WEBVTT - “I’M A BURNT OUT JAZZ PLAYER”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hey, what's up?

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<v Speaker 2>Man? What's going on? Is this a guy? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, sir? Is this uh Jay Glenno?

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<v Speaker 2>This is Jake Glenno. Yeah, this is crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>What's going on?

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<v Speaker 2>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>How you doing?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm good.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just binging some pretzels?

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<v Speaker 1>What kind of what brand of pretzels are we binging?

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<v Speaker 2>Right now? We're binging the Trader Joe's pretzels, the saltiest

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<v Speaker 2>of the salty.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh that sounds awesome. Let's see here.

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<v Speaker 4>Man, you said to me, I am a jazz trumpet

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<v Speaker 4>player living in Boston.

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<v Speaker 1>That's sick.

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<v Speaker 4>I've played music in over twenty countries, but I still

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<v Speaker 4>feel like a loser because of the way the gig

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<v Speaker 4>culture works.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Man, so I this is a crazy time you've

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<v Speaker 2>called me. Uh, which I realized I texted you today.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh so, Yeah, I played. I've played music since I

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<v Speaker 2>was eight. Like I've written in my literally, bro I

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<v Speaker 2>in my yearbook from when I was in fifth grade,

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<v Speaker 2>it says what do you want to be when you

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<v Speaker 2>grow up? And it was a trumpet player? So I'm

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<v Speaker 2>living in all senses of the words the dream of mine.

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<v Speaker 2>But like, like I've played all over the place, I've

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<v Speaker 2>played with like Ed Sheeran. I've played in Montenegro, I've

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<v Speaker 2>played in Greece, I've in Italy, I've played in a

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<v Speaker 2>blue blah blah blah blah blah. The list goes on.

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<v Speaker 2>But I still feel no matter what I do, no

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<v Speaker 2>matter what I play, who I play with, memories, I make,

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<v Speaker 2>the sounds I make. I leave feeling pretty empty, where

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<v Speaker 2>like I didn't do anything, and there's something to say

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<v Speaker 2>about that just being music in art, like music is

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<v Speaker 2>just sound. These things I'm doing is it's really nothing

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<v Speaker 2>of importance, which is why I kind of love it

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<v Speaker 2>is because it really is just like you're doing it

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<v Speaker 2>for you. You're doing it because it sounds great, because

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<v Speaker 2>you make people shake their ass, because you make people

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<v Speaker 2>feel good, feel sad, feel all these feelings. Like to

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<v Speaker 2>me is the last form of magic, because we don't

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<v Speaker 2>know why it makes us feel all these feelings. We

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<v Speaker 2>know why these substances and these science things make us

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<v Speaker 2>feel what we feel, but we don't know why music

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<v Speaker 2>and dance make us feel the way we feel.

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<v Speaker 1>No, go ahead, I'm wanna let you official then go ahead, No, no.

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<v Speaker 2>No, essentially, it's just yeah, I was wrapping up I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know why I do all these things, these cool

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<v Speaker 2>things that other people would be like, Oh, it's so awesome,

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<v Speaker 2>and I walk away feeling blah.

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<v Speaker 4>Are you aware that Pixar made a movie that is

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<v Speaker 4>literally exactly about your life?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you want to hear something even funnier? Go ahead,

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<v Speaker 2>I am a music teacher who has the same name

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<v Speaker 2>as that character, and you.

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<v Speaker 1>Have the same name as the character.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, they literally my name is mister G.

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<v Speaker 1>That's all.

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<v Speaker 2>And they're like, they're like literally, like every day I

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<v Speaker 2>have these kids, Oh, mister G, you've missed g H

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<v Speaker 2>And like I've shown them that movie and they're like,

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<v Speaker 2>this is you, and I'm like, god, damn.

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<v Speaker 4>Dude, that's literally that's so crazy that you share the

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<v Speaker 4>same name as that When that movie?

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<v Speaker 1>When did that fucking movie come out?

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<v Speaker 2>The movie came out probably in twenty fifteen, and I

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<v Speaker 2>started teaching in twenty twenty, So I remember watching that

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<v Speaker 2>movie when I like before I started teaching, and I

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<v Speaker 2>was just a gigging musician being like it could never

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<v Speaker 2>be me, And here I am showing into my kids

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<v Speaker 2>that's how crazy life is. Like you just show them

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<v Speaker 2>years later and now like I could say, like I

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<v Speaker 2>have kids or not like my own kids, but my

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<v Speaker 2>students are my kids, right, and they're like, oh, this

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<v Speaker 2>is you My god. Life is so crazy, dude.

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<v Speaker 1>Life is very crazy, damn man. Yeah, I mean, because

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<v Speaker 1>that is soul.

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<v Speaker 4>It's about like a musician having an existential crisis because

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<v Speaker 4>his cool life does not fulfill him.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And that's essentially like what I've been feeling since

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<v Speaker 2>I was, like I'm twenty eight now twenty nine in August,

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<v Speaker 2>but like I've been feeling that since I was a

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<v Speaker 2>gigging musician at eighteen. Like I left school at eighteen,

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<v Speaker 2>got a job, got into grad school with gigging on

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<v Speaker 2>cruise ships, which is how I visited all these countries.

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<v Speaker 2>Crazy crazy job to begin with, and then COVID shut

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<v Speaker 2>that shit down very quickly and I had to become

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<v Speaker 2>a real person. What I call it my muggle job.

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<v Speaker 2>I had to get a muggle job pretty soon after

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<v Speaker 2>cod It was like, nope, you your job is a

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<v Speaker 2>giant floating Petrie dish. You actually can't work.

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<v Speaker 1>Here, yep, yep, yep.

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<v Speaker 4>And so so since twenty twenty, you've been full time teaching.

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<v Speaker 4>Have you gigged around at all since then? Or you're

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<v Speaker 4>just mainly teaching.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh man, I gig like every single solitary weekend. Like

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<v Speaker 2>that's what's so crazy. It's like I play in like

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<v Speaker 2>a really hitting salsa group. By play in a Cuban band.

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<v Speaker 2>I play funk music, I play jazz music, I play

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<v Speaker 2>in orchestras. Like my joke is like, you give me

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<v Speaker 2>a dollar and I'll play you what you want to hear.

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<v Speaker 2>I just leave all of those gigs just so I

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<v Speaker 2>could just stare in a wall, you know, and you're

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<v Speaker 2>just like, oh God, like what what isn't he Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Why why do you feel like a loser?

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<v Speaker 4>I guess the loser is a strong one because you're

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<v Speaker 4>just well, because you're describing two different things. You're describing

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<v Speaker 4>not feeling for these are these feel like two different conversations.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean maybe they're linked, but you're describing feeling like

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<v Speaker 4>you're not fulfilled, and there's kind of just like an

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of existential dread, and then there's feeling like

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<v Speaker 4>you person like your ego, feeling like you're a loser.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess the loser is with strong language. I guess

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<v Speaker 2>more of what I'm feeling is that it's I guess

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<v Speaker 2>I'm feeling nothing, and like that is strange to me,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like maybe that the fact that I'm feeling

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<v Speaker 2>nothing is what making me feel like a loser.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, that makes sense, That makes sense, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I feel like that might have been what I'm

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<v Speaker 2>getting at.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't know what I mean. What do you?

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<v Speaker 1>And you've been feeling like this since for like ten years?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, since I've like since my performing career has

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<v Speaker 2>pretty much started, like I've had like yeah, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>What does make you feel these days?

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<v Speaker 2>What makes me feel that's a lot. What makes me

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<v Speaker 2>feel is food, Like really good food makes me feel

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<v Speaker 2>really good. Seeing people smile and dance and hold hands,

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<v Speaker 2>that makes me feel really good. I really like when

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<v Speaker 2>other people make jokes. I think that's really endearing. Ah,

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<v Speaker 2>and that makes me feel feel good because why not,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like jokes are sort of the same as

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<v Speaker 2>what I do, where they're really for nothing other than

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<v Speaker 2>for other people to be like, oh it's nice.

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<v Speaker 1>Hmmm. So you're so you're enjoying things that are very

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<v Speaker 1>of the moment.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And I've always really enjoyed things of the moment,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I've had teachers talk to me about my presence

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<v Speaker 2>in now and how that's my greatest strength. But in

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<v Speaker 2>the same breath, like I'm constantly thinking about all of

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<v Speaker 2>the things that are happening now and that's incredibly stressful.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh like what but like, oh, it's just so and

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<v Speaker 2>so enjoying my conversation. Oh is what what the video

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<v Speaker 2>I'm showing this random person? Uh cool? Oh? Does my

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<v Speaker 2>the fact that I'm standing in this subway cart make me? Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Am I being too large right now even though I'm

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<v Speaker 2>just listening to the music like I'm there, Like I'm

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<v Speaker 2>like those so.

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<v Speaker 4>You're you're you're you have anxiety, but your anxiety is

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<v Speaker 4>present focused.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, one thousand percent. Like I'm very much like how

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<v Speaker 2>is my existence inter not necessarily interacting, but interfering with

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<v Speaker 2>somebody else's And like that's a very zen concept where

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<v Speaker 2>it's like, how can I be here without being noticed?

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<v Speaker 2>I guess. But in the same breath, I play the

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<v Speaker 2>fucking trumpet, So I don't know why I have these

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<v Speaker 2>two feelings happening at the same time. Where it's just

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<v Speaker 2>like I play this very loud, joyful, in your face

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<v Speaker 2>instrument where I'm also like in away from that horn,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm very like, Oh, people.

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<v Speaker 3>Are noticing me.

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<v Speaker 2>That make me anxious? Oh how does the way I'm standing,

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<v Speaker 2>the way I'm talking, the way I'm posturing h impact

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<v Speaker 2>other people?

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<v Speaker 1>M why do you care so much about that?

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<v Speaker 4>It's like you're like, I understand if you were like

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<v Speaker 4>doing something where you're like, what are the ethical implications

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<v Speaker 4>of what I'm doing? But like your anxiety is like

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<v Speaker 4>telling you that your existence is like a nuisance to

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<v Speaker 4>people or something like that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know, Like I don't know why I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like I'm a nuisance because I know I'm not,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I have plenty of friends. I go outside, like

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<v Speaker 2>I have people calling me up to play these gigs

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<v Speaker 2>and stuff. But still and even when I'm on these gigs,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, ah shit, man, like they're totally like not

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<v Speaker 2>not stoked. I'm on this gig. Oh shit, Like I know,

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<v Speaker 2>we're going on break and everyone's talking about me. Like

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<v Speaker 2>it's very like you said, like anxiety driven.

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<v Speaker 4>But so you said also you were like you were

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<v Speaker 4>and I feel like a loser because of the.

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<v Speaker 1>Way gig culture works. So what is that?

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<v Speaker 4>What is it about gig culture that's contributing to these

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<v Speaker 4>things that you're talking about.

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<v Speaker 2>Like what do I mean by that? Like, is your

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<v Speaker 2>sort of like I think what I meant was.

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<v Speaker 3>You're just like.

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<v Speaker 2>Going out and like horing yourself out a little bit

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<v Speaker 2>and being like, oh this is me, Oh please like me,

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<v Speaker 2>Like you're sort of like a pick me person.

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<v Speaker 1>What to dive more into that?

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<v Speaker 4>In what how is playing a gig feel like you're

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<v Speaker 4>hooring yourself.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you're and this is where it gets weird and

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<v Speaker 2>where it gets like very This is what you're being

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<v Speaker 2>an artist is is you're just like I'm gonna say,

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<v Speaker 2>sharing yourself with this group of people that doesn't necessarily

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<v Speaker 2>I don't they don't know what you're about. Like they're

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<v Speaker 2>just showing up because either it sounds good or it

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<v Speaker 2>sounds interesting or x Y or c. And you're just

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<v Speaker 2>expecting these people to just enjoy what you got. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and you know, it just feels very much like like

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<v Speaker 2>oh pick me, pick me, Like oh, but like there's

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<v Speaker 2>a million other shows that millions that million that people

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<v Speaker 2>could be going to and it just it just feels strange.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude. I I mean you know you probably know that,

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<v Speaker 1>but like you have this, like.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean I empathize with this. You sound like a

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<v Speaker 4>chronic overthinker.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I am, and the the and.

