hanging out since December
Speaker 15: and there's surprisingly some cool people out there on Tinder?
Speaker 1: Is it getting serious? Are there labels attached to it?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 15: We're just friends, but I do, I do, uh quite
Speaker 15: have feelings for him?
Speaker 1: But you don't think he has feelings for you? No?
Speaker 15: But that's okay. He's a good friend.
Speaker 1: Do you still have hope that eventually he'll turn to
Speaker 1: something more?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 15: Of course, But I value our friendship so like it
Speaker 15: doesn't really matter. You know, good friends are hard to
Speaker 15: come by these days.
Speaker 1: Are you looking at Have you been meeting up with
Speaker 1: anyone else on Tinder?
Speaker 11: Uh?
Speaker 15: No? He was actually the first person I ever met online.
Speaker 1: Was that nerve wracking for you?
Speaker 15: Oh? God?
Speaker 1: Yeah, it worked out. Yeah.
Speaker 15: Surprisingly, I had my pepper spray and everything just in
Speaker 15: case he turned out to be a weirdo. I mean,
Speaker 15: he has a weirdo, but a good weirdo.
Speaker 1: Sounds like you're enjoying this, this companionship.
Speaker 15: Yeah, he was uh great getting to talk to you.
Speaker 15: I didn't. I from watching your streams for a little while,
Speaker 15: I did not expect to actually get through.
Speaker 1: I didn't expect you to get through either, But here
Speaker 1: we are.
Speaker 15: Yeah, such a slife.
Speaker 1: You have a good rest of the night, you too.
Speaker 14: Man all from Maxwell Maxwell, Hello, Hello, Hello, I can
Speaker 14: hear you here?
Speaker 9: Let me give my stream up. Yeah, all right, I
Speaker 9: can hear you now, you can, I can.
Speaker 1: What do I sound like?
Speaker 9: You sound beautiful? Gecko, mister thank you, thank you.
Speaker 1: Very much.
Speaker 9: I'm just grateful to be here.
Speaker 1: I'm really grateful to be in your presence because you
Speaker 1: know what the alternative is to being here.
Speaker 6: What's that?
Speaker 1: Being dead? And I'm not going to say that being
Speaker 1: dead is bad because I've never been it before, so
Speaker 1: I'm not I don't like to judge things that I
Speaker 1: have not personally experienced.
Speaker 9: But you know, liter Gecko, mister gecko, how do you
Speaker 9: know you haven't been dead before.
Speaker 1: I suppose I don't.
Speaker 9: We if we buy into Buddhism, then you've been reincarnated,
Speaker 9: perhaps as an even smaller gecko in the past.
Speaker 1: Okay, So in the Buddhism religion, which you seem to
Speaker 1: know a lot about, can I choose what I am
Speaker 1: reincarnated as? Or is it completely random, like to be
Speaker 1: reincarnated as mister Gecko.
Speaker 9: I'll be honest. I I'm not a Buddhist. I think
Speaker 9: I only know the most basic, possibly stereotypes of Buddhism.
Speaker 9: But I don't think you get to choose. But maybe
Speaker 9: your spirit chooses for you, in the sense that your
Speaker 9: spirit knows what you are deep inside and you reincarnated that.
Speaker 1: Maxwell. I believe truly with zero hesitation that for as
Speaker 1: long as my soul circles in the universe, before it
Speaker 1: leaves and moves on, I would like at one point
Speaker 1: to take the form of a small handful of ants.
Speaker 9: A group of ants, A group of ants. Yes, so
Speaker 9: would it be a shared conscious consciousness.
Speaker 1: Yes, it would be a shared consciousness across four or
Speaker 1: five different ants.
Speaker 9: I see.
Speaker 1: A family around that way. I could experience more if
Speaker 1: I have more, But I guess it to catch twenty
Speaker 1: two because you can experience more because there's five of you.
Speaker 1: But the world is also comparatively bigger because you're the
Speaker 1: side of an ant.
Speaker 9: That's correct, but you could get into smaller places.
Speaker 1: What color is red?
