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Speaker 1: Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife.

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Speaker 1: She couldn't She cleaned and cared for her children and

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Speaker 1: the man of the house, and of course she didn't

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Speaker 1: talk back. She was both obedient and soft by nature.

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Speaker 1: She was a good woman who always made good choices.

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Speaker 2: We're good mom's bad choices?

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Speaker 3: Who single mom?

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Speaker 2: Who said?

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Speaker 3: But the patriarchy shared all their bad choices.

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Speaker 2: And sound out they were so bad.

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Speaker 4: After all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties.

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Speaker 2: Sit back and enjoy the ride.

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Speaker 5: I can.

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Speaker 3: Welcome back to good Mom's bad choices.

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Speaker 6: I'm Erica, and I'm Meila.

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Speaker 2: Happy hump Day hosts.

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Speaker 4: Happy hump Day, Witches, bitches, witches and bitches and men.

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Speaker 2: Hey, guys, how you doing?

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Speaker 5: Fellas?

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Speaker 3: Do that we call them fellas? Sure?

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Speaker 2: It's wait, what are the warlocks?

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Speaker 3: That's warlocks?

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Speaker 2: All off?

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Speaker 6: The tongue doesn't like. We gotta get a better word,

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Speaker 6: lock word?

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Speaker 2: No, it was which which anyway? Uh?

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Speaker 4: This week is we are concluding our week in uh,

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Speaker 4: the last week of October, and it's been a witchy month.

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Speaker 4: We went out for Halloween this weekend, and you know,

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Speaker 4: we went to a dinner for Erica's birthday. We celebrate

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Speaker 4: Erica's birthday, and then the place had like an exceptional

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Speaker 4: amount of decorations and cobwebs and like old spooky pictures,

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Speaker 4: and I realized, there needs to be more haunted dinners.

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Speaker 4: And they're playing haunted playlists, which probably wasn't necessary, but

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Speaker 4: it was still really fit the vibes.

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Speaker 3: We were all in costume, and then we went to

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Speaker 4: Duckworth and they were like a rock band, and I realized,

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Speaker 4: I think we need to go to a rock concert

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Speaker 4: every Halloween. It just like makes sense. Haunted spooky dinner,

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Speaker 4: rock concert costumes.

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Speaker 3: How'd you feel?

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Speaker 6: It feels like it conjures up something that's in that

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Speaker 6: is already like manifesting during this time right Like it's

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Speaker 6: like this the energy. We're like peeking past the veil

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Speaker 6: and questioning all of our belief systems and blowing up

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Speaker 6: our life if you're me, and if not, then at

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Speaker 6: least you're considering dressing up like.

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Speaker 2: A dead person.

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Speaker 6: So either way, it's spooky season. I had a really

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Speaker 6: good time on my birthday. Thank you guys, Thank you Mike,

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Speaker 6: to my tribe, Thank you Mila for putting up with

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Speaker 6: my birthday. Shenanigans and my last minuteness of wanting to

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Speaker 6: be alone but also wanting to be with my friends,

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Speaker 6: but also wanted to be alone.

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Speaker 2: I want to be my friends and wanted to be alone.

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Speaker 4: Not confusing at all, Not confusing at all as a friend,

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Speaker 4: Shut the fuck up.

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Speaker 2: Okay, I don't know, and I.

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Speaker 4: Don't know if she wants to be loved this week,

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Speaker 4: if she wants us to like not love her, I

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Speaker 4: don't know. Like from somewhere in between, I'm like texting

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Speaker 4: our friends, like I think we're gonna have to force

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Speaker 4: her to go out.

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Speaker 3: Never mind, I don't think she's gonna go for it.

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Speaker 3: I don't know she's I don't know. I'm confused, she told.

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Speaker 3: I don't know whether to believe her or to kidnap her.

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Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know what to do.

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Speaker 2: I think I need to be treated like a little baby.

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Speaker 6: I needed to be treated like how my mom used

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Speaker 6: to plan my parties for me.

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Speaker 2: That's what I realized. I was like, when did this

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Speaker 2: start sucking? Was what I had to be responsible for

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Speaker 2: my birthday. That's when it started to suck.

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Speaker 4: But you know, I'm like, just get in the car,

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Speaker 4: we're gonna call a car at six. She's like, I

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Speaker 4: don't think so, I don't really feel like it. I'm like, okay,

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Speaker 4: well I'm gonna have to come up there and put

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Speaker 6: You're not gonna get it easier when you live closer. Yeah,

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Speaker 6: you would just come over and would get the.

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Speaker 3: Fuck dress bitch. Now, I'm like, I don't know what

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Speaker 3: if she's gonna hate me if I kidnap her.

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Speaker 4: I don't know if I should listen to her or

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Speaker 2: Ultimately, I'm gonna figure it out.

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Speaker 6: Ultimately, I realized that I need to be alone for

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Speaker 6: part of my birthday and then I need to go socialized.

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Speaker 6: There's definitely a season I need to be the fuck

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Speaker 6: alone for sure. And it's good. Actually, I think we

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Speaker 6: really had a great time. Went to the beach. I

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Speaker 6: had the most amazing experience at the beach by myself.

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Speaker 6: It was fucking beautiful, it was epic. It was just

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Speaker 6: filled with messages and I don't know, it was just perfect.

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Speaker 6: And then I then on music. There was like steps

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Speaker 6: also I realized how much I don't know the power

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Speaker 6: of choosing an energy. I was choosing an energy to

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Speaker 6: be in. And then finally I got off the wheel and.

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Speaker 7: Like it's like you just have to like jump off,

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Speaker 7: and so it's done.

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Speaker 3: I'm done here.

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Speaker 4: Because she did all of this literally after our last episode.

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Speaker 4: I was listening to Orlando edit and I was like,

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Speaker 4: and then the episode ended. She's like, no, I don't, don't.

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Speaker 4: I don't want to be around to anyone. I was like, okay.

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Speaker 4: Then we get to dinner because she said three hours

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Speaker 4: before dinner, actually I want to go out, even though

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Speaker 4: we already knew that. Then we get to dinner, she's like,

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Speaker 4: where's my cake? And we're like, no one told them

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Speaker 4: it's my birthday. I'm like, actually, I put it in

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Speaker 4: the notes, Erica, but you just changed your mind five

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Speaker 2: I didn't change my mind five minutes ago. I changed

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Speaker 6: So you guys had plenty of time to figure out

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Speaker 6: how to get a fucking cake from the restaurant to

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Speaker 6: come out on time with the motherfucking candle.

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Speaker 4: Anyway, moving on, not psycho at all, just totally anyway.

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Speaker 6: All I was saying was I love you guys, and

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Speaker 6: thank you, and I had a great time.

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Speaker 3: Thanks.

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Speaker 6: We have a special guest you guys today, we have

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Speaker 6: a guest. This guest came highly recommended a few different times,

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Speaker 6: and so I'm really really grateful. I'm super excited to

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Speaker 6: invite to the show. Jessica Winston, founder.

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Speaker 2: Of the House of Hoodoo. How you have to listen

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Speaker 2: to all that bitching and silence?

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Speaker 5: It was.

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Speaker 3: Just had something.

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Speaker 5: It was great and it was a challenge just just

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Speaker 4: That was a how to to having a scorpio friend.

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Speaker 4: I don't have any answers for you. Just listen to this.

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Speaker 5: You know, I don't have any experience with scorpio friends.

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Speaker 5: I do know, Okay, Well, I have heard as an aquarian,

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Speaker 5: I have heard. I resonated with that part where you

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Speaker 5: far and then to go on a bender with your

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Speaker 2: That's what I think.

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Speaker 6: My birthday just contraus just it just brings in this

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Speaker 6: reflect Where am I?

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Speaker 2: Where am I?

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Speaker 5: Am I good?

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Speaker 2: Am I good? Do I like where I'm at? Is

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Speaker 6: Or do you feel like it's actually it's actually part

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Speaker 6: I haven't obviously perfected at all, but I think I'm

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Speaker 2: But it's inevitable.

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Speaker 6: I'm double Scorpio, and my whole chart is Scorpio pretty much,

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Speaker 6: so I'm pretty like there's a lot of like things

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Speaker 6: be around them. But you're also in transformation. So healing

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Speaker 2: It's uncomfortable.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, And the thing is that time for time for

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Speaker 5: if someone doesn't laugh at your jokes? How would you

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Speaker 5: know anything about you if it weren't because someone else

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Speaker 5: that information integrate into our beingness, into our soul. But

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Speaker 4: Yeah, to exist in this world as like with the

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Speaker 4: awareness of your spiritual being is like a whole other

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Speaker 4: like the mystics and the esoterics, and like.

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Speaker 3: You're like your birthday.

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Speaker 4: You know, if you weren't a witch, you'd be like,

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Speaker 4: I am just having a bad day. Fuck my friends,

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Speaker 4: I don't want to go like you wouldn't even be

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Speaker 3: Where am I shedding?

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Speaker 4: Like the signs that come on your birthday, whether big

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Speaker 5: the messages, I see the communication. I see divine in everything.

441
00:21:27,240 --> 00:21:33,119
Speaker 5: I see a source in everything from the most insignificant

442
00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:37,000
Speaker 5: thing from like a lipstick, right, which is it is?

443
00:21:37,080 --> 00:21:40,639
Speaker 5: I know I see Source on a lipstick just as

444
00:21:40,720 --> 00:21:43,199
Speaker 5: much as I see Source in disguise. Like it's just

445
00:21:43,920 --> 00:21:47,520
Speaker 5: I'm a mystic because I'm a constant communion with Source,

446
00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:52,639
Speaker 5: with the divine and the creator of everything. And a

447
00:21:52,720 --> 00:22:00,439
Speaker 5: witch is a woman who has taken all of the

448
00:22:00,520 --> 00:22:04,040
Speaker 5: wisdom and knowledge of her experiences and those experiences of

449
00:22:04,040 --> 00:22:11,120
Speaker 5: those before her, and turned that into into gold whatever

450
00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:14,880
Speaker 5: that gold is to her, whether she wants to turn

451
00:22:14,920 --> 00:22:16,879
Speaker 5: it into a business, or she turns it into healing,

452
00:22:17,000 --> 00:22:19,639
Speaker 5: or she translates, you know, relates it to family, whatever

453
00:22:19,720 --> 00:22:21,960
Speaker 5: that goal, whatever that is to her. Right Like I

454
00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:27,359
Speaker 5: think like the witches, witches can, whiches can be into

455
00:22:27,359 --> 00:22:28,200
Speaker 5: whatever the hell they want.

456
00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:33,720
Speaker 6: Do you think witching is almost like feels more like

457
00:22:34,400 --> 00:22:35,639
Speaker 6: when you say it like that, and I could just

458
00:22:35,640 --> 00:22:37,320
Speaker 6: be reading into this, it's like it almost sounds like

459
00:22:37,320 --> 00:22:39,600
Speaker 6: it's more for the service of herself, Like, yes, she

460
00:22:39,720 --> 00:22:43,080
Speaker 6: has these powers for to help and support others, but

461
00:22:43,119 --> 00:22:46,560
Speaker 6: she's also in the also in for the and I.

462
00:22:46,440 --> 00:22:51,560
Speaker 2: Guess the enhancement of her herself and some capacity. I mean,

463
00:22:51,560 --> 00:22:52,800
Speaker 2: obviously we all are, but I don't.

464
00:22:52,800 --> 00:22:54,720
Speaker 6: I don't know, Like when you say she takes what

465
00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:57,200
Speaker 6: she what she's learned from her ancestors, and she turns

466
00:22:57,200 --> 00:22:59,440
Speaker 6: it into gold, whether that's a business, whether that's healing

467
00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:00,560
Speaker 6: other people people.

468
00:23:01,880 --> 00:23:04,679
Speaker 5: For herself. Absolutely, I think there's an egg. There's this

469
00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:07,679
Speaker 5: ugly and this is where the witch thing comes from,

470
00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:11,240
Speaker 5: which the us being called witches, which is which is

471
00:23:11,240 --> 00:23:14,119
Speaker 5: another form of being called a wise woman, which is

472
00:23:14,119 --> 00:23:18,520
Speaker 5: where women who were wise, who were educated, who were

473
00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:25,720
Speaker 5: independent freethinkers, who you know, I've recently learned that witches

474
00:23:25,720 --> 00:23:28,480
Speaker 5: were the first people. Like the women that they called

475
00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:32,360
Speaker 5: witches were the women who were brewing or who were

476
00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:36,600
Speaker 5: brewing and selling beer. So these were women who had

477
00:23:36,640 --> 00:23:41,399
Speaker 5: their own businesses, right, they mastered brewing and selling beers,

478
00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:44,720
Speaker 5: have their own businesses. And they called them witches because

479
00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:47,000
Speaker 5: they were independent and they were making money and a

480
00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:50,440
Speaker 5: lot of money selling beer. And so that is where

481
00:23:50,440 --> 00:23:52,399
Speaker 5: it comes from. If you are in it, if you

482
00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:56,439
Speaker 5: are if you are a woman who who who is

483
00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:59,320
Speaker 5: always connected to her divinity and the divinity and everything,

484
00:23:59,359 --> 00:24:01,399
Speaker 5: and at the same time you are wise, and you

485
00:24:01,440 --> 00:24:04,480
Speaker 5: are a leader, and you are nurturing, and you're independent,

486
00:24:04,560 --> 00:24:06,480
Speaker 5: and you are bossing. Then you are a witch.

487
00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:10,320
Speaker 2: You're using those and you're using these gifts.

488
00:24:10,359 --> 00:24:13,600
Speaker 6: And it's it's so interesting how this that sounds like

489
00:24:13,640 --> 00:24:17,320
Speaker 6: a woman empowered, right, And so when a woman is

490
00:24:17,359 --> 00:24:20,920
Speaker 6: empowered with the tools that she's been given, is mastering

491
00:24:20,960 --> 00:24:24,159
Speaker 6: these tools, is using them to yield whatever it is

492
00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:27,160
Speaker 6: the outcomes that she wants, whether that is in love,

493
00:24:27,280 --> 00:24:31,840
Speaker 6: whether that's in you know, cutting connections, whether that's in

494
00:24:32,520 --> 00:24:34,399
Speaker 6: creating like those things.

495
00:24:34,440 --> 00:24:36,080
Speaker 2: Of course we know over.

496
00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:38,480
Speaker 6: Time, and you know throughout history how those things have

497
00:24:38,560 --> 00:24:44,640
Speaker 6: been silenced, squashed, thrown away, demonized, villainized, and of course

498
00:24:44,680 --> 00:24:46,760
Speaker 6: those the witch an empowered woman.

499
00:24:47,800 --> 00:24:54,040
Speaker 5: Her google, Sorry, love, go ahead, you'll go. The witch's

500
00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:59,240
Speaker 5: power is her wisdom, her knowledge, and her application of that.

501
00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:05,399
Speaker 5: In any case, whatever her wisdom, her knowledge, and her application,

502
00:25:05,840 --> 00:25:12,040
Speaker 5: that is her power. And because they couldn't get because

503
00:25:13,080 --> 00:25:15,240
Speaker 5: you can't take someone's wisdom out of them, and you

504
00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:17,600
Speaker 5: can't take their knowledge out of them, those are those

505
00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:20,560
Speaker 5: are the things we die with. They had to burn

506
00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:24,920
Speaker 5: them because no matter why, if these women continue to exist,

507
00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:28,880
Speaker 5: their knowledge, their wisdom will continue to exist within them,

508
00:25:29,160 --> 00:25:31,160
Speaker 5: and at some point they'll find a way to apply it.

509
00:25:31,400 --> 00:25:32,359
Speaker 5: And that is a threat.

510
00:25:33,800 --> 00:25:37,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, I often tell people because I think early on

511
00:25:37,600 --> 00:25:39,560
Speaker 4: Erica and I realized that.

512
00:25:39,880 --> 00:25:41,720
Speaker 3: People really don't fuck with the word which.

513
00:25:42,119 --> 00:25:43,800
Speaker 4: And I'm the kind of person is like I kind

514
00:25:43,800 --> 00:25:46,879
Speaker 4: of like to delve in the things that people don't like,

515
00:25:47,160 --> 00:25:51,080
Speaker 4: you know, like I kind of liked you. Really it's

516
00:25:51,119 --> 00:25:53,680
Speaker 4: interesting to me the way words have weight and what

517
00:25:53,680 --> 00:25:56,719
Speaker 4: we've made them to be, and like, you know, for

518
00:25:56,760 --> 00:25:59,719
Speaker 4: so long we've seen like which is you know, characterized

519
00:25:59,800 --> 00:26:04,080
Speaker 4: mood be as hideous with ugly noses, and like all

520
00:26:04,080 --> 00:26:06,920
Speaker 4: these like these these are or evil. Are these things

521
00:26:06,920 --> 00:26:09,800
Speaker 4: that we've perceived as evil and generally the things that

522
00:26:10,040 --> 00:26:14,000
Speaker 4: society has like trying to like like perceive as evil

523
00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:16,199
Speaker 4: or definitely there's something there, you know, like look at

524
00:26:16,240 --> 00:26:19,000
Speaker 4: black people, you know, like there's a there's a level

525
00:26:19,119 --> 00:26:22,880
Speaker 4: of fear around certain things, even like the word whore,

526
00:26:22,920 --> 00:26:25,840
Speaker 4: like or hoe or sledg liked. I like to use

527
00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:28,040
Speaker 4: utilize those words, even like when girls are like, yeah,

528
00:26:28,080 --> 00:26:30,040
Speaker 4: that's my bitch, you know what I mean. I enjoy

529
00:26:30,600 --> 00:26:34,719
Speaker 4: playing in the realm of like delving into things that

530
00:26:34,760 --> 00:26:38,280
Speaker 4: make people uncomfortable. And I know that which makes people uncomfortable.

531
00:26:38,320 --> 00:26:41,560
Speaker 4: I know, it's like heavily because of religion and all

532
00:26:41,600 --> 00:26:44,800
Speaker 4: these other things. But it's like if you are villainizing

533
00:26:44,840 --> 00:26:48,720
Speaker 4: your ancestors, if you're villainizing things like sage or herbs

534
00:26:48,800 --> 00:26:51,680
Speaker 4: or crystals, the things that source created, they are things

535
00:26:51,680 --> 00:26:53,720
Speaker 4: that are naturally to the like our world. And like

536
00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:56,840
Speaker 4: that's interesting to me. And even like all women I

537
00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:59,960
Speaker 4: feel like are are witches. We have the power to create.

538
00:27:00,480 --> 00:27:04,240
Speaker 4: We create people, so obviously we were alchemists at its

539
00:27:04,320 --> 00:27:07,919
Speaker 4: highest high. We've turned home like houses into homes. We

540
00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:10,960
Speaker 4: turn like we just make everything something out of nothing

541
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:13,879
Speaker 4: and every in every way possible. And it's like so

542
00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:18,840
Speaker 4: interesting to me when I see how scared people are.

543
00:27:18,880 --> 00:27:21,240
Speaker 3: Of the word which and like what does that mean

544
00:27:21,280 --> 00:27:21,600
Speaker 3: to you?

545
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:24,680
Speaker 4: And how how much have you been like like believed

546
00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,399
Speaker 4: what society has made this word mean that you're so

547
00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:30,080
Speaker 4: like you're so quick to throw it away or to

548
00:27:30,160 --> 00:27:33,720
Speaker 4: reject a woman who identifies that way. And like I

549
00:27:34,520 --> 00:27:36,800
Speaker 4: was at a townshop school meeting and we were like

550
00:27:37,520 --> 00:27:38,600
Speaker 4: we had finished graduating.

551
00:27:38,600 --> 00:27:40,680
Speaker 3: We were like gallivanting outside at night.

552
00:27:40,880 --> 00:27:43,399
Speaker 4: We were naked in the pool and we were just

553
00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:45,040
Speaker 4: like formed a circle because we were just talking in

554
00:27:45,040 --> 00:27:47,119
Speaker 4: a circle, and we were like skinny dipping, and then

555
00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:49,160
Speaker 4: we got excited and we were like just like going

556
00:27:49,160 --> 00:27:51,679
Speaker 4: in a circle in the pool, like all holding hands

557
00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:54,040
Speaker 4: and giggling, laughing so hard.

558
00:27:54,080 --> 00:27:55,440
Speaker 3: And then I like had this epiphany.

559
00:27:55,520 --> 00:27:58,919
Speaker 4: I was like, oh my god, which is we're just

560
00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:01,959
Speaker 4: happy women, which is for happy women who were like

561
00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:05,840
Speaker 4: self actualized and they were free in their bodies and

562
00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:10,160
Speaker 4: in their skin, and they were happy women. And historically, powerful,

563
00:28:10,800 --> 00:28:15,520
Speaker 4: self actualized happy women have been threats to the powers

564
00:28:15,560 --> 00:28:18,639
Speaker 4: that be. And it was like a very simple, it

565
00:28:18,720 --> 00:28:20,680
Speaker 4: was kind of a funny realization.

