WEBVTT - Featuring Claudia Sulewski 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:06.160 Hi guys, and welcome back to this week's episode of 0:00:06.160 --> 0:00:08.399 a Let's Be Real podcast. I'm your host, Sammy J. 0:00:08.640 --> 0:00:11.760 And welcome. This week, I got to chat with the 0:00:11.800 --> 0:00:15.239 incredible Claudia Seluski. She is a YouTube o G. She's 0:00:15.280 --> 0:00:18.080 been on the platform for eleven years. She's done everything 0:00:18.120 --> 0:00:22.200 from vlogs to lifestyle. She's also done some amazing collaborations 0:00:22.440 --> 0:00:26.040 and her newest venture is starring and I Love My Dad, 0:00:26.040 --> 0:00:27.920 which is a movie that just wrapped production a few 0:00:27.920 --> 0:00:29.760 months ago and it hasn't come out, but we talked 0:00:29.800 --> 0:00:36.320 all about that, having a healthy balance with social media, therapy, anxiety, journaling, life, 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:40.240 her relationship with Phineas, and so much more. I hope 0:00:40.240 --> 0:00:50.000 you guys like this week's episode. Claudia, I'm so thrilled 0:00:50.040 --> 0:00:52.280 that you're in my podcast. First of all, I just 0:00:52.360 --> 0:00:54.600 realized this is like the first time a couple is 0:00:54.640 --> 0:00:57.240 coming on because we had Phineas in season one and 0:00:57.320 --> 0:01:01.639 now you're here in season three. I know, that's awesome. 0:01:02.000 --> 0:01:04.880 I feel like we need to then have a reunion 0:01:05.080 --> 0:01:07.920 where we're all together, the three of us on the 0:01:07.959 --> 0:01:10.720 same conversation. Yeah, we should. And you know what I've 0:01:10.760 --> 0:01:13.560 been I've watched your videos. I sink like five years now, 0:01:13.600 --> 0:01:16.120 so I love your channel. I love the way you 0:01:16.280 --> 0:01:18.880 edit um and you've been on social media for so 0:01:18.920 --> 0:01:21.600 many years, and I know you can relate to this. 0:01:21.680 --> 0:01:24.360 Being on social media at any age can be difficult 0:01:24.760 --> 0:01:27.360 with everything that it's surrounded by. What has it been 0:01:27.400 --> 0:01:30.080 like being on social media for so long, but also 0:01:30.560 --> 0:01:34.520 trying to keep like the same mental health. What's interesting, 0:01:34.600 --> 0:01:39.440 I think is social media changes so much. I feel 0:01:39.480 --> 0:01:42.360 like it kind of didn't really exist when I first 0:01:42.360 --> 0:01:46.520 started making YouTube videos, so I guess thinking about what 0:01:46.560 --> 0:01:49.840 my headspace was and where I thought this was all 0:01:49.880 --> 0:01:52.720 going when it first started versus now is so different 0:01:53.160 --> 0:01:57.120 because when I started YouTube, I'm not sure Instagram really 0:01:57.120 --> 0:02:00.840 existed yet or it had just come into play. TikTok 0:02:00.880 --> 0:02:06.240 didn't exist, and it felt like I think the shift 0:02:06.400 --> 0:02:09.320 was like I treated social media as this thing where 0:02:09.400 --> 0:02:14.200 I'm putting these things out and I am editing cute 0:02:14.240 --> 0:02:16.919 videos and having so much fun in the creation process 0:02:16.960 --> 0:02:20.480 and dumping it somewhere, and now social media has become 0:02:20.520 --> 0:02:24.680 this like bigger beast where you're creating, you are also 0:02:25.520 --> 0:02:28.440 you know, watching and taking in other people's content, and 0:02:28.440 --> 0:02:31.160 you're also communicating. I was talking about this with my 0:02:31.200 --> 0:02:34.040 friend the other day, how like we feel that social 0:02:34.040 --> 0:02:37.440 media breaks are really healthy, right, just just getting off 0:02:37.480 --> 0:02:39.680 Instagram for a few days or whatever. But now there's 0:02:39.720 --> 0:02:42.480 this component where like I have so many people in 0:02:42.520 --> 0:02:45.799 my life that I only DM and that's like our 0:02:45.880 --> 0:02:48.760 source of communication. Interesting, so then what do you do? 0:02:49.120 --> 0:02:51.880 It's like the new text message, it really is. I 0:02:51.960 --> 0:02:55.120 So I just started college, and something I'm realizing is 0:02:55.639 --> 0:02:57.960 everyone they don't ask for your number. They only ask 0:02:58.000 --> 0:03:01.680 for your snapchat, which is so odd to me because 0:03:01.919 --> 0:03:04.079 I just deleted snaptrat Instagram. By the way, I didn't 0:03:04.080 --> 0:03:05.760 delete my accounts. I was just like, I need a break. 