1 00:00:00,200 --> 00:00:02,800 Speaker 1: You gotta keep going because there is something there. There's 2 00:00:02,840 --> 00:00:04,720 Speaker 1: always something there, because I think a lot of people, 3 00:00:05,040 --> 00:00:12,200 Speaker 1: specifically men. Sorry men, but y'all be really disassociated from 4 00:00:12,280 --> 00:00:17,000 Speaker 1: your fucking energetic body, like so dissociated from it. I 5 00:00:17,040 --> 00:00:19,640 Speaker 1: know where it comes from, I think with black men, 6 00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:21,360 Speaker 1: but I know that this is not even just a 7 00:00:21,400 --> 00:00:24,200 Speaker 1: black thing. Like I know that, yes, maybe white men 8 00:00:24,239 --> 00:00:26,759 Speaker 1: have a like more more free range to kind of 9 00:00:26,800 --> 00:00:31,600 Speaker 1: maybe explore the nuances of this kind of practice and 10 00:00:31,720 --> 00:00:35,239 Speaker 1: like really thinking about their feelings and like why they 11 00:00:35,280 --> 00:00:39,240 Speaker 1: do certain things. But my white home girls, they got 12 00:00:39,280 --> 00:01:04,320 Speaker 1: issues with their niggas too. Welcome back to good Mom's 13 00:01:04,360 --> 00:01:05,240 Speaker 1: bad Choices. 14 00:01:05,560 --> 00:01:08,640 Speaker 2: I'm Erica and I'm Jamila. 15 00:01:09,080 --> 00:01:10,800 Speaker 3: Happy Wednesday, guys. 16 00:01:10,720 --> 00:01:14,400 Speaker 2: Happy Humpday, my lovely tribe. What's going on? 17 00:01:15,640 --> 00:01:16,600 Speaker 3: Well, what's going. 18 00:01:16,319 --> 00:01:20,400 Speaker 1: On is that it is sexy September. 19 00:01:20,720 --> 00:01:23,800 Speaker 4: You hear that it's sexy September, So we'll be using 20 00:01:23,840 --> 00:01:27,039 Speaker 4: our sexy voices all September long. 21 00:01:27,360 --> 00:01:31,440 Speaker 1: I think our voices are just naturally sexy. Anyway, someone 22 00:01:31,480 --> 00:01:33,520 Speaker 1: said that to me the other day. They were like, 23 00:01:33,560 --> 00:01:36,000 Speaker 1: you have a very sexy voice. It's very soothing, And 24 00:01:36,080 --> 00:01:38,720 Speaker 1: I was like, thank you, Hank. He was about seventy 25 00:01:38,720 --> 00:01:39,120 Speaker 1: two years. 26 00:01:39,120 --> 00:01:40,800 Speaker 2: Did you say, Hank, I'm a podcaster. 27 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:43,679 Speaker 1: I did, and maybe that's why he said that. After 28 00:01:43,720 --> 00:01:46,520 Speaker 1: he found that out, he started really focusing on my voice, 29 00:01:46,600 --> 00:01:48,120 Speaker 1: and I was like, thank you. 30 00:01:48,400 --> 00:01:50,800 Speaker 4: Well, I was listening to our episode and a headphones 31 00:01:50,840 --> 00:01:52,840 Speaker 4: not too long ago, and I was talking. And now 32 00:01:52,880 --> 00:01:55,160 Speaker 4: for years, I don't listen to episodes because I hate 33 00:01:55,160 --> 00:01:57,960 Speaker 4: my voice. But I was like, it's sound kind of sexy. 34 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:00,160 Speaker 2: It took five and a half years to fay hear 35 00:02:00,200 --> 00:02:06,840 Speaker 2: that out, Well, thank you, just thank you. 36 00:02:06,960 --> 00:02:10,200 Speaker 1: Welcome to Sexy September, guys, and I want to encourage 37 00:02:10,200 --> 00:02:15,200 Speaker 1: you to tap into your most sexy sensual self. So 38 00:02:15,240 --> 00:02:17,440 Speaker 1: if you're listening right now and you're on YouTube and 39 00:02:17,480 --> 00:02:21,560 Speaker 1: it's nighttime, why don't you just pause the YouTube right now, 40 00:02:22,120 --> 00:02:25,240 Speaker 1: go light a candle, go get an incense, because we're 41 00:02:25,280 --> 00:02:29,120 Speaker 1: gonna get sexy sexual sex. 42 00:02:33,080 --> 00:02:34,360 Speaker 2: I don't know how to follow up with that, so 43 00:02:34,400 --> 00:02:35,240 Speaker 2: I just went for it. 44 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:38,640 Speaker 1: I'm hoping we're going to keep the sexy vibes because 45 00:02:38,680 --> 00:02:40,200 Speaker 1: I just pulled a card at the beginning of this 46 00:02:40,240 --> 00:02:44,560 Speaker 1: episode that looks quite terrifying. I asked Spirit to tell 47 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:47,480 Speaker 1: me what to do, and it pulled this very scary 48 00:02:47,520 --> 00:02:50,280 Speaker 1: card that we'll revisit at the end of this episode. 49 00:02:50,639 --> 00:02:52,840 Speaker 1: But fuck fuck. 50 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:58,760 Speaker 2: Fuck well, you know what they say, no matter what's 51 00:02:58,840 --> 00:02:59,960 Speaker 2: going on, keep us up. 52 00:03:01,320 --> 00:03:03,320 Speaker 3: I'm'ma making Luke six. 53 00:03:04,400 --> 00:03:07,480 Speaker 2: I'm gonna make it. I'm bringing sexy back. 54 00:03:12,320 --> 00:03:16,200 Speaker 1: Speaking of sexy, I did something sexy or yeah, it 55 00:03:16,280 --> 00:03:21,080 Speaker 1: was sexy over the weekend. Last weekend, I attended a 56 00:03:21,160 --> 00:03:21,840 Speaker 1: naked dinner. 57 00:03:22,400 --> 00:03:23,519 Speaker 2: Oh yeah, how was that? 58 00:03:24,680 --> 00:03:25,440 Speaker 3: It was interesting? 59 00:03:25,520 --> 00:03:28,800 Speaker 1: You know, I had been seeing this naked dinner circulate 60 00:03:28,880 --> 00:03:30,600 Speaker 1: on Instagram and. 61 00:03:30,520 --> 00:03:31,920 Speaker 3: I was like, this is so, were you the one 62 00:03:31,919 --> 00:03:32,960 Speaker 3: that sent it to me? Or did I send it 63 00:03:32,960 --> 00:03:33,079 Speaker 3: to you? 64 00:03:33,200 --> 00:03:34,680 Speaker 4: I've never seen it. I was like this, I think 65 00:03:34,720 --> 00:03:36,560 Speaker 4: I sent it to me. Why why haven't I heard 66 00:03:36,560 --> 00:03:36,680 Speaker 4: of this? 67 00:03:36,880 --> 00:03:37,680 Speaker 2: Oh you sent it to me? 68 00:03:37,720 --> 00:03:38,560 Speaker 3: I think I sent it to you. 69 00:03:38,640 --> 00:03:40,760 Speaker 1: And then and then of course, once you do that, 70 00:03:40,920 --> 00:03:43,560 Speaker 1: then like my my fee just kept the robots, just 71 00:03:43,560 --> 00:03:48,120 Speaker 1: bring it to you. And so I ended up following 72 00:03:48,160 --> 00:03:50,400 Speaker 1: the founder and then she invited me and it was 73 00:03:50,440 --> 00:03:52,720 Speaker 1: like the next day and I was like, oh shit, okay, fuck. 74 00:03:52,480 --> 00:03:53,760 Speaker 3: It, let's do it and have my kid. 75 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:59,000 Speaker 1: And I really didn't know what to expect except that 76 00:03:59,040 --> 00:04:02,320 Speaker 1: I was gonna be naked and so before I went, 77 00:04:02,360 --> 00:04:04,400 Speaker 1: I was like, Okay, let me get in my like sexy, 78 00:04:05,120 --> 00:04:07,800 Speaker 1: sexy energy. So I put on something sexy, I took 79 00:04:08,160 --> 00:04:08,840 Speaker 1: like a long. 80 00:04:08,720 --> 00:04:11,160 Speaker 3: Shower, I shaved. 81 00:04:11,240 --> 00:04:15,120 Speaker 1: And and then I had a glass of wine before 82 00:04:15,120 --> 00:04:17,640 Speaker 1: I left, and like for once in for once in 83 00:04:17,640 --> 00:04:19,880 Speaker 1: my life. The event was actually like five minutes from 84 00:04:19,920 --> 00:04:22,680 Speaker 1: my house, maybe ten, which never happens because no one 85 00:04:22,720 --> 00:04:23,840 Speaker 1: throws events in the valley. 86 00:04:24,240 --> 00:04:25,880 Speaker 3: So I was very excited about that. 87 00:04:26,760 --> 00:04:29,280 Speaker 1: And then I pulled up to the space and I 88 00:04:29,320 --> 00:04:33,720 Speaker 1: had like six inch clear platforms on. 89 00:04:33,680 --> 00:04:34,560 Speaker 2: Well, what did you bring right now? 90 00:04:34,600 --> 00:04:34,640 Speaker 1: No? 91 00:04:34,720 --> 00:04:37,800 Speaker 4: No, these are these are like baby, not kitten. You 92 00:04:37,839 --> 00:04:39,680 Speaker 4: know if I think if they're not six inches they're kitten. 93 00:04:39,720 --> 00:04:41,440 Speaker 3: Bitch these I just want to I just want to 94 00:04:41,440 --> 00:04:44,839 Speaker 3: show these. These are not kitten. I just want kitchen. Guys, 95 00:04:45,160 --> 00:04:48,719 Speaker 3: you're looking at YouTube. These are strong three and a. 96 00:04:48,680 --> 00:04:51,640 Speaker 4: Half inches four Anyway, wait I did, I did. I 97 00:04:51,640 --> 00:04:53,440 Speaker 4: did a kick and then I exposed my panties. But 98 00:04:53,480 --> 00:04:57,040 Speaker 4: then like, look at my panties. If you want to 99 00:04:57,040 --> 00:04:57,440 Speaker 4: see my. 100 00:04:57,440 --> 00:05:00,360 Speaker 2: Panties this week, go to YouTube. 101 00:05:01,880 --> 00:05:05,240 Speaker 1: So anyway, it was at the top of the fucking driveway, 102 00:05:05,240 --> 00:05:07,159 Speaker 1: so I had to climb the driveway so that was 103 00:05:07,160 --> 00:05:07,680 Speaker 1: not sexy. 104 00:05:07,720 --> 00:05:09,520 Speaker 3: Okay, they's not prepared. It was not prepared for that. 105 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:14,240 Speaker 1: And then I entered and then I was greeted by 106 00:05:14,640 --> 00:05:16,960 Speaker 1: a man, so I was like, WHOA hold up. I 107 00:05:17,000 --> 00:05:18,840 Speaker 1: wasn't expecting that because I didn't know they were going 108 00:05:18,880 --> 00:05:20,200 Speaker 1: to be men. Here was he naked? 109 00:05:20,440 --> 00:05:23,400 Speaker 3: No, he was at his computer in full attire like 110 00:05:23,440 --> 00:05:24,280 Speaker 3: a fucking turtle neck. 111 00:05:24,320 --> 00:05:25,480 Speaker 2: Basically was there her boyfriend. 112 00:05:25,520 --> 00:05:28,599 Speaker 1: I don't know who this man was, but I was like, okay, 113 00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:31,360 Speaker 1: this is interesting. So then he was like, yeah, yeah, 114 00:05:31,400 --> 00:05:33,680 Speaker 1: go in there, and I was like okay. When I 115 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:36,200 Speaker 1: went in there, and then I walked in and everyone 116 00:05:36,240 --> 00:05:39,440 Speaker 1: was already button naked. But I had a shock because 117 00:05:39,480 --> 00:05:41,640 Speaker 1: I was like, what the fuck there's there's naked men 118 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:43,480 Speaker 1: here and I didn't know they're gonna be naked men, 119 00:05:43,600 --> 00:05:44,559 Speaker 1: which is fine. 120 00:05:44,720 --> 00:05:46,120 Speaker 3: I'm like I can get what I can? You know, 121 00:05:46,200 --> 00:05:47,000 Speaker 3: switch gears quick? 