WEBVTT - Chaos with Ariana Biermann 0:00:01.800 --> 0:00:04.920 Hey guys, welcome back to another week of casual Chaos. 0:00:05.200 --> 0:00:07.240 This week, I have one of my best friends on 0:00:07.360 --> 0:00:10.280 the pod, Ariana Beerman. Welcome to Casual Chaos. 0:00:10.280 --> 0:00:12.119 Thanks for having me. I'm so happy for you. This 0:00:12.200 --> 0:00:12.800 is amazing. 0:00:13.160 --> 0:00:15.400 I'm so happy you're here. I feel like both of 0:00:15.440 --> 0:00:16.840 our families have been in the headline. 0:00:16.880 --> 0:00:17.479 Thank you. 0:00:18.520 --> 0:00:21.160 I don't think I could scroll on TikTok without seeing 0:00:21.480 --> 0:00:24.600 one thing about my family or your family. It alternate. 0:00:24.720 --> 0:00:27.280 Ye, who's going this one wild? I don't know. 0:00:27.800 --> 0:00:28.960 I think they pick and choose. 0:00:28.720 --> 0:00:30.040 That they want to bully each month. 0:00:30.120 --> 0:00:34.480 I agree, But you know, how has your situation turned 0:00:34.520 --> 0:00:36.920 you into who you are today? Because I feel like that, 0:00:37.159 --> 0:00:38.960 you know, it impacted me a lot and made me 0:00:39.120 --> 0:00:40.240 into who I am today. 0:00:40.880 --> 0:00:43.040 I agree completely. I feel like, well, one thing I 0:00:43.080 --> 0:00:45.240 definitely do is do not read any of the headlines. 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:46.960 Like I always tell people, I have no idea what 0:00:47.040 --> 0:00:48.839 is going on or what is trending. People text me 0:00:48.880 --> 0:00:51.200 about it. I'm like, please don't. I don't actually want 0:00:51.200 --> 0:00:54.360 to know. You're ruining my day. It doesn't matter. I 0:00:54.400 --> 0:00:57.000 feel like it's just really made me stronger and understand 0:00:57.000 --> 0:01:00.520 the situations for sure. A little bit better understand how 0:01:00.520 --> 0:01:02.960 to handle myself even better, and maybe some things not 0:01:03.080 --> 0:01:05.319 to do moving forward in my life and to avoid 0:01:05.920 --> 0:01:07.039 at all costs. 0:01:08.040 --> 0:01:10.160 Pay your taxes, people, I pay. 0:01:09.959 --> 0:01:12.960 Your taxes, and don't let your house get foreclosed on. Okay, 0:01:13.160 --> 0:01:15.320 save your money. All right, Maybe we don't need a 0:01:15.360 --> 0:01:19.520 channel bag, but I feel like it's just really maybe 0:01:19.560 --> 0:01:22.720 stronger and in a way definitely brought this whole situation 0:01:22.720 --> 0:01:24.960 where everything brought me and my mom and my sister closer, 0:01:25.360 --> 0:01:27.000 and we're kind of like the three best friends, which 0:01:27.040 --> 0:01:29.640 I'm really grateful for. And I think I'm still even 0:01:29.720 --> 0:01:32.319 learning how much it's contributing to who I am, because 0:01:32.319 --> 0:01:35.600 it's still going on, very much going on, and my parents' 0:01:35.600 --> 0:01:38.720 divorce is nowhere near being done, and. 0:01:38.720 --> 0:01:41.200 Obviously the divorce is so stressful, but you feel like, 0:01:41.880 --> 0:01:43.880 I mean, we've talked about it so many times, but 0:01:43.920 --> 0:01:44.920 they're just better off a part. 0:01:45.080 --> 0:01:47.280 Yeah, I feel like at you know, I really always 0:01:47.280 --> 0:01:49.080 wanted them to figure it out, and I had a. 0:01:50.520 --> 0:01:51.560 You know, I even wanted my pack. 0:01:51.680 --> 0:01:54.520 I was like, and I pray for it literally every night, 0:01:54.640 --> 0:01:57.160 like I just hope that God can help them find 0:01:57.160 --> 0:01:59.000 their way back to each other. I think at this 0:01:59.040 --> 0:02:02.160 point though, unfortunately, there is far too much damage done, 0:02:02.960 --> 0:02:05.520 and I think the final straw from my mom has 0:02:05.560 --> 0:02:08.280 just