WEBVTT - A Melrose Minute with Colin Egglesfield 0:00:05.680 --> 0:00:09.320 Still the Place with Laura Layton, Courtney thorn Smith. 0:00:09.400 --> 0:00:12.400 And daphnews Aniga and iHeartRadio Podcast. 0:00:14.200 --> 0:00:16.120 Well, welcome to the Melrose Minute. 0:00:16.320 --> 0:00:17.600 We have another. 0:00:17.280 --> 0:00:19.120 Special guest with us this week. 0:00:19.560 --> 0:00:21.320 We have Colin Egglesfield. 0:00:22.360 --> 0:00:26.560 Melrose fans probably remember him from his appearance. 0:00:26.880 --> 0:00:29.400 He was a star on the Melrose reboot in two 0:00:29.400 --> 0:00:30.040 thousand and nine. 0:00:30.120 --> 0:00:33.360 That's how we came to know him, and that's how 0:00:33.400 --> 0:00:35.360 he came to be on The Melrose Minute. 0:00:35.400 --> 0:00:38.440 But he is so much more beyond Melrose to share 0:00:38.440 --> 0:00:40.120 with us, and we're so happy to have him here today. 0:00:40.880 --> 0:00:42.120 Thanks for coming, Colin. 0:00:42.080 --> 0:00:44.440 All the way from Dublin. Thank you so much for 0:00:44.520 --> 0:00:46.839 breaking the up for Yeah. 0:00:46.840 --> 0:00:47.280 So I'm here. 0:00:47.640 --> 0:00:50.400 My mom was born here, so I've got some roots 0:00:51.159 --> 0:00:55.680 and I'm scoping out my next retreats. So just checking 0:00:55.680 --> 0:00:58.400 out the yoga and the Somble healing and the cliffs 0:00:58.400 --> 0:00:59.640 of More and all that good stuff. 0:01:00.240 --> 0:01:00.880 Get to hear about. 0:01:00.880 --> 0:01:02.920 I saw that you had retreats coming up. Can you 0:01:02.960 --> 0:01:03.880 tell us about those? 0:01:04.800 --> 0:01:05.080 Yeah? 0:01:05.120 --> 0:01:06.960 So, you know, I kind of went on this, uh, 0:01:07.440 --> 0:01:09.920 this health and wellness journey a few years ago after 0:01:09.959 --> 0:01:12.080 being diagnosed with cancer. 0:01:12.360 --> 0:01:15.600 At thirty two. Wow, I was actually. 0:01:15.640 --> 0:01:18.480 Working on all my children at the time, and I 0:01:18.520 --> 0:01:21.560 had been I was planning of going to medical school. 0:01:21.600 --> 0:01:23.320 That was what I thought I was going to be doing. 0:01:23.319 --> 0:01:25.200 And then when I was at college at the University 0:01:25.240 --> 0:01:27.840 of Iowa, I've heard on the radio, but come to 0:01:27.880 --> 0:01:31.039 the Model Search America. You can travel the world. So 0:01:31.120 --> 0:01:32.640 I went to this thing, and next thing you knew, 0:01:32.640 --> 0:01:36.160 I was in Mulan, Italy doing runway show. Armani and 0:01:36.240 --> 0:01:39.240 Barsace and you know, the likes of you were in 0:01:39.280 --> 0:01:41.000 the crowd, and I probably waved at you and I 0:01:41.040 --> 0:01:42.000 was walking down the runway. 0:01:42.959 --> 0:01:46.839 I wish I was in the crowd, very crowd. 0:01:46.920 --> 0:01:50.360 I say, yeah, I mean, you do look like a Versace. 0:01:50.160 --> 0:01:53.520 Model, Laura, right, yes, I'm always hearing a little mini version, 0:01:53.520 --> 0:01:54.200 a little miniver. 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:58.880 Never never was model in my like possible list of 0:01:58.920 --> 0:01:59.320 things to do. 0:02:01.080 --> 0:02:04.320 I found myself in New York City, and you know, 0:02:04.320 --> 0:02:07.280 I'd always been kind of shy and introverted growing up. 0:02:07.480 --> 0:02:10.440 And my modeling agent started sending me on these commercial 0:02:10.440 --> 0:02:14.960 auditions and I started booking some of these things, but 0:02:15.000 --> 0:02:17.720 I was just, you know, incredibly nervous in front of 0:02:17.760 --> 0:02:19.560 the camera because I didn't have any experience. And she 0:02:19.600 --> 0:02:21.880 said why don't you take an acting class see if 0:02:21.919 --> 0:02:23.840 you like it. So I jumped into this acting class 0:02:23.840 --> 0:02:25.680 in New York City and absolutely fell in love with 0:02:25.720 --> 0:02:29.280 it and just felt like my career trajectory was going 0:02:29.560 --> 0:02:32.400 this way instead of this way. And I ended up 0:02:32.919 --> 0:02:36.720 booking this role on all my children, and six months 0:02:36.720 --> 0:02:39.520 into my three year contract, was diagnosed with testicular cancer. 