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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. Whoa holy shit?

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Speaker 1: Hi do there girl?

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Speaker 2: Hi baby?

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Speaker 1: This is Meela, This is Erica, and this here show

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Speaker 1: is called Good Mom's Bad Choices. Are you ready to

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Speaker 1: talk about the good and the bad and the ugly.

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Speaker 2: Don't worry, guys, we won't do this the whole episode.

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Speaker 2: Why not?

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Speaker 1: I love it here.

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Speaker 2: I loved when Mila walked in to Day. I told

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Speaker 2: her she looked like Heidi.

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Speaker 1: Except I don't know how they from Sweden accent, so

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Speaker 1: I just went with Annie from the farm. How do

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Speaker 1: you do a Swedish accent? Hello? Hello, Hello, I'm hello Hello.

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Speaker 1: It Susie Annie. Yeah. My accent from down south as

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Speaker 1: much easy. I gotta work on my Swedish accent from

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Speaker 2: I think we just got to look on YouTube. I

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Speaker 1: Okay, do is that what we need to do? We

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Speaker 1: need to work on our accents?

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Speaker 2: Maybe Okay, you never know, I might have to bust

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Speaker 2: them out, yeah, you know, because we're gonna be voiceover

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Speaker 2: actress actresses. Because I'm tired of not being featured on dipsy.

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Speaker 1: Yep, I'm putting on my resume.

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna just put it out there now, dipsy. We

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Speaker 2: deserve to be sex actors on your on your virtual

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Speaker 2: and not virtual, your audio app.

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Speaker 1: Because maybe you guys can like start requesting it for us.

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Speaker 1: Maybe if we're like the people are just craving for it.

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Speaker 2: We won't do that accent.

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Speaker 1: Okay, I promise I'll be sexy.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, very sexy.

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Speaker 1: It's late at night. It was raining and I was

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Speaker 3: Car when I got the call. Hello, Oh hey baby, hey,

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Speaker 3: oh what are you doing?

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Speaker 2: I was just sitting here thinking about you.

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Speaker 1: It's so crazy because I was thinking about you, and

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Speaker 1: so is she. Oh my god, my pussy has been

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Speaker 1: wet just thinking about it. My pussy is throbbing. Are

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Speaker 1: you home? Yes, I'm coming through. Keep the door unlocked

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Speaker 1: and get naked. See you soon, baby, on the way.

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Speaker 1: It can get better. We're gonna practice.

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Speaker 2: So that's our audition tape. Dipsy, this is it. Any

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Speaker 1: If Dipsy doesn't get with the program, we're gonna cheat

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Speaker 1: and go somewhere else.

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Speaker 2: Tipsy, this is.

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Speaker 1: Your final fucking callback. Script. There's a script.

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Speaker 2: There's a script.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, can't I drop it?

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Speaker 2: What the fuck?

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Speaker 1: This is the most technical?

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Speaker 2: Should read it right now? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: We should. How the fuck is may so fucking I've

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Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, Hi, how are you?

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Speaker 1: I'm great, I'm great. How are are you, honey, I'm good.

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Speaker 1: It's rarely there's a time we go more than forty

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Speaker 1: That was our first thing. Now they're gonna be talking

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Speaker 1: it's over. So it's over her too. I'm so sorry

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Speaker 1: So Hi, Orlando, my boyfriend edits our audio. So there's

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Speaker 2: I just want to say right now, I'm gonna be

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Speaker 2: like Joe, this is all for entertainment purposes. Nothing I

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Speaker 1: In boyfriend court, in regular court, in all the courts

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Speaker 1: of the land, international court. Anything we say is for entertainment.

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Speaker 2: I didn't wink. I'm serious as fuck. This is audio, bitch,

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Speaker 2: I know, but it's also YouTube.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. So we've so much to catch the people up on.

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Speaker 1: How's your your new boo that's now moving to LA

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Speaker 1: How do you feel about that?

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Speaker 2: Wow? You're really just gonna put me on the spot, aren't.

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Speaker 1: I mean, what kind of show do we have? Like

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Speaker 1: we tell all our business.

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Speaker 2: You know, I am. I'm excited. I'm excited, but I

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Speaker 2: also know that he's moving not for me, He's moving

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Speaker 2: for things. I'm part of those things. But I'm just

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Speaker 2: one another communicates. I'm a very direct communicator and it

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Speaker 1: And he's beautiful and he's smart and he's a scorpio.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm smitted.

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Speaker 1: Oh, I know you're smitting bitch. Oh, I know, I

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Speaker 1: know it's my friend we're such water signs. We'd be

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Speaker 1: Our niggas have literally traveled with us to like all

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Speaker 1: That is so cute.

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Speaker 2: They had got zero sleep, none.

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Speaker 1: It was acute. They were like holding our purses.

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Speaker 1: though we should have snuck them in.

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Speaker 2: I would have stood stood out. We even snuck them

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Speaker 2: into the party. And you missed that part in Atlanta.

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Speaker 1: Oh and Atlanta, we were also because we had to

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Speaker 1: to do like a gala, like a very like important party,

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Speaker 1: and we said fuck.

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Speaker 2: That no, especially because I told my niggas like kind

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Speaker 2: of like fashionable, he's a fashion icon. Who am I kidding,

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Speaker 2: and he was like he like got the suit out,

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Speaker 2: like he like went and you were like.

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Speaker 1: My man bought new shoes. He's gonna get in expensive.

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Speaker 1: Should thought we were going to like the top clubs.

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Speaker 2: Like he got his Nikels done like he was he was,

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Speaker 2: he was right, Yeah, he got them trimmed. He was

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Speaker 1: Let me tell you how did like when Erica sets

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Speaker 1: Oh, that's cool, Oh you have kids? The women who

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Speaker 2: Remember I snucked them through the back, bitch, I snucked

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Speaker 1: She snugged them to the back.

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Speaker 2: And then they made friends, and then they made friend

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Speaker 1: obviously our niggas. Somebody who wrote the email like telling

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Speaker 1: can we please insert these pictures because they're so fucking extra. Anyway,

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Speaker 2: We had a great time.

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Speaker 1: We delivered and they were great. We needed the support,

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Speaker 2: Great support system. They're great sidekicks. They just do their

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Speaker 1: Can you tell we're in love. They're great, natural hair, wonderful. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: You know, it's interesting to be in a relationship two

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Speaker 2: That I have to tell you. Oh my god, that's

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Speaker 1: You're saying that. Okay, I'll tell you something later. You know. Honestly,

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Speaker 1: And I knew it, and I said, you might kill me.

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Speaker 2: I don't think they're killers. No, no, no, they're not giving

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Speaker 1: Yep, just like having freak vibes. That's like, that's my

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Speaker 1: that's my mom. I like a supportive freaky What was loving? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I was. You know, I'm navigating a new and new

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Speaker 1: I'm not worried about what you're doing another bitch. I

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Speaker 1: But I realized I told Ashley this. She was like

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Speaker 2: Too, Or create something to worry about?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, create something to worry about and I have, you know,

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Speaker 1: and not that I've created it. There are some things

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Speaker 1: to tell my friends like, oh yeah, it's all good.

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Speaker 1: I'm fucking pissed, Eric, piss little help now, I'm fine,

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Speaker 1: it's not bad, I'm good. Yeah, tell you back. Oh yeah,

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Speaker 1: oh no, I'm all good. I'm fine. I'll clie back.

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Speaker 1: Fucking motherfucker is like, you're crazy. I'm like, no, i'm not.

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Speaker 1: But I don't like to care publicly.

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Speaker 2: I care in private.

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Speaker 1: I care in private. I'm jealous privately. I'm cool in public.

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Speaker 1: If you couldn't tell I'm cool now.

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Speaker 2: Everybody knows though, sh shut the fuck.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, Like, just learning to be accountable for my

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Speaker 1: and where I need to like apologize, which also I

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Speaker 1: hate a lot. I don't like to apologize. Better at

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Speaker 2: You did make him get off the phone to text you, huh,

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Speaker 2: he said, She's like niggas trying to confuse you on

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Speaker 1: These niggas, you know what they do. They call you

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Speaker 2: Keep it on text.

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Speaker 1: It's true.

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Speaker 2: It's like, you're not wrong.

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Speaker 1: It's true. You don't let me conversations. I've been like,

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Speaker 1: what is he saying? I don't know? Huh yeah, okay,

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry. Why back? And then I think about it,

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Speaker 1: I'm like, not sorry, Actually this is some bullshit, am am.

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Speaker 1: I just trying to be right sometimes, but sometimes they

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Speaker 1: be trying to confuse you. So keep it on text

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Speaker 1: just so you can. You got to be able to

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Speaker 1: analyze the thoughts. You gotta be analyzed what they saying

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Speaker 1: because they try to talk backwards. Men talk in a

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Speaker 2: So we can all dissect it and make sure we

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Speaker 2: can double check. We can check Google, we can you know,

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Speaker 2: check the thesaurus. Research this with synonyms, because some of

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Speaker 2: their words mean other things.

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Speaker 1: Literally, I tell I show Erica and then she points

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Speaker 1: out the things and I'm like, you know what. I

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Speaker 1: say that again. What you said the last time. He

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Speaker 1: run it past you, my wife.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, No, it's true. They do try to confuse you.

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Speaker 2: Because on phone, I'm like, okay, well, hi, oh my god,

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Speaker 2: I've had so many have you ever had a fight. High,

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Speaker 2: We don't care, there's no fight. Oh my god, I've

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Speaker 2: what I did, and I'm like, I forgot. They're like,

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Speaker 2: you said I did this, Tell me about it.

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Speaker 1: When did it happen?

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Speaker 2: How did it go? And I'm like, oh my god,

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Speaker 2: that's so many questions. I'm like, oh no, I'm like,

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00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:20,320
Speaker 2: I know it happened. Did it happen?

435
00:20:20,359 --> 00:20:22,399
Speaker 1: I'm high, tell me what to say. Let me call

436
00:20:22,440 --> 00:20:27,160
Speaker 1: you back, yo, I'm Queena. I'm a Cira back. Somebody

437
00:20:27,160 --> 00:20:28,800
Speaker 1: just walked in. I got back, like what we're in

438
00:20:28,800 --> 00:20:33,399
Speaker 1: my conversation. No, I got cooked. Bye, Oh my god,

439
00:20:33,720 --> 00:20:35,919
Speaker 1: don't text something. Don't get in a fight on the phone.

440
00:20:36,119 --> 00:20:38,439
Speaker 1: Don't get in the fight. Hih Hi, You're gonna get

441
00:20:38,480 --> 00:20:39,280
Speaker 1: confused quickly.

442
00:20:39,560 --> 00:20:45,200
Speaker 2: Yeah. But yeah, communication, I feel like that is that's

443
00:20:45,240 --> 00:20:49,280
Speaker 2: like the biggest lesson that I've learned, period in all relationships.

444
00:20:49,320 --> 00:20:52,800
Speaker 2: And I finally feel like I've met somebody that like

445
00:20:53,200 --> 00:20:56,639
Speaker 2: I can like literally was like, hey, when you have it,

446
00:20:56,640 --> 00:20:58,760
Speaker 2: when you have an issue, just like say it immediately,

447
00:20:59,000 --> 00:21:01,880
Speaker 2: like don't hold back. He's like, like, within the first

448
00:21:01,960 --> 00:21:03,879
Speaker 2: five seconds of you feeling like you have one, like

449
00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:06,280
Speaker 2: just say it. And I was like what, And he

450
00:21:06,359 --> 00:21:07,960
Speaker 2: was like, I'm serious, Like just say it. He's like,

451
00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:10,320
Speaker 2: I'm trying to tell you like my love language and

452
00:21:10,359 --> 00:21:13,160
Speaker 2: how I work and how I how I can, how

453
00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:15,680
Speaker 2: we can communicate because that's and I'm like, that's exactly

454
00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:18,000
Speaker 2: what I always want to do, but I can't.

455
00:21:18,080 --> 00:21:21,879
Speaker 1: I've I've trained myself not to me too, you know,

456
00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:23,680
Speaker 1: halmost like don't.

