WEBVTT - Alisyn Camerota

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if it's train wreck watching or pity

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<v Speaker 1>watching or thank God I'm not out in the elements

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<v Speaker 1>watching or Jess Anderson in a wet t shirt washing.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, but I know that it's successful.

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<v Speaker 2>It's successful.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Hi, I'm Alison Camarata and you may know me

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<v Speaker 1>from CNN, but you're about to hear my deepest secrets.

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<v Speaker 2>Hi, everybody, thanks for joining me. Welcome to Off the

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<v Speaker 2>Beat with Me your host Brian Baumgartner. We have a

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<v Speaker 2>breaking news story today out of Westport, Connecticut. Renowned journalist

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<v Speaker 2>and television personality, Allison Camarata is making waves once again,

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<v Speaker 2>this time as a guest on this podcast. Yes, Alison

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<v Speaker 2>is a stalwart figure in the world of broadcastournalism, a

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<v Speaker 2>reporter who has seen pretty much everything. Her career has

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<v Speaker 2>spanned multiple decades and ideologies. She worked for many years

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<v Speaker 2>at Fox News and is now an anchor with CNN,

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<v Speaker 2>not to mention a stint at America's most wanted and

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<v Speaker 2>local channels in Boston and Washington, d C. But no

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<v Speaker 2>matter where she's reporting from or for whom, she's always

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<v Speaker 2>fair and reasoned. She has a real journalistic integrity and ethics,

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<v Speaker 2>and that's exactly what we need in the world of news. Today,

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<v Speaker 2>we're going to talk about how she bridged the gap,

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<v Speaker 2>how she copes with the twenty four hour news cycle,

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<v Speaker 2>and her early days in the downtown New York punk scene.

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<v Speaker 2>I really enjoyed this conversation with Alison. You can catch

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<v Speaker 2>her on the Whole Story with Anderson Cooper these days,

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<v Speaker 2>and you can also learn all about her fascinating life

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<v Speaker 2>in her new book, Combat Life of a Jersey Girls

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<v Speaker 2>Search for Home. Now over to you, Allison.

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<v Speaker 3>Bubble and Squeak. I love it, Bubble and Squeakna Bubble

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<v Speaker 3>and Squeak could get every mo lift over from the nub.

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<v Speaker 2>Hi Allison, Hey, Brian, what's up. How are you doing?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm doing well.

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<v Speaker 1>It's such an honor to be on with you. A

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<v Speaker 1>national hero.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh oh please, I'm serious. No, I'm not a head

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<v Speaker 2>of state. I'm not I'm not an ambassador or a

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<v Speaker 2>congressman or a president or a senator.

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<v Speaker 4>Uh.

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<v Speaker 2>But it's very very I've been a fan of your

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<v Speaker 2>work for a long time and it's so nice nice

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<v Speaker 2>to talk to you. Well like yours. Where are you?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in my home in Westport, Connecticut.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, Connecticut, Fancy, Martin Fancy, that's where that's where the well,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm on the other coast, so, but that's where the

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<v Speaker 2>New York fancy people live. I want to launch into

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<v Speaker 2>your career and your life. But it feels like I

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<v Speaker 2>have to say that we have an official I guess

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<v Speaker 2>raised for the president coming up this year. Biden and Trump?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you so excited about this?

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<v Speaker 4>Beyond beyond?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, do you know who's excited about this? Therapists,

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<v Speaker 1>That's who's excited about this. The amount of money that

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<v Speaker 1>they'll make over the next couple of years, So psychiatrists

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<v Speaker 1>and psychologists very excited.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, when you said the last next couple

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<v Speaker 2>of years, that's a horrible, horrible thought. I mean, we

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<v Speaker 2>have but we have six months until election day ish.

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<v Speaker 1>And it does feel as though there'll be some like

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<v Speaker 1>act of God or like force majure as they say,

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<v Speaker 1>that will keep it from happening.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean that's just election.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, oh God, feels like it, maybe like aliens will invade.

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<v Speaker 1>It's just we don't have the imagination to actually I

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<v Speaker 1>think imagine election day as is.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, it'll be interesting. I don't know if it'll

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<v Speaker 2>be fun. I was I was listening to some sports

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<v Speaker 2>radio yesterday who said, this is the place that you

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<v Speaker 2>can come and not not hear about all of that,

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<v Speaker 2>But then you would be out of a job. I guess, So,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, we gotta we gotta watch some.

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<v Speaker 1>Sort well, I mean, I guess I feel like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>one of the things that I really really bums me

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<v Speaker 1>out is that there's a lot of news, and I

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<v Speaker 1>think that we've gotten so heavy on political news and

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<v Speaker 1>certainly partisan news, that there's all sorts of other human

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<v Speaker 1>story worries to be told. And I'm grateful when I

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<v Speaker 1>get assignments to tell those other stories, because it's only

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<v Speaker 1>in the past, I don't know any more, fifteen years

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<v Speaker 1>that you know, politics has become the sports of our era.

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<v Speaker 1>But there used to be a time when polite society

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<v Speaker 1>didn't talk politics, and I want to get back to that,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'd like to get back to just human interest,

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<v Speaker 1>other important stories to tell.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I know you've been doing a lot more of

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<v Speaker 2>that recently, and I want to talk about that. But yes,

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<v Speaker 2>that was the rule, right, no politics, religion at the

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<v Speaker 2>dinner table, the rule. Yeah, I remember that. My grandmother

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<v Speaker 2>taught me that you're now in lovely Connecticut. You grew

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<v Speaker 2>up in the Jersey Shore there, Shrewsbury, New Jersey. What

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<v Speaker 2>were you interested in as a youngster there in the

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<v Speaker 2>Jersey Shore.

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<v Speaker 1>I was interested in the beach, of course, because it's

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<v Speaker 1>the Jersey Shore. I was an only child raised by,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, born to two intellectuals. So there were books

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<v Speaker 1>and a lot of music around my house when I

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<v Speaker 1>was growing up, and I would say that music is

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<v Speaker 1>the theme that kind of bond did my parents and

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<v Speaker 1>me together, as well as a lot of people in

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<v Speaker 1>Monmouth County, New Jersey, which are the short towns. Music

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<v Speaker 1>was a big motif through our young lives. There were

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<v Speaker 1>a lot. I don't exactly know what the special sauce

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<v Speaker 1>was of Mommoth County and why music was so important.

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<v Speaker 1>If it's because we were forty miles away from New

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<v Speaker 1>York City and we would go in and hear live music.

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<v Speaker 1>But there were just a lot of garage bands. My

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<v Speaker 1>high school had a ton of bands. Bruce Springsteen is

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<v Speaker 1>obviously from there, but I mean Bruce is just a product.

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<v Speaker 1>He wasn't the reason we were into music. He's just

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<v Speaker 1>another example of how Monmouth County breeds musicians, right, and

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<v Speaker 1>so that was a big theme through my life and

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<v Speaker 1>continues to be like music was a very powerful influence.

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<v Speaker 2>Were your parents at interests in their in their musical

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<v Speaker 2>choices or is this I mean you say intellectuals and

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<v Speaker 2>so I think like they've got Beethoven rocking on the stereo.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, they knew a lot about most Art and Beethoven.

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't mean they were avant garde intellectuals. I

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<v Speaker 1>mean that they just under They too understood music. And

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<v Speaker 1>my mother, in fact, was the drama teacher at a

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<v Speaker 1>local high school, so she put on the musicals every year,

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<v Speaker 1>so it truly was in my dna. She was the

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<v Speaker 1>first one she ever directed was West Side Story, and

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<v Speaker 1>she was pregnant with me. So from in utero I

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<v Speaker 1>understood musicals and had memorized all the lyrics to musicals.

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<v Speaker 1>So that was on in my house a lot different.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, Man of La Mancha and Cabaret and even now,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean those are just they're spectacular, you know that kind.

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<v Speaker 1>But anyway, my point is we weren't music snobs. We

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<v Speaker 1>liked all different kinds of genres.

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<v Speaker 2>Has that carried forward for you in your time at

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<v Speaker 2>Fox News and CNN just then like just a street battle. Now,

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<v Speaker 2>every time I see you, I'm going to think that

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<v Speaker 2>you're thinking that, by the way, Well, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Mean, isn't it true that even the CNN and Fox

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<v Speaker 1>battle plays into the Sharks and the Jets.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean that's what I mean. That's yes, that's exactly right.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not sure who is who at this point. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>going to stay away from that. But you talked about

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<v Speaker 2>in your new book. You have a new book coming out,

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<v Speaker 2>congratulations on that, Combat Love a Jersey Girls Search for Home.

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<v Speaker 2>We're going to talk more about that a little bit later.

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<v Speaker 2>But you talk about being free range or kind of

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<v Speaker 2>unparented in your book. Does that mean you were given

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of space as a child to explore and

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<v Speaker 2>try things.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think that this is a kind of universal

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<v Speaker 1>feeling of gen xers. I think that a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>us were semi parents or unparented. We were the free

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<v Speaker 1>range generation. And it's strange, Brian, because there was never

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<v Speaker 1>a generation before us, I think that was so unparented,

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<v Speaker 1>and there certainly hasn't been one since. I mean, now

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<v Speaker 1>we've the pendulum has swung to helicopter parenting, which is overkill,

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<v Speaker 1>may I add, So we were this very strange blip

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<v Speaker 1>in like the evolution of humans, where we were just

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<v Speaker 1>turned loose for some reason, as like marauding teenagers and

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<v Speaker 1>adolescents on the streets. I don't really know where parents

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<v Speaker 1>were in the eighties. I've tried to figure it out.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>If they were all a giant cocktail party somewhere, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, but they weren't around even like stay home

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<v Speaker 1>mothers were never hovering. And so yeah, it was a

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<v Speaker 1>very free range time, and I look back on it

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<v Speaker 1>fondly because I think that it instilled a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>grit and you know, self reliance that our kids now

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<v Speaker 1>don't have because we're helicopter parents. But as you'll read

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<v Speaker 1>the book, there were also many dangerous, dicey situations that

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<v Speaker 1>could have been avoided with a little supervision.