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<v Speaker 4>And from the thoughts the thoughts that you're sharing with

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<v Speaker 4>me don't sound like they're even kind of remotely helpful

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<v Speaker 4>to anything. Because the whole thing of like, uh, because

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<v Speaker 4>if what you like is to play music, and you

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<v Speaker 4>like all these things that are of the moment, then

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<v Speaker 4>to sit and analyze and go, am I am I

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<v Speaker 4>good enough for people to avert their gaze and their

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<v Speaker 4>time away from the infinite anything else that they could

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<v Speaker 4>be looking at or listening to and look at me

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<v Speaker 4>or like is the or like even you know that's

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<v Speaker 4>from like your art point of view, and then from

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<v Speaker 4>the other point of view. Just this shit of like,

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<v Speaker 4>am I standing in such a way that offends anyone?

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<v Speaker 2>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna I'll tell you, man, what'd you say? Your

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<v Speaker 1>name was? Jake glenn Jake Lenno. Jake listen, Jake Lenno. Dude,

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<v Speaker 1>you're you.

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<v Speaker 4>You sound like you have this mindset of like your

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<v Speaker 4>existence being a burden upon other people in some way.

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<v Speaker 4>And I'm I'm here to tell you you're you're really,

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, you're not man like playing the playing music

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<v Speaker 4>makes people happy, you're contributing by doing that.

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<v Speaker 1>And then just like you're.

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<v Speaker 4>You have the divine right to exist in a room

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<v Speaker 4>with other people. You have the divine right to take

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<v Speaker 4>up space by God as much as anyone else. Literally,

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<v Speaker 4>you literally have the right to exist on the earth

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<v Speaker 4>as much as anyone or anything else on the planet.

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<v Speaker 4>You have the right to make music and enforce your

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<v Speaker 4>will upon the universe in the same way that a

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<v Speaker 4>snake has the right to slither itself through the desert.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, we just have this thing as humans where

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<v Speaker 4>we've developed this thing of like anxiety, which was helpful

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<v Speaker 4>at one point, but now it's like an abundant thing

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<v Speaker 4>that just prevents us from like living, and so like

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<v Speaker 4>it just sounds like you're brain, you've just gotten this

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<v Speaker 4>over analyzing point where you're like in debate with yourself

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<v Speaker 4>over your the validity of your own existence. And it's like, dude,

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<v Speaker 4>you fucking you teach children and play trumpet. You're like

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<v Speaker 4>a like, Listen, by the way, even if you stole

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<v Speaker 4>candy bars and took shits on the street, you're still

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<v Speaker 4>you're even if that's what you even if that's what

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<v Speaker 4>you did, you're still valid to exist. As a human

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<v Speaker 4>being on the planets, but that's not what you do.

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<v Speaker 4>You play music, you help children, you make people like

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<v Speaker 4>you're a good human being. So like, as much as

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<v Speaker 4>it is easier said than done, like you stop debating

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<v Speaker 4>with yourself over whether or not you should uh take

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<v Speaker 4>up space on the earth. You're just as valid as

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<v Speaker 4>anyone else, you know. So, I mean that was a

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<v Speaker 4>long range I.

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<v Speaker 2>Appreciate you saying all that. Uh yeah, thank you. It's

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<v Speaker 2>just like, uh, does that not ever startle you so

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<v Speaker 2>much that you have all of this like, uh, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know, people listen to you like crazy, Like isn't

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<v Speaker 2>it crazy that people listen to you?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but I it it startles me sometimes, but it's

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<v Speaker 4>also not.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, it startles me sometimes. But it's also like it's

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<v Speaker 1>not fucking I mean we could.

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<v Speaker 4>I would I how happily go in depth about like

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<v Speaker 4>that particular thing because it's something please.

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<v Speaker 2>Do, because I experienced that a lot with more so

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<v Speaker 2>with teaching, because like I have, like I teach seven

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<v Speaker 2>hundred kids every week, and I have like three K

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<v Speaker 2>through sixth grade kids staring at me. That's honestly more

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<v Speaker 2>interesting than playing the trumpet, Like staring at me being

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<v Speaker 2>like all right, missus, g what what the fuck's going

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<v Speaker 2>on today? And like that's fucking daunting, being like oh shit,

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<v Speaker 2>like what ah, what do I have to show for you?

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<v Speaker 2>More so than playing trumpet? And I'm sure you feel

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<v Speaker 2>that too, man, just being like recording these things all

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<v Speaker 2>the time.

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<v Speaker 1>Well let's.

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<v Speaker 2>Hmm you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, Well so when they're like all right, mister, get

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<v Speaker 4>what's good today?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, we had another teacher who kind of talked about this,

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<v Speaker 4>like this thing of like why the fuck are these

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<v Speaker 4>kids looking at me? But you have but I know,

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<v Speaker 4>like it, but you have, But you have this thing

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<v Speaker 4>of like you have a thing that you're passionate about,

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<v Speaker 4>a specific thing like music, and so just like being

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<v Speaker 4>yourself and sharing your passion is well, I think enough

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<v Speaker 4>in that situation.

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<v Speaker 2>You would think sa'ch enough. But like you're like, imagine

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<v Speaker 2>you're five. You have no idea that like, oh, this

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<v Speaker 2>is a spiritual thing, like this makes people feel good.

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<v Speaker 2>This with people. You're like I love roadblocks, I love

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<v Speaker 2>to dance and uh and and color and like that's

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<v Speaker 2>your world scope. But like you have no idea, like

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<v Speaker 2>you know, music makes you feel good, but you don't

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<v Speaker 2>know that it like is this crazy world of imagination

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<v Speaker 2>and history and this, that and the other. Right, So

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<v Speaker 2>like on one hand, yeah, they're like, oh, this teacher

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<v Speaker 2>is so awesome. Let me dance with me because I

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<v Speaker 2>get some scars to shake, riggs, we'll do rhythm sticks,

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<v Speaker 2>We'll do like all sorts of like I've had a

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<v Speaker 2>really fun class. Yeah, super great, it's super super fun.

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<v Speaker 1>So what is there to even be in your head about?

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<v Speaker 2>Some of them just do don't give a funk, like

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<v Speaker 2>because then it ruins it for like for me, it

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<v Speaker 2>ruins it for the other kids a lot of mostly

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<v Speaker 2>like it ruined it for the other kids first, and

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<v Speaker 2>then it ruined it for me because you can't really

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<v Speaker 2>like what are you gonna says no, essentially, like you

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<v Speaker 2>can't recorrect the course where there were dancing with Stevie Wander.

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<v Speaker 2>We're dancing with scarves, like there's eggshake or shake and

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<v Speaker 2>people are papping their sticks. They're sticks flying or scarfs

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<v Speaker 2>flying there and some kid is like this sucks. And

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<v Speaker 2>then like one of the kids like, yeah, this sucks. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and then I don't know, they start to look a

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<v Speaker 2>little more anxious and it's really just like the anxiety

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<v Speaker 2>bug will like catch one kid and then it'll infect

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<v Speaker 2>the entire class, and it's like, oh my gosh, how

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<v Speaker 2>do I, especially as somebody who has this imposter syndrome

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<v Speaker 2>anxiety bug, how do you even begin to rally that

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<v Speaker 2>and be like, No, everybody like, this is fun, this

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<v Speaker 2>is cool, this is exciting, and everybody should be feeling

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<v Speaker 2>good because we're dancing to Stevie Wonder.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, I'll I'm gonna talk about, uh, I'll talk about

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<v Speaker 4>kind of on my end, how I I deal with

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<v Speaker 4>my sort of thing, and then I can analogize it

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<v Speaker 4>a little bit to your situation. I mean we have

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<v Speaker 4>two different we have two different situations in the sense

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<v Speaker 4>that you know, you're like, you know, you're teaching children.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm doing an internet thing. But there's analogies there, and

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<v Speaker 4>I'll talk about my thing. So like, you know, listen,

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<v Speaker 4>I record, listen, I record this podcast. I've been recording

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<v Speaker 4>this podcast twice a week for five years. I have

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<v Speaker 4>not skipped an episode. I have not skipped an episode

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<v Speaker 4>for five years, twice a week.

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<v Speaker 1>And let me tell you something.

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<v Speaker 4>I scroll through my Spotify and I look at the

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<v Speaker 4>episodes and some of them and I look and every

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<v Speaker 4>here'sing every episode, the first call that I put on

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<v Speaker 4>the thing, I'm like, you know what, I think that

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<v Speaker 4>was a good conversation. I think I did a good job,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, leading it. I think I had energy for it.

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<v Speaker 4>I think I you know, I think it's a worthy

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<v Speaker 4>conversation of people's time. And I think twice a week

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<v Speaker 4>and like I try to do I try to be

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<v Speaker 4>as present as I can.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm also like, dude.

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<v Speaker 4>Like like like, for example, like I like I got uh,

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<v Speaker 4>people got upset at me because I cut off the

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<v Speaker 4>guy who was talking about being in the cartel.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh sweet, go.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh okay, well you heard that. Yeah, bro, I listen

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<v Speaker 2>to all your shit.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, cool.

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<v Speaker 4>So like, so listen, I got a ton of comment.

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<v Speaker 4>This happens to me all the time. I'll get a

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<v Speaker 4>ton of comments of people being like yo, Lyle's like

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<v Speaker 4>fucking being rude or this and anything. And I'm like,

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<v Speaker 4>for like a second, I get upset about it.

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<v Speaker 1>But like, dude, two, like this.

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<v Speaker 4>Is five hundred plus episodes of the show. I'm doing

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<v Speaker 4>it twice a week. I'm going on this tour. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>living I'm trying to be a normal Like it's fine

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<v Speaker 4>if it's not perfect, if some people stop listening because

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<v Speaker 4>of that, or if some people are upset, Like I.

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<v Speaker 1>I just.

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<v Speaker 4>Like that that just has nothing to do with me.

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<v Speaker 4>And I don't mean, I don't mean that has nothing

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<v Speaker 4>to do with me in the sense that, like, uh,

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<v Speaker 4>I don't have control of how I respond in situations.

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<v Speaker 4>But like I, I just can't. I can't beat myself

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<v Speaker 4>up endlessly. I can I can only like show up

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<v Speaker 4>and do the best, like just in my LIFU fuck

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<v Speaker 4>the podcast, like my life in general, I can show

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<v Speaker 4>up and like do the best I can and make

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<v Speaker 4>the best decisions I can and like do what I can.

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<v Speaker 4>And then if other people are upset, like you know,

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<v Speaker 4>it's not like what are you gonna what are you

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<v Speaker 4>gonna do? You never gonna you never goeta. You're never

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<v Speaker 4>gonna make anyone happy. I mean sorry, You're never gonna

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<v Speaker 4>make everyone. You can totally make lots of people happy,

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<v Speaker 4>you will never make everyone happy.

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<v Speaker 1>You will never.

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<v Speaker 4>Be one hundred percent perfect all the fucking time, especially

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<v Speaker 4>like with you. So the analogy for you in this situation,

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<v Speaker 4>She's like with these kids, like do you never, they're

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<v Speaker 4>fucking you're never gonna You're You're insane to think that

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<v Speaker 4>you will ever make an entire classroom of children happy

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<v Speaker 4>every time. I mean, that's ridiculous, dude. Don't let that

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<v Speaker 4>into you, though, Like when I get negative comments or something,

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<v Speaker 4>I don't, I can't let it into me. I can literally,

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<v Speaker 4>because that's so external, it's so brutal, it's so external,

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<v Speaker 4>has nothing to do with like, like as a person,

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<v Speaker 4>I really have this feeling of like I have I

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<v Speaker 4>have a multitude of things that I want to do

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<v Speaker 4>with my life.

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<v Speaker 1>I have like like thing I have.

