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Speaker 1: All from Kalo.

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Speaker 2: Kalo.

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Speaker 3: Oh, hey, kick, Hi.

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Speaker 2: We ever chatted before, Kalo?

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Speaker 4: Yes, we actually have.

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Speaker 2: When was this.

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Speaker 5: Maybe about two ish months ago?

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Speaker 6: Maybe?

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Speaker 3: But I have a little bit of a proposition for you.

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Speaker 5: Get if you'd like to hear.

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Speaker 3: Would you like to have a conversation with my aunt

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Speaker 3: who has dementia?

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Speaker 2: Would I like to have a conversation with your aunt

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Speaker 2: who has dementia?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, her brain is kind of like stuck in the seventies,

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Speaker 3: kind of because she got in a car accident then,

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Speaker 3: but she's really cool if if you'd like to you're

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Speaker 3: more than wanting to.

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Speaker 2: Is are you with her right now?

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Speaker 5: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I can get her.

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Speaker 2: Sure, I'll talk to her.

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Speaker 3: Give me one second.

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Speaker 2: You don't you're not You're not saying this like let's

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Speaker 2: you're not saying this like let's fuck with your aunt?

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Speaker 5: Right? No?

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Speaker 3: No, no, no, no no. I would very much like you

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Speaker 3: to just have a conversation with her. I don't want

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Speaker 3: to like nothing like that. Okay, give me one second,

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Speaker 3: you know.

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Speaker 2: I probably should we probably should let her know that

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Speaker 2: she's on the internet.

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Speaker 7: Oh hello, oh, yes, hi, Hi, Who am I speaking to?

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Speaker 7: I'm all right?

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Speaker 8: For who money?

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Speaker 2: My name is Lyle. Uh and your nephew called into

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Speaker 2: my I have like a radio show.

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Speaker 7: Oh yes, yes, uh huh.

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Speaker 2: And he he said that you were a cool person

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Speaker 2: and that I might like talking to you. All right,

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Speaker 2: I am, what do you so you agree? You agree

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Speaker 2: that you're a cool person.

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Speaker 7: Oh yeah, I am.

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Speaker 2: What do you think makes you a cool person?

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Speaker 5: Well?

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Speaker 7: I'm not a vulgar, loud person, that's one thing. And

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Speaker 7: I'm not the tip to make scenes, but that's about it.

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Speaker 7: I'm pretty cool people. I get along when every want.

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Speaker 2: Okay, so you're you're very friendly, you say, yeah.

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Speaker 7: But I'm also very paranoid. I I give people the

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Speaker 7: eye before I open up.

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Speaker 2: Really well, okay, So when you are looking at someone

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Speaker 2: and you're examining them and deciding whether or not you

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Speaker 2: want to open up to them, what sorts of things

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Speaker 2: are you looking for?

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Speaker 7: I'm just looking to see if they are very nervous

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Speaker 7: or alter stiff, like I don't want to open up.

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Speaker 7: You know they got something to hide.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 7: I try to dig in to find out, you know,

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Speaker 7: realize what's wrong.

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Speaker 2: Mmmm. Do you feel like you're good at putting people

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Speaker 7: I think so. I haven't recently. I haven't really gotten

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Speaker 2: Why is that? Well?

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Speaker 7: I'm in my home and I'm watching over mother, and

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Speaker 7: my mother has dementia, so I have to be here,

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Speaker 7: you know, well nobody else is here. I'll be here

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Speaker 7: and I have to watch her, and I don't mind anyway,

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Speaker 7: and Mom's always got along. M.

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Speaker 2: Do you do you have a lot of friends in

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Speaker 2: particular that you you would really like to see?

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Speaker 7: I have no friend here, for no one at all?

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Speaker 2: Where are most of you friends?

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Speaker 7: Located away up in New York? And most of them

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Speaker 7: are either dead or married?

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Speaker 2: They're dead or married? Which which do you think are which?

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Speaker 2: Which of those two friends are? Is it harder to

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Speaker 9: Oh?

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Speaker 7: I can't. I don't even remember where they live anymore.

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Speaker 7: I know they all got of Bronx New York and

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Speaker 7: they all spread all over the country.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm. How how how did you were like most

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Speaker 8: Like?

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Speaker 2: Where are they from? Like are they like? From high

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Speaker 7: We grew up to get a lot of us. There

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Speaker 7: was a group of us and we used to all

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Speaker 7: hang out in a park and we drink and hang out.

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Speaker 7: And then after about a couple of years, I had

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Speaker 7: one at that. No one came around. Oh, everybody split.

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Speaker 7: So we moved down here to Flora, my parents, so

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Speaker 2: Hm. And do you have anyone like are you are

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Speaker 2: you married or do you have your significant other of

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Speaker 7: There is no significant other. It's me, myself and I.

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Speaker 2: And what's your relationship like with what's his name? With

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Speaker 2: your with your nephew.

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Speaker 7: Oh, that's very.

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Speaker 9: You know, typical.

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Speaker 7: But you know, we see each other, we talk, you know,

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Speaker 7: that's nothing. I don't know we do. We never argue,

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Speaker 7: that's one thing. We never argue. Very good, you're very comfortable.

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Speaker 2: What do you think it is about you guys that

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Speaker 7: We have an understanding of each other. So that's it.

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Speaker 7: And he's my brothers, you know, so that's good family.

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Speaker 10: That's it.

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Speaker 2: Do you have a good relationship with your brother?

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Speaker 2: Yes, is he has he been a big help with

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Speaker 5: Oh?

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Speaker 12: Yes, one.

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Speaker 7: Sometimes it goes out of his way.

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Speaker 2: That's great. That's awesome.

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Speaker 7: Well, very close family, that's what it is all. Very emotional.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I can tell you you're very close with your family.

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Speaker 2: It seems like, you know, I mean, you're you're you're

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Speaker 2: going a lot out of your way to be in Florida.

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Speaker 2: It's a you know, support.

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Speaker 7: Oh yeah, I don't mind, though. I'm glad I'm here.

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Speaker 2: You're glad you're here.

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Speaker 7: Oh yes, I got out of New York, that part

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Speaker 7: of the Bronx New York. Last time I was there,

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Speaker 7: everything changed so much, everything and everybody. That's why I

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Speaker 7: know Florida that's my home now.

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Speaker 2: I said, really, how how did things change? In what way?

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Speaker 7: Well, in a way, the people that we know, they

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Speaker 7: all moved, scattered away, and they rebuilt. They put all

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Speaker 7: it seemed like everything was too crowded. There was too

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Speaker 7: many people. So I said, oh, thank you God. I

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Speaker 7: came down to Faria with my family for that.

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Speaker 2: Do you not like crowds and and people? You seem like, uh,

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Speaker 7: No, Well, you see, I don't mind having people around

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Speaker 7: but too much crowding too. You know, it gets to me.

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Speaker 12: I like that be stretched out.

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Speaker 7: I don't want to be boxed in, not cause my

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mmm. Do you do you do you work

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Speaker 7: Well, my job is to take care of my mother,

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 7: Before that, I had see I have. I had an accident,

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Speaker 7: so I don't have very good memories for certain things,

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Speaker 7: so I don't really remember if I had what kind

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Speaker 7: of job it was. I can't give you any details.

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Speaker 2: This is kind of interesting to me though, because you

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Speaker 2: know you you you can remember. It sounds like you

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Speaker 2: like I can remember certain things, but not like the

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Speaker 2: details of them specifically exactly.

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Speaker 7: Uh. Working in on a law firm and I was

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Speaker 7: give me a promotion but we decided to move.

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Speaker 2: So I said, you were going to get a promotion.

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Speaker 7: Oh yeah, but oh I was involved in an accident,

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Speaker 7: a very serious accident. The helmet that I had on

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Speaker 2: How long ago is that?

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Speaker 7: Wow, I think I'm fifteen years ago. Well, and I

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Speaker 7: So helped me my visibility.

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Speaker 2: Were you riding like a like a motorcycle?

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Speaker 7: Yes, a Honda, a Honda.

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Speaker 2: Was that a big thing that you were really into?

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Speaker 7: Not really? Just it was my boyfriend's bike at the time.

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Speaker 7: He lost the leg from the accident. Yes, really, I

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Speaker 2: Huh, are do you still keeping contact with Oh?

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Speaker 7: No, I don't. He died. He died. He didn't die

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Speaker 2: We were you in contact with him when he died?

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Speaker 7: No at all? No, m.

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Speaker 2: Did you guys like stay to get like we were going.

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Speaker 7: To be married? Yeah, you know, we're engaged in all,

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Speaker 7: but that's it. After a while, we just broke up.

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Speaker 7: After the accident. He got an h into a heavy drugs.

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Speaker 7: He became a drug addict and he was walking around

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Speaker 7: under that condition. And then we moved and that's it.

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Speaker 7: I don't remember. I can't give you any details because

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Speaker 7: my mind isn't I can't remember.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm. So do you do you feel like the

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Speaker 7: A oh, yes, yes, I believe so.

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Speaker 2: Mhm. And after that, like, did you did you date

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Speaker 2: anyone after him? Was there new.

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Speaker 7: Maybe one or two? No big thing. It's it would

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Speaker 7: Then we came down him, I came with my family,

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Speaker 7: came down. Oh before that, I was involved in the

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Speaker 7: We came down him. My family decided we're going to

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Speaker 7: get a little house in Flora. It has been a

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Speaker 7: Oh yeah, Oh yeah, it's really like a piece thing.

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Speaker 2: I asked if you regretted anything.

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Speaker 7: Yeah, this accident, Yeah, it changed me so much. I

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Speaker 2: Absolutely well. I mean you've been very still, very talkative

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Speaker 7: All I can tell them is you just take everything

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Speaker 2: What did you say? Your name was?

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Speaker 7: My name is Denise, Denis e n I s yes.

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Speaker 2: Denise, Denise. It was. It was so nice talking to you.

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Speaker 2: Thank you so much for sharing.

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Speaker 7: What's your name?

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Speaker 2: My name is Lyle oh Lile.

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Speaker 2: Thank you very much, Thank you very much. What's your

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Speaker 2: what's your nephew's name? Again? Oh I'm sorry, what were

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Speaker 7: Oh? No, well, okaylo okay, oh k loo that's his name?

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Speaker 7: Kayla Kya hy l o white Yeah o k A

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Speaker 2: Kaylo Hello ky Low, Yes, beautiful, Thank you so much

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Speaker 2: for sharing Denise. This is really nice talking to you.

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Speaker 7: Oh, I'm glad anytime you want to throw here? Hey fine,

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Speaker 2: Good night Denise, Greg Hey, what's up? Kaylo. Thank you

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Speaker 5: Of course.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, she just gets lonely sometimes, so I

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Speaker 2: To for hers. Totally. Yeah, man, thank you, thank you

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Speaker 2: so much. It sounds like things are going well in

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Speaker 3: The most part.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, we get by.

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Speaker 3: We make every day try to be a little bit

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Speaker 3: happier than the last.

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Speaker 2: Awesome. Yeah, well, thank you so much for calling Cayley.

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Speaker 2: You have a gust tonight.

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Speaker 3: Okay, thank you so much for doing your stuff. And

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Speaker 3: you know, I'm not going to shout anybody out. Just

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Speaker 3: everyone be cool, love each other and stay being gek

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Speaker 3: and yeah.

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Speaker 2: Beautiful, Thank you Caleb Man. It is a pleasure.

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Speaker 3: All right, bye, have a good guy.

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Speaker 1: All from Mushroom to accept Press one.

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Speaker 2: Mushroom.

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Speaker 11: Oh my god, Gek.

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Speaker 2: How are you doing, Mushroom?

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Speaker 5: I'm doing really good. How are you doing?

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Speaker 6: Gek?

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Speaker 2: Why are you doing really good?

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Speaker 5: Just a little drinking. I'm twenty one, just as over

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Speaker 2: Did we talk recently, Mushroom?

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Speaker 5: No, this is my first time. I've been trying to

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Speaker 2: Oh what about.

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Speaker 5: Everybody in chat? I'm not gonna look at chat after this.

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Speaker 5: Everybody in chat keeps asking if this is the guy

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Speaker 5: that keeps asking if you fart? Yes, this is me,

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Speaker 5: But that's not what I'm here to talk about. What's up, Gek?

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Speaker 5: I have a story for you, if you're down to listen.

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Speaker 2: Here's the thing about the story. If you could sort

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Speaker 2: if it's like a ten minute story, you know, I

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Speaker 2: go into a story, which which I think is reasonable.

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Speaker 2: it's reasonable. Would you not agree with me that that's reasonable?

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Speaker 11: Geck, my guy, my man, my dude. I totally agree

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Speaker 11: with you. It's totally reasonable, because honestly, some people's stories

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Speaker 2: I almost feel like I kind of almost feel like

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Speaker 11: Well all right, yeah, got it?

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Speaker 10: All right?

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Speaker 7: All right, all right?

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Speaker 2: So I mean, okay, all right, so you kind of did.

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Speaker 2: I like when people caulp fiction their stories. I feel

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Speaker 2: like we have heard the middle. So, okay, you've caught

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Speaker 2: my interest. How did you find yourself in this situation?

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Speaker 11: Well, I'm hanging out with my two friends, once my

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Speaker 11: go to Martin's. And well we're not going to martins

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Speaker 11: we're going to another friend's house, but we stop at

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Speaker 11: Holy shit. So I run to the back, and in

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Speaker 2: Kind of and the ship water wasn't even actually yours.

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Speaker 11: Yeah, it was a combination of mine and some other people's.

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Speaker 11: not fucking with you. I'm not fucking with you. That's

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Speaker 2: That is. That's crazy because that actually, like it's not

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Speaker 2: even like the dunkachino ball situation is already bad enough.

