Speaker 1: Silly game for you to act this way. She's singing
Speaker 1: and Ship and I used to really like that song
Speaker 1: because I used to be like many song is so
Speaker 1: dupe because I felt the pain. And then there's a
Speaker 1: particular partner song that made me realize why that nigga
Speaker 1: wasn't working with her. No one loves you more than me,
Speaker 1: and no one ever will sing use a motherfucking lie.
Speaker 1: It's a motherfucker that's gonna love me way more. No
Speaker 1: sinlings um g l my boy Peter um. Today we
Speaker 1: brought the homie. Uh, Joey west Side. Joey west Side
Speaker 1: got a podcast? What it's homie that they don't do consistently? Right? Um?
Speaker 1: What's the name of your podcast? Contrarians? The Contrarians? When's
Speaker 1: the last time y'all did a podcast? Uh? Ship had
Speaker 1: been about? I'm multiple months, multiple multiple months and that's
Speaker 1: contrary and c O N T R A R E
Speaker 1: A N s is it sounds like a like Contrarians,
Speaker 1: like one of those armies the Romans used to battle.
Speaker 1: Man Caesar conquered the Contrarians shout out to my nigga,
Speaker 1: mac at conscious king a eight, my bro sean, he
Speaker 1: like a brother from another mother. You know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Like he he one of us, you know, that's my nigga,
Speaker 1: So shout out there. He was supposed to be here.
Speaker 1: Unfortunately he couldn't make it today. So what makes it
Speaker 1: hard for y'all to do your podcast? Why don't y'all
Speaker 1: just take the time and get it done. I guess
Speaker 1: we just don't take advantage we had. Honestly, the problem is,
Speaker 1: like we just spoke earlier, we didn't make it a priority.
Speaker 1: You know, we didn't prioritize in a way to where, um,
Speaker 1: you know, we just make sure that he gets done,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And we realized doing the
Speaker 1: ship every week the way we was trying to do
Speaker 1: it and keep up and you know, and really finding
Speaker 1: exactly what it is that we're trying to do because
Speaker 1: we was amateurs at it. Uh, you know, I just
Speaker 1: I guess it became a little overwhelming. And I wasn't
Speaker 1: really doing the Homie was doing most of the work
Speaker 1: when it comes to like editing the videos and getting
Speaker 1: it together, and certain ships shout out at him and
Speaker 1: I wasn't you know, I wasn't contributing that much. Besides
Speaker 1: my energy, But why not just do the audio part,
Speaker 1: because that's really what it's about, stripping the audio down
Speaker 1: and then releasing the audio of the podcast, right right. Um,
Speaker 1: I just never thought about it, yeah, because we kind
Speaker 1: of just figured people. We assumed that people would like
Speaker 1: to see you talking about the ship more than just
Speaker 1: the audio, which we can be wrong because honestly, the
Speaker 1: audio versions is the podcast is the podcast, and that's
Speaker 1: where we got the most listens. The YouTube members of
Speaker 1: Trash what honestly looking out our YouTube, it's not that
Speaker 1: they don't know it's there. Well yeah, I know, but
Speaker 1: I'm just being it's trash, you feel me. But Pete
Speaker 1: is really important because like Pete stays on me, you
Speaker 1: feel me, and we'll do a couple in a week,
Speaker 1: and it's it's more of a challenge on him sometimes
Speaker 1: in me, I just got to kind of be down
Speaker 1: to do it. So I'm grateful to have Pete because
Speaker 1: we haven't even started doing videos because literally it it
Speaker 1: like we're trying to get the podcast nail to where
Speaker 1: we feel comfortable. So I figured, like, what we say,
Speaker 1: fifteen twenty episodes and we'll start recording. And I appreciate
Speaker 1: the credit by the way. But also I think it
Speaker 1: would be challenging until we get the other location up
Speaker 1: and running to do videos in here. I don't know
Speaker 1: how that would come off optically. Yeah, that would look crazy. Yeah,
Speaker 1: this ship look crazy. Here I try to take a
Speaker 1: picture of I can't remember what show it was, and
Speaker 1: posted on Instagram. Just look crazy? This is it? That
Speaker 1: ain't it? That ain't cracking? So if you don't have
Speaker 1: time to do the podcast, what do you spending your
Speaker 1: time doing? You know what? Honestly, man, what do you
Speaker 1: think it sums most of your time? Uh? Work's my work.
Speaker 1: That's eight hours, So it can't consist hours. You gotta
Speaker 1: think about it. It's more thing, eight hours most of
Speaker 1: your waking you know what I'm saying. Yeah, I wake
Speaker 1: up prior and then I commute, I'm you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So how many hours and waking up and
Speaker 1: then communing? Okay, I wake up two hours most likely
Speaker 1: like two hours before I got to be at work,
Speaker 1: so it didn't take an hour to get to work.
Speaker 1: So so two hours total one of those hours right
Speaker 1: right right? And then it might and then I get
Speaker 1: off and I might do eight hours. I might do
Speaker 1: ten hours. I might do twelve hours. It all depends,
Speaker 1: you know. You know what I'm saying. Driving home takes hours, right,
Speaker 1: you dry at least an hour, and then on a
Speaker 1: bad day, that ship could turn into two and a
Speaker 1: half hours. Okay, So let's say on an average day
Speaker 1: you spend roughly eleven hours dealing with work, right, what
Speaker 1: are you doing for the rest of another time? Might
Speaker 1: be taking a nap. Jim bullshitting too. Let me get
Speaker 1: to that. I'll be bullshitting too as far as just
Speaker 1: I'm just saying I want to be honest, like, and
Speaker 1: they would be sitting around. You can be scrolling through
Speaker 1: social media. You can watching some ship on YouTube. I
Speaker 1: could be on the phone talking, you know, dealing with
Speaker 1: family life. You know what I'm saying, what's my life?
Speaker 1: You know, just my daughter making so she straight. I
Speaker 1: gotta you know, I got a lady in my life.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I give you know, that's
Speaker 1: takes up some attention. How much time do you think
Speaker 1: you dedicate to that? Um Like, you want to know
Speaker 1: that the hours because if you had to imagine the time,
Speaker 1: if you had, you know, thank you, that's some thank you.
Speaker 1: You said that because I was about to say it
Speaker 1: takes a lot of thought. I'm glad see I funk
Speaker 1: with you because no, but that's some real ship because
Speaker 1: I was about to, you know, say that because the
Speaker 1: full on efficiency. But honestly, it's thought. Thought contribute to
Speaker 1: most of the day, to be honest, like the ship.
Speaker 1: So you're talking about you're thinking about your old lady
Speaker 1: most of the day when I'm talking, just thinking about
Speaker 1: everything that relates to it, you know, just if that
Speaker 1: makes sense, like yeah, you know, if you know, especially
Speaker 1: you know, sometimes ship get a little complicated, you know,
Speaker 1: that could be on your mind, and then that can
Speaker 1: affect other ship that you should be worried about. And
Speaker 1: then you're thinking about that, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Then certain ship that we gotta handle, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. Then you're thinking about that and making sure
Speaker 1: that you could saying nothing this whole time. But I
Speaker 1: got it for you. I got it. I get what
Speaker 1: you're saying even though you ain't saying nothing the whole time.
Speaker 1: Here's the answer. Okay, talk to me. I'm here to listen.
Speaker 1: You're allocating more intellectual human capital to your girl than
Speaker 1: anything else, right, so therefore, why don't you just do
Speaker 1: a podcast about her? Because what's your greatest area of expertise?
Speaker 1: And which brings us to this podcast, which is a
Speaker 1: conversations about lover boys? Whoa which I'm not calling you
Speaker 1: a no, yes you are. I don't like that. Hey,
Speaker 1: I did say conversations with lover boy. No, no, no no,
Speaker 1: I said what bar trap classes is good? Hold because
Speaker 1: I didn't say I didn't say conversations with lover boys.
Speaker 1: I said. The title is conversations about lover her boy.
Speaker 1: I just don't like the name. Why not? I just
Speaker 1: don't like it. You don't like love? Don't you always
Speaker 1: have tag? No? No, I love you. I don't like
Speaker 1: lover boy. That ship sounds so the boy part is
Speaker 1: kind of progressive. Boys sounds soggy. Bro shouldn't be lover men.
