Speaker 1: Young Gravy's baby. What's been the most persistent thought on
Speaker 1: your mind lately?
Speaker 2: It's persistent thought on my mind lately. Oh goodness, man,
Speaker 2: try to think man, Addison's Ray, Addison Rai's mom has
Speaker 2: been on my mind a lot lately.
Speaker 3: I think, man, the uh.
Speaker 2: I was in in Britain for a while and the
Speaker 2: fact that they eat tomatoes and beans for breakfast every
Speaker 2: day has been on my mind for a while.
Speaker 1: You said, Addison Ray's mom has been Madison Ra's mom
Speaker 1: has been a while.
Speaker 4: You have?
Speaker 1: You been talking to Sherry, all right? So I wanted
Speaker 1: to ask you. This is the this is the thing
Speaker 1: I'm really dying to talk to you about, is like,
Speaker 1: how much of the mom thing is a character versus like,
Speaker 1: in real life you are having sex with a lot
Speaker 1: of older women.
Speaker 3: So so the mom.
Speaker 2: Thing, Yeah, I would say it began in high school
Speaker 2: from one experience I had with a professional that I
Speaker 2: was associated with, and it was cool, and then I
Speaker 2: just thought it was a good, like unique thing to
Speaker 2: kind of I mean this years later, when I decided
Speaker 2: to be a rapper, I was like, oh, it's a
Speaker 2: unique thing to kind of add into my my repertoire
Speaker 2: of sauce and then it kind of manifests itself into
Speaker 2: reality and my dams are filled with milks.
Speaker 3: So so now I do fuck moms?
Speaker 2: Okay, I mean I had probably before I was a rapper,
Speaker 2: probably I had about three mom experiences which were great?
Speaker 3: Great?
Speaker 1: How many would if you're comfortable saying mom experiences? Do
Speaker 1: you think you've had.
Speaker 3: Not a crazy amount. I'm I'm not out here. I'm
Speaker 3: not out here fucking throwing.
Speaker 2: It like, because I was.
Speaker 1: I was listening to a lot of music before you
Speaker 1: came here, and I was listening to Gasanova and I
Speaker 1: was like, this guy loves sex.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean it's it's okay.
Speaker 1: Do you love sex as much as people? Is it
Speaker 1: that big of a part of your life? From listening
Speaker 1: to that, I'm like, this guy, this is.
Speaker 3: It depends on the season.
Speaker 2: If it's tour season versus real life not tour season,
Speaker 2: it's different. But but no, you know, I'm not I'm like,
Speaker 2: I'm a horny guy. You know, it's your classic horny dude. Man,
Speaker 2: I'm not like a tweaker. But uh, I actually don't.
Speaker 2: I don't drink.
Speaker 1: Off, you don't jerk off.
Speaker 2: I don't drink off well as of as of twenty
Speaker 2: twenty two, I don't drink off.
Speaker 1: Okay, so this year you have you have not jerked
Speaker 1: off once this year.
Speaker 3: I have drinked off once or maybe no once one
Speaker 3: time this year.
Speaker 1: What made you decide to stop jerking off?
Speaker 2: I just decided. I was like, man like, well, for
Speaker 2: anyone out there who knows what no no FAP is
Speaker 2: no FAP, I know, there's like a community that that
Speaker 2: goes by it. And I was like, you know, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna trrive this out. And I thought, you know what,
Speaker 2: I think that I'm gonna be better at everything else
Speaker 2: if I don't drink off. And I think I've wasted
Speaker 2: time doing this and I have a warped version of
Speaker 2: reality by drinking off to this fucking crazy ass activity
Speaker 2: on the internet. So I haven't drinked off this year
Speaker 2: other than one time when I really I you ever
Speaker 2: wake up and you just can't get rid of your
Speaker 2: the wood and it's like painful.
Speaker 1: Well, I've been having a problem where like if I
Speaker 1: you know, because I'm always like at home and if
Speaker 1: I can I will usually like if if well, if
Speaker 1: the like well, like if I'm like whatever. If I'm
Speaker 1: at the airport and I get a bonner, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I just gotta, you know, sit this one out. But
Speaker 1: if I'm just at my house, you know, editing something
Speaker 1: on my computer and I get a boner, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm taking care of this one.
Speaker 3: Get an erection, it's like time to yeah, you know yeah.
Speaker 1: And that takes a lot to just be like, no,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna ride it out. I'm gonna not. Every time
Speaker 1: I am beckoned by my penis, I do answer the call,
Speaker 1: which and I wish I didn't do that. I wish
Speaker 1: I had more, wish I was more in charge.
Speaker 2: I think I just wanted to test myself, you know,
Speaker 2: like like in the past, I've had problems with drinking
Speaker 2: and cigaretts and staff, and I was like, you know what,
Speaker 2: this is my next my next fucking boss that I'm
Speaker 2: going to tackle. You know what I'm saying. It was
Speaker 2: the next fucking boss level. And I was like, I'm
Speaker 2: not going to drink off this yere.
Speaker 1: Has it been difficult or you found yourself in.
Speaker 3: I mean it was like, I mean it was it
Speaker 3: wasn't that difficult.
Speaker 2: Because in January and February I was on tour, and
Speaker 2: I mean I'm still doing almost sex things, so so
Speaker 2: it was all good then. Since then, basically, if if
Speaker 2: you don't drink off for a week, you kind of
Speaker 2: just like start leveling up a little bit.
Speaker 1: You know, are you noticing? Because I've been on the
Speaker 1: no fab creddits and people are talking about like they'll
Speaker 1: their brain fog will clear and they'll like be able
Speaker 1: to fly and ship like that.
Speaker 2: The only really notice myself is like extra like just
Speaker 2: fucking energy and like testostery. Like like I was, I
Speaker 2: would just get down on the ground and do push ups,
Speaker 2: you know, kind of like a douchey way almost.
Speaker 3: I would just like fucking I want to I want to.
Speaker 1: Be All that energy has to go somewhere.
Speaker 2: I need to do something right now. So yeah, man,
Speaker 2: you want on my first jog one time?
Speaker 1: Yeah you wanted your first job?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Did you not just jerked off for like a
Speaker 3: week and a half.
Speaker 1: And I want a job that manifested itself as a job.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's what it manifested itself as matter of fucking
Speaker 2: little jog around the block.
Speaker 3: It was like a you know, mile, but it was counted.
Speaker 1: So these you said you had three Mom, experiences, and
Speaker 1: I'm sure you've had more since. Have you since met
Speaker 1: a person whose mom you slept with that did not know?
Speaker 1: Did you ever meet any of these people's kids? What
Speaker 1: was that?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 3: Yes, it's worse when they do know?
Speaker 1: What what what do they tell me about an experience
Speaker 1: where you met one?
Speaker 2: Okay, the worst, the worst experience, I mean not the worst,
Speaker 2: the best and worst. I mean there was there was
Speaker 2: a time where there was a really fine woman in
Speaker 2: the crowd at a concert and she had well, she
Speaker 2: had a shirt on that was literally it was like
Speaker 2: something about milk. And I was like, hey man, and
Speaker 2: I I had my boy go over my tour manager
Speaker 2: and go grabber information. And then what she decided to
Speaker 2: do was I was like, you know, it's cool, it's
Speaker 2: going to meet and greet in So she brought her
Speaker 2: kids to the tour bus, her kids.
Speaker 3: So I went to the tour bus.
Speaker 2: Her and her two children that are like only a
Speaker 2: few years younger than me, came to the tour bus.
Speaker 2: I met them, we took pictures, and then she got
Speaker 2: them an uber and said, I'm gonna stay here really
Speaker 2: fuck your favorite rapper and you'all go do your thing
Speaker 2: and I was like, I was like, man, that's really cool,
Speaker 2: but I feel really weird.
Speaker 1: But do you think were the kids big fans of you?
Speaker 3: Yeah? She didn't know of me before that.
Speaker 1: All right, So who's your favorite rapper?
Speaker 2: My favorite rapper would be it would have to be
Speaker 2: Young Thug or oh Man Young.
Speaker 3: I really like Young Dog Action Bronson Young.
Speaker 1: So if Young Thug had sex with your mom, I
Speaker 1: wouldn't all how would you feel about that?
Speaker 3: Yeah? You know what? See that?
Speaker 2: It always crosses my mind every time something like then,
Speaker 2: an event like that occurs, and for some reason, I
Speaker 2: think I would let Young Dogs slide. I think I'll
Speaker 2: look for my mom, but anyone else.
Speaker 1: No, you know, I think people are are very protective
Speaker 1: about this. They're like, like, it's an insult to be like,
Speaker 1: oh I fucked your mom, I fucked your sister or whatever.
Speaker 1: I'm like, listen, if you really love your mom, if
Speaker 1: you really love your mom, if you really love her,
Speaker 1: don't you want her to be happy? Don't you want
Speaker 1: her to have I mean this is don't you want
Speaker 1: your mom to have fulfill your sexual experiences people that
Speaker 1: she's attracted to.
Speaker 3: The climate is changing.
Speaker 2: There are people that will slide in with with their
Speaker 2: mom's numbers and photos and like resumes, and it's.
Speaker 3: Like it's people people. I don't know.
Speaker 2: I think I think it's I respect it, you know,
Speaker 2: it's like people want their parents be happy. Do you
Speaker 2: have a good relationship. Yeah, My mom's one of my
Speaker 2: best friends ever. She's the sweetest. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Has anyone ever tried to slide into into your mom's people?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 3: I think people will kind of. I really haven't.
Speaker 2: There's one time that some girl was like, oh, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna fuck on Gravy's mom.
Speaker 3: And then I was like, well, you know, I was like,
Speaker 3: you know what, fair enough.
Speaker 1: You can't, but no, you can't be like you can't
Speaker 1: be like that's a little that's your whole thing is
Speaker 1: to fun people exactly exactly.
Speaker 2: You can't.
Speaker 1: You'd be such a hypocrite if you were like, that's direspect.
Speaker 3: I couldn't be mad.
Speaker 2: But I just I just I was. And I was
Speaker 2: just like, I don't know what this one is because
Speaker 2: she was just like, I'm gonna fucking Graviy's mom blah
Speaker 2: blah blah blah blah blah. I was like, no, man,
Speaker 2: that's Cynthia, dude, she's the sweetest. Maybe we'll I'll check
Speaker 2: it around FaceTime later or so. I'm she's a sweetheart.
Speaker 2: I have half seblings.
Speaker 1: Okay, how do they feel about the.
Speaker 3: Uh there's one that I don't really talk to who's
Speaker 3: kind of weird.
Speaker 2: One's a professor at Drake University shott to my students
Speaker 2: out there. Uh, he's he's a real one. And then
Speaker 2: the other one is a she teaches dressage.
Speaker 1: I've heard that before.
Speaker 3: It's like it's like getting your horse to crip walk.
Speaker 2: Basically, it's like dancing with a horse tied, and she's
Speaker 2: she's like a champion at it. They're all in their
Speaker 2: like fifties because my dad was way older, and their kids,
Speaker 2: their kids are like my age. They come to my shows.
Speaker 1: That's awesome.
Speaker 2: It's a vibe.
Speaker 1: Dude, Hey, you want to take some phone calls?
Speaker 3: Yeah, let's let's get some folks on here.
Speaker 5: Man.
Speaker 3: I'm I'm curious.
Speaker 2: Hello, Oh my god, Hello, Hi Holly, how are you?
Speaker 6: I'm great? How are you guys?
Speaker 3: Really good? Were you born on Christmas?
Speaker 6: I wasn't a common question, though.
Speaker 3: You get that a lot, all right?
Speaker 1: That is that a thing that Holly.
Speaker 3: If you're born on Christmas. It's like a tradition, and
Speaker 3: name your kid Holly.
Speaker 1: Because because it's a Holliday.
Speaker 2: If you're just Holly is like the thing you hang
Speaker 2: on your when you deck the halls with.
Speaker 1: Bows of I thought that. I thought that was just
Speaker 1: a random word that didn't make any sense.
Speaker 3: Oh, yeah, it's like a plant Holly.
Speaker 2: Tell us about Holly. What what is Holly?
Speaker 6: The plant or the person?
Speaker 2: I mean both tell us about the origin and then
Speaker 2: tell us about you.
Speaker 6: Please, Okay, Well the plant is it's like an It's
Speaker 6: like a berry, I guess, like a Christmas type berry.
Speaker 6: I don't know anything about the plant, but it's related
Speaker 6: to yerba. Mate. If you guys like yearba, it's in
Speaker 6: the same.
Speaker 2: You saw me on that one.
Speaker 6: I am. So, I'm twenty three and right now I'm
Speaker 6: working two jobs. By day, I am the manager for
Speaker 6: a cleaning company and by night I am a cam girl.
Speaker 1: Wow, it says here that you're you're struggling managing people's
Speaker 1: comments towards you during some of your camera shows. What's
Speaker 1: going on with that?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 6: So basically I only started doing it to like supplement
Speaker 6: my income, and I really didn't have any idea of
Speaker 6: what it was going to be like, except that I
Speaker 6: was going to get paid to be naked, which is
Speaker 6: like pretty dope. So now I'm kind of I've gotten
Speaker 6: to the point I've been doing it for like five
Speaker 6: months now, and I'm kind of finding it hard to
Speaker 6: disguise how revolting it is. Like the things that people say,
Speaker 6: they're starting to get to me on like a little
Speaker 6: bit more of a personal level. So I'm kind of
Speaker 6: having trouble like separating the work from the people, you
Speaker 6: know what I.
Speaker 3: Mean, I've I've seen people.
Speaker 2: I mean, I've seen like I guess there's just I mean,
Speaker 2: we all know what in CEL.
Speaker 3: It's in involuntarily celis.
Speaker 2: There's there's a lot of people out there who who
Speaker 2: find saw us in the Internet and do this weird
Speaker 2: shit right well, I don't know, there's just a weird
Speaker 2: culture within them of like being pissed off about whatever
Speaker 2: it is, even though I don't know, they're they got
Speaker 2: fucking stacks the Mountain dew ready and they're they're gonna
Speaker 2: just I don't know. I've seen almost every time that
Speaker 2: people talk about me, and I see that it's that
Speaker 2: set of people, and you're in a space where there's
Speaker 2: a lot of those folks, and like the internet lurkers
Speaker 2: are gonna be in there. I guarantee the majority of
Speaker 2: them are just real ones that are in there. But
Speaker 2: then the ones that have the audacity to go in
Speaker 2: and comment and have like the you know, the little
Speaker 2: weirdos are the ones that you're gonna see. But like,
Speaker 2: how about the majority of those folks are not not
Speaker 2: in cells.
Speaker 1: Is there a particular like thing that you're sensitive about
Speaker 1: that people comment on negatively or is it just sort
Speaker 1: of a medley of disgusting things.
Speaker 6: It is mostly a medley, although a lot of people have,
Speaker 6: like I don't know, I do a thing where it's
Speaker 6: like you can tip me like fifty tokens or whatever
Speaker 6: for a song request, and I get the cringiest fucking
Speaker 6: song requests, Like it's like Breaking Benjamin, like early y
Speaker 6: two k all that shitty stuff like Creed and all that.