0:02:39.840 --> 0:02:42.200 And so it was like the most exciting time of 0:02:42.240 --> 0:02:45.079 my life, but also the most scary because you never 0:02:45.800 --> 0:02:48.000 think you're going to hear those words. 0:02:48.760 --> 0:02:50.000 And when I did, I was thirty two. 0:02:50.080 --> 0:02:54.160 You know, I'd always tried to work out and eat healthy, 0:02:54.280 --> 0:02:56.720 and so you know, it was like this, you know, 0:02:56.720 --> 0:02:59.480 it's kind of like that denial. But I had to 0:02:59.480 --> 0:03:03.920 have surgery radiation treatment, and so I hid this from 0:03:04.280 --> 0:03:07.040 everyone in my cast because at the time, it's guy stuff, 0:03:07.080 --> 0:03:10.200 it's testicular I mean, I don't want to the public 0:03:10.240 --> 0:03:13.480 to know about this stuff. And after a few weeks 0:03:13.520 --> 0:03:17.240 of of showing up on set having the radiation treatment, 0:03:17.320 --> 0:03:21.120 I just I was just feeling weak and sweaty and 0:03:21.200 --> 0:03:25.480 just and not great. And I didn't want my my 0:03:25.480 --> 0:03:27.799 my producers and the director to think I'd gone out 0:03:27.840 --> 0:03:30.080 and was partying all night and my director came up 0:03:30.080 --> 0:03:31.679 to me and he said, you don't you don't look 0:03:31.720 --> 0:03:35.160 so good, and I just I, honestly from trying to 0:03:35.240 --> 0:03:39.240 hold it all in, I just broke down and I 0:03:39.240 --> 0:03:41.520 I just told him I I was going through this 0:03:41.560 --> 0:03:43.880 cancer experience and had radiation treatment. 0:03:43.920 --> 0:03:45.920 And he was like, an idiot, why didn't you tell us? 0:03:46.000 --> 0:03:48.160 Like why would you hold something. 0:03:47.920 --> 0:03:48.360 Like this in? 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:52.240 Yeah, this is what I guess the big reason why 0:03:52.280 --> 0:03:54.280 I now talk about it because I know how lonely 0:03:54.320 --> 0:03:56.680 it can be and how scary it can be to 0:03:56.720 --> 0:03:59.440 go through this experience on your own. And a year 0:03:59.520 --> 0:04:02.200 later the cancer came back, had to have another surgery, 0:04:03.000 --> 0:04:07.160 and so I've been pretty adamant about my checkups and 0:04:07.320 --> 0:04:11.400 early detection, so thankfully because I've been going yearly. And 0:04:11.440 --> 0:04:13.360 this is why I would say anyone out there, if 0:04:13.400 --> 0:04:14.880 you haven't seen your doctor in a. 0:04:14.800 --> 0:04:18.440 While, get it checked out. Guys. Prostate PSA's it's an 0:04:18.480 --> 0:04:19.360 easy blood test. 0:04:19.440 --> 0:04:22.680 Women obviously you know it's you know, breast cancer is 0:04:22.720 --> 0:04:26.039 the number one diagnosed cancer for women. So early detection 0:04:26.160 --> 0:04:29.960 can really help. And for me, thankfully now I'm fifty two, 0:04:30.440 --> 0:04:34.320 I was getting my my yearly checkups and they discovered 0:04:34.320 --> 0:04:37.440 that I had a high PSA and got a biopsy 0:04:37.480 --> 0:04:41.480 and sure enough it was diagnosed with prostate cancer last year. 0:04:41.640 --> 0:04:46.160 So I just had surgery about two months ago for process. 0:04:46.240 --> 0:04:50.159 Again, incredible, it came back after all of these years. 