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<v Speaker 1>The live shows are are very fun, they're very geko wee,

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<v Speaker 1>get into the episode. Hello, Hello, Hi, what's up?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? How we doing?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing good? How are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh good? This is Randy bo Bandy. How are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh shit? I just said that.

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<v Speaker 1>What What's what you said? What what's the matter?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no, nothing, I said, how are you? Twice?

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<v Speaker 1>That's okay, that's okay. Randy bo Bandy Okay, So Randy

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<v Speaker 1>bou Bandy, I have to say I saw you in

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<v Speaker 1>the chat earlier and you said I apologize for my behavior.

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<v Speaker 1>What yeah, yeah, yeah, what were you apologizing for?

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<v Speaker 2>So I've been watching for for a couple of months,

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<v Speaker 2>and uh no, I noticed, like, you know, I feel

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<v Speaker 2>like there's a lot of people that lie, and I

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<v Speaker 2>got hammered drunk last week and I was like, you

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<v Speaker 2>know what, a lot of people got to stop lying,

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<v Speaker 2>so I said in the chat, and it was like

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<v Speaker 2>incredibly poorly timed, like it was after that crazy call

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<v Speaker 2>last Monday.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so you so you basically were in the chat

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<v Speaker 1>like oh everyone here is lying.

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, no, but I mean, I mean, but that's

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I actually called last week because I got

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<v Speaker 2>a crazy story and I think you'd want to hear it,

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<v Speaker 2>all right and hit me. All right. So when I

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<v Speaker 2>was when I was fourteen, so I'm twenty four now,

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<v Speaker 2>Uh yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought you were like in your forties.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no, I just live in Maine. We all talk

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<v Speaker 2>like this. Continue yeah, but uh so when I was fourteen,

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<v Speaker 2>I was at boy Scout camp in New Hampshire and

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<v Speaker 2>that's actually where I grew up. And uh I was.

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<v Speaker 2>We were all camped out on top of this mountain

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<v Speaker 2>and uh, the like the counselors that were with us

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<v Speaker 2>got a call from the bottom of the mountain and

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<v Speaker 2>they said there was a crazy storm coming in, and

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<v Speaker 2>so we kind of weighed out our options in the

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<v Speaker 2>campsite and and we decided instead of, you know, a

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<v Speaker 2>bunch of kids being halfway down the mountain on a

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<v Speaker 2>bald face, we were gonna like kind of try out

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<v Speaker 2>our luck at the top of the mountain where we

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<v Speaker 2>kind of had some cover. And we actually ended up

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<v Speaker 2>getting struck by lightning. So so that was wild. So yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it was. I mean it wasn't direct it was indirectly,

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<v Speaker 2>but it was like the ground got struck in a

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<v Speaker 2>group of like twenty five kids, and so we were

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<v Speaker 2>all like soaking wet in this thunderstorm. And then you

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<v Speaker 2>add electricity into the mix and like, dude, I'm convinced,

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<v Speaker 2>I like died for like a split second.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro Okay, what was what was death?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell us please?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean well, and and can I can I can

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<v Speaker 2>I tell you one more thing. I wasn't sure of

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<v Speaker 2>this until I got into a car accident in eighteen

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<v Speaker 2>and I had the same experience happen to me where

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<v Speaker 2>we slid off the road and we hit a telephone

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<v Speaker 2>pole in a bronco in North Carolina when I was

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<v Speaker 2>in the military, and I had the same I had

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<v Speaker 2>the same experience happen where everything just kind of went

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<v Speaker 2>purple and it kind of looked vainy, but it was

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<v Speaker 2>It was crazy, and I didn't realize what had happened

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<v Speaker 2>during the whole lightning thing, because I thought it was

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<v Speaker 2>just like you get struck by lightning, and it's like,

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<v Speaker 2>oh fuck, you got electrocuted, because like I went blind

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<v Speaker 2>for a little bit and I got I went deaf

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<v Speaker 2>for a little bit. It wasn't like crazy, it was

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<v Speaker 2>like for a few minutes, and then it was it

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<v Speaker 2>was like when I could see again, like all my

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<v Speaker 2>muscles were contracted and it was nuts. And so, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>all of us finally came to and we started doing

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<v Speaker 2>our thing, and like all of us kind of realized

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<v Speaker 2>this wee weird thing had happened, but none of us

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<v Speaker 2>kind of talked about it. And then after this car accident,

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<v Speaker 2>the same thing happened. And but after the car accident,

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<v Speaker 2>I felt like I was kind of looking down at

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<v Speaker 2>my body right, and because I looked down at the

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<v Speaker 2>whole thing and it was after I saw this like purple,

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<v Speaker 2>like veiny whatever. It was kind of like you know,

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<v Speaker 2>you look at the inside of your eyeballs and you are

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<v Speaker 2>like the insidey eyelids with your eyes closed, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, it's it's funny. Everything I've heard of, I've

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<v Speaker 1>heard of everything going black, I've heard of seeing the light,

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<v Speaker 1>but I have never heard of this purple before.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, I mean, it wasn't It wasn't like, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like a vivid purple. I would I would compare it

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<v Speaker 2>to like you close your eyes and you like look

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<v Speaker 2>at the sun.

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<v Speaker 1>You know that's an orange.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean I mean like.

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<v Speaker 1>You death experience with my details.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, no, no, no, I'm I'm glad you're not like

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<v Speaker 3>you know, all my friends, like all my friends that

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<v Speaker 3>like talk to my parents are like, no, you're bullshit,

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<v Speaker 3>And my parents are like, no, this kid actually got

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<v Speaker 3>struck by lightning.

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<v Speaker 2>And it's like my parents met me at the hospital.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't worry. So is it is it.

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<v Speaker 1>Not true that when you get struck by lightning that

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<v Speaker 1>kind of means you can never get struck by it again?

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<v Speaker 1>Is that is that that's.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, they they say that, but you know, you

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<v Speaker 2>have to get struck by lightning once to get struck twice.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, you know what I'm saying, you know, I guys.

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<v Speaker 1>You I want to figure out what you mean by

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<v Speaker 1>that you have to get struck by lightning once to

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<v Speaker 1>get struck by lightning twice.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, it's like a lot of catch. It's it's like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, it's like a catch twenty two. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>you got to do something to move on, But you

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<v Speaker 2>gotta but you can't move on until you do that

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<v Speaker 2>thing or something like. You got to move on to

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<v Speaker 2>do the thing to move on to begin with.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know like that?

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<v Speaker 2>Like that, I I feel like, you know, you're catching

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<v Speaker 2>me at my ten o'clock ramblings here.

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<v Speaker 1>But what I'm curious. What's your name again?

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<v Speaker 2>Randy?

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<v Speaker 1>Randy?

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<v Speaker 2>All right, Randy, and that's my actual name. I like

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<v Speaker 2>to get ham, you know. I you know, I used

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<v Speaker 2>to be in the Marine Corps. I like to you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I used to build ships. I used to operate heavy equipment.

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<v Speaker 2>You know. I work hard, I play harder. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's just the way I do.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the rest of your life? Like what do you what?

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<v Speaker 1>What's going on.

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<v Speaker 2>With I am? I am? Yeah, I h I Actually

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<v Speaker 2>I'm glad you asked. I've been I was watching your show,

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<v Speaker 2>and uh, I mean I don't I don't mean to

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<v Speaker 2>pollute your podcast with other podcasts, but your show, uh

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<v Speaker 2>THEO Vaughn and Joe Rogan. You know, I I spend

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of time by myself, you know. I live alone.

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<v Speaker 2>I've you know, it's funny, you know, everyone all the

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<v Speaker 2>girls want you when you're but you get out and

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<v Speaker 2>you know better than the rest of them. Which it's

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<v Speaker 2>a hard lesson to learn, but everyone's got to learn it,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. And so you know, I spend a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of time alone and single, and I work on myself,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. And I used to be a loud mouth

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<v Speaker 2>and I still am when I drink, obviously, but you know,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, you take baby steps and you work on yourself.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm glad you asked, because no, I've been working

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<v Speaker 2>on self improvement. And uh, you know, I stumble, I

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<v Speaker 2>truly do. I stumble, you know, because we can all

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<v Speaker 2>be perfect. But I applied to college just before Christmas.

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<v Speaker 2>I got accepted to you Maine Augusta go moose. I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't really care for the moose, but I go

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<v Speaker 2>for them and then and then yeah, so I'm I

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<v Speaker 2>want to be a history teacher. Actually, I love history,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, because there's there's a lot of lessons, a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of important less sense to be learned from history

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<v Speaker 2>because a lot of you know, a lot of people

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<v Speaker 2>paid their blood to learn those lessons. And if we

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<v Speaker 2>can learn from those lessons of the past, it prevents

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<v Speaker 2>us from making those errors that you know that costs

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<v Speaker 2>so dearly in the future.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, uh, what's what's an example of a

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<v Speaker 1>lesson that you feel like we need to learn today

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<v Speaker 1>to not repeat from history?

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I can, do you mind if I step

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<v Speaker 2>up on a soapbox or something real quick?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Sure, man, we're in this far.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's do it all right. So, I mean, if I'm

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<v Speaker 2>if I were teaching history. You know, this is my

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<v Speaker 2>personal and this is my personal goal, is to teach history,

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<v Speaker 2>not in like a high school standpoint, because high schoolers

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<v Speaker 2>have no respect. I know a lot of high schoolers

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<v Speaker 2>are watching this, have no respect. They're like a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of drunk people. But but you know, I'd like to

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<v Speaker 2>teach college history. So I can be a college, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>a tenured professor and eventually say, you know, history is brutal.

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<v Speaker 2>Human civilization, human civilization is is the oddity from nature,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. Through through violence is how we've we've found

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<v Speaker 2>ourselves the security to be so civilized and be so

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<v Speaker 2>soft and emotional. And you need to realize that you

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<v Speaker 2>don't have it that hard compared to people in the past.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, my grandparents grew up in Nova Scotia without

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<v Speaker 2>power and running water in the nineteen thirties, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and my memme is still alive today. She saw a

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<v Speaker 2>man walk on the moon and she grew up with

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<v Speaker 2>oxen pulling carts. You know, that's I think that's I

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<v Speaker 2>think that's absolutely wild. And another thing is, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>if you understand history a lot more, you care a

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<v Speaker 2>lot less about race, especially being an American, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>because you know, my my my grandmother on my dad's

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<v Speaker 2>side grew up in now he occupied Norway, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and she she was white. She had no privileges well,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, and she came to and she came to

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<v Speaker 2>you know, my Memmea and Pepe, my mother's parents. They

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<v Speaker 2>they're French speaking Japan and I don't you know you

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<v Speaker 2>want to go to France. I'll happily translate for you.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm very cultured for a white guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Well well, well, let me let me ask you a question, Randy,

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<v Speaker 1>what yeah, what like? Is there a particular era of

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<v Speaker 1>history that you you want to teach?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Well, is it the US or the world you

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<v Speaker 2>want to learn about? That's the question?

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<v Speaker 1>Whatever you want, man, all right?

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<v Speaker 2>So, I mean, if I were to teach I mean

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<v Speaker 2>as a whole twentieth century, the twentieth century, because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>you see, you see a great change in the twentieth century.

