WEBVTT - Finally! A Show About an Appalachian Songsmith 0:00:02.640 --> 0:00:07.040 It's a very quiet and slow morning, and I laid 0:00:07.080 --> 0:00:11.080 in the bed just a few seconds longer, just to 0:00:11.119 --> 0:00:13.160 see the day the way I wish for it to be, 0:00:13.880 --> 0:00:17.280 and plant some seats for some sweet things to happen. 0:00:18.920 --> 0:00:21.480 This is finally a show about a Southern Black country 0:00:21.480 --> 0:00:26.840 singer and songwriter hailing from Tennessee. Valerie June's music combines gospel, soul, 0:00:26.960 --> 0:00:29.120 and country and she has one of those voices that 0:00:29.280 --> 0:00:31.640 just stays with you. We met up with her on 0:00:31.640 --> 0:00:33.040 one of her many tour stops. 0:00:44.960 --> 0:00:49.120 It's a little bit like it could be warmer to me. Maybe, 0:00:49.680 --> 0:00:50.000 Thank you. 0:00:53.280 --> 0:00:54.160 I got a good seven. 0:00:54.400 --> 0:00:59.319 I had black tea with cream, and then I will 0:00:59.480 --> 0:01:03.040 jog to the sign to the gym and got a 0:01:03.120 --> 0:01:06.880 day passed and I jogged am all outside. 0:01:06.319 --> 0:01:09.440 And looked at the trees. They were beautiful colors. 0:01:10.440 --> 0:01:13.919 And when I'm doing the physical movement, I'm also doing 0:01:14.360 --> 0:01:20.520 like mantras and meditations and mental alignment. So as I jog, 0:01:20.760 --> 0:01:25.520 I don't just jog. I jog and breathing in, bring 0:01:25.520 --> 0:01:28.160 my awareness to my breath, breathing out, and then start 0:01:28.200 --> 0:01:32.440 to call in like words, breathing in, I am now peaceful, 0:01:33.080 --> 0:01:36.240 breathing out, I am now peaceful and not just calling 0:01:36.280 --> 0:01:39.280 it in and looking at what's around me, but what 0:01:39.319 --> 0:01:43.039 does peace look like? And starting to see each word 0:01:43.560 --> 0:01:47.120 like what that looks like to me that day, because 0:01:47.120 --> 0:01:49.200 it's like tuning myself for the day. 0:01:49.680 --> 0:01:52.600 And then all that's just getting me ready for. 0:01:53.920 --> 0:01:58.320 Being around people and being able to go on stage 0:01:58.520 --> 0:02:03.080 and have enough energy and concentration and focus on light 0:02:04.200 --> 0:02:08.600 in times where we might read what's happening in the 0:02:08.639 --> 0:02:11.720 world and feel like, how am I supposed to get 0:02:11.760 --> 0:02:14.440 up and share some joy or like with somebody today? 0:02:15.320 --> 0:02:16.160 I haven't found it. 0:02:16.120 --> 0:02:20.160 Myself yet, and that's okay, But I do these practices 0:02:20.240 --> 0:02:21.880 so that I could at least come close. 0:02:21.680 --> 0:02:33.160 To finding a little bit of its great. 0:02:35.560 --> 0:02:36.640 Well that was part of me. 0:02:36.720 --> 0:02:41.280 In backstage you're experiencing is one of our members is 0:02:41.480 --> 0:02:42.079 very sick. 0:02:42.360 --> 0:02:49.200 So she she is not at the chef tonight, Okay, 0:02:49.280 --> 0:03:06.280 So I said, you just do think great good. 0:03:17.720 --> 0:03:19.800 I was raised like in the middle of nowhere, in 0:03:19.840 --> 0:03:25.320 the country in Tennessee, and in nature, and I listened 0:03:25.320 --> 0:03:28.160 to trees, and I listened to nature and plants and 0:03:28.200 --> 0:03:30.320 birds and the. 0:03:30.200 --> 0:03:33.399 Pond and the wind. And they give me the practices too. 0:03:33.480 --> 0:03:37.320 They talk to me. You know, on this. 0:03:37.400 --> 0:03:41.080 Tour, I met the oldest tree in Buffalo, New York. 0:03:41.280 --> 0:03:43.440 