been like this full custody battle that we're all 0:02:08.280 --> 0:02:09.679 going to have to go through. We're all going to 0:02:09.760 --> 0:02:12.000 have to go to court and give our testimonies and 0:02:12.080 --> 0:02:15.200 witness statements and everything, and it's just like the most 0:02:15.240 --> 0:02:18.320 insane thing ever, Like I can't even imagine it. 0:02:18.600 --> 0:02:20.160 But that's just gonna put a straight on all. 0:02:20.280 --> 0:02:22.239 Everybody, all the kids, and that's who should be the 0:02:22.320 --> 0:02:23.360 number one focus here. 0:02:23.639 --> 0:02:26.320 And they're still little. I mean, listen, as even though 0:02:26.360 --> 0:02:27.959 your brothers look like they are. 0:02:27.760 --> 0:02:30.360 They are grown men. Yeah, they are still My brother 0:02:30.440 --> 0:02:32.120 just turned fourteen, my other one's thirteen. 0:02:32.840 --> 0:02:37.400 Little and you know, this whole thing, it's crazy because 0:02:37.440 --> 0:02:39.480 I feel like your siblings can relate a lot to 0:02:39.520 --> 0:02:42.960 Adriana because they have older siblings. Audriana obviously is my 0:02:43.160 --> 0:02:46.440 youngest sister. But when they see all of this at 0:02:46.440 --> 0:02:49.600 such a young age, it makes them so mature. Malania 0:02:49.680 --> 0:02:53.119 was always the rebellious child. It could make a child rebellious. 0:02:53.240 --> 0:02:57.720 Audriana it has made so wise and mature, and she's 0:02:57.720 --> 0:03:00.400 so like calm and composed because of it. And then 0:03:00.520 --> 0:03:05.120 like Gabriella doesn't like confrontation. It affects everyone in different ways, 0:03:05.560 --> 0:03:09.960 Like I definitely have abandonment issues. I don't like being alone. 0:03:10.160 --> 0:03:14.440 It affects I don't like what you believe. But it 0:03:14.480 --> 0:03:17.440 affects everyone in different ways, and especially the younger ones 0:03:17.480 --> 0:03:19.760 when they see this at such a young age. It 0:03:19.880 --> 0:03:22.840 really does. It does something, you know, whether it's a 0:03:22.880 --> 0:03:27.079 little positive a little negative, it does. It does affect them. 0:03:27.480 --> 0:03:29.320 It's really and that's what sucks the most. That's what 0:03:29.360 --> 0:03:31.359 I constantly tell my parents, like it's only about them, 0:03:31.360 --> 0:03:33.080 and that's who need to be focused on right now. 0:03:33.520 --> 0:03:35.560 And I feel like all of this is just coming 0:03:35.560 --> 0:03:39.720 from a place of hurt and anger and money. Money 0:03:39.800 --> 0:03:42.760 destroys so many things and so many relationships and the 0:03:42.760 --> 0:03:46.200 stress of that. And my siblings should never have to 0:03:46.200 --> 0:03:48.360 think about money, should never have to worry about anything 0:03:48.360 --> 0:03:50.600 that's going on, and never think that they can't tell 0:03:50.920 --> 0:03:53.000 their mom something or their dad's something, because that, you know, 0:03:53.040 --> 0:03:56.640 like they can't communicate. Like it's just so horrible everything. 0:03:56.880 --> 0:03:58.920 I think that's why we all, like my little sold 0:03:59.320 --> 0:04:01.600 in therapy, a little sister acts crazy. 0:04:01.680 --> 0:04:02.720 Yeah, we be in there. 0:04:02.720 --> 0:04:04.520 Everybody should be in therapy. I think it's great for you. 0:04:04.560 --> 0:04:06.760 I tell my brothers all the time. They you know, 0:04:06.800 --> 0:04:07.120 I'm mind. 0:04:07.240 --> 0:04:09.200 It's funny because when they're also at that age their 0:04:09.240 --> 0:04:12.120 rebell there, Yeah they were belt, they were belts at therapy. 0:04:12.120 --> 0:04:14.040 They're like, I'm not going to talk to this weird Yeah, 0:04:14.080 --> 0:04:15.840 why am I doing that? My brothers will sit there. 