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<v Speaker 2>I think, right, yeah, yeah, I certainly see that. But

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<v Speaker 2>it's funny now, you know, I have younger kids. I

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<v Speaker 2>started late, and we have to know where they are

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<v Speaker 2>all the time now. And by the way, the phones

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<v Speaker 2>don't help, not that they have phones yet. I'm going

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<v Speaker 2>to hold off as long as I possibly can't do

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<v Speaker 2>that and the watches and all this stuff. And I

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<v Speaker 2>was just talking to somebody recently about like we would

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<v Speaker 2>get home from school or on a Saturday, like we

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<v Speaker 2>just checked out, Like we were just gone running through

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I'm from Georgia. There's woods. We were just

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<v Speaker 2>like running through the woods. And now it would be

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<v Speaker 2>like even if it was quote unquote safe from other

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<v Speaker 2>predators of one kind or another, it's like ticks or

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<v Speaker 2>snakes or like all of those things. Now would be like,

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<v Speaker 2>oh no, no, no, you need you need some tick

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<v Speaker 2>repellent on and on this gauze mask or whatever like

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<v Speaker 2>to protect you from I don't know, it's cract. I

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<v Speaker 2>mean we killed a cotton head, yeah, that's what you

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<v Speaker 2>call snake, like off our porch, and that the next

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<v Speaker 2>day we were running through the woods like not paying

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<v Speaker 2>any attention to anything. I just can't even imagine that

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<v Speaker 2>these days.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm me too. Our kids are totally bubble wrapped, and

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think that it's doing them any favors to

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<v Speaker 1>be bubble wrapped. I mean, I do think that there

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<v Speaker 1>is a happy There must be a happy medium. I

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<v Speaker 1>know we haven't found it yet because I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>that kids should have been in as many cars with

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<v Speaker 1>drunk drivers as I was. I don't think that's a

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<v Speaker 1>good idea, but we've really overcorrected that said. You know

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<v Speaker 1>my kids, I have two twins now who are in college,

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<v Speaker 1>and they're like shot out of a cannon because they're

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<v Speaker 1>having the experience in college for the first time, and

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<v Speaker 1>they're like, oh my god, what is this you know

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<v Speaker 1>that we had in high school. So I don't know,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe postponing it four or five years is for the best.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it would be really hard now. I mean, I

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<v Speaker 2>assume it still happens, but to get away with like hey,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm going to Johnny's house to spend the night. I'll

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<v Speaker 2>see you tomorrow. Because there's no cell phones to text,

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<v Speaker 2>there's no there's not even any parents if the phone.

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<v Speaker 2>If Johnny's parents are out of town and they just

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<v Speaker 2>don't answer the phone, they could just be not answering

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<v Speaker 2>the phone. Now it would be like text call alert totally.

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<v Speaker 1>And by the way, we did have sleepovers at people

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<v Speaker 1>whose houses whose parents were out of town. My design

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<v Speaker 1>that was the beauty parents were off and out of town.

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<v Speaker 1>That was what we did.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, as you said, they were not present as a teenager.

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<v Speaker 2>I find this so interesting. You got into punk rock,

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<v Speaker 2>you talked about music is going to be a theme,

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<v Speaker 2>You started going into New York City to go to

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of the clubs there. Do you look back

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<v Speaker 2>fondly on those days, or do you look back and go, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>my god, I can't believe that I was doing this,

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<v Speaker 2>And yeah, I could have gotten myself into trouble.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I did routinely get myself into trouble.

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<v Speaker 2>But well, but you're still here.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that is the dividing line.

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<v Speaker 1>I agree. I did survive, you know is important. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>spoiler alert. I did survive, but I think back on

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<v Speaker 1>it very fondly, and I wasn't really I want to

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<v Speaker 1>be clear. I never was masquerading as a punk rocker.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't have a mohawk, I didn't have a safety

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<v Speaker 1>pin through my cheek. Okay, I myself couldn't really pull

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<v Speaker 1>off the punk rock aesthetic. But what happened was my

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<v Speaker 1>gateway drug into punk was a local punk band from Shrewsbury,

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<v Speaker 1>New Jersey called Shrapnel, and I loved Shrapnel so much,

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<v Speaker 1>and I loved those guys in it. They were so

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<v Speaker 1>charismatic and so cool and charming that that's who I loved,

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<v Speaker 1>and so that's why I would follow them around. And

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<v Speaker 1>I ended up in this milieu of going to see

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<v Speaker 1>the Ramones and the Dead Boys and the Dictators and

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<v Speaker 1>like all of these bands. But I was really just

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<v Speaker 1>grinning and bearing it until I could get to Shrapnel

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<v Speaker 1>like that. I was there for Shrapnel and so but yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm honored that I was at CBGB's in the

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<v Speaker 1>heyday and that I was, you know, at all of

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<v Speaker 1>those front row shows like that. I look back on

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<v Speaker 1>it really fondly.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's really cool. I mean that that experience of

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<v Speaker 2>I think a perfect balance between like having a I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>it sounds like it wasn't so much of a bubble,

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<v Speaker 2>but having that smaller community where you could grow up,

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<v Speaker 2>you could explore safely certain things there, but having the

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<v Speaker 2>city so close to be able to have that as

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<v Speaker 2>a as an outlet. That must have been must have

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<v Speaker 2>been really fun. So this is it during high schoo

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<v Speaker 2>you're doing this?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, this was during high school restudents And to your point, Shrewsbury,

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<v Speaker 1>New Jersey is basically one square mile maybe two square miles,

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<v Speaker 1>and it would have been Maybury had it not been

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<v Speaker 1>forty miles away from the city. But somehow because of

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<v Speaker 1>that link, that fathers got on the train there in

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<v Speaker 1>the morning and went off to work in Manhattan and

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<v Speaker 1>then came home. And I don't know what planted the

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<v Speaker 1>seed with all of us kids that we thought we

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<v Speaker 1>could do that as well, but we did. And so

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<v Speaker 1>Shrewsbury is this very strange little pocket or was in

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<v Speaker 1>the eighties where we were tethered to the city in

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<v Speaker 1>a way that small town suburbia isn't always And we

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<v Speaker 1>did use the city, and we did go see live

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<v Speaker 1>music in the city, and I did spend my prom

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<v Speaker 1>night at the Limelight in the city. Like we just were.

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<v Speaker 1>We did have that combination of small town Ocean Jersey

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<v Speaker 1>Shore and then that escape to have adventures in the city.

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<v Speaker 1>And so it was you know, if you survived it,

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<v Speaker 1>it was measurable, right.

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<v Speaker 2>I promise you you won't know that this is true.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't relate every conversation, so I spend a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of times not mentioning the office, but I do have

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<v Speaker 2>to say, part of what you just talked about is

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<v Speaker 2>something that our boss Greg Daniels talked about a lot

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<v Speaker 2>which was interesting to me, which was in terms of

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<v Speaker 2>like why Scranton, Pennsylvania, Like why choosing that? And what

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<v Speaker 2>he was looking for was an insular community but that

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<v Speaker 2>was close to the big city, and so what kept

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<v Speaker 2>those people there as opposed to being in the city

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<v Speaker 2>or you know, and part of it is distance and

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<v Speaker 2>so forth, But how often did they utilize the big

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<v Speaker 2>city or whatever and stayed where they were? So when

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<v Speaker 2>he was coming up with where the office was going

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<v Speaker 2>to take place, that was his requirements, Like he wanted

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<v Speaker 2>it to be near something large, but still insular in

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<v Speaker 2>its own way, with access to but not in that

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<v Speaker 2>larger community. So I don't I always find that fascinating.

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<v Speaker 1>I like that, Brian. And first of all, you can

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<v Speaker 1>relate everything back to the office. I'm here for it,

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<v Speaker 1>totally here for it. And I mean we can get

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<v Speaker 1>into how much my kids loved the office.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's nice.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's so great. But I think that for me,

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<v Speaker 1>there was something really powerful about that combination because I

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<v Speaker 1>did like to have adventures, but mostly I was a provincial,

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<v Speaker 1>small town girl, and I liked being able to drive

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<v Speaker 1>down the street or walk down the street and know

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<v Speaker 1>who lived in every house. I didn't have to like them,

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<v Speaker 1>they'd never be my friend, but I knew their story

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<v Speaker 1>and that was very cool to me. So there it

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<v Speaker 1>was to me kind of a little nest, and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>God knows, again, it wasn't Maybury. There was definitely bad

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<v Speaker 1>behavior at times happening in Shrewsbury. But I liked that

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<v Speaker 1>familiarity of that kind of provincial town.

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<v Speaker 2>You eventually you went on to because you're a smarty

0:17:59.480 --> 0:18:03.199
<v Speaker 2>pants American university there in d C. Now, were you

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<v Speaker 2>into the punk scene there?

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<v Speaker 1>No, But again because I was only into shratnel, no shrapnel,

0:18:08.840 --> 0:18:13.159
<v Speaker 1>no punk. They're completely entwined, intertwined for me. So but

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<v Speaker 1>I was always into music. I mean I did. I

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<v Speaker 1>went to see the Remote, Like you know, I was

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<v Speaker 1>definitely in the Ramones camp. I went to see the

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<v Speaker 1>Ramones a few times and live in d C. But

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<v Speaker 1>I always went to hear music always. But I did

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<v Speaker 1>cross all genres when I got to d C. That's

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<v Speaker 1>a kind of more Southern leaning city obviously than New York.

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<v Speaker 1>So there was all like NRBQ, and there was Dave

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<v Speaker 1>Matthews and all these other kind of sounds and bands

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<v Speaker 1>that I was going to see live.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know. Actually that's a lie. I do.

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<v Speaker 2>I do know exactly how old you are, because I

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<v Speaker 2>have papers right here that tell me, so we're roughly

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<v Speaker 2>the same age. So yeah, that Dave Matthews band, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>coming out of Virginia. You know, that was sort of

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<v Speaker 2>you know, they were playing when I was in college.

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<v Speaker 2>They were playing there at the University of Virginia. I

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<v Speaker 2>had a friend there and that's how I got introduced

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<v Speaker 2>to him, and that was a really really good time there.

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<v Speaker 2>What's always curious that I like to talk to people

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<v Speaker 2>about who end up focusing on something and having success

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<v Speaker 2>and excellence in it. You know, you're in an intellectual family.

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<v Speaker 2>You're interested in music culture clearly as well. When for

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<v Speaker 2>you did you start on the path of you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I know communications and broadcast journalism ended up being your focus.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you go to American for that or at what

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<v Speaker 2>point did you decide this was the direction you wanted

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<v Speaker 2>to go in.

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<v Speaker 1>So for me, there was an actual moment that there

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<v Speaker 1>was an actual moment where the epiphany, like the light

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<v Speaker 1>bulb went on. So it was I was fifteen years old,

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<v Speaker 1>it was after school. I was sitting on the sofa

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<v Speaker 1>and I was watching Phil Donahue. Okay, and Phil Donahue

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<v Speaker 1>had this daily afternoon talk show that was the bomb.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I loved the Field Donahue show as a teenager,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was watching it, and truly I had one

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<v Speaker 1>of those aha moments where I was like, what's that

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<v Speaker 1>job called? What do you call that? Because it wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>like TV star, it was something different. It wasn't an actor.

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<v Speaker 1>It wasn't like, what is that that he's doing? And

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<v Speaker 1>I thought, what is that job called? And they pay

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<v Speaker 1>him to do that? And I found out that that

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<v Speaker 1>was called broadcast journalists. And from the moment I figured

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<v Speaker 1>out that broadcast journalism was a profession, I was like, Oh,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing that. That's what I want to do. Like

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<v Speaker 1>I saw him with his microphone like running around the studio,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, like asking people questions. Caller is the caller there?

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<v Speaker 1>Like it was all so fantastic. And so I only

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<v Speaker 1>applied to colleges that had TV stations, which now they're

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<v Speaker 1>like ubiquitous, but at the time there were truly only

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<v Speaker 1>a handful of them. I mean I could take them

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<v Speaker 1>off Syracuse, Ithaca, you know, American University, Northwestern and the

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<v Speaker 1>day I got to American walked into the team, I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, huh, I'd like to be a TV reporter

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<v Speaker 1>and they were like, uh yeah, you and two hundred

0:21:06.359 --> 0:21:08.840
<v Speaker 1>other freshmen you go back and get l so but

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<v Speaker 1>that was my north star from that moment A fifteen

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<v Speaker 1>that was it.

