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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effect. Oh should we onna air? Welcome

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Speaker 1: back to yet another carefully Reckless episode with your girl

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Speaker 1: just hilarious. I'm gonna jump straight in just fix my

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Speaker 1: mess now again. These people will remain anonymous. And like

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Speaker 1: I said at the top of every episode now and

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Speaker 1: which is also in the bio and the Carefully Reckless

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Speaker 1: page on Instagram, you can send in voice memos, you

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Speaker 1: can send in paragraphs, essays, whatever you want. But if

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Speaker 1: you do send in a paragraph, or if you write

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Speaker 1: it or whatever, please spell check before you submit, because

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Speaker 1: that might be the reason that I don't read it in.

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Speaker 1: Your story may actually really be good, and I actually

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Speaker 1: may have some really good advice for you, but please

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Speaker 1: felt check, guys, please please please jumping straight in, Hey

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Speaker 1: jos I need help. I'm sick of my baby father

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Speaker 1: and his damn Okay, okay, I'm gonna start that over then,

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Speaker 1: all right, Hey Jess, I need help. I'm sick of

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Speaker 1: my baby father and his inconsistent ass. Ways, let me backtrack.

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Speaker 1: We've been together for seven years, have a child together,

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Speaker 1: and all through the relationship there was something that should

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Speaker 1: have caused us to break up, like his first baby

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Speaker 1: mother or the jail stuff. But I stayed and we

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Speaker 1: have a child. Now. One thing she's gonna keep telling

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Speaker 1: me is we got that child. Okay, they got that child.

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Speaker 1: So if y'all didn't know for the third time already,

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Speaker 1: and I'm only ten seconds into the story, they have

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Speaker 1: a child, all right. Now. I had to go through

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Speaker 1: so much from my place. I called home on my

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Speaker 1: own with nothing but minimal assistance from him. I got

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Speaker 1: my keys, he lives with me. There's no real bills

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Speaker 1: being paid. He's still got stuff going on with the law.

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Speaker 1: And all he can say for me to not want

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Speaker 1: to give up is because of love or starting over.

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Speaker 1: But it's said because I want to start over. And

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Speaker 1: she wrote that in all caps to y'all want to

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Speaker 1: start over, and not with anyone in particular, just a

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Speaker 1: do over to be happy. I don't feel loved or appreciated.

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Speaker 1: I feel used. I feel like I'm here for comfortability.

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Speaker 1: In the minute he gets go, he's gone. Now. I

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Speaker 1: don't know what that means. That could be some new slang.

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Speaker 1: And if y'all know what it means, then y'all tell me.

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Speaker 1: If not, We're just gonna keep on rolling, mainly because

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Speaker 1: I don't try to make him feel bad, but I

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Speaker 1: get mad at him when he thinks he has some

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Speaker 1: say so on some ship in my house. I don't

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Speaker 1: want to be like it's mine, mine, mine. But I

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Speaker 1: worked hard alone with my child and he just piggybacks

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Speaker 1: off of what I do and what I did. I

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Speaker 1: have to help him do everything at his twenty nine

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Speaker 1: years of age, job applications, everything, and I know it's

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Speaker 1: not because he don't know how. He just feels like

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Speaker 1: I should, and when I don't, I'm always looked at wrong.

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Speaker 1: I'm starting to resent him and I'm not sure what

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Speaker 1: to do. Yes, I love him and my in love. No.

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Speaker 1: Do I think I've outgrown this. Yes, but I'm also

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Speaker 1: a virgo and I do impulse of things when I'm

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Speaker 1: in my feelings. Your podcast always gives me clarity on things.

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Speaker 1: Oh okay, baby girls. So look, I'm gonna start off

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Speaker 1: by saying I'm gonna quaries and I do impulsive things

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Speaker 1: out of emotion. So I don't think that's a sign thing.

