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Speaker 1: Hey, what's up man? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Peyton? How's going Miss Forever?

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Speaker 1: Uh, Peyton, It's going actually pretty okay.

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Speaker 3: Man.

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Speaker 1: I know I've been talking a lot on here about

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Speaker 1: being insane, but you know, today today I feel less insane.

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Speaker 1: I don't know what it is. I think it's about.

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Speaker 2: I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I kind of got off my procrastination a little bit today.

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Speaker 1: I cleaned my room, I reoriented myself. I fucking I

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Speaker 1: feel like by myself a little bit more today than

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Speaker 1: I have in the past month or so. So that's good.

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Speaker 1: I've I've convinced myself that everything's gonna be okay. I

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Speaker 1: don't need to freak out.

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Speaker 2: I was.

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Speaker 4: I was.

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Speaker 1: I was stuck in a bit of a loop about

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Speaker 1: like I tell me if this is crazy to you,

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Speaker 1: if I'm talking crazy, but like you ever like look

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Speaker 1: at a mirror and you're like, what am I? What

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Speaker 1: is the or like you get you get?

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Speaker 4: You ever? Get?

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Speaker 5: You ever? Go on?

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Speaker 1: You ever go on to like you know, you know

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Speaker 1: that spiral that you can go down of. Like what

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Speaker 1: am I experiencing right now in terms of just like consciousness?

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Speaker 1: Like what the hell am I experiencing right now? As

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Speaker 1: a conscious human being. This is the most fucking psychedelic,

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Speaker 1: insane thing, you know, I don't. You know what's funny

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Speaker 1: is I'm talking to you about it right now, but

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Speaker 1: I don't. I don't in this moment, in this in

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Speaker 1: this moment, I don't feel it, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 1: This past weekend, when I was really fucking depressed and

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Speaker 1: really fucking spiraling, I was like feeling that. And it's

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Speaker 1: a crazy intense thing to really be feeling because because

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Speaker 1: when you're feeling it, right, and then you look around

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Speaker 1: at everyone else who's not feeling it, uh, and you know,

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Speaker 1: like or like you're on Instagram and someone's posting about like, uh,

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Speaker 1: you know, oh check it out the trailer for the

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Speaker 1: news Star Wars whatever, and you're just like, do you understand?

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Speaker 1: Do you have any idea? How does how is everyone

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Speaker 1: not freaking out all the time?

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Speaker 2: You know?

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Speaker 1: How does society not How are we as conscious beings

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Speaker 1: not questioning this and letting this completely run our lives

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Speaker 1: at all time? And That's how I felt when I

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Speaker 1: was in it. And now as I'm talking to you,

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Speaker 1: I don't even feel in that right now. I just

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Speaker 1: feel kind of normal. And now I just think at

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Speaker 1: the other end, it's like, no, the guy he's like

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Speaker 1: the guy on this the schizophrenic guy on the street

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Speaker 1: who is arguing about consciousness and saying things are like,

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Speaker 1: you know, talking about like woo woo shit is probably right.

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Speaker 1: But also in a way, you know, the guy who's like,

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Speaker 1: let's get dinner at this restaurant and then go home

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Speaker 1: and watch White Lotus and then I'm gonna and then

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Speaker 1: I gotta go to work tomorrow and whatever, you know,

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Speaker 1: I don't whatever normal whatever normal life looks like. You know,

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Speaker 1: they're both right in some way. I think it's it's

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Speaker 1: terrifying to really feel deep in your own existential questioning.

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Speaker 1: It's to really be like, what the fuck am I?

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Speaker 1: What the fuck is this is? There's a tremendous sadness

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Speaker 1: and fear and uncertainty that is inherent to every human

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Speaker 1: life by nature of the fact that, uh, we die

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Speaker 1: and what what the hell we're experiencing ends and we're

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Speaker 1: never going to actually have answers to all these questions.

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Speaker 1: And it's nobody escapes from that. Whether you're rich or

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Speaker 1: from that. And when you're really in it. It drives

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Speaker 1: you insane that other people are not. Like It's like

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Speaker 1: what how not seeing all this? Are you insane? Anyway?

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Speaker 1: But I feel actually okay by the way that whole

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Speaker 1: I just want you to know, that whole rant, aside,

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Speaker 1: that whole ranch, aside, that whole rant, is exactly how

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Speaker 1: I have been feeling for the past three days. But

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Speaker 1: in this very moment, I actually feel pretty good. So no,

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Speaker 2: And the great thing about that, about the extra trying

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Speaker 2: to say something for that rant, man, is that the

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Speaker 2: best thing you do, man, is really only you can

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Speaker 2: really answer that right, Like I said, like it's a

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Speaker 2: it's a it's a extrace of you looking in the

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Speaker 2: else about it. So m but uh no, Man, I'll

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Speaker 2: call to talk to you today about mister Trevor is

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Speaker 2: a man. Ah. I feel unique, right, We all feel unique.

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Speaker 2: Like you said, you feel unique in your own crisis,

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Speaker 2: and my crisis more or less is uh Man, I

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Speaker 2: have a weird thing going on. I'm a thirty two

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Speaker 2: at the end of the day, uh, man, being alone

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Speaker 2: is kind of weird. But I have a special exception.

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Speaker 2: I'm hated on both sides of my family for something

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Speaker 2: that I don't know. I've had a really bad ADHD

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Speaker 2: so I was a kid man, and me being alone,

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Speaker 2: separated with my mother from all my family probably didn't

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Speaker 2: help a lot of that when I was young, and

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Speaker 2: I've met my cousins here later on in my life,

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Speaker 2: twenty years later in my life for me being that

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Speaker 2: I said, me being with my mom doesn't really help

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Speaker 2: that a lot. Man. I think that's a big case

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Speaker 2: of a unique case of I guess you say Stockholm syndrome.

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Speaker 2: I guess not saying that my mom was abusing me,

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Speaker 2: social anxiety or that of ades, and on top of

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Speaker 2: helped me, right, And it's not to say that I

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Speaker 2: eventually I did at some point, right, but uh uh,

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Speaker 2: like you said, man, looking yourself and seeing in that mirror,

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Speaker 1: Well, well, lets well listen, listen, listen. I have I

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Speaker 1: actually have tons of questions, uh for you, and I

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Speaker 2: Uh No, I haven't actually spoke a real therapist about

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Speaker 2: this because because man, well I'm low income. I don't

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Speaker 2: So I've tried to talk to my family, and well,

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Speaker 2: you know, as I told you, man, both, a lot

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Speaker 2: very limited, very I've had very limited contact with my family.

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Speaker 1: So okay, all right, well okay, so let me say

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Speaker 1: this is you know, yeah, look, I know it's hard

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Speaker 1: I do believe that you should. Fuck I think there's

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Speaker 1: kind of controversial, but I do it. It's uh, I

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Speaker 1: I don't know where that leads. I don't know if

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Speaker 1: could totally possibly be happening. That's just what I do.

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Speaker 1: But all right, anyway, you know what, look, man, let's

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Speaker 1: let's let's okay. I'm curious about a few things. And

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Speaker 1: again you stuck to real therapists about this. But I

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Speaker 1: What so did your family drop you all at once?

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Speaker 2: This is like a gradual thing, I guess from what

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Speaker 2: because I could just share this, Man, about two years ago,

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Speaker 2: I haven't seen my grandma since then, since like my

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Speaker 2: She just comes out of the blue and she's like, hey,

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Speaker 2: very sorry about everything that's happened towards you. Right. She

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Speaker 2: because we didn't know how you would turn out, and

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Speaker 2: But at the time, man, I could just remember that much. Man,

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Speaker 2: I don't know, I guess later that year, right when

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Speaker 2: I don't even know where I was going with that, honestly,

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Speaker 1: Well, okay, So so from from what you were telling

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Speaker 1: me earlier, I guess what I understand is that you

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Speaker 5: Is that what you were saying?

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Speaker 1: Interesting, It's this is a total aside, but you like

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Speaker 1: you seem like a confident guy just over the phone.

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Speaker 1: Right, that's what's your what's your job?

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Speaker 2: Right now I'm a security guard uh at a college campus,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you don't sound like talking to you. You don't

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Speaker 1: And so you're you feel like completely is it? You

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Speaker 2: Man, if someone will be honest with you, man, just

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Speaker 2: Yeah? Man? Uh uh for uh before I didn't have

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Speaker 1: Oh so you're fucking dude, what do you You're security

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Speaker 1: But I, I mean, I just have I have thoughts

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Speaker 1: assume every day you're pretty much doing the same thing

436
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Speaker 1: of like, you know, wake up, go to work, get tired.

437
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Speaker 2: You know. Is that to say, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

438
00:21:32,119 --> 00:21:35,720
Speaker 2: the routine, the American dream, I guess, yeah yeah yeah yeah.

439
00:21:35,800 --> 00:21:39,920
Speaker 1: And it's like, how within whatever means you have available

440
00:21:40,160 --> 00:21:43,880
Speaker 1: even if it's like, even if it's not something huge

441
00:21:44,600 --> 00:21:48,440
Speaker 1: or crazy, but how within whatever means you have whatever

442
00:21:48,480 --> 00:21:51,080
Speaker 1: money you have, whatever time you have, whatever resources you have.

443
00:21:52,600 --> 00:21:56,680
Speaker 1: You know, if we really honestly look at whatever resources

444
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Speaker 1: we have and see if maybe there's something we're not seeing.

445
00:21:59,359 --> 00:22:03,359
Speaker 1: How within when what you're able to do, can you

446
00:22:03,520 --> 00:22:07,840
Speaker 1: branch out to something where you are meeting new people,

447
00:22:08,200 --> 00:22:11,919
Speaker 1: having new life experiences, and getting your brain out of

448
00:22:11,960 --> 00:22:14,560
Speaker 1: the fog so that your brain goes, oh, you know what,

449
00:22:14,640 --> 00:22:18,639
Speaker 1: I actually my life does not need to be constant,

450
00:22:18,760 --> 00:22:23,640
Speaker 1: awful despair. I of course my brain was gonna think

451
00:22:23,680 --> 00:22:26,520
Speaker 1: that this whole time, because I was giving my brain

452
00:22:26,920 --> 00:22:30,600
Speaker 1: no evidence to consider fucking otherwise, because I was just

453
00:22:30,680 --> 00:22:33,200
Speaker 1: in my daily routine, and the result of my daily

454
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Speaker 1: routine was my brain thinking that, you know, life is

455
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Speaker 1: gonna be insane and horrible forever. So how do I

456
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Speaker 1: put a little fork in the fucking road to at

457
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Speaker 1: least get do the smallest little thing to maybe get

458
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Speaker 1: get or get no room, or have a conversation, or

459
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Speaker 1: do something more to give my brain the chance to go, Okay,

460
00:22:55,640 --> 00:22:59,280
Speaker 1: maybe maybe there's something new here that we didn't even

461
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Speaker 1: fucking think about. So we just skipped straight to all

462
00:23:03,080 --> 00:23:06,679
Speaker 1: the most horrible conclusions because we didn't even consider that

463
00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:10,200
Speaker 1: our life could look any different until hey, look, here's

464
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Speaker 1: some evidence that maybe it can.

465
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Speaker 2: Uh, Man, if you want to be honest with you, Man,

466
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Speaker 2: I just recently just got a notification like twenty minutes

467
00:23:19,359 --> 00:23:24,760
Speaker 2: for you called h I picked up a dating app.

468
00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:30,040
Speaker 2: I tried to I tried to tried to talk to something. Man.

469
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Speaker 2: I'm not like really looking for dating because but yeah,

470
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Speaker 2: I tried to try to pick up some things, man,

471
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Speaker 2: try to talk to some people.

472
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Speaker 6: Man.

473
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Speaker 2: I don't really do social media too much because, uh,

474
00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:44,920
Speaker 2: because you know, man, there's there's so much negative propaganda

475
00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:48,199
Speaker 2: and and fake news and things like that. Man, So

476
00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:50,680
Speaker 2: I tried. I tried my best not to try not

477
00:23:50,800 --> 00:23:53,000
Speaker 2: to be on doom scrolling and things like that. But

478
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Speaker 2: uh uh yeah, I picked up a dating gap man,

479
00:23:56,840 --> 00:23:59,840
Speaker 2: and tried to selectively talk to certain people, man, or

480
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Speaker 2: try to reach out to certain people. Man, try to

481
00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:03,680
Speaker 2: see what's that man, say you know, hello, how you doing?

482
00:24:04,359 --> 00:24:06,440
Speaker 2: Oh do you want to chat? You know, and things

483
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:09,840
Speaker 2: like that. I mean, that's all I've done recently, distrust

484
00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:12,320
Speaker 2: to try to maneuver my way out to things, and

485
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Speaker 2: I I mean not particularly well.

486
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Speaker 1: I guess I will say, by the way, by the way,

487
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Speaker 1: full full disclaim. By the way, if I could just

488
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Speaker 1: give a generous disclaimer, not just to you, but to

489
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Speaker 1: anyone listening to this podcast. If you're depressed and feel

490
00:24:31,600 --> 00:24:35,800
Speaker 1: like you want to die, I highly recommend not downloading

491
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Speaker 1: a dating app. Highly highly recommend. I if you walk

492
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Speaker 1: around I'm I want. Everything I say is from absolute

493
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Speaker 1: personal experience. I swear on my life to that if

494
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Speaker 1: you're depressed and want to die, the absolute last thing

495
00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:53,679
Speaker 1: you need to do is get on Hinge, your Tinder.

496
00:24:54,400 --> 00:24:56,399
Speaker 1: It is, it is at should be at the bottom

497
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Speaker 1: of your to do list. Again, I say that from experience,

498
00:25:01,320 --> 00:25:04,320
Speaker 1: because you know those apps are just designed to make

499
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:06,280
Speaker 1: you fucking want to kill yourself.

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Speaker 2: Ah yeah, man, yeah, I mean, like I said, I

501
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:11,960
Speaker 2: just like my first time picking up a dating app,

502
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Speaker 2: I just I tried it. I didn't do Tender because

503
00:25:14,880 --> 00:25:17,360
Speaker 2: I've heard, you know, I've seen tender stories and I've

504
00:25:17,359 --> 00:25:20,159
Speaker 2: read I've read things on I'm rated about Tender.

505
00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:25,840
Speaker 1: But but you know, well, I guess well I will

506
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Speaker 1: I will say. I know, I just said, uh to

507
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Speaker 1: not do that, but even but you know what fucking

508
00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:35,240
Speaker 1: even doing that? If you're like trying to break your

509
00:25:35,280 --> 00:25:39,080
Speaker 1: loop in in the smallest way possible, downloading a dating

510
00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:41,359
Speaker 1: apps not a horrible way to break your fucking loop.

511
00:25:41,400 --> 00:25:43,720
Speaker 1: I mean, there's right, it could send you into a

512
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Speaker 1: different loop that's you know, makes you feel you know,

513
00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:51,080
Speaker 1: shitty and depressed. But I don't know, man, Like is

514
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Speaker 1: there any you talked about wanting to code? And like,

515
00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:57,800
Speaker 1: I don't know even like I don't know, man, even

516
00:25:57,840 --> 00:26:00,680
Speaker 1: these days, like getting involved in like an online community

517
00:26:00,760 --> 00:26:02,479
Speaker 1: like if if if you really don't want to leave

518
00:26:02,480 --> 00:26:03,720
Speaker 1: your house so you really don't feel like you have

519
00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:06,560
Speaker 1: the resources to go super far outside of your house,

520
00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:11,000
Speaker 1: you can even fucking join a coding discord group or

521
00:26:11,040 --> 00:26:14,080
Speaker 1: something and try to make some online friends. I'm just

522
00:26:14,160 --> 00:26:15,200
Speaker 1: I guess I'm just trying to.

