WEBVTT - GECKMAIL: CHICKEN DREAD 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.360 Hello, Welcome to gek mail. It is a show about 0:00:03.400 --> 0:00:07.960 a gecko reading mail. I have no further explanation to 0:00:08.080 --> 0:00:10.760 offer than that it is a show about a gecko 0:00:11.440 --> 0:00:14.680 reading mail. I'm all right, I'm gonna talk about myself 0:00:14.720 --> 0:00:16.680 for two seconds and then we're gonna read mail. I 0:00:16.720 --> 0:00:22.560 am in a room in the country of Japan right 0:00:22.600 --> 0:00:29.560 now recording this podcast. Next week, I'm gonna go on 0:00:29.640 --> 0:00:35.000 a like a fifty mile walk on the Nakasendo trail 0:00:35.800 --> 0:00:40.199 in rural Japan. I'm gonna live stream it on twitch 0:00:40.280 --> 0:00:44.800 dot tv slash lyle forever. I don't know exactly when, 0:00:45.159 --> 0:00:50.239 but next week, that's my that's my promo. This is 0:00:50.280 --> 0:00:54.440 my promo for it is uh and it's such sometime 0:00:54.640 --> 0:00:58.080 next week I will be live on twitch dot tv 0:00:58.200 --> 0:01:02.480 slash lyle forever. You know how like today's the super Bowl, right, 0:01:02.560 --> 0:01:05.720 and you know how when usually when people promote events, 0:01:05.720 --> 0:01:08.720 so they promote things they're doing, they're like, uh, you know, 0:01:08.840 --> 0:01:12.240 on March fifteenth at two pm, tune in too. You 0:01:12.280 --> 0:01:16.119 know Fuck that all right, Look sometime next week, if 0:01:16.160 --> 0:01:20.120 you go to twitch dot tv slash lyle forever, I 0:01:20.200 --> 0:01:27.240 will be walking around rural Japan with my friend sense Martian. Actually, 0:01:27.600 --> 0:01:32.240 if you guys remember a podcast that I put out. 0:01:32.160 --> 0:01:34.120 A few months ago, I think. 0:01:35.440 --> 0:01:41.039 Called I Walked Across Japan. I talked to a to 0:01:41.120 --> 0:01:48.080 a gentleman named sense Martian, and we we you know, 0:01:48.400 --> 0:01:51.920 we talked about him walking all across Japan. And I 0:01:51.960 --> 0:01:55.040 am now meeting up with that gentleman and we are 0:01:55.040 --> 0:01:57.920 going to go on a little walk across Japan at 0:01:58.000 --> 0:02:03.080 some point next week. We will be live streaming it on. 0:02:02.960 --> 0:02:05.800 Twitch dot tv slash lyle forever. So it's what. 0:02:05.960 --> 0:02:07.880 I don't know when this episode is gonna come out, 0:02:08.600 --> 0:02:12.040 but I think it will come out on a Wednesday 0:02:12.080 --> 0:02:15.280 and so on, like Monday or Tuesday. Just go to 0:02:15.280 --> 0:02:18.200 Twitch dot tv slash law Forever. Follow me on there, 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:20.360 and I'll be walking. I'm not gonna do it in 0:02:20.400 --> 0:02:22.679 the Gecko suit. I thought about doing it in the 0:02:22.720 --> 0:02:28.120 Gecko suits, and then I decided that I thought about it, 0:02:28.160 --> 0:02:32.680 and I said I didn't want to because because I 0:02:32.680 --> 0:02:38.519 don't feel like it. All right, let's read some emails, 0:02:38.600 --> 0:02:41.839 shall we. Let's read some emails and then we'll talk 0:02:41.880 --> 0:02:48.880 about them. Okay, this is from Natasha. Subject line walks 0:02:49.080 --> 0:02:52.040 and SpongeBob really do improve your day. 0:02:53.480 --> 0:02:54.120 Hello Gek. 0:02:54.280 --> 0:02:56.640 My name is Tash and I am an artist and 0:02:56.760 --> 0:02:58.679 yoga teacher in Copenhagen. 0:02:58.840 --> 0:02:59.160 Wow. 0:03:00.000 --> 0:03:03.320 What a thing to be. What a thing and a 0:03:03.400 --> 0:03:05.520 place to be in. What a thing to be and 0:03:05.560 --> 0:03:06.360 a place to be in. 0:03:06.680 --> 0:03:07.480 I have a nice. 0:03:07.320 --> 0:03:10.279 Little story to share with you about your last podcast. 