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Speaker 1: Contrary to popular demand, life does not revolve around content.

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Speaker 3: That is a fact, and the lack of engagement on

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Speaker 2: Yeah ye, dead Ass.

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Speaker 1: It all started with real talk, unfiltered, honest and straight

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Speaker 1: from the heart. Since then, we've gone on to become

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Speaker 1: Webby award winning podcasters in New York Times bestselling authors.

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Speaker 3: Dead Ass was more than a podcast for us. It

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Speaker 3: was about our growth, a place where we could be vulnerable.

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Speaker 4: Be wrong, or but most apportantly be us.

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Speaker 3: But as we know, life keeps evolving and so do

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Speaker 3: we and through it all, one thing has never changed.

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Speaker 3: This because we got a lot to talk about story time.

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Speaker 1: So this episode's gonna be extremely different, namely because we

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Speaker 1: and we just think it's important to, you know, talk

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Speaker 1: So baby, I'm gonna start with you, man, give me

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Speaker 1: a storytime what's been going on for the past five weeks?

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Speaker 3: All right, I'll keep it short, but five weeks for me,

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Speaker 3: But it's just been a lot to juggle, Yeah, with

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Speaker 6: He was visiting me and at for my stepmom's birthday.

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Speaker 1: Happening to people, and it happened to us. It's been

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Speaker 1: So we're back. The first thing that I thought about

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Speaker 5: For you, and she did a great version of it.

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Speaker 6: Something that I've been thinking about too, is that, Like

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I had friends.

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Speaker 6: When I went to Cincinnati, my friends came and took

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Speaker 3: It's the best kind of company.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I've forgotten when I lost it wasn't that important

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Speaker 6: He took me in a Cadillac Limo and you know, like,

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Speaker 6: You know, he didn't leave money. My dad barely graduated

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Speaker 5: Based on the symptoms that he was complaining of.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, this is what I wanted to talk about because

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Speaker 3: Dad's, first thing we did was take his blood pressure,

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Speaker 2: Like our children. Yeah, and you got to protect them

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Speaker 3: And it was just everything. It was the compilation of everything.

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Speaker 3: And she literally looked at me and she was like,

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Speaker 1: That's a good point. That's a really good point. I

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Speaker 4: No? No, But.

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Speaker 6: And you know, I know that there may have been

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Speaker 6: him this out of breath either, So to the clot was.

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Speaker 4: He had clots and his lungs and his legs, and

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Speaker 1: Got it, we had a travel heart. Why when I

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Speaker 3: She had aminary embolism.

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Speaker 1: And that's why I said, you can't blame yourself, because

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Speaker 1: The reason why I'm telling you is that is because

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Speaker 1: Yeah, And I remember the husband saying to his son,

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Speaker 1: And I was like, we always say that after the fact, Yeah,

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Speaker 6: I'm trying to just have gratitude for what, you know,

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Speaker 3: I would rather last moments with him.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, and it was it was beautiful last moments. They

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Speaker 4: Either way it was gonna happen.

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Speaker 1: Doesn't it seem kind of crazy that your father doesn't

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Speaker 5: That to me is what I probably need.

443
00:22:21,080 --> 00:22:24,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's what it seems like to me a little bit,

444
00:22:24,040 --> 00:22:26,760
Speaker 1: you know, And I'm not I don't speak to spirits

445
00:22:26,760 --> 00:22:28,399
Speaker 1: and I don't claim to be none of that, but

446
00:22:28,440 --> 00:22:30,359
Speaker 1: it just seems like, wow, for him to say, you

447
00:22:30,400 --> 00:22:32,520
Speaker 1: know what, I'm gonna go do this now, when he

448
00:22:32,560 --> 00:22:36,320
Speaker 1: doesn't do that almost seem like, you know, the god

449
00:22:36,359 --> 00:22:37,760
Speaker 1: in him was reaching out to the god and you

450
00:22:37,760 --> 00:22:39,520
Speaker 1: were saying, I know you need this and this might

451
00:22:39,560 --> 00:22:40,600
Speaker 1: be my last.

452
00:22:40,880 --> 00:22:42,760
Speaker 4: And I had a moment when he was here.

453
00:22:44,320 --> 00:22:46,119
Speaker 6: We were talking to my brother about something and then

454
00:22:46,160 --> 00:22:48,680
Speaker 6: me and my dad had like the same exact response,

455
00:22:48,800 --> 00:22:51,680
Speaker 6: and I was like thinking about how me and my

456
00:22:51,800 --> 00:22:55,399
Speaker 6: dad pretty much can communicate without communicating. There's been so

457
00:22:55,480 --> 00:22:58,359
Speaker 6: many times where like he called me and said something

458
00:22:58,400 --> 00:23:01,359
Speaker 6: that I had already thought about, Like, you know, we

459
00:23:01,520 --> 00:23:03,200
Speaker 6: just have always been on the same page.

460
00:23:03,240 --> 00:23:05,760
Speaker 4: We just are really close. We just know each other

461
00:23:05,920 --> 00:23:06,399
Speaker 4: very well.

462
00:23:07,280 --> 00:23:11,720
Speaker 6: And so I do think I do think that it

463
00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:14,600
Speaker 6: was you know, divine that he he came.

464
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:20,600
Speaker 3: I also hope that you continue to receive little, little messages,

465
00:23:20,640 --> 00:23:22,200
Speaker 3: little things from him, because I hear a lot of

466
00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:25,720
Speaker 3: people say that when someone passes, you know, they get

467
00:23:25,720 --> 00:23:30,359
Speaker 3: little reminders. It could be something so random, like when

468
00:23:31,080 --> 00:23:33,879
Speaker 3: my friend Alcion died CG. So a thing that I

469
00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:36,399
Speaker 3: have now between my friend Helena and I Helena is

470
00:23:36,480 --> 00:23:37,840
Speaker 3: that nurse can cook on Instagram.

471
00:23:38,680 --> 00:23:41,480
Speaker 5: So it was like the strangest thing.

472
00:23:41,520 --> 00:23:43,320
Speaker 3: We were like talking about her one day on the

473
00:23:43,320 --> 00:23:47,600
Speaker 3: phone and a ladybug landed on me and I was like,

474
00:23:47,640 --> 00:23:50,240
Speaker 3: oh my goodness, this little ladybug like just landed on me.

475
00:23:50,280 --> 00:23:51,400
Speaker 5: I wonder if that's CG.

476
00:23:51,440 --> 00:23:53,800
Speaker 3: Because we were on the phone for like over thirty

477
00:23:53,840 --> 00:23:55,320
Speaker 3: minutes off the phone like talking.

478
00:23:56,760 --> 00:23:58,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, so like this ladybug just.

479
00:23:58,320 --> 00:24:00,800
Speaker 3: Landed on me. And she was at one of her sons,

480
00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:03,760
Speaker 3: at her son's I think a soccer game or something.

481
00:24:04,320 --> 00:24:05,760
Speaker 3: And then we got off the phone and she sent

482
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:07,880
Speaker 3: me a picture of a ladybug landed on her.

483
00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:09,000
Speaker 5: After we got off the phone.

484
00:24:09,040 --> 00:24:09,480
Speaker 4: Wow.

485
00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:12,120
Speaker 3: So now we're both like anytime we see a ladybug

486
00:24:12,160 --> 00:24:14,240
Speaker 3: and we call each other, what's up, ladybug, because.

487
00:24:14,040 --> 00:24:14,600
Speaker 5: That's like our thing.

488
00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:18,000
Speaker 1: The time the ladybug flew on her from and she

489
00:24:18,160 --> 00:24:20,720
Speaker 1: was inside like this wasn't a just a one time?

490
00:24:20,760 --> 00:24:21,800
Speaker 3: Oh yeah.