457
00:21:23,680 --> 00:21:25,760
Speaker 2: I didn't. I still like working on believing him.

458
00:21:26,240 --> 00:21:29,520
Speaker 1: But you then resentment grows because you're annoyed. There's so

459
00:21:29,760 --> 00:21:31,960
Speaker 1: much resentment. I did it this weekend. I was so

460
00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:35,159
Speaker 1: fucking irritated till like Monday, and he's like, are we friends?

461
00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:37,120
Speaker 1: He's like, why don't you just say how you feel?

462
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:43,040
Speaker 1: And I was like, right, I'm pissed, you know, but

463
00:21:43,080 --> 00:21:44,440
Speaker 1: it's like because you don't.

464
00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:46,399
Speaker 2: A part of it is like I think, I like,

465
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Speaker 2: we often sometimes get made to feel like we're overreacting

466
00:21:50,880 --> 00:21:52,680
Speaker 2: or like we're tripping or and we.

467
00:21:52,720 --> 00:21:55,320
Speaker 1: Might be we might be, but but welcome it either way.

468
00:21:55,400 --> 00:21:57,720
Speaker 2: So he be like, so part of me is like

469
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Speaker 2: I don't want to look like I'm being curaging, I'm

470
00:22:00,200 --> 00:22:02,080
Speaker 2: trying to control you. I don't want to look like

471
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Speaker 2: I'm trying to like minimize your experience.

472
00:22:04,960 --> 00:22:06,159
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't want you to do that just to

473
00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:08,280
Speaker 1: me me too, I'm like, don't tell me what to do,

474
00:22:08,320 --> 00:22:09,080
Speaker 1: but I don't like this.

475
00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:11,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, And it's like you know, and I want you

476
00:22:11,880 --> 00:22:13,600
Speaker 2: to show up as you, and really that's what it

477
00:22:13,640 --> 00:22:15,439
Speaker 2: is for me. It's like I want my partner to

478
00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:18,960
Speaker 2: show up as themselves because like there's only so long

479
00:22:19,000 --> 00:22:20,920
Speaker 2: you can hide that part of you and it will

480
00:22:20,960 --> 00:22:23,240
Speaker 2: come out and then I don't want to be surprised,

481
00:22:23,320 --> 00:22:25,200
Speaker 2: and I don't want you to be surprised, So let's

482
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Speaker 2: just like really just.

483
00:22:27,520 --> 00:22:29,280
Speaker 1: Lay it out. I know that part of me I

484
00:22:29,280 --> 00:22:30,439
Speaker 1: realize I'm like, I just want you to do what

485
00:22:30,440 --> 00:22:32,680
Speaker 1: you're gonna do, because I'm kind of testing you to

486
00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:34,320
Speaker 1: see if you're gonna do what I want you to do,

487
00:22:34,359 --> 00:22:36,320
Speaker 1: and if you don't, I'm gonna be fucking irritated. And

488
00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,000
Speaker 1: I did this this weekend and it does not work.

489
00:22:38,680 --> 00:22:40,600
Speaker 1: Don't do it. Don't be like, just do whatever you

490
00:22:40,640 --> 00:22:41,760
Speaker 1: want to do, because then they'll do what they want

491
00:22:41,800 --> 00:22:43,119
Speaker 1: to do and then you'll be annoyed and you're like,

492
00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:45,560
Speaker 1: why the fuck didn't I just say, don't do that

493
00:22:45,920 --> 00:22:47,360
Speaker 1: because I don't want to control you, because I don't

494
00:22:47,359 --> 00:22:50,200
Speaker 1: want to be controlled. Because you want them to choose you, Yes,

495
00:22:50,320 --> 00:22:51,600
Speaker 1: some of them to choose the right thing.

496
00:22:51,720 --> 00:22:52,080
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

497
00:22:52,720 --> 00:22:56,240
Speaker 1: If someone is welcoming what you need and want allow

498
00:22:56,320 --> 00:22:58,080
Speaker 1: that to happen, why is it so hot?

499
00:22:58,119 --> 00:23:00,239
Speaker 2: We literally ask for the things we want and then

500
00:23:00,280 --> 00:23:02,720
Speaker 2: they show up and sometimes we have a really hard

501
00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:05,080
Speaker 2: time accepting them. I mean, I think it's part of

502
00:23:05,119 --> 00:23:08,480
Speaker 2: like the fear there's been there's fear, there's like is

503
00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:09,119
Speaker 2: this real?

504
00:23:09,480 --> 00:23:10,040
Speaker 1: Like how long?

505
00:23:10,119 --> 00:23:12,239
Speaker 2: Is this? Is this sustainable? That's what it is for me.

506
00:23:12,320 --> 00:23:17,160
Speaker 2: It's like is this sustainable? Like because I mean inevitably,

507
00:23:17,240 --> 00:23:22,120
Speaker 2: relationships change, right like feelings grow water under the bridge

508
00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:24,560
Speaker 2: may or may not happen, depending on how you deal

509
00:23:24,600 --> 00:23:28,359
Speaker 2: with it, but things happen. And I'm just like, you know,

510
00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:31,679
Speaker 2: I was thinking about this honeymoon period or whatever you

511
00:23:31,840 --> 00:23:35,840
Speaker 2: want to call the beginning of a relationship, and it's

512
00:23:35,880 --> 00:23:37,280
Speaker 2: my favorite part of the relationship.

513
00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:37,959
Speaker 1: Me too.

514
00:23:38,000 --> 00:23:39,320
Speaker 2: I don't wanted to ever go away. And that's not

515
00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:44,720
Speaker 2: because only we like maintain the honeymoon period. And I

516
00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:47,320
Speaker 2: think a big part of it is the communication. I

517
00:23:47,320 --> 00:23:49,919
Speaker 2: think the honeymoon dies because people start feeling they have

518
00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:53,080
Speaker 2: to keep secrets and protect people, and like they start

519
00:23:53,119 --> 00:23:55,959
Speaker 2: realizing certain things that annoy someone about them. So then

520
00:23:55,960 --> 00:23:58,040
Speaker 2: they're like, oh, I can't do that anymore, but I

521
00:23:58,200 --> 00:24:00,280
Speaker 2: like and so the word press it instead of being

522
00:24:00,280 --> 00:24:03,879
Speaker 2: able to express it. So I don't know, I'm really

523
00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:06,600
Speaker 2: trying to like keep all those things mindful in this

524
00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:18,480
Speaker 2: in this situation relation, situationship, relationship relation, CITIP, situationship. This

525
00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:19,760
Speaker 2: is more than a situe.

526
00:24:19,800 --> 00:24:26,359
Speaker 1: Okay, anyway, situation situation special thing I'm doing but with

527
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:29,720
Speaker 1: the most want boyfriends in denial, not for real, just kidding,

528
00:24:29,840 --> 00:24:32,159
Speaker 1: not serious, kind of serious serious. Claim me, don't claim me,

529
00:24:32,240 --> 00:24:33,720
Speaker 1: claim me forever. No, not from me.

530
00:24:34,359 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 2: I'm I'm I'm in the journey of accepting claiming ship.

531
00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:44,120
Speaker 2: I shouldn't have smoked before this.

532
00:24:44,400 --> 00:24:46,119
Speaker 1: I told you not to. I'm about to light up.

533
00:24:46,600 --> 00:24:48,879
Speaker 1: I realized though, as a cancer I don't know if

534
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:50,600
Speaker 1: anyone else experiences I don't know if it's a water

535
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:54,120
Speaker 1: sign thing. Is this cancer thing? My ability to let

536
00:24:54,200 --> 00:24:57,879
Speaker 1: shit go is low as hell? I will be like,

537
00:24:58,320 --> 00:25:02,760
Speaker 1: m Remember January third, twenty twenty two, Well you did this,

538
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:07,520
Speaker 1: so that's why I'm doing this in June. Remember, yeah,

539
00:25:08,080 --> 00:25:09,879
Speaker 1: you did it, so I'm gonna do it now. I

540
00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:12,320
Speaker 1: know I said I didn't like it. Yeah, yeah, it's

541
00:25:12,320 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 1: literally what I did. I'm like, I know I said

542
00:25:13,840 --> 00:25:15,320
Speaker 1: I didn't like it, and you said you're gonna change it,

543
00:25:15,320 --> 00:25:17,400
Speaker 1: and you have. But now I need to get you back.

544
00:25:18,400 --> 00:25:20,240
Speaker 1: I mean, you know how it feels. You don't like it? Huh.

545
00:25:20,280 --> 00:25:23,680
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do it five more times? Then, oh my bitch,

546
00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:27,879
Speaker 1: you're nuts. He's like, are you not over it? I'm like, no,

547
00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:31,600
Speaker 1: I'm know, I'm over it. I'm not. I'm like, am

548
00:25:31,640 --> 00:25:33,440
Speaker 1: I ever gonna be over anything? Like? But you gotta

549
00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:35,840
Speaker 1: let go, because then that's why the relationship doesn't work,

550
00:25:35,880 --> 00:25:38,040
Speaker 1: because you're mad about some shit that happened seventeen months ago.

551
00:25:38,760 --> 00:25:41,160
Speaker 1: It's bringing it the fuck up like it's from seventeen

552
00:25:41,200 --> 00:25:44,560
Speaker 1: hours ago. But you know, it's just it's nice to

553
00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:46,600
Speaker 1: be free in a relationship and come as you are.

554
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:49,520
Speaker 1: And I do think that these men are coming as

555
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:51,119
Speaker 1: they are, and we are allowed to come as we are,

556
00:25:51,119 --> 00:25:55,800
Speaker 1: which everybody knows. We're a special case of women. And

557
00:25:55,920 --> 00:26:01,479
Speaker 1: so it's interesting to date free men because it's kind

558
00:26:01,520 --> 00:26:03,760
Speaker 1: of like dating yourself, which is a little scary. And

559
00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:06,320
Speaker 1: like I've said before, I'm not that fond of dating me.

560
00:26:07,119 --> 00:26:09,600
Speaker 2: Oh my god, we both are dating free men. They're

561
00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:13,200
Speaker 2: both free. I never like looked at it that way. Yeah,

562
00:26:13,240 --> 00:26:15,040
Speaker 2: And I'm like, when if you're listening, you're thinking free,

563
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:17,640
Speaker 2: Like what does that mean? Like, like niggas are all free?

564
00:26:17,640 --> 00:26:19,000
Speaker 2: They all do whatever the fuck they want?

565
00:26:19,040 --> 00:26:23,399
Speaker 1: Wow, free free with uh? Free with Uh? How do

566
00:26:23,440 --> 00:26:26,960
Speaker 1: you say when you're like accountable, like free with intention,

567
00:26:27,359 --> 00:26:30,680
Speaker 1: free with I don't know how to say.

568
00:26:30,760 --> 00:26:33,560
Speaker 2: I think they just really stand behind who they are. Yes,

569
00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:36,199
Speaker 2: they just don't try to cover it up. This is

570
00:26:36,200 --> 00:26:38,000
Speaker 2: who I am. I'm not going to try and portray

571
00:26:38,040 --> 00:26:41,360
Speaker 2: to be this nigga to you. This is where I'm at.

572
00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:44,840
Speaker 2: This is it you like it or not? Because like, yeah,

573
00:26:45,040 --> 00:26:49,479
Speaker 2: that's it really and I and I do that, so

574
00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:52,520
Speaker 2: like we do that all the time. I know most

575
00:26:52,560 --> 00:26:54,879
Speaker 2: times men don't do that because they're trying to be

576
00:26:55,200 --> 00:26:58,600
Speaker 2: it's the ego, it's all these things. But to be

577
00:26:58,880 --> 00:27:01,879
Speaker 2: to it's almost like facing your mirror, and that's what this,

578
00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:04,000
Speaker 2: that's what this feels like. It feels like I'm looking

579
00:27:04,080 --> 00:27:07,440
Speaker 2: at myself in the mirror in ways and I'm having

580
00:27:07,520 --> 00:27:11,240
Speaker 2: to be like, okay, well i'd like I do that

581
00:27:11,280 --> 00:27:13,200
Speaker 2: shit too, and I and I don't want to change

582
00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:14,920
Speaker 2: that part of me, and like I don't really want

583
00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:16,680
Speaker 2: you to change that part of you, and like, oh

584
00:27:16,680 --> 00:27:18,240
Speaker 2: my god, can we just do this shit together?