0:04:15.920 --> 0:04:18.599 My mom has their counselors for them, has everything. They'll 0:04:18.600 --> 0:04:22.000 sit there and literally not say a damn word. Yeah nothing, because. 0:04:21.720 --> 0:04:24.560 My money was the same way. And you know, it's 0:04:24.600 --> 0:04:27.400 hard because you know, then I'm not talking to this person. 0:04:27.520 --> 0:04:29.800 I don't know. I don't but you have to give 0:04:29.839 --> 0:04:33.520 it a try and really really experience and test with 0:04:33.600 --> 0:04:36.400 therapists because you have to test it out and find 0:04:36.440 --> 0:04:39.800 your right match, because I think it's so important. You know, 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:41.880 like when you go through all of that at a 0:04:41.920 --> 0:04:46.080 young age, it is traumatizing. It's a it's traumatic. You know, 0:04:46.160 --> 0:04:48.680 you experience fighting in the house, you experience things that 0:04:48.720 --> 0:04:51.920 you don't want, you know, your young self to see, 0:04:52.240 --> 0:04:53.960 and you know it does form damage. 0:04:54.160 --> 0:04:54.359 You know. 0:04:54.440 --> 0:04:56.200 I wish I went to therapy, but I was too 0:04:56.279 --> 0:04:58.640 busy taking care of my siblings that I really, you know, 0:04:58.720 --> 0:05:01.800 like I thought about them for before myself here, but 0:05:02.000 --> 0:05:05.440 you know now, I'm like, okay, I could use the therapy, 0:05:05.480 --> 0:05:08.240 but I'm twenty four. I'm probably okay, But you know, 0:05:08.600 --> 0:05:11.160 I still think to myself, like, I definitely could use 0:05:11.160 --> 0:05:12.000 a couple of sessions. 0:05:12.120 --> 0:05:13.840 I think the same thing. Hudson and I talk about 0:05:13.839 --> 0:05:16.640 this all the time. And Hudson's had, you know, traumatic 0:05:16.720 --> 0:05:18.200 things in his life as well, And I'm like, you 0:05:18.240 --> 0:05:20.960 need therapy because I cannot be your mother. I need 0:05:21.000 --> 0:05:23.800 to be my own mother and a mother to you know, 0:05:24.000 --> 0:05:26.520 four kids as well, and my mom when she needs me, 0:05:26.560 --> 0:05:28.719 and my sister and you know whatever. I'm very motherly 0:05:28.800 --> 0:05:32.120 like you, And I'm like, I need therapy. Frankly, I 0:05:32.120 --> 0:05:35.400 don't want to pay for therapy. No, Like it's expensive. Well, 0:05:36.120 --> 0:05:38.480 my friend, I'm like, I'll just call my front. We're 0:05:38.520 --> 0:05:38.960 gonna give it. 0:05:38.920 --> 0:05:40.680 A shot, though, you know, yeah, No, I really do 0:05:40.760 --> 0:05:41.040 want to. 0:05:41.120 --> 0:05:42.800 I do too. I think that it's good and I 0:05:42.839 --> 0:05:45.320 think that there's so many traumatic things that are already 0:05:45.320 --> 0:05:47.720 instilled in our brain because we are older. 0:05:48.080 --> 0:05:50.160 I tried a little bit though therapy. I also tried 0:05:50.200 --> 0:05:50.719 a life coach. 0:05:50.839 --> 0:05:52.400 My mom likes a shaman. I'm like, I don't do 0:05:52.400 --> 0:05:54.120 a shaman. My mom does a shaman. 0:05:53.920 --> 0:05:55.120 Like with chakrash. 0:05:55.279 --> 0:05:56.800 Yeah, I don't really know. She's like, they do it 0:05:56.839 --> 0:05:58.040 all through God. But I'm like, I don't know. I 0:05:58.040 --> 0:06:00.560 don't mess around with shamans. I don't mess around psychics. 0:06:00.560 --> 0:06:02.240 I don almost aroun with any of that. Yeah, I 0:06:02.279 --> 0:06:04.520 never have liked it, And I'm like, that's like not well. 0:06:04.560 --> 0:06:06.560 I feel like psychics for us is a little difficult 0:06:06.560 --> 0:06:09.080 because they could literally look up our name and like 0:06:09.560 --> 0:06:10.960 stir up some bs. 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:11.240 Yep. 