523
00:26:15,119 --> 00:26:17,760
Speaker 2: Say that I haven't I haven't done anything like that.

524
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Speaker 2: I guess.

525
00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:21,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, I guess I'm trying. I'm just trying to say,

526
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Speaker 1: you know, like because look, I just want I'm just

527
00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:27,560
Speaker 1: saying this. Look I'm not I'm not a real therapist.

528
00:26:27,640 --> 00:26:30,240
Speaker 1: And I and I I also struggle with like, uh,

529
00:26:30,359 --> 00:26:34,840
Speaker 1: you know, wanting to die and like feeling inside all

530
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:40,919
Speaker 1: the time. And I just these are just things I

531
00:26:40,960 --> 00:26:44,000
Speaker 1: tell myself, man. The things I just tell myself are like,

532
00:26:45,080 --> 00:26:48,080
Speaker 1: you know, every day I wake up, I'm just gonna pick.

533
00:26:48,200 --> 00:26:51,719
Speaker 1: Maybe I'm gonna keep picking. Maybe I'm gonna keep trying

534
00:26:51,760 --> 00:26:53,560
Speaker 1: new things, and I just I just keep trying to

535
00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:57,560
Speaker 1: be optimistic and be like, you know, there's so much

536
00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:06,560
Speaker 1: ship to try before, there's so so much more yeah,

537
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:10,880
Speaker 1: ship to try before fully giving up and going you know, Yeah,

538
00:27:10,880 --> 00:27:16,040
Speaker 1: I'm just destined to be miserable forever. Yeah, this is

539
00:27:16,080 --> 00:27:17,480
Speaker 1: just what I tell myself. I don't know if it

540
00:27:17,560 --> 00:27:24,399
Speaker 1: if it is, I don't know. I don't know if

541
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:29,439
Speaker 1: it's if it's true. I guess you can decide if

542
00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:31,080
Speaker 1: it's true. But that's just how I feel. This is

543
00:27:31,359 --> 00:27:34,399
Speaker 1: a lot to try before resigning to the idea that

544
00:27:34,440 --> 00:27:39,719
Speaker 1: you're going to be miserable forever. So I'm inclined. I

545
00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:44,439
Speaker 1: want to join the living. I hope you also feel

546
00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:48,600
Speaker 1: empowered to join the living. Whatever the fuck that looks

547
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:50,760
Speaker 1: like to you, or whatever you think that feels like

548
00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:51,720
Speaker 1: to you.

549
00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:55,920
Speaker 2: Just on a on a positive note, manage. I just

550
00:27:55,920 --> 00:27:59,080
Speaker 2: want to put it out there. Man, I'm a I'm

551
00:27:59,080 --> 00:27:59,800
Speaker 2: one month over.

552
00:28:01,600 --> 00:28:03,200
Speaker 1: Congratulations. Congratulations.

553
00:28:04,840 --> 00:28:07,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, man, trust me, trying new things, like you said,

554
00:28:07,240 --> 00:28:10,480
Speaker 2: and I'm trying to just not I guess, like you said,

555
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:12,760
Speaker 2: like trying not to be in the gutter. Uh. Yeah,

556
00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:16,520
Speaker 2: I'm I'm Alma made right. So I guess we're we're

557
00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:17,600
Speaker 2: we're you know, we're trying to we're trying to go

558
00:28:17,680 --> 00:28:24,160
Speaker 2: in the right direction, right, Yeah, So trust me, man,

559
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:26,080
Speaker 2: I'm I'm trying to be right there with you. Man,

560
00:28:26,359 --> 00:28:28,080
Speaker 2: one little thing at the time. Man, I appreciate So.

561
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:38,880
Speaker 7: Man, what else but no, Man, No, but it's and

562
00:28:38,920 --> 00:28:42,160
Speaker 7: then uh, because I've been I've been a long un

563
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:44,719
Speaker 7: I saw your interally enough man.

564
00:28:44,840 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 5: Uh.

565
00:28:45,160 --> 00:28:48,040
Speaker 2: Somebody referred me to you on Instagram. Man, and I've

566
00:28:48,040 --> 00:28:51,040
Speaker 2: just been watching man and seeing seeing little things man.

567
00:28:51,320 --> 00:28:53,440
Speaker 2: From from everything you do, Man, it inspires me. Man,

568
00:28:53,480 --> 00:28:54,880
Speaker 2: Like as I said, that's why I called you. Man.

569
00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:58,240
Speaker 2: And if if it's if anything to leave on guys

570
00:28:58,360 --> 00:29:00,800
Speaker 2: like you said, Man, just I guess and just try

571
00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:02,560
Speaker 2: try new things. Man. That's the best thing I can

572
00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:05,200
Speaker 2: tell y'all. Man, I appreciate, Man, but I'm gonna go. Man,

573
00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:09,400
Speaker 2: it's about all right. I appreciate it.

574
00:29:09,720 --> 00:29:12,960
Speaker 1: Good good good luck, Peyton, Okay, I'm I'm I'm sincerely,

575
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:13,680
Speaker 1: I'm rooting for you.

576
00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:17,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you man. It describe to this channel, y'all. Please,

577
00:29:17,560 --> 00:29:18,400
Speaker 2: this is a great channel.

578
00:29:18,440 --> 00:29:20,280
Speaker 1: Thank you, Thank you Payton, Thank you Payton. All Right,

579
00:29:20,320 --> 00:29:24,960
Speaker 1: have a good one Bye Bye. I like that guy

580
00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:27,040
Speaker 1: a lot. He was he was really seems like a

581
00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:32,440
Speaker 1: nice fucking guy. Yeah, he really seems like a nice,

582
00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:34,800
Speaker 1: fun guy. I just I empathize. I got it. Just

583
00:29:34,840 --> 00:29:38,400
Speaker 1: I understand a lot of what that ship fucking feels like.

584
00:29:38,480 --> 00:29:40,000
Speaker 1: I don't know what I've been feeling like. I mean,

585
00:29:40,040 --> 00:29:43,120
Speaker 1: I was ranting for at the beginning of this phone call.

586
00:29:44,280 --> 00:29:45,920
Speaker 1: I was feeling kind of like that for the past

587
00:29:47,240 --> 00:29:49,720
Speaker 1: a little while. Today, in this very moment, I feel

588
00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:51,840
Speaker 1: good though, which is great. It's cool. When you get

589
00:29:51,840 --> 00:29:54,080
Speaker 1: out of a hole, you're like, oh, I didn't realize that.

590
00:29:54,120 --> 00:29:56,520
Speaker 1: I It's like like when you get out of a hole,

591
00:29:56,600 --> 00:29:59,880
Speaker 1: you're like, oh, I I have not fully lost myself.

592
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:03,320
Speaker 1: I am still here. It's like, I don't know. I

593
00:30:03,320 --> 00:30:05,400
Speaker 1: have this thing whenever I get sick, like I have

594
00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:09,040
Speaker 1: I get a cold, I'm like, well, this is forever now,

595
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:13,800
Speaker 1: this is permanent. Your brain just convinces your brains are crazy.

596
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:18,520
Speaker 1: I don't know. Okay, that was That was a lot

597
00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:20,239
Speaker 1: of real therapy. Well not real. That was a lot

598
00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:26,080
Speaker 1: of fake real therapy. But I enjoy I enjoyed talking

599
00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:31,640
Speaker 1: to Peyton. Do I have anything funny to say? I

600
00:30:31,680 --> 00:30:34,760
Speaker 1: feel like I used to say funny things. Sometimes I

601
00:30:34,760 --> 00:30:37,080
Speaker 1: have something funny to say? Why do I feel like

602
00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:40,040
Speaker 1: I should have more funny things to say? But I don't.

603
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:42,120
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't really, I didn't have anything funny

604
00:30:42,160 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 1: to say about that. I just felt it too much

605
00:30:45,880 --> 00:30:46,880
Speaker 1: in my soul.

606
00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:48,200
Speaker 4: Uh.

607
00:30:49,440 --> 00:30:53,640
Speaker 1: Maybe maybe it's inherently funny. I don't know. Maybe I

608
00:30:53,640 --> 00:30:56,520
Speaker 1: don't need to say anything funny. All right, let's let's

609
00:30:56,600 --> 00:31:02,080
Speaker 1: just all right, let's just keep going, okay, all right? Hello, Hello, Hey,

610
00:31:02,120 --> 00:31:02,680
Speaker 1: what's your name?

611
00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:04,600
Speaker 5: Thank It's Evan?

612
00:31:05,520 --> 00:31:08,880
Speaker 1: Evan? What's up? Evan? How How can I get you today?

613
00:31:09,440 --> 00:31:11,920
Speaker 5: I'm doing well. I got off of work a few

614
00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:15,680
Speaker 5: hours ago. I hung out with a friend today. Yeah,

615
00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:17,360
Speaker 5: I got a couple of things I want to talk about.

616
00:31:17,400 --> 00:31:20,280
Speaker 5: But I did have a question before we start. Yeah, sure,

617
00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:24,880
Speaker 5: what what do you think the best way to get

618
00:31:24,880 --> 00:31:26,520
Speaker 5: on the phone is with you? Do you think it's

619
00:31:26,520 --> 00:31:28,720
Speaker 5: just calling over and over and over again, or do

620
00:31:28,760 --> 00:31:31,400
Speaker 5: you think it's like waiting for the voicemail? Or what

621
00:31:31,400 --> 00:31:31,800
Speaker 5: do you think?

622
00:31:32,080 --> 00:31:33,520
Speaker 1: I think the best way to get on the phone

623
00:31:33,520 --> 00:31:34,800
Speaker 1: with me is probably just a call.

624
00:31:36,680 --> 00:31:37,840
Speaker 5: Just call over and over again.

625
00:31:38,280 --> 00:31:40,000
Speaker 1: Well, then you just call, you just press the phone.

626
00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:42,680
Speaker 1: You just type your phone and you maybe you can

627
00:31:42,720 --> 00:31:45,280
Speaker 1: make it okay call. What were the things you had

628
00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:46,840
Speaker 1: to talk about?

629
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:50,320
Speaker 5: Well, so I'm nineteen, I'm gonna be twenty in April.

630
00:31:51,880 --> 00:31:54,520
Speaker 5: I am an Eagle Scout, So I'm a big I'm

631
00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:58,920
Speaker 5: a really big into the BSA. I'm a big. I

632
00:31:59,040 --> 00:32:02,000
Speaker 5: like going there of the summer camp that I worked

633
00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:03,760
Speaker 5: at as a BUSA camp, and I go there a

634
00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:08,600
Speaker 5: lot for weekends for like volunteer events, and yeah, I

635
00:32:08,640 --> 00:32:10,520
Speaker 5: just want to talk about my experience with that, Like

636
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:11,240
Speaker 5: the BSA.

637
00:32:11,960 --> 00:32:14,080
Speaker 1: What that what you said the b s A. Oh boy,

638
00:32:14,120 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 1: Scouts of America.

639
00:32:15,800 --> 00:32:18,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, scouting. Yeah it's it's called Scouting BUSA now

640
00:32:18,680 --> 00:32:20,800
Speaker 5: I think, but it's h Yeah, I just want to

641
00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 5: talk about I can't at that and just what's going

642
00:32:23,320 --> 00:32:23,959
Speaker 5: on in my life?

643
00:32:24,360 --> 00:32:26,760
Speaker 1: What's uh? Do you guys don't do cookies?

644
00:32:26,800 --> 00:32:26,960
Speaker 2: Right?

645
00:32:26,960 --> 00:32:27,840
Speaker 1: You do popcorn?

646
00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:31,160
Speaker 5: Yeah? Yes, we do popcorn.

647
00:32:33,960 --> 00:32:36,840
Speaker 1: We got caramel corn? Do you have the do do

648
00:32:36,880 --> 00:32:39,640
Speaker 1: you guys sell the fucking tray where it's got the

649
00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:46,080
Speaker 1: the butt, the butter popcorn, the cheese, the orange cheese popcorn,

650
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Speaker 1: the white cheddar popcorn, and the caramel popcorn? Do you guys,

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Speaker 1: do that the tray.

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Speaker 5: I'm not sure what you mean.

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Speaker 1: No, it's all right, it's not a tray. It's oh,

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Speaker 1: it's a bucket. I'm sorry, I don't know. I said

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Speaker 1: a tray. It's a bucket.

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Speaker 5: Oh. Yeah, the big the big tin of yeah, the

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Speaker 5: big metal.

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Speaker 1: Ten that's why. Yeah, the big metal tin. And it's

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Speaker 1: got a little wighter that's supposed to divide all the

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Speaker 1: different kinds of popcorn. But what I usually end up

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Speaker 1: doing is just mixing them all together so that you

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Speaker 1: get a lot of diverse flavors.

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Speaker 5: But that is the way to do it. There's a

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Speaker 5: iten't called the classic trio. It's like caramel corn cheddar

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Speaker 5: and I think white cheddar, and that's the best. I

666
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Speaker 5: think that's the best combo. And then you put it

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Speaker 5: on the tin and it's it's, oh my gosh, that's

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Speaker 5: the best. That's the best. I can. I love that

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Speaker 5: one so much. I don't sell anymore, obviously because I'm

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Speaker 5: over eighteen. But when I did, it was very I

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Speaker 5: still go around and buy sometimes because I'm I'm a

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Speaker 5: little bit of a fiend for it.

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Speaker 1: I will say, all right, so tell me boy scouts,

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Speaker 1: good bad.

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Speaker 5: I really like it as growing up. I grew up

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Speaker 5: with the program, so I think I started when I

677
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Speaker 5: was in second grade, and I absolutely love it. It's

678
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Speaker 5: it's really fun for me to have somewhere to go.

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Speaker 5: So I I live in Wisconsin, and there's a saying

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Speaker 5: called up north here. It's like I'm going up north

681
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Speaker 5: for the weekend, and that's like the saying here. But yeah,

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Speaker 5: so I get to go up north to camp in Wisconsin,

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Speaker 5: and I for the weekend activities. It's usually like a

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Speaker 5: volunteer weekend, so we do a lot of like volunteer work.

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Speaker 5: Like it's one weekend I was doing conduit and like

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Speaker 5: bumbing stuff and putting together pipes and all that, and

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Speaker 5: then the next weekend I was doing some carpentry, like

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Speaker 5: cutting wood to the certain measurements that they wanted and

689
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Speaker 5: doing all that stuff. And the next weekend I was

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Speaker 5: doing some like I think we're poring concrete that weekend,

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Speaker 5: and I learned how to do that, and I actually

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Speaker 5: the head ranger took me on a trip to Iowa

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Speaker 5: this past weekend and I learned how to use the chainsaw. There,

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Speaker 5: slept safely and I got a certain there's a bunch

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Speaker 5: of BSA certifications that you can get it. And I

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Speaker 5: got a certification and i can certifiably use a chainsaw,

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Speaker 5: and I'm very proud of that.

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Speaker 1: That's pretty cool. Yeah, well, okay, what's the what's the

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Speaker 1: most which which b s A certification? Are you the

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Speaker 1: most proud of.

