WEBVTT - The Thing You're Actually Afraid Of

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<v Speaker 1>You found your way here to waking up with Ryan.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so glad that you pushed play. This is the

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<v Speaker 1>place you and I come to wake up together. So

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<v Speaker 1>let's take a deep breath and begin.

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<v Speaker 2>Good morning, my love.

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<v Speaker 1>I know there's a lot to be afraid of in

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<v Speaker 1>your life. Whether it's something to do around money or

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<v Speaker 1>lack thereof or money and too much of it whether

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<v Speaker 1>it's a health issue you're dealing with, or the fear

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<v Speaker 1>of not finding your person or the fear of the

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<v Speaker 1>relationship you're in work, not working out the fear of

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<v Speaker 1>not ever actualizing your purpose. There's so many things in

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<v Speaker 1>life to be afraid of, let alone the fear of

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<v Speaker 1>like your body getting physically hurt. But in truth, there's

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<v Speaker 1>actually really only one fear underlying all fears, making all

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<v Speaker 1>fear possible. And that is the fear of death. Go

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<v Speaker 1>with me on this. Underneath all your fears is the

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<v Speaker 1>fear of death. Because the fear of death can only

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<v Speaker 1>exist as a result of you believing that you are

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<v Speaker 1>something that can die. meaning something that can end, meaning

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<v Speaker 1>something that had a beginning, a present, and is going

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<v Speaker 1>to have an end because you believe you're your body.

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<v Speaker 1>And therefore you believe that your life started when you

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<v Speaker 1>were born, when you were given a physical body, and

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<v Speaker 1>that your life will end when you die, when you

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<v Speaker 1>shed your physical body, when your physical body no longer

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<v Speaker 1>has life. And from that one belief that you are

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<v Speaker 1>this body that has a beginning and will have an ending.

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<v Speaker 3>Comes all fear.

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<v Speaker 1>Because the belief that you are the body makes you

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<v Speaker 1>something that is at the effect of all the stuff

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<v Speaker 1>of life. You believing that you are a body means

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<v Speaker 1>you believe you only get to exist on this earth

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<v Speaker 1>for a certain amount of time and then sets up

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<v Speaker 1>a whole host, a whole list of expectations about what

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<v Speaker 1>you want and what you need to get in in

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<v Speaker 1>this short time. And you're crunching time and working hard

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<v Speaker 1>to make it all happen because God knows I could

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<v Speaker 1>die tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 3>What a stress. What a stress.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, A Course in Miracles says that sickness is

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<v Speaker 1>created by a stress put on the body that the

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<v Speaker 1>body is not meant to handle. And I believe that

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<v Speaker 1>the stress we put on the body that the body

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<v Speaker 1>is not meant to handle is the belief that.

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<v Speaker 2>You are the body.

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<v Speaker 1>Believing that you are this separate sense of self is

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<v Speaker 1>the source of your fear. It's the source of your pain.

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<v Speaker 1>A Course in Miracles says fear is a sure sign

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<v Speaker 1>that you're relying on your own strength. that you're relying

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<v Speaker 1>on your small separate self, the self with a lowercase s,

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<v Speaker 1>when in reality you were not born, when your physical

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<v Speaker 1>body was born, and you will not die when your

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<v Speaker 1>physical body dies.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like when you were born, you put on an outfit.

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<v Speaker 1>You put on a costume, a beautiful one, an amazing one,

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<v Speaker 1>a miraculous one, an incredible one. And that when you

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<v Speaker 1>pass away, when you die, you are going to take

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<v Speaker 1>off that suit of clothes. But you woke up this

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<v Speaker 1>morning and took a shower and got dressed. You put

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<v Speaker 1>on clothing. You were still you before you put that

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<v Speaker 1>clothing on. And tonight later, when you take that clothing off,

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<v Speaker 1>you will still be you.

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<v Speaker 3>The same is true.

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<v Speaker 1>You are an energy that when you were born, put

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<v Speaker 1>on this outfit, this clothing. But part of putting on

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<v Speaker 1>that clothing is forgetting that you are the energy that

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<v Speaker 1>existed before you put.

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<v Speaker 3>On the outfit.

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<v Speaker 1>And so you and I are here to remember every

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<v Speaker 1>single morning that you are that which has always existed,

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<v Speaker 1>will always exist, exists here and now, even in and

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<v Speaker 1>especially with this vehicle called a body. Now, here's the thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you drive a car? You get in your car.

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<v Speaker 1>You tell it where to go and how fast and

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<v Speaker 1>how slow. You use this car as a vehicle for transportation.

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<v Speaker 1>It moves you through life. You get into it. You

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<v Speaker 1>get out of it. But have you ever once said,

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<v Speaker 1>I am my car? No, that would be insane. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>it's equally as insane to say, I am my body.

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<v Speaker 3>I am Ryan.

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<v Speaker 2>It's insane.

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<v Speaker 3>It's insane. You don't say, I am my car. You say,

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<v Speaker 3>I drive my car. I use my car.

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<v Speaker 1>My car transports me from A to B in this

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<v Speaker 1>physical life. In the same way, just like getting into

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<v Speaker 1>a car. When you wake up in the morning, you

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<v Speaker 1>get into your body. You see out the eyes, the windshields.

