Speaker 1: All from Kalo.
Speaker 2: Kalo.
Speaker 3: Oh, hey, kick, Hi.
Speaker 2: We ever chatted before, Kalo?
Speaker 4: Yes, we actually have.
Speaker 2: When was this.
Speaker 5: Maybe about two ish months ago?
Speaker 6: Maybe?
Speaker 3: But I have a little bit of a proposition for you.
Speaker 5: Get if you'd like to hear.
Speaker 3: Would you like to have a conversation with my aunt
Speaker 3: who has dementia?
Speaker 2: Would I like to have a conversation with your aunt
Speaker 2: who has dementia?
Speaker 3: Yeah, her brain is kind of like stuck in the seventies,
Speaker 3: kind of because she got in a car accident then,
Speaker 3: but she's really cool if if you'd like to you're
Speaker 3: more than wanting to.
Speaker 2: Is are you with her right now?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I can get her.
Speaker 2: Sure, I'll talk to her.
Speaker 3: Give me one second.
Speaker 2: You don't you're not You're not saying this like let's
Speaker 2: you're not saying this like let's fuck with your aunt?
Speaker 5: Right? No?
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no no. I would very much like you
Speaker 3: to just have a conversation with her. I don't want
Speaker 3: to like nothing like that. Okay, give me one second,
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 2: I probably should we probably should let her know that
Speaker 2: she's on the internet.
Speaker 7: Oh hello, oh, yes, hi, Hi, Who am I speaking to?
Speaker 7: I'm all right?
Speaker 8: For who money?
Speaker 2: My name is Lyle. Uh and your nephew called into
Speaker 2: my I have like a radio show.
Speaker 7: Oh yes, yes, uh huh.
Speaker 2: And he he said that you were a cool person
Speaker 2: and that I might like talking to you. All right,
Speaker 2: I am, what do you so you agree? You agree
Speaker 2: that you're a cool person.
Speaker 7: Oh yeah, I am.
Speaker 2: What do you think makes you a cool person?
Speaker 5: Well?
Speaker 7: I'm not a vulgar, loud person, that's one thing. And
Speaker 7: I'm not the tip to make scenes, but that's about it.
Speaker 7: I'm pretty cool people. I get along when every want.
Speaker 2: Okay, so you're you're very friendly, you say, yeah.
Speaker 7: But I'm also very paranoid. I I give people the
Speaker 7: eye before I open up.
Speaker 2: Really well, okay, So when you are looking at someone
Speaker 2: and you're examining them and deciding whether or not you
Speaker 2: want to open up to them, what sorts of things
Speaker 2: are you looking for?
Speaker 7: I'm just looking to see if they are very nervous
Speaker 7: or alter stiff, like I don't want to open up.
Speaker 7: You know they got something to hide.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 7: I try to dig in to find out, you know,
Speaker 7: realize what's wrong.
Speaker 2: Mmmm. Do you feel like you're good at putting people
Speaker 2: at it to ease?
Speaker 7: I think so. I haven't recently. I haven't really gotten
Speaker 7: with people that often. M.
Speaker 2: Why is that? Well?
Speaker 7: I'm in my home and I'm watching over mother, and
Speaker 7: my mother has dementia, so I have to be here,
Speaker 7: you know, well nobody else is here. I'll be here
Speaker 7: and I have to watch her, and I don't mind anyway,
Speaker 7: and Mom's always got along. M.
Speaker 2: Do you do you have a lot of friends in
Speaker 2: particular that you you would really like to see?
Speaker 7: I have no friend here, for no one at all?
Speaker 2: Where are most of you friends?
Speaker 7: Located away up in New York? And most of them
Speaker 7: are either dead or married?
Speaker 2: They're dead or married? Which which do you think are which?
Speaker 2: Which of those two friends are? Is it harder to
Speaker 2: make time for them to make time with you the
Speaker 2: dead ones?
Speaker 9: Oh?
Speaker 7: I can't. I don't even remember where they live anymore.
Speaker 7: I know they all got of Bronx New York and
Speaker 7: they all spread all over the country.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. How how how did you were like most
Speaker 2: of your friends?
Speaker 8: Like?
Speaker 2: Where are they from? Like are they like? From high
Speaker 2: school to college?
Speaker 7: We grew up to get a lot of us. There
Speaker 7: was a group of us and we used to all
Speaker 7: hang out in a park and we drink and hang out.
Speaker 7: And then after about a couple of years, I had
Speaker 7: my my serious accident and I had to stop all
Speaker 7: that and had rebuilt rehability and I have seeing no
Speaker 7: one at that. No one came around. Oh, everybody split.
Speaker 7: So we moved down here to Flora, my parents, so
Speaker 7: I came with them.
Speaker 2: Hm. And do you have anyone like are you are
Speaker 2: you married or do you have your significant other of
Speaker 2: some kinds?
Speaker 7: There is no significant other. It's me, myself and I.
Speaker 2: And what's your relationship like with what's his name? With
Speaker 2: your with your nephew.
Speaker 7: Oh, that's very.
Speaker 9: You know, typical.
Speaker 7: But you know, we see each other, we talk, you know,
Speaker 7: that's nothing. I don't know we do. We never argue,
Speaker 7: that's one thing. We never argue. Very good, you're very comfortable.
Speaker 2: What do you think it is about you guys that
Speaker 2: you get along so well?
Speaker 7: We have an understanding of each other. So that's it.
Speaker 7: And he's my brothers, you know, so that's good family.
Speaker 10: That's it.
Speaker 2: Do you have a good relationship with your brother?
Speaker 11: Oh?
Speaker 2: Yes, is he has he been a big help with
Speaker 2: you guys, taking care of your mom?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 12: Yes, one.
Speaker 7: Sometimes it goes out of his way.
Speaker 2: That's great. That's awesome.
Speaker 7: Well, very close family, that's what it is all. Very emotional.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I can tell you you're very close with your family.
Speaker 2: It seems like, you know, I mean, you're you're you're
Speaker 2: going a lot out of your way to be in Florida.
Speaker 2: It's a you know, support.
Speaker 7: Oh yeah, I don't mind, though. I'm glad I'm here.
Speaker 2: You're glad you're here.
Speaker 7: Oh yes, I got out of New York, that part
Speaker 7: of the Bronx New York. Last time I was there,
Speaker 7: everything changed so much, everything and everybody. That's why I
Speaker 7: know Florida that's my home now.
Speaker 2: I said, really, how how did things change? In what way?
Speaker 7: Well, in a way, the people that we know, they
Speaker 7: all moved, scattered away, and they rebuilt. They put all
Speaker 7: kinds of highways, and they knocked down houses, and they
Speaker 7: put the streets and everything looks. I know, to me,
Speaker 7: it seemed like everything was too crowded. There was too
Speaker 7: many people. So I said, oh, thank you God. I
Speaker 7: came down to Faria with my family for that.
Speaker 2: Do you not like crowds and and people? You seem like, uh,
Speaker 2: very extroverted.
Speaker 7: No, Well, you see, I don't mind having people around
Speaker 7: but too much crowding too. You know, it gets to me.
Speaker 12: I like that be stretched out.
Speaker 7: I don't want to be boxed in, not cause my
Speaker 7: whole family and we don't like that boxed in feeling
Speaker 7: like the open space.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mmm. Do you do you do you work
Speaker 2: at all? Do you have a job?
Speaker 7: Well, my job is to take care of my mother,
Speaker 7: who has dementia.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 7: Before that, I had see I have. I had an accident,
Speaker 7: so I don't have very good memories for certain things,
Speaker 7: so I don't really remember if I had what kind
Speaker 7: of job it was. I can't give you any details.
Speaker 9: Sorry.
Speaker 2: This is kind of interesting to me though, because you
Speaker 2: know you you you can remember. It sounds like you
Speaker 2: like I can remember certain things, but not like the
Speaker 2: details of them specifically exactly.
Speaker 7: Uh. Working in on a law firm and I was
Speaker 7: like the clerk and then sometimes I would translate for
Speaker 7: the people, you know, from Spanish to English, and I
Speaker 7: was just a regular. I would put big piles of
Speaker 7: paperwork in order alpa vertical orders and file them away,
Speaker 7: go on messages. Uh that was it. Maybe you saw
Speaker 7: that the way I worked, so they were going to
Speaker 7: give me a promotion but we decided to move.
Speaker 2: So I said, you were going to get a promotion.
Speaker 7: Oh yeah, but oh I was involved in an accident,
Speaker 7: a very serious accident. The helmet that I had on
Speaker 7: was about of crack when I fell down, and it
Speaker 7: didn't crack a gens in my head, so that called
Speaker 7: me my disability.
Speaker 12: M hm.
Speaker 2: How long ago is that?
Speaker 11: Oh?
Speaker 7: Wow, I think I'm fifteen years ago. Well, and I
Speaker 7: know it's a long time al with twenty twenty years
Speaker 7: or fifteen No, no, it must have. It must have
Speaker 7: been around twenty years or fifteen years ago. It was
Speaker 7: a long long time ago. The helmet that I was
Speaker 7: wearing was defective. Instead of cracking, it jammed in my head.
Speaker 7: So helped me my visibility.
Speaker 2: Were you riding like a like a motorcycle?
