Speaker 1: So now it's we go out with the Loreal team
Speaker 1: to this restaurant. Incidentally, we went to Lavenue, which I've
Speaker 1: been in New York. The one in Paris is not
Speaker 1: as good, which is strange to say, but it's a
Speaker 1: French restaurant and it's worse in Paris.
Speaker 2: I don't know, sue me.
Speaker 1: So we go to Levenue, We have a nice meal out,
Speaker 1: we connect with other people, we connect with the team.
Speaker 2: We come back.
Speaker 1: I don't sleep that much just because we haven't been
Speaker 1: sleeping that much, and I wake up well, we got
Speaker 1: home late period, so we wake up because I wake
Speaker 1: up early, and we're more focused on the I'm more
Speaker 1: focused on the fact that we saw these like chocolate
Speaker 1: little dogs. They look like actual miniature tiny dogs that
Speaker 1: everybody has messaged me about and like I videoed them,
Speaker 1: but I forgot to like buy them all because we
Speaker 1: wanted to do like the sound with Trump.
Speaker 2: They're eating the dog.
Speaker 1: So like a third of the day, we're trying to
Speaker 1: do the logistics of trying to like reverse google image
Speaker 1: dogs and find them so one member my team can
Speaker 1: go to do find that the next day because we
Speaker 1: want to do that like sound like that's we're focused.
Speaker 2: This is the shit we're focusing on.
Speaker 1: And a then separately, I go out to go to
Speaker 1: Motto pri which is a store with Danielle in the
Speaker 1: beginning in the morning, and I want to find like
Speaker 1: basic bitch iced coffee. And we take a walk and
Speaker 1: talk and talk about how great we are and how
Speaker 1: we got ourselves here. And then I see a line outside.
Speaker 1: And I'm usually good at like knowing when something's a
Speaker 1: thing even besides the line, like if something smells like
Speaker 1: a thing, it's a thing, Like I found something. So
Speaker 1: I see these like artwork croissants like in the window
Speaker 1: another level, like they just look like the crispiest arist artwork,
Speaker 1: like when a cronuc came out, like and I was like,
Speaker 1: what the fuck? We should wait on the line, and
Speaker 1: Danielle's like no, and the line is probably like fifty people.
Speaker 1: Danielle is the villain of this story and maybe of
Speaker 1: the whole trip. And she's used to being a rule foller,
Speaker 1: wearing puffy sleeves and like not getting demerits, and she
Speaker 1: got such a big demerit because she didn't want to
Speaker 1: wait on the line, and me, the queen Olive, the
Speaker 1: one who's going to go on stage, the supermodel. She
Speaker 1: did buy me supermodel sweater. I wore it all weekend long,
Speaker 1: all week long. But I was like, let's wait on
Speaker 1: this line. This is a thing. She's like, now, we'll
Speaker 1: do it later, we'll come later, whatever. We walk back
Speaker 1: the lines twice as long. We go back to the hotel.
Speaker 1: W We're now completely fucked, and we decide we're gonna
Speaker 1: now because she fucked us. The line's way longer and
Speaker 1: they're running. We send someone back for my team and
Speaker 1: they run out of the croissants and the next day
Speaker 1: they're closed, so we never got to review those. I want, like, Loriel,
Speaker 1: I need you to fly me back to Paris for
Speaker 1: a week It's actually I don't know why Loriel should
Speaker 1: do it. They didn't do one fucking thing wrong. They
Speaker 1: did nothing. Literally, Danielle, I want you to fly me
Speaker 1: back to Paris for a weekend because we have to
Speaker 1: go try these croissants, okay, like or I need to
Speaker 1: send a messenger to go get them, because Danielle fucked
Speaker 1: us because they were closed the next day and we
Speaker 1: were focused so hard on I want to taste the croissants,
Speaker 1: so I'm still as much as it was an honor
Speaker 1: to walk the stage for Loreel, Danielle ruined the trip
Speaker 1: because we didn't get the ccissants, so we didn't get
Speaker 1: the croissants, and then the dog place was closed to
Speaker 1: so we didn't get the melty chocolate dogs. My fault
Speaker 1: and we didn't get the croissants. So Danielle fucked us,
Speaker 1: and she's the villa so mad right now. So it's
Speaker 1: the day of and we're sitting at breakfast and like,
Speaker 1: you really it's not good that you never sleep, like
Speaker 1: and everyone knows because I message people in my normal
Speaker 1: life at home from three o'clock in the morning to
Speaker 1: midnight at night, so everyone knows I don't really sleep.
Speaker 1: So they're like, you really need to get sleep today.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, what if I go, like get a massage.
Speaker 1: So I go down to that codage spot and have
Speaker 1: the most incredible massage, and I drool and I fall
Speaker 1: asleep and the massage my face and it's like magic
Speaker 1: is happening, Like it's magic that I would fall asleep
Speaker 1: in a massage. It's magic that this woman who works
Speaker 1: for four locations happened to like have one that morning.
Speaker 1: It was just magic. So now I could be the
Speaker 1: president of the United States, like I could really run
Speaker 1: for office and win because I've slept. So I had
Speaker 1: this cute sweater that I wore to them on the
Speaker 1: plane and it said jem and a more and like
Speaker 1: I don't bring I didn't have like a nice outfit.
Speaker 1: I was gonna wear over to like glam. Like my
Speaker 1: glam is always like no bra and sweats because you're
Speaker 1: like gonna sit down, and just like you don't need
Speaker 1: a brath with a dress.
Speaker 2: I'm very efficient.
Speaker 1: I don't want anything on my body that I will
Speaker 1: later need jewel all need to lose, like I'm just
Speaker 1: super lean. So I'm getting there, no bra. I've got
Speaker 1: this little thin, airy like glam jumpsuit on because I
Speaker 1: figure they're gonna have like a satin robe and I
Speaker 1: don't like satin. It's like sweaty and whatever. And then
Speaker 1: so we get there and it's Versailles. The room with
Speaker 1: the glam is is Versailles. It is, it is Bridgerton.
Speaker 1: It is the nicest. It is where like the dining
Speaker 1: hall of Versailles, where you would have like kings and
Speaker 1: like pigs with apples in its mouth. I could not
Speaker 1: believe it, so I'm gasping. Then everywhere you turn in
Speaker 1: le Berras, which is a an iconic location like think
Speaker 1: the Museum of Modern Art, or like the New York Library,
Speaker 1: or like some famous aquarium or something times one thousand,
Speaker 1: like stunning, stunning, I've stunning, I'm musing, And every area
Speaker 1: of this space is something. Yet some gorgeous two million
Speaker 1: year old little balcony, some elaborate marble staircase, the ceiling
Speaker 1: is is covered in like like like Leonardo da Vinci
Speaker 1: Fresco painting like it is, but they're friends, so don't
Speaker 1: don't come for me. I'm just saying like it is overwhelming,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, and everywhere you turn is some stunning
Speaker 1: glamazon person just some unique person, like not like normal
Speaker 1: fashion Week in New York, where people do look similar,
Speaker 1: they look fashionable, but they look New York or Paris similar,
Speaker 1: Like everybody seems unique and and just different, crazy wild
Speaker 1: hairstyles and like unbelievable makeup, and like drama and people
Speaker 1: from country small over the world, and and just like
Speaker 1: just unbelievable people. Like I felt like I was on
Speaker 1: another planet and spaceships kept dropping off new people from
Speaker 1: different planets and I and everyone was dressed so chic
Speaker 1: and fashion, and their teams were dressed so chic in fashion.
