WEBVTT - YUNG GRAVY GIVES ADVICE AS A GECKO 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:04.200 Young Gravy's baby. What's been the most persistent thought on 0:00:04.240 --> 0:00:05.080 your mind lately? 0:00:05.840 --> 0:00:09.480 It's persistent thought on my mind lately. Oh goodness, man, 0:00:10.880 --> 0:00:13.480 try to think man, Addison's Ray, Addison Rai's mom has 0:00:13.520 --> 0:00:14.680 been on my mind a lot lately. 0:00:18.000 --> 0:00:19.480 I think, man, the uh. 0:00:21.000 --> 0:00:23.880 I was in in Britain for a while and the 0:00:24.280 --> 0:00:26.680 fact that they eat tomatoes and beans for breakfast every 0:00:26.760 --> 0:00:28.320 day has been on my mind for a while. 0:00:32.080 --> 0:00:34.120 You said, Addison Ray's mom has been Madison Ra's mom 0:00:34.159 --> 0:00:34.559 has been a while. 0:00:35.000 --> 0:00:35.120 You have? 0:00:35.200 --> 0:00:37.400 You been talking to Sherry, all right? So I wanted 0:00:37.440 --> 0:00:39.599 to ask you. This is the this is the thing 0:00:39.640 --> 0:00:41.400 I'm really dying to talk to you about, is like, 0:00:41.440 --> 0:00:47.600 how much of the mom thing is a character versus like, 0:00:48.159 --> 0:00:52.640 in real life you are having sex with a lot 0:00:52.680 --> 0:00:54.480 of older women. 0:00:54.960 --> 0:00:57.320 So so the mom. 0:00:57.160 --> 0:01:03.520 Thing, Yeah, I would say it began in high school 0:01:03.680 --> 0:01:08.039 from one experience I had with a professional that I 0:01:08.080 --> 0:01:14.320 was associated with, and it was cool, and then I 0:01:14.360 --> 0:01:16.560 just thought it was a good, like unique thing to 0:01:16.680 --> 0:01:19.120 kind of I mean this years later, when I decided 0:01:19.160 --> 0:01:20.280 to be a rapper, I was like, oh, it's a 0:01:20.360 --> 0:01:23.240 unique thing to kind of add into my my repertoire 0:01:23.319 --> 0:01:28.880 of sauce and then it kind of manifests itself into 0:01:28.959 --> 0:01:32.920 reality and my dams are filled with milks. 0:01:33.000 --> 0:01:35.720 So so now I do fuck moms? 0:01:35.920 --> 0:01:38.160 Okay, I mean I had probably before I was a rapper, 0:01:38.160 --> 0:01:41.720 probably I had about three mom experiences which were great? 0:01:42.280 --> 0:01:42.560 Great? 0:01:42.680 --> 0:01:46.480 How many would if you're comfortable saying mom experiences? Do 0:01:46.480 --> 0:01:47.039 you think you've had. 0:01:46.959 --> 0:01:48.960 Not a crazy amount. I'm I'm not out here. I'm 0:01:49.000 --> 0:01:50.440 not out here fucking throwing. 0:01:50.200 --> 0:01:51.400 It like, because I was. 0:01:51.600 --> 0:01:53.200 I was listening to a lot of music before you 0:01:53.520 --> 0:01:57.000 came here, and I was listening to Gasanova and I 0:01:57.080 --> 0:02:00.440 was like, this guy loves sex. 0:02:01.480 --> 0:02:02.880 Yeah, I mean it's it's okay. 0:02:04.040 --> 0:02:06.280 Do you love sex as much as people? Is it 0:02:06.400 --> 0:02:09.919 that big of a part of your life? From listening 0:02:10.000 --> 0:02:12.600 to that, I'm like, this guy, this is. 0:02:12.560 --> 0:02:13.880 It depends on the season. 0:02:13.880 --> 0:02:17.760 If it's tour season versus real life not tour season, 0:02:17.960 --> 0:02:20.680 it's different. But but no, you know, I'm not I'm like, 0:02:20.880 --> 0:02:24.280 I'm a horny guy. You know, it's your classic horny dude. Man, 0:02:24.440 --> 0:02:28.440 I'm not like a tweaker. But uh, I actually don't. 0:02:28.520 --> 0:02:29.240 I don't drink. 0:02:29.080 --> 0:02:31.000 Off, you don't jerk off. 0:02:31.000 --> 0:02:33.080 I don't drink off well as of as of twenty 0:02:33.120 --> 0:02:34.400 twenty two, I don't drink off. 0:02:34.400 --> 0:02:36.320 Okay, so this year you have you have not jerked 0:02:36.320 --> 0:02:37.280 off once this year. 0:02:37.520 --> 0:02:40.120 I have drinked off once or maybe no once one 0:02:40.160 --> 0:02:40.679 time this year. 0:02:40.680 --> 0:02:42.160 What made you decide to stop jerking off? 0:02:42.560 --> 0:02:45.920 I just decided. I was like, man like, well, for 0:02:45.960 --> 0:02:48.440 anyone out there who knows what no no FAP is 0:02:48.560 --> 0:02:50.840 no FAP, I know, there's like a community that that 0:02:50.919 --> 0:02:51.919 goes by it. And I was like, you know, I'm 0:02:51.919 --> 0:02:53.600 gonna trrive this out. And I thought, you know what, 0:02:54.400 --> 0:02:56.200 I think that I'm gonna be better at everything else 0:02:56.280 --> 0:02:58.800 if I don't drink off. And I think I've wasted 0:02:58.800 --> 0:03:03.519 time doing this and I have a warped version of 0:03:03.560 --> 0:03:07.000 reality by drinking off to this fucking crazy ass activity 0:03:07.360 --> 0:03:09.560 on the internet. So I haven't drinked off this year 0:03:09.639 --> 0:03:12.440 other than one time when I really I you ever 0:03:12.560 --> 0:03:14.520 wake up and you just can't get rid of your 0:03:14.720 --> 0:03:16.480 the wood and it's like painful. 0:03:16.520 --> 0:03:19.480 Well, I've been having a problem where like if I 0:03:19.560 --> 0:03:23.520 you know, because I'm always like at home and if 0:03:23.720 --> 0:03:28.799 I can I will usually like if if well, if 0:03:28.800 --> 0:03:31.400 the like well, like if I'm like whatever. If I'm 0:03:31.400 --> 0:03:33.920 at the airport and I get a bonner, I'm like, 0:03:33.960 --> 0:03:35.720 I just gotta, you know, sit this one out. But 0:03:35.720 --> 0:03:38.400 if I'm just at my house, you know, editing something 0:03:38.400 --> 0:03:39.840 on my computer and I get a boner, I'm like, 0:03:39.880 --> 0:03:41.360 I'm taking care of this one. 0:03:41.480 --> 0:03:44.440 Get an erection, it's like time to yeah, you know yeah. 0:03:44.160 --> 0:03:45.760 And that takes a lot to just be like, no, 0:03:45.760 --> 0:03:48.280 I'm gonna ride it out. I'm gonna not. Every time 0:03:48.360 --> 0:03:50.800 I am beckoned by my penis, I do answer the call, 0:03:51.000 --> 0:03:53.040 which and I wish I didn't do that. I wish 0:03:53.040 --> 0:03:54.760 I had more, wish I was more in charge. 0:03:54.800 --> 0:03:56.520 I think I just wanted to test myself, you know, 0:03:56.680 --> 0:03:58.760 like like in the past, I've had problems with drinking 0:03:59.040 --> 0:04:01.360 and cigaretts and staff, and I was like, you know what, 0:04:01.360 --> 0:04:05.360 this is my next my next fucking boss that I'm 0:04:05.360 --> 0:04:06.760 going to tackle. You know what I'm saying. It was 0:04:06.800 --> 0:04:09.760 the next fucking boss level. And I was like, I'm 0:04:09.800 --> 0:04:10.720 not going to drink off this yere. 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:14.040 Has it been difficult or you found yourself in. 0:04:14.280 --> 0:04:15.440 I mean it was like, I mean it was it 0:04:15.480 --> 0:04:16.360 wasn't that difficult. 0:04:16.400 --> 0:04:19.400 Because in January and February I was on tour, and 0:04:20.440 --> 0:04:24.160 I mean I'm still doing almost sex things, so so 0:04:24.160 --> 0:04:27.000 it was all good then. Since then, basically, if if 0:04:27.000 --> 0:04:28.400 you don't drink off for a week, you kind of 0:04:28.400 --> 0:04:30.280 just like start leveling up a little bit. 0:04:30.360 --> 0:04:32.680 You know, are you noticing? Because I've been on the 0:04:32.720 --> 0:04:35.640 no fab creddits and people are talking about like they'll 0:04:35.960 --> 0:04:39.400 their brain fog will clear and they'll like be able 0:04:39.440 --> 0:04:40.839 to fly and ship like that. 0:04:41.120 --> 0:04:46.880 The only really notice myself is like extra like just 0:04:46.960 --> 0:04:50.479 fucking energy and like testostery. Like like I was, I 0:04:50.480 --> 0:04:52.400 would just get down on the ground and do push ups, 0:04:52.600 --> 0:04:54.360 you know, kind of like a douchey way almost. 0:04:54.440 --> 0:04:56.440 I would just like fucking I want to I want to. 0:04:56.440 --> 0:04:58.119 Be All that energy has to go somewhere. 0:04:58.120 --> 0:05:00.599 I need to do something right now. So yeah, man, 0:05:01.160 --> 0:05:02.800 you want on my first jog one time? 0:05:02.920 --> 0:05:04.360 Yeah you wanted your first job? 0:05:05.200 --> 0:05:07.320 Yeah? Did you not just jerked off for like a 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:07.800 week and a half. 0:05:07.839 --> 0:05:10.080 And I want a job that manifested itself as a job. 0:05:10.279 --> 0:05:12.760 Yeah, that's what it manifested itself as matter of fucking 0:05:13.160 --> 0:05:14.159 little jog around the block. 0:05:14.200 --> 0:05:17.839 It was like a you know, mile, but it was counted. 0:05:18.000 --> 0:05:21.200 So these you said you had three Mom, experiences, and 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:24.760 I'm sure you've had more since. Have you since met 0:05:24.960 --> 0:05:29.840 a person whose mom you slept with that did not know? 0:05:30.120 --> 0:05:34.560 Did you ever meet any of these people's kids? What 0:05:34.640 --> 0:05:34.840 was that? 0:05:34.960 --> 0:05:35.120 Like? 0:05:35.279 --> 0:05:38.120 Yes, it's worse when they do know? 0:05:39.040 --> 0:05:42.080 What what what do they tell me about an experience 0:05:42.080 --> 0:05:42.599 where you met one? 0:05:43.560 --> 0:05:46.240 Okay, the worst, the worst experience, I mean not the worst, 0:05:46.279 --> 0:05:48.159 the best and worst. I mean there was there was 0:05:48.200 --> 0:05:51.440 a time where there was a really fine woman in 0:05:51.560 --> 0:05:54.200 the crowd at a concert and she had well, she 0:05:54.240 --> 0:05:55.880 had a shirt on that was literally it was like 0:05:56.560 --> 0:05:59.520 something about milk. And I was like, hey man, and 0:05:59.600 --> 0:06:02.400 I I had my boy go over my tour manager 0:06:02.440 --> 0:06:06.600 and go grabber information. And then what she decided to 0:06:06.680 --> 0:06:08.040 do was I was like, you know, it's cool, it's 0:06:08.040 --> 0:06:09.640 going to meet and greet in So she brought her 0:06:09.720 --> 0:06:12.080 kids to the tour bus, her kids. 0:06:12.440 --> 0:06:13.440 So I went to the tour bus. 0:06:13.440 --> 0:06:15.440 Her and her two children that are like only a 0:06:15.440 --> 0:06:17.400 few years younger than me, came to the tour bus. 0:06:17.920 --> 0:06:20.560 I met them, we took pictures, and then she got 0:06:20.560 --> 0:06:24.039 them an uber and said, I'm gonna stay here really 0:06:25.680 --> 0:06:28.840 fuck your favorite rapper and you'all go do your thing 0:06:28.839 --> 0:06:30.960 and I was like, I was like, man, that's really cool, 0:06:30.960 --> 0:06:32.200 but I feel really weird. 0:06:32.240 --> 0:06:34.279 But do you think were the kids big fans of you? 0:06:34.680 --> 0:06:36.440 Yeah? She didn't know of me before that. 0:06:36.600 --> 0:06:38.240 All right, So who's your favorite rapper? 0:06:38.600 --> 0:06:40.440 My favorite rapper would be it would have to be 0:06:40.520 --> 0:06:43.680 Young Thug or oh Man Young. 0:06:43.760 --> 0:06:46.000 I really like Young Dog Action Bronson Young. 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:50.080 So if Young Thug had sex with your mom, I 0:06:50.120 --> 0:06:52.000 wouldn't all how would you feel about that? 0:06:52.200 --> 0:06:55.240 Yeah? You know what? See that? 0:06:56.040 --> 0:06:57.919 It always crosses my mind every time something like then, 0:06:57.920 --> 0:07:02.760 an event like that occurs, and for some reason, I 0:07:02.800 --> 0:07:04.680 think I would let Young Dogs slide. I think I'll 0:07:04.680 --> 0:07:06.400 look for my mom, but anyone else. 0:07:06.800 --> 0:07:10.680 No, you know, I think people are are very protective 0:07:11.040 --> 0:07:13.920 about this. They're like, like, it's an insult to be like, 0:07:13.920 --> 0:07:15.480 oh I fucked your mom, I fucked your sister or whatever. 0:07:15.520 --> 0:07:18.320 I'm like, listen, if you really love your mom, if 0:07:18.320 --> 0:07:21.720 you really love your mom, if you really love her, 0:07:21.800 --> 0:07:24.760 don't you want her to be happy? Don't you want 0:07:24.800 --> 0:07:26.680 her to have I mean this is don't you want 0:07:26.680 --> 0:07:29.560 your mom to have fulfill your sexual experiences people that 0:07:29.640 --> 0:07:30.400 she's attracted to. 0:07:30.560 --> 0:07:31.400 The climate is changing. 0:07:31.400 --> 0:07:33.240 There are people that will slide in with with their 0:07:33.280 --> 0:07:36.520 mom's numbers and photos and like resumes, and it's. 0:07:36.360 --> 0:07:38.760 Like it's people people. I don't know. 0:07:38.760 --> 0:07:40.640 I think I think it's I respect it, you know, 0:07:40.680 --> 0:07:42.680 it's like people want their parents be happy. Do you 0:07:42.720 --> 0:07:45.080 have a good relationship. Yeah, My mom's one of my 0:07:45.080 --> 0:07:47.280 best friends ever. She's the sweetest. Yeah. 0:07:47.560 --> 0:07:50.680 Has anyone ever tried to slide into into your mom's people? 0:07:51.720 --> 0:07:51.800 No? 0:07:52.280 --> 0:07:54.400 I think people will kind of. I really haven't. 0:07:54.440 --> 0:07:56.520 There's one time that some girl was like, oh, I'm 0:07:56.520 --> 0:07:57.600 gonna fuck on Gravy's mom. 0:07:57.600 --> 0:08:00.920 And then I was like, well, you know, I was like, 0:08:00.960 --> 0:08:02.080 you know what, fair enough. 0:08:01.960 --> 0:08:04.000 You can't, but no, you can't be like you can't 0:08:04.000 --> 0:08:05.800 be like that's a little that's your whole thing is 0:08:05.840 --> 0:08:07.440 to fun people exactly exactly. 0:08:07.480 --> 0:08:07.880 You can't. 0:08:07.880 --> 0:08:10.280 You'd be such a hypocrite if you were like, that's direspect. 0:08:10.600 --> 0:08:11.440 I couldn't be mad. 0:08:11.520 --> 0:08:13.920 But I just I just I was. And I was 0:08:14.000 --> 0:08:17.040 just like, I don't know what this one is because 0:08:17.080 --> 0:08:19.000 she was just like, I'm gonna fucking Graviy's mom blah 0:08:19.000 --> 0:08:21.040 blah blah blah blah blah. I was like, no, man, 0:08:21.040 --> 0:08:23.960 that's Cynthia, dude, she's the sweetest. Maybe we'll I'll check 0:08:24.000 --> 0:08:25.880 it around FaceTime later or so. I'm she's a sweetheart. 0:08:27.480 --> 0:08:28.560 I have half seblings. 0:08:28.640 --> 0:08:30.520 Okay, how do they feel about the. 0:08:31.160 --> 0:08:33.000 Uh there's one that I don't really talk to who's 0:08:33.040 --> 0:08:33.520 kind of weird. 0:08:33.960 --> 0:08:38.680 One's a professor at Drake University shott to my students 0:08:38.679 --> 0:08:42.200 out there. Uh, he's he's a real one. And then 0:08:43.320 --> 0:08:46.920 the other one is a she teaches dressage. 0:08:47.440 --> 0:08:48.280 I've heard that before. 0:08:48.600 --> 0:08:51.440 It's like it's like getting your horse to crip walk. 0:08:51.600 --> 0:08:54.800 Basically, it's like dancing with a horse tied, and she's 0:08:54.840 --> 0:08:58.000 she's like a champion at it. They're all in their 0:08:58.080 --> 0:09:04.040 like fifties because my dad was way older, and their kids, 0:09:04.160 --> 0:09:06.080 their kids are like my age. They come to my shows. 0:09:06.280 --> 0:09:06.840 That's awesome. 0:09:06.920 --> 0:09:07.400 It's a vibe. 0:09:07.480 --> 0:09:09.000 Dude, Hey, you want to take some phone calls? 0:09:09.080 --> 0:09:10.679 Yeah, let's let's get some folks on here. 0:09:10.679 --> 0:09:10.839 Man. 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:12.040 I'm I'm curious. 0:09:12.240 --> 0:09:17.120 Hello, Oh my god, Hello, Hi Holly, how are you? 0:09:18.760 --> 0:09:20.120 I'm great? How are you guys? 0:09:21.080 --> 0:09:22.520 Really good? Were you born on Christmas? 0:09:24.240 --> 0:09:26.520 I wasn't a common question, though. 0:09:27.440 --> 0:09:28.560 You get that a lot, all right? 0:09:29.160 --> 0:09:30.479 That is that a thing that Holly. 0:09:30.480 --> 0:09:32.719 If you're born on Christmas. It's like a tradition, and 0:09:32.760 --> 0:09:33.839 name your kid Holly. 0:09:33.600 --> 0:09:34.960 Because because it's a Holliday. 0:09:35.120 --> 0:09:37.000 If you're just Holly is like the thing you hang 0:09:37.040 --> 0:09:39.000 on your when you deck the halls with. 0:09:39.400 --> 0:09:41.840 Bows of I thought that. I thought that was just 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:43.800 a random word that didn't make any sense. 0:09:43.800 --> 0:09:46.319 Oh, yeah, it's like a plant Holly. 0:09:46.400 --> 0:09:49.800 Tell us about Holly. What what is Holly? 0:09:50.760 --> 0:09:52.040 The plant or the person? 0:09:52.920 --> 0:09:56.640 I mean both tell us about the origin and then 0:09:56.679 --> 0:09:57.880 tell us about you. 0:09:57.920 --> 0:10:02.840 Please, Okay, Well the plant is it's like an It's 0:10:02.880 --> 0:10:06.680 like a berry, I guess, like a Christmas type berry. 0:10:06.760 --> 0:10:09.600 I don't know anything about the plant, but it's related 0:10:09.600 --> 0:10:12.280 to yerba. Mate. If you guys like yearba, it's in 0:10:12.320 --> 0:10:13.080 the same. 0:10:15.040 --> 0:10:18.160 You saw me on that one. 0:10:20.760 --> 0:10:24.600 I am. So, I'm twenty three and right now I'm 0:10:24.640 --> 0:10:28.240 working two jobs. By day, I am the manager for 0:10:28.320 --> 0:10:32.080 a cleaning company and by night I am a cam girl. 0:10:33.920 --> 0:10:40.080 Wow, it says here that you're you're struggling managing people's 0:10:40.160 --> 0:10:43.719 comments towards you during some of your camera shows. What's 0:10:43.760 --> 0:10:44.320 going on with that? 0:10:46.760 --> 0:10:47.200 Yeah? 0:10:47.240 --> 0:10:50.600 So basically I only started doing it to like supplement 0:10:50.640 --> 0:10:53.880 my income, and I really didn't have any idea of 0:10:53.920 --> 0:10:55.560 what it was going to be like, except that I 0:10:55.600 --> 0:10:57.440 was going to get paid to be naked, which is 0:10:57.520 --> 0:11:03.040 like pretty dope. So now I'm kind of I've gotten 0:11:03.120 --> 0:11:04.960 to the point I've been doing it for like five 0:11:05.080 --> 0:11:08.000 months now, and I'm kind of finding it hard to 0:11:08.080 --> 0:11:12.280 disguise how revolting it is. Like the things that people say, 0:11:12.720 --> 0:11:14.920 they're starting to get to me on like a little 0:11:14.960 --> 0:11:17.880 bit more of a personal level. So I'm kind of 0:11:17.920 --> 0:11:22.160 having trouble like separating the work from the people, you 0:11:22.200 --> 0:11:22.600 know what I. 0:11:22.520 --> 0:11:26.760 Mean, I've I've seen people. 0:11:26.800 --> 0:11:30.400 I mean, I've seen like I guess there's just I mean, 0:11:30.559 --> 0:11:32.480 we all know what in CEL. 0:11:32.440 --> 0:11:36.840 It's in involuntarily celis. 0:11:37.080 --> 0:11:40.719 There's there's a lot of people out there who who 0:11:40.760 --> 0:11:43.520 find saw us in the Internet and do this weird 0:11:43.559 --> 0:11:48.360 shit right well, I don't know, there's just a weird 0:11:48.440 --> 0:11:52.760 culture within them of like being pissed off about whatever 0:11:52.840 --> 0:11:55.600 it is, even though I don't know, they're they got 0:11:55.720 --> 0:11:59.200 fucking stacks the Mountain dew ready and they're they're gonna 0:11:59.280 --> 0:12:02.320 just I don't know. I've seen almost every time that 0:12:02.320 --> 0:12:05.079 people talk about me, and I see that it's that 0:12:05.240 --> 0:12:09.680 set of people, and you're in a space where there's 0:12:09.720 --> 0:12:13.200 a lot of those folks, and like the internet lurkers 0:12:13.240 --> 0:12:16.320 are gonna be in there. I guarantee the majority of 0:12:16.320 --> 0:12:19.440 them are just real ones that are in there. But 0:12:19.480 --> 0:12:22.679 then the ones that have the audacity to go in 0:12:22.679 --> 0:12:26.600 and comment and have like the you know, the little 0:12:26.600 --> 0:12:29.400 weirdos are the ones that you're gonna see. But like, 0:12:30.440 --> 0:12:32.920 how about the majority of those folks are not not 0:12:33.080 --> 0:12:33.520 in cells. 0:12:34.040 --> 0:12:41.120 Is there a particular like thing that you're sensitive about 0:12:41.280 --> 0:12:45.840 that people comment on negatively or is it just sort 0:12:45.840 --> 0:12:49.679 of a medley of disgusting things. 