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Speaker 1: I feel righteously recycled. That's how I feel righteously recycled.

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Speaker 1: I feel like Camden is going to be righteously recycled.

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Speaker 1: What do I mean by righteous recycling? Something like taking

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Speaker 1: something old that people looked at as trash and recycling

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Speaker 1: important to the community and to the environment. I felt

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Speaker 1: like trash that was recycled into something new. And that's

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Speaker 1: the same thing I believe and feel about Camp Whoo.

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Speaker 2: This episode of IRL podcast is powered by boost Mobile.

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Speaker 3: My guest today on IRL is known.

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Speaker 2: For too many unforgettable roles to run down right now,

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Speaker 2: but like why did I get married? Empire atl couples therapy,

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Speaker 2: and then she of course has gone on powerfully into directing.

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Speaker 2: Be a methpe Valley Belair, Mayor of Kingstown. She is

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Speaker 2: a woman of faith. She is a survivor of addiction,

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Speaker 2: the founder of TSAW, which is her acting workshop that

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Speaker 2: has empowered hundreds of black performers.

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Speaker 3: Most recently, she's been.

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Speaker 4: In Bad Boys and The Deliveries, and she bodied her

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Speaker 4: role in Survival of the Thickest from Camden, New Jersey.

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Speaker 4: Welcome my friend, actress, director producer teacher Tasha Smith is

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Speaker 4: in the buildings today.

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Speaker 3: Sasha, that's just a love piece.

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Speaker 1: I mean, good about myself, Okay, you feel good about

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Speaker 1: yourself every day.

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Speaker 3: It's such a testimony.

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Speaker 1: Like Honestly, anytime I get a chance to hear anyone

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Speaker 1: because it really is a reflection of God's.

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Speaker 3: Love and grace and promise in my life.

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Speaker 1: Like I always go back to that time I was

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Speaker 3: Be in your car. It was a little gray Ford escort.

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Speaker 1: It reminds me though ange Like seriously, at that time, right,

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Speaker 1: I was ready to go back to Camden, but I said,

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Speaker 1: exact dream the dream? Girl was being an actress. It

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Speaker 1: wasn't even being a director. It was being an actress.

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Speaker 1: It was being a stand up comic because at the

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Speaker 3: But acting comedy.

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Speaker 1: Was my dream. It was like my dream. But I

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Speaker 1: didn't have education. I had never gone to school. You know,

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Speaker 1: I have so many questions about all of that out

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Speaker 1: of the gates. And I know you've told some of

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Speaker 2: In your life, but like when you really think about

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Speaker 2: the moment you say I'm going to go to Los Angeles?

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Speaker 2: And why do you even think that you could? Like

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Speaker 2: who put it in you? Who's like the first somebody

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Speaker 2: believe in you? Did you believe in yourself? Like what

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Speaker 3: That's a wonderful question that sent you. That's a wonderful question.

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Speaker 1: Well, at the time, like I was, you know, trying

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Speaker 1: But I always had the dream to be an actress.

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Speaker 1: Like sixteen, I was hanging out at this bar. There

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Speaker 3: I just actually talked to her not too long ago.

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Speaker 3: I was like, do you remember me? I would be

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Speaker 1: She remembers, well, I would be in there getting high

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Speaker 3: No, I was like fifteen. I mean I started at

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Speaker 1: But it was Tisha Campbell, honestly that I meant in

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Speaker 3: He was a concierge for the Temptations.

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Speaker 1: But Tisha was like almost like I could see the

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Speaker 2: The thing about that said so dope about that is

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Speaker 2: it's somebody else's testimony. It's not like she did something

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Speaker 2: Really, I believe that when did that happen for you?

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Speaker 2: When did you find like when was that little seed planted?

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Speaker 1: I had that dream probably at about eight years old,

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Speaker 3: So you believe that that is a seed that was planned.

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Speaker 3: I do believe that. Yes, you have watered this shit

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Speaker 1: Yeah, all the time, and that's why, you know, sis,

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Speaker 2: Toks so surprised you would be nervous, I am.

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Speaker 1: I'm nervous because you know why, because I don't take

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Speaker 3: And inspire people.

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Speaker 1: Like when you think about what's happening in the world

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Speaker 3: Right People are suffering, people are afraid.

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Speaker 1: People don't know what the future looks like, and to

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Speaker 3: Tell me this process? Okay?

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Speaker 1: So what the process of meditation? I got not tell

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Speaker 1: What is it? It's a prayer? And you know, I'm

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Speaker 3: Okay, but no, in the morning, like I'll just be quiet.

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Speaker 1: I'll pray. Sometimes I'll pray in tongues. I don't know

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Speaker 1: I pray in tongues. Like when I got born again

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Speaker 2: Can you because I have never had that experience. Okay,

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Speaker 1: that this is a scripture that you build up your

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Speaker 1: like maybe a Buddhist, you know, doing their chanting, right,

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Speaker 3: You don't know what you're saying. But as you're praying,

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Speaker 1: It's something that you can accept and allow God to

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Speaker 1: And I want to go back to your meditation list? Okay, Okay,

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Speaker 1: Yes, I do believe. I believe it's with all of

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Speaker 1: it's up to us to be able to utilize those gifts,

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Speaker 1: to nurture those gifts, like you said, to water those gifts.

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Speaker 5: Right.

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Speaker 1: But when you think about you, with what you've been doing,

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Speaker 1: doing your radio show, doing your podcast, it's a gift.

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Speaker 3: That we go. We let go and we let God

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Speaker 2: Everybody and whatever your purpose is in life. Yes, I

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Speaker 2: takes different people different times to get to it.

442
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Speaker 1: But to insert it into my life, yeah, I have minimal.

443
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Speaker 1: I have medical yes to the patients. Yeah, because we're

444
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Speaker 1: trying to get better. And when you think about awareness,

445
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Speaker 1: awareness is also a mirror and a window. So if

446
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Speaker 1: you think about it being a mirror and a window,

447
00:23:27,359 --> 00:23:30,800
Speaker 1: if I have the right level of awareness, I'm looking

448
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Speaker 1: at myself and I'm seeing myself for everything that I

449
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Speaker 1: need to see.

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Speaker 3: It's a mirror, but then it can be a window

451
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Speaker 3: cyst into all the possibilities of what God's plan is

452
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Speaker 3: for you, that window of your dream, that window of

453
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Speaker 3: your purpose, that window of like all that could happen

454
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Speaker 3: in your life and the possibilities of everything you could have. Hey,

455
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Speaker 3: guys is Angie, thank you so much for watching the

456
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Speaker 3: pod today. We appreciate you. I can I believe summer

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Speaker 3: is over.

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Speaker 2: We are in a new season, and for me that

459
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Speaker 2: means doing some updating in my house when the season changes.

460
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Speaker 2: I like to do something fresh, even if it's something small.

461
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Speaker 2: I was just saying recently, I just changed some of

462
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Speaker 2: the doorknobs in my home and that makes a really

463
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Speaker 2: big difference in the house.

464
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Speaker 3: But also like storing things.

465
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Speaker 2: From last season that you're not gonna wear, that stuff

466
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Speaker 2: up your closet. They have great bins of all sizes

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Speaker 2: at Wayfair. I'll get some bins that put stuff under

468
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Speaker 2: the belt. I get some bins to just pack up

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Speaker 2: seasonal clothes that I know I'm not gonna wear for

470
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Speaker 2: a long time. Very easy stuff to get at Wayfair. Also,

471
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Speaker 2: my son just went away to college. We got a

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Speaker 2: lot of stuff for packing and storage there. And also

473
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Speaker 2: I bought a few things to refresh the room so

474
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Speaker 2: I could use it while he's gone.

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Speaker 3: It's a little kind of place for me, so I

476
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Speaker 3: got a new rug in there. It looks great.

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Speaker 2: So yeah, Wayfair is great for all of those type

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Speaker 2: of things, and they have something for every room.

479
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Speaker 3: They have something for every budget.

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Speaker 2: Get organized, refreshed, and back to routine whatever your routine is.

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Speaker 2: Fair dot com right now and shop all things home

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Speaker 3: Style, every home.

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Speaker 1: Tasha Smith, why are you not a preacher? Because I

487
00:25:12,359 --> 00:25:15,639
Speaker 1: trusted too much, I cussed too much. I like to

488
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Speaker 1: do shocks.

489
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Speaker 3: Every now and then.

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Speaker 1: No, it was I was like if I if I

491
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Speaker 1: was a brazier, if I had a church, we'd be

492
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Speaker 1: having communion all day, every day, and I might be

493
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Speaker 1: in the pulpit saying, y'all motherfuckers is crazy, but you do,

494
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Speaker 1: like get the word, you know how to give.

495
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Speaker 3: Away with you not what and you know what? And

496
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Speaker 3: sometimes I just can't help myself.

497
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Speaker 1: But thank God that the gifts and calling of God

498
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Speaker 1: is without repentance, that he didn't take away that passion

499
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Speaker 1: and that love for people.

500
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Speaker 3: But I'm not meant to be in the church like that.

501
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Speaker 1: Yes, I'm just not, like I'm really not. When I

502
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Speaker 1: leave here, I'm going out with morel and Bevy and

503
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Speaker 1: we're gonna have some drinks. No sound good old time

504
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Speaker 1: andy Ry, We gonna no but no, but for real,

505
00:26:00,440 --> 00:26:03,199
Speaker 1: for real. But I feel like God can use me

506
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Speaker 1: like this. How about that? So I want to go

507
00:26:06,080 --> 00:26:08,199
Speaker 1: Zimmo on the list. That's a whole lot. So I

508
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:09,399
Speaker 1: want to go down. So I want to go we

509
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Speaker 1: can get back to the.

510
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Speaker 2: But as of awareness, what have you what have you

511
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Speaker 2: become aware of about yourself?

512
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Speaker 3: What's the most recent thing that you've become aware of?

513
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Speaker 1: Oh, my god, Sis, there are so many things.

514
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Speaker 3: I'll tell you.

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Speaker 1: One thing I deeply have been aware of that I

516
00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:39,720
Speaker 1: did not understand love. I didn't understand love, like when

517
00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:48,200
Speaker 1: you grow up with this distorted view of love. Because

518
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Speaker 1: when you grow up, the people you first meet, whether

519
00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:58,280
Speaker 1: it's your mother, your sister's, your environment, your community, right,

520
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:05,439
Speaker 1: you learn love, whether it's an unhealthy love or whether

521
00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:08,919
Speaker 1: it's a very healthy love. But I didn't have a

522
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:13,480
Speaker 1: healthy love growing up, which gave me a distorted idea

523
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Speaker 1: of what love was. So I found myself like on

524
00:27:17,840 --> 00:27:25,480
Speaker 1: this like hamster will of dysfunction and dysfunctional relationships, attracting

525
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:30,720
Speaker 1: dysfunction all the time because I felt like this was love.

526
00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:35,359
Speaker 1: I thought love was abusive, love was jealous, you know

527
00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:39,760
Speaker 1: what I mean? Love was that because like when you're

528
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Speaker 1: a child or when you're a young person and someone

529
00:27:43,720 --> 00:27:46,840
Speaker 1: says that they love you, but then they smack the

530
00:27:46,920 --> 00:27:50,120
Speaker 1: shit out of you, then you're thinking, well, maybe this

531
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Speaker 1: is what love is. Or someone says I love you

532
00:27:53,640 --> 00:27:57,440
Speaker 1: but you ain't shit. Then you're thinking, well, I guess

533
00:27:57,480 --> 00:27:59,159
Speaker 1: you're saying that because you love me.

534
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:03,400
Speaker 3: Then you have this real confused idea of what love is.

535
00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:09,399
Speaker 1: So you find yourself attracting a lot of dysfunctional relationships

536
00:28:09,720 --> 00:28:14,840
Speaker 1: and dysfunctional ideas of love, and as an adult at.

537
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Speaker 3: Fifty four years old.

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Speaker 1: I'm realizing I never really experienced true love that was

539
00:28:22,960 --> 00:28:27,879
Speaker 1: not full of abuse, that was not full of manipulation,

540
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Speaker 1: you know what I mean.

541
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Speaker 3: And I'm really sis.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I have friends that I believe love me,

543
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Speaker 1: but I got to tell you, like I have had

544
00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:42,640
Speaker 1: even insecurities and fear. Even when it comes to friendship,

545
00:28:43,000 --> 00:28:46,040
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm walking on eggshells sometimes, you know,

546
00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:48,480
Speaker 1: I feel like I could say the wrong thing that

547
00:28:48,560 --> 00:28:50,560
Speaker 1: could blow them up, or that could make them not

548
00:28:50,600 --> 00:28:52,960
Speaker 1: talk to me. You know what I mean, don't trust it.

549
00:28:52,960 --> 00:28:56,440
Speaker 1: It's like it's because love has been so unstable, you

550
00:28:56,480 --> 00:28:58,360
Speaker 1: know what I mean is that we're in my life

551
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Speaker 1: of that like what I don't I know some of

552
00:29:00,560 --> 00:29:03,280
Speaker 1: your family, but not yes, I mean I would just

553
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Speaker 1: say the root of just how I was raised and

554
00:29:06,280 --> 00:29:09,320
Speaker 1: you know, just you know, fighting a lot, you know,

555
00:29:09,440 --> 00:29:10,080
Speaker 1: as a kid.

556
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Speaker 3: It's some things that's so deeply personal. I don't know if.

557
00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:15,520
Speaker 1: It'd be totally if appropriate to talk about right now,

558
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:16,800
Speaker 1: but that's fine, you know.

559
00:29:16,960 --> 00:29:21,400
Speaker 3: But it's a lot has to do with my preteen.

560
00:29:22,600 --> 00:29:26,880
Speaker 1: You know, or like my you know, probably from eight

561
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Speaker 1: to probably twenty one, twenty two, maybe twenty five. You

562
00:29:31,200 --> 00:29:35,040
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, like just dysfunction and trying to

563
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Speaker 1: get out of the cycle of dysfunction, and trying to

564
00:29:38,640 --> 00:29:42,880
Speaker 1: get out of the cycle of dysfunctional relationships, like trying

565
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:46,680
Speaker 1: to attract healthier people in my life so I can

566
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Speaker 1: have more healthy forms of love in my life.

567
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Speaker 2: I love that you found that awareness though, yeah, cares

568
00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:53,080
Speaker 2: what age it happens.

569
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Speaker 3: Yeah, trying to find that.

570
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Speaker 2: But when you think about like you you know, you

571
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Speaker 2: kind of laugh and you joke about the time being

572
00:29:58,640 --> 00:30:01,920
Speaker 2: fourteen years old, We're going to slay doing cocaine, Like

573
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Speaker 2: what is it even that's you were a baby, you

574
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Speaker 2: know what I mean, somebody, somebody's supposed to be loving

575
00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:13,640
Speaker 2: on you, protecting you, and being fourteen years old, being

576
00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:18,240
Speaker 2: in that space and you were either trying to find

577
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Speaker 2: something or cover something or I.

578
00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:22,920
Speaker 3: Was like, what do you think what that was? I

579
00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:24,440
Speaker 3: was trying to find love.

580
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Speaker 1: I was trying to find like a purpose, a place

581
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Speaker 1: for myself. And then before you and then I was

582
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Speaker 1: just really surviving. Cis like I was like in full

583
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Speaker 1: survival gives a child that young drugs?

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Speaker 3: Honey.

585
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Speaker 1: It was in the community, you know, Like I'm from Camden,

586
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Speaker 1: New Jersey like, she's like, baby the corner up the block,

587
00:30:51,720 --> 00:30:55,160
Speaker 1: serious chos store. I feel like I know I know

588
00:30:55,240 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 1: better than that, right, But it's when you think about that,

589
00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:04,040
Speaker 1: but sis, it was intentional because Camden was like in

590
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Speaker 1: a place, a small city that was probably looked at

591
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Speaker 1: like a junkyard. Like not too long ago, my friend

592
00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:16,600
Speaker 1: who is the mayor of Camden, we were talking about

593
00:31:16,640 --> 00:31:21,240
Speaker 1: the fact that Camden was like a dump site to

594
00:31:21,520 --> 00:31:25,480
Speaker 1: construction workers that lived out, that worked outside of the community.

595
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:29,840
Speaker 1: People would come into Camden, New Jersey and dump in

596
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Speaker 1: the middle of the night and they would dump piles

597
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Speaker 1: of trash on people's streets. People would wake up in

598
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Speaker 1: the morning and they would see piles of trash in.

599
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Speaker 3: Front of their homes.

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00:31:43,800 --> 00:31:47,160
Speaker 1: Think about the construction sites that you see and they're like,

601
00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:49,480
Speaker 1: where should we dump this shit?

602
00:31:49,840 --> 00:31:51,120
Speaker 3: And they say, we know.

603
00:31:51,760 --> 00:31:56,520
Speaker 1: Camden because they looked at it as such a small crime,

604
00:31:57,280 --> 00:32:01,120
Speaker 1: you know, community right where they didn't give a fuck

605
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:04,320
Speaker 1: about the people in Camden, so they would go dump

606
00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:05,760
Speaker 1: trash in Camden.

607
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:08,200
Speaker 3: What else did they dump in Camden?

608
00:32:08,680 --> 00:32:12,160
Speaker 1: They dumped bad food in Camden, they dumped drugs in Camden.

609
00:32:12,400 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 1: They dumped a bunch of liquor stores in Camden, I

610
00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:19,800
Speaker 1: promise you when people first started testing crack, I'm sure

611
00:32:20,200 --> 00:32:23,640
Speaker 1: they gave it to some niggas in Camden and said here.

612
00:32:23,680 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 1: And because of the systemic issue that we had to

613
00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:29,880
Speaker 1: deal with in Camden, because of these young, brilliant minds

614
00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:33,840
Speaker 1: that weren't able to get opportunity and jobs and all

615
00:32:33,880 --> 00:32:34,720
Speaker 1: of that shit.

616
00:32:34,680 --> 00:32:36,720
Speaker 3: They were in survival mode.

617
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:40,400
Speaker 1: So guess what they started doing, hustling dope and guests

618
00:32:40,400 --> 00:32:44,240
Speaker 1: who started doing it, the people in the community. And

619
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Speaker 1: guess who some of those people were, Me, my mother,

620
00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:49,080
Speaker 1: some of the friends I.

621
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Speaker 3: Grew up with.

