WEBVTT - “I NEED TO BE PERFECT”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hi, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god? Holy shit? Is this Lyle?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Who is this?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Okay, so oh uh so my boyfriend just used

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<v Speaker 2>a fake name. But we were calling just because we're

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<v Speaker 2>seeing what you were doing right now. Wait, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>put the speaker. Is that okay?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh? Actually?

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<v Speaker 3>No? Can you?

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<v Speaker 1>I like, I like it's hard to be on the

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<v Speaker 1>speakerphone because then it's hard to for me to hear.

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<v Speaker 1>But I want to talk to both of you. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>don't worry, I'll I'll have my time. What's your boyfriend's name?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>She used the fake name? Okay, okay, okay, don't work.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, don't worry. I'll I'll have my time with Jarquavius.

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<v Speaker 1>But for now I'm talking.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, Oh, how are you doing, dude?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>I've never talked to you on the phone.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm do you. I'm actually doing great. I I don't

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<v Speaker 1>say things like this to people unless if I meet them.

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<v Speaker 1>But you have great energy, and I'm excited to talk

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<v Speaker 1>to you. I could tell immediately if I'm excited to

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<v Speaker 1>talk to someone if they have good energy. I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I actually I feel like I got good dar

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<v Speaker 1>for that, and I'm oh, no, I'm getting good from you.

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<v Speaker 1>You seem like a nice person. I'm excited to talk

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<v Speaker 1>to you. I wouldn't say that.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll give you a fake name for me. I think

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<v Speaker 2>I will be I'll do Zelda.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your favorite one?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh? Twiy princess all the way.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a good answer. That's a good answer.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, I don't know I'm talking. I'm talking, okay, but

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<v Speaker 2>he just said it. I said a twenty princess and.

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<v Speaker 3>He said lame was the coolest in a racial couple.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't care. I don't care. I'm Zelda.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, what's your favorite?

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<v Speaker 1>Zelda? Zelda? Tell you Arquavius to shut the funk up

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<v Speaker 1>for just one second. I will talk to him. I

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<v Speaker 1>want to talk to you first.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, Okay, did he get upset?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah he did. Okay, I'm gonna go in the room. Okay. Wait,

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<v Speaker 2>we're gonna talk separately. We're gonna do. I'm gonna do

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<v Speaker 2>because he's yeah, okay, yeah, okay, okay, okay, now, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>so we're gonna do separate. We're gonna do.

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<v Speaker 1>I want, hold on, I want, I want, I want

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<v Speaker 1>to talk to Arquavis. He's just I just need to

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<v Speaker 1>talk to you first.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I know, No, he's a yapper. I want to

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<v Speaker 2>talk to you for real quick. It's a real second

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<v Speaker 2>because I know he's the star of the show and I'm.

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<v Speaker 1>Not what hold on, wait, hold on, hold on. He's

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<v Speaker 1>the star of the show and you're not. What the

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<v Speaker 1>fun is that supposed to mean?

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<v Speaker 2>It means like he can like go on for hours

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<v Speaker 2>and hours and hours, and he's like such, that doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>mean that, and I love him, and like he's so.

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<v Speaker 1>Is this man holding you hostage in a basement? What

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<v Speaker 1>is going on?

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<v Speaker 2>No, he's he's he's in the other room. I'm in

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<v Speaker 2>my room. Uh so I'm slimming doors from my room.

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<v Speaker 2>I have the master bedroom. But he's in the other

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<v Speaker 2>room and he's talking to our friend. But he's he's

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<v Speaker 2>like just like the better part of me. But I'm

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<v Speaker 2>asking you a question right now. I want to know

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<v Speaker 2>what your favorite Zelda is.

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<v Speaker 1>Hold On, there's so much going on beneath this. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>first of all, I what, dude, what's going He's the

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<v Speaker 1>star of the show. By the way, Just by the way, Zelda.

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<v Speaker 1>Just so that somebody who goes on and on and

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<v Speaker 1>on and on and doesn't stop talking. Is not a

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<v Speaker 1>good conversationalist.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, No, no.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about Jark. Question

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<v Speaker 1>because you said, because you said, because you said a

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<v Speaker 1>bunch of things. You were like, Jarquavius is the star

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<v Speaker 1>of the show. Jarquavis is better at this than I am,

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<v Speaker 1>and you're just I don't why are you discounting yourself, Zelda.

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<v Speaker 1>I told you at the beginning of this, I'm excited

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<v Speaker 1>to talk to you. I haven't I'll have my time

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<v Speaker 1>with Yarquavius. I'm excited to talk to you. I meant

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<v Speaker 1>it so. I don't want you to be down on yourself.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want you to feel like Jarquavius. He'll have

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<v Speaker 1>his moment, but this is yours, you know, like he's not.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, Okay, we'll have a moment right now. Okay, Yeah

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<v Speaker 2>that's cool. Yeah I understand it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Okay, you're doing all right?

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<v Speaker 2>No, yeah, he's chill. I'm just like, I just got

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<v Speaker 2>super excited. I never talked to you on the phone.

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<v Speaker 2>We've met in real life, but I just never talked

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<v Speaker 2>to you on the phone, and I've always tried to

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<v Speaker 2>and so now I'm like freaking out. And you did

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<v Speaker 2>try to call me once and I missed the call,

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<v Speaker 2>and I feel bad because I message you a bunch

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<v Speaker 2>of time and I was like, you're gay if you

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<v Speaker 2>don't call me back. Okay, I was.

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<v Speaker 1>I was wondering why I've been gay lately.

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<v Speaker 2>You're not gay. But I'll tell you the prompt that

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<v Speaker 2>what I think that why you called me back is

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<v Speaker 2>because I I don't know if you remember it, but

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<v Speaker 2>it was like so long ago, I snuck a full

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<v Speaker 2>bottle of whiskey into a convention, like for Comic Con,

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<v Speaker 2>and I was so drunk and I didn't answer your

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<v Speaker 2>phone call, but I knew it was you because it

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<v Speaker 2>was from Philadelphia when you were still living there. And

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, oh my god, that's a fucking therapy.

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<v Speaker 1>I go wait, hold on, uh uh okay a whole.

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<v Speaker 1>I have a lot of things to say about what

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<v Speaker 1>you just said. First of all, I think I have

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<v Speaker 1>a call for you called me. But then also you

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<v Speaker 1>said the that I tried to call you once from

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<v Speaker 1>a There's no way I would have called you from

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<v Speaker 1>a Philadelphia phone number. I haven't lived in phil you,

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't lived in Philadelphia in like six years. But

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<v Speaker 1>also this phone number, it's not a Philadelphia any if

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<v Speaker 1>you got a missed call from a Philadelphia phone number

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<v Speaker 1>that was not me and I don't remember this.

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<v Speaker 3>Wait, what are you crazy?

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<v Speaker 2>Because it could have it could have had it had

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<v Speaker 2>been you, that was me. No, because I okay, maybe

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<v Speaker 2>then it wasn't because I was at Comic Con and

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<v Speaker 2>I got a miss call and I messaged you.

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<v Speaker 1>Can I say it was different? Can I say something

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<v Speaker 1>real quick? Yes, We've been on the phone for about

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<v Speaker 1>seven minutes now, Zelda Zela. We went on the phone

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<v Speaker 1>for about seven minutes now. We've we've been in the past.

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<v Speaker 1>We've been talking about Jarquavius, We've been talked about a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of things. I still feel like I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>I still haven't started having this conversation with you right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Really I want to and I want to have this

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<v Speaker 1>Do not do anything wrong, okay, but I want to start.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to have this conversation with you because I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I'm I feel like I still don't know

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<v Speaker 1>anything about you. First of all, don't you wish that

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<v Speaker 1>they would port Twilight Princess to the Switch already?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you not like Twilet Princess.

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<v Speaker 1>Do I not like it?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Why wouldn't I? I love Twilet Princess. I love all

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<v Speaker 1>the Zelda games. How did you meet jark Wavius?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>We met at my friend's party in a backyard, but

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<v Speaker 2>he just kind of like passed against and he was like,

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<v Speaker 2>oh you. He's like, oh hey, what's up? And then

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<v Speaker 2>you've asked me for my Instagram and then it was fun.

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<v Speaker 2>I even my Instagram.

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<v Speaker 1>But you know, let's ye, how long have you been

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<v Speaker 1>Darkoevia's been living together?

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<v Speaker 2>We don't live together, but we've literally just had our

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<v Speaker 2>six month anniversary and we've been chilling cool, Like I'm

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<v Speaker 2>in love with him, so we're chilling.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you love so much about Arquavius.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, he's like literally everything could ever dream of. He's

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<v Speaker 2>got the personality, he's got like all your looks, and

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<v Speaker 2>he's we like. I think my favorite thing about him

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<v Speaker 2>is like we literally have like so much in common

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<v Speaker 2>and like the same amount of humor and everything, and

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<v Speaker 2>it's just like I can like just make a reference

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<v Speaker 2>and he already knows it's fun.

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<v Speaker 1>That is fun. What is your life like, Zelda?

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<v Speaker 2>My life has been kind of weird. I think I'm

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<v Speaker 2>just like kind of learning how to be in a

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<v Speaker 2>relationship again and all that. But I think it's fine.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think it's honestly like he's been helping that

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<v Speaker 2>a lot too. And I think I've been in a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of bad living spaces and I think I'm finally

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<v Speaker 2>comfortable with a lot of shit. And oh, he's signaling

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<v Speaker 2>that he wants to talk to you, but uh, hold on,

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<v Speaker 2>give me one second. Look like he said he wants

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<v Speaker 2>to listen.

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<v Speaker 3>I want to listen to him.

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<v Speaker 2>He said he wants to be real.

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<v Speaker 1>Can I talk? Can I talk to us for like

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<v Speaker 1>one second?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, Yeah, he wants to talk to you. Remember you're Darquavius,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Elvis. Remember that.

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<v Speaker 1>How listen Darkaves. I swear on my life unless if

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<v Speaker 1>there are technical issues going on with the show, I

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<v Speaker 1>will talk to you. I gotta get I gotta get

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta I gotta get it. But but, but, but, Jarquavis,

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<v Speaker 1>you gotta let Zelda have for a moment real quick.

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta get in. I gotta get.

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<v Speaker 3>To come back Zelda. Come back. Don't come back, come back.

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<v Speaker 3>It's easy right now, Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>I will talk to you Darquavius. I swear, Okay, there

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<v Speaker 1>you go, baby Zelda. Oh, because you're relearning how to

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<v Speaker 1>get into a relationship. Yes, what is how long were

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<v Speaker 1>you single before you met Darquaviis?

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<v Speaker 2>I think like two years honestly, okay?

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<v Speaker 1>And were you in a long term relationship before then?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 2>I think my last relationship was like really really toxic.

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<v Speaker 2>And close the door stop? I know, close, can you

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<v Speaker 2>close the door? He's like getting concerned because it's sketchy,

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<v Speaker 2>concerned about what. I don't know it now. My I

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<v Speaker 2>just feel like my last relationship was like really like

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<v Speaker 2>it was like fucked up because I think we actually

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<v Speaker 2>did hate each other.

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<v Speaker 1>Why did but with him? I so, why why do

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<v Speaker 1>you think you hated each other?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Because we like argued all the time and it was

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<v Speaker 2>always like a I think to him it was like

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<v Speaker 2>a competition. And I think that he hated that I

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<v Speaker 2>had more friends than him and that I always had

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<v Speaker 2>something to do and then like I was just like

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<v Speaker 2>more popular than him.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, So why did you guys?

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<v Speaker 3>So?

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<v Speaker 1>But I assume it didn't start out that way? Like

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<v Speaker 1>how did it evolve into that? Like it must have

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<v Speaker 1>started out well enough for you to enter the relationship.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh well, we're talking about my ex, right, Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>uh it kind of did. I just uh well, I

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<v Speaker 2>mean it's like a long story, but I had moved

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<v Speaker 2>back into a city where I grew up in and

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<v Speaker 2>I I loved it, but uh, my X before that

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<v Speaker 2>had gotten like really popular, and like I just felt

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<v Speaker 2>like super kind of like oh yeah, like nothing really

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<v Speaker 2>stood out to me because my ex before the X

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<v Speaker 2>that I'm talking about right now, it just never really

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<v Speaker 2>like felt like, oh, You're gonna be better than anything

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<v Speaker 2>else that ever had. And it's like I'm not saying that.

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<v Speaker 3>Shit.

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<v Speaker 2>Shit, hold on, let me try to word this.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Before that, the X before that, you were like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh I could do better. By the way, that's complete.

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<v Speaker 1>If that's how you felt, that's completely valid, and that's

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<v Speaker 1>I could do. It's a valid it's a totally valid

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<v Speaker 1>feeling if that's how you felt.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, So here's how my ex currently, I fucking hate

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<v Speaker 2>his ass, and the X before that, it was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>in the time being, it was like, oh, this is

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<v Speaker 2>the greatest person ever. He showed me this, he showed

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<v Speaker 2>me this, he did this for me, and this for me.

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<v Speaker 2>But it was like back then and I don't care.

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<v Speaker 2>And then like my recent ex who I fucking hate,

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<v Speaker 2>who made me feel like a piece of shit and

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<v Speaker 2>like did all these things. I'm like, ah, so now

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<v Speaker 2>I'm back to little zero. But Jarquavius is like literally

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<v Speaker 2>the one person who was like, oh, this person didn't

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<v Speaker 2>even like do half the ship that any of my

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<v Speaker 2>exers ever did. There's just a person who makes me

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<v Speaker 2>feel like one hundred, like so loved so everything. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't even like like my past who I thought like

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<v Speaker 2>I was in love with, like took me traveling everything.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like he didn't take me traveling. He's just like

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<v Speaker 2>is in person and I love him, And so I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>holy shit, I'm chilling. But that's why I'm chilling.

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<v Speaker 1>Zelda, Zelda, let me talk to Tarquavius.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, yeah, I don't know what he said to you

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<v Speaker 2>in that time, but he is also really drunk, and

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<v Speaker 2>I uh, I'm scared.

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<v Speaker 1>Do okay that wh you just said? Such a red flag?