It's two hundred and forty nine years old. I was 0:03:43.480 --> 0:03:46.440 just walking because it was a beautiful day, and we'd 0:03:46.480 --> 0:03:49.280 just gotten off the road and I was about to 0:03:49.320 --> 0:03:50.680 turn around, but I saw. 0:03:50.480 --> 0:03:52.040 This gorgeous tree. 0:03:52.120 --> 0:03:55.160 It was huge on the sidewalk and it was lifting 0:03:55.280 --> 0:03:58.920 up the sidewalk concrete because it was breaking it up. 0:04:00.120 --> 0:04:02.480 I walked down to the tree and I looked up 0:04:02.520 --> 0:04:04.400 and there was a plaque on the tree that said 0:04:04.520 --> 0:04:07.960 oldest tree in Buffalo. And I was like, oh my god, 0:04:08.040 --> 0:04:10.480 I cannot believe I'm finding this tree today, just in 0:04:10.520 --> 0:04:14.520 the middle of the city. And I held the tree. 0:04:14.600 --> 0:04:16.600 You cannot get your arms all the way around it, 0:04:17.279 --> 0:04:20.280 and I like talked to the tree and it was 0:04:20.360 --> 0:04:24.360 telling me. Earlier that day, in my meditation in the sauna, 0:04:25.760 --> 0:04:29.360 I was invited into this garden. It was called the 0:04:29.480 --> 0:04:33.080 Hidden Garden. And I went in there and I sat 0:04:33.480 --> 0:04:37.359 and I was surrounded by all these plants, and you 0:04:37.400 --> 0:04:42.400 know things in Palestine and Israel, they were just weighing 0:04:42.440 --> 0:04:46.279 on me so heavy, and I just was in tears 0:04:46.320 --> 0:04:49.440 in there, and I was doing my breath work, and 0:04:49.560 --> 0:04:54.159 that's when I was invited by whatever spirit round to 0:04:54.400 --> 0:04:57.880 enter the Hidden Garden, and they said, you can enter 0:04:57.920 --> 0:05:01.159 this garden whenever you want to. You can stay here 0:05:01.600 --> 0:05:05.839 all day if you want to. It just it's this 0:05:05.920 --> 0:05:11.000 world inside of us that we have that is very 0:05:11.120 --> 0:05:17.080 much like where everything comes from. And so I had 0:05:17.120 --> 0:05:20.400 stayed in that garden. As we travel that day, I 0:05:20.480 --> 0:05:23.279 needed to ask the tree, is it okay. 0:05:23.120 --> 0:05:26.360 For me to like stay in the hidden Garden? For real? 0:05:26.839 --> 0:05:29.839 You're older than me, You're like two hundred and forty 0:05:29.920 --> 0:05:34.320 nine years old, you see, so much like, is it 0:05:34.440 --> 0:05:36.960 okay with all this going on in the world for 0:05:36.960 --> 0:05:39.799 me to stay in the Hidden Garden? And the tree said, 0:05:40.080 --> 0:05:42.200 you can stay in both worlds. You don't have to 0:05:42.279 --> 0:05:44.800 choose one or the other. You can stay with us 0:05:44.880 --> 0:05:47.640 as long as you want to. And that doesn't mean 0:05:47.680 --> 0:05:51.200 that you're leaving the reality of what's happening in the world, 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:58.320 but you do need to have to lean on us. 0:06:03.960 --> 0:06:07.600 The songs come for they come to me while I'm 0:06:07.680 --> 0:06:11.640 doing things. So it's important to me for my work 0:06:12.400 --> 0:06:15.560 to have other things that I'm doing, not to like 0:06:16.400 --> 0:06:19.600 sit down to write a song or a poem. Because 0:06:20.520 --> 0:06:25.560 I need it's many. It's much like the ancestors. Unfortunately, 0:06:26.240 --> 0:06:29.640 they were enslaved and they worked in the fields, and 0:06:29.720 --> 0:06:33.360 while they worked in the fields, they sang, and they 0:06:33.440 --> 0:06:36.240 had these songs that came to them while they were working, 0:06:36.320 --> 0:06:42.440 and they sang work songs. I do better creating when 0:06:42.480 --> 0:06:45.000 I'm watering the plants, when I'm cleaning the toilet, when 0:06:45.000 --> 0:06:48.240 I'm washing dishes, when I'm folding clothes, when I'm sleeping. 