0:04:50.440 --> 0:04:51.560 Yeah, a different kind. 0:04:51.560 --> 0:04:54.599 It is different kind, but yeah, I have to go 0:04:54.640 --> 0:04:59.760 through this now for a third time. Wow, I'm grateful 0:04:59.800 --> 0:05:04.200 and I I'm just so grateful that I've I'm here 0:05:04.200 --> 0:05:06.600 to be able to talk about this and just share 0:05:06.640 --> 0:05:10.039 this experience. So I guess in long answer to your question, Courtney, 0:05:10.480 --> 0:05:14.000 I've been trying to put together some health and wellness 0:05:14.920 --> 0:05:18.480 support groups and it turned into these retreats. So I've 0:05:18.480 --> 0:05:21.560 got one in Scottsdale, Arizona, coming up April third through 0:05:21.560 --> 0:05:24.839 the seventh, and it's open to the public, men and women, 0:05:25.680 --> 0:05:27.679 and we do all kinds of things. 0:05:27.839 --> 0:05:29.040 Who's it for, Colin? 0:05:29.120 --> 0:05:31.200 Who is it for people who are ill or people? 0:05:31.320 --> 0:05:34.440 Is it also about your motivation speaking? Or is it 0:05:34.640 --> 0:05:36.640 health and wellness are all tight en er? 0:05:36.920 --> 0:05:37.320 What is it? 0:05:37.400 --> 0:05:41.160 Yeah, it's it's for anyone who's looking to I mean 0:05:41.640 --> 0:05:44.919 essentially anyone anyone who's looking to come to have a 0:05:44.960 --> 0:05:49.880 weekend of rejuvenation, relaxation, meet some like minded people. We 0:05:50.200 --> 0:05:53.000 have a hot whole lineup of guest speakers talking about 0:05:53.040 --> 0:05:55.680 health and wellness. We have a doctor talking about hormone 0:05:55.720 --> 0:06:02.400 therapy and hormones in general, entrepreneurs, mindfulness. I do a 0:06:02.480 --> 0:06:08.960 talk about resiliency, and I teach some communication, some corporate 0:06:09.560 --> 0:06:13.000 consultancy communication where I teach a lot of what we 0:06:13.200 --> 0:06:19.040 learned enacting classes to corporations to improve people's communication. And 0:06:19.120 --> 0:06:22.200 so it's a weekend of coming together. We do hikings, yoga, 0:06:22.360 --> 0:06:26.400 sound bowl, healing, tai chi. We've got a dance contest 0:06:26.400 --> 0:06:29.280 on Saturday night, and we're going to be airing the 0:06:29.800 --> 0:06:33.640 it's a sneak preview screening of my next film called 0:06:33.640 --> 0:06:35.600 Where the Wind Blows on Sunday night. 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:37.200 Oh that's amazing. 0:06:37.600 --> 0:06:38.280 We should go. 0:06:40.200 --> 0:06:40.640 Amazing. 0:06:46.279 --> 0:06:48.960 I love that you're talking about that experience when you 0:06:49.000 --> 0:06:51.720 were younger, because it's such a strange thing when we 0:06:51.800 --> 0:06:54.600 get all the embarrassment, like why would you have been 0:06:54.640 --> 0:06:56.760 embarrassed for shame? But it's as if and it's inter 0:06:56.800 --> 0:06:59.120 just because you started with I was fed, I was athletic, 0:06:59.120 --> 0:07:02.040 I did all these things as if you didn't deserve 0:07:02.040 --> 0:07:04.839 to have cancer, right, it's we sort of say, we 0:07:04.880 --> 0:07:07.080 feel like it's our fault when something like that happens, 0:07:07.080 --> 0:07:09.520 and then we get embarrassed. But I love that they 0:07:09.560 --> 0:07:12.680 paid attention and you opened yourself up and they were 0:07:12.720 --> 0:07:15.240 so kind to you, because it's so important to be 0:07:15.280 --> 0:07:17.040 able to talk about it becau when you're hiding it 0:07:17.200 --> 0:07:19.080 anything like this, it makes it so much worse. 