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Speaker 2: Either way, we want to be there. Doesn't matter how

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Speaker 3: We want to send you off instead, you wanna welcome

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Speaker 4: Tell us all about it.

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Speaker 1: We scared her? Was it fine? Now?

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Speaker 3: Porn?

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Speaker 5: Do you need to ride?

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Speaker 3: Do you need to ride? Do you need to ride?

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Speaker 3: Do you need to ride? Do you need to ride?

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Speaker 2: Do you need ride.

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Speaker 5: With Karen and Chris? Welcome? Do you need a ride?

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Speaker 5: This is Chris.

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Speaker 1: Fairbanks and this is Karen Kilgaroff.

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Speaker 6: We are so excited to be recording this episode.

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Speaker 1: Hello, we're back.

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Speaker 5: We are back. We had a bit of a hiatus,

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Speaker 5: more than a month.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, we lost people lost faith in our ability to podcast,

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Speaker 4: which is understandable.

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Speaker 5: Yes, we had we had personal things going on. We

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Speaker 5: had the holidays, we had work on the road. I

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Speaker 1: I had a death in my family.

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Speaker 5: Karen had a death in her family.

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Speaker 4: And but but ultimately, perhaps sadder is we recorded an

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Speaker 1: We then lost.

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Speaker 6: We recorded what I think maybe it's the it's like

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Speaker 6: the Twilight Zone. We recorded the best episode ever. Their

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Speaker 6: tears were shed, the laughter was had. It was the

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Speaker 6: great podcast with Tigntaro, and we were so open and

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Speaker 6: the episode that will change the world. This is the one.

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Speaker 1: I was like, we're gonna get nominated for a Peabody.

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Speaker 7: We are going or at least a Casti or whatever.

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Speaker 7: The I think they have the castle a poddle. Oh,

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Speaker 7: it was the British poddles. We all would love to

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Speaker 7: win a Poddle. But I get home among us, no

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Speaker 7: one I know is that esteemed. I get home, I

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Speaker 6: It's just empty. It's it's blank. That's never happened.

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Speaker 1: You help their friend.

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Speaker 5: Come on, friend, you got it. You've got a Mazda

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Speaker 5: that needs to be moving. So I was very sad.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that was That was insanely disappointing.

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Speaker 4: And then also the irony that people were like, we

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Speaker 1: Like we've it was.

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Speaker 4: Such a heartbreaker to lose it when we got our

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Speaker 4: homework done and we didn't get any credit for it,

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Speaker 5: Homework, and we could tell that Tig was proud of

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Speaker 5: it and excited for it to come out. I haven't

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Speaker 5: Find Andrew Solomson.

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Speaker 6: If you're listening and I haven't already contacted you, please,

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Speaker 6: I know you you are a wizard when it comes

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Speaker 5: Hoping you are.

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Speaker 1: We think you might be able to help us.

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Speaker 5: Andrews.

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Speaker 6: I hope you have some device that you have in

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Speaker 4: Maybe there's a there's a red toolkit that you keep

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Speaker 5: Amount after your situation type in a security code would

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Speaker 1: You should change that.

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Speaker 6: You always think no one's going to guess one two

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Speaker 6: If not, we will just have another episode with take

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Speaker 6: With the sound quality, I assure you was so good.

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Speaker 5: It was a special episode. I thought you were gonna say,

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Speaker 5: because I was driving, that's why we lost the five.

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Speaker 5: Just was recording. Everything seemed fine.

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Speaker 5: It's not what I'll be getting a podcast.

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Speaker 4: The award for your poddle will not come for an

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Speaker 4: engineering I just had to pass aggressley correct you. It

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Speaker 6: No, but certainly we've already established and one of the

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Speaker 5: That's or that's my little thing. I don't usually that's

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Speaker 1: To retroact it. No, no, no, don't retract it. But it's

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Speaker 6: I do remember one summer at a big sky Bible camp,

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Speaker 6: who sent you to that Bible camp? Did your parents

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Speaker 6: They sent me to a lot of camps when I

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Speaker 5: Right, And then someone put dirt on my forehead as

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Speaker 4: Oh you went there fresh Wednesday, that was right before Easter.

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Speaker 5: That is supposed to be Jesus's flesh, right.

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Speaker 1: Yes, it's the body of our Lord Jesus Christ.

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Speaker 6: Do you think there's ever been someone in history that

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Speaker 4: It was just like, let's do this thing, Jesus, let's

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Speaker 5: Yeah, one time I ate some.

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Speaker 5: You've been poisoned. That's how they reacted. So many bad

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Speaker 4: Okay, good, Well, you know it's also the first experience

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Speaker 5: Yeah, it feels good for some people, I think in

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Speaker 6: It was like, Hey, on Wednesdays, do you want to

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Speaker 5: I saw him in Oregon. He's like a fan marriage counselor.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, the service part.

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Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, But you know what that's really on that

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Speaker 4: I just find really that there's certain aspects of organized

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Speaker 1: Yes, and you'll draw the other children in.

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Speaker 5: But he wasn't that.

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Speaker 6: He also gave me like handyman work, like he's like, oh,

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Speaker 6: And I remember he hit his thumb with a ham

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Speaker 5: No, no, no, no, this was Presbyterian. Yeah. See church

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Speaker 1: It was it fish church.

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Speaker 6: It was like fishing all the time, just where there

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Speaker 5: Above where his podium was. They actually had a billy.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yes, there was one year at Christmas where one

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Speaker 1: It was like a singing squirrel, I think it.

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Speaker 5: But it's supposed to look like taxidermy.

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Speaker 1: Yes, it's supposed to look real and dead, but it's singing.

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Speaker 5: Favorite form of we put.

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Speaker 1: When we turned it on, we would all laugh like

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Speaker 1: I think it was a muskrat that was singing muskrat love.

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Speaker 1: It must have been that.

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Speaker 5: Oh it has to be.

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Speaker 4: It simply must be. So what else have you been doing, Chris?

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Speaker 6: I have been hosting that show with April Richardson, and

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Speaker 6: it's getting better and it's fun, grace, it's enjoyable, and

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Speaker 6: I love doing stand up. I've been enjoying stand up

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Speaker 6: more than ever. I've been doing lots of shows and

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Speaker 1: Amazing. Wait where was your last show?

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Speaker 6: My last show, I guess was at the Ice House.

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Speaker 6: You love your Pasadena. You know, it's like it's the

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Speaker 1: It's you are wearing a tiny hat right now.

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Speaker 6: I am, yeah, And if I could grow one, i'd

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Speaker 5: I don't know what kind I am. I think that

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Speaker 6: Blood that makes it to where the side of my

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Speaker 4: Ian from North Dakotia.

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Speaker 5: You're gonna puts me in the stumby damn it.

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Speaker 6: Well, that's I mean, I understand a lot of people

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I really.

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Speaker 5: Don't like it.

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Speaker 1: Now, what do you think the difference is in your

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Speaker 5: Is it?

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Speaker 1: Is?

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Speaker 1: Is it just a cycle?

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Speaker 4: Do you think it's just like you're out of the

449
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Speaker 4: bad patch, right and it's only temporary Because I've been

450
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Speaker 4: out of the bad patch before, and then I have

451
00:21:18,119 --> 00:21:19,960
Speaker 4: a shitty show and I'm like, oh, yeah.

452
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Speaker 5: Let's never get you never figure this out right?

453
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Speaker 1: Well, yeah, the variables change every show.

454
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Speaker 5: It's it's uh.

455
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Speaker 6: But lately I've felt like I kind of learned how

456
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Speaker 6: to deal with when I can see it going south. Yeah,

457
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Speaker 6: And it's just I think it's about being more open

458
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Speaker 6: on stage, being open and being uh.

459
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Speaker 5: I've been working on my confidence.

460
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Speaker 1: Karen, how Yes, what do you do I need? I

461
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Speaker 1: need to know.

462
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Speaker 5: I pretend that I'm confident.

463
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Speaker 1: That's something saying that's how you have to.

464
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Speaker 5: Do it, and it's infectious. Your brain will be like

465
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Speaker 5: maybe we are for a minute, but then I just

466
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Speaker 5: get that bad show.

467
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Speaker 6: For instance, we all have a few comics. Went drove

468
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Speaker 6: up to San Francisco for a taping something called Ciso,

469
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Speaker 6: which is like a Hulu for comedy. Yeah, and it's NBC. Yeah,

470
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Speaker 6: and so they have a lot of NBC shows on there.

471
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Speaker 5: And then I guess they're.

472
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Speaker 6: Gonna have a lot of original other than Brian Reagan's special.

473
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Speaker 6: I guess the first streaming live comedy special was what

474
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Speaker 6: I did.

475
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Speaker 5: And man, it seemed like, oh man, no one's gonna

476
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Speaker 5: edit this, Like I felt like it could have gone

477
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Speaker 5: a lot better. And so after that, my fake confidence,

478
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Speaker 5: I was like, where's that feeling? It went away?

479
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Speaker 1: It's tough.

480
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Speaker 5: I wish it didn't go badly. It just didn't go great.

481
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Speaker 6: I wanted it to go great because you know, they

482
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Speaker 6: had a camera and a crane thing.

483
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Speaker 5: Yeah, there was a guy with some Dolly tracks.

484
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Speaker 4: You had a jib and you had a uh well

485
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Speaker 4: that's a Dolly Yeah.

486
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Speaker 1: Yeah, you know that.

487
00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:04,960
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, I know a lot of.

488
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Speaker 1: The I wanted to pretend like I was the one.

489
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Speaker 1: I knew the terminology. You know it.

490
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Speaker 5: You know I'm Union No, I'm a Union gaffer's best boy.

491
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Speaker 1: Uh.

492
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Speaker 4: I just I think that's an interesting thing to talk

493
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Speaker 4: about though, because the confidence I was thinking of it like,

494
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Speaker 4: I've done a couple of shows at the Improv Lab.

