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Speaker 1: West Up, it's lift Service. I'm Anelaye MacGuire, I'm stopped

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Speaker 1: me Santiago, I'm Laura Maura And oh that was boy.

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Speaker 1: You you know this is your second time on first

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Speaker 1: time was on zoom. We had a good fun conversation.

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Speaker 1: Wh are you laughing like that? No, because I was

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Speaker 1: just I was just like cool and I was cooking something.

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Speaker 1: They called me like you gotta inter you in five

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Speaker 1: minutes and on like okay, it's not bad, right, No, no, no,

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Speaker 1: well congratulations first of all for a couple of things.

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Speaker 1: But you got a baby on the way, a boy. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Why the name Azzi so azzi um has a Hebrew origin.

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Speaker 1: It means a strength, you know what. I just wanted

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Speaker 1: to give my son a name that actually, you know,

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Speaker 1: just wanted to make sure I do that boom that's

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Speaker 1: exciting baby. So how was it when you found out?

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Speaker 1: Because you know, there's always that moment where she's like

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Speaker 1: to she like, you know, people saying like the screenshot

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Speaker 1: of the positive test and when you home, and she like,

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Speaker 1: how did it happen? So she called me like, so

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Speaker 1: this is what happened. The first time she thought she

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Speaker 1: was pregnant. It was a chemical pregnancy, that's what That's

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Speaker 1: what they said. So and then I don't know, like

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Speaker 1: she said that the test like it was something like

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Speaker 1: So we thought she was pregning that she wasn't. So

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Speaker 1: then a couple of weeks passed and she called me.

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Speaker 1: She was like, I think I was in Miami. I'm

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Speaker 1: pretty sure, but she called me and she told me

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Speaker 1: she got to tell me something, and you know what

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Speaker 1: I'm saying. She was like kind of like dragging it

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Speaker 1: I was like, what's going on? And she told me

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Speaker 1: I was like I was happy, but that since I

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Speaker 1: was like, oh, you know what, I'm yeah, yeah, I

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Speaker 1: was kind of nervous. But then like it's just like

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Speaker 1: look at things way different. And now it's like I

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Speaker 1: got very serious, you know about what I'm doing and

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Speaker 1: amazing for real. It was dope. Yeah. I always wonder

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Speaker 1: what goes through with a guy's head first, like because

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Speaker 1: I assume if it's somebody you love and you're with,

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Speaker 1: it's exciting. But at the same time it's also like,

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Speaker 1: oh ship, Yeah, it's just it's just like it was exciting,

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Speaker 1: but at the same time, it was just like, okay,

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Speaker 1: move like, you know, you gotta get your you know,

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Speaker 1: you gotta get your life together, man, Like you can't

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Speaker 1: like you know what I'm saying. There's no excuse you

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Speaker 1: don't like you gotta you live in now. You gotta

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Speaker 1: provide for another one, you know what I'm saying. So

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Speaker 1: it's just like it's time now, like you gotta you

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Speaker 1: really and really get right. Okay, I'm not mad. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: And y'all, So you're gonna raise Izzie in Atlanta and

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Speaker 1: that's the plans. Gonna be a grady baby. Is gonna

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Speaker 1: be a grady baby. Hog spool she having man, Oh no, no,

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Speaker 1: not great. She's doing Homebird. We got mid wife you. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I was scared about it at first. I ain't gonna

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Speaker 1: I was like, I have a Frienden did that so

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Speaker 1: you and stuff? Yeah, that's it's dope, and you're doing

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Speaker 1: like all the lamage classes and everything or how does

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Speaker 1: I think every week, Like we just had a we

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Speaker 1: I guess you can say, but did you cry? You're

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Speaker 1: know it. I can tell we can tell us right now.

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Speaker 1: We also can tell your music from Yes, we were

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Speaker 1: speaking on it right now. I can only imagine the

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Speaker 1: emotion you're gonna have when you ul see your son. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: probably because like we were having a conversation about your song, right,

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Speaker 1: so believe So oh my guys, So we had a

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Speaker 1: the same feels you get when a man breaks your heart.

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Speaker 1: And when you're pregnant, like with a belly, the best

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Speaker 1: So what about you, GI, because you were just talking

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00:21:50,960 --> 00:21:54,480
Speaker 1: about you in the same situation. Yeah, for me, it

425
00:21:54,480 --> 00:21:58,800
Speaker 1: starts with understanding, right because you know, we are are

426
00:21:58,840 --> 00:22:01,680
Speaker 1: all different. Everybody come from different walks of lives. Everybody

427
00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:03,960
Speaker 1: have different beliefs. You know, sometimes you might be with

428
00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:06,479
Speaker 1: somebody who doesn't feel the same way you feel about everything,

429
00:22:06,800 --> 00:22:09,440
Speaker 1: and it's okay to be okay with, you know, being

430
00:22:09,480 --> 00:22:13,560
Speaker 1: your own. Um. Also, Like, honestly, when I went through

431
00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:15,320
Speaker 1: I was with the same person for eleven years on

432
00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:19,440
Speaker 1: and off. But that span of time and again sometimes

433
00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:21,119
Speaker 1: you think this functional is normal. I was in a

434
00:22:21,280 --> 00:22:24,280
Speaker 1: very very dysfunctional situation, and to me it was normal.