585
00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:24,520
Speaker 1: Yeah? So yeah, so yeah, it's very interesting dating yourself.

586
00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:29,199
Speaker 1: But I'd rather take date a freeman than a fucking

587
00:27:29,760 --> 00:27:33,800
Speaker 1: saved one any day. Not saved, I think against the

588
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:37,119
Speaker 1: saved man. I love a god fearing man. Actually, me

589
00:27:37,119 --> 00:27:41,399
Speaker 1: and Orlando prayed together the other day. It felt very religious.

590
00:27:41,480 --> 00:27:45,200
Speaker 2: Did you say, like dear God or something like Jesus

591
00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:49,840
Speaker 2: at this moment relaxed mother of Mary Joseph.

592
00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:52,720
Speaker 1: I don't know the mother of Mary's prayer, but I

593
00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:55,399
Speaker 1: went to Catholic school. It's very sad, no I he

594
00:27:55,600 --> 00:27:59,160
Speaker 1: led the prayer. I think there was a dear God

595
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:03,200
Speaker 1: in there. Maybe we held hands and held touched foreheads.

596
00:28:03,400 --> 00:28:07,359
Speaker 1: It was very romantical and spiritual. I liked it.

597
00:28:07,440 --> 00:28:08,200
Speaker 2: It's beautiful.

598
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:12,960
Speaker 1: I love that. Did you tell your boyfriend that you're

599
00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:15,880
Speaker 1: a witch? Was okay?

600
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:17,120
Speaker 2: He said he's a warlock. Oh?

601
00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:20,280
Speaker 1: Perfect. I figured that he looks like a warlock, right, yeah.

602
00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:20,920
Speaker 2: Yeah.

603
00:28:21,119 --> 00:28:22,640
Speaker 1: And then more and more I get to know him

604
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:23,920
Speaker 1: and don't call him my boyfriend.

605
00:28:25,000 --> 00:28:29,240
Speaker 2: I m that he is. I don't think I do

606
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:30,120
Speaker 2: boyfriends anymore.

607
00:28:30,480 --> 00:28:31,840
Speaker 1: Okay, so we're calling him partners.

608
00:28:31,920 --> 00:28:35,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I realized that he is a warlock, like

609
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:38,160
Speaker 2: I see his witch in the way, but he.

610
00:28:38,080 --> 00:28:39,720
Speaker 1: Hasn't intentionally tapped in yet.

611
00:28:40,280 --> 00:28:42,320
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612
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:44,240
Speaker 2: and that we can do that together and tap into

613
00:28:44,280 --> 00:28:44,880
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Speaker 1: Jesse Sweet Love Sanctuary, and after we had a really

680
00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:28,920
Speaker 1: terrible experience on a really stupid platform, and she was like,

681
00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:31,440
Speaker 1: you guys are really good good positions right now because

682
00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:35,160
Speaker 1: you have men that are healthy and safe and when

683
00:32:35,200 --> 00:32:37,680
Speaker 1: you have interactions with people like that that are negative,

684
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:39,640
Speaker 1: you can come home to them and they can cleanse you.

685
00:32:40,200 --> 00:32:43,560
Speaker 1: They're like, She's like, women aren't internalized and take on things,

686
00:32:43,560 --> 00:32:45,720
Speaker 1: and men have the ability to shoot them out. I

687
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:47,160
Speaker 1: don't know if she said shit them out or shoot

688
00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:47,520
Speaker 1: them out.

689
00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:49,520
Speaker 2: There was this discrepancy.

690
00:32:49,680 --> 00:32:51,400
Speaker 1: I wasn't sure what she said. I thought she said

691
00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:53,640
Speaker 1: shit them out, but Orlando said, I think she said

692
00:32:53,680 --> 00:32:55,600
Speaker 1: shoot them out, and I said, whatever, it's the same

693
00:32:55,640 --> 00:32:59,560
Speaker 1: shit getting out, it's getting out, and so I was like, hm,

694
00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:03,040
Speaker 1: I feel I could feel that the safety and being

695
00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 1: cleansed and having like a safe space to go back

696
00:33:05,960 --> 00:33:08,240
Speaker 1: after being in a world that I mean, I think

697
00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:10,200
Speaker 1: we've realized in the last three months we've been kind

698
00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:13,360
Speaker 1: of living under a bubble and we've been really protected

699
00:33:13,400 --> 00:33:16,000
Speaker 1: and we are really protected. But like as we get

700
00:33:16,040 --> 00:33:19,440
Speaker 1: more popular on the internet or whatever, like people have

701
00:33:19,480 --> 00:33:22,480
Speaker 1: the ability to leave comments and it's people are ugly

702
00:33:22,520 --> 00:33:25,080
Speaker 1: and nasty and men, I mean really mean, and men

703
00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:28,880
Speaker 1: are really hurt and really hate free women, really hate

704
00:33:28,920 --> 00:33:33,440
Speaker 1: free women, especially free black women. It's insane a lot

705
00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:33,960
Speaker 1: of black men.

706
00:33:34,120 --> 00:33:37,680
Speaker 2: And so she was just you know, right, because when

707
00:33:37,720 --> 00:33:40,200
Speaker 2: they look at white women having or doing the same

708
00:33:40,240 --> 00:33:44,400
Speaker 2: things we do, they're like they almost like admire it,

709
00:33:44,720 --> 00:33:45,360
Speaker 2: or are they like.

710
00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:49,520
Speaker 1: They don't blame white women for the downfall the whole

711
00:33:49,520 --> 00:33:50,280
Speaker 1: white community.

712
00:33:50,440 --> 00:33:53,080
Speaker 2: No, they're like they was like, oh, silly white bitches,

713
00:33:53,120 --> 00:33:57,320
Speaker 2: let me fuck you. Like for us, it's like you're

714
00:33:57,920 --> 00:33:59,080
Speaker 2: maybe I'll even wife you.

715
00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:02,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's your You're ruining the entire black community with

716
00:34:02,040 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 1: your rhetoric. It's like a super deep attack. I've never

717
00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:10,640
Speaker 1: seen so many men say we are individually as a

718
00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:15,839
Speaker 1: comboat destroying the black family structure. Just me and you, Me.

719
00:34:16,000 --> 00:34:17,880
Speaker 2: And you have destroyed all black family.

720
00:34:17,680 --> 00:34:22,480
Speaker 1: Stru Not the war on drugs, not white supremacy or patriarchy,

721
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:25,240
Speaker 1: none of that. No, not slavery. Me and Erica.

722
00:34:25,320 --> 00:34:28,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, we bitches from the valley, we alone.

723
00:34:28,360 --> 00:34:31,719
Speaker 1: Are fucking the family structure up. Any healing we had,

724
00:34:31,920 --> 00:34:36,320
Speaker 1: it's gone now between me and her fucking city girls

725
00:34:36,320 --> 00:34:42,640
Speaker 1: and Elizabeth, it's done. We take the cake. We've ruined history.

726
00:34:42,680 --> 00:34:43,319
Speaker 2: You've done it all.

727
00:34:45,160 --> 00:34:47,880
Speaker 1: We don't need men we said that publicly seventeen times.

728
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:51,720
Speaker 1: We're just going to fuck each other. We're no, we're.

729
00:34:51,560 --> 00:34:55,200
Speaker 2: Just going to be on a big woman commune where

730
00:34:55,239 --> 00:34:56,279
Speaker 2: we don't need men at all.

731
00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:59,040
Speaker 1: We may have said that, Actually I said that it's

732
00:34:59,080 --> 00:35:01,759
Speaker 1: going to happen if men don't. That's and guess what.

733
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:03,600
Speaker 1: The men are not healing themselves, and that's the problem.

734
00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:05,760
Speaker 1: And that's why I'm getting we get in the farm soon.

735
00:35:05,920 --> 00:35:07,239
Speaker 2: And that's why we got our free niggas and we

736
00:35:07,280 --> 00:35:07,919
Speaker 2: getting out of here.

737
00:35:08,960 --> 00:35:11,080
Speaker 1: Get you a free nigga. And they call them, they

738
00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:14,000
Speaker 1: call them a wild man. Like in this book I'm

739
00:35:14,040 --> 00:35:18,959
Speaker 1: reading wild women Women that women that run with wolves,

740
00:35:19,360 --> 00:35:21,400
Speaker 1: they taught so you have to find a wild man.

741
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:23,759
Speaker 1: And I told you that I'm usually a man with

742
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:27,960
Speaker 1: a free mom or like just his own his own thinking. Wow,

743
00:35:28,080 --> 00:35:31,359
Speaker 1: can find a man who can think for himself? Good?

744
00:35:31,440 --> 00:35:36,960
Speaker 2: Look basically yeah, but wait, what were we talking about,

745
00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:40,279
Speaker 2: because we were we got caught up on that terrible.

746
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:45,880
Speaker 1: Oh. Oh if they if they support our witchiness and

747
00:35:45,960 --> 00:35:49,000
Speaker 1: sustainability of the honeymoon stage. Oh, anyway, I was saying

748
00:35:49,000 --> 00:35:51,879
Speaker 1: they do support it, because I told Orlando, go get

749
00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:54,360
Speaker 1: me three eggs from the kitchen and when me and

750
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:56,000
Speaker 1: er can eat three eggs from the kitchen before we

751
00:35:56,040 --> 00:35:59,560
Speaker 1: get on the flight. And he said okay, And I

752
00:35:59,719 --> 00:36:02,120
Speaker 1: rubbed eggs on me and Erica, and then I said,

753
00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:05,080
Speaker 1: pull over. We're gonna leave him at the crossroads. Jesse said,

754
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:07,160
Speaker 1: we need to do this for a sue, and he

755
00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:10,160
Speaker 1: said okay. He didn't just blink an eye, So you

756
00:36:10,160 --> 00:36:13,120
Speaker 1: know it seems like a keeper. Yeah, I agree, And

757
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:15,440
Speaker 1: I've noticed that you're bad. Didn't say shit when I

758
00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:16,839
Speaker 1: was rubbing eggs on you in the parking lot.

759
00:36:16,880 --> 00:36:19,799
Speaker 2: I said, not one word. It's totally normal. I don't

760
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:21,440
Speaker 2: know what they're doing. I start like sending him my

761
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 2: my rituals. I was like, hey, so this is something

762
00:36:25,520 --> 00:36:27,120
Speaker 2: that I do, maybe you should try it.

763
00:36:27,520 --> 00:36:29,759
Speaker 1: Well. I think that if we do it together. I

764
00:36:29,800 --> 00:36:32,400
Speaker 1: think that there's we can get richer or faster. Well,

765
00:36:32,400 --> 00:36:32,759
Speaker 1: there's that.

766
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:34,279
Speaker 2: I just want him to I want him to know

767
00:36:34,320 --> 00:36:36,279
Speaker 2: that this is something that I do. It's important to me,

768
00:36:36,520 --> 00:36:39,239
Speaker 2: and like encourage I want I want to encourage all

769
00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:42,280
Speaker 2: my all my people to have some sort of practice,

770
00:36:42,760 --> 00:36:44,680
Speaker 2: because I feel like once you do, you just tap

771
00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:47,600
Speaker 2: into something so much bigger, like whether that is God,

772
00:36:47,680 --> 00:36:48,640
Speaker 2: whether that's.

773
00:36:48,360 --> 00:36:49,759
Speaker 1: You know ancestors.

774
00:36:49,840 --> 00:36:54,839
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like so, I just feel like he already has

775
00:36:54,920 --> 00:36:58,920
Speaker 2: it in him. He just hasn't, like fully like figured

776
00:36:58,920 --> 00:37:00,759
Speaker 2: out what works for him, you know, because it works

777
00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:02,319
Speaker 2: for me doesn't nessarily have to work for him. But

778
00:37:02,920 --> 00:37:06,080
Speaker 2: I think that I'm excited at the idea of being

779
00:37:06,120 --> 00:37:11,000
Speaker 2: able to share with that within my relationship something I

780
00:37:11,040 --> 00:37:12,520
Speaker 2: haven't really didn't.

