WEBVTT - I'm Engaged! 0:00:03.720 --> 0:00:06.720 You just said all these beautiful things. It was very short, 0:00:07.520 --> 0:00:11.680 sweet and to the point. And then he just asked 0:00:11.720 --> 0:00:15.000 if I would marry him. I asked Amelia, I was like, well, 0:00:15.000 --> 0:00:17.880 who knows. He's like, well, everybody that's important to you know? 0:00:18.000 --> 0:00:20.759 So I'm like, what my siblings know? And He's like yes, 0:00:20.880 --> 0:00:24.200 I asked Johnny for your hand. The crazy thing is 0:00:24.320 --> 0:00:25.959 I was telling them a week before. I'm like, you 0:00:26.000 --> 0:00:28.240 guys like, I feel like I don't deserve a media 0:00:28.320 --> 0:00:29.840 like I feel like I have to let him go. 0:00:30.320 --> 0:00:33.120 This is literally a week ago, a week before our engagement. 0:00:38.920 --> 0:00:42.479 Hello everyone, and welcome back to a very special episode 0:00:42.560 --> 0:00:45.320 of Cheese and Chew. I'm your host Cheeky's and guess what, 0:00:46.159 --> 0:00:49.920 I'm engaged. I seriously can't believe it either. I know right, 0:00:50.240 --> 0:00:52.599 I'm so excited and I can't wait to share all 0:00:52.640 --> 0:00:55.080 the details with you all right here on my podcast. 0:00:55.160 --> 0:00:57.800 So without further ado, let's talk about how I'm on 0:00:57.880 --> 0:01:00.160 my way to the altar to say I do. This 0:01:00.320 --> 0:01:09.000 is Cheeky's and Chill. I feel like there's so much 0:01:09.000 --> 0:01:10.679 I want to say, but I think a good place 0:01:10.720 --> 0:01:12.880 to start is in the beginning. When a media and 0:01:12.880 --> 0:01:14.880 I first started dating. I know I've shared some of 0:01:14.920 --> 0:01:17.040 this in previous episodes you guys, but I want to 0:01:17.080 --> 0:01:19.680 share some of it again because I want you guys 0:01:19.720 --> 0:01:22.600 to hear about all the growth that's happened that has 0:01:22.720 --> 0:01:25.399 led us to this next stage in our relationship. So 0:01:25.640 --> 0:01:27.960 we'll start there and then we'll get into the details 0:01:28.000 --> 0:01:32.000 of the proposal. All right, So, Emilia, when I met 0:01:32.560 --> 0:01:36.640 the first time during Quarantine, I want to say it 0:01:36.720 --> 0:01:40.960 was May of twenty twenty, and that's the very first 0:01:41.040 --> 0:01:43.320 time I had ever seen him, I had ever heard 0:01:43.319 --> 0:01:45.720 his name. Becky and I did a song Becky Chan 0:01:45.720 --> 0:01:49.040 and I, who is very good friends with Emilio. They 0:01:49.040 --> 0:01:52.040 actually like call each other cousins. Becky and I did 0:01:52.080 --> 0:01:55.640 a song Joline that was on my album playlist, and 0:01:56.160 --> 0:01:58.200 Quarantine happened, and we had to do the pictures and 0:01:58.240 --> 0:01:59.640 everything because it was going to be a single, we 0:01:59.680 --> 0:02:01.560 had to do the video, so we had to come 0:02:01.640 --> 0:02:04.320 up with like a really cool and creative way of 0:02:04.360 --> 0:02:09.200 making it happen. So we did an animated video music video, 0:02:09.760 --> 0:02:11.960 and we needed a bunch of pictures. So that's when 0:02:12.000 --> 0:02:17.040 I first met at Media. Because Becky wanted it to 0:02:17.080 --> 0:02:20.399 be someone that she knew and that she trusted and 0:02:20.480 --> 0:02:23.520 that had already gotten tested and came out negative. So 0:02:23.600 --> 0:02:26.280 I said, okay, cool. Usually I'm like, oh, I really 0:02:26.320 --> 0:02:28.280 like my photographer. You know, I've been using them for 0:02:28.320 --> 0:02:32.320 a long time. His name is Francis Bernard, so shout 0:02:32.320 --> 0:02:36.520 out to him and anyway, so I said, okay, cool. Yes, 0:02:36.639 --> 0:02:39.120 she said, okay, he's he already got like tested and 0:02:39.160 --> 0:02:41.919 he should go to the house. Everything was happening from 0:02:41.919 --> 0:02:43.760 our homes. We had to do like the whole setup. 