WEBVTT - Reasonable Doubt 

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<v Speaker 1>Before we begin, please be aware this episode contains discussions

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<v Speaker 1>around infant deaths and other difficult topics. Please take care

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<v Speaker 1>while listening. Certainty has a reputation for being the finish line,

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<v Speaker 1>whether that's in a criminal trial or a scientific study.

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<v Speaker 1>You gather evidence, you form a hypothesis, you test it,

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<v Speaker 1>you doubt it, you stress it from every angle, and

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<v Speaker 1>only then if it survives, do you arrive at certainty.

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<v Speaker 1>There's an old scientific principle that says extraordinary claims require

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<v Speaker 1>extraordinary evidence. That's supposed to be the order of things.

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<v Speaker 1>The more explosive the accusation, the more incontrovertible the proof.

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<v Speaker 1>But in emotionally explosive cases, especially those involving children, something shifts.

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<v Speaker 1>Certainty can stop behaving like the end result of careful

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<v Speaker 1>analysis and start behaving more like a social ritual. Here's

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<v Speaker 1>what I mean. When something horrifying happens, Ambiguity feels intolerable,

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<v Speaker 1>It feels unsafe, so we reach for narrative closure. The

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<v Speaker 1>media reaches for a coherent villain, politicians reach for reassurance,

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<v Speaker 1>institutions reach for control, and slowly, certainty begins to function

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<v Speaker 1>less like a reasoned position and more like a place

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<v Speaker 1>of belonging. The narrative about me as a psychopathic, sex

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<v Speaker 1>crazed fem fatal hardened in the tabloids long before appeals

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<v Speaker 1>courts dismantled key forensic assumptions. The certainty was loud, the

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<v Speaker 1>evidence was not. Now that doesn't mean every high profile

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<v Speaker 1>conviction is wrong. What it does mean is that sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>the volume of certainty exceeds the foundation of evidence beneath it,

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<v Speaker 1>and when that happens, doubt becomes socially dangerous. People who

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<v Speaker 1>ask procedural questions are treated as sympathizers. Journalists who probe

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<v Speaker 1>inconsistencies are framed as insensitive. Experts who disagree are accused

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<v Speaker 1>of undermining victims. The signal shifts from here is why

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<v Speaker 1>we believe this to everyone decent believes this, and once

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<v Speaker 1>belief becomes a moral litmus test, the space for inquiry shrinks.

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<v Speaker 1>From a psychological standpoint, this is deeply human. Accusations of

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<v Speaker 1>harming chilln trigger one of the strongest protective circuits we have.

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<v Speaker 1>Disgust narrows our thinking. It sharpens categories innocent or evil.

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<v Speaker 1>That reflex is adaptive in evolutionary terms. It's messier in

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<v Speaker 1>legal ones. Courts are built around structured doubt, reasonable doubt.

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<v Speaker 1>There must always be room for doubt, especially in light

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<v Speaker 1>of new evidence. Far too often our legal systems fall

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<v Speaker 1>short of this ideal, and in the court of public opinion,

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<v Speaker 1>that ideal is hard to imagine. Socially, doubt often looks

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<v Speaker 1>like betrayal, and certainty of someone else's moral corruption becomes

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<v Speaker 1>a badge of honor. So what happens when that certainty

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<v Speaker 1>lands on you? I'm Amanda Knox and from Vespucci and

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<v Speaker 1>iHeart Podcasts. This is doubt the case of Lucy let

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<v Speaker 1>Be Episode ten, Reasonable Doubt.

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<v Speaker 2>When the headlines were read about myself, you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>was a villain, you know, from the get go. I

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<v Speaker 2>mean it was the lowest of the low that you

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<v Speaker 2>could be, the way that I was portrayed. Yeah, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>just difficult to talk about when it comes to that,

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<v Speaker 2>and I just hate that I'm associated with that.

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<v Speaker 1>This is Anna Vasquez of the San Antonio four. She

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<v Speaker 1>spent nearly fourteen years in prison after being wrongly convicted

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<v Speaker 1>of molesting children in her care. The prosecution built the

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<v Speaker 1>case on recovered memory testimony that was later discredited. It

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<v Speaker 1>took nearly eighteen years for Anna and her three co

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<v Speaker 1>defendants to be exonerated. They were all gay women. The

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<v Speaker 1>courts ultimately determined that the crimes they were accused of

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<v Speaker 1>never even happened.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, when I saw images of Lucy in the media,

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<v Speaker 3>I definitely saw myself with fear at the isolation and

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<v Speaker 3>this disassociated sense of self.

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<v Speaker 1>That's Heidi Goodwin. In twenty fourteen, Heidi walked out of

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<v Speaker 1>prison after nearly a decade behind bars. She had been

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<v Speaker 1>convicted of harming a child in her care under a

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<v Speaker 1>shaken baby syndrome diagnosis, a theory later challenged in court. Ultimately,

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<v Speaker 1>the court determined that again, there was no crime at all.

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<v Speaker 3>You're being accused, especially of something that as a woman,

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<v Speaker 3>we are designed to nurture, whether that's our own or

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<v Speaker 3>someone else's.

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<v Speaker 1>Heidi and Anna are friends of mine, both wrongly convicted

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<v Speaker 1>of crimes against children, both members and advocates for the

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<v Speaker 1>Innocence Network, and both survivors of the machinery of public certainty.

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<v Speaker 1>For Anna, her prosecution took place in nineteen ninety four.

