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Speaker 1: What's at this lift service. I'm Angela Yee, I'm Gg Maguire,

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Speaker 1: I'm Jazzmine Brand, I'm Laura Ramra, and I'm baby Boss

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Speaker 1: big bus Bag. First of all, I'm so happy you're here.

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Speaker 1: We saw you got BT Awards. We had a sit

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Speaker 1: down that wasn't as long as we would have liked,

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Speaker 1: so as promised, here you are here. I'm back, and

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Speaker 1: congratulations on the EP resilience, Rezilien.

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Speaker 2: Thank thank y'all so much, like thank you. That was

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Speaker 2: my first baby, so stream her on all platforms.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, and you know, it's great that we could

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Speaker 1: look back and see like music videos that you were

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Speaker 1: doing a long time ago before you even put this together,

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Speaker 1: because we want to make sure people know it ain't

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Speaker 1: like you just came out of nowhere, had a viral

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Speaker 1: hit and then blew up.

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Speaker 3: There was work that went on before that.

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Speaker 1: I've been grinding, girl, Yeah, you've been grinding. You've been

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Speaker 1: and you've had an amazing story too. So the rated twist,

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Speaker 1: I remember that watched that.

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Speaker 2: It's a video that Okay, so like when I first

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Speaker 2: found that video, like I was in Boble school, I

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Speaker 2: got put out that same day, did I shot that

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Speaker 2: video because I was always getting to it with all

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Speaker 2: of my damn teachers, like he was horrible. So I

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Speaker 2: got put out that same day and I shot that

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Speaker 2: video and literally went viral. And that's how I knew

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Speaker 2: that I was not supposed to be No but no.

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Speaker 2: Her stylis like I just wanted to be a rapper, right.

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Speaker 1: And you had done that beforehand, but then you were like,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm doing hair, I'm making money.

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Speaker 2: I was like, I'm just I'm just chilling and you know,

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Speaker 2: just just try to get as much money as I

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Speaker 2: can by you know, working down in the fives doing

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Speaker 2: her selling her selling clothes like I was doing.

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Speaker 4: I got a hustle. I was like, you come get some.

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Speaker 1: Money being that you was doing here, Like how are

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Speaker 1: you now with your hair? Like do you feel comfortable? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: your hair is super cute, Like because I know how

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Speaker 1: the hairstyles is like me and the waitress and or

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Speaker 1: the servant. Like when I go places, I'm always like,

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Speaker 1: why are they doing like this like this? Why is that?

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Speaker 1: How do you critiue?

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Speaker 2: I critique everything so bad to the point where like

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Speaker 2: I would like find stylus like do my heart in

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Speaker 2: their last mine, I'd be like, god damn, Like I

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Speaker 2: don't like the way her baby her super through.

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Speaker 4: I'll just do my own shit.

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Speaker 2: So to be honest, I literally did my own hair

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Speaker 2: because my hearstylists to always do my heart. She was

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Speaker 2: a little busy, angry, and I'm like, I just slap

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Speaker 2: a wig.

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Speaker 4: I want to keep going.

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Speaker 1: Give the money right, and it's given the chair.

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Speaker 4: Absolutely, That's what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: Like, I'm pretty sure it's super convenient too. You don't

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Speaker 1: have to schedule nothing. You save mad money. Can your

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Speaker 1: friends be asking you though, like could you fix my hair? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: They actually still do it, And I'd be like, I

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Speaker 1: don't do this. I want but let me let me

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Speaker 1: fix it for you.

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Speaker 4: But that's that's all I got, I got, I ain't

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Speaker 4: got nothing.

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Speaker 1: Make sure Jasmon could do hair and she refuses to

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Speaker 1: do my hair. She used to brave hair in college.

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Speaker 5: I never go Angela because then if I told her,

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Speaker 5: then first of all, she never asked. She got a

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Speaker 5: lot of hair.

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Speaker 1: Can you bring my heart to know? This would big back.

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Speaker 2: And then great, great content? How about you start them off?

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Speaker 2: And I finished them down like you know, listen.

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Speaker 1: But here's the thing I used to just do in college.

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Speaker 1: I used to just do straight backs for guys and

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Speaker 1: she had just straight backs and I would just get paid.

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Speaker 1: So anyway, Angela, So for women, I was just about

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Speaker 1: to say, looked like hair.

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Speaker 2: Hare like I literally did like everything I did quick

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Speaker 2: we's I did?

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Speaker 1: I did braids? Like I did it? How did you

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Speaker 1: learn you? Since she was little, I was broke and

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Speaker 1: I was.

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Speaker 2: In middle school and like the girl, they was like

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Speaker 2: doing it own hair and I'm like, hi, out of bed.

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Speaker 2: So they was like, oh, because I don't know, we

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Speaker 2: just did it. And I went on YouTube. First university,

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Speaker 2: I was I was messing my hair up at first,

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Speaker 2: like oh my god, girl, I had.

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Speaker 1: Like some big dye, chiky braids and they ate my

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Speaker 4: And then like.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, they ate me up because that was my end

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Speaker 2: back in the day. They was like, who did the

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Speaker 2: big as kitchen braids?

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Speaker 4: You hit me?

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Speaker 1: I did my hair on my feet, but it's all

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Speaker 1: right because we're gonna figure it out.

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Speaker 2: So that whole year I was like fucking myself up.

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Speaker 2: But like after a while I just started to get

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Speaker 2: it and like people started to book me. But my

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Speaker 2: first friend who I did Gridon Brace lived the funk

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Speaker 2: out and we had got the braid hair for walk Green.

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Speaker 2: So Ya had had this like shiny type of braiding hair.

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Speaker 2: It was like some Barbie doll braid hair. Literally I

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Speaker 2: hate that, yes, and I like did high braids and

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Speaker 2: like they like she had with the school day was

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Speaker 2: like who the fuck did you?

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Speaker 1: Heart? And I'm like, don't do nobody, You're not gonna

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Speaker 1: birth me, like like I'm trying to help you, and like,

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Speaker 1: do not tell that's hilarious.

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Speaker 4: And then she saw a mass up again. But I

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Speaker 4: mean like every time that would go bad, you know.

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Speaker 2: I just keep on trying and then they go back up.

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Speaker 2: So she would she would keep let me practicing, and like,

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Speaker 2: you know, I never bought that Walgreens here never.

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Speaker 1: Never. And she's a really good friend. That's another story

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Speaker 1: of resilience from a young age.

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Speaker 3: Okay, you had the braids slipping out, but you said,

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Speaker 3: you know what, I'm gonna do it again. I'm CoA

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Speaker 3: cet going.

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Speaker 5: Were you popular in terms for selling hair and doing

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Speaker 5: hair and selling clothes? Were you popular on social media?

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Speaker 4: Absolutely?

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Speaker 2: Because I went viral like twenty fourteen, so like it

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Speaker 2: was just like owning off viral moments for me, Like.

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Speaker 1: What was your first viral moment?

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Speaker 2: My first viral moment was when I did a cover

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Speaker 2: to Day's Love, trying me talk about it and like,

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Speaker 2: because back in the day, I did not know how

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Speaker 2: to catch a beat, Like I couldnt wrap on beats.

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Speaker 4: So how I do it now? Don't ask me. I

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Speaker 1: But back in the day, I was like, yeah, I

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Speaker 2: But I can like ride or route, but just not

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Speaker 2: on a beat, right, So I did it like without

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Speaker 2: the beat, and I posted like seven something at night.

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Speaker 2: The next morning, I was like viral, Like I was

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Speaker 2: in class, sneaking on my phone high school, Yes, okay,

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Speaker 2: posting a picture and I think of like thirty minutes

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Speaker 2: they mother got like one point three thousand like like

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Speaker 1: I'm like and I'm like, what's going on? So then I.

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Speaker 4: Posted a second picture because I'm like what about this?

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Speaker 1: I was like picture or you you was wrapping something?

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Speaker 1: It was a picture girl I had on some some

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Speaker 1: some smaller chorte and like a sports brad because I

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Speaker 1: was always having nig I don't know why, like I

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Speaker 1: always have a nigga, but I was cute. It was

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Speaker 1: got two thousands. I'm like, bro, somebody hacked my Pody's

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Speaker 1: like what is going on right now? And it was

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Speaker 1: coming and shit like they were just telling me how

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Speaker 1: beautiful I was. So it was like boost me.

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Speaker 4: I'm like, yo, like who pages this?

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Speaker 2: So I go to the to the video that I

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Speaker 2: posted the night before and I'm like, yo, I'm viral.

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Speaker 2: It was like one hundred k views and I'm like yo,

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Speaker 2: like what am I supposed to do with this? And

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Speaker 2: I did not know, like because at that time, so

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Speaker 2: I had my family blocked her own everything.

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Speaker 1: Like I was always in trouble. I was always in beef.

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Speaker 4: I'm just like, I don't know, like we're just here now,

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Speaker 2: So I just keep on posting the covers because then

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Speaker 2: but I was learning, you know, Like I was like

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Speaker 2: bad at music for a while, but I got cut.

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Speaker 4: But that's when I got good.

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Speaker 3: I feel like nobody is great when they first start.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely you gotta start yeah, and everything has a day

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Speaker 1: one and when I thought I was bad, they thought

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Speaker 4: So I was like, shit, you know, a win is

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Speaker 2: I just kept on doing it, and then I just

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Speaker 2: kept on going Barel and I did not have no

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Speaker 4: I didn't have no money. I'm just like, yo, and

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Speaker 1: In Saint Louis. It's not like there was a ton

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Speaker 2: You either literally, And I was just like, I'm just

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Speaker 2: keep on being regularly honestly, and like people will see

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Speaker 2: me and they would recite the lyrics that I would

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Speaker 2: say on my videos and I'd be like like like it's.

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Speaker 4: Lit, you know.

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Speaker 2: But I didn't have any songs out or nothing like that.

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Speaker 2: I was just a viral Facebook and then I.

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Speaker 1: Started to post by Instagram and that started to pop,

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Speaker 1: and I'm just like okay with me. Yeah, I'm just

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Speaker 2: And I did that for a while until like somebody

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Speaker 2: actually put you in the studiocause I was like, I

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Speaker 2: had made this song and it literally went viral, but

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Speaker 2: it was only on Facebook and I didn't know who

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Speaker 4: I didn't like, I didn't know nothing. I was just

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Speaker 2: And when I went to the studio and put it down,

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Speaker 2: it was like, Okay, it's cool, but it didn't go

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Speaker 2: as viral. I'm like, all right, because I was in

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Speaker 2: a closet. They had pets start on y'all, like I'm

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Speaker 2: an animal lover. I love pets, you know, And I'm

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Speaker 2: like all right. I paid like my like I had

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Speaker 2: eighty dollars and I paid sixty for the studio and

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Speaker 2: then I put the rest of my tank and I'm like,

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Speaker 2: something outa give. I had made a video to the

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Speaker 2: song that I just recorded. Audio was trash. I'm like,

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Speaker 2: but I'm gonna still do it, like I don't care.

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Speaker 2: I got like sixty thousand views on it one video,

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Speaker 2: and for somebody from my seat that that is a lot,

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Speaker 2: you know. So after that, I had recorded writeter song,

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Speaker 2: and once I tease that, it started going viral because

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Speaker 2: people was like, is she really talking like that.

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Speaker 3: About that song? Is filthy?

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Speaker 1: We were like, oh, we were such girls, But I

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Speaker 1: love that. You know, I might actually put it back

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Speaker 2: Today you could like search people numbers up on Facebook

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Speaker 4: Bring a page up. So when I was saying.

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Speaker 1: I was like a smart snooper, like I would go

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Speaker 4: Had told this man.

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Speaker 2: I say, so, I'm gonna start school with a bunch

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Speaker 1: Me two weeks before I started school. He was like,

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Speaker 1: I was just I don't know, Like, I'm just scared, bitch.

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Speaker 4: Bitch, you told me to go here. Now you were scared?

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Speaker 1: Like what you know? Girl?

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Speaker 2: As soon as I got thirst, baby, I had all

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Speaker 1: Like, baby, I'm not finna, No, I'm not finna play yes,

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Speaker 2: And if women do that, it's like you you were

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Speaker 4: What the hell is you to do.

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Speaker 1: To leave?

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: I was been for like two years almost three, So yeah,

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Speaker 1: sometimes if you're not ready to leave, you can't leave

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Speaker 1: You know, there's a lot of things that go on

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Speaker 2: You don't know what you would do to you is

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Speaker 4: Like the situation we in hello, like it is so different.

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Speaker 2: So it's like, I honestly see why people stay and

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Speaker 1: And life is amazing. When, by the way, you don't

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Speaker 1: When you feel like I don't even have to worry

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Speaker 2: You always just always had a little thought in your mind,

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Speaker 2: just just all the ship that you'd have been through,

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Speaker 2: So if you wake up one day and put ketch

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Speaker 4: What are you doing here?