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<v Speaker 4>I have obligations in my life. I have people in

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<v Speaker 4>my life that I care about. I have finite amounts

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<v Speaker 4>of like time, energy, and uh like resource. Like I'm

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<v Speaker 4>just doing the best with what I can and that's

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<v Speaker 4>all I that's all I care about. If in my judgment,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm doing the best that I can with what I have,

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<v Speaker 4>then I don't care if like someone has something to

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<v Speaker 4>say about me, it's not it's not relevant to my

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<v Speaker 4>creative process in any of the things that I do,

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<v Speaker 4>unless if it is, do you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 4>Like if like you know what I mean, Like if

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<v Speaker 4>someone's just like you're being this, you're in there. It's like, okay,

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<v Speaker 4>what I can't really do anything with that. If someone

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<v Speaker 4>comments like, oh, you should start doing this instead, I'll

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<v Speaker 4>look at it and I'll be like, oh, that's an

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<v Speaker 4>interesting bit of feedback I'll put into my creative process.

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<v Speaker 4>But like being also like being perceived doesn't really bother

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<v Speaker 4>me that much because of that too, Like because also

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<v Speaker 4>also with the internet, I mean it's different for you,

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<v Speaker 4>but like with the Internet, it's like, you know, if

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<v Speaker 4>I put my phone down and I walk outside and

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<v Speaker 4>I talk to my real friends and I walk around,

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<v Speaker 4>it's like none of that's there. And also like nobody

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<v Speaker 4>can stop me from like I have stuff I want

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<v Speaker 4>to make. Nobody can stop me from making stuff, you know. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>so and then nobody like no kid that is upset

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<v Speaker 4>at you can or school. No one on the planet,

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<v Speaker 4>aside from a guy physically coming up to you and

0:25:42.119 --> 0:25:45.480
<v Speaker 4>ripping your trumpet out of your hands, can stop you

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<v Speaker 4>from making music. So and that's the that is the

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<v Speaker 4>like most comfortingly on nothing but your own death can

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<v Speaker 4>stop you from making music, and like trying to do

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<v Speaker 4>your best, so that's all you.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's it's.

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<v Speaker 4>All, I went on a rant for a long time.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know if any of what I said made

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<v Speaker 4>any sense, but you but like, dude, like I think

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<v Speaker 4>I like I have friends who like try to make

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<v Speaker 4>videos on the internet and they get up they like

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<v Speaker 4>analyze every comment that everyone leaves as if like it matters,

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<v Speaker 4>and it's like, dude, just keep making a just make

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<v Speaker 4>another thing.

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<v Speaker 2>Or stop when I don't know when you're bored.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, no, don't know, don't stop, like just make another

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<v Speaker 1>thing like for you.

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<v Speaker 2>Like yeah, like people would stop after two weeks.

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<v Speaker 4>Or right, Like, dude, you have these lesson plans, you

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<v Speaker 4>have these songs, you have these things that you believe it.

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<v Speaker 4>You show up to your classroom every day and you're like,

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<v Speaker 4>I believe that I have something, Like I like, dude,

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<v Speaker 4>the way you were talking about music, You're like, music

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<v Speaker 4>is this fucking esoteric, amazing, beautiful thing that like I'm

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<v Speaker 4>so I get to live in it and share it

0:27:02.760 --> 0:27:05.280
<v Speaker 4>with other people. And it's like you're gonna let a

0:27:05.320 --> 0:27:09.720
<v Speaker 4>couple of kids who don't like it stop you from

0:27:09.760 --> 0:27:13.160
<v Speaker 4>like living in that and hearing that it's full.

0:27:13.440 --> 0:27:16.280
<v Speaker 1>It's crazy. I mean, it's a it's a natural human mechanism.

0:27:16.640 --> 0:27:21.320
<v Speaker 4>We are literally our brains like I don't want to

0:27:21.359 --> 0:27:25.040
<v Speaker 4>get our brains are from fucking thousands and thousands of

0:27:25.119 --> 0:27:26.679
<v Speaker 4>years ago, and they don't want to get kicked out

0:27:26.720 --> 0:27:30.000
<v Speaker 4>of the tribe. So we're literally programmed to care what

0:27:30.080 --> 0:27:32.119
<v Speaker 4>other people think about us. But we don't live in

0:27:32.160 --> 0:27:34.240
<v Speaker 4>that world, and we don't live in a world where

0:27:34.240 --> 0:27:43.360
<v Speaker 4>that's advantageous to our prosperity anymore. So just embody the

0:27:43.359 --> 0:27:47.159
<v Speaker 4>things that you are really passionate about and don't let

0:27:47.200 --> 0:27:48.720
<v Speaker 4>anyone stop you from doing that.

0:27:50.240 --> 0:27:54.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, man, how sorry, I took I took.

0:27:54.080 --> 0:27:55.480
<v Speaker 1>An adderole right before this.

0:27:56.800 --> 0:28:03.600
<v Speaker 2>That's all good man, I'm pretty blazed showing how so

0:28:03.680 --> 0:28:06.280
<v Speaker 2>like you're talking about, like, oh, don't let the kids

0:28:06.359 --> 0:28:08.840
<v Speaker 2>steal your passion and your drive to go ahead and

0:28:08.880 --> 0:28:13.280
<v Speaker 2>create these beautiful things, which like I'm here for but

0:28:13.440 --> 0:28:18.000
<v Speaker 2>teaching for six hours a day, which granted, so my

0:28:18.000 --> 0:28:20.240
<v Speaker 2>friend's working eight to ten hours a day and that's

0:28:20.480 --> 0:28:23.160
<v Speaker 2>ass Like that sucks anybody that works eight to ten

0:28:23.200 --> 0:28:26.119
<v Speaker 2>hour a day. Park was out to you. It's a

0:28:26.160 --> 0:28:28.400
<v Speaker 2>lot of work. But I work six hours a day

0:28:28.440 --> 0:28:31.480
<v Speaker 2>and the kids are so draining, and like I will

0:28:31.560 --> 0:28:40.360
<v Speaker 2>leave school feeling so emotionally, spiritually, physically just drained. And

0:28:40.400 --> 0:28:43.000
<v Speaker 2>I'll have a gig leader that day and I'm like,

0:28:44.040 --> 0:28:47.560
<v Speaker 2>I muster it up, but like I don't. Sometimes I

0:28:47.560 --> 0:28:50.680
<v Speaker 2>don't know how I do, Like what do you what

0:28:50.720 --> 0:28:54.360
<v Speaker 2>do you have to say about like digging deep and

0:28:54.440 --> 0:28:56.920
<v Speaker 2>going ahead? And like is is there anything to say

0:28:56.920 --> 0:28:59.479
<v Speaker 2>about digging deep? Or is it just like, oh, well,

0:28:59.520 --> 0:29:04.200
<v Speaker 2>you gave your all, like that's good enough. Like do

0:29:04.240 --> 0:29:05.200
<v Speaker 2>you say about that?

0:29:05.800 --> 0:29:07.640
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I, yeah, well I know what you mean.

0:29:08.160 --> 0:29:12.400
<v Speaker 4>I have many days where I just like walk away

0:29:12.440 --> 0:29:16.120
<v Speaker 4>from work feeling really drained, even if it's something I'm

0:29:16.120 --> 0:29:18.720
<v Speaker 4>passionate about, just like everything a right, Like yeah, many

0:29:18.800 --> 0:29:21.600
<v Speaker 4>days where I just feel exactly like that, where I feel.

0:29:22.880 --> 0:29:24.520
<v Speaker 1>Very drained.

0:29:25.320 --> 0:29:27.719
<v Speaker 2>And do you record after those days or do you

0:29:27.760 --> 0:29:29.880
<v Speaker 2>just sort of like you just smoke weeds.

0:29:31.640 --> 0:29:38.640
<v Speaker 4>I do the minimum amount that I have to. I

0:29:38.680 --> 0:29:41.680
<v Speaker 4>do the minimum amount that I am like obligated to do,

0:29:42.840 --> 0:29:47.440
<v Speaker 4>and then I I'm like, all right, you know it's

0:29:47.440 --> 0:29:49.160
<v Speaker 4>not going to be perfect. But then I wake up

0:29:49.200 --> 0:29:50.920
<v Speaker 4>the next day and I know, let's try again.

0:29:53.560 --> 0:29:58.400
<v Speaker 2>That's what's up. I feel like hustle culture has hijacked

0:29:59.680 --> 0:30:01.720
<v Speaker 2>me or just something like a lot of the music

0:30:01.760 --> 0:30:04.440
<v Speaker 2>world where it's like if you're not practicing three hours

0:30:04.440 --> 0:30:07.000
<v Speaker 2>a day, if you're not gigging eight hours a gable,

0:30:07.760 --> 0:30:11.200
<v Speaker 2>like there's a loser, this that and the other, and

0:30:11.320 --> 0:30:14.400
<v Speaker 2>like just that sort of mindset doesn't seem really sustainable.

0:30:15.680 --> 0:30:19.160
<v Speaker 1>No, I do believe maybe that's.

0:30:19.000 --> 0:30:21.160
<v Speaker 2>What I meant by like gig culture makes you feel

0:30:21.160 --> 0:30:23.080
<v Speaker 2>like a loser because like a lot of these like

0:30:23.120 --> 0:30:26.320
<v Speaker 2>gig culture people are like, oh, you got to take everything,

0:30:26.680 --> 0:30:28.280
<v Speaker 2>you got to do this, that, and the other. If

0:30:28.280 --> 0:30:33.000
<v Speaker 2>you're not taking like the lowest paying things and you're

0:30:33.080 --> 0:30:34.640
<v Speaker 2>just not out for it for the love of it,

0:30:34.680 --> 0:30:36.240
<v Speaker 2>this that and the other, where it's like you got

0:30:36.240 --> 0:30:38.400
<v Speaker 2>to have some standards when it comes to, Hey, you

0:30:38.440 --> 0:30:40.120
<v Speaker 2>gotta have some standard where it comes to like the

0:30:40.440 --> 0:30:45.080
<v Speaker 2>venues you're playing at. But like the culture of it

0:30:45.120 --> 0:30:50.280
<v Speaker 2>all is very much like well you know what I mean, Yeah,

0:30:50.520 --> 0:30:54.360
<v Speaker 2>well I I.

0:30:52.880 --> 0:30:54.720
<v Speaker 4>Why I think a lot about this in terms of

0:30:54.760 --> 0:30:58.920
<v Speaker 4>like saying yes to everything or whatever, like, uh, I

0:30:58.960 --> 0:31:01.080
<v Speaker 4>think there's something to be said, And I've developed this

0:31:01.160 --> 0:31:03.200
<v Speaker 4>over time, and as I think it's something that happens

0:31:03.240 --> 0:31:05.920
<v Speaker 4>like I mean, we're the same age, but it's like

0:31:05.920 --> 0:31:07.520
<v Speaker 4>instead it develops like over the.

0:31:09.760 --> 0:31:11.880
<v Speaker 1>Like over the years. I'm sure you feel this too,

0:31:12.080 --> 0:31:12.520
<v Speaker 1>of like.

0:31:17.640 --> 0:31:25.800
<v Speaker 4>Deciding what a really good rhythm to use a music term,

0:31:26.720 --> 0:31:32.760
<v Speaker 4>rhythm of your life looks like and then going, Okay,

0:31:32.760 --> 0:31:37.640
<v Speaker 4>how much time, money, and energy do I need to

0:31:37.840 --> 0:31:40.320
<v Speaker 4>like get on this rhythm because I've had periods of

0:31:40.360 --> 0:31:44.640
<v Speaker 4>time because I I sort of oscillate between this like

0:31:44.920 --> 0:31:47.800
<v Speaker 4>very depressed, I'm not doing anything.

0:31:48.040 --> 0:31:50.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm very anxious. I'm too stressed.

0:31:51.200 --> 0:31:56.160
<v Speaker 4>And but sometimes dude, life just has this fucking great

0:31:56.280 --> 0:32:01.000
<v Speaker 4>rhythm where you're like, oh, I can like work on

0:32:01.120 --> 0:32:03.720
<v Speaker 4>this thing and then I can chill and then you know,

0:32:04.160 --> 0:32:06.640
<v Speaker 4>like and it's hard because sometimes because like getting to

0:32:06.760 --> 0:32:18.040
<v Speaker 4>that place requires uh like planning uh monetarily and lifestyle

0:32:18.160 --> 0:32:24.080
<v Speaker 4>wise and whatnot. But I think it's something that's very

0:32:24.120 --> 0:32:27.920
<v Speaker 4>worth being intentional about and is achievable, Like I do.

