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Speaker 1: This is literally a week ago, a week before our engagement.

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Speaker 1: Hello everyone, and welcome back to a very special episode

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Speaker 1: of Cheese and Chew. I'm your host Cheeky's and guess what,

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Speaker 1: I'm so excited and I can't wait to share all

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Speaker 1: So without further ado, let's talk about how I'm on

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Speaker 1: of the proposal. All right, So, Emilia, when I met

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Speaker 1: much on our hikes. It's very little like I'm more

430
00:19:40,800 --> 00:19:42,800
Speaker 1: of like I need a focus on what I'm doing.

431
00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:45,359
Speaker 1: There were a lot of people going up the mountain

432
00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:47,239
Speaker 1: and coming down, so it was very different from our

433
00:19:47,240 --> 00:19:49,879
Speaker 1: first trip. Sonyways, you finally gets to the top, and

434
00:19:50,040 --> 00:19:53,320
Speaker 1: usually what we do is we find a place to

435
00:19:53,440 --> 00:19:55,840
Speaker 1: like sit down and have our sandwiches that I made

436
00:19:55,920 --> 00:19:57,760
Speaker 1: us and packed us, you know, and then we always

437
00:19:57,800 --> 00:20:00,000
Speaker 1: take a picture. We have someone take a picture for us.

438
00:20:00,080 --> 00:20:02,639
Speaker 1: But this time he was super excited to use this

439
00:20:02,720 --> 00:20:05,520
Speaker 1: gadget thing like I don't know what it's called. I forgot,

440
00:20:05,520 --> 00:20:06,959
Speaker 1: but you know, you put your phone on it. It's

441
00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:09,440
Speaker 1: a damn phone stand, and you know, he was like

442
00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:11,440
Speaker 1: super excited. He's like, okay, well, let's find a spot.

443
00:20:11,560 --> 00:20:14,399
Speaker 1: And it was really busy everywhere. So there was this

444
00:20:14,480 --> 00:20:16,360
Speaker 1: really pretty spot that he's like, oh, this is where

445
00:20:16,400 --> 00:20:17,840
Speaker 1: I want to take a picture, but there were people

446
00:20:17,920 --> 00:20:19,480
Speaker 1: sitting there. So he's like, you know what, let's hike

447
00:20:19,520 --> 00:20:20,320
Speaker 1: a little higher.

448
00:20:20,359 --> 00:20:21,199
Speaker 2: And I was like okay.

449
00:20:21,720 --> 00:20:23,720
Speaker 1: I was like I didn't complain because the first time

450
00:20:23,720 --> 00:20:25,280
Speaker 1: we went, I was like I'm not going any further

451
00:20:25,320 --> 00:20:26,440
Speaker 1: than this, like I'm tired.

452
00:20:26,840 --> 00:20:28,800
Speaker 2: But this time I'm like, okay, let's go. I had

453
00:20:28,800 --> 00:20:29,720
Speaker 2: a little bit more energy.

454
00:20:29,760 --> 00:20:31,840
Speaker 1: So we did hike up a little further and we

455
00:20:31,840 --> 00:20:34,800
Speaker 1: found this beautiful spot where there were like little cactuses

456
00:20:34,880 --> 00:20:37,520
Speaker 1: and am no pallet should I say? There were little

457
00:20:37,520 --> 00:20:39,919
Speaker 1: flowers like pink flowers, and I was just like in

458
00:20:40,040 --> 00:20:41,879
Speaker 1: awe or whatever, and he was like trying to scout

459
00:20:41,960 --> 00:20:43,679
Speaker 1: to find like the perfect place for us to take

460
00:20:43,720 --> 00:20:45,919
Speaker 1: a picture and put his little you know thing up,

461
00:20:45,920 --> 00:20:47,920
Speaker 1: And I just thought he's just excited put his little

462
00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:49,679
Speaker 1: thing up, you know, to because he doesn't have to

463
00:20:49,720 --> 00:20:52,400
Speaker 1: ask anyone to take a picture of us. So anyways,

464
00:20:52,440 --> 00:20:54,080
Speaker 1: we're like, okay, this is a perfect spot, Like we'll

465
00:20:54,119 --> 00:20:56,240
Speaker 1: take a picture here. There's like some shade here, we'll

466
00:20:56,280 --> 00:20:57,960
Speaker 1: sit here and have our lunch before we you know,

467
00:20:58,000 --> 00:21:01,080
Speaker 1: we start hiking down and so he's like, hey, babe,

468
00:21:01,600 --> 00:21:03,479
Speaker 1: you know, can you stand right there? It was like

469
00:21:03,600 --> 00:21:05,520
Speaker 1: right on like kind of like on the edge, you know,

470
00:21:05,520 --> 00:21:08,440
Speaker 1: where you could see like how high we've we came up,

471
00:21:09,200 --> 00:21:10,960
Speaker 1: and it was a very pretty view. And I'm like yeah,

472
00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:13,000
Speaker 1: So I take my first picture and I'm like okay,

473
00:21:13,040 --> 00:21:15,280
Speaker 1: you know, and then he's like, okay, now let's take

474
00:21:15,320 --> 00:21:17,600
Speaker 1: one together. So he comes and we take a picture together,

475
00:21:18,359 --> 00:21:19,840
Speaker 1: and then he goes like, okay, I'm gonna I'm going

476
00:21:19,880 --> 00:21:20,840
Speaker 1: to record a video now.

477
00:21:21,400 --> 00:21:23,240
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, cool. No, actually I'm lying.

478
00:21:23,280 --> 00:21:24,520
Speaker 1: No, he didn't say that. He's like, oh wait, I'm

479
00:21:24,520 --> 00:21:26,320
Speaker 1: going to take another picture. I'mn put the time around again.

480
00:21:26,359 --> 00:21:29,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, cool. So I turn around like looking

481
00:21:29,240 --> 00:21:31,800
Speaker 1: at the view while he's doing whatever. And right when

482
00:21:31,840 --> 00:21:35,159
Speaker 1: I turned back around to face him, I see like

483
00:21:35,680 --> 00:21:38,200
Speaker 1: he had grabbed something from his backpack and he's like, babe,

484
00:21:38,480 --> 00:21:40,200
Speaker 1: and then he said doodle because he calls me doodle.

485
00:21:40,359 --> 00:21:41,760
Speaker 1: I don't know why he calls me doodle. I think

486
00:21:41,800 --> 00:21:44,760
Speaker 1: because we have a doodle, like a multiple doodle. I

487
00:21:44,760 --> 00:21:47,280
Speaker 1: don't know, he calls me doodle. And I saw the

488
00:21:47,400 --> 00:21:50,200
Speaker 1: box and that's when in the moment where I was like, oh,

489
00:21:50,400 --> 00:21:53,760
Speaker 1: oh my god, and I just like everything kind of

490
00:21:53,960 --> 00:21:56,320
Speaker 1: just went into a daze and I'm like, oh my gosh,

491
00:21:56,359 --> 00:21:58,440
Speaker 1: I can crossed my mind. I'm like, is it happening?

492
00:21:58,680 --> 00:22:00,000
Speaker 1: And he just looked at me with his big, old,

493
00:22:00,080 --> 00:22:03,679
Speaker 1: beautiful hazel eyes and they were kind of watery but

494
00:22:03,840 --> 00:22:06,040
Speaker 1: not really. And then I'm like, what is I told you?

