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Speaker 1: Okay, so how are you? I am doing really well.

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Speaker 2: How are you doing?

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Speaker 1: I'm great?

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Speaker 3: And for those listening, this is Sarah Hensley, who we've

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Speaker 3: talked to before, and her specialty is attachment theories. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: since I knew you were coming on, I thought of

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Speaker 3: just some like topics in relationships to just throw out

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Speaker 3: that I've talked about on social media. You've probably heard

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Speaker 3: me talk about and I'm sure you have an opinion

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Speaker 1: So the first one is breadcrumb guy.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, bread crumbing cool.

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Speaker 3: So breadcrumb guy. And of course I talk from my

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Speaker 3: own experience, but it's crazy to me the people that

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Speaker 3: reach out to me about it. So yes, thousands bat

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Speaker 3: millions of people reaching I mean I thought, like thousands

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Speaker 3: of you reach out to me who are hearing it,

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Speaker 3: validating it, Like I just say something that just like

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Speaker 1: Way, and then like and then I'll have like.

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Speaker 3: Celebrities that you guys all know text me and be like,

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Speaker 1: So let me expla exactly what I said was.

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Speaker 3: People always talk about like young guys at these like

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Speaker 3: like last minute plans and just like juvenile. So there's

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Speaker 3: like there are different brands of men, and that is one,

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Speaker 3: But what I was specifically speaking about was that one

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Speaker 3: might think that a man in their fifties would be

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Speaker 3: a blanket theory, but my perspective has been that many

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Speaker 3: This is also like stereotypes and setting women back, but

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Speaker 1: They're used to being in a relationship.

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Speaker 3: They now have more money, they've got their cars, they're

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Speaker 3: They've got some money and they're just going to text

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Speaker 3: hopefully have some financial independence, and we're like, what are

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Speaker 1: Need that for? You're like a freaking caveman.

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Speaker 4: I think I think the decade of like the guy

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Speaker 3: And even if someone self reflects, it's hard to constantly

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Speaker 3: And also I think that person, I think that person

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Speaker 1: And that's that's.

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Speaker 4: Grim, right, it is, and dismissive avoidance. Especially the most

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Speaker 3: I also think that person is often in relationships that

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Speaker 4: Absolutely, I mean they definitely take advantage of the more

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Speaker 4: those individuals are just they're trapped by that intermittent reinf enforcement.

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Speaker 4: Like everything that is addictive has intermittent reinforcement. Like drugs,

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Speaker 1: It's a hit, you take it.

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Speaker 3: Love bomber? So for me, there are a couple things

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Speaker 3: So it's like almost on like so strict. Now so

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Speaker 3: So I was thinking about the love bomb guys because

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Speaker 3: and I'm really drama free and I'm really this and

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Speaker 3: I'm like, but I like you, I'm not interested.

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Speaker 1: I'm out of try. So I've told people.

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Speaker 3: Like in a nice way, and then one guy was like, really,

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Speaker 4: Like that that's not healthy. That's not interdependence. Interdependence is both.

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Speaker 3: I'm getting what i want or I'm being alone. I

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Speaker 3: Jennifer and Aison knows the consequences too, absolutely, I bet you.

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Speaker 1: But I hate that.

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Speaker 3: It's a different, Okay, being in a cul de sac

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Speaker 1: I'm not saying it's good. It's scrutinized, but it's not worse.

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Speaker 3: the truth is, they're like, yeah, no kidding, Like what

435
00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:24,960
Speaker 3: do you think this is like a secret club that

436
00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:26,680
Speaker 3: no one realizes. We don't want to we don't want

437
00:21:26,680 --> 00:21:28,320
Speaker 3: we don't want a man. We're not bitter, we're not ugly,

438
00:21:28,359 --> 00:21:31,520
Speaker 3: we're not poor, and we have people that want to

439
00:21:31,520 --> 00:21:31,879
Speaker 3: be with us.

440
00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:33,520
Speaker 1: We don't want it. I don't want it. I had

441
00:21:33,520 --> 00:21:34,280
Speaker 1: a woman that I know.

442
00:21:34,240 --> 00:21:37,520
Speaker 3: Who's attractive and smart and has some money, like nothing crazy,

443
00:21:37,560 --> 00:21:40,200
Speaker 3: but like as attractive as any other person and smart

444
00:21:40,240 --> 00:21:43,560
Speaker 3: and interesting, and she was like, I don't want to even.

