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Speaker 1: Yeah, oh shit, I don't why bad I think you

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Speaker 2: Yeah, well you texted me and you said you wrote

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Speaker 2: get a real job, buddy. I called you and you

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Speaker 1: Yeah. I was just like kind I was mad because

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Speaker 1: I was like, hey man, I wanted to talk to

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Speaker 1: this guy. You know, I'm the following your page for

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Speaker 2: No, it's this real. It's all real. These are real.

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Speaker 2: Like people are like, oh you made all the callers

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Speaker 2: are AI, and it's like you're a real and then

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Speaker 2: they become one of them and then they are like, no,

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Speaker 2: I'm real. Then the whole thing must be real.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. I think you had like I know you're a

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Speaker 1: real person because I think I saw you accomplex time,

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Speaker 1: like a few years ago. Yeah, and uh yeah, but

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Speaker 1: like I didn't think it would be like a real person.

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Speaker 1: I thought it was one of those uh just like

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Speaker 2: No, And you know what, and I I and I'm

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Speaker 2: actually I totally could I do a lot of marketing

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Speaker 2: and stuff and I'm I'm going on tour and like

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Speaker 2: it'd be helpful, but I don't like it. I hate

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Speaker 2: like if you sign up for one thing, like if

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Speaker 2: people like there's a thing you can go to therapy getto,

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Speaker 2: I'm just gonna I'm gonna market right now. If you

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Speaker 2: go to therapy Gecko tour dot com and you put

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Speaker 2: text you, like those phone numbers I keep. But like

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Speaker 2: I I've thought about it. People have told me they're like,

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Speaker 2: call you? And I'm like no, I'm why not you.

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Speaker 1: Should because it's like you know, I got I called

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Speaker 1: today and like I've been following you for a while,

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Speaker 1: but like that post, I mean that your story, like

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Speaker 2: Well wait, okay, real quick, do you think it's don't

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Speaker 2: If by calling that phone number I just like opt

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Speaker 1: Per se. I wouldn't care, but other people white, you know,

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Speaker 2: Right, I'll put your phone number specifically into my list. Hell, yeah,

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Speaker 2: what city do you live in?

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Speaker 2: Right, I'm coming to Vegas. I'll put your phone number

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Speaker 2: in my thing. Anyway, what are you coming on here? Uh? Ship,

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Speaker 2: you you successfully got a hold of me because you

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Speaker 2: to everyone as to how to get a hold of me,

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Speaker 2: because I like, I'm a I'm a I'm a masochist

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Speaker 2: and I love being insulted. What is your name again?

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Speaker 2: What's your name again.

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Speaker 1: My name is Sean, but I go by Saint St. Louis,

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Speaker 2: there was there a particular reason why you called today? Uh?

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Speaker 2: Can you say that word for me one more time?

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Speaker 2: How can you make this so what thing.

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Speaker 2: Wait saying fuck you. You texted me saying get a

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Speaker 2: There is no way to make this an ongoing thing.

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Speaker 2: Okay, So your girlfriend is making you out to be irresponsible,

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Speaker 2: Know that that's first of all. That's a classic. Second

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Speaker 2: the same internal feeling. But that's all that's fucking obviously

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Speaker 1: Not you know that, Yeah, the littleless of mistakes. Man,

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Speaker 2: Uh it can be, but uh, okay, you're what is

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Speaker 2: because she says she's you're not being responsible, what does

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Speaker 3: Just like like my spending habits and all of that.

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Speaker 3: But I just feel like, you know, like if I

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Speaker 1: Is taking care of. Why are you like you know,

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Speaker 2: Okay. You so you've identified your spending habits as a

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Speaker 1: Like? That's like I think in a certain sense, like

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Speaker 2: You know, what is what's her what's her way? What

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Speaker 1: Like her way beathing? Like she didn't want me spending

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Speaker 1: She just wants me to not be the person I am,

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Speaker 2: Sen Okay, so how long are you How long I'm

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Speaker 2: gonna you know, I'm gonna try to I'm gonna actually

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Speaker 2: more information? How long have you been with her?

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Speaker 1: Uh? We've been together five years? About six right now?

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Speaker 2: Okay? Five years? On? Off go on and says are

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Speaker 2: you the one making all the like? Are you like,

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Speaker 2: where you're living together, and you're like financially supporting her.

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Speaker 1: Uh yeah, I mean she can financially support herself too,

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Speaker 1: but it's just like it just doesn't compare it to

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Speaker 2: Like you'll be you'll be expressing yourself and how you feel,

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Speaker 2: Okay? I was like, when you say, I haven't expressed

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Speaker 1: Are you?

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Speaker 2: And it's okay, you know whatever the truth is is fine.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that's a bad that's a that's a bad habit

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Speaker 4: So.

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Speaker 2: trying to willing. I'm willing to understand you, and I

436
00:23:46,040 --> 00:23:50,640
Speaker 2: just want to be understood. Let's have a conversation about

437
00:23:50,840 --> 00:23:54,600
Speaker 2: these things. Let's have an open, honest conversation, no yelling,

438
00:23:54,920 --> 00:23:56,960
Speaker 2: no fighting. I just want you to listen to me,

439
00:23:57,040 --> 00:23:59,239
Speaker 2: and I want to listen to you, and you and

440
00:23:59,280 --> 00:24:02,000
Speaker 2: you really just you just really appeal to her like

441
00:24:02,080 --> 00:24:06,880
Speaker 2: that in that kind of way. Honestly, Okay, if you

442
00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:17,879
Speaker 2: do that multiple times and she doesn't respond in a

443
00:24:17,920 --> 00:24:25,199
Speaker 2: way that makes you feel heard, you unfortunately have to

444
00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:31,639
Speaker 2: accept that she may never ever ever will And you

445
00:24:32,320 --> 00:24:40,480
Speaker 2: can it's perfectly legitimate for you to decide, in light

446
00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:45,760
Speaker 2: of that knowledge that you still love her and you

447
00:24:45,840 --> 00:24:49,240
Speaker 2: still want to be in a relationship with her, and

448
00:24:49,280 --> 00:24:51,880
Speaker 2: you still want to fucking do this, and you still

449
00:24:51,920 --> 00:24:55,000
Speaker 2: want to support her financially, and you still wanna have

450
00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:56,200
Speaker 2: a kid with that, you still want to do it.

451
00:24:56,280 --> 00:25:00,719
Speaker 2: You can decide that your love for her over powers

452
00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:04,119
Speaker 2: the knowledge that you have in your soul that she

453
00:25:04,240 --> 00:25:09,199
Speaker 2: will never ever ever potentially who knows that it's not

454
00:25:09,240 --> 00:25:13,440
Speaker 2: a guarantee, but but but you have to accept your

455
00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:17,400
Speaker 2: love over her over the idea that she may never

456
00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:21,320
Speaker 2: truly attempt to understand you. That's a legitimate thing for

457
00:25:21,359 --> 00:25:25,439
Speaker 2: you to do. I don't know if it's the smart

458
00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:27,879
Speaker 2: thing to my dad, I don't know if it's the

459
00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:30,119
Speaker 2: smart thing to do. I don't know if it's the

460
00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:32,320
Speaker 2: smart thing to do. But you can do it, you know,

461
00:25:32,560 --> 00:25:36,119
Speaker 2: my dad. My dad was on this podcast, like a

462
00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:39,359
Speaker 2: couple episodes ago, and he was like going through this

463
00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:42,440
Speaker 2: whole thing of like what do you want to do

464
00:25:42,600 --> 00:25:45,359
Speaker 2: and what's the smart thing to do in that situation

465
00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:47,840
Speaker 2: where you have a deep love for her and and

466
00:25:47,880 --> 00:25:52,639
Speaker 2: you're taking a bet that she may one day understand that.

467
00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:54,800
Speaker 2: Either you're taking a bet that she may one day

468
00:25:54,880 --> 00:25:59,320
Speaker 2: understand you, or you're just accepting that she made it.

469
00:25:59,400 --> 00:26:03,240
Speaker 2: You could let I just think you could it possibly

470
00:26:03,320 --> 00:26:06,840
Speaker 2: live a happy life where you love her so much

471
00:26:06,840 --> 00:26:08,240
Speaker 2: and you want to be with her and you just

472
00:26:08,280 --> 00:26:11,080
Speaker 2: accept that she'll never see you. You could maybe live

473
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,480
Speaker 2: a happy life that way. But it's totally not It's

474
00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:16,680
Speaker 2: not the smart thing to do by any.

475
00:26:16,760 --> 00:26:19,800
Speaker 1: It's like a one it's like a one side of

476
00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:21,240
Speaker 1: a relationship when it's like that.

477
00:26:21,560 --> 00:26:24,439
Speaker 2: But no, it's just like, you know, you can decide

478
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:26,359
Speaker 2: that's what makes you happy, But I don't know if

479
00:26:26,359 --> 00:26:27,159
Speaker 2: it's a smart thing to do.

480
00:26:28,480 --> 00:26:31,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, it's just like the definition of love

481
00:26:31,560 --> 00:26:36,480
Speaker 1: is different for everybody, you know, and I don't know,

482
00:26:36,560 --> 00:26:39,280
Speaker 1: Like it's just like I don't know, man, You're right,

483
00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:41,280
Speaker 1: I definitely got a lot of things to think about, man,

484
00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:44,200
Speaker 1: because I don't want to carry on with this if

485
00:26:44,200 --> 00:26:48,159
Speaker 1: it's like you know, constant like headache. You know, I

486
00:26:48,200 --> 00:26:49,920
Speaker 1: want to drive, I want to do and I want

487
00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:53,120
Speaker 1: to like you know, expert with a partner or whatever,

488
00:26:53,520 --> 00:26:56,800
Speaker 1: you know, or even by myself. You know, it could happen,

489
00:26:56,920 --> 00:26:59,600
Speaker 1: but it's just like, you know, it's just certain things

490
00:26:59,600 --> 00:27:02,760
Speaker 1: that I love about this person. You know, Like God,

491
00:27:03,320 --> 00:27:05,239
Speaker 1: I've been with plenty of women, and it's just like

492
00:27:05,640 --> 00:27:08,560
Speaker 1: I see things differently that this person does that I

493
00:27:08,560 --> 00:27:10,919
Speaker 1: haven't seen in other people, Like you know that I

494
00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:15,200
Speaker 1: like that she has a routine. You know, it's just like, uh,

495
00:27:15,560 --> 00:27:18,520
Speaker 1: they're taking care of me aspect. You know, it is there,

496
00:27:18,760 --> 00:27:21,440
Speaker 1: like you know, she cooks me lunch, dinner, her breakfast,

497
00:27:21,680 --> 00:27:25,560
Speaker 1: wakes up, she goes, beats our horses. Uh, she goes

498
00:27:25,640 --> 00:27:27,240
Speaker 1: like you know, she's like taking care of all of

499
00:27:27,280 --> 00:27:27,800
Speaker 1: the duty.

500
00:27:27,960 --> 00:27:29,679
Speaker 2: I know what you mean. Yeah, I know, I know

501
00:27:29,760 --> 00:27:30,040
Speaker 2: you man.