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Speaker 1: I don't think that that's an astrology thing. I think

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Speaker 1: that's more of just an emotional person. Who you are

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Speaker 1: all women, I'm not even gonna say we're women. So

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Speaker 1: we do that because all women don't react that way

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Speaker 1: too emotions or when they're in their feelings, and all

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Speaker 1: men don't do that. I know men that do it,

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Speaker 1: and I know women that do it. It's just you

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Speaker 1: are very in tune with three emotions, and sometimes we

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Speaker 1: don't know how to control ourselves when we're so deep

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Speaker 1: in our feelings. So don't put that on all Virgos

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Speaker 1: because I'm pretty sure all of Virgo's listeners probably like girl,

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Speaker 1: I'll be doing it, you know. So you ask yourself

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Speaker 1: a series of questions, you know, And these are all

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Speaker 1: the questions I was gonna ask. Other than do you

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Speaker 1: love him? I know you love him, I was going

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Speaker 1: to ask you, are you in love? You know? And

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Speaker 1: that's two different things. A lot of people have their

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Speaker 1: They're their own beliefs or thinks on that. But I

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Speaker 1: they're Also is a difference between loving someone and loving

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Speaker 1: someone unconditionally. So obviously you don't love him unconditionally. You're

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Speaker 1: not in love and you think you've outgrown him. So basically,

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you what you're looking for. You're looking

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Speaker 1: for a confirmation. That's what it is. It seems like

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Speaker 1: that you want to start over. You put that in

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Speaker 1: all caps, girl, you wanted to start over, and then

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Speaker 1: you didn't only write it once, you wrote it twice.

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Speaker 1: You're done. You're tired. You're tired of him leaching, You're

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Speaker 1: tired of being superwoman of the house. And listen, while

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Speaker 1: that is something that we will always have to do

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Speaker 1: when you leave him. If you leave him, if you're

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Speaker 1: just in the household by yourself with your child, yes,

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Speaker 1: hero to that child. You have to be the role model,

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Speaker 1: you have to be the stature you do. But when

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Speaker 1: to be lifted from your shoulders and you don't feel

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Speaker 1: like you have a support system. Basically, he leans on

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Speaker 1: you lean on? And I understand that, So you feel

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Speaker 1: like you can do it by yourself without the man

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Speaker 1: think you're just looking for a confirmation. Girl twenty nine

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Speaker 1: years old and you have to help him fill out applications. Listen,

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Speaker 1: that is not your oldest child. But I know that

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Speaker 1: it feels like it. I know it feels like I've

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Speaker 1: been in a relationship like this before. The only thing

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Speaker 1: is I do not have children with the guy. But

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Speaker 1: I felt as if I was taking care of someone

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Speaker 1: else's son who was supposed to be taking care of

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Speaker 1: his responsibilities and helping to take care of me in

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Speaker 1: my household because it was my house. He just moved

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Speaker 1: in it. I was always the breadwinner, taking care of

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Speaker 1: him and I and my son, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: And there were times that I struggled trying to take

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Speaker 1: care of all three of us because I didn't always

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Speaker 1: have the best damn job, but I could always fend

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Speaker 1: for myself. After going through a bunch of obstacles when

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Speaker 1: for confirmation, I'm giving it to you. Yes, yes, yes,

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Speaker 1: because the only thing that you said positive about this

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Speaker 1: do love him, but you love yourself more. You love

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Speaker 1: your mental stability more. No woman or man should have

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Speaker 1: to live miserably to accommodate somebody else's feelings. I was

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Speaker 1: just speaking on this on last week's episode. We robbed

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Speaker 1: ourselves of happiness at the expense of other people's feelings.

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Speaker 1: We lose ourselves in our relationships and our friendships and

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Speaker 1: and with these bonds, and we we attach ourselves to

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Speaker 1: these people, and we give them the sense of entitlement

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Speaker 1: by doing so. That allows you, in some cases, to

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Speaker 1: even give power to someone. You know you're you're giving

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Speaker 1: someone power over you. When you dim your light to shine,

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Speaker 1: there is brighter and they ain't even gonna shine on

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Speaker 1: their own. You understand what I'm saying. So that's what

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Speaker 1: you're doing. You're constantly building this man up, and I

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Speaker 1: think it's training you. Now you've come to the point

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Speaker 1: he's twenty nine, I guess you're not too far before

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Speaker 1: or after him. You know what you want. You're a woman,

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Speaker 1: a strong beautiful black woman. I'm looking at your picture

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Speaker 1: right now, you and that sounds kind of creepy, but

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Speaker 1: you know that I'm looking at your picture right now. Relax,

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Speaker 1: I just want to take some pictures. I'm joking. I'm sorry. Um,

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Speaker 1: you seem like you know exactly what you want, not

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Speaker 1: seeing you know what you want. So now you just

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Speaker 1: have to take that step, and that actually needs to

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Speaker 1: be a conversation with him as well, and do not

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Speaker 1: let him say, well, you seem like, yeah, I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: let him keep reeling you back in because this has

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Speaker 1: been the same song and dance for a while now

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Speaker 1: as you have put it. So I think you should

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Speaker 1: sit and tell him there needs to be a conversation.