0:12:51.080 --> 0:12:54.560 It is mostly a medley, although a lot of people have, 0:12:54.800 --> 0:12:57.680 like I don't know, I do a thing where it's 0:12:57.679 --> 0:13:00.560 like you can tip me like fifty tokens or whatever 0:13:00.679 --> 0:13:04.360 for a song request, and I get the cringiest fucking 0:13:04.400 --> 0:13:08.200 song requests, Like it's like Breaking Benjamin, like early y 0:13:08.280 --> 0:13:11.200 two k all that shitty stuff like Creed and all that. 0:13:11.280 --> 0:13:14.679 Sorry if anybody likes Creed, But it's like they only 0:13:14.720 --> 0:13:18.400 pick bad songs. So I'm thinking, yeah, I'm gonna have 0:13:18.440 --> 0:13:19.880 to take that off of the menu. 0:13:19.920 --> 0:13:23.520 I think, oh, that's that's interesting, because then that might 0:13:24.520 --> 0:13:27.240 kind of imply that you're the fan bases of you know. 0:13:27.320 --> 0:13:30.840 I mean, I'm sure there's every every genre of human 0:13:30.880 --> 0:13:34.840 in there, but like there are some weird older dudes. 0:13:34.880 --> 0:13:36.480 I mean, I guess if someone likes cre they're probably 0:13:36.480 --> 0:13:37.920 a little bit older than me. I'm twenty six. I'm 0:13:37.960 --> 0:13:41.480 kind of like an old fucker, But like thirty something 0:13:41.559 --> 0:13:43.920 year olds are out here being weird and horny too, 0:13:43.960 --> 0:13:47.839 and like, I don't know, everyone has some weird, pent 0:13:48.000 --> 0:13:52.360 up douchiness in them and that's their place to release it, 0:13:52.440 --> 0:13:55.640 you know. So like you kind of picked a spot 0:13:55.679 --> 0:14:00.200 to make to make money where like you're gonna have 0:14:00.280 --> 0:14:00.760 to deal. 0:14:00.600 --> 0:14:07.520 With the shitty customers and not that you not that 0:14:08.200 --> 0:14:09.720 I don't know, not that you shouldn't expect. 0:14:09.800 --> 0:14:13.040 I mean, everyone that's in that space is going to 0:14:13.080 --> 0:14:15.200 have some show that coming in. And there's some black 0:14:15.240 --> 0:14:17.880 ass people, but like it's not like you're any different 0:14:17.880 --> 0:14:21.240 than the rest of the Like they're hating on you 0:14:21.240 --> 0:14:23.960 because they want to hate on something is. 0:14:24.840 --> 0:14:28.600 Throughout your your life. Like, even before you sort of 0:14:29.000 --> 0:14:33.960 put yourself out there on the internet, did you consider 0:14:34.000 --> 0:14:35.840 yourself a sensitive person. 0:14:39.000 --> 0:14:42.760 Yeah, somewhat. I guess I'm kind of sensitive, not normally 0:14:42.800 --> 0:14:46.200 about what people say, though, it's like how you treat me. 0:14:46.400 --> 0:14:49.120 So I guess it's just the general lack of respect 0:14:49.400 --> 0:14:56.960 towards cam models or whatever you want to call them. 0:14:57.120 --> 0:14:57.600 That's the thing. 0:14:57.680 --> 0:14:59.400 Is like when you put yourself and you know, you know, 0:14:59.520 --> 0:15:01.320 like if you need yourself out there on the internet, 0:15:01.640 --> 0:15:05.120 you you no matter what you subject yourself to, the 0:15:05.280 --> 0:15:09.280 inevitability that people will have some shit to say. 0:15:09.440 --> 0:15:14.120 It's like any possible place that can be accessed by 0:15:14.240 --> 0:15:16.960 human being on the Internet, there's going to be that 0:15:17.040 --> 0:15:19.920 one fucking person. Yeah, you know, and sometimes it's that 0:15:20.120 --> 0:15:22.440 twelve people, or it's that fucking hundred people. 0:15:22.600 --> 0:15:26.560 And where you're at. 0:15:27.120 --> 0:15:29.520 Have you thought about, like, I mean, I guess with 0:15:29.600 --> 0:15:31.560 a cam girl, you have to read the chat? Is 0:15:31.600 --> 0:15:34.280 that correct? Do they do they have moderators in the 0:15:34.360 --> 0:15:35.840 chat somewhere or how they do it on Twitch? 0:15:38.080 --> 0:15:41.000 No, it's like self appointed moderators. 0:15:41.040 --> 0:15:43.440 So like if I really like a user. 0:15:43.280 --> 0:15:45.520 I can ask them, like, hey, do you want they 0:15:45.520 --> 0:15:49.240 call it nights like Night in Shining Armor or whatever. 0:15:49.600 --> 0:15:53.400 But all of my nights have since left the website, 0:15:53.480 --> 0:15:57.280 so it's kind of just me managing all of that by. 0:15:56.000 --> 0:15:57.120 My new nights. 0:15:57.360 --> 0:15:59.640 Can we get her? Can we get her a new night. 0:15:59.760 --> 0:16:02.720 Yeah. You look, if you want, man, you can you can. 0:16:02.880 --> 0:16:05.560 You can self promote and here someone from this twitch 0:16:05.600 --> 0:16:07.480 chat could jump over become a night. 0:16:08.040 --> 0:16:08.720 Let's get this girl. 0:16:08.760 --> 0:16:09.960 And I don't know if you want to blow yourself 0:16:10.000 --> 0:16:11.120 up like that, but yeah. 0:16:11.520 --> 0:16:13.760 I would love to get you a new night. So 0:16:14.240 --> 0:16:15.920 maybe multiple nights. 0:16:17.000 --> 0:16:19.600 Yeah, I mean, I'll put my user on the website 0:16:19.640 --> 0:16:22.040 in the chat. If somebody wants to like send me 0:16:22.040 --> 0:16:24.800 an anonymous tip, that would be cool too. I'm cool 0:16:24.800 --> 0:16:25.040 with that. 0:16:26.160 --> 0:16:30.840 Okay, you know this might be I I know this 0:16:30.960 --> 0:16:33.480 is maybe this is an unpopular way to look at things. 0:16:33.480 --> 0:16:36.720 But I think the sooner you you you maybe accept 0:16:36.840 --> 0:16:41.200 like just the inevitability that negativity exists out there and 0:16:41.200 --> 0:16:44.360 that you will be confronted with it. I feel like 0:16:44.520 --> 0:16:48.200 the easier it'll just slide off your back. I don't 0:16:48.200 --> 0:16:50.200 know if if you you feel that way. 0:16:50.280 --> 0:16:52.640 And no matter what, I agree with that, no matter what, 0:16:52.720 --> 0:16:55.120 every time I see a negative comment about myself, I 0:16:55.200 --> 0:16:58.160 feel a little bit bombed, a little some type of way. 0:16:58.720 --> 0:16:59.480 But I've gotten better. 0:16:59.520 --> 0:17:01.640 I just realize that, like you know, these people are 0:17:01.680 --> 0:17:04.040 fucking salty about something else that's going on. 0:17:04.560 --> 0:17:06.399 Or jealousy or whatever it is. 0:17:06.640 --> 0:17:11.399 And I don't know, man like like like if someone 0:17:11.480 --> 0:17:13.760 has the time to go on the internet and go 0:17:13.960 --> 0:17:18.400 comment some shit like that, like you're already balling on them. 0:17:18.720 --> 0:17:21.119 Literally their head to rent free as. 0:17:21.000 --> 0:17:25.560 They say, yeah, rent free, precisely, And this. 0:17:25.600 --> 0:17:28.159 Is like an opportunity I would I would say this. 0:17:28.240 --> 0:17:30.760 I think it's an opportunity for you in a in 0:17:30.800 --> 0:17:32.679 a sense to build a thicker skin. I know that 0:17:32.720 --> 0:17:36.800 you're sort of new to doing this and also you know, 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:38.720 for you to decide if you want to continue going. 0:17:40.320 --> 0:17:43.200 But if if you continue the path and you don't 0:17:43.240 --> 0:17:45.040 let these people get you down, I think that you'll 0:17:45.040 --> 0:17:48.720 come out on the other side of it with a 0:17:48.760 --> 0:17:52.239 deeper sense of self confidence that doesn't come from uh, 0:17:52.400 --> 0:17:55.320 you know, needing validation from people on the internet either way. 0:17:55.400 --> 0:17:57.040 But just like, I know who I am and I'm 0:17:57.080 --> 0:17:59.040 not going to let these people on the internet try 0:17:59.080 --> 0:18:00.399 to convince me otherwise. 0:18:02.119 --> 0:18:03.160 You seem like a bad bitch. 0:18:03.160 --> 0:18:06.119 True, I agree, Well, thank you. 0:18:06.280 --> 0:18:06.480 Yeah. 0:18:06.480 --> 0:18:08.640 I guess part of it is that that is entirely 0:18:08.800 --> 0:18:13.960 opposite from my daytime persona like who I portray myself 0:18:14.000 --> 0:18:17.000 as on the internet has to kind of be like a, 0:18:17.760 --> 0:18:20.359 I don't know, it has to be very sexual and like, 0:18:20.760 --> 0:18:22.720 I don't know, I don't feel like that type of 0:18:22.720 --> 0:18:25.280 person at Also maybe that's also an issue. 0:18:27.040 --> 0:18:29.880 Well can I'll say that, I mean with with being 0:18:29.920 --> 0:18:35.119 a cam girl, being an internet personality, can you be 0:18:36.600 --> 0:18:39.639 I mean like in rap like don't you want to 0:18:39.680 --> 0:18:44.320 be yourself or like a version of yourself? Like in camming? 0:18:44.680 --> 0:18:47.600 People are coming. You know they're coming for sexual reason, 0:18:47.640 --> 0:18:50.639 but they're also like are coming for you as a personality. 0:18:51.200 --> 0:18:55.200 So I think that you should feel okay with being 0:18:55.760 --> 0:18:59.439 who you are and marketing that as a thing that 0:18:59.480 --> 0:19:01.680 people want to have open on their computer screens. 0:19:02.640 --> 0:19:06.040 Well are we doing? Are we talking twitch like hot 0:19:06.080 --> 0:19:08.960 twitch stuff or like like is this like because I 0:19:08.960 --> 0:19:12.000 feel like there are like like only fans. You're not 0:19:12.119 --> 0:19:14.520 You're not throwing off your personality that much. 0:19:14.440 --> 0:19:14.800 Right, No? 0:19:14.880 --> 0:19:17.560 I just I think a little bit like are they well, 0:19:17.640 --> 0:19:20.199 like on I feel like the girls who are like 0:19:20.320 --> 0:19:23.480 really they like pop off on on sites like that 0:19:23.520 --> 0:19:28.760 are like it's not just you know, shoving off you know, sexually, 0:19:28.800 --> 0:19:31.960 it's like also like you're a personality. 0:19:32.040 --> 0:19:36.200 Unique and like and having some type of brand to you, 0:19:36.200 --> 0:19:36.480 you know. 0:19:36.600 --> 0:19:39.360 Right that is true. That is true. I think of like. 0:19:41.400 --> 0:19:43.600 Who do what's her name? The girl with the bathwater. 0:19:43.720 --> 0:19:45.119 You know she's popping because. 0:19:44.920 --> 0:19:47.280 Yeah, she's popping because she's got a whole like whole thing, 0:19:47.400 --> 0:19:51.000 whole thing. She's got a good brand. So Holly, I 0:19:51.000 --> 0:19:53.520 would say, as you're building your brand, uh, for what 0:19:53.560 --> 0:19:54.760 you want to do and how you want to present 0:19:54.800 --> 0:19:57.440 yourself on the internet, you should try to feel free 0:19:57.480 --> 0:19:58.800 to make it as authentic as you can. 0:19:59.320 --> 0:20:03.000 I think being yourself completely, no matter whether you think 0:20:03.040 --> 0:20:06.159 it's sexy or not, because it probably is, fucking be 0:20:06.320 --> 0:20:08.560 yourself because there are so many people out there that 0:20:08.600 --> 0:20:11.840 are down for trying to get into something new, and 0:20:12.880 --> 0:20:14.280 you're unique in your own way. 0:20:15.720 --> 0:20:17.480 People need that. You know what I'm saying, You're the 0:20:17.520 --> 0:20:20.240 next wave, the next mat. 0:20:20.119 --> 0:20:24.800 Bitch, anything else you want to say to the people 0:20:24.800 --> 0:20:25.960 of the computer Before we go. 0:20:28.160 --> 0:20:31.280 You both look very dashing today and welcome to Chili. 0:20:31.400 --> 0:20:34.080 Still flaps. So thank you guys so much for. 0:20:35.760 --> 0:20:35.960 Hi. 0:20:36.000 --> 0:20:42.560 Thank you take cam out. You ever thought about starting 0:20:42.560 --> 0:20:43.200 an OnlyFans? 0:20:44.560 --> 0:20:45.920 I get the question all the time. 0:20:46.359 --> 0:20:50.480 Uh No, I don't know. I just my mom wasn't 0:20:50.480 --> 0:20:54.840 being won't be hyped about it and I don't know, man, 0:20:55.119 --> 0:20:59.280 I just it's not not necessary. I'd rather have less 0:20:59.320 --> 0:21:02.280 money and I have my Johnson all over the internet. 0:21:02.560 --> 0:21:07.040 If you had a partner who was like, I want 0:21:07.080 --> 0:21:09.680 to do only fans and I want to have sex 0:21:09.680 --> 0:21:11.719 and the only fans, and I want you to have 0:21:11.760 --> 0:21:14.679 sex with me and posted on the internet. 0:21:14.400 --> 0:21:14.720 Would you? 0:21:14.720 --> 0:21:15.000 Would you? 0:21:15.080 --> 0:21:17.200 Is that something you'd be I've been there, haven't before 0:21:17.680 --> 0:21:19.960 that before. But I already had a tattoo on my hand. 0:21:20.400 --> 0:21:21.800 Oh so you're identifiable. 0:21:21.920 --> 0:21:24.520 So I was said no, Yeah, I said I couldn't. 0:21:24.600 --> 0:21:27.320 I was like, you know what, maybe, Yeah, there's been 0:21:27.440 --> 0:21:32.400 a few a few times, and I don't know. Only 0:21:32.440 --> 0:21:34.359 fans is cool. It's great that it gets people money, 0:21:34.359 --> 0:21:36.800 but it's not for me. Not for me. 0:21:37.359 --> 0:21:41.240 I would be down for that. Like if I wasn't identifiable, 0:21:41.240 --> 0:21:43.680 I don't think I would wear the gecko costume while 0:21:43.720 --> 0:21:46.080 I was doing it. I've thought about. 0:21:45.880 --> 0:21:51.359 Doing like that's I've thought about doing like like a 0:21:51.400 --> 0:21:54.160 gecko just like my belly and I would like painted 0:21:54.760 --> 0:21:57.000 green and ship and it's just close. 0:21:56.760 --> 0:22:00.520 Ups genius genius. Yeah, I don't know, man, only things 0:22:00.560 --> 0:22:01.879 is out. But I got a lot of respect for 0:22:02.000 --> 0:22:05.800 folks who are who are hustling on there, but it's 0:22:05.840 --> 0:22:06.199 not for me. 0:22:07.840 --> 0:22:09.400 See what else we got going on in here? 0:22:09.680 --> 0:22:10.800 Let's see what's going on. 0:22:11.280 --> 0:22:20.080 Ivan, Ivan, sub guys, some gang what guys. 0:22:20.520 --> 0:22:26.920 Cool being get gos, having a broad you know, And 0:22:27.000 --> 0:22:30.240 it says here that it's says say that you want 0:22:30.240 --> 0:22:34.480 to know our thoughts on virtual reality sex? 0:22:36.520 --> 0:22:39.840 Yeah, yeah, I don't know. 0:22:40.440 --> 0:22:41.080 I don't know, man. 0:22:41.960 --> 0:22:45.600 I know people, Yeah, I just know people that I 0:22:45.800 --> 0:22:49.560 do it, and I just I just personally, I don't 0:22:49.600 --> 0:22:51.800 know how it works. And have you ever heard of 0:22:52.080 --> 0:22:53.240 like VR? 0:22:53.880 --> 0:22:57.960 Like the game I've I've played like A the only 0:22:58.000 --> 0:23:00.399 time I've ever done VR. It was like a it 0:23:00.520 --> 0:23:02.920 was this game. Maybe someone will comment it or something. 0:23:02.960 --> 0:23:05.679 It's like a game where you have a gun and 0:23:05.720 --> 0:23:09.960 then nothing happens if you're still, but when you move, 0:23:10.400 --> 0:23:11.200 everything moves. 0:23:11.480 --> 0:23:12.720 It was really fun. 0:23:12.800 --> 0:23:14.639 It was like it was the first day of COVID 0:23:14.640 --> 0:23:16.920 and I was on mushrooms and I played this game 0:23:17.080 --> 0:23:17.520 super Hot. 0:23:17.560 --> 0:23:18.359 It's golled super Hot. 0:23:18.520 --> 0:23:23.520 I had you have a gun and like things only 0:23:23.560 --> 0:23:25.680 move when you move, and that was one dude I had. 0:23:26.160 --> 0:23:28.000 I almost teared up. I was having so much fun. 0:23:28.040 --> 0:23:30.720 I think VR is really cool. But I don't think that. 0:23:31.880 --> 0:23:33.960 I don't think that I would really personally get into 0:23:34.040 --> 0:23:38.359 like VR sex. I think it's cool that that people 0:23:38.400 --> 0:23:39.040 are creating that. 0:23:41.440 --> 0:23:44.680 Yeah, Like I don't know, it's just like this is weird, 0:23:44.760 --> 0:23:46.879 Like it's not weird, but it's just like I just 0:23:46.920 --> 0:23:50.760 want to know like what people think or like what 0:23:50.920 --> 0:23:53.080 the process is, because you know how in real sex, 0:23:53.119 --> 0:23:54.880 like you know, you get the feeling, right, like you 0:23:54.920 --> 0:23:57.120 get the feel, you get the emotion and stuff like that, 0:23:58.000 --> 0:24:00.520 and like, I don't know, I just really people don't 0:24:00.680 --> 0:24:03.240 would really get that like in VR sex. 0:24:03.280 --> 0:24:03.480 You know. 0:24:06.200 --> 0:24:08.480 I wonder like what I feel like it's going to 0:24:08.520 --> 0:24:11.040 come to a point where they're gonna like, like do 0:24:11.040 --> 0:24:13.000 you think they're ever going to start selling like a 0:24:13.119 --> 0:24:17.360 VR video game with a flashlight or something. Oh totally, 0:24:17.400 --> 0:24:18.800 Like it's gonna come to a point where it's like 0:24:18.840 --> 0:24:24.040 here's your yeah, like your fucking accessory. 0:24:24.080 --> 0:24:26.040 I don't know, But can I hypothesize on what I 0:24:26.040 --> 0:24:27.879 think is really going on here? By the way, I 0:24:27.920 --> 0:24:32.440 think I even I really wants us to sign off 0:24:32.520 --> 0:24:35.560 on virtual reality sex because he really wants to try it, 0:24:35.600 --> 0:24:37.280 but he's wondering if it's weird. 0:24:37.119 --> 0:24:37.600 Or not do it. 0:24:37.640 --> 0:24:39.840 Man, I haven't go I haven't. You don't need you 0:24:39.880 --> 0:24:41.920 don't need us to tell you whether or not it's weird. 0:24:41.960 --> 0:24:43.760 Go and try it out for yourself. 0:24:43.800 --> 0:24:48.359 Man, right now, I meant about about thirty minutes, about 0:24:48.359 --> 0:24:51.600 an hour ago. If he offered me a VR headset 0:24:51.680 --> 0:24:53.960 and a fleshlight right now, I'd walk in that room 0:24:53.960 --> 0:24:56.520 and do it right now. Everybody got it. 0:24:56.880 --> 0:24:57.320 Try everything. 0:25:00.040 --> 0:25:00.720 Yeah, you're right, but. 0:25:00.680 --> 0:25:01.160 I just don't. 0:25:01.320 --> 0:25:03.520 I just don't know, man, because I feel like, say, 0:25:03.600 --> 0:25:05.920 like say, like I'm doing it right, you know how, 0:25:05.960 --> 0:25:09.280 Like they have like those motion captures, like those things 0:25:09.280 --> 0:25:10.840 for VR, where like you can move your hands and 0:25:10.880 --> 0:25:12.439 stuff like that, and you could like walk in a 0:25:12.480 --> 0:25:15.399 certain area, you know, but like feel like I do 0:25:15.520 --> 0:25:18.080 that right, and I do like a motion like I'm 0:25:18.119 --> 0:25:21.640 like I'm like sucking, like touching someone's booze or like 0:25:22.400 --> 0:25:24.400 I don't know, like say like it's like different ship 0:25:24.520 --> 0:25:27.800 like kind of like masturbation type type movements, and say 0:25:27.880 --> 0:25:30.679 someone walks in while I do it, you know, like 0:25:30.720 --> 0:25:31.360 it's gonna. 0:25:31.160 --> 0:25:33.440 Be kind of weird because that's definitely live. 0:25:33.359 --> 0:25:38.399 With my parents. Imagine like doing like a masturbation. Put 0:25:38.480 --> 0:25:41.040 the control and it's just like it's just like, what 0:25:41.040 --> 0:25:41.440 are you doing? 0:25:41.960 --> 0:25:44.119 Hey, bro? If you're if you're watching VR point, you 0:25:44.160 --> 0:25:47.040 better be actually jerking off. You ain't doing no masturbation most. 0:25:48.520 --> 0:25:51.280 Way, if you could have, even if you could afford 0:25:51.640 --> 0:25:55.919 a high tech masturbation device, you should definitely take that 0:25:56.040 --> 0:25:57.840 money to move out of your parents house first. 0:26:00.119 --> 0:26:01.640 I mean there there are Oh do you ivan? 0:26:01.680 --> 0:26:03.720 Howdy howdy? This man's balling out. 0:26:04.000 --> 0:26:05.920 I'm twenty two. I'm twenty two. 0:26:06.520 --> 0:26:08.920 All right, you're on the come up, Bro, we'll come up. 0:26:09.119 --> 0:26:10.400 I haven't. Is there anything else you want to say 0:26:10.400 --> 0:26:11.679 to people of the computer before we go? 0:26:11.920 --> 0:26:13.080 I will, I haven't. 0:26:14.240 --> 0:26:15.000 I'll try it. 0:26:16.440 --> 0:26:18.679 All right, I'll DM you Young Gravy, I. 0:26:18.680 --> 0:26:20.439 Got damn me let me know when when you do it, 0:26:20.560 --> 0:26:23.520 all cop, I'll buy one, all right. 0:26:23.760 --> 0:26:25.560 I actually want to take one thing for young Gravy 0:26:25.560 --> 0:26:28.800 real quick before we end. Hey, man, my cousin's a 0:26:28.880 --> 0:26:32.240 huge fan of yours, bro. Like he he heard you before, 0:26:32.320 --> 0:26:34.719 like he came on your like before you come up 0:26:34.760 --> 0:26:37.639 right now, Like he's known you for a while, and 0:26:37.840 --> 0:26:39.040 I just want to see if, like if you give 0:26:39.119 --> 0:26:40.040 him a shout out real quick. 