WEBVTT - “GET A REAL JOB”

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<v Speaker 1>Oh is this a deripist guy?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, oh shit, I don't why bad I think you

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<v Speaker 1>would call back.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well you texted me and you said you wrote

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<v Speaker 2>get a real job, buddy. I called you and you

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<v Speaker 2>didn't pick up.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I was just like kind I was mad because

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, hey man, I wanted to talk to

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<v Speaker 1>this guy. You know, I'm the following your page for

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<v Speaker 1>a minute. I didn't think it was actual texting.

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<v Speaker 2>No, it's this real. It's all real. These are real.

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<v Speaker 2>Like people are like, oh you made all the callers

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<v Speaker 2>are AI, and it's like you're a real and then

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<v Speaker 2>they become one of them and then they are like, no,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm real. Then the whole thing must be real.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I think you had like I know you're a

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<v Speaker 1>real person because I think I saw you accomplex time,

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<v Speaker 1>like a few years ago. Yeah, and uh yeah, but

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<v Speaker 1>like I didn't think it would be like a real person.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought it was one of those uh just like

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<v Speaker 1>you know, get you to call and join the thing

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<v Speaker 1>type of you know, but I do apolishize for that.

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<v Speaker 2>No, And you know what, and I I and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>actually I totally could I do a lot of marketing

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<v Speaker 2>and stuff and I'm I'm going on tour and like

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<v Speaker 2>it'd be helpful, but I don't like it. I hate

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<v Speaker 2>that shit, you know, like uh, I hate like I hate,

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<v Speaker 2>like if you sign up for one thing, like if

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<v Speaker 2>people like there's a thing you can go to therapy getto,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just gonna I'm gonna market right now. If you

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<v Speaker 2>go to therapy Gecko tour dot com and you put

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<v Speaker 2>your phone number in it, can I'll text. I can

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<v Speaker 2>text you, like those phone numbers I keep. But like

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<v Speaker 2>I I've thought about it. People have told me they're like,

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<v Speaker 2>are you keeping the data of all the people that

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<v Speaker 2>call you? And I'm like no, I'm why not you.

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<v Speaker 1>Should because it's like you know, I got I called

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<v Speaker 1>because it's crazy. I was like, actually, uh, in need

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<v Speaker 1>of a therapist and like I have both of sessions

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<v Speaker 1>today and like I've been following you for a while,

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<v Speaker 1>but like that post, I mean that your story, like

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<v Speaker 1>I had to happen to random. You see it like

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<v Speaker 1>six minutes before you got posted it and I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh shit, like.

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<v Speaker 2>Well wait, okay, real quick, do you think it's don't

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<v Speaker 2>do you think it would be fucked up?

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<v Speaker 1>Though?

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<v Speaker 2>If by calling that phone number I just like opt

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<v Speaker 2>you in to receiving texts from me.

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<v Speaker 1>Per se. I wouldn't care, but other people white, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>so it's a different thing. Like some people just like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>getting annoyed with those texts, you know. But I want

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<v Speaker 1>to mind, you know, on my phone, I do social

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<v Speaker 1>media marketing myself, so it's like, you know, I'll just

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<v Speaker 1>say poor an info for sure, you know. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>mind it, all.

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<v Speaker 2>Right, I'll put your phone number specifically into my list. Hell, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>what city do you live in?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in Las Vegas, all.

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<v Speaker 2>Right, I'm coming to Vegas. I'll put your phone number

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<v Speaker 2>in my thing. Anyway, what are you coming on here? Uh? Ship,

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<v Speaker 2>I have no idea. It's this this year sometime. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>this year, I think the Fuckingmbary or September. Okay, I'll

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<v Speaker 2>be there in September at almost the end of the year. Anyway. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>you you successfully got a hold of me because you

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<v Speaker 2>insulted me, and I want that to be a lesson

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<v Speaker 2>to everyone as to how to get a hold of me,

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<v Speaker 2>because I like, I'm a I'm a I'm a masochist

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<v Speaker 2>and I love being insulted. What is your name again?

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<v Speaker 2>What's your name again.

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<v Speaker 1>My name is Sean, but I go by Saint St. Louis,

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<v Speaker 1>but like st.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, uh Sat, this phone call can be whatever you

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<v Speaker 2>want it to be. I'll but I'll ask you, is

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<v Speaker 2>there was there a particular reason why you called today? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>There was a few things, man, uh but like more

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<v Speaker 1>so yeah, I mean, like, so, how can I make

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<v Speaker 1>this an ongoing thing?

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<v Speaker 2>How can you make it like.

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<v Speaker 1>Like an ongoing thing like I could call you or

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<v Speaker 1>like pay like our subscription type of thing because I

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<v Speaker 1>want to get h.

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<v Speaker 2>Can you say that word for me one more time?

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<v Speaker 2>How can you make this so what thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Like a like an ongoing thing, like a constant.

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<v Speaker 2>Ongoing Oh oh oh oh oh. I'm not a real

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not a real therapist saying I'm just this is

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<v Speaker 2>just like a calling the show. Do you really think

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<v Speaker 2>I was a real therapist? Did you think I was

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<v Speaker 2>a real therapist?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean you said some real ship before that, I

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<v Speaker 1>like was like this guy, know I'm talking about.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait saying fuck you. You texted me saying get a

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<v Speaker 2>real job, but then you did, but then you and

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<v Speaker 2>you but you said the text well, thinking that I

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<v Speaker 2>was a real therapist. That doesn't make any sense.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, yeah, it was just like uh like like

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<v Speaker 1>the minimum thing, like you know, I was just like,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I knew that would get you to respond though, honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, you saw anybody like you know, like

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<v Speaker 1>it's like you call somebody a a dumb ass like

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<v Speaker 1>you know, like and then they don't even to say

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<v Speaker 1>nothing back to you. Like I knew that would make

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<v Speaker 1>you respond, like you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, but it doesn't even make it. But that doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>make sense because if you knew I wasn't a real therapist,

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<v Speaker 2>if you don't, but if you saw it, but if

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<v Speaker 2>you thought I was a real therapist, then why would

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<v Speaker 2>you say, get a real.

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<v Speaker 1>Job, Because like I don't really see that many therapists

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<v Speaker 1>like doing the social media thing. I know it's like

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<v Speaker 1>sound like an oxy want it sounds very retarded, but

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, bro.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, okay, all right, I'm all right. I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>disclaim for you that I am not a real therapist.

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<v Speaker 2>There is no way to make this an ongoing thing.

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<v Speaker 2>The only time with you that I can truly honest

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<v Speaker 2>to God, uh promise, is the time that we are

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<v Speaker 2>spending on the phone in this moment right now. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>with all, But with all of that said, we're in

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<v Speaker 2>this moment right now. Do you wanna do you want

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<v Speaker 2>to talk? What do you what do you want to

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<v Speaker 2>talk about? Hell?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, man, so like right now, Like I just got

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<v Speaker 1>pulled over earlier. That's kind of got me like a

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<v Speaker 1>little you know, on edge because but they let me go.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, they had my girlfriend pull up take the car,

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<v Speaker 1>uh because I had a suspended license, you know. Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, so that was like the one thing that

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<v Speaker 1>was bothering me. And it's just like, uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>the thing with my girlfriend, you know, she's just like,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, just always making me out to be

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<v Speaker 1>irresponsible person. But I'm the guy that pays all the bills,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying. So it's just like the yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>those are the things I want to talk about that.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, So your girlfriend is making you out to be irresponsible,

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<v Speaker 2>yet you're the one paying all the bills.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so it's like, I don't see how I could

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<v Speaker 1>be irresponsible person. You know if I'm still making sure

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<v Speaker 1>all the bills are getting taken care of and all

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<v Speaker 1>the checklists are getting checked off, you know, you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know that that's first of all. That's a classic. Second

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<v Speaker 2>of all, I empathize with you because in my I

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<v Speaker 2>think I have in my opinion, clearly it's clearly the

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<v Speaker 2>wrong approach to this is to go if all the

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<v Speaker 2>bills are paid, that means that I am responsible and all. Also,

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<v Speaker 2>it is a thing that I in my life have felt,

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<v Speaker 2>uh not not necessarily in a relationship, but just like

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<v Speaker 2>in my own life. I'm like, you know, as long

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<v Speaker 2>as I like in my own life, I do have

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<v Speaker 2>a thing of like, well, if all my bills are

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<v Speaker 2>paid and I'm like financially responsible and stuff, then that

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<v Speaker 2>translates to me being just generally responsible. And I've had

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<v Speaker 2>the same internal feeling. But that's all that's fucking obviously

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<v Speaker 2>not but you, but you, but we both know that's.

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<v Speaker 1>Not you know that, Yeah, the littleless of mistakes. Man,

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<v Speaker 1>everybody just want to start, uh you know, just talking

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<v Speaker 1>I want to say, talking crazy, but just saying all

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<v Speaker 1>these uh shit like that are not even true, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I formation.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh it can be, but uh, okay, you're what is

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<v Speaker 2>your girlfriend? Okay, when your girlfriend is upset at you

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<v Speaker 2>because she says she's you're not being responsible, what does

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<v Speaker 2>she say? What does she specifically point to as being irresponsible.

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<v Speaker 3>Just like like my spending habits and all of that.

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<v Speaker 3>But I just feel like, you know, like if I

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<v Speaker 3>have it and if I can like you know, like

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<v Speaker 3>I said, go back to the thing of my ability

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<v Speaker 3>and everything.

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<v Speaker 1>Is taking care of. Why are you like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>just like so adamant and anal about all those things,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, it don't make sense, and you're like

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<v Speaker 1>putting me down, you know, instead of just you know,

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<v Speaker 1>just uplifting your man. You know, you're saying all these

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<v Speaker 1>things that's you know, bringing me.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. You so you've identified your spending habits as a

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<v Speaker 2>thing that she says is irresponsible.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but like you know, I'm the type of person

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<v Speaker 1>I buy and sell things like you know, I buy,

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<v Speaker 1>I can buy and sell anything. That's just like what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm good at, like you know. So it's like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>on marketplace all the time looking at like used cars

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<v Speaker 1>off the you know, used cars or shoes or anything.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. So it's like she's always it's like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>just don't I don't get it, like you know, if

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<v Speaker 1>it's working, I just need somebody to be more supportive

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<v Speaker 1>versus you know, just like nitpicking at the little things.

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<v Speaker 2>That's reason, that's a reasonable feeling. Uh No, you said

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<v Speaker 2>it could be manipulative. What do you in? What way

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<v Speaker 2>do you think she's trying to manipulate you?

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<v Speaker 1>Like? That's like I think in a certain sense, like

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<v Speaker 1>just to just kind of get her way, Like I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>she always gets her way because like I mean, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>buying here whatever she needs.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, what is what's her what's her way? What

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<v Speaker 2>does that mean? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Like her way beathing? Like she didn't want me spending

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of money. She wants me to stay home.

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<v Speaker 1>She just wants me to not be the person I am,

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<v Speaker 1>you know in a certain.

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<v Speaker 2>Sen Okay, so how long are you How long I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna you know, I'm gonna try to I'm gonna actually

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<v Speaker 2>try to. I feel like I typically approach things diplomatically

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm going to try to approach this with whatever

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<v Speaker 2>is in my gut. But I still do I need

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<v Speaker 2>more information? How long have you been with her?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh? We've been together five years? About six right now?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay? Five years? On? Off go on and says are

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<v Speaker 2>you the one making all the like? Are you like,

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<v Speaker 2>are you guys living? Do you guys have a thing

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<v Speaker 2>where you're living together, and you're like financially supporting her.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh yeah, I mean she can financially support herself too,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's just like it just doesn't compare it to

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<v Speaker 1>what I make, you know. So it's like I end

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<v Speaker 1>up with all the responsibilities because you know.

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<v Speaker 2>So like you so, like you pay the rent.

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<v Speaker 1>I pay there, I pay both the car notes, we

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<v Speaker 1>have another we have like a big warehouse. I pay

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<v Speaker 1>for that. So it's like, okay, I don't get it.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, so you are you are so you are

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<v Speaker 2>in some sense like subsidizing her life financially.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, I mean I guess because it's like if

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the main provider.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, but like do you here's do you do you

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<v Speaker 2>like doing that? Does that make you feel good? Do

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<v Speaker 2>you feel good when you're being that kind of provider? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, because it's like I'm like, you know, I'm I'm African,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, so like I come from a family where

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<v Speaker 1>we all had to take care of each other, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's like me finally being you know, the age

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<v Speaker 1>that I am and the responsibile enough to do that,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, uh, it just gives me that satisfaction

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<v Speaker 1>that like I'm like, I'm near, like you know, I uh,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like I stepped up to the plate.

