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Speaker 1: get into the episode. Hello, Hello, Hi, what's up?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? How we doing?

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Speaker 1: I'm doing good? How are you?

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Speaker 2: Oh good? This is Randy bo Bandy. How are you?

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Speaker 2: Oh shit? I just said that.

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Speaker 1: What What's what you said? What what's the matter?

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Speaker 2: Oh no, nothing, I said, how are you? Twice?

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Speaker 1: That's okay, that's okay. Randy bo Bandy Okay, So Randy

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Speaker 1: bou Bandy, I have to say I saw you in

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Speaker 1: the chat earlier and you said I apologize for my behavior.

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Speaker 1: What yeah, yeah, yeah, what were you apologizing for?

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Speaker 2: So I've been watching for for a couple of months,

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Speaker 2: and uh no, I noticed, like, you know, I feel

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Speaker 2: got hammered drunk last week and I was like, you

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Speaker 2: so I said in the chat, and it was like

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Speaker 1: Okay, so you so you basically were in the chat

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Speaker 2: No, no, no, but I mean, I mean, but that's

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Speaker 2: I mean, I actually called last week because I got

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Speaker 2: all right and hit me. All right. So when I

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Speaker 2: Oh no, I just live in Maine. We all talk

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Speaker 1: Bro Okay, what was what was death?

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Speaker 2: Like?

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Speaker 2: I mean well, and and can I can I can

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Speaker 2: I tell you one more thing. I wasn't sure of

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, it's it's funny. Everything I've heard of, I've

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Speaker 2: Oh, I mean, it wasn't It wasn't like, you know,

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Speaker 1: You death experience with my details.

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Speaker 3: you know, all my friends, like all my friends that

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Speaker 2: And it's like my parents met me at the hospital.

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Speaker 2: Don't worry. So is it is it.

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Speaker 1: Not true that when you get struck by lightning that

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Speaker 2: I mean, they they say that, but you know, you

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Speaker 2: Well, it's like a lot of catch. It's it's like,

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Speaker 2: you got to do something to move on, But you

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Speaker 2: Like that, I I feel like, you know, you're catching

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Speaker 1: But what I'm curious. What's your name again?

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Speaker 2: Randy?

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Speaker 2: All right, Randy, and that's my actual name. I like

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Speaker 1: What's the rest of your life? Like what do you what?

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Speaker 2: With I am? I am? Yeah, I h I Actually

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Speaker 2: I'm glad you asked. I've been I was watching your show,

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Speaker 2: THEO Vaughn and Joe Rogan. You know, I I spend

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Speaker 2: But I'm glad you asked, because no, I've been working

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Speaker 2: want to be a history teacher. Actually, I love history,

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Speaker 1: You know what, uh, what's what's an example of a

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Speaker 2: You know, I can, do you mind if I step

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Speaker 2: Let's do it all right. So, I mean, if I'm

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Speaker 2: Human civilization, human civilization is is the oddity from nature,

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Speaker 2: You know, my grandparents grew up in Nova Scotia without

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Speaker 2: you know, my Memmea and Pepe, my mother's parents. They

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Speaker 2: they're French speaking Japan and I don't you know you

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Speaker 2: want to go to France. I'll happily translate for you.

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Speaker 2: I'm very cultured for a white guy.

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Speaker 1: Well well, well, let me let me ask you a question, Randy,

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Speaker 1: what yeah, what like? Is there a particular era of

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Speaker 1: history that you you want to teach?

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Speaker 2: Oh? Well, is it the US or the world you

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Speaker 2: So, I mean, if I were to teach I mean

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Speaker 2: For five months? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: exactly for who they are and just the fact that

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00:23:57,000 --> 00:24:01,960
Speaker 1: they are the folks around you right now. You know,

433
00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:04,879
Speaker 1: say for anyone being like hostile or anything like that, Like,

434
00:24:04,920 --> 00:24:07,359
Speaker 1: there are the folks around you. They're not perfect, they're

435
00:24:07,400 --> 00:24:09,399
Speaker 1: not going to act exactly how you want them to,

436
00:24:09,560 --> 00:24:13,440
Speaker 1: but they're Yeah, it's it's it's just exactly what you're saying,

437
00:24:13,440 --> 00:24:16,359
Speaker 1: Like it's just an honor to be around people in

438
00:24:16,440 --> 00:24:17,719
Speaker 1: general in this world.

439
00:24:17,920 --> 00:24:20,679
Speaker 2: You know, yeah, it's it's it's an honor to be

440
00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:25,399
Speaker 2: around people. And yeah, you know what exactly because you know,

441
00:24:25,640 --> 00:24:29,360
Speaker 2: I anyone who knows me will tell you that there

442
00:24:29,400 --> 00:24:33,280
Speaker 2: is only one Randy, And uh, you know, I I

443
00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:37,840
Speaker 2: think there's a I don't think people realize that there's

444
00:24:37,840 --> 00:24:40,080
Speaker 2: only one to everyone. You know, if you say you're

445
00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:42,320
Speaker 2: one in a million, there's you know, eight and a

446
00:24:42,320 --> 00:24:45,560
Speaker 2: half thousand people just like you. But if you say

447
00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:49,840
Speaker 2: you know, you're the only motherfucker on twitch TV. You're

448
00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:53,359
Speaker 2: actually the person that made me get twitch TV. You're

449
00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:56,800
Speaker 2: the only motherfucker that I would watch dressed as a

450
00:24:56,840 --> 00:24:59,800
Speaker 2: gecko on my television in my living room right now.

451
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:06,639
Speaker 2: You know that. No, no, no, But I mean I

452
00:25:06,680 --> 00:25:09,879
Speaker 2: don't If I wasn't watching you, I'd probably be watching

453
00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:13,120
Speaker 2: like some YouTube video some dudes in Cambodia building some

454
00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:18,240
Speaker 2: fake mud cave or some shit. I don't know, but

455
00:25:18,240 --> 00:25:22,280
Speaker 2: but I mean, yeah, I appreciate you. You appreciate people

456
00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:26,119
Speaker 2: for a lot more than just being a face, you know,

457
00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:30,320
Speaker 2: and and you know when you're out there, you got

458
00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:33,960
Speaker 2: time to reflect on life a lot because I I

459
00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:36,240
Speaker 2: mean I was on I was on the scat team,

460
00:25:36,280 --> 00:25:39,359
Speaker 2: which is like the small cal I ran into the

461
00:25:39,359 --> 00:25:44,160
Speaker 2: gun when they said run to the gun. And when

462
00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:46,320
Speaker 2: you go through like straight, it's incredible, though. You know,

463
00:25:46,359 --> 00:25:49,639
Speaker 2: you go through like the Straits of Gibraltar, which is

464
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:52,240
Speaker 2: you know, the mouth of the Mediterranean to the Atlantic.

465
00:25:52,280 --> 00:25:56,639
Speaker 2: You know, like Perseus sailed through that ship, Hercules sailed

466
00:25:56,680 --> 00:25:59,720
Speaker 2: through that ship. Some of the greatest people in history

467
00:26:00,119 --> 00:26:02,200
Speaker 2: have sailed through that. And I got to sail through

468
00:26:02,200 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 2: that or go through the Suez Canal. I got I

469
00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:08,440
Speaker 2: got to sail through Egypt, you know, or I got

470
00:26:08,480 --> 00:26:11,000
Speaker 2: to go through the strait of horror moods, you know.

471
00:26:11,240 --> 00:26:13,600
Speaker 2: And I mean, and I'm not touting that for like

472
00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:17,560
Speaker 2: a respect that thing, but like, but like no one history,

473
00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:22,359
Speaker 2: you know, I like history being my passion, you know,

474
00:26:22,560 --> 00:26:24,720
Speaker 2: to get to see you know, I went into the

475
00:26:24,760 --> 00:26:27,080
Speaker 2: Black Sea and I got to see, like I got

476
00:26:27,080 --> 00:26:30,440
Speaker 2: to sail past I mean, granted it was during COVID times,

477
00:26:30,640 --> 00:26:32,760
Speaker 2: so I mean it actually no, that kind of made

478
00:26:32,760 --> 00:26:35,080
Speaker 2: it better because I got to see things like unimpeded

479
00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:38,560
Speaker 2: by like stupid tourists. And granted I didn't see them

480
00:26:38,640 --> 00:26:41,280
Speaker 2: as a tourist, but like, you know, people hate Americans

481
00:26:41,280 --> 00:26:43,520
Speaker 2: because where there's just we're just a tourists of the world.

482
00:26:43,560 --> 00:26:46,040
Speaker 2: But if you can see things as that, you know,

483
00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:48,639
Speaker 2: objectively and not just being like hey, am I in

484
00:26:48,680 --> 00:26:51,600
Speaker 2: the way right now? But you know, it was surreal

485
00:26:51,720 --> 00:26:56,080
Speaker 2: to see a battlefield where so many people, you know, died.