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<v Speaker 1>You tell it where to go, where the right, left,

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<v Speaker 1>how fast, how slow. But it is a vehicle for

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<v Speaker 1>your transportation of your awareness through this life experience, the

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<v Speaker 1>three-dimensional plane of existence, of physical existence. But being physically

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<v Speaker 1>existing does not discount that you are energetically existing in

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<v Speaker 1>a non-physical way that makes your physical existence possible.

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<v Speaker 3>You are that which never dies.

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<v Speaker 1>And If you choose to continue walking this path to awakening,

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<v Speaker 1>which is why I'm so passionate about delivering you these

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<v Speaker 1>daily short little episodes every day, just a little snack, a.

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<v Speaker 3>Little snack, one layer, one layer, one layer, one layer,

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<v Speaker 3>one layer before. Aha, there it is. Oh my God,

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<v Speaker 3>I was just blocked from it. I'm remembering who I

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<v Speaker 3>am now.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, okay, I'm going to keep going with this, resting

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<v Speaker 1>back into who I really am. Then you get to

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<v Speaker 1>remember who you are, know who you are and be

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<v Speaker 1>in the world.

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<v Speaker 3>It's awesome.

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<v Speaker 1>Doesn't mean it's fabulously fun all the time, but even

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<v Speaker 1>the hardships become this thing that you get to witness

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<v Speaker 1>and experience because you're not believing I am the body

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<v Speaker 1>that is at the effect of this hardship. I'm experiencing it.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the awareness of it, but I'm not really touched

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<v Speaker 1>by it, but I'm still.

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<v Speaker 3>In it and I still take it seriously.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not spiritually ejecting from it because it's not real.

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, no.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a way to like clad up, surefire. Maybe make

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<v Speaker 1>sure you solidify the ego. Oh, I'm not dealing with

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<v Speaker 1>this because I'm spiritual.

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<v Speaker 3>No, don't do that. Don't do that. That's yucky. I

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<v Speaker 3>can't remember who said this.

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<v Speaker 1>A sage, maybe the Buddha said, die before you die.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't wait until Until your deathbed to have that moment of.

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<v Speaker 3>Right before you pass away... Oh my God! Oh my God!

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<v Speaker 3>I am the everything! You will have that moment in your...

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<v Speaker 3>In your last minute... Of transcendence. But... You don't need to.

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<v Speaker 1>Suffer, suffer, suffer, suffer through your whole life... To get

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<v Speaker 1>to that moment. You can use this moment... To remember

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<v Speaker 1>who you are and live on this earth in the

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<v Speaker 1>psychological remembering of who you are in the energetic and

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<v Speaker 1>emotional experience of who you are moving through this life.

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<v Speaker 1>Die before you die means remembering who you are in

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<v Speaker 1>this lifetime, right now, today. It means allowing the belief

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<v Speaker 1>system that you are this separate person to die, to

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<v Speaker 1>fall away so that you can discover who you truly

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<v Speaker 1>are and always have been and always will be. We're

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<v Speaker 1>going to go into a short practice. But one more

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<v Speaker 1>thing I want to share with you, A Course in

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<v Speaker 1>Miracles teaches that we are to exist on two planes,

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<v Speaker 1>the horizontal and the vertical. Isn't that interesting? Where they

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<v Speaker 1>intersect is a cross. It's also true for the Star

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<v Speaker 1>of David. A triangle pointing up intersecting with a triangle

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<v Speaker 1>pointing down.

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<v Speaker 3>This sacred geometry.

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<v Speaker 1>Acknowledging the horizontal plane and the vertical plane. The horizontal

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<v Speaker 1>plane is you, this body, this physical experience. The vertical

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<v Speaker 1>plane is keeping your mind on the thoughts of the divine,

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<v Speaker 1>the thoughts of God, the thoughts of love, the.

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<v Speaker 3>Truth of who you are. Keep your feet planted firmly

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<v Speaker 3>on this earth while.

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<v Speaker 1>You remember who you are and let that remembering inform

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<v Speaker 1>your actions. This is the journey that you're on. Let's

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<v Speaker 1>have our practice, taking a moment to close your eyes.

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<v Speaker 1>Deepen your breath, allow it to flow as you ask

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<v Speaker 1>yourself the one question that matters.

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<v Speaker 3>Who am I? Say that with me. Who am I?

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<v Speaker 3>And simply breathe. Let's take a breath.

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<v Speaker 1>And in the words of Ram Dass, we utilize this

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<v Speaker 1>mantra and ride it like a wave into our hearts.

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<v Speaker 1>Say with me, I am loving awareness.

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<v Speaker 3>Take a breath.

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<v Speaker 2>I am loving awareness. I am loving awareness. I am

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<v Speaker 2>loving awareness. I am loving awareness. That's what I am.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the infinite space that has no walls and no

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<v Speaker 1>ceilings and no floor that cannot be hurt and that

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<v Speaker 1>cannot die. Let's take a deep breath in and let

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<v Speaker 1>it go. And when you're ready, you can open your eyes.

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<v Speaker 1>You are not your body. You are not the vehicle.

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<v Speaker 1>You are what is aware of the ride.

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<v Speaker 3>Loving you from right here.

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<v Speaker 1>Hi. I hope you're feeling even just a little bit

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