622
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Speaker 1: That's what we had access to. That's how we communed

623
00:32:54,800 --> 00:33:00,600
Speaker 1: and fellowshipped. We fellowshipped over a line of cocaine and

624
00:33:00,680 --> 00:33:04,200
Speaker 1: some naughty had gin. Okay, That's how we got down

625
00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:08,640
Speaker 1: in Camden. And so it was easy access. It was

626
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:11,200
Speaker 1: easy to get it. But oh, goe ahead and tell

627
00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:13,040
Speaker 1: me when did you when did you feel like that

628
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Speaker 1: was a problem?

629
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Speaker 3: When yeah, like, what moment did you because you said

630
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Speaker 3: you was fine.

631
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Speaker 2: We were a Fellowshit, it was fourteen you probably you

632
00:33:19,400 --> 00:33:20,920
Speaker 2: were young or teenagers.

633
00:33:20,440 --> 00:33:21,080
Speaker 3: Whatever it is.

634
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Speaker 1: Oh, I was about twenty five sisters, reliness like at

635
00:33:24,560 --> 00:33:27,800
Speaker 1: twenty five was when I got born again and I

636
00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:29,000
Speaker 1: stopped doing drugs.

637
00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:31,920
Speaker 3: I literally stopped doing cocaine, So that's fine.

638
00:33:32,360 --> 00:33:34,920
Speaker 1: I was getting high from fourteen to twenty five and

639
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Speaker 1: I didn't see nothing wrong with it until I was twenty.

640
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Speaker 3: Five years old.

641
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Speaker 5: Wow.

642
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Speaker 1: Literally I didn't think it was a problem. I thought

643
00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:45,680
Speaker 1: it was the way that I was coping. And honestly,

644
00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:48,480
Speaker 1: the dope dealers I loved and they loved me, and

645
00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:51,400
Speaker 1: so you know, it was it was family, you know

646
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:54,000
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And do you think that that's part

647
00:33:54,040 --> 00:33:56,400
Speaker 1: of why? Because when I think about that, you said

648
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Speaker 1: a dope dealers loved you. Right, you have an ability

649
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,680
Speaker 1: to connect with people when people see you, especially even

650
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Speaker 1: even in character.

651
00:34:04,480 --> 00:34:05,600
Speaker 3: Even in some of your roles.

652
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Speaker 1: I wonder if those experiences helped you to kind of

653
00:34:11,120 --> 00:34:13,120
Speaker 1: connect with people in the way that you do now

654
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Speaker 1: one hundred per You know what I'm saying, one hundred percent.

655
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Speaker 1: That's why I always will rep Camden, New Jersey because

656
00:34:22,560 --> 00:34:26,439
Speaker 1: I learned so much about life in camp like from

657
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Speaker 1: being from Camden. I mean, people are funny and Camden strong,

658
00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:33,640
Speaker 1: don't don't take no shit, you know things, and it's

659
00:34:34,080 --> 00:34:37,960
Speaker 1: authenticity that's in Camden. And I want to say something

660
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Speaker 1: because I thought about this, and this is how I

661
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Speaker 1: feel right coming from Camden, a place that I feel

662
00:34:45,719 --> 00:34:47,720
Speaker 1: people looked at as trash.

663
00:34:47,960 --> 00:34:50,600
Speaker 3: Like people used to say that makes me said, yes,

664
00:34:51,560 --> 00:34:53,319
Speaker 3: I believe you. You know you think about it.

665
00:34:53,360 --> 00:34:55,360
Speaker 1: People used to talk about Camden be and one of

666
00:34:55,400 --> 00:35:00,600
Speaker 1: the highest crime cities. You know in America. There were

667
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:04,319
Speaker 1: more murders in Camden, more dope dealers in Camden, more

668
00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:07,880
Speaker 1: poverty in Camden, and it was a place that looked

669
00:35:07,960 --> 00:35:11,840
Speaker 1: like nothing but trash. But I believe, and this is

670
00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:19,720
Speaker 1: how I feel about myself. I feel righteously recycled. That's

671
00:35:19,719 --> 00:35:25,160
Speaker 1: how I feel, righteously recycled. I feel like Camden is

672
00:35:25,239 --> 00:35:28,120
Speaker 1: going to be righteously recycled.

673
00:35:28,120 --> 00:35:29,600
Speaker 3: What do I mean by.

674
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:37,560
Speaker 1: By righteous recycling? Something like taking something old that people

675
00:35:37,680 --> 00:35:43,160
Speaker 1: looked at as trash and recycling it into something brand

676
00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:49,600
Speaker 1: new and something usable and something important to the community

677
00:35:49,840 --> 00:35:53,840
Speaker 1: and to the environment. I felt like trash that was

678
00:35:53,960 --> 00:35:57,839
Speaker 1: recycled into something new. And that's the same thing I

679
00:35:57,880 --> 00:35:59,280
Speaker 1: believe and feel about Campton.

680
00:35:59,320 --> 00:36:03,239
Speaker 3: Who I hear that says I swear I do, no

681
00:36:03,360 --> 00:36:03,640
Speaker 3: I do.

682
00:36:04,120 --> 00:36:06,279
Speaker 2: What do you say to somebody, because not when you're

683
00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:08,759
Speaker 2: telling your story, I'm thinking, Wow, what a beautiful story

684
00:36:08,800 --> 00:36:13,560
Speaker 2: you've made it out this. I don't know inspiration to

685
00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:16,040
Speaker 2: people who are in similar situations, but I think about

686
00:36:16,560 --> 00:36:20,600
Speaker 2: for every one of you that gets recycled in this way, yes,

687
00:36:21,160 --> 00:36:23,200
Speaker 2: how many people didn't make.

688
00:36:23,120 --> 00:36:24,200
Speaker 3: It out of that situation.

689
00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:27,520
Speaker 1: I think about all the things that went wrong in

690
00:36:27,560 --> 00:36:30,600
Speaker 1: people's lives that didn't at twenty five make them want

691
00:36:30,640 --> 00:36:33,240
Speaker 1: to stop what they've been doing since they're fourteen.

692
00:36:33,680 --> 00:36:34,560
Speaker 3: What do you think?

693
00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:37,279
Speaker 2: What do you say to somebody who hasn't made it

694
00:36:37,320 --> 00:36:38,560
Speaker 2: to the other side yet.

695
00:36:38,400 --> 00:36:42,960
Speaker 1: It's never too late, Like, it really isn't too late

696
00:36:43,360 --> 00:36:47,040
Speaker 1: to me. As long as we have breath and as

697
00:36:47,080 --> 00:36:50,520
Speaker 1: long as we have ability, it's not too late.

698
00:36:50,600 --> 00:36:52,240
Speaker 3: Sis, it really isn't.

699
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:55,120
Speaker 1: Like I remember back in the day when I would

700
00:36:55,120 --> 00:36:59,120
Speaker 1: go and teach in Atlanta, like acting classes, right because

701
00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:03,040
Speaker 1: there was so much production coming into Atlanta. And I

702
00:37:03,120 --> 00:37:06,960
Speaker 1: remember people would come in, older women, younger people, you know,

703
00:37:07,040 --> 00:37:09,479
Speaker 1: all kinds of people. But when the older people would

704
00:37:09,480 --> 00:37:12,600
Speaker 1: come in and they'd be like, well, I always had

705
00:37:12,640 --> 00:37:16,279
Speaker 1: a dream to be an actor. Well guess what you got,

706
00:37:16,320 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 1: Tyler Perry Studios. That's doing great stuff in Atlanta. You

707
00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:24,560
Speaker 1: have all these productions that's coming into Atlanta. Let me

708
00:37:24,800 --> 00:37:28,920
Speaker 1: teach you the tools of acting, and let's see you

709
00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:33,640
Speaker 1: become a co star. Background. It could start off being background.

710
00:37:34,000 --> 00:37:37,719
Speaker 1: You're acting. A background actor is an actor. We need background,

711
00:37:37,719 --> 00:37:40,200
Speaker 1: We need you in the scene. We need to fill

712
00:37:40,239 --> 00:37:42,960
Speaker 1: in the blanks of the scene. Let's say now we have.

713
00:37:42,920 --> 00:37:45,320
Speaker 3: A co star. You might just give one line, two lines,

714
00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:48,160
Speaker 3: but guess what you're acting. You're doing the dream that

715
00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:50,560
Speaker 3: you never thought you would be able to do. Now.

716
00:37:50,640 --> 00:37:53,840
Speaker 1: There's a whole community of people that live in Atlanta

717
00:37:54,080 --> 00:37:57,640
Speaker 1: and the surrounding cities because of all the production that's

718
00:37:57,680 --> 00:38:00,839
Speaker 1: been going to Atlanta that's now living the We need

719
00:38:00,880 --> 00:38:03,479
Speaker 1: old people, we need young people, we need middle aged people,

720
00:38:03,480 --> 00:38:04,520
Speaker 1: we need all kinds of people.

721
00:38:04,760 --> 00:38:07,680
Speaker 3: It's never too late as long as you're still living.

722
00:38:09,239 --> 00:38:11,680
Speaker 3: Who's the oldest person that came in for acting class?

723
00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:14,600
Speaker 3: Oh my god, I remember there was this guy named Jerry.

724
00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:20,320
Speaker 3: How old was Jerry? Jerry was like he was probably

725
00:38:20,920 --> 00:38:24,440
Speaker 3: he had to be almost seventy. He had never acted.

726
00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:26,560
Speaker 3: Almost seventy. You'd never act, had he?

727
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:32,160
Speaker 1: He was trying to pursue his acting, but at seventy.

728
00:38:32,480 --> 00:38:36,520
Speaker 3: I mean, I've had all kinds of pleasures, plessure, and I've.

729
00:38:36,400 --> 00:38:39,680
Speaker 1: Had strippers, porn stars, i had all kinds of people

730
00:38:39,719 --> 00:38:43,120
Speaker 1: that will cry. And I always wanted the people that

731
00:38:43,280 --> 00:38:48,040
Speaker 1: felt overlooked, anybody that felt overlooked, Those are the people

732
00:38:48,080 --> 00:38:50,000
Speaker 1: I wanted. There was this one girl that came in

733
00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:53,160
Speaker 1: who was a former stripper, and she was not that

734
00:38:53,280 --> 00:38:57,480
Speaker 1: good wait, stripping or acting. Well, she was better at

735
00:38:57,480 --> 00:39:00,480
Speaker 1: stripping than she was at but see when I was stripped,

736
00:39:00,480 --> 00:39:01,840
Speaker 1: but I wasn't as good as stripping.

737
00:39:01,880 --> 00:39:03,759
Speaker 3: Thank god, I could act all right. Check her.

738
00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:10,319
Speaker 1: As people always talked about how bad she was, and

739
00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:13,319
Speaker 1: I was like, but she's still coming every day.

740
00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:16,600
Speaker 3: She's every week, She's in class every week.

741
00:39:17,120 --> 00:39:23,200
Speaker 1: And guess what her passion and her her persistence, her perseverance.

742
00:39:23,719 --> 00:39:27,960
Speaker 1: I'm telling you she is working her ass off. No.

743
00:39:28,239 --> 00:39:28,880
Speaker 3: I love that.

744
00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:32,399
Speaker 1: Her name is Keisha, and Keisha you know who you are?

745
00:39:38,760 --> 00:39:40,640
Speaker 3: Oh my god? Is she working?

746
00:39:40,920 --> 00:39:41,000
Speaker 1: Like?

747
00:39:41,120 --> 00:39:43,920
Speaker 3: Is she working at She's a working actress?

748
00:39:44,239 --> 00:39:47,440
Speaker 1: Why every time I look at her Instagram, I'd be like,

749
00:39:47,560 --> 00:39:47,920
Speaker 1: that's the.

750
00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:49,520
Speaker 3: One they said wasn't gonna make it.

751
00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:52,560
Speaker 1: Look at her go going, and she'd be one you

752
00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:54,480
Speaker 1: reward you and you the want to root for her.

753
00:39:54,760 --> 00:39:56,759
Speaker 1: I was the one you root before my heart for

754
00:39:57,120 --> 00:39:59,120
Speaker 1: I promise you I love that.

755
00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:01,800
Speaker 3: Yes, okay, so let's go back for a second.

756
00:40:01,800 --> 00:40:04,560
Speaker 1: So twenty five year old, now you make a change

757
00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:08,280
Speaker 1: in your life, right, you change your life?

758
00:40:08,280 --> 00:40:12,960
Speaker 2: The drugs is gone. How do you treat yourself? How

759
00:40:12,960 --> 00:40:16,320
Speaker 2: do you at twenty five? How do you feel about

760
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:20,520
Speaker 2: your life before that? Because sometimes we have regrets, we

761
00:40:20,600 --> 00:40:26,000
Speaker 2: might have some shame, especially when you make a big

762
00:40:26,040 --> 00:40:28,360
Speaker 2: pivot like that, when you looking at your life with

763
00:40:28,480 --> 00:40:29,640
Speaker 2: a fresh new lens.

764
00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:32,920
Speaker 3: I just wonder if you had any to deal with

765
00:40:32,960 --> 00:40:35,800
Speaker 3: a lot of shame. Yeah, I had a lot of shame.

766
00:40:36,480 --> 00:40:37,640
Speaker 3: I had a lot of.

767
00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:44,799
Speaker 1: Fear, and I really looked at myself horribly, Like it

768
00:40:44,880 --> 00:40:48,160
Speaker 1: was like it's almost like if you have like this

769
00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:51,480
Speaker 1: beautiful mirror that you throw a bunch of shit on

770
00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:54,200
Speaker 1: and then you try to look at yourself in it,

771
00:40:54,480 --> 00:40:57,480
Speaker 1: and you really can't see yourself clearly. There was a

772
00:40:57,560 --> 00:41:00,200
Speaker 1: time since that I wouldn't even look in the I

773
00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:02,160
Speaker 1: didn't want to look in the mirror. Like I could

774
00:41:02,239 --> 00:41:05,640
Speaker 1: go in a bathroom and I could be like trying

775
00:41:05,680 --> 00:41:10,600
Speaker 1: to avoid the mirror because I felt so tainted from

776
00:41:10,600 --> 00:41:13,960
Speaker 1: the experiences that I experienced that I did not look

777
00:41:14,040 --> 00:41:18,839
Speaker 1: beautiful to myself. Like I literally did not think that

778
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:22,560
Speaker 1: I was beautiful. Crazy, like I'm not even kidding. With

779
00:41:22,560 --> 00:41:27,359
Speaker 1: the skin chickbone cysts, I could not see myself sometimes,

780
00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:30,680
Speaker 1: like I'll look back at pictures of my younger self.

781
00:41:31,040 --> 00:41:33,560
Speaker 1: You know, when my titty sat up on their own. Well,

782
00:41:34,600 --> 00:41:37,400
Speaker 1: but now they sit up on their own now because

783
00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:42,200
Speaker 1: I got a titty reduction and the left. Okay, tmy

784
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:46,080
Speaker 1: reduction and left I got a titty reduction and a

785
00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:48,600
Speaker 1: left It looked lovely, sis, these.

786
00:41:48,400 --> 00:41:51,359
Speaker 3: Titties, as are you there over? Honest? I mean I

787
00:41:51,360 --> 00:41:54,000
Speaker 3: got just a little you know, some braw at Sis.

788
00:41:54,560 --> 00:42:00,719
Speaker 1: Listen, these titties were hanging so deep. I said, if

789
00:42:00,760 --> 00:42:03,080
Speaker 1: I don't get a handle on this, I would be

790
00:42:03,160 --> 00:42:05,839
Speaker 1: talking these motherfuckers in my pants.

791
00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:09,680
Speaker 3: So you lay that, I saision five sail. So doctor

792
00:42:10,200 --> 00:42:13,000
Speaker 3: Mark Richards, thank you for my new tens. And by

793
00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:16,680
Speaker 3: the way, doctor Mark Richard's well done, sir. I say,

794
00:42:16,680 --> 00:42:18,080
Speaker 3: they sitting up by themselves.

795
00:42:18,360 --> 00:42:21,360
Speaker 1: But when I would look at pictures of my former self,

796
00:42:21,760 --> 00:42:24,720
Speaker 1: when my titties sat up on their own before the reduction,

797
00:42:24,840 --> 00:42:29,160
Speaker 1: I was like I didn't think she was beautiful. You

798
00:42:29,520 --> 00:42:33,200
Speaker 1: feel like, I'm like, damn, that's a shame that my

799
00:42:33,480 --> 00:42:38,399
Speaker 1: mind was so jacked up. As fine as I was, I.

800
00:42:38,320 --> 00:42:40,960
Speaker 3: Did not think, oh, it is beautiful. So what turned

801
00:42:40,960 --> 00:42:41,719
Speaker 3: that around for you?

802
00:42:42,280 --> 00:42:45,360
Speaker 1: I had these sorry, you know, I feel like prayer

803
00:42:45,640 --> 00:42:50,359
Speaker 1: and like therapy, you know, honestly, And I went like

804
00:42:50,480 --> 00:42:52,319
Speaker 1: eight years. I don't know if you know this, but

805
00:42:52,360 --> 00:42:56,799
Speaker 1: I went eight years of celibacy. I was celibate for

806
00:42:57,080 --> 00:42:58,000
Speaker 1: eight years.

807
00:42:58,160 --> 00:43:00,839
Speaker 2: Wait, I have to understand this timeline. So at twenty five,

808
00:43:01,600 --> 00:43:03,040
Speaker 2: what's the thing that makes you so you said you

809
00:43:03,040 --> 00:43:05,839
Speaker 2: were born again? That's what made you stop messing with.

810
00:43:05,840 --> 00:43:12,279
Speaker 1: Drugs and yes, what sex, alcohol, cigarettes, like everything?

811
00:43:12,520 --> 00:43:14,240
Speaker 3: Like I went cold Turkey.

812
00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:17,840
Speaker 1: I went cold Turkey and it was so like crazy,

813
00:43:17,960 --> 00:43:21,200
Speaker 1: like just one day, like I went to a church,

814
00:43:21,480 --> 00:43:26,120
Speaker 1: I got saved and then I quit everything and I

815
00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:31,560
Speaker 1: literally was having major, massive anxiety attacks. What do you mean, like,

816
00:43:31,680 --> 00:43:34,800
Speaker 1: we're I thought I had something in my chest? Do

817
00:43:34,880 --> 00:43:36,520
Speaker 1: you think it was because you're from this day, I

818
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:39,880
Speaker 1: should know it was because I went to the hospital

819
00:43:39,960 --> 00:43:43,480
Speaker 1: several times begging for the doctor to do an X

820
00:43:43,600 --> 00:43:46,719
Speaker 1: ray of my chest because I felt like my chest

821
00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:51,520
Speaker 1: was literally caving in, Like I literally was learning how

822
00:43:51,560 --> 00:43:57,320
Speaker 1: to be in life, sober and healthy and really trying

823
00:43:57,320 --> 00:44:01,680
Speaker 1: to learn myself. So that time of elibacy was me

824
00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:05,520
Speaker 1: spending time with Tasha to get to know Tasha and

825
00:44:05,560 --> 00:44:09,120
Speaker 1: get to know God, because I also I was coming

826
00:44:09,120 --> 00:44:11,960
Speaker 1: out of being atheists, so I was atheist. I didn't

827
00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:14,799
Speaker 1: believe in God, didn't believe in myself. You know, I

828
00:44:14,800 --> 00:44:17,280
Speaker 1: had done drugs all that time, So I was literally

829
00:44:17,360 --> 00:44:21,520
Speaker 1: relearning my life myself and trying to be comfortable in

830
00:44:21,560 --> 00:44:26,320
Speaker 1: this new mentality, this mindset and these emotions and these feelings.