486
00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:59,119
Speaker 2: I mean not not being like, oh that's so cool,

487
00:26:59,320 --> 00:27:02,320
Speaker 2: but like these these like the Australians went to fight

488
00:27:02,359 --> 00:27:06,080
Speaker 2: in this battle because England said, hey, the Crown needs

489
00:27:06,119 --> 00:27:09,960
Speaker 2: you guys, and you gotta go. And these guys had families.

490
00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:13,639
Speaker 2: You know, these were sons, fathers, brothers, husbands, and you

491
00:27:13,960 --> 00:27:15,400
Speaker 2: they they went.

492
00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:19,560
Speaker 1: Do you feel like, does that inspire you in some way?

493
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:23,080
Speaker 1: Like this idea that these these guys, you know, they

494
00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:28,080
Speaker 1: they try, they fighting for something greater than just themselves

495
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:30,119
Speaker 1: and their family. What does that do for you?

496
00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 2: I guess it's kind of I guess part of that's

497
00:27:34,080 --> 00:27:36,280
Speaker 2: kind of the reason I joined because you know, I

498
00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:38,600
Speaker 2: I so when I was in high school. You know,

499
00:27:38,640 --> 00:27:42,360
Speaker 2: all my friends they're older brothers. Uh Oh. I grew

500
00:27:42,440 --> 00:27:45,280
Speaker 2: up in southern New Hampshire, and southern New Hampshire is

501
00:27:45,320 --> 00:27:46,760
Speaker 2: not a great place to live. You know. I grew

502
00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:50,199
Speaker 2: up like like twenty minutes outside of Lowell, Massachusetts. If

503
00:27:50,240 --> 00:27:53,239
Speaker 2: you know anything about that I grew up. Anyone from

504
00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:56,920
Speaker 2: New Hampshire knows Manage Vegas and shit that it's dirty,

505
00:27:57,040 --> 00:27:59,359
Speaker 2: it's gross. People work hard and they don't make a

506
00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:02,800
Speaker 2: lot of money. So I wanted to leave man and

507
00:28:02,800 --> 00:28:07,119
Speaker 2: and uh I wanted to go do something great. And

508
00:28:07,160 --> 00:28:09,120
Speaker 2: you know when I was when I was a kid,

509
00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:11,399
Speaker 2: I had this weird obsession with World War two. So

510
00:28:11,480 --> 00:28:14,439
Speaker 2: when Band of Brothers caught my interest and all, you know,

511
00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:17,240
Speaker 2: all that stuff, and you see these guys like fighting

512
00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 2: die with no care for they have no regard for

513
00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:23,199
Speaker 2: their life. Yeah.

514
00:28:23,280 --> 00:28:24,080
Speaker 1: Yeah.

515
00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:25,920
Speaker 2: And but and at the end of it, and I

516
00:28:25,960 --> 00:28:30,840
Speaker 2: and I found out why why no one? You know,

517
00:28:31,400 --> 00:28:36,479
Speaker 2: it's because when you're in the military, when you're gone,

518
00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:39,320
Speaker 2: all your friends ask when you when are you coming home,

519
00:28:39,360 --> 00:28:41,120
Speaker 2: When are you coming home? When are you coming home?

520
00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:44,360
Speaker 2: And you get home and none of them come see you.

521
00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:46,200
Speaker 1: Huh.

522
00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:53,560
Speaker 2: And then and it was it was, and it's it's

523
00:28:53,640 --> 00:28:56,400
Speaker 2: kind of sad. And then, you know, I mean ship,

524
00:28:56,560 --> 00:28:59,080
Speaker 2: I had a fucking jeep wrangler. I had a I

525
00:28:59,120 --> 00:29:03,040
Speaker 2: had a nineteen ninety nine jeep wrangler. Yeah, and I

526
00:29:03,200 --> 00:29:07,280
Speaker 2: drove that from North Carolina to New Hampshire every chance

527
00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:10,880
Speaker 2: I got, just to go see my friends, and none

528
00:29:10,920 --> 00:29:13,360
Speaker 2: of them would come see me. I mean they would

529
00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:15,520
Speaker 2: all fluff it up, be like I mean, actually, no,

530
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:18,720
Speaker 2: I can't say that my I got one. I got one. Buddy, Joey.

531
00:29:19,200 --> 00:29:21,960
Speaker 2: He's been my He's been my fucking big dog. He's

532
00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:24,320
Speaker 2: been my big dog since like first grade.

533
00:29:24,880 --> 00:29:27,880
Speaker 1: What tell me about God, tell me about Joey? What's he?

534
00:29:27,920 --> 00:29:28,520
Speaker 1: What's he like?

535
00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:34,000
Speaker 2: Joe is my second brother, man?

536
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:36,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, what what's what do you What do you think

537
00:29:36,560 --> 00:29:37,560
Speaker 1: makes you guys so close?

538
00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:46,320
Speaker 2: H we we I mean ship? We lived life together,

539
00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:48,719
Speaker 2: so I know you know what makes us so close?

540
00:29:49,200 --> 00:29:53,040
Speaker 2: Tell me is we met? We met in first grade,

541
00:29:53,280 --> 00:29:56,520
Speaker 2: the first day of first grade. And he he was

542
00:29:56,560 --> 00:29:59,239
Speaker 2: born in North Carolina, so his parents were he grew

543
00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:03,880
Speaker 2: up in a military family. And if he ever sees this,

544
00:30:03,960 --> 00:30:06,120
Speaker 2: he's gonna beat my ass for spelling his ship. But

545
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:08,760
Speaker 2: I don't give a fuck. I'll smake his stupid face.

546
00:30:08,840 --> 00:30:12,600
Speaker 2: But but but so he grew so he grew up

547
00:30:12,600 --> 00:30:17,200
Speaker 2: in a military family. Yeah, and and so he moved.

548
00:30:17,360 --> 00:30:21,120
Speaker 2: He moved to New Hampshire the summer before first grade.

549
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:23,320
Speaker 2: And so we met the first day at first grade.

550
00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:27,080
Speaker 2: And my last name starts with an M and his

551
00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:31,040
Speaker 2: last name starts with an L. So alphabetically, we just

552
00:30:31,080 --> 00:30:34,880
Speaker 2: happened to sit next to each other. Yeah, and we

553
00:30:35,080 --> 00:30:37,880
Speaker 2: just we we just hit it off. And then it

554
00:30:38,120 --> 00:30:42,280
Speaker 2: just so happened. On the bus ride home, Joey is

555
00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:47,960
Speaker 2: two streets up from mine, Holy ship. But now me

556
00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:51,520
Speaker 2: and Joey, Me and Joey are hanging out. And you know,

557
00:30:53,080 --> 00:30:56,560
Speaker 2: Joey's parents got divorced and he didn't have he he

558
00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:59,480
Speaker 2: didn't have an easy life growing up. You know, Yeah,

559
00:30:59,680 --> 00:31:03,880
Speaker 2: I I had it. I I like to think I

560
00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:07,840
Speaker 2: had it hard, but I know, I don't. You know.

561
00:31:07,960 --> 00:31:10,320
Speaker 2: We all go through our own ship. You know. I got,

562
00:31:10,440 --> 00:31:13,320
Speaker 2: I mean, I mean, I got my own ship. I

563
00:31:13,360 --> 00:31:15,280
Speaker 2: got a I got, I got, I got a lot

564
00:31:15,280 --> 00:31:17,880
Speaker 2: of shit, you know. I And but but Joey had

565
00:31:17,880 --> 00:31:21,320
Speaker 2: it hard. Joey had it hard earlier than I did,

566
00:31:21,360 --> 00:31:26,320
Speaker 2: you know. And and it doesn't get easier. That's what everyone likes.

567
00:31:26,520 --> 00:31:28,920
Speaker 2: That's what everyone sadly finds out is they get older,

568
00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:30,880
Speaker 2: it doesn't get easier now.

569
00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:34,800
Speaker 1: And did did that? Was that the case for you?

570
00:31:34,800 --> 00:31:36,560
Speaker 1: You felt like it didn't. It didn't really get easier

571
00:31:36,560 --> 00:31:37,760
Speaker 1: as you got older.

572
00:31:39,360 --> 00:31:41,640
Speaker 2: My my life was pretty easy until I had about

573
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:47,400
Speaker 2: eleven years old, and then out of the blue, I

574
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:49,680
Speaker 2: started having like all these digestive problems. I got like

575
00:31:49,800 --> 00:31:52,640
Speaker 2: really sick, Like I missed like forty five consecutive days

576
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:54,480
Speaker 2: of school. I was just a quke and I was

577
00:31:54,480 --> 00:31:57,600
Speaker 2: really really sick. But anyway, back back on, Joey gakin

578
00:31:57,880 --> 00:32:01,320
Speaker 2: not to not to back, but no, Joey's a Joey's

579
00:32:01,320 --> 00:32:09,280
Speaker 2: a good dude, you know. And and if Joey didn't.