0:03:11.320 --> 0:03:14.120 I was feeling a bit low about myself, which is 0:03:14.160 --> 0:03:16.760 a hard cycle to have when you're a yoga teacher 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:19.360 because you want to give the best energy you've got. 0:03:19.680 --> 0:03:22.080 But I've been sick for weeks and today my emotions 0:03:22.120 --> 0:03:26.880 really got to me. I've struggled with anxiety my whole life, 0:03:26.919 --> 0:03:29.760 and yoga has always been a core value of mine 0:03:30.040 --> 0:03:33.560 to help me feel centered again. Teaching has been one 0:03:33.560 --> 0:03:36.840 of the greatest joys in my life so far. In 0:03:36.880 --> 0:03:39.160 these moments where I feel a bit anxious, I try 0:03:39.200 --> 0:03:41.320 to remind myself that I'm human and these are just 0:03:41.440 --> 0:03:44.520 human emotions. I try to do something simple like go 0:03:44.560 --> 0:03:48.040 on a walk and the sun started to shine, which 0:03:48.080 --> 0:03:50.920 means a lot in Scandinavia in winter. I really enjoy 0:03:51.000 --> 0:03:53.400 listening to your podcast because there's a nice blend of humor, 0:03:53.480 --> 0:03:57.680 humility and insight. Your last podcast resonated well with me 0:03:57.760 --> 0:03:58.760 on different topics. 0:04:00.560 --> 0:04:01.600 Okay, okay, A. 0:04:01.560 --> 0:04:03.680 Funny little part of my walk happened when you were 0:04:03.720 --> 0:04:07.080 talking about SpongeBob with a caller. I remember that I laughed, 0:04:07.440 --> 0:04:09.720 and about thirty seconds later I looked up and saw 0:04:09.800 --> 0:04:13.040 this mural around my neighborhood. Okay, and it's a picture 0:04:13.080 --> 0:04:18.839 of SpongeBob. Thanks for reading and creating an email format. 0:04:19.320 --> 0:04:22.320 Have a great rest of your day, Tash. This person 0:04:22.400 --> 0:04:30.039 is so nice. This is a really nice, wholesome person. Yes, 0:04:30.560 --> 0:04:32.880 this is a nice person. This is a nice person 0:04:32.920 --> 0:04:36.080 who wrote me this email. I don't know if I 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:38.919 have anything else to say about this email except that 0:04:39.000 --> 0:04:43.880 the person who wrote it seems like they are nice. 0:04:45.160 --> 0:04:45.400 Let me. 0:04:47.120 --> 0:04:49.200 Yes, this is a nice person who wrote this email. 0:04:49.240 --> 0:04:55.600 This is a nice picture of SpongeBob. And yes, it's 0:04:55.760 --> 0:05:00.920 very nice. This is from Ali, subject line death anxiety. 0:05:00.960 --> 0:05:03.840 All right, Here we go, Here we go, Dear Ghek, 0:05:03.880 --> 0:05:07.080 I've been having really bad death anxiety lately. Tell me 0:05:07.160 --> 0:05:09.800 about it, all right. The thought of not existing for 0:05:09.880 --> 0:05:13.359 eternity after my death freaks me out like crazy. I 0:05:13.480 --> 0:05:15.680 used to not think about it much, however, now what 0:05:15.839 --> 0:05:18.320 is all I think about? I have been thinking about 0:05:18.400 --> 0:05:21.520 multiple theories of what else could possibly happen after death. 0:05:21.960 --> 0:05:25.000 I am not a religious person and am agnostic. I 0:05:25.040 --> 0:05:27.279 have a theory that we spawn into the next phase 0:05:27.279 --> 0:05:29.680 of existence and move on with a whole new life. 0:05:30.040 --> 0:05:32.279 I don't see this as an afterlife, just as the 0:05:32.320 --> 0:05:35.080 next phase. Do you ever feel afraid of the thought 0:05:35.120 --> 0:05:37.440 that there is a more than likely chance that we 0:05:37.520 --> 0:05:42.239 cease to exist for eternity after death? 0:05:45.279 --> 0:05:48.280 Yeah, yeah, that scares me, But it's kind of nice. 