566
00:28:20,800 --> 00:28:22,520
Speaker 3: I was like, you guys, this is this is it.

567
00:28:22,600 --> 00:28:24,639
Speaker 7: This is what they burned bitches at the stake.

568
00:28:24,440 --> 00:28:28,840
Speaker 4: For joy and like the not needing of anyone, like

569
00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:32,000
Speaker 4: so the independence. And it's crazy how till this day

570
00:28:32,119 --> 00:28:35,040
Speaker 4: that word holds such a weight and still there is

571
00:28:35,119 --> 00:28:39,440
Speaker 4: an attack on free and happy, self actualized women. And

572
00:28:39,480 --> 00:28:41,760
Speaker 4: it's not the same way like being burned at the stakes,

573
00:28:41,760 --> 00:28:44,040
Speaker 4: but in ways it is. And so I feel like

574
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:47,080
Speaker 4: sometimes like taking back that word, utilizing it, because I

575
00:28:47,120 --> 00:28:49,320
Speaker 4: do you know, I identify that way. I just like

576
00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:53,520
Speaker 4: I feel powerful in using that word still, even though

577
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:55,960
Speaker 4: I know it scares people, and I know it scares

578
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:58,880
Speaker 4: a lot of people in like our community, particularly because

579
00:28:58,880 --> 00:29:02,760
Speaker 4: of what a like what a just how powerful the

580
00:29:02,840 --> 00:29:06,920
Speaker 4: church has been. So I just I appreciate that definition

581
00:29:07,000 --> 00:29:09,200
Speaker 4: of which because I identify with that, and like for

582
00:29:09,240 --> 00:29:12,680
Speaker 4: anyone listening women who are turned off by that word

583
00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:15,760
Speaker 4: or you know, like I wouldn't say that publicly or

584
00:29:15,800 --> 00:29:17,880
Speaker 4: I wouldn't you know what I mean, because of Jesus

585
00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:21,400
Speaker 4: or the Bible or whatever that that religious heart looks like.

586
00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:22,480
Speaker 3: I really encourage you.

587
00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:25,560
Speaker 4: To dig deeper into your own alchemy and the things

588
00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:27,560
Speaker 4: that you've created, even if it's not like just a

589
00:29:27,680 --> 00:29:31,040
Speaker 4: human but like businesses, like you said, created money, opportunities,

590
00:29:31,560 --> 00:29:33,600
Speaker 4: you know. I just think our prayers are strong, our

591
00:29:33,640 --> 00:29:36,000
Speaker 4: words are strong, because if you can create a child,

592
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:37,240
Speaker 4: you can create anything.

593
00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:42,440
Speaker 5: Absolutely all of that.

594
00:29:43,040 --> 00:29:47,040
Speaker 6: Yeah, I agree, I totally agree.

595
00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:49,680
Speaker 3: We would to say something.

596
00:29:51,800 --> 00:29:54,880
Speaker 2: Me uh huh, No, I was listening to you.

597
00:29:58,720 --> 00:29:59,400
Speaker 5: A good word.

598
00:30:05,320 --> 00:30:07,920
Speaker 4: I know that it's the veil, you know, they say

599
00:30:07,960 --> 00:30:11,960
Speaker 4: the veil is thin in in October and November, first

600
00:30:12,000 --> 00:30:13,959
Speaker 4: for DA Day, lists, morthos, are you going to celebrate

601
00:30:14,040 --> 00:30:15,480
Speaker 4: or do you do anything for that day?

602
00:30:15,720 --> 00:30:18,040
Speaker 3: What are some of your rituals around this time of year?

603
00:30:19,200 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 5: Oh my goodness. How this year, well, this year I

604
00:30:25,080 --> 00:30:31,280
Speaker 5: was invited to an event, very a very intimate event

605
00:30:31,480 --> 00:30:38,560
Speaker 5: with with some close knit folks, close knit friends, to

606
00:30:38,600 --> 00:30:43,240
Speaker 5: celebrate the others mortals very proper. Uh you know the

607
00:30:43,280 --> 00:30:49,040
Speaker 5: way that I celebrate now in thes is it's very intimate,

608
00:30:49,160 --> 00:30:54,040
Speaker 5: very private, very much think of it as like one

609
00:30:54,600 --> 00:31:02,320
Speaker 5: big MH. Remembrance and birthday. And I don't see and

610
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:05,520
Speaker 5: the way that I mean most folks as see their

611
00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:11,360
Speaker 5: ancestors as like something so separate from them or these

612
00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:15,760
Speaker 5: people that were these other But for me, I see them,

613
00:31:16,000 --> 00:31:18,360
Speaker 5: and I see pictures and I see their names, and

614
00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:23,040
Speaker 5: I just see different manifestations of me throughout different lifetimes,

615
00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:26,360
Speaker 5: throughout different generations, and so in me venerating them and

616
00:31:26,400 --> 00:31:29,240
Speaker 5: I'm in honoring them, I am venerating and honoring me

617
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:34,440
Speaker 5: in different forms, in different generations, in different life times,

618
00:31:34,440 --> 00:31:37,520
Speaker 5: on their different guises, And so it feels a lot

619
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:41,320
Speaker 5: more and a lot closer to me and more fulfilling

620
00:31:41,360 --> 00:31:42,440
Speaker 5: to approach it that way.

621
00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:47,840
Speaker 6: Yeah, now that's beautiful, I think. I never I've never

622
00:31:47,920 --> 00:31:50,240
Speaker 6: viewed it at that as that way. I've always felt

623
00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:52,000
Speaker 6: like it had to be, not had to be. But

624
00:31:52,120 --> 00:31:56,720
Speaker 6: like it's it's this moment that's actually it has nothing

625
00:31:56,760 --> 00:31:58,600
Speaker 6: to do with me, And it's more so just to

626
00:31:58,680 --> 00:32:04,000
Speaker 6: like honor them because so often our ancestors go starved.

627
00:32:04,960 --> 00:32:07,360
Speaker 6: I mean I think about sometimes, I really think about that,

628
00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:10,400
Speaker 6: and like think about how many ancestors are just starving

629
00:32:10,560 --> 00:32:13,760
Speaker 6: on the other side because people have just cut off

630
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:17,080
Speaker 6: that the opportunity for connection, or have villainized the opportunity

631
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:19,000
Speaker 6: for connection, or doesn't even don't even know that it exists.

632
00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:23,440
Speaker 6: But I really love that the always being connected to

633
00:32:23,840 --> 00:32:25,560
Speaker 6: them as well, and like bringing them.

634
00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:26,600
Speaker 2: Into you and being you.

635
00:32:26,800 --> 00:32:31,120
Speaker 6: I think that's a beautiful way to really truly honor

636
00:32:31,160 --> 00:32:34,200
Speaker 6: them and honor yourself so that it continues to continues

637
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:36,840
Speaker 6: to keep going, and it is like a constant reminder

638
00:32:36,960 --> 00:32:40,320
Speaker 6: for yourself to do this every year because I think

639
00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:44,160
Speaker 6: about to the traditions that like for me, like I'm Mexican,

640
00:32:44,200 --> 00:32:46,120
Speaker 6: and like when my family came here, the only thing

641
00:32:46,120 --> 00:32:47,720
Speaker 6: that we really brought was our food, the food and

642
00:32:47,760 --> 00:32:50,280
Speaker 6: the language. They didn't bring any sort of the culture

643
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:55,920
Speaker 6: or like spiritual systems or beliefs. And now with my daughter,

644
00:32:56,120 --> 00:33:03,040
Speaker 6: like wanting to be heard, to have choice and understanding,

645
00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:05,960
Speaker 6: and and and be able to do that. Is that

646
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:08,720
Speaker 6: something that you bring into your motherhood. I know that

647
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:11,960
Speaker 6: you're a mama, and I'm curious, like how how that

648
00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:14,120
Speaker 6: shows up for you and your mother ing.

649
00:33:15,680 --> 00:33:19,960
Speaker 5: I in my mothering, I bring in a lot of

650
00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:24,720
Speaker 5: independence and sovereignty for my For my son, I very

651
00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:29,360
Speaker 5: much I the way that I see it because I'm

652
00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:32,480
Speaker 5: raising him on my own with you know, family help

653
00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:37,440
Speaker 5: here and there. But I I will always be me.

654
00:33:38,720 --> 00:33:42,360
Speaker 5: I was Jessica before him, I'm Jessica with him, and

655
00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:44,640
Speaker 5: when he leaves my house, I'll continue to be Jessica.

656
00:33:44,920 --> 00:33:49,040
Speaker 5: And so I know I'm very I'm very very conscious

657
00:33:49,080 --> 00:33:52,560
Speaker 5: of that I am his greatest like I'm his main example.

658
00:33:53,680 --> 00:33:59,400
Speaker 5: So I give him. I I position myself to be

659
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:03,280
Speaker 5: his protect I'm here to protect you from from threat

660
00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:07,320
Speaker 5: and danger. But I'm not here to protect you from yourself,

661
00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:10,480
Speaker 5: and I want you to navigate and figure out life

662
00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:13,239
Speaker 5: on your own while I'm here just to protect you

663
00:34:13,280 --> 00:34:17,960
Speaker 5: from threat and danger. And so he is always watching,

664
00:34:18,280 --> 00:34:21,160
Speaker 5: constantly watching everything that I that I do, and mimicking

665
00:34:21,200 --> 00:34:25,560
Speaker 5: everything that I do, like whether you know, in everyday life,

666
00:34:25,680 --> 00:34:28,799
Speaker 5: even with my own spirituality and the way that he

667
00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:33,759
Speaker 5: sees me honor my spiritual spaces and how I you know,

668
00:34:33,880 --> 00:34:36,600
Speaker 5: my morning rituals, and how I sweep and like my incense,

669
00:34:36,640 --> 00:34:39,120
Speaker 5: and all of these things are becoming embedded in his

670
00:34:39,200 --> 00:34:41,880
Speaker 5: own in his system. But I don't want him to

671
00:34:41,920 --> 00:34:44,840
Speaker 5: grow up being this this, you know, with this rigid

672
00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:46,680
Speaker 5: belief of you have to do it how I do it.

673
00:34:46,760 --> 00:34:49,560
Speaker 5: Let me be the foundation. But I also want you

674
00:34:49,719 --> 00:34:52,120
Speaker 5: to find your own connectedness to your own soul, connect

675
00:34:52,160 --> 00:34:53,600
Speaker 5: to your own soul and to your own spirit and

676
00:34:53,640 --> 00:34:56,680
Speaker 5: your own way. I can be your foundation. What I do,

677
00:34:56,760 --> 00:34:59,160
Speaker 5: my practices can be your foundation that you can, you know,

678
00:34:59,239 --> 00:35:01,160
Speaker 5: lean on and support yourself on. But I want you

679
00:35:01,239 --> 00:35:03,640
Speaker 5: to spring from that and be you.

680
00:35:05,239 --> 00:35:08,759
Speaker 6: Mm So is he part of is he part of

681
00:35:08,880 --> 00:35:12,120
Speaker 6: I know you said this deos is very intimate. Is

682
00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:15,560
Speaker 6: he part of those moments or is there like a

683
00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:19,000
Speaker 6: sense of like separation ever that occurs in the work

684
00:35:19,000 --> 00:35:20,759
Speaker 6: that you do when you have your child.

685
00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:26,240
Speaker 5: He is part of the me putting together the scene,

686
00:35:27,640 --> 00:35:32,560
Speaker 5: but as far as the ritual aspect of it, he

687
00:35:33,320 --> 00:35:36,960
Speaker 5: is not, because that requires other things that are a

688
00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:40,680
Speaker 5: little bit too mature for his energy. And I don't

689
00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:42,960
Speaker 5: want any kind of, you know, interference with him, But

690
00:35:43,120 --> 00:35:45,480
Speaker 5: he is part of the putting together process of helping me.

691
00:35:47,040 --> 00:35:49,120
Speaker 5: But he helping me go to the grocery store and

692
00:35:49,400 --> 00:35:52,040
Speaker 5: pulling everything out and putting things on the table. Very

693
00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:55,120
Speaker 5: helpful little creature. He has such helpful little man. You

694
00:35:55,160 --> 00:35:57,880
Speaker 5: just start opening the bags and asking he will point

695
00:35:57,880 --> 00:35:59,600
Speaker 5: out where do you want me to like where does

696
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:01,239
Speaker 5: this go? And I'm gonna put it here, baby. So

697
00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:04,600
Speaker 5: he's just part. He just wants to be part of everything,

698
00:36:04,920 --> 00:36:06,840
Speaker 5: have them bring me the incense and brings me this

699
00:36:06,920 --> 00:36:10,720
Speaker 5: and bring me that. But he's very much part of

700
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:14,680
Speaker 5: the coming together, putting together the process. But there are

701
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:18,600
Speaker 5: parts of the of the veneration that are are a

702
00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:21,399
Speaker 5: little bit more adult and he's not a part of that.

703
00:36:23,120 --> 00:36:23,440
Speaker 5: Got it.

704
00:36:24,000 --> 00:36:31,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, I know before we when we were talking on

705
00:36:31,120 --> 00:36:35,640
Speaker 4: the call, we talked a lot about I really like

706
00:36:35,680 --> 00:36:38,640
Speaker 4: that you said to consider when you're like do it

707
00:36:38,719 --> 00:36:42,840
Speaker 4: making your alter that in ways you're honoring yourself manifestations

708
00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:46,520
Speaker 4: of different versions of you in different timelines, and like

709
00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:48,560
Speaker 4: I feel that, Like I think people sometimes put like

710
00:36:48,600 --> 00:36:51,040
Speaker 4: the ancestors or put their altar outside of them.

711
00:36:51,080 --> 00:36:51,760
Speaker 3: And I think.

712
00:36:51,640 --> 00:36:55,680
Speaker 4: Sometimes because I've I've questioned, had questions in the past

713
00:36:55,719 --> 00:37:00,759
Speaker 4: about like I had someone who has like been spiritual,

714
00:37:01,200 --> 00:37:05,839
Speaker 4: you know, mentor per se and this person like completely

715
00:37:06,239 --> 00:37:08,640
Speaker 4: was like I'm taking a break from this for right now.

716
00:37:08,680 --> 00:37:09,959
Speaker 3: And I was like really.

717
00:37:09,680 --> 00:37:13,360
Speaker 4: Because you were like very high in my spiritual regard

718
00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:15,440
Speaker 4: of like you're you're knowing this. And he was just

719
00:37:15,480 --> 00:37:20,040
Speaker 4: telling me, like, be careful lighting candles, because not just

720
00:37:20,160 --> 00:37:23,160
Speaker 4: your ancestors can come in, anybody can come anybody from

721
00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:25,560
Speaker 4: the other side can come in. Be careful just inviting,

722
00:37:25,600 --> 00:37:29,400
Speaker 4: you know, like leaving offerings. And so then I was

723
00:37:29,400 --> 00:37:30,920
Speaker 4: like I kind of stopped because I was like, Okay,

724
00:37:30,960 --> 00:37:32,480
Speaker 4: well then who the fuck is going to come in?

725
00:37:32,920 --> 00:37:35,359
Speaker 4: And also just even like people in our in our

726
00:37:35,400 --> 00:37:39,160
Speaker 4: lineage who have not always done great things, you know,

727
00:37:39,360 --> 00:37:42,600
Speaker 4: like I have a grandfather who like cheated and had

728
00:37:42,640 --> 00:37:45,120
Speaker 4: a whole nother family with the babysitter up the street,

729
00:37:45,200 --> 00:37:48,720
Speaker 4: and it caused havoc in my family, and like just wondering,

730
00:37:48,800 --> 00:37:50,880
Speaker 4: like how do you honor those people while also not

731
00:37:50,920 --> 00:37:53,560
Speaker 4: like holding a grudge. But I realized that like when

732
00:37:53,560 --> 00:37:58,200
Speaker 4: you said that as manifestations of those people, the versions

733
00:37:58,200 --> 00:38:00,960
Speaker 4: of that they were in whatever time they walked the earth,

734
00:38:01,360 --> 00:38:03,799
Speaker 4: It's like you have to also understand and believe that

735
00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:07,520
Speaker 4: because they struggled in certain places, we have the privilege

736
00:38:07,520 --> 00:38:11,279
Speaker 4: of like not undoing their wrongs, but like learning from

737
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:13,520
Speaker 4: those wrongs, seeing how they fucked up and how it

738
00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:16,880
Speaker 4: affected the families, and making change in your family structure

739
00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:19,040
Speaker 4: because of it. And I always say that, like, we

740
00:38:19,080 --> 00:38:23,280
Speaker 4: are manifestations of, like of the parts of our parents

741
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:26,440
Speaker 4: that they couldn't be, you know, So that kind of

742
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:28,839
Speaker 4: like changed my perspective too, Like do you have any

743
00:38:28,880 --> 00:38:33,759
Speaker 4: input about like being careful about keeping the offerings and

744
00:38:33,760 --> 00:38:36,440
Speaker 4: the lights on, or like, do you have any protection

745
00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:39,600
Speaker 4: practices that you put put in place because of things

746
00:38:39,640 --> 00:38:40,000
Speaker 4: like that?

747
00:38:40,960 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 5: The greatest protection that you can put it in practice

748
00:38:43,200 --> 00:38:47,000
Speaker 5: as your own vibration. You can only attract into your

749
00:38:47,040 --> 00:38:50,880
Speaker 5: experience and into your space, whatever vibrational states that you

750
00:38:50,920 --> 00:38:55,800
Speaker 5: are in. And so if you are attracting on unsavory

751
00:38:56,920 --> 00:39:00,080
Speaker 5: ancestors because you are vibrating at the same frequency that

752
00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:04,680
Speaker 5: that unsavory ancestor was vibrating, that if we take into

753
00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:07,640
Speaker 5: you know, if we take into consideration the idea that

754
00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 5: past present future do not exist. Everything is the present,

755
00:39:12,360 --> 00:39:20,320
Speaker 5: and so your ancestors, maybe they're you know, matter cannot

756
00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:22,560
Speaker 5: be destroyed. It can only be transformed. And it's because

757
00:39:22,800 --> 00:39:26,120
Speaker 5: energy cannot be destroyed, it can only be transformed. Energy

758
00:39:26,120 --> 00:39:29,200
Speaker 5: creates matter, right, And so if everything is happening right

759
00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:32,000
Speaker 5: now in the present, really nobody dies, and your ancestors

760
00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:37,600
Speaker 5: really aren't dead. Their physical form is, but vibrationally they

761
00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:40,640
Speaker 5: are still. They're still living and floating and being in existing,

762
00:39:41,200 --> 00:39:45,600
Speaker 5: and so you are. They are all different vibrational manifestations

763
00:39:45,640 --> 00:39:47,600
Speaker 5: of you, even though you might be the one who's

764
00:39:47,719 --> 00:39:50,480
Speaker 5: consciously of this body that you're in right now. And

765
00:39:50,560 --> 00:39:53,600
Speaker 5: so your greatest protection is the vibration that you're in.

766
00:39:54,320 --> 00:39:56,160
Speaker 5: You can only attract what you're vibrating.

767
00:39:58,160 --> 00:39:59,120
Speaker 2: So then is it none?

768
00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:03,440
Speaker 6: Is it not ideal then to work with your ancestors

769
00:40:03,920 --> 00:40:07,759
Speaker 6: or just in ritual if your vibration is like if

770
00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:11,040
Speaker 6: you're moving through something, I mean obviously, like you know

771
00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:13,960
Speaker 6: some of the some people run to their altars when

772
00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:17,080
Speaker 6: they're in like their poorest vibration right in hopes of

773
00:40:17,280 --> 00:40:22,920
Speaker 6: like an answer or guidance. How do you protect yourself

774
00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:25,560
Speaker 6: if you're feeling unprotected, you know what I mean, Like

775
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:28,280
Speaker 6: if you are in a vibration where you feel actually

776
00:40:28,320 --> 00:40:31,839
Speaker 6: totally out of control and you're seeking something for an

777
00:40:31,880 --> 00:40:33,720
Speaker 6: answer if.

778
00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:34,600
Speaker 2: That type of work.

779
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:43,080
Speaker 5: When you are again, it's a it's a it's a

780
00:40:45,600 --> 00:40:47,919
Speaker 5: I'm wondering myself. I'm asking myself. I'm like, well, how

781
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:53,640
Speaker 5: how wild is our toolbox of ancest I mean.

782
00:40:54,880 --> 00:40:58,160
Speaker 3: You never know, you don't, We don't all know wild.