495
00:22:06,080 --> 00:22:08,760
Speaker 1: I asked him, I'll say, what's happening? And he's like

496
00:22:09,359 --> 00:22:12,480
Speaker 1: just started saying all kinds of beautiful things and how

497
00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:16,439
Speaker 1: I have come to just be a positive force in

498
00:22:16,480 --> 00:22:19,159
Speaker 1: his life and that he once made me a promise

499
00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:20,720
Speaker 1: with like another ring because he did give me a

500
00:22:20,720 --> 00:22:23,400
Speaker 1: promise ring that I lost you guys, Oh my god,

501
00:22:23,440 --> 00:22:24,640
Speaker 1: I lost the promise ring.

502
00:22:25,960 --> 00:22:27,000
Speaker 2: I know, my goodness.

503
00:22:27,080 --> 00:22:30,160
Speaker 1: Anyways, so he's like, I gave you a promise ring,

504
00:22:30,200 --> 00:22:33,560
Speaker 1: and I just want to reinforce those promises and just

505
00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:34,919
Speaker 1: tell you how much I love you and that I

506
00:22:34,920 --> 00:22:36,240
Speaker 1: want to take care of you for the rest of

507
00:22:36,280 --> 00:22:39,399
Speaker 1: my life and I want to bring out the best

508
00:22:39,440 --> 00:22:40,879
Speaker 1: in you the way you've brought it out in me.

509
00:22:41,040 --> 00:22:43,399
Speaker 1: And he just said all these beautiful things. It was

510
00:22:43,520 --> 00:22:47,919
Speaker 1: very short, sweet and to the point. And then he

511
00:22:48,119 --> 00:22:50,359
Speaker 1: just asked if I would marry him, and oh my god,

512
00:22:50,440 --> 00:22:51,159
Speaker 1: I started crying.

513
00:22:51,200 --> 00:22:53,080
Speaker 2: Like I was just like crying.

514
00:22:53,119 --> 00:22:55,240
Speaker 1: I was in disbelief because in the beginning, I just

515
00:22:55,280 --> 00:22:56,480
Speaker 1: felt like everything was a blur.

516
00:22:56,960 --> 00:22:59,399
Speaker 2: I'm like, is this really happening? It felt so surreal.

517
00:22:59,440 --> 00:23:02,000
Speaker 1: I felt like I was in a dream and now

518
00:23:02,040 --> 00:23:03,680
Speaker 1: and I was looking around, I was looking at the camera.

519
00:23:03,680 --> 00:23:05,440
Speaker 2: I was like, oh my god, it all makes sense.

520
00:23:05,480 --> 00:23:07,440
Speaker 1: It all just made so much sense in the moment

521
00:23:08,040 --> 00:23:10,480
Speaker 1: that I had to like really just pause and say, okay, Jenne,

522
00:23:10,680 --> 00:23:12,000
Speaker 1: you need to be present. So I had to like

523
00:23:12,000 --> 00:23:16,080
Speaker 1: close my eyes and take a deep breath. And then

524
00:23:16,160 --> 00:23:18,080
Speaker 1: once I opened up my eyes, I was listening to

525
00:23:18,119 --> 00:23:20,560
Speaker 1: everything he was saying. I was like, this is really happening.

526
00:23:21,040 --> 00:23:22,680
Speaker 1: And I didn't even want to look at the ring

527
00:23:23,840 --> 00:23:26,199
Speaker 1: because I was like low key kind of scared. I

528
00:23:26,240 --> 00:23:28,600
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, like hopefully like it's it's

529
00:23:28,960 --> 00:23:31,000
Speaker 1: because it's not all about the ring, but like it's

530
00:23:31,080 --> 00:23:33,680
Speaker 1: kind of important. But I'm not like a superficial type

531
00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:35,359
Speaker 1: of girl materialistic.

532
00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:37,280
Speaker 2: In that way. I just wanted it to be like

533
00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:38,120
Speaker 2: something I liked.

534
00:23:38,200 --> 00:23:40,639
Speaker 1: Okay, So anyways, I just closed my eyes and then

535
00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:42,440
Speaker 1: he opened up the box and I was like, oh

536
00:23:42,480 --> 00:23:42,840
Speaker 1: my god.

537
00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:44,120
Speaker 2: That was another thing where I was like, oh my god,

538
00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:46,600
Speaker 2: it's perfect. It's exactly what I want. It was just

539
00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:49,399
Speaker 2: like perfect. Anyways, he puts the ring on my finger.

540
00:23:49,880 --> 00:23:54,720
Speaker 1: We hug, and I'm just like super quiet, and he's

541
00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:56,760
Speaker 1: like are you okay. He's like, are you sure you're

542
00:23:56,880 --> 00:23:58,959
Speaker 1: You're yes is a yes, and I'm like yeah, no, no, no,

543
00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:01,639
Speaker 1: it is. I'm just in shit, and I'm just like

544
00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:03,840
Speaker 1: so many things are running through like my mind. And

545
00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:05,520
Speaker 1: then finally we just sat down and we had our

546
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:08,879
Speaker 1: lunch and he's like, Janey, like, like I told you before,

547
00:24:09,400 --> 00:24:13,399
Speaker 1: marriage is just something for God to give us his

548
00:24:13,480 --> 00:24:16,439
Speaker 1: blessing and it's a spiritual like thing for you and

549
00:24:16,520 --> 00:24:19,320
Speaker 1: I It's not that I'm going to take control of you.

550
00:24:19,400 --> 00:24:23,000
Speaker 1: I'm trying to change you. You're my property. He's like,

551
00:24:23,040 --> 00:24:25,280
Speaker 1: I know that those things are what keep you from

552
00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:27,919
Speaker 1: wanting to get married. And I'm like, yeah, like I

553
00:24:27,960 --> 00:24:31,280
Speaker 1: still want to be myself, Like I still, you know,

554
00:24:31,760 --> 00:24:34,560
Speaker 1: want to go out with my friends and I still

555
00:24:34,600 --> 00:24:36,840
Speaker 1: want to be me. And he said, you know, and

556
00:24:36,880 --> 00:24:39,080
Speaker 1: I've explained all of this to him, and he said yeah,

557
00:24:39,119 --> 00:24:42,520
Speaker 1: he says, I totally understand. And I just want to

558
00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:46,960
Speaker 1: help you in any way that I can and support

559
00:24:47,000 --> 00:24:49,919
Speaker 1: you and show you my support every day. I just

560
00:24:50,080 --> 00:24:53,800
Speaker 1: want this to bless our love, you know. I want

561
00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:56,720
Speaker 1: us to have a ceremony to bless our love, not

562
00:24:56,840 --> 00:24:58,800
Speaker 1: for anything else. And I'm like, okay, And it just

563
00:24:58,800 --> 00:25:01,280
Speaker 1: made me feel very safe, Like it made me feel

564
00:25:01,400 --> 00:25:04,160
Speaker 1: very very safe. And that's what he makes me feel,

565
00:25:04,160 --> 00:25:06,280
Speaker 1: you guys, I feel safe. I feel like I can

566
00:25:06,680 --> 00:25:12,000
Speaker 1: literally just trust him with my heart. But anyways, so fine,

567
00:25:12,080 --> 00:25:15,000
Speaker 1: we eat. It was really nice, We take more pictures.

