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Speaker 1: Hi, everybody. My name is Lindsay Young and I am

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Speaker 1: an assistant editor and staff writer here with the Minnesota Vikings.

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Speaker 1: I'm super excited to bring you guys a new content

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Speaker 1: series called Getting Open Vikings Talk Mental Health. We are

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Speaker 1: going to bring you weekly segments that will include a

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Speaker 1: opportunity to listen to the full audio interview like you're

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Speaker 1: doing right now. Throughout the series, you will be able

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Speaker 1: to hear personal experiences from players and others within the

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Speaker 1: Vikings organization. We will share information about how the Vikings

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Speaker 1: are working to put an emphasis on mental health and

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Speaker 1: to care for those that are staff, players, coaches, everybody

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Speaker 1: in the building. We will also share some of the

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Speaker 1: players foundations doing a lot of work in the area

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Speaker 1: of mental health. Our first conversation is with Vikings defensive

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Speaker 1: lineman Jalen Holmes, who this season will be entering his

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Speaker 1: fourth year with Minnesota. He shared with me some of

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Speaker 1: his personal experiences from growing up, how he kind of

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Speaker 1: came to find out that anxiety was an official diagnosis

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Speaker 1: for him, and the tools that he's used over the

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Speaker 1: years to treat it, recover and also connect with other

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Speaker 1: people who have similar experiences. Here is our conversation with

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Speaker 1: Jalen Holmes. Can you just tell us a little bit

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Speaker 1: about your experience around mental health and what that's looked

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Speaker 1: like in your life. I feel like at first, when

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Speaker 1: I first started struggling with it, for me, I didn't

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Speaker 1: know what it was. You know, you really don't get toted.

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Speaker 1: You don't get that's not something to get towle at

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Speaker 1: school or you know. I really never had like people

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Speaker 1: tell me about like the symptoms or whatever if I'm mental.

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Speaker 1: I just was experiencing and then just trying to deal

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Speaker 1: with the best way I knew how. But I feel like,

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Speaker 1: you know, as time grew and I grew as a person,

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Speaker 1: and I grew as a father, as I grew as

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Speaker 1: a man, I started to acknowledge some of the things

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Speaker 1: just tried to attack it. Really from there, I answer

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Speaker 1: you a question, what age was that when you first

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Speaker 1: started experiencing feeling different? You know? Was that in college?

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Speaker 1: Was that in high school? What did that look like?

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Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like different things that happened. You

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Speaker 1: I grew up in me different things just seeing you know,

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Speaker 1: people getting killed. Now I knew H went to, you know,

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Speaker 1: the school I went to. It was a lot of

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Speaker 1: different things going in there. So maybe maybe middle school,

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Speaker 1: high school you started experience other things. But it never

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Speaker 1: I knew I had to act on it. It's when

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Speaker 1: I got to the NFL. Okay, you're you're kind of

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Speaker 1: speaking generally about mental health. I know you've shared specifically

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Speaker 1: things on your social media about depression, and we'll get

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Speaker 1: to that here in the second. But it's depression. The

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Speaker 1: main piece that you are affected by it that you

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Speaker 1: deal with depression, anxiety, both of those two things. I

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Speaker 1: feel like it was a time where, you know, I

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Speaker 1: know how to like put it, but definitely anxiety. It's

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Speaker 1: everyday better with anxiety. It's times where you know, I

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Speaker 1: have I'm a perfectionist in a way, So certain things

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Speaker 1: it kind of made me feel good because you could

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Speaker 1: and you know, being an athlete, has that been helpful

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Speaker 1: other athletes in the NFL, college or high school, whatever.

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Speaker 1: Our job can be our stressers, and it's just talking

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Speaker 1: It was so much going on in my own head

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Speaker 1: about talking going to therapy as it definitely has. Are

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Speaker 1: helpful and supportive for you? And how important is that? Oh? Yeah? So,

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Speaker 1: saying being vulnerable within everybody. You've obviously you gotta you know,

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Speaker 1: be completely vulnerable with them because you know they can help.

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Speaker 1: I mean, you can't do this all by yourself. And

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Speaker 1: think that there's a stigma around mental illness, either in

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