WEBVTT - WHAT COLOR IS RED? 0:00:00.000 --> 0:00:01.520 Did you guys know you're supposed to brush your teeth 0:00:01.560 --> 0:00:05.760 twice a day and you're supposed to floss. I went 0:00:05.760 --> 0:00:07.120 to the dentist the other day. They gave me something 0:00:07.160 --> 0:00:09.360 called a water pick. Do you guys know what that is? 0:00:09.920 --> 0:00:11.520 They told me If I don't use it, I'm gonna 0:00:11.520 --> 0:00:13.119 get some sort of gun disease. And I still haven't 0:00:13.200 --> 0:00:13.520 used it. 0:00:14.080 --> 0:00:14.280 I know. 0:00:14.360 --> 0:00:18.480 It takes up so much time flossing and brushing your teeth, 0:00:18.520 --> 0:00:22.880 and god fuck. You go to the dentist and like, 0:00:22.880 --> 0:00:24.360 all right, here's why your teeth throw fucked up. And 0:00:24.360 --> 0:00:25.960 you have to do these things that are gonna take 0:00:26.320 --> 0:00:28.920 a half hour. It's gonna take it a half hour 0:00:28.960 --> 0:00:31.440 in the morning and at night. And then you go 0:00:32.080 --> 0:00:34.160 you try to pay your taxes and they say says 0:00:34.159 --> 0:00:36.159 something's wrong, that doesn't work. And then you go to 0:00:36.240 --> 0:00:38.839 the knee doctor and your knee is fucked up. And 0:00:38.880 --> 0:00:42.040 then you get a text from someone it's like five 0:00:42.080 --> 0:00:45.000 paragraphs long, and so you have to also write five 0:00:45.040 --> 0:00:47.040 paragraphs or also looks like you're snubbing them, and you're 0:00:47.080 --> 0:00:51.160 just like fuck this, I'm gonna go play Super Mario 0:00:51.240 --> 0:00:57.280 sixty four. All right, let's take calls, It goes on 0:00:57.400 --> 0:01:14.440 the line. Take your calls. 0:01:11.600 --> 0:01:14.000 All from bloony. 0:01:16.000 --> 0:01:16.520 Blooney. 0:01:18.840 --> 0:01:19.760 Hey, So. 0:01:21.680 --> 0:01:24.440 Did you brush your teet this morning? No? 0:01:24.560 --> 0:01:24.959 I didn't. 0:01:25.680 --> 0:01:29.679 Why not? Did you? 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:32.280 Why didn't you brush your teeth this morning? 0:01:33.480 --> 0:01:35.080 I never do? 0:01:35.120 --> 0:01:38.440 You never brush your teeth hardly ever, it's been in 0:01:38.440 --> 0:01:43.360 the years. Are you okay? Or the decaying? 0:01:44.640 --> 0:01:44.720 Oh? 0:01:44.800 --> 0:01:45.959 Yeah, they're pretty bad? 0:01:46.440 --> 0:01:46.640 Does that? 0:01:46.959 --> 0:01:47.840 Does that bother you? 0:01:49.600 --> 0:01:49.800 Say? 0:01:49.840 --> 0:01:52.000 What does that bother you? 0:01:53.760 --> 0:01:53.960 Yeah? 0:01:54.040 --> 0:01:56.240 A little bit, Like I'll probably go get in six eventually, 0:01:56.280 --> 0:01:58.080 but I just haven't uh. 0:01:59.600 --> 0:02:00.320 Happened yet. 0:02:00.920 --> 0:02:02.960 You know what I find interesting about this is that 0:02:03.680 --> 0:02:07.600 imagine two types of guys. Uh, there's one who doesn't brush, 0:02:07.760 --> 0:02:10.040 who just never brushes their teeth, hasn't brushed the teeth 0:02:10.040 --> 0:02:12.200 in years, but it's kind of like, eh, I'll get 0:02:12.200 --> 0:02:17.200 a fixed latter, versus a person who obsessively compulsively brushes 0:02:17.240 --> 0:02:20.880 their teeth twice a day, lost mouth washed, the whole gambit, 0:02:21.360 --> 0:02:25.720 but is consistently is but does so because they're just 0:02:26.000 --> 0:02:31.240 so worried. They have so much stress about having perfect teeth. 0:02:31.919 --> 0:02:37.920 They want it so badly, they're so scared which person 0:02:39.960 --> 0:02:44.080 is doing better? The one that has the thing but 0:02:44.240 --> 0:02:46.160 is so worried about losing it, or the one that 0:02:46.639 --> 0:02:51.600 doesn't have it but doesn't even seem to want it. 0:02:52.919 --> 0:02:54.399 Yeah, I mean I don't know. I don't really worry 0:02:54.400 --> 0:02:57.880 about things. I don't have a lot of stress, but 0:02:58.960 --> 0:03:00.079 I mean I don't really take care of my so 0:03:00.200 --> 0:03:01.519 some probable we're not going to live that long. 0:03:01.560 --> 0:03:05.040 So that sound amazing. How how old are you know? 0:03:06.480 --> 0:03:06.919 Thirty eight? 0:03:08.960 --> 0:03:09.480 Thirty eight? 0:03:09.639 --> 0:03:10.880 That's pretty good. 0:03:11.560 --> 0:03:13.440 I mean, yeah, I heard the over bus on my teeth. Yeah, 0:03:13.400 --> 0:03:13.960 it's not too bad. 0:03:14.760 --> 0:03:15.080 All right. 0:03:15.120 --> 0:03:17.000 We were talking about this earlier. You know, I was 0:03:17.040 --> 0:03:19.480 trying to meet someone who lived pretty long, but without 0:03:19.960 --> 0:03:22.360 having ad donal hygiene. You lived pretty long. You have 0:03:22.360 --> 0:03:23.960 no stress, you have nothing stresses you out? 0:03:24.800 --> 0:03:25.880 Well, I mean I have stress. 0:03:25.880 --> 0:03:29.000 I mean like I have, you know, work issues and things, 0:03:29.200 --> 0:03:31.720 you know, relationship issues. It's things that everybody has, but 0:03:31.840 --> 0:03:39.760 I just try output about them. 0:03:39.920 --> 0:03:40.960 Have you ever been in love? 0:03:43.280 --> 0:03:46.840 Oh? I think so? 0:03:47.520 --> 0:03:47.760 Yeah? 0:03:47.800 --> 0:03:50.080 I mean I mean I'm married, so I mean I 0:03:50.080 --> 0:03:52.800 should trouble we say, yeah, I. 0:03:52.680 --> 0:03:54.920 Mean, are you not sure whether or not you love 0:03:54.960 --> 0:03:55.400 your wife? 0:03:58.400 --> 0:03:59.200 I mean, what is love? 0:03:59.320 --> 0:03:59.560 Really? 0:04:01.800 --> 0:04:03.800 I think that's up for each individual to decide on 0:04:03.840 --> 0:04:10.040 their own. Yeah, what do you think they answer that question. 0:04:12.520 --> 0:04:14.400 I've ever been in love? What I think the answer is? 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:17.080 I don't know. 0:04:16.480 --> 0:04:21.920 I don't know what is love? What is Is this 0:04:22.000 --> 0:04:23.240 something you've thought about that much? 0:04:23.360 --> 0:04:30.880 Even a little bit, not a whole lot. Chocolate's pretty close, 0:04:30.960 --> 0:04:35.560 I think, mm hmmm, But uh, yeah, I don't know. 0:04:36.320 --> 0:04:37.400 Do you think your wife loves you? 0:04:38.720 --> 0:04:39.200 Not really? 0:04:39.360 --> 0:04:40.920 Nah? 0:04:41.920 --> 0:04:45.120 I mean she tolerates me. Uh you know, it's kind 0:04:45.120 --> 0:04:46.800 of a symbiotic relationship. 0:04:46.839 --> 0:04:48.880 I guess does she love me? 0:04:49.040 --> 0:04:49.120 Like? 0:04:49.600 --> 0:04:51.039 Maybe? I don't know. 0:04:51.600 --> 0:04:52.680 Why do you think she doesn't love you? 0:04:55.040 --> 0:04:55.840 She's just kind of mean? 0:04:56.920 --> 0:04:59.080 This mean to you? 0:04:59.120 --> 0:04:59.920 What do you mean to every? 0:05:00.120 --> 0:05:01.960 And that just means she's just kind of a person. 0:05:02.600 --> 0:05:04.719 Can I get like a concrete example of your wife 0:05:04.760 --> 0:05:06.960 being mean? Like a situation of some kind and which 0:05:07.040 --> 0:05:10.200 choos mean, even. 0:05:10.040 --> 0:05:10.800 If it's a small one. 0:05:13.360 --> 0:05:16.240 It's it's little things like she'll you know, move myself, 0:05:16.279 --> 0:05:18.240 Like I'll have something in a certain place and you 0:05:18.279 --> 0:05:20.200 know she maybe she doesn't like fair, so she'll put 0:05:20.240 --> 0:05:22.279 it somewhere else. Then I gotta go find it, you know, 0:05:22.320 --> 0:05:23.000 little things like. 0:05:23.000 --> 0:05:25.760 That, And she just so intentionally just to make your 0:05:25.800 --> 0:05:26.320 life harder. 0:05:27.600 --> 0:05:29.200 I think so, I mean I don't know. I mean, 0:05:29.200 --> 0:05:31.359 maybe she really doesn't want anything on the counter. Maybe 0:05:31.400 --> 0:05:33.640 she's like impulsive about that, but. 0:05:35.080 --> 0:05:35.719 It's annoying. 0:05:35.760 --> 0:05:35.960 You know. 0:05:36.520 --> 0:05:38.680 That doesn't sound so much mean as it does like 0:05:38.680 --> 0:05:40.839 she's trying to clean the common spaces of your house. 0:05:42.160 --> 0:05:44.760 Well, I mean, okay, let's talk about like your bathroom 0:05:44.800 --> 0:05:48.880 for instance, Like do you have a perfectly empty counter 0:05:49.000 --> 0:05:50.640 and next to your sink except really maybe be a 0:05:50.640 --> 0:05:51.800 soap bottle on your toothbrush? 0:05:52.520 --> 0:05:52.560 No? 0:05:53.360 --> 0:05:55.000 Well, I mean that's just it seems like part of 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:59.599 the just the the difficulties of having a shared space 0:05:59.600 --> 0:06:02.719 with someone, unless so like a marital thing. 0:06:03.760 --> 0:06:06.240 Well, the thing is, this is kind of like not 0:06:06.279 --> 0:06:09.320 necessarily my own private bathroom, but it's like the bathroom 0:06:09.560 --> 0:06:11.880 attached to my office and nobody else really uses it, 0:06:13.040 --> 0:06:17.359 so it's kind of like my personal space. Not really similar. 0:06:17.400 --> 0:06:17.599 Hard. 0:06:19.240 --> 0:06:19.760 Do you have a kid? 0:06:20.040 --> 0:06:22.840 That's the way I feel? Well, yeah, several kids? 0:06:23.279 --> 0:06:23.880 How many kids? 0:06:25.320 --> 0:06:25.560 Three? 0:06:25.560 --> 0:06:26.400 And four? 0:06:27.440 --> 0:06:31.160 Yeah? Why did you have to think about how many 0:06:31.240 --> 0:06:32.560 kids you have? 0:06:34.440 --> 0:06:34.560 Well? 0:06:34.600 --> 0:06:36.760 It depends like not all of them are mine. 0:06:36.560 --> 0:06:39.359 Biologically, but there are four people I would consider my children. 0:06:40.080 --> 0:06:45.240 Okay, that's what matters. Do you love them? 0:06:45.320 --> 0:06:45.560 I do? 0:06:45.640 --> 0:06:46.200 Love my kids. 0:06:46.279 --> 0:06:49.279 Yeah, I think, And maybe I don't know. 0:06:49.279 --> 0:06:51.960 Maybe I wasn't really thinking about them when you question earlier. 0:06:52.080 --> 0:06:53.839 Maybe that's a different kind of love that I wasn't 0:06:53.880 --> 0:06:56.560 really associating with no love. 0:06:57.160 --> 0:06:59.440 Yeah, I actually totally think it's a different kind of love. 0:06:59.480 --> 0:07:03.480 Like when I think about well, I've thought about this 0:07:03.480 --> 0:07:05.159 personally in a long time. I'm like, I could see 0:07:05.200 --> 0:07:07.239 myself like if I had if I had a child, 0:07:07.240 --> 0:07:10.800 I could see myself really loving a child. I could 0:07:10.840 --> 0:07:14.720 understand that kind of love. But romantic love is a 0:07:14.720 --> 0:07:18.840 bit trickier. It feels like it's a whole another category. 0:07:18.960 --> 0:07:22.200 I mean, it's, uh, there's other things to consider, you know, 0:07:22.280 --> 0:07:27.800 it's uh, you know, there's sexual relationships. Do you really 0:07:27.800 --> 0:07:29.120 love them or do you just want to have sex 0:07:29.120 --> 0:07:29.400 with them? 0:07:29.440 --> 0:07:33.080 Like you know, that can be hard to figure out. 0:07:33.080 --> 0:07:35.400 But you know with with kids, like for me, at 0:07:35.480 --> 0:07:38.320 least like the moment they're born, Like I wasn't sure 0:07:38.400 --> 0:07:40.440 like before my kids were born, And this is the 0:07:40.520 --> 0:07:44.440 same like for each kid, well especially most especially the 0:07:44.440 --> 0:07:48.080 first one, but before they're born, like I don't, I mean, 0:07:48.120 --> 0:07:50.400 I don't know this person, they're not born yet. Am 0:07:50.400 --> 0:07:52.760 I going to love them? When they come out. And 0:07:52.800 --> 0:07:55.320 I didn't know the answer to that until the first 0:07:55.360 --> 0:07:57.520 one came out. Like this is a new person. I 0:07:57.560 --> 0:07:59.800 love this person. I'll do anything for this person. 0:08:00.520 --> 0:08:00.640 Hm. 0:08:00.880 --> 0:08:03.320 And uh yeah, I feel that way about all my kids. 0:08:03.360 --> 0:08:05.000 I think I would do anything for them. Maybe that's 0:08:05.040 --> 0:08:07.720 what love is, being in that position where you would 0:08:07.760 --> 0:08:11.000 do anything, including giving your life for them. M. 0:08:14.880 --> 0:08:15.800 Did I answer your question? 0:08:15.840 --> 0:08:16.240 I might have. 0:08:16.520 --> 0:08:20.120 I forgot things sometimes M. 0:08:23.760 --> 0:08:29.360 Yeah. M it is interesting, you know. I mean I 0:08:29.400 --> 0:08:31.280 don't have a wife or have kids, but I can 0:08:31.320 --> 0:08:34.280 imagine that that those are two very different kinds of love. 0:08:35.600 --> 0:08:39.720 Yeah, yeah, definitely. 0:08:42.120 --> 0:08:43.560 Why do you stay with your wife if you don't 0:08:43.559 --> 0:08:44.720 love her and if she's. 0:08:44.520 --> 0:08:47.520 Mean to you because my teeth are fucked up and 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:48.400 no one else will be with me? 0:08:52.160 --> 0:08:54.520 Does that bother you? 0:08:54.520 --> 0:08:54.600 No? 0:08:54.840 --> 0:08:56.959 Not really, because I'm kind of like I don't really 0:08:57.000 --> 0:09:01.640 care about relationship but anymore, uh Like, I still like 0:09:02.480 --> 0:09:06.720 I would like to have like a active, like sexual relationship, 0:09:06.760 --> 0:09:09.200 and we we I do have that with my wife. 0:09:09.200 --> 0:09:10.760 It's not like all the time, but you know, it's 0:09:11.040 --> 0:09:12.000 it's it is there. 0:09:14.840 --> 0:09:17.440 So like I'm not really like interested in getting in 0:09:17.640 --> 0:09:21.120 with anybody else. I wouldn't really cheat on my wife 0:09:21.160 --> 0:09:24.320 even if you know I could. But I mean, it's 0:09:24.440 --> 0:09:27.720 just it's more convenience. I guess, like we've been married, 0:09:27.720 --> 0:09:29.600 we've been we haven't really been married that long where 0:09:29.600 --> 0:09:32.800 we've been together a very long time. And uh, you know, 0:09:32.840 --> 0:09:36.240 we have four kids together, so I don't really want 0:09:36.280 --> 0:09:39.000 to put them through some of the same situations that 0:09:39.040 --> 0:09:41.320 I went through when I was a kid with a 0:09:41.360 --> 0:09:44.600 single mom and all that. So, you know, random dudes 0:09:44.640 --> 0:09:46.480 coming in and out of the house. You know, I 0:09:46.520 --> 0:09:49.280 don't want to put them in that situation. So at 0:09:49.360 --> 0:09:54.600 least trying to keep saying stable and together as long 0:09:54.640 --> 0:09:57.280 as they're still with us. 0:09:59.480 --> 0:10:01.679 Yeah, you know, like a guy who doesn't care about anything, 0:10:02.520 --> 0:10:03.640 you s gonna make you care a lot about your 0:10:03.679 --> 0:10:04.319 kids at least. 