580
00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:13,960
Speaker 2: Joey lived a hard life man, and his parents got divorced,

581
00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:17,680
Speaker 2: and he didn't have a very stable home life at

582
00:32:17,680 --> 00:32:20,760
Speaker 2: his mom's or his dad. And then for a while

583
00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:22,800
Speaker 2: he had to he could only live with his mom

584
00:32:22,920 --> 00:32:30,560
Speaker 2: because he couldn't live with his dad. And eventually he

585
00:32:30,640 --> 00:32:36,600
Speaker 2: just started crashing to my house, you know, and we

586
00:32:36,680 --> 00:32:40,080
Speaker 2: took him in, like I like, I took him in.

587
00:32:40,680 --> 00:32:44,400
Speaker 2: He was my best friend, and just inherently my parents

588
00:32:44,640 --> 00:32:49,080
Speaker 2: took him into and I got I got good parents,

589
00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:53,920
Speaker 2: and I'm I'm I I'm not as thankful as I

590
00:32:53,960 --> 00:32:55,560
Speaker 2: should be for my parents. You know.

591
00:32:56,320 --> 00:32:58,280
Speaker 1: Are you still close with your parents?

592
00:33:00,560 --> 00:33:01,800
Speaker 2: Not as close as I should be.

593
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:05,760
Speaker 1: Do they live in the same place as you?

594
00:33:05,800 --> 00:33:11,200
Speaker 2: No? No, So I live in Maine. So I I

595
00:33:11,520 --> 00:33:15,360
Speaker 2: you know, I joined the Marine Corps, I left New Hampshire.

596
00:33:15,520 --> 00:33:19,560
Speaker 2: I came back, and then I came. As soon as

597
00:33:19,560 --> 00:33:21,800
Speaker 2: I came back, I was quickly reminded of why I

598
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:25,720
Speaker 2: left a lot of it's a bad, bad heroin problem

599
00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:28,800
Speaker 2: where I grew up a lot of heroin, a lot

600
00:33:28,800 --> 00:33:32,640
Speaker 2: of coke. I mean, I mean, you know ship, you know,

601
00:33:33,240 --> 00:33:37,120
Speaker 2: you grow up around it. You know, it's life, and

602
00:33:38,040 --> 00:33:44,800
Speaker 2: uh yeah. So I was quickly reminded of why I

603
00:33:44,880 --> 00:33:49,240
Speaker 2: left in the first place, and so I started fishing

604
00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:53,600
Speaker 2: around for jobs and I was like, yeah, well I worked,

605
00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:56,960
Speaker 2: so back on Joey. Joey hooked it up. Joey hooked

606
00:33:56,960 --> 00:34:02,560
Speaker 2: it up as soon as I got so So Joey,

607
00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:05,840
Speaker 2: Joey's like the ship dude. Like, Joey sent me mail

608
00:34:05,840 --> 00:34:08,840
Speaker 2: on deployment. Joey's my only friend to send me mail undeployment.

609
00:34:09,040 --> 00:34:13,120
Speaker 2: My parents and Joey sent me mail undeployment. Mhm, my

610
00:34:13,239 --> 00:34:15,920
Speaker 2: parents and Joey. I got, I got a brother, my parents,

611
00:34:15,920 --> 00:34:17,360
Speaker 2: and Joey sent me mail on deployment.

612
00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 1: So I want to go back to one thing real quick. Yeah,

613
00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:22,520
Speaker 1: because you talk because the reason we were talking about

614
00:34:22,560 --> 00:34:25,319
Speaker 1: Joey is because you were like, you know, the sad

615
00:34:25,360 --> 00:34:27,080
Speaker 1: thing of it being in the military is that you

616
00:34:27,160 --> 00:34:27,600
Speaker 1: go off.

617
00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:31,239
Speaker 2: Oh, Joey was always there. Joey's Joey was always there. Yeah,

618
00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,120
Speaker 2: I'm sorry. I don't mean to trail off. No no, no, no, no, no.

619
00:34:34,160 --> 00:34:39,319
Speaker 1: What what what? What I'm what I'm curious about is

620
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:41,240
Speaker 1: because you said that you go off into the military,

621
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:42,759
Speaker 1: everyone's like when you coming home and you get back

622
00:34:42,760 --> 00:34:44,440
Speaker 1: and know what's hanging out with you. Do you feel

623
00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:49,600
Speaker 1: like that experience kind of gave you the perspective of, like, oh,

624
00:34:50,440 --> 00:34:54,480
Speaker 1: these people, even if it's just Joey and mom and dad,

625
00:34:55,280 --> 00:34:58,960
Speaker 1: these are the true folks, you know. Did it give

626
00:34:58,960 --> 00:35:02,359
Speaker 1: you more perspective on like, I know what is.

627
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:04,680
Speaker 2: I know who's real. I know who's real in my life.

628
00:35:04,760 --> 00:35:07,239
Speaker 2: I know who's in my life. You know, I got,

629
00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:10,000
Speaker 2: you know, my parents and my brother and Joey, who's

630
00:35:10,040 --> 00:35:11,360
Speaker 2: my other brother at this point.

631
00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:13,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, so I got.

632
00:35:13,280 --> 00:35:16,719
Speaker 2: My parents and my siblings and the guys that were

633
00:35:16,760 --> 00:35:20,719
Speaker 2: on that boat with me. H, that's it. That's it,

634
00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:22,960
Speaker 2: because we're the only ones. I mean, because I mean,

635
00:35:23,239 --> 00:35:25,320
Speaker 2: I can't. I don't even know why I feel like

636
00:35:25,360 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 2: I can talk about this. I feel like it's because

637
00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:30,000
Speaker 2: I know I'll never meet you, But I don't know

638
00:35:30,080 --> 00:35:32,359
Speaker 2: if you if you ever come to New England, let

639
00:35:32,360 --> 00:35:34,399
Speaker 2: me know, if you ever come to Maine. You got

640
00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:35,640
Speaker 2: a spot in my house, dude.

641
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:38,560
Speaker 1: But uh, well, well tell me why do you feel

642
00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:40,279
Speaker 1: like why do you feel like you never thought you

643
00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:42,960
Speaker 1: could you could talk about any of this stuff with.

644
00:35:43,120 --> 00:35:48,919
Speaker 2: My parents, I mean with Joey. It's different with Joe

645
00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:51,040
Speaker 2: I mean Joey used to drive down to North Carolina.

646
00:35:51,239 --> 00:35:53,120
Speaker 2: He used to. He used to drive down just to

647
00:35:53,200 --> 00:35:56,520
Speaker 2: drive back with me. We used to just we used

648
00:35:56,520 --> 00:35:58,320
Speaker 2: to just I mean ship.

649
00:35:58,239 --> 00:36:01,040
Speaker 1: And I like Joey d he seems like a fun Joe.

650
00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:05,959
Speaker 2: Joe Joey's a real fucking dude, you know. And Joe

651
00:36:06,600 --> 00:36:09,279
Speaker 2: Joey's like, Joey's my best friend. Dude. If Joey died,

652
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:13,959
Speaker 2: I'd fucking shoot myself at his casket, dude, Like like

653
00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:19,239
Speaker 2: like like, I dude, I dude, if anything, I I will,

654
00:36:19,600 --> 00:36:23,880
Speaker 2: I will harvest someone's soul from their body. If to

655
00:36:24,080 --> 00:36:29,120
Speaker 2: try and fuck with that, dude, like I I I dude,

656
00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:33,640
Speaker 2: I will sky rim enchant, cross bow your ass. Dude,

657
00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:37,560
Speaker 2: Like I don't give a ship, I don't give a fuck.

658
00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:41,120
Speaker 2: You don't funk with Joey, But like, yeah, that dude,

659
00:36:41,160 --> 00:36:44,240
Speaker 2: he's he's the realist person ever. And so he hooked

660
00:36:44,239 --> 00:36:45,719
Speaker 2: it up with a job. When I got out and

661
00:36:45,719 --> 00:36:52,360
Speaker 2: we were working, we were plowing snow together, and uh

662
00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:57,680
Speaker 2: it was good. I mean ship, I mean deck. Did

663
00:36:57,680 --> 00:36:58,800
Speaker 2: you grow up with a snow?

664
00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:00,000
Speaker 1: Yeah?