445
00:21:43,440 --> 00:21:45,720
Speaker 1: Fucking messing with my piece. I've been through it. I

446
00:21:45,760 --> 00:21:48,000
Speaker 1: don't want it, like she doesn't want it.

447
00:21:48,119 --> 00:21:49,760
Speaker 3: Like a certain age, and then a lot of women

448
00:21:49,760 --> 00:21:51,920
Speaker 3: are like, oh, that's called menopause, which is funny too,

449
00:21:52,480 --> 00:21:55,040
Speaker 3: like and that doesn't mean you're defective either. You just

450
00:21:55,040 --> 00:21:57,240
Speaker 3: may be like no, cause there is a thing that

451
00:21:57,280 --> 00:22:00,480
Speaker 3: happens at a certain age where forgetting your by you're

452
00:22:00,520 --> 00:22:03,000
Speaker 3: just like, I don't really care. I don't care if

453
00:22:03,040 --> 00:22:05,159
Speaker 3: people think I just want to laugh. I want to

454
00:22:05,200 --> 00:22:06,920
Speaker 3: be with my kids. I want to be with my cats,

455
00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:07,800
Speaker 3: I want to be with my dogs.

456
00:22:07,840 --> 00:22:08,440
Speaker 1: I want to be alone.

457
00:22:08,480 --> 00:22:09,679
Speaker 3: I want to take a walk, I want to take

458
00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:11,800
Speaker 3: a bath. I want to use my vibrator. I want

459
00:22:11,840 --> 00:22:13,200
Speaker 3: to eat bombonds. I want to do what I will.

460
00:22:13,200 --> 00:22:17,240
Speaker 1: I don't men are fucking annoying, like and irritating.

461
00:22:17,800 --> 00:22:18,760
Speaker 2: I do. I get it.

462
00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:22,120
Speaker 4: It's one of those people like the pendulum can swing

463
00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:23,919
Speaker 4: too far either way, like if you have to have

464
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:26,439
Speaker 4: them or you're just like, no, I'm never open to

465
00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:28,640
Speaker 4: the possibility ever again in my entire life, no matter.

466
00:22:28,640 --> 00:22:30,600
Speaker 4: If it falls in my lap, then you know, then

467
00:22:30,600 --> 00:22:32,879
Speaker 4: I think you might there might be some avoidance. But

468
00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:35,560
Speaker 4: when you're just like, Okay, yeah it sums, then it's

469
00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:38,159
Speaker 4: and it's right and it's a good fit and it

470
00:22:38,200 --> 00:22:40,960
Speaker 4: falls into place for me, then then so be it.

471
00:22:41,000 --> 00:22:41,960
Speaker 2: But if it doesn't, but.

472
00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:42,880
Speaker 1: You let's go back.

473
00:22:42,920 --> 00:22:45,520
Speaker 3: You said there could be some avoidance. But the difference

474
00:22:45,640 --> 00:22:50,600
Speaker 3: is that's not hurting anybody else. It's a one man band, right,

475
00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:52,240
Speaker 3: You're right exactly.

476
00:23:04,720 --> 00:23:07,080
Speaker 1: So it's an avoidant maybe. You know.

477
00:23:07,119 --> 00:23:08,679
Speaker 3: For me, one of the reasons I want to be

478
00:23:08,680 --> 00:23:10,880
Speaker 3: in relationship is for my daughter. I want that unit,

479
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:13,720
Speaker 3: I want that family, I want that tradition. I want

480
00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:16,560
Speaker 3: that for her. She's not crying or craving it. She's

481
00:23:16,560 --> 00:23:18,399
Speaker 3: an amazing life. It's something that I would like for her,

482
00:23:18,440 --> 00:23:20,240
Speaker 3: and I think it would be enhance her life. But

483
00:23:20,280 --> 00:23:24,639
Speaker 3: she is a wonderful life. But like, it's not what

484
00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 3: you're So if you have a situation where you really

485
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:28,800
Speaker 3: with like a partner for your kid, like a man

486
00:23:28,880 --> 00:23:32,639
Speaker 3: for your son, or some tradition, that's maybe the avoidance

487
00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:35,640
Speaker 3: could be hurting someone, but like, yeah, most part, it's

488
00:23:35,680 --> 00:23:38,679
Speaker 3: not really like it's really your own right choosing.

