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Speaker 1: Scrubbing in with Becca Tilly and Tanya Red and I

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Speaker 1: Heart Radio podcast. Hello everybody, We're scrubbing it, grubbing out. Um.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep this intro short because we have Caitlin

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Speaker 1: Bristow coming in and I feel like we're going to

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Speaker 1: have a lot to talk about today. Ain't that the truth? Sister?

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Speaker 1: So please welcome the one, the only Caitlin Bristow. Like

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Speaker 1: we were clapped to guests in Oh, we do, we should?

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Speaker 1: If we don't, we should? We do every time I do.

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Speaker 1: Maybe that's why I'm always uncomfortable because Hi, I mean,

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Speaker 1: the fact that you have time to record a podcast

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Speaker 1: with us today is truly impressive. Well, you know what,

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Speaker 1: I'm recording five podcasts today, so might all just you know,

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Speaker 1: get them all done at once. I don't know, I'm

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Speaker 1: like exhausted for you. Yeah, walk me, Okay. I want

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Speaker 1: to know, like what and I'm sure different day to

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Speaker 1: what it like right now? What's your day to day?

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Speaker 1: Like what time do you wake up? What do you

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Speaker 1: do first? Like how do you even organize? You have

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Speaker 1: somebody that gives you a schedule every day? Yes, yesterday

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Speaker 1: I woke up at two pm, but the day before that,

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Speaker 1: I was up at seven thirty am, and today is

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Speaker 1: on what city I'm in, um, what the day looks like.

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Speaker 1: But today is a technically a day off from dancing.

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Speaker 1: So we're in Memphis, Tennessee. And it was a twelve

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Speaker 1: the back of the bus, like, which seems luxurious and

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Speaker 1: is loud. I'm on the engine And so Gleb flew

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Speaker 1: home last night and I'm like, Gleb, I'm sleeping into

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Speaker 1: I slept like a baby. The bus just like rocked

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Speaker 1: I sleep. I sleep like she said the same thing,

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Speaker 1: I sleep like a baby in the coffin. Oh my gosh,

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Speaker 1: I've been doing this whole two or wrong. And I

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Speaker 1: I'm just now realizing that a bunket but I blob

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Speaker 1: back of the busket. They all like, they all make

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Speaker 1: you think that you got like the sweet, like the luxuries.

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Speaker 1: They're like, yeah, yeah, Caitlin, you got the whole room

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Speaker 1: I did not like those little coffin things. And I

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Speaker 1: This is great, not even moving. How much longer do

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Speaker 1: It's you're almost there. And I will say I am

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Speaker 1: Like I seriously think television can. This is kind of

426
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Speaker 1: messed up to say, but I think that producers can

427
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Speaker 1: manipulate situations easier when a woman is on her period.

428
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Speaker 1: And that could saying that, but I seriously think that's

429
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Speaker 1: a thing ourselves when we have that period. Yeah yeah,

430
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Speaker 1: so I don't know, it's I just think we could

431
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Speaker 1: have conversations with the Bachelorette that a male couldn't have

432
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Speaker 1: and vice versa. You know where you should go where

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Speaker 1: they have female hosts where No Love Island UK, because

434
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Speaker 1: let me tell you, that show is cracking and it

435
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Speaker 1: is good and they have female hosts and it's just

436
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Speaker 1: one because one can handle it. And I well, I

437
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Speaker 1: mean even Love Island, the one that r L does.

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Speaker 1: So yeah, yeah, us, I'm I'm on like a UK

439
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Speaker 1: kick right now. So I get it. That's that's a

440
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Speaker 1: very good one. But I mean, don't they have a

441
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Speaker 1: very like she's the host, she's been the host or no,

442
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Speaker 1: do they switch it up? So honestly, I've been watching

443
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Speaker 1: them so backwards that I haven't really seen much consistency

444
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Speaker 1: in that. So I'll tell you what I want to do.