831
00:44:26,400 --> 00:44:30,960
Speaker 3: And yes, it was love. It was a lot.

832
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:33,279
Speaker 1: And I thank God for all my friends that were

833
00:44:33,360 --> 00:44:37,359
Speaker 1: patient with me during that time because I struggled a

834
00:44:37,400 --> 00:44:41,839
Speaker 1: lot on a mental health level and emotional level, just

835
00:44:41,920 --> 00:44:43,000
Speaker 1: a spiritual level.

836
00:44:43,520 --> 00:44:47,640
Speaker 3: Like life was tough. It was tough. What do you

837
00:44:47,680 --> 00:44:48,799
Speaker 3: think was the low point of that?

838
00:44:48,840 --> 00:44:51,880
Speaker 1: Like, what is the point where you feel like, you know,

839
00:44:52,040 --> 00:44:54,920
Speaker 1: what is the low point of depression? You get depression,

840
00:44:55,640 --> 00:44:58,120
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, feeling like you're not supposed

841
00:44:58,120 --> 00:45:01,520
Speaker 1: to be here, you know, I mean when during that

842
00:45:01,640 --> 00:45:05,560
Speaker 1: time I had thoughts, suicidal thoughts, you know what I'm saying,

843
00:45:05,719 --> 00:45:08,040
Speaker 1: Like not knowing what my life was going to be.

844
00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:11,640
Speaker 1: You know what I mean, just being so afraid, Sis,

845
00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:17,160
Speaker 1: that I just was. I was not healthy. I just

846
00:45:17,280 --> 00:45:19,200
Speaker 1: wasn't healthy. I'm not even gonna lie.

847
00:45:19,239 --> 00:45:22,520
Speaker 2: But you had something in you that made you want

848
00:45:22,520 --> 00:45:24,840
Speaker 2: to be clean, that made you want to be celibate,

849
00:45:24,920 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 2: that made you want to find another way?

850
00:45:27,640 --> 00:45:29,080
Speaker 3: Is that's why I give it?

851
00:45:29,160 --> 00:45:31,760
Speaker 1: Like I don't mean to be preachy all the time,

852
00:45:32,120 --> 00:45:36,920
Speaker 1: but that's why even my tattoo says to dream big, right,

853
00:45:37,640 --> 00:45:41,720
Speaker 1: to dream big and to trust God, like I can't

854
00:45:41,880 --> 00:45:45,319
Speaker 1: give it to anything but God, Like when I was

855
00:45:45,360 --> 00:45:49,040
Speaker 1: at my wits end, Like that's the only answer I have.

856
00:45:49,520 --> 00:45:52,759
Speaker 3: I don't know any other answer. I don't know how

857
00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:53,600
Speaker 3: I had the drive.

858
00:45:53,880 --> 00:45:55,799
Speaker 1: I don't know how I did, how I did it,

859
00:45:55,840 --> 00:46:00,480
Speaker 1: how I made it, how I had the energy being depressed.

860
00:46:00,200 --> 00:46:03,960
Speaker 3: In bed crying for days and days at a time.

861
00:46:04,480 --> 00:46:06,680
Speaker 1: Remember I did a lot of drugs to try to

862
00:46:06,719 --> 00:46:10,040
Speaker 1: cover the pain and cover the reality of my pain,

863
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:12,440
Speaker 1: and then to have to face that stuff.

864
00:46:12,760 --> 00:46:16,320
Speaker 3: Sis, I was not okay, and I can't.

865
00:46:16,480 --> 00:46:19,240
Speaker 1: The only thing I could give it to is God's

866
00:46:19,239 --> 00:46:22,360
Speaker 1: grace well and God's love for my life.

867
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:24,680
Speaker 3: I cannot give it to anything else.

868
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:27,840
Speaker 2: I have to ask you, because we talk about the

869
00:46:27,840 --> 00:46:30,280
Speaker 2: low moment, When is the high moment?

870
00:46:30,800 --> 00:46:35,120
Speaker 3: Girl? When is that mean? Sis? I remember one high

871
00:46:35,120 --> 00:46:37,520
Speaker 3: moment that I always think about.

872
00:46:38,120 --> 00:46:43,960
Speaker 1: I had gotten this job in Mexico. Like back in

873
00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:49,480
Speaker 1: the day, there were these novellas that they turned into I.

874
00:46:49,440 --> 00:46:51,520
Speaker 3: Did a novella, but I did.

875
00:46:51,520 --> 00:46:55,640
Speaker 1: I'd like to hear novella, but they made it like American, right,

876
00:46:55,960 --> 00:46:58,759
Speaker 1: And I think I was getting like around twenty three

877
00:46:58,800 --> 00:47:01,920
Speaker 1: hundred and twenty five hundred it a week. And girl,

878
00:47:02,040 --> 00:47:04,799
Speaker 1: I was rich because mind you, I was. I was

879
00:47:04,880 --> 00:47:08,319
Speaker 1: six months behind in my rent. I was staying in

880
00:47:08,360 --> 00:47:12,560
Speaker 1: this apartment in Culver City, right. I had a Latino

881
00:47:12,800 --> 00:47:16,000
Speaker 1: Mexican guy that owned the building. And I remember I

882
00:47:16,040 --> 00:47:19,560
Speaker 1: would tell this guy, please don't evict me.

883
00:47:20,200 --> 00:47:21,399
Speaker 3: I promise you.

884
00:47:21,600 --> 00:47:24,319
Speaker 1: I will have the money, I promise you. I wish

885
00:47:24,440 --> 00:47:27,040
Speaker 1: I knew where that man was. He was a barber

886
00:47:27,440 --> 00:47:32,560
Speaker 1: Culver City. But he trusted me. Sist six months but

887
00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:37,520
Speaker 1: six months, says he trusted me. Now I got this

888
00:47:37,520 --> 00:47:41,200
Speaker 1: this uh, this novella, right, and I let a friend

889
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:43,719
Speaker 1: move in to kind of sublet the apartment while I

890
00:47:43,840 --> 00:47:46,520
Speaker 1: was gone. It's such a great story. You're gonna love this,

891
00:47:47,080 --> 00:47:50,840
Speaker 1: so you're gonna love it. So so let me just digress.

892
00:47:50,880 --> 00:47:52,440
Speaker 1: Let me back up a little bit. I was a

893
00:47:52,480 --> 00:47:55,160
Speaker 1: stand up comic at the time, and at the time

894
00:47:55,760 --> 00:47:59,680
Speaker 1: I was best friends with a guy named Anthony Clark, comedian.

895
00:47:59,719 --> 00:48:02,279
Speaker 1: He was did a show called Yes Dear, stand up

896
00:48:02,320 --> 00:48:05,080
Speaker 1: comic and we would do comedy together, and we met

897
00:48:05,080 --> 00:48:09,240
Speaker 1: these guys named Max Muchnik and David Cohen. Max Muchnick

898
00:48:09,280 --> 00:48:12,479
Speaker 1: and David Cohen became the writers and creators of Will

899
00:48:12,480 --> 00:48:15,520
Speaker 1: and Grace. Right, so they were working on a show

900
00:48:15,719 --> 00:48:19,160
Speaker 1: for Anthony Clark and they me met Anthony and we

901
00:48:19,160 --> 00:48:21,719
Speaker 1: were all had this little love fest. So cut back

902
00:48:21,760 --> 00:48:26,080
Speaker 1: to being in Mexico doing this this novella. So that

903
00:48:26,200 --> 00:48:29,600
Speaker 1: was money that God gave me sustaining me. I got

904
00:48:29,600 --> 00:48:31,880
Speaker 1: money to pay back this guy. So I get a

905
00:48:31,880 --> 00:48:34,960
Speaker 1: call from Max Muchnick and David Cohen and they're like,

906
00:48:35,360 --> 00:48:38,920
Speaker 1: we got a show picked up on NBC called Boston

907
00:48:39,520 --> 00:48:45,399
Speaker 1: Common for Anthony Clark, and we wrote a character after you.

908
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:48,920
Speaker 1: Her name is Tasha King, and she's in charge of

909
00:48:48,960 --> 00:48:52,839
Speaker 1: the student union at Emerson College. And you know, it's

910
00:48:52,920 --> 00:48:55,800
Speaker 1: kind of like you and Anthony's friendship. But we need

911
00:48:55,840 --> 00:48:59,240
Speaker 1: to do a screen test, you know, for the studio.

912
00:48:59,440 --> 00:49:01,120
Speaker 1: Like they won't just give it to you because they

913
00:49:01,120 --> 00:49:03,560
Speaker 1: don't know you. But if you get down here, we'll

914
00:49:03,560 --> 00:49:05,640
Speaker 1: do a screen test. I went to the guys in Mexico.

915
00:49:05,680 --> 00:49:08,800
Speaker 1: I said, kill me, kill me as quickly as possible,

916
00:49:09,160 --> 00:49:11,160
Speaker 1: you know, because I was like, I know I'm gonna

917
00:49:11,160 --> 00:49:13,719
Speaker 1: get this job. I convinced them to kill me, and

918
00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:16,200
Speaker 1: I was a pain in their ass at the time anyway,

919
00:49:16,400 --> 00:49:19,239
Speaker 1: but they ended up getting rid of me off this show.

920
00:49:19,320 --> 00:49:20,680
Speaker 3: I think they girl.

921
00:49:20,719 --> 00:49:24,320
Speaker 1: I took some like LSD or some shit, and I listen,

922
00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:29,440
Speaker 1: but it was I, oh, you could probably find it, assist.

923
00:49:29,600 --> 00:49:31,040
Speaker 3: It was the worst I took.

924
00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:35,800
Speaker 1: I took this like overdosed, and then I was like, girl,

925
00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:36,840
Speaker 1: it was the worst that.

926
00:49:37,719 --> 00:49:40,440
Speaker 3: You ever could imagine. It was awful.

927
00:49:40,480 --> 00:49:44,400
Speaker 1: I hope you can't find it because it's embarrassing. But anyway,

928
00:49:44,480 --> 00:49:46,680
Speaker 1: so I odd real quick, I mean, and it was

929
00:49:46,719 --> 00:49:47,880
Speaker 1: such a bootleg production.

930
00:49:48,000 --> 00:49:50,040
Speaker 3: You saw booms in the shot and you saw everything.

931
00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:53,440
Speaker 1: But anyway, so I go to La and at the

932
00:49:53,520 --> 00:49:56,719
Speaker 1: time I had the guy in my apartment, so who's house.

933
00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:59,600
Speaker 1: I had to go to Yo Yo, you know Yo

934
00:49:59,760 --> 00:50:03,040
Speaker 1: y course, So that's my girl. So I went and

935
00:50:03,080 --> 00:50:06,319
Speaker 1: I stayed at Yo Yo's house, and I'm staying with

936
00:50:06,440 --> 00:50:08,400
Speaker 1: yo Yo because I got this dude still in my

937
00:50:08,480 --> 00:50:11,480
Speaker 1: apartment and I'm staying with yo Yo in her house.

938
00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:15,160
Speaker 1: And she like popping right, Oh she popping. Oh yeah,

939
00:50:15,760 --> 00:50:20,080
Speaker 1: yo Yo, it's popping. Come asking you know that.

940
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:23,480
Speaker 3: I remember her car stays around me and make a

941
00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:27,440
Speaker 3: big fuss. I love yo y'all. Anyway, that's my sister.

942
00:50:27,760 --> 00:50:30,560
Speaker 1: So I've known her ever, right, So anyway, so I'm

943
00:50:30,600 --> 00:50:34,160
Speaker 1: staying with yo Yo, and I go on this audition

944
00:50:35,160 --> 00:50:39,000
Speaker 1: and the guys fine clothes for me because I didn't

945
00:50:39,040 --> 00:50:40,120
Speaker 1: have the right clothes.

946
00:50:40,400 --> 00:50:42,160
Speaker 3: They went and borrowed something from.

947
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:45,560
Speaker 1: Tai Leone's closet or something some actionsts that was on

948
00:50:45,600 --> 00:50:48,200
Speaker 1: the lot that they went to the wardrobe person and said,

949
00:50:48,400 --> 00:50:50,840
Speaker 1: we need to dress this girl. So they dressed me

950
00:50:51,400 --> 00:50:56,600
Speaker 1: max Muchnick David Cohen read lines with me, like rehearsed

951
00:50:56,640 --> 00:51:00,799
Speaker 1: with me before my Networks like test. And then I

952
00:51:00,880 --> 00:51:04,640
Speaker 1: went into that room with Autumn people. I did my test,

953
00:51:04,920 --> 00:51:07,640
Speaker 1: and I remember as I'm walking out of the room,

954
00:51:07,920 --> 00:51:12,080
Speaker 1: I look over and I see David Kohen going and

955
00:51:12,120 --> 00:51:13,200
Speaker 1: I said, I got it.

956
00:51:13,360 --> 00:51:16,080
Speaker 3: So now I'm going back to Yo Yo's house now.

957
00:51:16,400 --> 00:51:18,520
Speaker 1: And mind you, I didn't have a key to get

958
00:51:18,560 --> 00:51:22,280
Speaker 1: through the gate, so I had to jump the fence

959
00:51:22,320 --> 00:51:25,280
Speaker 1: to get into the house. So I'm jumping the fence,

960
00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:27,239
Speaker 1: and as I'm jumping the fence, we didn't have cell

961
00:51:27,239 --> 00:51:29,719
Speaker 1: phones or anything. I'm jumping the fence and the door

962
00:51:29,800 --> 00:51:32,279
Speaker 1: was unlined and I'm hearing the phone ringing, and I

963
00:51:32,440 --> 00:51:36,080
Speaker 1: just remember falling over that fence, tumbling down, running into

964
00:51:36,120 --> 00:51:38,840
Speaker 1: that house, picking up the phone, and it was my

965
00:51:38,960 --> 00:51:41,960
Speaker 1: agent and her name was ruth An Secunda, telling me

966
00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:45,360
Speaker 1: I got the job. I was making ten thousand dollars

967
00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:46,799
Speaker 1: an episodes.

968
00:51:47,480 --> 00:51:49,960
Speaker 3: Imagine like ten thous like for me.

969
00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:52,440
Speaker 1: People where I grew up wasn't even making ten thousand

970
00:51:52,480 --> 00:51:53,760
Speaker 1: dollars a year.

971
00:51:54,320 --> 00:51:58,440
Speaker 3: I was making ten thousand dollars and episodes. So that

972
00:51:58,640 --> 00:51:59,279
Speaker 3: was like a.

973
00:51:59,480 --> 00:52:04,040
Speaker 1: High moment being on an NBC show as a series

974
00:52:04,160 --> 00:52:06,720
Speaker 1: regular and the character's.

975
00:52:06,360 --> 00:52:10,440
Speaker 3: Name is Tasha King. That was a high moment. On

976
00:52:10,600 --> 00:52:16,799
Speaker 3: top of King, ain't meant to that. You're a great storyteller.

977
00:52:18,239 --> 00:52:20,799
Speaker 1: I see it jumping over, you see me jumping on

978
00:52:21,160 --> 00:52:25,360
Speaker 1: see those I remember that deal was such a blessing

979
00:52:25,360 --> 00:52:26,840
Speaker 1: in my life, such a blessing.

980
00:52:26,920 --> 00:52:29,120
Speaker 3: She still is a wonderful friend. I didn't even know

981
00:52:29,160 --> 00:52:32,080
Speaker 3: you guys have friends. That's so cute, Tiffany, and send

982
00:52:32,120 --> 00:52:35,320
Speaker 3: now my little nieces. That's so sweet.

983
00:52:35,320 --> 00:52:37,160
Speaker 2: You never know how who shows up for who and

984
00:52:37,200 --> 00:52:40,600
Speaker 2: how much it means in their lives at that moment.

985
00:52:40,840 --> 00:52:45,920
Speaker 1: That's why I always say we are in community. Like

986
00:52:46,120 --> 00:52:49,760
Speaker 1: us as women, we are not meant to be in competition,

987
00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:53,480
Speaker 1: and it's important for us to understand that and to

988
00:52:53,680 --> 00:52:56,600
Speaker 1: know that don't compete with one another.

989
00:52:57,120 --> 00:52:58,640
Speaker 3: All of us are individuals.

990
00:52:58,680 --> 00:53:02,120
Speaker 1: I would always say, like, for instance, like when you

991
00:53:02,200 --> 00:53:05,120
Speaker 1: think about you know, Michael Jordan and like you know

992
00:53:05,239 --> 00:53:09,400
Speaker 1: Dennis Rodman and Scottie you know they were a dream team,

993
00:53:09,760 --> 00:53:15,200
Speaker 1: right of athletes, Right, they're all special. Yes, Jordan is Jordan,

994
00:53:15,320 --> 00:53:18,400
Speaker 1: but you can't not like Robbin, you know what I'm saying,

995
00:53:18,840 --> 00:53:21,879
Speaker 1: And like everyone has a position to play.

996
00:53:22,000 --> 00:53:24,080
Speaker 2: So funny we had that conversation with Kelly, had Kelly

997
00:53:24,160 --> 00:53:27,680
Speaker 2: rolling on the bike. Yeah, and we're talking about Destiny

998
00:53:27,760 --> 00:53:30,640
Speaker 2: Child and Beyonce having that light, but Kelly having.

999
00:53:30,440 --> 00:53:34,919
Speaker 3: Her own light. Yeah, the only thing like stand in her.

1000
00:53:34,840 --> 00:53:38,279
Speaker 1: Own l yes, with somebody else who's like right, Yeah,

1001
00:53:38,280 --> 00:53:42,600
Speaker 1: but that's because Beyonce is secure in who she is.

1002
00:53:43,200 --> 00:53:46,440
Speaker 1: And when you're really secure in who you are, you

1003
00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:48,879
Speaker 1: don't want to dim the light of others around you.