783
00:40:58,280 --> 00:41:01,040
Speaker 5: This our toolbox of ancestors.

784
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:06,200
Speaker 3: For us right up through Yeah, bitch.

785
00:41:09,840 --> 00:41:17,040
Speaker 5: Right, because we aren't. We are too. You know, we

786
00:41:17,160 --> 00:41:24,279
Speaker 5: all belong to this large family of souls and spirits,

787
00:41:24,360 --> 00:41:27,439
Speaker 5: and that is where our ancestors are right when they're

788
00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:30,040
Speaker 5: not in form, that's where they are. They are part

789
00:41:30,080 --> 00:41:32,359
Speaker 5: of They are in that dimension where they remain sol,

790
00:41:32,440 --> 00:41:37,200
Speaker 5: they remain spirit, and so they are constantly with you,

791
00:41:37,960 --> 00:41:42,240
Speaker 5: rotating around as a presence and in whatever vibrational, whatever

792
00:41:42,280 --> 00:41:45,319
Speaker 5: state you're in. I mean, in order for you to

793
00:41:46,080 --> 00:41:48,520
Speaker 5: let's get wild, in order for you to attract a

794
00:41:48,719 --> 00:41:52,480
Speaker 5: or pull in a murderous ancestor, you must be. You

795
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:59,839
Speaker 5: must be in a murderous vibration. You might be come

796
00:42:00,680 --> 00:42:04,480
Speaker 5: and it's gonna support you in your murders streak like a

797
00:42:04,920 --> 00:42:11,200
Speaker 5: let's go Jack to rifer on this. But but you know,

798
00:42:11,440 --> 00:42:17,160
Speaker 5: we we can work with tools because two Your greatest

799
00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:21,160
Speaker 5: protection is your vibration, because that is your vibration. Your

800
00:42:21,280 --> 00:42:25,440
Speaker 5: energy is what gives permission to anything in your life.

801
00:42:25,440 --> 00:42:28,960
Speaker 5: There is nothing in your reality that nothing can be

802
00:42:29,080 --> 00:42:32,640
Speaker 5: in your reality without your permission. And your permission is

803
00:42:32,680 --> 00:42:36,240
Speaker 5: give you give it permission through your frequency, through your vibration.

804
00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:40,839
Speaker 5: I think we assume that the permission is given consciously,

805
00:42:40,920 --> 00:42:44,719
Speaker 5: where we say I herefore give you permission. No, you

806
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:48,200
Speaker 5: have to change your energy. Your energy has to cannot

807
00:42:48,440 --> 00:42:51,239
Speaker 5: if you don't want these filthy things to get in here,

808
00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:53,200
Speaker 5: then your energy has to vibrate different than.

809
00:42:53,200 --> 00:42:53,680
Speaker 2: Oh my god.

810
00:42:53,680 --> 00:42:57,400
Speaker 6: But that totally like destroys everyone's belief system that like

811
00:42:57,760 --> 00:42:59,200
Speaker 6: everything is happening to them.

812
00:43:00,040 --> 00:43:04,879
Speaker 9: That's not true nothing, I mean, like even but hearing that,

813
00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:07,239
Speaker 9: I mean a lot of people like I just hear

814
00:43:07,320 --> 00:43:09,640
Speaker 9: you know you hear people, including myself, And I mean

815
00:43:09,680 --> 00:43:11,920
Speaker 9: I'm not perfect in this either, where like you're choosing

816
00:43:11,920 --> 00:43:13,239
Speaker 9: a vibration to be in right.

817
00:43:13,480 --> 00:43:16,239
Speaker 6: I was just talking to jimil about this about like

818
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:19,879
Speaker 6: on the phone earlier, and it's like, you know, you

819
00:43:19,960 --> 00:43:22,800
Speaker 6: choose these vibrations, but like but they don't feel like

820
00:43:22,800 --> 00:43:24,440
Speaker 6: you know, you don't feel like you're choosing them. You

821
00:43:24,440 --> 00:43:27,120
Speaker 6: feel like they're they're choosing you, Like I didn't ask

822
00:43:27,160 --> 00:43:29,640
Speaker 6: for this to happen. I didn't tell this spirit to

823
00:43:29,640 --> 00:43:32,200
Speaker 6: come through. I didn't want that person to leave me,

824
00:43:32,880 --> 00:43:34,839
Speaker 6: Like why is all this happening to me all at

825
00:43:34,840 --> 00:43:38,080
Speaker 6: one time? Like I'm moving in positivity, I'm trying to

826
00:43:38,080 --> 00:43:40,799
Speaker 6: see the bright in everything. But it's like, you know,

827
00:43:41,920 --> 00:43:44,600
Speaker 6: generally that's not the truth. Generally that is not the truth,

828
00:43:45,960 --> 00:43:48,600
Speaker 6: and you might feel that way. You generally might feel

829
00:43:48,640 --> 00:43:51,640
Speaker 6: that way. There's usually something off, there's something off that

830
00:43:51,880 --> 00:43:56,080
Speaker 6: requires deeper, you know, investigation, and sometimes you can't even investigate.

831
00:43:56,120 --> 00:43:57,920
Speaker 6: You have to literally someone else has to show you

832
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:01,000
Speaker 6: and tell you or God will also think like when

833
00:44:01,040 --> 00:44:03,200
Speaker 6: you said you're choosing the vibration, I also think like

834
00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:05,960
Speaker 6: because we're godly beings, that God is always present, like

835
00:44:05,960 --> 00:44:10,840
Speaker 6: there's there's only so far, Like if you really believe

836
00:44:10,880 --> 00:44:12,680
Speaker 6: in that, because again it's about.

837
00:44:12,400 --> 00:44:13,240
Speaker 2: The belief systems.

838
00:44:13,239 --> 00:44:15,440
Speaker 6: If you really believe in God, whatever that means to you,

839
00:44:15,840 --> 00:44:17,840
Speaker 6: then you know that this presence is always with you

840
00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:20,400
Speaker 6: and even when you're calling, even in your darkest energy,

841
00:44:20,440 --> 00:44:24,000
Speaker 6: when you're working with this type of you know, magic,

842
00:44:24,800 --> 00:44:27,680
Speaker 6: like you know that there's a level of protection that like,

843
00:44:28,320 --> 00:44:31,080
Speaker 6: your spirit is calling in and if it gets there,

844
00:44:31,120 --> 00:44:33,359
Speaker 6: it's been something that you're supposed to face, right and

845
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:37,719
Speaker 6: that you're able to move through and not succumb to.

846
00:44:38,640 --> 00:44:41,800
Speaker 6: So that's what I kept thinking, like, yeah, there's all that.

847
00:44:41,840 --> 00:44:44,760
Speaker 6: There's also like it's our own vibration, but it's also

848
00:44:44,880 --> 00:44:47,200
Speaker 6: like this, this the essence of God that I feel

849
00:44:47,200 --> 00:44:49,440
Speaker 6: like is in all of us, in all humans, like the.

850
00:44:49,400 --> 00:44:53,320
Speaker 5: Fact that we're even here, we assume that. Well, the

851
00:44:54,160 --> 00:45:01,920
Speaker 5: thing is that our reality is driven ninety ninety five

852
00:45:01,920 --> 00:45:05,239
Speaker 5: percent of by reality is driven by our subconscious, and

853
00:45:05,280 --> 00:45:09,959
Speaker 5: so our vibration, the vibration we're in, comes from our subconscious,

854
00:45:10,000 --> 00:45:13,560
Speaker 5: it doesn't it very rarely does it come from the conscious.

855
00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:18,000
Speaker 5: The conscious mind has a very hard time overriding the subconscious.

856
00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:19,719
Speaker 5: So if you want to change your vibration, you have

857
00:45:19,760 --> 00:45:22,080
Speaker 5: to change the subconscious. You have to change the belief

858
00:45:22,120 --> 00:45:24,799
Speaker 5: system that is back here, that's been embedded back here

859
00:45:24,960 --> 00:45:28,719
Speaker 5: throughout how many years you've been alive. Because saying it

860
00:45:28,760 --> 00:45:33,080
Speaker 5: and affirming it with your mouth and you're that's just

861
00:45:33,480 --> 00:45:37,520
Speaker 5: that's just hot air doesn't mean anything. You're saying that,

862
00:45:37,640 --> 00:45:40,680
Speaker 5: and then and then you just it's it's like a

863
00:45:40,760 --> 00:45:43,600
Speaker 5: it's like a quick spike and suck and then you

864
00:45:43,680 --> 00:45:45,160
Speaker 5: go back to autopilot and.

865
00:45:45,080 --> 00:45:47,719
Speaker 3: Then you're able to say no effects, right, and.

866
00:45:47,800 --> 00:45:50,160
Speaker 5: You go back to your natural state. So if you

867
00:45:50,360 --> 00:45:56,000
Speaker 5: want to really change the vibration and you really want

868
00:45:56,080 --> 00:45:59,319
Speaker 5: to change the state, like really change it, you got

869
00:45:59,320 --> 00:46:02,160
Speaker 5: to get back here. You got to get into the programming.

870
00:46:02,320 --> 00:46:06,120
Speaker 5: You got to get back there. That's the work.

871
00:46:06,239 --> 00:46:07,680
Speaker 2: It takes work.

872
00:46:07,840 --> 00:46:11,000
Speaker 5: It's not affirmation, and it's not it's not wishful thinking,

873
00:46:11,040 --> 00:46:15,239
Speaker 5: and it's not just it's it's it's really overriding an

874
00:46:15,239 --> 00:46:18,480
Speaker 5: old belief system with a new belief system. That's how

875
00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:22,239
Speaker 5: it works. Tools, right, Like this is where tools come

876
00:46:22,280 --> 00:46:25,320
Speaker 5: in because in these type of conversations you could challenge

877
00:46:25,320 --> 00:46:27,520
Speaker 5: and say, well, if everything is us and everything is

878
00:46:27,560 --> 00:46:29,880
Speaker 5: our vibration, then how do tools come in and how

879
00:46:29,920 --> 00:46:32,319
Speaker 5: do tools help us? It's like, because the tools help

880
00:46:32,560 --> 00:46:38,000
Speaker 5: us anchor the conscious decision that we want. Right, your tools,

881
00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:43,400
Speaker 5: you have this candle for protection, right, because you want protection,

882
00:46:43,520 --> 00:46:49,399
Speaker 5: you want to feel protected. This this candle is going

883
00:46:49,480 --> 00:46:53,400
Speaker 5: to continuously remind you of the protection. And so now

884
00:46:53,520 --> 00:46:57,600
Speaker 5: you are creating a program because now you're looking at it,

885
00:46:57,719 --> 00:47:01,520
Speaker 5: you are praying to it, you are writing it. You're right,

886
00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:05,600
Speaker 5: you're overwriting something back. Then that's how it works. It has.

887
00:47:06,040 --> 00:47:11,600
Speaker 5: The subconscious is is reprogrammed through repetition. And because we

888
00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:14,520
Speaker 5: live in a physical reality, just wish for thinking or

889
00:47:14,520 --> 00:47:20,239
Speaker 5: imagining it or or or you know, speaking it doesn't work.

890
00:47:20,360 --> 00:47:23,680
Speaker 5: You have to give us some form because we live

891
00:47:23,680 --> 00:47:26,400
Speaker 5: in the world of form. We need to connect spirit

892
00:47:26,480 --> 00:47:31,560
Speaker 5: to form, to anchor it and manifest it faster instead

893
00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:32,719
Speaker 5: of it because then it's just hot neir.

894
00:47:33,560 --> 00:47:34,399
Speaker 3: The subconscious.

895
00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:38,719
Speaker 4: The subconscious works in like real feeling, real photos. Like

896
00:47:38,760 --> 00:47:41,239
Speaker 4: if I said, if I said cat right now, you

897
00:47:41,280 --> 00:47:41,959
Speaker 4: don't think of.

898
00:47:42,080 --> 00:47:42,680
Speaker 5: C a t.

899
00:47:43,160 --> 00:47:46,600
Speaker 3: You can see a cat, So like the physical form

900
00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:47,120
Speaker 3: of like if.

901
00:47:47,040 --> 00:47:49,840
Speaker 4: You've put something meaning into this protection candle and you

902
00:47:49,840 --> 00:47:51,279
Speaker 4: see it every day, or you're alter, you see it

903
00:47:51,280 --> 00:47:54,359
Speaker 4: every day, that's gonna embed differently than just saying like

904
00:47:54,600 --> 00:47:57,440
Speaker 4: you know whatever, just like you know, like just like

905
00:47:57,440 --> 00:47:59,520
Speaker 4: when people are like manifesting, you can wish upon a

906
00:47:59,560 --> 00:48:03,160
Speaker 4: star and something so fucking bad. But if in your subconscious,

907
00:48:03,160 --> 00:48:06,440
Speaker 4: you deeply on a deeper level, don't truly believe that

908
00:48:06,560 --> 00:48:10,400
Speaker 4: you that you deserve or worthy of that thing, or

909
00:48:10,400 --> 00:48:12,719
Speaker 4: you've never written in that car or eve never, like

910
00:48:12,760 --> 00:48:15,759
Speaker 4: you don't believe truly that you belong there. You could

911
00:48:15,800 --> 00:48:17,920
Speaker 4: wush upon a star forever and it's never going to

912
00:48:18,000 --> 00:48:21,000
Speaker 4: manifest that way, And like that's I think that's also

913
00:48:21,040 --> 00:48:23,279
Speaker 4: like an important part of like starting the dialogue with

914
00:48:23,320 --> 00:48:25,160
Speaker 4: the body that we talk about a lot in Tantra

915
00:48:25,600 --> 00:48:29,520
Speaker 4: is because when you when you're conscious enough to start

916
00:48:29,560 --> 00:48:32,160
Speaker 4: the dialogue with the body, you'll start to be aware

917
00:48:32,239 --> 00:48:34,120
Speaker 4: when things in your body don't sit right with you,

918
00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:36,040
Speaker 4: when they don't feel right. But we're a lot of

919
00:48:36,080 --> 00:48:39,520
Speaker 4: us are so often on like autopilot that even when

920
00:48:39,520 --> 00:48:42,360
Speaker 4: things feel uneasy in our gut or in our chest

921
00:48:42,480 --> 00:48:44,279
Speaker 4: or whatever, like you don't want to go to that

922
00:48:44,280 --> 00:48:46,960
Speaker 4: fucking birthday dinner, but you go anyway because so and

923
00:48:47,040 --> 00:48:48,840
Speaker 4: so is going to get mad or whatever.

924
00:48:48,880 --> 00:48:50,319
Speaker 3: You keep saying yes to things.

925
00:48:50,320 --> 00:48:53,280
Speaker 4: That's actually you know, you start to override your intuition

926
00:48:53,360 --> 00:48:56,120
Speaker 4: and then your numb and you don't feel what truly

927
00:48:56,200 --> 00:48:58,759
Speaker 4: feels good to you. And there's like a level of

928
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:02,400
Speaker 4: dialogue with your body you have to be and to

929
00:49:02,520 --> 00:49:06,200
Speaker 4: start to shift the subconscious so that when those negative

930
00:49:06,239 --> 00:49:08,160
Speaker 4: thoughts come up or when those things that go against

931
00:49:08,160 --> 00:49:10,759
Speaker 4: what you actually want come up. You could recognize it.

932
00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:13,120
Speaker 4: You could recognize, like, why am I rejecting this thing

933
00:49:13,120 --> 00:49:14,080
Speaker 4: that I want so badly?

934
00:49:14,120 --> 00:49:16,160
Speaker 3: It's because you don't believe that you actually deserve it.

935
00:49:16,560 --> 00:49:19,440
Speaker 4: You don't believe that it's actually it's actually like something

936
00:49:19,440 --> 00:49:23,239
Speaker 4: that you can you can draw to you. And this

937
00:49:23,320 --> 00:49:27,719
Speaker 4: is something that I think, I mean, if you're even

938
00:49:27,760 --> 00:49:30,680
Speaker 4: remotely a spiritual person or a person who's self aware,

939
00:49:31,040 --> 00:49:32,960
Speaker 4: this is where the work really starts to get like

940
00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:35,840
Speaker 4: nitty gritty. I think we're all, you know, around probably

941
00:49:35,880 --> 00:49:38,480
Speaker 4: the same age, and I think that this is where

942
00:49:38,520 --> 00:49:40,520
Speaker 4: I'm like I'm at right now, Like just like you

943
00:49:40,520 --> 00:49:42,440
Speaker 4: were saying, when you're in a bad cycle and a

944
00:49:42,480 --> 00:49:45,799
Speaker 4: bad mood, like there's a conscious choice that you have

945
00:49:45,840 --> 00:49:47,359
Speaker 4: to be like I'm going to get off of this now.

946
00:49:47,760 --> 00:49:52,120
Speaker 4: I'm done living in this reality. And so often we

947
00:49:52,440 --> 00:49:56,719
Speaker 4: especially as women, have been taught that we have been

948
00:49:56,719 --> 00:50:01,879
Speaker 4: taught to people please and to take on other people's

949
00:50:01,880 --> 00:50:04,440
Speaker 4: like ideas and things as truth. And so a lot

950
00:50:04,520 --> 00:50:08,040
Speaker 4: of times, like in relationships, for instance, when your man

951
00:50:08,200 --> 00:50:10,000
Speaker 4: is doing you know, something.

952
00:50:10,400 --> 00:50:13,160
Speaker 3: You might be fighting trying to get out of that mindset.

953
00:50:13,200 --> 00:50:17,080
Speaker 4: But like like you have to take responsibility in ways

954
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:20,279
Speaker 4: for your own shit, for how you feel, for what

955
00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:22,359
Speaker 4: you're bringing to the table, like for the moods you're in,

956
00:50:22,440 --> 00:50:24,759
Speaker 4: for the beliefs that you start to believe when you're

957
00:50:24,840 --> 00:50:27,320
Speaker 4: when you're around people and you're assuming people are talking

958
00:50:27,320 --> 00:50:29,640
Speaker 4: about you or saying something negative about you, just being

959
00:50:29,680 --> 00:50:31,680
Speaker 4: conscious of the stories that you're telling yourself.

960
00:50:31,719 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 3: Where the fuck did that form? Why am I saying this?

961
00:50:34,080 --> 00:50:34,920
Speaker 3: I don't know that to be.

962
00:50:34,920 --> 00:50:39,239
Speaker 4: True, but I am constantly going with this route of

963
00:50:39,320 --> 00:50:43,120
Speaker 4: thought pattern versus this route. But why, Like recently my

964
00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:45,640
Speaker 4: man said something to me because I was like, well,

965
00:50:45,719 --> 00:50:48,080
Speaker 4: you said this and so this means that, And he's like,

966
00:50:48,320 --> 00:50:50,680
Speaker 4: I've said a lot of things. Why do you choose

967
00:50:50,719 --> 00:50:55,040
Speaker 4: to believe the worst case scenario? He's like, you're choosing

968
00:50:55,080 --> 00:50:57,359
Speaker 4: to believe the worst case scenario? What if you thought

969
00:50:57,400 --> 00:51:00,799
Speaker 4: about the best case scenario? And I was like, well,

970
00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:01,200
Speaker 4: what's that?

971
00:51:02,920 --> 00:51:04,239
Speaker 3: What the fuck is that? You know?

972
00:51:04,320 --> 00:51:06,960
Speaker 4: But there is like and then I don't like, it's true.

973
00:51:07,000 --> 00:51:09,600
Speaker 4: You have to start to believe. And he's like, what

974
00:51:09,640 --> 00:51:12,480
Speaker 4: if nothing is wrong? What if everything's gonna be just fine?

975
00:51:12,800 --> 00:51:14,840
Speaker 4: If I was not being.

976
00:51:14,600 --> 00:51:15,319
Speaker 3: Sneaky at all?

977
00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:18,279
Speaker 4: What if I was just fucking having a regular conversation, bitch,

978
00:51:18,600 --> 00:51:19,200
Speaker 4: what about that?

979
00:51:19,560 --> 00:51:21,280
Speaker 3: You know, like what about those apples?

980
00:51:21,320 --> 00:51:24,480
Speaker 4: And I'm like, that doesn't fit my storyline for not

981
00:51:24,520 --> 00:51:25,360
Speaker 4: trusting people.

982
00:51:26,200 --> 00:51:26,600
Speaker 8: Yeah, I know.

983
00:51:26,800 --> 00:51:27,040
Speaker 5: Yeah.

