Speaker 1: You just said all these beautiful things. It was very short,
Speaker 1: sweet and to the point. And then he just asked
Speaker 1: if I would marry him. I asked Amelia, I was like, well,
Speaker 1: who knows. He's like, well, everybody that's important to you know?
Speaker 1: So I'm like, what my siblings know? And He's like yes,
Speaker 1: I asked Johnny for your hand. The crazy thing is
Speaker 1: I was telling them a week before. I'm like, you
Speaker 1: guys like, I feel like I don't deserve a media
Speaker 1: like I feel like I have to let him go.
Speaker 1: This is literally a week ago, a week before our engagement.
Speaker 1: Hello everyone, and welcome back to a very special episode
Speaker 1: of Cheese and Chew. I'm your host Cheeky's and guess what,
Speaker 1: I'm engaged. I seriously can't believe it either. I know right,
Speaker 1: I'm so excited and I can't wait to share all
Speaker 1: the details with you all right here on my podcast.
Speaker 1: So without further ado, let's talk about how I'm on
Speaker 1: my way to the altar to say I do. This
Speaker 1: is Cheeky's and Chill. I feel like there's so much
Speaker 1: I want to say, but I think a good place
Speaker 1: to start is in the beginning. When a media and
Speaker 1: I first started dating. I know I've shared some of
Speaker 1: this in previous episodes you guys, but I want to
Speaker 1: share some of it again because I want you guys
Speaker 1: to hear about all the growth that's happened that has
Speaker 1: led us to this next stage in our relationship. So
Speaker 1: we'll start there and then we'll get into the details
Speaker 1: of the proposal. All right, So, Emilia, when I met
Speaker 1: the first time during Quarantine, I want to say it
Speaker 1: was May of twenty twenty, and that's the very first
Speaker 1: time I had ever seen him, I had ever heard
Speaker 1: his name. Becky and I did a song Becky Chan
Speaker 1: and I, who is very good friends with Emilio. They
Speaker 1: actually like call each other cousins. Becky and I did
Speaker 1: a song Joline that was on my album playlist, and
Speaker 1: Quarantine happened, and we had to do the pictures and
Speaker 1: everything because it was going to be a single, we
Speaker 1: had to do the video, so we had to come
Speaker 1: up with like a really cool and creative way of
Speaker 1: making it happen. So we did an animated video music video,
Speaker 1: and we needed a bunch of pictures. So that's when
Speaker 1: I first met at Media. Because Becky wanted it to
Speaker 1: be someone that she knew and that she trusted and
Speaker 1: that had already gotten tested and came out negative. So
Speaker 1: I said, okay, cool. Usually I'm like, oh, I really
Speaker 1: like my photographer. You know, I've been using them for
Speaker 1: a long time. His name is Francis Bernard, so shout
Speaker 1: out to him and anyway, so I said, okay, cool. Yes,
Speaker 1: she said, okay, he's he already got like tested and
Speaker 1: he should go to the house. Everything was happening from
Speaker 1: our homes. We had to do like the whole setup.
Speaker 1: She did her pictures at her house. I did my
Speaker 1: pictures at my house, and so when a media got there,
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, hi, I was at that time,
Speaker 1: you guys going through a separation for the first time,
Speaker 1: because if you guys didn't know, I was, you know,
Speaker 1: previously married. So that was the first time when him
Speaker 1: and I got separated after getting married. And that's when
Speaker 1: I met Emilio. He was out of the house, my
Speaker 1: ex was out of the house, and it was a
Speaker 1: very weird time. But anyways, I still had to work.
Speaker 1: I was pushing through. He was a photographer and me,
Speaker 1: I was a photographer. We spent like hours together because
Speaker 1: I had to do all these weird and crazy positions
Speaker 1: or like not positions because that sounds a little sexual.
Speaker 1: Because we were like I had to shoot like a gun.
Speaker 1: I had to like get on my knees. It was
Speaker 1: like so crazy because he had us take steals in
Speaker 1: order to make it like move and make it animated
Speaker 1: and stuff. I don't really know much about that stuff,
Speaker 1: but anyways, we met. I remember telling him, I was like, hey,
Speaker 1: you have really pretty eyeballs and they said, hey, oh, thanks,
Speaker 1: like he looked at me like that's kind of weird,
Speaker 1: and I just never forgot. Oh that was it, right,
Speaker 1: That's the first time we met. He was very respectful,
Speaker 1: very professional, and he left. He said that he felt
Speaker 1: like there was something there. But then towards the end
Speaker 1: of the day, I was just kind of like nonchalant,
Speaker 1: and I think I was maybe because I was still
Speaker 1: trying to figure out my personal situation. So anyways, fast
Speaker 1: forwarding to twenty twenty one. March of twenty twenty one,
Speaker 1: my sister and I, Jenica, we did like a surprise
Speaker 1: party for Becky at my house again, and we didn't
Speaker 1: really invite anyone. Well, we invited some people, but most
Speaker 1: of everyone got invited because of Becky's mom. We were
Speaker 1: surprising Becky, so we had her invite like all her
Speaker 1: close friends and people that she really cared about, and
Speaker 1: Emilio was one of the invites. That was March first
Speaker 1: of twenty twenty one, and that's when I saw Emilio again.
Speaker 1: So I was getting ready. People were already getting there.
Speaker 1: The setup was already done, and of course when you're hosting,
Speaker 1: you're like the last one to come out because, like
Speaker 1: you know, you're taking care of all the details. So
Speaker 1: finally I got myself ready and I was coming out
Speaker 1: of my glamor room and he was walking in from
Speaker 1: the backyard where the party was at, and I remember
Speaker 1: we just made eye contact and it kind of just
Speaker 1: like all came back, you guys. Like it was like, oh, shoot,
Speaker 1: that's the guy with the pretty eyeballs, and so we
Speaker 1: smiled and we both kind of just looked at each
Speaker 1: other and we gave each other a hug. I was like, oh, hey,
Speaker 1: you're that guy the photographer. He's like yeah, and he's like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I just came from work. So I'm just kind of
Speaker 1: like sorry if I'm like a little thinking like no,
Speaker 1: you're totally fine. He's like yeah, I was trying to
Speaker 1: make sure I got here before Becky, so I was like, no,
Speaker 1: you're good. So anyways, we started taking shots. Like I
Speaker 1: sat next to him, like I felt very comfortable. By
Speaker 1: this time, I was already like very separated, you guys,
Speaker 1: like completely separate, and nothing was there, Like I was single, single,
Speaker 1: one hundred percent. Just wanted to put that out there. Anyway,
Speaker 1: So we were chilling and flirting and then you know,
Speaker 1: I told him that I wanted to poke his dimples
Speaker 1: because I love his dimple. So I said, hey, can
Speaker 1: I poke your dimples? Well before that, I guess the
Speaker 1: sink to my restroom wet him or something like that,
Speaker 1: and he's like, hey, your sink just like freaking spit
Speaker 1: at me. And I was like, oh my god, I
Speaker 1: made a huge mess. Whatever. So I went in there
Speaker 1: and like helped him clean it up, and you know,
Speaker 1: that's like the first I think, like, Well, we laughed
Speaker 1: and it was like cute because we were in the
Speaker 1: bathroom together, and then the buzz started and then that's
Speaker 1: when I was like, hey, I want to poke your dimple.