1004
00:53:48,880 --> 00:53:52,160
Speaker 1: You actually want to empower them, and you actually want

1005
00:53:52,200 --> 00:53:55,080
Speaker 1: to give them more candles and more light and say,

1006
00:53:55,120 --> 00:53:58,200
Speaker 1: come on, keep shining, because you shining is what's going

1007
00:53:58,280 --> 00:54:00,400
Speaker 1: to make this group amazing. Mhmm.

1008
00:54:00,840 --> 00:54:01,480
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1009
00:54:01,239 --> 00:54:03,799
Speaker 1: It was my part of one of my favorite parts

1010
00:54:03,840 --> 00:54:07,840
Speaker 1: of that conversation with Kelly, because sometimes it works the

1011
00:54:07,840 --> 00:54:10,640
Speaker 1: other way. Sometimes you can be in a room full

1012
00:54:10,680 --> 00:54:12,839
Speaker 1: of people that are so bright that it makes you

1013
00:54:13,040 --> 00:54:15,919
Speaker 1: want to go small. It can make you like, okay,

1014
00:54:16,000 --> 00:54:20,480
Speaker 1: let me just play my position, yea. And sometimes I

1015
00:54:20,600 --> 00:54:25,120
Speaker 1: feel like like you can do that because to me,

1016
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:28,440
Speaker 1: that's you honoring, Like like if I'm out with my

1017
00:54:28,520 --> 00:54:30,520
Speaker 1: friends like us all of our friends, Like, if.

1018
00:54:30,400 --> 00:54:32,560
Speaker 3: I'm with you and this is your event, I'm.

1019
00:54:32,360 --> 00:54:35,040
Speaker 1: Not trying to go out to your event. Now you

1020
00:54:35,040 --> 00:54:37,279
Speaker 1: want me to hold your purse? You want I want

1021
00:54:37,360 --> 00:54:38,560
Speaker 1: to assist you?

1022
00:54:38,600 --> 00:54:39,280
Speaker 3: Do you understand?

1023
00:54:39,320 --> 00:54:41,640
Speaker 1: And I've done it. I've done it. I've done it.

1024
00:54:42,000 --> 00:54:45,600
Speaker 1: I've done it. Because you don't need to be the star, listen,

1025
00:54:45,680 --> 00:54:48,799
Speaker 1: I don't always have to be the star. I love you, know,

1026
00:54:48,920 --> 00:54:52,759
Speaker 1: I mean, come on, cool star, I'm okay to co star.

1027
00:54:53,000 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 1: Like if you go out with Janny Jackson, that's Janet Jackson.

1028
00:54:56,719 --> 00:55:00,600
Speaker 3: I'm not earl you. Janney Jackson, bitch, you want what

1029
00:55:00,640 --> 00:55:02,400
Speaker 3: you need me to do for you? Did you go

1030
00:55:02,440 --> 00:55:02,640
Speaker 3: out with?

1031
00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:07,399
Speaker 1: But you know even where I would marry like ever,

1032
00:55:08,000 --> 00:55:11,120
Speaker 1: Like sometimes it's not on me in the moment. And

1033
00:55:11,160 --> 00:55:15,640
Speaker 1: I don't mind being the one to assist you know

1034
00:55:15,680 --> 00:55:19,200
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, and to be there to support, be

1035
00:55:19,320 --> 00:55:25,880
Speaker 1: the supporting friend or even the supporting character. Do you

1036
00:55:25,920 --> 00:55:28,640
Speaker 1: follow what I'm saying. I don't always have to be

1037
00:55:28,760 --> 00:55:30,719
Speaker 1: the star, but you are.

1038
00:55:31,600 --> 00:55:32,920
Speaker 3: I mean you can.

1039
00:55:33,320 --> 00:55:36,600
Speaker 1: I can't help it, but I.

1040
00:55:36,440 --> 00:55:37,239
Speaker 3: Can't help it.

1041
00:55:37,480 --> 00:55:42,399
Speaker 1: But I don't mind ever taking the back seat. I

1042
00:55:42,480 --> 00:55:46,319
Speaker 1: really don't mind. And most of my friends that are

1043
00:55:46,360 --> 00:55:49,480
Speaker 1: in my life deeply, they know that I've gone with

1044
00:55:49,600 --> 00:55:53,000
Speaker 1: Angela Bassett to her premieres and I've help. I will

1045
00:55:53,040 --> 00:55:58,000
Speaker 1: hold your purse, I got you, let me fix your hair,

1046
00:55:58,440 --> 00:56:00,920
Speaker 1: let me make sure you're good.

1047
00:56:00,840 --> 00:56:02,920
Speaker 3: And I'll be right over there. I don't even have.

1048
00:56:02,960 --> 00:56:06,320
Speaker 1: To walk on the carpet with her. No, this show premiere,

1049
00:56:06,360 --> 00:56:09,680
Speaker 1: I don't have to do it. I feel like we

1050
00:56:09,719 --> 00:56:12,360
Speaker 1: all have our time to shine.

1051
00:56:12,920 --> 00:56:14,759
Speaker 3: What does Angela Bassett do when you say let me

1052
00:56:14,800 --> 00:56:17,080
Speaker 3: hold your purse? Oh, she'd be like, thank you, darling,

1053
00:56:18,600 --> 00:56:19,440
Speaker 3: thank you darling.

1054
00:56:21,480 --> 00:56:24,800
Speaker 1: She'd be at work, no, And I know she appreciates

1055
00:56:25,200 --> 00:56:27,200
Speaker 1: that she's got a friend that's willing to do that.

1056
00:56:27,880 --> 00:56:28,720
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

1057
00:56:28,800 --> 00:56:32,480
Speaker 1: That's there and I don't have to be trying to

1058
00:56:32,600 --> 00:56:34,839
Speaker 1: just be with her just to get some of her life.

1059
00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:36,560
Speaker 3: Just as far as like that.

1060
00:56:36,520 --> 00:56:39,080
Speaker 1: Because you know, sometimes you could have friends and they'd

1061
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:40,480
Speaker 1: be like, well, can your makeup bars?

1062
00:56:40,520 --> 00:56:41,239
Speaker 3: Do my makeup bars?

1063
00:56:41,239 --> 00:56:43,000
Speaker 1: And can you make sure that your policy is get

1064
00:56:43,000 --> 00:56:45,319
Speaker 1: me on the carpet and things like that. But it's

1065
00:56:45,400 --> 00:56:48,799
Speaker 1: like sometimes like you don't want to feel pressure like that.

1066
00:56:49,560 --> 00:56:51,560
Speaker 1: Do you follow what I'm saying and feel like you

1067
00:56:51,760 --> 00:56:55,319
Speaker 1: have to? Like you know, you make people feel like

1068
00:56:55,400 --> 00:56:58,600
Speaker 1: you have to always be there, Like I'd rather be

1069
00:56:58,680 --> 00:57:01,680
Speaker 1: the friend. To be honest, I'd rather be the friend

1070
00:57:01,680 --> 00:57:05,200
Speaker 1: home playing Rummy Cube and spades with you, Like I'd

1071
00:57:05,280 --> 00:57:08,560
Speaker 1: rather meet you and be in your dressing room after

1072
00:57:08,640 --> 00:57:12,120
Speaker 1: you're done and us having fun in the background, like

1073
00:57:12,200 --> 00:57:15,680
Speaker 1: I would rather. Yeah, that's and you know that's being

1074
00:57:15,719 --> 00:57:18,720
Speaker 1: Barry's relationship too. I'd be like, Sis, I don't have

1075
00:57:18,800 --> 00:57:21,919
Speaker 1: to go. I'd rather sit at the house. I'd rather

1076
00:57:22,000 --> 00:57:24,800
Speaker 1: cook crab, which I have done, and have Mary all

1077
00:57:24,840 --> 00:57:25,200
Speaker 1: the time.

1078
00:57:25,240 --> 00:57:27,760
Speaker 3: You come over and best sit on the floor and

1079
00:57:27,920 --> 00:57:31,320
Speaker 3: eat your girls. Girl, I swear I am. I love it.

1080
00:57:31,400 --> 00:57:32,680
Speaker 3: I love it.

1081
00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:35,480
Speaker 1: I love it like I love facetiming with my friends,

1082
00:57:35,600 --> 00:57:38,080
Speaker 1: especially you know, if we're not all in the same

1083
00:57:38,160 --> 00:57:41,760
Speaker 1: city with our wigs off and our scarves on and

1084
00:57:42,080 --> 00:57:45,080
Speaker 1: drinking off wine and have our phones sitting up on

1085
00:57:45,920 --> 00:57:47,440
Speaker 1: and we cooking and talking.

1086
00:57:47,880 --> 00:57:50,760
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying. Yisn't always like to FaceTime.

1087
00:57:51,520 --> 00:57:53,880
Speaker 1: But the only one who loves to face time is

1088
00:57:53,880 --> 00:57:56,960
Speaker 1: Taraj loves to face time. We will FaceTime doing all

1089
00:57:57,000 --> 00:58:04,760
Speaker 1: kinds of stuff. I'll pee with Taraji on FaceTime. I'm

1090
00:58:04,800 --> 00:58:08,040
Speaker 1: on face time with Janet. I'll be too, but I

1091
00:58:08,080 --> 00:58:09,520
Speaker 1: will pe with Janet.

1092
00:58:09,120 --> 00:58:09,800
Speaker 3: On face time.

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Speaker 1: I'd be like, I gotta be Okay, I excuse the noise. Okay,

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00:58:16,760 --> 00:58:17,920
Speaker 1: this is why people love me.

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00:58:18,000 --> 00:58:18,480
Speaker 3: I will be.

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00:58:18,840 --> 00:58:21,040
Speaker 2: I feel like we got to go to our irl bowl,

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00:58:21,360 --> 00:58:25,160
Speaker 2: or wait before we go to the bowl, I feel

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00:58:25,160 --> 00:58:27,600
Speaker 2: like I want you to look at your meditation list

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Speaker 2: to see if there's anything one more thing on here.

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Speaker 1: I think, yeah, because I don't want okay, because if

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00:58:32,480 --> 00:58:34,160
Speaker 1: that came to you, you know what I'm saying. I

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00:58:34,200 --> 00:58:37,080
Speaker 1: want to Let's see. These are two things I'll say.

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00:58:37,160 --> 00:58:39,680
Speaker 1: I like your notes. I'm confined with this interview going

1104
00:58:39,680 --> 00:58:41,120
Speaker 1: into your notes instead of my notes.

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00:58:42,320 --> 00:58:45,080
Speaker 2: Why because I always try to like be in your present,

1106
00:58:45,160 --> 00:58:47,520
Speaker 2: like because it really is the pod. I've said this before.

1107
00:58:47,520 --> 00:58:49,320
Speaker 2: It's like I really think of it as an offering.

1108
00:58:49,360 --> 00:58:51,560
Speaker 2: It's it's like, so what do you have to offer?

1109
00:58:51,640 --> 00:58:54,320
Speaker 2: What has come to you? What is your experiences right now?

1110
00:58:54,400 --> 00:58:57,240
Speaker 2: What do you want to share that you think other

1111
00:58:57,280 --> 00:59:01,480
Speaker 2: people can receive? And so yeah, I can think I

1112
00:59:01,560 --> 00:59:04,600
Speaker 2: know what you people can receive, but you know best

1113
00:59:04,680 --> 00:59:07,160
Speaker 2: what people can receive. So the fact that you even

1114
00:59:07,200 --> 00:59:09,080
Speaker 2: had that moment, it is so dope to me because

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00:59:09,120 --> 00:59:11,120
Speaker 2: it's like I would rather have to be yes.

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I just was like I didn't know what we would

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00:59:13,840 --> 00:59:17,200
Speaker 1: talk about, and I just I was like, what can

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00:59:17,320 --> 00:59:20,600
Speaker 1: I offer? I guess yeah, you know what I means

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Speaker 1: to But I mean, even as taking as time, right,

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00:59:23,200 --> 00:59:28,880
Speaker 1: it's an offering you sharing your story, intimate, challenging parts

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00:59:28,880 --> 00:59:29,440
Speaker 1: of your life.

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Speaker 2: You sharing that, not because what for what reason? Only

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00:59:32,640 --> 00:59:35,840
Speaker 2: because it's an offering. Yes, w so somebody who needs.

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Speaker 3: To hear that story, right, it's not like you need

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00:59:37,760 --> 00:59:40,400
Speaker 3: it to tell it. Yes, you know what I'm saying.

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00:59:40,480 --> 00:59:49,240
Speaker 2: I feel like so then that's that's why we do it.

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Speaker 3: Your list is way more important.

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Speaker 1: Well, how about this is something that at least we

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00:59:55,240 --> 00:59:59,760
Speaker 1: can encourage people, okay, right to be aware, right to

1131
00:59:59,760 --> 01:00:04,440
Speaker 1: be fully present in the moment, and to notice and

1132
01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:09,080
Speaker 1: pay attention to your thoughts and your feelings and your surroundings.

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Speaker 1: And there was one other thing that I wrote down

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Speaker 1: about awareness and to be mindful of God's voice. Like,

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01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:26,680
Speaker 1: the more that we sit in our awareness, we exercise

1136
01:00:26,960 --> 01:00:31,240
Speaker 1: our spirit to listen to that still small voice of God.

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01:00:31,640 --> 01:00:34,800
Speaker 1: You know how sometimes you say you felt something, you

1138
01:00:34,840 --> 01:00:38,000
Speaker 1: felt like you heard something in your spirit. You know,

1139
01:00:38,040 --> 01:00:40,280
Speaker 1: some people say, oh, I felt like I should go

1140
01:00:40,360 --> 01:00:42,960
Speaker 1: down that street, or I had this feeling that I

1141
01:00:43,040 --> 01:00:45,280
Speaker 1: was supposed to call this, or I had a feeling

1142
01:00:45,320 --> 01:00:47,360
Speaker 1: that I was supposed to say yes or no to this.

1143
01:00:47,840 --> 01:00:51,160
Speaker 1: You know, like we have to be aware of our

1144
01:00:51,280 --> 01:00:55,120
Speaker 1: inner world. Don't ignore that, don't ignore it, because the

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01:00:55,120 --> 01:01:00,360
Speaker 1: more we listen and we're aware of that voice. The

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01:01:00,480 --> 01:01:05,160
Speaker 1: more we're strong and we have more faith in listening

1147
01:01:05,560 --> 01:01:10,160
Speaker 1: and seeing that what we will discover when we pursue

1148
01:01:10,600 --> 01:01:13,320
Speaker 1: the guidance of that voice. You follow what I'm saying,

1149
01:01:13,400 --> 01:01:16,720
Speaker 1: and like, you know, when you listen to that voice

1150
01:01:16,760 --> 01:01:20,120
Speaker 1: and you see a blessing or you see a warning,

1151
01:01:20,240 --> 01:01:23,800
Speaker 1: or you see something that protected you, you're like, oh,

1152
01:01:23,840 --> 01:01:26,840
Speaker 1: I am so glad that I listen to that. But

1153
01:01:26,880 --> 01:01:30,160
Speaker 1: then sometimes you may have not listened to it. You

1154
01:01:30,240 --> 01:01:34,680
Speaker 1: may have intentionally not you didn't want to be aware

1155
01:01:35,240 --> 01:01:38,840
Speaker 1: of what those thoughts were, and you ignored it, and

1156
01:01:38,880 --> 01:01:40,920
Speaker 1: then you see how you may have to suffer for

1157
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Speaker 1: it in the long run. So the word is awareness.

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01:01:45,560 --> 01:01:49,320
Speaker 1: Be aware of God's voice, be aware of people around you,

1159
01:01:49,800 --> 01:01:53,320
Speaker 1: be aware of community, be aware of your environment, be

1160
01:01:53,440 --> 01:01:58,520
Speaker 1: aware of other people's feelings and emotions, being sensitive and

1161
01:01:58,640 --> 01:02:03,440
Speaker 1: aware of just people because people are hurting, people are suffering,

1162
01:02:03,680 --> 01:02:05,600
Speaker 1: and we can't walk out into the world all the

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01:02:05,640 --> 01:02:09,000
Speaker 1: time only worried about ourselves, but being aware of other

1164
01:02:09,080 --> 01:02:12,360
Speaker 1: people around us as well. So oh yes, And to

1165
01:02:12,440 --> 01:02:17,360
Speaker 1: remember awareness is a mirror and a window. I love

1166
01:02:17,440 --> 01:02:19,600
Speaker 1: that a mirror in a window.

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Speaker 3: Is that like scripture or does that just come?

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01:02:21,680 --> 01:02:23,440
Speaker 1: No, that was you know, just you know, because I

1169
01:02:23,480 --> 01:02:26,840
Speaker 1: always research stuff. I'd be looking up stuff. I'd be like,

1170
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Speaker 1: oh good, what is this and where can I find this?

1171
01:02:28,960 --> 01:02:29,200
Speaker 1: And what?

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01:02:29,720 --> 01:02:31,240
Speaker 3: You know? So I'm looking at stuff.

1173
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Speaker 1: I'm always researching because you are passing eggs timing. No,

1174
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Speaker 1: I'm not. I'd be an evangelist because I don't have

1175
01:02:37,920 --> 01:02:39,520
Speaker 1: patience spending this all the time.

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Speaker 3: No, let me stop. It's so funny. All right, let's

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Speaker 3: get our irl bowl. You know what hold on for

1178
01:02:45,440 --> 01:02:46,120
Speaker 3: the iral bowl?

1179
01:02:47,400 --> 01:02:50,600
Speaker 1: One of two things. There's a part of your story

1180
01:02:50,640 --> 01:02:53,760
Speaker 1: that I find very interesting. Tell me you and you

1181
01:02:53,800 --> 01:02:56,840
Speaker 1: said you were twenty five and you for eight years

1182
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Speaker 1: you were celibate.

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01:02:58,120 --> 01:03:00,000
Speaker 3: Yes, what is that experience?

1184
01:03:00,080 --> 01:03:10,560
Speaker 2: It's like because people, well, even whether it's love, relationships, sexuality,

1185
01:03:10,600 --> 01:03:13,640
Speaker 2: all that, there's always so much especially on women, women

1186
01:03:13,680 --> 01:03:18,040
Speaker 2: in Hollywood, Like there's so much energy people want to

1187
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Speaker 2: look sexy, feel sexy that I don't know, it's just

1188
01:03:20,360 --> 01:03:23,880
Speaker 2: put on that energy is put on women so hard

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Speaker 2: all the time. When you're choosing to be without it

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Speaker 2: for eight years, what does that do change?

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01:03:30,600 --> 01:03:31,520
Speaker 3: What it feel like?