Speaker 1: It should be just like I don't know whatter of
Speaker 1: love I don't I don't know what it should be
Speaker 1: just lover boy. I don't like it, my nigger, That's
Speaker 1: what I'm just saying. It don't sound good. What what
Speaker 1: I respected? I could respect it? So I'm putting my light.
Speaker 1: It just don't sound good. What's wrong with lover It
Speaker 1: just don't sound good and it's nothing and what's crazy
Speaker 1: to me? And you know, I really don't, but I'm
Speaker 1: gonna tell you why, so, my so. What what me
Speaker 1: and Pete liked to conversate about is Pariah's and our
Speaker 1: society right culturally, I focus on our culture more than anything,
Speaker 1: and Pete is familiar with our culture and we do
Speaker 1: share things in culture. Lover boy has such a negative
Speaker 1: connotation for sure, and I'm trying to really figure out
Speaker 1: why does lover boy have that? If you, like you
Speaker 1: hashtag love love, I would never call you a lover
Speaker 1: boy on seven Street because I know from our background,
Speaker 1: saying lover boy is like, it's almost insulting if you're
Speaker 1: from the streets, if you're from the corner. And I
Speaker 1: just don't understand what it sounds gay. They don't lover
Speaker 1: boys boys. Yeah, it just sounds bay money. And I'm
Speaker 1: just being honest. It just does get it though, I
Speaker 1: get it, my nigga, it just don't sound good. It's
Speaker 1: like you know, you can just it's it's just not
Speaker 1: a dope name to me. When you listen to music
Speaker 1: by yourself, Let's say, when you listen to music by else,
Speaker 1: Because if I'm being honest. I guess I can understand
Speaker 1: why you wouldn't have that conversation with me, So I
Speaker 1: get it. I just don't like the title. Honestly, I
Speaker 1: didn't come up with it because you were here. Honestly,
Speaker 1: I was looking at Drake's new album. I think that Drake,
Speaker 1: when you say lover boy too, he titled his album loverboy.
Speaker 1: It sounds like it makes sense. But I thought that
Speaker 1: it would be a dope conversation with you because I
Speaker 1: feel like, out of all the people that I consider
Speaker 1: a friend and I interact with, you kind of pride
Speaker 1: yourself on love a lot more than average person, to
Speaker 1: the point where you hashtag love love. So but it's
Speaker 1: funny because when we say the term lover boy, right,
Speaker 1: it's like, that's not me though, And I really wouldn't
Speaker 1: call you that because of the fact of what it carries.
Speaker 1: Does it Does it have that same cond of text
Speaker 1: with where you're from, Pete, somebody says he's a lover
Speaker 1: boy or he's a lover boy. It can it's gonna
Speaker 1: it's either gonna be like, oh, he's emotional, emotional and
Speaker 1: you know, you get to be a lover boy. You
Speaker 1: gotta be sympathetic to you that if there's a man,
Speaker 1: it means you're gonna have to be a little effeminine,
Speaker 1: and at least in the way it comes off. I mean,
Speaker 1: not like saying that this dude is at all, but
Speaker 1: you have to be relatable a lot to women. So
Speaker 1: it could come off as that way where I'm from,
Speaker 1: or it can come off as like, oh, he's a
Speaker 1: lover boy, Like he's, you know, some dude trying to
Speaker 1: romance women up all the time. Yeah, So it could
Speaker 1: be a player, or it could be somebody in love.
Speaker 1: Yeah what and Pete, you would be the opposite of
Speaker 1: a lover boy, obviously that may be true. Yeah, it's
Speaker 1: do you think you're like emotionally scarred that's why you
Speaker 1: kind of avoid love? I don't think so. Would you
Speaker 1: be honest if you thought you work? Yeah, but I
Speaker 1: don't hold anything that's going on in my life to
Speaker 1: any against anybody else. The biggest issue that has happened
Speaker 1: with me, the most emotionally scarring situation that I put
Speaker 1: up with, it was the type of a deal where
Speaker 1: like I had enough time, I wasn't in that relationship
Speaker 1: like that. So in this gap of time, I've learned
Speaker 1: to be really really just independent in like emotionally, mentally,
Speaker 1: all that kind of stuff. So now since I'm like,
Speaker 1: there's not a void of someone not being there for
Speaker 1: me now anymore. So if you're there now, you've got
Speaker 1: to be a net plus and I just I don't
Speaker 1: see a lot of that. So I'm like, if you're
Speaker 1: not here, I'm fine. What you mean by net plus?
Speaker 1: Break that down to me. That's some economic terms. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I know, I know, I know, but I just you know,
Speaker 1: like that there's obviously compromises. If I'm if I'm starting
Speaker 1: off fine without you, the compromise has to break in
Speaker 1: my favor for me to bring you on. I respect
Speaker 1: that you're gonna make my life better, Yeah, because otherwise,
Speaker 1: in a lot of cases, if you're used to having
Speaker 1: somebody or you want somebody or whatever, you only have
Speaker 1: to compromise enough to be happier than you just were,
Speaker 1: and you start off unhappy. I started off neutral at zero,
Speaker 1: so you've got a lot of ground to make up
Speaker 1: just to stay out of my way, right right, Yeah?
Speaker 1: Net plus? I like that guy, That's that's a good point. Um,
Speaker 1: I just don't understand that, Like, um, We had a
Speaker 1: conversation a couple of weeks ago about confronting a bully, right,
Speaker 1: and it's with the hunger Asia, she says, a sweet art.
Speaker 1: But if you really talk to women, like I said
Speaker 1: at the end of that podcast specifically, was like a
Speaker 1: relationship is you getting with a woman like a woman
Speaker 1: trying to find herself and you have to you have
Speaker 1: to hold the flashlight yet somehow be able to navigate
Speaker 1: your own space. Right, and somewhere I think people thought
Speaker 1: like that I don't like women, and it's like, no,
Speaker 1: what I'm saying is like, right, I will never see
Speaker 1: the true economic so most men, Right, it's fair to
Speaker 1: say that most men create an economic value for women,
Speaker 1: Like just like money, Like wherever nigga, Like if he
Speaker 1: ain't got no money, he's still feel good about it
Speaker 1: stuff because he got women. You know, I got all
Speaker 1: the women. Yeah, for sure, I got more bitches than
Speaker 1: Youah right, So that's really valuable. I've never seen the
Speaker 1: value in that. And I think that's the clarific case,
Speaker 1: Like I've never seen the value in having a lot
Speaker 1: of women. I used to think that was a thing
Speaker 1: growing up. When I see how certain when I didn't
Speaker 1: have like when I wasn't really having women in a sense,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I see like how my
Speaker 1: brother used to get down and you know, they be
Speaker 1: on him and all. I used to think that was
Speaker 1: a thing too. Then when you start dealing with women,
Speaker 1: you'd be like, yeah, that's not what it is, cracked up. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'd rather just like it's it's it's complicated to just
Speaker 1: deal with one. I definitely don't want a plethora of
Speaker 1: y'all at all. That's that's almost suicidal. I think so too.
Speaker 1: I'd rather have six because at that point they only
Speaker 1: need to be a sixth of a woman, absolutely, and
Speaker 1: then you put all six together and get one whole woman.
Speaker 1: Because I like my chances on any given day in
Speaker 1: the event that on any given day I want to
Speaker 1: spend time with a girl, I have a one in
Speaker 1: sixth chance of finding one that's not being a bit
Speaker 1: that day, and I'll take that. So for me, I think, uh,
Speaker 1: I like the sacrifice part of it. I like the
Speaker 1: discipline challenges of it. It kind of creates something for
Speaker 1: me to work at every day. Um, I'm being honest, like, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: that's a that's one of great perspective and way to
Speaker 1: look at it, and it's true, like as a human being,
Speaker 1: it's like um, when I like to take things away
Speaker 1: from myself, I like to truly figure out how far
Speaker 1: I can go without things straight up, like I enjoy that.
Speaker 1: I enjoy that, And I think that's why I relate
Speaker 1: to the story of Jesus and the Bible, because I'm
Speaker 1: like the discipline of it, the challenge of it. I mean,
Speaker 1: don't get me wrong, sometimes I can my whole life.
Speaker 1: I have felt horribly at times, but the times I'm
Speaker 1: able to really mash it out and become something great,
Speaker 1: like all the times I turned down threesomes, like I've
Speaker 1: turned down three some probably twenty times. I'm not exaggerating,
Speaker 1: and I and I and I genuinely want to threesome,
Speaker 1: but I don't want it, Like it's not something I need.