495
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Speaker 1: I don't know if you've done that really yet.

496
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Speaker 5: I'm doing it tonight.

497
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Speaker 1: Are you really very loungey feeling? Yeah? I love it.

498
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Speaker 1: Have you done it before?

499
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Speaker 5: Yes?

500
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Speaker 4: Yes, I was so surprised I was asked to do it.

501
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Speaker 1: I think it's Meghan Keister show.

502
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Speaker 4: And the day, of course, an hour before I wanted

503
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Speaker 4: to flake out and not show up because that's what

504
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Speaker 4: I always do and what my brain tells me you're

505
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Speaker 4: unsafe to stay home.

506
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Speaker 1: Yeah, don't go out, don't risk anything.

507
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Speaker 4: Which is bad for comedy, which is definitely for all create.

508
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Speaker 1: It's it's awful. So I knew that if I didn't.

509
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Speaker 4: Go and do that one set, even though I had

510
00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:05,199
Speaker 4: no material, I would stop doing stand up comedy. It

511
00:24:05,240 --> 00:24:07,280
Speaker 4: was that it felt that dire, right, And so I

512
00:24:07,359 --> 00:24:11,040
Speaker 4: went that night with truly with these one liners that

513
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Speaker 4: I've been doing and just kind of like pieces of

514
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Speaker 4: ideas and.

515
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Speaker 5: No songs, no songs.

516
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Speaker 1: Now I'm trying.

517
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Speaker 4: I'm only talking comedy for twenty sixteen. I mean, like

518
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Speaker 4: I'll do songs with drennand but for my own individual

519
00:24:23,359 --> 00:24:25,320
Speaker 4: stand up, I'm going back to regular time.

520
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Speaker 5: I'm excited to hear that. And I love your songs,

521
00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:28,679
Speaker 5: but I thank you.

522
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Speaker 6: I I'm excited to see you do joke after joke

523
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Speaker 6: that'll think great.

524
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Speaker 4: You know what it is? I realized while I was

525
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:38,920
Speaker 4: standing up there. First of all, I realized it doesn't

526
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Speaker 4: I'm not There's a long time where you absolutely have

527
00:24:43,040 --> 00:24:43,560
Speaker 4: to have jokes.

528
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Speaker 1: You have to you have to know what you're going

529
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Speaker 1: to end on.

530
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Speaker 4: You have to have all of your kind of like

531
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Speaker 4: your map out in front of you so that you

532
00:24:51,320 --> 00:24:54,040
Speaker 4: can navigate your set with confidence.

533
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Speaker 1: Yes, but I'm just.

534
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Speaker 5: Now learning that. But yes, yes everyone knows well.

535
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Speaker 4: But then there's a point time where you don't need

536
00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:03,960
Speaker 4: that anymore because it does because you start to realize

537
00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:07,240
Speaker 4: it doesn't matter what you're saying, it matters how you

538
00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:10,000
Speaker 4: feel when you're standing there. So when I was standing there,

539
00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:13,600
Speaker 4: I was like at this improv lab show, I just kind.

540
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Speaker 1: Of didn't care.

541
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Speaker 4: I knew I had these one liners that would get

542
00:25:16,359 --> 00:25:19,679
Speaker 4: hard laughs, right, But other than that, I was excited

543
00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:21,520
Speaker 4: to be experimenting again like that.

544
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Speaker 1: I feel like the last time I did it was like.

545
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Speaker 4: Old Largo, right wow, where I used to get to

546
00:25:26,720 --> 00:25:29,840
Speaker 4: do it all the time and it was just the

547
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Speaker 4: coolest feeling. And it didn't it wasn't it wasn't amazing.

548
00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:37,080
Speaker 4: I certainly didn't like destroy the room or win or

549
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Speaker 4: all the things I usually want to do when I

550
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Speaker 4: do stand up. I just did fine and had a

551
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Speaker 4: great time.

552
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Speaker 1: Right, And then that was what I just realized, that's

553
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Speaker 1: what I want.

554
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Speaker 6: I think that that's what I mean when I say

555
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 6: a manufacturing confidence, I'm just I just mean that state

556
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Speaker 6: where you are forcing yourself to be in a state

557
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:57,160
Speaker 6: of mind where it's like this is fun. Yeah, I'm

558
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Speaker 6: going to enjoy what I'm doing, and here it's a

559
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Speaker 6: things that I'm excited to do in the set that I.

560
00:26:02,640 --> 00:26:05,080
Speaker 5: Can look forward to. Usually that just means a new

561
00:26:05,160 --> 00:26:08,439
Speaker 5: joke or too right, and then and then you have

562
00:26:08,520 --> 00:26:10,800
Speaker 5: a great time and the best it's the best feeling.

563
00:26:10,880 --> 00:26:11,760
Speaker 1: It's such a good feeling.

564
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Speaker 5: And sometimes it just for whatever reason because you should

565
00:26:16,680 --> 00:26:17,400
Speaker 5: have stayed home.

566
00:26:19,240 --> 00:26:22,200
Speaker 1: But it's never true. It's it's I feel like it's

567
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Speaker 1: never true.

568
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Speaker 4: And like the weird thing to me is that I

569
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:28,320
Speaker 4: used to be really brave. I think it was correspondent

570
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Speaker 4: to what I used to drink. I used to I

571
00:26:30,320 --> 00:26:32,359
Speaker 4: would be like, I don't care, I'll get up there

572
00:26:32,400 --> 00:26:35,000
Speaker 4: and do it ill. I would do anything right and

573
00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:37,520
Speaker 4: try new things all the time and stuff. And I

574
00:26:37,560 --> 00:26:41,000
Speaker 4: think it's that getting back to that, Like it's it

575
00:26:41,040 --> 00:26:43,720
Speaker 4: doesn't make sense to me in my own mind, how

576
00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:46,280
Speaker 4: what a lack of confidence I can have in certain

577
00:26:46,320 --> 00:26:50,719
Speaker 4: situations when I've done some of the scariest things you

578
00:26:50,720 --> 00:26:53,920
Speaker 4: could possibly do, I actually have proof that I've done

579
00:26:53,920 --> 00:26:57,200
Speaker 4: those things, and it just seems like sometimes that doesn't On.

580
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Speaker 5: Stage or like you used to be a coal miner.

581
00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:06,160
Speaker 4: No, no, no, I'm just stand up improvising things TV stuff

582
00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:07,640
Speaker 4: that is very intimidating.

583
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:08,320
Speaker 1: I've done it.

584
00:27:08,880 --> 00:27:12,639
Speaker 4: So it then the idea that I'm letting, like, you know,

585
00:27:12,720 --> 00:27:15,840
Speaker 4: a downstairs Thursday night show intimidate me to the point

586
00:27:15,840 --> 00:27:18,680
Speaker 4: where I won't leave my house is I mean, I

587
00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:20,800
Speaker 4: guess like what I'm saying is that's the level of

588
00:27:20,800 --> 00:27:21,879
Speaker 4: insanity I'm dealing with.

589
00:27:22,080 --> 00:27:24,760
Speaker 6: Well, it's also when you do those fun things and

590
00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:27,600
Speaker 6: those tapings and at a certain level, and then and

591
00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:30,359
Speaker 6: then you're doing a show for four other comics that

592
00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:33,199
Speaker 6: is a booked thing that you didn't get all the

593
00:27:33,240 --> 00:27:35,640
Speaker 6: information on, and then you show up and no one's there,

594
00:27:36,240 --> 00:27:38,200
Speaker 6: which might very well happen for me tonight.

595
00:27:38,320 --> 00:27:40,760
Speaker 5: I have to learn how to have fun at those

596
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:43,600
Speaker 5: two yes, and be like, Okay, what can I learn

597
00:27:43,640 --> 00:27:45,960
Speaker 5: from just hearing my voice say these things?

598
00:27:46,880 --> 00:27:51,040
Speaker 1: And what can you add? Like that writing on stage

599
00:27:51,040 --> 00:27:52,640
Speaker 1: thing I hadn't done in so long.

600
00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 4: And both of the improv lap shows I've done lately

601
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:58,720
Speaker 4: I've done, I've figured things out like things weren't going

602
00:28:00,560 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 4: not just not doing well, just no response. It was

603
00:28:04,119 --> 00:28:06,200
Speaker 4: just like, oh, I thought this was funny. It's quiet,

604
00:28:06,640 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 4: and then instead of my usual thing, which is get

605
00:28:09,920 --> 00:28:13,520
Speaker 4: super embarrassed and then super angry and then lash out

606
00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:15,040
Speaker 4: and then kind of shut it all down.

607
00:28:15,280 --> 00:28:16,959
Speaker 5: I still do that. It's okay.

608
00:28:17,440 --> 00:28:19,440
Speaker 1: I think we all do. I mean, I think that's

609
00:28:19,520 --> 00:28:20,639
Speaker 1: kind of the natural reaction.

610
00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:24,160
Speaker 4: But instead just hang out, Like I just have had

611
00:28:24,200 --> 00:28:26,919
Speaker 4: the opportunity to hang out a little while longer and

612
00:28:26,960 --> 00:28:30,760
Speaker 4: then actually here hear the connection and bring it back around.

613
00:28:31,800 --> 00:28:36,159
Speaker 4: Just not panicking before that part happened, right, which is

614
00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:37,720
Speaker 4: you know Easier.

615
00:28:37,280 --> 00:28:42,160
Speaker 6: Said yeah, yeah, just realizing it's happening before it doesn't

616
00:28:42,160 --> 00:28:42,920
Speaker 6: dealing with it better.

617
00:28:43,120 --> 00:28:44,200
Speaker 5: That's what this all is.

618
00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:47,200
Speaker 4: Because also it's the people are watching you because they

619
00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:49,160
Speaker 4: want to see you be confident. They don't want to

620
00:28:49,200 --> 00:28:52,160
Speaker 4: watch you have a nervous breakdown or blame them or

621
00:28:52,200 --> 00:28:55,719
Speaker 4: get angry. They truly just want to see a person

622
00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:58,320
Speaker 4: brave enough to have fun and be funny on stage.