Speaker 2: I was like, oh my god, why am I wearing
Speaker 2: O brah my airplane outfit? Like why?
Speaker 1: But like because I'm still like me and some people
Speaker 1: know who I am, Like why did I make that?
Speaker 2: I just I don't know.
Speaker 1: I thought we would just be like sitting in our
Speaker 1: chair in our area the whole time. I didn't know
Speaker 1: it'd be like free range glamazoning. I just didn't know,
Speaker 1: like throughout the entire of the opera. So I fucked that.
Speaker 1: It's not like I'm going next year in feathers, but
Speaker 1: like next year I'm wearing something cute to the preamble
Speaker 1: to the foreplay like no question, like no question. So
Speaker 1: Danielle walks in with me and we're freaking out. We
Speaker 1: can't believe it. And one thing I want to mention,
Speaker 1: just to like maybe it's because it's models no snacks,
Speaker 1: like almost to the point of serial killer, like I
Speaker 1: would like the job lorial of like being on snacks.
Speaker 1: Like it's so confusing. I had people going to hunt
Speaker 1: down ice and snacks, but like no like little square
Speaker 1: little sandwiches with brisala on them. And then these weird
Speaker 1: little like vegetarian sushis that were like very thin, like
Speaker 1: almost cigar with and they because they had go cheese
Speaker 1: in them and they were vegetarian, they were like oily,
Speaker 1: so they were like slippery, so I put they were mushy,
Speaker 1: so I didn't want to hold them, so I like
Speaker 1: put them on my little square, little white castle sized
Speaker 1: brizala sandwich. That's all you had to eat the entire day.
Speaker 1: And and then I'm like I'm on a supermodel diet.
Speaker 1: And then and I don't dyet. And then someone went
Speaker 1: and found me brownies. But like no snacks like I
Speaker 1: would have sold a kidney for like a Welch's grapefruit
Speaker 1: snack or like a pop Chicks bag or like some
Speaker 1: like pirate booty or like a little piece of chocolate
Speaker 1: or like some licorice like the US does snacks well,
Speaker 1: like I don't know the snack like I just next year,
Speaker 1: I'm like, I would like to be on snack committee,
Speaker 1: like snack in Beverage committee, because it was like a
Speaker 1: lot of like sugary juices, like I don't know, I
Speaker 1: just I have plans for the snacks, so let's just
Speaker 1: talk about that at a later date. But like, but
Speaker 1: there were no food in, like champagne, like because we
Speaker 1: are on a supermodel diet, like I you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. I should have gotten myself like a bag
Speaker 1: a blow before I got there, like and then I
Speaker 1: would have fit in a pack of like Parliaments or
Speaker 1: Virginia Slims, truthfully, and I would have fit in perfectly.
Speaker 1: But like, I drank and people were drinking champagne, like right,
Speaker 1: I was like, I will fuck myself so good if
Speaker 1: I drink champagne. Like forget that I was wearing shoes
Speaker 1: that were seven feet high, which we should address that
Speaker 1: with my gorgeous dress that I picked out instantly. I
Speaker 1: picked out these amazing like the most exaggerated version of
Speaker 1: platform Satin Mary Jade. It's like five feet tall. Just whatever.
Speaker 1: And this guy that I know was saying to me,
Speaker 1: did you practice in the heels? I was like no,
Speaker 1: He's like that doesn't make any sense, like you're focused
Speaker 1: on snacks, but like you didn't practice in the I'm like,
Speaker 1: I know, I don't know. I don't know why I
Speaker 1: didn't practice this. I don't I don't know.
Speaker 2: I don't know. I'm just like I can walk, I
Speaker 2: have legs, their shoes. It's okay.
Speaker 1: So now Danielle is there with me, and we just
Speaker 1: can't stop saying, oh my god, oh my god, I'm
Speaker 1: not going the bathroom, and oh my god, we did
Speaker 1: this and here we are and holy shit, and just
Speaker 1: gossiping about all kinds of different stuff and people, and
Speaker 1: like how I do anything is how I do everything.
Speaker 1: And I placed the same amount of importance on the
Speaker 1: smallest thing as I do on the biggest thing, and
Speaker 1: people have no notice that. People have commented on that
Speaker 1: in social media. If it's caviat or chicken salad or
Speaker 1: an I cream or a lip glass, I get excited.
Speaker 1: I'm not that person that holds back excitement in case
Speaker 1: it doesn't happen. I'm that person that gets excited because
Speaker 1: it might happen, talks about it, gets excited about everything.
Speaker 1: I'm just that person. And I do think it's important
Speaker 1: in life to not be jaded. And even when I
Speaker 1: wrote my book A Place of Yes years ago, one
Speaker 1: of the chapters was celebrate and it meant like make
Speaker 1: meaning out of everything. And I've really passed that on
Speaker 1: to my daughter, from putting the lock on the bridge
Speaker 1: in France, from to two years later going to hunt
Speaker 1: down and find the lock on the bridge, to every
Speaker 1: year going to the same place, to each of us
Speaker 1: buy an ornament for each other that we think has
Speaker 1: meaning for each other, to the vegetable picking, to the
Speaker 1: decorating of the tree we try to make me We
Speaker 1: don't try. We just make meaning out of everything. We're
Speaker 1: very excited about a lot of different things. That's just
Speaker 1: who we are. So I I sometimes wonder how everyone's
Speaker 1: not freaking out about something I'm freaking out about. For example,
Speaker 1: when I was on the Apprentice years ago, everybody got there.
Speaker 1: Now I know how everybody acted like it wasn't blood,
Speaker 1: sweat and tears to get there, But I knew how
Speaker 1: many people you had to fight against via sending videos
Speaker 1: in hot thousands and thousands of videos, down to the
Speaker 1: x number of people that were semifinalists, down to the
Speaker 1: fifty people that went to get sequestered, and then down
Speaker 1: to the people that got it. But I remember getting
Speaker 1: into that loft and really very quickly and like meeting
Speaker 1: days in people were like, oh my god, they're gonna
Speaker 1: make so much money.
Speaker 2: Off of us.
Speaker 1: We should be doing this, we should be doing that,
Speaker 1: like before we had earned anything, and the show didn't
Speaker 1: even do that well. It didn't do well at all.
