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Speaker 1: Angela Simmons. Are you telling me right now you're in

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Speaker 1: your single girl era again?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm telling you that she's single. Oh Angela.

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Speaker 3: Hi.

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Speaker 1: First of all, Angela and I showed up today like

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Speaker 1: we came to give peace and blessings and soft girl,

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Speaker 1: and so we didn't even we didn't even plan the

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Speaker 1: white on white on white on white.

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Speaker 3: I don't know what this means.

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Speaker 2: We match the caream background. It's great.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna be honest, though, I do feel like I

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Speaker 1: don't know what it is, but I feel like there's

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Speaker 1: a synergy. Like I run into you in places all

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Speaker 1: the time, like all the time you haven't run into

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Speaker 1: somebody all the time when you feel like, am I

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Speaker 1: supposed to what are we supposed to this person? Or

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Speaker 1: I don't know what it is, but I feel like

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Speaker 1: I've run into you enough times that I'm like, and

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Speaker 1: then I saw you at the dentists and.

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Speaker 2: Named Ange, why haven't you come to.

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Speaker 3: The podcast like for real?

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Speaker 1: And I don't.

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Speaker 2: Let's do it?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, because I see you when I see you working

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Speaker 3: and go to your card. I have your card.

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Speaker 1: It's a very light card. It just talks about the

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Speaker 1: fact that you are not only a legacy name. You

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Speaker 1: are a Simmons. Yes, this is a legacy name, and

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Speaker 1: you've grown into that name in front of the whole culture,

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Speaker 1: the whole world. I want to talk about the weight

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Speaker 1: of that, what that's been like for you. But you

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Speaker 1: are a mother, You're a boss, you are a brand,

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Speaker 1: you are a baddie. Thank you and and yeah, I

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Speaker 1: felt like it was time for us to have like

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Speaker 1: a who are you now?

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Speaker 3: What do you care about now?

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Speaker 1: I wanted to have a moment where people could get

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Speaker 1: to know you on a different level than maybe they

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Speaker 1: I know, people feel like they know you because they

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Speaker 1: saw you growing up.

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Speaker 2: But they don't.

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Speaker 4: I do that, right, That's a conversation I have Like

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Speaker 4: a lot is like I feel like people don't know me,

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Speaker 4: Like they see me grow up on TV, and then

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Speaker 4: they see me on my social and they're like, I

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Speaker 4: feel like I know you, but I'm like, you feel

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Speaker 4: like you know me?

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Speaker 2: You know what I mean? Like knowing me and knowing

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Speaker 2: of me is like, I don't know's.

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Speaker 4: It's so weird because the cameras have been in my

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Speaker 4: face since I was like literally seventeen, right, and I'm

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Speaker 4: grown now, right, I'm thirty seven, So I've been doing

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Speaker 4: this a long time and I feel like the perception

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Speaker 4: of like who I'm supposed to be is one thing.

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Speaker 2: Then it's who I am?

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Speaker 3: Who are you supposed to be?

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Speaker 2: A reverend's daughter?

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Speaker 4: And I'm supposed to like behave a certain way, act

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Speaker 4: a certain way.

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Speaker 2: That almost to the.

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Speaker 4: Point where like when I do things that are regular

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Speaker 4: to me, people don't think it's regular. They're like, you

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Speaker 4: can't do that because what dressing? Dancing?

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Speaker 2: I mean, god forbid.

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Speaker 4: I courage like eating, but in a different way, not

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Speaker 4: just because I'm on TV, but because there's a perception

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Speaker 4: of who I am and who they feel.

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Speaker 2: Like I should be. So then who are you, Angela?

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Speaker 3: Are everyday Simmons? How different is that from what people think?

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Speaker 4: There's a lot of it that's like, you know, like

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Speaker 4: I'm fun, I like to have fun, and I'm romantic,

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Speaker 4: I'm I'm funny. I guess I'm so many layers that

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Speaker 4: I feel like people just haven't seen yet.

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Speaker 3: Well, what season are you in now?

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Speaker 1: Like what if you have if you have to call

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Speaker 1: it like a season, what season is Angela Simmons in today?

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Speaker 2: I'm in a growing season. I would say I'm in

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Speaker 2: a healing season.

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Speaker 4: I'm in like I'm transforming into like the next like

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Speaker 4: part of myself, you know.

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Speaker 2: And I think there's always different like layers.

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Speaker 4: And then there was like me as a mother, becoming

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Speaker 4: a mother, a fiance I've been like I think people

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Speaker 4: forget there's so much I go that goes on in

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Speaker 4: my life behind the scenes and people don't see.

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Speaker 1: You would engage to your son's father, yes, ah, wow, yes,

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Speaker 1: And that was like its own like whirlwinding happen.

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Speaker 2: It was so quick for me.

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Speaker 3: And yeah, that's a whole chapter. That's a couple of chapters. Oh, yes, yeah,

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Speaker 3: for sure. Have you ever thought about a book, by

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Speaker 4: I have, But I'm like, geez, I'm still in the

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Speaker 4: middle of my story, you Like, I feel like I'm

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Speaker 4: so far even but not done. Like I don't think

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Speaker 4: I can can complete the book until I get to

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Speaker 4: like the goals and like what I want.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but I don't know.

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Speaker 1: Let's start back first. It will take you up to

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Speaker 1: like Angela and love and all those things. Right love you,

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Speaker 1: I mean you've been through a lot love, lost, grief,

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Speaker 1: I know, motherhood.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, single mom, Yes, that's a very real thing.

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Speaker 3: It's a real thing, especially for growing up the way

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Speaker 3: you grew up, you were like the Cosby Show. You

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Speaker 3: guys were like the Cosby family, and.

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Speaker 4: That's what That's what I've always wanted, like, is to

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Speaker 4: have that like big family and like because I grew

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Speaker 4: up in it. So that was always like a goal.

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Speaker 4: I thought at seventeen, I want to be married. And

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Speaker 4: my siblings are like laughing me to be like, you're

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Speaker 4: not gonna get married a seventeen I'd be like leave

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Speaker 4: it alone, But I like, I want to be married seventeen.

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Speaker 4: I want seven kids after I have a first One'm like, okay,

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Speaker 4: seven maybe a.

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Speaker 3: Stretch, but.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I I love love.

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Speaker 3: You do. Do you feel like you're I don't know

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Speaker 3: particular about it, like a certain kind of love or you.

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Speaker 2: Just I like romantic love. I like fun love, like

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Speaker 2: I'm being on the word fun.

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Speaker 3: Do you like healthy love?

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Speaker 2: Of course?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? I mean we all do, but I don't.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm not taught. I don't.

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Speaker 4: I think everyone has a little toxicity in them, but

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Speaker 4: I don't like toxic Like I'm not attracted to that.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I won't like healthy love.

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Speaker 3: Because that's what the household you grow up in yeah.

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Speaker 4: And then you know, I have four parents and my mom,

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Speaker 4: up with like basically my whole life. So seeing two

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Speaker 3: It's so different than a lot of the conversations we have.

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Speaker 1: Here really, yeah, because a lot of especially women, you know,

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Speaker 1: just all kinds of stuff and that and then all

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Speaker 1: of the things that happened from then. Yeah, so what

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Speaker 1: happens from a perfect I'm sure your family was a

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Speaker 2: Perfect, yeah, perfect would be like but healthy healthy.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it happens for my health.

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Speaker 1: Well, what issues could happen from growing up in watching

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Speaker 1: two healthy relationships.

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Speaker 4: Divorced or being in the middle of that as a

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Speaker 2: You know, I think people don't realize that like that

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Speaker 4: You're like parents but up and this' that, but like

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Speaker 4: they both got into healthy relationships and that's great, but

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Speaker 4: like I think a lot comes with that. Like I

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Speaker 4: feel like I move around a lot, because I went

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Speaker 2: So I'm like naturally cannot sit still.

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Speaker 4: Like I'm like, I gotta I gotta move, I gotta

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Speaker 4: in me just because like since I was a little girl,

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so there's not a lot of sitting still.

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Speaker 2: I still don't still.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I think, are you chasing something I'm not.

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Speaker 2: I don't like to chase things.

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Speaker 4: I like to like flow, And I think I'm at

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Speaker 1: Are you super like spiritual about that process? Like do

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Speaker 4: Like yeah, Like if I feel like too many things

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Speaker 4: do that. Even down to my travel, I'm like, oh,

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Speaker 4: if it's like off that flight in for you or

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Speaker 4: they saying for me, like I get to say, yeah,

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Speaker 4: that's not right, or it is like I pay attention

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Speaker 4: to the signs around me for sure. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Did you grow up and I know your father was

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Speaker 1: a reverend, but like he wasn't always a referend, right,

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Speaker 1: was he a reverend your whole life?

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Speaker 3: No?

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Speaker 4: No, I used to go to the shows when he

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Speaker 4: wasn't a reverend, Like yeah, it was the little girl

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Speaker 2: I never understood it until understood it, though.

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Speaker 4: I always say that, like, you know, you're in school,

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Speaker 4: and stuff. You're like why you know, like eve in

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Speaker 4: first grade, like like my dad's weird and then eventually

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Speaker 1: Like have you ever been really like fully able to

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Speaker 1: grasp like you know the legacy of the name alone,

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Speaker 1: like your uncle is known as like a godfather a

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Speaker 1: hip hop Your father is in arguably the most one

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Speaker 1: important rap group in hip hop history, like in terms

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Speaker 1: of hip hop culture. And I know you did growing

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Speaker 1: up hip hop and all that stuf, But do you

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Speaker 1: really feel connected to that legacy or is that just

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Speaker 1: kind of like your family.

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Speaker 4: I definitely feel connected, I would say, and it's my family,

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Speaker 4: Like I think it's both, you know, like music plays

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Speaker 4: always has. And then like watching what my family has

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Speaker 2: I think the coolest.

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Speaker 4: Part is like my dad always gave me the support

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Speaker 4: of like, you can do whatever you want and if

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Speaker 4: you change your mind, that's fine too. And I think

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Speaker 4: I extend that to my son because it's like that

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Speaker 3: You know, did that get weird?

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Speaker 3: Talk about that time and the success of that moment.

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Speaker 4: So with pastry, my sister and I like we started

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Speaker 4: proud moment. We did that for like seven years, maybe

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Speaker 3: Because it made a lot of money?

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Speaker 2: Right, Yeah, it did really well. We did really well

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Speaker 1: And I don't know, but chat GBT was throwing around

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Speaker 4: And my sister and I, like I said, like we

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Speaker 2: It's better to really be a part of something. That's

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Speaker 4: The inside, because like I would have never learned all

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Speaker 3: Do you think you get the credit of being the

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Speaker 1: Do you feel like, are you proud of of yourself

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Speaker 4: It's not like I'm where I want to be it,

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Speaker 3: But you take it serious. It's like a part of you, right,

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Speaker 4: I think a lot of people don't know how much

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Speaker 4: I work because it looks so fun, like, oh, you.

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Speaker 4: You're on social media taking photos and I'm like no,

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Speaker 4: like it's a part of like my job, like you

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Speaker 3: Yeah every day.

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Speaker 2: Yeah I'm not gonna post every second.

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Speaker 4: I post enough, but it's definitely not It doesn't show

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Speaker 3: You said you'd love love.

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Speaker 2: I do.

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Speaker 1: When did love come to your life? Like when was

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Speaker 1: the first first crush? Well no, no, I mean like love, No,

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Speaker 3: Was that like your first serious?

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it's the first time I lived with someone that

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Speaker 2: I had never done it that like it was a first?

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Speaker 3: Was it like a beverything engagement? And did he ask

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Speaker 5: Like?

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Speaker 3: Was it a whole thing?

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Speaker 2: He did ask my dad? And then this will probably

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Speaker 3: But oh, I'm sorry.

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Speaker 4: I don't even know why I'm choking up, but probably

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Speaker 4: But so you asked about the engagement. So he proposed

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Speaker 4: and I said, he said, you know, I accepted it.

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Speaker 4: My dad was like, well, if he doesn't marry you,

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Speaker 4: I will. I just thought that was like so white sweet,

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Speaker 3: Come on, dad, look we have tissues for you.

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Speaker 4: You know, Like that's how so important a relationship like

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Speaker 4: to me like no, like this person right, like you're

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Speaker 2: And I think that's.

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Speaker 4: Why it matters so much to me. It's like if

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Speaker 3: It, like that's a big deal to me.

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Speaker 4: Like I don't take that like like so he approved

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Speaker 2: He wanted me happy.

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Speaker 4: He knew his grandsons are like you know, like so

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Speaker 4: many things, and like I just feel like my dad,

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Speaker 4: he said he would marry I said, if he doesn't

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Speaker 4: I have to hung up that phone. I mean I

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Speaker 2: Know, getting engaged. But I was engaged. But it was

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Speaker 1: You were already pregnant, right or not yet? You know

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Speaker 3: Yeah were you emotional at that point? For sure? Hormones

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Speaker 4: But you know what, my pregnancy was easy. I don't

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Speaker 3: Fucky you.

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Speaker 1: I had twenty three hours of labor and three because

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Speaker 3: It was torture. One. I didn't know you did not.

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Speaker 2: I had my son natural.

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Speaker 4: He came like so it was crazy as his dad

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Speaker 2: My son comes September twenty second. Why did you call?

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Speaker 4: Because we used to laugh, me and his dad, and

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Speaker 4: he'd be like, I was like, your birthday's over? What

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Speaker 4: like you or somebody would take over my birthday. You

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Speaker 4: I know my son looks up everything, he finds out everything.

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Speaker 2: He's online.

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Speaker 4: So it's like you have to be careful with you

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00:17:44,320 --> 00:17:47,000
Speaker 4: what yeah, because he's he's he want to know some one.

448
00:17:46,920 --> 00:17:48,360
Speaker 3: On Yeah, what did you tell him?

449
00:17:48,359 --> 00:17:50,880
Speaker 1: Like even in that moment, So you're you're a young

450
00:17:50,920 --> 00:17:56,880
Speaker 1: woman for sure, pregnant, engaged, and you lose him unexpectedly

451
00:17:57,320 --> 00:17:58,600
Speaker 1: and your son is what too?

452
00:17:59,080 --> 00:18:01,040
Speaker 3: And where were you in your lifelationship at that time?

453
00:18:01,160 --> 00:18:06,400
Speaker 4: We weren't together anymore, but they definitely, I mean it

454
00:18:06,560 --> 00:18:10,920
Speaker 4: changed my life, my world. I don't think people realize,

455
00:18:10,960 --> 00:18:14,040
Speaker 4: like have raising a kid without the other parent is

456
00:18:14,119 --> 00:18:19,160
Speaker 4: like something you I don't care, No, preparation, like it's

457
00:18:19,200 --> 00:18:21,000
Speaker 4: one thing of a parent's here and not doing it

458
00:18:21,040 --> 00:18:24,000
Speaker 4: with you. But when you have you, you see the

459
00:18:24,160 --> 00:18:27,320
Speaker 4: child like and I see his dad like the older

460
00:18:27,320 --> 00:18:30,120
Speaker 4: he gets, you know, it's the hardest thing ever as

461
00:18:30,119 --> 00:18:32,399
Speaker 4: he gets older and he has so many questions and

462
00:18:32,440 --> 00:18:34,320
Speaker 4: he's like with my dad this or dad, and it's

463
00:18:34,400 --> 00:18:36,320
Speaker 4: like but I you know, I like to keep the

464
00:18:36,359 --> 00:18:39,240
Speaker 4: conversation alive. And Sutton's family is amazing with my son,

465
00:18:39,320 --> 00:18:42,360
Speaker 4: like his mom and the whole family's so good with him.

466
00:18:42,440 --> 00:18:47,680
Speaker 4: But hard, hard, very hard. Doesn't doesn't get easier. I'm

467
00:18:47,760 --> 00:18:49,800
Speaker 4: just like, you know, hey is me and God, like

468
00:18:49,800 --> 00:18:51,199
Speaker 4: what we're doing next? Like how are we doing this?

469
00:18:51,320 --> 00:18:54,880
Speaker 4: Because and my family's super supportive, but it's like nothing

470
00:18:55,600 --> 00:18:59,000
Speaker 4: replaces like a parent, you know what I mean? Like

471
00:18:59,359 --> 00:19:02,280
Speaker 4: that that he has the same name, and that was

472
00:19:02,480 --> 00:19:04,439
Speaker 4: hard for me right right after. I was like, I

473
00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:06,320
Speaker 4: don't know how I'm even gonna say his name anymore,

474
00:19:06,600 --> 00:19:08,000
Speaker 4: you know. And I got past that, but in my

475
00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:09,840
Speaker 4: head because I went to therapy, like like I mean,

476
00:19:09,880 --> 00:19:12,359
Speaker 4: if he passed the third I was in therapy by

477
00:19:12,359 --> 00:19:14,399
Speaker 4: the force, like I was like, I can't do this.

478
00:19:14,800 --> 00:19:17,320
Speaker 2: I was numb. I have never felt physically numb in

479
00:19:17,320 --> 00:19:17,879
Speaker 2: my life.

480
00:19:17,880 --> 00:19:21,159
Speaker 4: And I was like, well I do now, Like it

481
00:19:21,240 --> 00:19:23,679
Speaker 4: felt like everything's over and I had to go into therapy.

482
00:19:23,720 --> 00:19:25,200
Speaker 2: There were so many things I didn't get to say

483
00:19:25,200 --> 00:19:28,000
Speaker 2: to him, and just so much.

484
00:19:27,840 --> 00:19:31,240
Speaker 1: I wondered that because sometimes when people pass you, it's

485
00:19:31,280 --> 00:19:32,400
Speaker 1: all the things she didn't say.

486
00:19:32,600 --> 00:19:34,880
Speaker 3: Well, I wish I should have, you know, I don't

487
00:19:34,880 --> 00:19:36,840
Speaker 3: know regret or regret. Struggled with it.

488
00:19:37,200 --> 00:19:39,520
Speaker 4: I struggled with it, but the therapy really helped me.