502
00:27:31,359 --> 00:27:33,840
Speaker 1: So man, it's like I haven't been with the plenty

503
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:35,760
Speaker 1: of girls that do that, because a lot of them

504
00:27:35,760 --> 00:27:38,720
Speaker 1: will just either be childish or just be like why

505
00:27:38,720 --> 00:27:41,560
Speaker 1: would I do this? You know, she comes from a

506
00:27:41,640 --> 00:27:43,200
Speaker 1: different background where.

507
00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:46,480
Speaker 2: It's you both say you sound like you sound like

508
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:51,119
Speaker 2: you both are into like the kind of traditional masculine

509
00:27:51,160 --> 00:27:56,000
Speaker 2: feminine roles of a relationship. Yeah, yeah, and that's and

510
00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,560
Speaker 2: that's that's a perfectly legitimate way to have a relationship

511
00:27:58,600 --> 00:28:00,560
Speaker 2: if that's what two people want for the real relationship.

512
00:28:00,800 --> 00:28:08,840
Speaker 2: But you know that it comes with h you know

513
00:28:09,119 --> 00:28:15,600
Speaker 2: what I mean. Every every TV show that describes that

514
00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:20,399
Speaker 2: traditional relationship is involves a main involves a guy who

515
00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:24,040
Speaker 2: is upset that his wife won't stop nagging him. You know,

516
00:28:25,119 --> 00:28:27,800
Speaker 2: like that's just part of the part of the fucking thing.

517
00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:30,920
Speaker 2: And I look, you can you can live a happy

518
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:33,000
Speaker 2: life like that, but you can live a happy you

519
00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:36,560
Speaker 2: can live a happy life like that. But before you

520
00:28:36,600 --> 00:28:39,720
Speaker 2: make that decision, just no, just it's have the information

521
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:43,120
Speaker 2: that you may never be seen you. Maybe maybe maybe

522
00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:45,520
Speaker 2: maybe this will be I don't know, man, Maybe I'm

523
00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:51,240
Speaker 2: I'm truly like navigating uh my philosophy on relationships in

524
00:28:51,600 --> 00:28:53,520
Speaker 2: real time as I'm talking to you and as I'm

525
00:28:53,560 --> 00:28:56,000
Speaker 2: thinking about it, as I'm living my own life. Uh

526
00:28:56,200 --> 00:29:00,120
Speaker 2: maybe this woman, uh you know whatever, cooking for you

527
00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:06,280
Speaker 2: and and and doing these sort of traditional things and whatnot.

528
00:29:06,320 --> 00:29:11,719
Speaker 2: Maybe that's just maybe that's her version of of seeing you,

529
00:29:11,720 --> 00:29:14,120
Speaker 2: you know, that's her way of of loving you. And

530
00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:18,000
Speaker 2: and and loving someone can be can be seeing them

531
00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:23,600
Speaker 2: in some way. Uh but and and it's perfectly legitimate

532
00:29:23,600 --> 00:29:26,920
Speaker 2: if you decide that that that's something, but this particular

533
00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:29,200
Speaker 2: way that you're trying to be seen, you have to

534
00:29:29,240 --> 00:29:31,240
Speaker 2: accept that it might it might never happen.

535
00:29:31,320 --> 00:29:31,520
Speaker 1: Man.

536
00:29:31,640 --> 00:29:33,280
Speaker 2: But before you do that, before you accept that for you,

537
00:29:33,880 --> 00:29:36,120
Speaker 2: before you accept that that that that you may never

538
00:29:36,160 --> 00:29:38,640
Speaker 2: be seen in that way, just try appealing to her

539
00:29:38,720 --> 00:29:43,480
Speaker 2: on a on a on a on a different on

540
00:29:43,560 --> 00:29:47,840
Speaker 2: a different level than uh uh, you know, anger and aggression.

541
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:52,640
Speaker 2: I think that's where you start. Of course, of course

542
00:29:52,680 --> 00:29:55,440
Speaker 2: it hasn't been fucking working. It's it's it's not a

543
00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:57,280
Speaker 2: good thing to do.

544
00:29:57,880 --> 00:30:00,520
Speaker 1: But why do we always human is always thing like

545
00:30:00,720 --> 00:30:04,600
Speaker 1: forest anger is like the way we can get things done.

546
00:30:04,680 --> 00:30:07,160
Speaker 1: Like it's never been the case like you know for

547
00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:08,760
Speaker 1: anybody in this world.

548
00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:13,080
Speaker 2: You know, did you did your father yell at you

549
00:30:13,120 --> 00:30:15,920
Speaker 2: a lot? Sorry? I know that's a thing more so.

550
00:30:16,000 --> 00:30:18,480
Speaker 1: My mom than my dad. Like, you know, it's different

551
00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:21,280
Speaker 1: type of thing. So I mean I also think that

552
00:30:21,400 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 1: might be like a mommy issue thing two going on

553
00:30:23,760 --> 00:30:26,320
Speaker 1: near it that that's not fully addressed, you know, I mean,

554
00:30:26,360 --> 00:30:29,600
Speaker 1: that's you know, we all live between the mom or

555
00:30:29,640 --> 00:30:36,000
Speaker 1: the daddy issue, you know, yeah.

556
00:30:35,000 --> 00:30:38,120
Speaker 2: Saints Sat. Sorry, I was about to end the call,

557
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:40,800
Speaker 2: but I want to I'll let you finish.

558
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,440
Speaker 1: Hell yeah, I mean I'm cool with that because I

559
00:30:43,720 --> 00:30:45,400
Speaker 1: just got to my ranch right now too. I got

560
00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:47,120
Speaker 1: to see the the sources real quick.

561
00:30:47,840 --> 00:30:52,800
Speaker 2: A ranch. Yeah you is that your You own a ranch?

562
00:30:54,200 --> 00:30:56,480
Speaker 1: Me and my girl, well like her and her family do,

563
00:30:56,600 --> 00:30:58,360
Speaker 1: but like we have a whole bunch of horses here.

564
00:30:59,000 --> 00:31:01,240
Speaker 2: Oh okay, all right, so you're literally yeah, no, you're

565
00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:06,760
Speaker 2: living the like you're very like traditional kind of thing,

566
00:31:07,040 --> 00:31:13,520
Speaker 2: like a farmer and his wife. Uh yeah, your phone

567
00:31:13,560 --> 00:31:16,840
Speaker 2: started sucking. Okay, I don't know what you just said,

568
00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:20,040
Speaker 2: but I'm gonna I'm gonna know how I I could

569
00:31:20,120 --> 00:31:25,200
Speaker 2: infer something what you said? Okay, do you think would

570
00:31:25,240 --> 00:31:26,680
Speaker 2: could I have fooled you that I was a real

571
00:31:26,720 --> 00:31:28,920
Speaker 2: therapist for.

572
00:31:28,880 --> 00:31:34,240
Speaker 1: Sure, because just like I mean, the advice and everything,

573
00:31:34,280 --> 00:31:36,000
Speaker 1: and gay was like pretty head on.

574
00:31:36,200 --> 00:31:40,480
Speaker 2: You know, I'm just I'm just I don't know what

575
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:41,680
Speaker 2: I am. I'm high.

576
00:31:41,840 --> 00:31:44,200
Speaker 1: It's just a great lizard or I don't.

577
00:31:44,280 --> 00:31:47,360
Speaker 2: Usually I don't like to admit that I'm not high

578
00:31:47,360 --> 00:31:49,960
Speaker 2: on every single episode, but I'm high on this one.

579
00:31:51,440 --> 00:31:54,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, as you shared, Bro, I love he quit smoking

580
00:31:54,800 --> 00:31:58,320
Speaker 1: weed where this year. I've just kind of been smoking,

581
00:31:58,400 --> 00:32:01,440
Speaker 1: like you know, here and there. But shit got to

582
00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:03,040
Speaker 1: bra to make it through life.

583
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:07,000
Speaker 2: No, I don't think that's what you just said. It

584
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:12,120
Speaker 2: is not a good thing. I don't. I think I don't.

585
00:32:12,240 --> 00:32:15,440
Speaker 2: I mean I currently smoke weed to make it through life,

586
00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:18,880
Speaker 2: but I don't think that's healthy. I don't know. I

587
00:32:18,880 --> 00:32:21,440
Speaker 2: don't know anything about our stupid world anymore. Could you

588
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:22,440
Speaker 2: say your name one more time?

589
00:32:22,480 --> 00:32:22,640
Speaker 4: Man?

590
00:32:22,720 --> 00:32:27,800
Speaker 2: I'm sorry. Oh Sat, Saint St Stan San Sat.

591
00:32:28,200 --> 00:32:30,000
Speaker 1: We got a lot more here in Vegas, Bro.

592
00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:36,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'll be there September twenty First Wise Guys Comedy Club.

593
00:32:37,200 --> 00:32:39,480
Speaker 1: Oh, that's like up the street from I got a

594
00:32:39,520 --> 00:32:42,680
Speaker 1: photo studio right up the street from Bear, so yeah,

595
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:45,240
Speaker 1: we'll definitely pull up. I'm gonna bring over a lot

596
00:32:45,240 --> 00:32:46,040
Speaker 1: of the guys.

597
00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:48,040
Speaker 2: You have a photo studio.

598
00:32:48,920 --> 00:32:52,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, we do photo videography. We actually are like work

599
00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:55,280
Speaker 1: with like a lot of higher artists like that.

600
00:32:55,840 --> 00:33:00,520
Speaker 2: And you're in a fucking photo studio and a ranch. Yeah,

601
00:33:00,560 --> 00:33:01,080
Speaker 2: who are you?

602
00:33:01,200 --> 00:33:01,400
Speaker 1: Man?

603
00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:03,880
Speaker 2: You're really and you buy and sell ship you're doing

604
00:33:04,000 --> 00:33:07,040
Speaker 2: You're doing good man, You're doing, and your fucking wife

605
00:33:07,040 --> 00:33:08,360
Speaker 2: owns a business. That's awesome.

606
00:33:09,520 --> 00:33:12,959
Speaker 1: Yeah, Hey, we're gonna smoke the blue when you get here,

607
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:14,719
Speaker 1: I'll show you around the city. You know, you can

608
00:33:14,720 --> 00:33:16,640
Speaker 1: pull up to the shop too. You know, we can

609
00:33:16,680 --> 00:33:20,080
Speaker 1: get some stuff going. So we got a screen priy

610
00:33:20,120 --> 00:33:21,840
Speaker 1: shot too. So if you need a lot of merch

611
00:33:21,840 --> 00:33:23,800
Speaker 1: start or whatever, you're out here, you can get that

612
00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 1: done for you.

613
00:33:25,040 --> 00:33:28,320
Speaker 2: Okay, Man, I appreciate you. I appreciate you.

614
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:30,280
Speaker 1: You got a friend of me now because you definitely

615
00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:32,640
Speaker 1: turn my good man.

616
00:33:32,800 --> 00:33:34,840
Speaker 2: I appreciate that, saying all all right, I'll try to

617
00:33:34,880 --> 00:33:37,360
Speaker 2: I'll try to hook up with you, and uh, you

618
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:39,760
Speaker 2: know what, send me a send me a d M.

