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Are? 0:01:58.920 --> 0:01:59.200 You like? 0:01:59.280 --> 0:02:00.000 Picking posts? 0:02:00.040 --> 0:02:03.560 Probably because Beyonce posted a cryptic social media post about 0:02:03.640 --> 0:02:05.120 Levi's jeans and I think. 0:02:05.040 --> 0:02:06.400 Like you. 0:02:08.280 --> 0:02:11.320 Know, No, I did not, girl, well me and your 0:02:11.360 --> 0:02:12.920 friend Cabrell did, because I was. 0:02:15.400 --> 0:02:16.880 We're seeing the comments acting the best. 0:02:17.360 --> 0:02:19.960 No, no, no, I was, and he responded. 0:02:20.320 --> 0:02:22.880 Oh love that cross, Like, hey, girls. 0:02:23.919 --> 0:02:26.760 Something about ron Embisson before we before we start the show, 0:02:26.800 --> 0:02:29.280 we make a plan, right, we know executly. 0:02:28.960 --> 0:02:30.320 What we're gonna talk about. 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:39.160 We hit record and it's like whoa squirrel? Anyway, I'm 0:02:39.160 --> 0:02:43.800 all miss you Okay. Whatever Beyonce posted, she's been she 0:02:44.000 --> 0:02:46.720 likes to talk on social but doesn't actually say anything. 0:02:46.760 --> 0:02:49.760 She just posts visuals like a picture there was like 0:02:49.800 --> 0:02:52.760 a she was in Paris promoting her whiskey brand. Anyway, 0:02:52.880 --> 0:02:55.040 it was just like I think it was just a 0:02:55.040 --> 0:02:58.120 static image and there was no caption, and the image 0:02:58.200 --> 0:03:02.919 just said something about something's laundrette, like sexy Levi's jeans 0:03:03.120 --> 0:03:07.720 at a launderette. And I was like, like, are you 0:03:07.840 --> 0:03:11.400 collaborating with Tide? Are we gonna have like an oxy 0:03:11.520 --> 0:03:15.720 Clevin Yeah, like an oxy clean cowboy Carter, Like what 0:03:15.800 --> 0:03:17.960 are we doing a line of Levi's jeans? Like what 0:03:18.480 --> 0:03:20.480 is this visual? Are we getting in a music video? 0:03:21.280 --> 0:03:23.600 And I was fed up? I was fed up, and 0:03:23.639 --> 0:03:25.080 so I went in the comments and I was like, 0:03:25.480 --> 0:03:29.880 just say something in the caption, like just right, just explain, 0:03:30.560 --> 0:03:33.919 because some of us are still paying off you know, 0:03:34.000 --> 0:03:37.120 not me particular, but a lot of Beyonce fans are 0:03:37.120 --> 0:03:40.240 like still paying off their after pay you know, like 0:03:40.360 --> 0:03:44.240 purchases of Sacred and Sir Davis whiskey and let's not 0:03:44.240 --> 0:03:45.960 forget about the Renaissance tour whatever. 0:03:46.000 --> 0:03:47.800 And then Cabral was like because it was that was 0:03:47.840 --> 0:03:48.520 a bang. 0:03:48.800 --> 0:03:50.200 Yeah, And I still don't know what the hell she 0:03:50.320 --> 0:03:53.880 was talking about. But anyway, Cabral and I were both 0:03:53.920 --> 0:03:55.760 annoyed by it, and he supported me. 0:03:55.960 --> 0:03:57.440 What did he say? 0:03:57.440 --> 0:03:59.920 He said something like, Mandy, she what did she want? 0:04:00.080 --> 0:04:01.280 I'll tell you exactly what you said. 0:04:01.840 --> 0:04:04.520 Oh on God, not my two friends in the comments 0:04:04.680 --> 0:04:05.760 cutting out on the Beyonce. 0:04:07.240 --> 0:04:10.200 I mean it's I always like seeing I like to 0:04:10.200 --> 0:04:12.080 go to comments and if I see someone else post, 0:04:12.120 --> 0:04:14.440 I think it's kind of funny. Also, it makes me 0:04:14.480 --> 0:04:16.800 think about twice before I post. I'm like someone might 0:04:16.960 --> 0:04:19.880 recognize me for these comments. Okay, he said, Mandy, is 0:04:19.920 --> 0:04:21.520 she trying to play with our emotions? 