0:02:43.919 --> 0:02:45.680 She did her pictures at her house. I did my 0:02:45.720 --> 0:02:47.880 pictures at my house, and so when a media got there, 0:02:47.919 --> 0:02:49.959 I was like, oh, hi, I was at that time, 0:02:49.960 --> 0:02:52.880 you guys going through a separation for the first time, 0:02:53.160 --> 0:02:55.440 because if you guys didn't know, I was, you know, 0:02:55.880 --> 0:03:00.200 previously married. So that was the first time when him 0:03:00.200 --> 0:03:03.560 and I got separated after getting married. And that's when 0:03:03.600 --> 0:03:05.800 I met Emilio. He was out of the house, my 0:03:05.880 --> 0:03:08.239 ex was out of the house, and it was a 0:03:08.320 --> 0:03:10.359 very weird time. But anyways, I still had to work. 0:03:10.360 --> 0:03:12.400 I was pushing through. He was a photographer and me, 0:03:12.480 --> 0:03:14.800 I was a photographer. We spent like hours together because 0:03:14.800 --> 0:03:16.840 I had to do all these weird and crazy positions 0:03:17.240 --> 0:03:19.959 or like not positions because that sounds a little sexual. 0:03:20.080 --> 0:03:21.880 Because we were like I had to shoot like a gun. 0:03:21.919 --> 0:03:23.120 I had to like get on my knees. It was 0:03:23.160 --> 0:03:25.520 like so crazy because he had us take steals in 0:03:25.680 --> 0:03:27.959 order to make it like move and make it animated 0:03:27.960 --> 0:03:29.720 and stuff. I don't really know much about that stuff, 0:03:29.760 --> 0:03:32.560 but anyways, we met. I remember telling him, I was like, hey, 0:03:32.600 --> 0:03:35.560 you have really pretty eyeballs and they said, hey, oh, thanks, 0:03:35.600 --> 0:03:37.040 like he looked at me like that's kind of weird, 0:03:37.840 --> 0:03:39.680 and I just never forgot. Oh that was it, right, 0:03:39.720 --> 0:03:41.640 That's the first time we met. He was very respectful, 0:03:42.120 --> 0:03:45.360 very professional, and he left. He said that he felt 0:03:45.360 --> 0:03:48.800 like there was something there. But then towards the end 0:03:48.800 --> 0:03:50.600 of the day, I was just kind of like nonchalant, 0:03:50.880 --> 0:03:52.640 and I think I was maybe because I was still 0:03:52.640 --> 0:03:55.360 trying to figure out my personal situation. So anyways, fast 0:03:55.400 --> 0:03:58.560 forwarding to twenty twenty one. March of twenty twenty one, 0:03:58.920 --> 0:04:01.320 my sister and I, Jenica, we did like a surprise 0:04:01.360 --> 0:04:06.600 party for Becky at my house again, and we didn't 0:04:06.600 --> 0:04:09.600 really invite anyone. Well, we invited some people, but most 0:04:09.720 --> 0:04:13.080 of everyone got invited because of Becky's mom. We were 0:04:13.120 --> 0:04:16.039 surprising Becky, so we had her invite like all her 0:04:16.080 --> 0:04:18.120 close friends and people that she really cared about, and 0:04:18.160 --> 0:04:20.640 Emilio was one of the invites. That was March first 0:04:20.720 --> 0:04:24.719 of twenty twenty one, and that's when I saw Emilio again. 0:04:24.839 --> 0:04:26.760 So I was getting ready. People were already getting there. 0:04:26.760 --> 0:04:29.760 The setup was already done, and of course when you're hosting, 0:04:29.760 --> 0:04:31.480 you're like the last one to come out because, like 0:04:31.600 --> 0:04:33.760 you know, you're taking care of all the details. So 0:04:34.480 --> 0:04:36.240 finally I got myself ready and I was coming out 0:04:36.279 --> 0:04:39.520 of my glamor room and he was walking in from 0:04:39.520 --> 0:04:41.560 the backyard where the party was at, and I remember 0:04:41.600 --> 0:04:43.400 we just made eye contact and it kind of just 0:04:43.440 --> 0:04:45.719 like all came back, you guys. Like it was like, oh, shoot, 0:04:45.760 --> 0:04:47.960 that's the guy with the pretty eyeballs, and so we 0:04:48.040 --> 0:04:49.640 smiled and we both kind of just looked at each 0:04:49.640 --> 0:04:51.400 other and we gave each other a hug. I was