122 00:05:47,040 --> 00:05:49,640 Speaker 2: I have a question? Naked as in their dicks were out? Yeah? 123 00:05:49,680 --> 00:05:50,360 Speaker 3: What else? 124 00:05:50,440 --> 00:05:52,880 Speaker 2: Is what I mean? I don't know. 125 00:05:52,880 --> 00:05:55,240 Speaker 4: I feel like as a topless expert, I feel like 126 00:05:55,240 --> 00:06:01,200 Speaker 4: like partial notities, like everything being nude is like easily digestible. 127 00:06:01,279 --> 00:06:03,320 Speaker 4: Then like when you see a dick, yeah, it's like, 128 00:06:03,360 --> 00:06:05,719 Speaker 4: oh okay, because it's just like slang in you know, 129 00:06:05,839 --> 00:06:08,360 Speaker 4: like what even the pussy for people can be aggressive, 130 00:06:08,400 --> 00:06:10,560 Speaker 4: you know, like okay, you're pussy's out, but like a 131 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:13,120 Speaker 4: dick is like, hey, I'm over here between the legs. 132 00:06:13,200 --> 00:06:15,520 Speaker 1: Well it's because like when you see dicks, you automatically 133 00:06:15,560 --> 00:06:18,600 Speaker 1: like looking at sizing, where like with pussy you're not 134 00:06:18,640 --> 00:06:19,360 Speaker 1: looking at sizing. 135 00:06:19,760 --> 00:06:22,640 Speaker 2: We have to undo our mannishness. 136 00:06:22,720 --> 00:06:24,839 Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah, basically that's what it was. But I wasn't. 137 00:06:24,839 --> 00:06:27,800 Speaker 1: I also wasn't prepared because on Instagram, I only see 138 00:06:27,800 --> 00:06:30,240 Speaker 1: women on their page, so I was not prepared to 139 00:06:30,279 --> 00:06:33,680 Speaker 1: see dicks. So I said, oh, okay, well good thing. 140 00:06:33,800 --> 00:06:35,880 Speaker 1: Like I'm you like, I'm used to being naked all 141 00:06:35,920 --> 00:06:38,960 Speaker 1: the time, and also like I don't really care, but 142 00:06:39,839 --> 00:06:41,600 Speaker 1: I don't know if maybe I didn't read the fine print, 143 00:06:41,600 --> 00:06:41,919 Speaker 1: I don't know. 144 00:06:41,960 --> 00:06:45,400 Speaker 3: Whatever, it was fine, and. 145 00:06:45,360 --> 00:06:48,520 Speaker 1: So we all got naked and and we just like 146 00:06:48,600 --> 00:06:52,760 Speaker 1: hung out by the pool and then we then we 147 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:56,919 Speaker 1: all gathered around the pool and one of the hosts, 148 00:06:57,080 --> 00:07:00,000 Speaker 1: which I was, so I was like very happily surprised. 149 00:07:00,440 --> 00:07:01,679 Speaker 3: This girl Li LIHI. 150 00:07:01,760 --> 00:07:05,720 Speaker 1: I think her name is Lehi, and she is a 151 00:07:05,760 --> 00:07:08,159 Speaker 1: breath work expert. But she's one of the teachers on 152 00:07:08,160 --> 00:07:10,400 Speaker 1: the Open App. And you know, we've talked about the 153 00:07:10,440 --> 00:07:12,840 Speaker 1: Open App. We did the Open Challenge earlier this year 154 00:07:12,880 --> 00:07:16,640 Speaker 1: in January, thirty Days of Meditation, and I'm obsessed with 155 00:07:16,680 --> 00:07:19,440 Speaker 1: the app, like I still use it now. And she 156 00:07:19,640 --> 00:07:23,480 Speaker 1: led us through this breath work exercise. And you know, 157 00:07:23,560 --> 00:07:26,480 Speaker 1: I've done some breath work, but even on the Open App, 158 00:07:26,520 --> 00:07:28,200 Speaker 1: like I've explored breath work. I think I talked about 159 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:30,000 Speaker 1: it one time I started to do breathwork in the 160 00:07:30,040 --> 00:07:32,200 Speaker 1: car and I realized this was a really bad idea. 161 00:07:32,240 --> 00:07:33,840 Speaker 3: You should not do breathwork living. 162 00:07:34,520 --> 00:07:36,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, so if you're listening right now, because I wanted 163 00:07:36,800 --> 00:07:40,440 Speaker 1: to explain the process of what we experience because it 164 00:07:40,600 --> 00:07:44,480 Speaker 1: was really transformational for me even in that even that experience, 165 00:07:44,480 --> 00:07:46,520 Speaker 1: because it wasn't a long breath work session. It was 166 00:07:46,520 --> 00:07:51,200 Speaker 1: maybe like maybe maybe ten or fifteen minutes. But she 167 00:07:51,760 --> 00:07:54,800 Speaker 1: like guided us through this three part breath work which 168 00:07:54,800 --> 00:07:57,880 Speaker 1: is basically like you like you bring the breath into 169 00:07:57,920 --> 00:07:59,360 Speaker 1: your stomach, then you bring it into your chest and 170 00:07:59,440 --> 00:08:00,040 Speaker 1: you release, like. 171 00:08:03,160 --> 00:08:06,960 Speaker 3: And you just yeah, so. 172 00:08:06,920 --> 00:08:09,360 Speaker 1: If you put your so if you're not driving right now, 173 00:08:09,440 --> 00:08:12,480 Speaker 1: and you put your hand on your belly, and you 174 00:08:12,520 --> 00:08:14,679 Speaker 1: put your hand on your chest. You want to breathe 175 00:08:15,080 --> 00:08:18,280 Speaker 1: into your stomach, so and then you want to breathe 176 00:08:18,320 --> 00:08:30,760 Speaker 1: into your chest, right and so open. One of the 177 00:08:30,760 --> 00:08:33,120 Speaker 1: things that they're really famous for, and they're like the 178 00:08:33,160 --> 00:08:36,040 Speaker 1: pioneers of is marrying breathwork with music. 179 00:08:36,840 --> 00:08:38,800 Speaker 3: So that's what she did too. So she led us 180 00:08:38,840 --> 00:08:40,280 Speaker 3: through this breath work with music. 181 00:08:40,320 --> 00:08:42,240 Speaker 1: So the music kind of started off slow so that 182 00:08:42,280 --> 00:08:46,920 Speaker 1: you were like, but then it'll speed up, so then 183 00:08:46,960 --> 00:08:50,959 Speaker 1: you're like, and then you'll hold at the top and 184 00:08:51,000 --> 00:08:52,600 Speaker 1: then you'll hold at the bottom. And she was guiding 185 00:08:52,679 --> 00:08:55,439 Speaker 1: us through. So the theme of the night was the 186 00:08:55,559 --> 00:08:57,560 Speaker 1: yes within, and so she was guiding us through like 187 00:08:57,600 --> 00:08:59,160 Speaker 1: what that meant and what that looks like and what 188 00:08:59,160 --> 00:09:01,800 Speaker 1: that feels like and bitch, at the end, I was 189 00:09:01,840 --> 00:09:03,440 Speaker 1: fucking hysterically crying. 190 00:09:03,640 --> 00:09:04,920 Speaker 4: Oh I know. 191 00:09:05,320 --> 00:09:07,520 Speaker 3: I was like, I didn't. I was not expecting that. 192 00:09:07,600 --> 00:09:10,800 Speaker 1: It was just like it reminded me too, because we 193 00:09:10,840 --> 00:09:13,920 Speaker 1: actually did do a really deep breathwork exercise in Costa Rica, 194 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:16,520 Speaker 1: remember when we did the whim Hoff broth work before 195 00:09:16,559 --> 00:09:18,959 Speaker 1: we did the ice bath, And that shit was crazy 196 00:09:19,000 --> 00:09:21,760 Speaker 1: because breathwork can literally make you feel like you're hot, 197 00:09:22,320 --> 00:09:25,600 Speaker 1: like it will open up some other shit in your brain, 198 00:09:25,960 --> 00:09:30,600 Speaker 1: Like I don't think meditation can do this. It's literally 199 00:09:30,640 --> 00:09:33,440 Speaker 1: like you're on drugs kind of. And and that's what 200 00:09:33,520 --> 00:09:35,400 Speaker 1: I felt like starting to happen while I was in 201 00:09:35,440 --> 00:09:37,400 Speaker 1: this process, and it was like I was, it kind 202 00:09:37,400 --> 00:09:41,000 Speaker 1: of clears out, clears all the bullshit out of the 203 00:09:41,040 --> 00:09:43,120 Speaker 1: way so you can get to whatever it is that 204 00:09:43,200 --> 00:09:46,800 Speaker 1: maybe you're avoiding or you're trying to focus on. And 205 00:09:46,880 --> 00:09:50,400 Speaker 1: so that experience was really that was probably the best 206 00:09:50,440 --> 00:09:51,959 Speaker 1: part of the whole the whole night for me. It 207 00:09:52,040 --> 00:09:53,959 Speaker 1: was the breath work. So shout out to Lehi of 208 00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:54,680 Speaker 1: the Open App. 209 00:09:54,960 --> 00:09:55,920 Speaker 2: I love the open app. 210 00:09:56,080 --> 00:09:58,120 Speaker 4: So I can imagine in real life like it's like 211 00:09:58,160 --> 00:10:01,040 Speaker 4: she's with you, like the instructors are with you when 212 00:10:01,080 --> 00:10:01,480 Speaker 4: you play it. 213 00:10:01,520 --> 00:10:03,160 Speaker 2: But I can imagine doing it in a group setting. 214 00:10:03,200 --> 00:10:04,080 Speaker 2: It's probably dope. 215 00:10:04,200 --> 00:10:06,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, And the music with it was really it really 216 00:10:06,880 --> 00:10:10,480 Speaker 1: helps you help support the process. And it was just 217 00:10:10,520 --> 00:10:13,280 Speaker 1: the bomb. And the open app is still giving. If 218 00:10:13,320 --> 00:10:15,559 Speaker 1: you haven't joined the open app, definitely join it. You 219 00:10:15,559 --> 00:10:18,320 Speaker 1: can still use our discount. If you go to withopen 220 00:10:18,400 --> 00:10:23,000 Speaker 1: dot Com slash GNBC you'll get thirty days free, So 221 00:10:23,360 --> 00:10:23,960 Speaker 1: do that shit. 222 00:10:24,080 --> 00:10:26,280 Speaker 4: It's an easy way to challenge yourself. So just commit 223 00:10:26,320 --> 00:10:27,920 Speaker 4: to something for thirty days and just see how it 224 00:10:27,960 --> 00:10:28,520 Speaker 4: makes you feel. 225 00:10:28,640 --> 00:10:31,920 Speaker 1: Yeah, and I like the energy reset breathwork, but they 226 00:10:31,920 --> 00:10:35,680 Speaker 1: have meditation on there, they have movement. They even have 227 00:10:36,480 --> 00:10:39,000 Speaker 1: because now after I did that breathwork with her, I 228 00:10:39,080 --> 00:10:41,520 Speaker 1: was like, let me go explore the breathwork part of 229 00:10:41,559 --> 00:10:44,920 Speaker 1: Open More. And they actually added this new section and 230 00:10:44,960 --> 00:10:49,000 Speaker 1: it's for what is it called. It's like for release 231 00:10:49,120 --> 00:10:52,480 Speaker 1: or something. And literally they have breathwork where you can scream. 