568
00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:17,679
Speaker 1: We had no reception so we couldn't really call anyone,

569
00:25:17,760 --> 00:25:21,080
Speaker 1: so you know, we got down the mountain I think,

570
00:25:21,119 --> 00:25:23,080
Speaker 1: like in less than an hour, like forty minutes, we

571
00:25:23,200 --> 00:25:25,960
Speaker 1: like freaking. I guess it was just the the adrenaline.

572
00:25:26,080 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 1: I'm not too sure, but I was kind of quiet

573
00:25:28,880 --> 00:25:31,679
Speaker 1: on the way down. I'm usually pretty quiet. But I

574
00:25:31,680 --> 00:25:33,520
Speaker 1: don't know if he thought like, oh, I'm gonna talk

575
00:25:33,560 --> 00:25:35,879
Speaker 1: a little bit more. But I think what it was,

576
00:25:35,920 --> 00:25:38,399
Speaker 1: I was like I wasn't able to like vocalize it

577
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:41,719
Speaker 1: out loud. That I think that's what kind of like

578
00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:42,600
Speaker 1: it was it was.

579
00:25:42,960 --> 00:25:43,399
Speaker 2: I don't know.

580
00:25:43,560 --> 00:25:45,639
Speaker 1: I just I guess I didn't believe it. I was

581
00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:48,160
Speaker 1: in shock, you guys. So anyways, we get on the shuttle,

582
00:25:48,800 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 1: we sit finally get to sit, thank goodness. So we

583
00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:53,640
Speaker 1: get on the on the shuttle, we're sitting and we

584
00:25:53,680 --> 00:25:57,120
Speaker 1: sit next to these to this to these two couples,

585
00:25:57,200 --> 00:25:59,679
Speaker 1: older couples, and we just started talking and they were

586
00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:01,840
Speaker 1: telling that they weren't like, you know, retired, and that

587
00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:04,320
Speaker 1: they're going, you know, they're traveling all around the world.

588
00:26:04,359 --> 00:26:07,320
Speaker 1: They're doing different hikes. And I asked her, I said, oh,

589
00:26:07,359 --> 00:26:08,719
Speaker 1: how long have you guys been married. She's like, oh,

590
00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:10,600
Speaker 1: we've just got married a couple years ago, but we've

591
00:26:10,640 --> 00:26:12,840
Speaker 1: been together for about seven years. And you know, she

592
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:14,639
Speaker 1: was telling me the whole thing. And then she's like,

593
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:16,919
Speaker 1: but them, they've been married for thirty two years. You know.

594
00:26:16,920 --> 00:26:18,679
Speaker 1: The people that were sitting across they were traveling with

595
00:26:18,680 --> 00:26:21,040
Speaker 1: this other couple, so they were sitting across us. I said,

596
00:26:21,040 --> 00:26:23,840
Speaker 1: oh nice, and then she said, well, how long have

597
00:26:23,880 --> 00:26:25,720
Speaker 1: you guys been together. I'm like, oh, well, two years

598
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:29,159
Speaker 1: and we just got engaged today. And he's and I'm like,

599
00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:31,720
Speaker 1: and it's his birthday. And that's another thing, you guys.

600
00:26:31,800 --> 00:26:33,920
Speaker 1: When he was like proposing we have the video because

601
00:26:33,920 --> 00:26:36,359
Speaker 1: everything's on video and you can actually hear what I'm saying.

602
00:26:36,400 --> 00:26:39,160
Speaker 2: It's so cute. I was like, but it's your birthday, Emilio.

603
00:26:39,600 --> 00:26:41,879
Speaker 2: And he's like, you know what you said, you guys,

604
00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:43,760
Speaker 2: he said, and all.

605
00:26:43,600 --> 00:26:45,640
Speaker 1: I wanted was for you to say, yes, that's all

606
00:26:45,680 --> 00:26:47,080
Speaker 1: I've ever wanted for my birthday.

607
00:26:47,480 --> 00:26:48,480
Speaker 2: Oh my god.

608
00:26:48,720 --> 00:26:51,800
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh oh, and my I started

609
00:26:51,800 --> 00:26:53,960
Speaker 1: like crying again. It was so pretty. So anyway, so

610
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:56,600
Speaker 1: I let's go back to the shuttle. So I just

611
00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:57,800
Speaker 1: they were like, oh my god.

612
00:26:58,280 --> 00:26:59,040
Speaker 2: The lady like.

613
00:26:59,119 --> 00:27:01,560
Speaker 1: Started screaming and I started crying again. And I think

614
00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:04,520
Speaker 1: that's in the moment I was like it happened, because

615
00:27:04,520 --> 00:27:05,720
Speaker 1: they're like, oh my god, your emotion.

616
00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:06,280
Speaker 2: I'm like yeah.

617
00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:07,760
Speaker 1: I was like I think I just needed to tell

618
00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:10,360
Speaker 1: someone because there was no there's no reception in the park,

619
00:27:10,359 --> 00:27:12,240
Speaker 1: you guys, not until you get to like your hotel

620
00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:14,160
Speaker 1: or your villa, like you have Wi Fi, so.

621
00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:16,239
Speaker 2: I couldn't like call anyone or you know.

622
00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:19,760
Speaker 1: So I just told these random people and I started

623
00:27:19,800 --> 00:27:21,720
Speaker 1: crying and he's like, oh my god. He's like, I

624
00:27:21,760 --> 00:27:23,359
Speaker 1: think it just hit you. I'm like, yes, it just

625
00:27:23,440 --> 00:27:26,080
Speaker 1: hit me. So then when we were on our walk

626
00:27:26,160 --> 00:27:28,879
Speaker 1: back from the shuttle to the villa, I was like,

627
00:27:28,920 --> 00:27:30,719
Speaker 1: oh my god. I was like Emilio, like, what if

628
00:27:30,760 --> 00:27:33,080
Speaker 1: we get married here or there? And he's like wow.

629
00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:35,400
Speaker 1: He looked at me. He's like really, I said, yeah,

630
00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:37,159
Speaker 1: why is it weird that I'm thinking about like the

631
00:27:37,160 --> 00:27:39,600
Speaker 1: wedding already. And he's like, no, that actually makes me

632
00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:41,919
Speaker 1: very happy. He's like, there's no rush. I want us

633
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,440
Speaker 1: to like enjoy the engagement, but the fact that you're

634
00:27:44,480 --> 00:27:46,440
Speaker 1: thinking about it makes me very happy.

635
00:27:47,119 --> 00:27:48,119
Speaker 2: And I was.

636
00:27:48,200 --> 00:27:51,399
Speaker 1: I genuinely was just excited and thinking where can we

637
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:52,679
Speaker 1: do it? Do we want to like do it in

638
00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:53,680
Speaker 1: like a natury place.

639
00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:54,040
Speaker 2: For sure.