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<v Speaker 2>So so listen, so so listen. And I think this

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<v Speaker 2>situation is probably a lot more This situation, I is

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<v Speaker 2>probably a lot more complex than this. But like my

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<v Speaker 2>gut feeling with that, my gut feeling with this thing

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<v Speaker 2>is like if you're okay, manipulation and the idea that

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<v Speaker 2>somebody can walk all over you because you're giving them

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<v Speaker 2>so much, and that the idea, this idea that somebody

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<v Speaker 2>can manipulate you and take advantage of your financial resources

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<v Speaker 2>or your kindness or you know, any anything that you

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<v Speaker 2>can give them, right that is that kind of a

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<v Speaker 2>like that idea that do you get okay? That I

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<v Speaker 2>that idea is kind of predicated upon the idea that

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<v Speaker 2>you are providing this financial subsididy subsidization and you're providing

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<v Speaker 2>your kindness and you're providing these things with a particular

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<v Speaker 2>expectation in return. And part of me kind of thing

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<v Speaker 2>a little bit. And I don't know what your guys'

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<v Speaker 2>relationship is, Like, I don't know what those expectations that

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<v Speaker 2>you have are life. But I but I but I,

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<v Speaker 2>but I, but I part of me does feel like

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<v Speaker 2>if you're gonna be this provider and you like providing,

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<v Speaker 2>and you like being the one in the relationship that's

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<v Speaker 2>financially doing all this stuff, and you're gonna give this out.

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<v Speaker 2>Part of me believes to the extent that is realistic

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<v Speaker 2>and barring extremes, you kind of have to if you're

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<v Speaker 2>gonna do that, do it without expectations.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying, all Right, I'm not Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I get that, I get that, and I'm like, not

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<v Speaker 1>expecting nothing, bag levery like you know, respect.

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<v Speaker 2>Sure, that's a that's a fair and those are fair,

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<v Speaker 2>those are fair expectations to have. I I agree. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not say she doesn't respect me, but I just

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<v Speaker 1>feel like a lot of my boundaries definitely get crossed,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, in the mixt of somebody trying to prove point,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and.

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<v Speaker 2>Trying to try to prove a point.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and then that's that's what I mean by like

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<v Speaker 1>she trying to get her way and do all of that,

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<v Speaker 1>is you know, somebody trying to prove a point, they

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<v Speaker 1>will go to like the extremes, you know, or just say,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, some lowball ship to just like trigger

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<v Speaker 1>you you know. So it's like I mean, like I

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<v Speaker 1>deal with a lot of PTSD, like you know, so

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<v Speaker 1>I just got into like an elevator accident not too

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<v Speaker 1>long ago, uh you know, like in July. So I'm

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<v Speaker 1>still like dealing with her like a lot of that stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's like, you know, just like people yelling your

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<v Speaker 1>loud noises could just like you know, cause me to

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<v Speaker 1>just like you know, just go like in a state

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<v Speaker 1>of panic sometimes, you know. And she knows that, and

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<v Speaker 1>I just feel like and those uh like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I get like that if you know a person, you

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<v Speaker 1>should more so try to comfort them, you know. And

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<v Speaker 1>you do you do you tell?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you say all these things to her? Like everything

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<v Speaker 2>you just said about like like do you do you

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<v Speaker 2>those things to her?

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<v Speaker 1>It's easy to say, like you know, to another person,

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<v Speaker 1>but like you know, when you're saying these things to

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<v Speaker 1>your partner, it's never reciprocated the way you needed to

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<v Speaker 1>because it's like always uh I guess.

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<v Speaker 2>Well hold like like uh forgetting about her? How she

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<v Speaker 2>kid said like did you did you say these things

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<v Speaker 2>to her?

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't tried it because I like not those words

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<v Speaker 1>in that form, But like I'm trying, have.

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<v Speaker 2>You have you you? You have you have feelings of

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<v Speaker 2>resentment towards your partner? Have you and and I'm not talking,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not and I'm not on the subject of whether

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<v Speaker 2>or not your feelings are valid. I'm asking, like, if

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<v Speaker 2>have you expressed them to her.

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<v Speaker 1>Like that? I think. I'm like, I've tried in different ways,

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<v Speaker 1>in other ways, and I just kind of got shot

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<v Speaker 1>down because it's like I was saying earlier, it's more

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<v Speaker 1>so a response versus a listener and response, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's more.

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<v Speaker 1>So a defense right away when I get to say

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<v Speaker 1>that type of stuff, you know, So I guess. So,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I don't know, man, I think it's.

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<v Speaker 2>Dude, Okay, I'm gonna I think I'll let you finish

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<v Speaker 2>before I jump in with a bunch of ship.

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<v Speaker 1>I think more so trauma bonds, you know, I hate that,

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<v Speaker 1>Like you know, this year, I want to have a

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<v Speaker 1>good relationship and I want to pour into my girlfriend

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<v Speaker 1>who probably they will eventually beat my wife, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>but before I get married with anybody, I just feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I need to work on these things. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>these are very important things for me because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to bring you know, fully functional kids with

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<v Speaker 1>loving parents in this world. You know, if I if

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<v Speaker 1>we do do that, because I mean we were together

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<v Speaker 1>like five years going on six, like you know what

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<v Speaker 1>war am I waiting on after this point? You know?

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<v Speaker 2>And she still hasn't She's and and and over those

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<v Speaker 2>over those five years, you guys have had conflicts and problems,

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<v Speaker 2>and for sure does does she does? She always respond

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<v Speaker 2>in these conflicts and problems in a way that makes

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<v Speaker 2>you feel as you as though you are you are

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<v Speaker 2>not being seen or heard or felt or understood.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, because it's like, uh, when I get to say,

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<v Speaker 1>you think she has air pods, you know, she always

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<v Speaker 1>puts on here. He always puts in her air pods.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. There's been numerous occasions where she was just

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<v Speaker 1>playing music when I'm doing that, you know, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>just like I'd.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you'll be you'll be expressing yourself and how you feel,

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<v Speaker 2>and and she just puts in her air pods.

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<v Speaker 1>Like yeah, she always has whatever AirPods in her ears

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<v Speaker 1>at all times, you know, because she owns her own

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<v Speaker 1>business too, so it's like that's for you know, word purposes.

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<v Speaker 1>So she always has what a airpod's in you know,

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<v Speaker 1>so she'd be trying to do this thing sometimes when

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<v Speaker 1>she trying to tones me out, that just makes me

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<v Speaker 1>even more mad. You know what I'm saying?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you.

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<v Speaker 1>So?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay? I was like, when you say, I haven't expressed

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<v Speaker 2>it in those words? What do you? What words have

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<v Speaker 2>you expressed it in? Like how do you typically? Like

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<v Speaker 2>do you get are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you?

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<v Speaker 2>And it's okay, you know whatever the truth is is fine.

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<v Speaker 2>And by the way, can you hear me?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I can hear you.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. By the way, I'm not trying this is not

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<v Speaker 2>like a blame thing. I'm only just I'm mainly focused

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<v Speaker 2>on I just just just so you know, I'm mainly

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<v Speaker 2>focused on you because you're the You're the one with

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<v Speaker 2>the agency over like just working within the realm of

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<v Speaker 2>because if I just said your girlfriend's an asshole, that's

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<v Speaker 2>what's that's not helpful to anyone, you know what I mean? Like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just trying to within the realm of of what

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<v Speaker 2>is of you? Have you have you okay? With what

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<v Speaker 2>words and with what tone and with what uh level

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<v Speaker 2>of whatever? Have you expressed yourself to her?

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<v Speaker 1>So like with me, right, I'm a pretty loud person,

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<v Speaker 1>but like I.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't okay, all right, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. I mean I'm like, if I'm gonna tell

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<v Speaker 1>you things about her, I would have to also say

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<v Speaker 1>things about me too, you know, just keeps you two

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<v Speaker 1>way street.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's like I'm a person like I will talk

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<v Speaker 1>to you. I'll say like like, I'll talk to you

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<v Speaker 1>out a reasonable voice, like at least once or twice

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<v Speaker 1>even three times, you know. And then it's just like

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<v Speaker 1>if I'm constantly like not being heard or understood when

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<v Speaker 1>I'm talking out a lower tone, I'm a definitely raise

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<v Speaker 1>my voice because it's like, why am I, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>constantly repeating myself? Why are you? You know if you

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<v Speaker 1>heard of me? Like what is the point? You know?

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<v Speaker 1>That's kind of how I feel about it. So I

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<v Speaker 1>do tend to get loud after the third or the

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<v Speaker 1>fourth time of me having to repeat what I'm saying

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<v Speaker 1>over and over again, you know, if it's not being reciprocated,

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<v Speaker 1>I do tend to I don't get physical at all,

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<v Speaker 1>like your live sisters, so I can't like do that

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<v Speaker 1>till women, but uh, I definitely do get loud, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's like I don't like that, okay, And I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like that's the only time she actually does listen

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<v Speaker 1>because as soon as I get loud, like she focuses up.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's like that's also like good and your things

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<v Speaker 1>in my head because it's like, well, I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to keep doing that, Like why do I have to

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<v Speaker 1>raise my toew to start up octave?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's a bad that's a that's a bad habit

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<v Speaker 2>for that's a bad habit for that relationship to have,

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<v Speaker 2>for sure. So I I mean, yeah, I have a

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<v Speaker 2>few I'm gonna try to speak just from my gut feelings.

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<v Speaker 2>And I'm also I don't know, I'm I'm pretty agnostic.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to fucking navigate life and relationships just like

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<v Speaker 2>everyone else's. It's and there's no and it's just been

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<v Speaker 2>to the fact there's no objective reality anymore that or

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<v Speaker 2>or or or right or wrong. I mean, on the

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<v Speaker 2>extremes of course, there's right or wrong ways to do

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<v Speaker 2>a relationship, but anyway, but anyway.

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<v Speaker 1>So.

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<v Speaker 2>Two things is one, you're like, yeah, you've like trained,

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<v Speaker 2>You're like training this thing where if I get really loud,

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<v Speaker 2>I start screaming. She that's the only way to get

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<v Speaker 2>her to respond. I don't have a I'm not a

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not a trained pere mediator or anything, as you

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<v Speaker 2>now know. But that, but but that can't But that

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<v Speaker 2>can't be the right way to do ship, you know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean? That can't You know, that can't be.

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<v Speaker 2>That can't be the wrong way to do ship.

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<v Speaker 4>So.

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<v Speaker 1>That we both address that.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, so you know, so you know, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's got to be something else. And then here's the

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<v Speaker 2>sad thing that my gut is telling me is if

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<v Speaker 2>you try really fucking hard, and I mean it, like

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<v Speaker 2>you go into yourself and you try really fucking hard

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<v Speaker 2>to present yourself in such a way where you're like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to be in conflict with you. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't want to yell at you. I'm reaching my hand

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<v Speaker 2>out to you in peace, trying to appeal to you,

0:23:40.960 --> 0:23:45.879
<v Speaker 2>trying to willing. I'm willing to understand you, and I

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<v Speaker 2>just want to be understood. Let's have a conversation about

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<v Speaker 2>these things. Let's have an open, honest conversation, no yelling,

0:23:54.920 --> 0:23:56.960
<v Speaker 2>no fighting. I just want you to listen to me,

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<v Speaker 2>and I want to listen to you, and you and

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<v Speaker 2>you really just you just really appeal to her like

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<v Speaker 2>that in that kind of way. Honestly, Okay, if you

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<v Speaker 2>do that multiple times and she doesn't respond in a

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<v Speaker 2>way that makes you feel heard, you unfortunately have to

0:24:25.320 --> 0:24:31.639
<v Speaker 2>accept that she may never ever ever will And you

0:24:32.320 --> 0:24:40.480
<v Speaker 2>can it's perfectly legitimate for you to decide, in light

0:24:40.520 --> 0:24:45.760
<v Speaker 2>of that knowledge that you still love her and you

0:24:45.840 --> 0:24:49.240
<v Speaker 2>still want to be in a relationship with her, and

0:24:49.280 --> 0:24:51.880
<v Speaker 2>you still want to fucking do this, and you still

0:24:51.920 --> 0:24:55.000
<v Speaker 2>want to support her financially, and you still wanna have

0:24:55.040 --> 0:24:56.200
<v Speaker 2>a kid with that, you still want to do it.

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<v Speaker 2>You can decide that your love for her over powers

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<v Speaker 2>the knowledge that you have in your soul that she

0:25:04.240 --> 0:25:09.199
<v Speaker 2>will never ever ever potentially who knows that it's not

0:25:09.240 --> 0:25:13.440
<v Speaker 2>a guarantee, but but but you have to accept your

0:25:13.480 --> 0:25:17.400
<v Speaker 2>love over her over the idea that she may never

0:25:17.680 --> 0:25:21.320
<v Speaker 2>truly attempt to understand you. That's a legitimate thing for

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<v Speaker 2>you to do. I don't know if it's the smart

0:25:25.480 --> 0:25:27.879
<v Speaker 2>thing to my dad, I don't know if it's the

0:25:27.920 --> 0:25:30.119
<v Speaker 2>smart thing to do. I don't know if it's the

0:25:30.160 --> 0:25:32.320
<v Speaker 2>smart thing to do. But you can do it, you know,

0:25:32.560 --> 0:25:36.119
<v Speaker 2>my dad. My dad was on this podcast, like a

0:25:36.200 --> 0:25:39.359
<v Speaker 2>couple episodes ago, and he was like going through this

0:25:39.400 --> 0:25:42.440
<v Speaker 2>whole thing of like what do you want to do

0:25:42.600 --> 0:25:45.359
<v Speaker 2>and what's the smart thing to do in that situation

0:25:45.640 --> 0:25:47.840
<v Speaker 2>where you have a deep love for her and and

0:25:47.880 --> 0:25:52.639
<v Speaker 2>you're taking a bet that she may one day understand that.