Speaker 9: Red is the color of the Red is the color
Speaker 9: of life, mister Gecko, is the color of the blood
Speaker 9: in your body?
Speaker 1: And do you truly believe that? Or is that just
Speaker 1: the first thing that came to your mind when you
Speaker 1: were asked the question?
Speaker 9: No, I truly believe that is the color. It is life.
Speaker 9: It is the color of my iPhone, is the color
Speaker 9: of my blood.
Speaker 1: I like that answer. Thank you for sharing.
Speaker 9: Thank you, mister ko.
Speaker 1: You have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 9: You have a fantastic NIGHTE.
Speaker 14: All from Corse Dells, Corse Dell.
Speaker 1: Yeah, my lips I have this problem. My lips are
Speaker 1: very dry, and so if I like, if I like
Speaker 1: spread them out too much, they like the split, Like
Speaker 1: my lips split in half and they start to bleed.
Speaker 11: Well, I hate that.
Speaker 1: Does it happen to you too?
Speaker 11: I mean I live in Massachusetts and winter here is serious,
Speaker 11: so yeah, sure, m m hmm.
Speaker 1: What is your name?
Speaker 16: Was I mean, that's not my name, but my my partner's.
Speaker 16: My partner was Italian and his aunt had never seen
Speaker 16: my name written down, and she had only heard it.
Speaker 16: And one time she texted him like, how is coursesell?
Speaker 16: And we all laughed about it.
Speaker 1: Are you still.
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 11: He passed away.
Speaker 1: Oh, I'm sorry to hear that.
Speaker 2: That's okay.
Speaker 1: What are you doing right now?
Speaker 15: Uh?
Speaker 11: Winding down? Just hanging out?
Speaker 1: How do you wind down? Slash?
Speaker 11: Hang out well tonight? Watching your stream?
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, that's how I like to wind down too. Actually,
Speaker 1: actually it's not a winding down experience. People think I
Speaker 1: get high when I do this that I don't, but
Speaker 1: to wind down afterwards, I'll get high. But if I
Speaker 1: were to get high during this, it's a mix. It
Speaker 1: mixes up my wind down time and mine. Let's be on,
Speaker 1: let's get into it, let's be present in a moment time,
Speaker 1: and it's not a good mix, you know, to keep
Speaker 1: those two liquids separate.
Speaker 11: Yeah, Unfortunately I'm not stone tonight because I'm out of weeds.
Speaker 1: You're out of Weed's terrible. How often do you smoke weed? Typically?
Speaker 11: Three times? How I'm doing like, I'm like really going
Speaker 11: through it sometimes I'll smoke every.
Speaker 1: Day, but try not to What color is red?
Speaker 9: Well?
Speaker 11: I have the master's Green physics, and so I will
Speaker 11: tell you that what we define as red is the
Speaker 11: lowest frequency visible light that we can see. That's like people,
Speaker 11: but like where do we cut off red from orange?
Speaker 11: Is like totally arbitrary.
Speaker 1: Red is the lowest color frequency we can see? What
Speaker 1: is it when you say the lowest frequency of light?
Speaker 17: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Wow? You know this whole time, no one's called in
Speaker 1: with a very with with such a objective scientific answer.
Speaker 11: So like that's what like when you hear like infra red,
Speaker 11: that's like the frequency of light that's just below red
Speaker 11: that we can't see.
Speaker 8: M yeah, infrared yeah, and then like below that is
Speaker 8: like radio waves and like microwaves are in there.
Speaker 1: Oh you know what I learned about this in high school?
Speaker 1: Had no fucking idea what was going on? Cheated off
Speaker 1: the person next to me, great decision.
Speaker 11: On my half, Yeah, I think so.
Speaker 1: Cheat in high school. I endorsed cheating in high school.
Speaker 11: Fully, Yeah, go for it, reach for the starts.
Speaker 1: Did you did you cheat in high school?
Speaker 19: Not in high school?
Speaker 1: In college you cheated yeah? Mm hmm, Well what are
Speaker 1: you now what do you do for a while living?