491
00:24:21,840 --> 00:24:24,320
Speaker 1: They had been on the phone and been like, yoda's

492
00:24:24,320 --> 00:24:26,120
Speaker 1: a ladybug on me, and she's like, I'm inside.

493
00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:27,640
Speaker 2: How was there a ladybug that was.

494
00:24:27,560 --> 00:24:28,360
Speaker 5: In Kadz's room.

495
00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:30,919
Speaker 3: I opened the window and there was like a ladybug

496
00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:33,360
Speaker 3: trapped in between the window and the screen and then

497
00:24:33,359 --> 00:24:35,040
Speaker 3: the screen. I didn't know how it got in, but

498
00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:37,600
Speaker 3: it was just sitting right there on the windowsill and

499
00:24:37,640 --> 00:24:39,680
Speaker 3: it was literally in the thick of me going through

500
00:24:39,720 --> 00:24:41,919
Speaker 3: the grief of her. And I took the picture and

501
00:24:41,960 --> 00:24:43,440
Speaker 3: sent it to her, And I feel like since then,

502
00:24:43,600 --> 00:24:46,399
Speaker 3: at least two or three times after that, I just like,

503
00:24:46,400 --> 00:24:48,760
Speaker 3: there was one in my car the other day. It's

504
00:24:48,800 --> 00:24:50,840
Speaker 3: like the smallest things, and I like to at least

505
00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:53,960
Speaker 3: think that maybe that's her sending a little sign. So

506
00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:57,280
Speaker 3: I hope that she can continue to feel the presence

507
00:24:57,320 --> 00:24:59,359
Speaker 3: of your dad in like your day to day because

508
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:02,239
Speaker 3: I know he he knows that you need that, you know,

509
00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:05,439
Speaker 3: which is crazy because just to speak real quick on

510
00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:09,040
Speaker 3: being there for you, I'm driving with my sister to

511
00:25:09,080 --> 00:25:09,520
Speaker 3: the mall.

512
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 5: She had a job interview.

513
00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:13,479
Speaker 2: This is also that day. You don't know about this day,

514
00:25:13,520 --> 00:25:14,000
Speaker 2: but go ahead.

515
00:25:14,040 --> 00:25:15,760
Speaker 3: But yeah, I was driving with her to the mall

516
00:25:15,920 --> 00:25:18,200
Speaker 3: because she got an interview that she was excited about.

517
00:25:18,280 --> 00:25:19,919
Speaker 3: So I'm like, okay, she needs a blazer and an

518
00:25:19,920 --> 00:25:21,520
Speaker 3: outfit to wear. So We're on our way to the

519
00:25:21,560 --> 00:25:25,080
Speaker 3: mall and literally I see the text message pop up

520
00:25:25,080 --> 00:25:28,000
Speaker 3: in our you know, l s ever after group chat,

521
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:30,760
Speaker 3: and I kind of glanced at it because I was driving,

522
00:25:30,800 --> 00:25:32,439
Speaker 3: So I asked my sister to read it for me,

523
00:25:32,920 --> 00:25:34,760
Speaker 3: and she was like, oh my god, and she read

524
00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:37,399
Speaker 3: it aloud and Triple pretty much said, Hey, guys, my

525
00:25:37,480 --> 00:25:40,000
Speaker 3: dad just died in my apartment. I'm gonna need help.

526
00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:41,560
Speaker 3: I'm not sure what I'll need, but I'm just letting

527
00:25:41,600 --> 00:25:44,960
Speaker 3: my ATL people know. And because I was already heading

528
00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:48,760
Speaker 3: in that direction, I was like, no brainer. So I

529
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:51,280
Speaker 3: happened to get to you, I think just at the

530
00:25:51,320 --> 00:25:53,840
Speaker 3: same time as the medics. Yeah, I was like I

531
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:55,480
Speaker 3: was literally when I put your address and I was

532
00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:58,080
Speaker 3: like five minutes out, and when I got there, I

533
00:25:58,080 --> 00:26:03,359
Speaker 3: think the medical examiner had just gotten there, and I

534
00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:05,960
Speaker 3: too was in shock because I'm like, oh my god, Trible,

535
00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:08,000
Speaker 3: I know what your father means to you, and to

536
00:26:08,040 --> 00:26:09,679
Speaker 3: be able to show up for you in that space

537
00:26:09,800 --> 00:26:12,040
Speaker 3: that was most important to me in that moment, at

538
00:26:12,119 --> 00:26:16,359
Speaker 3: least in Takari. And then in true Trible form, we

539
00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:18,960
Speaker 3: walked through the door and your father is, you know,

540
00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:22,000
Speaker 3: on the floor, and You're like, damn, ca, I didn't

541
00:26:22,080 --> 00:26:23,639
Speaker 3: I want you to meet my dad, but not like

542
00:26:23,680 --> 00:26:32,159
Speaker 3: this only and then it was almost like you said that.

543
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:34,280
Speaker 3: You laughed and then you started crying, and then you

544
00:26:34,359 --> 00:26:37,280
Speaker 3: laughed again because you cracked another joke, and Askari was

545
00:26:37,359 --> 00:26:39,200
Speaker 3: just like, we didn't even know if to laugh or

546
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:42,080
Speaker 3: to cry, because Trible, I know you were in shock

547
00:26:42,119 --> 00:26:43,919
Speaker 3: in that moment you could tell you could tell you

548
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:44,400
Speaker 3: were in shock.

549
00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:46,120
Speaker 5: So I was just happy to be able to be.

550
00:26:46,119 --> 00:26:48,600
Speaker 3: There for you in that moment like that. Quickly, because

551
00:26:49,160 --> 00:26:51,040
Speaker 3: we were all ready to be like what do you need?

552
00:26:51,119 --> 00:26:54,199
Speaker 3: You know, called Kwame was like, hey find triple go

553
00:26:54,240 --> 00:26:55,119
Speaker 3: do something to help.

554
00:26:55,240 --> 00:26:57,280
Speaker 2: I called Trible the first thing she do is joke

555
00:26:57,600 --> 00:26:59,600
Speaker 2: the whole time. Since then, we've been joking by only

556
00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:03,240
Speaker 2: fans the whole time. Since that day, we've been joking

557
00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:07,040
Speaker 2: about about because I'm a person that I don't I'm

558
00:27:07,080 --> 00:27:08,919
Speaker 2: not good with other people's grief.

559
00:27:09,720 --> 00:27:12,960
Speaker 1: I either stay away or I'm asking dumb questions like

560
00:27:12,960 --> 00:27:16,040
Speaker 1: how you feel? Like you know what I'm saying. So

561
00:27:17,320 --> 00:27:19,040
Speaker 1: I will say to you, thank you for taking that

562
00:27:19,080 --> 00:27:22,440
Speaker 1: pressure off me, because I could just text Trible.

563
00:27:22,480 --> 00:27:24,840
Speaker 2: And then it'd be a joke in response, and I'm like, Okay,

564
00:27:25,200 --> 00:27:27,160
Speaker 2: where we at. So let's just keep going.

565
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:30,959
Speaker 1: And then the jokes flow until they stopped, and then

566
00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:32,679
Speaker 1: I hit it up again, like yo, you you know

567
00:27:32,760 --> 00:27:35,000
Speaker 1: what was going on? Like I will say to you Trible,

568
00:27:35,080 --> 00:27:37,440
Speaker 1: like I know you're going through a lot, but also

569
00:27:37,480 --> 00:27:39,040
Speaker 1: thank you for making it easy for us.

570
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:41,400
Speaker 2: Because for people who don't know.

571
00:27:42,920 --> 00:27:48,080
Speaker 1: This podcast, our podcast producer is Trible. Everything that happens

572
00:27:48,119 --> 00:27:49,800
Speaker 1: through this podcast runs through her.

573
00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:50,320
Speaker 2: First.