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:52.120 Because it's everyone right, Like, you could have lived the 0:05:52.160 --> 0:05:58.160 most beautiful life ever, and you can you achieve the 0:05:58.240 --> 0:06:01.680 heights of your indusy in your career, and you can 0:06:02.440 --> 0:06:07.400 raise ten beautiful children with your beautiful wife or husbands. 0:06:08.720 --> 0:06:11.760 You can travel to every country on the earth, and 0:06:11.839 --> 0:06:16.640 you can have be respected and admired and loved by all. 0:06:17.560 --> 0:06:22.040 Or you can play a lot of video games and 0:06:22.279 --> 0:06:29.560 kill people and be horrible. And I don't know why 0:06:29.720 --> 0:06:31.720 I combine. I don't know why I combined playing video 0:06:31.760 --> 0:06:34.160 games and killing people. I'm about this whole episode just 0:06:34.279 --> 0:06:38.040 I'm just I'm this is gonna be a sloppy episode, 0:06:38.120 --> 0:06:41.120 just so everyone knows. But I just I trust the 0:06:41.160 --> 0:06:45.279 people listening to this and that were all along for 0:06:45.360 --> 0:06:46.000 the same ride. 0:06:46.080 --> 0:06:47.840 So just buckle up, we're gonna do this. 0:06:48.800 --> 0:06:54.799 Okay, So video game killing guy and Nelson Mandela good person. 0:06:55.720 --> 0:06:56.640 We all die. 0:06:56.680 --> 0:06:59.640 Everyone dies, and so it's an equalizer. And so what 0:06:59.680 --> 0:07:03.240 it means is that nothing you do matters. But that's 0:07:03.279 --> 0:07:05.840 not true too. I told you, just give me a 0:07:05.880 --> 0:07:13.000 sloppy episode. Yeah, but you're not alone. I want you 0:07:13.040 --> 0:07:17.680 to know something, Ali, is that the alternative is way worse. 0:07:19.000 --> 0:07:22.720 The alternative for you is the loneliest thing I could 0:07:22.720 --> 0:07:24.960 possibly imagine, Because Ali, think about this. 0:07:25.240 --> 0:07:26.480 Yes, you're going to die. 0:07:26.320 --> 0:07:28.360 And you're going to cease far all of eternity, but 0:07:28.520 --> 0:07:31.160 it's so beautiful. You're part of the whole community of 0:07:31.240 --> 0:07:35.520 not just human beings, but you know, plants and hamsters 0:07:36.040 --> 0:07:39.600 and everything that we all die. Imagine the alternative, Ali, 0:07:39.720 --> 0:07:41.760 imagine if just you. 0:07:43.280 --> 0:07:47.240 Lived forever. That would be awful. 0:07:47.520 --> 0:07:50.800 That would be the That would be the loneliest fucking 0:07:50.960 --> 0:07:53.800 thing that I could possibly imagine. 0:07:53.800 --> 0:07:55.280 That's the worst fate of all times. 0:07:55.280 --> 0:07:58.560 So if you had to pick between that and what 0:07:58.600 --> 0:08:00.920 you've got right now, which is this beautiful thing, which 0:08:00.960 --> 0:08:07.120 is that you're participating in the most communal experience you 0:08:07.120 --> 0:08:11.320 could possibly have as a living creature. You would absolutely 0:08:11.400 --> 0:08:15.040 want that over, you know, living forever. I think death 0:08:15.080 --> 0:08:17.760 would suck more if, like you know what suck is, 0:08:17.800 --> 0:08:22.920 if everything that was ever born inherently lived forever, but Ali, 0:08:23.000 --> 0:08:24.480 But what if just you died? 0:08:25.040 --> 0:08:25.800 That would suck? 0:08:26.000 --> 0:08:29.640 Right if you were endowed with this gift of if 0:08:29.880 --> 0:08:33.440 if the general experience of all life forms were that 0:08:33.559 --> 0:08:38.400 you live forever until otherwise noted, but just you, Ali, 0:08:38.800 --> 0:08:41.720 just you died, that would suck. That would be something 0:08:41.760 --> 0:08:44.440 to be afraid of. But that's not the case. That's 0:08:44.440 --> 0:08:47.160 not what's happening to you. What's happening to you is 0:08:47.200 --> 0:08:51.800 that you are joining the rest of not only humanity, 0:08:51.880 --> 0:08:55.920 but also every bug and every dog and every octopus. 