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Speaker 2: And then you sit and come, did you like on

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Speaker 11: Like, dude, I always like down the toilet seat before

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Speaker 11: new sweatpants out of it. It says I am the sweatpants,

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Speaker 11: say I am the only one. I'm very very happy

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Speaker 11: about the sweatpants. But that's how I ended up with

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Speaker 2: So the sweatpants, Like, when you say they're your favorite,

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Speaker 2: do you like them enough to sort of have justified

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Speaker 11: Well, I spend the whole day with my with my

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Speaker 11: I'd be like, oh uh, I'm just remembering the horrible

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Speaker 2: Gek would you would you say you have any PTSD?

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Speaker 11: I if I see a toilet that looks like it

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Speaker 11: because I don't want to. It's it's super scary. Duncan

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Speaker 11: somebody else's shit.

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Speaker 2: Also, wait, that doesn't make sense. Would his com Was

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Speaker 2: like the side, because if you're jacking off on a toilet,

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Speaker 2: the coum would be the cum would get on the

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Speaker 2: floor like it wouldn't be on the sea because you're

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Speaker 11: So it's on the bowl, like you know how they are.

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Speaker 11: They're not like a full bowl. They're kind of like

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Speaker 11: a horseshoe kind of shape. It was on if you're

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Speaker 2: Hey, if you clean up a guy's come what does

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Speaker 2: that make you? Guys? Like, relationship wise, what label would

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Speaker 2: you attribute to that?

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Speaker 1: Well?

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Speaker 11: I don't really like to label myself with any sort

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Speaker 11: But I think that this guy is probably my new

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Speaker 11: secret forbidden lover.

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Speaker 8: No.

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Speaker 2: I wasn't saying sexuality wise. I was saying, like the

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Speaker 2: like the title of your guys's relationship.

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Speaker 11: Yeah, secret forbidden unregistered lovers.

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Speaker 2: Well, beautiful, you got some new sweatpants and you got

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Speaker 2: a hot secret lover. I think that this sounds like

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Speaker 11: One last thing, A guy went into the clogged stall

449
00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:55,280
Speaker 11: next that you know, I kind of left behind because

450
00:24:55,320 --> 00:24:59,480
Speaker 11: I kind of fixed it, and I had to sit

451
00:24:59,520 --> 00:25:03,119
Speaker 11: there while he I heard from the plunger as he

452
00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:06,600
Speaker 11: cleaned up my shit and I couldn't say. I couldn't

453
00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:08,000
Speaker 11: say anything because it was my shit.

454
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Speaker 2: Wow, wouldn't it be amazing if you walked into that

455
00:25:12,359 --> 00:25:14,080
Speaker 2: place the next day and you saw that guy and

456
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:19,720
Speaker 2: he was wearing the same sweatpants that you got from

457
00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:20,520
Speaker 2: that experience.

458
00:25:21,359 --> 00:25:24,240
Speaker 11: See, the scary thing is I got the sweatpants a

459
00:25:24,240 --> 00:25:26,639
Speaker 11: couple of cities away, and I was wearing the sweatpants

460
00:25:26,640 --> 00:25:28,600
Speaker 11: with a huge hole where everybody could see my ass

461
00:25:28,640 --> 00:25:31,320
Speaker 11: crack for at least an hour. So that man would

462
00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:33,159
Speaker 11: have had to have the same story as me. But

463
00:25:33,280 --> 00:25:35,720
Speaker 11: if he if he did that, I mean like it's

464
00:25:35,840 --> 00:25:38,200
Speaker 11: probably like a said thing, I'd probably have to get

465
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Speaker 11: with that man.

466
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Speaker 2: Well, beautiful, I think that we definitely did this call.

467
00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:46,280
Speaker 2: I think that things worked out for the best. I

468
00:25:46,320 --> 00:25:52,520
Speaker 2: think that yeah, I think this this worked out well.

469
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Speaker 8: All right, Thanks Gek, of course, thank you so much

470
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Speaker 8: for calling.

471
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Speaker 5: Yeah, have fun.

472
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Speaker 1: All from Wesley.

473
00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:19,240
Speaker 2: Hey, Wesley, good evening. You're breathing very heavily. I apologize, No, no,

474
00:26:19,280 --> 00:26:20,639
Speaker 2: it's not anything to apologize for.

475
00:26:23,400 --> 00:26:26,360
Speaker 5: Well, I have a question for you, and I.

476
00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:29,520
Speaker 2: Want you to feel that moment as intensely as as

477
00:26:29,560 --> 00:26:32,480
Speaker 2: all moments of our lives should be felt. Because we're

478
00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:36,800
Speaker 2: slowly dying, time is fleeting. We should treat life with

479
00:26:36,840 --> 00:26:39,440
Speaker 2: an appropriate amount of intensity because it's an intense experience.

480
00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 2: We feel like we have time, but we don't.

481
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:46,280
Speaker 5: My gosh, the true feelings.

482
00:26:47,200 --> 00:26:50,480
Speaker 2: Feel your feelings as deeply as you possibly can. Soon

483
00:26:50,560 --> 00:26:51,280
Speaker 2: you'll feel nothing.

484
00:26:54,080 --> 00:26:55,000
Speaker 5: So I'm engaged.

485
00:26:56,000 --> 00:27:00,120
Speaker 2: You're engaged, yes, But the problem.

486
00:26:59,880 --> 00:27:00,480
Speaker 9: Is is.

487
00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:10,120
Speaker 5: I'm in love with my best man, really yeah, and

488
00:27:10,160 --> 00:27:11,720
Speaker 5: I don't know how to break it to my fiance.

489
00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:17,600
Speaker 5: And he also doesn't know.

490
00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:23,240
Speaker 2: How long have you been in love with your best man.

491
00:27:24,200 --> 00:27:25,600
Speaker 5: I've known him since I was five?

492
00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:30,480
Speaker 2: How long have you been in love with him?

493
00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:33,960
Speaker 5: Since? Six? So now it's seventeen.

494
00:27:33,520 --> 00:27:42,040
Speaker 2: Years twenty three. Yes, you've been in love with him

495
00:27:42,080 --> 00:27:42,760
Speaker 2: since you were six?

496
00:27:44,359 --> 00:27:44,600
Speaker 5: Yes?

497
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:48,000
Speaker 2: And why has it taken so long for you?

498
00:27:49,760 --> 00:27:52,679
Speaker 5: I think the stigma of our society has not allowed

499
00:27:52,680 --> 00:27:54,600
Speaker 5: me to express the way that I feel.

500
00:27:56,640 --> 00:28:02,240
Speaker 2: Three times, which the LGBT community is not as widely accepted.

501
00:28:03,119 --> 00:28:09,480
Speaker 5: Correct. Mmmm, it's the worst man?

502
00:28:10,800 --> 00:28:14,280
Speaker 2: Does does your friend now that you love him?

503
00:28:15,400 --> 00:28:15,919
Speaker 5: He doesn't?

504
00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:17,359
Speaker 2: He doesn't.

505
00:28:18,480 --> 00:28:21,639
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think if you found out would ruin our

506
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:24,479
Speaker 5: relationship as a friend, and I just don't know if

507
00:28:24,520 --> 00:28:29,560
Speaker 5: I I think as a friend. I've tried to express

508
00:28:29,640 --> 00:28:34,159
Speaker 5: my feelings kind of hint towards it, but it just

509
00:28:34,160 --> 00:28:35,639
Speaker 5: doesn't work.

510
00:28:37,240 --> 00:28:41,320
Speaker 2: Now are you this person that you're married?

511
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:42,600
Speaker 1: M h.

512
00:28:43,560 --> 00:28:46,080
Speaker 2: Do you love her?

513
00:28:50,360 --> 00:28:50,520
Speaker 1: No?

514
00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:52,120
Speaker 4: No?

515
00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:53,800
Speaker 5: I don't.

516
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:02,200
Speaker 2: When are you getting married?

517
00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:12,440
Speaker 5: January sixteenth?

518
00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:22,920
Speaker 9: I don't know what to do, man, I don't know

519
00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:23,400
Speaker 9: what to do.

520
00:29:25,120 --> 00:29:25,800
Speaker 5: What's her name?

521
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:26,800
Speaker 2: What's your name?

522
00:29:27,640 --> 00:29:29,720
Speaker 5: Wesley?

523
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Speaker 2: Wesley? Listen?

524
00:29:32,600 --> 00:29:32,800
Speaker 7: Yes?

525
00:29:33,320 --> 00:29:37,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, you have to.

526
00:29:37,520 --> 00:29:39,040
Speaker 2: You have to tell this person.

527
00:29:39,800 --> 00:29:43,720
Speaker 5: That you can't marry them. How do you think I

528
00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:46,000
Speaker 5: should do it? Because I just don't know.

529
00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 2: Listen. It's going to be difficult, but I need you

530
00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:52,440
Speaker 2: to know, Wesley, the only way out of this is

531
00:29:52,480 --> 00:29:57,360
Speaker 2: the rough it. Yeah, you just gotta do it. You

532
00:29:57,400 --> 00:29:58,200
Speaker 2: gotta call it off.

533
00:29:59,480 --> 00:29:59,680
Speaker 1: Yeah.

534
00:29:59,760 --> 00:30:03,160
Speaker 2: Look, Westley, I want you to know something. When you

535
00:30:03,240 --> 00:30:05,960
Speaker 2: do it. I'm proud of you for doing it.

536
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:09,360
Speaker 4: All right, Thank you, I really am.

537
00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:13,640
Speaker 2: That's serious, west Because what I said at the beginning

538
00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:15,880
Speaker 2: of this call, I meant it. I was trying. I

539
00:30:15,920 --> 00:30:18,440
Speaker 2: was being a little silly, but I meant it. You

540
00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:23,160
Speaker 2: may get one life and I don't care what anyone

541
00:30:23,200 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 2: in your hicktown has to say about it, but you

542
00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:29,400
Speaker 2: got to spend that life being yourself, all right.

543
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:31,840
Speaker 5: Yeah, man, you gotta you.

544
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:37,239
Speaker 2: Gotta tell this person. And look, you know, even if

545
00:30:37,280 --> 00:30:41,720
Speaker 2: you're even if your friend doesn't love you back, I

546
00:30:42,040 --> 00:30:45,600
Speaker 2: think can move on. But if you're, don't get married

547
00:30:45,600 --> 00:30:49,320
Speaker 2: to someone that you don't love just because you're trying

548
00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:52,640
Speaker 2: to meet some societal expectation. Yeah, man, you want that

549
00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:55,080
Speaker 2: for your west Say, I don't want you to live

550
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 2: your life based on anything other than yourself.

551
00:30:59,200 --> 00:31:05,240
Speaker 5: You get me. H, Thank you man, for sure?

552
00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:10,840
Speaker 2: Thank you, Leslie. Weslie, is there anyone else in your

553
00:31:10,840 --> 00:31:12,840
Speaker 2: life that you have that you can talk to about this.

554
00:31:16,240 --> 00:31:19,800
Speaker 5: My best friend, Yeah.

555
00:31:18,480 --> 00:31:19,800
Speaker 2: Your best friend?

556
00:31:20,280 --> 00:31:20,520
Speaker 5: Yeah?

557
00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:26,720
Speaker 2: Does he know that you don't love the woman that

558
00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:27,640
Speaker 2: you're gonna marry?

559
00:31:29,240 --> 00:31:31,720
Speaker 5: No, I haven't told anybody.

560
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:34,760
Speaker 2: That's devil. That's why I was asked, Do you have

561
00:31:34,800 --> 00:31:38,000
Speaker 2: anyone that you would feel comfortable telling this too?

562
00:31:40,880 --> 00:31:46,160
Speaker 5: I have a I have like an acquaintance. I know

563
00:31:46,480 --> 00:31:50,800
Speaker 5: he he might be willing to have a conversation with me. Yeah,

564
00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:57,200
Speaker 5: m but I haven't talked to him in years.

565
00:31:57,280 --> 00:32:03,880
Speaker 2: You know, you live with this one.

566
00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:04,600
Speaker 5: I do not.

567
00:32:06,440 --> 00:32:08,760
Speaker 2: How long have you been like dating her?

568
00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:11,480
Speaker 5: About four years?

569
00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:16,720
Speaker 2: About four years? Had you ever now? I'm curious it

570
00:32:16,920 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 2: in the span of that four years, Like, guess what

571
00:32:23,320 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 2: I'm trying to ask you, is how recent of a

572
00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:31,240
Speaker 2: realization is this, like where the ENTI where you sort

573
00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:35,600
Speaker 2: of putting on? Was this something where you were sort

574
00:32:35,640 --> 00:32:40,360
Speaker 2: of actively pushing away your true feelings for the duration

575
00:32:40,440 --> 00:32:44,240
Speaker 2: of the four years or you only realize to them

576
00:32:44,360 --> 00:32:45,240
Speaker 2: someone recently.

577
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:50,840
Speaker 5: I think it's something that deep down I've known for

578
00:32:50,880 --> 00:32:56,080
Speaker 5: a very long time. But I think just with where

579
00:32:56,120 --> 00:32:59,480
Speaker 5: I live and how everything is, and I just think

580
00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:03,480
Speaker 5: it's yeah, it's it's not been something that I've really

581
00:33:03,640 --> 00:33:06,120
Speaker 5: brought up subconsciously and tell how to hear it go.

582
00:33:07,880 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 2: You know, do you do you have a lot of

583
00:33:10,880 --> 00:33:14,600
Speaker 2: friends and family like the place that you live? Do

584
00:33:14,640 --> 00:33:15,760
Speaker 2: you have a lot of friends family?

585
00:33:17,200 --> 00:33:17,560
Speaker 5: I do?