0:03:06.000 --> 0:03:08.800 But like it goes to show the people that actually 0:03:08.800 --> 0:03:11.640 care about you will text you definitely, and the people 0:03:11.680 --> 0:03:13.960 that don't really you know, have an interest, will just 0:03:14.000 --> 0:03:17.480 send you random photos and won't even have a conversation. 0:03:18.520 --> 0:03:22.560 It's just it's odd. There is definitely like a difference 0:03:22.600 --> 0:03:26.120 in the platforms. I feel with d m NG exactly 0:03:26.120 --> 0:03:28.680 what you're saying, it's like sharing a photo or commenting 0:03:28.720 --> 0:03:30.919 on something or just giving it a heart, while text 0:03:30.919 --> 0:03:34.320 messaging now is like this commitment where if you've made 0:03:34.360 --> 0:03:37.120 a friend on social media and you exchange numbers, You're like, oh, 0:03:37.160 --> 0:03:39.720 we're going there. It's like a true friendship. And then 0:03:39.760 --> 0:03:44.480 if you go to FaceTime, Oh my goodness, a hundred percent. 0:03:44.600 --> 0:03:47.480 Are you a big facetimer? Do you FaceTime friends every day? 0:03:47.920 --> 0:03:51.840 You know? I think so, because I forget. There's just 0:03:51.880 --> 0:03:54.120 something about it that forces me to be more present, 0:03:54.120 --> 0:03:56.160 because when I'm on the phone and I'm doing something, 0:03:56.520 --> 0:03:58.760 I can so easily be distracted. When I'm looking in 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:02.080 someone else's face, It's just more personal and I like 0:04:02.560 --> 0:04:05.560 talking to faces instead of just like audio, if that 0:04:05.600 --> 0:04:08.240 makes any sense, What about you? I totally agree. I'm 0:04:08.320 --> 0:04:11.520 such a fan of FaceTime. Phineas is on tour right now, 0:04:11.560 --> 0:04:15.640 so we are constantly facetiming all the time. Although the 0:04:15.680 --> 0:04:19.560 feature of being able to swipe away and still have 0:04:19.640 --> 0:04:22.000 the little person, you know, the little bugs, but it's 0:04:22.040 --> 0:04:24.279 on pause? Is it on pause now? Or can you 0:04:24.279 --> 0:04:26.560 think it is? Because sometimes I'm looking at his face 0:04:26.600 --> 0:04:29.040 and I'm like, you are not, you are not looking, 0:04:29.080 --> 0:04:31.560 You're not, you are not you are reading a text messager. 0:04:32.560 --> 0:04:36.839 So it's when that eye glances Yeah, exactly exactly. Um, 0:04:36.920 --> 0:04:39.839 but I totally agree. I think FaceTime is like the 0:04:39.880 --> 0:04:45.720 optimal prime communication experience. Um. And it's like the closest 0:04:45.720 --> 0:04:48.279 to real life, which is great. And also like I 0:04:48.320 --> 0:04:50.800 mean truly, I feel like I learned this throughout COVID, 0:04:50.880 --> 0:04:54.440 but like everyone is a FaceTime away, and it's crazy 0:04:54.760 --> 0:04:56.839 how connected you can feel after even just like a 0:04:56.880 --> 0:04:59.880 ten minute conversation. It's one button away, put that on 0:05:00.000 --> 0:05:04.240 a shirt. Um. So we love it for that reason. 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:07.599 But to jump back to like social media and kind 0:05:07.640 --> 0:05:10.960 of maintaining sanity, right and all of that, and I 0:05:11.000 --> 0:05:13.920 think we are just like living in a world where 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:19.880 we are all sharing our lives, whether you are an influencer, creator, actor, 0:05:19.920 --> 0:05:21.960 you know, whatever is bringing you to social media, or 0:05:22.000 --> 0:05:25.240 if you just mostly like a watch or a listener 0:05:25.279 --> 0:05:28.839 exactly all these things. Um, I don't know, it's tricky. 