781
00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:15,000
Speaker 1: I just did a lot of mushrooms in my last relationship.

782
00:37:15,040 --> 00:37:17,200
Speaker 2: That wasn't like it felt spiritual, but that wasn't it

783
00:37:17,320 --> 00:37:18,359
Speaker 2: was an element of it.

784
00:37:18,440 --> 00:37:20,480
Speaker 1: But no, we did a lot of drugs because it

785
00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:22,879
Speaker 1: was twenty twenty and we were nothing else to do.

786
00:37:22,960 --> 00:37:24,680
Speaker 1: There was nothing else to do. We went on trips

787
00:37:24,719 --> 00:37:27,080
Speaker 1: and we did drugs because that was the only way

788
00:37:27,080 --> 00:37:31,759
Speaker 1: to get out a drugs medicine. We took a lot

789
00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:36,320
Speaker 1: of medicine to get through twenty twenty. I'm sorry, right.

790
00:37:36,239 --> 00:37:44,000
Speaker 2: So intense, I know, but yeah, but I do want

791
00:37:44,000 --> 00:37:45,840
Speaker 2: to take mushrooms with him. I haven't done that yet.

792
00:37:46,560 --> 00:37:47,759
Speaker 2: And I asked him, I said, have you ever taken

793
00:37:47,840 --> 00:37:49,640
Speaker 2: mushrooms with intention? He was like, what do you mean?

794
00:37:49,760 --> 00:37:52,000
Speaker 2: I was like, no, do you think.

795
00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:54,200
Speaker 1: That I'm they're gonna give me problems at the border.

796
00:37:54,200 --> 00:38:02,359
Speaker 1: If I take that jar of mushroom powder, I feel

797
00:38:02,360 --> 00:38:04,920
Speaker 1: like I feel like that CanCon is they're looking for

798
00:38:04,960 --> 00:38:08,120
Speaker 1: a party. Like the motor is a bit like no questionable.

799
00:38:08,160 --> 00:38:09,680
Speaker 1: It looks like a smoothie, like something you put in

800
00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:11,880
Speaker 1: the smooth It looks better than like mushrooms.

801
00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:14,640
Speaker 2: It's kind of gray.

802
00:38:15,680 --> 00:38:17,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, but maybe be protein powders.

803
00:38:17,239 --> 00:38:19,640
Speaker 2: Okay, well you got you convinced. Bit you asked my opinions.

804
00:38:20,280 --> 00:38:22,760
Speaker 1: You don't usually use Nature's pocket.

805
00:38:22,800 --> 00:38:24,640
Speaker 2: But that's a lot. That's a lot. I don't know.

806
00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:29,000
Speaker 2: I'm not that no, no, weird, no, I just want yeah, like,

807
00:38:29,080 --> 00:38:30,480
Speaker 2: I don't know.

808
00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:35,480
Speaker 1: We won't melt powder like liquefy.

809
00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:37,240
Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't know how warm. Your womb

810
00:38:37,280 --> 00:38:38,880
Speaker 2: is very.

811
00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:40,400
Speaker 1: Very very warm.

812
00:38:40,640 --> 00:38:43,040
Speaker 2: Maybe if you pack other Okay, maybe we should talk

813
00:38:43,040 --> 00:38:47,799
Speaker 2: about this off camera, other vitamins, other smoothie mixes. I'm

814
00:38:47,800 --> 00:38:51,279
Speaker 2: gonna put some fish fry, some grits. Oh yeah, there

815
00:38:51,280 --> 00:38:51,480
Speaker 2: you go.

816
00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:56,239
Speaker 1: Me and my man are going to uh Mexico for

817
00:38:56,280 --> 00:38:59,480
Speaker 1: a month. This will be the longest stretch of time

818
00:38:59,520 --> 00:39:03,440
Speaker 1: we've spent together solo, living together. So this is this

819
00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:06,080
Speaker 1: is gonna be It's gonna be fun. I'm not worried

820
00:39:06,120 --> 00:39:06,680
Speaker 1: at all, though.

821
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:08,439
Speaker 2: I don't think you've anything to worry about.

822
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:10,839
Speaker 1: When I when I've met Orlando, like three weeks later,

823
00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:12,200
Speaker 1: I was like, do want to go to Mexico with

824
00:39:12,239 --> 00:39:13,960
Speaker 1: me for a week? And he said yes, and we

825
00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:15,520
Speaker 1: stayed together for a week and it was fine. So

826
00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:16,840
Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure we're safe.

827
00:39:17,239 --> 00:39:18,759
Speaker 2: Yeah. I think you guys are gonna be fine. You

828
00:39:18,760 --> 00:39:20,720
Speaker 2: guys are best friends, you guys get along.

829
00:39:21,600 --> 00:39:23,239
Speaker 1: Are you gonna come visit me?

830
00:39:24,560 --> 00:39:28,040
Speaker 2: I don't think so. I'm sorry. Now this will be

831
00:39:28,080 --> 00:39:30,360
Speaker 2: our Is this our friend break? This is our friend Cleanse?

832
00:39:31,200 --> 00:39:33,480
Speaker 1: Oh my god? Is that the episode title friend Cleanse

833
00:39:33,880 --> 00:39:37,200
Speaker 1: for friend de talks? No, not at talks. No.

834
00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:39,080
Speaker 2: I'm gonna I'm gonna go to Mexico, but I'm not

835
00:39:39,080 --> 00:39:40,879
Speaker 2: gonna go to that part of Mexico, and I'm gonna

836
00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:44,400
Speaker 2: come back and then I'm gonna stay either in La

837
00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:46,799
Speaker 2: or I don't know. I want to spend time with

838
00:39:46,840 --> 00:39:49,640
Speaker 2: my boo. He doesn't live here yet, so I don't

839
00:39:49,680 --> 00:39:51,719
Speaker 2: know if he's gonna come visit me in La or

840
00:39:51,760 --> 00:39:53,960
Speaker 2: if I need to go to New York and then

841
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:56,800
Speaker 2: we're going, then then then I'll see you again in

842
00:39:56,840 --> 00:39:58,600
Speaker 2: another city because that's our lifestyle now.

843
00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:01,920
Speaker 1: It's so great. I was made for this lifestyle that

844
00:40:03,520 --> 00:40:08,239
Speaker 1: I know. I'm ready, bitch, are you ready ready? Yeah, yeah,

845
00:40:09,520 --> 00:40:13,160
Speaker 1: we've been We've we've been ready, We've been ready. So

846
00:40:13,239 --> 00:40:16,880
Speaker 1: I am. I'm excited for this shift. I feel like

847
00:40:17,480 --> 00:40:23,680
Speaker 1: we're in like this crazy transition phase like right now,

848
00:40:23,880 --> 00:40:27,040
Speaker 1: like our lives are changing right in this moment when

849
00:40:27,040 --> 00:40:30,400
Speaker 1: we're in DC, we're at the club because we're we

850
00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:35,480
Speaker 1: do this now, and there's a sign and bottles and

851
00:40:35,560 --> 00:40:37,640
Speaker 1: all of our bitches are with us, and like, hey,

852
00:40:37,680 --> 00:40:39,239
Speaker 1: out shout out to everybody who met us in d

853
00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:41,759
Speaker 1: c our tribe. Like I met so many bomb ass women.

854
00:40:41,800 --> 00:40:46,520
Speaker 1: I partied with so many women and it was great

855
00:40:46,640 --> 00:40:49,080
Speaker 1: and I feel like I knew you bitches forever and

856
00:40:49,480 --> 00:40:54,960
Speaker 1: every time, right, shout out to my Leah, just Tina, everybody.

857
00:40:56,719 --> 00:40:59,439
Speaker 1: And there's a point where like our bottles came, we're

858
00:40:59,480 --> 00:41:01,760
Speaker 1: like working, and then she looked over at me across

859
00:41:01,760 --> 00:41:04,120
Speaker 1: the table and she's like, this is it. This is

860
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:08,160
Speaker 1: the shift right now. I was like, you're right, who

861
00:41:08,200 --> 00:41:12,399
Speaker 1: were at the club. We've made it, bitch, our face

862
00:41:12,480 --> 00:41:13,440
Speaker 1: is on a club flyer.

863
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:16,640
Speaker 2: This is what dreams are made of.

864
00:41:17,400 --> 00:41:20,040
Speaker 1: Four years working hard just to get to the club

865
00:41:20,080 --> 00:41:22,720
Speaker 1: with her name on the battle and a flyer.

866
00:41:23,239 --> 00:41:25,759
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, though that was I think, Oh yeah, that

867
00:41:25,760 --> 00:41:27,440
Speaker 2: was pretty. I was like, wow, this I get it.

868
00:41:27,480 --> 00:41:31,400
Speaker 2: I like this. Thank you baby Jesus. Yes, and shout

869
00:41:31,400 --> 00:41:34,439
Speaker 2: out to my boo for hooking that up because they

870
00:41:34,480 --> 00:41:37,000
Speaker 2: we had our name on a flyer thanks to the connection.

871
00:41:37,239 --> 00:41:40,600
Speaker 1: Not one night, two nights. Yeah, we were the after

872
00:41:40,680 --> 00:41:44,600
Speaker 1: party of the mom friends, the official after party off.

873
00:41:45,000 --> 00:41:48,239
Speaker 1: Somebody said that I was okay, right, we are, not

874
00:41:48,280 --> 00:41:51,240
Speaker 1: that anyone had that much samina because it was difficult

875
00:41:51,280 --> 00:41:56,040
Speaker 1: even for us. But yeah, I'm excited and I love you.

876
00:41:56,200 --> 00:41:57,959
Speaker 2: I love you too. You have an amazing trip.

877
00:41:58,200 --> 00:42:00,560
Speaker 1: Thank you. I'm looking forward to it, looking forward to

878
00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:06,000
Speaker 1: getting like healthy, drinking water, taking my time writing this book.

879
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:07,560
Speaker 2: Long breaths, deep breath.

880
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:09,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, just a lot of that. I realized, just because

881
00:42:09,680 --> 00:42:11,799
Speaker 1: just from the time we've spent in Costa Rica, Like

882
00:42:11,920 --> 00:42:15,759
Speaker 1: I really need that. I mean we both do, but like, yeah,

883
00:42:15,840 --> 00:42:18,160
Speaker 1: I mean sometimes separately. Sometimes we're not working.

884
00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:23,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, like not working yea, yeah, but yeah, I'm really

885
00:42:23,120 --> 00:42:25,719
Speaker 2: excited for the I mean, like this, this marks the

886
00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:26,439
Speaker 2: middle of the year.

887
00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:30,680
Speaker 1: Like, this is the rest, This is the final, the

888
00:42:30,680 --> 00:42:32,680
Speaker 1: medior check in. Yeah, this is the midior check in.

889
00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:36,359
Speaker 1: How are you guys doing over there? What's going on?

890
00:42:37,360 --> 00:42:40,280
Speaker 2: There's still time to shift whatever it needs to be shifted.

891
00:42:40,320 --> 00:42:43,279
Speaker 2: It's never too late. You haven't ruined or failed in

892
00:42:43,320 --> 00:42:46,319
Speaker 2: your New Year's resolution. You know, we put so much

893
00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:49,760
Speaker 2: pressure on ourselves to like change our lives January first

894
00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:52,440
Speaker 2: every year, and then like the year passes and we're like,

895
00:42:52,440 --> 00:42:54,120
Speaker 2: oh my god, did I do any of the things

896
00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:56,920
Speaker 2: I'm gonna do? Probably not, not all of them, But

897
00:42:57,160 --> 00:43:01,560
Speaker 2: this is your reminder right now, bitch, get your eggs together,

898
00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:03,840
Speaker 2: figure it the fuck out. You can do it. You

899
00:43:03,880 --> 00:43:05,279
Speaker 2: can start over, you can do it.

900
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:07,040
Speaker 1: What are some things that you guys.

901
00:43:06,840 --> 00:43:09,319
Speaker 2: Are doing to check in with yourself.