Speaker 7: Yes, a Honda, a Honda.
Speaker 2: Was that a big thing that you were really into?
Speaker 2: Is motorcycle riding?
Speaker 7: Not really? Just it was my boyfriend's bike at the time.
Speaker 7: He lost the leg from the accident. Yes, really, I
Speaker 7: love that my brain.
Speaker 2: Huh, are do you still keeping contact with Oh?
Speaker 7: No, I don't. He died. He died. He didn't die
Speaker 7: from the accident, but he died years later.
Speaker 4: M hm m.
Speaker 2: We were you in contact with him when he died?
Speaker 7: No at all? No, m.
Speaker 2: Did you guys like stay to get like we were going.
Speaker 7: To be married? Yeah, you know, we're engaged in all,
Speaker 7: but that's it. After a while, we just broke up.
Speaker 7: After the accident. He got an h into a heavy drugs.
Speaker 7: He became a drug addict and he was walking around
Speaker 7: or Stone and messed up half the time. So my
Speaker 7: parents didn't want me to be with him anymore, not
Speaker 7: under that condition. And then we moved and that's it.
Speaker 7: I don't remember. I can't give you any details because
Speaker 7: my mind isn't I can't remember.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. So do you do you feel like the
Speaker 2: accident played a big part in the fact that you
Speaker 2: guys never ended up getting married. Was that like sort of.
Speaker 7: A oh, yes, yes, I believe so.
Speaker 2: Mhm. And after that, like, did you did you date
Speaker 2: anyone after him? Was there new.
Speaker 7: Maybe one or two? No big thing. It's it would
Speaker 7: last a while then and it was no big thing.
Speaker 7: Then we came down him, I came with my family,
Speaker 7: came down. Oh before that, I was involved in the
Speaker 7: accident with with Jim. That's my home of fiance and
Speaker 7: we just run off and off, and finally it was off.
Speaker 7: He married somebody and he moved away, and that's it.
Speaker 7: We came down him. My family decided we're going to
Speaker 7: get a little house in Flora. It has been a
Speaker 7: blessing to be out here.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Really, you're you're very happy with the way that
Speaker 2: things have ultimately turned out.
Speaker 7: Oh yeah, I think it turned out well.
Speaker 2: That's awesome to hear who all lives in this house.
Speaker 2: It's it's it's mother.
Speaker 7: My nephew, my brother, which is my my nephew's father,
Speaker 7: and my mother and I and our dogs. Telling me
Speaker 7: your dog.
Speaker 2: That's awesome. I'm so glad to hear that things have
Speaker 2: ultimately worked out for you.
Speaker 7: Oh yeah, Oh yeah, it's really like a piece thing.
Speaker 7: I haven't. Oh, I read magazines, and I don't read
Speaker 7: like I used to because being that I'm heading died,
Speaker 7: I forget. So I just read lots of magazines and books,
Speaker 7: you know, parts of books I've booked themselves. I haven't
Speaker 7: sat down and read a book in a while.
Speaker 2: I asked if you regretted anything.
Speaker 7: Yeah, this accident, Yeah, it changed me so much. I
Speaker 7: used to be kind of up person. Now I'm always depressed.
Speaker 7: I'm always, but I get out of it and I
Speaker 7: don't let it overwhelm me mm hmm, it's not worth it.
Speaker 2: Absolutely well. I mean you've been very still, very talkative
Speaker 2: and extroverted and and uh you know, up up at
Speaker 2: eat still at least.
Speaker 7: In the I tried to h I try to be.
Speaker 2: Do you have any advice to anyone who who tries
Speaker 2: to be uppity and uh feeling good, even if they
Speaker 2: might not necessarily like?
Speaker 7: All I can tell them is you just take everything
Speaker 7: easy to do. Go at everything you do slowly, give
Speaker 7: a slot, don't do anything with a Russian, just do
Speaker 7: think about what they're doing, then do it. I should
Speaker 7: have listened to it myself years ago.
Speaker 2: What did you say? Your name was?
Speaker 7: My name is Denise, Denis e n I s yes.
Speaker 2: Denise, Denise. It was. It was so nice talking to you.
Speaker 2: Thank you so much for sharing.
Speaker 7: What's your name?
Speaker 2: My name is Lyle oh Lile.
Speaker 12: I like that.
Speaker 2: Thank you very much, Thank you very much. What's your
Speaker 2: what's your nephew's name? Again? Oh I'm sorry, what were
Speaker 2: you going to say?
Speaker 7: Oh? No, well, okaylo okay, oh k loo that's his name?
Speaker 7: Kayla Kya hy l o white Yeah o k A
Speaker 7: y l oh.
Speaker 2: Kaylo Hello ky Low, Yes, beautiful, Thank you so much
Speaker 2: for sharing Denise. This is really nice talking to you.
Speaker 7: Oh, I'm glad anytime you want to throw here? Hey fine,
Speaker 7: why not? Totally good night now.
Speaker 2: Good night Denise, Greg Hey, what's up? Kaylo. Thank you
Speaker 2: for handing off the phone this last conversation.
Speaker 5: Of course.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, she just gets lonely sometimes, so I
Speaker 3: know she'd like somebody to talk to, and I figured
Speaker 3: you'd be a nice person to talk.
Speaker 2: To for hers. Totally. Yeah, man, thank you, thank you
Speaker 2: so much. It sounds like things are going well in
Speaker 2: that how so, I mean, it sounds like she's really
Speaker 2: enjoying being there and being there with you and the
Speaker 2: rest of the family for.
Speaker 3: The most part.
Speaker 1: Yeah, we get by.
Speaker 3: We make every day try to be a little bit
Speaker 3: happier than the last.
Speaker 2: Awesome. Yeah, well, thank you so much for calling Cayley.
Speaker 2: You have a gust tonight.
Speaker 3: Okay, thank you so much for doing your stuff. And
Speaker 3: you know, I'm not going to shout anybody out. Just
Speaker 3: everyone be cool, love each other and stay being gek
Speaker 3: and yeah.
Speaker 2: Beautiful, Thank you Caleb Man. It is a pleasure.
Speaker 3: All right, bye, have a good guy.
Speaker 1: All from Mushroom to accept Press one.
Speaker 2: Mushroom.
Speaker 11: Oh my god, Gek.
Speaker 2: How are you doing, Mushroom?
Speaker 5: I'm doing really good. How are you doing?
Speaker 6: Gek?
Speaker 2: Why are you doing really good?
Speaker 5: Just a little drinking. I'm twenty one, just as over
Speaker 5: the past week.
Speaker 2: Did we talk recently, Mushroom?
Speaker 5: No, this is my first time. I've been trying to
Speaker 5: call you the past couple of days.
Speaker 2: Oh what about.
Speaker 5: Everybody in chat? I'm not gonna look at chat after this.
Speaker 5: Everybody in chat keeps asking if this is the guy
Speaker 5: that keeps asking if you fart? Yes, this is me,
Speaker 5: But that's not what I'm here to talk about. What's up, Gek?
Speaker 5: I have a story for you, if you're down to listen.
Speaker 2: Here's the thing about the story. If you could sort
Speaker 2: of give me like the abstract of it, like the
Speaker 2: TLDR or like maybe started out in the middle, like
Speaker 2: before I, you know, consent to the story, I'd like
Speaker 2: to hear sort of like a pitch of it, because
Speaker 2: what I don't want to get roped into, like you know,
Speaker 2: if it's like a ten minute story, you know, I
Speaker 2: don't want to find out like three minutes in that
Speaker 2: it's not that good of a story. I'd rather like
Speaker 2: sort of get the pitch of it first before we
Speaker 2: go into a story, which which I think is reasonable.
Speaker 2: I know I sound like a dick, but I think
Speaker 2: it's reasonable. Would you not agree with me that that's reasonable?
Speaker 11: Geck, my guy, my man, my dude. I totally agree
Speaker 11: with you. It's totally reasonable, because honestly, some people's stories
Speaker 11: aren't it. But I think this story about me dunka
Speaker 11: chino ing my balls into a toilet bowl of shit
Speaker 11: is a good, quick three minute story that won't bore you.
Speaker 2: I almost feel like I kind of almost feel like
Speaker 2: you just told it just there already.
Speaker 11: Well all right, yeah, got it?
Speaker 10: All right?
Speaker 7: All right, all right?
Speaker 2: So I mean, okay, all right, so you kind of did.
Speaker 2: I like when people caulp fiction their stories. I feel
Speaker 2: like we have heard the middle. So, okay, you've caught
Speaker 2: my interest. How did you find yourself in this situation?
Speaker 11: Well, I'm hanging out with my two friends, once my
Speaker 11: best friend and the other is my girlfriend, and we're
Speaker 11: going up to a city that is near us to
Speaker 11: go to Martin's. And well we're not going to martins
Speaker 11: we're going to another friend's house, but we stop at
Speaker 11: Martin's because I'm sitting in the car and I'm like, dude,
Speaker 11: I'm gonna shit my fucking pants if we don't stop. Okay,
Speaker 11: So we stop at Martin's and I go to the
Speaker 11: front bathroom and all the stalls are locked, and I'm like,
Speaker 11: oh my god, I'm gonna shit my pants in fucking Martins.