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:06.760 Yeah, I mean, I do care about my kids. 0:10:07.360 --> 0:10:09.800 I just maybe I don't really care about myself as 0:10:09.880 --> 0:10:11.120 much as I should, but I do care. 0:10:11.000 --> 0:10:11.800 About my kids. 0:10:16.160 --> 0:10:17.880 Do you feel like you should care more about yourself? 0:10:19.400 --> 0:10:22.480 Probably? Yeah, for their sake, But I mean I think 0:10:22.480 --> 0:10:25.400 it's a I know you're not a real therapist. I mean, 0:10:25.400 --> 0:10:27.400 you're not qualified to give any advice. I'm not looking 0:10:27.440 --> 0:10:29.520 for that, but I think it probably is, you know, 0:10:30.360 --> 0:10:31.680 mental health issues, things like that. 0:10:31.679 --> 0:10:33.120 I probably should go see a real therapist. 0:10:33.240 --> 0:10:38.559 But again, like, uh, you know, the depression and anxiety 0:10:38.559 --> 0:10:40.640 and things like that keep it to make it difficult 0:10:41.520 --> 0:10:43.160 to even go out and seek that kind of help 0:10:43.160 --> 0:10:43.400 you need. 0:10:43.480 --> 0:10:52.679 Sometimes I've heard that, uh, having kids helps with that 0:10:52.800 --> 0:10:56.040 a little bit, at least, at least in like giving 0:10:56.080 --> 0:10:58.800 you something outside of yourself to care about. So like 0:10:58.800 --> 0:11:00.880 if you don't care about yourself, least you care about 0:11:01.360 --> 0:11:04.760 something you have some purpose. 0:11:09.960 --> 0:11:11.520 Yeah, I mean, at the same time, like. 0:11:13.679 --> 0:11:15.520 I feel like I don't necessarily want to be defined 0:11:15.520 --> 0:11:20.320 by that either, Like I would be more than you know. 0:11:20.360 --> 0:11:22.040 I mean, I try to be a good dad, but 0:11:22.120 --> 0:11:23.800 that's like not all that I am. That's not what 0:11:24.240 --> 0:11:26.800 the only thing I want to be remembered for. But 0:11:26.880 --> 0:11:28.559 then like at the same time, like that I even 0:11:29.120 --> 0:11:29.880 want to be remembered. 0:11:29.920 --> 0:11:30.320 I don't know. 0:11:33.000 --> 0:11:34.640 Do you have ideas of things that you would want 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:37.320 to be? You know, you say you don't want to 0:11:37.320 --> 0:11:39.200 define yourself just by your kids. Do you have other 0:11:39.240 --> 0:11:40.640 things that you would like to be defined by. 0:11:42.559 --> 0:11:42.960 I don't know. 0:11:43.080 --> 0:11:46.079 See, there's kind of like a lot of things that 0:11:46.160 --> 0:11:48.560 means that I never found like one specific thing that 0:11:48.600 --> 0:11:49.240 I really liked. 0:11:49.280 --> 0:11:49.439 You know. 0:11:50.320 --> 0:11:54.080 Ah, I guess I never really figured out who I 0:11:54.120 --> 0:11:54.800 wanted to be. 0:11:55.640 --> 0:11:58.319 I see you like you therapy decades, can go. 0:11:58.320 --> 0:12:01.439 On the internet and talk people just up in a gecko. 0:12:01.480 --> 0:12:02.680 So that's that's really awesome. 0:12:02.679 --> 0:12:03.160 I love that. 0:12:03.640 --> 0:12:05.800 I think that's cool that you found something that you 0:12:05.840 --> 0:12:09.760 can be. Maybe you don't want to be remembered that forever. 0:12:10.480 --> 0:12:11.840 Maybe you'd rather be ferred. 0:12:11.600 --> 0:12:15.640 As while I don't know, but I have no idea, Like. 0:12:15.600 --> 0:12:19.360 There's so many options and I couldn't even pick one, 0:12:19.520 --> 0:12:21.079 or even if I did, I don't know if that 0:12:21.080 --> 0:12:22.679 I was the courage to actually like follow through and 0:12:22.760 --> 0:12:23.040 do it. 0:12:24.080 --> 0:12:30.679 M Yeah, dude, I actually I mean, you know, if 0:12:30.679 --> 0:12:35.520 you're bringing me into it a little bit, you know, yeah, 0:12:35.679 --> 0:12:39.120 I think i'd like to be, you know, doing more 0:12:39.200 --> 0:12:42.679 than just being a gecko. I like being a gecko. 0:12:43.600 --> 0:12:45.439 Maybe it's in a similar way of like, you know, 0:12:46.240 --> 0:12:47.800 you want to be more than just your kids, but 0:12:48.240 --> 0:12:49.840 you of course love your kids. 0:12:52.559 --> 0:12:54.960 Yeah, I mean I guess you could probably consider like therapy, 0:12:55.000 --> 0:12:58.360 getto like that's your baby, right, Do you love therapy? 0:12:58.440 --> 0:12:58.760 Gecko? 0:12:59.679 --> 0:13:02.680 I actually think of therapy gecko like he's my boyfriend. 0:13:05.600 --> 0:13:06.080 That's good. 0:13:07.960 --> 0:13:15.480 We didn't ask the question, or do you love therapy. 0:13:15.080 --> 0:13:16.520 Like as a child? 0:13:17.280 --> 0:13:18.000 In anyway? 0:13:18.120 --> 0:13:20.599 I don't know whatever, whatever you whatever love means to you. 0:13:20.800 --> 0:13:21.800 How do you feel about therapy? 0:13:21.880 --> 0:13:26.839 Peco oh man, I don't know if well, you know, 0:13:27.000 --> 0:13:30.400 I also I don't really have a similar I don't 0:13:30.400 --> 0:13:32.439 really have a definition of love either. I don't know 0:13:32.480 --> 0:13:35.080 if I believe in love. Well, like I was saying, 0:13:36.600 --> 0:13:40.240 it's a romantic love, I don't know. But I could 0:13:40.240 --> 0:13:44.880 love a child, I think not. You know, I could 0:13:44.960 --> 0:13:46.480 love my child. 0:13:47.120 --> 0:13:50.680 Yeah, well that's something you just don't really know until. 0:13:50.440 --> 0:13:51.520 You experience it yourself. 0:13:51.520 --> 0:13:53.560 I think, Yeah, I think so too. 0:13:55.320 --> 0:13:58.240 I mean I know you have, I said, baloney, I 0:13:58.280 --> 0:13:59.959 just really wanted to agree say that because everybody was 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:01.760 woman that read a chat talking about Bologne. 0:14:01.800 --> 0:14:02.880 How're gonna talk about belonging? 0:14:02.920 --> 0:14:05.080 So I just had to give that to them. 0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:06.760 What were you going to say before I asked her 0:14:06.760 --> 0:14:07.079 your name? 0:14:07.240 --> 0:14:07.320 Was? 0:14:08.600 --> 0:14:09.040 Uh? 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:10.520 What we was I gonna say? I think you? 0:14:11.040 --> 0:14:12.480 I know you have a sister and you brought her 0:14:12.520 --> 0:14:13.040 on her before. 0:14:13.080 --> 0:14:14.319 I mean, you love her sister? 0:14:15.559 --> 0:14:19.520 Yeah, of course I love my sister. So you feel 0:14:20.320 --> 0:14:22.000 but I mean, I think that that's a different love too, 0:14:22.080 --> 0:14:23.800 Like I don't think I love my sister in the 0:14:23.800 --> 0:14:26.560 same way that I would love someone romantically, or that 0:14:26.600 --> 0:14:27.400 I would love my kid. 0:14:28.240 --> 0:14:30.720 Yeah, familiarly, I. 0:14:30.680 --> 0:14:35.360 Probably love my sister in a similar isshu way that 0:14:35.480 --> 0:14:41.960 I love my parents, you know, familial love. 0:14:42.960 --> 0:14:47.560 Yeah, that's that's a separate thing from romantic for our child. 0:14:47.640 --> 0:14:54.640 Really, what did you say? Your name was Bologna. Thank 0:14:54.680 --> 0:14:56.240 you for sharing with us this evening, Bologney. 0:14:57.040 --> 0:14:57.880 Yeah, no problem yet. 0:14:57.880 --> 0:14:58.760 I'll talk to you again later. 0:14:59.160 --> 0:14:59.920 It's pleasure talking. 0:15:00.040 --> 0:15:07.480 Yeah, yep, all from Katie. 0:15:09.480 --> 0:15:09.960 Katie. 0:15:11.920 --> 0:15:14.640 Hey, what's up, Katy? 0:15:14.680 --> 0:15:15.440 What year were you born? 0:15:16.800 --> 0:15:17.440 Ninety seven? 0:15:18.360 --> 0:15:20.000 Ninety seven? That was a good year. 0:15:21.280 --> 0:15:22.640 Were you alive for that? 0:15:27.920 --> 0:15:29.359 What do you do for a living. 0:15:31.000 --> 0:15:35.400 Right now? I stay at home and I'm a dog mom. 0:15:35.400 --> 0:15:37.360 You're dog mom? 0:15:37.440 --> 0:15:37.640 Yeah? 0:15:38.840 --> 0:15:39.640 How old the dog? 0:15:41.080 --> 0:15:43.680 I think it's too We just rescued him and arrest you. 0:15:43.720 --> 0:15:50.080 You there's a lot of purpose that one receives when 0:15:50.080 --> 0:15:54.520 they're taking care of something, when something is required requires 0:15:54.640 --> 0:15:56.960 them to get out of bed in the morning in 0:15:57.080 --> 0:15:58.120 order for them not to die. 0:15:59.600 --> 0:16:01.600 Yeah, exactly. You hit the nail on the head with 0:16:01.640 --> 0:16:05.920 that one. Yeah, I have a question for you, since 0:16:05.920 --> 0:16:07.840 you are a therapy get goo. 0:16:09.040 --> 0:16:11.720 Oh boy, yeah, I know. 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:16.520 It's a big one. So I kind of lost a 0:16:16.520 --> 0:16:22.680 lot of respect from my friends and family recently, and 0:16:22.760 --> 0:16:24.640 I told a story that I thought was going to 0:16:24.720 --> 0:16:26.880 go over really well. I thought it was going to 0:16:26.920 --> 0:16:30.760 be hilarious from my childhood, and I think they were 0:16:30.800 --> 0:16:34.320 just disgusted and horrified instead. And I can tell that 0:16:34.440 --> 0:16:37.600 I've definitely lost their respect, So I'm not sure if 0:16:37.600 --> 0:16:38.800 there's a way to regain it. 0:16:40.320 --> 0:16:42.080 Why is your family's respect important to you? 0:16:44.000 --> 0:16:46.280 Because I love them, I want them to respect me. 0:16:47.440 --> 0:16:50.800 You can love someone without requiring their approval. 0:16:53.960 --> 0:16:56.640 To be fair, the story I told was pretty gross, 0:16:56.840 --> 0:16:59.280 so I could understand why they lost respect for me. 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:01.520 I just wanted know. 0:17:01.480 --> 0:17:02.280 How to get it back. 0:17:04.200 --> 0:17:07.200 I think you should reevaluate why it's important to because 0:17:07.200 --> 0:17:10.800 I don't think you fully understand. It doesn't appear to me. 0:17:12.359 --> 0:17:15.439 Do you have a good reason for wanting your family's respect. 0:17:15.800 --> 0:17:18.199 Well, I guess that's fair, But I have friends that 0:17:18.320 --> 0:17:21.240 I kind of chose for myself and my partner, so 0:17:21.280 --> 0:17:22.199 I'm kind of worried. 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:26.159 Well, here's the thing, right, here's the thing, you know, 0:17:27.920 --> 0:17:31.080 I think it's more important for you to be able 0:17:31.080 --> 0:17:33.280 to speak open and honestly about the experiences of your 0:17:33.280 --> 0:17:37.560 life than it is for you to have the approval 0:17:38.040 --> 0:17:42.040 of the people around you. But you know that's a choice, right, 0:17:42.160 --> 0:17:43.280 That's not a choice for me to make for you. 0:17:43.359 --> 0:17:45.439 That's choice for you to make for yourself. It's more 0:17:45.440 --> 0:17:48.640 important you being able to live freely or you having 0:17:48.800 --> 0:17:51.000 positive approval of your family. 0:17:51.840 --> 0:17:54.320 Can I tell you the story so you can analyze 0:17:54.320 --> 0:17:56.800 whether you think it was an appropriate response from them. 0:17:57.720 --> 0:18:02.360 It's really short, can I? And by the way, did 0:18:02.359 --> 0:18:04.119 you did you just call it? Tell the story? 0:18:05.160 --> 0:18:08.919 I mean kind of yeah, okay, but I mean I 0:18:08.960 --> 0:18:11.439 did just recently tell this story in front of my 0:18:11.480 --> 0:18:14.560 friends and family and lost respect. 0:18:14.680 --> 0:18:20.119 So look, there's nothing wrong with that, because it seems 0:18:20.119 --> 0:18:21.240 like you just want you want to tell a story. 0:18:21.480 --> 0:18:22.119 What's the story? 0:18:22.760 --> 0:18:26.240 Well, the story I hadn't told anyone before, so that's 0:18:26.359 --> 0:18:28.240 kind of why I wanted to call in and get 0:18:28.280 --> 0:18:33.879 your opinions. Yeah, I told them, Well, my parents knew this, 0:18:34.040 --> 0:18:36.240 but my new family, my partner didn't know. 0:18:37.160 --> 0:18:38.720 I never told you. 0:18:38.720 --> 0:18:40.760 No, I hadn't told anybody before. 0:18:41.680 --> 0:18:42.600 When I was a little. 0:18:42.440 --> 0:18:48.000 Kid, I wasn't how long I can keep this conversation 0:18:48.160 --> 0:18:52.120 going before you tell the story. And I think it's 0:18:52.160 --> 0:18:53.560 going to happen. I think, I think we're going to 0:18:53.640 --> 0:18:57.040 hear this. I think we'll hear the story, right, happen. 0:18:58.200 --> 0:18:59.240 Yes, it's going to happen. 0:18:59.320 --> 0:19:01.800 As soon as you was talking, I thought just now 0:19:01.800 --> 0:19:05.240 about hanging up, because that would be really funny for me, 0:19:05.400 --> 0:19:08.480 But I think that hurt my feelings. 0:19:08.600 --> 0:19:10.720 Fuck all right, well, let me just tell you. 0:19:11.200 --> 0:19:12.720 Why would I hurt your feelings if I hung up 0:19:12.760 --> 0:19:12.960 on you? 0:19:13.880 --> 0:19:16.479 Because I've been calling you, trying to reach you and 0:19:16.560 --> 0:19:18.760 to tell you my story and get your opinion on it. 0:19:18.920 --> 0:19:23.480 I think that you what just her name was, Katie? Katie, 0:19:23.480 --> 0:19:25.960 You guys, stop valuing the approval of you know, your parents, 0:19:26.040 --> 0:19:27.320 of me, of your friends. 0:19:28.240 --> 0:19:29.800 I so deeply craved that. 0:19:30.359 --> 0:19:34.600 Honestly, it's a deep craving of mine. But I also 0:19:34.800 --> 0:19:37.480 kind of undermined that by telling people really gross stories 0:19:37.520 --> 0:19:38.240 from my childhood. 0:19:38.280 --> 0:19:40.600 Apparently for yourself, Katie. 0:19:41.240 --> 0:19:44.119 Yeah, I knew well anyway. I wasn't allowed to have 0:19:44.200 --> 0:19:46.960 sugar as a kid, or gum anything like that, so 0:19:47.119 --> 0:19:49.480 I was very repressed, and every time we went to 0:19:49.520 --> 0:19:52.480 a public restaurant, I did this little a game where 0:19:52.480 --> 0:19:54.560 I like to crawl under the table, and my parents 0:19:54.600 --> 0:19:56.640 would always get a kick out of it, thinking I 0:19:56.680 --> 0:19:59.879 was just playing down there, But what I was actually 0:20:00.119 --> 0:20:04.199 doing was finding the softest, most recently chewed pieces of 0:20:04.240 --> 0:20:06.040 gum and popping them in my mouth. 