0:06:48.600 --> 0:06:51.880 I do better creating when I'm not intending to create. 0:06:52.360 --> 0:06:54.880 If I stop what I'm doing and I sit down 0:06:54.920 --> 0:06:59.040 and I really try to create, then it's not like 0:06:59.200 --> 0:07:02.480 it's very fri frustrating like it needs to be. That 0:07:02.520 --> 0:07:06.040 I'm cooking dinner and I just hear this voice, and 0:07:06.080 --> 0:07:08.200 the voice is singing me a song, and I sing 0:07:08.240 --> 0:07:10.200 you the song the way the song is sung to me. 0:07:10.360 --> 0:07:13.200 So it's like I turn like when you turn on 0:07:13.200 --> 0:07:15.760 a radio and you hear a song, That's how it is. 0:07:15.800 --> 0:07:18.520 When I hear a song, it's just like there it 0:07:18.560 --> 0:07:22.960 is today. And because they come to me, that's why 0:07:23.000 --> 0:07:23.560 I do that. 0:07:24.080 --> 0:07:25.800 But if they stop coming to me, then I won't 0:07:25.840 --> 0:07:26.560 do that anymore. 0:07:27.640 --> 0:07:30.160 And I've talked to other creators, like I've talked to 0:07:30.200 --> 0:07:34.920 filmmakers or other songwriters even, and different people get them, 0:07:34.960 --> 0:07:39.040 get things different ways. Like some filmmakers see the entire 0:07:39.160 --> 0:07:42.480 film and all they have to do, and it's hard. 0:07:43.040 --> 0:07:45.960 It's just write what they see. But it's hard to 0:07:46.040 --> 0:07:48.640 write it because they see it, you know, and it's 0:07:48.680 --> 0:07:51.560 in a different realm, and they have to get the words, 0:07:51.680 --> 0:07:55.040 the actual words that someone else is gonna understand. But 0:07:55.160 --> 0:07:58.560 for me, I hear and I hear the voice. The 0:07:58.640 --> 0:08:00.720 voice sings to me, and I say to you what 0:08:00.760 --> 0:08:05.160 the voice sings to me. Other songwriters hear like instruments, 0:08:05.960 --> 0:08:09.240 and they hear a whole symphony or an orchestra in 0:08:09.280 --> 0:08:11.040 their head and they write it down. 0:08:11.200 --> 0:08:12.600 I don't hear that so much. 0:08:12.720 --> 0:08:15.840 I work in a way where I hear many voices. 0:08:16.920 --> 0:08:18.840 They exist in this. 0:08:18.840 --> 0:08:22.440 World for me because I have to. 0:08:22.360 --> 0:08:25.720 Be doing something like driving or walking to a train 0:08:26.000 --> 0:08:30.120 or something physically in this world for them to come. 0:08:30.320 --> 0:08:33.240 They don't just come. They come while I'm doing other things. 0:08:33.679 --> 0:08:36.240 Like That's why I like to have other things going on, 0:08:36.360 --> 0:08:39.800 even in business that I'm like, you know, I'm doing books, 0:08:39.800 --> 0:08:42.600 but I'm also doing songs and I'm doing poems, and 0:08:42.920 --> 0:08:48.360 you know, I'm just like trying to. 0:08:46.480 --> 0:08:51.000 Leave the space open, the creative space. Just let it come. 0:08:51.360 --> 0:08:55.080 Don't sit down and try to force something. 