0:08:56.520 --> 0:09:00.560 And you're gonna never be anything. And that's that's good. 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:04.040 That never being anything is way better than being too 0:09:04.120 --> 0:09:08.640 much forever. So I hope you take solace in that. 0:09:09.200 --> 0:09:09.559 All right. 0:09:09.640 --> 0:09:12.920 This is from Tom, subject line this sucks. I'm interested 0:09:12.920 --> 0:09:15.080 in this email, Hi, Lyle. I'm a big fan of 0:09:15.080 --> 0:09:17.120 what you're doing. Thank you, Tom, God bless you Tom. 0:09:17.400 --> 0:09:20.960 About a year ago, I became vegan after watching a 0:09:21.040 --> 0:09:25.040 documentary about animal agriculture. I was a little high on 0:09:25.240 --> 0:09:27.840 LSD when I watched it, and I realized for the 0:09:27.840 --> 0:09:31.960 first time that every animal, just like us, experiences the world. 0:09:32.320 --> 0:09:34.600 They don't have the same shape or intelligence as us, 0:09:34.840 --> 0:09:38.440 but they do feel and they can suffer. People kill 0:09:38.720 --> 0:09:42.920 one point two trillion animals per year. 0:09:43.120 --> 0:09:44.920 Is that true? 0:09:45.880 --> 0:09:50.160 It sounds it sounds more one point two trillion. Do 0:09:50.200 --> 0:09:52.840 we really kill one point two trillion animals per year? 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:55.520 You know what, let's roll with that. 0:09:55.800 --> 0:09:57.760 I'm not gonna fact check it because this is a 0:09:57.800 --> 0:10:00.400 podcast and so we don't have to fact check anything here. 0:10:02.320 --> 0:10:05.880 This spiraled me into a depression thinking about it every day. 0:10:06.160 --> 0:10:07.760 I wanted to stop, but there was nothing I could 0:10:07.760 --> 0:10:10.640 do but focus on my contribution. This was the hardest 0:10:10.720 --> 0:10:13.600 mental challenge I ever had to overcome. I still get 0:10:13.600 --> 0:10:15.520 sad when I think about it, but it's nowhere as 0:10:15.559 --> 0:10:21.080 bad as it was. Anyway, much love from Chechia. Okay, 0:10:21.120 --> 0:10:25.000 so this guy, this guy's upset that one point two 0:10:25.120 --> 0:10:28.839 trillion animals per year die or not. 0:10:28.920 --> 0:10:33.680 They don't die either're killed by uh people who love 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:42.000 eating delicious animals. That's that. You know. It sucks. It 0:10:42.080 --> 0:10:43.160 sucks more than animals. 0:10:43.240 --> 0:10:48.600 I think it would it would suck more if animals 0:10:48.600 --> 0:10:52.880 weren't so delicious, because then it would be. 0:10:52.840 --> 0:10:54.360 More black and white. 0:10:54.640 --> 0:10:58.240 If people were just killing animals for no reason, you know, 0:10:59.160 --> 0:11:02.959 then maybe this is gonna be situ whatever I'm putting 0:11:02.960 --> 0:11:10.360 this on the internet. If animals weren't so delicious, I 0:11:10.360 --> 0:11:12.800 think it would be easier to be upset that were 0:11:12.880 --> 0:11:15.520 killing so many of them, you know what I mean, 0:11:16.440 --> 0:11:19.640 Because like, if there was just some guy out there 0:11:19.679 --> 0:11:24.800 who was like killing chickens for no reason, he just 0:11:24.840 --> 0:11:26.680 wanted to, he just thought it was fun, that'd be 0:11:26.720 --> 0:11:32.120 fucked up. But there's lots of guys out there killing 0:11:32.160 --> 0:11:37.679 a lot of chickens because chickens are so delicious, and 0:11:37.720 --> 0:11:43.400 so it's not as black and white as as the 0:11:43.480 --> 0:11:45.760 situations with the situation would have you think. 