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<v Speaker 1>Her case was one of the last gasps of the

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<v Speaker 1>Satanic panic that gripped the US in the eighties and

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<v Speaker 1>nineties a period of intense cultural anxiety about alleged ritual abuse.

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<v Speaker 1>It was also a time when anti gay prejudice was

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<v Speaker 1>still openly mainstream. In that environment, identity became part of

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<v Speaker 1>the story and assumption traveled faster than proof.

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<v Speaker 2>To be villainized for the person that I am, and

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<v Speaker 2>for them to come up with this narrative of you know,

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<v Speaker 2>praying on children and you know, having this orgy with

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<v Speaker 2>myself and my three other friends against these four innocent

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<v Speaker 2>little girls, it's one that's just that's really just detrimental

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<v Speaker 2>to me. And unfortunately, because of what was happening in society,

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<v Speaker 2>the climate, and the way they view the LGBTQ back then,

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<v Speaker 2>all of a sudden, this other panic is in called

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<v Speaker 2>the Satanic panic. And when you have an extrat witness

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<v Speaker 2>coming on and putting that in their notes, Amanda, the

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<v Speaker 2>law enforcement gets I feel like they got roued up.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, this Satanic panic was real. I mean, these

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<v Speaker 2>people were using this in court cases, in several court cases,

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<v Speaker 2>and I had no idea that this was actually happening,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, at the very young age of nineteen, completely

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<v Speaker 2>naive too. The way the system can be twisted in turn,

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<v Speaker 2>and not be for you anymore. But now they're against

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<v Speaker 2>you and they're firing at all rounds. Yeah, but it

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<v Speaker 2>didn't matter. There were so many inconsistencies in the trials,

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<v Speaker 2>but there was no getting away from that expert witness

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<v Speaker 2>coming in and saying there was signs of sexual trauma.

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<v Speaker 2>Now we know years later, of course, it's you know,

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<v Speaker 2>been twenty four, twenty six years now that oh we

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<v Speaker 2>made a mistake, we testified wrong to that that wasn't

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<v Speaker 2>actual proof of signs of sexual assault. And you know,

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<v Speaker 2>now we're exonerated. But it took years and years and years.

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<v Speaker 2>But we had no fighting chance. I mean, and like

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<v Speaker 2>you said, yeah, children are vulnerable. We want to protect children.

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<v Speaker 2>It just sucked to be on the other side of it.

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<v Speaker 2>And now I'm this horrible person, this horrible monster. It's

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<v Speaker 2>just really mind blowing that an allegation like that could

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<v Speaker 2>lead to a conviction on absolutely no basis.

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<v Speaker 1>Heidie's prosecution relied on a different narrative, one rooted in

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<v Speaker 1>medical certainty rather than moral panic, but the effect was

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<v Speaker 1>the same.

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<v Speaker 3>I was, I believe, twenty two, twenty three years old,

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<v Speaker 3>and I was living outside of Portland, Oregon, and I

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<v Speaker 3>became a caregiver for two children over roughly a two

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<v Speaker 3>month period. One of them was fifteen months old. This

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<v Speaker 3>little girl lost consciousness in my care I had to

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<v Speaker 3>call nine one one, and then the wave of accusations, Oh,

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<v Speaker 3>it's shaken baby syndrome. Oh, it had to have happened

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<v Speaker 3>in this window, so therefore it had to happen at

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<v Speaker 3>your house, and you were the only adult there, and

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<v Speaker 3>only adult could be responsible for inflicting these types of injuries.

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<v Speaker 3>And that's basically what convicted me. They had to convince

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<v Speaker 3>the jury that I snapped, because how else could they

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<v Speaker 3>get them to believe that someone that looks like me,

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<v Speaker 3>speaks like me.

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<v Speaker 1>Has no history of violence, like you, has.

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<v Speaker 3>No history of violence whatsoever. Mother, you know, raising her children,

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<v Speaker 3>all of the things that we're supposed to be doing

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<v Speaker 3>and looking like and acting like. That was the only

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<v Speaker 3>way they could convince them was to say that I

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<v Speaker 3>must have snapped, and we now know that, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>none of that is actually true. Our experts were able

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<v Speaker 3>to determine that there were pre existing conditions and those

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<v Speaker 3>could possibly have led to the loss of consciousness. I

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<v Speaker 3>think for me, finally realizing that I don't have to

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<v Speaker 3>be the one to figure that out. That has been

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<v Speaker 3>a struggle, like I feel like I've had to answer.

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<v Speaker 3>I've had to be the one to answer for what

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<v Speaker 3>happened and figure out what happened and explain what happened

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<v Speaker 3>to defend myself when I am not a professional.

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<v Speaker 2>That would know those things.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, all I know is that I wasn't responsible

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<v Speaker 3>for harming anyone, and and so that was It's been

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<v Speaker 3>over twenty years of my life now.

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<v Speaker 1>In my case, things went off the rails early. The

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<v Speaker 1>story exploded internationally, and suddenly the police were operating under

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<v Speaker 1>enormous pressure to produce answers and to produce them fast.

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<v Speaker 1>I've had to ask myself how much that urgency influenced

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<v Speaker 1>their decisions. Do you think the fact that our cases

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<v Speaker 1>were all highly emotionally charged fed into how law enforcement

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<v Speaker 1>went about investigating the case and all of the shortcuts

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<v Speaker 1>and mishandling that took place.