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<v Speaker 1>What is up? Dude?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, I know, Zelda, are you okay?

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<v Speaker 3>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Who is this? Like Jark waves? He won't let us

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<v Speaker 1>be on the phone together. He's drunk and you're scared.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what's going on with Ark Wavius.

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<v Speaker 2>He's like, no, Dark Vis is fine. He's just like

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<v Speaker 2>super like. He's like excited. He is excited. He's like

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<v Speaker 2>and I know he's gonna ramble, but you guys, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me talk to Let me talk to Jarkuavius.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll just talk to him, okay, yeah, yeah, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>make sure he's in the room alone.

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<v Speaker 1>You can be there, You can be you can be

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<v Speaker 1>there when I talked to Jarquavius.

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<v Speaker 2>That's okay, Okay, you gotta keep it, keep the cigarette side.

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<v Speaker 3>No, you gotta dude, who is this guy Jarquavius?

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<v Speaker 2>So I can put you in a figret? Is it okay?

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<v Speaker 1>You could just give it?

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<v Speaker 3>Do you?

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<v Speaker 1>You can just give a photo?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, okay, remember that I'm Dark Cravius. But my dad

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<v Speaker 3>told me that he named us white names so we

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<v Speaker 3>can get jobs somedays. So I use Shark Cravius as

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<v Speaker 3>the counterpart to that. But how do you how are

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<v Speaker 3>you doing, my.

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<v Speaker 1>Friend, Jarquavis? What's what are you doing right now?

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<v Speaker 3>I am I just got off from working a shift

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<v Speaker 3>as a cook by myself because everybody called out and

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<v Speaker 3>it sucked and I got destroyed at my job. So

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<v Speaker 3>I'm with my the love of my life that showed

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<v Speaker 3>me have a smile again, and play Final Fantasy and

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<v Speaker 3>Pokemon and just be myself and not get bullied anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, would she show you how to smile again? Tell

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<v Speaker 1>me about that?

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<v Speaker 3>I am. I'm considered. Uh whether they some people say

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a lotto or a white boy, or red bone

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<v Speaker 3>or a yellow bone. I'm too black for the white,

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<v Speaker 3>too white for the black. So is that the term?

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<v Speaker 3>Is that what they say? Uh? But just be yourself, dude,

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<v Speaker 3>It's okay to be yourself, but no, not to judge you.

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<v Speaker 3>And this is the first person in my life that

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<v Speaker 3>has ever showed me it's okay to be me. And

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<v Speaker 3>so I smile more. I shaved more, and I iron

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<v Speaker 3>my clothes more, and and I do more. And I

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<v Speaker 3>don't just sit in my room and play PlayStation all

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<v Speaker 3>the time anymore. I'm happy. Life is great. I used

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<v Speaker 3>to hate life. The life is beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>Why were you getting bullied?

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<v Speaker 3>So keeping it short? I was the military brad. We

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<v Speaker 3>moved everywhere every month every other year. I was a

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<v Speaker 3>kid that always ate lunch by themselves. So I had

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<v Speaker 3>to learn how to adapt. I don't want to eat

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<v Speaker 3>lunch by myself, so I have to figure out I

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<v Speaker 3>look at people for like one minute. There's got to

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<v Speaker 3>be one thing I could look at it somebody to

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<v Speaker 3>say that we have one thing in common, so I

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<v Speaker 3>don't have to eat lunch by myself. So I get

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<v Speaker 3>bullied by my black homies, like you a white boy,

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<v Speaker 3>you were skinny pants and listen to the Circus Survive

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<v Speaker 3>and Anthony Green and fucking you know the Smiths, and

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<v Speaker 3>you know you like wear iron made shirts and skinny

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<v Speaker 3>pants and skater shoes. But then my white family or

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<v Speaker 3>my Turkish family, because I'm on to you, so Turkish

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<v Speaker 3>you're like, but you adapt to their white culture and

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<v Speaker 3>this and that and da da da dah, or you're

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<v Speaker 3>not us enough. So I get bullied by my family

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<v Speaker 3>for not being enough. For both sides my parents divorced.

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<v Speaker 3>They say, well, what's your daddy gets you? He ain't

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<v Speaker 3>get you that, and the other side say this is, well,

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<v Speaker 3>what's your mama gets you? Oh they ain't. They don't

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<v Speaker 3>care about your little white boy, you little red skin,

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<v Speaker 3>or hit your skin so much. Let's see if you

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<v Speaker 3>turn dark enough and you hit your skin so much

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<v Speaker 3>for the ruler. Shit like that just just bully mentality

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<v Speaker 3>to make you. I guess it was to make me stronger.

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<v Speaker 3>But it made me more emotional and made me want

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<v Speaker 3>to lash on and love people more.

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<v Speaker 1>How you been working as the cook?

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<v Speaker 3>How am I working at the cook? Now?

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<v Speaker 1>How long have you been working as the cook?

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<v Speaker 3>I've been working there for eleven years. Wow, I'm like

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<v Speaker 3>the epitome of what Anthi de Boordain preaches. It's like,

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<v Speaker 3>you try, you cry, you live, and you give. That's

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<v Speaker 3>all you got. You're gonna be okay. You cry, and

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<v Speaker 3>you may be an attic to beer or crying and

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<v Speaker 3>needing a hug, but it's going to get better someday.

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<v Speaker 1>Damn. How you doing, Jarquavius?

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<v Speaker 3>I cry a lot, but until I met this vessel

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<v Speaker 3>of a No, no, you're not deil that you're a vessel.

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<v Speaker 3>You're a vessel of greatness. You're my Pigmealion. I love

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<v Speaker 3>Greek mythology, so you are the greatest statue are person

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<v Speaker 3>that I have created in my brain that exists to me.

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<v Speaker 3>I I missed my mom. Yeah, there's a story of

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<v Speaker 3>Greek mythology. This dude like didn't have any like girls

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<v Speaker 3>or anything. So he made a statue the best sculptor

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<v Speaker 3>and he made the greatest statue his like a Renaissance

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<v Speaker 3>woman and his vision, and he prayed to the gods

0:20:16.320 --> 0:20:19.000
<v Speaker 3>and Afrodot. He's like, you know what, I'm gonna make

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<v Speaker 3>that statue as you made in the image if your

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<v Speaker 3>eye is the greatestman ever real. And as he was

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<v Speaker 3>finishing that that statue, she came alive and said I

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<v Speaker 3>love you. And he said, nobody ever said you love me,

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<v Speaker 3>and wept to her feet. And I just want to

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<v Speaker 3>be loved, that's all. And I met somebody that finally

0:20:39.760 --> 0:20:49.199
<v Speaker 3>loved me and not fake. And and I'm not going

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<v Speaker 3>to get emotional right now, but I'm happy. I'm emotional,

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm not proud, but I'm trying my best, and uh,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm trying. I just that name is so defiant. It's

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<v Speaker 3>probably was a king in like Liberia or somewhere in

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<v Speaker 3>days before our existence. But I thank you for giving

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<v Speaker 3>me the grace of even speaking to me. And I

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<v Speaker 3>pray and I wish that I don't bother you, but

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<v Speaker 3>it's an honor to speak to you right now. Why

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<v Speaker 3>would you?

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<v Speaker 1>Why would you bother me, Jark. Why would you bother me, Jarvis?

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<v Speaker 3>Because you have such an impact on the world, which

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<v Speaker 3>you know where you don't know, But it matters because

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<v Speaker 3>time is of the essence, and your time matters. I'm

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<v Speaker 3>a literal aunt on this planet. I'm another cog in

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<v Speaker 3>the wheel. And are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you applying? Are you? You're not implying that yours does.

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<v Speaker 3>Not You said what you're not implying? Are you?

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<v Speaker 1>You're you're when you say, are you not applying to

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<v Speaker 1>your time doesn't matter?

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<v Speaker 3>Are you? I feel like I don't matter to many. Uh.

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<v Speaker 3>I think that I exist and I'm there for people

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<v Speaker 3>to either step walk over me or Honestly, I just

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<v Speaker 3>feel like I'm the guy at my job that just

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<v Speaker 3>makes everybody happy. I'm the I'm the goober that's like, yeah, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 3>you're you're right. I'm not not right, but continue what

0:22:42.040 --> 0:22:43.880
<v Speaker 3>you're saying. I'm just the guy that everybody says, Oh,

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<v Speaker 3>you make us happy because you're the guy that dancesn't it.

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<v Speaker 3>But that's all I know is how to make people happy.

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<v Speaker 3>It's all. Ain't happy. I ain't happy.

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<v Speaker 1>That's good.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, but I'm scared.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Here's the thing about like nihilism is like a

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<v Speaker 1>it's truly a scale issue because I mean, think about

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<v Speaker 1>the most impactful people on the planet. Like when you

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<v Speaker 1>you there's there's an amount of time forward that you

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<v Speaker 1>can go an amount of time back, an amount of

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<v Speaker 1>you know, like time and space that you can go

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<v Speaker 1>backwards to where like they don't matter at fucking all.

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<v Speaker 1>And similarly, there's an amount of time there's like you

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<v Speaker 1>you have to if you want to stop being a nihilist,

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<v Speaker 1>you have to adjust the scale of time and space

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<v Speaker 1>to fit where you matter.

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<v Speaker 3>Is a nihilist the same as being a doomer for

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<v Speaker 3>my understanding, for a lack of my better words, because

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<v Speaker 3>when I talk to my sister, she says, you're a

0:23:49.040 --> 0:23:52.720
<v Speaker 3>peanut gallery. She said, you're just a You're a goober. Mentally,

0:23:52.880 --> 0:23:57.800
<v Speaker 3>you're a Homer Simpson. You're a SpongeBob. You care, you try,

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<v Speaker 3>but you don't matter. You're just another person that makes

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<v Speaker 3>us happy to insist.

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<v Speaker 1>But you don't wait matter, well, yeah, but matter in

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<v Speaker 1>matter in what context? Like do you do you matter

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<v Speaker 1>in the grand scheme of the universe? It dwells, I

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<v Speaker 1>mean yeah, I mean yes, yes, you actually yes, actually,

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<v Speaker 1>hold hold on, fuck you jerk the waverers. I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>argue that you matter in the grand scale of the universe. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>because right, because the grand scale of the universe is

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<v Speaker 1>inclusive of of of every of you're included in the

0:24:39.600 --> 0:24:44.679
<v Speaker 1>grand scale of the universe. You're a little brick in

0:24:44.760 --> 0:24:48.680
<v Speaker 1>the grand scale of the universe, but you but every

0:24:48.760 --> 0:24:51.360
<v Speaker 1>brick in the grand scale of the universe matters. It's

0:24:51.359 --> 0:24:54.840
<v Speaker 1>like saying, you know, it's like saying, how many bricks

0:24:54.880 --> 0:24:57.119
<v Speaker 1>can we take out of this building until it collapses?

0:24:57.240 --> 0:24:59.800
<v Speaker 1>Or like does the does this brick matter? And also,

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<v Speaker 1>by the way, like the grand scale the universe is stupid,

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<v Speaker 1>Like when you get too nihilistic, it's because you're you

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to live in the grand scale of the universe.

0:25:08.840 --> 0:25:14.439
<v Speaker 1>It's go visits. Go and visit the grand scale of

0:25:14.480 --> 0:25:16.919
<v Speaker 1>the universe. You're not gonna like what you see, but

0:25:17.000 --> 0:25:20.080
<v Speaker 1>it's okay to return to the scale the scale of

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<v Speaker 1>the universe of your relationship or your work or the

0:25:24.359 --> 0:25:29.200
<v Speaker 1>person you're talking to in whatever moment, and then that matter.

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<v Speaker 3>Does this matter? Does everything matter? At the end of

0:25:32.800 --> 0:25:35.800
<v Speaker 3>the day, like we we live and we give and

0:25:35.800 --> 0:25:39.080
<v Speaker 3>we cry and we try, but does at the end

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<v Speaker 3>of this all when I have to, I'm so I

0:25:43.760 --> 0:25:45.720
<v Speaker 3>try to disconnect with the world. I'll keep it quick.

0:25:46.680 --> 0:25:49.000
<v Speaker 3>I watched this ship with Trump and doing all this

0:25:49.040 --> 0:25:51.960
<v Speaker 3>and everything that doesn't matter. That means nothing to me,

0:25:52.040 --> 0:25:54.040
<v Speaker 3>but it does mean sending to me because it's like, wait,

0:25:54.560 --> 0:25:58.439
<v Speaker 3>evil prevails, but good doesn't. I have to pay backage

0:25:58.840 --> 0:26:02.960
<v Speaker 3>do this, and you know, like like, at what point

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<v Speaker 3>do we win the small like the working class, the

0:26:06.880 --> 0:26:09.600
<v Speaker 3>people that tried, the people that that that that like

0:26:09.600 --> 0:26:11.760
<v Speaker 3>when my mom tried to kill herself and I'm like

0:26:11.840 --> 0:26:13.800
<v Speaker 3>calling her every day and she can't be at the hospital,

0:26:13.800 --> 0:26:15.639
<v Speaker 3>second call every fucking day. I got a call her

0:26:15.680 --> 0:26:17.360
<v Speaker 3>once a week because she's down with the mental war.

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<v Speaker 3>What is what? What is this purpose? When my eyes closed?

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<v Speaker 3>Is it going to be like a long dream or

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<v Speaker 3>is it gonna be like just something somebody that says, oh, wait,

0:26:26.480 --> 0:26:29.199
<v Speaker 3>hey there are the play goods. Hey I'm John the

0:26:29.240 --> 0:26:32.280
<v Speaker 3>Bat or whoever with the book, Oh your story is crazy.

0:26:32.280 --> 0:26:33.160
<v Speaker 3>You want to get into heaven?

0:26:33.840 --> 0:26:34.119
<v Speaker 1>Is this?

0:26:34.480 --> 0:26:37.679
<v Speaker 3>Like? What is this purpose? What is my purpose? So

0:26:37.760 --> 0:26:41.280
<v Speaker 3>I be good and and people do me dirty, and

0:26:41.320 --> 0:26:44.080
<v Speaker 3>I still got to keep being good? And and and

0:26:44.119 --> 0:26:46.920
<v Speaker 3>I don't get it be good and still get shipped on.