489
00:19:39,560 --> 00:19:42,840
Speaker 4: Like I went until my therapist like you probably don't

490
00:19:42,880 --> 00:19:46,359
Speaker 4: need to come back, like because I was answering. Yeah,

491
00:19:46,400 --> 00:19:48,439
Speaker 4: Like I was like, okay, I think I'm good. Like

492
00:19:48,520 --> 00:19:50,480
Speaker 4: I felt like stronger and I was in a better

493
00:19:50,520 --> 00:19:54,280
Speaker 4: space with it, and like but I knew like for me,

494
00:19:54,320 --> 00:19:55,960
Speaker 4: I need to be healthy, and then for my son,

495
00:19:56,119 --> 00:19:58,840
Speaker 4: like I can't raise him and not like be strong

496
00:19:58,960 --> 00:20:00,879
Speaker 4: enough to do it. And I just but I couldn't

497
00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:02,280
Speaker 4: see it, like I'm like, I don't know how it is.

498
00:20:02,760 --> 00:20:04,080
Speaker 1: So it was like fear that you would be like

499
00:20:04,080 --> 00:20:05,480
Speaker 1: what were you, what were you going? What were you

500
00:20:05,560 --> 00:20:07,400
Speaker 1: trying to get healing from?

501
00:20:07,480 --> 00:20:10,639
Speaker 2: We had our own stuff, me and his father. It

502
00:20:10,840 --> 00:20:14,119
Speaker 2: was him not being there. How am I going to

503
00:20:14,200 --> 00:20:15,359
Speaker 2: raise the sun without him?

504
00:20:15,720 --> 00:20:20,120
Speaker 4: You know, it was just a lot at once, and

505
00:20:20,160 --> 00:20:22,480
Speaker 4: then it's like you still have to live life, you know,

506
00:20:22,560 --> 00:20:25,520
Speaker 4: like life still moving, Like you can't just stay stagnant

507
00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:28,439
Speaker 4: because things happen, and things happen every day, you know,

508
00:20:28,480 --> 00:20:30,359
Speaker 4: And I feel like I took proper time to like

509
00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:32,160
Speaker 4: address it and go through.

510
00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:35,760
Speaker 2: It, but it's ongoing. It never goes away. Yeah, you

511
00:20:35,880 --> 00:20:37,320
Speaker 2: just you just keep going.

512
00:20:37,520 --> 00:20:40,199
Speaker 1: How do you do you have like practices of like

513
00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:42,480
Speaker 1: how you keep him alive in your son's life.

514
00:20:42,600 --> 00:20:44,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, I talked to him about him all the time.

515
00:20:44,760 --> 00:20:46,199
Speaker 4: Or like my son will like say, can we go

516
00:20:46,240 --> 00:20:48,320
Speaker 4: through the pictures? I have tons of photos I used

517
00:20:48,359 --> 00:20:49,960
Speaker 4: to take. His dad never like photos, but.

518
00:20:49,920 --> 00:20:52,040
Speaker 2: I took tons, so like you'd be like can I

519
00:20:52,040 --> 00:20:52,439
Speaker 2: see this?

520
00:20:52,600 --> 00:20:54,240
Speaker 4: Or you can see you send me those, And sometimes

521
00:20:54,280 --> 00:20:57,639
Speaker 4: he'll have the pictures on the screensaver or like it's

522
00:20:57,720 --> 00:21:00,960
Speaker 4: it's different, that's tough. Yeah, And he'll be like mom, mom,

523
00:21:00,960 --> 00:21:03,480
Speaker 4: looking on my dad's stuff because like he's got his

524
00:21:03,560 --> 00:21:05,960
Speaker 4: dad loves like shoes and sneakers and he's into it now.

525
00:21:06,000 --> 00:21:08,320
Speaker 4: So it's like I do feel like as a kid,

526
00:21:08,320 --> 00:21:10,920
Speaker 4: you're always looking for that identity.

527
00:21:10,640 --> 00:21:13,560
Speaker 3: Because that's crazy too. As mothers. It's like that's the

528
00:21:13,600 --> 00:21:14,560
Speaker 3: thing about motherhood.

529
00:21:14,560 --> 00:21:20,400
Speaker 1: It's like we carried the burden of our children heavier

530
00:21:20,440 --> 00:21:23,439
Speaker 1: than our children carry it. Yes, right, It's like you

531
00:21:23,560 --> 00:21:26,280
Speaker 1: probably have so much fear around how this is going

532
00:21:26,359 --> 00:21:30,119
Speaker 1: to land for him and trying to protect him from healing,

533
00:21:30,320 --> 00:21:33,720
Speaker 1: and it's like, oh, it's such a heavy burden to.

534
00:21:33,680 --> 00:21:35,440
Speaker 4: Be all the time, right, Yeah, And I never know

535
00:21:35,520 --> 00:21:36,960
Speaker 4: it's coming out of his mouth the next I'm like, Okay,

536
00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:38,199
Speaker 4: what what do I need to do or how do

537
00:21:38,240 --> 00:21:41,919
Speaker 4: I fix it? But he's thank god, he's like super smart.

538
00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:43,000
Speaker 2: He's doing well.

539
00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:43,920
Speaker 3: Surround that I love too.

540
00:21:44,240 --> 00:21:47,720
Speaker 4: Yeah, my family and everyone, he's super like. Yeah, he

541
00:21:47,720 --> 00:21:49,600
Speaker 4: gets his way. If I don't do something, he calling

542
00:21:50,119 --> 00:21:53,120
Speaker 4: my dad or my mom or his mom. Like he's

543
00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:54,680
Speaker 4: got so many different people he can call when he

544
00:21:54,720 --> 00:21:57,960
Speaker 4: can't get his way. I'm like, I think I took

545
00:21:58,119 --> 00:21:59,720
Speaker 4: I got a fuddy store, so I took his.

546
00:22:01,240 --> 00:22:01,520
Speaker 3: Phone.

547
00:22:01,560 --> 00:22:02,399
Speaker 2: What was his phone?

548
00:22:02,400 --> 00:22:03,440
Speaker 3: From him? Right?

549
00:22:03,640 --> 00:22:07,000
Speaker 4: He gets on his laptop and my dad, he texts

550
00:22:07,000 --> 00:22:09,800
Speaker 4: my mom help. They're texting me back to back what's

551
00:22:09,840 --> 00:22:12,120
Speaker 4: going on with s JC or I'm like they think

552
00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:13,320
Speaker 4: something's wrong with him?

553
00:22:13,920 --> 00:22:18,560
Speaker 2: Help help, help, help me? What did he need his

554
00:22:18,680 --> 00:22:19,200
Speaker 2: phone back?

555
00:22:20,200 --> 00:22:21,720
Speaker 4: He wanted them to get so he's like, if I

556
00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:23,320
Speaker 4: get to them, they're gonna call her.

557
00:22:23,400 --> 00:22:24,040
Speaker 2: Everyone's called me.

558
00:22:24,040 --> 00:22:25,199
Speaker 3: Where's that shat is he?

559
00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:28,320
Speaker 2: Okay? I'm like, he's in the room because I.

560
00:22:28,280 --> 00:22:31,040
Speaker 3: Took his phone away. He's text for the computer or something.

561
00:22:31,119 --> 00:22:34,040
Speaker 4: Yes, but he's writing all of them. He's writing Grandma,

562
00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:37,520
Speaker 4: his dad's mom my, mom my dad. But the text

563
00:22:37,520 --> 00:22:41,000
Speaker 4: messages and phone they're coming back to back to where's

564
00:22:41,000 --> 00:22:41,520
Speaker 4: that shit is he?

565
00:22:41,560 --> 00:22:44,639
Speaker 2: Okay? I'm like mine, he's eight, he's about to be

566
00:22:44,760 --> 00:22:46,440
Speaker 2: nine in September.

567
00:22:46,520 --> 00:22:48,560
Speaker 3: But but he's got community.

568
00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:49,080
Speaker 2: He does.

569
00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:53,760
Speaker 4: He's got extremely smart, bilingual, like great, Like I'm proud

570
00:22:53,760 --> 00:22:56,280
Speaker 4: of his growth. I just always want the best friend

571
00:22:56,280 --> 00:22:59,600
Speaker 4: when it comes to like the men around him, and like, yeah,

572
00:22:59,640 --> 00:23:01,640
Speaker 4: it's because I don't want to know who he sees

573
00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:02,080
Speaker 4: himself in.

574
00:23:02,160 --> 00:23:02,320
Speaker 2: You know.

575
00:23:02,359 --> 00:23:05,720
Speaker 4: I think that's that's something that young women and young

576
00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:06,080
Speaker 4: men do.

577
00:23:06,160 --> 00:23:07,280
Speaker 2: You're like, who where am I?

578
00:23:07,560 --> 00:23:07,720
Speaker 3: You know?

579
00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:09,760
Speaker 4: And I think his dad, Like you know, he's a

580
00:23:09,800 --> 00:23:13,000
Speaker 4: lot of his dad in him, Like yes, yes, his

581
00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:15,159
Speaker 4: how ambitious he is, how he just wanted to get

582
00:23:15,200 --> 00:23:17,239
Speaker 4: to the money now it e' I'm like, what are

583
00:23:17,240 --> 00:23:17,600
Speaker 4: you doing?

584
00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:20,520
Speaker 1: But yeah, I didn't realize I probably knew back then

585
00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:23,080
Speaker 1: and just now didn't realize that you guys weren't together

586
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:26,399
Speaker 1: when he Yeah we were, but freshly or you had

587
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:27,119
Speaker 1: been broken up for a.

588
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:28,800
Speaker 2: Little while, it had been some time.

589
00:23:29,040 --> 00:23:32,119
Speaker 4: But that's the thing, Like I I go through so

590
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:34,040
Speaker 4: much that I don't like speak on and I'm not

591
00:23:34,119 --> 00:23:34,879
Speaker 4: much of a talker.

592
00:23:34,920 --> 00:23:36,720
Speaker 2: Like I talk, but I don't talk, you know what

593
00:23:36,800 --> 00:23:37,080
Speaker 2: I mean.

594
00:23:37,160 --> 00:23:39,840
Speaker 4: So like the stuff that I go through like behind

595
00:23:39,880 --> 00:23:42,920
Speaker 4: the scenes, be behind the scenes, you know, Like I

596
00:23:42,960 --> 00:23:45,240
Speaker 4: was like, raise my kid, like if we're not together,

597
00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:46,520
Speaker 4: and how do we do this?

598
00:23:46,640 --> 00:23:49,080
Speaker 1: You know, like I just I deal with I'm just saying,

599
00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:51,840
Speaker 1: of course the trauma and the tragedy of losing him,

600
00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:54,399
Speaker 1: but like even being young and having a small baby

601
00:23:54,560 --> 00:23:59,119
Speaker 1: and you're breaking up with your fiance tough, right, just

602
00:23:59,200 --> 00:23:59,800
Speaker 1: that alone.

603
00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:02,640
Speaker 4: There were so many more layers and stuff I don't

604
00:24:02,640 --> 00:24:07,240
Speaker 4: get too far into, but it was a very hard time.

605
00:24:07,400 --> 00:24:09,879
Speaker 4: And then you know you feel like like even like

606
00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:12,400
Speaker 4: the post like after you have a baby, and then

607
00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:13,960
Speaker 4: like the day you realize, wait a minute, I just

608
00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:15,280
Speaker 4: came out of that, so I must have been going

609
00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:17,399
Speaker 4: through something emotionally and I didn't even realize it, you

610
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:19,600
Speaker 4: know what I mean, Like it was a lot of

611
00:24:20,160 --> 00:24:22,399
Speaker 4: a lot, a lot of emotion. It's very emotional for me.

612
00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:24,240
Speaker 3: I love that you went straight to therapy.

613
00:24:24,480 --> 00:24:29,000
Speaker 2: Oh no, no, games gotta go. I actually but not

614
00:24:29,040 --> 00:24:30,600
Speaker 2: at all. I don't cause I don't play about that.

615
00:24:30,640 --> 00:24:32,359
Speaker 4: I'm not about to sit around all broke up, like

616
00:24:32,400 --> 00:24:34,679
Speaker 4: we got to figure this out, like it's wrong. But

617
00:24:34,760 --> 00:24:36,679
Speaker 4: I started going to therapy with my son's father, and

618
00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:38,600
Speaker 4: that's what actually opened the door to me realized that.

619
00:24:38,720 --> 00:24:41,160
Speaker 4: Like it's helpful because you know, when you sit in

620
00:24:41,200 --> 00:24:44,000
Speaker 4: therapy and you sit with the therapist one on one,

621
00:24:44,040 --> 00:24:46,320
Speaker 4: you're like, I got some stuff I got going on,

622
00:24:46,359 --> 00:24:48,679
Speaker 4: you know, like whether that be from your childhood or whatever,

623
00:24:48,840 --> 00:24:49,919
Speaker 4: and you're not dealing with it.

624
00:24:50,520 --> 00:24:53,639
Speaker 2: And so for me, I like, I like therapy.

625
00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:56,000
Speaker 4: I want to get in there and tell you about everything,

626
00:24:56,040 --> 00:24:57,919
Speaker 4: and like what so I can figure out how to

627
00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:00,439
Speaker 4: become better. I always want to be better than I

628
00:25:00,840 --> 00:25:03,240
Speaker 4: was yesterday a year ago, Like what else can I do?

629
00:25:03,880 --> 00:25:07,240
Speaker 1: What's What's something that you learned from therapy, like about

630
00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:10,439
Speaker 1: yourself so that you needed to get out of it?

631
00:25:10,600 --> 00:25:13,480
Speaker 2: So many things. Let me see one of the problem.

632
00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:14,399
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think, as you said that I was

633
00:25:14,400 --> 00:25:16,199
Speaker 1: trying to think of because therapy has helped me in

634
00:25:16,240 --> 00:25:18,800
Speaker 1: my life too. I've definitely been in situations where like

635
00:25:18,840 --> 00:25:22,600
Speaker 1: I'm like, it's really like confusion or you get too much,

636
00:25:22,720 --> 00:25:25,840
Speaker 1: you can't sort through something. So sometimes having therapists and

637
00:25:25,840 --> 00:25:27,400
Speaker 1: you tell them all the things and then they say,

638
00:25:27,760 --> 00:25:30,080
Speaker 1: you know, they say what I hear you saying, oh yeah,

639
00:25:30,080 --> 00:25:32,080
Speaker 1: because I get to breaking it down, breaking it down

640
00:25:32,080 --> 00:25:32,840
Speaker 1: and giving it back.

641
00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:34,480
Speaker 3: To me like, oh, I did say that.

642
00:25:34,480 --> 00:25:35,320
Speaker 2: That does make sense.

643
00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:37,600
Speaker 1: Sometimes if you don't have somebody to help sort it out,

644
00:25:37,760 --> 00:25:41,960
Speaker 1: it just becomes jumbled and it stays there, right, so

645
00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:43,520
Speaker 1: you kind of work through it and get to.

646
00:25:43,440 --> 00:25:44,640
Speaker 3: The other side of it.

647
00:25:44,680 --> 00:25:46,960
Speaker 1: So I think for me, like some of the biggest

648
00:25:46,960 --> 00:25:49,840
Speaker 1: therapy lessons, I think it's probably like like I'm a

649
00:25:49,920 --> 00:25:52,760
Speaker 1: super empathetic person, right, but sometimes that could get in

650
00:25:52,760 --> 00:25:56,399
Speaker 1: the way of like pulling the trigger on something.

651
00:25:56,400 --> 00:25:59,400
Speaker 3: I give people a little bit too much grace. Really, yes,

652
00:25:59,480 --> 00:26:00,480
Speaker 3: a little bit too much.

653
00:26:01,040 --> 00:26:03,120
Speaker 1: And I know that probably sounds weird to like people

654
00:26:03,160 --> 00:26:05,119
Speaker 1: who know me like might not see that in me,

655
00:26:05,440 --> 00:26:08,280
Speaker 1: but internally I do that like, I make excuses in

656
00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:09,119
Speaker 1: a way for people.

657
00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:11,800
Speaker 2: Yeah what you're like, Okay, this just sty going through.

658
00:26:11,840 --> 00:26:13,200
Speaker 3: They gonna like listen.

659
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:14,600
Speaker 1: The story I was told when I was a kid

660
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:16,960
Speaker 1: was that my father was a heroin attic. That's why

661
00:26:16,960 --> 00:26:21,320
Speaker 1: he wasn't around right, So but I was never angry.

662
00:26:21,359 --> 00:26:23,919
Speaker 1: I always thought he had a problem. You looked at

663
00:26:23,920 --> 00:26:25,840
Speaker 1: it a different way. So I looked at people, even

664
00:26:25,880 --> 00:26:28,120
Speaker 1: people have interviewed, people have I always try to look

665
00:26:28,119 --> 00:26:28,440
Speaker 1: at people.

666
00:26:28,520 --> 00:26:32,000
Speaker 3: Everybody has a story, everybody, everybody has its history.

667
00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:35,320
Speaker 1: Everybody, so you might have done some terrible things, but

668
00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:38,520
Speaker 1: probably because of what I try to see that in

669
00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:40,880
Speaker 1: people all the time, which is a good quality I do.

670
00:26:41,240 --> 00:26:44,840
Speaker 1: I'm not mad at that quality. But sometimes he let

671
00:26:44,840 --> 00:26:47,440
Speaker 1: it go too far. You can't let it go too far. Yeah,

672
00:26:48,359 --> 00:26:51,240
Speaker 1: you gotta have boundaries up because you see so anyway,

673
00:26:51,240 --> 00:26:53,160
Speaker 1: that's what something. So I just wonder for you, what

674
00:26:53,160 --> 00:26:54,800
Speaker 1: what were the things that you kind of had to sort,

675
00:26:54,920 --> 00:26:57,439
Speaker 1: or if there's anything to share or one bugby like.

676
00:26:58,440 --> 00:26:59,199
Speaker 2: Learning that I.

677
00:27:00,680 --> 00:27:03,040
Speaker 4: Naturally like to do stuff for people and sometimes they

678
00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:05,199
Speaker 4: don't ask for it, right, and you're like, okay, but

679
00:27:05,520 --> 00:27:07,600
Speaker 4: you know it's I think the therapist called it being

680
00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:09,160
Speaker 4: like a people like.

681
00:27:09,080 --> 00:27:11,720
Speaker 2: You like to please, like the people around you. But

682
00:27:11,760 --> 00:27:14,399
Speaker 2: it's like, ye, like, but they did they ask you

683
00:27:14,440 --> 00:27:14,800
Speaker 2: to do that?