like, oh, hey, 0:04:51.400 --> 0:04:54.400 you're that guy the photographer. He's like yeah, and he's like, yeah, 0:04:54.400 --> 0:04:55.919 I just came from work. So I'm just kind of 0:04:56.000 --> 0:04:58.159 like sorry if I'm like a little thinking like no, 0:04:58.200 --> 0:05:00.200 you're totally fine. He's like yeah, I was trying to 0:05:00.200 --> 0:05:02.320 make sure I got here before Becky, so I was like, no, 0:05:02.400 --> 0:05:04.839 you're good. So anyways, we started taking shots. Like I 0:05:04.920 --> 0:05:07.440 sat next to him, like I felt very comfortable. By 0:05:07.480 --> 0:05:10.239 this time, I was already like very separated, you guys, 0:05:10.279 --> 0:05:13.960 like completely separate, and nothing was there, Like I was single, single, 0:05:14.320 --> 0:05:16.799 one hundred percent. Just wanted to put that out there. Anyway, 0:05:16.880 --> 0:05:20.680 So we were chilling and flirting and then you know, 0:05:20.760 --> 0:05:23.440 I told him that I wanted to poke his dimples 0:05:23.480 --> 0:05:25.280 because I love his dimple. So I said, hey, can 0:05:25.320 --> 0:05:28.200 I poke your dimples? Well before that, I guess the 0:05:28.279 --> 0:05:31.400 sink to my restroom wet him or something like that, 0:05:31.440 --> 0:05:33.839 and he's like, hey, your sink just like freaking spit 0:05:33.920 --> 0:05:35.159 at me. And I was like, oh my god, I 0:05:35.200 --> 0:05:36.720 made a huge mess. Whatever. So I went in there 0:05:36.760 --> 0:05:38.760 and like helped him clean it up, and you know, 0:05:38.839 --> 0:05:40.920 that's like the first I think, like, Well, we laughed 0:05:40.920 --> 0:05:42.080 and it was like cute because we were in the 0:05:42.120 --> 0:05:45.800 bathroom together, and then the buzz started and then that's 0:05:45.839 --> 0:05:47.359 when I was like, hey, I want to poke your dimple. 0:05:47.480 --> 0:05:49.000 He's like, yeah, you could do whatever you want. And 0:05:49.040 --> 0:05:51.159 I was like, oh, shoot, okay, So I was like, okay, 0:05:51.200 --> 0:05:53.440 he's into me, and then we kissed. He kissed me, 0:05:53.560 --> 0:05:56.040 he followed me into like one of the rooms, and 0:05:56.080 --> 0:05:57.720 I kind of was kind of like giving him the hint, 0:05:57.800 --> 0:05:59.719 like come like, hey, what's up, you know, and he 0:05:59.760 --> 0:06:02.560 got so he followed me and we kissed, and yeah, 0:06:02.680 --> 0:06:05.080 that's how we're kind of here. So ever since then, 0:06:05.720 --> 0:06:08.680 I was very honest with him, you guys, very straightforward. 0:06:08.720 --> 0:06:09.920 I said, you know what, I don't want to make 0:06:09.920 --> 0:06:12.600 the same mistake I made in my past relationships, and 0:06:13.160 --> 0:06:14.760 I want to be better in every way I want 0:06:14.760 --> 0:06:17.960 to learn because I also wasn't perfect and my past relationship, 0:06:18.000 --> 0:06:21.080 and I was like, I want to do things right. 0:06:21.200 --> 0:06:24.640 So that night, I told him, Hey, I don't know 0:06:24.640 --> 0:06:26.240 what's going on here, but I just want you to 0:06:26.279 --> 0:06:32.159 know that I'm broken, I am still healing from my 0:06:32.200 --> 0:06:36.720 past relationship. I'm still married. I'm trying to get divorced. 0:06:38.480 --> 0:06:41.640 He's not really cooperating. I don't know how long it's 0:06:41.680 --> 0:06:43.000 going to take, but I just want to let you 0:06:43.040 --> 0:06:46.040 know this is my situation and I'm going through some 0:06:46.080 --> 0:06:50.120 things with my extended family and I'm just very sad 0:06:50.360 --> 0:06:53.040 and I'm not ready to be in a relationship. But 0:06:53.200 --> 0:06:55.840 I like you and I'd like to spend time with you. 0:06:55.880 --> 0:06:59.000 And if you're down, then cool. But I am. I'm 0:06:59.040 --> 0:07:01.520 not in a good place emotion And I just remember 0:07:01.800 --> 0:07:04.800 him looking into my eyes. He's like, it's okay, there's 