0:26:52.040 --> 0:26:56.160
<v Speaker 1>I just you're lit. You're when you start talking about

0:26:56.280 --> 0:26:59.280
<v Speaker 1>you know, Trump and Jeffrey Epstein and the life after

0:26:59.320 --> 0:27:04.680
<v Speaker 1>death and all this, you're you're living beyond the scale

0:27:05.200 --> 0:27:06.600
<v Speaker 1>in which you can't.

0:27:06.800 --> 0:27:10.560
<v Speaker 3>Like, like, when you look at what can I control?

0:27:11.119 --> 0:27:15.240
<v Speaker 3>What do you control in your life? You control your life? Right,

0:27:15.440 --> 0:27:21.040
<v Speaker 3>so how can I control my life? You can?

0:27:21.200 --> 0:27:22.720
<v Speaker 1>You're in a given a relationship.

0:27:24.400 --> 0:27:27.320
<v Speaker 3>It's a hop on trains. It's the hop on trains

0:27:27.359 --> 0:27:29.920
<v Speaker 3>and go to hardcore shows to be a punk rock dude.

0:27:29.920 --> 0:27:32.520
<v Speaker 3>And nobody cared about me. My parents didn't care. I

0:27:32.640 --> 0:27:34.439
<v Speaker 3>met kids that said, hey, let's hop on trains and

0:27:34.480 --> 0:27:37.240
<v Speaker 3>go to Portland, let's go to fun from from the

0:27:37.280 --> 0:27:40.920
<v Speaker 3>fest in Gainesville, Florida to Richmond, Virginia and go see

0:27:40.920 --> 0:27:45.359
<v Speaker 3>these fucking shitty hans hardcore. Like I don't mean a ramble,

0:27:45.400 --> 0:27:48.159
<v Speaker 3>but I'm like, I gotta keep it real. Like that

0:27:48.320 --> 0:27:51.440
<v Speaker 3>made me feel like I mattered. Okay, great, that really

0:27:51.520 --> 0:27:51.760
<v Speaker 3>did it?

0:27:52.840 --> 0:27:54.960
<v Speaker 1>Well? Hold on? What do you mean? And then it didn't.

0:27:56.200 --> 0:28:01.080
<v Speaker 3>It didn't because now I'm not I hate the fact

0:28:01.080 --> 0:28:02.880
<v Speaker 3>that I have to compare myself to when I look

0:28:02.880 --> 0:28:04.720
<v Speaker 3>at people on the Instagram and they're like, Oh, we're

0:28:04.720 --> 0:28:07.800
<v Speaker 3>going Tahiti and we're in fucking Dubai and that's it's

0:28:07.920 --> 0:28:10.399
<v Speaker 3>lame as fund But what are you talking?

0:28:10.440 --> 0:28:12.400
<v Speaker 1>What do you what do you? What do you talk?

0:28:12.520 --> 0:28:14.120
<v Speaker 3>I want to be great. I want to make sure

0:28:14.160 --> 0:28:16.879
<v Speaker 3>that I'm that I could take care of my dad

0:28:17.000 --> 0:28:20.080
<v Speaker 3>and my like, I just want to be perfect. Actually

0:28:20.119 --> 0:28:21.840
<v Speaker 3>in a grand scheme of things. I want to be

0:28:21.880 --> 0:28:25.679
<v Speaker 3>perfect for everybody and myself. But I'm not and it

0:28:25.800 --> 0:28:27.200
<v Speaker 3>hurts and it sucks.

0:28:29.520 --> 0:28:32.760
<v Speaker 1>You want to be perfect, Yeah, I.

0:28:32.720 --> 0:28:35.760
<v Speaker 3>Want to be perfect. Well, I want you to for

0:28:35.800 --> 0:28:36.720
<v Speaker 3>everything I'm saying.

0:28:37.440 --> 0:28:39.400
<v Speaker 1>You want me to what you for everything you're saying.

0:28:39.440 --> 0:28:41.840
<v Speaker 3>Accept me for everything that I'm saying my truth, and

0:28:41.960 --> 0:28:46.680
<v Speaker 3>understand me and feel me and say you know what.

0:28:47.400 --> 0:28:50.400
<v Speaker 3>I don't care what you got to say, but you matter, dude, Like.

0:28:52.120 --> 0:29:02.640
<v Speaker 1>Dude, hold on first, you you can't be perfect. That's impossible. Like,

0:29:02.760 --> 0:29:05.800
<v Speaker 1>give that up immediately. You can't be perfect. That's insane,

0:29:06.600 --> 0:29:10.680
<v Speaker 1>No one you can't. By that's good news. Because, by

0:29:10.720 --> 0:29:12.360
<v Speaker 1>the way, let me tell you something, this is really

0:29:12.400 --> 0:29:12.840
<v Speaker 1>good news.

0:29:12.880 --> 0:29:13.320
<v Speaker 3>You don't.

0:29:15.360 --> 0:29:17.840
<v Speaker 1>Hold on, dude, this is dark waves. It's really good news.

0:29:18.080 --> 0:29:21.640
<v Speaker 1>You don't have to be okay. You want to be

0:29:21.720 --> 0:29:24.600
<v Speaker 1>perfect and then you feel like you're not perfect and

0:29:24.640 --> 0:29:27.320
<v Speaker 1>that's causing you pain. I will relieve you of your

0:29:27.400 --> 0:29:32.240
<v Speaker 1>pain right now. You cannot be perfect. No one can

0:29:32.280 --> 0:29:35.720
<v Speaker 1>be perfect. So it's impossible to fail at being perfect.

0:29:35.760 --> 0:29:40.400
<v Speaker 1>It's like failing at like flying or something like. You

0:29:40.920 --> 0:29:45.480
<v Speaker 1>can't physically do it. So so relieve yourself of this

0:29:45.680 --> 0:29:49.000
<v Speaker 1>pain of trying to be something that's impossible to be.

0:29:49.080 --> 0:29:51.640
<v Speaker 1>It's like if you said you wanted to transform into

0:29:51.680 --> 0:29:54.280
<v Speaker 1>Sonic the Hedgehog, I'd be like, and you were. You

0:29:54.360 --> 0:30:01.000
<v Speaker 1>were like fucking driving yourself crazy because you couldn't do

0:30:01.080 --> 0:30:07.600
<v Speaker 1>a ring dash, you know, because you couldn't do it.

0:30:08.360 --> 0:30:12.480
<v Speaker 3>You're the first person to ever tell me that. I

0:30:12.520 --> 0:30:14.840
<v Speaker 3>thought that was my duty is a human When I

0:30:14.840 --> 0:30:16.720
<v Speaker 3>see angel, when I spit on it and the ants

0:30:16.720 --> 0:30:19.360
<v Speaker 3>go around the spit, they still got to perform their

0:30:19.440 --> 0:30:21.560
<v Speaker 3>life their duty. I was like, so my duty is

0:30:21.600 --> 0:30:23.960
<v Speaker 3>to be a perfect human, but when I spit on

0:30:24.000 --> 0:30:26.200
<v Speaker 3>the ant, their duty is to be a perfect in it.

0:30:26.280 --> 0:30:29.480
<v Speaker 3>But they go around that spit glob. But my magnifying glass,

0:30:30.120 --> 0:30:37.320
<v Speaker 3>I I that this whatever, this life and this existence

0:30:37.520 --> 0:30:41.280
<v Speaker 3>is it petrifies me. But for the one time in

0:30:41.320 --> 0:30:43.240
<v Speaker 3>my life, I found somebody that loves me so much

0:30:43.280 --> 0:30:45.080
<v Speaker 3>and that makes me be able to sleep at night

0:30:45.120 --> 0:30:50.160
<v Speaker 3>and just just does everything is cool, It's it's easy.

0:30:50.200 --> 0:30:54.120
<v Speaker 3>It's like water, like Brusley says, you know, I'm sorry

0:30:54.160 --> 0:30:56.800
<v Speaker 3>to ramble, will cut you off. But what you just

0:30:56.880 --> 0:31:00.160
<v Speaker 3>told me is I'm literally weeping right now, and I'm

0:31:00.320 --> 0:31:03.000
<v Speaker 3>I don't I'm not embarrassed or shamed, but it's okay,

0:31:03.160 --> 0:31:08.560
<v Speaker 3>Like it's okay, I'm glad, my heart's beating. Yeah, are

0:31:08.640 --> 0:31:10.400
<v Speaker 3>you okay? Or how do you feel?

0:31:11.480 --> 0:31:14.840
<v Speaker 1>Life petrifies me too? But with life, yeah, life petrifies

0:31:14.880 --> 0:31:17.560
<v Speaker 1>me too, But that's because I'm doing every time. Life

0:31:17.960 --> 0:31:24.240
<v Speaker 1>petrifies me. It's because I'm I'm living in a scale

0:31:24.280 --> 0:31:26.000
<v Speaker 1>that I shouldn't be in.

0:31:27.280 --> 0:31:30.600
<v Speaker 3>What does that mean for I have a Homer Simpson brain.

0:31:31.240 --> 0:31:35.440
<v Speaker 3>You have a fucking Stephen Hawking like someone some Homer. No,

0:31:35.600 --> 0:31:37.760
<v Speaker 3>you're like Palmer, You're like you know, you know who

0:31:37.800 --> 0:31:41.160
<v Speaker 3>I look up to dial Hennes and he was, you know,

0:31:41.320 --> 0:31:44.800
<v Speaker 3>like he's like to hold a light to a man's

0:31:44.840 --> 0:31:49.760
<v Speaker 3>face is to see the truth. Like what what if

0:31:49.760 --> 0:31:51.520
<v Speaker 3>you had to say this? If I could ask you

0:31:51.560 --> 0:31:54.640
<v Speaker 3>one question to keep it quick. What is the definition

0:31:54.800 --> 0:31:56.800
<v Speaker 3>of your life and your purpose? My friend?

0:31:57.880 --> 0:31:59.920
<v Speaker 1>Uh, what's the definition of my life and my purpose?

0:32:00.200 --> 0:32:02.040
<v Speaker 1>I mean, it evolves. It's something I think about all

0:32:02.080 --> 0:32:08.000
<v Speaker 1>the time and again it evolves. But I I mean,

0:32:08.160 --> 0:32:10.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm always figuring that out. I mean, I can give

0:32:10.040 --> 0:32:11.960
<v Speaker 1>an answer this question. But like when I say, like,

0:32:12.840 --> 0:32:14.840
<v Speaker 1>the scale of my life is like once I start

0:32:14.840 --> 0:32:21.880
<v Speaker 1>thinking about like you know, once I start thinking about like,

0:32:23.480 --> 0:32:27.120
<v Speaker 1>oh no, the inherent reality of life is suffering and

0:32:27.160 --> 0:32:29.000
<v Speaker 1>all this, and then the other thing, I feel stupid

0:32:29.000 --> 0:32:33.240
<v Speaker 1>because I look at other because because because look, if

0:32:33.280 --> 0:32:36.800
<v Speaker 1>I've as a result of the conclusions that I've come

0:32:36.840 --> 0:32:39.920
<v Speaker 1>to about existence, I'm I'm really no different than anyone

0:32:40.040 --> 0:32:43.080
<v Speaker 1>or anything else. And I see like a sixty year

0:32:43.080 --> 0:32:46.240
<v Speaker 1>old guy like eating a sandwich, and I'm like, well,

0:32:46.360 --> 0:32:48.320
<v Speaker 1>he can do it. Why can't I do it? Why

0:32:48.320 --> 0:32:52.560
<v Speaker 1>can't I? Just kind of why can't I? If other

0:32:52.720 --> 0:32:55.360
<v Speaker 1>I literally I look around all the time and I

0:32:55.480 --> 0:33:00.920
<v Speaker 1>see people out in the world who are successfully bearing

0:33:01.480 --> 0:33:04.959
<v Speaker 1>the brunts of existing and I and they're no different

0:33:05.000 --> 0:33:07.680
<v Speaker 1>than I am. So I'm like, Okay, if they can

0:33:07.720 --> 0:33:08.440
<v Speaker 1>do it, I can do it.

0:33:09.560 --> 0:33:12.880
<v Speaker 3>You know, no dipping than I am. No dipping than

0:33:12.920 --> 0:33:13.400
<v Speaker 3>I am. No.

0:33:13.760 --> 0:33:15.720
<v Speaker 1>I see a sixty five year old guy with like

0:33:15.720 --> 0:33:18.640
<v Speaker 1>a baseball hat and he's like laughing and talking about something,

0:33:19.120 --> 0:33:21.000
<v Speaker 1>and I'm like he's and I'm like, this guy's is

0:33:21.200 --> 0:33:24.440
<v Speaker 1>like way closer to dying than I am and he's

0:33:24.480 --> 0:33:27.000
<v Speaker 1>not freaking out? Why am I freaking out?

0:33:27.400 --> 0:33:29.360
<v Speaker 3>How do you make it sound so simple for me

0:33:29.440 --> 0:33:31.800
<v Speaker 3>to cry and talk to you about this like you

0:33:31.800 --> 0:33:34.720
<v Speaker 3>have me. I'm literally weeping right now, but I understand

0:33:34.760 --> 0:33:38.880
<v Speaker 3>that you you make it easy for my ears to comprehend.

0:33:39.840 --> 0:33:41.560
<v Speaker 3>Like what doth life?

0:33:42.520 --> 0:33:43.400
<v Speaker 1>What doth life?

0:33:43.520 --> 0:33:48.000
<v Speaker 3>Dude? Like like just be good and just get it

0:33:48.040 --> 0:33:52.000
<v Speaker 3>done and just live and die like that, Like I

0:33:52.080 --> 0:33:55.080
<v Speaker 3>care so much about people and everything, But I said,

0:33:55.760 --> 0:33:58.600
<v Speaker 3>people care about me. People don't give a damn about me.