640
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:56,680
Speaker 1: It has to be like nature esque for sure. I

641
00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:58,679
Speaker 1: don't know if it's going to be like I don't know,

642
00:27:58,840 --> 00:28:01,159
Speaker 1: like the ocean, the mountains or I just I know

643
00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:03,359
Speaker 1: I want trees and flowers and stuff around. That's all

644
00:28:03,359 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 1: I see right now. But anyways, so I think that's

645
00:28:06,600 --> 00:28:08,600
Speaker 1: when it really hit me. And then I just got

646
00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:11,480
Speaker 1: super excited. And then finally we started calling everyone. We

647
00:28:11,560 --> 00:28:13,800
Speaker 1: called his mom, his grandma, we told his grandma because

648
00:28:13,800 --> 00:28:15,560
Speaker 1: his grandma's been wanting us to get engaged for like,

649
00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:17,840
Speaker 1: I think since the day we met, and so everyone

650
00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:21,080
Speaker 1: was super excited. My siblings knew, so I that's one

651
00:28:21,119 --> 00:28:23,040
Speaker 1: of the questions I asked Emilia. I was like, well,

652
00:28:23,040 --> 00:28:26,080
Speaker 1: who knows. He's like, well, everybody that's important to you knows.

653
00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:29,320
Speaker 1: I'm like, what my siblings know? And he's like, yes.

654
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:33,760
Speaker 1: I asked Johnny about a month and a half ago,

655
00:28:33,800 --> 00:28:35,480
Speaker 1: almost two months ago, for your hand.

656
00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:37,640
Speaker 2: I was like what, He's like, yeah.

657
00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:40,080
Speaker 1: I took him to eat and I asked him, you know,

658
00:28:40,120 --> 00:28:41,480
Speaker 1: I told him I wanted to marry you, and I

659
00:28:41,520 --> 00:28:43,200
Speaker 1: asked him for your hand. And I talked to your

660
00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:47,240
Speaker 1: brother Mikey, and he started telling me like how and

661
00:28:47,320 --> 00:28:49,680
Speaker 1: when he talked to each one of my siblings individually,

662
00:28:49,840 --> 00:28:54,959
Speaker 1: which I absolutely appreciate because I knew I wanted it

663
00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:57,240
Speaker 1: to just be him and I. I didn't want this

664
00:28:57,280 --> 00:29:00,640
Speaker 1: whole show or anything like being engaged. I wanted to

665
00:29:00,720 --> 00:29:03,600
Speaker 1: be very private, but I wanted my siblings to be aware.

666
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:09,080
Speaker 1: And he told a few other people about it, and

667
00:29:09,200 --> 00:29:12,040
Speaker 1: very key people, and I just thought it was so

668
00:29:12,080 --> 00:29:14,680
Speaker 1: beautiful of him to just go out of his way

669
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:17,040
Speaker 1: without me having to tell him, Like, it's just those

670
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,320
Speaker 1: little things. I'm like, oh, it just gave me so

671
00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:22,240
Speaker 1: much confirmation. And he told me He's like, Johnny has

672
00:29:22,240 --> 00:29:24,640
Speaker 1: helped me so much through this whole thing. He's given

673
00:29:24,680 --> 00:29:27,600
Speaker 1: me so much confidence, like so much support. He went

674
00:29:27,640 --> 00:29:29,960
Speaker 1: with me to go pick up the ring, and those

675
00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:32,320
Speaker 1: things just mean so much to me. That my siblings

676
00:29:32,400 --> 00:29:34,960
Speaker 1: knew that they were excited. He's like, Jackie was so

677
00:29:35,040 --> 00:29:37,400
Speaker 1: freaking excited. I got on a FaceTime called with Jenica.

678
00:29:37,520 --> 00:29:39,640
Speaker 1: She loved the ring. She's like, oh my god, I

679
00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:42,160
Speaker 1: love the band, Like the ring is so beautiful, and

680
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:45,040
Speaker 1: you know, it's like all those little things just I

681
00:29:45,080 --> 00:29:46,280
Speaker 1: don't know, gave me confirmation.

682
00:29:46,440 --> 00:29:48,360
Speaker 2: And and that's what I told my siblings.

683
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:49,880
Speaker 1: I was like, guys, I sent them, I said, before

684
00:29:49,920 --> 00:29:52,560
Speaker 1: I posted, I sent it to like, you know, my siblings,

685
00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:54,760
Speaker 1: and I said, you know, Jennica was like, how do

686
00:29:54,800 --> 00:29:57,360
Speaker 1: you feel? It's like I'm happy, like I trust this

687
00:29:57,400 --> 00:30:00,400
Speaker 1: man with my heart. Like things aren't perfect, they never

688
00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:03,080
Speaker 1: will be perfect. I think, you know, it's a relationship

689
00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:05,280
Speaker 1: is work every single day. You have to choose your

690
00:30:05,320 --> 00:30:09,600
Speaker 1: partner every single day and it's it's work. And I've

691
00:30:09,600 --> 00:30:12,720
Speaker 1: been one before to just say I don't want to

692
00:30:12,720 --> 00:30:15,120
Speaker 1: deal with this, like I have too much on my plate,

693
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:20,200
Speaker 1: but I've learned that it's so much better to live

694
00:30:20,760 --> 00:30:24,480
Speaker 1: your life with a companion. And I don't know, like

695
00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:28,240
Speaker 1: you know, you hear all like that independent woman like

696
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:32,000
Speaker 1: I can do it myself, you know, and yes, but

697
00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:35,800
Speaker 1: I don't know. I want to kind of break that,

698
00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:39,000
Speaker 1: like you know, and and and really do my part

699
00:30:39,040 --> 00:30:42,240
Speaker 1: to make this work and learn to see the good

700
00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:46,160
Speaker 1: in him, because I think it's just as humans, it's

701
00:30:46,160 --> 00:30:48,479
Speaker 1: so much easier for us to point out the negative

702
00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:50,760
Speaker 1: things in people or the things that they do wrong,

703
00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:53,480
Speaker 1: but when in reality you put it on a list

704
00:30:53,640 --> 00:30:57,280
Speaker 1: of like pros and cons. If the pros and the

705
00:30:57,320 --> 00:30:59,960
Speaker 1: good things and the positive things outweigh the negative things

706
00:31:00,120 --> 00:31:01,920
Speaker 1: the cons then it's just like you know that you're

707
00:31:01,920 --> 00:31:04,720
Speaker 1: with the right person because everything else you can work on.

708
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:08,760
Speaker 1: There are certain things like I feel like obviously cheating

709
00:31:08,920 --> 00:31:13,040
Speaker 1: and drugs and like having addictions and stuff like that,

710
00:31:13,080 --> 00:31:18,400
Speaker 1: like or freaking being you know, verbally, physically, emotionally abused.

711
00:31:18,600 --> 00:31:20,720
Speaker 2: Those things are like a huge red flags that you

712
00:31:20,760 --> 00:31:21,240
Speaker 2: can't ignore.

713
00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:24,560
Speaker 1: But there are other things, you know that can be

714
00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:27,280
Speaker 1: worked through, you know, And I think it just clicked.