0:07:04.800 --> 0:07:06.920 no need for you to do this alone. I can 0:07:07.040 --> 0:07:09.440 help you heal. I was like, okay, thank you. I 0:07:09.440 --> 0:07:12.240 thought it was really sweet, but I knew from like 0:07:12.360 --> 0:07:15.520 therapy that the healing was in my hands, it was 0:07:15.560 --> 0:07:18.560 my responsibility. But it was nice to hear someone say, hey, like, 0:07:18.960 --> 0:07:20.560 you don't have to do this by yourself. You don't 0:07:20.600 --> 0:07:23.040 have to be alone to figure this out. Little did 0:07:23.040 --> 0:07:25.080 I know at that time. I didn't find out until 0:07:25.080 --> 0:07:26.840 months later that a media had just gotten out of 0:07:26.880 --> 0:07:29.520 a relationship. He was in a relationship for like four years, 0:07:29.560 --> 0:07:31.880 on and off. They had their own issues. I feel 0:07:31.880 --> 0:07:33.800 like it's not my place to talk about it, but 0:07:34.360 --> 0:07:37.360 they had just like officially broken up in January, so 0:07:38.320 --> 0:07:40.920 that was fairly fresh. And he was on like this 0:07:41.400 --> 0:07:44.880 fitness thing, working out, eating healthy, like he was just 0:07:45.240 --> 0:07:49.559 really focused on work and you know, being healthy during 0:07:49.560 --> 0:07:52.640 that time. I think because he was also going through 0:07:52.680 --> 0:07:55.160 a heartbreak, so I was very worried that we were 0:07:55.200 --> 0:07:59.680 each other's rebound to be honest, and we had these 0:07:59.720 --> 0:08:01.760 deep conversations. I was like, hey, I one time, I 0:08:01.760 --> 0:08:04.000 remember asking him, Hey, do you miss your ex girlfriend? 0:08:04.560 --> 0:08:07.440 And he said, I, actually, I'm not gonna lie, I 0:08:07.560 --> 0:08:10.480 kind of do, and I remember like my feelings being hurt. 0:08:10.520 --> 0:08:12.920 But then I was like, dude, at least he's being honest. 0:08:12.920 --> 0:08:15.160 And I asked, and you know, that's my bad, I 0:08:15.160 --> 0:08:20.080 guess for asking. But from the beginning we had these beautiful, honest, 0:08:20.480 --> 0:08:25.520 raw conversations, and I think we helped each other, you 0:08:25.600 --> 0:08:27.720 know what I mean, Like I'm telling you that that's 0:08:27.720 --> 0:08:30.520 why I think I waited, because we did talk about marriage, 0:08:31.080 --> 0:08:32.880 like in the first year of our relationship, and you know, 0:08:32.960 --> 0:08:36.200 and I have now been together for two years and 0:08:36.240 --> 0:08:38.240 five months something like that. So in the first year 0:08:38.240 --> 0:08:40.240 of our relationship, we did kind of talk about marriage. 0:08:40.280 --> 0:08:44.439 We mentioned it, and I wasn't ready to talk about 0:08:44.440 --> 0:08:46.960 it because it took me a whole year. You guys 0:08:47.000 --> 0:08:49.720 are a little bit more to actually get divorced, to 0:08:49.760 --> 0:08:53.280 get the papers for it to be completed and finalized. 0:08:53.320 --> 0:08:56.960 It was so tough, you guys. That's a whole other conversation. 0:08:57.000 --> 0:08:58.440 But I feel like I need to mention it just 0:08:58.480 --> 0:09:01.760 because our relationship did start with me still being married. 0:09:02.240 --> 0:09:03.760 And I would tell him, I'm like, you know what, 0:09:03.800 --> 0:09:05.199 like I just feel bad, Like I feel like I 0:09:05.200 --> 0:09:09.439 shouldn't be starting a new relationship without first really finalizing 0:09:09.720 --> 0:09:12.480 my past, you know, because I don't want it to 0:09:12.520 --> 0:09:16.160 affect us, and I just don't want to bring that 0:09:16.280 --> 0:09:18.839 energy into this. But I think because we had those 0:09:18.840 --> 0:09:21.120 conversations and he was doing therapy and I was doing therapy, 0:09:21.160 --> 0:09:25.400 it just kind of helped us out with having those difficult, 0:09:25.480 --> 0:09:28.800 sometimes very difficult conversations. And I just said, you know what, 0:09:29.040 --> 0:09:31.720 like we've kind of mentioned marriage here and there just 0:09:31.760 --> 0:09:33.680 came up, you know, because we would go to a 0:09:33.679 --> 0:09:36.160 weddings or something like that and kids and stuff, and 0:09:36.720 --> 0:09:38.160 I just had to tell him one day, I'm like, 0:09:38.200 --> 0:09:40.520 you know what, I don't want to talk about marriage. 