984
00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:31,280
Speaker 6: The storyline is powerful tool is another tool. It's literally

985
00:51:31,320 --> 00:51:33,279
Speaker 6: like we have these tools that work against us, right,

986
00:51:33,280 --> 00:51:36,400
Speaker 6: that we've honed so fucking well. They're sharp as a

987
00:51:36,440 --> 00:51:38,880
Speaker 6: fucking knife, right, and then we have these other tools

988
00:51:38,880 --> 00:51:40,960
Speaker 6: that actually make us feel better, and we're like, yeah,

989
00:51:41,000 --> 00:51:43,560
Speaker 6: I'll get to that tool later. Yeah, let me tend

990
00:51:43,600 --> 00:51:45,359
Speaker 6: to that a little later. I don't know, I'm too

991
00:51:45,360 --> 00:51:46,919
Speaker 6: busy sharpening this one right now.

992
00:51:47,280 --> 00:51:48,640
Speaker 7: I'll use it to me, I'll use it.

993
00:51:48,600 --> 00:51:51,120
Speaker 4: To just just make myself feel like shit, I'd rather

994
00:51:51,160 --> 00:51:53,319
Speaker 4: believe that nobody likes me and she's against me and

995
00:51:53,320 --> 00:51:56,200
Speaker 4: he's against me, and fuck them all, because that's people

996
00:51:56,200 --> 00:51:59,920
Speaker 4: are disloyal, you know, like that is whatever my mom's

997
00:52:00,480 --> 00:52:02,640
Speaker 4: or whatever, like whatever that is. It's like something that

998
00:52:02,680 --> 00:52:04,520
Speaker 4: we inherit and we start to think. But when we

999
00:52:04,560 --> 00:52:08,240
Speaker 4: can start to recognize when those thought patterns are fucked

1000
00:52:08,320 --> 00:52:11,719
Speaker 4: up and start to think the best case scenario, that's

1001
00:52:11,719 --> 00:52:13,880
Speaker 4: when you can start to change your subconscious But it

1002
00:52:13,920 --> 00:52:17,600
Speaker 4: requires so much dedication, and even once you start to

1003
00:52:17,640 --> 00:52:20,480
Speaker 4: sharpen the tool, it still requires.

1004
00:52:20,680 --> 00:52:21,920
Speaker 3: You always have to do it.

1005
00:52:21,920 --> 00:52:26,120
Speaker 4: It's a lifelong the lifelong route of choosing to not

1006
00:52:26,600 --> 00:52:29,319
Speaker 4: stress yourself the fuck out and live in misery. And

1007
00:52:29,440 --> 00:52:34,040
Speaker 4: especially when we're living in places where collectively people are

1008
00:52:34,080 --> 00:52:37,799
Speaker 4: not that intentional with their thoughts people, or we're in

1009
00:52:37,880 --> 00:52:39,879
Speaker 4: a place where I think there's a shift happening, there's

1010
00:52:39,880 --> 00:52:41,080
Speaker 4: an enlightenment happening.

1011
00:52:41,320 --> 00:52:43,600
Speaker 3: Obviously there's a shift happening, and I want to also like.

1012
00:52:43,760 --> 00:52:46,120
Speaker 4: Shift to that too, because as we talk about frequency,

1013
00:52:47,120 --> 00:52:48,880
Speaker 4: I know we were talking about like dimensions, and I

1014
00:52:48,880 --> 00:52:53,520
Speaker 4: don't think people really like see your frequency as living

1015
00:52:53,520 --> 00:52:55,960
Speaker 4: in a different dimension, but it truly is when you

1016
00:52:55,960 --> 00:52:59,000
Speaker 4: can step out of the cloud of self whatever loathing

1017
00:52:59,160 --> 00:53:01,799
Speaker 4: or or whatever it is. And I know people, you

1018
00:53:01,800 --> 00:53:04,000
Speaker 4: know there's medical things too that you know.

1019
00:53:03,960 --> 00:53:04,960
Speaker 3: Are outside of us.

1020
00:53:05,200 --> 00:53:07,839
Speaker 4: But when you can see things for what's actually the

1021
00:53:07,840 --> 00:53:10,160
Speaker 4: good that's happening in the world, the good things that

1022
00:53:10,200 --> 00:53:13,080
Speaker 4: are happening to you, you can truly change your reality

1023
00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:17,120
Speaker 4: and like literally like quantum jump to a different dimension

1024
00:53:17,160 --> 00:53:19,920
Speaker 4: and then you'll attract different people and attract a different community,

1025
00:53:20,040 --> 00:53:22,759
Speaker 4: and your reality will be different. But I think sometimes

1026
00:53:23,040 --> 00:53:26,799
Speaker 4: the frequency of a places we live, the people we keep,

1027
00:53:27,080 --> 00:53:29,600
Speaker 4: and the belief systems that have we've been born into,

1028
00:53:30,040 --> 00:53:33,000
Speaker 4: keep us so low. Not to mention social media, where

1029
00:53:33,000 --> 00:53:35,160
Speaker 4: it's also designing how we think and what we feel,

1030
00:53:35,560 --> 00:53:41,520
Speaker 4: that that we sometimes stay in those places without thinking

1031
00:53:41,520 --> 00:53:43,800
Speaker 4: that we have any power over our reality.

1032
00:53:44,360 --> 00:53:47,799
Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean, I think that's that's that's magic, right,

1033
00:53:47,960 --> 00:53:50,839
Speaker 6: Like you see people like you often see people that

1034
00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:53,080
Speaker 6: like have totally transformed their lives right Like they've like

1035
00:53:53,120 --> 00:53:55,600
Speaker 6: are living totally different lives all of a sudden, You're

1036
00:53:55,600 --> 00:53:56,320
Speaker 6: like what the fuck?

1037
00:53:56,400 --> 00:53:58,359
Speaker 2: Like who are they? First of all, who do they

1038
00:53:58,360 --> 00:53:58,920
Speaker 2: think they are?

1039
00:53:59,000 --> 00:54:02,480
Speaker 6: Because how dare they just like switch and like decide

1040
00:54:02,760 --> 00:54:03,880
Speaker 6: to switch timelines?

1041
00:54:04,040 --> 00:54:05,200
Speaker 2: Like who the fuck do you think you are?

1042
00:54:05,760 --> 00:54:09,520
Speaker 6: Which is crazy also for people to like look at someone,

1043
00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:11,960
Speaker 6: it's it's it's a lot of times it's it's mirroring

1044
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:14,759
Speaker 6: something that you don't even know how how in your

1045
00:54:14,800 --> 00:54:18,440
Speaker 6: life to put the toolbox together to even begin to do.

1046
00:54:18,880 --> 00:54:21,359
Speaker 6: Whereas then you know people that do this all the time.

1047
00:54:21,400 --> 00:54:24,319
Speaker 6: They jump timelines all the time, they're reinventing themselves all

1048
00:54:24,360 --> 00:54:28,880
Speaker 6: the time. They're new person, they have new circles of friends.

1049
00:54:28,880 --> 00:54:33,800
Speaker 6: They're attracting new experiences because they've they figured out whatever

1050
00:54:33,840 --> 00:54:37,279
Speaker 6: those that that toolbox is for them, that magic is

1051
00:54:37,320 --> 00:54:40,280
Speaker 6: for them, that mind shift magic, that it is for them,

1052
00:54:41,160 --> 00:54:44,040
Speaker 6: and it's available to everybody.

1053
00:54:44,280 --> 00:54:44,480
Speaker 2: Right.

1054
00:54:45,040 --> 00:54:50,360
Speaker 6: Having the tools is so powerful in creating the habits

1055
00:54:50,400 --> 00:54:54,600
Speaker 6: and the intention and the momentum for whatever timeline it

1056
00:54:54,640 --> 00:54:57,600
Speaker 6: is that you're trying to jump into. Right, Like I

1057
00:54:57,680 --> 00:55:02,040
Speaker 6: was telling I was I was during my birth I

1058
00:55:02,080 --> 00:55:04,080
Speaker 6: needed a message. I was trying to search for something.

1059
00:55:04,239 --> 00:55:06,400
Speaker 6: So I know through my toolbox the things that I

1060
00:55:06,440 --> 00:55:08,040
Speaker 6: have created there's.

1061
00:55:07,880 --> 00:55:10,160
Speaker 7: Like for me and now this I'm so great.

1062
00:55:10,239 --> 00:55:12,760
Speaker 2: That was like that was the gift that I got.

1063
00:55:13,160 --> 00:55:16,600
Speaker 6: Was like a true confirmation of the sequence of things

1064
00:55:16,640 --> 00:55:19,319
Speaker 6: that in my toolbox that have to happen in order

1065
00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:21,440
Speaker 6: for me to get an answer. I know for sure

1066
00:55:21,600 --> 00:55:25,960
Speaker 6: I have mastered at least one ritual or sequence of

1067
00:55:26,000 --> 00:55:28,920
Speaker 6: things that I know I can get and pull something from.

1068
00:55:29,360 --> 00:55:32,360
Speaker 6: Like I mastered that, and that's that's exciting for me.

1069
00:55:32,800 --> 00:55:35,920
Speaker 6: And like some like you can call it witchcraft, you

1070
00:55:35,920 --> 00:55:41,880
Speaker 6: could call it fucking self mastery, you could call it who.

1071
00:55:41,640 --> 00:55:43,239
Speaker 2: Do you call all these different things?

1072
00:55:43,360 --> 00:55:43,440
Speaker 5: Right?

1073
00:55:43,480 --> 00:55:46,160
Speaker 6: And I think people get so wrapped up in the word,

1074
00:55:46,280 --> 00:55:47,560
Speaker 6: the language, all those things.

1075
00:55:48,040 --> 00:55:48,320
Speaker 7: Call it.

1076
00:55:48,360 --> 00:55:50,440
Speaker 6: Whatever the fuck you need to do, just do it,

1077
00:55:50,600 --> 00:55:54,160
Speaker 6: just get it, find it, you know, like find what

1078
00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:57,000
Speaker 6: those things are for you. And I'm going to tell you.

1079
00:55:58,480 --> 00:55:58,600
Speaker 5: One.

1080
00:55:59,640 --> 00:56:03,880
Speaker 6: Nature's involved one hundred percent. Movements involved one hundred percent.

1081
00:56:04,280 --> 00:56:07,160
Speaker 6: You know, touching your body, like being in communion with

1082
00:56:07,200 --> 00:56:09,920
Speaker 6: your body is involved one hundred percent. You're probably have

1083
00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:11,640
Speaker 6: to say some shit. Maybe might need to sing. I

1084
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:14,560
Speaker 6: know I need to sing, you know, like I need

1085
00:56:14,560 --> 00:56:16,680
Speaker 6: to be in near water. I like to hula hoop.

1086
00:56:16,920 --> 00:56:20,200
Speaker 6: Like there's things that for me, I know how to

1087
00:56:20,280 --> 00:56:24,200
Speaker 6: talk to source, this specific source, because then there's other

1088
00:56:24,239 --> 00:56:25,520
Speaker 6: things that I need to do in order to talk

1089
00:56:25,560 --> 00:56:28,000
Speaker 6: to my grandmother, And there's other things I need to

1090
00:56:28,000 --> 00:56:30,400
Speaker 6: do in order to talk to this ancestor that I

1091
00:56:30,400 --> 00:56:32,360
Speaker 6: don't have a name for yet, but I know it's someone,

1092
00:56:32,560 --> 00:56:35,880
Speaker 6: you know, Like, and I think, like we've we've we've

1093
00:56:36,880 --> 00:56:41,160
Speaker 6: demonized these things, these tools that are literally just God given,

1094
00:56:41,840 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 6: they're so natural, they're in the Bible actually, you know.

1095
00:56:46,840 --> 00:56:51,880
Speaker 6: And I guess what has been your experience in creating

1096
00:56:51,920 --> 00:56:55,399
Speaker 6: your toolbox, like, because for me it's been obviously it's

1097
00:56:55,400 --> 00:56:58,359
Speaker 6: like trial and error, Like, is there specific realm in

1098
00:56:58,360 --> 00:57:00,520
Speaker 6: in in the work that you do that you feel

1099
00:57:00,520 --> 00:57:04,480
Speaker 6: like mastered in creating these tools for yourself?

1100
00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:12,040
Speaker 5: Oh, I mean I have, I have. I mean I

1101
00:57:13,160 --> 00:57:18,360
Speaker 5: have different tools for different things. But when it comes

1102
00:57:18,440 --> 00:57:25,640
Speaker 5: to when it comes to manifesting, my most trustworthy tool

1103
00:57:26,760 --> 00:57:34,840
Speaker 5: is writing and communicating. Is me writing down what it is,

1104
00:57:35,400 --> 00:57:38,480
Speaker 5: what the timeline that I want to jump to looks like,

1105
00:57:39,000 --> 00:57:41,680
Speaker 5: feels like, what it is like, what's there? Who I

1106
00:57:41,720 --> 00:57:47,680
Speaker 5: am there? And then saying it, speaking it out loud.

1107
00:57:49,000 --> 00:57:53,200
Speaker 5: That's my tool that works for me all the time.

1108
00:57:53,240 --> 00:57:56,280
Speaker 5: And I always do that in the presence of and

1109
00:57:56,400 --> 00:57:59,600
Speaker 5: the presence of a candle and presence of candlelight. This

1110
00:57:59,680 --> 00:58:03,960
Speaker 5: is why I have such a connection. You know, I

1111
00:58:04,400 --> 00:58:06,520
Speaker 5: almost set attachment, but I don't want to say attachment.

1112
00:58:06,600 --> 00:58:07,920
Speaker 5: But this is why I have so much such a

1113
00:58:07,960 --> 00:58:10,840
Speaker 5: connection with candles. And you know, even like my my

1114
00:58:10,920 --> 00:58:14,000
Speaker 5: first product on their House of who To were fixed candles.

1115
00:58:14,000 --> 00:58:17,280
Speaker 5: And it's because I do everything under candlelight. I love

1116
00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:23,040
Speaker 5: having the candle be a point of a focus, even

1117
00:58:23,080 --> 00:58:24,840
Speaker 5: if I'm not even if it's not a fixed candle,

1118
00:58:24,840 --> 00:58:26,800
Speaker 5: I just have like a white little candle and now

1119
00:58:26,840 --> 00:58:31,320
Speaker 5: I'm just like focusing on displane and allowing the cont

1120
00:58:31,360 --> 00:58:33,640
Speaker 5: and allowing the noise to kind of like drift away

1121
00:58:33,840 --> 00:58:36,440
Speaker 5: so that my mind becomes clear and everything and all

1122
00:58:36,480 --> 00:58:39,640
Speaker 5: that I have here is just what I want.

1123
00:58:40,000 --> 00:58:40,360
Speaker 2: Mhm.

1124
00:58:41,520 --> 00:58:44,560
Speaker 5: You know. It's almost like a form of hypnotherapy.

1125
00:58:45,560 --> 00:58:47,720
Speaker 3: By that way.

1126
00:58:47,840 --> 00:58:50,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're just watching the candle and you're so focused

1127
00:58:50,960 --> 00:58:55,440
Speaker 5: on it and visualizing and imagining that timeline, that reality

1128
00:58:56,080 --> 00:58:58,880
Speaker 5: and aligning with it. You are in that moment you

1129
00:58:58,920 --> 00:59:01,560
Speaker 5: are aligning with it, and that is and it's it's

1130
00:59:01,600 --> 00:59:04,959
Speaker 5: so so real. You know. It goes from material which

1131
00:59:05,000 --> 00:59:09,080
Speaker 5: is writing it, to then speaking it and then seeing it,

1132
00:59:09,120 --> 00:59:11,280
Speaker 5: so then it's shifting and materializing.

1133
00:59:12,240 --> 00:59:13,360
Speaker 2: Can you sorry?

1134
00:59:13,360 --> 00:59:14,680
Speaker 6: I was just going to ask you what is a

1135
00:59:14,720 --> 00:59:16,880
Speaker 6: fixed What is a fixed candle? For people that are

1136
00:59:16,920 --> 00:59:19,160
Speaker 6: listening and don't know what that means or what that is?

1137
00:59:20,320 --> 00:59:24,400
Speaker 5: I mean, all right, So a fixed candle right like

1138
00:59:24,680 --> 00:59:32,480
Speaker 5: he It's a candle that you prepare with with ingredients

1139
00:59:32,640 --> 00:59:40,320
Speaker 5: like oils, powders, herbs. Sometimes people will put crushed crystals

1140
00:59:40,400 --> 00:59:45,240
Speaker 5: and other minerals on it. The reason why fixed candles

1141
00:59:45,360 --> 00:59:48,520
Speaker 5: are as we call them, you know, in Hudu culture,

1142
00:59:48,840 --> 00:59:51,480
Speaker 5: it's called fixed candle, but other people call them dressed

1143
00:59:51,480 --> 00:59:54,480
Speaker 5: candles prepared candles. But it's essentially the same thing. You know,

1144
00:59:54,600 --> 00:59:56,920
Speaker 5: it's like fixing. It's like fixing a plate, right like

1145
00:59:57,000 --> 00:59:59,640
Speaker 5: old Southern term I'm a fix real plate is like

1146
00:59:59,680 --> 01:00:06,440
Speaker 5: i'm a together play for you. And so everything everything

1147
01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:12,320
Speaker 5: under the sun has consciousness. And when you're working, the

1148
01:00:12,760 --> 01:00:16,800
Speaker 5: wax has consciousness, the glass has consciousness, anything that any

1149
01:00:16,920 --> 01:00:22,040
Speaker 5: everything has consciousness because everything is under the it's under

1150
01:00:22,400 --> 01:00:27,520
Speaker 5: the Creator's creation. Nothing is here without the creator, nothing

1151
01:00:27,600 --> 01:00:31,400
Speaker 5: is here without source. Everything has source energy, everything has frequency.

1152
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:34,240
Speaker 5: And so from the from the wax to the wicks,

1153
01:00:34,280 --> 01:00:36,680
Speaker 5: to the labels, to the candle, to the glass, to

1154
01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:39,320
Speaker 5: the oils, to the herbs to the flame when you

1155
01:00:39,400 --> 01:00:44,680
Speaker 5: light it, that is all consciousness coming together to support

1156
01:00:44,760 --> 01:00:49,160
Speaker 5: you in your ritual. You have this little you know,

1157
01:00:49,280 --> 01:00:51,959
Speaker 5: kind of like this this little tool full of consciousness,

1158
01:00:52,000 --> 01:00:55,320
Speaker 5: and your lying it with your own consciousness and it

1159
01:00:55,400 --> 01:00:59,160
Speaker 5: becomes this point of focus so that you can pinpoint

1160
01:00:59,240 --> 01:01:02,480
Speaker 5: the reality. I always look at realities as like pages

1161
01:01:02,520 --> 01:01:04,360
Speaker 5: in a book, and I'm like, well, which page do

1162
01:01:04,400 --> 01:01:06,080
Speaker 5: I want to jump to? I want to jump to

1163
01:01:06,120 --> 01:01:09,800
Speaker 5: this page. And a candle ritual allows you to phone

1164
01:01:09,800 --> 01:01:13,280
Speaker 5: in on that on that reality and plug yourself in

1165
01:01:13,280 --> 01:01:14,400
Speaker 5: there and just jump in there.

1166
01:01:16,960 --> 01:01:18,720
Speaker 4: And when I think about this, I think about like

1167
01:01:18,760 --> 01:01:22,960
Speaker 4: a couple of things, like a you have to continue

1168
01:01:22,960 --> 01:01:24,840
Speaker 4: to come back to your like you have to revisit

1169
01:01:24,840 --> 01:01:29,240
Speaker 4: manifestations over and over and over again because we're like

1170
01:01:29,280 --> 01:01:32,720
Speaker 4: a part of us is only aware to the scope

1171
01:01:32,720 --> 01:01:35,440
Speaker 4: of what we've experienced and what we've seen. Right, So,

1172
01:01:35,560 --> 01:01:37,040
Speaker 4: like as a kid, you've only seen so much. You've

1173
01:01:37,080 --> 01:01:40,120
Speaker 4: only seen your parents' relationship, maybe some family members relationships,

1174
01:01:40,160 --> 01:01:41,920
Speaker 4: so you have an idea of what it's like at

1175
01:01:41,920 --> 01:01:44,560
Speaker 4: the very bare level what you've seen. But as you

1176
01:01:45,040 --> 01:01:48,000
Speaker 4: as you like expand, as you learn more, as you

1177
01:01:48,000 --> 01:01:48,880
Speaker 4: see more, you're like.

1178
01:01:48,840 --> 01:01:51,640
Speaker 3: Oh, actually I want that. Oh I didn't know you

1179
01:01:51,640 --> 01:01:53,160
Speaker 3: could do that. I want that, you know.

1180
01:01:53,240 --> 01:01:56,280
Speaker 4: So there's like a it's like a story that's constantly

1181
01:01:56,320 --> 01:02:00,720
Speaker 4: being written that you you can because also we're living

1182
01:02:00,760 --> 01:02:03,520
Speaker 4: lives that as kids versions of it, we wanted this.