623
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Speaker 6: Weird, and when I first started, I think my whole

624
00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:05,760
Speaker 6: style worked against that, this whole stammering, I'm not confident books,

625
00:29:05,800 --> 00:29:08,840
Speaker 6: I messed up. Let me comment on that joke not working.

626
00:29:08,920 --> 00:29:12,240
Speaker 6: Like I built this character that I did for years

627
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:17,080
Speaker 6: based on someone that maybe wasn't confident or maybe you

628
00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:19,360
Speaker 6: don't know I'm messing up or not messing up.

629
00:29:19,360 --> 00:29:22,080
Speaker 5: Why would messing up the way I talk be a

630
00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:23,160
Speaker 5: thing that I would do?

631
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Speaker 1: Well, I think it's natural to you, though, yeah it's not.

632
00:29:27,240 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 6: Here was a product of me always saying Chambers kunkie

633
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:30,960
Speaker 6: or a.

634
00:29:31,120 --> 00:29:33,520
Speaker 5: Character or whatever, I really do do that.

635
00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:35,760
Speaker 6: So I'm like, well, that got a laugh when I

636
00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:37,640
Speaker 6: dealt with it, so let me do it again. So

637
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:41,760
Speaker 6: now I'm lying and pretending to make mistakes. But then

638
00:29:41,840 --> 00:29:44,000
Speaker 6: if you keep it loose like that, then you can

639
00:29:44,320 --> 00:29:48,640
Speaker 6: be improvising and say I thought it was freeing. But

640
00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:51,160
Speaker 6: then I'd always have these bad shows where the audience

641
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:52,400
Speaker 6: is like that guy's not.

642
00:29:52,360 --> 00:29:54,160
Speaker 5: Even comfortable talking on stage.

643
00:29:54,280 --> 00:29:58,160
Speaker 6: Yeah, he's not confident or it, And so I still

644
00:29:58,320 --> 00:29:58,840
Speaker 6: am trying.

645
00:29:58,920 --> 00:30:01,600
Speaker 5: I'm like, that has be something I need to remind

646
00:30:01,600 --> 00:30:04,280
Speaker 5: myself to do. Be confident, and.

647
00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:07,760
Speaker 4: Also remind yourself that the voice you give the audience

648
00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:09,800
Speaker 4: of how they're judging you is not accurate.

649
00:30:09,920 --> 00:30:13,440
Speaker 1: That's just your mind, right, It's it's just thinking.

650
00:30:13,600 --> 00:30:16,320
Speaker 4: It's just that thing of like, oh you've decided this

651
00:30:16,360 --> 00:30:17,480
Speaker 4: is what the audience is thinking.

652
00:30:17,480 --> 00:30:20,800
Speaker 1: About you, like, are you serious?

653
00:30:20,920 --> 00:30:23,600
Speaker 5: Good lord, I hate I hate you.

654
00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:27,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's too late. Go ninety five miles now, dick.

655
00:30:27,720 --> 00:30:30,720
Speaker 4: Of course, it's a range range rover, of course in

656
00:30:30,800 --> 00:30:32,840
Speaker 4: Beverly Hills, a classic.

657
00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:33,440
Speaker 5: Yeah.

658
00:30:33,640 --> 00:30:34,680
Speaker 1: Sorry, you never know.

659
00:30:34,680 --> 00:30:37,360
Speaker 5: When you're gonna run into a bunch of piles of dirt.

660
00:30:38,240 --> 00:30:41,200
Speaker 5: You'll need that hint that wench on front.

661
00:30:42,520 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 1: Careful, there's a Gazelle range rover.

662
00:30:45,240 --> 00:30:48,960
Speaker 5: Yes, yes, thank god you're wearing. You're driving a car

663
00:30:48,960 --> 00:30:51,120
Speaker 5: specific to African hunting.

664
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:54,959
Speaker 1: Yeah. Important. Here near the Beverly Center in line, they

665
00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 1: have one.

666
00:30:55,240 --> 00:30:58,720
Speaker 5: Of those hard tan hats with a fan on it,

667
00:30:58,760 --> 00:31:01,280
Speaker 5: a pit helmet. Yes, have held it. Thank you all.

668
00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:05,360
Speaker 1: Well, I think you're gonna I mean, you've done it already.

669
00:31:05,400 --> 00:31:08,040
Speaker 4: But I feel like there's always people in that improv

670
00:31:08,120 --> 00:31:10,680
Speaker 4: lab room, and there's always a really good combination of

671
00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:13,800
Speaker 4: people who are super supportive and people who are like,

672
00:31:14,040 --> 00:31:15,560
Speaker 4: I'm gonna do the next show and I want to

673
00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:19,200
Speaker 4: see who this like. Kind of the competitive energy of

674
00:31:19,240 --> 00:31:20,200
Speaker 4: comics in the back.

675
00:31:20,360 --> 00:31:22,240
Speaker 1: It feels good and you can win them over.

676
00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:24,600
Speaker 6: Do you feel like it's a small version of what

677
00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:26,640
Speaker 6: the old Largo room felt like?

678
00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:31,240
Speaker 5: Just yeah, maybe because there's curtains and luge situations. Yes,

679
00:31:31,400 --> 00:31:34,959
Speaker 5: like tables and god, there's tonight is extra distracting.

680
00:31:35,240 --> 00:31:38,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's full it's full moon. I fully believe it.

681
00:31:38,520 --> 00:31:42,320
Speaker 6: I agree even the cops. Even the cops have turned

682
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:43,040
Speaker 6: to wear wolves.

683
00:31:46,000 --> 00:31:47,600
Speaker 1: Where is it coming from? Oh there it is?

684
00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:51,560
Speaker 5: Oh wow. Oh and he's going he's really going for it.

685
00:31:51,720 --> 00:31:56,080
Speaker 6: Oh good, Oh my god, that's seemingly coming right at us.

686
00:31:56,120 --> 00:31:56,239
Speaker 1: That.

687
00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:58,920
Speaker 5: Oh if you could you get the sounds. But I

688
00:31:58,960 --> 00:31:59,800
Speaker 5: wish you could get this.

689
00:32:00,600 --> 00:32:00,959
Speaker 1: Guys.

690
00:32:01,040 --> 00:32:04,160
Speaker 4: That was an LA cop changing sides of the road

691
00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:06,600
Speaker 4: so that he wouldn't have to stop in traffic.

692
00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:08,120
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah too, I love that.

693
00:32:08,480 --> 00:32:11,640
Speaker 6: Last night there was about it was going to get

694
00:32:11,640 --> 00:32:15,520
Speaker 6: a burger and it was late and about twelve cop

695
00:32:15,600 --> 00:32:18,959
Speaker 6: cars all racing each other going one hundred miles an

696
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 6: hour down my street with their lights on but the

697
00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:25,400
Speaker 6: siren's off, which means they don't want the people where

698
00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:26,960
Speaker 6: they're going to know they're gonna be.

699
00:32:27,160 --> 00:32:30,240
Speaker 5: And so I'm like, well, it's a hostage situation. Then yeah,

700
00:32:30,280 --> 00:32:31,040
Speaker 5: that's what that means.

701
00:32:31,120 --> 00:32:34,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's bad news. I know we're coming, or like

702
00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:36,120
Speaker 1: a break in like a burglar.

703
00:32:36,440 --> 00:32:39,120
Speaker 6: So I should I should have looked it up this morning.

704
00:32:39,480 --> 00:32:41,880
Speaker 6: I love finding out. Do you ever find out or

705
00:32:41,880 --> 00:32:45,480
Speaker 6: even in an article, even while I'm watching Making a

706
00:32:45,640 --> 00:32:49,000
Speaker 6: Murderer and all those shows when you find someone that's

707
00:32:49,040 --> 00:32:51,600
Speaker 6: committed to crime or just find it on the news online.

708
00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:54,080
Speaker 5: I find them on Facebook.

709
00:32:54,120 --> 00:32:55,880
Speaker 6: For there'll be a window a time where they still

710
00:32:55,920 --> 00:32:59,280
Speaker 6: have a Facebook account, and I'll just look at pictures

711
00:32:59,280 --> 00:32:59,560
Speaker 6: of them.

712
00:32:59,600 --> 00:33:03,320
Speaker 5: That's her, and look at him with his dog, and

713
00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:07,000
Speaker 5: he'll have a cousin. Usually they don't have kids, and

714
00:33:07,040 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 5: there's a couple of pictures where they're grumpy, and then

715
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,640
Speaker 5: you can still have this option. It's harder to find,

716
00:33:12,640 --> 00:33:17,040
Speaker 5: but I like to poke them. Not I did once.

717
00:33:18,560 --> 00:33:19,680
Speaker 1: You poked a murderer?

718
00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:23,960
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, just to say I did that.

719
00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:25,480
Speaker 1: That's like ever heard.

720
00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:27,840
Speaker 6: It's one of those things where it's like, Wow, they

721
00:33:27,840 --> 00:33:30,880
Speaker 6: have a profile, they picked out a photo, and they

722
00:33:31,080 --> 00:33:33,719
Speaker 6: work at this place and they bought that shirt. But

723
00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:36,080
Speaker 6: that guy killed his neighbor.

724
00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:38,440
Speaker 4: I mean like, yeah, clearly the plan was that they

725
00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:40,120
Speaker 4: were going to be normal like everybody else to be

726
00:33:40,200 --> 00:33:40,880
Speaker 4: on Facebook.

727
00:33:41,360 --> 00:33:44,920
Speaker 6: It's so yeah, and then they snapped and that's all

728
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,000
Speaker 6: anyone knows about them.

729
00:33:46,040 --> 00:33:48,040
Speaker 5: But I like to go to their Facebook see what

730
00:33:48,120 --> 00:33:49,160
Speaker 5: shows they liked.