0:08:55.480 --> 0:08:55.720 You know. 0:08:56.440 --> 0:08:57.680 I know, I'm busy. 0:08:57.760 --> 0:09:00.640 I'm on the I'm on a conference skylland oh I'm 0:09:00.679 --> 0:09:03.160 hearing a voice. Okay. As soon as I get off, 0:09:03.320 --> 0:09:05.360 keep that on refeet on the back of my mind. 0:09:05.480 --> 0:09:08.600 Since I get off that, that's when I'm gonna start 0:09:08.640 --> 0:09:10.160 focusing on it. 0:09:10.160 --> 0:09:13.600 And get it down in my journal or wherever it is. 0:09:13.800 --> 0:09:17.000 They pretty much come like as they want to be, 0:09:18.040 --> 0:09:23.280 and they're very bossy because if I start to try 0:09:23.280 --> 0:09:23.840 to make. 0:09:23.679 --> 0:09:27.040 Them something else, which I try to. 0:09:27.000 --> 0:09:32.800 Do a lot, then they pull back, They pull back 0:09:32.840 --> 0:09:34.120 the other way, back. 0:09:33.920 --> 0:09:35.360 To where what they want it to be. 0:09:36.160 --> 0:09:39.560 And I'm like, okay, okay, I hear you. 0:09:39.760 --> 0:09:43.880 They boss me around. Songs know what they want. They 0:09:43.880 --> 0:09:44.520 are living. 0:09:45.600 --> 0:09:48.720 They have dreams and hopes just like I do or 0:09:48.760 --> 0:09:51.520 anybody else does. They have ways they want to be 0:09:51.760 --> 0:09:56.440 in the world, and so job of songwriters, the job 0:09:56.559 --> 0:10:00.040 is just to get out the way and let the 0:10:00.080 --> 0:10:01.480 song do what it wants to do. 0:10:01.640 --> 0:10:04.240 And that's hard because they're. 0:10:04.080 --> 0:10:06.800 Kind of like babies and you want to just like, oh, 0:10:07.120 --> 0:10:09.560 this is my new song, my new song, and this 0:10:09.640 --> 0:10:11.520 is what I'm gonna do with it. But when you 0:10:11.559 --> 0:10:14.040 put it out into the world and someone covers it, 0:10:14.679 --> 0:10:17.760 then you see just how little control you have over 0:10:18.280 --> 0:10:21.440 what the song's gonna do, because everybody sounds different when 0:10:21.520 --> 0:10:24.840 they cover a song. Then the other person it's the 0:10:24.880 --> 0:10:27.960 same song, but it sounds different. You know, the songs 0:10:28.040 --> 0:10:35.920 they are definitely teachers, and I think they. 0:10:33.640 --> 0:10:34.480 I think they might. 0:10:34.559 --> 0:10:38.040 You know, sometimes I ask myself, like did they ever live? 0:10:40.240 --> 0:10:44.600 And maybe they did, I don't know, like or maybe 0:10:44.600 --> 0:10:47.839 they've never been on a body, and they live through 0:10:48.120 --> 0:10:52.920 people who come and have voices to sing their song 0:10:53.080 --> 0:10:53.480 for them. 0:10:54.000 --> 0:10:56.280 They say, everybody has a good story in them. 0:10:56.640 --> 0:11:00.720 And it seems like when a show or a play 0:11:00.920 --> 0:11:05.760 or a song captures a person's story, then you're like, yeah. 0:11:05.679 --> 0:11:08.360 That's my sound, even though you don't write it. What 0:11:08.520 --> 0:11:11.160 makes it yours is because that story. 0:11:10.960 --> 0:11:13.840 Is something that's yours too, you can I find yourself 0:11:13.880 --> 0:11:17.600 in it and identify yourself in it. So I wonder 0:11:17.640 --> 0:11:21.560 where that commonality really comes from. Does it come from 0:11:21.600 --> 0:11:26.080 beyond just us? Does it come from beyond even the ancestors? 0:11:26.240 --> 0:11:30.600 Is there like something beyond that where all of the 0:11:30.760 --> 0:11:35.240 sounds and visions and beautiful things are just swirling waiting. 