Speaker 1: He's like, yeah, you could do whatever you want. And
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, shoot, okay, So I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: he's into me, and then we kissed. He kissed me,
Speaker 1: he followed me into like one of the rooms, and
Speaker 1: I kind of was kind of like giving him the hint,
Speaker 1: like come like, hey, what's up, you know, and he
Speaker 1: got so he followed me and we kissed, and yeah,
Speaker 1: that's how we're kind of here. So ever since then,
Speaker 1: I was very honest with him, you guys, very straightforward.
Speaker 1: I said, you know what, I don't want to make
Speaker 1: the same mistake I made in my past relationships, and
Speaker 1: I want to be better in every way I want
Speaker 1: to learn because I also wasn't perfect and my past relationship,
Speaker 1: and I was like, I want to do things right.
Speaker 1: So that night, I told him, Hey, I don't know
Speaker 1: what's going on here, but I just want you to
Speaker 1: know that I'm broken, I am still healing from my
Speaker 1: past relationship. I'm still married. I'm trying to get divorced.
Speaker 1: He's not really cooperating. I don't know how long it's
Speaker 1: going to take, but I just want to let you
Speaker 1: know this is my situation and I'm going through some
Speaker 1: things with my extended family and I'm just very sad
Speaker 1: and I'm not ready to be in a relationship. But
Speaker 1: I like you and I'd like to spend time with you.
Speaker 1: And if you're down, then cool. But I am. I'm
Speaker 1: not in a good place emotion And I just remember
Speaker 1: him looking into my eyes. He's like, it's okay, there's
Speaker 1: no need for you to do this alone. I can
Speaker 1: help you heal. I was like, okay, thank you. I
Speaker 1: thought it was really sweet, but I knew from like
Speaker 1: therapy that the healing was in my hands, it was
Speaker 1: my responsibility. But it was nice to hear someone say, hey, like,
Speaker 1: you don't have to do this by yourself. You don't
Speaker 1: have to be alone to figure this out. Little did
Speaker 1: I know at that time. I didn't find out until
Speaker 1: months later that a media had just gotten out of
Speaker 1: a relationship. He was in a relationship for like four years,
Speaker 1: on and off. They had their own issues. I feel
Speaker 1: like it's not my place to talk about it, but
Speaker 1: they had just like officially broken up in January, so
Speaker 1: that was fairly fresh. And he was on like this
Speaker 1: fitness thing, working out, eating healthy, like he was just
Speaker 1: really focused on work and you know, being healthy during
Speaker 1: that time. I think because he was also going through
Speaker 1: a heartbreak, so I was very worried that we were
Speaker 1: each other's rebound to be honest, and we had these
Speaker 1: deep conversations. I was like, hey, I one time, I
Speaker 1: remember asking him, Hey, do you miss your ex girlfriend?
Speaker 1: And he said, I, actually, I'm not gonna lie, I
Speaker 1: kind of do, and I remember like my feelings being hurt.
Speaker 1: But then I was like, dude, at least he's being honest.
Speaker 1: And I asked, and you know, that's my bad, I
Speaker 1: guess for asking. But from the beginning we had these beautiful, honest,
Speaker 1: raw conversations, and I think we helped each other, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like I'm telling you that that's
Speaker 1: why I think I waited, because we did talk about marriage,
Speaker 1: like in the first year of our relationship, and you know,
Speaker 1: and I have now been together for two years and
Speaker 1: five months something like that. So in the first year
Speaker 1: of our relationship, we did kind of talk about marriage.
Speaker 1: We mentioned it, and I wasn't ready to talk about
Speaker 1: it because it took me a whole year. You guys
Speaker 1: are a little bit more to actually get divorced, to
Speaker 1: get the papers for it to be completed and finalized.
Speaker 1: It was so tough, you guys. That's a whole other conversation.
Speaker 1: But I feel like I need to mention it just
Speaker 1: because our relationship did start with me still being married.
Speaker 1: And I would tell him, I'm like, you know what,
Speaker 1: like I just feel bad, Like I feel like I
Speaker 1: shouldn't be starting a new relationship without first really finalizing
Speaker 1: my past, you know, because I don't want it to
Speaker 1: affect us, and I just don't want to bring that
Speaker 1: energy into this. But I think because we had those
Speaker 1: conversations and he was doing therapy and I was doing therapy,
Speaker 1: it just kind of helped us out with having those difficult,
Speaker 1: sometimes very difficult conversations. And I just said, you know what,
Speaker 1: like we've kind of mentioned marriage here and there just
Speaker 1: came up, you know, because we would go to a
Speaker 1: weddings or something like that and kids and stuff, and
Speaker 1: I just had to tell him one day, I'm like,
Speaker 1: you know what, I don't want to talk about marriage.
Speaker 1: I don't want to talk about children. I just want
Speaker 1: to enjoy this. And to be honest, I'm scared. I'm
Speaker 1: afraid I am a little tainted. I'm a little jaded
Speaker 1: when it comes to that. I think because of what
Speaker 1: had just happened to me, and I felt somewhat like
Speaker 1: vamboozled or fooled. And not only that, but you know
Speaker 1: my mom, she had her fair share of separations and divorces,
Speaker 1: and it's just something that has always It's not that
Speaker 1: I'm scared of commitment. I guess it was more of
Speaker 1: I tried it and then I felt like it bit
Speaker 1: me in the ass, but only because even when I
Speaker 1: was proposed to then I knew. I was like, I
Speaker 1: know that I'm ready, I just don't know if he's ready,
Speaker 1: you know. And I ignored that. I ignored it, and
Speaker 1: even on the wedding day, like I was just I
Speaker 1: ignored it. And it's crazy because it's like everything happens
Speaker 1: for a reason. I'm kind of jumping everywhere, you guys,
Speaker 1: and I'm so sorry. It's because, like I feel like
Speaker 1: I want to say so much, but I feel like
Speaker 1: everything happens for a reason. Like I really had to
Speaker 1: experience that relationship, that marriage, that separation, that divorce in
Speaker 1: order to really appreciate what was coming. And now I
Speaker 1: understand everything, and now I see myself for who I
Speaker 1: am now and who I was then, and I'm very
Speaker 1: intentional in making changes because I also had a lot
Speaker 1: to do with why that relationship didn't work. It couldn't
Speaker 1: work like I did, ignore a lot of red flags
Speaker 1: I didn't understand, and allowing the other person to be
Speaker 1: their individual self. I was brought up with marriage. Two
Speaker 1: people become one, and it's somewhat of like a controlling thing,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like you need to tell
Speaker 1: me where you're at at all times and the whole thing,
Speaker 1: and that could be a little suffocating to a person.
Speaker 1: And I think I probably suffocated him without wanting to.
