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Speaker 1: Mental health checking for today, and just got back from

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Speaker 1: a twenty two hour trek back from Qatar from our

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Speaker 1: Salute to Service show. So I'm exhausted. In the past,

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Speaker 1: when I was exhausted, oh my god, my gray was horrific.

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Speaker 1: I would wake up very depressed in the gray. Um,

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Speaker 1: you know, lack of sleep really lends to that depression,

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Speaker 1: that anxiety, those roommates in our head just not talking

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Speaker 1: nicely at each other. But this trip, knowing that, I

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Speaker 1: set myself up for success, like I continue to tell myself,

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Speaker 1: all right, listen, you're gonna have lack of sleep. So

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Speaker 1: lack of sleep tends to make you a little bit

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Speaker 1: more paranoid, a little bit more like sky is falling,

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Speaker 1: a little bit more like man, things of the universe

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Speaker 1: are just gonna come crashing down around you. So I

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Speaker 1: knew what going in. So I kind of took that

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Speaker 1: element of surprise away from the gray by preparing going

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Speaker 1: into it, and then throughout the entire time I reminded

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Speaker 1: myself of it also, So here I am, I landed,

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Speaker 1: got a little sleep here, woke up today and I

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Speaker 1: almost had this like self assurance of Okay, you're supposed

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Speaker 1: to be in the grave because you've had lack of sleep,

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Speaker 1: and the resulted me attacking it beforehand, knowing what triggers it.

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Speaker 1: I didn't get triggered. Very proud of myself actually that

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Speaker 1: I was able to work through it proactively instead of

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Speaker 1: dealing with it reactively. So I appreciate you all listening

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Speaker 1: to this. I'm still exhausted from the trip. I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: in a much better place than I normally would be

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Speaker 1: what I'm exhausted because I knew it going in, so

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Speaker 1: I knew how to attack it. If you attack it

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Speaker 1: and you see it and you realize it, you take

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Speaker 1: away that I little bit of surprise, or you're able

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Speaker 1: to just say, okay, like here's the reason why I

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Speaker 1: feel this way. You take away the grays power.