0:20:09.080 --> 0:20:14.200 That's it, Yeah, I mean gum underneath the table when. 0:20:14.040 --> 0:20:16.520 You were a child, Yes, And I would do it 0:20:16.600 --> 0:20:19.040 like every restaurant we went to. I'd like make it 0:20:19.080 --> 0:20:21.560 my goal to find like lime green gum or blue 0:20:21.600 --> 0:20:24.600 gum and just find all my faves, and the older 0:20:24.640 --> 0:20:26.240 they were, the worst they were. So I was always 0:20:26.280 --> 0:20:29.320 going for like the freshest pieces people would just stuck 0:20:29.400 --> 0:20:29.920 under there. 0:20:30.720 --> 0:20:35.920 And then your experience which uh, and then your experience 0:20:36.080 --> 0:20:38.439 which flavor was the most delicious? 0:20:38.880 --> 0:20:40.359 Oh, definitely minty ones. 0:20:40.480 --> 0:20:43.080 They seem to hold more of their mintiness than like 0:20:43.119 --> 0:20:49.000 the fruity gum. 0:20:49.040 --> 0:20:51.119 You should reevaluate your relationship with your parents and why 0:20:51.200 --> 0:20:53.920 you require their approval and then also why they would 0:20:55.200 --> 0:20:57.720 disapprove of you or something so silly. 0:20:57.920 --> 0:21:03.639 Caitlin, Yeah it is, Caitlin. Actually that was intuitive. 0:21:04.359 --> 0:21:06.600 That works out well. Thank you so much for calling Caitlyn. 0:21:06.600 --> 0:21:08.440 You have a the rest of the night, you too, 0:21:08.480 --> 0:21:09.800 get go bye. 0:21:13.440 --> 0:21:15.480 All from Kathy. 0:21:17.000 --> 0:21:29.840 Kathy, Hi, what's up? What are you doing right now? 0:21:31.480 --> 0:21:37.600 I'm laying in bed? So can I ask you a question? 0:21:41.080 --> 0:21:44.800 Do you think there are people predicting the long game 0:21:44.880 --> 0:21:45.760 of our society? 0:21:47.880 --> 0:21:48.160 Yes? 0:21:50.320 --> 0:21:51.360 Who do you think they are? 0:21:54.200 --> 0:22:02.280 Engineers? Leaders in tech and business? 0:22:02.320 --> 0:22:09.400 And how far out do you think they're planning? 0:22:10.200 --> 0:22:22.000 Probably at least fifty years? 0:22:25.080 --> 0:22:27.240 Isn't that fucking nuts? 0:22:29.560 --> 0:22:31.280 Do you fancy yourself a future ologist? 0:22:33.200 --> 0:22:33.280 Not? 0:22:33.400 --> 0:22:33.720 Really. 0:22:34.520 --> 0:22:37.800 I was reading a book about Homo sapiens and I 0:22:37.880 --> 0:22:39.040 just started thinking about that. 0:22:40.640 --> 0:22:42.359 You know what I did a long time ago. I 0:22:42.400 --> 0:22:46.760 haven't done this in a while. But there's this weird feeling, 0:22:47.160 --> 0:22:53.840 like go on Wikipedia and then you can find like 0:22:53.880 --> 0:22:57.480 there's Wikipedia articles for years like you could, like there's 0:22:57.480 --> 0:23:00.320 a Wikipedia article for like the year twenty one hundred, 0:23:02.200 --> 0:23:04.119 and like you know, the year twenty two hundred, the 0:23:04.160 --> 0:23:06.439 year like all these all these years in the future, 0:23:06.760 --> 0:23:09.359 and you can read about what will happen in those years, 0:23:09.440 --> 0:23:11.040 like what people predict will have happened. 0:23:12.680 --> 0:23:13.200 Uh whah. 0:23:14.040 --> 0:23:14.240 Yeah. 0:23:14.280 --> 0:23:16.600 It's it's spooky to read about because you're like, hmm, 0:23:17.960 --> 0:23:22.960 the US will be x amount of carbonion emissions by 0:23:22.960 --> 0:23:24.920 this time, but I'll be it's weird to read about 0:23:24.920 --> 0:23:27.560 all these things that will happen when you're dead. 0:23:28.520 --> 0:23:31.560 And statistically, you know, some of them have to be 0:23:31.800 --> 0:23:34.920 are gonna happen like statistically you know, no. 0:23:34.960 --> 0:23:37.879 Like there's like, god, I can't think of any good examples, 0:23:37.880 --> 0:23:38.879 but if you go to like if you go on 0:23:38.880 --> 0:23:41.920 Wikipedia and you look at like the year twenty one 0:23:42.119 --> 0:23:45.800 three hundred, it'll say something like, I mean, there's it's 0:23:45.840 --> 0:23:48.080 everything from like the Happy Birthday song will be in 0:23:48.119 --> 0:23:52.879 the public domain to like, you know, I think that 0:23:52.880 --> 0:23:54.760 I've read this song is in the public domain. But 0:23:54.960 --> 0:23:56.600 it'll just tell you about little things that have had 0:23:56.680 --> 0:23:58.719 that are going to happen in the future. And then 0:23:58.720 --> 0:24:00.280 you think about, like damn, I won't be a live 0:24:00.880 --> 0:24:03.320 when that happens. Like it'll probably talk about like you know, 0:24:03.400 --> 0:24:11.119 commercial space travel, humans colonizing planets, interesting things that you 0:24:11.160 --> 0:24:12.200 know will be long dead. 0:24:13.520 --> 0:24:16.240 Wild. I love it though, But. 0:24:16.200 --> 0:24:20.320 We're live right now, isn't it cool? What's what is red? Sorry? 0:24:20.320 --> 0:24:22.400 Hold on, I said any of the things I just said, 0:24:22.520 --> 0:24:27.120 But hold on, I'm gonna redo that transition. But we're 0:24:27.160 --> 0:24:30.320 alive right now. What color is red. 0:24:32.320 --> 0:24:37.560 Red. I'm sorry I was. I was listening to this 0:24:37.640 --> 0:24:44.080 earlier today. Red is the Blood of Angry Men. Lame 0:24:44.160 --> 0:24:45.080 miss is on my brain? 0:24:47.440 --> 0:24:51.360 Is that is that from lam Is? Mm hmm. I've 0:24:51.400 --> 0:24:53.720 never seen Lamiz. I've actually never seen a movie longer 0:24:53.720 --> 0:24:54.440 than two hours. 0:24:56.160 --> 0:24:58.800 I haven't seen the movie. I've just seen the musical. 0:25:02.920 --> 0:25:03.800 What did you say? Your name was? 0:25:05.160 --> 0:25:08.000 Kathy? 0:25:08.240 --> 0:25:14.440 My stepmom's name is Kathy. When my dad met I 0:25:14.440 --> 0:25:16.359 think my parents got divorced in two thousand and five, 0:25:19.280 --> 0:25:26.199 and they met when they were like in their they 0:25:26.240 --> 0:25:28.720 reached in their late forties. They met on Jay Date. 0:25:29.000 --> 0:25:34.240 Kathy's not Jewish, my dad is, but she likes Jewish guys. 0:25:34.240 --> 0:25:36.720 So she went on Jada because you don't actually have 0:25:36.760 --> 0:25:39.119 to be Jewish to join Jada eight you know that. 0:25:39.240 --> 0:25:40.960 Oh no, I didn't know that. 0:25:40.880 --> 0:25:42.320 To be Jewish, but she like she wanted to date 0:25:42.359 --> 0:25:45.440 a Jewish guy. I don't know why that was like her, kay, 0:25:46.200 --> 0:25:48.040 And so she she met my dad and and they 0:25:48.040 --> 0:25:50.040 were in their late forties when people are out here like, 0:25:50.400 --> 0:25:52.639 oh no, I'm twenty nine, I'm not married yet. I'm like, 0:25:52.640 --> 0:25:55.120 they met in their late forties. That's incredible. 0:25:55.960 --> 0:26:01.200 Yeah, I feel like they that has more success online. 0:26:05.119 --> 0:26:06.720 Thank you so much for sharing. Kathy, you ever wonder 0:26:06.760 --> 0:26:08.600 for us to name you too? 0:26:08.720 --> 0:26:09.200 Thank you. 0:26:12.600 --> 0:26:15.000 All from Dan. 0:26:16.240 --> 0:26:22.600 Dan My all right, Dan, Hi, we had a woman 0:26:22.800 --> 0:26:26.040 call in. Her name was Kathy, and uh I love 0:26:26.119 --> 0:26:28.400 Kathy was the name of my stepmother, the woman married 0:26:28.400 --> 0:26:31.679 to my father and Dan, would you know this? My 0:26:31.760 --> 0:26:36.200 mother a while after the divorce. Soon after the divorce 0:26:36.320 --> 0:26:38.960 remarried as well. Do you know the name of the 0:26:38.960 --> 0:26:41.160 man that she remarried? This first name? 0:26:41.600 --> 0:26:45.080 What was the remarried? Oh? 0:26:45.119 --> 0:26:54.000 My god, hey, Stepsid. Hello, I have really spotty internet. 0:26:54.040 --> 0:26:55.600 So if you're just not talking right now, I'm going 0:26:55.640 --> 0:26:56.800 to assume I was disconnected. 0:26:57.920 --> 0:26:59.760 Why would you assume that? Why wouldn't you assume that? 0:27:00.960 --> 0:27:03.480 Why do I always say? Why does in all the 0:27:03.480 --> 0:27:06.119 conversations you have, are people just constantly talking all the time? 0:27:07.760 --> 0:27:07.920 No? 0:27:08.040 --> 0:27:11.399 I actually really enjoy just like long moments of silence 0:27:11.440 --> 0:27:15.760 in my conversations. But I am a little nervous talking 0:27:15.760 --> 0:27:17.920 to the gek for the first time. I was literally 0:27:17.960 --> 0:27:19.919 about to hop in the shower and you picked up. 0:27:20.000 --> 0:27:23.760 So I I'm not naked, are you dirty? 0:27:23.760 --> 0:27:24.000 Though? 0:27:25.800 --> 0:27:29.560 I'm filthy? I'm a disgusting little boy that needs to 0:27:29.960 --> 0:27:30.680 shower office. 0:27:30.680 --> 0:27:31.159 Since for the. 0:27:31.200 --> 0:27:34.919 Day, what do you what are you filthy with. 0:27:37.240 --> 0:27:42.760 Just a little sweat? Sweat and and COVID germs? Probably 0:27:42.840 --> 0:27:45.119 I was out and about in the world today, so 0:27:45.600 --> 0:27:48.760 I yeah, yeah, yeah. 0:27:48.840 --> 0:27:51.760 Let me ask you what activities did you partaken that 0:27:51.920 --> 0:27:53.600 led to a breaking of sweat? 0:27:55.040 --> 0:27:55.159 Oh? 0:27:55.240 --> 0:27:56.560 Oh, absolutely nothing. 0:27:56.640 --> 0:27:56.760 Oh. 0:27:56.800 --> 0:27:58.240 I guess this is anonymous, so I could just like 0:27:58.280 --> 0:28:01.000 say whatever I want, except that I get my name. Hello, 0:28:02.359 --> 0:28:08.159 I threw up in my car today, so I just 0:28:08.160 --> 0:28:12.479 got extremely car stick and I and so that was 0:28:12.960 --> 0:28:13.440 not fun. 0:28:15.359 --> 0:28:17.360 That was my day, all right. 0:28:17.400 --> 0:28:18.920 So you threw up in your car, and I'm less 0:28:19.160 --> 0:28:22.720 interested in that as I am Ian. Why you okay? 0:28:22.720 --> 0:28:25.359 You commented on the fact that this is anonymous and 0:28:25.440 --> 0:28:28.720 that no one will know who you are and that 0:28:29.119 --> 0:28:32.199 you threw up in your car. Why so concerned with 0:28:32.359 --> 0:28:34.760 people knowing that you threw up in your car? 0:28:36.400 --> 0:28:37.960 Wile I'm a people pleaser. 0:28:38.200 --> 0:28:40.680 This is a longstanding issue that I have. 0:28:41.680 --> 0:28:44.040 You're people pleas Why would someone be up okay? Why 0:28:44.080 --> 0:28:47.840 would someone be unpleased? All right, Look, if you're a 0:28:47.840 --> 0:28:49.920 people pleaser, if you're if you were in if there 0:28:49.960 --> 0:28:51.800 was someone in the passenger seat and you threw up 0:28:51.800 --> 0:28:54.000 on their laugh. I could understand why that person would 0:28:54.040 --> 0:28:56.960 be unpleased, but I don't see why a person would 0:28:56.960 --> 0:29:00.080 be displeased with you, just as a person, by the 0:29:00.120 --> 0:29:03.240 fact that you threw up in your car. 0:29:04.000 --> 0:29:07.120 This literally happened two years ago, like or last year, 0:29:07.200 --> 0:29:09.880 right before the pandemic started. I was like at a 0:29:09.920 --> 0:29:12.160 club with my friends for New Years and I was dd, 0:29:13.040 --> 0:29:17.280 and of course I was like about to head out, 0:29:17.320 --> 0:29:21.680 and then my friends, who were pretty sober, were like, Hey, 0:29:21.680 --> 0:29:25.560 we're gonna leave. You handle our extremely drunk friends, which 0:29:25.560 --> 0:29:27.440 I thought was kind of shitty, but I did, and 0:29:27.560 --> 0:29:29.760 I helped escort them out to my car, and I 0:29:29.760 --> 0:29:31.680 thought somebody was going to fight me, and there was 0:29:31.680 --> 0:29:34.240 a fight, like right outside of my car. Anyways, we 0:29:34.280 --> 0:29:37.400 had everybody, We're going home. Friend throws up in my 0:29:37.440 --> 0:29:37.920 back seat. 0:29:38.640 --> 0:29:39.240 No big deal. 0:29:39.400 --> 0:29:40.840 I try not to make a big deal out of 0:29:40.840 --> 0:29:43.000 it because I'm nice, and it. 0:29:42.960 --> 0:29:45.760 Wasn't a big deal because conness about you. 0:29:48.440 --> 0:29:51.960 Yes, that's true, my friend threw up in my car. 0:29:52.600 --> 0:29:55.880 Were you displeased with them? 0:29:55.960 --> 0:29:57.920 I was a little annoyed at the situation, but I 0:29:57.920 --> 0:30:00.200 can't be upset at a sick person. You know, that's 0:30:00.280 --> 0:30:00.800 just not cool. 0:30:01.640 --> 0:30:04.280 So why would you expect the world to give you 0:30:04.320 --> 0:30:07.840 a different level of understanding than you give to the world. 0:30:09.440 --> 0:30:13.360 I think I'm in denial because I found a Quiznos 0:30:13.440 --> 0:30:16.560 subs in my neighborhood and I thought they had completely 0:30:16.560 --> 0:30:18.880 shut down, so I went and I tried them out. 0:30:19.280 --> 0:30:22.040 And I don't want to blame Quizno's on me throwing 0:30:22.120 --> 0:30:25.120 up today, because it's much better than Subway, but I 0:30:25.360 --> 0:30:28.920 think it was Quizzos. 0:30:30.680 --> 0:30:32.800 Connor, all over the place right now, you're talking about Quiznos, 0:30:32.840 --> 0:30:36.280 you're talking about a party. You're talking about Super Mario 0:30:36.360 --> 0:30:39.160 sixty four DS, which is a port of Super Mario 0:30:39.240 --> 0:30:41.440 sixty four for the Antendo DS where you can play 0:30:41.440 --> 0:30:44.360 as Yoshi and Warrio and Luigi as well. All over 0:30:44.360 --> 0:30:44.640 the place. 0:30:44.680 --> 0:30:45.600 That's an actual port. 0:30:48.280 --> 0:30:49.360 What color is red? 0:30:50.880 --> 0:30:54.920 Red is anatomical Red is blood and like squelching guts 0:30:54.960 --> 0:30:55.959 and all that fun stuff. 0:30:58.960 --> 0:31:00.360 Did you look at the did you look at the 0:31:00.360 --> 0:31:02.320 throat after you did it? Did you see who was 0:31:02.320 --> 0:31:02.680 in there? 