0:26:40.720 --> 0:26:46.560 Yeah, what's his name? Rudy shouts to my boy, Rudy. 0:26:47.480 --> 0:26:52.600 The boy shout for Rudy. Yeah, gang activity, dude, really 0:26:52.640 --> 0:26:55.399 good name. By the way, Thank you Ivan, I haven't 0:26:55.400 --> 0:26:57.040 don Rudy shout to take care. 0:26:56.920 --> 0:27:00.040 Of us good meaning you guys. 0:26:59.520 --> 0:27:01.240 But yeah, take care of Raby. 0:27:01.680 --> 0:27:03.359 Someone ever asked you to do a shout out and 0:27:03.400 --> 0:27:04.120 you said no? 0:27:06.320 --> 0:27:07.639 I mean a lot of times I'll just like to 0:27:07.640 --> 0:27:09.840 see it quickly, like scroll by a DM where it's like, 0:27:09.880 --> 0:27:10.160 you know. 0:27:10.440 --> 0:27:11.640 That's my brother's birthday. 0:27:11.720 --> 0:27:15.359 But I'm saying there's way too many of them. But no, 0:27:15.440 --> 0:27:17.040 if like like if it if it makes sense and 0:27:17.080 --> 0:27:19.359 it's someone who like I connected with, like I have 0:27:19.440 --> 0:27:21.679 in here, yeah no, I won't say no. 0:27:21.760 --> 0:27:24.520 Sometimes people ask me a shout out and well, because 0:27:24.520 --> 0:27:26.640 here's the thing, like we don't know Rudy, we don't 0:27:26.680 --> 0:27:27.520 know what we're endorsement. 0:27:27.600 --> 0:27:28.919 Yeah yeah. Oh. 0:27:29.040 --> 0:27:29.240 You know. 0:27:29.520 --> 0:27:31.640 One thing that I always refuse is like a frat 0:27:31.760 --> 0:27:33.680 or a sorority or a gang whenever. 0:27:33.400 --> 0:27:36.800 That when they like shout out a. 0:27:35.760 --> 0:27:38.080 Gang or shout out this frat or a sorority, always say 0:27:38.080 --> 0:27:39.399 no because I don't know what the fuck they're up to. 0:27:39.600 --> 0:27:41.359 Right, you know, you were you in a frat when 0:27:41.359 --> 0:27:42.359 you were in did you go to coach? 0:27:42.560 --> 0:27:45.080 I went to college and I was not in a frat. 0:27:45.080 --> 0:27:47.960 I went to University of Wisconsin, big party school. It 0:27:48.000 --> 0:27:50.719 was fun, but I wasn't in a frat. Actual had 0:27:50.720 --> 0:27:52.600 a why. I had a weird phase where I used 0:27:52.600 --> 0:27:55.560 to like, I want to fight frat kids, and I 0:27:55.600 --> 0:27:57.360 would like, when I was drunk, I would like try 0:27:57.359 --> 0:27:58.879 to piss them off and then then I would like 0:27:58.920 --> 0:28:01.280 fight them. That's kind of weird. I don't know. 0:28:01.600 --> 0:28:02.159 Got over that. 0:28:02.400 --> 0:28:05.560 I broke my hand one time fighting somebody, and I'm 0:28:06.720 --> 0:28:08.080 my new man, peaceful man. 0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:09.639 When's the last time you you fought someone? 0:28:10.200 --> 0:28:10.520 Last time? 0:28:10.600 --> 0:28:14.199 I thought somebody would be at least two years right 0:28:14.240 --> 0:28:17.240 before COVID in Atlanta. I think it was in Atlanta 0:28:17.400 --> 0:28:19.720 in Buckhead at a bar and this guy was being 0:28:19.760 --> 0:28:23.520 a dick and to a girl and I said, no. 0:28:24.119 --> 0:28:24.680 You were a knight. 0:28:25.080 --> 0:28:27.200 That was a knight. Ectly, that's a night. 0:28:27.240 --> 0:28:28.600 I r l uh. 0:28:28.720 --> 0:28:30.199 Yeah, I'm more peaceful man. 0:28:30.280 --> 0:28:30.359 Now. 0:28:30.560 --> 0:28:35.400 Do you ever miss the fighting? 0:28:36.359 --> 0:28:38.320 Not really? I think it was like a weird I 0:28:38.360 --> 0:28:39.600 don't know, it's a weird thing for me. 0:28:39.680 --> 0:28:42.080 I mean, like, I totally would fight somebody if if 0:28:42.520 --> 0:28:43.320 something called for it. 0:28:43.440 --> 0:28:46.240 Yeah, like, but but I haven't a while. 0:28:46.760 --> 0:28:49.640 Someone's being racist to a good friend of mine in Amsterdam, 0:28:49.800 --> 0:28:53.400 not not that long ago, and came pretty close and uh, 0:28:53.760 --> 0:28:56.600 everything worked out because we I don't know, we decided 0:28:56.640 --> 0:28:57.200 to be peaceful. 0:28:57.200 --> 0:28:59.400 But in the right circumstances. 0:28:59.480 --> 0:29:03.040 Yes, But are you trained? Do you do the moy tie, 0:29:03.360 --> 0:29:06.040 the the whatever, any of that ship? 0:29:06.160 --> 0:29:08.400 I don't have the I don't have any I don't 0:29:08.400 --> 0:29:09.640 have any professional training. 0:29:09.760 --> 0:29:12.479 I just have like the college, not even college. 0:29:12.520 --> 0:29:16.800 Just like the skater kid fucking throwing hands a few 0:29:16.840 --> 0:29:22.320 times tall person knows how to distance. You know, I'm not. 0:29:22.280 --> 0:29:25.080 Good at fighting enough that you got enough where it's 0:29:25.120 --> 0:29:29.320 good that you like don't actively seek fights, but that 0:29:29.440 --> 0:29:32.520 if a fight, you know you you you have that 0:29:32.560 --> 0:29:34.920 in your pocket in case if a situation comes up 0:29:34.960 --> 0:29:35.719 to call for it. 0:29:37.640 --> 0:29:39.400 And I do have like a friend or two who 0:29:39.480 --> 0:29:42.480 are like m M A fighters that don't look like it, 0:29:42.600 --> 0:29:44.760 and it's like it's wild because it's like. 0:29:45.760 --> 0:29:51.920 Pull it out. How does it feel being a gecko? 0:29:51.960 --> 0:29:54.680 Do you like being being a get go? We should 0:29:54.680 --> 0:29:56.640 go fight someone in oss. 0:29:56.120 --> 0:29:58.200 We should we should fight each other. We can do 0:29:58.320 --> 0:29:59.760 like a gecko fighting ring. 0:29:59.640 --> 0:30:04.920 Echo duel Man. I got an octopus costing on my crib. 0:30:04.960 --> 0:30:06.480 We can put someone in that and make it beat 0:30:06.520 --> 0:30:06.960 the show out of. 0:30:06.960 --> 0:30:09.560 Oct When I first started doing this podcast, and like 0:30:09.600 --> 0:30:11.480 I had start having, I did it for a year 0:30:11.480 --> 0:30:13.440 without having guests on. When I first started guests on, 0:30:13.480 --> 0:30:15.680 I was like, should everyone be a gecko or should 0:30:15.720 --> 0:30:21.120 everyone be a different animal? Like a different I did honestly, 0:30:21.160 --> 0:30:22.719 like you could be therapy octopus. 0:30:22.800 --> 0:30:25.160 Yeah, the octopus would fit all right, But I like 0:30:25.200 --> 0:30:25.520 the geck. 0:30:25.640 --> 0:30:29.120 I really like the get it feels right, so right? 0:30:29.960 --> 0:30:30.800 Get the shades off? 0:30:31.040 --> 0:30:32.400 Yeah, I took them off. I thought I thought i'd 0:30:32.400 --> 0:30:33.200 switch it up a little bit. 0:30:33.200 --> 0:30:35.120 You don't like that, I was, well, I was saying earlier, 0:30:35.160 --> 0:30:37.440 the same having I've had guests have shades on before, 0:30:37.720 --> 0:30:42.040 and it does affect the power dynamic of the stream 0:30:42.280 --> 0:30:44.360 a little bit, because I don't know, I don't know 0:30:44.360 --> 0:30:45.440 if you're I'm. 0:30:45.200 --> 0:30:46.959 Looking right at you or how I'm feeling. All right, 0:30:47.120 --> 0:30:48.120 all right, shades off. 0:30:48.160 --> 0:30:50.360 I can read you better, and I don't know if 0:30:50.400 --> 0:30:51.520 I can actually read you better. 0:30:53.000 --> 0:30:54.120 Shades are off for the rest of the stream. 0:30:55.400 --> 0:30:56.600 Any have you gotten anything? 0:30:56.720 --> 0:30:58.160 Uh? Oh, we asked me that we had a good 0:30:58.160 --> 0:31:01.000 little combo. We talked about my tempt at being by. 0:31:01.040 --> 0:31:02.680 At one point you had an attempt at being by it. 0:31:02.880 --> 0:31:04.280 I was decided that I wanted to see if I 0:31:04.280 --> 0:31:06.640 could enjoy being with a dude and it didn't work out. 0:31:06.760 --> 0:31:09.600 Did that come from like a was was Did that 0:31:09.640 --> 0:31:12.160 come from an urge from the body or from the mind. 0:31:12.520 --> 0:31:15.520 Were you like just like maybe I should do this 0:31:15.640 --> 0:31:18.240 or were you like seeing guys and feeling no? 0:31:18.360 --> 0:31:19.880 It was like I have a lot of I have 0:31:20.000 --> 0:31:21.920 I have a lot of friends that are by or 0:31:21.920 --> 0:31:23.840 I have like I've met people that are And I 0:31:23.920 --> 0:31:27.040 was like, you know what, like I don't know, like 0:31:27.040 --> 0:31:30.200 like like I've never really felt attract to do a dude, 0:31:30.200 --> 0:31:31.840 but like ship. 0:31:31.800 --> 0:31:33.360 Like what's up? And then. 0:31:35.360 --> 0:31:37.520 Basically, well I mentioned a story, but I went to 0:31:37.680 --> 0:31:40.640 a gay club here in LA It was a really 0:31:40.680 --> 0:31:42.600 good looking dude that was coming at me. I didn't 0:31:42.600 --> 0:31:44.320 go there with this intention, but I was there with 0:31:44.320 --> 0:31:46.600 with with this girl and then there's a dude coming 0:31:46.600 --> 0:31:47.920 at me, and I was like, you know what, like 0:31:49.080 --> 0:31:51.600 all right, I'm gonna give a dude a kiss, like 0:31:51.680 --> 0:31:53.640 more than just like a kiss. The Homi good night. 0:31:53.640 --> 0:31:55.840 You know I'm saying you like for like a second 0:31:55.880 --> 0:31:59.680 and like two seconds, probably I at least a little tongue, 0:31:59.680 --> 0:32:00.320 and I was, you know. 0:32:00.280 --> 0:32:05.400 What, Okay, Well you gave you gave it a really honest, 0:32:05.520 --> 0:32:07.120 open mind attempt. 0:32:07.200 --> 0:32:09.280 And I was like, you know what, maybe because you know, 0:32:09.280 --> 0:32:11.000 I have family members that are that are gay or 0:32:11.040 --> 0:32:13.760 by and and I thought, I don't know if it's 0:32:13.800 --> 0:32:14.719 I don't know if it's genetic. 0:32:14.720 --> 0:32:16.080 But I was like, you know, let's see what's up. 0:32:16.120 --> 0:32:19.160 But but I I'm straight straight. 0:32:19.600 --> 0:32:21.560 It's good that you tried and that you know, because 0:32:21.600 --> 0:32:24.080 a lot of people there are people who wouldn't won't 0:32:24.120 --> 0:32:26.320 even try. And there are some people who won't try 0:32:26.320 --> 0:32:27.720 and they're not gay, but there are some people who 0:32:27.720 --> 0:32:31.320 they won't try, and secretly they if they did try, 0:32:31.360 --> 0:32:33.640 they'd be like, ah, this is I have. 0:32:33.800 --> 0:32:37.360 I have a friend, well, I guess a family member 0:32:37.440 --> 0:32:40.600 who who got to like the age fifty. 0:32:40.280 --> 0:32:43.160 Something and then tried that. 0:32:43.520 --> 0:32:48.600 Really and now full on like that fifty something I've 0:32:48.600 --> 0:32:49.320 heard on twitched up. 0:32:49.360 --> 0:32:51.480 Yeah, I've heard stories of people who like later in 0:32:51.560 --> 0:32:55.040 their life will realize that they're gay and then have. 0:32:55.000 --> 0:32:57.479 You ever seen the movie of American Beauty. If anyone 0:32:57.520 --> 0:33:00.120 has American Beauty, it's a really good movie. But uh, 0:33:00.640 --> 0:33:03.600 there's like this dude in the movie who converts that 0:33:03.880 --> 0:33:06.520 an old age and have a very similar situation. And 0:33:06.640 --> 0:33:09.160 I know, I wonder if maybe. 0:33:10.320 --> 0:33:12.480 Later you know, because you tried it, you know, like I, 0:33:12.480 --> 0:33:15.200 But I wonder if maybe later in life, if you 0:33:15.280 --> 0:33:17.800 tried it again, you'd be like, Oh, there's maybe there's 0:33:17.800 --> 0:33:19.640 something here, maybe the body. 0:33:20.720 --> 0:33:22.160 I don't know what it's a good question. 0:33:22.280 --> 0:33:24.680 I don't know, like, if is there, how does that work? 0:33:24.760 --> 0:33:26.959 I don't think there's something in your brain chemistry that 0:33:27.000 --> 0:33:29.640 makes you attracted to a certain thing. 0:33:29.960 --> 0:33:32.000 I don't think anyone knows, because people will say that 0:33:32.040 --> 0:33:35.160 it's like from birth or it's from whenever, and I 0:33:35.240 --> 0:33:39.320 have I've had friends that that were totally straight until 0:33:39.360 --> 0:33:42.320 a certain age and then went by or gay at 0:33:42.320 --> 0:33:44.520 a certain age. So I think I think there's just 0:33:44.560 --> 0:33:47.800 an unexplainable sort of thing that that that runs that. 0:33:50.280 --> 0:33:54.680 I have one friend who has the hottest girlfriend that 0:33:54.720 --> 0:33:56.120 I one of the hot gruverons. 0:33:55.800 --> 0:33:58.840 I know, yeah, and he is at the. 0:33:58.760 --> 0:34:02.520 Same time by and and like he figured that out 0:34:03.120 --> 0:34:05.360 after he was dating her, and she lets him go 0:34:05.480 --> 0:34:06.840 do the dudes. 0:34:07.080 --> 0:34:08.719 Yeah, that's the cool girlfriends. 0:34:08.840 --> 0:34:09.480 Yeah. 0:34:09.520 --> 0:34:11.799 So there's like, I mean, the world seems to be 0:34:11.880 --> 0:34:12.480 pretty open. 0:34:12.600 --> 0:34:15.600 Are you. How do you feel about the open relationship. 0:34:16.640 --> 0:34:19.799 I I I guess I kind of am sort of 0:34:19.840 --> 0:34:22.600 currently in sort of an open relationship or too. 0:34:22.760 --> 0:34:24.480 And and I. 0:34:26.360 --> 0:34:28.120 The times that I've had like a what i'd call 0:34:28.160 --> 0:34:30.799 a girlfriend go out in public, hold hands. 0:34:30.800 --> 0:34:32.560 That type activity. 0:34:32.800 --> 0:34:37.320 No, but but like open relationship, if it's very agreed 0:34:37.400 --> 0:34:39.880 upon on both sides, I think that it's cool. I 0:34:39.920 --> 0:34:41.200 think it's that's all good. Are you? 0:34:41.280 --> 0:34:44.160 Are you a jealous type? It all not really okay good? 0:34:44.239 --> 0:34:45.720 Not really? Yeah, really jealous. 0:34:45.719 --> 0:34:47.400 I have been in the past in the past, but 0:34:47.440 --> 0:34:49.799 I've I don't know exactly why, but I kind of 0:34:49.800 --> 0:34:53.440 got over that. And I mean, a dude, I've had 0:34:53.440 --> 0:34:56.319 a girlfriend she cheated on me. I'm jealous as fuck. Yeah, 0:34:56.440 --> 0:34:58.759 for sure, this as fuck, but like yeah, like, but 0:34:58.880 --> 0:35:00.759 but if it's if it's agreed upon to be that way, 0:35:00.880 --> 0:35:01.640 then it's all good. 0:35:01.800 --> 0:35:04.520 It's like polyamory has gotten when we've talked about it 0:35:04.560 --> 0:35:07.359 on the show a bunch, and I feel like people are, 0:35:07.600 --> 0:35:10.279 you know, it gets a bad rap. People are like, oh, 0:35:10.320 --> 0:35:13.200 you're a simp or whatever the fuck. But it's it's 0:35:13.280 --> 0:35:15.399 like a thing where I think it is a sign 0:35:15.440 --> 0:35:18.280 of like true security because like if you're really secure 0:35:18.320 --> 0:35:21.680 in your relationship, like if you're you're so secure that 0:35:21.760 --> 0:35:24.840 you'll let your significant other have sex with other people 0:35:24.920 --> 0:35:27.759 because you know you're so secure in your relationship that 0:35:27.800 --> 0:35:30.839 you know it won't affect how you guys are. 0:35:31.080 --> 0:35:33.759 I think that's badass. I can, but I think it's cool. 0:35:33.760 --> 0:35:36.680 I think it's cool, and I I don't like the 0:35:36.680 --> 0:35:39.560 words simp. Dude, I don't like when the whole I 0:35:39.560 --> 0:35:41.440 don't know, like the whole thing a lot about like 0:35:42.000 --> 0:35:46.320 people getting mad that you're being super like if someone's 0:35:46.360 --> 0:35:49.160 being very respectful to a woman and like fucking hyping 0:35:49.239 --> 0:35:52.080 up a girl and then people are calling you saying 0:35:52.080 --> 0:35:52.680 this negative. 0:35:52.760 --> 0:35:53.080 I don't know. 0:35:53.120 --> 0:35:55.320 I've always had a problem with that word with simp, 0:35:55.400 --> 0:35:56.960 you know, I mean, I don't know exactly where it 0:35:56.960 --> 0:36:00.680 came from. Simpimp simple thing? What what? What? 0:36:00.680 --> 0:36:05.680 What's it stands for? Stands for sucker, like sucker. 0:36:05.760 --> 0:36:08.120 Yeah, I don't know. It's like dude, like, yeah, there's 0:36:08.120 --> 0:36:10.120 gonna be people that are out there like being thirsty, 0:36:10.160 --> 0:36:11.759 but it's like if you're talking to if you're happing 0:36:11.800 --> 0:36:14.080 a girl up, And like a lot of times when 0:36:14.120 --> 0:36:16.399 I see people dropping simp, it's like someone just being 0:36:16.640 --> 0:36:18.680 mad nice to a girl and like showing love. So 0:36:18.880 --> 0:36:21.480 I don't know, that's never been a fan of that. 0:36:21.680 --> 0:36:24.799 I feel like I'm trying to really reconcile with the 0:36:24.840 --> 0:36:27.239 fact that a lot of the people tick on the 0:36:27.280 --> 0:36:30.600 internet are like just thirteen and they don't really know 0:36:30.680 --> 0:36:33.400 what they're talking about, so they haven't developed enough to 0:36:33.440 --> 0:36:35.759 have like mature thoughts on these kinds of things. 0:36:35.800 --> 0:36:39.440 So I do believe that that SIMP is very common 0:36:39.480 --> 0:36:41.920 among in cells people who don't get pussy say the 0:36:41.920 --> 0:36:42.400 word simp. 0:36:42.440 --> 0:36:43.800 That's one thing that I do believe. 0:36:45.360 --> 0:36:49.200 And you know, like I get why you could use 0:36:49.200 --> 0:36:51.920 that in another situation, but like if you have I mean, 0:36:52.680 --> 0:36:55.239 sometimes you'd like to have game and to just like 0:36:55.360 --> 0:36:57.479 be a normal human being and hang out with women. 0:36:57.520 --> 0:37:02.279 You gotta be respectful, and people don't understand that that's 0:37:02.280 --> 0:37:03.680 fucking life. I don't know. 0:37:03.960 --> 0:37:06.640 Yeah, it's an interesting thing that the internet has created. 0:37:07.160 --> 0:37:14.600 Hey, I got to run this by you. H Page 0:37:14.920 --> 0:37:20.800 from Minneapolis wants to discuss the recent vabbing trend. Do 0:37:20.880 --> 0:37:22.080 you have any idea what that is? 0:37:23.560 --> 0:37:25.680 Let's just get her in here and tell us about it. 0:37:25.800 --> 0:37:28.200 Let's go vabababing. 0:37:29.040 --> 0:37:30.880 Is she mean to say vaping or don't? I don't know, 0:37:31.320 --> 0:37:32.640 that's my best guess. 0:37:33.600 --> 0:37:39.400 Hello, Hello, Hi, Hi Page. 0:37:40.640 --> 0:37:43.040 Yeah, Hi, what's. 0:37:42.960 --> 0:37:44.399 Up with you? 0:37:44.640 --> 0:37:51.239 Pages was scrolling and oh sorry, go ahead. 0:37:51.680 --> 0:37:51.839 Uh. 0:37:52.160 --> 0:37:54.279 Page says here that you want to discuss with us 0:37:54.280 --> 0:37:57.359 the recent trend of vabbing on TikTok And we're both 0:37:57.440 --> 0:37:58.440 very curious what that is. 0:37:58.600 --> 0:37:59.080 What is that? 0:38:00.080 --> 0:38:00.160 Oh? 0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:05.080 Yeah, sure do so. TikTok has told me, and my 0:38:05.760 --> 0:38:10.239 brief research has told me that, Uh, it's basically when 0:38:10.280 --> 0:38:16.279 you take your vaginal secretians and you put them on 0:38:16.320 --> 0:38:19.799 your neck, and it's supposed to be like a natural 0:38:20.080 --> 0:38:26.680 perfume or pheromone that like attracts dudes like crazy babbing. 0:38:27.880 --> 0:38:29.320 So that's babbing. 0:38:29.520 --> 0:38:32.920 Yeah, it sounded pretty I don't know. Right when you started, 0:38:33.120 --> 0:38:35.800 I was like, damn, this is gonna be a whack. 0:38:36.000 --> 0:38:39.960 But but you know, like in the last in the 0:38:40.040 --> 0:38:42.760 least weird way, like I kind of understand. 0:38:42.719 --> 0:38:45.719 M yeah, I kind of yeah, I kind of get it. 0:38:45.800 --> 0:38:47.799 Yeah, yeah, Like I would never do that with my 0:38:47.960 --> 0:38:48.600 ball sweat. 0:38:48.600 --> 0:38:50.440 I don't think we'd ever really do that, but I 0:38:50.440 --> 0:38:52.239 feel like in a girl situation, yeah, I feel like 0:38:52.280 --> 0:38:56.040 balls very balls aren't really you know, we don't we don't. 0:38:56.239 --> 0:38:58.920 I think our pheromones are elsewhere. We don't really secrete 0:39:00.080 --> 0:39:01.200 good vibes from the same. 0:39:01.480 --> 0:39:04.080 I don't know. I wouldn't say balls smell bad, though, 0:39:04.160 --> 0:39:05.719 like I could get down with like a little ball 0:39:05.800 --> 0:39:08.120 smell sometimes it could. 0:39:07.920 --> 0:39:08.479 Be all right. 0:39:08.560 --> 0:39:11.080 I mean, hey, for all the boys in the chat, 0:39:12.200 --> 0:39:13.560 it's just I don't know if this is a pro 0:39:13.640 --> 0:39:16.160 tip or like a weird fact, but like, if you're 0:39:16.160 --> 0:39:17.920 about to get with a girl that's really. 0:39:17.680 --> 0:39:18.560 Bad, what I do. 0:39:19.480 --> 0:39:22.000 I'll take my my my deodorant stick and you know, 0:39:22.120 --> 0:39:24.160 do a little skirt shirt. 0:39:24.280 --> 0:39:24.960 You know what I'm saying. 