0:05:28.880 --> 0:05:33.520 I was thinking about this recently about like the contrast 0:05:33.600 --> 0:05:37.159 of like I feel like sometimes we post to feel 0:05:37.240 --> 0:05:40.440 seen or for people to see that we are busy, 0:05:40.520 --> 0:05:43.000 we are doing things, or Hi, look I'm happy and 0:05:43.040 --> 0:05:46.920 I yeah, it's to prove something, yeah, And it's like 0:05:47.560 --> 0:05:50.640 and then there's another version where you know, you you 0:05:50.760 --> 0:05:53.000 have a photo that makes you really happy or you 0:05:53.080 --> 0:05:55.640 are documenting a memory and you want to share it, 0:05:55.720 --> 0:05:58.040 and that's the really pure side of it. It is 0:05:58.080 --> 0:06:00.560 such a double edged sword, and I feel like every 0:06:00.560 --> 0:06:03.839 single day is sort of like a little bit different, 0:06:03.920 --> 0:06:06.839 And um, I think I fall in both categories. I 0:06:06.839 --> 0:06:10.880 think we all do. And yeah, so I don't know 0:06:10.960 --> 0:06:13.800 what the answer is. I'm still figuring that out. I 0:06:13.839 --> 0:06:17.040 think everybody is. But it's hard to when you want 0:06:17.080 --> 0:06:19.360 to post something, but then it's so easy to get 0:06:19.400 --> 0:06:22.360 caught up in the oh my goodness, this didn't get 0:06:22.360 --> 0:06:25.040 any likes. Oh my goodness, I had to delete this. 0:06:25.520 --> 0:06:28.000 Turn off your legs, That's what I did. And you 0:06:28.080 --> 0:06:30.320 just post what you want to post. That's what I say. 0:06:30.360 --> 0:06:31.840 That's what I'm trying to the place I'm trying to 0:06:31.880 --> 0:06:38.120 get to. Have you seen the social Yes, I turned 0:06:38.120 --> 0:06:41.200 off my Instagram and Snapchat notifications since I've watched it, 0:06:41.240 --> 0:06:43.040 and I don't have them on anymore, and I only 0:06:43.040 --> 0:06:45.840 have my like, Gmail and text and that's it. Amazing. 0:06:46.120 --> 0:06:50.400 Same here. I the notification setting that I had on 0:06:50.520 --> 0:06:53.680 before watching that was like anyone who I follow, if 0:06:53.680 --> 0:06:55.920 they comment or like anything, I would see all of it. 0:06:56.440 --> 0:06:59.240 And I just like, do not need to know what 0:06:59.320 --> 0:07:01.960 time someone is liking something like if I am really 0:07:02.000 --> 0:07:04.560 that curious, I can go to the photo and I 0:07:04.600 --> 0:07:07.280 can click on view more under the likes and like, see, 0:07:07.279 --> 0:07:10.320 oh cool, cool cool. I don't need to see the 0:07:10.360 --> 0:07:14.040 moment it's happening, you know, So same here. I'm glad 0:07:14.200 --> 0:07:16.320 that we're all going through that because I feel like 0:07:16.360 --> 0:07:20.360 it's one of those things where I've noticed, just in 0:07:20.400 --> 0:07:23.440 the short time I've been at college, just how much 0:07:23.480 --> 0:07:25.880 time everybody is on their phones, including me. So I'm 0:07:25.920 --> 0:07:28.880 trying to cut back. I'm really in a space right 0:07:28.880 --> 0:07:33.480 now where I'm trying to be the best version of myself, 0:07:33.520 --> 0:07:35.920 where I'm trying to grow. And something I love about 0:07:35.960 --> 0:07:39.920 your channel is you're documenting your whole process. Um, I 0:07:39.920 --> 0:07:42.680 know you've gone into journal journaling, and I'm really trying 0:07:42.720 --> 0:07:45.880 to get into it. What are your tips because I 0:07:46.040 --> 0:07:48.840 have trouble like it's not doing, it's starting to do. 0:07:48.920 --> 0:07:53.120 It's like sitting down designating the time. Does it really help? 0:07:53.240 --> 0:07:57.400 Would you say? Okay? I love it? And honestly, it's 0:07:57.480 --> 0:08:00.280 one of those if you're looking at it as like 0:08:00.320 --> 0:08:04.120 a form of therapy, it is something that can it 0:08:04.160 --> 0:08:08.320 can make you feel different ways, like I think it is. Um, 0:08:08.400 --> 0:08:10.680 it's like untruthful to be like it's going to make 0:08:10.680 --> 0:08:13.880 you feel amazing all the