0:07:19.480 --> 0:07:23.280 And it's also really incredible that you were just muscling 0:07:23.400 --> 0:07:24.120 up and just. 0:07:24.040 --> 0:07:28.680 Like being so I can't imagine how hard that must 0:07:28.680 --> 0:07:30.920 have been to try to show up to do a 0:07:31.000 --> 0:07:32.920 job and not just any job, but a job where 0:07:32.920 --> 0:07:34.880 you have to be on camera and you're trying to 0:07:34.920 --> 0:07:36.880 like put on a good face and you're going through 0:07:37.080 --> 0:07:41.120 one of the heaviest, hardest, scariest things ever and alone, 0:07:41.120 --> 0:07:43.840 and like, it's just incredible that you were just you know, 0:07:43.920 --> 0:07:47.160 forcing yourself to try to do that and be strong 0:07:47.320 --> 0:07:48.200 and stuff. 0:07:48.240 --> 0:07:50.000 And it's so proper where you also have to be 0:07:50.040 --> 0:07:53.480 gorgeous and do thirty pages of dialogue in a day. 0:07:53.640 --> 0:07:57.360 That's insane that my shirt off and these scenes and 0:07:58.160 --> 0:08:01.760 both my radiation treatments. But I'll tell you one thing 0:08:01.800 --> 0:08:04.160 that really got me through it was you know with 0:08:04.280 --> 0:08:07.920 my with our acting training, having to play these roles 0:08:07.920 --> 0:08:11.280 that we do to decide who your character is and 0:08:12.560 --> 0:08:13.760 what their objective is. 0:08:14.000 --> 0:08:16.400 I decided to just apply. 0:08:16.120 --> 0:08:21.080 Some of that that same type of perspective to what 0:08:21.160 --> 0:08:24.320 I was going through in the sense that when you're 0:08:24.360 --> 0:08:27.040 diagnosed with something like this, a lot of the times 0:08:27.040 --> 0:08:31.640 you can allow a diagnosis or your outside circumstances dictate 0:08:31.920 --> 0:08:34.640 how you feel about it. And what I learned from 0:08:34.640 --> 0:08:37.640 our acting experience is you've got to decide who your 0:08:37.760 --> 0:08:40.360 character is so that when you walk into that audition 0:08:40.559 --> 0:08:44.120 or you walk in onto set, you're actually communicating to 0:08:44.200 --> 0:08:49.640 the world who this character is instead of being more 0:08:49.679 --> 0:08:53.000 reactive to what your circumstances are. And so I was like, well, 0:08:53.400 --> 0:08:56.160 who do I choose to be in the face of 0:08:56.200 --> 0:08:58.280 all of this? Do I Am I going to let 0:08:58.280 --> 0:09:02.280 this defeat me and get me pressed and worried? Or 0:09:02.320 --> 0:09:07.520 can I choose to be, you know, resilient and courageous 0:09:07.960 --> 0:09:11.720 and what would Maximus do in Gladiator in this moment? 0:09:11.800 --> 0:09:14.920 And so I started channeling some of these characteristics so 0:09:15.000 --> 0:09:17.000 much so that when I was going to Sloan Kettering 0:09:17.080 --> 0:09:20.920 Hospital every month for my checkups, I would stand outside 0:09:20.920 --> 0:09:23.320 of the building in front of you know, New York City, 0:09:23.360 --> 0:09:24.320 and I would just be like. 0:09:24.520 --> 0:09:28.440 Are you not enginetained? And people by like, who's that 0:09:28.559 --> 0:09:29.160 crazy guy? 0:09:29.320 --> 0:09:29.400 Like? 0:09:30.960 --> 0:09:33.560 But just you know, you got to pondure up whatever 0:09:33.720 --> 0:09:36.640 works for you that gives you that that courage and 0:09:36.640 --> 0:09:38.840 that strength to be able to move through something so 0:09:39.160 --> 0:09:40.440 scary and disempowering. 0:09:40.480 --> 0:09:42.600 And that's what I try to share with people. 