Speaker 1: Like it's okay if after a couple of years and
Speaker 1: you're the prized pony on Housewise and you making seven
Speaker 1: thousand dollars a year to like know you're worth ironically
Speaker 1: know you're worth and being worth it is part of
Speaker 1: this conversation. But I remember getting there in the loft
Speaker 1: and be like, oh my god, oh my god, like
Speaker 1: not being I couldn't even sleep, I couldn't breathe and
Speaker 1: believe we were there. And I'm always shocked by how
Speaker 1: quickly the guild is off the lily, so like I
Speaker 1: was a little bit of the weirdo crazy person at
Speaker 1: the lorel fashion show in Opera, like anywhere, I would
Speaker 1: turn to anyone I could like who would talk to me?
Speaker 2: Being like, what is going on? What are you freaking out?
Speaker 2: Am I freaking out of?
Speaker 1: You know? Like I would say to some people that
Speaker 1: are you nervous? And no, I'm not nervous. Like people
Speaker 1: were very jaded, like I've seen things like this before
Speaker 1: and they had no one had seen it, like this.
Speaker 2: I don't want to get.
Speaker 1: Into the example of what I'm talking about, but like
Speaker 1: some people want to like act exactly like they belong
Speaker 1: and like they you know, this happens all the time,
Speaker 1: and that's fine, that's their journey.
Speaker 2: I'm not that person.
Speaker 1: I'm that person that's like not able to believe that
Speaker 1: I'm there and that is so grateful and is so
Speaker 1: present in every moment of it. And I really that's
Speaker 1: why I left reality TV, and that's why I created
Speaker 1: a life for myself which was going to be if
Speaker 1: I'm not doing exactly what I want to be doing
Speaker 1: and love doing, I'm not doing it. It meant seven
Speaker 1: figures leaving on the table with HSN. It meant seven
Speaker 1: figures leaving it on the table with partnering with MGM
Speaker 1: and Mark Burnett, no disrespect to either party. I didn't
Speaker 1: want to do it. It meant multiple seven figures walking
Speaker 1: away from Housewives. It meant on HSN the day I
Speaker 1: was launching my bathing suits because I didn't think they
Speaker 1: fit well. It meant just saying I'll eat the money.
Speaker 1: We're not doing it. Like I just have decided in
Speaker 1: my life once I had enough money in my bank
Speaker 1: account to not be a whore that like, I didn't
Speaker 1: have to be a person that would do anything that
Speaker 1: I didn't feel good about doing. There's no number you
Speaker 1: can put on that. And when I left Reality TV
Speaker 1: and left MGM and left HSN, I was nervous, like
Speaker 1: I have multiple homes, or at that time I probably
Speaker 1: had maybe two homes, but I have, you know, expenses,
Speaker 1: and I've been living differently, and you're buying clothes because
Speaker 1: you're on the show, and like I was okay. I
Speaker 1: was like, we're gonna pull back or just when money's
Speaker 1: not really coming in, you shouldn't be spending at a clip.
Speaker 2: And I was okay because I was honestly.
Speaker 1: And then this oyster, this shell, this whole thing opened
Speaker 1: up in my life just from being honest. And so
Speaker 1: like the reason I'm so happy and excited and grateful
Speaker 1: when I'm there in Paris is because I have no clutter.
Speaker 1: There's nothing I'm doing that I don't want to do.
Speaker 1: It's like I have been asked if I want to
Speaker 1: do this. I have said that I want to do this.
Speaker 1: I got myself there and I'm going to relish in
Speaker 1: it and enjoy it. And now I'm going to bring
Speaker 1: people because I always will recognize who got me there
Speaker 1: and where I came from, and that I want to
Speaker 1: share it, and that I want everyone to be excited
Speaker 1: and like to have been part of something, and is
Speaker 1: not rewarding to do it alone. It is not rewarding
Speaker 1: to be I'm up here, you're down there. It's not
Speaker 1: the same. The experience was really I only felt really, truly,
Speaker 1: genuinely happy on the Parish trip and even backstage when
Speaker 1: I was sharing it with someone from my team, Like
Speaker 1: there were moments when I was alone there and yes
Speaker 1: I would be talking the makeup artists, and yes I
Speaker 1: was experiencing it, and yes I was present, Yes I
Speaker 1: was talking to other people there. But I loved when Emily,
Speaker 1: my social person, was like crowd, She's she has no
Speaker 1: emotions half the time, She's like hello, She's very dry.
Speaker 1: She was like, I'm I'm gonna throw up, I may cry.
Speaker 1: I just I'm like shooting. Kylie Jenner and Kara Della
Speaker 1: like what's going on. I'm I'm like, relax, sit down,
Speaker 1: deep breast, I have a paper bag here because I've
Speaker 1: been breathing in it too, like we just were in it.
Speaker 1: And then and Danielle like all we did all day
Speaker 1: was just say the same exact thing.
Speaker 2: It was like annoying, like, oh my god, what's going on?
Speaker 2: Who are we? What's going on? We did this.
Speaker 1: I'm so proud of you. I'm so proud of us.
Speaker 1: Like that's how I am with most things. That's how
Speaker 1: I am was with Forbes, that's how I am with
Speaker 1: relief work three hundred million dollars, like I'm proud and present.
Speaker 1: So Danielle gives a little corporate So we're like gossiping
Speaker 1: about corporate in the night before and the peace people
Speaker 1: and like just everything. We're just like being girls. And
Speaker 1: Delphine the HBIC comes and talks to me, and I
Speaker 1: show her my sound from TikTok for that morning, which
Speaker 1: is like good morning, you beg bad, fabulous bitch like,
Speaker 1: but I don't really know how big Delphine's shop is.
Speaker 1: And then she's like the HBIC globally. I just think
Speaker 1: she's like a nice woman from Loriel that I've met,
Speaker 1: and I show her my sound, and I also don't
Speaker 1: know that she doesn't like engage with everybody. It's like
Speaker 1: she's the Anna Winter of this experience. But I am
Speaker 1: ignorance is bliss. So I walk up and I show
Speaker 1: her my TikTok. That's like, good morning, you big, bad,
Speaker 1: bad ass, fabulous bitch. You fucking go get the fucking
Speaker 1: day and be the bad bitch of fuck or like
Speaker 1: it's literally seventy five bucks, and she's like, I am
Speaker 1: a bad bitch. And I didn't realize. And later the
Speaker 1: people that work there were like they were able to
Speaker 1: work for her. The people that work for the people
Speaker 1: that work for the people that work for her, we're
Speaker 1: like in a cold sweat, you know, it's so me.
Speaker 2: Like they were like, what the fuck?
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh, so anyway, and she's talking
Speaker 1: to me and we had a nice time, and I
Speaker 1: mean my makeup artists and we're sitting down and we're
Speaker 1: off to the races. And I've never really I've worked
Speaker 1: with him one time, but I had a different campaign
Speaker 1: and like a different thing, and I was like very
Speaker 1: concerned that we weren't going to stick the landing and
Speaker 1: that like I was going to fuck the makeup and
Speaker 1: it was going to like not be it because I
Speaker 1: only certain people can do my makeup and I don't
Speaker 1: like a very big makeup look, and then people don't
Speaker 1: put enough makeup on and then it looks like I'm
Speaker 1: washed out, and it's like a very weird like needs
Speaker 1: three makeup, but like really seem like no makeup. Look,
Speaker 1: I meet the hairstyles that it has like a pit
Speaker 1: crew of like seven people on me Stefan and we're
Speaker 1: like fully vibing and he is like, I love your
Speaker 1: energy more than anyone's. And Nicholas Den, the photographer, I
Speaker 1: told you bad. He's like my best friend and he's
Speaker 1: coming up and I feel like I love everyone and
Speaker 1: I know everyone and I've got friends and it's so cute.