0:25:52.880 --> 0:25:54.800
<v Speaker 2>Either you're taking a bet that she may one day

0:25:54.880 --> 0:25:59.320
<v Speaker 2>understand you, or you're just accepting that she made it.

0:25:59.400 --> 0:26:03.240
<v Speaker 2>You could let I just think you could it possibly

0:26:03.320 --> 0:26:06.840
<v Speaker 2>live a happy life where you love her so much

0:26:06.840 --> 0:26:08.240
<v Speaker 2>and you want to be with her and you just

0:26:08.280 --> 0:26:11.080
<v Speaker 2>accept that she'll never see you. You could maybe live

0:26:11.080 --> 0:26:14.480
<v Speaker 2>a happy life that way. But it's totally not It's

0:26:14.520 --> 0:26:16.680
<v Speaker 2>not the smart thing to do by any.

0:26:16.760 --> 0:26:19.800
<v Speaker 1>It's like a one it's like a one side of

0:26:19.840 --> 0:26:21.240
<v Speaker 1>a relationship when it's like that.

0:26:21.560 --> 0:26:24.439
<v Speaker 2>But no, it's just like, you know, you can decide

0:26:24.480 --> 0:26:26.359
<v Speaker 2>that's what makes you happy, But I don't know if

0:26:26.359 --> 0:26:27.159
<v Speaker 2>it's a smart thing to do.

0:26:28.480 --> 0:26:31.440
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean, it's just like the definition of love

0:26:31.560 --> 0:26:36.480
<v Speaker 1>is different for everybody, you know, and I don't know,

0:26:36.560 --> 0:26:39.280
<v Speaker 1>Like it's just like I don't know, man, You're right,

0:26:39.320 --> 0:26:41.280
<v Speaker 1>I definitely got a lot of things to think about, man,

0:26:41.320 --> 0:26:44.200
<v Speaker 1>because I don't want to carry on with this if

0:26:44.200 --> 0:26:48.159
<v Speaker 1>it's like you know, constant like headache. You know, I

0:26:48.200 --> 0:26:49.920
<v Speaker 1>want to drive, I want to do and I want

0:26:49.960 --> 0:26:53.120
<v Speaker 1>to like you know, expert with a partner or whatever,

0:26:53.520 --> 0:26:56.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, or even by myself. You know, it could happen,

0:26:56.920 --> 0:26:59.600
<v Speaker 1>but it's just like, you know, it's just certain things

0:26:59.600 --> 0:27:02.760
<v Speaker 1>that I love about this person. You know, Like God,

0:27:03.320 --> 0:27:05.239
<v Speaker 1>I've been with plenty of women, and it's just like

0:27:05.640 --> 0:27:08.560
<v Speaker 1>I see things differently that this person does that I

0:27:08.560 --> 0:27:10.919
<v Speaker 1>haven't seen in other people, Like you know that I

0:27:11.040 --> 0:27:15.200
<v Speaker 1>like that she has a routine. You know, it's just like, uh,

0:27:15.560 --> 0:27:18.520
<v Speaker 1>they're taking care of me aspect. You know, it is there,

0:27:18.760 --> 0:27:21.440
<v Speaker 1>like you know, she cooks me lunch, dinner, her breakfast,

0:27:21.680 --> 0:27:25.560
<v Speaker 1>wakes up, she goes, beats our horses. Uh, she goes

0:27:25.640 --> 0:27:27.240
<v Speaker 1>like you know, she's like taking care of all of

0:27:27.280 --> 0:27:27.800
<v Speaker 1>the duty.

0:27:27.960 --> 0:27:29.679
<v Speaker 2>I know what you mean. Yeah, I know, I know

0:27:29.760 --> 0:27:30.040
<v Speaker 2>you man.

0:27:31.359 --> 0:27:33.840
<v Speaker 1>So man, it's like I haven't been with the plenty

0:27:33.840 --> 0:27:35.760
<v Speaker 1>of girls that do that, because a lot of them

0:27:35.760 --> 0:27:38.720
<v Speaker 1>will just either be childish or just be like why

0:27:38.720 --> 0:27:41.560
<v Speaker 1>would I do this? You know, she comes from a

0:27:41.640 --> 0:27:43.200
<v Speaker 1>different background where.

0:27:43.440 --> 0:27:46.480
<v Speaker 2>It's you both say you sound like you sound like

0:27:46.480 --> 0:27:51.119
<v Speaker 2>you both are into like the kind of traditional masculine

0:27:51.160 --> 0:27:56.000
<v Speaker 2>feminine roles of a relationship. Yeah, yeah, and that's and

0:27:56.000 --> 0:27:58.560
<v Speaker 2>that's that's a perfectly legitimate way to have a relationship

0:27:58.600 --> 0:28:00.560
<v Speaker 2>if that's what two people want for the real relationship.

0:28:00.800 --> 0:28:08.840
<v Speaker 2>But you know that it comes with h you know

0:28:09.119 --> 0:28:15.600
<v Speaker 2>what I mean. Every every TV show that describes that

0:28:15.880 --> 0:28:20.399
<v Speaker 2>traditional relationship is involves a main involves a guy who

0:28:20.480 --> 0:28:24.040
<v Speaker 2>is upset that his wife won't stop nagging him. You know,

0:28:25.119 --> 0:28:27.800
<v Speaker 2>like that's just part of the part of the fucking thing.

0:28:28.400 --> 0:28:30.920
<v Speaker 2>And I look, you can you can live a happy

0:28:30.960 --> 0:28:33.000
<v Speaker 2>life like that, but you can live a happy you

0:28:33.000 --> 0:28:36.560
<v Speaker 2>can live a happy life like that. But before you

0:28:36.600 --> 0:28:39.720
<v Speaker 2>make that decision, just no, just it's have the information

0:28:40.040 --> 0:28:43.120
<v Speaker 2>that you may never be seen you. Maybe maybe maybe

0:28:43.160 --> 0:28:45.520
<v Speaker 2>maybe this will be I don't know, man, Maybe I'm

0:28:45.600 --> 0:28:51.240
<v Speaker 2>I'm truly like navigating uh my philosophy on relationships in

0:28:51.600 --> 0:28:53.520
<v Speaker 2>real time as I'm talking to you and as I'm

0:28:53.560 --> 0:28:56.000
<v Speaker 2>thinking about it, as I'm living my own life. Uh

0:28:56.200 --> 0:29:00.120
<v Speaker 2>maybe this woman, uh you know whatever, cooking for you

0:29:00.280 --> 0:29:06.280
<v Speaker 2>and and and doing these sort of traditional things and whatnot.

0:29:06.320 --> 0:29:11.719
<v Speaker 2>Maybe that's just maybe that's her version of of seeing you,

0:29:11.720 --> 0:29:14.120
<v Speaker 2>you know, that's her way of of loving you. And

0:29:14.120 --> 0:29:18.000
<v Speaker 2>and and loving someone can be can be seeing them

0:29:18.680 --> 0:29:23.600
<v Speaker 2>in some way. Uh but and and it's perfectly legitimate

0:29:23.600 --> 0:29:26.920
<v Speaker 2>if you decide that that that's something, but this particular

0:29:27.000 --> 0:29:29.200
<v Speaker 2>way that you're trying to be seen, you have to

0:29:29.240 --> 0:29:31.240
<v Speaker 2>accept that it might it might never happen.

0:29:31.320 --> 0:29:31.520
<v Speaker 1>Man.

0:29:31.640 --> 0:29:33.280
<v Speaker 2>But before you do that, before you accept that for you,

0:29:33.880 --> 0:29:36.120
<v Speaker 2>before you accept that that that that you may never

0:29:36.160 --> 0:29:38.640
<v Speaker 2>be seen in that way, just try appealing to her

0:29:38.720 --> 0:29:43.480
<v Speaker 2>on a on a on a on a different on

0:29:43.560 --> 0:29:47.840
<v Speaker 2>a different level than uh uh, you know, anger and aggression.

0:29:48.880 --> 0:29:52.640
<v Speaker 2>I think that's where you start. Of course, of course

0:29:52.680 --> 0:29:55.440
<v Speaker 2>it hasn't been fucking working. It's it's it's not a

0:29:55.440 --> 0:29:57.280
<v Speaker 2>good thing to do.

0:29:57.880 --> 0:30:00.520
<v Speaker 1>But why do we always human is always thing like

0:30:00.720 --> 0:30:04.600
<v Speaker 1>forest anger is like the way we can get things done.

0:30:04.680 --> 0:30:07.160
<v Speaker 1>Like it's never been the case like you know for

0:30:07.320 --> 0:30:08.760
<v Speaker 1>anybody in this world.

0:30:08.960 --> 0:30:13.080
<v Speaker 2>You know, did you did your father yell at you

0:30:13.120 --> 0:30:15.920
<v Speaker 2>a lot? Sorry? I know that's a thing more so.

0:30:16.000 --> 0:30:18.480
<v Speaker 1>My mom than my dad. Like, you know, it's different

0:30:19.000 --> 0:30:21.280
<v Speaker 1>type of thing. So I mean I also think that

0:30:21.400 --> 0:30:23.640
<v Speaker 1>might be like a mommy issue thing two going on

0:30:23.760 --> 0:30:26.320
<v Speaker 1>near it that that's not fully addressed, you know, I mean,

0:30:26.360 --> 0:30:29.600
<v Speaker 1>that's you know, we all live between the mom or

0:30:29.640 --> 0:30:36.000
<v Speaker 1>the daddy issue, you know, yeah.

0:30:35.000 --> 0:30:38.120
<v Speaker 2>Saints Sat. Sorry, I was about to end the call,

0:30:38.160 --> 0:30:40.800
<v Speaker 2>but I want to I'll let you finish.

0:30:40.880 --> 0:30:43.440
<v Speaker 1>Hell yeah, I mean I'm cool with that because I

0:30:43.720 --> 0:30:45.400
<v Speaker 1>just got to my ranch right now too. I got

0:30:45.400 --> 0:30:47.120
<v Speaker 1>to see the the sources real quick.

0:30:47.840 --> 0:30:52.800
<v Speaker 2>A ranch. Yeah you is that your You own a ranch?

0:30:54.200 --> 0:30:56.480
<v Speaker 1>Me and my girl, well like her and her family do,

0:30:56.600 --> 0:30:58.360
<v Speaker 1>but like we have a whole bunch of horses here.

0:30:59.000 --> 0:31:01.240
<v Speaker 2>Oh okay, all right, so you're literally yeah, no, you're

0:31:01.280 --> 0:31:06.760
<v Speaker 2>living the like you're very like traditional kind of thing,

0:31:07.040 --> 0:31:13.520
<v Speaker 2>like a farmer and his wife. Uh yeah, your phone

0:31:13.560 --> 0:31:16.840
<v Speaker 2>started sucking. Okay, I don't know what you just said,

0:31:16.880 --> 0:31:20.040
<v Speaker 2>but I'm gonna I'm gonna know how I I could

0:31:20.120 --> 0:31:25.200
<v Speaker 2>infer something what you said? Okay, do you think would

0:31:25.240 --> 0:31:26.680
<v Speaker 2>could I have fooled you that I was a real

0:31:26.720 --> 0:31:28.920
<v Speaker 2>therapist for.

0:31:28.880 --> 0:31:34.240
<v Speaker 1>Sure, because just like I mean, the advice and everything,

0:31:34.280 --> 0:31:36.000
<v Speaker 1>and gay was like pretty head on.

0:31:36.200 --> 0:31:40.480
<v Speaker 2>You know, I'm just I'm just I don't know what

0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:41.680
<v Speaker 2>I am. I'm high.

0:31:41.840 --> 0:31:44.200
<v Speaker 1>It's just a great lizard or I don't.

0:31:44.280 --> 0:31:47.360
<v Speaker 2>Usually I don't like to admit that I'm not high

0:31:47.360 --> 0:31:49.960
<v Speaker 2>on every single episode, but I'm high on this one.

0:31:51.440 --> 0:31:54.760
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, as you shared, Bro, I love he quit smoking

0:31:54.800 --> 0:31:58.320
<v Speaker 1>weed where this year. I've just kind of been smoking,

0:31:58.400 --> 0:32:01.440
<v Speaker 1>like you know, here and there. But shit got to

0:32:01.800 --> 0:32:03.040
<v Speaker 1>bra to make it through life.

0:32:04.680 --> 0:32:07.000
<v Speaker 2>No, I don't think that's what you just said. It

0:32:07.080 --> 0:32:12.120
<v Speaker 2>is not a good thing. I don't. I think I don't.

0:32:12.240 --> 0:32:15.440
<v Speaker 2>I mean I currently smoke weed to make it through life,

0:32:15.440 --> 0:32:18.880
<v Speaker 2>but I don't think that's healthy. I don't know. I

0:32:18.880 --> 0:32:21.440
<v Speaker 2>don't know anything about our stupid world anymore. Could you

0:32:21.440 --> 0:32:22.440
<v Speaker 2>say your name one more time?