Speaker 6: Sorry if anybody likes Creed, But it's like they only
Speaker 6: pick bad songs. So I'm thinking, yeah, I'm gonna have
Speaker 6: to take that off of the menu.
Speaker 2: I think, oh, that's that's interesting, because then that might
Speaker 2: kind of imply that you're the fan bases of you know.
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm sure there's every every genre of human
Speaker 2: in there, but like there are some weird older dudes.
Speaker 2: I mean, I guess if someone likes cre they're probably
Speaker 2: a little bit older than me. I'm twenty six. I'm
Speaker 2: kind of like an old fucker, But like thirty something
Speaker 2: year olds are out here being weird and horny too,
Speaker 2: and like, I don't know, everyone has some weird, pent
Speaker 2: up douchiness in them and that's their place to release it,
Speaker 2: you know. So like you kind of picked a spot
Speaker 2: to make to make money where like you're gonna have
Speaker 2: to deal.
Speaker 3: With the shitty customers and not that you not that
Speaker 3: I don't know, not that you shouldn't expect.
Speaker 2: I mean, everyone that's in that space is going to
Speaker 2: have some show that coming in. And there's some black
Speaker 2: ass people, but like it's not like you're any different
Speaker 2: than the rest of the Like they're hating on you
Speaker 2: because they want to hate on something is.
Speaker 1: Throughout your your life. Like, even before you sort of
Speaker 1: put yourself out there on the internet, did you consider
Speaker 1: yourself a sensitive person.
Speaker 6: Yeah, somewhat. I guess I'm kind of sensitive, not normally
Speaker 6: about what people say, though, it's like how you treat me.
Speaker 6: So I guess it's just the general lack of respect
Speaker 6: towards cam models or whatever you want to call them.
Speaker 2: That's the thing.
Speaker 1: Is like when you put yourself and you know, you know,
Speaker 1: like if you need yourself out there on the internet,
Speaker 1: you you no matter what you subject yourself to, the
Speaker 1: inevitability that people will have some shit to say.
Speaker 2: It's like any possible place that can be accessed by
Speaker 2: human being on the Internet, there's going to be that
Speaker 2: one fucking person. Yeah, you know, and sometimes it's that
Speaker 2: twelve people, or it's that fucking hundred people.
Speaker 3: And where you're at.
Speaker 1: Have you thought about, like, I mean, I guess with
Speaker 1: a cam girl, you have to read the chat? Is
Speaker 1: that correct? Do they do they have moderators in the
Speaker 1: chat somewhere or how they do it on Twitch?
Speaker 6: No, it's like self appointed moderators.
Speaker 4: So like if I really like a user.
Speaker 6: I can ask them, like, hey, do you want they
Speaker 6: call it nights like Night in Shining Armor or whatever.
Speaker 6: But all of my nights have since left the website,
Speaker 6: so it's kind of just me managing all of that by.
Speaker 1: My new nights.
Speaker 3: Can we get her? Can we get her a new night.
Speaker 1: Yeah. You look, if you want, man, you can you can.
Speaker 1: You can self promote and here someone from this twitch
Speaker 1: chat could jump over become a night.
Speaker 2: Let's get this girl.
Speaker 1: And I don't know if you want to blow yourself
Speaker 1: up like that, but yeah.
Speaker 2: I would love to get you a new night. So
Speaker 2: maybe multiple nights.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean, I'll put my user on the website
Speaker 6: in the chat. If somebody wants to like send me
Speaker 6: an anonymous tip, that would be cool too. I'm cool
Speaker 6: with that.
Speaker 1: Okay, you know this might be I I know this
Speaker 1: is maybe this is an unpopular way to look at things.
Speaker 1: But I think the sooner you you you maybe accept
Speaker 1: like just the inevitability that negativity exists out there and
Speaker 1: that you will be confronted with it. I feel like
Speaker 1: the easier it'll just slide off your back. I don't
Speaker 1: know if if you you feel that way.
Speaker 2: And no matter what, I agree with that, no matter what,
Speaker 2: every time I see a negative comment about myself, I
Speaker 2: feel a little bit bombed, a little some type of way.
Speaker 3: But I've gotten better.
Speaker 2: I just realize that, like you know, these people are
Speaker 2: fucking salty about something else that's going on.
Speaker 3: Or jealousy or whatever it is.
Speaker 2: And I don't know, man like like like if someone
Speaker 2: has the time to go on the internet and go
Speaker 2: comment some shit like that, like you're already balling on them.
Speaker 1: Literally their head to rent free as.
Speaker 3: They say, yeah, rent free, precisely, And this.
Speaker 1: Is like an opportunity I would I would say this.
Speaker 1: I think it's an opportunity for you in a in
Speaker 1: a sense to build a thicker skin. I know that
Speaker 1: you're sort of new to doing this and also you know,
Speaker 1: for you to decide if you want to continue going.
Speaker 1: But if if you continue the path and you don't
Speaker 1: let these people get you down, I think that you'll
Speaker 1: come out on the other side of it with a
Speaker 1: deeper sense of self confidence that doesn't come from uh,
Speaker 1: you know, needing validation from people on the internet either way.
Speaker 1: But just like, I know who I am and I'm
Speaker 1: not going to let these people on the internet try
Speaker 1: to convince me otherwise.
Speaker 2: You seem like a bad bitch.
Speaker 6: True, I agree, Well, thank you.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 6: I guess part of it is that that is entirely
Speaker 6: opposite from my daytime persona like who I portray myself
Speaker 6: as on the internet has to kind of be like a,
Speaker 6: I don't know, it has to be very sexual and like,
Speaker 6: I don't know, I don't feel like that type of
Speaker 6: person at Also maybe that's also an issue.
Speaker 1: Well can I'll say that, I mean with with being
Speaker 1: a cam girl, being an internet personality, can you be
Speaker 1: I mean like in rap like don't you want to
Speaker 1: be yourself or like a version of yourself? Like in camming?
Speaker 1: People are coming. You know they're coming for sexual reason,
Speaker 1: but they're also like are coming for you as a personality.
Speaker 1: So I think that you should feel okay with being
Speaker 1: who you are and marketing that as a thing that
Speaker 1: people want to have open on their computer screens.
Speaker 2: Well are we doing? Are we talking twitch like hot
Speaker 2: twitch stuff or like like is this like because I
Speaker 2: feel like there are like like only fans. You're not
Speaker 2: You're not throwing off your personality that much.
Speaker 3: Right, No?
Speaker 1: I just I think a little bit like are they well,
Speaker 1: like on I feel like the girls who are like
Speaker 1: really they like pop off on on sites like that
Speaker 1: are like it's not just you know, shoving off you know, sexually,
Speaker 1: it's like also like you're a personality.
Speaker 2: Unique and like and having some type of brand to you,
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 3: Right that is true. That is true. I think of like.
Speaker 2: Who do what's her name? The girl with the bathwater.
Speaker 2: You know she's popping because.
Speaker 1: Yeah, she's popping because she's got a whole like whole thing,
Speaker 1: whole thing. She's got a good brand. So Holly, I
Speaker 1: would say, as you're building your brand, uh, for what
Speaker 1: you want to do and how you want to present
Speaker 1: yourself on the internet, you should try to feel free
Speaker 1: to make it as authentic as you can.
Speaker 2: I think being yourself completely, no matter whether you think
Speaker 2: it's sexy or not, because it probably is, fucking be
Speaker 2: yourself because there are so many people out there that
Speaker 2: are down for trying to get into something new, and
Speaker 2: you're unique in your own way.
Speaker 3: People need that. You know what I'm saying, You're the
Speaker 3: next wave, the next mat.
Speaker 1: Bitch, anything else you want to say to the people
Speaker 1: of the computer Before we go.
Speaker 6: You both look very dashing today and welcome to Chili.
Speaker 6: Still flaps. So thank you guys so much for.
Speaker 2: Hi.
Speaker 1: Thank you take cam out. You ever thought about starting
Speaker 1: an OnlyFans?
Speaker 3: I get the question all the time.
Speaker 2: Uh No, I don't know. I just my mom wasn't
Speaker 2: being won't be hyped about it and I don't know, man,
Speaker 2: I just it's not not necessary. I'd rather have less
Speaker 2: money and I have my Johnson all over the internet.
Speaker 1: If you had a partner who was like, I want
Speaker 1: to do only fans and I want to have sex
Speaker 1: and the only fans, and I want you to have
Speaker 1: sex with me and posted on the internet.
Speaker 2: Would you?
Speaker 3: Would you?
Speaker 2: Is that something you'd be I've been there, haven't before
Speaker 2: that before. But I already had a tattoo on my hand.
Speaker 1: Oh so you're identifiable.
Speaker 2: So I was said no, Yeah, I said I couldn't.
Speaker 2: I was like, you know what, maybe, Yeah, there's been
Speaker 2: a few a few times, and I don't know. Only
Speaker 2: fans is cool. It's great that it gets people money,
Speaker 2: but it's not for me. Not for me.
Speaker 1: I would be down for that. Like if I wasn't identifiable,
Speaker 1: I don't think I would wear the gecko costume while
Speaker 1: I was doing it. I've thought about.
Speaker 9: Doing like that's I've thought about doing like like a
Speaker 9: gecko just like my belly and I would like painted
Speaker 9: green and ship and it's just close.
Speaker 2: Ups genius genius. Yeah, I don't know, man, only things
Speaker 2: is out. But I got a lot of respect for
Speaker 2: folks who are who are hustling on there, but it's
Speaker 2: not for me.
Speaker 1: See what else we got going on in here?
Speaker 2: Let's see what's going on.
Speaker 3: Ivan, Ivan, sub guys, some gang what guys.
Speaker 1: Cool being get gos, having a broad you know, And
Speaker 1: it says here that it's says say that you want
Speaker 1: to know our thoughts on virtual reality sex?
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 2: I don't know, man.
Speaker 5: I know people, Yeah, I just know people that I
Speaker 5: do it, and I just I just personally, I don't
Speaker 5: know how it works. And have you ever heard of
Speaker 5: like VR?
Speaker 2: Like the game I've I've played like A the only
Speaker 2: time I've ever done VR. It was like a it
Speaker 2: was this game. Maybe someone will comment it or something.
Speaker 2: It's like a game where you have a gun and
Speaker 2: then nothing happens if you're still, but when you move,
Speaker 2: everything moves.
Speaker 3: It was really fun.
Speaker 2: It was like it was the first day of COVID
Speaker 2: and I was on mushrooms and I played this game
Speaker 2: super Hot.
Speaker 3: It's golled super Hot.
Speaker 2: I had you have a gun and like things only
Speaker 2: move when you move, and that was one dude I had.
Speaker 2: I almost teared up. I was having so much fun.
Speaker 2: I think VR is really cool. But I don't think that.
Speaker 2: I don't think that I would really personally get into
Speaker 2: like VR sex. I think it's cool that that people
Speaker 2: are creating that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, Like I don't know, it's just like this is weird,
Speaker 5: Like it's not weird, but it's just like I just
Speaker 5: want to know like what people think or like what
Speaker 5: the process is, because you know how in real sex,
Speaker 5: like you know, you get the feeling, right, like you
Speaker 5: get the feel, you get the emotion and stuff like that,
Speaker 5: and like, I don't know, I just really people don't
Speaker 5: would really get that like in VR sex.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 2: I wonder like what I feel like it's going to
Speaker 2: come to a point where they're gonna like, like do
Speaker 2: you think they're ever going to start selling like a
Speaker 2: VR video game with a flashlight or something. Oh totally,
Speaker 2: Like it's gonna come to a point where it's like
Speaker 2: here's your yeah, like your fucking accessory.
Speaker 1: I don't know, But can I hypothesize on what I
Speaker 1: think is really going on here? By the way, I
Speaker 1: think I even I really wants us to sign off
Speaker 1: on virtual reality sex because he really wants to try it,
Speaker 1: but he's wondering if it's weird.
Speaker 3: Or not do it.
Speaker 1: Man, I haven't go I haven't. You don't need you
Speaker 1: don't need us to tell you whether or not it's weird.
Speaker 1: Go and try it out for yourself.
Speaker 2: Man, right now, I meant about about thirty minutes, about
Speaker 2: an hour ago. If he offered me a VR headset
Speaker 2: and a fleshlight right now, I'd walk in that room
Speaker 2: and do it right now. Everybody got it.
Speaker 3: Try everything.
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're right, but.
Speaker 7: I just don't.
Speaker 5: I just don't know, man, because I feel like, say,
Speaker 5: like say, like I'm doing it right, you know how,
Speaker 5: Like they have like those motion captures, like those things
Speaker 5: for VR, where like you can move your hands and
Speaker 5: stuff like that, and you could like walk in a
Speaker 5: certain area, you know, but like feel like I do
Speaker 5: that right, and I do like a motion like I'm
Speaker 5: like I'm like sucking, like touching someone's booze or like
Speaker 5: I don't know, like say like it's like different ship
Speaker 5: like kind of like masturbation type type movements, and say
Speaker 5: someone walks in while I do it, you know, like
Speaker 5: it's gonna.
Speaker 3: Be kind of weird because that's definitely live.
Speaker 5: With my parents. Imagine like doing like a masturbation. Put
Speaker 5: the control and it's just like it's just like, what
Speaker 5: are you doing?
Speaker 2: Hey, bro? If you're if you're watching VR point, you
Speaker 2: better be actually jerking off. You ain't doing no masturbation most.
Speaker 1: Way, if you could have, even if you could afford
Speaker 1: a high tech masturbation device, you should definitely take that
Speaker 1: money to move out of your parents house first.
Speaker 2: I mean there there are Oh do you ivan?
Speaker 3: Howdy howdy? This man's balling out.
Speaker 5: I'm twenty two. I'm twenty two.
Speaker 2: All right, you're on the come up, Bro, we'll come up.
Speaker 1: I haven't. Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 3: I will, I haven't.
Speaker 2: I'll try it.
Speaker 5: All right, I'll DM you Young Gravy, I.
Speaker 2: Got damn me let me know when when you do it,
Speaker 2: all cop, I'll buy one, all right.
Speaker 5: I actually want to take one thing for young Gravy
Speaker 5: real quick before we end. Hey, man, my cousin's a
Speaker 5: huge fan of yours, bro. Like he he heard you before,
Speaker 5: like he came on your like before you come up
Speaker 5: right now, Like he's known you for a while, and
Speaker 5: I just want to see if, like if you give
Speaker 5: him a shout out real quick.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what's his name? Rudy shouts to my boy, Rudy.
Speaker 2: The boy shout for Rudy. Yeah, gang activity, dude, really
Speaker 2: good name. By the way, Thank you Ivan, I haven't
Speaker 2: don Rudy shout to take care.
Speaker 5: Of us good meaning you guys.
Speaker 3: But yeah, take care of Raby.
Speaker 1: Someone ever asked you to do a shout out and
Speaker 1: you said no?
Speaker 2: I mean a lot of times I'll just like to
Speaker 2: see it quickly, like scroll by a DM where it's like,
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 3: That's my brother's birthday.