0:32:28.120 --> 0:32:31.840
<v Speaker 4>I think that if you find a rhythm to your

0:32:31.880 --> 0:32:34.840
<v Speaker 4>life that's aligned with you, like I do, I think

0:32:35.000 --> 0:32:39.240
<v Speaker 4>that that's possible. And those people who are out there

0:32:39.280 --> 0:32:42.040
<v Speaker 4>like take every fucking gig and like they've that's the

0:32:42.120 --> 0:32:47.280
<v Speaker 4>rhythm that they are aligned with. But but it's not

0:32:47.400 --> 0:32:54.120
<v Speaker 4>an effort and effort out thing. There's there's many complicated

0:32:54.160 --> 0:32:58.560
<v Speaker 4>layers to it, and so yeah, this is something to

0:32:58.560 --> 0:33:00.760
<v Speaker 4>be said about, like figuring out what you rhythm is

0:33:00.800 --> 0:33:06.239
<v Speaker 4>and getting on there and you know, doing a bit

0:33:06.240 --> 0:33:10.680
<v Speaker 4>of an audit of your life and seeing how you

0:33:10.680 --> 0:33:17.200
<v Speaker 4>can get there. Yeah, man, has anything I've been I

0:33:17.240 --> 0:33:19.360
<v Speaker 4>feel like I've been ranting a lot. Have I made

0:33:19.400 --> 0:33:21.840
<v Speaker 4>any sense over the course of the past half hour.

0:33:23.160 --> 0:33:26.480
<v Speaker 2>No, bro, this hasn't super helpful, and you're just the man,

0:33:27.360 --> 0:33:30.240
<v Speaker 2>so like, yeah, no, I'm just glad to be talking

0:33:30.240 --> 0:33:34.400
<v Speaker 2>with you. Yeah, for sure. Do you play an instrument?

0:33:34.400 --> 0:33:35.480
<v Speaker 2>Have you ever played an instrument?

0:33:35.800 --> 0:33:41.800
<v Speaker 1>No, I'm not. I'm not particularly musically inclined.

0:33:42.360 --> 0:33:46.840
<v Speaker 2>And I'm not with like visual art. Everyone always thinks like, oh,

0:33:46.920 --> 0:33:48.720
<v Speaker 2>you could just give it a try and it will work,

0:33:48.760 --> 0:33:52.480
<v Speaker 2>and it's like, I don't. I think that's how that works.

0:33:52.920 --> 0:33:55.480
<v Speaker 1>Are you Do you have a mustache?

0:33:57.560 --> 0:34:00.120
<v Speaker 2>I do not. I grew a mustache once and I

0:34:00.160 --> 0:34:04.080
<v Speaker 2>looked in I'm like, you're stereotypical, like Long Island Italian guy,

0:34:04.800 --> 0:34:09.799
<v Speaker 2>and I looked incredibly Italian. I looked insane. So my

0:34:09.800 --> 0:34:11.560
<v Speaker 2>girlfriend was like, you need to shave that ship. And

0:34:11.680 --> 0:34:12.719
<v Speaker 2>I looked in the mirror and I was like, I

0:34:12.800 --> 0:34:15.120
<v Speaker 2>need to shave that ship. Mm hmmm.

0:34:15.920 --> 0:34:16.520
<v Speaker 3>Why do I look?

0:34:16.719 --> 0:34:18.400
<v Speaker 2>Do I sound like I should have a mustache?

0:34:18.760 --> 0:34:21.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, I'm just you sound like you look cool.

0:34:22.560 --> 0:34:24.879
<v Speaker 2>Oh hey man, it's probably the fact that I played

0:34:24.920 --> 0:34:26.000
<v Speaker 2>jazz trumpet.

0:34:26.160 --> 0:34:28.799
<v Speaker 1>It's a it's it's holly, the fact that you play

0:34:28.880 --> 0:34:29.520
<v Speaker 1>jazz trumpet.

0:34:30.480 --> 0:34:34.040
<v Speaker 2>Helly, that's the stuff. Yeah, no, I mean, uh, you

0:34:34.080 --> 0:34:35.799
<v Speaker 2>don't know. We're a lot of tied ie. I'm like

0:34:36.120 --> 0:34:40.279
<v Speaker 2>not six foot, but I am in shoes. I'll paint yea,

0:34:40.280 --> 0:34:41.840
<v Speaker 2>I'll paint a little visual picture.

0:34:42.760 --> 0:34:44.920
<v Speaker 1>Br I hope, I hope this conversation was helpful.

0:34:44.960 --> 0:34:48.839
<v Speaker 4>I I you know it it pains me to because

0:34:49.280 --> 0:34:53.200
<v Speaker 4>it pains me to hear that you uh and we

0:34:53.239 --> 0:34:55.000
<v Speaker 4>don't you know, we talked a lot. We don't have

0:34:55.080 --> 0:34:57.920
<v Speaker 4>to go too deep back into it again, but like, uh,

0:34:58.040 --> 0:35:01.200
<v Speaker 4>you're doing a cool thing. You're helping kids, you're making music,

0:35:01.680 --> 0:35:05.280
<v Speaker 4>and it pains me to hear that. I mean, again,

0:35:05.360 --> 0:35:07.319
<v Speaker 4>regardless of what you do, like I said, you could

0:35:07.360 --> 0:35:10.759
<v Speaker 4>be uh, you know, diarying on the street whatever, but

0:35:10.920 --> 0:35:14.360
<v Speaker 4>it pains me to hear that you feel like you're

0:35:14.520 --> 0:35:21.400
<v Speaker 4>not like you're like you have to overthink everything such

0:35:21.480 --> 0:35:27.719
<v Speaker 4>that you don't accidentally impose yourself upon the world and

0:35:27.840 --> 0:35:31.200
<v Speaker 4>in an incorrect way, you know.

0:35:33.080 --> 0:35:35.040
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, man, I'll figure that out.

0:35:35.320 --> 0:35:38.359
<v Speaker 4>Like that's like I can't hear you because my hold on,

0:35:38.480 --> 0:35:39.680
<v Speaker 4>My AirPods are dying.

0:35:39.680 --> 0:35:43.359
<v Speaker 1>Wait wait one second, can you hear me now?

0:35:44.000 --> 0:35:45.520
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And that's why I ask.

0:35:45.800 --> 0:35:49.279
<v Speaker 1>Okay, we're recording. We're not gonna edit any of this.

0:35:49.360 --> 0:35:53.799
<v Speaker 4>We're just gonna we're recording this, but we're not Okay,

0:35:53.840 --> 0:35:55.560
<v Speaker 4>wait one second, hold on, hold on, hold on, I'm

0:35:55.560 --> 0:35:56.440
<v Speaker 4>gonna get.

0:35:56.239 --> 0:36:01.520
<v Speaker 2>Into theres are there, Yeah, I'm here.

0:36:01.760 --> 0:36:03.359
<v Speaker 4>Okay, all right, we can cut out the part where

0:36:03.360 --> 0:36:04.680
<v Speaker 4>I went to get the AirPods but.

0:36:06.320 --> 0:36:07.800
<v Speaker 1>Or not or whatever from the AirPods?

0:36:07.880 --> 0:36:10.040
<v Speaker 2>Do you have? Do you just have two? You interchange?

0:36:12.600 --> 0:36:13.799
<v Speaker 1>How many AirPods do I have?

0:36:14.840 --> 0:36:18.960
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:36:19.080 --> 0:36:21.279
<v Speaker 1>I have? I guess I have enough that I don't

0:36:21.280 --> 0:36:22.080
<v Speaker 1>know how many I have.

0:36:24.920 --> 0:36:29.480
<v Speaker 2>That's that's what's up, man, all right, air hold on.

0:36:29.520 --> 0:36:31.320
<v Speaker 4>By the way, just before I know, like there was

0:36:31.360 --> 0:36:33.520
<v Speaker 4>a meme for a while where like AirPods were a

0:36:33.560 --> 0:36:35.680
<v Speaker 4>sign of wealth, but they're not that expensive, they're like

0:36:35.719 --> 0:36:36.680
<v Speaker 4>the they're.

0:36:36.520 --> 0:36:39.640
<v Speaker 2>Not that ignored. I didn't I didn't nod because I

0:36:39.680 --> 0:36:41.640
<v Speaker 2>was like, oh, Wow, he's rolling in it. I was

0:36:41.719 --> 0:36:45.000
<v Speaker 2>more like, all right, this man probably has like three AirPods.

0:36:45.239 --> 0:36:48.520
<v Speaker 4>I have at least two sets of AirPods. Just before

0:36:48.600 --> 0:36:51.120
<v Speaker 4>you know, people start coming at me. But but you

0:36:51.160 --> 0:36:53.239
<v Speaker 4>know what, but you know what, even if they do,

0:36:53.320 --> 0:37:00.320
<v Speaker 4>even if they do, Jake Glenno, it's fine, do you

0:37:00.360 --> 0:37:04.319
<v Speaker 4>know why jiggling out because we're fuck it, because we're

0:37:04.360 --> 0:37:10.000
<v Speaker 4>two just we're two quirky white boys doing our thing

0:37:10.080 --> 0:37:12.400
<v Speaker 4>in this crazy world. And that's fine.

0:37:12.800 --> 0:37:14.560
<v Speaker 2>Learning letting roll off our back.

0:37:14.880 --> 0:37:16.239
<v Speaker 1>We're letting it roll off our back.

0:37:16.680 --> 0:37:18.479
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, how old were you when you when you start

0:37:18.520 --> 0:37:20.479
<v Speaker 2>to let things like roll off your back? Because I'm

0:37:20.640 --> 0:37:25.080
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I don't yeah, well, uh.

0:37:25.280 --> 0:37:27.120
<v Speaker 1>Well it depends in some areas.

0:37:27.280 --> 0:37:34.800
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, well, in some in some areas, I'm pretty

0:37:35.080 --> 0:37:38.080
<v Speaker 4>uh good at it, and then in other ones I'm

0:37:38.120 --> 0:37:40.480
<v Speaker 4>really not. Like, I'm still very like I'm I don't

0:37:40.480 --> 0:37:42.839
<v Speaker 4>want to portray myself as completely free of anxiety because

0:37:42.840 --> 0:37:48.360
<v Speaker 4>that's really not true. Yeah, but there are definitely so

0:37:48.560 --> 0:37:55.240
<v Speaker 4>I mean like, there are definitely versions of putting yourself

0:37:55.280 --> 0:37:58.279
<v Speaker 4>out there that I am extremely more comfortable with than

0:37:58.320 --> 0:38:01.560
<v Speaker 4>the average person. And then a lot of versions of

0:38:01.560 --> 0:38:04.799
<v Speaker 4>putting yourself out there that I'd like to be more

0:38:04.840 --> 0:38:09.239
<v Speaker 4>comfortable with. But I'm still I'm still working on I mean,

0:38:09.239 --> 0:38:11.600
<v Speaker 4>I still got to remind myself the like everything I'm

0:38:11.600 --> 0:38:14.480
<v Speaker 4>telling you is a is a speech I give myself

0:38:14.480 --> 0:38:17.120
<v Speaker 4>in the morning. You know, I'm still trying. I'm still

0:38:17.160 --> 0:38:22.120
<v Speaker 4>trying to affirm my own uh validity in the world.

0:38:22.360 --> 0:38:24.720
<v Speaker 4>Me and my me and my uh my best friend.

0:38:24.719 --> 0:38:26.440
<v Speaker 4>We we were talking to each other and we're like,

0:38:27.000 --> 0:38:30.400
<v Speaker 4>from now on, we declare that everything we say makes sense,

0:38:31.320 --> 0:38:34.279
<v Speaker 4>not that like and by the way, that's not a thing.