0:04:21.880 --> 0:04:23.800 Oh that's not what something was saying. 0:04:24.720 --> 0:04:26.359 Listen, he was on his launch break. We just had 0:04:26.360 --> 0:04:30.880 a little Are you threatened because I'm kicking with your friend? 0:04:32.240 --> 0:04:33.960 Now we can share. I don't mind. 0:04:35.279 --> 0:04:39.880 I'm sure you're his number one man. Well, you just 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:42.640 look like you just roll off of a private jet 0:04:42.680 --> 0:04:46.480 after speaking to a stadium full of incredible women. What 0:04:46.680 --> 0:04:47.039 is happening? 0:04:47.120 --> 0:04:52.320 I wasn't a private jet and be so. This past 0:04:52.320 --> 0:04:54.880 weekend I went to Women Evolve, which is one of 0:04:54.920 --> 0:04:59.200 the largest women's conferences in the country. It was thirty 0:04:59.200 --> 0:05:03.320 eight thous into women, I believe. And so it's Sarah 0:05:03.360 --> 0:05:05.600 Jigs Roberts. So you know that that's the dart of 0:05:05.600 --> 0:05:10.440 TD Jakes and Sarah's just this just phenomenal pastor leader 0:05:10.640 --> 0:05:14.680 woman herself. And so I actually did the very first 0:05:14.760 --> 0:05:19.159 Women Evolved. It was in Denver, Colorado years ago, I 0:05:19.200 --> 0:05:21.560 want to say, maybe seven years ago or something like that. 0:05:21.839 --> 0:05:23.120 So I did the first one and that was just 0:05:23.120 --> 0:05:25.080 a couple thousand people, like a few thousand, but I 0:05:25.080 --> 0:05:27.400 didn't even speak main stage. Then I did like a 0:05:27.440 --> 0:05:29.080 workshop or something like that. You know, it was still 0:05:29.080 --> 0:05:31.200 a lot of people, but you know, I didn't speak 0:05:31.240 --> 0:05:33.360 main stage. But this time they're like, oh, we want 0:05:33.360 --> 0:05:34.919 you to speak main stage, and I'm not gonna lie 0:05:34.960 --> 0:05:37.920 to your mandy. I was like, okay, I don't know 0:05:38.000 --> 0:05:41.880 what I was thinking, Like, I don't know. I didn't 0:05:41.880 --> 0:05:44.840 I don't think I conceptualized what Maine stage meant. And 0:05:44.960 --> 0:05:48.719 so the day of, like the day before like I 0:05:48.760 --> 0:05:50.480 was to speak. So I landed on Wednesday. I spoke 0:05:50.480 --> 0:05:52.280 on a Thursday. They're like, oh, we want you to 0:05:52.320 --> 0:05:55.480 come to the you know location. So they put me 0:05:55.480 --> 0:05:57.480 in a hotel that was next to the location. They 0:05:57.560 --> 0:05:59.680 like come to the location, take a look around, but 0:05:59.720 --> 0:06:03.039 also to do some press whatever. I said, Okay. So 0:06:03.080 --> 0:06:05.760 I get there and I'm like, why is it like 0:06:05.760 --> 0:06:10.080 a stadium, like you know, like I saw Beyonce as 0:06:10.080 --> 0:06:12.719 a stadium stadium right, And I was like, okay, so 0:06:12.720 --> 0:06:14.720 they're walking me around. I'm like, oh, so, like you know, 0:06:15.040 --> 0:06:16.839 somebody was like I think I forget the pastor that 0:06:16.960 --> 0:06:19.400 was preaching that morning when I was there, like just 0:06:19.480 --> 0:06:20.880 observe a little bit, and they're like, oh, do you 0:06:20.920 --> 0:06:22.920 want to like sit? I said no, because they told 0:06:22.920 --> 0:06:24.279 me I have to do press in like thirty minutes. 