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<v Speaker 2>It went from only the poor people have horses and

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<v Speaker 2>the rich people have cars, to the rich people of

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<v Speaker 2>the poor people having cars. You see people walking on

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<v Speaker 2>the ground without motor transport, to a guy going to

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<v Speaker 2>the moon in sixty years. Dude, you know that stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>But at the same time, you see multiple genocides and that,

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<v Speaker 2>and there's a lot of lessons to be learned from that.

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<v Speaker 1>It's crazy because I mean, when you really think about

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm a guy, I don't know anything about it

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<v Speaker 1>fucking anything, dude, But like, no, dude.

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<v Speaker 2>You're the ghek dude. Hey, hey, honestly, Dude, I've been

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<v Speaker 2>in a bad spot a lot of nights and dude,

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<v Speaker 2>your stream, Dude, it does.

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<v Speaker 1>Something, you know, Thanks Randy, I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 2>Man, Hey, I appreciate you.

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<v Speaker 1>Ghak Well, I got to say, it's a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>scary to see. I mean, if you look at the

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<v Speaker 1>how human history has changed, like on a line graph,

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<v Speaker 1>it's like it's like a straight line for it. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like it's like a horizontal line for pretty much ever

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<v Speaker 1>and then the past like a few decades, it's the

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<v Speaker 1>line goes straight up in terms of like our exponential growth.

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<v Speaker 1>It's fucking terrified. I mean, even what I'm doing right now,

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<v Speaker 1>Like this experience of talking to these people that I've

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<v Speaker 1>never met before and I'm being watched by all these

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<v Speaker 1>folks is like a not It's not even remotely a

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<v Speaker 1>human experience that was anything accessible in the past, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, so so so new. All this social media

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<v Speaker 1>is crap, and I feel like it's it does turn

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<v Speaker 1>people insane because we're we're not meant for it at all,

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<v Speaker 1>or and you know, our brains are not logged up

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<v Speaker 1>for that. Yeah, it's it's scary.

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<v Speaker 2>I totally get that, dude, Just perfect example. Dude. This

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<v Speaker 2>is my first time setting foot in a school in

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<v Speaker 2>seven years. Dude. I graduated high school barely in twenty sixteen.

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<v Speaker 2>I joined the Marine Corps. If they were like, hey, kid,

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<v Speaker 2>let's go. And now I'm in college and I go,

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<v Speaker 2>I see like I'm in person two days a week.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know how to fucking do this shit. Dude.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like I feel like, I mean not to knock

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<v Speaker 2>on any homeschool kids, but I'm gonna knock on some

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<v Speaker 2>homeschool kids. I feel like, you know, I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>everyone's as socialist, those weird homeschool kids. You know. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like I and you want to talk about change. I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't mean to soak up the I don't mean

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<v Speaker 2>to soak up the stream here, but you want to

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<v Speaker 2>talk about change. I so my my my big deployment

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<v Speaker 2>when I was in the Marine Corps. And all my friends,

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<v Speaker 2>if they hear this, are gonna give me shit, just

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<v Speaker 2>ragging on me. But but I deployed in twenty nineteen.

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<v Speaker 2>In December, I said goodbye to my parents just before Christmas,

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<v Speaker 2>and then we went, you know, across the Atlantic Ocean.

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<v Speaker 2>I was an am tracker. If there's any you know,

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<v Speaker 2>am trackers. Yeah, yeah, eighteen thirty three. Baby, But we

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<v Speaker 2>went across the ocean right and we were at sea

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<v Speaker 2>when COVID happened, and they told us we weren't going

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<v Speaker 2>to touch land until we came back to America. And

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<v Speaker 2>this was in February. This is in February. We came

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<v Speaker 2>back to America in July.

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<v Speaker 1>Holy shit. So you're on a boat for what.

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<v Speaker 2>I was on. I was on a ship, Dude. I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't see land for five months.

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<v Speaker 1>Holy get just fishing.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh so, dude, if you want it, dude, look it

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<v Speaker 2>up on YouTube. It's called the raz and Ra as

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<v Speaker 2>a resupply at sea. That ship is so cool. It's

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<v Speaker 2>a cargo ship pulls up to you and they send

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<v Speaker 2>zip lines over and they just send over stuff and

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<v Speaker 2>they say you get your mail, but they send over

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<v Speaker 2>like helicopters of you know, mail and stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>But I mean, how at sea for five months.

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<v Speaker 2>You go crazy? I'll be I'll be honest with you.

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<v Speaker 2>You go, you go absolutely nuts, and you don't realize

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<v Speaker 2>it until you get home. But dude, since I've been home,

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<v Speaker 2>like I left, you know, I left, people were saying,

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<v Speaker 2>you don't have safe, you know, no, You're sorry, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>be safe, have a good Christmas, you know, all this shit.

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<v Speaker 2>And I come back right and someone I went into

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<v Speaker 2>a bar and someone said, where's your mask? I said,

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<v Speaker 2>what the fuck are you talking about? Dude? Oh I was,

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<v Speaker 2>I was.

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<v Speaker 1>At this time, at this time, at this time, did

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<v Speaker 1>you sway?

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<v Speaker 2>So?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So you were on the boat for five months.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have a phone or the internet?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, it's it's so I had. Yeah, I had a phone.

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<v Speaker 2>But you know, when you're thousands of miles was so

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<v Speaker 2>international waters at twelve miles, you don't get cell reception

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<v Speaker 2>past that, and you know, when you're in the middle

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<v Speaker 2>of the ocean, you're not getting cell reception from anything.

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<v Speaker 2>And then you know, you know a fun story, my

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<v Speaker 2>cell phone actually broke. I lent it to a you

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<v Speaker 2>know buddy, and he broke it, probably watching porn or something.

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<v Speaker 2>But nice, but but but yeah, So, I mean I

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<v Speaker 2>had no real way to communicate with my family except

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<v Speaker 2>for like a few laptops. But you have three hundred

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<v Speaker 2>people on a ship. No one's talked to the family

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<v Speaker 2>in five months, and there's three laptops. Yeah, no one's

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<v Speaker 2>really going to talk to anyone, but you know, they'd

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<v Speaker 2>print out the newspaper, but it was weird shit. You'd

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<v Speaker 2>see like tens of thousands dead in New York City. Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>they're filling trailers with bodies because they don't know what

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<v Speaker 2>to do with them. And then at the same time

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<v Speaker 2>you find out that a doctor lost his license to

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<v Speaker 2>practice because he said, oh no, this guy didn't die

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<v Speaker 2>of COVID, he died from a motorcycle accident. And it's like, oh, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>that's kind of questionable. You know, so you formed these

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<v Speaker 2>weird and then at the same time we heard all

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<v Speaker 2>about the George Floyd riots and stuff like that, or no,

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<v Speaker 2>not the George Floyd, but all the others, all the

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<v Speaker 2>other riots. So you know where we were all, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>a bunch of crazy time. Yeah, black white, all sort

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<v Speaker 2>of racist Americans, forming our own in different opinions on

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<v Speaker 2>the topic. And you know, none of us really had

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<v Speaker 2>a problem with each other. And you know, a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of us came to the conclusion without talking to anyone

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<v Speaker 2>who actually was the source of the problem that you know,

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<v Speaker 2>people don't communicate with each other. You know, people don't

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<v Speaker 2>talk to each other like the human beings.

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me more about the vibe on, Like to that point,

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<v Speaker 1>people don't talk to each other, People don't communicate with

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<v Speaker 1>each other. Tell me more about the vibe on.

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<v Speaker 2>For five months? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like what like there's three hundred of you guys.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the community?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>How how is everyone interacting with each other?

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<v Speaker 2>Talking about some all right, So with the marines, there

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<v Speaker 2>were very few females, as you can imagine the sailors.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, there's quite a few more women in the

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<v Speaker 2>Navy than there are marines. To do with that information,

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<v Speaker 2>which you will, you know, it's it, but you know,

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<v Speaker 2>not in a creepy way. It's more is the you know,

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<v Speaker 2>the feeling is more somewhere between high school at sea

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<v Speaker 2>and prison at sea with the occasional with the occasional,

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<v Speaker 2>Hey there's a boat, everybody run to the guns. But no,

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<v Speaker 2>it's very boring. You know. You sit around and you

0:19:31.600 --> 0:19:33.600
<v Speaker 2>smoke a lot of cigarettes, you play a lot of poker,

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<v Speaker 2>You do some people, you know, you know, you know

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<v Speaker 2>back on what you know. I said people were liars.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, you find a it's very easy to pick

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<v Speaker 2>out a liar, you know, when they tell the same

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<v Speaker 2>story on a ship for five months and the details change. Uh,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, it's very it's very easy to spot inconsistencies

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<v Speaker 2>and stories when you hear nothing but live for six five,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, five, six, seven months at a time.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you feel like? What do you feel like

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<v Speaker 1>you learned from that? Because you're this is such an

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<v Speaker 1>interesting experience, like limited access to the internet, limited access

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<v Speaker 1>to the outside world, literally isolated with three hundred other people,

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<v Speaker 1>all three hundred of you guys, all coming from from

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<v Speaker 1>different you know, spots and everything. Like what that's that's

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<v Speaker 1>an experience that a lot of people have not had.

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<v Speaker 1>What what do you feel like you learned from all that?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? I learned a lot of slang. Let me tell you.

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<v Speaker 2>I can like I got I got buddies from la

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<v Speaker 2>I got buddies from all over the country. You know

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<v Speaker 2>that guy from Wisconsin earlier. You know, I got buddies

0:20:39.800 --> 0:20:41.920
<v Speaker 2>from Stone in Wisconsin. I got buddies from New York.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, you learn a lot of shit. You learn

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<v Speaker 2>how to talk to people, like the people because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>society in the military is not the same as society

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<v Speaker 2>and normalst society. You know, sorry, how people act in

0:20:57.560 --> 0:21:00.879
<v Speaker 2>the military is very similar to how people act in jail.

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<v Speaker 2>You say the wrong ship to the wrong person, and

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<v Speaker 2>they're going to fuck you up, you know, So you learn,

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<v Speaker 2>you learn to carry yourself in a way where you

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<v Speaker 2>show others respect and you make others respect you and

0:21:17.520 --> 0:21:20.040
<v Speaker 2>will not make but you know you you make it

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<v Speaker 2>so others want to respect you, because if if you

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<v Speaker 2>want real respect, people mean to want to respect you.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>And in your situation on that ship, what kinds of

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<v Speaker 1>things do you feel like people would do to what

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<v Speaker 1>What do you think commands respect in that environment?

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<v Speaker 2>Honesty, m honesty, compassion. You know. I am not claiming

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<v Speaker 2>to be perfect, but you know, I you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>was in a vehicle crew, you know. And if you

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<v Speaker 2>have you seen the movie Fury.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm familiar with it, but I've never seen it.

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<v Speaker 2>Or okay, so I mean I'm not going to say, oh,

0:22:09.240 --> 0:22:11.600
<v Speaker 2>it's just like Fury. It's more like Kelly's Heroes if

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<v Speaker 2>you've ever seen that with the with you know, Clint

0:22:13.840 --> 0:22:16.280
<v Speaker 2>Eastwood and Donalds. It's a very good movie if you're

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<v Speaker 2>into World War two, but it's actually about a heist.