0:34:00.080 --> 0:34:02.360
<v Speaker 3>That for the love of my life. That it was like, dude,

0:34:02.440 --> 0:34:07.680
<v Speaker 3>you matter, bro, like you madter. I know when you cry,

0:34:07.720 --> 0:34:09.480
<v Speaker 3>I know when you get goosebumps. I know when you

0:34:09.520 --> 0:34:11.480
<v Speaker 3>hear a song you love. I know when you're in

0:34:11.520 --> 0:34:14.840
<v Speaker 3>a cigarette. I know when you hear this like ghost

0:34:14.920 --> 0:34:18.319
<v Speaker 3>Mice or like you know, Defiance Ohio, these punk like

0:34:18.360 --> 0:34:20.480
<v Speaker 3>you know folk punk, bands that make you feel the

0:34:20.480 --> 0:34:22.760
<v Speaker 3>type of way they're doing the Morrissey cover like like

0:34:23.239 --> 0:34:26.600
<v Speaker 3>it's okay, dude, Like and I got your back, and

0:34:26.719 --> 0:34:28.959
<v Speaker 3>for the one time in my life I found someone

0:34:29.080 --> 0:34:38.000
<v Speaker 3>like God, I'm not back, and I'm sorry for uh,

0:34:38.040 --> 0:34:45.799
<v Speaker 3>like rambling and like I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry for

0:34:46.040 --> 0:34:49.000
<v Speaker 3>just being like bothering and taking your time because you

0:34:49.120 --> 0:34:51.680
<v Speaker 3>matter and so many people want to talk to you,

0:34:51.840 --> 0:34:52.600
<v Speaker 3>but so many.

0:34:53.080 --> 0:34:56.040
<v Speaker 1>Chuck Wavis, what do you talk? What are you talking about? Man?

0:34:57.560 --> 0:35:01.960
<v Speaker 3>You can't How can you make me laughing at the

0:35:02.040 --> 0:35:03.360
<v Speaker 3>same time? This is amazing?

0:35:03.400 --> 0:35:07.279
<v Speaker 1>Do you talk? Dude? You dude? You and Zelda, you

0:35:07.360 --> 0:35:13.120
<v Speaker 1>and Zelda I. You guys have this thing where you're like, dude,

0:35:13.120 --> 0:35:15.560
<v Speaker 1>you guys, both of you guys, Mather, dude, both of

0:35:15.560 --> 0:35:17.919
<v Speaker 1>you guys. Do you guys matter?

0:35:18.960 --> 0:35:21.000
<v Speaker 3>I wish you could hear this because we're not a speaker,

0:35:21.120 --> 0:35:22.360
<v Speaker 3>but most of you guys have.

0:35:23.440 --> 0:35:25.120
<v Speaker 1>Both of you guys have this thing where it's like you're like,

0:35:25.160 --> 0:35:27.239
<v Speaker 1>she was like, oh, I'm Jarquavis is the star of

0:35:27.280 --> 0:35:29.000
<v Speaker 1>the show, and you have this thing where you're like, oh,

0:35:29.080 --> 0:35:31.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm not. It's like, you guys, it's all right to

0:35:31.239 --> 0:35:34.600
<v Speaker 1>you It's all right to exist, guys, It's all right

0:35:34.640 --> 0:35:35.800
<v Speaker 1>to exist.

0:35:37.040 --> 0:35:40.040
<v Speaker 3>Am I okay? Can I tell you that I thank

0:35:40.080 --> 0:35:40.919
<v Speaker 3>you and I love you?

0:35:40.960 --> 0:35:41.040
<v Speaker 1>Like?

0:35:41.120 --> 0:35:45.000
<v Speaker 3>Is that okay? It's all right dude. Sorry, Like I

0:35:45.000 --> 0:35:51.320
<v Speaker 3>hope mat like I like, I want to me and

0:35:51.400 --> 0:35:52.920
<v Speaker 3>my girl to be able to see grand out of

0:35:52.920 --> 0:35:56.000
<v Speaker 3>the stakes come out. I want to, honestly, because I

0:35:56.040 --> 0:35:58.360
<v Speaker 3>want to see the honesty. I love Greek mythology and

0:35:58.480 --> 0:36:01.040
<v Speaker 3>my parents, my all, my hood cousin, and we'll be like, man,

0:36:01.080 --> 0:36:05.160
<v Speaker 3>that's a white boy ship. Love Greek mythology. That ships

0:36:05.200 --> 0:36:09.760
<v Speaker 3>so beautiful. That shit made me cry, h like I would.

0:36:09.800 --> 0:36:11.759
<v Speaker 3>I wish I could see the Odyssey with you and

0:36:11.840 --> 0:36:14.120
<v Speaker 3>hold your arm with my girl and just watch it.

0:36:14.719 --> 0:36:18.160
<v Speaker 3>I'm serious. I'm so serious. And I found out guess

0:36:18.160 --> 0:36:19.960
<v Speaker 3>what I found out two weeks ago. I went into

0:36:20.000 --> 0:36:23.400
<v Speaker 3>a diabetic shock. I went to a diabetic shock, and

0:36:23.520 --> 0:36:26.560
<v Speaker 3>my girls saved me. They'll just save my life. Take

0:36:26.600 --> 0:36:28.399
<v Speaker 3>me to the fucking e er and they said, you're

0:36:28.400 --> 0:36:31.280
<v Speaker 3>in diabetic shock. Your heart beat this song the Hegehog

0:36:31.320 --> 0:36:32.880
<v Speaker 3>times Taine. So it's nothing.

0:36:32.760 --> 0:36:37.440
<v Speaker 2>Basically, Oh, don't don't talk about them, fucking.

0:36:39.040 --> 0:36:42.160
<v Speaker 3>Well. No, we talked about Sonic but then, okay.

0:36:41.560 --> 0:36:45.520
<v Speaker 1>Anyway, are you a big are you a Sonic fan?

0:36:46.640 --> 0:36:50.960
<v Speaker 3>Oh? You said you're a big song okay? Bay said

0:36:51.000 --> 0:36:54.400
<v Speaker 3>nerd out. I like Sonic.

0:36:56.719 --> 0:36:58.680
<v Speaker 1>That's not nerding out saying I.

0:36:58.800 --> 0:37:00.960
<v Speaker 3>Like no, no, no, no, no, no, no no no. But

0:37:01.040 --> 0:37:03.000
<v Speaker 3>you know what I love more than Sonic Sonic is

0:37:03.280 --> 0:37:05.480
<v Speaker 3>I used to get bullied for talking about Sonic? Are

0:37:05.480 --> 0:37:10.960
<v Speaker 3>you kidding about? Okay? So, so when I was a kid,

0:37:11.160 --> 0:37:12.640
<v Speaker 3>When I was a kid, when I was a kid,

0:37:13.360 --> 0:37:15.120
<v Speaker 3>you ever got to ask Whooper for not beating a

0:37:15.200 --> 0:37:16.520
<v Speaker 3>video game my stake of Gennison.

0:37:17.200 --> 0:37:18.000
<v Speaker 1>That's crazy.

0:37:18.760 --> 0:37:21.040
<v Speaker 3>That's not a comparison. I shouldn't ask that. That's such

0:37:21.080 --> 0:37:24.080
<v Speaker 3>a shitty thing that they have you ever, No, I

0:37:24.080 --> 0:37:26.640
<v Speaker 3>got my ass kicked for not beating okay is this?

0:37:27.520 --> 0:37:29.120
<v Speaker 3>I got my ass kicked for not being signed with

0:37:29.120 --> 0:37:30.759
<v Speaker 3>my brother. So song two came up my desk and

0:37:30.840 --> 0:37:32.879
<v Speaker 3>I got this from the pawn shop. We're getting station

0:37:33.080 --> 0:37:35.120
<v Speaker 3>to another place. We're leaving off at Air Force Face.

0:37:35.160 --> 0:37:38.640
<v Speaker 3>We're going to another Air Force base. And if you

0:37:38.920 --> 0:37:40.920
<v Speaker 3>if you can't be good on the football field and

0:37:40.960 --> 0:37:42.839
<v Speaker 3>the soccer field, or do this or even play video

0:37:42.920 --> 0:37:47.719
<v Speaker 3>games good, you're you're you're not good enough. I'll figure

0:37:47.760 --> 0:37:49.839
<v Speaker 3>it out. So we got good at Sonic quick until

0:37:49.920 --> 0:37:51.759
<v Speaker 3>we got to a Sonic two. We got to the

0:37:51.880 --> 0:37:55.120
<v Speaker 3>end and we couldn't beat it, and we could never

0:37:55.200 --> 0:37:57.440
<v Speaker 3>beat it. When you get the fucking yell like we

0:37:57.520 --> 0:38:00.520
<v Speaker 3>could never do it, and he's just like never. I

0:38:00.560 --> 0:38:03.040
<v Speaker 3>felt like he just was like, yeah, y'all, niggas ain't

0:38:03.040 --> 0:38:07.879
<v Speaker 3>ship like until you beat fucking Man. Well no it's

0:38:07.880 --> 0:38:11.000
<v Speaker 3>not Eggman, but any rich, we shouldn't go there. I'm

0:38:11.000 --> 0:38:14.560
<v Speaker 3>so sorry, but did you say something about Final Fantasy.

0:38:15.680 --> 0:38:17.920
<v Speaker 1>Who's your favorite Sonic the Hedgehog character?

0:38:18.840 --> 0:38:25.640
<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, I got it. Oh my god, Dave,

0:38:25.640 --> 0:38:30.960
<v Speaker 3>I'm not a nerd am I I'm I gotta made

0:38:30.960 --> 0:38:37.840
<v Speaker 3>fun of me, fucking made fun of you seriously, Like, okay,

0:38:37.880 --> 0:38:41.640
<v Speaker 3>I love you, Okay, okay, hear me out, hear me out.

0:38:42.000 --> 0:38:45.120
<v Speaker 3>I'm hearing egg Man first. Egg Man first. But Knuckles

0:38:45.200 --> 0:38:48.080
<v Speaker 3>is my favorite character of all time because the character

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<v Speaker 3>like not just your hair like me, but Knuckles did

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<v Speaker 3>when I when we bought Phnic three, you see that

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<v Speaker 3>cover the cover of the game, and you see that

0:38:58.520 --> 0:39:01.080
<v Speaker 3>the three fingers with the faith. Who the fuck is

0:39:02.080 --> 0:39:04.439
<v Speaker 3>we had Sonic one and two on Sega. We didn't.

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<v Speaker 3>We weren't in kids. Oh no, we're talking about Sonic.

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<v Speaker 3>You know Sonic I got I'd be hiding this ship

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<v Speaker 3>from people. This is crazy that you just asked this.

0:39:16.120 --> 0:39:18.040
<v Speaker 3>I hide the fact that I love Sonic and Final

0:39:18.080 --> 0:39:19.520
<v Speaker 3>Fantasy and Pokemon for people.

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<v Speaker 1>What's why? Why? What's wrong with.

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<v Speaker 3>You get bullied? I'm a grown ass man.

0:39:25.480 --> 0:39:29.839
<v Speaker 1>But I don't. How can I hold you?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh, twenty seven or no? Not twenty seven thirty seven?

0:39:35.719 --> 0:39:38.799
<v Speaker 3>I'm so sorry? Oh no, no, I'm so sorry, dude.

0:39:38.880 --> 0:39:40.160
<v Speaker 3>I love Sorry, I'm good.

0:39:41.239 --> 0:39:45.280
<v Speaker 1>Sorry, dude, I love I love fucking Super Mario and Nintendo.

0:39:45.320 --> 0:39:47.319
<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm a fucking adult. I don't like.

0:39:48.840 --> 0:39:51.200
<v Speaker 3>Why is it your peers that?

0:39:51.680 --> 0:39:53.520
<v Speaker 1>No, it's why would I care?

0:39:55.160 --> 0:39:57.680
<v Speaker 3>Yeah? Have you ever been bullied? Like you're so cool?

0:39:57.719 --> 0:40:01.799
<v Speaker 3>Like I feel like that. I don't say that it's dismissive.

0:40:01.800 --> 0:40:04.000
<v Speaker 3>It's just that you're so cool. That's extremely dismissive.

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<v Speaker 1>But you said but you like I don't somewhere a lot,

0:40:10.280 --> 0:40:14.880
<v Speaker 1>Equavius Someway, I can tell like you keep dude. I

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<v Speaker 1>know this is like, uh, this is easier said than done.

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<v Speaker 1>But this is like a mental conditioning thing where like

0:40:20.640 --> 0:40:23.640
<v Speaker 1>I can tell that every time you say you you

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<v Speaker 1>edit as you speak, like because you speak but you

0:40:30.480 --> 0:40:32.160
<v Speaker 1>and I know it's like I know it takes a

0:40:32.160 --> 0:40:34.799
<v Speaker 1>long time to unlearn it, but like I.

0:40:34.960 --> 0:40:36.879
<v Speaker 3>I got because I don't know how to be.

0:40:37.760 --> 0:40:39.920
<v Speaker 1>It's but like, dude, it probably it's okay. It just

0:40:40.000 --> 0:40:43.480
<v Speaker 1>exists as you are. It's okay, it's okay, It's really okay.

0:40:44.400 --> 0:40:51.279
<v Speaker 3>I just want to be low.

0:40:50.280 --> 0:40:51.360
<v Speaker 1>Just exists.

0:40:55.120 --> 0:40:57.760
<v Speaker 3>Are you loved? Can I ask you that? Are you loved?

0:40:59.600 --> 0:41:00.120
<v Speaker 1>I think?

0:41:00.160 --> 0:41:04.480
<v Speaker 3>So? Why do you say you think so? You're amazing

0:41:05.920 --> 0:41:09.240
<v Speaker 3>to me and to my love and to many people

0:41:09.239 --> 0:41:11.719
<v Speaker 3>around the world. Well to say you think? Why do

0:41:11.800 --> 0:41:12.440
<v Speaker 3>you think?

0:41:12.840 --> 0:41:15.799
<v Speaker 1>I think? Well, I don't. I mainly go to line

0:41:15.920 --> 0:41:17.160
<v Speaker 1>when I think about it, like if I'm loved, I

0:41:17.200 --> 0:41:19.799
<v Speaker 1>mean I think about like I think about like my

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<v Speaker 1>parents and my friends and stuff.