Speaker 1: It's like when you love something, you just want to
Speaker 1: make sure they're okay, and you want to kind of
Speaker 1: save them from themselves because you know, he wasn't perfect.
Speaker 1: So I'm glad I was able to just experience that
Speaker 1: and go through that, and I feel like it prepared
Speaker 1: me for a Meilio, you know, and for this engagement,
Speaker 1: for this moment in my life that I wasn't sure
Speaker 1: if I was ready for, to be honest, and I'll
Speaker 1: explain all that right now, but I thought that it
Speaker 1: was important for you guys to hear all of this
Speaker 1: because through this relationship, I've been able to really heal.
Speaker 1: I've done the work. He's helped me do the work.
Speaker 1: I think the fact that we're on the same page,
Speaker 1: and we both came from a heartbreak. It helped us
Speaker 1: both get to this point, if that makes sense, you know.
Speaker 1: And I have forgiven my past, and I have forgiven
Speaker 1: myself for the mistakes that I made, and I forgive
Speaker 1: my ex. And I can honestly say I'm healed, and
Speaker 1: I wish him the best, and I wish him happiness
Speaker 1: and he deserves it. And I think we were just
Speaker 1: young and wanted to just I don't know. I think
Speaker 1: it was like a moment thing, you know. So now
Speaker 1: fast forward to this moment, to this present moment, because
Speaker 1: I can honestly tell you guys that I'm happy, I'm
Speaker 1: at peace. I didn't know, to be honest, that I
Speaker 1: was ready. I just know for the past I want
Speaker 1: to say, four months, I've had a little bit of
Speaker 1: baby fever. I've thought a little bit about the wedding,
Speaker 1: and then I'm like, no, no, no, no, because I have
Speaker 1: told him like, I don't think it's necessary to get married.
Speaker 1: I don't think that we need to get married. We
Speaker 1: don't need a piece of paper to determine that we're
Speaker 1: in love and to solidify the relationship, you know. And
Speaker 1: he was very respectful, and he was very patient. So
Speaker 1: I would tell him all these things. But for the
Speaker 1: past four months, even in interviews when people would ask
Speaker 1: me like, oh, do you see yourself getting married? We
Speaker 1: see you so happy, like you know, he brings out
Speaker 1: the best in you, and I'm like, actually, I have.
Speaker 1: I've thought a little bit about it, like all by myself,
Speaker 1: like and I would I'm just very transparent in interviews
Speaker 1: and like that could be a good thing or a
Speaker 1: bad thing. But I think that kind of also gave
Speaker 1: him the confidence to say I'm going to do it,
Speaker 1: you know, because I'd be like, yeah, I've actually thought
Speaker 1: about it a little bit more, you know, marriage. And
Speaker 1: he happened to be at a couple of these interviews.
Speaker 1: I just was just talking and just responding to the questions.
Speaker 1: And now that we're engaged and now like you know,
Speaker 1: we're kind of talking about how and why and everything,
Speaker 1: he kind of mentioned that, and I guess it just
Speaker 1: made him very excited and feel like, you know, comfortable. So,
Speaker 1: you know what, let's just talk about the trip. So
Speaker 1: the trip that we took, which was to we went
Speaker 1: to Zion National Parking You tall, you guys, him and
Speaker 1: I are really into like nature and hiking and cycling
Speaker 1: and the whole thing. The crazy thing is I've always
Speaker 1: been into that. It's very Janee. I'm very like hippie
Speaker 1: and you know, and he brought it all out in me. Again.
Speaker 1: I think I was just so like focused on Cheeky's
Speaker 1: for a while that I kind of ignored all the
Speaker 1: things that Jane is into. I'm Jane, by the way, Okay,
Speaker 1: I just want to clarify that. So AnyWho, we were
Speaker 1: supposed to go to Yosemite and it happened to be
Speaker 1: closed because we had just gone to Zion in March
Speaker 1: to celebrate our two year anniversary and that was our
Speaker 1: first time there together and I've always wanted to go
Speaker 1: to Zion and I fell in love. I kept saying.
Speaker 1: I was like, if I was a national park, I
Speaker 1: would be Zion, And He's like, why would be Yosemite.
Speaker 1: So that's where we were going to go for his
Speaker 1: birthday to celebrate his thirty first birthday in Yosemite. But
Speaker 1: with all the snow and the weather stuff that we've
Speaker 1: been having, it was closed down and they weren't opening.
Speaker 1: So by the time that it did open, and we
Speaker 1: try to book our reservation. It was completely sold out.
Speaker 1: So I was like, Okay, well let's go to Zion
Speaker 1: and he's like, oh, but we just were there, and
Speaker 1: I'm like, but it was so nice, Like we discovered
Speaker 1: the park together, like it'll be your birthday trip. So
Speaker 1: we looked into this place. We had stayed before at
Speaker 1: the Zion Lodge inside of the park, but this time
Speaker 1: we stayed outside and we got this villa and it
Speaker 1: was like super awesome. So we drove up there on Saturday,
Speaker 1: the day before his birthday, and we loved, you know,
Speaker 1: taking road trips, like I like taking snacks and he
Speaker 1: drives and I nap, you know, so we listened to music.
Speaker 1: It's super fun, super fun. So anyways, we got there.
Speaker 1: We got there little like in the evening, and we
Speaker 1: had such a first beautiful night there, Like it was
Speaker 1: so different from our first experience because we were in
Speaker 1: the town and we weren't allowed to drive our own
Speaker 1: car into the park, so we were just a little
Speaker 1: nervous as I'm like, oh my god, like I'm excited,
Speaker 1: but also I loved our first experience so much that
Speaker 1: I'm like I was like, I'm a little scared. I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna like this trip, but I kept it to myself.
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm not it's his birthday. I'm not
Speaker 1: going to complain. I'm going to really write this out
Speaker 1: and figure this out. So anyways, we had a really
Speaker 1: nice night. We chilled at the house, We got a
Speaker 1: little buzz on, we had some wine, like, we unpacked everything.
Speaker 1: We went to the story. There was like this reggae
Speaker 1: band outside of our hotel, like and they were like
Speaker 1: on the lawn playing live for like two and a
Speaker 1: half hours. So we went there and we just sat
Speaker 1: on the grass on a blanket. It was just him
Speaker 1: and I. We got a few drinks, got a little
Speaker 1: buzz and then we went to the grocery store to
Speaker 1: kind of just like get everything ready for our hiking
Speaker 1: trips that we were going to do. And that was it.
Speaker 1: Then we woke up early the next morning, which is
Speaker 1: his birthday on the twenty eighth, on Sunday. You know,
Speaker 1: I had a little like birthday candle thing for him.
Speaker 1: I had already given him his gift before we left,
Speaker 1: which was a very nice gift. He was very happy.
Speaker 1: I think I did really good, you guys. I got
Speaker 1: him a Z nine nikon because he loves nicon. You know,
Speaker 1: he's a photographer, So I got him a new camera
Speaker 1: because I know he really needed it, and he was
Speaker 1: so excited, you guys, he cried. It was so beautiful.