489
00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:41,199
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's when people that are really avoidant but that

490
00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:43,119
Speaker 4: they don't know that they're avoidant, and then they go

491
00:23:43,200 --> 00:23:46,119
Speaker 4: and they try to have these really intimate relationships and

492
00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:49,040
Speaker 4: a lot of dismissive avoidance actually do love bomb in

493
00:23:49,080 --> 00:23:51,200
Speaker 4: the beginning, like that's the only time that they feel

494
00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:54,120
Speaker 4: safe enough to connect. So they show up as this

495
00:23:54,480 --> 00:23:58,520
Speaker 4: person that's extremely interested and extremely you know, affectionate and attentive,

496
00:23:58,800 --> 00:24:00,880
Speaker 4: and then they rope people in and they do tend

497
00:24:00,920 --> 00:24:04,320
Speaker 4: to attract people who have more attachment anxiety, and then

498
00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:07,000
Speaker 4: they just flip that switch and they go into their

499
00:24:07,040 --> 00:24:09,800
Speaker 4: avoidance and they deactivate and they pull away, and it's

500
00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:12,960
Speaker 4: so painful for the person on the other end because

501
00:24:13,640 --> 00:24:15,720
Speaker 4: it's just like doctor Juckell and mister Hyde, like you

502
00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:19,040
Speaker 4: came in as one person and then just like in

503
00:24:19,119 --> 00:24:21,560
Speaker 4: no time, you became someone I don't even recognize, who

504
00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:24,240
Speaker 4: is just this distant kind of ghost. And that's when

505
00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:26,760
Speaker 4: it's hurtful. But it's totally fine to be like, you

506
00:24:26,760 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 4: know what, I don't want it right now, so I'm

507
00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:30,800
Speaker 4: gonna I'm not going to pursue something that I don't

508
00:24:30,840 --> 00:24:33,520
Speaker 4: want and then you end up hurting that person that's

509
00:24:33,560 --> 00:24:36,760
Speaker 4: not good, or you end up coming into a crossroads

510
00:24:36,760 --> 00:24:39,199
Speaker 4: where you saw that there was this incompatibility that had

511
00:24:39,240 --> 00:24:41,760
Speaker 4: always been there, but now you actually really have to

512
00:24:41,800 --> 00:24:44,280
Speaker 4: face it because it got real and now there's attachment

513
00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:46,800
Speaker 4: and there's feelings involved, and it becomes this huge deal.

514
00:24:47,200 --> 00:24:51,040
Speaker 4: So it's yeah, being alone is not hurting anybody. It's

515
00:24:51,040 --> 00:24:51,960
Speaker 4: not hurting anything.

516
00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:57,440
Speaker 3: Now, once you realize that you've been in a relationship

517
00:24:57,440 --> 00:25:03,000
Speaker 3: with dismissive avoidant, you detach and then they come and

518
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:05,440
Speaker 3: play their games and you really just don't care. That's

519
00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:08,720
Speaker 3: been my experience. Like on once you've assigned the animal,

520
00:25:09,280 --> 00:25:12,240
Speaker 3: like once you realize like it's like a black cat

521
00:25:12,400 --> 00:25:15,120
Speaker 3: or it's a scorpion or whatever, like you're like, oh,

522
00:25:15,320 --> 00:25:17,880
Speaker 3: it's so clear, and you definitely don't have the same

523
00:25:17,960 --> 00:25:20,840
Speaker 3: unless you're just like an absolutely addictive person and then

524
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:22,840
Speaker 3: you have your own issues like yourself.

525
00:25:22,840 --> 00:25:23,399
Speaker 1: Savage.

526
00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:24,760
Speaker 2: A lot of those people.

527
00:25:24,800 --> 00:25:26,680
Speaker 4: I see a lot of those anxious people that are

528
00:25:26,680 --> 00:25:29,080
Speaker 4: with the dismissive avoidance, and a lot of them, you know,

529
00:25:29,119 --> 00:25:32,200
Speaker 4: they don't know what they don't know, so they're they're

530
00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:33,240
Speaker 4: married to these men.

531
00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:34,399
Speaker 1: Wow, that's scary.