0:31:04.480 --> 0:31:04.600 Uh? 0:31:04.640 --> 0:31:05.959 Yeah, No, it wasn't red. 0:31:06.640 --> 0:31:07.240 It wasn't red. 0:31:08.640 --> 0:31:09.680 I found a plastic bag. 0:31:09.720 --> 0:31:13.760 It was all good, Connor. I want you to get 0:31:13.760 --> 0:31:20.920 comfortable with the idea of perhaps declaring to the world 0:31:20.920 --> 0:31:22.720 with pride that you threw up in your car this morning. 0:31:24.680 --> 0:31:25.160 Can do that? 0:31:25.480 --> 0:31:28.160 Your life would be Could you do that on stream? Yeah? 0:31:28.240 --> 0:31:30.080 Can you do whatever you want? 0:31:30.440 --> 0:31:33.320 He was up everyone, I threw up in my car 0:31:33.400 --> 0:31:35.480 today and I don't feel as bad about it anymore. 0:31:36.000 --> 0:31:39.640 Good. You shouldn't look. I don't see any movie again. 0:31:39.720 --> 0:31:42.520 Your car, your puke, your personal space. If you told 0:31:42.520 --> 0:31:44.840 me you threw up on your friend and you are 0:31:45.480 --> 0:31:47.480 feel bad about that because you feel like you displease them, 0:31:47.720 --> 0:31:49.800 but it would be one thing. But it makes sense 0:31:49.840 --> 0:31:51.240 that you feel like people will be displeased at the 0:31:51.240 --> 0:31:53.920 fact that you threw up in your own car. Think 0:31:53.960 --> 0:31:54.480 about this way. 0:31:54.520 --> 0:31:57.000 Look, can I tell you a story about me throwing 0:31:57.080 --> 0:31:57.760 up on a person? 0:31:58.440 --> 0:31:59.520 If that's okay for the street. 0:32:00.040 --> 0:32:01.760 Listen to Connor. Do you say your name is Connor? 0:32:01.840 --> 0:32:02.000 Right? 0:32:03.440 --> 0:32:10.280 No, it's Daniel calling you Connor only twice Dan. Oh shit, 0:32:10.280 --> 0:32:12.400 it's Dan. I went on the whole thing at the 0:32:12.400 --> 0:32:14.680 beginning of this call about how you're you should do 0:32:14.800 --> 0:32:16.400 whatever with your name, and then I forgot what your 0:32:16.480 --> 0:32:16.760 name is. 0:32:16.880 --> 0:32:17.080 Dan. 0:32:17.480 --> 0:32:22.760 Listen, Dan, people are gonna like you more knowing that 0:32:23.200 --> 0:32:25.640 you're a human being, that you're vulnerable, that you have 0:32:25.720 --> 0:32:30.320 moments of weakness. You know what I'm saying. You think 0:32:30.360 --> 0:32:35.160 that people will be uh, you know, judge you or 0:32:35.480 --> 0:32:38.520 not want to be friends with you because of your weakness, 0:32:39.120 --> 0:32:42.000 and you know, maybe they won't. But Connor, look, it 0:32:42.040 --> 0:32:47.680 can't be. You get to be vulnerable. Sometimes people actually 0:32:47.720 --> 0:32:51.000 find vulnerability attractive as long as you don't let it 0:32:51.040 --> 0:32:53.440 bother you. You know, if you have weaknesses and you're constantly 0:32:53.440 --> 0:33:01.880 complaining about them, you're constantly getting down on yourself about them. Yeah, people, 0:33:02.160 --> 0:33:05.160 I think they'll drive people away. But if you have 0:33:05.240 --> 0:33:08.000 weaknesses that you openly declare, but they don't appear to 0:33:08.000 --> 0:33:11.080 bother you, and you lever know that they don't bother you, 0:33:11.720 --> 0:33:13.080 people find that very tractice. 0:33:13.520 --> 0:33:17.160 Can do you have any weaknesses? 0:33:17.240 --> 0:33:29.920 Get the fact that you can buy vanilo'sitt your roles 0:33:29.960 --> 0:33:32.160 on bulk on Amazon. 0:33:34.480 --> 0:33:35.440 It's dangerous. 0:33:36.480 --> 0:33:37.800 Thank you so much for Sharon Connor. You have a 0:33:37.800 --> 0:33:38.440 funder for us to. 0:33:38.400 --> 0:33:40.760 The night you as well. 0:33:41.120 --> 0:33:41.520 Good night. 0:33:43.440 --> 0:33:46.240 Hey folks, it's Lyle here. I'll make this real quick. 0:33:46.480 --> 0:33:49.880 I currently do not have any sponsors for this podcast, 0:33:50.240 --> 0:33:52.640 but if you would like to support. If you would 0:33:52.680 --> 0:33:55.760 like to make it easier for me to continue doing 0:33:55.800 --> 0:34:00.000 this podcast, to continue doing my stream and other streams 0:34:00.080 --> 0:34:02.360 and podcasts like it in the future as I would 0:34:02.360 --> 0:34:04.680 like to do, you can head on over to patreon 0:34:04.880 --> 0:34:09.040 dot com slash Lyle forever and for only five bucks, 0:34:09.040 --> 0:34:10.920 you can make it a hell of a lot easier 0:34:11.239 --> 0:34:16.080 for me to continue to work on projects like these. 0:34:16.480 --> 0:34:18.839 And I said I'd make it quick. So let's get 0:34:18.880 --> 0:34:19.760 back into the calls. 0:34:20.280 --> 0:34:22.000 All from Stephen. 0:34:23.160 --> 0:34:23.680 Steven. 0:34:25.440 --> 0:34:28.440 Hello, hold on, he put me on the phone. Let 0:34:28.440 --> 0:34:29.600 me let me just knock. 0:34:29.400 --> 0:34:32.640 On the she's poop and he's poop, and you can 0:34:32.719 --> 0:34:43.920 leave my own weird what's happening? Hello is Stephen? Who 0:34:43.960 --> 0:34:45.080 just who answered the phone for you? 0:34:45.960 --> 0:34:46.880 Oh? 0:34:46.920 --> 0:34:48.160 That's my mom? 0:34:48.520 --> 0:34:53.040 Oh? How's how Uh? How is she doing? 0:34:54.440 --> 0:34:55.720 She's doing pretty good? 0:34:55.840 --> 0:34:56.080 Man? 0:34:56.160 --> 0:34:58.120 How are you doing? I'm more interested in you? 0:34:58.320 --> 0:34:58.520 Man? 0:34:59.120 --> 0:34:59.359 Wait? 0:34:59.760 --> 0:35:01.600 Why why did your mom answer the phone for you? 0:35:02.719 --> 0:35:02.879 Oh? 0:35:02.920 --> 0:35:03.840 Because I was waiting? 0:35:03.880 --> 0:35:04.120 Man? 0:35:05.680 --> 0:35:09.040 That was nice her. What I'm I'm still I need 0:35:09.040 --> 0:35:12.680 to I need you to explain, like what happened exactly 0:35:12.800 --> 0:35:19.799 like you put you called and then I answered and 0:35:19.840 --> 0:35:23.759 then she like what like what logistically took place just now. 0:35:24.520 --> 0:35:28.200 I was taking a dump and she was calling, and 0:35:28.280 --> 0:35:29.919 I was I was just like waiting for that knock, 0:35:29.960 --> 0:35:31.640 and then I heard that Big Bay paying and I 0:35:31.760 --> 0:35:32.400 was running. 0:35:33.800 --> 0:35:34.560 So she was. 0:35:34.640 --> 0:35:37.520 So you said to her mom, there's a gecko guy 0:35:37.560 --> 0:35:39.640 on the computer. Could you sit here and call him 0:35:39.640 --> 0:35:40.560 while I take a dump? 0:35:41.239 --> 0:35:41.520 Yeah? 0:35:41.680 --> 0:35:42.439 Yeah, pretty much. 0:35:43.120 --> 0:35:44.239 That's been nice for her to do that. 0:35:45.160 --> 0:35:47.160 No, for real, what a what a lovely lady? 0:35:47.520 --> 0:35:48.440 Can't talk to her? 0:35:49.360 --> 0:35:49.560 Yeah? 0:35:49.560 --> 0:35:50.960 For sure, yo, ma. 0:35:53.719 --> 0:35:59.760 Yo ma, Yeah she's gone. 0:36:00.040 --> 0:36:01.640 I don't know where she was she left. 0:36:02.400 --> 0:36:05.839 Yeah, apparently, I don't know. 0:36:05.840 --> 0:36:06.919 Maybe she's taking the deuce. 0:36:07.840 --> 0:36:12.879 Check upstairs. Maybe I am upstairs, check downstairs. 0:36:13.960 --> 0:36:16.320 Oh man, I would, but then i'd have to leave. 0:36:16.239 --> 0:36:22.319 My different leave what the mic? What do you mean 0:36:22.320 --> 0:36:24.840 the Are you not on a you're on a phone? 0:36:25.880 --> 0:36:26.360 Nah? 0:36:26.719 --> 0:36:28.759 Nah, you don't got a call through a phone. You 0:36:28.760 --> 0:36:29.880 can call through the internet. 0:36:31.680 --> 0:36:37.040 Oh so your mom was sitting at your desktop calling me. Yeah, 0:36:39.239 --> 0:36:41.400 that was nice of her. Did you like was she 0:36:42.560 --> 0:36:45.319 when you asked your mom to sit and call me 0:36:45.480 --> 0:36:49.000 for you? Was she doing something else that you she 0:36:49.120 --> 0:36:51.560 had to You had let to interrupt her doing. 0:36:53.640 --> 0:36:56.879 Making me dinner, making me dinner. That's about it. 0:36:57.480 --> 0:36:59.120 What does she make? What does she make for dinner? 0:37:01.520 --> 0:37:05.400 That's cool that onions and salsa is actually fired her? 0:37:05.440 --> 0:37:07.200 Where where is she? She couldn't have just she she 0:37:07.239 --> 0:37:08.160 didn't just disappear. 0:37:08.719 --> 0:37:09.879 My mom just came back. 0:37:09.920 --> 0:37:11.000 Actually here she is. 0:37:11.000 --> 0:37:11.560 I forgot she? 0:37:14.800 --> 0:37:16.719 Uh, hello, hi mom? 0:37:16.760 --> 0:37:18.560 How are you? Oh? 0:37:18.960 --> 0:37:20.439 I'm okay? How are you? 0:37:21.440 --> 0:37:26.800 So you can I what your son's name is? Stephen? 0:37:26.880 --> 0:37:27.040 Right? 0:37:27.760 --> 0:37:30.719 Yeah, so you were calling me on behalf of him? 0:37:32.239 --> 0:37:37.279 Well, he was calling you. She had to be the phone. 0:37:38.640 --> 0:37:44.880 Uh, he was calling Okay, so he called, he dialed 0:37:44.920 --> 0:37:47.440 the number, handed you the phone, and then went to 0:37:47.480 --> 0:37:48.080 take a dump. 0:37:49.320 --> 0:37:49.520 Yeah. 0:37:49.560 --> 0:37:51.720 I guess you can call him all night or something. 0:37:51.880 --> 0:37:55.240 He said. If you have her, just yell at him. 0:37:55.560 --> 0:37:57.480 Okay. What do you think of all this? What do 0:37:57.480 --> 0:37:59.600 you think about the situation that you've been put into? 0:38:01.320 --> 0:38:02.040 I do know. 0:38:02.080 --> 0:38:03.560 I don't know exactly what this is. 0:38:03.800 --> 0:38:05.719 I just know he's been trying to get in contact 0:38:05.760 --> 0:38:06.000 with you. 0:38:06.640 --> 0:38:08.600 That's fine. I don't know exactly what this is either. 0:38:10.440 --> 0:38:12.160 What's your relationship like with your son? 0:38:15.200 --> 0:38:15.600 Healthy? 0:38:17.160 --> 0:38:17.520 Healthy? 0:38:18.320 --> 0:38:20.400 We're very close, Yes. 0:38:20.560 --> 0:38:24.560 I can tell. Why do you guys think you have 0:38:24.600 --> 0:38:26.480 such a good relationship? What do you think The key 0:38:26.520 --> 0:38:26.880 is to that. 0:38:29.239 --> 0:38:30.839 Trust and communication. 0:38:31.400 --> 0:38:33.480 You know, he tails her things, he doesn't care and 0:38:33.520 --> 0:38:34.640 trouble for it. You know. 0:38:37.200 --> 0:38:39.840 How old is he? 0:38:39.840 --> 0:38:40.800 He just turned nineteen? 0:38:41.719 --> 0:38:42.000 Nice? 0:38:42.239 --> 0:38:42.560 Nice? 0:38:42.920 --> 0:38:47.560 Yeah, yeah, he actually just got a second job. I'm 0:38:47.640 --> 0:38:48.279 very proud of him. 0:38:48.960 --> 0:38:50.560 Oh I'm proud of him too. Where did you get 0:38:50.560 --> 0:38:51.239 the second job at? 0:38:52.360 --> 0:38:54.120 He's doing concrete? 0:38:54.800 --> 0:38:56.200 Nice? What do you do? 0:38:57.520 --> 0:39:00.560 I work at the banks? 0:39:00.760 --> 0:39:02.040 Has the bank ever gotten robbed? 0:39:03.320 --> 0:39:03.560 No? 0:39:03.560 --> 0:39:03.919 No, no. 0:39:03.960 --> 0:39:06.600 I work in corporate and someone says you put the 0:39:06.640 --> 0:39:08.920 money in the bag, and you're like and you're like, 0:39:08.920 --> 0:39:10.359 all right, just don't hurt me. I put the money 0:39:10.360 --> 0:39:10.759 in the bag. 0:39:11.840 --> 0:39:16.000 Luckily, never have that problem. I work in the call center. 0:39:16.160 --> 0:39:17.359 So that's good. 0:39:17.360 --> 0:39:19.120 That sounds like that would be a really scary situation. 0:39:19.200 --> 0:39:20.360 I'm glad you never had to deal with that. 0:39:21.040 --> 0:39:22.480 Yeah, me too, I'm very pleased. 0:39:23.719 --> 0:39:27.200 God, there's so many have you and Stephen always been 0:39:27.280 --> 0:39:29.480 very close? Uh? 0:39:30.160 --> 0:39:32.600 You know, he did have a trouble guy in his life, 0:39:32.719 --> 0:39:36.279 so you know, yeah, every boy goes through like the 0:39:36.320 --> 0:39:39.839 middle school phase or they hate their parents. So after that, 0:39:40.320 --> 0:39:42.640 I think we really decided to get closer. 0:39:44.320 --> 0:39:48.480 So you think he made sort of a sort of 0:39:48.560 --> 0:39:50.799 a one where do you think your relationship started to 0:39:50.840 --> 0:39:54.520 really really take off right after middle school? 0:39:54.560 --> 0:39:58.759 You say, I'm not going after middle school. I think 0:39:58.840 --> 0:40:01.680 sometime in high school, probably right after just the u 0:40:01.760 --> 0:40:03.400 I he. 0:40:03.440 --> 0:40:07.759 Got a d uy. You say, yeah, why do you 0:40:07.800 --> 0:40:09.239 think him Do you think him getting a d u 0:40:09.320 --> 0:40:11.080 I made you guys closer somehow? 0:40:11.920 --> 0:40:16.080 Ah? Yeah, just because uh, you know we had to 0:40:16.080 --> 0:40:16.560 pay for it. 0:40:19.400 --> 0:40:20.800 O guess you paid for his DUI? 0:40:22.000 --> 0:40:23.480 Yeah, the lawyers and everything. 0:40:24.360 --> 0:40:25.480 Were you upset with him? 0:40:26.560 --> 0:40:27.279 Absolutely? 0:40:30.320 --> 0:40:30.720 Of course? 0:40:30.800 --> 0:40:32.399 How did you How did you react when you found 0:40:32.440 --> 0:40:33.440 out that he got a d U. 0:40:33.400 --> 0:40:38.439 I very heartbroken, also very tired, like I was. It 0:40:38.480 --> 0:40:46.880 was probably too free in the morning, damn. Yeah. 0:40:47.280 --> 0:40:51.880 Did you how old was he at the time, eighteen eighteen? 0:40:52.040 --> 0:40:56.000 Did you like talk to him? Did you punish him? 0:40:56.080 --> 0:40:59.000 Could you? Could you punish? Have punished him? 0:40:59.000 --> 0:40:59.200 At that? 0:40:59.320 --> 0:41:02.640 Like? What? What did you take any action against him 0:41:02.680 --> 0:41:03.160 in any way? 0:41:04.160 --> 0:41:08.000 I mean it was like the uh, the court system 0:41:08.080 --> 0:41:09.399 kind of punished him. It was like. 0:41:11.760 --> 0:41:13.319 You had to go to a A and that type 0:41:13.320 --> 0:41:13.640 of thing. 0:41:13.800 --> 0:41:15.759 So it was more like embasement on that end. 0:41:16.480 --> 0:41:17.000 Mm hmmm. 0:41:17.200 --> 0:41:18.319 Did you go with him day day? 0:41:19.360 --> 0:41:19.400 No? 0:41:22.200 --> 0:41:23.960 Yeah, mm hmm. 0:41:29.719 --> 0:41:32.040 But why do you think that made you guys closer 0:41:35.440 --> 0:41:39.240 was helping him through that process formed a stronger bond. 0:41:40.600 --> 0:41:48.000 Yeah. Mhm, who is this? 0:41:48.160 --> 0:41:48.920 Who am I talking to you? 0:41:48.960 --> 0:41:52.800 By the way, you've you've you've This is interesting because 0:41:52.800 --> 0:41:54.319 you've told me a lot, but you don't even know 0:41:54.719 --> 0:41:56.279 what this is you see? 0:41:56.440 --> 0:41:56.640 Are you? 0:41:56.719 --> 0:42:00.360 Are you very like generally trusting person? 