Speaker 11: Holy shit. So I run to the back, and in
Speaker 11: the back of the store, I find one open stall,
Speaker 11: but the problem with it is there's no water in
Speaker 11: the toilet. So I'm like, you know what, I'm sure
Speaker 11: it's fine. I'm sure it'll I'm sure it'll be I'm
Speaker 11: sure it'll be good. So I shit in that toilet
Speaker 11: and I lean over just to make sure there's nobody
Speaker 11: in the stall next to me, but there is, and
Speaker 11: when I lean over, that little sensor goes off, and
Speaker 11: that sensor that goes off makes it flush. So this
Speaker 11: toilet starts filling up. Turns out it was clogged, and
Speaker 11: I guess I'm just fucking stupid, and so I'm sitting
Speaker 11: there freaking out, and somehow it flushes again, so it's
Speaker 11: filled to the fucking brim and I'm like on one cheek,
Speaker 11: just sitting there trying to, you know, make my day
Speaker 11: a little better, and like, what am I gonna do?
Speaker 11: How am I gonna get out of the situation? I
Speaker 11: got my hand over the fucking sensor, and what I
Speaker 11: and waiting for the guy to get out, I dunk
Speaker 11: acino my balls into some fucking ship water, and you
Speaker 11: know it's.
Speaker 2: Kind of and the ship water wasn't even actually yours.
Speaker 11: Yeah, it was a combination of mine and some other people's.
Speaker 11: So long story short, I put some toilet paper over
Speaker 11: the sensor when the guy left, and uh, pulled up
Speaker 11: my pants, went to the other stall, and there was
Speaker 11: come on the seat. The guy was jacking off. I'm
Speaker 11: not fucking with you. I'm not fucking with you. That's
Speaker 11: a real fucking plot twist.
Speaker 2: That is. That's crazy because that actually, like it's not
Speaker 2: even like the dunkachino ball situation is already bad enough.
Speaker 2: And then you sit and come, did you like on
Speaker 2: his cum?
Speaker 11: Like, dude, I always like down the toilet seat before
Speaker 11: I sit down, So of course I fucking I cleaned
Speaker 11: up that man's come. And since I pulled up my
Speaker 11: my pants and everything before, you know everything, I had
Speaker 11: to throw away the underwear when I was done. And
Speaker 11: so we get to that city and it turns out
Speaker 11: there's a huge hole in my ass of my pants
Speaker 11: and a bunch of people are staring at my ass
Speaker 11: crack because I threw away the underwear. So I got
Speaker 11: new sweatpants out of it. It says I am the sweatpants,
Speaker 11: say I am the only one. I'm very very happy
Speaker 11: about the sweatpants. But that's how I ended up with
Speaker 11: my favorite pair of sweatpants.
Speaker 2: So the sweatpants, Like, when you say they're your favorite,
Speaker 2: do you like them enough to sort of have justified
Speaker 2: the entire experience? Would you, at the end of the
Speaker 2: day say it was worth it?
Speaker 11: Well, I spend the whole day with my with my
Speaker 11: best friend and my girlfriend, and throughout the day they
Speaker 11: had to keep watching me, like zone out, and they'd
Speaker 11: be like, hey, man, what's wrong. What's wrong, mushroom, And
Speaker 11: I'd be like, oh uh, I'm just remembering the horrible
Speaker 11: experience from earlier. But I think I've kind of gotten
Speaker 11: out of that like horrible little mindset and I'm feeling
Speaker 11: a lot better now, so I think it was worth it.
Speaker 2: Gek would you would you say you have any PTSD?
Speaker 11: I if I see a toilet that looks like it
Speaker 11: could clog or anything, I stay away from it now
Speaker 11: because I don't want to. It's it's super scary. Duncan
Speaker 11: chino in your balls into a mixture of your and
Speaker 11: somebody else's shit.
Speaker 2: Also, wait, that doesn't make sense. Would his com Was
Speaker 2: it on like the front of the toilet seats or
Speaker 2: like the side, because if you're jacking off on a toilet,
Speaker 2: the coum would be the cum would get on the
Speaker 2: floor like it wouldn't be on the sea because you're
Speaker 2: sitting on the seats.
Speaker 11: So it's on the bowl, like you know how they are.
Speaker 11: They're not like a full bowl. They're kind of like
Speaker 11: a horseshoe kind of shape. It was on if you're
Speaker 11: looking at the toy. If you're looking at it, it's
Speaker 11: on like the right side of the ball. There was
Speaker 11: a little spata jizz on the ball.
Speaker 2: Hey, if you clean up a guy's come what does
Speaker 2: that make you? Guys? Like, relationship wise, what label would
Speaker 2: you attribute to that?
Speaker 1: Well?
Speaker 11: I don't really like to label myself with any sort
Speaker 11: of sexuality, and I don't know how he feels about it.
Speaker 11: But I think that this guy is probably my new
Speaker 11: secret forbidden lover.
Speaker 8: No.
Speaker 2: I wasn't saying sexuality wise. I was saying, like the
Speaker 2: like the title of your guys's relationship.
Speaker 11: Yeah, secret forbidden unregistered lovers.
Speaker 2: Well, beautiful, you got some new sweatpants and you got
Speaker 2: a hot secret lover. I think that this sounds like
Speaker 2: it was a great experience for you.
Speaker 7: Yeah.
Speaker 11: One last thing, A guy went into the clogged stall
Speaker 11: next that you know, I kind of left behind because
Speaker 11: I kind of fixed it, and I had to sit
Speaker 11: there while he I heard from the plunger as he
Speaker 11: cleaned up my shit and I couldn't say. I couldn't
Speaker 11: say anything because it was my shit.
Speaker 2: Wow, wouldn't it be amazing if you walked into that
Speaker 2: place the next day and you saw that guy and
Speaker 2: he was wearing the same sweatpants that you got from
Speaker 2: that experience.
Speaker 11: See, the scary thing is I got the sweatpants a
Speaker 11: couple of cities away, and I was wearing the sweatpants
Speaker 11: with a huge hole where everybody could see my ass
Speaker 11: crack for at least an hour. So that man would
Speaker 11: have had to have the same story as me. But
Speaker 11: if he if he did that, I mean like it's
Speaker 11: probably like a said thing, I'd probably have to get
Speaker 11: with that man.
Speaker 2: Well, beautiful, I think that we definitely did this call.
Speaker 2: I think that things worked out for the best. I
Speaker 2: think that yeah, I think this this worked out well.
Speaker 8: All right, Thanks Gek, of course, thank you so much
Speaker 8: for calling.
Speaker 5: Yeah, have fun.
Speaker 1: All from Wesley.
Speaker 2: Hey, Wesley, good evening. You're breathing very heavily. I apologize, No, no,
Speaker 2: it's not anything to apologize for.
Speaker 5: Well, I have a question for you, and I.
Speaker 2: Want you to feel that moment as intensely as as
Speaker 2: all moments of our lives should be felt. Because we're
Speaker 2: slowly dying, time is fleeting. We should treat life with
Speaker 2: an appropriate amount of intensity because it's an intense experience.
Speaker 2: We feel like we have time, but we don't.
Speaker 5: My gosh, the true feelings.
Speaker 2: Feel your feelings as deeply as you possibly can. Soon
Speaker 2: you'll feel nothing.
Speaker 5: So I'm engaged.
Speaker 2: You're engaged, yes, But the problem.
Speaker 9: Is is.
Speaker 5: I'm in love with my best man, really yeah, and
Speaker 5: I don't know how to break it to my fiance.
Speaker 5: And he also doesn't know.
Speaker 2: How long have you been in love with your best man.
Speaker 5: I've known him since I was five?
Speaker 2: How long have you been in love with him?
Speaker 5: Since? Six? So now it's seventeen.
Speaker 2: Years twenty three. Yes, you've been in love with him
Speaker 2: since you were six?
Speaker 5: Yes?
Speaker 2: And why has it taken so long for you?
Speaker 5: I think the stigma of our society has not allowed
Speaker 5: me to express the way that I feel.
Speaker 2: Three times, which the LGBT community is not as widely accepted.
Speaker 5: Correct. Mmmm, it's the worst man?
Speaker 2: Does does your friend now that you love him?
Speaker 5: He doesn't?
Speaker 2: He doesn't.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think if you found out would ruin our
Speaker 5: relationship as a friend, and I just don't know if
Speaker 5: I I think as a friend. I've tried to express
Speaker 5: my feelings kind of hint towards it, but it just
Speaker 5: doesn't work.
Speaker 2: Now are you this person that you're married?
Speaker 1: M h.
Speaker 2: Do you love her?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 5: I don't.
Speaker 2: When are you getting married?
Speaker 5: January sixteenth?
Speaker 9: I don't know what to do, man, I don't know
Speaker 9: what to do.
Speaker 5: What's her name?
Speaker 2: What's your name?
Speaker 5: Wesley?
Speaker 2: Wesley? Listen?
Speaker 7: Yes?
Speaker 5: Yeah, you have to.
Speaker 2: You have to tell this person.
Speaker 5: That you can't marry them. How do you think I
Speaker 5: should do it? Because I just don't know.