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<v Speaker 3>I do, specifically, I think that there was pressure. I

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<v Speaker 3>think that the county that I was convicted in has

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<v Speaker 3>a lot of these types of cases actually litigated or tried,

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<v Speaker 3>and has a high rate of conviction. Now, whether they're

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<v Speaker 3>all innocence cases, you know, I can't make that claim,

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<v Speaker 3>but I know that it also has a high rate

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<v Speaker 3>of innocence cases that have been overturned with some of

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<v Speaker 3>the guys as well. So I think that there was

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<v Speaker 3>pressure on the Child Abuse Intervention Detective Unit to do

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<v Speaker 3>what it does. And there were terms used at the

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<v Speaker 3>time like she's being railroaded, they're making an example out

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<v Speaker 3>of her, things to that nature. So yeah, it was

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<v Speaker 3>crazy because the judge in the case, all said and done,

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<v Speaker 3>he stated at sencing, you know, I'm not sure we

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<v Speaker 3>got this right. Wow, don Or the verdict of the jury.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow, what about you? Anne?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean clearly the headlines were like taking advantage of

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<v Speaker 1>the case to sensationalize it. Do you think that that

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<v Speaker 1>impact of the investigation.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think it was something that somebody could, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>climb the ladder on because it was just the way

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<v Speaker 2>that it read, you know, it was just so horrific that, yes,

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<v Speaker 2>we have to get a conviction, and yes, this could

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<v Speaker 2>put me in you know, as judge. As a matter

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<v Speaker 2>of fact, in Liz's trial.

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<v Speaker 1>She's referring to one of her co defendants, Liz Ramirez.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that prosecutor did become judge. It was almost like

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<v Speaker 2>they were just solely focused on No, there was no investigation,

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<v Speaker 2>there wasn't anything, you know, it was just us.

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<v Speaker 1>So one of the things that really threw me through

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<v Speaker 1>an existential loop was when I was convicted, Like, the

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<v Speaker 1>jury comes down, you are a monster.

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<v Speaker 2>Definitively, this is the.

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<v Speaker 1>Rule of law. And like I felt like my entire

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<v Speaker 1>sense of self completely splintered apart because it was like

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<v Speaker 1>this idea of a person, this story of a person,

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<v Speaker 1>had now more reality around it than me. Right, Like

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<v Speaker 1>this idea of an evil, sex crazed, murder orgy person

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<v Speaker 1>was now the official truth, and everyone was now going

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<v Speaker 1>like all reality was now around this official truth, and

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<v Speaker 1>that you know, that idea of a person was sentenced

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<v Speaker 1>to this many years in prison, and that was now

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<v Speaker 1>the story that they were telling. My friend's family, her

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<v Speaker 1>surviving family is now like, Okay, we got the bad guy.

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<v Speaker 1>The bad guy's put away, but but it's me. It's

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<v Speaker 1>me that's being sent to prison, not the bad guy.

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<v Speaker 1>That's not the truth for me. Like I had this

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<v Speaker 1>really existential crisis moment because in that moment, I realized

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<v Speaker 1>the truth didn't matter. And as a part of that,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't matter and what do I do with that?

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<v Speaker 1>And that was like a really dark moment for me

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<v Speaker 1>as a twenty two year old kid. Do you guys

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<v Speaker 1>remember what that was like for you?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>It ruptured like my sense of identity and autonomy and

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<v Speaker 3>it you know, we have layers of childhood traumas things

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<v Speaker 3>that happen, you know, And it surfaced all those insecurities

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<v Speaker 3>and fears right that told me I'm not good. Something

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<v Speaker 3>must be bad enough about me that makes this thing happen.

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<v Speaker 3>I knew that I wasn't responsible for hurting a child

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<v Speaker 3>or anyone, but I'm bad because this is happening and

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<v Speaker 3>I have to go away and accept this somehow.

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<v Speaker 4>It was just like really defeated feeling.

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<v Speaker 3>I really was convinced that I was bad somehow and

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<v Speaker 3>that this was supposed to be happening.

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<v Speaker 2>To me totally.

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<v Speaker 1>And you know what's interesting, I don't know if you

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<v Speaker 1>guys know this. There are post it notes that Lucy

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<v Speaker 1>let Be wrote where she was like, I'm not good enough,

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<v Speaker 1>I am evil?

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<v Speaker 2>Wow, yeah what about you?

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<v Speaker 1>Anna?

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<v Speaker 2>It wasn't so much I'm thinking I'm a bad person.

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<v Speaker 2>But what it did make me do is start questioning

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<v Speaker 2>my faith. M Am I going through this because God

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<v Speaker 2>doesn't like it? You know? Am I going against my

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<v Speaker 2>faith and what I should be right living as a woman,

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<v Speaker 2>getting married, had and children.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, it's a crazy thing that's happening to us, right, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a crazy thing that is happening, and your brain

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<v Speaker 1>is trying to make sense of it. I like, how

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<v Speaker 1>do you make sense of it? It just does not

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<v Speaker 1>make any sense.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I was like clinging on to things like what

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<v Speaker 3>did I do in my past life? You know, totally Harma,

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<v Speaker 3>but ultimately, you know, feeling like I'm just this is

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<v Speaker 3>where I belong? How this is where I belong.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's funny that you say that, Heidi, because I

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<v Speaker 2>felt that same way after, you know, a certain time,

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<v Speaker 2>all the way in prison. I was like, you know what,

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<v Speaker 2>I need to stop asking why because I'll never know.