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Speaker 1: Who put that down? And my mom, I'm talking And

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Speaker 4: You know what, it's okay, Yeah, I.

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Speaker 2: Would depend on HOWO going through yours? Go ahead, you

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Speaker 1: Care where else you like a thumb huh. But my

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Speaker 1: well and you don't even suspect anything, you would still

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Speaker 2: Now it would it would have to be something like

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Speaker 4: He was just like, oh well, life got the spray

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Speaker 2: I'm like, I mean, you spelled good his spine because

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Speaker 1: I'm like, you spell good. Just leave it alone. He's

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Speaker 1: like no, no, no, no, no no, and force himself to like

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Speaker 2: I'm like, let me go with you. You're like, okay,

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Speaker 2: sprayed it. I'm like, so let's go get a bottle

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Speaker 2: I'm like, let's do all that's gonna have fun to night.

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Speaker 2: He's like okay, so boom, so we smoking and drinking

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Speaker 2: I'm like, phone, you dumb ass bitch and left your

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Speaker 4: Coat in too, but get the phone. Do y'all know

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Speaker 1: Oh be?

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Speaker 4: I mean I already knew that he was talking to me,

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Speaker 2: But then it's like, yeah, yeah, I had a fake

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Speaker 2: more because bitch, you're doing too much, like like I

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Speaker 2: but now you're going too deep what else do you hide?

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Speaker 1: Right?

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00:19:04,760 --> 00:19:08,920
Speaker 4: All right, and y'all he was talking to talking to

441
00:19:09,040 --> 00:19:10,080
Speaker 4: another fake page.

442
00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:13,320
Speaker 2: Right. He had thought that it was an Instagram model

443
00:19:13,359 --> 00:19:15,159
Speaker 2: and like I was like going, so fuck because I

444
00:19:15,240 --> 00:19:17,479
Speaker 2: was so cool in the head. I'm over here posting

445
00:19:17,560 --> 00:19:19,520
Speaker 2: this lady like oh, this is not a real lady.

446
00:19:19,600 --> 00:19:23,560
Speaker 1: Guys, she's fake, and I'm like, yeah I was.

447
00:19:24,400 --> 00:19:25,919
Speaker 4: I was just saying like, oh, bullshit about her.

448
00:19:25,960 --> 00:19:27,640
Speaker 1: Then the page blocked me, but it was a real

449
00:19:27,680 --> 00:19:29,480
Speaker 1: fake page because I wound up finding out she was

450
00:19:29,520 --> 00:19:32,080
Speaker 1: a real model, and I'm like, oh fuck, wich, I

451
00:19:32,160 --> 00:19:34,679
Speaker 1: was talking all about you. I don't even know you, and.

452
00:19:36,280 --> 00:19:37,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, like I promise about you.

453
00:19:38,200 --> 00:19:42,119
Speaker 1: So I'm like damn, you know. And then he was

454
00:19:42,200 --> 00:19:44,520
Speaker 1: like talking to like his ex girlfriend's stalking his bitch,

455
00:19:44,600 --> 00:19:47,639
Speaker 1: like like missage, just like after after after, and she

456
00:19:47,800 --> 00:19:48,320
Speaker 1: wasn't even like.

457
00:19:48,320 --> 00:19:49,159
Speaker 4: Standing back at night.

458
00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:51,760
Speaker 3: That's embarrassing.

459
00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:59,200
Speaker 4: I'm like, take you home. He like, we gotta go

460
00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:00,600
Speaker 4: to the movies, just to movies.

461
00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:01,640
Speaker 1: I'm like mm hmm.

462
00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:03,879
Speaker 2: Set in the movies. He over her, trying to like

463
00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:05,639
Speaker 2: touch my leg. I'm like, you didn't tell him what

464
00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:07,480
Speaker 2: was up? You didn't you didn't say no.

465
00:20:07,600 --> 00:20:09,200
Speaker 4: I said, take me home because he already knew that.

466
00:20:09,240 --> 00:20:09,880
Speaker 4: I went to his phone.

467
00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:11,600
Speaker 2: Oh I'm like a nigga dumb with some motherfucker like

468
00:20:12,000 --> 00:20:14,159
Speaker 2: you all chilled and calm and bitch I and went

469
00:20:14,160 --> 00:20:17,040
Speaker 2: to your phone like now your car, and I'm like,

470
00:20:17,119 --> 00:20:19,119
Speaker 2: take me home, so he babed me go to the movies.

471
00:20:19,240 --> 00:20:21,399
Speaker 2: Now now I'm feeling guilty because I always have a

472
00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:24,359
Speaker 2: guilty feeling when I'm choosing me.

473
00:20:24,480 --> 00:20:26,880
Speaker 1: I don't know why, but it's just always like, damn,

474
00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:29,320
Speaker 1: you felt bad. I felt bad for this nigga cheating

475
00:20:29,359 --> 00:20:35,919
Speaker 1: No man, a fake page that he wasn't cheating.

476
00:20:35,880 --> 00:20:37,200
Speaker 4: Too, because I was one of them.

477
00:20:37,600 --> 00:20:39,280
Speaker 2: You know what, well, it was a fake page and

478
00:20:39,400 --> 00:20:40,760
Speaker 2: he was trying to fuck with his ex that was

479
00:20:40,840 --> 00:20:43,720
Speaker 2: not giving place. So it was like you embarrassing, Like

480
00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:45,399
Speaker 2: you embarrassing this fuck Like I could see if she

481
00:20:45,480 --> 00:20:46,399
Speaker 2: was writing you back, but.

482
00:20:46,440 --> 00:20:48,280
Speaker 1: She and he responding to you like you're Let me

483
00:20:48,320 --> 00:20:49,840
Speaker 1: ask you, what's the last time you talked to him?

484
00:20:50,440 --> 00:20:58,280
Speaker 4: Oh shit, like what was that twenty twenty nineteen?

485
00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:01,280
Speaker 1: Does he ever try to reach out now?

486
00:21:01,480 --> 00:21:03,840
Speaker 2: I mean he used to, but I think I blocked him,

487
00:21:03,920 --> 00:21:07,800
Speaker 2: so I don't even see him because I was just

488
00:21:07,880 --> 00:21:10,280
Speaker 2: tired of the thirsty dms back, leave me the fuck alone.

489
00:21:10,840 --> 00:21:11,240
Speaker 1: It's over.

490
00:21:11,640 --> 00:21:13,480
Speaker 3: I feel crazy now I'm not.

491
00:21:15,119 --> 00:21:15,560
Speaker 4: Crazy.

492
00:21:15,760 --> 00:21:19,520
Speaker 2: Fucking part is like like he hurt my soul so

493
00:21:19,880 --> 00:21:22,639
Speaker 2: bad one day and I was like bawling, Like the

494
00:21:22,800 --> 00:21:25,040
Speaker 2: moment that I get away from you, nigga, I'm never

495
00:21:25,160 --> 00:21:27,560
Speaker 2: coming back. When I tell somebody that shit, I am

496
00:21:27,680 --> 00:21:30,120
Speaker 2: literally detaching, bitch, I'm never coming back to you because

497
00:21:30,160 --> 00:21:31,840
Speaker 2: now I already got in my mind that I that

498
00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:34,240
Speaker 2: I have to leave you because you are really fucking

499
00:21:34,280 --> 00:21:36,119
Speaker 2: me up like you were hurting me. I was ninety

500
00:21:36,119 --> 00:21:38,280
Speaker 2: eight pounds, like I was little as shit, maybe one

501
00:21:38,320 --> 00:21:41,080
Speaker 2: hundred pounds, sucking wet like I was always fighting these witches.

502
00:21:41,040 --> 00:21:44,080
Speaker 1: Over him, getting into it over him. What was in

503
00:21:44,160 --> 00:21:44,520
Speaker 1: my heart?

504
00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:46,520
Speaker 4: Like, I'm like, bro, like I can't keep doing this

505
00:21:46,600 --> 00:21:46,760
Speaker 4: with you.

506
00:21:46,880 --> 00:21:48,040
Speaker 3: What did you like about him?

507
00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:51,920
Speaker 2: It was a trauma bond. When I got shy, all

508
00:21:51,960 --> 00:21:54,200
Speaker 2: of my people that I was with, did I help

509
00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:56,120
Speaker 2: me clean my car out? Did I help me clean

510
00:21:56,160 --> 00:21:58,359
Speaker 2: my wounds? Was not there for me? And he stepped

511
00:21:58,440 --> 00:22:00,920
Speaker 2: up to the plate, was like, oh, well, he'll be clean.

512
00:22:01,280 --> 00:22:04,280
Speaker 2: He spent I was scrubbing the blood out of my

513
00:22:04,359 --> 00:22:06,600
Speaker 2: car and he was just there for me, like he

514
00:22:06,760 --> 00:22:10,159
Speaker 2: was a fucking wolf in sheep clothing, like he was

515
00:22:10,200 --> 00:22:10,880
Speaker 2: the best ever.

516
00:22:11,000 --> 00:22:13,200
Speaker 1: He was like buying me gifts. He was like spoiling me,

517
00:22:13,320 --> 00:22:15,480
Speaker 1: taking me places, show me shit that I've.

518
00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:18,480
Speaker 2: Never seen, like I would like to I want to

519
00:22:18,520 --> 00:22:20,360
Speaker 2: go painting, and the next day we're going to pay,

520
00:22:20,760 --> 00:22:21,520
Speaker 2: like you know, like he was.

521
00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:23,240
Speaker 1: He was just love bombing the fuck out of me.

522
00:22:23,280 --> 00:22:25,199
Speaker 1: And then soon as he got me, was like, got

523
00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:25,800
Speaker 1: this bitch.

524
00:22:25,800 --> 00:22:26,560
Speaker 4: Got the switch?

525
00:22:27,840 --> 00:22:29,960
Speaker 1: I really am You know what I call that?

526
00:22:30,160 --> 00:22:32,120
Speaker 2: I called that taking it from the check into the savings.

527
00:22:32,320 --> 00:22:33,560
Speaker 2: When you in a check and they treat you a

528
00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:35,399
Speaker 2: different way, they go real hard. As soon as they

529
00:22:35,480 --> 00:22:36,639
Speaker 2: know they got you and they put you in that

530
00:22:36,720 --> 00:22:40,919
Speaker 2: savings account, then that's when they just just a whole account.

531
00:22:45,960 --> 00:22:47,840
Speaker 2: They feel like work as hard when they put you

532
00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:49,840
Speaker 2: in that savings can because they know you, they're you safe,

533
00:22:50,320 --> 00:22:51,560
Speaker 2: so then they just want to fuck out.

534
00:22:51,720 --> 00:22:53,600
Speaker 1: Can I talk to you about because I know getting

535
00:22:53,680 --> 00:22:57,240
Speaker 1: shot definitely with something that changed your life, but sometimes

536
00:22:57,840 --> 00:23:00,600
Speaker 1: people don't understand how like what are some of the

537
00:23:00,720 --> 00:23:03,080
Speaker 1: things that were different for you after that?

538
00:23:03,240 --> 00:23:05,040
Speaker 3: And do you still to this day?

539
00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:09,679
Speaker 1: Cause I can't imagine ever even fully getting over uh

540
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:12,640
Speaker 1: that like going places and not knowing what can happen

541
00:23:12,720 --> 00:23:16,119
Speaker 1: and sometimes having to think about that. Yeah, I was like, okay,

542
00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:17,840
Speaker 1: so for a s for a started.

543
00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:20,360
Speaker 2: So so this dark path I started in twenty fifteen,

544
00:23:20,880 --> 00:23:22,600
Speaker 2: I had lost my cousin and I was like really

545
00:23:22,640 --> 00:23:25,120
Speaker 2: really close to cause I wasn't really close to family, friends, nothing,

546
00:23:25,320 --> 00:23:28,119
Speaker 2: but she was the one that I attached myself to,

547
00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:33,159
Speaker 2: you know. And one day I woke up and she

548
00:23:33,320 --> 00:23:35,200
Speaker 2: just was not there anymore. And then she had killed

549
00:23:35,240 --> 00:23:37,119
Speaker 2: me so bad, and I did not have the family

550
00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:39,280
Speaker 2: to say, hey, so let's go get you help, let's

551
00:23:39,320 --> 00:23:41,600
Speaker 2: go have you talked to someone and all this, So

552
00:23:41,680 --> 00:23:43,440
Speaker 2: this she'd send me down a really dark path. Like

553
00:23:43,480 --> 00:23:46,480
Speaker 2: I was like disrespectful. I was always fighting, I was

554
00:23:46,520 --> 00:23:48,320
Speaker 2: always in drama, Like I didn't cry about my life.