586
00:33:18,760 --> 00:33:25,680
Speaker 2: Okay, because you know, if because what I want for

587
00:33:25,760 --> 00:33:30,440
Speaker 2: you is I really would love to see you live

588
00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:33,960
Speaker 2: if it's a fucking red if if you feel like

589
00:33:35,120 --> 00:33:39,120
Speaker 2: you can't be who you are where you live, you

590
00:33:39,200 --> 00:33:39,840
Speaker 2: need to leave.

591
00:33:41,000 --> 00:33:43,960
Speaker 5: Yeah. Yeah, I think you're right.

592
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:45,040
Speaker 2: What do you what do you? What do you do

593
00:33:45,080 --> 00:33:45,560
Speaker 2: for a living?

594
00:33:46,680 --> 00:33:50,479
Speaker 5: I actually own my own company. I do like CDEO

595
00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:51,520
Speaker 5: production stuff.

596
00:33:52,120 --> 00:33:52,880
Speaker 2: Oh that's awesome.

597
00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:54,520
Speaker 5: Yeah.

598
00:33:54,720 --> 00:33:55,560
Speaker 2: Where are your clients?

599
00:33:55,560 --> 00:34:00,880
Speaker 5: Mainly based out of based mostly based out of Atlanta, Atlanta.

600
00:34:01,760 --> 00:34:05,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, I assume you live in some hicktown in Georgia.

601
00:34:06,760 --> 00:34:10,880
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, bro, but move to Atlanta?

602
00:34:12,239 --> 00:34:13,200
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean how.

603
00:34:13,080 --> 00:34:21,200
Speaker 2: Would you move to Atlanta? I mean, I Yeah, that's

604
00:34:21,239 --> 00:34:26,960
Speaker 2: the thing, man, don't if if don't, don't keep living

605
00:34:26,960 --> 00:34:28,800
Speaker 2: in a place where you feel like you can't be yourself.

606
00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:30,040
Speaker 2: Life is too short to do that.

607
00:34:31,080 --> 00:34:31,440
Speaker 5: Yeah.

608
00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 2: I think I think life is too short to do that.

609
00:34:36,040 --> 00:34:39,120
Speaker 2: Don't marry the swiman and look, by the way, I

610
00:34:39,160 --> 00:34:42,520
Speaker 2: know that I just I really want you to know.

611
00:34:42,560 --> 00:34:45,799
Speaker 2: I know it might be difficult, m for reasons that

612
00:34:45,840 --> 00:34:51,480
Speaker 2: I can't understand. Yeah, but you have to do it

613
00:34:52,280 --> 00:34:53,839
Speaker 2: because how old are you? Twenty three?

614
00:34:54,640 --> 00:34:55,160
Speaker 5: Twenty three?

615
00:34:55,239 --> 00:35:00,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, twenty three. Do it now and for the to

616
00:35:00,160 --> 00:35:03,959
Speaker 2: your life. You will be very very glad that you did.

617
00:35:05,080 --> 00:35:08,840
Speaker 2: Even if in the short term it's difficult. In the

618
00:35:08,880 --> 00:35:13,120
Speaker 2: long term, you'll be very very glad that you decided

619
00:35:13,160 --> 00:35:16,640
Speaker 2: to live a life where you were yourself instead of

620
00:35:18,239 --> 00:35:24,080
Speaker 2: miserably falling it's coming to the pressures of the people

621
00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 2: around you. Don't do that.

622
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:29,600
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, man, I needed to hear that.

623
00:35:30,800 --> 00:35:32,920
Speaker 2: Good. I'm proud of you. Wesley.

624
00:35:33,719 --> 00:35:35,560
Speaker 5: Thank you, man, Thank you.

625
00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:36,760
Speaker 2: Of course.

626
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:45,239
Speaker 6: Is there any any other like other thing that you

627
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:49,439
Speaker 6: wanted to talk about or anything else I could help

628
00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:49,799
Speaker 6: you with?

629
00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:55,680
Speaker 5: No, I mean that was it, Okay, thank you, man.

630
00:35:55,719 --> 00:35:56,279
Speaker 2: Gonna do it.

631
00:35:57,120 --> 00:35:57,880
Speaker 5: I'm gonna do it.

632
00:35:57,960 --> 00:35:58,919
Speaker 9: I'm gonna do it good.

633
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:01,280
Speaker 5: And when I do, I'll call you back.

634
00:36:01,600 --> 00:36:02,879
Speaker 2: Your calls back, calls back.

635
00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:05,240
Speaker 5: I want to call you that of course.

636
00:36:05,280 --> 00:36:05,440
Speaker 6: Man.

637
00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:08,640
Speaker 2: Awesome. I love you, Wesley. You have a good rest

638
00:36:08,640 --> 00:36:08,960
Speaker 2: of the night.

639
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:09,160
Speaker 8: Man.

640
00:36:09,600 --> 00:36:13,000
Speaker 5: YouTube man pick you take care by by.

641
00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:20,880
Speaker 1: All from Garrett.

642
00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 2: Garrett's Hey What's up? Get we ever spoken before, Garretts,

643
00:36:29,280 --> 00:36:29,759
Speaker 2: we have not.

644
00:36:30,160 --> 00:36:32,400
Speaker 10: This is my first time, my first day calling in.

645
00:36:32,520 --> 00:36:34,480
Speaker 4: Actually, Oh cool?

646
00:36:34,640 --> 00:36:37,040
Speaker 2: How cool? How long have you been hanging out here for?

647
00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:39,520
Speaker 5: Uh?

648
00:36:39,560 --> 00:36:44,000
Speaker 10: I've started watching you uh about a week ago, but

649
00:36:44,040 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 10: I've been in the stream for an hour though.

650
00:36:47,280 --> 00:36:49,279
Speaker 2: Work with us and now week we can help, we can.

651
00:36:53,320 --> 00:36:57,239
Speaker 2: But I missed the second part of what you just said.

652
00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:01,480
Speaker 2: What do you say? Aam?

653
00:37:01,560 --> 00:37:01,600
Speaker 4: Was?

654
00:37:01,640 --> 00:37:06,799
Speaker 2: Again Garrett, Garrett's pleasure to talk to you man. Thank

655
00:37:06,800 --> 00:37:07,399
Speaker 2: you for calling in.

656
00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:11,480
Speaker 10: Thank you. I'm loving this already.

657
00:37:11,600 --> 00:37:13,160
Speaker 2: How old are you, Garrett?

658
00:37:13,520 --> 00:37:14,200
Speaker 10: I'm nineteen.

659
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:20,600
Speaker 2: Okay, Okay, it's a very sweet little boy, Garrett. I'm curious,

660
00:37:20,640 --> 00:37:22,839
Speaker 2: and it's okay if there's if there's not, it's okay

661
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:30,840
Speaker 2: if there's not. Because I didn't plan anything either, but

662
00:37:33,200 --> 00:37:36,520
Speaker 2: did Is there a particular reason why you called? Is

663
00:37:36,520 --> 00:37:38,520
Speaker 2: there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about?

664
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Speaker 10: HM? Not necessarily? To be honest, I didn't know if

665
00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:52,000
Speaker 10: i'd even get through. I'm glad I did.

666
00:37:53,560 --> 00:37:55,840
Speaker 2: I'm glad. I'm glad that you're glad, But I also

667
00:37:55,960 --> 00:37:58,399
Speaker 2: you know, I haven't really we haven't really talked about

668
00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:01,000
Speaker 2: anything yet. I guess I I guess your gladness. I

669
00:38:01,040 --> 00:38:04,800
Speaker 2: guess you're glad about the potential for this conversation, bibla,

670
00:38:04,920 --> 00:38:06,799
Speaker 2: or are you glad about the way it's already gone?

671
00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:08,360
Speaker 2: Because it's the way it's already gone. I feel like

672
00:38:08,480 --> 00:38:13,560
Speaker 2: there's no there's been no real substance to this just yet.

673
00:38:13,640 --> 00:38:15,359
Speaker 2: Not And that's not either of our faults. I think

674
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Speaker 2: it's just due to the amount of time that we've

675
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Speaker 2: been on the phone being so sure.

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Speaker 10: Yeah, I agree, I agree. I think I'm happy with

677
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Speaker 10: the potential.

678
00:38:24,120 --> 00:38:27,520
Speaker 2: Okay. And how would you feel if that potential was

679
00:38:27,560 --> 00:38:28,480
Speaker 2: never actualized?

680
00:38:30,160 --> 00:38:34,200
Speaker 10: Oh, I mean, I think it'd be all right. I'd

681
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:35,799
Speaker 10: try to call back again later.

682
00:38:35,920 --> 00:38:36,400
Speaker 5: Probably.

683
00:38:37,640 --> 00:38:40,640
Speaker 2: You seem like you have a very optimistic viewpoint on life.

684
00:38:40,719 --> 00:38:43,960
Speaker 2: You feel like it seems like nothing rattles you. Garrett,

685
00:38:45,200 --> 00:38:46,040
Speaker 2: I try to keep.

686
00:38:45,920 --> 00:38:46,359
Speaker 5: It that way.

687
00:38:46,520 --> 00:38:48,200
Speaker 10: Yeah, yeah, i'd say so.

688
00:38:48,800 --> 00:38:51,440
Speaker 2: Do you have any tips for us people who want

689
00:38:51,440 --> 00:38:54,799
Speaker 2: to have a more optimistic viewpoints? Garrett M.

690
00:38:58,200 --> 00:39:01,480
Speaker 10: I know someone said it earlier. I don't remember who. Uh,

691
00:39:01,840 --> 00:39:05,840
Speaker 10: just not worrying about the little things, you know, trying

692
00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,799
Speaker 10: to trying to see and trying to see the the

693
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:12,040
Speaker 10: good in everything. Everything has got a reason, there's a reason,

694
00:39:12,080 --> 00:39:15,600
Speaker 10: for everything, and it just moved you along and just

695
00:39:15,680 --> 00:39:18,160
Speaker 10: try to.

696
00:39:16,320 --> 00:39:18,719
Speaker 2: Do you believe that? Do you really believe that there

697
00:39:18,760 --> 00:39:19,760
Speaker 2: is a reason for everything?

698
00:39:21,080 --> 00:39:21,479
Speaker 5: I do.

699
00:39:23,239 --> 00:39:27,520
Speaker 10: I'm not really like spiritual or religious or anything like that,

700
00:39:27,640 --> 00:39:30,839
Speaker 10: but I do believe there's a reason for everything, one

701
00:39:30,840 --> 00:39:31,480
Speaker 10: way or another.

702
00:39:32,880 --> 00:39:40,360
Speaker 2: Do you Is there a reason for this? Ah?

703
00:39:40,440 --> 00:39:46,600
Speaker 10: I'm sure there is. I think you you did that.

704
00:39:47,239 --> 00:39:50,360
Speaker 10: The reason for you doing that is to to test me,

705
00:39:51,000 --> 00:39:54,120
Speaker 10: to see if I knew a reason.

706
00:39:55,800 --> 00:39:59,400
Speaker 2: And you did because that was the reason was to

707
00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:02,800
Speaker 2: test you if you new a reason. So there was

708
00:40:02,840 --> 00:40:03,560
Speaker 2: a reason for that.

709
00:40:04,680 --> 00:40:07,279
Speaker 10: Yeah, I here's a reason for everything in one way

710
00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:07,760
Speaker 10: or another.

711
00:40:10,080 --> 00:40:14,920
Speaker 2: Smart? What time is it?

712
00:40:14,920 --> 00:40:16,320
Speaker 10: It is nine to eleven?

713
00:40:16,360 --> 00:40:19,040
Speaker 7: Here, nine eleven?

714
00:40:19,840 --> 00:40:20,399
Speaker 2: Where's here?

715
00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 10: I am in Kansas?

716
00:40:25,040 --> 00:40:26,000
Speaker 2: Do you like Kansas?

717
00:40:27,920 --> 00:40:29,040
Speaker 11: Uh? It's not bad.

718
00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:33,120
Speaker 10: Not my favorite place, but it's not bad. I've been

719
00:40:33,120 --> 00:40:33,880
Speaker 10: here all my life.

720
00:40:34,360 --> 00:40:35,920
Speaker 2: But do you have a favorite place?

721
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Speaker 10: I would say Las Vegas? Actually, m.

722
00:40:45,600 --> 00:40:49,120
Speaker 2: Gran's interesting that you're like last five. You're not even

723
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Speaker 2: old enough to do all the crazy Las Vegas things.

724
00:40:52,840 --> 00:40:55,120
Speaker 10: No, No, I'm not yet.

725
00:40:57,800 --> 00:40:59,280
Speaker 2: How old do you have to be to kill someone?

726
00:40:59,280 --> 00:41:04,880
Speaker 2: And it's not an age? If you're a hundred, can

727
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:07,000
Speaker 2: you what do you like about Las Vegas.

728
00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:14,640
Speaker 10: Well, my grandparents live out there. I tend to like

729
00:41:14,680 --> 00:41:18,080
Speaker 10: the heat actually, which I know is probably a weird thing.

730
00:41:18,360 --> 00:41:21,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean even now, I heard it's like two

731
00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:24,120
Speaker 2: hundred and I heard it's like a billion degrees.

732
00:41:25,160 --> 00:41:27,600
Speaker 10: It is very hot out there. I am actually going

733
00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:29,200
Speaker 10: out there in a week and a half.

734
00:41:30,960 --> 00:41:36,640
Speaker 2: Oh, are you excited? I'm very excited, you know, Garrett,

735
00:41:36,640 --> 00:41:40,239
Speaker 2: I'm actually kind of terrified because I'm going out. I'm

736
00:41:40,239 --> 00:41:46,400
Speaker 2: going out west soon in this lizard attire, and I

737
00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:48,239
Speaker 2: am I am sort of afraid that I will die

738
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Speaker 2: of heat stroke.

739
00:41:51,120 --> 00:41:54,600
Speaker 10: Don't Don't Liard like the sun though? Don't they like it?

740
00:41:54,640 --> 00:41:56,319
Speaker 10: They lay out in it.