Speaker 1: And like then Danielle has to leave and subat with Emily,
Speaker 1: who's got like the more of the big game, like tech,
Speaker 1: you know, tech stuff, to take the video and she
Speaker 1: comes and she almost throws up. She can't handle it.
Speaker 1: She literally choked on the in the game, like she
Speaker 1: she's choking, she can't, she's she's hyperventilating. I'm like, we
Speaker 1: need to hydrate. I'm trying to hydrate. I need my
Speaker 1: ice for my beverage pack it and we're just trying
Speaker 1: to keep it together because there's still five hours still showtime.
Speaker 1: What the fuck, am I going to do, like write
Speaker 1: a play, like okay. So then at some point during
Speaker 1: the day, let's call it like two hours later, they
Speaker 1: call for a rehearsal, and somehow this whole thing is
Speaker 1: like controlled chaos. It's like I it's like ikia, like
Speaker 1: you put your own dresser together. No one's like on
Speaker 1: your ass. There's not like someone with a clipboard like
Speaker 1: making sure that everything just happening on time. Somehow, just
Speaker 1: like this group of sheep just knows where to be
Speaker 1: and I don't understand, like you're kind of it's kind
Speaker 1: of like almost like the word of mouth model of
Speaker 1: where you're supposed to be for this what must have
Speaker 1: been like a fifty million dollar like fashion show. So
Speaker 1: at some point, you know people that work for us,
Speaker 1: so like, yeah, I think we should head over to
Speaker 1: the rehearsal. And then there's like a pen downstairs in
Speaker 1: the like in the lobby of this building before where
Speaker 1: you're gonna walk out, And I had my purse with me.
Speaker 1: I don't know why, like I'm not walking out my purse.
Speaker 1: I didn't understand the dress rehearsal of it all, and
Speaker 1: it's raining and people are starting to freak out that
Speaker 1: it's raining. So I'm like, wait, walking like down a
Speaker 1: runway and it's raining, and I'm still not thinking about
Speaker 1: the actual shoes.
Speaker 2: And so we're on cue.
Speaker 1: So we go out and like you go on these
Speaker 1: bleachers outside and there's an announcement that you should just
Speaker 1: be yourself, don't take yourself too seriously, have fun with it.
Speaker 1: Like I listened, Like I was at Harvard on the
Speaker 1: graduation day, just shy of getting my diploma. I was
Speaker 1: listening and so the hbiic is up and she's like,
Speaker 1: you just go in and be yourself. Even the way
Speaker 1: you picked the outfit. They didn't care what the earrings.
Speaker 1: They just weren't that like deep about it. So I
Speaker 1: was like, okay, I'm listening to my assignment. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be myself and to do what I want. And everybody
Speaker 1: says it that way, do what you want, do what
Speaker 1: you want, just be who you want, just be just
Speaker 1: do what you want.
Speaker 2: Okay.
Speaker 1: So we come back inside and I'm Viola Davis is
Speaker 1: behind me, so like I'm always that's gonna be like
Speaker 1: my buddy system with like the two of you know,
Speaker 1: you're in like third grade, you're in you're like yellow
Speaker 1: rain slicker with rain boots next to the person in
Speaker 1: third grade holding their hand because you have them the
Speaker 1: buddy system, like Viola Davis is my non consensually binded buddy,
Speaker 1: Like she doesn't know about this, but I know that
Speaker 1: where Viola.
Speaker 2: Goes, I go.
Speaker 1: So I also peripherally realize that Viola's like one of
Speaker 1: the people like you. I think she's in the voiceover
Speaker 1: on like the Loreal video and she's like one of
Speaker 1: the I don't know if they're ambassadors, if there's if
Speaker 1: it's different spokespeople like Heidi's Germany. I think Kendl's like
Speaker 1: the big one for like globally because she's a global talent.
Speaker 1: Viola and like Evil must be like twenty years longest
Speaker 1: one from us, like Andy McDowell has been there forever.
Speaker 1: It's just like these people, and I think they're like ambassadors,
Speaker 1: and there are different ones from all over the world
Speaker 1: for their countries. And I know this because later there's
Speaker 1: like a set of stairs and like a whole group
Speaker 1: of people is on the stairs in this picture that
Speaker 1: like I'm not part of because I'm like an interloper.
Speaker 1: So we all go outside and we're sitting on these
Speaker 1: bleachers and the girl next to me is like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, I love you, and I'm like, look over
Speaker 1: and she looks so familiar, like she's looking but it's
Speaker 1: one of these things where you think everyone it's a
Speaker 1: supermodel and it might just be a normal person, but
Speaker 1: like it's Alec Weck, who's a major global supermodel, and
Speaker 1: she's like, I'm obsessed with you. And right in front
Speaker 1: of me is Viola and her jacket says Viola and
Speaker 1: me heard like robe and I'm just like wait, everyone's
Speaker 1: like just sitting next to each other and everyone's like
Speaker 1: internationally famous, like and it's.
Speaker 2: Just so chill. Everyone's just chill.
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, so now we go back inside to
Speaker 1: this holding area. And by the way, when I'm in
Speaker 1: this holding area, like Evel Longer, he's like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: got that, And and Patrick To's like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: you have flawless skin, Bethany. I've seen it online but
Speaker 1: I've never oh my god. And like Jane Vonda says
Speaker 1: hello to me, and just like I'm running into people
Speaker 1: I know, and I'm there's a girl Paula who's Viola's
Speaker 1: behind me, and Paula's in front of me. I get
Speaker 1: home and I see Paula in the stowed ad and
Speaker 1: she and her stunning.
Speaker 2: Boyfriend.
Speaker 1: They're like Tommy Hill figure and Ralph Lauren models, and
Speaker 1: he's Christy Turlington's nephew. And I connect with her on
Speaker 1: that because I know Christyton's husband's brother and just like
Speaker 1: we're all just famous supermodels, just like you know, congregating.
Speaker 1: So we come back in the room from the stage,
Speaker 1: and I still have my purse and where we know
Speaker 1: where we're supposed to go and what we're supposed to do.
Speaker 1: We're supposed to remember, do what we want to do.