619
00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:43,080
Speaker 2: If you see, if you see after I announced my

620
00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:47,760
Speaker 2: tour dates on Vegas, if I might, you might DM

621
00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:49,480
Speaker 2: me and I might never look at it or respond

622
00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:54,000
Speaker 2: to it, but you also might. Yeah there's a chance this,

623
00:33:54,200 --> 00:33:55,320
Speaker 2: there's a chance it could happen.

624
00:33:55,440 --> 00:33:58,280
Speaker 1: But I'll be like, check your DMS.

625
00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:02,080
Speaker 2: That's that would get me, That would that would get

626
00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:03,400
Speaker 2: all right?

627
00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:06,160
Speaker 1: All right? Bet, I got you brother, Thank you, man,

628
00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:07,000
Speaker 1: you have a blessed fight.

629
00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:12,719
Speaker 2: Yeah you too, Man, take care all right? Bett? That

630
00:34:12,840 --> 00:34:16,400
Speaker 2: was Saint. I liked Saint. That's still just so funny.

631
00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:19,120
Speaker 2: Why would he say get a real job if he

632
00:34:19,239 --> 00:34:23,520
Speaker 2: thinks I have a real job. He just knows how

633
00:34:23,560 --> 00:34:29,120
Speaker 2: to he knows how to push my buttons, Saint, that'd

634
00:34:29,160 --> 00:34:33,200
Speaker 2: be cool. I'll go down there and hang out with

635
00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:37,920
Speaker 2: him and his ranch slash his his ranch slash, screen

636
00:34:37,960 --> 00:34:43,000
Speaker 2: printing shop slash, whatever the fuck thing.

637
00:34:44,719 --> 00:34:45,040
Speaker 1: That was?

638
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:46,120
Speaker 2: That was? That was nice.

639
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:53,120
Speaker 4: Hello, no way, man, no way?

640
00:34:54,520 --> 00:34:56,920
Speaker 5: Wait? Why is this you?

641
00:34:57,080 --> 00:34:57,319
Speaker 1: Dude?

642
00:34:57,840 --> 00:34:58,080
Speaker 4: Yeah?

643
00:34:58,120 --> 00:35:00,959
Speaker 2: What's up? Brother? What's your name? Oh? Man?

644
00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:01,360
Speaker 5: Brother?

645
00:35:01,840 --> 00:35:02,680
Speaker 4: Yo, I'm Rio.

646
00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:06,160
Speaker 5: My name is Rio all right, oh oh yo?

647
00:35:06,880 --> 00:35:09,200
Speaker 4: Oh dude, Yeah, yeah, dude, how are you?

648
00:35:10,160 --> 00:35:13,919
Speaker 2: I man, I'm doing pretty all right. I I feel

649
00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:15,799
Speaker 2: good today. I feel good about life. I feel good

650
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:21,080
Speaker 2: about doing this. I know we've been on the phone

651
00:35:21,160 --> 00:35:24,200
Speaker 2: for like forty seconds, but you seem like you have

652
00:35:24,239 --> 00:35:27,120
Speaker 2: a nice energy. I'm excited to talk to you. Have

653
00:35:27,200 --> 00:35:28,520
Speaker 2: we spoken? Have we had there for?

654
00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:31,120
Speaker 5: We have not, Brother, we have not.

655
00:35:31,320 --> 00:35:34,880
Speaker 4: Man. I've been a Yeah, I've been a caller since probably,

656
00:35:34,960 --> 00:35:37,440
Speaker 4: I mean I've been a listener since I got to say.

657
00:35:37,239 --> 00:35:39,720
Speaker 5: Twenty twenty two and cool.

658
00:35:39,920 --> 00:35:42,120
Speaker 4: You know, I've tried on occasion, I've tried to tried

659
00:35:42,120 --> 00:35:43,920
Speaker 4: to call in. But you know, you just got you

660
00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:46,200
Speaker 4: You've done You've done a lot of great things within

661
00:35:46,280 --> 00:35:49,319
Speaker 4: the last five to six years. Man, I've just it's

662
00:35:49,360 --> 00:35:52,200
Speaker 4: it's great. It's great seeing you just do what you do. Man,

663
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:54,799
Speaker 4: I just want to say real quick, you're uh, you're

664
00:35:54,840 --> 00:35:58,120
Speaker 4: walking across the pan video that you you know, you

665
00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:00,320
Speaker 4: put out a couple couple of weeks back, you a

666
00:36:00,360 --> 00:36:03,520
Speaker 4: couple of months back. Man, it just it really hit

667
00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:06,799
Speaker 4: me in a certain I mean just it's just there's

668
00:36:06,840 --> 00:36:09,080
Speaker 4: a lot of resonation. Man, it resonated a lot, you know,

669
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:10,680
Speaker 4: a lot of resons my bad.

670
00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:12,719
Speaker 2: Uh, yeah, thanks, I'm sorry.

671
00:36:13,680 --> 00:36:14,759
Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm just.

672
00:36:17,200 --> 00:36:19,759
Speaker 2: Man, you don't have a thing we said. Sorry about

673
00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:26,160
Speaker 2: it all. Man, I'm no. I I'm glad that that well, yeah,

674
00:36:26,160 --> 00:36:29,840
Speaker 2: I'm I'm I'm happy that that video is resonating with people.

675
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:30,600
Speaker 2: You know.

676
00:36:31,120 --> 00:36:35,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean, I mean you and I. You and

677
00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:36,920
Speaker 4: I are really just a couple.

678
00:36:37,600 --> 00:36:39,279
Speaker 5: You and I are really just too dudes. Man, We're

679
00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:39,960
Speaker 5: just two dudes.

680
00:36:40,200 --> 00:36:43,279
Speaker 4: Uh, just surrounded by a bunch of other dudes and

681
00:36:43,600 --> 00:36:46,439
Speaker 4: and and other you know, dude deads girls. Just we're

682
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:49,160
Speaker 4: just two people, man, just you know, we you know,

683
00:36:49,200 --> 00:36:51,280
Speaker 4: we're just dealing with the same ship that other people

684
00:36:51,320 --> 00:36:53,680
Speaker 4: around us are dealing with. And I mean I remember

685
00:36:53,719 --> 00:36:56,200
Speaker 4: one of your one of your just another one of

686
00:36:56,239 --> 00:36:59,479
Speaker 4: your videos, you know, just calling the guys talking about

687
00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:02,319
Speaker 4: his issue and something you really said that you know,

688
00:37:02,400 --> 00:37:04,680
Speaker 4: it's you know, just a lot of you know, I'm

689
00:37:04,719 --> 00:37:06,400
Speaker 4: just I'm trying to do my best to apply as

690
00:37:06,480 --> 00:37:09,320
Speaker 4: much as I can U just from everybody I encounter.

691
00:37:09,880 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 4: But you know, you just say, sometimes you just got

692
00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:13,759
Speaker 4: to do stuff. Sometimes you just got to get up

693
00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:18,560
Speaker 4: and do stuff. And I'm like, I I was like,

694
00:37:18,600 --> 00:37:21,880
Speaker 4: fuck man, yeah, I'm like, screw all this, you know. Oh,

695
00:37:22,000 --> 00:37:23,360
Speaker 4: let me get my you know, let me get my

696
00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:26,120
Speaker 4: diet right, let me get my sleep schedule right before

697
00:37:26,160 --> 00:37:28,080
Speaker 4: I can really start going to the gym or going

698
00:37:28,160 --> 00:37:30,040
Speaker 4: to the park and just going on walks and.

699
00:37:30,160 --> 00:37:31,000
Speaker 5: Just like fuck that.

700
00:37:31,239 --> 00:37:34,680
Speaker 4: Just just do stuff, man, you know everybody you know,

701
00:37:34,760 --> 00:37:37,680
Speaker 4: I my I do, I got too much of all

702
00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:39,080
Speaker 4: or nothing mindset.

703
00:37:39,000 --> 00:37:41,839
Speaker 5: You know what I mean. Just just do it, man.

704
00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:43,880
Speaker 4: Just sometimes you just got to do stuff to get

705
00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:47,160
Speaker 4: yourself out of that funk. And yeah, man, I just

706
00:37:47,360 --> 00:37:49,400
Speaker 4: you know, you're just a great guy, dude. I I

707
00:37:49,400 --> 00:37:50,320
Speaker 4: I can't I really.

708
00:37:50,200 --> 00:37:51,799
Speaker 2: Can't believe I'm actually calling you right now.

709
00:37:51,840 --> 00:37:52,040
Speaker 1: Man.

710
00:37:53,239 --> 00:37:55,799
Speaker 4: I do just want to say it's a What time

711
00:37:55,840 --> 00:37:56,879
Speaker 4: is it where you're at right now?

712
00:37:58,040 --> 00:38:01,960
Speaker 2: It's about eight pm? Wh oh wow.

713
00:38:03,719 --> 00:38:07,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just it's about six It's about six twenty

714
00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:10,360
Speaker 4: something over I'm out in Phoenix, Arizona.

715
00:38:10,400 --> 00:38:10,520
Speaker 1: Man.

716
00:38:10,560 --> 00:38:12,960
Speaker 4: Shout out six oh two. You're a six oh two listener,

717
00:38:13,680 --> 00:38:17,520
Speaker 4: shout out, shut out, Phoenix, Arizona Man. I yeah, it's

718
00:38:17,560 --> 00:38:19,920
Speaker 4: about like six thirty right now. Man, I'm I'm kind

719
00:38:19,920 --> 00:38:22,879
Speaker 4: of at work right now, and oh my gosh, dude,

720
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:24,480
Speaker 4: I just can't believe. Oh my gosh.

721
00:38:25,239 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 5: Well, you know, I.

722
00:38:26,360 --> 00:38:30,840
Speaker 2: I I'll say, I'll say a few things. It's funny

723
00:38:31,480 --> 00:38:33,719
Speaker 2: what you're saying to me, because, uh, I mean, for

724
00:38:33,719 --> 00:38:36,120
Speaker 2: those for anyone who doesn't know. I made this video

725
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:41,400
Speaker 2: where I walked like through like the Japanese countryside and

726
00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:44,040
Speaker 2: I was kind of talking about like depression and this

727
00:38:44,239 --> 00:38:47,600
Speaker 2: existential crisis that I was having at the time, and

728
00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:50,840
Speaker 2: uh that that eccidential questionis was really real. It was

729
00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:54,719
Speaker 2: really really real, and the depression was really real, and

730
00:38:55,400 --> 00:39:00,680
Speaker 2: I feel so much better. I fuck, I took that

731
00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:02,799
Speaker 2: walk a year ago almost damn. I mean, the video

732
00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:04,680
Speaker 2: came out in May, but I took that walk about

733
00:39:04,680 --> 00:39:09,080
Speaker 2: a year ago, and I feel so much better since then.