Speaker 1: So anyways, I gave him a card and I just
Speaker 1: like had like these. He loves donuts, so I found
Speaker 1: this like donut candle and I just sang Happy Birthday,
Speaker 1: and I gave him a card and then we got ready.
Speaker 1: I made a sandwiches for our trip because you know,
Speaker 1: we do the whole like backpack and we have like
Speaker 1: our camel bats with the water a little freaking tube.
Speaker 1: It's like super cute. Anyways, the reason I love it
Speaker 1: so much is because I am just myself there. I'm
Speaker 1: totally Jane, no hair, no makeup, like I mean, well
Speaker 1: should I say no extensions. I don't do my hair,
Speaker 1: I don't put on any makeup. I'm like in super
Speaker 1: chill clothes. So that's like the best part for me,
Speaker 1: and he loves it. So it was like, Okay, cool,
Speaker 1: we're gonna have a great old time. So anyways, we
Speaker 1: got ready for our hike, and I think we were
Speaker 1: both very nervous. Now I know he was very nervous.
Speaker 1: And why he was nervous. But I was nervous because
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, So we have to walk
Speaker 1: from our villa to like this place where everyone's there
Speaker 1: trying to get into the park. The line was crazy long,
Speaker 1: you guys. I just kept trying to breathe because I
Speaker 1: was like okay. Because he was nervous, He's like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, like it's getting late. We were supposed to
Speaker 1: leave the house like a little earlier, and we didn't.
Speaker 1: So I was like, it's okay, babe, it's fine, Like
Speaker 1: it's okay, let's just enjoy it. It took us about
Speaker 1: like forty minutes, you guys, to get onto a shuttle
Speaker 1: to get into the park, and we had to stand
Speaker 1: the whole way into the park. And I was just
Speaker 1: like cause I told him, I was like I kind
Speaker 1: of want to sit, let's wait for the next shuttle,
Speaker 1: and he's like, no, no, let's just go. I'm like, I
Speaker 1: was like, okay. I just took a deep breath and
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I'm going to breathe through this
Speaker 1: because I had to stand on my knees were hurting,
Speaker 1: and we had to take this very strenuous hike and
Speaker 1: I knew it was coming because I've done this high before.
Speaker 1: It's called angels Landing in Zion, So I'm like, this
Speaker 1: is this is a tough one and I still have
Speaker 1: to stand here. So I'm like, it's okay, it's his birthday,
Speaker 1: Janee chill, and I was being really cool. I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: cool whatever. Finally we get on our hike. We started.
Speaker 1: I was also very nervous because the last time we
Speaker 1: went it was really cold and there was snow everywhere,
Speaker 1: and this time it was very freaking hot, and I
Speaker 1: was just like, oh my god, is this freaking hike
Speaker 1: going to kick my ass? And it did. It did
Speaker 1: kick my ass, but I am happy to say that
Speaker 1: it didn't kick my ass as much as I thought
Speaker 1: it was going to, and it was felt like a
Speaker 1: little easier than the first time we did it. But anyways,
Speaker 1: we get up there. I don't talk very much on
Speaker 1: our hikes. It's very little like I'm more of like
Speaker 1: I need a focus on what I'm doing. There were
Speaker 1: a lot of people going up the mountain and coming down,
Speaker 1: so it was very different from our first trip. So anyways,
Speaker 1: you finally gets to the top, and usually what we
Speaker 1: do is we find a place to sit down and
Speaker 1: have our sandwiches that I made us and packed us,
Speaker 1: you know, and then we always take a picture. We
Speaker 1: have someone take a picture for us. But this time
Speaker 1: he was super excited to use this gadget thing like
Speaker 1: I don't know what it's called. I forgot, but you know,
Speaker 1: you put your phone on it. It's a damn phone stand.
Speaker 1: And you know, he was like super excited. He's like, okay, well,
Speaker 1: let's find a spot. And it was really busy everywhere.
Speaker 1: So there was this really pretty spot that he's like, oh,
Speaker 1: this is where I want to take a picture, but
Speaker 1: there were people sitting there. So he's like, you know what,
Speaker 1: let's hike a little higher. And I was like okay.
Speaker 1: I was like I didn't complain because the first time
Speaker 1: we went, I was like I'm not going any further
Speaker 1: than this, like I'm tired. But this time I'm like, okay,
Speaker 1: let's go. I had a little bit more energy. So
Speaker 1: we did hike up a little further and we found
Speaker 1: this beautiful spot where there were like little cactuses and
Speaker 1: am no pallet should I say? There were little flowers,
Speaker 1: like pink flowers, and I was just like in awe
Speaker 1: or whatever, and he was like trying to scout to
Speaker 1: find like the perfect place for us to take a
Speaker 1: picture and put his little you know thing up, And
Speaker 1: I just thought he's just excited put his little thing up,
Speaker 1: you know, to because he doesn't have to ask anyone
Speaker 1: to take a picture of us. So anyways, we're like, okay,
Speaker 1: this is a perfect spot, Like we'll take a picture here.
Speaker 1: There's like some shade here, we'll sit here and have
Speaker 1: our lunch before we you know, we start hiking down
Speaker 1: and so he's like, hey, babe, you know, can you
Speaker 1: stand right there? It was like right on like kind
Speaker 1: of like on the edge, you know, where you could
Speaker 1: see like how high we've we came up, and it
Speaker 1: was a very pretty view. And I'm like yeah, So
Speaker 1: I take my first picture and I'm like okay, you know,
Speaker 1: and then he's like, okay, now, let's take one together.
Speaker 1: So he comes and we take a picture together, and
Speaker 1: then he goes like, okay, I'm gonna I'm going to
Speaker 1: record a video now. I'm like, okay, cool. No, actually
Speaker 1: I'm lying. No, he didn't say that. He's like, oh wait,
Speaker 1: I'm going to take another picture. I'm put the time
Speaker 1: around again, I'm like, okay, cool. So I turn around
Speaker 1: like looking at the view while he's doing whatever, and
Speaker 1: right when I turned back around to face him, I
Speaker 1: see like he had grabbed something from his backpack and
Speaker 1: he's like, babe, and then he said doodle because he
Speaker 1: calls me doodle. I don't know why he calls me doodle.
Speaker 1: I think because we have a doodle, like a multiple doodle.
Speaker 1: I don't know, he calls me doodle. And I saw
Speaker 1: the box and that's when in the moment where I
Speaker 1: was like, oh, oh my god, and I just like
Speaker 1: everything kind of just went into a daze and I'm like,
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, I can crossed my mind. I'm like,
Speaker 1: is it happening? And he just looked at me with
Speaker 1: his big, old, beautiful hazel eyes and they were kind
Speaker 1: of watery but not really. And then I'm like, what
Speaker 1: is I told you? I asked him, I'll say, what's happening?