555
00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:50,200
Speaker 2: They life, her life, his life, like I did not

556
00:23:50,240 --> 00:23:52,520
Speaker 2: care about anything. And I was a crash done me

557
00:23:52,600 --> 00:23:56,280
Speaker 2: like my mom was gone, you know, and I was drinking,

558
00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:58,320
Speaker 2: I was smoking, like I was doing everything to like

559
00:23:58,400 --> 00:24:00,040
Speaker 2: none of the pain, but nothing was never know I

560
00:24:00,160 --> 00:24:01,800
Speaker 2: was always wanting to the next step, the next it

561
00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:05,679
Speaker 2: like it was just a downward spiral.

562
00:24:05,760 --> 00:24:06,720
Speaker 4: Honestly, and.

563
00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:11,040
Speaker 2: On her one year death anniversary, on her one like

564
00:24:11,119 --> 00:24:12,879
Speaker 2: if if this was not a wake up call that

565
00:24:12,920 --> 00:24:15,359
Speaker 2: I don't know what the fuck was And it was

566
00:24:15,440 --> 00:24:17,480
Speaker 2: like at twelve s in the morning, so.

567
00:24:17,560 --> 00:24:19,919
Speaker 4: It just here her one year death anniversary.

568
00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:25,280
Speaker 2: I got shy and I'm like, wow, I'm in my

569
00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:28,280
Speaker 2: mind and I'm like thinking and just like talking at loud.

570
00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:31,359
Speaker 2: I'm like, swum, gonna come be with you, Tay, like

571
00:24:31,440 --> 00:24:33,240
Speaker 2: I'm tired of being her because I'm blean. I'm like

572
00:24:33,560 --> 00:24:35,879
Speaker 2: like I never knew that an arm had so much

573
00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:38,000
Speaker 2: blood in it, like I was. I was literally gushing

574
00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:41,880
Speaker 2: like a fucking water holes or whatever.

575
00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:42,040
Speaker 3: You know.

576
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:44,800
Speaker 4: It was just going so and it was just like

577
00:24:45,560 --> 00:24:47,760
Speaker 4: I was just hearing this voice with just herbs and

578
00:24:48,000 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 4: it was like no, you're not now, you're not coming me, No,

579
00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:52,240
Speaker 4: you're not. No, You're You're gonna be okay, You're gonna

580
00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:53,040
Speaker 4: be good. You're gonna be good.

581
00:24:53,359 --> 00:24:56,119
Speaker 2: And I'm just calling my people's like I'm like I

582
00:24:56,280 --> 00:24:59,040
Speaker 2: just got shot. So everybody who knew me back, like

583
00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:01,280
Speaker 2: we'll still know me now knows that I have a

584
00:25:01,359 --> 00:25:03,400
Speaker 2: dark sense of human So like I don't take anything seriously.

585
00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:05,680
Speaker 1: I would laugh at my pain before I crab at it,

586
00:25:07,320 --> 00:25:09,320
Speaker 1: They're like, no, you didn't show me. So I'm flipping

587
00:25:09,359 --> 00:25:11,200
Speaker 1: the camera and it's blood everybo They're like, bitch, you

588
00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:11,760
Speaker 1: got shot for real?

589
00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:12,120
Speaker 4: Oh my god.

590
00:25:12,520 --> 00:25:14,400
Speaker 2: Like now they're flipping out, but I'll have but I'm

591
00:25:14,480 --> 00:25:17,159
Speaker 2: calling everybody, so I just tell them like.

592
00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:20,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I got shot, like very calm and I

593
00:25:20,160 --> 00:25:21,560
Speaker 1: just got shot. Yeah I got shot. Yeah.

594
00:25:21,600 --> 00:25:23,159
Speaker 4: And then they're like beat your line on us, you know.

595
00:25:23,720 --> 00:25:27,200
Speaker 2: And as soon as we got to the hospital, put

596
00:25:27,280 --> 00:25:30,359
Speaker 2: me on blackout and like the doctor's they was like

597
00:25:30,480 --> 00:25:32,400
Speaker 2: so fucking rough. So I'm like fighting with the doctor

598
00:25:32,480 --> 00:25:33,760
Speaker 2: trying to get the golf so I can clean my

599
00:25:33,800 --> 00:25:36,720
Speaker 2: own wound cause I'm like, bro, like, bit you ye hurt.

600
00:25:36,840 --> 00:25:37,800
Speaker 1: You're being too rough, you know.

601
00:25:38,760 --> 00:25:42,440
Speaker 2: I got sedated and I was seeing doubles triples like

602
00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:46,119
Speaker 2: I was hearing fucking echoes. It was like it was

603
00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:50,600
Speaker 2: like Crain, yes, crazy, And when I came to it

604
00:25:50,760 --> 00:25:53,200
Speaker 2: was a it was the ticket to my left, to

605
00:25:53,240 --> 00:25:54,800
Speaker 2: my right. He was white and black, and they was

606
00:25:54,840 --> 00:25:56,480
Speaker 2: basically like who shot you? Like a shot I don't know,

607
00:25:56,880 --> 00:25:58,960
Speaker 2: I don't know, you know, wrong place, wrong time. And

608
00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:02,560
Speaker 2: after that, like I was scarred as fuck, you know,

609
00:26:02,760 --> 00:26:05,040
Speaker 2: like I literally cut off everybody that I was with

610
00:26:05,160 --> 00:26:09,320
Speaker 2: and I which caused me to be more depressed because.

611
00:26:09,080 --> 00:26:09,639
Speaker 4: I was alone.

612
00:26:09,680 --> 00:26:11,080
Speaker 2: And it's like I don't know why I did that

613
00:26:11,160 --> 00:26:13,760
Speaker 2: to myself, but it was just something telling me that

614
00:26:13,840 --> 00:26:18,159
Speaker 2: I had to separate and and just sit in that

615
00:26:18,840 --> 00:26:21,480
Speaker 2: in that dark spot by myself. And this when he

616
00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:23,800
Speaker 2: stepped up and you know, helped me out and I

617
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:28,440
Speaker 2: created a trauma bond with him and after that, like

618
00:26:28,560 --> 00:26:30,280
Speaker 2: I was terrified of so many things, like I would

619
00:26:30,320 --> 00:26:32,320
Speaker 2: like like loud noise is still to this day, like

620
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:35,240
Speaker 2: if something faught in as loud as shit, like like

621
00:26:35,400 --> 00:26:37,440
Speaker 2: like there would trigger something and I would instantly just

622
00:26:37,640 --> 00:26:41,480
Speaker 2: get like very like defence off or like and you're

623
00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:42,280
Speaker 2: like why is so loud?

624
00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:43,960
Speaker 4: You know, like come, you know, like it would just

625
00:26:44,040 --> 00:26:47,160
Speaker 4: be like horrible. I was. I was scared up befourth

626
00:26:47,160 --> 00:26:48,160
Speaker 4: of July for years.

627
00:26:48,359 --> 00:26:48,520
Speaker 1: You know.

628
00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:51,359
Speaker 2: I can imagine so scared to the point where I

629
00:26:51,359 --> 00:26:53,960
Speaker 2: would have to be sloppy drunk to attended and just

630
00:26:54,119 --> 00:27:00,280
Speaker 2: not even be myself, you know, like if I'm in

631
00:27:00,359 --> 00:27:03,240
Speaker 2: the club and just energy just feel so dense and

632
00:27:03,400 --> 00:27:06,360
Speaker 2: just like people just looking around like it's as soon

633
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:08,240
Speaker 2: as I see like one toss, it's time to go.

634
00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:10,919
Speaker 2: If I'm at a bookiet and they tossed, its time

635
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:14,200
Speaker 2: to go, because obviously your security is not right enough.

636
00:27:14,200 --> 00:27:14,720
Speaker 4: It's time to go.

637
00:27:16,440 --> 00:27:19,840
Speaker 2: Like like I don't know, like if if I'm somewhere

638
00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:21,280
Speaker 2: and I see somebody with a gun, it's time to go.

639
00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:26,680
Speaker 2: Every like like everything that I can think about that

640
00:27:26,760 --> 00:27:28,520
Speaker 2: would cause me to get shot, that would cause me

641
00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:30,320
Speaker 2: to be in a situation to where I'm fucked up,

642
00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:32,959
Speaker 2: it's time to go. Then I have Then I had

643
00:27:33,040 --> 00:27:37,560
Speaker 2: really bad anger problems to where when I'm like when

644
00:27:37,560 --> 00:27:39,560
Speaker 2: I'm mad, I don't I don't see for I don't,

645
00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:42,320
Speaker 2: I don't for anything. So and it's and it's very

646
00:27:43,320 --> 00:27:46,320
Speaker 2: bad because I could calm down until it was already

647
00:27:46,359 --> 00:27:50,680
Speaker 2: fucked up, you know, and that was like triggering as well.

648
00:27:50,760 --> 00:27:52,920
Speaker 4: So it's so it was it was so much shit,

649
00:27:52,960 --> 00:27:57,080
Speaker 4: you know. But ship, I just woke go. One day.

650
00:27:57,119 --> 00:27:59,480
Speaker 2: I was like, bro, like you you have to drag

651
00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:02,560
Speaker 2: yourself a this like you've been through worse, Like we

652
00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:04,520
Speaker 2: cannot live our life like this, like this ship is

653
00:28:04,520 --> 00:28:07,240
Speaker 2: fucked up, you know, and just bit by bed like

654
00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:10,440
Speaker 2: I was slowly like rebuilding.

655
00:28:09,359 --> 00:28:12,840
Speaker 4: Myself like healing myself. Do I need counseling? Hell the

656
00:28:12,880 --> 00:28:13,439
Speaker 4: fuck that.

657
00:28:15,800 --> 00:28:17,320
Speaker 1: I was waiting for you to stop. So I think

658
00:28:17,359 --> 00:28:19,439
Speaker 1: they will have you considered I need it.

659
00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 4: Or something I need it?

660
00:28:23,040 --> 00:28:25,639
Speaker 1: Yeah, yes, And it's crazy because like I sound like

661
00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:29,120
Speaker 1: pretty girl walk. That's like therapy for a lot of women. Yeah,

662
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:32,080
Speaker 1: that for me as well. That's when I says, so

663
00:28:32,160 --> 00:28:34,280
Speaker 1: your music, do you think your music is therapy for you?

664
00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:36,520
Speaker 4: Yes, Like like the.

665
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:41,240
Speaker 2: Affirmations that I put in my songs and all that,

666
00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:44,040
Speaker 2: like that literally pulled me out of dark holes, like

667
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:46,960
Speaker 2: when I like look at myself in the mirror, so

668
00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:50,240
Speaker 2: I'm telling myself exactly what I'm singing in my songs.

669
00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:52,280
Speaker 4: Like that was like helping me build.

670
00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:53,240
Speaker 1: Myself back up as well, you know.

671
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:57,080
Speaker 4: Like and if it helped me, I just feel like

672
00:28:57,240 --> 00:28:59,040
Speaker 4: that they can help somebody else because I don't.

673
00:28:59,160 --> 00:29:02,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, it has. And you see some of the viral

674
00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:05,680
Speaker 1: moments that you've had, like on TikTok and with your

675
00:29:05,800 --> 00:29:08,400
Speaker 1: music and the people posting their own videos to it,

676
00:29:08,760 --> 00:29:11,080
Speaker 1: it's empowering and that's really the theme of it.

677
00:29:12,160 --> 00:29:14,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like lit because I'd be like y'all like

678
00:29:14,560 --> 00:29:16,960
Speaker 2: really really love like like y'all like really fuck with me,

679
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,160
Speaker 2: and y'all just don't understand that it is a broken

680
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:21,840
Speaker 2: person behind its good ass body of work.

681
00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:25,080
Speaker 1: Like listen, that's when the best word comes from. Literally,

682
00:29:25,160 --> 00:29:27,800
Speaker 1: but it's like really got pain and things that are

683
00:29:27,880 --> 00:29:30,880
Speaker 1: inside of you that you express through your creativity. And

684
00:29:31,000 --> 00:29:33,560
Speaker 1: it's genuine that people accept that so much more than

685
00:29:33,640 --> 00:29:36,000
Speaker 1: some gimmik and shit just just made up that sounds

686
00:29:36,080 --> 00:29:38,440
Speaker 1: good when it feels good is when the people really

687
00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:39,360
Speaker 1: take to it.

688
00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:41,520
Speaker 2: But you also want to be healed enough to where

689
00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:44,160
Speaker 2: you don't have to create, like to where you're not

690
00:29:44,360 --> 00:29:47,800
Speaker 2: only creative when you are going through pain, like true,

691
00:29:47,880 --> 00:29:49,560
Speaker 2: that is kind of where I'm man like, like I

692
00:29:49,640 --> 00:29:51,800
Speaker 2: can create through my pain anything else.

693
00:29:51,840 --> 00:29:53,480
Speaker 1: Now, I want to create through my happy. When I'm cool,

694
00:29:53,480 --> 00:29:55,400
Speaker 1: I'll be like, gosh, I'm happy. I wanted shit.