0:32:22.480 --> 0:32:22.640
<v Speaker 4>Man?

0:32:22.720 --> 0:32:27.800
<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry. Oh Sat, Saint St Stan San Sat.

0:32:28.200 --> 0:32:30.000
<v Speaker 1>We got a lot more here in Vegas, Bro.

0:32:30.720 --> 0:32:36.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'll be there September twenty First Wise Guys Comedy Club.

0:32:37.200 --> 0:32:39.480
<v Speaker 1>Oh, that's like up the street from I got a

0:32:39.520 --> 0:32:42.680
<v Speaker 1>photo studio right up the street from Bear, so yeah,

0:32:42.840 --> 0:32:45.240
<v Speaker 1>we'll definitely pull up. I'm gonna bring over a lot

0:32:45.240 --> 0:32:46.040
<v Speaker 1>of the guys.

0:32:46.400 --> 0:32:48.040
<v Speaker 2>You have a photo studio.

0:32:48.920 --> 0:32:52.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we do photo videography. We actually are like work

0:32:53.040 --> 0:32:55.280
<v Speaker 1>with like a lot of higher artists like that.

0:32:55.840 --> 0:33:00.520
<v Speaker 2>And you're in a fucking photo studio and a ranch. Yeah,

0:33:00.560 --> 0:33:01.080
<v Speaker 2>who are you?

0:33:01.200 --> 0:33:01.400
<v Speaker 1>Man?

0:33:01.400 --> 0:33:03.880
<v Speaker 2>You're really and you buy and sell ship you're doing

0:33:04.000 --> 0:33:07.040
<v Speaker 2>You're doing good man, You're doing, and your fucking wife

0:33:07.040 --> 0:33:08.360
<v Speaker 2>owns a business. That's awesome.

0:33:09.520 --> 0:33:12.959
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Hey, we're gonna smoke the blue when you get here,

0:33:12.920 --> 0:33:14.719
<v Speaker 1>I'll show you around the city. You know, you can

0:33:14.720 --> 0:33:16.640
<v Speaker 1>pull up to the shop too. You know, we can

0:33:16.680 --> 0:33:20.080
<v Speaker 1>get some stuff going. So we got a screen priy

0:33:20.120 --> 0:33:21.840
<v Speaker 1>shot too. So if you need a lot of merch

0:33:21.840 --> 0:33:23.800
<v Speaker 1>start or whatever, you're out here, you can get that

0:33:23.880 --> 0:33:24.400
<v Speaker 1>done for you.

0:33:25.040 --> 0:33:28.320
<v Speaker 2>Okay, Man, I appreciate you. I appreciate you.

0:33:28.320 --> 0:33:30.280
<v Speaker 1>You got a friend of me now because you definitely

0:33:30.560 --> 0:33:32.640
<v Speaker 1>turn my good man.

0:33:32.800 --> 0:33:34.840
<v Speaker 2>I appreciate that, saying all all right, I'll try to

0:33:34.880 --> 0:33:37.360
<v Speaker 2>I'll try to hook up with you, and uh, you

0:33:37.400 --> 0:33:39.760
<v Speaker 2>know what, send me a send me a d M.

0:33:39.800 --> 0:33:43.080
<v Speaker 2>If you see, if you see after I announced my

0:33:43.120 --> 0:33:47.760
<v Speaker 2>tour dates on Vegas, if I might, you might DM

0:33:47.840 --> 0:33:49.480
<v Speaker 2>me and I might never look at it or respond

0:33:49.480 --> 0:33:54.000
<v Speaker 2>to it, but you also might. Yeah there's a chance this,

0:33:54.200 --> 0:33:55.320
<v Speaker 2>there's a chance it could happen.

0:33:55.440 --> 0:33:58.280
<v Speaker 1>But I'll be like, check your DMS.

0:33:58.320 --> 0:34:02.080
<v Speaker 2>That's that would get me, That would that would get

0:34:03.080 --> 0:34:03.400
<v Speaker 2>all right?

0:34:03.920 --> 0:34:06.160
<v Speaker 1>All right? Bet, I got you brother, Thank you, man,

0:34:06.240 --> 0:34:07.000
<v Speaker 1>you have a blessed fight.

0:34:07.360 --> 0:34:12.719
<v Speaker 2>Yeah you too, Man, take care all right? Bett? That

0:34:12.840 --> 0:34:16.400
<v Speaker 2>was Saint. I liked Saint. That's still just so funny.

0:34:16.600 --> 0:34:19.120
<v Speaker 2>Why would he say get a real job if he

0:34:19.239 --> 0:34:23.520
<v Speaker 2>thinks I have a real job. He just knows how

0:34:23.560 --> 0:34:29.120
<v Speaker 2>to he knows how to push my buttons, Saint, that'd

0:34:29.160 --> 0:34:33.200
<v Speaker 2>be cool. I'll go down there and hang out with

0:34:33.280 --> 0:34:37.920
<v Speaker 2>him and his ranch slash his his ranch slash, screen

0:34:37.960 --> 0:34:43.000
<v Speaker 2>printing shop slash, whatever the fuck thing.

0:34:44.719 --> 0:34:45.040
<v Speaker 1>That was?

0:34:45.080 --> 0:34:46.120
<v Speaker 2>That was? That was nice.

0:34:49.239 --> 0:34:53.120
<v Speaker 4>Hello, no way, man, no way?

0:34:54.520 --> 0:34:56.920
<v Speaker 5>Wait? Why is this you?

0:34:57.080 --> 0:34:57.319
<v Speaker 1>Dude?

0:34:57.840 --> 0:34:58.080
<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

0:34:58.120 --> 0:35:00.959
<v Speaker 2>What's up? Brother? What's your name? Oh? Man?

0:35:01.040 --> 0:35:01.360
<v Speaker 5>Brother?

0:35:01.840 --> 0:35:02.680
<v Speaker 4>Yo, I'm Rio.

0:35:02.840 --> 0:35:06.160
<v Speaker 5>My name is Rio all right, oh oh yo?

0:35:06.880 --> 0:35:09.200
<v Speaker 4>Oh dude, Yeah, yeah, dude, how are you?

0:35:10.160 --> 0:35:13.919
<v Speaker 2>I man, I'm doing pretty all right. I I feel

0:35:13.920 --> 0:35:15.799
<v Speaker 2>good today. I feel good about life. I feel good

0:35:15.800 --> 0:35:21.080
<v Speaker 2>about doing this. I know we've been on the phone

0:35:21.160 --> 0:35:24.200
<v Speaker 2>for like forty seconds, but you seem like you have

0:35:24.239 --> 0:35:27.120
<v Speaker 2>a nice energy. I'm excited to talk to you. Have

0:35:27.200 --> 0:35:28.520
<v Speaker 2>we spoken? Have we had there for?

0:35:29.800 --> 0:35:31.120
<v Speaker 5>We have not, Brother, we have not.

0:35:31.320 --> 0:35:34.880
<v Speaker 4>Man. I've been a Yeah, I've been a caller since probably,

0:35:34.960 --> 0:35:37.440
<v Speaker 4>I mean I've been a listener since I got to say.

0:35:37.239 --> 0:35:39.720
<v Speaker 5>Twenty twenty two and cool.

0:35:39.920 --> 0:35:42.120
<v Speaker 4>You know, I've tried on occasion, I've tried to tried

0:35:42.120 --> 0:35:43.920
<v Speaker 4>to call in. But you know, you just got you

0:35:44.440 --> 0:35:46.200
<v Speaker 4>You've done You've done a lot of great things within

0:35:46.280 --> 0:35:49.319
<v Speaker 4>the last five to six years. Man, I've just it's

0:35:49.360 --> 0:35:52.200
<v Speaker 4>it's great. It's great seeing you just do what you do. Man,

0:35:52.400 --> 0:35:54.799
<v Speaker 4>I just want to say real quick, you're uh, you're

0:35:54.840 --> 0:35:58.120
<v Speaker 4>walking across the pan video that you you know, you

0:35:58.200 --> 0:36:00.320
<v Speaker 4>put out a couple couple of weeks back, you a

0:36:00.360 --> 0:36:03.520
<v Speaker 4>couple of months back. Man, it just it really hit

0:36:03.600 --> 0:36:06.799
<v Speaker 4>me in a certain I mean just it's just there's

0:36:06.840 --> 0:36:09.080
<v Speaker 4>a lot of resonation. Man, it resonated a lot, you know,

0:36:09.239 --> 0:36:10.680
<v Speaker 4>a lot of resons my bad.

0:36:10.880 --> 0:36:12.719
<v Speaker 2>Uh, yeah, thanks, I'm sorry.

0:36:13.680 --> 0:36:14.759
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I'm just.

0:36:17.200 --> 0:36:19.759
<v Speaker 2>Man, you don't have a thing we said. Sorry about

0:36:19.800 --> 0:36:26.160
<v Speaker 2>it all. Man, I'm no. I I'm glad that that well, yeah,

0:36:26.160 --> 0:36:29.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm I'm happy that that video is resonating with people.

0:36:30.360 --> 0:36:30.600
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:36:31.120 --> 0:36:35.800
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean, I mean you and I. You and

0:36:35.840 --> 0:36:36.920
<v Speaker 4>I are really just a couple.

0:36:37.600 --> 0:36:39.279
<v Speaker 5>You and I are really just too dudes. Man, We're

0:36:39.320 --> 0:36:39.960
<v Speaker 5>just two dudes.

0:36:40.200 --> 0:36:43.279
<v Speaker 4>Uh, just surrounded by a bunch of other dudes and

0:36:43.600 --> 0:36:46.439
<v Speaker 4>and and other you know, dude deads girls. Just we're

0:36:46.480 --> 0:36:49.160
<v Speaker 4>just two people, man, just you know, we you know,

0:36:49.200 --> 0:36:51.280
<v Speaker 4>we're just dealing with the same ship that other people

0:36:51.320 --> 0:36:53.680
<v Speaker 4>around us are dealing with. And I mean I remember

0:36:53.719 --> 0:36:56.200
<v Speaker 4>one of your one of your just another one of

0:36:56.239 --> 0:36:59.479
<v Speaker 4>your videos, you know, just calling the guys talking about

0:36:59.520 --> 0:37:02.319
<v Speaker 4>his issue and something you really said that you know,

0:37:02.400 --> 0:37:04.680
<v Speaker 4>it's you know, just a lot of you know, I'm

0:37:04.719 --> 0:37:06.400
<v Speaker 4>just I'm trying to do my best to apply as

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<v Speaker 4>much as I can U just from everybody I encounter.

0:37:09.880 --> 0:37:11.560
<v Speaker 4>But you know, you just say, sometimes you just got

0:37:11.640 --> 0:37:13.759
<v Speaker 4>to do stuff. Sometimes you just got to get up

0:37:13.760 --> 0:37:18.560
<v Speaker 4>and do stuff. And I'm like, I I was like,

0:37:18.600 --> 0:37:21.880
<v Speaker 4>fuck man, yeah, I'm like, screw all this, you know. Oh,

0:37:22.000 --> 0:37:23.360
<v Speaker 4>let me get my you know, let me get my

0:37:23.440 --> 0:37:26.120
<v Speaker 4>diet right, let me get my sleep schedule right before

0:37:26.160 --> 0:37:28.080
<v Speaker 4>I can really start going to the gym or going

0:37:28.160 --> 0:37:30.040
<v Speaker 4>to the park and just going on walks and.

0:37:30.160 --> 0:37:31.000
<v Speaker 5>Just like fuck that.

0:37:31.239 --> 0:37:34.680
<v Speaker 4>Just just do stuff, man, you know everybody you know,

0:37:34.760 --> 0:37:37.680
<v Speaker 4>I my I do, I got too much of all

0:37:37.760 --> 0:37:39.080
<v Speaker 4>or nothing mindset.

0:37:39.000 --> 0:37:41.839
<v Speaker 5>You know what I mean. Just just do it, man.

0:37:42.320 --> 0:37:43.880
<v Speaker 4>Just sometimes you just got to do stuff to get

0:37:43.920 --> 0:37:47.160
<v Speaker 4>yourself out of that funk. And yeah, man, I just

0:37:47.360 --> 0:37:49.400
<v Speaker 4>you know, you're just a great guy, dude. I I

0:37:49.400 --> 0:37:50.320
<v Speaker 4>I can't I really.

0:37:50.200 --> 0:37:51.799
<v Speaker 2>Can't believe I'm actually calling you right now.

0:37:51.840 --> 0:37:52.040
<v Speaker 1>Man.

0:37:53.239 --> 0:37:55.799
<v Speaker 4>I do just want to say it's a What time

0:37:55.840 --> 0:37:56.879
<v Speaker 4>is it where you're at right now?

0:37:58.040 --> 0:38:01.960
<v Speaker 2>It's about eight pm? Wh oh wow.

0:38:03.719 --> 0:38:07.920
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I just it's about six It's about six twenty

0:38:08.080 --> 0:38:10.360
<v Speaker 4>something over I'm out in Phoenix, Arizona.

0:38:10.400 --> 0:38:10.520
<v Speaker 1>Man.