0:11:50.640 --> 0:11:51.320 I do find it. 0:11:51.360 --> 0:11:54.839 I've gone on this rant so many times to people 0:11:54.880 --> 0:11:56.680 in my personal life, and I'm sure I've gone on 0:11:56.720 --> 0:12:01.560 it on the podcast. But found it quite interesting the 0:12:01.679 --> 0:12:06.160 very arbitrary lines that we draw between what animals are 0:12:07.720 --> 0:12:13.559 okay to kill in mass versus not like like if 0:12:13.600 --> 0:12:15.720 you kill and eat a dog, you're a you're an 0:12:15.800 --> 0:12:21.480 awful crazy person in in in modern society, killing and 0:12:21.520 --> 0:12:25.679 eating a dog is frowned upon, but you can kill 0:12:25.720 --> 0:12:30.320 and eat infinite chickens and no one cares, and there's 0:12:30.360 --> 0:12:32.679 no And here's the thing that's weird about that is 0:12:32.679 --> 0:12:37.920 there's really there's no real, honest, god reason why. Because 0:12:38.120 --> 0:12:42.080 Tom in this email is correct, every animal, just like us, 0:12:42.240 --> 0:12:48.120 feels can suffer. All those chickens suffered immeasurable pain when 0:12:48.160 --> 0:12:53.720 we killed and ate them. Does that mean we should 0:12:53.760 --> 0:13:01.920 stop prop Probably? Probably, But I'm still gonna eat chickens 0:13:02.160 --> 0:13:08.880 because they're so because they're good, and I don't have 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:11.720 to kill them. I think if I had to, if 0:13:11.800 --> 0:13:14.120 every time I wanted to eat chicken, I had to 0:13:14.160 --> 0:13:15.640 look at a baby, I had to look at a 0:13:15.679 --> 0:13:17.440 chicken and I had to stab it with a knife 0:13:17.920 --> 0:13:19.400 and I had to kill it, I don't think I 0:13:19.400 --> 0:13:20.480 would eat chicken anymore. 0:13:21.559 --> 0:13:24.359 But we there's. 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:30.800 Like, there's people who kill who do that, who like 0:13:30.920 --> 0:13:31.640 I think they like it. 0:13:31.679 --> 0:13:38.280 They probably like it. They love killing chickens, And so. 0:13:40.800 --> 0:13:44.520 We let we have a beneficial relationship with the people 0:13:44.520 --> 0:13:48.360 who love killing chickens because we don't we because like 0:13:49.320 --> 0:13:51.600 we as in you know, people like me, people who 0:13:51.880 --> 0:13:54.120 like eating chicken but don't like killing them. 0:13:54.600 --> 0:13:54.960 Have a. 0:13:56.480 --> 0:13:59.200 We have a beneficial relationship because I like to eat chicken, 0:13:59.200 --> 0:14:02.600 but I don't like kill it. So I rely on 0:14:03.160 --> 0:14:06.920 someone out there who loves to kill to kill the 0:14:07.040 --> 0:14:08.360 chickens so they don't have to do it, but I 0:14:08.360 --> 0:14:11.240 can still eat them. And you know what, Tom, You're right, 0:14:11.320 --> 0:14:18.240 this is probably fucked up. It's probably fucked up. But uh, 0:14:18.720 --> 0:14:22.200 you know, yeah, like, why is my life so much 0:14:23.240 --> 0:14:26.000 more important than a chicken's life? I don't have a 0:14:26.040 --> 0:14:28.800 good answer to that question. It makes me depressed too. 0:14:29.280 --> 0:14:30.840 I don't have a good answer to that question. 0:14:31.480 --> 0:14:33.680 The truth, the truth is. 0:14:33.720 --> 0:14:36.080 The answer is that it's not my life, and your 0:14:36.160 --> 0:14:39.520 life and the life of everyone listening to this podcast 0:14:39.640 --> 0:14:46.280 is not inherently, for some fucking reason, that much more 0:14:46.320 --> 0:14:50.040 important than the life of a chicken. It's a little 0:14:50.120 --> 0:14:54.800 narciss I think it's a little narcissistic to think that 0:14:54.840 --> 0:14:56.640 you're that much more important than a chicken. 0:15:00.040 --> 0:15:00.520 But we do. 0:15:00.600 --> 0:15:05.240 We just I think that's our brains are hardwired to 0:15:05.360 --> 0:15:08.360 believe that we as human beings are superior to chickens. 0:15:09.680 --> 0:15:16.240 But yeah, like, what, like human life is inherently value. 