715
00:31:27,360 --> 00:31:29,360
Speaker 1: I don't know how to explain it that in that moment,

716
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,360
Speaker 1: it just clicked. I'm like, everything that's happening in my

717
00:31:32,400 --> 00:31:35,080
Speaker 1: life right now, because it's been a very tough month,

718
00:31:36,200 --> 00:31:38,440
Speaker 1: it's happening for a reason. And it was like to

719
00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:43,000
Speaker 1: prepare me for this moment to just really appreciate what

720
00:31:43,080 --> 00:31:51,720
Speaker 1: I have standing in front of me. I mean, I'm

721
00:31:51,760 --> 00:31:56,360
Speaker 1: already thinking of dates, I'm already thinking of locations, and

722
00:31:56,440 --> 00:32:00,080
Speaker 1: I didn't expect this. I do want us to just

723
00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 1: enjoy the engagement and still do our couple's therapy because

724
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:07,120
Speaker 1: there are things that we're working through, and start seeing

725
00:32:07,160 --> 00:32:10,800
Speaker 1: those things as as a good thing, not necessarily bad things,

726
00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:12,600
Speaker 1: you know, And the fact that I have someone that's

727
00:32:12,640 --> 00:32:15,600
Speaker 1: willing to try and willing to do anything and everything

728
00:32:15,640 --> 00:32:18,880
Speaker 1: to make me happy and to make me smile, and

729
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:22,400
Speaker 1: that means so much to me, you know. And I'm

730
00:32:22,520 --> 00:32:29,120
Speaker 1: just choosing to trade fear for faith and leave everything

731
00:32:29,160 --> 00:32:32,880
Speaker 1: in contents, and if we're meant to have kids, it'll happen.

732
00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:35,520
Speaker 1: And it's okay that he's seven years younger than me,

733
00:32:36,120 --> 00:32:37,959
Speaker 1: you know, because sometimes I would let that kind of

734
00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:40,000
Speaker 1: you know, get into my head and be like, oh

735
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:43,120
Speaker 1: my god, but he's seven years younger and this and

736
00:32:43,160 --> 00:32:46,320
Speaker 1: that and blah blah blah, like okaya, stop stop. We

737
00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:48,520
Speaker 1: have to learn to just think. And I talk to

738
00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:50,720
Speaker 1: you guys about this so much, and it's so much

739
00:32:50,800 --> 00:32:54,120
Speaker 1: easier for me to help other people and guide them

740
00:32:54,160 --> 00:32:56,680
Speaker 1: and give them advice. And sometimes, I mean, this must

741
00:32:56,680 --> 00:32:58,520
Speaker 1: happen to all of you guys. To take our own

742
00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:02,040
Speaker 1: advice and to put it practice. What we preach is

743
00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:04,240
Speaker 1: a little bit harder. I mean, I'm very intentional and

744
00:33:04,360 --> 00:33:08,640
Speaker 1: every day being what I talk about, but there are

745
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:10,800
Speaker 1: days that it is hard and I'm just like I

746
00:33:10,840 --> 00:33:12,920
Speaker 1: want to run and just throw in the towel and

747
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:15,760
Speaker 1: just say f at all. And you know, but I

748
00:33:15,760 --> 00:33:19,280
Speaker 1: guess I was a little afraid of marriage. But now

749
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:22,640
Speaker 1: I am just seeing everything for what it is, and

750
00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:25,600
Speaker 1: I am excited and I'm happy and I feel happy

751
00:33:25,640 --> 00:33:29,040
Speaker 1: and I feel blessed and I feel just excited. That's

752
00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:29,960
Speaker 1: what I feel right now.

753
00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:31,080
Speaker 2: So I don't know.

754
00:33:31,120 --> 00:33:35,280
Speaker 1: I'll keep you guys updated as to when, and I

755
00:33:35,360 --> 00:33:36,760
Speaker 1: just have to figure out the details. But right now

756
00:33:36,800 --> 00:33:38,440
Speaker 1: I'm enjoying it and I love the ring very much.

757
00:33:38,480 --> 00:33:42,280
Speaker 1: I think he did very, very, very good, and I

758
00:33:42,320 --> 00:33:44,960
Speaker 1: think it's awesome. Awesome, you guys, because I even thought

759
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,440
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, if I would have

760
00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:48,280
Speaker 1: known that I was going to get proposed to today

761
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:51,720
Speaker 1: on his birthday, which I thought was so selfless of him,

762
00:33:51,720 --> 00:33:54,280
Speaker 1: it's so beautiful. I at least would have brushed my

763
00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:55,480
Speaker 1: hair a little more. I would have put on a

764
00:33:55,480 --> 00:33:57,040
Speaker 1: little bit of makeup. But I'm like, no, this is

765
00:33:57,080 --> 00:33:58,880
Speaker 1: the beauty of it, this is us, this is what

766
00:33:58,920 --> 00:34:02,120
Speaker 1: we love to do. He loves it. When I'm like,

767
00:34:02,760 --> 00:34:05,120
Speaker 1: you know, just Jene, no makeup, hairs of mess, he

768
00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:07,440
Speaker 1: loves it that. I'm like, it was perfect and it

769
00:34:07,480 --> 00:34:09,879
Speaker 1: was in my favorite, like one of my favorite places.

770
00:34:09,520 --> 00:34:11,880
Speaker 2: In the world. Zion. You guys on the top of

771
00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 2: like Angels landing. He made me work for it.

772
00:34:14,760 --> 00:34:17,200
Speaker 1: Okay, it was like an hour and a half hike,

773
00:34:17,320 --> 00:34:19,759
Speaker 1: almost two and then on the way down, But it

774
00:34:19,840 --> 00:34:23,360
Speaker 1: was just so amazing. It was it was just so nice.

775
00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:27,319
Speaker 1: Everything just happened the way it was supposed to, Like

776
00:34:28,040 --> 00:34:29,120
Speaker 1: even getting on the shuttle.

777
00:34:29,120 --> 00:34:29,880
Speaker 2: It was just perfect.

778
00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:32,759
Speaker 1: I can't We were talking about it and we were

779
00:34:32,800 --> 00:34:35,839
Speaker 1: tripping out on everything like how it connected and how

780
00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:38,680
Speaker 1: everything just worked out so nicely. And then the next

781
00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:40,280
Speaker 1: few days that we were there, we were just able

782
00:34:40,320 --> 00:34:44,000
Speaker 1: to just enjoy our engagement together. And someone in Zion

783
00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:45,799
Speaker 1: I don't know who. I still don't know who if

784
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:47,160
Speaker 1: she's listening to the podcast.

785
00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:48,800
Speaker 2: Her name is Maria p.

786
00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:52,440
Speaker 1: She left us outside of our villa a cute little gift.

787
00:34:52,960 --> 00:34:56,160
Speaker 1: It was like a marriage base and a necklace of

788
00:34:56,640 --> 00:34:59,680
Speaker 1: necklace and just said congratulations. It was just so nice

789
00:34:59,719 --> 00:35:02,320
Speaker 1: and so thoughtful that I just want to thank that person.

790
00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 1: I said thank you on Instagram. But still, like it

791
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:07,520
Speaker 1: was the last few days that we were there in

792
00:35:07,600 --> 00:35:10,840
Speaker 1: Zion after the engagement, it was nice. We cooked, we

793
00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:14,480
Speaker 1: hung out, we like had dinner together, We had hikes,

794
00:35:14,520 --> 00:35:15,560
Speaker 1: we went on bike rides.

795
00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:16,640
Speaker 2: It was just so nice.