Speaker 1: So I come back in and there are like a
Speaker 1: bunch of these like plastic folding chairs, and Viola sits
Speaker 1: in one of them. I don't even pay attention to
Speaker 1: who's near her, and I don't realize that these chairs
Speaker 1: are for like the major ambassadors. So it's like Camilla Cabello,
Speaker 1: Cara Delavine, Kendall, Andy, Jane, Viola, Eva, like those are
Speaker 1: like the ones that have the chairs, but I don't
Speaker 1: see the names, and I don't know that they're like
Speaker 1: the people that like the VIP section. So I see
Speaker 1: Viola sit down, so I sit down next to her,
Speaker 1: because like where Viola goes, I go, we're in the
Speaker 1: buddy system. So I then I'm holding this big, bulky bag,
Speaker 1: and I feel awkward because I know that then we're
Speaker 1: going to get into Q to like go back out
Speaker 1: and rehearse, and I'm not gonna like walk out with
Speaker 1: this gigantic bag. So I get up for one second
Speaker 1: and remember it's been raining to put this bag like
Speaker 1: behind me, behind this like cafeteria table next, you know
Speaker 1: that's behind us, and I just want to slip my
Speaker 1: bag there and hope no one steals it. And I'm
Speaker 1: wearing these black clogs that have a slippery tread, and
Speaker 1: I do like sort of like a split and I
Speaker 1: slide and my I still don't know that these are
Speaker 1: the VIP chairs like that, I'm that there are a
Speaker 1: bunch of pty forty people standing up and I'm sitting
Speaker 1: here for reason I don't know, maybe they're in a
Speaker 1: different group. I don't realize that they're standing because they're
Speaker 1: not ambassadors, and neither am I. Because I'm probably the
Speaker 1: fiftieth person that was like kissed into this experience. I'm
Speaker 1: the interloper. I do not belong. I don't act like
Speaker 1: I belong. So now I slip my bag and my
Speaker 1: legs start to slip, and I fall and display myself
Speaker 1: across the laps. We've just entered this experience. I don't
Speaker 1: know any of these people. I'm not best friends with
Speaker 1: Evel Longoria or Heidi Klum yet Heidie's and one of
Speaker 1: the chairs too. I think I'm not best friend with anyone.
Speaker 1: I'm just myself. I like I have one friend, and
Speaker 1: so now I slide, I split, and I'm fall across
Speaker 1: the laps of Viola Davis and Andy McNichol while like
Speaker 1: grabbing onto her like gray sweater, and Jane fond is
Speaker 1: directly next to us, like in the seat next to
Speaker 1: Andy and Kensington the influencer my five 't eleven Glamazon
Speaker 1: influencer Baby is standing up online because she's like she
Speaker 1: has her own experience and she and I think she
Speaker 1: did this last year, but she still like appreciates being
Speaker 1: there and she's still like is looking up to me
Speaker 1: as like a mom and a boss, Like she looks
Speaker 1: up to me and if I tell her to do something,
Speaker 1: she's gonna do it, and she wants to do what
Speaker 1: I'm doing in ways and like she respects me, and
Speaker 1: it came up in a bunch of other different ways.
Speaker 1: It doesn't matter. She's kissing the ring. I didn't ask
Speaker 1: her to. I'm just telling you she's kissing the ring
Speaker 1: as like a respect your elder and an elder influencer
Speaker 1: and a person who's like, you know, a lot of
Speaker 1: these young girls are like that, and I think they're
Speaker 1: smart because like I could give them opportunities mentor them.
Speaker 1: Who knows, she tells me, I'm her mentor the day before.
Speaker 1: So now she's looking up over in slow motion like
Speaker 1: what's my mom?
Speaker 2: What is she doing?
Speaker 1: Why is she sitting there? Why did she choose a?
Speaker 1: And then she's in slow motion watching the slowest train
Speaker 1: wreck car crash, and she's watching me split like fall
Speaker 1: across their laps. So she immediately starts videoing the reaction
Speaker 1: right after, which should tell you everything. Why is she
Speaker 1: videoing this situation? Because it was that embarrassing. So Viola
Speaker 1: was so nice and also like a little like what
Speaker 1: the fuck is this weirdo doing? Like I'm not gonna lie,
Speaker 1: like I loved her, I fell in love with her,
Speaker 1: but like it was a little jarring and Annie McNichols,
Speaker 1: same thing, like we're being polite, we're all nice, and
Speaker 1: it's women supporting women, but this fucking clown and no
Speaker 1: one was acting like why she's sitting here? But I
Speaker 1: sat there was such conviction. I had no idea. So
Speaker 1: then I everyone was nice. Jane fond I was like
Speaker 1: sort of smiling and laughing. She said hello to me,
Speaker 1: introduce herself to me. It seemed like she knew who
Speaker 1: I was, which doesn't track, but it really did seem
Speaker 1: like it. And then I stood up and I got
Speaker 1: on the line, and for like ten minutes we were like, oh,
Speaker 1: we ever gonna like discuss what happened, like and she's
Speaker 1: like I really I can't, and like I'm not ready,
Speaker 1: and like we kept going back to it like it's like,
Speaker 1: m yeah, remember that time that happened, And it was
Speaker 1: like it was the culmination of everything because I was
Speaker 1: not It was like the culmination of the no bra
Speaker 1: and the wrong outfit, and like it just was.
Speaker 2: It was what it was.
Speaker 1: So we go on the line and I go out
Speaker 1: and they give me an umbrella because it's pouring rain
Speaker 1: and I have clogs on and I do my own
Speaker 1: personality and I twirl and my team is shearing, and
Speaker 1: everyone's like that was amazing. You were you, you looked
Speaker 1: so happy. Yay, we got this. So now we come
Speaker 1: back in and then it's gonna be another couple of
Speaker 1: hours and soon it's gonna like tick up to being
Speaker 1: like now let's put the final beat on, like I
Speaker 1: call it like and the beat goes on. So we're
Speaker 1: gonna put the final makeup beat, make sure it's perfect.
Speaker 1: Then you go to get your outfit. Then you go
Speaker 1: into the bathroom, then you put on the shoes. The
Speaker 1: shoes did feel a little.
Speaker 2: High in the moment when you.
Speaker 1: Realized you were gonna wear them on a runway, But like,
Speaker 1: I chose them because I wanted to be this like
Speaker 1: draffe like animal, like that had long legs and like
Speaker 1: these like thin I just wanted to be the giraffe,
Speaker 1: like I just did. So then we eventually do the
Speaker 1: same thing, like the lineup. But now everyone's wearing these outfits.
Speaker 1: I've never seen what people were wearing. I've never. I've never.
Speaker 1: I've never. I've been to the Vanity Fair party, I've
Speaker 1: been to Fashion Week, I've been to the Emmys, I've
Speaker 1: been to the Grammys, I literally I've never everything was
Speaker 1: the most spectacular goddess like unique, creative, daring outfit that
Speaker 1: was like so like stunning, and I just was complimenting everyone.