Speaker 11: Well, so I got my master's degree last May route
Speaker 11: to my PhD. And then I got super burned out
Speaker 11: in quit because I h a whole bunch of things.
Speaker 1: But yeah, oh yeah, it sounds way too difficult. I
Speaker 1: would have quit before I started doing that.
Speaker 11: Uh yeah, So I'm trying to what I'm going to
Speaker 11: do next?
Speaker 1: What are we thinking here? What are the options? What's
Speaker 1: on the table?
Speaker 11: Well, yeah, I don't, I don't know, I you know what?
Speaker 11: So I uh, I was like really excited about doing
Speaker 11: like experimental physics and like being in the lab and
Speaker 11: then just like what not getting that in my grad
Speaker 11: program and was feeling like totally disenchanted. I think it's
Speaker 11: the word for that. And then I just had this idea,
Speaker 11: like last week, there's like this small startup in like Texas,
Speaker 11: and they're like building systems to help micro breweries capture
Speaker 11: carbon dioxide from their fermentation process and like bottle it
Speaker 11: so they can reuse the carbon dioxide to pressurize their kegs.
Speaker 1: Interesting is that, like, just is that an environmentally good thing?
Speaker 1: Like what is the benefit of that?
Speaker 11: Well, so it's it's a twofold, right, you're not just.
Speaker 19: Well, okay.
Speaker 11: The reason that I was thinking about this is because
Speaker 11: the best way to extract like resin ta from weed
Speaker 11: is with a super critical carbon dioxide. And I was like,
Speaker 11: how does one acquire carbon? Like, how is carbon dioxide
Speaker 11: just like produced? And either mind like it comes out
Speaker 11: of mine or you produce it when you're fermenting alcohol.
Speaker 11: That's like what the bubbles in beer are is carbon dioxide.
Speaker 1: I am so glad that, like, there are people out
Speaker 1: there in the world that chose to go into scientific
Speaker 1: fields and medical fields and things of that nature so
Speaker 1: that I don't have to because I just have no
Speaker 1: idea what any of these words mean. But I do
Speaker 1: care on a general sense about the about the world
Speaker 1: being able to progress forward through the means of science
Speaker 1: and technology. Yeah, and so I'm invested in that progress,
Speaker 1: but I don't want to personally contribute to it anyway.
Speaker 1: So I'm happy that people like you are going to
Speaker 1: school for science things.
Speaker 11: Yeah, I don't know. Academia's white supremacist scams a hobby
Speaker 11: for rich people.
Speaker 1: So I know. College is yeah, no, it is. I
Speaker 1: agree with those things. College it's too expensive.
Speaker 11: I mean, like we should figure out how to educate
Speaker 11: people without like putting them in a system designed for
Speaker 11: like a rich British Men who like didn't know what
Speaker 11: to do with themselves because they had too much money.
Speaker 1: One day you'll be able to learn how to do
Speaker 1: surgery on YouTube if you cannot already, I have to
Speaker 1: look into that. I've had you could you know you?
Speaker 11: I did find there are like surgeons who like show
Speaker 11: you how to do like sutures on YouTube. Like if
Speaker 11: you are, like in an emergency like situation, you might
Speaker 11: want to know how to sew yourself closed.
Speaker 1: That'd be a helpful thing to know. I might look
Speaker 1: that up.
Speaker 13: Is that?
Speaker 2: I mean?
Speaker 19: I don't think I could do it?
Speaker 11: Sounds terrifying.
Speaker 1: What if you had to?
Speaker 19: Ah, I don't know.
Speaker 1: Well, hope you never have to find out. I hope
Speaker 1: that you in a situation which you have to suit
Speaker 1: I don't know what the word is if I'm gonna
Speaker 1: try it to suit her yourself.
Speaker 11: Yeah, my name is actually Kirsten.
Speaker 1: Kirsten has been an honor talking with you this evening.
Speaker 11: Nice talk to you too.
Speaker 14: You have a good rest of the night, you too,
Speaker 14: all from.