435
00:22:24,400 --> 00:22:27,240
Speaker 1: The things that we didn't went through, and it took

436
00:22:27,280 --> 00:22:29,560
Speaker 1: for me to step away from that to realize that

437
00:22:29,560 --> 00:22:32,680
Speaker 1: that ship was sucking crazy and that I was tripping. Um.

438
00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:35,760
Speaker 1: I really UM at a point where when I broke

439
00:22:35,840 --> 00:22:38,560
Speaker 1: up with my ex, I took that time off to

440
00:22:38,600 --> 00:22:40,440
Speaker 1: work on myself, to see what I wanted, and I

441
00:22:40,920 --> 00:22:43,960
Speaker 1: prayed for what I thought was the perfect man, and

442
00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:47,639
Speaker 1: I literally got everything I asked for. Like my entire

443
00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:50,280
Speaker 1: list is what I have in this in this man,

444
00:22:50,400 --> 00:22:53,199
Speaker 1: like he's perfect to me, Like we get along our

445
00:22:53,280 --> 00:22:56,040
Speaker 1: chemistry or energy from day one. Like and this is

446
00:22:56,080 --> 00:22:59,040
Speaker 1: somebody that I've known for maybe sixteen years before things

447
00:22:59,080 --> 00:23:02,520
Speaker 1: got romantic. Um, and when we linked up this time around,

448
00:23:02,560 --> 00:23:05,639
Speaker 1: the second time around, it wasn't on romantic intentions. It

449
00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:08,639
Speaker 1: was about business and then things, you know, took the

450
00:23:08,720 --> 00:23:11,880
Speaker 1: shift to romantic. And it's just like, all along this

451
00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:15,760
Speaker 1: person was right there and I never knew. And I

452
00:23:15,800 --> 00:23:17,800
Speaker 1: always was the one that like, oh men ain't ship

453
00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:20,719
Speaker 1: every man shet you know, I come from a cheating

454
00:23:20,760 --> 00:23:24,679
Speaker 1: father and cheating brothers and cheating relationships. And I was

455
00:23:24,720 --> 00:23:26,399
Speaker 1: a sugar baby. I was a mistress. I was a

456
00:23:26,400 --> 00:23:27,840
Speaker 1: side bitch. I was you know what I'm saying. I've

457
00:23:27,840 --> 00:23:31,160
Speaker 1: been through every relationship scenario that you could possibly think about,

458
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,320
Speaker 1: besides polyamerism, which I wanted to try as well at

459
00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:37,080
Speaker 1: one point. And it's like this man came into my

460
00:23:37,119 --> 00:23:39,040
Speaker 1: life and I really just posted it today in my story.

461
00:23:39,119 --> 00:23:41,240
Speaker 1: This man came into my life and showed me that

462
00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:44,080
Speaker 1: all men are not the same. Like he's he's the

463
00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:47,359
Speaker 1: exception to the rule, and he's what I thought was impossible.

464
00:23:47,400 --> 00:23:54,840
Speaker 1: He's that possible, shout out him all the time, how

465
00:23:54,880 --> 00:23:57,040
Speaker 1: grateful I am to him, how appreciated sive if I

466
00:23:57,040 --> 00:23:59,000
Speaker 1: am to have him in my life. And you know,

467
00:23:59,080 --> 00:24:01,240
Speaker 1: I we communicate on the on the level that's out

468
00:24:01,240 --> 00:24:04,199
Speaker 1: of this world. And I'm just so happy that I

469
00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:06,040
Speaker 1: have what I had. Have you found that I'm not

470
00:24:06,040 --> 00:24:09,240
Speaker 1: gonna suck it up by anything. No, I mean, you

471
00:24:09,280 --> 00:24:11,000
Speaker 1: know what it is. I feel like I was in

472
00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 1: a relationship for a really really long time. I was

473
00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:15,040
Speaker 1: mad for seventeen years, writes us, a long time, and

474
00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:19,439
Speaker 1: it was a crazy back and forth fighting, just some nonsense.

475
00:24:19,800 --> 00:24:23,399
Speaker 1: And so for me to become self reliant, it's really

476
00:24:23,400 --> 00:24:27,600
Speaker 1: hard for me to open up two people fully because

477
00:24:27,760 --> 00:24:29,520
Speaker 1: I feel like something's gonna put me in a box,

478
00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:32,160
Speaker 1: throw away the key, and now all my freedoms are gone.

479
00:24:32,200 --> 00:24:36,600
Speaker 1: So it's really I take relationships really slow, right, really slow,

480
00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:39,240
Speaker 1: And nothing wrong with that. There's no rush for anything.

481
00:24:39,920 --> 00:24:42,120
Speaker 1: What do you say when women say all men cheat,

482
00:24:42,160 --> 00:24:45,000
Speaker 1: because a lot of people like that. No, it's like,

483
00:24:45,200 --> 00:24:47,120
Speaker 1: oh man, definitely don't cheat, you know what I'm saying.