796
00:35:16,760 --> 00:35:18,040
Speaker 1: It was so nice, and I'm so glad he did

797
00:35:18,040 --> 00:35:20,120
Speaker 1: it in the beginning of the trip because we were able

798
00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:24,799
Speaker 1: to just enjoy our engagement together and peacefully and just us.

799
00:35:25,000 --> 00:35:26,440
Speaker 2: So that's that.

800
00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:29,400
Speaker 1: Hopefully I didn't drive you guys too crazy with like

801
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:31,880
Speaker 1: my going back and forth, but I did feel it

802
00:35:31,920 --> 00:35:35,080
Speaker 1: was important to just explain everything the beginning, what I've

803
00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:39,480
Speaker 1: been through and how I'm so grateful for my past.

804
00:35:39,520 --> 00:35:41,120
Speaker 1: And I think that that's how we have to see things,

805
00:35:41,160 --> 00:35:45,319
Speaker 1: you guys like. We can't hold onto, resentment, onto fear,

806
00:35:45,440 --> 00:35:48,319
Speaker 1: none of those things because it makes us sick. And

807
00:35:48,480 --> 00:35:52,319
Speaker 1: we have to forgive people and forgive ourselves in order

808
00:35:52,360 --> 00:35:55,319
Speaker 1: to move forward and in order to allow God to

809
00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:58,760
Speaker 1: send us the right people, the right situations in our life.

810
00:35:58,760 --> 00:36:01,760
Speaker 1: And I feel that after all of that pain, after

811
00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:04,360
Speaker 1: that dark time in my life, I can say, honestly,

812
00:36:04,400 --> 00:36:06,359
Speaker 1: I can look back and say thank you. I had

813
00:36:06,360 --> 00:36:07,840
Speaker 1: to go through that, I had to fall on my

814
00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:11,000
Speaker 1: knees in order to get back up stronger. You know. So,

815
00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:14,240
Speaker 1: I've gotten a lot of beautiful messages from you guys.

816
00:36:14,440 --> 00:36:16,839
Speaker 1: I have a lot of DMS, a lot of comments.

817
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,560
Speaker 1: Thank you so much, for being excited for me. I

818
00:36:20,600 --> 00:36:22,160
Speaker 1: can tell you guys that I feel like I'm in

819
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:26,400
Speaker 1: really good hands. I really truly believe it, and if anything,

820
00:36:28,080 --> 00:36:30,959
Speaker 1: I can be honest with you guys. For a long

821
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:35,000
Speaker 1: time in my past relationships, I would say this relationship

822
00:36:35,040 --> 00:36:38,640
Speaker 1: isn't going to end because of my fault. And with Emilio,

823
00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:41,120
Speaker 1: there was a time, you guys, that I felt that

824
00:36:41,200 --> 00:36:43,799
Speaker 1: I didn't deserve him because I felt he was more

825
00:36:43,840 --> 00:36:45,680
Speaker 1: ready than I was. And I just felt and I

826
00:36:45,719 --> 00:36:47,399
Speaker 1: told him a few times, like I just think I'm

827
00:36:47,440 --> 00:36:50,720
Speaker 1: not ready for you. I can't give you what you deserve.

828
00:36:50,840 --> 00:36:53,640
Speaker 1: I can't give you I can't give you myself right

829
00:36:53,640 --> 00:36:56,160
Speaker 1: now because I need to just really figure things out.

830
00:36:56,239 --> 00:36:58,600
Speaker 1: And he was just like, if that's what you really want,

831
00:36:58,640 --> 00:37:00,800
Speaker 1: it's going to break my heart. But I don't think

832
00:37:01,760 --> 00:37:04,160
Speaker 1: that you need to do it alone. I am here

833
00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:06,680
Speaker 1: to help you. I am patient, Like you have a

834
00:37:06,719 --> 00:37:11,640
Speaker 1: partner that wants to help you and is willing to

835
00:37:11,680 --> 00:37:13,600
Speaker 1: do anything and everything. And I think I was just

836
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:17,760
Speaker 1: being like a little resistant, and I felt like, Okay,

837
00:37:17,760 --> 00:37:20,000
Speaker 1: if this relationship ends, it's not going to be his fault,

838
00:37:20,000 --> 00:37:22,400
Speaker 1: Like he's doing everything right. It's going to be my fault,

839
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:25,960
Speaker 1: and ever since the engagement it switched. I'm just like, no,

840
00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:28,799
Speaker 1: I really want to take care of this relationship and

841
00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:31,400
Speaker 1: I have someone that absolutely adores me and loves me,

842
00:37:31,480 --> 00:37:35,719
Speaker 1: and I deserve it, you know. Because the crazy thing is,

843
00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:39,000
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I'm crying, But the crazy thing is I

844
00:37:39,040 --> 00:37:42,320
Speaker 1: had just told Tony and Jessica are my makeup you know,

845
00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:45,480
Speaker 1: Jessica's my makeup artist and Tony is my hairstylist. I

846
00:37:45,520 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 1: had just I was telling them a week before. I'm like,

847
00:37:47,560 --> 00:37:50,000
Speaker 1: you guys, like I feel like I don't deserve a

848
00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:51,960
Speaker 1: media Like I feel like I have to let him go.

849
00:37:53,040 --> 00:37:55,840
Speaker 1: This is literally a week ago, a week before our engagement,

850
00:37:57,000 --> 00:37:59,200
Speaker 1: and I just said, I feel like I can't I

851
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 1: disappoint him, Like I can't give him what I want

852
00:38:02,640 --> 00:38:04,520
Speaker 1: to give him right now. Like I'm just so focused

853
00:38:04,560 --> 00:38:09,319
Speaker 1: on work and I still want to do certain things

854
00:38:09,320 --> 00:38:11,680
Speaker 1: and certain things bother him, and I just I want

855
00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:15,040
Speaker 1: to be kind of like be able to be myself,

856
00:38:15,719 --> 00:38:20,239
Speaker 1: you know. And Jessica was like, you know, you have

857
00:38:20,280 --> 00:38:22,200
Speaker 1: a good one, Like I think that you really just

858
00:38:22,200 --> 00:38:25,680
Speaker 1: need to have a deep conversation with him. And the

859
00:38:25,719 --> 00:38:28,680
Speaker 1: weekend before his birthday, weekend, we went to Vegas and

860
00:38:28,719 --> 00:38:33,120
Speaker 1: we had this crazy ass long talk just him and

861
00:38:33,160 --> 00:38:34,960
Speaker 1: I at the bar in Vegas. We got a little

862
00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:38,080
Speaker 1: buzz and I told him everything. Everything that was just

863
00:38:38,120 --> 00:38:39,600
Speaker 1: I need to get off my chest, things that have

864
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,080
Speaker 1: happened in my past that I haven't told anybody. You, guys,

865
00:38:42,719 --> 00:38:44,520
Speaker 1: I said, I'm just gonna lay it all out. I'm

866
00:38:44,520 --> 00:38:46,920
Speaker 1: gonna freaking tell him everything that I feel and how

867
00:38:46,920 --> 00:38:48,640
Speaker 1: I'm afraid and how I still want to be me

868
00:38:48,920 --> 00:38:52,000
Speaker 1: and I want him to respect that and I want

869
00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:53,840
Speaker 1: him to be himself. And I want to be okay

870
00:38:53,880 --> 00:38:55,440
Speaker 1: with him going on trips with his friends, Like I

871
00:38:55,480 --> 00:38:57,839
Speaker 1: don't want it to just be one sided, Like I

872
00:38:57,880 --> 00:39:00,879
Speaker 1: really want to have that healthy relationship of hey, babe,

873
00:39:00,880 --> 00:39:02,719
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go on a trip with my friends for

874
00:39:02,760 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 1: the weekend, and I want to be genuinely okay with it,

875
00:39:05,560 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 1: like I don't.