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:14.520 My mom goes to a psychic every week. It's concerning, 0:06:14.560 --> 0:06:18.040 like she has on the phone. 0:06:18.080 --> 0:06:19.280 They told me this last night. 0:06:19.440 --> 0:06:23.000 How are they reading your future over the phone? At 0:06:23.040 --> 0:06:25.320 least if it was in person, it's a little more realistic. 0:06:25.560 --> 0:06:27.120 But then my mom will get off the phone and 0:06:27.160 --> 0:06:30.479 be like, they say, they just said that one of 0:06:30.480 --> 0:06:32.040 my kids is gonna live far and I'm gonna have 0:06:32.040 --> 0:06:33.960 a baby. I'm gonna have a grand baby with blue eyes. 0:06:34.400 --> 0:06:38.599 I go, mom, good night. Like my mom told me 0:06:38.640 --> 0:06:40.400 the other day that one of you, you or your 0:06:40.400 --> 0:06:42.840 sister's gonna get pregnant this year, saying I see one 0:06:42.880 --> 0:06:43.000 of the. 0:06:43.240 --> 0:06:45.919 Lives I said well, yeah, that would be me. 0:06:46.080 --> 0:06:48.000 Yep. I'm like, all right, well, you know what, Hudson 0:06:47.960 --> 0:06:50.120 has bright blue eyes. Brillan does not have blue lies, 0:06:50.160 --> 0:06:52.200 and neither does her fiance. So you know what, I 0:06:52.279 --> 0:06:54.240 really don't want that spoken into me. Okay, yeah, I 0:06:54.240 --> 0:06:55.880 would like to be married first, or like to enjoy 0:06:55.960 --> 0:06:57.640 marriage and a long time down the road. 0:06:57.720 --> 0:06:59.799 Yeah, no, he's just no, he's ready for a child. 0:07:00.000 --> 0:07:01.239 Thank you, I thank you. 0:07:01.240 --> 0:07:03.080 No. My mom says crazy like that to me too. 0:07:03.120 --> 0:07:05.599 I'm like, well, our moms are both tauruses yeap so 0:07:05.720 --> 0:07:08.440 and literally like Brielle actually said that to my mom 0:07:08.480 --> 0:07:11.480 at the premiere party. But I was like, h this 0:07:11.640 --> 0:07:12.200 makes sense. 0:07:12.440 --> 0:07:15.480 Yep, you know that our moms and Riley's are they're 0:07:15.520 --> 0:07:19.720 all one day apart seventeenth, eighteenth and nineteenth. No, wasn't 0:07:19.760 --> 0:07:20.480 that crazy? 0:07:20.720 --> 0:07:23.960 And my mom really gets along with Candy, But did 0:07:24.000 --> 0:07:25.360 Candy and your mom right inside? 0:07:25.400 --> 0:07:27.440 That's like me and Riley's next step is that we're 0:07:27.440 --> 0:07:28.520 going to put them in a room and they're going 0:07:28.520 --> 0:07:29.960 to figure out like this was ten years ago, but 0:07:30.000 --> 0:07:32.320 I think they've seen each other at like parties okay, 0:07:32.360 --> 0:07:35.640 and like hi, how are you or like something like 0:07:35.680 --> 0:07:37.320 that and just kind of like left to where it was. 0:07:37.320 --> 0:07:38.600 But they used to be best friends too. 0:07:38.640 --> 0:07:40.200 Now that next Gen is coming on, a couple of 0:07:40.200 --> 0:07:42.160 the clips have came up on TikTok. I'm like, that's 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:44.800 fighting yep, and I was like I never saw it, 0:07:44.840 --> 0:07:47.880 but I was like, oh, okay, stupid. 0:07:47.640 --> 0:07:50.080 Yeah, course, let's do filming a reality show. 0:07:50.160 --> 0:07:53.480 Obviously, headlines were talking about everything. How are you with 0:07:53.600 --> 0:07:56.600 everything going on? I know you, I know we talk 0:07:56.640 --> 0:07:58.800 about it. I know the truth, I know the story, 0:07:58.840 --> 0:08:01.160 but you know, just asking yes friend. 