0:11:35.000 --> 0:12:01.200 To come into this existence. I'm dark. I just need 0:12:01.240 --> 0:12:01.840 to be dark. 0:12:02.600 --> 0:12:05.280 I need to bawl my ass off and enter the 0:12:05.360 --> 0:12:09.680 Eden garden and staying there crying, you know, all day long, 0:12:09.880 --> 0:12:14.560 just like I don't understand why what helped miss. 0:12:14.360 --> 0:12:15.520 Somebody come home? 0:12:17.559 --> 0:12:23.440 And then you know, work with that energy because always 0:12:23.559 --> 0:12:25.560 knowing See, I used to go dark and I would 0:12:25.640 --> 0:12:29.880 not come out, But now I know that you can't 0:12:29.960 --> 0:12:32.720 have one without the other in this realm. And so 0:12:33.080 --> 0:12:36.160 because of that, like any time I go dark now, 0:12:36.200 --> 0:12:38.520 I can stay dark for a week, a year, or 0:12:38.559 --> 0:12:41.520 however long because I've grieved hard for so. 0:12:41.640 --> 0:12:44.160 Long, so many things, and. 0:12:45.480 --> 0:12:50.199 You know, whenever that happens now, because I understand darkness, 0:12:50.960 --> 0:12:54.840 I'm okay because I know that I can't have that 0:12:55.559 --> 0:12:59.920 without some light in there. Because like as I go 0:13:00.160 --> 0:13:04.240 through a day, I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm happy, I'm sad. 0:13:04.640 --> 0:13:07.480 You know this affects me. That affects me. Oh da 0:13:07.559 --> 0:13:09.000 da da, and everyone. 0:13:08.800 --> 0:13:11.680 Everyone's like that, and that's why the day is a 0:13:11.760 --> 0:13:12.640 practice for me. 0:13:17.440 --> 0:13:21.680 My parents would like for things they wanted. 0:13:22.559 --> 0:13:28.680 They would give visions, but it wasn't as whimsical as 0:13:28.720 --> 0:13:31.479 the language I use for it. It was more concrete 0:13:32.960 --> 0:13:36.920 and it was more like, you know, I'm doing what 0:13:36.960 --> 0:13:39.160 I gotta do to make what I need to make happen, 0:13:39.880 --> 0:13:42.800 and this is the way to make it happen in 0:13:42.840 --> 0:13:45.360 the physical world. These are the laws and the rules, 0:13:45.520 --> 0:13:48.320 and this is how I have to like maneuver. 0:13:48.920 --> 0:13:51.120 And they would go and like say. 0:13:50.960 --> 0:13:53.360 For example, if my dad needed a new dump truck 0:13:53.400 --> 0:13:55.439 for his construction company, he. 0:13:55.400 --> 0:13:57.160 Would go through the ads and he. 0:13:57.080 --> 0:14:02.120 Would just start clipping out pictures of dump trucks that 0:14:02.280 --> 0:14:05.320 he liked, and he would put together like just a 0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:08.440 little kind of I would call it like a visionary board. 0:14:09.200 --> 0:14:11.960 He didn't have any New Age hippies telling him what 0:14:12.000 --> 0:14:12.840 to do on that. 0:14:13.280 --> 0:14:15.839 Nor would he ever follow anything like that. 0:14:16.679 --> 0:14:19.040 He would probably say that magic and all of that 0:14:19.160 --> 0:14:22.800 is focus and like against God, and that I'm going 0:14:22.840 --> 0:14:24.000 to hell for believing in it. 0:14:24.600 --> 0:14:28.480 But they worked it. They did. 0:14:27.960 --> 0:14:31.600 They wanted a house, they had a vision of a 0:14:31.640 --> 0:14:34.760 house they wanted. They would drive around and look at 0:14:34.760 --> 0:14:38.360 different houses and they would pull like I want this window, 0:14:38.480 --> 0:14:41.760 I want that doorway, I want that driveway, and they 0:14:41.800 --> 0:14:45.640 would go to an architect and get the plans made 0:14:45.680 --> 0:14:48.440 for it, and they would call to them the things 0:14:48.440 --> 0:14:51.080 that they wanted, you know. And I saw them work 0:14:51.120 --> 0:14:53.840 in magic like that in the sense that the world 0:14:53.920 --> 0:14:58.160 would say, through redlining and a lot of limitations upon 0:14:58.240 --> 0:15:01.760 southern Black families that they can ain't have, that the 0:15:01.880 --> 0:15:06.400 world will tell them who they