WEBVTT - "I OWN OSAMA BIN LADEN’S CAR” 0:00:01.639 --> 0:00:03.240 Hello, is this the get Go guy? 0:00:03.600 --> 0:00:04.520 Yeah? What's that man? 0:00:04.720 --> 0:00:09.200 Whoa it's an honor. Well I need some advice. It's 0:00:09.240 --> 0:00:11.719 a quite a it's quite a unique one. 0:00:12.360 --> 0:00:13.200 Yeah, sure, hit me. 0:00:13.560 --> 0:00:18.440 Well, basically, I go to Afghanistan from time to time 0:00:19.160 --> 0:00:23.640 and I ended up befriending the Taliban. Long story, and 0:00:23.680 --> 0:00:25.520 I made a good amount of money from it. To 0:00:25.560 --> 0:00:29.480 be honest, I could retire from it, but I'd really 0:00:29.520 --> 0:00:33.040 put a damping out my social life because you know, 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:36.440 I go out, I meet some new people and you know, 0:00:36.479 --> 0:00:39.080 they say they do like digital marketing or something, and 0:00:39.200 --> 0:00:41.879 they turn to me, oh, what do you do? And 0:00:41.880 --> 0:00:45.360 when I say, yeah, I like bought a tank from 0:00:45.400 --> 0:00:48.080 the Taliban and I'd sold it to an American collector. 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:51.560 And then suddenly they run away or like they reported 0:00:51.640 --> 0:00:55.080 me with the police, or you know, they just talk 0:00:55.120 --> 0:00:57.640 about human rights and stuff. But to be honest, I 0:00:57.760 --> 0:01:00.000 kind of enjoy it, Like they're kind of like my talent. 0:01:00.960 --> 0:01:02.720 I just don't know how to talk to people. Like 0:01:02.760 --> 0:01:05.760 I've got a girlfriend. She's autistic enough to like it. 0:01:06.640 --> 0:01:08.320 What do I say when I meet to parents? 0:01:08.360 --> 0:01:10.400 You know, what's your name? 0:01:11.840 --> 0:01:15.520 Miles? We spoke before, Yeah. 0:01:15.360 --> 0:01:20.039 We've never we Okay, we've never spoken on the podcast before, 0:01:20.120 --> 0:01:23.120 but uh we DMed back and forth a little bit 0:01:23.160 --> 0:01:25.280 because you you sent me a message just shortly after 0:01:25.319 --> 0:01:27.480 I went to Iraq. You sent me a message and 0:01:27.520 --> 0:01:30.800 you were like, you said, hey, if you ever want 0:01:30.800 --> 0:01:34.640 to come to Afghanistan, I'll show you around. I own 0:01:34.640 --> 0:01:39.520 Osama bin Laden's car. And I saw that message and 0:01:39.560 --> 0:01:41.559 I was like, what the fuck are you talking about? 0:01:41.600 --> 0:01:43.760 So I responded and we chatted back and forth a 0:01:43.800 --> 0:01:45.640 little bit, and then you sent me a bunch of 0:01:45.640 --> 0:01:50.640 crazy stuff and I was like. I was like, and 0:01:50.880 --> 0:01:53.080 we can have this conversation for sure, but we you 0:01:53.080 --> 0:01:55.200 sent me a bunch of crazy stuff and I was like, oh, 0:01:55.400 --> 0:01:56.880 I don't know about this man. I don't know if 0:01:56.880 --> 0:02:00.640 I'm going to go to Afghanistan because after Yanistan, I 0:02:00.680 --> 0:02:02.000 don't listen. I'm not going to pretend like I know 0:02:02.040 --> 0:02:06.240 a lot about Afghanistan, but like I feel like Afghanistan 0:02:06.240 --> 0:02:08.920 and Iraq are different ball games. 0:02:09.960 --> 0:02:12.280 That's true. That is true. Well, you know, if you 0:02:12.320 --> 0:02:15.360 go to North End to Ireland and you show these people, 0:02:15.480 --> 0:02:19.880 say a mobile phone, they'll think you're crazy. However, to 0:02:19.960 --> 0:02:23.680 a wise man, it's just normal technology. That's that's you 0:02:23.800 --> 0:02:27.680 view my messages to me only your southern Middlardin's car. 0:02:28.040 --> 0:02:30.120 Because what I did. I went to the village where 0:02:30.120 --> 0:02:33.280 he was and I was like, hey, buddy, hey pal, 0:02:34.120 --> 0:02:36.720 you know this car here in this photograph? Where is it? 0:02:36.760 --> 0:02:39.080 And I tracked it down and I'm like, huh, how 0:02:39.200 --> 0:02:44.239 much is this to buy? Eight thousand dollars? Okay ring ring? 0:02:44.280 --> 0:02:46.760 Hello auction house? How much would my this met worth? 0:02:47.560 --> 0:02:51.000 One point two million? And then I'm like, wow, this 0:02:51.040 --> 0:02:54.520 is great business, you know, think about it. So to me, 0:02:55.880 --> 0:03:00.680 this is nowhere and business sense really yeah. 0:03:00.280 --> 0:03:05.600 So Miles, you know, Miles, I've I've I'm not like, 0:03:05.840 --> 0:03:08.200 uh what, I've talked to a bunch of people and 0:03:08.200 --> 0:03:10.520 I've seen a bunch of stuff. So I'm willing to 0:03:10.560 --> 0:03:16.280 believe that, like, uh, whatever whoever you are and whatever 0:03:16.320 --> 0:03:20.400 you're doing is authentic. I'm willing to believe. I'm I'm more, 0:03:20.800 --> 0:03:24.359 I genuinely mean this, willing to believe that you owned 0:03:24.440 --> 0:03:27.800 Osama bin Laden's car and that you are this guy 0:03:28.160 --> 0:03:31.360 than than that you're pulling a prank on me. But 0:03:31.400 --> 0:03:33.840 I do I I let's start from the very beginning. 0:03:37.160 --> 0:03:44.400 So how do you not scare the hose. Yeah, we'll 0:03:44.440 --> 0:03:47.360 get into that, but I want to know. Hold, well, 0:03:47.360 --> 0:03:49.200 come on, we'll get into that. Let's let's go from 0:03:49.240 --> 0:03:51.000 the start, from the beginning. How old are you? 0:03:51.040 --> 0:03:55.200 Miles twenty six but my hairline saints forty? 0:03:56.280 --> 0:03:58.480 And uh, where are you from? Originally? 0:04:00.080 --> 0:04:02.600 Unfortunately the very dangerous play. I'm kind of used to that. 0:04:02.880 --> 0:04:06.120 I'm from this place called Birmingham. It's like the Detroit 0:04:06.160 --> 0:04:06.680 of England. 0:04:07.640 --> 0:04:09.520 And how did you start going to Afghanistan? 0:04:10.960 --> 0:04:14.840 Well? I kind of went there by accident. So I 0:04:14.920 --> 0:04:17.200 was about to start this job and they had this 0:04:17.320 --> 0:04:20.680 program during COVID where they'll pay for your holiday beforehand 0:04:21.080 --> 0:04:24.520 to kind of, you know, get you ready for insane hours. 0:04:25.040 --> 0:04:27.440 But because it was COVID, there were only two options. 0:04:27.800 --> 0:04:31.159 One was Albania and one was Afghanistan. So I decided 0:04:31.160 --> 0:04:34.680 to go to Afghanistan. And then three days later the 0:04:34.720 --> 0:04:37.479 Taliban took over and I was kind of stuck there 0:04:37.520 --> 0:04:39.880 with the military, so I just kind of walked around 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:42.040 for Selvy stick and filmed some of it. It was 0:04:42.120 --> 0:04:45.279 kind of fun and I've never drank alohol before that, 0:04:46.080 --> 0:04:49.200 but its photos and me doing shots with the British 0:04:49.240 --> 0:04:53.560 military before we got evacuated. I mean that was kind 0:04:53.560 --> 0:04:57.159 of like my first taste of it. 0:04:57.240 --> 0:04:59.320 And how did you make friends with the Taliban? 0:05:01.200 --> 0:05:05.360 Well, I had this tour guide who was there with 0:05:05.400 --> 0:05:09.000 me at the time, and he kept begging me in 0:05:09.000 --> 0:05:12.360 my DMS afterwards, saying he's gonna be killed by the Taliban. 0:05:13.120 --> 0:05:16.320 So I planned to get him out by smuggling him 0:05:16.320 --> 0:05:19.599 to Pakistans I guess human trafficking technically, but in a 0:05:19.600 --> 0:05:25.719 wholesome way, and I flew back there, and then when 0:05:25.720 --> 0:05:28.880 I got in the country, he basically backed out chicken 0:05:28.920 --> 0:05:31.800 now the last second. So I ended up going to 0:05:31.880 --> 0:05:35.320 this hotel. There wasn't a hotel. I walked into a 0:05:35.320 --> 0:05:38.719 Taliban compound by accident, and then we just watched cricket 0:05:38.760 --> 0:05:41.240 together around TV and ate food and it was kind 0:05:41.240 --> 0:05:44.200 of chill. And then I saw some Taliban merge that 0:05:44.320 --> 0:05:47.480 they gave to me, and I started sending it on eBay, 0:05:48.480 --> 0:05:53.520 like flags, Mirsberry patches, stuff like that, like uniforms and stuff, 0:05:53.800 --> 0:05:55.880 and autistic people really liked that stuff. 0:05:56.120 --> 0:06:03.119 You know, why did why did the tour guide ask 0:06:03.360 --> 0:06:07.479 you for help getting away from the Taliban? 0:06:10.760 --> 0:06:13.760 That's a good question. You had a really bad taste 0:06:13.800 --> 0:06:17.599 in I guess people. I guess that's why he got captured. 0:06:17.640 --> 0:06:23.159 He just wasn't good at decision making. Yeah, but I 0:06:23.200 --> 0:06:25.320 think he's doing fine now. I think he finally got 0:06:25.400 --> 0:06:28.000 the US. But I think he's stund like a year 0:06:28.040 --> 0:06:30.680 in jail or something because he used to work for 0:06:30.720 --> 0:06:32.400 the Americans. 0:06:32.760 --> 0:06:37.560 Oh yeah, and where are you calling me from? Are 0:06:37.600 --> 0:06:38.840 you in England right now? 0:06:40.279 --> 0:06:42.560 Unfortunately? Yeah, it's three dangerous here, Honesley. 0:06:43.320 --> 0:06:45.800 And you go back and forth between England and Afghanistan. 0:06:47.560 --> 0:06:51.640 Yeah, basically. I know the CEO of the Afghan National 0:06:51.680 --> 0:06:55.159 Airline and he jokes a flight from Kabalta London would 0:06:55.320 --> 0:06:57.000 count it as a domestic flight. 0:06:59.000 --> 0:07:00.800 Oh why, what's the joke? 0:07:02.320 --> 0:07:05.760 Well, the same type of people are there, and sometimes 0:07:05.760 --> 0:07:08.680 in London you just get stabbed. And sometimes I'm walking 0:07:08.680 --> 0:07:12.280 around London and there's this language that the Taliban speak. 0:07:12.320 --> 0:07:15.559 It's very a sting language called Pashtu, and I speak 0:07:15.600 --> 0:07:17.480 some of it, you know, you pick it up and 0:07:17.520 --> 0:07:20.720 I'm walking down the streets of London randomly and I 0:07:20.880 --> 0:07:23.520 just hear it. I just hear it, and I have 0:07:23.600 --> 0:07:27.760 like vinam slashbacks of the Taliban and I can tell 0:07:27.760 --> 0:07:30.800 that guy is Askhan and we kind of lock eyes sometimes. 0:07:31.360 --> 0:07:35.000 And sometimes I'm in this Afghanistan restaurant in Cabul and 0:07:35.000 --> 0:07:37.640 then some guy would come up to me and he 0:07:37.720 --> 0:07:40.360 speaks perfect English and he goes, oh, yeah, I'm Taliban. 0:07:40.400 --> 0:07:43.400 I live in London. And once I went to the 0:07:43.480 --> 0:07:46.760 village or somewhere Billaden called Tora Bora. I went there 0:07:46.880 --> 0:07:50.360 food relief efforts, and one guy showed me a selfie 0:07:50.400 --> 0:07:53.040 of him in front of Big Ben and he's like ice. 0:07:53.240 --> 0:07:56.320 He was like, former isis? So I looked mortified, and 0:07:56.320 --> 0:07:59.840 he's just laughing and walks away. It's kind of an 0:08:00.120 --> 0:08:02.920 concerning I don't even know what to do about it. 0:08:06.760 --> 0:08:12.280 Okay, so this is your main job. How do you 0:08:12.320 --> 0:08:13.640 make a living? How do you exist? 0:08:14.920 --> 0:08:17.960 Well, I buy something the cheap and I sell it 0:08:18.160 --> 0:08:21.760 more and she's honest, our money is good. I means again, 0:08:22.640 --> 0:08:26.640 or someone belongs car eight thousand dollars probably twenty thousand 0:08:26.680 --> 0:08:32.200 on exporting a bunch of random. 0:08:28.920 --> 0:08:33.480 But also I assume Wassamon Land probably had many cars. 0:08:33.480 --> 0:08:36.600 So this is one. This is not like like it's crazy. 0:08:36.760 --> 0:08:41.800 Here's the thing. Like I believe you because I feel sure? 0:08:41.840 --> 0:08:45.640 Why not? I mean, I've met I'm aware of the 0:08:45.679 --> 0:08:51.120 existence of like people like you who just get are you? 0:08:51.240 --> 0:08:51.920 Are you autistic? 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:55.800 I mean, what do you think? 0:08:57.480 --> 0:08:58.040 What do I think? 0:08:58.080 --> 0:08:58.360 I think? 0:09:00.000 --> 0:09:02.319 Well, you keep alluding to it. I would assume it 0:09:02.360 --> 0:09:03.080 would be real here. 0:09:03.120 --> 0:09:06.800 It's kind of you know. I mean if you said yes, 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:11.520 I wouldn't be shocked, Like what normal normal person comes 0:09:11.600 --> 0:09:12.240 up with this? You know? 0:09:14.080 --> 0:09:17.280 So you are Are you making this up? No? 0:09:17.280 --> 0:09:19.920 No, no, it's definitely true. Remember I sent you pictures 0:09:19.920 --> 0:09:22.360 and I think Google my name is you? 0:09:22.360 --> 0:09:24.520 Actually? Hold on, I'm up our chats because you did 0:09:24.559 --> 0:09:26.480 send me. But did you send me pictures of you? 0:09:27.840 --> 0:09:29.560 I think I did. I just send you some pictures 0:09:29.640 --> 0:09:30.960 right now, actually, let me just get. 0:09:31.000 --> 0:09:34.599 Yeah, no, I remember you Ward Miles something on Instagram. 0:09:35.080 --> 0:09:36.719 Oh yeah, I remember you. Okay, yeah, here you. 0:09:36.679 --> 0:09:39.160 Go, there you go, let me pictures. 0:09:40.240 --> 0:09:42.520 No, yeah, I remember yeah, why do you? Okay, I 0:09:42.520 --> 0:09:45.040 remember this exactly. Yeah, that's the picture of you. Okay, 0:09:45.080 --> 0:09:47.679 I see you and then yeah you sent me. 0:09:49.280 --> 0:09:53.880 Honestly, I watched you when I was in Taliban jail. 0:09:53.920 --> 0:09:55.840 I had a little bit of internet access, and. 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:59.840 Yeah, here's you're kind of funny. Thanks man. Thanks, Yeah, 0:09:59.840 --> 0:10:02.800 here's a picture of you with a SpongeBob tapestry with 0:10:03.880 --> 0:10:04.720 with the Taliban. 0:10:05.960 --> 0:10:10.840 Yeah, they they They have a growing in bart sector, 0:10:11.240 --> 0:10:13.440 the injured. The economy is booming obviously. 