0:42:01.080 --> 0:42:04.319 Oh? Yeah, this is like everyone we live in small 0:42:04.400 --> 0:42:09.480 town and everyone knows that's cool. 0:42:10.080 --> 0:42:12.560 A small town, like one of those kinds of places 0:42:12.560 --> 0:42:13.839 where no one even locks their door. 0:42:14.960 --> 0:42:18.319 Yeah, our Amazon package you stay on the porch for 0:42:18.360 --> 0:42:20.640 like a week at a time while we're bringing inside. 0:42:20.760 --> 0:42:28.440 Like it actually sounds quite lovely it is. Now. How 0:42:28.480 --> 0:42:35.160 often do you leave your small town? Uh? 0:42:35.840 --> 0:42:41.000 Not very often, especially with Therona. 0:42:41.880 --> 0:42:46.640 Yeah, for sure, Because I'm wondering, like, do do you 0:42:46.680 --> 0:42:48.839 feel like you get you to get taken advantage of 0:42:49.640 --> 0:42:54.640 if you employed your trusting practices in places outside of 0:42:54.719 --> 0:42:58.200 your your small community. 0:42:59.560 --> 0:43:02.800 Probably that's the reason why I don't leave very often. 0:43:02.880 --> 0:43:07.520 Like's just small town businesses that we usually go to, 0:43:07.920 --> 0:43:10.200 that type of thing. You know, we're very local center. 0:43:11.840 --> 0:43:12.360 Do you like that? 0:43:14.120 --> 0:43:14.359 Yeah? 0:43:14.480 --> 0:43:17.360 Absolutely, you know I love going to a restaurant and 0:43:17.440 --> 0:43:20.280 no one see the owner of the bar and that texting. 0:43:22.280 --> 0:43:24.840 Any interest ever? Does your son have any interest in 0:43:25.080 --> 0:43:27.200 moving outside of the small town or do you think 0:43:27.200 --> 0:43:27.839 he'll stay there? 0:43:29.080 --> 0:43:31.359 I know he does, but I'm really trying to keep 0:43:31.400 --> 0:43:32.200 him close to home. 0:43:32.280 --> 0:43:34.839 You know, why are you trying to keep close to home? 0:43:36.400 --> 0:43:37.960 I don't want my baby to go. 0:43:39.320 --> 0:43:42.919 But but he you know, don't you feel like he's 0:43:42.920 --> 0:43:47.000 got to live, you know, his life outside of you know, 0:43:48.040 --> 0:43:49.400 on his own terms in a sense. 0:43:50.239 --> 0:43:52.080 Yeah, someone's got to take care of me like I 0:43:52.120 --> 0:43:52.759 took care of him. 0:43:52.800 --> 0:43:57.000 Though mm hmm. 0:44:00.480 --> 0:44:01.040 Are you married? 0:44:02.120 --> 0:44:02.480 I am? 0:44:03.480 --> 0:44:05.640 What about your husband? Can he You guys take care 0:44:05.680 --> 0:44:06.120 of each other. 0:44:07.160 --> 0:44:10.200 Yeah, he's old though he's got some health issues. I 0:44:10.239 --> 0:44:14.560 don't think he's that gonna be around for as long 0:44:14.560 --> 0:44:18.000 as I am, to be honest, Yeah. 0:44:29.960 --> 0:44:32.759 Well you have some sorry, do you have what you 0:44:32.800 --> 0:44:33.520 were gonna say? 0:44:34.040 --> 0:44:35.960 I was gonna say, I got some brownies in the oven. 0:44:36.000 --> 0:44:37.279 I need need to check on. 0:44:39.920 --> 0:44:40.560 Yeah, I will. 0:44:41.239 --> 0:44:43.480 I don't know where my son he. 0:44:45.040 --> 0:44:45.239 Think? 0:44:46.160 --> 0:44:48.239 That's how you can just you can tell him. You 0:44:48.280 --> 0:44:53.040 can tell him, you can you like, you don't have 0:44:53.080 --> 0:44:53.760 to tell him anything. 0:44:54.560 --> 0:44:59.600 He knows, okay, And I don't think I ever call 0:44:59.680 --> 0:45:00.000 your name. 0:45:02.080 --> 0:45:06.240 My name is Lyle and and I'm a gecko too, 0:45:06.360 --> 0:45:15.919 but that I guess that doesn't matter. Well, Uh, thank 0:45:15.960 --> 0:45:21.719 you so much for sharing with us. Huh, you have 0:45:21.719 --> 0:45:22.279 a good rest of the. 0:45:22.320 --> 0:45:27.920 Night, do you too? 0:45:29.080 --> 0:45:37.440 All from Francis Francis. 0:45:35.040 --> 0:45:37.239 Francis, that's me, that is you. 0:45:38.320 --> 0:45:38.920 What's going on? 0:45:39.000 --> 0:45:39.239 Greg? 0:45:39.440 --> 0:45:41.000 Do you have a good handle on who you are? 0:45:42.480 --> 0:45:43.440 Uh? You don't have? 0:45:43.560 --> 0:45:47.600 Man, this a really excellent question. I answer this as 0:45:47.600 --> 0:45:50.680 I'm walking into the closet of my room because I 0:45:50.680 --> 0:45:52.960 don't want my roommates to hear what I'm saying. 0:45:54.080 --> 0:45:56.200 Hm, hmmm. Why don't you think you want your roommates 0:45:56.239 --> 0:45:57.799 to hear what you're saying? Do you think that you're 0:45:57.800 --> 0:46:01.759 going to say something that is is Well, okay, you're 0:46:01.760 --> 0:46:03.480 talking on a stream right now. You're aware of that. 0:46:03.880 --> 0:46:06.000 Yeah, yeah, yeah, of course, yeah. 0:46:06.080 --> 0:46:08.359 Okay. So there's you know, I'm not going to put 0:46:08.360 --> 0:46:10.520 a concrete number on it, but there's people watching this. 0:46:11.440 --> 0:46:14.480 Yeah, well a couple of hundred, I think, right, I don't. 0:46:14.360 --> 0:46:16.799 Care what You don't care what they if they hear 0:46:16.840 --> 0:46:17.359 what you have to say. 0:46:17.400 --> 0:46:19.640 When you care with your roommates, you know what, I 0:46:19.640 --> 0:46:22.560 guess not that's a that's an excellent point. 0:46:24.040 --> 0:46:26.520 What is it that you have to say that's so secretive? 0:46:27.520 --> 0:46:29.600 Well, you know, I I feel like I've thought a 0:46:29.640 --> 0:46:32.560 lot about what I would say if I if I 0:46:32.600 --> 0:46:36.640 got here, But at this point, I'm I'm just nervous. 0:46:36.880 --> 0:46:39.799 I you know, it's just it's it's a big platform, 0:46:39.880 --> 0:46:40.239 isn't it. 0:46:44.800 --> 0:46:47.640 What is it that you would say these thoughts? 0:46:47.760 --> 0:46:51.080 Well, you know, and I know you always ask a question, 0:46:51.160 --> 0:46:53.759 but I guess I I had a question for you, 0:46:56.680 --> 0:46:59.759 and and that would be, you know, I I just 0:47:00.440 --> 0:47:03.880 moved to a new town for for grad school, and 0:47:03.920 --> 0:47:06.719 with cod and everything going on, it's been a little 0:47:06.760 --> 0:47:09.240 hard to meet some of the people in my class 0:47:09.239 --> 0:47:12.600 and things like that. So I don't know if if yeah, 0:47:12.600 --> 0:47:15.040 if you've got any experience, you know, just like figuring 0:47:15.080 --> 0:47:18.160 out how to I don't know how to meet people 0:47:18.160 --> 0:47:19.719 in that sort of same situation. 0:47:20.880 --> 0:47:21.120 You know. 0:47:23.200 --> 0:47:25.359 I used to be able to give what I thought 0:47:25.440 --> 0:47:27.800 was very good advice on how to make friends in college, 0:47:28.160 --> 0:47:34.240 But of course the thing is is in a COVID world, 0:47:34.480 --> 0:47:39.040 I have absolutely no idea. Yeah, yeah, you know COVID world. 0:47:39.040 --> 0:47:42.200 What I would have said is is uh, to find 0:47:42.440 --> 0:47:44.960 a community and then figure out a way to add 0:47:45.040 --> 0:47:47.759 value to that community. So, you know, let's say you 0:47:47.800 --> 0:47:50.160 go to the frisbee team, right, you you go to 0:47:50.280 --> 0:47:53.400 meetup dot com where you go to your school's whatever 0:47:53.560 --> 0:47:55.680 Facebook page, and you joined the frisbee team. And the 0:47:55.680 --> 0:47:57.319 first day you show up to the frisbee team, no 0:47:57.320 --> 0:47:59.160 one's gonna give a fuck who you are because they've 0:47:59.200 --> 0:48:02.200 all been in the frize be team for you know, 0:48:02.400 --> 0:48:04.719 the whole time they've been at school, so they're all 0:48:04.719 --> 0:48:06.400 friends with each other. But then what if you go 0:48:06.440 --> 0:48:09.880 in and you're like, hey, let's I'll host the frisbee 0:48:09.920 --> 0:48:14.120 team barbecue summer thing at my apartment and everyone's like 0:48:14.120 --> 0:48:15.799 all right. You know, you find little ways to add 0:48:15.840 --> 0:48:18.040 value to this community. And you know, look, if there's 0:48:18.080 --> 0:48:21.120 a community, the better, even better thing that you can 0:48:21.160 --> 0:48:25.000 do is if you know you have certain interests, uh, 0:48:25.719 --> 0:48:28.720 you create that community for yourself. You create the meetup 0:48:28.760 --> 0:48:34.000 or create the club on your interests, because then you're 0:48:34.040 --> 0:48:37.960 already in. You're you're the creator. You are are the 0:48:38.040 --> 0:48:42.959 ultimate source of value. But in the COVID world, it's 0:48:43.000 --> 0:48:46.000 it's hard to do these things, I believe, because yeah, 0:48:47.000 --> 0:48:56.680 everyone's distanced. So in the time. What are you saying 0:48:56.760 --> 0:48:56.880 to me? 0:48:57.040 --> 0:48:59.919 Was Nathan Francis. 0:49:03.360 --> 0:49:05.839 In the meantime Francis. 0:49:05.640 --> 0:49:06.640 Yeah, you're killing it. 0:49:10.239 --> 0:49:13.080 You ever you ever have you ever just been alone? 0:49:13.640 --> 0:49:14.160 Oh man? 0:49:14.200 --> 0:49:16.920 I mean of course, yeah, especially now, you know, I think. 0:49:16.800 --> 0:49:18.080 You just lean into it. 0:49:19.080 --> 0:49:22.279 Yeah, yes, yeah, and I think too much sometimes as well. 0:49:23.320 --> 0:49:25.719 I think nowadays, you know, there there can't be a 0:49:25.800 --> 0:49:29.080 single person who hasn't experienced some sort of loneliness at 0:49:29.080 --> 0:49:29.560 this point. 0:49:31.160 --> 0:49:33.880 And I don't mean I mean cultivating it as a 0:49:34.000 --> 0:49:37.320 skill to be alone Francis. 0:49:38.400 --> 0:49:40.880 Yeah, well, okay, I will people. 0:49:40.600 --> 0:49:44.000 To fill the void is right within them. 0:49:44.040 --> 0:49:47.359 Francis, I mean, if this is, if this is what 0:49:47.400 --> 0:49:51.160 you mean, I've I've certainly come to like enjoy some 0:49:51.320 --> 0:49:54.279 of my like you know, alone time and use that 0:49:54.400 --> 0:49:57.719 to be productive and use that to I don't know, 0:49:57.840 --> 0:50:02.520 figure things out about myself, but I think there comes 0:50:02.520 --> 0:50:05.440 a point where you just you just definitely need some 0:50:05.480 --> 0:50:07.440 of that social interaction. You know, I've left a lot 0:50:07.480 --> 0:50:10.239 of people behind once I left undergrad. 0:50:10.560 --> 0:50:14.360 And it's called the minimalism Francis. 0:50:15.239 --> 0:50:16.640 Minimalism. 0:50:16.719 --> 0:50:22.040 Yeah, you know, I'm not. You live a more a 0:50:22.120 --> 0:50:26.680 more remote life. You only have who you need and 0:50:26.760 --> 0:50:29.160 at the end of the day. You need yourself, Francis, Francis, 0:50:29.200 --> 0:50:30.400 what the hell was I gonna say to you? I 0:50:30.400 --> 0:50:32.560 was gonna say one thing. I forgot what it was. Yeah, 0:50:32.600 --> 0:50:36.160 of course, my brain, my brain is off. I have 0:50:36.160 --> 0:50:37.480 no idea what I'm talking about. I have no idea 0:50:37.480 --> 0:50:38.239 what I'm doing right now. 0:50:38.920 --> 0:50:40.400 You're doing great. I can pick it up. 0:50:41.120 --> 0:50:43.240 An insane I'm an insane green person on the computer. 0:50:43.320 --> 0:50:45.000 Don't take advice for me. I'm not a real I'm 0:50:45.000 --> 0:50:46.400 not a real color. 0:50:46.520 --> 0:50:47.360 Don't worry about what was. 0:50:47.320 --> 0:50:49.360 I gonna say? What was I gonna say? Hold on? 0:50:49.480 --> 0:50:50.920 Yeah, of course, hold on. 0:50:53.360 --> 0:50:59.839 I'm shaking with excitement. Don't shake, I mean doing sorry, Yeah, okay, yeah, 0:50:59.840 --> 0:51:02.799 So of course is all right, This is fine. We're 0:51:02.840 --> 0:51:06.000 having a moment together. Hold on, It's been a moment 0:51:06.160 --> 0:51:06.880 the whole time. 0:51:11.400 --> 0:51:15.240 We live in a noisy world, Francis, input from the internet, 0:51:15.239 --> 0:51:18.840 input from your family, input from your friends. Francis, who 0:51:18.920 --> 0:51:23.240 truly are you when there is no one else around? 0:51:24.160 --> 0:51:26.239 Okay in the answer to that question. By the time 0:51:26.320 --> 0:51:28.360 you do, the world will be open again and you 0:51:28.360 --> 0:51:29.479 can start the Frisbee Club. 0:51:30.680 --> 0:51:33.320 Oh shit, Okay, who truly am I? That's the question. 0:51:34.360 --> 0:51:36.960 Yes, that's your homework. I love me, Francis, and one 0:51:37.040 --> 0:51:38.920 day I believe that our souls will be bounded together 0:51:38.960 --> 0:51:40.680 for in the kingdom of heaven. I'll talk to you 0:51:40.760 --> 0:51:41.239 again soon. 0:51:42.080 --> 0:51:43.040 Yeah, sounds excellent. 0:51:43.120 --> 0:51:44.560 Love you, GEG, love you too. 0:51:45.560 --> 0:51:49.920 Good bye, all from Maddie. 0:51:52.320 --> 0:51:57.560 Maddie. Oh, Huck, how are you? 0:51:58.880 --> 0:52:00.319 I'm great? How are you. 0:52:01.640 --> 0:52:02.080 All right? 0:52:03.719 --> 0:52:03.959 Yeah? 0:52:04.120 --> 0:52:04.600 Just vibing. 0:52:06.600 --> 0:52:07.760 What do you smell like, Maddie? 0:52:10.600 --> 0:52:15.799 Probably like a mixture of vanilla, coconut and honey. 0:52:16.280 --> 0:52:17.640 Vanilla coconut and honey. 0:52:18.719 --> 0:52:21.399 Yeah? 0:52:21.560 --> 0:52:23.960 Is that like? Did you use a vanilla coconut and 0:52:24.000 --> 0:52:28.600 honey shampoo of some kind or did you combine those 0:52:28.640 --> 0:52:29.560 elements on your own? 0:52:30.440 --> 0:52:37.920 No, I just I make it myself. No, like vanilla deodorant, 0:52:37.960 --> 0:52:42.680 honey shampoo, and coconut body wash. 0:52:42.719 --> 0:52:47.440 Wow, it's grooming and taking care of your body and 0:52:47.640 --> 0:52:48.920 the way it smells important to you. 0:52:50.960 --> 0:53:02.319 Yeah, I mean I don't want to smell bad. What 0:53:02.480 --> 0:53:03.040 about you? 0:53:06.480 --> 0:53:08.920 Why don't you want to smell bad? Are you nervous 0:53:08.920 --> 0:53:11.960 to smell bad? Is there a person smell good for. 0:53:14.160 --> 0:53:19.120 Us? Kind of? I suppose who are they? 0:53:19.800 --> 0:53:20.360 Uh? 0:53:20.480 --> 0:53:25.680 A guy I'm not gonna say his name. I'm not 0:53:25.680 --> 0:53:27.760 gonna put put put the boy on blast? 0:53:29.160 --> 0:53:32.279 Can you give me a name that substitutes for his 0:53:32.360 --> 0:53:32.799 real name? 0:53:37.760 --> 0:53:40.959 Well, he kind of looks like post Malone, so let's 0:53:40.960 --> 0:53:46.160 call him Posty. 