695
00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:59,800
Speaker 2: And that's about why I need accountsl because you think

696
00:30:00,240 --> 00:30:05,080
Speaker 2: you definitely you know you'll get there, absolutely, you'll get there.

697
00:30:05,240 --> 00:30:07,200
Speaker 1: And we always and you know how people would be like,

698
00:30:07,520 --> 00:30:09,360
Speaker 1: we need this person to go through heartbreak again so

699
00:30:09,400 --> 00:30:10,400
Speaker 1: they could put out a marrea.

700
00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:15,800
Speaker 3: I don't other people, but it is awful.

701
00:30:15,680 --> 00:30:19,240
Speaker 2: Right, please the traumatized and no one wants to go

702
00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:21,200
Speaker 2: through what they went through when they gave you the

703
00:30:21,240 --> 00:30:22,000
Speaker 2: good body of work.

704
00:30:22,040 --> 00:30:23,000
Speaker 4: I promise no one.

705
00:30:23,160 --> 00:30:24,440
Speaker 3: But what type of people do you date?

706
00:30:24,520 --> 00:30:24,640
Speaker 2: Now?

707
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:26,320
Speaker 1: Uh? You know what?

708
00:30:26,920 --> 00:30:30,240
Speaker 4: So I like, I'm like pantation, you know, like I don't.

709
00:30:30,280 --> 00:30:31,800
Speaker 4: I don't. I don't have a type, like I don't.

710
00:30:31,920 --> 00:30:33,960
Speaker 4: I don't. I don't see gender, I don't see color,

711
00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:39,200
Speaker 4: I don't see anything. People like what do you like? Sometimes?

712
00:30:39,480 --> 00:30:42,080
Speaker 4: To be honest, I like when people be means to me,

713
00:30:42,840 --> 00:30:46,880
Speaker 4: cow that's the trauma means to me.

714
00:30:47,160 --> 00:30:49,840
Speaker 2: And then once once I get them, if they still

715
00:30:49,880 --> 00:30:51,800
Speaker 2: mean that, I don't like them because what you mean

716
00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:52,200
Speaker 2: to mean.

717
00:30:53,760 --> 00:30:55,480
Speaker 3: Somebody to teach you really nice and great?

718
00:30:55,680 --> 00:30:57,800
Speaker 4: Like when people are nice to me. I like when

719
00:30:57,800 --> 00:30:58,719
Speaker 4: people don't know who I am.

720
00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:00,640
Speaker 3: Like when you say mean to you, what do you mean?

721
00:31:00,800 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 1: Like?

722
00:31:01,640 --> 00:31:02,320
Speaker 4: Okay, So for.

723
00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:06,040
Speaker 2: Example, I had like I was I was attractive to,

724
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:10,480
Speaker 2: Like I was attracted to a person. I was like

725
00:31:10,800 --> 00:31:13,600
Speaker 2: going going into a club and she was like the

726
00:31:13,920 --> 00:31:16,480
Speaker 2: security of the club and she was mean as fuck,

727
00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:19,240
Speaker 2: Like she was like where I did because she thought

728
00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:21,120
Speaker 2: that I was younger, because because I always had a

729
00:31:21,360 --> 00:31:23,480
Speaker 2: baby face, and I'm like it's right here, I'm like,

730
00:31:23,840 --> 00:31:24,520
Speaker 2: where is yours?

731
00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:27,240
Speaker 4: Well, I ain't got one. I'm like, damn, like damn, I.

732
00:31:27,320 --> 00:31:28,920
Speaker 1: What can I get your number? And then she was

733
00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 1: like cute for you real?

734
00:31:30,960 --> 00:31:34,640
Speaker 4: I'm like, I was just like, damn, want the funk

735
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:35,080
Speaker 4: out like that.

736
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:39,200
Speaker 1: She's like she was a real bitch. You like that

737
00:31:39,400 --> 00:31:42,600
Speaker 1: challenge at the challenge part, and then when she was nice,

738
00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:45,080
Speaker 1: you ain't like her no more. She was nice, which

739
00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:49,040
Speaker 1: was doing me okay, go out, yeah, and she.

740
00:31:49,160 --> 00:31:50,080
Speaker 3: Was mean when you went out.

741
00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:53,440
Speaker 1: She's cool, Okay, you're definitely her one time in band

742
00:31:53,480 --> 00:31:54,400
Speaker 1: cap story.

743
00:31:57,200 --> 00:32:04,600
Speaker 2: She said you serious, Literally, you're like serious, but I

744
00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:06,560
Speaker 2: ain't even you know, she won't even roar no more.

745
00:32:06,560 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm serious, kusu your number.

746
00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:08,680
Speaker 3: That's a good idea.

747
00:32:08,800 --> 00:32:10,680
Speaker 1: Somebody's rude to you and security at the club to

748
00:32:10,760 --> 00:32:13,720
Speaker 1: do that. And then I was and then I saw

749
00:32:13,760 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 1: to block her again because I went back to the

750
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:19,920
Speaker 1: toxicans niggas I I'm telling you about. Yeah, yeah, Jesus, yeah,

751
00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:22,800
Speaker 1: I'm hey. You ever used to have to get embarrassed,

752
00:32:22,840 --> 00:32:24,640
Speaker 1: like to tell your friends like I'm back with him,

753
00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:25,600
Speaker 1: because you know, they.

754
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:27,720
Speaker 4: Know usually sometimes I ain't tell that.

755
00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:30,040
Speaker 1: They just looked at my fucking location because the was nosy.

756
00:32:34,880 --> 00:32:37,840
Speaker 1: You saw me, bro, Yes, I told you, Why are

757
00:32:37,880 --> 00:32:38,640
Speaker 1: you bringing it up?

758
00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:42,600
Speaker 4: I forgat thing I moved on.

759
00:32:43,120 --> 00:32:43,880
Speaker 1: It's your turn down.

760
00:32:44,240 --> 00:32:49,000
Speaker 2: And then like to be completely honest, So my friends

761
00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:50,560
Speaker 2: that like used to do me like that, I'm not

762
00:32:50,640 --> 00:32:55,040
Speaker 2: friends with them no more because honestly speaking, yeah, it's

763
00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:56,920
Speaker 2: like you'd be more mad than me, but like, do

764
00:32:57,120 --> 00:33:00,840
Speaker 2: not make me me feel less of a person, less

765
00:33:00,880 --> 00:33:02,960
Speaker 2: of a friend, or you don't want to be cool

766
00:33:03,000 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 2: with me nowhere because I'm going back. And if you

767
00:33:05,920 --> 00:33:08,800
Speaker 2: don't want to, don't like, do not be my friend,

768
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:12,200
Speaker 2: but don't sit her and trump me all the again.

769
00:33:12,280 --> 00:33:14,440
Speaker 1: That's why I tell people i'd be like, look, I

770
00:33:14,520 --> 00:33:16,160
Speaker 1: support you and whatever you decide to do.

771
00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:18,840
Speaker 3: I don't like him, but whatever you want to.

772
00:33:18,840 --> 00:33:19,560
Speaker 4: Do, I'm listening.

773
00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:22,720
Speaker 2: If you like it, I love it. If you don't

774
00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:24,760
Speaker 2: like him, I hate that nigga. Fuck him, you know,

775
00:33:25,040 --> 00:33:28,920
Speaker 2: like right, But it's like trying to tell me, like

776
00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:30,880
Speaker 2: break up with him. You don't need to be with

777
00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:32,560
Speaker 2: him because I say so because you're my friend.

778
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:35,920
Speaker 1: That ain't gonna make nobody enough anything and make somebody

779
00:33:36,000 --> 00:33:42,840
Speaker 1: more defensive and try to get you that it really hard,

780
00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 1: and I'm still sitting her getting traumas bitch, trying to

781
00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:48,120
Speaker 1: prove to you that I'm.

782
00:33:48,040 --> 00:33:48,680
Speaker 4: Not getting trauma.

783
00:33:49,040 --> 00:33:52,920
Speaker 1: Literally. Wow. But let's talk about all the great things

784
00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:56,600
Speaker 1: that have happened to Yes, ma'am, Yes, because I mean honestly,

785
00:33:56,760 --> 00:33:58,920
Speaker 1: the Spider Man, Spider Man.

786
00:33:59,040 --> 00:34:03,640
Speaker 2: We gotta roll aliud cal Cali. We got rolled out

787
00:34:03,640 --> 00:34:06,280
Speaker 2: of Miami. We got the bet Awards, We got the

788
00:34:06,360 --> 00:34:09,239
Speaker 2: bet Awards. Squarpy it, you know, because you know, bad bitch,

789
00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:10,840
Speaker 2: you have to put on that put on.

790
00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:12,239
Speaker 4: That green dress with a plate.

791
00:34:14,360 --> 00:34:15,360
Speaker 3: Survival of the Thickets.

792
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:17,400
Speaker 1: They had your song, Snapicket.

793
00:34:17,520 --> 00:34:20,719
Speaker 2: Yes, we had insecrit started at first, you know, she

794
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:23,360
Speaker 2: started thinking, come on, that's.

795
00:34:23,239 --> 00:34:27,360
Speaker 4: The way, cousin, give me up. Hit me up, Come on, cousin.

796
00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:30,080
Speaker 1: You know, like, and she got the label too, because

797
00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:31,960
Speaker 1: you know, she loved That's why it was good for

798
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:34,200
Speaker 1: her to have a record label, because she loves really

799
00:34:34,280 --> 00:34:36,680
Speaker 1: like putting artists on that everybody at first.

800
00:34:36,520 --> 00:34:37,000
Speaker 3: May not know.

801
00:34:37,680 --> 00:34:39,680
Speaker 2: I literally love her, and she don't even know me

802
00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:42,000
Speaker 2: because it was like, like, you gave me a chance

803
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:45,680
Speaker 2: when nobody else did, you know, And to be honest,

804
00:34:45,840 --> 00:34:47,800
Speaker 2: at first, when they first reached out, I thought it

805
00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:48,600
Speaker 2: was a scam, so I.

806
00:34:48,719 --> 00:34:51,800
Speaker 4: Was like, I was like, bro, like, y'all not gonna

807
00:34:51,840 --> 00:34:52,080
Speaker 4: get me.

808
00:34:53,680 --> 00:34:57,160
Speaker 2: And the man finally wrote me from his real Twitter

809
00:34:57,400 --> 00:35:00,439
Speaker 2: and he was like verified, I'm just like cousin, I'm sorry.

810
00:35:01,200 --> 00:35:04,520
Speaker 4: Oh gosh, oh, I am so sorry.

811
00:35:04,680 --> 00:35:07,560
Speaker 2: But then we made it work and I'm just like, yo,

812
00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:09,799
Speaker 2: I promise, I'm not a bitch, but you gotta scare

813
00:35:09,880 --> 00:35:11,920
Speaker 2: me a little bit because I'm y'all in this game.

814
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:14,600
Speaker 1: I've been scared like like so much where when people preach,

815
00:35:14,680 --> 00:35:17,399
Speaker 1: I'll be like, what you want? I know you said

816
00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:19,360
Speaker 1: you had bad management at first.

817
00:35:19,200 --> 00:35:19,839
Speaker 4: Yeah, like I had.

818
00:35:20,080 --> 00:35:21,719
Speaker 2: I had a lot of bad ship that I went through,

819
00:35:21,760 --> 00:35:23,080
Speaker 2: certain shit I can't need to speak on, you know,

820
00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:26,040
Speaker 2: because it was so fucked up. But it's like at

821
00:35:26,120 --> 00:35:29,240
Speaker 2: this point in time that has molded me in into

822
00:35:29,360 --> 00:35:32,000
Speaker 2: the woman that I am saying, you know, And at

823
00:35:32,160 --> 00:35:34,840
Speaker 2: times I do miss the owe me that I was

824
00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:37,160
Speaker 2: before I got into all the all the bushit that

825
00:35:37,200 --> 00:35:40,359
Speaker 2: I've been through. But she's gone, She's dead and gone,

826
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:42,640
Speaker 2: and come to relization that she's never come back there.

827
00:35:42,760 --> 00:35:44,680
Speaker 2: That was the hardest shit I ever do. Like it

828
00:35:44,840 --> 00:35:47,680
Speaker 2: was like losing my cousin all over again. That was

829
00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:49,600
Speaker 2: the pain that I felt when I when I had

830
00:35:49,640 --> 00:35:51,520
Speaker 2: to come to realization that I would never be her again.

831
00:35:52,320 --> 00:35:54,440
Speaker 2: And it's like, shit, you just gotta learn and just

832
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:55,759
Speaker 2: live with you, gotta learn to cope with you. Just

833
00:35:55,760 --> 00:35:58,279
Speaker 2: gotta learn how to just be you without being that

834
00:35:58,360 --> 00:35:58,879
Speaker 2: person again.

835
00:35:59,480 --> 00:35:59,960
Speaker 4: And that was all.