time, because sometimes like the 0:08:13.920 --> 0:08:16.400 times when I really need a journal or when I'm 0:08:16.440 --> 0:08:19.840 at a low point and and then journaling it like 0:08:20.080 --> 0:08:24.520 makes me sadder. But there at the end of the day, 0:08:24.960 --> 0:08:28.800 I just like love recording and writing down like where 0:08:28.800 --> 0:08:32.240 I'm at, you know, on a specific day or in 0:08:32.240 --> 0:08:35.199 a specific moment, because I love looking back. I mean, 0:08:35.240 --> 0:08:38.160 I think that's like partially why I've made my YouTube 0:08:38.240 --> 0:08:41.480 channel so personal and and very vlog styles because I 0:08:41.520 --> 0:08:44.000 just love like being able to record these memories. You 0:08:44.040 --> 0:08:46.560 can see your growth as a human, which is awesome. 0:08:46.840 --> 0:08:49.400 That's crazy. It is very trippy to go back on 0:08:49.559 --> 0:08:52.199 videos and see like what I was interested in reading 0:08:52.240 --> 0:08:55.400 and what I'm talking about and the way that I'm speaking, Like, 0:08:55.640 --> 0:08:57.680 I don't know, we just like change and evolve in 0:08:57.679 --> 0:09:00.400 so many different ways. But I think with journal this 0:09:00.440 --> 0:09:03.160 is what I'll say, um, and I'm like trying to 0:09:03.200 --> 0:09:06.400 do this to myself or for myself with reading right now, 0:09:06.440 --> 0:09:12.200 which is like give yourself smaller hills to climb. So like, 0:09:12.640 --> 0:09:16.640 journaling can definitely feel very intimidating. What do you write 0:09:16.640 --> 0:09:19.599 about how many pages. Like people talk about like do 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:23.560 morning pages three pages a day. I rarely am journaling 0:09:23.600 --> 0:09:25.679 three pages a day. That is only if I'm like 0:09:25.800 --> 0:09:28.480 on one, I'm like caffeine's running through the veins. I'm like, yeah, 0:09:28.480 --> 0:09:31.520 I got so much right. But I think like giving 0:09:31.559 --> 0:09:36.480 yourself um, just like literally the shortest, smallest prompts of 0:09:36.520 --> 0:09:40.280 like one of my favorite things to do is, um, 0:09:40.360 --> 0:09:41.880 let's say it's like at the start of a week, 0:09:41.920 --> 0:09:44.360 I'll just write, I'll write the date, and I'll write 0:09:44.400 --> 0:09:47.320 like more of, less of, and I'll just write more 0:09:47.400 --> 0:09:50.040 of and then just list things that like have brought 0:09:50.040 --> 0:09:52.120 me joy or things that I want to do more 0:09:52.559 --> 0:09:55.280 and then just like less of things that haven't brought 0:09:55.280 --> 0:09:57.760 me joy, you know, less of staying up too late, 0:09:57.920 --> 0:10:00.839 less of you know, whatever it is people pleasing I 0:10:00.880 --> 0:10:04.360 don't know like, And I think giving yourself like a 0:10:04.400 --> 0:10:07.559 few questions like that gives you that format of like 0:10:08.200 --> 0:10:09.880 because sometimes it's you're just like, I don't know what 0:10:09.920 --> 0:10:13.280 to write, and other times I just make a list 0:10:13.320 --> 0:10:17.720 of things that I'm like grateful for, and that puts 0:10:17.760 --> 0:10:20.480 me in a that is definitely like the most rewarding 0:10:20.480 --> 0:10:23.280 I think in the moment, because being grateful, is it 0:10:23.400 --> 0:10:27.600 really just kind of like put things into perspective. Yeah, yeah, totally. 0:10:27.760 --> 0:10:33.440 So I think start like give yourself no expectations on 0:10:33.600 --> 0:10:36.480 like writing pages and pages and pages. That is not 0:10:36.520 --> 0:10:38.560 what it is. I use my journal to write like 0:10:38.720 --> 0:10:41.480 list to do list, like literally anything. Sometimes I draw, 0:10:41.880 --> 0:10:44.319 and I think that's what it's fun, is like dedicating 0:10:44.320 --> 0:10:47.280 a journal to literally dumping whatever you want in it. 0:10:47.920 --> 0:10:51.480 I think also like my like perfectionism wants me to 0:10:51.640 --> 0:10:54.680 like stay in theme with what I am writing, and 0:10:54.720 --> 0:10:57.720 I'm like, okay, well right, You're like, well, if I'm 0:10:57.720 --> 0:10:59.240 going to draw on this journal, then I'm gonna have 0:10:59.240 --> 0:11:03.440 a separate journal for the draw. And it's like you 0:11:03.559 --> 0:11:06.160 just have to release that and be like like I 0:11:06.200 --> 0:11:08.600 literally have my drawl right here. I'm like, this girly 0:11:09.120 --> 0:11:12.840 has everything in it. And the way that I organize 0:11:12.840 --> 0:11:15.920 it in my brain is I'm like, this is my girly. 