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Speaker 1: Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife,

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Speaker 1: and she couldn't. She cleaned and cared for her children

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Speaker 1: and the man of the house, and of course she

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Speaker 1: didn't talk back. She was both obedient and soft by nature.

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Speaker 1: She was a good woman who always made good choices.

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Speaker 2: We're good mom's bad choices.

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Speaker 3: Who's single mom who said fuck the patriarchy, shared all

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Speaker 3: their bad choices and found out they were so bad

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Speaker 3: after all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties.

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Speaker 2: Sit back and enjoy the ride.

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Speaker 4: I can.

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Speaker 3: Welcome back to good Mom's bad choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 3: I'm Jamila. I'm you's so spicy, you know, Jamila. If

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Speaker 3: you're nasty, not to be confused with Jamilla. Not to

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Speaker 3: be confused with Jamilla. You know, I went my whole

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Speaker 3: life mostly being called Jamilla.

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Speaker 5: I think when I met you was when you find

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Speaker 5: when you finally stopped. I think because I was like,

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Speaker 5: why is everyone calling you that? I thought your name

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Speaker 5: was Jamila. You're like, you're right, finally. I mean, I

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Speaker 5: grew up with a valet shit.

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Speaker 3: My teachers called me Jamila, and then when I tell

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Speaker 3: people Jamila, they're like, oh, really, I'm like, bitch, it's not.

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Speaker 4: That different, you guys. So it's beautiful. It means beautiful, Jamila, Jamila.

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Speaker 4: Sorry to really get it in there. Happy hump day, bitches,

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Speaker 4: Happy hump Day. How are you feeling?

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Speaker 1: I feel good.

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Speaker 5: So if you're watching this YouTube, this episode's my first

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Speaker 5: episode with my new hair cut.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, sure hair, you don't care.

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Speaker 1: I cut off all my hair.

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Speaker 5: I'm a bald, batty bit and I'm blonde also, and

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Speaker 5: I tried to put some pink in it last night.

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Speaker 1: I went to the gym and I put this like

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Speaker 1: color deposit.

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Speaker 4: As a gym No.

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Speaker 1: No.

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Speaker 5: I went to the gym and I came back and

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Speaker 5: then I put this color deposit in because my hair

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Speaker 5: is like it was like an ashy blonde. It like

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Speaker 4: I fell Oh it was conditioner.

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Speaker 1: It's like deposit.

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Speaker 4: You need to get a wrint well.

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Speaker 5: I usually when my hair is red red. Remember when

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Speaker 5: I have that red It's the same thing that I used.

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Speaker 5: But anyway, I fell asleep.

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Speaker 4: Go jazzing. You need to go old school. The pink bottle.

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Speaker 5: I was just this was my last attempt at deciding

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Speaker 5: let me this day blonde, because I was like, I'm

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Speaker 5: not done, it's stressful.

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Speaker 1: Now it just wash I wash out. I look like

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Speaker 1: a fucking piece of cotton.

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Speaker 4: Can you gotta put on a full face? Like every time.

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Speaker 5: Bronzer, I look a fucking I look beige, like a

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Speaker 5: beige worm. So anyway, I was like, maybe if I

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Speaker 5: put a little pink in there, it'll just jazz it

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Speaker 1: I think, moment it.

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Speaker 5: Looks now, I'm counting my days of blonde. I might

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Speaker 3: I mean, the good thing about having short hair is

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Speaker 3: you can.

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Speaker 4: Let graw, you can go brown.

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Speaker 3: I I love it and it looks great. I met

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Speaker 3: we started the show, you had a shorter hair.

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Speaker 5: I did have should I had cut my hair and

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Speaker 5: then I was like a year and a half into

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Speaker 3: I was getting a little bit of I cut my

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Speaker 3: And then I was like looking at other girls and

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Speaker 5: I'm already looking at Instagram reels of bitches with curly

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Speaker 3: It's a little bit of mourning when you see people

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Speaker 1: I can't just slip back anymore.

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Speaker 4: And I'm just like, there's.

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Speaker 1: The right decision now, I did.

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Speaker 2: I'm kidding.

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Speaker 4: Hair grows back.

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Speaker 1: I love it.

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Speaker 4: I love it.

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Speaker 5: I love it when it's done. I don't like it

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Speaker 5: when it's not done. I have to like put some

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Speaker 5: Nairobi in this bitch, and then.