731
00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:52,040
Speaker 1: Did you ever throw up the thoughts and prayers onto

732
00:33:52,040 --> 00:33:52,480
Speaker 1: their wall?

733
00:33:53,040 --> 00:33:55,520
Speaker 5: You know, I never wanted them to focus on me

734
00:33:55,560 --> 00:33:57,120
Speaker 5: if they don't end up in the big house.

735
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:58,000
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah I could.

736
00:33:58,080 --> 00:34:00,520
Speaker 5: That's I don't want to fully interact. I only did

737
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:01,640
Speaker 5: that poking thing once.

738
00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:05,000
Speaker 6: But it's just I used to think about it a

739
00:34:05,000 --> 00:34:07,440
Speaker 6: lot when I was a kid, too, Like when I

740
00:34:07,560 --> 00:34:09,960
Speaker 6: go to the store and try on shoes, you know,

741
00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:11,799
Speaker 6: you put on shoes and you walk around and the

742
00:34:11,800 --> 00:34:13,440
Speaker 6: guy pinches your toe, and.

743
00:34:13,160 --> 00:34:14,400
Speaker 5: You're like, well, I think it fits.

744
00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:17,799
Speaker 6: I always, for some reason, thought of murderers. There's people

745
00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:20,440
Speaker 6: out there that kill people or have bodies in their

746
00:34:20,520 --> 00:34:23,359
Speaker 6: yard or something, and they still go shoe shopping and

747
00:34:23,480 --> 00:34:25,799
Speaker 6: try on shoes and walk around, and they're like, I

748
00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:26,600
Speaker 6: like these shoes.

749
00:34:26,600 --> 00:34:29,160
Speaker 5: They look good and they make me feel confident. I

750
00:34:29,160 --> 00:34:32,360
Speaker 5: think later, I'm going to kill my neighbor while wearing

751
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:32,880
Speaker 5: these shoes.

752
00:34:32,960 --> 00:34:35,760
Speaker 6: M h, I should probably change into my old shoes

753
00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:37,440
Speaker 6: just because these ones are new.

754
00:34:38,360 --> 00:34:40,160
Speaker 5: They don't say that out loud, of co.

755
00:34:40,520 --> 00:34:43,120
Speaker 4: The person a designer shoe warehouse has to call the police.

756
00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:46,200
Speaker 4: I overheard a man planning something in.

757
00:34:46,160 --> 00:34:48,440
Speaker 6: The sandal in the middle of telling them he had

758
00:34:48,480 --> 00:34:52,640
Speaker 6: a narrow foot, and then he said, butch, my neighbor

759
00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:56,160
Speaker 6: is gonna get it. And I don't think he met

760
00:34:56,520 --> 00:34:58,719
Speaker 6: a pair of a pair of shoes and he was fine.

761
00:34:58,520 --> 00:35:00,720
Speaker 1: Because of the hues making that hacking knife ees.

762
00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:04,960
Speaker 5: Gesture, yeah, if you know what I mean, and then

763
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:06,920
Speaker 5: he came at me with it.

764
00:35:06,920 --> 00:35:10,480
Speaker 1: It usually goes with a sound.

765
00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:14,360
Speaker 5: But yeah, it's murderers, man, they're everywhere.

766
00:35:14,960 --> 00:35:18,120
Speaker 1: Well, true crime is very hot right now, very hot.

767
00:35:17,960 --> 00:35:21,840
Speaker 6: And it's changing my daily thoughts. I don't want to

768
00:35:21,880 --> 00:35:22,520
Speaker 6: think about it.

769
00:35:22,640 --> 00:35:24,640
Speaker 1: I know, well, you don't have to. You can.

770
00:35:26,040 --> 00:35:27,680
Speaker 5: There's plenty of stuff I can worry about.

771
00:35:27,800 --> 00:35:29,600
Speaker 4: There's so many other things to worry about. If you

772
00:35:29,640 --> 00:35:31,160
Speaker 4: maybe joined green Peace.

773
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:36,640
Speaker 5: Or uh, I'd like to worry about, Oh there's a

774
00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:39,800
Speaker 5: pain in my leg or what let me get online

775
00:35:39,800 --> 00:35:43,080
Speaker 5: and look it up. What I have these things?

776
00:35:43,560 --> 00:35:45,879
Speaker 1: Do you have rickets guaranteed?

777
00:35:47,680 --> 00:35:50,520
Speaker 5: Maybe? I uh, maybe I should? Maybe I should? I would,

778
00:35:50,680 --> 00:35:52,720
Speaker 5: I should get involved with green pieace.

779
00:35:53,480 --> 00:35:57,440
Speaker 4: I actually I'm interested in keeping plastic out of the ocean.

780
00:35:57,760 --> 00:35:59,799
Speaker 1: Okay, I support it.

781
00:35:59,840 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 4: And you would have loved my grandmother because she used

782
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:07,400
Speaker 4: to My grandma Ann used to take the you know,

783
00:36:07,480 --> 00:36:10,120
Speaker 4: the plastic things that hold soda cans together.

784
00:36:10,320 --> 00:36:12,279
Speaker 1: Yes, she always cut those up.

785
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:14,120
Speaker 5: Oh so do I still yeah.

786
00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:16,239
Speaker 4: And she'd say, taught me to do that because birds choke,

787
00:36:16,320 --> 00:36:17,399
Speaker 4: right that, she would say.

788
00:36:17,640 --> 00:36:19,440
Speaker 1: The first time I saw her do it, I said, Grandma,

789
00:36:19,440 --> 00:36:19,960
Speaker 1: what are you doing it?

790
00:36:20,040 --> 00:36:21,440
Speaker 5: She said, it's for the boards.

791
00:36:21,920 --> 00:36:24,640
Speaker 4: Oh, that's yeah, they're in the same Irish ac Boards

792
00:36:24,760 --> 00:36:26,880
Speaker 4: is a really good word to get Irish people.

793
00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:31,080
Speaker 5: Which is for you. How the phrase it's for the

794
00:36:31,160 --> 00:36:32,480
Speaker 5: birds first came.

795
00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:37,319
Speaker 1: Amount with from my grandma cutting us cutting up plastic? Yeah, uh,

796
00:36:37,680 --> 00:36:39,000
Speaker 1: what about the island of.

797
00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:42,560
Speaker 4: Plastic that's floating out It's the Pacific that's like so humongous.

798
00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:44,920
Speaker 5: There's five of them. They're called gyres.

799
00:36:45,280 --> 00:36:45,520
Speaker 1: What.

800
00:36:45,840 --> 00:36:49,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, they're the slow whirlpools where all the all the

801
00:36:49,040 --> 00:36:53,920
Speaker 5: garbage collects. Sometimes it's multiple tons, and ninety eight percent

802
00:36:53,960 --> 00:36:56,759
Speaker 5: of that garbage is plastic. That's the statistic that I

803
00:36:56,880 --> 00:36:59,959
Speaker 5: learned when I did a private event for the five

804
00:37:00,280 --> 00:37:04,440
Speaker 5: Gyres group. And they do go out on these green

805
00:37:04,480 --> 00:37:07,640
Speaker 5: piece like boats and and pick up this garbage and

806
00:37:07,680 --> 00:37:10,160
Speaker 5: they come back with tons of it. And the guy

807
00:37:10,160 --> 00:37:12,200
Speaker 5: when I was done, it was a very difficult show.

808
00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:15,280
Speaker 5: I had to like pretend to post this game show

809
00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:16,040
Speaker 5: who wants to.

810
00:37:15,960 --> 00:37:18,120
Speaker 1: Be a gyronare.

811
00:37:17,680 --> 00:37:20,920
Speaker 5: A giant air? And it was it was. It was

812
00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:23,960
Speaker 5: not the funnest gig. But my friend is part of

813
00:37:24,000 --> 00:37:27,440
Speaker 5: this group. And they gave me a bag of plastic

814
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:32,600
Speaker 5: that was found inside birds and fish. There was just

815
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:33,799
Speaker 5: a full afro pick.

816
00:37:34,040 --> 00:37:37,200
Speaker 1: I don't know how big some of these fish.

817
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:40,799
Speaker 5: Yes, yeah, you know those pels. No, there was an

818
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:41,359
Speaker 5: afro pick.

819
00:37:41,480 --> 00:37:41,839
Speaker 1: There was.

820
00:37:42,280 --> 00:37:43,200
Speaker 5: There was so many things.

821
00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:45,319
Speaker 6: There was something a piece of plastic that looked like

822
00:37:45,360 --> 00:37:47,279
Speaker 6: a Yamaica And that was the only joke I made.

823
00:37:47,280 --> 00:37:49,560
Speaker 6: It's like, well, at least we can all get together

824
00:37:49,640 --> 00:37:54,040
Speaker 6: and know that no matter what race you are, we

825
00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:57,400
Speaker 6: still are all affecting the ocean negatively that if we

826
00:37:57,440 --> 00:38:00,200
Speaker 6: can't get together on that because there was a ok

827
00:38:00,880 --> 00:38:03,400
Speaker 6: and they didn't you know you the way your response

828
00:38:03,480 --> 00:38:03,719
Speaker 6: to that.

829
00:38:03,719 --> 00:38:05,040
Speaker 5: Joke did better than that night.

830
00:38:05,280 --> 00:38:07,960
Speaker 4: There was something else that Sorry, they gave you a

831
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:10,359
Speaker 4: bag of garbage and said, like riff on this and

832
00:38:10,600 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 4: like use this in your act.

833
00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:14,799
Speaker 6: No, honestly, it was at the end the guy gave

834
00:38:14,840 --> 00:38:16,840
Speaker 6: it to me and said, if you can ever do

835
00:38:17,120 --> 00:38:19,799
Speaker 6: something with this or show it to people, since you're

836
00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:23,600
Speaker 6: a person that's a public speaker. Please here is a

837
00:38:23,640 --> 00:38:27,000
Speaker 6: bag of and I still have it. I can't, of course,

838
00:38:27,120 --> 00:38:28,439
Speaker 6: bring myself to throw it away.