574
00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:53,720
Speaker 1: She has to get everything to us. We were supposed

575
00:27:53,760 --> 00:27:55,400
Speaker 1: to film in a minute. This happened.

576
00:27:55,520 --> 00:27:59,240
Speaker 2: We were like, we're not doing the podcast, like and

577
00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:00,280
Speaker 2: here's the funny.

578
00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:02,240
Speaker 1: Tripple goes, Yeah, I'm going to go to the funeral

579
00:28:02,560 --> 00:28:05,040
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna come right back so we can film.

580
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:10,520
Speaker 6: And I was like, I had no idea like what

581
00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:11,520
Speaker 6: I was gonna.

582
00:28:11,200 --> 00:28:13,560
Speaker 5: Feel, and I we anticipated that.

583
00:28:13,760 --> 00:28:16,880
Speaker 4: Yeah, and I had like a March first.

584
00:28:18,080 --> 00:28:19,919
Speaker 6: Recording that I was supposed to come back for, and

585
00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:21,760
Speaker 6: I was like, oh, March first, I'll probably.

586
00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:23,960
Speaker 4: Be okay, but no, no, not at all.

587
00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:27,760
Speaker 6: Like I really needed that time at home, yeah, just

588
00:28:27,840 --> 00:28:31,040
Speaker 6: to you know, be with my family and be and

589
00:28:31,119 --> 00:28:35,000
Speaker 6: my dad's like energy, and to like feel what I

590
00:28:35,040 --> 00:28:39,160
Speaker 6: felt and to not have to worry about anything else. Yeah, yeah,

591
00:28:39,240 --> 00:28:41,160
Speaker 6: I definitely needed that. So thank y'all. And my step

592
00:28:41,160 --> 00:28:44,000
Speaker 6: mom was very grateful for y'all for coming through and

593
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:47,520
Speaker 6: like having us over. She's really grateful, and she's like,

594
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:51,680
Speaker 6: you know, really suffering at this.

595
00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:54,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, I could imagine, Oh my god. And I wanted

596
00:28:54,560 --> 00:28:56,240
Speaker 2: to ask you to because that day I didn't even know.

597
00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:58,840
Speaker 1: Once again, in my awkwardness, I asked you to come

598
00:28:58,880 --> 00:29:00,200
Speaker 1: over because I know y'all wanted to be out of

599
00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:02,280
Speaker 1: that space, but I also didn't want to invade y'all

600
00:29:02,320 --> 00:29:04,440
Speaker 1: space while y'all were here. So I was like, it's

601
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:06,239
Speaker 1: okay if y'all just sit in a room and have

602
00:29:06,280 --> 00:29:07,160
Speaker 1: some drinks and chill.

603
00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:07,880
Speaker 2: You know.

604
00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:10,440
Speaker 1: I hope that was okay, But at the time I

605
00:29:10,480 --> 00:29:11,840
Speaker 1: didn't know what to do because I didn't want to

606
00:29:11,840 --> 00:29:12,400
Speaker 1: sit there and grill.

607
00:29:12,440 --> 00:29:14,400
Speaker 2: You will tell me what happened? How long did it?

608
00:29:14,440 --> 00:29:16,120
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. People do that. Sometimes they

609
00:29:16,160 --> 00:29:18,680
Speaker 2: get and I'm like, no, y'all just need a different place.

610
00:29:18,880 --> 00:29:21,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, And also sometimes yeah, you just want to you

611
00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:23,080
Speaker 3: want to show up and you want to be of support,

612
00:29:23,320 --> 00:29:26,960
Speaker 3: but literally words fail, Like in moments like this, there's

613
00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:31,000
Speaker 3: absolutely nothing that can be said to make anything any better.

614
00:29:31,320 --> 00:29:34,320
Speaker 3: So it's just almost like, Okay, there's presence, you know,

615
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 3: just like I'm here, I'm here.

616
00:29:36,320 --> 00:29:36,880
Speaker 2: I ain't gonna lie.

617
00:29:36,880 --> 00:29:39,600
Speaker 1: I felt like that with you and Pops, I expressed

618
00:29:39,600 --> 00:29:43,160
Speaker 1: to Matt. I never said this to anybody, but there

619
00:29:43,240 --> 00:29:45,240
Speaker 1: was times that I thought that. I was like, there's

620
00:29:45,240 --> 00:29:47,239
Speaker 1: no way a seventy three year old man who is

621
00:29:47,280 --> 00:29:51,120
Speaker 1: fighting cancer, fighting like heart disease, everything.

622
00:29:50,840 --> 00:29:54,840
Speaker 2: It's going to be. It's going to be chemo and radiation.

623
00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:58,680
Speaker 1: So my thing was, I'm like, at what point when

624
00:29:58,720 --> 00:30:01,560
Speaker 1: it gets really bad, do I have to start grieving

625
00:30:01,720 --> 00:30:02,520
Speaker 1: my father in Lord?

626
00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:03,479
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying?

627
00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:06,320
Speaker 1: And I was watching you go through it, and there

628
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:07,840
Speaker 1: was a lot of times I don't even know what

629
00:30:07,920 --> 00:30:10,520
Speaker 1: to say, and I'm here living and I'm grieving too,

630
00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:13,040
Speaker 1: because I'm like, what if it comes today? And there

631
00:30:13,080 --> 00:30:16,960
Speaker 1: was a moment where the radiation started to like take over.

632
00:30:16,760 --> 00:30:19,520
Speaker 5: His neck and his whole body.

633
00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:21,280
Speaker 1: His old body lost a lot of weight, and then

634
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 1: he started bleeding at one point, and I was just

635
00:30:23,720 --> 00:30:27,880
Speaker 1: kind of like, dang, this is that that moment, you.

636
00:30:27,840 --> 00:30:29,280
Speaker 2: Know, whereas like it start to get bad.

637
00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:31,920
Speaker 1: So then I remember walking by, and you know how

638
00:30:31,920 --> 00:30:34,480
Speaker 1: the house is when you walk by, Dad is always

639
00:30:34,560 --> 00:30:37,080
Speaker 1: there to the left watching TV. Yeah, and this is

640
00:30:37,120 --> 00:30:38,520
Speaker 1: the first day I walked by and he had the

641
00:30:38,520 --> 00:30:41,000
Speaker 1: bandages on his neck and I was like, yo, that's

642
00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:41,440
Speaker 1: my guy.

643
00:30:41,560 --> 00:30:41,720
Speaker 8: Yo.

644
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:45,160
Speaker 1: Like and then rather than say something, all I do

645
00:30:45,160 --> 00:30:46,800
Speaker 1: when I walk by Dad is go, hey, how you feeling,

646
00:30:46,840 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 1: young man, And he goes, I'm all right, And I

647
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:52,320
Speaker 1: know he's not all right, but I don't know what

648
00:30:52,360 --> 00:30:53,040
Speaker 1: else to say.

649
00:30:53,120 --> 00:30:54,480
Speaker 2: And I didn't know what to say to you neither.

650
00:30:54,520 --> 00:30:56,000
Speaker 2: So I just coming back to myself.

651
00:30:56,240 --> 00:30:58,960
Speaker 3: So I went to film mid January. I think I

652
00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:01,200
Speaker 3: started on the nineteenth. Prior to that was one week

653
00:31:01,200 --> 00:31:03,400
Speaker 3: of prep, and I was in and out of the

654
00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:06,240
Speaker 3: house a lot, and I kind of I was feeling

655
00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:07,440
Speaker 3: a lot of things at that point. I think I

656
00:31:07,480 --> 00:31:10,680
Speaker 3: was embracing the break that I had from what I

657
00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:14,480
Speaker 3: felt like was a daunting six months, and then also

658
00:31:14,520 --> 00:31:16,440
Speaker 3: knowing like I had to show up in my workspace

659
00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:17,920
Speaker 3: regardless of what I had going on.