0:39:25.000 --> 0:39:26.880 I feel like I feel like every guy does that secretly, 0:39:26.920 --> 0:39:28.720 you know what I'm saying. You know, do a little 0:39:28.760 --> 0:39:30.640 stroke up the side. You know what I'm saying. 0:39:31.400 --> 0:39:35.080 Get get your shiit smelling right, as if you always smell. 0:39:34.920 --> 0:39:37.879 Good or just like underside ball. 0:39:38.600 --> 0:39:42.239 No, because she's gonna taste the fucking deodorant stick. I'm 0:39:42.280 --> 0:39:45.120 not about to rub my Johnny down with with some 0:39:45.239 --> 0:39:49.520 do o that's like, yeah, you know the vibes like 0:39:49.680 --> 0:39:54.319 like you know, the nutrition isn't isn't isn't checking out there. 0:39:54.400 --> 0:39:59.879 But page I have to ask, have you yourself participated 0:39:59.880 --> 0:40:01.440 in the vabbing trends? 0:40:03.400 --> 0:40:03.600 You know? 0:40:03.680 --> 0:40:07.920 I have not, And this is not me like that. 0:40:09.800 --> 0:40:12.120 This is not me like that last guy like looking 0:40:12.160 --> 0:40:15.320 for approval to like give it a shot. I really 0:40:16.080 --> 0:40:18.960 I don't really have an interest in it. But I 0:40:18.960 --> 0:40:21.160 I've seen a lot of girls say that it like 0:40:21.920 --> 0:40:24.600 tripled the amount of guys that like approached them and 0:40:24.680 --> 0:40:28.399 like fuck with them. So I think it's interesting for sure. 0:40:28.440 --> 0:40:30.040 It could be something to look into. I don't know. 0:40:30.640 --> 0:40:34.239 I mean I could see like the like subconscious horniness 0:40:34.400 --> 0:40:38.880 kind of growing when you encounter that. Yeah, but like 0:40:39.040 --> 0:40:41.680 but you got to get pretty close to somebody to 0:40:41.800 --> 0:40:46.160 smell a casual like VADs drop. 0:40:45.960 --> 0:40:50.360 It on their neck, you know, So like I don't know. 0:40:50.680 --> 0:40:51.920 I mean, it's not like it's not like you know, 0:40:51.920 --> 0:40:55.160 like your arm pits pheromones that like kind of go 0:40:55.280 --> 0:40:57.040 across the room. But like I don't I don't think 0:40:57.040 --> 0:41:01.480 that coucy scent is as it doesn't spread as far. 0:41:01.560 --> 0:41:02.719 But I like. 0:41:02.680 --> 0:41:04.440 To see my dad all the time, like what if, 0:41:05.640 --> 0:41:08.720 like what if he hugs me like while you're mid. 0:41:09.160 --> 0:41:12.840 Like you can you can you start over. 0:41:12.719 --> 0:41:14.280 With your parents? 0:41:16.840 --> 0:41:18.880 I was just saying, like, what if you're like vabbing, 0:41:19.280 --> 0:41:23.120 like you bab before an event and you like you're like, oh, 0:41:23.120 --> 0:41:24.560 should I have to go pick up some pick at 0:41:24.600 --> 0:41:26.440 my dad's house and then you like give him a 0:41:26.480 --> 0:41:28.319 hug like I don't know. 0:41:28.280 --> 0:41:28.360 I. 0:41:30.360 --> 0:41:31.960 Get it, I get it. 0:41:32.080 --> 0:41:35.440 I think if you're gonna spray juices from your vagina 0:41:35.480 --> 0:41:37.800 on your face, you need to really clear your schedule 0:41:37.840 --> 0:41:38.960 for the next twenty four. 0:41:38.760 --> 0:41:41.280 Hours, prepared for something. 0:41:41.520 --> 0:41:43.080 With what you're going to do for the rest of 0:41:43.120 --> 0:41:44.920 your day, it'll. 0:41:44.719 --> 0:41:48.920 Be prepared for something serious. Career man, next time, I 0:41:49.080 --> 0:41:50.959 all right, I'm with a woman. I'm gonna I'm gonna 0:41:50.960 --> 0:41:54.040 bab all right, I'm gonna for my whole day. You're 0:41:54.080 --> 0:41:56.879 gonna like, I'm gonna like, hey, babe, let me let 0:41:56.880 --> 0:41:59.759 me borrow a little alone real quick. 0:42:00.480 --> 0:42:02.120 Yeah, day ahead of me. 0:42:02.800 --> 0:42:06.600 How would that work if a guy was like like 0:42:06.960 --> 0:42:09.319 vabbed on his face with somebody else. 0:42:10.040 --> 0:42:12.480 How would you feel if I just like gave myself 0:42:12.600 --> 0:42:14.880 the coucie and like just pulled up and I was like, 0:42:14.960 --> 0:42:16.680 went to a meeting and I was like, Yeah, what's up. 0:42:16.719 --> 0:42:22.719 Everybody like that's good. I mean, I think people would 0:42:22.760 --> 0:42:23.440 pretty I think. 0:42:23.360 --> 0:42:24.640 I feel like it's a power. 0:42:26.360 --> 0:42:30.040 It would it would definitely be Alex. It would be 0:42:30.080 --> 0:42:32.200 a flex on the dudes in the room because dudes 0:42:32.200 --> 0:42:34.239 would realize like, oh, this dude smells like coucie blah 0:42:34.239 --> 0:42:39.279 blah blah. It's like the classic fucking testosterone flesh. But 0:42:40.480 --> 0:42:42.640 I don't think overall you'd really be winning as much 0:42:42.680 --> 0:42:45.840 as like I kind of get the vabbing hype that 0:42:45.880 --> 0:42:46.479 you're talking about. 0:42:46.520 --> 0:42:47.400 I kind of get because. 0:42:47.239 --> 0:42:53.080 It's like you're subconsciously getting aroused by the cooch pheromones, 0:42:53.120 --> 0:42:53.319 you know. 0:42:54.440 --> 0:42:59.400 But then do you you Okay, so your own I 0:42:59.400 --> 0:43:03.839 guess juice, You're like, okay, gravy your own CJ Like 0:43:03.920 --> 0:43:06.560 do you when you do you ever scratch your balls 0:43:06.600 --> 0:43:07.200 and smell it? 0:43:07.719 --> 0:43:08.040 Yeah? 0:43:08.320 --> 0:43:10.160 Everyone does? Have you okay? Uh? 0:43:10.640 --> 0:43:13.120 Page have you done that with your own. 0:43:14.480 --> 0:43:15.359 With your female boat? 0:43:16.080 --> 0:43:16.919 So it wouldn't be. 0:43:19.800 --> 0:43:22.279 I think everyone. 0:43:20.800 --> 0:43:24.200 I feel like you have to like know what's going 0:43:24.239 --> 0:43:25.000 on with yourself. 0:43:28.040 --> 0:43:30.879 I I wasn't gonna say it, but like, I think 0:43:30.920 --> 0:43:35.000 I think some boys have been there before. I I'm 0:43:35.000 --> 0:43:37.600 not even gonna. I'm gonna. I'm gonna leave with. 0:43:37.560 --> 0:43:39.360 The story and end with the with the climax. 0:43:39.480 --> 0:43:43.600 I one time made love did my thing, and then 0:43:43.640 --> 0:43:47.320 I and then we want to do it again, and yeah, 0:43:47.400 --> 0:43:50.040 eight of us woman, and I got. 0:43:49.800 --> 0:43:56.200 A whole smorgasbor a whole mouthful of my own seed. 0:43:56.680 --> 0:43:58.680 All right. So I so most. 0:43:58.560 --> 0:44:00.000 People are like, oh, I don't know what not take. 0:44:00.040 --> 0:44:02.000 It's like, I know it not tastes like because I 0:44:02.120 --> 0:44:07.040 fucking got a full face full of it, and I 0:44:07.080 --> 0:44:11.319 don't know. I think I can't. I don't approve. I mean, 0:44:11.360 --> 0:44:11.760 I'm gonna. 0:44:12.000 --> 0:44:17.680 I feel I have so much respect for the woman 0:44:17.719 --> 0:44:18.240 that that's. 0:44:18.120 --> 0:44:21.320 Wall because you feel like you couldn't swallow yourself. 0:44:21.440 --> 0:44:24.120 And I didn't. I didn't. I didn't. I had a 0:44:24.160 --> 0:44:25.839 bad moment. I was about to go to dinner with 0:44:25.840 --> 0:44:30.000 my family. It was it was rough. 0:44:30.080 --> 0:44:33.480 Yeah, it's hard to look family in the eyes after 0:44:34.040 --> 0:44:34.920 yeah yeah, yeah. 0:44:34.960 --> 0:44:37.440 So so I guess it doesn't directly relate to the 0:44:38.000 --> 0:44:42.480 Kuchi the Couci cologne, but I just felt like smelling 0:44:42.520 --> 0:44:44.839 your own kouchie versus like tasting your own nut. It's 0:44:44.880 --> 0:44:47.160 all kind of like a you know, circle of life, 0:44:47.239 --> 0:44:49.960 and I, uh, I feel you. 0:44:50.160 --> 0:44:52.240 I feel you well, Page. 0:44:52.920 --> 0:44:55.440 If you ever do try this, please let us know 0:44:55.480 --> 0:44:56.480 what the with the results. 0:44:56.680 --> 0:45:00.160 The results are, Fellas, don't rub your own nut on 0:45:00.239 --> 0:45:01.240 yourself as cologne. 0:45:01.239 --> 0:45:02.560 I don't think that will work as well. 0:45:03.239 --> 0:45:06.759 Someone's got to try it and just see what what happens. 0:45:06.800 --> 0:45:09.359 Like you know, I guarantee someone has. 0:45:10.920 --> 0:45:11.399 That would be. 0:45:11.360 --> 0:45:12.480 Quite the science start. 0:45:13.719 --> 0:45:15.839 Yeah, it's too late, it's been done. Page. 0:45:15.880 --> 0:45:16.960 Is there anything you want to say to the people 0:45:16.960 --> 0:45:18.040 of the computer before we go? 0:45:22.120 --> 0:45:24.360 Shout out to Minneapolis? I'm from Minneapolis. 0:45:25.480 --> 0:45:27.960 Where are you shying? Where are you from? 0:45:28.640 --> 0:45:31.080 I grew up in but I live in Minneapolis. 0:45:31.440 --> 0:45:36.759 Okay, ship, I'm in uptown. See you out there. 0:45:39.719 --> 0:45:40.719 Thanks, Pete. 0:45:41.280 --> 0:45:41.680 Oh bye. 0:45:44.960 --> 0:45:47.360 You know that wasn't as like when I I actually 0:45:47.360 --> 0:45:49.960 had mentioned that chat. I'd mentioned that call to the 0:45:50.040 --> 0:45:52.360 chat while you were going to the bathroom, and everyone 0:45:52.400 --> 0:45:54.920 was repulsed by it, and I was. I was intrigued. 0:45:55.000 --> 0:45:59.480 But but once we got into it made it made sense. 0:45:59.600 --> 0:46:01.400 Yeah, I actually kind of get it. I like to 0:46:01.520 --> 0:46:03.080 like that one. 0:46:02.280 --> 0:46:02.560 That one. 0:46:03.400 --> 0:46:07.400 Yeah, sorry that I told everyone about my nut consumption story. 0:46:07.440 --> 0:46:08.760 But it happened, braby. 0:46:09.040 --> 0:46:13.319 I dude, you know, when you're in this life, you 0:46:13.400 --> 0:46:18.359 have no incentive to be anything other than who you are, 0:46:18.560 --> 0:46:21.520 to be completely honest, and if you have eaten a 0:46:21.560 --> 0:46:26.160 fistful of fasteful of your owncome, then you should wear 0:46:26.200 --> 0:46:29.799 that on your shoulder. You really should feel like you 0:46:29.880 --> 0:46:32.240 know you have no room for shame in your life. 0:46:32.440 --> 0:46:34.160 Thank you, thank you, thank you. 0:46:35.120 --> 0:46:38.759 That's had the biggest flex It would be that I 0:46:38.800 --> 0:46:41.080 can eat my own comm without worrying about it. So 0:46:41.480 --> 0:46:41.839 thank you. 0:46:41.960 --> 0:46:43.279 I think that is a big flex. 0:46:46.360 --> 0:46:48.520 About d A while, I'll do it. Yeah, I was. 0:46:48.600 --> 0:46:51.840 I saw that as I was doing my research on you. 0:46:51.920 --> 0:46:53.600 I saw something where you talked about DMT, and I 0:46:53.600 --> 0:46:54.000 was like, a lot of. 0:46:54.000 --> 0:46:57.239 People are liking, which is as they should because I 0:46:57.280 --> 0:46:58.600 think DMT is the coolest shit ever. 0:46:59.080 --> 0:47:02.919 Hey, is this is this raw? 0:47:05.200 --> 0:47:05.839 Yeah? 0:47:05.920 --> 0:47:08.800 Yeah, dude, this is dope. I'm talking to the gek 0:47:08.840 --> 0:47:09.760 and the gravy. 0:47:10.760 --> 0:47:13.359 Yeah that you already know the Greg Man. 0:47:13.520 --> 0:47:18.880 We are here, Greg Young, Gregy Dopey. 0:47:19.040 --> 0:47:21.799 I saw you. I saw you when I was in 0:47:21.920 --> 0:47:24.960 high school. Man, when I was a sophomore at Santa 0:47:25.000 --> 0:47:26.759 Cruz at the. 0:47:26.719 --> 0:47:30.799 Cattle No wait, Santa Cruz. Was it was it when 0:47:30.800 --> 0:47:31.760 I was with Dirt Nasty? 0:47:35.760 --> 0:47:38.799 It was four years ago. It was four years ago 0:47:38.840 --> 0:47:42.359 because I'm a sophomore in college now and I saw 0:47:42.400 --> 0:47:43.480 you sophomore. 0:47:43.960 --> 0:47:47.880 I'm mad curious because there there's a very fucking notorious 0:47:47.920 --> 0:47:48.600 show of mine. 0:47:49.400 --> 0:47:49.640 Was it? 0:47:50.040 --> 0:47:53.719 Did I ever mention on stage? Like I don't know 0:47:53.760 --> 0:47:55.200 if we're inside or outside? 0:47:57.200 --> 0:47:59.600 Dude? You said you were on dance, you said you 0:47:59.600 --> 0:48:03.520 were on stands, and it handed you a joint because 0:48:03.520 --> 0:48:06.720 you know where we from, like San Cruise, we always 0:48:06.719 --> 0:48:09.319 try and pass to the stage right, and we got 0:48:09.360 --> 0:48:12.399 it to you. You take it, You take a hit, 0:48:12.800 --> 0:48:15.799 and then you stay to the audience. This ain't This 0:48:15.880 --> 0:48:18.640 ain't no fucking joint. This is a fucking what you 0:48:18.719 --> 0:48:20.680 call it jewel or some ship? 0:48:21.760 --> 0:48:22.080 Dude? 0:48:22.480 --> 0:48:27.040 Man, Okay, so you were that was it was a 0:48:27.120 --> 0:48:28.640 crazy Was the show? 0:48:28.640 --> 0:48:31.879 Okay? Was the show? Okay? Did you end a show? 0:48:32.040 --> 0:48:32.560 I loved it. 0:48:32.600 --> 0:48:36.640 I was like, I thought your ship was fucking hilarious. 0:48:37.080 --> 0:48:40.239 I had all my homies there from like my high 0:48:40.239 --> 0:48:43.160 school and ship. We were bawling out at your show. 0:48:43.200 --> 0:48:46.760 Man. Okay, all right, I'm glad I can finally address this. 0:48:46.560 --> 0:48:50.319 This is like a fucking notorious show in in my 0:48:50.520 --> 0:48:52.520 history because. 0:48:52.680 --> 0:48:55.640 Really, so yeah, yeah, all the beginning, I want to 0:48:55.680 --> 0:48:56.000 hear that. 0:48:56.200 --> 0:48:59.320 Okay, So, Santa Cruz, I think it was twenty nineteen. 0:49:00.040 --> 0:49:03.160 This was the first time that I got Truley's or 0:49:03.200 --> 0:49:05.800 Dirt Nasty, who are now like two of my best friends. 0:49:06.320 --> 0:49:08.439 And they both came to my show because they're both 0:49:08.760 --> 0:49:11.839 or Dirt Nasties from out there and Trothy's was just 0:49:11.920 --> 0:49:16.920 in the city and I basically at that show. We 0:49:17.120 --> 0:49:19.359 met up before the show, Santa Cruz, right, I think 0:49:19.360 --> 0:49:20.200 it was like a thousand people. 0:49:20.200 --> 0:49:20.759 I don't know it was. 0:49:20.800 --> 0:49:20.960 It was. 0:49:20.960 --> 0:49:26.720 It was a good vibe. But I met Dirt Nasty. 0:49:26.920 --> 0:49:30.080 For for people who don't know, he's this actor slash rapper. 0:49:30.160 --> 0:49:32.960 He made the song It's like my digs it late. 0:49:35.239 --> 0:49:39.040 Song and then but I'm gonna check it out now. 0:49:39.480 --> 0:49:41.839 He's in like all the scary movies. He's he's he's 0:49:41.840 --> 0:49:42.320 a legend. 0:49:42.560 --> 0:49:44.160 He used to be like the main the main like 0:49:44.800 --> 0:49:51.480 dude on on MTV that would interview people. Anyways, at 0:49:51.480 --> 0:49:53.400 this point, him and Turvileys are both like two of 0:49:53.440 --> 0:49:54.080 my best friends. 0:49:54.239 --> 0:49:56.480 That was the first day we ever met. 0:49:56.160 --> 0:50:00.000 And we got along way too well, and I ended 0:50:00.080 --> 0:50:07.279 it up doing fucking shrooms, ketamine d MT, and like 0:50:07.680 --> 0:50:09.959 I don't know what else, like just a just said 0:50:10.160 --> 0:50:13.120 a really stupid amount of drugs before the show. 0:50:14.160 --> 0:50:16.759 Before the show, I didn't ate. 0:50:16.760 --> 0:50:18.040 The stroom perfectly. 0:50:18.840 --> 0:50:21.000 Yeah, so now it makes a little bit more sense. 0:50:21.080 --> 0:50:24.480 So Dirt Nasty and I are these two dudes who, 0:50:24.560 --> 0:50:26.719 like I have loved him my whole life, and then 0:50:26.760 --> 0:50:28.600 he's like, yeah, this is the new version of me. 0:50:29.200 --> 0:50:31.000 I love him, and we just like meet up and 0:50:31.040 --> 0:50:33.680 just fucking bond way too hard and do a bunch 0:50:33.680 --> 0:50:36.400 of drugs because he was the opener, right, he did 0:50:36.440 --> 0:50:39.279 the opening set and we did all these drugs. He 0:50:39.320 --> 0:50:42.040 did his set, goes back into the greenroom, passes the 0:50:42.040 --> 0:50:43.640 fuck out, and then I have to go on stage 0:50:43.719 --> 0:50:46.080 and I'm on. I mean, everything else was like kind 0:50:46.120 --> 0:50:48.120 of hitting me, but it was the shrooms that really 0:50:48.120 --> 0:50:50.960 were like damn. So that was the only time I've 0:50:50.960 --> 0:50:53.960 ever performed on like hard drugs. And I go out 0:50:54.000 --> 0:50:58.439 there and it's it's just notorious. Among my whole tour, 0:50:58.560 --> 0:51:01.000 cru my, my, my DJ, and I to a manager, 0:51:01.040 --> 0:51:04.040 everyone is like, bro, there's a joke that goes around 0:51:04.040 --> 0:51:06.000 all them it's like, you know, are we inside or outside? 0:51:06.000 --> 0:51:09.480 Because apparently I kept asking the crowd are we inside 0:51:09.520 --> 0:51:11.600 or outside? Because I was seeing like stars in the sky. 0:51:11.800 --> 0:51:16.360 Yeah and yeah man, yeah, and apparently the show was 0:51:16.400 --> 0:51:19.920 still good. Yeah, it was still all right, dude. 0:51:20.040 --> 0:51:22.319 I mean you were the first show I ever want 0:51:22.400 --> 0:51:24.719 to like by myself. But I mean I met up 0:51:24.719 --> 0:51:29.840 with some homies like coincidentally there and then like it 0:51:30.360 --> 0:51:34.560 just it made my year. You fucking saying that the 0:51:34.680 --> 0:51:36.799 joint we passed you was a jewel was a joke 0:51:36.880 --> 0:51:40.400 at our school forever. But like that's the thing is, 0:51:40.480 --> 0:51:42.960 like we all thought your shit was so funny, and 0:51:43.000 --> 0:51:46.000 it just made it even better. They were fucked up because. 0:51:45.800 --> 0:51:49.480 We thought that you were at the time, like after 0:51:49.520 --> 0:51:51.200 you had gotten on store where you like like maybe 0:51:51.200 --> 0:51:53.040 like the next morning all the jugs were off, were 0:51:53.040 --> 0:51:55.200 you like self conscious about was? 0:51:55.280 --> 0:51:56.640 I was, like, damn, I was. 0:51:57.080 --> 0:51:59.360 I mean, like the whole time I was on stage 0:51:59.400 --> 0:52:02.040 that day, There's never been a time where I was 0:52:02.120 --> 0:52:06.799 like psychedelically hardcore tripping on stage other than that day. 0:52:06.960 --> 0:52:09.520 And you were there and you witnessed it, and that's 0:52:09.520 --> 0:52:11.799 probably why I thought your fucking joint was a jewel Man. 0:52:12.000 --> 0:52:14.440 I was like, that's the only time I've ever been 0:52:14.520 --> 0:52:16.840 like fully tripped out on stage. 0:52:17.000 --> 0:52:20.560 Do you feel better now that you have validation that 0:52:20.600 --> 0:52:21.920 it was an enjoyable show? 0:52:22.600 --> 0:52:25.719 Yeah? Yeah, yeah, yeah. You know what, at the time, 0:52:25.800 --> 0:52:28.799 people my crew all told me that it was still good, 0:52:28.800 --> 0:52:30.440 and they're like, we could tell you were fucked up, 0:52:30.440 --> 0:52:31.160 but they couldn't. 0:52:31.160 --> 0:52:32.200 And I was like, they could. 0:52:32.040 --> 0:52:34.560 Probably tell, but but uh I heard it was good. 0:52:34.640 --> 0:52:36.440 I mean, I know that I knew my words, I 0:52:36.480 --> 0:52:39.720 still remember the words, but that was I was lit. 0:52:39.760 --> 0:52:42.800 And I'm glad that out of like the one thousand 0:52:42.840 --> 0:52:45.000 people that were there, there's someone here that can fucking 0:52:45.880 --> 0:52:47.120 you know, had witnessed that. 0:52:47.960 --> 0:52:52.000 Yeah, I will never out of I've done three hundred shows. 0:52:52.000 --> 0:52:54.960 I've done three hundred shows ish, maybe a little bit 0:52:54.960 --> 0:52:58.000 above or below, but that is the most quoted or 0:52:58.200 --> 0:53:01.320 most memorable show out of my whole It's a Santa 0:53:01.320 --> 0:53:02.680 Cruz twenty nineteen show. 0:53:02.880 --> 0:53:03.800 That's pretty wild. 0:53:04.080 --> 0:53:04.319 Yeah. 0:53:04.400 --> 0:53:06.799 I couldn't imagine. When I at my live shows, I'll 0:53:06.800 --> 0:53:09.759 bring people up and like chat with them. I don't 0:53:09.760 --> 0:53:12.759 have like a memorized set list or anything. And I 0:53:12.800 --> 0:53:15.360 feel if I did something like that on on cycle 0:53:15.400 --> 0:53:17.520 or even just being stoned or anything like that. I 0:53:17.560 --> 0:53:20.640 would fucking freak out, you know, because I don't even 0:53:20.680 --> 0:53:23.680 have anything to like scripts or any anything to cling to. 0:53:23.800 --> 0:53:25.799 I would say like, like, maybe like a third of 0:53:25.800 --> 0:53:28.319 my set usually is is kind of off the top 0:53:28.400 --> 0:53:30.719 and the rest of it is like kind of formatted. 0:53:31.400 --> 0:53:33.759 But uh, I don't know what the fuck I did 0:53:33.840 --> 0:53:37.120 that day, But uh, I'm sure I did like as 0:53:37.440 --> 0:53:38.360 regular as possible. 