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Speaker 4: I mean I roby. I went.

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Speaker 3: I literally waited in front of the hair supply at

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Speaker 4: For the open the door.

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Speaker 1: And I ordered two bottles of Nairobi and the big refillable.

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Speaker 3: I need to get the big refillable because it's always out,

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Speaker 3: and there was fourteen ninety nine.

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Speaker 4: I was like, do I need to get two?

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Speaker 3: I am yeah, Now I was talk about Nightrobi. Shout

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Speaker 3: out to Nirobi. This is not an act.

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Speaker 1: Ivy shortcuts around the glow globe.

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Speaker 3: You know how often I am like taking Nairobi worldwide

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Speaker 3: because if I don't have Nairobi on, she really does.

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Speaker 5: She has a little plastic fucking saran wrap around it

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Speaker 5: with a because it rubber band and she's traveling to

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Speaker 5: Bali Costa Rica with this fucking like four inches of

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Speaker 5: Nairobi left to last for rides.

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Speaker 4: Short hair, it's necessary, bitch.

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Speaker 1: This is not an AD.

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Speaker 4: It's not an AD. But if you have short hair,

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Speaker 4: you don't have Nirobi. Gets a Nairobi, bitch.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, don't do that other ship. That Airobi is the

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Speaker 4: There's I've had other ones, but I've tried. I don't

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Speaker 4: hit the same.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: Anyway, anyway, how are you?

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Speaker 3: I'm I'm good, just grooven, I am. I cursed Luna

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Speaker 3: out this morning, real bad?

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Speaker 1: Oh nice?

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Speaker 4: I you know that eleven is hitting a little different

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Speaker 3: Yesterday she asked to go to get a donut before school,

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Speaker 3: I was go say she introduced her, and then she

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Speaker 3: can okay, oh yeah, this is yeah, let's introduce your guess.

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Speaker 3: Because we've been talking the whole time. I forgot we haven't.

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Speaker 4: Introduced our guests that we have been high key stalking

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Speaker 4: for maybe a year and a half.

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Speaker 1: Maybe longer.

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Speaker 5: I was looking back on our d MS and I

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Speaker 5: a moment. And then I was like, you know what,

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Speaker 5: when it's aligned, it will be aligned. And we've chatted

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Speaker 5: in the DMS. We always wish each other happy birthday

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Speaker 5: because we share the same motherfucking birthday, my scorpio sist.

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Speaker 2: And so I'm just so excited to welcome to the show, Mama.

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Speaker 5: Radio host DJ oh Yes, DJ Yes, all the things,

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Speaker 5: Miss Abby Dela Rosa.

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Speaker 4: Hello, I mean you don't have to be down, yay.

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Speaker 1: I'm so happy to be here me too. I just

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Speaker 1: want to add in the Nairobi it's an actual muss

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Speaker 1: it's an actual yeah, like you can't. There's no other moose, setting, moose,

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Speaker 1: whatever it is that can work. It gives that shine,

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Speaker 1: It gives the shine, it gives the lay, it gives everything.

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Speaker 4: This is my fourth time just adding Nairobi. No washing it.

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Speaker 3: Probably I need to wash it at this point, but

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Speaker 3: it's still looking okay.

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Speaker 1: No, it looks beautiful.

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Speaker 3: And I hope that black people own Nairobi because it's

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Speaker 3: but we're gonna attack them. And can you just send

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Speaker 3: us each lifetime supply?

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Speaker 4: Thanks?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I buy the same amount, the two bottles with

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Speaker 1: the refillable. But you look so beautiful with your hair short.

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Speaker 1: I think that it was the best decision because you're

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Speaker 1: like facial structure. Everybody's facial structure. Hair is meant for

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Speaker 1: talking face. The face cards aren't declining.

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Speaker 3: You cannot rock short hair if you don't have a

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Speaker 3: pretty face. Yeah, it's like an end must. So if

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Speaker 3: anything your nineties, fine.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely, thank you guys for having me. I'm so happy

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Speaker 1: to chat with you guys. I've actually looked up to

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Speaker 1: also like how honest and real it is. I value

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Speaker 1: I also love women like you who just aren't afraid

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Speaker 1: to just live differently. So I really value and appreciate

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Speaker 1: this platform you guys have created.