0:10:13.600 --> 0:10:17.960 Yeah, okay, you are one hundred percent. I I unless 0:10:18.000 --> 0:10:22.760 if you're using AI to fuck with me, which I'm 0:10:22.760 --> 0:10:24.800 not even I'm not gonna get I think you're telling 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:25.240 the truth. 0:10:27.120 --> 0:10:29.439 Yeah, I mean sometimes it kind of feels a bit bizarre, 0:10:29.520 --> 0:10:31.640 even on my end. But no, definitely telling the truth. 0:10:31.679 --> 0:10:35.840 There's some there's some articles about me online. You know, 0:10:36.200 --> 0:10:38.440 I've got a Twitter account where I post pictures of it, 0:10:38.600 --> 0:10:39.200 of everything. 0:10:39.960 --> 0:10:41.560 What's the hell do I find this article? 0:10:43.200 --> 0:10:47.160 So let me send you something. I'll send you a link, okay. 0:10:46.960 --> 0:10:49.560 Send text okay, texted to me, texted to me. Don't 0:10:49.600 --> 0:10:51.160 send it to me on the DM because I can't 0:10:51.200 --> 0:10:53.520 look at I don't I can't find that ship I 0:10:53.600 --> 0:10:55.960 got you. I mean, actually I can't. I send it 0:10:56.040 --> 0:10:57.040 on either one. I don't care. 0:11:00.880 --> 0:11:08.040 Like this one's quite funny. I'll stinger this now, rip 0:11:08.120 --> 0:11:15.760 my phone bill, let's see. Okay, all right, I'm to 0:11:15.800 --> 0:11:18.079 think I'm going to send you a few Yeah. 0:11:17.920 --> 0:11:20.679 Here we go. YouTuber Lord Miles says he is willing 0:11:20.720 --> 0:11:24.199 to pay Isis one hundred thousand pounds if they can 0:11:24.240 --> 0:11:25.680 take him out in England. 0:11:27.240 --> 0:11:30.000 Yeah, so I got threatened by ISIS. So I kind 0:11:30.000 --> 0:11:32.720 of put a bounty on my head and for eight 0:11:32.760 --> 0:11:37.120 months I had like a cold storage white like like 0:11:37.240 --> 0:11:40.520 some physical bitcoin around my neck to the value of 0:11:40.520 --> 0:11:43.040 one hundred cane. I just walked around. So if Isis 0:11:43.040 --> 0:11:45.960 could kill me, yeah, they could just take the bounty. 0:11:46.400 --> 0:11:50.880 But they didn't. Bitches. You know, they kind of ruined 0:11:50.880 --> 0:11:55.240 my haliday sometimes. And yeah, they threatened me in Afghanistan, 0:11:55.280 --> 0:11:58.160 so I just keep threatening them back. And whilst I 0:11:58.200 --> 0:12:00.199 was in Taliban jail, I got to slap one. That's 0:12:00.200 --> 0:12:02.160 a whole other story the yeah. 0:12:02.000 --> 0:12:04.120 Why did you? Oh yeah, here's okay, here's a bb 0:12:04.440 --> 0:12:10.040 there's a BBC article h four British men freed after 0:12:10.120 --> 0:12:22.320 Afghanistan detention. Oh fuck, yeah, dude, you're insane. Okay, all right, 0:12:22.400 --> 0:12:24.080 because I know a lot of people are probably listening 0:12:24.080 --> 0:12:28.440 to this thinking that you're no, you're yeah, you're real. Yeah, Okay, 0:12:28.880 --> 0:12:31.240 you want see some selfish in me in jail? No, 0:12:31.320 --> 0:12:34.520 I mean some of what you want, but I'm I'm 0:12:34.559 --> 0:12:37.520 more interested in talking to you, Okay, Yeah, Like this 0:12:37.559 --> 0:12:40.680 is a picture Miles, like, I say, your last name 0:12:41.160 --> 0:12:43.920 previously said he traveled to Afghanistan because he enjoyed. Okay, 0:12:43.920 --> 0:12:47.079 so yeah, you went to fucking yeah, you totally are 0:12:47.120 --> 0:12:48.839 not lying to me. You went to Taliban jail. 0:12:50.760 --> 0:12:52.040 I mean, it happens the best. 0:12:52.120 --> 0:12:54.400 But you know, why did why how did you end 0:12:54.440 --> 0:12:55.400 up in Taliban jail? 0:12:57.240 --> 0:13:01.680 Well, you know, so it's leged allegedly I was weapons feeling. 0:13:02.640 --> 0:13:07.280 I was apparently allegedly buying up weapons from the Taliban 0:13:07.360 --> 0:13:10.320 and selling them to Ukraine. But you know, there's no 0:13:10.360 --> 0:13:13.840 evidence I went through a bit. But also there were 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:17.840 there were three other British men and they were basically 0:13:17.920 --> 0:13:21.080 all spies, and I stayed at the same hotel as one. 0:13:21.600 --> 0:13:24.160 So the Taliban put two and two together and thought, oh, 0:13:24.240 --> 0:13:26.520 this British guy, this Miles guy, I might be a spy. 0:13:27.440 --> 0:13:29.760 And also I was starting a gold mine in the 0:13:29.800 --> 0:13:33.360 country and I didn't have a permit to go to 0:13:33.400 --> 0:13:36.079 a certain region, so I got in trouble. But then 0:13:36.240 --> 0:13:38.840 I've got the I is real recognized as real. And 0:13:38.880 --> 0:13:42.360 then about month and dinto my imprisonment, they start like 0:13:42.480 --> 0:13:45.360 treating me like royalty. It's quite nice, you know, and 0:13:45.520 --> 0:13:48.520 eventually I treated like the networking events and they led 0:13:48.600 --> 0:13:52.480 me like even my guards were told. I was told 0:13:52.559 --> 0:13:56.319 by the commander that my guards were now my servants. 0:13:57.040 --> 0:13:59.480 So I would actually give them some money, so I 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:03.079 call cash on me. I would give them me for 0:14:03.200 --> 0:14:05.960 my prison cell, and they would bring me anything I want. 0:14:06.720 --> 0:14:10.760 So I had like my gaming laptop without internet access 0:14:10.800 --> 0:14:13.200 for a while, and I would just sit back and 0:14:13.280 --> 0:14:16.480 chill and play video games like my guards. The photo 0:14:16.520 --> 0:14:20.080 I send you on Instagram, my guards let me have 0:14:20.240 --> 0:14:22.680 one of their weapons and I chase them around the 0:14:22.720 --> 0:14:26.280 compounds with their own weapon, and they were screaming like 0:14:26.280 --> 0:14:28.360 little girls. And to be honest, it was kind of 0:14:28.360 --> 0:14:29.400 a lad's harday, you know. 0:14:30.440 --> 0:14:34.320 Yeah, so Miles, Yeah, so I mean to go back 0:14:34.320 --> 0:14:36.960 to what you were saying initially, there's really no way 0:14:36.960 --> 0:14:38.520 that you're going to be able to have a conversation 0:14:38.600 --> 0:14:40.920 with a normal person without them getting freaked out. 0:14:42.160 --> 0:14:44.280 Yeah, that's that's kind of my fear. You know, how 0:14:44.320 --> 0:14:49.360 do I how do I kind of channel this into 0:14:49.520 --> 0:14:53.520 a normal career. You know, it's just some wording unkey use. 0:14:54.240 --> 0:14:58.000 Can I just perhaps never talk about him? Live a 0:14:58.080 --> 0:14:59.080 double life? Almost? 0:15:00.480 --> 0:15:02.280 How do you channel this into your normal career. 0:15:02.400 --> 0:15:05.760 Well, okay, I just can't relate to normal people. 0:15:05.840 --> 0:15:07.880 You know, I'm sure you can't. Do you have a 0:15:07.920 --> 0:15:11.560 weird Europe? You have a weird existence. I don't know how. 0:15:11.840 --> 0:15:14.320 I listen. I don't know how you got there. I 0:15:14.360 --> 0:15:17.720 don't know what you're thinking. But I also but Miles, 0:15:17.800 --> 0:15:20.320 I believe what's the thing. What's the Jesus thing about? 0:15:20.360 --> 0:15:23.360 Like that? You can't there's nowhere too far? You can't 0:15:23.400 --> 0:15:26.600 come go? You can come home? Yeah, I believe you 0:15:26.640 --> 0:15:29.960 can come. You can come home, you can. I don't 0:15:30.040 --> 0:15:31.160 do you want to be a normal I don't know. 0:15:31.200 --> 0:15:32.600 I don't know what's up with you, Miles. Do you 0:15:32.600 --> 0:15:36.280 want to just be like a normal guy? Like you 0:15:36.320 --> 0:15:38.040 go to like, listen, here's the thing. I don't know 0:15:38.080 --> 0:15:40.080 what it is. And I just fully believe you because 0:15:40.120 --> 0:15:43.400 a I've been a version of you, not like I 0:15:43.400 --> 0:15:45.080 don't I don't really want to hang out with the Taliban. 0:15:45.200 --> 0:15:46.880 I think you know what. I'm not going to talk 0:15:46.880 --> 0:15:50.120 to you about that, but uh, you know, yeah whatever 0:15:50.200 --> 0:15:54.520 doing weird stuff. And then like I've also met people 0:15:55.440 --> 0:16:01.240 like you have like whatever, but yeah, you see you 0:16:01.280 --> 0:16:03.920 want to just what like what do you want to 0:16:03.920 --> 0:16:06.200 do with your life. I mean, you're a young guy, Like, well, 0:16:06.200 --> 0:16:08.080 how do you do you want to keep doing this 0:16:08.480 --> 0:16:11.080 crazy crap or do you want to? Like what do 0:16:11.200 --> 0:16:11.520 I do? 0:16:12.640 --> 0:16:16.600 Well? I did plan a coup for long story, but 0:16:17.320 --> 0:16:20.400 I even want to do very grand things all the 0:16:20.440 --> 0:16:23.480 same time. I just want to I guess I want 0:16:23.480 --> 0:16:27.640 to strike up a conversation with someone and then within 0:16:27.680 --> 0:16:30.840 a few days they don't google my name and find 0:16:30.840 --> 0:16:33.920 something weird, you know, so I'd have to create another identity, 0:16:34.680 --> 0:16:38.400 or you know, I can just lessen the impact of 0:16:38.440 --> 0:16:41.080 this whole thing. I don't know. I want. I want 0:16:41.120 --> 0:16:44.400 to be able to start new friendships without people fan 0:16:44.480 --> 0:16:46.360 going over me, if that makes sense. You know, it's 0:16:46.400 --> 0:16:49.040 kind of one sided double ways. I go to church 0:16:49.600 --> 0:16:52.160 and then you know, the people go, oh my god, 0:16:52.440 --> 0:16:54.360 what'd you do this time? Oh tell me about it? 0:16:54.360 --> 0:16:56.360 And I go, oh, let me. Maybe you should tell 0:16:56.360 --> 0:16:59.080 me about yourself sometime, like nonsense. My life is boring 0:16:59.560 --> 0:17:01.960 and they just tell me about big songs about me 0:17:02.800 --> 0:17:06.600 and increas a weird dynamic, you know, because when you 0:17:06.640 --> 0:17:09.960 when you go out, when you go out, you tell 0:17:09.960 --> 0:17:12.800 people you dress as a gecko. Right, Yes, I mean 0:17:12.840 --> 0:17:17.000 I'll assume you actually no getto right. I don't know, however, 0:17:17.880 --> 0:17:20.280 you know it kind of a I guess the normal 0:17:20.320 --> 0:17:23.400 people that kind of creates a weird dynamic and either 0:17:23.440 --> 0:17:26.480 they like you for money or fame or you know, 0:17:26.520 --> 0:17:27.080 at tension. 0:17:27.840 --> 0:17:30.440 See what I mean, I know exactly what you're trying 0:17:30.440 --> 0:17:32.080 to say. Uh, And I have a lot of thoughts 0:17:32.080 --> 0:17:36.119 on it is okay, like yeah, sure, Like I'll like, 0:17:36.320 --> 0:17:38.280 I mean, yeah, like sure, I'll go out and talk 0:17:38.320 --> 0:17:42.040 to people and then it'll come up that I'm like, 0:17:42.359 --> 0:17:46.159 you know, go to interesting places as a gecko, and 0:17:46.200 --> 0:17:48.720 they'll want to talk about it, and then like, I'll 0:17:48.720 --> 0:17:50.120 talk about it for a little bit and then I'll 0:17:50.119 --> 0:17:52.760 be like, what do you do? How's your life? You know, 0:17:53.040 --> 0:17:54.880 and then we'll start talking about that. I mean, it'll 0:17:54.880 --> 0:17:58.919 just be a normal conversation. Can I ask you this 0:17:58.960 --> 0:18:01.520 and be honest with asked? Just and it's okay, by 0:18:01.560 --> 0:18:03.800 the way, just there's no shame and no judgment. Do 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:08.199 you when you tell people? Because listen, you do a 0:18:08.240 --> 0:18:09.800 thing and you know you do it. You did it 0:18:09.840 --> 0:18:11.639 to me and I do a version of it. But 0:18:11.720 --> 0:18:14.960 when you say to someone at a party or whatever, 0:18:15.359 --> 0:18:18.560 you say, yeah, I sold I once sold Osama bin 0:18:18.600 --> 0:18:24.239 Laden's car. Uh, They're gonna be like what you know, 0:18:24.320 --> 0:18:25.919 and then you're gonna start telling them about all this 0:18:25.960 --> 0:18:30.080 Taliban stuff and like listen, but at any point in time, 0:18:30.840 --> 0:18:32.719 they're gonna have of course, they're gonna have a lot 0:18:32.720 --> 0:18:35.199 of questions. At any point in time, you can just 0:18:35.200 --> 0:18:38.040 be like, yeah, but what's going on with you? And 0:18:38.080 --> 0:18:40.119 you can just not stop you stop talking about it 0:18:40.160 --> 0:18:41.760 if they want. You can let them lead if they 0:18:41.800 --> 0:18:43.359 want to talk about it, but eventually they're gonna not 0:18:44.160 --> 0:18:46.560 you know, I mean, you listen, you have an infinite 0:18:46.600 --> 0:18:50.399 amount of crazy uh stuff that you can talk about it. 0:18:50.400 --> 0:18:52.840 But if you don't, if that's not what I feel like, 0:18:53.040 --> 0:18:55.640 and look, correct me if I'm tell me it, be honestly, 0:18:55.760 --> 0:18:57.600 do you secretly like it? It's okay if you do. 0:18:57.680 --> 0:18:59.240 I don't think there's anything wrong with it. It's just 0:18:59.240 --> 0:19:01.040 a body who you are. But do you like being 0:19:01.359 --> 0:19:02.280 do you like the attention? 0:19:03.760 --> 0:19:05.960 I do to some degree, though you know, it only 0:19:06.000 --> 0:19:07.960 goes so far as that makes sense, and it kind 0:19:07.960 --> 0:19:10.359 of it kind of yo yos. You know, I feel 0:19:10.359 --> 0:19:15.199 like I feel like sometimes it's like it's like, you know, 0:19:16.040 --> 0:19:18.120 I guess if it's a if. It's like if you're 0:19:18.160 --> 0:19:21.240 a handsome person, I guess people talk to you and 0:19:21.280 --> 0:19:24.520 you like the intention, and then you wonder do people 0:19:24.560 --> 0:19:26.639 actually like you for you or just for the nice face. 0:19:26.680 --> 0:19:30.720 I guess, like, for example, I made some new friends once, 0:19:31.359 --> 0:19:33.720 and you know, we're hanging out for like two weeks 0:19:34.040 --> 0:19:36.159 on and off and always good in the world, and 0:19:36.240 --> 0:19:38.199 they don't know what I do. I just evaded to it. 0:19:39.000 --> 0:19:41.240 And then suddenly, when uber I'm a front seat to 0:19:41.280 --> 0:19:43.880 bear of him back, I get a phone call from 0:19:43.960 --> 0:19:46.359 like the head of foreign intelligence of the Taliban of 0:19:46.400 --> 0:19:50.560 the GDI, and it's like on a FaceTime call and 0:19:50.640 --> 0:19:53.000 he just sts chatting to me. He's dressed in you know, 0:19:53.240 --> 0:19:55.719 a robe and everything he ever, he has like an 0:19:55.720 --> 0:19:59.880 ak in a video. He's speaking to me, and I forget, 0:20:00.400 --> 0:20:02.359 you know, the people behind me don't know what I do. 0:20:02.480 --> 0:20:04.680 So I speak to him for two minutes. I look 0:20:04.720 --> 0:20:07.600 backwards and then mortified, and then the friends you're bended. 