839
00:38:30,680 --> 00:38:32,600
Speaker 1: Would you throw it exactly?

840
00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:37,040
Speaker 5: I had this giant bag of plastic, So it's my

841
00:38:37,120 --> 00:38:39,440
Speaker 5: little problem. It's in a little red bag with an

842
00:38:39,480 --> 00:38:42,640
Speaker 5: American flag on it, and it is but it is scary.

843
00:38:42,680 --> 00:38:45,560
Speaker 5: It's a lot of straws, and it's a lot of

844
00:38:45,880 --> 00:38:47,719
Speaker 5: just apparently plastic.

845
00:38:47,760 --> 00:38:51,640
Speaker 6: Once it's in the ocean, so it breaks down into

846
00:38:51,760 --> 00:38:55,160
Speaker 6: tiny chips of plastic, like a plastic bottle will eventually

847
00:38:55,239 --> 00:38:58,600
Speaker 6: just become these tiny which makes them dangerous.

848
00:38:58,239 --> 00:38:59,480
Speaker 5: Because then they're bite sized.

849
00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:03,680
Speaker 6: Yeah, and fish are just eating little teeny pieces of plastic.

850
00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:08,239
Speaker 4: Like plankton, and then they're ingesting plastic and carcinogens, and

851
00:39:08,280 --> 00:39:11,680
Speaker 4: then we're eating sushi that the fish that's.

852
00:39:11,520 --> 00:39:15,000
Speaker 1: A plastic fish. Basically, it's we're killing ourselves.

853
00:39:15,080 --> 00:39:15,399
Speaker 5: It is.

854
00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:18,040
Speaker 6: And I don't want to sound like a big old hippie,

855
00:39:18,040 --> 00:39:22,760
Speaker 6: but I have glass straws. There's its people called simply straws,

856
00:39:23,320 --> 00:39:26,200
Speaker 6: and there it's just a glass straw and I bring

857
00:39:26,239 --> 00:39:28,120
Speaker 6: it with me. I'm always afraid it's gonna shatter and

858
00:39:28,160 --> 00:39:29,680
Speaker 6: poke a hole in my leg or something.

859
00:39:30,320 --> 00:39:33,839
Speaker 5: And just so when I go to Starbucks and get

860
00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:36,600
Speaker 5: something in a giant plastic cup, at least I'm not

861
00:39:36,760 --> 00:39:39,359
Speaker 5: using the straw because I you know, there's a video

862
00:39:39,400 --> 00:39:41,880
Speaker 5: of them pulling a straw out of a turtle's nostril

863
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:45,279
Speaker 5: and it is not a fun like the.

864
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:50,360
Speaker 4: Old Field magic, sad but also cute because it's a

865
00:39:50,400 --> 00:39:52,960
Speaker 4: giant turtle and they have them in a boat and

866
00:39:53,000 --> 00:39:53,760
Speaker 4: he's wincing.

867
00:39:53,840 --> 00:39:57,880
Speaker 6: He's like he's making little noises. Who knew that turtles

868
00:39:57,920 --> 00:40:00,640
Speaker 6: make little noises? And his eyes are so tight and

869
00:40:00,719 --> 00:40:03,320
Speaker 6: he's fell a little nosebleed and they're trying to pull

870
00:40:03,360 --> 00:40:06,319
Speaker 6: out the straw out it's nostril, and they finally get

871
00:40:06,360 --> 00:40:08,359
Speaker 6: it out, and he has this look of relief and

872
00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:11,440
Speaker 6: he like looks at the people. It is a if

873
00:40:11,480 --> 00:40:15,080
Speaker 6: you can find turtle with straw and his nostra. It's

874
00:40:15,280 --> 00:40:16,480
Speaker 6: very sad and hard to watch.

875
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:20,560
Speaker 5: Every time someone gives me a straw, I'm like, I

876
00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:22,800
Speaker 5: don't want this. Stop giving me straws.

877
00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:25,160
Speaker 1: I love straws. I buy them, I have them in

878
00:40:25,160 --> 00:40:27,000
Speaker 1: my house. I had no idea they were that bad.

879
00:40:27,200 --> 00:40:30,000
Speaker 4: I truly like love to throw some Yeah, I love

880
00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:32,280
Speaker 4: to throw a straw and make a beverage.

881
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,040
Speaker 5: Not a lot, I do. I we're in a drought.

882
00:40:35,080 --> 00:40:38,040
Speaker 6: I still flush every time I pee, but I do,

883
00:40:38,480 --> 00:40:42,800
Speaker 6: I do try to not use straws at least it's something.

884
00:40:42,840 --> 00:40:44,239
Speaker 5: I mean, I'm not preaching here.

885
00:40:44,440 --> 00:40:44,520
Speaker 1: No.

886
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:46,799
Speaker 5: Look, you can get paper ones.

887
00:40:47,520 --> 00:40:50,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, ones, just do. We can all do what we can.

888
00:40:51,000 --> 00:40:53,960
Speaker 5: And they suck the paper one suck. You're halfway through

889
00:40:54,000 --> 00:40:57,440
Speaker 5: your beverage. It SAgs in the middle and then rips. Right,

890
00:40:57,719 --> 00:40:59,360
Speaker 5: that's like a straw made of paper.

891
00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:02,160
Speaker 1: But it's retro. That's how it used to be when

892
00:41:02,160 --> 00:41:03,680
Speaker 1: they first started doing right.

893
00:41:03,960 --> 00:41:07,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean that's how it was for the pilgrims.

894
00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:08,960
Speaker 1: So too bad.

895
00:41:09,160 --> 00:41:12,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, so there's so many things, but then statistically you

896
00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:15,800
Speaker 5: look at how little impact you can make as a human,

897
00:41:15,840 --> 00:41:19,200
Speaker 5: and then you get discouraged and then you forget. But

898
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:22,959
Speaker 5: I do know the boy this is I'm such an

899
00:41:23,080 --> 00:41:25,520
Speaker 5: environmentalist all of a sudden, I know, I don't know,

900
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:25,840
Speaker 5: know not.

901
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:29,320
Speaker 6: But when I moved here in three there were hummers

902
00:41:29,360 --> 00:41:34,480
Speaker 6: and SUVs everywhere, excursions, they're just everyone that was. That

903
00:41:34,560 --> 00:41:37,240
Speaker 6: was the thing in like early two thousands that everyone

904
00:41:37,280 --> 00:41:41,880
Speaker 6: had a big ass car. And I've always lived in Venice.

905
00:41:41,920 --> 00:41:44,919
Speaker 6: I never, you know, as I drive into Hollywood ever

906
00:41:45,040 --> 00:41:46,960
Speaker 6: was able to see the Hollywood Sign. And that's what

907
00:41:47,040 --> 00:41:49,439
Speaker 6: they tell you never could see it. I can see

908
00:41:49,440 --> 00:41:51,680
Speaker 6: it all the time now. Yes, that's the one thing

909
00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:54,880
Speaker 6: where I know maybe a bigger problem is all the

910
00:41:55,000 --> 00:41:58,719
Speaker 6: couch farting out. I heard that the methane they give

911
00:41:58,760 --> 00:42:01,120
Speaker 6: out with their farts is where than all the cars.

912
00:42:00,880 --> 00:42:01,760
Speaker 5: In LA combined.

913
00:42:01,920 --> 00:42:03,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, I bet I bet so.

914
00:42:03,680 --> 00:42:05,640
Speaker 5: And it's it's weird when you drive by.

915
00:42:05,920 --> 00:42:08,800
Speaker 6: I think they call it Cowshwitz because it's so yep,

916
00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:12,840
Speaker 6: horrifying how many cows are just in this, just for

917
00:42:12,960 --> 00:42:15,200
Speaker 6: acres and acres and acres. But you can smell their

918
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:18,279
Speaker 6: farts and it doesn't smell like cowshit. It smells like

919
00:42:18,360 --> 00:42:22,040
Speaker 6: exhaust from a car. Yes, it smells like a car exhausted.

920
00:42:22,200 --> 00:42:24,400
Speaker 4: It smells like if a cow was a car, and

921
00:42:24,640 --> 00:42:28,040
Speaker 4: what that exhaust would smell like because there is still

922
00:42:28,080 --> 00:42:31,160
Speaker 4: a little bit of they buy the you know, organic

923
00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:33,640
Speaker 4: element to it that is like shit. It's like shit

924
00:42:33,800 --> 00:42:37,840
Speaker 4: in hay and then gasoline. Essentially, that's a rough I

925
00:42:37,960 --> 00:42:41,440
Speaker 4: just I drove the five coming home from my parents

926
00:42:41,840 --> 00:42:43,840
Speaker 4: this past Oh yeah, whatever.

927
00:42:43,640 --> 00:42:45,759
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm on that freeway quite a bit.

928
00:42:45,880 --> 00:42:47,840
Speaker 5: And did you have a good time with your family

929
00:42:47,920 --> 00:42:48,239
Speaker 5: with it?

930
00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:49,640
Speaker 1: Like I had a really good time.

931
00:42:49,719 --> 00:42:52,840
Speaker 4: So for people who might not know my mom finally

932
00:42:52,880 --> 00:42:55,600
Speaker 4: passed away after suffering and for.

933
00:42:55,560 --> 00:43:01,880
Speaker 6: Twelve years, and the word finally with me, it's so

934
00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:05,080
Speaker 6: hard for people to relate to hearing that. Yeah, but

935
00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:10,080
Speaker 6: you know I feel the same, and I've been you know,

936
00:43:11,440 --> 00:43:15,279
Speaker 6: our moms are just trapped in this shell of who

937
00:43:15,280 --> 00:43:21,200
Speaker 6: they used to be and and you want it to end.