0:41:25.600 --> 0:41:28.920
<v Speaker 3>You know, your parents, if I may ask, my parents

0:41:28.960 --> 0:41:29.239
<v Speaker 3>love me?

0:41:29.440 --> 0:41:31.360
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:41:31.480 --> 0:41:33.480
<v Speaker 3>What's your favorite holiday with your parents where you can

0:41:33.480 --> 0:41:36.320
<v Speaker 3>hang out your parents for a holiday? Uh?

0:41:36.400 --> 0:41:37.080
<v Speaker 1>Christmas?

0:41:38.239 --> 0:41:42.719
<v Speaker 3>Me too. I wish I could watch the Griswall. What

0:41:42.800 --> 0:41:45.719
<v Speaker 3>is it? Uh National Lampoon with my family and your

0:41:45.760 --> 0:41:46.440
<v Speaker 3>family together.

0:41:48.560 --> 0:41:53.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm so serious.

0:41:50.400 --> 0:41:57.279
<v Speaker 3>I'm so when I say, I'm so serious, like, is

0:41:57.320 --> 0:41:59.840
<v Speaker 3>there anything I can cross paths with you someday?

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, I'm gonna have a dream later. I mean that

0:42:02.200 --> 0:42:04.040
<v Speaker 1>would be so weird, like I'm gonna have a dream

0:42:04.320 --> 0:42:07.400
<v Speaker 1>that like both of my that my entire family and

0:42:07.440 --> 0:42:11.799
<v Speaker 1>your entire family are like watching a movie together. What

0:42:11.840 --> 0:42:12.600
<v Speaker 1>movie did you say?

0:42:14.440 --> 0:42:19.840
<v Speaker 3>The National Lampoons with Marty griswoll uh, Christmas Vacation? Or

0:42:19.880 --> 0:42:23.560
<v Speaker 3>you think that sounds like, oh my god, what is

0:42:23.600 --> 0:42:24.560
<v Speaker 3>your favorite movie?

0:42:24.640 --> 0:42:28.120
<v Speaker 1>I need to know that sounds like something in this sounds.

0:42:27.800 --> 0:42:30.800
<v Speaker 3>Like us either events fail or something.

0:42:31.360 --> 0:42:33.239
<v Speaker 1>This sounds like an event that will take place in

0:42:33.280 --> 0:42:37.959
<v Speaker 1>the back rooms for sure, you me, my my mom,

0:42:38.000 --> 0:42:39.520
<v Speaker 1>and my dad who I don't know when the last

0:42:39.520 --> 0:42:40.600
<v Speaker 1>time they were in a room together.

0:42:40.680 --> 0:42:44.440
<v Speaker 3>But is there any way I could like message you

0:42:44.520 --> 0:42:48.520
<v Speaker 3>to like like I'm extremely serious. You made I.

0:42:48.640 --> 0:42:53.480
<v Speaker 1>Talked to you, I web, I web dark Wavy Joe,

0:42:53.840 --> 0:42:55.719
<v Speaker 1>have to be very honest. I don't think there is.

0:42:55.880 --> 0:42:58.240
<v Speaker 1>I don't believe it's one of the confines of reality

0:42:58.320 --> 0:43:01.880
<v Speaker 1>that our entire family we'll get together and watch that.

0:43:02.160 --> 0:43:08.440
<v Speaker 1>Never say never, but it might occur in a dream, Quavis,

0:43:08.480 --> 0:43:09.239
<v Speaker 1>are you stilly?

0:43:09.520 --> 0:43:12.480
<v Speaker 3>Dream is dream? A dream is a spects soum. But

0:43:12.600 --> 0:43:16.520
<v Speaker 3>guess what, uh when I see when I told you

0:43:16.640 --> 0:43:20.120
<v Speaker 3>I want to see the Oddity with you, it took

0:43:20.160 --> 0:43:23.279
<v Speaker 3>ads is what fifteen and twenty years to get back home,

0:43:23.320 --> 0:43:27.719
<v Speaker 3>and he still did it. Even he still did it.

0:43:28.680 --> 0:43:31.560
<v Speaker 3>Matt Damon's playing Odysseus. Can we go see that? Can

0:43:31.840 --> 0:43:33.840
<v Speaker 3>I help you do? A like? You have to go

0:43:33.840 --> 0:43:37.080
<v Speaker 3>see the auditye of me? At least there's gotta be

0:43:37.200 --> 0:43:41.640
<v Speaker 3>some way that the the universe together so we can see.

0:43:42.239 --> 0:43:44.680
<v Speaker 1>Wait, okay, Jock Uavis, I I have so many First

0:43:44.719 --> 0:43:46.080
<v Speaker 1>of all, I have a lot of things to sit you.

0:43:47.160 --> 0:43:48.759
<v Speaker 1>I cannot promise you that I will go see the

0:43:48.800 --> 0:43:51.600
<v Speaker 1>Audio Odyssey with you, but I will say this, they

0:43:51.800 --> 0:43:54.240
<v Speaker 1>are Joe Ravis, you just mentioned the universe bring us together.

0:43:54.400 --> 0:43:58.560
<v Speaker 1>The universe has brought us together. I can't guarantee the future.

0:43:58.880 --> 0:44:01.319
<v Speaker 1>I can't guarantee the about work together right there with

0:44:01.400 --> 0:44:03.480
<v Speaker 1>this very moment, Sharkwavis, you're already.

0:44:03.239 --> 0:44:04.320
<v Speaker 3>Thinking about new moments.

0:44:06.160 --> 0:44:09.000
<v Speaker 1>The universe is put us together in this current moment,

0:44:09.080 --> 0:44:10.960
<v Speaker 1>Dark Wavy, I'm yelling I should I'm.

0:44:10.719 --> 0:44:13.400
<v Speaker 3>In a You're absolutely right, and I'm.

0:44:13.200 --> 0:44:18.600
<v Speaker 1>Like together in this very moment, Okay, so listen.

0:44:19.320 --> 0:44:21.319
<v Speaker 3>I believe you're talking to me right now.

0:44:21.400 --> 0:44:25.399
<v Speaker 1>I cannot promise you that. I can't promise if we'll

0:44:25.400 --> 0:44:28.400
<v Speaker 1>see a movie later, but we can be in this

0:44:28.560 --> 0:44:31.080
<v Speaker 1>exact moment together. I will promise you.

0:44:31.200 --> 0:44:34.200
<v Speaker 3>You're you're like I love Greek mythology. You're like Hermie.

0:44:34.760 --> 0:44:37.520
<v Speaker 3>You have the Hermies and Greek mythology. I'm gonna have

0:44:37.560 --> 0:44:40.560
<v Speaker 3>to wear it all of your voice. You're so Hermez.

0:44:40.719 --> 0:44:45.640
<v Speaker 3>You make anything easy. You're like, hey, yeah, You're You're swift,

0:44:46.280 --> 0:44:49.440
<v Speaker 3>you have the gift, the gab, you have the honor.

0:44:49.200 --> 0:44:51.959
<v Speaker 1>Of boy with the beard Hermes myth.

0:44:52.840 --> 0:44:55.360
<v Speaker 3>No, we're gonna do a young Hermis. We're gonna do

0:44:55.400 --> 0:44:58.279
<v Speaker 3>young Hermes with the toleria, which is the shoes at

0:44:58.320 --> 0:45:01.279
<v Speaker 3>the wing. We're gonna wait.

0:45:02.480 --> 0:45:07.920
<v Speaker 1>Hermes is an Olympic Olympian deity.

0:45:07.960 --> 0:45:08.160
<v Speaker 3>Are you.

0:45:09.840 --> 0:45:17.759
<v Speaker 1>Think he is the protector of human heralds, travelers, thieves, merchant.

0:45:17.719 --> 0:45:22.440
<v Speaker 3>Travelers, thieves and gamblers and all that lives, all that voice, Charker,

0:45:22.680 --> 0:45:26.240
<v Speaker 3>people that have the boys. Your voice changes the world.

0:45:26.280 --> 0:45:28.239
<v Speaker 3>Do you realize you're a.

0:45:28.239 --> 0:45:33.239
<v Speaker 1>Nice You're a nice You're you're you're a you're a

0:45:33.239 --> 0:45:35.640
<v Speaker 1>sweet guy. Yes, you're a sweet guy.

0:45:35.920 --> 0:45:41.799
<v Speaker 3>Are you My eyes are watering? Oh my god, I

0:45:41.920 --> 0:45:45.680
<v Speaker 3>thank you, I thank you, thank you. I feel like

0:45:45.719 --> 0:45:49.919
<v Speaker 3>I'm on Molly? What if? No? Wait wait wait wait wait?

0:45:50.239 --> 0:45:51.440
<v Speaker 1>Are you on Molly right now?

0:45:51.560 --> 0:45:53.879
<v Speaker 3>You sound like you're on Molly? What can I say?

0:45:53.920 --> 0:45:55.239
<v Speaker 3>What I'm on right now? Can I tell you what

0:45:55.239 --> 0:45:55.839
<v Speaker 3>I'm on right now?

0:45:55.840 --> 0:45:57.279
<v Speaker 1>What do you want? Are you on Molly right now?

0:45:57.320 --> 0:45:59.200
<v Speaker 3>You got to guess it ain't Molly. It ain't Molly,

0:45:59.200 --> 0:46:01.040
<v Speaker 3>but it's white. It because of Columbia.

0:46:02.000 --> 0:46:03.279
<v Speaker 1>You're cocaine right now?

0:46:05.840 --> 0:46:10.520
<v Speaker 3>Uh uh, I keep it really, it is Jesuits, this

0:46:10.680 --> 0:46:12.240
<v Speaker 3>bird rebirth, it's Jesus.

0:46:12.400 --> 0:46:16.200
<v Speaker 1>Really, I don't I'm getting I haven't done a lot

0:46:16.280 --> 0:46:17.480
<v Speaker 1>of a little.

0:46:17.280 --> 0:46:20.719
<v Speaker 3>Cocaine, but I'm gonna cook. You don't understand this. I'm

0:46:20.719 --> 0:46:23.480
<v Speaker 3>like the bear be working at kitchen, work, work, work

0:46:23.520 --> 0:46:25.759
<v Speaker 3>with work and and I'm not saying say excuse, but

0:46:26.840 --> 0:46:31.320
<v Speaker 3>it happened to be one of those nice but uh,

0:46:31.800 --> 0:46:34.080
<v Speaker 3>emotions are there, and I gotta be honest, and I

0:46:34.560 --> 0:46:37.600
<v Speaker 3>love and and I honor you, and I'm like, you know,

0:46:37.640 --> 0:46:39.759
<v Speaker 3>I keep it keep it a being, keep it real,

0:46:39.920 --> 0:46:44.600
<v Speaker 3>and I am you remind me of like a protagonist

0:46:44.680 --> 0:46:49.040
<v Speaker 3>from Final Fantasy, like the main character. I am my damn,

0:46:49.440 --> 0:46:54.279
<v Speaker 3>I'm from the Kingdom. Your your main character is you

0:46:54.400 --> 0:46:57.279
<v Speaker 3>know in Final Fantasy there's a fog.

0:46:57.360 --> 0:47:02.680
<v Speaker 1>That ky You're the there's no main character. You're the

0:47:02.680 --> 0:47:03.960
<v Speaker 1>main character. There's the main character.

0:47:05.600 --> 0:47:06.960
<v Speaker 3>I'll never be the main character.

0:47:09.160 --> 0:47:11.320
<v Speaker 1>Make your such thing is the main character.

0:47:13.880 --> 0:47:15.759
<v Speaker 3>You're the main character. You made me feel like the

0:47:15.800 --> 0:47:16.320
<v Speaker 3>main character.

0:47:16.680 --> 0:47:19.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm the main character in my own I Actually I

0:47:19.840 --> 0:47:22.200
<v Speaker 1>don't know if I was gonna say I'm the main

0:47:22.239 --> 0:47:24.000
<v Speaker 1>character in my own life, which actually I do think

0:47:24.000 --> 0:47:26.760
<v Speaker 1>at this stage in my life that is true.

0:47:27.480 --> 0:47:30.640
<v Speaker 3>Actually, what is the purpose of yours? I want to

0:47:30.680 --> 0:47:32.799
<v Speaker 3>know everything about you? I want to know what you

0:47:32.920 --> 0:47:35.600
<v Speaker 3>want to have right now? Do you want to Corvette

0:47:35.600 --> 0:47:36.600
<v Speaker 3>with a pigot fin like?

0:47:36.880 --> 0:47:38.360
<v Speaker 1>You want to know what I want? You want to

0:47:38.400 --> 0:47:40.200
<v Speaker 1>know what I want to I want to know what

0:47:40.640 --> 0:47:41.680
<v Speaker 1>You want to know what I want. You want to

0:47:41.719 --> 0:47:42.799
<v Speaker 1>know what I want to have right now?

0:47:43.680 --> 0:47:45.839
<v Speaker 3>I want to know this right now, so passionately, while

0:47:45.880 --> 0:47:48.120
<v Speaker 3>I'm crying and tears are rolling down my face like

0:47:48.120 --> 0:47:48.960
<v Speaker 3>fo is gonna.

0:47:49.160 --> 0:47:50.680
<v Speaker 1>I will tell you what I want to have right now.

0:47:50.719 --> 0:47:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I want to have a life that feels really liked.

0:48:01.480 --> 0:48:01.959
<v Speaker 3>Mm hmmm.

0:48:03.120 --> 0:48:08.640
<v Speaker 1>I want to have a life that feels light yet

0:48:08.920 --> 0:48:11.720
<v Speaker 1>also I want to have a life that feels light

0:48:12.560 --> 0:48:18.040
<v Speaker 1>but also quite full and productive. I would like to

0:48:18.080 --> 0:48:20.240
<v Speaker 1>have a life that feels light yet full and productive.

0:48:20.480 --> 0:48:27.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if that's I'm I'm I've talked about

0:48:27.520 --> 0:48:30.600
<v Speaker 1>this on the other packet. I'm so close.

0:48:31.719 --> 0:48:32.040
<v Speaker 3>To that.