1183
01:02:03,640 --> 01:02:05,640
Speaker 4: I'm living the life that I dreamed. Did I know

1184
01:02:05,720 --> 01:02:07,200
Speaker 4: like I was gonna be a podcast or not? Because

1185
01:02:07,200 --> 01:02:08,800
Speaker 4: who the fuck knew what that was back then?

1186
01:02:08,880 --> 01:02:11,680
Speaker 3: But like I you know, there's like just levels of.

1187
01:02:11,640 --> 01:02:15,320
Speaker 4: Expansion and that your dreams and your manifestations require and

1188
01:02:15,360 --> 01:02:20,440
Speaker 4: like and in childhood, it's so easy to like feel

1189
01:02:20,480 --> 01:02:23,880
Speaker 4: the mystic you know, like like watching witchy movies, like

1190
01:02:23,920 --> 01:02:25,880
Speaker 4: going to the library trying to look for witch books

1191
01:02:25,880 --> 01:02:30,160
Speaker 4: and spells. There's like a it's like you're it's it's

1192
01:02:30,320 --> 01:02:32,720
Speaker 4: mystery and it's fun. But like I feel like I

1193
01:02:32,760 --> 01:02:36,480
Speaker 4: had such deeper psychic powers as a child because I

1194
01:02:36,600 --> 01:02:39,560
Speaker 4: just that's what I believed in, you know, And like

1195
01:02:39,600 --> 01:02:41,440
Speaker 4: I would be like I would ask a question and

1196
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:43,280
Speaker 4: I'm like the first letter that I see, if it's

1197
01:02:43,320 --> 01:02:45,600
Speaker 4: like why or E or E it has hy e

1198
01:02:45,720 --> 01:02:47,120
Speaker 4: or S in it, it's a yes. If it has

1199
01:02:47,240 --> 01:02:49,200
Speaker 4: N or OW in it, the answer is no. And

1200
01:02:49,240 --> 01:02:50,680
Speaker 4: I just would do that in the backseat of the

1201
01:02:50,720 --> 01:02:52,320
Speaker 4: car and close my eyes and then look up at

1202
01:02:52,360 --> 01:02:54,800
Speaker 4: something and be like no, close my eyes. It's just

1203
01:02:54,840 --> 01:02:57,560
Speaker 4: like the most like why my child mind was working

1204
01:02:57,600 --> 01:03:00,280
Speaker 4: that way. But like coming back to those things like

1205
01:03:01,320 --> 01:03:03,880
Speaker 4: everything like you said, like we're all made up of Adams.

1206
01:03:04,160 --> 01:03:05,680
Speaker 4: The book is made up of the same thing I'm

1207
01:03:05,680 --> 01:03:09,040
Speaker 4: made up of, except I'm the consciousness like in this form,

1208
01:03:09,080 --> 01:03:09,360
Speaker 4: and so.

1209
01:03:09,400 --> 01:03:13,280
Speaker 3: I'm ultimately giving it power. I make, I make what

1210
01:03:13,320 --> 01:03:13,560
Speaker 3: it is.

1211
01:03:13,680 --> 01:03:15,680
Speaker 4: Just like we were talking about, you know, those questions

1212
01:03:15,760 --> 01:03:18,160
Speaker 4: I was asking you about. You know, when you certain

1213
01:03:18,200 --> 01:03:20,080
Speaker 4: when you come in contact with certain things, it's like,

1214
01:03:20,160 --> 01:03:22,440
Speaker 4: if that's what you believe, that's what it is.

1215
01:03:23,120 --> 01:03:24,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know that is the truth.

1216
01:03:24,920 --> 01:03:28,120
Speaker 4: There's there's multiple truths, Like how you're experiencing this conversation

1217
01:03:28,160 --> 01:03:31,000
Speaker 4: and how you're experience this conversation, Eric are totally different

1218
01:03:31,000 --> 01:03:33,120
Speaker 4: than how I'm experiencing this conversation, and we're all having

1219
01:03:33,200 --> 01:03:41,480
Speaker 4: the same conversation. You know, Like it's just remembering to

1220
01:03:41,600 --> 01:03:45,000
Speaker 4: dive into your imagination in order to create your life.

1221
01:03:45,640 --> 01:03:47,680
Speaker 4: It can be your wildest dreams, but you have to

1222
01:03:47,720 --> 01:03:49,680
Speaker 4: be able to get into the dreams and the imagination.

1223
01:03:51,360 --> 01:03:55,200
Speaker 5: When I came to the realization, when I came to

1224
01:03:55,240 --> 01:04:00,200
Speaker 5: that awakening, or write that clarity, that awakening, that our

1225
01:04:00,320 --> 01:04:03,880
Speaker 5: experience are our whole reality. There is not a fraction

1226
01:04:04,040 --> 01:04:07,520
Speaker 5: of our reality that is not dictated by our belief system.

1227
01:04:08,600 --> 01:04:12,000
Speaker 5: I had a very you know, fuck it, what the

1228
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:15,600
Speaker 5: fuck is the point of it? I had a very

1229
01:04:15,680 --> 01:04:17,000
Speaker 5: like what the fuck is the point of it?

1230
01:04:17,040 --> 01:04:20,960
Speaker 8: And then I'm just not gonna believe in anything, because

1231
01:04:20,960 --> 01:04:25,120
Speaker 8: I believe if making believe not Also, if my belief

1232
01:04:25,160 --> 01:04:28,360
Speaker 8: system always also makes me vulnerable.

1233
01:04:29,240 --> 01:04:33,720
Speaker 5: To the things that I don't want, then what the fuck?

1234
01:04:33,840 --> 01:04:36,120
Speaker 5: And I just wanted like a blank slick. I don't

1235
01:04:36,160 --> 01:04:38,480
Speaker 5: want to believe in anything I don't believe in, And

1236
01:04:38,520 --> 01:04:43,600
Speaker 5: then I always have these moments of like clarity, of

1237
01:04:43,720 --> 01:04:46,200
Speaker 5: like this is why I have my morning rituals where

1238
01:04:46,240 --> 01:04:48,400
Speaker 5: I just wake up and the first thing I do

1239
01:04:49,520 --> 01:04:53,000
Speaker 5: is just light my incense and start sweeping, because in

1240
01:04:53,040 --> 01:04:56,040
Speaker 5: that silence and in that meditation of just sweeping around,

1241
01:04:56,120 --> 01:05:00,120
Speaker 5: all of the answers come and all the clarity comes.

1242
01:05:00,280 --> 01:05:04,200
Speaker 5: And in that moment, you know, in one morning, in

1243
01:05:04,480 --> 01:05:08,080
Speaker 5: something like my consciousness, you know, my higher consciousness came

1244
01:05:08,120 --> 01:05:13,280
Speaker 5: and spoke to me and said, you cannot The reason

1245
01:05:13,320 --> 01:05:18,440
Speaker 5: why you're feeling so stuck right now is because you

1246
01:05:18,480 --> 01:05:20,920
Speaker 5: went on a bantern. You went on a rampage of

1247
01:05:21,000 --> 01:05:24,680
Speaker 5: I don't want to believe in shit, and now you're

1248
01:05:24,720 --> 01:05:28,760
Speaker 5: stuck in this fucking limbo. You have to believe because

1249
01:05:28,800 --> 01:05:33,280
Speaker 5: it's belief that creates your reality. You cannot just not

1250
01:05:33,400 --> 01:05:36,040
Speaker 5: believe shit, because that's not going to cancel out everything else.

1251
01:05:36,080 --> 01:05:38,080
Speaker 5: It's just going to leave you suspended in this limbo

1252
01:05:38,120 --> 01:05:40,240
Speaker 5: of like nothing. That's because you have no direction. It's

1253
01:05:40,280 --> 01:05:44,360
Speaker 5: like you turned off the car. You turn off the car,

1254
01:05:45,000 --> 01:05:48,960
Speaker 5: turn the car back on, So turn the car back on.

1255
01:05:49,080 --> 01:05:51,040
Speaker 5: You have to start believing.

1256
01:05:51,680 --> 01:05:52,720
Speaker 2: So now from.

1257
01:05:52,560 --> 01:05:56,520
Speaker 5: This point on, since now you understand that your entire

1258
01:05:56,600 --> 01:06:03,560
Speaker 5: reality is created by your belief system, then start creating

1259
01:06:03,600 --> 01:06:04,400
Speaker 5: new beliefs.

1260
01:06:06,280 --> 01:06:10,640
Speaker 6: Start building your motherfucking toolbox, because it's literally just what

1261
01:06:10,640 --> 01:06:12,240
Speaker 6: what do you believe works for you?

1262
01:06:13,000 --> 01:06:17,600
Speaker 5: Yeah, start creating new believes. You cannot lead because without

1263
01:06:17,600 --> 01:06:21,600
Speaker 5: the belief, you cannot have a reality. You cannot.

1264
01:06:23,520 --> 01:06:26,600
Speaker 4: And it requires the openness and like, like I think

1265
01:06:26,600 --> 01:06:29,000
Speaker 4: I was saying imagination before, like as a child, but

1266
01:06:29,080 --> 01:06:31,680
Speaker 4: like the openness to really just do some new shit.

1267
01:06:31,840 --> 01:06:33,360
Speaker 4: You know, a lot of times we have these beliefs

1268
01:06:33,360 --> 01:06:35,840
Speaker 4: like that's silly or this is stupid, even me, Like

1269
01:06:35,880 --> 01:06:39,920
Speaker 4: we're all functioning on like this very simple, tangible three

1270
01:06:40,000 --> 01:06:42,560
Speaker 4: D reality, and at a soul level.

1271
01:06:42,320 --> 01:06:44,240
Speaker 3: We're dimensionless.

1272
01:06:44,320 --> 01:06:46,760
Speaker 4: I mean, we can travel anywhere and back, you know

1273
01:06:46,800 --> 01:06:49,840
Speaker 4: what I mean, but we're anchored here in this form

1274
01:06:49,960 --> 01:06:52,280
Speaker 4: right now, and so we are living in a lot

1275
01:06:52,320 --> 01:06:57,680
Speaker 4: of different realities. But it's the openness that powers this

1276
01:06:57,760 --> 01:06:59,320
Speaker 4: three D like this three D.

1277
01:06:59,400 --> 01:07:01,320
Speaker 3: Space that in do you know what I mean? And

1278
01:07:01,360 --> 01:07:02,560
Speaker 3: like we had to be able to tap into that.

1279
01:07:02,600 --> 01:07:06,680
Speaker 4: And just this weekend I had a Tontra session with

1280
01:07:06,760 --> 01:07:09,280
Speaker 4: a couple and the guy I was just like, you know,

1281
01:07:09,480 --> 01:07:12,080
Speaker 4: some of this is going to feel stupid, but I'm

1282
01:07:12,160 --> 01:07:14,880
Speaker 4: inviting you to do it anyway and see where it

1283
01:07:14,880 --> 01:07:18,600
Speaker 4: brings you without judgment, you know. And then the day after,

1284
01:07:18,760 --> 01:07:21,280
Speaker 4: a friend of mine invited me in Orlando to do

1285
01:07:21,320 --> 01:07:24,320
Speaker 4: like a tontra reiki session and it was and I

1286
01:07:24,360 --> 01:07:26,160
Speaker 4: went in the room Orlando, who just worked like he's

1287
01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:27,280
Speaker 4: worked every day this month.

1288
01:07:27,600 --> 01:07:29,960
Speaker 3: He worked on a Saturday. He was like just in

1289
01:07:30,000 --> 01:07:30,880
Speaker 3: there watching.

1290
01:07:30,600 --> 01:07:32,720
Speaker 4: Football and I was like, Hey, you wanted to do

1291
01:07:32,760 --> 01:07:34,600
Speaker 4: a reiki session with me?

1292
01:07:34,760 --> 01:07:37,160
Speaker 3: He's like, not really, I want to watch football. And

1293
01:07:37,200 --> 01:07:39,720
Speaker 3: I was like, okay, I'll just do it by myself.

1294
01:07:40,240 --> 01:07:42,200
Speaker 3: And he was like fine, if you want to do it,

1295
01:07:42,200 --> 01:07:42,560
Speaker 3: we'll do it.

1296
01:07:42,600 --> 01:07:45,520
Speaker 4: So we went upstairs and you know, I knew better

1297
01:07:45,560 --> 01:07:48,160
Speaker 4: than to ask like what it consisted of, because there's

1298
01:07:48,240 --> 01:07:50,840
Speaker 4: never going to be a step by step anyway. It

1299
01:07:50,920 --> 01:07:54,320
Speaker 4: got really good, but it was like there was a

1300
01:07:54,360 --> 01:07:56,320
Speaker 4: point where I was like worried, like he's going to be.

1301
01:07:56,240 --> 01:07:57,720
Speaker 3: Like, bitch, what are we doing? I want to go

1302
01:07:57,760 --> 01:07:58,920
Speaker 3: downstairs and watch football.

1303
01:07:58,960 --> 01:08:00,840
Speaker 4: And then there's a point where I just release and

1304
01:08:00,920 --> 01:08:03,720
Speaker 4: let it go and just follow the directions. And we

1305
01:08:03,720 --> 01:08:07,760
Speaker 4: were like rying, mining and growling and breathing and like,

1306
01:08:08,920 --> 01:08:10,520
Speaker 4: you know, just being like I was like, if anyone

1307
01:08:10,600 --> 01:08:12,200
Speaker 4: was like a fly on the wall, they're like, these

1308
01:08:12,240 --> 01:08:16,439
Speaker 4: people are absolutely crazy. But when I just dropped into

1309
01:08:16,479 --> 01:08:19,000
Speaker 4: my body and dropped into the instructions of whatever I

1310
01:08:19,040 --> 01:08:22,800
Speaker 4: was told I did, I had like a full body orgasm,

1311
01:08:22,880 --> 01:08:26,040
Speaker 4: like an energy like of just feeling of like just

1312
01:08:26,080 --> 01:08:29,160
Speaker 4: feeling tingly all over my body. And I cried, I laughed,

1313
01:08:29,560 --> 01:08:31,560
Speaker 4: and it almost like I took a psychedelic But I

1314
01:08:32,080 --> 01:08:33,680
Speaker 4: knew that I could get there and even meet someone

1315
01:08:33,720 --> 01:08:36,600
Speaker 4: who's like I could be pretty skeptical, but also I'm like,

1316
01:08:36,640 --> 01:08:38,759
Speaker 4: fuck it, let's do it. You know, there's a level

1317
01:08:38,800 --> 01:08:41,639
Speaker 4: of consciousness I have to release in order to go

1318
01:08:41,720 --> 01:08:44,599
Speaker 4: there and let my body ride. And I think as adults,

1319
01:08:44,600 --> 01:08:47,599
Speaker 4: we become more and more skeptical because we're surviving, you know,

1320
01:08:47,640 --> 01:08:50,680
Speaker 4: we have to survive, and so your your reality is

1321
01:08:50,720 --> 01:08:53,040
Speaker 4: such reflection of the like the like the reality that

1322
01:08:53,080 --> 01:08:55,400
Speaker 4: we're living in, and that you're you need to pay

1323
01:08:55,400 --> 01:08:56,840
Speaker 4: bills and you need to go and you need to

1324
01:08:56,880 --> 01:08:57,800
Speaker 4: do this, You need to do that.

1325
01:08:57,800 --> 01:09:00,439
Speaker 3: That it's hard to have a level of open is.

1326
01:09:00,280 --> 01:09:03,439
Speaker 4: To remember to keep designing your life and like the

1327
01:09:03,520 --> 01:09:06,280
Speaker 4: belief and the power comes from this other source. But

1328
01:09:06,520 --> 01:09:09,479
Speaker 4: just like allowing those places to both exist, you know.

1329
01:09:10,320 --> 01:09:13,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, and bringing it back to imagination, you know, we

1330
01:09:14,000 --> 01:09:20,280
Speaker 5: as we have been telling ourselves since since you know,

1331
01:09:20,479 --> 01:09:22,880
Speaker 5: not start of telling ourselves, but adults telling us when

1332
01:09:22,880 --> 01:09:25,400
Speaker 5: we were kids, and now us telling ourselves and telling

1333
01:09:25,479 --> 01:09:29,240
Speaker 5: kids that all you're it's just imagining. It's just imagining.

1334
01:09:29,280 --> 01:09:36,880
Speaker 5: Our imagination is source connection. Our imagination allows us to

1335
01:09:37,120 --> 01:09:46,719
Speaker 5: see the realities that there are within our own spectrum

1336
01:09:47,120 --> 01:09:49,720
Speaker 5: so that we can project ourselves that way, if that's

1337
01:09:49,720 --> 01:09:52,439
Speaker 5: where we want to go. If you can't imagine it,

1338
01:09:52,880 --> 01:09:57,320
Speaker 5: you can create it because it already exists. If it

1339
01:09:57,360 --> 01:09:59,600
Speaker 5: is in your imagination, then it is and it is

1340
01:09:59,640 --> 01:10:04,080
Speaker 5: a real and it is alive and it is living

1341
01:10:04,120 --> 01:10:06,439
Speaker 5: and it is doing and it is breathing, and it only

1342
01:10:06,680 --> 01:10:11,720
Speaker 5: needs your consciousness to align with it through frequency, through vibration,

1343
01:10:12,000 --> 01:10:17,120
Speaker 5: through belief it for you to be living it. And

1344
01:10:17,160 --> 01:10:19,920
Speaker 5: that's what imagination allows us to do. That's why imagination

1345
01:10:20,040 --> 01:10:23,160
Speaker 5: for children. It's like, this is why when we were

1346
01:10:23,240 --> 01:10:28,480
Speaker 5: kids we were so magical, because we we we imagined

1347
01:10:29,120 --> 01:10:33,439
Speaker 5: and then projected ourselves in that direction. We didn't question it.

1348
01:10:33,600 --> 01:10:35,559
Speaker 5: We believed it. If we saw it in our minds,

1349
01:10:35,560 --> 01:10:37,439
Speaker 5: it's like, oh, it's real, it's true and it's happening.

1350
01:10:37,520 --> 01:10:39,280
Speaker 5: Now we see it in our minds and we questioned it,

1351
01:10:39,360 --> 01:10:42,479
Speaker 5: We're like, oh, it's fantasy, it's imagination. There's no way

1352
01:10:42,680 --> 01:10:45,160
Speaker 5: it's like it. No, that is that is our that

1353
01:10:45,280 --> 01:10:48,439
Speaker 5: is our like a catching record, like our imagination. It's

1354
01:10:48,520 --> 01:10:51,120
Speaker 5: it's the book that liss like. It's like the slides

1355
01:10:51,160 --> 01:10:53,839
Speaker 5: of the film that tells us look at all the slides,

1356
01:10:53,920 --> 01:10:55,920
Speaker 5: look at all the obums you have, look at all

1357
01:10:55,920 --> 01:10:59,280
Speaker 5: the choices, which one will you pick? It's our catalogue.

1358
01:11:00,080 --> 01:11:02,599
Speaker 5: Imagination is our catalog, and it lets us know, like

1359
01:11:02,640 --> 01:11:04,800
Speaker 5: these are the potentials of the opportunities. Do you want

1360
01:11:04,840 --> 01:11:05,960
Speaker 5: to align with it? All? Right?

1361
01:11:06,080 --> 01:11:09,960
Speaker 4: Let's shift mm hmm, because we don't pick the best

1362
01:11:10,000 --> 01:11:14,000
Speaker 4: case scenarios because somewhere someone has told us, no, that's

1363
01:11:14,040 --> 01:11:15,440
Speaker 4: not reality, that's not realistic.

1364
01:11:16,080 --> 01:11:18,280
Speaker 6: And that's like, you know, I was just thinking about,

1365
01:11:18,320 --> 01:11:21,240
Speaker 6: like how happy children are, right, because they get to

1366
01:11:21,320 --> 01:11:23,880
Speaker 6: choose their reality every day. And it's like until someone

1367
01:11:23,920 --> 01:11:26,639
Speaker 6: until some stupid ass adult like fucking beats it out

1368
01:11:26,680 --> 01:11:29,600
Speaker 6: of them, that this just can't happen. And that's like

1369
01:11:29,680 --> 01:11:33,000
Speaker 6: as adults, like we're always on trying to remember what

1370
01:11:33,080 --> 01:11:35,000
Speaker 6: that felt like as a child, or like trying to

1371
01:11:35,000 --> 01:11:38,000
Speaker 6: go back to our child like self right or here.

1372
01:11:38,120 --> 01:11:39,240
Speaker 2: Heal our inner child.

1373
01:11:40,080 --> 01:11:42,600
Speaker 6: And the beauty of being an adult is that we

1374
01:11:42,680 --> 01:11:45,040
Speaker 6: have a lot more free will than we did as children.