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<v Speaker 2>That is so interesting. I mean I remember watching Phil

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<v Speaker 2>Donahue as well, like with I don't know why, like

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<v Speaker 2>that's like a grandparent's memory. I don't know, like they

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<v Speaker 2>loved Phil Donahue. Yes, but in a way I would

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<v Speaker 2>argue that Phil Donahue, as great as he was and

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<v Speaker 2>as entertaining as that was, and he was legit, he

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<v Speaker 2>is a little bit of the gateway drug into where

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<v Speaker 2>we sit today. I don't know if any of these

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<v Speaker 2>people are your friends. But and then you start going

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<v Speaker 2>into like Heraldo or Maury Covid. Sure, yeah, word tu

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<v Speaker 2>you I.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually agree with you. Phil Donahue, I would say, was

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<v Speaker 1>still on the you know better Angels side of that

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<v Speaker 1>of that continuum. And I do love her although and

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<v Speaker 1>he is a great in real life. He is a

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<v Speaker 1>great guy in of total mention, and I do love

0:22:07.600 --> 0:22:12.000
<v Speaker 1>him dearly. But yeah, Phil donaghu was the beginning of

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<v Speaker 1>that continuum that leads right to like a chair being

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<v Speaker 1>broken over somebody's head, right, or a paternity test on

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<v Speaker 1>the Mari Povid show.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, exactly, that's very interesting. I mean he was much

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<v Speaker 2>more asking questions as opposed to telling you what the

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<v Speaker 2>thing should be, which I think in a weird way

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<v Speaker 2>that that's what we need more of.

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<v Speaker 1>Well totally. I mean that's what journalism at its best is,

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<v Speaker 1>which is you're a conduit. You know, you're a conduit

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<v Speaker 1>and a platform for other people's stories, and so you

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<v Speaker 1>have the microphone and I've never not realized what a

0:22:50.800 --> 0:22:54.320
<v Speaker 1>powerful platform and position that is. But you're supposed to

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<v Speaker 1>just be a conduit. But then you know, a cable

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<v Speaker 1>news comes along, and then we it turns out in

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<v Speaker 1>twenty four hours. When you have twenty four hour news,

0:23:03.720 --> 0:23:06.920
<v Speaker 1>you can squeeze in some opinions, and you can squeeze

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<v Speaker 1>in some of your own analysis and everything, and so

0:23:12.720 --> 0:23:16.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, it does bleed into those other things.

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<v Speaker 4>I agree.

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<v Speaker 2>Was it tough for you? I mean, you know, you

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<v Speaker 2>keep talking about shrapnel. You didn't have the mohawk, but

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<v Speaker 2>you know, so you're moving from at least being a

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<v Speaker 2>fan of that into sort of what is perceived as

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<v Speaker 2>sort of an ultra clean cut kind of identity in

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<v Speaker 2>broadcast journalism. Was that a difficult change for you or no,

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<v Speaker 2>did you just jump right into that.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I think there's something out wearing the mask of

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<v Speaker 1>an anchor person. You know, anchor people are so kind

0:24:07.000 --> 0:24:10.160
<v Speaker 1>of well cooffed, and there's so much makeup that there's

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<v Speaker 1>a veneer, you know, by again by design, because we're

0:24:14.320 --> 0:24:18.520
<v Speaker 1>just supposed to be the messengers, you know, the conduits.

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<v Speaker 1>And so I think that for a long time, there

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<v Speaker 1>was something comforting for me about being able to get

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<v Speaker 1>behind the mask, the anchor mask, and not have to

0:24:28.320 --> 0:24:31.080
<v Speaker 1>reveal too much vulnerability, you know, you like cake on

0:24:31.160 --> 0:24:33.159
<v Speaker 1>that makeup, and then I'm ready for the day, Like

0:24:33.200 --> 0:24:35.960
<v Speaker 1>I can ask anybody that's my armor, you know, and

0:24:36.000 --> 0:24:38.240
<v Speaker 1>then I can go to battle and ask anybody tough

0:24:38.320 --> 0:24:41.120
<v Speaker 1>questions because I'm kind of behind that mask, the anchor mask.

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<v Speaker 1>And then what started to happen for me personally was

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<v Speaker 1>I started to feel that the mask was a little

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<v Speaker 1>off putting and a bit of a distance from the

0:24:52.040 --> 0:24:57.520
<v Speaker 1>people that I was interviewing. And because I had a childhood,

0:24:57.560 --> 0:25:02.200
<v Speaker 1>well a teenagehood filled with some struggle and challenges, and

0:25:02.240 --> 0:25:03.800
<v Speaker 1>there were times I was broken, there were times I

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<v Speaker 1>had nowhere to live, and there were times that I

0:25:05.160 --> 0:25:09.320
<v Speaker 1>struggled with mental health. I started being tempted to say

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<v Speaker 1>to people, I feel you, I've been there, you know,

0:25:13.359 --> 0:25:16.320
<v Speaker 1>but I can't say that. That's not what news people

0:25:16.960 --> 0:25:20.600
<v Speaker 1>are supposed to be doing. I mean, part of my uh,

0:25:20.720 --> 0:25:24.520
<v Speaker 1>I guess impulse for writing the book was peeling off

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<v Speaker 1>that mask and showing that even your you know well

0:25:27.840 --> 0:25:33.240
<v Speaker 1>quaft Anchor has a story of survival and of challenges

0:25:33.280 --> 0:25:35.680
<v Speaker 1>and obstacles and everything. Because I think that we often

0:25:35.840 --> 0:25:38.600
<v Speaker 1>people can project onto us all the time. You know,

0:25:38.680 --> 0:25:41.679
<v Speaker 1>we are tabula rasa that people project onto And what

0:25:41.720 --> 0:25:46.359
<v Speaker 1>they project onto me often is I've never had a

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<v Speaker 1>hard day in my life. You know, I've never had

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<v Speaker 1>a struggle, and you know that's just not the truth

0:25:52.040 --> 0:25:52.400
<v Speaker 1>I have.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you feel like that should be different or do

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<v Speaker 2>you feel like that if people knew more about you,

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<v Speaker 2>or if you projected yourself more through that mask, that

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<v Speaker 2>makes you part of the story. I'm trying to figure

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<v Speaker 2>out like the danger of that for you or why

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<v Speaker 2>you don't do that.

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<v Speaker 1>I think people have always been able to smell something

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<v Speaker 1>on me, and I think it's CBGB's no. I think

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<v Speaker 1>I think that people get a whiff of something, that

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<v Speaker 1>there is an untold story or that I am relatable,

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<v Speaker 1>but they can't put their finger on it. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>people do think that I am relatable in a way,

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<v Speaker 1>so I hope that it's coming through the mask. But

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<v Speaker 1>you know, yeah, we're taught, we are taught in journalism

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<v Speaker 1>school don't make yourself the story. You know, that's just

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<v Speaker 1>not what you're there for. You're there for other people's stories,

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<v Speaker 1>in the service of other people's voices. So we're really

0:26:47.680 --> 0:26:50.040
<v Speaker 1>taught not to do that. That's part of the discomfort.

0:26:50.200 --> 0:26:54.680
<v Speaker 1>But for everybody, it's individual. Not everybody is comfortable opening

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<v Speaker 1>the pages of their diaries and letting the world read it,

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<v Speaker 1>of course. But for me, I just believe it's time

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<v Speaker 1>to build bridges. I mean, because of where we are

0:27:03.320 --> 0:27:05.520
<v Speaker 1>right now, because I've seen so much discord in the

0:27:05.520 --> 0:27:08.920
<v Speaker 1>cable news world and in news and everybody in their silos.

0:27:09.440 --> 0:27:11.399
<v Speaker 1>You know, I'm just doing my own little part to

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<v Speaker 1>build a bridge and show that we're all, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>more similar than we are different.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, tell me about some of your earliest jobs either

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<v Speaker 2>your first how you got that or what kind of

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<v Speaker 2>stories were you covering?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, my early you mean my earliest TV jobs. I

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<v Speaker 1>was about to tell you about Friendlies. I was about

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<v Speaker 1>to tell you about making Jim dandies at Friendlies. Okay, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So so I was a waitress before I was a reporter,

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<v Speaker 1>and that restaurant work. Did you ever do restaurant work?

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<v Speaker 3>Run?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but they didn't trust me with much. I was

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<v Speaker 2>a host. I think when I signed up for it,

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't realize how much less money you make than

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<v Speaker 2>everybody else.

0:27:55.560 --> 0:27:56.560
<v Speaker 1>Because you don't get tipps.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but I I was a host. I was a

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<v Speaker 2>host of a very popular busy place. I wasn't doing nothing. Yeah,

0:28:05.760 --> 0:28:07.600
<v Speaker 2>I don't think I had the patience for be a waiter.

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<v Speaker 1>But anyway, I see, all right, Well, maybe from your

0:28:11.119 --> 0:28:15.160
<v Speaker 1>even brief stint in restaurant work, you know that it's

0:28:15.359 --> 0:28:20.479
<v Speaker 1>just such a character building experience, you know. And so

0:28:20.840 --> 0:28:25.040
<v Speaker 1>at Friendli's was my childhood haunt as a child in Shrewsbury,

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<v Speaker 1>New Jersey, and then as a teenager if we had

0:28:27.480 --> 0:28:31.120
<v Speaker 1>the munchies or something, and then I ended up working there.

0:28:31.320 --> 0:28:33.400
<v Speaker 1>As my mother called it, might come up and and

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<v Speaker 1>so you know, like scooping ice cream and everything. I

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<v Speaker 1>think very fondly back to that and how it was

0:28:39.440 --> 0:28:43.840
<v Speaker 1>character building. But if you're talking about my first reporter jobs,

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<v Speaker 1>those are also character building.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I made so many mistakes and they were

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<v Speaker 1>so mortifying. I started at American University.

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<v Speaker 2>On that on the TV station that was there, so

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<v Speaker 2>you did.

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<v Speaker 1>Eventually I elbowed my way, and yes, I elbowed eventually

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<v Speaker 1>my way. And after they'd given up on everybody else,

0:29:04.720 --> 0:29:07.520
<v Speaker 1>like I had to audition along with like two hundred

0:29:07.560 --> 0:29:10.400
<v Speaker 1>other more talented kids, and then like those kids, you

0:29:10.440 --> 0:29:12.680
<v Speaker 1>know what happens. There's like this weeding out process, and

0:29:12.720 --> 0:29:15.520
<v Speaker 1>some kids realized like ooh, I don't want to stand

0:29:15.560 --> 0:29:18.720
<v Speaker 1>in a snowstorm or like outside of the rain or

0:29:18.920 --> 0:29:22.320
<v Speaker 1>cover some crappy story. But I'm like, I do you know?

0:29:23.040 --> 0:29:27.320
<v Speaker 1>So I sucked. That's here's the upshot. I sucked. This

0:29:27.520 --> 0:29:30.880
<v Speaker 1>was not a natural fit for me. I did you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I had to learn how to do a stand up

0:29:32.200 --> 0:29:35.120
<v Speaker 1>where you talk into the microphone and don't look petrified.