741
00:41:58,200 --> 00:42:00,879
Speaker 2: You know what, It's funny you say that, because that

742
00:42:00,920 --> 00:42:04,160
Speaker 2: has sort of been my remedy to this fear. Is like,

743
00:42:05,360 --> 00:42:09,879
Speaker 2: what this is gonna do to me is test out

744
00:42:10,080 --> 00:42:17,120
Speaker 2: my dedication to being a lizard. I think that I

745
00:42:17,120 --> 00:42:23,000
Speaker 2: think that my body, like I can, by force of mind,

746
00:42:23,280 --> 00:42:31,880
Speaker 2: train it to adapt some of the physical traits of

747
00:42:31,920 --> 00:42:35,440
Speaker 2: an actual lizard, just by the fact that I've embodied

748
00:42:35,440 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 2: one for so long. I mean not that long, but

749
00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:41,319
Speaker 2: you know, pretty intensely, And so I feel like I

750
00:42:41,320 --> 00:42:43,160
Speaker 2: could train in my body to adapt to heat in

751
00:42:43,160 --> 00:42:43,759
Speaker 2: the same way that.

752
00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:46,960
Speaker 10: A lizard would, so you feel like you can do it.

753
00:42:48,040 --> 00:42:50,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like if Spider Man. It's like if Spider

754
00:42:51,000 --> 00:42:53,279
Speaker 2: Man didn't get bit by the radioactive spider, but he

755
00:42:53,440 --> 00:43:00,359
Speaker 2: just like thought spiders were funny and willed hit through

756
00:43:00,600 --> 00:43:04,239
Speaker 2: his brain, just willed himself into being Spider Man. That's

757
00:43:04,280 --> 00:43:05,399
Speaker 2: sort of what I'm trying to do.

758
00:43:06,560 --> 00:43:09,960
Speaker 10: I see, that's the optimism. You think you can do it.

759
00:43:10,160 --> 00:43:11,279
Speaker 10: I think you can do it too.

760
00:43:12,000 --> 00:43:15,160
Speaker 2: Thank you, Thank you, Garrett guy. I love you get Garrett.

761
00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:17,680
Speaker 2: I want you to be like my personal cheerleader. You

762
00:43:17,719 --> 00:43:20,560
Speaker 2: have such optimism.

763
00:43:20,600 --> 00:43:23,279
Speaker 10: Well, thank you, I would gladly do that.

764
00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:26,040
Speaker 2: Does anything break you down?

765
00:43:28,440 --> 00:43:28,800
Speaker 4: Hmmm.

766
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:34,440
Speaker 10: I think some things bring me down, but then I

767
00:43:34,600 --> 00:43:37,480
Speaker 10: just I just gotta pick myself back up.

768
00:43:41,560 --> 00:43:44,600
Speaker 2: God, this is so interesting. I've met I've met people.

769
00:43:44,719 --> 00:43:51,240
Speaker 2: I've met people who have like very cheerful, optimistic dispositions,

770
00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:53,759
Speaker 2: and I don't know if this is me being like,

771
00:43:53,800 --> 00:43:57,360
Speaker 2: oh whatever, but I'm always just like, there's no way

772
00:43:58,719 --> 00:44:01,400
Speaker 2: that a person can be like that one hundred percent

773
00:44:01,400 --> 00:44:01,839
Speaker 2: of the time.

774
00:44:03,600 --> 00:44:06,640
Speaker 10: Oh, I'm definitely not like this one hundred percent of

775
00:44:06,640 --> 00:44:10,480
Speaker 10: the time. It's hard to keep this, keep it like

776
00:44:10,520 --> 00:44:13,920
Speaker 10: this all the time. I'm gonna I'm in a good

777
00:44:13,960 --> 00:44:17,120
Speaker 10: mood right now. I think it's I think it's good

778
00:44:17,200 --> 00:44:17,560
Speaker 10: right now.

779
00:44:18,960 --> 00:44:23,000
Speaker 2: Well, Garrett, listen, keep it going, doing a beautiful job.

780
00:44:23,719 --> 00:44:26,880
Speaker 2: And watch out for your grandparents, because I know I

781
00:44:26,920 --> 00:44:28,520
Speaker 2: was talking earlier about it. If there is I think

782
00:44:28,560 --> 00:44:30,480
Speaker 2: there is a I think if you reach a hundred,

783
00:44:30,520 --> 00:44:35,440
Speaker 2: you're allowed to murder someone legally. So watch out for

784
00:44:35,480 --> 00:44:37,200
Speaker 2: your grandparents. I don't know how old they are, but

785
00:44:37,520 --> 00:44:38,320
Speaker 2: I don't want to get.

786
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:41,120
Speaker 10: I think they got a little while ago, but I will.

787
00:44:41,200 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 10: I will watch out.

788
00:44:42,200 --> 00:44:44,760
Speaker 2: Thank you, beautiful. Talk to you soon, Garrett.

789
00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:51,520
Speaker 10: Thank you, Talk to you soon. Love you get go.

790
00:44:54,280 --> 00:44:57,200
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Speaker 1: Calls, all from Kevlar.

803
00:45:42,080 --> 00:45:42,600
Speaker 2: What's up?

804
00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:50,920
Speaker 8: I cannot hear you through the phone, dude, they ken?

805
00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:52,640
Speaker 1: Oh no it can.

806
00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:53,120
Speaker 8: Hello?

807
00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:53,520
Speaker 5: Hi?

808
00:45:54,719 --> 00:45:55,600
Speaker 2: Where year were you born?

809
00:45:56,680 --> 00:45:59,080
Speaker 8: I was born in nineteen ninety seven. Sorry, I just

810
00:45:59,120 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 8: have an anxiety. Or how are you tonight?

811
00:46:01,640 --> 00:46:04,080
Speaker 2: I was born in nineteen ninety Oh.

812
00:46:04,160 --> 00:46:08,440
Speaker 8: Word, I was born exactly a week before Halloween. And then,

813
00:46:08,480 --> 00:46:10,719
Speaker 8: honestly is one of my favorite things, big fan of

814
00:46:10,760 --> 00:46:11,399
Speaker 8: Halloween me.

815
00:46:12,560 --> 00:46:14,280
Speaker 2: You're born a week before Halloween?

816
00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:16,880
Speaker 8: Yeah, October twenty fourth.

817
00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:20,800
Speaker 2: October twenty I was born a week before Halloween.

818
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:23,640
Speaker 8: Were you did you?

819
00:46:24,120 --> 00:46:25,000
Speaker 4: Huh?

820
00:46:27,080 --> 00:46:27,719
Speaker 8: Is your birthday?

821
00:46:27,719 --> 00:46:29,680
Speaker 2: Are you feeling? Are you feeling good right now? You

822
00:46:29,719 --> 00:46:32,480
Speaker 2: said that you have anxiety. I hope I'm not causing

823
00:46:32,520 --> 00:46:35,000
Speaker 2: it to go through the roof right now.

824
00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:39,799
Speaker 8: No, you're totally good. I just was startled at my

825
00:46:40,000 --> 00:46:43,279
Speaker 8: inability to mute my TV, so I ran into a

826
00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:45,359
Speaker 8: closet and on now I'm hanging out with my cat,

827
00:46:45,440 --> 00:46:50,960
Speaker 8: who is just as excited as I am. Anyway, how

828
00:46:50,960 --> 00:46:51,560
Speaker 8: are you today?

829
00:46:54,880 --> 00:46:55,080
Speaker 5: Come?

830
00:46:55,120 --> 00:47:02,640
Speaker 2: A few things. I'm trying to be more open. I'm

831
00:47:02,680 --> 00:47:09,120
Speaker 2: trying to love everything that happens, trying to love everyone

832
00:47:09,160 --> 00:47:13,080
Speaker 2: I meet. It's not easy, but.

833
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:15,359
Speaker 7: You know.

834
00:47:18,239 --> 00:47:20,960
Speaker 2: There's no other option, really.

835
00:47:22,600 --> 00:47:27,400
Speaker 8: Absolutely right. I've recently also been dealing with facing my

836
00:47:27,440 --> 00:47:32,080
Speaker 8: own I'm gonna say this word wrong, cynicism.

837
00:47:32,600 --> 00:47:36,000
Speaker 2: When you're cynical, Oh you're cynical?

838
00:47:37,560 --> 00:47:43,160
Speaker 8: Well yeah, I've always been like super kind and pushover

839
00:47:43,400 --> 00:47:45,799
Speaker 8: like most of my life, and then I went through

840
00:47:45,880 --> 00:47:51,000
Speaker 8: a pretty bad breakup and just kind of started being

841
00:47:51,160 --> 00:47:54,240
Speaker 8: mad and like hateful, and I hated it. It felt

842
00:47:54,280 --> 00:47:58,840
Speaker 8: gross and nasty. So recently I've been working on not

843
00:47:59,040 --> 00:47:59,440
Speaker 8: doing that.

844
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:05,000
Speaker 2: Do you feel hateful currently, David Day?

845
00:48:06,239 --> 00:48:10,520
Speaker 8: I don't know if I feel hateful. I think I

846
00:48:10,560 --> 00:48:16,360
Speaker 8: called it hate because it's easier than like actually looking

847
00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:18,720
Speaker 8: at it. I think it mostly just comes from fear,

848
00:48:19,400 --> 00:48:26,280
Speaker 8: fear of I don't know, change, getting hurt, hurting other people,

849
00:48:27,440 --> 00:48:33,319
Speaker 8: being wrong. But when you live in fear, you just

850
00:48:33,360 --> 00:48:34,160
Speaker 8: don't grow, you know.

851
00:48:38,000 --> 00:48:45,120
Speaker 2: So, what have been some of your What have been

852
00:48:45,160 --> 00:48:48,560
Speaker 2: some of your strategies on dealing with this hate that

853
00:48:48,640 --> 00:48:49,640
Speaker 2: you have in your heart?

854
00:48:54,880 --> 00:49:00,040
Speaker 8: Lots of like empathy, honestly taking a look at the

855
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:03,600
Speaker 8: situation and thinking like, maybe he cut me off because

856
00:49:03,640 --> 00:49:05,440
Speaker 8: he's having a really bad day, or he needs to

857
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:10,560
Speaker 8: get home quick. Maybe there is nothing wrong with the

858
00:49:10,560 --> 00:49:12,640
Speaker 8: rest of the day. It was just a bad moment

859
00:49:14,080 --> 00:49:16,920
Speaker 8: in that made no sense.

860
00:49:16,960 --> 00:49:22,000
Speaker 2: But why is everyone so upset? Everyone's so obsessed with

861
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:26,640
Speaker 2: making sense all the time? Who cares makes sense to who? Who?

862
00:49:26,440 --> 00:49:29,399
Speaker 2: Who decides what makes sense? You said it it makes

863
00:49:29,400 --> 00:49:32,040
Speaker 2: sense to you, doesn't it? Well then well then goddamn

864
00:49:32,080 --> 00:49:35,120
Speaker 2: that's all that matters. Who gives a shit about sense?

865
00:49:35,200 --> 00:49:38,120
Speaker 2: What even his sense? Who's the arbiter of sense? Who

866
00:49:38,200 --> 00:49:41,480
Speaker 2: is the judge of sense? Who's balancing the fucking books

867
00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:45,399
Speaker 2: of sense to determine what does and does not make it?

868
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Speaker 11: All?

869
00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:49,040
Speaker 2: Right? You know, Look, if you decide that something makes sense,

870
00:49:49,080 --> 00:49:50,880
Speaker 2: that it makes fucking sense, goddamn it.

871
00:49:51,800 --> 00:49:52,000
Speaker 7: Fuck.

872
00:49:52,080 --> 00:49:58,080
Speaker 8: Yeah, dude, I needed that great. Honestly, I've recently been

873
00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:06,480
Speaker 8: super into poetry and books, and yeah, with my dyslexy,

874
00:50:06,480 --> 00:50:08,560
Speaker 8: it's hard to be as eloquent as I feel like

875
00:50:08,600 --> 00:50:11,560
Speaker 8: I can be, So I appreciated that sentiment.

876
00:50:11,920 --> 00:50:14,720
Speaker 2: No, dude, dude, you ever read a poem?

877
00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:15,160
Speaker 5: Yeah?

878
00:50:15,400 --> 00:50:20,160
Speaker 2: Poems make no fucking sense. They make they make no sense,

879
00:50:20,239 --> 00:50:23,680
Speaker 2: and then everyone's like, but that the thing is they

880
00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:28,319
Speaker 2: everyone accepts it as making sense because the poet is

881
00:50:28,880 --> 00:50:32,000
Speaker 2: they put it out confidently, and they trick everyone to

882
00:50:32,080 --> 00:50:35,319
Speaker 2: thinking that it makes sense. Look at the lyrics, by

883
00:50:35,360 --> 00:50:38,400
Speaker 2: the way, look at the lyrics of any song. They

884
00:50:38,440 --> 00:50:41,080
Speaker 2: don't make sense. They don't song lyrics don't make.

885
00:50:41,000 --> 00:50:46,160
Speaker 8: Sense absolutely, But I I'm gonna look at.

886
00:50:46,080 --> 00:50:47,960
Speaker 2: The lyrics right now. They don't make any fucking suss.

887
00:50:48,440 --> 00:50:51,279
Speaker 8: Oh shit, fuck, what is my favorite song?

888
00:50:51,360 --> 00:50:52,839
Speaker 2: Let's do a song? A song?

889
00:50:53,320 --> 00:50:55,279
Speaker 8: I got the perfect song for you. No No, No

890
00:50:55,280 --> 00:50:59,440
Speaker 8: No by mc rna.

891
00:51:01,239 --> 00:51:08,160
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, all right, the future is bulletproof the

892
00:51:08,239 --> 00:51:12,520
Speaker 2: aftermath of secondary that doesn't make any sense. It doesn't

893
00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:13,440
Speaker 2: make any sense.