665
00:37:00,040 --> 00:37:02,080
Speaker 2: Yea, yeah I grew up with there was snow, so

666
00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:03,960
Speaker 2: you know how it works, you know, you know, you

667
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:05,960
Speaker 2: know how it works. It's feast or famine with the

668
00:37:05,960 --> 00:37:09,680
Speaker 2: plow drivers, you know. Yeah, yeah, so you know you

669
00:37:09,719 --> 00:37:12,720
Speaker 2: get you know, fuck, dude, you get a storm. Dude,

670
00:37:12,719 --> 00:37:17,759
Speaker 2: you're out in that truck for seventy two hours. You

671
00:37:17,760 --> 00:37:19,600
Speaker 2: don't get out of the fucking driver's seat. You piss

672
00:37:19,600 --> 00:37:22,439
Speaker 2: in a bottle, you eat McDonald's takeout, and you drop

673
00:37:22,480 --> 00:37:24,480
Speaker 2: your blade on the pavement, you push that snow.

674
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:27,080
Speaker 1: Well, you were on a boat for five months, so

675
00:37:27,120 --> 00:37:28,920
Speaker 1: I feel like a truck for seventy two hours. It's

676
00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:29,719
Speaker 1: got to be nothing for you.

677
00:37:29,880 --> 00:37:33,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, time is time is irrelevant to me.

678
00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:34,319
Speaker 1: You know.

679
00:37:34,560 --> 00:37:37,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, shit, I've died twice. I know when it's kind

680
00:37:37,239 --> 00:37:38,920
Speaker 2: of you know, it's not like I'm not scared of

681
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:43,120
Speaker 2: it anymore, you know all dude, honestly, it's I know

682
00:37:43,160 --> 00:37:45,640
Speaker 2: this sounds crazy, but dude, after that car accident, I

683
00:37:45,680 --> 00:37:48,759
Speaker 2: was so comfortable before I woke up. There's the disembodied

684
00:37:48,840 --> 00:37:50,840
Speaker 2: voice that said, it can all be over you. But

685
00:37:50,920 --> 00:37:52,279
Speaker 2: if it's, if you don't want it to be, you

686
00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:55,319
Speaker 2: just wake up. Oh ya, wake up? And it was

687
00:37:55,360 --> 00:37:57,319
Speaker 2: hard to wake up. It's like when you take ni

688
00:37:57,400 --> 00:38:00,840
Speaker 2: quill and your alarms going off. But it's like, oh fuck.

689
00:38:01,520 --> 00:38:04,040
Speaker 1: Now with the near death experience, it's funny you said.

690
00:38:05,520 --> 00:38:07,319
Speaker 1: I feel like there's there's two kinds of things, like

691
00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:10,560
Speaker 1: a near death experience could either make you more cautious

692
00:38:10,920 --> 00:38:19,239
Speaker 1: and more like not afraid but careful the opposite. I

693
00:38:19,320 --> 00:38:20,520
Speaker 1: can't die.

694
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:23,440
Speaker 2: I'm gonna give a ship, and I mean, here's why too.

695
00:38:23,680 --> 00:38:26,680
Speaker 2: You know, I know how, I know how it's gonna feel. Well. Shit,

696
00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:28,399
Speaker 2: I don't fear death. I'm not a fan of pain,

697
00:38:29,520 --> 00:38:32,160
Speaker 2: you know, I'm not. Pain isn't my favorite. I'm not

698
00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:33,920
Speaker 2: scared of death. You know, it's crazy I do in

699
00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:36,400
Speaker 2: the military. I didn't even almost die from anything cool.

700
00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:38,520
Speaker 2: In a car accident and lightning. I mean, I guess

701
00:38:38,560 --> 00:38:40,440
Speaker 2: lightning is pretty cool. But all my friends have heard

702
00:38:40,440 --> 00:38:44,160
Speaker 2: it so much. The novelty is gone. I mean, I shit,

703
00:38:44,239 --> 00:38:46,440
Speaker 2: I haven't even told my parents. I tell my mom this,

704
00:38:46,600 --> 00:38:50,280
Speaker 2: and I see your eyes tear up and I get worried,

705
00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:52,600
Speaker 2: so I don't even continue. I just say, oh, yeah,

706
00:38:52,680 --> 00:38:54,040
Speaker 2: I'm just joking, and I stuff.

707
00:38:54,880 --> 00:38:55,600
Speaker 1: But no, it's just.

708
00:38:57,520 --> 00:39:00,520
Speaker 2: You know, death, That's what I tell my because I

709
00:39:00,520 --> 00:39:02,759
Speaker 2: don't want her to worry about me. I have a

710
00:39:02,760 --> 00:39:04,520
Speaker 2: lot of friends. I have a lot of friends that

711
00:39:04,640 --> 00:39:10,360
Speaker 2: either oh dad or you know, self checkout. You know, yeah, yeah,

712
00:39:10,640 --> 00:39:13,959
Speaker 2: but you know, but like I said, that's just that's

713
00:39:14,080 --> 00:39:18,239
Speaker 2: just you know, his his the way things are. You

714
00:39:18,320 --> 00:39:23,720
Speaker 2: got to take it in stride. Mm hmm. But uh yeah.

715
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:26,719
Speaker 1: Your friends that you let me ask you this, Your

716
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:30,000
Speaker 1: friends that like back from where you were, that that's

717
00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:33,600
Speaker 1: self checked out or got addicted to drugs? What do

718
00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:36,160
Speaker 1: you think think? What do you think led them to that?

719
00:39:40,040 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 2: I don't know, I don't know. I mean ship, there

720
00:39:46,080 --> 00:39:51,200
Speaker 2: was there was one after after high school. His parents

721
00:39:51,200 --> 00:39:56,120
Speaker 2: found him in his closet and I I don't know,

722
00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:59,879
Speaker 2: I don't even know what led to that? Hm, why

723
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:03,520
Speaker 2: old me and him? He was like he was, he

724
00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:06,120
Speaker 2: was I'm not going to say his name a case,

725
00:40:06,200 --> 00:40:11,840
Speaker 2: you know, I don't out of respect. Yeah. Yeah. But

726
00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:14,160
Speaker 2: when I was when I was sick back in like

727
00:40:14,200 --> 00:40:16,200
Speaker 2: sixth grades, I was eleven. When I was sick, I

728
00:40:16,200 --> 00:40:18,399
Speaker 2: missed a lot of school and a lot of kids

729
00:40:18,400 --> 00:40:20,160
Speaker 2: made up a lot of rooms. The rumor mill is

730
00:40:20,200 --> 00:40:23,360
Speaker 2: the rumor mill cuts you know that what.

731
00:40:22,680 --> 00:40:24,759
Speaker 1: What what rumors did they make up about you?

732
00:40:25,640 --> 00:40:29,520
Speaker 2: Dude? Dude? It was wild. It was wild. I was here,

733
00:40:29,640 --> 00:40:32,439
Speaker 2: I was eleven years old. Dude. Kids were like, oh,

734
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,719
Speaker 2: he's got age, he's got herpes. I meanwhile, I don't.

735
00:40:35,760 --> 00:40:38,359
Speaker 2: I don't even you know, you know, fuck, anyone who's

736
00:40:38,360 --> 00:40:39,920
Speaker 2: got a cold sore in those herpes isn't going to

737
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:42,480
Speaker 2: make you sick for forty five days. But ship, I

738
00:40:42,520 --> 00:40:44,960
Speaker 2: mean not. But but at the same time, the rumor

739
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:48,440
Speaker 2: mill wasn't even nice to me, Like I mean, destruck

740
00:40:48,440 --> 00:40:50,600
Speaker 2: by lightning thing as a testament to my luck in

741
00:40:50,600 --> 00:40:53,439
Speaker 2: that regard, But like, the rumor mill wasn't even nice

742
00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:55,200
Speaker 2: to me because like there were like, no like hot

743
00:40:55,239 --> 00:40:57,360
Speaker 2: girls coming up to me. Rady, are you okay? Do

744
00:40:57,400 --> 00:41:01,080
Speaker 2: you have cancer? Oh my god, you'll kid. No, you couldn't.

745
00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:03,600
Speaker 1: You couldn't even milk. You couldn't even milk the fake

746
00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:04,920
Speaker 1: cancer that everyone thought you had.

747
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:08,600
Speaker 2: No. I couldn't even I couldn't even milk the fake leukemia.

748
00:41:09,239 --> 00:41:12,240
Speaker 2: You know, I couldn't even do that. No, it was like, well, Randy,

749
00:41:12,280 --> 00:41:15,760
Speaker 2: we heard you like throw up a lot. What's that about.

750
00:41:18,239 --> 00:41:18,719
Speaker 1: I don't know.

751
00:41:18,840 --> 00:41:21,240
Speaker 2: My stomach produces too much acid.