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Speaker 5: The most proud of part of the chainsaw? That was

702
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Speaker 5: pretty cool. I really enjoyed doing that. But there's there's

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Speaker 5: just a bunch of experiences that you can get for

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Speaker 5: the b s A. Like there was one time when

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Speaker 5: me and my me and my troop went to Washington,

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Speaker 5: d C. And we spent We just spent like a

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Speaker 5: week out there. It was so much fun. I got

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Speaker 5: to do the whole mall and I got to go

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Speaker 5: see the smoke Smithsonians and everything. It was very cool

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Speaker 5: mm hmm. And then there was another there was another

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Speaker 5: time with my troop where we went to the Boundary

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Speaker 5: waters in like Lake Superior. I really enjoyed that. It's

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Speaker 5: a very Oh my gosh, it's so pretty up there.

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Speaker 5: I love it so much. But yeah, I really like

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Speaker 5: it because it's it's it's good to have some place

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Speaker 5: to go on the weekends other than like you know,

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Speaker 5: partying or like, you know, sitting at home watching tiktoks

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Speaker 5: all weekend. It's not I don't. I don't like doing

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Speaker 5: that on the weekends, you know, just doom scrolling. It's

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Speaker 5: really it's it's a big problem for me. I don't like.

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Speaker 5: I don't.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, what's what's your TikTok algorithm looking like? These days?

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Speaker 5: It's a lot of cars. I'm a big car guy

724
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Speaker 5: as well. I see a lot of videos of like,

725
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Speaker 5: I'm a big on this Honda guy. I really like

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Speaker 5: on the Civics and a lot of people with turbos

727
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Speaker 5: in them and all that kind of stuff. But I

728
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Speaker 5: don't know, I just like, probably probably cars is the

729
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Speaker 5: biggest thing. Yeah. Sorry, I'm kind of nervous because I

730
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Speaker 5: was not expecting.

731
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Speaker 2: To get on.

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Speaker 1: No, don't, don't. What's your name again?

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Speaker 5: Evan?

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Speaker 1: Evan Evan. Now that you've graduated the Boy Scouts, what

735
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Speaker 1: is your hopes and dreams for your life?

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Speaker 5: Well, so, in the next two years, I want to

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Speaker 5: go on a trip across the country. My goal was

738
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Speaker 5: to hit every national park within a summer. Cool. I really,

739
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Speaker 5: I really want to do that. I'm really excited as

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Speaker 5: well because I have the plan all made out. I

741
00:37:24,480 --> 00:37:26,760
Speaker 5: just made a really bad decision in buying the wrong

742
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Speaker 5: vehicle because I was I was really excited out of

743
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Speaker 5: high school to do that, and then I bought the

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Speaker 5: wrong vehicle and I can't take that out across the

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Speaker 5: road because it's not reliable enough to do that. So

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Speaker 5: I got to wait until I pay have some debt

747
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Speaker 5: to do that. But I'm very I really want to

748
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Speaker 5: do that. I'm I've got like all the plans made out.

749
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Speaker 5: I know the days I want to stand at each park,

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Speaker 5: I know my food plan, I know like what I'm

751
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Speaker 5: going to do on the road for money. I just

752
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Speaker 5: you know, I just got to do it.

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Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, yeah, nice brother. Nice You did you get

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Speaker 1: to travel at all in the boy Scouts? Like, did

755
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Speaker 1: they take your places and you do stuff? I made

756
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Speaker 1: that sound kind of weird.

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Speaker 5: No, yeah, no, there was one trip where I took.

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Speaker 5: It was a pretty big event. It's called the National Jamboree.

759
00:38:20,520 --> 00:38:23,799
Speaker 5: It's where every Scout in the nation can go to

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Speaker 5: a place called the Summit, and it's like it's a

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Speaker 5: pretty big event. I think there was fifteen thousand or

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Speaker 5: twenty thousand scouts there last year, which doesn't sound like

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Speaker 5: a lot, but it's when you see it in real life.

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Speaker 5: It's a lot of people, I feel like. But yeah,

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Speaker 5: I also I've gotten to go down to Missouri and

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Speaker 5: in twenty seventeen, I went down there to go see

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Speaker 5: the eclipse, the lunar or the solar eclipse, I.

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Speaker 2: Think it was.

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Speaker 5: That was really fun And I really like how in

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Speaker 5: scouting you it's it's very intercann so like if you

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Speaker 5: want to go to like, say you want to take

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Speaker 5: a trip to Arizona, if you know somebody in Arizona

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Speaker 5: and they like are a part of scouting, you could

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Speaker 5: most likely get a weekend event and like go to Arizona,

775
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Speaker 5: go to that camp in Arizona and stay there for

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Speaker 5: a weekend, like volunteer and just see Arizona for a weekend.

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Speaker 5: Or if you want to go to like main safe story,

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Speaker 5: you know. But yeah, I also I work as a

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Speaker 5: This is a little sidetrack, but I work as a

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Speaker 5: truck driver as well. That's my like full time job.

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Speaker 5: Anyway that it's not it's not over the road, but

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Speaker 5: I do travel to state a whole lot. I do,

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Speaker 5: Like I go over Wisconsin.

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Speaker 1: Have you ever almost gotten into an accident and died.

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Speaker 1: I don't know why that was the first question. I

786
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Speaker 1: don't know why that was the first question that came

787
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Speaker 1: to my mind, but that's that was the first question

788
00:39:52,040 --> 00:39:54,480
Speaker 1: that came to my mind. Is if you ever almost

789
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Speaker 1: gotten into an accident and died.

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Speaker 5: I mean I've never gotten into an accident. I mean

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Speaker 5: there's been like close calls here and there, but nothing

792
00:40:05,760 --> 00:40:10,760
Speaker 5: like nothing really story worthy. But uh yeah, I deliver

793
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Speaker 5: beer for a living, so very fun. I I liked

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00:40:15,719 --> 00:40:18,000
Speaker 5: it a lot because I'll go it's like thirty minutes

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Speaker 5: to my work, and then sometimes we'll go all the

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Speaker 5: way up north through like Superior, Ashland area if you

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Speaker 5: know where that is, but it's all the way up there,

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Speaker 5: and then we go all the way down to you know,

799
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Speaker 5: like Lacrosse and you probably don't know, but it's it's

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Speaker 5: a big area we cover. And I really liked it

801
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Speaker 5: because I can. I listened to your podcast a lot.

802
00:40:36,800 --> 00:40:40,440
Speaker 5: I think I've listened to almost like by half the episodes,

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00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:42,520
Speaker 5: which is quite tell.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I've been a big fan for a long time.

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Speaker 5: I used to listen to you and you still on Reddit. Man. Yeah,

807
00:40:52,440 --> 00:40:54,240
Speaker 5: I remember the Redded days. It was good.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, now, redd it is, I don't know what they're doing.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I do know what they're doing there there,

810
00:41:02,000 --> 00:41:04,680
Speaker 1: yeah there, I know what they're doing multiple times a

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Speaker 1: day every day because I'm addicted to looking at Reddit.

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Speaker 1: Every time I look at it. Now it's just like

813
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Speaker 1: some it's some new Trump Pelon thing, and I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I don't want to put this in front of my

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Speaker 1: face right now. Yeah, you seem like a good a

816
00:41:20,640 --> 00:41:22,960
Speaker 1: good kid man. You seems like a good kid. You're

817
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Speaker 1: driving a fucking truck and I'm honestly had no idea that.

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Speaker 1: I don't know why. I thought there was an age

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Speaker 1: limit to driving a truck. I thought you had to

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Speaker 1: be at least forty seven years old. I didn't know that.

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Speaker 1: It kind of spooks me that they let nineteen year

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Speaker 1: olds drive trucks. I don't know why.

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Speaker 5: It's not it's not a tractor trailer. It's just a

824
00:41:42,640 --> 00:41:46,239
Speaker 5: box truck, straight box truck. But it is still a

825
00:41:46,239 --> 00:41:51,000
Speaker 5: pretty large vehicle. Yeah, Wisconsin laws are weird. There's also

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Speaker 5: there's a Wisconsin law where you can it's a really

827
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Speaker 5: weird law. You can drink alcohol, like with your parents

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Speaker 5: when you're under twenty one, like at a like restaurant,

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Speaker 5: I think, and it's very it's a very weird los

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Speaker 5: I know my cousin did that a lot with their parents.

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry. I've probably asked you ten times, but my

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00:42:12,640 --> 00:42:14,919
Speaker 1: brain is not working today. What's your name again?

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Speaker 5: My name is Evan.

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Speaker 1: Evan, Evan Evan. Do you have any advice for people?

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Speaker 2: Uh?

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Speaker 1: Do you have any advice for the people? I'm tired

837
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Speaker 1: I I this show. I have no advice for anyone today.

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00:42:30,440 --> 00:42:32,520
Speaker 1: I'm delegating the advice to you. Do you have any

839
00:42:32,560 --> 00:42:34,440
Speaker 1: advice for people?

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Speaker 8: My advice?

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Speaker 5: My advice is the Golden rule. Treat others that want

842
00:42:41,480 --> 00:42:44,200
Speaker 5: to be treated and you will get treated pretty well.

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Speaker 1: And where can I buy Where can I buy that popcorn?

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Speaker 5: At your local Scout council? So you're in New York, right, yeah? Yeah,

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Speaker 5: So if you just look up like I think it's

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Speaker 5: Northern New York councilors something. I don't know what the

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00:43:01,040 --> 00:43:03,760
Speaker 5: council is called, but it's an area that the council

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Speaker 5: like works with or like controls or something, and they

849
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Speaker 5: it's like a certain part of the city or the state,

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Speaker 5: and they have troops and scouts in certain areas. But

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Speaker 5: you can go to the council usually and buy popcorn

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00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:22,200
Speaker 5: from them. You don't have to like go out seeking

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00:43:22,280 --> 00:43:25,840
Speaker 5: seeking a child if you don't want to, but I

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00:43:26,080 --> 00:43:29,360
Speaker 5: you know, so you can. Yeah. Usually you can go

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00:43:29,400 --> 00:43:31,319
Speaker 5: to the council and you can just fill out a

856
00:43:31,320 --> 00:43:37,880
Speaker 5: form there and the season is like three weeks in

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Speaker 5: the fall. I think it's like October and November or

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Speaker 5: something like that. But did you do any youth programs

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Speaker 5: or anything like that?

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Speaker 1: Did I do any youth programs? Oh? I did b

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Speaker 1: w YO when I was a kid.

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Speaker 5: What's that? Uh?

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Speaker 1: Some Jewish thing where you go to a place and

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Speaker 1: be Jewish. We didn't sell anything. We just went and

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Speaker 1: be Jewish. And there's nothing.

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00:44:08,360 --> 00:44:08,640
Speaker 2: We did.

867
00:44:08,760 --> 00:44:08,800
Speaker 8: No.

868
00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:12,880
Speaker 1: We just like I would like to take a coffee

869
00:44:12,920 --> 00:44:14,719
Speaker 1: cup and I would piss in it and then I

870
00:44:14,719 --> 00:44:16,759
Speaker 1: would bring it into the elevator with me at this

871
00:44:16,840 --> 00:44:19,480
Speaker 1: hotel that we had a conference at. Stuff like that.

872
00:44:19,600 --> 00:44:24,560
Speaker 1: You know, nothing, nothing, no, no, no, no. We were

873
00:44:24,640 --> 00:44:30,680
Speaker 1: just being we were just bored. I once took a glide,

874
00:44:30,719 --> 00:44:32,600
Speaker 1: so we were like we were in the dining hall

875
00:44:32,680 --> 00:44:35,600
Speaker 1: and I took a glass cup and I went to

876
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:39,280
Speaker 1: the bathroom and I smashed it on the ground. Uh

877
00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:43,279
Speaker 1: just because it's just because well just because there was

878
00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:46,040
Speaker 1: I wasn't in a reality. I didn't take it seriously.

879
00:44:46,080 --> 00:44:49,120
Speaker 1: It wasn't reality to me looking back on it, you know.

880
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:51,360
Speaker 1: I mean I was fourteen, and so I wouldn't do

881
00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:51,840
Speaker 1: that again.

882
00:44:52,040 --> 00:44:56,600
Speaker 5: But real, would you say that you were a pretty

883
00:44:56,640 --> 00:44:57,319
Speaker 5: rebellious kid.

884
00:44:57,920 --> 00:45:00,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, sure, yeah, I was fairly rebellious, I would say

885
00:45:00,719 --> 00:45:09,359
Speaker 1: not uh not in any like. I never like did

886
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:14,799
Speaker 1: hardcore drugs or stabbed anyone. But I was you know,

887
00:45:15,480 --> 00:45:18,920
Speaker 1: I did not enjoy playing by the rules. I guess

888
00:45:18,960 --> 00:45:22,680
Speaker 1: when I was a wee boy, right.

889
00:45:23,080 --> 00:45:25,680
Speaker 5: Do anything notable or just here and there?

890
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:30,759
Speaker 1: Nothing that notable? I mean, what about you? What about

891
00:45:30,760 --> 00:45:32,000
Speaker 1: you were your rebellious kid?

892
00:45:34,239 --> 00:45:36,799
Speaker 5: I kind of was a goodie two shoes now that

893
00:45:36,840 --> 00:45:39,440
Speaker 5: I'm kind of so. In high school and like middle school,

894
00:45:39,480 --> 00:45:42,600
Speaker 5: I wasn't super social. I was kind of like kept

895
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:44,719
Speaker 5: to myself, and I kind of it was unfortunate, but

896
00:45:44,719 --> 00:45:46,279
Speaker 5: I kind of treated it high school in middle school

897
00:45:46,320 --> 00:45:47,799
Speaker 5: like a prison sentence and I was just like, I'm

898
00:45:47,800 --> 00:45:49,799
Speaker 5: gonna do my time and get out kind of thing

899
00:45:50,600 --> 00:45:55,080
Speaker 5: because I didn't really like school. But now that I've graduated,

900
00:45:55,120 --> 00:45:57,880
Speaker 5: I reconnected with a lot of my high school friends

901
00:45:58,480 --> 00:46:01,200
Speaker 5: and we go to like show and stuff. I know

902
00:46:01,600 --> 00:46:03,600
Speaker 5: I'm a part of well I'm not. I don't play

903
00:46:03,600 --> 00:46:05,759
Speaker 5: an instrument, but I'm a photographer for a band in

904
00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:10,200
Speaker 5: my area, so I take pictures of them sometimes. I

905
00:46:10,200 --> 00:46:13,560
Speaker 5: have a little film camera I use. I don't have anything.

906
00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:17,920
Speaker 5: I don't have like a fifteen digital camera that I use.

907
00:46:17,960 --> 00:46:21,800
Speaker 5: It's like a film camera that I found in my basement,

908
00:46:21,920 --> 00:46:25,200
Speaker 5: so I use that. But I like, I like to

909
00:46:25,200 --> 00:46:26,600
Speaker 5: go to their shows a lot. I like a lot

910
00:46:26,600 --> 00:46:29,839
Speaker 5: of local shows. It's very it's it feels like I'm

911
00:46:30,800 --> 00:46:33,440
Speaker 5: getting roots into my hometown. I guess I feel like

912
00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:36,360
Speaker 5: i'm more. I feel like a sense of belonging with

913
00:46:36,640 --> 00:46:38,760
Speaker 5: when I go to like local shows and local events

914
00:46:38,840 --> 00:46:44,640
Speaker 5: and stuff like that. But yeah, I really.

915
00:46:45,080 --> 00:46:48,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, sorry, go ahead, go ahead, No you serious?

916
00:46:49,000 --> 00:46:52,960
Speaker 1: No, I had nothing I was going to say, okay, but.