Speaker 2: But I'm saying there's way too many of them. But no,
Speaker 2: if like like if it if it makes sense and
Speaker 2: it's someone who like I connected with, like I have
Speaker 2: in here, yeah no, I won't say no.
Speaker 1: Sometimes people ask me a shout out and well, because
Speaker 1: here's the thing, like we don't know Rudy, we don't
Speaker 1: know what we're endorsement.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah. Oh.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 2: One thing that I always refuse is like a frat
Speaker 2: or a sorority or a gang whenever.
Speaker 1: That when they like shout out a.
Speaker 2: Gang or shout out this frat or a sorority, always say
Speaker 2: no because I don't know what the fuck they're up to.
Speaker 1: Right, you know, you were you in a frat when
Speaker 1: you were in did you go to coach?
Speaker 2: I went to college and I was not in a frat.
Speaker 2: I went to University of Wisconsin, big party school. It
Speaker 2: was fun, but I wasn't in a frat. Actual had
Speaker 2: a why. I had a weird phase where I used
Speaker 2: to like, I want to fight frat kids, and I
Speaker 2: would like, when I was drunk, I would like try
Speaker 2: to piss them off and then then I would like
Speaker 2: fight them. That's kind of weird. I don't know.
Speaker 3: Got over that.
Speaker 2: I broke my hand one time fighting somebody, and I'm
Speaker 2: my new man, peaceful man.
Speaker 1: When's the last time you you fought someone?
Speaker 3: Last time?
Speaker 2: I thought somebody would be at least two years right
Speaker 2: before COVID in Atlanta. I think it was in Atlanta
Speaker 2: in Buckhead at a bar and this guy was being
Speaker 2: a dick and to a girl and I said, no.
Speaker 1: You were a knight.
Speaker 3: That was a knight. Ectly, that's a night.
Speaker 2: I r l uh.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm more peaceful man.
Speaker 2: Now.
Speaker 1: Do you ever miss the fighting?
Speaker 3: Not really? I think it was like a weird I
Speaker 3: don't know, it's a weird thing for me.
Speaker 2: I mean, like, I totally would fight somebody if if
Speaker 2: something called for it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like, but but I haven't a while.
Speaker 2: Someone's being racist to a good friend of mine in Amsterdam,
Speaker 2: not not that long ago, and came pretty close and uh,
Speaker 2: everything worked out because we I don't know, we decided
Speaker 2: to be peaceful.
Speaker 3: But in the right circumstances.
Speaker 1: Yes, But are you trained? Do you do the moy tie,
Speaker 1: the the whatever, any of that ship?
Speaker 2: I don't have the I don't have any I don't
Speaker 2: have any professional training.
Speaker 3: I just have like the college, not even college.
Speaker 2: Just like the skater kid fucking throwing hands a few
Speaker 2: times tall person knows how to distance. You know, I'm not.
Speaker 10: Good at fighting enough that you got enough where it's
Speaker 10: good that you like don't actively seek fights, but that
Speaker 10: if a fight, you know you you you have that
Speaker 10: in your pocket in case if a situation comes up
Speaker 10: to call for it.
Speaker 2: And I do have like a friend or two who
Speaker 2: are like m M A fighters that don't look like it,
Speaker 2: and it's like it's wild because it's like.
Speaker 1: Pull it out. How does it feel being a gecko?
Speaker 2: Do you like being being a get go? We should
Speaker 2: go fight someone in oss.
Speaker 1: We should we should fight each other. We can do
Speaker 1: like a gecko fighting ring.
Speaker 2: Echo duel Man. I got an octopus costing on my crib.
Speaker 2: We can put someone in that and make it beat
Speaker 2: the show out of.
Speaker 1: Oct When I first started doing this podcast, and like
Speaker 1: I had start having, I did it for a year
Speaker 1: without having guests on. When I first started guests on,
Speaker 1: I was like, should everyone be a gecko or should
Speaker 1: everyone be a different animal? Like a different I did honestly,
Speaker 1: like you could be therapy octopus.
Speaker 2: Yeah, the octopus would fit all right, But I like
Speaker 2: the geck.
Speaker 3: I really like the get it feels right, so right?
Speaker 1: Get the shades off?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I took them off. I thought I thought i'd
Speaker 3: switch it up a little bit.
Speaker 1: You don't like that, I was, well, I was saying earlier,
Speaker 1: the same having I've had guests have shades on before,
Speaker 1: and it does affect the power dynamic of the stream
Speaker 1: a little bit, because I don't know, I don't know
Speaker 1: if you're I'm.
Speaker 3: Looking right at you or how I'm feeling. All right,
Speaker 3: all right, shades off.
Speaker 1: I can read you better, and I don't know if
Speaker 1: I can actually read you better.
Speaker 3: Shades are off for the rest of the stream.
Speaker 1: Any have you gotten anything?
Speaker 3: Uh? Oh, we asked me that we had a good
Speaker 3: little combo. We talked about my tempt at being by.
Speaker 1: At one point you had an attempt at being by it.
Speaker 2: I was decided that I wanted to see if I
Speaker 2: could enjoy being with a dude and it didn't work out.
Speaker 1: Did that come from like a was was Did that
Speaker 1: come from an urge from the body or from the mind.
Speaker 1: Were you like just like maybe I should do this
Speaker 1: or were you like seeing guys and feeling no?
Speaker 2: It was like I have a lot of I have
Speaker 2: I have a lot of friends that are by or
Speaker 2: I have like I've met people that are And I
Speaker 2: was like, you know what, like I don't know, like
Speaker 2: like like I've never really felt attract to do a dude,
Speaker 2: but like ship.
Speaker 3: Like what's up? And then.
Speaker 2: Basically, well I mentioned a story, but I went to
Speaker 2: a gay club here in LA It was a really
Speaker 2: good looking dude that was coming at me. I didn't
Speaker 2: go there with this intention, but I was there with
Speaker 2: with with this girl and then there's a dude coming
Speaker 2: at me, and I was like, you know what, like
Speaker 2: all right, I'm gonna give a dude a kiss, like
Speaker 2: more than just like a kiss. The Homi good night.
Speaker 2: You know I'm saying you like for like a second
Speaker 2: and like two seconds, probably I at least a little tongue,
Speaker 2: and I was, you know.
Speaker 1: What, Okay, Well you gave you gave it a really honest,
Speaker 1: open mind attempt.
Speaker 2: And I was like, you know what, maybe because you know,
Speaker 2: I have family members that are that are gay or
Speaker 2: by and and I thought, I don't know if it's
Speaker 2: I don't know if it's genetic.
Speaker 3: But I was like, you know, let's see what's up.
Speaker 3: But but I I'm straight straight.
Speaker 1: It's good that you tried and that you know, because
Speaker 1: a lot of people there are people who wouldn't won't
Speaker 1: even try. And there are some people who won't try
Speaker 1: and they're not gay, but there are some people who
Speaker 1: they won't try, and secretly they if they did try,
Speaker 1: they'd be like, ah, this is I have.
Speaker 2: I have a friend, well, I guess a family member
Speaker 2: who who got to like the age fifty.
Speaker 3: Something and then tried that.
Speaker 2: Really and now full on like that fifty something I've
Speaker 2: heard on twitched up.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've heard stories of people who like later in
Speaker 1: their life will realize that they're gay and then have.
Speaker 2: You ever seen the movie of American Beauty. If anyone
Speaker 2: has American Beauty, it's a really good movie. But uh,
Speaker 2: there's like this dude in the movie who converts that
Speaker 2: an old age and have a very similar situation. And
Speaker 2: I know, I wonder if maybe.
Speaker 1: Later you know, because you tried it, you know, like I,
Speaker 1: But I wonder if maybe later in life, if you
Speaker 1: tried it again, you'd be like, Oh, there's maybe there's
Speaker 1: something here, maybe the body.
Speaker 2: I don't know what it's a good question.
Speaker 1: I don't know, like, if is there, how does that work?
Speaker 1: I don't think there's something in your brain chemistry that
Speaker 1: makes you attracted to a certain thing.
Speaker 2: I don't think anyone knows, because people will say that
Speaker 2: it's like from birth or it's from whenever, and I
Speaker 2: have I've had friends that that were totally straight until
Speaker 2: a certain age and then went by or gay at
Speaker 2: a certain age. So I think I think there's just
Speaker 2: an unexplainable sort of thing that that that runs that.
Speaker 2: I have one friend who has the hottest girlfriend that
Speaker 2: I one of the hot gruverons.
Speaker 3: I know, yeah, and he is at the.
Speaker 2: Same time by and and like he figured that out
Speaker 2: after he was dating her, and she lets him go
Speaker 2: do the dudes.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's the cool girlfriends.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: So there's like, I mean, the world seems to be
Speaker 2: pretty open.
Speaker 1: Are you. How do you feel about the open relationship.
Speaker 2: I I I guess I kind of am sort of
Speaker 2: currently in sort of an open relationship or too.
Speaker 3: And and I.
Speaker 2: The times that I've had like a what i'd call
Speaker 2: a girlfriend go out in public, hold hands.
Speaker 3: That type activity.
Speaker 2: No, but but like open relationship, if it's very agreed
Speaker 2: upon on both sides, I think that it's cool. I
Speaker 2: think it's that's all good. Are you?
Speaker 1: Are you a jealous type? It all not really okay good?
Speaker 3: Not really? Yeah, really jealous.
Speaker 2: I have been in the past in the past, but
Speaker 2: I've I don't know exactly why, but I kind of
Speaker 2: got over that. And I mean, a dude, I've had
Speaker 2: a girlfriend she cheated on me. I'm jealous as fuck. Yeah,
Speaker 2: for sure, this as fuck, but like yeah, like, but
Speaker 2: but if it's if it's agreed upon to be that way,
Speaker 2: then it's all good.
Speaker 1: It's like polyamory has gotten when we've talked about it
Speaker 1: on the show a bunch, and I feel like people are,
Speaker 1: you know, it gets a bad rap. People are like, oh,
Speaker 1: you're a simp or whatever the fuck. But it's it's
Speaker 1: like a thing where I think it is a sign
Speaker 1: of like true security because like if you're really secure
Speaker 1: in your relationship, like if you're you're so secure that
Speaker 1: you'll let your significant other have sex with other people
Speaker 1: because you know you're so secure in your relationship that
Speaker 1: you know it won't affect how you guys are.
Speaker 2: I think that's badass. I can, but I think it's cool.
Speaker 2: I think it's cool, and I I don't like the
Speaker 2: words simp. Dude, I don't like when the whole I
Speaker 2: don't know, like the whole thing a lot about like
Speaker 2: people getting mad that you're being super like if someone's
Speaker 2: being very respectful to a woman and like fucking hyping
Speaker 2: up a girl and then people are calling you saying
Speaker 2: this negative.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I've always had a problem with that word with simp,
Speaker 2: you know, I mean, I don't know exactly where it
Speaker 2: came from. Simpimp simple thing? What what? What?
Speaker 1: What's it stands for? Stands for sucker, like sucker.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know. It's like dude, like, yeah, there's
Speaker 2: gonna be people that are out there like being thirsty,
Speaker 2: but it's like if you're talking to if you're happing
Speaker 2: a girl up, And like a lot of times when
Speaker 2: I see people dropping simp, it's like someone just being
Speaker 2: mad nice to a girl and like showing love. So
Speaker 2: I don't know, that's never been a fan of that.
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm trying to really reconcile with the
Speaker 1: fact that a lot of the people tick on the
Speaker 1: internet are like just thirteen and they don't really know
Speaker 1: what they're talking about, so they haven't developed enough to
Speaker 1: have like mature thoughts on these kinds of things.
Speaker 2: So I do believe that that SIMP is very common
Speaker 2: among in cells people who don't get pussy say the
Speaker 2: word simp.
Speaker 3: That's one thing that I do believe.
Speaker 2: And you know, like I get why you could use
Speaker 2: that in another situation, but like if you have I mean,
Speaker 2: sometimes you'd like to have game and to just like
Speaker 2: be a normal human being and hang out with women.
Speaker 2: You gotta be respectful, and people don't understand that that's
Speaker 2: fucking life. I don't know.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's an interesting thing that the internet has created.
Speaker 1: Hey, I got to run this by you. H Page
Speaker 1: from Minneapolis wants to discuss the recent vabbing trend. Do
Speaker 1: you have any idea what that is?
Speaker 3: Let's just get her in here and tell us about it.
Speaker 3: Let's go vabababing.
Speaker 2: Is she mean to say vaping or don't? I don't know,
Speaker 2: that's my best guess.
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hi, Hi Page.
Speaker 11: Yeah, Hi, what's.
Speaker 1: Up with you?
Speaker 11: Pages was scrolling and oh sorry, go ahead.
Speaker 4: Uh.
Speaker 1: Page says here that you want to discuss with us
Speaker 1: the recent trend of vabbing on TikTok And we're both
Speaker 1: very curious what that is.
Speaker 2: What is that?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 11: Yeah, sure do so. TikTok has told me, and my
Speaker 11: brief research has told me that, Uh, it's basically when
Speaker 11: you take your vaginal secretians and you put them on
Speaker 11: your neck, and it's supposed to be like a natural
Speaker 11: perfume or pheromone that like attracts dudes like crazy babbing.
Speaker 11: So that's babbing.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it sounded pretty I don't know. Right when you started,
Speaker 2: I was like, damn, this is gonna be a whack.
Speaker 2: But but you know, like in the last in the
Speaker 2: least weird way, like I kind of understand.
Speaker 1: M yeah, I kind of yeah, I kind of get it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, Like I would never do that with my
Speaker 3: ball sweat.
Speaker 2: I don't think we'd ever really do that, but I
Speaker 2: feel like in a girl situation, yeah, I feel like
Speaker 2: balls very balls aren't really you know, we don't we don't.
Speaker 2: I think our pheromones are elsewhere. We don't really secrete
Speaker 2: good vibes from the same.
Speaker 11: I don't know. I wouldn't say balls smell bad, though,
Speaker 11: like I could get down with like a little ball
Speaker 11: smell sometimes it could.
Speaker 3: Be all right.
Speaker 2: I mean, hey, for all the boys in the chat,
Speaker 2: it's just I don't know if this is a pro
Speaker 2: tip or like a weird fact, but like, if you're
Speaker 2: about to get with a girl that's really.
Speaker 3: Bad, what I do.
Speaker 2: I'll take my my my deodorant stick and you know,
Speaker 2: do a little skirt shirt.
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: I feel like I feel like every guy does that secretly,
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying. You know, do a little
Speaker 2: stroke up the side. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 3: Get get your shiit smelling right, as if you always smell.
Speaker 11: Good or just like underside ball.
Speaker 2: No, because she's gonna taste the fucking deodorant stick. I'm
Speaker 2: not about to rub my Johnny down with with some
Speaker 2: do o that's like, yeah, you know the vibes like
Speaker 2: like you know, the nutrition isn't isn't isn't checking out there.
Speaker 1: But page I have to ask, have you yourself participated
Speaker 1: in the vabbing trends?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 11: I have not, And this is not me like that.