1375
01:11:45,520 --> 01:11:49,200
Speaker 6: We have the opportunity to decide who is around us

1376
01:11:49,280 --> 01:11:54,360
Speaker 6: supporting our reality. Whereas when we're children, the person who's

1377
01:11:54,400 --> 01:11:56,800
Speaker 6: not supporting your reality might be your own parent, you know,

1378
01:11:56,920 --> 01:12:00,080
Speaker 6: might be the household that you live in. And so

1379
01:12:00,200 --> 01:12:02,599
Speaker 6: like I think that as sometimes as adults we get

1380
01:12:02,640 --> 01:12:05,040
Speaker 6: really sad because like, oh man, it could have been different,

1381
01:12:05,200 --> 01:12:08,400
Speaker 6: like if I was a kid. Well, actually it's actually

1382
01:12:08,400 --> 01:12:10,040
Speaker 6: it's not. I want to say it's better, but it's

1383
01:12:10,120 --> 01:12:12,400
Speaker 6: it's today. This is, this is it is just as

1384
01:12:12,400 --> 01:12:15,600
Speaker 6: beautiful because now you actually have the free will to

1385
01:12:15,640 --> 01:12:17,560
Speaker 6: really design the life you want.

1386
01:12:18,760 --> 01:12:21,839
Speaker 7: On your own terms, and create the reality that you want.

1387
01:12:21,640 --> 01:12:25,080
Speaker 6: On your own terms, and and and create the circles

1388
01:12:25,120 --> 01:12:27,439
Speaker 6: and the energy that you have around you on your

1389
01:12:27,479 --> 01:12:30,880
Speaker 6: own terms and and decide what is real and what

1390
01:12:30,960 --> 01:12:31,519
Speaker 6: isn't for you.

1391
01:12:32,280 --> 01:12:33,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, no, I don't know.

1392
01:12:33,360 --> 01:12:35,760
Speaker 6: That just made me feel really excited because sometimes like

1393
01:12:35,800 --> 01:12:38,759
Speaker 6: it's just that mindset shift, right, It's just that shift

1394
01:12:38,800 --> 01:12:41,599
Speaker 6: when you decide that when you decide to look at it,

1395
01:12:41,760 --> 01:12:44,120
Speaker 6: not as like, oh, I'm too old and too late

1396
01:12:44,520 --> 01:12:47,599
Speaker 6: versus no, actually I'm old and it's the perfect time

1397
01:12:47,680 --> 01:12:49,479
Speaker 6: and I have control over my life and I can

1398
01:12:49,520 --> 01:12:53,759
Speaker 6: do this. Like, is sometimes that mindset shift, that mindset

1399
01:12:53,800 --> 01:12:57,840
Speaker 6: shift in your subconscious that now you're allowed to project

1400
01:12:58,160 --> 01:13:02,000
Speaker 6: into this new dimension where you're successful, where you have

1401
01:13:02,080 --> 01:13:06,000
Speaker 6: everything that you desire, where your relationship is like the

1402
01:13:06,040 --> 01:13:06,880
Speaker 6: best it's ever been.

1403
01:13:06,960 --> 01:13:08,280
Speaker 2: It's the juiciest it's ever been.

1404
01:13:08,320 --> 01:13:12,280
Speaker 6: Where you're wealthy and money's on the way, you know,

1405
01:13:12,360 --> 01:13:13,760
Speaker 6: and this is thank you. This is like feels like

1406
01:13:13,800 --> 01:13:15,439
Speaker 6: a gift for me too on my birthday because like

1407
01:13:15,479 --> 01:13:17,400
Speaker 6: this is a reminder I know these things, but like

1408
01:13:17,800 --> 01:13:20,839
Speaker 6: you have to remind like even bitches, even bad bitches,

1409
01:13:20,880 --> 01:13:23,240
Speaker 6: even bad witches need a reminder.

1410
01:13:23,439 --> 01:13:26,479
Speaker 5: Okay, we always do it. This is what we were

1411
01:13:26,520 --> 01:13:28,880
Speaker 5: talking about that we are we you know we live

1412
01:13:28,960 --> 01:13:33,000
Speaker 5: in relations to each other. We are mirrors. These conversations

1413
01:13:33,720 --> 01:13:38,320
Speaker 5: are mirroring back. You're marrying me, I'm marrying you. I

1414
01:13:38,360 --> 01:13:41,439
Speaker 5: am reminding you of what you already knew. That that's

1415
01:13:41,479 --> 01:13:43,120
Speaker 5: what it's that's the whole point. And then now you

1416
01:13:43,200 --> 01:13:45,640
Speaker 5: take all of this information and you go to your

1417
01:13:45,720 --> 01:13:50,400
Speaker 5: quiet solitude, your little cave, and you let a marrin Aida.

1418
01:13:50,800 --> 01:13:53,840
Speaker 6: Yes, yes, I know we didn't get to get to

1419
01:13:53,920 --> 01:13:56,000
Speaker 6: bad Choice of the Week early in the episode, but

1420
01:13:56,040 --> 01:13:57,600
Speaker 6: I still wanted to ask you, Jessica, I have you

1421
01:13:57,600 --> 01:13:58,599
Speaker 6: made any bad choices?

1422
01:13:58,640 --> 01:13:59,240
Speaker 2: This week?

1423
01:13:59,640 --> 01:14:05,080
Speaker 10: Mom had a bad mom, but a bad mom.

1424
01:14:03,840 --> 01:14:20,120
Speaker 5: So good, Oh my god, justice? Or this year, Oh

1425
01:14:20,680 --> 01:14:30,400
Speaker 5: my god, bad bad choices? Bad? Well, I'll say this,

1426
01:14:30,760 --> 01:14:35,120
Speaker 5: I it's not necessarily a bad choice, but sometimes I

1427
01:14:35,200 --> 01:14:37,400
Speaker 5: you know, we have that little nagging thing called guilt.

1428
01:14:38,320 --> 01:14:45,200
Speaker 5: That's a little pain in the ass. And I had

1429
01:14:45,960 --> 01:14:51,280
Speaker 5: stopped drinking alcohol for a very four years. I just

1430
01:14:51,280 --> 01:14:54,040
Speaker 5: stopped drinking when I got pregnant. My son is three now.

1431
01:14:54,439 --> 01:14:58,000
Speaker 5: Stopped drinking when I was pregnant, then during, and then

1432
01:14:58,000 --> 01:15:00,120
Speaker 5: once he was born. I did not drink because I

1433
01:15:00,160 --> 01:15:01,840
Speaker 5: was so terrify that, Oh my god, I'm not going

1434
01:15:01,920 --> 01:15:03,439
Speaker 5: to be in my right mind to take care of him.

1435
01:15:03,680 --> 01:15:05,639
Speaker 5: I need to be present and focused all the time.

1436
01:15:06,040 --> 01:15:12,040
Speaker 5: And then this year I went this year I started

1437
01:15:12,439 --> 01:15:18,200
Speaker 5: drinking again, just small socially, and for whatever reason, it

1438
01:15:18,280 --> 01:15:21,880
Speaker 5: felt like the guilt kicked in, like oh, you're you're

1439
01:15:21,960 --> 01:15:25,880
Speaker 5: drinking again, and et cetera, et cetera. But then I

1440
01:15:25,920 --> 01:15:27,760
Speaker 5: told myself, I'm like, you know, what, what the like,

1441
01:15:27,760 --> 01:15:29,120
Speaker 5: what the fuck is wrong with me? Like? Why am

1442
01:15:29,160 --> 01:15:32,800
Speaker 5: I judging myself for having for having a little a

1443
01:15:32,840 --> 01:15:35,080
Speaker 5: little bit of a social drink, right? Like why is

1444
01:15:35,120 --> 01:15:40,840
Speaker 5: it that I'm guilty myself for drinking? Is it because

1445
01:15:40,840 --> 01:15:42,519
Speaker 5: I'm a mother? Is it because I'm a miss? Is

1446
01:15:42,520 --> 01:15:45,400
Speaker 5: it because I'm a mother? And there's that that whole

1447
01:15:45,439 --> 01:15:47,240
Speaker 5: notion of like, oh, your mother, you shouldn't be drinking.

1448
01:15:47,320 --> 01:15:49,559
Speaker 5: Is it because I'm a mystic? And people have this

1449
01:15:49,600 --> 01:15:51,760
Speaker 5: whole perception that mystics should not be drinking because you

1450
01:15:51,760 --> 01:15:54,439
Speaker 5: should always be in your in your sober mine and

1451
01:15:54,439 --> 01:15:59,639
Speaker 5: and all this nonsense. So fuck it. I enjoy my whiskey, okay, amen,

1452
01:16:00,080 --> 01:16:06,360
Speaker 5: I I enjoy my whiskey, meat, my coffee black. And

1453
01:16:06,560 --> 01:16:08,000
Speaker 5: I bad at three?

1454
01:16:09,080 --> 01:16:09,320
Speaker 3: Three?

1455
01:16:09,439 --> 01:16:10,240
Speaker 2: You're bad at three?

1456
01:16:12,240 --> 01:16:16,519
Speaker 5: I was like, I'm mass off. I am mass offt

1457
01:16:16,560 --> 01:16:18,639
Speaker 5: I go to sleep at night because I'm a wake

1458
01:16:18,720 --> 01:16:22,200
Speaker 5: up four Oh my goodness, it's trying to make myself

1459
01:16:22,240 --> 01:16:24,880
Speaker 5: sound than I actually.

1460
01:16:27,840 --> 01:16:31,519
Speaker 6: Girl, Enjoy that drink. Got you got a three year old?

1461
01:16:32,000 --> 01:16:36,320
Speaker 6: Take the edge off. It's okay, and enjoy it. Enjoy

1462
01:16:36,360 --> 01:16:40,400
Speaker 6: every moment of it. Enjoy Enjoy the warmth it gives

1463
01:16:40,400 --> 01:16:42,840
Speaker 6: you in your body, the looseness that it gives you,

1464
01:16:42,920 --> 01:16:45,920
Speaker 6: the freedom, just the mental freedom, the physical freedom. It's

1465
01:16:46,040 --> 01:16:49,120
Speaker 6: just it takes you back to a time before kids

1466
01:16:49,120 --> 01:16:49,960
Speaker 6: bitch do it.

1467
01:16:49,960 --> 01:16:50,680
Speaker 2: It's important.

1468
01:16:50,960 --> 01:16:52,360
Speaker 7: It's crazy.

1469
01:16:52,520 --> 01:16:55,600
Speaker 4: The guilt and the shame is that we tell ourselves.

1470
01:16:55,640 --> 01:16:57,479
Speaker 4: It's like I've thought about this. I'm like, am I

1471
01:16:57,479 --> 01:16:59,559
Speaker 4: gonna look at back at my life? And I was

1472
01:16:59,600 --> 01:17:02,280
Speaker 4: so busy is worried about the negative that I haven't

1473
01:17:02,320 --> 01:17:05,840
Speaker 4: even really like enjoyed the joy of it all, Like

1474
01:17:06,120 --> 01:17:07,479
Speaker 4: I would hate to look back at my life and

1475
01:17:07,520 --> 01:17:09,719
Speaker 4: being like I was just like a little bit happy,

1476
01:17:09,800 --> 01:17:12,640
Speaker 4: like I didn't really like expand like really feel what

1477
01:17:12,680 --> 01:17:15,240
Speaker 4: it feels like, Like this feels really good to be

1478
01:17:15,280 --> 01:17:17,600
Speaker 4: living in my truth, to be in love, to be

1479
01:17:17,760 --> 01:17:20,040
Speaker 4: like having a daughter that I love, like I like

1480
01:17:20,120 --> 01:17:22,519
Speaker 4: my house. I like this and I like these little

1481
01:17:22,520 --> 01:17:24,800
Speaker 4: things and like to be celebratory about it, Like what

1482
01:17:24,960 --> 01:17:27,920
Speaker 4: is that thing that makes us like damn?

1483
01:17:28,000 --> 01:17:30,519
Speaker 3: Is this bad? Is this too much? Is this too much?

1484
01:17:31,240 --> 01:17:32,519
Speaker 3: Is this too much? If I have one drink?

1485
01:17:32,640 --> 01:17:33,000
Speaker 5: Is too much?

1486
01:17:33,000 --> 01:17:35,599
Speaker 4: It's just gonna be like that again that what is

1487
01:17:35,680 --> 01:17:36,759
Speaker 4: the worst case scenario?

1488
01:17:37,080 --> 01:17:37,439
Speaker 3: Like what?

1489
01:17:38,280 --> 01:17:40,240
Speaker 4: Sometimes when I panic, I'm like what am I? What

1490
01:17:40,280 --> 01:17:42,920
Speaker 4: am I tripping about? What is the worst case scenario?

1491
01:17:42,920 --> 01:17:43,559
Speaker 4: I'm gonna be late?

1492
01:17:44,800 --> 01:17:45,040
Speaker 8: You know.

1493
01:17:46,280 --> 01:17:51,160
Speaker 5: It's it's that programming. It's not subconscious programming where that's

1494
01:17:51,200 --> 01:17:53,960
Speaker 5: where the guilts and that's where guilds comes from. That's

1495
01:17:54,000 --> 01:17:58,280
Speaker 5: where shame comes from. Because we love frequency very That is,

1496
01:17:58,720 --> 01:18:02,040
Speaker 5: we all have different things that we are that we

1497
01:18:02,080 --> 01:18:05,360
Speaker 5: feel guilt, we feel guilty for, we feel ashamed of,

1498
01:18:05,479 --> 01:18:08,799
Speaker 5: and it comes from the programming of not just our families,

1499
01:18:08,800 --> 01:18:12,760
Speaker 5: but our cultures and society, et cetera, et cetera. Like

1500
01:18:12,800 --> 01:18:15,240
Speaker 5: I said, like for me, my guilt with with getting

1501
01:18:15,280 --> 01:18:18,200
Speaker 5: back to drinking alcohol. Someone else would be like, are

1502
01:18:18,240 --> 01:18:20,639
Speaker 5: you crazy that I had a drink when the baby

1503
01:18:20,720 --> 01:18:22,679
Speaker 5: when the baby popped out? You know what I mean?

1504
01:18:22,720 --> 01:18:27,719
Speaker 5: But it's my it was my own self imposed guilt.

1505
01:18:27,840 --> 01:18:31,439
Speaker 5: There was no one shaming me or looking down on me.

1506
01:18:31,720 --> 01:18:34,040
Speaker 5: It was just it was my own. And I don't

1507
01:18:34,160 --> 01:18:35,880
Speaker 5: know where that it could have It could have came

1508
01:18:35,880 --> 01:18:38,160
Speaker 5: from a lot, from a variety of places. I'm not

1509
01:18:38,160 --> 01:18:39,880
Speaker 5: trying to figure out where it came from. I'm just

1510
01:18:39,920 --> 01:18:44,000
Speaker 5: saying I'm just ten sell sending it to go so

1511
01:18:44,320 --> 01:18:46,880
Speaker 5: somewhere else, far away from me, because I don't tend

1512
01:18:46,880 --> 01:18:51,760
Speaker 5: it away all that I'm sucking, sucking and leave me.

1513
01:18:51,880 --> 01:18:54,240
Speaker 6: You like, and even and even the idea of too

1514
01:18:54,320 --> 01:18:56,200
Speaker 6: as a mystic, that you're not supposed to drink like

1515
01:18:56,840 --> 01:19:01,360
Speaker 6: you know, like this, this concept that as mystic as healers,

1516
01:19:01,680 --> 01:19:05,760
Speaker 6: we are supposed to check off these checkboxes in order

1517
01:19:05,840 --> 01:19:07,720
Speaker 6: to be worthy of the work.

1518
01:19:07,920 --> 01:19:09,800
Speaker 3: Show me you want me to, how you want me

1519
01:19:09,840 --> 01:19:11,240
Speaker 3: to look or be perceived.

1520
01:19:11,960 --> 01:19:14,760
Speaker 6: Yeah, and obviously yes, there was a there is a

1521
01:19:14,880 --> 01:19:18,320
Speaker 6: level of health and that that is ideal in in

1522
01:19:18,320 --> 01:19:20,439
Speaker 6: in the practices and the work that we do. But

1523
01:19:20,479 --> 01:19:25,200
Speaker 6: there's also a level of like it's okay, like God

1524
01:19:25,280 --> 01:19:26,720
Speaker 6: like alcohol was.

1525
01:19:26,680 --> 01:19:29,719
Speaker 2: Created for us to consume.

1526
01:19:29,800 --> 01:19:33,439
Speaker 6: Okay, yes, I mean as long as we're not like

1527
01:19:33,520 --> 01:19:36,400
Speaker 6: an even subcusion, you know what, like a bitch has

1528
01:19:36,400 --> 01:19:38,240
Speaker 6: I had to get drunk a few times to just

1529
01:19:38,479 --> 01:19:41,760
Speaker 6: you know, also be to be reminded of like, hey,

1530
01:19:41,880 --> 01:19:45,160
Speaker 6: like I I work best this way, or like I

1531
01:19:45,200 --> 01:19:47,120
Speaker 6: got a message from some spirits because I was on

1532
01:19:47,240 --> 01:19:49,800
Speaker 6: some spirits, Okay, like I had to I had to

1533
01:19:49,920 --> 01:19:51,920
Speaker 6: like actually get out of my own way and out

1534
01:19:51,920 --> 01:19:54,040
Speaker 6: of my mind in order to like receive messages. And

1535
01:19:54,080 --> 01:19:57,120
Speaker 6: not telling you that you need to go on a bender, bitch,

1536
01:19:57,600 --> 01:19:59,920
Speaker 6: go talk to your ancestors. If you're listening to this

1537
01:20:00,120 --> 01:20:05,240
Speaker 6: someone who has maybe drinking problem. But I am saying that, like,

1538
01:20:05,920 --> 01:20:08,360
Speaker 6: as women that do this work, like there's a level

1539
01:20:08,360 --> 01:20:10,599
Speaker 6: of grace that we that we have to give ourselves,

1540
01:20:10,640 --> 01:20:13,320
Speaker 6: and there's this level of perfection that I see so

1541
01:20:13,439 --> 01:20:17,080
Speaker 6: much of so many women fall into, including myself, that

1542
01:20:17,920 --> 01:20:21,040
Speaker 6: actually then takes us farther away from what we're here

1543
01:20:21,080 --> 01:20:21,400
Speaker 6: to do.

1544
01:20:21,560 --> 01:20:24,240
Speaker 2: So drink the drink girl.

1545
01:20:24,880 --> 01:20:29,080
Speaker 5: Yeah. And going back to believe is going back to

1546
01:20:29,080 --> 01:20:29,880
Speaker 5: what we were talking about.

1547
01:20:29,880 --> 01:20:33,280
Speaker 7: Our beliefs, the believing, Yeah, the believing that this is bad.

1548
01:20:33,479 --> 01:20:39,599
Speaker 5: Exactly believe the real good. It's just a belief system.

1549
01:20:39,800 --> 01:20:42,639
Speaker 5: It's what creates our reality. Nothing is bad, nothing is good.

1550
01:20:42,680 --> 01:20:45,360
Speaker 5: Alcoholics neither bad nor good what makes you know how?

1551
01:20:45,520 --> 01:20:47,840
Speaker 5: You know how there are people and I'm not trying

1552
01:20:47,880 --> 01:20:49,840
Speaker 5: like like you said, I'm not trying to condone anyone

1553
01:20:49,880 --> 01:20:53,000
Speaker 5: to to go, you know, get liquored up and pick

1554
01:20:53,040 --> 01:20:56,880
Speaker 5: up our alcoholic habit. But you know how there are

1555
01:20:56,960 --> 01:21:01,080
Speaker 5: people who can be consuming the same substance and one

1556
01:21:01,160 --> 01:21:03,840
Speaker 5: person will be sick from it and the other person won't.

1557
01:21:03,840 --> 01:21:06,240
Speaker 5: And it's because of the relationship and the belief system

1558
01:21:06,280 --> 01:21:10,599
Speaker 5: that you have towards that substance. It's not the substance itself,

1559
01:21:10,720 --> 01:21:14,760
Speaker 5: because everything in creation has a neutral energy, and once

1560
01:21:14,800 --> 01:21:17,479
Speaker 5: we become in contact with that neutral energy, then we

1561
01:21:17,560 --> 01:21:20,600
Speaker 5: give through our belief. Then we transform it's energy to

1562
01:21:20,640 --> 01:21:23,519
Speaker 5: whatever we want it to be, right, be it positive,

1563
01:21:23,520 --> 01:21:25,720
Speaker 5: be a negative, be it healing, be it be it

1564
01:21:25,880 --> 01:21:29,600
Speaker 5: you know, poison, hm m hmm. But it's not the

1565
01:21:29,640 --> 01:21:30,640
Speaker 5: thing itself.