917
00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:54,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, no, I I.

918
00:46:55,560 --> 00:46:55,759
Speaker 2: Yeah.

919
00:46:55,760 --> 00:46:57,600
Speaker 5: They go to a lot of shows. It's like a

920
00:46:57,640 --> 00:47:00,520
Speaker 5: pop punk band, so they do a lot of heavier

921
00:47:00,560 --> 00:47:05,320
Speaker 5: stuff and like fast paced, and there's a basement show

922
00:47:05,880 --> 00:47:07,719
Speaker 5: or a basement venue that I go to a lot,

923
00:47:07,760 --> 00:47:12,640
Speaker 5: and it's it's like it's one of those like nineteenth

924
00:47:12,640 --> 00:47:17,520
Speaker 5: century basements that's like, you know, five feet tall, like

925
00:47:17,640 --> 00:47:22,680
Speaker 5: all rock and concrete, and it's like if you pack

926
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:27,320
Speaker 5: sixty people in there, it's cramped. As you know. M h,

927
00:47:27,960 --> 00:47:32,239
Speaker 5: I don't know. I don't know to swearing, but anyway, yeah, no,

928
00:47:32,320 --> 00:47:34,080
Speaker 5: it's it's a lot of fun though it's just like

929
00:47:34,120 --> 00:47:37,560
Speaker 5: pushing and shoving your friends. But yeah, I enjoy it.

930
00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:38,879
Speaker 2: I'm kind of.

931
00:47:40,719 --> 00:47:40,959
Speaker 4: Sorry.

932
00:47:40,960 --> 00:47:41,520
Speaker 1: Go ahead, Eavan.

933
00:47:42,600 --> 00:47:46,920
Speaker 5: Oh yes, sir. I kind of consider my stuff a

934
00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:51,120
Speaker 5: very versatile person in that sense, like like I'm an

935
00:47:51,120 --> 00:47:53,080
Speaker 5: eagle scout and I go do volunteer work and then

936
00:47:53,080 --> 00:47:55,160
Speaker 5: I go, you know, take pictures for a local band

937
00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:57,640
Speaker 5: that I'm a part of, and I I'm a truck driver,

938
00:47:57,800 --> 00:48:00,479
Speaker 5: and I just I feel like those kinds that things

939
00:48:00,480 --> 00:48:02,279
Speaker 5: are kind of I don't know that, I feel like

940
00:48:02,320 --> 00:48:05,080
Speaker 5: they're kind of contradictory in my eyes. You know, I

941
00:48:05,120 --> 00:48:07,200
Speaker 5: feel like you would expect the truck driver to go

942
00:48:07,239 --> 00:48:10,680
Speaker 5: to local shows, and someone that goes to local shows

943
00:48:10,680 --> 00:48:13,680
Speaker 5: and is like a punk rocker to go like to volunteer,

944
00:48:13,840 --> 00:48:14,399
Speaker 5: you know what I mean.

945
00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:17,400
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know, Evan. You said you're only nineteen,

946
00:48:17,480 --> 00:48:20,280
Speaker 1: but you're like living a full life. You're only nineteen.

947
00:48:20,280 --> 00:48:23,280
Speaker 1: But you're living like a forty seven year old's life.

948
00:48:23,280 --> 00:48:27,719
Speaker 1: You drive a truck, you volunteer, you're you're a good

949
00:48:27,840 --> 00:48:30,640
Speaker 1: Christian whatever, whether I don't even know if you're religious,

950
00:48:30,680 --> 00:48:34,399
Speaker 1: but you're a good Christian. No, no, no, I think

951
00:48:34,400 --> 00:48:36,360
Speaker 1: you're I think you're doing quite well. Evan.

952
00:48:36,960 --> 00:48:37,120
Speaker 2: Uh.

953
00:48:37,760 --> 00:48:38,680
Speaker 1: I wouldn't change the thing.

954
00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:42,719
Speaker 5: I appreciate that. Uh.

955
00:48:43,040 --> 00:48:44,239
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

956
00:48:44,280 --> 00:48:45,560
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

957
00:48:51,080 --> 00:48:53,480
Speaker 5: Hold on, hold on, hold on mean one six?

958
00:48:53,560 --> 00:48:55,440
Speaker 1: Oh god, what have we got? What's going on? What's happening?

959
00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:59,600
Speaker 5: There was hold on? So I was asking a chat

960
00:48:59,640 --> 00:49:04,520
Speaker 5: a lot, trying to find ask me the jest was this,

961
00:49:04,560 --> 00:49:07,640
Speaker 5: I don't want to say that finger minusly shout out

962
00:49:07,640 --> 00:49:10,440
Speaker 5: to finger Ministley because he really like he helped me,

963
00:49:10,560 --> 00:49:12,640
Speaker 5: he gave me. He like answered my question on how

964
00:49:12,640 --> 00:49:14,640
Speaker 5: to I asked a lot how to get in and

965
00:49:14,719 --> 00:49:16,120
Speaker 5: like what other people have done, and he was like

966
00:49:16,160 --> 00:49:18,239
Speaker 5: answering my questions.

967
00:49:18,560 --> 00:49:21,600
Speaker 1: Okay, shout out, shout up, shout up, shut out, shout

968
00:49:21,600 --> 00:49:24,000
Speaker 1: out finger finger guy.

969
00:49:24,120 --> 00:49:25,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm wrong.

970
00:49:26,320 --> 00:49:28,359
Speaker 1: Awesome, Well take care of him, good luck, keep doing,

971
00:49:28,440 --> 00:49:31,000
Speaker 1: keep living a good life. You're you're an inspiration to

972
00:49:31,880 --> 00:49:34,480
Speaker 1: You're an inspiration doing all these fucking things. At nineteen.

973
00:49:34,520 --> 00:49:37,840
Speaker 1: When I was nineteen, I was running around in circles

974
00:49:38,000 --> 00:49:41,320
Speaker 1: trying to make myself dizzy to get high. That's not true,

975
00:49:41,360 --> 00:49:42,839
Speaker 1: but you know what I mean.

976
00:49:43,800 --> 00:49:46,560
Speaker 5: H good luck, I mean all right, thank you, have

977
00:49:46,600 --> 00:49:47,000
Speaker 5: a good night.

978
00:49:49,719 --> 00:49:50,000
Speaker 4: Hello.

979
00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:52,239
Speaker 1: Hey, Hey, what's your name?

980
00:49:53,600 --> 00:49:59,440
Speaker 3: Okay, hey, my name is But if for some reason

981
00:49:59,480 --> 00:50:04,080
Speaker 3: I ended up getting connected with Gecko, can I just

982
00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:07,360
Speaker 3: remain pnominous?

983
00:50:08,200 --> 00:50:09,680
Speaker 1: You are connected with the Gecko?

984
00:50:11,120 --> 00:50:12,440
Speaker 2: Oh really?

985
00:50:12,560 --> 00:50:12,640
Speaker 5: What?

986
00:50:13,880 --> 00:50:14,080
Speaker 2: Hmm?

987
00:50:15,160 --> 00:50:18,560
Speaker 3: Okay, well, hi, get go. I guess I guess I

988
00:50:18,600 --> 00:50:20,720
Speaker 3: can't remain hidden.

989
00:50:23,280 --> 00:50:26,200
Speaker 1: You can? We can. We can get rid of that

990
00:50:26,280 --> 00:50:29,560
Speaker 1: name and just call you Donnie, and that's what we're

991
00:50:29,560 --> 00:50:33,520
Speaker 1: gonna do. So Donnie, Okay, what's up, Donnie? How you doing?

992
00:50:34,760 --> 00:50:38,080
Speaker 3: I'm good? How are you get go?

993
00:50:39,600 --> 00:50:42,440
Speaker 1: I'm actually feeling pretty good right now. I don't know

994
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:43,879
Speaker 1: what it is. I don't know what's in the air,

995
00:50:44,040 --> 00:50:50,160
Speaker 1: but today is actually a good day. So hopefully we

996
00:50:50,200 --> 00:50:52,080
Speaker 1: can string a few of those, a few more of

997
00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:56,799
Speaker 1: those together, and we'll really get somewhere. Yeah, well, what's

998
00:50:56,840 --> 00:50:57,400
Speaker 1: going on with you?

999
00:50:58,760 --> 00:50:58,880
Speaker 5: So?

1000
00:50:59,719 --> 00:51:03,160
Speaker 3: Well, Well, it's funny because I was hoping you would

1001
00:51:03,239 --> 00:51:07,320
Speaker 3: kind of go live tonight because I'm just looking for

1002
00:51:07,520 --> 00:51:17,840
Speaker 3: some advice about potentially moving abroad to Europe. I'm currently

1003
00:51:17,920 --> 00:51:25,200
Speaker 3: living in the US and I have this opportunity to

1004
00:51:25,280 --> 00:51:29,960
Speaker 3: move to France for a year, and I'm a little

1005
00:51:29,960 --> 00:51:33,200
Speaker 3: bit hesitant. So this is what I'm calling about.

1006
00:51:34,400 --> 00:51:35,880
Speaker 1: Okay, what's making you hesitant?

1007
00:51:38,120 --> 00:51:41,520
Speaker 3: The thing that's making me hesitant is that I'm worried

1008
00:51:41,680 --> 00:51:47,320
Speaker 3: about what I'm gonna do once I get to France.

1009
00:51:48,719 --> 00:51:52,719
Speaker 3: Right now, i'm going over there. Potentially I need to

1010
00:51:53,000 --> 00:51:57,360
Speaker 3: pay for my university, but once I pay for this semester,

1011
00:51:57,480 --> 00:52:00,440
Speaker 3: I'll go out there and study French for about a year.

1012
00:52:01,000 --> 00:52:07,880
Speaker 3: But after that, I'm not really sure what's going to happen.

1013
00:52:09,480 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 3: And just to give a little bit more context, my

1014
00:52:13,400 --> 00:52:19,320
Speaker 3: boyfriend currently lives in France. So a big part of

1015
00:52:19,360 --> 00:52:21,880
Speaker 3: the reason why I would be moving out there is

1016
00:52:21,920 --> 00:52:28,080
Speaker 3: because I want to be with him too, and at

1017
00:52:28,120 --> 00:52:29,719
Speaker 3: the same time, I just kind of want to do

1018
00:52:29,840 --> 00:52:34,880
Speaker 3: something adventurous for myself. But there's just a little bit

1019
00:52:34,920 --> 00:52:38,080
Speaker 3: of hesitation because it's such a big move and I

1020
00:52:38,120 --> 00:52:42,800
Speaker 3: would have to sell everything back home and it's just stuff.

1021
00:52:43,120 --> 00:52:45,880
Speaker 3: But I think it would be worth it. I don't know,

1022
00:52:46,239 --> 00:52:49,520
Speaker 3: it's a big thing. So I honestly didn't think you

1023
00:52:49,560 --> 00:52:55,000
Speaker 3: would answer. So I don't know really what else to say.

1024
00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:56,640
Speaker 1: How old are you?

1025
00:52:58,200 --> 00:53:00,000
Speaker 3: I'm twenty five.

1026
00:53:00,280 --> 00:53:02,080
Speaker 1: You have you ever been outside of the country.

1027
00:53:03,560 --> 00:53:08,280
Speaker 3: Yeah. I went to France last year for about a month,

1028
00:53:08,800 --> 00:53:12,400
Speaker 3: and I loved it. It was my first time to Europe,

1029
00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:17,640
Speaker 3: and going to France for the first time was it

1030
00:53:17,719 --> 00:53:20,400
Speaker 3: was surreal. I got to do a lot of the

1031
00:53:20,440 --> 00:53:24,680
Speaker 3: things that I never really thought I would ever do,

1032
00:53:24,920 --> 00:53:29,920
Speaker 3: like going to the Catacombs was amazing, and Saints Eiffel

1033
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:34,719
Speaker 3: Tower was incredible, and going to Normandy and going to

1034
00:53:34,800 --> 00:53:39,520
Speaker 3: like the D Day Museum and everything was really fascinating

1035
00:53:39,520 --> 00:53:43,160
Speaker 3: because I really like history. So I got to go

1036
00:53:43,239 --> 00:53:46,279
Speaker 3: to France for about about a month, but that's the

1037
00:53:46,360 --> 00:53:47,719
Speaker 3: longest that I've been there.

1038
00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:52,600
Speaker 1: And where do you live currently?

1039
00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:58,239
Speaker 3: I live in Arkansas currently, okay?

1040
00:53:58,480 --> 00:54:01,600
Speaker 1: And do you have like a can like what's going

1041
00:54:01,640 --> 00:54:03,480
Speaker 1: on in Arkansas? Do you have a lot of like

1042
00:54:03,520 --> 00:54:06,279
Speaker 1: friends and family there or a job there? Like do

1043
00:54:06,280 --> 00:54:08,439
Speaker 1: you have like significant reasons why you want to stay

1044
00:54:08,440 --> 00:54:09,160
Speaker 1: in Arkansas?

1045
00:54:10,560 --> 00:54:14,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, those reasons would be what you just listed, my

1046
00:54:14,800 --> 00:54:19,600
Speaker 3: friends and my family and my job here. I'm really

1047
00:54:19,640 --> 00:54:24,400
Speaker 3: close with my family, like my sisters and my brothers,

1048
00:54:24,440 --> 00:54:26,880
Speaker 3: and I've kind of got family all over the place,

1049
00:54:26,960 --> 00:54:31,480
Speaker 3: and then I have a pretty good I have a

1050
00:54:31,480 --> 00:54:35,520
Speaker 3: pretty good job back home, so there there would be

1051
00:54:35,920 --> 00:54:40,600
Speaker 3: a lot kind of keeping me here. You know, my

1052
00:54:40,719 --> 00:54:43,560
Speaker 3: family knows that I'm thinking about making this move and

1053
00:54:44,320 --> 00:54:48,040
Speaker 3: they all really would hate to see me go. But

1054
00:54:48,160 --> 00:54:50,759
Speaker 3: at the same time, they're you know, a little bit

1055
00:54:51,000 --> 00:54:54,399
Speaker 3: supportive but questionable of the ideas because it's kind of

1056
00:54:55,200 --> 00:54:58,080
Speaker 3: spur of the not spur of the moment, but it's

1057
00:54:58,160 --> 00:55:00,480
Speaker 3: kind of it's a huge decision, so they're just kind

1058
00:55:00,520 --> 00:55:03,600
Speaker 3: of like telling me to really think about what I'm

1059
00:55:03,600 --> 00:55:06,480
Speaker 3: doing here. So to answer your question.

1060
00:55:06,280 --> 00:55:08,480
Speaker 1: I've got do you do you have a Do you

1061
00:55:08,480 --> 00:55:10,439
Speaker 1: have a lease right now in Arkansas? Are you living

1062
00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:11,959
Speaker 1: with your parents?

1063
00:55:12,239 --> 00:55:12,319
Speaker 5: No?

1064
00:55:12,640 --> 00:55:16,160
Speaker 3: I have an apartment and I'm month to month right now.

1065
00:55:16,719 --> 00:55:17,680
Speaker 1: Oh that's okay.

1066
00:55:19,239 --> 00:55:20,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, And what and.

1067
00:55:20,760 --> 00:55:22,560
Speaker 1: What you would be going there for like a year

1068
00:55:22,680 --> 00:55:24,440
Speaker 1: to live in France or this is like a I

1069
00:55:24,480 --> 00:55:25,480
Speaker 1: am moving to France.