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:21.000 We've kind of decided societally. What am I doing right now? 0:15:21.080 --> 0:15:22.280 What am I? 0:15:22.360 --> 0:15:22.440 What? 0:15:22.880 --> 0:15:24.240 This is? You know what? 0:15:24.480 --> 0:15:25.680 You know? I'm gonna kep you know what. I'm gonna 0:15:25.720 --> 0:15:28.720 keep going. Whoever is If you're listening to this in 0:15:28.760 --> 0:15:31.880 your car right now or while you're folding laundry and 0:15:31.920 --> 0:15:34.960 you're still with me, I really love you. I appreciate 0:15:35.000 --> 0:15:37.920 you for for giving me your time to go on 0:15:38.000 --> 0:15:44.600 this aimless rant that doesn't make any I'm gonna keep going. Well, 0:15:44.640 --> 0:15:46.440 I don't even know what I was talking about it anymore, 0:15:46.720 --> 0:15:48.800 but I'm gonna try to see if I can keep going. 0:15:48.920 --> 0:15:49.560 I'm gonna this. 0:15:49.640 --> 0:15:52.680 I'm gonna make this a three hour podcast about chickens. 0:15:52.680 --> 0:15:53.840 No, I'm not. I don't want to do that. 0:15:57.400 --> 0:16:01.400 Uh okay, but anyway, the whole point, the look, the 0:16:01.440 --> 0:16:04.200 point is is that chicken lives don't matter, but also 0:16:04.400 --> 0:16:08.480 neither do humans, and so I'm just we should all 0:16:08.560 --> 0:16:09.280 kill and eat each other. 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:12.320 Let's read another question. Let's read another email. All right, 0:16:12.960 --> 0:16:13.640 This is. 0:16:15.200 --> 0:16:22.360 From Aiden. Okay, this is from Aiden. Subject line is girlfriend. 0:16:23.400 --> 0:16:25.840 Aiden says, I really want a girlfriend, but I don't 0:16:25.880 --> 0:16:27.920 know how to talk to women. I also happen to 0:16:27.920 --> 0:16:31.400 have autism, so I tend to miss out on social cues? 0:16:31.880 --> 0:16:34.240 Is there any way I can get a girlfriend sent 0:16:34.280 --> 0:16:38.160 from my iPhone? 0:16:38.800 --> 0:16:43.640 There? You know? Aren't here's aren't there also. 0:16:45.120 --> 0:16:49.840 Women out there who who don't, who also similarly tend 0:16:49.880 --> 0:16:52.960 to miss out on social cues? Is there a way 0:16:53.000 --> 0:16:56.080 for you to find them? I think didn't they made? 0:16:56.120 --> 0:16:58.200 There's a whole TV show about this, like love on 0:16:58.240 --> 0:17:05.320 the Spectrum? Couldn't you theoretically find somebody who also is 0:17:05.359 --> 0:17:08.280 not great at social cues and you guys can be 0:17:08.359 --> 0:17:09.640 happy together on and. 0:17:12.400 --> 0:17:14.760 You know, I don't know, aiden I don't. I feel 0:17:14.760 --> 0:17:17.239 like you only gave me three sentences to work with. 0:17:17.320 --> 0:17:20.159 But I think I even with these three sentences, I 0:17:20.160 --> 0:17:22.040 do I think you can find a girlfriend. Yeah, I 0:17:22.080 --> 0:17:24.600 think you can find a girlfriend. I don't know anything 0:17:24.600 --> 0:17:30.840 about your life, but you know, uh, brush your teeth, 0:17:32.760 --> 0:17:41.320 be employed, try your best to not be you know, 0:17:42.040 --> 0:17:46.320 to not say anything like completely utterly insane, and you 0:17:46.359 --> 0:17:50.080 can probably like missing out on a few social cues 0:17:50.200 --> 0:17:52.280 is not is not going to be the worst thing 0:17:52.280 --> 0:17:52.800 in the world. 0:17:54.000 --> 0:17:54.320 I don't know. 0:17:54.359 --> 0:17:56.159 You only give me three sentences to work with, but 0:17:56.160 --> 0:17:59.359 I'm gonna assume you're not like an evil insane person, 0:18:02.320 --> 0:18:04.000 and so as long as you're not, I mean, honestly, 0:18:04.000 --> 0:18:05.840 even if you were an evil, insane person, you could 0:18:05.840 --> 0:18:09.240 probably also even if you if this email didn't, if 0:18:09.240 --> 0:18:11.840 this email said I really want a girlfriend, but I 0:18:11.840 --> 0:18:13.159 am an evil, insane person. 