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Speaker 4: We rarely get shut it out for our nastiness. I

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Speaker 1: I think that was one of the things that really

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Speaker 1: saying all the right things, and especially for me and

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Speaker 1: sex experiences or you know, just all the fun things

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Speaker 1: that life is really about out and I loved it

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Speaker 1: so much. And when we had first discussed about me

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Speaker 1: you the other day, I was like, I'm ready to

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Speaker 1: say it all. She was like I'm ready. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I was like, oh come on, man. I was like

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Speaker 1: she's like, when you're ready, I'm like, I'm ready, let's

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Speaker 1: just talk, let's do this. She's like, okay, let's figure

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Speaker 1: it out. So I'm so happy to be here you guys,

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Speaker 1: thank you for having me. Thank you course.

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Speaker 3: And the thing is, you guys, are you listening to

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Speaker 3: You're bound to say the wrong thing, right. We are

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Speaker 3: imperfect people. We are not perfect people. It's going to

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Speaker 3: hurt somebody's feelings. It's not for everybody. So being like

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Speaker 3: I was thinking about respectability politics is bullshit, Like you

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Speaker 3: just have to be yourself.

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Speaker 4: And sometimes you might have to apologize and sometimes you grow.

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Speaker 3: And sometimes that's how I felt two years ago, and

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Speaker 3: today I don't feel that way and I learned or

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Speaker 3: whatever the fuck. But either way, we're human and we're

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Speaker 3: allowed to fuck up, and we're allowed to be authentic

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Speaker 5: So I'm just really excited to hear your story and

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Speaker 3: We've made all such a bad choice Honestly, I feel

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Speaker 6: Bad mom, not a bad mom, but a bad mom.

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Speaker 4: I'm living. I have a color. Yeah.

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Speaker 3: So yesterday Luna said she wants a donut and I

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Speaker 4: I was like, how was it? And she was knocked

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Speaker 4: So then I was like what the I was like,

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Speaker 3: I was like, let me tell you something that Philly mom,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well, I didn't know she was from Philly.

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Speaker 4: My parents are from the valley.

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Speaker 4: Like am I videotaping her too much that she's afraid

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Speaker 4: I was like, are you fucking crazy?

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Speaker 3: Orlando was like, you should have snatched the doughnut. I

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Speaker 4: Because I was still mad.

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Speaker 4: Smackloe shouldn't know that I could beat her up.

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Speaker 1: It's okay, that wasn't that bad.

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Speaker 5: You just had too maybe even tell her like, you

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Speaker 3: She yeah, and that's that's what I told her. I

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Speaker 1: Yeah, girl, I think just all around, it was probably

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Speaker 3: I was like, girl, So I was like, damn, I

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Speaker 4: Yes, I did.

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Speaker 1: Sorry, you guys made up right.

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Speaker 4: She kissed me before she got the car.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, she loves you.

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Speaker 3: I'm gonna go take food to her BSU meeting after this,

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Speaker 4: But everything's fine. I was.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, so, whatever you think you're about to get into,

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Speaker 3: news for you. It ain't happening like I was, like,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, you're you seem like an amazing mom. Both

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Speaker 4: Through another thing. I can't even like, yeah, just.

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Speaker 2: See you know your aero parents.

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Speaker 1: I can see her creepy because my clothes small, but

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Speaker 3: No, no, I mean we advocate for nipples making appearance

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Speaker 1: It only counts if you see nipples. So if you're

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Speaker 1: I have. I definitely crashed out this week.

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Speaker 2: Tell me about your crash out.

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Speaker 1: So my crashout was valid. I feel like it's been

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Speaker 1: I'm going to disturb your piece. Scorpio energy, big scorpio energy.

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Speaker 1: And I'm in that era right now where it's like,

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Speaker 4: Not gonna rat the car.

442
00:17:38,800 --> 00:17:40,760
Speaker 1: I was like, he he could drive wherever he needs

443
00:17:40,800 --> 00:17:43,159
Speaker 1: to drive, but I will grab a uber. But no,

444
00:17:43,240 --> 00:17:45,560
Speaker 1: he diserveed my piece and my atmosphere. I'm disturbing his

445
00:17:45,640 --> 00:17:46,919
Speaker 1: piece and his atmosphere.

446
00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:48,240
Speaker 4: So did you did you sit in the car?

447
00:17:48,240 --> 00:17:49,479
Speaker 1: And I did? Yes, I did.