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<v Speaker 2>But anyway, no, you know, you live in a I

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<v Speaker 2>was in an aav If you want to google that

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<v Speaker 2>or if you ever play Battlefield three, it's that thing

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<v Speaker 2>that looks like a tank that no one wants to

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<v Speaker 2>use because it's not quite a tank, but at the

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<v Speaker 2>end of the day, it's a tank, you know, so

0:22:38.520 --> 0:22:40.680
<v Speaker 2>you live inside of it with you know, with your

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<v Speaker 2>two other crewmen. I was a crew chief, so I

0:22:43.040 --> 0:22:44.480
<v Speaker 2>sat in the turre and I had a driver and

0:22:44.480 --> 0:22:47.680
<v Speaker 2>I had a rear crewman, and they were my family man,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, because at the end of the day, when

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<v Speaker 2>you're sleeping in a field or in the desert and

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<v Speaker 2>you got no one with you, you got two guys in

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<v Speaker 2>a big steel box and they'll hang out with you

0:23:02.040 --> 0:23:03.800
<v Speaker 2>and they'll talk with you. And those folks that that's

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<v Speaker 2>with you, and you know, they'll shoot anyone that tries

0:23:06.960 --> 0:23:11.960
<v Speaker 2>to shoot you. And you know that, and you know what,

0:23:12.160 --> 0:23:19.159
<v Speaker 2>you know what to answer your question, that's ah, I

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<v Speaker 2>think I learned to appreciate people being with me more.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know, to that point, I want to say,

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<v Speaker 1>to that point, I've been thinking about this more like,

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<v Speaker 1>because you're on a ship with dudes. You didn't pick

0:23:32.520 --> 0:23:34.840
<v Speaker 1>these guys. They're just like the guys that you're with.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm trying I'm trying to learn more. Like when

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<v Speaker 1>I'm around people, like there's there's I think there's this

0:23:42.160 --> 0:23:44.040
<v Speaker 1>thing when you're around folks, like you want them to

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<v Speaker 1>be a certain way, or you wish somebody acted differently

0:23:47.680 --> 0:23:52.320
<v Speaker 1>or something, but like just appreciating the folks around you

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<v Speaker 1>exactly for who they are and just the fact that

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<v Speaker 1>they are the folks around you right now. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>say for anyone being like hostile or anything like that, Like,

0:24:04.920 --> 0:24:07.359
<v Speaker 1>there are the folks around you. They're not perfect, they're

0:24:07.400 --> 0:24:09.399
<v Speaker 1>not going to act exactly how you want them to,

0:24:09.560 --> 0:24:13.440
<v Speaker 1>but they're Yeah, it's it's it's just exactly what you're saying,

0:24:13.440 --> 0:24:16.359
<v Speaker 1>Like it's just an honor to be around people in

0:24:16.440 --> 0:24:17.719
<v Speaker 1>general in this world.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, yeah, it's it's it's an honor to be

0:24:20.800 --> 0:24:25.399
<v Speaker 2>around people. And yeah, you know what exactly because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I anyone who knows me will tell you that there

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<v Speaker 2>is only one Randy, And uh, you know, I I

0:24:33.960 --> 0:24:37.840
<v Speaker 2>think there's a I don't think people realize that there's

0:24:37.840 --> 0:24:40.080
<v Speaker 2>only one to everyone. You know, if you say you're

0:24:40.080 --> 0:24:42.320
<v Speaker 2>one in a million, there's you know, eight and a

0:24:42.320 --> 0:24:45.560
<v Speaker 2>half thousand people just like you. But if you say

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<v Speaker 2>you know, you're the only motherfucker on twitch TV. You're

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<v Speaker 2>actually the person that made me get twitch TV. You're

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<v Speaker 2>the only motherfucker that I would watch dressed as a

0:24:56.840 --> 0:24:59.800
<v Speaker 2>gecko on my television in my living room right now.

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<v Speaker 2>You know that. No, no, no, But I mean I

0:25:06.680 --> 0:25:09.879
<v Speaker 2>don't If I wasn't watching you, I'd probably be watching

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<v Speaker 2>like some YouTube video some dudes in Cambodia building some

0:25:13.240 --> 0:25:18.240
<v Speaker 2>fake mud cave or some shit. I don't know, but

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<v Speaker 2>but I mean, yeah, I appreciate you. You appreciate people

0:25:22.440 --> 0:25:26.119
<v Speaker 2>for a lot more than just being a face, you know,

0:25:26.520 --> 0:25:30.320
<v Speaker 2>and and you know when you're out there, you got

0:25:30.320 --> 0:25:33.960
<v Speaker 2>time to reflect on life a lot because I I

0:25:34.000 --> 0:25:36.240
<v Speaker 2>mean I was on I was on the scat team,

0:25:36.280 --> 0:25:39.359
<v Speaker 2>which is like the small cal I ran into the

0:25:39.359 --> 0:25:44.160
<v Speaker 2>gun when they said run to the gun. And when

0:25:44.160 --> 0:25:46.320
<v Speaker 2>you go through like straight, it's incredible, though. You know,

0:25:46.359 --> 0:25:49.639
<v Speaker 2>you go through like the Straits of Gibraltar, which is

0:25:49.960 --> 0:25:52.240
<v Speaker 2>you know, the mouth of the Mediterranean to the Atlantic.

0:25:52.280 --> 0:25:56.639
<v Speaker 2>You know, like Perseus sailed through that ship, Hercules sailed

0:25:56.680 --> 0:25:59.720
<v Speaker 2>through that ship. Some of the greatest people in history

0:26:00.119 --> 0:26:02.200
<v Speaker 2>have sailed through that. And I got to sail through

0:26:02.200 --> 0:26:04.960
<v Speaker 2>that or go through the Suez Canal. I got I

0:26:05.000 --> 0:26:08.440
<v Speaker 2>got to sail through Egypt, you know, or I got

0:26:08.480 --> 0:26:11.000
<v Speaker 2>to go through the strait of horror moods, you know.

0:26:11.240 --> 0:26:13.600
<v Speaker 2>And I mean, and I'm not touting that for like

0:26:13.640 --> 0:26:17.560
<v Speaker 2>a respect that thing, but like, but like no one history,

0:26:17.720 --> 0:26:22.359
<v Speaker 2>you know, I like history being my passion, you know,

0:26:22.560 --> 0:26:24.720
<v Speaker 2>to get to see you know, I went into the

0:26:24.760 --> 0:26:27.080
<v Speaker 2>Black Sea and I got to see, like I got

0:26:27.080 --> 0:26:30.440
<v Speaker 2>to sail past I mean, granted it was during COVID times,

0:26:30.640 --> 0:26:32.760
<v Speaker 2>so I mean it actually no, that kind of made

0:26:32.760 --> 0:26:35.080
<v Speaker 2>it better because I got to see things like unimpeded

0:26:35.080 --> 0:26:38.560
<v Speaker 2>by like stupid tourists. And granted I didn't see them

0:26:38.640 --> 0:26:41.280
<v Speaker 2>as a tourist, but like, you know, people hate Americans

0:26:41.280 --> 0:26:43.520
<v Speaker 2>because where there's just we're just a tourists of the world.

0:26:43.560 --> 0:26:46.040
<v Speaker 2>But if you can see things as that, you know,

0:26:46.160 --> 0:26:48.639
<v Speaker 2>objectively and not just being like hey, am I in

0:26:48.680 --> 0:26:51.600
<v Speaker 2>the way right now? But you know, it was surreal

0:26:51.720 --> 0:26:56.080
<v Speaker 2>to see a battlefield where so many people, you know, died.

0:26:56.880 --> 0:26:59.119
<v Speaker 2>I mean not not being like, oh that's so cool,

0:26:59.320 --> 0:27:02.320
<v Speaker 2>but like these these like the Australians went to fight

0:27:02.359 --> 0:27:06.080
<v Speaker 2>in this battle because England said, hey, the Crown needs

0:27:06.119 --> 0:27:09.960
<v Speaker 2>you guys, and you gotta go. And these guys had families.

0:27:10.000 --> 0:27:13.639
<v Speaker 2>You know, these were sons, fathers, brothers, husbands, and you

0:27:13.960 --> 0:27:15.400
<v Speaker 2>they they went.

0:27:16.040 --> 0:27:19.560
<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like, does that inspire you in some way?

0:27:19.720 --> 0:27:23.080
<v Speaker 1>Like this idea that these these guys, you know, they

0:27:23.400 --> 0:27:28.080
<v Speaker 1>they try, they fighting for something greater than just themselves

0:27:28.200 --> 0:27:30.119
<v Speaker 1>and their family. What does that do for you?

0:27:30.320 --> 0:27:34.000
<v Speaker 2>I guess it's kind of I guess part of that's

0:27:34.080 --> 0:27:36.280
<v Speaker 2>kind of the reason I joined because you know, I

0:27:36.280 --> 0:27:38.600
<v Speaker 2>I so when I was in high school. You know,

0:27:38.640 --> 0:27:42.360
<v Speaker 2>all my friends they're older brothers. Uh Oh. I grew

0:27:42.440 --> 0:27:45.280
<v Speaker 2>up in southern New Hampshire, and southern New Hampshire is

0:27:45.320 --> 0:27:46.760
<v Speaker 2>not a great place to live. You know. I grew

0:27:46.840 --> 0:27:50.199
<v Speaker 2>up like like twenty minutes outside of Lowell, Massachusetts. If

0:27:50.240 --> 0:27:53.239
<v Speaker 2>you know anything about that I grew up. Anyone from

0:27:53.320 --> 0:27:56.920
<v Speaker 2>New Hampshire knows Manage Vegas and shit that it's dirty,

0:27:57.040 --> 0:27:59.359
<v Speaker 2>it's gross. People work hard and they don't make a

0:27:59.400 --> 0:28:02.800
<v Speaker 2>lot of money. So I wanted to leave man and

0:28:02.800 --> 0:28:07.119
<v Speaker 2>and uh I wanted to go do something great. And

0:28:07.160 --> 0:28:09.120
<v Speaker 2>you know when I was when I was a kid,

0:28:09.160 --> 0:28:11.399
<v Speaker 2>I had this weird obsession with World War two. So

0:28:11.480 --> 0:28:14.439
<v Speaker 2>when Band of Brothers caught my interest and all, you know,

0:28:14.480 --> 0:28:17.240
<v Speaker 2>all that stuff, and you see these guys like fighting

0:28:18.440 --> 0:28:21.600
<v Speaker 2>die with no care for they have no regard for

0:28:21.640 --> 0:28:23.199
<v Speaker 2>their life. Yeah.

0:28:23.280 --> 0:28:24.080
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:28:24.119 --> 0:28:25.920
<v Speaker 2>And but and at the end of it, and I

0:28:25.960 --> 0:28:30.840
<v Speaker 2>and I found out why why no one? You know,

0:28:31.400 --> 0:28:36.479
<v Speaker 2>it's because when you're in the military, when you're gone,

0:28:36.760 --> 0:28:39.320
<v Speaker 2>all your friends ask when you when are you coming home,

0:28:39.360 --> 0:28:41.120
<v Speaker 2>When are you coming home? When are you coming home?

0:28:42.240 --> 0:28:44.360
<v Speaker 2>And you get home and none of them come see you.

0:28:45.600 --> 0:28:46.200
<v Speaker 1>Huh.