894
00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:19,200
Speaker 8: You're gonna get to the fun parts.

895
00:51:19,560 --> 00:51:21,879
Speaker 2: Drugs. Give me drugs. I don't need it, but I'll

896
00:51:21,920 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 2: sell what you got. What does what does that mean?

897
00:51:24,600 --> 00:51:26,000
Speaker 2: I'll sell what you got?

898
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:31,120
Speaker 8: I that's an excellent question. Could the drugs be standing

899
00:51:31,200 --> 00:51:34,720
Speaker 8: for human interaction or actual drugs?

900
00:51:36,719 --> 00:51:39,400
Speaker 2: Take the cash and I'll keep it. Why But if

901
00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:42,359
Speaker 2: you're taking the cash, why is he keeping it? Eight

902
00:51:42,440 --> 00:51:44,799
Speaker 2: legs to the wall now, he's talking about legs. What

903
00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:47,600
Speaker 2: does that mean? But he made a million dollars and

904
00:51:48,640 --> 00:51:51,040
Speaker 2: he puts out a song and everyone listens to the

905
00:51:51,080 --> 00:51:53,319
Speaker 2: song and they go yeah, and it just fucking They

906
00:51:53,400 --> 00:51:55,759
Speaker 2: trick you into thinking that their words make sense and

907
00:51:55,800 --> 00:51:58,000
Speaker 2: that they're cool, but they don't. All they did is

908
00:51:58,040 --> 00:52:03,400
Speaker 2: they fucking the hell themselves in a way that convinced

909
00:52:03,400 --> 00:52:05,880
Speaker 2: you that they do. That's all that you need. You

910
00:52:05,880 --> 00:52:07,600
Speaker 2: don't need to make sense. You just need to convince

911
00:52:07,640 --> 00:52:10,440
Speaker 2: people that you do. I don't make any fucking sense.

912
00:52:12,200 --> 00:52:12,800
Speaker 11: That's valid.

913
00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:17,600
Speaker 8: I think that's an excellent description of art, though, is

914
00:52:17,600 --> 00:52:20,360
Speaker 8: taking the nonsensical and making you feel something from.

915
00:52:20,200 --> 00:52:27,800
Speaker 2: It, from male, from all security to every enemy standing

916
00:52:27,880 --> 00:52:29,920
Speaker 2: in v formation. Let's blow an artery.

917
00:52:30,080 --> 00:52:35,360
Speaker 13: Even I'm so kious.

918
00:52:35,680 --> 00:52:38,960
Speaker 2: Kissed me off, but you've also fired me up, and

919
00:52:39,080 --> 00:52:42,480
Speaker 2: I'm excited by this. I'm excited by this.

920
00:52:43,200 --> 00:52:45,360
Speaker 8: Hey, double edged sword, glad I could provide?

921
00:52:46,200 --> 00:52:52,400
Speaker 2: Like what is let me look up like a Kendrick Lamars.

922
00:52:54,080 --> 00:52:59,240
Speaker 8: I think there are like, there are ways that people

923
00:52:59,239 --> 00:53:02,240
Speaker 8: can weave words that are rather beautiful and intent.

924
00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:04,960
Speaker 2: It's beautiful. Look, I never said it wasn't beautiful. I

925
00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:13,600
Speaker 2: never said it doesn't leave people over. I never said

926
00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:15,840
Speaker 2: it wasn't beautiful. I never said that people aren't making

927
00:53:15,880 --> 00:53:18,400
Speaker 2: things that people enjoy. But all I'm saying is that

928
00:53:18,440 --> 00:53:20,520
Speaker 2: if you take away the artistry, if you take away

929
00:53:20,560 --> 00:53:23,600
Speaker 2: the name brands, you take away the melodies, you take

930
00:53:23,640 --> 00:53:26,680
Speaker 2: away the coolness, you say, you leave rich just the

931
00:53:26,719 --> 00:53:31,400
Speaker 2: words they fucking no song makes fucking sense.

932
00:53:31,960 --> 00:53:36,040
Speaker 10: Ever, why does.

933
00:53:35,920 --> 00:53:37,920
Speaker 8: That give me so much hope? Though? Why does that

934
00:53:37,960 --> 00:53:38,839
Speaker 8: make much?

935
00:53:38,880 --> 00:53:44,320
Speaker 2: Because it's because the walls or what's your name again, Kevlar, Kevlar,

936
00:53:44,480 --> 00:53:47,200
Speaker 2: The walls are coming down for you. It gives you

937
00:53:47,239 --> 00:53:51,880
Speaker 2: hope because you because it fucking these people who we

938
00:53:51,960 --> 00:53:54,560
Speaker 2: all think are geniuses, they don't make any fucking sense.

939
00:53:54,840 --> 00:53:57,759
Speaker 2: Then you have the liberty now to not make any sense.

940
00:53:57,920 --> 00:54:02,360
Speaker 2: Just say words out in to the thing you and

941
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:05,000
Speaker 2: you should feel liberated to do that. Kevlar.

942
00:54:05,960 --> 00:54:09,480
Speaker 8: I think I will. I think I will great strangers

943
00:54:09,480 --> 00:54:13,000
Speaker 8: with words. Oh Jesus Christ, sorry, my cat just broke

944
00:54:13,080 --> 00:54:14,920
Speaker 8: into the room.

945
00:54:15,000 --> 00:54:19,480
Speaker 2: Good. Thank you so much for calling, Kevlar. You have

946
00:54:19,480 --> 00:54:20,480
Speaker 2: a oneer for us to the night.

947
00:54:21,080 --> 00:54:23,960
Speaker 8: Thanks for your time, though, Take care.

948
00:54:25,800 --> 00:54:25,960
Speaker 1: All.

949
00:54:26,080 --> 00:54:35,080
Speaker 2: From Quincy Quincy, John Quincy Adams, dude, get.

950
00:54:34,840 --> 00:54:37,720
Speaker 13: Go, that's me man, Quincy.

951
00:54:39,080 --> 00:54:43,320
Speaker 2: Uh, so, Quincy, have we just spoken before? Quincy?

952
00:54:43,840 --> 00:54:45,960
Speaker 13: No, dude, I've been watching you for a couple of

953
00:54:45,960 --> 00:54:49,120
Speaker 13: months and I call almost every time, but I've never

954
00:54:49,160 --> 00:54:49,719
Speaker 13: made it through.

955
00:54:51,320 --> 00:54:54,640
Speaker 2: Really, what do you think, man? What do you think

956
00:54:54,719 --> 00:54:56,319
Speaker 2: is so special about tonight that you did?

957
00:54:56,560 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 4: Like?

958
00:54:56,719 --> 00:54:58,960
Speaker 2: Do you think that? I don't know, man, I don't

959
00:54:58,960 --> 00:55:01,120
Speaker 2: know if I believe I don't. Actually I do know.

960
00:55:01,120 --> 00:55:03,000
Speaker 2: If I don't believe in anything, I think that everything

961
00:55:03,080 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 2: is purely coincidental. But I mean you do you think that,

962
00:55:08,080 --> 00:55:11,640
Speaker 2: like the stars are you know, fucking rhombus shape or

963
00:55:11,680 --> 00:55:14,440
Speaker 2: something and that means that you'll get into this random

964
00:55:14,480 --> 00:55:17,400
Speaker 2: twitch calling show? Or do you think it just happens?

965
00:55:18,719 --> 00:55:18,959
Speaker 4: Dude?

966
00:55:19,000 --> 00:55:22,080
Speaker 13: You know, maybe I'm not really sure. I was playing

967
00:55:22,160 --> 00:55:27,000
Speaker 13: Zelda and maybe that could be a sign because Zelda's

968
00:55:27,560 --> 00:55:28,160
Speaker 13: pretty sick.

969
00:55:29,400 --> 00:55:31,840
Speaker 2: I think that makes a lot of sense. Also, Zelda

970
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:34,760
Speaker 2: y green, well not Zelda, but Link is a character

971
00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:37,399
Speaker 2: in Zelda and he is green. He was a green

972
00:55:37,480 --> 00:55:42,279
Speaker 2: tunic and I wear I am green. I'm a little green. Yeah,

973
00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:44,680
Speaker 2: I'm a little I'm not a little green. I'm very green.

974
00:55:44,719 --> 00:55:46,440
Speaker 2: What were you going to say before I talked over you?

975
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:47,239
Speaker 4: Oh?

976
00:55:47,320 --> 00:55:49,120
Speaker 13: There was nothing I was going to say, you're basically

977
00:55:49,280 --> 00:55:51,600
Speaker 13: link himself in the flesh as a get go.

978
00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:53,800
Speaker 2: I feel a lot like link.

979
00:55:56,640 --> 00:55:57,319
Speaker 13: Well that's good.

980
00:55:57,760 --> 00:55:59,160
Speaker 2: Should I get my sword?

981
00:55:59,640 --> 00:56:02,960
Speaker 13: I have a You haven't, bro, Yeah, I think you should.

982
00:56:03,080 --> 00:56:03,279
Speaker 1: Dude.

983
00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:14,280
Speaker 13: Yeah, well I'm not watching the stream, but yeah.

984
00:56:11,360 --> 00:56:13,520
Speaker 2: Hold on, I'm gonna hold a sword while we talked.

985
00:56:14,520 --> 00:56:23,000
Speaker 13: Sweet dude. Is it a cool sword?

986
00:56:40,960 --> 00:56:42,440
Speaker 2: Quincy?

987
00:56:43,239 --> 00:56:43,520
Speaker 5: Yep?

988
00:56:44,160 --> 00:56:47,719
Speaker 2: Someone said it's a Gladius, a Gladias.

989
00:56:47,840 --> 00:56:51,239
Speaker 13: I have no idea. I'm not a I'm not really

990
00:56:51,239 --> 00:56:53,600
Speaker 13: into swords. It sounds cool, though.

991
00:56:58,000 --> 00:56:59,959
Speaker 2: Hey, Quincy, yep?

992
00:57:01,880 --> 00:57:04,680
Speaker 4: What time is it, Jude?

993
00:57:04,760 --> 00:57:09,839
Speaker 13: You know, I think I think it's time I I

994
00:57:09,840 --> 00:57:10,680
Speaker 13: found myself.

995
00:57:13,640 --> 00:57:14,960
Speaker 2: I guess time you found yourself?

996
00:57:15,960 --> 00:57:17,920
Speaker 13: Yeah?

997
00:57:18,360 --> 00:57:19,040
Speaker 2: Where are you looking?

998
00:57:21,640 --> 00:57:22,000
Speaker 4: Hmmm?

999
00:57:23,720 --> 00:57:26,800
Speaker 13: You know, I think for a long time i've I've

1000
00:57:26,840 --> 00:57:31,080
Speaker 13: looked in other people, and I think it's time I

1001
00:57:31,120 --> 00:57:36,640
Speaker 13: start exploring my own experiences to truly discover who I am.

1002
00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:39,840
Speaker 13: How old you I'm twenty one?

1003
00:57:40,920 --> 00:57:43,000
Speaker 2: Yeah? Good age? Good age for that.

1004
00:57:43,720 --> 00:57:46,840
Speaker 13: Yeah, man, it's good people. Yep.

1005
00:57:47,800 --> 00:57:49,680
Speaker 2: What do you find in these other people when you

1006
00:57:49,680 --> 00:57:50,520
Speaker 2: look for yourself in that?

1007
00:57:52,240 --> 00:57:57,200
Speaker 13: Well, you know, that's a good question. I don't have

1008
00:57:57,240 --> 00:58:00,520
Speaker 13: a ton of relationships in my life outside. Like I

1009
00:58:00,560 --> 00:58:03,080
Speaker 13: have an awesome family, but like I don't have a

1010
00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:06,960
Speaker 13: ton of friends. And you know, they're friends I've had

1011
00:58:06,960 --> 00:58:10,880
Speaker 13: a long time, and you know, people change, they're still

1012
00:58:10,920 --> 00:58:14,640
Speaker 13: great friends. But I'm realizing that I'm a lot different

1013
00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:17,640
Speaker 13: than a lot of my friends and that I need

1014
00:58:17,680 --> 00:58:20,200
Speaker 13: to discover what makes me happy.

1015
00:58:21,280 --> 00:58:24,920
Speaker 2: So you have a few friends, you say, yeah, in

1016
00:58:24,920 --> 00:58:26,440
Speaker 2: what way do you believe that you're a lot different

1017
00:58:26,440 --> 00:58:28,200
Speaker 2: from them?

1018
00:58:29,680 --> 00:58:33,240
Speaker 13: Okay, So, like my roommate we just moved in together,

1019
00:58:33,280 --> 00:58:36,480
Speaker 13: but we've been friends since like middle school, and like,

1020
00:58:37,200 --> 00:58:39,840
Speaker 13: I'm really trying to like put myself out there. And

1021
00:58:40,560 --> 00:58:42,680
Speaker 13: you know, I'm pretty introverted. I have a lot of

1022
00:58:42,800 --> 00:58:47,439
Speaker 13: social anxiety, and so I'm really trying to, especially after

1023
00:58:47,440 --> 00:58:50,400
Speaker 13: the pandemic, to make new friends. And he's just like

1024
00:58:50,520 --> 00:58:53,840
Speaker 13: not into it. You know, he just wants to stay

1025
00:58:53,880 --> 00:58:57,960
Speaker 13: inside and play video games, which is cool, you know

1026
00:58:58,080 --> 00:59:01,320
Speaker 13: that's him, and I've kind of had to realize I

1027
00:59:01,400 --> 00:59:02,440
Speaker 13: just got to do my own thing.