Speaker 2: Listen. It's going to be difficult, but I need you
Speaker 2: to know, Wesley, the only way out of this is
Speaker 2: the rough it. Yeah, you just gotta do it. You
Speaker 2: gotta call it off.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Look, Westley, I want you to know something. When you
Speaker 2: do it. I'm proud of you for doing it.
Speaker 4: All right, Thank you, I really am.
Speaker 2: That's serious, west Because what I said at the beginning
Speaker 2: of this call, I meant it. I was trying. I
Speaker 2: was being a little silly, but I meant it. You
Speaker 2: may get one life and I don't care what anyone
Speaker 2: in your hicktown has to say about it, but you
Speaker 2: got to spend that life being yourself, all right.
Speaker 5: Yeah, man, you gotta you.
Speaker 2: Gotta tell this person. And look, you know, even if
Speaker 2: you're even if your friend doesn't love you back, I
Speaker 2: think can move on. But if you're, don't get married
Speaker 2: to someone that you don't love just because you're trying
Speaker 2: to meet some societal expectation. Yeah, man, you want that
Speaker 2: for your west Say, I don't want you to live
Speaker 2: your life based on anything other than yourself.
Speaker 5: You get me. H, Thank you man, for sure?
Speaker 2: Thank you, Leslie. Weslie, is there anyone else in your
Speaker 2: life that you have that you can talk to about this.
Speaker 5: My best friend, Yeah.
Speaker 2: Your best friend?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Does he know that you don't love the woman that
Speaker 2: you're gonna marry?
Speaker 5: No, I haven't told anybody.
Speaker 2: That's devil. That's why I was asked, Do you have
Speaker 2: anyone that you would feel comfortable telling this too?
Speaker 5: I have a I have like an acquaintance. I know
Speaker 5: he he might be willing to have a conversation with me. Yeah,
Speaker 5: m but I haven't talked to him in years.
Speaker 2: You know, you live with this one.
Speaker 5: I do not.
Speaker 2: How long have you been like dating her?
Speaker 5: About four years?
Speaker 2: About four years? Had you ever now? I'm curious it
Speaker 2: in the span of that four years, Like, guess what
Speaker 2: I'm trying to ask you, is how recent of a
Speaker 2: realization is this, like where the ENTI where you sort
Speaker 2: of putting on? Was this something where you were sort
Speaker 2: of actively pushing away your true feelings for the duration
Speaker 2: of the four years or you only realize to them
Speaker 2: someone recently.
Speaker 5: I think it's something that deep down I've known for
Speaker 5: a very long time. But I think just with where
Speaker 5: I live and how everything is, and I just think
Speaker 5: it's yeah, it's it's not been something that I've really
Speaker 5: brought up subconsciously and tell how to hear it go.
Speaker 2: You know, do you do you have a lot of
Speaker 2: friends and family like the place that you live? Do
Speaker 2: you have a lot of friends family?
Speaker 5: I do?
Speaker 2: Okay, because you know, if because what I want for
Speaker 2: you is I really would love to see you live
Speaker 2: if it's a fucking red if if you feel like
Speaker 2: you can't be who you are where you live, you
Speaker 2: need to leave.
Speaker 5: Yeah. Yeah, I think you're right.
Speaker 2: What do you what do you? What do you do
Speaker 2: for a living?
Speaker 5: I actually own my own company. I do like CDEO
Speaker 5: production stuff.
Speaker 2: Oh that's awesome.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Where are your clients?
Speaker 5: Mainly based out of based mostly based out of Atlanta, Atlanta.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I assume you live in some hicktown in Georgia.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, bro, but move to Atlanta?
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean how.
Speaker 2: Would you move to Atlanta? I mean, I Yeah, that's
Speaker 2: the thing, man, don't if if don't, don't keep living
Speaker 2: in a place where you feel like you can't be yourself.
Speaker 2: Life is too short to do that.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I think I think life is too short to do that.
Speaker 2: Don't marry the swiman and look, by the way, I
Speaker 2: know that I just I really want you to know.
Speaker 2: I know it might be difficult, m for reasons that
Speaker 2: I can't understand. Yeah, but you have to do it
Speaker 2: because how old are you? Twenty three?
Speaker 5: Twenty three?
Speaker 2: Yeah, twenty three. Do it now and for the to
Speaker 2: your life. You will be very very glad that you did.
Speaker 2: Even if in the short term it's difficult. In the
Speaker 2: long term, you'll be very very glad that you decided
Speaker 2: to live a life where you were yourself instead of
Speaker 2: miserably falling it's coming to the pressures of the people
Speaker 2: around you. Don't do that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, man, I needed to hear that.
Speaker 2: Good. I'm proud of you. Wesley.
Speaker 5: Thank you, man, Thank you.
Speaker 2: Of course.
Speaker 6: Is there any any other like other thing that you
Speaker 6: wanted to talk about or anything else I could help
Speaker 6: you with?
Speaker 5: No, I mean that was it, Okay, thank you, man.
Speaker 2: Gonna do it.
Speaker 5: I'm gonna do it.
Speaker 9: I'm gonna do it good.
Speaker 5: And when I do, I'll call you back.
Speaker 2: Your calls back, calls back.
Speaker 5: I want to call you that of course.
Speaker 6: Man.
Speaker 2: Awesome. I love you, Wesley. You have a good rest
Speaker 2: of the night.
Speaker 8: Man.
Speaker 5: YouTube man pick you take care by by.
Speaker 1: All from Garrett.
Speaker 2: Garrett's Hey What's up? Get we ever spoken before, Garretts,
Speaker 2: we have not.
Speaker 10: This is my first time, my first day calling in.
Speaker 4: Actually, Oh cool?
Speaker 2: How cool? How long have you been hanging out here for?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 10: I've started watching you uh about a week ago, but
Speaker 10: I've been in the stream for an hour though.
Speaker 2: Work with us and now week we can help, we can.
Speaker 2: But I missed the second part of what you just said.
Speaker 2: What do you say? Aam?
Speaker 4: Was?
Speaker 2: Again Garrett, Garrett's pleasure to talk to you man. Thank
Speaker 2: you for calling in.
Speaker 10: Thank you. I'm loving this already.
Speaker 2: How old are you, Garrett?
Speaker 10: I'm nineteen.
Speaker 2: Okay, Okay, it's a very sweet little boy, Garrett. I'm curious,
Speaker 2: and it's okay if there's if there's not, it's okay
Speaker 2: if there's not. Because I didn't plan anything either, but
Speaker 2: did Is there a particular reason why you called? Is
Speaker 2: there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about?
Speaker 10: HM? Not necessarily? To be honest, I didn't know if
Speaker 10: i'd even get through. I'm glad I did.
Speaker 2: I'm glad. I'm glad that you're glad, But I also
Speaker 2: you know, I haven't really we haven't really talked about
Speaker 2: anything yet. I guess I I guess your gladness. I
Speaker 2: guess you're glad about the potential for this conversation, bibla,
Speaker 2: or are you glad about the way it's already gone?
Speaker 2: Because it's the way it's already gone. I feel like
Speaker 2: there's no there's been no real substance to this just yet.
Speaker 2: Not And that's not either of our faults. I think
Speaker 2: it's just due to the amount of time that we've
Speaker 2: been on the phone being so sure.
Speaker 10: Yeah, I agree, I agree. I think I'm happy with
Speaker 10: the potential.
Speaker 2: Okay. And how would you feel if that potential was
Speaker 2: never actualized?
Speaker 10: Oh, I mean, I think it'd be all right. I'd
Speaker 10: try to call back again later.
Speaker 5: Probably.
Speaker 2: You seem like you have a very optimistic viewpoint on life.
Speaker 2: You feel like it seems like nothing rattles you. Garrett,
Speaker 2: I try to keep.
Speaker 5: It that way.
Speaker 10: Yeah, yeah, i'd say so.
Speaker 2: Do you have any tips for us people who want
Speaker 2: to have a more optimistic viewpoints? Garrett M.
Speaker 10: I know someone said it earlier. I don't remember who. Uh,
Speaker 10: just not worrying about the little things, you know, trying
Speaker 10: to trying to see and trying to see the the
Speaker 10: good in everything. Everything has got a reason, there's a reason,
Speaker 10: for everything, and it just moved you along and just
Speaker 10: try to.
Speaker 2: Do you believe that? Do you really believe that there
Speaker 2: is a reason for everything?
Speaker 5: I do.
Speaker 10: I'm not really like spiritual or religious or anything like that,
Speaker 10: but I do believe there's a reason for everything, one
Speaker 10: way or another.
Speaker 2: Do you Is there a reason for this? Ah?
Speaker 10: I'm sure there is. I think you you did that.
Speaker 10: The reason for you doing that is to to test me,
Speaker 10: to see if I knew a reason.
Speaker 2: And you did because that was the reason was to
Speaker 2: test you if you new a reason. So there was
Speaker 2: a reason for that.
Speaker 10: Yeah, I here's a reason for everything in one way
Speaker 10: or another.
Speaker 2: Smart? What time is it?
Speaker 10: It is nine to eleven?
Speaker 7: Here, nine eleven?
Speaker 2: Where's here?
Speaker 10: I am in Kansas?
Speaker 2: Do you like Kansas?
Speaker 11: Uh? It's not bad.