684
00:27:15,240 --> 00:27:17,800
Speaker 4: You're like no, so you can't be mad when they

685
00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:20,600
Speaker 4: don't receive it, right, So like that, I was like okay,

686
00:27:20,640 --> 00:27:22,639
Speaker 4: but I said, so anywhere back to where did it

687
00:27:22,720 --> 00:27:23,240
Speaker 4: come from?

688
00:27:23,640 --> 00:27:24,399
Speaker 2: As a kid?

689
00:27:24,680 --> 00:27:27,080
Speaker 4: My parents are busy like any parents are, Okay, so

690
00:27:27,119 --> 00:27:29,560
Speaker 4: you're doing stuff around so you can get the attention

691
00:27:29,680 --> 00:27:31,840
Speaker 4: of your parents because they're busy, Like I'm sure my

692
00:27:31,880 --> 00:27:34,399
Speaker 4: son may do right, but you're signing up to do

693
00:27:34,440 --> 00:27:36,919
Speaker 4: it because it comes from your childhood. So you were

694
00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:39,280
Speaker 4: doing that as a kid, see me, look at me here,

695
00:27:39,280 --> 00:27:40,959
Speaker 4: I'm gonna do this for you to see me. So

696
00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:43,919
Speaker 4: then you become the people. You're people pleasing because you

697
00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:46,160
Speaker 4: want the attention from the person and in return, they're

698
00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:47,240
Speaker 4: not giving you what you want.

699
00:27:48,200 --> 00:27:50,880
Speaker 2: So you're like, okay, so you need to know. Yeah,

700
00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:51,560
Speaker 2: so you need.

701
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:54,600
Speaker 4: To know when you're doing that and it's not you

702
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:56,359
Speaker 4: know that's ate an askid that, So you can't be

703
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:57,760
Speaker 4: mad when you don't get what you want from that.

704
00:27:58,680 --> 00:28:00,359
Speaker 4: So it's something that I learned. I was like, it

705
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:02,439
Speaker 4: came from childhood though, and some of that you know

706
00:28:02,480 --> 00:28:02,880
Speaker 4: you have to.

707
00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:04,800
Speaker 3: Now you don't do it for nobody.

708
00:28:05,720 --> 00:28:07,639
Speaker 2: No, I do, but now I guess I have.

709
00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:10,159
Speaker 4: You know, let's have an expectation like I'm doing it

710
00:28:10,240 --> 00:28:11,520
Speaker 4: just because like I want to.

711
00:28:11,720 --> 00:28:12,880
Speaker 3: It's also I don't want nothing.

712
00:28:13,040 --> 00:28:15,640
Speaker 1: It's also the thing of like knowing, at least being

713
00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:17,040
Speaker 1: self aware of that part.

714
00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:19,520
Speaker 3: To know why you're doing things is supposed to just

715
00:28:19,560 --> 00:28:21,439
Speaker 3: doing things. Yeah, being self aware?

716
00:28:21,560 --> 00:28:23,840
Speaker 4: Yeah, it changes everything when you're self aware, for sure.

717
00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:25,159
Speaker 4: And I like to be aware. I want to know

718
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:26,919
Speaker 4: what's wrong with me? Yeah, what can I do to

719
00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:27,600
Speaker 4: make it better?

720
00:28:27,880 --> 00:28:28,320
Speaker 2: If I can?

721
00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:32,920
Speaker 1: So you go through all that stuff. Are you open

722
00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:35,000
Speaker 1: to like love again right away? Or it has to

723
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,240
Speaker 1: take time? Are you scared of it? Are you like

724
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:38,280
Speaker 1: I'm chilling?

725
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:43,040
Speaker 2: I really don't. I'm like, I'm in my bag, I'm working.

726
00:28:43,360 --> 00:28:44,600
Speaker 2: I'm like totally.

727
00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:47,600
Speaker 3: I mean, back then that moment, what you meant right now?

728
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:49,000
Speaker 3: I want to know about right now too.

729
00:28:49,040 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying that after going through that, were

730
00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:54,680
Speaker 1: you like looking for love again or were you not

731
00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:56,280
Speaker 1: to take a while or I.

732
00:28:56,240 --> 00:28:57,880
Speaker 4: Think it took a little bit of time for me

733
00:28:57,920 --> 00:28:59,840
Speaker 4: to just say Okay, let me take a beat. I

734
00:28:59,880 --> 00:29:05,040
Speaker 4: was still seeing my therapist, and I was kind of like, whoa,

735
00:29:05,040 --> 00:29:06,479
Speaker 4: what just happened. First of all, we met, we had

736
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:10,200
Speaker 4: a baby. It was so much quick, and so I

737
00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:11,640
Speaker 4: was like, let me just take a pause.

738
00:29:12,200 --> 00:29:14,440
Speaker 2: You know. I started dating a little bit after that.

739
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:17,280
Speaker 4: So by the time we split, like, I was seeing

740
00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:18,320
Speaker 4: other people at that point.

741
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,200
Speaker 2: But I think just because I was curious to like

742
00:29:22,520 --> 00:29:23,120
Speaker 2: what's out here?

743
00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:25,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, like why not you should?

744
00:29:25,640 --> 00:29:28,240
Speaker 2: Yes, if you're dating, I'm dating whatever, Like you're doing

745
00:29:28,280 --> 00:29:32,120
Speaker 2: your thing, even me. So I was just like, but.

746
00:29:32,120 --> 00:29:33,120
Speaker 3: It was a while before love.

747
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:37,440
Speaker 1: Then you had another relationship, Yeah, very public relationship that

748
00:29:37,560 --> 00:29:40,120
Speaker 1: people It was weird because you guys shared a lot,

749
00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:42,560
Speaker 1: but you didn't share a lot like we saw photos

750
00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:46,480
Speaker 1: and we saw we saw it happened, and people were

751
00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:49,080
Speaker 1: invested because he kind of manifested it in a way.

752
00:29:49,240 --> 00:29:49,440
Speaker 2: Yeah.

753
00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:53,160
Speaker 4: I think, you know, when it comes to me in relationships,

754
00:29:53,160 --> 00:29:54,880
Speaker 4: there's a lot of times people don't even see who

755
00:29:54,880 --> 00:29:58,080
Speaker 4: I date, right, And with that one, it just felt

756
00:29:58,080 --> 00:29:59,719
Speaker 4: special enough to share, you know what I mean.

757
00:30:00,200 --> 00:30:01,840
Speaker 2: We both on the same page.

758
00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:04,920
Speaker 4: And then it's like, I don't believe you have to

759
00:30:04,920 --> 00:30:07,880
Speaker 4: give it all to show the tree together.

760
00:30:07,960 --> 00:30:10,600
Speaker 2: But you know it just felt right, you.

761
00:30:10,880 --> 00:30:13,040
Speaker 3: Having fun to it seemed like you having fun with her.

762
00:30:13,440 --> 00:30:16,080
Speaker 4: Sure, I think you know it felt right, like the right.

763
00:30:16,400 --> 00:30:20,440
Speaker 4: It didn't like we both have our own thing going on.

764
00:30:20,520 --> 00:30:22,840
Speaker 4: It's like cool, like both these worlds came together. It's cool,

765
00:30:22,880 --> 00:30:23,880
Speaker 4: like get shirt.

766
00:30:23,920 --> 00:30:26,920
Speaker 3: And you've been quiet lately. Are you guys together still

767
00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:28,200
Speaker 3: or no?

768
00:30:28,200 --> 00:30:28,720
Speaker 6: No?

769
00:30:28,720 --> 00:30:31,240
Speaker 2: No, I'm not with them.

770
00:30:31,360 --> 00:30:34,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, not my choice, but you know I respect him.

771
00:30:35,120 --> 00:30:35,800
Speaker 2: It's all loved.

772
00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:37,440
Speaker 3: It's not your choice.

773
00:30:37,920 --> 00:30:41,200
Speaker 4: I wouldn't have chos it, but it was what was best.

774
00:30:41,280 --> 00:30:43,840
Speaker 4: But I wouldn't have chosen it. No, what are you

775
00:30:43,880 --> 00:30:45,760
Speaker 4: saying to me, Angela Simmons.

776
00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:47,720
Speaker 2: I'm saying that I'm a lover. I love love, I

777
00:30:47,760 --> 00:30:51,720
Speaker 2: love relationships. I you know, I still this.

778
00:30:51,600 --> 00:30:55,760
Speaker 1: Man proclaimed that he wanted to get with Angela Simmons.

779
00:30:55,800 --> 00:30:57,600
Speaker 3: This man like pursued you.

780
00:30:57,680 --> 00:31:00,720
Speaker 1: He proclaimed it in front of everybody that he wants

781
00:31:00,800 --> 00:31:01,800
Speaker 1: Angela Simmons.

782
00:31:01,880 --> 00:31:05,440
Speaker 4: So you're not telling me that he that he did

783
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:09,640
Speaker 4: he in the relationship. It was my choice, you know,

784
00:31:09,920 --> 00:31:12,680
Speaker 4: I just I had to make a decision. But I

785
00:31:12,720 --> 00:31:16,960
Speaker 4: think there's a certain level of like what I will

786
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:17,880
Speaker 4: always what I.

787
00:31:17,840 --> 00:31:20,760
Speaker 2: Can share and would share publicly, you know what I mean.

788
00:31:20,800 --> 00:31:23,520
Speaker 4: And I can publicly say that I'm not with him anymore,

789
00:31:23,680 --> 00:31:26,720
Speaker 4: but as far as like details, I would just never

790
00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:29,800
Speaker 4: It's nice though, nah, Like I'm just not that girl,

791
00:31:29,880 --> 00:31:32,240
Speaker 4: Like I'm just not that girl ever to share that

792
00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:34,600
Speaker 4: much more like other than like, yeah, we're not together.

793
00:31:34,840 --> 00:31:37,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, and he's not really that type either.

794
00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:39,640
Speaker 2: So yeah, I just that's yeah, that's my vibe though.

795
00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:41,200
Speaker 4: Like I said, like I could have probably been in

796
00:31:41,240 --> 00:31:43,040
Speaker 4: and out of like four or five other relationships. People

797
00:31:43,040 --> 00:31:45,360
Speaker 4: would have never known and gotten my feelings hurt or

798
00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:48,000
Speaker 4: not or whatever, and I just wouldn't speak on it

799
00:31:48,200 --> 00:31:51,520
Speaker 4: because some stuff is just better left unsaid.

800
00:31:51,640 --> 00:31:54,120
Speaker 2: I feel like, so I just leave things alone.

801
00:31:54,200 --> 00:31:55,440
Speaker 3: It's just that it was so public.

802
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:56,120
Speaker 2: I know.

803
00:31:56,200 --> 00:31:58,360
Speaker 3: That's the hard part. Do you regret that in a

804
00:31:58,360 --> 00:31:58,800
Speaker 3: way or not?

805
00:31:58,960 --> 00:32:02,800
Speaker 1: No, No, because you know, now there's curiosity. I know

806
00:32:03,240 --> 00:32:04,720
Speaker 1: people want to know what happened.

807
00:32:05,240 --> 00:32:07,479
Speaker 3: I know, I know, but but I understand that.

808
00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,560
Speaker 4: Look, I just again like much love and respect him

809
00:32:10,600 --> 00:32:15,240
Speaker 4: and just like he's doing his thing. I'm happy for him.

810
00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:27,080
Speaker 1: And of course whether that season is past, I guess yeah, yeah,

811
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:28,040
Speaker 1: was there heartbreaking?

812
00:32:28,080 --> 00:32:33,880
Speaker 2: Well, you know my films were involved. You know.

813
00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:36,960
Speaker 4: I it is hard, I feel like for me in

814
00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:40,280
Speaker 4: relationships because I get really invested and I'm like in

815
00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:42,880
Speaker 4: like in when I'm in love, I'm in love like,

816
00:32:42,920 --> 00:32:47,240
Speaker 4: which means like I'm staying with you. But yeah, my

817
00:32:47,280 --> 00:32:50,200
Speaker 4: filone's you know, it didn't feel good to not do it,

818
00:32:50,320 --> 00:32:51,280
Speaker 4: to not view with them?

819
00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:53,760
Speaker 3: What is that that coming to an end unto you

820
00:32:53,880 --> 00:32:54,360
Speaker 3: or whatever you.

821
00:32:54,360 --> 00:32:57,640
Speaker 2: Learned about love or I mean, you just never know.

822
00:32:57,880 --> 00:32:58,080
Speaker 5: You know.

823
00:32:58,160 --> 00:33:02,120
Speaker 2: I'm again, I'm a lover. I love love, and I've

824
00:33:02,240 --> 00:33:04,520
Speaker 2: been in relationships where I think is it re married?

825
00:33:04,560 --> 00:33:06,160
Speaker 2: And then I'm not married?

826
00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:09,280
Speaker 4: So here I am, and then this life can be

827
00:33:09,320 --> 00:33:11,720
Speaker 4: just really unpredictable, I think often, and.

828
00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:14,200
Speaker 2: It's really hard for me.

829
00:33:14,240 --> 00:33:16,320
Speaker 4: I would say to date too, because I feel like

830
00:33:17,400 --> 00:33:20,960
Speaker 4: the woman that people watch they.

831
00:33:20,840 --> 00:33:24,040
Speaker 2: Fantasize who that is and they don't know me.

832
00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:28,040
Speaker 4: So then maybe and I'm not speaking specifically on him,

833
00:33:28,080 --> 00:33:29,960
Speaker 4: I'm saying in general, like, then you get in a

834
00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:32,280
Speaker 4: relationship with me and you're like, oh, I thought you

835
00:33:32,320 --> 00:33:32,680
Speaker 4: were like this.

836
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:34,480
Speaker 2: I'm like, bro, like it was like five seconds in

837
00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:36,760
Speaker 2: my life, like this is who I am? You know

838
00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:37,120
Speaker 2: what I mean?

839
00:33:37,120 --> 00:33:39,560
Speaker 4: And not that that's a bad thing, but you can

840
00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:42,280
Speaker 4: have a fantasy of what a girl is like and

841
00:33:42,320 --> 00:33:43,680
Speaker 4: then like you get them in they're.

842
00:33:43,560 --> 00:33:44,240
Speaker 2: A bit different.

843
00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:47,640
Speaker 4: I don't know, I might need to get a guy

844
00:33:47,680 --> 00:33:49,600
Speaker 4: in here an interview, and because I have had a

845
00:33:49,640 --> 00:33:52,160
Speaker 4: lot of guys that said like they you know, like

846
00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:54,280
Speaker 4: oh I have a crushed or I like you, and

847
00:33:54,320 --> 00:33:55,720
Speaker 4: I'm just like, well what does that mean?

848
00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:56,960
Speaker 3: Like you know what I mean?

849
00:33:57,080 --> 00:33:59,040
Speaker 2: Like you like me?

850
00:33:59,520 --> 00:33:59,880
Speaker 3: Do you know?

851
00:34:00,040 --> 00:34:00,240
Speaker 4: Oh?

852
00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:00,880
Speaker 2: You know what I mean?

853
00:34:00,920 --> 00:34:03,920
Speaker 4: But I think that that that's a hard part for

854
00:34:03,960 --> 00:34:07,760
Speaker 4: me is like growing up on TV from now from

855
00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:11,239
Speaker 4: seventeen and now it's like you think that's who I am,

856
00:34:11,280 --> 00:34:14,000
Speaker 4: and who I really am is like this way versus

857
00:34:14,040 --> 00:34:19,360
Speaker 4: that way or whatever. It's an interesting it's interesting, No, totally,

858
00:34:19,719 --> 00:34:21,640
Speaker 4: it's different. I've never had none of my friends deal

859
00:34:21,640 --> 00:34:24,440
Speaker 4: with this type of mess like like you are you

860
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:26,759
Speaker 4: cause you get to meet some and that's who they

861
00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:28,680
Speaker 4: are and they don't you have no prejudgment to it,

862
00:34:28,760 --> 00:34:30,239
Speaker 4: you know what I mean. Like I'm kind of like

863
00:34:30,320 --> 00:34:34,520
Speaker 4: automatically you Run's daughter, you're this that like it's just

864
00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:37,239
Speaker 4: mad things that you think automatically coming in and it'll

865
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 4: be like, nah.

866
00:34:38,400 --> 00:34:39,160
Speaker 3: It's not my life.

867
00:34:39,280 --> 00:34:41,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know what's interesting, and you were talking about

868
00:34:41,360 --> 00:34:47,799
Speaker 1: how people had a fantasy of you. Yeah, right, there

869
00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:50,919
Speaker 1: was also like a level of fantasy put on this relationship.

870
00:34:51,080 --> 00:34:52,640
Speaker 3: I agree, you know what I'm saying.

871
00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:55,000
Speaker 1: And it was number one, the way he came at you,

872
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:57,160
Speaker 1: and then it actually happened, and then it became a

873
00:34:57,200 --> 00:34:59,640
Speaker 1: whole thing. You're in the beautiful mansions with the dress.

874
00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:04,120
Speaker 1: It's almost like there's expectations of the I just wonder

875
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:06,680
Speaker 1: from the airside, did you feel like that too or

876
00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:09,399
Speaker 1: was that not how we perceived it?

877
00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:11,279
Speaker 3: Did you perceive it that way?

878
00:35:11,360 --> 00:35:16,919
Speaker 4: I think everything has like, uh, what people see versus

879
00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:20,440
Speaker 4: what it is. And we had we are you know,

880
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:23,279
Speaker 4: we had a lot of great, beautiful like memories with

881
00:35:23,640 --> 00:35:24,640
Speaker 4: like being together.

882
00:35:24,719 --> 00:35:25,719
Speaker 2: I feel like, you know, so.

883
00:35:27,360 --> 00:35:29,759
Speaker 4: What they've seen was really happening in real time, you

884
00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:31,640
Speaker 4: know what I mean? Or like you know, any of

885
00:35:31,680 --> 00:35:34,840
Speaker 4: the picture like that's what was happening and most definitely

886
00:35:34,960 --> 00:35:37,919
Speaker 4: like we've had beautiful times so.

887
00:35:38,080 --> 00:35:40,960
Speaker 1: But we only saw that we didn't see That's the

888
00:35:40,960 --> 00:35:41,959
Speaker 1: thing about social media.