938
00:43:21,280 --> 00:43:24,000
Speaker 5: You can tell they're not happy, you want.

939
00:43:23,760 --> 00:43:24,759
Speaker 1: It to end.

940
00:43:24,239 --> 00:43:27,399
Speaker 5: Once it finally does, there's no way of me knowing

941
00:43:27,440 --> 00:43:28,640
Speaker 5: how I'm really going to feel.

942
00:43:29,080 --> 00:43:31,759
Speaker 4: It's pretty it's just weird. It's just kind of a

943
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:35,360
Speaker 4: shocking experience. And it's because the whole thing is so

944
00:43:36,920 --> 00:43:40,960
Speaker 4: traumatizing in and of itself that that getting a phone

945
00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:44,440
Speaker 4: call to say she finally passed away, it was like,

946
00:43:44,560 --> 00:43:47,160
Speaker 4: it's too good to be true, and that in and

947
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:49,799
Speaker 4: of itself has all this. It's just a lot of

948
00:43:49,920 --> 00:43:53,759
Speaker 4: conflict and a lot of guilt. But the good part

949
00:43:53,760 --> 00:43:56,200
Speaker 4: about it, so driving up there, I was like dreading it,

950
00:43:56,680 --> 00:43:58,080
Speaker 4: thinking it was going to be really sad.

951
00:43:58,080 --> 00:43:59,799
Speaker 1: I don't want to see my father be emotional. Kid,

952
00:44:00,080 --> 00:44:01,160
Speaker 1: he's the most.

953
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:04,160
Speaker 4: Repressed Irish Catholic person in the world, and he does

954
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:07,600
Speaker 4: not cry and is never weak and is never anything

955
00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:10,480
Speaker 4: but either fun or yelling, and so.

956
00:44:12,640 --> 00:44:13,360
Speaker 1: All of that I was.

957
00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:16,920
Speaker 4: Dreading, and instead it turned out to be beautiful and

958
00:44:17,120 --> 00:44:20,080
Speaker 4: all of my family and extended family were kind of together.

959
00:44:20,160 --> 00:44:22,400
Speaker 4: It was my niece's birthday, so we got to have

960
00:44:22,440 --> 00:44:27,759
Speaker 4: a fun party. And it's the unspoken and spoken, like

961
00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:29,480
Speaker 4: my sister and I talked to each other about it,

962
00:44:29,520 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 4: but the unspoken thing is this is better, this is

963
00:44:32,680 --> 00:44:34,920
Speaker 4: what this is what we wanted, and it's good that

964
00:44:35,000 --> 00:44:37,880
Speaker 4: we wanted it because it's what she wanted. And everyone's

965
00:44:38,239 --> 00:44:41,319
Speaker 4: really making an effort to talk about the fact that

966
00:44:41,400 --> 00:44:44,680
Speaker 4: it's better, and so that nobody feels guilty for having

967
00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:45,120
Speaker 4: that feeling.

968
00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:49,320
Speaker 6: Yes, and I've been feeling that also for a decade,

969
00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:52,120
Speaker 6: and that is how I will feel.

970
00:44:51,880 --> 00:44:54,960
Speaker 5: I think, and I know that it's so much.

971
00:44:55,040 --> 00:44:58,360
Speaker 6: That's why I'm so sad when a friend will lose

972
00:44:58,640 --> 00:45:02,520
Speaker 6: someone or I've lost friends lately where it's tragic and

973
00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:04,399
Speaker 6: it shouldn't have happened and it was or.

974
00:45:04,360 --> 00:45:09,399
Speaker 5: It's a stupid ass cancer or and there there was more.

975
00:45:09,480 --> 00:45:11,520
Speaker 5: Had that one thing not happened, there would have been more.

976
00:45:12,440 --> 00:45:14,400
Speaker 5: That's just different. That to me is more tragic.

977
00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:18,640
Speaker 6: People Also it stretched out for a long time, so

978
00:45:18,680 --> 00:45:23,399
Speaker 6: the grieving is like how long is this gonna slowly end?

979
00:45:23,719 --> 00:45:26,520
Speaker 6: So that's I think makes a lot of people uncomfortable.

980
00:45:26,520 --> 00:45:29,399
Speaker 6: But I still think it's worse when not that. It's

981
00:45:29,440 --> 00:45:33,120
Speaker 6: a contest what's the worst way to be gone? But

982
00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:36,360
Speaker 6: you know, someone my friend's dad fell off a roof

983
00:45:36,360 --> 00:45:39,680
Speaker 6: and died, and he gives a roofer. Guy, that was

984
00:45:39,719 --> 00:45:43,160
Speaker 6: the worst. Yeah, it was the saddest. It was so tragic,

985
00:45:43,200 --> 00:45:45,680
Speaker 6: it was sudden, it was so traumatic for him. It

986
00:45:45,760 --> 00:45:48,800
Speaker 6: changed his personality in a lot of ways.

987
00:45:49,000 --> 00:45:52,600
Speaker 4: It's I think, you know, well, I mean, anyone that

988
00:45:52,640 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 4: would come in with any kind of judgment about how

989
00:45:55,040 --> 00:45:57,919
Speaker 4: you feel about the death of your own parent, it's yeah,

990
00:45:57,960 --> 00:46:00,360
Speaker 4: but who cares, like to me that person you just

991
00:46:00,360 --> 00:46:02,839
Speaker 4: put and disqualified yourself. And also to me, I bet

992
00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:04,960
Speaker 4: you most of the time, those kind of people have

993
00:46:05,120 --> 00:46:08,520
Speaker 4: never had it happened to them. It's so easy to

994
00:46:08,600 --> 00:46:10,920
Speaker 4: talk about the way it should be or how you're

995
00:46:10,920 --> 00:46:13,560
Speaker 4: supposed to do it correctly. But you don't know until

996
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:15,840
Speaker 4: you go through it, and it's a very.

997
00:46:15,680 --> 00:46:17,080
Speaker 1: It's a very distinct experience.

998
00:46:17,160 --> 00:46:19,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, and it's not you and I both are Like

999
00:46:19,840 --> 00:46:22,759
Speaker 5: something triggers in me when someone says, I know what,

1000
00:46:22,880 --> 00:46:23,279
Speaker 5: it's like.

1001
00:46:23,320 --> 00:46:26,439
Speaker 6: My grandma, and I'm like, Grandma, Yeah, it's not the same.

1002
00:46:26,600 --> 00:46:29,640
Speaker 6: Not Some people are so close with their grandma's that

1003
00:46:29,760 --> 00:46:31,880
Speaker 6: I can't relate. But I think a lot of people

1004
00:46:32,600 --> 00:46:35,279
Speaker 6: come at you with like you're wrong to feel this

1005
00:46:36,080 --> 00:46:39,160
Speaker 6: because they're thinking about when they did lose someone in

1006
00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:41,360
Speaker 6: a more tragic win, how terrible it was.

1007
00:46:41,480 --> 00:46:43,440
Speaker 5: So they're like, how could you dare right?

1008
00:46:43,560 --> 00:46:46,919
Speaker 6: Like they finally yeah, when talking about the loss your mom,

1009
00:46:47,000 --> 00:46:51,759
Speaker 6: I lost my mom to the you know, grenade, shrapnel

1010
00:46:51,840 --> 00:46:54,399
Speaker 6: or whatever, whenever, studden tragic thing.

1011
00:46:55,040 --> 00:46:57,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I mean that's stupid. That's that's your problem.

1012
00:46:58,000 --> 00:47:01,480
Speaker 4: I mean, here's because here's my thing is that it

1013
00:47:01,560 --> 00:47:03,759
Speaker 4: was bad enough already. The last thing I need is

1014
00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:06,320
Speaker 4: to feel guilt about natural feeling forgot.

1015
00:47:06,440 --> 00:47:09,480
Speaker 1: I've already gotten her so much guilt. Yeah, fuck it.

1016
00:47:09,920 --> 00:47:13,680
Speaker 4: And also anybody, I mean it, just anyone that's ever

1017
00:47:13,719 --> 00:47:15,839
Speaker 4: coming at you about what you should be doing is

1018
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:17,160
Speaker 4: talking about themselves.

1019
00:47:17,320 --> 00:47:19,000
Speaker 1: So that's that's.

1020
00:47:18,719 --> 00:47:22,120
Speaker 4: All I ever hear it as anyway where it's just like, oh,

1021
00:47:22,239 --> 00:47:24,839
Speaker 4: you know, finally or whatever, where it's like my mother

1022
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:28,799
Speaker 4: looked like a mummy from Raiders of the Lost Star.

1023
00:47:28,960 --> 00:47:32,360
Speaker 5: My mom looks like a Iowa scarecrow.

1024
00:47:32,680 --> 00:47:37,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, and it's not them, and it's like watching someone linger.

1025
00:47:37,719 --> 00:47:41,000
Speaker 4: She my mother would have one hundred percent had doctor

1026
00:47:41,080 --> 00:47:42,239
Speaker 4: Kovorkian kill her.

1027
00:47:42,760 --> 00:47:44,120
Speaker 1: When she knew she got this.

1028
00:47:44,840 --> 00:47:46,040
Speaker 5: My mom used to say it.

1029
00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:47,239
Speaker 1: My mom used to say it too.

1030
00:47:47,400 --> 00:47:50,480
Speaker 6: If I get all time, she was predicting and getting it. Yeah,

1031
00:47:50,560 --> 00:47:52,800
Speaker 6: so said like, if I ever get it.

1032
00:47:52,640 --> 00:47:54,000
Speaker 5: Don't ever put me.

1033
00:47:54,080 --> 00:47:57,040
Speaker 6: I just want to take a pill and be gone.

1034
00:47:57,120 --> 00:48:03,200
Speaker 6: But unfortunately she wasn't you know, she isn't mentally able

1035
00:48:03,239 --> 00:48:04,920
Speaker 6: to make that decision because.

1036
00:48:04,680 --> 00:48:08,359
Speaker 5: Now we also think that it's bad as awful and weird.