Speaker 15: A boss.
Speaker 1: Abba?
Speaker 9: Hello, what's up?
Speaker 2: How's it going?
Speaker 1: What'd you say? Your name was a boss?
Speaker 4: A boss?
Speaker 2: That's right?
Speaker 1: How are you a boss?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 2: You know it's not too bad, not too bad. You
Speaker 2: have to be sharing this.
Speaker 4: Moment with you, Rob.
Speaker 1: God, I'm just to be sharing this one with you too.
Speaker 1: Isn't it crazy that our paths have crossed?
Speaker 6: You know?
Speaker 2: It's wild?
Speaker 6: It's wild.
Speaker 2: I mean even if you zoom out just a little
Speaker 2: bit right, you know, just a little bit on on
Speaker 2: space and time and you kind of like see the earth,
Speaker 2: it's like us right now sharing this moment and shot
Speaker 2: too wild.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's wild. Look, it's like, you know, it's good
Speaker 1: to think about that every once in a while. I
Speaker 1: think if you think about too much, people will think
Speaker 1: you're some kind of not that it matters what people think,
Speaker 1: but you know, intensity, right, Like think about these things intensity.
Speaker 1: It's like it's like, uh, like, how ripped does one get?
Speaker 1: How ripped would one get at the gym if they
Speaker 1: were lifting weights? Literally twenty four seven? Probably not the wrong,
Speaker 1: but you know, you gotta car you gotta carve out
Speaker 1: some time in the day to do it. But you
Speaker 1: can't be thinking about that way all the time, or
Speaker 1: else you'll or else you might be a little bit annoying.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and and you'll completely bulk out and you won't
Speaker 2: have any flexibility and you'll be all veins. Yeah, you'll
Speaker 2: be annoying too, super annoying.
Speaker 1: What color is red?
Speaker 6: Color is red?
Speaker 2: Part of me wants to kind of like, uh google
Speaker 2: the frequency, you know, like find that number. There's something uh,
Speaker 2: something comforting about the the empirical nature of the frequency.
Speaker 2: You know, red red is on that thing. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 2: it's on that spectrum too, you know, it's it falls
Speaker 2: falls in that in that wavelength. We chat saying nanimeters hurts.
Speaker 1: This is hm hmm, this is this is me talking
Speaker 1: to a stick and then you also talking into a stick,
Speaker 1: and we can hear each other in each other's sticks.
Speaker 1: There's no chat m. The only check going all right
Speaker 1: now is between you and me.
Speaker 2: There's a uh, there's a laser focus there. That's that's
Speaker 2: really grounded. I really appreciate that. And it's also just
Speaker 2: wild here here we are. You know, when you kind
Speaker 2: of tune tune out, tune out the external chatter, it's
Speaker 2: it's you and me here in the six.
Speaker 1: Donald your name's not Donald, your name's Abyss. But I
Speaker 1: just wanted someone. I just love the name Donald. I
Speaker 1: wanted to call someone Donald.
Speaker 2: Does it feel good? Does it feel good in your mouth? Donald?
Speaker 2: Does it feel feel good in your mouth?
Speaker 1: That's what she said.
Speaker 2: Uh, yeah, I wish.
Speaker 1: You wish it's the last time you had sex.
Speaker 9: It's been a minute.
Speaker 2: It's been a minute.
Speaker 6: No, I respect that it's gonna minute.
Speaker 1: It's been a tough year for me. Yeah, in person
Speaker 1: getting that physical connection. It's been a tough year to
Speaker 1: build physical sexual connections, you know.
Speaker 2: I I can't even imagine what, like, how do how
Speaker 2: do people do that?
Speaker 6: Now?
Speaker 2: Because I recently, I recently came out of a long
Speaker 2: a longest relationship. Well I mean relatively speaking, in almost
Speaker 2: six years? Is that long to you? Belonging to me?
Speaker 2: And so you know, since that was like a relationship
Speaker 2: that was initiated in the in the before times, and.
Speaker 9: And now now it's it's different.