836
00:36:00,440 --> 00:36:02,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, that is hard. It's a new normal, but it's

837
00:36:02,840 --> 00:36:06,120
Speaker 1: like shutting off some of that. But sometimes it's hard

838
00:36:06,120 --> 00:36:09,440
Speaker 1: because you want to also feel like the naive feeling

839
00:36:09,520 --> 00:36:11,960
Speaker 1: that you used to have, and it's also a familiar

840
00:36:12,040 --> 00:36:16,120
Speaker 1: feeling too, Yeah, comfortable, it's suffer. Yeah, you know, you

841
00:36:16,160 --> 00:36:18,440
Speaker 1: don't want to have to be like skeptical of everything

842
00:36:18,520 --> 00:36:21,480
Speaker 1: and everybody. And sometimes when things are going good, sometimes

843
00:36:21,520 --> 00:36:23,000
Speaker 1: you think something bad gotta happen.

844
00:36:23,239 --> 00:36:24,800
Speaker 4: And I was true, I was.

845
00:36:24,880 --> 00:36:26,560
Speaker 2: I was with like like I was so bad with

846
00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:28,640
Speaker 2: it when my team was like, bro, no one is

847
00:36:28,640 --> 00:36:30,960
Speaker 2: trying to play you like bro, like like calm down,

848
00:36:31,520 --> 00:36:33,440
Speaker 2: no one is trying to put you in bullshit. I

849
00:36:33,520 --> 00:36:36,600
Speaker 2: promise like we want the best for you because if

850
00:36:36,680 --> 00:36:37,920
Speaker 2: you win, then we win, you know.

851
00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:38,480
Speaker 4: Like it was.

852
00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:43,040
Speaker 2: It was multiple conversations on on on that you know level,

853
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:45,080
Speaker 2: because I was just like I don't know I don't know.

854
00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:46,920
Speaker 2: I don't know what if they do this to us,

855
00:36:46,920 --> 00:36:48,719
Speaker 2: and they was like, nah, really they don't. They don't

856
00:36:48,719 --> 00:36:50,840
Speaker 2: want to do that, like this is a big company,

857
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,960
Speaker 2: like you know, so learning how to just get up

858
00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:55,080
Speaker 2: out of it and not black.

859
00:36:56,160 --> 00:36:58,080
Speaker 3: You cannot black your blessings.

860
00:36:57,640 --> 00:36:59,480
Speaker 2: Because I was good for it, and I was good

861
00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:02,560
Speaker 2: for self to you know, like when I feel like

862
00:37:02,600 --> 00:37:06,000
Speaker 2: that I deserve something and I got it, I was like, bitch,

863
00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:08,839
Speaker 2: type of wood, this is not right.

864
00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:12,560
Speaker 4: I'm not supposed to have this, you know, and I was.

865
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:14,600
Speaker 4: It was actually meant for me, but I didn't know

866
00:37:14,640 --> 00:37:17,480
Speaker 4: how to actually yeah, absolutely.

867
00:37:17,840 --> 00:37:20,160
Speaker 1: Listen, even going back to a song like I don't

868
00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:22,920
Speaker 1: need you know, we love that song, but we realized

869
00:37:23,080 --> 00:37:27,239
Speaker 1: we do herry out her out.

870
00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:31,879
Speaker 2: When I make songs like that, it be coming from

871
00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:33,960
Speaker 2: a hurt place because I kind of get back into

872
00:37:34,040 --> 00:37:37,759
Speaker 2: that fucking mold to like make my song saying fuck

873
00:37:37,840 --> 00:37:41,320
Speaker 2: these niggas, even though these niggas my cousins too, I

874
00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:43,000
Speaker 2: promise I'll do because they be in my comments, like

875
00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:44,640
Speaker 2: you don't even like niggas.

876
00:37:44,320 --> 00:37:51,600
Speaker 4: Who told you all that all ILF? I am big,

877
00:37:53,160 --> 00:37:57,160
Speaker 4: but say like what nigga you need? I just need one,

878
00:37:58,280 --> 00:38:00,440
Speaker 4: which one thick on?

879
00:38:00,600 --> 00:38:00,640
Speaker 5: What?

880
00:38:01,719 --> 00:38:06,400
Speaker 1: So now that y'all definitely some of y'all have a shelf.

881
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:07,600
Speaker 4: Don't y'all need a chef?

882
00:38:07,680 --> 00:38:10,560
Speaker 1: I eat some of y'all change turns like come on

883
00:38:10,680 --> 00:38:13,680
Speaker 1: out like like like I ain't say y'all some of you.

884
00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:16,959
Speaker 3: Let's be clear, Hello, it's just fun.

885
00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:17,640
Speaker 4: I like that song.

886
00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:19,600
Speaker 1: I love that song. I don't love that song too

887
00:38:19,680 --> 00:38:25,960
Speaker 1: so well even though, but I still love the song love.

888
00:38:26,040 --> 00:38:28,000
Speaker 3: I wonder you think you'll ever do like a love

889
00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:29,120
Speaker 3: song sometime soon.

890
00:38:29,680 --> 00:38:31,839
Speaker 1: Yeah. We got ghettle love on the on the ep

891
00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:35,960
Speaker 1: Okay Resilient, Yeah, get over you know?

892
00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:40,960
Speaker 2: And this that's like a story basically about like how

893
00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:44,400
Speaker 2: you just love a nigga so much you think you

894
00:38:44,480 --> 00:38:46,000
Speaker 2: know you but he really ain't. But you really love

895
00:38:46,080 --> 00:38:50,719
Speaker 2: his nigga and ship. Yeah, and it's like a hood

896
00:38:50,760 --> 00:38:52,720
Speaker 2: type of love. So you know how they should be going,

897
00:38:53,160 --> 00:38:54,680
Speaker 2: you know, drama toxic.

898
00:38:54,800 --> 00:38:55,000
Speaker 4: See.

899
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:56,440
Speaker 3: I felt that the Cat was going to be a

900
00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:58,600
Speaker 3: love song, but it's really not at all.

901
00:38:58,680 --> 00:38:59,640
Speaker 1: I mean it is a little bit.

902
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:01,239
Speaker 3: It's like I love when you lick the cat, but

903
00:39:02,239 --> 00:39:05,239
Speaker 3: don't kiss me. Don't come on.

904
00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:08,480
Speaker 1: Let's just showing love to the cat Hello got to

905
00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:09,480
Speaker 1: you gotta please her.

906
00:39:09,960 --> 00:39:14,200
Speaker 2: And it's different like when I when I first started,

907
00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:17,520
Speaker 2: like my crossover records, or like my commercial records or

908
00:39:17,760 --> 00:39:20,680
Speaker 2: my or my different records, I was terrified of them,

909
00:39:20,760 --> 00:39:22,800
Speaker 2: Like I wasn't confident in them, you know, because I'm like,

910
00:39:23,160 --> 00:39:24,000
Speaker 2: I never rap like this.

911
00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:24,839
Speaker 4: This is not my cord.

912
00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:28,279
Speaker 2: It's not how how I do things. And in the

913
00:39:28,640 --> 00:39:31,279
Speaker 2: in the now it is it is. It is so

914
00:39:31,600 --> 00:39:33,799
Speaker 2: like you just got to speak about everything that's happened.

915
00:39:33,840 --> 00:39:35,400
Speaker 2: Now you gotta be wrong, you gotta be crazy.

916
00:39:35,680 --> 00:39:36,400
Speaker 1: I don't want to do that.

917
00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:40,040
Speaker 2: I mean I did at one point, but once I

918
00:39:40,120 --> 00:39:42,239
Speaker 2: came in the realization there like it was only getting

919
00:39:42,280 --> 00:39:43,200
Speaker 2: me to a certain point.

920
00:39:43,239 --> 00:39:44,759
Speaker 4: It's like, what's next.

921
00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:48,520
Speaker 2: I knew for a fact that I had to make

922
00:39:48,600 --> 00:39:51,080
Speaker 2: the change for myself for the fucking better, you know,

923
00:39:51,280 --> 00:39:55,680
Speaker 2: and and changing your music when your core fucking fan

924
00:39:55,800 --> 00:39:58,200
Speaker 2: base is shaking ass supposed to be sucking the night

925
00:39:58,280 --> 00:40:01,479
Speaker 2: bit your nigga, it's hard right because they're gonna throw

926
00:40:01,560 --> 00:40:04,040
Speaker 2: you to the motherfucking ends of this world, Like, bitch,

927
00:40:04,120 --> 00:40:04,480
Speaker 2: what is this?

928
00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:06,520
Speaker 4: Why did you let them put this out? Why you

929
00:40:06,600 --> 00:40:07,279
Speaker 4: look to change you?

930
00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:11,640
Speaker 2: And it's so hard to just stay on your path

931
00:40:11,760 --> 00:40:13,640
Speaker 2: when you have all this ship going on around you.

932
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:19,560
Speaker 2: But it like that self awareness and you having a

933
00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:22,479
Speaker 2: great ass team that was just instilling you, Like, bitch,

934
00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:25,120
Speaker 2: look whatever these bitches on wine talking about I Swore

935
00:40:25,200 --> 00:40:30,960
Speaker 2: to God is a hit and it's like shit, like

936
00:40:31,160 --> 00:40:33,360
Speaker 2: just knowing, like, bitch, I'm made great ass music. I

937
00:40:33,480 --> 00:40:36,120
Speaker 2: make by mass music. No matter if you feel this

938
00:40:36,160 --> 00:40:38,600
Speaker 2: ship now or in five years, bitch, you is literally

939
00:40:38,680 --> 00:40:41,400
Speaker 2: going to know that I make hits like the the

940
00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:44,640
Speaker 2: artist in me that that I am building is going

941
00:40:44,719 --> 00:40:46,080
Speaker 2: to last a lifetime.

942
00:40:46,680 --> 00:40:47,000
Speaker 4: I don't.

943
00:40:47,120 --> 00:40:48,920
Speaker 2: I don't want to do things that would just last

944
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:52,280
Speaker 2: me a year or two, Like I like, I literally

945
00:40:52,560 --> 00:40:54,600
Speaker 2: want to be in this game for the rest of

946
00:40:54,640 --> 00:40:55,040
Speaker 2: my life.

947
00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:55,680
Speaker 3: I love it.

948
00:40:58,120 --> 00:41:04,200
Speaker 1: Gonna be in the movies, right, I like, you could

949
00:41:04,239 --> 00:41:07,439
Speaker 1: write your own movie because honest to your life, Yes,

950
00:41:08,840 --> 00:41:09,960
Speaker 1: crazy book.

951
00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:13,640
Speaker 2: We had dropped a little mini docu when I dropped

952
00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:16,799
Speaker 2: my EP, and if I ain't seen it, go watch

953
00:41:16,840 --> 00:41:22,560
Speaker 2: it now. And it's just like every time did I

954
00:41:22,680 --> 00:41:25,959
Speaker 2: do any anything, like, no matter if it's so radio

955
00:41:26,040 --> 00:41:29,080
Speaker 2: interview podcast, like I don't never sell every everyone the

956
00:41:29,120 --> 00:41:31,200
Speaker 2: same thing that I told somebody else. You're always gonna

957
00:41:31,200 --> 00:41:33,279
Speaker 2: get a different version of me. You always gonna get

958
00:41:33,280 --> 00:41:35,359
Speaker 2: like more of me because it's like, now we're here.

959
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:37,640
Speaker 2: I already said something about that back in the day,

960
00:41:37,800 --> 00:41:38,920
Speaker 2: so now we can say something about this.

961
00:41:39,520 --> 00:41:40,040
Speaker 4: Now I can.

962
00:41:40,600 --> 00:41:42,800
Speaker 2: Now I can share this part of my life with you,

963
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:45,080
Speaker 2: you know, like back in the day, like I was,

964
00:41:45,239 --> 00:41:47,200
Speaker 2: I was one rowdy ass bitch, Like I was one

965
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:49,279
Speaker 2: rowdy ass, raunchy ass bitch that I give a fuck.

966
00:41:49,719 --> 00:41:53,560
Speaker 2: And hell like now, since I'm a different person, when

967
00:41:53,600 --> 00:41:55,880
Speaker 2: them videos and me come up, I'd.

968
00:41:55,719 --> 00:42:02,040
Speaker 1: Be like, damn growth. You know what, though, I will say,

969
00:42:02,239 --> 00:42:06,360
Speaker 1: it's just when I some of us grew up, we

970
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:08,319
Speaker 1: didn't have access to like be able to put out

971
00:42:08,440 --> 00:42:11,239
Speaker 1: videos and just have all of that I should have been.

972
00:42:11,520 --> 00:42:12,280
Speaker 3: I'm grateful.