484
00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:49,360
Speaker 1: Like some of us, you know, like we we were good,

485
00:24:49,480 --> 00:24:51,399
Speaker 1: We're good. You know what I'm saying. Like when we

486
00:24:51,400 --> 00:24:54,280
Speaker 1: find somebody we really we really care about and stuff

487
00:24:54,280 --> 00:24:57,240
Speaker 1: like that's really what it is. Like that's saying that

488
00:24:57,880 --> 00:24:59,800
Speaker 1: you know, a need would change all these ways when

489
00:24:59,800 --> 00:25:01,440
Speaker 1: you mean the right girl, Like, that's facts like a

490
00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:03,440
Speaker 1: nigga going you know what I'm saying, Like a nigga

491
00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:05,760
Speaker 1: gonna set where you find that piece and you know

492
00:25:05,760 --> 00:25:08,679
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, where you feel like he comes he

493
00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:10,560
Speaker 1: comes home to peace. You know what I'm saying, That

494
00:25:10,640 --> 00:25:13,359
Speaker 1: he leaves like at home. For me, that's when my

495
00:25:13,440 --> 00:25:15,560
Speaker 1: piece it no matter what's going on outside, you know

496
00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:17,720
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I come back and it's like everything

497
00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:20,520
Speaker 1: just go back to normal and I don't even want

498
00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:22,240
Speaker 1: to leave home. I feels so good at home. That's

499
00:25:26,119 --> 00:25:27,560
Speaker 1: like I see a couple of guys in the room

500
00:25:27,600 --> 00:25:30,000
Speaker 1: nodding their heads like yes, that is what it's supposed

501
00:25:30,040 --> 00:25:32,320
Speaker 1: to be. I feel like there's just some guys that

502
00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:36,400
Speaker 1: are in so promiscuous and are just there's just man

503
00:25:36,480 --> 00:25:38,440
Speaker 1: that are that's there, the type of guy they are,

504
00:25:38,520 --> 00:25:41,560
Speaker 1: they don't cheat or they go through it already. I

505
00:25:41,600 --> 00:25:44,600
Speaker 1: think I've been with a few guys who don't cheat.

506
00:25:45,440 --> 00:25:47,639
Speaker 1: Like people always say that cheat and cheating that like

507
00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:50,000
Speaker 1: it's it's really a big deal. I mean, I mean,

508
00:25:50,040 --> 00:26:00,640
Speaker 1: I'm like heartened by it. I'm like that, like, um,

509
00:26:00,680 --> 00:26:02,240
Speaker 1: I feel like there could be all the problems in

510
00:26:02,280 --> 00:26:05,359
Speaker 1: a relationship. I've said that in a lot on this show,

511
00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:08,879
Speaker 1: especially in the in the first episodes, like there's bigger,

512
00:26:09,160 --> 00:26:12,760
Speaker 1: there's other problems besides cheating, but financial is the number

513
00:26:12,800 --> 00:26:16,800
Speaker 1: one days and that broke up. Yeah, because it's different

514
00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:19,120
Speaker 1: when you when you can handle your family and then

515
00:26:19,240 --> 00:26:21,560
Speaker 1: when the financis start, you can't get up, you can't

516
00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:27,040
Speaker 1: have a chick and we're struggling, like you are struggle

517
00:26:27,560 --> 00:26:30,679
Speaker 1: a struggle. You can't what they said, they said cheating

518
00:26:30,760 --> 00:26:35,600
Speaker 1: is a rich man, you know. But I think for

519
00:26:35,760 --> 00:26:39,920
Speaker 1: men to and and like financial hardships, it's really tough,

520
00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:41,760
Speaker 1: like because you guys argue about a lot of things

521
00:26:41,800 --> 00:26:45,840
Speaker 1: when you're not feeling good and saying stable, right and secure,

522
00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:48,800
Speaker 1: And I think for men to, like, I feel like

523
00:26:48,800 --> 00:26:50,680
Speaker 1: it's hard for men sometimes to be with a woman

524
00:26:50,680 --> 00:26:56,400
Speaker 1: who makes more than them. Yeah, I agree, I don't

525
00:26:56,440 --> 00:26:58,760
Speaker 1: know it probably it probably could be. Have you ever

526
00:26:58,800 --> 00:27:10,920
Speaker 1: asked that woman for money? No, you're right, girl was

527
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:14,560
Speaker 1: dating this guy. I could not stand her boyfriend, right,

528
00:27:15,000 --> 00:27:17,200
Speaker 1: and so you know, she finally broke up with him.

529
00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:20,600
Speaker 1: He was so annoying and he would this was the

530
00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:24,120
Speaker 1: problem I had. He asked her to borrow some money. Right.

531
00:27:24,640 --> 00:27:27,520
Speaker 1: But the red flag for me was he taking all

532
00:27:27,560 --> 00:27:34,120
Speaker 1: these trips, going places, he doing things, he leaving the country,

533
00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:38,359
Speaker 1: not even inviting her most of the time, right, and

534
00:27:38,400 --> 00:27:40,399
Speaker 1: doing that ship and then you need to borrow money.