0:48:32.400 --> 0:48:34.319
<v Speaker 1>I always feel I'm so close, but I also feel

0:48:34.320 --> 0:48:36.000
<v Speaker 1>like I'm so far.

0:48:36.719 --> 0:48:39.560
<v Speaker 3>But I'm also wait, you don't understand, my idiot. You

0:48:39.600 --> 0:48:43.000
<v Speaker 3>said light, But what is when you say light? Do

0:48:43.080 --> 0:48:45.560
<v Speaker 3>you just want to be away from she or not?

0:48:46.719 --> 0:48:51.280
<v Speaker 3>I mean, like like you go to be let alone

0:48:51.400 --> 0:48:52.759
<v Speaker 3>and no, I.

0:48:52.800 --> 0:48:56.200
<v Speaker 1>Said, well, I don't. I don't, I don't. I don't

0:48:56.239 --> 0:49:05.840
<v Speaker 1>feel particularly a loan these days. But by light, I

0:49:06.000 --> 0:49:09.560
<v Speaker 1>mean like, I don't know, life like there's a lot

0:49:09.560 --> 0:49:11.800
<v Speaker 1>of aspects of life that feel like heavy, and it

0:49:11.960 --> 0:49:15.160
<v Speaker 1>like feel like a great way. You ever feel like,

0:49:15.400 --> 0:49:17.360
<v Speaker 1>I mean you you ever feel like a great weight

0:49:17.640 --> 0:49:20.319
<v Speaker 1>of something? You just feel like life has a lot

0:49:20.360 --> 0:49:20.680
<v Speaker 1>of weight.

0:49:21.320 --> 0:49:24.640
<v Speaker 3>You're like every day every day? Yeah every day?

0:49:24.680 --> 0:49:26.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, of course, yeah, every day.

0:49:26.360 --> 0:49:29.680
<v Speaker 3>And so but do you fear something? When you say that,

0:49:29.920 --> 0:49:32.000
<v Speaker 3>it makes me get It gives me the impression for

0:49:32.120 --> 0:49:35.480
<v Speaker 3>my little p Homer Simpton brain. That's a little peanut,

0:49:36.200 --> 0:49:37.880
<v Speaker 3>and I hear that for like of my better words.

0:49:37.880 --> 0:49:41.480
<v Speaker 3>It's like, you're so great to me in mine, in mine,

0:49:42.160 --> 0:49:50.480
<v Speaker 3>but I M you have fears, you have sadness.

0:49:51.120 --> 0:49:52.200
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, of course.

0:49:54.960 --> 0:50:01.600
<v Speaker 3>Why why? Yeah, think about this. The reason I answered

0:50:01.600 --> 0:50:04.480
<v Speaker 3>that not to be disrespectful. I don't care why is

0:50:04.520 --> 0:50:10.319
<v Speaker 3>because it's so disrecessful to say. I believe in my

0:50:10.520 --> 0:50:13.960
<v Speaker 3>brain that you've you've made it, or you're you made

0:50:14.000 --> 0:50:16.960
<v Speaker 3>it to a point where you can cultivate greatness and

0:50:16.960 --> 0:50:20.880
<v Speaker 3>cultivated and cultivated and grow and grow. You've found a

0:50:20.880 --> 0:50:24.800
<v Speaker 3>formula on the platform where it's appropriate and and and

0:50:24.800 --> 0:50:28.200
<v Speaker 3>and rightful and honest. You know what I mean. It's

0:50:28.480 --> 0:50:31.920
<v Speaker 3>it's it's yours, you know, like Brad Pitt said on Troy,

0:50:32.320 --> 0:50:34.880
<v Speaker 3>it's yours. Take it seriously.

0:50:34.920 --> 0:50:37.239
<v Speaker 1>I know, I seriously. I have a response to that.

0:50:37.320 --> 0:50:39.720
<v Speaker 1>I see you're saying. And by the way that ship

0:50:40.880 --> 0:50:44.759
<v Speaker 1>has been like what you're what you're talking about has

0:50:44.840 --> 0:50:51.600
<v Speaker 1>been enormously helpful. I was never it's been enormously helpful,

0:50:53.000 --> 0:51:00.920
<v Speaker 1>but it's hasn't infinitely solved all of my problems or

0:51:01.040 --> 0:51:06.160
<v Speaker 1>like gotten me away from the things that feel heavy

0:51:06.160 --> 0:51:07.000
<v Speaker 1>about my life?

0:51:08.239 --> 0:51:11.520
<v Speaker 3>What am I allowed to ask what's heavy about your life? Like?

0:51:11.640 --> 0:51:14.359
<v Speaker 3>I don't. I don't have the honor and you know what,

0:51:14.760 --> 0:51:18.840
<v Speaker 3>I don't. It's disrespectful for me to even ask that,

0:51:18.960 --> 0:51:21.759
<v Speaker 3>Manahad and take my head off to you. What makes you?

0:51:22.920 --> 0:51:28.120
<v Speaker 3>That's not right? What is your biggest And I'd say this,

0:51:28.200 --> 0:51:30.760
<v Speaker 3>I think that'll make me understand you what you're saying

0:51:30.840 --> 0:51:33.799
<v Speaker 3>your biggest biggest My biggest fear is being in the

0:51:33.800 --> 0:51:35.399
<v Speaker 3>middle of the ocean, in the middle of the night,

0:51:35.560 --> 0:51:38.520
<v Speaker 3>or in space floating. Those are my biggest fears.

0:51:38.680 --> 0:51:40.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go ahead and can I take yours? That

0:51:40.560 --> 0:51:42.680
<v Speaker 1>sounds horrifying and that's the most horrified thing I can

0:51:42.719 --> 0:51:43.000
<v Speaker 1>think of.

0:51:43.080 --> 0:51:45.160
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, imagine being in the middle of the ocean. You're

0:51:45.160 --> 0:51:48.160
<v Speaker 3>in the Atlantic Ocean, the middle of the night, just floating.

0:51:48.800 --> 0:51:50.759
<v Speaker 3>Is a mermaid going to come touched by feet? I

0:51:50.760 --> 0:51:52.839
<v Speaker 3>don't even know if mermaids exist, But who's the say

0:51:52.920 --> 0:51:59.120
<v Speaker 3>they don't? Is it like it's the unknown? My dad

0:51:59.120 --> 0:52:02.080
<v Speaker 3>and them say this. So imagine having a parent that

0:52:02.400 --> 0:52:05.560
<v Speaker 3>prays to the east, which is Mecca, and another parent

0:52:05.680 --> 0:52:11.720
<v Speaker 3>that is a southern Baptist, cameourine playing soul, shooting, snake

0:52:11.840 --> 0:52:16.160
<v Speaker 3>holding kojik Christian, you know what I mean. So to

0:52:16.200 --> 0:52:20.239
<v Speaker 3>see them debate what existence of the end is makes

0:52:20.280 --> 0:52:22.279
<v Speaker 3>you wonder. So it's like, wait, y'all love each other,

0:52:22.400 --> 0:52:25.640
<v Speaker 3>but y'all hate each oldren debate about this, And I'm

0:52:25.640 --> 0:52:28.040
<v Speaker 3>a kid, I'm like, damn, so wait, what is real?

0:52:28.360 --> 0:52:30.960
<v Speaker 3>What your God is not your God? And your existence

0:52:31.120 --> 0:52:35.000
<v Speaker 3>not your existence? So what do I do? And I

0:52:35.040 --> 0:52:37.440
<v Speaker 3>get fucked with and bully and in the midst of

0:52:37.480 --> 0:52:39.640
<v Speaker 3>all that, I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

0:52:42.440 --> 0:52:52.759
<v Speaker 1>Yes, Joe, I really enjoyed talking to you.

0:52:52.800 --> 0:52:59.120
<v Speaker 4>I hope that this this is an amazingly amazing conversation

0:53:00.239 --> 0:53:03.600
<v Speaker 4>to have your your and in your your space and everything.

0:53:03.719 --> 0:53:06.319
<v Speaker 3>But I hope to see the Odyssey with you or

0:53:06.320 --> 0:53:09.719
<v Speaker 3>some movie with you. Seriously, when we cross pads, we

0:53:09.840 --> 0:53:12.080
<v Speaker 3>crossed paths, We're gonna hop on a train, We're gonna

0:53:12.080 --> 0:53:15.480
<v Speaker 3>go to Portland from somewhere to somewhere from Phoenix is somewhere,

0:53:16.560 --> 0:53:25.200
<v Speaker 3>and we're gonna be trade punts together. I love you.

0:53:24.560 --> 0:53:27.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm rooting for I'm rooting for.

0:53:30.239 --> 0:53:34.000
<v Speaker 2>Joe. Covis is chilling. I'm going to say bye to

0:53:34.040 --> 0:53:35.520
<v Speaker 2>you too, because I.

0:53:35.440 --> 0:53:36.160
<v Speaker 3>Really love you.

0:53:36.400 --> 0:53:40.720
<v Speaker 2>And I'm very glad you got to talk to him.

0:53:40.760 --> 0:53:46.799
<v Speaker 2>Like I said, he he's crying right now, but I'm

0:53:46.880 --> 0:53:49.640
<v Speaker 2>very glad you got to talk to him, and I

0:53:49.640 --> 0:53:53.399
<v Speaker 2>think he needed that actually, and I'm very grateful that

0:53:53.520 --> 0:53:57.000
<v Speaker 2>you've got all that out out of him.

0:53:57.320 --> 0:54:06.480
<v Speaker 1>Wow, that's not very I appreciate Yeah, I appreciate you, guy.

0:54:06.640 --> 0:54:11.640
<v Speaker 1>This is sweet. This is nice. This is nice.

0:54:12.200 --> 0:54:20.279
<v Speaker 2>Were any of the names in cities that we've mentioned. Yeah,

0:54:20.320 --> 0:54:24.279
<v Speaker 2>but I've met you and I've you know, I talked

0:54:24.320 --> 0:54:26.359
<v Speaker 2>to you and we're gonna see you on tour.

0:54:27.160 --> 0:54:33.360
<v Speaker 1>Oh cool, Oh my god. If I all right, I'm excited.

0:54:33.360 --> 0:54:36.399
<v Speaker 1>I will remember. I don't remember names, but I will

0:54:36.440 --> 0:54:38.760
<v Speaker 1>remember Jarquavias.

0:54:39.640 --> 0:54:43.520
<v Speaker 2>Well okay, yeah, I will remember it.

0:54:43.800 --> 0:54:46.120
<v Speaker 1>This is actually, this is the this is the rare

0:54:46.280 --> 0:54:50.000
<v Speaker 1>phone call where if someone came like okay, So sometimes

0:54:50.000 --> 0:54:52.319
<v Speaker 1>like someone will call me and be like, I'm Nick,

0:54:52.360 --> 0:54:54.600
<v Speaker 1>do you remember me? And I'm like no, But they'll

0:54:54.640 --> 0:54:58.240
<v Speaker 1>be like, I remember me. We talked about this or whatever,

0:54:58.280 --> 0:55:00.400
<v Speaker 1>and I'll remember. But this is the kind of thing

0:55:00.480 --> 0:55:02.080
<v Speaker 1>where if you this is the kind of thing where

0:55:02.080 --> 0:55:04.719
<v Speaker 1>if if Arquavius comes up to me and says, I

0:55:04.880 --> 0:55:07.280
<v Speaker 1>was on a lot of drugs and crying and we talked.

0:55:07.320 --> 0:55:10.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna be like, I actually don't remember that conversation.

0:55:10.719 --> 0:55:12.960
<v Speaker 1>We had a lot of those. But if he says

0:55:13.000 --> 0:55:17.960
<v Speaker 1>to me, I'm Jarquavius, I'll be like, I totally remember.

0:55:18.400 --> 0:55:21.239
<v Speaker 1>So it's the reverse of that situation.

0:55:21.560 --> 0:55:23.840
<v Speaker 2>Oh no, I definitely know that.

0:55:25.920 --> 0:55:26.960
<v Speaker 1>I feel like talking to.

0:55:30.680 --> 0:55:30.879
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:55:32.120 --> 0:55:34.840
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, dude, take care of take care take care of

0:55:34.880 --> 0:55:36.799
<v Speaker 1>this young man. All right, take care of this young man,

0:55:36.880 --> 0:55:40.360
<v Speaker 1>and let let this young man take take care of yourself.

0:55:41.280 --> 0:55:43.320
<v Speaker 1>Take care of yourself, take care of yourself. Forgot.

0:55:43.600 --> 0:55:47.759
<v Speaker 2>I just want to let you know that I love

0:55:47.800 --> 0:55:51.040
<v Speaker 2>you and I listened to you every and I have

0:55:51.160 --> 0:55:52.160
<v Speaker 2>your plushy.

0:55:52.520 --> 0:55:57.919
<v Speaker 1>Oh thanks man, Thank you, guys, Thank you guys.

0:55:58.000 --> 0:56:01.680
<v Speaker 2>You guys have will be seeing you. Yeah, thank you

0:56:01.719 --> 0:56:04.960
<v Speaker 2>for the talk, and you will be at the show.

0:56:05.640 --> 0:56:08.080
<v Speaker 1>Cooled to meet you, guys.

0:56:08.680 --> 0:56:08.839
<v Speaker 3>Cool.

0:56:08.880 --> 0:56:11.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, obviously you know what city. But if you could

0:56:11.480 --> 0:56:14.560
<v Speaker 2>blur out our names and I'm pretty sure he said

0:56:14.600 --> 0:56:16.720
<v Speaker 2>his real name and one of the things.

0:56:16.760 --> 0:56:19.879
<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, well we'll keep Zelda in Jarquavius.

0:56:21.360 --> 0:56:23.319
<v Speaker 3>Yes, thank you, Okay, all right.

0:56:23.200 --> 0:56:26.479
<v Speaker 2>All right, love you dog, I appreciate you. We listen

0:56:26.560 --> 0:56:28.560
<v Speaker 2>all the time. I listened all the time anyway, But

0:56:28.760 --> 0:56:32.120
<v Speaker 2>thank you guys. Thanks, good night, love you, good night,

0:56:32.239 --> 0:56:33.800
<v Speaker 2>good forever bye.