0:08:02.640 --> 0:08:05.440 It's like, so I hate that this is all surfacing 0:08:05.560 --> 0:08:11.320 right now. I know it's been three years and it's 0:08:11.520 --> 0:08:14.680 just you know, I didn't do it, and I was 0:08:14.760 --> 0:08:17.840 never gonna take any deal or do anything, you know, 0:08:18.240 --> 0:08:21.240 And I denied so many of them because I was like, no, 0:08:21.400 --> 0:08:23.840 I didn't do this. I'm fighting this. The anxiety, just 0:08:23.880 --> 0:08:25.920 waiting for this to be done. Over the last three years, 0:08:26.080 --> 0:08:30.360 the headline's coming out and you know, the misconception. I 0:08:30.360 --> 0:08:32.240 think that's crazy as everybody thinks. I'm won probation for 0:08:32.320 --> 0:08:34.320 the next two years and then I have a dui. 0:08:34.440 --> 0:08:37.560 I do not This says why your dui got dropped? 0:08:37.880 --> 0:08:40.440 It was dismissed completely. I do not have one at all. 0:08:40.520 --> 0:08:43.719 I'm fighting this case that was two years ago. Then 0:08:43.760 --> 0:08:46.960 they offered me this in August and I said, you 0:08:47.000 --> 0:08:49.240 know what, I'll take it. They got back to me 0:08:49.280 --> 0:08:50.439 in May like that. 0:08:50.640 --> 0:08:53.640 Yeah, I was like a long and dreadful process. It's 0:08:53.720 --> 0:08:56.920 just this is how the court system. It's slow. 0:08:57.080 --> 0:08:58.839 So whatever, move on you are. 0:08:59.480 --> 0:09:04.000 And I'm honestly the positive that me and Haranavo said 0:09:04.000 --> 0:09:06.480 about this. She's gonna get in a second. 0:09:06.240 --> 0:09:07.880 Shape of her li. I am literally gonna have a 0:09:07.960 --> 0:09:10.840 damn six back. Okay, no more wine, no. 0:09:11.120 --> 0:09:14.280 Drinking for x and Okay, she's actually crazy like she'll 0:09:14.280 --> 0:09:17.880 do like three workouts to day. But max I'll do 0:09:18.080 --> 0:09:20.960 is too, like a workout in a walk. She'll go 0:09:21.120 --> 0:09:24.120 to hot yoga army and then you know, ended off 0:09:24.120 --> 0:09:28.720 a core power. I'm like, dude, crazy like that. Maybe 0:09:28.760 --> 0:09:30.280 ad berries and their sprinkle berries. 0:09:30.320 --> 0:09:33.319 My mom and my sister totally got those skinny grape jeans. 0:09:33.559 --> 0:09:35.640 I don't know what my sperm donners would I call them. 0:09:35.800 --> 0:09:37.760 I don't know what the hell he's got on his side. No, 0:09:37.800 --> 0:09:40.000 but I I have to work for it too. If 0:09:40.000 --> 0:09:41.840 I ate like shit, and didn't work out. My body 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.320 would look like shit too, mine dead. If you scroll 0:09:44.360 --> 0:09:46.840 back five years from five years ago, four years ago, 0:09:46.920 --> 0:09:47.719 yeah yeah, but I. 0:09:47.840 --> 0:09:49.880 Was like, it's like kid fat you had like baby fair, 0:09:49.880 --> 0:09:50.400 everyone says it. 0:09:50.440 --> 0:09:52.520 I was eighteen though, like that, like I was not 0:09:52.559 --> 0:09:56.320 a child. I was literally eighteen, and like this this big. 0:09:56.160 --> 0:10:01.560 Round, Okay, she's gonna be even in better shape after 0:10:01.640 --> 0:10:03.959 these I know, just guys, I'm seriously going to have 0:10:04.040 --> 0:10:06.559 like an actual sex wack and hopefully this bag. 0:10:06.559 --> 0:10:07.280 And a fat ass. 0:10:07.320 --> 0:10:10.319 You're still that big, okay, But I mean just look 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:13.280 at her her corsette that she woorded the premiere her Spaces. 0:10:13.440 --> 0:10:15.360 I felt like I wanted to be like Kim Prodesssion 0:10:15.400 --> 0:10:18.320 has taken in, keep going, keep going, like I don't care. 0:10:18.360 --> 0:10:28.720 Could do it, you know, with everything, even the headlines 0:10:28.760 --> 0:10:32.160 you know about our families, us everything. Please, I could 0:10:32.160 --> 0:10:35.280 hate comments every single day. That's why I'm so excited, 0:10:35.440 --> 0:10:38.200 honestly for next year. And I feel like you are too, 0:10:38.320 --> 0:10:40.920 because we're rider dies for each other. I you know, 0:10:41.360 --> 0:10:45.439 might have screamed at someone on the show for Ariana, 0:10:46.000 --> 0:10:47.480 and you know, if. 0:10:47.400 --> 0:10:49.800 You may have been going in on someone together. Who 0:10:49.840 --> 0:10:52.000 I do feel like did deserve it a little bit. 0:10:52.160 --> 0:10:53.680 Of course, I still think about it in my have 0:10:53.800 --> 0:10:56.000 all the time, like that comment. 