Speaker 1: I was like, you stunning, Like I was freaking out
Speaker 1: on everyone. But as people put on these dresses, they
Speaker 1: were dispersing into these little vignette areas of think about
Speaker 1: an opera, so it was it's the it's the opera
Speaker 1: in Paris. So there's like vignettes everywhere, little balconies everywhere,
Speaker 1: staircases everywhere, nooks, crannies, chandeliers everywhere. So everywhere you turned,
Speaker 1: someone was doing some photo shoot, either with their own
Speaker 1: social team or with the official social team, and they
Speaker 1: were doing videos and you were waiting to do like
Speaker 1: the official video and the official picture, and Nicholas, my
Speaker 1: photographer's coming to get his because he's responsible for the
Speaker 1: American you know, knew us girls that came in like
Speaker 1: but then I'm sure Eva had her own photograph. It
Speaker 1: was elaborate, it was like a circus, like like it
Speaker 1: was like a symphony.
Speaker 2: It was like an opera. It was a symphony. It
Speaker 2: was crazy.
Speaker 1: So like then we go back down to that pen
Speaker 1: again and people are socializing and talking and hanging. And
Speaker 1: now I start to get like, well, I gotta practice
Speaker 1: this thing, Like I gotta practice this thing. So I
Speaker 1: started like walking just like in short areas like where's security.
Speaker 1: As I look at I'm like it was that good,
Speaker 1: like the security guy like we good. Like I had
Speaker 1: no one to talk to, and I wasn't gonna ask
Speaker 1: like one of the real people because then I don't know,
Speaker 1: it's just like they got their own thing and like
Speaker 1: I was only asking like security people, I don't. And
Speaker 1: then I was embarrassed, like people were watching me practice.
Speaker 1: People weren't practicing, people like had practiced or knew how
Speaker 1: to do it, or they were gonna do what she said,
Speaker 1: just walk, you know how to walk?
Speaker 2: Okay.
Speaker 1: Paula is the beautiful stowed model amongst other brands, and
Speaker 1: she's in front of me and she's just like just
Speaker 1: go just have fun, like do what you want to do,
Speaker 1: like okay. So now the horses are at the starting
Speaker 1: gate and we're about to walk out, and I look
Speaker 1: over to the right and Heidi Klum is sitting there
Speaker 1: in this latex gown like with her like boobs giving
Speaker 1: and she goes, you go rocket Bethany, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: what is actually going on? Like I actually think I'm
Speaker 1: gonna be in the Victoria's Secret fashion show, I really do.
Speaker 1: I like what Viola Davis is standing behind and Heidi
Speaker 1: Klume to the right is saying to me, go Rocket, Bethany,
Speaker 1: what the fuck is going what is that?
Speaker 2: What the fuck is going on?
Speaker 1: Like it's not even like Heidi Klumb said go rocket
Speaker 1: before I like made a Sioux flea. It's like Heidi
Speaker 1: Klume the Victoria's Secret like Angel, like like catwalk like
Speaker 1: legendary angel, super model. I'm telling everyone I'm a supermodel.
Speaker 1: Heidi Clue says, go Rocket. I'm like, what the fuck
Speaker 1: is going on? Like I'm going to like go attempt
Speaker 1: her craft and she says that to me, It's insane.
Speaker 2: It's insane.
Speaker 1: It's insane, right, Like I'm like going out into the
Speaker 1: school play and Meryl Street is like, go Rocket. I'm like,
Speaker 1: what in the fuck is going on? So I start
Speaker 1: So I start walking out and then you walk like
Speaker 1: out through the tunnel like you're a sports figure. That's
Speaker 1: like walking out, you know, like into the arena because
Speaker 1: there's like and there's like a place you're walking into
Speaker 1: before you're walking onto the stage. That make any sense,
Speaker 1: It's like a backstage. Think like a when you see
Speaker 1: anybody performing at Coachella or anywhere, Like, it's like that,
Speaker 1: there's like a backstage you're gonna walk around before you're
Speaker 1: into the main thing. So now I'm walking out and
Speaker 1: Cara delaven is walking in and she's like, go get it, girl,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, what the fuck is going on? So
Speaker 1: I walk out and I walk it and I'm happy.
Speaker 1: And the shoe I don't even know, Like it's rainy,
Speaker 1: it's slippery. The shoes require some attention. They're gigantic platform shoes.
Speaker 1: They're not like walking in normal shoes. They require a
Speaker 1: very space. You're not like gliding, You're not. They're not
Speaker 1: ice skates, you know, You're like. So there was a
Speaker 1: little march to it that was different than the rehearsal.
Speaker 1: I feel good. I don't know what's coming out of
Speaker 1: the oven. I don't know what people are seeing, but like,
Speaker 1: I feel good. I want approval. I want someone tell
Speaker 1: me I didn't to shit the bed. But like I
Speaker 1: feel good, But I don't know, maybe I look like
Speaker 1: a stundier.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: I walk to the end, I do my smile, to
Speaker 1: do my twirl. I hear people's screaming. I walk back in.
Speaker 1: You know, everyone's focused on themselves. No one's worried about
Speaker 1: what I did. No one's telling me what I did
Speaker 1: I could have, you know, got shit the bed. I want.
Speaker 2: I need a person. I know.
Speaker 1: I don't even have a phone for someone to say,
Speaker 1: you have great, you did great, because I left my phone.
Speaker 1: So I'm like alone for like an hour, like looking
Speaker 1: in my own head like did I suck?
Speaker 2: What is coming out of the oven? What? What the fuck?
Speaker 2: But I felt good, like I actually felt good.
Speaker 1: So so then we're watching on the screen other people
Speaker 1: because and I see this poor girl fall and another
Speaker 1: girl helps her up.
Speaker 2: Oh sorry.
Speaker 1: As I'm walking off the runway, I make the creative
Speaker 1: and groundlings improvisational choice to put my hands out for
Speaker 1: Viola Davis to give me a high five because she
Speaker 1: is looking at me now. I did not think about
Speaker 1: what if she didn't pick up what I put down,
Speaker 1: that would have been so embarrassing. But she did because
Speaker 1: she's Viola Davis. And I talked to her backstage before
Speaker 1: we went on, and we talked about having fourteen year
Speaker 1: old daughters. And I talked to her team and she
Speaker 1: was lovely and I just liked her. She was just real.
Speaker 1: She wasn't performing as nice and she wasn't being.
Speaker 2: Aloof. She was just cool and just like she was
Speaker 2: just Viola Davis.
Speaker 1: And I complimented her on some things and we chatted
Speaker 1: and that was great. But she picked up my high
Speaker 1: five and she didn't have to. That was her running
Speaker 1: moment going in, and she picked it up, and that's
Speaker 1: what the event was about. That high five crystallized the
Speaker 1: entire thing. So I leave, I come back in and
Speaker 1: I'm just seeking for some form of life. We wait
Speaker 1: a while, kens I wait a long time. I'm like her, Mommy,
Speaker 1: We do like I don't know, do do we drink?
Speaker 1: We start drinking champagne and then brain comes and you
Speaker 1: did great, mommy. And then everybody comes and all this
Speaker 1: stuff happens, and Emily's excited and she's like, we're about
Speaker 1: to post it, et cetera.
Speaker 2: And we're thrilled.