232 00:10:52,840 --> 00:10:53,640 Speaker 2: You know, that's our thing. 233 00:10:53,880 --> 00:10:55,360 Speaker 3: You know. I love that shit. And so I did 234 00:10:55,360 --> 00:10:56,560 Speaker 3: it in my house and they were. 235 00:10:56,400 --> 00:10:58,000 Speaker 1: Like, now, okay, now get a pillow and put it 236 00:10:58,000 --> 00:11:01,120 Speaker 1: over your face so you don't scare your neighbors. But 237 00:11:01,400 --> 00:11:03,200 Speaker 1: you just I think we take for granted, like how 238 00:11:03,320 --> 00:11:07,920 Speaker 1: powerful breath is and like how breath and sound really 239 00:11:08,040 --> 00:11:11,920 Speaker 1: are healers. And you have to get that shit out 240 00:11:11,920 --> 00:11:14,800 Speaker 1: of your body. Sometimes you can fucking meditate for days 241 00:11:14,800 --> 00:11:17,079 Speaker 1: and days, it ain't shit gonna happen. You like, literally 242 00:11:17,120 --> 00:11:20,800 Speaker 1: have to get something out of you. So shout out 243 00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:23,440 Speaker 1: to Open because a bitch was crying by the pool 244 00:11:23,480 --> 00:11:24,000 Speaker 1: with a bunch. 245 00:11:23,800 --> 00:11:24,480 Speaker 3: Of naked people. 246 00:11:25,080 --> 00:11:26,160 Speaker 2: I mean, you're vulnerable. 247 00:11:26,280 --> 00:11:30,240 Speaker 4: I mean, I you guys, I'm almost I'm two months 248 00:11:30,280 --> 00:11:34,920 Speaker 4: away from being a Tantric practitioner, and I'm so excited. 249 00:11:34,920 --> 00:11:35,840 Speaker 2: I'm feeling really excited. 250 00:11:35,880 --> 00:11:38,920 Speaker 4: I've been taking some trial clients and you know, like 251 00:11:38,960 --> 00:11:41,240 Speaker 4: deepening my practice. But one of the things that we're 252 00:11:41,280 --> 00:11:45,080 Speaker 4: learning is that like are are like energetic and spiritual 253 00:11:45,080 --> 00:11:47,760 Speaker 4: bodies govern our physical bodies. Like that's the belief in 254 00:11:47,800 --> 00:11:53,640 Speaker 4: this lineage of Tantra that I'm I'm studying. And sometimes 255 00:11:53,679 --> 00:11:56,720 Speaker 4: they like not sometimes things live in our bodies on 256 00:11:56,760 --> 00:11:58,800 Speaker 4: a cellular level, on an energetic level that we are 257 00:11:58,840 --> 00:12:01,120 Speaker 4: not even aware of. So there's trauma, like maybe someone 258 00:12:01,160 --> 00:12:03,680 Speaker 4: said something like small to you, or someone insulted you 259 00:12:03,720 --> 00:12:04,959 Speaker 4: and you thought you got over, or maybe you don't 260 00:12:04,960 --> 00:12:07,280 Speaker 4: even remember, but it lives in stores in your body 261 00:12:07,320 --> 00:12:10,600 Speaker 4: and creates blocks, you know, energetic blocks that manifest physically, 262 00:12:10,640 --> 00:12:13,320 Speaker 4: and that could be like tight shoulders or backs or 263 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:17,160 Speaker 4: you know, chest pain or whatever it may be. But 264 00:12:17,720 --> 00:12:20,520 Speaker 4: we don't because we're living such a Western world. We 265 00:12:20,600 --> 00:12:24,120 Speaker 4: don't give that a lot of attention. Like our medical 266 00:12:24,160 --> 00:12:29,440 Speaker 4: systems are so deeply ingrained in you know, like pharmaceuticals 267 00:12:29,480 --> 00:12:32,600 Speaker 4: and like take this prescription drug. But the truth is 268 00:12:32,600 --> 00:12:37,000 Speaker 4: is like breath, the simplest things, movement, breath, meditation, those 269 00:12:37,080 --> 00:12:39,679 Speaker 4: are the ways to clear those blocks that we're unaware of, 270 00:12:39,679 --> 00:12:43,600 Speaker 4: those subconscious that those ones that live on a subconscious level. 271 00:12:43,679 --> 00:12:48,040 Speaker 4: So definitely, like that makes sense. I mean, the craziest 272 00:12:48,080 --> 00:12:51,480 Speaker 4: thing about I'm just thinking about our entire catalog and 273 00:12:53,000 --> 00:12:55,840 Speaker 4: just us starting this at like twenty nine and now 274 00:12:55,840 --> 00:12:58,880 Speaker 4: we're thirty five, and I'm like, oh, i want to 275 00:12:58,920 --> 00:13:00,920 Speaker 4: do my own naked dinner, but I'll do it like this. 276 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:03,080 Speaker 4: I'm like, everyone's gonna start clothed, and then I'm like, 277 00:13:04,400 --> 00:13:07,320 Speaker 4: that has been such a long day. Remove one item 278 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:10,440 Speaker 4: and think about letting something go that you took on today. 279 00:13:10,520 --> 00:13:13,000 Speaker 4: Remove one clothing of item, one clothing item, and think 280 00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:15,280 Speaker 4: about the energetic release you'll have when that happens. But 281 00:13:15,320 --> 00:13:16,439 Speaker 4: I'm like, there was a time where I'd be like, 282 00:13:16,480 --> 00:13:17,880 Speaker 4: what the fuck are you talking about? 283 00:13:17,880 --> 00:13:18,160 Speaker 2: Bitch? 284 00:13:19,120 --> 00:13:21,559 Speaker 4: They said some white people shit, Like what do you 285 00:13:21,600 --> 00:13:23,320 Speaker 4: mean you want to go on the bathtub and scream? 286 00:13:23,920 --> 00:13:27,600 Speaker 4: But you know, in this evolution of just finding out 287 00:13:27,720 --> 00:13:30,920 Speaker 4: that speaking is medicine, and talking is medicine, and releasing 288 00:13:31,000 --> 00:13:34,240 Speaker 4: that vibration and frequency through your throw and through your 289 00:13:34,280 --> 00:13:36,920 Speaker 4: mouth is medicine. I'm just like, I'm all about the 290 00:13:36,920 --> 00:13:39,280 Speaker 4: white people shit. Sign me up and then make it 291 00:13:39,320 --> 00:13:42,480 Speaker 4: black yep, sign me up and put some hot sauce 292 00:13:42,520 --> 00:13:42,720 Speaker 4: on it. 293 00:13:42,720 --> 00:13:44,880 Speaker 2: Okay, and Larry's but. 294 00:13:46,679 --> 00:13:52,079 Speaker 4: I really like speaking of sexy September, and as I'm 295 00:13:52,720 --> 00:14:00,440 Speaker 4: nearing my finished completion of my course, I'm feeling I'm 296 00:14:00,440 --> 00:14:04,120 Speaker 4: feeling very called to bring to be the bridge to 297 00:14:04,160 --> 00:14:07,439 Speaker 4: the white people shit to our people, you know, and 298 00:14:07,480 --> 00:14:10,680 Speaker 4: I you know, some people are gonna be like, bitch, 299 00:14:10,720 --> 00:14:13,160 Speaker 4: what you're talking about? And even in this like this 300 00:14:13,240 --> 00:14:15,560 Speaker 4: time in my class, I'm like asking friends to be 301 00:14:15,640 --> 00:14:16,600 Speaker 4: my trial clients. 302 00:14:16,600 --> 00:14:18,360 Speaker 2: And I'm like, I know it's weird, but can you 303 00:14:18,440 --> 00:14:22,040 Speaker 2: just can you just breathe with me? But I think 304 00:14:22,040 --> 00:14:22,680 Speaker 2: it's important. 305 00:14:22,680 --> 00:14:25,760 Speaker 4: And I think it's we're so easily, we're so easy 306 00:14:25,800 --> 00:14:26,520 Speaker 4: to write it off. 307 00:14:26,640 --> 00:14:28,760 Speaker 2: Is like I nobody doing all that. 308 00:14:28,920 --> 00:14:31,600 Speaker 4: But I was talking to my friend Bam, who's in 309 00:14:31,600 --> 00:14:35,680 Speaker 4: prison and today and he was just saying like he 310 00:14:35,760 --> 00:14:39,240 Speaker 4: just got locked up and it's my ratchet life. And 311 00:14:39,640 --> 00:14:42,360 Speaker 4: he's been you know, meditating and reading and like working 312 00:14:42,400 --> 00:14:44,840 Speaker 4: out and going within and he was just like, we're 313 00:14:44,880 --> 00:14:47,520 Speaker 4: just talking about I was just talking him about a pleasure. 314 00:14:47,240 --> 00:14:49,240 Speaker 2: Journal and he was like, you know, I don't know. 315 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:50,960 Speaker 2: I don't know. I have a hard time with pleasure. 316 00:14:51,080 --> 00:14:52,120 Speaker 2: And I was like, isn't that weird? 317 00:14:52,320 --> 00:14:56,240 Speaker 4: He was like yeah, because I'm stoic and shit, I'm like, yeah, 318 00:14:56,240 --> 00:14:59,640 Speaker 4: I guess beIN in Gangsing ain't very real. But then 319 00:14:59,680 --> 00:15:01,400 Speaker 4: he was like, like, you know, I said, writing poetry. 320 00:15:01,440 --> 00:15:02,760 Speaker 4: You know, I've been writing in my general every day, 321 00:15:02,800 --> 00:15:03,280 Speaker 4: writing poetry. 322 00:15:03,320 --> 00:15:04,720 Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm happy. I'm proud of you. 323 00:15:04,720 --> 00:15:06,480 Speaker 4: You know, like you gotta you gotta get like in 324 00:15:06,520 --> 00:15:09,040 Speaker 4: that when you're in that confinement, you gotta let your 325 00:15:09,040 --> 00:15:11,400 Speaker 4: mind be free. But I was just thinking about last 326 00:15:11,400 --> 00:15:13,640 Speaker 4: month and we talked about creating just to create and 327 00:15:13,680 --> 00:15:15,560 Speaker 4: like poetry and how like we want to laugh and 328 00:15:15,600 --> 00:15:16,960 Speaker 4: my friends like I wrote a poem today. 329 00:15:17,000 --> 00:15:18,600 Speaker 2: I meant to write a poem today, but I don't 330 00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:18,920 Speaker 2: have time. 331 00:15:19,760 --> 00:15:24,640 Speaker 4: But it's just like, why are people of color so 332 00:15:24,800 --> 00:15:26,960 Speaker 4: opposed to pleasure? 