448
00:17:49,920 --> 00:17:51,280
Speaker 4: They were racked. No, I didn't.

449
00:17:51,800 --> 00:17:54,080
Speaker 1: We sat there. I sat there and I just did

450
00:17:54,119 --> 00:17:57,280
Speaker 1: not move like I was like in full blown like no,

451
00:17:57,440 --> 00:17:59,000
Speaker 1: and that was my crush out. I don't think it

452
00:17:59,040 --> 00:18:01,600
Speaker 1: was that bad because I could have actually like thrown

453
00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:04,760
Speaker 1: shit and hit shit and broke a window, but I

454
00:18:04,800 --> 00:18:07,119
Speaker 1: just sat there. I did my silent protest. You know

455
00:18:07,240 --> 00:18:09,480
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be here. That was a cutesy crash.

456
00:18:09,680 --> 00:18:11,359
Speaker 4: This was your water sign things. I'm like, la la

457
00:18:11,440 --> 00:18:13,720
Speaker 4: la la la secho I can go like.

458
00:18:13,920 --> 00:18:20,600
Speaker 1: Very I don't like when people have no like awareness

459
00:18:20,720 --> 00:18:24,719
Speaker 1: awareness and just no accountability of like coming in and

460
00:18:24,720 --> 00:18:29,320
Speaker 1: disturbing someone's peace, Like if I'm actually respecting myself and

461
00:18:29,640 --> 00:18:33,720
Speaker 1: being silent and like saving myself from going off because

462
00:18:33,760 --> 00:18:36,720
Speaker 1: I know that I could stay and say some real

463
00:18:36,840 --> 00:18:40,680
Speaker 1: fucked up ship and I'm being silent. Don't come in

464
00:18:40,720 --> 00:18:44,359
Speaker 1: and poke the bear, yeah, because if you poke the bear,

465
00:18:45,040 --> 00:18:49,200
Speaker 1: then it's gonna get yes. And I've been really trying

466
00:18:49,200 --> 00:18:53,760
Speaker 1: my best because I used to be an extremely emotional personally.

467
00:18:54,200 --> 00:18:58,600
Speaker 1: Oh my god, anytime I felt offended or disrespected, I

468
00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:01,880
Speaker 1: would just go off and go off in the worst way.

469
00:19:02,119 --> 00:19:05,800
Speaker 1: But it wasn't until my last relationship where I realized

470
00:19:05,840 --> 00:19:08,919
Speaker 1: I really did some damage, like verbally, so I was like,

471
00:19:08,960 --> 00:19:09,840
Speaker 1: I really need to.

472
00:19:09,840 --> 00:19:11,520
Speaker 4: Learn He didn't make it out, Okay.

473
00:19:13,080 --> 00:19:15,600
Speaker 1: I didn't realize he did it until like years later

474
00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:19,360
Speaker 1: when we finally had like that healing conversation of like, yeah,

475
00:19:19,400 --> 00:19:21,199
Speaker 1: you've said some really fucked up ship to me, and

476
00:19:21,200 --> 00:19:23,479
Speaker 1: I was like, actually, I owe you an apology yea

477
00:19:23,760 --> 00:19:26,680
Speaker 1: for that? Yeah, big of you. Yeah, No, I really didn't.

478
00:19:26,680 --> 00:19:30,080
Speaker 1: He was like I really needed to hear that, and

479
00:19:30,119 --> 00:19:33,080
Speaker 1: I really appreciate that. So I didn't realize how bad

480
00:19:33,119 --> 00:19:34,679
Speaker 1: it was until that conversation.

481
00:19:34,960 --> 00:19:38,240
Speaker 5: But yeah, well, you know it sounds like your crash

482
00:19:38,280 --> 00:19:41,240
Speaker 5: out was valid. I as a good mom. Bad choices

483
00:19:41,520 --> 00:19:42,600
Speaker 5: validate your of crash out.

484
00:19:42,680 --> 00:19:46,040
Speaker 4: Its improved your cushats approved.

485
00:19:47,520 --> 00:19:50,440
Speaker 3: Bad choice, bad choice, actually good choice.

486
00:19:51,200 --> 00:19:52,000
Speaker 1: I'm here to tell you both.

487
00:19:55,359 --> 00:19:56,200
Speaker 4: If your friends don't.