Speaker 1: So instead of getting something I want, I'd rather focus
Speaker 1: on things I need. I've turned down five six MS,
Speaker 1: six and five girls at once. My home girl tried
Speaker 1: to give it to me for my birthday, and I
Speaker 1: just was like, no one man should have all this power. Man.
Speaker 1: She let's sound like a royal rumble famine. Lover boy
Speaker 1: which is the truth A six them right, that's crazy.
Speaker 1: You didn't put it together though you didn't put you
Speaker 1: didn't say what he said. Yeah he called your lover boy?
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah right. Ain't that crazy? Now? I probably would
Speaker 1: never reference myself as that, but I would. I have
Speaker 1: to believe I'm a hopeless romantic, like no matter what
Speaker 1: I've been through, I always believed in love. You're turning
Speaker 1: down six and you're helpless for real because and it's
Speaker 1: part of it is because one day I planned, right,
Speaker 1: I knew I was gonna be in a position to
Speaker 1: get married, and I don't want to walk into a
Speaker 1: marriage thinking to myself, life damn, remember that time I
Speaker 1: was with I already got to do that from girls
Speaker 1: I knocked down, right, So if the girl I'm marrying
Speaker 1: doesn't have UM, she doesn't do this, and I remember
Speaker 1: this girl did this. It's already too many comparables. I
Speaker 1: think most of the time me and getting ship in
Speaker 1: relationships because they're dealing with somebody else and immediately they
Speaker 1: start comparing the woman they're dealing with and the woman
Speaker 1: that they're dealing with on the side. Now realizing the
Speaker 1: woman on the side is only like that because you're
Speaker 1: only dealing with her in parts. She's on the side,
Speaker 1: so you're only dealing with a certain side of her,
Speaker 1: as say the backup quarterbacks always the most popular guy
Speaker 1: on the team. There you go. It's like Macaronian's cheese
Speaker 1: is a fantastic dish, but it's on the side. Now,
Speaker 1: if you lead the meal with macaroni and cheese, you
Speaker 1: gotta add a lot of other ship to it. I'm
Speaker 1: just just sustain the whole meal, you feel me, And
Speaker 1: I think people don't look at it like that, Like
Speaker 1: you don't look at it like y'all like macaronia cheese
Speaker 1: is good because it's with steak, and I get it.
Speaker 1: Sometimes maybe you can look at the macaroni and cheese
Speaker 1: and be like this better than the steak. No, it's
Speaker 1: not my friend, which is crazy because a lot of
Speaker 1: women have pride themselves on being a side chick because
Speaker 1: they would be like you ever heard a bit a
Speaker 1: woman and it's a good yeah, but you know talk
Speaker 1: about like, well, he ain't lying to me because she
Speaker 1: decide yeah, or you have the main chick supposedly feel
Speaker 1: better because she's the main chick, and I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: but you on the side as well. You just have
Speaker 1: this way of looking at it because I feel like,
Speaker 1: if she's the side chick, then you're just on the
Speaker 1: other side that he may just spend a lot more
Speaker 1: time with. That's kind of like I would disagree with
Speaker 1: that in this sense. And it's also why I think
Speaker 1: that a man cheating and a women cheating is different.
Speaker 1: It is for this reason. If you're the main chick,
Speaker 1: you're a majority shareholder. If you're a side chick, you're
Speaker 1: a minority shareholder. You don't have an executive vote she
Speaker 1: so you have equity. When you're the main, you got
Speaker 1: the name, you got the title, you got the joint
Speaker 1: checking account, the property and all that other stuff. All
Speaker 1: you're there to do on the side is get the nut.
Speaker 1: Even if the main no, because you've got some women
Speaker 1: that's the main though, that's aware of the side, because
Speaker 1: the same same ship. And for all that. When when
Speaker 1: the main and the side bump into each other in
Speaker 1: the grocery store, it's much more viable for the main
Speaker 1: to look down her nose at the side because you
Speaker 1: ain't doing nothing but sucking, and she's spending with the
Speaker 1: joint checking account and the side she's not gonna look
Speaker 1: down her nose. Oh yeah, well I sucked your man
Speaker 1: dick last night. Yeah. Yeah, so at the end of
Speaker 1: the day, okay, yeah yeah, which at the end of day,
Speaker 1: all the ships. It sounds crazy, but that's that's some
Speaker 1: real ship can be. Yeah, like both of you bich
Speaker 1: is just similarly like if I'm if I'm with this
Speaker 1: girl and we're together and some guy goes and fox
Speaker 1: her on the side, he has compromised my parameters. He
Speaker 1: has that on me. I don't walk back and go
Speaker 1: oh yo when she came back to me afterwards. No,
Speaker 1: he that guy has something on me. Now that's true,
Speaker 1: that's true. But but by that same standard, don't you
Speaker 1: think that um men who like call themselves players that
Speaker 1: have twenty women, don't they have to be some kind
Speaker 1: of loverboy as well? Yeah? Like, think about you know
Speaker 1: the complications of women, right, you know how complicated women are.
Speaker 1: To be able to deal with twenty of them, you
Speaker 1: have to love women, like, you have to really really
Speaker 1: love women, right, because you know the challengehip Dylan just
Speaker 1: with one woman? Yeah, And I guess it depends on
Speaker 1: the I don't know how to deal with them. So
Speaker 1: the fact that you would in the game exactly. But
Speaker 1: but what's what's unloving? Like what's unloving about having six women?
Speaker 1: When I had a bunch of women back in there
Speaker 1: for years, they were all right here, arms reached, no closer,
Speaker 1: no further. So it's different in that regard. It was
Speaker 1: just a matter of it was stupid and out of
Speaker 1: hand because I'd be like, at the time, I had
Speaker 1: a job, I'd been working, all right, I gotta go
Speaker 1: do my female correspondence real quick, and I would just
Speaker 1: go through and and like if it wasn't for text
Speaker 1: message logs, i'd forget some of them. I just would
Speaker 1: go down til I got to the last one. How's
Speaker 1: it going, how's it going to the start conversations with
Speaker 1: keep it up? Or you're doing later this week? Whoever
Speaker 1: it's free Thursdays, free Thursday. Rose Stay said, whatever, however
Speaker 1: the hell shook out and shook out, But yes, it was.
Speaker 1: It's it's cool to do superficial personality interaction and stuff
Speaker 1: all the time. One of them fall off, another one
Speaker 1: jump on. But the investment levels very low, so you
Speaker 1: you could be a lover boy whether you got multiple
Speaker 1: or just one. Yeah, right, Like, what's funny is right,
Speaker 1: um my boy, pun right pun with text like he
Speaker 1: was like, yeah, gee, I got a strategy. Like his
Speaker 1: strategy to get laid every night was so he would
Speaker 1: meet all these girls, right, and he would lock in
Speaker 1: their phone numbers, right, get their numbers. Every day he
Speaker 1: would send a mass text message before you knew it
Speaker 1: was a mass text message, would be like, good morning, beautiful,
Speaker 1: and start the conversation, so the message might go out
Speaker 1: to fifty girls. Right. Respond he he talks to all
Speaker 1: five that twenty five falls into ten. He still conversated
Speaker 1: with the ten, that conversation falls into five. Yeah, if
Speaker 1: we ever had a nine five sales job before, it's
Speaker 1: the exact same principle that cold sales used on a
Speaker 1: book of business number ratios. I'd rather buy some pussy
Speaker 1: before I do that. You rather purchase pussy? That's that.
Speaker 1: That was what I have been talking about lately, before
Speaker 1: I do with that, with that just happened text in women,
Speaker 1: but on a mass text just all through all that,
Speaker 1: I'd rather that's like, because the only I'm not doing that,
Speaker 1: I'd rather buy the pussy if it Because you said
Speaker 1: his his main reason was to get laid. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, So we're doing all that just to
Speaker 1: get laid every night? Yeah, yeah, I don't want to
Speaker 1: funk every night either, So you know, that's just a
Speaker 1: different type of niggame. I think at some point it
Speaker 1: becomes a real question like depending on what you want
Speaker 1: to do, what level of companions if you want? Yeah
Speaker 1: that too. Like my take on paying for it at
Speaker 1: this point, I'm kind of like, I want to buy
Speaker 1: my time back. I think my time is worth more
Speaker 1: than hers. So rather than you know, spending ten hours
Speaker 1: of it or something for free, let me just spend whatever.