973
00:42:12,480 --> 00:42:16,400
Speaker 1: I'm grateful that I e me, you know, because it

974
00:42:16,520 --> 00:42:19,960
Speaker 1: doesn't allow you to you know, sometimes it's a gift

975
00:42:20,040 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 1: in a curse, because it's great to be able to

976
00:42:21,560 --> 00:42:24,120
Speaker 1: look back at where you started and like see what

977
00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:26,360
Speaker 1: you evolved into. But for me, I don't know, I

978
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:28,160
Speaker 1: was wild too, and I don't know if I would

979
00:42:28,200 --> 00:42:29,120
Speaker 1: have wanted people to see that.

980
00:42:29,480 --> 00:42:30,360
Speaker 3: Because it's hard.

981
00:42:30,680 --> 00:42:33,320
Speaker 2: It is what I would say about me and my

982
00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:35,480
Speaker 2: life is. I was wild as a motherfucker, so my

983
00:42:35,680 --> 00:42:38,319
Speaker 2: mouth was crazy and nothing was off limits. So if

984
00:42:38,360 --> 00:42:42,080
Speaker 2: you ever see a video on me that was back, listen,

985
00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:43,960
Speaker 2: do not put that jacket on me, and do not

986
00:42:44,160 --> 00:42:46,399
Speaker 2: judge me for who I used to be, because I'm

987
00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:50,120
Speaker 2: a whole different woman right now. So that lady in

988
00:42:50,160 --> 00:42:51,960
Speaker 2: them video that I ain't that ain't mean no more, like,

989
00:42:52,239 --> 00:42:53,960
Speaker 2: which is why did I go to the point where

990
00:42:53,960 --> 00:42:57,000
Speaker 2: I'd be like, yeah, I be chill, I be calm

991
00:42:57,160 --> 00:42:58,759
Speaker 2: because the meat back in the day.

992
00:42:58,760 --> 00:43:01,120
Speaker 4: But I was a wolf. I'm not her no more.

993
00:43:01,520 --> 00:43:02,560
Speaker 1: But that's her of resilience?

994
00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:03,320
Speaker 3: Is that perfectly?

995
00:43:03,560 --> 00:43:04,120
Speaker 4: Literally?

996
00:43:04,239 --> 00:43:08,080
Speaker 1: I don't I don't have to be strong like y'all

997
00:43:08,640 --> 00:43:09,160
Speaker 1: growing up.

998
00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:11,560
Speaker 2: I like, I just feel like that I was in

999
00:43:11,600 --> 00:43:16,080
Speaker 2: a fucking jungle within my house, within the school, within

1000
00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:18,360
Speaker 2: my friends I hung around like like like I always

1001
00:43:18,520 --> 00:43:20,160
Speaker 2: had to be the strong one, Like I was the

1002
00:43:20,239 --> 00:43:22,319
Speaker 2: friend that they would always call to come help them fight.

1003
00:43:22,640 --> 00:43:24,040
Speaker 4: I don't have to be her no more.

1004
00:43:24,840 --> 00:43:28,000
Speaker 1: So. Whoever that bitch was back in the day, whatever

1005
00:43:28,120 --> 00:43:31,080
Speaker 1: she said, whatever she did, please don't please don't judge

1006
00:43:31,120 --> 00:43:31,880
Speaker 1: woman I am. Now.

1007
00:43:32,480 --> 00:43:35,040
Speaker 5: Do you think you're not having your mother around? Had

1008
00:43:35,120 --> 00:43:38,560
Speaker 5: anything to do with you being angry growing up.

1009
00:43:38,640 --> 00:43:40,960
Speaker 2: Or so crazy parties. I did have a mother around,

1010
00:43:41,000 --> 00:43:44,960
Speaker 2: you know, but it's like we didn't like we was

1011
00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:49,000
Speaker 2: not close back in the day, like like as a

1012
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:53,160
Speaker 2: as a kid, like I was like very rebellious, you know,

1013
00:43:53,400 --> 00:43:55,959
Speaker 2: so to say so, like it was like very hard

1014
00:43:56,080 --> 00:43:57,920
Speaker 2: for hard to even like try to even pair me

1015
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:00,759
Speaker 2: because it was it was hard and speaking like, I

1016
00:44:00,880 --> 00:44:03,040
Speaker 2: feel like that she came from broken parents because of

1017
00:44:03,120 --> 00:44:05,560
Speaker 2: the things that I used to endure as a child.

1018
00:44:05,640 --> 00:44:07,600
Speaker 2: So I can't judge you off that because that is

1019
00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:11,080
Speaker 2: what you were taught, right, And I'm the one that

1020
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:11,959
Speaker 2: want to break the curse.

1021
00:44:12,080 --> 00:44:14,040
Speaker 4: I don't. I don't want to treat my kids like this.

1022
00:44:14,160 --> 00:44:16,080
Speaker 4: I don't. I don't want to put my kids through this.

1023
00:44:16,440 --> 00:44:17,320
Speaker 4: And I'm not, you know.

1024
00:44:17,520 --> 00:44:21,920
Speaker 5: So it's like, how does she feel now? Before I

1025
00:44:21,960 --> 00:44:23,719
Speaker 5: thought you said I didn't have my mom, so I

1026
00:44:23,840 --> 00:44:25,920
Speaker 5: did have her, But but how does she feel now?

1027
00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:27,239
Speaker 5: How is the relationship gotten better?

1028
00:44:28,920 --> 00:44:29,200
Speaker 1: She is?

1029
00:44:29,440 --> 00:44:31,600
Speaker 4: She is my best sie now, she is healing and

1030
00:44:32,040 --> 00:44:33,360
Speaker 4: we is on the whole new journey.

1031
00:44:34,360 --> 00:44:37,600
Speaker 2: Like and I'm so proud of her for for even

1032
00:44:37,640 --> 00:44:40,279
Speaker 2: taking that step to to actually want to grow to

1033
00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:45,680
Speaker 2: like actually want to know the things that was traumatizing

1034
00:44:45,719 --> 00:44:47,239
Speaker 2: to me as a child, So she won't do that

1035
00:44:47,280 --> 00:44:49,680
Speaker 2: to her grandkids because she is the best grandmother.

1036
00:44:50,080 --> 00:44:52,759
Speaker 4: And sometimes I'd be like, you won't do that to us,

1037
00:44:53,480 --> 00:44:53,680
Speaker 4: you know.

1038
00:44:53,960 --> 00:44:58,520
Speaker 2: But yeah, and like like as a kid, like I

1039
00:44:58,640 --> 00:45:02,800
Speaker 2: was going through like got called meningitis, Like I was

1040
00:45:02,840 --> 00:45:04,600
Speaker 2: in the hospital for like a very long time, like

1041
00:45:04,640 --> 00:45:07,239
Speaker 2: I had no monia, like like like like I was

1042
00:45:07,320 --> 00:45:09,680
Speaker 2: going through a lot of ship to where I needed

1043
00:45:09,719 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 2: a nurturing mother. But since she was so damned she

1044
00:45:12,440 --> 00:45:15,800
Speaker 2: she couldn't give me that. And it's okay because I

1045
00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:20,279
Speaker 2: had my grams. So wherever my mama le like my

1046
00:45:20,400 --> 00:45:23,520
Speaker 2: grandmother packed, I promised she was fine, you know. And

1047
00:45:23,960 --> 00:45:27,000
Speaker 2: we didn't have like all all the money, but I

1048
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:29,319
Speaker 2: mean we was, we was was it was good?

1049
00:45:29,360 --> 00:45:30,200
Speaker 3: What about your dad?

1050
00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:33,760
Speaker 4: He was he was in jail, okay, So I didn't.

1051
00:45:34,080 --> 00:45:35,080
Speaker 4: I was never close down.

1052
00:45:35,520 --> 00:45:38,160
Speaker 1: So it was like I mean I had contact at all,

1053
00:45:38,280 --> 00:45:39,960
Speaker 1: like calls and nothing.

1054
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:42,000
Speaker 2: We did at first, and then it just stopped. And

1055
00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 2: maybe that was for the better, you know, Like and

1056
00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:48,080
Speaker 2: I had to grow myself knowing that I don't have

1057
00:45:48,160 --> 00:45:49,680
Speaker 2: a dad, you know, so things that I had to

1058
00:45:49,719 --> 00:45:51,520
Speaker 2: go through with these men that I could have been taught.

1059
00:45:52,120 --> 00:45:53,719
Speaker 4: I just had to go through that shit, you know.

1060
00:45:53,920 --> 00:45:56,680
Speaker 1: So but I had a step father that was there,

1061
00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:57,840
Speaker 1: that was helping me, you know.

1062
00:45:58,080 --> 00:46:02,799
Speaker 2: But should I to him? But it's still like my dad,

1063
00:46:02,920 --> 00:46:05,719
Speaker 2: you know, I didn't have, but he stepped up and

1064
00:46:05,840 --> 00:46:07,600
Speaker 2: he was the dad that I was missing.

1065
00:46:07,680 --> 00:46:11,719
Speaker 1: So, and then you said you identify as pan sexual. Absolutely,

1066
00:46:11,840 --> 00:46:13,560
Speaker 1: have you had a relationship with a woman.

1067
00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:18,160
Speaker 2: You know what I was like back of the day

1068
00:46:18,239 --> 00:46:19,799
Speaker 2: when I used to ask my mom, like, hey, can

1069
00:46:19,840 --> 00:46:21,319
Speaker 2: I got to my friend's house, alreadyknew I was gay,

1070
00:46:21,680 --> 00:46:26,080
Speaker 2: Like not just gay, because I don't I don't want

1071
00:46:26,080 --> 00:46:28,200
Speaker 2: people to be like, oh like women. No, Like I

1072
00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:32,440
Speaker 2: alread knew that I like women, you know, but I

1073
00:46:32,560 --> 00:46:34,359
Speaker 2: didn't have the type of mom to where I can

1074
00:46:34,400 --> 00:46:37,960
Speaker 2: be like, hey, I like girls. No, So I hid

1075
00:46:38,040 --> 00:46:39,880
Speaker 2: that ship until I was of age and being like,

1076
00:46:39,880 --> 00:46:41,200
Speaker 2: I don't give a fun what y'all talking about.

1077
00:46:41,400 --> 00:46:44,040
Speaker 4: I like what I like, and I really did it.

1078
00:46:44,239 --> 00:46:46,160
Speaker 4: I brought boys home, girls on.

1079
00:46:46,280 --> 00:46:47,839
Speaker 1: It was like, what the fuck is going on? Bitch?

1080
00:46:48,040 --> 00:46:53,960
Speaker 1: I'm like a lot like to figure it out. I am.

1081
00:46:54,120 --> 00:46:56,680
Speaker 1: I am just a loving creature. So trying to figure

1082
00:46:56,719 --> 00:46:57,120
Speaker 1: it out, and.

1083
00:46:57,920 --> 00:46:59,840
Speaker 2: Now it's like, shit, I like what I like so

1084
00:47:00,520 --> 00:47:02,719
Speaker 2: loves her virginity to a woman, I absolutely did.

1085
00:47:03,840 --> 00:47:06,839
Speaker 4: How was it? It was good?

1086
00:47:08,440 --> 00:47:13,120
Speaker 1: It was we we ended and bliss. Let's just say

1087
00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:16,239
Speaker 1: that basically we made each other or as I love.

1088
00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:18,360
Speaker 1: When I was like a child, so we really shouldn't

1089
00:47:18,360 --> 00:47:21,560
Speaker 1: talk about it. Cut but I was way too young

1090
00:47:21,640 --> 00:47:25,000
Speaker 1: to be exploring vaginas and breasts. This girl had like

1091
00:47:25,080 --> 00:47:28,399
Speaker 1: seacup breast and we were like one digit year old.

1092
00:47:29,400 --> 00:47:32,120
Speaker 3: What yeah, she's like, well let's move on.

1093
00:47:35,719 --> 00:47:38,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, but you know we talked about that. Yeah,

1094
00:47:38,640 --> 00:47:40,960
Speaker 1: but as kids, you don't know, Like like you said,

1095
00:47:41,000 --> 00:47:42,680
Speaker 1: you don't know, and then if you don't have anybody

1096
00:47:42,760 --> 00:47:45,400
Speaker 1: to talk to about it, because sometimes you're taught like

1097
00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:47,440
Speaker 1: certain things are just wrong, so you feel like I

1098
00:47:47,520 --> 00:47:48,080
Speaker 1: can't even.

1099
00:47:48,000 --> 00:47:50,839
Speaker 2: Discuss this absolutely And it's like I was never really

1100
00:47:50,880 --> 00:47:54,239
Speaker 2: close to my family and my grams. I didn't like

1101
00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:58,840
Speaker 2: I've learned cod switching at a very young age, like

1102
00:47:59,200 --> 00:48:01,719
Speaker 2: around my mama, I was, I was, I was, I

1103
00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:05,240
Speaker 2: was here around my grandmother. Yeah, so I was different,

1104
00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:07,719
Speaker 2: so I knew what I couldn't tell my grandma because

1105
00:48:07,719 --> 00:48:08,640
Speaker 2: I didn't want to cross o herself.