488
00:19:56,040 --> 00:19:58,280
Speaker 3: Tell you that your crashes out, your crash out is valid,

489
00:19:58,280 --> 00:19:59,440
Speaker 3: then I guess your friends.

490
00:19:59,600 --> 00:20:01,439
Speaker 1: Yeah. Well, when we went inside, my sister and I

491
00:20:01,480 --> 00:20:03,520
Speaker 1: we went inside, and she was like, look, this just

492
00:20:03,560 --> 00:20:05,919
Speaker 1: has to be different. I just started laughing and she

493
00:20:06,040 --> 00:20:08,119
Speaker 1: started laughing. You know, She's like, why are you laughing?

494
00:20:08,119 --> 00:20:11,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't feel bad about my Like I

495
00:20:11,800 --> 00:20:15,320
Speaker 1: genuinely I really needed that. I feel amazing about my

496
00:20:15,400 --> 00:20:16,000
Speaker 1: fucking crash.

497
00:20:17,119 --> 00:20:19,320
Speaker 3: I'll do something and I'd be like, I actually I

498
00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:20,760
Speaker 3: don't feel sorry at all.

499
00:20:20,960 --> 00:20:23,879
Speaker 1: Yeah that's me too. Yeah, yeah, did you have a

500
00:20:23,880 --> 00:20:24,560
Speaker 1: bad choice?

501
00:20:25,080 --> 00:20:26,560
Speaker 2: Let me say, what was my Do have any bad

502
00:20:26,640 --> 00:20:27,480
Speaker 2: choices this week?

503
00:20:27,800 --> 00:20:28,040
Speaker 6: Hmm?

504
00:20:34,119 --> 00:20:34,920
Speaker 2: I know I did.

505
00:20:35,040 --> 00:20:38,639
Speaker 5: I've had like two arguments, okay, and I'm trying to

506
00:20:38,680 --> 00:20:43,080
Speaker 5: think with my daughter if I had any bad moments.

507
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:46,480
Speaker 5: I think I told it last week. Actually it was

508
00:20:46,520 --> 00:20:50,720
Speaker 5: the gun thing. Maybe not never mind, Oh what happened?

509
00:20:51,280 --> 00:20:52,800
Speaker 1: I told her a few episodes. I'm just trying to think,

510
00:20:52,800 --> 00:20:53,880
Speaker 1: like what am I? What are my bad choice?

511
00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:54,280
Speaker 4: My daughter?

512
00:20:54,320 --> 00:20:56,080
Speaker 5: Like I thought we saw the thoughts one broken, so

513
00:20:56,080 --> 00:20:57,360
Speaker 5: I pulled out a gun and then she got really

514
00:20:57,640 --> 00:21:00,280
Speaker 5: scared and like I was like telling her children.

515
00:21:00,359 --> 00:21:01,360
Speaker 1: And she wasn't chilling the fuck out.

516
00:21:01,400 --> 00:21:02,840
Speaker 5: And then it was like I was like this could

517
00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:04,520
Speaker 5: go bad, Like I cannot be arguing with.

518
00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:05,840
Speaker 1: You when I'm trying to protect us.

519
00:21:06,119 --> 00:21:08,880
Speaker 5: Yes, to come to find out, my massage table fell

520
00:21:08,920 --> 00:21:10,760
Speaker 5: downstairs and everything was fine.

521
00:21:10,880 --> 00:21:12,400
Speaker 4: No one broke in stop.

522
00:21:13,680 --> 00:21:14,720
Speaker 1: But it was a good learning lesson.

523
00:21:14,720 --> 00:21:17,360
Speaker 5: Okay, but no, I don't think I have any bad

524
00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:21,200
Speaker 5: choices off the top of my head right now. But anyway, Abby,

525
00:21:21,200 --> 00:21:26,600
Speaker 5: I want to know more about Abby and who you are.

526
00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:28,240
Speaker 1: Where'd you come from? Where I know that?

527
00:21:28,400 --> 00:21:31,119
Speaker 5: Like you know, it's so funny because you popped on

528
00:21:31,480 --> 00:21:34,640
Speaker 5: you popped I guess out again when you entered into

529
00:21:34,640 --> 00:21:36,760
Speaker 5: your relationship with Nick and so I didn't know that

530
00:21:36,840 --> 00:21:38,600
Speaker 5: you were from radio. And then when I realized you

531
00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:40,200
Speaker 5: were from radio, I was like, I know that name,

532
00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:41,679
Speaker 5: and I was telling me. I was like, you know

533
00:21:41,720 --> 00:21:45,959
Speaker 5: why because in radio we don't see you. Well, now

534
00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:48,040
Speaker 5: it's a little different because of YouTube. Yeah, but like

535
00:21:48,160 --> 00:21:50,600
Speaker 5: I never saw who you were, but I knew your name.