535
00:27:40,960 --> 00:27:44,640
Speaker 1: I was like, girl, I said, listen, I could understand if,

536
00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:46,639
Speaker 1: like you know, because he was an entrepreneur, he had

537
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:49,040
Speaker 1: his own business. But to me, if you're not handling

538
00:27:49,080 --> 00:27:50,720
Speaker 1: your ship, you're traveling, you're doing all this ship and

539
00:27:50,720 --> 00:27:52,600
Speaker 1: then you're gonna ask you girl for money and you're

540
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:55,480
Speaker 1: not even sucking her like right. But that wasn't his girl,

541
00:27:55,920 --> 00:27:58,880
Speaker 1: it was though they were together for years. That's what

542
00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:01,200
Speaker 1: I thought was I would I would have said if

543
00:28:01,640 --> 00:28:05,040
Speaker 1: he was responsible, and you know what I'm saying, home

544
00:28:05,200 --> 00:28:08,160
Speaker 1: handling business, putting the money in. But he was traveling

545
00:28:08,480 --> 00:28:10,520
Speaker 1: and doing some bullshit, not telling her when he was going.

546
00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:11,960
Speaker 1: I said, a girl, do not, You're not going to

547
00:28:12,040 --> 00:28:17,560
Speaker 1: get it back. And to fully, you're not together. She

548
00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:20,040
Speaker 1: cheap as hell too. She ain't letting nobody I mean

549
00:28:20,440 --> 00:28:23,040
Speaker 1: if I even I feel like even guys who make

550
00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:26,719
Speaker 1: more money than their women, they have a issue a

551
00:28:26,720 --> 00:28:28,800
Speaker 1: lot of times with their girl just making a lot

552
00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:33,560
Speaker 1: of money period, and if it's not as much as them,

553
00:28:34,280 --> 00:28:38,479
Speaker 1: like I've experienced it a few times, like guys get

554
00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:43,560
Speaker 1: really intimidated by a woman who doesn't need anything. Right,

555
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:46,640
Speaker 1: I don't know, because I think and even my girl

556
00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:50,160
Speaker 1: like she you know, she she's entrepreneurs. Shes like she

557
00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:52,680
Speaker 1: has her own you know, her own stuff going on,

558
00:28:52,840 --> 00:28:55,280
Speaker 1: like with institutions, like she gotta skin care products and

559
00:28:55,280 --> 00:28:57,520
Speaker 1: stuff like that she wants to do. So I know

560
00:28:57,560 --> 00:29:02,400
Speaker 1: when when she by the way, but now I know

561
00:29:02,440 --> 00:29:04,480
Speaker 1: when she wants to like like when when that, when

562
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:06,719
Speaker 1: that when her time comes with that and and she

563
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:08,600
Speaker 1: takes off of that. I'm not gonna look at it

564
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:11,080
Speaker 1: like Okay, you know, I'm not being mad at her

565
00:29:11,080 --> 00:29:12,560
Speaker 1: for that, because that's what I want to I want

566
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:14,760
Speaker 1: to see her. I want to see her flourish and

567
00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:17,120
Speaker 1: what she wants to do because the same happiness I

568
00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:20,040
Speaker 1: got right now from from using my gift, I want

569
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 1: her to help. You know what I'm saying. So I

570
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:24,640
Speaker 1: can't speak for all all men, and that you know

571
00:29:24,680 --> 00:29:27,160
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I guess I guess some of

572
00:29:27,280 --> 00:29:30,480
Speaker 1: some niggas, you know, they probably feel like the girl

573
00:29:30,520 --> 00:29:33,280
Speaker 1: don't need them no more. They probably feel like I

574
00:29:33,320 --> 00:29:35,080
Speaker 1: feel like, even if a girl makes a lot of money,

575
00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:37,680
Speaker 1: if a nigga still feel like he is welcome in

576
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:39,600
Speaker 1: her life and she's you know, he still feels like

577
00:29:39,600 --> 00:29:41,400
Speaker 1: the man, you know what, you know what I mean,

578
00:29:41,440 --> 00:29:43,520
Speaker 1: I think everything would be good. Yeah, I had to

579
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:45,960
Speaker 1: learn that too. I had to learn to like sometimes

580
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:49,080
Speaker 1: be like I need you for something, but yeah I

581
00:29:49,280 --> 00:29:51,320
Speaker 1: ain't never borrowed no money from that, but you need

582
00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:55,800
Speaker 1: no But I know you're right, But I mean I

583
00:29:55,840 --> 00:29:57,920
Speaker 1: also have to realize that, like even I could do

584
00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 1: like a lot of stuff, sometimes you gotta ask because

585
00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:04,080
Speaker 1: that guy wants to feel like you need to help,

586
00:30:04,440 --> 00:30:06,880
Speaker 1: you know, and it does help. Sometimes it's just like

587
00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:08,560
Speaker 1: you know, we just we just want to. We just

588
00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 1: want to. We just want to help alone the way

589
00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:12,760
Speaker 1: sometimes you know what I'm saying, Like like even my

590
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:14,520
Speaker 1: girl know, like I know, I know what she can

591
00:30:14,560 --> 00:30:16,520
Speaker 1: do by herself, you know what I'm saying. I know

592
00:30:16,560 --> 00:30:18,400
Speaker 1: what she was doing before I even came came in