734
00:39:09,160 --> 00:39:12,480
Speaker 2: And the main reason, I one of the main reasons

735
00:39:12,560 --> 00:39:14,520
Speaker 2: I think I feel so much better is because I've been,

736
00:39:14,760 --> 00:39:19,280
Speaker 2: uh just just busier. I've been busier. I've been trying

737
00:39:19,320 --> 00:39:23,440
Speaker 2: to be a part of a community. I've been making

738
00:39:23,480 --> 00:39:27,160
Speaker 2: these uh these videos that I'm really enjoying doing, and

739
00:39:27,200 --> 00:39:30,480
Speaker 2: I you know, so it's it's interesting that that's what

740
00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:36,400
Speaker 2: you gleaned because that's uh definitely been my my my,

741
00:39:36,400 --> 00:39:40,800
Speaker 2: my findings. But Rio, I have a question for you.

742
00:39:40,840 --> 00:39:42,120
Speaker 2: I don't know if you have time to talk. You

743
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:45,160
Speaker 2: sound like you're If you have time to talk to great,

744
00:39:45,480 --> 00:39:48,120
Speaker 2: but let me let me let me ask youe this

745
00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:52,680
Speaker 2: It's okay. If not, I'm sure we can find our

746
00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:56,560
Speaker 2: way into a conversation of some sorts. But uh, do

747
00:39:56,600 --> 00:39:58,920
Speaker 2: you was there something specific you called in to want

748
00:39:58,960 --> 00:39:59,439
Speaker 2: to talk about?

749
00:40:01,160 --> 00:40:03,880
Speaker 4: Not really, man, I kind of just you know, I

750
00:40:03,920 --> 00:40:06,880
Speaker 4: was on a little fifteen minute break. I go on Instagram,

751
00:40:07,000 --> 00:40:09,759
Speaker 4: like the many times I do, and I saw you

752
00:40:09,800 --> 00:40:11,840
Speaker 4: were calling and I was like, I saw, I noticed

753
00:40:11,840 --> 00:40:14,120
Speaker 4: you posted it not even seventeen seconds ago when I

754
00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:16,160
Speaker 4: saw it, so I was like, if there's time to

755
00:40:16,640 --> 00:40:18,439
Speaker 4: there's a time to roll the dice, I might as well.

756
00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:21,040
Speaker 4: And look, Wi, I just wanted to say, man, you're

757
00:40:21,120 --> 00:40:22,520
Speaker 4: just You're one.

758
00:40:22,440 --> 00:40:25,080
Speaker 5: Of the very few people who so within.

759
00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:26,959
Speaker 1: The last couple of years, just.

760
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Speaker 4: Within the last year. In March, it'll be a year

761
00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:31,439
Speaker 4: since I just dropped out of uh, since I dropped

762
00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:34,359
Speaker 4: out of college, man, and uh, I've honestly felt the

763
00:40:34,360 --> 00:40:36,840
Speaker 4: most free I ever have felt. And just I that

764
00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:38,520
Speaker 4: was around the time you and you know, you know,

765
00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:41,200
Speaker 4: you had made that one of you you had posted

766
00:40:41,239 --> 00:40:43,719
Speaker 4: a video just calling another guy and you had said

767
00:40:43,719 --> 00:40:46,000
Speaker 4: sometimes you just got to do stuff and yeah, anyway,

768
00:40:46,840 --> 00:40:48,400
Speaker 4: I just wanted to say, man, you know, I I

769
00:40:48,640 --> 00:40:51,200
Speaker 4: you know, I've had a I've one aided my life

770
00:40:51,200 --> 00:40:53,759
Speaker 4: in certain ways where I just, you know, I just

771
00:40:53,800 --> 00:40:56,360
Speaker 4: had to relearn a lot of things. And it doesn't

772
00:40:56,360 --> 00:40:58,440
Speaker 4: help being I'm twenty I just turned twenty one a

773
00:40:58,480 --> 00:41:00,359
Speaker 4: couple of weeks ago, so I'm I'm really young. Man.

774
00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:03,560
Speaker 4: I've grown up with nothing but computers and internets and

775
00:41:03,600 --> 00:41:06,040
Speaker 4: phones and ships. So I really have to I just

776
00:41:06,080 --> 00:41:07,239
Speaker 4: have to learn to live without that.

777
00:41:07,280 --> 00:41:07,440
Speaker 1: Man.

778
00:41:07,520 --> 00:41:10,120
Speaker 4: I'm making a conscious effort to live without that stuff.

779
00:41:10,160 --> 00:41:12,880
Speaker 4: And the reason I'm going to that, man, is because

780
00:41:13,360 --> 00:41:17,080
Speaker 4: the the very few times, you're one of the very

781
00:41:17,080 --> 00:41:20,120
Speaker 4: few people who I've come across on the Internet who

782
00:41:20,160 --> 00:41:24,520
Speaker 4: has a very large and growing platform who actually feels

783
00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:28,120
Speaker 4: like a real person. You're one of the few people

784
00:41:28,320 --> 00:41:30,360
Speaker 4: on you know, you're one of the few people with

785
00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:33,840
Speaker 4: the platform that I come across that just you actually

786
00:41:33,840 --> 00:41:38,839
Speaker 4: feel like if somebody like, yeah, you really you really

787
00:41:38,880 --> 00:41:42,439
Speaker 4: represent just what what a person is, man, You really

788
00:41:42,440 --> 00:41:45,400
Speaker 4: represent what it is to be just a human.

789
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:48,279
Speaker 5: Just you know that.

790
00:41:48,480 --> 00:41:50,560
Speaker 4: And and I think a lot of people I don't.

791
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:53,000
Speaker 4: I don't really feel the need to elaborate, and I

792
00:41:53,000 --> 00:41:53,520
Speaker 4: feel like a lot.

793
00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:56,319
Speaker 2: Of go ahead, Well, can I ask you this? So

794
00:41:57,600 --> 00:42:02,640
Speaker 2: you've made a conscious decision to uh get rid of

795
00:42:02,680 --> 00:42:07,239
Speaker 2: tech and phones and and uh all this stuff. It's

796
00:42:07,560 --> 00:42:10,080
Speaker 2: I think there is something going on, and it might

797
00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:12,640
Speaker 2: be a little fringe of movement, but it's a fringe

798
00:42:12,680 --> 00:42:17,480
Speaker 2: but growing movement of people, uh kind of rejecting the

799
00:42:18,440 --> 00:42:21,400
Speaker 2: tech crazy landscape that we're in. So I want to

800
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:31,400
Speaker 2: know what was the catalyst for you of taking this

801
00:42:31,400 --> 00:42:34,839
Speaker 2: this this this shift, and then how's it been gone?

802
00:42:38,600 --> 00:42:41,880
Speaker 4: I just do you know, the dude, who plays the punisher,

803
00:42:42,320 --> 00:42:43,560
Speaker 4: the dude to what's his fun?

804
00:42:43,640 --> 00:42:44,200
Speaker 1: What's his name?

805
00:42:44,280 --> 00:42:47,439
Speaker 4: Like, like, I am not drawing a blank o name, Yeah,

806
00:42:47,520 --> 00:42:48,600
Speaker 4: John burnhal.

807
00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:49,960
Speaker 5: He he he hates naps.

808
00:42:49,960 --> 00:42:52,080
Speaker 4: He's like they're There are multiple videos of him talking

809
00:42:52,080 --> 00:42:54,360
Speaker 4: about how much he hates naps, and I feel like

810
00:42:54,440 --> 00:42:55,800
Speaker 4: spending hours and hours.

811
00:42:56,080 --> 00:42:57,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, he hates naps.

812
00:42:57,280 --> 00:43:02,200
Speaker 2: And one of the justifications earth, Yeah, he says, why

813
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:04,200
Speaker 2: does he Why does he hate naps?

814
00:43:04,920 --> 00:43:07,200
Speaker 4: One of his justifications And I can understand this to

815
00:43:07,239 --> 00:43:09,440
Speaker 4: an extent is he's basically saying, the whole world is

816
00:43:09,480 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 4: moving while you're sleeping at while you're taking a nap

817
00:43:11,719 --> 00:43:14,600
Speaker 4: at three pm. And you know, I can to an extent,

818
00:43:14,680 --> 00:43:17,239
Speaker 4: I understand that, brother, But I guess my point is

819
00:43:17,320 --> 00:43:21,799
Speaker 4: I feel I that it's I applied that to just

820
00:43:21,840 --> 00:43:24,480
Speaker 4: doom scrolling and spending time on the phone on the internet,

821
00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:27,440
Speaker 4: whether it be to just you know, pointless scrolling, or

822
00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:31,319
Speaker 4: it just just spending time on the internet just being

823
00:43:31,320 --> 00:43:36,000
Speaker 4: immersed in that world when reality is just going outside

824
00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:39,239
Speaker 4: and looking at the sun and listening to all the

825
00:43:39,239 --> 00:43:42,280
Speaker 4: different birds chirping and you know, saying hey to whoever's

826
00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:44,719
Speaker 4: walking their dogs across the sidewalk.

827
00:43:44,719 --> 00:43:45,920
Speaker 5: Outside of you, you know what I mean?

828
00:43:46,239 --> 00:43:49,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, I know. Here's the thing is, uh, I don't

829
00:43:49,360 --> 00:43:51,640
Speaker 2: think that should apply to naps. And I'm gonna tell

830
00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:56,560
Speaker 2: you why. Is because what I hate about scrolling is

831
00:43:56,600 --> 00:44:03,000
Speaker 2: that you you can you can just kind of like

832
00:44:03,920 --> 00:44:07,480
Speaker 2: find yourself scrolling, you know what I mean. You can

833
00:44:07,640 --> 00:44:12,480
Speaker 2: just be like it's so uh, like it's just your

834
00:44:12,680 --> 00:44:15,319
Speaker 2: habit for you to just pull out TikTok and like

835
00:44:15,400 --> 00:44:18,680
Speaker 2: before you even know it, you've spent all this time scrolling.

836
00:44:19,080 --> 00:44:20,759
Speaker 2: But it's funny because you can also do that with

837
00:44:20,800 --> 00:44:25,040
Speaker 2: a nap. You can find yourself napping as well. But

838
00:44:25,239 --> 00:44:26,960
Speaker 2: if you it's all about intention. I think it's all

839
00:44:26,960 --> 00:44:30,640
Speaker 2: about intention. That's what I hate. I hate when I

840
00:44:29,960 --> 00:44:32,960
Speaker 2: I hate when like the phone like steals time away

841
00:44:32,960 --> 00:44:34,680
Speaker 2: from me that I didn't give it. Like if I

842
00:44:34,719 --> 00:44:37,759
Speaker 2: sit down to watch a movie or or play a

843
00:44:37,840 --> 00:44:42,960
Speaker 2: video game or something, and the time is like I'm

844
00:44:43,040 --> 00:44:46,600
Speaker 2: choosing to spend my time doing this or choosing to

845
00:44:46,600 --> 00:44:49,160
Speaker 2: be with certain people. That's I think like it's it's

846
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:53,520
Speaker 2: about the intention more so than it is about the

847
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:56,520
Speaker 2: the activity itself. And typically we were kind of engineered

848
00:44:56,600 --> 00:45:00,600
Speaker 2: so that you find yourself just scrolling on this What

849
00:45:00,920 --> 00:45:01,880
Speaker 2: have you been doing instead?