0:20:07.640 --> 0:20:11.280 It's like it's unavoidable, you know, Okay, Well, and now 0:20:11.280 --> 0:20:15.240 I can't excuse the long absences either, Like where'd you 0:20:15.240 --> 0:20:18.280 go for the last three months? Oh? Just abroad doing 0:20:18.280 --> 0:20:21.320 what where's the photos. It's like, ah, you know, it's 0:20:21.359 --> 0:20:24.600 like it's like being a retarded spider man almost. You know, 0:20:25.400 --> 0:20:27.679 everyone thinks should something else? You know you have to. 0:20:28.560 --> 0:20:30.560 But but okay, so now, well now we're on a 0:20:30.560 --> 0:20:32.760 bunch of different things, right, because if you're telling here's 0:20:32.760 --> 0:20:37.119 the thing, and it sounds like I don't have okay, okay, 0:20:37.560 --> 0:20:39.440 it sounds like I don't have to explain to you 0:20:40.119 --> 0:20:46.600 why working for the Taliban might make it difficult for 0:20:46.640 --> 0:20:48.800 you to make friends with normal people. 0:20:50.880 --> 0:20:52.639 That's true, but you're telling me. 0:20:52.960 --> 0:20:57.200 But you're telling me. You're telling me that you would 0:20:57.240 --> 0:20:59.720 like to live a normal life. So listen, if you 0:20:59.760 --> 0:21:01.840 want to live a normal life, you're probably gonna have 0:21:01.880 --> 0:21:03.280 to give up working for the Taliban. 0:21:05.560 --> 0:21:08.520 Oh shucks, but you already knew that. I guess, but 0:21:09.480 --> 0:21:12.000 that's true. But it's like, I guess that's a w 0:21:12.080 --> 0:21:15.640 I do. I guess. Oh, you just help me realize something. 0:21:15.720 --> 0:21:19.320 I guess that's my entire density at this point. Yeah, 0:21:19.440 --> 0:21:21.280 I just need to I need to create a new thing. 0:21:21.880 --> 0:21:23.840 Here's the thing, though, I like you see him. And 0:21:23.920 --> 0:21:26.520 by the way, I I it's so funny because I'm like, listen, 0:21:26.560 --> 0:21:28.879 I'm looking. I'm looking at these articles you sent me, 0:21:29.280 --> 0:21:32.119 and you're not lying to me. You're telling me the truth. 0:21:32.240 --> 0:21:34.600 I believe you one hundred There's a lot more. 0:21:34.800 --> 0:21:37.960 Well, it's like, what's who's Epstein without the island? You know? 0:21:39.280 --> 0:21:42.639 But okay, but okay, let me level with you on this. Okay, 0:21:42.680 --> 0:21:46.760 you clearly are a little insane, thank you, and you 0:21:46.920 --> 0:21:50.720 like doing insane stuff. But can I can I introduce 0:21:50.760 --> 0:21:57.000 you to the possibility that you can still do grand, insane, 0:21:57.320 --> 0:22:01.960 weird uh stuff that you feel excited to talk to 0:22:02.000 --> 0:22:05.000 other people about that makes you feel like you're living 0:22:05.000 --> 0:22:10.919 a grand, adventurous life that doesn't involve working for the Taliban. 0:22:13.160 --> 0:22:16.199 I guess I mean I did. I did kind of 0:22:16.280 --> 0:22:19.119 have a stint in Ukraine and that was good. Everyone 0:22:19.119 --> 0:22:21.959 gave me positive reception for that. You know when you 0:22:22.000 --> 0:22:25.919 tell when you when you mentioned like normal people at 0:22:25.920 --> 0:22:29.679 your friends with Taliban, you know it kind of it 0:22:29.720 --> 0:22:33.480 doesn't You don't usually get positive reaction, you know, you don't, 0:22:33.960 --> 0:22:43.560 you know, Yeah. 0:22:39.200 --> 0:22:41.040 What were you doing? I was also just in Ukraine? 0:22:41.040 --> 0:22:42.000 What were you doing in Ukraine? 0:22:43.720 --> 0:22:49.440 Oh? I shouldn't admit this, screw it? Okay, So I 0:22:49.480 --> 0:22:52.200 was in Ukraine as the war begun, and then I 0:22:52.720 --> 0:22:57.760 faked a press pass, so I basically got my university lanyard, 0:22:58.280 --> 0:23:00.760 and then I went in MS Paints and I created 0:23:01.359 --> 0:23:05.280 this terrible like press pass and I printed out on 0:23:05.400 --> 0:23:08.919 like black and white paper, glued it with Elmo glue 0:23:09.000 --> 0:23:12.560 over my university lanyard, and then just like put it 0:23:12.600 --> 0:23:15.320 on a lanyard around my neck. And then I would 0:23:15.400 --> 0:23:17.720 go near the front lines or checkpoints and it's flash 0:23:17.760 --> 0:23:20.680 it and I dress apart and it was the early 0:23:20.760 --> 0:23:22.959 days of the war, so they just didn't care, so 0:23:23.000 --> 0:23:25.680 he just let me through. And I like streamed most 0:23:25.680 --> 0:23:27.760 of this too, and I ended up being in the 0:23:27.800 --> 0:23:31.600 front lines of the war and my car broke down 0:23:31.680 --> 0:23:35.679 during curfew, so I'm walking around. I get ambushed and 0:23:35.720 --> 0:23:39.280 then I joined this random unit. We're going through a school, 0:23:40.160 --> 0:23:43.800 you know, hiding I guess. We basically get bombarded with 0:23:44.200 --> 0:23:47.719 I guess artillery. I school collapsed on top of us 0:23:47.720 --> 0:23:51.040 when we're in the basement. I walked through the underground 0:23:51.119 --> 0:23:55.119 rail network in Karkiff to get back to the city 0:23:55.800 --> 0:23:59.960 and then I, yeah Cargiff and then I go back 0:24:00.119 --> 0:24:03.199 to Polands. We buy a second car and then we 0:24:03.440 --> 0:24:06.920 just drive food aid in and then drive refugees out, 0:24:07.359 --> 0:24:12.360 and that got positive reception. I'm trying good. 0:24:12.680 --> 0:24:16.000 I'm sorry you joined you joined a random I'm sorry 0:24:16.119 --> 0:24:22.360 you joined a random unit of Ukrainians. 0:24:21.400 --> 0:24:24.320 Or just for like a few nights, you know, I. 0:24:24.280 --> 0:24:26.359 Was I didn't know. I didn't I was just trying. 0:24:26.359 --> 0:24:29.320 I was just trying to clarify which which society you 0:24:29.359 --> 0:24:30.080 were fighting on. 0:24:31.480 --> 0:24:33.760 I've been advited to Russia, but I've got to be honest. 0:24:33.760 --> 0:24:36.040 I don't trust him. You know, I'm not really Russian 0:24:36.040 --> 0:24:36.320 to go. 0:24:36.720 --> 0:24:40.040 Right, I'm sure you have. I'm sure you have. Uh yeah, 0:24:40.040 --> 0:24:42.040 I mean I'm sure like I mean yeah, that's like 0:24:42.359 --> 0:24:46.480 you were basically like a volunteer soldier on the side 0:24:46.520 --> 0:24:47.120 of Ukraine. 0:24:48.640 --> 0:24:51.280 Well, I could think it's a friend that actually joined 0:24:51.280 --> 0:24:55.119 the Ukrainian Army. So his name's Will and he's British. 0:24:55.160 --> 0:24:57.359 He's in the front lines and he's killed like thirty 0:24:57.359 --> 0:25:00.480 five Russians. He works as a drone part and he 0:25:00.600 --> 0:25:04.560 just sends me like you know, like you know, when 0:25:04.560 --> 0:25:06.560 you score on the Instagram reels he come across like 0:25:06.600 --> 0:25:10.119 a live leak video. He creates his own. Basically, he 0:25:10.200 --> 0:25:13.399 just sends me footage of him like drawing striking Russians, 0:25:14.320 --> 0:25:17.080 and I think, why have I created? You know, so, 0:25:17.200 --> 0:25:19.240 even in the goodness of my heart, when I was 0:25:19.280 --> 0:25:24.119 doing good, charitable things, it basically created twenty five murders. 0:25:24.720 --> 0:25:28.000 I understand it's war, but like I think I'm kind 0:25:28.000 --> 0:25:28.920 of responsible for that. 0:25:30.119 --> 0:25:33.000 Miles, I'm gonna bring I'm gonna let's really myles, I'm 0:25:33.000 --> 0:25:40.240 gonna really back in. Okay, Yeah, So, and you know 0:25:40.280 --> 0:25:44.680 what I don't I've I've I've confirmed that you're telling 0:25:44.680 --> 0:25:48.760 me the truth. And I'm gonna also assume that you're 0:25:48.960 --> 0:25:55.120 genuinely asking me to work this, work through this, like. 0:25:55.000 --> 0:25:57.160 What what what should I do for a lifestyle? 0:25:59.320 --> 0:26:06.400 Well, okay, you're clearly addicted tom to quote the lot 0:26:06.520 --> 0:26:09.360 to quote a line from the Grand Theft Auto five trailer, 0:26:09.600 --> 0:26:16.920 You're clearly addicted to chaos. And I think there are 0:26:17.600 --> 0:26:20.439 way if you you're clearly addicted to chaos, which is 0:26:20.440 --> 0:26:26.120 not an inherently bad thing. I am also clearly addicted 0:26:26.160 --> 0:26:29.400 to chaos in a lot of ways, and it's made 0:26:29.600 --> 0:26:33.399 a lot of normal life things hard for me. And 0:26:33.440 --> 0:26:36.560 I've tried to find and I've actually gotten pretty good 0:26:36.880 --> 0:26:39.600 at figuring out how to structure my life in such 0:26:39.600 --> 0:26:42.040 a way that I can feed my desires for chaos 0:26:42.080 --> 0:26:46.680 but also live some my own version of a conventional 0:26:47.160 --> 0:26:52.560 normal life. I think that you should find ways to 0:26:53.560 --> 0:26:59.359 feed your desire for chaos that like, you know, hey, listen, 0:26:59.480 --> 0:27:03.320 I think work for the Taliban is probably a bad idea. 0:27:04.680 --> 0:27:07.080 I think it's probably a bad idea. 0:27:08.760 --> 0:27:13.000 I mean, yeah, that's true. It kind of has playing 0:27:13.040 --> 0:27:15.239 me good money. But you know, I can just end 0:27:15.280 --> 0:27:15.720 it like that. 0:27:15.800 --> 0:27:19.359 I mean, okay, but if it's mezing, I guess. But listen, 0:27:19.400 --> 0:27:21.719 if it's made you good money, yeah, listen, here's the thing. 0:27:21.720 --> 0:27:23.360 If you've been doing this and it's made you good 0:27:23.400 --> 0:27:26.720 money and you're out, it's You're like, it's like being 0:27:26.800 --> 0:27:30.320 a fucking gangster man. It's like, it's like you're out. 0:27:30.359 --> 0:27:32.159 If you're out of the game, you get out of 0:27:32.200 --> 0:27:35.720 the game alive, right, And now you're like, and now 0:27:36.240 --> 0:27:39.360 what I'm hearing from you is both this thing of 0:27:39.680 --> 0:27:41.439 a I want to I mean, I don't know if 0:27:41.440 --> 0:27:42.960 I'm hearing this few, but I'm gona assume it from you. 0:27:42.960 --> 0:27:45.280 It's like a I want to devote my life to 0:27:45.359 --> 0:27:48.919 things that are more ethical, uh, and then be I 0:27:48.920 --> 0:27:51.320 want to devote my life to like I just want 0:27:51.320 --> 0:27:53.320 to be like a normal ass guy with like a 0:27:53.359 --> 0:27:57.399 girlfriend and friends who's not like, uh, you know, scaring 0:27:57.440 --> 0:28:01.080 people away by telling them that I'm working for the Taliban, 0:28:01.359 --> 0:28:02.600 you know what I mean. And I think you can 0:28:02.640 --> 0:28:04.600 do those two things. And I think and I think 0:28:04.960 --> 0:28:07.800 that if you take your money right and you're like, 0:28:07.840 --> 0:28:09.719 all right, let me just stay right there, and then 0:28:09.760 --> 0:28:11.760 you go, Okay, well, how can I use my capital 0:28:11.880 --> 0:28:17.400 now to do things that are ethical and nice and 0:28:17.520 --> 0:28:23.720 also like set me up for some sort of normal existence. 0:28:23.960 --> 0:28:28.600 And there's a lot of creative answers to those questions, 0:28:28.640 --> 0:28:31.320 and like, listen, man, there's all sorts of like there's 0:28:31.359 --> 0:28:33.520 a lot of great adventures out there for you to 0:28:33.600 --> 0:28:38.200 have that don't involve working for the Taliban. And then 0:28:38.240 --> 0:28:42.360 also if you want to like go fucking you know, 0:28:42.520 --> 0:28:47.240 decide what your base city is, right, Like you want 0:28:47.320 --> 0:28:50.360 to just live in Birmingham and have friends and like 0:28:50.480 --> 0:28:52.360 go to the bar. You don't want to live in 0:28:53.160 --> 0:28:55.040 or move to London moved to go find like a 0:28:55.120 --> 0:28:59.800 community of people somewhere. Go join a community of people somewhere, Like, 0:28:59.840 --> 0:29:04.760 go go somewhere where you can like, uh, fuck it, like, 0:29:04.760 --> 0:29:06.120 what do you like to do? Man? You like playing 0:29:06.200 --> 0:29:08.880 video game? Like like, okay, I clearly listen, you clearly 0:29:08.960 --> 0:29:11.000 like doing a bunch of crazy insane shit, But like, 0:29:11.000 --> 0:29:12.640 what do you like doing? That's normal? You like playing 0:29:12.720 --> 0:29:13.720 video games? What else? 0:29:15.080 --> 0:29:17.959 Because I like, I played four Nice Little Bits Wolst 0:29:18.040 --> 0:29:21.960 in Saudi Arabia recently. I like reading books, I like 0:29:22.000 --> 0:29:25.720 going to coffee shops and just I guess, just doom 0:29:25.720 --> 0:29:30.160 scrolling a little bit. Okay, Oh god, I actually have 0:29:30.200 --> 0:29:34.320 no real hobbies. Oh god, what kind of du No? 0:29:34.320 --> 0:29:36.480 No, you kind of do? You have no video games? Yeah? 0:29:36.960 --> 0:29:41.080 You like you like traveling, I guess. 0:29:41.080 --> 0:29:43.360 But like, that's a white woman in the early twenties 0:29:43.400 --> 0:29:44.760 on Instagram thing, you know what I mean? 0:29:45.280 --> 0:29:50.520 Yeah? Yeah, yeah, but also yeah, but you're also white 0:29:50.680 --> 0:29:53.080 in your twenties doing it. It's okay, it's okay. 0:29:54.320 --> 0:29:55.960 Oh god, I'm a basic like woman. 