1070
00:55:26,920 --> 00:55:30,680
Speaker 3: Uh, it's a year for now for my student visa,

1071
00:55:30,880 --> 00:55:32,600
Speaker 3: and then I wanted to try it out for a

1072
00:55:32,680 --> 00:55:37,560
Speaker 3: year and then after that, uh, if like once I

1073
00:55:37,640 --> 00:55:40,120
Speaker 3: really know what I'm getting myself into seeing how I

1074
00:55:40,239 --> 00:55:43,960
Speaker 3: like it, then probably would end up moving there. But

1075
00:55:44,080 --> 00:55:46,960
Speaker 3: I just I guess the only thing I'm worried about

1076
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:51,480
Speaker 3: is making sure I become somebody there as in having

1077
00:55:51,520 --> 00:55:54,400
Speaker 3: a career. Maybe that's my biggest story.

1078
00:55:55,239 --> 00:56:03,120
Speaker 1: I'm team go there for a year. Yeah, because look,

1079
00:56:03,200 --> 00:56:05,920
Speaker 1: this isn't like nothing. Nothing you've said to me so

1080
00:56:06,040 --> 00:56:09,640
Speaker 1: far has been like particularly stupid. I mean, yeah, why

1081
00:56:09,680 --> 00:56:11,560
Speaker 1: not just go there for a year and have a

1082
00:56:11,600 --> 00:56:16,160
Speaker 1: little adventure, right, and then come back and I mean,

1083
00:56:16,239 --> 00:56:17,399
Speaker 1: you know, and then if you want to come back,

1084
00:56:17,400 --> 00:56:20,279
Speaker 1: you can come back, but you'll never forget the year

1085
00:56:20,400 --> 00:56:23,600
Speaker 1: that you spent in France. I try to do things

1086
00:56:23,600 --> 00:56:27,640
Speaker 1: where it's like, okay, I'll never forget doing that, you know.

1087
00:56:28,440 --> 00:56:31,000
Speaker 1: So I mean I think going for a year is

1088
00:56:31,040 --> 00:56:31,799
Speaker 1: not a bad move.

1089
00:56:33,560 --> 00:56:37,799
Speaker 3: Okay. I like your advice about doing things that I

1090
00:56:38,040 --> 00:56:43,040
Speaker 3: would never forget, because you know, I was leaning on

1091
00:56:43,080 --> 00:56:45,759
Speaker 3: the side of like I knew I'm going to do this.

1092
00:56:45,960 --> 00:56:50,000
Speaker 3: I just don't know what I'm waiting on. I think

1093
00:56:50,040 --> 00:56:53,120
Speaker 3: the thought of it being such a big move is

1094
00:56:53,239 --> 00:56:55,080
Speaker 3: kind of like scaring.

1095
00:56:54,640 --> 00:56:58,040
Speaker 1: Me and sometimes things, but it's what I don't understand

1096
00:56:58,080 --> 00:57:02,799
Speaker 1: is why is this such a big move because I mean, look,

1097
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:05,000
Speaker 1: you're gonna you leave your apartment and sell a bunch

1098
00:57:05,000 --> 00:57:08,720
Speaker 1: of shit whatever. I don't know, is there a housing

1099
00:57:08,800 --> 00:57:13,040
Speaker 1: crisis in Arkansas where you can't just come back after

1100
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:15,759
Speaker 1: a year and get another apartment near your family? Like

1101
00:57:16,320 --> 00:57:19,880
Speaker 1: what exactly makes this such a big decision?

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00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:25,440
Speaker 3: I don't know. Maybe I'm just thinking to I think,

1103
00:57:25,480 --> 00:57:27,880
Speaker 3: maybe I'm thinking too deeply into it, like the what

1104
00:57:28,040 --> 00:57:33,720
Speaker 3: ifs of God forbid, I don't end up liking it there,

1105
00:57:33,760 --> 00:57:36,240
Speaker 3: Like Okay, I need a plan b if I come

1106
00:57:36,280 --> 00:57:38,400
Speaker 3: back and like what am I going to come back to?

1107
00:57:40,240 --> 00:57:42,600
Speaker 3: Like do I sell my car or do I make

1108
00:57:42,640 --> 00:57:44,400
Speaker 3: sure I have a car to come back to you?

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00:57:45,200 --> 00:57:50,200
Speaker 3: Or you know, like the stuff that I've had over

1110
00:57:50,240 --> 00:57:52,600
Speaker 3: the years. It's just stuff, but like what do I sell?

1111
00:57:52,640 --> 00:57:57,320
Speaker 3: What do I keep? And the preparation of going over there.

1112
00:57:57,400 --> 00:57:59,600
Speaker 3: It kind of seems like, look.

1113
00:57:59,480 --> 00:58:02,200
Speaker 1: Look here's the thing. All these these these are all

1114
00:58:02,200 --> 00:58:04,720
Speaker 1: like little things, you know, like do you sell your car?

1115
00:58:04,840 --> 00:58:09,000
Speaker 1: Do you like what? It's all kind of figure outable stuff,

1116
00:58:09,720 --> 00:58:14,280
Speaker 1: I think. So, I mean, like, man, if I were you,

1117
00:58:14,320 --> 00:58:18,080
Speaker 1: it's like if do you if you want adventure, then

1118
00:58:19,800 --> 00:58:23,520
Speaker 1: go out and have yourself an adventure. Now's the time,

1119
00:58:23,560 --> 00:58:25,760
Speaker 1: Now's the better time to do it right, because you're

1120
00:58:25,760 --> 00:58:27,840
Speaker 1: not married, you don't have kids, you don't have a mortgage,

1121
00:58:27,840 --> 00:58:34,600
Speaker 1: you don't have like anything crazy crazy crazy tying you

1122
00:58:34,680 --> 00:58:36,840
Speaker 1: down anywhere. So I you know, go for a year,

1123
00:58:36,880 --> 00:58:38,840
Speaker 1: go go for a couple of months, and if you

1124
00:58:38,880 --> 00:58:41,600
Speaker 1: hate it, then go back home and live with your

1125
00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:44,240
Speaker 1: parents in Arkansas while you find a new place like this.

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00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:48,760
Speaker 1: It's a very reversible decision. Should you decide that you

1127
00:58:48,760 --> 00:58:51,440
Speaker 1: don't like it anymore, but you should. I think it's

1128
00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:54,520
Speaker 1: worth a shot, you know. That's how I feel, especially

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00:58:54,520 --> 00:58:56,040
Speaker 1: if forever.

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00:58:57,600 --> 00:59:01,800
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, I'm not from here. I moved here in

1131
00:59:01,920 --> 00:59:04,840
Speaker 3: my teenage years, so I'm not even from Arkansas. But

1132
00:59:05,360 --> 00:59:08,960
Speaker 3: I was definitely leaning towards like you know what might

1133
00:59:09,000 --> 00:59:11,320
Speaker 3: as well, like what's the worst, It's only a year,

1134
00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:18,040
Speaker 3: Like what an incredible opportunity. And honestly, I knew I

1135
00:59:18,080 --> 00:59:19,960
Speaker 3: wanted to do it, and I do want to do it,

1136
00:59:20,240 --> 00:59:23,400
Speaker 3: and I just wanted to call to you.

1137
00:59:23,440 --> 00:59:25,720
Speaker 1: Know, validate a high experience.

1138
00:59:26,640 --> 00:59:30,320
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, maybe maybe I was just looking for a

1139
00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:33,480
Speaker 3: little bit of validation because I've been getting a lot

1140
00:59:33,520 --> 00:59:38,840
Speaker 3: of people like questioning my decisions and you know, I'm

1141
00:59:38,920 --> 00:59:41,520
Speaker 3: I'm feel sure of myself, but it's nice to have

1142
00:59:41,640 --> 00:59:44,120
Speaker 3: other people like be like, yeah, go for it, and

1143
00:59:44,800 --> 00:59:48,560
Speaker 3: so thank you gut Go. I I appreciate your advice,

1144
00:59:48,720 --> 00:59:54,040
Speaker 3: and you know, the making things in wanting to make

1145
00:59:54,080 --> 00:59:56,760
Speaker 3: a memory out of that's something that I'll remember.

1146
00:59:57,880 --> 01:00:00,400
Speaker 1: Uh, Donnie, is there anything else you want to say

1147
01:00:00,440 --> 01:00:01,880
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go?

1148
01:00:04,840 --> 01:00:10,400
Speaker 3: Yes, I want to say, don't hesitate and don't let

1149
01:00:10,760 --> 01:00:14,560
Speaker 3: the what if stop you from doing something adventurous.

1150
01:00:15,480 --> 01:00:16,520
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling, Donny.

1151
01:00:17,760 --> 01:00:20,960
Speaker 3: Thank you. Have a good night. Gecko.

1152
01:00:23,320 --> 01:00:24,120
Speaker 1: Hey, what's your name?

1153
01:00:25,280 --> 01:00:25,440
Speaker 5: Oh?

1154
01:00:25,480 --> 01:00:28,280
Speaker 8: Good, So Hayden the GK Man.

1155
01:00:28,600 --> 01:00:30,120
Speaker 1: Yes, this is the GAK Man. How are you?

1156
01:00:30,160 --> 01:00:30,480
Speaker 2: Hayden?

1157
01:00:30,480 --> 01:00:32,320
Speaker 5: Has life awesome?

1158
01:00:32,360 --> 01:00:35,920
Speaker 8: Great to hear. Yeah, it's been It's been all right

1159
01:00:35,960 --> 01:00:38,560
Speaker 8: the last couple of months. Uh, just has had a

1160
01:00:38,600 --> 01:00:41,040
Speaker 8: colnhosk be done today and just sitting here watching the

1161
01:00:41,280 --> 01:00:41,960
Speaker 8: Self Park.

1162
01:00:41,840 --> 01:00:47,600
Speaker 1: Movie which one Bigger, Longer und cut? Yeah, sir, Oh

1163
01:00:47,640 --> 01:00:49,760
Speaker 1: that one's a classic. I love that movie. I used

1164
01:00:49,800 --> 01:00:54,680
Speaker 1: to watch it with fucking director's commentary when they re

1165
01:00:54,680 --> 01:00:55,760
Speaker 1: released it on Blu ray.

1166
01:00:57,240 --> 01:00:57,439
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1167
01:00:57,480 --> 01:01:01,040
Speaker 8: I'm just watching the DVD. But yeah, just uh just

1168
01:01:01,480 --> 01:01:06,320
Speaker 8: finished a thirty six hours fast because and I'm celebrating tonight.

1169
01:01:07,000 --> 01:01:09,600
Speaker 1: Oooh okay, what are we getting into after this thirty

1170
01:01:09,640 --> 01:01:10,440
Speaker 1: six hour fast?

1171
01:01:10,440 --> 01:01:11,240
Speaker 4: What are we? Uh?

1172
01:01:11,480 --> 01:01:13,880
Speaker 1: What are we gonna destroy our body with? Please?

1173
01:01:14,400 --> 01:01:14,560
Speaker 5: Oh?

1174
01:01:14,600 --> 01:01:17,400
Speaker 8: I got a couple of pizzas going and uh, I

1175
01:01:17,400 --> 01:01:19,040
Speaker 8: don't want to go too crazy because it started the

1176
01:01:19,040 --> 01:01:21,600
Speaker 8: gym a couple weeks ago. You know, I don't want

1177
01:01:21,600 --> 01:01:22,360
Speaker 8: to get too crazy.

1178
01:01:22,360 --> 01:01:25,120
Speaker 5: But yeah, that's awesome living life.

1179
01:01:25,160 --> 01:01:27,080
Speaker 8: Miss food, last day and a half miss food.

1180
01:01:28,720 --> 01:01:28,919
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1181
01:01:28,960 --> 01:01:31,240
Speaker 1: Fasting is good though, because I when you get into

1182
01:01:31,240 --> 01:01:33,560
Speaker 1: a routine where you're just like eating like a piece

1183
01:01:33,600 --> 01:01:36,840
Speaker 1: of shit every fucking day, you know you gotta sometimes

1184
01:01:36,880 --> 01:01:41,320
Speaker 1: you gotta remind yourself. You gotta reset your brain to

1185
01:01:41,400 --> 01:01:45,440
Speaker 1: be like, oh, actually, food is meant to be enjoyed

1186
01:01:45,480 --> 01:01:49,520
Speaker 1: despairingly and not. Uh you're not supposed to eat fucking

1187
01:01:50,280 --> 01:01:52,880
Speaker 1: five hundred grams of sugar every day or anything like that.

1188
01:01:52,920 --> 01:01:56,160
Speaker 1: You gotta reset your brain and then you enjoy food more.

1189
01:01:56,200 --> 01:01:59,200
Speaker 1: It's good. It's a good thing to fast. I'm doing

1190
01:01:59,240 --> 01:02:01,800
Speaker 1: a little fast now. That's how I was losing weight

1191
01:02:01,840 --> 01:02:05,040
Speaker 1: as I was doing like a twice a week, six

1192
01:02:05,160 --> 01:02:09,440
Speaker 1: hundred calorie only fast and it was working pretty well,

1193
01:02:09,440 --> 01:02:11,760
Speaker 1: and then I got fucking crazy and I stopped doing it.

1194
01:02:11,760 --> 01:02:14,080
Speaker 1: But now we're back on the horn. So you and

1195
01:02:14,120 --> 01:02:15,760
Speaker 1: me were just a couple of fucking.

1196
01:02:16,600 --> 01:02:17,919
Speaker 5: Uh yeah, for sure.

1197
01:02:18,400 --> 01:02:19,880
Speaker 1: We're just a couple of boys.

1198
01:02:19,560 --> 01:02:20,000
Speaker 2: On our.

1199
01:02:21,560 --> 01:02:22,800
Speaker 1: On our on our skinny game.

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01:02:23,840 --> 01:02:26,360
Speaker 8: Uh that's right. I'm trying, Hayden.

1201
01:02:26,680 --> 01:02:28,200
Speaker 1: What uh what can I do for you today? What'd

1202
01:02:28,200 --> 01:02:29,080
Speaker 1: you want to talk about?

1203
01:02:30,120 --> 01:02:30,760
Speaker 5: All right? Just?

1204
01:02:30,920 --> 01:02:34,560
Speaker 8: Uh, first time calling in? Just uh? Yeah, I recently

1205
01:02:35,240 --> 01:02:38,200
Speaker 8: moved out of my parents' house and uh, honestly it's

1206
01:02:38,200 --> 01:02:39,080
Speaker 8: been fabulous.

1207
01:02:41,600 --> 01:02:41,840
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1208
01:02:42,040 --> 01:02:43,080
Speaker 1: How long were you in there for?

1209
01:02:44,640 --> 01:02:44,800
Speaker 5: Oh?

1210
01:02:44,840 --> 01:02:48,200
Speaker 8: I did two months. Uh next week I'll be here.

1211
01:02:49,760 --> 01:02:52,800
Speaker 1: Okay, So uh in two months you will be.

1212
01:02:52,920 --> 01:02:54,760
Speaker 8: Oh say no, sorry, I've been with a parent. I'm

1213
01:02:54,800 --> 01:02:56,439
Speaker 8: twenty four, so I've been with my parents my whole

1214
01:02:56,440 --> 01:02:59,240
Speaker 8: life and I just got out for two months.

1215
01:02:59,360 --> 01:03:01,680
Speaker 1: Very nice, very nice? Okay, And what what was it

1216
01:03:01,720 --> 01:03:03,560
Speaker 1: that made you finally be like I'm getting out of there.

1217
01:03:04,600 --> 01:03:04,960
Speaker 7: I don't know.