Speaker 1: And I watch it and I think it looks amazing
Speaker 1: and I'm happy, and they put me on the JumboTron
Speaker 1: and my team tells me they don't put everybody on
Speaker 1: the JumboTron and I am a supermodel.
Speaker 2: I'm so excited.
Speaker 1: It's amazing and people are like, you slay it it
Speaker 1: and TikTok is loving it and most of it's Instagram
Speaker 1: is way more evil than TikTok just so you know,
Speaker 1: TikTok is like supportive and just all you know, all shapes,
Speaker 1: all sizes. Instagram is real bitchy, middle aged, judgmental, miserable women.
Speaker 1: Like that's really what it is. I mean there's a
Speaker 1: lot of not that, but there's a lot of that.
Speaker 1: I would say it's probably like fifteen percent of that,
Speaker 1: which does feel like a lot when you're reading it.
Speaker 1: So then people start like saying, what's with that walk?
Speaker 1: And you were like a Clydesdale and like whatever not
Speaker 1: everybody like it's probably like one out of ten people.
Speaker 2: But I'm reading that, I'm feeling I'm like.
Speaker 1: Wait, what what? Like I they said, do what we want?
Speaker 1: And aren't we supposed to be worth it? And aren't
Speaker 1: we Like why would we?
Speaker 2: What do you mean?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 2: Who cares?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 2: Am I supposed to?
Speaker 1: I mean I've been playing a supermodel on social media,
Speaker 1: but I'm like, I have no experience and like I'm happy,
Speaker 1: like what will Like it'd be different if I felt
Speaker 1: like that girl has a right to feel like horrified
Speaker 1: and people are making fun of her, which is actually
Speaker 1: pure evil. You should be go to hell and drop
Speaker 1: dead if you made fun of her, Like that's despicable,
Speaker 1: Like that's her moment. And even still that's true, and
Speaker 1: it's human to errs, human to forgive. It's divine. She fell,
Speaker 1: it's the worst, and I just that's horrible. But maybe
Speaker 1: she's usually perfect and that's why she fell on that day.
Speaker 1: I didn't fall in that day because I fell on
Speaker 1: Viola Davis backstage and because I always do something stupid.
Speaker 1: But again, it can never just be something with me.
Speaker 1: It can never just be like normal. And like I
Speaker 1: did it, I had to come off and it had
Speaker 1: to be like a discussion.
Speaker 2: And I posted this video saying.
Speaker 1: Like I chose those shoes, like people are like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, I can't believe they put you in those shoes.
Speaker 1: They didn't put me in any shoes. I chose the shoes.
Speaker 1: I wanted to be a giraffe, like I wanted. I
Speaker 1: didn't know it was supposed to be perfect, Like who
Speaker 1: wants to be perfect, and this is me. This is
Speaker 1: olive in the Little Miss Sunshine Van was olive perfect
Speaker 1: to shoe a fucking buy focal disaster up there. I
Speaker 1: didn't want to be a disaster, but like, I committed
Speaker 1: to the bit. Whatever I was doing, I committed.
Speaker 2: I was happy.
Speaker 1: I wasn't uncertain. I marched to the beat of my
Speaker 1: own drama, thrilled. I posted video saying I chose those shoes.
Speaker 2: I wanted it.
Speaker 1: And it's easy to sit in judgment when you're not there,
Speaker 1: but like I walk down and not only did I
Speaker 1: get down and get home and did I do it?
Speaker 1: This isn't my primary business by any means. This is
Speaker 1: like being this age and going to fucking Canada and
Speaker 1: starring in a lifetime movie.
Speaker 2: What are you crazy?
Speaker 1: That was nuts that I did that and I stuck
Speaker 1: that landing because I just leaned in and I committed
Speaker 1: to it. I committed to this and I made a choice.
Speaker 1: This is what I'm doing. And people were like Hayters
Speaker 1: and people were so defensive of me, like what are
Speaker 1: you talking about? But like, let's say that I sucked.
Speaker 1: Who cares? What are we curing cancer by catwalking? Like?
Speaker 2: Who can?
Speaker 1: Like what if I fucking sucked or fell. Okay, she fell,
Speaker 1: It's part of life. I don't want my daughter wrapped
Speaker 1: in bubble wrap. You're gonna fall, You're gonna have snot
Speaker 1: on your face, You're gonna have something on your teeth.
Speaker 1: Bill Clinton had spinach on his teeth when I met
Speaker 1: him the day of the Apprentice finale. Okay, it's gonna happen.
Speaker 1: So I love what I did. I wouldn't have posted.
Speaker 1: If I did it, I would have been horrified. It
Speaker 1: would have been all the still pictures of me as
Speaker 1: a supermodel. No one would have seen my walk. I
Speaker 1: posted my walk. I was loud and proud.
Speaker 2: And there were people there.
Speaker 1: There was a woman there with a prosthetic crystal legs.
Speaker 1: She was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen.
Speaker 1: There was a woman that all day I saw, I
Speaker 1: did not notice that she did not have a hand.
Speaker 1: There were people that were painfully thin. There were people
Speaker 1: that were you know, that were larger than life. There
Speaker 1: were people that had their hair shaved bald. There were
Speaker 1: people that had braids to their toes. There was every
Speaker 1: type of person there, and like every type of walk
Speaker 1: and every age, and like every weight and every culture,
Speaker 1: and like what are you talking about? Like, I fucking
Speaker 1: did what I wanted to fucking do, and I came
Speaker 1: back and it's like, yeah, commit to the bit own
Speaker 1: it I lived for and everyone. So it was just
Speaker 1: like what and then you know, so so that was
Speaker 1: that and I and it became it became it became
Speaker 1: a story. It became like a news, It became like
Speaker 1: a thing. It got so much media attention, so much
Speaker 1: more than anyone than media attention anyone got, because it was,
Speaker 1: you know, quintessentially what this thing was about. It's like
Speaker 1: it was being I think I understood. I think I
Speaker 1: understood the assignment. It was about being perfectly imperfect. It
Speaker 1: was about knowing your worth.
Speaker 2: Who's worth? Who gives you your worth? An arimez bag,
Speaker 2: a man, a woman.
Speaker 1: A prize, a car, a title, a job, a raised No, you,
Speaker 1: you look in the fucking mirror and you give yourself
Speaker 1: a worth. I walked around for a month and a
Speaker 1: half not even knowing this thing was coming. I was
Speaker 1: saying it because I looked good in videos. I'm a supermodel.
Speaker 1: It's weird that this happened because I didn't say I'm
Speaker 1: a supermodel. For all those weeks leading up to this,
Speaker 1: I didn't even know about this. I one day looked
Speaker 1: really good, I go, I'm a supermodel, and then I
Speaker 1: just started saying it every day. It was almost like
Speaker 1: I was manifesting this experience. I am a supermodel. Guarantee
Speaker 1: you I'll be walking in other fashion shows, because that's
Speaker 1: what it's about. Loud, proud, own it, perfectly and perfect.
Speaker 1: So I don't know much. I may have been a giraffe.