593
00:30:18,440 --> 00:30:19,840
Speaker 1: the picture. You know what I'm saying, like I know

594
00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:21,520
Speaker 1: she can what she can do on the own, but

595
00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:23,320
Speaker 1: like sometimes I just want to, Like if I'm in

596
00:30:23,360 --> 00:30:27,000
Speaker 1: a position, like it's like the position i'm man, I

597
00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:28,640
Speaker 1: want to share that. I want this to be you know,

598
00:30:28,680 --> 00:30:30,160
Speaker 1: I want this to be r you know what I'm saying,

599
00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:31,920
Speaker 1: Like I want to I want to bring you up

600
00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:35,440
Speaker 1: with me as I go up. You know, like so

601
00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:37,560
Speaker 1: she got she got this beard, she got this beard,

602
00:30:39,480 --> 00:30:41,400
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. The beer oil and it's

603
00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:44,200
Speaker 1: like palm cream or whatever something like that. His hair

604
00:30:44,280 --> 00:30:47,400
Speaker 1: look nice and moisterized too. Yeah, she hooked me over

605
00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:49,960
Speaker 1: with that too, because you know a lot of guys

606
00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:53,080
Speaker 1: don't be using like skincare products. Like I'm gonna be honest,

607
00:30:53,080 --> 00:30:56,280
Speaker 1: though I didn't like she she keeps me up on

608
00:30:56,320 --> 00:30:59,120
Speaker 1: all this stuff, Like she'll like bothering me like to

609
00:30:59,120 --> 00:31:00,960
Speaker 1: do it, like to do give me a facial list

610
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:02,800
Speaker 1: song or she wants me to to want me to

611
00:31:02,800 --> 00:31:04,800
Speaker 1: watch my face like she always owned me about stuff.

612
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:19,840
Speaker 1: Right yeah, yeah, yeah, fine for real to that that

613
00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:22,480
Speaker 1: type of stuff is too feminine. Maybe watching they face

614
00:31:22,680 --> 00:31:26,080
Speaker 1: so just water. But you know, I just feel like

615
00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:32,120
Speaker 1: we don't got to do that all the time they

616
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:34,680
Speaker 1: ask and then put it on the face. I'm talking

617
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:36,720
Speaker 1: about give me a kiss wright first, wait, hold on,

618
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:43,160
Speaker 1: we really be having to dust your love. But this

619
00:31:43,160 --> 00:31:45,200
Speaker 1: this was first like we just we just don't we

620
00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:47,800
Speaker 1: want to do all like that's that's it's just too

621
00:31:47,840 --> 00:31:51,800
Speaker 1: money his nails. It's clean getting nannies and petties. Now

622
00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:53,720
Speaker 1: with your girl. I ain't go Cole went one time,

623
00:31:53,720 --> 00:31:56,520
Speaker 1: but I didn't like it, like like I just ohn't know,

624
00:31:56,720 --> 00:32:01,320
Speaker 1: like she told me gotta go back, you have to,

625
00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:05,760
Speaker 1: but don't like I don't know, like I don't know

626
00:32:05,840 --> 00:32:08,960
Speaker 1: that the foot thing, I ain't like that jump like

627
00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:11,560
Speaker 1: you're not used to nobody touching your feet. I ain't

628
00:32:11,600 --> 00:32:14,560
Speaker 1: used that at all. You missage your feet at home? No,

629
00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:17,200
Speaker 1: she don't missing my feet and I ain't goa like

630
00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:20,120
Speaker 1: but I don't even ask it to either them. But

631
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:23,480
Speaker 1: I'm massage her. What's that mean? The massage and them

632
00:32:23,480 --> 00:32:27,960
Speaker 1: while the ankles and swell when she like everything? Oh

633
00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:32,280
Speaker 1: my god, when I was pregnant, I cast some big feet.

634
00:32:32,480 --> 00:32:36,120
Speaker 1: What's something that you like that rub my feet all

635
00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:38,320
Speaker 1: the time? What you mean like in the bedroom, what's

636
00:32:38,320 --> 00:32:40,560
Speaker 1: something that you like that like you know, that's not

637
00:32:40,600 --> 00:32:42,400
Speaker 1: like the regular ship, you know, like guys like any

638
00:32:42,440 --> 00:32:44,840
Speaker 1: dick suck like sucking, But like, what's something that you

639
00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:48,520
Speaker 1: like like that is a little bit unusual? Maybe I

640
00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:50,840
Speaker 1: like my balls link all right, I don't know that

641
00:32:50,840 --> 00:32:54,760
Speaker 1: that's on us. I don't know that's for you to say,

642
00:32:54,920 --> 00:32:57,360
Speaker 1: like I like it because something be like it's all right,

643
00:32:57,720 --> 00:33:04,760
Speaker 1: you know, guys, look because I like it different. Okay,

644
00:33:05,600 --> 00:33:08,960
Speaker 1: what about like okay, licked or sucked? Right? Both don't

645
00:33:09,000 --> 00:33:11,600
Speaker 1: feel good? Okay? What about like with the hand, like

646
00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:13,760
Speaker 1: play with it? Like did she like her to play

647
00:33:13,800 --> 00:33:19,360
Speaker 1: with it? Did that feel good too? That that that

648
00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:22,959
Speaker 1: feels good too? It's hard to tell sometimes like because

649
00:33:23,200 --> 00:33:25,800
Speaker 1: you do it, does it tickle? No? I don't tick

650
00:33:25,880 --> 00:33:28,640
Speaker 1: it just I don't know, like it just feel good?