Speaker 10: Not my favorite place, but it's not bad. I've been
Speaker 10: here all my life.
Speaker 2: But do you have a favorite place?
Speaker 10: I would say Las Vegas? Actually, m.
Speaker 2: Gran's interesting that you're like last five. You're not even
Speaker 2: old enough to do all the crazy Las Vegas things.
Speaker 10: No, No, I'm not yet.
Speaker 2: How old do you have to be to kill someone?
Speaker 2: And it's not an age? If you're a hundred, can
Speaker 2: you what do you like about Las Vegas.
Speaker 10: Well, my grandparents live out there. I tend to like
Speaker 10: the heat actually, which I know is probably a weird thing.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean even now, I heard it's like two
Speaker 2: hundred and I heard it's like a billion degrees.
Speaker 10: It is very hot out there. I am actually going
Speaker 10: out there in a week and a half.
Speaker 2: Oh, are you excited? I'm very excited, you know, Garrett,
Speaker 2: I'm actually kind of terrified because I'm going out. I'm
Speaker 2: going out west soon in this lizard attire, and I
Speaker 2: am I am sort of afraid that I will die
Speaker 2: of heat stroke.
Speaker 10: Don't Don't Liard like the sun though? Don't they like it?
Speaker 10: They lay out in it.
Speaker 2: You know what, It's funny you say that, because that
Speaker 2: has sort of been my remedy to this fear. Is like,
Speaker 2: what this is gonna do to me is test out
Speaker 2: my dedication to being a lizard. I think that I
Speaker 2: think that my body, like I can, by force of mind,
Speaker 2: train it to adapt some of the physical traits of
Speaker 2: an actual lizard, just by the fact that I've embodied
Speaker 2: one for so long. I mean not that long, but
Speaker 2: you know, pretty intensely, And so I feel like I
Speaker 2: could train in my body to adapt to heat in
Speaker 2: the same way that.
Speaker 10: A lizard would, so you feel like you can do it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like if Spider Man. It's like if Spider
Speaker 2: Man didn't get bit by the radioactive spider, but he
Speaker 2: just like thought spiders were funny and willed hit through
Speaker 2: his brain, just willed himself into being Spider Man. That's
Speaker 2: sort of what I'm trying to do.
Speaker 10: I see, that's the optimism. You think you can do it.
Speaker 10: I think you can do it too.
Speaker 2: Thank you, Thank you, Garrett guy. I love you get Garrett.
Speaker 2: I want you to be like my personal cheerleader. You
Speaker 2: have such optimism.
Speaker 10: Well, thank you, I would gladly do that.
Speaker 2: Does anything break you down?
Speaker 4: Hmmm.
Speaker 10: I think some things bring me down, but then I
Speaker 10: just I just gotta pick myself back up.
Speaker 2: God, this is so interesting. I've met I've met people.
Speaker 2: I've met people who have like very cheerful, optimistic dispositions,
Speaker 2: and I don't know if this is me being like,
Speaker 2: oh whatever, but I'm always just like, there's no way
Speaker 2: that a person can be like that one hundred percent
Speaker 2: of the time.
Speaker 10: Oh, I'm definitely not like this one hundred percent of
Speaker 10: the time. It's hard to keep this, keep it like
Speaker 10: this all the time. I'm gonna I'm in a good
Speaker 10: mood right now. I think it's I think it's good
Speaker 10: right now.
Speaker 2: Well, Garrett, listen, keep it going, doing a beautiful job.
Speaker 2: And watch out for your grandparents, because I know I
Speaker 2: was talking earlier about it. If there is I think
Speaker 2: there is a I think if you reach a hundred,
Speaker 2: you're allowed to murder someone legally. So watch out for
Speaker 2: your grandparents. I don't know how old they are, but
Speaker 2: I don't want to get.
Speaker 10: I think they got a little while ago, but I will.
Speaker 10: I will watch out.
Speaker 2: Thank you, beautiful. Talk to you soon, Garrett.
Speaker 10: Thank you, Talk to you soon. Love you get go.
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Speaker 1: Calls, all from Kevlar.
Speaker 2: What's up?
Speaker 8: I cannot hear you through the phone, dude, they ken?
Speaker 1: Oh no it can.
Speaker 8: Hello?
Speaker 5: Hi?
Speaker 2: Where year were you born?
Speaker 8: I was born in nineteen ninety seven. Sorry, I just
Speaker 8: have an anxiety. Or how are you tonight?
Speaker 2: I was born in nineteen ninety Oh.
Speaker 8: Word, I was born exactly a week before Halloween. And then,
Speaker 8: honestly is one of my favorite things, big fan of
Speaker 8: Halloween me.
Speaker 2: You're born a week before Halloween?
Speaker 8: Yeah, October twenty fourth.
Speaker 2: October twenty I was born a week before Halloween.
Speaker 8: Were you did you?
Speaker 4: Huh?
Speaker 8: Is your birthday?
Speaker 2: Are you feeling? Are you feeling good right now? You
Speaker 2: said that you have anxiety. I hope I'm not causing
Speaker 2: it to go through the roof right now.
Speaker 8: No, you're totally good. I just was startled at my
Speaker 8: inability to mute my TV, so I ran into a
Speaker 8: closet and on now I'm hanging out with my cat,
Speaker 8: who is just as excited as I am. Anyway, how
Speaker 8: are you today?
Speaker 5: Come?
Speaker 2: A few things. I'm trying to be more open. I'm
Speaker 2: trying to love everything that happens, trying to love everyone
Speaker 2: I meet. It's not easy, but.
Speaker 7: You know.
Speaker 2: There's no other option, really.
Speaker 8: Absolutely right. I've recently also been dealing with facing my
Speaker 8: own I'm gonna say this word wrong, cynicism.
Speaker 2: When you're cynical, Oh you're cynical?
Speaker 8: Well yeah, I've always been like super kind and pushover
Speaker 8: like most of my life, and then I went through
Speaker 8: a pretty bad breakup and just kind of started being
Speaker 8: mad and like hateful, and I hated it. It felt
Speaker 8: gross and nasty. So recently I've been working on not
Speaker 8: doing that.
Speaker 2: Do you feel hateful currently, David Day?
Speaker 8: I don't know if I feel hateful. I think I
Speaker 8: called it hate because it's easier than like actually looking
Speaker 8: at it. I think it mostly just comes from fear,
Speaker 8: fear of I don't know, change, getting hurt, hurting other people,
Speaker 8: being wrong. But when you live in fear, you just
Speaker 8: don't grow, you know.
Speaker 2: So, what have been some of your What have been
Speaker 2: some of your strategies on dealing with this hate that
Speaker 2: you have in your heart?
Speaker 8: Lots of like empathy, honestly taking a look at the
Speaker 8: situation and thinking like, maybe he cut me off because
Speaker 8: he's having a really bad day, or he needs to
Speaker 8: get home quick. Maybe there is nothing wrong with the
Speaker 8: rest of the day. It was just a bad moment
Speaker 8: in that made no sense.
Speaker 2: But why is everyone so upset? Everyone's so obsessed with
Speaker 2: making sense all the time? Who cares makes sense to who? Who?
Speaker 2: Who decides what makes sense? You said it it makes
Speaker 2: sense to you, doesn't it? Well then well then goddamn
Speaker 2: that's all that matters. Who gives a shit about sense?
Speaker 2: What even his sense? Who's the arbiter of sense? Who
Speaker 2: is the judge of sense? Who's balancing the fucking books
Speaker 2: of sense to determine what does and does not make it?
Speaker 11: All?
Speaker 2: Right? You know, Look, if you decide that something makes sense,
Speaker 2: that it makes fucking sense, goddamn it.
Speaker 7: Fuck.
Speaker 8: Yeah, dude, I needed that great. Honestly, I've recently been
Speaker 8: super into poetry and books, and yeah, with my dyslexy,
Speaker 8: it's hard to be as eloquent as I feel like
Speaker 8: I can be, So I appreciated that sentiment.
Speaker 2: No, dude, dude, you ever read a poem?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Poems make no fucking sense. They make they make no sense,
Speaker 2: and then everyone's like, but that the thing is they
Speaker 2: everyone accepts it as making sense because the poet is
Speaker 2: they put it out confidently, and they trick everyone to
Speaker 2: thinking that it makes sense. Look at the lyrics, by
Speaker 2: the way, look at the lyrics of any song. They
Speaker 2: don't make sense. They don't song lyrics don't make.
Speaker 8: Sense absolutely, But I I'm gonna look at.
Speaker 2: The lyrics right now. They don't make any fucking suss.
Speaker 8: Oh shit, fuck, what is my favorite song?
Speaker 2: Let's do a song? A song?
Speaker 8: I got the perfect song for you. No No, No
Speaker 8: No by mc rna.
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, all right, the future is bulletproof the
Speaker 2: aftermath of secondary that doesn't make any sense. It doesn't
Speaker 2: make any sense.
Speaker 8: You're gonna get to the fun parts.
Speaker 2: Drugs. Give me drugs. I don't need it, but I'll
Speaker 2: sell what you got. What does what does that mean?
Speaker 2: I'll sell what you got?
Speaker 8: I that's an excellent question. Could the drugs be standing
Speaker 8: for human interaction or actual drugs?