1106
00:48:08,680 --> 00:48:08,959
Speaker 4: I didn't.

1107
00:48:08,960 --> 00:48:10,799
Speaker 2: I didn't want to have our worry and I knew

1108
00:48:10,840 --> 00:48:12,440
Speaker 2: what I could tell my mama because I didn't. I

1109
00:48:12,480 --> 00:48:14,400
Speaker 2: didn't want to get the back last year yielded or

1110
00:48:15,000 --> 00:48:18,920
Speaker 2: or all that, you know, And I kept that shit

1111
00:48:18,960 --> 00:48:21,440
Speaker 2: to myself until me and my cousin tell you just

1112
00:48:21,480 --> 00:48:23,719
Speaker 2: started started middle school together.

1113
00:48:23,800 --> 00:48:26,200
Speaker 4: And that is when I had this person to just.

1114
00:48:26,239 --> 00:48:28,680
Speaker 1: Be like, bitch, is this weird? Bitch? I did this?

1115
00:48:29,760 --> 00:48:31,239
Speaker 4: Do you experience this as a girl?

1116
00:48:31,480 --> 00:48:31,520
Speaker 1: Like?

1117
00:48:31,600 --> 00:48:31,880
Speaker 4: Okay?

1118
00:48:31,960 --> 00:48:32,120
Speaker 3: You know?

1119
00:48:32,280 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 2: And that was my only escape from like learning life.

1120
00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:38,279
Speaker 2: So she would go through shit for me, and I

1121
00:48:38,320 --> 00:48:39,440
Speaker 2: would go through it for her, and.

1122
00:48:39,640 --> 00:48:41,799
Speaker 1: Y'all would figure it out talking through That's what That's

1123
00:48:41,840 --> 00:48:44,360
Speaker 1: part of why lip Service even exists, to be honest,

1124
00:48:44,680 --> 00:48:46,799
Speaker 1: because I feel like when we first started this, there

1125
00:48:46,840 --> 00:48:48,640
Speaker 1: wasn't a lot of places for people to hear things.

1126
00:48:48,680 --> 00:48:51,840
Speaker 1: Sometimes you think you're weird, or you think something's not normal,

1127
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:54,440
Speaker 1: or you have questions about something, and we could sit

1128
00:48:54,520 --> 00:48:58,520
Speaker 1: here and talk about anything and yeah, so that's part

1129
00:48:58,640 --> 00:49:03,960
Speaker 1: of why we do this podcast to normalize conversations about sex. Yeah,

1130
00:49:04,120 --> 00:49:11,200
Speaker 1: love and sexuality and fetishes and anything. Finish, Hmm, do

1131
00:49:11,320 --> 00:49:12,040
Speaker 1: I have a fetish.

1132
00:49:13,440 --> 00:49:15,840
Speaker 3: I honestly, look, I feel like they be normal shaming

1133
00:49:15,920 --> 00:49:18,440
Speaker 3: me because I don't be. I feel like I'm so

1134
00:49:19,120 --> 00:49:22,000
Speaker 3: like Look, I love like I've always been.

1135
00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:24,600
Speaker 1: I think a relationship type of person, so I'm always

1136
00:49:24,640 --> 00:49:26,040
Speaker 1: in a relationship right with me?

1137
00:49:26,520 --> 00:49:30,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, have a man like. I don't feel like I do.

1138
00:49:30,200 --> 00:49:32,399
Speaker 1: Nothing too crazy. I enjoy having sex if I could

1139
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:33,440
Speaker 1: have it every single.

1140
00:49:33,280 --> 00:49:36,200
Speaker 3: Day real yeah, not on that.

1141
00:49:37,920 --> 00:49:40,160
Speaker 4: You don't want real lights, not really.

1142
00:49:40,520 --> 00:49:43,000
Speaker 1: Only it gotta be the first day when it's not heavy.

1143
00:49:43,680 --> 00:49:45,319
Speaker 4: It can't be happy if you don't put that time.

1144
00:49:46,120 --> 00:49:47,400
Speaker 3: No, I've done that.

1145
00:49:47,560 --> 00:49:52,160
Speaker 1: I don't like it, okay, because because I like to

1146
00:49:52,320 --> 00:49:53,960
Speaker 1: just lay down afterwards. I don't want to have to

1147
00:49:54,000 --> 00:49:56,480
Speaker 1: get up and clean myself like that and take a shower.

1148
00:49:56,640 --> 00:49:58,480
Speaker 1: And I'm not laying in no dried up blood.

1149
00:49:59,080 --> 00:50:01,120
Speaker 4: But like afterwards, you still have to wipe off with

1150
00:50:01,640 --> 00:50:03,120
Speaker 4: wad and leave it.

1151
00:50:04,680 --> 00:50:05,520
Speaker 3: How you do that?

1152
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:11,320
Speaker 1: I roll over and I like that. I'm like that

1153
00:50:11,920 --> 00:50:14,680
Speaker 1: on the situation. But I could do I could do

1154
00:50:14,680 --> 00:50:16,399
Speaker 1: it if it's my first day or like my last

1155
00:50:16,480 --> 00:50:17,240
Speaker 1: day in my period.

1156
00:50:17,280 --> 00:50:18,600
Speaker 3: But when it's heavy, I can't.

1157
00:50:19,080 --> 00:50:23,239
Speaker 1: I just it's too Yes, I have I don't like

1158
00:50:24,239 --> 00:50:26,319
Speaker 1: why because the same thing that you got to clean

1159
00:50:26,400 --> 00:50:32,880
Speaker 1: the bed and do all of that girl towel towels.

1160
00:50:33,000 --> 00:50:33,719
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

1161
00:50:33,920 --> 00:50:34,400
Speaker 1: You like.

1162
00:50:37,239 --> 00:50:38,000
Speaker 3: That on her period.

1163
00:50:39,520 --> 00:50:43,880
Speaker 4: That's normal me too. See that's why they that's why

1164
00:50:43,920 --> 00:50:44,360
Speaker 4: they love me.

1165
00:50:44,520 --> 00:50:45,560
Speaker 3: Would you watch it on video?

1166
00:50:46,680 --> 00:50:49,480
Speaker 4: Then I don't feel like I mean, I was dripping

1167
00:50:49,600 --> 00:50:49,759
Speaker 4: like that.

1168
00:50:51,200 --> 00:50:53,400
Speaker 1: I've done it on my heavy period, and I just

1169
00:50:53,800 --> 00:50:56,560
Speaker 1: know I don't like doing a not heavy heavy heavy

1170
00:50:56,800 --> 00:51:00,600
Speaker 1: because like, yeah, it was uncomfortable. I have no not

1171
00:51:00,960 --> 00:51:02,800
Speaker 1: like I didn't enjoy it. He enjoyed it, but I

1172
00:51:02,880 --> 00:51:08,759
Speaker 1: didn't enjoy it when I was self conscious. But if

1173
00:51:08,760 --> 00:51:10,840
Speaker 1: you know the shower, you don't, it's not.

1174
00:51:13,239 --> 00:51:14,680
Speaker 3: It was like the smell and the.

1175
00:51:14,719 --> 00:51:20,440
Speaker 1: Period smell was that when when you are so around

1176
00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:24,319
Speaker 1: and passionate and that it'd be actually witness coming out

1177
00:51:24,360 --> 00:51:27,640
Speaker 1: and not period. But don't on your period.

1178
00:51:30,600 --> 00:51:32,239
Speaker 4: So they held with Crims as well to like.

1179
00:51:33,880 --> 00:51:34,719
Speaker 3: I said, my man was.

1180
00:51:34,719 --> 00:51:36,239
Speaker 1: Loving it in my period because he get a lot

1181
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:39,360
Speaker 1: of head during that time, you know. And so and

1182
00:51:39,480 --> 00:51:42,319
Speaker 1: that's great because I still would take care of you.

1183
00:51:42,320 --> 00:51:43,120
Speaker 4: To give you a lot of head.

1184
00:51:43,400 --> 00:51:45,000
Speaker 2: You said, yeah, I gotta like you to get like

1185
00:51:45,280 --> 00:51:48,640
Speaker 2: like give I I have to like you, like I

1186
00:51:48,760 --> 00:51:51,440
Speaker 2: can't if I don't with you, like about.

1187
00:51:53,680 --> 00:51:54,239
Speaker 4: I ain't doing.

1188
00:51:55,880 --> 00:51:57,880
Speaker 1: Laura. Do you think you gotta fetish? What's your fetish?

1189
00:51:58,360 --> 00:52:02,600
Speaker 1: What's my fetishea my pussy, Jasmine? I don't think I

1190
00:52:02,680 --> 00:52:04,600
Speaker 1: gotta fetish. I like all normal stuff.

1191
00:52:04,920 --> 00:52:06,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, I can't, Like, I can't have sex with you.

1192
00:52:06,960 --> 00:52:07,720
Speaker 3: You don't eat my pussy.

1193
00:52:07,760 --> 00:52:09,800
Speaker 4: It's not gonna yeah, like that's and it's on a

1194
00:52:09,880 --> 00:52:11,240
Speaker 4: first day period and if.

1195
00:52:11,120 --> 00:52:14,000
Speaker 1: We do before we didn't do it, you have Yeah,

1196
00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:16,600
Speaker 1: you have to eat my pussy because I'm like, that's rude.

1197
00:52:16,760 --> 00:52:18,680
Speaker 4: That's part of a play. And who do you think

1198
00:52:18,719 --> 00:52:19,000
Speaker 4: you are?

1199
00:52:19,360 --> 00:52:20,319
Speaker 1: Like what's your.

1200
00:52:23,239 --> 00:52:24,400
Speaker 4: I am so standy?

1201
00:52:24,480 --> 00:52:28,000
Speaker 1: How do you do it? I like both best of

1202
00:52:28,040 --> 00:52:32,680
Speaker 1: both worlds, but jealous you have to be like do

1203
00:52:32,760 --> 00:52:35,160
Speaker 1: you like it? Have to be like do you have

1204
00:52:35,280 --> 00:52:39,399
Speaker 1: to be like drunk or it's just let's go. Yeah,

1205
00:52:39,440 --> 00:52:42,800
Speaker 1: I'm ready, So you pussy and everything? Yes, okay, some

1206
00:52:42,920 --> 00:52:48,400
Speaker 1: people some women if you be like, she could eat me,

1207
00:52:48,440 --> 00:52:49,880
Speaker 1: but I'm not gonna eat her at least that's what

1208
00:52:49,960 --> 00:52:58,960
Speaker 1: they say. But but yeah, I enjoy eating pussy and

1209
00:52:58,960 --> 00:53:00,480
Speaker 1: getting front from the bag on the them come at

1210
00:53:00,480 --> 00:53:02,440
Speaker 1: the same time, that's the one for me. Like, I

1211
00:53:02,520 --> 00:53:04,360
Speaker 1: feel like I did something amazing making things like that.

1212
00:53:04,600 --> 00:53:05,920
Speaker 3: But we can't tap gg ever.

1213
00:53:06,080 --> 00:53:10,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, I want to. I like said porn that I saw,

1214
00:53:10,560 --> 00:53:12,759
Speaker 1: like the girl was eating the other girl out and

1215
00:53:12,840 --> 00:53:15,480
Speaker 1: the guy from the back, and she had a thing

1216
00:53:15,640 --> 00:53:17,440
Speaker 1: while the girl was eating her out. She had this

1217
00:53:17,600 --> 00:53:20,759
Speaker 1: thing bullet oh, like a G spots stimulator.

1218
00:53:20,880 --> 00:53:21,080
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1219
00:53:22,040 --> 00:53:22,880
Speaker 3: Do you use toys?

1220
00:53:23,640 --> 00:53:26,640
Speaker 4: Absolutely? Okay. What's what's your choy domination?

1221
00:53:27,480 --> 00:53:27,640
Speaker 1: Oh?

1222
00:53:28,000 --> 00:53:33,000
Speaker 4: I like like I like getting choked.

1223
00:53:33,920 --> 00:53:35,800
Speaker 2: But it's like, okay, don't bitch, don't be trying to

1224
00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:37,719
Speaker 2: do no fucking murder ship. I'm trying to kill me,

1225
00:53:37,760 --> 00:53:43,520
Speaker 2: bitch like slash no, don't slash my, but don't slap me, bitch.

1226
00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:43,880
Speaker 4: I'm not.

1227
00:53:45,760 --> 00:53:48,840
Speaker 1: Me them, I mean no, just just like me, like

1228
00:53:49,080 --> 00:53:50,680
Speaker 1: like like you wants to be dominated.

1229
00:53:50,719 --> 00:53:53,440
Speaker 4: You talk to me, poor me?

1230
00:53:53,600 --> 00:53:55,719
Speaker 1: You know, do you ever get you yes?

1231
00:53:56,239 --> 00:53:56,400
Speaker 5: Like that?