0:53:45.520 --> 0:53:48.800 Posty. Yeah, how do you know Posty? 0:53:50.239 --> 0:53:51.200 We met on Tinder? 0:53:52.719 --> 0:53:58.399 Mm hm? And how long have you guys known each other? 0:53:58.440 --> 0:54:00.279 Have you have you met up in person yet? H? 0:54:00.920 --> 0:54:02.719 Yeah? We hang out like once a week? 0:54:03.840 --> 0:54:04.320 Oh really? 0:54:05.160 --> 0:54:05.440 M h? 0:54:06.080 --> 0:54:07.920 How many times? 0:54:09.320 --> 0:54:09.800 Oh? 0:54:09.920 --> 0:54:10.200 God? 0:54:11.160 --> 0:54:14.640 A lot? Because like we've been hanging out since December 0:54:16.960 --> 0:54:20.280 and there's surprisingly some cool people out there on Tinder? 0:54:21.560 --> 0:54:25.319 Is it getting serious? Are there labels attached to it? 0:54:26.560 --> 0:54:26.600 No? 0:54:26.880 --> 0:54:32.400 We're just friends, but I do, I do, uh quite 0:54:32.480 --> 0:54:35.680 have feelings for him? 0:54:35.719 --> 0:54:38.920 But you don't think he has feelings for you? No? 0:54:39.120 --> 0:54:41.799 But that's okay. He's a good friend. 0:54:44.040 --> 0:54:47.600 Do you still have hope that eventually he'll turn to 0:54:47.680 --> 0:54:48.120 something more? 0:54:49.520 --> 0:54:49.680 Oh? 0:54:49.760 --> 0:54:54.839 Of course, But I value our friendship so like it 0:54:54.840 --> 0:54:58.840 doesn't really matter. You know, good friends are hard to 0:54:58.840 --> 0:55:00.400 come by these days. 0:55:01.480 --> 0:55:04.360 Are you looking at Have you been meeting up with 0:55:04.400 --> 0:55:05.280 anyone else on Tinder? 0:55:07.120 --> 0:55:07.480 Uh? 0:55:07.600 --> 0:55:13.279 No? He was actually the first person I ever met online. 0:55:13.760 --> 0:55:14.880 Was that nerve wracking for you? 0:55:15.760 --> 0:55:16.480 Oh? God? 0:55:16.600 --> 0:55:21.959 Yeah, it worked out. Yeah. 0:55:22.000 --> 0:55:27.440 Surprisingly, I had my pepper spray and everything just in 0:55:27.520 --> 0:55:30.120 case he turned out to be a weirdo. I mean, 0:55:30.120 --> 0:55:32.320 he has a weirdo, but a good weirdo. 0:55:35.080 --> 0:55:39.120 Sounds like you're enjoying this, this companionship. 0:55:40.480 --> 0:55:50.040 Yeah, he was uh great getting to talk to you. 0:55:50.080 --> 0:55:52.600 I didn't. I from watching your streams for a little while, 0:55:52.640 --> 0:55:55.240 I did not expect to actually get through. 0:55:56.800 --> 0:55:58.640 I didn't expect you to get through either, But here 0:55:58.680 --> 0:55:59.080 we are. 0:56:00.080 --> 0:56:01.800 Yeah, such a slife. 0:56:02.840 --> 0:56:05.120 You have a good rest of the night, you too. 0:56:05.160 --> 0:56:23.160 Man all from Maxwell Maxwell, Hello, Hello, Hello, I can 0:56:23.200 --> 0:56:23.879 hear you here? 0:56:23.960 --> 0:56:27.719 Let me give my stream up. Yeah, all right, I 0:56:27.719 --> 0:56:30.879 can hear you now, you can, I can. 0:56:31.480 --> 0:56:32.279 What do I sound like? 0:56:33.680 --> 0:56:36.799 You sound beautiful? Gecko, mister thank you, thank you. 0:56:38.760 --> 0:56:39.200 Very much. 0:56:41.320 --> 0:56:42.520 I'm just grateful to be here. 0:56:43.520 --> 0:56:46.200 I'm really grateful to be in your presence because you 0:56:46.200 --> 0:56:48.480 know what the alternative is to being here. 0:56:49.560 --> 0:56:50.000 What's that? 0:56:50.640 --> 0:56:53.399 Being dead? And I'm not going to say that being 0:56:53.440 --> 0:56:55.400 dead is bad because I've never been it before, so 0:56:55.400 --> 0:56:57.160 I'm not I don't like to judge things that I 0:56:57.200 --> 0:56:58.680 have not personally experienced. 0:56:58.840 --> 0:57:04.319 But you know, liter Gecko, mister gecko, how do you 0:57:04.360 --> 0:57:05.640 know you haven't been dead before. 0:57:11.280 --> 0:57:12.480 I suppose I don't. 0:57:14.880 --> 0:57:22.320 We if we buy into Buddhism, then you've been reincarnated, 0:57:24.200 --> 0:57:27.600 perhaps as an even smaller gecko in the past. 0:57:28.880 --> 0:57:30.840 Okay, So in the Buddhism religion, which you seem to 0:57:30.880 --> 0:57:34.960 know a lot about, can I choose what I am 0:57:34.960 --> 0:57:40.040 reincarnated as? Or is it completely random, like to be 0:57:40.080 --> 0:57:42.720 reincarnated as mister Gecko. 0:57:42.760 --> 0:57:46.280 I'll be honest. I I'm not a Buddhist. I think 0:57:46.320 --> 0:57:51.280 I only know the most basic, possibly stereotypes of Buddhism. 0:57:51.400 --> 0:57:53.840 But I don't think you get to choose. But maybe 0:57:53.880 --> 0:57:57.880 your spirit chooses for you, in the sense that your 0:57:57.920 --> 0:58:02.840 spirit knows what you are deep inside and you reincarnated that. 0:58:06.560 --> 0:58:16.600 Maxwell. I believe truly with zero hesitation that for as 0:58:16.640 --> 0:58:20.760 long as my soul circles in the universe, before it 0:58:20.840 --> 0:58:24.240 leaves and moves on, I would like at one point 0:58:24.400 --> 0:58:29.560 to take the form of a small handful of ants. 0:58:30.840 --> 0:58:35.160 A group of ants, A group of ants. Yes, so 0:58:35.480 --> 0:58:39.640 would it be a shared conscious consciousness. 0:58:39.160 --> 0:58:45.120 Yes, it would be a shared consciousness across four or 0:58:45.240 --> 0:58:46.400 five different ants. 0:58:47.800 --> 0:58:48.440 I see. 0:58:50.640 --> 0:58:55.040 A family around that way. I could experience more if 0:58:55.080 --> 0:59:00.600 I have more, But I guess it to catch twenty 0:59:00.600 --> 0:59:03.000 two because you can experience more because there's five of you. 0:59:03.320 --> 0:59:07.840 But the world is also comparatively bigger because you're the 0:59:07.880 --> 0:59:08.479 side of an ant. 0:59:09.680 --> 0:59:12.600 That's correct, but you could get into smaller places. 0:59:12.920 --> 0:59:14.040 What color is red? 0:59:16.160 --> 0:59:20.120 Red is the color of the Red is the color 0:59:20.160 --> 0:59:23.080 of life, mister Gecko, is the color of the blood 0:59:23.120 --> 0:59:23.720 in your body? 0:59:24.120 --> 0:59:26.080 And do you truly believe that? Or is that just 0:59:26.080 --> 0:59:27.480 the first thing that came to your mind when you 0:59:27.480 --> 0:59:28.160 were asked the question? 0:59:29.080 --> 0:59:34.440 No, I truly believe that is the color. It is life. 0:59:34.480 --> 0:59:36.919 It is the color of my iPhone, is the color 0:59:36.960 --> 0:59:37.640 of my blood. 0:59:39.280 --> 0:59:40.960 I like that answer. Thank you for sharing. 0:59:42.360 --> 0:59:43.240 Thank you, mister ko. 0:59:43.840 --> 0:59:44.640 You have a good rest of the night. 0:59:45.560 --> 0:59:48.680 You have a fantastic NIGHTE. 0:59:50.240 --> 0:59:56.600 All from Corse Dells, Corse Dell. 0:59:58.760 --> 1:00:04.600 Yeah, my lips I have this problem. My lips are 1:00:04.680 --> 1:00:08.240 very dry, and so if I like, if I like 1:00:08.480 --> 1:00:11.120 spread them out too much, they like the split, Like 1:00:11.200 --> 1:00:13.400 my lips split in half and they start to bleed. 1:00:14.120 --> 1:00:14.800 Well, I hate that. 1:00:15.680 --> 1:00:16.640 Does it happen to you too? 1:00:17.440 --> 1:00:21.080 I mean I live in Massachusetts and winter here is serious, 1:00:21.200 --> 1:00:23.800 so yeah, sure, m m hmm. 1:00:25.360 --> 1:00:26.120 What is your name? 1:00:26.200 --> 1:00:34.400 Was I mean, that's not my name, but my my partner's. 1:00:34.800 --> 1:00:38.800 My partner was Italian and his aunt had never seen 1:00:38.800 --> 1:00:41.480 my name written down, and she had only heard it. 1:00:41.640 --> 1:00:46.040 And one time she texted him like, how is coursesell? 1:00:46.480 --> 1:00:47.880 And we all laughed about it. 1:00:48.320 --> 1:00:49.080 Are you still. 1:00:51.080 --> 1:00:51.280 No? 1:00:51.400 --> 1:00:52.080 He passed away. 1:00:52.600 --> 1:00:54.240 Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. 1:00:54.240 --> 1:00:54.760 That's okay. 1:00:57.760 --> 1:00:59.040 What are you doing right now? 1:01:00.120 --> 1:01:00.400 Uh? 1:01:00.960 --> 1:01:03.160 Winding down? Just hanging out? 1:01:03.560 --> 1:01:04.800 How do you wind down? Slash? 1:01:04.800 --> 1:01:10.640 Hang out well tonight? Watching your stream? 1:01:11.440 --> 1:01:17.920 Well, yeah, that's how I like to wind down too. Actually, 1:01:18.480 --> 1:01:22.720 actually it's not a winding down experience. People think I 1:01:22.760 --> 1:01:24.680 get high when I do this that I don't, but 1:01:24.800 --> 1:01:27.520 to wind down afterwards, I'll get high. But if I 1:01:27.560 --> 1:01:29.520 were to get high during this, it's a mix. It 1:01:29.640 --> 1:01:32.840 mixes up my wind down time and mine. Let's be on, 1:01:33.200 --> 1:01:35.959 let's get into it, let's be present in a moment time, 1:01:36.480 --> 1:01:39.280 and it's not a good mix, you know, to keep 1:01:39.320 --> 1:01:40.680 those two liquids separate. 1:01:42.440 --> 1:01:45.840 Yeah, Unfortunately I'm not stone tonight because I'm out of weeds. 1:01:47.240 --> 1:01:54.880 You're out of Weed's terrible. How often do you smoke weed? Typically? 1:01:58.880 --> 1:02:04.320 Three times? How I'm doing like, I'm like really going 1:02:04.360 --> 1:02:06.000 through it sometimes I'll smoke every. 1:02:05.840 --> 1:02:09.840 Day, but try not to What color is red? 1:02:11.720 --> 1:02:11.919 Well? 1:02:13.200 --> 1:02:16.160 I have the master's Green physics, and so I will 1:02:16.200 --> 1:02:20.080 tell you that what we define as red is the 1:02:20.120 --> 1:02:25.840 lowest frequency visible light that we can see. That's like people, 1:02:26.840 --> 1:02:30.440 but like where do we cut off red from orange? 1:02:30.560 --> 1:02:31.880 Is like totally arbitrary. 1:02:33.000 --> 1:02:35.880 Red is the lowest color frequency we can see? What 1:02:36.200 --> 1:02:37.720 is it when you say the lowest frequency of light? 1:02:38.560 --> 1:02:40.480 Yeah? 1:02:40.520 --> 1:02:43.800 Wow? You know this whole time, no one's called in 1:02:43.880 --> 1:02:48.320 with a very with with such a objective scientific answer. 1:02:48.960 --> 1:02:52.280 So like that's what like when you hear like infra red, 1:02:52.560 --> 1:02:56.000 that's like the frequency of light that's just below red 1:02:56.040 --> 1:02:56.960 that we can't see. 1:02:57.760 --> 1:03:08.480 M yeah, infrared yeah, and then like below that is 1:03:08.520 --> 1:03:11.680 like radio waves and like microwaves are in there. 1:03:12.280 --> 1:03:15.360 Oh you know what I learned about this in high school? 1:03:15.600 --> 1:03:20.640 Had no fucking idea what was going on? Cheated off 1:03:20.680 --> 1:03:25.840 the person next to me, great decision. 1:03:26.520 --> 1:03:28.720 On my half, Yeah, I think so. 1:03:30.920 --> 1:03:33.920 Cheat in high school. I endorsed cheating in high school. 1:03:34.440 --> 1:03:38.000 Fully, Yeah, go for it, reach for the starts. 1:03:38.960 --> 1:03:40.480 Did you did you cheat in high school? 1:03:41.080 --> 1:03:42.440 Not in high school? 1:03:43.680 --> 1:03:48.880 In college you cheated yeah? Mm hmm, Well what are 1:03:48.920 --> 1:03:50.800 you now what do you do for a while living? 1:03:51.720 --> 1:03:55.760 Well, so I got my master's degree last May route 1:03:55.800 --> 1:03:59.840 to my PhD. And then I got super burned out 1:03:59.840 --> 1:04:04.440 in quit because I h a whole bunch of things. 1:04:04.520 --> 1:04:06.720 But yeah, oh yeah, it sounds way too difficult. I 1:04:06.760 --> 1:04:08.360 would have quit before I started doing that. 1:04:10.800 --> 1:04:15.760 Uh yeah, So I'm trying to what I'm going to 1:04:15.840 --> 1:04:16.360 do next? 1:04:17.040 --> 1:04:19.520 What are we thinking here? What are the options? What's 1:04:19.520 --> 1:04:20.080 on the table? 1:04:20.680 --> 1:04:24.760 Well, yeah, I don't, I don't know, I you know what? 1:04:25.040 --> 1:04:29.720 So I uh, I was like really excited about doing 1:04:29.800 --> 1:04:32.720 like experimental physics and like being in the lab and 1:04:32.760 --> 1:04:36.479 then just like what not getting that in my grad 1:04:36.600 --> 1:04:42.800 program and was feeling like totally disenchanted. I think it's 1:04:42.840 --> 1:04:46.520 the word for that. And then I just had this idea, 1:04:47.560 --> 1:04:52.400 like last week, there's like this small startup in like Texas, 1:04:52.440 --> 1:04:59.160 and they're like building systems to help micro breweries capture 1:05:00.000 --> 1:05:04.000 carbon dioxide from their fermentation process and like bottle it 1:05:05.040 --> 1:05:09.880 so they can reuse the carbon dioxide to pressurize their kegs. 1:05:11.840 --> 1:05:16.760 Interesting is that, like, just is that an environmentally good thing? 1:05:16.920 --> 1:05:18.240 Like what is the benefit of that? 1:05:18.480 --> 1:05:21.360 Well, so it's it's a twofold, right, you're not just. 1:05:23.280 --> 1:05:23.760 Well, okay. 1:05:23.840 --> 1:05:25.920 The reason that I was thinking about this is because 1:05:25.960 --> 1:05:32.440 the best way to extract like resin ta from weed 1:05:32.840 --> 1:05:37.800 is with a super critical carbon dioxide. And I was like, 1:05:37.840 --> 1:05:41.480 how does one acquire carbon? Like, how is carbon dioxide 1:05:41.560 --> 1:05:47.160 just like produced? And either mind like it comes out 1:05:47.200 --> 1:05:53.240 of mine or you produce it when you're fermenting alcohol. 1:05:53.280 --> 1:05:57.120 That's like what the bubbles in beer are is carbon dioxide. 1:05:58.480 --> 1:06:03.680 I am so glad that, like, there are people out 1:06:03.680 --> 1:06:08.920 there in the world that chose to go into scientific 1:06:09.120 --> 1:06:14.280 fields and medical fields and things of that nature so 1:06:14.320 --> 1:06:17.440 that I don't have to because I just have no 1:06:17.560 --> 1:06:27.880 idea what any of these words mean. But I do 1:06:27.960 --> 1:06:34.080 care on a general sense about the about the world 1:06:34.160 --> 1:06:37.760 being able to progress forward through the means of science 1:06:37.800 --> 1:06:41.960 and technology. Yeah, and so I'm invested in that progress, 1:06:42.000 --> 1:06:44.480 but I don't want to personally contribute to it anyway. 1:06:44.520 --> 1:06:48.600 So I'm happy that people like you are going to 1:06:48.640 --> 1:06:49.960 school for science things. 