Speaker 1: And that's what I mean by buying the pussy, like
Speaker 1: it's the it's the time thing. As a kid, I
Speaker 1: used to be like, trick, this trick, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, because I grew up around niggers who claimed that,
Speaker 1: you know, they said they was players and they're like,
Speaker 1: we don't do this. But when you get older, you
Speaker 1: kind of have a different perspective on it, like why
Speaker 1: a motherfucker would do it? You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: It ain't it's it's not because he can't get no pussy. Honestly,
Speaker 1: I think if somebody was married, I would respect a
Speaker 1: man at pay to cheat on his wife then to
Speaker 1: start a whole another relationship. I agree with the fact.
Speaker 1: I agree because once again you're doing something to where
Speaker 1: like you know, that ship gonna stay over there. It
Speaker 1: seems as crazy as it sounds, it's it's safer, it seems,
Speaker 1: it seems to be safe, more respectful to you know,
Speaker 1: it's more respectful to your wife, as disrespectful as it
Speaker 1: could be taken. But yeah, definitely do that way because
Speaker 1: now you eliminating the emotion. You're eliminating the time, you
Speaker 1: eliminating all this the lies. You know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Cause a lot of niggas be lying into the side
Speaker 1: bitch too, like niggas to tell the side bitch, I
Speaker 1: don't have a word for you next week. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: leaving leaving for you next week. Yeah. That and to me,
Speaker 1: that's some ultimate sucking ship big time I've heard that.
Speaker 1: I know, particularly people who do that, like you leave
Speaker 1: for the side like that's some sucking ship. Especially, it's
Speaker 1: just some sucking ship. Yeah, I would never like leave
Speaker 1: my woman because I like another woman. It's nine times
Speaker 1: out of ten, I'm not gonna like that bitch. Eventually,
Speaker 1: I mean, well, and I'm assuming of course, but for sure,
Speaker 1: I mean, but but you don't never say that, because
Speaker 1: I don't think they ever thought that neither. See. One
Speaker 1: thing I've realized is you don't understand what other people
Speaker 1: are doing till you be in their shoes, like and
Speaker 1: I can't say for myself, I'm like, I got you,
Speaker 1: I got But one thing I've learned is like, why
Speaker 1: people do this ship they do. It's a lot, it's
Speaker 1: it's a lot of times that come with it. But
Speaker 1: but I agree, like, like you're saying, like it's weird
Speaker 1: to me, no matter what I've been through with women,
Speaker 1: you feel me, no matter challenges and all of that.
Speaker 1: I've always believe that I was gonna get married. I
Speaker 1: always believe that it was gonna happen for me, no
Speaker 1: matter the shortcoming. So I guess in theory that does
Speaker 1: make because I don't think I'm a romantic at all,
Speaker 1: like not not in the not in the book fashion
Speaker 1: of like rose petals on the ground and I'm not either.
Speaker 1: I'm like, um, I don't mind it. It's just don't.
Speaker 1: It's don't. It's not a part of me to where
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't like traditionalist. Though that's crazy that
Speaker 1: I'm not really a fan of. You know what, I'm
Speaker 1: a fan of booty shorts, wife beater with no bra.
Speaker 1: You can have a minding on it if you want to.
Speaker 1: I don't give a funk. I like that regular ship.
Speaker 1: I like naked, you know what I'm saying, and that too,
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying like it's just like as far
Speaker 1: as like something trying to wear something sexy like a
Speaker 1: wife beat, there is some panties or whatever the thows
Speaker 1: you know. To me, that ship is sexy like naked.
Speaker 1: It is like thousand times better than lines ofate for me,
Speaker 1: especially when you're gonna become naked. I mean, even if
Speaker 1: I'm not like, naked is the ultimate for me, that
Speaker 1: is the greatest thing in the world. Like I was
Speaker 1: telling somebody, I was trying to explain it, I'm like,
Speaker 1: women right now are using makeup to create beauty. They
Speaker 1: really feel like makeup is They really feel like beauty
Speaker 1: is in the makeup pack. And I'm like, no, Like,
Speaker 1: your essence is beautiful and then makeup enhances your strongest points.
Speaker 1: This is in the nineteen eighties. What are you talking about? Right?
Speaker 1: That's really the truth, right, But now you got women
Speaker 1: going back to the Elizabethan days and trying to create
Speaker 1: a whole face a costume like a muff so it
Speaker 1: looked like a little Richard. It would be like the
Speaker 1: equivalent of like if you were a painter, you would
Speaker 1: paint white over something you wouldn't like and then paint
Speaker 1: your painting over that. On a campus, girls, it's like
Speaker 1: I don't like this face, I'll put so much foundation
Speaker 1: over that. I can then put on the shadings and
Speaker 1: accessories and whatever else over the foundation that is, and
Speaker 1: then motherfucker's liking like Mr potato Head, they'd be looking
Speaker 1: and be looking crazy sometimes, you know. And what's weird
Speaker 1: to me is the beauty standard that's set today is
Speaker 1: so unrealistic, you know what I'm saying. And I just
Speaker 1: need to know, like I need to ask them because
Speaker 1: this this's been bothering me, right, and it's fucked up.
Speaker 1: I mean, it's it's really messed up. You mean, get
Speaker 1: mad if you even you have an opinion about it.
Speaker 1: I can't tell them ship I've seen this lady. I
Speaker 1: was sixty years old and she had a body of
Speaker 1: a seven year old, and she thought that was hot,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, yo, nothing is hot about a sixty
Speaker 1: ye old with a twenty seven year old body. When
Speaker 1: you say twenty seven year old body, you literally mean
Speaker 1: she went, she she she put it together. But Dr
Speaker 1: Miami pieced that thing together, fem me like a convertible. Yeah,
Speaker 1: she went and bought it. That ain't fly. I gotta.
Speaker 1: I don't say it's a theory, but like, based on
Speaker 1: enough direct observation and conversation I've had on this topic
Speaker 1: to where I got a little bit of a sample study,
Speaker 1: I get the sense that to some degree there is
Speaker 1: It's not true. Women always say women dress up for
Speaker 1: other women. That's half true in the in the context
Speaker 1: and to the extent that they do dress up for
Speaker 1: other women, it looks like nowadays, like what guys would
Speaker 1: do back. You know, twenty years ago, we put a
Speaker 1: chameleon paying on the car with spinners and custom every
Speaker 1: goddamn thing on the car because you're stunting what you
Speaker 1: got on your car. Girls, now, if you don't have
Speaker 1: demonstrafully spent a thousand dollars on yourself when you walk outside,
Speaker 1: it looks like you are lacking. And I I stand
Speaker 1: by women do it for women. Some people are doing
Speaker 1: for the looks. Either do it to show that they
Speaker 1: have all the money, but was where it is right?
Speaker 1: They don't know that right? And I'm wondering, is there
Speaker 1: a guy saying like, I don't know a guy who said, man,
Speaker 1: I love weaves. Don't get me wrong. I know guys
Speaker 1: who have accepted weaves. You can talk about a woman
Speaker 1: being beautiful, right, I know a woman. I know men
Speaker 1: who like like like me, I'll accept whatever you are
Speaker 1: and I'll find the beauty in it, right. But I
Speaker 1: don't know a man that's ever was like, g man,
Speaker 1: you know what I really what I really love is
Speaker 1: when them girls got weaves. Man, when she got a weve,
Speaker 1: she the best looking thing ever. And or a girl.
Speaker 1: I remember a girl telling me like her man wanted
Speaker 1: her to wear makeup. And I'm like, if yo, nigga
Speaker 1: told you to wear makeup, you don't like that, nigga,
Speaker 1: thank you ugly? Yeah, y'all would assume so, because why
Speaker 1: would you. I used to tell you're gonna tell your
Speaker 1: girl not to wear makeup and you don't need that.
Speaker 1: One day I told her not to cut you off.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, bro, I said, you look like, and I
Speaker 1: know it hurt her feelings, but I was like, hey,
Speaker 1: you got too much of that own like you look
Speaker 1: like a corpse. Yeah that's true. Like you're doing to
Speaker 1: you don't need it. And and if you need, let's
Speaker 1: figure out another way to. If you if you were
Speaker 1: insecure about whatever it is, these blemishes or whatever the
Speaker 1: case may be, let's address that with some other ship.