660
00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:20,200
Speaker 5: So it's like kind of tucking all of that away.

661
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:23,360
Speaker 3: And because I was so intransit, I stayed on campus

662
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:26,040
Speaker 3: to film and whatnot. When you see someone every day,

663
00:31:26,160 --> 00:31:28,800
Speaker 3: you don't necessarily see the progression good or bad. It's

664
00:31:28,800 --> 00:31:30,360
Speaker 3: almost like you see somebody every day and I lose

665
00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,520
Speaker 3: a weight, I don't know, but then you are wait

666
00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:33,880
Speaker 3: for a week or two and you come back and

667
00:31:33,920 --> 00:31:35,520
Speaker 3: you're like, WHOA, you lost a lot of weight or

668
00:31:36,040 --> 00:31:38,640
Speaker 3: so it was the progression that I saw is in

669
00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:41,520
Speaker 3: his decline. It was like I was kind of in

670
00:31:41,560 --> 00:31:43,680
Speaker 3: and out for a week, then I went to film

671
00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:45,360
Speaker 3: for a week. I was gone the entire week, came

672
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:48,360
Speaker 3: home on the weekend. So by the time I rapped,

673
00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:50,040
Speaker 3: I think that's when he was in the thick of

674
00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:53,360
Speaker 3: yea of his radiation and treatment, and that's when everything

675
00:31:53,480 --> 00:31:55,800
Speaker 3: was pretty much compounded. At this point, he was going

676
00:31:55,840 --> 00:31:58,720
Speaker 3: through the worst of it, and I was like, oh

677
00:31:58,760 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 3: my god, it was hard to watch. It was hard

678
00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:05,240
Speaker 3: to watch to your point too. We always walked through

679
00:32:05,520 --> 00:32:07,400
Speaker 3: the hallway and we see him sitting to the left,

680
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:09,880
Speaker 3: and there were some mornings I came and he wasn't

681
00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:13,720
Speaker 3: sitting in that space, and I thought, for a second,

682
00:32:13,760 --> 00:32:15,040
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh my god, there's going to come a

683
00:32:15,080 --> 00:32:16,600
Speaker 3: day where my dad is just not going to be

684
00:32:16,640 --> 00:32:19,360
Speaker 3: sitting there anymore, you know. So then I would find

685
00:32:19,400 --> 00:32:21,960
Speaker 3: myself like, Okay, do I want to go downstairs and

686
00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:23,520
Speaker 3: just check on him and make sure he's okay, Like,

687
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:25,280
Speaker 3: or is this the day I want to walk downstairs

688
00:32:25,360 --> 00:32:26,960
Speaker 3: to check on him? And he didn't come up because

689
00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:30,160
Speaker 3: he's gone. Like so many things go through your mind

690
00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:32,800
Speaker 3: when you're going through all of this, and I also

691
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:35,320
Speaker 3: didn't realize how much of it I was suppressing just

692
00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:39,360
Speaker 3: to even get through work. People were very kind on

693
00:32:39,480 --> 00:32:41,400
Speaker 3: set because they would be like, hey, you know, we've

694
00:32:41,400 --> 00:32:43,760
Speaker 3: been praying for your dad and everything, and I'm like, yeah, yeah.

695
00:32:43,760 --> 00:32:45,600
Speaker 3: I just kind of like took it and kept moving

696
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:47,320
Speaker 3: because I was in the frame of mind to work

697
00:32:48,280 --> 00:32:50,840
Speaker 3: and we wrapped I think It was on the thirtieth

698
00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:56,360
Speaker 3: or twenty ninth or thirtieth, and Tyler Perry's assistant Jody,

699
00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 3: had come to set to just you know, come and

700
00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:00,600
Speaker 3: check on everyone, and she gave me a hug and

701
00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:02,440
Speaker 3: she's like, I heard about your dad.

702
00:33:02,560 --> 00:33:03,320
Speaker 5: I'm so sorry.

703
00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:05,160
Speaker 3: She gave me a hug, and I'm like, yeah, you know,

704
00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:09,440
Speaker 3: he's on the mend or whatever. Got to my car

705
00:33:10,080 --> 00:33:13,960
Speaker 3: to drive home because I was completely wrapped and sobbed

706
00:33:15,880 --> 00:33:18,320
Speaker 3: the entire way home, like at one point had to

707
00:33:18,360 --> 00:33:22,440
Speaker 3: pull over because I couldn't even see to drive, and

708
00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 3: it was so many things happening at one time.

709
00:33:24,320 --> 00:33:26,320
Speaker 5: It wasn't just thinking about Dad.

710
00:33:26,360 --> 00:33:29,240
Speaker 3: It was like gratitude for being able to work again,

711
00:33:29,920 --> 00:33:31,360
Speaker 3: to be able to do what I thought I wasn't

712
00:33:31,360 --> 00:33:32,840
Speaker 3: going to be able to do because I had such

713
00:33:32,880 --> 00:33:35,080
Speaker 3: a heavy weight on my shoulders that I was dealing

714
00:33:35,080 --> 00:33:39,479
Speaker 3: with for the past couple months thinking about Dad, of course,

715
00:33:39,680 --> 00:33:42,480
Speaker 3: thinking about not being home in that space, feeling guilty,

716
00:33:42,680 --> 00:33:46,120
Speaker 3: feeling like I was leaving a bunch of wait on you, yeah, yeah,

717
00:33:46,200 --> 00:33:48,480
Speaker 3: wait on you, not being there for the kids. And

718
00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:51,360
Speaker 3: then I'm like, the kids are experiencing watching their grandfather

719
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:53,680
Speaker 3: go through this at the same time, So what is

720
00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:57,720
Speaker 3: that looking like for them? My mom, you know, a

721
00:33:57,760 --> 00:33:59,600
Speaker 3: lot of times you look at the person who was sick,

722
00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:03,040
Speaker 3: person taking care of me. That person in my mom

723
00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 3: was really locked in making sure that Dad was okay.

724
00:34:06,640 --> 00:34:09,799
Speaker 3: My sister pretty much flying down here for weeks at

725
00:34:09,800 --> 00:34:13,080
Speaker 3: a time to assist my brother coming down, my aunt

726
00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:15,680
Speaker 3: coming down. So I just I just felt I think

727
00:34:15,680 --> 00:34:17,799
Speaker 3: it was just suppressing everything to get through work. And

728
00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:20,720
Speaker 3: then it was like I can let it go. Aside

729
00:34:20,719 --> 00:34:22,600
Speaker 3: from the emotions that I had to pull from just

730
00:34:22,640 --> 00:34:25,880
Speaker 3: to work with my character, it was just a lot

731
00:34:26,160 --> 00:34:31,040
Speaker 3: at one time, you know. So I was grateful once

732
00:34:31,120 --> 00:34:34,080
Speaker 3: Dad rung that bell, man, it just felt like a

733
00:34:34,120 --> 00:34:39,560
Speaker 3: sigh of Okay, he's done with this phase. But now

734
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:46,439
Speaker 3: there's the rebuild, you know. So, yeah, it's been a time.

735
00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:49,719
Speaker 1: How about this we this has been a heavy episode.

736
00:34:50,120 --> 00:34:53,000
Speaker 1: Let's take a break. Let's go pay some bills. You

737
00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:55,319
Speaker 1: think trouble, take a break, pay some bills.

738
00:34:56,239 --> 00:34:59,680
Speaker 2: Come back. I don't want to do listen to letters.

739
00:35:00,239 --> 00:35:02,960
Speaker 3: We have Matt and Josh chiming to if there's anything,

740
00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:04,799
Speaker 3: because we didn't even get to touch on anything. Y'all

741
00:35:04,840 --> 00:35:10,799
Speaker 3: have been Yeah, Matt lost the parents, So this is yeah,

742
00:35:11,040 --> 00:35:11,640
Speaker 3: how how many.