0:53:38.400 --> 0:53:40.040 It sounds like it was the greatest night of this 0:53:40.080 --> 0:53:40.720 guy's life. 0:53:40.880 --> 0:53:45.520 Dude, I remember, man, you enjoyed yeah, good man. 0:53:45.600 --> 0:53:48.279 Oh, I enjoyed it big time. I enjoyed it big time. 0:53:48.480 --> 0:53:50.319 And like I said, I thought your shit was like 0:53:50.480 --> 0:53:53.480 funny as fuck. We all mohinged in the crowd and shit, 0:53:54.040 --> 0:53:56.719 you live, we lit, we passed you the joint, you 0:53:56.760 --> 0:53:59.480 get it. Perfect night, great memory of mine. 0:54:00.440 --> 0:54:01.440 I'm glad to know that. 0:54:01.920 --> 0:54:03.839 Like I think, it's probably one of the first times 0:54:03.880 --> 0:54:06.200 I've talked to someone that was there other than like 0:54:06.480 --> 0:54:12.520 my crew. So I'm honored, bro, iconic legendary show in 0:54:12.560 --> 0:54:14.480 my memory. Man, So I'm fucking honored. 0:54:14.520 --> 0:54:14.640 Bro. 0:54:14.719 --> 0:54:17.760 It's cool to see how genuinely feel very good about 0:54:18.719 --> 0:54:20.560 having someone to bond with about that experience. 0:54:21.000 --> 0:54:23.720 I really do, because dude, I mean even after the show, 0:54:23.840 --> 0:54:27.480 like there's yeah, man, it was we were That's the 0:54:27.480 --> 0:54:29.600 most lid I've been close to it. 0:54:29.600 --> 0:54:30.640 Would you ever do it again? 0:54:31.680 --> 0:54:35.279 Not before the show, maybe after the show. 0:54:36.280 --> 0:54:39.520 Only one time, only one time, may perfectly. 0:54:39.920 --> 0:54:42.719 Don't forget it. Don't forget Hey, everybody, don't do ken 0:54:42.800 --> 0:54:43.120 of meine. 0:54:43.160 --> 0:54:44.520 That was one of the drugs I was on that 0:54:44.600 --> 0:54:45.640 day that was not good for you. 0:54:45.840 --> 0:54:49.600 I was. I was offered twenty and the other I 0:54:49.600 --> 0:54:52.799 was maybe try it once maybe the other night I 0:54:52.840 --> 0:54:54.160 was offered it. The other night I said no, I 0:54:54.160 --> 0:54:57.040 didn't do it. Part of me part I'm a guy 0:54:57.080 --> 0:55:00.319 where like I really want, I feel like my heart 0:55:00.320 --> 0:55:03.960 I really want, like I want to try unique life experiences, 0:55:04.000 --> 0:55:07.160 and some of those involved doing drugs. And so that's 0:55:07.200 --> 0:55:09.200 why I'm like, maybe, you know, at some point in 0:55:09.239 --> 0:55:11.319 my life I should try ketamine, but I do want 0:55:11.320 --> 0:55:11.839 to do it that night. 0:55:11.920 --> 0:55:14.920 And as the same type of guy I've I've tried 0:55:15.040 --> 0:55:19.000 almost every drug you can other than heroin, and I 0:55:19.040 --> 0:55:22.160 would say that ketamine is probably the least worth it. 0:55:22.600 --> 0:55:23.919 Really, it's not that cool. 0:55:24.320 --> 0:55:26.120 The way we're prescribed to me, did not seem like 0:55:26.120 --> 0:55:26.799 it was that cool. 0:55:27.120 --> 0:55:29.480 Ketamine is not that cool. It's not worth it, and 0:55:29.520 --> 0:55:31.440 it's pretty bad for you. And I've seen people addicted 0:55:31.520 --> 0:55:34.080 to it. So I'd say ketamine if you got if 0:55:34.080 --> 0:55:38.920 you want to pick one to avoid ketamine, all right, 0:55:39.000 --> 0:55:39.640 serious moment. 0:55:41.360 --> 0:55:44.640 See there's like the legendary concert where like Jimmy Hendrix 0:55:44.719 --> 0:55:48.359 shows up like Florida Hi as fuck on ketamine. And 0:55:48.600 --> 0:55:53.640 I've heard that like ketamine, like from my friends, I've 0:55:53.680 --> 0:55:56.680 heard you're like guaranteed a good trip. That's like what 0:55:56.719 --> 0:55:57.320 I've known. 0:55:57.520 --> 0:55:59.759 That you're not guaranteed a good trip. You're not. 0:56:00.760 --> 0:56:02.719 There's this thing called a K hole, which is the 0:56:03.760 --> 0:56:07.240 exact opposite of a good trip. Jimmy Hendrix, that legendary 0:56:07.239 --> 0:56:09.120 story you're talking about is when he had acid in 0:56:09.160 --> 0:56:13.560 his headband. It was acid, not ketamine, and a K 0:56:13.640 --> 0:56:15.759 hole is one of the worst things you can be in. 0:56:15.920 --> 0:56:18.000 I think a bad trip on acid was worse for 0:56:18.040 --> 0:56:20.359 me than a K hole. But I think a K 0:56:20.440 --> 0:56:22.080 hole is probably one of the worst things you can 0:56:22.680 --> 0:56:24.040 worst drug experiences you can have. 0:56:24.120 --> 0:56:27.279 But I see Guy's friends say it's good. I might 0:56:27.320 --> 0:56:30.280 have to know everybody I have. 0:56:30.960 --> 0:56:33.480 I have the authority here. I've done ketamine and acid 0:56:33.520 --> 0:56:36.560 both at least twenty times. Don't do ketamine before you 0:56:36.600 --> 0:56:37.440 do those other drugs. 0:56:37.480 --> 0:56:38.719 Hey, Row, is there anything you want to say to the 0:56:38.719 --> 0:56:40.280 people that seem. 0:56:40.160 --> 0:56:43.960 To come watch the stream? So hopefully they they're hearing this? 0:56:45.080 --> 0:56:48.440 All right, boys, I appreciate your coming to the show. 0:56:48.760 --> 0:56:51.520 Don't do ketamine. Thank you for coming through. I'm glad 0:56:51.560 --> 0:56:55.560 y'all witnessed like my most lit ratchet show in my life. 0:56:55.719 --> 0:56:57.440 So appreciate you'll. 0:56:57.280 --> 0:57:02.200 You'll, wait, does he went to high school with you? 0:57:02.920 --> 0:57:06.280 Do you remember Riley Macon? 0:57:08.160 --> 0:57:10.920 The name sounds I'd one hundred percent remember the name, 0:57:10.920 --> 0:57:11.960 but I don't know what he looks like, But one 0:57:12.000 --> 0:57:12.960 hundred percent remember the name. 0:57:13.480 --> 0:57:14.399 Tell me the real one. 0:57:14.520 --> 0:57:16.000 That's fine, That is fine. 0:57:16.160 --> 0:57:17.720 Is your brown hair? Is your brown hair? 0:57:19.560 --> 0:57:19.800 Yeah? 0:57:20.160 --> 0:57:21.520 I guess everyone is brown hair. 0:57:21.840 --> 0:57:24.040 I don't brown hair. 0:57:24.720 --> 0:57:27.240 I could call it like brown, probably, but I know 0:57:27.280 --> 0:57:27.600 the name. 0:57:27.680 --> 0:57:27.960 I like. 0:57:27.960 --> 0:57:29.560 I wouldn't lie to you. I know the name, So 0:57:29.720 --> 0:57:33.840 tell him, tell my fuck with him? Oh fuck yeah, 0:57:34.000 --> 0:57:37.640 let's go, all right, get gang. 0:57:42.760 --> 0:57:48.600 I couldn't imagine being that fucking like lit on on stage. 0:57:48.600 --> 0:57:49.920 I would be like freaking out it. 0:57:49.880 --> 0:57:52.560 Wasn't pre planned, because I mean it was I guess 0:57:52.560 --> 0:57:53.560 it was pre planned, but. 0:57:54.120 --> 0:57:57.720 I mean, like being on uh, like being the center 0:57:57.760 --> 0:58:01.160 of a show where the reality is at a thousand 0:58:01.200 --> 0:58:04.200 people five, how are many people? All these people are 0:58:04.280 --> 0:58:10.400 waiting upon you to guide them? Is like so fucking 0:58:10.480 --> 0:58:14.720 intense and crazy of an idea that you have to 0:58:14.840 --> 0:58:19.520 not think about it from that standpoint to be able 0:58:19.520 --> 0:58:19.760 to do it. 0:58:19.880 --> 0:58:20.200 Yeah. 0:58:20.280 --> 0:58:23.000 Yeah, I would never want to do shrooms or any 0:58:23.000 --> 0:58:24.960 of those drugs before that, but for some reason, it 0:58:25.000 --> 0:58:28.040 was It was the fact that I've been an extreme 0:58:28.120 --> 0:58:31.760 fan of Dirt Nasty my whole life, and it turned 0:58:31.760 --> 0:58:33.720 out that he was a fan of me and he 0:58:33.880 --> 0:58:34.720 was opening for me. 0:58:34.760 --> 0:58:36.920 So imagine like it's like one of. 0:58:36.960 --> 0:58:39.800 The people, like I would say he's top five most 0:58:39.840 --> 0:58:45.880 inspiring people in my life, he's opening for me. Yes, 0:58:46.080 --> 0:58:48.400 one of those people is opening for you, or you're 0:58:48.440 --> 0:58:51.320 meeting them for the first time. There's always drugs, and 0:58:51.360 --> 0:58:52.760 I don't even think it was all from him. It 0:58:52.840 --> 0:58:56.120 was like another fucking everyone in Northern California has every 0:58:56.160 --> 0:59:00.440 fucking drug, so so we're just like, yo, let's bond 0:59:00.480 --> 0:59:02.200 together and do all this. And I was like, oh, 0:59:02.240 --> 0:59:04.440 you go on stage, so do I let's do drugs. 0:59:04.560 --> 0:59:04.920 I don't know. 0:59:04.920 --> 0:59:06.920 I was it was just like a weird bonding moment 0:59:07.040 --> 0:59:12.600 and I don't regret it. It was rashet, but I 0:59:12.640 --> 0:59:14.400 obviously someone remembered it, so. 0:59:14.720 --> 0:59:16.720 It was it was nice to see you. You seemed 0:59:16.800 --> 0:59:20.120 like you got legitimate relief hearing him say. 0:59:19.960 --> 0:59:20.720 That, Yeah it was. 0:59:21.160 --> 0:59:24.680 It was good. Yeah. Absolutely. I wouldn't do it again, 0:59:24.800 --> 0:59:26.120 but I'm happy that it happened. 0:59:26.760 --> 0:59:27.160 Hello. 0:59:28.040 --> 0:59:32.040 Hello, Hello, Oh yeah, Hi. 0:59:33.800 --> 0:59:35.640 How are you doing, Lisa? 0:59:37.000 --> 0:59:40.080 I am living life as west as I can. 0:59:42.120 --> 0:59:46.360 Glad to hear here. Hello from Matt and Lyle. 0:59:47.440 --> 0:59:49.840 So Issa, what's going on with you? Dude? How can 0:59:49.880 --> 0:59:50.760 we get you today? 0:59:52.560 --> 0:59:56.120 Okay? So I am home of the sommer from college 0:59:56.320 --> 0:59:59.959 and I actually found out a few weeks ago I'm 1:00:00.080 --> 1:00:03.160 have a heart disease. So like times they're not looking 1:00:03.200 --> 1:00:06.640 too hot in that apartment. And now that you know, 1:00:06.720 --> 1:00:09.080 my doctor has told me I have all these issues 1:00:09.200 --> 1:00:11.320 and I have to, you know, check about having heart 1:00:11.320 --> 1:00:14.760 attracts and things like that. I'm like really on edge 1:00:14.760 --> 1:00:17.760 about all of my other life situations, like how do 1:00:17.880 --> 1:00:19.840 I want to live my life for the next few 1:00:19.920 --> 1:00:23.680 years if I'm going to die so young. And so 1:00:24.720 --> 1:00:27.680 I am in a relationship and I now that I 1:00:27.680 --> 1:00:31.160 found out this information, I'm questioning if my relationship is 1:00:31.280 --> 1:00:34.480 really something I want to spend so much time I 1:00:34.480 --> 1:00:36.960 want to these are like the last few years of 1:00:36.960 --> 1:00:37.440 my life. 1:00:38.840 --> 1:00:41.920 Mm hmmm, that's wild. 1:00:42.600 --> 1:00:43.560 Yeah, do you know? 1:00:43.920 --> 1:00:44.120 Yeah? 1:00:44.360 --> 1:00:46.400 Do you have Do you have an estimate from your 1:00:46.680 --> 1:00:48.120 doctor how you live? 1:00:49.320 --> 1:00:53.880 I have like a good like five years. I suffered 1:00:53.920 --> 1:00:56.640 a little bit as a heart attack a few months back, 1:00:57.240 --> 1:01:00.520 and so I've been like, I mean, I've been pretty 1:01:00.520 --> 1:01:02.320 good since then, but like this is going to be 1:01:02.400 --> 1:01:05.240 a consistent issue for the next few years. Party week, 1:01:05.560 --> 1:01:07.439 so like things are not looking great. 1:01:09.120 --> 1:01:11.000 That's got to be really scary. How are you? 1:01:12.880 --> 1:01:19.760 I'm twenty twenty, Soesa, you were talking about how you're 1:01:19.760 --> 1:01:24.200 in a relationship and you're debating whether or not you 1:01:24.240 --> 1:01:29.600 want to pour any time into this relationship considering that 1:01:29.960 --> 1:01:32.400 you don't have a lot of time, and you sounds 1:01:32.440 --> 1:01:33.800 like I want to be very careful about how you 1:01:33.840 --> 1:01:38.000 spend it, and so I want to know, and I'm 1:01:38.040 --> 1:01:44.960 sure you've taken some time to do this reflection in 1:01:45.040 --> 1:01:51.280 these next five years. Have you thought about what it 1:01:51.360 --> 1:01:56.240 is that you do want to put time into and accomplish. 1:01:56.920 --> 1:02:01.360 Yeah, I'm like I would love to do like eat 1:02:01.400 --> 1:02:04.560 prey love, which sounds super cheesy, but like I'd love 1:02:04.640 --> 1:02:07.240 to travel a little bit and just go and dibe 1:02:07.240 --> 1:02:10.160 and a bunch of different countries and just kind of 1:02:10.520 --> 1:02:14.560 fill up on everything that I haven't experienced yet before 1:02:14.680 --> 1:02:15.720 I talk away. 1:02:18.920 --> 1:02:19.280 Do it? 1:02:20.400 --> 1:02:22.240 I is it? And I want to know is there 1:02:22.320 --> 1:02:27.440 anything right now, any points of contention that are between 1:02:27.560 --> 1:02:28.440 you and doing that? 1:02:32.440 --> 1:02:35.400 Yes, Well, of course I can't just you know, like 1:02:35.560 --> 1:02:39.800 drop everything and just go. I mean like I can't 1:02:39.800 --> 1:02:42.120 even imagine how my family would feel if I just 1:02:42.200 --> 1:02:45.480 up and left, or my friends, and especially like my partner. 1:02:45.880 --> 1:02:48.480 It's just like I don't really have anyone who wants 1:02:48.520 --> 1:02:50.680 to do it with me, and traveling as a woman 1:02:50.800 --> 1:02:54.720 is very like, you know, risky, especially you know this 1:02:54.880 --> 1:02:57.920 day and age and how awful things are. But it's 1:02:57.960 --> 1:03:00.560 just like I'm not getting any support from the people 1:03:00.600 --> 1:03:03.240 who are supposed to support me. So I'm just kind 1:03:03.240 --> 1:03:06.680 of like I just had the urge to drop everything, 1:03:06.840 --> 1:03:09.920 even like including my relationship and just going. 1:03:11.240 --> 1:03:11.960 It's weird, you. 1:03:11.920 --> 1:03:14.960 Know, weirdly I have I've always had sort of like 1:03:15.200 --> 1:03:19.040 a really similar like I don't know, like maybe fear 1:03:19.240 --> 1:03:23.440 like feeling about me, just because most of my family 1:03:23.480 --> 1:03:27.560 dies in accidents in the least sad way possible. A 1:03:27.560 --> 1:03:30.160 lot of my family, like will has has died while 1:03:30.200 --> 1:03:32.400 I've been alive, and I have like this weird fear 1:03:32.440 --> 1:03:35.040 that I'm gonna like die like early. So I'm always like, 1:03:35.520 --> 1:03:37.200 whenever an opportunity. 1:03:36.640 --> 1:03:38.480 Arises, I do it. 1:03:39.280 --> 1:03:41.520 And I think that's benefited me a lot in life, 1:03:42.120 --> 1:03:45.080 but also sometimes I end up doing some wild shit 1:03:45.280 --> 1:03:50.560 that I regret, So I don't know. I think that 1:03:50.640 --> 1:03:52.880 I've I mean, ever since so my dad passed when 1:03:52.920 --> 1:03:58.040 I was sixteen, and ever since then, I basically changed. 1:03:57.680 --> 1:03:59.960 My sort of outlook on life. 1:04:00.080 --> 1:04:01.680 I was like, man, I'm just gonna do what I 1:04:01.720 --> 1:04:03.840 want because shit, this coulda happen to me any day. 1:04:04.080 --> 1:04:07.280 Because my dad had six siblings, five of them died 1:04:07.320 --> 1:04:11.000 in accidents. There's one live still who's going down soon. 1:04:11.600 --> 1:04:15.000 And I was just like, man, like I need like 1:04:15.120 --> 1:04:17.560 this is just my this is just like genetic we 1:04:17.680 --> 1:04:18.280 take ls. 1:04:18.560 --> 1:04:21.200 I need to like go try things and do things. 1:04:21.880 --> 1:04:25.680 And ever since then, I've like tried so many things, 1:04:25.760 --> 1:04:28.760 and I think that my life wouldn't be anywhere close 1:04:28.800 --> 1:04:31.160 to where it's at if I hadn't like just embraced 1:04:31.160 --> 1:04:33.520 that and like tried random ass shit. Whether it was 1:04:33.560 --> 1:04:39.760 like going alone to like some crazy fucking party or something. 1:04:39.440 --> 1:04:39.880 I don't know. 1:04:40.280 --> 1:04:43.240 Basically, I feel like I relate to you in some 1:04:43.280 --> 1:04:48.840 way where it's like, man, like, just fucking go do it. 1:04:49.400 --> 1:04:52.120 Just go do some fun shit, follow your gut. 1:04:55.240 --> 1:04:57.960 And you know, he said, I understand these these points 1:04:57.960 --> 1:05:00.480 of contention with your family because your family, family and 1:05:00.480 --> 1:05:02.200 your friends they love you, and they care about you, 1:05:02.200 --> 1:05:04.320 and they want to spend as much time with you 1:05:04.360 --> 1:05:07.760 as they possibly can. But I do think that if 1:05:07.920 --> 1:05:12.000 if your doctor has given you five years, I do 1:05:12.080 --> 1:05:17.480 think that within those five years, you can budget enough 1:05:17.640 --> 1:05:21.040 time for you to be with your friends and family 1:05:21.720 --> 1:05:26.320 and then also for you to have these self discovery 1:05:27.000 --> 1:05:30.600 travel experiences that you want to have. And I think 1:05:30.680 --> 1:05:34.880 your family, ultimately, because they love you and because they 1:05:34.880 --> 1:05:36.720 want the best for you, would be understanding of you 1:05:36.880 --> 1:05:39.080 going to pursue those things. 1:05:40.600 --> 1:05:42.720 Now I hear what y'all are saying, like and it's 1:05:42.760 --> 1:05:45.680 actually greevy. My dad also that a way through your stack, 1:05:46.280 --> 1:05:48.840 and I think like he would be the most supportive 1:05:49.080 --> 1:05:51.600 of me, like choosing to kind of go off and 1:05:51.640 --> 1:05:54.640 do my own thing, which I always bring up an argument, right, 1:05:54.760 --> 1:05:57.240 I'm like, well, you know, my dad didn't get to 1:05:57.280 --> 1:05:59.720 do all the things that he wanted, so like, I 1:05:59.800 --> 1:06:02.600 know he would support me the most in this situation. 1:06:03.640 --> 1:06:07.080 And no, like, yeah, I think you'll are on right, 1:06:07.120 --> 1:06:09.880 Like five years isn't long, but it is kind of long. 1:06:10.080 --> 1:06:12.880 But I don't know, I just wish I had kind 1:06:12.880 --> 1:06:17.040 of more support. I'm just so shocked, Like, I don't know, 1:06:17.120 --> 1:06:22.959 it's just very interesting. It's a very difficult situation. But yeah, 1:06:23.040 --> 1:06:25.760 I loved, like, need to do more things before I die. 1:06:25.800 --> 1:06:27.240 I'm like young, I'm pretty young. 1:06:27.760 --> 1:06:36.760 Yeah, yeah, I mean just random, just random comparison. When 1:06:36.760 --> 1:06:42.720 I was your age, I wasn't gravy yet, and five 1:06:42.760 --> 1:06:45.040 years later I am so I don't know. I mean, 1:06:45.080 --> 1:06:47.160 things can a lot of things can change pretty quick. 1:06:50.000 --> 1:06:51.760 I never thought I was gonna leave Minnesota when I 1:06:51.800 --> 1:06:57.640 was twenty and five years later i'm twenty six now. 1:07:00.200 --> 1:07:07.960 Oh No, things change a lot. And I guess I'm curious. 1:07:07.960 --> 1:07:09.800 Where are you from? Where are you from? 1:07:11.800 --> 1:07:15.920 I was born in Philly, but I currently live in Colorado. 1:07:16.320 --> 1:07:18.800 I'm just in South Carolina right now spending time with 1:07:18.880 --> 1:07:21.000 my family because they're like super stressed. 1:07:22.080 --> 1:07:26.280 Got it is this? Is this a recent thing? By 1:07:26.280 --> 1:07:29.680 the way, Yeah, this. 1:07:29.720 --> 1:07:33.200 Is like very new. Like I came home after my 1:07:33.280 --> 1:07:37.200 second year of college and I was passing out a lot, 1:07:37.240 --> 1:07:39.200 and like went to the doctor and all of a sudden, 1:07:39.200 --> 1:07:42.920 I was doing EKGs and echoes and all these different tests, 1:07:43.000 --> 1:07:44.960 and like this is very new. 1:07:45.920 --> 1:07:51.360 M Is it a genetic thing or how does is it? 1:07:51.400 --> 1:07:51.880 Like just a. 1:07:54.520 --> 1:07:58.440 Yeah, no, no, my family has heart issues that it 1:07:58.600 --> 1:08:02.640 is not like super new. We thought we were safe, 1:08:02.680 --> 1:08:05.480 Like my mom was pretty solid and she's i mean 1:08:05.520 --> 1:08:09.240 in her fifties and no issues. But here I am, 1:08:09.520 --> 1:08:12.760 so I guess it doesn't you know, just go away. 1:08:12.920 --> 1:08:16.560 But yeah, no, it's definitely generous. M. 1:08:18.120 --> 1:08:19.479 You said, I know it's hard that you don't have, 1:08:20.880 --> 1:08:22.840 you know, as you say, a lot of support for 1:08:22.960 --> 1:08:26.599 what it is that you you want to do with 1:08:26.600 --> 1:08:32.760 with your life. But I I really feel like you 1:08:32.920 --> 1:08:37.439 should feel empowered to pursue what it is that you 1:08:37.479 --> 1:08:42.920 want to do, and uh that it is realistic for 1:08:42.960 --> 1:08:46.200 you to budget out enough time to both spend with 1:08:46.280 --> 1:08:48.880 your family and to pursue these things. 