1218
01:03:05,000 --> 01:03:06,800
Speaker 8: I love my family, but I just needed to get

1219
01:03:06,840 --> 01:03:07,400
Speaker 8: away from.

1220
01:03:07,320 --> 01:03:13,720
Speaker 1: Them totally totally. And what are you buy yourself? Are

1221
01:03:13,720 --> 01:03:14,640
Speaker 1: you with roommates?

1222
01:03:15,240 --> 01:03:17,280
Speaker 8: Yeah, I'm just by myself at the moment. I got

1223
01:03:17,280 --> 01:03:21,800
Speaker 8: a it's it's like my grandparents' house, but they're not

1224
01:03:22,040 --> 01:03:24,000
Speaker 8: doing very well, so like I'm kind of like taking

1225
01:03:24,040 --> 01:03:27,240
Speaker 8: over the payments for the time being until they didn't

1226
01:03:27,240 --> 01:03:29,280
Speaker 8: want to decide what they want to do. So kind

1227
01:03:29,320 --> 01:03:32,640
Speaker 8: of like sucks, but you know, still happy with the situation.

1228
01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:36,280
Speaker 1: Are you in your grandparents' house right now?

1229
01:03:37,280 --> 01:03:37,600
Speaker 5: Yes?

1230
01:03:38,640 --> 01:03:39,640
Speaker 1: Are your grandparents there?

1231
01:03:40,880 --> 01:03:44,160
Speaker 8: I know they are. One's my mom's taking care of

1232
01:03:44,200 --> 01:03:47,640
Speaker 8: my grandma and my grandpapa is he has a dementia,

1233
01:03:47,680 --> 01:03:51,040
Speaker 8: so he's at the like a retirement home in the

1234
01:03:51,120 --> 01:03:51,840
Speaker 8: take care of them.

1235
01:03:52,680 --> 01:03:57,600
Speaker 1: Okay, so you can still you know, you still have

1236
01:03:57,600 --> 01:03:58,360
Speaker 1: your own space.

1237
01:03:59,400 --> 01:04:02,760
Speaker 8: Oh yeah, which is it sucks, you know, like not

1238
01:04:02,840 --> 01:04:05,800
Speaker 8: the best circumstances for this, but you know, take what

1239
01:04:05,840 --> 01:04:08,440
Speaker 8: I can get if however long it lasts.

1240
01:04:08,120 --> 01:04:12,840
Speaker 1: You know whatever, nice have you have you done? An

1241
01:04:12,960 --> 01:04:14,560
Speaker 1: what like, what if now that you're now that you're

1242
01:04:14,560 --> 01:04:17,040
Speaker 1: on your own, you're having girls over, you're having parties?

1243
01:04:17,120 --> 01:04:17,680
Speaker 1: What are you doing?

1244
01:04:18,560 --> 01:04:18,720
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1245
01:04:18,800 --> 01:04:21,200
Speaker 8: Funny thing about that. The second day I move in,

1246
01:04:21,480 --> 01:04:24,200
Speaker 8: I got broken up with Oh no, it kind of

1247
01:04:24,240 --> 01:04:27,080
Speaker 8: been a weird couple of months, really weird couple of months.

1248
01:04:27,240 --> 01:04:27,840
Speaker 1: What happens?

1249
01:04:27,880 --> 01:04:31,160
Speaker 8: I don't know, just uh, I don't think we just

1250
01:04:31,160 --> 01:04:33,040
Speaker 8: we've been dating for six and a half years, so

1251
01:04:33,080 --> 01:04:34,240
Speaker 8: I think I don't know, it was just kind of

1252
01:04:34,360 --> 01:04:37,520
Speaker 8: time and like it was a high school relationship, so

1253
01:04:37,560 --> 01:04:40,520
Speaker 8: it's you always still miss there a lot, but you know,

1254
01:04:40,640 --> 01:04:42,560
Speaker 8: I think it was for the best, you know, It's

1255
01:04:42,880 --> 01:04:45,600
Speaker 8: just kind of bad timing, unfortunately, Like I was at

1256
01:04:45,680 --> 01:04:49,080
Speaker 8: excited about moving and the second day I get here, Hey,

1257
01:04:49,280 --> 01:04:54,200
Speaker 8: we need to talk. So yeah, it's unfortunate.

1258
01:04:54,560 --> 01:04:56,440
Speaker 1: Are you you're calling me from Canada?

1259
01:04:56,640 --> 01:04:58,640
Speaker 8: It seems yes, sir?

1260
01:04:59,040 --> 01:05:00,280
Speaker 1: What part of Canada.

1261
01:05:01,640 --> 01:05:04,400
Speaker 8: Windsor, Ontario, like a right across from Detroit?

1262
01:05:04,960 --> 01:05:07,000
Speaker 1: And what's going on in uh oh yeah, yeah, yeah, sure,

1263
01:05:07,040 --> 01:05:08,640
Speaker 1: I think I've I've been like near the border of

1264
01:05:08,680 --> 01:05:11,200
Speaker 1: Windsor what's going on in Windsor? It's is it?

1265
01:05:11,240 --> 01:05:11,480
Speaker 2: Is it?

1266
01:05:11,920 --> 01:05:13,960
Speaker 1: Is it a shithole? Or is it fun?

1267
01:05:14,400 --> 01:05:16,960
Speaker 8: That's sorry? I mean a lot of manufacturing jobs and

1268
01:05:18,120 --> 01:05:18,440
Speaker 8: what was that?

1269
01:05:21,680 --> 01:05:22,000
Speaker 5: Hellope?

1270
01:05:22,320 --> 01:05:23,080
Speaker 1: Hey, what's up?

1271
01:05:24,640 --> 01:05:27,040
Speaker 8: Oh sorry, my alarm went off with my pizza?

1272
01:05:27,040 --> 01:05:30,880
Speaker 5: Sorry, but that you there?

1273
01:05:31,760 --> 01:05:33,560
Speaker 8: Yeah, sorry, my alarm just went off from a pizza

1274
01:05:33,720 --> 01:05:34,080
Speaker 8: over that.

1275
01:05:34,560 --> 01:05:41,320
Speaker 1: You have a pizza alarm? Yeah, like like no.

1276
01:05:41,400 --> 01:05:42,400
Speaker 8: It's yeah, cook in the oven?

1277
01:05:42,480 --> 01:05:44,400
Speaker 1: Like okay, okay, I thought it was. I thought it

1278
01:05:44,440 --> 01:05:46,640
Speaker 1: was like a birth control pill alarm, where it just

1279
01:05:46,640 --> 01:05:47,680
Speaker 1: tells you that.

1280
01:05:47,800 --> 01:05:51,840
Speaker 5: Pizza, yeah, pizza, yeah, yeah, one just good.

1281
01:05:51,880 --> 01:05:53,360
Speaker 8: I don't we're getting like a lot of people around

1282
01:05:53,360 --> 01:05:57,120
Speaker 8: here are getting a little scared of all these pariffs

1283
01:05:57,160 --> 01:05:59,360
Speaker 8: news and it's kind of scaring a lot of us.

1284
01:05:59,400 --> 01:06:03,479
Speaker 8: But you know, we're getting through it all, okay, because

1285
01:06:03,480 --> 01:06:05,800
Speaker 8: we do a lot of the car part manufacturing and

1286
01:06:05,840 --> 01:06:07,520
Speaker 8: not a lot of people around here agon kind of

1287
01:06:07,640 --> 01:06:11,280
Speaker 8: get kind of scared. But yeah, we're keeping through, keeping through.

1288
01:06:13,160 --> 01:06:15,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, what's the I know that Trump is doing a

1289
01:06:15,720 --> 01:06:18,520
Speaker 1: bunch of crazy stuff. How's how's it being received over

1290
01:06:18,600 --> 01:06:19,560
Speaker 1: in Canada.

1291
01:06:21,480 --> 01:06:24,400
Speaker 8: At Honestly, a lot of the people who were conservatives

1292
01:06:24,440 --> 01:06:26,520
Speaker 8: like a couple of years ago are not conservative now.

1293
01:06:26,640 --> 01:06:29,200
Speaker 8: So that that's even with the hardcore ones, that's kind

1294
01:06:29,200 --> 01:06:31,440
Speaker 8: of crazy to me, Like all the guys that were

1295
01:06:31,520 --> 01:06:33,960
Speaker 8: super all into that stuff not into it anymore.

1296
01:06:35,040 --> 01:06:38,800
Speaker 1: Interesting. It's funny because I guess it's like the past. However,

1297
01:06:38,880 --> 01:06:41,280
Speaker 1: many years I was always like, what's it gonna fucking

1298
01:06:41,480 --> 01:06:46,000
Speaker 1: like take? You know, I guess I guess what it

1299
01:06:46,040 --> 01:06:50,760
Speaker 1: took was a giant stock market crash.

1300
01:06:50,880 --> 01:06:53,320
Speaker 8: Yeah, Well, it's still scary over here too, I'm hearing

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Speaker 8: more and more so because honestly, we don't really hear

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Speaker 8: a lot of American news at least like we're I know,

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01:06:58,040 --> 01:06:59,520
Speaker 8: we're like right across the border, but I don't hear

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01:06:59,520 --> 01:07:00,800
Speaker 8: a lot of the America can news. So I haven't

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01:07:00,800 --> 01:07:02,360
Speaker 8: really heard much about what's going on over there either.

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Speaker 1: M h m hmm. All right, So you're twenty four,

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01:07:09,720 --> 01:07:11,520
Speaker 1: you're out on your own, and what do you do?

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01:07:11,520 --> 01:07:12,920
Speaker 1: Do you work in manufacturing?

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01:07:13,760 --> 01:07:13,960
Speaker 2: Yes?

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Speaker 8: I do?

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Speaker 1: Okay, how how's how are things at the plant? Do

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01:07:18,800 --> 01:07:20,640
Speaker 1: you go to a plant? Do you live like Homer?

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Speaker 8: Seeah, it's kind like a small like small yeah, kind

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01:07:23,640 --> 01:07:26,040
Speaker 8: kind of like a small shop type of thing. But yeah,

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Speaker 8: they're keep it is busy for the time being. But

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Speaker 8: you know, like as the weeks go by, like more

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01:07:30,400 --> 01:07:32,720
Speaker 8: and more like our jobs are getting like canceled because

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01:07:32,720 --> 01:07:34,920
Speaker 8: they don't want to like yeah, I don't know, I

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01:07:34,920 --> 01:07:36,360
Speaker 8: don't know all the details of it, but you have

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01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:38,400
Speaker 8: more and more jobs are getting canceled. It's getting scarier

1321
01:07:38,440 --> 01:07:41,400
Speaker 8: and scarier, but you know they're keeping us on. I

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01:07:41,400 --> 01:07:47,240
Speaker 8: don't care whatever. M yeah, I just despite that. I

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Speaker 8: just trying to sorry, go ahead, No, god, no again.

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Speaker 5: None.

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Speaker 8: No, I was just gonna say, yeah, just trying to

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Speaker 8: stay positive with everything. It's like it's you know, it's

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Speaker 8: let's been good despite everything, and you know, I still

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01:08:01,000 --> 01:08:03,800
Speaker 8: miss my ex, but you know, getting.

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Speaker 2: Through it all right.

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Speaker 1: Have you been going on any dates? Are you on

1331
01:08:06,800 --> 01:08:08,000
Speaker 1: Canadian hinge?

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01:08:10,720 --> 01:08:10,800
Speaker 2: No?

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Speaker 8: It's just not ready for that yet. It's been I

1334
01:08:13,160 --> 01:08:18,160
Speaker 8: think two months next week. I don't just not really

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01:08:18,200 --> 01:08:22,200
Speaker 8: feeling that yet. Just still getting over everything and starting

1336
01:08:22,200 --> 01:08:24,320
Speaker 8: to go to therapy and starting to do more things

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01:08:24,320 --> 01:08:26,240
Speaker 8: that you know, make me feel good about myself and

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01:08:26,320 --> 01:08:27,559
Speaker 8: trying to be a better person.

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Speaker 2: Do you.

1340
01:08:31,120 --> 01:08:33,439
Speaker 1: Give a lot of friends in windsor do you have

1341
01:08:33,640 --> 01:08:35,200
Speaker 1: like a community and whatnot.

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01:08:36,160 --> 01:08:38,160
Speaker 8: I have a couple of friends, but you know it's

1343
01:08:39,280 --> 01:08:41,559
Speaker 8: I lost a couple over high school. Like but yeah,

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01:08:41,600 --> 01:08:43,760
Speaker 8: I got two or three Semichels friends. I don't think

1345
01:08:43,760 --> 01:08:45,080
Speaker 8: I have any like close friends at the moment.

1346
01:08:45,200 --> 01:08:48,080
Speaker 4: But what's your.

1347
01:08:48,120 --> 01:08:51,400
Speaker 1: What's your dream in life?

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01:08:53,360 --> 01:08:57,720
Speaker 8: I don't know, just try and shrug through and be

1349
01:08:57,720 --> 01:09:00,160
Speaker 8: able to afford some good stuff later in life.

1350
01:09:02,520 --> 01:09:04,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, what kind of good stuff?

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01:09:06,160 --> 01:09:07,799
Speaker 8: I don't I would want to go in some trips

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01:09:07,840 --> 01:09:10,680
Speaker 8: long term, Like I know, I just heard someone was

1353
01:09:10,680 --> 01:09:12,519
Speaker 8: talking about going to France and I would like to

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01:09:12,600 --> 01:09:13,559
Speaker 8: check out France someday.

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01:09:14,200 --> 01:09:18,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, France is uh well, you guys, don't you

1356
01:09:18,040 --> 01:09:21,240
Speaker 1: live near You could go to Mini France. You could

1357
01:09:21,240 --> 01:09:22,040
Speaker 1: go to Montreal.

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Speaker 8: Oh yeah that's true. Yeah that's still about what eight

1359
01:09:25,920 --> 01:09:28,880
Speaker 8: nine hours away. Yeah, I thought about it, just taking

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01:09:28,880 --> 01:09:35,680
Speaker 8: a little trip. And yes, I don't know, I've just

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01:09:35,720 --> 01:09:37,760
Speaker 8: kind of been I'm happy, but you know, still down

1362
01:09:37,800 --> 01:09:41,360
Speaker 8: about the whole situation. But yeah, and maybe next during

1363
01:09:41,360 --> 01:09:43,600
Speaker 8: the summer, I was thinking about just trying to do

1364
01:09:43,680 --> 01:09:46,400
Speaker 8: something fun for myself, go alone somewhere for a couple

1365
01:09:46,360 --> 01:09:48,920
Speaker 8: of days and try and enjoy some life.

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01:09:49,320 --> 01:09:49,599
Speaker 2: Yeah.

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01:09:49,640 --> 01:09:52,120
Speaker 1: I like that, enjoy some life. I mean, Canada has

1368
01:09:52,160 --> 01:09:53,760
Speaker 1: a lot of places where you can go into the

1369
01:09:53,800 --> 01:09:56,880
Speaker 1: woods and never come back out or be you know,

1370
01:09:57,200 --> 01:10:00,400
Speaker 1: fight a bear, fight a bear. Yeah you been out.

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01:10:00,400 --> 01:10:01,840
Speaker 1: Have you spent a lot of time in that? In

1372
01:10:01,880 --> 01:10:03,880
Speaker 1: that Canadian wilderness?

1373
01:10:05,280 --> 01:10:06,840
Speaker 8: I'm gonna have to BC a couple of times. It's

1374
01:10:06,840 --> 01:10:07,439
Speaker 8: beautiful there.