752
00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:27,280
Speaker 1: So so okay, So so before we go to the president,

753
00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:30,200
Speaker 1: So yeah, to the president. Well, what were you gonna

754
00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:30,719
Speaker 1: say just now?

755
00:41:31,600 --> 00:41:34,520
Speaker 2: Oh? Yeah, so but but the one of my one

756
00:41:34,520 --> 00:41:35,720
Speaker 2: of my friends.

757
00:41:35,360 --> 00:41:38,040
Speaker 1: That yeah, you're talking about.

758
00:41:38,280 --> 00:41:40,440
Speaker 2: He was one of the few kids other than Joey

759
00:41:41,200 --> 00:41:45,800
Speaker 2: who who you know, didn't buy into the room though. Mmm,

760
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:50,600
Speaker 2: I mean, I mean ship. You remember when like World

761
00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:55,200
Speaker 2: that Wore zombies was a thing, right, me and Joey,

762
00:41:55,360 --> 00:41:57,360
Speaker 2: Me and me and Joey were cutting it up on

763
00:41:57,520 --> 00:42:01,279
Speaker 2: the rock back in like the No, dude, we were

764
00:42:01,400 --> 00:42:05,320
Speaker 2: doing it, bro, we were doing things different Joey. Joey's

765
00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:08,759
Speaker 2: a fucking real one, bro. But but and then, but

766
00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:12,000
Speaker 2: my I got another buddy. I won't say his name,

767
00:42:12,040 --> 00:42:14,600
Speaker 2: but I will say his uh. I guess you know

768
00:42:14,719 --> 00:42:18,279
Speaker 2: his his uh his Mark Twain if you will. His

769
00:42:18,440 --> 00:42:22,000
Speaker 2: pen name was blog, you know, and all the boys

770
00:42:22,040 --> 00:42:27,960
Speaker 2: loved blog. Blog had a blog, had a van and dude.

771
00:42:28,360 --> 00:42:32,000
Speaker 2: So we used to have these wild Halloween parties, you know,

772
00:42:32,880 --> 00:42:37,920
Speaker 2: and it was it was we used to go. They

773
00:42:37,960 --> 00:42:42,120
Speaker 2: were nuts. I mean it was they were irresponsibly dangerous

774
00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:47,920
Speaker 2: Halloween parties. Damn near Project ex style Halloween parties. I

775
00:42:48,160 --> 00:42:55,040
Speaker 2: was like, I mean, did you grow up where there's

776
00:42:55,040 --> 00:42:55,760
Speaker 2: a lot of drugs?

777
00:42:57,400 --> 00:43:02,760
Speaker 1: No, like like I mean like pot and shit.

778
00:43:03,600 --> 00:43:05,960
Speaker 2: I mean yeah, I mean like yeah, so I mean

779
00:43:06,080 --> 00:43:09,359
Speaker 2: like I mean pot, I mean, you know, smoking weed.

780
00:43:09,520 --> 00:43:13,040
Speaker 2: You know, that was that was normal. That was normal

781
00:43:13,320 --> 00:43:15,480
Speaker 2: for like a twelve year old where I grew up

782
00:43:15,520 --> 00:43:17,359
Speaker 2: to be like, oh, yeah, you want something, you want

783
00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:17,879
Speaker 2: to buy something.

784
00:43:18,040 --> 00:43:19,799
Speaker 1: But what but what was what was so crazy about

785
00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:20,800
Speaker 1: these Halloween parties?

786
00:43:21,160 --> 00:43:21,319
Speaker 4: Oh?

787
00:43:21,480 --> 00:43:24,440
Speaker 2: The Halloween parties? All right? So dude, no, it was

788
00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:26,560
Speaker 2: like so, I mean, I don't even care if this

789
00:43:26,680 --> 00:43:29,080
Speaker 2: motherfucker finds out. I'll clap his ass if he shows up.

790
00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:33,799
Speaker 2: But uh, Dean Sheen. There was one party. Dean Sheen,

791
00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:35,480
Speaker 2: this guy, I don't even know what happened. He's like,

792
00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:39,080
Speaker 2: he's like, uh, I think I think he just faded

793
00:43:39,120 --> 00:43:43,560
Speaker 2: into Dustin Thanos snapped or some shit. But Dean Sheen, dude,

794
00:43:44,880 --> 00:43:47,719
Speaker 2: so I was at when was this two thousand and

795
00:43:48,080 --> 00:43:51,160
Speaker 2: fourteen Halloween twenty fourteen. I showed up dressed as a

796
00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:56,040
Speaker 2: banana and at this party and his big field. If

797
00:43:56,320 --> 00:43:58,280
Speaker 2: anyone grew up in New England, you know how basement

798
00:43:58,400 --> 00:44:01,640
Speaker 2: parties work, in field party and woods parties, well this

799
00:44:01,840 --> 00:44:03,640
Speaker 2: is like, you know, anyone who grew up in like

800
00:44:04,120 --> 00:44:09,239
Speaker 2: those weird like drug infested rural towns understands, you know,

801
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:11,600
Speaker 2: basement parties and shit. So it was one of those

802
00:44:11,680 --> 00:44:15,360
Speaker 2: weird like you know, everyone's gonna show up. We're gonna

803
00:44:16,200 --> 00:44:18,880
Speaker 2: just drink crazy amounts of alcohol. We're gonna have an

804
00:44:19,320 --> 00:44:23,719
Speaker 2: unreasonably large fire. A couch might go in it, who knows.

805
00:44:24,280 --> 00:44:27,160
Speaker 2: But you just do a lot of drugs. Yeah, you

806
00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:28,480
Speaker 2: just dude, like fuck.

807
00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:30,080
Speaker 1: So it happened with Dean Sheen.

808
00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:33,200
Speaker 2: So Dean Sheen showed up out of the woods one night,

809
00:44:34,520 --> 00:44:39,600
Speaker 2: like out of the fucking woods. Dude rolls like, we're

810
00:44:39,640 --> 00:44:43,080
Speaker 2: all sitting by this fire, and you know, we're pretty faded.

811
00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:45,960
Speaker 2: It's like twelve thirty one o'clock in the one, yes,

812
00:44:46,200 --> 00:44:48,000
Speaker 2: and we're all sitting by the fire. Dude, we're feeling

813
00:44:48,040 --> 00:44:51,200
Speaker 2: pretty faded. Right. We hear this like cracks stumble shit

814
00:44:51,239 --> 00:44:54,919
Speaker 2: in the woods and then everyone's like, oh shit, who's

815
00:44:54,960 --> 00:44:56,840
Speaker 2: got a gun? It might I mean, I grew up

816
00:44:56,840 --> 00:44:58,560
Speaker 2: in New Hampshire. It might be a bear. It might

817
00:44:58,600 --> 00:45:01,359
Speaker 2: be a moose. And it's Halloween, so it's the rut.

818
00:45:01,600 --> 00:45:05,520
Speaker 2: So like a moose, it might kill a group of teenagers.

819
00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:10,520
Speaker 2: You know, he's he's he's swerved up on Josequerevon and Horny.

820
00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:13,799
Speaker 2: He's ready to go. So Dean Sheen comes rolling out

821
00:45:13,840 --> 00:45:17,880
Speaker 2: of the woods instead of you know, and he goes, yo,

822
00:45:19,160 --> 00:45:21,480
Speaker 2: well suck and we go Dean, what the fuck are

823
00:45:21,520 --> 00:45:23,960
Speaker 2: you doing here? And he goes, I don't know. I

824
00:45:24,120 --> 00:45:29,919
Speaker 2: kind of just came here from Londonderry. And we said, Dean, U, yeah,

825
00:45:30,600 --> 00:45:34,800
Speaker 2: Londonderry's the other way and he goes, oh fuck, Well, anyway,

826
00:45:34,840 --> 00:45:35,560
Speaker 2: anyone want.

827
00:45:35,440 --> 00:45:36,240
Speaker 4: To buy acid?

828
00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:39,840
Speaker 2: And and like four dues just got up and started

829
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:41,400
Speaker 2: dropping tabs assid.

830
00:45:41,080 --> 00:45:42,480
Speaker 4: With Dean Sheen in a tent.