Speaker 2: Take the cash and I'll keep it. Why But if
Speaker 2: you're taking the cash, why is he keeping it? Eight
Speaker 2: legs to the wall now, he's talking about legs. What
Speaker 2: does that mean? But he made a million dollars and
Speaker 2: he puts out a song and everyone listens to the
Speaker 2: song and they go yeah, and it just fucking They
Speaker 2: trick you into thinking that their words make sense and
Speaker 2: that they're cool, but they don't. All they did is
Speaker 2: they fucking the hell themselves in a way that convinced
Speaker 2: you that they do. That's all that you need. You
Speaker 2: don't need to make sense. You just need to convince
Speaker 2: people that you do. I don't make any fucking sense.
Speaker 11: That's valid.
Speaker 8: I think that's an excellent description of art, though, is
Speaker 8: taking the nonsensical and making you feel something from.
Speaker 2: It, from male, from all security to every enemy standing
Speaker 2: in v formation. Let's blow an artery.
Speaker 13: Even I'm so kious.
Speaker 2: Kissed me off, but you've also fired me up, and
Speaker 2: I'm excited by this. I'm excited by this.
Speaker 8: Hey, double edged sword, glad I could provide?
Speaker 2: Like what is let me look up like a Kendrick Lamars.
Speaker 8: I think there are like, there are ways that people
Speaker 8: can weave words that are rather beautiful and intent.
Speaker 2: It's beautiful. Look, I never said it wasn't beautiful. I
Speaker 2: never said it doesn't leave people over. I never said
Speaker 2: it wasn't beautiful. I never said that people aren't making
Speaker 2: things that people enjoy. But all I'm saying is that
Speaker 2: if you take away the artistry, if you take away
Speaker 2: the name brands, you take away the melodies, you take
Speaker 2: away the coolness, you say, you leave rich just the
Speaker 2: words they fucking no song makes fucking sense.
Speaker 10: Ever, why does.
Speaker 8: That give me so much hope? Though? Why does that
Speaker 8: make much?
Speaker 2: Because it's because the walls or what's your name again, Kevlar, Kevlar,
Speaker 2: The walls are coming down for you. It gives you
Speaker 2: hope because you because it fucking these people who we
Speaker 2: all think are geniuses, they don't make any fucking sense.
Speaker 2: Then you have the liberty now to not make any sense.
Speaker 2: Just say words out in to the thing you and
Speaker 2: you should feel liberated to do that. Kevlar.
Speaker 8: I think I will. I think I will great strangers
Speaker 8: with words. Oh Jesus Christ, sorry, my cat just broke
Speaker 8: into the room.
Speaker 2: Good. Thank you so much for calling, Kevlar. You have
Speaker 2: a oneer for us to the night.
Speaker 8: Thanks for your time, though, Take care.
Speaker 1: All.
Speaker 2: From Quincy Quincy, John Quincy Adams, dude, get.
Speaker 13: Go, that's me man, Quincy.
Speaker 2: Uh, so, Quincy, have we just spoken before? Quincy?
Speaker 13: No, dude, I've been watching you for a couple of
Speaker 13: months and I call almost every time, but I've never
Speaker 13: made it through.
Speaker 2: Really, what do you think, man? What do you think
Speaker 2: is so special about tonight that you did?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 2: Do you think that? I don't know, man, I don't
Speaker 2: know if I believe I don't. Actually I do know.
Speaker 2: If I don't believe in anything, I think that everything
Speaker 2: is purely coincidental. But I mean you do you think that,
Speaker 2: like the stars are you know, fucking rhombus shape or
Speaker 2: something and that means that you'll get into this random
Speaker 2: twitch calling show? Or do you think it just happens?
Speaker 4: Dude?
Speaker 13: You know, maybe I'm not really sure. I was playing
Speaker 13: Zelda and maybe that could be a sign because Zelda's
Speaker 13: pretty sick.
Speaker 2: I think that makes a lot of sense. Also, Zelda
Speaker 2: y green, well not Zelda, but Link is a character
Speaker 2: in Zelda and he is green. He was a green
Speaker 2: tunic and I wear I am green. I'm a little green. Yeah,
Speaker 2: I'm a little I'm not a little green. I'm very green.
Speaker 2: What were you going to say before I talked over you?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 13: There was nothing I was going to say, you're basically
Speaker 13: link himself in the flesh as a get go.
Speaker 2: I feel a lot like link.
Speaker 13: Well that's good.
Speaker 2: Should I get my sword?
Speaker 13: I have a You haven't, bro, Yeah, I think you should.
Speaker 1: Dude.
Speaker 13: Yeah, well I'm not watching the stream, but yeah.
Speaker 2: Hold on, I'm gonna hold a sword while we talked.
Speaker 13: Sweet dude. Is it a cool sword?
Speaker 2: Quincy?
Speaker 5: Yep?
Speaker 2: Someone said it's a Gladius, a Gladias.
Speaker 13: I have no idea. I'm not a I'm not really
Speaker 13: into swords. It sounds cool, though.
Speaker 2: Hey, Quincy, yep?
Speaker 4: What time is it, Jude?
Speaker 13: You know, I think I think it's time I I
Speaker 13: found myself.
Speaker 2: I guess time you found yourself?
Speaker 13: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Where are you looking?
Speaker 4: Hmmm?
Speaker 13: You know, I think for a long time i've I've
Speaker 13: looked in other people, and I think it's time I
Speaker 13: start exploring my own experiences to truly discover who I am.
Speaker 13: How old you I'm twenty one?
Speaker 2: Yeah? Good age? Good age for that.
Speaker 13: Yeah, man, it's good people. Yep.
Speaker 2: What do you find in these other people when you
Speaker 2: look for yourself in that?
Speaker 13: Well, you know, that's a good question. I don't have
Speaker 13: a ton of relationships in my life outside. Like I
Speaker 13: have an awesome family, but like I don't have a
Speaker 13: ton of friends. And you know, they're friends I've had
Speaker 13: a long time, and you know, people change, they're still
Speaker 13: great friends. But I'm realizing that I'm a lot different
Speaker 13: than a lot of my friends and that I need
Speaker 13: to discover what makes me happy.
Speaker 2: So you have a few friends, you say, yeah, in
Speaker 2: what way do you believe that you're a lot different
Speaker 2: from them?
Speaker 13: Okay, So, like my roommate we just moved in together,
Speaker 13: but we've been friends since like middle school, and like,
Speaker 13: I'm really trying to like put myself out there. And
Speaker 13: you know, I'm pretty introverted. I have a lot of
Speaker 13: social anxiety, and so I'm really trying to, especially after
Speaker 13: the pandemic, to make new friends. And he's just like
Speaker 13: not into it. You know, he just wants to stay
Speaker 13: inside and play video games, which is cool, you know
Speaker 13: that's him, and I've kind of had to realize I
Speaker 13: just got to do my own thing.
Speaker 2: So you're sort of saying to your friend, You're like,
Speaker 2: let's go out, let's go to a thing, Let's go
Speaker 2: and and I don't want to go alone, but it's
Speaker 2: easier for me if I've got a buddy going with
Speaker 2: me to this fucking party or whatever it is to
Speaker 2: meet new people. Is that what's going But he doesn't
Speaker 2: want to go He wants to play video games? Is
Speaker 2: that what's going on?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Yeah, basically, you know, let.
Speaker 2: Me ask you. Do you do a lot of shit alone?
Speaker 2: Do you ever go to you ever go to a
Speaker 2: movie alone? Ever go to a museum? Oh?
Speaker 13: Yeah, dude, Yeah, I mean basically every all the time.
Speaker 2: Good. I think that's a good skill to have. A
Speaker 2: lot of people can't do that.
Speaker 1: I do too.
Speaker 13: It's yeah, I think it's it's a good thing most
Speaker 13: of the time.
Speaker 2: Well, it sounds like you've already had a lot of
Speaker 2: experience doing things alone. So you know these parties or
Speaker 2: I mean, am I correct me? Are these parties or
Speaker 2: these like what are these things that you want your
Speaker 2: buddy to go do with you that?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 3: Not so much.
Speaker 13: People like parties, but like, you know, just maybe getting
Speaker 13: together with and friends and like some of I guess
Speaker 13: it's like a party, or like going on a hike
Speaker 13: with some people we haven't met before, or like going
Speaker 13: to a new restaurant, you know, just like trying new things.
Speaker 2: Well, what is your connection to Well, how what is
Speaker 2: your connection to these people that you haven't met before?
Speaker 2: How would you meet.
Speaker 13: Them through school?
Speaker 1: Mostly?
Speaker 2: What's stopping you from just hanging out with these people
Speaker 2: you never met before without your currently existent friends.
Speaker 13: Well, nothing, I guess, you know. I just I get anxious.
Speaker 13: You know, it's hard. Like I can go do things
Speaker 13: by myself. I can go to a movie or I
Speaker 13: can go get food, but like going and like meeting
Speaker 13: a bunch of brand new people is really hard.
Speaker 2: Why is it hard? Oh?