0:09:42.880 --> 0:09:46.840 Colin. Isn't also the part of the wellness that you're 0:09:46.880 --> 0:09:53.280 also bringing to people, also the vulnerability, also space for rest, 0:09:53.720 --> 0:09:57.320 also the other aspect because it's not a gladiator situation 0:09:57.520 --> 0:09:58.280 all the time. 0:09:58.840 --> 0:09:59.600 Yep, yep. 0:10:00.120 --> 0:10:02.559 It's such a good point that you bring up the 0:10:02.600 --> 0:10:07.480 after you because, especially as guys, we don't necessarily want 0:10:07.520 --> 0:10:10.400 to admit when we're struggling or when we need help. 0:10:11.080 --> 0:10:14.000 And most of the time I think we just try 0:10:14.040 --> 0:10:17.839 to make sure that we're not bothering other people or 0:10:18.000 --> 0:10:21.320 being a nuisance. But what I learned was by keeping 0:10:21.360 --> 0:10:24.920 this all to yourself, not only do you stay isolated 0:10:25.000 --> 0:10:28.800 and alone in this experience, you deny other people the 0:10:28.880 --> 0:10:30.480 opportunity to show up for. 0:10:30.520 --> 0:10:34.559 You, to be. 0:10:33.320 --> 0:10:37.079 Giving and supportive and to create more of these authentic 0:10:38.360 --> 0:10:42.080 friendships and bonds. And as soon as I started telling 0:10:42.200 --> 0:10:46.800 people what I was going through on all my children, Man, 0:10:47.120 --> 0:10:50.360 I've never seen so many people show up to say, Hey, 0:10:50.360 --> 0:10:52.040 do you want me to go with you to your 0:10:52.080 --> 0:10:56.079 doctor's appointments or to your radiation treatments or whatever. And 0:10:56.640 --> 0:11:00.560 I was like, actually, that would be great. And so 0:11:01.120 --> 0:11:03.720 by sharing this and opening up, you know, you don't 0:11:03.720 --> 0:11:05.960 have to be needy in the experience, but you can 0:11:06.400 --> 0:11:11.360 confidently and from an empowered space tell people what you 0:11:11.440 --> 0:11:13.199 need and that and. 0:11:13.160 --> 0:11:15.360 Then accept it and let it in, let the love in. 0:11:16.040 --> 0:11:17.520 Yeah, and that creates I. 0:11:17.440 --> 0:11:21.160 Know you talk about heart space, you talk about communication 0:11:21.240 --> 0:11:23.920 from the heart on your I was looking at some 0:11:23.960 --> 0:11:26.240 of your reels, which I love because you don't expect 0:11:26.280 --> 0:11:28.400 that from someone looking like you and having had the 0:11:28.480 --> 0:11:32.920 career and being in charge, and it was like, whoa, Wow, 0:11:33.080 --> 0:11:35.920 that's a whole other level of wisdom. 0:11:36.000 --> 0:11:38.280 I think that you can share with people. 0:11:38.520 --> 0:11:39.240 Wouldn't you say? 0:11:39.840 --> 0:11:43.360 Our acting, though, has enabled us to to be more 0:11:43.400 --> 0:11:47.200 open about our feelings and our emotions, and you have 0:11:47.320 --> 0:11:51.480 to be to channel all the crap and life into 0:11:52.320 --> 0:11:52.880 our work. 0:11:53.559 --> 0:11:55.880 Yes, yeah, but it can be a double edged sword 0:11:56.040 --> 0:11:57.920 because I think yes, we have to stay open and 0:11:58.000 --> 0:12:00.440 vulnerable for our work. But I know when I was 0:12:00.480 --> 0:12:02.880 younger and more recognizable, it was harder for me to 0:12:02.880 --> 0:12:04.720 be authentic and honest because I felt like I was 0:12:04.800 --> 0:12:08.680 maintaining this persona. And I remember when my dad was 0:12:08.800 --> 0:12:12.480 very sick and I finally allowed myself to start telling 0:12:12.480 --> 0:12:14.720 the truth about it instead of trying to maintain this persona. 0:12:14.760 --> 0:12:16.480 And so many said, oh, I had that experience, I 0:12:16.559 --> 0:12:19.079 had that experience, that had that experience, and suddenly what 0:12:19.160 --> 0:12:20.920 was separating me? You know, I love the term, there's 0:12:20.920 --> 0:12:22.760 a term where sick as our secrets, and I would 0:12:22.760 --> 0:12:25.319 say it was as separate as separate as our secrets, right, 0:12:25.760 --> 0:12:27.720 Like we're hiding it, we're trying to maintain this and 0:12:27.760 --> 0:12:30.200 like you said, you're not giving people a chance to 0:12:30.200 --> 0:12:32.719 show up for you. But you're also not allowing yourself 0:12:33.360 --> 0:12:36.080 to be authentic. You're separating yourself from the moment. So 0:12:36.800 --> 0:12:40.880 I'm so touched by that moment when you allowed yourself 0:12:40.880 --> 0:12:44.360 to be seen as you really were and allowed yourself 0:12:44.360 --> 0:12:46.319 to accept that help, right. 