0:29:35.120 --> 0:29:37.440
<v Speaker 1>And I was like white knuckling it. I would be

0:29:37.480 --> 0:29:40.000
<v Speaker 1>somebody like there are one take wonders. I was like

0:29:40.160 --> 0:29:42.680
<v Speaker 1>a forty eight take one, like to the point where

0:29:42.680 --> 0:29:45.000
<v Speaker 1>my cameraman would be like, they all suck, but we're

0:29:45.000 --> 0:29:46.160
<v Speaker 1>gonna have to stick with one of them, you know,

0:29:46.360 --> 0:29:48.960
<v Speaker 1>like I can't take another second of this. So it

0:29:49.040 --> 0:29:54.160
<v Speaker 1>was really through just repetition that I ended up getting better.

0:29:54.240 --> 0:29:57.080
<v Speaker 1>And then and then one of my first jobs was

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<v Speaker 1>for the crime show America's Most Wanted, and I loved

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<v Speaker 1>every second of that. I loved I love crime reporting.

0:30:05.080 --> 0:30:08.080
<v Speaker 1>I love the criminal mind, you know, trying to crack it.

0:30:08.240 --> 0:30:15.120
<v Speaker 1>I loved finding fugitives. I loved jailhouse interviews with mass murderers.

0:30:15.800 --> 0:30:19.480
<v Speaker 1>They would send me in to interview them, and I

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<v Speaker 1>just it was a great training ground.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow, that's cool.

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<v Speaker 1>It was really cool.

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<v Speaker 2>I like that. Yeah, I did something you said before

0:30:30.920 --> 0:30:35.240
<v Speaker 2>though I had a conversation. I've become friends with Dylan

0:30:35.360 --> 0:30:38.760
<v Speaker 2>Dreyer and the whole standing outside in the middle of

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<v Speaker 2>a hurricane thing is the dumbest thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Awful.

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<v Speaker 2>It's awful.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't like it. I mean, when I was eighteen

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<v Speaker 1>and nineteen twenty, I would have done anything, and I

0:30:47.960 --> 0:30:50.320
<v Speaker 1>would have been like, put me in coach. But now

0:30:50.560 --> 0:30:52.840
<v Speaker 1>when there's a hurricane, I like, hide under my desk

0:30:52.960 --> 0:30:54.560
<v Speaker 1>so they think I'm gone.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, it's even just like your pal Anderson Cooper does

0:30:59.280 --> 0:31:01.840
<v Speaker 2>it all the time. I mean, obviously they don't want

0:31:01.840 --> 0:31:04.800
<v Speaker 2>me producing these shows, but I want them to know

0:31:05.520 --> 0:31:09.840
<v Speaker 2>that the consumer at home who are watching and Anderson's like, hey,

0:31:09.880 --> 0:31:13.720
<v Speaker 2>the entire area has been evacuated. No one is here.

0:31:14.320 --> 0:31:17.720
<v Speaker 2>We're here on the beach in North Carolina, and you're like,

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<v Speaker 2>get out of what are you doing? Why are you there?

0:31:22.920 --> 0:31:26.640
<v Speaker 1>It's so frustrating, stressful. It is stressful. But I mean,

0:31:26.680 --> 0:31:29.479
<v Speaker 1>I must tell you viewership does go up.

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<v Speaker 2>It probably doesn't, but is that like watching a reality

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<v Speaker 2>television show that's terrible that you're watching to make fun

0:31:40.720 --> 0:31:44.760
<v Speaker 2>of it, Like that's the thing. Is the viewership high

0:31:44.840 --> 0:31:45.600
<v Speaker 2>or it doesn't matter.

0:31:46.840 --> 0:31:49.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if it's train wrap watching or pity

0:31:49.920 --> 0:31:52.800
<v Speaker 1>watching or thank God I'm not out in the elements watching,

0:31:52.920 --> 0:31:55.880
<v Speaker 1>or just Anderson in a wet T shirt washing. I

0:31:55.920 --> 0:31:58.400
<v Speaker 1>don't know, but I know that it's successful.

0:31:58.560 --> 0:32:04.760
<v Speaker 2>It's successful. Okay. You in nineteen ninety eight, you started

0:32:04.800 --> 0:32:08.600
<v Speaker 2>Fox News in Boston. How did you get that job?

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<v Speaker 1>So? Interestingly, my co anchor from American University I worked

0:32:13.840 --> 0:32:17.680
<v Speaker 1>my way up from reporter outside in the freezing range

0:32:17.720 --> 0:32:21.120
<v Speaker 1>to anchoring at American University. And my co anchor, who

0:32:21.160 --> 0:32:23.400
<v Speaker 1>was a really talented guy. He had all of the

0:32:23.480 --> 0:32:26.640
<v Speaker 1>natural skill that I did not possess. He did. He

0:32:27.040 --> 0:32:29.720
<v Speaker 1>was a correspondent at Fox and Fox had just started.

0:32:29.760 --> 0:32:34.880
<v Speaker 1>Fox was going to be this new national cable news network.

0:32:35.280 --> 0:32:37.600
<v Speaker 1>He was telling me about it and the great perks,

0:32:37.640 --> 0:32:40.760
<v Speaker 1>and he had his own designated producer, and he had

0:32:40.960 --> 0:32:43.480
<v Speaker 1>his own cameraman and they would, you know, travel the

0:32:43.520 --> 0:32:46.000
<v Speaker 1>country and tell these stories. And he was like, you

0:32:46.040 --> 0:32:47.520
<v Speaker 1>need to send a tape there, and I said, that

0:32:47.680 --> 0:32:55.720
<v Speaker 1>does sound good, you know the show and his last words.

0:32:56.120 --> 0:32:59.280
<v Speaker 1>And so the show that I had been on in

0:32:59.400 --> 0:33:03.120
<v Speaker 1>Boston and National NBC Morning Show had just been canceled.

0:33:03.160 --> 0:33:07.440
<v Speaker 1>So I was freelancing at all sorts of different crazy

0:33:07.520 --> 0:33:11.600
<v Speaker 1>shows and looking for a steady gig. And the way

0:33:11.640 --> 0:33:14.920
<v Speaker 1>my friend Rick described it sounded fantastic. I sent a

0:33:15.000 --> 0:33:19.560
<v Speaker 1>resume tape to the vice president in charge of programming,

0:33:19.640 --> 0:33:24.120
<v Speaker 1>and I was hired, not sight unseen because they'd seen

0:33:24.160 --> 0:33:27.800
<v Speaker 1>my tape, but voice unspoken to I mean, there was

0:33:27.880 --> 0:33:31.720
<v Speaker 1>never an interview, no interview, no interview, no phone call.

0:33:32.320 --> 0:33:34.200
<v Speaker 1>My agent called and said, like, they want to hire you,

0:33:34.280 --> 0:33:37.320
<v Speaker 1>and I said, fantastic. And it was a great salary

0:33:37.520 --> 0:33:38.840
<v Speaker 1>and there were great perks, and I was going to

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<v Speaker 1>live in Boston, which is a town that I love

0:33:41.320 --> 0:33:44.520
<v Speaker 1>and always felt was home. And so it was all great,

0:33:44.640 --> 0:33:47.120
<v Speaker 1>and it was just as my friend promised. It was

0:33:47.240 --> 0:33:51.440
<v Speaker 1>great for a couple of years, and I was traveling

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<v Speaker 1>around New England and doing all sorts of cool stories

0:33:54.320 --> 0:33:59.600
<v Speaker 1>on Harvard medical breakthroughs or fall foliage or whatever. And

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<v Speaker 1>then slowly it started morphing into something different. And I mean,

0:34:05.600 --> 0:34:08.440
<v Speaker 1>I think what happened is that Roger Els sort of

0:34:08.480 --> 0:34:11.920
<v Speaker 1>realized that there was this large chunk of the viewing

0:34:12.160 --> 0:34:15.520
<v Speaker 1>population that felt that their voice wasn't being echoed or

0:34:15.560 --> 0:34:19.840
<v Speaker 1>heard on other networks, and that there was like this

0:34:19.920 --> 0:34:25.160
<v Speaker 1>beachhead that he could kind of corner. And slowly, after

0:34:25.200 --> 0:34:28.080
<v Speaker 1>about two years, all of my stories started. I started

0:34:28.080 --> 0:34:31.360
<v Speaker 1>being assigned stories with a conservative slant, and some of

0:34:31.360 --> 0:34:35.120
<v Speaker 1>my scripts started being changed. They wanted me to change

0:34:35.160 --> 0:34:37.440
<v Speaker 1>some wording, They wanted the guests that I interviewed to

0:34:37.480 --> 0:34:41.440
<v Speaker 1>be different. And it became, you know, it morphed into

0:34:41.960 --> 0:34:43.680
<v Speaker 1>something like what it is today.

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<v Speaker 2>That's so interesting. I mean, this is such a long

0:34:47.719 --> 0:34:52.520
<v Speaker 2>time ago. Now obviously in your mind doesn't remember things

0:34:52.560 --> 0:34:59.680
<v Speaker 2>as they were or whatever. So Fox News you believe changed,

0:35:00.040 --> 0:35:03.000
<v Speaker 2>which I trust you, by the way, that's not a challenge.

0:35:03.600 --> 0:35:06.759
<v Speaker 2>But around two thousand or so it became different than

0:35:06.800 --> 0:35:12.120
<v Speaker 2>what it was before, like that specific voice that is

0:35:12.239 --> 0:35:16.600
<v Speaker 2>now that's famous for whatever. That actually changed. While you

0:35:16.640 --> 0:35:20.359
<v Speaker 2>were there, you palpably felt that the people you were

0:35:20.400 --> 0:35:23.080
<v Speaker 2>talking to and the stories that you were telling had

0:35:23.080 --> 0:35:26.080
<v Speaker 2>a different slant. Sure before interesting.

0:35:25.800 --> 0:35:29.239
<v Speaker 1>Sure, and maybe that was always Roger's grand plan, I'm

0:35:29.239 --> 0:35:32.680
<v Speaker 1>not sure. Or maybe he started to see where their

0:35:32.719 --> 0:35:35.600
<v Speaker 1>bread was buttered and that it really the times that

0:35:35.680 --> 0:35:38.879
<v Speaker 1>we did stories with a more conservative angle started really

0:35:38.920 --> 0:35:42.480
<v Speaker 1>resonating in the ratings you can see. As executives, you

0:35:42.520 --> 0:35:45.560
<v Speaker 1>get minute by minute ratings, so you can see exactly

0:35:45.600 --> 0:35:49.680
<v Speaker 1>what stories are resonating and where viewership falls off. But

0:35:49.760 --> 0:35:52.759
<v Speaker 1>at some point I know that Roger, and I know

0:35:52.840 --> 0:35:56.760
<v Speaker 1>this because he told me this explicitly. Roger started playing

0:35:56.800 --> 0:35:58.719
<v Speaker 1>to the crowd, you know, I mean, all of Fox

0:35:58.719 --> 0:36:00.680
<v Speaker 1>started playing to the crowd. And once they figured it

0:36:00.680 --> 0:36:04.279
<v Speaker 1>out that it was winning and that they were resonating

0:36:04.320 --> 0:36:08.080
<v Speaker 1>with this conservative, more right wing audience. They just gunned

0:36:08.120 --> 0:36:12.040
<v Speaker 1>it for that viewership. And then that's those were the

0:36:12.080 --> 0:36:14.200
<v Speaker 1>stories that we started doing to the point where, you know,

0:36:14.239 --> 0:36:17.520
<v Speaker 1>there were times that I was, let's say, hosting the

0:36:17.560 --> 0:36:22.880
<v Speaker 1>morning show, and every single story was from a conservative angle.