0:29:56.400 --> 0:29:59.600 No, that's true, and so it's gonna be a basic 0:29:59.640 --> 0:30:00.520 white way. Why is it? 0:30:01.040 --> 0:30:01.160 Why? 0:30:01.240 --> 0:30:05.800 Why are replacing We're placing judgment values on things for 0:30:05.920 --> 0:30:09.600 no reason? Can I tell you something? Because here's the 0:30:09.640 --> 0:30:14.080 thing I'm sure you've interacted, like, because listen, do you 0:30:14.120 --> 0:30:17.000 feel the way I listen, I'm trying to like approach 0:30:17.040 --> 0:30:20.880 you because I'm being I'm being like, I'm trying to 0:30:20.880 --> 0:30:26.800 be really genuine ingenuous with you because I believe you, 0:30:27.320 --> 0:30:30.040 and I believe that you're like I believe you're making 0:30:30.080 --> 0:30:33.880 a genuine appeal. And so there's been plenty of times 0:30:33.960 --> 0:30:36.440 right when you're talking, because you said you seem like 0:30:36.440 --> 0:30:38.920 you're placing a lot of value judgments on things. There's 0:30:38.920 --> 0:30:42.479 plenty of times where you're like talking to some lady 0:30:43.000 --> 0:30:47.400 and she's looking at you like this guy is like insane, 0:30:47.440 --> 0:30:49.760 and you're looking at her like she's basic, and it's 0:30:49.800 --> 0:30:53.280 like just drop everything and just exist, you know what 0:30:53.320 --> 0:30:57.240 I mean, Like take away the fucking the the veils 0:30:57.800 --> 0:31:02.240 of everything for like a second here and just exist. 0:31:03.120 --> 0:31:05.040 What do you want to do? It's okay to travel 0:31:05.120 --> 0:31:07.320 and run around and be like, oh, I want to 0:31:07.360 --> 0:31:11.280 connect with people. I want to have weird novel experiences 0:31:11.320 --> 0:31:18.120 that are interesting to talk about. There's like ethical, productive, 0:31:18.880 --> 0:31:24.400 safe ways to do that that won't leave you with 0:31:24.520 --> 0:31:26.640 this life that makes you be like, oh, I'm like 0:31:26.680 --> 0:31:32.560 this weird, like Pariah e crazy, I have no ground. 0:31:32.760 --> 0:31:34.920 You gotta you gotta like you can you can live 0:31:35.000 --> 0:31:38.440 that life, but do it on the foundation of something 0:31:38.480 --> 0:31:41.160 that like just grounds you into fucking reality, because it 0:31:41.200 --> 0:31:45.760 sounds like you've just been in in outer space for 0:31:46.120 --> 0:31:49.360 pretty much all of your adult life, you know. And 0:31:49.360 --> 0:31:51.440 and and I kind of know a little bit, but 0:31:51.560 --> 0:31:54.640 I've never worked for the Taliban, but I I I 0:31:54.720 --> 0:31:57.080 kind of know a little bit what that feels like, 0:31:57.640 --> 0:32:00.200 you know. So just just. 0:31:59.840 --> 0:32:01.600 Just a lot of overlap with being a geck go, 0:32:01.720 --> 0:32:02.200 I get that. 0:32:02.600 --> 0:32:06.000 Little but like, just you know, I believe. I believe 0:32:06.040 --> 0:32:10.640 that you can create a life where you feel grounded 0:32:10.760 --> 0:32:13.440 and as if you can connect with other people, but 0:32:13.560 --> 0:32:16.960 can also feed your chaotic desires in a way that 0:32:17.080 --> 0:32:22.640 is not destructive to yourself and society. 0:32:23.800 --> 0:32:26.520 I did have one project, and you know, the legacy 0:32:26.680 --> 0:32:30.200 means a lot to me. I want people to hopefully 0:32:30.200 --> 0:32:32.880 remember me one day. And the positive thing is not 0:32:33.040 --> 0:32:36.360 just being friends with itally birds, you know. And I've 0:32:36.400 --> 0:32:40.000 always wanted to start my own country, and I have 0:32:41.960 --> 0:32:45.440 Oh why not, you know, I mean, you know, I 0:32:45.480 --> 0:32:49.480 don't I think it's possible, but also you know, I 0:32:49.880 --> 0:32:53.240 just think I just think it has to end a disaster, 0:32:53.400 --> 0:32:59.280 you know. Wow, Well, I think it always happens to 0:32:59.320 --> 0:33:01.920 some degree, Like I started a goal mine in Afghanistan. 0:33:02.000 --> 0:33:04.880 Eight months jail, I go to Saudi Arabia. I spent 0:33:04.960 --> 0:33:07.200 three months there, you know, because they suspect on a terrorists. 0:33:07.240 --> 0:33:10.600 Long long story, you know. See, things just seem to follow. 0:33:10.800 --> 0:33:13.160 So what I was considering is, you know that Haiti 0:33:13.200 --> 0:33:16.360 is in a state of like borganization right now, a 0:33:16.440 --> 0:33:19.720 bunch of civil wars due to different terroristic factions fighting 0:33:19.760 --> 0:33:23.280 each other and capitalizing one another and eating children as such. 0:33:24.480 --> 0:33:27.760 Right maybe I don't know, I don't sure, I don't know. 0:33:28.520 --> 0:33:30.880 Yeah, that's the state. Well, there's an island of north 0:33:30.960 --> 0:33:34.080 called Tortica, and you might know if from prior to 0:33:34.120 --> 0:33:38.080 the Caribbean, and it had a population of like ten 0:33:38.160 --> 0:33:42.320 thousand people, and they want separation from rest of Haiti. 0:33:42.840 --> 0:33:44.760 It's got a bunch of oil up north, and it 0:33:44.800 --> 0:33:48.000 has the highest deposits of iridium on the mainland, So 0:33:48.720 --> 0:33:53.920 a bunch of yummy minerals. And I'm thinking, I mean 0:33:54.000 --> 0:33:58.920 speaking to some of these people through Airbnb and some 0:33:59.000 --> 0:34:02.960 contacts I have on the island, and I think with 0:34:03.080 --> 0:34:06.160 about fifteen million dollars, I can create a coup on 0:34:06.200 --> 0:34:10.239 the island and basically install new government and declare independence 0:34:10.560 --> 0:34:13.360 because all the factions on the mainland are constantly fighting, 0:34:14.560 --> 0:34:18.239 I need to raise a little bit more money. But yeah, you. 0:34:19.480 --> 0:34:23.120 Said, you didd fifteen million dollars total. 0:34:23.239 --> 0:34:28.120 Yes, that's to sustain a population of two thousand foreigners, 0:34:28.120 --> 0:34:33.000 so American, Europeans, whatever, in order to defend the island 0:34:33.040 --> 0:34:36.799 against any attack and also build enough infrastructure to be 0:34:36.840 --> 0:34:40.000 self sustaining within two years roughly. 0:34:41.200 --> 0:34:43.759 So what you would do is you would go to 0:34:43.760 --> 0:34:46.200 to what is this call I don't called Tortuga. 0:34:46.040 --> 0:34:49.760 Tortiga, Tortilla. So if you look on a map of Haiti, 0:34:50.040 --> 0:34:54.400 it's twenty miles in length roughly up north from Haiti, 0:34:54.480 --> 0:34:57.319 like a tiny, low sliver of an island, you know. 0:34:57.440 --> 0:35:00.000 I mean you look at a British Virgin Islands saying 0:35:00.080 --> 0:35:01.000 hits neighbors. 0:35:01.400 --> 0:35:04.600 It's a little yeah, it's a bit of okay, see 0:35:04.640 --> 0:35:07.000 you So okay. So you're telling me that there's a 0:35:07.040 --> 0:35:11.400 bunch of people on the island of Tortiga that want 0:35:11.520 --> 0:35:16.520 independence from Haiti, and you're thinking about going down there, uh, 0:35:16.920 --> 0:35:23.040 gathering enough money to start a coup and basically starting 0:35:23.040 --> 0:35:26.279 a war of independence from the island of Uh Tortiga 0:35:26.320 --> 0:35:34.040 against uh, the Haitian government, and I basically you would 0:35:34.040 --> 0:35:39.040 head that revolution and then uh hopefully in your plan, 0:35:39.080 --> 0:35:42.439 you would win and then declare a new country. That's 0:35:42.480 --> 0:35:44.240 that's your project. 0:35:44.680 --> 0:35:47.439 Basically as you do. Well, okay, here's the thing. There's 0:35:47.440 --> 0:35:50.160 no there's no guns on the actual island itself. It's 0:35:50.160 --> 0:35:52.440 not even got a police station. So you need to 0:35:52.560 --> 0:35:53.600 fund in that area. 0:35:54.200 --> 0:35:59.680 Yeah, you need to fund the independence war yourself. Yeah, yeah, 0:35:59.719 --> 0:36:03.359 that'll yeah, yeah, I think that'll. I think that'll scare 0:36:03.400 --> 0:36:05.479 the hose for sure, if you if that's your new plan, 0:36:05.520 --> 0:36:07.359 if that if that's what you were talking about not 0:36:07.440 --> 0:36:07.960 wanting to do. 0:36:09.760 --> 0:36:14.759 Yeah, well, but then do the hose even have I 0:36:14.760 --> 0:36:20.200 guess a a an option, because you know, if I'm 0:36:20.480 --> 0:36:24.000 a world leader on an island, if I quite loosely 0:36:24.000 --> 0:36:28.200 am part of the UN or own a micronation, I 0:36:28.239 --> 0:36:30.759 think that's your I think I think they'll scare many hose, 0:36:30.800 --> 0:36:32.239 but also many hoses like that. 0:36:34.239 --> 0:36:41.680 In general. As a genuine question. Yeah, first of all, 0:36:42.080 --> 0:36:44.360 I still one hundred sent believe you that this is 0:36:44.360 --> 0:36:46.400 a project to think about doing, and I also believe 0:36:46.600 --> 0:36:49.040 you probably are You could probably figure out how to 0:36:49.080 --> 0:36:55.479 get that money if you're hanging out. Uh, well but listen, listen, listen, listen. Yeah, 0:36:55.719 --> 0:36:57.960 you said you're already you're already independently, Well, you already 0:36:57.960 --> 0:36:59.400 have fifteen million dollars. 0:37:00.239 --> 0:37:03.279 No, a few million, but not fifteen million. 0:37:03.480 --> 0:37:06.320 Okay, and you could easily figure out how to raise 0:37:06.320 --> 0:37:06.800 that money. 0:37:08.000 --> 0:37:12.880 Not easily, but I think it's worth exploring, and I 0:37:12.880 --> 0:37:16.440 think it's possible. You know, you hear people raising money 0:37:16.440 --> 0:37:20.880 for some dumb fuck app on social media, and you know, 0:37:20.960 --> 0:37:24.360 becoming a five hundred million dollar business withalue of launching. 0:37:25.280 --> 0:37:26.720 I feel like countries make money. 0:37:27.080 --> 0:37:29.239 Are you afraid of dying? Though? Like, if you do this, 0:37:29.360 --> 0:37:30.800 you might get like killed. 0:37:32.160 --> 0:37:34.160 This is going to sound, it's going to sound a 0:37:34.160 --> 0:37:36.640 little bit messed up, kind of excited forward to the 0:37:36.680 --> 0:37:41.080 most I'm found of excited. I'm I'm quite religiously Christian, 0:37:41.520 --> 0:37:44.280 So I believe if I die, if I've done things correctly, 0:37:44.280 --> 0:37:47.680 if I pray enough engineer repent, I go to heaven. Right, 0:37:48.440 --> 0:37:50.799 So I've got to be honest. I'm just tired, man, 0:37:51.800 --> 0:37:53.880 I'm a little bit tired. You know, I've been in 0:37:53.960 --> 0:37:56.720 prisoned a few times. I actually have no criminal record, bizarrely, 0:37:57.600 --> 0:38:01.040 and you know, dealing with these people from the Taliban 0:38:01.160 --> 0:38:04.000 to the North Koreans to Ukrainians and everything in between. 0:38:04.719 --> 0:38:06.280 And you know, again he shot out a few times 0:38:06.360 --> 0:38:08.719 and so on, you kind of to get a bit 0:38:08.760 --> 0:38:11.880 worn out. And of course, you know, I guess if 0:38:11.880 --> 0:38:14.480 you part of the army, you have, you know, someone 0:38:14.520 --> 0:38:17.239 directing you, so you kind of just follow instructions. But 0:38:17.280 --> 0:38:20.840 I have to do everything as I go, and then obviously, 0:38:20.920 --> 0:38:23.240 you know, it's obviously a bit lonely again. 0:38:23.280 --> 0:38:24.600 I'm yeah, of course. 0:38:24.400 --> 0:38:27.800 I'm in the city and I literally hear the voices 0:38:27.840 --> 0:38:31.040 of the Taliban sometimes walking down the street, and if 0:38:31.080 --> 0:38:33.120 I start speaking back to them in that language, they 0:38:33.120 --> 0:38:35.880 look bewildered. And I can't see to a normal person 0:38:35.920 --> 0:38:38.239 the I'm a white person, a British person who I 0:38:38.239 --> 0:38:40.920 could relate to. And then some of my friends are 0:38:40.960 --> 0:38:43.359 just friends of me because I have money and they're 0:38:43.360 --> 0:38:46.080 just lady bumps. I've got to be honest. And then 0:38:47.480 --> 0:38:50.360 you know, when I when I meet my girlfriend's parents, 0:38:51.280 --> 0:38:54.640 you know that's gonna be tough too. And sometimes, you know, 0:38:54.719 --> 0:38:59.160 the whole lifestyle obviously will damage relationships. When I went 0:38:59.200 --> 0:39:02.839 to prison, Babe in Taliban jail, kind of ended one 0:39:02.920 --> 0:39:05.600 my relationships, you know, And I don't blame her, because 0:39:05.640 --> 0:39:08.279 you know, if your boyfriend's Taliban jail, it's kind of 0:39:08.280 --> 0:39:12.520 a kind of tough to maintain a relationship. Taliban actually 0:39:12.560 --> 0:39:14.959 offered conjugal visits, but I said, no, that's a bit weird, 0:39:15.480 --> 0:39:18.439 you know. But yeah, it's a bit of a weird 0:39:18.480 --> 0:39:20.280 dynamic create Miles. 0:39:20.280 --> 0:39:25.400 Miles, Yeah, if I are you can I ask you, Cassie, 0:39:25.400 --> 0:39:29.200 if he thinks one is are you are you? Are 0:39:29.239 --> 0:39:32.239 you actually open to any perspective I might offer you 0:39:32.280 --> 0:39:34.759 on this. I'm gonna offer, but I'm curious I could 0:39:35.640 --> 0:39:40.520 genuinely I I'm gonna assume you mean that genuinely. 0:39:41.760 --> 0:39:45.720 No, genuinely, I wouldn't be calling you if I wouldn't 0:39:45.760 --> 0:39:47.080 waste your time, basically. 