532
00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:38,760
Speaker 4: You've been like starved for any kind of affection or

533
00:25:38,920 --> 00:25:43,840
Speaker 4: emotion from their partner for like two decades, and they

534
00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:46,480
Speaker 4: have kids, and they have finances and maybe a lot

535
00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:48,800
Speaker 4: of these women they don't have their own money.

536
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:49,080
Speaker 2: I mean.

537
00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:51,640
Speaker 4: One of the things my mom, and I'm so grateful

538
00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:54,200
Speaker 4: she did this. She sat me down one day when

539
00:25:54,200 --> 00:25:56,760
Speaker 4: I think I was like seventeen, and she was like, listen,

540
00:25:57,080 --> 00:25:58,880
Speaker 4: She's like, you're going to college next year. I don't

541
00:25:58,880 --> 00:26:01,080
Speaker 4: know if you'll meet somebody. I don't know when you'll

542
00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:03,760
Speaker 4: find the guy that you want to meet. But I'm

543
00:26:03,760 --> 00:26:05,080
Speaker 4: going to tell you one thing, and this is the

544
00:26:05,080 --> 00:26:07,280
Speaker 4: only piece of relationship advice I can really give. You

545
00:26:07,520 --> 00:26:11,040
Speaker 4: have your own money, Like whatever you do, oh god God,

546
00:26:11,119 --> 00:26:13,719
Speaker 4: have your own money, because you do not want to

547
00:26:13,840 --> 00:26:17,160
Speaker 4: end up with someone who is horrible to you and

548
00:26:17,200 --> 00:26:19,960
Speaker 4: then you're financially dependent upon them, and that is another

549
00:26:20,040 --> 00:26:23,040
Speaker 4: means of control. And that is exactly what happened in

550
00:26:23,080 --> 00:26:25,520
Speaker 4: my marriage. I needed to get out, and thank god

551
00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:27,520
Speaker 4: I had a really good job.

552
00:26:27,680 --> 00:26:29,879
Speaker 3: What happens if you have to move to take care

553
00:26:29,880 --> 00:26:31,800
Speaker 3: of your parents and your husband changes his mind or

554
00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:34,280
Speaker 3: he has a nervous breakdown, like be smart. It could

555
00:26:34,280 --> 00:26:37,080
Speaker 3: be anything you want, but not at the cost of

556
00:26:37,520 --> 00:26:38,320
Speaker 3: having no freedom.

557
00:26:38,720 --> 00:26:40,560
Speaker 4: Yeah know, the risks is what I would say. I

558
00:26:40,560 --> 00:26:43,000
Speaker 4: would be like, really know the risks because everybody goes

559
00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:45,639
Speaker 4: into marriage thinking, like nobody goes in and they're like,

560
00:26:45,640 --> 00:26:47,280
Speaker 4: you know what, I think I'm probably gonna end up

561
00:26:47,280 --> 00:26:50,800
Speaker 4: divorced with this marriage. Like nobody does that. Everybody thinks,

562
00:26:51,160 --> 00:26:53,760
Speaker 4: you know, this is the one, We're gonna make it.

563
00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:56,439
Speaker 4: You know, we can work through anything. But the thing

564
00:26:56,480 --> 00:26:59,159
Speaker 4: of it is is people change. Like there's actually a

565
00:26:59,160 --> 00:27:03,359
Speaker 4: psychological theory about how we believe we are the person

566
00:27:03,359 --> 00:27:05,040
Speaker 4: that we are now is who are always going to

567
00:27:05,080 --> 00:27:08,080
Speaker 4: be And that's not true. Like they've actually done studies

568
00:27:08,119 --> 00:27:10,680
Speaker 4: and show just how dramatically people change over the decades.

569
00:27:11,080 --> 00:27:13,240
Speaker 4: And so you're not going to be the person in

570
00:27:13,240 --> 00:27:14,840
Speaker 4: ten years that you are right now. I mean, maybe

571
00:27:14,880 --> 00:27:17,120
Speaker 4: there are some core things about you, but the kind

572
00:27:17,119 --> 00:27:19,960
Speaker 4: of music you listen to, or what you like, or

573
00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:22,240
Speaker 4: your routines or your habits or you might get into

574
00:27:22,280 --> 00:27:24,399
Speaker 4: different hobbies. There are lots of things that are going

575
00:27:24,480 --> 00:27:26,639
Speaker 4: to change about you over the course of your lifespan

576
00:27:27,000 --> 00:27:30,720
Speaker 4: and you just can't count on someone else's behavior always

577
00:27:30,760 --> 00:27:34,119
Speaker 4: being what it is right now, like someone might but

578
00:27:34,240 --> 00:27:35,240
Speaker 4: I and then they're not.