were. But they always 0:15:06.520 --> 0:15:10.120 worked magic, and they decided who they wanted to be 0:15:10.480 --> 0:15:13.920 and they made that shit happen. So to me, that's 0:15:14.080 --> 0:15:18.880 like the greatest magic. Magic is real. It's hard. Dreams 0:15:18.920 --> 0:15:22.800 are hard because you fail, you know, you fail. I 0:15:22.840 --> 0:15:24.520 fail every fucking day. 0:15:24.560 --> 0:15:25.000 I fail. 0:15:25.640 --> 0:15:28.120 But you got to learn how to fail and be 0:15:28.200 --> 0:15:30.920 okay with that, you know, like it's a part of 0:15:31.000 --> 0:15:36.200 the process. So becoming a successful failure is kind of 0:15:36.240 --> 0:15:39.200 part of the nature of dreaming. In some ways, people 0:15:39.200 --> 0:15:42.240 could say that doctor King failed because in his time 0:15:43.080 --> 0:15:46.360 he you know, even to today, we still are pushing 0:15:46.360 --> 0:15:50.120 to see his dream come true across the whole continent 0:15:50.640 --> 0:15:55.400 for all people, no matter what you believe to you know, 0:15:56.080 --> 0:15:58.800 be judged by the content of your character and not by. 0:15:59.600 --> 0:16:01.840 Your race or your beliefs. 0:16:03.320 --> 0:16:07.120 Well, it's been a long time since Doctor King was 0:16:07.120 --> 0:16:09.720 assassinated in Memphis, and we're still having a hard time 0:16:09.760 --> 0:16:13.560 with that one. So dreams take time, and you could 0:16:13.560 --> 0:16:15.400 say the man failed, but. 0:16:15.400 --> 0:16:18.240 I don't believe that. So it's okay for me to 0:16:18.240 --> 0:16:19.640 fail because I know. 0:16:19.800 --> 0:16:21.960 I'm not gonna fail. I know I'm not and I 0:16:22.000 --> 0:16:25.040 know Doctor King's not. I believe in the dream, you know. 0:16:25.160 --> 0:16:27.720 I believe in all goodness. 0:16:27.880 --> 0:16:31.160 I believe in dreams. I believe in magic, and I believe. 0:16:31.200 --> 0:16:36.320 It's hard though, you know, there's just so many things 0:16:36.320 --> 0:16:42.280 to distract from our power and joy, positivity. 0:16:42.280 --> 0:16:46.480 Beauty is never taken. We give it, but because we 0:16:46.680 --> 0:16:47.960 let it. You know. 0:16:48.120 --> 0:16:51.280 I always wonder what could be possible if we didn't, 0:16:52.360 --> 0:16:54.400 and what does it look like if we don't. These 0:16:54.440 --> 0:16:59.080 are always just questions I have. I have no answers. 0:16:59.120 --> 0:17:01.200 I just like guess questions. 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:05.480 I think the biggest thing for me. 0:17:09.320 --> 0:17:15.399 Is really connecting with other beings who understand community and 0:17:15.440 --> 0:17:20.000 collective dreaming and collective consciousness and the power of imagination, 0:17:20.320 --> 0:17:21.480 wonder and. 0:17:21.400 --> 0:17:22.520 The currency of it. 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:27.440 Everything is currency, and everything's for sale right now, everything 0:17:28.119 --> 0:17:31.359 being a woman, being black, whatever it is, you know, 0:17:31.880 --> 0:17:34.560 and if it is for sale, then are we consciously 0:17:34.800 --> 0:17:37.359 using it to grow and to heal, or are we 0:17:37.480 --> 0:17:39.680 using it to line our own pockets? 0:17:39.840 --> 0:17:41.640 You know, what does it look like. 0:17:42.359 --> 0:17:46.199 To work with the community of people who are really 0:17:46.280 --> 0:17:48.160 interested in true healing? 