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<v Speaker 1>I wish I could tell you that. This episode features

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<v Speaker 1>an interview with Lucy herself. I've written to her in

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<v Speaker 1>prison and to her family, and spoken with her lawyer

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<v Speaker 1>on several occasions, and she and her team have decided

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<v Speaker 1>that now is not the time for her to speak

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<v Speaker 1>out publicly. No one else knows the stakes of that

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<v Speaker 1>decision better than them. It would be nice if verdicts

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<v Speaker 1>were only as strong as the evidence and interpretation reached

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<v Speaker 1>by a jury. Sadly, that's often not the case. I

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<v Speaker 1>know plenty of Innocence Project attorneys who have to turn

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<v Speaker 1>down strong cases for innocence because there's no viable procedural

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<v Speaker 1>route to freedom. I get messages all the time from

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<v Speaker 1>people stuck inside claiming innocence, some of whom have exhausted

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<v Speaker 1>all their appeals. There's little I can do to help

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<v Speaker 1>them because in the US or the UK, there is

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<v Speaker 1>no right to being free just because you're innocent. There's

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<v Speaker 1>only a right to a fair trial. As of today,

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<v Speaker 1>Lucy Letby's convictions still stand and she's been refused permission

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<v Speaker 1>to appeal through the Court of Appeal, but for her

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<v Speaker 1>current lawyer, Mark MacDonald, the case is far from over.

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<v Speaker 5>So there's two elements to this. The first element is

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<v Speaker 5>the most important element. You don't undo a conviction unless

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<v Speaker 5>you have the legal arguments and the expertise to be

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<v Speaker 5>able to do so, and so that's with all the

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<v Speaker 5>expert reports than an expert sort have come forward from

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<v Speaker 5>across the world. The second is to change the narrative

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<v Speaker 5>around her to use that media storm and ferrari that

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<v Speaker 5>was around her when she was convicted and to turn

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<v Speaker 5>the story. And the reason for that is because we

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<v Speaker 5>do have a system in this country post conviction system

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<v Speaker 5>which many argue is not fit for purpose, that innocent

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<v Speaker 5>people do remain in prison and that the system has

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<v Speaker 5>let them down.

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<v Speaker 1>According to Mark, Lucy's path back to the Court of

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<v Speaker 1>Appeals runs through the Criminal Cases Review Commission, the body

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<v Speaker 1>tasked with reviewing potential miscarriage of justice. He says that

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<v Speaker 1>in recent years the Commission has faced mounting criticism, particularly

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<v Speaker 1>after several wrongful convictions were overturned despite earlier decisions not

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<v Speaker 1>to refer those cases back to court.

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<v Speaker 5>And as a result, a number of people have had

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<v Speaker 5>to resign and there's a massive spotlight on them. So

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<v Speaker 5>there's that, and there's a criminal Court of Appeal, and

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<v Speaker 5>this is my view, that feels a reluctance to go

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<v Speaker 5>behind a jury's verdict. That they seem that there's a

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<v Speaker 5>finality to a jury system and as a result are

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<v Speaker 5>reluctant to really interfere with that, even when there can

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<v Speaker 5>be compelling evidence or conviction is unsafe and we as

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<v Speaker 5>defense balanced, as I've often given a hard time when

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<v Speaker 5>we get to the court of appeal by the judges

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<v Speaker 5>because we're seen as people that shouldn't be interfering with

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<v Speaker 5>the system almost And if you are somebody that has

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<v Speaker 5>a strong narrative of guilt around you, then you're finding

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<v Speaker 5>both those bodies really against you right from the beginning.

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<v Speaker 5>And so it's important to get an alternative narrative, and

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<v Speaker 5>they're not a false altenative plan, not a pretend narrative,

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<v Speaker 5>but simply tell the truth as to what's going on.

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<v Speaker 5>In exposing the issues.

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<v Speaker 1>For Mark, it's clear the media played a powerful role

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<v Speaker 1>in amplifying the story of Lucy Ledby's guilt. Now he's

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<v Speaker 1>using that same platform to scrutinize the case.

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<v Speaker 5>And so yes, there's been a campaign in the media

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<v Speaker 5>to which I have fronted and have driven it intentionally.

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<v Speaker 5>But as I say, if you don't have the legal

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<v Speaker 5>argument in the first place, doesn't matter about anything else

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<v Speaker 5>in relation to the media, You're just not going to

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<v Speaker 5>win that legal element. The expert element is the priority.

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<v Speaker 1>It's the pairing of expert testimony and media scrutiny that

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<v Speaker 1>he believes creates momentum. That's where doctor Shulee and the

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<v Speaker 1>international panel come in independent specialists whose findings challenged the

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<v Speaker 1>original medical narrative and who were willing to stand by

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<v Speaker 1>those conclusions publicly.

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<v Speaker 5>He contacted me and said, look, if we find that

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<v Speaker 5>actually she is guilty, they're not going to say it.

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<v Speaker 5>So Lucy had a decision does she go with that?

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<v Speaker 1>But as you heard in the last episode, in.

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<v Speaker 5>All opinion, the medical opinion, the medical evidence doesn't support

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<v Speaker 5>murder in any of these babies.

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<v Speaker 1>But challenging a conviction in public is always a risk,

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<v Speaker 1>even if you have the expert testimony to back it up.

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<v Speaker 1>Mark's arguments were met with sharp scrutiny, particularly around the

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<v Speaker 1>families of the children who died.

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<v Speaker 5>I often get an interview what about the families? And

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<v Speaker 5>the one thing I've said now is I have over

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<v Speaker 5>one thousand pages of expert evidence from twenty four separate

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<v Speaker 5>individual experts. I am happy to give them to the

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<v Speaker 5>families and they can say it. And I am happy

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<v Speaker 5>to provide the neonatologists to sit with them in the

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<v Speaker 5>room and explain the issues of where things have gone wrong,

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<v Speaker 5>number one. But number two, it's about getting to the truth.