0:11:16.200 --> 0:11:18.760 Love that, and she stays with me and I write 0:11:18.800 --> 0:11:21.240 whatever I want in it. And I think releasing that 0:11:21.360 --> 0:11:24.400 sort of feeling of like needing to organize really kind 0:11:24.400 --> 0:11:26.480 of like sets you for you a little bit, I know, 0:11:26.640 --> 0:11:28.520 And I think I honestly think we have a lot 0:11:28.520 --> 0:11:30.480 in common because I know you did a whole video 0:11:30.480 --> 0:11:32.880 about being in a funk, and girl, do I relate 0:11:32.920 --> 0:11:36.720 to that because I don't know if it's a combination 0:11:36.760 --> 0:11:38.839 of just like being in a pandemic for a year 0:11:38.880 --> 0:11:41.520 and a half or like just growing as a human. 0:11:41.960 --> 0:11:44.680 But you want to better yourself, but sometimes like I 0:11:44.679 --> 0:11:46.360 saw your video and I related to it and just 0:11:46.400 --> 0:11:49.240 like I feel like I want to get a bunch done, 0:11:49.320 --> 0:11:53.160 but then I don't. I feel worse if I don't. Yeah, 0:11:53.400 --> 0:11:57.040 I mean that all falls into like giving yourself the 0:11:57.160 --> 0:12:01.960 smaller like hills to climb. I think, Um, I don't know, 0:12:02.000 --> 0:12:06.319 it's really tricky, Like I'm I'm personally coming into understanding 0:12:06.360 --> 0:12:09.920 that I for so long have like based my value 0:12:09.960 --> 0:12:13.480 and worth on my productivity. Um, I don't know where 0:12:13.520 --> 0:12:17.120 that came into play with my childhood, but that's certainly 0:12:17.160 --> 0:12:19.760 where I found most worth. And I'm like kind of 0:12:19.840 --> 0:12:23.880 re um, I don't know, I'm like trying to rewire 0:12:23.920 --> 0:12:25.960 in myself and be like no, no, no, that's so 0:12:26.080 --> 0:12:29.960 incredible though that you're doing that. Yeah, And it's I 0:12:30.000 --> 0:12:33.040 think we're just like in this time of life where 0:12:33.400 --> 0:12:38.120 like hustle culture is just like very you know, it's 0:12:38.160 --> 0:12:41.400 seen as like that you are you are killing it, 0:12:41.480 --> 0:12:44.000 if you are busy, if you are productive, if you're 0:12:44.000 --> 0:12:48.600 doing a million things. But I think like finding joy 0:12:49.000 --> 0:12:52.880 and just like doing things for yourself and just letting 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:55.839 yourself relax, like that's really important, and I for so 0:12:55.880 --> 0:12:58.160 long would feel so guilty about it, or like if 0:12:58.200 --> 0:13:01.120 I have slower periods in life, I'm like, oh my gosh, 0:13:01.120 --> 0:13:02.960 I'm not doing enough. Oh my gosh. And it's like 0:13:03.480 --> 0:13:06.360 always just like remembering to give yourself the perspective of 0:13:06.400 --> 0:13:09.400 just like if things are feeling slower or if things 0:13:09.480 --> 0:13:13.760 are feeling less chaotic, like eventually things will pick back 0:13:13.840 --> 0:13:15.839 up for a season of life and you will look 0:13:15.840 --> 0:13:18.240 back and be like, oh my gosh, I had all 0:13:18.280 --> 0:13:20.360 the time to like get into all those books I 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:22.400 told myself I was going to read. I had all 0:13:22.440 --> 0:13:25.760 the time to like focus on, uh, doing hikes or 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:29.480 like whatever. I think. It's just it's like so perspective 0:13:30.240 --> 0:13:32.560 and that's what I'm telling myself. And I think we're 0:13:32.600 --> 0:13:35.560 all experiencing a lot