536
00:21:50,960 --> 00:21:53,520
Speaker 5: So I'm just curious, like even before radio, where did

537
00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:56,840
Speaker 5: you grow up? Give us like a little history of you. Okay,

538
00:21:56,920 --> 00:21:59,680
Speaker 5: a little history. I am from East La.

539
00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:03,199
Speaker 1: I'm from Whittier, but I was born in Paramount, so

540
00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:07,920
Speaker 1: I've always been like a La girl. My parents are

541
00:22:08,320 --> 00:22:12,240
Speaker 1: from Mexico, and I am full at the Mexican American

542
00:22:12,560 --> 00:22:17,639
Speaker 1: and I just grew a love for radio in high school.

543
00:22:18,160 --> 00:22:20,800
Speaker 1: And I was a cheerleader, I was a tennis player,

544
00:22:21,119 --> 00:22:25,040
Speaker 1: I did all the things. I had a really good foundation,

545
00:22:25,760 --> 00:22:29,560
Speaker 1: parents still together, super religious background, all the things. But

546
00:22:29,600 --> 00:22:31,800
Speaker 1: I feel like that was necessary to create who I

547
00:22:31,800 --> 00:22:36,120
Speaker 1: am today. No Christian, but I was Apostolic, so I

548
00:22:36,200 --> 00:22:38,960
Speaker 1: was like not allowed to cut my hair, wear pants

549
00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:42,240
Speaker 1: like we did, like the long sleeve thing. So I

550
00:22:42,280 --> 00:22:44,400
Speaker 1: grew up in a really religious background. But I had

551
00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:47,760
Speaker 1: really beautiful parents that were just on more of like

552
00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:51,080
Speaker 1: this is what we chose. Eventually, you can have a

553
00:22:51,160 --> 00:22:53,520
Speaker 1: choice for yourself and choose what works for you. We're

554
00:22:53,560 --> 00:22:56,639
Speaker 1: gonna love you and support you either way you choose

555
00:22:56,680 --> 00:22:59,560
Speaker 1: to be so or whatever you choose to believe. In

556
00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:01,880
Speaker 1: and things like that. I mean, granted, it was still

557
00:23:01,920 --> 00:23:07,000
Speaker 1: really difficult when choices were made, but they have always

558
00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:10,520
Speaker 1: loved and supported me. And when I was in high school,

559
00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:14,400
Speaker 1: that's when I found out that I really loved voice,

560
00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:17,199
Speaker 1: Like I really fell in love with who I was

561
00:23:17,240 --> 00:23:19,040
Speaker 1: listening to on the radio, like I felt like I

562
00:23:19,080 --> 00:23:22,680
Speaker 1: knew them. I felt like I loved the parties they

563
00:23:22,720 --> 00:23:24,959
Speaker 1: created in your mind and you know the way that

564
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,560
Speaker 1: you can feel like, oh my god, you know me,

565
00:23:27,840 --> 00:23:31,120
Speaker 1: like you know my story and things. And that's when

566
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 1: I made a choice that I wanted to do radio

567
00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:37,880
Speaker 1: when I graduated high school. And you knew really early.

568
00:23:38,040 --> 00:23:41,320
Speaker 1: Oh I knew so early, Yes, you or Tie specifically

569
00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:44,480
Speaker 1: who's now back in radio. But she was the afternoon

570
00:23:44,520 --> 00:23:47,600
Speaker 1: girl and just I would catch her like in between

571
00:23:47,640 --> 00:23:50,760
Speaker 1: practices and things like that, and I just always knew

572
00:23:51,160 --> 00:23:53,520
Speaker 1: I wanted to be like the homegirl for everybody and

573
00:23:53,680 --> 00:23:56,879
Speaker 1: the voice that everybody felt like they knew. So my aunt,

574
00:23:56,920 --> 00:23:59,800
Speaker 1: who was really wild at the time, she did raves

575
00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:02,720
Speaker 1: and was like full eightm queen. She would take me