Speaker 11: This is not me like that last guy like looking
Speaker 11: for approval to like give it a shot. I really
Speaker 11: I don't really have an interest in it. But I
Speaker 11: I've seen a lot of girls say that it like
Speaker 11: tripled the amount of guys that like approached them and
Speaker 11: like fuck with them. So I think it's interesting for sure.
Speaker 11: It could be something to look into. I don't know.
Speaker 2: I mean I could see like the like subconscious horniness
Speaker 2: kind of growing when you encounter that. Yeah, but like
Speaker 2: but you got to get pretty close to somebody to
Speaker 2: smell a casual like VADs drop.
Speaker 3: It on their neck, you know, So like I don't know.
Speaker 2: I mean, it's not like it's not like you know,
Speaker 2: like your arm pits pheromones that like kind of go
Speaker 2: across the room. But like I don't I don't think
Speaker 2: that coucy scent is as it doesn't spread as far.
Speaker 2: But I like.
Speaker 11: To see my dad all the time, like what if,
Speaker 11: like what if he hugs me like while you're mid.
Speaker 3: Like you can you can you start over.
Speaker 12: With your parents?
Speaker 11: I was just saying, like, what if you're like vabbing,
Speaker 11: like you bab before an event and you like you're like, oh,
Speaker 11: should I have to go pick up some pick at
Speaker 11: my dad's house and then you like give him a
Speaker 11: hug like I don't know.
Speaker 1: I.
Speaker 3: Get it, I get it.
Speaker 1: I think if you're gonna spray juices from your vagina
Speaker 1: on your face, you need to really clear your schedule
Speaker 1: for the next twenty four.
Speaker 2: Hours, prepared for something.
Speaker 1: With what you're going to do for the rest of
Speaker 1: your day, it'll.
Speaker 2: Be prepared for something serious. Career man, next time, I
Speaker 2: all right, I'm with a woman. I'm gonna I'm gonna
Speaker 2: bab all right, I'm gonna for my whole day. You're
Speaker 2: gonna like, I'm gonna like, hey, babe, let me let
Speaker 2: me borrow a little alone real quick.
Speaker 3: Yeah, day ahead of me.
Speaker 1: How would that work if a guy was like like
Speaker 1: vabbed on his face with somebody else.
Speaker 2: How would you feel if I just like gave myself
Speaker 2: the coucie and like just pulled up and I was like,
Speaker 2: went to a meeting and I was like, Yeah, what's up.
Speaker 3: Everybody like that's good. I mean, I think people would
Speaker 3: pretty I think.
Speaker 11: I feel like it's a power.
Speaker 2: It would it would definitely be Alex. It would be
Speaker 2: a flex on the dudes in the room because dudes
Speaker 2: would realize like, oh, this dude smells like coucie blah
Speaker 2: blah blah. It's like the classic fucking testosterone flesh. But
Speaker 2: I don't think overall you'd really be winning as much
Speaker 2: as like I kind of get the vabbing hype that
Speaker 2: you're talking about.
Speaker 3: I kind of get because.
Speaker 2: It's like you're subconsciously getting aroused by the cooch pheromones,
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 1: But then do you you Okay, so your own I
Speaker 1: guess juice, You're like, okay, gravy your own CJ Like
Speaker 1: do you when you do you ever scratch your balls
Speaker 1: and smell it?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Everyone does? Have you okay? Uh?
Speaker 1: Page have you done that with your own.
Speaker 3: With your female boat?
Speaker 2: So it wouldn't be.
Speaker 3: I think everyone.
Speaker 11: I feel like you have to like know what's going
Speaker 11: on with yourself.
Speaker 2: I I wasn't gonna say it, but like, I think
Speaker 2: I think some boys have been there before. I I'm
Speaker 2: not even gonna. I'm gonna. I'm gonna leave with.
Speaker 3: The story and end with the with the climax.
Speaker 2: I one time made love did my thing, and then
Speaker 2: I and then we want to do it again, and yeah,
Speaker 2: eight of us woman, and I got.
Speaker 3: A whole smorgasbor a whole mouthful of my own seed.
Speaker 3: All right. So I so most.
Speaker 2: People are like, oh, I don't know what not take.
Speaker 2: It's like, I know it not tastes like because I
Speaker 2: fucking got a full face full of it, and I
Speaker 2: don't know. I think I can't. I don't approve. I mean,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna.
Speaker 3: I feel I have so much respect for the woman
Speaker 3: that that's.
Speaker 1: Wall because you feel like you couldn't swallow yourself.
Speaker 2: And I didn't. I didn't. I didn't. I had a
Speaker 2: bad moment. I was about to go to dinner with
Speaker 2: my family. It was it was rough.
Speaker 11: Yeah, it's hard to look family in the eyes after
Speaker 11: yeah yeah, yeah.
Speaker 2: So so I guess it doesn't directly relate to the
Speaker 2: Kuchi the Couci cologne, but I just felt like smelling
Speaker 2: your own kouchie versus like tasting your own nut. It's
Speaker 2: all kind of like a you know, circle of life,
Speaker 2: and I, uh, I feel you.
Speaker 3: I feel you well, Page.
Speaker 1: If you ever do try this, please let us know
Speaker 1: what the with the results.
Speaker 2: The results are, Fellas, don't rub your own nut on
Speaker 2: yourself as cologne.
Speaker 3: I don't think that will work as well.
Speaker 1: Someone's got to try it and just see what what happens.
Speaker 3: Like you know, I guarantee someone has.
Speaker 2: That would be.
Speaker 1: Quite the science start.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's too late, it's been done. Page.
Speaker 1: Is there anything you want to say to the people
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go?
Speaker 11: Shout out to Minneapolis? I'm from Minneapolis.
Speaker 2: Where are you shying? Where are you from?
Speaker 11: I grew up in but I live in Minneapolis.
Speaker 2: Okay, ship, I'm in uptown. See you out there.
Speaker 11: Thanks, Pete.
Speaker 3: Oh bye.
Speaker 1: You know that wasn't as like when I I actually
Speaker 1: had mentioned that chat. I'd mentioned that call to the
Speaker 1: chat while you were going to the bathroom, and everyone
Speaker 1: was repulsed by it, and I was. I was intrigued.
Speaker 1: But but once we got into it made it made sense.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I actually kind of get it. I like to
Speaker 3: like that one.
Speaker 7: That one.
Speaker 2: Yeah, sorry that I told everyone about my nut consumption story.
Speaker 3: But it happened, braby.
Speaker 1: I dude, you know, when you're in this life, you
Speaker 1: have no incentive to be anything other than who you are,
Speaker 1: to be completely honest, and if you have eaten a
Speaker 1: fistful of fasteful of your owncome, then you should wear
Speaker 1: that on your shoulder. You really should feel like you
Speaker 1: know you have no room for shame in your life.
Speaker 3: Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Speaker 2: That's had the biggest flex It would be that I
Speaker 2: can eat my own comm without worrying about it. So
Speaker 2: thank you.
Speaker 1: I think that is a big flex.
Speaker 2: About d A while, I'll do it. Yeah, I was.
Speaker 1: I saw that as I was doing my research on you.
Speaker 1: I saw something where you talked about DMT, and I
Speaker 1: was like, a lot of.
Speaker 2: People are liking, which is as they should because I
Speaker 2: think DMT is the coolest shit ever.
Speaker 1: Hey, is this is this raw?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 13: Yeah, dude, this is dope. I'm talking to the gek
Speaker 13: and the gravy.
Speaker 3: Yeah that you already know the Greg Man.
Speaker 1: We are here, Greg Young, Gregy Dopey.
Speaker 13: I saw you. I saw you when I was in
Speaker 13: high school. Man, when I was a sophomore at Santa
Speaker 13: Cruz at the.
Speaker 3: Cattle No wait, Santa Cruz. Was it was it when
Speaker 3: I was with Dirt Nasty?
Speaker 13: It was four years ago. It was four years ago
Speaker 13: because I'm a sophomore in college now and I saw
Speaker 13: you sophomore.
Speaker 2: I'm mad curious because there there's a very fucking notorious
Speaker 2: show of mine.
Speaker 3: Was it?
Speaker 2: Did I ever mention on stage? Like I don't know
Speaker 2: if we're inside or outside?
Speaker 13: Dude? You said you were on dance, you said you
Speaker 13: were on stands, and it handed you a joint because
Speaker 13: you know where we from, like San Cruise, we always
Speaker 13: try and pass to the stage right, and we got
Speaker 13: it to you. You take it, You take a hit,
Speaker 13: and then you stay to the audience. This ain't This
Speaker 13: ain't no fucking joint. This is a fucking what you
Speaker 13: call it jewel or some ship?
Speaker 3: Dude?
Speaker 2: Man, Okay, so you were that was it was a
Speaker 2: crazy Was the show?
Speaker 3: Okay? Was the show? Okay? Did you end a show?
Speaker 2: I loved it.
Speaker 13: I was like, I thought your ship was fucking hilarious.
Speaker 13: I had all my homies there from like my high
Speaker 13: school and ship. We were bawling out at your show.
Speaker 2: Man. Okay, all right, I'm glad I can finally address this.
Speaker 2: This is like a fucking notorious show in in my
Speaker 2: history because.
Speaker 1: Really, so yeah, yeah, all the beginning, I want to
Speaker 1: hear that.
Speaker 2: Okay, So, Santa Cruz, I think it was twenty nineteen.
Speaker 2: This was the first time that I got Truley's or
Speaker 2: Dirt Nasty, who are now like two of my best friends.
Speaker 2: And they both came to my show because they're both
Speaker 2: or Dirt Nasties from out there and Trothy's was just
Speaker 2: in the city and I basically at that show. We
Speaker 2: met up before the show, Santa Cruz, right, I think
Speaker 2: it was like a thousand people.
Speaker 3: I don't know it was.
Speaker 2: It was.
Speaker 3: It was a good vibe. But I met Dirt Nasty.
Speaker 2: For for people who don't know, he's this actor slash rapper.
Speaker 2: He made the song It's like my digs it late.
Speaker 1: Song and then but I'm gonna check it out now.
Speaker 3: He's in like all the scary movies. He's he's he's
Speaker 3: a legend.
Speaker 2: He used to be like the main the main like
Speaker 2: dude on on MTV that would interview people. Anyways, at
Speaker 2: this point, him and Turvileys are both like two of
Speaker 2: my best friends.
Speaker 3: That was the first day we ever met.
Speaker 2: And we got along way too well, and I ended
Speaker 2: it up doing fucking shrooms, ketamine d MT, and like
Speaker 2: I don't know what else, like just a just said
Speaker 2: a really stupid amount of drugs before the show.
Speaker 3: Before the show, I didn't ate.
Speaker 13: The stroom perfectly.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so now it makes a little bit more sense.
Speaker 2: So Dirt Nasty and I are these two dudes who,
Speaker 2: like I have loved him my whole life, and then
Speaker 2: he's like, yeah, this is the new version of me.
Speaker 2: I love him, and we just like meet up and
Speaker 2: just fucking bond way too hard and do a bunch
Speaker 2: of drugs because he was the opener, right, he did
Speaker 2: the opening set and we did all these drugs. He
Speaker 2: did his set, goes back into the greenroom, passes the
Speaker 2: fuck out, and then I have to go on stage
Speaker 2: and I'm on. I mean, everything else was like kind
Speaker 2: of hitting me, but it was the shrooms that really
Speaker 2: were like damn. So that was the only time I've
Speaker 2: ever performed on like hard drugs. And I go out
Speaker 2: there and it's it's just notorious. Among my whole tour,
Speaker 2: cru my, my, my DJ, and I to a manager,
Speaker 2: everyone is like, bro, there's a joke that goes around
Speaker 2: all them it's like, you know, are we inside or outside?
Speaker 2: Because apparently I kept asking the crowd are we inside
Speaker 2: or outside? Because I was seeing like stars in the sky.
Speaker 2: Yeah and yeah man, yeah, and apparently the show was
Speaker 2: still good. Yeah, it was still all right, dude.
Speaker 13: I mean you were the first show I ever want
Speaker 13: to like by myself. But I mean I met up
Speaker 13: with some homies like coincidentally there and then like it
Speaker 13: just it made my year. You fucking saying that the
Speaker 13: joint we passed you was a jewel was a joke
Speaker 13: at our school forever. But like that's the thing is,
Speaker 13: like we all thought your shit was so funny, and
Speaker 13: it just made it even better. They were fucked up because.
Speaker 1: We thought that you were at the time, like after
Speaker 1: you had gotten on store where you like like maybe
Speaker 1: like the next morning all the jugs were off, were
Speaker 1: you like self conscious about was?
Speaker 3: I was, like, damn, I was.
Speaker 2: I mean, like the whole time I was on stage
Speaker 2: that day, There's never been a time where I was
Speaker 2: like psychedelically hardcore tripping on stage other than that day.
Speaker 2: And you were there and you witnessed it, and that's
Speaker 2: probably why I thought your fucking joint was a jewel Man.
Speaker 2: I was like, that's the only time I've ever been
Speaker 2: like fully tripped out on stage.
Speaker 1: Do you feel better now that you have validation that
Speaker 1: it was an enjoyable show?
Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, yeah, yeah. You know what, at the time,
Speaker 2: people my crew all told me that it was still good,
Speaker 2: and they're like, we could tell you were fucked up,
Speaker 2: but they couldn't.
Speaker 3: And I was like, they could.
Speaker 2: Probably tell, but but uh I heard it was good.
Speaker 2: I mean, I know that I knew my words, I
Speaker 2: still remember the words, but that was I was lit.
Speaker 2: And I'm glad that out of like the one thousand
Speaker 2: people that were there, there's someone here that can fucking
Speaker 2: you know, had witnessed that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I will never out of I've done three hundred shows.
Speaker 2: I've done three hundred shows ish, maybe a little bit
Speaker 2: above or below, but that is the most quoted or
Speaker 2: most memorable show out of my whole It's a Santa
Speaker 2: Cruz twenty nineteen show.
Speaker 1: That's pretty wild.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I couldn't imagine. When I at my live shows, I'll
Speaker 1: bring people up and like chat with them. I don't
Speaker 1: have like a memorized set list or anything. And I
Speaker 1: feel if I did something like that on on cycle
Speaker 1: or even just being stoned or anything like that. I
Speaker 1: would fucking freak out, you know, because I don't even
Speaker 1: have anything to like scripts or any anything to cling to.
Speaker 2: I would say like, like, maybe like a third of
Speaker 2: my set usually is is kind of off the top
Speaker 2: and the rest of it is like kind of formatted.
Speaker 2: But uh, I don't know what the fuck I did
Speaker 2: that day, But uh, I'm sure I did like as
Speaker 2: regular as possible.
Speaker 1: It sounds like it was the greatest night of this
Speaker 1: guy's life.
Speaker 2: Dude, I remember, man, you enjoyed yeah, good man.
Speaker 13: Oh, I enjoyed it big time. I enjoyed it big time.