Speaker 1: And he's like just started saying all kinds of beautiful
Speaker 1: things and how I have come to just be a
Speaker 1: positive force in his life, and that he once made
Speaker 1: me a promise with like another ring, because he did
Speaker 1: give me a promise ring that I lost you guys.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I lost the promise ring. I know,
Speaker 1: my goodness. Anyways, so he's like, I gave you a
Speaker 1: promise ring, and I just want to reinforce those promises
Speaker 1: and just tell you how much I love you and
Speaker 1: that I want to take care of you for the
Speaker 1: rest of my life and I want to bring out
Speaker 1: the best in you the way you've brought it out
Speaker 1: in me. And he just said all these beautiful things.
Speaker 1: It was very short, sweet and to the point. And
Speaker 1: then he just asked if I would marry him, and
Speaker 1: oh my god, I started crying. Like I was just
Speaker 1: like crying. I was in disbelief because in the beginning,
Speaker 1: I just felt like everything was a blur. I'm like,
Speaker 1: is this really happening? It felt so surreal. I felt
Speaker 1: like I was in a dream and now and I
Speaker 1: was looking around, I was looking at the camera. I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, it all makes sense. It
Speaker 1: all just made so much sense in the moment that
Speaker 1: I had to like really just pause and say, okay, Jenne,
Speaker 1: you need to be present. So I had to like
Speaker 1: close my eyes and take a deep breath. And then
Speaker 1: once I opened up my eyes, I was listening to
Speaker 1: everything he was saying. I was like, this is really happening.
Speaker 1: And I didn't even want to look at the ring
Speaker 1: because I was like low key kind of scared. I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, like hopefully like it's it's
Speaker 1: because it's not all about the ring, but like it's
Speaker 1: kind of important. But I'm not like a superficial type
Speaker 1: of girl materialistic in that way. I just wanted it
Speaker 1: to be like something I liked. Okay, So anyways, I
Speaker 1: just closed my eyes and then he opened up the
Speaker 1: box and I was like, oh my god. That was
Speaker 1: another thing where I was like, oh my god, it's perfect.
Speaker 1: It's exactly what I want. It was just like perfect. Anyways,
Speaker 1: he puts the ring on my finger. We hug, and
Speaker 1: I'm just like super quiet, and he's like are you okay?
Speaker 1: He's like, are you sure you're You're yes is a yes,
Speaker 1: and I'm like yeah, no, no, no, it is I'm
Speaker 1: just in shit and I'm just like so many things
Speaker 1: are running through like my mind. And then finally we
Speaker 1: just sat down and we had our lunch and he's like, Janey, like,
Speaker 1: like I told you before, marriage is just something for
Speaker 1: God to give us his blessing. And it's a spiritual
Speaker 1: like thing for you and I It's not that I'm
Speaker 1: going to take control of you. I'm trying to change you.
Speaker 1: You're my property. He's like, I know that those things
Speaker 1: are what keep you from wanting to get married. And
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, like I still want to be myself,
Speaker 1: Like I still you know, want to go out with
Speaker 1: my friends and I still want to be me. And
Speaker 1: he said, you know, and I've explained all of this
Speaker 1: to him, and he said yeah, he says, I totally understand.
Speaker 1: And I just want to help you in any way
Speaker 1: that I can and support you and show you my
Speaker 1: support every day. I just want this to bless our love,
Speaker 1: you know. I want us to have a ceremony to
Speaker 1: bless our love, not for anything else. And I'm like, okay,
Speaker 1: And it just made me feel very safe, Like it
Speaker 1: made me feel very very safe. And that's what he
Speaker 1: makes me feel, you guys, I feel safe. I feel
Speaker 1: like I can literally just trust him with my heart.
Speaker 1: But anyways, so fine, we eat. It was really nice.
Speaker 1: We take more pictures. We had no reception so we
Speaker 1: couldn't really call anyone, so you know, we got down
Speaker 1: the mountain. I think like in less than an hour,
Speaker 1: like forty minutes. We like freaking. I guess it was
Speaker 1: just the the adrenaline. I'm not too sure, but I
Speaker 1: was kind of quiet on the way down. I'm usually
Speaker 1: pretty quiet, But I don't know if he thought like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna talk a little bit more. But I think
Speaker 1: what it was, I was like I wasn't able to
Speaker 1: like vocalize it out loud. That I think that's what
Speaker 1: kind of like it was it was. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I just I guess I didn't believe it. I was
Speaker 1: in shock, you guys. So anyways, we get on the shuttle,
Speaker 1: we sit finally get to sit, thank goodness. So we
Speaker 1: get on the on the shuttle, we're sitting and we
Speaker 1: sit next to these to this to these two couples,
Speaker 1: older couples, and we just started talking and they were
Speaker 1: telling that they weren't like, you know, retired, and that
Speaker 1: they're going, you know, they're traveling all around the world.
Speaker 1: They're doing different hikes. And I asked her, I said, oh,
Speaker 1: how long have you guys been married. She's like, oh,
Speaker 1: we've just got married a couple years ago, but we've
Speaker 1: been together for about seven years and you know, she
Speaker 1: was telling me the whole thing, and then she's like,
Speaker 1: but them, they've been married for thirty two years. You know.
Speaker 1: The people that were sitting across They were traveling with
Speaker 1: this other couple, so they were sitting across us. I said,
Speaker 1: oh nice, and then she said, well, how long have
Speaker 1: you guys been together. I'm like, oh, well two years
Speaker 1: and we just got engaged today, he's and I'm like,
Speaker 1: and it's his birthday. And that's another thing, you guys.
Speaker 1: When he was like proposing we have the video because
Speaker 1: everything's on video and you can actually hear what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: it's so cute. I was like, but it's your birthday, Emilio.
Speaker 1: And he's like, you know what you said, you guys,
Speaker 1: he said, and all I wanted was for you to say, yes,
Speaker 1: That's all I've ever wanted for my birthday. Oh my god.
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh oh, and my I started
Speaker 1: like crying again. It was so pretty. So anyway, so
Speaker 1: I let's go back to the shuttle. So I just
Speaker 1: they were like, oh my god. The lady like started
Speaker 1: screaming and I started crying again, and I think that's
Speaker 1: in the moment. I was like it happened because they're like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, your emotion. I'm like yeah, I was
Speaker 1: like I think I just needed to tell someone because
Speaker 1: there was no there's no reception in the park, you guys,
Speaker 1: not until you get to like your hotel or your villa,
Speaker 1: like you have Wi Fi. So I couldn't like call
Speaker 1: anyone or you know. So I just told these random
Speaker 1: people and I started crying. And he's like, oh my god.
Speaker 1: He's like, I think it just hit you. I'm like, yes,
Speaker 1: it just hit me. So then when we were on
Speaker 1: our walk back from the shuttle to the villa, I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god. I was like Emilio, like,
Speaker 1: what if we get married here or there? And he's
Speaker 1: like wow. He looked at me, He's like really, I said, yeah,
Speaker 1: why is it weird that I'm thinking about like the
Speaker 1: wedding already. And he's like, no, that actually makes me
Speaker 1: very happy. He's like, there's no rush. I want us
Speaker 1: to like enjoy the engagement, but the fact that you're
Speaker 1: thinking about it makes me very happy. And I was.