1028
00:59:03,280 --> 00:59:05,080
Speaker 2: So you're sort of saying to your friend, You're like,

1029
00:59:05,200 --> 00:59:07,480
Speaker 2: let's go out, let's go to a thing, Let's go

1030
00:59:07,640 --> 00:59:09,360
Speaker 2: and and I don't want to go alone, but it's

1031
00:59:09,360 --> 00:59:11,920
Speaker 2: easier for me if I've got a buddy going with

1032
00:59:11,960 --> 00:59:14,760
Speaker 2: me to this fucking party or whatever it is to

1033
00:59:14,800 --> 00:59:16,520
Speaker 2: meet new people. Is that what's going But he doesn't

1034
00:59:16,520 --> 00:59:17,960
Speaker 2: want to go He wants to play video games? Is

1035
00:59:17,960 --> 00:59:18,640
Speaker 2: that what's going on?

1036
00:59:19,040 --> 00:59:19,440
Speaker 11: Yeah?

1037
00:59:19,520 --> 00:59:23,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, basically, you know, let.

1038
00:59:23,560 --> 00:59:25,120
Speaker 2: Me ask you. Do you do a lot of shit alone?

1039
00:59:25,160 --> 00:59:26,160
Speaker 2: Do you ever go to you ever go to a

1040
00:59:26,160 --> 00:59:28,040
Speaker 2: movie alone? Ever go to a museum? Oh?

1041
00:59:28,120 --> 00:59:31,960
Speaker 13: Yeah, dude, Yeah, I mean basically every all the time.

1042
00:59:34,040 --> 00:59:36,160
Speaker 2: Good. I think that's a good skill to have. A

1043
00:59:36,160 --> 00:59:37,160
Speaker 2: lot of people can't do that.

1044
00:59:38,160 --> 00:59:38,680
Speaker 1: I do too.

1045
00:59:39,040 --> 00:59:41,200
Speaker 13: It's yeah, I think it's it's a good thing most

1046
00:59:41,200 --> 00:59:41,600
Speaker 13: of the time.

1047
00:59:43,480 --> 00:59:45,240
Speaker 2: Well, it sounds like you've already had a lot of

1048
00:59:45,280 --> 00:59:48,520
Speaker 2: experience doing things alone. So you know these parties or

1049
00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:51,040
Speaker 2: I mean, am I correct me? Are these parties or

1050
00:59:51,080 --> 00:59:52,960
Speaker 2: these like what are these things that you want your

1051
00:59:52,960 --> 00:59:54,080
Speaker 2: buddy to go do with you that?

1052
00:59:54,800 --> 00:59:54,960
Speaker 4: Oh?

1053
00:59:55,280 --> 00:59:55,840
Speaker 3: Not so much.

1054
00:59:55,920 --> 00:59:59,400
Speaker 13: People like parties, but like, you know, just maybe getting

1055
00:59:59,400 --> 01:00:02,160
Speaker 13: together with and friends and like some of I guess

1056
01:00:02,240 --> 01:00:04,840
Speaker 13: it's like a party, or like going on a hike

1057
01:00:04,920 --> 01:00:09,160
Speaker 13: with some people we haven't met before, or like going

1058
01:00:09,200 --> 01:00:12,800
Speaker 13: to a new restaurant, you know, just like trying new things.

1059
01:00:13,440 --> 01:00:15,600
Speaker 2: Well, what is your connection to Well, how what is

1060
01:00:15,640 --> 01:00:17,440
Speaker 2: your connection to these people that you haven't met before?

1061
01:00:17,880 --> 01:00:18,720
Speaker 2: How would you meet.

1062
01:00:18,600 --> 01:00:20,920
Speaker 13: Them through school?

1063
01:00:20,960 --> 01:00:21,320
Speaker 1: Mostly?

1064
01:00:23,960 --> 01:00:27,640
Speaker 2: What's stopping you from just hanging out with these people

1065
01:00:27,640 --> 01:00:31,480
Speaker 2: you never met before without your currently existent friends.

1066
01:00:32,600 --> 01:00:35,400
Speaker 13: Well, nothing, I guess, you know. I just I get anxious.

1067
01:00:36,080 --> 01:00:38,040
Speaker 13: You know, it's hard. Like I can go do things

1068
01:00:38,080 --> 01:00:40,240
Speaker 13: by myself. I can go to a movie or I

1069
01:00:40,240 --> 01:00:43,480
Speaker 13: can go get food, but like going and like meeting

1070
01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:48,000
Speaker 13: a bunch of brand new people is really hard.

1071
01:00:48,760 --> 01:00:51,720
Speaker 2: Why is it hard? Oh?

1072
01:00:51,880 --> 01:00:56,160
Speaker 13: Man? You know, I think I'm just worried about how

1073
01:00:56,200 --> 01:01:01,640
Speaker 13: people perceive me so much so that I and perceiving

1074
01:01:01,680 --> 01:01:04,760
Speaker 13: them and how they're perceiving me that I'm just convinced

1075
01:01:05,160 --> 01:01:08,440
Speaker 13: that you know, you know, I look like idiot or

1076
01:01:09,080 --> 01:01:11,880
Speaker 13: you know, I'm saying stupid things when in reality, you know,

1077
01:01:12,720 --> 01:01:17,760
Speaker 13: I'm probably being somewhat normal, but it all gets construed

1078
01:01:17,760 --> 01:01:20,360
Speaker 13: in my head. And so, you know, having someone their helps.

1079
01:01:21,400 --> 01:01:23,959
Speaker 2: So you you just said, now that you perceive them,

1080
01:01:24,200 --> 01:01:28,480
Speaker 2: you're you're freaked out by the idea of people perceiving

1081
01:01:28,480 --> 01:01:30,920
Speaker 2: you the way that you perceived them.

1082
01:01:31,200 --> 01:01:32,120
Speaker 13: Yeah, exactly.

1083
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:37,040
Speaker 2: So what I think, you know, a sort of a

1084
01:01:37,160 --> 01:01:41,360
Speaker 2: cure to this is well, how do you perceive other people?

1085
01:01:41,680 --> 01:01:44,920
Speaker 2: Do you look at other people and go this person's like,

1086
01:01:44,960 --> 01:01:47,000
Speaker 2: do you do you? Do you consider yourself judging? Do

1087
01:01:47,040 --> 01:01:50,200
Speaker 2: you judge people a lot and make opinions about people

1088
01:01:50,240 --> 01:01:51,920
Speaker 2: when you perceive them?

1089
01:01:52,360 --> 01:01:54,880
Speaker 13: You know, I really make an effort not to, you know,

1090
01:01:54,920 --> 01:01:56,880
Speaker 13: I think I do sometimes obviously.

1091
01:01:57,600 --> 01:01:57,720
Speaker 1: You know.

1092
01:01:57,760 --> 01:02:00,640
Speaker 13: I've heard you say on the stream before that You're

1093
01:02:01,760 --> 01:02:05,240
Speaker 13: goal is to understand and to not judge, And I

1094
01:02:05,280 --> 01:02:07,360
Speaker 13: think that's a really good mantra to have, so I

1095
01:02:07,720 --> 01:02:09,320
Speaker 13: try to be that way most of the time.

1096
01:02:09,960 --> 01:02:17,440
Speaker 2: M Yeah, there's sort of a few things to this,

1097
01:02:17,560 --> 01:02:20,520
Speaker 2: And I like this subject a lot because I think

1098
01:02:20,600 --> 01:02:23,240
Speaker 2: that developing the ability to not care what other people

1099
01:02:23,240 --> 01:02:27,640
Speaker 2: think about you is like among the strongest skills you

1100
01:02:27,760 --> 01:02:32,600
Speaker 2: possibly could develop. And you're very young, so I think

1101
01:02:32,640 --> 01:02:34,320
Speaker 2: this is a good time for you to be putting

1102
01:02:34,360 --> 01:02:38,320
Speaker 2: yourself out there. And really it's a long road, I

1103
01:02:38,360 --> 01:02:44,040
Speaker 2: will say, it's a long road of trying to not

1104
01:02:44,160 --> 01:02:50,480
Speaker 2: care what other people think about you. But you know,

1105
01:02:50,560 --> 01:02:53,160
Speaker 2: the sooner you sort of start tracking down on it,

1106
01:02:53,400 --> 01:02:56,200
Speaker 2: the better. Some people will never do. Some people are

1107
01:02:56,240 --> 01:03:02,160
Speaker 2: like fucking fifty years old and they still people think

1108
01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:03,080
Speaker 2: of them.

1109
01:03:03,600 --> 01:03:05,040
Speaker 13: Yeah, that's my worst time.

1110
01:03:08,200 --> 01:03:11,520
Speaker 2: I like that though. I like that you're not judging

1111
01:03:11,520 --> 01:03:13,800
Speaker 2: people because you know you always are fucking judged people

1112
01:03:13,840 --> 01:03:16,560
Speaker 2: the way it was judge yourself the way you judge

1113
01:03:16,560 --> 01:03:17,120
Speaker 2: other people.

1114
01:03:19,960 --> 01:03:20,480
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.

1115
01:03:23,720 --> 01:03:25,080
Speaker 2: Are you gonna do it? Are you gonna try to

1116
01:03:25,080 --> 01:03:26,040
Speaker 2: hang out with these people?

1117
01:03:27,040 --> 01:03:29,000
Speaker 13: Dude, I'm gonna try, you know, I've been trying. This

1118
01:03:29,080 --> 01:03:32,280
Speaker 13: last year obviously has been really hard. But yeah, I'm

1119
01:03:32,320 --> 01:03:34,880
Speaker 13: I'm kind of committed of like signed up to be

1120
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Speaker 13: like a representative in my my college someone like this council,

1121
01:03:39,280 --> 01:03:41,680
Speaker 13: and I'm in a bunch of clubs, so you know,

1122
01:03:41,720 --> 01:03:45,040
Speaker 13: I've got stuff. It'll keep me from bailing hopefully.

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Speaker 2: By the way, fantastic strategy doing something like I like

1124
01:03:51,240 --> 01:03:55,720
Speaker 2: that you're a representative of something. What is this represent Well.

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01:03:55,600 --> 01:03:59,600
Speaker 13: So I'm in the Natural Resource College, so like I'm

1126
01:03:59,640 --> 01:04:02,880
Speaker 13: on the Natural Resource College council, and I represent all

1127
01:04:02,960 --> 01:04:07,240
Speaker 13: the wild land majors or majors When we plan activities

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Speaker 13: and stuff.

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01:04:09,160 --> 01:04:12,640
Speaker 2: There's nothing better because here's the thing that's a great strategy.

1130
01:04:12,840 --> 01:04:16,800
Speaker 2: There's nothing better then signing up for social activities in

1131
01:04:16,840 --> 01:04:22,720
Speaker 2: which your existence there is justified inherently. That's why, Yes,

1132
01:04:22,880 --> 01:04:25,760
Speaker 2: that's why, like because that's the thing is like you know,

1133
01:04:25,760 --> 01:04:27,479
Speaker 2: I know that, Like that's that's what's so great about

1134
01:04:27,480 --> 01:04:29,600
Speaker 2: like being like a bartender or like I know people

1135
01:04:29,760 --> 01:04:32,600
Speaker 2: fucking hate working retail, but like, you know, retail or

1136
01:04:32,600 --> 01:04:35,760
Speaker 2: whatever it is where it's like, you know, you can't

1137
01:04:35,760 --> 01:04:37,760
Speaker 2: be looked at as stupid for talking to people because

1138
01:04:37,800 --> 01:04:40,120
Speaker 2: people have to talk to you because you're the the

1139
01:04:40,360 --> 01:04:46,120
Speaker 2: the basis of the conversation inherently needs to happen for

1140
01:04:46,400 --> 01:04:49,120
Speaker 2: the thing to happen. I didn't explain that correctly, but

1141
01:04:49,160 --> 01:04:49,760
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying.

1142
01:04:49,800 --> 01:04:53,080
Speaker 13: No, I know it's a good strategy. That's that's different though,

1143
01:04:53,120 --> 01:04:55,840
Speaker 13: because like if if I'm working at like like if

1144
01:04:55,880 --> 01:04:59,040
Speaker 13: I'm working at Domino's and someone orders a pizza and

1145
01:04:59,080 --> 01:05:01,920
Speaker 13: I have a conversation with them about Peteza, you know,

1146
01:05:01,960 --> 01:05:05,800
Speaker 13: that's different than going to some activity and having a

1147
01:05:05,840 --> 01:05:10,200
Speaker 13: conversation with someone about my life and like their interests,

1148
01:05:10,520 --> 01:05:12,440
Speaker 13: you know what I mean. Like, there's a lot more

1149
01:05:13,760 --> 01:05:16,760
Speaker 13: I'm putting a lot more of myself out there when

1150
01:05:16,800 --> 01:05:19,360
Speaker 13: it's it's it's an experience, you know, it's not like

1151
01:05:19,400 --> 01:05:22,000
Speaker 13: a workplace environment. But I do think you're right, it's

1152
01:05:22,000 --> 01:05:25,760
Speaker 13: important to put yourself in those situations.

1153
01:05:26,800 --> 01:05:27,840
Speaker 2: Well listen, ma'am, what'd you say?

1154
01:05:27,880 --> 01:05:29,720
Speaker 13: Your name was Quincy?