902
00:43:11,360 --> 00:43:15,799
Speaker 1: In November? I, in like October, committed to going to

903
00:43:15,880 --> 00:43:22,160
Speaker 1: therapy for minimal a year, for at least once a week.

904
00:43:22,280 --> 00:43:26,520
Speaker 1: And I've done that. I've gone to therapy basically once

905
00:43:26,560 --> 00:43:28,160
Speaker 1: a week. I've probably missed a couple weeks when we're

906
00:43:28,200 --> 00:43:30,680
Speaker 1: like traveling or something, but I have. I've gone. I've

907
00:43:30,680 --> 00:43:33,680
Speaker 1: committed to it, and so I'm really proud of myself.

908
00:43:33,800 --> 00:43:35,920
Speaker 2: I'm proud of you too. That's amazing And I'm like,

909
00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:38,520
Speaker 2: even if that was all you did, like that, oh

910
00:43:38,520 --> 00:43:39,440
Speaker 2: it is, hude, it is.

911
00:43:39,480 --> 00:43:41,640
Speaker 1: My house has probably been dirty like ninety percent.

912
00:43:41,800 --> 00:43:43,840
Speaker 2: But I'm just saying, like, even like for women listening,

913
00:43:43,840 --> 00:43:45,160
Speaker 2: because a lot of times we feel like we have

914
00:43:45,200 --> 00:43:48,280
Speaker 2: to have these major goals and things that have to happen,

915
00:43:48,400 --> 00:43:52,000
Speaker 2: but like just deciding to go to therapy is over.

916
00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:55,040
Speaker 2: It's a whole year when just showing up every week

917
00:43:55,440 --> 00:43:56,720
Speaker 2: to just work on something.

918
00:43:57,080 --> 00:43:59,960
Speaker 1: Like yes, I'm not saying like I've had any like

919
00:44:00,040 --> 00:44:02,880
Speaker 1: crazy breakthroughs, and of course I have. I've cried, you

920
00:44:02,920 --> 00:44:04,640
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Sometimes I'm like I have time

921
00:44:04,680 --> 00:44:07,480
Speaker 1: to sit here and talk for fucking today, and then

922
00:44:07,480 --> 00:44:09,200
Speaker 1: I do, and then I'm happy about it. But like

923
00:44:09,320 --> 00:44:12,200
Speaker 1: every time I do the shit because I know myself

924
00:44:12,200 --> 00:44:14,440
Speaker 1: and I know in the past I haven't committed, you know,

925
00:44:14,480 --> 00:44:20,319
Speaker 1: because I'm just doing all the time with add But yeah,

926
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:24,080
Speaker 1: that feels really good and I just feel the progress

927
00:44:24,120 --> 00:44:27,279
Speaker 1: and I see the progress and I'm proud. What about you?

928
00:44:31,239 --> 00:44:37,080
Speaker 2: I think I like reconnecting with Iri and not that

929
00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:39,359
Speaker 2: like we've had a disconnect with my daughter, but like

930
00:44:40,040 --> 00:44:44,760
Speaker 2: I think there's like a shift that happens between ages,

931
00:44:44,920 --> 00:44:48,640
Speaker 2: and like between those ages, like I've been so consumed

932
00:44:48,680 --> 00:44:53,560
Speaker 2: with like working and wanting to achieve my goals, so

933
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:57,960
Speaker 2: that like something can shift for us, and sometimes like

934
00:44:58,040 --> 00:45:01,080
Speaker 2: I felt, I felt really imbalanced in that. And I

935
00:45:01,080 --> 00:45:02,759
Speaker 2: had a wake up call a few months ago that

936
00:45:02,840 --> 00:45:05,439
Speaker 2: like really put it into perspective for me and how

937
00:45:05,560 --> 00:45:08,360
Speaker 2: like this is it. Like I just realized this is

938
00:45:08,480 --> 00:45:10,600
Speaker 2: like their first grade is done, Like we're not getting

939
00:45:10,600 --> 00:45:14,040
Speaker 2: this back like last month is over right talking to

940
00:45:14,120 --> 00:45:15,799
Speaker 2: us like, well, because I have these are things. These

941
00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:18,120
Speaker 2: are conversations that I have to have with myself to

942
00:45:18,239 --> 00:45:21,799
Speaker 2: sometimes like sit my ass down and like focus. Like

943
00:45:21,880 --> 00:45:24,520
Speaker 2: last night we were working and we were like I'm

944
00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:27,400
Speaker 2: this call late or whatever, and like it was bedtime

945
00:45:27,440 --> 00:45:29,319
Speaker 2: and I was tired, but she just wanted me to

946
00:45:29,360 --> 00:45:31,160
Speaker 2: like play a game of Uno with her. She was like,

947
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:32,480
Speaker 2: can we just play one game of Uno? And like

948
00:45:32,520 --> 00:45:33,600
Speaker 2: I really want to be like, no, you need to

949
00:45:33,600 --> 00:45:35,360
Speaker 2: go to bed. And I was like it's just little

950
00:45:35,360 --> 00:45:38,520
Speaker 2: things like that where I just like say yes more

951
00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:41,160
Speaker 2: because it's easy for me to say no because she

952
00:45:41,200 --> 00:45:44,240
Speaker 2: has doesn't have a choice in my no, you know, really,

953
00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:46,400
Speaker 2: like that's what parents do We're like nope, because I

954
00:45:46,440 --> 00:45:48,359
Speaker 2: said so, No, I don't feel like it. No, we'll

955
00:45:48,360 --> 00:45:50,480
Speaker 2: get to it. No, I'll do that later. No, like

956
00:45:50,680 --> 00:45:52,880
Speaker 2: you'll get that play date next time. No, No, because

957
00:45:52,880 --> 00:45:56,840
Speaker 2: it's easier for my life, and like, I just I

958
00:45:56,880 --> 00:45:58,879
Speaker 2: just need to get I'm just trying to get through

959
00:45:58,920 --> 00:46:02,799
Speaker 2: the day, you know, and so really trying to just

960
00:46:02,840 --> 00:46:05,520
Speaker 2: be more mindful of that, and like it's been feeling

961
00:46:05,560 --> 00:46:09,000
Speaker 2: really good and like like I feel like I'm just

962
00:46:10,920 --> 00:46:14,839
Speaker 2: I want to always be mindful of like remembering how

963
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:16,799
Speaker 2: I felt like I couldn't share things with my mom

964
00:46:17,000 --> 00:46:19,719
Speaker 2: and like I don't. I so desperately don't want that

965
00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:23,080
Speaker 2: for me and my daughter and the connection, like just

966
00:46:23,920 --> 00:46:28,719
Speaker 2: rebalancing I guess motherhood and work essentially, and I feel

967
00:46:28,719 --> 00:46:30,719
Speaker 2: like I'm doing a better job at it and just

968
00:46:30,760 --> 00:46:32,920
Speaker 2: having more boundaries like no, I can't do that because

969
00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:35,280
Speaker 2: I need to. This is what has to happen, Whereas

970
00:46:35,280 --> 00:46:37,680
Speaker 2: before I'd be like, Okay, we'll figure it out. Like no.

971
00:46:40,160 --> 00:46:43,319
Speaker 2: So that's been like a good check in and like

972
00:46:43,400 --> 00:46:46,000
Speaker 2: something that like I'm glad that maybe in this year

973
00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:47,600
Speaker 2: I didn't realize that was a lesson I was gonna

974
00:46:47,719 --> 00:46:51,359
Speaker 2: be brought and then it happened, and then I was like, okay, so.

975
00:46:52,760 --> 00:46:56,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I'm realizing like there's always more work to

976
00:46:56,760 --> 00:47:00,640
Speaker 1: be done, you know, and we're We've grown a lot

977
00:47:00,680 --> 00:47:03,160
Speaker 1: since the beginning. I've listened to like our first episode

978
00:47:03,560 --> 00:47:05,560
Speaker 1: and I was like, I can hear their little voices

979
00:47:05,600 --> 00:47:11,759
Speaker 1: in the backgrounds. Yeah, like Mama, I'm like, oh my god,

980
00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:16,040
Speaker 1: like literally I want to cry. But it's just interesting,

981
00:47:16,080 --> 00:47:18,000
Speaker 1: like we've grown a lot, and in ways, there's so

982
00:47:18,160 --> 00:47:20,840
Speaker 1: much growth to still be done, Like I'm not done,

983
00:47:20,960 --> 00:47:24,320
Speaker 1: and yeah, even with motherhood, like I'm feeling really guilty

984
00:47:24,560 --> 00:47:27,759
Speaker 1: also about going being gone for so long. I also

985
00:47:27,800 --> 00:47:29,360
Speaker 1: know I need to do this to do what I

986
00:47:29,400 --> 00:47:33,600
Speaker 1: need to do, and like just like my mom's gonna

987
00:47:33,600 --> 00:47:36,680
Speaker 1: bring her out while I'm there, but yeah, also re

988
00:47:38,120 --> 00:47:41,000
Speaker 1: calibrating my time so that she does it, like because

989
00:47:41,000 --> 00:47:43,960
Speaker 1: of these years are going by so fucking quickly, so quickly,

990
00:47:43,960 --> 00:47:46,200
Speaker 1: and it's like and well, you know, of course we're

991
00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:48,839
Speaker 1: great mothers, but there's always room to do better, you know.

992
00:47:48,960 --> 00:47:50,719
Speaker 1: And it's like it's okay to say that. I think

993
00:47:50,719 --> 00:47:53,520
Speaker 1: as moms were like and a great mom, I do everything,

994
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:57,080
Speaker 1: And it's true, we do everything but if there's always room,

995
00:47:57,239 --> 00:47:59,600
Speaker 1: I feel like to be like, yeah, I think from

996
00:47:59,600 --> 00:48:02,319
Speaker 1: their per perspective, be software be more playful because we

997
00:48:02,400 --> 00:48:05,279
Speaker 1: get caught up so often. And like I think I'm just.

998
00:48:05,239 --> 00:48:08,160
Speaker 2: Like growing in my motherhood, Like I'm growing up in

999
00:48:08,239 --> 00:48:12,000
Speaker 2: this space too, because like no one teaches you how

1000
00:48:12,000 --> 00:48:15,040
Speaker 2: to be a mother, Like yeah, it's like innately in

1001
00:48:15,120 --> 00:48:17,719
Speaker 2: you in ways, but like there's so you don't know

1002
00:48:17,760 --> 00:48:20,000
Speaker 2: what kind of child you're going to receive, and you

1003
00:48:20,040 --> 00:48:22,240
Speaker 2: don't know like you maybe never met this person before

1004
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:25,080
Speaker 2: and you're in your life pre child like a person

1005
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:27,120
Speaker 2: that is similar to their and it's like who are you?

1006
00:48:27,239 --> 00:48:30,400
Speaker 2: How do I cater to this personality? How do I

1007
00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:33,400
Speaker 2: like you know, and encourage it and rich it, like

1008
00:48:34,000 --> 00:48:36,840
Speaker 2: you know, give it space, not over be overbearing. But

1009
00:48:36,920 --> 00:48:40,560
Speaker 2: also like you know, so I think I'm just really

1010
00:48:40,560 --> 00:48:42,920
Speaker 2: starting to I'm just I feel like there's been a

1011
00:48:42,960 --> 00:48:46,919
Speaker 2: shift in who I am as a mother as of late,

1012
00:48:47,200 --> 00:48:48,960
Speaker 2: and like the mother that I want to be and

1013
00:48:49,000 --> 00:48:50,799
Speaker 2: I want to continue to be from here on out.