0:38:35.360 --> 0:38:40.560
<v Speaker 4>That's not a thing of like like like I can

0:38:40.600 --> 0:38:44.960
<v Speaker 4>still like absolutely be in a social interaction and then

0:38:45.040 --> 0:38:46.759
<v Speaker 4>look back and be like, oh, fuck, I was being

0:38:46.840 --> 0:38:47.759
<v Speaker 4>kind of an asshole or.

0:38:47.760 --> 0:38:50.040
<v Speaker 1>I was being kind of weird or whatever, but like, no,

0:38:50.160 --> 0:38:51.400
<v Speaker 1>not weird. No, wait, not weird.

0:38:51.560 --> 0:38:53.120
<v Speaker 4>But like I'll be like a social action be like, oh,

0:38:53.160 --> 0:38:54.840
<v Speaker 4>maybe I was being kind of a jerk, maybe I

0:38:55.120 --> 0:38:59.360
<v Speaker 4>you know this, but but but everything I say makes

0:38:59.400 --> 0:39:01.680
<v Speaker 4>sense and like you know, you know, when you like

0:39:01.680 --> 0:39:04.120
<v Speaker 4>you're having a conversation with someone, you say something and

0:39:04.160 --> 0:39:06.759
<v Speaker 4>they're like what and You're like, I thought I made sense?

0:39:06.880 --> 0:39:13.640
<v Speaker 2>Just now, yeah, man, I totally understand that.

0:39:16.920 --> 0:39:19.120
<v Speaker 1>All right, I've let sorry, I'm I'm.

0:39:19.480 --> 0:39:25.600
<v Speaker 4>I'm yelling at Jake Lenno, mister ghak. Is there anything

0:39:25.600 --> 0:39:26.799
<v Speaker 4>else you would like to say to the people of

0:39:26.800 --> 0:39:27.759
<v Speaker 4>the computer before we go?

0:39:29.960 --> 0:39:32.959
<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else I'd like to say? Peace of love.

0:39:33.880 --> 0:39:37.360
<v Speaker 2>I hope everyone has a good day. It's probably not

0:39:37.440 --> 0:39:39.680
<v Speaker 2>as big as you think it is. And listen to

0:39:39.760 --> 0:39:41.640
<v Speaker 2>this man's podcast. They're fucking dang.

0:39:42.160 --> 0:39:44.279
<v Speaker 1>Do you want to do you have a thing you

0:39:44.280 --> 0:39:45.759
<v Speaker 1>want to plug? You ken if you want?

0:39:45.880 --> 0:39:49.680
<v Speaker 2>Oh shit, yeah, no, absolutely so. I yeah, we're two.

0:39:50.120 --> 0:39:53.640
<v Speaker 2>One of them is Los mamby Sairos m A M

0:39:53.719 --> 0:39:57.040
<v Speaker 2>b I s E r O S. We play in

0:39:57.040 --> 0:40:00.920
<v Speaker 2>a Cuban song group, fucking ball. We have a gig tomorrow.

0:40:00.920 --> 0:40:03.239
<v Speaker 2>We have a gig Saturday. Uh. And then I have

0:40:03.280 --> 0:40:07.759
<v Speaker 2>another one, lod di Aspera. It's a salsa band that's

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<v Speaker 2>you can just sound that sh out. But yeah like

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<v Speaker 2>that lot Yeah yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>What is it on Instagram?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh? Exactly what I just said. L A d i

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<v Speaker 2>A s p.

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<v Speaker 1>O r A l A d I A s p

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<v Speaker 1>o r A.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, so it's just Instagram dot com slash hold on.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna i want to.

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<v Speaker 2>Look this slash back and then mom, let's look up

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<v Speaker 2>the other one. The other one is sucking fire, mamby

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<v Speaker 2>sais that one? We have a lot of fucking traction

0:40:37.760 --> 0:40:41.160
<v Speaker 2>on Uh, it's a Cuban Cuban hold on.

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<v Speaker 1>I put l A d I A s p O

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<v Speaker 1>r A.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, that should come up.

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<v Speaker 1>No, this is this took me to a guy in Nigeria.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's not me.

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<v Speaker 5>Lah d e I a law d I A s

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<v Speaker 5>p s p O r A combo. So I forgot

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<v Speaker 5>the combo too.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, yeah, so the com combo is doing a lot

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<v Speaker 4>of the heavy lifting there there we go.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, yes, commas do all right. Word, we got that

0:41:17.600 --> 0:41:20.280
<v Speaker 2>and then we got one more. That one is very big.

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<v Speaker 2>If you're in Boston, come check us out. We're fucking

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<v Speaker 2>getting a lot of traction. We play every single weekend.

0:41:27.040 --> 0:41:30.680
<v Speaker 2>And that's Los mamby seis m A m b I

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<v Speaker 2>s E r o S. I'm a trumpet player, Los

0:41:35.960 --> 0:41:43.040
<v Speaker 2>mombos m A m b I s E r o S.

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<v Speaker 4>This is gonna take me to another guy in Nigeria. Wait, okay,

0:41:48.239 --> 0:41:50.880
<v Speaker 4>loss mamby Serros, I'm just gonna google it.

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<v Speaker 2>Did it not come up.

0:41:54.400 --> 0:41:57.080
<v Speaker 1>Oh wait, no, I got I got it. I found it.

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<v Speaker 2>Hold on, Yeah, it should be a red backdrop with

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<v Speaker 2>like a bass, like a stand up, upright bass trumpet player.

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<v Speaker 2>We're all in white.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, folks, if you live in Boston, go see this.

0:42:11.280 --> 0:42:15.439
<v Speaker 4>Go see this guy. Oh, Mamby Cerro's there we go. Okay, wait,

0:42:15.480 --> 0:42:21.560
<v Speaker 4>but the insta Okay, the instagram is just mamby Seros.

0:42:24.200 --> 0:42:30.600
<v Speaker 2>Yes, I guess so, okay, Sorry, I'm digitally illiterate.

0:42:30.920 --> 0:42:35.000
<v Speaker 1>That's okay, that's okay, sick all right, wait, I'm looking back.

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<v Speaker 2>It was really nice talk with you. I really appreciate

0:42:37.440 --> 0:42:38.359
<v Speaker 2>everything that you do.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, of course, man, of course, man, I hope let

0:42:41.160 --> 0:42:43.360
<v Speaker 4>me know if anyone from the podcast comes out to

0:42:43.360 --> 0:42:44.439
<v Speaker 4>one of your gigs, that'd be cool.

0:42:45.480 --> 0:42:47.160
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And let me know if you're ever in Boston

0:42:47.200 --> 0:42:49.360
<v Speaker 2>and you ever want to like experience Boston.

0:42:50.280 --> 0:42:53.480
<v Speaker 1>Of course. Man, I'm coming to Boston in a month.

0:42:53.560 --> 0:42:56.440
<v Speaker 2>I think they're coming to Boston. All right, I'll give

0:42:56.440 --> 0:42:56.719
<v Speaker 2>you a.

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<v Speaker 4>Ring, Okay, swag awesome, Thank you, Jake. Was a good talking

0:43:00.719 --> 0:43:01.080
<v Speaker 4>to you, man.

0:43:01.960 --> 0:43:03.680
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, always going to talk to you. I mean, this

0:43:03.719 --> 0:43:05.480
<v Speaker 2>is my first time, but I bet the second time.

0:43:05.480 --> 0:43:06.160
<v Speaker 2>Will be good too.

0:43:06.800 --> 0:43:08.160
<v Speaker 1>I think I think so as well.

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<v Speaker 4>All right, where I'll catch you pease see Glenno.

0:43:15.320 --> 0:43:16.040
<v Speaker 1>I wonder if.

0:43:18.120 --> 0:43:20.480
<v Speaker 4>I wonder if he if Glenno is acceptable to him,

0:43:20.520 --> 0:43:23.640
<v Speaker 4>or if he always wants a j But you know what,

0:43:23.680 --> 0:43:25.520
<v Speaker 4>I gotta stay true to my the thing I was

0:43:25.560 --> 0:43:28.840
<v Speaker 4>just ranting about, and I gotta say that it's you know,

0:43:29.680 --> 0:43:33.400
<v Speaker 4>it's fine. I'm valid of my existence. Jake Glenno is

0:43:33.480 --> 0:43:36.239
<v Speaker 4>valid in his existence. He's a good guy.

0:43:36.320 --> 0:43:36.840
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, okay.

0:43:36.840 --> 0:43:39.360
<v Speaker 4>He The reason why it sent me to a Nigerian

0:43:39.400 --> 0:43:42.719
<v Speaker 4>guy is because, uh, he was confusing his name on

0:43:42.760 --> 0:43:47.720
<v Speaker 4>Instagram with his handle on Instagram. The handle is Mombi

0:43:47.840 --> 0:43:53.719
<v Speaker 4>Sero's and then the other handle is uh fuck.

0:43:54.640 --> 0:44:02.319
<v Speaker 1>Where was it? It was La diaspora combo swag. Thank

0:44:02.360 --> 0:44:03.280
<v Speaker 1>you again, Jake Leno.

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<v Speaker 3>Hello, Hello, can you hear me?

0:44:17.320 --> 0:44:18.520
<v Speaker 1>I can can you hear me?

0:44:19.880 --> 0:44:20.480
<v Speaker 2>I can hear you?

0:44:20.600 --> 0:44:21.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:44:21.520 --> 0:44:22.239
<v Speaker 1>What is your name?

0:44:24.360 --> 0:44:27.759
<v Speaker 3>I'm Casey, Casey, Yes, sir?

0:44:28.200 --> 0:44:29.720
<v Speaker 1>What are you doing right now? Casey?

0:44:31.480 --> 0:44:31.879
<v Speaker 2>I am.

0:44:32.200 --> 0:44:35.560
<v Speaker 3>I just went outside to take the phone call and

0:44:35.600 --> 0:44:37.960
<v Speaker 3>I was eating a hamburger at a local restaurant.

0:44:37.960 --> 0:44:40.560
<v Speaker 1>Here, Oh, a local restaurant.

0:44:41.440 --> 0:44:44.840
<v Speaker 3>Well, it's close to me local. I don't know.

0:44:44.920 --> 0:44:46.200
<v Speaker 2>It might be a national brand.

0:44:46.200 --> 0:44:47.040
<v Speaker 3>I'm not too certain.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, local is an interesting work because it can

0:44:50.360 --> 0:44:54.280
<v Speaker 4>it's a stretchy definition. If I go to the McDonald's

0:44:55.280 --> 0:44:57.600
<v Speaker 4>near my house, I mean, that's a local restaurant.

0:44:57.640 --> 0:45:03.280
<v Speaker 3>To me, it's a local that instead your local McDonald's exactly.

0:45:03.320 --> 0:45:06.680
<v Speaker 1>That's specific. McDonald's is local.

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<v Speaker 3>Doesn't it suck when your local McDonald's is like a

0:45:12.040 --> 0:45:15.520
<v Speaker 3>non participating McDonald's, Like when they have like a like

0:45:15.560 --> 0:45:19.560
<v Speaker 3>a promotion and they're like, hey, at participating McDonald's, but

0:45:19.680 --> 0:45:21.520
<v Speaker 3>the one that's right down the street from your house

0:45:21.600 --> 0:45:22.880
<v Speaker 3>is non participating.

0:45:23.440 --> 0:45:25.800
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I hate those lazy McDonald's.

0:45:27.200 --> 0:45:28.239
<v Speaker 2>Lazy McDonald's.

0:45:28.280 --> 0:45:30.319
<v Speaker 1>Yeah dude, it's like Jesus here.

0:45:30.320 --> 0:45:31.800
<v Speaker 4>You know, if you're gonna go through the whole trouble

0:45:31.800 --> 0:45:34.080
<v Speaker 4>of running a McDonald's, you might as well participates.

0:45:35.760 --> 0:45:36.359
<v Speaker 2>Yeah dude.

0:45:36.480 --> 0:45:38.440
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Well, this salary, you know what I mean, the

0:45:38.480 --> 0:45:42.240
<v Speaker 3>more they got, the uh you can differentiate the salary

0:45:42.280 --> 0:45:45.719
<v Speaker 3>people from the from the hourly and they're only there

0:45:45.840 --> 0:45:47.520
<v Speaker 3>so long. They just want to they just want to

0:45:47.560 --> 0:45:52.319
<v Speaker 3>hang it up, cash the check and you know, move

0:45:52.360 --> 0:45:53.160
<v Speaker 3>on with their lives.