0:36:22.960 --> 0:36:25.520
<v Speaker 1>There was no other Like it would be just how

0:36:25.560 --> 0:36:28.360
<v Speaker 1>many different ways can you slice and dice Barack Obama

0:36:28.520 --> 0:36:32.000
<v Speaker 1>in one hour? And I fought it to the best

0:36:32.000 --> 0:36:34.440
<v Speaker 1>that I could. It's hard to fight city Hall. I

0:36:34.440 --> 0:36:36.600
<v Speaker 1>would say to Roger Els, don't you think that gets

0:36:36.640 --> 0:36:39.200
<v Speaker 1>a little redundant. Don't you think it's a little monotonous

0:36:39.239 --> 0:36:41.440
<v Speaker 1>to have the same angle every hour? Like maybe I

0:36:41.480 --> 0:36:43.760
<v Speaker 1>could try to be a voice for a different angle

0:36:43.840 --> 0:36:46.240
<v Speaker 1>or a monarch. He was like, you know, he thundered

0:36:46.239 --> 0:36:48.600
<v Speaker 1>at me, you will, I will not have you lose

0:36:48.640 --> 0:36:51.919
<v Speaker 1>the audience. You are not to do that. And so

0:36:52.320 --> 0:36:54.600
<v Speaker 1>that just told me that they were all in for

0:36:54.640 --> 0:36:56.480
<v Speaker 1>the audience. And as we now know, I mean, if

0:36:56.520 --> 0:36:59.920
<v Speaker 1>you fast forward ten years or fifteen years from that,

0:37:00.040 --> 0:37:04.040
<v Speaker 1>and you know from the dominion lawsuit, they ended up saying,

0:37:04.080 --> 0:37:06.160
<v Speaker 1>did you hear Tucker Carlson and you hear people in

0:37:06.280 --> 0:37:10.520
<v Speaker 1>the paper, I mean, in the documents of that lawsuit, say,

0:37:11.360 --> 0:37:13.120
<v Speaker 1>got to think about the viewers. You got to give

0:37:13.160 --> 0:37:16.160
<v Speaker 1>the viewers what they want. We're here for the audience, don't.

0:37:16.200 --> 0:37:18.120
<v Speaker 1>You can't say that the audience won't like it. You

0:37:18.120 --> 0:37:19.440
<v Speaker 1>can't say that that's what they do.

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<v Speaker 2>That's so interesting. I mean you truly, truly, you have

0:37:23.840 --> 0:37:26.799
<v Speaker 2>enlightened me because I think that I don't know where

0:37:26.800 --> 0:37:30.120
<v Speaker 2>it's been put in my consciousness or who taught me

0:37:30.239 --> 0:37:35.000
<v Speaker 2>this or whatever, but that it was Murdoch was conservative,

0:37:35.120 --> 0:37:38.800
<v Speaker 2>so Fox is conservative, and maybe that's true as well,

0:37:38.920 --> 0:37:42.799
<v Speaker 2>but they were able to keep more of a you know,

0:37:43.320 --> 0:37:45.919
<v Speaker 2>not be not as biased for a while. But that's

0:37:45.920 --> 0:37:46.719
<v Speaker 2>so interesting.

0:37:47.200 --> 0:37:49.920
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean in my in my experience, like ratings

0:37:49.920 --> 0:37:52.960
<v Speaker 1>were their religion, and so you know, I really think

0:37:53.000 --> 0:37:57.440
<v Speaker 1>that if Roger it did dovetail with their ideology. Okay,

0:37:57.480 --> 0:38:01.160
<v Speaker 1>so it all works out because Roger and Rubert Murdock

0:38:01.400 --> 0:38:04.279
<v Speaker 1>are conservative, so it ends up dovetailing, so they it

0:38:04.360 --> 0:38:08.200
<v Speaker 1>works for them. However, I mean, Roger also really liked

0:38:08.320 --> 0:38:13.560
<v Speaker 1>the whatever that whatever that dog show is, you know

0:38:13.640 --> 0:38:16.920
<v Speaker 1>that like that fancy dog show every year where poodle's

0:38:16.960 --> 0:38:18.080
<v Speaker 1>trot around.

0:38:18.480 --> 0:38:20.520
<v Speaker 2>Like the Westminster Dog Show.

0:38:20.719 --> 0:38:23.680
<v Speaker 1>Like if the ratings had shown that every single segment

0:38:23.920 --> 0:38:27.640
<v Speaker 1>could have been a trotting around poodle. That's what Fox

0:38:27.680 --> 0:38:30.760
<v Speaker 1>would be today. But the ratings just happened to show

0:38:31.120 --> 0:38:34.040
<v Speaker 1>that the viewers really liked conservative talking points.

0:38:34.719 --> 0:38:37.640
<v Speaker 2>Fascinating? Is that in part why you moved on?

0:38:38.320 --> 0:38:38.720
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:38:38.760 --> 0:38:40.719
<v Speaker 1>Absolutely, yes, I felt like I mean, I got in

0:38:40.800 --> 0:38:43.440
<v Speaker 1>trouble all the time. It's not fun at work to

0:38:43.560 --> 0:38:47.200
<v Speaker 1>be constantly called to the woodshed and in trouble. So

0:38:47.360 --> 0:38:48.080
<v Speaker 1>Roger for.

0:38:48.160 --> 0:38:50.000
<v Speaker 2>Saying things on the air, you mad, yeah.

0:38:50.000 --> 0:38:53.759
<v Speaker 1>Oh yes, ye're saying things on the air. But sometimes

0:38:53.840 --> 0:38:55.960
<v Speaker 1>Roger would call me to his office and be very

0:38:55.960 --> 0:38:59.200
<v Speaker 1>disgruntled about the way I was sitting. He told me

0:38:59.280 --> 0:39:03.279
<v Speaker 1>he could tell I was uncomfortable with whatever conservative talking

0:39:03.360 --> 0:39:05.080
<v Speaker 1>point that we happened to be doing that day because

0:39:05.120 --> 0:39:06.719
<v Speaker 1>of the way I was sitting. He told me that

0:39:06.960 --> 0:39:09.759
<v Speaker 1>it looked like my body had been botoxed. And I

0:39:09.800 --> 0:39:13.080
<v Speaker 1>was like, you know, Roger, I said, it's very cold

0:39:13.120 --> 0:39:16.520
<v Speaker 1>in that studio. I'm freezing. He was like, nope, nope, nope,

0:39:16.560 --> 0:39:18.680
<v Speaker 1>that wasn't it. It's because you were uncomfortable. And I

0:39:18.719 --> 0:39:20.640
<v Speaker 1>was like, hm, I guess he can read minds because

0:39:20.680 --> 0:39:24.880
<v Speaker 1>I was uncomfortable and so it's not good to be

0:39:25.440 --> 0:39:29.360
<v Speaker 1>uncomfortable with what you're having to report on. And I stopped.

0:39:29.800 --> 0:39:32.640
<v Speaker 1>I started realizing it wasn't really news. I started not

0:39:32.719 --> 0:39:36.520
<v Speaker 1>thinking that it was serving the viewers to be fed

0:39:36.640 --> 0:39:39.759
<v Speaker 1>this all the time. I mean, I think it is

0:39:39.800 --> 0:39:43.439
<v Speaker 1>interesting to hear conservative viewpoints, for sure, and I think

0:39:43.480 --> 0:39:47.840
<v Speaker 1>that smart conservative voices are really important for the democracy.

0:39:48.040 --> 0:39:51.160
<v Speaker 1>But we weren't always doing smart conservative voices. We were

0:39:51.200 --> 0:39:56.359
<v Speaker 1>doing just fear mongering, you know, fear mongering about a

0:39:56.400 --> 0:39:58.719
<v Speaker 1>new mosque that was going to be built somewhere. And

0:39:58.760 --> 0:40:02.160
<v Speaker 1>I didn't think that that was helpful for anybody. So

0:40:02.840 --> 0:40:05.440
<v Speaker 1>I was uncomfortable. Roger could see that I was uncomfortable.

0:40:05.440 --> 0:40:08.120
<v Speaker 1>We fought a lot about it, or basically I listened

0:40:08.120 --> 0:40:10.839
<v Speaker 1>to him yelling that's not sustainable.

0:40:11.920 --> 0:40:15.759
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, when you moved to CNN in twenty fourteen, did

0:40:15.840 --> 0:40:21.000
<v Speaker 2>you feel like you saw opportunities there that you were

0:40:21.000 --> 0:40:23.160
<v Speaker 2>not able to do at Fox News.

0:40:23.520 --> 0:40:26.640
<v Speaker 1>Definitely? Definitely. I mean when I got to CNN, it

0:40:26.719 --> 0:40:29.880
<v Speaker 1>was just a garden of opportunity. To this day, I

0:40:29.880 --> 0:40:32.279
<v Speaker 1>don't know how to explain it. Jeff Zucker was our

0:40:32.320 --> 0:40:34.759
<v Speaker 1>president at that time, and I have asked him about this,

0:40:34.840 --> 0:40:37.200
<v Speaker 1>and he can't explain. I mean, he's never taken a

0:40:37.239 --> 0:40:39.160
<v Speaker 1>time to explain it to me, but a lot of

0:40:39.280 --> 0:40:43.200
<v Speaker 1>us have talked to each other about this. Somehow, there

0:40:43.280 --> 0:40:46.440
<v Speaker 1>was enough of the pie to go around for everyone.

0:40:46.840 --> 0:40:48.960
<v Speaker 1>There were a lot of us, but I got to

0:40:49.040 --> 0:40:51.640
<v Speaker 1>sit down with Hillary Clinton and do a big one

0:40:51.680 --> 0:40:55.600
<v Speaker 1>on one. Somehow, Dana Bash got a very cool interview

0:40:55.640 --> 0:40:58.040
<v Speaker 1>with whoever she was going after, Anderson Cooper got to

0:40:58.080 --> 0:41:01.319
<v Speaker 1>go stand in a hurricane, you know, John Berman was

0:41:01.480 --> 0:41:04.400
<v Speaker 1>going to cover you know, a terrorist attack in Paris.

0:41:04.440 --> 0:41:08.080
<v Speaker 1>Like there was so much news happening, and all of

0:41:08.160 --> 0:41:13.200
<v Speaker 1>us got to have these special moments. And when I

0:41:13.520 --> 0:41:16.040
<v Speaker 1>got there, it was just like my career opened up

0:41:16.080 --> 0:41:18.600
<v Speaker 1>and I got to do all of these super cool things,

0:41:18.680 --> 0:41:21.000
<v Speaker 1>including you know, a host of the morning show there

0:41:21.000 --> 0:41:23.520
<v Speaker 1>for seven years on it's you know, kind of a

0:41:23.640 --> 0:41:26.759
<v Speaker 1>very very successful run of it. So I was I

0:41:26.800 --> 0:41:30.200
<v Speaker 1>was really delighted because I did feel like, you know,

0:41:30.360 --> 0:41:32.880
<v Speaker 1>a bit of a put on the shelf at Fox,

0:41:32.920 --> 0:41:36.440
<v Speaker 1>Like Roger stopped giving me opportunities and everything because he didn't,

0:41:37.040 --> 0:41:38.080
<v Speaker 1>as he said, trust me.