0:12:46.160 --> 0:12:49.679 And so much of who you are and how you've 0:12:49.840 --> 0:12:53.200 handled everything that's come your way is so inspiring. 0:12:53.800 --> 0:12:55.280 And you have been. 0:12:55.920 --> 0:12:57.640 As long, I mean as long as I've known you, 0:12:57.800 --> 0:12:59.080 and clearly your whole life. 0:12:59.120 --> 0:13:01.840 You're not just one thing. You were not just an actor. 0:13:01.880 --> 0:13:03.079 You were so many things. 0:13:03.160 --> 0:13:06.640 Even while you know, while you were dealing with cancer 0:13:06.960 --> 0:13:11.360 and recovery and healing, you were always very entrepreneurial and 0:13:11.720 --> 0:13:14.400 there were so many other things that you were pursuing 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:17.600 and that you were focused on, and you've always had 0:13:17.640 --> 0:13:21.719 other business interests, And I love that you've channeled all 0:13:21.760 --> 0:13:23.960 of those things about who you are and you're bringing 0:13:24.400 --> 0:13:29.160 your message and healing to other people, and it's just 0:13:29.160 --> 0:13:30.400 such a wonderful thing to share. 0:13:30.640 --> 0:13:31.800 You're so cool, Colin. 0:13:31.880 --> 0:13:34.319 You just have so many cool things going on, and 0:13:34.920 --> 0:13:35.880 you're very inspiring. 0:13:36.880 --> 0:13:38.719 Yeah. I mean, I'm sorry you've gone through and are 0:13:38.760 --> 0:13:40.840 going through. You have gone through and are going through. 0:13:40.840 --> 0:13:43.640 But I also feel like the right person was chosen 0:13:43.679 --> 0:13:45.720 because you're turning it around and using it for good 0:13:45.880 --> 0:13:47.880 and using it to connect to people. You could use 0:13:47.920 --> 0:13:49.640 it to stay in the shame in the dark, but 0:13:49.679 --> 0:13:52.439 you're using it to step out and connect and lead 0:13:52.480 --> 0:13:54.240 the way to say you can go through it this way. 0:13:54.240 --> 0:13:55.240 Like one of the things I've been looking at in 0:13:55.240 --> 0:13:57.640 my own life A lot is the story I tell 0:13:57.640 --> 0:14:00.000 about what's happening to me, Like there's a thing that happened, 0:14:00.160 --> 0:14:02.800 and there's a story I tell. And how I can 0:14:02.880 --> 0:14:04.800 change the story, which is what you were talking about, 0:14:04.880 --> 0:14:07.520 You sort of change your character. And I would say, 0:14:07.880 --> 0:14:10.760 I can always change the story. I don't have to 0:14:10.800 --> 0:14:12.600 say this is bad. I can say this is interesting, 0:14:12.640 --> 0:14:15.560 this is different. And you're literally utilizing this difficult thing 0:14:16.520 --> 0:14:20.760 to connect. It's such a wonderful example for people. 0:14:21.560 --> 0:14:24.120 Yeah, and I actually I wrote a book a few 0:14:24.200 --> 0:14:29.160 years ago called Agile Artist Life Lessons from Hollywood and Beyond. 0:14:30.080 --> 0:14:33.960 I talk about the experience of going through this cancer journey. 