0:38:10.560 --> 0:38:12.960
<v Speaker 4>Shout out six oh two. You're a six oh two listener,

0:38:13.680 --> 0:38:17.520
<v Speaker 4>shout out, shut out, Phoenix, Arizona Man. I yeah, it's

0:38:17.560 --> 0:38:19.920
<v Speaker 4>about like six thirty right now. Man, I'm I'm kind

0:38:19.920 --> 0:38:22.879
<v Speaker 4>of at work right now, and oh my gosh, dude,

0:38:22.920 --> 0:38:24.480
<v Speaker 4>I just can't believe. Oh my gosh.

0:38:25.239 --> 0:38:26.120
<v Speaker 5>Well, you know, I.

0:38:26.360 --> 0:38:30.840
<v Speaker 2>I I'll say, I'll say a few things. It's funny

0:38:31.480 --> 0:38:33.719
<v Speaker 2>what you're saying to me, because, uh, I mean, for

0:38:33.719 --> 0:38:36.120
<v Speaker 2>those for anyone who doesn't know. I made this video

0:38:36.200 --> 0:38:41.400
<v Speaker 2>where I walked like through like the Japanese countryside and

0:38:41.440 --> 0:38:44.040
<v Speaker 2>I was kind of talking about like depression and this

0:38:44.239 --> 0:38:47.600
<v Speaker 2>existential crisis that I was having at the time, and

0:38:47.920 --> 0:38:50.840
<v Speaker 2>uh that that eccidential questionis was really real. It was

0:38:51.000 --> 0:38:54.719
<v Speaker 2>really really real, and the depression was really real, and

0:38:55.400 --> 0:39:00.680
<v Speaker 2>I feel so much better. I fuck, I took that

0:39:00.719 --> 0:39:02.799
<v Speaker 2>walk a year ago almost damn. I mean, the video

0:39:02.840 --> 0:39:04.680
<v Speaker 2>came out in May, but I took that walk about

0:39:04.680 --> 0:39:09.080
<v Speaker 2>a year ago, and I feel so much better since then.

0:39:09.160 --> 0:39:12.480
<v Speaker 2>And the main reason, I one of the main reasons

0:39:12.560 --> 0:39:14.520
<v Speaker 2>I think I feel so much better is because I've been,

0:39:14.760 --> 0:39:19.280
<v Speaker 2>uh just just busier. I've been busier. I've been trying

0:39:19.320 --> 0:39:23.440
<v Speaker 2>to be a part of a community. I've been making

0:39:23.480 --> 0:39:27.160
<v Speaker 2>these uh these videos that I'm really enjoying doing, and

0:39:27.200 --> 0:39:30.480
<v Speaker 2>I you know, so it's it's interesting that that's what

0:39:30.520 --> 0:39:36.400
<v Speaker 2>you gleaned because that's uh definitely been my my my,

0:39:36.400 --> 0:39:40.800
<v Speaker 2>my findings. But Rio, I have a question for you.

0:39:40.840 --> 0:39:42.120
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if you have time to talk. You

0:39:42.200 --> 0:39:45.160
<v Speaker 2>sound like you're If you have time to talk to great,

0:39:45.480 --> 0:39:48.120
<v Speaker 2>but let me let me let me ask youe this

0:39:50.640 --> 0:39:52.680
<v Speaker 2>It's okay. If not, I'm sure we can find our

0:39:52.719 --> 0:39:56.560
<v Speaker 2>way into a conversation of some sorts. But uh, do

0:39:56.600 --> 0:39:58.920
<v Speaker 2>you was there something specific you called in to want

0:39:58.960 --> 0:39:59.439
<v Speaker 2>to talk about?

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<v Speaker 4>Not really, man, I kind of just you know, I

0:40:03.920 --> 0:40:06.880
<v Speaker 4>was on a little fifteen minute break. I go on Instagram,

0:40:07.000 --> 0:40:09.759
<v Speaker 4>like the many times I do, and I saw you

0:40:09.800 --> 0:40:11.840
<v Speaker 4>were calling and I was like, I saw, I noticed

0:40:11.840 --> 0:40:14.120
<v Speaker 4>you posted it not even seventeen seconds ago when I

0:40:14.120 --> 0:40:16.160
<v Speaker 4>saw it, so I was like, if there's time to

0:40:16.640 --> 0:40:18.439
<v Speaker 4>there's a time to roll the dice, I might as well.

0:40:18.480 --> 0:40:21.040
<v Speaker 4>And look, Wi, I just wanted to say, man, you're

0:40:21.120 --> 0:40:22.520
<v Speaker 4>just You're one.

0:40:22.440 --> 0:40:25.080
<v Speaker 5>Of the very few people who so within.

0:40:24.920 --> 0:40:26.959
<v Speaker 1>The last couple of years, just.

0:40:26.880 --> 0:40:28.799
<v Speaker 4>Within the last year. In March, it'll be a year

0:40:28.840 --> 0:40:31.439
<v Speaker 4>since I just dropped out of uh, since I dropped

0:40:31.440 --> 0:40:34.359
<v Speaker 4>out of college, man, and uh, I've honestly felt the

0:40:34.360 --> 0:40:36.840
<v Speaker 4>most free I ever have felt. And just I that

0:40:36.960 --> 0:40:38.520
<v Speaker 4>was around the time you and you know, you know,

0:40:39.320 --> 0:40:41.200
<v Speaker 4>you had made that one of you you had posted

0:40:41.239 --> 0:40:43.719
<v Speaker 4>a video just calling another guy and you had said

0:40:43.719 --> 0:40:46.000
<v Speaker 4>sometimes you just got to do stuff and yeah, anyway,

0:40:46.840 --> 0:40:48.400
<v Speaker 4>I just wanted to say, man, you know, I I

0:40:48.640 --> 0:40:51.200
<v Speaker 4>you know, I've had a I've one aided my life

0:40:51.200 --> 0:40:53.759
<v Speaker 4>in certain ways where I just, you know, I just

0:40:53.800 --> 0:40:56.360
<v Speaker 4>had to relearn a lot of things. And it doesn't

0:40:56.360 --> 0:40:58.440
<v Speaker 4>help being I'm twenty I just turned twenty one a

0:40:58.480 --> 0:41:00.359
<v Speaker 4>couple of weeks ago, so I'm I'm really young. Man.

0:41:00.400 --> 0:41:03.560
<v Speaker 4>I've grown up with nothing but computers and internets and

0:41:03.600 --> 0:41:06.040
<v Speaker 4>phones and ships. So I really have to I just

0:41:06.080 --> 0:41:07.239
<v Speaker 4>have to learn to live without that.

0:41:07.280 --> 0:41:07.440
<v Speaker 1>Man.

0:41:07.520 --> 0:41:10.120
<v Speaker 4>I'm making a conscious effort to live without that stuff.

0:41:10.160 --> 0:41:12.880
<v Speaker 4>And the reason I'm going to that, man, is because

0:41:13.360 --> 0:41:17.080
<v Speaker 4>the the very few times, you're one of the very

0:41:17.080 --> 0:41:20.120
<v Speaker 4>few people who I've come across on the Internet who

0:41:20.160 --> 0:41:24.520
<v Speaker 4>has a very large and growing platform who actually feels

0:41:24.560 --> 0:41:28.120
<v Speaker 4>like a real person. You're one of the few people

0:41:28.320 --> 0:41:30.360
<v Speaker 4>on you know, you're one of the few people with

0:41:30.440 --> 0:41:33.840
<v Speaker 4>the platform that I come across that just you actually

0:41:33.840 --> 0:41:38.839
<v Speaker 4>feel like if somebody like, yeah, you really you really

0:41:38.880 --> 0:41:42.439
<v Speaker 4>represent just what what a person is, man, You really

0:41:42.440 --> 0:41:45.400
<v Speaker 4>represent what it is to be just a human.

0:41:45.840 --> 0:41:48.279
<v Speaker 5>Just you know that.

0:41:48.480 --> 0:41:50.560
<v Speaker 4>And and I think a lot of people I don't.

0:41:50.560 --> 0:41:53.000
<v Speaker 4>I don't really feel the need to elaborate, and I

0:41:53.000 --> 0:41:53.520
<v Speaker 4>feel like a lot.

0:41:53.480 --> 0:41:56.319
<v Speaker 2>Of go ahead, Well, can I ask you this? So

0:41:57.600 --> 0:42:02.640
<v Speaker 2>you've made a conscious decision to uh get rid of

0:42:02.680 --> 0:42:07.239
<v Speaker 2>tech and phones and and uh all this stuff. It's

0:42:07.560 --> 0:42:10.080
<v Speaker 2>I think there is something going on, and it might

0:42:10.120 --> 0:42:12.640
<v Speaker 2>be a little fringe of movement, but it's a fringe

0:42:12.680 --> 0:42:17.480
<v Speaker 2>but growing movement of people, uh kind of rejecting the

0:42:18.440 --> 0:42:21.400
<v Speaker 2>tech crazy landscape that we're in. So I want to

0:42:21.440 --> 0:42:31.400
<v Speaker 2>know what was the catalyst for you of taking this

0:42:31.400 --> 0:42:34.839
<v Speaker 2>this this this shift, and then how's it been gone?

0:42:38.600 --> 0:42:41.880
<v Speaker 4>I just do you know, the dude, who plays the punisher,

0:42:42.320 --> 0:42:43.560
<v Speaker 4>the dude to what's his fun?

0:42:43.640 --> 0:42:44.200
<v Speaker 1>What's his name?

0:42:44.280 --> 0:42:47.439
<v Speaker 4>Like, like, I am not drawing a blank o name, Yeah,

0:42:47.520 --> 0:42:48.600
<v Speaker 4>John burnhal.

0:42:48.520 --> 0:42:49.960
<v Speaker 5>He he he hates naps.

0:42:49.960 --> 0:42:52.080
<v Speaker 4>He's like they're There are multiple videos of him talking

0:42:52.080 --> 0:42:54.360
<v Speaker 4>about how much he hates naps, and I feel like

0:42:54.440 --> 0:42:55.800
<v Speaker 4>spending hours and hours.

0:42:56.080 --> 0:42:57.080
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, he hates naps.

0:42:57.280 --> 0:43:02.200
<v Speaker 2>And one of the justifications earth, Yeah, he says, why

0:43:02.200 --> 0:43:04.200
<v Speaker 2>does he Why does he hate naps?

0:43:04.920 --> 0:43:07.200
<v Speaker 4>One of his justifications And I can understand this to

0:43:07.239 --> 0:43:09.440
<v Speaker 4>an extent is he's basically saying, the whole world is

0:43:09.480 --> 0:43:11.680
<v Speaker 4>moving while you're sleeping at while you're taking a nap

0:43:11.719 --> 0:43:14.600
<v Speaker 4>at three pm. And you know, I can to an extent,

0:43:14.680 --> 0:43:17.239
<v Speaker 4>I understand that, brother, But I guess my point is

0:43:17.320 --> 0:43:21.799
<v Speaker 4>I feel I that it's I applied that to just

0:43:21.840 --> 0:43:24.480
<v Speaker 4>doom scrolling and spending time on the phone on the internet,

0:43:24.640 --> 0:43:27.440
<v Speaker 4>whether it be to just you know, pointless scrolling, or

0:43:28.000 --> 0:43:31.319
<v Speaker 4>it just just spending time on the internet just being

0:43:31.320 --> 0:43:36.000
<v Speaker 4>immersed in that world when reality is just going outside

0:43:36.000 --> 0:43:39.239
<v Speaker 4>and looking at the sun and listening to all the

0:43:39.239 --> 0:43:42.280
<v Speaker 4>different birds chirping and you know, saying hey to whoever's

0:43:42.320 --> 0:43:44.719
<v Speaker 4>walking their dogs across the sidewalk.

0:43:44.719 --> 0:43:45.920
<v Speaker 5>Outside of you, you know what I mean?

0:43:46.239 --> 0:43:49.359
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I know. Here's the thing is, uh, I don't

0:43:49.360 --> 0:43:51.640
<v Speaker 2>think that should apply to naps. And I'm gonna tell

0:43:51.640 --> 0:43:56.560
<v Speaker 2>you why. Is because what I hate about scrolling is

0:43:56.600 --> 0:44:03.000
<v Speaker 2>that you you can you can just kind of like

0:44:03.920 --> 0:44:07.480
<v Speaker 2>find yourself scrolling, you know what I mean. You can

0:44:07.640 --> 0:44:12.480
<v Speaker 2>just be like it's so uh, like it's just your

0:44:12.680 --> 0:44:15.319
<v Speaker 2>habit for you to just pull out TikTok and like

0:44:15.400 --> 0:44:18.680
<v Speaker 2>before you even know it, you've spent all this time scrolling.