0:39:46.800 --> 0:39:53.279 Okay, okay, Miles. I believe that if you're like going 0:39:53.280 --> 0:39:55.160 out to the front line, I mean, if you're going 0:39:55.160 --> 0:39:59.279 out to the front lines of Ukraine and you're like 0:39:59.440 --> 0:40:02.000 doing all this up with the Taliban, I believe, first 0:40:02.040 --> 0:40:03.960 of all, I believe you. I believe that all this 0:40:03.960 --> 0:40:10.440 stuff happens. I believe that you have a thing in 0:40:10.480 --> 0:40:14.880 you that, uh, whether it's because of your disposition or 0:40:15.040 --> 0:40:17.520 because of your religion or whatever. I believe you have 0:40:17.600 --> 0:40:19.839 something in you that's really tired and doesn't care if 0:40:19.880 --> 0:40:24.200 you die. And I believe that if you really wanted to, 0:40:24.280 --> 0:40:26.000 you could totally figure out a way to go down 0:40:26.080 --> 0:40:31.000 to the island of Tortuga and fund an independent military 0:40:31.120 --> 0:40:35.640 coup against the government and start your own country, and 0:40:35.719 --> 0:40:39.040 that you might totally get kidnapped or die in the 0:40:39.080 --> 0:40:42.200 process of doing that. Like I don't, I really don't 0:40:42.200 --> 0:40:43.640 think you're fucking with me. And I just want to 0:40:43.680 --> 0:40:46.719 say to you because you like, I feel like the 0:40:46.840 --> 0:40:49.680 fact that you're calling me and asking me for advice 0:40:49.719 --> 0:40:57.359 on this means some part within you doesn't want to 0:40:57.480 --> 0:41:00.200 die or doesn't want to like like that you you're 0:41:00.239 --> 0:41:03.160 just tired, and you're just like, fuck, man, my life 0:41:03.200 --> 0:41:06.960 has been so fucking weird and I can't relate to 0:41:07.000 --> 0:41:09.760 anybody because if I talk to anybody about this stuff, 0:41:09.880 --> 0:41:13.840 like it's I just feel insane, Like there's just my 0:41:14.000 --> 0:41:18.880 life has just been so fucking weird that there's no 0:41:19.040 --> 0:41:22.520 place for me anymore. So the only option that I 0:41:22.600 --> 0:41:25.440 have is to do this other grand, insane thing that 0:41:25.520 --> 0:41:28.840 might result in my death. And like, listen, man, you 0:41:28.960 --> 0:41:36.480 could do that, but like me personally, I would enjoy 0:41:36.920 --> 0:41:43.480 seeing the version of Lord Miles that lives to his thirties, forties, fifties, 0:41:43.520 --> 0:41:48.000 sixties and seventies, having found a way to channel his 0:41:48.200 --> 0:41:53.480 energy into something where you can still be a businessman 0:41:53.600 --> 0:41:58.520 and you can still do things that are exciting but 0:41:58.719 --> 0:42:07.799 not fucking die or challenge dangerous government's head on. You know, Like, 0:42:07.840 --> 0:42:10.080 I just don't want you to like do a bunch 0:42:10.080 --> 0:42:15.200 of reckless shit just because you don't care about your life, 0:42:15.600 --> 0:42:17.640 like like I think you do. I think you do 0:42:17.800 --> 0:42:20.440 care about your life, you know. 0:42:20.960 --> 0:42:25.480 So you know, you know, I've had some friends for 0:42:26.320 --> 0:42:30.400 three or four years and they haven't said anything like that, 0:42:31.280 --> 0:42:33.960 and they haven't had as much respective that you have. 0:42:35.520 --> 0:42:38.919 You've honestly told me things that you know I could 0:42:39.080 --> 0:42:43.400 articulate mentally, but that makes perfect sense. And honestly, you 0:42:43.400 --> 0:42:45.040 give me better a boce and a lot of people 0:42:45.040 --> 0:42:48.520 I've known for many years. You are great and it's 0:42:48.520 --> 0:42:49.160 why I called you. 0:42:50.960 --> 0:42:53.239 Thank you, Yeah, of course, man. 0:42:54.360 --> 0:42:57.520 I mean it's just like I just think, like you're 0:42:57.560 --> 0:43:02.200 twenty six, man, Like there's there's whatever the fuck your 0:43:02.320 --> 0:43:06.520 life has been so far, there's something after it I 0:43:06.560 --> 0:43:13.600 mean it'll be really you know, I mean, like. 0:43:12.120 --> 0:43:15.839 Like listen, I've I've maybe it's because I went to you. 0:43:15.840 --> 0:43:17.400 I did not I have not been to the front 0:43:17.440 --> 0:43:20.400 lines of Ukraine and I've not been to Afghanistan. But 0:43:20.560 --> 0:43:24.479 like I've like you're but like, you know, whatever, I've 0:43:24.480 --> 0:43:27.960 met people, I've read things like nothing you're saying is 0:43:28.040 --> 0:43:29.799 like what There's no way that any of that could 0:43:29.840 --> 0:43:33.240 possibly be true? Like we live in an insane universe, 0:43:33.280 --> 0:43:37.120 and I think it's maybe hard for uh people to 0:43:37.840 --> 0:43:39.839 grasp that, and it's going to be hard for people 0:43:39.920 --> 0:43:42.480 to grasp that for you. But I think if you 0:43:42.640 --> 0:43:46.560 just like kind of approach the rest of your life 0:43:46.719 --> 0:43:51.680 like humbly, you know, you there's there's there is life 0:43:52.840 --> 0:43:57.600 beyond whatever your life has been, uh thus far, you 0:43:57.719 --> 0:44:01.880 just have to kind of find of, Yes, you have 0:44:01.920 --> 0:44:03.080 a girlfriend. 0:44:02.600 --> 0:44:12.600 Right, Yeah, she's wonderful. She's she's ansty great she so 0:44:12.640 --> 0:44:14.600 she basically just DMed me. I've got a little bit 0:44:14.600 --> 0:44:18.879 of a following. She DM me and we've just been 0:44:18.880 --> 0:44:21.560 talking ever since. She's very sweet. I don't want to 0:44:21.560 --> 0:44:24.040 go too much detail. There's some weird people out there 0:44:24.080 --> 0:44:26.520 that might try and you know, doc her or something. 0:44:27.200 --> 0:44:30.880 But she's just she's just wonderful. I talk about her 0:44:30.920 --> 0:44:33.560 for hours. She's she's anaty, the best. I want to 0:44:33.600 --> 0:44:39.760 give her everything, and you know, I just want children someday, 0:44:41.200 --> 0:44:44.960 sooner rather than later. I want to get married. I 0:44:45.000 --> 0:44:47.040 want to give her cute little things I want to do, 0:44:47.200 --> 0:44:50.920 you know, boyfriend and girlfriend stuff together. You know, I 0:44:50.920 --> 0:44:54.840 just want to make her happy basically, And you know, 0:44:54.840 --> 0:44:57.919 she kind of likes this stuff, and I don't want 0:44:57.920 --> 0:45:00.680 to die obviously for her. Yeah, Email, I have that 0:45:00.760 --> 0:45:03.480 feeling that you described. It's like, I'm not I'm not 0:45:03.840 --> 0:45:06.200 you know, walking on landmines to see if they go off. 0:45:06.239 --> 0:45:09.719 You know, I've got some preservation amongst myself. But sometimes 0:45:09.719 --> 0:45:12.239 I just kind of think, you know, if I if 0:45:12.280 --> 0:45:13.920 I get shot out, be okay, you know. 0:45:16.040 --> 0:45:18.920 And I like, can I do you want to be 0:45:18.920 --> 0:45:20.759 anonymous on here? Because I know you do have a file. 0:45:20.840 --> 0:45:22.520 I mean people can probably find you. He's I mean, 0:45:22.520 --> 0:45:23.400 we said your name. 0:45:23.600 --> 0:45:26.920 Trust me, they people know me. It's all good, all right? 0:45:27.000 --> 0:45:29.040 So can I say what your thing is? 0:45:31.239 --> 0:45:33.000 My my ex? Or no? 0:45:33.239 --> 0:45:35.080 Like, no, you're a YouTube channel and shit. 0:45:36.320 --> 0:45:38.160 Oh yeah sure, yeah, yeah, okay, so. 0:45:38.160 --> 0:45:42.840 You're lord miles. Yeah, okay, yeah, you have a you 0:45:43.120 --> 0:45:46.160 have a Wikipedia page. 0:45:46.440 --> 0:45:48.799 Yeah. I mean when I was a kid, I thought, 0:45:48.880 --> 0:45:51.600 you know, Wikipedia page also official. But it just kind 0:45:51.600 --> 0:45:53.520 of happened one day. You know, do you have a 0:45:53.520 --> 0:45:54.480 Wikipedia page? 0:45:54.680 --> 0:45:56.200 I did not have a Wikipedia page. 0:45:56.800 --> 0:46:02.480 Someone making a Wikipedia page. This happened. Yeah, I've got 0:46:02.480 --> 0:46:06.640 to be honest. When I was in Taliban jail, I 0:46:06.680 --> 0:46:10.000 had I had some Internet access, so there was an 0:46:10.080 --> 0:46:14.160 unsecured Wi Fi hotspot nearby on this laptop. I remember 0:46:14.280 --> 0:46:17.920 distinctly downloading on your podcast as an MP free file 0:46:18.760 --> 0:46:22.400 and listening to it, and like, that's how. That's how 0:46:22.400 --> 0:46:24.520 I know you. Like, I respect what you do a lot, 0:46:24.760 --> 0:46:28.200 and you're very funny and actually genuinely helpful to a 0:46:28.239 --> 0:46:30.880 lot of people. You know, there's been some clips moments 0:46:30.920 --> 0:46:34.400 out there. No, it's okay, the Taliban Gecko Alliance. 0:46:34.400 --> 0:46:38.680 But I don't know, I don't know. I'm gonna push 0:46:38.719 --> 0:46:40.480 back on Taliban Gecko alliance. 0:46:40.320 --> 0:46:44.040 For legal reasons, not true, true, for a lot of reasons. 0:46:44.080 --> 0:46:47.719 But but I will say, listen, but I believe you, 0:46:47.800 --> 0:46:49.799 and you're coming to your I think you're making a 0:46:49.880 --> 0:46:55.799 genuine I believe everything you're saying emotionally as well, and so. 0:46:57.360 --> 0:47:01.960 Like a conflicting feelings. 0:47:02.760 --> 0:47:10.680 Yeah, I mean, dude, like, okay, you you wrote a book, 0:47:12.960 --> 0:47:17.520 you're doing okay, dude, why don't you like dude, I 0:47:17.560 --> 0:47:20.120 feel like, okay when yeah, you have a following online, 0:47:20.120 --> 0:47:22.840 you're doing all this stuff, Like, dude, you could go 0:47:23.080 --> 0:47:26.080 you could go straight pretty easy. I think you know 0:47:26.120 --> 0:47:28.120 what I mean. Like, I like, I see like you 0:47:28.160 --> 0:47:30.160 love your Okay, you love your Let's hold sorry I 0:47:30.160 --> 0:47:34.200 got distracted a little bit. All right, so your girlfriend. 0:47:35.600 --> 0:47:37.160 I think I got distracted. I wanted to bring you 0:47:37.239 --> 0:47:38.719 up because I did want people. I think a lot 0:47:38.719 --> 0:47:40.239 of people are going to think that you're working with me. 0:47:40.400 --> 0:47:42.759 And then but this is a real conversation. 0:47:43.440 --> 0:47:46.360 No, no, I promise, Yeah I know you're not. I 0:47:46.640 --> 0:47:47.640 can then prove if you. 0:47:47.600 --> 0:47:50.760 Need I I already I already I know, I already 0:47:50.800 --> 0:47:54.120 I already know. But okay, so you love your girlfriend, 0:47:55.920 --> 0:48:01.319 she's great. Yeah okay, and and you and I but yeah, 0:48:02.000 --> 0:48:05.239 and uh, could you see yourself just having like a 0:48:05.320 --> 0:48:08.640 normal fucking life where you're like a family man and 0:48:08.920 --> 0:48:11.560 like you know, I'm kids. 0:48:11.480 --> 0:48:14.880 Would yeah, I would have to be doing something, but 0:48:15.000 --> 0:48:18.600 that makes sense. It might be I know, yeah, there 0:48:18.600 --> 0:48:21.680 has been something because I guess in a few years 0:48:21.719 --> 0:48:23.799 if I, if I want to, I'll never have to 0:48:23.840 --> 0:48:27.080 work again if I just you know, like for example, 0:48:27.200 --> 0:48:29.160 next thing is I'm going to sell a few tanks. 0:48:29.200 --> 0:48:33.800 Long story, but you know I've got time and money 0:48:33.960 --> 0:48:37.560 at that point, right, and so I need to occupy 0:48:37.640 --> 0:48:38.080 my time. 0:48:38.719 --> 0:48:40.840 Sorry, you have three million dollars. 0:48:43.120 --> 0:48:44.600 I don't want to say the exact amount, but it's 0:48:44.600 --> 0:48:45.360 a decent amount. 0:48:45.719 --> 0:48:50.160 Okay, why can't Yeah, I mean you can, like you 0:48:50.160 --> 0:48:51.759 can let you. I thought, do you not already have 0:48:51.880 --> 0:48:54.080 enough money? I mean you're not like retire in style, 0:48:54.120 --> 0:48:55.560 but is that not enough money already? 0:48:55.560 --> 0:48:55.640 That? 0:48:55.760 --> 0:48:59.319 Like do you need to be selling tanks and ship like? Like? 0:48:59.480 --> 0:49:02.759 I don't know, man, I feel like, imagine, imagine you 0:49:02.840 --> 0:49:06.120 had something similar like that in the nineteen seventies, right, 0:49:06.160 --> 0:49:08.960 not three million, but equivalent, you know, and then all 0:49:08.960 --> 0:49:11.600 the hyperinflation happened. You know how she used to be 0:49:11.719 --> 0:49:15.040 what ten thousand dollars? And then you know, all these 0:49:15.120 --> 0:49:19.360 years later, you know what made you rich in nineteen seventies, 0:49:20.000 --> 0:49:24.120 It's really tough you'd be rich in twenty fifty twenty five. 0:49:24.160 --> 0:49:26.280 That sort of money and then market crutches. 0:49:27.440 --> 0:49:29.320 Yeah, I just I did some moss. 0:49:29.400 --> 0:49:31.879 Yeah, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes yes. 0:49:31.960 --> 0:49:36.560 Now now I know, I know, I know that your 0:49:36.719 --> 0:49:39.719 I know that your current financial plan is to buy 0:49:39.760 --> 0:49:42.520 and sell tanks. But have you ever heard of something 0:49:42.600 --> 0:49:47.480 called foreign and domestic index funds? 0:49:48.640 --> 0:49:50.640 I know, yeah, the Y s and P five hundred. 0:49:50.800 --> 0:49:56.120 Yeah yeah, I could, dude, just like, Dude, Miles, just 0:49:56.200 --> 0:49:59.960 take the money that you've made, put it in fucking 0:50:00.080 --> 0:50:05.160 index funds and then go like do just dude, do 0:50:05.520 --> 0:50:07.480 like just get like I get it that you like, 0:50:08.120 --> 0:50:11.320 I get it that like selling tanks makes your dick hard, 0:50:11.360 --> 0:50:16.320 But like, why can't like what I refuse to believe? 0:50:17.040 --> 0:50:20.040 Okay, okay, what I believe. What I believe is that A, 0:50:20.520 --> 0:50:24.839 you're clearly in some form of like strong disturbance over 0:50:24.880 --> 0:50:31.600 the way that you your current lifestyle is subconsciously. So 0:50:31.719 --> 0:50:34.560 you're what, You're in some form of disturbed. I mean 0:50:34.760 --> 0:50:37.480 you you wouldn't be we wouldn't be having this conversation 0:50:37.719 --> 0:50:39.680 if it were in fact that you're you're in some 0:50:39.920 --> 0:50:49.360 form of disturbance or some kind of mental uh no, no, no, 0:50:49.640 --> 0:50:53.960 uh cognitive dissonance. You're in some form of cognitive dissonance. 0:50:54.840 --> 0:50:57.279 Sometimes I look at people I look at I look 0:50:57.320 --> 0:50:59.719 at people working sixty hours a week barely gain by. 0:51:00.040 --> 0:51:01.640 Why don't you sell tanks? You know what I mean? 0:51:01.960 --> 0:51:04.640 It would be in a lot better financial position. 