0:09:40.559 --> 0:09:43.520 I don't want to talk about children. I just want 0:09:43.600 --> 0:09:48.360 to enjoy this. And to be honest, I'm scared. I'm 0:09:48.400 --> 0:09:51.679 afraid I am a little tainted. I'm a little jaded 0:09:51.720 --> 0:09:54.040 when it comes to that. I think because of what 0:09:54.120 --> 0:09:56.720 had just happened to me, and I felt somewhat like 0:09:56.920 --> 0:10:02.080 vamboozled or fooled. And not only that, but you know 0:10:02.200 --> 0:10:06.679 my mom, she had her fair share of separations and divorces, 0:10:06.720 --> 0:10:10.120 and it's just something that has always It's not that 0:10:10.160 --> 0:10:13.080 I'm scared of commitment. I guess it was more of 0:10:13.559 --> 0:10:15.719 I tried it and then I felt like it bit 0:10:15.800 --> 0:10:20.360 me in the ass, but only because even when I 0:10:20.440 --> 0:10:24.160 was proposed to then I knew. I was like, I 0:10:24.200 --> 0:10:27.839 know that I'm ready, I just don't know if he's ready, 0:10:27.920 --> 0:10:30.600 you know. And I ignored that. I ignored it, and 0:10:30.679 --> 0:10:32.640 even on the wedding day, like I was just I 0:10:32.640 --> 0:10:35.680 ignored it. And it's crazy because it's like everything happens 0:10:35.679 --> 0:10:37.360 for a reason. I'm kind of jumping everywhere, you guys, 0:10:37.400 --> 0:10:38.599 and I'm so sorry. It's because, like I feel like 0:10:38.600 --> 0:10:40.079 I want to say so much, but I feel like 0:10:40.080 --> 0:10:42.120 everything happens for a reason. Like I really had to 0:10:42.200 --> 0:10:46.959 experience that relationship, that marriage, that separation, that divorce in 0:10:47.080 --> 0:10:51.560 order to really appreciate what was coming. And now I 0:10:51.640 --> 0:10:55.080 understand everything, and now I see myself for who I 0:10:55.120 --> 0:10:58.520 am now and who I was then, and I'm very 0:10:58.520 --> 0:11:03.440 intentional in making changes because I also had a lot 0:11:04.080 --> 0:11:08.160 to do with why that relationship didn't work. It couldn't 0:11:08.200 --> 0:11:11.080 work like I did, ignore a lot of red flags 0:11:11.160 --> 0:11:14.800 I didn't understand, and allowing the other person to be 0:11:14.880 --> 0:11:20.320 their individual self. I was brought up with marriage. Two 0:11:20.360 --> 0:11:25.040 people become one, and it's somewhat of like a controlling thing, 0:11:25.240 --> 0:11:26.319 you know what I mean, Like you need to tell 0:11:26.320 --> 0:11:28.480 me where you're at at all times and the whole thing, 0:11:28.480 --> 0:11:30.720 and that could be a little suffocating to a person. 0:11:30.720 --> 0:11:34.240 And I think I probably suffocated him without wanting to. 0:11:34.280 --> 0:11:36.599 It's like when you love something, you just want to 0:11:36.600 --> 0:11:38.160 make sure they're okay, and you want to kind of 0:11:38.160 --> 0:11:41.840 save them from themselves because you know, he wasn't perfect. 0:11:42.200 --> 0:11:45.560 So I'm glad I was able to just experience that 0:11:45.679 --> 0:11:47.520 and go through that, and I feel like it prepared 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:51.079 me for a Meilio, you know, and for this engagement, 0:11:51.600 --> 0:11:53.959 for this moment in my life that I wasn't sure 0:11:54.000 --> 0:11:55.960 if I was ready for, to be honest, and I'll 0:11:55.960 --> 0:11:58.280 explain all that right now, but I thought that it 0:11:58.320 --> 0:11:59.800 was important for you guys to hear all of this 0:12:00.040 --> 0:12:04.160 because through this relationship, I've been able to really heal. 0:12:04.360 --> 0:12:07.000 I've done the work. He's helped me do the work. 