Speaker 1: Especially when I do believe it's some holistic type of
Speaker 1: ways you you can kind of attack that totally. But
Speaker 1: you know, she she was where she was at, and
Speaker 1: you know she wasn't. I just don't know. If there's
Speaker 1: a man out there telling his old lady you need
Speaker 1: to wear make up, we need to put him in
Speaker 1: front of a fine squad if the podcast like, I've
Speaker 1: never I've never met a man that told a woman, man,
Speaker 1: you see her nail. None of my homeboys we were
Speaker 1: somewhere and my homeboys said, and I'm trying to funk
Speaker 1: with her, you see her nails. I've never met a
Speaker 1: man that was like I heard a guy say, oh, man, bro,
Speaker 1: I could never ever with that with her. Did you
Speaker 1: see she got regular naturalist eyelashes like that, I would
Speaker 1: never like you no, hell no, I never seen none
Speaker 1: of my homeboys ever. Was like, look you see her eyelashes.
Speaker 1: I tell you, I'm trying. I'm trying to hit that.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, so my thing becomes just like so,
Speaker 1: if there's men out there telling women like, yo, you
Speaker 1: need to wear makeup, that's the wrong nigga. I say
Speaker 1: this much. Now you're gonna tell the motherfucker to change
Speaker 1: your face for sure. I was saying that I was
Speaker 1: at the tables with like four other girls in me,
Speaker 1: and I was having some variation of this conversation, and
Speaker 1: I'm like, no guy likes all that ship you do
Speaker 1: zero and this girl, to her credit, they all lined
Speaker 1: up against me. That's predicted. And I just was not
Speaker 1: in a position to to pull punches then, and I
Speaker 1: dropped a nuclear bomb on the table. She goes, oh, yeah,
Speaker 1: but I bet when you're out in the club, you
Speaker 1: go after the girl with all the weave and all
Speaker 1: the nails and all the makeup. And I said, you're right,
Speaker 1: I do. And do you know why? Because she looks
Speaker 1: the best? I go, no, because that bitch looks like
Speaker 1: easy pussy with no father. That's why I go after Wow, Hey, ladies,
Speaker 1: and he's being honest. Christ And that's exactly what the
Speaker 1: funk I said, and the oxygen ran out of the
Speaker 1: room in sneakers. I'm not gonna lie. If a girl
Speaker 1: is wearing weaves, her nails is kind of long, she
Speaker 1: got them fake lashes, she definitely is easy. I would think, yeah,
Speaker 1: she's gonna be easier. She's probably gonna be the easiest
Speaker 1: thing here. I mean, just because if begging for me
Speaker 1: to look at you, and that's what I hate to
Speaker 1: when they beg for the attention, to tell you they
Speaker 1: don't need your attention, they don't want your attention. Why
Speaker 1: you here? Did we went through this? And I don't
Speaker 1: want to. I don't. But the tiny shorts of the
Speaker 1: sports Romanian left in the middle of the place speaking
Speaker 1: of Jim You like, they got these new pants chants. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and you even got the girls who ain't got the
Speaker 1: ass cheeks wearing them too. But yeah, it's these pasts
Speaker 1: that they in the gym wearing bro where it looks
Speaker 1: like it's damn They're like it's almost like your ass
Speaker 1: out just gotta print on them. Like I'm like, they
Speaker 1: really in here with this ship you're in and you're
Speaker 1: being a real nigger in there, you like, they really
Speaker 1: in here with something like that on Sunday and they
Speaker 1: act like they're not in there for the attention. I
Speaker 1: mean they may be in the workout. No, no, are
Speaker 1: there You're you're definitely in there to work out. I'm
Speaker 1: not saying that some of them be getting it in.
Speaker 1: But what killed me is why do you do what
Speaker 1: killed me? Is right? And why do you do all
Speaker 1: this to get all the attention and then get mad
Speaker 1: at the attention your requested? Like if you're going for sexy,
Speaker 1: somebody's going to offer you sex attention? What goal is
Speaker 1: for them to be like, see, I'm getting all this
Speaker 1: attention without trying, So then when the attention comes to them,
Speaker 1: they have to shoot it down to maintain the facade
Speaker 1: that they're not trying to solicit attention. And you know
Speaker 1: what's crazy. Have you ever heard a woman say, excuse me, dang?
Speaker 1: When I get dressed up in all this, guys don't
Speaker 1: even be hollering. But when I go to the grocery
Speaker 1: store and I look busted, busted meaning maybe a bond
Speaker 1: it on, maybe in some slippers, sweats with a green
Speaker 1: green with a green sting, it's not wearing makeup and yeah,
Speaker 1: and he means yeah, and he owned the real you. Yeah.
Speaker 1: And some of them don't even comprehend that that guy
Speaker 1: might treat you right, he may even call you back.
Speaker 1: I always say that that, Um, if you want to
Speaker 1: attract that kind of guy, right, you should do things
Speaker 1: that screen wife, like fucking don't scream wife. No, it
Speaker 1: doesn't sexy. Don't scream wife, screamed sex. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I don't think. I don't want to get
Speaker 1: too far away from what we was at though, because
Speaker 1: we're going to this ship all day. I just was thinking,
Speaker 1: like what so then at that point, what is a loverboy?
Speaker 1: Pete Um? I think a lover boy, in my opinion
Speaker 1: and definition, is somebody that's just very much love and
Speaker 1: companionship oriented. And I've had some friend is like that
Speaker 1: that take their relationship very very seriously. They need that time,
Speaker 1: they need that support, they need the that they need
Speaker 1: another party there all the time. It's like, I don't
Speaker 1: want to say it's dependent, but it's like it's it's
Speaker 1: it's integral, and there's nothing wrong with that's probably that's
Speaker 1: that's the typically, that's that's the typical human experience, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, that's like the default human experience.
Speaker 1: I think a lot of people try to act like
Speaker 1: they're above average, and I'm not susceptible to those types
Speaker 1: of feelings and needs blah blah blah. But I just
Speaker 1: think that the lover boy is somebody who in all
Speaker 1: honesty behind clothes, like when everybody goes home by themselves
Speaker 1: and look at themselves in the bathroom, or the lover
Speaker 1: boys probably the most honest man with himself. There's a
Speaker 1: very good chance that beats Yeah. Yeah, so you wouldn't
Speaker 1: a lover boy because listen, listen, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I understand why. I get it. I am. I just
Speaker 1: don't like how it's down, bro, And there might be
Speaker 1: something and if that's bullshit whatever, but it just don't
Speaker 1: like lover boy. Just I would never, like you said,
Speaker 1: I would never reference myself that. But since we're talking
Speaker 1: about what a lover boy is and me being someone
Speaker 1: who loves love, who who who enjoys being in a
Speaker 1: relationship for the most part, you know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: like companionship, you know, like I've always like when I
Speaker 1: was a kid, I used to I used to be.
Speaker 1: I can't wait till I get a girlfriend like so
Speaker 1: technically I will be that. I just don't like to
Speaker 1: turn my question. How old would you have your first girlfriend?
Speaker 1: My first real girlfriend? Uh? Ship they got out of
Speaker 1: high school. I consider my baby mama my first real
Speaker 1: girlfriend high school, in middle school and ship like that.
Speaker 1: I don't know, you know what I mean when you
Speaker 1: buy yourself Definitely, like you know, she wasn't my real girlfriend.
Speaker 1: She did me dirty though she heard my feelings. Definitely
Speaker 1: was motion investor. She dumped me. Nigger? Why no one time? Okay,
Speaker 1: I'll tell you a real story. I'm tell you what.
Speaker 1: Don't lie anither and don't try to make yourself look better?
Speaker 1: Keep it a buck? What about why she I'm saying,
Speaker 1: whatever the story is, why would I lie? Why would I?
Speaker 1: Because historically, because now I'm beyond these nig nig I'm
Speaker 1: for to tell you what she did that hurt my feelings.
Speaker 1: Let me get on these niggas. Let me get on
Speaker 1: the niggas because what what what niggas are doing is
Speaker 1: niggas are doud ship to try to make themselves look better. Nigga. No,
Speaker 1: I'm frenna tell you hurt. My feelings haven't being hurt.