Speaker 2: I'm I feel different, you know, the world feels different
Speaker 2: to me. And how are people doing it? How are
Speaker 2: people making those connections though?
Speaker 1: Mm hmm with theirs in their vaginas?
Speaker 2: Are they wearing masks?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 1: I mean I wouldn't know.
Speaker 2: I don't know, you know, I mean yeah, with their
Speaker 2: penises and their vaginas and you know, yeah, their bodies,
Speaker 2: your skins just kind of like always.
Speaker 1: I suppose a condom is a bit like a mask
Speaker 1: for the penis, which I've mentioned this before earlier on
Speaker 1: the stream. You should wear one to prevent against pregnancy,
Speaker 1: and uh and various STIs and STDs. I don't know
Speaker 1: if that's I don't know if STIs are different from
Speaker 1: STDs or if they're interchangeable, but.
Speaker 2: Hmmm, one one to me sounds kind of like the
Speaker 2: model of a car, like a sports car, and the other. No, no,
Speaker 2: I'm not should I be? Do you have a recommendation?
Speaker 1: I think you should be?
Speaker 4: All?
Speaker 1: I think dating apps? I mean, it depends on who
Speaker 1: you are. How tall are you?
Speaker 2: Like almost five eight? Probably five seven? Five eight?
Speaker 6: Nice?
Speaker 2: I have a friend who tells me I said, I
Speaker 2: told my friend I was five to seven, and he
Speaker 2: said he like asserted that I was taller than that.
Speaker 2: He's like, no, you, I'm okay, Well I'm definitely not
Speaker 2: five nine. I know that somehow, So you know that
Speaker 2: kind of leaves five eight to me?
Speaker 1: Right, yeah, I'm actually five six and a half, right
Speaker 1: on five and a half. I used to tell people
Speaker 1: that was five seven, used to bump it up. You
Speaker 1: know what I do Now I do the opposite, tell
Speaker 1: people I'm five six.
Speaker 11: You use us slavery, slippery, icko.
Speaker 4: I like this.
Speaker 13: You know it's all about setting.
Speaker 18: What is it about five?
Speaker 1: And it's who I am?
Speaker 6: Yeah, that's what you get.
Speaker 1: Those are the cards that I've been dealt in life.
Speaker 1: I can I change it. I must, I must. I
Speaker 1: must embrace that which I kind of change.
Speaker 2: Mmmmm. You know there's a there's a phrase for that.
Speaker 2: It's called it called radical acceptance. You're uh like you're
Speaker 2: living it out in the moment. You're open to the
Speaker 2: reality that is in front of you. You know that same?
Speaker 1: Yes, yep, Yeah, I've been talking over you a lot.
Speaker 1: I don't wanna let you talk for a second.
Speaker 2: Oh uh you know it's the uh, it's the Internet
Speaker 2: and and that little weird delay. But uh I I
Speaker 2: don't feel talked over. I feel like this has been
Speaker 2: this is, this is continues to be a pretty collaborative experience.
Speaker 4: I dig it is your name Dan, No, No, it's Connor.
Speaker 2: No, just kidding it. Yeah, it's a boss.
Speaker 4: You nailed it.
Speaker 1: I've totally lost all sense of time.
Speaker 6: Which is a good thing.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it was about transported into my little therapy gecko world.
Speaker 6: Well here too, how sweet it is?
Speaker 2: Oh, tell me more, tell me more about this this
Speaker 2: world of yours that you're transported to.
Speaker 1: Maybe next time a boss. I appreciate you calling, and
Speaker 1: you have one for us of the night you as well.
Speaker 2: Take care?
Speaker 11: Oh all from.
Speaker 1: Raphael.
Speaker 6: Hello, So I haven't brushed my teeth in four months?
Speaker 1: Four months?
Speaker 6: Yeah, the months the toothbrush scares me.
Speaker 1: The toothbrush scares you?
Speaker 9: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Is it? Is it? Is it the sharp bristles?
Speaker 9: Is it the uh.
Speaker 1: You know, uh phallic nature.
Speaker 18: Of the.