850
00:45:03,480 --> 00:45:05,960
Speaker 4: Man, I've just been just reading more, man, just picking

851
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:08,399
Speaker 4: up books for just the sake of doing it. Man,

852
00:45:08,440 --> 00:45:10,799
Speaker 4: I have you know, It's funny. I was never the

853
00:45:10,840 --> 00:45:13,200
Speaker 4: best student growing up, but I just you know, I've

854
00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:15,200
Speaker 4: collected a bunch of books that I've had just over

855
00:45:15,280 --> 00:45:19,360
Speaker 4: time in school and just have encountered and just you know,

856
00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:21,600
Speaker 4: friends tell me about this book and whatever.

857
00:45:21,680 --> 00:45:23,560
Speaker 5: Man. So I've just been reading a lot more.

858
00:45:24,040 --> 00:45:24,560
Speaker 2: What are you reading?

859
00:45:26,920 --> 00:45:30,279
Speaker 4: I found a book at this antique store many months

860
00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:33,319
Speaker 4: ago I want to stay around may or June, and

861
00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:36,880
Speaker 4: it was by this man called Oh it's by this

862
00:45:36,960 --> 00:45:38,719
Speaker 4: man whose name was William H.

863
00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:39,560
Speaker 5: Dan Firth.

864
00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:42,440
Speaker 4: It is called the book is called I Dare You,

865
00:45:42,880 --> 00:45:46,440
Speaker 4: And it's the book is essentially him sitting at one

866
00:45:46,520 --> 00:45:48,319
Speaker 4: end of the table and you're on the other end

867
00:45:48,320 --> 00:45:50,759
Speaker 4: of the table, and he's saying, there are things that

868
00:45:50,920 --> 00:45:54,560
Speaker 4: you want to do, but for some reason you're too

869
00:45:54,560 --> 00:45:57,319
Speaker 4: scared to do them. You feel that the time isn't right.

870
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:58,799
Speaker 4: And he's saying, I dare you too.

871
00:45:59,280 --> 00:45:59,960
Speaker 5: I dare you to do it.

872
00:46:00,239 --> 00:46:03,480
Speaker 4: I dare you to live in every way I live.

873
00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:06,640
Speaker 5: I I dare you to go through with all the things.

874
00:46:06,360 --> 00:46:10,279
Speaker 4: That just just scare you, you know, all the things

875
00:46:10,280 --> 00:46:12,080
Speaker 4: that you're putting on hold because you got to do

876
00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:14,560
Speaker 4: you know, X, Y and C. First, you know, it's

877
00:46:14,600 --> 00:46:17,839
Speaker 4: it's it. If it wasn't, if it wasn't tying into

878
00:46:17,920 --> 00:46:20,239
Speaker 4: everything that you were talking about. You know, I don't

879
00:46:20,280 --> 00:46:20,560
Speaker 4: know what.

880
00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:22,560
Speaker 1: I don't know what I was being told at that time,

881
00:46:22,719 --> 00:46:23,640
Speaker 1: or you know what I mean.

882
00:46:24,200 --> 00:46:29,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, well I believe that. I believe that. I believe

883
00:46:29,960 --> 00:46:32,880
Speaker 2: that to an extent for sure. What what do you

884
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:34,000
Speaker 2: feel like you're putting off?

885
00:46:37,160 --> 00:46:41,480
Speaker 4: Well, I've just always you know, I think I'm just

886
00:46:41,520 --> 00:46:47,640
Speaker 4: putting off certain certain heart you know, just certain things

887
00:46:47,640 --> 00:46:51,440
Speaker 4: that I know are difficult, and well let me let me,

888
00:46:51,560 --> 00:46:52,920
Speaker 4: let me be a little more, let me be a

889
00:46:52,920 --> 00:46:55,920
Speaker 4: little more honest. Is that I've I haven't had much

890
00:46:57,040 --> 00:47:01,239
Speaker 4: these past this past these past six months have been

891
00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:03,840
Speaker 4: some very pivotal six months. And that's just because I've

892
00:47:04,160 --> 00:47:07,759
Speaker 4: given myself the time to just go to the BLOrk

893
00:47:07,880 --> 00:47:11,240
Speaker 4: and just you know, go walking, to just read books,

894
00:47:11,320 --> 00:47:13,920
Speaker 4: to just write. I mean, dude, if I had if

895
00:47:13,920 --> 00:47:15,040
Speaker 4: I wasn't able to park.

896
00:47:15,120 --> 00:47:19,680
Speaker 2: Well, so are are you? Are you putting what do

897
00:47:19,719 --> 00:47:24,040
Speaker 2: you what do you feel like you're putting off right now,

898
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:25,359
Speaker 2: right now.

899
00:47:25,480 --> 00:47:27,960
Speaker 4: If I have to just look at where I am

900
00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:30,200
Speaker 4: currently at right now in my life, i'd say I

901
00:47:30,239 --> 00:47:44,480
Speaker 4: am putting off. Hmmmm, I'd say I'm putting off. Yeah,

902
00:47:44,600 --> 00:47:49,000
Speaker 4: I honestly just you said this earlier and and it

903
00:47:49,080 --> 00:47:51,600
Speaker 4: really it stuck with me. It's just I think I'm

904
00:47:51,600 --> 00:47:55,960
Speaker 4: putting off really just kind of going out and developing

905
00:47:55,960 --> 00:47:58,560
Speaker 4: a community of my own and and and you know,

906
00:47:59,160 --> 00:48:02,040
Speaker 4: in one way, justin to just yeah, just being a

907
00:48:02,120 --> 00:48:04,640
Speaker 4: little more social. I'm I'm very I've always really been

908
00:48:04,640 --> 00:48:05,200
Speaker 4: to myself.

909
00:48:05,280 --> 00:48:06,000
Speaker 5: I've never been.

910
00:48:08,120 --> 00:48:11,520
Speaker 4: I guess I I've gotten used. I've gotten really used

911
00:48:11,520 --> 00:48:12,319
Speaker 4: and comfortable to.

912
00:48:14,600 --> 00:48:16,000
Speaker 5: Being yeah, yeah, just being.

913
00:48:16,080 --> 00:48:18,840
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I got myself.

914
00:48:19,280 --> 00:48:20,200
Speaker 2: Are you in college?

915
00:48:21,600 --> 00:48:21,880
Speaker 5: No?

916
00:48:21,880 --> 00:48:24,160
Speaker 4: No, no, no, no, I dropped out in March. It'll be a

917
00:48:24,200 --> 00:48:25,200
Speaker 4: year since I dropped out.

918
00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:27,320
Speaker 2: And oh yes, I'm sorry. I'm sorry you mentioned that,

919
00:48:27,360 --> 00:48:27,840
Speaker 2: you mentioned that.

920
00:48:28,520 --> 00:48:30,359
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, I'm not at school, man, I just uh

921
00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:31,680
Speaker 4: right now, I'm working at a.

922
00:48:31,680 --> 00:48:35,120
Speaker 5: Sprouts farmer's market. It's been two years this month.

923
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:40,279
Speaker 4: And the most like, the most socializing I do is

924
00:48:40,600 --> 00:48:44,399
Speaker 4: when I'm not working, I'm always at my nearby, my

925
00:48:44,400 --> 00:48:48,040
Speaker 4: my closest park and just playing basketball there. I'm going

926
00:48:48,040 --> 00:48:51,239
Speaker 4: there from usually six pm to eight pm. And yeah,

927
00:48:51,320 --> 00:48:52,840
Speaker 4: so you know, I you know, that's that's what I

928
00:48:52,960 --> 00:48:54,400
Speaker 4: that's what I've been doing for that.

929
00:48:54,480 --> 00:48:55,400
Speaker 5: That's great, you know, just a.

930
00:48:55,440 --> 00:48:57,560
Speaker 2: Way to way to Yeah, it's a great way to

931
00:48:57,600 --> 00:48:59,960
Speaker 2: stay fit. And you also, fucking I'm sure you meet

932
00:49:00,520 --> 00:49:02,760
Speaker 2: people who are going to the courts pretty often.

933
00:49:03,040 --> 00:49:05,040
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean, yeah, we're all boys, you know. You know,

934
00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:07,960
Speaker 4: after you know, after seeing the same group of guys

935
00:49:08,000 --> 00:49:09,880
Speaker 4: for you know, a couple of weeks straight, you know,

936
00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:11,480
Speaker 4: you just kind of you know, you get some know

937
00:49:11,560 --> 00:49:14,040
Speaker 4: their names and just it's just you know, just dudes

938
00:49:14,040 --> 00:49:16,480
Speaker 4: being dudes, man, And it ain't you know, it's it's

939
00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:18,560
Speaker 4: really no, it's it's not. It's never been an issue

940
00:49:18,560 --> 00:49:21,279
Speaker 4: for me to just be an elevator with a couple

941
00:49:21,280 --> 00:49:23,040
Speaker 4: of dudes and you know, make small talk and be

942
00:49:23,239 --> 00:49:26,240
Speaker 4: be cool with anybody. It's never been an issue, man, women, child,

943
00:49:26,680 --> 00:49:28,920
Speaker 4: It's always been an easy time to just you know,

944
00:49:29,040 --> 00:49:32,360
Speaker 4: talk to people and just kind of just be just

945
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:34,240
Speaker 4: be able to you know, just be received.

946
00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:34,480
Speaker 1: Well.

947
00:49:34,560 --> 00:49:38,920
Speaker 4: You know, uh, I've I have, I've been on the

948
00:49:38,960 --> 00:49:42,560
Speaker 4: Standoffer's side too. And it's funny that really came off

949
00:49:42,560 --> 00:49:45,960
Speaker 4: within the last couple of years. And that's just because

950
00:49:46,160 --> 00:49:47,839
Speaker 4: I don't know, I can't I can't really say I.

951
00:49:47,800 --> 00:49:48,680
Speaker 5: Was surrounded by.

952
00:49:50,239 --> 00:49:51,840
Speaker 4: Did you ever feel like growing up a lot of

953
00:49:51,840 --> 00:49:53,920
Speaker 4: friendships were just conditional?

954
00:49:57,239 --> 00:50:01,000
Speaker 2: Well, inherently they kind of are when you're growing up, right,

955
00:50:01,120 --> 00:50:04,960
Speaker 2: because if you're on the bus, you just are friends

956
00:50:04,960 --> 00:50:08,320
Speaker 2: with whoever else is on the bus, you know. But I,

957
00:50:09,040 --> 00:50:12,880
Speaker 2: I mean, I got I got lucky because my friends

958
00:50:12,880 --> 00:50:15,279
Speaker 2: and I we all kind of like grew up and

959
00:50:15,400 --> 00:50:22,520
Speaker 2: developed a similar sensibilities together, and and and you know,

960
00:50:22,760 --> 00:50:29,400
Speaker 2: histories and whatnot. It is. I guess you sound like

961
00:50:29,480 --> 00:50:32,520
Speaker 2: when you say conditionally, you're referring to some specific feeling.