743
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:20,759
Speaker 5: Years has been met? Okay, gotcha? Yeah, fifteen years.

744
00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:22,480
Speaker 2: I know he lost his dad to cancer, so we

745
00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:24,840
Speaker 2: we talked about that during this whole thing. It's just

746
00:35:24,880 --> 00:35:25,960
Speaker 2: been a lot for everybody.

747
00:35:25,960 --> 00:35:28,160
Speaker 1: I know Josh has his own things he's going through

748
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 1: at home. I'm not sure he wants to discuss or now.

749
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:31,680
Speaker 1: But this is also just the truth.

750
00:35:31,719 --> 00:35:31,919
Speaker 6: Man.

751
00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:36,640
Speaker 1: We don't let art dictate our life. Like at the

752
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:38,640
Speaker 1: end of the day, we do a podcast, we want

753
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:40,919
Speaker 1: to bring people together. We want to love each other

754
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:42,840
Speaker 1: and laugh and make sure people have good things to

755
00:35:42,880 --> 00:35:45,640
Speaker 1: watch and listen to. But we are people and we

756
00:35:45,680 --> 00:35:48,799
Speaker 1: are all really like seriously going through things. So first

757
00:35:48,840 --> 00:35:50,319
Speaker 1: thing I want to do is thank y'all before we

758
00:35:50,360 --> 00:35:51,840
Speaker 1: take this break for even rocking with us.

759
00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:54,040
Speaker 2: Still. We've been going for about five six weeks. We've

760
00:35:54,080 --> 00:35:54,640
Speaker 2: never been.

761
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:58,200
Speaker 1: Going this long and the whole life time of Dead

762
00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:01,080
Speaker 1: Ass Podcast and Eli sevn Raft, but we felt like

763
00:36:01,160 --> 00:36:05,600
Speaker 1: this break was was needed for not just you guys,

764
00:36:05,760 --> 00:36:06,799
Speaker 1: but for all of us.

765
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:08,520
Speaker 2: Collected all five of us as a group. So we're

766
00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:09,360
Speaker 2: gonna take this break.

767
00:36:09,680 --> 00:36:11,400
Speaker 1: When we come back, we'll come back to the moment

768
00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:14,239
Speaker 1: of truth, and then next week we'll start back with

769
00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:16,319
Speaker 1: some regular podcasts, but we're gonna finish you the Moment

770
00:36:16,360 --> 00:36:18,360
Speaker 1: of Truth and then see y'all next week.

771
00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:36,720
Speaker 5: Perfect, all right, all right, yes we are back.

772
00:36:38,080 --> 00:36:41,239
Speaker 3: I'm feeling good, like I think. Talking about everything, of course,

773
00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:43,400
Speaker 3: jogs up the memories and you know what I was

774
00:36:43,440 --> 00:36:45,040
Speaker 3: feeling over the past couple months.

775
00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:47,120
Speaker 5: But it's healthy to talk about it.

776
00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 3: You know. I realized that I'm not the only one

777
00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:53,400
Speaker 3: going through things. I'm sure so many of our listeners.

778
00:36:53,440 --> 00:36:56,759
Speaker 3: You know, life, life happens. We're all living in this

779
00:36:56,840 --> 00:37:01,040
Speaker 3: shared human experience. But what I realized has been valuable,

780
00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:02,720
Speaker 3: and I guess this can be my moment of truth

781
00:37:03,520 --> 00:37:08,040
Speaker 3: is being honest about how you feel. You know, stop

782
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:11,279
Speaker 3: saying I'm okay when someone asks you, hey, what's up,

783
00:37:11,280 --> 00:37:11,680
Speaker 3: how are you?

784
00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:12,839
Speaker 5: I'm good, I'm good, I'm good.

785
00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 3: It's okay sometimes to be like, you know what, I'm

786
00:37:14,680 --> 00:37:19,400
Speaker 3: not okay, I'm not okay, especially in spaces where you

787
00:37:19,400 --> 00:37:23,160
Speaker 3: feel like you can rely on someone for a little

788
00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:26,319
Speaker 3: bit of help support, yeah, a shoulder, you know, or

789
00:37:26,320 --> 00:37:28,360
Speaker 3: sometimes it's just eventing. You know.

790
00:37:28,600 --> 00:37:31,839
Speaker 5: I've realized that with us, you know, sometimes we just.

791
00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:32,399
Speaker 3: Want to be heard.

792
00:37:33,520 --> 00:37:35,480
Speaker 5: You know, things haven't been perfect.

793
00:37:35,719 --> 00:37:38,279
Speaker 3: It's taking a toll even on Deval and I just

794
00:37:38,840 --> 00:37:41,359
Speaker 3: us feeling like we miss each other because we both

795
00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:44,480
Speaker 3: have been scatterbrained trying to make sure that everything stays

796
00:37:44,480 --> 00:37:49,320
Speaker 3: afloat because why the bills still come. Yeah, the bills

797
00:37:49,320 --> 00:37:53,719
Speaker 3: still come. The responsibilities are still there. Sometimes, you know,

798
00:37:53,920 --> 00:37:56,600
Speaker 3: it's safe to say nobody really cares what you got

799
00:37:56,600 --> 00:37:59,320
Speaker 3: going on as long as it, you know, doesn't affect

800
00:37:59,320 --> 00:38:01,919
Speaker 3: their bottom line. Thankfully, we're in a space though, where

801
00:38:01,920 --> 00:38:05,480
Speaker 3: we've curated a workspace for us where we just really

802
00:38:05,560 --> 00:38:11,160
Speaker 3: genuinely lead first with being human and how we feel.

803
00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:14,840
Speaker 3: So so yeah, sometimes it's okay to say you're not

804
00:38:14,880 --> 00:38:17,799
Speaker 3: okay and talk about it.

805
00:38:18,200 --> 00:38:21,680
Speaker 2: I love that trouble, Yeah, feeling.

806
00:38:21,560 --> 00:38:24,719
Speaker 6: I will say, nobody does care what you're going through,

807
00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:28,000
Speaker 6: including the people who stand to make money off of

808
00:38:28,040 --> 00:38:31,000
Speaker 6: the death of your loved one. Having a plan a

809
00:38:31,080 --> 00:38:38,680
Speaker 6: funeral right after somebody dies, especially unexpectedly, is like the most.

810
00:38:38,000 --> 00:38:39,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's really traumatic.

811
00:38:39,239 --> 00:38:43,080
Speaker 6: And I couldn't imagine having to answer questions for work

812
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:46,640
Speaker 6: at the same time as having to like try to

813
00:38:47,000 --> 00:38:50,719
Speaker 6: you know, get my dad flown back to Ohio and

814
00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:56,520
Speaker 6: like picking out his burial plot and figuring out how

815
00:38:56,560 --> 00:38:57,520
Speaker 6: that's going to be paid for.

816
00:38:57,640 --> 00:39:01,040
Speaker 1: So I'm about to say that real world stuff that

817
00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:03,400
Speaker 1: no one thinks about it, and then you got work stuff.

818
00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:04,719
Speaker 2: Nobody want to answer to that.

819
00:39:04,680 --> 00:39:05,160
Speaker 6: And do that.

820
00:39:05,239 --> 00:39:06,120
Speaker 4: I feel you, Yeah, it was.