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Speaker 1: All that? I'll say this, it's a blessing. And at

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01:03:35,480 --> 01:03:41,160
Speaker 1: the same time, it's a problem because like it's a

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Speaker 1: blessing that I was able to, you know, have that

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01:03:46,320 --> 01:03:50,840
Speaker 1: time with myself and God. But the problem was I

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01:03:50,920 --> 01:03:54,760
Speaker 1: did feel like I lost myself in the sense of

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Speaker 1: like when I was young, right and this and for

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Speaker 1: some some church folks may have a problem with this,

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01:04:00,720 --> 01:04:06,920
Speaker 1: but I really don't care. Okay, But like before I

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Speaker 1: got I became celibate, I felt sexy, like even when

1201
01:04:10,960 --> 01:04:14,440
Speaker 1: I was dancing, I wasn't insecure about my body, you

1202
01:04:14,520 --> 01:04:16,480
Speaker 1: know what I mean. Like I had this sense of

1203
01:04:16,520 --> 01:04:20,520
Speaker 1: freedom even with my body. There was something about taking

1204
01:04:20,560 --> 01:04:23,480
Speaker 1: that time and trying not to think, cause I really

1205
01:04:23,640 --> 01:04:28,600
Speaker 1: was celibate, Like I didn't masturbate like the like I

1206
01:04:28,640 --> 01:04:32,200
Speaker 1: messed around at the beginning of my celibacy.

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Speaker 3: It's funny, you're gonna laughs. She needed water for this.

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01:04:39,960 --> 01:04:43,400
Speaker 1: I started feeling guilty, Like I was just feeling guilty.

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01:04:43,400 --> 01:04:46,680
Speaker 1: I felt like, Okay, I'm not gonna have sex, but

1210
01:04:47,080 --> 01:04:48,959
Speaker 1: we can do oral sex.

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Speaker 3: You know what I mean. I'll let you go down

1212
01:04:50,760 --> 01:04:52,080
Speaker 3: on me or something like that.

1213
01:04:52,520 --> 01:04:55,160
Speaker 1: But then I'm like, I can't, like sex is sex,

1214
01:04:55,280 --> 01:04:56,080
Speaker 1: Like I can't.

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Speaker 3: I gotta be celibate, like I just can't do anything.

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01:05:00,080 --> 01:05:04,439
Speaker 1: So I lost touch with my body, Like I had

1217
01:05:04,480 --> 01:05:10,000
Speaker 1: to relearn like what feeling sexy and being sexy and

1218
01:05:10,040 --> 01:05:11,640
Speaker 1: what an orgasm felt like.

1219
01:05:11,760 --> 01:05:15,320
Speaker 2: And it was a trip sis, what was the what

1220
01:05:15,400 --> 01:05:17,040
Speaker 2: was the thing you were to get out of it?

1221
01:05:17,120 --> 01:05:18,640
Speaker 3: Like? What was the choice? Did you know you were

1222
01:05:18,760 --> 01:05:20,920
Speaker 3: to do eight years? So that's just how it landed or.

1223
01:05:20,840 --> 01:05:24,640
Speaker 1: Did you say it's because I had said I wasn't

1224
01:05:24,640 --> 01:05:26,520
Speaker 1: going to have sex until I was married.

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01:05:26,600 --> 01:05:26,960
Speaker 3: Got it?

1226
01:05:27,560 --> 01:05:30,760
Speaker 1: I was literally on that page, got it, I was

1227
01:05:30,840 --> 01:05:33,320
Speaker 1: not going to have sex until I was married.

1228
01:05:33,480 --> 01:05:37,160
Speaker 3: And then I got married and I was married.

1229
01:05:36,920 --> 01:05:39,680
Speaker 1: For two years, and I said I should have just

1230
01:05:39,760 --> 01:05:42,440
Speaker 1: fucked him.

1231
01:05:42,600 --> 01:05:43,560
Speaker 3: Repented.

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01:05:44,120 --> 01:05:48,360
Speaker 1: God forgives me no literally no, but I oh God,

1233
01:05:49,000 --> 01:05:52,640
Speaker 1: but but I just had to learn myself all over again.

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Speaker 3: Wow, I get married. So then you didn't have sex

1235
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Speaker 3: until you got married? Yes?

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Speaker 2: Wow, Yes, fascinating Tash girl. We need to have conversial

1237
01:06:04,920 --> 01:06:07,000
Speaker 2: this off the podcast because I have so many other.

1238
01:06:09,720 --> 01:06:10,960
Speaker 3: So just being.

1239
01:06:10,760 --> 01:06:14,120
Speaker 1: Comfortable with sex, like you think of that while that

1240
01:06:14,200 --> 01:06:20,080
Speaker 1: I was really uncomfortable sexually, Like I was uncomfortable because

1241
01:06:20,080 --> 01:06:23,000
Speaker 1: of the span, because of the span, and because of

1242
01:06:23,160 --> 01:06:26,080
Speaker 1: just I just had this warped idea in my mind.

1243
01:06:26,240 --> 01:06:27,760
Speaker 3: I can't believe I'm talking about.

1244
01:06:27,560 --> 01:06:31,760
Speaker 1: This, but I mean, but it's fine, like you know,

1245
01:06:31,880 --> 01:06:33,120
Speaker 1: because it's the truth.

1246
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Speaker 3: And it was just yeah, girl, I can't even believe

1247
01:06:39,000 --> 01:06:40,200
Speaker 3: that I went that long.

1248
01:06:40,240 --> 01:06:41,840
Speaker 1: And I was like, now, lord me, and you're gonna

1249
01:06:41,840 --> 01:06:43,240
Speaker 1: have to have its all because I can't.

1250
01:06:44,200 --> 01:06:48,960
Speaker 3: We have to make some changes. Do you think that

1251
01:06:49,080 --> 01:06:50,480
Speaker 3: had to do it? Get me?

1252
01:06:50,560 --> 01:06:54,720
Speaker 1: Like getting married, like, because you're putting this hold on

1253
01:06:54,760 --> 01:06:58,000
Speaker 1: yourself and until you get married, yeah, if you want

1254
01:06:58,000 --> 01:07:02,800
Speaker 1: to get married fast, yes, before getting to know someone,

1255
01:07:02,920 --> 01:07:05,280
Speaker 1: before getting to know if they're the right one.

1256
01:07:05,200 --> 01:07:07,240
Speaker 3: For you, you know what I mean.

1257
01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:11,200
Speaker 1: Like, I mean, people have other thoughts and other opinions,

1258
01:07:11,200 --> 01:07:14,160
Speaker 1: and I'm sure you have like folks out there that's

1259
01:07:14,160 --> 01:07:17,040
Speaker 1: gonna be like you know, but I'm keeping it one

1260
01:07:17,160 --> 01:07:18,320
Speaker 1: hundred for me.

1261
01:07:19,280 --> 01:07:22,040
Speaker 3: I'm just like you know, I.

1262
01:07:21,960 --> 01:07:25,200
Speaker 1: Feel you rush into it and you end up probably

1263
01:07:25,280 --> 01:07:26,760
Speaker 1: sometimes with the wrong person.

1264
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Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

1265
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Speaker 2: That that was your experience, Yeah, for sure. I could

1266
01:07:33,400 --> 01:07:34,720
Speaker 2: only imagine two years too.

1267
01:07:34,760 --> 01:07:38,440
Speaker 1: That's quick, yes, yeah, and then you're out yeah and

1268
01:07:38,520 --> 01:07:41,920
Speaker 1: you're single again, yes, not celibate anymore.

1269
01:07:42,160 --> 01:07:43,920
Speaker 3: No, living your life, living.

1270
01:07:43,680 --> 01:07:46,880
Speaker 1: My life so where do you stand with that now? Like,

1271
01:07:47,160 --> 01:07:50,200
Speaker 1: where do you because you're still very much in touch with.

1272
01:07:50,120 --> 01:07:52,960
Speaker 2: Your faith, yes I am, So how do you where

1273
01:07:52,960 --> 01:07:55,240
Speaker 2: do you place the sexuality?

1274
01:07:55,360 --> 01:07:57,440
Speaker 3: Will you get married again? You know?

1275
01:07:57,720 --> 01:08:01,800
Speaker 1: Marriage is not like something that I have to do,

1276
01:08:02,600 --> 01:08:05,120
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like I really just don't

1277
01:08:05,160 --> 01:08:07,920
Speaker 1: feel like like it's not what I feel like I

1278
01:08:07,960 --> 01:08:10,760
Speaker 1: have to do. I don't mind having a partner, but

1279
01:08:10,920 --> 01:08:14,680
Speaker 1: I don't know that I have to be married in

1280
01:08:14,760 --> 01:08:18,400
Speaker 1: that way like going through the court system and all

1281
01:08:18,439 --> 01:08:21,040
Speaker 1: of that stuff. I mean, I just don't know that

1282
01:08:21,040 --> 01:08:23,839
Speaker 1: that's how I feel at this time in my life.

1283
01:08:24,400 --> 01:08:29,360
Speaker 1: And I don't have those same feelings even about sexuality.

1284
01:08:29,520 --> 01:08:36,680
Speaker 3: I am not celibate at all. I'm not, and you know,

1285
01:08:37,960 --> 01:08:38,280
Speaker 3: I'm not.

1286
01:08:39,040 --> 01:08:42,080
Speaker 1: Guess what most people that try to act like, especially

1287
01:08:42,160 --> 01:08:44,320
Speaker 1: folks in the church that try to act like they celibate,

1288
01:08:44,680 --> 01:08:46,320
Speaker 1: they home looking at poorn.

1289
01:08:46,120 --> 01:08:48,960
Speaker 3: Right now, Like it's a lot like really, like I

1290
01:08:49,040 --> 01:08:51,160
Speaker 3: just feel like people should be honest, you know what

1291
01:08:51,240 --> 01:08:51,719
Speaker 3: I'm saying.

1292
01:08:51,800 --> 01:08:55,200
Speaker 1: Like people will sit there and try to present one thing,

1293
01:08:55,280 --> 01:08:58,120
Speaker 1: but they know, damn well, it's not true. When I

1294
01:08:58,240 --> 01:09:02,480
Speaker 1: was celibate, I was celibate, and I was really celibate.

1295
01:09:02,800 --> 01:09:05,720
Speaker 1: I didn't have toys, I wasn't masturbating. I didn't do

1296
01:09:05,840 --> 01:09:09,000
Speaker 1: any of it. Wow, I didn't do any of it.

1297
01:09:09,040 --> 01:09:09,759
Speaker 3: Were you cranky?

1298
01:09:10,640 --> 01:09:14,400
Speaker 1: I kind of feel like I was. Life got lighter

1299
01:09:14,439 --> 01:09:16,880
Speaker 1: once I started having orgasics. I remember one time I

1300
01:09:16,880 --> 01:09:17,960
Speaker 1: went to this eeronologist.

1301
01:09:17,960 --> 01:09:19,599
Speaker 3: He said, oh my god, you got to build up.

1302
01:09:19,840 --> 01:09:21,559
Speaker 1: You know, he was looking through my eyes and he

1303
01:09:21,600 --> 01:09:25,040
Speaker 1: could see that I have not released anything else. Really

1304
01:09:25,560 --> 01:09:29,280
Speaker 1: that's hilarious. But yeah, so it's just interesting.

1305
01:09:29,360 --> 01:09:29,759
Speaker 3: Sis.

1306
01:09:29,920 --> 01:09:32,120
Speaker 1: I just think life is interesting when it comes to that.

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01:09:32,560 --> 01:09:34,680
Speaker 1: But like right now, like I do as much as

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01:09:34,920 --> 01:09:37,439
Speaker 1: I believe in God, and I believe that God loves me,

1309
01:09:37,479 --> 01:09:41,200
Speaker 1: no different, I really do. I believe that God loves me.

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01:09:41,760 --> 01:09:45,559
Speaker 1: He knows exactly who I am. He knows exactly what

1311
01:09:45,680 --> 01:09:48,800
Speaker 1: He's designed me to be. You know what I'm saying,

1312
01:09:48,880 --> 01:09:52,240
Speaker 1: Like he just knows me in a way that is

1313
01:09:52,320 --> 01:09:57,120
Speaker 1: so deep and authentic, you know what I'm saying, And honestly,

1314
01:09:57,479 --> 01:10:00,200
Speaker 1: like this is just where I am.

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01:10:00,479 --> 01:10:03,519
Speaker 2: I love that you because with women, man, it's like

1316
01:10:04,080 --> 01:10:05,000
Speaker 2: when are you getting married?

1317
01:10:05,040 --> 01:10:07,320
Speaker 1: When are you gonna have a family? When are you

1318
01:10:07,400 --> 01:10:10,240
Speaker 1: gonna all the things that are put on you? Yes,

1319
01:10:10,840 --> 01:10:15,840
Speaker 1: and it ain't for everybody. No, I'm enjoying my life good,

1320
01:10:16,160 --> 01:10:24,799
Speaker 1: Like I really am having a good time. I'm having

1321
01:10:24,880 --> 01:10:25,800
Speaker 1: a good time.

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01:10:25,920 --> 01:10:28,200
Speaker 3: Sis, How happy are you on a scale of one

1323
01:10:28,240 --> 01:10:31,880
Speaker 3: to ten? And like, I am very happy right now.

1324
01:10:31,920 --> 01:10:32,719
Speaker 3: Thank God.

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01:10:33,439 --> 01:10:37,639
Speaker 1: I feel more free than I've ever felt. I feel

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01:10:37,680 --> 01:10:41,840
Speaker 1: more confident than I've ever felt. I feel just like

1327
01:10:42,040 --> 01:10:45,720
Speaker 1: I have Like I feel like an adult. I mean,

1328
01:10:45,880 --> 01:10:53,960
Speaker 1: isn't that great adults like I feel just I'm still

1329
01:10:54,000 --> 01:10:58,519
Speaker 1: excited about life, about art, about creativity, you know what

1330
01:10:58,520 --> 01:11:02,680
Speaker 1: I'm saying about opera tunities like and trust me, I

1331
01:11:02,680 --> 01:11:06,519
Speaker 1: did not always feel like this at all. And I

1332
01:11:06,520 --> 01:11:08,640
Speaker 1: mean I've had moments, you know what I mean, Like

1333
01:11:08,720 --> 01:11:11,800
Speaker 1: earlier this year, I went through some stuff, you know,

1334
01:11:11,960 --> 01:11:15,120
Speaker 1: family stuff, just personal stuff that kind of made me

1335
01:11:15,200 --> 01:11:18,080
Speaker 1: feel like I lost my balance a little bit, you

1336
01:11:18,120 --> 01:11:19,960
Speaker 1: know what I mean. It's like almost like you were

1337
01:11:20,000 --> 01:11:22,960
Speaker 1: walking a tightrope and you almost feel and you feel that,

1338
01:11:23,400 --> 01:11:25,920
Speaker 1: you know, and I kind of felt like that, and

1339
01:11:26,000 --> 01:11:29,920
Speaker 1: I just I thank God, like to just continue to

1340
01:11:29,960 --> 01:11:32,160
Speaker 1: do the work to get past that, you know what

1341
01:11:32,200 --> 01:11:34,080
Speaker 1: I'm saying, and to just like move on.

1342
01:11:34,640 --> 01:11:37,200
Speaker 3: But it's in life at all. Yeah, you can get

1343
01:11:37,200 --> 01:11:38,120
Speaker 3: off balance at anything.

1344
01:11:38,240 --> 01:11:41,640
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, yes, but I feel like I have my

1345
01:11:41,720 --> 01:11:45,120
Speaker 1: feet on the ground that you and I'm taking nice walks,

1346
01:11:45,760 --> 01:11:48,040
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like nice walks.

1347
01:11:48,560 --> 01:11:51,200
Speaker 2: The thing about your career don't want to go back

1348
01:11:51,240 --> 01:11:54,559
Speaker 2: to for a second. It's like I see the actor

1349
01:11:54,600 --> 01:11:58,080
Speaker 2: in you right, Like it's like could you carry such

1350
01:11:58,080 --> 01:12:01,080
Speaker 2: are Like it's such a free vessel. It's not surprising

1351
01:12:01,120 --> 01:12:02,439
Speaker 2: to me that you're so good at what you do,

1352
01:12:03,400 --> 01:12:06,599
Speaker 2: but those so that you've chosen to teach people, it's

1353
01:12:06,600 --> 01:12:09,960
Speaker 2: like a different It's just a different layer of it,

1354
01:12:10,040 --> 01:12:10,400
Speaker 2: isn't it.

1355
01:12:10,479 --> 01:12:15,360
Speaker 1: Like honestly, it was my seed to what I wanted,

1356
01:12:16,400 --> 01:12:20,160
Speaker 1: Like literally it was my seed to what I was

1357
01:12:20,240 --> 01:12:23,559
Speaker 1: believing God for in my life. Like I wanted it

1358
01:12:23,640 --> 01:12:26,360
Speaker 1: so bad that I felt the best thing that I

1359
01:12:26,400 --> 01:12:29,920
Speaker 1: could do was empower other people to pursue their purpose

1360
01:12:29,960 --> 01:12:32,439
Speaker 1: in the arts, Like it became an addiction.

1361
01:12:32,560 --> 01:12:33,960
Speaker 3: I wanted to be a bridge.

1362
01:12:34,439 --> 01:12:37,320
Speaker 1: I was like, I want this so bad, like I've

1363
01:12:37,400 --> 01:12:38,240
Speaker 1: needed bridges.

1364
01:12:38,360 --> 01:12:39,560
Speaker 3: I've needed people.

1365
01:12:39,320 --> 01:12:42,519
Speaker 1: To sew into my life and into my career and

1366
01:12:42,560 --> 01:12:44,599
Speaker 1: for me to want it so bad, I was like,

1367
01:12:45,000 --> 01:12:48,679
Speaker 1: let me give back and empower other people to pursue

1368
01:12:48,720 --> 01:12:51,760
Speaker 1: their purpose and every time I've seen like even like

1369
01:12:51,800 --> 01:12:54,880
Speaker 1: when you think about Mary Sis, like when I first

1370
01:12:54,880 --> 01:12:58,080
Speaker 1: started to marry, Yes, when I first started coaching her

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01:12:58,680 --> 01:13:03,080
Speaker 1: and she was working on mud Bound, and I just

1372
01:13:03,280 --> 01:13:05,920
Speaker 1: remember like Mary had a lot of fears, a lot

1373
01:13:05,960 --> 01:13:11,599
Speaker 1: of insecurities about her actor. But as we started prepping

1374
01:13:11,640 --> 01:13:15,200
Speaker 1: the work, I remember telling her, I just got a feeling,

1375
01:13:16,200 --> 01:13:18,599
Speaker 1: you're going to get a nomination. You're going to get

1376
01:13:18,640 --> 01:13:23,439
Speaker 1: an Oscar nomination, like, you know. And to see Mary J.