Speaker 1: I'd have been cheating. No no, no, not not not not. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you the story, because all right, I'm
Speaker 1: walking out of class. When I used to go to
Speaker 1: John Muir, Right, I'm walking out of class. One time,
Speaker 1: I was that's that's Junior high Junior Hi, John Mayr,
Speaker 1: Yeah that's where is that that? Uh? In Los Angeles
Speaker 1: sixty in Vermont six in Vermont, Yeah, not the John Mr.
Speaker 1: In Pasadena. So one day I'm walking out of I
Speaker 1: think it's English class, and you know, me and her
Speaker 1: just start going out and she was with this other
Speaker 1: popular girl, right, and girl, when I walked out, she
Speaker 1: the home girl seen me. And when she was with
Speaker 1: her home with the girl that I thought I was
Speaker 1: with that I considered my girlfriend. She said, girl, I
Speaker 1: go your boyfriend. And she was like that ain't my
Speaker 1: motherfucking boyfriend? Like you know what I'm saying. And I
Speaker 1: heard it, but act like I didn't hear it because
Speaker 1: I was embarrassed that she said that about me, even
Speaker 1: though I thought this was what it was, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So yeah, that that that fucking it
Speaker 1: up true story. Like and I still continue that I
Speaker 1: gotn't hear it and want to funk with her though,
Speaker 1: Like even though no junior high, you know out, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I tugged it out with my baby mama. I'm saying,
Speaker 1: but I'm saying that she was doing bullshit like this
Speaker 1: that early any relationship, you ain't thet you thugging it out.
Speaker 1: I mean I'm saying, I'm saying, if it's if you've
Speaker 1: been talking to the sign Laddie says junior high and
Speaker 1: she was on some bullshit and and then you still
Speaker 1: at the high school. That's different versus no, no, this
Speaker 1: was just some junior high fleeing ship. Wasn't really that's said.
Speaker 1: I didn't really consider it a real relationship, but I
Speaker 1: was emotionally invested. You know what I'm saying. I really
Speaker 1: really liked this girl, and she was like a girl
Speaker 1: that a lot of niggas liked. And I was kind
Speaker 1: of surprised she you know what, Yeah, yeah, because I
Speaker 1: was insecure. Yeah I was insecure. So um yeah she
Speaker 1: was secret in words for sure or not even secret.
Speaker 1: Didn't take me serious or some school ship. But the
Speaker 1: funny part is when I came to school the next year,
Speaker 1: she wrote me a letter and tried to get back
Speaker 1: with me, but I bought it up probably like a
Speaker 1: whole year later. Yeah, like grudge, Yeah yeah, because of
Speaker 1: my my pride. It was my ego, like there's no
Speaker 1: way you did me the way you did me, because
Speaker 1: she sent there a little fat home girl to come
Speaker 1: tell me she didn't want to go out with me
Speaker 1: no more. While I was playing on the basketball court
Speaker 1: and I was crushed right, and I just and I
Speaker 1: just looked at her. I just looked at her like
Speaker 1: for sure, like I didn't give a funk, but nigger,
Speaker 1: I definitely gave a funk. This was around the time
Speaker 1: where I was when the Bee came out, Because that's
Speaker 1: why every time that song come on, I think of
Speaker 1: this girl. Damn, that's crazy when these songs attached. What's
Speaker 1: the worst experience you ever had trying to be in love? Pete?
Speaker 1: What's the worst experiences trying to be trying to be
Speaker 1: in I'm gonna come back to you. I listened to
Speaker 1: go into that though. Why not? This is the this
Speaker 1: is the biggest share our shared with niggas. Man, you
Speaker 1: shared with your brothers. I mean, I'll tell you all
Speaker 1: my worst story. I don't mind my worst story terrible,
Speaker 1: um not, like there was this one. I don't even
Speaker 1: know why. I think it was like I was far
Speaker 1: enough removed from the last relationship I was in to
Speaker 1: not really think. It was like a situation where I
Speaker 1: was trying to like phil a void or bounce back
Speaker 1: from that or whatever. But it was a couple of
Speaker 1: years later and I met this girl and I liked
Speaker 1: her a lot. But you know, at the time, I
Speaker 1: had a lot of girls. So I moved to Miami
Speaker 1: for a minute for a job. It didn't really work.
Speaker 1: I was there for a few months. I was like,
Speaker 1: it's just isn't what they sold me on, So I'm
Speaker 1: gonna get out of here before it gets worse. But
Speaker 1: when I was down there, I was like, this is funny.
Speaker 1: It's the only time I've wondered what the girl's doing
Speaker 1: since my ex. So I kind of got like hung
Speaker 1: up on this. Say. We were cool. We spent a
Speaker 1: lot of time together and whatnot, and she ended up
Speaker 1: I maintained it this day it was a misunderstanding because
Speaker 1: I would like crashing her spot on the weekends and stuff,
Speaker 1: and I was like moving from because I just come
Speaker 1: back from Florence. I was moving my ship out of
Speaker 1: storage into the apartment one day and I'm like, you know,
Speaker 1: you move in at the start of a month. You
Speaker 1: tend to move out at the end of a month.
Speaker 1: So I'm like, I'll grab the U haul for an
Speaker 1: extra day, I'll move you out, and then I'll just
Speaker 1: keep it and move myself in. I didn't move into
Speaker 1: her place, but I moved all her ship out. And
Speaker 1: then I'm like, where am I supposed hat the ship?
Speaker 1: She's all to your place. I'm like, okay, so I
Speaker 1: take it there and I'm not thinking that it's gonna
Speaker 1: stay there. And then she gets a little where are
Speaker 1: we're going with this? She's all here, I'm like, you're
Speaker 1: trying to stay here. I was like, all right, quite
Speaker 1: know you like me like that, so whatever, And that
Speaker 1: just it turned into a situation where it was so
Speaker 1: bad because I think she'll lie all damn day long.
Speaker 1: I could call her right now and ask her what
Speaker 1: the hell is going on with it, and depending on
Speaker 1: what Dad asked her, I'm gonna get different answer. Bottom
Speaker 1: line is she wasn't wanting me like I was wanting her,
Speaker 1: and she was. She didn't want you like you wanted her,
Speaker 1: like like the Jake song, like what like the j
Speaker 1: Cole song I want You to Want Me? Yeah, it
Speaker 1: was like all the songs. There's a lot of hold up, alright,
Speaker 1: hold up, hold up, hold up, because you know you
Speaker 1: didn't say that this old time, but I'm with you.
Speaker 1: I kind of picked up what you were saying. So
Speaker 1: somebody that kind of forced you into a situation not
Speaker 1: wors you. But no, I didn't get forced into it.
Speaker 1: Like I wasn't expecting that to happen in that time frame.
Speaker 1: I didn't have any complaints, Like I wanted to be
Speaker 1: with the girl that time. I didn't expect her to
Speaker 1: be moving in that What how that played out incinerated
Speaker 1: the situation badly because she was being with other dudes
Speaker 1: a lot. I was being with other girls a lot.
Speaker 1: She wasn't trying to be with me, and I really
Speaker 1: wanted to be with her. So that kind of a
Speaker 1: situation in close proximity of living together is going to explode.
Speaker 1: And that's what it did, all right. So Joe, I
Speaker 1: got a twist for you because I feel like, what's
Speaker 1: the worst thing you ever did to a girl I
Speaker 1: was in love with? You see you love love. Have
Speaker 1: you ever did something fucked up and crappy or somebody
Speaker 1: else that thought you did something. What's funny is before
Speaker 1: I say that, right last night, that was playing as
Speaker 1: Lauren Hill song X Factor, and it's a partner song
Speaker 1: where she says, no, that's ships some bullshit, No that ship,
Speaker 1: fuck that song and fuck her. I'm gonna tell you
Speaker 1: why X Factor. It's a partner song where this motherfucker says,
Speaker 1: ain't nobody gonna look? What's the part of the damn song?
Speaker 1: Ain't nobody on the I love you? I know I
Speaker 1: tweeted it. What's the what's the what's the fucking line
Speaker 1: of the fucking song? I have a lifetime band from Twitter,
Speaker 1: so I I don't know what real lifetime? He got
Speaker 1: a life? What's the fucking line of the song? That's hilarious,
Speaker 1: my cousins to act this way. She's singing this ship
Speaker 1: and I used to really like that song because I
Speaker 1: used to be like many song is so dupe because
Speaker 1: I felt the pain. And then there's a particular partner
Speaker 1: song that made me realize why that nigga wasn't sucking
Speaker 1: with her? No one loves you more than me, and
Speaker 1: no one ever wins singing glasses. Use a motherfucking lie.