1:08:48.880 --> 1:08:51.679 That are important to you, and I think that you 1:08:51.760 --> 1:08:55.000 have the most excuse to say if they don't want 1:08:55.040 --> 1:08:56.840 you to do some shit, say fuck it, I'm gonna 1:08:56.840 --> 1:09:00.280 do it. Man, be like fuck it like you have 1:09:01.840 --> 1:09:04.280 you have the fucking I don't know, you have a 1:09:04.320 --> 1:09:06.360 gold star on you right now. Man, let's say fuck it. 1:09:06.439 --> 1:09:09.320 Let's let's get it. Come come gang with the boys, 1:09:09.320 --> 1:09:12.960 come get it up. I think you should come to 1:09:13.000 --> 1:09:17.280 a show something like that. I think you need I 1:09:17.280 --> 1:09:21.320 think you need a Obviously you're doing crazy things, but 1:09:21.360 --> 1:09:23.240 I think that like you need to go wild out 1:09:23.560 --> 1:09:25.160 and like maybe if you're going too a show, it's 1:09:25.160 --> 1:09:26.040 a good start. 1:09:26.240 --> 1:09:28.120 You're going to Denver. I'm going to Denver. Let's get 1:09:28.120 --> 1:09:32.200 her at some shows, dude, Denver, let's get let's get 1:09:32.280 --> 1:09:34.360 let's get her number. I'm gonna get out to my Denver. 1:09:34.479 --> 1:09:39.080 Can we get your information please, we'll we'll have uh, Tim, Tim, Tim, 1:09:39.120 --> 1:09:42.800 Let's get her information because I'm going to Denver at 1:09:42.800 --> 1:09:48.360 some point this year as well. But yeah, I mean, Lisa, 1:09:49.000 --> 1:09:55.160 how are you feeling about traversing these these pain points 1:09:55.640 --> 1:09:58.040 toward you going after what it is that you want 1:09:58.040 --> 1:09:58.240 to do. 1:10:03.439 --> 1:10:07.920 I it's it's hard, right, because like I really like 1:10:08.040 --> 1:10:09.760 mentally in my head and like I want to do 1:10:09.840 --> 1:10:12.280 these things and I'm really excited and I'm really looking 1:10:12.280 --> 1:10:14.920 forward to it. But like physically, like I'm in pain. 1:10:15.720 --> 1:10:18.680 Like I have really really bad days and then I 1:10:18.680 --> 1:10:21.919 have decent days, but like I don't have good days anymore. 1:10:22.080 --> 1:10:25.519 Like it's just constant pain or there's an issue. So 1:10:26.160 --> 1:10:28.040 it's very back and forth. Like I really want to 1:10:28.080 --> 1:10:29.720 do these things and I really want to do a 1:10:29.720 --> 1:10:35.320 lot before you know, whatever happens. But like I'm just 1:10:35.360 --> 1:10:38.320 like concerned, like can I physically do it on my own? 1:10:38.760 --> 1:10:42.200 Which is super stucky and really depressing, Like it's true. 1:10:45.479 --> 1:10:50.120 Wow, how recent is this? Can I ask? Is is 1:10:50.160 --> 1:10:52.880 this is this? Is this information coming to you within 1:10:52.960 --> 1:10:53.639 the past month? 1:10:55.600 --> 1:10:58.360 Yes, Like I went to the doctors a month ago, 1:10:58.840 --> 1:11:01.960 got an egg echoed done, and from there, like I've 1:11:01.960 --> 1:11:06.679 had a Halter monitor, I've had seen multiple cardiologists, which 1:11:06.960 --> 1:11:09.880 sumpbacks are very books right now for some reason, so 1:11:10.040 --> 1:11:13.480 like I was really difficult to see one, which sucks. 1:11:13.720 --> 1:11:18.120 But like this is all like very near to me. Yeah, 1:11:18.120 --> 1:11:20.120 but like within a month, like I've just been dealing 1:11:20.160 --> 1:11:23.080 with this since I got home. Yeah, for the last month. 1:11:23.640 --> 1:11:25.880 You seem like a really I don't know, I really 1:11:25.920 --> 1:11:30.040 like your attitude. I mean, just based on everything, you 1:11:30.080 --> 1:11:33.519 seem like you're in a really good place mentally. I 1:11:33.520 --> 1:11:35.880 mean five five years is a long fucking time, but 1:11:36.200 --> 1:11:39.760 you're I don't know, I really like to hear someone 1:11:39.800 --> 1:11:42.479 so happy with such a weird situation. 1:11:42.920 --> 1:11:48.560 Yeah, I agree, I'm noticing like a a a despite 1:11:48.600 --> 1:11:52.759 everything sort of collect you know, collected head to screw 1:11:52.760 --> 1:11:56.920 it on right, cheerful attitude. Would you would you? Would 1:11:56.960 --> 1:11:58.680 you say that that is is? 1:11:59.320 --> 1:12:00.639 You know, how do you feel. 1:12:00.400 --> 1:12:02.840 Like you're handling it? Because you know, we we have 1:12:03.000 --> 1:12:05.840 what we are perceiving from you based on how you're 1:12:05.880 --> 1:12:09.400 outwardly acting. But I want to know you know what 1:12:09.439 --> 1:12:10.160 your truth is. 1:12:12.439 --> 1:12:15.599 I mean mentally it is a struggle, and physically it's 1:12:15.640 --> 1:12:19.280 a struggle. Like I grew up being like super healthy. 1:12:19.400 --> 1:12:22.559 My family is like super like green and earthy, all organic, 1:12:22.600 --> 1:12:25.840 all natural, non dmo always working out all these things. 1:12:26.320 --> 1:12:29.559 So like it's kind of devastating to me to be 1:12:29.680 --> 1:12:32.000 like I all these you're being healthy and not like 1:12:32.120 --> 1:12:35.760 partiguing in all of these different you know, foods and 1:12:35.840 --> 1:12:38.880 sugars and all these things just for my doctor to 1:12:38.920 --> 1:12:41.320 tell me that I have ought issues. So it's like 1:12:41.400 --> 1:12:43.760 really disappointing and it's really sucky, and you know, there's 1:12:43.800 --> 1:12:48.040 some mental battles there, but like it's life. I've lost 1:12:48.040 --> 1:12:51.439 a parent, I've lost many friends, so it's just like 1:12:52.040 --> 1:12:54.800 circle of us, like I'm gonna die eventually, We're all 1:12:54.800 --> 1:12:58.920 gonna die eventually. And this is seemingly how I go 1:12:59.000 --> 1:13:02.759 out right now. It's just whatever, Like I'm just I'm. 1:13:04.400 --> 1:13:05.560 I really like your attitude. 1:13:05.720 --> 1:13:07.720 I don't know. I mean, I think I think I 1:13:07.760 --> 1:13:09.799 want to I want to think that I would handle 1:13:10.040 --> 1:13:12.840 it the exact same way, but honestly, I don't know 1:13:12.880 --> 1:13:15.280 if i'd be like quite as badass as you, but 1:13:15.280 --> 1:13:17.400 but I don't know. So a lot of respect for that, 1:13:17.479 --> 1:13:20.479 and I don't know. I think I I think we 1:13:20.479 --> 1:13:22.920 should hang out before you, you know, I think we 1:13:22.960 --> 1:13:25.519 should hang out within the next couple of years. 1:13:25.960 --> 1:13:34.719 Come to a show or two Colorado or South Carolina, Colorado. 1:13:35.400 --> 1:13:38.919 I'm usually I'm usually in Colorado. I'm usually in Colorado. 1:13:38.960 --> 1:13:40.799 I'm just here trying to be nice to my family 1:13:40.840 --> 1:13:43.000 and let them get some time with me because I'm 1:13:43.040 --> 1:13:43.519 sick now. 1:13:43.800 --> 1:13:49.880 So well, when okay, so when do you ski or snowboard? 1:13:52.160 --> 1:13:53.280 I snowboards. 1:13:54.920 --> 1:13:58.599 Okay, well I go snow I go skiing every winter, 1:13:58.760 --> 1:14:02.479 so we'll get you information. If I don't have a show, 1:14:02.800 --> 1:14:05.080 I mean I do have a show. Well let's do 1:14:05.200 --> 1:14:08.160 a show and snowboard. How about that? 1:14:10.080 --> 1:14:12.600 Yeah, no, that sounds super sick. Oh my gosh, I 1:14:12.640 --> 1:14:15.960 can like, look here my friends freaking out again across 1:14:16.040 --> 1:14:18.600 the house. But no, no, no, that's so sick. That 1:14:18.680 --> 1:14:19.479 sounds in the advance. 1:14:20.120 --> 1:14:22.800 Sounds like you got good friends, man, it really does. 1:14:22.880 --> 1:14:24.320 And you're you're inspiring us. 1:14:24.479 --> 1:14:28.920 I mean, we appreciate you, so we'd love to. 1:14:29.200 --> 1:14:31.799 Oh, y'all, that's so sweet. 1:14:34.560 --> 1:14:36.280 Yes, you know, I I I agree. I have a 1:14:36.320 --> 1:14:37.519 lot of respect for you. I have a lot of 1:14:37.520 --> 1:14:39.320 respect for the way you're handling this, and I just 1:14:39.640 --> 1:14:43.920 if I, if I could stress anything at all, it's 1:14:43.960 --> 1:14:48.840 that I really want you to feel empowered to do 1:14:48.960 --> 1:14:52.240 the things that you want to do with your life 1:14:52.880 --> 1:14:58.360 while you have the time too. Yeah, that's that's that's 1:14:58.360 --> 1:14:59.599 I think what I would truss the most. 1:15:00.840 --> 1:15:02.960 Do it all now you can. 1:15:03.439 --> 1:15:07.160 Yeah, I'm gonna try these next five years hopefully, you know, 1:15:07.280 --> 1:15:10.720 I lost long. I'm pretty healthy but yes, I'm going 1:15:10.800 --> 1:15:12.280 to try the hardest to do all the things I 1:15:12.280 --> 1:15:14.480 want to do before I head out. 1:15:14.920 --> 1:15:17.519 Let us know if you need help, Lisa, is there 1:15:17.520 --> 1:15:18.800 anything you want to say to the people of the 1:15:18.800 --> 1:15:19.680 computer before we go. 1:15:23.400 --> 1:15:24.360 Y'all can go. 1:15:24.280 --> 1:15:26.839 Through anything as long as you have a good support 1:15:26.880 --> 1:15:30.360 system and you just keep things on this which is 1:15:30.479 --> 1:15:35.160 very hard, but hearing them with all these different issues 1:15:35.240 --> 1:15:37.800 and I can still, you know, put a smile on 1:15:37.840 --> 1:15:40.240 my face and wake up in the morning and get 1:15:40.280 --> 1:15:42.639 through my day. So anyone couldn't really do it. 1:15:45.240 --> 1:15:47.240 You may my week. 1:15:47.439 --> 1:15:50.720 Thank you, Thank you for calling MESA and good luck 1:15:50.760 --> 1:15:51.479 to you. We'll be in touch. 1:15:51.800 --> 1:15:56.479 Please send it, send your information. Let's go skiing, of. 1:15:56.400 --> 1:16:00.280 Course, y'all. Thank you for listening to me to walk man. 1:16:00.320 --> 1:16:02.439 Of course, have a good nights. 1:16:04.360 --> 1:16:05.280 Yeah, that's too. 1:16:09.439 --> 1:16:11.559 I did get her phone number. I'll share that with you. 1:16:13.880 --> 1:16:17.320 How are you feeling, Man's man? 1:16:17.360 --> 1:16:17.960 I like doing that. 1:16:19.240 --> 1:16:19.960 I like doing this. 1:16:20.479 --> 1:16:21.040 Yeah. 1:16:21.479 --> 1:16:26.599 My favorite thing about doing this podcast is we can 1:16:26.640 --> 1:16:32.559 do rubbing vagina, juice on your face, and how to 1:16:32.600 --> 1:16:38.760 build confidence and uh your girlfriend shitting in your bed 1:16:38.840 --> 1:16:44.600 combination of conversation. Yeah, yeah, she was, she was. She 1:16:44.760 --> 1:16:48.439 was super cool, man, I really yeah, I really do 1:16:48.520 --> 1:16:52.639 want her to feel empowered to, like, you know, to 1:16:52.640 --> 1:16:53.519 to do what I want. 1:16:53.560 --> 1:16:58.280 I'm gonna hang out there guaranteed, Yeah, showing or something. Yeah, absolutely, 1:16:59.439 --> 1:17:00.040 one more month. 1:17:00.400 --> 1:17:00.800 Let's do it. 1:17:00.880 --> 1:17:01.600 Yeah. 1:17:01.640 --> 1:17:02.599 How do you feel before? 1:17:02.640 --> 1:17:05.600 How do you feel like you would handle learning that 1:17:07.040 --> 1:17:08.639 you you were going to die? 1:17:09.160 --> 1:17:11.240 Dude? I don't know, man, That's that's a wild feeling 1:17:11.240 --> 1:17:13.439 because because I mean the five years thing is like 1:17:15.160 --> 1:17:17.559 that's like an amount of time where it's like, man, 1:17:17.720 --> 1:17:20.960 like about five years, you have some planning time, you 1:17:20.960 --> 1:17:23.080 know what I'm saying. But at the same time, it's like, man, 1:17:23.160 --> 1:17:25.400 I don't know, it would just close in every day 1:17:26.200 --> 1:17:32.280 and she's twenty Yeah, I'm twenty six. Yeah, so I 1:17:32.280 --> 1:17:34.880 would have been gone. So it's that that that is. 1:17:34.840 --> 1:17:36.000 What hit me extra heart. 1:17:36.120 --> 1:17:39.280 So it's like, yeah, I don't know, man, Like, that's 1:17:39.320 --> 1:17:42.439 that's a wild feeling. I've obviously cute the question like 1:17:42.880 --> 1:17:45.439 all the time, like what if you had like a 1:17:45.560 --> 1:17:50.800 day to live a year to live. I used to 1:17:50.840 --> 1:17:53.000 think that it would be like a positive feeling where 1:17:53.040 --> 1:17:56.519 you'd just be fucking hyped and go do everything, But 1:17:56.680 --> 1:17:59.080 I don't know, it would be pretty hard because you 1:17:59.120 --> 1:18:03.360 know everyone that you know, it's kind of like gotta 1:18:03.439 --> 1:18:07.240 keep going without you. So it's like, I don't know, 1:18:07.320 --> 1:18:10.320 I think I think all my priorities would change a 1:18:10.360 --> 1:18:18.200 little bit and just fucking I think I'd spend every 1:18:18.240 --> 1:18:19.679 day I'd be like, you know what, today, I'm gonna 1:18:19.720 --> 1:18:22.800 go hang out with this person I know, yea, this day, 1:18:22.840 --> 1:18:24.640 I'm gonna go hang out with that person that I know, 1:18:25.760 --> 1:18:27.280 Fucking this person I went to high school with. 1:18:27.320 --> 1:18:28.479 I want to go stay ahead to them, you know 1:18:28.520 --> 1:18:29.559 what I'm saying something like that. 1:18:29.920 --> 1:18:32.680 The weirdest thing is like, Okay, if you had five 1:18:32.760 --> 1:18:35.880 years to live, you know, you would be metical. You'd 1:18:35.920 --> 1:18:37.600 be very meticulous. You would you would think you'd be 1:18:37.680 --> 1:18:40.200 very meticulous about the way you spend your time, but 1:18:40.680 --> 1:18:44.800 you'd kind of always have an unknown amount of time 1:18:45.320 --> 1:18:50.120 to live. And yet you're not as compelled to be 1:18:50.200 --> 1:18:54.560 as meticulous with your time, even though you know that 1:18:54.640 --> 1:18:57.200 you don't, even though you know you don't have forever. Yeah, 1:18:57.600 --> 1:18:59.840 let's you know, jack off and look at. 1:19:00.120 --> 1:19:04.120 And then wow that I mean, fucking the most obvious example, 1:19:04.200 --> 1:19:07.360 Stephen Hawkin had two years and then he lived fucking 1:19:07.400 --> 1:19:11.200 sixty more years. You know some people it's just like 1:19:11.200 --> 1:19:14.120 like you, I don't know he prepared for that shit. 1:19:14.240 --> 1:19:17.840 And you know, doctors can't predict everything. But I mean, 1:19:19.880 --> 1:19:24.160 that's just a really crazy thought, you know, thinking about 1:19:24.200 --> 1:19:25.200 like fucking. 1:19:26.240 --> 1:19:29.360 I'd like to think, and I don't everything expect you 1:19:29.439 --> 1:19:32.439 never ever ever have any idea how you're gonna feel 1:19:32.439 --> 1:19:36.439 in situations that you get there. But the part of 1:19:36.479 --> 1:19:39.360 me is like, ah, man, I could I have infinite 1:19:39.439 --> 1:19:43.040 things in my life to be really grateful for, and 1:19:43.120 --> 1:19:45.920 I could sit if I had a day left to 1:19:46.000 --> 1:19:50.400 live and just ruminate on all those things and then 1:19:50.439 --> 1:19:52.000 at the very end be like, you know, when I 1:19:52.040 --> 1:19:56.360 got to have all these beautiful friendships, I got to 1:19:56.400 --> 1:19:59.920 eat a fucking sandwich, I got to look at the skull, 1:20:00.080 --> 1:20:06.360 I got to have friends, I take a hot shower, 1:20:06.920 --> 1:20:09.439 you know, I got to do all these things that's 1:20:09.600 --> 1:20:11.200 a lot of people don't even get the opportunity to 1:20:11.240 --> 1:20:14.200 do because people die younger than we do, you know. 1:20:14.400 --> 1:20:18.040 So I'd like to think, you know, I would be 1:20:18.240 --> 1:20:21.360 uh able to be grateful for those things and then 1:20:21.920 --> 1:20:26.280 and then just die. But i'd probably be I don't know, 1:20:26.479 --> 1:20:28.240 I don't know. I want to know until I'm there. 1:20:28.520 --> 1:20:29.800 I was just trying to think about, like, if I 1:20:29.840 --> 1:20:34.160 had an hour to live, Yeah, what would I like? 1:20:35.439 --> 1:20:37.439 Who would I call? What would I do? 1:20:37.640 --> 1:20:39.880 You know? Yeah, like I. 1:20:39.840 --> 1:20:40.920 Would definitely jerk off. 1:20:41.040 --> 1:20:43.600 And then there's definitely a few friends that like I 1:20:43.600 --> 1:20:45.280 would just call and it would be what would you 1:20:45.360 --> 1:20:45.840 jerk off too? 1:20:45.880 --> 1:20:47.280 Would you have a video? 1:20:47.640 --> 1:20:47.920 Full? 1:20:48.400 --> 1:20:50.280 Full speed? Full? 1:20:50.600 --> 1:20:52.760 Like, dude, just like, do you feel like you could 1:20:52.800 --> 1:20:57.280 get a heart on at like the first thing you 1:20:57.320 --> 1:20:57.720 would too. 1:20:57.840 --> 1:21:00.559 I'm gonna be facetiming my homie like, man, I love you, bro, 1:21:00.640 --> 1:21:01.240 I'm gonna. 1:21:01.400 --> 1:21:03.479 I don't have time to do Yeah, I don't have 1:21:03.520 --> 1:21:04.720 time to do one at a time. 1:21:04.800 --> 1:21:08.360 Man. Yeah, Man, I don't know. 1:21:08.640 --> 1:21:10.400 You know, everyone's like, oh, if I have like an hour, 1:21:10.640 --> 1:21:12.040 I'm gonna go fuck somebody. It's like I don't got 1:21:12.080 --> 1:21:16.120 time for that. Man, I'm gonna call the homies and 1:21:16.120 --> 1:21:18.320 and then you know, that's all. She wrote. 1:21:19.320 --> 1:21:24.320 Hello Matthew, Matthew, Hey, what's up? 1:21:25.320 --> 1:21:26.280 Hey? 1:21:26.680 --> 1:21:30.320 Yoh man, your story we've chosen. We're here, brother. 1:21:30.960 --> 1:21:33.080 I know I saw it was just kind of hype 1:21:33.080 --> 1:21:33.360 this night. 1:21:33.360 --> 1:21:36.960 I was like, oh, I mean, Matthew, it says here 1:21:37.000 --> 1:21:40.160 that you met a girl on, o'megal you flew her 1:21:40.240 --> 1:21:45.000 out to where you live, and then you found out 1:21:45.120 --> 1:21:50.880 she ended up being quote a stalker witch. What's going 1:21:50.920 --> 1:21:51.360 on here? 1:21:51.880 --> 1:21:59.840 Yeah? One day, alright, I'm on Ago one day and 1:21:59.880 --> 1:22:03.640 I come across some on a nice rack, you know 1:22:03.680 --> 1:22:07.599 what I'm saying. So obviously we start talking. 1:22:08.680 --> 1:22:11.360 This girl's a goth girl. She's the big titty goth 1:22:11.479 --> 1:22:13.560 gf everyone always dreams of. 1:22:13.720 --> 1:22:13.880 You know. 1:22:15.400 --> 1:22:19.160 She's fine, and I'm talking to her and we start talking. 1:22:19.800 --> 1:22:23.200 We start talking every day from then on. I'm like, okay, okay. 1:22:23.560 --> 1:22:25.960 And then she asked me one day, She's like, you know, 1:22:26.080 --> 1:22:29.599 we've been talking for like a while now, you mind 1:22:29.680 --> 1:22:33.240 would be weird if I like came there And I'm 1:22:33.280 --> 1:22:43.000 sitting here blinded obviously by the titties, right, Like it's 1:22:43.000 --> 1:22:45.240 it's hard to see past them, you know, Like they're huge, 1:22:45.360 --> 1:22:48.479 Like it's the big, big hurdle to get past, right, 1:22:49.240 --> 1:22:52.240 So I'm sitting here. I'm like, I'm about to fly 1:22:52.360 --> 1:22:54.960 this girl out to Arizona and I'm gonna take her 1:22:55.360 --> 1:23:00.240 to the Grand Canyon and we're gonna smash right the 1:23:00.240 --> 1:23:05.720 Grand Oh yeah, oh no, I had this whole. I 1:23:05.760 --> 1:23:06.639 had a whole like. 1:23:07.120 --> 1:23:08.840 Oh wait, you don't ask for about you were trying 1:23:08.840 --> 1:23:11.320 to have sex with this person at the Grand Canyon. 1:23:13.640 --> 1:23:15.639 Oh yeah, oh I have a sorry about that too, 1:23:15.680 --> 1:23:16.479 but we'll get. 1:23:16.360 --> 1:23:19.320 There, okay with the drama. 1:23:19.960 --> 1:23:26.680 Drama, all right, all right, so she gets here, we uh, 1:23:27.439 --> 1:23:30.080 we connect, We do well. You know, everything goes well, 1:23:30.439 --> 1:23:33.560 Grand Canyon, smash up the Grand Canyon. 1:23:33.280 --> 1:23:37.639 You know, outside the Grand Canyon, like we like, yeah. 1:23:37.520 --> 1:23:40.439 Yeah, we went down this little trail where you like 1:23:40.479 --> 1:23:41.680 you can't see. 1:23:43.200 --> 1:23:44.960 The Grand slammon, I'm happy? 1:23:45.040 --> 1:23:45.719 Man, good? 1:23:45.760 --> 1:23:48.000 All right, continue, where does it get? Where does it get? 1:23:48.200 --> 1:23:49.280 Not good? 1:23:49.320 --> 1:23:53.720 The ultimate credit? Okay, so it's it's been really good 1:23:53.800 --> 1:23:54.200 so far. 1:23:54.880 --> 1:23:55.719 Where's the turn? 1:23:56.680 --> 1:23:57.000 All right? 