Speaker 1: I genuinely was just excited and thinking where can we
Speaker 1: do it? Do we want to like do it in
Speaker 1: like a natury place for sure, it has to be
Speaker 1: like nature esque for sure. I don't know if it's
Speaker 1: going to be like I don't know, like the ocean,
Speaker 1: the mountains or I just I know I want trees
Speaker 1: and flowers and stuff around. That's all I see right now.
Speaker 1: But anyways, so I think that's when it really hit me.
Speaker 1: And then I just got super excited. And then finally
Speaker 1: we started calling everyone. We called his mom, his grandma,
Speaker 1: we told his grandma because his grandma's been wanting us
Speaker 1: to get engaged for like, I think since the day
Speaker 1: we met, and so everyone was super excited. My siblings knew,
Speaker 1: so I that's one of the questions I asked Emilia.
Speaker 1: I was like, well, who knows. He's like, well, everybody
Speaker 1: that's important to you knows. I'm like, what my siblings know?
Speaker 1: And he's like yes. I asked Johnny about a month
Speaker 1: and a half ago, almost two months ago, for your hand.
Speaker 1: I was like what, He's like, yeah. I took him
Speaker 1: to eat and I asked him, you know, I told
Speaker 1: him I wanted to marry you, and I asked him
Speaker 1: for your hand. And I talked to your brother Mikey,
Speaker 1: and he started telling me like how and when he
Speaker 1: talked to each one of my siblings individually, which I
Speaker 1: absolutely appreciate because I knew I wanted it to just
Speaker 1: be him and I. I didn't want this whole show
Speaker 1: or anything like being engaged. I wanted to be very private,
Speaker 1: but I wanted my siblings to be aware. And he
Speaker 1: told a few other people about it, and very key people,
Speaker 1: and I just thought it was so beautiful of him
Speaker 1: to just go out of his way without me having
Speaker 1: to tell him, Like, it's just those little things. I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: it just gave me so much confirmation. And he told
Speaker 1: me He's like, Johnny has helped me so much through
Speaker 1: this whole thing. He's given me so much confidence, like
Speaker 1: so much support. He went with me to go pick
Speaker 1: up the ring, and those things just mean so much
Speaker 1: to me. That my siblings knew that they were excited.
Speaker 1: He's like, Jackie was so freaking excited. I got on
Speaker 1: a FaceTime called with Jenica. She loved the ring. She's like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, I love the band, Like the ring
Speaker 1: is so beautiful, and you know, it's like all those
Speaker 1: little things just I don't know, gave me confirmation. And
Speaker 1: and that's what I told my siblings. I was like, guys,
Speaker 1: I sent them, I said, before I posted, I sent
Speaker 1: it to like you know, my siblings, and I said,
Speaker 1: you know, Jennica was like, how do you feel. It's
Speaker 1: like I'm happy, like I trust this man with my heart.
Speaker 1: Like things aren't perfect and they never will be perfect.
Speaker 1: I think, you know, it's a relationship is work every
Speaker 1: single day. You have to choose your partner every single
Speaker 1: day and it's it's work. And I've been one before
Speaker 1: to just say I don't want to deal with this,
Speaker 1: like I have too much on my plate, but I've
Speaker 1: learned that it's so much better to live your life
Speaker 1: with a companion. And I don't know, like you know,
Speaker 1: you hear all like that independent woman like I can
Speaker 1: do it myself, you know, and yes, but I don't know.
Speaker 1: I want to kind of break that, like you know,
Speaker 1: and and and really do my part to make this
Speaker 1: work and learn to see the good in him, because
Speaker 1: I think it's just as humans, it's so much easier
Speaker 1: for us to point out the negative things in people
Speaker 1: or the things that they do wrong, but when in
Speaker 1: reality you put it on a list of like pros
Speaker 1: and cons, if the pros and the good things and
Speaker 1: the positive things outweigh the negative things the cons then
Speaker 1: it's just like you know that you're with the right
Speaker 1: person because everything else you can work on. There are
Speaker 1: certain things like I feel like obviously cheating and drugs
Speaker 1: and like having addictions and stuff like that, like or
Speaker 1: freaking being you know, verbally, physically, emotionally abused. Those things
Speaker 1: are like a huge red flags that you can't ignore.
Speaker 1: But there are other things, you know that can be
Speaker 1: worked through, you know, And I think it just clicked.
Speaker 1: I don't know how to explain it that in that moment,
Speaker 1: it just clicked. I'm like, everything that's happening in my
Speaker 1: life right now, because it's been a very tough month,
Speaker 1: it's happening for a reason. And it was like to
Speaker 1: prepare me for this moment to just really appreciate what
Speaker 1: I have standing in front of me. I mean, I'm
Speaker 1: already thinking of dates, I'm already thinking of locations, and
Speaker 1: I didn't expect this. I do want us to just
Speaker 1: enjoy the engagement and still do our couple's therapy because
Speaker 1: there are things that we're working through, and start seeing
Speaker 1: those things as as a good thing, not necessarily bad things,
Speaker 1: you know, And the fact that I have someone that's
Speaker 1: willing to try and willing to do anything and everything
Speaker 1: to make me happy and to make me smile, and
Speaker 1: that means so much to me, you know. And I'm
Speaker 1: just choosing to trade fear for faith and leave everything
Speaker 1: in contents. And if we're meant to have kids, it'll happen.
Speaker 1: And it's okay that he's seven years younger than me,
Speaker 1: you know, because sometimes I would let that kind of
Speaker 1: you know, get into my head and be like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, but he's seven years younger and this and
Speaker 1: that and blah blah blah, Like okaya, stop stop. We
Speaker 1: have to learn to just think. And I talk to
Speaker 1: you guys about this so much, and it's so much
Speaker 1: easier for me to help other people and guide them
Speaker 1: and give them advice. And sometimes I mean, this must
Speaker 1: happen to all of you guys. To take our own
Speaker 1: advice and to put it practice. What we preach is
Speaker 1: a little bit harder. I mean, I'm very intentional and
Speaker 1: every day being what I talk about, but there are
Speaker 1: days that it is hard and I'm just like I
Speaker 1: want to run and just throw in the towel and
Speaker 1: just say f at all. And you know, but I
Speaker 1: guess I was a little afraid of marriage, but now
Speaker 1: I am just seeing everything for what it is, and
Speaker 1: I am excited and I'm happy and I feel happy
Speaker 1: and I feel blessed and I feel just excited. That's
Speaker 1: what I feel right now. So I don't know. I'll
Speaker 1: keep you guys updated as to when, and I just
Speaker 1: have to figure out the details. But right now I'm
Speaker 1: enjoying it and I love the ring very much. I
Speaker 1: think he did very, very, very good, and I think
Speaker 1: it's awesome. Awesome, you guys, because I even thought I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, if I would have known
Speaker 1: that I was going to get proposed to today on
Speaker 1: his birthday, which I thought was so selfless of him.