0:06:24.320 --> 0:06:26.000 I don't want to disturb people getting up and down. 0:06:26.560 --> 0:06:29.520 So I just said, I don't know what Flora entered, 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:31.840 but you know, like how stadiums have the tears. I 0:06:32.080 --> 0:06:35.680 was maybe midway up there were still more tears above 0:06:35.680 --> 0:06:38.640 and tears below. So I'm just standing like looking over 0:06:39.080 --> 0:06:42.599 and I said that that stays down there. That looks 0:06:42.600 --> 0:06:46.320 real little because there's so many people in here who 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:47.560 goes be on that stage. 0:06:47.760 --> 0:06:52.320 They're like, you, girl, I said, when I tell you, 0:06:52.680 --> 0:06:56.320 I said, it's just the pit stats. 0:06:56.400 --> 0:07:02.000 I couldn't believe I. I couldn't believe in I said, wait, 0:07:02.080 --> 0:07:04.160 that is that the stage I'm speaking on tomorrow. I 0:07:04.240 --> 0:07:07.880 kept asking. They're like, girl, yes see we how many times? 0:07:07.920 --> 0:07:10.280 How many like this to say it? I'm like, yeah, 0:07:10.280 --> 0:07:13.040 but that's that's like the stadium stage. That's like the Beyonce, 0:07:13.480 --> 0:07:18.720 like Carter Giselle, Carter Nole's stage, Like pop your hip. 0:07:19.120 --> 0:07:21.560 You know you look like an ant because I'm you know, 0:07:21.760 --> 0:07:23.960 I'm not even at the top part like stage. And 0:07:24.000 --> 0:07:25.800 they're like, yes, that's gonna be you. I said. With 0:07:25.880 --> 0:07:28.520 other people, they're like, no, just you. I'm like the announcer, 0:07:28.520 --> 0:07:29.360 They're like, no, just you. 0:07:29.640 --> 0:07:33.280 I was like, this is when people have backup dancers. 0:07:33.760 --> 0:07:34.080 Girl. 0:07:34.880 --> 0:07:37.360 I couldn't believe it. And they were like, oh, by 0:07:37.400 --> 0:07:39.280 the way, cause at first I thought I was doing 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:41.280 a panel. That's what it said in all the communications, 0:07:41.280 --> 0:07:45.000 but apparently I was doing a twenty minute keynote. 0:07:46.000 --> 0:07:48.360 Okay, so my lemon level, I'm excited. On the other level, 0:07:48.400 --> 0:07:51.480 I'm like, did y'all not communicate? Girl? We did? 0:07:52.000 --> 0:07:53.880 I looked at all the communications and I said it's 0:07:53.960 --> 0:07:56.520 a panel. They're like, yeah, we thought about that, but 0:07:56.560 --> 0:07:59.400 then no, we want you to do because basically a 0:07:59.400 --> 0:08:01.640 twenty minute like financial tech X talk. 0:08:03.360 --> 0:08:06.520 And when did you get this information the day before? 0:08:07.360 --> 0:08:09.320 Is that before or after we chatted. 0:08:10.480 --> 0:08:12.280 When you read I don't remember. I felt I got blacked out. 0:08:13.080 --> 0:08:15.480 You were getting your makeup done and you sounded weird. 0:08:15.680 --> 0:08:17.920 I was like, she sounds like she's I thought it 0:08:17.960 --> 0:08:19.800 was because the makeup artist was there. She could hear me. 0:08:19.840 --> 0:08:20.720 I'm like, oh, it's yeah. 0:08:20.800 --> 0:08:20.880 No. 0:08:20.920 --> 0:08:23.080 I probably was free because I'm not gonna lie. I 0:08:23.120 --> 0:08:28.040 woke up that morning, Oh freaked out, yes, because I 0:08:28.120 --> 0:08:31.600 was just like because one they told me the day before, like, 0:08:31.600 --> 0:08:33.400 oh no, it's a text keynote, and I was like, 0:08:33.400 --> 0:08:34.640 you know, I'm not going to stress about it today. 