1014
00:48:51,360 --> 00:48:54,799
Speaker 2: So it's just like such a cool job we have,

1015
00:48:55,239 --> 00:48:58,239
Speaker 2: you know, And like these years are so I could

1016
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:01,239
Speaker 2: like cry thinking about it. These years are so like important,

1017
00:49:01,480 --> 00:49:03,959
Speaker 2: you know, And like I just remember being a kid

1018
00:49:04,040 --> 00:49:09,200
Speaker 2: and how like there were so many moments and I'm like, wow,

1019
00:49:09,320 --> 00:49:12,480
Speaker 2: like we're things could have been could have been shifted,

1020
00:49:12,600 --> 00:49:14,600
Speaker 2: or like there was an opportunity for me to be

1021
00:49:14,680 --> 00:49:16,880
Speaker 2: more open, had someone just been okay just having a

1022
00:49:16,880 --> 00:49:19,120
Speaker 2: conversation with me, And like I just want to make

1023
00:49:19,160 --> 00:49:21,480
Speaker 2: sure that I am that for her, that I'm at

1024
00:49:21,560 --> 00:49:24,880
Speaker 2: least trying, because sometimes it's easy to just be default,

1025
00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:28,000
Speaker 2: do the default thing that like you were taught that

1026
00:49:28,080 --> 00:49:28,600
Speaker 2: you receive.

1027
00:49:28,920 --> 00:49:32,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, and I feel I feel you, And.

1028
00:49:32,080 --> 00:49:34,200
Speaker 2: So I'm just excited that I get the It's like

1029
00:49:34,239 --> 00:49:35,960
Speaker 2: an honor to be able to do it. And like

1030
00:49:36,480 --> 00:49:40,799
Speaker 2: my daughter is like fucking amazing and I just can't

1031
00:49:40,840 --> 00:49:42,840
Speaker 2: wait for her to like go out in the world

1032
00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:45,239
Speaker 2: and like take all the things and just do it,

1033
00:49:45,360 --> 00:49:47,960
Speaker 2: you know. And like even though I'm like sad she's

1034
00:49:48,000 --> 00:49:49,600
Speaker 2: growing up, I think about that too, and I'm like,

1035
00:49:49,600 --> 00:49:50,160
Speaker 2: oh my god, what.

1036
00:49:50,120 --> 00:49:51,920
Speaker 1: Does that look like? What is that? Like?

1037
00:49:51,960 --> 00:49:54,560
Speaker 2: What is she going to actually be into? Like what

1038
00:49:54,600 --> 00:49:57,439
Speaker 2: are her and Luna gonna look like together as teenagers?

1039
00:49:57,520 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 2: Like hanging out and going out out, like we'll be back,

1040
00:50:01,560 --> 00:50:04,359
Speaker 2: We're going out, Like what like I'm gonna throw up,

1041
00:50:04,400 --> 00:50:07,640
Speaker 2: but also I'm so excited over I know.

1042
00:50:08,120 --> 00:50:09,560
Speaker 1: I know that's how I.

1043
00:50:09,480 --> 00:50:11,720
Speaker 2: Feel, and like I've been having these like thoughts about

1044
00:50:11,719 --> 00:50:14,759
Speaker 2: it so much lately, and especially like even you know,

1045
00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:17,080
Speaker 2: we stayed at a house this weekend or last week,

1046
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:19,440
Speaker 2: oh yeah, and I was looking at our girls together

1047
00:50:19,719 --> 00:50:24,160
Speaker 2: and just they've grown up together, like literally, I know,

1048
00:50:24,440 --> 00:50:28,400
Speaker 2: just like like first best friends, like really, you know,

1049
00:50:28,719 --> 00:50:32,480
Speaker 2: and it's crazy to watch it and to see how

1050
00:50:32,480 --> 00:50:37,160
Speaker 2: it's like literally like growing from the ground in front

1051
00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:37,720
Speaker 2: of my face.

1052
00:50:37,760 --> 00:50:40,080
Speaker 1: I know, I know, and I'm scared, Like I'm like,

1053
00:50:40,160 --> 00:50:42,680
Speaker 1: am I doing it right? Am I being gentle enough?

1054
00:50:43,520 --> 00:50:47,080
Speaker 1: I just like sometimes she acts so ungrateful. I'm like, yo,

1055
00:50:48,120 --> 00:50:50,600
Speaker 1: you just spent the weekend at a four million dollar house,

1056
00:50:51,000 --> 00:50:54,800
Speaker 1: prancing around naked with your mom and her friends eating

1057
00:50:54,840 --> 00:50:59,879
Speaker 1: pizza and like you're living the life, okay, And She's

1058
00:50:59,920 --> 00:51:02,239
Speaker 1: just like I wanted this and I wanted that, And

1059
00:51:02,280 --> 00:51:04,680
Speaker 1: I'm like, you need to be grateful. Do you know

1060
00:51:04,760 --> 00:51:07,360
Speaker 1: gratefulness it is? And I'm like, do I need to

1061
00:51:07,360 --> 00:51:10,439
Speaker 1: read a book about fucking gentle parenting? Because I want

1062
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:13,319
Speaker 1: to be like you're on I'm like, that's not like

1063
00:51:13,520 --> 00:51:16,080
Speaker 1: I'm like, that's not being grateful, Like people don't have shit,

1064
00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:19,440
Speaker 1: you know, you're very lucky, and like I remember my

1065
00:51:19,440 --> 00:51:22,200
Speaker 1: parents telling me that, and I'm like, you know, but

1066
00:51:22,400 --> 00:51:24,960
Speaker 1: like just being gentle and loving.

1067
00:51:25,120 --> 00:51:27,000
Speaker 2: I only know what they know, and they know is

1068
00:51:27,000 --> 00:51:29,359
Speaker 2: what we show them, and so what we show them

1069
00:51:29,520 --> 00:51:32,839
Speaker 2: is bomb shit, So they always want more bombshit. And

1070
00:51:32,880 --> 00:51:34,600
Speaker 2: that's the plate. That's why we got to drop these

1071
00:51:34,680 --> 00:51:38,480
Speaker 2: kids off in the hood for like three weeks every year.

1072
00:51:39,280 --> 00:51:41,680
Speaker 2: That was that's that's the balance. So if anyone has

1073
00:51:41,719 --> 00:51:43,560
Speaker 2: a hood, we can drop our kids off.

1074
00:51:44,560 --> 00:51:49,160
Speaker 1: Contact is a safe hood. Safehood. But you know, my

1075
00:51:49,280 --> 00:51:51,480
Speaker 1: dad did that to me when I was like nine

1076
00:51:51,920 --> 00:51:56,360
Speaker 1: in the hoods of Philadelphia West Philadelphia. I it was

1077
00:51:56,400 --> 00:51:59,359
Speaker 1: like a number's house and which is like a gambling house,

1078
00:51:59,360 --> 00:52:02,280
Speaker 1: you guys, so there's probably a lot of gang shit happening.

1079
00:52:02,400 --> 00:52:05,919
Speaker 1: And I came back with flea bites baby. My dad

1080
00:52:05,960 --> 00:52:07,920
Speaker 1: picked me up and they're like someone like hit me

1081
00:52:07,960 --> 00:52:09,359
Speaker 1: in the face. I think, like a boy, like hit

1082
00:52:09,400 --> 00:52:10,799
Speaker 1: me in the face, like look she can fight now,

1083
00:52:10,840 --> 00:52:16,920
Speaker 1: And I was like, literally like what the fuck? Child abuse?

1084
00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:19,279
Speaker 1: But I came out tougher because of it.

1085
00:52:19,239 --> 00:52:21,120
Speaker 2: It's my dad dropped me off in the country, which

1086
00:52:21,120 --> 00:52:24,319
Speaker 2: I've loved, Like I loved the freedom of that, and

1087
00:52:24,520 --> 00:52:28,280
Speaker 2: just like it was just not It's just so different

1088
00:52:28,280 --> 00:52:30,120
Speaker 2: than what I was doing here, you know, and I

1089
00:52:30,120 --> 00:52:32,719
Speaker 2: think that was really important. But yeah, so if you

1090
00:52:32,760 --> 00:52:35,000
Speaker 2: have a hood or a country farm, then we can

1091
00:52:35,080 --> 00:52:36,160
Speaker 2: drop our kids off.

1092
00:52:36,040 --> 00:52:38,319
Speaker 1: At we will compensate.

1093
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:42,880
Speaker 2: But I'm also really proud to like, I of course

1094
00:52:42,960 --> 00:52:45,720
Speaker 2: want my daughter to have balance, but like I work

1095
00:52:45,800 --> 00:52:48,520
Speaker 2: hard so she can have certain things. I don't work

1096
00:52:48,560 --> 00:52:51,919
Speaker 2: hard so that she can have mediocre shit. I don't

1097
00:52:51,920 --> 00:52:56,360
Speaker 2: want mediocre shit because there's also that narrative like the

1098
00:52:56,440 --> 00:52:58,719
Speaker 2: kids need to have less, they need to understand, they

1099
00:52:58,760 --> 00:53:01,920
Speaker 2: need to get it. And it's like, well but I don't,

1100
00:53:01,960 --> 00:53:04,000
Speaker 2: but I want all those things, so she should have

1101
00:53:04,040 --> 00:53:04,640
Speaker 2: all those things.

1102
00:53:04,680 --> 00:53:08,000
Speaker 1: Absolutely. That's why I need to read a book about

1103
00:53:08,040 --> 00:53:11,560
Speaker 1: fucking general parenting because I'm like, I'm I realized, I'm

1104
00:53:11,600 --> 00:53:14,480
Speaker 1: like I'm pretty tough. I'm not tough. I'm soft, but

1105
00:53:14,600 --> 00:53:17,400
Speaker 1: like I'm not as soft as I'd like to think

1106
00:53:17,880 --> 00:53:21,279
Speaker 1: in life that's true. Like I'm like I'm kind of

1107
00:53:21,360 --> 00:53:24,840
Speaker 1: rough around the edges, Like sometimes I'm just like chill out,

1108
00:53:25,280 --> 00:53:27,239
Speaker 1: be quiet, do what the fuck, I said to do.

1109
00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:28,799
Speaker 1: Why the fuck do I have to keep asking to

1110
00:53:29,000 --> 00:53:33,480
Speaker 1: clean your room every day forever? Like she just do

1111
00:53:33,560 --> 00:53:35,799
Speaker 1: it like it's just But I realized, like that's how

1112
00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:37,880
Speaker 1: my parents treated me, Like that's how I was talked to,

1113
00:53:38,480 --> 00:53:40,359
Speaker 1: so like even I told you, which is the point,

1114
00:53:40,400 --> 00:53:44,120
Speaker 1: like sometimes other people are very like motherly to their kids.

1115
00:53:44,120 --> 00:53:47,919
Speaker 1: It irritates me. And this is not popular statement. It's

1116
00:53:47,960 --> 00:53:49,840
Speaker 1: because I didn't get that as a kid, and so

1117
00:53:49,880 --> 00:53:54,200
Speaker 1: I'm constantly having to work against that like mentality to

1118
00:53:54,320 --> 00:53:57,000
Speaker 1: just be like kind of like tough love, you know,

1119
00:53:57,120 --> 00:53:59,960
Speaker 1: because I've maybe i'm like resentful that I didn't receive that

1120
00:54:00,160 --> 00:54:01,800
Speaker 1: still as a fucking because I can't let shit go

1121
00:54:01,920 --> 00:54:05,600
Speaker 1: with my cancer fucking thirty four years old. But it's

1122
00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:08,919
Speaker 1: it's been challenging. But also I'm lucky that I'm aware

1123
00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:12,000
Speaker 1: enough to check myself sometimes in the moments and hug

1124
00:54:12,040 --> 00:54:13,799
Speaker 1: and get in the like do all the things. Because

1125
00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:16,719
Speaker 1: I am a very affectionate person anyway, and so as

1126
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:19,200
Speaker 1: my child, like we we are affectionate, we are loving,

1127
00:54:19,200 --> 00:54:20,960
Speaker 1: and I know she gets it. And I only talk

1128
00:54:21,000 --> 00:54:22,600
Speaker 1: to her in a way where I know because she's

1129
00:54:22,840 --> 00:54:26,319
Speaker 1: she's she's mature, in ways, like emotionally, Luna is very

1130
00:54:26,520 --> 00:54:29,440
Speaker 1: very evolved. She's been here before, for sure, So there

1131
00:54:29,440 --> 00:54:30,799
Speaker 1: are things I can talk to her about that I

1132
00:54:30,840 --> 00:54:34,319
Speaker 1: know she's she's understanding. But also she's fucking seven, you know,

1133
00:54:34,320 --> 00:54:37,640
Speaker 1: And I have to remind myself all the time to

1134
00:54:37,719 --> 00:54:39,719
Speaker 1: be kind, you know, to be softer with her and

1135
00:54:39,719 --> 00:54:42,200
Speaker 1: even with my own parents and my own family. And

1136
00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:47,040
Speaker 1: it's just, yeah, it's constantly like being a mother is

1137
00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:51,480
Speaker 1: being a student all the time. It's true, I'm in

1138
00:54:51,520 --> 00:54:54,520
Speaker 1: school student and a teacher in first grade, just like Iri.