1:23:57.080 --> 1:23:59.920 Yeah, it's all really good. We do everything and go 1:24:00.120 --> 1:24:03.559 down and whatever. The whole trip goes by and she 1:24:03.680 --> 1:24:10.880 gets home. I don't know what switch flipped she went 1:24:10.920 --> 1:24:13.960 from Oh she's pretty cool. You know, she's like kind 1:24:14.000 --> 1:24:15.840 of weird because she's a little you know, she's like goth. 1:24:15.920 --> 1:24:17.519 But she doesn't really talked too much about her. Now 1:24:18.800 --> 1:24:21.840 when she gets home, she starts mentioning like, hey, like, 1:24:22.080 --> 1:24:24.200 you know, I do all this like wicked stuff, and 1:24:24.200 --> 1:24:29.800 I'm like, oh, okay, you know it's like a girl 1:24:29.880 --> 1:24:32.600 randomly telling me she's a like a wizard, you know, 1:24:32.680 --> 1:24:35.200 like kind of a kind of a weird thing to 1:24:35.280 --> 1:24:36.040 drop on someone. 1:24:36.520 --> 1:24:36.920 Mm hmm. 1:24:38.920 --> 1:24:44.080 Right, she starts going dude, no, no, no, she starts going 1:24:44.120 --> 1:24:46.960 off the rails, man like. She she texts me one 1:24:47.000 --> 1:24:48.760 day she's like, look what I found. And it's a 1:24:48.920 --> 1:24:52.240 dead deer on the side of the road that she 1:24:52.680 --> 1:24:55.720 like she found roadkill, and her and her roommate were 1:24:55.760 --> 1:24:58.080 like picking up the road killed to like bring to 1:24:58.160 --> 1:25:00.719 their house to like harvested. 1:25:00.840 --> 1:25:04.080 I was like, what the see? This is like there's 1:25:04.200 --> 1:25:06.080 not a lot of things that scare me in life, 1:25:06.120 --> 1:25:11.520 but that weird like witchcraft, fucking dead animal activity. 1:25:11.640 --> 1:25:15.400 Dude, oh man bro And she she had like she 1:25:15.439 --> 1:25:18.120 had like two snakes, and she would like she had 1:25:18.160 --> 1:25:20.400 like this massive cooler of dead rabbits. 1:25:25.920 --> 1:25:27.880 Maybe not her name, but like like she have like 1:25:27.880 --> 1:25:29.400 a witch name or something that we can go. 1:25:29.360 --> 1:25:33.760 By, give us, give us something to for some to 1:25:33.760 --> 1:25:35.000 refer to her as what is it? 1:25:35.320 --> 1:25:35.640 All right? 1:25:35.840 --> 1:25:37.599 Her first name was Savannah. 1:25:39.040 --> 1:25:42.040 Savannah, Okay, Savannah. 1:25:42.439 --> 1:25:47.200 This girl's from somewhere southern area. You know, I don't 1:25:47.200 --> 1:25:48.639 want to get I never. 1:25:48.560 --> 1:25:53.479 Met never met a good Savannah. Honest, I met a lot. 1:25:53.760 --> 1:25:57.000 Sorry all the Savannahs out there, but I want to 1:25:58.400 --> 1:25:59.360 good Savannahs. 1:25:59.600 --> 1:26:01.360 Sorry else, but I just want to be real. 1:26:01.600 --> 1:26:03.439 So, Matthew, I want to know from you. Okay. So 1:26:03.600 --> 1:26:05.720 this girl she's sending your pictures of dead deer she's 1:26:05.760 --> 1:26:08.519 talking about she has a cooler of rats. There's all 1:26:08.560 --> 1:26:12.040 this stuff, and it's pretty weird. It's pretty funky, but 1:26:12.240 --> 1:26:18.360 none of it is yet hostile towards you directly. When 1:26:18.960 --> 1:26:26.240 if it does, does it start getting hostile toward you? Yes? 1:26:26.320 --> 1:26:30.639 Okay, So I I'm still blinded by tits at this point. 1:26:30.680 --> 1:26:31.800 I'm like, you know what's dead deer is? 1:26:31.840 --> 1:26:32.720 You know it canna be worse? 1:26:33.560 --> 1:26:34.200 That is? 1:26:37.760 --> 1:26:39.040 She had really nice pits. 1:26:38.800 --> 1:26:41.360 Okay apparently. 1:26:43.320 --> 1:26:44.799 Yeah. 1:26:45.960 --> 1:26:48.519 Anyway, So after like. 1:26:49.960 --> 1:26:51.640 It was like four weeks, like a month or so 1:26:51.800 --> 1:26:56.040 goes by of her like home. She starts calling me 1:26:56.560 --> 1:27:00.439 every day just bawling just about like random things, like 1:27:00.560 --> 1:27:05.439 things that are like incoherent. Like her friend like hauled 1:27:05.479 --> 1:27:08.000 her and told her that she's like stressed out about 1:27:08.000 --> 1:27:10.679 her work, and like she was like freaking out over it, right, 1:27:12.280 --> 1:27:14.479 And this goes on for like a whole week. She's 1:27:14.479 --> 1:27:16.960 just crying every day, like calling crying and calling me, 1:27:16.960 --> 1:27:21.200 and I'm like, whoooo, what's happening? Right, And at the 1:27:21.280 --> 1:27:24.559 very end of the week, she texts me she breaks 1:27:24.640 --> 1:27:27.439 up with me. So I'm like, oh, okay, like that's 1:27:27.520 --> 1:27:29.160 kind of out of the blue, but you know, I 1:27:29.280 --> 1:27:32.479 kind of saw riding on the wall here kind of going. 1:27:32.360 --> 1:27:36.080 A little nuts, right, okay and interesting. 1:27:37.280 --> 1:27:39.320 You know, I kind of leave it at that. I'm like, okay, whatever, 1:27:39.439 --> 1:27:42.240 like you know, we broke up. She texts me the 1:27:42.240 --> 1:27:44.600 next day says, you know, you don't have to be 1:27:44.720 --> 1:27:46.840 radio silent, you know, we can still talk like friends. 1:27:46.840 --> 1:27:51.640 I'm like, no, I'm not gonna cut talk to you 1:27:51.720 --> 1:27:56.760 like next day, like you're like best pal. And then 1:27:56.800 --> 1:28:01.200 she starts parading me with texts telling me how I'm 1:28:01.200 --> 1:28:03.559 a terrible person, I'm a manipulative person. 1:28:03.640 --> 1:28:04.959 I'm I'm. 1:28:07.560 --> 1:28:11.439 Oh all right, and as as if she hadn't just 1:28:11.479 --> 1:28:13.479 sent you a dead deer okay, all right? 1:28:14.880 --> 1:28:18.120 Literally like like I'm like the worst human here. She's 1:28:18.160 --> 1:28:19.000 the one sending me. 1:28:18.960 --> 1:28:21.840 Dead, Like yeah, like give it, like give us a 1:28:21.840 --> 1:28:25.560 little bit of more witch witchcraft, like like witchcraft symptoms, 1:28:25.600 --> 1:28:27.839 like like what like she she's just wilding. 1:28:29.720 --> 1:28:32.040 Oh yeah, So she's wilding on me right and right 1:28:32.160 --> 1:28:35.240 at the at this point, like I'm like, you need 1:28:35.280 --> 1:28:37.280 to like chill or whatever, and she's like threatening to 1:28:37.320 --> 1:28:40.920 like curse me. She's sending me pictures of like little 1:28:40.960 --> 1:28:44.639 like ritual candles and ship like like trying to. 1:28:44.640 --> 1:28:49.040 Like what is me? What is she threatening to curse 1:28:49.080 --> 1:28:49.439 you with? 1:28:50.040 --> 1:28:51.000 What does she? What does she? 1:28:51.400 --> 1:28:51.719 Uh? 1:28:51.760 --> 1:28:55.400 What is her higher power? Is it Satan? 1:28:55.520 --> 1:28:58.720 Like he was trying to curse me with like just 1:28:58.800 --> 1:29:04.160 like general like life being shitty like everything in Witchcraft? 1:29:04.160 --> 1:29:05.280 Bro, are you you're real? 1:29:05.920 --> 1:29:06.000 No? 1:29:06.280 --> 1:29:07.639 But I feel like I really. 1:29:09.080 --> 1:29:10.760 But if someone named it demon. 1:29:10.960 --> 1:29:12.439 You never do you ever know when you're gonna run 1:29:12.439 --> 1:29:13.480 by them? 1:29:13.520 --> 1:29:15.759 So Matthew tell us, when does this come to a head? 1:29:15.920 --> 1:29:18.400 When does like are you still where are we at 1:29:18.439 --> 1:29:21.439 with this? Did this conflict come to a peak and 1:29:21.479 --> 1:29:24.519 then resolve? What's sort of the resolution here? 1:29:26.720 --> 1:29:27.040 All right? 1:29:27.160 --> 1:29:29.920 So once she started kind of like threatening me in 1:29:29.960 --> 1:29:32.840 a way where I was like, this girl's telling me 1:29:32.880 --> 1:29:36.040 she's gonna like send me things in the mail because 1:29:36.040 --> 1:29:42.600 she knows where I live. Okay, that is terrifying, reliable 1:29:42.640 --> 1:29:45.120 you know, big ass block. 1:29:44.880 --> 1:29:52.720 Button brom Paymon I'm squad paym On, I'm fucking it's 1:29:52.720 --> 1:29:54.920 just my my personal demon that I. 1:29:55.040 --> 1:29:56.720 Wait a minute, I've heard of my paym on is 1:29:56.760 --> 1:29:57.840 a demon, right person. 1:29:57.920 --> 1:30:00.880 I know that I'm loyal to you know, I learned 1:30:00.880 --> 1:30:01.360 a little bit. 1:30:03.080 --> 1:30:06.160 Sorry, continue tell us, Matthew, did how did this come 1:30:06.200 --> 1:30:09.360 to a head and resolve? All right? 1:30:09.400 --> 1:30:11.599 So I started what happened blocking and and everything, right, 1:30:13.000 --> 1:30:17.960 because she's spreads and like brandy to send me things 1:30:17.960 --> 1:30:20.479 on the mail and everything like that. So I started 1:30:20.520 --> 1:30:22.880 blocking her and all my stuff. And you know, I 1:30:22.920 --> 1:30:25.840 find I thought I blocked her on everything, and then 1:30:25.880 --> 1:30:30.800 she sent me a cash app with his massive fall 1:30:30.920 --> 1:30:32.200 of text and cash out. 1:30:32.960 --> 1:30:38.200 Wow, locking the eye. One time, my me and I 1:30:38.240 --> 1:30:42.840 thought about venmoing her money to turn back. 1:30:42.920 --> 1:30:44.000 So respect. 1:30:44.439 --> 1:30:46.679 I respect her move because at one point I almost 1:30:47.160 --> 1:30:49.360 venmotor girl a dollar just. 1:30:49.320 --> 1:30:50.120 To say something. 1:30:54.439 --> 1:30:55.080 Hundred dollars. 1:30:55.960 --> 1:30:58.920 Oh she requested money? All right, all right, that's disrespect. 1:30:58.960 --> 1:31:01.040 I was gonna ben mail her one dollar just to 1:31:01.640 --> 1:31:02.360 my message. 1:31:03.000 --> 1:31:04.479 She was requested money, you know. 1:31:06.600 --> 1:31:10.360 And did did you end up saying anything to her 1:31:10.400 --> 1:31:17.120 at all? Or did you ignore her her cash APT request? 1:31:17.360 --> 1:31:21.240 I ignored both cash apt requests and then I requested 1:31:22.360 --> 1:31:27.599 one cent from her for I say, and I just said, 1:31:28.040 --> 1:31:29.520 mental reparations. 1:31:29.960 --> 1:31:32.880 Oh my god, you're poking. You're poking a bear here, man, 1:31:34.000 --> 1:31:37.360 You're poking the bear that Listen, Matthew, if I were you, 1:31:37.400 --> 1:31:40.320 I would be terrified to go anywhere near my mailbox 1:31:40.479 --> 1:31:42.600 for home forever you have to. 1:31:43.960 --> 1:31:45.599 We were talking about I will. 1:31:46.360 --> 1:31:49.920 I will never go to the South. She's from Alabama. 1:31:49.920 --> 1:31:53.559 I'm never going to Alabama. You're else now a dangerous 1:31:53.560 --> 1:31:54.040 place for me. 1:31:54.120 --> 1:31:56.800 Now, stay safe, Stay safe, my brother. 1:31:57.000 --> 1:32:00.200 Yeah, but I mean, I don't know, man, Maybe the 1:32:00.280 --> 1:32:03.200 very least make something out of this when she sends you, uh, 1:32:03.880 --> 1:32:07.759 you know, dead squirrels in the mail and should flip 1:32:07.840 --> 1:32:09.920 them to some taxidermists trying to make a little bit 1:32:09.960 --> 1:32:10.360 of money off. 1:32:10.479 --> 1:32:13.080 Yeah, you man, everything is a hustle. 1:32:13.200 --> 1:32:17.160 Come on, dude, those those are that's that's free firs 1:32:17.280 --> 1:32:19.719 right there. Man. You know you you know street value 1:32:19.720 --> 1:32:22.479 of that stuff. Man, especially out here in Arizona. You 1:32:22.479 --> 1:32:24.960 can't find some like Southern ship out here. 1:32:25.600 --> 1:32:28.240 At least you got to have sex at the Grand Canyon. 1:32:28.640 --> 1:32:29.479 Wonder how many people? 1:32:29.680 --> 1:32:31.400 How many people have had sex at the Grand Canyon. 1:32:31.439 --> 1:32:36.959 Do you think Okay, I will take one, but you're about. 1:32:36.720 --> 1:32:44.280 To tell all winners. Someone's gonna tell someone shooting on 1:32:44.320 --> 1:32:45.080 someone's bed, all. 1:32:45.040 --> 1:32:51.240 Right, No, no, no, no, I would, I would do it 1:32:51.280 --> 1:32:51.719 all again. 1:32:51.960 --> 1:32:57.320 I regret nothing, the best, the best. 1:32:57.840 --> 1:33:00.160 Pitty goptoral brow fucking war. 1:33:02.000 --> 1:33:09.639 I bro city boys, thanks for calling, Matt Yeah, Matt, Hey, 1:33:09.840 --> 1:33:10.519 all Matthews. 1:33:10.600 --> 1:33:11.519 I guess we think the same. 1:33:11.600 --> 1:33:11.800 Brother. 1:33:11.880 --> 1:33:14.960 Appreciate you, Man, I fuck with that guy. 1:33:15.160 --> 1:33:18.559 Like, oh, I'm gonna tell a story that I never 1:33:18.760 --> 1:33:21.120 told before. Please never told before. 1:33:22.080 --> 1:33:27.160 There's one time I used my own fear against someone else. 1:33:27.720 --> 1:33:29.760 Someone tried to rob me when I was I used 1:33:29.800 --> 1:33:30.559 to be a drug dealer. 1:33:31.320 --> 1:33:32.920 I was, I want to say, like. 1:33:36.400 --> 1:33:39.559 I was either a senior in high school or I 1:33:39.600 --> 1:33:41.360 was senior. I was a senior high school or juior 1:33:41.400 --> 1:33:45.000 high school, and I was selling drugs and I started 1:33:46.160 --> 1:33:49.200 selling to like part of the hood. And some dude 1:33:49.240 --> 1:33:52.160 got in my car. I don't know what inspired me 1:33:52.400 --> 1:33:54.519 to do this or like what it was, but like 1:33:54.560 --> 1:33:58.880 this dude, I was selling him like a pretty big 1:33:58.920 --> 1:34:02.360 bag and he pulled out a gun and and I 1:34:02.400 --> 1:34:05.200 looked at him. He like pointed at me, and I 1:34:05.280 --> 1:34:09.439 was like I started acting like all crazy. I was like, yeah, 1:34:09.439 --> 1:34:11.000 act like a fucking crazy yess. 1:34:11.439 --> 1:34:11.639 Yeah. 1:34:11.640 --> 1:34:12.800 I was like, Oh, I'm gonna scare him. 1:34:12.800 --> 1:34:14.320 And I was like, I was like. 1:34:14.240 --> 1:34:15.800 Oh, you really want to do that? 1:34:16.280 --> 1:34:16.639 Baby? 1:34:17.000 --> 1:34:18.400 I started, Oh you went joker man? 1:34:18.520 --> 1:34:20.840 Yeah, I went like all weird and shit and I 1:34:20.880 --> 1:34:21.920 was like, Oh, you really want. 1:34:21.720 --> 1:34:22.120 To do that. 1:34:22.240 --> 1:34:24.439 I was like, I don't even remember exactly what I did, 1:34:24.479 --> 1:34:28.080 but I was like, oh, like I love, I don't 1:34:28.120 --> 1:34:30.400 even do yes, I just for a moment, I just 1:34:30.400 --> 1:34:32.479 went really fucking wild and this dude got on my 1:34:32.520 --> 1:34:33.799 car in like five seconds. 1:34:34.000 --> 1:34:37.160 He got out, didn't dig the weed, took his everything, 1:34:37.320 --> 1:34:38.719 so it worked. I didn't get robbed. 1:34:38.760 --> 1:34:40.680 That's that's my fantasy I think about all the time. 1:34:40.680 --> 1:34:41.960 Somebody the gun at me, I would just be. 1:34:42.040 --> 1:34:44.280 Like, wow, I literally did that. 1:34:44.640 --> 1:34:46.559 When I was in high school, some pointed gun at 1:34:46.600 --> 1:34:50.479 me and I was like, oh my god, really dude, Yeah, 1:34:50.640 --> 1:34:51.720 if you give me a minute, I can think of 1:34:51.760 --> 1:34:54.400 the fucking exact que I said, that's my friend, But 1:34:55.920 --> 1:34:56.240 I did. 1:34:56.240 --> 1:34:59.840 That's really I think about that, like, can you if 1:34:59.840 --> 1:35:02.439 you you can't reason with a person, you always think 1:35:02.479 --> 1:35:04.400 about how would you react if somebody just like points 1:35:04.400 --> 1:35:06.880 it out. That's crazy that you because I think that 1:35:07.000 --> 1:35:10.280 back to like the whole you can hypothesize how you 1:35:10.320 --> 1:35:12.080 will feel about something, but you won't know until you're 1:35:12.120 --> 1:35:14.800 actually there. If hypothesized, like if somebody pointed a gun 1:35:14.840 --> 1:35:17.559 at me, I would just be like, oh, baby, babe, 1:35:17.640 --> 1:35:18.759 a way what. 1:35:18.960 --> 1:35:21.599 But you out and you're maybe fine, yeah, but but I'd. 1:35:21.479 --> 1:35:23.639 Probably like I'd be scared or like a dread whatever 1:35:23.640 --> 1:35:26.160 the body chemicals would kick in that would prevent me 1:35:26.200 --> 1:35:26.960 from my plan. 1:35:27.479 --> 1:35:31.960 But you got reaction. Really, it was like it was 1:35:32.000 --> 1:35:34.320 like I don't know why I had the confidence to 1:35:34.400 --> 1:35:37.519 do that, because I mean, like I knew of his dude, 1:35:37.760 --> 1:35:39.360 I'd never met him, but I knew of him, and 1:35:39.400 --> 1:35:41.519 I was like, I don't know. For some reason, I 1:35:41.560 --> 1:35:43.639 was like I think I'm gonna fucking figure this dude out, 1:35:43.640 --> 1:35:45.519 Like he doesn't know much about me, So I just 1:35:45.520 --> 1:35:46.280 fucking was like. 1:35:46.240 --> 1:35:48.599 But weren't you talking with him a little bit before 1:35:48.840 --> 1:35:50.479 he had it? Made have any grasp of whore you 1:35:50.560 --> 1:35:51.320 were never bought. 1:35:51.320 --> 1:35:52.519 He never bought for me before. 1:35:52.720 --> 1:35:53.400 He didn't know me. 1:35:54.040 --> 1:35:56.080 This was in high school. I wasn't like no one 1:35:56.160 --> 1:35:56.439 knew me. 1:35:56.479 --> 1:35:58.880 This knew me as like the fucking plug from that 1:35:58.920 --> 1:36:03.360 part of town, and he fucking first time buying for me, 1:36:03.640 --> 1:36:05.800 and I don't know, he pulled up put out a 1:36:05.800 --> 1:36:06.479 gun and I was. 1:36:06.439 --> 1:36:09.600 Just like turn my head sideways. Yeah, you know what 1:36:09.640 --> 1:36:10.040 I'm saying. 1:36:10.080 --> 1:36:12.120 It was like before all, like you know, it wasn't even. 1:36:11.880 --> 1:36:14.160 Like you didn't even rehearse for this, but yeah, no, 1:36:14.280 --> 1:36:14.680 it was it. 1:36:14.920 --> 1:36:18.160 Was like pre like it memes. I wasn't like the 1:36:18.160 --> 1:36:20.280 fucking clown and the ship. I was just like, oh, yeah, 1:36:20.320 --> 1:36:21.720 you want to do that, dude. 1:36:21.720 --> 1:36:21.840 Man. 1:36:21.840 --> 1:36:23.479 I wish I wish I could reheart. I wish there 1:36:23.520 --> 1:36:24.960 was a video of the I did. But I just 1:36:25.000 --> 1:36:26.840 freakd this kid out right away. 1:36:27.040 --> 1:36:29.000 That's amazing. I'm so glad to hear that worked because 1:36:29.120 --> 1:36:32.760 I'm I still I'm looking for the opportunity to use that. 1:36:32.800 --> 1:36:35.040 You know, I said earlier with the Katana thing, like 1:36:35.080 --> 1:36:37.360 the party was like, you know, you don't want anything 1:36:37.360 --> 1:36:38.760 bad to happen to you what a party was like, 1:36:39.040 --> 1:36:40.200 but it's like good to have it up. 1:36:41.080 --> 1:36:42.799 I found gust of Sashima. 1:36:42.840 --> 1:36:44.960 I like to do exactly. So there's a part of 1:36:44.960 --> 1:36:46.840 me that's like I don't want to would never want 1:36:46.840 --> 1:36:48.160 to be in a situation I'm getting rod and a 1:36:48.160 --> 1:36:50.600 part of me wants to be like if I, you know, 1:36:51.320 --> 1:36:53.720 start like show up this, like turn around and pull 1:36:53.800 --> 1:36:55.479 my ass out when someone has a gun. 1:36:55.600 --> 1:36:59.760 Yeah work, Yeah yeah. I want family that that does occasionally. 1:37:00.360 --> 1:37:02.360 Really, I mean, I mean I've just stove for her. 1:37:02.360 --> 1:37:03.120 I mean I've seen video. 1:37:03.120 --> 1:37:03.920 I guess ast thing. 1:37:03.960 --> 1:37:06.360 I've seen videos for everyone who's who's listening. 1:37:06.479 --> 1:37:10.599 I would probably recommend not trying to act crazy if 1:37:10.640 --> 1:37:11.760 someone's trying to shoot you. 1:37:11.800 --> 1:37:15.679 But it was, you know, in this situation, it made sense. 1:37:16.160 --> 1:37:18.080 It'd be I don't what if you gave somebody your 1:37:18.120 --> 1:37:20.280 wallet and then you showed them your ass and you're like, 1:37:20.320 --> 1:37:23.519 I'm not letting you get away with this without a 1:37:23.560 --> 1:37:24.400 little bit of something. 1:37:24.439 --> 1:37:24.639 See. 1:37:24.720 --> 1:37:27.040 You know, if you get really unique and creative with it, 1:37:27.080 --> 1:37:30.400 sometimes that's on a new trend start, you know. 1:37:31.760 --> 1:37:33.919 I mean, hey, that's how vabbing probably started. 1:37:34.120 --> 1:37:35.120 Yeah, Oh, very dude. 1:37:35.200 --> 1:37:37.679 Vabbing was that was? That was? That was a moment tonight. 1:37:37.960 --> 1:37:39.320 I'm glad that I learned about that. 1:37:39.760 --> 1:37:44.520 Chris, Hello, Hello. 1:37:45.120 --> 1:37:47.320 Oh my god, Hello, can you hear me? 1:37:48.360 --> 1:37:50.000 We sure can clea. 1:37:51.280 --> 1:37:53.680 Holy shit? Am I allowed to curse on this? 1:37:54.360 --> 1:37:55.160 You can say whatever. 