0:28:47.000 --> 0:28:53.560
<v Speaker 2>And then and it was it was, and it's it's

0:28:53.640 --> 0:28:56.400
<v Speaker 2>kind of sad. And then, you know, I mean ship,

0:28:56.560 --> 0:28:59.080
<v Speaker 2>I had a fucking jeep wrangler. I had a I

0:28:59.120 --> 0:29:03.040
<v Speaker 2>had a nineteen ninety nine jeep wrangler. Yeah, and I

0:29:03.200 --> 0:29:07.280
<v Speaker 2>drove that from North Carolina to New Hampshire every chance

0:29:07.400 --> 0:29:10.880
<v Speaker 2>I got, just to go see my friends, and none

0:29:10.920 --> 0:29:13.360
<v Speaker 2>of them would come see me. I mean they would

0:29:13.360 --> 0:29:15.520
<v Speaker 2>all fluff it up, be like I mean, actually, no,

0:29:15.600 --> 0:29:18.720
<v Speaker 2>I can't say that my I got one. I got one. Buddy, Joey.

0:29:19.200 --> 0:29:21.960
<v Speaker 2>He's been my He's been my fucking big dog. He's

0:29:22.000 --> 0:29:24.320
<v Speaker 2>been my big dog since like first grade.

0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:27.880
<v Speaker 1>What tell me about God, tell me about Joey? What's he?

0:29:27.920 --> 0:29:28.520
<v Speaker 1>What's he like?

0:29:32.440 --> 0:29:34.000
<v Speaker 2>Joe is my second brother, man?

0:29:34.560 --> 0:29:36.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, what what's what do you What do you think

0:29:36.560 --> 0:29:37.560
<v Speaker 1>makes you guys so close?

0:29:39.080 --> 0:29:46.320
<v Speaker 2>H we we I mean ship? We lived life together,

0:29:46.480 --> 0:29:48.719
<v Speaker 2>so I know you know what makes us so close?

0:29:49.200 --> 0:29:53.040
<v Speaker 2>Tell me is we met? We met in first grade,

0:29:53.280 --> 0:29:56.520
<v Speaker 2>the first day of first grade. And he he was

0:29:56.560 --> 0:29:59.239
<v Speaker 2>born in North Carolina, so his parents were he grew

0:29:59.320 --> 0:30:03.880
<v Speaker 2>up in a military family. And if he ever sees this,

0:30:03.960 --> 0:30:06.120
<v Speaker 2>he's gonna beat my ass for spelling his ship. But

0:30:06.120 --> 0:30:08.760
<v Speaker 2>I don't give a fuck. I'll smake his stupid face.

0:30:08.840 --> 0:30:12.600
<v Speaker 2>But but but so he grew so he grew up

0:30:12.600 --> 0:30:17.200
<v Speaker 2>in a military family. Yeah, and and so he moved.

0:30:17.360 --> 0:30:21.120
<v Speaker 2>He moved to New Hampshire the summer before first grade.

0:30:21.360 --> 0:30:23.320
<v Speaker 2>And so we met the first day at first grade.

0:30:23.840 --> 0:30:27.080
<v Speaker 2>And my last name starts with an M and his

0:30:27.240 --> 0:30:31.040
<v Speaker 2>last name starts with an L. So alphabetically, we just

0:30:31.080 --> 0:30:34.880
<v Speaker 2>happened to sit next to each other. Yeah, and we

0:30:35.080 --> 0:30:37.880
<v Speaker 2>just we we just hit it off. And then it

0:30:38.120 --> 0:30:42.280
<v Speaker 2>just so happened. On the bus ride home, Joey is

0:30:42.360 --> 0:30:47.960
<v Speaker 2>two streets up from mine, Holy ship. But now me

0:30:48.040 --> 0:30:51.520
<v Speaker 2>and Joey, Me and Joey are hanging out. And you know,

0:30:53.080 --> 0:30:56.560
<v Speaker 2>Joey's parents got divorced and he didn't have he he

0:30:56.640 --> 0:30:59.480
<v Speaker 2>didn't have an easy life growing up. You know, Yeah,

0:30:59.680 --> 0:31:03.880
<v Speaker 2>I I had it. I I like to think I

0:31:03.880 --> 0:31:07.840
<v Speaker 2>had it hard, but I know, I don't. You know.

0:31:07.960 --> 0:31:10.320
<v Speaker 2>We all go through our own ship. You know. I got,

0:31:10.440 --> 0:31:13.320
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I mean, I got my own ship. I

0:31:13.360 --> 0:31:15.280
<v Speaker 2>got a I got, I got, I got a lot

0:31:15.280 --> 0:31:17.880
<v Speaker 2>of shit, you know. I And but but Joey had

0:31:17.880 --> 0:31:21.320
<v Speaker 2>it hard. Joey had it hard earlier than I did,

0:31:21.360 --> 0:31:26.320
<v Speaker 2>you know. And and it doesn't get easier. That's what everyone likes.

0:31:26.520 --> 0:31:28.920
<v Speaker 2>That's what everyone sadly finds out is they get older,

0:31:29.000 --> 0:31:30.880
<v Speaker 2>it doesn't get easier now.

0:31:30.920 --> 0:31:34.800
<v Speaker 1>And did did that? Was that the case for you?

0:31:34.800 --> 0:31:36.560
<v Speaker 1>You felt like it didn't. It didn't really get easier

0:31:36.560 --> 0:31:37.760
<v Speaker 1>as you got older.

0:31:39.360 --> 0:31:41.640
<v Speaker 2>My my life was pretty easy until I had about

0:31:41.640 --> 0:31:47.400
<v Speaker 2>eleven years old, and then out of the blue, I

0:31:47.400 --> 0:31:49.680
<v Speaker 2>started having like all these digestive problems. I got like

0:31:49.800 --> 0:31:52.640
<v Speaker 2>really sick, Like I missed like forty five consecutive days

0:31:52.640 --> 0:31:54.480
<v Speaker 2>of school. I was just a quke and I was

0:31:54.480 --> 0:31:57.600
<v Speaker 2>really really sick. But anyway, back back on, Joey gakin

0:31:57.880 --> 0:32:01.320
<v Speaker 2>not to not to back, but no, Joey's a Joey's

0:32:01.320 --> 0:32:09.280
<v Speaker 2>a good dude, you know. And and if Joey didn't.

0:32:09.560 --> 0:32:13.960
<v Speaker 2>Joey lived a hard life man, and his parents got divorced,

0:32:14.400 --> 0:32:17.680
<v Speaker 2>and he didn't have a very stable home life at

0:32:17.680 --> 0:32:20.760
<v Speaker 2>his mom's or his dad. And then for a while

0:32:20.800 --> 0:32:22.800
<v Speaker 2>he had to he could only live with his mom

0:32:22.920 --> 0:32:30.560
<v Speaker 2>because he couldn't live with his dad. And eventually he

0:32:30.640 --> 0:32:36.600
<v Speaker 2>just started crashing to my house, you know, and we

0:32:36.680 --> 0:32:40.080
<v Speaker 2>took him in, like I like, I took him in.

0:32:40.680 --> 0:32:44.400
<v Speaker 2>He was my best friend, and just inherently my parents

0:32:44.640 --> 0:32:49.080
<v Speaker 2>took him into and I got I got good parents,

0:32:49.760 --> 0:32:53.920
<v Speaker 2>and I'm I'm I I'm not as thankful as I

0:32:53.960 --> 0:32:55.560
<v Speaker 2>should be for my parents. You know.

0:32:56.320 --> 0:32:58.280
<v Speaker 1>Are you still close with your parents?

0:33:00.560 --> 0:33:01.800
<v Speaker 2>Not as close as I should be.

0:33:02.960 --> 0:33:05.760
<v Speaker 1>Do they live in the same place as you?

0:33:05.800 --> 0:33:11.200
<v Speaker 2>No? No, So I live in Maine. So I I

0:33:11.520 --> 0:33:15.360
<v Speaker 2>you know, I joined the Marine Corps, I left New Hampshire.

0:33:15.520 --> 0:33:19.560
<v Speaker 2>I came back, and then I came. As soon as

0:33:19.560 --> 0:33:21.800
<v Speaker 2>I came back, I was quickly reminded of why I

0:33:21.880 --> 0:33:25.720
<v Speaker 2>left a lot of it's a bad, bad heroin problem

0:33:25.800 --> 0:33:28.800
<v Speaker 2>where I grew up a lot of heroin, a lot

0:33:28.800 --> 0:33:32.640
<v Speaker 2>of coke. I mean, I mean, you know ship, you know,

0:33:33.240 --> 0:33:37.120
<v Speaker 2>you grow up around it. You know, it's life, and

0:33:38.040 --> 0:33:44.800
<v Speaker 2>uh yeah. So I was quickly reminded of why I

0:33:44.880 --> 0:33:49.240
<v Speaker 2>left in the first place, and so I started fishing

0:33:49.280 --> 0:33:53.600
<v Speaker 2>around for jobs and I was like, yeah, well I worked,

0:33:53.720 --> 0:33:56.960
<v Speaker 2>so back on Joey. Joey hooked it up. Joey hooked

0:33:56.960 --> 0:34:02.560
<v Speaker 2>it up as soon as I got so So Joey,

0:34:02.720 --> 0:34:05.840
<v Speaker 2>Joey's like the ship dude. Like, Joey sent me mail

0:34:05.840 --> 0:34:08.840
<v Speaker 2>on deployment. Joey's my only friend to send me mail undeployment.

0:34:09.040 --> 0:34:13.120
<v Speaker 2>My parents and Joey sent me mail undeployment. Mhm, my

0:34:13.239 --> 0:34:15.920
<v Speaker 2>parents and Joey. I got, I got a brother, my parents,

0:34:15.920 --> 0:34:17.360
<v Speaker 2>and Joey sent me mail on deployment.

0:34:18.160 --> 0:34:20.799
<v Speaker 1>So I want to go back to one thing real quick. Yeah,

0:34:20.800 --> 0:34:22.520
<v Speaker 1>because you talk because the reason we were talking about

0:34:22.560 --> 0:34:25.319
<v Speaker 1>Joey is because you were like, you know, the sad

0:34:25.360 --> 0:34:27.080
<v Speaker 1>thing of it being in the military is that you

0:34:27.160 --> 0:34:27.600
<v Speaker 1>go off.

0:34:27.760 --> 0:34:31.239
<v Speaker 2>Oh, Joey was always there. Joey's Joey was always there. Yeah,

0:34:31.239 --> 0:34:34.120
<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry. I don't mean to trail off. No no, no, no, no, no.

0:34:34.160 --> 0:34:39.319
<v Speaker 1>What what what? What I'm what I'm curious about is

0:34:39.600 --> 0:34:41.240
<v Speaker 1>because you said that you go off into the military,

0:34:41.280 --> 0:34:42.759
<v Speaker 1>everyone's like when you coming home and you get back

0:34:42.760 --> 0:34:44.440
<v Speaker 1>and know what's hanging out with you. Do you feel

0:34:44.480 --> 0:34:49.600
<v Speaker 1>like that experience kind of gave you the perspective of, like, oh,

0:34:50.440 --> 0:34:54.480
<v Speaker 1>these people, even if it's just Joey and mom and dad,

0:34:55.280 --> 0:34:58.960
<v Speaker 1>these are the true folks, you know. Did it give

0:34:58.960 --> 0:35:02.359
<v Speaker 1>you more perspective on like, I know what is.