889
00:35:42,040 --> 00:35:43,479
Speaker 3: Social media show yes, I.

890
00:35:43,360 --> 00:35:45,600
Speaker 4: Feel like that's like anyone's relationship. Like I feel like

891
00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:48,160
Speaker 4: you go to a girl's page right now and she'll

892
00:35:48,160 --> 00:35:51,440
Speaker 4: have like tons of flowers up and all these bursts

893
00:35:51,480 --> 00:35:53,799
Speaker 4: and different stuff, and you'll be like, I want that.

894
00:35:53,840 --> 00:35:55,680
Speaker 4: I've learned never to say that. I don't want nothing

895
00:35:55,719 --> 00:35:58,440
Speaker 4: nobody yet, but you know I want that. And behind

896
00:35:58,440 --> 00:36:01,120
Speaker 4: the scenes, it's like there are going through it. They

897
00:36:01,120 --> 00:36:02,960
Speaker 4: don't want to be together, you know, like you just

898
00:36:03,080 --> 00:36:04,839
Speaker 4: don't know, you know what I mean?

899
00:36:04,920 --> 00:36:06,560
Speaker 3: So, oh, social media is a devil.

900
00:36:06,600 --> 00:36:08,840
Speaker 2: It's terrible. It's a fake book. I don't want to

901
00:36:08,880 --> 00:36:10,240
Speaker 2: read it. I want the truth.

902
00:36:10,320 --> 00:36:11,799
Speaker 3: But you participate in the book.

903
00:36:11,960 --> 00:36:13,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, but I participate in the book of just showing

904
00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:16,319
Speaker 4: things that I like. I like pictures and beautiful things.

905
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:20,040
Speaker 4: Before Instagram got big, I literally had probably three five

906
00:36:20,040 --> 00:36:23,480
Speaker 4: fouls whatever. It was like, like I like pictures, like art,

907
00:36:23,480 --> 00:36:26,160
Speaker 4: I'm a creative, so like for me, like I just

908
00:36:26,280 --> 00:36:28,239
Speaker 4: like that stuff. But I participate just in what I

909
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:30,239
Speaker 4: like to look at. It's all when I'm saying, like,

910
00:36:30,239 --> 00:36:34,480
Speaker 4: you would never know what someone's going through by social media,

911
00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:35,920
Speaker 4: I just don't know.

912
00:36:36,000 --> 00:36:38,480
Speaker 2: You got to be there to know for.

913
00:36:38,480 --> 00:36:44,879
Speaker 1: Sure, because who knew. We didn't know me either. Oh

914
00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:45,719
Speaker 1: I hate that for you.

915
00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's okay.

916
00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:49,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, how do you deal with heartbreak?

917
00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:53,759
Speaker 1: Because I always feel like people don't like people talk

918
00:36:53,800 --> 00:36:59,160
Speaker 1: about grief and trauma and loss, but like heartbreak is.

919
00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:01,799
Speaker 3: Some real shit. It's hard, Like it can make people

920
00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:02,840
Speaker 3: go to jail.

921
00:37:04,120 --> 00:37:06,759
Speaker 1: Just be depressed, like it could really, it could ruin

922
00:37:06,800 --> 00:37:11,040
Speaker 1: people's lives. Like I just feel like it's an underestimate,

923
00:37:11,120 --> 00:37:16,719
Speaker 1: like an under valued conversation of like how to come

924
00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:17,600
Speaker 1: out on the other.

925
00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:17,920
Speaker 3: Side of that.

926
00:37:18,160 --> 00:37:21,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, but some people they break up and they're finding

927
00:37:21,800 --> 00:37:23,280
Speaker 1: they're on to the next Some people are.

928
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:26,319
Speaker 2: I feel like they not do They're not dealing with

929
00:37:26,320 --> 00:37:27,000
Speaker 2: their feelings.

930
00:37:27,040 --> 00:37:28,840
Speaker 3: I don't know, really, that's rough.

931
00:37:29,160 --> 00:37:29,759
Speaker 2: I don't know.

932
00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:32,239
Speaker 1: If there's some people that break up, well they'll be

933
00:37:32,280 --> 00:37:34,960
Speaker 1: married for ten years and then they're dating somebody else

934
00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:35,799
Speaker 1: six months later.

935
00:37:36,480 --> 00:37:38,839
Speaker 2: That's not you, No, They're they're locked in.

936
00:37:39,040 --> 00:37:43,359
Speaker 4: I mean, like I think for me, heartbreak is leaning

937
00:37:43,400 --> 00:37:44,880
Speaker 4: into my friends, leaning.

938
00:37:44,640 --> 00:37:46,680
Speaker 2: Into what I like to do more.

939
00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:49,320
Speaker 4: You know, in your a relationship, you put everything into

940
00:37:49,360 --> 00:37:52,279
Speaker 4: like the person and y'all or whatever you got going on,

941
00:37:52,760 --> 00:37:53,440
Speaker 4: and then like.

942
00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:57,120
Speaker 2: They don't know, there's so many different ways to deal

943
00:37:57,160 --> 00:37:57,680
Speaker 2: with heartbreak.

944
00:37:57,680 --> 00:37:58,880
Speaker 3: Are you on the other side of that? Are you

945
00:37:58,920 --> 00:37:59,439
Speaker 3: still in it?

946
00:38:00,040 --> 00:38:00,880
Speaker 2: I'm always healing.

947
00:38:00,960 --> 00:38:03,719
Speaker 4: That's just like my model like I just trying to

948
00:38:03,840 --> 00:38:04,800
Speaker 4: get through everything.

949
00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:07,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I'm good.

950
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:08,919
Speaker 3: Yeah you seem good.

951
00:38:09,080 --> 00:38:10,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm definitely good.

952
00:38:10,120 --> 00:38:14,879
Speaker 3: It'll seem like you're like curled up no ice cream?

953
00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,680
Speaker 4: Yeah no, no, I don't no, no, I want to

954
00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:19,680
Speaker 4: eat healthy.

955
00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:23,759
Speaker 3: Would you do a public relationship again?

956
00:38:25,000 --> 00:38:28,359
Speaker 2: You don't know, never say never? Maybe, maybe not.

957
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:29,319
Speaker 3: I don't.

958
00:38:29,360 --> 00:38:31,840
Speaker 1: I don't mind really okay, the fact that you're not

959
00:38:31,960 --> 00:38:35,680
Speaker 1: bruised to the point where it's stolen your like heart

960
00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:37,520
Speaker 1: and your your you know what I mean.

961
00:38:37,520 --> 00:38:39,560
Speaker 4: Like, I think it has to do it work self

962
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:41,640
Speaker 4: work and the amount of time I put it into myself.

963
00:38:42,040 --> 00:38:45,000
Speaker 4: But if anything bothers me in life especially really, like

964
00:38:45,080 --> 00:38:47,200
Speaker 4: I'm like, all right, when we go self reflect and

965
00:38:47,239 --> 00:38:49,640
Speaker 4: figure out what's going on and like figure out how

966
00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:53,319
Speaker 4: to fix it, you know. I think everyone has been

967
00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:56,879
Speaker 4: through getting their films hurt or like hurting, So it's

968
00:38:56,920 --> 00:38:57,399
Speaker 4: just like, what.

969
00:38:57,320 --> 00:38:59,719
Speaker 2: Do you do with it? If you sit in it,

970
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:00,640
Speaker 2: it doesn't help.

971
00:39:00,680 --> 00:39:02,320
Speaker 3: So what do you tell somebody who's sitting in it

972
00:39:02,440 --> 00:39:02,839
Speaker 3: right now?

973
00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:03,960
Speaker 2: Go get some.

974
00:39:03,960 --> 00:39:07,600
Speaker 4: Help, like, or go get your friends, go pull yourself together,

975
00:39:07,800 --> 00:39:10,600
Speaker 4: like do something for yourself, you know what I mean.

976
00:39:10,640 --> 00:39:13,600
Speaker 4: I think relationships we do so much for other person.

977
00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:15,960
Speaker 4: So when you come out of it, you can't breathe

978
00:39:15,960 --> 00:39:18,760
Speaker 4: almost you like like.

979
00:39:18,280 --> 00:39:20,960
Speaker 2: I felt that because it is literally that's how it feels.

980
00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:23,279
Speaker 4: It's like m m, the pull up parts, like you

981
00:39:23,320 --> 00:39:25,719
Speaker 4: can't breathe you Like, I don't know this life, about

982
00:39:25,719 --> 00:39:27,359
Speaker 4: this person, Like what do I do?

983
00:39:28,120 --> 00:39:28,319
Speaker 2: You know?

984
00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:31,000
Speaker 3: So I just focus on you.

985
00:39:31,280 --> 00:39:33,719
Speaker 4: That's all you really can do. You know what's good

986
00:39:33,719 --> 00:39:35,959
Speaker 4: advice and do what you want to do. I think

987
00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:38,759
Speaker 4: in life like whatever the heck that looks like, you know,

988
00:39:38,800 --> 00:39:41,120
Speaker 4: I give myself that grace, say, any day if I

989
00:39:41,239 --> 00:39:44,000
Speaker 4: choose to be with whoever or go back to whoever

990
00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:45,840
Speaker 4: or do whatever, like it's my choice.

991
00:39:45,880 --> 00:39:47,839
Speaker 2: That's why I always tell people, if you happy.

992
00:39:47,560 --> 00:39:49,160
Speaker 4: You like it, I love it, you know what I mean?

993
00:39:49,200 --> 00:39:52,359
Speaker 4: Like I don't, I just as long as it ain't

994
00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:53,000
Speaker 4: hurting you.

995
00:39:53,640 --> 00:39:54,760
Speaker 3: But healing is still happening.

996
00:39:54,800 --> 00:39:58,439
Speaker 4: Yeah, always, always, always healing. Always working on a better

997
00:39:58,520 --> 00:40:01,880
Speaker 4: version of myself. I've been working on this music project

998
00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:04,640
Speaker 4: that I'm working on for like the last year and

999
00:40:04,640 --> 00:40:05,000
Speaker 4: a half.

1000
00:40:05,480 --> 00:40:07,840
Speaker 2: Good because like personally that's.

1001
00:40:07,719 --> 00:40:11,280
Speaker 1: Therapeutic, yeah for me, Like are you doing like single

1002
00:40:11,280 --> 00:40:11,920
Speaker 1: girl music?

1003
00:40:13,880 --> 00:40:16,520
Speaker 3: I want to call it that heartbreak music.

1004
00:40:17,640 --> 00:40:21,080
Speaker 4: Like beautiful girl music, A little bit of that, a

1005
00:40:21,120 --> 00:40:23,319
Speaker 4: little bit of that. But you know, like for me,

1006
00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:25,839
Speaker 4: something that helped me a lot in my life was

1007
00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:31,200
Speaker 4: like different music and listening to affirmations and like it helped,

1008
00:40:31,280 --> 00:40:33,319
Speaker 4: like literally heal me in the morning time I get up.

1009
00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:34,000
Speaker 2: That's a part of my.

1010
00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:36,760
Speaker 4: Routine, is like listening to certain music, listen to certain

1011
00:40:36,840 --> 00:40:38,200
Speaker 4: like healers, like that helps it.

1012
00:40:38,640 --> 00:40:40,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, it changed everything for me.

1013
00:40:40,840 --> 00:40:43,279
Speaker 4: Like everything I've been through in life, I've always looked

1014
00:40:43,320 --> 00:40:45,120
Speaker 4: for a way to pivot, like, Okay, what's next?

1015
00:40:45,120 --> 00:40:47,280
Speaker 2: How do I feel better?

1016
00:40:47,520 --> 00:40:50,560
Speaker 3: Like I like positive and you don't like sitting up?

1017
00:40:50,760 --> 00:40:52,800
Speaker 2: No, I don't even like dark rooms.

1018
00:40:53,600 --> 00:40:58,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, like this is why we have the whitest whitest

1019
00:40:58,200 --> 00:41:01,719
Speaker 1: I like to me, the sun give me all the lights,

1020
00:41:01,840 --> 00:41:03,000
Speaker 1: good lighting today and.

1021
00:41:03,719 --> 00:41:06,920
Speaker 2: Shine and beat the color of the sand. We're right there, I.

1022
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:09,920
Speaker 3: Mean we are right. We are so focused, so good,

1023
00:41:10,040 --> 00:41:14,040
Speaker 3: perfect alignments. Good for you. Who needs Life is short?

1024
00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:17,520
Speaker 4: And that's what I've learned, like you literally like for me,

1025
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:20,319
Speaker 4: like when I seen in the blank of an eye

1026
00:41:20,360 --> 00:41:22,600
Speaker 4: what happened to my son's father, and how quick my

1027
00:41:22,680 --> 00:41:25,640
Speaker 4: life even changed like that became like you've got to

1028
00:41:25,760 --> 00:41:29,160
Speaker 4: live like right now, it's so important to be like present,

1029
00:41:29,200 --> 00:41:32,440
Speaker 4: to like what you want, and so I'm definitely like

1030
00:41:33,040 --> 00:41:36,120
Speaker 4: far into like okay, even if something happens that hurts me,

1031
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:37,840
Speaker 4: like what's next?

1032
00:41:37,840 --> 00:41:39,799
Speaker 2: How do I feel better from here?

1033
00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:44,960
Speaker 4: You know that's I can't It would stop everything, Like

1034
00:41:45,000 --> 00:41:46,120
Speaker 4: I just can't do that.

1035
00:41:46,520 --> 00:41:48,640
Speaker 1: Angela Simmons, are you telling me right now you're in

1036
00:41:48,640 --> 00:41:50,040
Speaker 1: your single girl era again?

1037
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:54,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm telling you that she's single.

1038
00:41:54,920 --> 00:41:57,560
Speaker 3: Who's So, what's that like at this point in your life?

1039
00:41:57,920 --> 00:41:58,200
Speaker 6: Vibe?

1040
00:41:58,200 --> 00:41:58,800
Speaker 2: And I'm chilling.

1041
00:41:59,520 --> 00:42:01,440
Speaker 3: Is it already? Like are you like looking around yet

1042
00:42:01,520 --> 00:42:04,000
Speaker 3: or it is too soon? No, I'm just chilling.

1043
00:42:04,040 --> 00:42:06,480
Speaker 2: I'm in a space where I'm just about me and

1044
00:42:06,560 --> 00:42:08,400
Speaker 2: whatever that looks like. It looks like you know what.

1045
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:11,719
Speaker 4: I mean Like there's no like nothing in specific specific,

1046
00:42:11,719 --> 00:42:14,080
Speaker 4: but I'm definitely not like out here like let me go.

1047
00:42:14,160 --> 00:42:17,239
Speaker 4: They like, yeah, like I'm chilling, You're gonna wait and

1048
00:42:17,280 --> 00:42:20,439
Speaker 4: see or just let it on God's time. So I'd

1049
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:21,960
Speaker 4: be like, I don't know what that looks like. God

1050
00:42:22,000 --> 00:42:23,960
Speaker 4: can go from this has happening in this day and

1051
00:42:24,000 --> 00:42:26,840
Speaker 4: tomorrow could be this. I give myself grace and space

1052
00:42:27,239 --> 00:42:29,400
Speaker 4: to like do what I want. When I want to

1053
00:42:29,440 --> 00:42:31,680
Speaker 4: do it as long as it hurt nobody like it

1054
00:42:31,680 --> 00:42:32,120
Speaker 4: makes sense?

1055
00:42:32,239 --> 00:42:35,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, good for you. You don't been through some things, girl,

1056
00:42:35,520 --> 00:42:36,719
Speaker 3: I have. I have.

1057
00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:39,400
Speaker 2: Sometimes I forget what I've been through. I get thinking back, like,

1058
00:42:39,440 --> 00:42:40,520
Speaker 2: oh God, like what you're here?

1059
00:42:40,600 --> 00:42:42,880
Speaker 3: You made it out? Are you still like? Because you

1060
00:42:42,920 --> 00:42:45,600
Speaker 3: said you love love? I love you still have that?

1061
00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:48,759
Speaker 3: Is it that strong love? I don't.

1062
00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:51,520
Speaker 4: I nothing about that? Like I love love, I love

1063
00:42:51,600 --> 00:42:53,359
Speaker 4: R and B, I love love songs like.

1064
00:42:55,320 --> 00:42:57,279
Speaker 1: You have not been to the point you have not

1065
00:42:57,360 --> 00:42:59,720
Speaker 1: been ruined, that has not been taken away from you.

1066
00:43:00,560 --> 00:43:01,760
Speaker 2: I just I just like it.

1067
00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:04,480
Speaker 4: It's beautiful. I think it's it's so nice to watch.

1068
00:43:04,560 --> 00:43:05,880
Speaker 4: I like seeing other people happy.

1069
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:07,160
Speaker 2: I love it.

1070
00:43:07,360 --> 00:43:09,320
Speaker 3: Do you still want to like, do you want to

1071
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:09,760
Speaker 3: be married?

1072
00:43:10,200 --> 00:43:12,920
Speaker 2: I do want to be married all day? I do. Yeah.

1073
00:43:13,160 --> 00:43:15,440
Speaker 2: My son wants me to get married. He always asked me.

1074
00:43:15,520 --> 00:43:19,240
Speaker 3: And you believe, I'm sure in the in the union

1075
00:43:19,320 --> 00:43:20,920
Speaker 3: like in marriage for sure?

1076
00:43:21,080 --> 00:43:21,680
Speaker 2: Absolutely?

1077
00:43:22,239 --> 00:43:23,960
Speaker 3: Yeah. For you, I hope you find it.

1078
00:43:24,160 --> 00:43:24,480
Speaker 2: Thank you.

1079
00:43:24,560 --> 00:43:26,760
Speaker 3: I'm going to leave you alone right there with you.

1080
00:43:27,280 --> 00:43:29,399
Speaker 2: We got kind of deep. I'm like, the tears start

1081
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:30,680
Speaker 2: coming out. A lot happened here.

1082
00:43:31,680 --> 00:43:33,239
Speaker 3: I didn't even get to my cards. But we got

1083
00:43:33,239 --> 00:43:35,320
Speaker 3: a couple, we got a cop of I R L questions.

1084
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:39,640
Speaker 1: Okay, Oh, we talked about your business already. I'm sure

1085
00:43:39,640 --> 00:43:42,480
Speaker 1: you have other business happening and your wellness and your

1086
00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:44,600
Speaker 1: family and.