962
00:50:34,600 --> 00:50:37,279
Speaker 4: Well, yeah, yeah, I guess I mean for you know,

963
00:50:37,400 --> 00:50:39,120
Speaker 4: I guess the example I was going to is, you

964
00:50:39,120 --> 00:50:42,319
Speaker 4: know I did formative years is growing up as a

965
00:50:42,360 --> 00:50:47,440
Speaker 4: younger man. I just uh, you know, I played sports.

966
00:50:47,480 --> 00:50:49,600
Speaker 4: But you know, when you're not really good at them,

967
00:50:49,800 --> 00:50:51,640
Speaker 4: you are you are more or less an odd man

968
00:50:51,680 --> 00:50:53,719
Speaker 4: out when when it comes to at least just being

969
00:50:53,760 --> 00:50:55,719
Speaker 4: on team fuck it, whether you're at recess, you know,

970
00:50:56,040 --> 00:50:58,680
Speaker 4: if you're not good, you're not you know, you're excluded.

971
00:50:59,120 --> 00:51:01,239
Speaker 4: If you're not good at this sport. If you're not

972
00:51:01,360 --> 00:51:03,080
Speaker 4: funny or if you're not you know, if you don't

973
00:51:03,440 --> 00:51:05,000
Speaker 4: you know, it was conditional.

974
00:51:05,440 --> 00:51:08,000
Speaker 2: I see you mean yeah, okay, yeah, okay, that makes

975
00:51:08,040 --> 00:51:08,439
Speaker 2: more sense.

976
00:51:08,560 --> 00:51:10,719
Speaker 4: That makes more sense, dude, even even I mean even

977
00:51:10,800 --> 00:51:11,600
Speaker 4: especially growing up.

978
00:51:11,600 --> 00:51:13,920
Speaker 5: I I you know, during the you know, in the two.

979
00:51:13,800 --> 00:51:16,040
Speaker 4: Thousand and ten, even if you didn't have a phone,

980
00:51:16,160 --> 00:51:20,080
Speaker 4: you were just left out to an extent. I mean,

981
00:51:20,320 --> 00:51:22,120
Speaker 4: you know, I feel like growing up and this is

982
00:51:22,320 --> 00:51:23,960
Speaker 4: you know, this is certainly for me at least. I know,

983
00:51:24,000 --> 00:51:27,759
Speaker 4: I can't speak for all the other billion people and

984
00:51:27,920 --> 00:51:29,680
Speaker 4: you know, in the world, but you know, there's just

985
00:51:29,840 --> 00:51:32,320
Speaker 4: you know, it's just a there there have been mass

986
00:51:32,360 --> 00:51:38,520
Speaker 4: waves of just so yeah, just comparison and comparison kills personality,

987
00:51:38,640 --> 00:51:41,920
Speaker 4: and there's just it's she asked me. It's just there's

988
00:51:42,239 --> 00:51:45,920
Speaker 4: a lot of that was just you know, just coming in,

989
00:51:46,880 --> 00:51:49,279
Speaker 4: just coming in low and truckloads just you know, with

990
00:51:49,360 --> 00:51:51,600
Speaker 4: the rise of social media and as every kid just

991
00:51:51,640 --> 00:51:54,040
Speaker 4: started having a phone, it was kind of you know,

992
00:51:55,160 --> 00:51:58,520
Speaker 4: people just became less personal.

993
00:51:59,880 --> 00:52:06,879
Speaker 2: Hm hm hm hm rio real real rio hm hmm.

994
00:52:12,640 --> 00:52:15,720
Speaker 2: I think that you have a good hunch to try

995
00:52:15,760 --> 00:52:21,440
Speaker 2: and remain connected, but don't. Don't people do? People do

996
00:52:21,480 --> 00:52:26,520
Speaker 2: this all the time, and I I try not to

997
00:52:27,400 --> 00:52:29,080
Speaker 2: like the idea. I don't know if you still believe this.

998
00:52:29,560 --> 00:52:33,560
Speaker 2: I don't know if you still believe that relationships are conditional.

999
00:52:34,440 --> 00:52:38,960
Speaker 2: But try not to hold onto that idea too tightly,

1000
00:52:39,520 --> 00:52:46,120
Speaker 2: because I I I often find that you kind of

1001
00:52:46,120 --> 00:52:51,799
Speaker 2: find whatever you're looking for. So if you view the

1002
00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:58,080
Speaker 2: world as like inherently I mean, I mean, the world

1003
00:52:58,160 --> 00:53:00,480
Speaker 2: is well, I mean the world is an inherently I

1004
00:53:00,480 --> 00:53:04,839
Speaker 2: guess conditional, but like just what just just just try

1005
00:53:04,880 --> 00:53:07,520
Speaker 2: not to be too on guard, you know what I'm saying, Like,

1006
00:53:07,520 --> 00:53:09,839
Speaker 2: like if you're because if you're because if you're, if

1007
00:53:09,840 --> 00:53:12,560
Speaker 2: you're so afraid of being like taking advantage of then

1008
00:53:12,680 --> 00:53:16,200
Speaker 2: you're just not going to be like open when the

1009
00:53:16,400 --> 00:53:20,000
Speaker 2: opportunity presents itself for you to be there, you know.

1010
00:53:20,120 --> 00:53:22,799
Speaker 2: But I think I think you're by going to the

1011
00:53:22,800 --> 00:53:27,480
Speaker 2: fucking uh uh basketball court and just like trying to

1012
00:53:27,480 --> 00:53:31,000
Speaker 2: socialize more. I think you're doing well for yourself rio

1013
00:53:32,320 --> 00:53:34,200
Speaker 2: And you know, it's a good idea, But I also

1014
00:53:34,280 --> 00:53:37,880
Speaker 2: I also like, inherently, uh, if your nature is to

1015
00:53:37,920 --> 00:53:49,279
Speaker 2: stay to yourself, you're I think you're doing a good

1016
00:53:49,280 --> 00:53:51,560
Speaker 2: thing by reversing that because you're it's better to be

1017
00:53:51,560 --> 00:53:56,400
Speaker 2: connected than to be uh, you know, jerking off doing nothing,

1018
00:53:57,120 --> 00:53:59,560
Speaker 2: I mean jerking off. Jerking off and playing video games

1019
00:53:59,560 --> 00:54:02,320
Speaker 2: is because you're off from playing video games is really cool.

1020
00:54:02,800 --> 00:54:06,120
Speaker 2: But like I ideally, I try, ideally, I try to

1021
00:54:06,320 --> 00:54:08,160
Speaker 2: make it so that like you want to be, you

1022
00:54:08,239 --> 00:54:10,880
Speaker 2: want to be jerking off and playing video games because

1023
00:54:11,120 --> 00:54:16,680
Speaker 2: you're tired or taking a break from being connected with

1024
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:19,759
Speaker 2: other people. You don't want to bet the reverse where

1025
00:54:19,760 --> 00:54:22,640
Speaker 2: you're mainly jerking off from playing video games and then

1026
00:54:25,440 --> 00:54:28,080
Speaker 2: occasionally seeing people. I figured out a life where I

1027
00:54:28,080 --> 00:54:31,160
Speaker 2: could jerk off multiple times a day and play video

1028
00:54:31,239 --> 00:54:35,840
Speaker 2: games and still talk to people. So I do know

1029
00:54:36,760 --> 00:54:37,360
Speaker 2: it's doable.

1030
00:54:38,320 --> 00:54:40,439
Speaker 4: Do not apply this to yourself while if you feel

1031
00:54:40,440 --> 00:54:42,440
Speaker 4: the meat too, then you know that's up to you.

1032
00:54:42,880 --> 00:54:45,200
Speaker 4: Uh I now that I actually like, I'm just glad

1033
00:54:45,200 --> 00:54:47,440
Speaker 4: to have a little platform right now. Anybody's listening to

1034
00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:52,600
Speaker 4: any band, any mail. Please just understand pornography, you know, steemen, retention,

1035
00:54:53,200 --> 00:54:56,239
Speaker 4: those things are first of all, pornography is something to

1036
00:54:56,239 --> 00:54:59,279
Speaker 4: stray away from, and it will kill your mind. It

1037
00:54:59,280 --> 00:55:01,600
Speaker 4: will it will will fuck up your brain more than

1038
00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:04,279
Speaker 4: heroin just as much, if anything. And I also want

1039
00:55:04,280 --> 00:55:07,000
Speaker 4: to say too that semen retention practice practice practice.

1040
00:55:07,000 --> 00:55:07,360
Speaker 5: Boys.

1041
00:55:07,480 --> 00:55:09,640
Speaker 4: Boys, y'all got to get your mind right, y'all got

1042
00:55:09,680 --> 00:55:12,240
Speaker 4: to get your mind right. Steman retention is simple power.

1043
00:55:12,320 --> 00:55:15,319
Speaker 4: It is just power that if we release constantly, we

1044
00:55:15,400 --> 00:55:16,720
Speaker 4: will not have power.

1045
00:55:18,040 --> 00:55:19,160
Speaker 5: That is literal drive.

1046
00:55:19,239 --> 00:55:21,920
Speaker 2: That is you're bury. You buried the lead. You buried

1047
00:55:21,920 --> 00:55:28,839
Speaker 2: the lead. Here to go ahead, go ahead, go ahead,

1048
00:55:28,840 --> 00:55:30,880
Speaker 2: and then I'm gonna give you my yeah, go ahead.

1049
00:55:31,840 --> 00:55:33,680
Speaker 4: Well look, man, I just want to I just want

1050
00:55:33,719 --> 00:55:35,960
Speaker 4: to take a couple of steps back. And I'm really

1051
00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:38,360
Speaker 4: glad you asked me what am I avoiding? Because maybe

1052
00:55:38,480 --> 00:55:41,320
Speaker 4: I'm not thinking. Maybe I'm still a little bit thinking.

1053
00:55:41,360 --> 00:55:44,680
Speaker 4: Maybe I'm thinking inside the box two. But no, man,

1054
00:55:44,719 --> 00:55:46,640
Speaker 4: I've just had hunters. I've just had hunches to just

1055
00:55:46,680 --> 00:55:49,920
Speaker 4: go and do things, just go, and you know, I

1056
00:55:50,120 --> 00:55:53,239
Speaker 4: don't take the time to just say, hey, I have

1057
00:55:53,360 --> 00:55:55,640
Speaker 4: the time to just drive up you know, to the

1058
00:55:55,880 --> 00:55:58,120
Speaker 4: you know, just up north to you know, flag steps

1059
00:55:58,120 --> 00:55:58,640
Speaker 4: stuff north.

1060
00:55:59,360 --> 00:56:01,839
Speaker 2: Sorry, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna I'm

1061
00:56:01,840 --> 00:56:05,360
Speaker 2: gonna interrupt you. Uh what why why are you? I

1062
00:56:05,640 --> 00:56:07,960
Speaker 2: I agree with you on porn. By the way, I

1063
00:56:08,040 --> 00:56:16,439
Speaker 2: do think porn is like inherently not I'm not gonna go. Listen, listen,

1064
00:56:16,440 --> 00:56:18,239
Speaker 2: I'm not going to go. I'm i I'm not gonna

1065
00:56:18,239 --> 00:56:20,080
Speaker 2: go as far as say that porn is evil, I

1066
00:56:20,080 --> 00:56:23,239
Speaker 2: don't think porn. I don't think porn is evil, but

1067
00:56:23,440 --> 00:56:28,560
Speaker 2: I think it's you know, I think porn is like donuts,

1068
00:56:28,840 --> 00:56:31,480
Speaker 2: you know what I mean, I really do porn is

1069
00:56:31,520 --> 00:56:33,480
Speaker 2: like donuts, like you don't like. I don't think don't.