1566
01:21:31,160 --> 01:21:35,120
Speaker 3: Never it is. Yeah, it's the power we put in it,

1567
01:21:35,920 --> 01:21:37,040
Speaker 3: exact power we give to you.

1568
01:21:37,280 --> 01:21:39,519
Speaker 4: And that's another thing like yeah, like what if you

1569
01:21:39,560 --> 01:21:41,400
Speaker 4: had your drink and then you got you felt just

1570
01:21:41,400 --> 01:21:43,320
Speaker 4: so guilty about it and bad about it, like you

1571
01:21:43,360 --> 01:21:44,559
Speaker 4: won't even enjoy the drink.

1572
01:21:45,240 --> 01:21:51,400
Speaker 5: No, you probably wake up like hold the headache. But

1573
01:21:51,439 --> 01:21:55,080
Speaker 5: it's so much thought. Yeah, it's it's all in the belief.

1574
01:21:55,120 --> 01:21:56,639
Speaker 5: And then you and then you can say like, well

1575
01:21:56,720 --> 01:21:58,960
Speaker 5: when I when I was drinking, I was having such

1576
01:21:59,000 --> 01:22:02,479
Speaker 5: a good time, but I still woke up hungover. It's like, yes,

1577
01:22:02,520 --> 01:22:04,760
Speaker 5: but you have a subconscious belief that alcohol is bad

1578
01:22:04,800 --> 01:22:07,680
Speaker 5: for you. Mm hm. And so when you ingested it, it

1579
01:22:07,800 --> 01:22:10,920
Speaker 5: made you sick. Whether in that moment you were enjoying

1580
01:22:10,960 --> 01:22:14,360
Speaker 5: your subconsciously, you were enjoying yourself, You're subconscious was telling

1581
01:22:14,560 --> 01:22:16,600
Speaker 5: the rest of your system all this is poisoned, this

1582
01:22:16,680 --> 01:22:18,720
Speaker 5: is poisoned, this is bad. We need to feel like

1583
01:22:18,760 --> 01:22:19,400
Speaker 5: shit tomorrow.

1584
01:22:19,880 --> 01:22:22,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, and that's how it also.

1585
01:22:23,040 --> 01:22:30,200
Speaker 11: Drink water, Yeah, your men's zinc, drink a lot of

1586
01:22:30,680 --> 01:22:34,200
Speaker 11: for alcohol if you're in your thirties and lights.

1587
01:22:34,960 --> 01:22:36,560
Speaker 4: Yeah for real though, if you want to do it,

1588
01:22:36,600 --> 01:22:38,040
Speaker 4: if you want to do it successfully, you got to

1589
01:22:38,120 --> 01:22:41,240
Speaker 4: drink equal equal amount parts liquor and water equal parts

1590
01:22:42,080 --> 01:22:42,559
Speaker 4: mm hmm.

1591
01:22:43,200 --> 01:22:46,240
Speaker 5: That's all belief. Everything goes back to our belief system

1592
01:22:46,280 --> 01:22:47,400
Speaker 5: everything everything.

1593
01:22:47,840 --> 01:22:51,439
Speaker 6: Speaking of belief systems, do you have an affirmation that

1594
01:22:51,520 --> 01:22:55,120
Speaker 6: you can share with with our guests, our audience, excuse me,

1595
01:22:55,200 --> 01:22:56,599
Speaker 6: our audience today, And.

1596
01:22:56,800 --> 01:23:03,240
Speaker 5: Yeah, my affirmation goes right. Believe has taken the lead

1597
01:23:03,800 --> 01:23:08,280
Speaker 5: this episode, because that's what my affirmation is. My affirmation.

1598
01:23:08,439 --> 01:23:12,639
Speaker 5: This is something that I'm constantly reminding myself, especially after

1599
01:23:12,680 --> 01:23:15,320
Speaker 5: I had that come to Jesus moment where my higher

1600
01:23:15,360 --> 01:23:17,720
Speaker 5: self said to me, ma'am, the reason why you are

1601
01:23:17,760 --> 01:23:20,439
Speaker 5: stuck is because you turned off the car, because you

1602
01:23:20,600 --> 01:23:22,880
Speaker 5: decided that you're not gonna believe in anything anymore because

1603
01:23:22,880 --> 01:23:26,599
Speaker 5: you got pissed. So turn it on and believe in something.

1604
01:23:26,720 --> 01:23:30,439
Speaker 5: And so from that point on, my personal affirmation it's

1605
01:23:30,479 --> 01:23:33,719
Speaker 5: a thing that it's just a reminder, a reminder whenever

1606
01:23:33,800 --> 01:23:39,000
Speaker 5: I'm feeling off centered, I remind myself that I am

1607
01:23:39,120 --> 01:23:43,479
Speaker 5: the architect of my own reality and that only what

1608
01:23:43,600 --> 01:23:46,680
Speaker 5: I allow in my reality can have an effect on me,

1609
01:23:47,439 --> 01:23:54,240
Speaker 5: and my belief system creates everything in my reality. If

1610
01:23:54,240 --> 01:23:56,479
Speaker 5: I don't believe in it and cannot affect me, cannot

1611
01:23:56,520 --> 01:23:59,800
Speaker 5: touch me, and cannot be a part of my reality.

1612
01:24:00,880 --> 01:24:04,960
Speaker 6: H the architect of my own reality.

1613
01:24:06,680 --> 01:24:08,479
Speaker 2: I love all of that. It's so true.

1614
01:24:08,760 --> 01:24:11,920
Speaker 6: It's so true, and sometimes it's so hard for you

1615
01:24:12,000 --> 01:24:17,439
Speaker 6: to get off the wagon of whatever reality you've been

1616
01:24:17,479 --> 01:24:19,760
Speaker 6: on that feels comfortable, that feels safe, even if it's

1617
01:24:19,840 --> 01:24:22,920
Speaker 6: hurting you and harming you and ruining everyone everything around you.

1618
01:24:24,680 --> 01:24:27,280
Speaker 6: But the beauty is is that you can also change that.

1619
01:24:27,320 --> 01:24:28,800
Speaker 6: You can get off the car. You can get off

1620
01:24:28,800 --> 01:24:31,080
Speaker 6: the get out of the car and get a new

1621
01:24:31,120 --> 01:24:32,679
Speaker 6: one and start it, start it over.

1622
01:24:33,600 --> 01:24:35,559
Speaker 5: Yeah, And we can be pissed about it. We can,

1623
01:24:35,680 --> 01:24:37,960
Speaker 5: you know, sometimes we do get pissed about Oh why

1624
01:24:38,000 --> 01:24:42,040
Speaker 5: do I Why do I have such negative beliefs? Why

1625
01:24:42,080 --> 01:24:44,320
Speaker 5: do I have these patterns? Why do I keep going

1626
01:24:44,760 --> 01:24:47,280
Speaker 5: back to the thing that I don't prefer, the thing

1627
01:24:47,320 --> 01:24:49,360
Speaker 5: that I don't like? And it's because your brain is

1628
01:24:49,439 --> 01:24:54,200
Speaker 5: designed to create patterns for your survival. This is why

1629
01:24:54,240 --> 01:24:57,440
Speaker 5: positive things stay in your mind. This is why positive

1630
01:24:57,479 --> 01:25:01,240
Speaker 5: things last so little. You have such like short effect,

1631
01:25:01,600 --> 01:25:05,400
Speaker 5: yet negative things have such long term effect. Meaning if

1632
01:25:05,400 --> 01:25:08,439
Speaker 5: someone curses you out, that will affect you much longer

1633
01:25:08,479 --> 01:25:10,880
Speaker 5: than if someone gave you a compliment. And it's because

1634
01:25:10,920 --> 01:25:13,960
Speaker 5: your brain is always trying to protect you and protect

1635
01:25:14,040 --> 01:25:18,720
Speaker 5: itself by creating, by holding onto these threatening moments, these

1636
01:25:18,720 --> 01:25:22,240
Speaker 5: threatening experiences, and creating patterns so that you don't repeat

1637
01:25:22,280 --> 01:25:25,600
Speaker 5: them for your own survival. But then you have to

1638
01:25:25,760 --> 01:25:27,240
Speaker 5: once you but then you have to get to a

1639
01:25:27,240 --> 01:25:30,479
Speaker 5: place where you have to retrain your mind, retrain your

1640
01:25:30,479 --> 01:25:34,479
Speaker 5: brain that you're no longer in survival mode. And this

1641
01:25:34,560 --> 01:25:37,080
Speaker 5: is where the subconscious programming comes in. It's like, we're

1642
01:25:37,080 --> 01:25:39,360
Speaker 5: no longer in survival mode. We don't no longer have

1643
01:25:39,479 --> 01:25:42,599
Speaker 5: to follow these patterns. We no longer have to believe

1644
01:25:42,640 --> 01:25:45,680
Speaker 5: these things. We can believe different so that we can

1645
01:25:45,840 --> 01:25:46,759
Speaker 5: experience different.

1646
01:25:48,400 --> 01:25:51,400
Speaker 4: You have to learn to like activate our parasympathetic nervous

1647
01:25:51,400 --> 01:25:54,920
Speaker 4: system and know that we're like not always in immediate danger.

1648
01:25:55,400 --> 01:26:02,000
Speaker 5: M not every you know, curse word or not. That

1649
01:26:02,120 --> 01:26:04,040
Speaker 5: someone else's rudeness is not a threat. It's not a

1650
01:26:04,040 --> 01:26:07,960
Speaker 5: threat to us. That's their problem, right right. That someone

1651
01:26:08,000 --> 01:26:12,439
Speaker 5: else not you know, our partner not responding to us

1652
01:26:12,479 --> 01:26:15,759
Speaker 5: immediately doesn't mean this person is doing something behind our backs.

1653
01:26:16,880 --> 01:26:23,879
Speaker 5: That type of stuff. We need to mm hmmrove reprogram because.

1654
01:26:23,920 --> 01:26:26,080
Speaker 4: You open up so much space too, in your mind

1655
01:26:26,120 --> 01:26:28,880
Speaker 4: and your body, like not being stressed, not being mad,

1656
01:26:29,600 --> 01:26:32,479
Speaker 4: like I like, you open up just so much space

1657
01:26:32,600 --> 01:26:37,120
Speaker 4: to just have less negativity, and that is invaluable.

1658
01:26:37,840 --> 01:26:41,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, you open up, you get rid of clutter. I

1659
01:26:41,080 --> 01:26:43,640
Speaker 5: mean naturally, your brain gets rid of the information that

1660
01:26:43,720 --> 01:26:47,000
Speaker 5: is no longer useful but you can help it and

1661
01:26:47,080 --> 01:26:51,760
Speaker 5: go further. I get get rid of the patterns that

1662
01:26:51,800 --> 01:26:54,400
Speaker 5: are keeping you stuck in a reality that you don't

1663
01:26:54,680 --> 01:26:55,240
Speaker 5: want to be in.

1664
01:26:57,600 --> 01:26:59,400
Speaker 2: Sure, throw it out.

1665
01:27:00,400 --> 01:27:05,080
Speaker 6: Oh well, thank you so much, Jessica. This has been

1666
01:27:05,120 --> 01:27:10,800
Speaker 6: so great and just enlightening. And before we leave a

1667
01:27:11,280 --> 01:27:11,640
Speaker 6: oh do.

1668
01:27:11,680 --> 01:27:13,040
Speaker 2: We do taro? Did you have do you have a

1669
01:27:13,160 --> 01:27:14,479
Speaker 2: do you do you have a deccary?

1670
01:27:14,479 --> 01:27:14,519
Speaker 5: You?

1671
01:27:14,560 --> 01:27:16,000
Speaker 2: Mila? Did you pull a card? I do?

1672
01:27:16,160 --> 01:27:16,600
Speaker 3: Let make up?

1673
01:27:16,600 --> 01:27:16,920
Speaker 2: Grab it?

1674
01:27:25,880 --> 01:27:32,320
Speaker 3: The two of Pentacles. Let's see the two pentacles sisters today.

1675
01:27:34,479 --> 01:27:37,960
Speaker 4: And I'm not a Tarot reader, Jessica, I just look

1676
01:27:38,000 --> 01:27:40,960
Speaker 4: online so you know this is great?

1677
01:27:41,040 --> 01:27:44,479
Speaker 5: No this there there are no no, there's no way

1678
01:27:44,479 --> 01:27:47,000
Speaker 5: of reading tarot and there are no coincidences. There's a

1679
01:27:47,040 --> 01:27:49,920
Speaker 5: messages there for us.

1680
01:27:49,760 --> 01:27:57,080
Speaker 4: This is multiple priorities, time management, prioritization, and adaptability. When

1681
01:27:57,120 --> 01:27:59,320
Speaker 4: the two of Pentacles appears in a tarot reading, it

1682
01:27:59,360 --> 01:28:02,040
Speaker 4: is safe to say you are juggling your priorities, roles,

1683
01:28:02,040 --> 01:28:04,720
Speaker 4: and responsibilities. For examples, you may be working parent, a

1684
01:28:04,760 --> 01:28:08,280
Speaker 4: general manager of a business, administrative assistant in a busy office,

1685
01:28:08,360 --> 01:28:11,080
Speaker 4: or someone who works multiple jobs. In the upright position,

1686
01:28:11,400 --> 01:28:14,200
Speaker 4: this card notes you're doing an excellent job of balancing

1687
01:28:14,200 --> 01:28:16,519
Speaker 4: those different priorities, and you can take on whatever life

1688
01:28:16,560 --> 01:28:18,720
Speaker 4: throws at you. But this two reminds you that the

1689
01:28:18,760 --> 01:28:22,639
Speaker 4: line between coping with these demands and losing control is thin.

1690
01:28:23,240 --> 01:28:26,000
Speaker 4: You need to manage your time, energy, and resources carefully

1691
01:28:26,000 --> 01:28:29,080
Speaker 4: so you do not lose your balance. It often appears

1692
01:28:29,080 --> 01:28:30,960
Speaker 4: when you are busy rushing from one thing to the

1693
01:28:31,000 --> 01:28:33,720
Speaker 4: next with little downtime in between. You may tell your

1694
01:28:33,720 --> 01:28:36,880
Speaker 4: stuff that you've gotten enough time or or you're not

1695
01:28:36,920 --> 01:28:39,240
Speaker 4: in a rush. However, remember that you don't have to

1696
01:28:39,240 --> 01:28:42,240
Speaker 4: be busy to get things done. Sometimes taking a break

1697
01:28:42,280 --> 01:28:44,960
Speaker 4: is the most productive thing you can do. Similarly, the

1698
01:28:45,000 --> 01:28:46,920
Speaker 4: two pednacles can appear when you are getting caught up

1699
01:28:46,920 --> 01:28:48,760
Speaker 4: in the day to day demands and losing sight of

1700
01:28:48,760 --> 01:28:54,040
Speaker 4: the bigger picture. If it resonates, ask yourself, what life

1701
01:28:54,120 --> 01:28:57,439
Speaker 4: do I want? And how can I recognize my schedule

1702
01:28:57,439 --> 01:28:59,040
Speaker 4: to create the life that I desire?

1703
01:29:00,640 --> 01:29:04,160
Speaker 5: You know it? All the lines and everything we've been

1704
01:29:04,200 --> 01:29:06,559
Speaker 5: talking to do? Are we short for time?

1705
01:29:07,880 --> 01:29:08,200
Speaker 2: No?

1706
01:29:08,640 --> 01:29:13,759
Speaker 5: Oh? Because listen, I want to tie this into something

1707
01:29:15,560 --> 01:29:17,400
Speaker 5: you I don't know if have you both seen the

1708
01:29:17,439 --> 01:29:23,360
Speaker 5: movie Interstellar? Yeah, that's the one where they go to

1709
01:29:23,400 --> 01:29:26,920
Speaker 5: space and there's like parallel realities, et cetera, et cetera. Yes,

1710
01:29:27,200 --> 01:29:31,760
Speaker 5: the Boconaughey with bookshelf. All right, so I just I

1711
01:29:31,800 --> 01:29:34,400
Speaker 5: know crazy. I just watched it for the first time

1712
01:29:35,000 --> 01:29:36,000
Speaker 5: a few days ago.

1713
01:29:36,400 --> 01:29:38,720
Speaker 4: It's twenty two here also, just so you know, we

1714
01:29:38,800 --> 01:29:40,960
Speaker 4: just pulled the two pinnacles and it's two twenty two.

1715
01:29:41,320 --> 01:29:44,840
Speaker 5: And it's yeah, it's yeah. I'm looking there's a bunch

1716
01:29:44,840 --> 01:29:49,160
Speaker 5: of twos on my screen too. In in you know,

1717
01:29:49,200 --> 01:29:52,479
Speaker 5: the movie has a ton of messages, right, It's got

1718
01:29:52,520 --> 01:29:55,120
Speaker 5: a ton of messages about dimensions, the fourth the fourth

1719
01:29:55,120 --> 01:29:58,360
Speaker 5: dimension being that the dimension that resonates with the heart,

1720
01:29:58,560 --> 01:30:02,519
Speaker 5: with with love, with the heart great frequency. There's this

1721
01:30:02,560 --> 01:30:05,400
Speaker 5: whole misconception of like, oh, we are ascending to the

1722
01:30:05,400 --> 01:30:07,720
Speaker 5: fifth dimensions, Like it's impossible for us was sent to

1723
01:30:07,760 --> 01:30:12,320
Speaker 5: the fifth dimension as material beings because the fifth dimension

1724
01:30:12,360 --> 01:30:15,400
Speaker 5: has no form. There's no form in the fifth dimension.

1725
01:30:15,560 --> 01:30:19,280
Speaker 5: There is form in the fourth dimension, but it's a

1726
01:30:19,360 --> 01:30:23,000
Speaker 5: higher form of form. So many of us are ascending

1727
01:30:23,000 --> 01:30:26,479
Speaker 5: to the fourth dimension to experience reality, experience life, human

1728
01:30:26,479 --> 01:30:28,439
Speaker 5: life from the fourth dimension, not the fifth. There's no

1729
01:30:28,560 --> 01:30:31,840
Speaker 5: form in the in the fifth and so in one

1730
01:30:32,320 --> 01:30:36,120
Speaker 5: out of the many messages of Interstellar. One that's like

1731
01:30:36,720 --> 01:30:41,880
Speaker 5: stuck out towards the end to me was when he returned,

1732
01:30:41,960 --> 01:30:44,200
Speaker 5: when he was rescued, when he got lost in space

1733
01:30:44,280 --> 01:30:46,160
Speaker 5: and he was rescued, and he returned and his and

1734
01:30:46,240 --> 01:30:48,400
Speaker 5: his daughter was old and she was dying, but he

1735
01:30:48,479 --> 01:30:52,360
Speaker 5: was still young. He was he had only become as

1736
01:30:52,439 --> 01:30:56,360
Speaker 5: old as those three years that he was lost, right,

1737
01:30:56,479 --> 01:30:59,040
Speaker 5: let's say. And I was and immediately like I was

1738
01:30:59,080 --> 01:31:02,080
Speaker 5: watching it with a and I'm like, oh my god.

1739
01:31:03,080 --> 01:31:07,240
Speaker 5: It isn't time that makes us age, like physical age.

1740
01:31:07,240 --> 01:31:09,200
Speaker 5: It is in time that makes us physically aged. It

1741
01:31:09,240 --> 01:31:15,200
Speaker 5: isn't gravity either. It is experience. The more we live

1742
01:31:16,120 --> 01:31:20,760
Speaker 5: in a day is what makes us old. So the

1743
01:31:20,880 --> 01:31:24,800
Speaker 5: less we experience, the less we live. The less we do,

1744
01:31:24,880 --> 01:31:29,200
Speaker 5: the less busy, the less active, the longer we live.

1745
01:31:31,080 --> 01:31:34,000
Speaker 5: This is why the people who live the oldest, like

1746
01:31:34,040 --> 01:31:37,840
Speaker 5: those old centennials, you know, those in the they live

1747
01:31:37,880 --> 01:31:43,599
Speaker 5: in areas where their life is so incredibly slow, simple.

1748
01:31:44,040 --> 01:31:47,439
Speaker 5: They don't have all of these things to do. And

1749
01:31:48,720 --> 01:31:51,280
Speaker 5: we were and we were both looking at each other,

1750
01:31:51,479 --> 01:31:54,080
Speaker 5: and I was like, listen, this movie had a bunch

1751
01:31:54,080 --> 01:31:56,000
Speaker 5: of messages, but this one is the one that's staying

1752
01:31:56,040 --> 01:32:00,519
Speaker 5: with me because this is it, Like this was my message.