1087
00:43:44,440 --> 00:43:46,200
Speaker 3: Your iconic family.

1088
00:43:46,760 --> 00:43:50,000
Speaker 1: It's funny because I know your brother has a podcast now, Jojo, Yes,

1089
00:43:50,280 --> 00:43:52,120
Speaker 1: I was thinking about that. Are there any kind of

1090
00:43:52,239 --> 00:43:55,720
Speaker 1: like is there a universal way that you guys handle

1091
00:43:55,760 --> 00:43:57,920
Speaker 1: it or do you figure it out as you go?

1092
00:43:58,840 --> 00:43:59,319
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

1093
00:43:59,640 --> 00:44:02,920
Speaker 4: In the pub, I think we're all pretty synergized, like,

1094
00:44:03,680 --> 00:44:06,399
Speaker 4: you know, like we all talk, so it's like if

1095
00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:08,200
Speaker 4: we need to have a conversation about something we do.

1096
00:44:10,680 --> 00:44:13,160
Speaker 4: But I think everything is you just go as you go,

1097
00:44:13,480 --> 00:44:15,640
Speaker 4: you know, because we're all like have our own stuff

1098
00:44:15,719 --> 00:44:17,640
Speaker 4: going on, but we're all in sync, you know what

1099
00:44:17,680 --> 00:44:18,000
Speaker 4: I mean.

1100
00:44:19,239 --> 00:44:23,279
Speaker 1: Jojo was saying how Vanessa or Vanessa was saying how

1101
00:44:23,320 --> 00:44:26,239
Speaker 1: she felt in the family like she had to like

1102
00:44:26,360 --> 00:44:27,120
Speaker 1: look after.

1103
00:44:27,520 --> 00:44:31,480
Speaker 3: She liked the she's the big sister, right sister, Yeah,

1104
00:44:31,520 --> 00:44:32,520
Speaker 3: you're the big little sister.

1105
00:44:32,960 --> 00:44:36,520
Speaker 1: I wonder how the dynamics of the family as adults,

1106
00:44:36,600 --> 00:44:40,719
Speaker 1: like sibling relationships as adults, that changes. It's interesting rights

1107
00:44:40,719 --> 00:44:42,760
Speaker 1: so much there, and I just wonder what the dynamics

1108
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:44,719
Speaker 1: are now because we know you guys as the young

1109
00:44:44,800 --> 00:44:48,719
Speaker 1: Simmons family, and I know what is the what is

1110
00:44:48,719 --> 00:44:49,879
Speaker 1: the what are the relationships?

1111
00:44:49,920 --> 00:44:51,920
Speaker 3: Like now? What are the what are the siblings?

1112
00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,280
Speaker 4: It's funny because like when we all together are still

1113
00:44:54,360 --> 00:44:57,160
Speaker 4: similar to what has always been. Really, I feel like

1114
00:44:57,719 --> 00:45:01,600
Speaker 4: Vanessa's always been the worst, soft and like laid back

1115
00:45:01,640 --> 00:45:04,120
Speaker 4: when I'm like a little more outspoken, a little more

1116
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,080
Speaker 4: like it's just like that's the dynamic.

1117
00:45:06,080 --> 00:45:09,160
Speaker 2: And then JoJo's Jojo. He's the older, younger brother.

1118
00:45:09,000 --> 00:45:10,719
Speaker 4: Too, because he's like always been like I don't know,

1119
00:45:10,719 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 4: he always thinks he's older than us, and I'm like,

1120
00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:13,000
Speaker 4: who you younger than me?

1121
00:45:13,560 --> 00:45:16,279
Speaker 2: But it's it's interesting we have our are you close?

1122
00:45:16,840 --> 00:45:17,040
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1123
00:45:17,120 --> 00:45:17,479
Speaker 5: For sure?

1124
00:45:17,480 --> 00:45:19,520
Speaker 2: We all talk like we have our old group text

1125
00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:21,360
Speaker 2: family text, like all time close.

1126
00:45:22,000 --> 00:45:24,800
Speaker 3: That's beautiful. Sibling relationships are.

1127
00:45:24,800 --> 00:45:25,920
Speaker 2: Beautiful, they really are.

1128
00:45:25,920 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 1: I have no siblings, but I have a best friend

1129
00:45:27,520 --> 00:45:29,480
Speaker 1: since I eight years old. It's the closest I can get.

1130
00:45:29,560 --> 00:45:32,000
Speaker 2: It's like having it really is because since eight is

1131
00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:32,800
Speaker 2: like it's.

1132
00:45:32,680 --> 00:45:33,680
Speaker 3: Like she knows me better than I know.

1133
00:45:33,880 --> 00:45:34,480
Speaker 2: I love that.

1134
00:45:34,640 --> 00:45:37,880
Speaker 1: But there is something about siblings like you, there's always somebody.

1135
00:45:38,120 --> 00:45:41,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, there's like an understanding. I know, it's just a shorthand.

1136
00:45:41,880 --> 00:45:43,759
Speaker 4: Sometimes I don't even have to say nothing. My sister

1137
00:45:43,800 --> 00:45:45,560
Speaker 4: she'll be calling, but the same thing. I'm like, yo,

1138
00:45:45,880 --> 00:45:48,120
Speaker 4: you knew, you know, like you all over there on

1139
00:45:48,120 --> 00:45:50,840
Speaker 4: the different coast, but we're still in sync from wherever this.

1140
00:45:50,960 --> 00:45:52,120
Speaker 2: It's like, yeah, it's a connection.

1141
00:45:52,360 --> 00:45:54,319
Speaker 3: What a beautiful blesson that is to have you can

1142
00:45:54,320 --> 00:45:54,960
Speaker 3: have more children.

1143
00:45:55,960 --> 00:45:58,520
Speaker 2: I'm in limbo honestly in my head, like in real time,

1144
00:45:58,600 --> 00:45:59,360
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1145
00:45:59,440 --> 00:46:06,040
Speaker 4: Not seven no, no, no, the idea of having another kid.

1146
00:46:06,600 --> 00:46:10,520
Speaker 2: Maybe my son wants to see me have another child.

1147
00:46:10,760 --> 00:46:12,400
Speaker 3: He wants Yeah, he loves kids.

1148
00:46:12,640 --> 00:46:14,359
Speaker 1: Are you being like because you said one of your

1149
00:46:14,360 --> 00:46:17,160
Speaker 1: things was like people please there, And then also you

1150
00:46:17,160 --> 00:46:18,000
Speaker 1: want to protect your son?

1151
00:46:18,440 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, do you like spoil him? Do you over like

1152
00:46:21,920 --> 00:46:22,640
Speaker 3: like it's weird.

1153
00:46:22,680 --> 00:46:24,279
Speaker 2: I'm half in half right because I'm like, no, you

1154
00:46:24,320 --> 00:46:27,279
Speaker 2: can't have that. And then like like some roadblocks. He

1155
00:46:27,320 --> 00:46:29,320
Speaker 2: loves roadblocks and rodbux and all that stuff.

1156
00:46:29,440 --> 00:46:32,239
Speaker 4: So I'm like no, like right now, like probably day ago,

1157
00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:33,600
Speaker 4: I just was with him and he was like can

1158
00:46:33,640 --> 00:46:35,319
Speaker 4: I have it? I'm like no, but I'm knowing like

1159
00:46:36,320 --> 00:46:37,880
Speaker 4: it maybe a week, I'll give it to him, but

1160
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:39,680
Speaker 4: you just like I need it to be just like

1161
00:46:39,800 --> 00:46:42,719
Speaker 4: just a little bit, give him a little bit of discipline,

1162
00:46:42,760 --> 00:46:45,560
Speaker 4: a lot of discipline, and then also like here's this,

1163
00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,719
Speaker 4: so like I try to be the balance and if

1164
00:46:47,760 --> 00:46:49,680
Speaker 4: I'm too hard on him, everybody else around him going

1165
00:46:49,680 --> 00:46:50,799
Speaker 4: to give him what he wants.

1166
00:46:50,800 --> 00:46:53,520
Speaker 2: So sometimes I have to be more of the disciplinary.

1167
00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:53,359
Speaker 3: Got it?

1168
00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:54,200
Speaker 2: So it just depends.

1169
00:46:54,239 --> 00:46:56,399
Speaker 1: That's the hard thing about being a single parent. Mix

1170
00:46:56,640 --> 00:46:58,759
Speaker 1: you got to be the disciplinary and you got to

1171
00:46:58,800 --> 00:46:59,280
Speaker 1: be the loving.

1172
00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:01,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm like.

1173
00:47:01,520 --> 00:47:03,120
Speaker 4: I want to be like the fun mom, but I

1174
00:47:03,160 --> 00:47:05,120
Speaker 4: have to be like on you who talk to you

1175
00:47:05,160 --> 00:47:05,360
Speaker 4: like that?

1176
00:47:05,560 --> 00:47:07,799
Speaker 3: Like you would be surprised, Like I'm straight.

1177
00:47:07,520 --> 00:47:10,320
Speaker 2: Mama, really, yes, Like with him, I don't want to

1178
00:47:10,320 --> 00:47:13,040
Speaker 2: play with him. Yeah, yeah, he's already. Guy, he's too

1179
00:47:13,080 --> 00:47:14,360
Speaker 2: spoiled already.

1180
00:47:14,920 --> 00:47:16,560
Speaker 3: Who are you talking to? God, I've said that a

1181
00:47:16,560 --> 00:47:17,160
Speaker 3: thousand times.

1182
00:47:17,239 --> 00:47:19,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, when it's a boy too, you like you gotta

1183
00:47:19,080 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 2: like get over here.

1184
00:47:20,680 --> 00:47:21,799
Speaker 3: You don't. You can't do that.

1185
00:47:22,680 --> 00:47:23,000
Speaker 2: He don't.

1186
00:47:23,040 --> 00:47:25,160
Speaker 4: He I don't even if it takes me. Sometimes you know,

1187
00:47:25,239 --> 00:47:26,520
Speaker 4: you're like you don't know if your kid always takes

1188
00:47:26,520 --> 00:47:27,840
Speaker 4: you serious. You're like, do you need to take what

1189
00:47:27,880 --> 00:47:28,279
Speaker 4: I'm saying?

1190
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:30,600
Speaker 3: That's really cute?

1191
00:47:30,840 --> 00:47:33,440
Speaker 1: How does he deal with like you on socials and

1192
00:47:33,480 --> 00:47:34,600
Speaker 1: your celebrity and.

1193
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:37,760
Speaker 4: Your He's so interested now he's become more interested. Really,

1194
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:40,120
Speaker 4: he's like on me by his favorite rapper. He's like

1195
00:47:40,160 --> 00:47:42,040
Speaker 4: my main rappers Kendrick Lamar. He's got like in the

1196
00:47:42,080 --> 00:47:44,080
Speaker 4: screen taper. I'm like, how did that become your favorite rapper?

1197
00:47:44,120 --> 00:47:45,880
Speaker 4: I'm like, I just want to understand because I don't know,

1198
00:47:45,920 --> 00:47:48,400
Speaker 4: Like when you listening to music, like you're on your

1199
00:47:48,440 --> 00:47:51,160
Speaker 4: phone and he's like, you know, I play with him

1200
00:47:51,160 --> 00:47:53,080
Speaker 4: about like my music and stuff.

1201
00:47:53,120 --> 00:47:54,960
Speaker 2: He's like, are you doing it Kendrick mar If you are,

1202
00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 2: I want to be there. I want to meet him.

1203
00:47:56,120 --> 00:47:58,080
Speaker 2: I'm like, sh shay. He's hilarious.

1204
00:47:58,160 --> 00:48:00,799
Speaker 3: But this music thing is like a real thing for you.

1205
00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:01,480
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1206
00:48:01,680 --> 00:48:05,760
Speaker 3: Is this something we're gonna hear it too? You are? Yeah,

1207
00:48:06,040 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 3: And you've been doing this for.

1208
00:48:07,360 --> 00:48:08,960
Speaker 2: I've been working on it for over a year, a

1209
00:48:09,040 --> 00:48:09,920
Speaker 2: year and a half.

1210
00:48:10,640 --> 00:48:14,080
Speaker 3: Interesting, singing, rapping, all of the above.

1211
00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:19,160
Speaker 4: I am encouraging and I'm bringing features together. I have

1212
00:48:19,360 --> 00:48:25,600
Speaker 4: a cool feature I'm really excited about to Jada kiss.

1213
00:48:24,360 --> 00:48:25,399
Speaker 2: Shot the video?

1214
00:48:25,440 --> 00:48:26,800
Speaker 3: Are you doing a video already? And everything?

1215
00:48:27,320 --> 00:48:27,600
Speaker 1: Ship?

1216
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:30,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm moving fast.

1217
00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:31,120
Speaker 3: But who's heard it?

1218
00:48:31,160 --> 00:48:35,040
Speaker 4: Like in your family? Everybody, my dad, my siblings, I

1219
00:48:35,080 --> 00:48:36,640
Speaker 4: mean you know, I let them in on it and

1220
00:48:37,200 --> 00:48:37,520
Speaker 4: they like.

1221
00:48:37,640 --> 00:48:38,440
Speaker 3: The reviews are good.

1222
00:48:38,480 --> 00:48:39,040
Speaker 2: They like it.

1223
00:48:39,840 --> 00:48:41,239
Speaker 3: Yeah, I can't wait to hear it. We're gonna have

1224
00:48:41,239 --> 00:48:42,520
Speaker 3: the place where I have to hear something.

1225
00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:44,680
Speaker 2: I'll let you hear before, okay, after whatever.

1226
00:48:44,840 --> 00:48:45,719
Speaker 3: So is this gonna be soon?

1227
00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:48,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm working on it.

1228
00:48:48,560 --> 00:48:50,800
Speaker 1: The release date, you know, people about to be in

1229
00:48:50,800 --> 00:48:51,759
Speaker 1: your oi your business again?

1230
00:48:51,840 --> 00:48:52,799
Speaker 3: Happy now with that drop?

1231
00:48:52,880 --> 00:48:53,080
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1232
00:48:53,080 --> 00:48:55,080
Speaker 4: But you know what, I feel like this gives me

1233
00:48:55,600 --> 00:48:58,759
Speaker 4: a different outlet for my art and creativity and like

1234
00:48:59,360 --> 00:49:02,040
Speaker 4: the healing and the things that I go through and

1235
00:49:02,080 --> 00:49:04,320
Speaker 4: to like create a whole different world.

1236
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:06,719
Speaker 1: So in this music, are we going to hear like

1237
00:49:06,800 --> 00:49:08,680
Speaker 1: some of the stuff we talked about today that you've

1238
00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:10,000
Speaker 1: just been through and.

1239
00:49:12,480 --> 00:49:15,480
Speaker 4: It yeah, like just different parts of me. But also

1240
00:49:15,600 --> 00:49:18,960
Speaker 4: like I'm big on like impact, Like how can I

1241
00:49:19,040 --> 00:49:21,719
Speaker 4: positively impact other people or do for other people? And

1242
00:49:21,760 --> 00:49:24,160
Speaker 4: that's always been my thing, like ever since a little girl.

1243
00:49:24,200 --> 00:49:27,160
Speaker 4: I love like helping and doing so like I'm like,

1244
00:49:27,239 --> 00:49:30,680
Speaker 4: where else can you get someone's ears through music, you know,

1245
00:49:30,760 --> 00:49:32,719
Speaker 4: and it's healed me, and it's always healed me, like

1246
00:49:33,400 --> 00:49:36,480
Speaker 4: forever I listen to music. When I can't listen to music,

1247
00:49:36,480 --> 00:49:38,399
Speaker 4: I know something's wrong with me. That's like my thing.

1248
00:49:38,440 --> 00:49:39,520
Speaker 4: Like I'm like, if I don't want to hear.

1249
00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:40,680
Speaker 2: Music, something's wrong.

1250
00:49:40,760 --> 00:49:41,640
Speaker 3: I'm in a dark place.

1251
00:49:41,760 --> 00:49:45,160
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, yeah, Like that's literally how I know something's

1252
00:49:45,200 --> 00:49:45,680
Speaker 4: off with me.

1253
00:49:45,800 --> 00:49:47,960
Speaker 2: Like, if I don't want to hear music, I'm off.

1254
00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:53,440
Speaker 3: Oh I get that. That's what it's time of therapy.

1255
00:49:53,480 --> 00:49:55,359
Speaker 2: I can't listen to music. I need to talk to you.

1256
00:49:55,400 --> 00:49:57,120
Speaker 1: So now that like you're on this side and you

1257
00:49:57,200 --> 00:49:59,080
Speaker 1: have a way to kind of express some of that.

1258
00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:01,920
Speaker 3: What have you learned about love.

1259
00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:03,000
Speaker 2: A lot of things?

1260
00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:05,759
Speaker 4: But love is just unpredictable because you never know what

1261
00:50:06,520 --> 00:50:07,920
Speaker 4: you'll be dealing.

1262
00:50:07,640 --> 00:50:10,480
Speaker 2: With, whether that be good, bad, ugly, like and I

1263
00:50:10,520 --> 00:50:11,120
Speaker 2: think that too.

1264
00:50:11,200 --> 00:50:13,279
Speaker 4: That's when it comes to like people saying they get

1265
00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:16,160
Speaker 4: married for the better or the worst and all this stuff,

1266
00:50:16,200 --> 00:50:18,480
Speaker 4: Like it's like you don't know what you're gonna deal

1267
00:50:18,480 --> 00:50:22,080
Speaker 4: with because you don't know what that person's dealing with currently,

1268
00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:23,279
Speaker 4: even if they haven't.

1269
00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:25,640
Speaker 2: Told you, you know, Like there's just so much with love.

1270
00:50:26,200 --> 00:50:30,560
Speaker 4: It's unpredictable, but like you love, I still think love

1271
00:50:30,640 --> 00:50:31,200
Speaker 4: is beautiful.

1272
00:50:31,400 --> 00:50:33,879
Speaker 1: You're still willing to be to dive all the way

1273
00:50:33,920 --> 00:50:37,520
Speaker 1: in one of the times, right, Yeah, But I'm just

1274
00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:40,320
Speaker 1: saying like sometimes when things are wrong, people get guarded

1275
00:50:40,360 --> 00:50:40,799
Speaker 1: a little bit.