1377
01:13:23,680 --> 01:13:29,559
Speaker 1: Blige expose herself in the way she did in mud Bound,

1378
01:13:30,360 --> 01:13:32,879
Speaker 1: and to be nominated for.

1379
01:13:32,760 --> 01:13:35,040
Speaker 3: An Oscar magic, you know.

1380
01:13:35,120 --> 01:13:39,000
Speaker 1: To be nominated for this Golden Glow and to go

1381
01:13:39,160 --> 01:13:44,560
Speaker 1: on that Oscar campaign, that right there was so fulfilling,

1382
01:13:44,840 --> 01:13:48,720
Speaker 1: Like it blessed me that I got a chance to

1383
01:13:49,000 --> 01:13:51,200
Speaker 1: be a part of that journey with her and to

1384
01:13:51,280 --> 01:13:55,439
Speaker 1: collaborate with her for that part of her legacy, even

1385
01:13:55,520 --> 01:13:59,400
Speaker 1: Andrew Day, you know, when she came to me when

1386
01:13:59,439 --> 01:14:02,120
Speaker 1: well Lee actually had me work with her, you know,

1387
01:14:02,240 --> 01:14:06,040
Speaker 1: and for her to be nominated for an Oscar someone

1388
01:14:06,080 --> 01:14:09,800
Speaker 1: that never believed that she could ever act, really, yes,

1389
01:14:10,000 --> 01:14:14,200
Speaker 1: she's so good. Oh my god, you have no idea.

1390
01:14:14,800 --> 01:14:17,840
Speaker 1: She did not believe and I remember when I was working,

1391
01:14:17,880 --> 01:14:20,680
Speaker 1: I was coaching her, just seeing if she could do

1392
01:14:20,760 --> 01:14:24,479
Speaker 1: the job. I remember I tapped into something with her

1393
01:14:24,840 --> 01:14:28,120
Speaker 1: and I said can I record this? And she said

1394
01:14:28,400 --> 01:14:30,600
Speaker 1: I don't care? You know, she was like sure, And

1395
01:14:30,680 --> 01:14:32,840
Speaker 1: I recorded this scene and I sent it to Lee.

1396
01:14:33,360 --> 01:14:36,640
Speaker 1: I said, this is your Billy. I said, this is

1397
01:14:36,680 --> 01:14:39,479
Speaker 1: your Billy. And not only is she going to do it,

1398
01:14:39,520 --> 01:14:41,880
Speaker 1: but she's going to get an Oscar nomination for this,

1399
01:14:42,240 --> 01:14:42,920
Speaker 1: and she ended.

1400
01:14:42,760 --> 01:14:44,200
Speaker 3: Up winning a Golden Globe.

1401
01:14:44,880 --> 01:14:48,759
Speaker 1: Beyond and seeing her career take off, seeing Mary's career

1402
01:14:48,800 --> 01:14:53,640
Speaker 1: take off, I mean, Mikayla Cole, you know Fka Twiggs,

1403
01:14:54,200 --> 01:14:55,040
Speaker 1: that's my baby.

1404
01:14:55,200 --> 01:14:56,080
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

1405
01:14:56,160 --> 01:15:01,799
Speaker 1: And to see her acting career Lance Gross, Joseph Gabrielle Dennis.

1406
01:15:01,840 --> 01:15:06,080
Speaker 1: I mean, so many amazing actors have come out of

1407
01:15:06,120 --> 01:15:09,960
Speaker 1: my school, and it's it is a blessing to be

1408
01:15:10,080 --> 01:15:12,439
Speaker 1: a part of someone else's career.

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01:15:12,760 --> 01:15:14,600
Speaker 3: What is that experience going in?

1410
01:15:14,760 --> 01:15:17,439
Speaker 2: Like if I'm a young actor and I sign up

1411
01:15:18,520 --> 01:15:20,760
Speaker 2: and I have to be the day that you're there

1412
01:15:20,960 --> 01:15:25,439
Speaker 2: teaching a class, what is the one on one for

1413
01:15:25,640 --> 01:15:29,639
Speaker 2: young actors? Like how are you? How are you raising them?

1414
01:15:29,680 --> 01:15:32,320
Speaker 2: What are you telling them. What is the thing if somebody,

1415
01:15:32,439 --> 01:15:35,519
Speaker 2: if somebody's sitting home now and has that little that.

1416
01:15:35,479 --> 01:15:37,599
Speaker 3: Little thing that you said, that little dream, that.

1417
01:15:37,520 --> 01:15:41,760
Speaker 1: Little what is the one thing as an actor that

1418
01:15:41,800 --> 01:15:44,599
Speaker 1: they should know or as an aspiring actor. Well, if

1419
01:15:44,640 --> 01:15:47,760
Speaker 1: you come into my studio, right, I feel like it's

1420
01:15:47,800 --> 01:15:52,479
Speaker 1: like a church, you know, I swear right. And if

1421
01:15:52,520 --> 01:15:56,559
Speaker 1: you come to me and you believe that that God

1422
01:15:56,600 --> 01:15:58,960
Speaker 1: placed me in your life to help empower you, I

1423
01:15:59,120 --> 01:16:02,840
Speaker 1: say to trust me, Like, just trust me because I

1424
01:16:02,960 --> 01:16:06,639
Speaker 1: may inspire you to do things that you've never done before. Right,

1425
01:16:06,880 --> 01:16:09,200
Speaker 1: But that's my job as a coach. I want to

1426
01:16:09,240 --> 01:16:12,599
Speaker 1: push you past what you feel your limitations on because

1427
01:16:12,600 --> 01:16:15,719
Speaker 1: a lot of times, you know, actors come into class

1428
01:16:15,760 --> 01:16:18,519
Speaker 1: and they think I can only do but like.

1429
01:16:18,479 --> 01:16:21,160
Speaker 3: But so much? Don't do that? People do that, do

1430
01:16:21,160 --> 01:16:21,760
Speaker 3: you know what I mean?

1431
01:16:22,520 --> 01:16:25,080
Speaker 1: But as as your coach, I'm looking at you and

1432
01:16:25,120 --> 01:16:27,280
Speaker 1: I'm seeing all these other things that I know you

1433
01:16:27,320 --> 01:16:30,040
Speaker 1: can do. So I'm going to go after that stuff

1434
01:16:30,280 --> 01:16:33,000
Speaker 1: because when you discover all the things you can do,

1435
01:16:33,400 --> 01:16:35,720
Speaker 1: it's only going to give you even more confidence for

1436
01:16:35,760 --> 01:16:36,360
Speaker 1: the for the.

1437
01:16:36,280 --> 01:16:38,400
Speaker 3: One little thing you thought you could do. Have people

1438
01:16:38,400 --> 01:16:40,120
Speaker 3: come in there, tell me I don't cry. I don't.

1439
01:16:40,400 --> 01:16:41,240
Speaker 3: I don't.

1440
01:16:41,280 --> 01:16:44,400
Speaker 1: I'm not happy, Like I want people to discover just

1441
01:16:44,439 --> 01:16:45,639
Speaker 1: how talent like they are.

1442
01:16:45,720 --> 01:16:47,400
Speaker 3: You could teach us in this room right now how

1443
01:16:47,400 --> 01:16:48,599
Speaker 3: to cry. Oh I could.

1444
01:16:49,800 --> 01:16:52,920
Speaker 1: I could take you through an exercise that could help

1445
01:16:53,000 --> 01:16:56,920
Speaker 1: you and tap into your tears. I could, like like

1446
01:16:57,000 --> 01:16:59,840
Speaker 1: in class, like we have our twelve step right, which

1447
01:16:59,880 --> 01:17:03,439
Speaker 1: is understanding like what to look for in the script,

1448
01:17:03,479 --> 01:17:06,439
Speaker 1: like you have your overall objective, like understanding what your

1449
01:17:06,520 --> 01:17:10,800
Speaker 1: character's overall objective is in the script, understanding what your

1450
01:17:10,880 --> 01:17:13,920
Speaker 1: character needs more than anything in the script.

1451
01:17:14,080 --> 01:17:14,240
Speaker 3: Right.

1452
01:17:14,280 --> 01:17:16,599
Speaker 1: When you know what your character needs, you know based

1453
01:17:16,640 --> 01:17:18,600
Speaker 1: on where your character ends up in the script, you

1454
01:17:18,680 --> 01:17:21,640
Speaker 1: know that's what my character was fighting for throughout the

1455
01:17:21,720 --> 01:17:24,639
Speaker 1: duration of the script. So then you look at your scenes,

1456
01:17:24,960 --> 01:17:28,360
Speaker 1: all right, how does this scene support where I'm going?

1457
01:17:29,000 --> 01:17:32,080
Speaker 1: What is my scene objective? What is the objective in

1458
01:17:32,160 --> 01:17:34,880
Speaker 1: this scene? And what are the obstacles in this scene

1459
01:17:34,880 --> 01:17:36,880
Speaker 1: that's blocking me from getting to where I'm trying to

1460
01:17:36,920 --> 01:17:40,040
Speaker 1: get to? Because that's all life is, right, Like we

1461
01:17:40,120 --> 01:17:43,479
Speaker 1: pursue our dreams, we get obstacles in the way, and

1462
01:17:43,520 --> 01:17:47,320
Speaker 1: then the obstacles sometimes are physical things or emotional things,

1463
01:17:47,320 --> 01:17:50,200
Speaker 1: are internal things or mental things that get in the

1464
01:17:50,240 --> 01:17:54,400
Speaker 1: way of us pursuing what our dream is. Right, I

1465
01:17:54,439 --> 01:17:56,679
Speaker 1: had an obstacle thinking I wasn't good enough, I wasn't

1466
01:17:56,680 --> 01:17:59,920
Speaker 1: talented enough, I didn't have enough education. Those became opso

1467
01:18:00,400 --> 01:18:02,960
Speaker 1: for me in pursuing my dream as an axt. So

1468
01:18:03,040 --> 01:18:06,000
Speaker 1: even in the script, you have obstacles, you have things

1469
01:18:06,040 --> 01:18:08,799
Speaker 1: that get in the way, right, you know, so you're

1470
01:18:08,960 --> 01:18:10,639
Speaker 1: looking for all of these things.

1471
01:18:10,720 --> 01:18:12,280
Speaker 3: You start breaking down.

1472
01:18:12,360 --> 01:18:15,840
Speaker 1: You get the blueprint of your character, of understanding who

1473
01:18:15,880 --> 01:18:19,559
Speaker 1: your character is, understanding all of those things, your placing. Fourth,

1474
01:18:19,520 --> 01:18:21,720
Speaker 1: while it's just acting one oh one, we deal with

1475
01:18:21,760 --> 01:18:23,839
Speaker 1: the foundations of acting.

1476
01:18:23,960 --> 01:18:24,160
Speaker 3: Right.

1477
01:18:24,720 --> 01:18:29,680
Speaker 1: Aside from the foundations of acting, I also teach emotional preparation.

1478
01:18:30,280 --> 01:18:33,840
Speaker 1: So some people don't understand how to access their emotions.

1479
01:18:34,120 --> 01:18:37,640
Speaker 1: So then we go through another process of how to

1480
01:18:37,800 --> 01:18:41,640
Speaker 1: access your emotions. So I have like a ton of

1481
01:18:41,680 --> 01:18:45,959
Speaker 1: exercises that I could take you through that can help.

1482
01:18:45,800 --> 01:18:48,600
Speaker 3: You tap into any emotions.

1483
01:18:48,600 --> 01:18:50,840
Speaker 1: Because at the end of the day, as actors, our

1484
01:18:50,920 --> 01:18:53,599
Speaker 1: emotions are part of our instrument and part of our

1485
01:18:53,600 --> 01:18:56,200
Speaker 1: ability to tell the story. You know what I mean,

1486
01:18:56,479 --> 01:18:59,800
Speaker 1: And so we discover what we're able to do by

1487
01:18:59,800 --> 01:19:03,160
Speaker 1: God went through those exercises, So I got an exercise

1488
01:19:03,200 --> 01:19:05,120
Speaker 1: for everything, I bet you do.

1489
01:19:05,439 --> 01:19:05,760
Speaker 3: You know why.

1490
01:19:05,800 --> 01:19:07,240
Speaker 2: I loved that you shared that, and I wanted to

1491
01:19:07,240 --> 01:19:09,120
Speaker 2: ask that because I think sometimes people have a dream

1492
01:19:09,120 --> 01:19:11,840
Speaker 2: and they don't they don't even see the line to it.

1493
01:19:12,360 --> 01:19:14,599
Speaker 3: Yeah right, But it's just that you haven't found it yet.

1494
01:19:14,720 --> 01:19:17,439
Speaker 2: Yes, right, So it's somebody who's sitting in Camden or

1495
01:19:17,479 --> 01:19:19,480
Speaker 2: some small town with it, dumping.

1496
01:19:19,680 --> 01:19:22,719
Speaker 3: Garbage exactly doesn't see a line to it.

1497
01:19:22,720 --> 01:19:26,400
Speaker 2: It takes a but there are steps, there are things

1498
01:19:26,400 --> 01:19:27,760
Speaker 2: that can get you to whatever it is.

1499
01:19:27,920 --> 01:19:30,400
Speaker 3: Yes, you just have to You just have to find it.

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01:19:30,520 --> 01:19:32,439
Speaker 1: And I want to give a little shout out to

1501
01:19:32,520 --> 01:19:37,080
Speaker 1: Mayor Vic Carstarffin in Camden, New Jersey. You're doing a

1502
01:19:37,080 --> 01:19:39,800
Speaker 1: great job and I'm proud of what you're doing for

1503
01:19:39,840 --> 01:19:40,519
Speaker 1: our city.

1504
01:19:40,800 --> 01:19:42,240
Speaker 3: And keep up the good work.

1505
01:19:42,920 --> 01:19:46,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, I got you, because there's a lot of good.

1506
01:19:46,360 --> 01:19:48,160
Speaker 1: We don't want to make it sound like it's not

1507
01:19:48,200 --> 01:19:49,320
Speaker 1: beautiful things happening.

1508
01:19:49,439 --> 01:19:52,560
Speaker 3: Yeah it is, and it's beautiful. Yeah, it's beautiful.

1509
01:19:58,680 --> 01:20:01,040
Speaker 2: All right, Tasha Smith, you're going in my rolbow right

1510
01:20:01,080 --> 01:20:02,000
Speaker 2: now in real life?

1511
01:20:02,160 --> 01:20:04,719
Speaker 3: Oh big a question? Any question?

1512
01:20:05,200 --> 01:20:10,360
Speaker 1: If you could instantly master any skill what would it be.

1513
01:20:10,439 --> 01:20:15,920
Speaker 1: I like this for you, instantly, not giving a fuck

1514
01:20:16,680 --> 01:20:22,000
Speaker 1: like you. I really sometimes care too fucking much. I

1515
01:20:22,040 --> 01:20:26,839
Speaker 1: do give no fucks this. I really have to, really

1516
01:20:27,160 --> 01:20:30,200
Speaker 1: really because sometimes I'd be caring too much. But if

1517
01:20:30,240 --> 01:20:32,400
Speaker 1: we want to look at a different kind of skill,

1518
01:20:32,840 --> 01:20:36,240
Speaker 1: you want to look at like a physical skill. Sure, Honestly,

1519
01:20:36,320 --> 01:20:39,720
Speaker 1: I wish I really had that AI shit down, like

1520
01:20:40,160 --> 01:20:44,280
Speaker 1: I wish that I understood computers more like I wish

1521
01:20:44,400 --> 01:20:46,880
Speaker 1: I was like a computer techie.

1522
01:20:46,920 --> 01:20:49,800
Speaker 2: I wish I was techie. I wish I had that

1523
01:20:50,080 --> 01:20:53,280
Speaker 2: skill that have an episode two episodes ago, I talked

1524
01:20:53,320 --> 01:20:58,080
Speaker 2: to a girl. Her name is Shanai Bobel right Snein Boveel.

1525
01:20:58,320 --> 01:20:59,479
Speaker 2: She's an AI expert.

1526
01:20:59,560 --> 01:21:04,439
Speaker 1: She cansaults with the U and Advisory Board like young, smart,

1527
01:21:04,560 --> 01:21:05,200
Speaker 1: super dope.

1528
01:21:05,280 --> 01:21:07,400
Speaker 2: I did an episode with her. It's not even normal

1529
01:21:07,400 --> 01:21:09,160
Speaker 2: that we would do that thing on I r L.

1530
01:21:09,680 --> 01:21:14,839
Speaker 2: But she understands the world and the and she framed

1531
01:21:14,880 --> 01:21:17,360
Speaker 2: AI for us in such an interesting way. Not that

1532
01:21:17,400 --> 01:21:19,360
Speaker 2: I'm been out, we just dropped it.

1533
01:21:19,400 --> 01:21:22,160
Speaker 1: Oh, I got it, because honestly, I.

1534
01:21:22,120 --> 01:21:24,400
Speaker 3: Feel like she's somebody you should know. I think she

1535
01:21:24,439 --> 01:21:27,080
Speaker 3: would I would love that because we got to get together, says,

1536
01:21:27,080 --> 01:21:29,840
Speaker 3: you know it's had. World is changing. She used them.

1537
01:21:30,320 --> 01:21:32,920
Speaker 3: I thought that it's like electricity. It is.

1538
01:21:33,160 --> 01:21:35,160
Speaker 2: You don't even have to choose to us Ai, it's

1539
01:21:35,200 --> 01:21:36,920
Speaker 2: already had. It's electricity.

1540
01:21:36,960 --> 01:21:40,519
Speaker 3: It's on. It's it's on like you, it's on, It's

1541
01:21:40,560 --> 01:21:44,280
Speaker 3: on everything. I want to understand all of it more.

1542
01:21:44,640 --> 01:21:47,479
Speaker 3: Just watch the pot that I want. You need to

1543
01:21:47,520 --> 01:21:50,120
Speaker 3: be please, we need to get you please. You know

1544
01:21:50,200 --> 01:21:53,400
Speaker 3: I love that for you. Yes, I have my only one.

1545
01:21:53,680 --> 01:21:55,280
Speaker 3: You want to do one more? Last one? Last one's

1546
01:21:55,360 --> 01:21:56,920
Speaker 3: up to you. We usually do three. Go ahead, do

1547
01:21:56,960 --> 01:21:59,760
Speaker 3: one more? Okay? You know I don't wand a question.