1:06:50.840 --> 1:06:58.520 Yeah, I don't know. Academia's white supremacist scams a hobby 1:06:58.600 --> 1:06:59.720 for rich people. 1:06:59.600 --> 1:07:03.840 So I know. College is yeah, no, it is. I 1:07:03.880 --> 1:07:07.400 agree with those things. College it's too expensive. 1:07:08.080 --> 1:07:10.680 I mean, like we should figure out how to educate 1:07:10.720 --> 1:07:14.320 people without like putting them in a system designed for 1:07:15.280 --> 1:07:18.360 like a rich British Men who like didn't know what 1:07:18.400 --> 1:07:20.640 to do with themselves because they had too much money. 1:07:21.120 --> 1:07:22.560 One day you'll be able to learn how to do 1:07:22.600 --> 1:07:24.920 surgery on YouTube if you cannot already, I have to 1:07:24.920 --> 1:07:27.360 look into that. I've had you could you know you? 1:07:27.520 --> 1:07:30.480 I did find there are like surgeons who like show 1:07:30.560 --> 1:07:33.760 you how to do like sutures on YouTube. Like if 1:07:33.800 --> 1:07:37.120 you are, like in an emergency like situation, you might 1:07:37.160 --> 1:07:40.000 want to know how to sew yourself closed. 1:07:42.120 --> 1:07:43.840 That'd be a helpful thing to know. I might look 1:07:43.840 --> 1:07:44.160 that up. 1:07:44.960 --> 1:07:45.200 Is that? 1:07:45.240 --> 1:07:45.520 I mean? 1:07:45.720 --> 1:07:46.640 I don't think I could do it? 1:07:46.680 --> 1:07:47.440 Sounds terrifying. 1:07:50.480 --> 1:07:51.280 What if you had to? 1:07:52.600 --> 1:07:54.480 Ah, I don't know. 1:07:57.920 --> 1:07:59.560 Well, hope you never have to find out. I hope 1:07:59.560 --> 1:08:01.840 that you in a situation which you have to suit 1:08:02.160 --> 1:08:03.479 I don't know what the word is if I'm gonna 1:08:03.600 --> 1:08:05.080 try it to suit her yourself. 1:08:06.000 --> 1:08:11.600 Yeah, my name is actually Kirsten. 1:08:12.680 --> 1:08:16.559 Kirsten has been an honor talking with you this evening. 1:08:17.600 --> 1:08:18.519 Nice talk to you too. 1:08:19.080 --> 1:08:23.400 You have a good rest of the night, you too, 1:08:24.960 --> 1:08:27.679 all from. 1:08:26.520 --> 1:08:28.040 A boss. 1:08:28.920 --> 1:08:29.240 Abba? 1:08:32.280 --> 1:08:34.639 Hello, what's up? 1:08:34.720 --> 1:08:35.280 How's it going? 1:08:35.760 --> 1:08:37.120 What'd you say? Your name was a boss? 1:08:37.720 --> 1:08:38.240 A boss? 1:08:38.280 --> 1:08:38.760 That's right? 1:08:39.240 --> 1:08:40.280 How are you a boss? 1:08:40.880 --> 1:08:41.120 Yeah? 1:08:41.200 --> 1:08:44.960 You know it's not too bad, not too bad. You 1:08:45.000 --> 1:08:46.240 have to be sharing this. 1:08:46.240 --> 1:08:47.160 Moment with you, Rob. 1:08:48.720 --> 1:08:50.720 God, I'm just to be sharing this one with you too. 1:08:52.720 --> 1:08:55.919 Isn't it crazy that our paths have crossed? 1:08:57.320 --> 1:08:57.559 You know? 1:08:57.880 --> 1:08:59.719 It's wild? 1:09:00.120 --> 1:09:00.879 It's wild. 1:09:01.080 --> 1:09:03.719 I mean even if you zoom out just a little 1:09:03.760 --> 1:09:08.680 bit right, you know, just a little bit on on 1:09:08.880 --> 1:09:12.240 space and time and you kind of like see the earth, 1:09:13.800 --> 1:09:16.719 it's like us right now sharing this moment and shot 1:09:16.800 --> 1:09:18.479 too wild. 1:09:19.120 --> 1:09:26.000 Yeah, it's wild. Look, it's like, you know, it's good 1:09:26.040 --> 1:09:27.760 to think about that every once in a while. I 1:09:27.760 --> 1:09:29.280 think if you think about too much, people will think 1:09:29.280 --> 1:09:31.559 you're some kind of not that it matters what people think, 1:09:31.600 --> 1:09:37.960 but you know, intensity, right, Like think about these things intensity. 1:09:38.200 --> 1:09:42.599 It's like it's like, uh, like, how ripped does one get? 1:09:42.640 --> 1:09:44.880 How ripped would one get at the gym if they 1:09:44.880 --> 1:09:48.400 were lifting weights? Literally twenty four seven? Probably not the wrong, 1:09:49.040 --> 1:09:51.280 but you know, you gotta car you gotta carve out 1:09:51.320 --> 1:09:53.840 some time in the day to do it. But you 1:09:53.840 --> 1:09:55.200 can't be thinking about that way all the time, or 1:09:55.200 --> 1:09:58.759 else you'll or else you might be a little bit annoying. 1:10:00.280 --> 1:10:03.519 Yeah, and and you'll completely bulk out and you won't 1:10:03.560 --> 1:10:07.360 have any flexibility and you'll be all veins. Yeah, you'll 1:10:07.400 --> 1:10:09.679 be annoying too, super annoying. 1:10:11.680 --> 1:10:12.519 What color is red? 1:10:17.000 --> 1:10:18.280 Color is red? 1:10:19.200 --> 1:10:21.920 Part of me wants to kind of like, uh google 1:10:21.960 --> 1:10:26.280 the frequency, you know, like find that number. There's something uh, 1:10:27.160 --> 1:10:33.880 something comforting about the the empirical nature of the frequency. 1:10:34.040 --> 1:10:37.760 You know, red red is on that thing. Yeah, yeah, 1:10:37.800 --> 1:10:40.080 it's on that spectrum too, you know, it's it falls 1:10:40.200 --> 1:10:47.520 falls in that in that wavelength. We chat saying nanimeters hurts. 1:10:49.200 --> 1:10:52.880 This is hm hmm, this is this is me talking 1:10:52.960 --> 1:10:55.240 to a stick and then you also talking into a stick, 1:10:55.320 --> 1:10:57.240 and we can hear each other in each other's sticks. 1:10:57.280 --> 1:11:00.840 There's no chat m. The only check going all right 1:11:00.840 --> 1:11:01.640 now is between you and me. 1:11:04.720 --> 1:11:08.880 There's a uh, there's a laser focus there. That's that's 1:11:08.920 --> 1:11:13.000 really grounded. I really appreciate that. And it's also just 1:11:13.520 --> 1:11:16.760 wild here here we are. You know, when you kind 1:11:16.760 --> 1:11:21.559 of tune tune out, tune out the external chatter, it's 1:11:21.600 --> 1:11:23.960 it's you and me here in the six. 1:11:25.320 --> 1:11:27.599 Donald your name's not Donald, your name's Abyss. But I 1:11:27.640 --> 1:11:29.960 just wanted someone. I just love the name Donald. I 1:11:30.000 --> 1:11:32.200 wanted to call someone Donald. 1:11:32.360 --> 1:11:36.759 Does it feel good? Does it feel good in your mouth? Donald? 1:11:36.960 --> 1:11:38.479 Does it feel feel good in your mouth? 1:11:40.000 --> 1:11:41.120 That's what she said. 1:11:44.000 --> 1:11:50.520 Uh, yeah, I wish. 1:11:49.360 --> 1:11:51.679 You wish it's the last time you had sex. 1:11:54.320 --> 1:11:55.240 It's been a minute. 1:11:56.080 --> 1:11:56.960 It's been a minute. 1:11:57.600 --> 1:12:00.439 No, I respect that it's gonna minute. 1:12:00.760 --> 1:12:04.839 It's been a tough year for me. Yeah, in person 1:12:05.000 --> 1:12:07.000 getting that physical connection. It's been a tough year to 1:12:07.000 --> 1:12:11.880 build physical sexual connections, you know. 1:12:12.040 --> 1:12:16.240 I I can't even imagine what, like, how do how 1:12:16.240 --> 1:12:17.000 do people do that? 1:12:17.200 --> 1:12:17.400 Now? 1:12:17.600 --> 1:12:20.479 Because I recently, I recently came out of a long 1:12:20.560 --> 1:12:23.799 a longest relationship. Well I mean relatively speaking, in almost 1:12:23.800 --> 1:12:26.720 six years? Is that long to you? Belonging to me? 1:12:28.200 --> 1:12:30.960 And so you know, since that was like a relationship 1:12:31.040 --> 1:12:35.439 that was initiated in the in the before times, and. 1:12:35.200 --> 1:12:36.960 And now now it's it's different. 1:12:37.640 --> 1:12:40.280 I'm I feel different, you know, the world feels different 1:12:40.320 --> 1:12:42.960 to me. And how are people doing it? How are 1:12:43.000 --> 1:12:44.479 people making those connections though? 1:12:47.200 --> 1:12:50.200 Mm hmm with theirs in their vaginas? 1:12:53.280 --> 1:12:54.519 Are they wearing masks? 1:12:55.840 --> 1:12:57.400 No? 1:12:57.560 --> 1:12:58.200 I mean I wouldn't know. 1:12:58.280 --> 1:13:04.960 I don't know, you know, I mean yeah, with their 1:13:05.000 --> 1:13:07.799 penises and their vaginas and you know, yeah, their bodies, 1:13:07.840 --> 1:13:09.240 your skins just kind of like always. 1:13:09.240 --> 1:13:11.840 I suppose a condom is a bit like a mask 1:13:11.920 --> 1:13:14.680 for the penis, which I've mentioned this before earlier on 1:13:14.720 --> 1:13:17.200 the stream. You should wear one to prevent against pregnancy, 1:13:17.240 --> 1:13:21.439 and uh and various STIs and STDs. I don't know 1:13:21.439 --> 1:13:23.200 if that's I don't know if STIs are different from 1:13:23.240 --> 1:13:24.680 STDs or if they're interchangeable, but. 1:13:27.680 --> 1:13:31.040 Hmmm, one one to me sounds kind of like the 1:13:31.080 --> 1:13:37.920 model of a car, like a sports car, and the other. No, no, 1:13:37.960 --> 1:13:41.600 I'm not should I be? Do you have a recommendation? 1:13:42.880 --> 1:13:43.519 I think you should be? 1:13:43.560 --> 1:13:43.720 All? 1:13:43.720 --> 1:13:45.920 I think dating apps? I mean, it depends on who 1:13:45.920 --> 1:13:46.960 you are. How tall are you? 1:13:48.640 --> 1:13:51.559 Like almost five eight? Probably five seven? Five eight? 1:13:52.479 --> 1:13:52.759 Nice? 1:13:52.880 --> 1:13:54.479 I have a friend who tells me I said, I 1:13:54.800 --> 1:13:56.479 told my friend I was five to seven, and he 1:13:56.560 --> 1:13:59.960 said he like asserted that I was taller than that. 1:14:00.120 --> 1:14:03.680 He's like, no, you, I'm okay, Well I'm definitely not 1:14:03.720 --> 1:14:07.760 five nine. I know that somehow, So you know that 1:14:07.840 --> 1:14:09.160 kind of leaves five eight to me? 1:14:09.920 --> 1:14:14.960 Right, yeah, I'm actually five six and a half, right 1:14:15.120 --> 1:14:17.160 on five and a half. I used to tell people 1:14:17.840 --> 1:14:19.439 that was five seven, used to bump it up. You 1:14:19.520 --> 1:14:22.200 know what I do Now I do the opposite, tell 1:14:22.200 --> 1:14:23.000 people I'm five six. 1:14:24.960 --> 1:14:29.439 You use us slavery, slippery, icko. 1:14:29.680 --> 1:14:30.200 I like this. 1:14:31.520 --> 1:14:32.920 You know it's all about setting. 1:14:35.120 --> 1:14:36.280 What is it about five? 1:14:36.840 --> 1:14:37.559 And it's who I am? 1:14:37.720 --> 1:14:40.120 Yeah, that's what you get. 1:14:40.520 --> 1:14:42.200 Those are the cards that I've been dealt in life. 1:14:42.640 --> 1:14:46.840 I can I change it. I must, I must. I 1:14:46.960 --> 1:14:50.360 must embrace that which I kind of change. 1:14:52.840 --> 1:14:56.760 Mmmmm. You know there's a there's a phrase for that. 1:14:57.000 --> 1:15:02.280 It's called it called radical acceptance. You're uh like you're 1:15:02.320 --> 1:15:06.040 living it out in the moment. You're open to the 1:15:06.120 --> 1:15:09.720 reality that is in front of you. You know that same? 1:15:11.120 --> 1:15:17.040 Yes, yep, Yeah, I've been talking over you a lot. 1:15:17.080 --> 1:15:18.400 I don't wanna let you talk for a second. 1:15:20.120 --> 1:15:24.400 Oh uh you know it's the uh, it's the Internet 1:15:25.120 --> 1:15:29.080 and and that little weird delay. But uh I I 1:15:29.200 --> 1:15:31.639 don't feel talked over. I feel like this has been 1:15:32.000 --> 1:15:36.560 this is, this is continues to be a pretty collaborative experience. 1:15:36.640 --> 1:15:42.000 I dig it is your name Dan, No, No, it's Connor. 1:15:42.200 --> 1:15:45.080 No, just kidding it. Yeah, it's a boss. 1:15:45.120 --> 1:15:45.600 You nailed it. 1:15:47.920 --> 1:15:49.919 I've totally lost all sense of time. 1:15:52.240 --> 1:15:53.040 Which is a good thing. 1:15:53.960 --> 1:15:58.080 Yeah, it was about transported into my little therapy gecko world. 1:15:59.640 --> 1:16:01.320 Well here too, how sweet it is? 1:16:01.680 --> 1:16:05.560 Oh, tell me more, tell me more about this this 1:16:05.760 --> 1:16:08.040 world of yours that you're transported to. 1:16:08.760 --> 1:16:10.840 Maybe next time a boss. I appreciate you calling, and 1:16:10.920 --> 1:16:13.240 you have one for us of the night you as well. 1:16:13.400 --> 1:16:13.840 Take care? 1:16:16.040 --> 1:16:18.479 Oh all from. 1:16:22.600 --> 1:16:23.200 Raphael. 1:16:25.280 --> 1:16:30.679 Hello, So I haven't brushed my teeth in four months? 1:16:31.600 --> 1:16:32.519 Four months? 1:16:33.800 --> 1:16:42.120 Yeah, the months the toothbrush scares me. 1:16:42.960 --> 1:16:44.360 The toothbrush scares you? 1:16:45.320 --> 1:16:45.519 Yeah? 1:16:46.840 --> 1:16:49.000 Is it? Is it? Is it the sharp bristles? 1:16:49.160 --> 1:16:50.400 Is it the uh. 1:16:52.240 --> 1:16:55.880 You know, uh phallic nature. 1:16:55.720 --> 1:16:56.080 Of the. 1:16:58.400 --> 1:16:59.280 Brush? My teeth? 1:17:00.120 --> 1:17:00.240 Uh? 1:17:00.680 --> 1:17:04.800 Those four months ago, it hurt really really badly, and 1:17:05.080 --> 1:17:06.800 I've just been scared of it ever since. 1:17:09.320 --> 1:17:11.600 You sound like you you you need to go to 1:17:11.680 --> 1:17:14.519 a dentist or a medical professional of some kind. 1:17:16.360 --> 1:17:18.360 All right, I'll plan that. 1:17:20.280 --> 1:17:21.680 Is there a reason you've been avoiding doing that? 1:17:23.040 --> 1:17:23.240 Yeah? 1:17:23.520 --> 1:17:26.960 It just hurts when the toothbrush hits my thumbs. 1:17:27.960 --> 1:17:31.360 Have you told anyone this besides a gecko guy? 1:17:34.200 --> 1:17:34.240 No? 1:17:34.479 --> 1:17:37.920 Not really should tell a dentist about that. That sounds 1:17:37.960 --> 1:17:39.240 like an actually a very serious issue. 1:17:41.080 --> 1:17:43.760 Dentists are kind of scary, but I'll try. 1:17:47.120 --> 1:17:54.400 You gotta face the fears, Raphael, I don't know it's scary. 1:17:55.760 --> 1:17:56.640 What's scary about it? 1:17:58.400 --> 1:18:00.560 You know when they like bring out the end instruments 1:18:01.000 --> 1:18:08.000 and and they like pike out your mouth. Scary stuff. 1:18:08.120 --> 1:18:08.320 Man. 1:18:12.000 --> 1:18:13.560 They scare the bug headlamb. 1:18:15.080 --> 1:18:18.120 They scare the bugs out of you. You said the 1:18:18.240 --> 1:18:23.200 bug headlamp, bugs headlamp. 1:18:24.760 --> 1:18:29.120 Yeah, what is that? It's just like when you get 1:18:29.200 --> 1:18:35.640 really scared and they scare the big headlamb, you know, 1:18:35.760 --> 1:18:39.280 like the big headlamp that they have above you. That's 1:18:39.360 --> 1:18:44.439 like really right? Yes, yeah, yes it hurts. And they 1:18:44.479 --> 1:18:46.360 don't have like shades where you put on. 1:18:47.680 --> 1:18:49.800 Oh it's too bright, you say, yeah. 1:18:50.080 --> 1:18:52.879 And then when they picked your mouth with all the items. 