0:44:19.080 --> 0:44:20.759
<v Speaker 2>But it's funny because you can also do that with

0:44:20.800 --> 0:44:25.040
<v Speaker 2>a nap. You can find yourself napping as well. But

0:44:25.239 --> 0:44:26.960
<v Speaker 2>if you it's all about intention. I think it's all

0:44:26.960 --> 0:44:30.640
<v Speaker 2>about intention. That's what I hate. I hate when I

0:44:29.960 --> 0:44:32.960
<v Speaker 2>I hate when like the phone like steals time away

0:44:32.960 --> 0:44:34.680
<v Speaker 2>from me that I didn't give it. Like if I

0:44:34.719 --> 0:44:37.759
<v Speaker 2>sit down to watch a movie or or play a

0:44:37.840 --> 0:44:42.960
<v Speaker 2>video game or something, and the time is like I'm

0:44:43.040 --> 0:44:46.600
<v Speaker 2>choosing to spend my time doing this or choosing to

0:44:46.600 --> 0:44:49.160
<v Speaker 2>be with certain people. That's I think like it's it's

0:44:49.160 --> 0:44:53.520
<v Speaker 2>about the intention more so than it is about the

0:44:53.520 --> 0:44:56.520
<v Speaker 2>the activity itself. And typically we were kind of engineered

0:44:56.600 --> 0:45:00.600
<v Speaker 2>so that you find yourself just scrolling on this What

0:45:00.920 --> 0:45:01.880
<v Speaker 2>have you been doing instead?

0:45:03.480 --> 0:45:05.960
<v Speaker 4>Man, I've just been just reading more, man, just picking

0:45:06.000 --> 0:45:08.399
<v Speaker 4>up books for just the sake of doing it. Man,

0:45:08.440 --> 0:45:10.799
<v Speaker 4>I have you know, It's funny. I was never the

0:45:10.840 --> 0:45:13.200
<v Speaker 4>best student growing up, but I just you know, I've

0:45:13.200 --> 0:45:15.200
<v Speaker 4>collected a bunch of books that I've had just over

0:45:15.280 --> 0:45:19.360
<v Speaker 4>time in school and just have encountered and just you know,

0:45:19.680 --> 0:45:21.600
<v Speaker 4>friends tell me about this book and whatever.

0:45:21.680 --> 0:45:23.560
<v Speaker 5>Man. So I've just been reading a lot more.

0:45:24.040 --> 0:45:24.560
<v Speaker 2>What are you reading?

0:45:26.920 --> 0:45:30.279
<v Speaker 4>I found a book at this antique store many months

0:45:30.280 --> 0:45:33.319
<v Speaker 4>ago I want to stay around may or June, and

0:45:33.719 --> 0:45:36.880
<v Speaker 4>it was by this man called Oh it's by this

0:45:36.960 --> 0:45:38.719
<v Speaker 4>man whose name was William H.

0:45:38.960 --> 0:45:39.560
<v Speaker 5>Dan Firth.

0:45:40.200 --> 0:45:42.440
<v Speaker 4>It is called the book is called I Dare You,

0:45:42.880 --> 0:45:46.440
<v Speaker 4>And it's the book is essentially him sitting at one

0:45:46.520 --> 0:45:48.319
<v Speaker 4>end of the table and you're on the other end

0:45:48.320 --> 0:45:50.759
<v Speaker 4>of the table, and he's saying, there are things that

0:45:50.920 --> 0:45:54.560
<v Speaker 4>you want to do, but for some reason you're too

0:45:54.560 --> 0:45:57.319
<v Speaker 4>scared to do them. You feel that the time isn't right.

0:45:57.360 --> 0:45:58.799
<v Speaker 4>And he's saying, I dare you too.

0:45:59.280 --> 0:45:59.960
<v Speaker 5>I dare you to do it.

0:46:00.239 --> 0:46:03.480
<v Speaker 4>I dare you to live in every way I live.

0:46:03.680 --> 0:46:06.640
<v Speaker 5>I I dare you to go through with all the things.

0:46:06.360 --> 0:46:10.279
<v Speaker 4>That just just scare you, you know, all the things

0:46:10.280 --> 0:46:12.080
<v Speaker 4>that you're putting on hold because you got to do

0:46:12.440 --> 0:46:14.560
<v Speaker 4>you know, X, Y and C. First, you know, it's

0:46:14.600 --> 0:46:17.839
<v Speaker 4>it's it. If it wasn't, if it wasn't tying into

0:46:17.920 --> 0:46:20.239
<v Speaker 4>everything that you were talking about. You know, I don't

0:46:20.280 --> 0:46:20.560
<v Speaker 4>know what.

0:46:20.760 --> 0:46:22.560
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what I was being told at that time,

0:46:22.719 --> 0:46:23.640
<v Speaker 1>or you know what I mean.

0:46:24.200 --> 0:46:29.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well I believe that. I believe that. I believe

0:46:29.960 --> 0:46:32.880
<v Speaker 2>that to an extent for sure. What what do you

0:46:32.920 --> 0:46:34.000
<v Speaker 2>feel like you're putting off?

0:46:37.160 --> 0:46:41.480
<v Speaker 4>Well, I've just always you know, I think I'm just

0:46:41.520 --> 0:46:47.640
<v Speaker 4>putting off certain certain heart you know, just certain things

0:46:47.640 --> 0:46:51.440
<v Speaker 4>that I know are difficult, and well let me let me,

0:46:51.560 --> 0:46:52.920
<v Speaker 4>let me be a little more, let me be a

0:46:52.920 --> 0:46:55.920
<v Speaker 4>little more honest. Is that I've I haven't had much

0:46:57.040 --> 0:47:01.239
<v Speaker 4>these past this past these past six months have been

0:47:01.440 --> 0:47:03.840
<v Speaker 4>some very pivotal six months. And that's just because I've

0:47:04.160 --> 0:47:07.759
<v Speaker 4>given myself the time to just go to the BLOrk

0:47:07.880 --> 0:47:11.240
<v Speaker 4>and just you know, go walking, to just read books,

0:47:11.320 --> 0:47:13.920
<v Speaker 4>to just write. I mean, dude, if I had if

0:47:13.920 --> 0:47:15.040
<v Speaker 4>I wasn't able to park.

0:47:15.120 --> 0:47:19.680
<v Speaker 2>Well, so are are you? Are you putting what do

0:47:19.719 --> 0:47:24.040
<v Speaker 2>you what do you feel like you're putting off right now,

0:47:24.960 --> 0:47:25.359
<v Speaker 2>right now.

0:47:25.480 --> 0:47:27.960
<v Speaker 4>If I have to just look at where I am

0:47:28.000 --> 0:47:30.200
<v Speaker 4>currently at right now in my life, i'd say I

0:47:30.239 --> 0:47:44.480
<v Speaker 4>am putting off. Hmmmm, I'd say I'm putting off. Yeah,

0:47:44.600 --> 0:47:49.000
<v Speaker 4>I honestly just you said this earlier and and it

0:47:49.080 --> 0:47:51.600
<v Speaker 4>really it stuck with me. It's just I think I'm

0:47:51.600 --> 0:47:55.960
<v Speaker 4>putting off really just kind of going out and developing

0:47:55.960 --> 0:47:58.560
<v Speaker 4>a community of my own and and and you know,

0:47:59.160 --> 0:48:02.040
<v Speaker 4>in one way, justin to just yeah, just being a

0:48:02.120 --> 0:48:04.640
<v Speaker 4>little more social. I'm I'm very I've always really been

0:48:04.640 --> 0:48:05.200
<v Speaker 4>to myself.

0:48:05.280 --> 0:48:06.000
<v Speaker 5>I've never been.

0:48:08.120 --> 0:48:11.520
<v Speaker 4>I guess I I've gotten used. I've gotten really used

0:48:11.520 --> 0:48:12.319
<v Speaker 4>and comfortable to.

0:48:14.600 --> 0:48:16.000
<v Speaker 5>Being yeah, yeah, just being.

0:48:16.080 --> 0:48:18.840
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, I got myself.

0:48:19.280 --> 0:48:20.200
<v Speaker 2>Are you in college?

0:48:21.600 --> 0:48:21.880
<v Speaker 5>No?

0:48:21.880 --> 0:48:24.160
<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, no, I dropped out in March. It'll be a

0:48:24.200 --> 0:48:25.200
<v Speaker 4>year since I dropped out.

0:48:25.360 --> 0:48:27.320
<v Speaker 2>And oh yes, I'm sorry. I'm sorry you mentioned that,

0:48:27.360 --> 0:48:27.840
<v Speaker 2>you mentioned that.

0:48:28.520 --> 0:48:30.359
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, no, I'm not at school, man, I just uh

0:48:30.640 --> 0:48:31.680
<v Speaker 4>right now, I'm working at a.

0:48:31.680 --> 0:48:35.120
<v Speaker 5>Sprouts farmer's market. It's been two years this month.

0:48:35.920 --> 0:48:40.279
<v Speaker 4>And the most like, the most socializing I do is

0:48:40.600 --> 0:48:44.399
<v Speaker 4>when I'm not working, I'm always at my nearby, my

0:48:44.400 --> 0:48:48.040
<v Speaker 4>my closest park and just playing basketball there. I'm going

0:48:48.040 --> 0:48:51.239
<v Speaker 4>there from usually six pm to eight pm. And yeah,

0:48:51.320 --> 0:48:52.840
<v Speaker 4>so you know, I you know, that's that's what I

0:48:52.960 --> 0:48:54.400
<v Speaker 4>that's what I've been doing for that.

0:48:54.480 --> 0:48:55.400
<v Speaker 5>That's great, you know, just a.

0:48:55.440 --> 0:48:57.560
<v Speaker 2>Way to way to Yeah, it's a great way to

0:48:57.600 --> 0:48:59.960
<v Speaker 2>stay fit. And you also, fucking I'm sure you meet

0:49:00.520 --> 0:49:02.760
<v Speaker 2>people who are going to the courts pretty often.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean, yeah, we're all boys, you know. You know,

0:49:05.200 --> 0:49:07.960
<v Speaker 4>after you know, after seeing the same group of guys

0:49:08.000 --> 0:49:09.880
<v Speaker 4>for you know, a couple of weeks straight, you know,

0:49:09.920 --> 0:49:11.480
<v Speaker 4>you just kind of you know, you get some know

0:49:11.560 --> 0:49:14.040
<v Speaker 4>their names and just it's just you know, just dudes

0:49:14.040 --> 0:49:16.480
<v Speaker 4>being dudes, man, And it ain't you know, it's it's

0:49:16.480 --> 0:49:18.560
<v Speaker 4>really no, it's it's not. It's never been an issue

0:49:18.560 --> 0:49:21.279
<v Speaker 4>for me to just be an elevator with a couple

0:49:21.280 --> 0:49:23.040
<v Speaker 4>of dudes and you know, make small talk and be

0:49:23.239 --> 0:49:26.240
<v Speaker 4>be cool with anybody. It's never been an issue, man, women, child,

0:49:26.680 --> 0:49:28.920
<v Speaker 4>It's always been an easy time to just you know,

0:49:29.040 --> 0:49:32.360
<v Speaker 4>talk to people and just kind of just be just

0:49:32.440 --> 0:49:34.240
<v Speaker 4>be able to you know, just be received.

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<v Speaker 1>Well.

0:49:34.560 --> 0:49:38.920
<v Speaker 4>You know, uh, I've I have, I've been on the

0:49:38.960 --> 0:49:42.560
<v Speaker 4>Standoffer's side too. And it's funny that really came off

0:49:42.560 --> 0:49:45.960
<v Speaker 4>within the last couple of years. And that's just because

0:49:46.160 --> 0:49:47.839
<v Speaker 4>I don't know, I can't I can't really say I.

0:49:47.800 --> 0:49:48.680
<v Speaker 5>Was surrounded by.

0:49:50.239 --> 0:49:51.840
<v Speaker 4>Did you ever feel like growing up a lot of

0:49:51.840 --> 0:49:53.920
<v Speaker 4>friendships were just conditional?

0:49:57.239 --> 0:50:01.000
<v Speaker 2>Well, inherently they kind of are when you're growing up, right,

0:50:01.120 --> 0:50:04.960
<v Speaker 2>because if you're on the bus, you just are friends

0:50:04.960 --> 0:50:08.320
<v Speaker 2>with whoever else is on the bus, you know. But I,

0:50:09.040 --> 0:50:12.880
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I got I got lucky because my friends

0:50:12.880 --> 0:50:15.279
<v Speaker 2>and I we all kind of like grew up and

0:50:15.400 --> 0:50:22.520
<v Speaker 2>developed a similar sensibilities together, and and and you know,

0:50:22.760 --> 0:50:29.400
<v Speaker 2>histories and whatnot. It is. I guess you sound like

0:50:29.480 --> 0:50:32.520
<v Speaker 2>when you say conditionally, you're referring to some specific feeling.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, yeah, yeah, I guess I mean for you know,

0:50:37.400 --> 0:50:39.120
<v Speaker 4>I guess the example I was going to is, you

0:50:39.120 --> 0:50:42.319
<v Speaker 4>know I did formative years is growing up as a

0:50:42.360 --> 0:50:47.440
<v Speaker 4>younger man. I just uh, you know, I played sports.

0:50:47.480 --> 0:50:49.600
<v Speaker 4>But you know, when you're not really good at them,

0:50:49.800 --> 0:50:51.640
<v Speaker 4>you are you are more or less an odd man

0:50:51.680 --> 0:50:53.719
<v Speaker 4>out when when it comes to at least just being

0:50:53.760 --> 0:50:55.719
<v Speaker 4>on team fuck it, whether you're at recess, you know,

0:50:56.040 --> 0:50:58.680
<v Speaker 4>if you're not good, you're not you know, you're excluded.