445
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Speaker 1: It's like I'm going to manifest to put this on

446
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Speaker 1: my bucket list. I would be so stoked to host

447
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Speaker 1: Dancing with the Stars because I just feel like I'm

448
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Speaker 1: supposed to be involved in something to do with a

449
00:23:30,840 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 1: great idea. What that makes so much sense. It feels

450
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Speaker 1: very attainable, very attainable. I don't know how how tires

451
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Speaker 1: contract works, but if she's out of her contract and

452
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Speaker 1: doesn't want to do it anymore, like I will, Oh,

453
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Speaker 1: I just feel like that would be a dream to

454
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Speaker 1: the ABC specialist behind the scene, I don't know what

455
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Speaker 1: are they called executive executive? There you go, you know,

456
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Speaker 1: I may or may not have like sent Rob Mills

457
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Speaker 1: a little text, like just an idea. I can never

458
00:24:07,359 --> 00:24:10,280
Speaker 1: hurt to send Rob Mills a little to exactly exactly.

459
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Speaker 1: You're literally part of the ABC family. I feel I

460
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Speaker 1: to do all. But I'm back in. I think you worked,

461
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Speaker 1: you really fall hard, and you got there for that.

462
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Speaker 1: You deserve this. Ye give me a chance. Okay, we

463
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Speaker 1: have to wrap and we're about to be on your podcast,

464
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Speaker 1: but we're gonna wrap the Scrubbing In podcast and you know,

465
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Speaker 1: actually I had to do you. I was gonna ask

466
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Speaker 1: you a personal question because you're gone before we wrap,

467
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Speaker 1: because I know you're gone a lot. How long have

468
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Speaker 1: you and Jason been together? Oh? Um, three and three years?

469
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Speaker 1: But three years? Yeah, and you're but you're gone. You're

470
00:25:02,359 --> 00:25:03,879
Speaker 1: traveling all the time, so like do you get to

471
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Speaker 1: come home? And like how often are you guys intimate?

472
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Speaker 1: He's so good about coming to where I am because

473
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Speaker 1: like when I was filming with Bachelorette, I can't just

474
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Speaker 1: leave and go home for a few days. Like I'm

475
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Speaker 1: always on standby if they need us or you know,

476
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Speaker 1: or we're in Mexico, and so it's it's really tricky

477
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Speaker 1: to um see each other very often, so I feel

478
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Speaker 1: like when we do see each other, it's like not

479
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Speaker 1: a problem to get intimate because we're like we like

480
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Speaker 1: are able to miss each other all the time. It's

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Speaker 1: funny because I was thinking about this other day because

482
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Speaker 1: in the beginning of my relationship, it was like on

483
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Speaker 1: like donkey Kong, but every since we've got our puppy,

484
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Speaker 1: it's been like a little bit different, and I was like,

485
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Speaker 1: you know what, we are going back to the beginning. Well,

486
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Speaker 1: that's I mean, that's every relationship, is it, not like

487
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Speaker 1: it's always like this new euphoric like, oh, we're just

488
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Speaker 1: so obsessed with each other and I have sex the time,

489
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Speaker 1: and then you get real And I always try and

490
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Speaker 1: think of it as like it's just another level of love,

491
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Speaker 1: like the honeymoon phase and park phase is like fun,

492
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Speaker 1: but it's not realistic for long terms. So the next

493
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Speaker 1: step of that is like this is just a different

494
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Speaker 1: kind of love, or maybe you have to schedule sex,

495
00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:21,000
Speaker 1: or maybe you have to like, you know, accept that

496
00:26:21,040 --> 00:26:23,959
Speaker 1: it's like might not happen every week or day or like,

497
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Speaker 1: and that's what take you. Because I am like the

498
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Speaker 1: kind of person who if I like, I have to

499
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Speaker 1: be in a mood. I cannot just be a whole

500
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Speaker 1: and be like, okay, let's do this, Like yeah, I

501
00:26:34,080 --> 00:26:37,199
Speaker 1: have to be like wind and dined, and I have

502
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Speaker 1: to not be on my period, and I have to

503
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Speaker 1: not be ovulating, and I have to like there's so

504
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:45,240
Speaker 1: many things that yeah, I like horny ist on my period.