876
00:39:07,120 --> 00:39:07,879
Speaker 2: I used to be.

877
00:39:07,960 --> 00:39:13,239
Speaker 1: Very controlling before, and controlling because yes, people would do

878
00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:14,799
Speaker 1: certain things and it would make me feel like, oh

879
00:39:14,840 --> 00:39:16,399
Speaker 1: my god, let me hang on tight, let me save

880
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:19,879
Speaker 1: you from yourself sort of thing. And in this relationship,

881
00:39:19,960 --> 00:39:21,759
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't want to be that way. I

882
00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:23,480
Speaker 1: don't want to suffocate. I don't want to hold onto

883
00:39:23,480 --> 00:39:25,840
Speaker 1: tight because when you hold on too tight, they're gonna

884
00:39:25,880 --> 00:39:29,200
Speaker 1: want to like get loose. You know, when you hold

885
00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:33,480
Speaker 1: onto anything too tight, it's just it's you're gonna suffocate it.

886
00:39:33,520 --> 00:39:34,719
Speaker 2: That's the best way I can put it.

887
00:39:34,960 --> 00:39:38,800
Speaker 1: So anyways, we had that conversation and I'm like, Okay,

888
00:39:39,360 --> 00:39:42,080
Speaker 1: Zion is gonna be like our new beginning. I was

889
00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:44,359
Speaker 1: telling myself this. I was like okay, because again I

890
00:39:44,400 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 1: was thinking, I'm like I have to let him go.

891
00:39:46,239 --> 00:39:48,760
Speaker 1: So anyway, so once we got engaged and everything, Tony

892
00:39:48,800 --> 00:39:53,239
Speaker 1: texts me and he remembered our conversation and he's like, Babe,

893
00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:55,480
Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you. You guys deserve each other.

894
00:39:55,640 --> 00:39:59,040
Speaker 1: You deserve this. And I had to read that and

895
00:39:59,080 --> 00:40:03,040
Speaker 1: I was like, yes, I deserve this. I deserve this moment.

896
00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:05,920
Speaker 1: I just deserve this person. I deserve to be loved

897
00:40:05,920 --> 00:40:09,480
Speaker 1: this way. I deserve this ring. I deserve these days

898
00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:13,759
Speaker 1: of like not doing anything and just embracing nature and

899
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:16,560
Speaker 1: doing the things that make me absolutely happy. Like something

900
00:40:16,680 --> 00:40:18,640
Speaker 1: switched out there. You guys, like, I can't even explain

901
00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:20,239
Speaker 1: it. It has to do with like just being out in

902
00:40:20,280 --> 00:40:22,920
Speaker 1: one of my favorite places getting engaged.

903
00:40:24,200 --> 00:40:25,080
Speaker 2: And I don't know.

904
00:40:25,320 --> 00:40:28,279
Speaker 1: I'm just things I could just see clearly. And right

905
00:40:28,320 --> 00:40:31,040
Speaker 1: now it's my birthday month and I'm doing a cleanse

906
00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:33,080
Speaker 1: and other cleans you guys, I love cleanses. You guys

907
00:40:33,120 --> 00:40:35,600
Speaker 1: know me because I just want to set the tone

908
00:40:35,680 --> 00:40:38,640
Speaker 1: like I feel like this is the beginning of a

909
00:40:38,760 --> 00:40:41,920
Speaker 1: new gene of a new life for me obviously for

910
00:40:42,040 --> 00:40:45,680
Speaker 1: me and my partner. And yeah, I deserve this and

911
00:40:45,719 --> 00:40:48,080
Speaker 1: I'm happy and I just really now I could say,

912
00:40:48,120 --> 00:40:52,440
Speaker 1: I truly believe it. So anyways, I just let it

913
00:40:52,480 --> 00:40:54,759
Speaker 1: all out here. And for those of you wondering, yes,

914
00:40:55,360 --> 00:40:57,439
Speaker 1: I am going to take his last name. I will

915
00:40:57,480 --> 00:41:02,719
Speaker 1: be Janey Sanchez. He deserves Yeah. Absolutely, And Vanessa, my

916
00:41:02,760 --> 00:41:04,680
Speaker 1: friend Vanessa Sanchez, is very happy about it.

917
00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:07,280
Speaker 2: She's like, oh my god, we're gonna be Sanchez is together.

918
00:41:08,200 --> 00:41:10,879
Speaker 1: But yes, the plan is to definitely take his name,

919
00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:13,200
Speaker 1: and I am very happy and excited to do that.

920
00:41:13,320 --> 00:41:15,759
Speaker 1: So I love his family. His family loves me, and

921
00:41:15,880 --> 00:41:18,600
Speaker 1: I love them all. Shout out to all of the

922
00:41:18,600 --> 00:41:22,560
Speaker 1: Sancho's family who has just welcomed me with their arms

923
00:41:22,600 --> 00:41:25,560
Speaker 1: and their hearts wide open. He has a beautiful family,

924
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:28,080
Speaker 1: you guys. I love his mother, I love his grandma,

925
00:41:28,280 --> 00:41:32,840
Speaker 1: his aunts is just his nano. Everyone's so nice to me,

926
00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:35,160
Speaker 1: and I'm just happy. I'm happy that I'm gonna have

927
00:41:35,239 --> 00:41:41,719
Speaker 1: like a beautiful family. So yeah, that's it, guys, I'm

928
00:41:41,719 --> 00:41:45,360
Speaker 1: being a cry baby, but it's just it's nice. I

929
00:41:45,360 --> 00:41:47,920
Speaker 1: feel like I've gone through so much in my life

930
00:41:48,080 --> 00:41:51,680
Speaker 1: and no one's ever loved me this way. No one,

931
00:41:51,920 --> 00:41:54,000
Speaker 1: I can honestly tell you, like, no one has ever

932
00:41:54,040 --> 00:41:57,800
Speaker 1: loved me the way he loves me, not my family,

933
00:41:57,880 --> 00:42:02,399
Speaker 1: not my parents, like his page, and he literally tells

934
00:42:02,440 --> 00:42:03,879
Speaker 1: me I'm beautiful every single day.

935
00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:09,080
Speaker 2: And it's just it's nice. It's nice, And if I

936
00:42:09,120 --> 00:42:10,839
Speaker 2: can just.

937
00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:16,759
Speaker 1: Wrap up this episode with something for you guys that

938
00:42:17,320 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 1: speaking from personal experience. Sometimes I think because what we

939
00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:23,600
Speaker 1: have gone through and sometimes maybe even the things that

940
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:27,840
Speaker 1: we've done, we feel like we don't deserve to be

941
00:42:27,960 --> 00:42:30,360
Speaker 1: loved the right way, or we don't believe in love anymore.