651
00:33:28,880 --> 00:33:33,840
Speaker 1: Like oh no, if she if she giving her hands

652
00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:36,239
Speaker 1: on and she like she my ball, like she like

653
00:33:36,320 --> 00:33:38,480
Speaker 1: she you know what I'm saying. I mean that don't

654
00:33:38,520 --> 00:33:40,200
Speaker 1: feel good? You know? Did you have to tell her that?

655
00:33:40,280 --> 00:33:42,000
Speaker 1: Or she just did it? She just did it one

656
00:33:42,040 --> 00:33:48,600
Speaker 1: day and I was like, oh, I like that. Will

657
00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:52,560
Speaker 1: that make you come faster? Oh? I guess I guess

658
00:33:52,600 --> 00:33:55,360
Speaker 1: you could say, yo, don't I don't know what you

659
00:33:55,440 --> 00:33:58,080
Speaker 1: feel good? What if she just did that and nothing

660
00:33:58,120 --> 00:34:00,880
Speaker 1: else you think that you could come from that? It

661
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:07,040
Speaker 1: ain't that good from that? What about you? But something

662
00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:11,280
Speaker 1: you like that's unusual, that's not like the standard cookie

663
00:34:11,280 --> 00:34:15,279
Speaker 1: cutter sex. Damn what do I like? That's back from

664
00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:19,440
Speaker 1: the side on standing up? Okay, sex standing up? Like

665
00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:21,839
Speaker 1: I don't know when the back, yeah, because like if

666
00:34:21,840 --> 00:34:24,640
Speaker 1: you like put your hands on the wall to wall cold,

667
00:34:25,560 --> 00:34:27,480
Speaker 1: like the wall is cold right here. I don't know

668
00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:30,840
Speaker 1: what it is something to Maybe it's just the police.

669
00:34:30,920 --> 00:34:39,520
Speaker 1: Maybe it's like a fantasy short. I gotta like be

670
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:41,759
Speaker 1: on my tippy toes and stuff. And you haven't feel

671
00:34:41,760 --> 00:34:45,040
Speaker 1: like you're gonna break somebody's dick like that. No, because

672
00:34:45,320 --> 00:34:49,560
Speaker 1: I don't know that. Like the back and like pull

673
00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:53,120
Speaker 1: your stomach in and it kind of you know, you

674
00:34:53,160 --> 00:35:00,840
Speaker 1: haven't been riding a go tell you liked it for

675
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:03,719
Speaker 1: somebody to be like aggressive with you, like against the

676
00:35:03,719 --> 00:35:05,920
Speaker 1: one a little bit like a little bit of a

677
00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:09,399
Speaker 1: choke choking but not crazy, but just a little bit

678
00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:14,120
Speaker 1: like one time I went I was like looking into

679
00:35:14,360 --> 00:35:18,400
Speaker 1: sum s and m I was just looking into it, right,

680
00:35:18,400 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 1: and I bought these like little outfits I had no

681
00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:26,120
Speaker 1: idea that ship was dangerous. Let me tell you. I

682
00:35:26,120 --> 00:35:28,200
Speaker 1: had no idea. Was like, wait a minute. It was

683
00:35:28,239 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 1: like shaking me a little. I was like, wait a minute.

684
00:35:29,719 --> 00:35:31,279
Speaker 1: He was like, bitch, bitch. I was like, how many

685
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:34,719
Speaker 1: pitches are? It was a lot? It Wait, somebody did that,

686
00:35:34,800 --> 00:35:36,719
Speaker 1: so you brought the stuff. I brought the stuff and

687
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:39,520
Speaker 1: I wanted to like try it, but I wasn't for

688
00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:41,880
Speaker 1: it wasn't ready. No, I had no idea because then

689
00:35:41,920 --> 00:35:44,680
Speaker 1: I started looking online and it was like if you choke,

690
00:35:44,840 --> 00:35:47,919
Speaker 1: people die like. I was like, oh wait, I like choke,

691
00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:51,080
Speaker 1: but if they shake like I'm little, if they're too

692
00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:54,200
Speaker 1: big and like I just I felt like it was

693
00:35:54,239 --> 00:35:56,319
Speaker 1: a shaking baby singer. I was like, I felt like

694
00:35:56,320 --> 00:35:59,879
Speaker 1: I was gonna get like broke. I said, way, Nick,

695
00:36:00,200 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 1: chill out, Like you know, you want to do stuff

696
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:06,520
Speaker 1: before you die. I'm not good. I want to die

697
00:36:06,560 --> 00:36:08,759
Speaker 1: doing it. Moosky, you ever do a little choke or

698
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:11,799
Speaker 1: do I do? I can tell he precked up when

699
00:36:11,840 --> 00:36:13,840
Speaker 1: you said it too. He was like, you know, you

700
00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:15,400
Speaker 1: got it. You can't you can't go you can't go

701
00:36:15,440 --> 00:36:17,000
Speaker 1: too hard with the choke though, you know what I'm saying,

702
00:36:17,000 --> 00:36:18,920
Speaker 1: but like you said, like a little like choke. What

703
00:36:18,960 --> 00:36:21,040
Speaker 1: about you getting choked a little? I don't like that.