1753
01:32:00,680 --> 01:32:07,080
Speaker 5: I need to simplify my life done. I don't need

1754
01:32:07,120 --> 01:32:09,240
Speaker 5: to be doing all these all these things for what reason.

1755
01:32:10,840 --> 01:32:15,880
Speaker 5: I can either what is that saying, uh, live fast,

1756
01:32:15,920 --> 01:32:20,320
Speaker 5: die young, or I can live slow and enjoy the ride.

1757
01:32:20,680 --> 01:32:25,040
Speaker 5: I rather live. I rather live slow and live long

1758
01:32:25,880 --> 01:32:28,479
Speaker 5: so that I can experience more, so that I can

1759
01:32:29,400 --> 01:32:34,439
Speaker 5: give give more to to to the to all the

1760
01:32:34,439 --> 01:32:37,360
Speaker 5: things that are to come. I don't want to live here,

1761
01:32:38,360 --> 01:32:40,599
Speaker 5: ah no, No, I.

1762
01:32:40,600 --> 01:32:44,240
Speaker 6: Want to stay yeah, and like be present, because how

1763
01:32:44,280 --> 01:32:46,400
Speaker 6: can you actually be present if you're living fast. I

1764
01:32:46,400 --> 01:32:50,559
Speaker 6: think that that that's saying live fast, die young. Well,

1765
01:32:50,600 --> 01:32:55,800
Speaker 6: I just maybe think of m I live fasting is

1766
01:32:57,200 --> 01:32:59,679
Speaker 6: as I'm getting older. I don't know about you guys,

1767
01:32:59,720 --> 01:33:04,040
Speaker 6: but I'm really realizing these sayings. How like these simple

1768
01:33:04,120 --> 01:33:07,880
Speaker 6: sayings like have so much wisdom. They're not just like

1769
01:33:08,040 --> 01:33:10,519
Speaker 6: you can't just throw these things away anymore specific Like

1770
01:33:10,600 --> 01:33:13,880
Speaker 6: even that one right, like it's literally telling you to

1771
01:33:13,920 --> 01:33:16,200
Speaker 6: slow the fuck down or else you gonna die young

1772
01:33:16,720 --> 01:33:19,400
Speaker 6: and die young as perspective, right, because you'd be like, well,

1773
01:33:19,400 --> 01:33:21,320
Speaker 6: she doesn't look very young, and she's just like she

1774
01:33:21,360 --> 01:33:23,960
Speaker 6: did a lot of shit, like you know, like it's

1775
01:33:24,000 --> 01:33:27,800
Speaker 6: it's true. It's true that like so often we see

1776
01:33:27,880 --> 01:33:32,160
Speaker 6: those people that really like slowed and really enjoyed every

1777
01:33:32,280 --> 01:33:37,080
Speaker 6: moment like they've lived the longest. They live the longest. Yeah,

1778
01:33:37,520 --> 01:33:40,240
Speaker 6: and it feels impossible. It feels impossible sometimes in the

1779
01:33:40,280 --> 01:33:41,880
Speaker 6: world that we live in. But it's not because we're

1780
01:33:41,960 --> 01:33:45,440
Speaker 6: choosing that reality again, we're choosing that reality.

1781
01:33:46,400 --> 01:33:49,200
Speaker 5: We are choosing that reality of always having of having

1782
01:33:49,640 --> 01:33:55,599
Speaker 5: a plate full of things and responsibilities and things.

1783
01:33:55,400 --> 01:33:58,000
Speaker 2: That we need to get to and Hatter is filled.

1784
01:33:58,479 --> 01:34:02,479
Speaker 5: Oh no, oh no. And I remember watching that movie

1785
01:34:02,479 --> 01:34:04,559
Speaker 5: towards the end and I was like telling my friend,

1786
01:34:04,600 --> 01:34:06,120
Speaker 5: I'm like, do you remember It's like have you paid

1787
01:34:06,120 --> 01:34:08,160
Speaker 5: attention to how all of these like sci fi movies

1788
01:34:08,400 --> 01:34:10,439
Speaker 5: and they go to space, they put them to sleep

1789
01:34:10,479 --> 01:34:12,920
Speaker 5: in the pods because when they are when they are sleeping,

1790
01:34:12,920 --> 01:34:16,960
Speaker 5: they're not experiencing and so when they wake up, they're

1791
01:34:16,960 --> 01:34:19,479
Speaker 5: still young. And it's because they're not experiencing life on Earth.

1792
01:34:19,640 --> 01:34:21,680
Speaker 5: And there's life on Earth that are making spaking our

1793
01:34:21,680 --> 01:34:26,679
Speaker 5: bodies old and Brinkley and Holly would be trying.

1794
01:34:26,479 --> 01:34:33,160
Speaker 7: To tell us it all is when the world is.

1795
01:34:33,040 --> 01:34:35,559
Speaker 6: Really ending, like when It's like when we're like days

1796
01:34:35,600 --> 01:34:37,960
Speaker 6: away from the real world ending, we're going to look

1797
01:34:37,960 --> 01:34:40,160
Speaker 6: back on all those movies and be like they tried

1798
01:34:40,160 --> 01:34:41,040
Speaker 6: to tell us, they.

1799
01:34:41,080 --> 01:34:43,599
Speaker 3: Try it's over and over and over.

1800
01:34:46,600 --> 01:34:49,200
Speaker 5: We need to slow down, We need to slow down.

1801
01:34:49,439 --> 01:34:52,320
Speaker 5: We got to slow down because it's we are getting

1802
01:34:52,840 --> 01:34:57,360
Speaker 5: This is why you look at you know, when there

1803
01:34:57,360 --> 01:35:00,639
Speaker 5: are certain people and you know, you look at them

1804
01:35:00,720 --> 01:35:03,920
Speaker 5: and they are like they are you can there are

1805
01:35:04,000 --> 01:35:06,040
Speaker 5: certain people that have aged a certain way and you're like,

1806
01:35:06,080 --> 01:35:11,160
Speaker 5: oh wow, like life like damn, life came at him.

1807
01:35:10,000 --> 01:35:12,800
Speaker 5: And it's it's not that life came at him. They

1808
01:35:13,000 --> 01:35:14,920
Speaker 5: went that life, you know what I mean.

1809
01:35:15,960 --> 01:35:19,280
Speaker 6: Face first, bitch, face first, and it could they could

1810
01:35:19,320 --> 01:35:22,400
Speaker 6: have aged differently. I truly believe that everyone. You could

1811
01:35:22,400 --> 01:35:26,400
Speaker 6: age differently, Like what your how are you optimally aging? Yes,

1812
01:35:26,800 --> 01:35:30,240
Speaker 6: you know because some people are like aging face first

1813
01:35:30,760 --> 01:35:39,920
Speaker 6: and first, aging face first. It doesn't have to be

1814
01:35:40,040 --> 01:35:45,680
Speaker 6: this way, doesn't.

1815
01:35:46,240 --> 01:35:49,240
Speaker 5: Oh my god, we need to slow down. That's my word.

1816
01:35:49,320 --> 01:35:51,679
Speaker 6: That's gonna be my beauty has Like I don't who

1817
01:35:51,680 --> 01:35:52,719
Speaker 6: needs beauty creams?

1818
01:35:52,760 --> 01:35:53,599
Speaker 3: You don't need anymore.

1819
01:35:53,760 --> 01:35:54,559
Speaker 7: You don't need any more.

1820
01:35:54,800 --> 01:35:58,439
Speaker 5: Ship doesn't need to slow down. Yes to slow down

1821
01:35:58,600 --> 01:36:00,600
Speaker 5: and sure the wrinkles you already. Yeah, they're not going

1822
01:36:00,680 --> 01:36:02,400
Speaker 5: to go anywhere, but at least you'll be frozen in

1823
01:36:02,439 --> 01:36:03,280
Speaker 5: time like a vampire.

1824
01:36:03,720 --> 01:36:07,559
Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean they might. You might lose age, reverse

1825
01:36:07,600 --> 01:36:09,960
Speaker 6: a gray hair, reverse my gray hairs.

1826
01:36:10,240 --> 01:36:12,439
Speaker 5: You might reverse some. You might reverse them with some

1827
01:36:12,520 --> 01:36:17,560
Speaker 5: really good you know, face yoga and really good skincare handles.

1828
01:36:17,160 --> 01:36:20,000
Speaker 2: For that, Jessica, make sure you go and send them

1829
01:36:20,000 --> 01:36:20,360
Speaker 2: my way.

1830
01:36:20,360 --> 01:36:23,439
Speaker 5: Okay, Well, I got I got a beauty oil. And

1831
01:36:23,479 --> 01:36:27,040
Speaker 5: the beauty oil is is magical from from from our

1832
01:36:27,040 --> 01:36:31,639
Speaker 5: client's perspective. The beauty oil has made hair grow, hair thicker,

1833
01:36:32,240 --> 01:36:35,880
Speaker 5: it has made the skin look useful, and it's and

1834
01:36:35,920 --> 01:36:39,200
Speaker 5: it's a spiritual oil, like a magic oil. And the

1835
01:36:39,360 --> 01:36:40,479
Speaker 5: ladies wear it.

1836
01:36:41,479 --> 01:36:44,560
Speaker 6: I guess I feel like we need I feel like

1837
01:36:44,600 --> 01:36:45,960
Speaker 6: I need this. I feel like I need this at

1838
01:36:46,000 --> 01:36:46,920
Speaker 6: our body retreat.

1839
01:36:47,000 --> 01:36:47,439
Speaker 5: I feel like.

1840
01:36:48,880 --> 01:36:54,720
Speaker 6: Beauty Oil retreat is all about beauty and goddess confidence and.

1841
01:36:55,240 --> 01:37:00,160
Speaker 4: Like uxury and and just indulging and you know what,

1842
01:37:00,240 --> 01:37:03,519
Speaker 4: and also like capitalism tells us otherwise, you know.

1843
01:37:03,560 --> 01:37:04,519
Speaker 3: Capitalism says go.

1844
01:37:04,720 --> 01:37:09,400
Speaker 4: Capitalism said, the more the more fucking certificates and and

1845
01:37:09,720 --> 01:37:11,960
Speaker 4: things you have, the more businesses the better.

1846
01:37:12,640 --> 01:37:16,559
Speaker 7: And then they wanted us to work till we die.

1847
01:37:16,800 --> 01:37:19,000
Speaker 6: And then while we're dying, they want us to spend

1848
01:37:19,000 --> 01:37:20,040
Speaker 6: money at their hospitals.

1849
01:37:20,080 --> 01:37:22,320
Speaker 4: So it's like, you know, spend many of their prescription

1850
01:37:22,400 --> 01:37:26,120
Speaker 4: drugs their hospitals. And also while you're while we're slowly killing,

1851
01:37:26,160 --> 01:37:28,839
Speaker 4: you don't enjoy it much, so you don't really experience

1852
01:37:28,920 --> 01:37:29,639
Speaker 4: joy while you're here.

1853
01:37:29,680 --> 01:37:30,760
Speaker 3: And do you think this is all that?

1854
01:37:30,800 --> 01:37:32,880
Speaker 5: There is exactly that?

1855
01:37:33,160 --> 01:37:34,200
Speaker 2: It's all.

1856
01:37:34,320 --> 01:37:36,280
Speaker 5: It's all a business.

1857
01:37:37,160 --> 01:37:39,200
Speaker 4: When people are having fun and actually enjoying their life,

1858
01:37:39,240 --> 01:37:41,559
Speaker 4: you look at them sideways and think those people are

1859
01:37:41,600 --> 01:37:42,120
Speaker 4: weird witches.

1860
01:37:42,160 --> 01:37:49,879
Speaker 5: Yeah, those people are witches, and those witches are bumps.

1861
01:37:50,600 --> 01:37:51,000
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1862
01:37:51,080 --> 01:37:56,679
Speaker 5: Yeah, we gotta slow down. That's a fountain of youth.

1863
01:37:56,720 --> 01:37:58,719
Speaker 5: We got to slow down. We have to do less,

1864
01:38:00,040 --> 01:38:03,040
Speaker 5: do less in our day to day more.

1865
01:38:05,240 --> 01:38:09,559
Speaker 3: Yeah, too much, it's too much.

1866
01:38:09,840 --> 01:38:12,719
Speaker 5: Do less in your day to day and be present,

1867
01:38:13,360 --> 01:38:18,479
Speaker 5: show up to everything with no expectations, because expectations rob

1868
01:38:18,560 --> 01:38:24,200
Speaker 5: you of your beauty, of that experience. You can't fully

1869
01:38:24,240 --> 01:38:27,120
Speaker 5: experience something when you have a You've already come with

1870
01:38:27,160 --> 01:38:28,240
Speaker 5: your script in your head.

1871
01:38:28,520 --> 01:38:31,400
Speaker 6: You're already excited, you've already decided what your belief is

1872
01:38:31,720 --> 01:38:34,840
Speaker 6: around this. So now it's just what it is, and

1873
01:38:34,880 --> 01:38:36,320
Speaker 6: now it's going to be what it's going to be.

1874
01:38:36,479 --> 01:38:38,639
Speaker 5: Now it's going to be the projection. Now it's going

1875
01:38:38,680 --> 01:38:41,960
Speaker 5: to projecting onto it, now what it actually was intended

1876
01:38:42,000 --> 01:38:42,280
Speaker 5: to be.

1877
01:38:43,320 --> 01:38:47,439
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, Oh, thank you so much, Jessica. This was

1878
01:38:47,439 --> 01:38:51,040
Speaker 6: such a beautiful conversation. I'm so grateful that you took

1879
01:38:51,040 --> 01:38:53,760
Speaker 6: the time to sit down with us and share with

1880
01:38:53,800 --> 01:38:57,360
Speaker 6: our community, and shout out to our community for guiding

1881
01:38:57,439 --> 01:38:58,880
Speaker 6: us to you and connecting us to you.

1882
01:39:00,439 --> 01:39:03,880
Speaker 5: Oh I love it. Thank you all so much for

1883
01:39:04,000 --> 01:39:06,519
Speaker 5: sharing a good word and getting me on here. I've

1884
01:39:06,560 --> 01:39:08,639
Speaker 5: had I've had a great time.

1885
01:39:09,160 --> 01:39:11,280
Speaker 3: I appreciate you coming. And if you come to LA,

1886
01:39:11,400 --> 01:39:12,599
Speaker 3: don't forget to call us.

1887
01:39:12,840 --> 01:39:18,080
Speaker 6: Oh you know it's Can you tell our audience where

1888
01:39:18,080 --> 01:39:21,440
Speaker 6: they can find all of your, all of you, everything.

1889
01:39:21,800 --> 01:39:26,880
Speaker 5: All of me can be found House of Hudu. So

1890
01:39:26,920 --> 01:39:31,519
Speaker 5: it's it's h a U s of Hudu h o

1891
01:39:31,520 --> 01:39:34,360
Speaker 5: O d o O. So you can find me on Instagram.

1892
01:39:34,760 --> 01:39:38,840
Speaker 5: I also have a YouTube channel and an online botanica

1893
01:39:38,880 --> 01:39:41,640
Speaker 5: where you could shop all of my wonderful tools that

1894
01:39:41,720 --> 01:39:45,719
Speaker 5: I've been creating for nine years and many more to come.

1895
01:39:47,080 --> 01:39:48,640
Speaker 2: Lovely. I'm not. I'm tapping in.

1896
01:39:48,680 --> 01:39:50,760
Speaker 6: I need to go on your store and see I

1897
01:39:50,800 --> 01:39:52,080
Speaker 6: need I need some candles.

1898
01:39:52,600 --> 01:39:55,400
Speaker 2: Sure, Oh I need some beauty oil.

1899
01:39:55,960 --> 01:39:58,680
Speaker 5: Yeah sure, And it's most divine.

1900
01:40:00,280 --> 01:40:02,639
Speaker 6: I've taken a long break from my altra work and

1901
01:40:02,720 --> 01:40:05,160
Speaker 6: like today I'm cleaning my room and I was like,

1902
01:40:05,280 --> 01:40:05,880
Speaker 6: it's time.

1903
01:40:06,360 --> 01:40:11,600
Speaker 12: Yeah, girl, there is no better time than now this

1904
01:40:11,760 --> 01:40:16,880
Speaker 12: season to really get ourselves align our spiritual practices.

1905
01:40:17,280 --> 01:40:17,759
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1906
01:40:17,960 --> 01:40:18,920
Speaker 5: Yes, Well, thank you for.

1907
01:40:18,880 --> 01:40:22,360
Speaker 2: The reminder and for us.

1908
01:40:22,439 --> 01:40:24,120
Speaker 6: You know where to find us at Good Mom's Bad

1909
01:40:24,200 --> 01:40:28,360
Speaker 6: Choices everywhere and you can follow the Good Vibe Retreat.

1910
01:40:28,600 --> 01:40:32,920
Speaker 6: We announced our Jamaica Retreat, which by the time you're

1911
01:40:32,960 --> 01:40:36,920
Speaker 6: hearing this it might be completely sold out, but if not,

1912
01:40:37,120 --> 01:40:40,360
Speaker 6: make sure you tap in. We have two other retreats

1913
01:40:40,360 --> 01:40:42,720
Speaker 6: in Costa Rica, a Mommy and Me Retreat and of

1914
01:40:42,760 --> 01:40:48,200
Speaker 6: course our annual Women's Retreat that we do in this sacred, sacred,

1915
01:40:48,200 --> 01:40:51,000
Speaker 6: beautiful land, which also happens to be a blue zone.

1916
01:40:51,120 --> 01:40:53,599
Speaker 6: So if you want to get your longevity on and

1917
01:40:53,640 --> 01:40:57,320
Speaker 6: slow the fuck down, yes, come.

1918
01:40:57,160 --> 01:40:58,040
Speaker 2: To Costa Rica.

1919
01:40:58,120 --> 01:41:00,000
Speaker 6: Make sure you tap into the Good Vibe re Treat

1920
01:41:00,040 --> 01:41:04,200
Speaker 6: and see all the things that we're doing over there. Yeah,

1921
01:41:04,439 --> 01:41:06,960
Speaker 6: and just remember that every day you have a new

1922
01:41:07,040 --> 01:41:09,800
Speaker 6: day to choose what you want to believe in and

1923
01:41:10,600 --> 01:41:13,879
Speaker 6: create the tools that help you get the answers you're seeking.

1924
01:41:14,000 --> 01:41:15,920
Speaker 2: So thank you, Jessica for all that you do.

1925
01:41:16,840 --> 01:41:20,240
Speaker 5: Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you

1926
01:41:20,240 --> 01:41:22,400
Speaker 5: so much for having me reminder to all of us

1927
01:41:22,400 --> 01:41:24,400
Speaker 5: that we are the architects of our own reality.

1928
01:41:24,960 --> 01:41:30,080
Speaker 3: Yes, yes, yes, thank you.

1929
01:41:30,439 --> 01:41:30,559
Speaker 5: Hi.

1930
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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm living it so good. Can't you tell?

1931
01:41:35,240 --> 01:41:36,280
Speaker 5: I went through a drought.

1932
01:41:36,360 --> 01:41:38,559
Speaker 10: That's until I find a well maym have been known

1933
01:41:38,600 --> 01:41:40,840
Speaker 10: Earth that used to be broken tail now got the

1934
01:41:40,880 --> 01:41:43,160
Speaker 10: blues dance and might Beyonce Jill.

1935
01:41:43,120 --> 01:41:45,559
Speaker 5: Throat shot or popping. It's coy. We're in our voices.

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01:41:45,760 --> 01:41:48,920
Speaker 10: Patriarchy kept it in the box, so it'sploids. Women put

1937
01:41:48,920 --> 01:41:51,280
Speaker 10: the p and powers, so what's pointingless? They want me

1938
01:41:51,360 --> 01:41:54,160
Speaker 10: to be good, so I mean bad choice is bad mom?

1939
01:41:54,280 --> 01:41:56,760
Speaker 10: Not a bad mom, but a bad mom. Gitters in

1940
01:41:56,880 --> 01:41:59,879
Speaker 10: on put cannabis in their back bone, walked in bosses

1941
01:42:00,000 --> 01:42:02,000
Speaker 10: happ and I blew his cat ball tip dog.

1942
01:42:02,120 --> 01:42:03,160
Speaker 5: Now I'm immune to.

1943
01:42:03,200 --> 01:42:05,720
Speaker 10: The cat called Herbie and the waisted straight to it

1944
01:42:05,800 --> 01:42:07,880
Speaker 10: like a dollar sign. Mother rent the lover when too.

1945
01:42:07,960 --> 01:42:10,120
Speaker 10: It is like a water summer you rent the winter

1946
01:42:10,320 --> 01:42:13,040
Speaker 10: essential will when the summertime. I do what doll ain't

1947
01:42:13,040 --> 01:42:14,360
Speaker 10: no one that needs to run it by