1070
00:56:33,480 --> 00:56:35,399
Speaker 2: I don't think donuts are evil. I don't think people

1071
00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:39,360
Speaker 2: who make donuts are evil. I don't think, you know,

1072
00:56:40,880 --> 00:56:44,440
Speaker 2: the donut industry is inherently evil all that stuff. But

1073
00:56:45,560 --> 00:56:48,799
Speaker 2: and listen, I think I think it's phoenix. I think

1074
00:56:48,800 --> 00:56:50,839
Speaker 2: it's nice to have a donut every once in a while.

1075
00:56:50,840 --> 00:56:55,000
Speaker 2: I think sometimes you need a donut, right whatever. Like

1076
00:56:55,920 --> 00:56:59,520
Speaker 2: the healthiest a person who's now, a person who is

1077
00:56:59,600 --> 00:57:04,239
Speaker 2: eating healthy, it's probably not eating donuts, maybe in the

1078
00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:08,279
Speaker 2: same way that a person who has UH is practicing

1079
00:57:08,400 --> 00:57:12,840
Speaker 2: healthiness of the mind in general is probably not eating donuts.

1080
00:57:12,880 --> 00:57:16,360
Speaker 2: But I don't think donuts are evil, And I think, yes,

1081
00:57:16,400 --> 00:57:18,320
Speaker 2: if you hit a don't if you eat donuts every day,

1082
00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:22,520
Speaker 2: every morning and every night. That's probably pretty unhealthy. Yes,

1083
00:57:22,640 --> 00:57:25,680
Speaker 2: I I I agree with you on that with porn.

1084
00:57:31,080 --> 00:57:34,720
Speaker 2: But why do you why do you? Why? What's up

1085
00:57:34,760 --> 00:57:37,520
Speaker 2: with semen retention? What is that? Why are you obsessed

1086
00:57:37,520 --> 00:57:38,360
Speaker 2: with not coming?

1087
00:57:41,800 --> 00:57:49,160
Speaker 4: There have been They're just it's ancient. Mystics have practiced

1088
00:57:49,240 --> 00:57:53,680
Speaker 4: the the practice of semen they have, they have taken

1089
00:57:53,720 --> 00:57:57,680
Speaker 4: part in the practice of semen retention for you know, alchemy,

1090
00:57:57,680 --> 00:58:00,400
Speaker 4: alchemy reasons, you know, purposes regarding out can be.

1091
00:58:01,040 --> 00:58:03,880
Speaker 2: Literally you literally think it gives you superpowers.

1092
00:58:04,640 --> 00:58:07,720
Speaker 4: Essentially, dude, I mean there, I mean, there are there

1093
00:58:07,760 --> 00:58:14,120
Speaker 4: are chemical over there, there are chemical overlap there. There

1094
00:58:14,240 --> 00:58:18,960
Speaker 4: my bad, there's chemical overlap between the brain and just

1095
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:23,919
Speaker 4: steeming retention. I know there are I know, like.

1096
00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:28,040
Speaker 2: I'm gonna be I'm gonna, I'm gonna I'm gonna interrupt you.

1097
00:58:28,120 --> 00:58:31,520
Speaker 2: I if I had the choice between being able to

1098
00:58:31,640 --> 00:58:38,120
Speaker 2: levitate and being able to masturbate, I would choose masturbating easily.

1099
00:58:38,560 --> 00:58:41,120
Speaker 2: Superpowers don't, I don't. There's nothing I can do with them.

1100
00:58:41,240 --> 00:58:45,440
Speaker 2: If I like if I, if I if you, if

1101
00:58:45,440 --> 00:58:48,520
Speaker 2: I could trade, if I could trade my ability to

1102
00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:54,680
Speaker 2: come for like heat vision or whatever, I would I'd

1103
00:58:54,760 --> 00:58:58,760
Speaker 2: keep coming. Coming is more applicable to my life than

1104
00:58:58,840 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 2: any kind of superpower or alchemy. I don't. I'd rather

1105
00:59:03,360 --> 00:59:07,400
Speaker 2: coming as a greater place in my life than alchemy does.

1106
00:59:07,640 --> 00:59:10,280
Speaker 2: There's nothing useful I could do with superpowers.

1107
00:59:11,000 --> 00:59:14,120
Speaker 4: But that's because you've only done one of the things. Though, Man,

1108
00:59:14,240 --> 00:59:16,920
Speaker 4: I mean, look, I've never levitated. I can't. I'm not

1109
00:59:16,920 --> 00:59:19,200
Speaker 4: gonna speak for you. But it doesn't seem like you've

1110
00:59:19,200 --> 00:59:19,960
Speaker 4: ever levitated.

1111
00:59:20,040 --> 00:59:23,120
Speaker 2: But no, you can speak for me. I probably haven't. Yeah,

1112
00:59:23,120 --> 00:59:26,560
Speaker 2: go ahead, what what what superpowers are? What superpowers are

1113
00:59:26,600 --> 00:59:27,240
Speaker 2: you trying to get?

1114
00:59:28,200 --> 00:59:28,959
Speaker 5: Look, I'm just saying.

1115
00:59:28,960 --> 00:59:31,280
Speaker 4: First off, I'm gonna say first, I'm gonna say this first,

1116
00:59:31,600 --> 00:59:34,480
Speaker 4: that he vision would get my grilled cheese right. And

1117
00:59:34,600 --> 00:59:37,680
Speaker 4: the second thing I'll say is levitation. What is the

1118
00:59:37,800 --> 00:59:41,200
Speaker 4: apex of you know, of coming? What if that apex

1119
00:59:41,280 --> 00:59:44,160
Speaker 4: you reach when you come that fog? What is that's

1120
00:59:44,200 --> 00:59:47,280
Speaker 4: what you feel levitating? But just the entire time your

1121
00:59:47,560 --> 00:59:50,320
Speaker 4: your ass is separated from the ground, you know what

1122
00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:53,080
Speaker 4: I mean? What if that's just what if that's just

1123
00:59:53,120 --> 00:59:57,560
Speaker 4: the feeling that you have when you're stationary in the air, just.

1124
01:00:00,240 --> 01:00:03,800
Speaker 6: We've only got I would just then I would if

1125
01:00:03,880 --> 01:00:08,800
Speaker 6: levitating feels if levitating feels like coming, then then I'll

1126
01:00:08,840 --> 01:00:11,720
Speaker 6: just come instead of you to get it up.

1127
01:00:11,720 --> 01:00:14,400
Speaker 2: You get what I'm saying. If they're equal experience, do

1128
01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:15,320
Speaker 2: the easier one.

1129
01:00:16,520 --> 01:00:18,360
Speaker 4: I think it's like skiboard. I think now we're on

1130
01:00:18,440 --> 01:00:21,080
Speaker 4: like a ski skiing and a snowboarding thing, like you know,

1131
01:00:21,120 --> 01:00:22,040
Speaker 4: it's a.

1132
01:00:24,560 --> 01:00:28,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know what but this is but I don't.

1133
01:00:29,080 --> 01:00:29,520
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1134
01:00:29,600 --> 01:00:29,800
Speaker 4: Man.

1135
01:00:30,640 --> 01:00:31,880
Speaker 2: What's your name again for you?

1136
01:00:32,960 --> 01:00:34,360
Speaker 4: Yes, sir, yes, sir man.

1137
01:00:34,680 --> 01:00:38,000
Speaker 2: It is real, real, real, real. I'm going to say

1138
01:00:38,000 --> 01:00:39,720
Speaker 2: this before we go. You. First of all, thank you

1139
01:00:39,760 --> 01:00:40,800
Speaker 2: for the very kind words.

1140
01:00:40,800 --> 01:00:40,960
Speaker 1: Man.

1141
01:00:40,960 --> 01:00:43,920
Speaker 2: You seem like a really nice, uh sweet dude.

1142
01:00:44,920 --> 01:00:45,320
Speaker 5: I love you.

1143
01:00:45,560 --> 01:00:46,160
Speaker 1: You're a guy.

1144
01:00:46,520 --> 01:00:47,520
Speaker 2: Thank you, brother, Thank you.

1145
01:00:47,560 --> 01:00:47,840
Speaker 1: Brother.

1146
01:00:47,880 --> 01:00:49,880
Speaker 2: I I think I'm glad to hear you're getting out

1147
01:00:49,920 --> 01:00:54,760
Speaker 2: of the house. I'm glad, you know what. I'm glad

1148
01:00:54,760 --> 01:00:57,240
Speaker 2: you're not watching poor and it's probably not. It's like, yeah,

1149
01:00:57,560 --> 01:01:01,240
Speaker 2: you know the doughnut thing, and you know what, it

1150
01:01:01,400 --> 01:01:05,360
Speaker 2: sounds like seemen retention is going very well for you,

1151
01:01:05,720 --> 01:01:11,880
Speaker 2: so I mean, yeah, keep keep keep doing what you're doing.

1152
01:01:11,920 --> 01:01:12,120
Speaker 1: Brother.

1153
01:01:14,480 --> 01:01:14,680
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1154
01:01:15,320 --> 01:01:17,120
Speaker 2: Is there anything? Is there anything else you want to

1155
01:01:17,120 --> 01:01:18,840
Speaker 2: say to the people of the computer before we go.

1156
01:01:20,600 --> 01:01:22,880
Speaker 4: Before that, I have to ask you a question.

1157
01:01:23,520 --> 01:01:24,520
Speaker 2: I will answer a question.

1158
01:01:26,400 --> 01:01:27,880
Speaker 4: What do you plan on coming to Phoenix?

1159
01:01:27,920 --> 01:01:28,080
Speaker 1: Bro?

1160
01:01:29,040 --> 01:01:33,400
Speaker 2: Uh this September. I'm about to. I'm not gonna. I'm

1161
01:01:33,440 --> 01:01:35,320
Speaker 2: announcing a bounch of tour dates very soon. I just

1162
01:01:35,320 --> 01:01:39,120
Speaker 2: gotta do the like in like February, I'll announce a

1163
01:01:39,160 --> 01:01:40,960
Speaker 2: bunch of tour dates and ship so I'll be I'll

1164
01:01:41,000 --> 01:01:45,120
Speaker 2: come this month though, I mean not this month this year.

1165
01:01:45,680 --> 01:01:46,320
Speaker 5: You'll get it right, man?

1166
01:01:46,920 --> 01:01:47,000
Speaker 1: Then?

1167
01:01:47,080 --> 01:01:50,000
Speaker 2: But okay, well, I'll say if you say to me,

1168
01:01:50,080 --> 01:01:52,560
Speaker 2: you're like, I'm the guy we talked about levitating and masturbating,

1169
01:01:52,760 --> 01:01:53,920
Speaker 2: I'll probably remember.