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<v Speaker 4>What's your favorite McDonald's item menu menu item.

0:45:59.040 --> 0:46:02.120
<v Speaker 3>It's seasonal, it's it's uh, it's the mcgrib.

0:46:02.760 --> 0:46:08.400
<v Speaker 1>Ooh, I don't remember the last time I had a mcgrib.

0:46:08.440 --> 0:46:10.000
<v Speaker 4>Although they feel that they feel kind of great, like

0:46:10.040 --> 0:46:13.680
<v Speaker 4>the meat, McDonald's meat just feels kind of like fake.

0:46:16.920 --> 0:46:20.400
<v Speaker 3>Well it's supposed to be not and they're saying that's why,

0:46:20.800 --> 0:46:24.600
<v Speaker 3>that's why, like the McDonald's menu prices have kind of

0:46:24.680 --> 0:46:29.040
<v Speaker 3>risen or equaled out to everything else because their new

0:46:29.080 --> 0:46:32.080
<v Speaker 3>things are supposed to be using more natural ingredients. Because

0:46:32.080 --> 0:46:35.400
<v Speaker 3>like an in and out experience and a McDonald's experience

0:46:35.520 --> 0:46:37.680
<v Speaker 3>is like neck and neck right price wise.

0:46:38.520 --> 0:46:41.040
<v Speaker 1>I feel like in and Out's actually a probably at

0:46:41.080 --> 0:46:42.920
<v Speaker 1>this point cheaper than McDonald's.

0:46:44.320 --> 0:46:45.520
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, I guess.

0:46:45.520 --> 0:46:47.759
<v Speaker 2>I guess it depends how crazy you get what I get.

0:46:47.760 --> 0:46:48.880
<v Speaker 2>And I'll get.

0:46:48.719 --> 0:46:53.680
<v Speaker 3>A four by four with onions in an additional double fries,

0:46:54.360 --> 0:46:56.879
<v Speaker 3>and then to save a couple of coin, I'll get

0:46:56.880 --> 0:46:57.400
<v Speaker 3>some water.

0:46:57.480 --> 0:46:58.040
<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean.

0:46:58.120 --> 0:46:59.520
<v Speaker 3>Just get the just get the cup of water.

0:47:00.480 --> 0:47:01.839
<v Speaker 1>You know, water is good. I've been trying to drink

0:47:01.880 --> 0:47:03.560
<v Speaker 1>more water. I had I gotta.

0:47:04.200 --> 0:47:07.960
<v Speaker 4>I've really I realized that I've been unintentionally just like

0:47:08.040 --> 0:47:12.239
<v Speaker 4>drinking diet soda all the time, Like I don't like,

0:47:12.280 --> 0:47:13.880
<v Speaker 4>I don't go I go out of my way all

0:47:13.920 --> 0:47:16.720
<v Speaker 4>the time to purchase a diet soda.

0:47:17.400 --> 0:47:19.600
<v Speaker 1>Rarely do I go out of my way to drink water.

0:47:21.000 --> 0:47:23.800
<v Speaker 3>How long have you been drinking diet soda?

0:47:24.600 --> 0:47:25.200
<v Speaker 1>My whole life?

0:47:25.280 --> 0:47:25.480
<v Speaker 2>Man?

0:47:25.719 --> 0:47:26.399
<v Speaker 1>What about you?

0:47:26.440 --> 0:47:29.759
<v Speaker 2>Oh? Your whole life is that bad?

0:47:30.040 --> 0:47:32.600
<v Speaker 3>I'll jump on and jump off of drinking dice? So well, Well,

0:47:32.640 --> 0:47:34.480
<v Speaker 3>the reason I asked is because I'm I'm like a

0:47:34.760 --> 0:47:37.480
<v Speaker 3>I'm an intermittent fan, right like, I'm not gonna lie

0:47:37.520 --> 0:47:39.400
<v Speaker 3>like I'm the number one get bro, you know what

0:47:39.440 --> 0:47:42.840
<v Speaker 3>I mean. So I've been watching since like probably twenty

0:47:42.920 --> 0:47:46.919
<v Speaker 3>twenty two, probably uh huh. And then at that time,

0:47:47.000 --> 0:47:51.040
<v Speaker 3>I remember you talking saying like you were you were

0:47:51.080 --> 0:47:53.759
<v Speaker 3>seeing like that your fast food habits were equate or

0:47:53.840 --> 0:47:57.480
<v Speaker 3>like equal to like a drug addict, because you were

0:47:57.480 --> 0:48:00.920
<v Speaker 3>in the parking lot of like pandemics or Jack in

0:48:00.960 --> 0:48:04.560
<v Speaker 3>the bar at night. And so I checked back in

0:48:04.600 --> 0:48:06.359
<v Speaker 3>because I haven't seen you for a while, check back

0:48:06.360 --> 0:48:08.040
<v Speaker 3>in a couple of weeks ago. Whatever.

0:48:08.960 --> 0:48:11.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, Man, this guy experienced a glow up.

0:48:11.680 --> 0:48:13.360
<v Speaker 3>So I was thinking that he must be getting like

0:48:14.040 --> 0:48:16.000
<v Speaker 3>he must be getting super greens instead of the chow

0:48:16.120 --> 0:48:17.720
<v Speaker 3>man or instead of the noodles.

0:48:17.719 --> 0:48:18.279
<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean?

0:48:20.239 --> 0:48:22.320
<v Speaker 1>Do I wait? How do you?

0:48:22.480 --> 0:48:24.840
<v Speaker 4>Where did you see that? I stopped posting the video

0:48:24.920 --> 0:48:26.360
<v Speaker 4>on here that, but where did you see that? I

0:48:26.400 --> 0:48:27.520
<v Speaker 4>experienced a glow up?

0:48:29.000 --> 0:48:33.839
<v Speaker 3>Well, because since I haven't been a super consistent fan,

0:48:34.280 --> 0:48:38.600
<v Speaker 3>I didn't see you consistently. Like it was a more

0:48:38.680 --> 0:48:40.719
<v Speaker 3>dramatic effect from when I was watching you a few

0:48:40.800 --> 0:48:44.200
<v Speaker 3>years ago and watching you recently, you just look a

0:48:44.239 --> 0:48:44.920
<v Speaker 3>lot more cleaner.

0:48:45.000 --> 0:48:45.160
<v Speaker 2>Dude.

0:48:45.160 --> 0:48:47.480
<v Speaker 3>You could see it, like through the makeup and everything.

0:48:47.520 --> 0:48:50.480
<v Speaker 3>I was like maybe saying, Jim, maybe he's got a

0:48:50.520 --> 0:48:53.160
<v Speaker 3>new beard. Guy, I don't know, well recently.

0:48:53.600 --> 0:48:55.480
<v Speaker 4>I I don't know if this is interesting for people,

0:48:55.520 --> 0:48:58.719
<v Speaker 4>but I'm gonna talk about it. I I did a

0:48:58.719 --> 0:49:01.440
<v Speaker 4>few things. I mean, I cut my hair back in

0:49:01.480 --> 0:49:04.040
<v Speaker 4>twenty twenty two, dude, back in twenty twenty two, like

0:49:04.040 --> 0:49:05.879
<v Speaker 4>when the Gecko thing was for I'm at a more

0:49:05.920 --> 0:49:06.760
<v Speaker 4>stable place.

0:49:07.840 --> 0:49:09.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm at a more stable place.

0:49:09.320 --> 0:49:11.359
<v Speaker 4>But like when the Gecko thing was like really taking off,

0:49:11.400 --> 0:49:14.960
<v Speaker 4>I kind of had this mentality of like, you know what,

0:49:15.280 --> 0:49:20.160
<v Speaker 4>as long as like my career is going well, I

0:49:20.200 --> 0:49:22.759
<v Speaker 4>don't have to take care of any other aspect of

0:49:22.800 --> 0:49:25.480
<v Speaker 4>my life. That was when I was in twenty twenty two.

0:49:25.520 --> 0:49:28.600
<v Speaker 4>That's when I was twenty four, and that was bad.

0:49:28.680 --> 0:49:31.759
<v Speaker 4>That's when my hair was like disgusting and long, and

0:49:31.800 --> 0:49:35.239
<v Speaker 4>when I was like the fattest I've ever been. But

0:49:35.640 --> 0:49:38.799
<v Speaker 4>recently I realized, I mean not really recently, like this

0:49:38.880 --> 0:49:43.880
<v Speaker 4>is you know, once my once gecko heat started to

0:49:43.880 --> 0:49:46.360
<v Speaker 4>cool down, I was a little more like, oh, you know,

0:49:46.480 --> 0:49:51.520
<v Speaker 4>I probably should take care of myself and the thing

0:49:51.640 --> 0:49:53.200
<v Speaker 4>like well, so I don't know, you know, I'm like,

0:49:53.360 --> 0:49:57.200
<v Speaker 4>I fucking I'm trying to like wear T shirts. I'm

0:49:57.200 --> 0:49:59.880
<v Speaker 4>trying to wear clothes that don't have cartoon characters on

0:50:00.120 --> 0:50:10.520
<v Speaker 4>them and have a properly groomed hair and face and uh.

0:50:11.160 --> 0:50:14.560
<v Speaker 1>Not binge it all the time. Actually it's been pretty good.

0:50:14.600 --> 0:50:19.920
<v Speaker 4>Like when I'm not uh stressed out, it's like great,

0:50:20.280 --> 0:50:22.360
<v Speaker 4>Like you know, if I'm in a good route, if

0:50:22.360 --> 0:50:25.520
<v Speaker 4>I'm in a good routine, it's like, I fucking I

0:50:25.520 --> 0:50:30.839
<v Speaker 4>have my little protein shake, I got some sushi. I'll

0:50:30.840 --> 0:50:34.680
<v Speaker 4>have like some rotisserie chicken, some water. I'll fall asleep

0:50:34.680 --> 0:50:37.600
<v Speaker 4>in a normal time. But like I think, when when

0:50:37.640 --> 0:50:39.399
<v Speaker 4>I start to get stressed or like traveling a lot

0:50:39.520 --> 0:50:42.160
<v Speaker 4>is when things get crazier.

0:50:42.239 --> 0:50:46.600
<v Speaker 1>But lately I've been very much enjoying not binge eating.

0:50:46.880 --> 0:50:50.280
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I maybe like once a week, I'll.

0:50:50.000 --> 0:50:52.680
<v Speaker 3>You got to carry yourself and and I think if

0:50:52.680 --> 0:50:55.799
<v Speaker 3>you take care of yourself during the times where you

0:50:55.800 --> 0:50:58.200
<v Speaker 3>can control it, then that allows you to when things

0:50:58.239 --> 0:51:00.560
<v Speaker 3>get crazy, you know, mess down a little. There was

0:51:00.600 --> 0:51:04.480
<v Speaker 3>a there was an interview I saw on It was

0:51:04.520 --> 0:51:06.719
<v Speaker 3>like a Vlad TV interview or whatever. But he was

0:51:06.760 --> 0:51:09.200
<v Speaker 3>asking a question. He was using like an analogy. He's like,

0:51:09.680 --> 0:51:12.400
<v Speaker 3>if someone were to give you two hundred and fifty

0:51:12.440 --> 0:51:15.640
<v Speaker 3>thousand dollars cash, but you had to sign a contract

0:51:15.719 --> 0:51:17.960
<v Speaker 3>with like a genie or whatever. This is totally hypothetical.