1375
01:10:07,760 --> 01:10:08,719
Speaker 5: I love it up there.

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01:10:09,240 --> 01:10:10,719
Speaker 4: Mhm mhmm.

1377
01:10:13,600 --> 01:10:20,439
Speaker 1: Well let's see here. What's your name again, Hayden, Hayden, Hayden.

1378
01:10:20,479 --> 01:10:22,600
Speaker 1: Before we go, is there anything that I can do

1379
01:10:22,720 --> 01:10:27,320
Speaker 1: for you to make this phone call experience better on

1380
01:10:27,360 --> 01:10:27,840
Speaker 1: your end.

1381
01:10:29,920 --> 01:10:32,559
Speaker 8: No, I'm just loving your show. I'm watching it since

1382
01:10:32,600 --> 01:10:35,439
Speaker 8: the was it the high Mind episode you guys did

1383
01:10:35,439 --> 01:10:38,360
Speaker 8: with the Hive Mind guys a couple of years ago.

1384
01:10:38,760 --> 01:10:39,040
Speaker 4: Cool.

1385
01:10:39,120 --> 01:10:41,240
Speaker 1: I'm glad you liked that, because if you it's funny,

1386
01:10:41,240 --> 01:10:45,599
Speaker 1: if you go on Reddit, or if you go on

1387
01:10:45,600 --> 01:10:49,960
Speaker 1: on that video, it is consistently ranked as the worst

1388
01:10:50,560 --> 01:10:52,439
Speaker 1: hive Mind episode of all time.

1389
01:10:53,560 --> 01:10:56,519
Speaker 8: Really, yeah, I thought I thought you about an interesting

1390
01:10:56,800 --> 01:10:57,799
Speaker 8: dynamic to them.

1391
01:11:00,800 --> 01:11:03,760
Speaker 1: I mean, look, I was rewatching it and I was like,

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01:11:03,800 --> 01:11:06,639
Speaker 1: I was rewatching it and I was like, I don't

1393
01:11:06,640 --> 01:11:08,920
Speaker 1: get what people are so mad about. I watched one

1394
01:11:08,920 --> 01:11:10,559
Speaker 1: part and I was like, all right, maybe a couple

1395
01:11:10,520 --> 01:11:13,519
Speaker 1: of parts I was being kind of a dick, It's true,

1396
01:11:13,720 --> 01:11:14,960
Speaker 1: But the rest of it I was fine.

1397
01:11:15,120 --> 01:11:18,439
Speaker 8: But anyway, no, I am sorry, sorry, what part do

1398
01:11:18,479 --> 01:11:19,200
Speaker 8: you think you're going to dick?

1399
01:11:19,240 --> 01:11:19,439
Speaker 2: Abough?

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01:11:19,479 --> 01:11:20,639
Speaker 8: I thought I thought it was entertainment.

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01:11:20,640 --> 01:11:23,679
Speaker 1: I was, thank you, thank you, thank you. As look

1402
01:11:23,720 --> 01:11:26,000
Speaker 1: as long as as long as at least one person

1403
01:11:27,040 --> 01:11:32,599
Speaker 1: found that video mildly entertaining, then that's all I care about.

1404
01:11:33,479 --> 01:11:39,200
Speaker 1: But well, you know, Hayden, thank you very much, for

1405
01:11:39,439 --> 01:11:40,760
Speaker 1: calling man. Is there anything else you want to say

1406
01:11:40,760 --> 01:11:42,080
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go.

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01:11:43,200 --> 01:11:46,000
Speaker 8: I'm just trying to stay positive and any issues you

1408
01:11:46,000 --> 01:11:48,080
Speaker 8: got go to therapy, all.

1409
01:11:48,040 --> 01:11:52,320
Speaker 1: Right, take care of Hayden. I gotta get up to

1410
01:11:52,360 --> 01:11:56,840
Speaker 1: Canada sometime. Hello everybody, this is Lyle uh Gecko guy.

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01:11:57,320 --> 01:12:01,480
Speaker 1: I am here at the end of this episode because

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01:12:01,720 --> 01:12:07,920
Speaker 1: I wanted to introduce a little preview of a thing. Okay, basically,

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01:12:08,000 --> 01:12:11,360
Speaker 1: about a year ago, I went on a trip to

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01:12:11,520 --> 01:12:17,400
Speaker 1: Thailand and I did get interviews on the street with

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01:12:17,560 --> 01:12:21,880
Speaker 1: people there. I made a friend on Instagram named Ice,

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01:12:22,479 --> 01:12:27,559
Speaker 1: and he helped me translate interviews with Thai folks because

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01:12:27,600 --> 01:12:32,360
Speaker 1: I do not speak Thai. And I don't know why

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01:12:32,640 --> 01:12:34,160
Speaker 1: I went on this trip like a year ago, but

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01:12:34,240 --> 01:12:38,000
Speaker 1: I sat on the footage for a full year. I

1420
01:12:38,000 --> 01:12:42,320
Speaker 1: don't know why, but I'm releasing the footage today and

1421
01:12:42,600 --> 01:12:45,559
Speaker 1: if you go on my YouTube channel YouTube dot com

1422
01:12:45,600 --> 01:12:51,760
Speaker 1: slash Lyle Forever, you can see the irl interviews that

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01:12:51,840 --> 01:12:55,479
Speaker 1: I did on the streets of Thailand. And I decided

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01:12:55,479 --> 01:13:00,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna end this episode with a little preview interview

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01:13:00,560 --> 01:13:05,240
Speaker 1: that I did with this guy who was working at

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01:13:05,240 --> 01:13:09,439
Speaker 1: a barbecue restaurant nearby wherever we were filming, and he

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01:13:09,800 --> 01:13:12,280
Speaker 1: came over and he did an interview with us. Now,

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01:13:12,360 --> 01:13:16,240
Speaker 1: this little preview, a lot of it is in Taie,

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01:13:16,880 --> 01:13:21,120
Speaker 1: which I understand for a podcast is maybe not optimal,

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01:13:21,520 --> 01:13:26,160
Speaker 1: but it's in Tie, but I have somebody who translates it,

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01:13:26,640 --> 01:13:29,439
Speaker 1: and so whatever. I think it's kind of cool. I

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01:13:29,479 --> 01:13:33,200
Speaker 1: think it's kind of cool. You'll understand it. You will

1433
01:13:33,200 --> 01:13:35,680
Speaker 1: be able to understand this interview as much as I

1434
01:13:35,880 --> 01:13:40,599
Speaker 1: was able to understand this interview while I was doing it,

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01:13:41,360 --> 01:13:43,240
Speaker 1: which I think is cool. I think it's cool to

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01:13:44,600 --> 01:13:46,679
Speaker 1: I don't know, get to talk to people who speak

1437
01:13:47,240 --> 01:13:50,680
Speaker 1: languages that I do not speak. But if you want

1438
01:13:50,720 --> 01:13:53,519
Speaker 1: to go listen to the full thing, I actually have

1439
01:13:53,680 --> 01:13:58,759
Speaker 1: subtitles on it to translate the Tie to the English,

1440
01:13:58,800 --> 01:14:03,720
Speaker 1: so that you're not just listening back to the translations

1441
01:14:03,920 --> 01:14:07,360
Speaker 1: that my friend Ice does. But yeah, I'll play this

1442
01:14:07,400 --> 01:14:09,360
Speaker 1: little snippet, and if you like it and you want

1443
01:14:09,360 --> 01:14:11,360
Speaker 1: to watch the whole thing with the subtitles and everything,

1444
01:14:11,360 --> 01:14:14,400
Speaker 1: you can go to YouTube dot com slash lyle forever,

1445
01:14:14,840 --> 01:14:18,000
Speaker 1: or find a link in the episode description. All right,

1446
01:14:18,640 --> 01:14:21,679
Speaker 1: let's hear the interview. What's your name cheer leap.

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01:14:22,760 --> 01:14:25,879
Speaker 4: We we have we we yes.

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01:14:26,000 --> 01:14:26,840
Speaker 1: We nice to meet you.

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01:14:26,920 --> 01:14:29,280
Speaker 4: We meet you hub.

1450
01:14:30,560 --> 01:14:34,559
Speaker 1: What are you doing out on the town today?

1451
01:14:36,120 --> 01:14:37,080
Speaker 4: He's working right now.

1452
01:14:37,200 --> 01:14:38,760
Speaker 1: Okay, how do you like your job?

1453
01:14:39,120 --> 01:14:45,040
Speaker 4: Sho, he'd me. But he's like it. He's like it's

1454
01:14:45,080 --> 01:14:49,240
Speaker 4: easy going, is just going on easy. It's just come

1455
01:14:49,280 --> 01:14:49,920
Speaker 4: easy to him.

1456
01:14:50,479 --> 01:14:53,080
Speaker 1: And uh, you you work at a where where do

1457
01:14:53,080 --> 01:14:53,439
Speaker 1: you work?

1458
01:14:56,840 --> 01:14:59,120
Speaker 4: He worked here? I have BBQ here.

1459
01:14:59,200 --> 01:15:01,840
Speaker 1: Okay, so you work at this Barbieview restaurant? How are

1460
01:15:01,840 --> 01:15:04,479
Speaker 1: the customers here? They are they nice and polity? Do

1461
01:15:04,479 --> 01:15:06,800
Speaker 1: you ever run into people who are like kind of rude?

1462
01:15:07,640 --> 01:15:11,240
Speaker 4: Look? Look how t Yeah?

1463
01:15:18,520 --> 01:15:18,840
Speaker 1: You know.

1464
01:15:20,320 --> 01:15:23,479
Speaker 6: Remember guy.

1465
01:15:25,520 --> 01:15:29,160
Speaker 4: He ran in him into some problems some costumer. But

1466
01:15:29,960 --> 01:15:33,960
Speaker 4: he said, like they're just being picky and shoot what

1467
01:15:34,040 --> 01:15:38,320
Speaker 4: they want and not doesn't go easy with what they have.

1468
01:15:39,240 --> 01:15:41,760
Speaker 1: Okay, So people who are like picky eaters and like

1469
01:15:42,280 --> 01:15:43,520
Speaker 1: just like making things.

1470
01:15:43,280 --> 01:15:49,200
Speaker 4: Difficult, little man. Look, god, I'm high Lambard.

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01:15:51,560 --> 01:15:51,760
Speaker 2: Yeah.

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01:15:53,360 --> 01:16:00,519
Speaker 4: Many sometime consumer come to the barbecue, Yes, and they

1473
01:16:00,600 --> 01:16:04,479
Speaker 4: want like a chicken sauce, some type certain type of

1474
01:16:04,600 --> 01:16:08,759
Speaker 4: chicken thought at a Bobby Cue restaurant? Yeah, some stuff

1475
01:16:08,800 --> 01:16:09,200
Speaker 4: like that.

1476
01:16:09,439 --> 01:16:14,040
Speaker 1: And are you like when you run into conflict when

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01:16:14,800 --> 01:16:18,880
Speaker 1: people are like, you know, kind of tight or demanding.

1478
01:16:19,600 --> 01:16:21,960
Speaker 1: Are you are you good at dealing with that? Are

1479
01:16:22,000 --> 01:16:24,000
Speaker 1: you are you good at kind of keeping your cool

1480
01:16:24,360 --> 01:16:27,080
Speaker 1: or do you are you able to keep cool under

1481
01:16:27,120 --> 01:16:27,559
Speaker 1: the pressure?

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01:16:27,880 --> 01:16:32,040
Speaker 4: Well a banha, Well I tell you, p lucic WebP

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01:16:35,320 --> 01:16:40,720
Speaker 4: li He said, it's cool. I'm used to it.

1484
01:16:40,880 --> 01:16:42,000
Speaker 1: Okay, cool man? Cool?

1485
01:16:42,160 --> 01:16:42,600
Speaker 5: What do you do?

1486
01:16:42,600 --> 01:16:43,880
Speaker 1: What do you like to do outside of work?

1487
01:16:46,760 --> 01:16:49,720
Speaker 4: But he like to.

1488
01:16:50,880 --> 01:16:51,160
Speaker 6: Don't he?

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01:16:53,479 --> 01:16:59,920
Speaker 4: Okay, he's just like just towering around, Like he's just

1490
01:17:00,160 --> 01:17:02,400
Speaker 4: like to towel around in Bangkok and stuff when he

1491
01:17:02,479 --> 01:17:03,120
Speaker 4: is not working.

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01:17:03,400 --> 01:17:06,160
Speaker 1: Okay, he just likes to travel around. Yes, uh do

1493
01:17:06,240 --> 01:17:07,679
Speaker 1: you do? You have a lot of friends and stuff?

1494
01:17:07,880 --> 01:17:09,400
Speaker 4: Me?

1495
01:17:11,400 --> 01:17:13,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, what do you what do you like to go

1496
01:17:13,640 --> 01:17:14,639
Speaker 1: out and do with your friends?

1497
01:17:14,920 --> 01:17:29,600
Speaker 4: Top half of man? Well like.

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01:17:31,320 --> 01:17:33,320
Speaker 6: Them hanging.

1499
01:17:36,160 --> 01:17:39,200
Speaker 4: You just go to some mall and maybe takes with

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01:17:39,320 --> 01:17:40,439
Speaker 4: them something like that?

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01:17:40,600 --> 01:17:40,880
Speaker 1: Nice?

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01:17:41,040 --> 01:17:41,360
Speaker 4: Nice?

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01:17:41,680 --> 01:17:44,240
Speaker 1: What's what's your dream in life? What do you what

1504
01:17:44,280 --> 01:17:46,519
Speaker 1: do you want at a life? Ultimately? What do you

1505
01:17:46,560 --> 01:17:49,519
Speaker 1: what do you hope to to do with with your

1506
01:17:49,520 --> 01:17:50,920
Speaker 1: time alive on the earth?

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01:17:51,240 --> 01:17:57,519
Speaker 4: Nice? Shot com here we have teabap like fun d

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01:17:57,640 --> 01:18:07,360
Speaker 4: o t Actually he literally liked to drive a car

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01:18:07,720 --> 01:18:09,599
Speaker 4: like a wan. He really love a wan.

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01:18:10,240 --> 01:18:11,599
Speaker 1: A wan like.

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01:18:11,640 --> 01:18:13,240
Speaker 4: A long can. What do you call it?

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01:18:13,800 --> 01:18:15,080
Speaker 1: Long car? A van?

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01:18:15,320 --> 01:18:15,759
Speaker 4: Yeah?

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01:18:15,600 --> 01:18:17,400
Speaker 1: When do you want to drive a van? A van?

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01:18:17,680 --> 01:18:18,880
Speaker 4: Yeah?

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01:18:19,200 --> 01:18:25,920
Speaker 6: From your he.

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01:18:29,280 --> 01:18:31,600
Speaker 4: He liked to be in a car. He just like

1518
01:18:31,680 --> 01:18:34,000
Speaker 4: to drive or live in the high event.

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01:18:34,360 --> 01:18:35,720
Speaker 1: Oh, you want to live in you want to do

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01:18:35,760 --> 01:18:36,360
Speaker 1: the van life?

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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01:18:37,160 --> 01:18:37,400
Speaker 5: We do.

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01:18:39,520 --> 01:18:40,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, he wants to do that.

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01:18:40,800 --> 01:18:40,920
Speaker 2: Us.

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01:18:41,000 --> 01:18:42,559
Speaker 1: You want to live in a van and drive all

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01:18:42,720 --> 01:18:43,320
Speaker 1: right like that?