576
00:24:02,880 --> 00:24:05,560
Speaker 1: to like all her raves and all that. And there

577
00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:09,040
Speaker 1: was this DJ named Richard Vision, and he she was

578
00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:11,080
Speaker 1: like my niece wants to be in radio. She's like,

579
00:24:11,119 --> 00:24:13,200
Speaker 1: what advice can you give her? And he was like,

580
00:24:13,440 --> 00:24:16,240
Speaker 1: she needs to grab a mic, and if I close

581
00:24:16,320 --> 00:24:18,639
Speaker 1: my eyes, I should know who I'm talking, like I

582
00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:21,320
Speaker 1: should know whose voice it is, and that needs to

583
00:24:21,359 --> 00:24:23,959
Speaker 1: be hurt, like practice on her voice, and this and

584
00:24:24,000 --> 00:24:25,920
Speaker 1: the third and I just remember exactly what I was wearing.

585
00:24:25,960 --> 00:24:29,679
Speaker 1: I was wearing like this green olive jumpsuit from Forever

586
00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:32,120
Speaker 1: twenty one, this big owl necklace. You know when those

587
00:24:32,119 --> 00:24:35,040
Speaker 1: big statement pieces were in. I was wearing that and

588
00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:37,880
Speaker 1: she just I remember getting that advice and being like, Okay, yeah,

589
00:24:37,880 --> 00:24:40,320
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do it. And then I went to radio

590
00:24:40,680 --> 00:24:44,880
Speaker 1: broadcasting school and then I got my first job placement

591
00:24:45,000 --> 00:24:48,240
Speaker 1: at a Spanish radio station, and then that happened to

592
00:24:48,240 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 1: be in the same hallways as Parowano six. And then

593
00:24:51,400 --> 00:24:54,359
Speaker 1: there I moved to Saint Louis. I was a Starbucks girly.

594
00:24:54,400 --> 00:24:56,920
Speaker 1: I was a brief stuff for you years. Yes, it

595
00:24:57,080 --> 00:24:59,719
Speaker 1: was a gross of Starbucks. I moved to Saint Louis

596
00:24:59,760 --> 00:25:02,840
Speaker 1: with Starbucks still, so I was able to move around

597
00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:06,160
Speaker 1: and keep my barista job. And this transferred. My sister

598
00:25:06,240 --> 00:25:08,520
Speaker 1: went to Bible College out in Saint Louis, and we

599
00:25:08,640 --> 00:25:11,640
Speaker 1: had had a really tragic loss in our family, so

600
00:25:11,880 --> 00:25:14,120
Speaker 1: I felt like I needed to reset and just kind

601
00:25:14,119 --> 00:25:16,959
Speaker 1: of be closer to her. So I moved to Saint Louis,

602
00:25:17,119 --> 00:25:20,160
Speaker 1: and then when I moved back, I got a call

603
00:25:20,280 --> 00:25:22,560
Speaker 1: from Power of Six asking if I was so interested

604
00:25:22,600 --> 00:25:24,679
Speaker 1: in the Street team, not in voice work or anything,

605
00:25:24,680 --> 00:25:26,720
Speaker 1: and I was like, yeah, absolutely, because at the time

606
00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:29,760
Speaker 1: they had like a superstar street team. So I was

607
00:25:30,119 --> 00:25:32,280
Speaker 1: down the Street Team like you're like out on the show.

608
00:25:32,320 --> 00:25:35,040
Speaker 1: Oh y, yeah. So we do like the interviews, we

609
00:25:35,080 --> 00:25:37,800
Speaker 1: do the sales accounts, we like do the whole setup

610
00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: for all the big time jocks and everything, and we're

611
00:25:40,680 --> 00:25:43,240
Speaker 1: like the face before the face. So we always kind

612
00:25:43,240 --> 00:25:45,760
Speaker 1: of like felt ourselves in that way, like yeah, we're

613
00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:48,600
Speaker 1: gonna make a name for ourselves and stuff. And through

614
00:25:48,640 --> 00:25:52,440
Speaker 1: there I came across my mentor Charisma DJ Charisma, and

615
00:25:53,080 --> 00:25:55,880
Speaker 1: she's the one that was like, no, like your voice,

616
00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:58,639
Speaker 1: because makeup was what I wanted to do, and I

617
00:25:58,840 --> 00:26:01,919
Speaker 1: just figured, even though went to radio school, I could

618
00:26:02,160 --> 00:26:05,080
Speaker 1: get into these street teams, into these hallways and get

619
00:26:05,160 --> 00:26:08,800
Speaker 1: makeup clientele and build from there. And she was like, no,

620
00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:11,359
Speaker 1: your voice like, your voice has to be heard, and

621
00:26:11,400 --> 00:26:14,240
Speaker 1: I remember being like, I don't think so. But ironically

622
00:26:14,359 --> 00:26:17,119
Speaker 1: radio chose me because when I was too a radio

623
00:26:17,200 --> 00:26:18,160
Speaker 1: fell on my head.