1037
00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:10,239
Speaker 6: It was when she would say that kind of thing

1038
00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:13,960
Speaker 6: when I was young, I'm like, uh, maybe we should

1039
00:48:13,960 --> 00:48:14,920
Speaker 6: have got it in writing.

1040
00:48:16,080 --> 00:48:18,000
Speaker 1: Well, but it doesn't work that way. I mean like

1041
00:48:18,080 --> 00:48:21,520
Speaker 1: it's it's a it's a nice idea, but that at

1042
00:48:21,520 --> 00:48:22,359
Speaker 1: the end of the day.

1043
00:48:22,760 --> 00:48:24,759
Speaker 4: The shitty thing about Alzheimer's is you have to go

1044
00:48:24,840 --> 00:48:27,160
Speaker 4: through it, and they have to go through it and

1045
00:48:27,160 --> 00:48:28,840
Speaker 4: and it would be amazing if there could be a

1046
00:48:28,880 --> 00:48:32,400
Speaker 4: shortcut or just all right, then then we're done. But

1047
00:48:32,680 --> 00:48:36,120
Speaker 4: that's the kind of hideous part about it is you

1048
00:48:36,239 --> 00:48:38,760
Speaker 4: just have to go through it for years and years

1049
00:48:38,800 --> 00:48:39,400
Speaker 4: and years.

1050
00:48:39,480 --> 00:48:42,160
Speaker 6: Well, then people, the people that would tell you how

1051
00:48:42,200 --> 00:48:44,439
Speaker 6: you should feel will not want to hear me say

1052
00:48:44,600 --> 00:48:49,919
Speaker 6: I'm sort of jealous. I'm sure your mom past. Yeah,

1053
00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:50,839
Speaker 6: isn't that a weird thing?

1054
00:48:51,480 --> 00:48:52,040
Speaker 1: It's not at all.

1055
00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:54,600
Speaker 6: The first thing I thought when you told me, wait,

1056
00:48:54,719 --> 00:48:57,280
Speaker 6: what of course I don't mind still alive?

1057
00:48:57,560 --> 00:49:00,280
Speaker 4: That would have been that would have been my reaction

1058
00:49:00,360 --> 00:49:02,399
Speaker 4: if you told me, I would have been like, when

1059
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:03,960
Speaker 4: the fuck is do I get to have this?

1060
00:49:04,400 --> 00:49:07,440
Speaker 6: And then we That was the day before we podcasted

1061
00:49:07,480 --> 00:49:11,640
Speaker 6: with Tig, and I know that you you were emotional

1062
00:49:11,719 --> 00:49:15,960
Speaker 6: but didn't know where to put the emotions. And just again, Tig,

1063
00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:21,000
Speaker 6: I hope that we can resurrect that recording. We did,

1064
00:49:21,040 --> 00:49:24,000
Speaker 6: But she was so the things she was saying about

1065
00:49:24,080 --> 00:49:27,480
Speaker 6: her wedding and what it meant to her and the

1066
00:49:27,520 --> 00:49:31,799
Speaker 6: people in her town being so supportive when she thought

1067
00:49:31,840 --> 00:49:32,920
Speaker 6: they were going to be picketing.

1068
00:49:33,480 --> 00:49:37,200
Speaker 5: It was so special and uh, and you.

1069
00:49:37,440 --> 00:49:40,759
Speaker 6: Got emotional and it was very it was such a

1070
00:49:40,760 --> 00:49:44,359
Speaker 6: good podcast and such a good moment and.

1071
00:49:44,680 --> 00:49:48,360
Speaker 4: Well, hopefully we can find it. But if not that

1072
00:49:48,480 --> 00:49:50,640
Speaker 4: it was meant to be, I suppose.

1073
00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:55,520
Speaker 1: What can we do and more great ones to come? Yes, yes,

1074
00:49:55,560 --> 00:49:56,080
Speaker 1: that's what we'll do.

1075
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:59,319
Speaker 4: And you know, ultimately, if we said tig it, you.

1076
00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:00,919
Speaker 1: Know it didn't Cord. She'll do it again.

1077
00:50:01,239 --> 00:50:02,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, I didn't know.

1078
00:50:02,880 --> 00:50:06,480
Speaker 6: During it, she said why haven't you guys asked me yet?

1079
00:50:07,239 --> 00:50:09,280
Speaker 6: And I was like, oh, I didn't think that maybe

1080
00:50:09,320 --> 00:50:12,200
Speaker 6: that would be her stance. I was just happy that

1081
00:50:12,239 --> 00:50:13,920
Speaker 6: she wanted us to pick her up.

1082
00:50:14,320 --> 00:50:16,960
Speaker 5: I know, but I was, and I was glad that

1083
00:50:17,040 --> 00:50:19,080
Speaker 5: I got to I don't know if we record again,

1084
00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:22,880
Speaker 5: I'll be able to say it to us. I'll just

1085
00:50:22,920 --> 00:50:23,879
Speaker 5: repeat it. I sow.

1086
00:50:24,360 --> 00:50:28,160
Speaker 6: It's such a hang up about not having gone to

1087
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:29,720
Speaker 6: her wedding.

1088
00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:31,600
Speaker 5: She invited me, and I didn't.

1089
00:50:31,320 --> 00:50:33,839
Speaker 6: Go because I chose somewhere, and while I was doing

1090
00:50:33,840 --> 00:50:36,560
Speaker 6: the shows, I was like, oh my god, I just

1091
00:50:36,640 --> 00:50:38,000
Speaker 6: made a really big mistake.

1092
00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:39,239
Speaker 5: I should have been there.

1093
00:50:39,239 --> 00:50:42,440
Speaker 6: It was important, and I didn't go because of money

1094
00:50:42,520 --> 00:50:43,759
Speaker 6: and because of.

1095
00:50:43,760 --> 00:50:46,920
Speaker 5: Shows that I had, And I was glad I was

1096
00:50:46,960 --> 00:50:47,399
Speaker 5: able to.

1097
00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:53,080
Speaker 6: Apologize to her personally, so she already heard it, so

1098
00:50:53,160 --> 00:50:56,000
Speaker 6: now I'm I guess re stating it.

1099
00:50:56,200 --> 00:50:58,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, also a thing like that too.

1100
00:50:58,440 --> 00:51:01,920
Speaker 4: I think those are those kinds of decision you can't know,

1101
00:51:02,840 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 4: like now you know that, now you know when you're

1102
00:51:06,120 --> 00:51:08,640
Speaker 4: worried about money, your you know, life is the way

1103
00:51:08,680 --> 00:51:11,239
Speaker 4: it is where you have to cover, you have to

1104
00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:14,239
Speaker 4: cover yourself and you have to earn, and when you

1105
00:51:14,280 --> 00:51:17,160
Speaker 4: come up with these decisions like that, you're turned right,

1106
00:51:17,200 --> 00:51:20,680
Speaker 4: You're think, I think when you're coming up with decisions

1107
00:51:20,719 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 4: like that, basically you're just trying to do the thing

1108
00:51:24,680 --> 00:51:27,880
Speaker 4: that you have to do right. And so that lesson

1109
00:51:27,880 --> 00:51:29,279
Speaker 4: even though I know it was really hard for you

1110
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Speaker 4: to go through and a huge regret. Also, it's like, well,

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Speaker 4: now you know, like you, I wouldn't beat yourself up

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Speaker 4: any more than you already have for that because now

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Speaker 4: you know, I.

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Speaker 1: Mean like it was.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 6: I think it was a combination of having that regret

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00:51:43,640 --> 00:51:46,520
Speaker 6: and then shortly after being a my friend's memorial, when

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00:51:46,560 --> 00:51:49,080
Speaker 6: I knew other people weren't going to my friend's ex

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00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:51,919
Speaker 6: memorial because they have they're like, oh, I don't like death,

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Speaker 6: O don't like funerals.

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00:51:52,840 --> 00:51:54,879
Speaker 5: Yeah, no one does. You just go.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: And then when I was there, I'm like, oh my god,

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00:51:57,160 --> 00:52:00,920
Speaker 5: it's so important that we're all here. And like you said,

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Speaker 5: it was a great time.

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00:52:03,200 --> 00:52:05,960
Speaker 6: It was everyone together having a great time and laughing

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00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:09,800
Speaker 6: and having a party. Yeah, and that's it's so important

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Speaker 6: to go those things. And I yes, I learned a lesson.

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Speaker 5: I will. I will be at your wedding and your funeral.

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Speaker 1: Karen, thank you well.

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Speaker 4: Also, here's another lesson I learned that I don't think

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Speaker 4: you can know until you have a loss, like this

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Speaker 4: is you if someone died.

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Speaker 1: That's like a friend of yours, family member died and

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00:52:30,640 --> 00:52:31,719
Speaker 1: you don't know what to say.

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00:52:32,640 --> 00:52:34,759
Speaker 4: It doesn't matter. You can call them and say I

1137
00:52:34,800 --> 00:52:36,279
Speaker 4: don't know what to say, I'm thinking of you.

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00:52:36,560 --> 00:52:36,840
Speaker 5: Yeah.

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00:52:36,880 --> 00:52:39,680
Speaker 4: Any way you extend yourself to people when they're in

1140
00:52:39,719 --> 00:52:43,160
Speaker 4: that situation is the perfect thing to say, Like, don't

1141
00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:45,920
Speaker 4: get caught up in being like a weird perfectionist. It's

1142
00:52:45,960 --> 00:52:49,080
Speaker 4: not about your message. It's about letting the person know

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00:52:49,120 --> 00:52:51,680
Speaker 4: that you're thinking about them. Because I got so many

1144
00:52:52,000 --> 00:52:55,520
Speaker 4: lovely messages, like, I was kind of hesitated putting it

1145
00:52:55,560 --> 00:52:57,560
Speaker 4: on Twitter. I didn't want to be like, I didn't

1146
00:52:57,600 --> 00:53:00,000
Speaker 4: want to seem like I was somehow trying to get sympathy.