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<v Speaker 5>What these parents want to know, What they desperately want

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<v Speaker 5>to know is what happened to their child. You see,

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<v Speaker 5>first of all, they started off with the fact that

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<v Speaker 5>their child has died, and they've had to go for

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<v Speaker 5>the grief of losing their child. And then years later

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<v Speaker 5>somebody has come to them and said, in fact, we

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<v Speaker 5>think your child was intentionally hurt and murdered. And then

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<v Speaker 5>they've had to sit through a trial and sometimes given

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<v Speaker 5>evidence in front of the jury in that trial, and

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<v Speaker 5>then she's been convicted of it. And then in a

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<v Speaker 5>lung comes mart McDonald and said, I think this conviction

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<v Speaker 5>might be unsafe, and I think she may be innocent.

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<v Speaker 1>Whatever happens next in Lucy Ledbe's case, one fact does

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<v Speaker 1>not change. Parents lost their children and families continue to

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<v Speaker 1>live with that loss. Legal challenges may move forward, appeals

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<v Speaker 1>may be argued, evidence may be re examined, but grief

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<v Speaker 1>does not depend on a verdict.

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<v Speaker 5>And they can be angry, and they have a right

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<v Speaker 5>to be angry, but they need you know, I would

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<v Speaker 5>say they have to be angry with the right people,

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<v Speaker 5>because if she is innocent, that what has happened, what

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<v Speaker 5>has gone so wrong both with the police, both the

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<v Speaker 5>prosecution and the health service that they've been so let

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<v Speaker 5>down because the one thing that Sheley has identified is

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<v Speaker 5>a systematic poor healthcare for medical staff towards their children.

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<v Speaker 1>This is one of the hardest parts of any wrongful

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<v Speaker 1>conviction case. The families of the victim grasp onto the

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<v Speaker 1>answer given to them as a source of closure, and

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<v Speaker 1>then when an innocence claim arises, it's like that closure

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<v Speaker 1>is being ripped away. In my own case, the Kircher

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<v Speaker 1>family has made it clear through their lawyer that they

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<v Speaker 1>still doubt my innocence. I understand why it's difficult for

0:25:22.240 --> 0:25:24.440
<v Speaker 1>them to let go of the answers offered to them,

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<v Speaker 1>however wrong they were, and they are not outliers in

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<v Speaker 1>any way. In most wrongful conviction cases I've studied, the

0:25:33.320 --> 0:25:36.760
<v Speaker 1>families of the victim hold firm to the narrative originally

0:25:36.800 --> 0:25:40.600
<v Speaker 1>offered to them by the prosecution. If Lucy let Be

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<v Speaker 1>is innocent, then that means that hospital administrators and Cheshire

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<v Speaker 1>police and the prosecutors and judges have denied them closure

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<v Speaker 1>and instead thrown them into years of having to publicly

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<v Speaker 1>relive their trauma of having answers given and taken a

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<v Speaker 1>way that is psychological torture. That no grieving parent deserves.

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<v Speaker 1>In recent months, the Crown Prosecution Service announced it would

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<v Speaker 1>not pursue several remaining charges against Lucy let Be. Prosecutors

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<v Speaker 1>said the evidence in those cases would not meet the

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<v Speaker 1>threshold required for conviction, the standard of proof beyond reasonable doubt.

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<v Speaker 1>Some of that evidence overlapped with material previously examined in court,

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<v Speaker 1>including in the case of Baby k Peter Elston, a

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<v Speaker 1>scientist and reporter, was one of the very first voices

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<v Speaker 1>to express concern about the case, even before the first

0:26:45.640 --> 0:26:49.679
<v Speaker 1>trial had finished. He was arguably instrumental in getting the

0:26:49.720 --> 0:26:54.199
<v Speaker 1>pro Lucy let Be movement started. For Peter, this newest

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<v Speaker 1>decision by the CPS signals to something very important.

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<v Speaker 6>November twenty twenty were brought by the Merseyside the Regional CPS, whereas.

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<v Speaker 4>This recent announcement was made by.

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<v Speaker 6>The Serious Crime and counter Terrorism Unit of the CPS,

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<v Speaker 6>which is a national.

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<v Speaker 4>Part of the CPS.

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<v Speaker 6>The original decision to bring charges should not have been

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<v Speaker 6>made by the Merseyside branch of the CPS or complex

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<v Speaker 6>serious cases charging decision has to be made by the

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<v Speaker 6>Serious Crime Division of the CPS.

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<v Speaker 4>So why it.

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<v Speaker 6>Was made by the regional CPS is a really important

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<v Speaker 6>question that needs answering because if the strength of the

0:27:53.119 --> 0:27:58.520
<v Speaker 6>evidence in relation to the recent charges the Cheshire Police

0:27:58.800 --> 0:28:02.359
<v Speaker 6>wanted the CPS to consider was the same as the

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<v Speaker 6>evidence in terms of drenthless the original charges, then it

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<v Speaker 6>puts into question why charges were brought in twenty twenty.

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<v Speaker 6>Not a lawyer, so I do need to be a

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<v Speaker 6>bit careful, but I think it's quite likely, given the

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<v Speaker 6>number of experts who found holes in the evidence, had

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<v Speaker 6>it been the Serious Crime Division EPs who were asked

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<v Speaker 6>bring charges against Lucy let me, they would have said no.