Speaker 13: And like I said, I thought your shit was like
Speaker 13: funny as fuck. We all mohinged in the crowd and shit,
Speaker 13: you live, we lit, we passed you the joint, you
Speaker 13: get it. Perfect night, great memory of mine.
Speaker 3: I'm glad to know that.
Speaker 2: Like I think, it's probably one of the first times
Speaker 2: I've talked to someone that was there other than like
Speaker 2: my crew. So I'm honored, bro, iconic legendary show in
Speaker 2: my memory. Man, So I'm fucking honored.
Speaker 10: Bro.
Speaker 1: It's cool to see how genuinely feel very good about
Speaker 1: having someone to bond with about that experience.
Speaker 2: I really do, because dude, I mean even after the show,
Speaker 2: like there's yeah, man, it was we were That's the
Speaker 2: most lid I've been close to it.
Speaker 1: Would you ever do it again?
Speaker 3: Not before the show, maybe after the show.
Speaker 13: Only one time, only one time, may perfectly.
Speaker 3: Don't forget it. Don't forget Hey, everybody, don't do ken
Speaker 3: of meine.
Speaker 2: That was one of the drugs I was on that
Speaker 2: day that was not good for you.
Speaker 1: I was. I was offered twenty and the other I
Speaker 1: was maybe try it once maybe the other night I
Speaker 1: was offered it. The other night I said no, I
Speaker 1: didn't do it. Part of me part I'm a guy
Speaker 1: where like I really want, I feel like my heart
Speaker 1: I really want, like I want to try unique life experiences,
Speaker 1: and some of those involved doing drugs. And so that's
Speaker 1: why I'm like, maybe, you know, at some point in
Speaker 1: my life I should try ketamine, but I do want
Speaker 1: to do it that night.
Speaker 2: And as the same type of guy I've I've tried
Speaker 2: almost every drug you can other than heroin, and I
Speaker 2: would say that ketamine is probably the least worth it.
Speaker 3: Really, it's not that cool.
Speaker 1: The way we're prescribed to me, did not seem like
Speaker 1: it was that cool.
Speaker 2: Ketamine is not that cool. It's not worth it, and
Speaker 2: it's pretty bad for you. And I've seen people addicted
Speaker 2: to it. So I'd say ketamine if you got if
Speaker 2: you want to pick one to avoid ketamine, all right,
Speaker 2: serious moment.
Speaker 13: See there's like the legendary concert where like Jimmy Hendrix
Speaker 13: shows up like Florida Hi as fuck on ketamine. And
Speaker 13: I've heard that like ketamine, like from my friends, I've
Speaker 13: heard you're like guaranteed a good trip. That's like what
Speaker 13: I've known.
Speaker 3: That you're not guaranteed a good trip. You're not.
Speaker 2: There's this thing called a K hole, which is the
Speaker 2: exact opposite of a good trip. Jimmy Hendrix, that legendary
Speaker 2: story you're talking about is when he had acid in
Speaker 2: his headband. It was acid, not ketamine, and a K
Speaker 2: hole is one of the worst things you can be in.
Speaker 2: I think a bad trip on acid was worse for
Speaker 2: me than a K hole. But I think a K
Speaker 2: hole is probably one of the worst things you can
Speaker 2: worst drug experiences you can have.
Speaker 1: But I see Guy's friends say it's good. I might
Speaker 1: have to know everybody I have.
Speaker 2: I have the authority here. I've done ketamine and acid
Speaker 2: both at least twenty times. Don't do ketamine before you
Speaker 2: do those other drugs.
Speaker 1: Hey, Row, is there anything you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people that seem.
Speaker 13: To come watch the stream? So hopefully they they're hearing this?
Speaker 2: All right, boys, I appreciate your coming to the show.
Speaker 2: Don't do ketamine. Thank you for coming through. I'm glad
Speaker 2: y'all witnessed like my most lit ratchet show in my life.
Speaker 3: So appreciate you'll.
Speaker 13: You'll, wait, does he went to high school with you?
Speaker 13: Do you remember Riley Macon?
Speaker 2: The name sounds I'd one hundred percent remember the name,
Speaker 2: but I don't know what he looks like, But one
Speaker 2: hundred percent remember the name.
Speaker 3: Tell me the real one.
Speaker 13: That's fine, That is fine.
Speaker 3: Is your brown hair? Is your brown hair?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I guess everyone is brown hair.
Speaker 2: I don't brown hair.
Speaker 3: I could call it like brown, probably, but I know
Speaker 3: the name.
Speaker 2: I like.
Speaker 3: I wouldn't lie to you. I know the name, So
Speaker 3: tell him, tell my fuck with him? Oh fuck yeah,
Speaker 3: let's go, all right, get gang.
Speaker 1: I couldn't imagine being that fucking like lit on on stage.
Speaker 1: I would be like freaking out it.
Speaker 3: Wasn't pre planned, because I mean it was I guess
Speaker 3: it was pre planned, but.
Speaker 1: I mean, like being on uh, like being the center
Speaker 1: of a show where the reality is at a thousand
Speaker 1: people five, how are many people? All these people are
Speaker 1: waiting upon you to guide them? Is like so fucking
Speaker 1: intense and crazy of an idea that you have to
Speaker 1: not think about it from that standpoint to be able
Speaker 1: to do it.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I would never want to do shrooms or any
Speaker 2: of those drugs before that, but for some reason, it
Speaker 2: was It was the fact that I've been an extreme
Speaker 2: fan of Dirt Nasty my whole life, and it turned
Speaker 2: out that he was a fan of me and he
Speaker 2: was opening for me.
Speaker 3: So imagine like it's like one of.
Speaker 2: The people, like I would say he's top five most
Speaker 2: inspiring people in my life, he's opening for me. Yes,
Speaker 2: one of those people is opening for you, or you're
Speaker 2: meeting them for the first time. There's always drugs, and
Speaker 2: I don't even think it was all from him. It
Speaker 2: was like another fucking everyone in Northern California has every
Speaker 2: fucking drug, so so we're just like, yo, let's bond
Speaker 2: together and do all this. And I was like, oh,
Speaker 2: you go on stage, so do I let's do drugs.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I was it was just like a weird bonding moment
Speaker 2: and I don't regret it. It was rashet, but I
Speaker 2: obviously someone remembered it, so.
Speaker 1: It was it was nice to see you. You seemed
Speaker 1: like you got legitimate relief hearing him say.
Speaker 2: That, Yeah it was.
Speaker 3: It was good. Yeah. Absolutely. I wouldn't do it again,
Speaker 3: but I'm happy that it happened.
Speaker 1: Hello.
Speaker 4: Hello, Hello, Oh yeah, Hi.
Speaker 1: How are you doing, Lisa?
Speaker 4: I am living life as west as I can.
Speaker 3: Glad to hear here. Hello from Matt and Lyle.
Speaker 1: So Issa, what's going on with you? Dude? How can
Speaker 1: we get you today?
Speaker 4: Okay? So I am home of the sommer from college
Speaker 4: and I actually found out a few weeks ago I'm
Speaker 4: have a heart disease. So like times they're not looking
Speaker 4: too hot in that apartment. And now that you know,
Speaker 4: my doctor has told me I have all these issues
Speaker 4: and I have to, you know, check about having heart
Speaker 4: attracts and things like that. I'm like really on edge
Speaker 4: about all of my other life situations, like how do
Speaker 4: I want to live my life for the next few
Speaker 4: years if I'm going to die so young. And so
Speaker 4: I am in a relationship and I now that I
Speaker 4: found out this information, I'm questioning if my relationship is
Speaker 4: really something I want to spend so much time I
Speaker 4: want to these are like the last few years of
Speaker 4: my life.
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm, that's wild.
Speaker 2: Yeah, do you know?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Do you have Do you have an estimate from your
Speaker 2: doctor how you live?
Speaker 4: I have like a good like five years. I suffered
Speaker 4: a little bit as a heart attack a few months back,
Speaker 4: and so I've been like, I mean, I've been pretty
Speaker 4: good since then, but like this is going to be
Speaker 4: a consistent issue for the next few years. Party week,
Speaker 4: so like things are not looking great.
Speaker 3: That's got to be really scary. How are you?
Speaker 1: I'm twenty twenty, Soesa, you were talking about how you're
Speaker 1: in a relationship and you're debating whether or not you
Speaker 1: want to pour any time into this relationship considering that
Speaker 1: you don't have a lot of time, and you sounds
Speaker 1: like I want to be very careful about how you
Speaker 1: spend it, and so I want to know, and I'm
Speaker 1: sure you've taken some time to do this reflection in
Speaker 1: these next five years. Have you thought about what it
Speaker 1: is that you do want to put time into and accomplish.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm like I would love to do like eat
Speaker 4: prey love, which sounds super cheesy, but like I'd love
Speaker 4: to travel a little bit and just go and dibe
Speaker 4: and a bunch of different countries and just kind of
Speaker 4: fill up on everything that I haven't experienced yet before
Speaker 4: I talk away.
Speaker 2: Do it?
Speaker 1: I is it? And I want to know is there
Speaker 1: anything right now, any points of contention that are between
Speaker 1: you and doing that?
Speaker 4: Yes, Well, of course I can't just you know, like
Speaker 4: drop everything and just go. I mean like I can't
Speaker 4: even imagine how my family would feel if I just
Speaker 4: up and left, or my friends, and especially like my partner.
Speaker 4: It's just like I don't really have anyone who wants
Speaker 4: to do it with me, and traveling as a woman
Speaker 4: is very like, you know, risky, especially you know this
Speaker 4: day and age and how awful things are. But it's
Speaker 4: just like I'm not getting any support from the people
Speaker 4: who are supposed to support me. So I'm just kind
Speaker 4: of like I just had the urge to drop everything,
Speaker 4: even like including my relationship and just going.
Speaker 3: It's weird, you.
Speaker 2: Know, weirdly I have I've always had sort of like
Speaker 2: a really similar like I don't know, like maybe fear
Speaker 2: like feeling about me, just because most of my family
Speaker 2: dies in accidents in the least sad way possible. A
Speaker 2: lot of my family, like will has has died while
Speaker 2: I've been alive, and I have like this weird fear
Speaker 2: that I'm gonna like die like early. So I'm always like,
Speaker 2: whenever an opportunity.
Speaker 3: Arises, I do it.
Speaker 2: And I think that's benefited me a lot in life,
Speaker 2: but also sometimes I end up doing some wild shit
Speaker 2: that I regret, So I don't know. I think that
Speaker 2: I've I mean, ever since so my dad passed when
Speaker 2: I was sixteen, and ever since then, I basically changed.
Speaker 3: My sort of outlook on life.
Speaker 2: I was like, man, I'm just gonna do what I
Speaker 2: want because shit, this coulda happen to me any day.
Speaker 2: Because my dad had six siblings, five of them died
Speaker 2: in accidents. There's one live still who's going down soon.
Speaker 2: And I was just like, man, like I need like
Speaker 2: this is just my this is just like genetic we
Speaker 2: take ls.
Speaker 3: I need to like go try things and do things.
Speaker 2: And ever since then, I've like tried so many things,
Speaker 2: and I think that my life wouldn't be anywhere close
Speaker 2: to where it's at if I hadn't like just embraced
Speaker 2: that and like tried random ass shit. Whether it was
Speaker 2: like going alone to like some crazy fucking party or something.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 2: Basically, I feel like I relate to you in some
Speaker 2: way where it's like, man, like, just fucking go do it.
Speaker 3: Just go do some fun shit, follow your gut.
Speaker 1: And you know, he said, I understand these these points
Speaker 1: of contention with your family because your family, family and
Speaker 1: your friends they love you, and they care about you,
Speaker 1: and they want to spend as much time with you
Speaker 1: as they possibly can. But I do think that if
Speaker 1: if your doctor has given you five years, I do
Speaker 1: think that within those five years, you can budget enough
Speaker 1: time for you to be with your friends and family
Speaker 1: and then also for you to have these self discovery
Speaker 1: travel experiences that you want to have. And I think
Speaker 1: your family, ultimately, because they love you and because they
Speaker 1: want the best for you, would be understanding of you
Speaker 1: going to pursue those things.
Speaker 4: Now I hear what y'all are saying, like and it's
Speaker 4: actually greevy. My dad also that a way through your stack,
Speaker 4: and I think like he would be the most supportive
Speaker 4: of me, like choosing to kind of go off and
Speaker 4: do my own thing, which I always bring up an argument, right,
Speaker 4: I'm like, well, you know, my dad didn't get to
Speaker 4: do all the things that he wanted, so like, I
Speaker 4: know he would support me the most in this situation.
Speaker 4: And no, like, yeah, I think you'll are on right,
Speaker 4: Like five years isn't long, but it is kind of long.
Speaker 4: But I don't know, I just wish I had kind
Speaker 4: of more support. I'm just so shocked, Like, I don't know,
Speaker 4: it's just very interesting. It's a very difficult situation. But yeah,
Speaker 4: I loved, like, need to do more things before I die.
Speaker 4: I'm like young, I'm pretty young.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I mean just random, just random comparison. When
Speaker 2: I was your age, I wasn't gravy yet, and five
Speaker 2: years later I am so I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 2: things can a lot of things can change pretty quick.
Speaker 2: I never thought I was gonna leave Minnesota when I
Speaker 2: was twenty and five years later i'm twenty six now.
Speaker 2: Oh No, things change a lot. And I guess I'm curious.
Speaker 2: Where are you from? Where are you from?
Speaker 4: I was born in Philly, but I currently live in Colorado.
Speaker 4: I'm just in South Carolina right now spending time with
Speaker 4: my family because they're like super stressed.
Speaker 1: Got it is this? Is this a recent thing? By
Speaker 1: the way, Yeah, this.
Speaker 4: Is like very new. Like I came home after my
Speaker 4: second year of college and I was passing out a lot,
Speaker 4: and like went to the doctor and all of a sudden,
Speaker 4: I was doing EKGs and echoes and all these different tests,
Speaker 4: and like this is very new.
Speaker 3: M Is it a genetic thing or how does is it?
Speaker 3: Like just a.
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, no, my family has heart issues that it
Speaker 4: is not like super new. We thought we were safe,
Speaker 4: Like my mom was pretty solid and she's i mean
Speaker 4: in her fifties and no issues. But here I am,
Speaker 4: so I guess it doesn't you know, just go away.
Speaker 4: But yeah, no, it's definitely generous. M.
Speaker 1: You said, I know it's hard that you don't have,
Speaker 1: you know, as you say, a lot of support for
Speaker 1: what it is that you you want to do with
Speaker 1: with your life. But I I really feel like you
Speaker 1: should feel empowered to pursue what it is that you
Speaker 1: want to do, and uh that it is realistic for
Speaker 1: you to budget out enough time to both spend with
Speaker 1: your family and to pursue these things.
Speaker 2: That are important to you, and I think that you
Speaker 2: have the most excuse to say if they don't want
Speaker 2: you to do some shit, say fuck it, I'm gonna
Speaker 2: do it. Man, be like fuck it like you have
Speaker 2: you have the fucking I don't know, you have a
Speaker 2: gold star on you right now. Man, let's say fuck it.