Speaker 1: It's so beautiful. I at least would have brushed my
Speaker 1: hair a little more. I would have put on a
Speaker 1: little bit of makeup. But I'm like, no, this is
Speaker 1: the beauty of it, this is us, this is what
Speaker 1: we love to do. He loves it When I'm like,
Speaker 1: you know, just Jene, no makeup, hairs of mess, he
Speaker 1: loves it that. I'm like, it was perfect and it
Speaker 1: was in my favorite like one of my favorite places
Speaker 1: in the world. Zion, you guys on the top of
Speaker 1: like Angels landing. He made me work for it. Okay,
Speaker 1: it was like an hour and a half hike, almost
Speaker 1: two and then on the way down, but it was
Speaker 1: just so amazing. It was it was just so nice.
Speaker 1: Everything just happened the way it was supposed to, Like
Speaker 1: even getting on the shuttle. It was just perfect. I can't.
Speaker 1: We were talking about it and we were tripping out
Speaker 1: on everything like how it connected and how everything just
Speaker 1: worked out so nicely. And then the next few days
Speaker 1: that we were there we were just able to just
Speaker 1: enjoy our engagement together. And someone in Zion, I don't
Speaker 1: know who. I still don't know who if she's listening
Speaker 1: to the podcast, her name is Maria p. She left
Speaker 1: us outside of our villa a cute little gift. It
Speaker 1: was like a marriage base and a necklace of necklace
Speaker 1: and just said congratulations. It was just so nice and
Speaker 1: so thoughtful that I just want to thank that person.
Speaker 1: I said thank you on Instagram. But still, like it
Speaker 1: was the last few days that we were there in
Speaker 1: Zion after the engagement, it was nice. We cooked, we
Speaker 1: hung out, we like had dinner together, We had hikes,
Speaker 1: we went on bike rides. It was just so nice.
Speaker 1: It was so nice, and I'm so glad he did
Speaker 1: it in the beginning of the trip because we were able
Speaker 1: to just enjoy our engagement together and peacefully and just us.
Speaker 1: So that's that. Hopefully I didn't drive you guys too
Speaker 1: crazy with like my going back and forth, but I
Speaker 1: did feel it was important to just explain everything the beginning,
Speaker 1: what I've been through and how I'm so grateful for
Speaker 1: my past. And I think that that's how we have
Speaker 1: to see things, you guys like. We can't hold onto, resentment,
Speaker 1: onto fear, none of those things because it makes us sick.
Speaker 1: And we have to forgive people and forgive ourselves in
Speaker 1: order to move forward and in order to allow God
Speaker 1: to send us the right people, the right situations in
Speaker 1: our life. And I feel that after all of that pain,
Speaker 1: after that dark time in my life, I can say, honestly,
Speaker 1: I can look back and say thank you. I had
Speaker 1: to go through that, I had to fall on my
Speaker 1: knees in order to get back up stronger, you know. So,
Speaker 1: I've gotten a lot of beautiful messages from you guys.
Speaker 1: I have a lot of dms, a lot of comments.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for being excited for me. I
Speaker 1: can tell you guys that I feel like I'm in
Speaker 1: really good hands. I really truly believe it, and if anything,
Speaker 1: I can be honest with you guys. For a long
Speaker 1: time in my past relationships, I would say this relationship
Speaker 1: isn't going to end because of my fault. And with Emilio,
Speaker 1: there was a time, you guys, that I felt that
Speaker 1: I didn't deserve him because I felt he was more
Speaker 1: ready than I was. And I just felt and I
Speaker 1: told him a few times, like I just think I'm
Speaker 1: not ready for you. I can't give you what you deserve.
Speaker 1: I can't give you I can't give you myself right
Speaker 1: now because I need to just really figure things out.
Speaker 1: And he was just like, if that's what you really want,
Speaker 1: it's going to break my heart. But I don't think
Speaker 1: that you need to do it alone. I am here
Speaker 1: to help you. I am patient, Like you have a
Speaker 1: partner that wants to help you and is willing to
Speaker 1: do anything and everything. And I think I was just
Speaker 1: being like a little resistant, and I felt like, Okay,
Speaker 1: if this relationship ends, it's not going to be his fault,
Speaker 1: like he's doing everything right, It's going to be my fault.
Speaker 1: And ever since the engagement it switched. I'm just like, no,
Speaker 1: I really want to take care of this relationship and
Speaker 1: I have someone that absolutely adores me and loves me,
Speaker 1: and I deserve it, you know. Because the crazy thing is,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I'm crying, But the crazy thing is I
Speaker 1: had just told Tony and Jessica are my makeup you know,
Speaker 1: Jessica's my makeup artist and Tony is my hairstylist. I
Speaker 1: had just I was telling them a week before. I'm like, you, guys,
Speaker 1: like I feel like I don't deserve a media Like
Speaker 1: I feel like I have to let him go. This
Speaker 1: is literally a week ago, a week before our engagement,
Speaker 1: and I just said, I feel like I can't I
Speaker 1: disappoint him, Like I can't give him what I want
Speaker 1: to give him right now. Like I'm just so focused
Speaker 1: on work and I still want to do certain things
Speaker 1: and certain things bother him, and I just I want
Speaker 1: to be kind of like be able to be myself,
Speaker 1: you know. And Jessica was like, you know, you have
Speaker 1: a good one, Like I think that you really just
Speaker 1: need to have a deep conversation with him. And the
Speaker 1: weekend before his birthday, weekend, we went to Vegas and
Speaker 1: we had this crazy ass long talk just him and
Speaker 1: I at the bar in Vegas. We got a little
Speaker 1: buzz and I told him everything. Everything that was just
Speaker 1: I need to get off my chest, things that have
Speaker 1: happened in my past that I haven't told anybody. You guys,
Speaker 1: I said, I'm just gonna lay it all out. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna freaking tell him everything that I feel and how
Speaker 1: I'm afraid and how I still want to be me
Speaker 1: and I want him to respect that, and I want
Speaker 1: him to be himself. And I want to be okay
Speaker 1: with him going on trips with his friends, Like I
Speaker 1: don't want it to just be one sided, Like I
Speaker 1: really want to have that healthy relationship of hey, babe,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go on a trip with my friends for
Speaker 1: the weekend, and I want to be genuinely okay with it,
Speaker 1: like I don't. I used to be very controlling before,
Speaker 1: and controlling because yes, people would do certain things and
Speaker 1: it would make me feel like, oh my god, let
Speaker 1: me hang on tight, let me save you from yourself
Speaker 1: sort of thing. And in this relationship, I'm like, I
Speaker 1: don't want to be that way. I don't want to
Speaker 1: suffocate I don't want to hold onto tight because when
Speaker 1: you hold on too tight, they're gonna want to like
Speaker 1: get loose. You know, when you hold onto anything too tight,
Speaker 1: it's just it's you're gonna suffocate it. That's the best
Speaker 1: way I can put it. So anyways, we had that
Speaker 1: conversation and I'm like, Okay, Zion is gonna be like
Speaker 1: our new beginning. I was telling myself this. I was
Speaker 1: like okay, because again I was thinking, I'm like I
Speaker 1: have to let him go. So anyway, so once we
Speaker 1: got engaged and everything, Tony texts me and he remembered
Speaker 1: our conversation and he's like, Babe, I'm so happy for you.