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<v Speaker 6>They would have looked at the evidence and they would

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<v Speaker 6>have said, sorry, that's just not good enough.

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<v Speaker 1>The decision to not pursue further charges does not overturn

0:28:45.600 --> 0:28:49.920
<v Speaker 1>any of Lucy Letby's convictions, but it has added another

0:28:50.040 --> 0:28:54.440
<v Speaker 1>layer to the public debate surrounding them. For Peter Elston,

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<v Speaker 1>the public discourse around the case is vital.

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<v Speaker 6>I feel desperately sorry wrongly convicted. People who are not

0:29:02.920 --> 0:29:06.200
<v Speaker 6>these cases don't, for whatever reason, generate the same interest,

0:29:06.280 --> 0:29:10.520
<v Speaker 6>But Lucy Letley's case Hans and the role that the

0:29:10.600 --> 0:29:16.040
<v Speaker 6>public has played in driving interest, driving public opinion, getting

0:29:16.120 --> 0:29:20.440
<v Speaker 6>journalists interested it's essential.

0:29:20.560 --> 0:29:25.600
<v Speaker 1>Because, according to Peter, both the CCRC and the Court

0:29:25.600 --> 0:29:29.040
<v Speaker 1>of Appeals do not exist in a vacuum.

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<v Speaker 7>They're both very political institutions who will look at the

0:29:34.160 --> 0:29:37.680
<v Speaker 7>way the wind is blowing, and if they see that

0:29:38.560 --> 0:29:43.360
<v Speaker 7>public opinion has shifted and is very much in Lucy's favor,

0:29:43.440 --> 0:29:48.000
<v Speaker 7>that they're far more likely the decides in her favor.

0:29:48.800 --> 0:29:52.160
<v Speaker 6>The reality is, this is the way things have to

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<v Speaker 6>happen if you've got a lot of public voice behind

0:29:55.800 --> 0:29:59.680
<v Speaker 6>the defendant, a wrongly convicted individual, and that I think

0:29:59.720 --> 0:30:03.000
<v Speaker 6>that make things a lot quicker. But it really is

0:30:03.040 --> 0:30:07.280
<v Speaker 6>absolutely essential or public opinion to play a role in

0:30:07.320 --> 0:30:08.040
<v Speaker 6>these cases.

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<v Speaker 1>Whether or not public pressure should influence legal institutions is

0:30:13.880 --> 0:30:17.560
<v Speaker 1>a matter of debate, but in Lucy Letbee's case, the

0:30:17.680 --> 0:30:22.880
<v Speaker 1>legal fight now unfolds alongside an increasingly vocal and heated

0:30:23.040 --> 0:30:24.200
<v Speaker 1>public conversation.

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<v Speaker 5>We've been told about court is guilty and we sort

0:30:27.720 --> 0:30:29.720
<v Speaker 5>of all knoll our heads and think over, well, you know,

0:30:29.840 --> 0:30:31.840
<v Speaker 5>she must be must be guilty of all of that.

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<v Speaker 8>Parents of the convicted baby killer Lucy Letbie have told

0:30:36.280 --> 0:30:40.160
<v Speaker 8>Good Morning Britain their daughter is innocent and the victim

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<v Speaker 8>of a horrendous miscarriage of justice.

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<v Speaker 5>Big day for Netflix today they have a Lucy Letbe

0:30:47.200 --> 0:30:53.040
<v Speaker 5>documentary and it features unseen footage from her arrest day.

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<v Speaker 9>Police went out to tender with documentary companies for this

0:30:59.200 --> 0:31:02.000
<v Speaker 9>footage and actually it's completely.

0:31:01.440 --> 0:31:04.600
<v Speaker 5>Backfired on them because it was a pr exercise on

0:31:04.640 --> 0:31:05.479
<v Speaker 5>behalf of Cheshire.

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<v Speaker 2>Please, the people on readit have been insane.

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<v Speaker 9>I've always thought she was guilty merely from the media coverage.

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<v Speaker 9>I guess something feels really off about this case. I'm

0:31:15.640 --> 0:31:18.040
<v Speaker 9>nowhere near as convinced as I used to be. I

0:31:18.160 --> 0:31:21.880
<v Speaker 9>now have reasonable doubt, to be perfectly honest. Hopefully we

0:31:21.960 --> 0:31:23.600
<v Speaker 9>get to the bottom of this once and for all.

0:31:23.960 --> 0:31:26.440
<v Speaker 10>If she's the monster we were told, then she's where

0:31:26.440 --> 0:31:27.120
<v Speaker 10>she needs to be.

0:31:27.880 --> 0:31:30.479
<v Speaker 4>If not, then that means we have monsters loose.

0:31:30.800 --> 0:31:34.440
<v Speaker 5>There was no monster, and she's the scapegoat for systematic feelings.

0:31:35.240 --> 0:31:36.760
<v Speaker 5>I don't buy into any of all this.

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<v Speaker 4>Lucy let Be was innocent, sick of it, rather bored

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<v Speaker 4>of it. I think she's as guilty as sin I suppose.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't care that much about the privacy of Lucy

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<v Speaker 4>let Be.

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<v Speaker 5>She killed babies.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't really care about her welfare.

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<v Speaker 5>The Crown Prosecution Service that she won't face any further charges.

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<v Speaker 10>Relution let Be was convicted back in twenty twenty three.