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Speaker 1: Communicate with him exactly how you communicated with me. Tell

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Speaker 1: I know that we have a child and I and

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Speaker 1: I've tried, and I tried, and I tried to make

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Speaker 1: different households. But I cannot keep carrying all this weight

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Speaker 1: by myself. If he doesn't understand that he's still got

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Speaker 1: He's supposed to know that you're tired. He's supposed to

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Speaker 1: get his ship together. He's supposed to know you will

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Speaker 1: leave his ass. He's supposed to know that he is

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Speaker 1: fucking replaceable, whether he is your child's father or not.

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Speaker 1: He's supposed to know, but he does not. So sometimes

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Speaker 1: Hold up, I know the ship getting good, but listen

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna just get straight into it. I don't know

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Speaker 1: if it's more of a question or a conversation, but

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Speaker 1: what is up with the mentality of men these days? Girl?

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Speaker 1: I'm still trying to figure it out. At thirty five

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Speaker 1: years old, I am finding that the problem with these

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Speaker 1: men are one and the same within the African American

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Speaker 1: dating community. Come on, stats now, I have never been

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Speaker 1: good at sugarcoating ship. So here we go. Where is

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Speaker 1: the black man's mentality today. Are y'all trying to be thugs, hustlers, pimps, bums, delinquents,

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Speaker 1: Brother's because I'm finding that the ones trying ain't trying

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Speaker 1: hard enough. And this is not to ignore the many independent,

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Speaker 1: successful black males. I know y'all exist, but this ain't

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Speaker 1: about you. All right now, I love her, Okay, you

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Speaker 1: could be doing everything right in a relationship and your

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Speaker 1: mentality still be long. I try not to judge a

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Speaker 1: man for being on hard times. I met my man

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Speaker 1: at work, but ship. He's not stable, doesn't have his

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Speaker 1: a year, but don't ask me about moving in. Now

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Speaker 1: I have to question why a grown ass man doesn't

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Speaker 1: want his own ship. Moving in. Ship is for marriage,

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Speaker 1: because if you miss me so badly, marry me, Like damn.

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Speaker 1: I want to go to my man's house, lay up

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Speaker 1: in his ship, smell his clothes, wash his dishes, see

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Speaker 1: how he lives and maintains. I need all men to

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Speaker 1: drop this mentality and pick up a new one, because

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Speaker 1: I'm a grown ass woman. You niggas have no education,

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Speaker 1: no experience. Get the jobs you can get, work your

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Speaker 1: create stability for yourself and your family. I was homeless

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Speaker 1: Some husbands evolved differently than their wives. So yes, you

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Speaker 1: they moved together, and you know, to save money, They

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Speaker 1: pisses you off. Everything he would do pisses you off

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Speaker 1: how she learned the importance of stability, guys, and getting

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Speaker 1: very serious question that she asks. Why are the mentality

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Speaker 1: be thugs, hustless pimps, bums? Delinquents, entrepreneurs or plain old felons.

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Speaker 1: you all right now, all right, So I see that

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Speaker 1: do the thugs, the the bombs, the leeches, that the

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Speaker 1: niggas that leach off women, and and you know what

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Speaker 1: I'm saying, I'm gonna tell you all this. And I

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Speaker 1: used to do this series called co Parenting Therapy. I

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Speaker 1: woke up. I'm like, oh, ship, I had a day

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Speaker 1: dream of me smacking the ship out this nigga for

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Speaker 1: I didn't touch in real life. It's actually you can

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Speaker 1: daydreamed that I pushed this nigga out in front of

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Speaker 1: And this is very revealing to you guys that I

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Speaker 1: But I cannot believe that men actually think like that.

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Speaker 1: He doesn't think like that now, because we've come a far,

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Speaker 1: And that ain't what you're teaching your damn daughters to

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Speaker 1: of his family. It's two different things, and y'all can

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Speaker 1: I love this. I love what she said. Should we

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Speaker 1: need to check back in with her, don't we? Don't

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Speaker 1: you know how I tell them? All right, y'all check

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Speaker 1: And I think it's safe to say we get ended

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