0:50:59.120 --> 0:51:01.239
<v Speaker 4>If you're not good at this sport. If you're not

0:51:01.360 --> 0:51:03.080
<v Speaker 4>funny or if you're not you know, if you don't

0:51:03.440 --> 0:51:05.000
<v Speaker 4>you know, it was conditional.

0:51:05.440 --> 0:51:08.000
<v Speaker 2>I see you mean yeah, okay, yeah, okay, that makes

0:51:08.040 --> 0:51:08.439
<v Speaker 2>more sense.

0:51:08.560 --> 0:51:10.719
<v Speaker 4>That makes more sense, dude, even even I mean even

0:51:10.800 --> 0:51:11.600
<v Speaker 4>especially growing up.

0:51:11.600 --> 0:51:13.920
<v Speaker 5>I I you know, during the you know, in the two.

0:51:13.800 --> 0:51:16.040
<v Speaker 4>Thousand and ten, even if you didn't have a phone,

0:51:16.160 --> 0:51:20.080
<v Speaker 4>you were just left out to an extent. I mean,

0:51:20.320 --> 0:51:22.120
<v Speaker 4>you know, I feel like growing up and this is

0:51:22.320 --> 0:51:23.960
<v Speaker 4>you know, this is certainly for me at least. I know,

0:51:24.000 --> 0:51:27.759
<v Speaker 4>I can't speak for all the other billion people and

0:51:27.920 --> 0:51:29.680
<v Speaker 4>you know, in the world, but you know, there's just

0:51:29.840 --> 0:51:32.320
<v Speaker 4>you know, it's just a there there have been mass

0:51:32.360 --> 0:51:38.520
<v Speaker 4>waves of just so yeah, just comparison and comparison kills personality,

0:51:38.640 --> 0:51:41.920
<v Speaker 4>and there's just it's she asked me. It's just there's

0:51:42.239 --> 0:51:45.920
<v Speaker 4>a lot of that was just you know, just coming in,

0:51:46.880 --> 0:51:49.279
<v Speaker 4>just coming in low and truckloads just you know, with

0:51:49.360 --> 0:51:51.600
<v Speaker 4>the rise of social media and as every kid just

0:51:51.640 --> 0:51:54.040
<v Speaker 4>started having a phone, it was kind of you know,

0:51:55.160 --> 0:51:58.520
<v Speaker 4>people just became less personal.

0:51:59.880 --> 0:52:06.879
<v Speaker 2>Hm hm hm hm rio real real rio hm hmm.

0:52:12.640 --> 0:52:15.720
<v Speaker 2>I think that you have a good hunch to try

0:52:15.760 --> 0:52:21.440
<v Speaker 2>and remain connected, but don't. Don't people do? People do

0:52:21.480 --> 0:52:26.520
<v Speaker 2>this all the time, and I I try not to

0:52:27.400 --> 0:52:29.080
<v Speaker 2>like the idea. I don't know if you still believe this.

0:52:29.560 --> 0:52:33.560
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if you still believe that relationships are conditional.

0:52:34.440 --> 0:52:38.960
<v Speaker 2>But try not to hold onto that idea too tightly,

0:52:39.520 --> 0:52:46.120
<v Speaker 2>because I I I often find that you kind of

0:52:46.120 --> 0:52:51.799
<v Speaker 2>find whatever you're looking for. So if you view the

0:52:51.960 --> 0:52:58.080
<v Speaker 2>world as like inherently I mean, I mean, the world

0:52:58.160 --> 0:53:00.480
<v Speaker 2>is well, I mean the world is an inherently I

0:53:00.480 --> 0:53:04.839
<v Speaker 2>guess conditional, but like just what just just just try

0:53:04.880 --> 0:53:07.520
<v Speaker 2>not to be too on guard, you know what I'm saying, Like,

0:53:07.520 --> 0:53:09.839
<v Speaker 2>like if you're because if you're because if you're, if

0:53:09.840 --> 0:53:12.560
<v Speaker 2>you're so afraid of being like taking advantage of then

0:53:12.680 --> 0:53:16.200
<v Speaker 2>you're just not going to be like open when the

0:53:16.400 --> 0:53:20.000
<v Speaker 2>opportunity presents itself for you to be there, you know.

0:53:20.120 --> 0:53:22.799
<v Speaker 2>But I think I think you're by going to the

0:53:22.800 --> 0:53:27.480
<v Speaker 2>fucking uh uh basketball court and just like trying to

0:53:27.480 --> 0:53:31.000
<v Speaker 2>socialize more. I think you're doing well for yourself rio

0:53:32.320 --> 0:53:34.200
<v Speaker 2>And you know, it's a good idea, But I also

0:53:34.280 --> 0:53:37.880
<v Speaker 2>I also like, inherently, uh, if your nature is to

0:53:37.920 --> 0:53:49.279
<v Speaker 2>stay to yourself, you're I think you're doing a good

0:53:49.280 --> 0:53:51.560
<v Speaker 2>thing by reversing that because you're it's better to be

0:53:51.560 --> 0:53:56.400
<v Speaker 2>connected than to be uh, you know, jerking off doing nothing,

0:53:57.120 --> 0:53:59.560
<v Speaker 2>I mean jerking off. Jerking off and playing video games

0:53:59.560 --> 0:54:02.320
<v Speaker 2>is because you're off from playing video games is really cool.

0:54:02.800 --> 0:54:06.120
<v Speaker 2>But like I ideally, I try, ideally, I try to

0:54:06.320 --> 0:54:08.160
<v Speaker 2>make it so that like you want to be, you

0:54:08.239 --> 0:54:10.880
<v Speaker 2>want to be jerking off and playing video games because

0:54:11.120 --> 0:54:16.680
<v Speaker 2>you're tired or taking a break from being connected with

0:54:16.760 --> 0:54:19.759
<v Speaker 2>other people. You don't want to bet the reverse where

0:54:19.760 --> 0:54:22.640
<v Speaker 2>you're mainly jerking off from playing video games and then

0:54:25.440 --> 0:54:28.080
<v Speaker 2>occasionally seeing people. I figured out a life where I

0:54:28.080 --> 0:54:31.160
<v Speaker 2>could jerk off multiple times a day and play video

0:54:31.239 --> 0:54:35.840
<v Speaker 2>games and still talk to people. So I do know

0:54:36.760 --> 0:54:37.360
<v Speaker 2>it's doable.

0:54:38.320 --> 0:54:40.439
<v Speaker 4>Do not apply this to yourself while if you feel

0:54:40.440 --> 0:54:42.440
<v Speaker 4>the meat too, then you know that's up to you.

0:54:42.880 --> 0:54:45.200
<v Speaker 4>Uh I now that I actually like, I'm just glad

0:54:45.200 --> 0:54:47.440
<v Speaker 4>to have a little platform right now. Anybody's listening to

0:54:47.440 --> 0:54:52.600
<v Speaker 4>any band, any mail. Please just understand pornography, you know, steemen, retention,

0:54:53.200 --> 0:54:56.239
<v Speaker 4>those things are first of all, pornography is something to

0:54:56.239 --> 0:54:59.279
<v Speaker 4>stray away from, and it will kill your mind. It

0:54:59.280 --> 0:55:01.600
<v Speaker 4>will it will will fuck up your brain more than

0:55:01.640 --> 0:55:04.279
<v Speaker 4>heroin just as much, if anything. And I also want

0:55:04.280 --> 0:55:07.000
<v Speaker 4>to say too that semen retention practice practice practice.

0:55:07.000 --> 0:55:07.360
<v Speaker 5>Boys.

0:55:07.480 --> 0:55:09.640
<v Speaker 4>Boys, y'all got to get your mind right, y'all got

0:55:09.680 --> 0:55:12.240
<v Speaker 4>to get your mind right. Steman retention is simple power.

0:55:12.320 --> 0:55:15.319
<v Speaker 4>It is just power that if we release constantly, we

0:55:15.400 --> 0:55:16.720
<v Speaker 4>will not have power.

0:55:18.040 --> 0:55:19.160
<v Speaker 5>That is literal drive.

0:55:19.239 --> 0:55:21.920
<v Speaker 2>That is you're bury. You buried the lead. You buried

0:55:21.920 --> 0:55:28.839
<v Speaker 2>the lead. Here to go ahead, go ahead, go ahead,

0:55:28.840 --> 0:55:30.880
<v Speaker 2>and then I'm gonna give you my yeah, go ahead.

0:55:31.840 --> 0:55:33.680
<v Speaker 4>Well look, man, I just want to I just want

0:55:33.719 --> 0:55:35.960
<v Speaker 4>to take a couple of steps back. And I'm really

0:55:35.960 --> 0:55:38.360
<v Speaker 4>glad you asked me what am I avoiding? Because maybe

0:55:38.480 --> 0:55:41.320
<v Speaker 4>I'm not thinking. Maybe I'm still a little bit thinking.

0:55:41.360 --> 0:55:44.680
<v Speaker 4>Maybe I'm thinking inside the box two. But no, man,

0:55:44.719 --> 0:55:46.640
<v Speaker 4>I've just had hunters. I've just had hunches to just

0:55:46.680 --> 0:55:49.920
<v Speaker 4>go and do things, just go, and you know, I

0:55:50.120 --> 0:55:53.239
<v Speaker 4>don't take the time to just say, hey, I have

0:55:53.360 --> 0:55:55.640
<v Speaker 4>the time to just drive up you know, to the

0:55:55.880 --> 0:55:58.120
<v Speaker 4>you know, just up north to you know, flag steps

0:55:58.120 --> 0:55:58.640
<v Speaker 4>stuff north.

0:55:59.360 --> 0:56:01.839
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna I'm

0:56:01.840 --> 0:56:05.360
<v Speaker 2>gonna interrupt you. Uh what why why are you? I

0:56:05.640 --> 0:56:07.960
<v Speaker 2>I agree with you on porn. By the way, I

0:56:08.040 --> 0:56:16.439
<v Speaker 2>do think porn is like inherently not I'm not gonna go. Listen, listen,

0:56:16.440 --> 0:56:18.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm not going to go. I'm i I'm not gonna

0:56:18.239 --> 0:56:20.080
<v Speaker 2>go as far as say that porn is evil, I

0:56:20.080 --> 0:56:23.239
<v Speaker 2>don't think porn. I don't think porn is evil, but

0:56:23.440 --> 0:56:28.560
<v Speaker 2>I think it's you know, I think porn is like donuts,

0:56:28.840 --> 0:56:31.480
<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean, I really do porn is

0:56:31.520 --> 0:56:33.480
<v Speaker 2>like donuts, like you don't like. I don't think don't.

0:56:33.480 --> 0:56:35.399
<v Speaker 2>I don't think donuts are evil. I don't think people

0:56:35.400 --> 0:56:39.360
<v Speaker 2>who make donuts are evil. I don't think, you know,

0:56:40.880 --> 0:56:44.440
<v Speaker 2>the donut industry is inherently evil all that stuff. But

0:56:45.560 --> 0:56:48.799
<v Speaker 2>and listen, I think I think it's phoenix. I think

0:56:48.800 --> 0:56:50.839
<v Speaker 2>it's nice to have a donut every once in a while.

0:56:50.840 --> 0:56:55.000
<v Speaker 2>I think sometimes you need a donut, right whatever. Like

0:56:55.920 --> 0:56:59.520
<v Speaker 2>the healthiest a person who's now, a person who is

0:56:59.600 --> 0:57:04.239
<v Speaker 2>eating healthy, it's probably not eating donuts, maybe in the

0:57:04.280 --> 0:57:08.279
<v Speaker 2>same way that a person who has UH is practicing

0:57:08.400 --> 0:57:12.840
<v Speaker 2>healthiness of the mind in general is probably not eating donuts.

0:57:12.880 --> 0:57:16.360
<v Speaker 2>But I don't think donuts are evil, And I think, yes,

0:57:16.400 --> 0:57:18.320
<v Speaker 2>if you hit a don't if you eat donuts every day,

0:57:19.120 --> 0:57:22.520
<v Speaker 2>every morning and every night. That's probably pretty unhealthy. Yes,

0:57:22.640 --> 0:57:25.680
<v Speaker 2>I I I agree with you on that with porn.

0:57:31.080 --> 0:57:34.720
<v Speaker 2>But why do you why do you? Why? What's up

0:57:34.760 --> 0:57:37.520
<v Speaker 2>with semen retention? What is that? Why are you obsessed

0:57:37.520 --> 0:57:38.360
<v Speaker 2>with not coming?

0:57:41.800 --> 0:57:49.160
<v Speaker 4>There have been They're just it's ancient. Mystics have practiced

0:57:49.240 --> 0:57:53.680
<v Speaker 4>the the practice of semen they have, they have taken

0:57:53.720 --> 0:57:57.680
<v Speaker 4>part in the practice of semen retention for you know, alchemy,

0:57:57.680 --> 0:58:00.400
<v Speaker 4>alchemy reasons, you know, purposes regarding out can be.

0:58:01.040 --> 0:58:03.880
<v Speaker 2>Literally you literally think it gives you superpowers.