505
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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, but that makes really yeah, like it's weird.

506
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Speaker 1: I don't want to be touched. I'm like too and

507
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Speaker 1: rubbed and like, really, do you get into period sex?

508
00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:05,760
Speaker 1: Then I like it? He doesn't, so it's really you know, yeah,

509
00:27:05,760 --> 00:27:07,360
Speaker 1: I don't want to be touched on my period. It's

510
00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:12,000
Speaker 1: ovulating that I get all fired up, because that's typically

511
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Speaker 1: when a woman does. I'm like so into my cycles.

512
00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:19,479
Speaker 1: I could talk about my cycle for days, same, same,

513
00:27:19,560 --> 00:27:23,600
Speaker 1: and like the lunear phase and like all the oh yeah,

514
00:27:23,920 --> 00:27:26,119
Speaker 1: I'm fully into it. It like makes I'm like I

515
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:28,280
Speaker 1: know myself so well, me too. When I start my

516
00:27:28,320 --> 00:27:30,600
Speaker 1: feel like yourler phase, I'm like I have a to

517
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Speaker 1: do list. I'm like, let's go baby. Yep. Absolutely, you

518
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Speaker 1: get your good workouts in creative. I love you. It's

519
00:27:39,280 --> 00:27:42,760
Speaker 1: so great. You'll continue this on off the vine. Yeah,

520
00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:45,600
Speaker 1: I'm going to continue this. I love a good period

521
00:27:45,640 --> 00:27:49,399
Speaker 1: talk and intimacy and all of those things. Let's continue this, Shelly,

522
00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:53,720
Speaker 1: I do perfect well before we switch over. Yeah, where

523
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Speaker 1: can everyone find you? Every single thing that you're doing?

524
00:27:56,600 --> 00:28:01,200
Speaker 1: Selling everything? Okay, I honestly am passionate about my wine

525
00:28:01,440 --> 00:28:04,680
Speaker 1: these days because it's such a um, it's so much

526
00:28:04,720 --> 00:28:06,680
Speaker 1: harder than I ever thought it would be doing this

527
00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:10,000
Speaker 1: and having like I'm on every call with every distributed

528
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Speaker 1: distribute Caitlin distributor, and like trying to get it into

529
00:28:15,840 --> 00:28:19,720
Speaker 1: targets and having calls with Walmart, and like, it's been

530
00:28:19,840 --> 00:28:22,960
Speaker 1: so hard because I can only sell online so much

531
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Speaker 1: before people are like sick of not being able to

532
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Speaker 1: get it just in their own city and everything. So

533
00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:29,879
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm just working so hard. So at Spade

534
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Speaker 1: and Sparrows if anybody is interested in any wine, it's

535
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Speaker 1: so good. I'm not just saying that, don't sleep on

536
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Speaker 1: my pino grigio because people don't usually buy white. It's

537
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Speaker 1: so good. Um, so Spade and Sparrows dot com or

538
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Speaker 1: at Spade and Sparrows, and then um obviously my podcast

539
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Speaker 1: Off the Vine and my scrunchy and apparel line. Do edit.

540
00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:52,720
Speaker 1: She does not stop working. Yeah, Like do you have

541
00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:54,280
Speaker 1: all those linked in your Instagram bio? Like, do you

542
00:28:54,320 --> 00:28:59,640
Speaker 1: have a link called the link tree? Yes? Yes, yeah,

543
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Speaker 1: and come see if we're in a city near you

544
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:04,480
Speaker 1: with the Dancing with the Stars tour and sign the

545
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:11,080
Speaker 1: petition to have Caitlin hosting and start. Yes, and what

546
00:29:11,200 --> 00:29:17,000
Speaker 1: are the ABC show that's on TV? Thank you all right?

547
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,200
Speaker 1: Thank you for scrubbing in last time. Tany wasn't here,

548
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:21,960
Speaker 1: so this is your second time scrubbing in, but Tony

549
00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:25,480
Speaker 1: was involved this time. I'm so glad you were here.