0:35:02.280 --> 0:35:04.680
<v Speaker 2>I know who's real. I know who's real in my life.

0:35:04.760 --> 0:35:07.239
<v Speaker 2>I know who's in my life. You know, I got,

0:35:07.440 --> 0:35:10.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, my parents and my brother and Joey, who's

0:35:10.040 --> 0:35:11.360
<v Speaker 2>my other brother at this point.

0:35:11.880 --> 0:35:13.280
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so I got.

0:35:13.280 --> 0:35:16.719
<v Speaker 2>My parents and my siblings and the guys that were

0:35:16.760 --> 0:35:20.719
<v Speaker 2>on that boat with me. H, that's it. That's it,

0:35:20.760 --> 0:35:22.960
<v Speaker 2>because we're the only ones. I mean, because I mean,

0:35:23.239 --> 0:35:25.320
<v Speaker 2>I can't. I don't even know why I feel like

0:35:25.360 --> 0:35:27.080
<v Speaker 2>I can talk about this. I feel like it's because

0:35:27.080 --> 0:35:30.000
<v Speaker 2>I know I'll never meet you, But I don't know

0:35:30.080 --> 0:35:32.359
<v Speaker 2>if you if you ever come to New England, let

0:35:32.360 --> 0:35:34.399
<v Speaker 2>me know, if you ever come to Maine. You got

0:35:34.400 --> 0:35:35.640
<v Speaker 2>a spot in my house, dude.

0:35:35.800 --> 0:35:38.560
<v Speaker 1>But uh, well, well tell me why do you feel

0:35:38.600 --> 0:35:40.279
<v Speaker 1>like why do you feel like you never thought you

0:35:40.280 --> 0:35:42.960
<v Speaker 1>could you could talk about any of this stuff with.

0:35:43.120 --> 0:35:48.919
<v Speaker 2>My parents, I mean with Joey. It's different with Joe

0:35:48.960 --> 0:35:51.040
<v Speaker 2>I mean Joey used to drive down to North Carolina.

0:35:51.239 --> 0:35:53.120
<v Speaker 2>He used to. He used to drive down just to

0:35:53.200 --> 0:35:56.520
<v Speaker 2>drive back with me. We used to just we used

0:35:56.520 --> 0:35:58.320
<v Speaker 2>to just I mean ship.

0:35:58.239 --> 0:36:01.040
<v Speaker 1>And I like Joey d he seems like a fun Joe.

0:36:01.320 --> 0:36:05.959
<v Speaker 2>Joe Joey's a real fucking dude, you know. And Joe

0:36:06.600 --> 0:36:09.279
<v Speaker 2>Joey's like, Joey's my best friend. Dude. If Joey died,

0:36:09.280 --> 0:36:13.959
<v Speaker 2>I'd fucking shoot myself at his casket, dude, Like like

0:36:13.960 --> 0:36:19.239
<v Speaker 2>like like, I dude, I dude, if anything, I I will,

0:36:19.600 --> 0:36:23.880
<v Speaker 2>I will harvest someone's soul from their body. If to

0:36:24.080 --> 0:36:29.120
<v Speaker 2>try and fuck with that, dude, like I I I dude,

0:36:29.680 --> 0:36:33.640
<v Speaker 2>I will sky rim enchant, cross bow your ass. Dude,

0:36:34.400 --> 0:36:37.560
<v Speaker 2>Like I don't give a ship, I don't give a fuck.

0:36:38.040 --> 0:36:41.120
<v Speaker 2>You don't funk with Joey, But like, yeah, that dude,

0:36:41.160 --> 0:36:44.240
<v Speaker 2>he's he's the realist person ever. And so he hooked

0:36:44.239 --> 0:36:45.719
<v Speaker 2>it up with a job. When I got out and

0:36:45.719 --> 0:36:52.360
<v Speaker 2>we were working, we were plowing snow together, and uh

0:36:52.880 --> 0:36:57.680
<v Speaker 2>it was good. I mean ship, I mean deck. Did

0:36:57.680 --> 0:36:58.800
<v Speaker 2>you grow up with a snow?

0:36:59.800 --> 0:37:00.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:37:00.040 --> 0:37:02.080
<v Speaker 2>Yea, yeah I grew up with there was snow, so

0:37:02.120 --> 0:37:03.960
<v Speaker 2>you know how it works, you know, you know, you

0:37:04.000 --> 0:37:05.960
<v Speaker 2>know how it works. It's feast or famine with the

0:37:05.960 --> 0:37:09.680
<v Speaker 2>plow drivers, you know. Yeah, yeah, so you know you

0:37:09.719 --> 0:37:12.720
<v Speaker 2>get you know, fuck, dude, you get a storm. Dude,

0:37:12.719 --> 0:37:17.759
<v Speaker 2>you're out in that truck for seventy two hours. You

0:37:17.760 --> 0:37:19.600
<v Speaker 2>don't get out of the fucking driver's seat. You piss

0:37:19.600 --> 0:37:22.439
<v Speaker 2>in a bottle, you eat McDonald's takeout, and you drop

0:37:22.480 --> 0:37:24.480
<v Speaker 2>your blade on the pavement, you push that snow.

0:37:24.960 --> 0:37:27.080
<v Speaker 1>Well, you were on a boat for five months, so

0:37:27.120 --> 0:37:28.920
<v Speaker 1>I feel like a truck for seventy two hours. It's

0:37:28.960 --> 0:37:29.719
<v Speaker 1>got to be nothing for you.

0:37:29.880 --> 0:37:33.879
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, time is time is irrelevant to me.

0:37:34.120 --> 0:37:34.319
<v Speaker 1>You know.

0:37:34.560 --> 0:37:37.239
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, shit, I've died twice. I know when it's kind

0:37:37.239 --> 0:37:38.920
<v Speaker 2>of you know, it's not like I'm not scared of

0:37:38.960 --> 0:37:43.120
<v Speaker 2>it anymore, you know all dude, honestly, it's I know

0:37:43.160 --> 0:37:45.640
<v Speaker 2>this sounds crazy, but dude, after that car accident, I

0:37:45.680 --> 0:37:48.759
<v Speaker 2>was so comfortable before I woke up. There's the disembodied

0:37:48.840 --> 0:37:50.840
<v Speaker 2>voice that said, it can all be over you. But

0:37:50.920 --> 0:37:52.279
<v Speaker 2>if it's, if you don't want it to be, you

0:37:52.400 --> 0:37:55.319
<v Speaker 2>just wake up. Oh ya, wake up? And it was

0:37:55.360 --> 0:37:57.319
<v Speaker 2>hard to wake up. It's like when you take ni

0:37:57.400 --> 0:38:00.840
<v Speaker 2>quill and your alarms going off. But it's like, oh fuck.

0:38:01.520 --> 0:38:04.040
<v Speaker 1>Now with the near death experience, it's funny you said.

0:38:05.520 --> 0:38:07.319
<v Speaker 1>I feel like there's there's two kinds of things, like

0:38:07.320 --> 0:38:10.560
<v Speaker 1>a near death experience could either make you more cautious

0:38:10.920 --> 0:38:19.239
<v Speaker 1>and more like not afraid but careful the opposite. I

0:38:19.320 --> 0:38:20.520
<v Speaker 1>can't die.

0:38:21.000 --> 0:38:23.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna give a ship, and I mean, here's why too.

0:38:23.680 --> 0:38:26.680
<v Speaker 2>You know, I know how, I know how it's gonna feel. Well. Shit,

0:38:26.760 --> 0:38:28.399
<v Speaker 2>I don't fear death. I'm not a fan of pain,

0:38:29.520 --> 0:38:32.160
<v Speaker 2>you know, I'm not. Pain isn't my favorite. I'm not

0:38:32.200 --> 0:38:33.920
<v Speaker 2>scared of death. You know, it's crazy I do in

0:38:33.920 --> 0:38:36.400
<v Speaker 2>the military. I didn't even almost die from anything cool.

0:38:36.600 --> 0:38:38.520
<v Speaker 2>In a car accident and lightning. I mean, I guess

0:38:38.560 --> 0:38:40.440
<v Speaker 2>lightning is pretty cool. But all my friends have heard

0:38:40.440 --> 0:38:44.160
<v Speaker 2>it so much. The novelty is gone. I mean, I shit,

0:38:44.239 --> 0:38:46.440
<v Speaker 2>I haven't even told my parents. I tell my mom this,

0:38:46.600 --> 0:38:50.280
<v Speaker 2>and I see your eyes tear up and I get worried,

0:38:50.360 --> 0:38:52.600
<v Speaker 2>so I don't even continue. I just say, oh, yeah,

0:38:52.680 --> 0:38:54.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm just joking, and I stuff.

0:38:54.880 --> 0:38:55.600
<v Speaker 1>But no, it's just.

0:38:57.520 --> 0:39:00.520
<v Speaker 2>You know, death, That's what I tell my because I

0:39:00.520 --> 0:39:02.759
<v Speaker 2>don't want her to worry about me. I have a

0:39:02.760 --> 0:39:04.520
<v Speaker 2>lot of friends. I have a lot of friends that

0:39:04.640 --> 0:39:10.360
<v Speaker 2>either oh dad or you know, self checkout. You know, yeah, yeah,

0:39:10.640 --> 0:39:13.959
<v Speaker 2>but you know, but like I said, that's just that's

0:39:14.080 --> 0:39:18.239
<v Speaker 2>just you know, his his the way things are. You

0:39:18.320 --> 0:39:23.720
<v Speaker 2>got to take it in stride. Mm hmm. But uh yeah.

0:39:24.440 --> 0:39:26.719
<v Speaker 1>Your friends that you let me ask you this, Your

0:39:26.760 --> 0:39:30.000
<v Speaker 1>friends that like back from where you were, that that's

0:39:30.080 --> 0:39:33.600
<v Speaker 1>self checked out or got addicted to drugs? What do

0:39:33.640 --> 0:39:36.160
<v Speaker 1>you think think? What do you think led them to that?

0:39:40.040 --> 0:39:45.960
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, I don't know. I mean ship, there

0:39:46.080 --> 0:39:51.200
<v Speaker 2>was there was one after after high school. His parents

0:39:51.200 --> 0:39:56.120
<v Speaker 2>found him in his closet and I I don't know,

0:39:56.200 --> 0:39:59.879
<v Speaker 2>I don't even know what led to that? Hm, why

0:40:00.080 --> 0:40:03.520
<v Speaker 2>old me and him? He was like he was, he

0:40:03.640 --> 0:40:06.120
<v Speaker 2>was I'm not going to say his name a case,

0:40:06.200 --> 0:40:11.840
<v Speaker 2>you know, I don't out of respect. Yeah. Yeah. But

0:40:12.400 --> 0:40:14.160
<v Speaker 2>when I was when I was sick back in like

0:40:14.200 --> 0:40:16.200
<v Speaker 2>sixth grades, I was eleven. When I was sick, I

0:40:16.200 --> 0:40:18.399
<v Speaker 2>missed a lot of school and a lot of kids

0:40:18.400 --> 0:40:20.160
<v Speaker 2>made up a lot of rooms. The rumor mill is

0:40:20.200 --> 0:40:23.360
<v Speaker 2>the rumor mill cuts you know that what.