0:08:34.640 --> 0:08:36.200 I'm going to try to USA. I'm gonna wake up 0:08:36.200 --> 0:08:39.160 early to prep to prep for my text talk because 0:08:39.280 --> 0:08:41.080 they want me to talk about like budgeting. I'm like, girl, 0:08:41.480 --> 0:08:43.160 you know this is not new. You've talked about this 0:08:43.240 --> 0:08:45.280 so many times, so many ways. Just wake up in 0:08:45.320 --> 0:08:48.439 the morning, take one of your old presentations and practice it. Whatever. 0:08:48.520 --> 0:08:51.079 I woke up and I was stressed. I didn't do anything, 0:08:51.280 --> 0:08:55.160 so I think so I had woken up two hours 0:08:55.200 --> 0:08:57.800 before the the you know, the makeup artist came, but 0:08:57.800 --> 0:08:59.960 by then I had not done anything. I wasn't schedu 0:09:00.160 --> 0:09:02.120 to speak till five, but I said, Tiffany, so I 0:09:02.120 --> 0:09:04.319 think what you called. I was like really like wow, 0:09:04.480 --> 0:09:06.800 so you speak in a few hours and you are 0:09:06.800 --> 0:09:10.839 not prepared to speak in front of thirty eight thousand women, 0:09:10.920 --> 0:09:12.240 and so I think I was kind of in my 0:09:12.240 --> 0:09:15.280 head like a lot, and so you know, they I 0:09:15.320 --> 0:09:17.280 had to go. I forget. They wanted me to do 0:09:17.679 --> 0:09:20.480 some other sort of press or something, and thankfully I 0:09:20.520 --> 0:09:22.600 had like a good two or three hour block before 0:09:23.400 --> 0:09:24.880 and so I came back to the room and I 0:09:24.960 --> 0:09:27.920 was just like, okay, Tiffany, block everyone else out and 0:09:28.360 --> 0:09:33.760 I prepared, because it's there's a difference. There's one thing 0:09:33.800 --> 0:09:35.800 speaking in front of a thousand people, like I just 0:09:35.840 --> 0:09:41.640 did fourteen hundred people for the National Association of Black Glters. 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.840 But in that room, you know, you see faces, you 0:09:44.880 --> 0:09:46.760 see not and you see yeah, you know, you hear 0:09:46.800 --> 0:09:49.199 the voice, you know. But what I realized, and I'm 0:09:49.200 --> 0:09:51.600 glad I got to go the day before. You know, 0:09:51.640 --> 0:09:55.679 it freaked me out because it you can't actually hear anyone. 0:09:56.480 --> 0:10:00.520 It's a weird phenomenon that you can hear the general 0:10:00.800 --> 0:10:05.440 murmuring of a crowd but you can't hear the individual 0:10:05.880 --> 0:10:09.040 like you know, like yes, Tiffany, it just sounds like, 0:10:09.040 --> 0:10:15.080 oh you like So, so I realized that, like, it's 0:10:15.080 --> 0:10:16.800 gonna be hard for me to get a gauge of 0:10:16.880 --> 0:10:21.000 whether people are understanding and getting it. And so I 0:10:21.160 --> 0:10:23.160 was like, I realized that, like with a crowd like this, 0:10:23.320 --> 0:10:25.640 that murmuring is the only feedback I'm gonna get. So 0:10:25.720 --> 0:10:28.040 I'm gonna need to infuse kind of some like call 0:10:28.080 --> 0:10:32.760 and response into my presentation, like I talked to the 0:10:33.480 --> 0:10:35.760 name of my talk was make your budget say yes, 0:10:36.840 --> 0:10:39.600 and so throughout yes, right, So I was like, so 0:10:39.640 --> 0:10:41.400 throughout I'd be like, wait, what did the budget say? 0:10:41.559 --> 0:10:44.000 Was it no? They're like no, yes. So that was 0:10:44.040 --> 0:10:47.080 like because I could get that feedback and yes kind 0:10:47.080 --> 0:10:50.080 of sounds like something when you're up there, but even. 0:10:50.000 --> 0:10:53.640 Like there's a noodle you say, but yeah, basically you 0:10:53.679 --> 0:10:54.360 know that kind of thing. 