333 00:15:27,520 --> 00:15:28,840 Speaker 2: Why do we insist on. 334 00:15:31,360 --> 00:15:33,960 Speaker 1: Well pleasure for pleasure for us has to look a 335 00:15:33,960 --> 00:15:38,120 Speaker 1: certain way. It's literally it has to look one way, 336 00:15:38,680 --> 00:15:42,960 Speaker 1: and it's usually wrapped up in self care practices which 337 00:15:42,960 --> 00:15:51,800 Speaker 1: include hair nails are man and vacations with our friends 338 00:15:52,000 --> 00:15:54,680 Speaker 1: or our men or whatever whatever that may. 339 00:15:54,600 --> 00:15:55,960 Speaker 2: Be from this state to this state. 340 00:15:56,920 --> 00:15:59,320 Speaker 4: I know, and it's crazy, And I've talked about this 341 00:15:59,360 --> 00:16:04,200 Speaker 4: a lot lately, just about like containing my joy and 342 00:16:04,280 --> 00:16:06,800 Speaker 4: it's only allowed to live here and like feeling like 343 00:16:07,560 --> 00:16:10,359 Speaker 4: it's cheesy to be like not too happy, but like feeling. 344 00:16:10,200 --> 00:16:11,640 Speaker 2: Like what the fuck are you so happy for a 345 00:16:11,720 --> 00:16:12,880 Speaker 2: relaxed or like. 346 00:16:12,840 --> 00:16:15,400 Speaker 4: You know what I mean, just like this idea that 347 00:16:15,440 --> 00:16:20,040 Speaker 4: you have to suppress the extreme joy because it's inappropriate 348 00:16:20,040 --> 00:16:22,480 Speaker 4: in some way. Ors like you can't just bust out 349 00:16:22,480 --> 00:16:24,440 Speaker 4: in a cartwheel right here or whatever. But it's like 350 00:16:24,840 --> 00:16:27,280 Speaker 4: you gotta examine that even like I told Erica when 351 00:16:27,320 --> 00:16:28,760 Speaker 4: we were in Mexico, I don't know if I mentioned this, 352 00:16:28,840 --> 00:16:31,000 Speaker 4: but we met a couple on the beach and they 353 00:16:31,120 --> 00:16:32,560 Speaker 4: were so fucking happy. 354 00:16:32,640 --> 00:16:34,760 Speaker 2: It's like just two happy white people. 355 00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:36,720 Speaker 4: They were a couple, they were like left their kids, 356 00:16:36,760 --> 00:16:39,840 Speaker 4: and it's not like a white black thing, but it is, 357 00:16:39,920 --> 00:16:44,160 Speaker 4: like it's not maybe a white black thing, but when 358 00:16:44,200 --> 00:16:48,120 Speaker 4: you have I mean, when you are born into systematic 359 00:16:48,200 --> 00:16:51,080 Speaker 4: racism and you're born with kind of like this idea 360 00:16:51,160 --> 00:16:54,480 Speaker 4: that people are gonna harm you or people, you know, 361 00:16:54,560 --> 00:16:57,880 Speaker 4: like we're existing in a world that's been historically harmful 362 00:16:57,920 --> 00:17:00,720 Speaker 4: to us. It's like it's hard to kind of sometimes 363 00:17:00,760 --> 00:17:02,880 Speaker 4: grasp a certain level of joy and pleasure. 364 00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:04,719 Speaker 2: And they were so fucking happy. 365 00:17:05,160 --> 00:17:08,520 Speaker 1: Well, it makes me think of just how black people, 366 00:17:08,600 --> 00:17:11,560 Speaker 1: how we have to assimilate to our environment all the 367 00:17:11,640 --> 00:17:15,560 Speaker 1: time and are like we're often the minority in a 368 00:17:15,560 --> 00:17:18,600 Speaker 1: lot of spaces, and so we have to act a 369 00:17:18,600 --> 00:17:21,000 Speaker 1: certain way, and so it's hard to It's like turning 370 00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:21,880 Speaker 1: the light swich on. 371 00:17:21,800 --> 00:17:23,280 Speaker 3: And off, on and off, on and off, like. 372 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:27,960 Speaker 1: So you just don't know how to just be yourself 373 00:17:28,119 --> 00:17:31,600 Speaker 1: and just experience the joy and the pleasure and in 374 00:17:31,680 --> 00:17:34,520 Speaker 1: all spaces, in all ways, no matter who's there. 375 00:17:34,480 --> 00:17:35,480 Speaker 3: What race is there. 376 00:17:36,040 --> 00:17:37,760 Speaker 4: And that's true too, because even in the spaces that 377 00:17:37,760 --> 00:17:39,480 Speaker 4: we've created where it's like a lot of women that 378 00:17:39,520 --> 00:17:44,560 Speaker 4: look like us, you know, I'm sometimes now that we've 379 00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:47,960 Speaker 4: created this space, even when I went to my embodiment 380 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:50,640 Speaker 4: retreat where there's gonna obviously it's more diverse than our 381 00:17:50,680 --> 00:17:52,520 Speaker 4: retreats because it's men and there's women, and there's all 382 00:17:52,520 --> 00:17:54,520 Speaker 4: different people from all different places. 383 00:17:54,400 --> 00:17:56,800 Speaker 2: And I was like feeling kind of. 384 00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:00,359 Speaker 4: Weird about going into such a vulnerable s based with 385 00:18:00,400 --> 00:18:02,240 Speaker 4: like a bunch of different type of people who didn't 386 00:18:02,240 --> 00:18:05,720 Speaker 4: look like me, and it really made me have to 387 00:18:05,760 --> 00:18:07,639 Speaker 4: adjust and it made me have like in like all 388 00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:10,159 Speaker 4: my bestest friends from tantar school or like white, you know, 389 00:18:10,200 --> 00:18:11,200 Speaker 4: not all of them. I have a black friends, I 390 00:18:11,240 --> 00:18:13,280 Speaker 4: have all types of friends. But the point is, it's 391 00:18:13,320 --> 00:18:16,800 Speaker 4: like it requires another level of layer, like peeling back 392 00:18:16,840 --> 00:18:20,600 Speaker 4: another layer to to like kind of dig into yourself, 393 00:18:20,640 --> 00:18:22,639 Speaker 4: like what the fuck is that? And obviously it feels 394 00:18:22,640 --> 00:18:24,800 Speaker 4: good to like see people that look at you and 395 00:18:24,840 --> 00:18:28,800 Speaker 4: like look like you and feel like feel more more 396 00:18:28,840 --> 00:18:31,840 Speaker 4: comfortable in those spaces. But you know, like I see 397 00:18:31,960 --> 00:18:34,240 Speaker 4: I looked at the page and I was like, wow, 398 00:18:34,240 --> 00:18:37,080 Speaker 4: there's so many women that don't look like me, And 399 00:18:37,200 --> 00:18:39,199 Speaker 4: it would be really cool if they were playing like, 400 00:18:39,240 --> 00:18:40,840 Speaker 4: you know a little bit of ratchet music and there 401 00:18:40,880 --> 00:18:42,199 Speaker 4: was like, you know a little bit more color in 402 00:18:42,200 --> 00:18:42,639 Speaker 4: this bitch. 403 00:18:43,240 --> 00:18:48,600 Speaker 2: So it's like I'm excited to just kind. 404 00:18:48,359 --> 00:18:50,920 Speaker 4: Of like venture into what that looks like for us 405 00:18:51,000 --> 00:18:53,360 Speaker 4: and like kind of you know, like just take this 406 00:18:53,480 --> 00:18:56,040 Speaker 4: work of pleasure and bring it to our people, because 407 00:18:56,080 --> 00:18:58,760 Speaker 4: I realize it's just sometimes it's so far removed just 408 00:18:58,760 --> 00:19:02,040 Speaker 4: because of the circumstance of being born into this country, 409 00:19:02,119 --> 00:19:03,400 Speaker 4: you know, and to this world and. 410 00:19:03,359 --> 00:19:04,760 Speaker 2: To this this time period. 411 00:19:05,240 --> 00:19:08,040 Speaker 4: So I and and and when I had a reading 412 00:19:08,240 --> 00:19:12,320 Speaker 4: in Mexico with le Jeila shout out to La Jela, 413 00:19:12,359 --> 00:19:15,000 Speaker 4: who did our acastic reading, she was like, this is. 414 00:19:14,960 --> 00:19:15,639 Speaker 2: What you're supposed to do. 415 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:18,280 Speaker 4: We're supposed to like bring black women back to their yonies. 416 00:19:18,320 --> 00:19:20,440 Speaker 4: And she's like all women, but like really for our 417 00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:23,280 Speaker 4: for brown and black women, like return them to our 418 00:19:23,280 --> 00:19:26,480 Speaker 4: wombs because we've been so disconnected, disconnected, and like there's 419 00:19:26,520 --> 00:19:29,439 Speaker 4: so much shame and judgment connected around it. But like, 420 00:19:29,520 --> 00:19:31,119 Speaker 4: even hearing this story, like as you talk about it, 421 00:19:31,119 --> 00:19:32,439 Speaker 4: I'm like, oh, if we if we did it, or 422 00:19:32,680 --> 00:19:33,840 Speaker 4: you know, it would be so cool if we did 423 00:19:33,880 --> 00:19:35,920 Speaker 4: it like this, and like the little John plays. 424 00:19:36,440 --> 00:19:38,880 Speaker 1: Well you already know how my mind works. I was like, oh, 425 00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:40,600 Speaker 1: this is cool, but I would have done it this way. 426 00:19:40,640 --> 00:19:42,240 Speaker 1: And I'm like, bit, shut up, just experience it. 427 00:19:42,280 --> 00:19:43,760 Speaker 3: And then I've told eric I know. 428 00:19:43,960 --> 00:19:45,520 Speaker 4: And then I told Erica and she was like, we 429 00:19:45,520 --> 00:19:47,640 Speaker 4: can't steal the idea. I was like, it's not stealing it. 430 00:19:47,640 --> 00:19:49,880 Speaker 4: It's just remixing it. 431 00:19:51,520 --> 00:19:55,359 Speaker 1: But it's so funny that you mentioned the just how 432 00:19:55,440 --> 00:19:58,960 Speaker 1: the energetic body governs the physical body, because the other day, 433 00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:02,400 Speaker 1: after a breathwork exercise that I did with the open app, 434 00:20:03,240 --> 00:20:07,000 Speaker 1: I was like, I wanted to go deeper. And at 435 00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:11,560 Speaker 1: our retreats we do meditation and then we also incorporate 436 00:20:11,640 --> 00:20:15,800 Speaker 1: rape into some of our meditations, and so I hadn't 437 00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:19,640 Speaker 1: done rape since we left Mexico, and so I did 438 00:20:19,680 --> 00:20:24,560 Speaker 1: like a little rape ceremony and bitch, girl, that shit 439 00:20:24,680 --> 00:20:28,679 Speaker 1: like brought me down, like grounded the fuck out of me. 440 00:20:29,160 --> 00:20:30,600 Speaker 1: I don't know if you guys know what rape is, 441 00:20:30,600 --> 00:20:34,439 Speaker 1: but it's basically it's like a mixture of herbs and 442 00:20:34,480 --> 00:20:38,679 Speaker 1: tree bark and it's all ground down tobacco and you 443 00:20:38,720 --> 00:20:42,399 Speaker 1: inhale it like in very small doses. It can be 444 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:45,400 Speaker 1: administered through like Jamila administered to me through my nose, 445 00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:47,200 Speaker 1: or I can there's like these different tools where you 446 00:20:47,240 --> 00:20:50,040 Speaker 1: can administer it to yourself. But it's supposed to help 447 00:20:50,119 --> 00:20:54,840 Speaker 1: decalcify your penal gland, and they use it in different 448 00:20:54,840 --> 00:20:57,840 Speaker 1: types of ceremony. Ayahuasca ceremony is mushroom, but you can 449 00:20:58,000 --> 00:20:59,960 Speaker 1: people also use it just in the morning to help 450 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:03,639 Speaker 1: them wake up and like get grounded. It's an ancient 451 00:21:03,680 --> 00:21:07,600 Speaker 1: practice and so I used it and I literally felt 452 00:21:07,640 --> 00:21:11,400 Speaker 1: like this energy come from my head and I felt nauseous, 453 00:21:11,440 --> 00:21:13,399 Speaker 1: like for the first time, I thought I might throw up. 454 00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:15,960 Speaker 1: I was like, I think I'm to throw up because 455 00:21:16,000 --> 00:21:21,080 Speaker 1: I could feel like the block opening and being like 456 00:21:21,240 --> 00:21:24,600 Speaker 1: forcing itself down into my body. And I just was like, 457 00:21:24,640 --> 00:21:26,240 Speaker 1: I just have to keep breathing. I just have to 458 00:21:26,320 --> 00:21:29,480 Speaker 1: keep breathing to like move this energy through. And when 459 00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:32,520 Speaker 1: I was experiencing that, I had a lot of different 460 00:21:32,520 --> 00:21:34,760 Speaker 1: things come to me. One of them, when which I 461 00:21:34,760 --> 00:21:37,159 Speaker 1: shared with you, that this thing I want to do 462 00:21:37,200 --> 00:21:40,280 Speaker 1: with our friend, and then this other thing came to 463 00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:42,120 Speaker 1: me and it was literally that idea. 464 00:21:42,160 --> 00:21:43,680 Speaker 3: I was like, damn, Like. 465 00:21:44,040 --> 00:21:46,639 Speaker 2: We have have to heal our energetic bodies. 466 00:21:47,000 --> 00:21:49,479 Speaker 1: Like people are so focused on healing their physical body 467 00:21:49,520 --> 00:21:51,720 Speaker 1: and they're missing the like the. 468 00:21:51,640 --> 00:21:54,080 Speaker 3: Biggest part of it. Like you can't. 469 00:21:54,160 --> 00:21:56,399 Speaker 1: You can go to the gym, you can diet, you 470 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:59,040 Speaker 1: can take all the fucking ozembic. Bitch, I swear to God, 471 00:21:59,160 --> 00:22:01,119 Speaker 1: you are not going to be healed. You will just 472 00:22:01,200 --> 00:22:05,040 Speaker 1: be beautiful. On Instagram it's a band aid, Yeah, you 473 00:22:05,160 --> 00:22:10,080 Speaker 1: have to heal the energetic body, the the energy inside 474 00:22:10,119 --> 00:22:12,080 Speaker 1: of you. And like you know, I have a friend 475 00:22:12,119 --> 00:22:15,800 Speaker 1: and she's going through a loss right now, and I 476 00:22:15,880 --> 00:22:17,720 Speaker 1: was also thinking and and we've talked about this too, 477 00:22:17,760 --> 00:22:21,679 Speaker 1: but like whenever death, whenever death comes around, like I 478 00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:24,720 Speaker 1: really start to think about just these this sack of 479 00:22:24,880 --> 00:22:29,240 Speaker 1: skin that we're in, like literally a sack of skin, 480 00:22:29,760 --> 00:22:31,200 Speaker 1: Like this is a sack of skin. 481 00:22:31,080 --> 00:22:32,800 Speaker 3: Bitch, And then there's skinsuit. 482 00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:36,080 Speaker 1: But what's inside and even my voice and on my 483 00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:40,800 Speaker 1: presence and why I'm here is energy. Is electricity. It 484 00:22:40,880 --> 00:22:43,240 Speaker 1: is my soul coming through to speak to you, to 485 00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:46,560 Speaker 1: talk to you. And I can heal all of that. 486 00:22:46,680 --> 00:22:48,440 Speaker 1: I can do this, and I can make this look 487 00:22:48,520 --> 00:22:50,520 Speaker 1: cute and I can cut it up and whatever the fuck. 488 00:22:51,040 --> 00:22:54,000 Speaker 1: But you have to work on this. And that's why 489 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:56,359 Speaker 1: it's so hard, and that's why it's so uncomfortable, because 490 00:22:56,359 --> 00:22:59,159 Speaker 1: it's not easy because it is cellular and there is 491 00:22:59,200 --> 00:23:01,639 Speaker 1: shit wrapped up in that's not your shit, but it 492 00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:05,439 Speaker 1: is your shit because it's it's ancestral, and it is 493 00:23:05,480 --> 00:23:07,760 Speaker 1: that thing that maybe someone said one day. You thought 494 00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:09,920 Speaker 1: you didn't internalize it, but you did, and you still 495 00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:12,440 Speaker 1: don't even know you have. And so when someone says, hey, 496 00:23:12,560 --> 00:23:14,800 Speaker 1: you have something going on, you have some trauma that 497 00:23:14,800 --> 00:23:17,360 Speaker 1: you're that you're pushing down, and you're like, no, I 498 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:20,080 Speaker 1: really thought about it, and I don't, and you're like 499 00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:22,720 Speaker 1: everyone else around you is like, bitch, yes you do. 500 00:23:22,760 --> 00:23:24,840 Speaker 4: Or you want to cry as soon as someone mentions it, 501 00:23:24,880 --> 00:23:26,639 Speaker 4: and you're like, I'm fine. 502 00:23:26,480 --> 00:23:28,520 Speaker 1: And you don't, and you don't know where that comes from. 503 00:23:28,920 --> 00:23:33,000 Speaker 1: And you've and you feel like you've really explored, explored 504 00:23:33,240 --> 00:23:35,040 Speaker 1: what it is. I mean, you still can't come up 505 00:23:35,080 --> 00:23:37,640 Speaker 1: with it. Keep going, you got you gotta keep going, 506 00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:40,080 Speaker 1: because there is something there. There's always something there, because 507 00:23:40,080 --> 00:23:43,880 Speaker 1: I think a lot of people, specifically men, Sorry men, 508 00:23:45,240 --> 00:23:50,439 Speaker 1: but y'all be really disassociated from your fucking energetic body, 509 00:23:51,080 --> 00:23:54,520 Speaker 1: like so dissociated from it that and and I don't know. 510 00:23:55,040 --> 00:23:56,840 Speaker 1: I think, I know, I know where it comes from. 511 00:23:56,920 --> 00:23:59,520 Speaker 1: I think with black men, but I know that this 512 00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:02,480 Speaker 1: is not even just a black thing. Like I know that, yes, 513 00:24:02,600 --> 00:24:04,880 Speaker 1: maybe white men have a like a more more free 514 00:24:05,000 --> 00:24:09,080 Speaker 1: range to kind of maybe explore the nuances of this 515 00:24:09,240 --> 00:24:13,400 Speaker 1: kind of practice and like really thinking about their feelings 516 00:24:13,480 --> 00:24:17,240 Speaker 1: and like why they do certain things. But my white 517 00:24:17,240 --> 00:24:21,080 Speaker 1: home girls they got issues with their niggas too. But 518 00:24:21,240 --> 00:24:24,480 Speaker 1: I when I did that meditation, I really that was 519 00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:27,760 Speaker 1: the thing that came to me, was like the energetic body, 520 00:24:27,800 --> 00:24:30,440 Speaker 1: and I know that through even through reiki, Like that's all. 521 00:24:30,520 --> 00:24:32,840 Speaker 1: That's really what it's about. It's like life force energy 522 00:24:32,960 --> 00:24:35,800 Speaker 1: and just like healing that and like that being the 523 00:24:35,880 --> 00:24:40,199 Speaker 1: conduit to like everything else. So anyway, I know this 524 00:24:40,280 --> 00:24:42,800 Speaker 1: is sexy September and we've gotten really in our healer bag. 525 00:24:42,840 --> 00:24:45,159 Speaker 2: But well, I mean it's sexy to be, it's ex 526 00:24:45,200 --> 00:24:46,159 Speaker 2: sexy to be dealed. 527 00:24:46,240 --> 00:24:47,760 Speaker 4: Do you want to be a little more shallow? Okay, 528 00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:51,480 Speaker 4: I have something shallow to share. It's not shallow, it's physical. 529 00:24:52,359 --> 00:24:57,480 Speaker 4: Last month, my wife couldn't make her vampire facial appointment, 530 00:24:57,680 --> 00:24:59,240 Speaker 4: so she gave it to me, and I was so 531 00:24:59,440 --> 00:25:00,240 Speaker 4: fucking happy. 532 00:25:00,600 --> 00:25:00,920 Speaker 2: You could. 533 00:25:01,080 --> 00:25:03,480 Speaker 4: Like it was a Friday at four o'clock in LA 534 00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:06,000 Speaker 4: and I wouldn't have drove anywhere, but she's like, you 535 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:08,640 Speaker 4: can take my appointment, and I was like, no problem. 536 00:25:08,920 --> 00:25:11,560 Speaker 1: She has been talking about a vampire facial since before 537 00:25:11,720 --> 00:25:15,439 Speaker 1: we started the podcast. You guys, Sater, really you were 538 00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:18,720 Speaker 1: supposed to go get one before we started the podcast. 539 00:25:18,880 --> 00:25:20,960 Speaker 3: I know, but it didn't happen or something. 