1276
00:50:40,920 --> 00:50:43,720
Speaker 3: You's guard yourself, protecting yourself.

1277
00:50:43,960 --> 00:50:48,920
Speaker 4: I'm definitely like not sure, but not to say I'm

1278
00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:52,480
Speaker 4: like closed off, but I'm really like chilling right now

1279
00:50:53,160 --> 00:50:55,320
Speaker 4: for you. You're about to be in these streets this summer,

1280
00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:01,359
Speaker 4: a nice summer summer coming out, Okay.

1281
00:51:01,480 --> 00:51:03,839
Speaker 1: I or old questions, how happy are you right now?

1282
00:51:03,880 --> 00:51:06,040
Speaker 1: On a scale of one to ten in real life?

1283
00:51:06,560 --> 00:51:07,320
Speaker 2: I'm perusing.

1284
00:51:07,400 --> 00:51:09,800
Speaker 4: I would say like I'm giving myself like an eight

1285
00:51:10,040 --> 00:51:11,319
Speaker 4: nine because I feel at.

1286
00:51:11,239 --> 00:51:14,360
Speaker 3: Peace in real life. What do you pray for most?

1287
00:51:14,680 --> 00:51:16,000
Speaker 2: My family, my son?

1288
00:51:18,800 --> 00:51:21,239
Speaker 4: Yeah, like I say my family and my son and

1289
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:24,520
Speaker 4: my family meaning my friends too, because they're the friends

1290
00:51:24,520 --> 00:51:25,360
Speaker 4: that become family.

1291
00:51:25,480 --> 00:51:28,040
Speaker 3: What are you most proud of about yourself in real life?

1292
00:51:29,040 --> 00:51:32,319
Speaker 4: I would say, like my resilience, like being able to

1293
00:51:33,320 --> 00:51:35,960
Speaker 4: you know, bounce back from anything that life is giving me.

1294
00:51:36,000 --> 00:51:38,239
Speaker 4: Because I feel like I have been through so much

1295
00:51:39,280 --> 00:51:43,120
Speaker 4: publicly privately that people could never even like understand the

1296
00:51:43,120 --> 00:51:46,160
Speaker 4: magnitude of what I've been through and just being able

1297
00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:49,799
Speaker 4: to like pull myself out and to be able to like.

1298
00:51:50,320 --> 00:51:51,319
Speaker 3: Be be here.

1299
00:51:51,520 --> 00:51:53,839
Speaker 4: Yeah, because there are things that I swear I could

1300
00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:55,520
Speaker 4: have just sat down and said I'm cool, I won't

1301
00:51:55,560 --> 00:51:56,920
Speaker 4: do none ever getting like you know, I mean, like

1302
00:51:56,920 --> 00:51:59,600
Speaker 4: and just close up the shot or feel like it's

1303
00:51:59,600 --> 00:52:02,760
Speaker 4: too much showing me. You know, like everyone has those days,

1304
00:52:02,800 --> 00:52:05,040
Speaker 4: and it's like when I've had those days. I've had

1305
00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:08,319
Speaker 4: those that day and then I'm like, Okay, that's it,

1306
00:52:08,560 --> 00:52:10,280
Speaker 4: you know what i mean, Like not being the victim.

1307
00:52:10,440 --> 00:52:14,800
Speaker 2: You can't. So just that's good getting up and saying

1308
00:52:15,560 --> 00:52:17,319
Speaker 2: I'm not going it's not what I'm gonna do. I'm

1309
00:52:17,320 --> 00:52:18,839
Speaker 2: not gonna do this to myself. I'm not gonna die.

1310
00:52:18,840 --> 00:52:19,040
Speaker 5: I hear.

1311
00:52:19,080 --> 00:52:20,359
Speaker 2: I gotta get I gotta keep going.

1312
00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:24,800
Speaker 3: Oh that's good, and that's inspiring.

1313
00:52:25,040 --> 00:52:25,360
Speaker 2: Thank you.

1314
00:52:25,480 --> 00:52:28,160
Speaker 3: Somebody was down like needs to hear that. Yeah, because

1315
00:52:28,160 --> 00:52:30,200
Speaker 3: sometimes you're down and you can't even see up.

1316
00:52:30,360 --> 00:52:31,080
Speaker 2: You can't see nothing.

1317
00:52:31,239 --> 00:52:32,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, you stuck.

1318
00:52:32,640 --> 00:52:34,799
Speaker 1: You gotta be reminded like up is there? You just

1319
00:52:34,800 --> 00:52:35,840
Speaker 1: got to pick yourself up.

1320
00:52:35,920 --> 00:52:36,120
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1321
00:52:36,160 --> 00:52:37,759
Speaker 4: Well, the because that you know, there's always the word

1322
00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:39,920
Speaker 4: depression is lack of expression. So it's like what are

1323
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:42,399
Speaker 4: you not expressing? What are you not putting out there?

1324
00:52:42,560 --> 00:52:45,080
Speaker 4: You know, like you're not doing something. You know, if

1325
00:52:45,160 --> 00:52:47,439
Speaker 4: you're in a bad space, maybe you're creatively not where

1326
00:52:47,440 --> 00:52:48,799
Speaker 4: you need to be, or you're not around the right

1327
00:52:48,840 --> 00:52:51,520
Speaker 4: people or like the people that talk life into you,

1328
00:52:51,600 --> 00:52:52,960
Speaker 4: breathe life to you. Like you got to be around

1329
00:52:53,000 --> 00:52:57,280
Speaker 4: the right folks too, That's super important, knowing the crowd

1330
00:52:57,320 --> 00:52:58,640
Speaker 4: to be around for sure.

1331
00:53:05,120 --> 00:53:07,000
Speaker 1: How often do you think about legacy, Like your family

1332
00:53:07,000 --> 00:53:09,080
Speaker 1: has such a big legacy, but like what about your own?

1333
00:53:09,239 --> 00:53:10,880
Speaker 3: Like what do you think yours will be?

1334
00:53:12,160 --> 00:53:12,440
Speaker 1: I have?

1335
00:53:13,080 --> 00:53:17,399
Speaker 4: I feel like I know I have a lot of

1336
00:53:17,520 --> 00:53:21,759
Speaker 4: like businesses, so an entrepreneurship, like for sure being an entrepreneur,

1337
00:53:22,200 --> 00:53:24,600
Speaker 4: but philanthropy is a big thing to me, is like

1338
00:53:24,680 --> 00:53:28,520
Speaker 4: doing for other people. So like the two married together,

1339
00:53:29,040 --> 00:53:32,640
Speaker 4: I feel like that's what I'll be known for. I

1340
00:53:32,680 --> 00:53:35,640
Speaker 4: feel like when you come from such a big background,

1341
00:53:35,680 --> 00:53:38,960
Speaker 4: you can't even like like it's inspiring and it's great,

1342
00:53:39,040 --> 00:53:41,600
Speaker 4: but like I don't ever think like okay, I can

1343
00:53:41,680 --> 00:53:44,400
Speaker 4: be right there, like where I come from, I just

1344
00:53:44,480 --> 00:53:46,799
Speaker 4: kind of just am you know what I mean?

1345
00:53:46,840 --> 00:53:47,640
Speaker 2: Like whoever I am.

1346
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:48,840
Speaker 3: You don't put the pressure on yourself.

1347
00:53:48,880 --> 00:53:50,880
Speaker 4: No, I don't even want that pressure because I like

1348
00:53:51,600 --> 00:53:54,480
Speaker 4: my dad, my uncle and everyone that I come from.

1349
00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:56,960
Speaker 4: I love what they've done and they inspire me. But

1350
00:53:57,120 --> 00:53:59,799
Speaker 4: like I feel like I'm meet you know, more than

1351
00:54:00,160 --> 00:54:02,520
Speaker 4: just that, like I come from it. But it's like

1352
00:54:02,600 --> 00:54:03,200
Speaker 4: who I am.

1353
00:54:03,480 --> 00:54:04,879
Speaker 3: Do you ever get fearful of?

1354
00:54:04,960 --> 00:54:07,480
Speaker 1: Like you know, famous, like in a weird place in

1355
00:54:07,520 --> 00:54:09,399
Speaker 1: the world where I feel like.

1356
00:54:11,080 --> 00:54:13,399
Speaker 3: People are getting chopped up.

1357
00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:18,960
Speaker 1: Every what's happening, and I just wonder if there's fear

1358
00:54:19,000 --> 00:54:22,759
Speaker 1: and like just the machine of what's out there and

1359
00:54:22,760 --> 00:54:25,480
Speaker 1: how it's kind of like you know what I'm saying

1360
00:54:25,520 --> 00:54:26,080
Speaker 1: to you, I.

1361
00:54:26,040 --> 00:54:29,319
Speaker 4: Just don't believe that fear and faith live in the

1362
00:54:29,320 --> 00:54:33,440
Speaker 4: same place. So if I ever have had any fears,

1363
00:54:33,480 --> 00:54:36,799
Speaker 4: I always put faith before fear. And so I'm not

1364
00:54:36,960 --> 00:54:40,479
Speaker 4: fearful of anything, you know. I just I stay in

1365
00:54:40,520 --> 00:54:44,000
Speaker 4: my world and I function in my world, and I

1366
00:54:44,040 --> 00:54:47,359
Speaker 4: don't try to put insert myself in anything else other

1367
00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:50,319
Speaker 4: than that, you know what I mean? Yeah, Because you know,

1368
00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:52,880
Speaker 4: I stay prayed up. I believe in God Christ like

1369
00:54:53,000 --> 00:54:56,359
Speaker 4: I'm like in my own world and spiritual, and I

1370
00:54:56,400 --> 00:54:57,640
Speaker 4: love that part for.

1371
00:54:57,719 --> 00:55:00,560
Speaker 2: Me, so I don't look for the fear.

1372
00:55:00,920 --> 00:55:03,360
Speaker 4: You know, they say you are tract what you you know,

1373
00:55:03,560 --> 00:55:06,879
Speaker 4: constantly think about. So if I'm thinking fearfully, then that's

1374
00:55:06,920 --> 00:55:08,719
Speaker 4: what's gonna come to me. So I always stay in

1375
00:55:08,760 --> 00:55:11,640
Speaker 4: my faithfull rare full bubble?

1376
00:55:11,840 --> 00:55:13,440
Speaker 3: Is that from your father? Your parents? What do you

1377
00:55:13,440 --> 00:55:13,839
Speaker 3: get that?

1378
00:55:14,360 --> 00:55:17,280
Speaker 4: It's a combination, I would say, like growing up in church,

1379
00:55:17,400 --> 00:55:20,920
Speaker 4: being around spiritual beings, being around people who are like

1380
00:55:21,000 --> 00:55:26,080
Speaker 4: minded that also, you know that get it. But definitely

1381
00:55:26,160 --> 00:55:30,400
Speaker 4: just my upbringing, like my parents, like everything that I

1382
00:55:30,440 --> 00:55:33,319
Speaker 4: like have been around has definitely helped shape me. And

1383
00:55:33,360 --> 00:55:35,919
Speaker 4: then I've learned a lot along the way, like as

1384
00:55:35,920 --> 00:55:38,320
Speaker 4: I'm going through these different traumatic things that I've been through,

1385
00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:40,799
Speaker 4: learning where to lean into and you.

1386
00:55:40,760 --> 00:55:43,160
Speaker 3: Know what's gonna help me is that faith ever waiver.

1387
00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:45,960
Speaker 4: Of course, you have your days where you're like God,

1388
00:55:46,480 --> 00:55:48,160
Speaker 4: you driven you know what I mean? Like I have

1389
00:55:48,320 --> 00:55:52,040
Speaker 4: had my talk from like God, like this this too

1390
00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:53,759
Speaker 4: much now, Like I don't know what you want me

1391
00:55:53,800 --> 00:55:56,520
Speaker 4: to do, Like I've lost right now, Like what do

1392
00:55:56,560 --> 00:55:58,960
Speaker 4: you want me to do? So You're like, my faith

1393
00:55:59,000 --> 00:56:01,520
Speaker 4: don't feel as strong as it needs to. But I

1394
00:56:01,640 --> 00:56:03,960
Speaker 4: know the faith. You know the size of a mustard seed,

1395
00:56:04,000 --> 00:56:05,759
Speaker 4: you can get you anywhere. So it's like going back

1396
00:56:05,760 --> 00:56:07,440
Speaker 4: to that and saying, look, if you just have this

1397
00:56:07,640 --> 00:56:09,759
Speaker 4: much faith, you'd be all right, you know. So it's

1398
00:56:09,840 --> 00:56:13,680
Speaker 4: going back and like just staying there and knowing like

1399
00:56:13,719 --> 00:56:19,840
Speaker 4: you're good, Like regardless, that's good to have. How important

1400
00:56:19,920 --> 00:56:23,799
Speaker 4: is money to you? I think money makes things more comfortable.

1401
00:56:28,120 --> 00:56:32,000
Speaker 4: I don't place it over everything. I feel like you

1402
00:56:32,080 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 4: need you can have all the money in the world,

1403
00:56:34,040 --> 00:56:36,000
Speaker 4: but if you're not peaceful, it means nothing, you know.

1404
00:56:36,040 --> 00:56:40,800
Speaker 2: I believe that money make helps everything.

1405
00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:44,279
Speaker 4: But you need the right foundation to have money on,

1406
00:56:44,760 --> 00:56:46,960
Speaker 4: because you can have money and be miserable. I've seen

1407
00:56:47,000 --> 00:56:51,399
Speaker 4: people can have tons of money sad, okay, so what's

1408
00:56:51,440 --> 00:56:54,680
Speaker 4: money with that? Or tons of money sick? What's money

1409
00:56:54,680 --> 00:56:56,680
Speaker 4: with that? You know, Like you gotta have the right

1410
00:56:56,680 --> 00:56:57,799
Speaker 4: foundation to even have.

1411
00:56:57,760 --> 00:56:58,719
Speaker 3: It on it to enjoy it.

1412
00:56:58,840 --> 00:57:01,279
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like if I could be peaceful, happy, and you

1413
00:57:01,320 --> 00:57:02,520
Speaker 2: get your money, you good.

1414
00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:06,040
Speaker 4: You mean, you're healthy. You need all of these so

1415
00:57:06,120 --> 00:57:07,799
Speaker 4: it's like you have to be able to enjoy them.

1416
00:57:07,840 --> 00:57:09,600
Speaker 3: But some people are motivated by money to the point

1417
00:57:09,600 --> 00:57:10,399
Speaker 3: that they run there.

1418
00:57:10,600 --> 00:57:14,719
Speaker 1: They operate their life in the pursuit of what they

1419
00:57:15,160 --> 00:57:16,920
Speaker 1: the success to them. I guess it's money, you know

1420
00:57:16,960 --> 00:57:19,560
Speaker 1: what I mean? So sometimes I think money makes people

1421
00:57:20,080 --> 00:57:22,400
Speaker 1: they drive, Yeah, it gives people drive.

1422
00:57:22,560 --> 00:57:25,440
Speaker 4: Then they realize, like when they get to their first mark, Okay,

1423
00:57:25,440 --> 00:57:27,360
Speaker 4: now I want the next mark. And it's just you

1424
00:57:27,480 --> 00:57:30,800
Speaker 4: never become never like satisfied where you're at. So it's

1425
00:57:30,800 --> 00:57:34,480
Speaker 4: so important to be like like grounded and rooted and

1426
00:57:34,520 --> 00:57:37,400
Speaker 4: like who you already are. And then the money's like good,

1427
00:57:37,480 --> 00:57:39,200
Speaker 4: like it's an addition. But you want to make sure

1428
00:57:39,200 --> 00:57:41,720
Speaker 4: that like that's not all you're chasing, because then you

1429
00:57:41,760 --> 00:57:42,480
Speaker 4: live your whole.

1430
00:57:42,280 --> 00:57:44,080
Speaker 2: Life like that. That's not a good life to live.

1431
00:57:44,160 --> 00:57:46,040
Speaker 4: Like if I tomorrow was my last thing, not going

1432
00:57:46,120 --> 00:57:47,880
Speaker 4: not But I'm just saying I wouldn't want that to

1433
00:57:47,880 --> 00:57:49,640
Speaker 4: be my only accomplishment. I would want to know that

1434
00:57:49,680 --> 00:57:51,720
Speaker 4: I've impacted the people around me. I would want to

1435
00:57:51,720 --> 00:57:54,360
Speaker 4: know that I left something for my son to understand.

1436
00:57:54,760 --> 00:57:56,720
Speaker 2: But I love. Of course, money is great.

1437
00:57:57,680 --> 00:58:00,560
Speaker 4: Sure, let's all make money. Let's I don't like live

1438
00:58:00,560 --> 00:58:04,080
Speaker 4: a successful life. Success is important. Abundance, Yeah, abundance, a

1439
00:58:04,120 --> 00:58:05,080
Speaker 4: life of abundance.

1440
00:58:05,440 --> 00:58:06,760
Speaker 3: Any regrets in life?

1441
00:58:07,320 --> 00:58:13,480
Speaker 2: Hmm? Do I regret anything? I can't think of one

1442
00:58:13,560 --> 00:58:13,959
Speaker 2: right now.

1443
00:58:14,080 --> 00:58:15,960
Speaker 4: I think anything I would have regretted would just be

1444
00:58:16,000 --> 00:58:17,800
Speaker 4: like if you don't tell someone something and you don't

1445
00:58:17,800 --> 00:58:20,640
Speaker 4: get the chance to tell them again, like just not

1446
00:58:20,720 --> 00:58:24,400
Speaker 4: being able to like like learning how to say what

1447
00:58:24,440 --> 00:58:26,880
Speaker 4: you mean to someone and stick into.

1448
00:58:26,760 --> 00:58:27,400
Speaker 3: It, you know what I mean?

1449
00:58:27,680 --> 00:58:30,440
Speaker 1: Like I like that. That's a good one. Okay, I

1450
00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:35,439
Speaker 1: think this is the last one. If that young if

1451
00:58:35,520 --> 00:58:38,440
Speaker 1: young Angela from the show The Family.

1452
00:58:40,400 --> 00:58:41,560
Speaker 2: Seventeen year old Angela.