Speaker 2: Let's let's get it. Come come gang with the boys,
Speaker 2: come get it up. I think you should come to
Speaker 2: a show something like that. I think you need I
Speaker 2: think you need a Obviously you're doing crazy things, but
Speaker 2: I think that like you need to go wild out
Speaker 2: and like maybe if you're going too a show, it's
Speaker 2: a good start.
Speaker 1: You're going to Denver. I'm going to Denver. Let's get
Speaker 1: her at some shows, dude, Denver, let's get let's get
Speaker 1: let's get her number. I'm gonna get out to my Denver.
Speaker 1: Can we get your information please, we'll we'll have uh, Tim, Tim, Tim,
Speaker 1: Let's get her information because I'm going to Denver at
Speaker 1: some point this year as well. But yeah, I mean, Lisa,
Speaker 1: how are you feeling about traversing these these pain points
Speaker 1: toward you going after what it is that you want
Speaker 1: to do.
Speaker 4: I it's it's hard, right, because like I really like
Speaker 4: mentally in my head and like I want to do
Speaker 4: these things and I'm really excited and I'm really looking
Speaker 4: forward to it. But like physically, like I'm in pain.
Speaker 4: Like I have really really bad days and then I
Speaker 4: have decent days, but like I don't have good days anymore.
Speaker 4: Like it's just constant pain or there's an issue. So
Speaker 4: it's very back and forth. Like I really want to
Speaker 4: do these things and I really want to do a
Speaker 4: lot before you know, whatever happens. But like I'm just
Speaker 4: like concerned, like can I physically do it on my own?
Speaker 4: Which is super stucky and really depressing, Like it's true.
Speaker 1: Wow, how recent is this? Can I ask? Is is
Speaker 1: this is this? Is this information coming to you within
Speaker 1: the past month?
Speaker 4: Yes, Like I went to the doctors a month ago,
Speaker 4: got an egg echoed done, and from there, like I've
Speaker 4: had a Halter monitor, I've had seen multiple cardiologists, which
Speaker 4: sumpbacks are very books right now for some reason, so
Speaker 4: like I was really difficult to see one, which sucks.
Speaker 4: But like this is all like very near to me. Yeah,
Speaker 4: but like within a month, like I've just been dealing
Speaker 4: with this since I got home. Yeah, for the last month.
Speaker 2: You seem like a really I don't know, I really
Speaker 2: like your attitude. I mean, just based on everything, you
Speaker 2: seem like you're in a really good place mentally. I
Speaker 2: mean five five years is a long fucking time, but
Speaker 2: you're I don't know, I really like to hear someone
Speaker 2: so happy with such a weird situation.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I agree, I'm noticing like a a a despite
Speaker 1: everything sort of collect you know, collected head to screw
Speaker 1: it on right, cheerful attitude. Would you would you? Would
Speaker 1: you say that that is is?
Speaker 2: You know, how do you feel.
Speaker 1: Like you're handling it? Because you know, we we have
Speaker 1: what we are perceiving from you based on how you're
Speaker 1: outwardly acting. But I want to know you know what
Speaker 1: your truth is.
Speaker 4: I mean mentally it is a struggle, and physically it's
Speaker 4: a struggle. Like I grew up being like super healthy.
Speaker 4: My family is like super like green and earthy, all organic,
Speaker 4: all natural, non dmo always working out all these things.
Speaker 4: So like it's kind of devastating to me to be
Speaker 4: like I all these you're being healthy and not like
Speaker 4: partiguing in all of these different you know, foods and
Speaker 4: sugars and all these things just for my doctor to
Speaker 4: tell me that I have ought issues. So it's like
Speaker 4: really disappointing and it's really sucky, and you know, there's
Speaker 4: some mental battles there, but like it's life. I've lost
Speaker 4: a parent, I've lost many friends, so it's just like
Speaker 4: circle of us, like I'm gonna die eventually, We're all
Speaker 4: gonna die eventually. And this is seemingly how I go
Speaker 4: out right now. It's just whatever, Like I'm just I'm.
Speaker 3: I really like your attitude.
Speaker 2: I don't know. I mean, I think I think I
Speaker 2: want to I want to think that I would handle
Speaker 2: it the exact same way, but honestly, I don't know
Speaker 2: if i'd be like quite as badass as you, but
Speaker 2: but I don't know. So a lot of respect for that,
Speaker 2: and I don't know. I think I I think we
Speaker 2: should hang out before you, you know, I think we
Speaker 2: should hang out within the next couple of years.
Speaker 3: Come to a show or two Colorado or South Carolina, Colorado.
Speaker 4: I'm usually I'm usually in Colorado. I'm usually in Colorado.
Speaker 4: I'm just here trying to be nice to my family
Speaker 4: and let them get some time with me because I'm
Speaker 4: sick now.
Speaker 2: So well, when okay, so when do you ski or snowboard?
Speaker 4: I snowboards.
Speaker 2: Okay, well I go snow I go skiing every winter,
Speaker 2: so we'll get you information. If I don't have a show,
Speaker 2: I mean I do have a show. Well let's do
Speaker 2: a show and snowboard. How about that?
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, that sounds super sick. Oh my gosh, I
Speaker 4: can like, look here my friends freaking out again across
Speaker 4: the house. But no, no, no, that's so sick. That
Speaker 4: sounds in the advance.
Speaker 1: Sounds like you got good friends, man, it really does.
Speaker 3: And you're you're inspiring us.
Speaker 2: I mean, we appreciate you, so we'd love to.
Speaker 4: Oh, y'all, that's so sweet.
Speaker 1: Yes, you know, I I I agree. I have a
Speaker 1: lot of respect for you. I have a lot of
Speaker 1: respect for the way you're handling this, and I just
Speaker 1: if I, if I could stress anything at all, it's
Speaker 1: that I really want you to feel empowered to do
Speaker 1: the things that you want to do with your life
Speaker 1: while you have the time too. Yeah, that's that's that's
Speaker 1: I think what I would truss the most.
Speaker 2: Do it all now you can.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm gonna try these next five years hopefully, you know,
Speaker 4: I lost long. I'm pretty healthy but yes, I'm going
Speaker 4: to try the hardest to do all the things I
Speaker 4: want to do before I head out.
Speaker 1: Let us know if you need help, Lisa, is there
Speaker 1: anything you want to say to the people of the
Speaker 1: computer before we go.
Speaker 12: Y'all can go.
Speaker 4: Through anything as long as you have a good support
Speaker 4: system and you just keep things on this which is
Speaker 4: very hard, but hearing them with all these different issues
Speaker 4: and I can still, you know, put a smile on
Speaker 4: my face and wake up in the morning and get
Speaker 4: through my day. So anyone couldn't really do it.
Speaker 3: You may my week.
Speaker 1: Thank you, Thank you for calling MESA and good luck
Speaker 1: to you. We'll be in touch.
Speaker 3: Please send it, send your information. Let's go skiing, of.
Speaker 4: Course, y'all. Thank you for listening to me to walk man.
Speaker 1: Of course, have a good nights.
Speaker 13: Yeah, that's too.
Speaker 1: I did get her phone number. I'll share that with you.
Speaker 1: How are you feeling, Man's man?
Speaker 3: I like doing that.
Speaker 2: I like doing this.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: My favorite thing about doing this podcast is we can
Speaker 1: do rubbing vagina, juice on your face, and how to
Speaker 1: build confidence and uh your girlfriend shitting in your bed
Speaker 1: combination of conversation. Yeah, yeah, she was, she was. She
Speaker 1: was super cool, man, I really yeah, I really do
Speaker 1: want her to feel empowered to, like, you know, to
Speaker 1: to do what I want.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna hang out there guaranteed, Yeah, showing or something. Yeah, absolutely,
Speaker 2: one more month.
Speaker 1: Let's do it.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: How do you feel before?
Speaker 1: How do you feel like you would handle learning that
Speaker 1: you you were going to die?
Speaker 2: Dude? I don't know, man, That's that's a wild feeling
Speaker 2: because because I mean the five years thing is like
Speaker 2: that's like an amount of time where it's like, man,
Speaker 2: like about five years, you have some planning time, you
Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. But at the same time, it's like, man,
Speaker 2: I don't know, it would just close in every day
Speaker 2: and she's twenty Yeah, I'm twenty six. Yeah, so I
Speaker 2: would have been gone. So it's that that that is.
Speaker 3: What hit me extra heart.
Speaker 2: So it's like, yeah, I don't know, man, Like, that's
Speaker 2: that's a wild feeling. I've obviously cute the question like
Speaker 2: all the time, like what if you had like a
Speaker 2: day to live a year to live. I used to
Speaker 2: think that it would be like a positive feeling where
Speaker 2: you'd just be fucking hyped and go do everything, But
Speaker 2: I don't know, it would be pretty hard because you
Speaker 2: know everyone that you know, it's kind of like gotta
Speaker 2: keep going without you. So it's like, I don't know,
Speaker 2: I think I think all my priorities would change a
Speaker 2: little bit and just fucking I think I'd spend every
Speaker 2: day I'd be like, you know what, today, I'm gonna
Speaker 2: go hang out with this person I know, yea, this day,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go hang out with that person that I know,
Speaker 2: Fucking this person I went to high school with.
Speaker 3: I want to go stay ahead to them, you know
Speaker 3: what I'm saying something like that.
Speaker 1: The weirdest thing is like, Okay, if you had five
Speaker 1: years to live, you know, you would be metical. You'd
Speaker 1: be very meticulous. You would you would think you'd be
Speaker 1: very meticulous about the way you spend your time, but
Speaker 1: you'd kind of always have an unknown amount of time
Speaker 1: to live. And yet you're not as compelled to be
Speaker 1: as meticulous with your time, even though you know that
Speaker 1: you don't, even though you know you don't have forever. Yeah,
Speaker 1: let's you know, jack off and look at.
Speaker 2: And then wow that I mean, fucking the most obvious example,
Speaker 2: Stephen Hawkin had two years and then he lived fucking
Speaker 2: sixty more years. You know some people it's just like
Speaker 2: like you, I don't know he prepared for that shit.
Speaker 2: And you know, doctors can't predict everything. But I mean,
Speaker 2: that's just a really crazy thought, you know, thinking about
Speaker 2: like fucking.
Speaker 1: I'd like to think, and I don't everything expect you
Speaker 1: never ever ever have any idea how you're gonna feel
Speaker 1: in situations that you get there. But the part of
Speaker 1: me is like, ah, man, I could I have infinite
Speaker 1: things in my life to be really grateful for, and
Speaker 1: I could sit if I had a day left to
Speaker 1: live and just ruminate on all those things and then
Speaker 1: at the very end be like, you know, when I
Speaker 1: got to have all these beautiful friendships, I got to
Speaker 1: eat a fucking sandwich, I got to look at the skull,
Speaker 1: I got to have friends, I take a hot shower,
Speaker 1: you know, I got to do all these things that's
Speaker 1: a lot of people don't even get the opportunity to
Speaker 1: do because people die younger than we do, you know.
Speaker 1: So I'd like to think, you know, I would be
Speaker 1: uh able to be grateful for those things and then
Speaker 1: and then just die. But i'd probably be I don't know,
Speaker 1: I don't know. I want to know until I'm there.
Speaker 3: I was just trying to think about, like, if I
Speaker 3: had an hour to live, Yeah, what would I like?
Speaker 3: Who would I call? What would I do?
Speaker 2: You know? Yeah, like I.
Speaker 3: Would definitely jerk off.
Speaker 2: And then there's definitely a few friends that like I
Speaker 2: would just call and it would be what would you
Speaker 2: jerk off too?
Speaker 3: Would you have a video?
Speaker 4: Full?
Speaker 2: Full speed? Full?
Speaker 1: Like, dude, just like, do you feel like you could
Speaker 1: get a heart on at like the first thing you
Speaker 1: would too.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna be facetiming my homie like, man, I love you, bro,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna.
Speaker 1: I don't have time to do Yeah, I don't have
Speaker 1: time to do one at a time.
Speaker 3: Man. Yeah, Man, I don't know.
Speaker 2: You know, everyone's like, oh, if I have like an hour,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go fuck somebody. It's like I don't got
Speaker 2: time for that. Man, I'm gonna call the homies and
Speaker 2: and then you know, that's all. She wrote.
Speaker 1: Hello Matthew, Matthew, Hey, what's up?
Speaker 13: Hey?
Speaker 2: Yoh man, your story we've chosen. We're here, brother.
Speaker 8: I know I saw it was just kind of hype
Speaker 8: this night.
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I mean, Matthew, it says here
Speaker 1: that you met a girl on, o'megal you flew her
Speaker 1: out to where you live, and then you found out
Speaker 1: she ended up being quote a stalker witch. What's going
Speaker 1: on here?
Speaker 14: Yeah? One day, alright, I'm on Ago one day and
Speaker 14: I come across some on a nice rack, you know
Speaker 14: what I'm saying. So obviously we start talking.
Speaker 8: This girl's a goth girl. She's the big titty goth
Speaker 8: gf everyone always dreams of.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 8: She's fine, and I'm talking to her and we start talking.
Speaker 8: We start talking every day from then on. I'm like, okay, okay.
Speaker 8: And then she asked me one day, She's like, you know,
Speaker 8: we've been talking for like a while now, you mind
Speaker 8: would be weird if I like came there And I'm
Speaker 8: sitting here blinded obviously by the titties, right, Like it's
Speaker 8: it's hard to see past them, you know, Like they're huge,
Speaker 8: Like it's the big, big hurdle to get past, right,
Speaker 8: So I'm sitting here. I'm like, I'm about to fly
Speaker 8: this girl out to Arizona and I'm gonna take her
Speaker 8: to the Grand Canyon and we're gonna smash right the
Speaker 8: Grand Oh yeah, oh no, I had this whole. I
Speaker 8: had a whole like.
Speaker 1: Oh wait, you don't ask for about you were trying
Speaker 1: to have sex with this person at the Grand Canyon.
Speaker 8: Oh yeah, oh I have a sorry about that too,
Speaker 8: but we'll get.
Speaker 3: There, okay with the drama.
Speaker 8: Drama, all right, all right, so she gets here, we uh,
Speaker 8: we connect, We do well. You know, everything goes well,
Speaker 8: Grand Canyon, smash up the Grand Canyon.
Speaker 3: You know, outside the Grand Canyon, like we like, yeah.
Speaker 8: Yeah, we went down this little trail where you like
Speaker 8: you can't see.
Speaker 3: The Grand slammon, I'm happy?
Speaker 2: Man, good?
Speaker 3: All right, continue, where does it get? Where does it get?
Speaker 3: Not good?
Speaker 2: The ultimate credit? Okay, so it's it's been really good
Speaker 2: so far.
Speaker 3: Where's the turn?
Speaker 2: All right?
Speaker 8: Yeah, it's all really good. We do everything and go
Speaker 8: down and whatever. The whole trip goes by and she
Speaker 8: gets home. I don't know what switch flipped she went
Speaker 8: from Oh she's pretty cool. You know, she's like kind
Speaker 8: of weird because she's a little you know, she's like goth.