Speaker 13: Man? You know, I think I'm just worried about how
Speaker 13: people perceive me so much so that I and perceiving
Speaker 13: them and how they're perceiving me that I'm just convinced
Speaker 13: that you know, you know, I look like idiot or
Speaker 13: you know, I'm saying stupid things when in reality, you know,
Speaker 13: I'm probably being somewhat normal, but it all gets construed
Speaker 13: in my head. And so, you know, having someone their helps.
Speaker 2: So you you just said, now that you perceive them,
Speaker 2: you're you're freaked out by the idea of people perceiving
Speaker 2: you the way that you perceived them.
Speaker 13: Yeah, exactly.
Speaker 2: So what I think, you know, a sort of a
Speaker 2: cure to this is well, how do you perceive other people?
Speaker 2: Do you look at other people and go this person's like,
Speaker 2: do you do you? Do you consider yourself judging? Do
Speaker 2: you judge people a lot and make opinions about people
Speaker 2: when you perceive them?
Speaker 13: You know, I really make an effort not to, you know,
Speaker 13: I think I do sometimes obviously.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 13: I've heard you say on the stream before that You're
Speaker 13: goal is to understand and to not judge, And I
Speaker 13: think that's a really good mantra to have, so I
Speaker 13: try to be that way most of the time.
Speaker 2: M Yeah, there's sort of a few things to this,
Speaker 2: And I like this subject a lot because I think
Speaker 2: that developing the ability to not care what other people
Speaker 2: think about you is like among the strongest skills you
Speaker 2: possibly could develop. And you're very young, so I think
Speaker 2: this is a good time for you to be putting
Speaker 2: yourself out there. And really it's a long road, I
Speaker 2: will say, it's a long road of trying to not
Speaker 2: care what other people think about you. But you know,
Speaker 2: the sooner you sort of start tracking down on it,
Speaker 2: the better. Some people will never do. Some people are
Speaker 2: like fucking fifty years old and they still people think
Speaker 2: of them.
Speaker 13: Yeah, that's my worst time.
Speaker 2: I like that though. I like that you're not judging
Speaker 2: people because you know you always are fucking judged people
Speaker 2: the way it was judge yourself the way you judge
Speaker 2: other people.
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 2: Are you gonna do it? Are you gonna try to
Speaker 2: hang out with these people?
Speaker 13: Dude, I'm gonna try, you know, I've been trying. This
Speaker 13: last year obviously has been really hard. But yeah, I'm
Speaker 13: I'm kind of committed of like signed up to be
Speaker 13: like a representative in my my college someone like this council,
Speaker 13: and I'm in a bunch of clubs, so you know,
Speaker 13: I've got stuff. It'll keep me from bailing hopefully.
Speaker 2: By the way, fantastic strategy doing something like I like
Speaker 2: that you're a representative of something. What is this represent Well.
Speaker 13: So I'm in the Natural Resource College, so like I'm
Speaker 13: on the Natural Resource College council, and I represent all
Speaker 13: the wild land majors or majors When we plan activities
Speaker 13: and stuff.
Speaker 2: There's nothing better because here's the thing that's a great strategy.
Speaker 2: There's nothing better then signing up for social activities in
Speaker 2: which your existence there is justified inherently. That's why, Yes,
Speaker 2: that's why, like because that's the thing is like you know,
Speaker 2: I know that, Like that's that's what's so great about
Speaker 2: like being like a bartender or like I know people
Speaker 2: fucking hate working retail, but like, you know, retail or
Speaker 2: whatever it is where it's like, you know, you can't
Speaker 2: be looked at as stupid for talking to people because
Speaker 2: people have to talk to you because you're the the
Speaker 2: the basis of the conversation inherently needs to happen for
Speaker 2: the thing to happen. I didn't explain that correctly, but
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 13: No, I know it's a good strategy. That's that's different though,
Speaker 13: because like if if I'm working at like like if
Speaker 13: I'm working at Domino's and someone orders a pizza and
Speaker 13: I have a conversation with them about Peteza, you know,
Speaker 13: that's different than going to some activity and having a
Speaker 13: conversation with someone about my life and like their interests,
Speaker 13: you know what I mean. Like, there's a lot more
Speaker 13: I'm putting a lot more of myself out there when
Speaker 13: it's it's it's an experience, you know, it's not like
Speaker 13: a workplace environment. But I do think you're right, it's
Speaker 13: important to put yourself in those situations.
Speaker 2: Well listen, ma'am, what'd you say?
Speaker 13: Your name was Quincy?
Speaker 2: Quincy. Keep going down the road. You know, you're so
Speaker 2: a young guy. Keep going down the road of trying
Speaker 2: not to you know, developing your own internal thing and
Speaker 2: then avoiding one other people to coming to the thoughts
Speaker 2: of what other people think about you. Keep going down
Speaker 2: the world. It's not gonna happen overnight, but if you
Speaker 2: keep hacking at it and you like sort of sort
Speaker 2: of like what I was talking about the testical cancer guy,
Speaker 2: where he was like he had this newfound least on life,
Speaker 2: but he felt like in a few months it was
Speaker 2: going to fade away. I guarantee if you continue to
Speaker 2: make that just like in the back of your mind
Speaker 2: every day, you continue to make that a goal, you
Speaker 2: continue to enter situations with that in mind. It's gonna
Speaker 2: happen overnight, but I think you will get there. So
Speaker 2: you continue to keep it as a as a goal.
Speaker 13: So keep doing that, all right, I will, thanks.
Speaker 2: Man, of course, John Quincy Adams. You have good rest
Speaker 2: of the.
Speaker 13: Night, you too.
Speaker 5: I love you.
Speaker 1: Get all from Ja.
Speaker 2: Jay?
Speaker 4: What Jay.
Speaker 2: Jay? Turn your stream off?
Speaker 4: Yeah? Yeah?
Speaker 10: Hold up?
Speaker 2: Oh my god, Actually, okay, are you whispering on Are
Speaker 2: you whispering? Don't? Are you whispering on purpose?
Speaker 4: No, it's just late and like I'm like my family,
Speaker 4: well most likely now because my almost watching a soccer
Speaker 4: game and she was just like yelling stuff.
Speaker 2: You know, hey Jay? Uh Jay?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: What year were you born?
Speaker 4: Ninety thing? You know?
Speaker 2: I nineteen ninety nine. Yeah, that was a good year.
Speaker 4: How do you know were you like, weren't you like
Speaker 4: a child or something that age?
Speaker 2: I've actually, you know, I don't Actually this is my
Speaker 2: first time talking about this on the stream, but I
Speaker 2: actually was never a child.
Speaker 4: Uh huh.
Speaker 2: Interesting when I was I was actually when I was born,
Speaker 2: I was fifteen years old.
Speaker 4: Wow. Cool, poor child.
Speaker 2: So I went to high school and shit, but I
Speaker 2: was never like a small I was never like a
Speaker 2: baby or a toddler or anything. I just went straight
Speaker 2: into high school. It was jarring.
Speaker 4: I'm sorry about that.
Speaker 2: I mean, it's not to be sorry. It's in the room.
Speaker 2: It sucks.
Speaker 4: I'm so sorry about me.
Speaker 2: Are you wearing Are you wearing like a muzzle or
Speaker 2: something or a mask? It's like, I don't know if
Speaker 2: anyone could hear this, but give me one to my mother.
Speaker 6: The room.
Speaker 2: All right, listen, we gotta we gotta ja, ja ja,
Speaker 2: We gotta focus here.
Speaker 4: Okay, I'm focusing this.
Speaker 2: What do you? Who are you?
Speaker 4: I'm Jay, Am I are you? I don't know. I
Speaker 4: think I'm having like an adrenaline rush right now.
Speaker 2: Something. Yeah, I think so. I think something's going on.
Speaker 4: Yeah, my sister's staring me down.
Speaker 2: Now, your sister's staring you down.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Here here, let's do this. Let's do this, and I
Speaker 2: promise I'll come back to you.
Speaker 4: Ja.
Speaker 2: I promise I won't leave you hanging. But let me
Speaker 2: talk to your sister real quick, and then we'll come
Speaker 2: back to you.
Speaker 4: Okay, here, my sister.
Speaker 2: H Hello, Hello, how are you?
Speaker 4: I'm good?
Speaker 12: How are you?
Speaker 2: What's your name?
Speaker 12: My name is Cia.
Speaker 2: Sea? Yeah, Sia Sea. What's going on with Jay? He
Speaker 2: seems like he's having a panic attack of some sort
Speaker 2: for what, like, for what reason do I assume that?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 12: Ohat, you know who you are? It's okay, it's okay.
Speaker 2: I don't know what realization did you just come to
Speaker 2: right now? I'm lost?
Speaker 7: Uh no.
Speaker 12: He probably also suffers from hallucination because the dog is
Speaker 12: in the house.
Speaker 5: But we have no dog.
Speaker 12: No we don't.
Speaker 4: It's all in your head.
Speaker 12: I just opened the door. But if we have no dog,
Speaker 12: do you see what I'm dealing with?
Speaker 2: I really actually don't.
Speaker 12: Okay, he thinks we have a dog and it was
Speaker 12: just me opening the door. But we have no dogs.
Speaker 4: We don't own dogs. We own birds, but not dogs.
Speaker 2: So your brother thinks that you have a dog. Why
Speaker 2: does he think you have a dog?