Speaker 1: It's a motherfucker that's gonna love me way more. How
Speaker 1: are you gonna tell someone they never would love you.
Speaker 1: Imagine a man telling somebody that more than me, you know,
Speaker 1: you know they call that, they call that emotional abuse
Speaker 1: when like a man tell a woman at nobody gonna
Speaker 1: want you, ain't nobody gonna want you? But then she
Speaker 1: gets on the radio that that's raggedy. If you ever
Speaker 1: told a woman, if you ever ever toldn't want no
Speaker 1: one to go want you? No, I just I probably
Speaker 1: say you're gonna have a hard time though with you know,
Speaker 1: with this ship you are eventually, if this ship don't
Speaker 1: work out, you're gonna have a hard time with this
Speaker 1: type attitude. You're gonna have to change that. And it's true,
Speaker 1: like I can't tell you no one gonna want you
Speaker 1: because that would be a lie. But how is she
Speaker 1: gonna say, no one loves you more than me? My
Speaker 1: mama had me, And that's why her asked is that's
Speaker 1: why she's on that bullshit. That's why whoever that man is,
Speaker 1: it might have been white Cliff. That's why they wasn't
Speaker 1: working with her. How do you think that is some
Speaker 1: funked up ship to say to somebody, no one loves
Speaker 1: you more than me. How do you know how the
Speaker 1: next motherfucker loved me? And That's what I'm telling you.
Speaker 1: Love fucks you up and you just start saying all
Speaker 1: kind of bullshit. Yeah, feel me, you just start saying bullshit.
Speaker 1: I dated a girl one time, right, and this girl
Speaker 1: was super duper like head over heels from me. She
Speaker 1: was head over heels from me, and I really liked her.
Speaker 1: Feel Me used to call her Boston. I used to
Speaker 1: like her. Head used to always joke. Head was like, Man,
Speaker 1: I'm telling you this girl right here, Man, I'm telling you, jeep, Boston,
Speaker 1: this is the one because she is from Boston, and
Speaker 1: I would be like, okay, Um, I liked her, but
Speaker 1: I think I had broke up with a girl that
Speaker 1: I was with the longest, like my first real, a
Speaker 1: real relationship, and so I was like, really in a
Speaker 1: messed up place. So I really wasn't trying to commit
Speaker 1: to one girl. But I did like this girl and
Speaker 1: she kept pushing on the relationship, and um I started
Speaker 1: dating her anyway, and I started being with her anyway,
Speaker 1: But it was never I was never in a good
Speaker 1: space to where I felt like I was focused on her,
Speaker 1: like I would give her my attention, but like I
Speaker 1: was still looking at other girls. I think what it
Speaker 1: was was, I think me and used women to heal, right,
Speaker 1: because we used women for celebration. Me and used women
Speaker 1: like people use alcohol for every aspect of life, celebration,
Speaker 1: ship bad, you're gonna with some pussy, right. So I
Speaker 1: was going through so much at that time that I
Speaker 1: was using women. This one I liked, but I wasn't
Speaker 1: mentally clear enough to focus on her. But I liked her,
Speaker 1: and eventually I just started feeling really really really really bad,
Speaker 1: really bad what I'm saying, like damn, Like she really
Speaker 1: funk with me, and I'm dogging her even if she
Speaker 1: don't know. She didn't know, like I wasn't mistreating now,
Speaker 1: she wouldn't come to the house finding condoms. She wasn't.
Speaker 1: It wasn't noneing. I just knew inside that what she
Speaker 1: wanted for me I wasn't. I couldn't at that time,
Speaker 1: or I believe genuinely it wasn't there to give. It
Speaker 1: took a long time for me to heal after that situation, right,
Speaker 1: not that one, but the first situation that messed me
Speaker 1: up and I had, I had like so I just
Speaker 1: start feeling so bad about myself, bro, Like so bad
Speaker 1: about myself, Like, damn, you just dogging his mother. You're
Speaker 1: sucking all these bras and this one right here for me.
Speaker 1: You know what she's getting from. You told her you're
Speaker 1: gonna be with her, and you can't even do the
Speaker 1: right ship. And I finally got up enough nerves. I
Speaker 1: was trying not to talk to her, so I tried
Speaker 1: to do the like back door like let me not,
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna gooster and she would call me and
Speaker 1: I would not answer the phone, and she just started
Speaker 1: putting so much pressure on me about it right and
Speaker 1: tripping right. So I finally like I worked, I woke.
Speaker 1: I worked up enough nerves to tell her like, look,
Speaker 1: I can't be with you. And I did it on
Speaker 1: her birthday at her party. WHOA, that's how much longer
Speaker 1: I couldn't look at myself in the mirror, Like she
Speaker 1: was like, you need to be in my party. You
Speaker 1: don't be at my party? Feel me? Like she was
Speaker 1: just talking crazy, and I was like, yeah, ILL need
Speaker 1: to really in this because I'm not treating her right.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. That's really how I felt
Speaker 1: like I'm not treating her right. And I go to
Speaker 1: she has it at the uh what's the spot cousin
Speaker 1: Hollywood where they ride the bull, Oh, Sadur Ranch, because
Speaker 1: you have it at the satur Ranch or Sunset. So
Speaker 1: I'm like cool. So I go to the Saturn Ranch
Speaker 1: and I got head with me because and somebody else,
Speaker 1: and she's like, I'm so glad you came. And I'm like, look,
Speaker 1: I really came here. I'm I'm in a really fucked
Speaker 1: up place. I can't be with you, like I'm not
Speaker 1: doing the right things by you, and I don't want
Speaker 1: to mistreat you. She was like, I don't care what
Speaker 1: you're going through. I want to be with you. I
Speaker 1: don't care if it's girls. I said, no, I can't
Speaker 1: do it, like I can't look at myself. And when
Speaker 1: I tell you I left it, she was crying. As
Speaker 1: good as I felt. To be honest, it probably was
Speaker 1: one of the worst things I ever done. Like, and
Speaker 1: that type of dilemma dog was like next level and
Speaker 1: that would definitely make a nigger a lover boy for real. Yeah,
Speaker 1: because I hadn't been in situations where I felt like
Speaker 1: this ship funny because the whole lover board thing, you know,
Speaker 1: it's hilarious funny how you started conversation. You're like, I
Speaker 1: ain't know, I still don't. You still don't like me
Speaker 1: here because you out a lover boy. No, that's not genuinely.
Speaker 1: I would consider myself a lot closer to a lover
Speaker 1: boy than most people. Yeah. Yeah, but no, I've been
Speaker 1: in situations where I felt like I love the woman
Speaker 1: more than I love myself. Your sacrifice a whole lot
Speaker 1: of ship, and you would disrespect yourself almost as far
Speaker 1: as like not being honest with yourself and speaking on
Speaker 1: certain things. Yeah, it's where you like because you're trying
Speaker 1: to cater to them. They feeling you feel me with
Speaker 1: someone because you feel like you're doing them aft it
Speaker 1: get weird, bro, you know what I'm saying. It gets
Speaker 1: real weird. So I mean, yeah, that's one of those
Speaker 1: things were like Nolladays, men and women want like equal
Speaker 1: roles and shares and relationships and stuff like that, and
Speaker 1: like that's the real thing. I mean, like, if you
Speaker 1: think about the reality of the evolution of a species.
Speaker 1: If the woman dies carrying offspring or with young offspring,
Speaker 1: the offspring are going to die. It is evolutionary in
Speaker 1: our DNA to protect the woman and the offspring to
Speaker 1: our own detriment for the survivalship of the species. That's
Speaker 1: true across mammals. I agree, we are mammals. So back
Speaker 1: to that point, it threw me off, like something that
Speaker 1: I felt like was super super super um like I
Speaker 1: thought I was being righteous turned out to be the
Speaker 1: worst thing I've ever done. I ain't that crazy, and
Speaker 1: I really love the girl. Wait, so what the worst
Speaker 1: thing is because of the timing, No, just the fact
Speaker 1: that she was hurt by it, she was devastated. The
Speaker 1: damage that you caused her by honest would have been
Speaker 1: worse than the damage we would have caused her. Continue
Speaker 1: to damage yourself, because so that's what I feel like.