1232
00:53:57,160 --> 00:53:58,880
Speaker 4: Nah, because don't try to kill me.

1233
00:53:59,000 --> 00:54:01,600
Speaker 1: Okay, because don't tell you brother sling smack and ass

1234
00:54:01,640 --> 00:54:02,080
Speaker 1: that hurt.

1235
00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:06,520
Speaker 4: I've had easily, you know, like you are recently.

1236
00:54:06,760 --> 00:54:08,719
Speaker 2: It's the only time that I bruised easy, Like I

1237
00:54:08,880 --> 00:54:12,160
Speaker 2: was like leaving my fucking manage house and fucking was

1238
00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:15,120
Speaker 2: was was trying to look and make sure that when

1239
00:54:15,120 --> 00:54:17,160
Speaker 2: nobody trying to kidnap me and then open up my

1240
00:54:17,200 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 2: fucking door and then hear myself an eye.

1241
00:54:19,280 --> 00:54:21,600
Speaker 1: I had a black eye, y'all. It's still hurt right

1242
00:54:21,680 --> 00:54:23,640
Speaker 1: now because it was like a week go, yo, and.

1243
00:54:23,719 --> 00:54:25,840
Speaker 3: Nobody believed that's what happened to I'm on.

1244
00:54:26,000 --> 00:54:28,719
Speaker 1: Camera gate, get it sucked up, like I'm like, yo,

1245
00:54:29,000 --> 00:54:31,200
Speaker 1: like that ship fucked me up? Like wow, I was

1246
00:54:32,440 --> 00:54:33,800
Speaker 1: you show with a black eye and you got a

1247
00:54:33,840 --> 00:54:39,880
Speaker 1: story like I was opening the door like that, you know,

1248
00:54:40,120 --> 00:54:44,799
Speaker 1: damn but that door beat my ass And I'm like yeah,

1249
00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:46,640
Speaker 1: like I didn't even know I can bruise like this

1250
00:54:46,800 --> 00:54:46,960
Speaker 1: like that.

1251
00:54:47,040 --> 00:54:49,719
Speaker 4: I was black as like this. This was like like

1252
00:54:49,800 --> 00:54:51,640
Speaker 4: my first black ever in my life. And I'm like, yo,

1253
00:54:51,960 --> 00:54:52,440
Speaker 4: what do I do?

1254
00:54:53,160 --> 00:54:58,600
Speaker 1: I'm fast, It makes make up a good job to

1255
00:54:58,680 --> 00:55:01,080
Speaker 1: bring up the hair on that side. Come on, Like

1256
00:55:01,160 --> 00:55:03,840
Speaker 1: how I was looking when I got fillers. She was

1257
00:55:03,880 --> 00:55:04,680
Speaker 1: all bruised up.

1258
00:55:05,120 --> 00:55:05,920
Speaker 4: She was like, can you see it?

1259
00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:07,520
Speaker 3: I was like, look like I got Yes.

1260
00:55:08,960 --> 00:55:09,359
Speaker 4: It hurt.

1261
00:55:09,880 --> 00:55:12,359
Speaker 1: The feeling, yeah a little bit. I mean not long

1262
00:55:12,960 --> 00:55:16,920
Speaker 1: the numb, I no numbing. I do my both fillers

1263
00:55:17,040 --> 00:55:18,359
Speaker 1: just like pain.

1264
00:55:18,480 --> 00:55:19,120
Speaker 3: That's the whole.

1265
00:55:21,640 --> 00:55:27,320
Speaker 1: Crazy you like, I like to a certain extent, like

1266
00:55:27,800 --> 00:55:28,600
Speaker 1: like it like I am not.

1267
00:55:30,520 --> 00:55:31,560
Speaker 3: Like, ain't know? Can you do that?

1268
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:32,239
Speaker 1: No?

1269
00:55:32,760 --> 00:55:34,359
Speaker 3: Okay, you don't like pain that much?

1270
00:55:34,440 --> 00:55:39,040
Speaker 2: Then would I have done anal? I feel like anal

1271
00:55:39,160 --> 00:55:42,160
Speaker 2: is easier with a more medium to small sized penis.

1272
00:55:43,560 --> 00:55:45,479
Speaker 1: But I've had a big dick too. You just gotta

1273
00:55:45,520 --> 00:55:47,919
Speaker 1: go slow with Do you like it? Do you enjoy

1274
00:55:48,000 --> 00:55:50,879
Speaker 1: it once? It's yes, once you get past that pain

1275
00:55:51,200 --> 00:55:54,279
Speaker 1: and you get to the pleasure. The best orgasm I've

1276
00:55:54,320 --> 00:55:56,880
Speaker 1: ever had was from anal sex, so you can come

1277
00:55:56,920 --> 00:56:00,640
Speaker 1: from yes. They said, it's the best.

1278
00:56:03,200 --> 00:56:03,759
Speaker 4: Experience.

1279
00:56:03,880 --> 00:56:06,400
Speaker 1: I never even had one of them hard orgasms when

1280
00:56:06,440 --> 00:56:08,640
Speaker 1: you like can't move after, like it won't stop, and

1281
00:56:08,680 --> 00:56:10,440
Speaker 1: then finally you just like we.

1282
00:56:10,520 --> 00:56:12,120
Speaker 3: Do you easily.

1283
00:56:13,200 --> 00:56:15,720
Speaker 4: No, you gotta put in some work. No, you gotta,

1284
00:56:15,800 --> 00:56:16,239
Speaker 4: you gotta go.

1285
00:56:16,600 --> 00:56:20,360
Speaker 1: You gotta gotta do the orgasm off toys absolutely, okay.

1286
00:56:20,800 --> 00:56:22,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, off your hand to yep.

1287
00:56:23,320 --> 00:56:25,239
Speaker 4: No, I don't. I don't pussy be box. I can't

1288
00:56:25,280 --> 00:56:25,440
Speaker 4: do that.

1289
00:56:25,560 --> 00:56:25,880
Speaker 1: You know what.

1290
00:56:27,680 --> 00:56:30,560
Speaker 4: I can't. I mean, I can't do this. You got

1291
00:56:30,600 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 4: a song? I love it, It's not it's not given

1292
00:56:34,160 --> 00:56:34,400
Speaker 4: for me.

1293
00:56:35,760 --> 00:56:38,759
Speaker 1: Do you orgasm off more awful oral or like penetration

1294
00:56:40,120 --> 00:56:43,800
Speaker 1: or have most women do? Have you ever used the shower?

1295
00:56:44,719 --> 00:56:49,400
Speaker 1: Absolutely not the so check this out. I took a shower,

1296
00:56:49,640 --> 00:56:55,359
Speaker 1: but just shower. The shower come down. So I took

1297
00:56:55,400 --> 00:56:58,319
Speaker 1: a shower with my friend and he did that, my guy,

1298
00:56:58,920 --> 00:57:01,640
Speaker 1: but he have the shower head.

1299
00:57:01,480 --> 00:57:03,040
Speaker 4: And I was like, what you know about that?

1300
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:04,640
Speaker 3: I was like, what are you doing?

1301
00:57:04,680 --> 00:57:05,359
Speaker 1: It was so weird.

1302
00:57:05,400 --> 00:57:07,000
Speaker 4: I should have whoop his ass because that means he

1303
00:57:07,120 --> 00:57:07,800
Speaker 4: learned that from.

1304
00:57:09,200 --> 00:57:09,720
Speaker 1: That means.

1305
00:57:11,320 --> 00:57:14,080
Speaker 4: Take this down going now.

1306
00:57:17,720 --> 00:57:21,240
Speaker 1: Now he needs getting degree and pussy eating because the

1307
00:57:21,360 --> 00:57:23,760
Speaker 1: way it's he's like, I love to do it. He's like,

1308
00:57:23,800 --> 00:57:24,480
Speaker 1: I read books and.

1309
00:57:24,480 --> 00:57:25,320
Speaker 3: Ever you're always good.

1310
00:57:25,360 --> 00:57:27,200
Speaker 1: And what I tell you this all the time when

1311
00:57:27,240 --> 00:57:29,120
Speaker 1: you enjoyed doing something, that just make you good at it?

1312
00:57:29,360 --> 00:57:31,600
Speaker 1: Right and now see here trying to please big bus

1313
00:57:31,720 --> 00:57:32,560
Speaker 1: back Now she's mad.

1314
00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:33,480
Speaker 3: Got an attitude.

1315
00:57:40,680 --> 00:57:41,840
Speaker 1: I can't even enjoy.

1316
00:57:41,640 --> 00:57:50,200
Speaker 4: It doing learning attitude as soon as I come, my man.

1317
00:57:52,320 --> 00:57:54,840
Speaker 1: Touch me where you learn that.

1318
00:57:57,040 --> 00:57:58,400
Speaker 3: Maybe you're in the toxic one.

1319
00:57:59,080 --> 00:58:05,720
Speaker 4: Maybe maybe not even gave it away.

1320
00:58:06,680 --> 00:58:09,000
Speaker 1: Listen, big boss bet, thank you so much. You kept

1321
00:58:09,080 --> 00:58:09,439
Speaker 1: your word.

1322
00:58:09,560 --> 00:58:10,560
Speaker 3: We see and you are the.

1323
00:58:10,720 --> 00:58:14,280
Speaker 1: First one, right, after everybody that we talked to twenty

1324
00:58:14,320 --> 00:58:15,960
Speaker 1: eight people and everybody's like, oh'm gonna co New York'm

1325
00:58:15,960 --> 00:58:17,720
Speaker 1: gonna come here. You are the first one who actually

1326
00:58:17,760 --> 00:58:20,200
Speaker 1: came and gave us a fool because well, no, they

1327
00:58:20,280 --> 00:58:23,920
Speaker 1: trust me. They want to but we're glad and so

1328
00:58:24,240 --> 00:58:27,120
Speaker 1: we wanted you so bad. So we're just really excited

1329
00:58:27,160 --> 00:58:29,720
Speaker 1: that you came up. We love your music, I love

1330
00:58:29,800 --> 00:58:33,080
Speaker 1: you as a person. That brief sit down we had,

1331
00:58:33,160 --> 00:58:35,080
Speaker 1: we already knew what it was, yes, yeah, I knew

1332
00:58:35,160 --> 00:58:38,920
Speaker 1: absolutely it's gonna be a situation you know here, I know, right,

1333
00:58:39,120 --> 00:58:43,080
Speaker 1: super superstar right here, big boss ma'am. So thank you

1334
00:58:43,200 --> 00:58:45,320
Speaker 1: so much for coming through it. We're so excited for everything.

1335
00:58:45,600 --> 00:58:47,080
Speaker 1: Is there a tour? Like what's happening?

1336
00:58:47,200 --> 00:58:49,160
Speaker 4: So we know what's that we have?

1337
00:58:52,280 --> 00:58:55,680
Speaker 1: That's a big deal. That's huge, huge, just fine.

1338
00:58:57,400 --> 00:58:59,640
Speaker 2: We just have big boss bitches being great, you know,

1339
00:58:59,760 --> 00:59:01,840
Speaker 2: like like I don't I don't even want to put

1340
00:59:01,880 --> 00:59:05,400
Speaker 2: a limitation on her because she does not know limits,

1341
00:59:05,440 --> 00:59:07,480
Speaker 2: you know, and it's only what was the head.

1342
00:59:08,200 --> 00:59:12,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, my husband, I love over you, my me

1343
00:59:12,440 --> 00:59:12,840
Speaker 1: and my me.

1344
00:59:16,280 --> 00:59:19,360
Speaker 2: And it's just only up from here, like yeah, like

1345
00:59:19,720 --> 00:59:23,280
Speaker 2: like I don't know like I'm i am the I'm

1346
00:59:23,280 --> 00:59:26,560
Speaker 2: gonna say I'm I'm the female drake, you know, like

1347
00:59:27,080 --> 00:59:29,160
Speaker 2: like we is, we is only going up from her

1348
00:59:29,240 --> 00:59:31,640
Speaker 2: and on the bottom and we were forever now yeah,

1349
00:59:33,200 --> 00:59:37,160
Speaker 2: come on, started started from the bottom and come on now,

1350
00:59:37,280 --> 00:59:38,000
Speaker 2: you know we're only.

1351
00:59:37,920 --> 00:59:40,280
Speaker 1: Up from here, so do but thank you big.

1352
00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:41,680
Speaker 3: Okay.

1353
00:59:41,760 --> 00:59:44,160
Speaker 1: When I'm you know, getting in the mood, getting ready

1354
00:59:44,160 --> 00:59:46,480
Speaker 1: to go out and party, that's what I'm playing, Resilience,

1355
00:59:47,080 --> 00:59:49,000
Speaker 1: scream that down.

1356
00:59:49,000 --> 00:59:50,400
Speaker 3: Right now, right right.

1357
00:59:53,560 --> 00:59:54,200
Speaker 1: Slip Service