1548
01:22:00,040 --> 01:22:00,800
Speaker 3: I could talk right.

1549
01:22:01,120 --> 01:22:03,200
Speaker 1: No, that's the.

1550
01:22:03,200 --> 01:22:06,000
Speaker 3: Problem, I said. I'm like brind of wine A okay.

1551
01:22:06,200 --> 01:22:08,719
Speaker 1: That's what we needed for this episode was, Oh my god,

1552
01:22:09,200 --> 01:22:12,479
Speaker 1: if today were your last day on Earth, what would.

1553
01:22:12,320 --> 01:22:15,400
Speaker 3: You be doing? Wow?

1554
01:22:15,920 --> 01:22:18,559
Speaker 1: If it was my last day on Earth, what would

1555
01:22:18,560 --> 01:22:21,080
Speaker 1: I be doing? Honestly?

1556
01:22:22,960 --> 01:22:23,760
Speaker 3: What would I be doing?

1557
01:22:23,800 --> 01:22:26,320
Speaker 1: I would just want to be happy and loving on myself,

1558
01:22:26,920 --> 01:22:31,640
Speaker 1: like just appreciating myself, appreciating myself and my life and

1559
01:22:31,680 --> 01:22:35,040
Speaker 1: the things that I've done, and not being hard on myself,

1560
01:22:35,120 --> 01:22:38,559
Speaker 1: like really saying, Tash, you did that just really just

1561
01:22:38,720 --> 01:22:42,479
Speaker 1: loving and celebrating myself. Like who wants to go out

1562
01:22:43,240 --> 01:22:48,080
Speaker 1: and not like have loved yourself and have celebrated yourself,

1563
01:22:48,160 --> 01:22:50,400
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like, that's why you got

1564
01:22:50,400 --> 01:22:54,040
Speaker 1: to do everything you want to do because life is

1565
01:22:54,080 --> 01:22:58,080
Speaker 1: so short. You don't want to constantly live life only

1566
01:22:58,120 --> 01:23:00,360
Speaker 1: to please everyone else else.

1567
01:23:00,720 --> 01:23:04,160
Speaker 2: Imagine you leave the earth without having that glory moment

1568
01:23:04,320 --> 01:23:06,479
Speaker 2: that you know what I'm saying, how proud you are

1569
01:23:06,520 --> 01:23:12,200
Speaker 2: of yourself, of yourself, and also thinking, I really neglected

1570
01:23:12,240 --> 01:23:14,519
Speaker 2: myself so much and delayed.

1571
01:23:14,560 --> 01:23:15,760
Speaker 3: Today is my last day.

1572
01:23:16,000 --> 01:23:19,040
Speaker 1: But I didn't even give myself the chance in the

1573
01:23:19,080 --> 01:23:21,120
Speaker 1: way that I gave everyone else around me.

1574
01:23:21,600 --> 01:23:22,320
Speaker 3: That's a word.

1575
01:23:22,760 --> 01:23:26,200
Speaker 1: Okay, I didn't give myself a chance in the way

1576
01:23:26,200 --> 01:23:28,000
Speaker 1: that I gave everyone else around me.

1577
01:23:28,360 --> 01:23:30,760
Speaker 3: Think about it, like, sometimes.

1578
01:23:30,200 --> 01:23:35,000
Speaker 1: We're more patient and loving with everyone else because of

1579
01:23:35,040 --> 01:23:37,920
Speaker 1: whether we want to be liked or accepted. But we

1580
01:23:37,960 --> 01:23:42,320
Speaker 1: will love on everyone else sometimes more than we even

1581
01:23:42,360 --> 01:23:43,280
Speaker 1: love on ourselves.

1582
01:23:43,400 --> 01:23:45,920
Speaker 3: Why don't we do that? I don't know. Maybe it's

1583
01:23:45,960 --> 01:23:48,000
Speaker 3: because of just the way we've been brought up. I

1584
01:23:48,080 --> 01:23:51,439
Speaker 3: don't know. But when does it end? Girl? Hopefully?

1585
01:23:51,600 --> 01:23:52,040
Speaker 1: Right? Dawn?

1586
01:23:53,040 --> 01:23:54,799
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying like, can we.

1587
01:23:54,800 --> 01:23:59,240
Speaker 1: Just please love ourselves the way that we try to

1588
01:23:59,320 --> 01:24:03,160
Speaker 1: love people that we want attention from, because think about it.

1589
01:24:04,120 --> 01:24:07,040
Speaker 2: Okay, No, I was gonna say that. I always remind

1590
01:24:07,080 --> 01:24:11,000
Speaker 2: myself because I used to hear you know, you gotta

1591
01:24:11,280 --> 01:24:13,519
Speaker 2: it's like the airplane. You gotta put your sepelt down

1592
01:24:13,560 --> 01:24:17,439
Speaker 2: before you take care of everybody else or put yourself first.

1593
01:24:17,680 --> 01:24:20,720
Speaker 2: And I never could wrap my brain around putting myself first,

1594
01:24:20,760 --> 01:24:22,439
Speaker 2: especially when there's people in my life that I love

1595
01:24:22,520 --> 01:24:22,920
Speaker 2: so much.

1596
01:24:23,680 --> 01:24:26,000
Speaker 3: But something about when I realized.

1597
01:24:25,840 --> 01:24:28,439
Speaker 1: Okay, if you're not all the way ready to put

1598
01:24:28,439 --> 01:24:31,360
Speaker 1: yourself first, which sounds crazy, I know, but if you're

1599
01:24:31,400 --> 01:24:35,200
Speaker 1: not ready for that, at least put yourself on the

1600
01:24:35,240 --> 01:24:38,360
Speaker 1: same level that you put everybody else that you love.

1601
01:24:38,960 --> 01:24:41,120
Speaker 3: Okay, just at the bare minimum.

1602
01:24:41,160 --> 01:24:44,320
Speaker 2: Okay, you know what I'm saying, Like something about hearing

1603
01:24:44,360 --> 01:24:46,519
Speaker 2: it that way or telling it to myself that way

1604
01:24:47,439 --> 01:24:49,320
Speaker 2: really put some shit into perspective.

1605
01:24:49,840 --> 01:24:53,400
Speaker 1: It's real because think about the people that we will

1606
01:24:53,439 --> 01:24:54,920
Speaker 1: go out of our ways for.

1607
01:24:55,280 --> 01:24:57,800
Speaker 3: Yeah, for sure, right we will go out of our

1608
01:24:57,840 --> 01:25:00,599
Speaker 3: ways for people. But then when this time for us

1609
01:25:00,640 --> 01:25:04,160
Speaker 3: to go out of our ways for ourselves, we may

1610
01:25:04,200 --> 01:25:06,920
Speaker 3: not always do that you know what I'm saying.

1611
01:25:07,000 --> 01:25:08,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, Or you're afraid to do something because how it's

1612
01:25:08,720 --> 01:25:11,599
Speaker 2: going to affect everyone else? Yes, how other will land

1613
01:25:11,680 --> 01:25:13,040
Speaker 2: and other people's But then you're.

1614
01:25:12,840 --> 01:25:14,200
Speaker 3: Like, well, how is it landing on me?

1615
01:25:14,960 --> 01:25:17,840
Speaker 2: Why do I only care about how it's landing for

1616
01:25:17,880 --> 01:25:18,559
Speaker 2: everyone else?

1617
01:25:18,800 --> 01:25:21,200
Speaker 3: Yes? Why am I at least even if I put

1618
01:25:21,240 --> 01:25:24,280
Speaker 3: myself above? Why am I not at least in the

1619
01:25:24,320 --> 01:25:26,519
Speaker 3: equation of how this lands?

1620
01:25:26,760 --> 01:25:31,320
Speaker 1: Sis, you are so good at what you are, like seriously,

1621
01:25:31,560 --> 01:25:36,400
Speaker 1: like you're so good, Like I didn't know. And when

1622
01:25:36,439 --> 01:25:40,160
Speaker 1: I see your show, like I see how thoughtful you

1623
01:25:40,320 --> 01:25:44,160
Speaker 1: are and how present you are with people and everything.

1624
01:25:44,680 --> 01:25:47,519
Speaker 3: But honestly, Sis, you are so good.

1625
01:25:47,800 --> 01:25:49,840
Speaker 1: It's almost like I felt like I was sitting here

1626
01:25:49,840 --> 01:25:53,040
Speaker 1: with Barbara Walters for a hot second. I'm just looking

1627
01:25:53,040 --> 01:25:55,559
Speaker 1: at you, and I'm just like, you are just so

1628
01:25:55,800 --> 01:26:01,400
Speaker 1: good and so thoughtful, and your heart is so incredible.

1629
01:26:02,160 --> 01:26:03,519
Speaker 3: It You're really good.

1630
01:26:03,600 --> 01:26:06,200
Speaker 1: I just pray you get everything you want out of

1631
01:26:06,200 --> 01:26:10,320
Speaker 1: this and even more, even more, I feel like you.

1632
01:26:10,400 --> 01:26:12,880
Speaker 1: I feel like I just you do it because it's

1633
01:26:12,880 --> 01:26:15,160
Speaker 1: what you're supposed to do, and I feel connected to it,

1634
01:26:15,240 --> 01:26:18,160
Speaker 1: and so I don't know, I don't have an objective

1635
01:26:18,160 --> 01:26:19,439
Speaker 1: even to where this lands.

1636
01:26:19,840 --> 01:26:21,920
Speaker 2: This pot is really I tell you, it's really an offering.

1637
01:26:22,080 --> 01:26:24,559
Speaker 2: There's no big plan. Yes, do I want to pray

1638
01:26:24,640 --> 01:26:25,439
Speaker 2: for the big plan?

1639
01:26:25,600 --> 01:26:28,240
Speaker 3: Okay, I'll take it. I want the big plan really yeah.

1640
01:26:28,439 --> 01:26:29,920
Speaker 3: I always want to be I want you to get

1641
01:26:29,960 --> 01:26:33,720
Speaker 3: like a show on you know something, what what do

1642
01:26:33,720 --> 01:26:34,000
Speaker 3: you like?

1643
01:26:34,720 --> 01:26:39,920
Speaker 1: I mean, honestly, I see this show like it's not

1644
01:26:40,280 --> 01:26:42,840
Speaker 1: like what sixty Minutes was, but it's like what Barbara

1645
01:26:42,920 --> 01:26:46,120
Speaker 1: Walters was like. I see it like that, Like I

1646
01:26:46,200 --> 01:26:50,040
Speaker 1: see you being on prime Time, like I do they

1647
01:26:50,160 --> 01:26:50,679
Speaker 1: need you?

1648
01:26:51,160 --> 01:26:52,200
Speaker 3: They're missing out.

1649
01:26:52,280 --> 01:26:56,280
Speaker 5: I don't know if prime Time is it's right, but

1650
01:26:56,439 --> 01:27:00,640
Speaker 5: whatever that is, like whether it's through streamer, through you

1651
01:27:00,720 --> 01:27:07,960
Speaker 5: know whatever, prime streaming prime like like cable Prime, you know,

1652
01:27:08,760 --> 01:27:09,800
Speaker 5: uh TV.

1653
01:27:10,160 --> 01:27:13,120
Speaker 1: Not that this isn't a great platform, because this is

1654
01:27:13,280 --> 01:27:16,840
Speaker 1: a great platform, but I just I feel like there

1655
01:27:16,960 --> 01:27:20,880
Speaker 1: is more that's coming, that there's greater that's coming.

1656
01:27:20,960 --> 01:27:23,360
Speaker 3: I receive it. I'll take it. I do man, I'll

1657
01:27:23,400 --> 01:27:25,280
Speaker 3: do all of that. I just really do see it.

1658
01:27:25,320 --> 01:27:28,000
Speaker 3: Thank you. I love that. Thank you. I'll take it.

1659
01:27:28,320 --> 01:27:30,639
Speaker 3: And I believe by the way, I don't know something

1660
01:27:30,640 --> 01:27:32,599
Speaker 3: about the way you deliver of something aligned.

1661
01:27:33,000 --> 01:27:36,000
Speaker 1: I believe it because we need you and we need

1662
01:27:36,040 --> 01:27:40,120
Speaker 1: your energy, like we need your energy and we need

1663
01:27:40,640 --> 01:27:42,720
Speaker 1: what you are allowing.

1664
01:27:42,360 --> 01:27:44,559
Speaker 3: People to do on this platform. Thank you.

1665
01:27:45,240 --> 01:27:47,000
Speaker 2: I'm grateful for that, the same way you say, like

1666
01:27:47,040 --> 01:27:49,479
Speaker 2: you don't you you don't take any of it for granted,

1667
01:27:49,520 --> 01:27:50,320
Speaker 2: and you know it's grateful.

1668
01:27:50,320 --> 01:27:51,040
Speaker 3: It's the same with me.

1669
01:27:51,240 --> 01:27:53,360
Speaker 2: Also, I feel like these are a lot of times

1670
01:27:53,560 --> 01:27:55,600
Speaker 2: I do share some of my stories, but it's not

1671
01:27:55,680 --> 01:27:58,720
Speaker 2: my stories to tell, right, So I really live in

1672
01:27:58,760 --> 01:28:01,040
Speaker 2: the gratitude of it because it's it's whoever sits in

1673
01:28:01,080 --> 01:28:04,080
Speaker 2: the chair, it's your offering, you know, like I told you,

1674
01:28:04,080 --> 01:28:06,240
Speaker 2: so it's I don't. I don't take all the glory

1675
01:28:06,280 --> 01:28:08,519
Speaker 2: for it, but I'm grateful to have to be in

1676
01:28:08,560 --> 01:28:10,600
Speaker 2: the seat and to be given the purpose to be

1677
01:28:10,640 --> 01:28:11,040
Speaker 2: able to.

1678
01:28:11,000 --> 01:28:14,840
Speaker 3: Help deliver the story. So wherever it.

1679
01:28:14,760 --> 01:28:16,719
Speaker 2: Goes, I'm on the ride and it's and it's fine.

1680
01:28:16,720 --> 01:28:18,920
Speaker 2: And if we stay right here, that's cool too. There's

1681
01:28:18,920 --> 01:28:20,439
Speaker 2: other things I want to do. I shared with you

1682
01:28:20,520 --> 01:28:22,680
Speaker 2: that next week I'm starting.

1683
01:28:22,360 --> 01:28:26,479
Speaker 1: An exciting so excited Brittany wants me to talk about

1684
01:28:26,479 --> 01:28:27,800
Speaker 1: it today? Should I talk about it today?

1685
01:28:27,800 --> 01:28:28,360
Speaker 3: It's too soon.

1686
01:28:28,800 --> 01:28:30,879
Speaker 2: How do you feel about putting things in the universe

1687
01:28:31,360 --> 01:28:33,559
Speaker 2: before you do them. Are you a person who, like

1688
01:28:34,520 --> 01:28:37,840
Speaker 2: I always go back and forth with that, like, just

1689
01:28:37,920 --> 01:28:40,320
Speaker 2: do the work and then let it speak for itself,

1690
01:28:40,439 --> 01:28:42,519
Speaker 2: or do you put it in the universe and share

1691
01:28:42,880 --> 01:28:43,240
Speaker 2: and then?

1692
01:28:43,439 --> 01:28:44,040
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

1693
01:28:44,200 --> 01:28:46,960
Speaker 1: It's so interesting because there are so many things that

1694
01:28:47,000 --> 01:28:49,720
Speaker 1: I want to share with you right now that I

1695
01:28:49,760 --> 01:28:50,400
Speaker 1: can't yet.

1696
01:28:50,439 --> 01:28:52,120
Speaker 3: You don't want to put in the universe. I can't

1697
01:28:52,160 --> 01:28:53,800
Speaker 3: put it in the universe yet, got it?

1698
01:28:53,840 --> 01:28:57,559
Speaker 1: But that's what you are really doing, like mine is

1699
01:28:57,600 --> 01:28:58,559
Speaker 1: in a week away.

1700
01:28:59,240 --> 01:29:00,000
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

1701
01:29:00,800 --> 01:29:04,559
Speaker 1: But I understand what you're saying because I feel the

1702
01:29:04,600 --> 01:29:05,200
Speaker 1: same way.

1703
01:29:05,680 --> 01:29:08,360
Speaker 3: I just would like to ask if.

1704
01:29:08,560 --> 01:29:11,600
Speaker 1: You would invite me back on your show after you

1705
01:29:11,680 --> 01:29:14,080
Speaker 1: do what you're doing next week, so that we could

1706
01:29:14,120 --> 01:29:17,160
Speaker 1: talk about your experience. Well, it's just I think the

1707
01:29:17,200 --> 01:29:19,000
Speaker 1: only reason I even think to talk about it is

1708
01:29:19,040 --> 01:29:21,280
Speaker 1: because of what you do and how great you are

1709
01:29:21,320 --> 01:29:25,160
Speaker 1: at it and the universe putting us in the chair together,

1710
01:29:25,200 --> 01:29:29,120
Speaker 1: it makes me kind of your spirit set. I don't know,

1711
01:29:32,120 --> 01:29:35,040
Speaker 1: I don't know. I mean, yeah, it's fine, it's not

1712
01:29:35,040 --> 01:29:37,880
Speaker 1: like a big secret. It's just that I shared this

1713
01:29:37,960 --> 01:29:39,320
Speaker 1: with you privately.

1714
01:29:39,080 --> 01:29:42,280
Speaker 3: And something that I am so excited about.

1715
01:29:42,360 --> 01:29:46,320
Speaker 1: You're so sweet and I'm so happy for you, and

1716
01:29:46,439 --> 01:29:50,760
Speaker 1: I mean, I am so like I am celebrating you already,

1717
01:29:50,800 --> 01:29:53,760
Speaker 1: and I am my foot is on your ass, and

1718
01:29:53,840 --> 01:29:58,640
Speaker 1: I am kicking you out there like aggressively, like I

1719
01:29:58,680 --> 01:29:59,840
Speaker 1: am like pushing you.

1720
01:30:00,120 --> 01:30:04,240
Speaker 3: I'm like pushing you like out there. So weird stuff.

1721
01:30:04,560 --> 01:30:04,720
Speaker 1: You know.

1722
01:30:04,760 --> 01:30:06,760
Speaker 2: It's funny because you tell me, oh, you do this,

1723
01:30:06,840 --> 01:30:09,120
Speaker 2: and like you were, It's like you doing something out

1724
01:30:09,120 --> 01:30:11,200
Speaker 2: of your comfort zone. You have your comfort zone and

1725
01:30:11,200 --> 01:30:13,360
Speaker 2: you're great at what you do. I have my comfort zone.