Speaker 6: Brush? My teeth?
Speaker 9: Uh?
Speaker 6: Those four months ago, it hurt really really badly, and
Speaker 6: I've just been scared of it ever since.
Speaker 1: You sound like you you you need to go to
Speaker 1: a dentist or a medical professional of some kind.
Speaker 6: All right, I'll plan that.
Speaker 1: Is there a reason you've been avoiding doing that?
Speaker 15: Yeah?
Speaker 6: It just hurts when the toothbrush hits my thumbs.
Speaker 1: Have you told anyone this besides a gecko guy?
Speaker 18: No?
Speaker 1: Not really should tell a dentist about that. That sounds
Speaker 1: like an actually a very serious issue.
Speaker 6: Dentists are kind of scary, but I'll try.
Speaker 1: You gotta face the fears, Raphael, I don't know it's scary.
Speaker 1: What's scary about it?
Speaker 6: You know when they like bring out the end instruments
Speaker 6: and and they like pike out your mouth. Scary stuff.
Speaker 9: Man.
Speaker 6: They scare the bug headlamb.
Speaker 1: They scare the bugs out of you. You said the
Speaker 1: bug headlamp, bugs headlamp.
Speaker 6: Yeah, what is that? It's just like when you get
Speaker 6: really scared and they scare the big headlamb, you know,
Speaker 6: like the big headlamp that they have above you. That's
Speaker 6: like really right? Yes, yeah, yes it hurts. And they
Speaker 6: don't have like shades where you put on.
Speaker 1: Oh it's too bright, you say, yeah.
Speaker 6: And then when they picked your mouth with all the items.
Speaker 6: Scary man. I don't know what I should do.
Speaker 1: I mean, you could just bring your own shades. I
Speaker 1: mean they're I can. Oh h what's stopping you from
Speaker 1: bringing your own? Right? I mean then you with any shade? Sure,
Speaker 1: but what's stopping you from your own?
Speaker 6: Last time they asked me to take it off. And
Speaker 6: that's why having them back in about like six seven months.
Speaker 1: Why wouldn't they Why would they? Why would you have
Speaker 1: to take it off. That doesn't make any sense. How
Speaker 1: does that obstruct what they're doing.
Speaker 6: I don't know they were. They just told me I
Speaker 6: had to take it off so that they didn't interrupt
Speaker 6: when they were like working on my mouth.
Speaker 1: Maybe they were jealous because you looked cool.
Speaker 6: I hope, So.
Speaker 1: Go to the dentist raphile, all.
Speaker 6: Right, I will good, all right, Well, I just hope
Speaker 6: I can overcome my fear. Also, I've been to quite
Speaker 6: a couple of themiss because the last like maybe two
Speaker 6: to three years ago, I caught my mom with one
Speaker 6: of my dentists.
Speaker 1: You caught your mom with one of your dentists.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it was I felt really bad, and I didn't
Speaker 6: know how to tell her that. I was like, I
Speaker 6: was disappointed.
Speaker 1: Is your mom married to your dad? No, so she's single?
Speaker 6: Well, yeah, but she was seeing another guy at the moment.
Speaker 6: And then I taught her with the dentist. Wasn't to die.
Speaker 1: Her and the guy exclusive, excuse me? Or her and
Speaker 1: the guy exclusive?
Speaker 6: Probably?
Speaker 1: Was it possible that your mom was just sort of
Speaker 1: dating around and seeing many different.
Speaker 9: Men.
Speaker 6: I don't know, because she was taking it seriously with
Speaker 6: the original man.
Speaker 1: Did she continue to date the original man. After she
Speaker 1: stuff with the dentist. Yeah, do you think they were?
Speaker 11: Well?
Speaker 1: How old are you.
Speaker 9: Me?
Speaker 6: I'm nineteen? What will happen?
Speaker 1: Nothing happened. Did you come back after the dentist after
Speaker 1: you caught him with your mom?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 6: I asked her if I could switch a dentist because
Speaker 6: I felt embarrassed every time I went.