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<v Speaker 10>I was sure she was a baby killer. I now

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<v Speaker 10>believe that she's an innocent woman. Escapecoat was up subconsciously

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<v Speaker 10>looked for the British justice needs to right that wrong.

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<v Speaker 10>Justice may be blind in this country, but it's not infallible, and.

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<v Speaker 8>I do think the armchair detectives online don't help at

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<v Speaker 8>all of this kind of like, oh, well.

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<v Speaker 10>I think she's there or I think she's that.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like, no, we need to.

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<v Speaker 6>Look at facts.

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<v Speaker 4>Make no mistake. In the eyes of the law.

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<v Speaker 8>The facts are Lucy let me as a convicted murderer.

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<v Speaker 1>The noise surrounding the Lucy Ledbey case only continues to increase.

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<v Speaker 1>It's something that Anna Vaskez and Heidi Goodwin will never forget.

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<v Speaker 1>It shaped how they were seen and how their cases

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<v Speaker 1>were later reconsidered. I know that my relationship with public

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<v Speaker 1>scrutiny is a little complicated because I do think that

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<v Speaker 1>at a certain point the public scrutiny and the public

0:33:04.720 --> 0:33:09.640
<v Speaker 1>fascination with the case both hurt and ultimately helped me,

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<v Speaker 1>because it got a lot of people to automatically assume

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<v Speaker 1>that I was a horrible monster, But it also introduced

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<v Speaker 1>the case to people who otherwise would not have heard

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<v Speaker 1>about it, who are knowledgeable about these things, and who

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<v Speaker 1>came out and became advocates and started like turning the

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<v Speaker 1>like turning the tide and like introducing a new narrative.

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<v Speaker 2>And so I'm wondering, like, what is your.

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<v Speaker 1>Personal relationship with public scrutiny and how it helped or

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<v Speaker 1>hurt your path to you know, freedom and exoneration.

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<v Speaker 3>For me personally, it's not puzzle piece. Why do we

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<v Speaker 3>rely so much on what media is saying or science

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<v Speaker 3>that can be you know, absolute until it's not. How

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<v Speaker 3>can we do these things better and how can they

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<v Speaker 3>be reported by her?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Like we want to rely on experts, especially in

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<v Speaker 1>the world of the medical field. We want to rely

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<v Speaker 1>on media professionals to be giving us true information.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like the media helped to put me away

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<v Speaker 2>and it actually helped to exonerate me. And it's all

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<v Speaker 2>about the narrative, right.

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<v Speaker 1>Anna's case was covered in an award winning documentary called

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<v Speaker 1>South of Salem, The Story of the San Antonio Four.

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<v Speaker 1>Her face sits front and center on the poster.

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<v Speaker 2>I was fearful when they introduced the possibility of doing

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<v Speaker 2>a documentary about my case. It wasn't until you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I actually sat down with Debthlanazi, who is the director

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<v Speaker 2>of the documentary, that we had a conversation face to

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<v Speaker 2>face while I'm still in prison, that I felt like

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<v Speaker 2>comfortable with thinking that this this lady is going to

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<v Speaker 2>tell my story the truth of it. I didn't know,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, after seven and a half years of filming, Amanda,

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't know what to expect out of all them years.

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<v Speaker 2>What are you actually gonna put into this film.

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<v Speaker 1>And what narrative are you going to present?

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<v Speaker 2>Right, So it wasn't until I actually, you know, we

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<v Speaker 2>actually viewed it that I was like, wow, I made

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<v Speaker 2>the right choice, and yeah, I mean there's documentation in

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<v Speaker 2>our Court of Criminal Appeals ruling where it you know,

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<v Speaker 2>has selfless to Salem in there. So I think it

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<v Speaker 2>was very powerful. I think that you know, going out

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<v Speaker 2>in the public and having these speaking engagements and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>all these different things that it helped to really tell

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<v Speaker 2>my story the right way, the truth.

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<v Speaker 1>But of course, just because a conviction is overturned, that

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't mean that certain simply disappears, it shifts, the verdict

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<v Speaker 1>may change, but for many people the doubt doesn't. I

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<v Speaker 1>know that one thing that I get a lot, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm curious to know if this happens to you.

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<v Speaker 2>Guys.

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<v Speaker 1>What still happens to this day is if somebody hears

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<v Speaker 1>from another person that they know me or they've interacted

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<v Speaker 1>with me before, inevitably someone will ask them, oh, do

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<v Speaker 1>you think she did it? Like this happened twenty years ago,

0:36:33.760 --> 0:36:37.359
<v Speaker 1>and like still to this day people are like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>do you think she did it?

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<v Speaker 8>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>That's like this is when we talk about how you

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<v Speaker 1>have to prove your innocence every day for the rest

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<v Speaker 1>of your life.

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<v Speaker 3>I had, for the most part, tremendous support from everyone

0:36:50.000 --> 0:36:52.480
<v Speaker 3>that knew me. There were a couple of one offs

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<v Speaker 3>I found out later down the road that behind closed

0:36:55.520 --> 0:36:59.040
<v Speaker 3>doors would say do you think you know? But I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>I guess that's to be expected. I've now experienced people

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<v Speaker 3>questioning my integrity and my involvement in the case they

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<v Speaker 3>believe that they can use it to their benefit. I'll

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<v Speaker 3>just be honest. I've not spoken about this publicly, but

0:37:13.040 --> 0:37:16.799
<v Speaker 3>my ex husband used in our divorce to try to

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<v Speaker 3>leverage it to uh discredit me, and that probably hurt

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<v Speaker 3>more than anything else.