0:51:04.520 --> 0:51:09.080 You know what, you know? Sure, sure, but selling tanks 0:51:09.320 --> 0:51:12.319 doesn't have to literally mean selling tanks, like you, there's 0:51:12.320 --> 0:51:12.640 a lot I. 0:51:12.640 --> 0:51:15.680 Mean I'm taking yeah, but I'm taking tanks away from 0:51:15.719 --> 0:51:18.279 the Taliban. I mean, you know, it's kind of a 0:51:18.320 --> 0:51:20.480 good thing, I guess, you know, if you kind of 0:51:21.040 --> 0:51:23.759 anti Taliban, and they're not they're not modern times like 0:51:23.800 --> 0:51:26.440 World War one wants. It's just some collector in the 0:51:26.520 --> 0:51:28.360 US would like get hot on for it, you know. 0:51:28.880 --> 0:51:31.759 Yeah, But like like if you're three million dollars, but 0:51:32.320 --> 0:51:34.480 like buy a fucking laundromat. 0:51:34.640 --> 0:51:37.480 Dude, like you have, what do you want to do 0:51:37.560 --> 0:51:39.080 with all this here? Let me ask you this, Let 0:51:39.080 --> 0:51:42.239 me ask you this, what kind of because here's the thing, right, 0:51:42.239 --> 0:51:44.480 you can you can if you if you really want 0:51:44.480 --> 0:51:47.200 to go and like get yourself into even more crazy 0:51:47.239 --> 0:51:50.800 trouble for money, like whatever, but like what do you 0:51:50.840 --> 0:51:52.840 want to do with this money? Dude? Like like you 0:51:52.920 --> 0:51:56.200 must have an idea because retirement you must have an 0:51:56.239 --> 0:51:58.640 idea before you want to like go do all this 0:51:58.680 --> 0:52:00.600 crazy stuff and like make a You have to have 0:52:00.640 --> 0:52:03.959 an idea of like what you actually want your life 0:52:04.120 --> 0:52:07.719 data day to look like. Right, And then you might 0:52:07.800 --> 0:52:11.840 find that whatever that life is does not require you 0:52:12.040 --> 0:52:16.560 to like need ten million fucking dollars, right, Like you 0:52:16.640 --> 0:52:18.759 might just be like you might be like, oh, I 0:52:18.840 --> 0:52:24.160 want to fucking go to like a some nice suburb 0:52:24.480 --> 0:52:27.680 of England and buy a house and live with my 0:52:27.760 --> 0:52:31.000 girlfriend and have kids and like whatever. And you might 0:52:31.040 --> 0:52:35.360 find like, oh, actually, not only do I not need 0:52:35.840 --> 0:52:39.560 ten twenty million dollars from selling tanks to live this lifestyle, 0:52:39.920 --> 0:52:46.120 but actually the actions and the behaviors that go into 0:52:46.200 --> 0:52:52.440 the lifestyle that selling fucking tanks for the Taliban requires 0:52:52.480 --> 0:52:57.360 me to live actually takes me very far away from 0:52:57.760 --> 0:53:01.040 the lifestyle I actually want to live, were I to 0:53:01.160 --> 0:53:03.440 sit down and think of it. And then you're doing 0:53:03.440 --> 0:53:08.040 this like weird circumventation where you're like spending time doing 0:53:08.040 --> 0:53:11.160 a bunch of crazy shit to make money to fund 0:53:11.280 --> 0:53:16.800 a lifestyle that you could just be living. Like skip 0:53:16.840 --> 0:53:18.839 the middleman, dude, Like just what do you what life 0:53:18.880 --> 0:53:19.040 do you. 0:53:19.040 --> 0:53:24.000 Want to live? I've got to be honest, I have 0:53:24.080 --> 0:53:28.320 a nice apartment. I'm just renting. If I own a property, 0:53:28.360 --> 0:53:30.439 it means I have to pay income task and don't 0:53:30.440 --> 0:53:34.120 pay income tax a moment. But I'm kind of minimalist. 0:53:34.200 --> 0:53:38.560 I actually sleep on the floor like a pillow and 0:53:38.600 --> 0:53:41.680 a quilt. I don't really need money to be I 0:53:41.719 --> 0:53:44.920 guess contempt. I would like a nice environment, like a 0:53:45.640 --> 0:53:49.319 like a nice desk or something, okay, But so then 0:53:49.560 --> 0:53:51.600 I don't really need I think I'm just gaining money 0:53:51.640 --> 0:53:53.600 for the sake of money. I used to be Yeah, 0:53:53.640 --> 0:53:58.279 you're you're very poor. Yeah, I group like on I 0:53:58.280 --> 0:54:01.160 guess the equivalent to welfare it's benefits of the UK. 0:54:01.920 --> 0:54:04.360 And I was. I was so poor I couldn't afford 0:54:04.360 --> 0:54:06.480 like a DS. I really wanted a DS as a kid. 0:54:06.480 --> 0:54:09.400 I never got one, like an attendo DS, and and 0:54:09.480 --> 0:54:13.360 then I was homeless eighteen. It was a crappy family situation. 0:54:14.400 --> 0:54:16.799 But I think I'm just one monthly for that security 0:54:16.800 --> 0:54:19.880 if that makes sense, that mental security. But you already 0:54:19.880 --> 0:54:20.839 have it, you know, I just. 0:54:22.840 --> 0:54:26.480 It just but also yeah, but also. 0:54:27.560 --> 0:54:31.719 Like you also have to like like nothing's free, you 0:54:31.760 --> 0:54:34.239 know what I mean, Like, like what security are you 0:54:34.400 --> 0:54:37.680 giving up by doing this crazy stuff. 0:54:39.840 --> 0:54:42.520 You know, that's a good point. I mean I've almost 0:54:42.560 --> 0:54:46.319 been like mock mock executed like a few times. Yeah, dude, 0:54:46.760 --> 0:54:49.680 you know. But also at the same time, like, despite 0:54:49.719 --> 0:54:52.880 me almost being executed, I never felt more alive. I 0:54:52.880 --> 0:54:54.280 think I'm an adrenaline junkie. 0:54:54.360 --> 0:54:54.480 You know. 0:54:54.680 --> 0:54:58.560 Yeah, yeah, you're probably you're a dreas Listen, I'm zero. 0:54:59.480 --> 0:55:03.440 I feel like I feel like I'm a version of 0:55:03.440 --> 0:55:06.320 an adrenaline junkie. I'm definitely not to your level of 0:55:06.360 --> 0:55:11.320 an adrenaline junkie, but I I I sympathize with the 0:55:11.320 --> 0:55:15.680 the feeling and I'm telling you And by the way, dude, 0:55:15.680 --> 0:55:19.440 you're kind of like it's like a it's like Walter White. 0:55:20.040 --> 0:55:21.120 Have you ever seen Breaking. 0:55:20.880 --> 0:55:23.080 Bed Well, I'm boldings. 0:55:23.280 --> 0:55:26.719 Yeah, it's like Barth White. It's like if it's like 0:55:27.000 --> 0:55:30.239 the whole the whole show. He keeps going, I'm doing 0:55:30.239 --> 0:55:32.360 this for the family. I'm selling meth for the family. 0:55:32.360 --> 0:55:35.400 I'm selling it for the family. And at the very end, Skyler, 0:55:35.719 --> 0:55:37.680 his wife is like quit saying you're doing it for 0:55:37.719 --> 0:55:40.759 the family. He goes, he goes, he goes, no, I'm 0:55:40.800 --> 0:55:43.040 not he goes, I did it for me. I did 0:55:43.080 --> 0:55:46.440 it because I like you're doing it because you're addicted 0:55:46.440 --> 0:55:50.520 to the adrenaline of the thing. And I and what 0:55:50.560 --> 0:55:55.040 I'm saying is, I see in you a guy who 0:55:55.440 --> 0:55:56.399 wants to live. 0:55:56.600 --> 0:55:56.960 I see it. 0:55:57.120 --> 0:56:00.479 I see in you like half a guy who doesn't 0:56:00.520 --> 0:56:03.600 give a shit if he dies because of uh the 0:56:03.920 --> 0:56:06.600 the whatever the fuck thing. I see within you a 0:56:06.640 --> 0:56:08.200 guy who doesn't give a shit if he dies, but 0:56:08.239 --> 0:56:11.600 also a guy who really wants to uh live. You know, 0:56:11.640 --> 0:56:16.520 you're capable of uh loving your girlfriend, You're capable of 0:56:16.840 --> 0:56:21.040 uh wanting to just like a desire for new and 0:56:21.160 --> 0:56:25.160 novel experiences. I guess I understand that it's hard if 0:56:25.200 --> 0:56:30.120 you've uh lived this insane life that you've lived, to 0:56:30.680 --> 0:56:36.040 uh find pleasure and enjoyment in things that don't involve 0:56:36.080 --> 0:56:39.520 you almost getting fucking executed. I I know, I know, 0:56:39.600 --> 0:56:44.479 I know, I know how that feels. But I think 0:56:44.640 --> 0:56:52.240 I refuse to believe that you have sentenced yourself forever 0:56:52.719 --> 0:56:58.680 to a life where you must put yourself in uh 0:56:58.800 --> 0:57:05.600 an insane amount of danger to feel normal. If I don't, 0:57:05.640 --> 0:57:07.880 I don't have I don't have the It's gonna take, 0:57:07.920 --> 0:57:10.640 It's gonna take a longer process than just like this 0:57:10.760 --> 0:57:14.520 phone call to figure out what that lifestyle would look like. 0:57:15.280 --> 0:57:18.640 But I just I just refuse to believe that you're 0:57:18.720 --> 0:57:22.360 now like sentenced to a life where you need to 0:57:22.920 --> 0:57:27.000 fucking overthrow the government of Haiti to feel normal. 0:57:29.360 --> 0:57:32.320 Yeah, it does seem like a problem. Yeah, I guess, 0:57:32.640 --> 0:57:35.040 I don't know. I kind of guess the people around 0:57:35.080 --> 0:57:36.760 me keep egging me on a little bit, and they 0:57:36.880 --> 0:57:37.160 of course. 0:57:37.240 --> 0:57:38.400 Yeah. 0:57:38.600 --> 0:57:41.760 I just I like the idea of these things, Like 0:57:41.840 --> 0:57:44.840 if if some it's all made a movie about I 0:57:44.880 --> 0:57:46.680 think it would be like a like an aesthetic and 0:57:46.760 --> 0:57:49.600 it makes sense like a post nati to download. But 0:57:49.720 --> 0:57:53.320 also it's actually I do acknowledge it is retarded, like 0:57:53.400 --> 0:57:56.600 a really stupid, dangerous lifestyle. But like I think there's 0:57:56.640 --> 0:57:59.160 a few easier ways to make a few million dollars, 0:57:59.200 --> 0:58:02.160 you know what I mean, Like there's some easier way 0:58:02.200 --> 0:58:02.640 to do this. 0:58:03.320 --> 0:58:06.400 Yeah, let's listen, you're already like way do I feel 0:58:06.400 --> 0:58:09.960 like people do that? Like, okay, listen, like just take 0:58:10.000 --> 0:58:14.200 the money you already have and like just do something 0:58:14.200 --> 0:58:16.680 that's less uh you know. 0:58:16.640 --> 0:58:19.720 I mean I thought about I did by you. 0:58:22.520 --> 0:58:23.560 Yeah, go ahead. 0:58:24.680 --> 0:58:27.720 Well, I basically wanted to start this a podcast, like 0:58:28.720 --> 0:58:32.320 do you know this? Like, for example, I just want 0:58:32.360 --> 0:58:35.040 to go to I guess I want to go to 0:58:35.080 --> 0:58:37.360 these interesting countries, right, like the same reason you went 0:58:37.440 --> 0:58:41.040 to Iraq. And instead of like doing this dangerous business 0:58:41.040 --> 0:58:43.240 when I almost get executed, I just want to sit 0:58:43.360 --> 0:58:47.280 down with I guess, dangerous but interesting people, just a 0:58:47.280 --> 0:58:51.040 normal conversation, and I guess to a podcast. Like there's 0:58:51.080 --> 0:58:54.080 this one guy who's called General but naked in Liberia 0:58:54.640 --> 0:58:58.640 and he was a cannibal and I've been meshing on WhatsApp. 0:58:58.680 --> 0:59:00.760 He seems kind of you and I become a Christian. 0:59:00.840 --> 0:59:03.920 He's repented and he's doing some good stuff. Now you know, 0:59:04.040 --> 0:59:06.520 obviously what he did eating children's heart, that's a bit 0:59:06.600 --> 0:59:09.400 messed up. But you know, he wants to he wants 0:59:09.400 --> 0:59:11.520 to meet up with me, and he's a fan of me, 0:59:12.400 --> 0:59:15.440 and I think like he could be the first podcast 0:59:16.040 --> 0:59:18.160 guy for me, you know, but he can just I 0:59:18.160 --> 0:59:21.280 can go there. I get my cameraman, we film like 0:59:21.320 --> 0:59:26.480 a two hour conversation. We get some clippers to clip 0:59:26.640 --> 0:59:30.560 the whole thing, some good editing, some good lighting, and 0:59:30.600 --> 0:59:33.600 I think if I do bad cross several other countries, 0:59:33.760 --> 0:59:36.400 like I've got this one North Korean diplomat in the 0:59:36.440 --> 0:59:39.760 EU who's interested, And I don't know, do you think 0:59:39.760 --> 0:59:43.160 that's a good middle ground? I don't or not. 0:59:43.600 --> 0:59:45.600 I actually know exactly who you're talking about, because he 0:59:46.080 --> 0:59:50.720 have you ever seen the Book of Mormon? Not a musical, no, 0:59:51.280 --> 0:59:54.560 that music in the book. There's a character in the 0:59:54.560 --> 0:59:57.280 Book of Mormon called General but fucking Naked, who's based 0:59:57.320 --> 1:00:00.080 off of General butt Nake. I've heard of this guy before. 1:00:00.840 --> 1:00:03.600 Oh yeah, what do I think about that? 1:00:03.760 --> 1:00:08.840 I mean, I would because I think you can go 1:00:08.920 --> 1:00:13.320 to any country and not have problems just as a 1:00:13.440 --> 1:00:16.680 quick taurus like I've seen white women go to like 1:00:16.760 --> 1:00:20.160 Somalia and Libya that you just don't arrive in like 1:00:20.280 --> 1:00:21.640 instantly die or something. 1:00:22.120 --> 1:00:28.400 Yea, there, I mean you here's the thing. I'd be 1:00:28.440 --> 1:00:31.720 a hypocrite if I told you to like completely stop right, 1:00:31.840 --> 1:00:34.800 because I uh, I'm I also have a bit of 1:00:34.800 --> 1:00:38.520 a bug of like, uh, I mean, I don't. I 1:00:38.520 --> 1:00:39.880 don't try to go out of my way to talk 1:00:39.920 --> 1:00:42.600 to dangerous people. I just try to talk to fucking whoever. 1:00:42.720 --> 1:00:49.280 But I think I just think you should like not 1:00:49.640 --> 1:00:52.960 try not to get too in over your head and 1:00:53.000 --> 1:00:55.560 try not to do things with this idea of like 1:00:56.560 --> 1:00:59.440 I don't give a fuck if I die or not. 1:00:59.800 --> 1:01:01.520 You know know, Fuck, it's hard for me to dude, 1:01:01.520 --> 1:01:03.440 it's honestly so hard for me to have this conversation 1:01:03.520 --> 1:01:07.520 with you just because like I I mean, I I'm 1:01:07.720 --> 1:01:10.360 I'm nowhere near I don't like, I'm not into like 1:01:10.400 --> 1:01:13.479 crazy hardcore ship. But I also I've had the same 1:01:14.200 --> 1:01:17.160 like conversations with my friends before, like going to Iraq 1:01:17.240 --> 1:01:19.360 or Ukraine where they're like I mean, but also like 1:01:19.400 --> 1:01:21.720 I don't know, I but I but I'm I'm not 1:01:21.760 --> 1:01:23.840 as hard like I. I wouldn't go to the front 1:01:23.880 --> 1:01:25.560 lines of Ukraine, you know, I went to Kiev. 1:01:25.280 --> 1:01:28.760 Of like, yeah, you have common sense? Yeah, once again 1:01:28.800 --> 1:01:30.160 though real recognize is real? 1:01:35.560 --> 1:01:36.960 Okay, let me ask you this though, Let me ask 1:01:37.000 --> 1:01:44.680 you this, yea, just because do you have do you 1:01:45.360 --> 1:01:47.240 I want to talk about just your normal life? Like 1:01:47.280 --> 1:01:48.480 do you you have friends? Right? 