Speaker 1: It's understandable. Did she meet the dentist through you?
Speaker 6: Yeah, we went to one of my appointments and they
Speaker 6: started talking and they exchanged phone numbers, and I was
Speaker 6: just I don't know, man, I'm not gonna feel about this.
Speaker 6: It's kind of emotional.
Speaker 1: How long it was?
Speaker 6: This about two to three years.
Speaker 1: She got to the dentist Raphael.
Speaker 4: All right, I will.
Speaker 6: I'll try to overcome my fear.
Speaker 18: You have a good rest of the night, you too,
Speaker 18: Oh all from rough.
Speaker 4: Rue?
Speaker 2: Hello?
Speaker 15: Hello Rue Hi, that's me.
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh. Hello.
Speaker 19: Sorry, I'm like, I can't believe it.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, No, I don't freak out. Real How old?
Speaker 19: Okay, I'm I'm twenty nine.
Speaker 2: I'm going to be thirty this year.
Speaker 1: Are you excited?
Speaker 13: Yes, I'm very excited.
Speaker 2: Holy crap, joted, I'm talking to.
Speaker 19: Iti my girlfriends like right here, Holy crap.
Speaker 1: Sorry, listen, listen. Yeah, you seem very excited, ru why
Speaker 1: are you? Are you in a are you in a
Speaker 1: mood of some kind? You seem elated?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just okay.
Speaker 19: So I discovered you from TikTok. I've been like obsessed
Speaker 19: ever since, and I've been trying to get on for
Speaker 19: like a while, and I cannot believe that I'm on. Like,
Speaker 19: I know that's silly and you're just some guy on
Speaker 19: the ender, but like this just like made my night.
Speaker 19: Oh my gosh, well.
Speaker 1: Real, you know, look, it seems like you've been very
Speaker 1: persistently attempting to reach me, and I'd like to know,
Speaker 1: is there anything that I can help you with? Anything
Speaker 1: you've wanted to talk about?
Speaker 13: Oh my gosh, they're supposedly.
Speaker 19: I can't quite think of anything that comes to mind.
Speaker 19: I've been trying to think as far as like your question,
Speaker 19: I guess, like I'm I mean, it's pretty ridiculous of
Speaker 19: me to be over excited to talk to a stranger
Speaker 19: on the internet, But hey.
Speaker 1: Do you consider yourself in general to be a ridiculous person?
Speaker 19: Sometimes, as you can see, I get pretty like excited
Speaker 19: over like the smallest things. It doesn't take much to
Speaker 19: like make me happy.
Speaker 2: Like I don't know.
Speaker 19: If I'm like walking down the street and I see.
Speaker 2: A dog, I'm like, yes, like there's a dog.
Speaker 13: Oh my god, that's great.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: It seems like you have a pension which is really
Speaker 1: good to be able to, you know, be excited by
Speaker 1: things that other people might find monotonous. You know, you
Speaker 1: seem like you have a perception of the world that
Speaker 1: is very how do I put this, like, you know,
Speaker 1: grateful for the little things that you see.
Speaker 19: Yo, I've actually I've got people told you that before,
Speaker 19: Like that's one of the things that they like about me, Like, oh, like.
Speaker 13: I really like your energy.
Speaker 19: I like that it doesn't take much to make you happy,
Speaker 19: or that you see things that other people don't. That's like,
Speaker 19: I don't know all so oh I'm like, Gusha, that's
Speaker 19: so cool that you got that from me, And like,
Speaker 19: I don't know a couple and as I sit on
Speaker 19: the phone, I'm sorry, huh what tears you down?
Speaker 1: Then?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 1: Godha in the world as acutely as the season did.
Speaker 19: So, like I guess for me, I don't know, I
Speaker 19: feel like this is silly to say, but like it
Speaker 19: really breaks my heart when I find out people lie
Speaker 19: to me, or like when people just are going ou
Speaker 19: under their way to hurt others. Like I won't ramble
Speaker 19: too long, But I was in school, like college, I
Speaker 19: like dropped out because like mental health, and you know,
Speaker 19: COVID happened like a couple months later, so perfect timing.