0:10:57.559 --> 0:11:00.600 But you know, it's you know, we really do ride 0:11:00.679 --> 0:11:03.520 or die for our friends, and I feel, you know, 0:11:03.720 --> 0:11:07.000 that's the fun part about Next Gen. It shows the fun, 0:11:07.120 --> 0:11:11.560 lighthearted side of us, not so serious, and that's what 0:11:11.600 --> 0:11:15.400 I want people to see. Not your parents didn't pay 0:11:15.400 --> 0:11:17.640 your taxes, maybe you should, Like, I'm. 0:11:17.480 --> 0:11:21.079 So tired of the narrative of pay your parents' bills, 0:11:21.120 --> 0:11:24.920 pay whatever. I'm like, I do, Okay, I have and 0:11:24.920 --> 0:11:26.360 I you know whatever, like and. 0:11:26.360 --> 0:11:28.120 You did talk about that on the first episode of 0:11:28.200 --> 0:11:30.200 Next Gen, Yes, And I think it goes more depth 0:11:30.400 --> 0:11:35.640 to it, you know, I goes, Are you nervous, Yeah, okay. 0:11:35.520 --> 0:11:38.440 I'm definitely nervous, you know, I don't. I do like 0:11:38.520 --> 0:11:42.640 how everything is, you know, being portrayed, I guess, and like, 0:11:42.800 --> 0:11:46.040 this is not something that I'm angry about. This is 0:11:46.080 --> 0:11:48.920 not something that like I hold resentment in my heart about. 0:11:48.960 --> 0:11:52.880 I'm just not that kind of person. And I don't 0:11:52.880 --> 0:11:55.280 want like money to ruin relationships. It's so stupid. You 0:11:55.280 --> 0:11:57.280 can always make more money, right, like, you can always 0:11:57.280 --> 0:11:58.840 God has blessed me. I can always make more money, 0:11:58.840 --> 0:12:01.000 I can always figure out a way, mater what, and 0:12:01.080 --> 0:12:03.839 so I'm never going to let that ruin a relationship. 0:12:03.880 --> 0:12:07.080 I just don't want there to be any but go back. 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:09.880 That should also like show everyone what kind of person 0:12:09.920 --> 0:12:13.280 you are, because not for nothing, money ruins nearly. 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:16.439 I hate it and I've watched it. Yeah, that's why 0:12:16.480 --> 0:12:18.400 I think. I'm so like, I'm not going to let 0:12:18.440 --> 0:12:22.200 that happen. Obviously, situations are annoying. Things are annoying that 0:12:22.240 --> 0:12:24.760 have happened, and I'm nervous to share that with the world. 0:12:24.800 --> 0:12:28.079 But I think that people don't have any idea. I 0:12:28.120 --> 0:12:30.640 think people are expecting the exact opposite. Like I think 0:12:30.640 --> 0:12:33.920 people think I was like the reason my parents gotten 0:12:33.920 --> 0:12:36.600 this money situation that they did. You people think like 0:12:36.640 --> 0:12:38.560 me and my sister were spending like crazy, doing all 0:12:38.559 --> 0:12:42.600 these crazy things, and I'm like, hm, no, not quiet. 