1453
00:58:41,880 --> 00:58:48,800
Speaker 1: If seventeen year old Angela could see you now, yeah,

1454
00:58:48,840 --> 00:58:49,400
Speaker 1: how do you think?

1455
00:58:49,560 --> 00:58:51,000
Speaker 3: What do you think she would feel or what would

1456
00:58:51,040 --> 00:58:51,560
Speaker 3: you say to her?

1457
00:58:51,880 --> 00:58:53,720
Speaker 4: She would not have known she was gonna have no

1458
00:58:53,800 --> 00:58:56,680
Speaker 4: baby right now. She wouldn't have known nothing, Like I

1459
00:58:56,720 --> 00:58:59,280
Speaker 4: don't think at seventeen I would have seen my life

1460
00:58:59,280 --> 00:59:01,040
Speaker 4: where I'm married now, I know, like some of the

1461
00:59:01,080 --> 00:59:04,320
Speaker 4: goals I've hit success wise, yes, like that was inevitable,

1462
00:59:04,360 --> 00:59:06,479
Speaker 4: but like just all the twists and turns and things

1463
00:59:06,480 --> 00:59:09,200
Speaker 4: I've been through. No, and you couldn't have told me

1464
00:59:09,720 --> 00:59:12,440
Speaker 4: none of the stuff like from people I've dated, things

1465
00:59:12,520 --> 00:59:14,600
Speaker 4: I've done, Like, no, I wouldn't.

1466
00:59:14,640 --> 00:59:16,000
Speaker 2: It would have been like no, absolutely not.

1467
00:59:16,080 --> 00:59:17,840
Speaker 4: There are things at seventeen you look at your friend

1468
00:59:17,840 --> 00:59:20,560
Speaker 4: and you say never, and then you look up and you're.

1469
00:59:20,400 --> 00:59:22,320
Speaker 2: Like, I know you lying, Like how did I get here?

1470
00:59:22,720 --> 00:59:23,280
Speaker 6: Yeah?

1471
00:59:23,320 --> 00:59:27,960
Speaker 2: So yeah, what would I tell her? From where? From seventh?

1472
00:59:28,000 --> 00:59:29,600
Speaker 2: From from this point to seventeen?

1473
00:59:29,640 --> 00:59:32,680
Speaker 1: Seventeen year old who's on the reality show with the

1474
00:59:32,680 --> 00:59:34,160
Speaker 1: family girl.

1475
00:59:34,240 --> 00:59:35,840
Speaker 4: You don't know what you're about to put up with,

1476
00:59:35,960 --> 00:59:38,320
Speaker 4: what you're about to go through. You think you know,

1477
00:59:38,400 --> 00:59:42,240
Speaker 4: you have no idea for real, Like, because I wouldn't

1478
00:59:42,240 --> 00:59:45,720
Speaker 4: have you just never, I always I've learned to never

1479
00:59:45,760 --> 00:59:46,160
Speaker 4: say never.

1480
00:59:46,200 --> 00:59:48,480
Speaker 2: Turned that's very real. Yeah, never say never because you

1481
00:59:48,520 --> 00:59:48,920
Speaker 2: just don't know.

1482
00:59:49,000 --> 00:59:50,640
Speaker 3: You don't know, and what's left for you to do?

1483
00:59:50,720 --> 00:59:52,240
Speaker 1: Like what are your big things that you want to

1484
00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:53,720
Speaker 1: accomplish while you're still here on earth?

1485
00:59:54,800 --> 00:59:59,080
Speaker 4: Definitely sell my company Angela's Cakes for a billion dollars

1486
00:59:59,120 --> 01:00:02,200
Speaker 4: because it's gonna happen. I am working on a lot

1487
01:00:02,440 --> 01:00:05,840
Speaker 4: ard you, I'm working on a lot of different doors

1488
01:00:05,880 --> 01:00:06,240
Speaker 4: with that.

1489
01:00:07,320 --> 01:00:09,280
Speaker 2: I'm very excited about that. There's a lot of energy

1490
01:00:09,280 --> 01:00:09,560
Speaker 2: behind that.

1491
01:00:09,680 --> 01:00:13,040
Speaker 4: Right now, working in more in my wellness space, which

1492
01:00:13,040 --> 01:00:14,880
Speaker 4: is Anglia and wellness. So just doing more in the

1493
01:00:14,960 --> 01:00:18,520
Speaker 4: wellness space and informing people and helping people live beautiful lives.

1494
01:00:18,680 --> 01:00:21,840
Speaker 4: Like I just believe in being happy and at peace

1495
01:00:21,880 --> 01:00:25,720
Speaker 4: and doing what you love, so opening up more, giving

1496
01:00:25,720 --> 01:00:30,200
Speaker 4: people a little more than what I have been. I

1497
01:00:30,280 --> 01:00:32,160
Speaker 4: know this today is a big this is I know

1498
01:00:32,200 --> 01:00:34,040
Speaker 4: I'm kind of like, did I just take off my clothes?

1499
01:00:34,040 --> 01:00:34,360
Speaker 2: I give you?

1500
01:00:34,920 --> 01:00:37,040
Speaker 3: I know, sometimes after the interviews.

1501
01:00:38,560 --> 01:00:41,760
Speaker 1: Don't have like what is that called like a vulnerability remorse?

1502
01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:44,480
Speaker 3: After there's always like a moment of like I gave

1503
01:00:44,520 --> 01:00:44,840
Speaker 3: a lot.

1504
01:00:44,960 --> 01:00:47,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't speak this much. I think purposely though,

1505
01:00:48,320 --> 01:00:48,680
Speaker 2: I mean.

1506
01:00:48,720 --> 01:00:50,600
Speaker 3: Because why you're protecting yourself.

1507
01:00:50,320 --> 01:00:53,960
Speaker 4: Or your because I feel like I have given so much,

1508
01:00:54,680 --> 01:00:57,680
Speaker 4: like from so young that it's like how much do

1509
01:00:57,760 --> 01:00:58,560
Speaker 4: you get to keep?

1510
01:00:58,760 --> 01:00:59,920
Speaker 2: And then how much do I give you?

1511
01:01:00,480 --> 01:01:00,720
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1512
01:01:00,960 --> 01:01:03,120
Speaker 3: You know, but then are you vulnerable with your like friends?

1513
01:01:03,120 --> 01:01:05,880
Speaker 4: And you're like they know me, they know all parts

1514
01:01:05,880 --> 01:01:08,320
Speaker 4: of me, crazy meat, all types of me, all of it.

1515
01:01:09,200 --> 01:01:11,200
Speaker 3: For sure. You have good friends and good circle of friends.

1516
01:01:11,320 --> 01:01:13,720
Speaker 4: This girl is my good friend, this lady, this woman,

1517
01:01:14,400 --> 01:01:16,880
Speaker 4: hey friend, she's a good friend.

1518
01:01:17,160 --> 01:01:17,840
Speaker 2: Am I crazy?

1519
01:01:17,920 --> 01:01:19,560
Speaker 3: She came in, she told you pict your little hair,

1520
01:01:19,600 --> 01:01:21,840
Speaker 3: she gave you a little note. She's she's on it, she's.

1521
01:01:21,760 --> 01:01:28,040
Speaker 2: She's not playing. But yeah, I have great friends.

1522
01:01:28,080 --> 01:01:29,840
Speaker 4: I feel like I have a really good like tribe

1523
01:01:29,840 --> 01:01:33,160
Speaker 4: and lagious people around me. I feel like you always

1524
01:01:33,160 --> 01:01:35,440
Speaker 4: need people to keep it real with you and like

1525
01:01:35,560 --> 01:01:37,080
Speaker 4: tell you when you're tripping, and like.

1526
01:01:37,840 --> 01:01:39,880
Speaker 1: Till you be tripping because everything you told me feels

1527
01:01:39,880 --> 01:01:41,080
Speaker 1: like you got it all together.

1528
01:01:41,200 --> 01:01:43,080
Speaker 3: You look, you feel you got your.

1529
01:01:43,080 --> 01:01:47,360
Speaker 1: Ask, you get therapy, you get heartbroken, you pick yourself

1530
01:01:47,360 --> 01:01:49,120
Speaker 1: back up off the floor, and you can call.

1531
01:01:49,000 --> 01:01:51,440
Speaker 2: Them first the trip.

1532
01:01:51,840 --> 01:01:55,280
Speaker 4: That's the part you're leaving off, the hour or two

1533
01:01:55,320 --> 01:01:58,720
Speaker 4: hour conversation and you're like, all right, that was it.

1534
01:01:58,760 --> 01:02:00,320
Speaker 2: I just need to Vinci, I'm out. Let me go

1535
01:02:00,320 --> 01:02:01,000
Speaker 2: back to being regular.

1536
01:02:01,040 --> 01:02:05,200
Speaker 4: It's no, this don't don't even this conversation never happens.

1537
01:02:05,360 --> 01:02:07,640
Speaker 1: Who is that part of you? Like who is the

1538
01:02:07,760 --> 01:02:09,760
Speaker 1: tripping ass? Like what what is that?

1539
01:02:10,160 --> 01:02:12,000
Speaker 3: Or she just comes out a little bit a little bit,

1540
01:02:12,120 --> 01:02:16,200
Speaker 3: Oh is there? For sure? I think everybody emotional.

1541
01:02:16,920 --> 01:02:18,800
Speaker 4: I can be, but I also can be very like

1542
01:02:19,640 --> 01:02:22,600
Speaker 4: not emotional, Like it's it. That's the scare bar of me.

1543
01:02:22,600 --> 01:02:24,280
Speaker 4: It's either one or the other. Either I'm in or

1544
01:02:24,320 --> 01:02:25,560
Speaker 4: I'm out. The middle part.

1545
01:02:27,520 --> 01:02:29,320
Speaker 3: It's not the best like gray.

1546
01:02:29,320 --> 01:02:31,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, black and white, like give it to me straight.

1547
01:02:31,920 --> 01:02:33,919
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's good. That's a good way to live.

1548
01:02:34,080 --> 01:02:37,040
Speaker 4: What time I try to do, I A'm perfect, but yeah,

1549
01:02:37,240 --> 01:02:39,000
Speaker 4: for the most part, I'm gonna give you black and white.

1550
01:02:39,000 --> 01:02:40,480
Speaker 2: The no mean girls stuff. I don't know how to

1551
01:02:40,520 --> 01:02:42,920
Speaker 2: lean to it, but so what girls?

1552
01:02:43,000 --> 01:02:46,240
Speaker 4: So I started a movement called no Mean Girls because, like,

1553
01:02:46,400 --> 01:02:51,720
Speaker 4: everybody bothers me about my dancing, right but before so

1554
01:02:51,880 --> 01:02:54,600
Speaker 4: before this came up, even before dancing, I feel like

1555
01:02:55,240 --> 01:02:57,920
Speaker 4: the world people can be clickie, even in like schools

1556
01:02:57,960 --> 01:02:59,920
Speaker 4: and all this other stuff, and we deal with like kids.

1557
01:02:59,760 --> 01:03:03,400
Speaker 4: It's like it's like it's insane, right, So I decided

1558
01:03:03,520 --> 01:03:05,680
Speaker 4: I wanted to start something to call no Mean Girls Allowed,

1559
01:03:05,800 --> 01:03:08,280
Speaker 4: because I don't like mean girls, Like I'm a girl's girl.

1560
01:03:08,280 --> 01:03:10,440
Speaker 4: I like women like I don't get in. I'm not

1561
01:03:10,480 --> 01:03:12,360
Speaker 4: gonna be making funny. I don't do it, but people

1562
01:03:12,440 --> 01:03:14,680
Speaker 4: like to bother me. You want my dance, So that's

1563
01:03:14,680 --> 01:03:16,560
Speaker 4: what I'm gonna go dance, and I want to teach

1564
01:03:16,560 --> 01:03:17,920
Speaker 4: people to be confident in who.

1565
01:03:17,800 --> 01:03:20,479
Speaker 3: They are no matter what. So they bother you about

1566
01:03:20,480 --> 01:03:21,600
Speaker 3: your dancing, yes, they.

1567
01:03:21,560 --> 01:03:24,160
Speaker 2: Bother me by if I put up a dance video right.

1568
01:03:24,080 --> 01:03:29,200
Speaker 4: Now, sit down stiff self. I'm like, bro, I'm chilling.

1569
01:03:29,280 --> 01:03:30,240
Speaker 4: I'm enjoying myself.

1570
01:03:30,240 --> 01:03:33,960
Speaker 2: This was fun. You see the video of a teacher Campbell?

1571
01:03:34,960 --> 01:03:37,600
Speaker 1: Oh my god, yes, teacher. I saw a video recently

1572
01:03:37,600 --> 01:03:40,600
Speaker 1: a teacher Campbell. She was dancing to It was like

1573
01:03:40,640 --> 01:03:42,080
Speaker 1: a house record music.

1574
01:03:42,200 --> 01:03:43,640
Speaker 3: We should put it right here so people could know.

1575
01:03:44,080 --> 01:03:47,680
Speaker 1: But she was just she didn't know nobody was taping her.

1576
01:03:47,760 --> 01:03:50,640
Speaker 1: She just was having a dance moment. It was really cute,

1577
01:03:51,560 --> 01:03:54,360
Speaker 1: and we should all thrive to be that free and

1578
01:03:54,400 --> 01:03:58,000
Speaker 1: have those moments. So when you go and you dancing

1579
01:03:58,320 --> 01:04:00,880
Speaker 1: and then you're having fun, and then you posted and

1580
01:04:00,960 --> 01:04:03,000
Speaker 1: somebody says, so there's.

1581
01:04:02,880 --> 01:04:05,720
Speaker 4: Like me dancing out and about, Like, that's different, right,

1582
01:04:05,760 --> 01:04:07,840
Speaker 4: that's like with my friends. And then there's just like

1583
01:04:07,880 --> 01:04:09,800
Speaker 4: me dancing. You know, maybe a little trend like they

1584
01:04:09,920 --> 01:04:11,640
Speaker 4: want to do that. I'm the little I don't know

1585
01:04:11,640 --> 01:04:13,720
Speaker 4: how to do I believe I'm about to do it.

1586
01:04:13,720 --> 01:04:14,960
Speaker 2: I'm figure it out when I'm out here.

1587
01:04:15,080 --> 01:04:16,200
Speaker 4: I don't know how to fully do it, but I'm

1588
01:04:16,200 --> 01:04:18,440
Speaker 4: gonna do it because it's fun to me, like movement

1589
01:04:18,600 --> 01:04:21,240
Speaker 4: and like. But I don't believe in girls being mean.

1590
01:04:21,360 --> 01:04:24,000
Speaker 4: I think that's so old, outdated. Like people need to

1591
01:04:24,000 --> 01:04:26,360
Speaker 4: be supportive of each other, love on each other, like

1592
01:04:26,400 --> 01:04:28,560
Speaker 4: we're at a time where people need it, and I

1593
01:04:28,680 --> 01:04:32,080
Speaker 4: just I don't like seeing people being left out, Like

1594
01:04:32,240 --> 01:04:33,040
Speaker 4: I don't like that.

1595
01:04:33,480 --> 01:04:34,840
Speaker 3: Social media is brutal too.

1596
01:04:34,960 --> 01:04:35,600
Speaker 2: They're evil.

1597
01:04:35,720 --> 01:04:42,080
Speaker 4: But I can't do nothing right anywhere on social media.

1598
01:04:38,520 --> 01:04:44,520
Speaker 1: I can't do this something tight, And I feel like

1599
01:04:44,600 --> 01:04:47,160
Speaker 1: you took it down even it was the camel too.

1600
01:04:47,240 --> 01:04:49,960
Speaker 2: They I didn't think nothing of it.

1601
01:04:50,040 --> 01:04:51,640
Speaker 4: I didn't even really like to me, I looked at

1602
01:04:51,680 --> 01:04:54,360
Speaker 4: a bunch of the photos even with it, I didn't

1603
01:04:54,360 --> 01:04:55,200
Speaker 4: think nothing of it.

1604
01:04:55,520 --> 01:04:57,560
Speaker 2: People posted all the time. I wasn't trying to get

1605
01:04:57,560 --> 01:04:59,800
Speaker 2: no attention from that. I genuinely didn't think.

1606
01:05:00,120 --> 01:05:00,720
Speaker 3: The first trap.

1607
01:05:00,800 --> 01:05:03,160
Speaker 2: I'm like, why would I post that thinking that? But

1608
01:05:03,200 --> 01:05:03,880
Speaker 2: I took it down.

1609
01:05:03,920 --> 01:05:05,480
Speaker 4: But at the same time, like I'm not scared to

1610
01:05:05,520 --> 01:05:07,760
Speaker 4: say nothing, like I'll talk about it, yeah, because I

1611
01:05:07,800 --> 01:05:09,360
Speaker 4: don't care like that, you know what I mean?

1612
01:05:09,400 --> 01:05:12,480
Speaker 2: Like and anything I do, I feel like it's just

1613
01:05:12,560 --> 01:05:14,120
Speaker 2: under like a different type of microscope.

1614
01:05:14,240 --> 01:05:16,000
Speaker 3: It's not just you. I think the world we're.

1615
01:05:15,880 --> 01:05:19,840
Speaker 1: At they messed with me, Angie, like for real, like

1616
01:05:20,480 --> 01:05:22,720
Speaker 1: you've got some armor on you though that it doesn't

1617
01:05:22,800 --> 01:05:25,200
Speaker 1: change because some people would just not do another dance.

1618
01:05:25,040 --> 01:05:28,080
Speaker 4: Video I'm doing twenty five forty fifty, one hundred whatever.

1619
01:05:28,560 --> 01:05:29,360
Speaker 2: I'm doing what I wanted.

1620
01:05:29,480 --> 01:05:32,480
Speaker 1: You're gonna do dance videos with a camel talk, right,

1621
01:05:32,480 --> 01:05:34,640
Speaker 1: I'm gonna put them blue pants back going into it

1622
01:05:34,720 --> 01:05:37,320
Speaker 1: because I don't care like my in the circle would

1623
01:05:37,360 --> 01:05:38,440
Speaker 1: we straight my family straight?

1624
01:05:38,560 --> 01:05:40,600
Speaker 2: It don't matter what y'all think. You can knock me

1625
01:05:40,640 --> 01:05:42,120
Speaker 2: off my horse like it is what it is?