Speaker 1: That's but that's why I feel like that's the perfect
Speaker 1: time to become selfish. That's why I think sometimes being
Speaker 1: selfish can be a game. It could be a plus
Speaker 1: because you had to do that for you, even though
Speaker 1: you still felt the way about it, but you needed
Speaker 1: to get that you lifted something off. But at the
Speaker 1: same time, you still walked away carrying and now like
Speaker 1: so I will see her. I would see her like
Speaker 1: maybe a couple of years after, right, and she just
Speaker 1: was devastated. She was never the same, like you know
Speaker 1: what I mean to the point like she was never
Speaker 1: and I think that's something I carry with me. And
Speaker 1: I was like, yo, I never do that again, or
Speaker 1: do no ship like like I'm not fucking nobody because
Speaker 1: I'm not fucking nobody that I'm not going to be with.
Speaker 1: That's that day. I actually never thought about it, but
Speaker 1: that day changed my life. Are we wrong for fucking
Speaker 1: people that we know we're not gonna be with you?
Speaker 1: I mean, even if you don't lie, That's what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Even if you don't lie, you know what, This a
Speaker 1: woman a lot. Listen, let me tell you, because nigga's
Speaker 1: are nutting a bit and still act like, well I
Speaker 1: never told her I wanted to be with her. This
Speaker 1: this is the thing she think you gonna want to
Speaker 1: be with and when you do that, well, this is
Speaker 1: the thing, right, this is the thing. So when you
Speaker 1: really put it together, women feel like they can change
Speaker 1: you facts, right, so they might funk with you even
Speaker 1: though you ruugh around the edges because they genuinely believe
Speaker 1: they could change you. Yeah, there's a conflict inherently between
Speaker 1: integrity and all's fair and love and war, so to speak,
Speaker 1: Like if women believe blank, or women all lie about blank,
Speaker 1: or the lot of themselves about blank, or whatever the hell,
Speaker 1: I don't think it necessarily resolves the principle of the
Speaker 1: initial question, because you know, like if you know good
Speaker 1: and damn well and you were like, even if you
Speaker 1: don't say abundantly clearly, if you're like, well, I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna tell her that we're not gonna be you know,
Speaker 1: on some you know, technicality ship man, that's you let
Speaker 1: her think that, you know. So what was the right decision?
Speaker 1: So to know that I'm doing her bad? I'm even
Speaker 1: though I have every bit of emotion for her right,
Speaker 1: every bit of emotion, the time ain't magnified it. That
Speaker 1: was did that was that was really fucked up because
Speaker 1: I just I could have lied, And what happened was
Speaker 1: I wasn't even trying to be for say, that wasn't
Speaker 1: your intentions, But that's why I said the time and
Speaker 1: though it was very light, I thought it was was
Speaker 1: weird and my funked up here. I thought it was honorable.
Speaker 1: I'm like, yo, you know what. And I wasn't even
Speaker 1: tripping that it was the birthday. It was like, I
Speaker 1: need to get this off because I need to get
Speaker 1: this off my chest. I need to be honest because
Speaker 1: it's killing me to do somebody like this that I
Speaker 1: know that's in love with me, and I really funk
Speaker 1: with you know what else could have possibly been going
Speaker 1: through your mind or even subconsciously the fact that it
Speaker 1: is her birthday and you don't keep in one hunting
Speaker 1: and then you spend the time on his birthday and
Speaker 1: then the next day you know what I'm saying, because
Speaker 1: she could be at the birthday, like you know, you
Speaker 1: might be like this is cool, and then it's like
Speaker 1: now the next day, No, it's not like I'm cool
Speaker 1: on you. But it was a lose lose when it
Speaker 1: comes to that, and that's the truth. And it was
Speaker 1: like I carry that and that from that day. I
Speaker 1: mold it my whole another part of my life, Like, yo,
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm not gonna just be knocking down
Speaker 1: no girl that I'm not gonna sunk with. That's not
Speaker 1: to say I'm I've since that day to present day.
Speaker 1: I've done it effectively every time. But I'm telling you, man,
Speaker 1: when I tell you, I didn't probably miss hundreds on
Speaker 1: top of hundreds of girls at this point because of that. Like,
Speaker 1: if it's something anything in you that makes me think
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna sunk with you like that, I'm just
Speaker 1: gonna pass. You care about her enough to not do that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and even if they don't care for their self enough, No,
Speaker 1: that's true. Hey, I've I've done that, bro, Like I'll
Speaker 1: make a quality decision for a woman that she won't
Speaker 1: make for herself. I've hung out with it certain chicks
Speaker 1: like It'll be like, you know, if you you're cool
Speaker 1: with it, right, you got a certain amount of respect
Speaker 1: for because you said something about like have I done
Speaker 1: something that made something like you know what I'm saying. So,
Speaker 1: before I was in a relationship that I am in now,
Speaker 1: I went on certain dates and communicated with a woman
Speaker 1: or two for a significant amount of time, but I
Speaker 1: never expressed that I wanted to commit and she, you know,
Speaker 1: it was obvious she wanted to funk with me on
Speaker 1: that level. But I knew already that I wasn't trying
Speaker 1: to go because I was just honestly trying to see
Speaker 1: still with my options word you feel me, but so
Speaker 1: a part of me never, you know, had sex with
Speaker 1: her knowing I could, because I knew I wasn't fit
Speaker 1: the pursuer in that way, and I didn't want to
Speaker 1: end up pursuing her. I mean, I didn't want to
Speaker 1: end up doing that. And then eventually I'm not working
Speaker 1: with her like that, and then I see somebody else
Speaker 1: that I want to funk with like that, and now boom,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm I'm in a relationship. But either way, even
Speaker 1: though I did that, which I felt was honorable, it's
Speaker 1: still it still wasn't appreciated on her end. No, and
Speaker 1: it's and they'll never appreciate it. Like that's the reality.
Speaker 1: The reality is it's so many girls and I'm not lying, bro,
Speaker 1: that want to give me some pussy. I guess so
Speaker 1: many women that want to give me some pussy. It's
Speaker 1: so many women I protected from the raft. That's the
Speaker 1: l O like the real nigga and me that really
Speaker 1: don't give a funk. I have protected women and I'm
Speaker 1: talking about a lot of women from that person for
Speaker 1: because I'm nigga just like everybody else. So but it's
Speaker 1: certain girls who tried to do things to give me
Speaker 1: some pussy, and I'm like, I just was nice to him.
Speaker 1: I treated in respect, but I kept I kept the
Speaker 1: dick away because in my mom I'm like, yeah, I'm
Speaker 1: not working with you like that, but that on me,
Speaker 1: I can't be cool and decent to you. But again,
Speaker 1: girls don't be respecting that. They don't think to themselves.
Speaker 1: They don't think like, you know what, maybe this person
Speaker 1: is not ready to see me in that light and
Speaker 1: he's not gonna do that. All they like what pissed
Speaker 1: them off. They worse than niggas when they get turned down.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, have you ever had a girl trying to
Speaker 1: fight you over not there? Yes? Yeah, expend the major
Speaker 1: because the same thing. Like I mean, most girls don't
Speaker 1: look at me from a cross room go oh my god,
Speaker 1: I want to funk him. They're look at me and
Speaker 1: go or we'll talk or whatever the hell I oh,
Speaker 1: he's like so boyfriend typewriter, Like everyone wants to be
Speaker 1: in those long ass but no one ever wants to
Speaker 1: just funk me for the weekend and not call again.
Speaker 1: These women, they say, so I'll be like that was
Speaker 1: We're gonna do. I'll hang out and see what's going on.
Speaker 1: And just because we went out on a date, well,
Speaker 1: how the hell else am I gonna know? So I
Speaker 1: was around you for a couple of hours, blah blah blah,
Speaker 1: and you know you want to do whatever. I'm like nah.
Speaker 1: And it's just like that because they look at that
Speaker 1: extra time you'll put in continuous dates and all that,
Speaker 1: that's like, Okay, it's something other than No, I'm just
Speaker 1: I'm hanging out because this is what I choose to do.
Speaker 1: They take that like this is just a date. That's
Speaker 1: why they called it a date, because we're hanging out
Speaker 1: on this date.