0:58:04.640 --> 0:58:07.720
<v Speaker 4>Essentially, dude, I mean there, I mean, there are there

0:58:07.760 --> 0:58:14.120
<v Speaker 4>are chemical over there, there are chemical overlap there. There

0:58:14.240 --> 0:58:18.960
<v Speaker 4>my bad, there's chemical overlap between the brain and just

0:58:19.400 --> 0:58:23.919
<v Speaker 4>steeming retention. I know there are I know, like.

0:58:25.080 --> 0:58:28.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna be I'm gonna, I'm gonna I'm gonna interrupt you.

0:58:28.120 --> 0:58:31.520
<v Speaker 2>I if I had the choice between being able to

0:58:31.640 --> 0:58:38.120
<v Speaker 2>levitate and being able to masturbate, I would choose masturbating easily.

0:58:38.560 --> 0:58:41.120
<v Speaker 2>Superpowers don't, I don't. There's nothing I can do with them.

0:58:41.240 --> 0:58:45.440
<v Speaker 2>If I like if I, if I if you, if

0:58:45.440 --> 0:58:48.520
<v Speaker 2>I could trade, if I could trade my ability to

0:58:48.640 --> 0:58:54.680
<v Speaker 2>come for like heat vision or whatever, I would I'd

0:58:54.760 --> 0:58:58.760
<v Speaker 2>keep coming. Coming is more applicable to my life than

0:58:58.840 --> 0:59:02.480
<v Speaker 2>any kind of superpower or alchemy. I don't. I'd rather

0:59:03.360 --> 0:59:07.400
<v Speaker 2>coming as a greater place in my life than alchemy does.

0:59:07.640 --> 0:59:10.280
<v Speaker 2>There's nothing useful I could do with superpowers.

0:59:11.000 --> 0:59:14.120
<v Speaker 4>But that's because you've only done one of the things. Though, Man,

0:59:14.240 --> 0:59:16.920
<v Speaker 4>I mean, look, I've never levitated. I can't. I'm not

0:59:16.920 --> 0:59:19.200
<v Speaker 4>gonna speak for you. But it doesn't seem like you've

0:59:19.200 --> 0:59:19.960
<v Speaker 4>ever levitated.

0:59:20.040 --> 0:59:23.120
<v Speaker 2>But no, you can speak for me. I probably haven't. Yeah,

0:59:23.120 --> 0:59:26.560
<v Speaker 2>go ahead, what what what superpowers are? What superpowers are

0:59:26.600 --> 0:59:27.240
<v Speaker 2>you trying to get?

0:59:28.200 --> 0:59:28.959
<v Speaker 5>Look, I'm just saying.

0:59:28.960 --> 0:59:31.280
<v Speaker 4>First off, I'm gonna say first, I'm gonna say this first,

0:59:31.600 --> 0:59:34.480
<v Speaker 4>that he vision would get my grilled cheese right. And

0:59:34.600 --> 0:59:37.680
<v Speaker 4>the second thing I'll say is levitation. What is the

0:59:37.800 --> 0:59:41.200
<v Speaker 4>apex of you know, of coming? What if that apex

0:59:41.280 --> 0:59:44.160
<v Speaker 4>you reach when you come that fog? What is that's

0:59:44.200 --> 0:59:47.280
<v Speaker 4>what you feel levitating? But just the entire time your

0:59:47.560 --> 0:59:50.320
<v Speaker 4>your ass is separated from the ground, you know what

0:59:50.320 --> 0:59:53.080
<v Speaker 4>I mean? What if that's just what if that's just

0:59:53.120 --> 0:59:57.560
<v Speaker 4>the feeling that you have when you're stationary in the air, just.

1:00:00.240 --> 1:00:03.800
<v Speaker 6>We've only got I would just then I would if

1:00:03.880 --> 1:00:08.800
<v Speaker 6>levitating feels if levitating feels like coming, then then I'll

1:00:08.840 --> 1:00:11.720
<v Speaker 6>just come instead of you to get it up.

1:00:11.720 --> 1:00:14.400
<v Speaker 2>You get what I'm saying. If they're equal experience, do

1:00:14.480 --> 1:00:15.320
<v Speaker 2>the easier one.

1:00:16.520 --> 1:00:18.360
<v Speaker 4>I think it's like skiboard. I think now we're on

1:00:18.440 --> 1:00:21.080
<v Speaker 4>like a ski skiing and a snowboarding thing, like you know,

1:00:21.120 --> 1:00:22.040
<v Speaker 4>it's a.

1:00:24.560 --> 1:00:28.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you know what but this is but I don't.

1:00:29.080 --> 1:00:29.520
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

1:00:29.600 --> 1:00:29.800
<v Speaker 4>Man.

1:00:30.640 --> 1:00:31.880
<v Speaker 2>What's your name again for you?

1:00:32.960 --> 1:00:34.360
<v Speaker 4>Yes, sir, yes, sir man.

1:00:34.680 --> 1:00:38.000
<v Speaker 2>It is real, real, real, real. I'm going to say

1:00:38.000 --> 1:00:39.720
<v Speaker 2>this before we go. You. First of all, thank you

1:00:39.760 --> 1:00:40.800
<v Speaker 2>for the very kind words.

1:00:40.800 --> 1:00:40.960
<v Speaker 1>Man.

1:00:40.960 --> 1:00:43.920
<v Speaker 2>You seem like a really nice, uh sweet dude.

1:00:44.920 --> 1:00:45.320
<v Speaker 5>I love you.

1:00:45.560 --> 1:00:46.160
<v Speaker 1>You're a guy.

1:00:46.520 --> 1:00:47.520
<v Speaker 2>Thank you, brother, Thank you.

1:00:47.560 --> 1:00:47.840
<v Speaker 1>Brother.

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<v Speaker 2>I I think I'm glad to hear you're getting out

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<v Speaker 2>of the house. I'm glad, you know what. I'm glad

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<v Speaker 2>you're not watching poor and it's probably not. It's like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>you know the doughnut thing, and you know what, it

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<v Speaker 2>sounds like seemen retention is going very well for you,

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<v Speaker 2>so I mean, yeah, keep keep keep doing what you're doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Brother.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Is there anything? Is there anything else you want to

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<v Speaker 2>say to the people of the computer before we go.

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<v Speaker 4>Before that, I have to ask you a question.

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<v Speaker 2>I will answer a question.

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<v Speaker 4>What do you plan on coming to Phoenix?

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<v Speaker 1>Bro?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh this September. I'm about to. I'm not gonna. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>announcing a bounch of tour dates very soon. I just

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<v Speaker 2>gotta do the like in like February, I'll announce a

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<v Speaker 2>bunch of tour dates and ship so I'll be I'll

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<v Speaker 2>come this month though, I mean not this month this year.

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<v Speaker 5>You'll get it right, man?

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<v Speaker 1>Then?

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<v Speaker 2>But okay, well, I'll say if you say to me,

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<v Speaker 2>you're like, I'm the guy we talked about levitating and masturbating,

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<v Speaker 2>I'll probably remember.

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<v Speaker 4>Levitation and masturbation. We got it, brother, I will say

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<v Speaker 4>this before my sendoff. Man, is there there is only

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<v Speaker 4>one There is only one eternal shared consciousness that is

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<v Speaker 4>taking form of absolute trillions, and that is us.

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<v Speaker 5>There's only one conscious.

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<v Speaker 4>We all share one conscious and that is why we

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<v Speaker 4>all have similar memories and similar ideas. And I mean

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<v Speaker 4>they're like that, that whole one conscious, that eternal shared

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<v Speaker 4>conscious that that is God. A lot of people aren't

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<v Speaker 4>ready for that conversation, but God, that concept of basically

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<v Speaker 4>divine source is consciousness. It is the fabric of reality,

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<v Speaker 4>and there is only one and we all share it.

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<v Speaker 5>We share it with the birds, we share it with

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<v Speaker 5>the spiders, with the dogs.

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<v Speaker 4>We all humans only see zero point zero zero three

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<v Speaker 4>five percent of the light spectrum, so that entire ninety

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<v Speaker 4>six percent whatever that's for the other living creatures that

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<v Speaker 4>see different waves of light and see the echoes of

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<v Speaker 4>sound waves. There's only one consciousness.

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<v Speaker 7>And uh, you know, we're all one. We're all one,

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<v Speaker 7>and we're just supposed to love each other. And love

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<v Speaker 7>will level leve will transcend us all from this third dimension.

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<v Speaker 7>And hile, I love you, man, and I'll see you

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<v Speaker 7>when here in Phoenix. Man, I just know levitation and masturbation. Man,

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<v Speaker 7>you're a great guy, dude, And just keep on putting

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<v Speaker 7>smiles on people's faces, man, because you've been doing a

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<v Speaker 7>great job at it.

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<v Speaker 2>Yoh, stay safe and get blessed. Real appreciate you, grek

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<v Speaker 2>blessed brother tick care That was Rio. You know what's

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<v Speaker 2>crazy is think like, I don't think Rio was high

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<v Speaker 2>when he was when he was talking just now. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't think he was high when he was saying. Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>that's stuff about humans can only see a portion of

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<v Speaker 2>the light spectrum is Uh, what's crazy is think like

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<v Speaker 2>things that like like you know, when like a guy

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<v Speaker 2>has like an acid trip and is like talking about

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<v Speaker 2>this ship and you're like, what the fuck is this

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<v Speaker 2>guy talking about that? That person is always right, everything,

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<v Speaker 2>everything real. I'm sure a lot of you heard what

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<v Speaker 2>Rio's talking just now and you were like, this guy's high.

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<v Speaker 2>What the fuck is he talking about? And you're valid

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<v Speaker 2>and you're valid to think that. But he he was

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<v Speaker 2>just he was right about one hundred percent of what

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<v Speaker 2>he was talking about. It's all true. It's all true

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<v Speaker 2>where there's one consciousness. He I don't think he was high.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't even I don't think you need to be

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<v Speaker 2>high to come to that conclusion. It's true. Yeah. Sometimes

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes I'm like, fucking I'm on that ship, you know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean. I'm like thinking about, uh, there's only

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<v Speaker 2>one consciousness, and I'm thinking about the divinity of the

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<v Speaker 2>universe and shit. And then someone's like, uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>maybe maybe you're on the divinity of the universe and shit.

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<v Speaker 2>And then your girl is like, uh, you know, making

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<v Speaker 2>cookies or something. Your friend's making cookies, your boyfriend's making cookies,

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<v Speaker 2>someone's making cookies. You're on the divine universe and you're

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<v Speaker 2>talking about this shit, and then your friend making cookies

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<v Speaker 2>is like, what the fuck are you talking about? And

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<v Speaker 2>you're looking at your friend like you don't. Fuck, you

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<v Speaker 2>have no fucking idea. You have no fucking idea what

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<v Speaker 2>I have discovered about how the fucking universe is one

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<v Speaker 2>and that we only live one life and that we

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<v Speaker 2>are grains of sand and a vast desert of consciousness

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<v Speaker 2>shared by the birds and the ants, and all the

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<v Speaker 2>show you're freaking out. You're like, you're so, you're like,

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<v Speaker 2>this fucking person, I'm saying this too. They don't fucking

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<v Speaker 2>what the like, they can't even comprehend where my mind

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<v Speaker 2>is right now. And then they're like, have a cookie,

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<v Speaker 2>and you eat a cookie. I like, this cookie is good,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, And then it's like, hey, the person baking cookies.

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<v Speaker 2>They were it's like you can look. You look at them,

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<v Speaker 2>and you're like, oh, they're like they're not on my

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<v Speaker 2>level of consciousness. And then you're like, well, motherfucker, they're

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<v Speaker 2>more conscious. They're they're they're seeing shit that I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>even seeing, which is that cookies are good. They're not

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<v Speaker 2>even seeing it. They're doing better than seeing it. They're

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<v Speaker 2>expressing it everything. You're fucking up here thinking about where

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<v Speaker 2>you're looking at people and you're like, they can't, they

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<v Speaker 2>can't be on my fucking level of consciousness. They're they're

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<v Speaker 2>they're actually they're at a higher level of consciousness than

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<v Speaker 2>you are because they're not thinking about this ship. They're

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<v Speaker 2>living it. They're doing it. They're making cookies, they're painting

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<v Speaker 2>a they're calling their mom on the phone, they're taking

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<v Speaker 2>a walk and looking at something. They're living this thing.

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<v Speaker 2>So we're all It all evens out the consciousness, the

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<v Speaker 2>spectrum of consciousness in that way, you're either living it

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<v Speaker 2>or you're thinking about it, one of those two things. Personally,

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<v Speaker 2>it's probably a little bit. I think it's better to

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<v Speaker 2>live it. I'd say it's eighty twenty eighty five fifteen

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<v Speaker 2>eighty five fifteen living thinking. That's a good ratio. I

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<v Speaker 2>take seventy thirty living thinking. But you want the majority

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<v Speaker 2>to be uh living, baking your metaphorical cookies, whatever they

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<v Speaker 2>may be. Week goes on the line, taking your phone

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<v Speaker 2>calls every nine every.

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<v Speaker 4>Weak and goes to his hide.

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<v Speaker 1>He's teaching yours loud in the of your life, but

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<v Speaker 1>he's not ready.

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<v Speaker 2>An expert