0:17:49.320 --> 0:17:49.520 You know? 0:17:49.960 --> 0:17:52.359 I want to meet my tribe like that. 0:17:52.359 --> 0:17:53.239 That's what I want to do. 0:17:53.720 --> 0:17:55.280 And I don't even have to know them, but I 0:17:55.320 --> 0:17:57.520 want to know that they're working in this world in 0:17:57.600 --> 0:18:00.720 the same way in their small sphere. We ain't got 0:18:00.840 --> 0:18:03.080 to catch up be running buddies, but I need to 0:18:03.119 --> 0:18:05.840 know that there are other people out there that. 0:18:05.880 --> 0:18:09.080 Are working that type of what we would use the 0:18:09.080 --> 0:18:09.840 word magic. 0:18:10.000 --> 0:18:11.560 You know, I need to know it. 0:18:11.680 --> 0:18:14.040 I know that there's a lot of people out there 0:18:14.040 --> 0:18:17.720 causing all kinds of crazy things to happen and stirring 0:18:17.800 --> 0:18:22.399 up a lot of things that will create discomfort. I 0:18:22.480 --> 0:18:26.680 know that, but I need the reflection of those who are. 0:18:26.560 --> 0:18:28.160 Trying to align with a shine. 0:18:28.440 --> 0:18:28.639 You know. 0:18:51.000 --> 0:18:53.280 JT just texted me the only fifty percent of the 0:18:53.320 --> 0:18:55.600 tickets have been scanned so far, and he wants to 0:18:55.600 --> 0:18:56.480 push till eight tests. 0:18:56.520 --> 0:19:07.359 I got twenty minutes to get myself together. Valerie, how 0:19:07.359 --> 0:19:08.880 do you decide what you're gonna wear. 0:19:11.280 --> 0:19:12.200 The room? 0:19:12.440 --> 0:19:14.600 I go in there, and I'm like, what does this 0:19:14.760 --> 0:19:15.960 room want me to wear? 0:19:17.920 --> 0:19:20.439 Sometimes I'll want online and see what the room was like, 0:19:20.760 --> 0:19:23.960 and then I'll be like, here's a couple of possibilities 0:19:23.960 --> 0:19:25.280 for this particular room. 0:19:26.359 --> 0:19:31.080 But you know, and then whatever, you know, we are 0:19:31.440 --> 0:19:36.920 wearing kind of fits, you know, temperatures. 0:19:37.000 --> 0:19:40.040 Last night she was wearing striped sorrow or stripe. 0:19:39.640 --> 0:19:46.120 And there's a lot of fabrics tool and lots of neon. 0:19:49.480 --> 0:19:52.000 Throw up. That's kind of the thing. 0:19:52.960 --> 0:19:55.160 This is a I got this in the kittie department 0:19:55.200 --> 0:19:59.639 of Target, and it's extra large and it fit me 0:19:59.680 --> 0:20:00.760 and I really like it. 0:20:01.400 --> 0:20:04.040 I'm gonna walk out and play a song. Let's go, 0:20:03.480 --> 0:20:20.760 We're going. We're walking, okay. 0:20:33.080 --> 0:20:37.000 Because of that way that people before ancestors have paid, 0:20:37.320 --> 0:20:40.560 now we have like more freedoms in a sense, in 0:20:40.640 --> 0:20:43.520 certain parts of the world than we've ever had. So 0:20:43.560 --> 0:20:47.560 we have a window of opportunity to make some deep 0:20:47.720 --> 0:20:48.960 choices of change. 0:20:49.640 --> 0:20:53.080 We actually have a chance. I believe in humanity and 0:20:53.920 --> 0:20:54.760 I believe in us. 0:21:24.680 --> 0:21:28.400 It's a very quiet night. I took a bath, I 0:21:28.560 --> 0:21:31.879 covered myself in lavender roll from head to toe, and 0:21:32.760 --> 0:21:35.879 then scrubs with the brush and put a ton of 0:21:35.920 --> 0:21:38.040 ebs and salt in the water as tight as I 0:21:38.080 --> 0:21:43.520 could stand and got in there relaxed, and then I 0:21:43.560 --> 0:21:49.199 got out and made myself some camerameal tea and I 0:21:49.320 --> 0:21:55.160 Shregonda and now I'm laying in the bed and I'm 0:21:55.359 --> 0:21:58.919 just taking it easy and I'm about to go to sleep. 0:22:01.320 --> 0:22:15.240 It's been a beautiful day.