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<v Speaker 4>That sucks.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, what about you Anna the documentary who was rolling out?

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<v Speaker 2>You know, all these different things were happening us around

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<v Speaker 2>in my case, and one of the things that I

0:37:40.000 --> 0:37:44.959
<v Speaker 2>first went through was, uh, the comments. Don't fucking read

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<v Speaker 2>the comments, guys. I mean, you know, it doesn't ever matter,

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<v Speaker 2>but it was heartbreaking to hear what they were saying.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I had to just let it go, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I know what happened, I know truth, and I'm staying

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<v Speaker 2>with it, so I can't be concerned what other people

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<v Speaker 2>are coun me.

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<v Speaker 1>Anna's conviction was not only overturned, it was formally expunged

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<v Speaker 1>from her record. Heidi is still fighting to have her

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<v Speaker 1>conviction fully vacated and cleared.

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<v Speaker 3>I want it gone so that no one can use

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<v Speaker 3>it to hurt me or hurt my family. What it

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<v Speaker 3>will never do is give the time box or healing.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, for me, it's one speaking with exoneration and expungement.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like reaffirming what I've always said. I'm innocent, right,

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<v Speaker 2>but I think it's still can be used against us,

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<v Speaker 2>And that's my fear too, right, just the accusation only

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<v Speaker 2>because like, you can't tell me that it can't happen,

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<v Speaker 2>because it fucking did. That's the issue that I can't

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<v Speaker 2>rep my mind around and can't stand when people say

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<v Speaker 2>get over it, move on. You can't.

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<v Speaker 1>After being defined by this, like we all know that,

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<v Speaker 1>we still live with the stigma of it. So what

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<v Speaker 1>does freedom even really mean?

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<v Speaker 2>That's a great question.

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<v Speaker 3>I think that it's about reclaiming our own power. That's

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<v Speaker 3>as you know, as close as to freedom as we're

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<v Speaker 3>going to get the freedom physically.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, right, I feel a freedom.

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<v Speaker 1>Obviously, except that you still have this policy of not

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<v Speaker 1>being around little kids.

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<v Speaker 2>It's funny that you say that, Amanda, because that's where

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<v Speaker 2>I was going to say, I'm not free. Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 2>you know there's so many of my closest friend and

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<v Speaker 2>have children. I don't know how to get past it,

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<v Speaker 2>and I.

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<v Speaker 5>Wish I could.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that if I were to get that back, I

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<v Speaker 2>think that's when I would feel freedom.

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<v Speaker 1>You have a lot of fear, that's totally justified.

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<v Speaker 3>I was going to school for early childhood development. My

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<v Speaker 3>goal was to have a daycare or be a foster parent.

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<v Speaker 3>I will never want to run a daycare, and you know,

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<v Speaker 3>even with my children when they have become babysitters or

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<v Speaker 3>for caring for their children, like I have to tamp

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<v Speaker 3>down that fear that I have for them of you know,

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<v Speaker 3>what if something happens for Peter Elston.

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<v Speaker 6>In some ways, I've been a bit disappointed that that

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<v Speaker 6>hasn't been a bit hasn't been more anger expressed by

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<v Speaker 6>the general public. And I guess because you know, people

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<v Speaker 6>have busy lives. They may say that she's innocent, but

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<v Speaker 6>they don't think that this could happen to them.

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<v Speaker 4>They're very much mistaken.

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<v Speaker 6>People say that they can't be wrongly accused of harming

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<v Speaker 6>someone in their care, then they're very much mistaken.

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<v Speaker 4>This can happen very easily.

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<v Speaker 1>That may be true in some cases, I know from

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<v Speaker 1>personal experience, but in Lucy Letb's case, the question remains

0:41:29.480 --> 0:41:35.040
<v Speaker 1>deeply contested. For many, the verdict is settled, Lucy let

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<v Speaker 1>Be is guilty, case closed. But for others, including Peter

0:41:40.719 --> 0:41:44.000
<v Speaker 1>Elston and Mark McDonald, it's not a question.

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<v Speaker 5>Lucy let Me will be freed. These convictions will be overturned.

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<v Speaker 5>The only question is right.

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<v Speaker 7>Oh, without a doubt, they will be overturned without a doubt.

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<v Speaker 1>For now that remains a prediction. Lucy let Be is

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<v Speaker 1>serving whole life sentences in prison. Cases like this don't

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<v Speaker 1>just test a defendant, They test the system that judged her,

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<v Speaker 1>because if the convictions are sound, the system worked, and

0:42:16.640 --> 0:42:20.399
<v Speaker 1>if they are not, it failed in ways that can

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<v Speaker 1>never be fully undone. The implications of this case go

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<v Speaker 1>far beyond just Lucy herself, the justice system, the medical system,

0:42:33.160 --> 0:42:37.200
<v Speaker 1>the media. As doctor Phil Hammond put it, if this

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<v Speaker 1>turns out.

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<v Speaker 6>To be willed, every single level that the British establishment

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<v Speaker 6>would be torn to shreds.

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<v Speaker 1>If we want any of these systems to be better,

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<v Speaker 1>we have to be willing to embrace the feeling of doubt,

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<v Speaker 1>however uncomfortable it is. Thank you for listening to doubt

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<v Speaker 1>out the Case of Lucy let Be. Doubt the Case

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<v Speaker 2>The executive producers.

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<v Speaker 1>Were Joe Meek, Amanda Knox, Christopher Robinson, Daniel Turkin, and

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<v Speaker 1>Johnny Galvin. Thank you for listening.