0:14:34.000 --> 0:14:36.840 And I actually I lived through the whole nine to 0:14:36.840 --> 0:14:39.720 eleven experience as well. I was living across the street 0:14:39.760 --> 0:14:41.440 when the planes hit and saw. 0:14:43.200 --> 0:14:45.560 Colin and when. 0:14:45.400 --> 0:14:48.400 The first tower fell, I was one of the people 0:14:48.520 --> 0:14:50.800 running down the street and I couldn't get back to 0:14:50.840 --> 0:14:53.240 my place for a few days. And once I did, 0:14:53.280 --> 0:14:55.680 it looked like the windows were blown in. It looked 0:14:55.680 --> 0:14:58.640 like a bomb had blown up in my apartment. And 0:14:58.680 --> 0:15:01.840 I just I always think of that day and it 0:15:02.000 --> 0:15:06.200 always reminds me of no matter how crappier life, for 0:15:06.280 --> 0:15:11.680 your day might be going there's always someone who has 0:15:11.880 --> 0:15:15.640 something or some challenge that they're going through that may 0:15:15.640 --> 0:15:20.640 be worse than yours, or and or they were, they're 0:15:20.680 --> 0:15:23.200 not even here to be able to experience another day 0:15:23.960 --> 0:15:26.560 to pursue their dreams and their goals. And so at 0:15:26.680 --> 0:15:29.880 twenty seven years old, when I experienced that whole thing, 0:15:31.480 --> 0:15:33.400 I'd been studying acting for a couple of years, but 0:15:33.440 --> 0:15:36.040 the idea of going out to Hollywood to pursue this 0:15:36.120 --> 0:15:39.480 crazy acting dream was like, well, who am I to 0:15:39.520 --> 0:15:42.160 think that I could do that? And after that experience, 0:15:42.520 --> 0:15:45.360 I realized the only thing that was holding me back 0:15:45.480 --> 0:15:48.520 was my fear of what other people might think, or 0:15:48.560 --> 0:15:52.000 my fear of failure. And that experience made me realize 0:15:52.000 --> 0:15:54.840 that I feel like I had a second chance at life, 0:15:54.920 --> 0:15:57.640 and that if you ever think about if you were 0:15:57.680 --> 0:15:59.320 one of those people trapped up on the top of 0:15:59.320 --> 0:16:01.920 those towers and someone said, Okay, I'm going to give 0:16:01.920 --> 0:16:05.240 you a second chance at life, would you let anything 0:16:05.560 --> 0:16:07.080 stop you from going after. 0:16:06.920 --> 0:16:08.160 What you care about? 0:16:08.640 --> 0:16:12.120 Tell that person you love them, that you love them fully, 0:16:12.480 --> 0:16:16.000 you know, because tomorrow is not guaranteed. And I think 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:19.640 that's the philosophy that's really helped me go into It's 0:16:19.640 --> 0:16:22.800 incredible a lot of the challenges that we face in life, 0:16:23.040 --> 0:16:25.200 and that at the end of the day, you know, 0:16:25.240 --> 0:16:27.800 if you're for me at least, if I'm not pursuing 0:16:27.800 --> 0:16:30.040 my goals or my dreams, and if not, if I'm 0:16:30.080 --> 0:16:32.600 not being authentic to who I who I am and 0:16:32.720 --> 0:16:37.760 pursuing purpose, I feel like why are we here? Then 0:16:37.920 --> 0:16:40.320 you know what's what's the point? And so that's just 0:16:40.360 --> 0:16:41.320 what I've been trying to pay. 0:16:41.360 --> 0:16:42.600 I'm going to your retreats. 0:16:43.160 --> 0:16:45.000 You just told me I'm there. 0:16:45.400 --> 0:16:48.960 So sts Tail is April third to seventh, and Ireland 0:16:49.040 --> 0:16:53.440 is May twenty second to twenty sixth, correct Iland. I 0:16:53.440 --> 0:16:56.360 would love to be a part of your stuff, honestly, 0:16:56.720 --> 0:17:02.800 I I that's just such an organic, amazing journey with 0:17:03.240 --> 0:17:05.320 this gift of one life that we have. 0:17:05.920 --> 0:17:08.080 It's really amazing. 0:17:12.960 --> 0:17:15.240 And did you decide to do these retreats because you 0:17:15.280 --> 0:17:17.600 thought it was something you'd want to do? Like, are 0:17:17.640 --> 0:17:20.959 you guessed at the retreat or are these retreats that 0:17:21.080 --> 0:17:22.800 you have organized and you've created? 