1155
01:05:30,400 --> 01:05:33,240
Speaker 2: Quincy. Keep going down the road. You know, you're so

1156
01:05:33,400 --> 01:05:35,840
Speaker 2: a young guy. Keep going down the road of trying

1157
01:05:35,880 --> 01:05:41,520
Speaker 2: not to you know, developing your own internal thing and

1158
01:05:41,560 --> 01:05:44,040
Speaker 2: then avoiding one other people to coming to the thoughts

1159
01:05:44,080 --> 01:05:46,120
Speaker 2: of what other people think about you. Keep going down

1160
01:05:46,160 --> 01:05:48,040
Speaker 2: the world. It's not gonna happen overnight, but if you

1161
01:05:48,160 --> 01:05:51,600
Speaker 2: keep hacking at it and you like sort of sort

1162
01:05:51,640 --> 01:05:54,720
Speaker 2: of like what I was talking about the testical cancer guy,

1163
01:05:55,400 --> 01:05:57,800
Speaker 2: where he was like he had this newfound least on life,

1164
01:05:57,800 --> 01:05:58,840
Speaker 2: but he felt like in a few months it was

1165
01:05:58,840 --> 01:06:00,960
Speaker 2: going to fade away. I guarantee if you continue to

1166
01:06:01,040 --> 01:06:02,800
Speaker 2: make that just like in the back of your mind

1167
01:06:02,800 --> 01:06:05,000
Speaker 2: every day, you continue to make that a goal, you

1168
01:06:05,040 --> 01:06:08,760
Speaker 2: continue to enter situations with that in mind. It's gonna

1169
01:06:08,760 --> 01:06:11,880
Speaker 2: happen overnight, but I think you will get there. So

1170
01:06:11,880 --> 01:06:14,000
Speaker 2: you continue to keep it as a as a goal.

1171
01:06:14,320 --> 01:06:17,320
Speaker 13: So keep doing that, all right, I will, thanks.

1172
01:06:17,080 --> 01:06:19,600
Speaker 2: Man, of course, John Quincy Adams. You have good rest

1173
01:06:19,600 --> 01:06:19,760
Speaker 2: of the.

1174
01:06:19,800 --> 01:06:20,880
Speaker 13: Night, you too.

1175
01:06:20,960 --> 01:06:21,280
Speaker 5: I love you.

1176
01:06:21,360 --> 01:06:27,720
Speaker 1: Get all from Ja.

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01:06:29,760 --> 01:06:34,600
Speaker 2: Jay?

1178
01:06:37,080 --> 01:06:39,240
Speaker 4: What Jay.

1179
01:06:40,960 --> 01:06:42,920
Speaker 2: Jay? Turn your stream off?

1180
01:06:43,880 --> 01:06:44,320
Speaker 4: Yeah? Yeah?

1181
01:06:44,360 --> 01:06:44,760
Speaker 10: Hold up?

1182
01:06:45,240 --> 01:06:52,480
Speaker 2: Oh my god, Actually, okay, are you whispering on Are

1183
01:06:52,520 --> 01:06:54,320
Speaker 2: you whispering? Don't? Are you whispering on purpose?

1184
01:06:55,520 --> 01:07:00,000
Speaker 4: No, it's just late and like I'm like my family,

1185
01:07:00,280 --> 01:07:02,600
Speaker 4: well most likely now because my almost watching a soccer

1186
01:07:02,720 --> 01:07:06,240
Speaker 4: game and she was just like yelling stuff.

1187
01:07:06,560 --> 01:07:10,640
Speaker 2: You know, hey Jay? Uh Jay?

1188
01:07:11,560 --> 01:07:11,800
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1189
01:07:12,480 --> 01:07:13,400
Speaker 2: What year were you born?

1190
01:07:15,640 --> 01:07:16,920
Speaker 4: Ninety thing? You know?

1191
01:07:16,960 --> 01:07:22,960
Speaker 2: I nineteen ninety nine. Yeah, that was a good year.

1192
01:07:25,000 --> 01:07:27,920
Speaker 4: How do you know were you like, weren't you like

1193
01:07:28,000 --> 01:07:29,880
Speaker 4: a child or something that age?

1194
01:07:30,640 --> 01:07:33,720
Speaker 2: I've actually, you know, I don't Actually this is my

1195
01:07:33,760 --> 01:07:35,280
Speaker 2: first time talking about this on the stream, but I

1196
01:07:35,320 --> 01:07:36,880
Speaker 2: actually was never a child.

1197
01:07:37,560 --> 01:07:38,040
Speaker 4: Uh huh.

1198
01:07:39,080 --> 01:07:42,720
Speaker 2: Interesting when I was I was actually when I was born,

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01:07:42,800 --> 01:07:44,520
Speaker 2: I was fifteen years old.

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01:07:45,200 --> 01:07:48,120
Speaker 4: Wow. Cool, poor child.

1201
01:07:48,800 --> 01:07:50,360
Speaker 2: So I went to high school and shit, but I

1202
01:07:50,400 --> 01:07:51,960
Speaker 2: was never like a small I was never like a

1203
01:07:52,000 --> 01:07:55,080
Speaker 2: baby or a toddler or anything. I just went straight

1204
01:07:55,120 --> 01:07:57,760
Speaker 2: into high school. It was jarring.

1205
01:08:00,640 --> 01:08:01,560
Speaker 4: I'm sorry about that.

1206
01:08:03,120 --> 01:08:05,800
Speaker 2: I mean, it's not to be sorry. It's in the room.

1207
01:08:06,680 --> 01:08:07,200
Speaker 2: It sucks.

1208
01:08:11,920 --> 01:08:13,440
Speaker 4: I'm so sorry about me.

1209
01:08:16,479 --> 01:08:19,080
Speaker 2: Are you wearing Are you wearing like a muzzle or

1210
01:08:19,080 --> 01:08:21,080
Speaker 2: something or a mask? It's like, I don't know if

1211
01:08:21,080 --> 01:08:31,599
Speaker 2: anyone could hear this, but give me one to my mother.

1212
01:08:34,680 --> 01:08:35,080
Speaker 6: The room.

1213
01:08:35,360 --> 01:08:38,360
Speaker 2: All right, listen, we gotta we gotta ja, ja ja,

1214
01:08:39,360 --> 01:08:40,479
Speaker 2: We gotta focus here.

1215
01:08:41,240 --> 01:08:42,360
Speaker 4: Okay, I'm focusing this.

1216
01:08:43,680 --> 01:08:45,280
Speaker 2: What do you? Who are you?

1217
01:08:46,720 --> 01:08:55,479
Speaker 4: I'm Jay, Am I are you? I don't know. I

1218
01:08:55,520 --> 01:08:58,240
Speaker 4: think I'm having like an adrenaline rush right now.

1219
01:08:58,760 --> 01:09:00,760
Speaker 2: Something. Yeah, I think so. I think something's going on.

1220
01:09:01,880 --> 01:09:04,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, my sister's staring me down.

1221
01:09:04,160 --> 01:09:06,360
Speaker 2: Now, your sister's staring you down.

1222
01:09:07,200 --> 01:09:07,880
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1223
01:09:08,080 --> 01:09:09,960
Speaker 2: Here here, let's do this. Let's do this, and I

1224
01:09:10,080 --> 01:09:11,200
Speaker 2: promise I'll come back to you.

1225
01:09:11,280 --> 01:09:11,360
Speaker 4: Ja.

1226
01:09:11,479 --> 01:09:14,000
Speaker 2: I promise I won't leave you hanging. But let me

1227
01:09:14,000 --> 01:09:15,479
Speaker 2: talk to your sister real quick, and then we'll come

1228
01:09:15,520 --> 01:09:15,840
Speaker 2: back to you.

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01:09:16,880 --> 01:09:18,720
Speaker 4: Okay, here, my sister.

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01:09:20,600 --> 01:09:26,920
Speaker 2: H Hello, Hello, how are you?

1231
01:09:27,960 --> 01:09:28,320
Speaker 4: I'm good?

1232
01:09:28,320 --> 01:09:29,200
Speaker 12: How are you?

1233
01:09:29,320 --> 01:09:29,880
Speaker 2: What's your name?

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01:09:31,680 --> 01:09:33,240
Speaker 12: My name is Cia.

1235
01:09:34,479 --> 01:09:39,960
Speaker 2: Sea? Yeah, Sia Sea. What's going on with Jay? He

1236
01:09:39,960 --> 01:09:41,920
Speaker 2: seems like he's having a panic attack of some sort

1237
01:09:44,360 --> 01:09:49,519
Speaker 2: for what, like, for what reason do I assume that?

1238
01:09:50,760 --> 01:09:51,120
Speaker 7: Yeah?

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01:09:52,439 --> 01:09:57,920
Speaker 12: Ohat, you know who you are? It's okay, it's okay.

1240
01:09:58,720 --> 01:10:00,760
Speaker 2: I don't know what realization did you just come to

1241
01:10:00,880 --> 01:10:01,679
Speaker 2: right now? I'm lost?

1242
01:10:03,560 --> 01:10:03,880
Speaker 7: Uh no.

1243
01:10:03,960 --> 01:10:07,240
Speaker 12: He probably also suffers from hallucination because the dog is

1244
01:10:07,280 --> 01:10:07,880
Speaker 12: in the house.

1245
01:10:08,360 --> 01:10:09,360
Speaker 5: But we have no dog.

1246
01:10:11,240 --> 01:10:11,880
Speaker 12: No we don't.

1247
01:10:11,960 --> 01:10:12,800
Speaker 4: It's all in your head.

1248
01:10:16,439 --> 01:10:19,200
Speaker 12: I just opened the door. But if we have no dog,

1249
01:10:24,280 --> 01:10:25,479
Speaker 12: do you see what I'm dealing with?

1250
01:10:27,439 --> 01:10:29,040
Speaker 2: I really actually don't.

1251
01:10:30,080 --> 01:10:34,680
Speaker 12: Okay, he thinks we have a dog and it was

1252
01:10:34,800 --> 01:10:39,160
Speaker 12: just me opening the door. But we have no dogs.

1253
01:10:39,960 --> 01:10:43,120
Speaker 4: We don't own dogs. We own birds, but not dogs.

1254
01:10:43,640 --> 01:10:46,840
Speaker 2: So your brother thinks that you have a dog. Why

1255
01:10:46,840 --> 01:10:48,040
Speaker 2: does he think you have a dog?

1256
01:10:49,400 --> 01:10:53,720
Speaker 12: I don't know. After a while, he just wanted to

1257
01:10:53,760 --> 01:10:54,920
Speaker 12: have a hallucinations.

1258
01:10:56,640 --> 01:10:57,880
Speaker 2: He has hallucinations.

1259
01:10:59,560 --> 01:11:03,080
Speaker 12: Yeah, it's a you know what, It's okay because I

1260
01:11:03,200 --> 01:11:06,880
Speaker 12: like to play along with his hallucinations and just be like,

1261
01:11:06,960 --> 01:11:09,559
Speaker 12: oh yeah, yeah, yeah the dog. He's like, oh my

1262
01:11:09,600 --> 01:11:11,120
Speaker 12: DoD just came in the door room and I was

1263
01:11:11,160 --> 01:11:12,719
Speaker 12: like yeah, yeah I did.

1264
01:11:14,479 --> 01:11:19,599
Speaker 7: Okay, But anyway.

1265
01:11:18,479 --> 01:11:23,120
Speaker 2: So yeah, so okay, So what is is he? Is he? Okay?

1266
01:11:23,280 --> 01:11:25,760
Speaker 2: Is he having some sort of because when I was

1267
01:11:25,800 --> 01:11:28,080
Speaker 2: trying to talk to him, if he felt like he

1268
01:11:28,200 --> 01:11:31,320
Speaker 2: was like seventy percent there?

1269
01:11:34,280 --> 01:11:36,080
Speaker 12: How how long if I tell you they were like

1270
01:11:36,160 --> 01:11:37,280
Speaker 12: sixty percent is there?

1271
01:11:38,240 --> 01:11:41,120
Speaker 2: You you think sixty only sixty percent of him is there?

1272
01:11:42,240 --> 01:11:42,679
Speaker 7: Probably?

1273
01:11:42,800 --> 01:11:44,840
Speaker 12: I mean if he thinks we have a dog when

1274
01:11:44,880 --> 01:11:48,000
Speaker 12: we only have birds? Then how much is gone?

1275
01:11:50,439 --> 01:11:52,000
Speaker 2: How long has he thought you had a dog?

1276
01:11:55,360 --> 01:11:57,439
Speaker 12: Well, he just told me that he's talking to a gecko.

1277
01:11:57,600 --> 01:11:58,360
Speaker 12: Are you the gecko?

1278
01:11:58,960 --> 01:11:59,759
Speaker 2: I am the gecko.

1279
01:12:00,520 --> 01:12:03,080
Speaker 12: Okay, then that will that will make him a little

1280
01:12:03,080 --> 01:12:05,439
Speaker 12: bit rational. But I don't know. About three years after

1281
01:12:05,560 --> 01:12:11,679
Speaker 12: the accident, are you okay?

1282
01:12:12,040 --> 01:12:14,880
Speaker 2: Are you asking me or him him?

1283
01:12:15,000 --> 01:12:16,679
Speaker 12: I don't know what the fuck he's laughing about.

1284
01:12:18,880 --> 01:12:20,599
Speaker 2: Did you say something about an accident?

1285
01:12:21,960 --> 01:12:26,080
Speaker 12: Yeah, not really, not a really big one who would

1286
01:12:26,080 --> 01:12:28,240
Speaker 12: just on a bike and then he just like flag

1287
01:12:28,880 --> 01:12:36,160
Speaker 12: himself against a car. So it was not that big

1288
01:12:36,160 --> 01:12:38,120
Speaker 12: of a you. But ever since then, the doctor said,

1289
01:12:38,120 --> 01:12:39,920
Speaker 12: he's very fine. But all of a sudden, like we

1290
01:12:40,000 --> 01:12:42,719
Speaker 12: have a dog. I'm allergy to dogs, so we don't

1291
01:12:42,720 --> 01:12:43,320
Speaker 12: own the dogs.

1292
01:12:45,400 --> 01:12:47,360
Speaker 2: Well, you know, actually it's it's interesting you said that,

1293
01:12:47,360 --> 01:12:49,559
Speaker 2: because I feel like that's a good compromise. You're allergic

1294
01:12:49,600 --> 01:12:52,800
Speaker 2: to dogs, and he hallucinates a dog, so you don't

1295
01:12:52,800 --> 01:12:54,680
Speaker 2: have to suffer from the dog allergies because it's a

1296
01:12:54,680 --> 01:12:57,759
Speaker 2: fake dog. But he gets the dog in his mind.