0:12:42.640 --> 0:12:45.640 I was having a shean was it every Chanelle bag 0:12:45.640 --> 0:12:47.280 I have? I've never bought one of my own, like 0:12:47.440 --> 0:12:49.400 my mom has got them for me or you know, 0:12:49.520 --> 0:12:52.320 for Christmas with apparently my money. But I just didn't know, 0:12:52.320 --> 0:12:53.600 so I guess I did buy one. I just was 0:12:53.679 --> 0:12:55.720 unaware of it. Yeah, but like I was shopping at 0:12:55.760 --> 0:12:57.679 she and I wasn't like crazy, I didn't need it. 0:12:57.760 --> 0:12:59.880 I'm not like that. You really are. I don't know 0:13:00.600 --> 0:13:02.240 you can make anything great. The alf what I wore 0:13:02.320 --> 0:13:04.720 to the premiere was two hundred dollars all around the 0:13:04.720 --> 0:13:08.120 skirt and the corset and the scarf with eight hundred 0:13:08.120 --> 0:13:10.040 dollars shoes. But I love a shoe, you know. But 0:13:10.280 --> 0:13:12.160 that's the thing. It's like a shoe. 0:13:12.200 --> 0:13:14.280 My mom literally said it to me the other day, 0:13:14.720 --> 0:13:18.960 she goes, you can who cares where you bought your 0:13:18.960 --> 0:13:21.560 offa from. You could dress it up with designer shoes, 0:13:21.600 --> 0:13:25.160 designer accessories, a designer bag and make the outfit look amazing. 0:13:25.160 --> 0:13:27.240 That's what I always say. Shoes and a bag is 0:13:27.280 --> 0:13:27.960 what I want to spend. 0:13:27.840 --> 0:13:29.800 Mone I mean, I had a steal. My dress was 0:13:29.880 --> 0:13:33.640 Christopher Esper. It is a nine hundred and ninety dollars dress. 0:13:33.720 --> 0:13:36.400 I got it on sale on Moda Operandi for two 0:13:36.520 --> 0:13:37.440 fifty amazing. 0:13:37.600 --> 0:13:39.400 I was like, I would say that because I'm like 0:13:39.440 --> 0:13:42.360 girl math again, this is free, this field is free. 0:13:42.440 --> 0:13:44.840 This is an expensive dress. I feel hot as Yeah, 0:13:44.840 --> 0:13:45.880 but it was two. 0:13:45.880 --> 0:13:47.040 Hundred and fifty dollars. 0:13:47.280 --> 0:13:51.360 That makes sense. Still on a thousand dollars dress, nothing changed, Yep, 0:13:51.600 --> 0:13:54.560 maybe it's just so I'm on sale right now. We 0:13:54.640 --> 0:13:57.400 get scrutinized for our parents' mistakes, and we kind of 0:13:57.400 --> 0:14:01.560 get wrapped into it, even with my situation, and my 0:14:01.640 --> 0:14:05.160 mom gets wrapped into it with my dad. Meanwhile, it 0:14:05.200 --> 0:14:07.800 wasn't really my mom, you know, it was my dad. 0:14:08.400 --> 0:14:10.920 And I love my dad till the day I die, 0:14:10.960 --> 0:14:14.720 but you know, the situation was on him. She stopped working, 0:14:14.960 --> 0:14:17.800 paid the bills, called it a die. My dad handled 0:14:17.840 --> 0:14:20.600 the taxes, the work stuff. You trust your partner. You 0:14:20.720 --> 0:14:24.040 just you know, you guys go through life, and you know, 0:14:24.080 --> 0:14:25.960 did my dad really want to hurt the family? 0:14:26.160 --> 0:14:26.240 No? 0:14:26.520 --> 0:14:29.680 Did your parents want to hurt your family? No? Like 0:14:30.040 --> 0:14:32.560 you live and you learn and you learn, you go 0:14:32.640 --> 0:14:35.000 through life and it is what it is. But because 0:14:35.000 --> 0:14:37.160 of like my dad's actions, you know, my mom had 0:14:37.200 --> 0:14:40.080 to go to jail because of my dad's actions. You know, 0:14:40.160 --> 0:14:43.440 my mom gets scrutinized for the taxes and everything. Meanwhile, 0:14:43.480 --> 0:14:45.640 my dad's living life in the Bahamas and he doesn't 0:14:45.680 --> 0:14:47.960 have to pay a dime, but my mom had to 0:14:47.960 --> 0:14:50.920 pay back all my dad's stuff, and now she's catching 0:14:50.960 --> 0:14:54.480 up on her stuff and it's just life. But again, 0:14:54.600 --> 0:14:57.960 my mom has your mentality. She's like, money is money, 0:14:58.640 --> 0:15:01.040 I will make it back. And that's how she's always been. 0:15:01.440 --> 0:15:04.040 You think she liked paying back all my dad's stuff, 0:15:04.280 --> 0:15:08.320 just throwing away her money. That's and she does get 0:15:08.360 --> 0:15:09.400 angry about it, but. 0:15:09.600 --> 0:15:11.600 Of course there's times where you. 0:15:11.160 --> 0:15:13.760 You get angry. It do nothing, It does nothing, and 0:15:13.800 --> 