1626
01:05:42,240 --> 01:05:43,560
Speaker 3: So wait this movement is it?

1627
01:05:43,640 --> 01:05:43,720
Speaker 2: Like?

1628
01:05:43,880 --> 01:05:47,800
Speaker 4: Uh so it's I literally I sat with the trainer Genesis,

1629
01:05:47,840 --> 01:05:49,760
Speaker 4: and I'm like, let's do this together because I've been

1630
01:05:49,840 --> 01:05:52,000
Speaker 4: dancing with him and doing like having fun on the side,

1631
01:05:52,000 --> 01:05:54,200
Speaker 4: and I was like, we should do something together because

1632
01:05:54,240 --> 01:05:56,280
Speaker 4: I feel like women and girls like we.

1633
01:05:56,280 --> 01:06:01,640
Speaker 3: Need that girls allowed. Yeah, so that's crew. No mean girl,

1634
01:06:01,680 --> 01:06:03,560
Speaker 3: you don't have no mean girl juice in you at all.

1635
01:06:04,400 --> 01:06:07,000
Speaker 2: I'm not mean, but I mean.

1636
01:06:07,040 --> 01:06:10,560
Speaker 4: I think opinionated sometimes can be read as mean. So

1637
01:06:10,640 --> 01:06:15,400
Speaker 4: maybe having a strong opinion, but I'm not meanody you.

1638
01:06:15,440 --> 01:06:17,920
Speaker 2: Want to my feelings. I'm sensitive. I know people don't

1639
01:06:17,920 --> 01:06:21,880
Speaker 2: know that. I'm very sensitive. I can besie. I think

1640
01:06:23,360 --> 01:06:24,080
Speaker 2: I've been told.

1641
01:06:24,120 --> 01:06:26,840
Speaker 4: I'm like, what is that in the middle thing with

1642
01:06:26,920 --> 01:06:28,760
Speaker 4: the chocolate in the middle and smashine the side.

1643
01:06:28,760 --> 01:06:29,040
Speaker 3: I'm like, I.

1644
01:06:30,920 --> 01:06:39,720
Speaker 6: Guess, so stuff in there the same way I could

1645
01:06:39,760 --> 01:06:42,440
Speaker 6: see that, like it's that New York though, like we

1646
01:06:42,600 --> 01:06:43,440
Speaker 6: gotta be like that.

1647
01:06:44,040 --> 01:06:45,200
Speaker 2: It's like we come from that.

1648
01:06:45,240 --> 01:06:49,560
Speaker 4: You're like, she's like an I could see she was

1649
01:06:49,600 --> 01:06:52,200
Speaker 4: like my friends have called me several different things like that.

1650
01:06:52,240 --> 01:06:54,680
Speaker 4: They're like, you like this hard showing and when she

1651
01:06:54,720 --> 01:06:56,240
Speaker 4: getting inside is get out of here.

1652
01:06:56,880 --> 01:06:58,880
Speaker 3: Most hard girls are, Yeah, I.

1653
01:06:58,800 --> 01:07:00,439
Speaker 2: Mean the right ones get through first.

1654
01:07:00,520 --> 01:07:01,560
Speaker 3: The heart goes from New York.

1655
01:07:01,760 --> 01:07:09,880
Speaker 2: We're like, yo, shoot, shut up, yo, kipping that for sure.

1656
01:07:11,760 --> 01:07:14,000
Speaker 1: You know what's so crazy about today is like you

1657
01:07:14,080 --> 01:07:15,480
Speaker 1: came in, there were tissues there.

1658
01:07:15,400 --> 01:07:17,600
Speaker 3: And I know we were gonna. I had had a

1659
01:07:17,760 --> 01:07:19,320
Speaker 3: sense that you had had a break up.

1660
01:07:20,720 --> 01:07:22,600
Speaker 1: I know you've been to some grief in the past,

1661
01:07:22,640 --> 01:07:24,640
Speaker 1: so I thought maybe that some of that stuff would

1662
01:07:24,840 --> 01:07:26,400
Speaker 1: maybe bring up some emotions from you.

1663
01:07:26,720 --> 01:07:29,560
Speaker 3: Well, what brought up the emotions was your dad.

1664
01:07:29,400 --> 01:07:32,560
Speaker 4: Because he's the best, and I think it's hard for

1665
01:07:32,600 --> 01:07:34,880
Speaker 4: anyone to like even like I don't know, Like that

1666
01:07:34,960 --> 01:07:37,520
Speaker 4: moment to me in my life was like that was

1667
01:07:37,560 --> 01:07:41,120
Speaker 4: a very like I didn't I didn't expect him to

1668
01:07:41,120 --> 01:07:42,880
Speaker 4: say that, and he's like a vitas and I will

1669
01:07:43,400 --> 01:07:45,000
Speaker 4: like that was just so sweet, Like.

1670
01:07:46,640 --> 01:07:48,280
Speaker 3: And what makes a good dad?

1671
01:07:48,920 --> 01:07:50,600
Speaker 2: They just like my dad.

1672
01:07:50,840 --> 01:07:53,400
Speaker 4: I don't know if there's one like mine, but a

1673
01:07:53,440 --> 01:07:55,880
Speaker 4: good dad is like just like all ears, Like my

1674
01:07:56,000 --> 01:07:57,840
Speaker 4: dad is never like he's just always there for me.

1675
01:07:58,200 --> 01:08:00,400
Speaker 4: I think, being there over and over and over again,

1676
01:08:00,520 --> 01:08:04,000
Speaker 4: like no matter what the situation is, and like letting

1677
01:08:04,040 --> 01:08:05,840
Speaker 4: me know he's there, you know what I mean, Like

1678
01:08:05,920 --> 01:08:09,560
Speaker 4: it's been through anything everything. When I have my son,

1679
01:08:09,600 --> 01:08:11,320
Speaker 4: my dad was one of the first people out there,

1680
01:08:12,200 --> 01:08:14,600
Speaker 4: like he's not playing. He was calling me non stop,

1681
01:08:14,800 --> 01:08:17,519
Speaker 4: like your water, bro, why are you driving? I'm like

1682
01:08:17,600 --> 01:08:20,559
Speaker 4: in Jersey driving my range to go get food. He's like, please,

1683
01:08:20,600 --> 01:08:22,759
Speaker 4: you're making me Like he kept calling like I'm fine,

1684
01:08:23,720 --> 01:08:26,439
Speaker 4: but like, you know, that's just like a dope relationship.

1685
01:08:26,439 --> 01:08:29,080
Speaker 4: But I just think I don't not explain it. It's

1686
01:08:29,120 --> 01:08:30,000
Speaker 4: just like they just.

1687
01:08:29,960 --> 01:08:35,080
Speaker 2: Do it, like it's he impacted me forever. Yeah, he's dope.

1688
01:08:35,479 --> 01:08:36,680
Speaker 3: How lucky are you?

1689
01:08:36,880 --> 01:08:41,160
Speaker 4: Very very blessed, very blessed. I always say that I

1690
01:08:41,200 --> 01:08:43,960
Speaker 4: always feel like God just got my back, so I

1691
01:08:44,000 --> 01:08:44,559
Speaker 4: feel blessed.

1692
01:08:44,560 --> 01:08:46,280
Speaker 3: How much is that the root of who you are?

1693
01:08:46,920 --> 01:08:49,960
Speaker 2: It is the rule it's important. It's at the top,

1694
01:08:50,160 --> 01:08:50,760
Speaker 2: you know what I mean.

1695
01:08:50,840 --> 01:08:53,160
Speaker 4: Like, I feel like my relationship with God being strong

1696
01:08:53,320 --> 01:08:57,120
Speaker 4: is super important, you know. And I think everyone's looks

1697
01:08:57,160 --> 01:08:59,519
Speaker 4: different for them, you know. I think some people think

1698
01:08:59,520 --> 01:09:01,920
Speaker 4: it's praying fifteen times a day. Some people say, maybe,

1699
01:09:01,920 --> 01:09:05,080
Speaker 4: you know what, everyone's just different. But I'm just rooted

1700
01:09:05,120 --> 01:09:06,960
Speaker 4: in that knowing that, like, Okay, God, you got my.

1701
01:09:06,960 --> 01:09:07,840
Speaker 2: Back, You're gonna leave me.

1702
01:09:08,320 --> 01:09:09,200
Speaker 3: Where are we going today?

1703
01:09:09,360 --> 01:09:09,920
Speaker 2: What we're doing?

1704
01:09:10,920 --> 01:09:12,240
Speaker 3: You know, it's a good way to live.

1705
01:09:12,640 --> 01:09:14,920
Speaker 2: I live on it. Yeah, yeah, for sure.

1706
01:09:15,040 --> 01:09:16,720
Speaker 3: Well you're amazing, baby. I can't wait to hear the

1707
01:09:16,920 --> 01:09:18,560
Speaker 3: music or projects.

1708
01:09:18,560 --> 01:09:21,080
Speaker 1: You gonna sell a company for a billion dollars?

1709
01:09:21,360 --> 01:09:24,439
Speaker 3: Not yet, but she's out some hot girls summer this summer.

1710
01:09:25,000 --> 01:09:28,160
Speaker 1: Then there's gonna be that's gonna be a new man.

1711
01:09:28,240 --> 01:09:32,200
Speaker 1: And maybe oh whoa, whoa a husband at some point

1712
01:09:32,040 --> 01:09:33,920
Speaker 1: a point, at some point, I like a husband.

1713
01:09:34,040 --> 01:09:36,240
Speaker 3: You like a husband? Yeah, all right, Well I can't

1714
01:09:36,280 --> 01:09:37,599
Speaker 3: wait husbands.

1715
01:09:37,600 --> 01:09:39,160
Speaker 1: All right, once you find them, come back so we

1716
01:09:39,200 --> 01:09:40,679
Speaker 1: can discuss your love journey.

1717
01:09:40,760 --> 01:09:41,479
Speaker 2: Okay, pray on it.

1718
01:09:42,520 --> 01:09:44,599
Speaker 3: I think once the music comes out, we're gonna we're

1719
01:09:44,600 --> 01:09:45,240
Speaker 3: gonna know more.

1720
01:09:45,360 --> 01:09:49,040
Speaker 1: Yes, but are you singing thing, doing poetry like singing.

1721
01:09:49,080 --> 01:09:52,559
Speaker 4: I'm kind of like, yeah, oh kind of, I'm not

1722
01:09:52,640 --> 01:09:53,839
Speaker 4: I'm not singing personally.

1723
01:09:54,320 --> 01:09:57,240
Speaker 1: So you're going through stuff, writing your stuff that you're

1724
01:09:57,280 --> 01:09:58,880
Speaker 1: going through, and you have figured out a way to

1725
01:09:58,880 --> 01:10:00,280
Speaker 1: put it to music.

1726
01:10:00,600 --> 01:10:02,920
Speaker 4: A heel through music, you know, And I've always have

1727
01:10:03,200 --> 01:10:07,719
Speaker 4: And so I just one day if New York City

1728
01:10:07,760 --> 01:10:12,000
Speaker 4: went into the studio and just started, I was with Q.

1729
01:10:12,400 --> 01:10:14,880
Speaker 2: You know que here statis Q. So I was with him.

1730
01:10:15,040 --> 01:10:18,599
Speaker 4: Yes, yeah, we went in together and he was going

1731
01:10:18,640 --> 01:10:21,800
Speaker 4: through some stuff himself, like person on his life, and

1732
01:10:21,840 --> 01:10:24,719
Speaker 4: we just like almost he leant together going through different

1733
01:10:24,760 --> 01:10:27,679
Speaker 4: stuff like and I just it just was a move

1734
01:10:27,760 --> 01:10:29,360
Speaker 4: like when I lift met him, like I don't even know,

1735
01:10:29,439 --> 01:10:30,920
Speaker 4: like I just I don't know.

1736
01:10:31,240 --> 01:10:34,120
Speaker 2: I can't let you hear better than I can tell you, Okay,

1737
01:10:34,120 --> 01:10:35,120
Speaker 2: better than I can explain it.

1738
01:10:35,160 --> 01:10:36,000
Speaker 3: I'm interested.

1739
01:10:36,280 --> 01:10:37,240
Speaker 2: I'm excited for you to hear it.

1740
01:10:37,240 --> 01:10:38,760
Speaker 3: I would never even think that I'm going through some

1741
01:10:38,880 --> 01:10:39,879
Speaker 3: let me go to the studio.

1742
01:10:40,800 --> 01:10:42,800
Speaker 4: I've always kind of thought about that, I think. But

1743
01:10:43,160 --> 01:10:46,000
Speaker 4: I feel like, if anything, I shied away from doing

1744
01:10:46,080 --> 01:10:49,639
Speaker 4: music even as like a younger like me, because coming

1745
01:10:49,680 --> 01:10:52,320
Speaker 4: from it, the expectation of what you need to come with.

1746
01:10:52,880 --> 01:10:55,200
Speaker 4: Oh your dad is this or like either they'll make

1747
01:10:55,240 --> 01:10:58,760
Speaker 4: you a laughing stock or they're gonna be super hard

1748
01:10:58,800 --> 01:11:00,519
Speaker 4: on you. You don't just get the fair shout out the

1749
01:11:00,520 --> 01:11:04,639
Speaker 4: gate like the regular artist you are like the pre judgment.

1750
01:11:04,680 --> 01:11:07,160
Speaker 4: It's the same thing in my relationship and work. Everything

1751
01:11:07,200 --> 01:11:10,040
Speaker 4: that I come with comes with a pre judgment. Oh

1752
01:11:10,080 --> 01:11:11,840
Speaker 4: you're doing this, well they should be done like this

1753
01:11:11,880 --> 01:11:13,920
Speaker 4: because you come from this or are you doing this?

1754
01:11:14,040 --> 01:11:15,800
Speaker 2: You must have money or backers.

1755
01:11:15,400 --> 01:11:17,280
Speaker 4: Byd it like you don't know what I'm doing, Like

1756
01:11:17,640 --> 01:11:20,200
Speaker 4: I'm like, I'm a I'm a hustler, Like I'm out here,

1757
01:11:21,200 --> 01:11:23,400
Speaker 4: get going, like I don't play, like I'll.

1758
01:11:23,160 --> 01:11:25,160
Speaker 2: Work twenty four to seven. My phone don't turn off

1759
01:11:25,200 --> 01:11:25,639
Speaker 2: like I don't.

1760
01:11:25,840 --> 01:11:27,280
Speaker 3: I like it.

1761
01:11:27,280 --> 01:11:29,360
Speaker 2: It's like a thrill for me. But like people wouldn't

1762
01:11:29,360 --> 01:11:29,519
Speaker 2: know that.

1763
01:11:29,600 --> 01:11:31,960
Speaker 4: They would think, oh, silver spoon in mouth, this is

1764
01:11:32,000 --> 01:11:33,640
Speaker 4: how this is done. Like y'all, I don't even know

1765
01:11:33,680 --> 01:11:34,599
Speaker 4: the half what I've been through.

1766
01:11:34,640 --> 01:11:35,360
Speaker 3: You're a hustler.

1767
01:11:35,720 --> 01:11:37,280
Speaker 2: What you ready wan to hear my song?

1768
01:11:37,720 --> 01:11:38,000
Speaker 3: Yes?

1769
01:11:38,280 --> 01:11:38,679
Speaker 2: All right?

1770
01:11:39,800 --> 01:11:41,120
Speaker 3: Can we like play a little.

1771
01:11:42,880 --> 01:11:56,640
Speaker 7: Shew? A girl named restaurant.

1772
01:12:00,080 --> 01:12:05,560
Speaker 5: S Big makes it in pote make up, it is

1773
01:12:05,640 --> 01:12:10,600
Speaker 5: struggly working that so have.

1774
01:12:10,640 --> 01:12:13,960
Speaker 4: Do you ever found yourself trying to find which way

1775
01:12:14,000 --> 01:12:14,200
Speaker 4: to go?

1776
01:12:15,040 --> 01:12:22,120
Speaker 2: Dude, I go left? Maybe it's right. Have you even

1777
01:12:22,240 --> 01:12:27,640
Speaker 2: ran from the truth? Being ran from your truth? You

1778
01:12:27,760 --> 01:12:30,320
Speaker 2: an it's nothing to come about them.

1779
01:12:36,400 --> 01:12:37,280
Speaker 3: Did you like this too?

1780
01:12:37,680 --> 01:12:44,960
Speaker 2: She wrote that part I kept okay, fighting is go Sana,

1781
01:12:45,680 --> 01:12:46,560
Speaker 2: but I related to it.

1782
01:12:47,760 --> 01:12:48,880
Speaker 3: I love that you're not afraid.

1783
01:12:49,720 --> 01:12:53,080
Speaker 2: There's not many things that scared me. Yeah. I mean,

1784
01:12:53,160 --> 01:12:54,400
Speaker 2: I let when I love something.

1785
01:12:54,479 --> 01:12:56,920
Speaker 4: I'm creative, so to me, like my art is all

1786
01:12:57,000 --> 01:12:59,599
Speaker 4: in creativity, I'm like my brain is always going.

1787
01:13:00,520 --> 01:13:03,040
Speaker 1: Fear stops so many people from doing so many things,

1788
01:13:04,080 --> 01:13:06,200
Speaker 1: like we all have things that we of course it would.

1789
01:13:06,240 --> 01:13:09,200
Speaker 1: You're worried, especially now this generation, because you're gonna serve

1790
01:13:09,280 --> 01:13:11,479
Speaker 1: this up and everybody's gonna have a comment, good, bad,

1791
01:13:11,600 --> 01:13:14,280
Speaker 1: ugly whatever. We're not gonna be so much of that,

1792
01:13:15,280 --> 01:13:18,799
Speaker 1: and that stops a lot of people from trying new things,

1793
01:13:19,680 --> 01:13:21,320
Speaker 1: doing stuff outside their boxes.

1794
01:13:21,680 --> 01:13:22,200
Speaker 3: It's fear.

1795
01:13:22,600 --> 01:13:25,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't like to fear. It's not good. Faith

1796
01:13:25,320 --> 01:13:27,439
Speaker 2: and fear don't live together. You got to have faith

1797
01:13:27,479 --> 01:13:27,880
Speaker 2: in yourself.

1798
01:13:27,920 --> 01:13:31,679
Speaker 3: I'm on a badass. Angela Simmons in real life