0:41:38.719 --> 0:41:45.160
<v Speaker 2>Interesting. You know where Jeff Zucker was before he was CNN, NBC.

0:41:47.120 --> 0:41:49.399
<v Speaker 2>He was he was in charge when the Office came

0:41:49.440 --> 0:41:50.799
<v Speaker 2>on the air, he was.

0:41:50.760 --> 0:41:53.759
<v Speaker 1>So it was did he decide that like that would

0:41:53.760 --> 0:41:55.640
<v Speaker 1>give it the green light or was there somebody else?

0:41:56.200 --> 0:41:59.320
<v Speaker 2>You know, you know, I should have done some research

0:41:59.360 --> 0:42:03.560
<v Speaker 2>on this, because I'm not sure to what degree. I mean,

0:42:03.600 --> 0:42:05.640
<v Speaker 2>I've told the story. He was not a fan of

0:42:05.640 --> 0:42:08.680
<v Speaker 2>the show. He was not a fan of the show.

0:42:08.800 --> 0:42:09.480
<v Speaker 2>He didn't get it.

0:42:09.960 --> 0:42:12.480
<v Speaker 1>He didn't get it, but yet he green lit it

0:42:12.640 --> 0:42:13.160
<v Speaker 1>or something.

0:42:13.600 --> 0:42:16.919
<v Speaker 2>Well, he had someone that was under him who really

0:42:17.000 --> 0:42:19.799
<v Speaker 2>championed for it, but he did. He did it. He

0:42:19.880 --> 0:42:24.120
<v Speaker 2>had a few people that he trusted outside that were

0:42:24.360 --> 0:42:27.960
<v Speaker 2>big fans of it, and a lot of the younger

0:42:28.120 --> 0:42:34.560
<v Speaker 2>people at the network, like interns and assistants, were big

0:42:34.600 --> 0:42:37.759
<v Speaker 2>fans of it. But it's always interesting to me.

0:42:38.000 --> 0:42:40.480
<v Speaker 1>I think that that's I mean, to me, that's the

0:42:40.520 --> 0:42:42.279
<v Speaker 1>mark of a great executive, which is like I don't

0:42:42.320 --> 0:42:44.880
<v Speaker 1>necessarily get it, but all these guys in the demo do,

0:42:45.080 --> 0:42:47.240
<v Speaker 1>Let's try it that.

0:42:47.960 --> 0:43:00.520
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's right.

0:43:07.000 --> 0:43:09.080
<v Speaker 2>So this is sort of the lead up kind of

0:43:09.120 --> 0:43:15.399
<v Speaker 2>the now time for the twenty sixteen presidential campaigns. Did

0:43:15.440 --> 0:43:18.719
<v Speaker 2>you feel like, because of your time at Fox you

0:43:19.080 --> 0:43:23.520
<v Speaker 2>had sort of a unique perspective on coverage that you

0:43:23.560 --> 0:43:26.279
<v Speaker 2>had done previously, or what kind of coverage they were

0:43:26.280 --> 0:43:30.000
<v Speaker 2>going to have, and what CNN was doing, Like how

0:43:30.040 --> 0:43:33.720
<v Speaker 2>did you fit in there to that very specific time.

0:43:34.600 --> 0:43:38.640
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I definitely felt that I had a bigger, a

0:43:38.719 --> 0:43:42.320
<v Speaker 1>wider lens than other people because I had been at Fox.

0:43:42.320 --> 0:43:44.839
<v Speaker 1>And I still feel that way. I still feel that

0:43:44.880 --> 0:43:49.200
<v Speaker 1>my years at Fox were really valuable and really helped

0:43:49.320 --> 0:43:54.279
<v Speaker 1>inform a worldview that I now try to carry into

0:43:54.320 --> 0:43:57.759
<v Speaker 1>all of my stories because I think that I can

0:43:57.800 --> 0:44:02.239
<v Speaker 1>pretty easily channel you know, that Roger Ayles worldview and

0:44:02.320 --> 0:44:05.080
<v Speaker 1>the viewers of Fox who were always you know, really

0:44:05.160 --> 0:44:07.120
<v Speaker 1>kind to me and I got to talk to and

0:44:07.239 --> 0:44:10.720
<v Speaker 1>you know, interview a lot, and so I still feel

0:44:10.719 --> 0:44:12.759
<v Speaker 1>that way. I tap into that all the time, and

0:44:12.800 --> 0:44:15.240
<v Speaker 1>when I got to CNN, I think it was super

0:44:15.239 --> 0:44:18.440
<v Speaker 1>helpful because you know, we are all in our bubbles,

0:44:18.760 --> 0:44:22.760
<v Speaker 1>not by design. I mean, it's not like everybody tries

0:44:22.920 --> 0:44:25.200
<v Speaker 1>to be myopic or in their own bubble, but you

0:44:25.600 --> 0:44:29.640
<v Speaker 1>are a product of your surroundings and your geography, and

0:44:29.800 --> 0:44:33.279
<v Speaker 1>so you know, by that time, there wasn't a lot

0:44:33.320 --> 0:44:37.200
<v Speaker 1>of crossover between CNN and Fox, and there weren't a

0:44:37.200 --> 0:44:39.319
<v Speaker 1>lot of people going back and forth who had worked

0:44:39.360 --> 0:44:42.920
<v Speaker 1>in different places, so I was very glad that I

0:44:42.960 --> 0:44:45.319
<v Speaker 1>could bring I think, like a kind of a bit

0:44:45.360 --> 0:44:48.840
<v Speaker 1>of a wider aperture to my reporting at CNN.

0:44:49.200 --> 0:44:53.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's very cool. You mentioned it before the twenty

0:44:53.480 --> 0:44:57.319
<v Speaker 2>four hour news cycle, which is intense, and I think, Look,

0:44:57.360 --> 0:45:02.320
<v Speaker 2>I think that a lot of us consumers of news

0:45:02.719 --> 0:45:07.719
<v Speaker 2>get fatigued because the news is NonStop and it's not

0:45:07.840 --> 0:45:13.480
<v Speaker 2>always great. And I know for myself I will put

0:45:13.480 --> 0:45:17.320
<v Speaker 2>the phone on silent or to turn the notifications off.

0:45:18.040 --> 0:45:22.040
<v Speaker 2>This is something in your job you can't really do.

0:45:22.760 --> 0:45:26.719
<v Speaker 2>So how do you deal with that, that sort of

0:45:26.880 --> 0:45:30.799
<v Speaker 2>constant barrage of information and news that's coming to you,

0:45:31.520 --> 0:45:36.920
<v Speaker 2>which oftentimes is not good or at least positive, uplifting.

0:45:37.200 --> 0:45:39.440
<v Speaker 2>We don't have a lot of those stories. How do

0:45:39.520 --> 0:45:41.759
<v Speaker 2>you deal with that day in and day out.

0:45:42.040 --> 0:45:45.040
<v Speaker 1>Well, first of all, I commend you for turning off

0:45:45.160 --> 0:45:47.719
<v Speaker 1>the notifications and the phone sometimes, and everybody has to

0:45:47.760 --> 0:45:49.719
<v Speaker 1>do that, because I do think that we are in

0:45:49.840 --> 0:45:53.160
<v Speaker 1>such a deluge of information and there's so many different

0:45:53.200 --> 0:45:56.439
<v Speaker 1>delivery systems that it is affecting people's mental health for sure.

0:45:56.440 --> 0:45:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I mean, obviously the research shows that. So you used

0:45:59.680 --> 0:46:01.400
<v Speaker 1>to be able to just turn on the TV and

0:46:01.440 --> 0:46:04.280
<v Speaker 1>turn it off at your when you'd had enough. And

0:46:04.360 --> 0:46:07.200
<v Speaker 1>now I just think that the drinking from a fire

0:46:07.239 --> 0:46:09.879
<v Speaker 1>hose is way too much for a lot of our

0:46:09.960 --> 0:46:14.120
<v Speaker 1>nervous systems. So I'm very good at compartmentalizing. I always

0:46:14.120 --> 0:46:16.839
<v Speaker 1>have been good at compartmentalizing. I'm able to kind of

0:46:17.000 --> 0:46:20.399
<v Speaker 1>see a story for a story and recognize that I'm

0:46:20.440 --> 0:46:23.759
<v Speaker 1>here as the again conduit to tell that story or

0:46:23.760 --> 0:46:27.360
<v Speaker 1>the platform, and I don't really take it home with me.

0:46:27.440 --> 0:46:29.640
<v Speaker 1>I mean, there have been times that I've had to

0:46:29.680 --> 0:46:35.680
<v Speaker 1>tell very tragic, awful stories and they sick with me

0:46:35.760 --> 0:46:39.560
<v Speaker 1>a little bit longer. But I really try not to

0:46:39.600 --> 0:46:44.479
<v Speaker 1>internalize those because then I would be useless at my job.

0:46:44.960 --> 0:46:48.080
<v Speaker 1>So I'm very good at being present, you know, for

0:46:48.120 --> 0:46:51.120
<v Speaker 1>however many hours the red light is on being there

0:46:51.480 --> 0:46:54.000
<v Speaker 1>telling the story, trying to get the facts, and then

0:46:54.160 --> 0:46:57.359
<v Speaker 1>after that it is very easy for me to come

0:46:57.360 --> 0:47:01.200
<v Speaker 1>home and turn on the office or some I mean, seriously,

0:47:01.239 --> 0:47:04.239
<v Speaker 1>TV has always been like a real companion of mine,

0:47:04.400 --> 0:47:08.160
<v Speaker 1>right and I have often used it as an escape,

0:47:08.280 --> 0:47:10.239
<v Speaker 1>you know, and I can do that.

0:47:11.200 --> 0:47:16.640
<v Speaker 2>You're now reporting on the whole story with Anderson Cooper.

0:47:17.320 --> 0:47:21.239
<v Speaker 2>These stories are relevant and important, but a little bit

0:47:21.320 --> 0:47:25.120
<v Speaker 2>of a different kind of journalism than sort of that

0:47:25.440 --> 0:47:28.040
<v Speaker 2>daily news cycle. Are you enjoying that?