0:51:17.960 --> 0:51:20.760
<v Speaker 3>And he's like, two hundred and fifty thousand dollars cash,

0:51:21.800 --> 0:51:24.399
<v Speaker 3>which you have to spend it on a vehicle, and

0:51:24.680 --> 0:51:28.319
<v Speaker 3>the rules are you have to keep this vehicle for

0:51:28.360 --> 0:51:31.680
<v Speaker 3>the rest of your life. And you know, if you

0:51:31.760 --> 0:51:35.000
<v Speaker 3>if you go buy a Corolla for twenty grand, the

0:51:35.040 --> 0:51:37.480
<v Speaker 3>rest of the balance you can use for repairs or whatever,

0:51:38.280 --> 0:51:41.200
<v Speaker 3>or you can go buy a Lambeau or whatever and

0:51:41.320 --> 0:51:45.200
<v Speaker 3>spend it all. He's like, but the the meat and

0:51:45.239 --> 0:51:49.320
<v Speaker 3>potatoes of this analogy is smart people are gonna go spend,

0:51:49.400 --> 0:51:51.600
<v Speaker 3>you know, something modest. We're gonna get a Corolla. They're

0:51:51.600 --> 0:51:53.760
<v Speaker 3>gonna get something they know is gonna last, a fore Runner.

0:51:53.800 --> 0:51:57.440
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, a Honda, you know whatever, whatever your

0:51:57.440 --> 0:52:01.720
<v Speaker 3>flavor is, save the money and for repairs to the future,

0:52:02.320 --> 0:52:06.319
<v Speaker 3>and then you're gonna treat that car like it's the

0:52:06.360 --> 0:52:08.080
<v Speaker 3>car you're gonna have for the rest of your life.

0:52:08.080 --> 0:52:11.520
<v Speaker 3>You're gonna be real careful around every pothole. The thing

0:52:11.719 --> 0:52:14.879
<v Speaker 3>is that is true with our bodies. We literally only

0:52:14.960 --> 0:52:16.000
<v Speaker 3>get one body.

0:52:16.080 --> 0:52:16.360
<v Speaker 2>Dude.

0:52:16.440 --> 0:52:22.359
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, of course, yeah, I I think, well, I mean,

0:52:22.760 --> 0:52:25.600
<v Speaker 4>like you know, I U I use this as an

0:52:25.680 --> 0:52:29.560
<v Speaker 4>excuse a lot of Like I like.

0:52:31.160 --> 0:52:32.439
<v Speaker 1>Live life.

0:52:33.640 --> 0:52:40.080
<v Speaker 4>Moderately fast in the sense that like I'm always traveling,

0:52:40.160 --> 0:52:42.080
<v Speaker 4>and I'm I try not to be out of the

0:52:42.719 --> 0:52:44.600
<v Speaker 4>I try to like be in my house as little

0:52:44.600 --> 0:52:50.399
<v Speaker 4>as possible, and that makes it slightly difficult to take

0:52:50.440 --> 0:52:53.560
<v Speaker 4>care of myself. But I actually think I've developed in

0:52:53.600 --> 0:53:00.279
<v Speaker 4>the past few years. I've developed a better way of

0:53:00.440 --> 0:53:05.360
<v Speaker 4>taking care of my health while still doing the things

0:53:05.400 --> 0:53:08.680
<v Speaker 4>and living the way that I want to live. And

0:53:08.719 --> 0:53:11.880
<v Speaker 4>it's like I find enjoyment in it, Like what I

0:53:11.960 --> 0:53:14.319
<v Speaker 4>like what I I mean, binge eating feels bad, like

0:53:14.360 --> 0:53:17.560
<v Speaker 4>it's never uh, it's not good. But you know when

0:53:17.600 --> 0:53:19.279
<v Speaker 4>you when I get into times of like like like

0:53:19.360 --> 0:53:23.160
<v Speaker 4>intense like stress or depression or whatever, I'll do it

0:53:23.200 --> 0:53:24.880
<v Speaker 4>for a while, but now I'll get into these extended

0:53:24.920 --> 0:53:28.279
<v Speaker 4>periods of time where like I'm like counting calories and

0:53:28.360 --> 0:53:30.480
<v Speaker 4>exercising and all that stuff, and.

0:53:30.440 --> 0:53:31.359
<v Speaker 1>It's it's it's great.

0:53:31.760 --> 0:53:35.160
<v Speaker 4>Every time I do that, I'm always like, oh, I

0:53:35.160 --> 0:53:39.480
<v Speaker 4>should have fucking done this earlier, you know.

0:53:40.400 --> 0:53:44.360
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, moderation. Everything in moderation, even moderation.

0:53:44.000 --> 0:53:47.080
<v Speaker 1>Though, right, sure of course, dude.

0:53:47.200 --> 0:53:50.279
<v Speaker 3>I live like behind a Whole Foods, and I know

0:53:50.400 --> 0:53:52.360
<v Speaker 3>they have like a buffet there and it's expensive, but

0:53:52.400 --> 0:53:55.440
<v Speaker 3>they got mac and cheese. There's been times where I've

0:53:55.480 --> 0:53:58.799
<v Speaker 3>gone there, loaded up and then my weight you know

0:53:58.840 --> 0:54:01.200
<v Speaker 3>whatever it is costwait to twenty two bucks, and then

0:54:01.200 --> 0:54:04.040
<v Speaker 3>I've driven to McDonald's and gotten a big neck because

0:54:04.080 --> 0:54:06.399
<v Speaker 3>I felt like it, and then fushed off the whole thing.

0:54:06.800 --> 0:54:09.200
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, dude, you need you know what, Here's what it

0:54:09.239 --> 0:54:09.560
<v Speaker 1>is for me.

0:54:09.600 --> 0:54:13.960
<v Speaker 4>It's like I actually sometimes sometimes I rationalize doing that

0:54:14.040 --> 0:54:17.279
<v Speaker 4>sometimes by being like I need. It's the verse It's

0:54:17.320 --> 0:54:20.319
<v Speaker 4>the food version of like, oh we'll smoke a whole

0:54:20.360 --> 0:54:23.560
<v Speaker 4>pack of cigarettes type of shit where it's like if

0:54:23.600 --> 0:54:26.200
<v Speaker 4>I've been eating, if I've been, if I've been, like

0:54:26.280 --> 0:54:28.200
<v Speaker 4>if like if it's been like a week since I've

0:54:28.200 --> 0:54:31.080
<v Speaker 4>done a binge eating thing, I and like I get

0:54:31.080 --> 0:54:33.359
<v Speaker 4>a little I have like one day where I'm like,

0:54:33.400 --> 0:54:36.040
<v Speaker 4>you know what, let me let me dive back in,

0:54:36.120 --> 0:54:37.920
<v Speaker 4>let me see what happens. And then I do it,

0:54:38.600 --> 0:54:41.719
<v Speaker 4>and then I'm immediately reminded of like, oh, yeah, this

0:54:41.880 --> 0:54:44.279
<v Speaker 4>is awful. And then the next day I don't even

0:54:44.320 --> 0:54:45.240
<v Speaker 4>have a craving anymore.

0:54:47.560 --> 0:54:49.920
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, sometimes you gotta let stuff run its course like that,

0:54:49.960 --> 0:54:50.759
<v Speaker 3>I reckon.

0:54:50.800 --> 0:54:54.879
<v Speaker 1>A little bit. Yeah, but yeah, I don't know. Life's fun.

0:54:55.120 --> 0:54:56.240
<v Speaker 1>What you want to talk about today?

0:54:56.239 --> 0:54:56.399
<v Speaker 2>Man?

0:54:56.400 --> 0:54:59.120
<v Speaker 1>We just we we just did ten minutes on I

0:54:59.120 --> 0:55:00.399
<v Speaker 1>don't even know. I don't even know we've been talk

0:55:00.400 --> 0:55:01.360
<v Speaker 1>about for the last ten minutes.

0:55:02.400 --> 0:55:03.040
<v Speaker 2>That's food.

0:55:03.520 --> 0:55:06.880
<v Speaker 3>There's a couple of Americans just having a conversation. Dude.

0:55:07.440 --> 0:55:11.640
<v Speaker 3>Oh so this is interesting. I got back into watching

0:55:11.719 --> 0:55:16.360
<v Speaker 3>your watching your videos, and one of the nights I

0:55:16.440 --> 0:55:19.080
<v Speaker 3>had a dream and the dream is super strange and

0:55:19.120 --> 0:55:20.640
<v Speaker 3>it's kind of goes back to what we're talking about.

0:55:20.680 --> 0:55:24.160
<v Speaker 3>Whenever I eat like healthy or something that's like nutrient dense,

0:55:24.200 --> 0:55:27.319
<v Speaker 3>it feels like I have dreams that night, dude. This

0:55:27.400 --> 0:55:30.759
<v Speaker 3>dream was It is interesting because it was almost like

0:55:30.800 --> 0:55:34.640
<v Speaker 3>I was watching a full length movie. And what happened

0:55:34.640 --> 0:55:36.280
<v Speaker 3>in the beginning of it, I was with a woman

0:55:36.320 --> 0:55:39.719
<v Speaker 3>and I was like fifteen years in the future with

0:55:39.880 --> 0:55:41.200
<v Speaker 3>some woman. And the thing is, I don't know if

0:55:41.239 --> 0:55:44.400
<v Speaker 3>it's my current girlfriend. I didn't make out like her face.

0:55:44.600 --> 0:55:47.879
<v Speaker 3>I just remember speaking to a woman and telling her like, hey,

0:55:48.920 --> 0:55:53.800
<v Speaker 3>I raised my sons to be really you know, logical thinkers,

0:55:54.280 --> 0:55:57.360
<v Speaker 3>and I raised them to be really strong. You know,

0:55:57.400 --> 0:55:59.960
<v Speaker 3>they're not savages, but they're logical, and they're you know,

0:56:00.840 --> 0:56:03.120
<v Speaker 3>they're tough guys. Oh I shouldn't say tough guys, because

0:56:03.160 --> 0:56:07.160
<v Speaker 3>that's not really the really the thing going on. Just

0:56:07.160 --> 0:56:11.840
<v Speaker 3>just logical, is what we'll say. So I was telling

0:56:11.880 --> 0:56:13.920
<v Speaker 3>her in the conversation. I don't know why. I was like,

0:56:13.960 --> 0:56:16.040
<v Speaker 3>I want them to be the one that takes me out,

0:56:17.120 --> 0:56:19.200
<v Speaker 3>you know, when it's time to go. I don't want

0:56:19.200 --> 0:56:21.000
<v Speaker 3>them to have to sit with me, you know, in

0:56:21.160 --> 0:56:24.040
<v Speaker 3>hospice and hold my hand and you know, see the

0:56:24.040 --> 0:56:26.600
<v Speaker 3>pea bag and all that. When you get to a

0:56:26.640 --> 0:56:29.279
<v Speaker 3>point where they make the decision and then they take

0:56:29.320 --> 0:56:32.280
<v Speaker 3>me out, you know, and she's like, whoa, okay whatever.

0:56:34.000 --> 0:56:38.120
<v Speaker 3>So in the dream, we go out and then like

0:56:38.280 --> 0:56:41.760
<v Speaker 3>my sons are kind of talking or whatever, and then

0:56:42.120 --> 0:56:44.839
<v Speaker 3>we go out to go collect firewood. So for whatever reason,

0:56:44.880 --> 0:56:48.440
<v Speaker 3>we're going out to the woods to collect firewood, and

0:56:48.480 --> 0:56:50.400
<v Speaker 3>then I kind of know the vibe is they're like,

0:56:50.440 --> 0:56:54.359
<v Speaker 3>this is Dad's last go So we're out there and

0:56:54.360 --> 0:56:56.560
<v Speaker 3>with a hatchet whatever. But I'm like, I'm probably just

0:56:56.600 --> 0:56:59.280
<v Speaker 3>overthinking this because of the conversation I had with my wife.

0:57:00.640 --> 0:57:02.160
<v Speaker 3>And then I look behind me and then one of

0:57:02.160 --> 0:57:04.960
<v Speaker 3>my sons has like he's got like a hatchet and

0:57:05.000 --> 0:57:06.960
<v Speaker 3>he's looking at me like what the fuck are you doing.

0:57:07.840 --> 0:57:10.720
<v Speaker 3>He goes, this is your one last goat collecting wood Dad.

0:57:11.239 --> 0:57:13.680
<v Speaker 3>I was like, what are you talking about, because we're

0:57:13.719 --> 0:57:16.200
<v Speaker 3>making the decision. I said, dude, I'm fucking fifty one.