Speaker 1: You guys deserve each other. You deserve this. And I
Speaker 1: had to read that and I was like, yes, I
Speaker 1: deserve this. I deserve this moment. I just deserve this person.
Speaker 1: I deserve to be loved this way. I deserve this ring.
Speaker 1: I deserve these days of like not doing anything and
Speaker 1: just embracing nature and doing the things that make me
Speaker 1: absolutely happy. Like something switched out there. You guys, like,
Speaker 1: I can't even explain it. It has to do with like
Speaker 1: just being out in one of my favorite places, getting
Speaker 1: engaged and I don't know. I'm just things I could
Speaker 1: just see clearly. And right now it's my birthday month
Speaker 1: and I'm doing a cleanse and other cleans you guys,
Speaker 1: I love cleanses. You guys know me because I just
Speaker 1: want to set the tone like I feel like this
Speaker 1: is the beginning of a new gene of a new
Speaker 1: life for me obviously for me and my partner. And yeah,
Speaker 1: I deserve this and I'm happy and I just really
Speaker 1: now I could say I truly believe it. So anyways,
Speaker 1: I just let it all out here. And for those
Speaker 1: of you wondering, yes, I am going to take his
Speaker 1: last name. I will be Janey Sanchez. He deserves Yeah. Absolutely,
Speaker 1: And Vanessa, my friend Vanessa Sanchez, is very happy about it.
Speaker 1: She's like, oh my god, we're gonna be Sanchez is together.
Speaker 1: But yes, the plan is to definitely take his name,
Speaker 1: and I am very happy and excited to do that.
Speaker 1: So I love his family. His family loves me, and
Speaker 1: I love them all. Shout out to all of the
Speaker 1: Sanchez family who has just welcomed me with their arms
Speaker 1: and their hearts wide open. He has a beautiful family,
Speaker 1: you guys. I love his mother. I love his grandma,
Speaker 1: his aunts is just his nano. Everyone's so nice to me,
Speaker 1: and I'm just happy. I'm happy that I'm gonna have
Speaker 1: like a beautiful family. So yeah, that's it, guys. I'm
Speaker 1: being a cry baby, but it's just it's nice. I
Speaker 1: feel like I've gone through so much in my life
Speaker 1: and no one's ever loved me this way. No one,
Speaker 1: I can honestly tell you, like, no one has ever
Speaker 1: loved me the way he loves me, not my family,
Speaker 1: not my parents, like his page, and he literally tells
Speaker 1: me I'm beautiful every single day. And it's just it's nice.
Speaker 1: It's nice. And if I can just wrap up this
Speaker 1: episode with something for you guys that speaking from personal experience.
Speaker 1: Sometimes I think because what we have gone through and
Speaker 1: sometimes maybe even the things that we've done, we feel
Speaker 1: like we don't deserve to be loved the right way,
Speaker 1: or we don't believe in love anymore. We think, oh,
Speaker 1: there's no way that there is a perfect man out
Speaker 1: there for me, and there isn't because no one is perfect.
Speaker 1: You're not perfect. I'm not perfect. You're not going to
Speaker 1: find a perfect person. It's picking and choosing your battles.
Speaker 1: If you find someone, and it definitely the good things
Speaker 1: outweigh the bad things, and that's an indication of like,
Speaker 1: stay there. It's worth working towards it, you know, communication,
Speaker 1: but first and foremost, it's important that you you feel
Speaker 1: that you deserve it. The crazy thing is I would
Speaker 1: go back and forth like I'm like, well, yeah, like
Speaker 1: God set me this person. It has to be for
Speaker 1: a reason. But then we would have an argument or
Speaker 1: something would happen. I'm like, oh my god, I just
Speaker 1: I feel like I just can't give him what he expects,
Speaker 1: what he wants, what he deserves. And a little did
Speaker 1: I know that I mentally was drawing more of that
Speaker 1: like to my life because I was so focused on that,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, And and like there has
Speaker 1: to be a switch where we're like, wait, no, I
Speaker 1: deserve this. I absolutely deserve to be loved the right way.
Speaker 1: I deserve to be happy. I deserve to have a
Speaker 1: person in my life that is willing to work at
Speaker 1: the relationship the way I'm willing to do that, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. And I think that that's like
Speaker 1: it's a constant thing and it's something that like I'm
Speaker 1: telling you, therapy has helped me and just saying these
Speaker 1: things out loud, even to you guys, and being vulvulnerable
Speaker 1: enough to say it out loud. Once you hear it
Speaker 1: out loud, then it just kind of sets and you're like, okay, wait, no,
Speaker 1: you know what you have to work on once you
Speaker 1: hear it out loud, if that makes sense. So, more
Speaker 1: than anything, just believe in love, know that it's out there.
Speaker 1: Don't give up. Even if you've kissed a few frogs.
Speaker 1: It's okay. Those frogs were supposed to be in your
Speaker 1: life because you are also a lesson in their life
Speaker 1: for them to also appreciate the next person hopefully that
Speaker 1: comes into their life. And forgiving your past is another thing.
Speaker 1: Forgive your past, know that everything and everyone comes into
Speaker 1: your life for a reason. Sounds cliche, but it's very true.
Speaker 1: And forgiving and really letting go it's the best advice.
Speaker 1: And really working on yourself and being intentional and adamant
Speaker 1: about becoming the best version of yourself so that you
Speaker 1: can attract what you want and what you need for
Speaker 1: your life. Well that's my story, you guys, and I
Speaker 1: hope that I am able to help you guys, and
Speaker 1: anyway by sharing my experiences with you guys, and I
Speaker 1: feel like honesty is literally the best policy, and that's
Speaker 1: who I am. I'm transparent and I just pray that
Speaker 1: through what I share, it helps you, guys, become the
Speaker 1: best versions of yourself. And I'm just so excited to
Speaker 1: be marrying my best friend Emilio. I can honestly tell you, like,
Speaker 1: I'm just happy and I'm so grateful and I thank
Speaker 1: God that I'm able to share life with a person
Speaker 1: that just understands me the way he does so and
Speaker 1: I don't he doesn't bore me, which is so crazy.
Speaker 1: I have so much fun with him. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, you don't get on my nerves. Well, yeah,
Speaker 1: he gets on my nerve sometimes I'm trying I get
Speaker 1: on his nerves. But like, honestly, like it's so fun.
Speaker 1: I've never been able to travel with someone just ourselves
Speaker 1: and have so much fun. So anyways, I'm excited and
Speaker 1: I just I don't know, I'm excited to just see
Speaker 1: what the future holds for us together. Anyways, I love
Speaker 1: you guys, Thank you for listening, and I will catch
Speaker 1: you on the next episode here on Cheeky's and Chill Yay.
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