704
00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:24,600
Speaker 1: How do you know? Because I like because that that

705
00:36:24,680 --> 00:36:28,800
Speaker 1: happened to before. I like that, Like no, no, no,

706
00:36:28,840 --> 00:36:32,120
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, like that, I don't like that.

707
00:36:32,120 --> 00:36:34,520
Speaker 1: That's what you said. It'll make your orgasm intense if

708
00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:36,080
Speaker 1: she does it right before you, like right while you're

709
00:36:36,080 --> 00:36:38,520
Speaker 1: about to come. But I don't know, like I don't

710
00:36:38,560 --> 00:36:40,520
Speaker 1: want to be choked. I don't choke you man. You

711
00:36:40,640 --> 00:36:53,320
Speaker 1: probably just need a little drink first in America? That right, Okay,

712
00:36:53,360 --> 00:36:56,080
Speaker 1: So you choke her a little bit? Like okay, do

713
00:36:56,120 --> 00:37:01,080
Speaker 1: you talk shit? Yeah? Like what kind of things you say? No,

714
00:37:01,200 --> 00:37:03,520
Speaker 1: I did be like he put that he put that

715
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:07,719
Speaker 1: voice on say nothing something I don't even say not

716
00:37:07,840 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 1: you'd be like m you saying like you know, I

717
00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:13,880
Speaker 1: don't don't say another time? But like if I if

718
00:37:13,880 --> 00:37:15,160
Speaker 1: I get in the here, you know, are we talking,

719
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:17,600
Speaker 1: are we talking a little something like little smooth something?

720
00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:23,120
Speaker 1: You know? Especially if we are like I got little

721
00:37:23,200 --> 00:37:29,319
Speaker 1: I got you know what you know? I like that.

722
00:37:30,040 --> 00:37:37,480
Speaker 1: I try to have you ever cried during sex? I

723
00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:39,440
Speaker 1: don't know why I think of you as just like

724
00:37:40,120 --> 00:37:42,799
Speaker 1: I'm trying to figure out like what's going on, very

725
00:37:42,840 --> 00:37:46,200
Speaker 1: expressive emotional. Look, i'm gonna tell you, I'm gonna be

726
00:37:46,200 --> 00:37:48,560
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be a hundred sounds with you. So like

727
00:37:48,640 --> 00:37:51,680
Speaker 1: my music and me, it was like crazy, like because

728
00:37:51,719 --> 00:37:53,800
Speaker 1: I never I never re talking on emotions and stuff,

729
00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:55,879
Speaker 1: but I can do it through music. And so that's

730
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:58,200
Speaker 1: why I call it melted there before they're broken, because

731
00:37:58,280 --> 00:38:00,279
Speaker 1: this is the vulnerable stuff that you would be talking

732
00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:03,440
Speaker 1: about like a therapy sessue, right, all right, so you

733
00:38:03,440 --> 00:38:06,120
Speaker 1: would have never had this discussion in real life. Yeah,

734
00:38:06,160 --> 00:38:07,920
Speaker 1: Like I don't ever talk about my emotions and stuff

735
00:38:07,960 --> 00:38:09,560
Speaker 1: like that. That music is the only way I can

736
00:38:09,640 --> 00:38:11,200
Speaker 1: deal with that. And then when I do it, I

737
00:38:11,280 --> 00:38:13,319
Speaker 1: try to do it in a way I want to

738
00:38:13,360 --> 00:38:16,160
Speaker 1: come so hard with it, like like track Star, I

739
00:38:16,200 --> 00:38:18,399
Speaker 1: was trying to see how many how many bars could

740
00:38:18,400 --> 00:38:21,200
Speaker 1: I make with this, you know, like how far can

741
00:38:21,239 --> 00:38:23,360
Speaker 1: I go with this concept and really still tell a

742
00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:25,520
Speaker 1: true story? You know what I'm saying. So it's kind

743
00:38:25,520 --> 00:38:27,440
Speaker 1: of like it's kind of like you you write a book,

744
00:38:27,920 --> 00:38:29,920
Speaker 1: you know, or you you turn a book into a movie.

745
00:38:29,960 --> 00:38:32,520
Speaker 1: You're making me a little bit more juicy in the movie.