Speaker 19: But I was in like fashion Coston in nine school
Speaker 19: and it was really competitive, and I hated that. I
Speaker 19: am not a really competitive person. I don't really believe
Speaker 19: in stuffing on people to get ahead in life. That's
Speaker 19: just not the kind of person I am. And it
Speaker 19: would really hurt me when I would see it in
Speaker 19: like my department.
Speaker 13: Because that's just not me.
Speaker 19: I even got ridiculed for it by my peers and
Speaker 19: my teacher's like, oh, you need to like step up,
Speaker 19: you need to be more aggressive, and I'm like, I'm sorry,
Speaker 19: I'm just not that kind of person.
Speaker 1: As though being aggressive is something that was required of
Speaker 1: you to succeed in this field.
Speaker 19: Yeah, I did, and it like really bothered me.
Speaker 1: Then I feel like, all right, if everyone's saying, if
Speaker 1: everyone is saying you have to be an asshole, you
Speaker 1: have to be aggressive to succeed in this thing. I
Speaker 1: think you then stand out if you are not that thing. Like,
Speaker 1: I think that's kind of bullshit. Honestly, that someone told
Speaker 1: you that you have to be aggressive or step on
Speaker 1: other people, because if you do the opposite of what
Speaker 1: other people are doing, I actually think you'll stand out more.
Speaker 1: I think people are telling you that they might just
Speaker 1: have gotten burned or something, right, and they you know,
Speaker 1: if if everyone, I mean, it just perpetuates the myth. Right,
Speaker 1: if everyone is under this idea that you have to
Speaker 1: be an asshole to succeed, that everyone's going to keep
Speaker 1: doing it until someone comes and they break the chain
Speaker 1: and they stick to their goddamn core values. Rue. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I think I think you should. I think you should
Speaker 1: keep going. But I think you got to do it.
Speaker 1: You got to do it your way through, You got
Speaker 1: to do it your way. Uh.
Speaker 19: That really resonated with me, man, Thank you. That's I
Speaker 19: needed to hear that. I've really doubted my talents at times,
Speaker 19: and I've even wondered if I shouldn't even go back
Speaker 19: to college or just learn on my own and start
Speaker 19: my own business or whatever, because I really.
Speaker 1: Wanted to be at that and start your own business
Speaker 1: instead of going to college. To college is kind of scam.
Speaker 13: You're absolutely right.
Speaker 19: I agree with you, and god, yeah you know what,
Speaker 19: like fuck it man, I've been wanting to like do
Speaker 19: my dream and like do stuff and like it.
Speaker 16: Wow.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah that's yeah, thank you.
Speaker 18: This is your sign, oh man.
Speaker 1: And when you become a when you become a thing
Speaker 1: person in the fashion industry, I need you to knit
Speaker 1: me a new Gecko costume because I have this problem where, like,
Speaker 1: you know, if I if I want to keep doing
Speaker 1: this stream like in my own house, right, like it's
Speaker 1: totally the all right. When I try to walk in
Speaker 1: the suit, I don't know this, but like the tips
Speaker 1: are all flop. The tips are floppy. So when I
Speaker 1: try to walk, I like I end up stepping on
Speaker 1: the tips. So I need you to become a famous
Speaker 1: fashion designer person and help me out with that issue specifically.
Speaker 19: Yeah, no problem man. I Actually I've considered wanting to
Speaker 19: like make custom like first suits and stuff because like
Speaker 19: that business pays pretty decent money as a freelancer if
Speaker 19: you can get clients.
Speaker 12: Like yo, I got you.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you so much for calling in ru. I
Speaker 1: wish you the best of luck moving forward.
Speaker 19: Yeah, of course, thank you so much for just your time.
Speaker 19: You literally made my night like I appreciate that so much.
Speaker 1: Absolutely you have a good rest of that ever, thank
Speaker 1: you you too.
Speaker 15: Hi.
Speaker 1: Never Begn goes on the line making your phone calls
Speaker 1: every
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