1139
00:54:55,200 --> 00:54:58,440
Speaker 1: It's first grade of motherhood. Mother. It's true. True, I'm

1140
00:54:58,480 --> 00:55:01,759
Speaker 1: only even doing your mother what the well, well, listen,

1141
00:55:01,840 --> 00:55:03,719
Speaker 1: and I'm only in first grade in mother school. So

1142
00:55:03,719 --> 00:55:06,319
Speaker 1: what do you want from me? Honestly, I haven't even expectations.

1143
00:55:06,360 --> 00:55:09,600
Speaker 1: Have you got to college grade? Help me? I need

1144
00:55:09,600 --> 00:55:10,080
Speaker 1: a tutor.

1145
00:55:11,480 --> 00:55:12,279
Speaker 2: Just leave me where I'm ad.

1146
00:55:12,280 --> 00:55:15,799
Speaker 1: I'm good here one year at a time, honestly. And

1147
00:55:15,800 --> 00:55:18,080
Speaker 1: when she gets a second grade, I'll be a second

1148
00:55:18,080 --> 00:55:20,880
Speaker 1: grade and make me take the SATs in first grade. Crazy,

1149
00:55:21,520 --> 00:55:23,920
Speaker 1: let's have all the fucking all the answer.

1150
00:55:24,040 --> 00:55:26,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, people ask us questions, I'm like, bitch, I don't

1151
00:55:26,040 --> 00:55:28,560
Speaker 2: know his grade. Mother I don't have the masters.

1152
00:55:28,719 --> 00:55:30,560
Speaker 1: I don't. I'm not a mother expert. I'm a first

1153
00:55:30,560 --> 00:55:31,440
Speaker 1: grade mother expert.

1154
00:55:31,480 --> 00:55:32,080
Speaker 2: That's all I got.

1155
00:55:32,160 --> 00:55:34,160
Speaker 1: I'm not expert. I'm not kindergarten.

1156
00:55:34,200 --> 00:55:34,600
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1157
00:55:34,680 --> 00:55:39,400
Speaker 1: Maybe birth. I'm a more infant expert. Give me an infant.

1158
00:55:39,440 --> 00:55:42,719
Speaker 1: I'll keep it alive. Great, Now you get a little

1159
00:55:42,719 --> 00:55:45,440
Speaker 1: bit beyond that. That's not my expert ears not.

1160
00:55:46,000 --> 00:55:49,640
Speaker 2: We're still we're still working on that. Did you want

1161
00:55:49,640 --> 00:55:53,680
Speaker 2: to pull a card too? Okay, it's terrible time, y'all.

1162
00:56:06,520 --> 00:56:13,920
Speaker 1: Ples going to my my handy dandy Biddy dot com.

1163
00:56:14,040 --> 00:56:15,680
Speaker 1: I don't even know if this is legal to be.

1164
00:56:16,120 --> 00:56:17,640
Speaker 2: You know, a lot of people ask us about Biddy

1165
00:56:17,840 --> 00:56:18,439
Speaker 2: in the DM.

1166
00:56:18,520 --> 00:56:21,120
Speaker 1: If Biddy doesn't give us some type of partnership, I

1167
00:56:21,120 --> 00:56:22,919
Speaker 1: don't know what we're talking about. At least I can't

1168
00:56:22,920 --> 00:56:24,680
Speaker 1: give us a free.

1169
00:56:25,280 --> 00:56:26,360
Speaker 2: Send them an email let him know.

1170
00:56:26,400 --> 00:56:29,040
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, why are we recruiting our audience to do

1171
00:56:29,160 --> 00:56:31,520
Speaker 1: several works for us? Can you submit our audition to

1172
00:56:31,600 --> 00:56:32,399
Speaker 1: dipsy if you.

1173
00:56:32,360 --> 00:56:35,880
Speaker 2: Have time, if you have just like ten minutes today,

1174
00:56:36,440 --> 00:56:39,920
Speaker 2: can you submit this CCS production at Good Mom's Bad

1175
00:56:40,000 --> 00:56:41,120
Speaker 2: Choices dot com.

1176
00:56:41,160 --> 00:56:43,920
Speaker 1: We will give you a fee if you do listen.

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00:56:44,160 --> 00:56:46,600
Speaker 1: I do you think any brand partnerships will work out?

1178
00:56:46,960 --> 00:56:54,360
Speaker 1: Send the email another community workspace. Okay. The two of Pentacles, Yes,

1179
00:56:54,800 --> 00:57:02,560
Speaker 1: multiple priorities, time management, prioritization, and adaptability. Huh. First grade

1180
00:57:02,600 --> 00:57:08,279
Speaker 1: mother and the Two Pinnacles. A young man dances well,

1181
00:57:08,360 --> 00:57:11,040
Speaker 1: juggling two coins in his hands. The infinity symbol links

1182
00:57:11,040 --> 00:57:14,680
Speaker 1: the coins, suggesting this man can handle unlimited problems so

1183
00:57:14,719 --> 00:57:17,360
Speaker 1: long as he manages his time, energy, and resource as well.

1184
00:57:18,040 --> 00:57:20,760
Speaker 1: In the background, two ships sailed the high seas, bobbing

1185
00:57:20,840 --> 00:57:23,320
Speaker 1: up and down on the huge waves, another sign that

1186
00:57:23,360 --> 00:57:25,720
Speaker 1: the ups and downs of life are manageable with focus

1187
00:57:26,080 --> 00:57:30,479
Speaker 1: and attention. When the Two Pinnacles appears in a terror reading,

1188
00:57:30,520 --> 00:57:33,200
Speaker 1: it's safe to say you are juggling your priorities, roles,

1189
00:57:33,200 --> 00:57:36,440
Speaker 1: and responsibilities. For example, you may be working you may

1190
00:57:36,480 --> 00:57:41,440
Speaker 1: be a working parent, what the fuck? A general manager

1191
00:57:41,480 --> 00:57:45,120
Speaker 1: of a business shocked anymore? I know every week I'm like,

1192
00:57:46,280 --> 00:57:48,080
Speaker 1: the people are probably like this is rigged. It's not.

1193
00:57:48,520 --> 00:57:51,080
Speaker 1: I literally closed my eyes and I went okay. For example,

1194
00:57:51,080 --> 00:57:52,920
Speaker 1: you may be a working parent, a general manager of

1195
00:57:52,960 --> 00:57:55,800
Speaker 1: a business, an administrative assistant in a busy office, or

1196
00:57:55,840 --> 00:57:57,840
Speaker 1: someone who works multiple jobs. Oh, my God, you're all

1197
00:57:57,840 --> 00:58:00,400
Speaker 1: of those things. You have seventy seven jobs I do

1198
00:58:01,440 --> 00:58:03,880
Speaker 1: in the upright position. This card notes you are doing

1199
00:58:03,920 --> 00:58:06,680
Speaker 1: an excellent job of balancing these different priorities and you

1200
00:58:06,720 --> 00:58:09,400
Speaker 1: can take on whatever life throws at you. But this

1201
00:58:09,560 --> 00:58:12,560
Speaker 1: too reminds you. This too reminds you that the line

1202
00:58:12,560 --> 00:58:15,680
Speaker 1: between coping with these demands and losing control is thin.

1203
00:58:16,320 --> 00:58:19,440
Speaker 1: You need to manage your time, energy, and resources carefully

1204
00:58:19,480 --> 00:58:21,920
Speaker 1: so you do not lose your balance. The two of

1205
00:58:21,920 --> 00:58:24,440
Speaker 1: pinnacles often appears when you are busy rushing from the

1206
00:58:24,640 --> 00:58:27,040
Speaker 1: one thing to the next, with little downtime in between.

1207
00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:29,600
Speaker 1: You may tell yourself that you haven't got enough time

1208
00:58:29,720 --> 00:58:32,040
Speaker 1: or you're in a rush. However, remember that you don't

1209
00:58:32,040 --> 00:58:34,600
Speaker 1: have to be busy to get things done. Sometimes taking

1210
00:58:34,600 --> 00:58:37,080
Speaker 1: a break is the most productive thing you can do. Similarly,

1211
00:58:37,120 --> 00:58:39,400
Speaker 1: the two of pinnacles can appear when you are getting

1212
00:58:39,440 --> 00:58:41,720
Speaker 1: caught up in the day to day demands and losing

1213
00:58:41,760 --> 00:58:44,840
Speaker 1: sight of the bigger picture. If this resonates, ask yourself,

1214
00:58:44,960 --> 00:58:47,840
Speaker 1: what life do I want and how can I reorganize

1215
00:58:47,840 --> 00:58:51,360
Speaker 1: my schedule to create the life I desire. It invites

1216
00:58:51,400 --> 00:58:54,320
Speaker 1: you to manage your time and your priorities carefully. Your

1217
00:58:54,320 --> 00:58:56,600
Speaker 1: workload is high right now, and to get everything done,

1218
00:58:56,640 --> 00:58:59,120
Speaker 1: you need to stay focused and productive. You may benefit

1219
00:58:59,160 --> 00:59:01,440
Speaker 1: from a to do list, better calendar management, and strict,

1220
00:59:01,720 --> 00:59:05,480
Speaker 1: stricter schedule. You may even enlist the support of an

1221
00:59:05,480 --> 00:59:07,520
Speaker 1: assistant or business coach to help you make it the

1222
00:59:07,600 --> 00:59:12,120
Speaker 1: right changes. Do we have a business coach? Basic time

1223
00:59:12,160 --> 00:59:14,600
Speaker 1: management is crucial to your ability to juggle these various

1224
00:59:14,600 --> 00:59:17,560
Speaker 1: priorities and keep your head above water. This card also

1225
00:59:17,640 --> 00:59:20,560
Speaker 1: reminds you to pay special attention to your general administration,

1226
00:59:20,920 --> 00:59:24,360
Speaker 1: including paying bills, managing finances, staying on top of your commitments,

1227
00:59:24,360 --> 00:59:27,280
Speaker 1: and maintaining your diary. Be careful that you don't miss

1228
00:59:27,280 --> 00:59:31,280
Speaker 1: important deadlines, meetings, and other obligations. That motherfucking sery better

1229
00:59:31,320 --> 00:59:37,120
Speaker 1: start working. The High Priestess Intuition, sacred knowledge, divine feminism.

1230
00:59:37,920 --> 00:59:40,840
Speaker 1: I know the subconscious mind. You would think I would

1231
00:59:40,840 --> 00:59:46,800
Speaker 1: know what it means by now. While the magician is

1232
00:59:46,840 --> 00:59:51,360
Speaker 1: the guardian of the conscious mind. We pulled this. We

1233
00:59:51,360 --> 00:59:54,080
Speaker 1: pulled this right after the magician in New York. That's

1234
00:59:54,080 --> 00:59:56,400
Speaker 1: what we pulled actually. While the magician is the guardian

1235
00:59:56,400 --> 00:59:59,840
Speaker 1: of the conscious mind. Although they fell out, fell out

1236
01:00:00,160 --> 01:00:02,560
Speaker 1: and the tangible world The High Priestess is the guardian

1237
01:00:02,640 --> 01:00:05,160
Speaker 1: of the subconscious mind and the teacher of sacred knowledge

1238
01:00:05,160 --> 01:00:08,240
Speaker 1: and hidden mysteries. Sitting at the threshold of the conscious

1239
01:00:08,280 --> 01:00:11,440
Speaker 1: and subconscious mind, the High Priestess has an innate ability

1240
01:00:11,520 --> 01:00:15,360
Speaker 1: to travel between the realms effortlessly. She teaches that the

1241
01:00:15,400 --> 01:00:17,760
Speaker 1: world is not always as it seems, but more profound

1242
01:00:17,800 --> 01:00:20,480
Speaker 1: influences are at play. She ushers you through the thin

1243
01:00:20,600 --> 01:00:23,120
Speaker 1: veil of awareness, offering you a deep intuitive understanding of

1244
01:00:23,160 --> 01:00:27,000
Speaker 1: the universe and a heightened awareness of secret or hidden information.