746
00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:34,560
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like you pyped it up. Yeah,

747
00:38:34,600 --> 00:38:36,640
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like you gotta you gotta

748
00:38:36,680 --> 00:38:39,120
Speaker 1: really get it to cross bother her that you're not

749
00:38:39,160 --> 00:38:41,319
Speaker 1: as expressive in real life as you are in your music,

750
00:38:41,400 --> 00:38:43,600
Speaker 1: Like when she MutS to have a real conversation, I'm

751
00:38:43,640 --> 00:38:45,520
Speaker 1: gonna be honest with you. Gonna be honest with you,

752
00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:47,840
Speaker 1: like and that I've grown a lot in that area,

753
00:38:48,120 --> 00:38:51,000
Speaker 1: like when when it comes talking to her, because when

754
00:38:51,040 --> 00:38:52,680
Speaker 1: you want something to word, you know what I'm saying,

755
00:38:52,680 --> 00:38:55,160
Speaker 1: like like you you start trying stuff, you never traveling

756
00:38:55,680 --> 00:38:57,840
Speaker 1: to make it work, you know what I mean? And

757
00:38:57,840 --> 00:39:02,600
Speaker 1: and sometimes it's be and then like sometimes it's me

758
00:39:02,680 --> 00:39:04,600
Speaker 1: and then sometimes because I feel like man heard the

759
00:39:04,600 --> 00:39:06,640
Speaker 1: same person. You know what I'm saying, like something like

760
00:39:06,680 --> 00:39:08,960
Speaker 1: it's hard for to open up emotions sometimes sometimes hard

761
00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:12,080
Speaker 1: for me. Somebody got to dot but you gotta really start,

762
00:39:12,160 --> 00:39:14,920
Speaker 1: Like but that's actually nice because then y'all really could

763
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:18,799
Speaker 1: do it together. Yeah, you're like, we're definitely growing on

764
00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:21,520
Speaker 1: but seeing what's crazy about it when when you're really

765
00:39:21,560 --> 00:39:25,600
Speaker 1: comfortable with somebody, like your your way of communicating is different.

766
00:39:25,719 --> 00:39:27,680
Speaker 1: It's different, you know what I'm saying, Like they kind

767
00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:30,279
Speaker 1: of understand, they kind of understand how you communicate in

768
00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:32,839
Speaker 1: a sense, but they understand they also understand what they

769
00:39:32,840 --> 00:39:34,440
Speaker 1: want you to be here too, though, you know what

770
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:37,719
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So, but they'stening. We appreciate you for coming.

771
00:39:37,719 --> 00:39:40,279
Speaker 1: I know you've got a lot going on, and I

772
00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:44,080
Speaker 1: think it's some time for lip service. And I was like,

773
00:39:44,080 --> 00:39:48,000
Speaker 1: you gonna be nervous after our zoom one. But I'm

774
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:52,120
Speaker 1: not nervous at all. No, that's dope. But melodic therapy

775
00:39:52,200 --> 00:39:55,200
Speaker 1: for the broken. Get to hear him express himself in

776
00:39:55,239 --> 00:39:59,120
Speaker 1: ways that he won't in real life. But he said

777
00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:02,040
Speaker 1: like that, Yeah, no, for real, we learned a lot

778
00:40:02,080 --> 00:40:06,080
Speaker 1: about you today. He let the song cry like jay Z. Yeah,

779
00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:08,840
Speaker 1: It's like it's like it's true, it's true therapy. Yeah,

780
00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:13,120
Speaker 1: you're in a good space right now. Yeah, congratulate baby

781
00:40:13,160 --> 00:40:16,200
Speaker 1: on the way. You got your dream gird and appreciate it.

782
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:18,359
Speaker 1: You know she would love you opening up. You got

783
00:40:18,440 --> 00:40:25,280
Speaker 1: somebody that's your equal, you know, skin glowing from her products, oil,

784
00:40:26,000 --> 00:40:35,480
Speaker 1: getting his bars licked all the time, amazing, Like it's good.

785
00:40:35,520 --> 00:40:37,640
Speaker 1: I thank God for real and Nica, thank you so

786
00:40:37,719 --> 00:40:39,360
Speaker 1: much for coming through. I know you local, so we

787
00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:42,160
Speaker 1: could have you coming. Yeah, It's like, yeah, I'm coming.

788
00:40:42,480 --> 00:40:45,520
Speaker 1: I was going, I'm going to um St. Thomas for

789
00:40:45,560 --> 00:40:48,440
Speaker 1: a gig tomorrow. We love St. Toime. Yes, wasn't that

790
00:40:48,480 --> 00:40:51,880
Speaker 1: where A. J. Johnson was Yeah, yeah, so I'm going tomorrow.

791
00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:53,560
Speaker 1: And I was on my way to get a haircut

792
00:40:53,600 --> 00:40:55,680
Speaker 1: and then your producer called me. He was like, are

793
00:40:55,719 --> 00:40:57,640
Speaker 1: you around. I said, I'm gonna be around. So then

794
00:40:57,680 --> 00:40:59,919
Speaker 1: my daughter brought me my outfit and I just put

795
00:41:00,040 --> 00:41:01,920
Speaker 1: my make up in the car. Was like us, well,

796
00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:04,359
Speaker 1: you look great and we appreciate you. We're definitely gonna

797
00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:06,799
Speaker 1: have you back and have fun in St. Thomas. Thank

798
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:11,040
Speaker 1: you so much, and remember what happens there stays there

799
00:41:11,200 --> 00:41:14,680
Speaker 1: unless you come here and talk about it, unless she

800
00:41:14,719 --> 00:41:18,279
Speaker 1: comes with your Teeger alright, lift service. Thank you all

801
00:41:18,280 --> 00:41:19,600
Speaker 1: so much. Thank you