0:10:54.360 --> 0:10:57.840 It was like, but it's also there's an echo that's delayed, 0:10:58.160 --> 0:11:00.199 so you're hearing yourself, you're kind of hearing the crowd. 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:03.720 It was not easy, you know, like because I you know, normally, 0:11:03.840 --> 0:11:05.960 like I might say something like cute or funny, and 0:11:06.000 --> 0:11:07.960 then I hear a laugh, but I didn't hear a laugh. 0:11:07.960 --> 0:11:09.320 I'm like, yeah, because they haven't heard you yet. Girl, 0:11:09.360 --> 0:11:14.240 it's got a verberate and so timing, I mean, all 0:11:14.280 --> 0:11:15.720 in all, I wasn't sure how I did. I you 0:11:15.720 --> 0:11:18.440 know when I was. I actually went Once I got 0:11:18.440 --> 0:11:20.600 out there and I looked around, I realized I wasn't 0:11:20.640 --> 0:11:23.320 as nervous because I can't see anybody. It's just dots. 0:11:24.000 --> 0:11:26.400 So I wasn't as nervous actually as a smaller crowd, 0:11:26.440 --> 0:11:28.200 because a smaller crowd, I see your face, I see you, 0:11:28.360 --> 0:11:31.320 like what. So I was nervous, but not the level 0:11:31.360 --> 0:11:33.199 of nervous you would think with that many people, because 0:11:33.520 --> 0:11:36.480 at that point it's not people, they're just literally just dots. 0:11:37.640 --> 0:11:39.760 And so I was able to just be like basically 0:11:39.760 --> 0:11:41.200 there was like, you know some people like in the 0:11:41.200 --> 0:11:42.400 front that I was like, well, it's me and U 0:11:42.400 --> 0:11:48.560 Tasha in the front, girl, Like that's funny. And so 0:11:48.920 --> 0:11:52.840 I actually was way more like, way more comfortable because 0:11:52.920 --> 0:11:56.120 you know, there was just too many people to even conceptualize. 0:11:56.200 --> 0:11:58.840 I thought I did okay because I couldn't, like I said, 0:11:58.840 --> 0:12:05.160 get a gauge because the sound just sounds like so 0:12:05.200 --> 0:12:08.559 I don't know. Yes, no, maybe it wasn't until I'm 0:12:08.559 --> 0:12:11.920 so grateful for the people, which is that just yes, 0:12:12.000 --> 0:12:16.200 a little. Yeah, it was a little. And because I 0:12:16.240 --> 0:12:19.720 was nervous, I didn't tie myself like as I was 0:12:19.760 --> 0:12:21.720 nervous that I was going to take too long, and 0:12:21.760 --> 0:12:24.200 so I had like kind of like three parts. The 0:12:24.240 --> 0:12:27.080 first part I went through it too quickly, and so 0:12:27.400 --> 0:12:30.440 I actually ended I kind of was like wrapping up, 0:12:30.480 --> 0:12:31.960 and I still had three more minutes, which is like 0:12:31.960 --> 0:12:32.800 an Eterney. 0:12:32.880 --> 0:12:34.320 One a nightmare girl. 0:12:34.400 --> 0:12:36.480 So at the end, I literally said, well I'm done, 0:12:38.440 --> 0:12:40.319 and then I was like that had agreed, and then 0:12:40.360 --> 0:12:42.079 like I laughed and they laughed, and then I was like, well, 0:12:42.120 --> 0:12:44.560 actually let me just leave you with one less encouraging word, 0:12:44.559 --> 0:12:49.079 and then I did that. So because I was like, 0:12:48.559 --> 0:12:51.920 I'm like, that's the same that Hillary Duff me like, 0:12:52.040 --> 0:12:54.080 well thanks for talking thing. 0:12:55.080 --> 0:12:56.800 I hope you, And I was like, because I had 0:12:56.840 --> 0:12:57.920 a great time to wright. 