0:15:16.360 that's how she just like you. She's like, money is money, 0:15:16.800 --> 0:15:20.040 it will come back. I'm blessed that I have a network, 0:15:20.080 --> 0:15:22.200 that I have a job, that I can do things 0:15:22.440 --> 0:15:25.320 where I will make the money back. And she's so 0:15:25.560 --> 0:15:28.440 mature and wise like you, and that aspect of money 0:15:28.440 --> 0:15:30.320 that because she kind of went through that on her 0:15:30.360 --> 0:15:32.720 show with like people trying to attack her to reach 0:15:32.800 --> 0:15:35.400 the top and climb up there, all because of money 0:15:35.400 --> 0:15:39.640 and fame. And that's like with me, people say to me, 0:15:39.840 --> 0:15:43.120 pay your taxes. I'm like, dude, it's ten years ago. 0:15:43.320 --> 0:15:46.800 It's not me. I pay my own taxes. I have 0:15:46.880 --> 0:15:49.320 all my stuff figured out. I have my own accountant. 0:15:49.760 --> 0:15:52.720 My accountant isn't even associated with my families, Like I 0:15:52.760 --> 0:15:55.600 have my own all everything that I do is on 0:15:55.640 --> 0:15:59.600 my own because from our family situation, we learn from 0:15:59.680 --> 0:16:02.680 it and we know we're never gonna. 0:16:02.560 --> 0:16:05.119 Do that because why would we do that to ourselves? 0:16:06.120 --> 0:16:09.280 So I will never have like I'm crazy. I feel 0:16:09.320 --> 0:16:10.920 like with money now in the sense like I will 0:16:10.920 --> 0:16:12.440 never be in a bad spot. You will never catch 0:16:12.440 --> 0:16:13.920 me in a bad spot. Yeah, I have a large 0:16:13.960 --> 0:16:15.920 rainy day fund and the sense that I will never 0:16:16.360 --> 0:16:18.400 I will always be okay. Yeah, and my family will 0:16:18.440 --> 0:16:20.640 be okay. Maybe not for long, but with what I've 0:16:20.640 --> 0:16:24.560 made in the last year, you know we'll be okay. Yeah, 0:16:24.680 --> 0:16:26.520 we'll be okay for at least a couple months. No, 0:16:26.640 --> 0:16:29.800 not a New York for some months, maybe Atlanta, We'll 0:16:29.800 --> 0:16:30.360 we go for a year. 0:16:30.440 --> 0:16:32.240 You're so cute and you're like You're like, how I 0:16:32.280 --> 0:16:33.920 am with my siblings? Like you would give the shirt 0:16:33.960 --> 0:16:35.360 off your back for your siblings. 0:16:35.440 --> 0:16:37.080 They text me all the time. Can you send me 0:16:37.120 --> 0:16:39.040 twenty dollars to get mama gift? I'm like, both, what 0:16:39.080 --> 0:16:41.080 are you getting? Like, what are you really getting? If 0:16:41.080 --> 0:16:42.400 you tell me what you're really getting, I'll send you 0:16:42.400 --> 0:16:44.680 twenty bucks, Like I want wax candies. I'm like, a right, 0:16:44.720 --> 0:16:46.480 here's a twenty bucks. Then they text my sister for it, 0:16:46.640 --> 0:16:48.200 and they text Watson for it. I'm like, you guys 0:16:48.200 --> 0:16:49.760 are crazy. You think we all don't talk? What do 0:16:49.760 --> 0:16:52.880 you need? What do you need? They gather the fun 0:16:53.080 --> 0:16:54.880 they gather the funds from everybody, and I'm like, what 0:16:55.000 --> 0:16:56.240 are you getting? It's weird. 0:16:56.280 --> 0:16:58.240 Did you ever feel like you were growing up in 0:16:58.280 --> 0:17:01.760 your mom's shadow a little bit, especially during like your families? 0:17:02.000 --> 0:17:03.960 But I still am. You know, I feel like it's 0:17:04.000 --> 0:17:05.639 gonna I feel like I'm always going to be in 0:17:05.680 --> 0:17:07.400 that shadow. I was talking about this last night about 0:17:07.440 --> 0:17:10.480 NEPO babies, right because everyone everyone keeps saying, everyone keeps saying, 0:17:11.280 --> 0:17:12.600 I just found out what this meant. 0:17:12.760 --> 0:17:15.639 I but I wish that I had the funds to 0:17:15.640 --> 0:17:16.480