1:01:50.560 --> 1:01:53.400 Yeah, but it's it's a close knit so called don't 1:01:53.440 --> 1:01:53.919 makes sense? 1:01:54.280 --> 1:01:59.160 Who are these friends? Like do they and you said that. 1:01:59.240 --> 1:02:02.120 They are well. 1:02:01.760 --> 1:02:03.440 Like like literally two. 1:02:03.280 --> 1:02:05.520 Of them, Like what do you know? Two of them? 1:02:06.200 --> 1:02:08.320 I make up I make up thirty percent of the 1:02:08.360 --> 1:02:10.960 Afghan Tourism Ministry. So I do a bunch of tours there. 1:02:11.040 --> 1:02:13.640 Two I just charge people like free k ahead to 1:02:13.640 --> 1:02:15.680 bring them to Afghanistan in groups of ten or so. 1:02:16.560 --> 1:02:18.880 And you know, I met a few of them and 1:02:18.880 --> 1:02:21.400 they're like minded and we just kept in contact afterwards. 1:02:21.440 --> 1:02:26.280 That's good. And I've got one friend who who is 1:02:26.320 --> 1:02:29.320 trying to start an airline, like a shipping freight service. 1:02:31.520 --> 1:02:34.960 And he's kind of crazy too. He it's it's really bizarre, 1:02:35.040 --> 1:02:37.640 Like he's even crazy in me in many ways. I 1:02:37.720 --> 1:02:40.120 just like I kind of admire it to some degree, 1:02:40.240 --> 1:02:43.440 but it also scares me. Like, for example, I was 1:02:43.440 --> 1:02:46.520 into Saudi Arabia under investigation. I was like arrested there 1:02:47.280 --> 1:02:50.439 and I was under surveillance clearly. But he walks into 1:02:50.480 --> 1:02:54.960 a Starbucks in Saudi Arabia and just goes, oh, hello, hh, 1:02:55.000 --> 1:02:57.880 can I have the Hitler coffee? And they would just 1:02:57.880 --> 1:03:00.560 be like, oh, yeah, sure because they're not English speaker natively, 1:03:00.600 --> 1:03:03.080 and they'll just give him his coffee. But he just 1:03:03.120 --> 1:03:06.000 does that in public situations friend of anyone. He just 1:03:06.880 --> 1:03:10.040 he's a definition of going the hose. It's a really 1:03:10.080 --> 1:03:14.560 good friendship. Like he would just walk into any retail store, 1:03:14.680 --> 1:03:19.400 cafe if it's England, America, he lives in Australia or 1:03:19.440 --> 1:03:22.080 even Saudi Arabia, like it happened with us, and he 1:03:22.080 --> 1:03:24.320 would just walk in and go hello, h h you 1:03:24.320 --> 1:03:27.800 know it's central Ohio and he would go can I 1:03:27.880 --> 1:03:31.640 have the Hitler cappuccino? And they just wouldn't even look up, 1:03:31.640 --> 1:03:34.360 and they'll go, yeah, okay, there'll be two dollars and 1:03:34.880 --> 1:03:36.280 you'll pay okay, And he. 1:03:36.240 --> 1:03:38.880 Does that everywhere. Yeah, it sounds like you have It 1:03:38.960 --> 1:03:43.480 sounds like your social circle is full of a lot 1:03:43.520 --> 1:03:47.800 of guys who like are like edgy people who like 1:03:47.920 --> 1:03:56.760 to provoke yeah and think okay. So yeah, it sounds 1:03:56.800 --> 1:03:59.040 like your social circle is filled with a lot of 1:03:59.120 --> 1:04:05.000 like edge people who like to provoke. And I it. 1:04:05.720 --> 1:04:09.040 I would have to take a gander and say that 1:04:09.120 --> 1:04:12.360 when you say some shit like I'm thinking about starting 1:04:12.480 --> 1:04:19.320 a a coup in Haiti, that the friend of yours 1:04:19.520 --> 1:04:26.000 who's going around, you know, saying like fucking like doing 1:04:26.040 --> 1:04:28.920 this kind of stuff, I get the sense that that 1:04:29.120 --> 1:04:33.200 friend is not going to respond to you by going hmm, 1:04:33.200 --> 1:04:36.240 what what would be best for miles? I assume he 1:04:36.280 --> 1:04:39.320 is going to respond to you by being like, oh 1:04:39.320 --> 1:04:44.600 that sounds awesome. Yes, please create further destructure please whatever. 1:04:44.920 --> 1:04:47.200 You know this this does not seem like a person. 1:04:47.560 --> 1:04:49.280 I mean, I listen, I don't know this dude, but 1:04:50.360 --> 1:04:56.439 it strikes me that his modest operendi is provocation more 1:04:56.480 --> 1:04:58.920 than it is like like you, like you got to 1:04:58.920 --> 1:05:01.320 surround yourself with people who I could give a fuck about, 1:05:01.720 --> 1:05:05.360 like you and your well being, not just like what's 1:05:05.400 --> 1:05:07.640 to do? So are like egging each other on to 1:05:07.760 --> 1:05:08.840 like do crazy shit. 1:05:10.320 --> 1:05:12.160 It kind of start on with that whole thing. Like 1:05:12.200 --> 1:05:14.600 when I when I got back to my apartments a 1:05:14.640 --> 1:05:18.760 few months after my birthday, I found, you know, an 1:05:18.840 --> 1:05:21.000 item was meant to be delivered to my house. I 1:05:21.120 --> 1:05:24.240 called up the shipping people. They delivered it because I 1:05:24.280 --> 1:05:26.600 was in to receive it, and it was a coffin. 1:05:27.520 --> 1:05:31.720 And I basically messaged the group chat saying, I just 1:05:31.840 --> 1:05:34.280 see the coffin in the mail whatstairs It's a threat. 1:05:34.880 --> 1:05:36.840 And one of my friends joked that he sent me 1:05:36.880 --> 1:05:39.640 a coffin because he's like, oh, most likely or die 1:05:39.680 --> 1:05:43.680 soon by you know, your efforts, So you know, we 1:05:43.720 --> 1:05:45.600 thought it be funny to send you on ahead of time. 1:05:45.840 --> 1:05:48.200 And they bought. It was like super duper funny, but 1:05:48.200 --> 1:05:50.320 I kind of just said that. I cofin for ten minutes. 1:05:51.200 --> 1:05:53.400 And I also slept in it because again it's a 1:05:53.440 --> 1:05:55.640 little bit more comfortable than the floor. It had padding, 1:05:56.680 --> 1:05:59.000 and I was like, huh, you know, you know I 1:05:59.000 --> 1:06:01.960 don't think my friends. Uh, I a super caring type. 1:06:02.280 --> 1:06:05.960 It's why I really my girlfriend. She's very sweet and caring. Yeah, 1:06:06.160 --> 1:06:09.720 my friend sent me a coffin. Yeah. 1:06:09.800 --> 1:06:12.640 Yeah, the guy who the guy who goes around talking 1:06:12.640 --> 1:06:18.880 about Hitler. He doesn't sound like the sweetest guy. 1:06:20.880 --> 1:06:22.640 Yeah, there's a lot I can't say about him. It's 1:06:24.480 --> 1:06:26.000 maybe I'll tell you privately someday. 1:06:27.080 --> 1:06:29.160 Well, okay, let me Yeah, okay, what's your what's your 1:06:29.160 --> 1:06:31.480 relationship like with your parents? Your family at least like 1:06:31.520 --> 1:06:32.520 you got like do you have any. 1:06:32.480 --> 1:06:36.800 Like yeah, it's gonna be very telling. Oh, very I 1:06:36.920 --> 1:06:39.160 kind of hope this want to come up. But you 1:06:39.160 --> 1:06:43.160 don't have kids, you know, I want to I like, 1:06:43.360 --> 1:06:44.960 I want to be open, you know, I'll be honest 1:06:45.120 --> 1:06:47.600 because what's the find of you know, not being honest 1:06:47.640 --> 1:06:50.800 with therapist, right, because you're like. 1:06:50.760 --> 1:06:53.080 By the way, by the way, I'm not a real therapist. 1:06:54.240 --> 1:06:57.120 I'm sure, you know that next thing, next thing, you'll 1:06:57.120 --> 1:07:01.680 tell me. You know, getko, you're crazy. But anyway, I'm 1:07:01.720 --> 1:07:05.160 an IVS kid, so you know, I I don't know 1:07:05.200 --> 1:07:09.960 my real father. You know, no record, no DNA tests. Whyever, 1:07:10.040 --> 1:07:11.600 there's no laws where I can find out. It's a 1:07:11.600 --> 1:07:17.480 completely anonymous donation, right. And then my mother, she she 1:07:17.600 --> 1:07:22.120 wasn't the best. She had some sort of depression, some 1:07:22.360 --> 1:07:25.720 anger disorders. So I was basically and also an alcoholic. 1:07:25.760 --> 1:07:27.400 So I was left to my own devices most of 1:07:27.440 --> 1:07:30.080 the time. I was a very goody two shoes kid, 1:07:30.240 --> 1:07:32.880 like I was a kid who you said, all the 1:07:32.960 --> 1:07:37.480 homework and do the extra stuff, and you know I was. 1:07:37.520 --> 1:07:41.320 I was like a straight a goodie too, too goody 1:07:41.480 --> 1:07:48.520 two shoes students like never never like never got detention, 1:07:48.760 --> 1:07:51.120 only Tupe I got into. I denied the Holocaust once. 1:07:51.200 --> 1:07:55.480 Long story. But and then suddenly I don't know. I 1:07:55.680 --> 1:07:58.760 get to eighteen years old, and you know, there's been 1:07:58.840 --> 1:08:02.720 so many incidents when and the police because you know, 1:08:02.840 --> 1:08:06.960 she's quitelishly a crazy alcoholic. So at the age of eighteen, 1:08:07.280 --> 1:08:10.920 I secretly apply to university. I get in and and 1:08:11.000 --> 1:08:12.600 I just leave them the middle of the night when 1:08:12.680 --> 1:08:17.559 she's drunk, sleeping on the SETTI and I just walk out. 1:08:18.200 --> 1:08:21.320 I put my keys through the letterbox, I throw my 1:08:21.360 --> 1:08:25.280 SIM card away. Her new one in changed my email, 1:08:26.240 --> 1:08:30.120 and you know, never contacted her since she got my 1:08:30.240 --> 1:08:32.600 numbers somehow. I don't know how she managed to, but 1:08:33.200 --> 1:08:35.360 obviously I never answered. I just got a bunch of 1:08:36.160 --> 1:08:39.280 drunken voice messages for out the years, and then one 1:08:39.360 --> 1:08:41.840 day they just stopped as well. And then the last 1:08:41.880 --> 1:08:46.240 voice message I heard from her that she was living 1:08:46.280 --> 1:08:49.920 with my auntie who's also an alcoholic, and she was 1:08:50.280 --> 1:08:56.519 almost homeless too. But my idea was, seems like not 1:08:56.600 --> 1:08:59.080 the best person. You know, still my mother, but not 1:08:59.240 --> 1:09:02.720 the best, but also you know, I can't fix that. 1:09:03.920 --> 1:09:05.360 And at the same time, if she doesn't want to 1:09:05.360 --> 1:09:08.720 help herself at the age of like seventy in the. 1:09:08.720 --> 1:09:11.559 Way, I'm I'm sorry I didn't catch it. So your 1:09:11.600 --> 1:09:13.479 mom was so you were an IVF baby as and 1:09:13.600 --> 1:09:15.599 like your mom had you like as a single mom. 1:09:17.840 --> 1:09:21.960 She was in she's in relationship with a man, and 1:09:22.080 --> 1:09:23.960 then that man went to China for business and then 1:09:24.000 --> 1:09:26.840 he got hit by a bus and died. So she 1:09:26.960 --> 1:09:29.559 was getting on to like forty years old. And then 1:09:29.600 --> 1:09:32.960 she wanted a baby, so she went through IVS and 1:09:33.040 --> 1:09:35.240 then she had me. And at a time it was 1:09:35.360 --> 1:09:39.559 free because it was like the nineties, so I think 1:09:39.600 --> 1:09:41.120 it was like a semi new technology. 1:09:41.200 --> 1:09:43.760 Then you never had you never had paid for it, 1:09:44.479 --> 1:09:48.240 You never had a father. No, Okay, do you have 1:09:48.280 --> 1:09:50.920 a siblings or anyone? No? 1:09:51.120 --> 1:09:55.120 No, well from a DNA test, tennically two half sisters, 1:09:55.840 --> 1:09:58.760 But I don't know them. I don't know how to 1:09:59.040 --> 1:10:02.439 know them. It's just on a piece of paperwork basically. 1:10:02.600 --> 1:10:05.360 But yeah, there's no way to contact them. So it's 1:10:05.400 --> 1:10:08.240 just me. I'm a Taliban. I guess. 1:10:10.280 --> 1:10:12.760 I feel, you know what, it's funny. I mean, it's 1:10:12.800 --> 1:10:16.760 not funny, but but it's like, I mean, that's a 1:10:16.800 --> 1:10:20.680 class that's like a classic story. I mean, that's how 1:10:20.720 --> 1:10:25.240 people join like terrorist groups and gangs. Is like they 1:10:25.320 --> 1:10:27.639 don't have anyone else. 1:10:30.320 --> 1:10:32.439 Oh, I've never thought of it like that. That's quite 1:10:32.439 --> 1:10:35.280 a unique perspective, or maybe a common sense perspective. And 1:10:35.400 --> 1:10:40.840 I just, yeah, I see, Well, I don't. I haven't 1:10:40.880 --> 1:10:44.040 enjoyed the Taliban or anythink. I'm a strict Catholic. I 1:10:44.120 --> 1:10:46.519 even I even get into like religious debates with them. 1:10:47.240 --> 1:10:50.200 I just see the country has high barriers to entry 1:10:50.240 --> 1:10:55.720 because none is stupid enough stupidsiness there and yeah and 1:10:56.000 --> 1:10:58.479 just you know they're ever ruling people there, so you 1:10:58.560 --> 1:10:59.280 just have to feel that. 1:11:00.160 --> 1:11:06.160 So so okay, and then what's your all right? All right? 1:11:06.520 --> 1:11:13.640 Miles miles, miles miles, Yes, ye do you want do 1:11:13.720 --> 1:11:14.559 you want my advice? 1:11:17.040 --> 1:11:17.479 Of course? 1:11:17.880 --> 1:11:19.559 I mean, I guess I've been giving you advice, all righty, But. 1:11:19.960 --> 1:11:22.600 Be honest with me, be honest, okay, if you if you. 1:11:22.560 --> 1:11:23.560 Want to be honest with okay, if you want to 1:11:23.560 --> 1:11:27.280 be brutally honest with you, I think that, Okay, My 1:11:27.880 --> 1:11:33.400 my perspective is, I think you are surrounding yourself with 1:11:33.560 --> 1:11:41.840 a lot of like like Edgy four Channey, right wing provocateur, 1:11:43.080 --> 1:11:51.840 like crazy people who probably don't have your like best 1:11:52.080 --> 1:11:55.479 interests in mind, and that's probably rubbing off on you. 1:11:55.680 --> 1:11:59.240 And you're probably attracted to this because it's like after 1:11:59.439 --> 1:12:03.799 a lifetime of like not having like fitting in anywhere, 1:12:04.000 --> 1:12:06.000 maybe you've found the place that you can fit in 1:12:06.280 --> 1:12:11.080 among like the Taliban or among this crowd. And like 1:12:11.360 --> 1:12:15.320 I think that that crowd and that these things are 1:12:15.680 --> 1:12:18.400 just like leading you down a life where you're making 1:12:18.560 --> 1:12:24.679 more destructive decisions, and you clearly wouldn't be like talking. 