0:47:28.960 --> 0:47:29.200
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:47:29.280 --> 0:47:31.720
<v Speaker 1>I enjoyed a lot. That's how that was my first

0:47:31.960 --> 0:47:35.000
<v Speaker 1>I first started with long form, as we call it,

0:47:35.320 --> 0:47:38.799
<v Speaker 1>which is not the kind of breaking news or the

0:47:39.239 --> 0:47:41.200
<v Speaker 1>minute and a half news package that you see on

0:47:41.239 --> 0:47:44.120
<v Speaker 1>local news. So America's Most Wanted, for instance, would tell

0:47:44.160 --> 0:47:47.239
<v Speaker 1>these long yarns about these crime stories. So that was

0:47:47.280 --> 0:47:49.680
<v Speaker 1>how I first was true. Well, actually my first job

0:47:49.719 --> 0:47:52.680
<v Speaker 1>was for Ted Copple. He had a production company and

0:47:52.719 --> 0:47:56.800
<v Speaker 1>he did these documentaries, so those were hour long deep

0:47:56.920 --> 0:48:00.760
<v Speaker 1>doves into a particular topic. So this is a return

0:48:00.920 --> 0:48:04.839
<v Speaker 1>for me to that, which is an hour long and

0:48:04.920 --> 0:48:08.600
<v Speaker 1>we dive into one topic. And I really like that

0:48:08.719 --> 0:48:11.520
<v Speaker 1>kind of storytelling because obviously you can't tell everything in

0:48:11.560 --> 0:48:14.080
<v Speaker 1>a minute and a half, and breaking news is just

0:48:14.160 --> 0:48:16.920
<v Speaker 1>a different skill set. I like breaking news also, but

0:48:16.960 --> 0:48:19.920
<v Speaker 1>it's a different muscle. This what I'm doing now requires

0:48:20.000 --> 0:48:25.080
<v Speaker 1>more research and writing, and I do really like love

0:48:25.239 --> 0:48:27.719
<v Speaker 1>the aspect of script writing and book writing or any

0:48:27.800 --> 0:48:31.000
<v Speaker 1>kind of writing. So it's very nice to step off

0:48:31.160 --> 0:48:34.520
<v Speaker 1>the gerbil wheel of that kind of grind, you know,

0:48:34.640 --> 0:48:37.480
<v Speaker 1>particularly when you talk about gearing up for the next

0:48:37.719 --> 0:48:41.880
<v Speaker 1>presidential election. I'm very happy right now to have stepped

0:48:42.000 --> 0:48:46.680
<v Speaker 1>off that breathless merry go round, you know, and anybody

0:48:46.680 --> 0:48:48.640
<v Speaker 1>who has the energy to do it, I applaud you.

0:48:49.040 --> 0:48:51.240
<v Speaker 1>But I'm getting a little respite right now.

0:48:51.760 --> 0:48:55.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's interesting. I watch that show. I also like

0:48:55.920 --> 0:49:00.000
<v Speaker 2>on ESPN Outside the Lines, which does the same thing.

0:49:00.440 --> 0:49:03.200
<v Speaker 2>And I don't know, for how many years I have

0:49:03.480 --> 0:49:07.759
<v Speaker 2>been a DVR do you would still say that of

0:49:08.400 --> 0:49:13.439
<v Speaker 2>sixty minutes? It is that longer form stories that it's

0:49:13.480 --> 0:49:16.759
<v Speaker 2>often not telling you exactly what's happening right now. But

0:49:17.080 --> 0:49:20.319
<v Speaker 2>when people like you and your producers and all of

0:49:20.360 --> 0:49:24.160
<v Speaker 2>these shows are choosing these stories, they do shine a

0:49:24.239 --> 0:49:28.439
<v Speaker 2>light and illuminate in greater detail, a story that does

0:49:28.600 --> 0:49:31.840
<v Speaker 2>resonate with what's happening in the world today.

0:49:32.000 --> 0:49:35.560
<v Speaker 1>And I like that me too. I'm a DVR. Also,

0:49:37.120 --> 0:49:39.600
<v Speaker 1>you've just coined that phrase for all eternity.

0:49:40.280 --> 0:49:43.200
<v Speaker 2>Well, let's just say I tvoed it. I know that's wrong.

0:49:43.520 --> 0:49:47.759
<v Speaker 2>I know TVO is done stream Maybe it's just streaming now.

0:49:47.800 --> 0:49:49.920
<v Speaker 2>I don't know. I can watch it on streaming.

0:49:50.600 --> 0:49:53.719
<v Speaker 1>But I do DVR it, I do TV are it?

0:49:53.960 --> 0:49:55.720
<v Speaker 1>So I just don't know how to turn that into

0:49:56.080 --> 0:49:58.640
<v Speaker 1>a verb. But I guess we are turning that. Yeah,

0:49:59.200 --> 0:50:03.719
<v Speaker 1>So sixteen minutes CBS Sunday Morning, same thing. Like I

0:50:03.760 --> 0:50:08.720
<v Speaker 1>love that storytelling. It's so pleasant, you know, CBS Sunday Morning.

0:50:09.120 --> 0:50:12.960
<v Speaker 1>And I think that I feel smarter after those shows

0:50:13.080 --> 0:50:16.200
<v Speaker 1>and I've learned something and breaking news serves its purpose.

0:50:16.280 --> 0:50:18.279
<v Speaker 1>But you know, I often feel like my brain has

0:50:18.320 --> 0:50:21.960
<v Speaker 1>been fried after breaking news or you know, it's just

0:50:22.080 --> 0:50:25.800
<v Speaker 1>it does something different to your cells than just sitting

0:50:25.880 --> 0:50:27.759
<v Speaker 1>back and like learning about something new.

0:50:28.880 --> 0:50:32.080
<v Speaker 2>You talked about doing research and doing writing. We talked

0:50:32.080 --> 0:50:37.840
<v Speaker 2>about a little earlier, your new memoir that is breaking

0:50:38.080 --> 0:50:44.320
<v Speaker 2>as we speak, Combat Love a Jersey Girls, Search for Home.

0:50:45.400 --> 0:50:48.680
<v Speaker 2>How deep did you have to go into your own

0:50:49.239 --> 0:50:53.200
<v Speaker 2>remembrances or recollections for these stories or was this the

0:50:53.320 --> 0:50:57.640
<v Speaker 2>kind of book that you have been gradually writing sections

0:50:57.640 --> 0:51:00.279
<v Speaker 2>in your brain as you thought of things for a

0:51:00.320 --> 0:51:00.920
<v Speaker 2>long time.

0:51:01.480 --> 0:51:04.880
<v Speaker 1>Both, I mean, Brian, both these are stories that were

0:51:04.960 --> 0:51:08.520
<v Speaker 1>rattling around in my brain since they happened. I tend

0:51:08.560 --> 0:51:13.560
<v Speaker 1>to write episodes. First. I write just a story, an episode,

0:51:13.560 --> 0:51:16.040
<v Speaker 1>and then I later try to glue it together and

0:51:16.080 --> 0:51:19.719
<v Speaker 1>figure out what the theme is. That's presenting itself. But

0:51:20.400 --> 0:51:23.120
<v Speaker 1>a friend of mine who's a great literary agent, told

0:51:23.120 --> 0:51:24.799
<v Speaker 1>me years ago, you know, if you're going to write

0:51:24.800 --> 0:51:26.520
<v Speaker 1>a memoir, you kind of have to go there. You

0:51:26.640 --> 0:51:28.520
<v Speaker 1>kind of have to leave it all on the table.

0:51:28.840 --> 0:51:31.120
<v Speaker 1>And you know you should if you really want to

0:51:31.120 --> 0:51:34.040
<v Speaker 1>do that, you should just be prepared to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>And so that was a longer process. I can write

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<v Speaker 1>a story about a funny night where I snuck backstage

0:51:41.360 --> 0:51:46.359
<v Speaker 1>at the Ramones concert and the hilarity that ensued back there.

0:51:46.920 --> 0:51:50.360
<v Speaker 1>I can write that, But what were the feelings underneath,

0:51:50.560 --> 0:51:54.040
<v Speaker 1>and what was the motivation underneath doing that? And what

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<v Speaker 1>is the kind of if there's a darker shadow of

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<v Speaker 1>all of these what seemingly might be fun stories, what

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<v Speaker 1>is that? So that took more years to on earth

0:52:04.960 --> 0:52:08.680
<v Speaker 1>and excavate you know what it really like. There is

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<v Speaker 1>a part of this book it's like gen X Misadventures

0:52:12.320 --> 0:52:16.240
<v Speaker 1>of Music and as we said, you know, free range time.

0:52:16.360 --> 0:52:19.880
<v Speaker 1>And then there's the story of searching for home, you know,

0:52:19.960 --> 0:52:23.399
<v Speaker 1>and searching for stability and feeling lonely and feeling deep

0:52:23.440 --> 0:52:27.239
<v Speaker 1>depression at times. And it took me many years to

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<v Speaker 1>weave those two stories together.

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<v Speaker 2>You talked earlier about wanting to give people an idea

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<v Speaker 2>of some of your struggles because of how you at

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<v Speaker 2>least perceive that you are viewed as a conduit and

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<v Speaker 2>as a blank canvas. I guess for delivering the news,

0:52:47.480 --> 0:52:50.120
<v Speaker 2>is that why you wanted to write this story, to

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<v Speaker 2>give people an idea of really who you are and

0:52:53.120 --> 0:52:54.720
<v Speaker 2>different things that you have gone through.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, there's a difference between writing your memoir and publishing

0:52:58.239 --> 0:52:58.880
<v Speaker 1>your memoir.

0:52:59.040 --> 0:53:03.120
<v Speaker 2>Oh so you wrote it for you and now you're

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<v Speaker 2>publishing it for other people.

0:53:04.760 --> 0:53:06.319
<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean, I wrote it for me, and let's

0:53:06.320 --> 0:53:08.239
<v Speaker 1>be honest, I'm publishing it for me. But you can

0:53:08.280 --> 0:53:10.880
<v Speaker 1>write a memo. I mean I wrote it truly to

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<v Speaker 1>put the pieces back together. There were there was a

0:53:13.520 --> 0:53:18.680
<v Speaker 1>lot of unfinished business from my teenage years. I moved

0:53:19.239 --> 0:53:21.960
<v Speaker 1>a lot against my will. I lived in lots of

0:53:22.000 --> 0:53:25.279
<v Speaker 1>different towns and houses during a two year period. I

0:53:25.320 --> 0:53:27.960
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to do any of that, and so sometimes

0:53:28.000 --> 0:53:30.120
<v Speaker 1>all of it was happening so fast that I never

0:53:31.000 --> 0:53:34.640
<v Speaker 1>I never adequately wrapped up one chapter, so to speak,

0:53:34.680 --> 0:53:36.560
<v Speaker 1>before moving on to the next. So there were all

0:53:36.560 --> 0:53:39.640
<v Speaker 1>of these stories rattling around in my head, and it

0:53:39.719 --> 0:53:43.239
<v Speaker 1>was very helpful and cathartic for me to write them down,

0:53:43.760 --> 0:53:46.799
<v Speaker 1>put them in a real order, go back and interview

0:53:47.640 --> 0:53:52.520
<v Speaker 1>the main players in these different episodes and check my

0:53:52.640 --> 0:53:55.200
<v Speaker 1>memory and make sure that it was all as intense

0:53:55.800 --> 0:53:59.799
<v Speaker 1>and technicolor as I thought it was. And so that

0:54:00.200 --> 0:54:03.640
<v Speaker 1>was a healing exercise for me. Now in terms of

0:54:03.640 --> 0:54:06.600
<v Speaker 1>publishing it, once I have Once I had the whole

0:54:06.640 --> 0:54:08.560
<v Speaker 1>story down in the book, then I had to make

0:54:08.600 --> 0:54:11.359
<v Speaker 1>a decision of do I really want to publish this thing?

0:54:11.880 --> 0:54:13.560
<v Speaker 1>And I feel like I don't know. I kind of

0:54:13.600 --> 0:54:16.799
<v Speaker 1>waited long enough that we are in a moment of

0:54:16.840 --> 0:54:20.400
<v Speaker 1>time with social media and with gen Z that you know,

0:54:20.440 --> 0:54:22.920
<v Speaker 1>they really peel back the curtain all the time. You know,

0:54:22.960 --> 0:54:26.319
<v Speaker 1>they're always sharing their feelings and everything, and so it

0:54:26.400 --> 0:54:28.440
<v Speaker 1>was kind of like I thought, why keep it a

0:54:28.520 --> 0:54:32.320
<v Speaker 1>secret at this point, you know, why keep it behind

0:54:32.360 --> 0:54:34.880
<v Speaker 1>the mask? Well, maybe it will help if I if

0:54:34.920 --> 0:54:37.720
<v Speaker 1>I let people know that there were some rock bottom

0:54:37.760 --> 0:54:40.839
<v Speaker 1>moments in my life too that I crawled through to

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<v Speaker 1>get to achieving my dream.