540 00:25:21,119 --> 00:25:23,119 Speaker 2: I was so expensive. I was liken eath this, and 541 00:25:23,160 --> 00:25:26,119 Speaker 2: then it just seems like it's like this whole process, 542 00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:27,640 Speaker 2: like shout out to raw beauty. 543 00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:29,680 Speaker 4: I went over there on a Friday at three o'clock 544 00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:31,560 Speaker 4: and I sat there for like an hour getting my 545 00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:34,240 Speaker 4: fucking face numbed so they could take blood out of 546 00:25:34,240 --> 00:25:35,720 Speaker 4: my arm. They took blood out of my arm and 547 00:25:35,760 --> 00:25:37,640 Speaker 4: then they shake it up to get all the good shit, 548 00:25:37,760 --> 00:25:40,240 Speaker 4: like the plasma, and I was like waiting there, numb 549 00:25:40,240 --> 00:25:42,920 Speaker 4: as fuck, waiting for them to come like drill little 550 00:25:42,960 --> 00:25:44,879 Speaker 4: holes in my face and put my plasma back in. 551 00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:49,200 Speaker 3: And then okay, it's not drilling, Okay, stop scaring the people. 552 00:25:49,280 --> 00:25:49,560 Speaker 2: It's not. 553 00:25:49,600 --> 00:25:52,359 Speaker 4: It's like tiny microscopic little holes and they put your 554 00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:54,000 Speaker 4: your blood like the only the good shit. 555 00:25:54,040 --> 00:25:55,919 Speaker 3: They basically are damaging your skin. 556 00:25:55,840 --> 00:25:58,919 Speaker 4: A little bit so that you can like bring all 557 00:25:58,960 --> 00:26:00,800 Speaker 4: the good shit back to your us like a baby. 558 00:26:01,119 --> 00:26:03,359 Speaker 4: And then they offered me like an up an up 559 00:26:03,560 --> 00:26:08,879 Speaker 4: an up charged if I wanted to use fetuses and 560 00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:12,120 Speaker 4: build like a bilical cord blood or something like vetuses 561 00:26:12,680 --> 00:26:15,400 Speaker 4: where were they were like, don't worry, they're American. 562 00:26:15,560 --> 00:26:17,800 Speaker 2: And I was like, what, okay. 563 00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:20,159 Speaker 3: Because American blood is hot in the streets. 564 00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:22,080 Speaker 2: Yeah, They're like, yeah, don't worry, it's Americans. 565 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:27,520 Speaker 4: I was like opposed to, Okay, Well, it's just like 566 00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:29,520 Speaker 4: like the level of cleansing that they go through is 567 00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:31,400 Speaker 4: like at a certain standard, so I don't have to worry. 568 00:26:31,880 --> 00:26:34,720 Speaker 3: So I was like, because America really cares about that, But. 569 00:26:34,640 --> 00:26:38,480 Speaker 4: I was like how much extra? I was like, it's 570 00:26:38,520 --> 00:26:40,439 Speaker 4: gonna work better than my blood. They're like yeah, but 571 00:26:40,480 --> 00:26:42,200 Speaker 4: I was like no, let me just try my own 572 00:26:42,200 --> 00:26:45,600 Speaker 4: blood first. And then I was like peeling like an 573 00:26:45,640 --> 00:26:48,879 Speaker 4: old lady for two weeks and I don't know, I 574 00:26:48,920 --> 00:26:51,000 Speaker 4: feel like it's helped a little bit. My my pores 575 00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:53,640 Speaker 4: look smaller, But it was like the it was. 576 00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:56,000 Speaker 3: The it's not a quick fix. It's something you have 577 00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:56,640 Speaker 3: to do a few times. 578 00:26:56,640 --> 00:26:57,639 Speaker 2: I know I had to do a few times. You know, 579 00:26:57,680 --> 00:27:00,120 Speaker 2: I'm a quick fixed bitch. But I've also like I've 580 00:27:00,160 --> 00:27:01,320 Speaker 2: also just been I'm. 581 00:27:01,160 --> 00:27:04,320 Speaker 4: Not even though I'm a license pstituition, I'm not really 582 00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:05,880 Speaker 4: a skin routine girl. 583 00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:08,320 Speaker 2: Like I will fall asleep in my makeup not and 584 00:27:08,359 --> 00:27:08,760 Speaker 2: not care. 585 00:27:08,880 --> 00:27:09,520 Speaker 4: I can't do that. 586 00:27:09,560 --> 00:27:12,240 Speaker 2: I'd be so tired. But you know, recently like I 587 00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:12,640 Speaker 2: did that. 588 00:27:12,800 --> 00:27:15,760 Speaker 4: I did that procedure. Is it even even called a procedure? 589 00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:17,120 Speaker 4: I just want to feel cool. I want to feel 590 00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:20,479 Speaker 4: very late. I did that procedure like KIMK and I 591 00:27:20,520 --> 00:27:23,480 Speaker 4: was peeling like crazy, and you know, after that, I 592 00:27:23,520 --> 00:27:25,280 Speaker 4: was like, bitch, you had to take care of your skin. 593 00:27:25,359 --> 00:27:27,600 Speaker 4: So I've been using shout out to Aaron our Tribe, 594 00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:30,760 Speaker 4: our Tribe girl from this last retreat. 595 00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:33,600 Speaker 2: She owns a. 596 00:27:32,840 --> 00:27:36,080 Speaker 4: Amazing skincare line called Lilac and Flint, and I've been 597 00:27:36,160 --> 00:27:38,399 Speaker 4: using that like to upkeep. And then you know what, 598 00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:40,960 Speaker 4: I realized, like I don't even know if I'm like 599 00:27:40,960 --> 00:27:43,800 Speaker 4: like exceptionally more beautiful, but it feels good to have 600 00:27:43,840 --> 00:27:48,440 Speaker 4: a routine that's centered around caring for myself, you know 601 00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:48,760 Speaker 4: what I mean. 602 00:27:48,760 --> 00:27:51,160 Speaker 2: It's like, oh, look I care about myself. Imagine my face, 603 00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:52,000 Speaker 2: you know. 604 00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:56,240 Speaker 4: And it's just like starting those rituals is where it 605 00:27:56,359 --> 00:28:00,000 Speaker 4: kind of like it starts to be easy to manifest. 606 00:28:00,119 --> 00:28:02,119 Speaker 2: Care for yourself, you know what I mean. 607 00:28:02,160 --> 00:28:04,160 Speaker 4: It's like these small little things like drink an extra 608 00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:06,760 Speaker 4: glass of water, wash your face and use the toner, 609 00:28:06,840 --> 00:28:09,240 Speaker 4: and it's like it does becomes a ritual. So I've 610 00:28:09,280 --> 00:28:13,280 Speaker 4: been like really shout out to Raw Beauty for uh 611 00:28:13,720 --> 00:28:17,080 Speaker 4: making my skin dreams come true, and then to Lilly 612 00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:20,280 Speaker 4: and Flint for like making me carry out a routine 613 00:28:20,840 --> 00:28:23,560 Speaker 4: to care about my you know, to care about all 614 00:28:23,560 --> 00:28:25,840 Speaker 4: the other things. And I've always struggled with my skin 615 00:28:26,119 --> 00:28:27,920 Speaker 4: and I'm not like super insecure about it because i 616 00:28:27,960 --> 00:28:30,320 Speaker 4: feel like I'm still fine and like like I can 617 00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:32,639 Speaker 4: cure this if I really wanted to, but like, you know, 618 00:28:32,680 --> 00:28:33,320 Speaker 4: I'm fine. 619 00:28:33,640 --> 00:28:34,840 Speaker 2: So it's it hasn't. 620 00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:36,240 Speaker 3: Been like I'm so fine. It doesn't matter. 621 00:28:36,400 --> 00:28:37,760 Speaker 2: I mean, it doesn't really like this is it. 622 00:28:37,760 --> 00:28:39,480 Speaker 3: It's beautiful? No, I love that. 623 00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:40,440 Speaker 2: I mean, it isn't just. 624 00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:41,880 Speaker 4: Like it isn't like it's not the it's not like 625 00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:43,960 Speaker 4: the I'm not gonna it's not gonna kill me, you know. 626 00:28:44,080 --> 00:28:46,400 Speaker 4: I'm like I'd rather not have a pimple. But like 627 00:28:46,960 --> 00:28:49,160 Speaker 4: even a bitch came on DMS, like someone tell me 628 00:28:49,160 --> 00:28:52,000 Speaker 4: you called me ugly five years ago, but you're you're 629 00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:54,320 Speaker 4: skin And I was like, girl, it's. 630 00:28:54,160 --> 00:28:55,280 Speaker 2: Not about to hurt my feelings. 631 00:28:55,560 --> 00:28:56,240 Speaker 3: Try something else. 632 00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:59,800 Speaker 4: I was like, you can't really like insult me because 633 00:28:59,880 --> 00:29:03,520 Speaker 4: like I've lived in this body my whole life. Like 634 00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:05,600 Speaker 4: anything that you are noticing, bitch. I noticed a long 635 00:29:05,640 --> 00:29:06,680 Speaker 4: time ago, and I'm cool with that. 636 00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:07,239 Speaker 3: I live with it. 637 00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:09,040 Speaker 1: Well, that's a good perspective to have, because I would 638 00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:12,160 Speaker 1: say a lot of people do not have that perspective. 639 00:29:13,200 --> 00:29:13,480 Speaker 2: I got. 640 00:29:13,520 --> 00:29:15,320 Speaker 4: I don't know, I am shallow, and you know what, 641 00:29:15,400 --> 00:29:17,000 Speaker 4: I just I realized that there are certain things that 642 00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,080 Speaker 4: make me feel good. Like I just clipped in some 643 00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:22,120 Speaker 4: hair yesterday. Orlando came home and was like, who the 644 00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:22,640 Speaker 4: fuck are you? 645 00:29:22,680 --> 00:29:24,440 Speaker 2: What is this? I was like, it was in the cabinet. 