821
00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:07,960
Speaker 6: It was really helpful for me not to have to

822
00:39:08,080 --> 00:39:10,680
Speaker 6: like worry about anything else because even then, like I

823
00:39:10,719 --> 00:39:13,239
Speaker 6: had to walk out of the room when we were

824
00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:15,719
Speaker 6: at the cemetery picking out his block because I was

825
00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:20,319
Speaker 6: just like, this is crazy. But anyway, it has been

826
00:39:20,320 --> 00:39:23,319
Speaker 6: helpful for me to talk about grief. I've been making

827
00:39:23,360 --> 00:39:25,640
Speaker 6: these little videos and just like saying how I feel,

828
00:39:25,680 --> 00:39:29,120
Speaker 6: and it has highlighted that we are just all having

829
00:39:29,120 --> 00:39:32,600
Speaker 6: a human experience and we have this common thing that

830
00:39:32,680 --> 00:39:34,600
Speaker 6: we'll all go through at some point and a lot

831
00:39:34,680 --> 00:39:37,759
Speaker 6: of people have been through it already, and so that's

832
00:39:37,760 --> 00:39:41,240
Speaker 6: been really helpful. And I will say, yes, it's helpful

833
00:39:41,239 --> 00:39:43,799
Speaker 6: to talk about how you feel, and also it's so.

834
00:39:45,440 --> 00:39:46,279
Speaker 4: When you die.

835
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:49,439
Speaker 6: You know, my dad, he wasn't an inventor, he wasn't

836
00:39:49,440 --> 00:39:53,920
Speaker 6: a millionaire. You know, he wasn't like an important CEO

837
00:39:54,200 --> 00:39:57,840
Speaker 6: or anything. But he was a phenomenal human being. He

838
00:39:57,960 --> 00:40:00,640
Speaker 6: was a great friend, he was a one person to

839
00:40:00,680 --> 00:40:04,360
Speaker 6: be around. Everybody said, you know, he just loved to

840
00:40:04,400 --> 00:40:07,239
Speaker 6: make people laugh, and everybody have really great memories of him,

841
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:15,440
Speaker 6: and that's what matters. Yes, So yeah, every day when

842
00:40:15,440 --> 00:40:17,960
Speaker 6: you put one foot in front of the other, just

843
00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:21,439
Speaker 6: be a good person and know that that is enough.

844
00:40:22,560 --> 00:40:25,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel that. I love it.

845
00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:32,080
Speaker 8: Mattuh loss of words really, but based off with Triple

846
00:40:32,080 --> 00:40:33,440
Speaker 8: is saying the only thing that comes to mind is

847
00:40:33,440 --> 00:40:34,399
Speaker 8: just lived one day at a time.

848
00:40:34,840 --> 00:40:36,360
Speaker 2: Be grateful.

849
00:40:37,680 --> 00:40:39,680
Speaker 8: I know we're here to say have attitude of gratitude,

850
00:40:39,880 --> 00:40:42,120
Speaker 8: but it's like a real thing, especially in times like this.

851
00:40:42,680 --> 00:40:44,400
Speaker 8: But I think my real moment of truth is Triple

852
00:40:44,400 --> 00:40:46,319
Speaker 8: needs to get back on the stage because you have

853
00:40:46,320 --> 00:40:47,319
Speaker 8: been hilarious.

854
00:40:47,480 --> 00:40:49,279
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna lie, Bro. I didn't want to. I

855
00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:52,680
Speaker 2: didn't want to say that, but yeah, yeah, I've threads

856
00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:54,400
Speaker 2: that you were writing that first week.

857
00:40:54,760 --> 00:40:58,839
Speaker 8: I was like, nah, it was.

858
00:40:58,800 --> 00:41:01,160
Speaker 1: Good because some people ask me if your dad had

859
00:41:01,200 --> 00:41:03,279
Speaker 1: really died or if it was like a skit.

860
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:05,600
Speaker 2: It was like is this real?

861
00:41:05,640 --> 00:41:07,719
Speaker 1: Because she mad funny and I was like, nah, bro,

862
00:41:08,280 --> 00:41:09,600
Speaker 1: her dad really passed away.

863
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:11,200
Speaker 2: She was funny.

864
00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:13,719
Speaker 4: I wrote a whole set during that first week.

865
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:15,680
Speaker 2: I love to hear that might.

866
00:41:15,560 --> 00:41:18,400
Speaker 5: Be a great way for you to live so strange.

867
00:41:18,920 --> 00:41:20,480
Speaker 7: I was going to write you and be like, yo,

868
00:41:20,520 --> 00:41:23,000
Speaker 7: this is the coming of age of Triple right now

869
00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:26,360
Speaker 7: while it was happening, because you said.

870
00:41:26,120 --> 00:41:28,600
Speaker 2: It to Josh, you you said it to me.

871
00:41:28,680 --> 00:41:31,120
Speaker 1: You said that we've just watched Triples Coming of Age.

872
00:41:31,400 --> 00:41:32,919
Speaker 1: You the one who was sending me to stuff about

873
00:41:32,920 --> 00:41:34,200
Speaker 1: he threats. Remember I don't have threats.

874
00:41:35,160 --> 00:41:40,360
Speaker 2: He was sending it to me. It was funny.

875
00:41:42,560 --> 00:41:45,520
Speaker 3: What was Anthony? Anthony? Anthony lives on?

876
00:41:46,320 --> 00:41:48,319
Speaker 4: I did speak at his funeral too, got a couple

877
00:41:48,360 --> 00:41:48,760
Speaker 4: of laughs.

878
00:41:49,000 --> 00:41:55,480
Speaker 7: So that was that was actually really drink minimalm you

879
00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:56,360
Speaker 7: go through his closet?

880
00:41:57,160 --> 00:41:58,640
Speaker 3: Did you go through his closet and like pull a

881
00:41:58,640 --> 00:41:59,560
Speaker 3: bunch of pieces to take?

882
00:41:59,880 --> 00:42:00,319
Speaker 6: I did?

883
00:42:00,680 --> 00:42:03,200
Speaker 4: I sure did. I got like eight Coogie sweaters. Now

884
00:42:03,480 --> 00:42:05,520
Speaker 4: I love that to the.

885
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:10,759
Speaker 1: Play for real because remember I said, if I had

886
00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:13,520
Speaker 1: a daughter, my daughter's name would be Junior. I was

887
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:17,000
Speaker 1: gonna name my daughter Deval and she was gonna be

888
00:42:17,040 --> 00:42:19,080
Speaker 1: the only Junior I had. So to see how you

889
00:42:19,120 --> 00:42:22,240
Speaker 1: like correlate with your dad and how much you appreciate

890
00:42:22,280 --> 00:42:24,200
Speaker 1: everything he's giving you and you wearing his suits It's

891
00:42:24,239 --> 00:42:25,880
Speaker 1: kind of like if I had a daughter and her

892
00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:28,359
Speaker 1: name was Deval, we wanta call her dev I would

893
00:42:28,360 --> 00:42:30,160
Speaker 1: want her to just do ship, just to be like

894
00:42:30,320 --> 00:42:33,200
Speaker 1: her dad, Like what you're gonna wear a Debbie to.

895
00:42:32,960 --> 00:42:37,200
Speaker 3: Look at over there?

896
00:42:38,080 --> 00:42:41,239
Speaker 1: No, that's what's up that That was your moment the truth, Josh,

897
00:42:41,280 --> 00:42:42,319
Speaker 1: you got a full moment of truth.

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00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:43,560
Speaker 2: My moment of.

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Speaker 7: Truth is really just thank you for making it like,

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00:42:46,440 --> 00:42:50,520
Speaker 7: making it easy for us to help you during that time.

901
00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:55,600
Speaker 7: Like you, Devo, I am awkward around any moments of

902
00:42:55,600 --> 00:42:58,439
Speaker 7: of grief and I really don't I really I really

903
00:42:58,440 --> 00:43:00,279
Speaker 7: want to say how you doing? But I know better,

904
00:43:00,320 --> 00:43:02,120
Speaker 7: so I don't say it. But in the meantime, I'm like,

905
00:43:02,560 --> 00:43:04,839
Speaker 7: I know how you doing, but you know what I mean?