0:17:23.600 --> 0:17:27.080 So I was invited to speak at a retreat Intulu, 0:17:27.160 --> 0:17:30.800 Mexico like three years ago, and so a woman had 0:17:30.920 --> 0:17:35.320 organized it and got down there and there was yoga 0:17:35.400 --> 0:17:38.840 and steam baths and it was just an amazing few 0:17:38.880 --> 0:17:43.720 days of complete strangers coming together. By the end, you've 0:17:43.760 --> 0:17:50.240 got these authentic connections and bonds and it's spiritually and 0:17:51.040 --> 0:17:55.240 mentally physically rejuvenating. And it was like, Man, I'd love 0:17:55.280 --> 0:18:00.119 to do this back in the States, and so I've 0:18:00.119 --> 0:18:04.000 rented an airbnb in Scottsdale now for the third year 0:18:04.000 --> 0:18:07.520 in a row, and we just we put on these 0:18:07.520 --> 0:18:12.000 events and now we're doing Ireland. So it's slowly expanding 0:18:12.040 --> 0:18:15.119 and growing. So we'd love to have you guys and 0:18:15.240 --> 0:18:16.280 host you at the next one. 0:18:16.560 --> 0:18:21.240 That's amazing And how can people How can people sign up? 0:18:21.280 --> 0:18:22.960 How can people find you? 0:18:23.680 --> 0:18:26.720 Yeah, the easiest way is probably just go to my website. 0:18:27.160 --> 0:18:30.159 It's Colin Egglesfield dot com and on the tab on 0:18:30.200 --> 0:18:32.440 the top right, there's an events tab. 0:18:32.520 --> 0:18:33.880 You just click on the events. 0:18:33.560 --> 0:18:36.919 And both the Scottsdale Retreat and the Ireland Retreat are 0:18:36.960 --> 0:18:40.320 right there. And you can go to my Instagram which 0:18:40.359 --> 0:18:43.199 is at Colin Eglesfield and there's some links there as 0:18:43.200 --> 0:18:46.560 well to the sites, and there's some videos from the 0:18:46.600 --> 0:18:52.600 previous retreats. And it's gonna be another amazing couple of weekends. 0:18:52.800 --> 0:18:53.800 It sounds incredible. 0:18:53.840 --> 0:18:56.040 It sounds it does. And you said that at the 0:18:56.119 --> 0:18:57.959 end of this upcoming retreat, you're going to share your 0:18:57.960 --> 0:18:59.639 new movie. Do you want tell us about your new movie. 0:19:00.200 --> 0:19:02.360 Yeah. So it's called Where the Wind Blows. 0:19:02.480 --> 0:19:05.120 It's based on a best selling novel by a woman 0:19:05.200 --> 0:19:09.480 named Carolyn Fife, and it stars a new up and 0:19:09.560 --> 0:19:14.320 coming actress, Ashley Elaine. And it's got Trevor Donovan, who 0:19:14.359 --> 0:19:17.880 I've who was actually on nine O two and oh, 0:19:17.920 --> 0:19:22.199 and he plays a guy who falls in love with Ashley, 0:19:22.240 --> 0:19:25.000 and then I played the bad guy who kidnaps their dog. 0:19:26.160 --> 0:19:28.560 That's fun, always good to be the bad guy. 0:19:29.080 --> 0:19:31.159 Yeah, and it's going to be very confusing for the 0:19:31.200 --> 0:19:33.480 people that you retreat, who are all bonded and they're 0:19:33.520 --> 0:19:35.520 all of and then you're gonna kidnapped. 0:19:35.640 --> 0:19:38.400 What happened? He seems like such a good but good. 0:19:38.240 --> 0:19:41.040 For your psyche that you're balancing. 0:19:41.520 --> 0:19:41.879 But it was. 0:19:41.960 --> 0:19:44.400 It's set in eighteen ninety and we shot in Montana 0:19:44.520 --> 0:19:47.960 last summer. And have you guys ever been to Montana? 0:19:48.440 --> 0:19:48.640 Yeah? 0:19:49.320 --> 0:19:53.040 Oh, amazing, there corgeous, a lot of time another planet 0:19:53.160 --> 0:19:56.480 kind of Yeah, it's really beautiful. 0:19:56.800 --> 0:19:57.960 But yeah, so we've got that. 0:19:58.320 --> 0:20:01.600 And then yeah, just last night, I just want to say, Laura, 0:20:01.760 --> 0:20:05.040 thank you for when I was working on Melrose's Place. 0:20:05.080 --> 0:20:08.040 It was right after I had gotten off All My 0:20:08.160 --> 0:20:11.359