0:57:17.320 --> 0:57:19.440
<v Speaker 3>And then he like he looks at me and he

0:57:19.520 --> 0:57:23.400
<v Speaker 3>goes unclert unc alert, like, dude, get the fuck in

0:57:23.440 --> 0:57:25.560
<v Speaker 3>the truck. So we got back in the truck and

0:57:25.600 --> 0:57:26.600
<v Speaker 3>that was the end of the dream.

0:57:27.760 --> 0:57:29.480
<v Speaker 1>Do you actually have two sons.

0:57:30.640 --> 0:57:31.880
<v Speaker 3>Dude, I don't have any kids.

0:57:33.760 --> 0:57:34.640
<v Speaker 1>Wait, how old are you?

0:57:36.080 --> 0:57:40.840
<v Speaker 3>I'm thirty four, m thirty four. Imagine if people talk

0:57:40.920 --> 0:57:42.080
<v Speaker 3>like that, like Reddit.

0:57:43.200 --> 0:57:45.360
<v Speaker 4>Okay, I thought you actually were a fifty one year

0:57:45.400 --> 0:57:46.600
<v Speaker 4>old man with two sons.

0:57:48.000 --> 0:57:50.040
<v Speaker 3>No, dude, dumb thirty four. I have no kids. I

0:57:50.080 --> 0:57:52.600
<v Speaker 3>got a girlfriend. That's the closest that I've gotten to

0:57:52.720 --> 0:57:54.720
<v Speaker 3>that process.

0:57:55.280 --> 0:57:59.280
<v Speaker 4>But hey, you texted me saying people think I'm Jewish

0:57:59.320 --> 0:58:01.600
<v Speaker 4>and it's gone on so long that I can't really

0:58:01.600 --> 0:58:02.520
<v Speaker 4>correct them.

0:58:03.280 --> 0:58:04.240
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Yeah, man.

0:58:04.400 --> 0:58:07.760
<v Speaker 3>So one of the guys that I worked for, I

0:58:07.800 --> 0:58:10.800
<v Speaker 3>don't know if if you're the understudy, who's the person

0:58:10.840 --> 0:58:16.680
<v Speaker 3>that you study under? What do you call that your overstudy? Yeah?

0:58:17.360 --> 0:58:20.080
<v Speaker 3>So an overstudy. He was a he's a and I

0:58:20.200 --> 0:58:22.880
<v Speaker 3>known him for years, you know whatever. He's a Jewish guy.

0:58:23.040 --> 0:58:27.760
<v Speaker 3>He's a salesman. I'm a salesman. So he ended up

0:58:28.280 --> 0:58:35.440
<v Speaker 3>leaving at one point, and there's a select like group

0:58:35.480 --> 0:58:39.880
<v Speaker 3>of people that just kind of think, because I was like,

0:58:40.680 --> 0:58:43.360
<v Speaker 3>kind of is the understudies that I am Jewish? And

0:58:43.440 --> 0:58:45.560
<v Speaker 3>I just never corrected him. It's gone on so long,

0:58:45.640 --> 0:58:48.680
<v Speaker 3>it's like it's I don't know what to even. I

0:58:48.720 --> 0:58:50.280
<v Speaker 3>don't really know how to bring it up to him.

0:58:51.280 --> 0:58:54.080
<v Speaker 4>How often do people I mean, how often does this

0:58:54.160 --> 0:58:56.880
<v Speaker 4>even come up in confat It seems like this doesn't

0:58:57.200 --> 0:59:01.280
<v Speaker 4>This wouldn't come up often enough that there would even

0:59:01.280 --> 0:59:03.120
<v Speaker 4>be an opportunity to correct someone.

0:59:04.520 --> 0:59:07.440
<v Speaker 3>No, No, it's so how it'll go is people will

0:59:07.480 --> 0:59:09.920
<v Speaker 3>be talking about the news or whatever, and then they

0:59:09.920 --> 0:59:13.840
<v Speaker 3>start talking about Israel Palestine, and then they kind of

0:59:14.160 --> 0:59:17.200
<v Speaker 3>look at me a little bit and so uh uh yeah,

0:59:17.320 --> 0:59:19.760
<v Speaker 3>you know, it is really hot in the you know,

0:59:20.680 --> 0:59:25.640
<v Speaker 3>this summer is a little extra hot.

0:59:24.160 --> 0:59:25.000
<v Speaker 2>You know kind of thing.

0:59:25.920 --> 0:59:26.520
<v Speaker 5>And then.

0:59:28.160 --> 0:59:30.360
<v Speaker 3>I've heard right like say my last name, but I've

0:59:30.400 --> 0:59:32.240
<v Speaker 3>heard my last name, and this is kind of a

0:59:32.240 --> 0:59:38.000
<v Speaker 3>little bit more to the extreme. Is they'll put H

0:59:38.320 --> 0:59:40.360
<v Speaker 3>S T E I N at the end of it

0:59:41.160 --> 0:59:43.640
<v Speaker 3>to make it sound more Jewish.

0:59:45.080 --> 0:59:49.360
<v Speaker 1>Other people will put Stein on your last name.

0:59:51.280 --> 0:59:54.400
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, to make it sound a little bit more like fitting.

0:59:54.440 --> 0:59:57.280
<v Speaker 3>They won't write it on paper, but you know, like

0:59:57.360 --> 0:59:59.960
<v Speaker 3>I got something going on, I'm trying to negotiate something,

1:00:00.000 --> 1:00:02.280
<v Speaker 3>and they're like, uh oh ye, yeah, such and such

1:00:02.360 --> 1:00:04.000
<v Speaker 3>stem is gonna do whatever.

1:00:05.800 --> 1:00:10.200
<v Speaker 1>It sounds anti Semitic, oh.

1:00:09.760 --> 1:00:10.920
<v Speaker 2>It it is.

1:00:11.200 --> 1:00:15.560
<v Speaker 3>And I don't really associate myself with with the people

1:00:15.600 --> 1:00:18.160
<v Speaker 3>that do that, and it's kind of like, instead of

1:00:18.400 --> 1:00:22.520
<v Speaker 3>starting a big thing, I just kind of choose my battles,

1:00:22.640 --> 1:00:23.280
<v Speaker 3>you know what I mean.

1:00:24.000 --> 1:00:24.360
<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm.

1:00:27.800 --> 1:00:31.800
<v Speaker 4>I mean you could you could make an announcement that

1:00:31.840 --> 1:00:34.680
<v Speaker 4>you're not Jewish if it matters that much to you.

1:00:36.200 --> 1:00:41.000
<v Speaker 3>So it happens so infrequently that it's I feel like

1:00:41.040 --> 1:00:44.640
<v Speaker 3>it would be kind of a thing like, yeah, like dude,

1:00:44.720 --> 1:00:46.800
<v Speaker 3>only thirty percent of the people think that, and we

1:00:46.800 --> 1:00:48.560
<v Speaker 3>don't even really talk to those people. So it's kind

1:00:48.600 --> 1:00:52.120
<v Speaker 3>of a strange thing. And I kind of feel almost

1:00:52.280 --> 1:00:54.360
<v Speaker 3>like I don't know how familiar are with Seinfeld, but

1:00:54.400 --> 1:00:56.840
<v Speaker 3>there was an episode where I think it seems Brian Kranston,

1:00:57.360 --> 1:00:59.600
<v Speaker 3>a guy from The.

1:00:59.640 --> 1:01:00.840
<v Speaker 1>Guy the one where is it?

1:01:00.840 --> 1:01:02.720
<v Speaker 4>The one where is it the one where he converts

1:01:02.760 --> 1:01:06.080
<v Speaker 4>to Judaism so he can tell Jewish jokes just.

1:01:06.000 --> 1:01:08.360
<v Speaker 3>For the jokes. Yeah, dude, it's weird because I always

1:01:08.400 --> 1:01:11.080
<v Speaker 3>kind of think of that that that episode of those

1:01:11.120 --> 1:01:16.000
<v Speaker 3>group of episodes where that happens.

1:01:17.160 --> 1:01:21.200
<v Speaker 1>Shit, man, I mean just fucking.

1:01:23.960 --> 1:01:26.560
<v Speaker 3>And I don't like it or dislike it. It's just

1:01:26.640 --> 1:01:29.479
<v Speaker 3>kind of a it's kind of a funny, weird thing.

1:01:31.600 --> 1:01:38.160
<v Speaker 4>Uh, Then tell why don't you tell people that you're Yeah, sure,

1:01:38.200 --> 1:01:41.080
<v Speaker 4>tell people you're Jewish, tell people you're not Jewish.

1:01:41.560 --> 1:01:42.880
<v Speaker 1>Do whatever, be whoever you want.

1:01:42.880 --> 1:01:46.200
<v Speaker 4>I mean, by the way, listen, being anything is just

1:01:46.280 --> 1:01:49.400
<v Speaker 4>saying you are it.

1:01:49.520 --> 1:01:54.080
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, So do with that information what you will.

1:01:55.240 --> 1:01:56.200
<v Speaker 1>What's your name again?

1:01:57.680 --> 1:01:59.280
<v Speaker 2>This Casey Casey.

1:02:00.320 --> 1:02:05.800
<v Speaker 4>I'm glad you checked in after uh a few years.

1:02:06.040 --> 1:02:09.560
<v Speaker 4>Thanks for being nice to me. So there was another

1:02:09.600 --> 1:02:12.000
<v Speaker 4>caller I don't know how many episodes ago he was

1:02:12.400 --> 1:02:12.920
<v Speaker 4>mean to me.

1:02:14.200 --> 1:02:15.840
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you don't let that bring me down.

1:02:17.800 --> 1:02:18.000
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

1:02:18.080 --> 1:02:20.880
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you've been nice to me in the ways. You've

1:02:20.920 --> 1:02:23.680
<v Speaker 3>been nice to me in the ways of like say,

1:02:23.680 --> 1:02:26.560
<v Speaker 3>I'm working to jobs. I don't really feel like investing

1:02:26.760 --> 1:02:30.480
<v Speaker 3>into a new series or a movie, but I know

1:02:30.720 --> 1:02:35.360
<v Speaker 3>some good like content that I can engage with H

1:02:35.480 --> 1:02:39.400
<v Speaker 3>fifty in the background fully, you know what I mean.

1:02:39.720 --> 1:02:41.919
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I'm just fucking around, man, I'm just fucking around.

1:02:41.960 --> 1:02:45.040
<v Speaker 4>What's your name again, Kasey Casey?

1:02:45.120 --> 1:02:45.360
<v Speaker 2>Sorry?

1:02:45.400 --> 1:02:47.320
<v Speaker 1>I already sorry. I REMEMBERRAND doesn't work, Casey.

1:02:47.480 --> 1:02:48.840
<v Speaker 4>Is there anything else you want to say to the

1:02:48.840 --> 1:02:52.080
<v Speaker 4>people of the computer or to McDonald's if they're listening.

1:02:51.880 --> 1:02:52.160
<v Speaker 2>To this.

1:02:54.240 --> 1:02:57.440
<v Speaker 3>Campaign for your McDonald's to be participating.

1:02:57.200 --> 1:02:58.720
<v Speaker 1>Yes, participate.

1:02:59.280 --> 1:03:00.640
<v Speaker 2>McDonald's participate.

1:03:01.040 --> 1:03:03.080
<v Speaker 1>Why we should start a campaign to get all the

1:03:03.160 --> 1:03:05.320
<v Speaker 1>McDonald's to be a participatory.

1:03:06.520 --> 1:03:06.960
<v Speaker 3>For sure?

1:03:08.280 --> 1:03:11.000
<v Speaker 2>Thank you, Casey later Man. Thanks.

1:03:12.600 --> 1:03:15.760
<v Speaker 4>Never be K goes on the line taking your phone

1:03:15.760 --> 1:03:16.680
<v Speaker 4>calls every night.

1:03:17.080 --> 1:03:19.800
<v Speaker 1>Never Pacon goes to and his ride's.

1:03:19.320 --> 1:03:21.240
<v Speaker 3>Teaching you loud in the middle of your life.

1:03:21.600 --> 1:03:23.800
<v Speaker 4>But he's not really an expert.