942
00:42:30,440 --> 00:42:33,279
Speaker 1: We think, oh, there's no way that there is a

943
00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:36,480
Speaker 1: perfect man out there for me, and there isn't because

944
00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:38,800
Speaker 1: no one is perfect. You're not perfect. I'm not perfect.

945
00:42:39,239 --> 00:42:42,840
Speaker 1: You're not going to find a perfect person. It's picking

946
00:42:42,840 --> 00:42:46,759
Speaker 1: and choosing your battles if you find someone, and it

947
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:49,919
Speaker 1: definitely the good things outweigh the bad things, and that's

948
00:42:49,960 --> 00:42:54,600
Speaker 1: an indication of like stay there. It's worth working towards it,

949
00:42:54,960 --> 00:43:00,879
Speaker 1: you know, communication, but first and foremost, it's important that

950
00:43:00,960 --> 00:43:07,920
Speaker 1: you you feel that you deserve it. The crazy thing

951
00:43:07,960 --> 00:43:11,200
Speaker 1: is I would go back and forth like I'm like, well, yeah,

952
00:43:11,239 --> 00:43:13,200
Speaker 1: like God set me this person. It has to be

953
00:43:13,239 --> 00:43:15,160
Speaker 1: for a reason. But then we would have an argument

954
00:43:15,239 --> 00:43:16,759
Speaker 1: or something would happen. I'm like, oh my god, I

955
00:43:17,080 --> 00:43:19,520
Speaker 1: just I feel like I just can't give him what

956
00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:23,120
Speaker 1: he expects, what he wants, what he deserves. And a

957
00:43:23,160 --> 00:43:29,000
Speaker 1: little did I know that I mentally was drawing more

958
00:43:29,040 --> 00:43:32,279
Speaker 1: of that like to my life because I was so

959
00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:34,399
Speaker 1: focused on that, you know what I mean, And and

960
00:43:34,480 --> 00:43:36,880
Speaker 1: like there has to be a switch where we're like, wait, no,

961
00:43:38,080 --> 00:43:40,680
Speaker 1: I deserve this. I absolutely deserve to be loved the

962
00:43:40,719 --> 00:43:43,960
Speaker 1: right way. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to

963
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:46,640
Speaker 1: have a person in my life that is willing to

964
00:43:46,760 --> 00:43:48,960
Speaker 1: work at the relationship the way I'm willing to do that,

965
00:43:49,520 --> 00:43:51,160
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And I think that that's

966
00:43:51,160 --> 00:43:54,239
Speaker 1: like it's a constant thing and it's something that like

967
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:58,080
Speaker 1: I'm telling you therapy has helped me. And just saying

968
00:43:58,120 --> 00:43:59,719
Speaker 1: these things out loud, even to you guys, and being

969
00:43:59,800 --> 00:44:02,799
Speaker 1: vulvulnerable enough to say it out loud. Once you hear

970
00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:05,719
Speaker 1: it out loud, then it just kind of sets and

971
00:44:05,760 --> 00:44:08,120
Speaker 1: you're like, okay, wait, no, you know what you have

972
00:44:08,200 --> 00:44:09,920
Speaker 1: to work on once you hear it out loud, if

973
00:44:09,960 --> 00:44:10,560
Speaker 1: that makes sense.

974
00:44:11,120 --> 00:44:14,560
Speaker 2: So, more than anything, just believe in love, know that

975
00:44:14,600 --> 00:44:15,200
Speaker 2: it's out there.

976
00:44:15,840 --> 00:44:18,680
Speaker 1: Don't give up. Even if you've kissed a few frogs,

977
00:44:18,719 --> 00:44:22,279
Speaker 1: It's okay. Those frogs were supposed to be in your

978
00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:25,640
Speaker 1: life because you are also a lesson in their life

979
00:44:25,640 --> 00:44:28,160
Speaker 1: for them to also appreciate the next person hopefully that

980
00:44:28,200 --> 00:44:31,319
Speaker 1: comes into their life. And forgiving your past is another thing.

981
00:44:31,360 --> 00:44:35,439
Speaker 1: Forgive your past, know that everything and everyone comes into

982
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:38,400
Speaker 1: your life for a reason. Sounds cliche, but it's very true.

983
00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:43,760
Speaker 1: And forgiving and really letting go it's the best advice.

984
00:44:44,000 --> 00:44:47,680
Speaker 1: And really working on yourself and being intentional and adamant

985
00:44:48,080 --> 00:44:50,279
Speaker 1: about becoming the best version of yourself so that you

986
00:44:50,360 --> 00:44:53,400
Speaker 1: can attract what you want and what you need for

987
00:44:53,480 --> 00:44:57,960
Speaker 1: your life. Well that's my story, you guys, and I

988
00:44:58,000 --> 00:45:02,160
Speaker 1: hope that I am able to help you guys and anyway,

989
00:45:02,360 --> 00:45:07,879
Speaker 1: by sharing my experiences with you guys, and I feel

990
00:45:07,920 --> 00:45:11,400
Speaker 1: like honesty is literally the best policy.

991
00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:12,600
Speaker 2: And that's who I am.

992
00:45:12,640 --> 00:45:16,600
Speaker 1: I'm transparent and I just pray that through what I share,

993
00:45:16,719 --> 00:45:19,120
Speaker 1: it helps you, guys, become the best versions of yourself.

994
00:45:19,640 --> 00:45:22,719
Speaker 1: And I'm just so excited to be marrying my best

995
00:45:22,760 --> 00:45:26,080
Speaker 1: friend Emilio. I can honestly tell you, like, I'm just

996
00:45:26,120 --> 00:45:30,120
Speaker 1: happy and I'm so grateful and I thank God that

997
00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:33,840
Speaker 1: I'm able to share life with a person that just

998
00:45:33,920 --> 00:45:37,439
Speaker 1: understands me the way he does so and I don't

999
00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:39,440
Speaker 1: he doesn't bore me, which is so crazy. I have

1000
00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:41,560
Speaker 1: so much fun with him. I was like, oh my god,

1001
00:45:41,600 --> 00:45:43,160
Speaker 1: you don't get on my nerves. Well, yeah, he gets

1002
00:45:43,160 --> 00:45:44,880
Speaker 1: on my nerve sometimes I'm trying to get on his nerves.

1003
00:45:45,120 --> 00:45:48,799
Speaker 1: But like, honestly, like it's so fun. I've never been

1004
00:45:48,840 --> 00:45:51,600
Speaker 1: able to travel with someone just ourselves and have so

1005
00:45:51,680 --> 00:45:52,160
Speaker 1: much fun.

1006
00:45:52,280 --> 00:45:53,200
Speaker 2: So anyways, I'm.

1007
00:45:53,040 --> 00:45:56,719
Speaker 1: Excited and I just I don't know, I'm excited to

1008
00:45:56,880 --> 00:45:59,960
Speaker 1: just see what the future holds for us together. Anyways,

1009
00:46:00,040 --> 00:46:02,960
Speaker 1: I love you guys, thank you for listening, and I

1010
00:46:02,960 --> 00:46:04,920
Speaker 1: will catch you on the next episode here on Cheeky's

1011
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