Speaker 12: I don't know. After a while, he just wanted to
Speaker 12: have a hallucinations.
Speaker 2: He has hallucinations.
Speaker 12: Yeah, it's a you know what, It's okay because I
Speaker 12: like to play along with his hallucinations and just be like,
Speaker 12: oh yeah, yeah, yeah the dog. He's like, oh my
Speaker 12: DoD just came in the door room and I was
Speaker 12: like yeah, yeah I did.
Speaker 7: Okay, But anyway.
Speaker 2: So yeah, so okay, So what is is he? Is he? Okay?
Speaker 2: Is he having some sort of because when I was
Speaker 2: trying to talk to him, if he felt like he
Speaker 2: was like seventy percent there?
Speaker 12: How how long if I tell you they were like
Speaker 12: sixty percent is there?
Speaker 2: You you think sixty only sixty percent of him is there?
Speaker 7: Probably?
Speaker 12: I mean if he thinks we have a dog when
Speaker 12: we only have birds? Then how much is gone?
Speaker 2: How long has he thought you had a dog?
Speaker 12: Well, he just told me that he's talking to a gecko.
Speaker 12: Are you the gecko?
Speaker 2: I am the gecko.
Speaker 12: Okay, then that will that will make him a little
Speaker 12: bit rational. But I don't know. About three years after
Speaker 12: the accident, are you okay?
Speaker 2: Are you asking me or him him?
Speaker 12: I don't know what the fuck he's laughing about.
Speaker 2: Did you say something about an accident?
Speaker 12: Yeah, not really, not a really big one who would
Speaker 12: just on a bike and then he just like flag
Speaker 12: himself against a car. So it was not that big
Speaker 12: of a you. But ever since then, the doctor said,
Speaker 12: he's very fine. But all of a sudden, like we
Speaker 12: have a dog. I'm allergy to dogs, so we don't
Speaker 12: own the dogs.
Speaker 2: Well, you know, actually it's it's interesting you said that,
Speaker 2: because I feel like that's a good compromise. You're allergic
Speaker 2: to dogs, and he hallucinates a dog, so you don't
Speaker 2: have to suffer from the dog allergies because it's a
Speaker 2: fake dog. But he gets the dog in his mind.
Speaker 12: Right, at least at least in between.
Speaker 2: Uh, what do you? I don't know what questions to
Speaker 2: ask you, guys? I don't know what to do right now.
Speaker 12: I don't know either. He just passed me he like,
Speaker 12: talk to the gecko man, and I was like mm hmm, okay, okay.
Speaker 2: And so your brother hallucinates to the point where he
Speaker 2: hands you a phone and says, talk to the gecko
Speaker 2: man and you just go, oh, yes, because you didn't.
Speaker 2: You had no sort of apprehensions or questions about this.
Speaker 2: You went along with it pretty straightforward.
Speaker 12: Honestly.
Speaker 13: Yeah.
Speaker 12: I just point his hallucinators are the best part of
Speaker 12: my day, so I like to make the most of it.
Speaker 12: And he hears me at one of let's talk to
Speaker 12: the gecko man. I'm gonna be like, oh, we'll talk
Speaker 12: to the gecko man.
Speaker 2: Do you have a concern for him over these hallucinations?
Speaker 12: No, he's taking I make sure he takes his medications
Speaker 12: every fucking morning. Sorry, I did a mute, am make sure.
Speaker 2: Okay, Well, okay, what's you're like? What's you what is
Speaker 2: your favorite of his hallucinations?
Speaker 12: The fucking dog.
Speaker 2: Does the dog have a name?
Speaker 12: Yeah, his name is Eui. He's a Bullono's people and
Speaker 12: even made he's really that backstory to the dog.
Speaker 2: What's what's the backstory? To the dog.
Speaker 12: The dog was a fighting dog, and then he just
Speaker 12: found him on the street. And then the funny thing
Speaker 12: is he came home with just a leash, no dog,
Speaker 12: just a leashash.
Speaker 2: Did your brother just say he wants to the phone back?
Speaker 12: Yeah, do you want me to hand the phone book?
Speaker 2: Sure? Hey, what's your name?
Speaker 8: So?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was nice talking to you.
Speaker 12: So it was nice talking to you.
Speaker 2: Have a nice day you too. Hello? What's up? Jay?
Speaker 4: I uh, I don't know what to explain chat. Thank
Speaker 4: you for being so nice. I love you all and
Speaker 4: I love you to get go, but I do have
Speaker 4: something to talk about.
Speaker 2: So yeah, well, I feel like we've done so much
Speaker 2: talking already. I mean, what uh what what what? What?
Speaker 2: There's there's a big I've been a little stressed here
Speaker 2: so much.
Speaker 4: I think my sister could be a positively a really
Speaker 4: good twitch seaper. You know.
Speaker 2: Well, okay, so you said you wanted to talk about something?
Speaker 2: What what? What was that?
Speaker 4: It's it's it's it's kind of like difficult, you know,
Speaker 4: and so like I'm sorry chat. Oh like I love Riady.
Speaker 5: Chat.
Speaker 4: By the way, it's creat Jay.
Speaker 2: Don't read the chat. Don't look at the chat. If
Speaker 2: you look, please don't look at the chat. You look
Speaker 2: at the chat, I'm gonna hang up.
Speaker 4: Okay, where do you get? How are you doing that?
Speaker 7: So Bayly.
Speaker 2: Jay, what was it you want to talk about?
Speaker 4: It's about my like life, my personal life. Okay, it's
Speaker 4: like so like, so I don't know if like Frank
Speaker 4: could be watching this or not. I'm kind of worried
Speaker 4: she is, but I don't think she has. For the
Speaker 4: same time, my girlfriend.
Speaker 2: Okay, so like.
Speaker 4: Pretty much I've been I've been watching for quite a while,
Speaker 4: and like this whole time, I've been struggling because recently
Speaker 4: I went to my back to my hometown, Puerto Rico.
Speaker 4: But I decided to go with my girlfriend because I
Speaker 4: was like, you know what, I'll go with her. Sure
Speaker 4: it's gonna be good a way we can like deepen
Speaker 4: a relationship or and all stuff. But while I was there,
Speaker 4: I learned otherwise, and like I'm right now, like in
Speaker 4: a top situation, I would I would say, so, yeah,
Speaker 4: did you hang up?
Speaker 2: So you learned otherwise?
Speaker 4: Yeah, so there was I don't know if you've ever
Speaker 4: been to Puerto Rico well or I like ever heard
Speaker 4: of it. Pretty much, but like let's give one example.
Speaker 4: One example is in Puerto Rico. Driving there is not
Speaker 4: that safe, right Okay, So she said, oh, let me
Speaker 4: drive in Puerto Rico and I was like, m I
Speaker 4: don't know about that because driving put like driving like
Speaker 4: Indie or something like that, you know, like they're crazy during.
Speaker 5: All this place.
Speaker 4: It's actually like driving like in New York.
Speaker 2: Actually, wait, Jay, Jay, Jay Jay, listen, listen, listen, listen, Jay.
Speaker 2: I mean I need you right now. I need you
Speaker 2: right now to focus. What was the thing that you
Speaker 2: wanted to talk to me about?
Speaker 4: Should I like leave my girlfriend or should I stay
Speaker 4: in a relationship with her because I love her a
Speaker 4: lot and I feel like if I leave her, I'll
Speaker 4: be really fucking depressed. But if I also, I feel
Speaker 4: like if I don't, if I don't leave her, I'm
Speaker 4: like being held back pretty much because I want to
Speaker 4: live life more freely.
Speaker 2: I guess, okay, I actually have an answer to that.
Speaker 2: Here's the thing. If I think if everything you just
Speaker 2: told me is completely true. Again, I don't know your relationship,
Speaker 2: so I'm not going to like tell you what to do,
Speaker 2: but I'll tell you some things around this. To me,
Speaker 2: if your girlfriend, if your life would suck without your girlfriends.
Speaker 2: That's a problem, I think because it means that there's
Speaker 2: not enough about your life that is enriching without another person,
Speaker 2: and being dependent on another person for your happiness is
Speaker 2: never a winning strategy. And how old are you?
Speaker 4: Twenty one?
Speaker 2: And also if you're twenty one and you feel this
Speaker 2: desire to have more freedom in your life.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't feel that.
Speaker 2: I don't feel like it's an interesting desire to listen to.
Speaker 2: So I think you should listen to that desire. And
Speaker 2: I think that because you're young still, you should develop
Speaker 2: your life to make sure that you're happy without other
Speaker 2: people and then you can add a people in your
Speaker 2: life to share that on happiness. Does that make sense?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: What did you say? Your name was?
Speaker 7: Jay?
Speaker 2: Is a pleasure talking to you and to your sister
Speaker 2: as well. And thank you for calling in?
Speaker 4: Okay, thank you, Get go out. I love everything that
Speaker 4: you make in You're amazing. Get go I can thank
Speaker 4: you and.
Speaker 2: By fact up to thank you, dud. Do you have
Speaker 2: a rest of the night you too?
Speaker 4: Bye?
Speaker 8: Never goes on the line thanking your own calls every night,
Speaker 8: everything goes.
Speaker 2: He's teaching you loud your life