831
00:45:42,960 --> 00:45:47,600
Speaker 2: It's like, we're just wild shit would be happening at

832
00:45:47,680 --> 00:45:51,120
Speaker 2: these parties, dude, And like you can't even like you

833
00:45:51,280 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 2: can't even fathom it, dude first, like I did. So anyway,

834
00:45:56,200 --> 00:45:58,359
Speaker 2: so b Log is at this party and he had

835
00:45:58,400 --> 00:46:01,239
Speaker 2: this like old like Dodge van, the kind of like

836
00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:03,879
Speaker 2: the French doors in the back and he had shag

837
00:46:04,080 --> 00:46:06,800
Speaker 2: carpet on the inside with a futon and we called

838
00:46:06,840 --> 00:46:10,480
Speaker 2: it the slam Van, and dude, the slam Van, dude,

839
00:46:10,520 --> 00:46:13,080
Speaker 2: it was just a vibe. Dude. It had like we'd

840
00:46:13,520 --> 00:46:17,640
Speaker 2: dam out like Aerosmith and led Zeppelin and ship dude

841
00:46:17,680 --> 00:46:22,839
Speaker 2: and we'd just vibe and smoke and chill. And then uh,

842
00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:27,200
Speaker 2: one Halloween, it was another Halloween party, my grandfather died actually,

843
00:46:27,239 --> 00:46:28,759
Speaker 2: and I told my parents and I was like, hey,

844
00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:32,320
Speaker 2: I'm going to go to this party. My mom like

845
00:46:32,400 --> 00:46:35,120
Speaker 2: looked at me, and my mom's cool. My mom, my

846
00:46:35,239 --> 00:46:38,120
Speaker 2: mom gets it. And she was like, hey, dude, you

847
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:41,879
Speaker 2: need to do call me if you need to come home.

848
00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:44,399
Speaker 1: And it's a good mom, all right, good mom.

849
00:46:45,239 --> 00:46:48,880
Speaker 2: My mom's a fucking gangster. Dude, My mom's my mom's

850
00:46:48,920 --> 00:46:51,759
Speaker 2: the ship. But anyway, so me and Blog, you know,

851
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 2: we'd it was me, Blog, a few other dudes. There

852
00:46:55,239 --> 00:46:58,680
Speaker 2: was probably seven of us and we'd chill. Dude, we'd smoke.

853
00:46:58,800 --> 00:47:01,360
Speaker 2: But but you know, my grandfather died and he was

854
00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:03,279
Speaker 2: like my hero. You know. He was in the Army

855
00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:05,760
Speaker 2: during the fifties and he got out and he started

856
00:47:05,800 --> 00:47:11,839
Speaker 2: his own construction company and and he lived a hard life. Yeah,

857
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:15,040
Speaker 2: and and you know when when he died, you know,

858
00:47:15,239 --> 00:47:19,200
Speaker 2: my friends were all there and well, I mean they

859
00:47:19,239 --> 00:47:20,920
Speaker 2: weren't there when he died, but they were there for me.

860
00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:23,000
Speaker 1: They were there for you. I feel like you have

861
00:47:23,080 --> 00:47:26,280
Speaker 1: but you have a good cat. Like I'll say this Randy.

862
00:47:26,360 --> 00:47:30,640
Speaker 1: You have a good cast like you b Log, Dean

863
00:47:30,960 --> 00:47:34,719
Speaker 1: Sheen and Joey. Good guy. I would definitely hang out with.

864
00:47:34,760 --> 00:47:38,640
Speaker 2: You guys and do people people? Do you want to

865
00:47:38,719 --> 00:47:40,080
Speaker 2: know how crazy my life is?

866
00:47:41,160 --> 00:47:44,040
Speaker 1: I have an idea of how crazy, yeah, people are.

867
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:46,400
Speaker 2: People are more apt to believe a lie about my

868
00:47:46,520 --> 00:47:50,960
Speaker 2: life than the truth. But crazy crazy ship.

869
00:47:51,080 --> 00:47:54,560
Speaker 1: Well so anyway, so so, so listen Randy before we go.

870
00:47:55,560 --> 00:47:57,120
Speaker 2: Oh, yeah, I'm sorry. I didn't need to soak up

871
00:47:57,120 --> 00:48:00,480
Speaker 2: all that time. I mean, I oh no, it was no.

872
00:48:00,840 --> 00:48:05,319
Speaker 1: I gladly, gladly uh been marinating in it all. It's

873
00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:07,759
Speaker 1: been really fun talking to you for all this time. Man,

874
00:48:07,800 --> 00:48:09,239
Speaker 1: I appreciate you sharing all this time.

875
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:11,960
Speaker 2: Dude. I'm so glad. I'm so glad you I finally

876
00:48:12,000 --> 00:48:13,080
Speaker 2: got on the call. Dude.

877
00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:15,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel like we we went all over the

878
00:48:15,800 --> 00:48:17,399
Speaker 1: place with this. I feel like we know a lot

879
00:48:17,440 --> 00:48:19,799
Speaker 1: about It's very funny you said that that people are

880
00:48:19,880 --> 00:48:22,239
Speaker 1: more inclined to believe lies about your life than the truth.

881
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 1: I feel like we've gotten a good perspective on you,

882
00:48:25,719 --> 00:48:27,840
Speaker 1: and you know, look, I want to just before we go.

883
00:48:28,680 --> 00:48:31,840
Speaker 2: Here, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, give me give.

884
00:48:31,680 --> 00:48:37,640
Speaker 1: Me uh briefly like your hope for the future.

885
00:48:37,640 --> 00:48:38,680
Speaker 2: My hopes for the future.

886
00:48:39,400 --> 00:48:39,600
Speaker 1: Yeah.

887
00:48:40,680 --> 00:48:42,800
Speaker 2: Uh, well, I mean I hope I've become a teacher.

888
00:48:42,840 --> 00:48:44,600
Speaker 2: I hope I don't get bored with being a teacher.

889
00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:46,160
Speaker 2: I mean, when I was little, I wanted to be

890
00:48:46,239 --> 00:48:48,239
Speaker 2: a farmer. So I hope I hope one day I

891
00:48:48,320 --> 00:48:50,640
Speaker 2: can get old and be a farmer and just be

892
00:48:50,800 --> 00:48:54,440
Speaker 2: left alone. Well, I hope everyone in the chat though,

893
00:48:55,880 --> 00:48:59,399
Speaker 2: I mean, hey, listen, just because just because that line

894
00:48:59,440 --> 00:49:03,720
Speaker 2: says it's dude, don't don't just say, hey, the one's busted.

895
00:49:04,120 --> 00:49:08,160
Speaker 2: Wait your turn call again like everyone else has. Just relax.

896
00:49:08,280 --> 00:49:11,239
Speaker 1: Well, okay, well, Randy, let me say this, whether or

897
00:49:11,280 --> 00:49:13,480
Speaker 1: not you get bored of being a teacher, I very

898
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:15,400
Speaker 1: much doubt that your students will get bored of you.

899
00:49:16,320 --> 00:49:18,040
Speaker 2: Hey, I appreciate that, Gek.

900
00:49:19,360 --> 00:49:20,640
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

901
00:49:20,640 --> 00:49:21,800
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

902
00:49:24,280 --> 00:49:27,560
Speaker 2: No, that's really it. I'm just hey, I'm just glad.

903
00:49:27,920 --> 00:49:29,839
Speaker 2: I'm just glad I could talk to you. Dude. Hey,

904
00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:32,960
Speaker 2: I hope everyone here has a great night. Dude. That's it.

905
00:49:33,719 --> 00:49:35,399
Speaker 1: You take care, Randy, Thanks for calling, man.

906
00:49:35,400 --> 00:49:36,319
Speaker 2: Yeah you too, Gek.

907
00:49:38,440 --> 00:49:40,080
Speaker 1: That was that was That was a good h that

908
00:49:40,200 --> 00:49:41,360
Speaker 1: was a good call. I feel like that was a

909
00:49:41,400 --> 00:49:46,200
Speaker 1: good cast of characters. We got fucking Dean Sheen. You know,

910
00:49:46,239 --> 00:49:48,560
Speaker 1: at first I was like, oh no, he docks Dean Sheen.

911
00:49:48,719 --> 00:49:51,799
Speaker 1: But we're look, we're not going to find Dean Sheen.

912
00:49:52,760 --> 00:49:55,000
Speaker 1: There's no way that's his real name. I don't he's

913
00:49:55,040 --> 00:49:59,160
Speaker 1: not on Facebook. We're not finding Dean Sheen. And if

914
00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:02,920
Speaker 1: you do find Dean she give him my number. I'd

915
00:50:02,960 --> 00:50:08,160
Speaker 1: love to talk to him. Dean Sheen, Joey d Log.

916
00:50:09,920 --> 00:50:11,879
Speaker 1: What an honor would be it? A hop on hop

917
00:50:11,960 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 1: on world at war zombies with those guys and pretend

918
00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:18,680
Speaker 1: like I'm in fifth grade again. Thanks for calling, Randy.

919
00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:27,440
Speaker 4: Call from Jackson Dean, Hello, Hello, how are you.

920
00:50:29,000 --> 00:50:29,440
Speaker 2: Doing good?

921
00:50:29,480 --> 00:50:32,120
Speaker 1: How about you doing all right? What's going on with you?

922
00:50:33,920 --> 00:50:34,080
Speaker 2: Oh?