906
00:43:04,880 --> 00:43:07,080
Speaker 2: Well, so'thing.

907
00:43:07,880 --> 00:43:09,600
Speaker 7: It'd be a few a few times I hit trouble

908
00:43:09,680 --> 00:43:10,880
Speaker 7: up and I'm just like, I don't really know what

909
00:43:10,920 --> 00:43:13,840
Speaker 7: to say. So hey, when we go get the next podcast.

910
00:43:16,200 --> 00:43:19,560
Speaker 2: That's all Josh said. No, but seriously, you.

911
00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:22,360
Speaker 7: Know, thank you for making it easy because it's difficult

912
00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:24,759
Speaker 7: it is for you. You never really want to make

913
00:43:24,800 --> 00:43:26,880
Speaker 7: it difficult for the people around you when it interacts

914
00:43:26,920 --> 00:43:29,719
Speaker 7: with you. So you didn't do that so I appreciate you,

915
00:43:29,800 --> 00:43:32,640
Speaker 7: and you know, listen to you and your your family

916
00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:33,480
Speaker 7: and your dad's passing.

917
00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:36,799
Speaker 3: Anything you had going on, Josh real quick that we

918
00:43:36,840 --> 00:43:38,640
Speaker 3: didn't get to touch on. I know he had.

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00:43:38,560 --> 00:43:40,880
Speaker 7: Majority It was tough, man, I mean, I mean we

920
00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:42,880
Speaker 7: talked about you guys going through I really want to

921
00:43:42,880 --> 00:43:43,839
Speaker 7: bring my stuff into it.

922
00:43:44,440 --> 00:43:46,880
Speaker 2: But I tried to update my computer and it died.

923
00:43:47,600 --> 00:43:52,920
Speaker 2: I swear I thought it was over. I thought it

924
00:43:52,960 --> 00:43:54,560
Speaker 2: was over, guys. I thought it was over.

925
00:43:54,680 --> 00:43:57,640
Speaker 7: Seriously, seriously, I was there for like an hour trying

926
00:43:57,640 --> 00:43:58,799
Speaker 7: to figure out what was going on.

927
00:43:59,239 --> 00:44:01,239
Speaker 8: But thankfully amount of cold on his I took a

928
00:44:01,239 --> 00:44:03,480
Speaker 8: picture of your screen already computer.

929
00:44:03,200 --> 00:44:11,200
Speaker 2: Looks crazy, right, thankfully? Oh god, it was rough, rough hour.

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00:44:12,400 --> 00:44:13,719
Speaker 1: The funny thing is I know what you're talking about

931
00:44:13,760 --> 00:44:16,960
Speaker 1: because I updated my phone. I haven't updated my iOS

932
00:44:17,040 --> 00:44:19,360
Speaker 1: on my phone, and man long and I don't know

933
00:44:19,400 --> 00:44:21,040
Speaker 1: what my phone is no more. I went to go

934
00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:23,799
Speaker 1: find my pictures, they all scrambled my contact. I don't

935
00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:26,080
Speaker 1: even care forget this phone. I really don't care no more.

936
00:44:26,080 --> 00:44:27,400
Speaker 1: So if it was my computer, i'd.

937
00:44:27,280 --> 00:44:27,719
Speaker 2: Have been done.

938
00:44:27,760 --> 00:44:28,319
Speaker 3: I promise you.

939
00:44:28,360 --> 00:44:30,680
Speaker 5: My phone gave me so much anxiety. Now I'd be like,

940
00:44:31,800 --> 00:44:33,080
Speaker 5: I don't want to talk to nobody.

941
00:44:33,560 --> 00:44:36,200
Speaker 1: My moment of truth first, My first moment of truth

942
00:44:36,280 --> 00:44:36,960
Speaker 1: is I love y'all.

943
00:44:37,160 --> 00:44:38,520
Speaker 2: Like these four people.

944
00:44:38,239 --> 00:44:41,920
Speaker 1: In this room, we do this because we love to

945
00:44:41,920 --> 00:44:42,239
Speaker 1: do it.

946
00:44:43,239 --> 00:44:43,799
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.

947
00:44:43,840 --> 00:44:47,279
Speaker 1: That's really truly the facts, Like, we don't have to

948
00:44:47,360 --> 00:44:50,480
Speaker 1: do this, We want to do this. We love to

949
00:44:50,480 --> 00:44:52,920
Speaker 1: share our stories with people. We love to get together

950
00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:56,120
Speaker 1: once a month and film these episodes. I'm going to

951
00:44:56,200 --> 00:44:59,160
Speaker 1: say my moment of truth is not having an episode shot.

952
00:44:59,360 --> 00:45:02,160
Speaker 1: I missed what we do to make the episodes. When

953
00:45:02,160 --> 00:45:03,920
Speaker 1: you wake up in the morning and you get here

954
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:05,719
Speaker 1: and you got to be here at a certain time,

955
00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:08,040
Speaker 1: and then everyone comes in and Kwame comes with lunch,

956
00:45:08,080 --> 00:45:09,880
Speaker 1: and then we go get our workouts after and we

957
00:45:10,000 --> 00:45:12,200
Speaker 1: laugh and joke. Those are the things I love the

958
00:45:12,239 --> 00:45:14,600
Speaker 1: most about doing the podcast. It's like we don't do

959
00:45:14,640 --> 00:45:17,160
Speaker 1: the live shows anymore, so when we get together once

960
00:45:17,200 --> 00:45:20,600
Speaker 1: a month for three days, it feels like that same camaraderie.

961
00:45:20,760 --> 00:45:23,319
Speaker 1: So I just want to say, I love y'all. I

962
00:45:23,360 --> 00:45:25,839
Speaker 1: hate the fact that everybody is going through shit right now.

963
00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:28,719
Speaker 1: It seems like the whole world is on fire. I

964
00:45:28,760 --> 00:45:30,680
Speaker 1: love the fact that we have each other. I love

965
00:45:30,719 --> 00:45:33,399
Speaker 1: the fact that we have an understanding that we're like, yo,

966
00:45:33,800 --> 00:45:36,279
Speaker 1: life is happening. We really don't got to do no

967
00:45:36,360 --> 00:45:38,759
Speaker 1: content right now. I love the fact that we all

968
00:45:38,800 --> 00:45:40,480
Speaker 1: want that. You know what I'm saying, And we took

969
00:45:40,520 --> 00:45:42,400
Speaker 1: a break to get back to our families and stuff.

970
00:45:42,920 --> 00:45:45,479
Speaker 1: And I want to say to the Ellis ever After

971
00:45:45,560 --> 00:45:47,879
Speaker 1: crew that's been rocking with us, we will be back.

972
00:45:47,960 --> 00:45:50,800
Speaker 2: We will be consistent. But thank y'all for having empathy.

973
00:45:51,080 --> 00:45:53,200
Speaker 1: I know how much y'all love Trible, I know how

974
00:45:53,239 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 1: much y'all love k We've been through a lot.

975
00:45:55,239 --> 00:45:57,279
Speaker 2: I know how much y'all love the three of us.

976
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:59,520
Speaker 1: But I appreciate the well wishes that I was seeing

977
00:45:59,560 --> 00:46:02,359
Speaker 1: on the page and all my personal dms making sure

978
00:46:02,360 --> 00:46:03,680
Speaker 1: that everybody was okay.

979
00:46:04,200 --> 00:46:05,640
Speaker 2: So I just want to say thank y'all. That's my

980
00:46:05,719 --> 00:46:07,080
Speaker 2: moment of truth. I love y'all.

981
00:46:07,120 --> 00:46:09,520
Speaker 1: We will be back, but most importantly, remember that we're

982
00:46:09,520 --> 00:46:10,440
Speaker 1: all humans.