0:40:22.680 --> 0:40:24.759
<v Speaker 1>What what rumors did they make up about you?

0:40:25.640 --> 0:40:29.520
<v Speaker 2>Dude? Dude? It was wild. It was wild. I was here,

0:40:29.640 --> 0:40:32.439
<v Speaker 2>I was eleven years old. Dude. Kids were like, oh,

0:40:32.600 --> 0:40:35.719
<v Speaker 2>he's got age, he's got herpes. I meanwhile, I don't.

0:40:35.760 --> 0:40:38.359
<v Speaker 2>I don't even you know, you know, fuck, anyone who's

0:40:38.360 --> 0:40:39.920
<v Speaker 2>got a cold sore in those herpes isn't going to

0:40:39.960 --> 0:40:42.480
<v Speaker 2>make you sick for forty five days. But ship, I

0:40:42.520 --> 0:40:44.960
<v Speaker 2>mean not. But but at the same time, the rumor

0:40:45.000 --> 0:40:48.440
<v Speaker 2>mill wasn't even nice to me, Like I mean, destruck

0:40:48.440 --> 0:40:50.600
<v Speaker 2>by lightning thing as a testament to my luck in

0:40:50.600 --> 0:40:53.439
<v Speaker 2>that regard, But like, the rumor mill wasn't even nice

0:40:53.440 --> 0:40:55.200
<v Speaker 2>to me because like there were like, no like hot

0:40:55.239 --> 0:40:57.360
<v Speaker 2>girls coming up to me. Rady, are you okay? Do

0:40:57.400 --> 0:41:01.080
<v Speaker 2>you have cancer? Oh my god, you'll kid. No, you couldn't.

0:41:01.120 --> 0:41:03.600
<v Speaker 1>You couldn't even milk. You couldn't even milk the fake

0:41:03.680 --> 0:41:04.920
<v Speaker 1>cancer that everyone thought you had.

0:41:05.000 --> 0:41:08.600
<v Speaker 2>No. I couldn't even I couldn't even milk the fake leukemia.

0:41:09.239 --> 0:41:12.240
<v Speaker 2>You know, I couldn't even do that. No, it was like, well, Randy,

0:41:12.280 --> 0:41:15.760
<v Speaker 2>we heard you like throw up a lot. What's that about.

0:41:18.239 --> 0:41:18.719
<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

0:41:18.840 --> 0:41:21.240
<v Speaker 2>My stomach produces too much acid.

0:41:21.840 --> 0:41:27.280
<v Speaker 1>So so okay, So so before we go to the president,

0:41:27.600 --> 0:41:30.200
<v Speaker 1>So yeah, to the president. Well, what were you gonna

0:41:30.200 --> 0:41:30.719
<v Speaker 1>say just now?

0:41:31.600 --> 0:41:34.520
<v Speaker 2>Oh? Yeah, so but but the one of my one

0:41:34.520 --> 0:41:35.720
<v Speaker 2>of my friends.

0:41:35.360 --> 0:41:38.040
<v Speaker 1>That yeah, you're talking about.

0:41:38.280 --> 0:41:40.440
<v Speaker 2>He was one of the few kids other than Joey

0:41:41.200 --> 0:41:45.800
<v Speaker 2>who who you know, didn't buy into the room though. Mmm,

0:41:47.320 --> 0:41:50.600
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I mean ship. You remember when like World

0:41:50.600 --> 0:41:55.200
<v Speaker 2>that Wore zombies was a thing, right, me and Joey,

0:41:55.360 --> 0:41:57.360
<v Speaker 2>Me and me and Joey were cutting it up on

0:41:57.520 --> 0:42:01.279
<v Speaker 2>the rock back in like the No, dude, we were

0:42:01.400 --> 0:42:05.320
<v Speaker 2>doing it, bro, we were doing things different Joey. Joey's

0:42:05.320 --> 0:42:08.759
<v Speaker 2>a fucking real one, bro. But but and then, but

0:42:08.800 --> 0:42:12.000
<v Speaker 2>my I got another buddy. I won't say his name,

0:42:12.040 --> 0:42:14.600
<v Speaker 2>but I will say his uh. I guess you know

0:42:14.719 --> 0:42:18.279
<v Speaker 2>his his uh his Mark Twain if you will. His

0:42:18.440 --> 0:42:22.000
<v Speaker 2>pen name was blog, you know, and all the boys

0:42:22.040 --> 0:42:27.960
<v Speaker 2>loved blog. Blog had a blog, had a van and dude.

0:42:28.360 --> 0:42:32.000
<v Speaker 2>So we used to have these wild Halloween parties, you know,

0:42:32.880 --> 0:42:37.920
<v Speaker 2>and it was it was we used to go. They

0:42:37.960 --> 0:42:42.120
<v Speaker 2>were nuts. I mean it was they were irresponsibly dangerous

0:42:42.200 --> 0:42:47.920
<v Speaker 2>Halloween parties. Damn near Project ex style Halloween parties. I

0:42:48.160 --> 0:42:55.040
<v Speaker 2>was like, I mean, did you grow up where there's

0:42:55.040 --> 0:42:55.760
<v Speaker 2>a lot of drugs?

0:42:57.400 --> 0:43:02.760
<v Speaker 1>No, like like I mean like pot and shit.

0:43:03.600 --> 0:43:05.960
<v Speaker 2>I mean yeah, I mean like yeah, so I mean

0:43:06.080 --> 0:43:09.359
<v Speaker 2>like I mean pot, I mean, you know, smoking weed.

0:43:09.520 --> 0:43:13.040
<v Speaker 2>You know, that was that was normal. That was normal

0:43:13.320 --> 0:43:15.480
<v Speaker 2>for like a twelve year old where I grew up

0:43:15.520 --> 0:43:17.359
<v Speaker 2>to be like, oh, yeah, you want something, you want

0:43:17.360 --> 0:43:17.879
<v Speaker 2>to buy something.

0:43:18.040 --> 0:43:19.799
<v Speaker 1>But what but what was what was so crazy about

0:43:19.800 --> 0:43:20.800
<v Speaker 1>these Halloween parties?

0:43:21.160 --> 0:43:21.319
<v Speaker 4>Oh?

0:43:21.480 --> 0:43:24.440
<v Speaker 2>The Halloween parties? All right? So dude, no, it was

0:43:24.520 --> 0:43:26.560
<v Speaker 2>like so, I mean, I don't even care if this

0:43:26.680 --> 0:43:29.080
<v Speaker 2>motherfucker finds out. I'll clap his ass if he shows up.

0:43:29.880 --> 0:43:33.799
<v Speaker 2>But uh, Dean Sheen. There was one party. Dean Sheen,

0:43:33.920 --> 0:43:35.480
<v Speaker 2>this guy, I don't even know what happened. He's like,

0:43:35.600 --> 0:43:39.080
<v Speaker 2>he's like, uh, I think I think he just faded

0:43:39.120 --> 0:43:43.560
<v Speaker 2>into Dustin Thanos snapped or some shit. But Dean Sheen, dude,

0:43:44.880 --> 0:43:47.719
<v Speaker 2>so I was at when was this two thousand and

0:43:48.080 --> 0:43:51.160
<v Speaker 2>fourteen Halloween twenty fourteen. I showed up dressed as a

0:43:51.200 --> 0:43:56.040
<v Speaker 2>banana and at this party and his big field. If

0:43:56.320 --> 0:43:58.280
<v Speaker 2>anyone grew up in New England, you know how basement

0:43:58.400 --> 0:44:01.640
<v Speaker 2>parties work, in field party and woods parties, well this

0:44:01.840 --> 0:44:03.640
<v Speaker 2>is like, you know, anyone who grew up in like

0:44:04.120 --> 0:44:09.239
<v Speaker 2>those weird like drug infested rural towns understands, you know,

0:44:09.600 --> 0:44:11.600
<v Speaker 2>basement parties and shit. So it was one of those

0:44:11.680 --> 0:44:15.360
<v Speaker 2>weird like you know, everyone's gonna show up. We're gonna

0:44:16.200 --> 0:44:18.880
<v Speaker 2>just drink crazy amounts of alcohol. We're gonna have an

0:44:19.320 --> 0:44:23.719
<v Speaker 2>unreasonably large fire. A couch might go in it, who knows.

0:44:24.280 --> 0:44:27.160
<v Speaker 2>But you just do a lot of drugs. Yeah, you

0:44:27.360 --> 0:44:28.480
<v Speaker 2>just dude, like fuck.

0:44:28.600 --> 0:44:30.080
<v Speaker 1>So it happened with Dean Sheen.

0:44:30.960 --> 0:44:33.200
<v Speaker 2>So Dean Sheen showed up out of the woods one night,

0:44:34.520 --> 0:44:39.600
<v Speaker 2>like out of the fucking woods. Dude rolls like, we're

0:44:39.640 --> 0:44:43.080
<v Speaker 2>all sitting by this fire, and you know, we're pretty faded.

0:44:43.160 --> 0:44:45.960
<v Speaker 2>It's like twelve thirty one o'clock in the one, yes,

0:44:46.200 --> 0:44:48.000
<v Speaker 2>and we're all sitting by the fire. Dude, we're feeling

0:44:48.040 --> 0:44:51.200
<v Speaker 2>pretty faded. Right. We hear this like cracks stumble shit

0:44:51.239 --> 0:44:54.919
<v Speaker 2>in the woods and then everyone's like, oh shit, who's

0:44:54.960 --> 0:44:56.840
<v Speaker 2>got a gun? It might I mean, I grew up

0:44:56.840 --> 0:44:58.560
<v Speaker 2>in New Hampshire. It might be a bear. It might

0:44:58.600 --> 0:45:01.359
<v Speaker 2>be a moose. And it's Halloween, so it's the rut.

0:45:01.600 --> 0:45:05.520
<v Speaker 2>So like a moose, it might kill a group of teenagers.

0:45:06.440 --> 0:45:10.520
<v Speaker 2>You know, he's he's he's swerved up on Josequerevon and Horny.

0:45:10.800 --> 0:45:13.799
<v Speaker 2>He's ready to go. So Dean Sheen comes rolling out

0:45:13.840 --> 0:45:17.880
<v Speaker 2>of the woods instead of you know, and he goes, yo,

0:45:19.160 --> 0:45:21.480
<v Speaker 2>well suck and we go Dean, what the fuck are

0:45:21.520 --> 0:45:23.960
<v Speaker 2>you doing here? And he goes, I don't know. I

0:45:24.120 --> 0:45:29.919
<v Speaker 2>kind of just came here from Londonderry. And we said, Dean, U, yeah,

0:45:30.600 --> 0:45:34.800
<v Speaker 2>Londonderry's the other way and he goes, oh fuck, Well, anyway,

0:45:34.840 --> 0:45:35.560
<v Speaker 2>anyone want.

0:45:35.440 --> 0:45:36.240
<v Speaker 4>To buy acid?

0:45:37.080 --> 0:45:39.840
<v Speaker 2>And and like four dues just got up and started

0:45:40.000 --> 0:45:41.400
<v Speaker 2>dropping tabs assid.