Speaker 8: But she doesn't really talked too much about her. Now
Speaker 8: when she gets home, she starts mentioning like, hey, like,
Speaker 8: you know, I do all this like wicked stuff, and
Speaker 8: I'm like, oh, okay, you know it's like a girl
Speaker 8: randomly telling me she's a like a wizard, you know,
Speaker 8: like kind of a kind of a weird thing to
Speaker 8: drop on someone.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
Speaker 8: Right, she starts going dude, no, no, no, she starts going
Speaker 8: off the rails, man like. She she texts me one
Speaker 8: day she's like, look what I found. And it's a
Speaker 8: dead deer on the side of the road that she
Speaker 8: like she found roadkill, and her and her roommate were
Speaker 8: like picking up the road killed to like bring to
Speaker 8: their house to like harvested.
Speaker 2: I was like, what the see? This is like there's
Speaker 2: not a lot of things that scare me in life,
Speaker 2: but that weird like witchcraft, fucking dead animal activity.
Speaker 8: Dude, oh man bro And she she had like she
Speaker 8: had like two snakes, and she would like she had
Speaker 8: like this massive cooler of dead rabbits.
Speaker 3: Maybe not her name, but like like she have like
Speaker 3: a witch name or something that we can go.
Speaker 2: By, give us, give us something to for some to
Speaker 2: refer to her as what is it?
Speaker 6: All right?
Speaker 8: Her first name was Savannah.
Speaker 2: Savannah, Okay, Savannah.
Speaker 8: This girl's from somewhere southern area. You know, I don't
Speaker 8: want to get I never.
Speaker 3: Met never met a good Savannah. Honest, I met a lot.
Speaker 1: Sorry all the Savannahs out there, but I want to
Speaker 1: good Savannahs.
Speaker 3: Sorry else, but I just want to be real.
Speaker 1: So, Matthew, I want to know from you. Okay. So
Speaker 1: this girl she's sending your pictures of dead deer she's
Speaker 1: talking about she has a cooler of rats. There's all
Speaker 1: this stuff, and it's pretty weird. It's pretty funky, but
Speaker 1: none of it is yet hostile towards you directly. When
Speaker 1: if it does, does it start getting hostile toward you? Yes?
Speaker 8: Okay, So I I'm still blinded by tits at this point.
Speaker 8: I'm like, you know what's dead deer is?
Speaker 13: You know it canna be worse?
Speaker 1: That is?
Speaker 8: She had really nice pits.
Speaker 2: Okay apparently.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 13: Anyway, So after like.
Speaker 8: It was like four weeks, like a month or so
Speaker 8: goes by of her like home. She starts calling me
Speaker 8: every day just bawling just about like random things, like
Speaker 8: things that are like incoherent. Like her friend like hauled
Speaker 8: her and told her that she's like stressed out about
Speaker 8: her work, and like she was like freaking out over it, right,
Speaker 8: And this goes on for like a whole week. She's
Speaker 8: just crying every day, like calling crying and calling me,
Speaker 8: and I'm like, whoooo, what's happening? Right, And at the
Speaker 8: very end of the week, she texts me she breaks
Speaker 8: up with me. So I'm like, oh, okay, like that's
Speaker 8: kind of out of the blue, but you know, I
Speaker 8: kind of saw riding on the wall here kind of going.
Speaker 3: A little nuts, right, okay and interesting.
Speaker 8: You know, I kind of leave it at that. I'm like, okay, whatever,
Speaker 8: like you know, we broke up. She texts me the
Speaker 8: next day says, you know, you don't have to be
Speaker 8: radio silent, you know, we can still talk like friends.
Speaker 8: I'm like, no, I'm not gonna cut talk to you
Speaker 8: like next day, like you're like best pal. And then
Speaker 8: she starts parading me with texts telling me how I'm
Speaker 8: a terrible person, I'm a manipulative person.
Speaker 14: I'm I'm.
Speaker 2: Oh all right, and as as if she hadn't just
Speaker 2: sent you a dead deer okay, all right?
Speaker 8: Literally like like I'm like the worst human here. She's
Speaker 8: the one sending me.
Speaker 2: Dead, Like yeah, like give it, like give us a
Speaker 2: little bit of more witch witchcraft, like like witchcraft symptoms,
Speaker 2: like like what like she she's just wilding.
Speaker 8: Oh yeah, So she's wilding on me right and right
Speaker 8: at the at this point, like I'm like, you need
Speaker 8: to like chill or whatever, and she's like threatening to
Speaker 8: like curse me. She's sending me pictures of like little
Speaker 8: like ritual candles and ship like like trying to.
Speaker 1: Like what is me? What is she threatening to curse
Speaker 1: you with?
Speaker 3: What does she? What does she?
Speaker 7: Uh?
Speaker 3: What is her higher power? Is it Satan?
Speaker 8: Like he was trying to curse me with like just
Speaker 8: like general like life being shitty like everything in Witchcraft?
Speaker 2: Bro, are you you're real?
Speaker 7: No?
Speaker 2: But I feel like I really.
Speaker 3: But if someone named it demon.
Speaker 8: You never do you ever know when you're gonna run
Speaker 8: by them?
Speaker 1: So Matthew tell us, when does this come to a head?
Speaker 1: When does like are you still where are we at
Speaker 1: with this? Did this conflict come to a peak and
Speaker 1: then resolve? What's sort of the resolution here?
Speaker 3: All right?
Speaker 8: So once she started kind of like threatening me in
Speaker 8: a way where I was like, this girl's telling me
Speaker 8: she's gonna like send me things in the mail because
Speaker 8: she knows where I live. Okay, that is terrifying, reliable
Speaker 8: you know, big ass block.
Speaker 2: Button brom Paymon I'm squad paym On, I'm fucking it's
Speaker 2: just my my personal demon that I.
Speaker 1: Wait a minute, I've heard of my paym on is
Speaker 1: a demon, right person.
Speaker 3: I know that I'm loyal to you know, I learned
Speaker 3: a little bit.
Speaker 1: Sorry, continue tell us, Matthew, did how did this come
Speaker 1: to a head and resolve? All right?
Speaker 8: So I started what happened blocking and and everything, right,
Speaker 8: because she's spreads and like brandy to send me things
Speaker 8: on the mail and everything like that. So I started
Speaker 8: blocking her and all my stuff. And you know, I
Speaker 8: find I thought I blocked her on everything, and then
Speaker 8: she sent me a cash app with his massive fall
Speaker 8: of text and cash out.
Speaker 2: Wow, locking the eye. One time, my me and I
Speaker 2: thought about venmoing her money to turn back.
Speaker 3: So respect.
Speaker 2: I respect her move because at one point I almost
Speaker 2: venmotor girl a dollar just.
Speaker 3: To say something.
Speaker 8: Hundred dollars.
Speaker 2: Oh she requested money? All right, all right, that's disrespect.
Speaker 2: I was gonna ben mail her one dollar just to
Speaker 2: my message.
Speaker 13: She was requested money, you know.
Speaker 1: And did did you end up saying anything to her
Speaker 1: at all? Or did you ignore her her cash APT request?
Speaker 8: I ignored both cash apt requests and then I requested
Speaker 8: one cent from her for I say, and I just said,
Speaker 8: mental reparations.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, you're poking. You're poking a bear here, man,
Speaker 1: You're poking the bear that Listen, Matthew, if I were you,
Speaker 1: I would be terrified to go anywhere near my mailbox
Speaker 1: for home forever you have to.
Speaker 2: We were talking about I will.
Speaker 8: I will never go to the South. She's from Alabama.
Speaker 8: I'm never going to Alabama. You're else now a dangerous
Speaker 8: place for me.
Speaker 3: Now, stay safe, Stay safe, my brother.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I mean, I don't know, man, Maybe the
Speaker 1: very least make something out of this when she sends you, uh,
Speaker 1: you know, dead squirrels in the mail and should flip
Speaker 1: them to some taxidermists trying to make a little bit
Speaker 1: of money off.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you man, everything is a hustle.
Speaker 8: Come on, dude, those those are that's that's free firs
Speaker 8: right there. Man. You know you you know street value
Speaker 8: of that stuff. Man, especially out here in Arizona. You
Speaker 8: can't find some like Southern ship out here.
Speaker 1: At least you got to have sex at the Grand Canyon.
Speaker 2: Wonder how many people?
Speaker 1: How many people have had sex at the Grand Canyon.
Speaker 8: Do you think Okay, I will take one, but you're about.
Speaker 2: To tell all winners. Someone's gonna tell someone shooting on
Speaker 2: someone's bed, all.
Speaker 8: Right, No, no, no, no, I would, I would do it
Speaker 8: all again.
Speaker 3: I regret nothing, the best, the best.
Speaker 8: Pitty goptoral brow fucking war.
Speaker 1: I bro city boys, thanks for calling, Matt Yeah, Matt, Hey,
Speaker 1: all Matthews.
Speaker 3: I guess we think the same.
Speaker 1: Brother.
Speaker 2: Appreciate you, Man, I fuck with that guy.
Speaker 3: Like, oh, I'm gonna tell a story that I never
Speaker 3: told before. Please never told before.
Speaker 2: There's one time I used my own fear against someone else.
Speaker 2: Someone tried to rob me when I was I used
Speaker 2: to be a drug dealer.
Speaker 3: I was, I want to say, like.
Speaker 2: I was either a senior in high school or I
Speaker 2: was senior. I was a senior high school or juior
Speaker 2: high school, and I was selling drugs and I started
Speaker 2: selling to like part of the hood. And some dude
Speaker 2: got in my car. I don't know what inspired me
Speaker 2: to do this or like what it was, but like
Speaker 2: this dude, I was selling him like a pretty big
Speaker 2: bag and he pulled out a gun and and I
Speaker 2: looked at him. He like pointed at me, and I
Speaker 2: was like I started acting like all crazy. I was like, yeah,
Speaker 2: act like a fucking crazy yess.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I was like, Oh, I'm gonna scare him.
Speaker 2: And I was like, I was like.
Speaker 3: Oh, you really want to do that?
Speaker 13: Baby?
Speaker 1: I started, Oh you went joker man?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I went like all weird and shit and I
Speaker 2: was like, Oh, you really want.
Speaker 1: To do that.
Speaker 2: I was like, I don't even remember exactly what I did,
Speaker 2: but I was like, oh, like I love, I don't
Speaker 2: even do yes, I just for a moment, I just
Speaker 2: went really fucking wild and this dude got on my
Speaker 2: car in like five seconds.
Speaker 3: He got out, didn't dig the weed, took his everything,
Speaker 3: so it worked. I didn't get robbed.
Speaker 1: That's that's my fantasy I think about all the time.
Speaker 1: Somebody the gun at me, I would just be.
Speaker 3: Like, wow, I literally did that.
Speaker 2: When I was in high school, some pointed gun at
Speaker 2: me and I was like, oh my god, really dude, Yeah,
Speaker 2: if you give me a minute, I can think of
Speaker 2: the fucking exact que I said, that's my friend, But
Speaker 2: I did.
Speaker 1: That's really I think about that, like, can you if
Speaker 1: you you can't reason with a person, you always think
Speaker 1: about how would you react if somebody just like points
Speaker 1: it out. That's crazy that you because I think that
Speaker 1: back to like the whole you can hypothesize how you
Speaker 1: will feel about something, but you won't know until you're
Speaker 1: actually there. If hypothesized, like if somebody pointed a gun
Speaker 1: at me, I would just be like, oh, baby, babe,
Speaker 1: a way what.
Speaker 3: But you out and you're maybe fine, yeah, but but I'd.
Speaker 1: Probably like I'd be scared or like a dread whatever
Speaker 1: the body chemicals would kick in that would prevent me
Speaker 1: from my plan.
Speaker 2: But you got reaction. Really, it was like it was
Speaker 2: like I don't know why I had the confidence to
Speaker 2: do that, because I mean, like I knew of his dude,
Speaker 2: I'd never met him, but I knew of him, and
Speaker 2: I was like, I don't know. For some reason, I
Speaker 2: was like I think I'm gonna fucking figure this dude out,
Speaker 2: Like he doesn't know much about me, So I just
Speaker 2: fucking was like.
Speaker 1: But weren't you talking with him a little bit before
Speaker 1: he had it? Made have any grasp of whore you
Speaker 1: were never bought.
Speaker 3: He never bought for me before.
Speaker 2: He didn't know me.
Speaker 3: This was in high school. I wasn't like no one
Speaker 3: knew me.
Speaker 2: This knew me as like the fucking plug from that
Speaker 2: part of town, and he fucking first time buying for me,
Speaker 2: and I don't know, he pulled up put out a
Speaker 2: gun and I was.
Speaker 3: Just like turn my head sideways. Yeah, you know what
Speaker 3: I'm saying.
Speaker 2: It was like before all, like you know, it wasn't even.
Speaker 1: Like you didn't even rehearse for this, but yeah, no,
Speaker 1: it was it.
Speaker 2: Was like pre like it memes. I wasn't like the
Speaker 2: fucking clown and the ship. I was just like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 2: you want to do that, dude.
Speaker 6: Man.
Speaker 2: I wish I wish I could reheart. I wish there
Speaker 2: was a video of the I did. But I just
Speaker 2: freakd this kid out right away.
Speaker 1: That's amazing. I'm so glad to hear that worked because
Speaker 1: I'm I still I'm looking for the opportunity to use that.
Speaker 1: You know, I said earlier with the Katana thing, like
Speaker 1: the party was like, you know, you don't want anything
Speaker 1: bad to happen to you what a party was like,
Speaker 1: but it's like good to have it up.
Speaker 3: I found gust of Sashima.
Speaker 1: I like to do exactly. So there's a part of
Speaker 1: me that's like I don't want to would never want
Speaker 1: to be in a situation I'm getting rod and a
Speaker 1: part of me wants to be like if I, you know,
Speaker 1: start like show up this, like turn around and pull
Speaker 1: my ass out when someone has a gun.
Speaker 2: Yeah work, Yeah yeah. I want family that that does occasionally.
Speaker 3: Really, I mean, I mean I've just stove for her.
Speaker 3: I mean I've seen video.
Speaker 2: I guess ast thing.
Speaker 3: I've seen videos for everyone who's who's listening.
Speaker 2: I would probably recommend not trying to act crazy if
Speaker 2: someone's trying to shoot you.
Speaker 3: But it was, you know, in this situation, it made sense.
Speaker 1: It'd be I don't what if you gave somebody your
Speaker 1: wallet and then you showed them your ass and you're like,
Speaker 1: I'm not letting you get away with this without a
Speaker 1: little bit of something.
Speaker 3: See.
Speaker 2: You know, if you get really unique and creative with it,
Speaker 2: sometimes that's on a new trend start, you know.
Speaker 1: I mean, hey, that's how vabbing probably started.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Oh, very dude.
Speaker 3: Vabbing was that was? That was? That was a moment tonight.
Speaker 3: I'm glad that I learned about that.
Speaker 1: Chris, Hello, Hello.
Speaker 7: Oh my god, Hello, can you hear me?
Speaker 2: We sure can clea.