0:12:58.240 --> 0:13:00.240 So I just kind of like was walking on the 0:13:00.240 --> 0:13:02.280 stage and I was like, oh, I give myself a 0:13:02.360 --> 0:13:05.480 B minus C plus you know. But I will say 0:13:05.800 --> 0:13:08.439 that what I really liked was so many people recorded 0:13:08.960 --> 0:13:11.679 and posted on IG and I got to see myself 0:13:11.720 --> 0:13:16.840 and I said, wow, it was more I guess epic. 0:13:16.960 --> 0:13:19.360 Then I could physically see because to. 0:13:19.360 --> 0:13:25.160 See great yourself like you yesn't present the attendee, which 0:13:25.240 --> 0:13:26.920 may be totally different. 0:13:26.880 --> 0:13:28.800 The girl I mean, and I can hear my I 0:13:28.800 --> 0:13:31.160 was like okay, and I didn't look nervous like like 0:13:31.240 --> 0:13:34.000 I although I felt it like you know, but looking 0:13:34.040 --> 0:13:36.200 at like looking at the videos and I was like, oh, wow, 0:13:36.200 --> 0:13:38.200 did you seem because I was like walking across the 0:13:38.200 --> 0:13:41.320 stage look at people and I said, not you being 0:13:41.320 --> 0:13:45.120 out of body and somehow like like so it just 0:13:46.120 --> 0:13:48.080 it went like so much better than I thought, like 0:13:48.240 --> 0:13:50.160 re looking at all the videos and everything else, like 0:13:50.360 --> 0:13:52.200 it went so much better than I thought. So then 0:13:52.240 --> 0:13:55.560 I gave myself a nice B plus a minus. And 0:13:55.600 --> 0:13:57.480 I didn't look nervous at all, and I wore like 0:13:57.480 --> 0:13:59.400 I'm so glad, like I I just I went to 0:13:59.440 --> 0:14:02.559 this African street festival thing in Newark and I bought 0:14:02.559 --> 0:14:05.680 this like dress by this African vendor that was like 0:14:05.720 --> 0:14:08.280 African print. I had like these really like swirly sleeves 0:14:08.320 --> 0:14:09.360 and I was like, you know, I think I'm gonna 0:14:09.360 --> 0:14:11.520 wear this and what I liked about it too is 0:14:11.520 --> 0:14:13.360 that you could. I could wear like my cute sandals 0:14:13.360 --> 0:14:15.679 with it, so that way I didn't want to have 0:14:15.679 --> 0:14:17.440 to wear heels. I'm like, I almost tripped coming up 0:14:17.480 --> 0:14:19.760 the steps, so I was like, I'm glad I had 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:23.760 like my sandals on. So I felt very comfortable, and yeah, 0:14:23.800 --> 0:14:26.600 it looked amazing. The makeup artist did her thing. I 0:14:26.640 --> 0:14:29.200 told her this eight thirty am makeup actually has to 0:14:29.280 --> 0:14:33.760 last me till tonight, and so it did. She did 0:14:33.760 --> 0:14:35.440 such a good job with my face, so I felt 0:14:35.520 --> 0:14:38.640 very comfortable. Thankfully, I had just gotten my hair retightened 0:14:38.640 --> 0:14:41.040 because I had literally an afro with locks, and the 0:14:41.160 --> 0:14:43.880 night before my Katab who tightens my hair, was like, hey, 0:14:44.080 --> 0:14:47.480 are you free? So thankfully, I mean, because what you 0:14:47.480 --> 0:14:49.320 don't want to do? You know, you're because little You're 0:14:49.400 --> 0:14:51.360 like this little ant on the stage and then they 0:14:51.400 --> 0:14:54.520 have the big the big prompters and so it's like 0:14:54.560 --> 0:14:56.160 all up in your face. So everybody would have seen 0:14:56.960 --> 0:15:01.760 my fro, my undone hair on the edge, and so it's. 0:15:01.600 --> 0:15:03.080 Just me, I need to go on your own. 0:15:03.440 --> 0:15:04.760 It was just well I put it. I made it 0:15:04.760 --> 0:15:06.960 a highlight. So we're obviously gonna do some posts and 0:15:06.960 --> 0:15:08.560 stuff too. So you'll you know, in the next week 0:15:08.640 --> 0:15:11.560 or so today tomorrow. But I made it a highlight, 0:15:11.600 --> 0:15:14.720 but it just I don't think I still have fully 0:15:15.280 --> 0:15:19.480 absorbed like the epicness of that, you know, because I 0:15:19.520 --> 0:15:22.040 was sitting backstage and I said, Tiffany, there are like 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:25.160 forty thousand women out there and you're you look like. 0:15:25.120 --> 0:15:32.240 A fucking African goddess. The hair, I love it, it's 0:15:32.240 --> 0:15:33.720 like off the shoulder. 0:15:34.960 --> 0:15:39.960 Yes, yeah, I just I still haven't absorbed it because 0:15:40.000 --> 0:15:43.360 I'm like you, all the people, do you see someone. 0:15:43.160 --> 0:15:46.000 Like the actually ship you're under like you didn't ship 0:15:46.000 --> 0:15:48.040 your underpants on stage? Then you get an eight of this, 0:15:48.760 --> 0:15:52.960 because I want to ship my underpants just looking at 0:15:53.000 --> 0:15:56.000 this and you walk by your goddamn self, you and 0:15:56.040 --> 0:15:58.320 the Holy Spirit and no one else. 0:15:58.680 --> 0:16:01.800 I know, honestly, I will, like I said, I will 0:16:01.840 --> 0:16:05.720 say that looking at it from the perspective of the audience, 0:16:05.760 --> 0:16:07.840 it looks crazy. It didn't look like that to me. 0:16:08.160 --> 0:16:10.120 It just looked like you're in this space and there's 0:16:10.360 --> 0:16:14.120 multi colored dots everywhere. So I couldn't really you know 0:16:14.120 --> 0:16:15.600 what I mean. So it didn't give me the chance 0:16:15.640 --> 0:16:17.120 to be as freaked out as I probably should have 0:16:17.120 --> 0:16:17.680 been thank. 0:16:17.480 --> 0:16:20.280 God you're working the stage. There's no there's a podium, 0:16:20.280 --> 0:16:20.920 but you don't care. 0:16:21.280 --> 0:16:29.480 You're yeah, I know, girl, I was sashaying. I walked up, 0:16:29.520 --> 0:16:31.320 I said, not me being Beyonce. That's why I said. 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:33.280 When I got the bike and I walked up, I 0:16:33.320 --> 0:16:36.960 was just like, hey, y'all, Wow, this is amazing. And so. 0:16:38.400 --> 0:16:39.920 That's how I know you must have not known an 0:16:39.960 --> 0:16:42.160 advance because you didn't give me any advance warning to 0:16:42.200 --> 0:16:43.400 know that this shrip was happening. 0:16:43.720 --> 0:16:48.680 Girl, I had no idea. They're like, okay, my I 0:16:48.680 --> 0:16:50.160 didn't know, would you have? 0:16:50.640 --> 0:16:52.360 What did that do to you in terms of like 0:16:52.400 --> 0:16:56.640 your team negotiating your fee for that, because that's very 0:16:56.680 --> 0:16:59.320 different than a panel. Did they did they try to 0:16:59.320 --> 0:17:03.760 get a discount like last minute que cute? Because I 0:17:03.760 --> 0:17:04.160 don't mind. 0:17:05.680 --> 0:17:08.800 Yeah, here's the thing, like you know, like I knew 0:17:08.840 --> 0:17:10.919 I want to do women all because it's a huge opportunity. 