0:45:41.080 --> 0:45:42.480
<v Speaker 4>With Dean Sheen in a tent.

0:45:42.960 --> 0:45:47.600
<v Speaker 2>It's like, we're just wild shit would be happening at

0:45:47.680 --> 0:45:51.120
<v Speaker 2>these parties, dude, And like you can't even like you

0:45:51.280 --> 0:45:56.040
<v Speaker 2>can't even fathom it, dude first, like I did. So anyway,

0:45:56.200 --> 0:45:58.359
<v Speaker 2>so b Log is at this party and he had

0:45:58.400 --> 0:46:01.239
<v Speaker 2>this like old like Dodge van, the kind of like

0:46:01.320 --> 0:46:03.879
<v Speaker 2>the French doors in the back and he had shag

0:46:04.080 --> 0:46:06.800
<v Speaker 2>carpet on the inside with a futon and we called

0:46:06.840 --> 0:46:10.480
<v Speaker 2>it the slam Van, and dude, the slam Van, dude,

0:46:10.520 --> 0:46:13.080
<v Speaker 2>it was just a vibe. Dude. It had like we'd

0:46:13.520 --> 0:46:17.640
<v Speaker 2>dam out like Aerosmith and led Zeppelin and ship dude

0:46:17.680 --> 0:46:22.839
<v Speaker 2>and we'd just vibe and smoke and chill. And then uh,

0:46:23.480 --> 0:46:27.200
<v Speaker 2>one Halloween, it was another Halloween party, my grandfather died actually,

0:46:27.239 --> 0:46:28.759
<v Speaker 2>and I told my parents and I was like, hey,

0:46:30.120 --> 0:46:32.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm going to go to this party. My mom like

0:46:32.400 --> 0:46:35.120
<v Speaker 2>looked at me, and my mom's cool. My mom, my

0:46:35.239 --> 0:46:38.120
<v Speaker 2>mom gets it. And she was like, hey, dude, you

0:46:38.200 --> 0:46:41.879
<v Speaker 2>need to do call me if you need to come home.

0:46:42.280 --> 0:46:44.399
<v Speaker 1>And it's a good mom, all right, good mom.

0:46:45.239 --> 0:46:48.880
<v Speaker 2>My mom's a fucking gangster. Dude, My mom's my mom's

0:46:48.920 --> 0:46:51.759
<v Speaker 2>the ship. But anyway, so me and Blog, you know,

0:46:52.320 --> 0:46:55.160
<v Speaker 2>we'd it was me, Blog, a few other dudes. There

0:46:55.239 --> 0:46:58.680
<v Speaker 2>was probably seven of us and we'd chill. Dude, we'd smoke.

0:46:58.800 --> 0:47:01.360
<v Speaker 2>But but you know, my grandfather died and he was

0:47:01.440 --> 0:47:03.279
<v Speaker 2>like my hero. You know. He was in the Army

0:47:03.360 --> 0:47:05.760
<v Speaker 2>during the fifties and he got out and he started

0:47:05.800 --> 0:47:11.839
<v Speaker 2>his own construction company and and he lived a hard life. Yeah,

0:47:11.960 --> 0:47:15.040
<v Speaker 2>and and you know when when he died, you know,

0:47:15.239 --> 0:47:19.200
<v Speaker 2>my friends were all there and well, I mean they

0:47:19.239 --> 0:47:20.920
<v Speaker 2>weren't there when he died, but they were there for me.

0:47:21.280 --> 0:47:23.000
<v Speaker 1>They were there for you. I feel like you have

0:47:23.080 --> 0:47:26.280
<v Speaker 1>but you have a good cat. Like I'll say this Randy.

0:47:26.360 --> 0:47:30.640
<v Speaker 1>You have a good cast like you b Log, Dean

0:47:30.960 --> 0:47:34.719
<v Speaker 1>Sheen and Joey. Good guy. I would definitely hang out with.

0:47:34.760 --> 0:47:38.640
<v Speaker 2>You guys and do people people? Do you want to

0:47:38.719 --> 0:47:40.080
<v Speaker 2>know how crazy my life is?

0:47:41.160 --> 0:47:44.040
<v Speaker 1>I have an idea of how crazy, yeah, people are.

0:47:44.160 --> 0:47:46.400
<v Speaker 2>People are more apt to believe a lie about my

0:47:46.520 --> 0:47:50.960
<v Speaker 2>life than the truth. But crazy crazy ship.

0:47:51.080 --> 0:47:54.560
<v Speaker 1>Well so anyway, so so, so listen Randy before we go.

0:47:55.560 --> 0:47:57.120
<v Speaker 2>Oh, yeah, I'm sorry. I didn't need to soak up

0:47:57.120 --> 0:48:00.480
<v Speaker 2>all that time. I mean, I oh no, it was no.

0:48:00.840 --> 0:48:05.319
<v Speaker 1>I gladly, gladly uh been marinating in it all. It's

0:48:05.360 --> 0:48:07.759
<v Speaker 1>been really fun talking to you for all this time. Man,

0:48:07.800 --> 0:48:09.239
<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you sharing all this time.

0:48:09.400 --> 0:48:11.960
<v Speaker 2>Dude. I'm so glad. I'm so glad you I finally

0:48:12.000 --> 0:48:13.080
<v Speaker 2>got on the call. Dude.

0:48:13.360 --> 0:48:15.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I feel like we we went all over the

0:48:15.800 --> 0:48:17.399
<v Speaker 1>place with this. I feel like we know a lot

0:48:17.440 --> 0:48:19.799
<v Speaker 1>about It's very funny you said that that people are

0:48:19.880 --> 0:48:22.239
<v Speaker 1>more inclined to believe lies about your life than the truth.

0:48:22.280 --> 0:48:25.560
<v Speaker 1>I feel like we've gotten a good perspective on you,

0:48:25.719 --> 0:48:27.840
<v Speaker 1>and you know, look, I want to just before we go.

0:48:28.680 --> 0:48:31.840
<v Speaker 2>Here, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, give me give.

0:48:31.680 --> 0:48:37.640
<v Speaker 1>Me uh briefly like your hope for the future.

0:48:37.640 --> 0:48:38.680
<v Speaker 2>My hopes for the future.

0:48:39.400 --> 0:48:39.600
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:48:40.680 --> 0:48:42.800
<v Speaker 2>Uh, well, I mean I hope I've become a teacher.

0:48:42.840 --> 0:48:44.600
<v Speaker 2>I hope I don't get bored with being a teacher.

0:48:44.800 --> 0:48:46.160
<v Speaker 2>I mean, when I was little, I wanted to be

0:48:46.239 --> 0:48:48.239
<v Speaker 2>a farmer. So I hope I hope one day I

0:48:48.320 --> 0:48:50.640
<v Speaker 2>can get old and be a farmer and just be

0:48:50.800 --> 0:48:54.440
<v Speaker 2>left alone. Well, I hope everyone in the chat though,

0:48:55.880 --> 0:48:59.399
<v Speaker 2>I mean, hey, listen, just because just because that line

0:48:59.440 --> 0:49:03.720
<v Speaker 2>says it's dude, don't don't just say, hey, the one's busted.

0:49:04.120 --> 0:49:08.160
<v Speaker 2>Wait your turn call again like everyone else has. Just relax.

0:49:08.280 --> 0:49:11.239
<v Speaker 1>Well, okay, well, Randy, let me say this, whether or

0:49:11.280 --> 0:49:13.480
<v Speaker 1>not you get bored of being a teacher, I very

0:49:13.600 --> 0:49:15.400
<v Speaker 1>much doubt that your students will get bored of you.

0:49:16.320 --> 0:49:18.040
<v Speaker 2>Hey, I appreciate that, Gek.

0:49:19.360 --> 0:49:20.640
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:49:20.640 --> 0:49:21.800
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

0:49:24.280 --> 0:49:27.560
<v Speaker 2>No, that's really it. I'm just hey, I'm just glad.

0:49:27.920 --> 0:49:29.839
<v Speaker 2>I'm just glad I could talk to you. Dude. Hey,

0:49:30.000 --> 0:49:32.960
<v Speaker 2>I hope everyone here has a great night. Dude. That's it.

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<v Speaker 1>You take care, Randy, Thanks for calling, man.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah you too, Gek.

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<v Speaker 1>That was that was That was a good h that

0:49:40.200 --> 0:49:41.360
<v Speaker 1>was a good call. I feel like that was a

0:49:41.400 --> 0:49:46.200
<v Speaker 1>good cast of characters. We got fucking Dean Sheen. You know,

0:49:46.239 --> 0:49:48.560
<v Speaker 1>at first I was like, oh no, he docks Dean Sheen.

0:49:48.719 --> 0:49:51.799
<v Speaker 1>But we're look, we're not going to find Dean Sheen.

0:49:52.760 --> 0:49:55.000
<v Speaker 1>There's no way that's his real name. I don't he's

0:49:55.040 --> 0:49:59.160
<v Speaker 1>not on Facebook. We're not finding Dean Sheen. And if

0:49:59.200 --> 0:50:02.920
<v Speaker 1>you do find Dean she give him my number. I'd

0:50:02.960 --> 0:50:08.160
<v Speaker 1>love to talk to him. Dean Sheen, Joey d Log.

0:50:09.920 --> 0:50:11.879
<v Speaker 1>What an honor would be it? A hop on hop

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<v Speaker 1>on world at war zombies with those guys and pretend

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm in fifth grade again. Thanks for calling, Randy.

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<v Speaker 4>Call from Jackson Dean, Hello, Hello, how are you.

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<v Speaker 2>Doing good?

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<v Speaker 1>How about you doing all right? What's going on with you?

0:50:33.920 --> 0:50:34.080
<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 4>Just doing some reading, listening to the stream.

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<v Speaker 1>What are you? What are you reading?

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<v Speaker 4>It's a it's a paper about timber driven piles.

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<v Speaker 1>Paper about timber driven piles, well.

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<v Speaker 4>Driven timber piles. It's for a foundation support that I'm

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<v Speaker 4>doing for a building.

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<v Speaker 1>You sound like a You sound like an adult.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't think I'm an adult man, I'm only twenty four.

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<v Speaker 1>You that you you the way, reading a paper about

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<v Speaker 1>timber support for a building that you're working on is

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<v Speaker 1>is the most adult thing I can think to do.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, So this kind of leads into what I'm calling

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<v Speaker 4>it about because I'm in a situation where I have

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<v Speaker 4>my dream job and I love what I do. I

0:51:34.760 --> 0:51:39.840
<v Speaker 4>have fun every single day, except for it puts me

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<v Speaker 4>in a bit of a moral dilemma because in my job,

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<v Speaker 4>I kind of take part in destroying the environment. And

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just like, not for that?

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<v Speaker 1>Is it? Because you cut down trees to make buildings.

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<v Speaker 4>Essentially, I mean not directly, but I'm involved with the

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<v Speaker 4>planning of like subdivisions and.

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<v Speaker 2>Buildings.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, okay, so you uh are you? You feel

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<v Speaker 1>as though your job actively destroys the environments.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, But I'm big on protecting the environment, and I

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<v Speaker 4>feel like I try and do my part to offset

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<v Speaker 4>the bad that I've done. But I'm like, when I

0:52:32.600 --> 0:52:35.920
<v Speaker 4>work on projects, I just feel bad at the end

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<v Speaker 4>of the day about what I'm doing.