Speaker 7: Holy shit? Am I allowed to curse on this?
Speaker 1: You can say whatever.
Speaker 3: Yes, you can, motherfucker fun yo.
Speaker 7: I literally was just watching gravy. I just fucking heard
Speaker 7: you Chris homeless, and I like, shut the fucking stream off.
Speaker 11: Holy fuck, Hi, what's up?
Speaker 7: My name is Chris. I'm twenty years old and I'm homeless.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, ask First of all, where are you calling from?
Speaker 7: I am currently in a hotel room. Actually, I work
Speaker 7: full time, so I have some money. I did just
Speaker 7: put a bit of a deposit down to get an
Speaker 7: apartment at the end of the month, so I'm.
Speaker 3: Not like Congress stuck.
Speaker 11: But it has been since October. October of yeah, October of.
Speaker 7: Twenty twenty one, I became homeless.
Speaker 3: Have you slept it outside?
Speaker 12: I slept outside for a couple of nights, and then
Speaker 12: from there I went to a shelter for people within
Speaker 12: the age range of eighteen to twenty one, and that
Speaker 12: was not really a good experience.
Speaker 11: I was traumatized there.
Speaker 7: And from there, actually, with that shelter, the shelter, I
Speaker 7: got to speak to a lot of different people about
Speaker 7: my experience in being homeless, which was cool.
Speaker 11: Like I would I would go around to like schools.
Speaker 7: And shit and be like, hey, guys, uh, this is me.
Speaker 7: This is what it's like to be homeless is shit sucks,
Speaker 7: But like there are places out there that can help you.
Speaker 7: And that's always been a dream of mine because I
Speaker 7: used to be a foster kid and I always wanted
Speaker 7: to do that even then.
Speaker 5: So it's been.
Speaker 11: Cool, but it also fucking sucks.
Speaker 1: So tell us about what the experience is like in
Speaker 1: the shelters.
Speaker 7: Well, it's too it depends, you know, I've heard. I've
Speaker 7: heard a lot of different things about a lot of
Speaker 7: different shelters because you come across a lot of people.
Speaker 7: For me specifically, even growing up, like I was being
Speaker 7: shelters as a kid and stuff too.
Speaker 11: I've been homeless before.
Speaker 4: There isn't really anything new.
Speaker 7: But as a kid, like I was in adult shelters
Speaker 7: and that was something a little scary worth like even
Speaker 7: though you're with family and like I was with my
Speaker 7: mom and my siblings, you're still there's no there's no
Speaker 7: real safety in the shelter. I was just in they
Speaker 7: had people like staff members taking advantage of the youth
Speaker 7: there because like they can and what are we going
Speaker 7: to do? They would threaten you with like if you
Speaker 7: don't do exactly what they want you will lose the
Speaker 7: place that you have to sleep and you can't do
Speaker 7: anything about it. They will put you on the street,
Speaker 7: no fucking problem.
Speaker 3: I'm curious what what? What city or state.
Speaker 7: New Jersey, Jersey?
Speaker 2: Wow?
Speaker 3: Okay, sorry and continue.
Speaker 7: Uh No, No, I don't want to name specific cities
Speaker 7: just because, like I used to work for that specific
Speaker 7: shelter as well when I lived there. They gave me
Speaker 7: a job which helps bring me into where I'm currently working,
Speaker 7: and they do good work. Still, it's just like a
Speaker 7: lot of the people in the specific shelter that work
Speaker 7: there really take advantage of it, and it just it
Speaker 7: doesn't go.
Speaker 11: Well for a lot of people there. I had known a.
Speaker 7: Young woman who had come from Puerto Rico and she
Speaker 7: had come and escaped like an abusive home. She's to
Speaker 7: be a foster child there and escape here. And they
Speaker 7: had kicked her out because she had too many panic
Speaker 7: attacks because of her trauma, and it would make her
Speaker 7: kind of lash out at people. So they kicked her
Speaker 7: out for that and said she was violent, and she
Speaker 7: got picked up by police and because she was a
Speaker 7: foster child in Puerto Rico and was considered missing, they
Speaker 7: sent her back.
Speaker 11: Unto like that shitty situation.
Speaker 7: And they don't care, like, you know, you just kind
Speaker 7: of on your own in this world and it's so shitty.
Speaker 1: So Chris, it sounds like you said, you have a
Speaker 1: full time job. Now you're making a little bit of money,
Speaker 1: You're at least able to stay in a hotel. Have
Speaker 1: things been on an upswing for you?
Speaker 4: You know what?
Speaker 7: I would say, so since things kind of went downhill
Speaker 7: for a little bit, but I would say I'm kind
Speaker 7: of going back up with I was in a different
Speaker 7: shelter after the last one and I was asked to
Speaker 7: leave because of the different situation. I was assaulted there
Speaker 7: and for my safety they told me to leave, but
Speaker 7: they couldn't put me anywhere else. So this is I'm
Speaker 7: now in the hotels, and it was difficult with like
Speaker 7: I was spending so much on hotels and I couldn't
Speaker 7: afford to kind of get my laundry done or anything
Speaker 7: like that. So I was like, I wasn't going to work.
Speaker 7: But little where I'm working, they've been really good and
Speaker 7: really understanding for my situation. So it's been really cool
Speaker 7: to kind of feel like there's people really on my
Speaker 7: side and there for me. Yeah, like they've been so helpful.
Speaker 7: I feel like I'm doing really well, even mentally with
Speaker 7: kind of everything going on. I think I'm getting a
Speaker 7: little better, So I would say.
Speaker 2: So good, that's awesome good. I'm curious, how, like, how
Speaker 2: many I guess, how long would you have considered how
Speaker 2: long has it been that you've considered yourself? I guess homeless.
Speaker 7: Since October eighth of twenty twenty one. I've been homeless.
Speaker 7: How long is that?
Speaker 11: I don't know, got over six months.
Speaker 3: Forty year?
Speaker 2: But but okay, okay, well, yeah, that's the hardest thing.
Speaker 2: What's the hardest.
Speaker 7: Thing, in your opinion, keeping yourself going? I mean, I
Speaker 7: felt like such a failure and I seeven now I
Speaker 7: still do. But it's like I'm also twenty There's so
Speaker 7: much still that I have to do and I can do,
Speaker 7: but it's like keeping myself motivated with knowing like I
Speaker 7: have nowhere I didn't. I don't have a home, I
Speaker 7: don't have like.
Speaker 11: A regular bed to sleep in, things like that.
Speaker 7: Uh so that's been really difficult to like, I don't
Speaker 7: even have an address, and I.
Speaker 11: Feel like such shit all the time.
Speaker 7: And it's like going to hang out with my friends
Speaker 7: I'm like, I know y'all think of me differently. I
Speaker 7: know you see me in a different light. My manager,
Speaker 7: I know they see me differently, But like, what are they?
Speaker 7: You know, there's not much anyone can do. We're all
Speaker 7: fucking young and stupid. None of us can really afford
Speaker 7: to help each other right now. So it's just like you,
Speaker 7: I'm sorry you're going through this.
Speaker 1: Chris. Did you say earlier that you you recently were
Speaker 1: able to put a payment on a place? Did I
Speaker 1: hear that correctly?
Speaker 12: Yeah?
Speaker 4: I did.
Speaker 7: I put my first It's it's me and my boyfriend. Actually,
Speaker 7: we put our first two hundred dollars deposit down to
Speaker 7: reserve an apartment, and we just got to prove to
Speaker 7: start renting it the twenty ninth of July.
Speaker 1: Oh, Graslap, that's awesome.
Speaker 11: Ye with you?
Speaker 1: What's the deal with the boyfriend? Is he been supportive
Speaker 1: of you throughout this time?
Speaker 7: The boyfriend is actually currently in the same situation with me.
Speaker 7: We were living together when everything kind of went down.
Speaker 11: We broke up for about.
Speaker 7: A month just because it really wasn't going well for
Speaker 7: either of us mentally, and then that kind of transpired
Speaker 7: into like our relationship got really dark and heavy for
Speaker 7: a minute. Uh, so we broke up and now I'd
Speaker 7: say we're in a better spot. He's in he's actually
Speaker 7: at work right now. I texted him like two hours
Speaker 7: ago and I was like, I'm on a come currently
Speaker 7: on que to talk to young Gravy and the therapy.
Speaker 11: Get goo dog. I'm so excited.
Speaker 7: Uh And I didn't answer his call when he called
Speaker 7: on break because I was hoping.
Speaker 2: To do something with that. Well.
Speaker 3: Fuck, yah, I'm glad that we could be here. Hell yeah,
Speaker 3: you guys are getting an apartment soon.
Speaker 11: Such a highlight.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we're happy to I mean, I'm happy to hear
Speaker 2: from you. What's your plan for the next like two
Speaker 2: weeks then before how are you celebrating before you have
Speaker 2: a home?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm saving money, yeah, I think before we get
Speaker 4: a place.
Speaker 11: Yeah, it's just saving money.
Speaker 7: I mean I say, we did our celebration not that
Speaker 7: long ago. When we did the initial deposit. We went
Speaker 7: to the city because I had never been to New
Speaker 7: York City before, so we were down there for looking
Speaker 7: at an apartment like along in the area, still in
Speaker 7: New Jersey, and he was like, you know what, let's
Speaker 7: get on the ferry. Let's go to the city.
Speaker 11: So we went to the city and it was so great.
Speaker 1: Yeah. I love your attitude, Chris. You really do you really?
Speaker 7: I know?
Speaker 1: I mean it sounds like from everything you've been telling
Speaker 1: us that you've just fucking been through the ringer.
Speaker 7: Through it and fucking ringer.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, hand you have.
Speaker 1: You sound like you've handled it like a chap. I'm
Speaker 1: really impressed with you and you and I'm really happy
Speaker 1: to hear you sound you you. I like, you know
Speaker 1: you have been through a lot. But I I and
Speaker 1: correct me if I am wrong, But it does sound
Speaker 1: like you are excited about life moving forward.
Speaker 7: I really am.
Speaker 11: You're right.
Speaker 7: I like there was a minute where I was like
Speaker 7: just so over it and I'm just like life is
Speaker 7: so worth living. Like shit sucks, yeah, but it doesn't
Speaker 7: always suck.
Speaker 11: And there's yeah exactly.
Speaker 2: Do you have any words or tips for people who
Speaker 2: may end up in that situation?
Speaker 7: Look, I will. There are definitely numbers you can call.
Speaker 7: I know for the US, I can't say for anywhere else.
Speaker 7: There's two one one if you are in need of
Speaker 7: emergency services right away for anything, but they specifically have
Speaker 7: a homeless line that you can call at any point
Speaker 7: and get in touch with someone. There are a really
Speaker 7: good resources just to put Google search away. If you
Speaker 7: need help, go to your local police department, fire department.
Speaker 7: Anyone at a hospital can definitely help you and for
Speaker 7: even the right direction. Uh, but there's hope. You know,
Speaker 7: you're never really alone. There are a lot of people
Speaker 7: that can still help you. And even if you can't
Speaker 7: find anyone, you can do it.
Speaker 11: Anyone can.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Chris, dude, thank you very much for sharing your
Speaker 1: story with us. Man, I'm I'm inspiring, I'm impressed, I'm
Speaker 1: impressed by you, and I'm really glad to hear that
Speaker 1: things are on the up swing.
Speaker 11: Thank you, Thank you.
Speaker 7: Both for talking with me. This has been great. Thank
Speaker 7: you guys for what you do.
Speaker 2: Hey, have a good night matter Chris, you too, be safe, y'all.
Speaker 7: Good night.
Speaker 1: By a really a really uh solid theme this evening
Speaker 1: of people who've just gone through some fucking ship. Du Yeah,
Speaker 1: like yeah, yeah, And I you know, I meant what
Speaker 1: I said to Chris where she just seemed like it's
Speaker 1: it's it's dope, it's hope that she's uh seems like
Speaker 1: she's on the up swing.
Speaker 2: Dude, I mean everybody I was before her too, with
Speaker 2: the girl with the with the heart issue. Man. Yeah,
Speaker 2: her attitude was insane.
Speaker 1: Man, dude, thank you so much for coming on the show. Uh,
Speaker 1: it makes me happy too.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: I like, I had a brief the moment just now
Speaker 1: where I was like, she's sound everything happy on the
Speaker 1: fun and I was looking over you and you were
Speaker 1: like and I'm looking at my body and I'm all green,
Speaker 1: and I was like, this is wild. I'm looking around them,
Speaker 1: this is wild that we're doing this right now. I
Speaker 1: had a moment where I.
Speaker 3: Was just like totally.
Speaker 2: I had a few moments where I would look at
Speaker 2: I was like, like thinking about these inspiring things everything said.
Speaker 3: I'm looking at myself. I'm like, damn, we're wearing.
Speaker 1: I thought it like she she's saying all this stuff
Speaker 1: like you're runn a fucking Graco costumes. Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and we're really we're really wild.
Speaker 3: Hopefully it feels like we're helping people.
Speaker 2: Man. So it's it's it's a second, dude, you're doing
Speaker 2: something really dope.
Speaker 1: Here, gravy listen before we go, Please anything you wanna
Speaker 1: you want to say to the people. Plugs? Can we
Speaker 1: get some plugs. I want to give you the opportunity
Speaker 1: to tell people where they can find you. Those who
Speaker 1: are new to Young Gravy.
Speaker 3: Hey, everybody, it's Young Gravy.
Speaker 2: If you guys have liked me so far, all you
Speaker 2: gotta do is just it's just Young Gravy. But the
Speaker 2: young doesn't have an O in it. It's a you
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Speaker 2: It's the same thing everywhere everywhere I make music.
Speaker 1: Go follow this man. Go listen to Gasanova an album.
Speaker 1: Second album.
Speaker 3: That was my second album.
Speaker 2: Why been a bunch of aps and a bunch of
Speaker 2: other shit I made so me and Baby No Money.
Speaker 2: Got Baby Gravy three coming, and I have another album dropping.
Speaker 2: I got two projects dropping before the year ends. Cool man,
Speaker 2: so he's it coming tour in the winter.
Speaker 1: Go listen to the song yup, that's my favorite song.
Speaker 3: Yeah, listen to you like that an exclamation part at
Speaker 3: the end.
Speaker 1: Good on you any tour day it's coming out.
Speaker 2: I'm doing some festivals and like the Midwest, and then
Speaker 2: I have a big old tour of the whole US
Speaker 2: November December, Beautiful Baby Gravy three tour. If you look
Speaker 2: my name up, it'll come out.
Speaker 1: Go for this man, young gravy all over the internet
Speaker 1: to any final thoughts, feeling sentiments you want to say
Speaker 1: to the computer.
Speaker 2: Appreciate you guys from being here for Appreciate y'all for
Speaker 2: being here. I love this. This is a good, good
Speaker 2: evening for me. Let me enjoy myself.
Speaker 1: Thank you, Thank you again for coming on.
Speaker 3: Brother, This is a beautiful moment. Everyone sleep tight.
Speaker 2: Kid goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 2: Never d goes to his I was teaching you loud.
Speaker 2: Interview line is not really an expert