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:09.760 I think the fact that we're on the same page, 0:12:09.800 --> 0:12:13.160 and we both came from a heartbreak. It helped us 0:12:13.640 --> 0:12:16.200 both get to this point, if that makes sense, you know. 0:12:16.800 --> 0:12:19.600 And I have forgiven my past, and I have forgiven 0:12:19.640 --> 0:12:22.320 myself for the mistakes that I made, and I forgive 0:12:22.840 --> 0:12:26.240 my ex. And I can honestly say I'm healed, and 0:12:26.280 --> 0:12:29.040 I wish him the best, and I wish him happiness 0:12:29.080 --> 0:12:31.200 and he deserves it. And I think we were just 0:12:31.400 --> 0:12:33.880 young and wanted to just I don't know. I think 0:12:33.920 --> 0:12:36.520 it was like a moment thing, you know. So now 0:12:36.559 --> 0:12:40.319 fast forward to this moment, to this present moment, because 0:12:40.440 --> 0:12:44.880 I can honestly tell you guys that I'm happy, I'm 0:12:45.080 --> 0:12:50.800 at peace. I didn't know, to be honest, that I 0:12:50.920 --> 0:12:54.160 was ready. I just know for the past I want 0:12:54.200 --> 0:12:56.960 to say, four months, I've had a little bit of 0:12:57.040 --> 0:13:00.200 baby fever. I've thought a little bit about the wedding, 0:13:00.240 --> 0:13:02.320 and then I'm like, no, no, no, no, because I have 0:13:02.440 --> 0:13:05.400 told him like, I don't think it's necessary to get married. 0:13:05.559 --> 0:13:07.640 I don't think that we need to get married. We 0:13:07.640 --> 0:13:11.520 don't need a piece of paper to determine that we're 0:13:11.520 --> 0:13:16.120 in love and to solidify the relationship, you know. And 0:13:16.880 --> 0:13:19.560 he was very respectful, and he was very patient. So 0:13:20.000 --> 0:13:21.840 I would tell him all these things. But for the 0:13:21.880 --> 0:13:24.280 past four months, even in interviews when people would ask 0:13:24.280 --> 0:13:26.199 me like, oh, do you see yourself getting married? We 0:13:26.240 --> 0:13:28.880 see you so happy, like you know, he brings out 0:13:28.880 --> 0:13:31.320 the best in you, and I'm like, actually, I have. 0:13:31.640 --> 0:13:34.720 I've thought a little bit about it, like all by myself, 0:13:35.200 --> 0:13:37.600 like and I would I'm just very transparent in interviews 0:13:37.600 --> 0:13:38.719 and like that could be a good thing or a 0:13:38.760 --> 0:13:41.640 bad thing. But I think that kind of also gave 0:13:41.720 --> 0:13:43.600 him the confidence to say I'm going to do it, 0:13:43.800 --> 0:13:46.880 you know, because I'd be like, yeah, I've actually thought 0:13:46.880 --> 0:13:49.480 about it a little bit more, you know, marriage. And 0:13:49.520 --> 0:13:52.400 he happened to be at a couple of these interviews. 0:13:52.559 --> 0:13:55.320 I just was just talking and just responding to the questions. 0:13:55.360 --> 0:13:57.880 And now that we're engaged and now like you know, 0:13:57.880 --> 0:14:00.880 we're kind of talking about how and why and everything, 0:14:01.400 --> 0:14:03.800 he kind of mentioned that, and I guess it just 0:14:03.840 --> 0:14:13.120 made him very excited and feel like, you know, comfortable. So, 0:14:13.240 --> 0:14:15.880 you know what, let's just talk about the trip. So 0:14:16.200 --> 0:14:18.559 the trip that we took, which was to we went 0:14:18.600 --> 0:14:21.280 to Zion National Parking You tall, you guys, him and 0:14:21.360 --> 0:14:25.360 I are really into like nature and hiking and cycling 0:14:25.400 --> 0:14:27.800 and the whole thing. The crazy thing is I've always 0:14:27.800 --> 0:14:32.479 been into that. It's very Janee. I'm very like hippie 0:14:32.520 --> 0:14:35.760 and you know, and he brought it all out in me. Again. 