550
00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 1: I'm so happy that you came on in the midst

551
00:29:27,760 --> 00:29:30,479
Speaker 1: of your crazy schedule, and thank you so much. We're

552
00:29:30,520 --> 00:29:33,000
Speaker 1: gonna flip in and turn this into off the Vine,

553
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 1: so we'll see you next time. Wait a minute, wait

554
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:38,480
Speaker 1: a minute, we doing the thing that Gray's Anatomy dufft

555
00:29:38,600 --> 00:29:40,880
Speaker 1: us trying to make us watch Station nineteen. Is it's

556
00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:45,080
Speaker 1: a crossover revenge? Yes, yes, Caitlin. We didn't talk about

557
00:29:45,080 --> 00:29:48,479
Speaker 1: Gray's Anatomy on this podcast, but in the COD season.

558
00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:52,200
Speaker 1: I'm in the COVID season right now. Yeah, I am

559
00:29:52,280 --> 00:29:55,000
Speaker 1: so there. But you like enjoy you're kind of like

560
00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:59,080
Speaker 1: enjoying the like then more recent seasons because you're sent

561
00:29:59,200 --> 00:30:01,440
Speaker 1: me something, You're like this tore me up, and I

562
00:30:01,480 --> 00:30:04,920
Speaker 1: was like, I have no memory of what you're talking about.

563
00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:08,440
Speaker 1: I just think you know every episode like the back

564
00:30:08,480 --> 00:30:11,200
Speaker 1: of your hands. I'm like the stars and you're like what,

565
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:13,480
Speaker 1: I'm like the stars they're laying under and You're like,

566
00:30:13,560 --> 00:30:15,160
Speaker 1: I don't know what you're talking about, and I'm like,

567
00:30:15,200 --> 00:30:18,720
Speaker 1: how could you breget every Everyone's like, oh, the season

568
00:30:18,800 --> 00:30:23,280
Speaker 1: started getting terrible. No, I am just as invested, are

569
00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:28,480
Speaker 1: you okay? Just any escapes you can find? Okay, h

570
00:30:28,520 --> 00:30:31,000
Speaker 1: I hear you, Hi, hear you. I feel so judged,

571
00:30:31,120 --> 00:30:34,840
Speaker 1: like just kidding there, tearrible. I wish No, I so

572
00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:38,520
Speaker 1: wish that I was like still as because there's a

573
00:30:38,560 --> 00:30:41,960
Speaker 1: certain season up to a certain season where you could

574
00:30:42,040 --> 00:30:43,720
Speaker 1: name an episode and I'd be like, oh my gosh, yes,

575
00:30:43,760 --> 00:30:46,080
Speaker 1: I know every part of the episode. But at a

576
00:30:46,120 --> 00:30:50,520
Speaker 1: certain point they just all become fuzzy. Oh gosh. I

577
00:30:50,640 --> 00:30:54,160
Speaker 1: just I'm like already sad for when I'm done the

578
00:30:54,200 --> 00:30:55,920
Speaker 1: COVID season because then I have to wait it's not

579
00:30:55,960 --> 00:30:58,840
Speaker 1: on Netflix yet. Oh my gosh. I mean I'm excited

580
00:30:58,880 --> 00:31:01,600
Speaker 1: to start. I'm gonna start watching season one, episode one

581
00:31:01,720 --> 00:31:04,560
Speaker 1: with my boyfriend and I'm like really excited again to

582
00:31:04,560 --> 00:31:08,080
Speaker 1: watch it through his eyes. Oh that's so fun. Yeah,

583
00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:10,840
Speaker 1: it's gonna be good. Well I had to like talk

584
00:31:10,880 --> 00:31:14,400
Speaker 1: about that because then we are basically a Grace Anatomy podcast.

585
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:18,040
Speaker 1: Good we touched on, go glad we got that in

586
00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:22,920
Speaker 1: all right, Now we will say goodbye. Thank you for stubbing,

587
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Speaker 1: thanks for letting me scrub in love you guys,