1245
01:00:28,840 --> 01:00:32,520
Speaker 1: The High Priests signifies spiritual alignment, inner elimination, divine knowledge,

1246
01:00:32,560 --> 01:00:34,800
Speaker 1: and wisdom. She shows up in the Tarit reading when

1247
01:00:34,800 --> 01:00:37,240
Speaker 1: the veil between you and the underworld is thin and

1248
01:00:37,280 --> 01:00:40,120
Speaker 1: you have the opportunity to access the knowledge deep within

1249
01:00:40,160 --> 01:00:44,080
Speaker 1: your soul. Now is the time to be still so

1250
01:00:44,120 --> 01:00:46,720
Speaker 1: you can turn tune into your intuition. The answers you

1251
01:00:46,760 --> 01:00:49,360
Speaker 1: are seeking will come from within, from your deepest truth

1252
01:00:49,400 --> 01:00:52,000
Speaker 1: and knowing. Allow the High Priests to become your guide

1253
01:00:52,000 --> 01:00:54,560
Speaker 1: as you venture deep into your subconscious mind and access

1254
01:00:54,600 --> 01:00:55,360
Speaker 1: this inner wisdom.

1255
01:00:55,720 --> 01:00:57,439
Speaker 2: Oh, what do you have an affirmation for the day?

1256
01:00:57,680 --> 01:01:03,800
Speaker 1: Actually, I'm always both a teacher and a student of life.

1257
01:01:04,000 --> 01:01:07,520
Speaker 1: I am always a teacher, both both a teacher and

1258
01:01:07,600 --> 01:01:09,000
Speaker 1: a student of life.

1259
01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:14,480
Speaker 2: I have a horry. I have a horri So why

1260
01:01:14,520 --> 01:01:15,280
Speaker 2: are you laughing?

1261
01:01:15,840 --> 01:01:17,680
Speaker 1: Just wondering if it's the hurry? I think it is.

1262
01:01:18,680 --> 01:01:22,480
Speaker 2: So me and my boo, we you know, we're both

1263
01:01:22,480 --> 01:01:27,920
Speaker 2: scorpios and you know, we were very wild sexually. We

1264
01:01:27,960 --> 01:01:31,120
Speaker 2: are explorative. That's also why this is going so great

1265
01:01:31,120 --> 01:01:34,280
Speaker 2: as well, because I found someone that I feel like

1266
01:01:34,720 --> 01:01:40,160
Speaker 2: is open to just it sees the fun insects, you know,

1267
01:01:40,280 --> 01:01:43,880
Speaker 2: and that's like what I what I've been wanting recently.

1268
01:01:44,320 --> 01:01:46,520
Speaker 2: You know. We he'd been talking about that he had

1269
01:01:46,520 --> 01:01:48,960
Speaker 2: a surprise for me, and I was like, what is it?

1270
01:01:49,040 --> 01:01:49,720
Speaker 1: You know, and.

1271
01:01:51,120 --> 01:01:53,720
Speaker 2: We we'd like been having fun a trip and you know,

1272
01:01:53,840 --> 01:01:58,560
Speaker 2: fucking doing our thing. But on the last night, uh,

1273
01:01:59,040 --> 01:02:02,240
Speaker 2: we're pretty drunk and we were hooking up and he

1274
01:02:02,240 --> 01:02:04,320
Speaker 2: pulled something from under the bed and he was like,

1275
01:02:04,640 --> 01:02:10,320
Speaker 2: are you ready? And I was like yes. And actually,

1276
01:02:10,360 --> 01:02:12,680
Speaker 2: let me preface this because prior to this, like a

1277
01:02:12,840 --> 01:02:16,760
Speaker 2: few trips before this, we were having sex. I'm pretty

1278
01:02:16,800 --> 01:02:18,440
Speaker 2: sure I don't know if it was a dream or not,

1279
01:02:18,880 --> 01:02:21,440
Speaker 2: but like he had mentioned that he wanted me to

1280
01:02:21,480 --> 01:02:24,280
Speaker 2: make him jealous, like I want to see you, like

1281
01:02:24,960 --> 01:02:26,280
Speaker 2: I want to see you suck a dick and make

1282
01:02:26,320 --> 01:02:28,520
Speaker 2: me jealous. And I was like what And may be

1283
01:02:28,520 --> 01:02:30,840
Speaker 2: so wet because you know, the male male female experience

1284
01:02:30,920 --> 01:02:33,440
Speaker 2: is something that's high on me and Jamila's list. I

1285
01:02:33,440 --> 01:02:37,120
Speaker 2: have semi experienced it, but not quite in the form

1286
01:02:37,160 --> 01:02:40,760
Speaker 2: of massaging. But when he said this, I was like,

1287
01:02:40,760 --> 01:02:43,160
Speaker 2: what the fuck A man, like a man that is

1288
01:02:43,200 --> 01:02:44,920
Speaker 2: fucking me is saying this to me. So then like

1289
01:02:45,000 --> 01:02:46,680
Speaker 2: the next day, I was like, did I dream that?

1290
01:02:46,720 --> 01:02:49,480
Speaker 2: Because I was also drunk that day, And then I

1291
01:02:49,520 --> 01:02:51,840
Speaker 2: asked him and he just kind of like didn't answer.

1292
01:02:51,920 --> 01:02:55,720
Speaker 2: He was just like hm, and I was like okay,

1293
01:02:56,040 --> 01:02:57,880
Speaker 2: and then we didn't really talk about it again. So

1294
01:02:57,960 --> 01:03:00,760
Speaker 2: then fast forward to this night. He pulls something from

1295
01:03:00,800 --> 01:03:04,960
Speaker 2: under the bed and he pulls it out and it

1296
01:03:05,120 --> 01:03:08,000
Speaker 2: is a what is it called, like a suckable dildo

1297
01:03:08,760 --> 01:03:13,240
Speaker 2: suction cup dildo and thankfully, I mean and he told

1298
01:03:13,240 --> 01:03:14,440
Speaker 2: me too, He was like, you know, I didn't want

1299
01:03:14,440 --> 01:03:15,840
Speaker 2: to like have it out of the package because I

1300
01:03:15,840 --> 01:03:19,440
Speaker 2: wanted you to know like something was coming. Yeah, So no,

1301
01:03:19,560 --> 01:03:20,520
Speaker 2: that was unused.

1302
01:03:21,320 --> 01:03:23,160
Speaker 1: Oh smart, smart man.

1303
01:03:23,280 --> 01:03:25,560
Speaker 2: So he cuts it out and like he just like

1304
01:03:27,040 --> 01:03:30,200
Speaker 2: sticks it on the wall like so aggressively, but like

1305
01:03:30,280 --> 01:03:32,200
Speaker 2: he'd like he just knew what the fuck he was doing.

1306
01:03:32,240 --> 01:03:35,200
Speaker 2: And I was like, what is.

1307
01:03:35,120 --> 01:03:37,440
Speaker 1: This were standing or it was on the bed. We

1308
01:03:37,440 --> 01:03:38,760
Speaker 1: were in the bed, Okay, So he put it on

1309
01:03:38,800 --> 01:03:39,360
Speaker 1: the wall.

1310
01:03:41,320 --> 01:03:43,760
Speaker 2: And then he told me to turn around, and so

1311
01:03:44,000 --> 01:03:46,760
Speaker 2: of course I turned around and he started eating my

1312
01:03:46,800 --> 01:03:50,680
Speaker 2: pussy and then he started fucking me and then he

1313
01:03:50,760 --> 01:03:53,240
Speaker 2: was like, suck that dick, and then we started sucking.

1314
01:03:53,280 --> 01:03:55,640
Speaker 2: I started sucking the dick. I was getting so into it, bitch.

1315
01:03:55,640 --> 01:03:57,600
Speaker 2: He pulled the thing off, he was putting it in

1316
01:03:57,640 --> 01:03:59,480
Speaker 2: my mouth. He was like fucking my mouth.

1317
01:04:00,240 --> 01:04:01,440
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I like it.

1318
01:04:01,440 --> 01:04:03,600
Speaker 2: It was like the male male female, like not the

1319
01:04:03,800 --> 01:04:06,000
Speaker 2: well yeah, the male female, Like I didn't know that

1320
01:04:06,120 --> 01:04:09,520
Speaker 2: I needed, like I always envisioned it really happening, but like,

1321
01:04:09,560 --> 01:04:12,520
Speaker 2: I think this might be. This might suffice a happy medium.

1322
01:04:12,600 --> 01:04:14,160
Speaker 2: I feel like it's a happy medium because I don't

1323
01:04:14,160 --> 01:04:15,520
Speaker 2: know if I don't know, like I don't know if

1324
01:04:15,520 --> 01:04:18,120
Speaker 2: he's gonna let me do that. I don't know if

1325
01:04:18,120 --> 01:04:20,040
Speaker 2: I want to, but I know I kind of dore. Yeah,

1326
01:04:20,120 --> 01:04:25,439
Speaker 2: but this this was definitely an experience, and I think

1327
01:04:25,440 --> 01:04:28,720
Speaker 2: it's like a It's something so simple that I never

1328
01:04:28,840 --> 01:04:31,680
Speaker 2: really thought about, you know, like anyone, Yeah, you just

1329
01:04:31,720 --> 01:04:34,080
Speaker 2: go get a dose. I have one, but I've never

1330
01:04:34,200 --> 01:04:36,160
Speaker 2: I've never thought to pull it out in front of

1331
01:04:36,160 --> 01:04:39,280
Speaker 2: a guy, almost because it's like, is it disrespectful.

1332
01:04:39,200 --> 01:04:41,480
Speaker 1: Right, because they're already here. Yeah. No, there's not the

1333
01:04:41,520 --> 01:04:42,600
Speaker 1: more the merrier.

1334
01:04:42,560 --> 01:04:44,919
Speaker 2: I know, but like I feel like men already feel

1335
01:04:44,960 --> 01:04:47,959
Speaker 2: worried about toys, So actually pulling out a whole ass

1336
01:04:48,080 --> 01:04:51,680
Speaker 2: dick that is in competition with his dick, maybe it's bigger,

1337
01:04:51,840 --> 01:04:53,600
Speaker 2: Like I have to make sure it's like comparable.

1338
01:04:55,040 --> 01:04:56,320
Speaker 1: I don't know anything that is too big.

1339
01:04:56,800 --> 01:04:59,400
Speaker 2: Imagine pulling out your section cock like it's just like

1340
01:05:00,320 --> 01:05:02,400
Speaker 2: it's huge, and he's just like what the fuck?

1341
01:05:02,560 --> 01:05:06,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, well that's why I need a freeman.

1342
01:05:06,600 --> 01:05:09,440
Speaker 2: Guess why I get you a freeman Because that freeman

1343
01:05:10,240 --> 01:05:13,439
Speaker 2: I was very pleased. So this is just a quick tip.

1344
01:05:13,600 --> 01:05:18,200
Speaker 1: Horey tip brte that down for Mexico's pack suction tick.

1345
01:05:19,120 --> 01:05:21,600
Speaker 2: I spit on it. Oh, use those things on it.

1346
01:05:24,160 --> 01:05:26,520
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I got these new dick sucking mints.

1347
01:05:27,600 --> 01:05:28,520
Speaker 2: We found them on TikTok.

1348
01:05:28,600 --> 01:05:30,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, we found them on TikTok. I can't think they're

1349
01:05:30,440 --> 01:05:34,280
Speaker 1: called right now, but yeah, thank you guys, We love

1350
01:05:34,320 --> 01:05:36,720
Speaker 1: you and we will talk to you next week.

1351
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Speaker 2: Him