0:54:43.160 --> 0:54:46.040
<v Speaker 2>I think that's awesome. I mean, it's not even a

0:54:46.120 --> 0:54:48.240
<v Speaker 2>humble brag. It's a brag coming you know, I've written

0:54:48.239 --> 0:54:51.200
<v Speaker 2>a book myself so I know that there's an answer,

0:54:51.800 --> 0:54:54.960
<v Speaker 2>so you can't say you don't know because I had it.

0:54:55.640 --> 0:54:59.040
<v Speaker 2>You go back and you do these interviews, what moment

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<v Speaker 2>for you? And it may be your favorite because it's

0:55:02.200 --> 0:55:04.360
<v Speaker 2>the most painful. It might be your favorite because it

0:55:04.440 --> 0:55:07.040
<v Speaker 2>made you laugh. It might be your favorite because it

0:55:07.040 --> 0:55:11.560
<v Speaker 2>made you look really good. What moment for you is

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<v Speaker 2>your favorite in terms of having something illuminated based on

0:55:17.880 --> 0:55:21.439
<v Speaker 2>talking to other people that sort of went against your

0:55:21.640 --> 0:55:26.520
<v Speaker 2>own memory. But feel like, hmm, you know what, that's

0:55:26.600 --> 0:55:30.080
<v Speaker 2>something I hadn't thought about before. But it's probably really true.

0:55:31.600 --> 0:55:34.040
<v Speaker 1>That's a good question. And Brian, you could only have

0:55:34.080 --> 0:55:35.759
<v Speaker 1>asked it because you went back, and I mean, I

0:55:35.760 --> 0:55:37.719
<v Speaker 1>know enough about your book and I have read and

0:55:37.760 --> 0:55:40.319
<v Speaker 1>I listened to one of your interviews where you talked

0:55:40.320 --> 0:55:43.600
<v Speaker 1>about trying to solve the mystery, you know, and that

0:55:43.760 --> 0:55:46.000
<v Speaker 1>really resonates with me. You were trying to solve the

0:55:46.040 --> 0:55:49.719
<v Speaker 1>mystery of what was the magic pixie dust? Yeah, it

0:55:50.080 --> 0:55:53.000
<v Speaker 1>was the office and why has it had this renaissance?

0:55:53.040 --> 0:55:55.160
<v Speaker 1>What was the magic? Because like, how can we bottle it?

0:55:55.200 --> 0:55:55.360
<v Speaker 3>You know?

0:55:55.480 --> 0:55:58.080
<v Speaker 1>I mean, like what how did lightning strike at that moment?

0:55:58.120 --> 0:56:02.360
<v Speaker 1>And mine was also a mystery quest, you know, trying

0:56:02.360 --> 0:56:05.680
<v Speaker 1>to solve the mystery of why these teenage years were

0:56:05.680 --> 0:56:09.680
<v Speaker 1>so incandescent for me and why they were so vivid

0:56:09.719 --> 0:56:14.600
<v Speaker 1>and stuck around, stuck with me so much. And I

0:56:14.640 --> 0:56:17.759
<v Speaker 1>mean it was it was really fun for me to

0:56:17.840 --> 0:56:20.920
<v Speaker 1>go back and interview the main players. It got. It

0:56:20.920 --> 0:56:24.080
<v Speaker 1>gave me a chance to relive some of these moments and,

0:56:24.120 --> 0:56:25.840
<v Speaker 1>as you say, to test my memory. And what I

0:56:25.840 --> 0:56:28.160
<v Speaker 1>found is that my memory is fantastic.

0:56:30.520 --> 0:56:31.360
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I know.

0:56:34.120 --> 0:56:36.759
<v Speaker 1>I have a really good memory, because when I went

0:56:36.840 --> 0:56:39.080
<v Speaker 1>back and I would be like, tell me, sometimes memories

0:56:39.120 --> 0:56:42.280
<v Speaker 1>get diluted from telling the story too much or writing

0:56:42.320 --> 0:56:45.080
<v Speaker 1>the story. It morphs. However, some of these memories were

0:56:45.120 --> 0:56:48.480
<v Speaker 1>pristine because I had never spoken to the other person

0:56:48.760 --> 0:56:51.320
<v Speaker 1>in this intense moment. Let's say, you know, there was

0:56:51.360 --> 0:56:55.000
<v Speaker 1>a night I got stranded on a corner in Queens

0:56:55.000 --> 0:56:57.960
<v Speaker 1>at like two in the morning, on some shitty, burned

0:56:57.960 --> 0:57:01.359
<v Speaker 1>out corner, and the guy who stranded me we had

0:57:01.440 --> 0:57:03.600
<v Speaker 1>never spoken of it again. Okay, so it had been

0:57:04.000 --> 0:57:07.239
<v Speaker 1>you know, thirty five years, and I called him and said,

0:57:07.239 --> 0:57:08.920
<v Speaker 1>can I take you to lunch and ask you a

0:57:08.920 --> 0:57:12.200
<v Speaker 1>few questions? And I said, do you remember what happened

0:57:12.440 --> 0:57:15.319
<v Speaker 1>on that night that we went d see shrapnel in

0:57:15.440 --> 0:57:18.040
<v Speaker 1>Queens And he goes and like, again, we've never sun.

0:57:18.160 --> 0:57:20.440
<v Speaker 1>He looks up and he goes, Oh, something fed up

0:57:20.480 --> 0:57:23.720
<v Speaker 1>happened that that night, didn't it. I was like, Oh, yes,

0:57:24.160 --> 0:57:28.240
<v Speaker 1>yeah it did. Like he remembered, ooh that was a bad,

0:57:28.280 --> 0:57:30.560
<v Speaker 1>intense night, but he couldn't quite put his finger on

0:57:30.720 --> 0:57:33.320
<v Speaker 1>exactly what had happened. Then I clued him in and

0:57:33.360 --> 0:57:35.080
<v Speaker 1>then we took it from there and like we're able

0:57:35.080 --> 0:57:37.400
<v Speaker 1>to piece it together. And so I guess the most

0:57:37.440 --> 0:57:39.840
<v Speaker 1>surprising thing that happened is that I had a best

0:57:39.840 --> 0:57:42.800
<v Speaker 1>friend during that time. In the book, she's called Vivian.

0:57:43.320 --> 0:57:47.720
<v Speaker 1>She was wild, she was dangerous. She was an incredibly

0:57:47.800 --> 0:57:53.320
<v Speaker 1>magnetic person, and I loved her and I loved going

0:57:53.360 --> 0:57:55.720
<v Speaker 1>back and thinking about all the adventures that we had.

0:57:55.800 --> 0:57:58.200
<v Speaker 1>And she said to me at some point, so she

0:57:58.280 --> 0:58:01.480
<v Speaker 1>was she was an addicts when we were teenager. She

0:58:01.520 --> 0:58:04.800
<v Speaker 1>was an alcoholic and then became a hard drug addict.

0:58:05.120 --> 0:58:07.240
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, ohhe remember that time that we

0:58:07.240 --> 0:58:08.880
<v Speaker 1>did this, and I'd be like writing it down. She said,

0:58:09.040 --> 0:58:11.120
<v Speaker 1>you know, Allison, it's not as fun for me to

0:58:11.120 --> 0:58:14.360
<v Speaker 1>remember these times as it is for you, and I

0:58:14.400 --> 0:58:18.600
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh right, and she said I really wasn't well,

0:58:19.360 --> 0:58:20.960
<v Speaker 1>and like she had to just kind of take me

0:58:21.000 --> 0:58:23.920
<v Speaker 1>by the shoulders and be like this is all nostalgic

0:58:23.920 --> 0:58:25.560
<v Speaker 1>and fun and games for you, but like I lived it,

0:58:25.840 --> 0:58:29.080
<v Speaker 1>you know, and that was really that allowed a different

0:58:29.160 --> 0:58:32.000
<v Speaker 1>layer of the book again, just the deeper layer. You know.

0:58:32.040 --> 0:58:35.520
<v Speaker 1>There's the stories and then there's the what was really happening.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, fascinating. Everybody. Check it out. Combat Love a Jersey Girls,

0:58:42.640 --> 0:58:45.560
<v Speaker 2>Search for Home. Alison, You're awesome.

0:58:46.000 --> 0:58:46.680
<v Speaker 1>You're awesome.

0:58:47.040 --> 0:58:50.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm so happy to have one met you and two

0:58:51.080 --> 0:58:53.360
<v Speaker 2>gotten a chance for you to be so candid and

0:58:53.400 --> 0:58:56.480
<v Speaker 2>open about your life and career. I can't wait to

0:58:56.520 --> 0:58:57.160
<v Speaker 2>read the book.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Ron. I can't wait for you to read

0:58:59.480 --> 0:59:02.040
<v Speaker 1>the book. I look forward to hearing what you think

0:59:02.160 --> 0:59:04.960
<v Speaker 1>of it, and I really look forward to our paths crossing.

0:59:05.040 --> 0:59:08.840
<v Speaker 1>Maybe I'll find you on my l a book tour

0:59:09.120 --> 0:59:12.920
<v Speaker 1>and come find the little the little fancy town that

0:59:13.000 --> 0:59:13.720
<v Speaker 1>you live in.

0:59:14.040 --> 0:59:19.600
<v Speaker 2>Out the Connecticut of southern California. By the way, that

0:59:19.800 --> 0:59:22.280
<v Speaker 2>is now going to be my answer, Like I have,

0:59:22.560 --> 0:59:25.160
<v Speaker 2>I have finally figured it out where I live in

0:59:25.240 --> 0:59:29.120
<v Speaker 2>the Connecticut of Southern California. Allison, thank you so much,

0:59:29.120 --> 0:59:32.760
<v Speaker 2>and good luck with the book, and listen, take care

0:59:32.800 --> 0:59:35.280
<v Speaker 2>of yourself this year. You know it's going to be

0:59:35.360 --> 0:59:39.200
<v Speaker 2>a struggle. Take care of yourself. And yes, our paths

0:59:39.200 --> 0:59:55.160
<v Speaker 2>will cross soon for sure, I hope. So thanks for everything, Allison,

0:59:55.280 --> 0:59:58.200
<v Speaker 2>thank you so much. That was fascinating. I really enjoyed

0:59:58.240 --> 1:00:01.320
<v Speaker 2>our conversation. It was great getting know you. I learned

1:00:01.440 --> 1:00:05.640
<v Speaker 2>so much today about you and also how the news

1:00:05.880 --> 1:00:09.720
<v Speaker 2>industry works. But most of all, I learned about apparently

1:00:09.760 --> 1:00:11.960
<v Speaker 2>the greatest band of all time. And I'm going to

1:00:12.000 --> 1:00:15.080
<v Speaker 2>go right now listen to Shrapnel to see what all

1:00:15.120 --> 1:00:18.800
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