1297
01:12:57,760 --> 01:13:00,000
Speaker 12: Right, at least at least in between.

1298
01:13:02,320 --> 01:13:08,439
Speaker 2: Uh, what do you? I don't know what questions to

1299
01:13:08,479 --> 01:13:10,880
Speaker 2: ask you, guys? I don't know what to do right now.

1300
01:13:13,000 --> 01:13:15,800
Speaker 12: I don't know either. He just passed me he like,

1301
01:13:15,840 --> 01:13:20,639
Speaker 12: talk to the gecko man, and I was like mm hmm, okay, okay.

1302
01:13:20,640 --> 01:13:25,439
Speaker 2: And so your brother hallucinates to the point where he

1303
01:13:25,560 --> 01:13:27,679
Speaker 2: hands you a phone and says, talk to the gecko

1304
01:13:27,720 --> 01:13:36,000
Speaker 2: man and you just go, oh, yes, because you didn't.

1305
01:13:36,720 --> 01:13:41,760
Speaker 2: You had no sort of apprehensions or questions about this.

1306
01:13:41,800 --> 01:13:44,440
Speaker 2: You went along with it pretty straightforward.

1307
01:13:45,600 --> 01:13:46,040
Speaker 12: Honestly.

1308
01:13:46,120 --> 01:13:46,320
Speaker 13: Yeah.

1309
01:13:46,360 --> 01:13:48,840
Speaker 12: I just point his hallucinators are the best part of

1310
01:13:48,880 --> 01:13:51,920
Speaker 12: my day, so I like to make the most of it.

1311
01:13:52,640 --> 01:13:54,479
Speaker 12: And he hears me at one of let's talk to

1312
01:13:54,520 --> 01:13:56,960
Speaker 12: the gecko man. I'm gonna be like, oh, we'll talk

1313
01:13:57,000 --> 01:13:57,800
Speaker 12: to the gecko man.

1314
01:13:59,680 --> 01:14:02,720
Speaker 2: Do you have a concern for him over these hallucinations?

1315
01:14:04,200 --> 01:14:06,440
Speaker 12: No, he's taking I make sure he takes his medications

1316
01:14:06,479 --> 01:14:11,720
Speaker 12: every fucking morning. Sorry, I did a mute, am make sure.

1317
01:14:12,800 --> 01:14:16,080
Speaker 2: Okay, Well, okay, what's you're like? What's you what is

1318
01:14:16,080 --> 01:14:19,040
Speaker 2: your favorite of his hallucinations?

1319
01:14:19,040 --> 01:14:19,840
Speaker 12: The fucking dog.

1320
01:14:21,439 --> 01:14:22,559
Speaker 2: Does the dog have a name?

1321
01:14:23,800 --> 01:14:27,880
Speaker 12: Yeah, his name is Eui. He's a Bullono's people and

1322
01:14:29,160 --> 01:14:32,280
Speaker 12: even made he's really that backstory to the dog.

1323
01:14:33,400 --> 01:14:35,240
Speaker 2: What's what's the backstory? To the dog.

1324
01:14:36,520 --> 01:14:38,240
Speaker 12: The dog was a fighting dog, and then he just

1325
01:14:38,280 --> 01:14:41,080
Speaker 12: found him on the street. And then the funny thing

1326
01:14:41,200 --> 01:14:44,519
Speaker 12: is he came home with just a leash, no dog,

1327
01:14:45,280 --> 01:14:47,160
Speaker 12: just a leashash.

1328
01:14:50,120 --> 01:14:52,200
Speaker 2: Did your brother just say he wants to the phone back?

1329
01:14:53,200 --> 01:14:58,280
Speaker 12: Yeah, do you want me to hand the phone book?

1330
01:14:59,160 --> 01:15:00,800
Speaker 2: Sure? Hey, what's your name?

1331
01:15:01,920 --> 01:15:01,960
Speaker 8: So?

1332
01:15:02,120 --> 01:15:03,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was nice talking to you.

1333
01:15:03,840 --> 01:15:06,080
Speaker 12: So it was nice talking to you.

1334
01:15:07,040 --> 01:15:13,760
Speaker 2: Have a nice day you too. Hello? What's up? Jay?

1335
01:15:14,760 --> 01:15:18,840
Speaker 4: I uh, I don't know what to explain chat. Thank

1336
01:15:18,880 --> 01:15:21,320
Speaker 4: you for being so nice. I love you all and

1337
01:15:21,360 --> 01:15:23,600
Speaker 4: I love you to get go, but I do have

1338
01:15:23,680 --> 01:15:25,600
Speaker 4: something to talk about.

1339
01:15:25,880 --> 01:15:29,360
Speaker 2: So yeah, well, I feel like we've done so much

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Speaker 2: talking already. I mean, what uh what what what? What?

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01:15:35,040 --> 01:15:40,120
Speaker 2: There's there's a big I've been a little stressed here

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01:15:40,240 --> 01:15:40,679
Speaker 2: so much.

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01:15:43,439 --> 01:15:45,880
Speaker 4: I think my sister could be a positively a really

1344
01:15:45,880 --> 01:15:46,960
Speaker 4: good twitch seaper. You know.

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01:15:49,320 --> 01:15:51,320
Speaker 2: Well, okay, so you said you wanted to talk about something?

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01:15:51,320 --> 01:15:52,120
Speaker 2: What what? What was that?

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01:15:55,360 --> 01:16:03,479
Speaker 4: It's it's it's it's kind of like difficult, you know,

1348
01:16:05,320 --> 01:16:10,160
Speaker 4: and so like I'm sorry chat. Oh like I love Riady.

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01:16:10,280 --> 01:16:10,479
Speaker 5: Chat.

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01:16:10,520 --> 01:16:11,840
Speaker 4: By the way, it's creat Jay.

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01:16:11,840 --> 01:16:13,479
Speaker 2: Don't read the chat. Don't look at the chat. If

1352
01:16:13,479 --> 01:16:15,040
Speaker 2: you look, please don't look at the chat. You look

1353
01:16:15,080 --> 01:16:16,240
Speaker 2: at the chat, I'm gonna hang up.

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01:16:17,640 --> 01:16:23,400
Speaker 4: Okay, where do you get? How are you doing that?

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01:16:23,560 --> 01:16:24,360
Speaker 7: So Bayly.

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01:16:25,600 --> 01:16:29,559
Speaker 2: Jay, what was it you want to talk about?

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Speaker 4: It's about my like life, my personal life. Okay, it's

1358
01:16:35,200 --> 01:16:38,240
Speaker 4: like so like, so I don't know if like Frank

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01:16:38,280 --> 01:16:40,759
Speaker 4: could be watching this or not. I'm kind of worried

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01:16:40,840 --> 01:16:42,160
Speaker 4: she is, but I don't think she has. For the

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01:16:42,160 --> 01:16:45,760
Speaker 4: same time, my girlfriend.

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01:16:46,439 --> 01:16:49,960
Speaker 2: Okay, so like.

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01:16:52,320 --> 01:16:55,400
Speaker 4: Pretty much I've been I've been watching for quite a while,

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01:16:55,560 --> 01:16:59,960
Speaker 4: and like this whole time, I've been struggling because recently

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01:17:00,280 --> 01:17:03,639
Speaker 4: I went to my back to my hometown, Puerto Rico.

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01:17:05,800 --> 01:17:07,960
Speaker 4: But I decided to go with my girlfriend because I

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01:17:08,000 --> 01:17:10,280
Speaker 4: was like, you know what, I'll go with her. Sure

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01:17:10,840 --> 01:17:13,120
Speaker 4: it's gonna be good a way we can like deepen

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01:17:13,120 --> 01:17:17,320
Speaker 4: a relationship or and all stuff. But while I was there,

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01:17:17,479 --> 01:17:23,519
Speaker 4: I learned otherwise, and like I'm right now, like in

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01:17:23,560 --> 01:17:30,439
Speaker 4: a top situation, I would I would say, so, yeah,

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01:17:30,760 --> 01:17:31,360
Speaker 4: did you hang up?

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01:17:31,479 --> 01:17:32,840
Speaker 2: So you learned otherwise?

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01:17:33,800 --> 01:17:37,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, so there was I don't know if you've ever

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01:17:37,320 --> 01:17:41,920
Speaker 4: been to Puerto Rico well or I like ever heard

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01:17:41,920 --> 01:17:44,800
Speaker 4: of it. Pretty much, but like let's give one example.

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Speaker 4: One example is in Puerto Rico. Driving there is not

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Speaker 4: that safe, right Okay, So she said, oh, let me

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01:17:55,360 --> 01:17:58,320
Speaker 4: drive in Puerto Rico and I was like, m I

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01:17:58,320 --> 01:18:01,439
Speaker 4: don't know about that because driving put like driving like

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01:18:01,640 --> 01:18:06,719
Speaker 4: Indie or something like that, you know, like they're crazy during.

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01:18:06,520 --> 01:18:07,080
Speaker 5: All this place.

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01:18:07,600 --> 01:18:09,599
Speaker 4: It's actually like driving like in New York.

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01:18:09,920 --> 01:18:13,120
Speaker 2: Actually, wait, Jay, Jay, Jay Jay, listen, listen, listen, listen, Jay.

1385
01:18:14,240 --> 01:18:16,360
Speaker 2: I mean I need you right now. I need you

1386
01:18:16,479 --> 01:18:21,240
Speaker 2: right now to focus. What was the thing that you

1387
01:18:21,439 --> 01:18:25,920
Speaker 2: wanted to talk to me about?

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01:18:26,479 --> 01:18:31,120
Speaker 4: Should I like leave my girlfriend or should I stay

1389
01:18:31,120 --> 01:18:33,680
Speaker 4: in a relationship with her because I love her a

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01:18:33,680 --> 01:18:38,519
Speaker 4: lot and I feel like if I leave her, I'll

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01:18:38,840 --> 01:18:42,839
Speaker 4: be really fucking depressed. But if I also, I feel

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01:18:43,000 --> 01:18:46,160
Speaker 4: like if I don't, if I don't leave her, I'm

1393
01:18:46,680 --> 01:18:49,360
Speaker 4: like being held back pretty much because I want to

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01:18:50,400 --> 01:18:54,000
Speaker 4: live life more freely.

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01:18:54,040 --> 01:18:56,760
Speaker 2: I guess, okay, I actually have an answer to that.

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01:18:57,080 --> 01:19:02,680
Speaker 2: Here's the thing. If I think if everything you just

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01:19:02,760 --> 01:19:08,879
Speaker 2: told me is completely true. Again, I don't know your relationship,

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01:19:08,920 --> 01:19:10,920
Speaker 2: so I'm not going to like tell you what to do,

1399
01:19:11,040 --> 01:19:13,519
Speaker 2: but I'll tell you some things around this. To me,

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01:19:14,120 --> 01:19:20,320
Speaker 2: if your girlfriend, if your life would suck without your girlfriends.

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01:19:20,720 --> 01:19:23,320
Speaker 2: That's a problem, I think because it means that there's

1402
01:19:23,320 --> 01:19:27,160
Speaker 2: not enough about your life that is enriching without another person,

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01:19:27,160 --> 01:19:29,720
Speaker 2: and being dependent on another person for your happiness is

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01:19:29,840 --> 01:19:33,720
Speaker 2: never a winning strategy. And how old are you?

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01:19:35,040 --> 01:19:35,639
Speaker 4: Twenty one?

1406
01:19:36,560 --> 01:19:38,360
Speaker 2: And also if you're twenty one and you feel this

1407
01:19:38,560 --> 01:19:43,719
Speaker 2: desire to have more freedom in your life.

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01:19:42,800 --> 01:19:43,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't feel that.

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01:19:44,240 --> 01:19:46,840
Speaker 2: I don't feel like it's an interesting desire to listen to.

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01:19:48,040 --> 01:19:50,880
Speaker 2: So I think you should listen to that desire. And

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01:19:51,040 --> 01:19:54,160
Speaker 2: I think that because you're young still, you should develop

1412
01:19:54,160 --> 01:19:57,400
Speaker 2: your life to make sure that you're happy without other

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01:19:57,439 --> 01:20:01,599
Speaker 2: people and then you can add a people in your

1414
01:20:01,640 --> 01:20:03,880
Speaker 2: life to share that on happiness. Does that make sense?

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01:20:05,560 --> 01:20:06,960
Speaker 4: Yeah?

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01:20:07,960 --> 01:20:08,560
Speaker 5: Yeah?

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01:20:10,000 --> 01:20:11,000
Speaker 2: What did you say? Your name was?

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01:20:12,600 --> 01:20:12,760
Speaker 7: Jay?

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01:20:15,720 --> 01:20:18,040
Speaker 2: Is a pleasure talking to you and to your sister

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01:20:18,080 --> 01:20:19,479
Speaker 2: as well. And thank you for calling in?

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01:20:20,400 --> 01:20:24,920
Speaker 4: Okay, thank you, Get go out. I love everything that

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01:20:25,000 --> 01:20:27,599
Speaker 4: you make in You're amazing. Get go I can thank

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01:20:27,640 --> 01:20:29,160
Speaker 4: you and.

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01:20:29,160 --> 01:20:31,800
Speaker 2: By fact up to thank you, dud. Do you have

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01:20:31,840 --> 01:20:33,680
Speaker 2: a rest of the night you too?

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01:20:33,840 --> 01:20:35,960
Speaker 4: Bye?

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01:20:36,200 --> 01:20:40,320
Speaker 8: Never goes on the line thanking your own calls every night,

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01:20:40,720 --> 01:20:41,840
Speaker 8: everything goes.

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Speaker 2: He's teaching you loud your life