923
00:50:34,360 --> 00:50:36,240
Speaker 4: Just doing some reading, listening to the stream.

924
00:50:37,760 --> 00:50:38,640
Speaker 1: What are you? What are you reading?

925
00:50:40,320 --> 00:50:45,200
Speaker 4: It's a it's a paper about timber driven piles.

926
00:50:47,200 --> 00:50:51,600
Speaker 1: Paper about timber driven piles, well.

927
00:50:51,840 --> 00:50:57,080
Speaker 4: Driven timber piles. It's for a foundation support that I'm

928
00:50:57,160 --> 00:50:58,000
Speaker 4: doing for a building.

929
00:50:59,600 --> 00:51:01,600
Speaker 1: You sound like a You sound like an adult.

930
00:51:03,440 --> 00:51:06,239
Speaker 4: I don't think I'm an adult man, I'm only twenty four.

931
00:51:07,600 --> 00:51:11,720
Speaker 1: You that you you the way, reading a paper about

932
00:51:11,840 --> 00:51:14,440
Speaker 1: timber support for a building that you're working on is

933
00:51:14,960 --> 00:51:17,840
Speaker 1: is the most adult thing I can think to do.

934
00:51:20,719 --> 00:51:23,640
Speaker 4: Okay, So this kind of leads into what I'm calling

935
00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:29,040
Speaker 4: it about because I'm in a situation where I have

936
00:51:29,680 --> 00:51:34,640
Speaker 4: my dream job and I love what I do. I

937
00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:39,840
Speaker 4: have fun every single day, except for it puts me

938
00:51:40,160 --> 00:51:44,200
Speaker 4: in a bit of a moral dilemma because in my job,

939
00:51:45,400 --> 00:51:49,840
Speaker 4: I kind of take part in destroying the environment. And

940
00:51:51,560 --> 00:51:53,880
Speaker 4: I'm just like, not for that?

941
00:51:55,960 --> 00:51:58,920
Speaker 1: Is it? Because you cut down trees to make buildings.

942
00:52:00,080 --> 00:52:04,680
Speaker 4: Essentially, I mean not directly, but I'm involved with the

943
00:52:04,800 --> 00:52:07,279
Speaker 4: planning of like subdivisions and.

944
00:52:08,920 --> 00:52:09,440
Speaker 2: Buildings.

945
00:52:09,600 --> 00:52:14,759
Speaker 1: So yeah, okay, so you uh are you? You feel

946
00:52:14,760 --> 00:52:17,719
Speaker 1: as though your job actively destroys the environments.

947
00:52:18,920 --> 00:52:24,040
Speaker 4: Right, But I'm big on protecting the environment, and I

948
00:52:24,120 --> 00:52:27,520
Speaker 4: feel like I try and do my part to offset

949
00:52:28,040 --> 00:52:32,520
Speaker 4: the bad that I've done. But I'm like, when I

950
00:52:32,600 --> 00:52:35,920
Speaker 4: work on projects, I just feel bad at the end

951
00:52:35,960 --> 00:52:37,879
Speaker 4: of the day about what I'm doing.

952
00:52:40,719 --> 00:52:43,040
Speaker 1: So you have your dream job, but you feel bad

953
00:52:43,080 --> 00:52:43,719
Speaker 1: about doing it?

954
00:52:46,000 --> 00:52:51,320
Speaker 4: Well, Okay, So I went to school to study asphalt

955
00:52:52,440 --> 00:52:55,600
Speaker 4: as like my first like that was that was like

956
00:52:55,719 --> 00:53:00,239
Speaker 4: my passion in college and I got a job out

957
00:53:00,239 --> 00:53:09,400
Speaker 4: of college designing roadways and other asphalt associated infrastructure. It

958
00:53:09,480 --> 00:53:12,600
Speaker 4: soose like perfectly in line with what I wanted to do,

959
00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:17,520
Speaker 4: except for as part of doing that, part of my

960
00:53:17,640 --> 00:53:22,160
Speaker 4: job also is in the development business, I suppose.

961
00:53:22,920 --> 00:53:25,600
Speaker 1: M hmm, what what do you develop?

962
00:53:28,040 --> 00:53:33,080
Speaker 4: I so I'm a civil engineer, so basically just residential

963
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:34,560
Speaker 4: and commercial structures.

964
00:53:35,600 --> 00:53:39,560
Speaker 1: Mm hm m m. All right, well you sound like

965
00:53:39,600 --> 00:53:45,880
Speaker 1: an adults. You you you destroy the environment like an adults.

966
00:53:45,880 --> 00:53:47,880
Speaker 1: Adults do that more than children do.

967
00:53:49,880 --> 00:53:51,680
Speaker 4: True, true, the environment.

968
00:53:51,800 --> 00:53:54,600
Speaker 1: What here's my thing that what is so great about

969
00:53:54,640 --> 00:53:57,960
Speaker 1: the environments that we need to not destroy it.

970
00:54:00,200 --> 00:54:04,800
Speaker 4: So pretty? That's the biggest thing. Is like when I

971
00:54:04,880 --> 00:54:08,440
Speaker 4: go out to these sites and it's like five hundred

972
00:54:08,560 --> 00:54:12,560
Speaker 4: acres of beautiful forests, and I know that it's just

973
00:54:12,719 --> 00:54:16,160
Speaker 4: going to be turned into two thousand houses in the

974
00:54:16,280 --> 00:54:20,680
Speaker 4: next five years, Like it just it doesn't feel.

975
00:54:20,520 --> 00:54:26,120
Speaker 1: Good, all right, Well, I mean people got to live somewhere, right,

976
00:54:26,600 --> 00:54:29,239
Speaker 1: or are are these like? Are are these like just

977
00:54:29,360 --> 00:54:33,640
Speaker 1: like super nice like rich people's like second houses type vibes?

978
00:54:35,520 --> 00:54:35,560
Speaker 2: Not?

979
00:54:35,920 --> 00:54:40,279
Speaker 4: Honestly, man, it's all just real estate investors who are

980
00:54:40,280 --> 00:54:43,600
Speaker 4: building like town homes and so it's not even like

981
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:47,000
Speaker 4: like if it was like single family homes, like that'd

982
00:54:47,000 --> 00:54:50,239
Speaker 4: be okay, But this is just like income generation for

983
00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:51,760
Speaker 4: people who are already wealthy.

984
00:54:52,400 --> 00:54:54,960
Speaker 1: Look, I'm only saying this because I'm an idiot gecko.

985
00:54:55,120 --> 00:54:55,319
Speaker 2: Dude.

986
00:54:55,360 --> 00:54:58,839
Speaker 1: It doesn't know anything about how the universe works. And look,

987
00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:01,920
Speaker 1: I'm sorry to piss off gret Thunberg, but it seems

988
00:55:01,960 --> 00:55:07,120
Speaker 1: as though it is humanity's destiny to destroy the environment

989
00:55:08,040 --> 00:55:12,120
Speaker 1: and then get and then die and get fucked. You know,

990
00:55:12,880 --> 00:55:17,200
Speaker 1: if that was God's plan, then so so beia. We

991
00:55:17,480 --> 00:55:23,440
Speaker 1: destroy the trees and the air, and we kill ourselves

992
00:55:23,800 --> 00:55:27,040
Speaker 1: and then some then some, you know, billions of years later,

993
00:55:27,160 --> 00:55:31,239
Speaker 1: something else comes up. You know, there's those dogs will

994
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:35,560
Speaker 1: still be running around and squirrels and bacteria and ship. Well, well,

995
00:55:35,760 --> 00:55:40,560
Speaker 1: the Earth will be fine without it, right because the Earth. Again,

996
00:55:40,680 --> 00:55:42,960
Speaker 1: this is coming from a guy in a gecko costa,

997
00:55:43,000 --> 00:55:46,959
Speaker 1: the Earth created humanity, and so it really the Earth

998
00:55:47,160 --> 00:55:52,200
Speaker 1: fucked itself in a sense. I don't know how scientific any.

999
00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:54,879
Speaker 4: Of that was, but no, I mean, like everything kind

1000
00:55:54,920 --> 00:55:58,520
Speaker 4: of destroys its surroundings in like one way or another.

1001
00:55:59,080 --> 00:56:02,560
Speaker 1: Right, Yeah, but that's the nihilist, that's the nihilistic approach.

1002
00:56:02,680 --> 00:56:05,960
Speaker 1: That's that's the easy way out, which I you know, prefer.

1003
00:56:08,320 --> 00:56:08,360
Speaker 2: So.

1004
00:56:08,680 --> 00:56:10,239
Speaker 1: I mean, if you want to save me, I mean,

1005
00:56:10,280 --> 00:56:11,239
Speaker 1: do you cow? What do you care?