0:17:11.560 --> 0:17:13.240 So I just kind of was like, you know, a 0:17:13.240 --> 0:17:15.520 friend of mine was on like the planning committee and 0:17:15.560 --> 0:17:17.679 I had missed out on the year before, and so 0:17:17.720 --> 0:17:19.080 I was like, whatever it takes, girl, I want to 0:17:19.119 --> 0:17:20.760 do it. So I just said whatever that looks like. 0:17:20.760 --> 0:17:22.320 So they did pay and it was a cute coin. 0:17:22.760 --> 0:17:25.720 Maybe not thirty eight thousand people cute colling, but a 0:17:25.720 --> 0:17:28.240 cute coin nonetheless, And I don't think that's that's what 0:17:28.280 --> 0:17:31.359 they were trying to do. I just think that I 0:17:31.400 --> 0:17:35.639 don't know. It was the CEO CEO of t Iaa 0:17:35.760 --> 0:17:39.119 to Shanda, the Shanda, she was backstage and she she 0:17:39.160 --> 0:17:40.760 did one after me, so she too. At first I 0:17:40.760 --> 0:17:42.760 thought maybe they forgot to tell me, but they forgot 0:17:42.800 --> 0:17:46.320 to tell her too. She was like wait what So 0:17:46.359 --> 0:17:47.280 I was like, okay, good, not. 0:17:47.400 --> 0:17:51.320 Just me, Oh god, they said, but they said we'll 0:17:51.359 --> 0:17:54.280 put to Yeah. At least it happened at the right 0:17:54.280 --> 0:17:56.040 time for Yes. 0:17:56.080 --> 0:17:57.800 It was. And honestly, the thing is. 0:17:58.080 --> 0:17:59.439 That is my perfect on the moment. 0:18:00.880 --> 0:18:04.119 Yes, it was a room full of amazing, beautiful black women. 0:18:04.359 --> 0:18:06.399 So I mean, to me, I think it would have 0:18:06.440 --> 0:18:08.160 been more freaked out if it was not my audience, 0:18:08.480 --> 0:18:10.960 because you know, you're standing in front of like black 0:18:11.000 --> 0:18:13.080 women who are literally just there to support you. And 0:18:13.320 --> 0:18:14.960 the way people have the message to me that was 0:18:15.000 --> 0:18:17.560 so good. You know the steps you told me, I 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:20.720 wrote them down. You were fun ger, you look beautiful. 0:18:20.720 --> 0:18:23.640 I mean the girl. The edification. I mean it's top tier. 0:18:25.480 --> 0:18:28.080 Right, and they were already primed because this is a 0:18:28.160 --> 0:18:30.399 multis conference. I need to get mind. I know a 0:18:30.440 --> 0:18:32.080 couple of people who went to Evolve, and I'm like, 0:18:32.160 --> 0:18:34.320 it's like the essence fest of the Fall is. 0:18:34.480 --> 0:18:39.000 Yes, it is like and walking through I can't take you. 0:18:39.040 --> 0:18:41.800 I took so many pictures, so many hugs, Like there 0:18:41.840 --> 0:18:44.000 is no better audience than black women. I'm going to 0:18:44.400 --> 0:18:47.000 be honest, and because they're just there's just so the 0:18:47.080 --> 0:18:48.680 kind of love you get. I was like, I don't 0:18:48.680 --> 0:18:50.760 care what kind of bad moods you in, not today's sis. 0:18:50.760 --> 0:18:54.440 They're just like, thank you so much. Me and my daughter, 0:18:54.600 --> 0:18:57.119 my grandma loves you. It was just it was just 0:18:57.160 --> 0:18:59.399 a day of like love. And I just was like, 0:18:59.640 --> 0:19:05.640 people look at me, double take Like, so I took 0:19:05.680 --> 0:19:09.879 so many pictures and hugged so many people and cried 0:19:09.920 --> 0:19:11.639 with so many women who were like, you know, I 0:19:11.720 --> 0:19:13.440 was not doing well and then I read your book 0:19:13.520 --> 0:19:16.040 or whatever, and so it just was like just a 0:19:16.040 --> 0:19:18.399 beautiful display. And like I said, I haven't got a 0:19:18.480 --> 0:19:20.679 chance to really like absorb the fact that like you 0:19:20.760 --> 0:19:22.520 really got on stage and spoke in front of all 0:19:22.520 --> 0:19:25.520 these people, Tiffany, and you didn't faint or pass out. 0:19:25.920 --> 0:19:28.879