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<v Speaker 1>So you have your dream job, but you feel bad

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<v Speaker 1>about doing it?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, Okay, So I went to school to study asphalt

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<v Speaker 4>as like my first like that was that was like

0:52:55.719 --> 0:53:00.239
<v Speaker 4>my passion in college and I got a job out

0:53:00.239 --> 0:53:09.400
<v Speaker 4>of college designing roadways and other asphalt associated infrastructure. It

0:53:09.480 --> 0:53:12.600
<v Speaker 4>soose like perfectly in line with what I wanted to do,

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<v Speaker 4>except for as part of doing that, part of my

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<v Speaker 4>job also is in the development business, I suppose.

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<v Speaker 1>M hmm, what what do you develop?

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<v Speaker 4>I so I'm a civil engineer, so basically just residential

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<v Speaker 4>and commercial structures.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hm m m. All right, well you sound like

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<v Speaker 1>an adults. You you you destroy the environment like an adults.

0:53:45.880 --> 0:53:47.880
<v Speaker 1>Adults do that more than children do.

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<v Speaker 4>True, true, the environment.

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<v Speaker 1>What here's my thing that what is so great about

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<v Speaker 1>the environments that we need to not destroy it.

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<v Speaker 4>So pretty? That's the biggest thing. Is like when I

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<v Speaker 4>go out to these sites and it's like five hundred

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<v Speaker 4>acres of beautiful forests, and I know that it's just

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<v Speaker 4>going to be turned into two thousand houses in the

0:54:16.280 --> 0:54:20.680
<v Speaker 4>next five years, Like it just it doesn't feel.

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<v Speaker 1>Good, all right, Well, I mean people got to live somewhere, right,

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<v Speaker 1>or are are these like? Are are these like just

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<v Speaker 1>like super nice like rich people's like second houses type vibes?

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<v Speaker 2>Not?

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<v Speaker 4>Honestly, man, it's all just real estate investors who are

0:54:40.280 --> 0:54:43.600
<v Speaker 4>building like town homes and so it's not even like

0:54:44.680 --> 0:54:47.000
<v Speaker 4>like if it was like single family homes, like that'd

0:54:47.000 --> 0:54:50.239
<v Speaker 4>be okay, But this is just like income generation for

0:54:50.360 --> 0:54:51.760
<v Speaker 4>people who are already wealthy.

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<v Speaker 1>Look, I'm only saying this because I'm an idiot gecko.

0:54:55.120 --> 0:54:55.319
<v Speaker 2>Dude.

0:54:55.360 --> 0:54:58.839
<v Speaker 1>It doesn't know anything about how the universe works. And look,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry to piss off gret Thunberg, but it seems

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<v Speaker 1>as though it is humanity's destiny to destroy the environment

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<v Speaker 1>and then get and then die and get fucked. You know,

0:55:12.880 --> 0:55:17.200
<v Speaker 1>if that was God's plan, then so so beia. We

0:55:17.480 --> 0:55:23.440
<v Speaker 1>destroy the trees and the air, and we kill ourselves

0:55:23.800 --> 0:55:27.040
<v Speaker 1>and then some then some, you know, billions of years later,

0:55:27.160 --> 0:55:31.239
<v Speaker 1>something else comes up. You know, there's those dogs will

0:55:31.280 --> 0:55:35.560
<v Speaker 1>still be running around and squirrels and bacteria and ship. Well, well,

0:55:35.760 --> 0:55:40.560
<v Speaker 1>the Earth will be fine without it, right because the Earth. Again,

0:55:40.680 --> 0:55:42.960
<v Speaker 1>this is coming from a guy in a gecko costa,

0:55:43.000 --> 0:55:46.959
<v Speaker 1>the Earth created humanity, and so it really the Earth

0:55:47.160 --> 0:55:52.200
<v Speaker 1>fucked itself in a sense. I don't know how scientific any.

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<v Speaker 4>Of that was, but no, I mean, like everything kind

0:55:54.920 --> 0:55:58.520
<v Speaker 4>of destroys its surroundings in like one way or another.

0:55:59.080 --> 0:56:02.560
<v Speaker 1>Right, Yeah, but that's the nihilist, that's the nihilistic approach.

0:56:02.680 --> 0:56:05.960
<v Speaker 1>That's that's the easy way out, which I you know, prefer.

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<v Speaker 2>So.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, if you want to save me, I mean,

0:56:10.280 --> 0:56:11.239
<v Speaker 1>do you cow? What do you care?

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<v Speaker 4>I feel like it's my obligation to care. But then again,

0:56:17.760 --> 0:56:18.839
<v Speaker 4>like I also do care?

0:56:19.520 --> 0:56:32.520
<v Speaker 1>All right, that's good. Well, I then I then I

0:56:32.560 --> 0:56:33.800
<v Speaker 1>don't know. I mean, what else can you do?

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know, man, I don't really know if there's

0:56:38.120 --> 0:56:40.040
<v Speaker 4>a solution here. I just felt like I had to

0:56:40.080 --> 0:56:43.279
<v Speaker 4>tell somebody because I feel like if I tell other people,

0:56:43.400 --> 0:56:48.440
<v Speaker 4>they just will accuse me of not or I don't know.

0:56:48.680 --> 0:56:50.560
<v Speaker 4>I just felt like I had to tell somebody who

0:56:50.640 --> 0:56:52.839
<v Speaker 4>wasn't involved directly in my life.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, you think they'll tell you that you're an asshole.

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<v Speaker 4>I think they'll tell me I shouldn't have pursued the

0:56:58.400 --> 0:57:00.719
<v Speaker 4>career that I did. If I'm going to feel like this.

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<v Speaker 1>Well I that's, by the way, a legiti, that's a

0:57:04.080 --> 0:57:06.800
<v Speaker 1>legitimate thing to tell you. I mean, if you feel

0:57:07.000 --> 0:57:09.120
<v Speaker 1>horrible every day, I don't know if that's a great

0:57:09.120 --> 0:57:09.600
<v Speaker 1>way to live.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, but I have yeah, yeah, but I have fun

0:57:17.200 --> 0:57:18.600
<v Speaker 4>every day? Is the problem?

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<v Speaker 2>You have?

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<v Speaker 1>You have fun?

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<v Speaker 2>Feeling?

0:57:23.680 --> 0:57:23.840
<v Speaker 1>Why?

0:57:24.040 --> 0:57:24.080
<v Speaker 2>What?

0:57:24.320 --> 0:57:25.800
<v Speaker 1>What's making you have so much fun.

0:57:27.440 --> 0:57:31.000
<v Speaker 4>It's just like challenging work in a in a way

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<v Speaker 4>like try Like, yeah, I don't know.

0:57:33.280 --> 0:57:37.280
<v Speaker 1>It is a challenge. It is a challenge to cut

0:57:37.400 --> 0:57:38.840
<v Speaker 1>down that many trees.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's true. You got to be efficient cutting down trees,

0:57:46.080 --> 0:57:46.400
<v Speaker 4>for sure.

0:57:47.160 --> 0:57:49.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean what what else are you going to do?

0:57:49.120 --> 0:57:50.760
<v Speaker 1>What else do you? Is there any can you do

0:57:50.840 --> 0:57:53.160
<v Speaker 1>anything else? What do you what are the what are

0:57:53.200 --> 0:57:53.880
<v Speaker 1>the alternatives?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, so, like, part of the reason I got into

0:57:58.480 --> 0:58:02.040
<v Speaker 4>asphalt in the first place was because asphalt is the

0:58:02.120 --> 0:58:09.120
<v Speaker 4>most recycled component in construction in the world. It's more

0:58:09.200 --> 0:58:13.360
<v Speaker 4>asphalt is reused every year than is created, And so

0:58:13.520 --> 0:58:15.600
<v Speaker 4>I got I got into it for the purpose of

0:58:16.440 --> 0:58:22.480
<v Speaker 4>trying to preserve our footprint on humanity and trying not to,

0:58:23.240 --> 0:58:26.640
<v Speaker 4>you know, worsen the effect that we've already done. But

0:58:27.320 --> 0:58:29.600
<v Speaker 4>I've kind of sidestepped my way into this.

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<v Speaker 1>Position, dude, because why do you just become an accountant

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<v Speaker 1>or something? Why you seem distressed?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I can never become an accountant, though. I don't

0:58:41.040 --> 0:58:42.040
<v Speaker 4>know how those people do it.

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<v Speaker 2>That's it.

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<v Speaker 1>Probably they destroy the environment too. They use a lot

0:58:46.240 --> 0:58:46.680
<v Speaker 1>of paper.

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<v Speaker 4>I think most of the things are emails nowadays, Oh.

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<v Speaker 1>I become Listen, clearly you have some sort of desire

0:58:57.000 --> 0:58:59.680
<v Speaker 1>to fuck up trees and stuff, so you could become

0:58:59.760 --> 0:59:00.880
<v Speaker 1>like a paper accountant.

0:59:01.480 --> 0:59:05.040
<v Speaker 4>That could be your niche I did used to do

0:59:05.240 --> 0:59:08.840
<v Speaker 4>lumber jack sports in college, and so I got a

0:59:09.000 --> 0:59:10.920
<v Speaker 4>I got a knack for chopping down trees.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, was this helpful at all?

0:59:19.480 --> 0:59:21.280
<v Speaker 4>I feel like it was good for me just to rant.

0:59:21.680 --> 0:59:22.040
<v Speaker 2>I didn't.

0:59:22.080 --> 0:59:24.080
<v Speaker 4>I wasn't really looking for a solution. I'm just looking

0:59:24.160 --> 0:59:25.800
<v Speaker 4>to looking at a rant at somebody.

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<v Speaker 1>That's good.

0:59:28.200 --> 0:59:29.720
<v Speaker 4>So yeah, yeah it helps.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, look enjoy I mean, and go out into the

0:59:32.720 --> 0:59:35.360
<v Speaker 1>forest and look at enjoy it while it lasts. That's all.

0:59:35.440 --> 0:59:38.760
<v Speaker 1>That's that's the that's the maximum amount of time you

0:59:38.840 --> 0:59:42.440
<v Speaker 1>could enjoy anything for. So I go out into the forest,

0:59:42.640 --> 0:59:46.000
<v Speaker 1>look at the trees, and then when it comes time

0:59:46.160 --> 0:59:50.720
<v Speaker 1>to destroy everything and die, then just in your heart,

0:59:50.880 --> 0:59:52.360
<v Speaker 1>be like, all right, this was destiny.

0:59:54.160 --> 0:59:58.280
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, take take it, Take it in while it's still there,

0:59:58.480 --> 1:00:00.440
<v Speaker 4>before it all gets turned into something visions.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we.

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<v Speaker 4>Go, No, I appreciate the stream and keep doing what

1:00:09.440 --> 1:00:09.800
<v Speaker 4>you're doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, I appreciate you man. Take care later. Ah, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know anything about the universe, but I'm trying.

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<v Speaker 3>Never Beacon goes on the line, taking your phone calls

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<v Speaker 3>every night.

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<v Speaker 2>Never Beacon goes.

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<v Speaker 4>Doing his eye.

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<v Speaker 2>He's teaching you Cloud on your line. Monday's not friendly,

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<v Speaker 2>an expert