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:38.400 I think I was just so like focused on Cheeky's 0:14:38.400 --> 0:14:40.120 for a while that I kind of ignored all the 0:14:40.160 --> 0:14:42.480 things that Jane is into. I'm Jane, by the way, Okay, 0:14:42.520 --> 0:14:45.760 I just want to clarify that. So AnyWho, we were 0:14:45.760 --> 0:14:50.080 supposed to go to Yosemite and it happened to be 0:14:50.120 --> 0:14:53.360 closed because we had just gone to Zion in March 0:14:53.520 --> 0:14:56.120 to celebrate our two year anniversary and that was our 0:14:56.160 --> 0:14:58.760 first time there together and I've always wanted to go 0:14:58.760 --> 0:15:00.840 to Zion and I fell in love. I kept saying. 0:15:00.840 --> 0:15:04.440 I was like, if I was a national park, I 0:15:04.480 --> 0:15:07.239 would be Zion, And He's like, why would be Yosemite. 0:15:07.360 --> 0:15:09.600 So that's where we were going to go for his 0:15:09.640 --> 0:15:12.880 birthday to celebrate his thirty first birthday in Yosemite. But 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:15.400 with all the snow and the weather stuff that we've 0:15:15.440 --> 0:15:19.240 been having, it was closed down and they weren't opening. 0:15:19.280 --> 0:15:20.960 So by the time that it did open, and we 0:15:21.040 --> 0:15:23.880 try to book our reservation. It was completely sold out. 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:26.440 So I was like, Okay, well let's go to Zion 0:15:26.960 --> 0:15:29.040 and he's like, oh, but we just were there, and 0:15:29.080 --> 0:15:31.120 I'm like, but it was so nice, Like we discovered 0:15:31.200 --> 0:15:34.360 the park together, like it'll be your birthday trip. So 0:15:34.800 --> 0:15:37.520 we looked into this place. We had stayed before at 0:15:37.520 --> 0:15:40.800 the Zion Lodge inside of the park, but this time 0:15:40.840 --> 0:15:43.600 we stayed outside and we got this villa and it 0:15:43.720 --> 0:15:47.040 was like super awesome. So we drove up there on Saturday, 0:15:47.080 --> 0:15:49.400 the day before his birthday, and we loved, you know, 0:15:49.440 --> 0:15:51.800 taking road trips, like I like taking snacks and he 0:15:51.920 --> 0:15:55.840 drives and I nap, you know, so we listened to music. 0:15:55.920 --> 0:15:59.520 It's super fun, super fun. So anyways, we got there. 0:15:59.560 --> 0:16:02.480 We got there little like in the evening, and we 0:16:02.520 --> 0:16:05.520 had such a first beautiful night there, Like it was 0:16:05.600 --> 0:16:08.480 so different from our first experience because we were in 0:16:08.600 --> 0:16:12.280 the town and we weren't allowed to drive our own 0:16:12.280 --> 0:16:14.680 car into the park, so we were just a little 0:16:14.680 --> 0:16:17.280 nervous as I'm like, oh my god, like I'm excited, 0:16:17.520 --> 0:16:20.680 but also I loved our first experience so much that 0:16:20.760 --> 0:16:23.200 I'm like I was like, I'm a little scared. I'm 0:16:23.240 --> 0:16:25.680 not gonna like this trip, but I kept it to myself. 0:16:25.920 --> 0:16:27.680 I was like, I'm not it's his birthday. I'm not 0:16:27.680 --> 0:16:29.680 going to complain. I'm going to really write this out 0:16:29.720 --> 0:16:31.560 and figure this out. So anyways, we had a really 0:16:31.600 --> 0:16:33.920 nice night. We chilled at the house, We got a 0:16:33.960 --> 0:16:36.840 little buzz on, we had some wine, like, we unpacked everything. 0:16:36.840 --> 0:16:38.920 We went to the story. There was like this reggae 0:16:39.320 --> 0:16:41.760 band outside of our hotel, like and they were like 0:16:41.800 --> 0:16:43.760 on the lawn playing live for like two and a 0:16:43.800 --> 0:16:46.560 half hours. So we went there and we just sat 0:16:46.600 --> 0:16:50.160 on the grass on a blanket. It was just him 0:16:50.200 --> 0:16:52.000 and I. We got a few drinks, got a little 0:16:52.000 --> 0:16:53.960 buzz and then we went to the grocery store to 0:16:54.040 --> 0:16:56.840 kind of just like get everything ready for our hiking 0:16:56.840 --> 0:16:59.000 trips that we were going to do. And that was it. 0:16:59.320 --> 0:17:01.320 Then we woke up early the next morning, which is 0:17:01.320 --> 0:17:04.159 his birthday on the twenty eighth, on Sunday. You know, 0:17:04.160 --> 0:17:06.560 I had a little like birthday candle thing for him. 0:17:06.600 --> 0:17:09.200 I had already given him his gift before we left, 0:17:09.240 --> 0:17:11.520 which was a very nice gift. He was very happy. 