0:56:35.360 --> 0:56:38.520
<v Speaker 1>That really felt like I was on Molly for the

0:56:38.560 --> 0:56:44.440
<v Speaker 1>past hour. Okay, that was give it up for Jarquavius.

0:56:45.000 --> 0:56:49.000
<v Speaker 1>Give it up for Jarquavius, give it up for for Zelda.

0:56:49.800 --> 0:56:56.759
<v Speaker 1>Jarquavis really kind of came in mythologized biggest. For the

0:56:56.800 --> 0:57:01.560
<v Speaker 1>first twenty minutes, we only heard murmurs of Jarquavius. We

0:57:01.600 --> 0:57:04.719
<v Speaker 1>didn't we heard descriptions of Arquavius. We didn't really get

0:57:04.760 --> 0:57:06.920
<v Speaker 1>to meet Jarquavius. And then we met Arquavius, talk to

0:57:06.960 --> 0:57:11.000
<v Speaker 1>him for about forty minutes, and we learned so much

0:57:11.040 --> 0:57:15.319
<v Speaker 1>from Jarquavius. We connected with Jarquavius, We saw some of

0:57:15.400 --> 0:57:23.520
<v Speaker 1>ourselves in Jarquavius, and it was it was a wild ride.

0:57:23.720 --> 0:57:28.480
<v Speaker 1>It was a wild ride. Thank you again, Jarquavius, Thank

0:57:28.480 --> 0:57:28.880
<v Speaker 1>you again.

0:57:28.960 --> 0:57:29.960
<v Speaker 3>Zelda.

0:57:30.400 --> 0:57:34.080
<v Speaker 1>Hey, folks, welcome back to the podcast. It's me. It's

0:57:34.160 --> 0:57:35.840
<v Speaker 1>Lyle the Gecko guy.

0:57:36.560 --> 0:57:37.200
<v Speaker 3>Uh.

0:57:37.240 --> 0:57:39.880
<v Speaker 1>That was a very that was an interesting call. That

0:57:39.960 --> 0:57:44.280
<v Speaker 1>was an intense call. That was an enjoyable call. I'm

0:57:44.320 --> 0:57:47.080
<v Speaker 1>curious what you guys thought of that call. Let me

0:57:47.120 --> 0:57:51.160
<v Speaker 1>know in the comments or read the comments. Shouldn't read

0:57:51.200 --> 0:57:54.000
<v Speaker 1>the comments. It's not good to read the comments.

0:57:54.040 --> 0:57:54.560
<v Speaker 3>If you have.

0:57:56.880 --> 0:57:59.120
<v Speaker 1>Anything that you do on the internet, or rather, if

0:57:59.200 --> 0:58:03.080
<v Speaker 1>you just live your life, you shouldn't read the comments.

0:58:03.080 --> 0:58:04.920
<v Speaker 1>You should just live your life. But I do it

0:58:04.960 --> 0:58:10.880
<v Speaker 1>anyway because I have ADHD and I need hits of

0:58:10.960 --> 0:58:13.680
<v Speaker 1>dopamine at all times. And when I see that there's

0:58:13.680 --> 0:58:15.880
<v Speaker 1>a comment on something, I get a little thing and

0:58:16.520 --> 0:58:20.720
<v Speaker 1>I read the comment, and then that takes me into

0:58:20.760 --> 0:58:25.280
<v Speaker 1>another thought loop spiral thing. It's a whole thing. Whatever

0:58:25.440 --> 0:58:28.200
<v Speaker 1>read make a comment. I like comments. I'll read comments.

0:58:28.200 --> 0:58:29.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't caay, even if it's a bad even if

0:58:29.680 --> 0:58:31.320
<v Speaker 1>you hate me, and that's the comment, I still want

0:58:31.320 --> 0:58:35.160
<v Speaker 1>to read it. I'm still curious. But I shouldn't be.

0:58:35.200 --> 0:58:38.040
<v Speaker 1>I should just live my life. Okay. Anyway, I'm here

0:58:38.080 --> 0:58:41.320
<v Speaker 1>because I'm gonna do gek mail. I'm gonna end the

0:58:41.360 --> 0:58:46.840
<v Speaker 1>episode by reading just a couple of viewer mail things.

0:58:47.080 --> 0:58:50.160
<v Speaker 1>And if you want to send a viewer mail to

0:58:50.240 --> 0:58:53.400
<v Speaker 1>possibly be read at some point, you can send one

0:58:53.440 --> 0:58:56.760
<v Speaker 1>to therapy Gecko mail at gmail dot com. If you

0:58:56.840 --> 0:59:00.520
<v Speaker 1>sent one, already. Like if you sent one like four

0:59:00.560 --> 0:59:04.240
<v Speaker 1>months ago and I still haven't read it, send it again.

0:59:04.520 --> 0:59:07.960
<v Speaker 1>Let's see what happens. But anyway, let's read a couple

0:59:07.960 --> 0:59:10.720
<v Speaker 1>of GAK mails to send us home. Huh. This is

0:59:10.760 --> 0:59:17.160
<v Speaker 1>from Chris, subject line starting a bay Blade community in

0:59:17.240 --> 0:59:21.160
<v Speaker 1>my city. Gek. One of the greatest lessons I've learned

0:59:21.200 --> 0:59:23.360
<v Speaker 1>from your podcast is if you want something, you have

0:59:23.440 --> 0:59:25.680
<v Speaker 1>to go out and get it nice. It's this lesson

0:59:25.680 --> 0:59:28.840
<v Speaker 1>that pushed me to contact a local game store to

0:59:28.880 --> 0:59:32.480
<v Speaker 1>see if I can organize a bay Blade tournament. I

0:59:32.640 --> 0:59:35.120
<v Speaker 1>just want to thank you for pushing me to come

0:59:35.120 --> 0:59:37.520
<v Speaker 1>out of my comfort zone and to let everyone who

0:59:37.680 --> 0:59:41.160
<v Speaker 1>liked Bayblade as a kid know that it's back and

0:59:41.320 --> 0:59:42.520
<v Speaker 1>better than ever.

0:59:43.840 --> 0:59:44.080
<v Speaker 3>GEK.

0:59:44.120 --> 0:59:49.560
<v Speaker 1>Bless Chris. He sent me a photo of himself with

0:59:49.600 --> 0:59:53.360
<v Speaker 1>a tattoo. Oh, I wish Chris this email. Are you

0:59:53.400 --> 0:59:55.320
<v Speaker 1>giving me blue balls with this email? I want more

0:59:55.320 --> 0:59:58.439
<v Speaker 1>information about this this bay Blade tournament. Do you do

0:59:58.480 --> 1:00:00.720
<v Speaker 1>the Bayblade tournament or do you just chaut about it?

1:00:01.360 --> 1:00:03.720
<v Speaker 1>Send me another email, Chris, I want give me pictures

1:00:03.720 --> 1:00:07.680
<v Speaker 1>of the bab Bade tournament. Tell me who won, give

1:00:07.720 --> 1:00:09.760
<v Speaker 1>me give me some more information on this Chris, I

1:00:09.760 --> 1:00:12.120
<v Speaker 1>want I want to hear more about this Baybally tournament.

1:00:12.160 --> 1:00:14.920
<v Speaker 1>That sounds awesome. I used to love bayb Blades when

1:00:14.920 --> 1:00:16.640
<v Speaker 1>I was a kid, and I apparently they are back.

1:00:17.160 --> 1:00:19.520
<v Speaker 1>That's the thing is, like the people are getting so

1:00:19.680 --> 1:00:23.520
<v Speaker 1>existential about the fate of the world that we're all

1:00:24.040 --> 1:00:28.360
<v Speaker 1>regressing back to our childlike states and getting really into

1:00:28.360 --> 1:00:31.880
<v Speaker 1>things like Bayblade, which I think is kind of sick.

1:00:32.880 --> 1:00:33.320
<v Speaker 3>Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, This is from Alicia, subject line scared to

1:00:38.080 --> 1:00:41.960
<v Speaker 1>live in a school bus. Hi Lyle, me and my

1:00:42.040 --> 1:00:44.240
<v Speaker 1>husband are about to step way out of our comfort

1:00:44.320 --> 1:00:46.800
<v Speaker 1>zone and enter a new life of adventure that we've

1:00:46.840 --> 1:00:50.040
<v Speaker 1>always dreamed of. We're doing this by renovating a full

1:00:50.120 --> 1:00:53.360
<v Speaker 1>sized school bus to live in and leaving behind the

1:00:53.400 --> 1:00:57.360
<v Speaker 1>island that we both grew up on to travel the country.

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<v Speaker 1>It's exciting and awesome, but it's starting to scare us.

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<v Speaker 1>We haven't finished the bus yet and it will still

1:01:03.080 --> 1:01:05.800
<v Speaker 1>take another year or so to do, but it's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>cost us at least eighty thousand Canadian dollars, probably more

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<v Speaker 1>like one hundred thousand. We also just had our first child,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's beginning to set in that we will be

1:01:16.040 --> 1:01:19.080
<v Speaker 1>removing him from the community that we've built and moving

1:01:19.120 --> 1:01:21.680
<v Speaker 1>away from both of our families to live a life

1:01:21.680 --> 1:01:26.120
<v Speaker 1>of uncertainty and be broke. Lol. But we're doing it.

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to email this to you because I thought

1:01:31.320 --> 1:01:33.480
<v Speaker 1>you would appreciate that we are taking the leap and

1:01:33.520 --> 1:01:37.640
<v Speaker 1>getting out there in the universe. We also need all

1:01:37.640 --> 1:01:39.880
<v Speaker 1>the encouragement that we can get, because somedays we get

1:01:39.920 --> 1:01:43.160
<v Speaker 1>so incredibly nervous and worried about the insecurity and potential

1:01:43.240 --> 1:01:45.720
<v Speaker 1>danger that is out there in the great unknown, especially

1:01:45.800 --> 1:01:48.680
<v Speaker 1>the closer we get to making it happen. Thanks for

1:01:48.720 --> 1:01:50.800
<v Speaker 1>reading this. If you do, maybe I'll update you someday

1:01:50.800 --> 1:02:00.800
<v Speaker 1>on how it goes. U uh Okay, I have thoughts

1:02:01.840 --> 1:02:05.600
<v Speaker 1>about this. My automatic thought is, by the way, I

1:02:05.600 --> 1:02:08.040
<v Speaker 1>don't know. I appreciate that people are sending me emails

1:02:08.080 --> 1:02:11.440
<v Speaker 1>saying that they're getting encouraged by the show. I'm glad

1:02:12.400 --> 1:02:16.040
<v Speaker 1>that the show has encouraged people to do things. But

1:02:17.560 --> 1:02:22.200
<v Speaker 1>I do think that it's good to go. I like

1:02:22.280 --> 1:02:29.480
<v Speaker 1>being cautiously optimistic, right, So listen, you just had a kid,

1:02:30.040 --> 1:02:35.520
<v Speaker 1>so like that is a huge financial commitment. It's also

1:02:35.760 --> 1:02:39.160
<v Speaker 1>kind of a thing where like, I mean, look, I'm

1:02:39.160 --> 1:02:42.840
<v Speaker 1>not one to tell anyone how to raise their kid.

1:02:43.040 --> 1:02:45.440
<v Speaker 1>I feel like me personally, I'd like if I had

1:02:45.440 --> 1:02:49.120
<v Speaker 1>a kid at least like I mean, at least at

1:02:49.160 --> 1:02:51.840
<v Speaker 1>a certain point in their lives. I think a kid

1:02:51.920 --> 1:02:56.120
<v Speaker 1>kind of needs like a stable environment and a stable

1:02:56.160 --> 1:02:58.880
<v Speaker 1>community to be a part of. Like you know, I

1:02:58.880 --> 1:03:02.800
<v Speaker 1>would have fucking hated like like I don't know, Like

1:03:02.840 --> 1:03:05.920
<v Speaker 1>it's one thing, like to move I don't know how

1:03:05.920 --> 1:03:08.120
<v Speaker 1>old your kid is. It's one thing to like move

1:03:08.160 --> 1:03:11.280
<v Speaker 1>around kindergartens or whatever. If as long as your kid

1:03:11.320 --> 1:03:14.040
<v Speaker 1>is like there on the first day of first grade

1:03:14.560 --> 1:03:18.439
<v Speaker 1>until fifth grade, and then you know, maybe they'll make friends.

1:03:18.440 --> 1:03:20.280
<v Speaker 1>Everyone's gonna go to the same middle school. Like you know,

1:03:20.320 --> 1:03:24.880
<v Speaker 1>you want to create a stable environment for your kid.

1:03:25.920 --> 1:03:29.840
<v Speaker 1>But if this is something where it's like, we have

1:03:29.920 --> 1:03:33.360
<v Speaker 1>a kid, and we know that doing this school bus

1:03:33.440 --> 1:03:36.240
<v Speaker 1>thing is not going to financially bankrupt us from taking

1:03:36.280 --> 1:03:38.880
<v Speaker 1>care of our child, and we also know that like

1:03:39.200 --> 1:03:41.680
<v Speaker 1>we'll hang out and like dick around for like a year,

1:03:42.000 --> 1:03:44.200
<v Speaker 1>we'll still be able to take care of our kid this,

1:03:44.320 --> 1:03:49.120
<v Speaker 1>that and the other thing. Then okay, but let me

1:03:53.840 --> 1:03:58.120
<v Speaker 1>but I don't I don't know, I mean, live your life.

1:03:58.160 --> 1:04:01.480
<v Speaker 1>I think if you didn't, if you didn't have a kid,

1:04:01.520 --> 1:04:06.320
<v Speaker 1>this would be a lot easier, I would say, But like, okay,

1:04:06.320 --> 1:04:09.200
<v Speaker 1>you're spending eighty thousand Canadian dollars? What is that? What

1:04:09.280 --> 1:04:18.240
<v Speaker 1>is that in real money? USDTA can't cad. Let's see,

1:04:18.280 --> 1:04:25.960
<v Speaker 1>that's about fifty seven thousand dollars. So basically that's the

1:04:25.960 --> 1:04:27.760
<v Speaker 1>amount of money it would cost for you to like

1:04:28.120 --> 1:04:36.480
<v Speaker 1>put a payment down on like an actual house. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna totally honest, I don't I don't think I

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<v Speaker 1>fully I don't think I fully sign off on this.