1:18:53.120 --> 1:18:56.600 Scary man. I don't know what I should do. 1:19:00.680 --> 1:19:02.400 I mean, you could just bring your own shades. I 1:19:02.439 --> 1:19:04.880 mean they're I can. Oh h what's stopping you from 1:19:04.880 --> 1:19:07.880 bringing your own? Right? I mean then you with any shade? Sure, 1:19:07.920 --> 1:19:09.000 but what's stopping you from your own? 1:19:10.000 --> 1:19:11.960 Last time they asked me to take it off. And 1:19:12.120 --> 1:19:15.599 that's why having them back in about like six seven months. 1:19:16.280 --> 1:19:17.800 Why wouldn't they Why would they? Why would you have 1:19:17.880 --> 1:19:19.479 to take it off. That doesn't make any sense. How 1:19:19.520 --> 1:19:20.599 does that obstruct what they're doing. 1:19:22.000 --> 1:19:23.840 I don't know they were. They just told me I 1:19:23.920 --> 1:19:26.479 had to take it off so that they didn't interrupt 1:19:26.600 --> 1:19:28.360 when they were like working on my mouth. 1:19:29.200 --> 1:19:30.960 Maybe they were jealous because you looked cool. 1:19:32.760 --> 1:19:33.439 I hope, So. 1:19:35.400 --> 1:19:38.439 Go to the dentist raphile, all. 1:19:38.439 --> 1:19:52.400 Right, I will good, all right, Well, I just hope 1:19:52.439 --> 1:20:02.320 I can overcome my fear. Also, I've been to quite 1:20:02.360 --> 1:20:07.559 a couple of themiss because the last like maybe two 1:20:07.640 --> 1:20:10.200 to three years ago, I caught my mom with one 1:20:10.240 --> 1:20:11.000 of my dentists. 1:20:16.040 --> 1:20:17.799 You caught your mom with one of your dentists. 1:20:18.680 --> 1:20:27.040 Yeah, it was I felt really bad, and I didn't 1:20:27.080 --> 1:20:30.439 know how to tell her that. I was like, I 1:20:30.600 --> 1:20:31.480 was disappointed. 1:20:34.320 --> 1:20:40.160 Is your mom married to your dad? No, so she's single? 1:20:42.800 --> 1:20:45.080 Well, yeah, but she was seeing another guy at the moment. 1:20:47.920 --> 1:20:51.880 And then I taught her with the dentist. Wasn't to die. 1:20:53.840 --> 1:20:58.519 Her and the guy exclusive, excuse me? Or her and 1:20:58.600 --> 1:20:59.600 the guy exclusive? 1:21:01.840 --> 1:21:02.280 Probably? 1:21:05.479 --> 1:21:06.920 Was it possible that your mom was just sort of 1:21:07.000 --> 1:21:08.840 dating around and seeing many different. 1:21:10.400 --> 1:21:10.559 Men. 1:21:11.920 --> 1:21:14.160 I don't know, because she was taking it seriously with 1:21:14.280 --> 1:21:15.080 the original man. 1:21:18.960 --> 1:21:20.920 Did she continue to date the original man. After she 1:21:22.479 --> 1:21:27.519 stuff with the dentist. Yeah, do you think they were? 1:21:27.680 --> 1:21:27.800 Well? 1:21:29.160 --> 1:21:29.720 How old are you. 1:21:31.360 --> 1:21:31.400 Me? 1:21:31.520 --> 1:21:40.439 I'm nineteen? What will happen? 1:21:42.439 --> 1:21:48.680 Nothing happened. Did you come back after the dentist after 1:21:48.720 --> 1:21:49.559 you caught him with your mom? 1:21:50.479 --> 1:21:50.639 Oh? 1:21:50.800 --> 1:21:50.840 No? 1:21:51.000 --> 1:21:53.040 I asked her if I could switch a dentist because 1:21:53.080 --> 1:21:54.599 I felt embarrassed every time I went. 1:21:57.439 --> 1:22:01.439 It's understandable. Did she meet the dentist through you? 1:22:03.800 --> 1:22:06.799 Yeah, we went to one of my appointments and they 1:22:06.880 --> 1:22:09.680 started talking and they exchanged phone numbers, and I was 1:22:09.800 --> 1:22:13.640 just I don't know, man, I'm not gonna feel about this. 1:22:13.800 --> 1:22:15.200 It's kind of emotional. 1:22:29.560 --> 1:22:30.200 How long it was? 1:22:30.280 --> 1:22:34.880 This about two to three years. 1:22:39.840 --> 1:22:41.000 She got to the dentist Raphael. 1:22:42.640 --> 1:22:43.759 All right, I will. 1:22:46.080 --> 1:22:47.439 I'll try to overcome my fear. 1:22:49.240 --> 1:22:51.599 You have a good rest of the night, you too, 1:22:54.600 --> 1:22:57.759 Oh all from rough. 1:23:00.760 --> 1:23:01.000 Rue? 1:23:03.520 --> 1:23:03.760 Hello? 1:23:04.960 --> 1:23:09.240 Hello Rue Hi, that's me. 1:23:09.600 --> 1:23:10.679 Oh my gosh. Hello. 1:23:10.960 --> 1:23:13.479 Sorry, I'm like, I can't believe it. 1:23:13.600 --> 1:23:16.800 I'm sorry, No, I don't freak out. Real How old? 1:23:16.920 --> 1:23:19.880 Okay, I'm I'm twenty nine. 1:23:19.920 --> 1:23:21.320 I'm going to be thirty this year. 1:23:22.040 --> 1:23:22.759 Are you excited? 1:23:23.520 --> 1:23:24.639 Yes, I'm very excited. 1:23:24.680 --> 1:23:26.680 Holy crap, joted, I'm talking to. 1:23:26.760 --> 1:23:30.320 Iti my girlfriends like right here, Holy crap. 1:23:32.000 --> 1:23:36.559 Sorry, listen, listen. Yeah, you seem very excited, ru why 1:23:36.560 --> 1:23:39.600 are you? Are you in a are you in a 1:23:39.680 --> 1:23:43.360 mood of some kind? You seem elated? 1:23:44.200 --> 1:23:45.120 Yeah, I just okay. 1:23:45.360 --> 1:23:49.519 So I discovered you from TikTok. I've been like obsessed 1:23:49.600 --> 1:23:52.439 ever since, and I've been trying to get on for 1:23:52.640 --> 1:23:57.320 like a while, and I cannot believe that I'm on. Like, 1:23:57.640 --> 1:23:59.640 I know that's silly and you're just some guy on 1:23:59.680 --> 1:24:02.599 the ender, but like this just like made my night. 1:24:03.160 --> 1:24:05.080 Oh my gosh, well. 1:24:05.000 --> 1:24:08.160 Real, you know, look, it seems like you've been very 1:24:08.640 --> 1:24:11.120 persistently attempting to reach me, and I'd like to know, 1:24:11.320 --> 1:24:13.519 is there anything that I can help you with? Anything 1:24:13.680 --> 1:24:14.719 you've wanted to talk about? 1:24:18.720 --> 1:24:20.080 Oh my gosh, they're supposedly. 1:24:21.160 --> 1:24:25.360 I can't quite think of anything that comes to mind. 1:24:25.400 --> 1:24:28.960 I've been trying to think as far as like your question, 1:24:29.720 --> 1:24:33.040 I guess, like I'm I mean, it's pretty ridiculous of 1:24:33.200 --> 1:24:36.479 me to be over excited to talk to a stranger 1:24:36.560 --> 1:24:37.920 on the internet, But hey. 1:24:40.880 --> 1:24:43.559 Do you consider yourself in general to be a ridiculous person? 1:24:46.280 --> 1:24:50.519 Sometimes, as you can see, I get pretty like excited 1:24:50.600 --> 1:24:54.680 over like the smallest things. It doesn't take much to 1:24:55.000 --> 1:24:56.320 like make me happy. 1:24:56.520 --> 1:24:57.680 Like I don't know. 1:24:58.120 --> 1:25:01.679 If I'm like walking down the street and I see. 1:25:01.520 --> 1:25:05.280 A dog, I'm like, yes, like there's a dog. 1:25:05.479 --> 1:25:06.719 Oh my god, that's great. 1:25:08.000 --> 1:25:08.400 I don't know. 1:25:10.560 --> 1:25:12.720 It seems like you have a pension which is really 1:25:12.760 --> 1:25:15.519 good to be able to, you know, be excited by 1:25:16.360 --> 1:25:19.479 things that other people might find monotonous. You know, you 1:25:19.760 --> 1:25:22.439 seem like you have a perception of the world that 1:25:22.600 --> 1:25:28.000 is very how do I put this, like, you know, 1:25:29.280 --> 1:25:32.280 grateful for the little things that you see. 1:25:33.120 --> 1:25:36.160 Yo, I've actually I've got people told you that before, 1:25:37.560 --> 1:25:41.360 Like that's one of the things that they like about me, Like, oh, like. 1:25:41.439 --> 1:25:42.599 I really like your energy. 1:25:43.120 --> 1:25:46.800 I like that it doesn't take much to make you happy, 1:25:46.920 --> 1:25:49.479 or that you see things that other people don't. That's like, 1:25:50.080 --> 1:25:55.680 I don't know all so oh I'm like, Gusha, that's 1:25:55.760 --> 1:25:58.519 so cool that you got that from me, And like, 1:25:59.240 --> 1:26:00.640 I don't know a couple and as I sit on 1:26:00.680 --> 1:26:09.760 the phone, I'm sorry, huh what tears you down? 1:26:09.840 --> 1:26:10.000 Then? 1:26:11.520 --> 1:26:11.640 Oh? 1:26:11.720 --> 1:26:14.360 Godha in the world as acutely as the season did. 1:26:15.560 --> 1:26:19.360 So, like I guess for me, I don't know, I 1:26:19.600 --> 1:26:21.360 feel like this is silly to say, but like it 1:26:21.560 --> 1:26:25.960 really breaks my heart when I find out people lie 1:26:26.040 --> 1:26:30.240 to me, or like when people just are going ou 1:26:30.280 --> 1:26:33.080 under their way to hurt others. Like I won't ramble 1:26:33.160 --> 1:26:36.880 too long, But I was in school, like college, I 1:26:36.960 --> 1:26:39.840 like dropped out because like mental health, and you know, 1:26:40.000 --> 1:26:43.880 COVID happened like a couple months later, so perfect timing. 1:26:44.040 --> 1:26:48.439 But I was in like fashion Coston in nine school 1:26:48.520 --> 1:26:53.360 and it was really competitive, and I hated that. I 1:26:53.560 --> 1:26:55.759 am not a really competitive person. I don't really believe 1:26:55.800 --> 1:26:59.559 in stuffing on people to get ahead in life. That's 1:26:59.640 --> 1:27:02.320 just not the kind of person I am. And it 1:27:02.400 --> 1:27:04.800 would really hurt me when I would see it in 1:27:04.960 --> 1:27:06.480 like my department. 1:27:06.320 --> 1:27:07.400 Because that's just not me. 1:27:07.800 --> 1:27:12.000 I even got ridiculed for it by my peers and 1:27:12.160 --> 1:27:14.400 my teacher's like, oh, you need to like step up, 1:27:14.439 --> 1:27:16.479 you need to be more aggressive, and I'm like, I'm sorry, 1:27:16.560 --> 1:27:18.439 I'm just not that kind of person. 1:27:18.720 --> 1:27:22.720 As though being aggressive is something that was required of 1:27:22.840 --> 1:27:24.960 you to succeed in this field. 1:27:25.840 --> 1:27:29.560 Yeah, I did, and it like really bothered me. 1:27:30.040 --> 1:27:33.760 Then I feel like, all right, if everyone's saying, if 1:27:33.840 --> 1:27:37.120 everyone is saying you have to be an asshole, you 1:27:37.240 --> 1:27:40.160 have to be aggressive to succeed in this thing. I 1:27:40.360 --> 1:27:46.600 think you then stand out if you are not that thing. Like, 1:27:46.760 --> 1:27:49.360 I think that's kind of bullshit. Honestly, that someone told 1:27:49.400 --> 1:27:52.640 you that you have to be aggressive or step on 1:27:52.760 --> 1:27:55.920 other people, because if you do the opposite of what 1:27:56.000 --> 1:27:58.639 other people are doing, I actually think you'll stand out more. 1:28:01.360 --> 1:28:03.600 I think people are telling you that they might just 1:28:03.840 --> 1:28:07.080 have gotten burned or something, right, and they you know, 1:28:07.720 --> 1:28:11.599 if if everyone, I mean, it just perpetuates the myth. Right, 1:28:11.600 --> 1:28:14.720 if everyone is under this idea that you have to 1:28:14.840 --> 1:28:17.880 be an asshole to succeed, that everyone's going to keep 1:28:18.000 --> 1:28:20.360 doing it until someone comes and they break the chain 1:28:20.439 --> 1:28:27.360 and they stick to their goddamn core values. Rue. Yeah, 1:28:27.920 --> 1:28:29.559 I think I think you should. I think you should 1:28:29.640 --> 1:28:31.000 keep going. But I think you got to do it. 1:28:31.080 --> 1:28:32.840 You got to do it your way through, You got 1:28:32.920 --> 1:28:36.040 to do it your way. Uh. 1:28:36.920 --> 1:28:42.000 That really resonated with me, man, Thank you. That's I 1:28:42.120 --> 1:28:46.839 needed to hear that. I've really doubted my talents at times, 1:28:46.960 --> 1:28:50.599 and I've even wondered if I shouldn't even go back 1:28:50.600 --> 1:28:53.320 to college or just learn on my own and start 1:28:53.360 --> 1:28:54.840 my own business or whatever, because I really. 1:28:54.760 --> 1:28:56.360 Wanted to be at that and start your own business 1:28:56.600 --> 1:28:59.000 instead of going to college. To college is kind of scam. 1:28:59.680 --> 1:29:00.640 You're absolutely right. 1:29:01.000 --> 1:29:04.680 I agree with you, and god, yeah you know what, 1:29:05.120 --> 1:29:08.040 like fuck it man, I've been wanting to like do 1:29:08.280 --> 1:29:11.240 my dream and like do stuff and like it. 1:29:11.640 --> 1:29:11.880 Wow. 1:29:12.080 --> 1:29:16.120 Yeah yeah that's yeah, thank you. 1:29:16.640 --> 1:29:19.400 This is your sign, oh man. 1:29:19.560 --> 1:29:21.519 And when you become a when you become a thing 1:29:21.920 --> 1:29:25.599 person in the fashion industry, I need you to knit 1:29:25.680 --> 1:29:30.280 me a new Gecko costume because I have this problem where, like, 1:29:30.600 --> 1:29:32.639 you know, if I if I want to keep doing 1:29:32.680 --> 1:29:36.200 this stream like in my own house, right, like it's 1:29:36.280 --> 1:29:38.800 totally the all right. When I try to walk in 1:29:38.920 --> 1:29:41.639 the suit, I don't know this, but like the tips 1:29:41.680 --> 1:29:44.160 are all flop. The tips are floppy. So when I 1:29:44.240 --> 1:29:46.680 try to walk, I like I end up stepping on 1:29:46.840 --> 1:29:48.839 the tips. So I need you to become a famous 1:29:48.960 --> 1:29:52.040 fashion designer person and help me out with that issue specifically. 1:29:52.800 --> 1:29:56.160 Yeah, no problem man. I Actually I've considered wanting to 1:29:56.360 --> 1:29:59.040 like make custom like first suits and stuff because like 1:29:59.120 --> 1:30:02.360 that business pays pretty decent money as a freelancer if 1:30:02.360 --> 1:30:03.560 you can get clients. 1:30:04.400 --> 1:30:06.200 Like yo, I got you. 1:30:07.280 --> 1:30:09.320 Well, thank you so much for calling in ru. I 1:30:09.360 --> 1:30:10.880 wish you the best of luck moving forward. 1:30:11.439 --> 1:30:13.920 Yeah, of course, thank you so much for just your time. 1:30:14.040 --> 1:30:16.639 You literally made my night like I appreciate that so much. 1:30:17.200 --> 1:30:19.160 Absolutely you have a good rest of that ever, thank 1:30:19.160 --> 1:30:20.040 you you too. 1:30:20.560 --> 1:30:20.680 Hi. 1:30:24.600 --> 1:30:28.040 Never Begn goes on the line making your phone calls 1:30:28.160 --> 1:30:28.400 every 1:30:28.560 --> 1:30:31.800 Night, there Begon goes too, any hide just teaching your 1:30:31.880 --> 1:30:35.760 cloud of your Life's not really an expert.