0:18:13.200 --> 0:18:14.440 Is there any way to get a girlfriend? 0:18:14.480 --> 0:18:17.520 I would also I would still say yes, because you 0:18:17.520 --> 0:18:23.000 could just find another evil insane person to date. And 0:18:23.440 --> 0:18:25.879 whatever kind of person you are, you can there's another 0:18:26.920 --> 0:18:31.200 there's an opposite gender version of you or same gender 0:18:31.280 --> 0:18:33.360 whatever you know you're looking for. 0:18:34.720 --> 0:18:37.600 So, yeah, you can. 0:18:37.720 --> 0:18:40.800 I think you'll be okay, I think you can find 0:18:40.840 --> 0:18:47.639 a girlfriends. Yeah, I believe in you. Aiden Okay. This 0:18:47.840 --> 0:18:57.720 is from Wesley Anderson, subject line therapy. Gecko made me 0:18:57.960 --> 0:18:59.680 dress up in blackface? 0:19:02.720 --> 0:19:04.800 All right, I don't. I don't read. 0:19:05.160 --> 0:19:07.840 I just I don't read these emails before I read 0:19:07.840 --> 0:19:08.920 them live on the show. 0:19:09.400 --> 0:19:11.359 I probably should. I don't. 0:19:11.359 --> 0:19:13.120 I used to screen the phone calls. I don't really 0:19:13.160 --> 0:19:13.840 do that anymore. 0:19:13.880 --> 0:19:15.600 I'm just I'm this whole thing. 0:19:16.520 --> 0:19:18.200 If you're listening to this right now in your car 0:19:18.280 --> 0:19:20.280 and you're still here with me, I just God, bless you. 0:19:20.880 --> 0:19:21.679 I really love you. 0:19:22.080 --> 0:19:24.800 Thanks for being here, and thanks for letting me continue 0:19:24.800 --> 0:19:28.520 to remain in your brain, in your ear. Let's see 0:19:28.560 --> 0:19:31.040 what this email says, Hey, GEK, Long story short, I 0:19:31.119 --> 0:19:33.359 dressed up as Therapy get Goo for Halloween. But the 0:19:33.400 --> 0:19:37.320 face pant I used was too dark and I couldn't 0:19:37.359 --> 0:19:39.240 make the color lighter and. 0:19:39.160 --> 0:19:41.600 So it looked like blackface. 0:19:44.359 --> 0:19:47.480 But I didn't make you do that, by the way, Okay, 0:19:47.480 --> 0:19:49.600 and he sent the picture. It looks fine. You look, 0:19:49.680 --> 0:19:52.120 it doesn't look like it doesn't look like that. It 0:19:51.840 --> 0:19:57.480 doesn't look like that. Let's keep going. You know what, 0:19:57.520 --> 0:20:00.000 I realized. I'm feeling a little bit more powerful because 0:20:00.080 --> 0:20:08.040 I realized that I can stop reading an email halfway through. 0:20:08.720 --> 0:20:11.000 If I'm like a couple of sentences into an email 0:20:11.040 --> 0:20:12.199 and I don't want to read the whole thing, I 0:20:12.200 --> 0:20:12.960 can just keep going. 0:20:14.760 --> 0:20:20.440 You ever realized there's no rules? Isn't that crazy? I 0:20:20.480 --> 0:20:21.280 don't know why in this. 0:20:21.400 --> 0:20:23.920 I've been doing this podcast for four years and I 0:20:23.960 --> 0:20:26.439 have this rigid way that I feel like I have 0:20:26.520 --> 0:20:28.800 to do it. And now I'm like, why don't I 0:20:28.880 --> 0:20:32.600 just I can do whatever I can. I'll be okay, 0:20:32.720 --> 0:20:42.479 all right. Uh. This is from Carson. Subject line life sucks. 0:20:43.840 --> 0:20:46.320 Carson says, why does life suck? It feels like I'm 0:20:46.359 --> 0:20:48.560 stuck in the same loop over and over again. I 0:20:48.600 --> 0:20:51.399 go out places and try to socialize. I just feel 0:20:51.400 --> 0:20:55.000 like an outcast anywhere I go. I just IDK. What's 0:20:55.040 --> 0:20:57.280 the point of socializing, and what's the point of life anymore? 0:20:57.320 --> 0:20:59.879 Deck shit seems pointless anymore when you're already down and 0:21:00.119 --> 0:21:01.000 keep getting screwed. 