983
00:46:11,280 --> 00:46:14,560
Speaker 3: And thank you to you because you're thinking like Triple

984
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:17,040
Speaker 3: and I and but you were going through a lot too.

985
00:46:17,440 --> 00:46:19,560
Speaker 5: I was, And I don't want to glanze over that, you.

986
00:46:19,520 --> 00:46:23,840
Speaker 3: Know, just real quick, because you were a stronghold, solid

987
00:46:24,080 --> 00:46:27,000
Speaker 3: rock through all of this for all of us appreciate.

988
00:46:27,120 --> 00:46:28,920
Speaker 3: Like we joke about the fact that he's become like

989
00:46:28,960 --> 00:46:31,840
Speaker 3: my mother's therapist. You should build her, you should.

990
00:46:31,880 --> 00:46:32,640
Speaker 5: Totally build her.

991
00:46:33,280 --> 00:46:35,400
Speaker 3: She literally comes in here, She's like, where's my coach.

992
00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:37,560
Speaker 2: Therapist?

993
00:46:37,640 --> 00:46:39,080
Speaker 5: And I'm like, if I had to.

994
00:46:39,040 --> 00:46:41,520
Speaker 3: Have one more person offload their problems onto him, So

995
00:46:41,560 --> 00:46:44,200
Speaker 3: because I'm already defensive of like nobody talked to him.

996
00:46:44,239 --> 00:46:45,400
Speaker 5: Everybody leave him alone.

997
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:47,839
Speaker 3: And the fact that you're still able to show up

998
00:46:48,200 --> 00:46:50,799
Speaker 3: every day as an amazing husband and an amazing father,

999
00:46:50,920 --> 00:46:53,839
Speaker 3: an amazing son in law, and amazing Like I don't

1000
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:55,440
Speaker 3: know how you do it, because I'd be ready to

1001
00:46:55,480 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 3: shut down and move OUTPI, like y'all can have everything.

1002
00:46:58,200 --> 00:47:01,560
Speaker 3: I'm gone. That's the Sagittarius, Like book me a flight

1003
00:47:01,640 --> 00:47:03,399
Speaker 3: out of here. But the way that you've been able

1004
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:05,520
Speaker 3: to show up for everyone all the time, Like I

1005
00:47:05,520 --> 00:47:07,440
Speaker 3: would go to text Trible and Deval was already texting

1006
00:47:07,440 --> 00:47:08,560
Speaker 3: Trible Like I got her.

1007
00:47:08,920 --> 00:47:10,960
Speaker 6: He text me like every day for the first couple

1008
00:47:11,000 --> 00:47:15,040
Speaker 6: of weeks, and I thought it was so special, thank you,

1009
00:47:15,360 --> 00:47:17,360
Speaker 6: It really really really was helpful.

1010
00:47:18,480 --> 00:47:20,240
Speaker 4: And he would be like, did you shower today?

1011
00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:26,520
Speaker 5: I'd be like nah lately.

1012
00:47:26,640 --> 00:47:27,600
Speaker 2: One day she was like, she.

1013
00:47:27,640 --> 00:47:29,680
Speaker 1: Was like, I ain't even eat yet, and I was like,

1014
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:31,960
Speaker 1: come on, Triple, you gotta eat. And I said, when

1015
00:47:31,960 --> 00:47:33,600
Speaker 1: you go in the shower and take the camera for

1016
00:47:33,640 --> 00:47:34,520
Speaker 1: our only fans.

1017
00:47:34,920 --> 00:47:37,080
Speaker 2: That's that's how we jokes the whole time.

1018
00:47:37,480 --> 00:47:39,880
Speaker 6: And it was it was even better because all my

1019
00:47:39,920 --> 00:47:42,760
Speaker 6: aunts and stuff, they'd be like, oh, you work with Zach.

1020
00:47:43,480 --> 00:47:46,200
Speaker 4: The whole time, like I'm like, my dad just died, y'all.

1021
00:47:48,880 --> 00:47:53,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, dam But then he would text me and I

1022
00:47:53,040 --> 00:47:54,200
Speaker 6: feel like famous, like.

1023
00:47:54,239 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, I do work with that.

1024
00:47:58,719 --> 00:47:59,120
Speaker 2: You know that.

1025
00:47:59,400 --> 00:48:02,960
Speaker 1: As much as we argue and debate on this this podcast, bro,

1026
00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:05,360
Speaker 1: I do love you as a person, you know, I

1027
00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:08,000
Speaker 1: love you you my dog yos.

1028
00:48:08,480 --> 00:48:11,279
Speaker 3: All right, y'all, we didn't do listener letters today, but

1029
00:48:11,320 --> 00:48:13,880
Speaker 3: if you want to be featured for a future episode,

1030
00:48:13,880 --> 00:48:16,840
Speaker 3: because the ball is rolling now, we're back, y'all, be

1031
00:48:16,920 --> 00:48:19,920
Speaker 3: sure to email us at Ellisadvice at gmail dot com.

1032
00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:22,160
Speaker 2: Yes, that's E. L L I S A D V

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00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:24,920
Speaker 2: I C E at gmail dot com.

1034
00:48:24,960 --> 00:48:28,239
Speaker 3: All right, and if you're listening on Apple podcasts, be

1035
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:31,760
Speaker 3: sure to rate, review, subscribe, download, tell a friend.

1036
00:48:32,320 --> 00:48:34,719
Speaker 5: Because we're back. Happy to be here.

1037
00:48:35,040 --> 00:48:37,640
Speaker 3: You can follow me on Instagram at Kadeen I Am.

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00:48:37,719 --> 00:48:38,920
Speaker 3: And I'm also back on TikTok.

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Speaker 4: Y'all.

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00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:42,000
Speaker 3: You know, one one day at a time, one step,

1041
00:48:42,719 --> 00:48:45,080
Speaker 3: one step at a time, all right, don't start harassing

1042
00:48:45,080 --> 00:48:46,520
Speaker 3: me for the getting ready with me. I just cleaned

1043
00:48:46,520 --> 00:48:49,280
Speaker 3: my closet at the seven months, so we're making baby steps.

1044
00:48:49,400 --> 00:48:51,239
Speaker 5: But you can follow me at Kadeen I Am, and.

1045
00:48:51,239 --> 00:48:53,799
Speaker 2: You can follow me at Imdeval all platforms.

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00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:55,680
Speaker 8: You can find me att ellisphoto dot.

1047
00:48:55,480 --> 00:48:59,239
Speaker 7: Com and you can follow me at Joshua Underscore, Duwayne and.

1048
00:48:59,160 --> 00:49:01,160
Speaker 4: I'm at Trips The Cool, t R I B b

1049
00:49:01,360 --> 00:49:02,880
Speaker 4: Z the Cool on Everything.

1050
00:49:03,600 --> 00:49:04,640
Speaker 2: And we're back, y'all.

1051
00:49:04,640 --> 00:49:11,520
Speaker 1: Make sure you rate, review and subscribe and downloadad to baby.

1052
00:49:12,840 --> 00:49:13,640
Speaker 3: I've said the script.

1053
00:49:13,640 --> 00:49:14,879
Speaker 5: It's all right, whatever, We're back.

1054
00:49:14,920 --> 00:49:17,040
Speaker 3: That's on an ass, dead ass.

1055
00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:20,719
Speaker 7: God.

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Speaker 6: Ellis ever After is an iHeartMedia podcast. It's hosted by

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00:49:27,000 --> 00:49:31,840
Speaker 6: Kadeen and Deval Ellis. It's produced by Triple Video, Production

1058
00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:37,040
Speaker 6: by Joshua, Duane and Matthew Ellis, Video editing by Lashawan Rowe.

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Speaker 3: Tagana Togana Togana