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01:18:44,240 --> 01:18:44,400
Speaker 2: Yea?

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01:18:45,360 --> 01:18:47,439
Speaker 1: And drive all the way around? Do you want do

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01:18:47,439 --> 01:18:49,760
Speaker 1: you want to like travel in it, like drive all

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01:18:49,800 --> 01:18:51,320
Speaker 1: around the country and ship yeah?

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01:18:52,240 --> 01:19:03,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, putty yeah, cap board traveling and working. I think

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01:19:03,120 --> 01:19:04,360
Speaker 4: he want to do everything.

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01:19:04,680 --> 01:19:09,800
Speaker 1: Nice man? Yes, how's how's your dating life going?

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01:19:10,360 --> 01:19:16,519
Speaker 4: She eat? He's singer right now?

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01:19:16,640 --> 01:19:16,920
Speaker 1: Nice?

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01:19:17,240 --> 01:19:17,639
Speaker 4: Ladies?

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01:19:18,520 --> 01:19:21,040
Speaker 1: Are you are you? Are you going out on on dates?

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01:19:21,080 --> 01:19:31,800
Speaker 4: Are you trying to find a wife of some kind?

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01:19:32,200 --> 01:19:35,400
Speaker 4: He says, he's talking to a girl and he been

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01:19:35,439 --> 01:19:38,400
Speaker 4: talking for like two years, but he haven't met her yet.

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01:19:38,920 --> 01:19:43,760
Speaker 1: Well, he hasn't met her yet. No, No, where did you?

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01:19:43,800 --> 01:19:45,360
Speaker 1: Where did you meet her online?

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01:19:45,479 --> 01:19:50,840
Speaker 4: Martin? Or live about online? Online? She is at home

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01:19:50,920 --> 01:19:51,240
Speaker 4: right now?

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01:19:51,479 --> 01:19:54,559
Speaker 1: Okay, so you so he met her on the internet,

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01:19:54,560 --> 01:19:56,680
Speaker 1: but they haven't met in real life yet? Yes, how

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01:19:56,680 --> 01:19:58,479
Speaker 1: come you guys haven't met in real life yet? She

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01:19:58,560 --> 01:19:59,360
Speaker 1: might not live here?

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01:19:59,479 --> 01:20:04,439
Speaker 4: Tell my her? How about your guy? You back? She

1550
01:20:04,560 --> 01:20:05,800
Speaker 4: lives like Lily far away?

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01:20:06,120 --> 01:20:08,400
Speaker 1: Okay? Do you hope to meet her one day?

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01:20:09,000 --> 01:20:16,080
Speaker 4: Yeah? Someone help me up? And he wants to meet her,

1553
01:20:16,120 --> 01:20:18,840
Speaker 4: but he doesn't know if she wants to meet him.

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01:20:19,600 --> 01:20:21,920
Speaker 1: Are you have you ever? Are you afraid? Do you

1555
01:20:21,920 --> 01:20:22,920
Speaker 1: know the catfishes?

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01:20:25,479 --> 01:20:34,800
Speaker 4: There's no better highlight about. Don't go on. He is

1557
01:20:34,800 --> 01:20:36,559
Speaker 4: he's not afraid of being He's.

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01:20:36,439 --> 01:20:41,240
Speaker 1: Not afraid of being catfish. That's cool, that's cool. Hm hmm, well,

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01:20:41,880 --> 01:20:43,679
Speaker 1: uh do you have any questions?

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01:20:44,160 --> 01:20:44,920
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.

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01:20:46,360 --> 01:20:49,559
Speaker 5: Uh yeah, but.

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01:20:51,439 --> 01:20:52,760
Speaker 1: He said in English?

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01:20:53,960 --> 01:20:54,080
Speaker 3: Uh?

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01:20:55,040 --> 01:20:58,960
Speaker 4: In your free time? What do you You already asked that, right? Yeah,

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01:21:00,120 --> 01:21:03,040
Speaker 4: no question, man, Let me think, let me think. Oh crap,

1566
01:21:03,080 --> 01:21:04,080
Speaker 4: I thought there was some I thought there was a

1567
01:21:04,120 --> 01:21:04,760
Speaker 4: cap trying to.

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01:21:06,360 --> 01:21:06,600
Speaker 5: Let me.

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01:21:06,680 --> 01:21:10,360
Speaker 1: Let me say, oh uh, what's what's your favorite part

1570
01:21:10,439 --> 01:21:12,440
Speaker 1: of working at this barbecue restaurant?

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01:21:12,680 --> 01:21:19,840
Speaker 4: Chops? He stood, So.

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01:21:20,160 --> 01:21:22,280
Speaker 1: Serve the food you like, to serve the food.

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01:21:23,720 --> 01:21:24,080
Speaker 2: You want?

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01:21:24,160 --> 01:21:27,760
Speaker 4: High, it's comfortable. He could work alone, doesn't have to

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01:21:28,000 --> 01:21:29,040
Speaker 4: mess with anybody.

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01:21:29,200 --> 01:21:32,080
Speaker 1: Okay, I'll ask all right, let me ask you this,

1577
01:21:32,560 --> 01:21:35,679
Speaker 1: just back on the on the other subject. Do you

1578
01:21:35,720 --> 01:21:37,840
Speaker 1: do you believe in true love?

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01:21:38,760 --> 01:21:51,120
Speaker 4: Charley and would die die here he's somewhat believe in it.

1580
01:21:51,520 --> 01:21:56,080
Speaker 1: Okay, here you Okay, I believe I believe in it too,

1581
01:21:56,760 --> 01:21:58,479
Speaker 1: and I believe you will find true love.

1582
01:21:59,680 --> 01:22:00,880
Speaker 4: Handy, I'm meeting.

1583
01:22:03,880 --> 01:22:12,719
Speaker 6: A recording.

1584
01:22:18,400 --> 01:22:22,759
Speaker 4: Okay, he's just like to hang around. He doesn't seek

1585
01:22:22,920 --> 01:22:26,120
Speaker 4: any girls or anything like that. He's just like leave

1586
01:22:26,160 --> 01:22:27,719
Speaker 4: there by day, just hang around.

1587
01:22:28,000 --> 01:22:31,439
Speaker 1: Okay. So you're you're you're chilling. You're like a zen dude.

1588
01:22:32,360 --> 01:22:34,720
Speaker 4: But what can I show you? But you show me

1589
01:22:34,800 --> 01:22:35,479
Speaker 4: and me and.

1590
01:22:38,320 --> 01:22:41,519
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah like that that's cool. How do I I

1591
01:22:41,520 --> 01:22:46,400
Speaker 1: final final question the people watching this who want to

1592
01:22:46,479 --> 01:22:51,400
Speaker 1: adapt a chill zen mindset such as the one that

1593
01:22:51,479 --> 01:22:54,320
Speaker 1: you have. What would you what would you say to them?

1594
01:22:54,360 --> 01:22:55,920
Speaker 1: What would your advice be to the people?

1595
01:22:56,600 --> 01:23:00,519
Speaker 4: P Yeah you.

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01:23:02,320 --> 01:23:11,479
Speaker 6: Me ma, and I'm like you, I got you.

1597
01:23:13,400 --> 01:23:19,400
Speaker 4: Let he said that. Uh, you guys shouldn't give a fuck,

1598
01:23:19,720 --> 01:23:23,880
Speaker 4: like just do whatever you want and whatever people do

1599
01:23:23,960 --> 01:23:25,120
Speaker 4: to you, just let it go.

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01:23:25,439 --> 01:23:32,560
Speaker 9: Like just be she yeah, hello talking.

1601
01:23:36,960 --> 01:23:38,880
Speaker 4: Whatever people do to you, just let it go.

1602
01:23:39,640 --> 01:23:41,320
Speaker 1: Just be nice man. Nice?

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01:23:41,640 --> 01:23:42,479
Speaker 6: What is uh?

1604
01:23:42,960 --> 01:23:46,439
Speaker 1: What what is what's what's the tie word for? To

1605
01:23:46,479 --> 01:23:47,280
Speaker 1: not give a fuck?

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01:23:48,040 --> 01:23:48,160
Speaker 5: How?

1607
01:23:48,640 --> 01:23:49,719
Speaker 4: How did he say that?

1608
01:23:51,120 --> 01:23:51,240
Speaker 2: Hi?

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01:23:51,439 --> 01:23:54,760
Speaker 4: Pizza, little harm huming and teach about my th dial

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01:23:55,280 --> 01:24:00,799
Speaker 4: t and pizza. But hell, look me, I have become

1611
01:24:00,920 --> 01:24:12,040
Speaker 4: the Yeah if it's not really like the true meaning

1612
01:24:12,120 --> 01:24:14,880
Speaker 4: of it. But the w he said was like northy

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01:24:16,080 --> 01:24:20,439
Speaker 4: entire okay something.

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01:24:26,400 --> 01:24:26,599
Speaker 5: Yeah.

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01:24:26,680 --> 01:24:29,240
Speaker 4: Sometime people just do bad thing to him and he

1616
01:24:29,479 --> 01:24:32,400
Speaker 4: just like let it go. That's what you do, nice man?

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01:24:33,160 --> 01:24:34,560
Speaker 1: Well, is there anything else you I say to the

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01:24:34,600 --> 01:24:38,560
Speaker 1: people the computer before we get about mahattan.

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01:24:39,680 --> 01:24:53,080
Speaker 9: About one idea? Die?

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01:24:55,000 --> 01:24:58,639
Speaker 4: Whatever people do to you, don't give a funk. If

1621
01:24:58,680 --> 01:25:01,760
Speaker 4: you do, then it's my get into the homeless. Then

1622
01:25:02,640 --> 01:25:03,320
Speaker 4: just don't do it.

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01:25:04,840 --> 01:25:09,160
Speaker 1: What's what's your name? One more time? B V, nice

1624
01:25:09,160 --> 01:25:10,880
Speaker 1: to meet you. Thank you very much for taking time

1625
01:25:10,920 --> 01:25:12,880
Speaker 1: out of work to talk to us. Man. We appreciate it.

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01:25:14,400 --> 01:25:21,800
Speaker 4: Uh lile forever a man that you want your sure

1627
01:25:21,840 --> 01:25:25,120
Speaker 4: for sure? YouTube?

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01:25:28,920 --> 01:25:30,160
Speaker 1: Do you watch a lot of Do you watch a

1629
01:25:30,200 --> 01:25:30,799
Speaker 1: lot of YouTube?

1630
01:25:31,040 --> 01:25:31,280
Speaker 6: Show?

1631
01:25:31,360 --> 01:25:36,440
Speaker 4: Do YouTube? YouTube? And TikTok?

1632
01:25:36,520 --> 01:25:37,559
Speaker 1: Who do you watch on YouTube?

1633
01:25:37,560 --> 01:25:38,960
Speaker 4: Shove Hi have YouTube?

1634
01:25:39,880 --> 01:25:44,479
Speaker 6: Book SBD young the keep the Low.

1635
01:25:45,120 --> 01:25:48,759
Speaker 4: You just like to watch comedic stuff and sometime YouTuber.

1636
01:25:49,040 --> 01:25:52,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, maybe I'll maybe I'll start translating my videos

1637
01:25:52,360 --> 01:25:55,120
Speaker 1: into tie so I can reach a new audience.

1638
01:25:55,960 --> 01:25:59,400
Speaker 4: By the radio. And I have a me pee wee man.

1639
01:26:06,160 --> 01:26:08,800
Speaker 4: Yeah sweet.

1640
01:26:09,280 --> 01:26:17,439
Speaker 1: Also thanks man. You know that guy he reminded me

1641
01:26:17,520 --> 01:26:22,600
Speaker 1: of something. Actually, people will ask me sometimes like what

1642
01:26:22,760 --> 01:26:25,639
Speaker 1: I've learned from like talking to so many people both

1643
01:26:25,680 --> 01:26:29,000
Speaker 1: like doing this and on the computer, and I I

1644
01:26:29,640 --> 01:26:33,360
Speaker 1: think I realized, like the answer to that is one

1645
01:26:33,560 --> 01:26:35,240
Speaker 1: of the things I've learned from talking about people is

1646
01:26:35,240 --> 01:26:37,760
Speaker 1: that I really do think that, uh, like a lot

1647
01:26:37,800 --> 01:26:40,280
Speaker 1: of life is like a matter of perspective, you know

1648
01:26:40,320 --> 01:26:42,639
Speaker 1: what I mean. Like what that guy was saying about

1649
01:26:42,680 --> 01:26:46,000
Speaker 1: how he's like, you know, look man, like people people

1650
01:26:46,040 --> 01:26:48,800
Speaker 1: are always giving me shit, but it doesn't matter because

1651
01:26:49,080 --> 01:26:52,720
Speaker 1: I'm keeping a chill head. I'm happy, I'm chilling out

1652
01:26:52,840 --> 01:26:55,519
Speaker 1: like he seemed. He just seemed like he was chilling

1653
01:26:56,080 --> 01:26:58,400
Speaker 1: you know, and you can just see it on his face.

1654
01:26:58,479 --> 01:27:00,519
Speaker 1: He just was a chill guy, Like he just had

1655
01:27:00,560 --> 01:27:04,519
Speaker 1: a good zen perspective. And I think, you know, from

1656
01:27:04,560 --> 01:27:06,400
Speaker 1: talking to a bunch of people, like there'll be people

1657
01:27:06,479 --> 01:27:10,600
Speaker 1: on the phone who, like, you know, they call in

1658
01:27:10,680 --> 01:27:14,160
Speaker 1: to talk about something like terrible but they're just so

1659
01:27:14,400 --> 01:27:16,479
Speaker 1: chill about it, you know, or like, And then the

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01:27:16,520 --> 01:27:19,599
Speaker 1: opposite people who like are like freaking out, freaking out

1661
01:27:19,640 --> 01:27:22,200
Speaker 1: about something like inconsequential and it really is like a

1662
01:27:22,280 --> 01:27:23,599
Speaker 1: matter of a matter of perspective.

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01:27:23,680 --> 01:27:27,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, I agree, if like whatever you thinking your head,

1664
01:27:27,200 --> 01:27:30,439
Speaker 4: it's oh wait, onna have I'm influend on you for sure.

1665
01:27:30,720 --> 01:27:32,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, hey it's me again.

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01:27:33,320 --> 01:27:33,519
Speaker 4: Yeah.

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01:27:33,600 --> 01:27:36,120
Speaker 1: If you liked that, If you enjoyed that and you

1668
01:27:36,280 --> 01:27:41,000
Speaker 1: want to watch the full video again, it'll have subtitles

1669
01:27:41,080 --> 01:27:44,599
Speaker 1: for the tie. You can go to YouTube dot com

1670
01:27:44,720 --> 01:27:47,920
Speaker 1: slash lyle forever or find the link to this video

1671
01:27:48,000 --> 01:27:51,040
Speaker 1: in the episode description. Okay, thank you for listening to

1672
01:27:51,120 --> 01:27:55,639
Speaker 1: my podcast. I will be back again soon and get

1673
01:27:55,760 --> 01:27:57,240
Speaker 1: bless you for ten thousand years.

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01:27:58,560 --> 01:28:02,040
Speaker 2: It goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

1675
01:28:02,400 --> 01:28:04,280
Speaker 2: Everythink goes down his eye.

1676
01:28:04,320 --> 01:28:07,320
Speaker 4: Who's teaching you to how over your life? But he's

1677
01:28:07,439 --> 01:28:09,040
Speaker 4: not really an expert.