646 00:29:25,440 --> 00:29:28,480 Speaker 2: I just pulled out the cabinet, so yeah, hi, And 647 00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:29,160 Speaker 2: I don't know. 648 00:29:29,200 --> 00:29:30,600 Speaker 4: It's like I want to work and then I'm like, 649 00:29:30,960 --> 00:29:34,160 Speaker 4: but don't make up first. Nobody's home, not for ull. 650 00:29:34,200 --> 00:29:36,960 Speaker 4: It's just like the strangest thing, Like even in twenty twenty, 651 00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:37,840 Speaker 4: I didn't have nowhere to go. 652 00:29:37,840 --> 00:29:38,960 Speaker 2: I'm like, do a new hairstyle. 653 00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:42,880 Speaker 4: It's like something about the process of caring for myself 654 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:45,040 Speaker 4: and looking in the mirror and saying, you look good. 655 00:29:45,320 --> 00:29:47,520 Speaker 2: Now it's time to do stuff. I mean, by the 656 00:29:47,560 --> 00:29:49,120 Speaker 2: time I get to the stuff, I'm like, it's ten 657 00:29:49,160 --> 00:29:50,760 Speaker 2: o'clock at night and now I'm ready to work. But 658 00:29:50,840 --> 00:29:53,080 Speaker 2: I'm like, bitch, but They're like, I'm just. 659 00:29:53,120 --> 00:29:56,959 Speaker 4: Noticing like just you know, little things, little details of 660 00:29:57,000 --> 00:29:59,520 Speaker 4: self care that kind of make me just feel better 661 00:29:59,560 --> 00:30:01,200 Speaker 4: overall make me feel more sexy. 662 00:30:02,440 --> 00:30:05,360 Speaker 1: Yeah, no, I even today. So today I called Jamila 663 00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:08,200 Speaker 1: before we came and I was like, you know, the 664 00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:11,320 Speaker 1: theme is sexy, and I've been really like reflecting before 665 00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:12,600 Speaker 1: I got here. I was like, what is it that 666 00:30:12,680 --> 00:30:15,000 Speaker 1: actually makes me feel sexy? And there's there's a lot 667 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:18,360 Speaker 1: of things that make me feel sexy. You know, wine, 668 00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:21,040 Speaker 1: red wine, red wine, it makes me feel like it 669 00:30:21,160 --> 00:30:23,200 Speaker 1: like a housewife who's on edge. 670 00:30:23,520 --> 00:30:25,240 Speaker 4: Red wine makes me feel like, are you want to 671 00:30:25,240 --> 00:30:27,520 Speaker 4: come over tonight? 672 00:30:29,520 --> 00:30:31,840 Speaker 1: But I'll drink red wine and by myself and be sexy, 673 00:30:31,920 --> 00:30:34,760 Speaker 1: like I'll use sexy dancing in the mirror. But I 674 00:30:35,000 --> 00:30:37,240 Speaker 1: was while I was having this thought, I had just 675 00:30:37,240 --> 00:30:38,720 Speaker 1: got out of the shower and I was looking in 676 00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:40,400 Speaker 1: the mirror and I didn't have any makeup on it, 677 00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:42,320 Speaker 1: and I was like, I had a flashback to like 678 00:30:42,320 --> 00:30:45,520 Speaker 1: our retreats, where like I don't really wear any makeup 679 00:30:45,600 --> 00:30:48,800 Speaker 1: and I honestly feel the most sexy. 680 00:30:48,360 --> 00:30:48,960 Speaker 3: When I'm there. 681 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:51,680 Speaker 1: Same and either sometimes my hair is in my fro, 682 00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:54,120 Speaker 1: sometimes I got my braids. And then I was like, 683 00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:58,120 Speaker 1: you know what, I do this episode with no motherfucking 684 00:30:58,160 --> 00:31:01,040 Speaker 1: makeup like Alicia Keys, And I was like, I'm gonna 685 00:31:01,040 --> 00:31:03,080 Speaker 1: call I was like, I called youmal I was like, Jimila, 686 00:31:03,200 --> 00:31:04,160 Speaker 1: So today I'm. 687 00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:04,840 Speaker 3: Not gonna wear makeup. 688 00:31:04,880 --> 00:31:07,120 Speaker 4: I was like, okay, maybe like I am, I like 689 00:31:07,160 --> 00:31:09,120 Speaker 4: putting on the eyelashes. I was like, I forgot my 690 00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:11,240 Speaker 4: weaving girl, I got my clip int and so whatever, 691 00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:14,360 Speaker 4: you should have gave me the memo sinner. 692 00:31:14,360 --> 00:31:14,800 Speaker 2: I don't know if I. 693 00:31:14,760 --> 00:31:17,280 Speaker 1: Would have went with it, but but I I realized, 694 00:31:17,280 --> 00:31:18,760 Speaker 1: like I don't. I don't really wear a lot of 695 00:31:18,800 --> 00:31:21,800 Speaker 1: makeup anyway in general, but you know, today I was like, 696 00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:23,840 Speaker 1: you know what, let me just like I do. I 697 00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:26,760 Speaker 1: feel a lot of times my most sexy. Yes, I 698 00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:28,840 Speaker 1: feel sexy with makeup too. There are giant days where 699 00:31:28,840 --> 00:31:30,200 Speaker 1: I want to get dulled up and I want to 700 00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:32,440 Speaker 1: feel that. But like when I looked in the mirror, 701 00:31:32,520 --> 00:31:34,520 Speaker 1: I was like, bitch you before with all makeup? 702 00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:35,080 Speaker 3: How about it? 703 00:31:35,680 --> 00:31:38,880 Speaker 1: And I've been and yes, Aaron shout out to Aaron, 704 00:31:38,960 --> 00:31:41,400 Speaker 1: this is not an ad, this is real shit. I've 705 00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:43,920 Speaker 1: been using her shit to Lilac in Flint and and 706 00:31:44,440 --> 00:31:47,400 Speaker 1: I just because I'm because you know, I'm planning ass 707 00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:48,000 Speaker 1: type of bitch. 708 00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:54,800 Speaker 4: The breathe bomb that ocinated Yohoba oil, brought a few 709 00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:55,520 Speaker 4: things this. 710 00:31:55,640 --> 00:31:58,240 Speaker 2: Let me just tell you guys something. This fucking bitch 711 00:31:58,760 --> 00:32:01,000 Speaker 2: does not carry a purse. 712 00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:01,440 Speaker 3: Ever. 713 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:03,640 Speaker 2: Ever, she's like, can you I can't carry my wallet. 714 00:32:03,680 --> 00:32:05,440 Speaker 2: Then she's like, I lost my wallet. I don't know 715 00:32:05,480 --> 00:32:05,960 Speaker 2: where it is. 716 00:32:06,240 --> 00:32:08,080 Speaker 4: Every I mean, I swear to God for the last 717 00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:09,320 Speaker 4: five years I do have. 718 00:32:10,200 --> 00:32:13,400 Speaker 2: She loses wallets more than she I never met a bit. 719 00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:16,880 Speaker 3: She loses, brush them, I misplaced them, and then I 720 00:32:16,920 --> 00:32:18,280 Speaker 3: find them. I rarely lose. 721 00:32:18,440 --> 00:32:19,920 Speaker 2: It's because you don't have a purse. And today she 722 00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:20,880 Speaker 2: has this sparkly as. 723 00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:22,600 Speaker 3: She's like, whose purse is that? I was like, it's mine. 724 00:32:22,680 --> 00:32:24,000 Speaker 2: I was like, I I've ever seen and I know 725 00:32:24,040 --> 00:32:25,240 Speaker 2: all your items okay, but. 726 00:32:25,320 --> 00:32:27,800 Speaker 3: So cute purses and making me also feel sexy. And 727 00:32:27,800 --> 00:32:28,680 Speaker 3: this is from Amazon. 728 00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:31,400 Speaker 1: No, I'm not an Amazon influencer at all, however I 729 00:32:31,440 --> 00:32:32,360 Speaker 1: should be Amazon. 730 00:32:34,480 --> 00:32:36,200 Speaker 3: This is from Amazon. And so I was like, let 731 00:32:36,240 --> 00:32:38,520 Speaker 3: me just bring a few things that make me feel sexy. 732 00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:42,800 Speaker 1: And I did bring Aaron's Lilac and flint breathe bomb 733 00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:45,200 Speaker 1: because I would, I would dispense it on my hands 734 00:32:45,240 --> 00:32:46,120 Speaker 1: so that you can see it. 735 00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:48,200 Speaker 3: But I'm low, and I refuse. Are you low? 736 00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:49,240 Speaker 2: Are you lower? 737 00:32:49,240 --> 00:32:49,400 Speaker 3: Ready? 