579
00:27:35,880 --> 00:27:38,280
Speaker 3: But I think that young girls all would never believe

580
00:27:38,400 --> 00:27:40,160
Speaker 3: not it's not going to happen to me. I don't

581
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:43,119
Speaker 3: think that people would really hear that and digest that

582
00:27:43,119 --> 00:27:46,240
Speaker 3: that are young. Only people our age and of institutional

583
00:27:46,320 --> 00:27:47,280
Speaker 3: knowledge believe that.

584
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:50,440
Speaker 1: I think someone young can digest.

585
00:27:51,119 --> 00:27:58,159
Speaker 3: Somebody gets sick, somebody, you know, somebody's diagnosed with you know,

586
00:27:58,200 --> 00:28:01,800
Speaker 3: anxiety or depression or is byle or something like something

587
00:28:01,920 --> 00:28:04,960
Speaker 3: like drastic that could happen. Somebody gets in an accident,

588
00:28:05,040 --> 00:28:08,040
Speaker 3: somebody is a professional or an athlete and they get hurt,

589
00:28:08,240 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 3: Like what would actually happen if if the situations change?

590
00:28:13,160 --> 00:28:15,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, anyway, worst stories I've seen and.

591
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:18,199
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, so anyway, I don't even know.

592
00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:20,920
Speaker 3: It's just no the risks, don't take the risks, don't

593
00:28:20,920 --> 00:28:23,200
Speaker 3: take the risks, have a side, hustle, whatever it is.

594
00:28:23,720 --> 00:28:26,320
Speaker 4: I mean, I'm so glad my mom told me that

595
00:28:26,359 --> 00:28:28,920
Speaker 4: and like burned it into my brain. And I mean

596
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:31,399
Speaker 4: my parents did not have a good marriage, but I

597
00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:34,440
Speaker 4: mean she did, you know, instill that in me, And

598
00:28:34,520 --> 00:28:36,400
Speaker 4: it was a lifesaver. It was the reason I could

599
00:28:36,440 --> 00:28:38,640
Speaker 4: get out from something that was really, really bad.

600
00:28:39,040 --> 00:28:41,280
Speaker 3: And then the last thing is kind of related to

601
00:28:41,320 --> 00:28:45,040
Speaker 3: what we were saying before. I was talking about being

602
00:28:45,160 --> 00:28:48,680
Speaker 3: too pick you're too picky for who for you?

603
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:50,040
Speaker 1: For what? Like?

604
00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:52,400
Speaker 3: Am I gonna go to a restaurant and I'm too bad?

605
00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:53,680
Speaker 3: I want to eat what I want to eat. I'd

606
00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:55,920
Speaker 3: rather not eat than eat something bad. So isn't it

607
00:28:55,960 --> 00:28:58,560
Speaker 3: my body my choice? Too picky?

608
00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:01,040
Speaker 2: I don't even understand what that means. I don't know. Okay,

609
00:29:01,520 --> 00:29:04,640
Speaker 2: picky thing. I think that's knowing what you want.

610
00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:07,560
Speaker 4: And you know, you posted this this post and you're like,

611
00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:11,600
Speaker 4: I have seen people like have great fashion and then

612
00:29:11,720 --> 00:29:14,239
Speaker 4: like move up and be on these magazines. And she's like,

613
00:29:14,480 --> 00:29:16,360
Speaker 4: I could have had, you know, be styled any way

614
00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:18,400
Speaker 4: I want. And you show this bathing suit that was

615
00:29:18,480 --> 00:29:22,880
Speaker 4: like vac mode, like that basing bathing suit. Oh yeah,

616
00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:28,760
Speaker 4: that is so freaking authentic and just embodying your authenticity

617
00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:30,320
Speaker 4: of like I am who I am, I know what

618
00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:30,800
Speaker 4: I want.

619
00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:32,480
Speaker 2: I'm not going to settle for anything less.