of that, definitely through COVID. I 0:13:35.600 --> 0:13:38.480 think like COVID forced a lot of us to look 0:13:38.520 --> 0:13:41.200 inward and now that we're in this like in between 0:13:41.360 --> 0:13:44.040 where things are opening back up and we're like re 0:13:44.360 --> 0:13:50.160 establishing our relationship to like balancing life. Yeah exactly. Um, 0:13:50.400 --> 0:13:53.920 Like I personally have been like going really crazy on 0:13:54.440 --> 0:13:57.840 like socializing. I'm trying to get I think I'm trying 0:13:57.880 --> 0:14:01.600 to repay all the lost time. And you know that's 0:14:01.600 --> 0:14:05.240 tricky too, because sometimes you just need it yourself. It's 0:14:05.320 --> 0:14:07.720 listening to like your body and what you need, which 0:14:07.720 --> 0:14:10.360 it can be really hard. And I think social media 0:14:10.400 --> 0:14:14.559 exacerbates the household culture because you see everybody coming out 0:14:14.559 --> 0:14:17.079 with a new line or new this or knew then 0:14:17.200 --> 0:14:19.400 it's like, you know, sometimes you just need time for 0:14:19.480 --> 0:14:23.000 yourself to grow. And that's just as productive I feel like. 0:14:23.080 --> 0:14:27.040 And that's to be reminded of a And I think also, 0:14:27.160 --> 0:14:30.160 like back to what I was saying about, like feeling 0:14:30.160 --> 0:14:33.400 the need to post on social media to feel seen 0:14:33.560 --> 0:14:36.040 by others. It's like, at the end of the day, 0:14:36.160 --> 0:14:40.920 if you are not genuinely happy and feeling just present 0:14:41.000 --> 0:14:44.480 and grateful and fulfilled in all those things, like that 0:14:44.640 --> 0:14:47.160 is where the source should be coming from. Those are 0:14:47.160 --> 0:14:50.600 the questions for yourself to be answering for yourself, not 0:14:50.760 --> 0:14:54.520 for others, you know what I mean. Absolutely, I'm a 0:14:54.560 --> 0:14:56.760 big proponent of therapy. I've been in therapy since I 0:14:56.880 --> 0:14:59.560 was like on and off there was like eight that's amazing, 0:15:00.120 --> 0:15:03.720 and I am so grateful for that because I've learned 0:15:03.760 --> 0:15:07.000 so much about myself and how I grow. You talked 0:15:07.000 --> 0:15:10.400 about the therapy where you put these like electros on 0:15:10.480 --> 0:15:12.160 your Can you please tell me more about this cause 0:15:12.200 --> 0:15:16.320 I'm very curious. I literally just came home from an appointment, 0:15:17.000 --> 0:15:19.760 like I just had it done this morning. Okay, wait, 0:15:20.040 --> 0:15:23.840 please explain. So Okay, So it's called neurofeedback, and it 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:27.200 is something that like is becoming more widely known, but 0:15:27.320 --> 0:15:29.160 I certainly I have never heard of it, and it's 0:15:29.200 --> 0:15:31.600 sort of you hear it and you're like this little 0:15:31.600 --> 0:15:36.080 life hack, like this sounds like kind of life hack 0:15:36.240 --> 0:15:38.920 right here? It really does, it really does. So I 0:15:39.000 --> 0:15:42.680 got introduced to it through Phineas because his therapist like 0:15:42.760 --> 0:15:46.520 specializes in it. But there's I guess there are therapists 0:15:47.480 --> 0:15:50.200 all around that do it. Like it's definitely becoming more 0:15:50.200 --> 0:15:53.040 and more popular. But basically neuro feedback, there's like two 0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:56.960 stages of it. The first one is they're like taking 0:15:56.960 --> 0:16:01.720 all these little electro things and sticking them all around 0:16:01.800 --> 0:16:05.440 your head because like basically you're different parts of your 0:16:05.440 --> 0:16:09.240 brain obviously are in different locations, and so she kind 0:16:09.240 --> 0:16:12.520 of she's very specific about where she puts everything, because 0:16:12.600 --> 0:16:16.080 every part has a different purpose. And the first thing 0:16:16.240 --> 0:16:19.720 that she does, I'm saying she because his therapists woman, 0:16:19.800 --> 0:16:24.880 and she UM essentially like sends off a very low frequency. 