Speaker 1: I may have been a Clydesdale. I may have picked
Speaker 1: gigantic shoes. I may have not fit in like anybody else.
Speaker 1: I may have fallen across Yola Davis's lap and Andy McDowell,
Speaker 1: and with Jane Fonda looking on. I may have acted
Speaker 1: like a freaking weirdo so excited I couldn't stand myself.
Speaker 1: I may have brought the van of little Miss Sunshine
Speaker 1: people and we were all a mess. But I know
Speaker 1: one thing for sure. I understood the assignment. I understood
Speaker 1: the assignment. The HBIIC gave an assignment. I had my
Speaker 1: little pen and paper out, and I understood the assignment,
Speaker 1: and I stuck the landing, and I was entirely present.
Speaker 1: I was proud and present. So after we go out
Speaker 1: to this big dinner to celebrate. I don't do well
Speaker 1: with too much activation. I can't handle it. It's too much.
Speaker 1: I'd had it on the tour. The tour would start
Speaker 1: at eight o'clock at night. It would end at nine thirty.
Speaker 1: It's a VIP meet and greet. You're talking to people,
Speaker 1: you're talking to production. I can't sleep till four o'clock
Speaker 1: in the morning. Activation. I can only sleep when I've
Speaker 1: been sleeping a lot. And I get activated and I
Speaker 1: stay up. I get I am spinning like a top.
Speaker 1: I get wound up like an eight day clock. So
Speaker 1: we go out to this dinner, but I'm in the
Speaker 1: car and I can't get out of the car.
Speaker 2: No, oh, sorry, you're welcome.
Speaker 1: No my team, Danielle de Villen for two reasons, she
Speaker 1: said to me, Because we talked to through. I'm like
Speaker 1: sh ring my alpha for after She's like, no, you
Speaker 1: can come back to the hotel and change.
Speaker 2: But I don't really. I she's half a villain. But
Speaker 2: we didn't think this through.
Speaker 1: So now this paparazzi and everything outside, they say they
Speaker 1: need the outphit back. Now, okay, they need the outfit
Speaker 1: back now right after the show. I didn't think that through.
Speaker 1: I thought we could give it back later. But I
Speaker 1: guess with fifty people, that's a dangerous game, so you
Speaker 1: gotta give it back. I draw the line, I say
Speaker 1: to Danielle immediately, No, I'm not putting my airplane outfit
Speaker 1: back on. This is where I draw the line. This
Speaker 1: is where the rubber meets the road. This is demoralizing.
Speaker 1: I am not going on my stinky discussing airplane clothes
Speaker 1: outside with paparazzi after being a supermodel in Paris Fashion Week.
Speaker 2: That's where you fucking lose me.
Speaker 1: So they had to bring over my feather dress in
Speaker 1: me up, pulls the zipper down two inches and it's like, yeah,
Speaker 1: you can get in. I'm like, what the fuck are
Speaker 1: you talking about? I can't get in that. So she's
Speaker 1: not telling me that the dress is stuck and the
Speaker 1: feathers are stuck up and down the teeth. I'm like, miya, yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm not small as my dog, like, I can't get
Speaker 1: in this fuck dress. So brain has to get scissors
Speaker 1: take it over. I'm naked backstage, like I'm nude. People
Speaker 1: walking in and out, It's like completely inappropriate. And a
Speaker 1: shit show, And so finally brain gets it open, and
Speaker 1: I get in the feather dress for the after party,
Speaker 1: and I get in my outfit and I'm a doll.
Speaker 1: And I get in the car and everyone gets out
Speaker 1: and I ball. I ball and then proceed to cry
Speaker 1: on the Internet because I am so moved by the opportunity,
Speaker 1: by the experience, by the culture, by the diversity, by
Speaker 1: the diversity and weight, by the diversity and age, by
Speaker 1: the diversity in flaws and imperfections, by the opportunity, by
Speaker 1: the hard work pays off, by the living authentically, just
Speaker 1: doing what you naturally do and being always being honest,
Speaker 1: landing you on a Paris Fashion Week runway that I
Speaker 1: did it, that I stuck the assignments.
Speaker 2: I balled like a baby. I was overwhelmed.
Speaker 1: I knew that I had not acted like I I
Speaker 1: did not feel like I belonged. I was so moved
Speaker 1: and overwhelmed with gratitude, I couldn't even barely move. And
Speaker 1: then I got downstairs and I was crying at the
Speaker 1: whole dinner like a weirdo with all kinds of people
Speaker 1: and influencers and loreal people and my Sunshine team, like
Speaker 1: like sleep once I start sleeping, I sleep. Once I'm awake,
Speaker 1: I'm awake. Once I start crying, I'm crying. I was
Speaker 1: just so exhausted, so fragile, and like it really hit me.
Speaker 1: So we go out to dinner on mainlining drinks, don't
Speaker 1: feel any of them because the adrenaline hanging out, being
Speaker 1: with Brinn, taking good pictures, not entirely present, but having fun.
Speaker 2: Get home.
Speaker 1: That's when I shoot the video, basically saying the giraffe
Speaker 1: thing like I wanted to do what I did and whatever,
Speaker 1: you know. And then I pull an all nighter. I'm
Speaker 1: laying on Brind's head because it usually puts me to sleep,
Speaker 1: and I'm crying into her hair, like sobbing like snoopy tears,
Speaker 1: drowning her hair.
Speaker 2: And then.
Speaker 1: Six o'clock in the morning, we have to leave for
Speaker 1: the airport because a legend in the beauty industry has
Speaker 1: summoned me, asked for an audience, and wants to shoot
Speaker 1: something together, which was entirely surreal. So I get on
Speaker 1: the plane and of oh no, it's not over go
Speaker 1: through security, and of course Jane fond is standing right
Speaker 1: next to me, because that's why I always run into it. Security,
Speaker 1: we start chatting. She thinks she says she isn't in
Speaker 1: first class. I offer her my seat. There's no way
Speaker 1: Jane fond is sitting in coach. I then realize that
Speaker 1: she doesn't know that for Air France the business is
Speaker 1: laid down and like being in first class, so I
Speaker 1: don't give her my seat. And then on the plane,
Speaker 1: I see Jane Fonda twice, two to three times in
Speaker 1: the galley, which is really weird, like anytime I was up.
Speaker 1: You know, when you're up on a plane, it's dark
Speaker 1: and you're like lurking and like everyone's sleeping. Jane and
Speaker 1: I then we land and then I see her buy
Speaker 1: the car again, thinking it's meant to be because I
Speaker 1: can't believe it, and she asks me for my phone number,
Speaker 1: so I've Jane found his phone number in my phone
Speaker 1: and go back to the apartment, walk directly into a shower,
Speaker 1: Directly open the front door, walk into a shower, go
Speaker 1: into hair and makeup to go meet a legend in
Speaker 1: New York City. Don't go to the suburbs where love
Speaker 1: go into New York City and the end of the
Speaker 1: story and the moral of the story is pros play
Speaker 1: hurt