1006
00:56:13,600 --> 00:56:17,640
Speaker 4: I feel like it's my obligation to care. But then again,

1007
00:56:17,760 --> 00:56:18,839
Speaker 4: like I also do care?

1008
00:56:19,520 --> 00:56:32,520
Speaker 1: All right, that's good. Well, I then I then I

1009
00:56:32,560 --> 00:56:33,800
Speaker 1: don't know. I mean, what else can you do?

1010
00:56:36,320 --> 00:56:38,120
Speaker 4: I don't know, man, I don't really know if there's

1011
00:56:38,120 --> 00:56:40,040
Speaker 4: a solution here. I just felt like I had to

1012
00:56:40,080 --> 00:56:43,279
Speaker 4: tell somebody because I feel like if I tell other people,

1013
00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:48,440
Speaker 4: they just will accuse me of not or I don't know.

1014
00:56:48,680 --> 00:56:50,560
Speaker 4: I just felt like I had to tell somebody who

1015
00:56:50,640 --> 00:56:52,839
Speaker 4: wasn't involved directly in my life.

1016
00:56:52,960 --> 00:56:54,840
Speaker 1: Oh, you think they'll tell you that you're an asshole.

1017
00:56:56,080 --> 00:56:58,279
Speaker 4: I think they'll tell me I shouldn't have pursued the

1018
00:56:58,400 --> 00:57:00,719
Speaker 4: career that I did. If I'm going to feel like this.

1019
00:57:01,520 --> 00:57:03,960
Speaker 1: Well I that's, by the way, a legiti, that's a

1020
00:57:04,080 --> 00:57:06,800
Speaker 1: legitimate thing to tell you. I mean, if you feel

1021
00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:09,120
Speaker 1: horrible every day, I don't know if that's a great

1022
00:57:09,120 --> 00:57:09,600
Speaker 1: way to live.

1023
00:57:11,680 --> 00:57:17,120
Speaker 4: Well, but I have yeah, yeah, but I have fun

1024
00:57:17,200 --> 00:57:18,600
Speaker 4: every day? Is the problem?

1025
00:57:19,200 --> 00:57:19,400
Speaker 2: You have?

1026
00:57:20,400 --> 00:57:21,000
Speaker 1: You have fun?

1027
00:57:21,160 --> 00:57:21,440
Speaker 2: Feeling?

1028
00:57:23,680 --> 00:57:23,840
Speaker 1: Why?

1029
00:57:24,040 --> 00:57:24,080
Speaker 2: What?

1030
00:57:24,320 --> 00:57:25,800
Speaker 1: What's making you have so much fun.

1031
00:57:27,440 --> 00:57:31,000
Speaker 4: It's just like challenging work in a in a way

1032
00:57:31,320 --> 00:57:33,080
Speaker 4: like try Like, yeah, I don't know.

1033
00:57:33,280 --> 00:57:37,280
Speaker 1: It is a challenge. It is a challenge to cut

1034
00:57:37,400 --> 00:57:38,840
Speaker 1: down that many trees.

1035
00:57:41,560 --> 00:57:46,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's true. You got to be efficient cutting down trees,

1036
00:57:46,080 --> 00:57:46,400
Speaker 4: for sure.

1037
00:57:47,160 --> 00:57:49,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean what what else are you going to do?

1038
00:57:49,120 --> 00:57:50,760
Speaker 1: What else do you? Is there any can you do

1039
00:57:50,840 --> 00:57:53,160
Speaker 1: anything else? What do you what are the what are

1040
00:57:53,200 --> 00:57:53,880
Speaker 1: the alternatives?

1041
00:57:55,520 --> 00:57:57,959
Speaker 4: Well, so, like, part of the reason I got into

1042
00:57:58,480 --> 00:58:02,040
Speaker 4: asphalt in the first place was because asphalt is the

1043
00:58:02,120 --> 00:58:09,120
Speaker 4: most recycled component in construction in the world. It's more

1044
00:58:09,200 --> 00:58:13,360
Speaker 4: asphalt is reused every year than is created, And so

1045
00:58:13,520 --> 00:58:15,600
Speaker 4: I got I got into it for the purpose of

1046
00:58:16,440 --> 00:58:22,480
Speaker 4: trying to preserve our footprint on humanity and trying not to,

1047
00:58:23,240 --> 00:58:26,640
Speaker 4: you know, worsen the effect that we've already done. But

1048
00:58:27,320 --> 00:58:29,600
Speaker 4: I've kind of sidestepped my way into this.

1049
00:58:29,680 --> 00:58:32,960
Speaker 1: Position, dude, because why do you just become an accountant

1050
00:58:33,080 --> 00:58:36,400
Speaker 1: or something? Why you seem distressed?

1051
00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:41,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, I can never become an accountant, though. I don't

1052
00:58:41,040 --> 00:58:42,040
Speaker 4: know how those people do it.

1053
00:58:42,680 --> 00:58:42,920
Speaker 2: That's it.

1054
00:58:43,080 --> 00:58:46,200
Speaker 1: Probably they destroy the environment too. They use a lot

1055
00:58:46,240 --> 00:58:46,680
Speaker 1: of paper.

1056
00:58:47,920 --> 00:58:50,920
Speaker 4: I think most of the things are emails nowadays, Oh.

1057
00:58:52,320 --> 00:58:56,760
Speaker 1: I become Listen, clearly you have some sort of desire

1058
00:58:57,000 --> 00:58:59,680
Speaker 1: to fuck up trees and stuff, so you could become

1059
00:58:59,760 --> 00:59:00,880
Speaker 1: like a paper accountant.

1060
00:59:01,480 --> 00:59:05,040
Speaker 4: That could be your niche I did used to do

1061
00:59:05,240 --> 00:59:08,840
Speaker 4: lumber jack sports in college, and so I got a

1062
00:59:09,000 --> 00:59:10,920
Speaker 4: I got a knack for chopping down trees.

1063
00:59:11,720 --> 00:59:17,680
Speaker 1: Okay, was this helpful at all?

1064
00:59:19,480 --> 00:59:21,280
Speaker 4: I feel like it was good for me just to rant.

1065
00:59:21,680 --> 00:59:22,040
Speaker 2: I didn't.

1066
00:59:22,080 --> 00:59:24,080
Speaker 4: I wasn't really looking for a solution. I'm just looking

1067
00:59:24,160 --> 00:59:25,800
Speaker 4: to looking at a rant at somebody.

1068
00:59:26,720 --> 00:59:27,160
Speaker 1: That's good.

1069
00:59:28,200 --> 00:59:29,720
Speaker 4: So yeah, yeah it helps.

1070
00:59:30,360 --> 00:59:32,640
Speaker 1: Hey, look enjoy I mean, and go out into the

1071
00:59:32,720 --> 00:59:35,360
Speaker 1: forest and look at enjoy it while it lasts. That's all.

1072
00:59:35,440 --> 00:59:38,760
Speaker 1: That's that's the that's the maximum amount of time you

1073
00:59:38,840 --> 00:59:42,440
Speaker 1: could enjoy anything for. So I go out into the forest,

1074
00:59:42,640 --> 00:59:46,000
Speaker 1: look at the trees, and then when it comes time

1075
00:59:46,160 --> 00:59:50,720
Speaker 1: to destroy everything and die, then just in your heart,

1076
00:59:50,880 --> 00:59:52,360
Speaker 1: be like, all right, this was destiny.

1077
00:59:54,160 --> 00:59:58,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, take take it, Take it in while it's still there,

1078
00:59:58,480 --> 01:00:00,440
Speaker 4: before it all gets turned into something visions.

1079
01:00:03,080 --> 01:00:04,160
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1080
01:00:04,160 --> 01:00:05,160
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we.

1081
01:00:05,200 --> 01:00:09,360
Speaker 4: Go, No, I appreciate the stream and keep doing what

1082
01:00:09,440 --> 01:00:09,800
Speaker 4: you're doing.

1083
01:00:10,400 --> 01:00:19,520
Speaker 1: Hey, I appreciate you man. Take care later. Ah, I

1084
01:00:19,600 --> 01:00:23,160
Speaker 1: don't know anything about the universe, but I'm trying.

1085
01:00:23,800 --> 01:00:27,280
Speaker 3: Never Beacon goes on the line, taking your phone calls

1086
01:00:27,360 --> 01:00:27,920
Speaker 3: every night.

1087
01:00:28,280 --> 01:00:29,600
Speaker 2: Never Beacon goes.

1088
01:00:29,480 --> 01:00:30,160
Speaker 4: Doing his eye.

1089
01:00:30,280 --> 01:00:34,040
Speaker 2: He's teaching you Cloud on your line. Monday's not friendly,

1090
01:00:34,240 --> 01:00:34,960
Speaker 2: an expert