0:16:24.960 --> 0:16:27.240 And at first I was like, this is us. This 0:16:27.320 --> 0:16:31.760 is scary. This does not sound uh safe, but it's 0:16:31.800 --> 0:16:39.040 actually like the amount of UM doesn't our computers exactly exactly, 0:16:39.360 --> 0:16:42.480 and like so the wavelengths that it's sending are so 0:16:42.640 --> 0:16:46.280 low they are like I forgot the the actual number, 0:16:46.320 --> 0:16:49.680 but it is the smallest fraction of what like literally 0:16:49.720 --> 0:16:52.320 these headphones are emitting or a cell phone, and it's 0:16:52.400 --> 0:16:55.040 so low that your brain is able to pick up 0:16:55.080 --> 0:16:57.440 and read on it because all the other devices around 0:16:57.520 --> 0:16:59.320 us are so high that our brain is like no, no no, no, 0:16:59.360 --> 0:17:01.440 we're not at that speed, so we don't care about that. 0:17:01.880 --> 0:17:04.520 So it's low enough for your brain to actually interact 0:17:04.600 --> 0:17:08.040 with the waves. And so like the first the first 0:17:08.240 --> 0:17:11.280 few sessions of it, she's like emitting a very low 0:17:11.320 --> 0:17:14.480 frequency just to see what the brain is sending off, 0:17:14.640 --> 0:17:17.760 and so it catches the size of the wavelengths and 0:17:17.800 --> 0:17:22.600 the speed, which basically shows, um, how how developed you 0:17:22.640 --> 0:17:25.000 are in those areas, and then how hard you're working 0:17:25.000 --> 0:17:28.320 in those areas. And so you're like fully having a 0:17:28.359 --> 0:17:31.840 graph displayed in front of you showing you what areas 0:17:31.880 --> 0:17:34.720 of your brain are least developed. And so in that case, 0:17:34.760 --> 0:17:38.800 it would be like suppression. Um so where like your 0:17:38.840 --> 0:17:41.640 brain has decided, oh, I don't really need to develop 0:17:41.760 --> 0:17:45.239 this area. So for me, like just sort of with 0:17:45.280 --> 0:17:48.880 my childhood and my environment, like, for example, my emotional 0:17:48.880 --> 0:17:52.560 suppression is like the smallest little sliver because at some 0:17:52.600 --> 0:17:55.720 point in my formative years I told myself, I don't 0:17:55.760 --> 0:17:59.359 I need to take after others and not be so 0:17:59.400 --> 0:18:03.200 concerned with my emotions. My emotions don't matter, and so 0:18:03.280 --> 0:18:07.000 my emotional suppression is like this tiny little sliver and 0:18:07.240 --> 0:18:10.320 it's it's wild to see it. It's validating, but it's 0:18:10.359 --> 0:18:14.160 also like, yeah, validates everything you think. It totally does. 0:18:14.240 --> 0:18:17.280 And it's interesting because then like the analytical and critical 0:18:17.320 --> 0:18:21.000 side of my brain was like super super high. If anything, 0:18:21.000 --> 0:18:23.960 it was like hypo suppressed, which was like over the standard, 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:25.720 so it was like blue. Everything else is like super 0:18:25.720 --> 0:18:30.720 Origin small, super blue. So um. Basically, she explained like, oh, 0:18:30.840 --> 0:18:33.320 you are doing a lot of your emotional processing through 0:18:33.640 --> 0:18:36.720 the critical side of your brain, because you're essentially telling 0:18:36.760 --> 0:18:39.000 yourself how you should be feeling about things. And I 0:18:39.080 --> 0:18:42.159 was like, yes, I do that. I'm always talking myself 0:18:42.200 --> 0:18:44.680 into how I should be feeling about things. So once 0:18:44.680 --> 0:18:46.520 she does all of that, you like learn all of it. 0:18:46.600 --> 0:18:48.760 And now I'm in this process where she's starting to 0:18:48.840 --> 0:18:53.760 tweak the frequencies because essentially, like there is a healthy 0:18:53.840 --> 0:18:58.320 frequency at which your brain should be operating at and um. 0:18:59.440 --> 0:19:03.119 Essentially like she sends it off and then your brain 0:19:03.680 --> 0:19:06.600 listens to that and it decides like, oh I like 0:19:06.720 --> 0:19:10.200 this more, so I'm gonna I'm