1147
00:53:00,239 --> 00:53:03,640
Speaker 4: I just wanted I wanted to raise money for Alzheimer's

1148
00:53:03,680 --> 00:53:06,080
Speaker 4: by posting it, right, and to.

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00:53:06,239 --> 00:53:09,239
Speaker 5: Me to do show Alzheimer's show is, Karen, how do

1150
00:53:09,320 --> 00:53:09,600
Speaker 5: we do?

1151
00:53:10,000 --> 00:53:11,319
Speaker 1: I don't know. Yeah we can.

1152
00:53:14,160 --> 00:53:16,879
Speaker 4: I mean I don't know about him, but I think

1153
00:53:16,920 --> 00:53:17,719
Speaker 4: we can do it. Well.

1154
00:53:17,760 --> 00:53:20,080
Speaker 5: He had does all these comedy for Alzheimer's.

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00:53:20,200 --> 00:53:23,120
Speaker 1: I know it's already a thing, but yeah, but I

1156
00:53:23,160 --> 00:53:24,759
Speaker 1: mean he's not does he even do stand up?

1157
00:53:25,600 --> 00:53:27,759
Speaker 5: I don't know what he does. I think a little bit.

1158
00:53:27,800 --> 00:53:29,120
Speaker 5: I'm sure he has some jokes.

1159
00:53:29,280 --> 00:53:31,560
Speaker 1: I'm sure we could figure something out to do a benefit.

1160
00:53:31,719 --> 00:53:33,080
Speaker 5: I want to Let's do it.

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00:53:33,160 --> 00:53:33,680
Speaker 1: Let's do it.

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00:53:33,680 --> 00:53:35,600
Speaker 5: It's important, it's very important.

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00:53:35,680 --> 00:53:38,000
Speaker 6: And yes, say even if it's going to come out

1164
00:53:38,040 --> 00:53:40,720
Speaker 6: awkward and make people feel weird, say something.

1165
00:53:41,760 --> 00:53:43,280
Speaker 1: You can just tell people you love them.

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00:53:43,360 --> 00:53:44,000
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1167
00:53:44,040 --> 00:53:46,879
Speaker 6: And friends of mine that lost their parents in high

1168
00:53:46,880 --> 00:53:48,680
Speaker 6: school when you're a kid and you really don't know

1169
00:53:48,719 --> 00:53:52,239
Speaker 6: what to say. Later in life, I've said like, hey,

1170
00:53:52,239 --> 00:53:55,040
Speaker 6: I'm sorry I never said anything to you, and then

1171
00:53:55,080 --> 00:53:58,399
Speaker 6: they're like, thank you, I noticed that you didn't say anything.

1172
00:53:58,120 --> 00:53:58,799
Speaker 5: To me, right.

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00:53:58,920 --> 00:53:59,120
Speaker 3: Yeah.

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00:53:59,120 --> 00:54:02,000
Speaker 6: I even remember avoiding friends because I didn't know what

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00:54:02,080 --> 00:54:05,200
Speaker 6: to say. So instead, in high school they get shunned

1176
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:08,360
Speaker 6: and avoided because they've lost their mom. Yes, that's awful,

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00:54:08,520 --> 00:54:12,440
Speaker 6: it is, so say it and say it awkward and

1178
00:54:12,920 --> 00:54:14,080
Speaker 6: because it's not about.

1179
00:54:13,840 --> 00:54:17,000
Speaker 4: You, it's not about you, and and you don't know

1180
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:21,080
Speaker 4: how strangely helpful it could be when you even if

1181
00:54:21,080 --> 00:54:23,400
Speaker 4: you don't. Like a couple friends who weren't talking to

1182
00:54:23,400 --> 00:54:25,680
Speaker 4: me about death, they were just texting me a lot

1183
00:54:25,719 --> 00:54:27,200
Speaker 4: more than they normally would.

1184
00:54:27,440 --> 00:54:28,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I could just tell.

1185
00:54:28,400 --> 00:54:31,480
Speaker 4: It was just purely of like, here's something so you

1186
00:54:31,520 --> 00:54:33,840
Speaker 4: don't have to think about or be in a bad place.

1187
00:54:33,880 --> 00:54:36,319
Speaker 1: And I just it's it's lovely.

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00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:39,520
Speaker 4: And it's it made me realize how few times I

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00:54:40,000 --> 00:54:42,200
Speaker 4: hope to be like that more in the future, is

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00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:43,319
Speaker 4: basically my point.

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00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:44,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, because it's.

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00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:47,759
Speaker 5: Uh, I'm going to be. Also, let's make a deal.

1193
00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:50,960
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, well, I mean also, that's just like experience.

1194
00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:51,960
Speaker 1: That's life experience.

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00:54:52,000 --> 00:54:54,759
Speaker 4: That's just growing up essentially, which we haven't had to

1196
00:54:54,800 --> 00:54:58,400
Speaker 4: do that much of because of our our specific life choices.

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00:54:58,560 --> 00:55:01,520
Speaker 5: Yes, the calm and the drinking and.

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00:55:01,480 --> 00:55:05,000
Speaker 1: The driving, the driving and the hats.

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Speaker 6: Like a kid, I don't have time to grow up.

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00:55:07,160 --> 00:55:08,880
Speaker 6: I got road trips, I got.

1201
00:55:08,920 --> 00:55:12,359
Speaker 1: I gotta smoke cigarettes in an alley. Yeah, that's my thing.

1202
00:55:13,640 --> 00:55:17,759
Speaker 5: Oh, I'm we're here at a Pearl Richardson's. You're going

1203
00:55:17,840 --> 00:55:18,759
Speaker 5: to go eat with her? Right?

1204
00:55:18,920 --> 00:55:19,680
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1205
00:55:19,880 --> 00:55:22,399
Speaker 6: Yeah, I'm going to go to the improv. I'm glad

1206
00:55:22,440 --> 00:55:24,000
Speaker 6: that we did another episode. I think it was a

1207
00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 6: good one. I'm going to try and doctor that one

1208
00:55:27,680 --> 00:55:32,200
Speaker 6: out of that missing I will see and what if.

1209
00:55:32,040 --> 00:55:33,600
Speaker 1: You find other missing episodes?

1210
00:55:33,680 --> 00:55:37,040
Speaker 5: Oh with other people that we don't even know ghost casts?

1211
00:55:37,120 --> 00:55:39,919
Speaker 1: Oh my god, it's Richard Pryor is on here.

1212
00:55:42,880 --> 00:55:45,480
Speaker 5: Thank you, we're back. Thank you for listening.

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00:55:45,560 --> 00:55:47,920
Speaker 1: Thank you for tweeting and saying you missed us.

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00:55:47,920 --> 00:55:51,760
Speaker 5: It's very lovely, very sweet, even though it made me nervous,

1215
00:55:51,800 --> 00:55:54,480
Speaker 5: but I needed to hear it. Thank you for complaining

1216
00:55:54,680 --> 00:55:56,400
Speaker 5: because it means you like the podcast.

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00:55:56,600 --> 00:55:59,680
Speaker 6: Yeah, good to iTunes and do rate it. I guess

1218
00:55:59,680 --> 00:56:01,040
Speaker 6: that's an important And.

1219
00:56:01,280 --> 00:56:03,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, rating it and subscribing is.

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00:56:03,080 --> 00:56:06,399
Speaker 4: Yes or yes yes if you yes please and recommending

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00:56:06,520 --> 00:56:07,719
Speaker 4: yes yeah.

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Speaker 6: Tell your friends, you know when you're in those podcast

1223
00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:17,600
Speaker 6: conversations that people have mine uh names Chris.

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00:56:17,600 --> 00:56:20,640
Speaker 4: Oh, and I also started another podcast with Georgia hartstart

1225
00:56:20,760 --> 00:56:21,080
Speaker 4: that one.

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00:56:21,120 --> 00:56:23,120
Speaker 1: We started it called My Favorite.

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00:56:22,840 --> 00:56:24,160
Speaker 5: Murder, My Favorite Murder.

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00:56:24,239 --> 00:56:27,279
Speaker 4: It's on Farrell Audio. My Favorite Murder. It's just me

1229
00:56:27,560 --> 00:56:30,359
Speaker 4: and my friend Georgia talking about murders. That sounds great,

1230
00:56:30,640 --> 00:56:31,319
Speaker 4: it's pretty fun.

1231
00:56:31,920 --> 00:56:33,920
Speaker 5: So listen to that. Thank you for listening to Do

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00:56:34,000 --> 00:56:36,480
Speaker 5: you need a ride? D Y n A?

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00:56:40,160 --> 00:56:43,479
Speaker 1: I leave then I want to way back.

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00:56:44,239 --> 00:56:49,399
Speaker 2: Either way we want to be there. Doesn't matter how

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00:56:49,480 --> 00:56:55,520
Speaker 2: much baggage you give us. Time and day German, I'll engage.

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00:56:56,440 --> 00:56:58,600
Speaker 1: We want to send you us in.

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00:57:00,400 --> 00:57:02,720
Speaker 2: Leanna, welcome you back home.

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00:57:04,520 --> 00:57:06,880
Speaker 4: Tell us all about every scared her?

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00:57:07,080 --> 00:57:07,840
Speaker 1: Was it fine?

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00:57:09,800 --> 00:57:09,960
Speaker 6: Now?

1241
00:57:10,120 --> 00:57:29,720
Speaker 1: Porn? Do you need to ride? Do you need to ride?

1242
00:57:30,360 --> 00:57:33,600
Speaker 1: Do you need to ride? Do you need to ride?

1243
00:57:34,280 --> 00:57:38,480
Speaker 1: Do you need to ride? Do you need ride? Do

1244
00:57:38,520 --> 00:57:40,919
Speaker 1: you need to ride? Do you need

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Speaker 5: With Karen and Chris