1:12:24.760 --> 1:12:27.519 We wouldn't be having this conversation for so long if 1:12:27.720 --> 1:12:32.439 you weren't in some period of reflection as to whether 1:12:32.520 --> 1:12:35.160 or not these decisions were the best decisions for you. 1:12:36.080 --> 1:12:42.840 And so I kind of think that there is a 1:12:43.040 --> 1:12:45.880 way I believe, I don't know what exactly it is, 1:12:46.360 --> 1:12:50.600 but there's probably a way for you to ay, most importantly, 1:12:51.240 --> 1:12:56.840 find a community of people who actually have your best 1:12:56.880 --> 1:13:03.040 interests in mind. Dude, you're Christian, Yeah, dude, go join 1:13:03.479 --> 1:13:06.400 join a church, like seriously, go join Go join like 1:13:06.479 --> 1:13:09.160 a normal ass church. You should go join a normal 1:13:09.240 --> 1:13:11.080 ass You should find a place where you should find 1:13:11.120 --> 1:13:13.880 a place in the world that you want to live, 1:13:14.320 --> 1:13:16.160 that you want to have a family, that you want 1:13:16.200 --> 1:13:17.839 to have friends, that you want to have a community. 1:13:17.960 --> 1:13:19.320 Find a place in the world that you want to live. 1:13:19.560 --> 1:13:23.400 Go join a church, not a crazy ass church, just 1:13:23.520 --> 1:13:28.479 a normal church. Where twenty six year in New York City, 1:13:28.800 --> 1:13:31.639 I was at some fucking I did. I My friend 1:13:31.720 --> 1:13:34.360 took me there because she's a member. I just went randomly, 1:13:34.960 --> 1:13:37.639 the Movement Church or some whatever. There's all these churches 1:13:37.920 --> 1:13:43.400 where there's like people our age, just hanging out being normal. Uh, 1:13:44.840 --> 1:13:47.640 it'll it'll be an adjustment for you for a lot 1:13:47.680 --> 1:13:49.760 of reasons. But like, just find a fucking church where 1:13:49.760 --> 1:13:53.679 you can just like be around like regular ass people 1:13:53.920 --> 1:13:56.920 and be a part of a community, you know, and 1:13:57.760 --> 1:14:02.040 well do that and then like see if you can 1:14:02.240 --> 1:14:06.760 make friends with people and find a community where you 1:14:06.960 --> 1:14:10.360 feel like people have people really have your back and 1:14:10.439 --> 1:14:16.240 they're not just like around you because you are are 1:14:16.360 --> 1:14:21.200 are also a provocateur on the level that they are 1:14:21.520 --> 1:14:23.679 like you. Just you want to find your real friends, dude, 1:14:24.000 --> 1:14:27.320 because that's that's what's going to help you make good 1:14:27.400 --> 1:14:28.400 just better decisions. 1:14:29.600 --> 1:14:32.920 I guess. So go to a small town, join a 1:14:33.120 --> 1:14:38.840 church with young people, and then it's well, I'm a town, 1:14:39.280 --> 1:14:42.240 I'm a I'm a village guy. I would to go 1:14:42.320 --> 1:14:47.040 to London. That's dangerous, but yeah, I guess, go to 1:14:47.120 --> 1:14:53.960 a bunch of institutions, local businesses, become regular, strike up conversations. 1:14:53.360 --> 1:14:56.519 Yes, yeah, yeah, yeah, be a regular somewhere it just 1:14:56.680 --> 1:14:58.720 and just be and then just like to try to 1:14:58.880 --> 1:15:01.599 enjoy just being annoy normal fucking guy. There's a lot 1:15:01.680 --> 1:15:02.760 to enjoy it about it. 1:15:03.160 --> 1:15:06.360 I mean, I know it sounds insane, but I'm always 1:15:06.400 --> 1:15:10.479 doing so many projects and at the same time, I 1:15:10.640 --> 1:15:13.280 just I just I just can't slow down, if that 1:15:13.400 --> 1:15:14.040 makes sense, Like. 1:15:14.360 --> 1:15:19.080 It makes perfect sense. You don't have to, don't you 1:15:19.160 --> 1:15:24.160 know you don't You don't have to abandon your projects, 1:15:24.960 --> 1:15:29.840 but you definitely need some balance, you know, like like 1:15:30.000 --> 1:15:32.000 just but like you got to find some balance, dude, 1:15:32.320 --> 1:15:34.720 Like you can still like like if you really want 1:15:34.760 --> 1:15:41.200 to fucking do like your your your wild uh form 1:15:41.240 --> 1:15:43.960 of journalism, I'd be a hypocrite to tell you not to, 1:15:46.000 --> 1:15:47.960 but I I can tell you. I'd be hypocrites to 1:15:47.960 --> 1:15:50.320 tell you not to. But I'm telling you from experience 1:15:50.920 --> 1:15:55.040 that you need to find a balance to it because 1:15:55.360 --> 1:15:58.639 you're because you can't. Just like I went to Ukraine, 1:15:58.680 --> 1:16:00.320 but then I came back and I'm like in New 1:16:00.400 --> 1:16:02.519 York and I have a community of people, and I'm like, 1:16:03.320 --> 1:16:05.719 have a normal I have a version of normal life 1:16:05.800 --> 1:16:09.240 to plant my feet on the ground, and I tried 1:16:09.280 --> 1:16:10.440 to do that really intentionally. 1:16:11.120 --> 1:16:13.200 That is what I tell you. How do you find 1:16:13.200 --> 1:16:15.519 a balance? Like how did you like hang up the 1:16:15.600 --> 1:16:16.519 mask when you get home? 1:16:17.160 --> 1:16:19.679 You know, I joined the I joined the coworking space 1:16:19.720 --> 1:16:21.559 in New York that I go to to like edit 1:16:21.680 --> 1:16:23.519 videos and stuff, and I made a bunch of friends there. 1:16:25.000 --> 1:16:25.720 Oh that sounds good. 1:16:25.760 --> 1:16:28.960 Actually, yeah, so like find you should find your version 1:16:29.080 --> 1:16:31.040 of like a community, just something where people don't know 1:16:31.080 --> 1:16:34.240 you as like Lord Miles the crazy YouTuber. They just 1:16:34.320 --> 1:16:37.639 know you as Miles and you're just like some You're 1:16:37.640 --> 1:16:39.600 just like a guy, you know, and like it's I 1:16:39.720 --> 1:16:42.040 I I bring up church because church is where I 1:16:42.080 --> 1:16:44.519 think a lot of is. Seems like it if you 1:16:44.640 --> 1:16:46.559 told me you played pickleball, I tell you to join 1:16:46.600 --> 1:16:54.640 a pickleball place. But like just find I'm but just 1:16:54.760 --> 1:16:56.519 like and then like and then like on the side, 1:16:56.520 --> 1:16:58.080 and then like when on the side you can go 1:16:58.200 --> 1:17:00.760 on your crazy missions. But like, if all you're doing 1:17:00.880 --> 1:17:03.880 is these crazy missions, you're just you're just gonna fling 1:17:04.000 --> 1:17:06.559 yourself into outer space so far that your head's going 1:17:06.600 --> 1:17:08.160 to be spinning around and you won't know where to 1:17:08.840 --> 1:17:13.160 you know, look, and it's just it's it's just too much, man. 1:17:14.680 --> 1:17:16.400 Yeah, that's true. I guess I should band it out. 1:17:18.120 --> 1:17:20.200 I guess what I'll do is I'll move to a community. 1:17:20.840 --> 1:17:22.920 I'm always in the country, but I'll try and stick 1:17:22.960 --> 1:17:25.920 around a little bit more, and then what I'll do 1:17:26.040 --> 1:17:27.680 is I'll also do the podcast, I guess, because that 1:17:27.760 --> 1:17:30.360 allow me to transition to something else. If that makes sense, Well, 1:17:30.880 --> 1:17:34.599 you know, I'm still giving myself enough, I guess all 1:17:34.640 --> 1:17:36.200 they adrenine the bush. 1:17:38.880 --> 1:17:43.320 Also like the yea like the also the like the 1:17:43.360 --> 1:17:46.080 people who are around you, like walking around trying to 1:17:46.120 --> 1:17:50.479 find every reason to like piss other people off, even 1:17:50.520 --> 1:17:52.280 if they're your boys. It's like you got to really 1:17:52.320 --> 1:17:55.040 take a second to evaluate and go like, is this 1:17:55.200 --> 1:17:58.479 person is being around this guy like leading me closer 1:17:58.560 --> 1:18:00.600 to the life I want, like to I believe that 1:18:00.680 --> 1:18:03.560 this is like you know what I mean, and and 1:18:03.680 --> 1:18:06.080 don't don't have a scarcity mindset when it comes to 1:18:06.160 --> 1:18:08.719 other people, Like there's there's there's a lot of people 1:18:08.840 --> 1:18:11.320 on the planet that you haven't met that will change 1:18:11.320 --> 1:18:15.040 your perspective and add to your life. So if this 1:18:15.320 --> 1:18:18.040 like yeah, if the if the people around you who 1:18:18.120 --> 1:18:21.160 are like sending you a coffin and like joking about 1:18:21.160 --> 1:18:23.880 you dying and like all this shit, like like like 1:18:24.000 --> 1:18:26.200 take a second to evaluate if those are the folks 1:18:26.280 --> 1:18:28.200 you that'll kind of get you to where you want 1:18:28.240 --> 1:18:28.720 to be in life? 1:18:28.760 --> 1:18:32.400 You know, Yeah, true it was a nice coffin, but 1:18:32.880 --> 1:18:37.320 not right now. There was one friend she kept. She 1:18:37.479 --> 1:18:40.679 basically kept like crying on the phone sometimes and cried 1:18:40.720 --> 1:18:42.880 once when we met up, and she was kind of 1:18:42.920 --> 1:18:45.920 worried about me, saying, oh, you know, I'm Mooragine's gonna 1:18:45.960 --> 1:18:48.400 happened to you? So on and so forth. And I 1:18:48.560 --> 1:18:50.160 used to always think that she was trying to hold 1:18:50.200 --> 1:18:52.200 me back a little bit, or she just didn't understand, 1:18:52.680 --> 1:18:55.719 because she's very poor herself, and you know, life hasn't 1:18:55.760 --> 1:18:57.439 gone too well for her, and she's making her own 1:18:57.479 --> 1:19:00.320 mistakes that I recognize, but for some reason she arms. 1:19:01.560 --> 1:19:04.200 But then I realized she's actually probably one of the 1:19:04.240 --> 1:19:07.320 few people that care. And she's said the same things 1:19:07.360 --> 1:19:10.479 that you've said. Yeah, but I didn't listen to it 1:19:10.560 --> 1:19:12.479 because she's not a wise getter. You know. 1:19:14.120 --> 1:19:15.960 Again, i'd be a hypocrite to tell you to stop 1:19:16.280 --> 1:19:19.519 going on your crazy adventures because I also going crazy adventures, 1:19:19.560 --> 1:19:20.920 but like have some common sense. 1:19:22.840 --> 1:19:25.360 Yeah, I guess this goal has been a crazy adventure. 1:19:27.240 --> 1:19:33.000 Uh well, Miles, Miles, thanks, thanks, thanks for being honest 1:19:33.040 --> 1:19:38.439 with me, Thanks for being vulnari, thanks for putting yourself 1:19:38.479 --> 1:19:40.640 out there. I appreciate it. I hope you end up 1:19:40.680 --> 1:19:46.479 doing you know, something that feel makes you feel like 1:19:46.560 --> 1:19:47.360 a normal human? 1:19:48.560 --> 1:19:51.000 Yeah, not not talaban or terrorist dogs. 1:19:51.120 --> 1:19:55.800 Yeah, it's too much. That's too much good, it's too much. 1:19:56.800 --> 1:19:56.920 Uh. 1:19:57.840 --> 1:19:59.720 I guess that begins with getting rid of some of 1:19:59.800 --> 1:20:04.519 our weird sessions. Uh. Unrelated though, do you have the 1:20:04.600 --> 1:20:05.160 PEO box? 1:20:07.920 --> 1:20:09.600 I don't have a po box, but. 1:20:12.560 --> 1:20:15.360 Send me, send me, send me a random address. I'm 1:20:15.400 --> 1:20:17.080 gonna send you, send me to say thank you. It's 1:20:17.120 --> 1:20:20.320 not something illegal, I guess to host gaming. 1:20:21.760 --> 1:20:27.040 I'll think about it, man, I'll think about it. Okay, 1:20:27.120 --> 1:20:31.320 I'll think about it. Is there anything else you want 1:20:31.360 --> 1:20:33.240 to say to the people of the computer before we go? 1:20:36.320 --> 1:20:38.559 I guess, you know, just live love laugh. I guess 1:20:38.720 --> 1:20:44.880 that's one of my famous quotes. And you know, I 1:20:44.960 --> 1:20:46.519 don't know. I don't know what I was I could say. 1:20:46.520 --> 1:20:48.479 I guess I think of I think I've said too much. 1:20:49.320 --> 1:20:51.720 That's quite a right. No, I just oncely, thank you, 1:20:51.800 --> 1:20:54.479 by the way, you actually actually a very good counselor 1:20:56.640 --> 1:20:57.320 very good stuff. 1:20:58.600 --> 1:21:01.160 Thank you, thank you, Miles. I appreciate you. Man. Have 1:21:01.200 --> 1:21:02.000 a good rest of the day. 1:21:02.400 --> 1:21:05.000 I will do God bless you, man. 1:21:05.080 --> 1:21:11.200 Take care man. That was Miles, That was That was 1:21:11.720 --> 1:21:16.040 definitely one of the more wild conversations that we have 1:21:16.240 --> 1:21:20.280 had in a Therapy Gecko history. But I I used 1:21:20.360 --> 1:21:22.920 I stand by I stand by it. I stand by it. 1:21:26.080 --> 1:21:31.599 I hope, I hope Miles makes good decisions. I mean, 1:21:31.640 --> 1:21:33.840 I like going on crazy I'm not. I don't. I 1:21:33.880 --> 1:21:38.880 don't do business with the Taliban or interview cannibals or 1:21:38.880 --> 1:21:43.560 anything like that. But I like, I like, uh, you know, 1:21:43.800 --> 1:21:45.800 going on crazy adventures and stuff and I and I 1:21:45.920 --> 1:21:47.439 know what it feels like to get addicted to it. 1:21:50.320 --> 1:21:55.840 But once you start being like I'm ready to die, 1:21:57.240 --> 1:21:59.599 is is when things become too much. And I also 1:22:00.439 --> 1:22:05.160 think you got to develop a form of normal life 1:22:05.320 --> 1:22:08.960 to fall back on, because of all you have is 1:22:09.080 --> 1:22:13.599 your craziness, you will feel like you are floating through 1:22:13.600 --> 1:22:17.759 outer space. So I hope Miles makes the right decisions 1:22:17.840 --> 1:22:24.840 and finds some form of peace for himself. And yeah, 1:22:25.040 --> 1:22:29.439 that's been. That's been the Therapy Gecko podcast. 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