1726
01:30:13,400 --> 01:30:15,439
Speaker 2: But then every now and then we have to challenge ourselves,

1727
01:30:15,479 --> 01:30:17,719
Speaker 2: right and the things that are outside of our comforence.

1728
01:30:17,760 --> 01:30:20,960
Speaker 2: And I've always had this. I posted something once during

1729
01:30:20,960 --> 01:30:22,320
Speaker 2: COVID because I was writing a lot.

1730
01:30:22,400 --> 01:30:24,680
Speaker 3: During COVID. I write a lot. People don't maybe not

1731
01:30:24,800 --> 01:30:26,200
Speaker 3: know that, but I write a lot.

1732
01:30:26,240 --> 01:30:28,000
Speaker 2: And one time I was writing during COVID and I

1733
01:30:28,040 --> 01:30:30,760
Speaker 2: posted that it's on my bucket list to be able

1734
01:30:30,800 --> 01:30:36,599
Speaker 2: to write, create, and direct and complete a project from

1735
01:30:36,640 --> 01:30:40,040
Speaker 2: the beginning of inception to putting it out into the world.

1736
01:30:40,280 --> 01:30:42,000
Speaker 2: It's like on a bucket list thing for me, Like

1737
01:30:42,040 --> 01:30:43,920
Speaker 2: I really want to have that experience, right.

1738
01:30:43,960 --> 01:30:45,240
Speaker 3: So I've been writing, writing, writing.

1739
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Speaker 2: The first script kind of just had been sitting and

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01:30:47,600 --> 01:30:51,520
Speaker 2: then I wrote this. It's a short film that I wrote,

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01:30:51,720 --> 01:30:55,320
Speaker 2: and the God, the universe, the world has just kind

1742
01:30:55,360 --> 01:30:58,599
Speaker 2: of put me in position to finally shoot it next Monday.

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01:30:58,760 --> 01:31:06,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, and you're sure because you are what the the director?

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01:31:06,320 --> 01:31:09,800
Speaker 3: Yes, the director. I am the writer and director and

1745
01:31:09,920 --> 01:31:12,240
Speaker 3: the director. I wrote it. I'm going to direct and

1746
01:31:12,240 --> 01:31:13,000
Speaker 3: who don't listen.

1747
01:31:13,160 --> 01:31:14,920
Speaker 2: The reason I don't want to share it too much

1748
01:31:14,960 --> 01:31:16,200
Speaker 2: is because who knows where it lands?

1749
01:31:16,600 --> 01:31:17,120
Speaker 3: You create?

1750
01:31:17,200 --> 01:31:19,280
Speaker 2: You don't know where your creation lands. It can less

1751
01:31:19,400 --> 01:31:21,320
Speaker 2: who knows, And so I don't want to have too

1752
01:31:21,400 --> 01:31:22,360
Speaker 2: much expectations.

1753
01:31:22,560 --> 01:31:27,680
Speaker 1: You are about to direct the first short film that

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01:31:27,960 --> 01:31:31,880
Speaker 1: you wrote, and can I tell you sis, that's how

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01:31:31,920 --> 01:31:37,080
Speaker 1: I started directing. Really, I wrote and directed my first

1756
01:31:37,120 --> 01:31:41,599
Speaker 1: short film, Paul boxed In. I spent my own money.

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01:31:41,960 --> 01:31:46,639
Speaker 1: It was the seed into my directing career. You are

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01:31:46,880 --> 01:31:51,040
Speaker 1: writing and directing, paying for it, and I think you

1759
01:31:51,120 --> 01:31:53,080
Speaker 1: got donations too, right, didn't somebody get.

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01:31:53,680 --> 01:31:56,120
Speaker 2: Firsone who gave me I'm shooting it's very short, Yeah,

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01:31:56,120 --> 01:31:58,479
Speaker 2: but it's a low budget. Yeah, He's like to you know,

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01:31:59,120 --> 01:32:02,479
Speaker 2: it's a big I got a lot of favors, yes,

1763
01:32:03,000 --> 01:32:04,360
Speaker 2: ask for a lot of favors to get it.

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01:32:04,600 --> 01:32:07,840
Speaker 1: Yes, And that's where it starts. And I believe that

1765
01:32:08,360 --> 01:32:11,439
Speaker 1: you're gonna do this. And then just like I did it,

1766
01:32:11,560 --> 01:32:14,519
Speaker 1: I didn't know like I would end up directing the

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01:32:14,640 --> 01:32:19,400
Speaker 1: pilot for BMF, directing Mayor of Kingstown, directing Nine to

1768
01:32:19,439 --> 01:32:24,640
Speaker 1: one one, directing the Equalizer, directing the Rookie directing Harlem,

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01:32:24,720 --> 01:32:28,760
Speaker 1: directing of these shows. Don't we just have a one

1770
01:32:28,800 --> 01:32:31,599
Speaker 1: time s not a little one side for that says,

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01:32:31,880 --> 01:32:34,760
Speaker 1: that's amazing. You don't know where you might be directing

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01:32:34,960 --> 01:32:37,000
Speaker 1: all of the New York shows. You might be like,

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01:32:37,000 --> 01:32:39,200
Speaker 1: all right, long order, I'm on my way, and I

1774
01:32:39,320 --> 01:32:41,240
Speaker 1: know I'm coming. I'm a director, sis.

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Speaker 3: I don't know where it goes. Honestly, I don't know.

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01:32:43,280 --> 01:32:45,439
Speaker 2: It's a little baby seed of something that I've always

1777
01:32:45,439 --> 01:32:46,880
Speaker 2: wanted to do and I'm just gonna do it. It's

1778
01:32:46,880 --> 01:32:48,719
Speaker 2: like I don't know where it lands, but I'm gonna

1779
01:32:48,760 --> 01:32:51,439
Speaker 2: just get it done. And Brittany is my producing partners

1780
01:32:51,520 --> 01:32:55,040
Speaker 2: on it. I'm so my podcast this. This is the first

1781
01:32:55,080 --> 01:32:58,639
Speaker 2: time I was working on a documentary. I was kind

1782
01:32:58,640 --> 01:33:00,559
Speaker 2: of directing that didn't cut come out.

1783
01:33:00,600 --> 01:33:03,479
Speaker 3: But I've never done anything scripted. This is my first project.

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01:33:03,520 --> 01:33:05,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, so it's exciting to even push yourself to do

1785
01:33:06,040 --> 01:33:09,760
Speaker 1: something so excited me too. I'm so exciting and you

1786
01:33:09,800 --> 01:33:12,200
Speaker 1: have so when I told you you were.

1787
01:33:12,240 --> 01:33:13,680
Speaker 3: You were like more excited than me. I was like,

1788
01:33:13,800 --> 01:33:15,200
Speaker 3: oh gosh, you're so excited.

1789
01:33:15,840 --> 01:33:18,920
Speaker 4: Wait a minute, am I'm like, no, Natasha took like

1790
01:33:18,960 --> 01:33:20,719
Speaker 4: a little project's like, oh.

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01:33:20,760 --> 01:33:24,160
Speaker 1: Matter, if it's four minutes long, it is amazing, and

1792
01:33:24,280 --> 01:33:28,240
Speaker 1: it's gonna be great and you're gonna have an amazing experience.

1793
01:33:28,640 --> 01:33:30,920
Speaker 1: And then it's gonna be your choice. All right, do

1794
01:33:31,000 --> 01:33:33,000
Speaker 1: you want to keep going? And more than likely you

1795
01:33:33,040 --> 01:33:33,760
Speaker 1: probably will.

1796
01:33:33,840 --> 01:33:35,479
Speaker 3: Let's see, let's see what did you do?

1797
01:33:35,479 --> 01:33:35,720
Speaker 1: You have?

1798
01:33:36,000 --> 01:33:37,840
Speaker 3: The number one directing advice.

1799
01:33:37,520 --> 01:33:40,439
Speaker 1: For me, the numb is to trust your story, trust

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01:33:40,439 --> 01:33:43,519
Speaker 1: your spirit, trust the story you want to tell. Like,

1801
01:33:43,640 --> 01:33:47,320
Speaker 1: don't let anyone try to get you to be indecisive

1802
01:33:47,360 --> 01:33:51,040
Speaker 1: about your choices. I always say, and a double minded

1803
01:33:51,080 --> 01:33:52,880
Speaker 1: man is unstable on set.

1804
01:33:53,280 --> 01:33:54,000
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

1805
01:33:54,160 --> 01:33:57,280
Speaker 1: Like, you're unstable. If you're double minded all the time,

1806
01:33:57,520 --> 01:34:00,840
Speaker 1: you won't make choices fast enough. Like time is money,

1807
01:34:00,840 --> 01:34:04,480
Speaker 1: Money is time, and so you have to trust your choices,

1808
01:34:04,840 --> 01:34:06,800
Speaker 1: you know, especially if you have to work within a

1809
01:34:06,840 --> 01:34:10,320
Speaker 1: certain timeframe. I direct a lot of episodic television, so

1810
01:34:10,439 --> 01:34:13,479
Speaker 1: you are always it's like a race against time. So

1811
01:34:13,520 --> 01:34:16,400
Speaker 1: when you make your choices, you gotta trust your choices.

1812
01:34:16,640 --> 01:34:18,680
Speaker 1: You may have other people coming in and trying to

1813
01:34:18,720 --> 01:34:21,519
Speaker 1: throw all kinds of shit out there, but you if

1814
01:34:21,520 --> 01:34:24,960
Speaker 1: something sounds good, great, but if it doesn't, no.

1815
01:34:25,080 --> 01:34:26,960
Speaker 3: I don't want to do that.

1816
01:34:27,160 --> 01:34:31,840
Speaker 1: Be decisive, Be extremely decisive about your choices.

1817
01:34:32,240 --> 01:34:34,519
Speaker 3: And this is your story to tell.

1818
01:34:34,840 --> 01:34:37,240
Speaker 1: That's why the DGA says that every director has to

1819
01:34:37,280 --> 01:34:38,479
Speaker 1: tell their story.

1820
01:34:38,840 --> 01:34:41,040
Speaker 3: You have a right to tell your story.

1821
01:34:41,560 --> 01:34:45,240
Speaker 1: Trust your story, tell it in the way you see it,

1822
01:34:45,560 --> 01:34:48,800
Speaker 1: and just know that everyone around you is there to

1823
01:34:49,000 --> 01:34:53,840
Speaker 1: support your vision. Everyone is there to support your vision,

1824
01:34:54,120 --> 01:34:56,960
Speaker 1: and you're not there by yourself. You don't have to

1825
01:34:57,000 --> 01:35:00,920
Speaker 1: do everything. You have a cameraman, you have a DP,

1826
01:35:01,400 --> 01:35:02,080
Speaker 1: you have sound.

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01:35:02,439 --> 01:35:04,439
Speaker 3: We have a small we have a small cross time

1828
01:35:05,640 --> 01:35:07,920
Speaker 3: through Yeah, and Eth has been very.

1829
01:35:09,280 --> 01:35:12,840
Speaker 2: We love we love Eve and Pacas like my community

1830
01:35:12,920 --> 01:35:13,519
Speaker 2: has been like.

1831
01:35:13,680 --> 01:35:16,479
Speaker 3: Yeah, girl, you want to I doubt you. I've been

1832
01:35:17,320 --> 01:35:19,760
Speaker 3: you know. People have offered their support, which is so

1833
01:35:20,000 --> 01:35:23,679
Speaker 3: which is trust yourself, thank your story sis.

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01:35:23,680 --> 01:35:25,920
Speaker 2: One of the reasons I share that story is is

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01:35:26,040 --> 01:35:28,599
Speaker 2: also I just I was reluctant because I don't want

1836
01:35:28,600 --> 01:35:30,439
Speaker 2: it to get into like I'm promoting.

1837
01:35:29,920 --> 01:35:32,639
Speaker 3: It's It's really not that, but I am.

1838
01:35:32,760 --> 01:35:36,120
Speaker 2: I do want to promote the idea of like trying

1839
01:35:36,200 --> 01:35:40,400
Speaker 2: new ship, yes, to myself and to whoever's watching for

1840
01:35:40,479 --> 01:35:41,120
Speaker 2: that to land.

1841
01:35:41,240 --> 01:35:43,600
Speaker 3: Like everybody has little things you want to do, we

1842
01:35:43,640 --> 01:35:44,160
Speaker 3: want to try this.

1843
01:35:44,520 --> 01:35:47,839
Speaker 2: By the way, this I have five hundred thousand reasons,

1844
01:35:47,880 --> 01:35:51,160
Speaker 2: including the siren in the background, why I don't have

1845
01:35:51,240 --> 01:35:52,920
Speaker 2: time for this, or I shouldn't do it, or what

1846
01:35:53,280 --> 01:35:55,360
Speaker 2: is the point I could I could talk myself off

1847
01:35:55,400 --> 01:35:58,479
Speaker 2: the ledge five thousand times, but.

1848
01:35:58,439 --> 01:36:01,320
Speaker 3: The point is is like we live one time. You

1849
01:36:01,400 --> 01:36:02,040
Speaker 3: live one time.

1850
01:36:02,160 --> 01:36:04,040
Speaker 2: You want to do something that you get that little

1851
01:36:04,080 --> 01:36:06,719
Speaker 2: you get a little story in your heart.

1852
01:36:06,800 --> 01:36:10,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, tell it, tell it right, gotta tell me. Hold on.

1853
01:36:10,200 --> 01:36:13,240
Speaker 1: I'm so excited and I will be sending you love.

1854
01:36:13,280 --> 01:36:15,920
Speaker 1: And you know I'm a phone call away. You could

1855
01:36:15,920 --> 01:36:18,800
Speaker 1: call me for anything if it's any thoughts. And I

1856
01:36:18,840 --> 01:36:21,360
Speaker 1: know you have eve as well. But just know I'm

1857
01:36:21,360 --> 01:36:21,960
Speaker 1: here for you.

1858
01:36:22,120 --> 01:36:24,080
Speaker 3: I know you are. I know you're gonna kick ass.

1859
01:36:24,800 --> 01:36:27,960
Speaker 1: I know you are Oh my god, if you need

1860
01:36:28,000 --> 01:36:31,759
Speaker 1: help with directing your actors, call me. Okay, I'm gonna

1861
01:36:31,760 --> 01:36:34,080
Speaker 1: call you because, yeah, one of my girls, one of

1862
01:36:34,080 --> 01:36:36,160
Speaker 1: the girls that I cast it is in equal Less.

1863
01:36:36,439 --> 01:36:42,720
Speaker 3: Shut up the daughter. She's playing my lead, my lead.

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01:36:42,880 --> 01:36:48,559
Speaker 1: I know, I know, you have one of the most

1865
01:36:48,840 --> 01:36:50,800
Speaker 1: incredible actresses.

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01:36:51,439 --> 01:36:58,519
Speaker 3: I love you. She's amazing. You are about to kick ass. Oh, honey,

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01:36:58,600 --> 01:37:00,799
Speaker 3: Chod you are. Name is Leah Hayes.

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01:37:00,840 --> 01:37:04,200
Speaker 2: She's super talented and when I say people have hopped in,

1869
01:37:04,439 --> 01:37:06,840
Speaker 2: she's on a prime time She doesn't.

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01:37:06,600 --> 01:37:07,599
Speaker 3: Have to do this little short.

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01:37:07,680 --> 01:37:07,800
Speaker 1: Oh.

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01:37:08,120 --> 01:37:09,080
Speaker 3: She likes the story.

1873
01:37:09,360 --> 01:37:12,439
Speaker 2: She's like into it. She met my other co star

1874
01:37:12,560 --> 01:37:13,760
Speaker 2: and she was like, Okay, I'll do it.

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01:37:13,800 --> 01:37:14,639
Speaker 3: I was like, you will.

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01:37:14,800 --> 01:37:18,519
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm very happy for you because I

1877
01:37:18,600 --> 01:37:22,840
Speaker 1: got a chance to direct her on The Equalizer. She's

1878
01:37:22,920 --> 01:37:27,120
Speaker 1: like a chef's kiss. I promise you if you already

1879
01:37:27,160 --> 01:37:33,360
Speaker 1: have the cake, she is the icing that's delicious to Leyah.

1880
01:37:33,680 --> 01:37:34,680
Speaker 3: Yes, I love it.

1881
01:37:34,640 --> 01:37:40,200
Speaker 1: You're so supportive and so amazing and inspiring. And your story,

1882
01:37:40,240 --> 01:37:42,880
Speaker 1: I'm sure is going to land and move people. And

1883
01:37:43,360 --> 01:37:44,960
Speaker 1: I can't wait till you ready to.

1884
01:37:44,920 --> 01:37:47,880
Speaker 3: Share this this next season.

1885
01:37:48,680 --> 01:37:52,760
Speaker 2: To think that's about to serious on our last as

1886
01:37:52,760 --> 01:37:56,559
Speaker 2: we close out, What do you think where do you

1887
01:37:56,600 --> 01:37:58,799
Speaker 2: hope your story lands for other people?

1888
01:37:59,160 --> 01:38:01,480
Speaker 3: Motivation and inspiration.

1889
01:38:02,400 --> 01:38:08,040
Speaker 1: I hope that that it's activated on the inside of them,

1890
01:38:08,479 --> 01:38:13,280
Speaker 1: that their faith is activated, that they are excited about life,

1891
01:38:13,720 --> 01:38:16,160
Speaker 1: because it really does make me sad when I think

1892
01:38:16,160 --> 01:38:19,400
Speaker 1: about how many people are suffering and hurting right now,

1893
01:38:19,920 --> 01:38:25,720
Speaker 1: but just like motivation and inspiration and being activated in

1894
01:38:25,840 --> 01:38:29,400
Speaker 1: their faith to just live their life and live the

1895
01:38:29,439 --> 01:38:31,439
Speaker 1: life they really desire to live.

1896
01:38:32,880 --> 01:38:36,040
Speaker 3: Honestly, you have inspired and motivated me, So you've got

1897
01:38:36,040 --> 01:38:41,360
Speaker 3: one in the I love you, Amazing Tasha Smith. Everybody

1898
01:38:41,439 --> 01:38:42,160
Speaker 3: in real life.

1899
01:38:44,360 --> 01:38:47,960
Speaker 1: This is Tasha Smith in real life. Hey y'all, what's happening?

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01:38:48,040 --> 01:38:49,839
Speaker 1: This is Tasha Smith in real life.

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01:38:50,120 --> 01:38:52,440
Speaker 3: Ay a

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Speaker 2: Crazy For more episodes, you know to do subscribe like

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01:39:00,600 --> 01:39:03,040
Speaker 2: comments and we'll see you on the next I r

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Speaker 2: L podcast