738 00:32:49,400 --> 00:32:50,320 Speaker 2: I only do half a pump. 739 00:32:50,600 --> 00:32:52,680 Speaker 1: Well, my directions that she sent me, I'm supposed to 740 00:32:52,720 --> 00:32:54,440 Speaker 1: use half a pump during the morning and then a 741 00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:57,200 Speaker 1: full pump at night. Same, So I'm using I've been 742 00:32:57,280 --> 00:33:00,360 Speaker 1: using it ever since. I'm using ever So if you 743 00:33:00,400 --> 00:33:02,440 Speaker 1: see my skin right now, and you see this glow, 744 00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:05,040 Speaker 1: look at this, look at this, look at no makeup, 745 00:33:05,080 --> 00:33:07,120 Speaker 1: look at this, this is erin. 746 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:07,680 Speaker 3: You know what. 747 00:33:07,760 --> 00:33:11,200 Speaker 1: And when Aaron came on, Aaron, just when Aaron came 748 00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:14,280 Speaker 1: to the retreat, we make profiles for all the girls 749 00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:15,520 Speaker 1: when they come on the retreat so that we know 750 00:33:15,560 --> 00:33:17,560 Speaker 1: their faces when they arrive and we can like pair 751 00:33:17,640 --> 00:33:21,080 Speaker 1: them properly with the right roommates. And we went and 752 00:33:21,160 --> 00:33:23,640 Speaker 1: we saw Aaron's profile. We went on her Instagram, and 753 00:33:23,680 --> 00:33:26,120 Speaker 1: when I went on her Instagram, her fucking face was 754 00:33:26,160 --> 00:33:29,080 Speaker 1: like a glazed donut, like she's an esthetician. So I 755 00:33:29,160 --> 00:33:31,240 Speaker 1: was like, bitch, how the fuck is her face so shiny? 756 00:33:31,320 --> 00:33:33,959 Speaker 1: It's like perfectly like porcelain and shiny. 757 00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:35,320 Speaker 2: I was like, should we tell her to bring us 758 00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:35,840 Speaker 2: some products. 759 00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,360 Speaker 1: She's beautiful, and then when we met her, I was like, bitch, 760 00:33:38,400 --> 00:33:40,040 Speaker 1: I just want to let you know that, like we 761 00:33:40,040 --> 00:33:41,560 Speaker 1: were stalking your page and I want to be a 762 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:42,440 Speaker 1: glazed donut too. 763 00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:44,600 Speaker 3: So now I. 764 00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:46,520 Speaker 4: Think we like threatened her on the retreat, like, so, 765 00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:48,640 Speaker 4: I know you're about to leave tomorrow, but you only 766 00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:49,840 Speaker 4: gave us one package. 767 00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:52,320 Speaker 2: Can you send me mine? I literally took her aside. 768 00:33:52,360 --> 00:33:53,640 Speaker 2: I was like, Erin, let me talk to you. 769 00:33:53,840 --> 00:33:56,200 Speaker 4: I realized you gave Erica the package, but I have 770 00:33:56,280 --> 00:33:59,200 Speaker 4: the worst case skin, so it's kind of a waste 771 00:33:59,200 --> 00:34:00,200 Speaker 4: of your time giving it to her. 772 00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,040 Speaker 3: Are you seeing this? Can look at that? 773 00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:05,200 Speaker 2: Stop look like a three D fucking bitch. 774 00:34:05,480 --> 00:34:07,920 Speaker 1: I'm I'm a fucking I'm a glastonut. That's all I wanted. 775 00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:11,920 Speaker 1: So shout out to Lilac and Flint woman owned based 776 00:34:11,960 --> 00:34:16,120 Speaker 1: in the Bay, so check them out. We don't have 777 00:34:16,120 --> 00:34:17,799 Speaker 1: a discount code because it's not an AD, but maybe 778 00:34:17,800 --> 00:34:19,560 Speaker 1: I'll hit up Aaron and by the time this comes out, 779 00:34:19,560 --> 00:34:21,360 Speaker 1: you can click the link in this episode description and 780 00:34:21,400 --> 00:34:23,160 Speaker 1: we'll have something I don't know just check. 781 00:34:24,080 --> 00:34:28,080 Speaker 3: Secondly is chak rubs. 782 00:34:28,160 --> 00:34:30,600 Speaker 1: So if you don't know what chock rubs is it's 783 00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,880 Speaker 1: a feminine care brand line. It's mostly crystals. It's all 784 00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:38,600 Speaker 1: crystals what they have. And we gave these Yonie eggs 785 00:34:38,800 --> 00:34:41,359 Speaker 1: to the girls on the retreat. But I've been using 786 00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:44,280 Speaker 1: Yoni eggs for a while, not consistently, but ever since Mexico, 787 00:34:44,800 --> 00:34:49,840 Speaker 1: I have actually in part because of one of the retreates. 788 00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:53,520 Speaker 1: One of our retreats, who is hilarious is fucking She 789 00:34:53,640 --> 00:34:56,040 Speaker 1: had a pretty big transformation. We were there, but she 790 00:34:56,120 --> 00:34:58,920 Speaker 1: told me that when she when when she put the 791 00:34:58,960 --> 00:35:00,759 Speaker 1: Yoni egg near her pussy just like sucked it in. 792 00:35:01,320 --> 00:35:02,719 Speaker 3: It was like I needed this and. 793 00:35:02,800 --> 00:35:05,439 Speaker 2: I know it will tell you or I will drug. 794 00:35:05,640 --> 00:35:07,560 Speaker 1: Yeah, she like sucked it in and I could and 795 00:35:07,680 --> 00:35:10,279 Speaker 1: she was like and I instantly felt like happier, and 796 00:35:10,320 --> 00:35:13,040 Speaker 1: so I was like, huh interesting, and I like I 797 00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:16,120 Speaker 1: was like remember like that, Like when we came back, 798 00:35:16,480 --> 00:35:20,040 Speaker 1: I was put putting it in and I usually use 799 00:35:20,560 --> 00:35:23,000 Speaker 1: like a lubricant. Shout out to Honeypot. They have this 800 00:35:23,160 --> 00:35:27,040 Speaker 1: amazing lubricant. It is water based and the bomb. It's 801 00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:29,560 Speaker 1: part of their it's part of their pleasure ritual. 802 00:35:30,920 --> 00:35:32,359 Speaker 2: Uh what is it. 803 00:35:32,320 --> 00:35:37,200 Speaker 3: Called pleasure ritual? I think it's just pleasure ritual guy 804 00:35:37,200 --> 00:35:41,000 Speaker 3: whatever that's part of their pleasure ritual peramonies. I don't 805 00:35:41,040 --> 00:35:41,680 Speaker 3: know whatever. 806 00:35:42,320 --> 00:35:44,360 Speaker 1: Oh and you guys, honey Pot is giving all of 807 00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:46,080 Speaker 1: our listeners twenty five percent off. 808 00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:47,560 Speaker 3: You know you've heard me talked about this. 809 00:35:47,520 --> 00:35:50,799 Speaker 1: Before, So just go ahead, get the wipes, get the 810 00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:53,840 Speaker 1: seer rooms, get the loop. Use GMBC twenty three a 811 00:35:53,960 --> 00:35:57,839 Speaker 1: checkout for twenty five percent off Honeypot, and get your 812 00:35:57,880 --> 00:35:59,440 Speaker 1: sexiness together this September. 813 00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:03,080 Speaker 2: I say, good moms, don't care about your pissy, but. 814 00:36:03,040 --> 00:36:04,400 Speaker 3: I use this and I put a little bit of 815 00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:05,680 Speaker 3: this to help get it in. 816 00:36:05,719 --> 00:36:09,920 Speaker 1: But I notice that when I'm wearing, when I have 817 00:36:10,000 --> 00:36:12,279 Speaker 1: a Yoni egg, and this one specifically because it's rose 818 00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:14,959 Speaker 1: quartz and it's all about heart opening, I literally feel 819 00:36:14,960 --> 00:36:18,799 Speaker 1: like I'm a better person. I feel nicer when I 820 00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:22,480 Speaker 1: have rose quarts inside my pussy. Well, shout out to 821 00:36:22,560 --> 00:36:25,560 Speaker 1: Chakrubs because you didn't know this, but you've made me 822 00:36:25,600 --> 00:36:29,600 Speaker 1: a nicer person by putting your rose quarts inside of men. 823 00:36:29,880 --> 00:36:31,600 Speaker 4: Can you put it in more often? I feel like 824 00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:34,200 Speaker 4: you've been kind of mean for like the last three months. 825 00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:40,160 Speaker 3: Okay, but in the last week, have I been nicer? Yeah, geez. Wow. 826 00:36:40,239 --> 00:36:42,520 Speaker 1: See, and we have this conversation that we weren't gonna 827 00:36:42,560 --> 00:36:44,280 Speaker 1: like bring up shit on the podcast. 828 00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:45,200 Speaker 2: We did not say that. 829 00:36:45,239 --> 00:36:47,520 Speaker 4: I said, bitch, you'd be bringing up some of the podcast, 830 00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:49,040 Speaker 4: and I said we probably shouldn't do that, but I 831 00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:51,760 Speaker 4: just remembered right now, so and I'm half a glass 832 00:36:51,760 --> 00:36:54,040 Speaker 4: of wine in so I just needed Wow. I can't 833 00:36:54,040 --> 00:36:56,960 Speaker 4: believe we listened to problem to drink because it's Friday, 834 00:36:57,000 --> 00:36:58,400 Speaker 4: and now I'm like drunk a little bit. 835 00:37:00,200 --> 00:37:01,400 Speaker 2: Are you mad at me that I said that. 836 00:37:01,920 --> 00:37:03,719 Speaker 3: I just didn't feel like it was necessary. 837 00:37:07,239 --> 00:37:09,319 Speaker 1: Okay, So me and Mila decided to put the rest 838 00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:10,719 Speaker 1: of this episode on Patreon. 839 00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:15,120 Speaker 3: It got a little bit heated, and you. 840 00:37:15,080 --> 00:37:17,359 Speaker 1: Know, to be honest, we share a lot of shit 841 00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:21,120 Speaker 1: over here, and I just felt like this conversation was 842 00:37:21,160 --> 00:37:25,120 Speaker 1: better suited for just the privacy of our tribe. So 843 00:37:25,880 --> 00:37:27,279 Speaker 1: if you want to go check out the rest of 844 00:37:27,320 --> 00:37:29,360 Speaker 1: the episode, make sure you go to patreon dot com, 845 00:37:29,360 --> 00:38:00,560 Speaker 1: backslash Good Mom's Bad Choices, and we'll see you next week. Yeah, 846 00:38:00,600 --> 00:38:01,600 Speaker 1: the leastest day asked