1:37:55.280 --> 1:37:58.720 Yes, you can, motherfucker fun yo. 1:37:58.920 --> 1:38:02.920 I literally was just watching gravy. I just fucking heard 1:38:02.960 --> 1:38:06.080 you Chris homeless, and I like, shut the fucking stream off. 1:38:06.080 --> 1:38:12.000 Holy fuck, Hi, what's up? 1:38:13.600 --> 1:38:16.879 My name is Chris. I'm twenty years old and I'm homeless. 1:38:16.960 --> 1:38:21.360 Yeah, yeah, ask First of all, where are you calling from? 1:38:23.360 --> 1:38:26.800 I am currently in a hotel room. Actually, I work 1:38:26.880 --> 1:38:30.600 full time, so I have some money. I did just 1:38:30.680 --> 1:38:32.720 put a bit of a deposit down to get an 1:38:32.760 --> 1:38:34.880 apartment at the end of the month, so I'm. 1:38:34.760 --> 1:38:37.000 Not like Congress stuck. 1:38:37.080 --> 1:38:43.000 But it has been since October. October of yeah, October of. 1:38:42.920 --> 1:38:46.360 Twenty twenty one, I became homeless. 1:38:47.320 --> 1:38:50.560 Have you slept it outside? 1:38:50.880 --> 1:38:54.639 I slept outside for a couple of nights, and then 1:38:54.880 --> 1:38:59.000 from there I went to a shelter for people within 1:38:59.040 --> 1:39:02.800 the age range of eighteen to twenty one, and that 1:39:02.960 --> 1:39:04.760 was not really a good experience. 1:39:04.880 --> 1:39:07.600 I was traumatized there. 1:39:09.360 --> 1:39:13.800 And from there, actually, with that shelter, the shelter, I 1:39:13.800 --> 1:39:16.439 got to speak to a lot of different people about 1:39:16.439 --> 1:39:20.479 my experience in being homeless, which was cool. 1:39:20.479 --> 1:39:23.160 Like I would I would go around to like schools. 1:39:22.720 --> 1:39:25.040 And shit and be like, hey, guys, uh, this is me. 1:39:25.240 --> 1:39:27.400 This is what it's like to be homeless is shit sucks, 1:39:27.520 --> 1:39:30.720 But like there are places out there that can help you. 1:39:30.880 --> 1:39:32.760 And that's always been a dream of mine because I 1:39:32.840 --> 1:39:34.639 used to be a foster kid and I always wanted 1:39:34.640 --> 1:39:36.200 to do that even then. 1:39:36.520 --> 1:39:37.599 So it's been. 1:39:37.439 --> 1:39:39.599 Cool, but it also fucking sucks. 1:39:39.680 --> 1:39:43.320 So tell us about what the experience is like in 1:39:43.360 --> 1:39:44.160 the shelters. 1:39:46.479 --> 1:39:50.040 Well, it's too it depends, you know, I've heard. I've 1:39:50.040 --> 1:39:51.760 heard a lot of different things about a lot of 1:39:51.760 --> 1:39:54.559 different shelters because you come across a lot of people. 1:39:55.720 --> 1:39:58.360 For me specifically, even growing up, like I was being 1:39:58.439 --> 1:39:59.720 shelters as a kid and stuff too. 1:39:59.720 --> 1:40:00.759 I've been homeless before. 1:40:01.200 --> 1:40:02.839 There isn't really anything new. 1:40:03.920 --> 1:40:07.240 But as a kid, like I was in adult shelters 1:40:07.240 --> 1:40:09.280 and that was something a little scary worth like even 1:40:09.320 --> 1:40:11.200 though you're with family and like I was with my 1:40:11.280 --> 1:40:13.760 mom and my siblings, you're still there's no there's no 1:40:13.880 --> 1:40:16.400 real safety in the shelter. I was just in they 1:40:16.479 --> 1:40:19.840 had people like staff members taking advantage of the youth 1:40:19.920 --> 1:40:22.280 there because like they can and what are we going 1:40:22.360 --> 1:40:24.559 to do? They would threaten you with like if you 1:40:24.600 --> 1:40:27.040 don't do exactly what they want you will lose the 1:40:27.040 --> 1:40:29.479 place that you have to sleep and you can't do 1:40:29.560 --> 1:40:32.479 anything about it. They will put you on the street, 1:40:32.640 --> 1:40:35.000 no fucking problem. 1:40:35.160 --> 1:40:39.160 I'm curious what what? What city or state. 1:40:41.040 --> 1:40:42.759 New Jersey, Jersey? 1:40:44.320 --> 1:40:44.519 Wow? 1:40:44.840 --> 1:40:46.799 Okay, sorry and continue. 1:40:48.600 --> 1:40:51.519 Uh No, No, I don't want to name specific cities 1:40:51.600 --> 1:40:53.799 just because, like I used to work for that specific 1:40:53.880 --> 1:40:57.360 shelter as well when I lived there. They gave me 1:40:57.400 --> 1:41:00.000 a job which helps bring me into where I'm currently working, 1:41:00.360 --> 1:41:04.439 and they do good work. Still, it's just like a 1:41:04.479 --> 1:41:07.960 lot of the people in the specific shelter that work 1:41:08.040 --> 1:41:10.920 there really take advantage of it, and it just it 1:41:11.000 --> 1:41:11.639 doesn't go. 1:41:11.720 --> 1:41:15.160 Well for a lot of people there. I had known a. 1:41:15.120 --> 1:41:18.720 Young woman who had come from Puerto Rico and she 1:41:18.800 --> 1:41:21.600 had come and escaped like an abusive home. She's to 1:41:21.640 --> 1:41:25.960 be a foster child there and escape here. And they 1:41:25.960 --> 1:41:29.040 had kicked her out because she had too many panic 1:41:29.040 --> 1:41:32.280 attacks because of her trauma, and it would make her 1:41:32.360 --> 1:41:35.519 kind of lash out at people. So they kicked her 1:41:35.560 --> 1:41:38.880 out for that and said she was violent, and she 1:41:39.320 --> 1:41:41.680 got picked up by police and because she was a 1:41:41.720 --> 1:41:44.439 foster child in Puerto Rico and was considered missing, they 1:41:44.479 --> 1:41:45.280 sent her back. 1:41:47.200 --> 1:41:49.400 Unto like that shitty situation. 1:41:49.000 --> 1:41:52.439 And they don't care, like, you know, you just kind 1:41:52.439 --> 1:41:55.040 of on your own in this world and it's so shitty. 1:41:56.240 --> 1:41:59.080 So Chris, it sounds like you said, you have a 1:41:59.120 --> 1:42:01.439 full time job. Now you're making a little bit of money, 1:42:01.479 --> 1:42:03.960 You're at least able to stay in a hotel. Have 1:42:04.439 --> 1:42:09.280 things been on an upswing for you? 1:42:09.280 --> 1:42:09.640 You know what? 1:42:10.280 --> 1:42:15.879 I would say, so since things kind of went downhill 1:42:15.960 --> 1:42:17.680 for a little bit, but I would say I'm kind 1:42:17.680 --> 1:42:19.960 of going back up with I was in a different 1:42:20.640 --> 1:42:24.640 shelter after the last one and I was asked to 1:42:24.720 --> 1:42:28.360 leave because of the different situation. I was assaulted there 1:42:28.400 --> 1:42:30.200 and for my safety they told me to leave, but 1:42:30.240 --> 1:42:34.639 they couldn't put me anywhere else. So this is I'm 1:42:34.640 --> 1:42:36.800 now in the hotels, and it was difficult with like 1:42:37.240 --> 1:42:40.120 I was spending so much on hotels and I couldn't 1:42:40.479 --> 1:42:42.839 afford to kind of get my laundry done or anything 1:42:42.920 --> 1:42:45.280 like that. So I was like, I wasn't going to work. 1:42:46.800 --> 1:42:49.800 But little where I'm working, they've been really good and 1:42:50.040 --> 1:42:53.400 really understanding for my situation. So it's been really cool 1:42:54.280 --> 1:42:56.120 to kind of feel like there's people really on my 1:42:56.280 --> 1:43:01.479 side and there for me. Yeah, like they've been so helpful. 1:43:01.680 --> 1:43:04.280 I feel like I'm doing really well, even mentally with 1:43:04.439 --> 1:43:06.519 kind of everything going on. I think I'm getting a 1:43:06.520 --> 1:43:08.719 little better, So I would say. 1:43:08.600 --> 1:43:12.559 So good, that's awesome good. I'm curious, how, like, how 1:43:12.600 --> 1:43:15.880 many I guess, how long would you have considered how 1:43:15.920 --> 1:43:27.160 long has it been that you've considered yourself? I guess homeless. 1:43:22.600 --> 1:43:28.360 Since October eighth of twenty twenty one. I've been homeless. 1:43:29.280 --> 1:43:30.160 How long is that? 1:43:30.360 --> 1:43:32.679 I don't know, got over six months. 1:43:32.840 --> 1:43:33.360 Forty year? 1:43:33.400 --> 1:43:38.200 But but okay, okay, well, yeah, that's the hardest thing. 1:43:38.320 --> 1:43:39.320 What's the hardest. 1:43:39.000 --> 1:43:44.640 Thing, in your opinion, keeping yourself going? I mean, I 1:43:44.720 --> 1:43:47.200 felt like such a failure and I seeven now I 1:43:47.240 --> 1:43:50.240 still do. But it's like I'm also twenty There's so 1:43:50.400 --> 1:43:52.720 much still that I have to do and I can do, 1:43:53.640 --> 1:43:56.720 but it's like keeping myself motivated with knowing like I 1:43:56.760 --> 1:43:59.040 have nowhere I didn't. I don't have a home, I 1:43:59.040 --> 1:43:59.720 don't have like. 1:44:00.080 --> 1:44:02.479 A regular bed to sleep in, things like that. 1:44:03.160 --> 1:44:05.120 Uh so that's been really difficult to like, I don't 1:44:05.120 --> 1:44:07.120 even have an address, and I. 1:44:07.040 --> 1:44:08.479 Feel like such shit all the time. 1:44:08.520 --> 1:44:10.120 And it's like going to hang out with my friends 1:44:10.120 --> 1:44:12.840 I'm like, I know y'all think of me differently. I 1:44:12.920 --> 1:44:15.240 know you see me in a different light. My manager, 1:44:15.280 --> 1:44:19.400 I know they see me differently, But like, what are they? 1:44:19.600 --> 1:44:22.679 You know, there's not much anyone can do. We're all 1:44:22.720 --> 1:44:25.799 fucking young and stupid. None of us can really afford 1:44:25.840 --> 1:44:28.120 to help each other right now. So it's just like you, 1:44:28.560 --> 1:44:29.800 I'm sorry you're going through this. 1:44:30.960 --> 1:44:34.840 Chris. Did you say earlier that you you recently were 1:44:34.960 --> 1:44:37.920 able to put a payment on a place? Did I 1:44:37.920 --> 1:44:38.599 hear that correctly? 1:44:38.920 --> 1:44:39.320 Yeah? 1:44:40.200 --> 1:44:40.599 I did. 1:44:40.720 --> 1:44:45.000 I put my first It's it's me and my boyfriend. Actually, 1:44:45.040 --> 1:44:47.920 we put our first two hundred dollars deposit down to 1:44:48.200 --> 1:44:52.240 reserve an apartment, and we just got to prove to 1:44:52.320 --> 1:44:54.960 start renting it the twenty ninth of July. 1:44:56.120 --> 1:44:59.760 Oh, Graslap, that's awesome. 1:44:59.640 --> 1:45:02.080 Ye with you? 1:45:02.120 --> 1:45:05.320 What's the deal with the boyfriend? Is he been supportive 1:45:05.720 --> 1:45:06.840 of you throughout this time? 1:45:08.600 --> 1:45:12.280 The boyfriend is actually currently in the same situation with me. 1:45:13.760 --> 1:45:16.519 We were living together when everything kind of went down. 1:45:17.400 --> 1:45:19.000 We broke up for about. 1:45:18.680 --> 1:45:21.920 A month just because it really wasn't going well for 1:45:22.000 --> 1:45:25.200 either of us mentally, and then that kind of transpired 1:45:25.240 --> 1:45:28.240 into like our relationship got really dark and heavy for 1:45:28.280 --> 1:45:33.880 a minute. Uh, so we broke up and now I'd 1:45:33.920 --> 1:45:35.920 say we're in a better spot. He's in he's actually 1:45:35.960 --> 1:45:39.000 at work right now. I texted him like two hours 1:45:39.040 --> 1:45:41.320 ago and I was like, I'm on a come currently 1:45:41.360 --> 1:45:43.679 on que to talk to young Gravy and the therapy. 1:45:43.720 --> 1:45:45.440 Get goo dog. I'm so excited. 1:45:46.160 --> 1:45:48.599 Uh And I didn't answer his call when he called 1:45:48.600 --> 1:45:50.240 on break because I was hoping. 1:45:50.000 --> 1:45:52.800 To do something with that. Well. 1:45:52.880 --> 1:45:55.360 Fuck, yah, I'm glad that we could be here. Hell yeah, 1:45:56.080 --> 1:45:57.400 you guys are getting an apartment soon. 1:45:57.680 --> 1:45:58.439 Such a highlight. 1:45:59.400 --> 1:46:02.599 Yeah, we're happy to I mean, I'm happy to hear 1:46:02.640 --> 1:46:06.679 from you. What's your plan for the next like two 1:46:06.680 --> 1:46:10.680 weeks then before how are you celebrating before you have 1:46:10.720 --> 1:46:11.040 a home? 1:46:12.080 --> 1:46:18.760 Yeah, I'm saving money, yeah, I think before we get 1:46:18.800 --> 1:46:19.240 a place. 1:46:19.400 --> 1:46:20.679 Yeah, it's just saving money. 1:46:20.760 --> 1:46:23.240 I mean I say, we did our celebration not that 1:46:23.360 --> 1:46:27.679 long ago. When we did the initial deposit. We went 1:46:27.720 --> 1:46:29.400 to the city because I had never been to New 1:46:29.479 --> 1:46:33.160 York City before, so we were down there for looking 1:46:33.200 --> 1:46:36.840 at an apartment like along in the area, still in 1:46:36.880 --> 1:46:38.439 New Jersey, and he was like, you know what, let's 1:46:38.479 --> 1:46:39.960 get on the ferry. Let's go to the city. 1:46:40.000 --> 1:46:42.960 So we went to the city and it was so great. 1:46:44.160 --> 1:46:48.240 Yeah. I love your attitude, Chris. You really do you really? 1:46:48.240 --> 1:46:48.479 I know? 1:46:48.520 --> 1:46:50.400 I mean it sounds like from everything you've been telling 1:46:50.439 --> 1:46:55.560 us that you've just fucking been through the ringer. 1:46:55.560 --> 1:46:57.519 Through it and fucking ringer. 1:46:57.680 --> 1:47:00.200 Yeah, yeah, hand you have. 1:47:00.240 --> 1:47:01.960 You sound like you've handled it like a chap. I'm 1:47:02.000 --> 1:47:06.280 really impressed with you and you and I'm really happy 1:47:06.280 --> 1:47:08.880 to hear you sound you you. I like, you know 1:47:09.200 --> 1:47:11.120 you have been through a lot. But I I and 1:47:11.160 --> 1:47:13.960 correct me if I am wrong, But it does sound 1:47:14.160 --> 1:47:17.400 like you are excited about life moving forward. 1:47:19.000 --> 1:47:20.479 I really am. 1:47:20.560 --> 1:47:21.000 You're right. 1:47:21.120 --> 1:47:23.320 I like there was a minute where I was like 1:47:23.560 --> 1:47:26.720 just so over it and I'm just like life is 1:47:26.760 --> 1:47:30.519 so worth living. Like shit sucks, yeah, but it doesn't 1:47:30.520 --> 1:47:31.200 always suck. 1:47:32.400 --> 1:47:34.200 And there's yeah exactly. 1:47:34.600 --> 1:47:37.519 Do you have any words or tips for people who 1:47:38.200 --> 1:47:39.479 may end up in that situation? 1:47:42.360 --> 1:47:45.519 Look, I will. There are definitely numbers you can call. 1:47:45.600 --> 1:47:48.160 I know for the US, I can't say for anywhere else. 1:47:48.200 --> 1:47:51.080 There's two one one if you are in need of 1:47:51.160 --> 1:47:54.720 emergency services right away for anything, but they specifically have 1:47:54.760 --> 1:47:57.240 a homeless line that you can call at any point 1:47:57.280 --> 1:48:00.679 and get in touch with someone. There are a really 1:48:00.720 --> 1:48:05.080 good resources just to put Google search away. If you 1:48:05.120 --> 1:48:08.160 need help, go to your local police department, fire department. 1:48:08.280 --> 1:48:10.720 Anyone at a hospital can definitely help you and for 1:48:10.920 --> 1:48:14.640 even the right direction. Uh, but there's hope. You know, 1:48:14.760 --> 1:48:16.759 you're never really alone. There are a lot of people 1:48:16.760 --> 1:48:20.200 that can still help you. And even if you can't 1:48:20.200 --> 1:48:21.800 find anyone, you can do it. 1:48:22.200 --> 1:48:22.840 Anyone can. 1:48:24.000 --> 1:48:26.920 Yeah, Chris, dude, thank you very much for sharing your 1:48:26.960 --> 1:48:30.120 story with us. Man, I'm I'm inspiring, I'm impressed, I'm 1:48:30.120 --> 1:48:31.880 impressed by you, and I'm really glad to hear that 1:48:31.920 --> 1:48:32.880 things are on the up swing. 1:48:35.040 --> 1:48:35.840 Thank you, Thank you. 1:48:35.800 --> 1:48:38.120 Both for talking with me. This has been great. Thank 1:48:38.120 --> 1:48:39.120 you guys for what you do. 1:48:40.000 --> 1:48:44.040 Hey, have a good night matter Chris, you too, be safe, y'all. 1:48:44.040 --> 1:48:44.599 Good night. 1:48:46.880 --> 1:48:51.120 By a really a really uh solid theme this evening 1:48:51.200 --> 1:48:57.880 of people who've just gone through some fucking ship. Du Yeah, 1:48:58.040 --> 1:49:00.400 like yeah, yeah, And I you know, I meant what 1:49:00.479 --> 1:49:03.519 I said to Chris where she just seemed like it's 1:49:03.600 --> 1:49:06.280 it's it's dope, it's hope that she's uh seems like 1:49:06.320 --> 1:49:07.160 she's on the up swing. 1:49:07.760 --> 1:49:11.880 Dude, I mean everybody I was before her too, with 1:49:11.920 --> 1:49:14.360 the girl with the with the heart issue. Man. Yeah, 1:49:14.439 --> 1:49:15.679 her attitude was insane. 1:49:15.720 --> 1:49:21.720 Man, dude, thank you so much for coming on the show. Uh, 1:49:22.280 --> 1:49:23.080 it makes me happy too. 1:49:23.120 --> 1:49:23.439 I don't know. 1:49:23.479 --> 1:49:28.120 I like, I had a brief the moment just now 1:49:28.320 --> 1:49:30.960 where I was like, she's sound everything happy on the 1:49:31.000 --> 1:49:32.680 fun and I was looking over you and you were 1:49:32.720 --> 1:49:35.160 like and I'm looking at my body and I'm all green, 1:49:35.200 --> 1:49:38.720 and I was like, this is wild. I'm looking around them, 1:49:38.760 --> 1:49:41.640 this is wild that we're doing this right now. I 1:49:41.680 --> 1:49:42.479 had a moment where I. 1:49:42.520 --> 1:49:44.320 Was just like totally. 1:49:44.360 --> 1:49:45.880 I had a few moments where I would look at 1:49:45.960 --> 1:49:48.880 I was like, like thinking about these inspiring things everything said. 1:49:48.880 --> 1:49:51.280 I'm looking at myself. I'm like, damn, we're wearing. 1:49:51.880 --> 1:49:54.160 I thought it like she she's saying all this stuff 1:49:54.360 --> 1:49:58.639 like you're runn a fucking Graco costumes. Yeah. 1:49:58.720 --> 1:50:00.320 Yeah, and we're really we're really wild. 1:50:00.560 --> 1:50:02.120 Hopefully it feels like we're helping people. 1:50:02.160 --> 1:50:04.880 Man. So it's it's it's a second, dude, you're doing 1:50:04.880 --> 1:50:05.839 something really dope. 1:50:05.600 --> 1:50:09.800 Here, gravy listen before we go, Please anything you wanna 1:50:10.000 --> 1:50:11.800 you want to say to the people. Plugs? Can we 1:50:11.840 --> 1:50:13.880 get some plugs. I want to give you the opportunity 1:50:13.920 --> 1:50:16.160 to tell people where they can find you. Those who 1:50:16.160 --> 1:50:17.760 are new to Young Gravy. 1:50:17.800 --> 1:50:20.120 Hey, everybody, it's Young Gravy. 1:50:20.200 --> 1:50:22.320 If you guys have liked me so far, all you 1:50:22.320 --> 1:50:25.280 gotta do is just it's just Young Gravy. But the 1:50:25.760 --> 1:50:28.200 young doesn't have an O in it. It's a you 1:50:29.080 --> 1:50:32.000 y u n g Gravy. Look me up wherever you want. 1:50:32.080 --> 1:50:35.519 It's the same thing everywhere everywhere I make music. 1:50:36.000 --> 1:50:40.200 Go follow this man. Go listen to Gasanova an album. 1:50:40.240 --> 1:50:40.920 Second album. 1:50:40.960 --> 1:50:42.040 That was my second album. 1:50:42.200 --> 1:50:44.080 Why been a bunch of aps and a bunch of 1:50:44.080 --> 1:50:46.720 other shit I made so me and Baby No Money. 1:50:46.760 --> 1:50:50.120 Got Baby Gravy three coming, and I have another album dropping. 1:50:50.600 --> 1:50:54.000 I got two projects dropping before the year ends. Cool man, 1:50:54.200 --> 1:50:56.960 so he's it coming tour in the winter. 1:50:57.400 --> 1:50:59.840 Go listen to the song yup, that's my favorite song. 1:51:00.360 --> 1:51:02.640 Yeah, listen to you like that an exclamation part at 1:51:02.640 --> 1:51:03.200 the end. 1:51:03.680 --> 1:51:05.559 Good on you any tour day it's coming out. 1:51:06.720 --> 1:51:09.080 I'm doing some festivals and like the Midwest, and then 1:51:09.280 --> 1:51:12.400 I have a big old tour of the whole US 1:51:12.960 --> 1:51:18.439 November December, Beautiful Baby Gravy three tour. If you look 1:51:18.439 --> 1:51:19.519 my name up, it'll come out. 1:51:20.280 --> 1:51:23.559 Go for this man, young gravy all over the internet 1:51:23.680 --> 1:51:26.040 to any final thoughts, feeling sentiments you want to say 1:51:26.080 --> 1:51:29.240 to the computer. 1:51:28.560 --> 1:51:31.600 Appreciate you guys from being here for Appreciate y'all for 1:51:31.720 --> 1:51:34.160 being here. I love this. This is a good, good 1:51:34.160 --> 1:51:35.879 evening for me. Let me enjoy myself. 1:51:35.960 --> 1:51:37.400 Thank you, Thank you again for coming on. 1:51:37.439 --> 1:51:43.120 Brother, This is a beautiful moment. Everyone sleep tight. 1:51:44.560 --> 1:51:48.040 Kid goes on the line taking your phone calls every night. 1:51:48.439 --> 1:51:51.519 Never d goes to his I was teaching you loud. 1:51:51.560 --> 1:51:55.120 Interview line is not really an expert