1170
01:01:54,760 --> 01:01:59,200
Speaker 4: Levitation and masturbation. We got it, brother, I will say

1171
01:01:59,320 --> 01:02:04,800
Speaker 4: this before my sendoff. Man, is there there is only

1172
01:02:05,040 --> 01:02:10,560
Speaker 4: one There is only one eternal shared consciousness that is

1173
01:02:10,600 --> 01:02:14,440
Speaker 4: taking form of absolute trillions, and that is us.

1174
01:02:14,600 --> 01:02:15,640
Speaker 5: There's only one conscious.

1175
01:02:15,680 --> 01:02:18,200
Speaker 4: We all share one conscious and that is why we

1176
01:02:18,280 --> 01:02:23,000
Speaker 4: all have similar memories and similar ideas. And I mean

1177
01:02:23,200 --> 01:02:26,640
Speaker 4: they're like that, that whole one conscious, that eternal shared

1178
01:02:26,640 --> 01:02:29,880
Speaker 4: conscious that that is God. A lot of people aren't

1179
01:02:29,920 --> 01:02:34,480
Speaker 4: ready for that conversation, but God, that concept of basically

1180
01:02:34,520 --> 01:02:38,160
Speaker 4: divine source is consciousness. It is the fabric of reality,

1181
01:02:38,640 --> 01:02:41,000
Speaker 4: and there is only one and we all share it.

1182
01:02:41,080 --> 01:02:42,560
Speaker 5: We share it with the birds, we share it with

1183
01:02:42,600 --> 01:02:45,240
Speaker 5: the spiders, with the dogs.

1184
01:02:45,960 --> 01:02:48,919
Speaker 4: We all humans only see zero point zero zero three

1185
01:02:49,360 --> 01:02:53,360
Speaker 4: five percent of the light spectrum, so that entire ninety

1186
01:02:53,400 --> 01:02:58,600
Speaker 4: six percent whatever that's for the other living creatures that

1187
01:02:59,160 --> 01:03:03,320
Speaker 4: see different waves of light and see the echoes of

1188
01:03:03,360 --> 01:03:06,200
Speaker 4: sound waves. There's only one consciousness.

1189
01:03:06,760 --> 01:03:09,480
Speaker 7: And uh, you know, we're all one. We're all one,

1190
01:03:09,520 --> 01:03:11,479
Speaker 7: and we're just supposed to love each other. And love

1191
01:03:11,560 --> 01:03:17,400
Speaker 7: will level leve will transcend us all from this third dimension.

1192
01:03:17,600 --> 01:03:20,200
Speaker 7: And hile, I love you, man, and I'll see you

1193
01:03:20,240 --> 01:03:24,360
Speaker 7: when here in Phoenix. Man, I just know levitation and masturbation. Man,

1194
01:03:24,440 --> 01:03:26,800
Speaker 7: you're a great guy, dude, And just keep on putting

1195
01:03:26,840 --> 01:03:28,760
Speaker 7: smiles on people's faces, man, because you've been doing a

1196
01:03:28,760 --> 01:03:29,400
Speaker 7: great job at it.

1197
01:03:30,000 --> 01:03:33,640
Speaker 2: Yoh, stay safe and get blessed. Real appreciate you, grek

1198
01:03:33,720 --> 01:03:38,439
Speaker 2: blessed brother tick care That was Rio. You know what's

1199
01:03:38,480 --> 01:03:41,600
Speaker 2: crazy is think like, I don't think Rio was high

1200
01:03:41,800 --> 01:03:43,880
Speaker 2: when he was when he was talking just now. I

1201
01:03:43,880 --> 01:03:46,200
Speaker 2: don't think he was high when he was saying. Oh,

1202
01:03:46,240 --> 01:03:51,160
Speaker 2: that's stuff about humans can only see a portion of

1203
01:03:51,200 --> 01:03:54,920
Speaker 2: the light spectrum is Uh, what's crazy is think like

1204
01:03:56,040 --> 01:04:01,760
Speaker 2: things that like like you know, when like a guy

1205
01:04:01,840 --> 01:04:04,680
Speaker 2: has like an acid trip and is like talking about

1206
01:04:04,680 --> 01:04:06,320
Speaker 2: this ship and you're like, what the fuck is this

1207
01:04:06,360 --> 01:04:12,240
Speaker 2: guy talking about that? That person is always right, everything,

1208
01:04:12,440 --> 01:04:14,360
Speaker 2: everything real. I'm sure a lot of you heard what

1209
01:04:14,440 --> 01:04:16,440
Speaker 2: Rio's talking just now and you were like, this guy's high.

1210
01:04:16,480 --> 01:04:19,400
Speaker 2: What the fuck is he talking about? And you're valid

1211
01:04:19,440 --> 01:04:24,120
Speaker 2: and you're valid to think that. But he he was

1212
01:04:24,320 --> 01:04:26,480
Speaker 2: just he was right about one hundred percent of what

1213
01:04:26,520 --> 01:04:29,400
Speaker 2: he was talking about. It's all true. It's all true

1214
01:04:30,480 --> 01:04:35,360
Speaker 2: where there's one consciousness. He I don't think he was high.

1215
01:04:35,720 --> 01:04:36,960
Speaker 2: I don't even I don't think you need to be

1216
01:04:37,080 --> 01:04:46,240
Speaker 2: high to come to that conclusion. It's true. Yeah. Sometimes

1217
01:04:46,840 --> 01:04:49,200
Speaker 2: sometimes I'm like, fucking I'm on that ship, you know

1218
01:04:49,240 --> 01:04:53,400
Speaker 2: what I mean. I'm like thinking about, uh, there's only

1219
01:04:53,480 --> 01:04:55,520
Speaker 2: one consciousness, and I'm thinking about the divinity of the

1220
01:04:55,600 --> 01:04:59,320
Speaker 2: universe and shit. And then someone's like, uh, you know,

1221
01:05:01,120 --> 01:05:03,600
Speaker 2: maybe maybe you're on the divinity of the universe and shit.

1222
01:05:03,640 --> 01:05:09,160
Speaker 2: And then your girl is like, uh, you know, making

1223
01:05:09,240 --> 01:05:16,040
Speaker 2: cookies or something. Your friend's making cookies, your boyfriend's making cookies,

1224
01:05:16,080 --> 01:05:21,480
Speaker 2: someone's making cookies. You're on the divine universe and you're

1225
01:05:21,480 --> 01:05:23,960
Speaker 2: talking about this shit, and then your friend making cookies

1226
01:05:24,040 --> 01:05:25,720
Speaker 2: is like, what the fuck are you talking about? And

1227
01:05:25,760 --> 01:05:27,720
Speaker 2: you're looking at your friend like you don't. Fuck, you

1228
01:05:27,720 --> 01:05:31,640
Speaker 2: have no fucking idea. You have no fucking idea what

1229
01:05:31,760 --> 01:05:35,680
Speaker 2: I have discovered about how the fucking universe is one

1230
01:05:35,760 --> 01:05:37,320
Speaker 2: and that we only live one life and that we

1231
01:05:37,360 --> 01:05:40,920
Speaker 2: are grains of sand and a vast desert of consciousness

1232
01:05:40,920 --> 01:05:43,280
Speaker 2: shared by the birds and the ants, and all the

1233
01:05:43,280 --> 01:05:46,320
Speaker 2: show you're freaking out. You're like, you're so, you're like,

1234
01:05:46,360 --> 01:05:48,920
Speaker 2: this fucking person, I'm saying this too. They don't fucking

1235
01:05:49,040 --> 01:05:52,600
Speaker 2: what the like, they can't even comprehend where my mind

1236
01:05:52,680 --> 01:05:55,000
Speaker 2: is right now. And then they're like, have a cookie,

1237
01:05:55,040 --> 01:05:56,800
Speaker 2: and you eat a cookie. I like, this cookie is good,

1238
01:05:58,720 --> 01:06:02,200
Speaker 2: you know, And then it's like, hey, the person baking cookies.

1239
01:06:02,240 --> 01:06:04,560
Speaker 2: They were it's like you can look. You look at them,

1240
01:06:04,560 --> 01:06:06,160
Speaker 2: and you're like, oh, they're like they're not on my

1241
01:06:06,240 --> 01:06:08,560
Speaker 2: level of consciousness. And then you're like, well, motherfucker, they're

1242
01:06:08,560 --> 01:06:11,480
Speaker 2: more conscious. They're they're they're seeing shit that I'm not

1243
01:06:11,560 --> 01:06:15,000
Speaker 2: even seeing, which is that cookies are good. They're not

1244
01:06:15,040 --> 01:06:17,160
Speaker 2: even seeing it. They're doing better than seeing it. They're

1245
01:06:17,200 --> 01:06:21,520
Speaker 2: expressing it everything. You're fucking up here thinking about where

1246
01:06:21,560 --> 01:06:23,640
Speaker 2: you're looking at people and you're like, they can't, they

1247
01:06:23,680 --> 01:06:28,520
Speaker 2: can't be on my fucking level of consciousness. They're they're

1248
01:06:28,560 --> 01:06:31,760
Speaker 2: they're actually they're at a higher level of consciousness than

1249
01:06:31,800 --> 01:06:33,800
Speaker 2: you are because they're not thinking about this ship. They're

1250
01:06:33,840 --> 01:06:37,520
Speaker 2: living it. They're doing it. They're making cookies, they're painting

1251
01:06:37,520 --> 01:06:40,640
Speaker 2: a they're calling their mom on the phone, they're taking

1252
01:06:40,680 --> 01:06:44,960
Speaker 2: a walk and looking at something. They're living this thing.

1253
01:06:46,480 --> 01:06:50,280
Speaker 2: So we're all It all evens out the consciousness, the

1254
01:06:50,280 --> 01:06:56,400
Speaker 2: spectrum of consciousness in that way, you're either living it

1255
01:06:56,560 --> 01:07:01,440
Speaker 2: or you're thinking about it, one of those two things. Personally,

1256
01:07:03,000 --> 01:07:06,600
Speaker 2: it's probably a little bit. I think it's better to

1257
01:07:06,680 --> 01:07:11,640
Speaker 2: live it. I'd say it's eighty twenty eighty five fifteen

1258
01:07:12,880 --> 01:07:19,960
Speaker 2: eighty five fifteen living thinking. That's a good ratio. I

1259
01:07:20,120 --> 01:07:25,640
Speaker 2: take seventy thirty living thinking. But you want the majority

1260
01:07:25,720 --> 01:07:32,480
Speaker 2: to be uh living, baking your metaphorical cookies, whatever they

1261
01:07:32,520 --> 01:07:36,560
Speaker 2: may be. Week goes on the line, taking your phone

1262
01:07:36,600 --> 01:07:38,520
Speaker 2: calls every nine every.

1263
01:07:38,280 --> 01:07:39,800
Speaker 4: Weak and goes to his hide.

1264
01:07:39,960 --> 01:07:42,520
Speaker 1: He's teaching yours loud in the of your life, but

1265
01:07:42,720 --> 01:07:43,680
Speaker 1: he's not ready.

1266
01:07:43,880 --> 01:07:45,480
Speaker 2: An expert