620
00:29:32,480 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 4: I don't give a crap if anybody doesn't like my

621
00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:37,400
Speaker 4: bathing suit, because I love my bathing suit, Like I

622
00:29:37,440 --> 00:29:40,040
Speaker 4: love this, I love this sparkly jacket. I love whatever

623
00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:42,920
Speaker 4: it is. Right, I'm not just going to just bend

624
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:45,480
Speaker 4: the knee to whatever society thinks that I should want

625
00:29:45,600 --> 00:29:49,080
Speaker 4: or like. And I think the same thing applies to relationships,

626
00:29:49,080 --> 00:29:50,560
Speaker 4: Like you don't have to bend the knee and just

627
00:29:51,160 --> 00:29:53,480
Speaker 4: you know, date some guy just so you can be

628
00:29:53,520 --> 00:29:56,400
Speaker 4: seen dating or just so that you seem like you're,

629
00:29:56,640 --> 00:29:59,400
Speaker 4: you know, a good catch. No, you're just like I

630
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:00,840
Speaker 4: know who I am and I don't need to prove

631
00:30:00,880 --> 00:30:03,680
Speaker 4: it to anybody. If the right thing comes my way, okay,

632
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:05,640
Speaker 4: but but if not, I'm not just going to be

633
00:30:05,800 --> 00:30:08,320
Speaker 4: totally I'm going to go on the state just so

634
00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:11,440
Speaker 4: I can I can feel like worthy, right or flex

635
00:30:11,520 --> 00:30:12,480
Speaker 4: to whoever's watching.

636
00:30:12,840 --> 00:30:15,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's referring to this cheesy bathing suit that has

637
00:30:15,360 --> 00:30:18,280
Speaker 3: smiley faced and rainbow and puffy letters. And it was

638
00:30:18,360 --> 00:30:20,840
Speaker 3: so stupid, but like I was so attracted to it

639
00:30:21,240 --> 00:30:23,480
Speaker 3: because it just reminds me of my childhood and growing

640
00:30:23,560 --> 00:30:25,680
Speaker 3: up in Florida. And it was totally cheesy, but like

641
00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:27,160
Speaker 3: I have a cheesy side.

642
00:30:27,280 --> 00:30:27,760
Speaker 1: I like it.

643
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:29,480
Speaker 3: Like I'm aware that I'm not going to like go

644
00:30:29,560 --> 00:30:31,200
Speaker 3: to the met Gala because of it, but like, I

645
00:30:31,240 --> 00:30:31,920
Speaker 3: don't give a shit.

646
00:30:32,360 --> 00:30:34,480
Speaker 1: I love the bathing suit the same way.

647
00:30:34,320 --> 00:30:36,840
Speaker 3: That like people are like, wait, you're really rich, what

648
00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:38,680
Speaker 3: are you doing on jet Blue? What do you mean

649
00:30:38,720 --> 00:30:40,160
Speaker 3: when I'm doing jet Blue? I'm doing what I want

650
00:30:40,160 --> 00:30:42,280
Speaker 3: to do. I'm doing It's the airport's forty minutes from

651
00:30:42,320 --> 00:30:42,600
Speaker 3: my house.

652
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Speaker 1: I'm doing. My daughter and I are there.

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Speaker 3: I'm not spending fifty thousand dollars and having two pilots

654
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Speaker 3: and a giant plane and all this gasoline in this waste,

655
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Speaker 3: even though I can, I'm not going to do that.

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Speaker 1: I don't want to alone.

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Speaker 2: I love that your nervous system is probably very healthy.

658
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Speaker 4: Yeah, the times it was inauthenticity, like not being who

659
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Speaker 4: you are and caring so much about what everybody thinks.

660
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Speaker 4: It's so disregulating. It's so disregulating, and I can only imagine.

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Speaker 4: There are so many people, not famous people definitely, but

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Speaker 4: famous people that they're oh of that, yes, you know

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Speaker 4: who they feel like they have to be.

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Speaker 3: Oh my god, you have to watch Gilded Age. If

665
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Speaker 3: you haven't, you need to watch it. It's on my list.

666
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Speaker 3: I'm obsessed. And it's all about literally nothing matters if

667
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Speaker 3: no one else saw it. The society determines everything. It's horrendous. Yeah,

668
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Speaker 3: it's really crazy, so awesome. All right, well this was amazing.

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Speaker 3: I love having your own. I could talk forever and

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Speaker 3: ever and ever.

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Speaker 2: Thank you so much.

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Speaker 1: Does you want to walk to the utterm