0:21:01.280 --> 0:21:02.920 I just isolate. It sucks. 0:21:03.160 --> 0:21:04.640 I just want to figure shit out, but I don't 0:21:04.640 --> 0:21:07.280 even know where to start. Fuck all right, let's talk 0:21:07.280 --> 0:21:11.960 about this. Let's talk about this, Carson, Let's talk about this. 0:21:12.880 --> 0:21:15.960 You feel like an outcast anywhere you go. I have 0:21:16.119 --> 0:21:18.040 I could go on a rant about this. I have 0:21:18.160 --> 0:21:23.439 like advice, I guess because I'm with you too, like 0:21:23.480 --> 0:21:27.560 any you go like, cause you kind of inherently are, 0:21:27.600 --> 0:21:30.200 and like no matter you know, whatever, whoever you are 0:21:30.320 --> 0:21:32.440 or whoever you think, I'm not talking to you specifically, 0:21:32.440 --> 0:21:34.600 I'm just talking to people whoever you are, or whoever 0:21:34.600 --> 0:21:37.520 you think you are, whatever you think you are, Like 0:21:37.560 --> 0:21:39.280 if you have this image in your brain of like, 0:21:39.320 --> 0:21:41.080 why would anyone want to talk to me? I kind 0:21:41.080 --> 0:21:44.280 of suck and I'm not that interesting in all these things. 0:21:46.119 --> 0:21:48.199 And you and you kind of walk around like that. 0:21:48.320 --> 0:21:51.119 It becomes like a bit of a self fulfilling prophecy. 0:21:51.520 --> 0:21:54.280 But you are inherently an outcast wherever you go, Like 0:21:54.320 --> 0:21:56.200 if you go to a bar and you try to 0:21:56.240 --> 0:21:58.960 start talking to people and you like talk to a 0:21:59.000 --> 0:22:02.639 group of friends, You're like, you are an outcast inherently, 0:22:03.200 --> 0:22:06.119 And so what's the antidote to that. The antidote, at 0:22:06.200 --> 0:22:08.679 least to me, this is I'm just speaking from my 0:22:08.760 --> 0:22:13.080 own life experience because it's all I have is you 0:22:13.160 --> 0:22:16.639 gotta kind of find a way to create your own 0:22:17.119 --> 0:22:22.880 cast to be in. We've never lived in a world 0:22:22.960 --> 0:22:28.200 where it was easier to do that. The tools are available, Carson, 0:22:28.520 --> 0:22:31.080 Now I'm speaking to Carson. For you to create your 0:22:31.080 --> 0:22:36.480 own thing, you gotta like some And I don't know 0:22:36.520 --> 0:22:38.320 what you like. I only know what you hate. I 0:22:38.320 --> 0:22:42.760 only know that you're depressed. But I don't know, dude, 0:22:42.760 --> 0:22:45.320 Maybe you fucking like legos and maybe you just start 0:22:45.320 --> 0:22:48.119 the Lego discord. You don't even have to go outside 0:22:48.119 --> 0:22:50.040 to do this now, because I was gonna say, you 0:22:50.040 --> 0:22:54.879 could go to the local community center and start start 0:22:54.880 --> 0:22:58.160 the Lego club and then have a bunch of lego friends. 0:22:58.200 --> 0:23:00.679 You don't even have to leave your fucking computer to 0:23:00.720 --> 0:23:00.959 do it. 0:23:01.000 --> 0:23:03.199 Now, you don't even have to leave your computer to 0:23:03.240 --> 0:23:06.159 go on go make friends, So why don't you. I 0:23:06.200 --> 0:23:08.080 don't know what you were into, Carson, but I'm gonna 0:23:08.080 --> 0:23:11.200 assume you're into Legos, because I'm just the only way 0:23:11.200 --> 0:23:14.040 for me to, I think, talk about this is to 0:23:14.359 --> 0:23:16.640 assume things about you. So I'm gonna assume you love Legos, 0:23:16.680 --> 0:23:20.880 and I'm gonna suggest that you start the Lego Lover's 0:23:21.680 --> 0:23:27.119 Discord and you go on the Lego subreddit and you're like, hey, everyone, 0:23:27.160 --> 0:23:29.880 I started a discord channel for people who love Legos, 0:23:30.560 --> 0:23:33.000 and some fucking some other guy who hates his life 0:23:33.040 --> 0:23:34.639