1:04:42.360 --> 1:04:46.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't think I fully sign off on this, because

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<v Speaker 1>if you're gonna have a kid, like it's one thing

1:04:49.480 --> 1:04:55.000
<v Speaker 1>to like be fucking like broke and like dick around.

1:04:55.120 --> 1:04:56.720
<v Speaker 1>It's just you. But like, if you have a kid,

1:04:56.800 --> 1:05:01.520
<v Speaker 1>you want to kinda have savings and make sure that

1:05:01.600 --> 1:05:03.920
<v Speaker 1>the kids in a stable environment and stuff. So I

1:05:03.960 --> 1:05:06.440
<v Speaker 1>don't know if this is a good idea. I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>saying that. Also, like what I have to be honest,

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<v Speaker 1>at least a lot of this stuff doesn't make sense

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<v Speaker 1>to me, right, Like okay, you wanna okay, A lot

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<v Speaker 1>of this stuff doesn't make sense to me. For a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of reasons. I mean whatever, you already started building

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<v Speaker 1>the bus, so none of this matters. But these are

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<v Speaker 1>just my thoughts. If you have never left your hometown,

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<v Speaker 1>you can do it for less than sixty thousand dollars, right,

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<v Speaker 1>like go on a vacation, rent a bus, move to

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<v Speaker 1>a different city. But like, I don't know, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know about spending all sixty grand on the bus. I

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<v Speaker 1>mean maybe this, right, Let's say your kid is like

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<v Speaker 1>fuck it, all right, all right, how about this. Here's

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm thinking. How about this. Your kid is like,

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<v Speaker 1>if he's less than one years old, when does he

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<v Speaker 1>start like kindergarten? How holds it? Holds a kid? And

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<v Speaker 1>when he starts?

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<v Speaker 3>Hold?

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<v Speaker 1>When do kids start kindergarten?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay?

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<v Speaker 1>Five?

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<v Speaker 3>All right?

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<v Speaker 1>Take the kid to fuck around the country for five years,

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<v Speaker 1>but then when it's time for kindergarten, like he's got

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<v Speaker 1>to be in a real place, you know, and also

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<v Speaker 1>make sure that you can feed the kid, like I

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<v Speaker 1>don't I I'm all for I'm for full sending it

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<v Speaker 1>on certain things, but that's a lot of money to

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<v Speaker 1>throw into this bus. I just hope you thought about

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<v Speaker 1>I just hope you thought about the decision before you

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<v Speaker 1>did it. You know, I want to clarify, I'm four

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<v Speaker 1>taking leaps and getting out there, but I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not. I'm not automatic. I'm automatically for taking a

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<v Speaker 1>leap and getting out there that doesn't cost sixty thousand dollars.

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<v Speaker 1>We are very nervous about the insecurity and potential danger

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<v Speaker 1>that is out there in the great unknown. Yeah. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know. I don't know if this is the best

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<v Speaker 1>financial decision or best family decision, but it could be.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I mean whatever, you have the bus, so

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<v Speaker 1>you already did it, so you're doing it. I hope

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<v Speaker 1>it works out. I mean, you can always sell the

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<v Speaker 1>bus if it doesn't work out. Yeah, whatever, you can

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<v Speaker 1>sell the bus if it doesn't work out. Sorry, this

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<v Speaker 1>is probably not the response to this email that you wanted,

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<v Speaker 1>but this is these are my gut feelings about this decision. Whatever,

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<v Speaker 1>It'll probably work out. You guys, listen. If anything, a

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<v Speaker 1>great Instagram page is going to come out of this,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's what really matters. At the end of the day,

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<v Speaker 1>We're gonna get a great Instagram page of you and

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<v Speaker 1>your husband and your kid, and like a bunch of

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<v Speaker 1>you can you can put sponsored links to like fairy

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<v Speaker 1>lights and stuff. That's all that matters. Good luck, Alicia.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me know how it goes. Message me again in

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<v Speaker 1>five years and let me know if it worked out.

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<v Speaker 1>I am curious. Okay, this is from I feel so bad.

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<v Speaker 1>I know. I know that woman's gonna read this or

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<v Speaker 1>listen to this, and this won't. It's not the response

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<v Speaker 1>she wanted, but those were my gut feelings. Okay, this

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<v Speaker 1>is from Sam. We'll read one more thoughts After my

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<v Speaker 1>first big solo trip. Hey, Gek, you can call me Sam.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a twenty two year old college student who just

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<v Speaker 1>solo backpacked around southern Spain. Before the trip, I was

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<v Speaker 1>nervous to go. It felt like a big experiment. This

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<v Speaker 1>was not my first time abroad, but the whole idea

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<v Speaker 1>of being alone for two weeks gave my fears of

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<v Speaker 1>feeling lonely, and Isola gave me fears of feeling lonely

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<v Speaker 1>and isolated. But I was wrong. I quickly learned that

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<v Speaker 1>solo traveling in hostiles is the easiest way to be

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<v Speaker 1>introduced to new waves of interesting people. It's so easy

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<v Speaker 1>to start up a conversation and learn about a fellow traveler.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm writing this email to convince anyone in the audience

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<v Speaker 1>to try solo traveling in hostels. I like to think

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<v Speaker 1>listeners of Therapy Gecko are inherently interested in other people,

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<v Speaker 1>and I personally loved wandering around beautiful Spanish cities during

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<v Speaker 1>the day and hearing people's life experiences at night. That's

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<v Speaker 1>all I'll see everyone around the universe. Thank you, Sam. Okay, See,

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<v Speaker 1>this is an example of a full send that I

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<v Speaker 1>completely I'm on board with. Listen, you can stay in

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<v Speaker 1>a hostel for like you know, less than twenty bucks

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<v Speaker 1>in a lot of places in the world. I'm all

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<v Speaker 1>for a twenty dollars full send. I'm less for a

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<v Speaker 1>sixty thousand dollars full cent. But I like where Sam

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<v Speaker 1>is coming from on this. I think, yeah, well that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's how that's kind of how I first got in.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, my my whole thing of the Gecko is, like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, running around and connecting with people, and a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of that really first started for me when I

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<v Speaker 1>was about a little younger than Sam, doing solo backpacking

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<v Speaker 1>shit and staying in hostels and talking to people. So

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's a great way to way to connect

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<v Speaker 1>with other folks. You know, I'm totally on full sending

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<v Speaker 1>getting over fears of being lonely. And also you shouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>even be afraid of it, like like when you do

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<v Speaker 1>solo traveling, like being lonely is part of it. I

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<v Speaker 1>try not to do. Like when I was younger, I

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<v Speaker 1>really liked solo traveling. I'm kind of I'm a little

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<v Speaker 1>over it now, but I'm happy I had those experiences

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<v Speaker 1>because they made me. I feel like they had a

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<v Speaker 1>good impact on my life. They're definitely part of what

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<v Speaker 1>made me like interested in like exploring the world and

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<v Speaker 1>connecting with people and stuff. So I'm with you, Sam,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad that you had had a good experience doing that.

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<v Speaker 1>I highly recommend if you have the means to to

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<v Speaker 1>do a little solo hostile travel. Okay, should we do

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<v Speaker 1>one more? Should we do one more? Okay? This is

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<v Speaker 1>from subject line finding Connection in the Mundane. Hey, Lyle,

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<v Speaker 1>I got tickets for your show in Vancouver and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>excited to see it. If you read this on the pod,

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<v Speaker 1>please call me Jamie. Oh fuck yeah, thanks for coming

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<v Speaker 1>to the show in Vancouver. I'm excited for that. That'll

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<v Speaker 1>be in what June, I think that'll be sick.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Lately, I've been on a mental health kick. Finally, at

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<v Speaker 1>twenty six years old, I'm a accepting that maybe I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't have a great childhood and certain events have had

1:12:03.960 --> 1:12:07.120
<v Speaker 1>a larger impact on me than I originally thought. Between

1:12:07.160 --> 1:12:09.800
<v Speaker 1>my therapist and your podcast, I'm glad to learn I

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<v Speaker 1>am not alone in my struggles and things will improve

1:12:12.560 --> 1:12:15.240
<v Speaker 1>with time and effort. Fuck you. Loneliness seems to be

1:12:15.240 --> 1:12:17.519
<v Speaker 1>a big problem for a lot of people, myself included.

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<v Speaker 1>Connecting with other real humans can be hard sometimes, but

1:12:21.160 --> 1:12:23.360
<v Speaker 1>you can find little bits of human connection in the

1:12:23.439 --> 1:12:25.600
<v Speaker 1>day to day if you keep your head up. You

1:12:25.640 --> 1:12:28.559
<v Speaker 1>don't even need to speak to have a connection. I

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<v Speaker 1>have an example from earlier today. I planned to spend

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<v Speaker 1>most of today inside my apartment cleaning alone. I was

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<v Speaker 1>feeling sad thinking about being alone all day while walking

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<v Speaker 1>down the eleventh floors the eleventh floors of my apartment

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<v Speaker 1>on my way to throw out some trash. When I

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<v Speaker 1>got to the ground floor, I saw another guy also

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<v Speaker 1>holding a bag of trash. We were both wearing flip

1:12:50.800 --> 1:12:54.599
<v Speaker 1>flops with no socks, cozy pants, jacket over a T shirt,

1:12:54.720 --> 1:12:57.200
<v Speaker 1>and a baseball cat. In this moment, I felt a

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<v Speaker 1>little less alone, and I smiled. Maybe later I'll take

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<v Speaker 1>a walk to the grocery store and talk to the

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<v Speaker 1>cashier about the weather. Get bless, Jamie, Thank you, Jamie.

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<v Speaker 1>I've I'm not going to go on to whatever. Maybe

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<v Speaker 1>I'll go on a rount. But you know, I used

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<v Speaker 1>to be really really lonely too. If you want to

1:13:18.640 --> 1:13:21.559
<v Speaker 1>if you want, there's I was so lonely that Vice

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<v Speaker 1>made a documentary about how lonely I was. If you

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<v Speaker 1>want to go it's if I was thinking about that

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<v Speaker 1>the other day. Yeah, if you want to go on

1:13:30.080 --> 1:13:33.080
<v Speaker 1>YouTube and search therapy, get go Vice. They made a

1:13:33.160 --> 1:13:35.320
<v Speaker 1>video about me, and it's just it's a lot of

1:13:35.320 --> 1:13:38.400
<v Speaker 1>it's just me talking about how lonely I am. That

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<v Speaker 1>was That was a few years ago, and things have

1:13:40.680 --> 1:13:44.720
<v Speaker 1>changed because I've gotten better at figuring out how to

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<v Speaker 1>like be part of a greater community. It's the I

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<v Speaker 1>don't shut up about it on here because I just

1:13:49.720 --> 1:13:53.400
<v Speaker 1>feel like it's it's a problem that a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>people have that I just feel like I've experienced and

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<v Speaker 1>like I have found an answer to, because like I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, you should you should try to find the

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<v Speaker 1>connection in like your day to day life. But you

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<v Speaker 1>should have you should have some kind of like rock

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<v Speaker 1>solid core foundation of community or like other people who

1:14:11.200 --> 1:14:14.080
<v Speaker 1>are like recurringly in your life. And there's a lot

1:14:14.120 --> 1:14:17.799
<v Speaker 1>of different ways to do that by you know, joining

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<v Speaker 1>some of the scenes or communities that exist wherever you are.

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<v Speaker 1>So I hope you're able to do that, Jamie, in

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<v Speaker 1>addition to making eye contact with the other people who

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<v Speaker 1>are throwing out the trash, I think that was a

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<v Speaker 1>decent gek mail. I hope. I hope it was. I

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<v Speaker 1>hope the person who's renting, who's buying that bus figures

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<v Speaker 1>that out. I hope they're going to be Okay. Let

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<v Speaker 1>me know what you guys think about the bus and

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<v Speaker 1>the comments. Let me know about Just write stuff in

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<v Speaker 1>the comments. I'll read it. I want to know what

1:14:49.960 --> 1:14:51.519
<v Speaker 1>people think about the bus and the comments. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to know what people think about all the emails, all

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<v Speaker 1>the callers, all the everything. That's what the comments section

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<v Speaker 1>is for. That's it for the podcast, folks. Please go

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<v Speaker 1>to therapy geckotour dot com. I'm coming all over the place.

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<v Speaker 1>I would love to see you guys at these shows.

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<v Speaker 1>Go to Patreon dot com slash Lyle forever if you

1:15:10.960 --> 1:15:13.559
<v Speaker 1>want to get ad free episodes of the podcast and

1:15:13.560 --> 1:15:17.320
<v Speaker 1>get bonus episodes of the podcast. I'm still working on

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<v Speaker 1>my travel documentaries. I'm gonna keep making them all year.

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<v Speaker 1>I've been having some hiccups, I'm do. I'm like so

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<v Speaker 1>close to having a well oiled system of getting everything

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<v Speaker 1>out there. But my Ukraine video hopefully will be out

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<v Speaker 1>by the end of the month, and then I'm working

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<v Speaker 1>on some videos here in Japan. I'm thinking about going

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<v Speaker 1>to some Maali land. Does anyone know anything about Somali Land?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't really want to go to Somalia small like

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of the point of these video, not like

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<v Speaker 1>the point of all the videos, but like with the

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<v Speaker 1>Iraq thing, it was like going to a place and

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<v Speaker 1>being like, hey, there's like cool stuff here. With Somalia,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like it would be No, this place is

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<v Speaker 1>adequately as danger as people say it would be. But

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<v Speaker 1>Somali Land, I heard, is like a different kind of place.

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<v Speaker 1>So I don't know. If anyone knows anything about Somali Land,

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<v Speaker 1>let me know. That's That's how I'm gonna end this podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh okay, thank you, guys, get bless see you next time.

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<v Speaker 3>Goes on the line, taking your phone calls every night,

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<v Speaker 3>goes to his ride.

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<v Speaker 1>He's teaching you Cloud.

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<v Speaker 3>In the Memorial Life, Money's not really an expert.