0:17:11.520 --> 0:17:13.360 I think I did really good, you guys. I got 0:17:13.480 --> 0:17:16.080 him a Z nine nikon because he loves nicon. You know, 0:17:16.119 --> 0:17:18.560 he's a photographer, So I got him a new camera 0:17:18.840 --> 0:17:20.960 because I know he really needed it, and he was 0:17:21.080 --> 0:17:23.960 so excited, you guys, he cried. It was so beautiful. 0:17:24.080 --> 0:17:26.000 So anyways, I gave him a card and I just 0:17:26.040 --> 0:17:28.200 like had like these. He loves donuts, so I found 0:17:28.200 --> 0:17:31.600 this like donut candle and I just sang Happy Birthday, 0:17:31.640 --> 0:17:34.800 and I gave him a card and then we got ready. 0:17:34.840 --> 0:17:37.399 I made a sandwiches for our trip because you know, 0:17:37.520 --> 0:17:39.480 we do the whole like backpack and we have like 0:17:39.480 --> 0:17:41.720 our camel bats with the water a little freaking tube. 0:17:41.720 --> 0:17:44.159 It's like super cute. Anyways, the reason I love it 0:17:44.200 --> 0:17:47.720 so much is because I am just myself there. I'm 0:17:47.720 --> 0:17:51.119 totally Jane, no hair, no makeup, like I mean, well 0:17:51.119 --> 0:17:53.359 should I say no extensions. I don't do my hair, 0:17:53.440 --> 0:17:56.400 I don't put on any makeup. I'm like in super 0:17:56.480 --> 0:17:58.919 chill clothes. So that's like the best part for me, 0:17:59.440 --> 0:18:01.560 and he loves it. So it was like, Okay, cool, 0:18:01.600 --> 0:18:03.760 we're gonna have a great old time. So anyways, we 0:18:03.800 --> 0:18:07.080 got ready for our hike, and I think we were 0:18:07.119 --> 0:18:09.320 both very nervous. Now I know he was very nervous. 0:18:09.320 --> 0:18:11.200 And why he was nervous. But I was nervous because 0:18:11.200 --> 0:18:12.800 I'm like, oh my god, So we have to walk 0:18:12.840 --> 0:18:17.000 from our villa to like this place where everyone's there 0:18:18.160 --> 0:18:21.360 trying to get into the park. The line was crazy long, 0:18:21.440 --> 0:18:23.280 you guys. I just kept trying to breathe because I 0:18:23.280 --> 0:18:25.240 was like okay. Because he was nervous, He's like, oh 0:18:25.280 --> 0:18:27.760 my god, like it's getting late. We were supposed to 0:18:27.800 --> 0:18:29.960 leave the house like a little earlier, and we didn't. 0:18:29.960 --> 0:18:31.520 So I was like, it's okay, babe, it's fine, Like 0:18:31.600 --> 0:18:34.359 it's okay, let's just enjoy it. It took us about 0:18:34.359 --> 0:18:36.479 like forty minutes, you guys, to get onto a shuttle 0:18:36.520 --> 0:18:38.960 to get into the park, and we had to stand 0:18:38.960 --> 0:18:40.520 the whole way into the park. And I was just 0:18:40.560 --> 0:18:41.800 like cause I told him, I was like I kind 0:18:41.840 --> 0:18:43.359 of want to sit, let's wait for the next shuttle, 0:18:43.359 --> 0:18:45.639 and he's like, no, no, let's just go. I'm like, I 0:18:45.680 --> 0:18:47.760 was like, okay. I just took a deep breath and 0:18:47.760 --> 0:18:50.199 I was like, okay, I'm going to breathe through this 0:18:50.240 --> 0:18:51.920 because I had to stand on my knees were hurting, 0:18:51.920 --> 0:18:55.840 and we had to take this very strenuous hike and 0:18:55.880 --> 0:19:00.439 I knew it was coming because I've done this high before. 0:19:00.680 --> 0:19:03.480 It's called angels Landing in Zion, So I'm like, this 0:19:03.560 --> 0:19:05.399 is this is a tough one and I still have 0:19:05.440 --> 0:19:07.199 to stand here. So I'm like, it's okay, it's his birthday, 0:19:07.280 --> 0:19:10.480