gonna match this. And eventually, 0:19:10.240 --> 0:19:12.680 if you do it enough, your brain will learn like, 0:19:12.760 --> 0:19:16.119 oh I really like this this speed and I like 0:19:16.320 --> 0:19:19.840 this wavelength. And so what it's eventually supposed to do 0:19:20.000 --> 0:19:23.159 is just sort of like help rewire your brain and 0:19:23.200 --> 0:19:25.960 help remind your brain that it doesn't need to suppress 0:19:26.040 --> 0:19:28.679 these different areas. And what's crazy about it too, is 0:19:28.720 --> 0:19:34.280 like it has helped cure so many different conditions and diseases, 0:19:34.320 --> 0:19:39.080 Like she's had patients that can hear better, or like, um, 0:19:39.359 --> 0:19:42.399 someone used to one of her patients like used to 0:19:42.440 --> 0:19:44.920 know Chinese and like completely forgot it because she blacked 0:19:44.920 --> 0:19:46.959 out her childhood and then one day she woke up 0:19:46.960 --> 0:19:49.960 and like remembered the entire language. It's like, I can 0:19:49.960 --> 0:19:52.200 speak Chinese again. So it's like kind of going into 0:19:52.200 --> 0:19:56.000 your subconscious a little bit. Yeah, Like it's it definitely. 0:19:56.200 --> 0:19:59.120 It's not like creating any superpowers for you, but if 0:19:59.119 --> 0:20:02.520 there's anything that your brain has chosen to hold back, 0:20:03.000 --> 0:20:04.959 like it can help open that door again and be 0:20:05.040 --> 0:20:09.920 like hey, it's okay to you know, like access this again. 0:20:10.040 --> 0:20:13.280 It's really crazy. And so it's it's like helped people 0:20:13.320 --> 0:20:18.439 with memory or yeah, any hearing loss or like site, Um, 0:20:18.480 --> 0:20:22.080 I have really bad um like selective hearing. And I'm 0:20:22.160 --> 0:20:24.920 that's the thing that I am hoping. Like sometimes like 0:20:25.280 --> 0:20:27.520 Phineas and I will just be hanging out and we'll 0:20:27.560 --> 0:20:29.359 be having a full bown conversation. In the middle of 0:20:29.359 --> 0:20:30.960 the sentence, I'm like, oh my god, I have no 0:20:31.000 --> 0:20:33.280 idea what he's talking about. I don't know what what 0:20:33.440 --> 0:20:35.840 why that's happening. But I that is the thing that 0:20:35.920 --> 0:20:38.840 I'm hoping that I can relate to that because so 0:20:38.960 --> 0:20:43.400 I have my learning disabilities processing, so I have dealt 0:20:43.400 --> 0:20:45.320 without my entire life. So I feel you on that. 0:20:45.800 --> 0:20:49.800 Oh my gosh. It's very frustrating because I'm often having 0:20:49.840 --> 0:20:53.639 to ask people to repeat themselves. And it's not that 0:20:53.680 --> 0:20:56.200 you're not listening. It's just that your brain genuinely can't 0:20:56.640 --> 0:20:59.439 take in the information and process it. But it's like 0:20:59.480 --> 0:21:02.720 you here be you can't process it, yes, all the time, 0:21:02.880 --> 0:21:04.919 and like or I'll hear someone say a word and 0:21:04.960 --> 0:21:06.480 I'm like and I'll be like, wait, did you just 0:21:06.480 --> 0:21:08.880 say blah blah blah? And it isn't an English word 0:21:08.920 --> 0:21:10.400 at all, and they're like, what how did you get 0:21:10.400 --> 0:21:13.679 that from that? Like, I don't know. I feel you 0:21:13.760 --> 0:21:17.480 on that. Okay, we have to take a quick break, 0:21:17.480 --> 0:21:19.040 but when we come back, I want to talk about 0:21:19.040 --> 0:21:21.880 your hobbies outside of acting in YouTube, what you love 0:21:21.920 --> 0:21:25.600 about storytelling, your relationship with Phineas, and so much more. 0:21:25.960 --> 0:21:37.879 We'll be right back and we're back. Something that I've like, 0:21:38.359 --> 0:21:42.919 try to find his outlets to um turning shitty situations 0:21:42.960 --> 0:21:46.119 into something art Like that's how this podcast came about 0:21:46.600 --> 0:21:49.400 came out from my anxiety. Um so that's what I've 0:21:49.400 --> 0:21:51.560 been trying to do. But do you have I know 0:21:51.680 --> 0:21:54.320 you paint. I know you have a bunch of hobbies. 0:21:54.480 --> 0:21:57.360