624
00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 4: I still.

625
00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:22,159
Speaker 1: You know what?

626
00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:23,199
Speaker 4: A TV fell on me?

627
00:26:23,280 --> 00:26:25,919
Speaker 1: Babe? Isn't this so crazy?

628
00:26:26,240 --> 00:26:33,159
Speaker 4: It tells its Sure, it's true.

629
00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:36,359
Speaker 1: I'll never forget a radio fell and cracked my head.

630
00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:40,879
Speaker 1: It's so crazy. So I just knew that was like

631
00:26:40,920 --> 00:26:44,439
Speaker 1: my path. You know, when something chooses you, things like

632
00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:46,840
Speaker 1: that happen and then you look back and you're like, oh,

633
00:26:46,880 --> 00:26:50,480
Speaker 1: TV did follow me? Ready for if a book fell

634
00:26:50,520 --> 00:26:51,959
Speaker 1: on your book fell on you?

635
00:26:52,600 --> 00:26:56,439
Speaker 4: It's true, you know the universe shows that.

636
00:26:56,920 --> 00:27:00,480
Speaker 1: Yes, And that's just how it all started. She justultivated

637
00:27:00,560 --> 00:27:03,280
Speaker 1: my voice, and then everybody was like, okay, we need

638
00:27:03,320 --> 00:27:06,120
Speaker 1: demos and we need voice work. And then that got

639
00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:10,400
Speaker 1: me into a lot of just weird situations because I wasn't.

640
00:27:10,480 --> 00:27:12,600
Speaker 1: I didn't have the face for radio. So they say, like,

641
00:27:12,720 --> 00:27:19,560
Speaker 1: usually radio girls have the face for radio, and I

642
00:27:19,640 --> 00:27:22,400
Speaker 1: was not ugly, so ugly to be on the radio,

643
00:27:23,119 --> 00:27:24,600
Speaker 1: your face, nobody could see your face.

644
00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:26,840
Speaker 3: But when she told me that, she's like, you know,

645
00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:27,879
Speaker 3: she's from the radio. I was like, you know what,

646
00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:29,560
Speaker 3: now that you say that. I remember, I can think

647
00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:32,159
Speaker 3: of Abby. I was like, I was like, it's very

648
00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:33,480
Speaker 3: rare that she's beautiful.

649
00:27:35,520 --> 00:27:37,320
Speaker 4: So I was like, I was like, I was like.

650
00:27:37,280 --> 00:27:41,159
Speaker 3: She's beautiful. She is one of the many people who

651
00:27:41,200 --> 00:27:44,280
Speaker 3: crossed over. She crossed over, she crossed any other bit

652
00:27:44,320 --> 00:27:45,120
Speaker 3: she ever from the radio.

653
00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 4: You don't know what.

654
00:27:46,160 --> 00:27:48,439
Speaker 1: I was like, let me get skinny real fast. You know,

655
00:27:49,040 --> 00:27:54,240
Speaker 1: we just glow up a whole entire The glow ups

656
00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:57,920
Speaker 1: are real, and everybody would say, especially in the hallways, like, oh,

657
00:27:57,960 --> 00:27:59,600
Speaker 1: you don't have a face for radio. You don't have

658
00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:01,840
Speaker 1: a face radio. I don't believe how they disrespect women.

659
00:28:02,200 --> 00:28:03,879
Speaker 1: You know, it's really.

660
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:06,720
Speaker 4: I told you this about us, I said.

661
00:28:06,800 --> 00:28:12,280
Speaker 5: No, I'm just saying, like, maybe they're also like hiring

662
00:28:12,440 --> 00:28:14,960
Speaker 5: uglier women or like less attractive women.

663
00:28:14,960 --> 00:28:17,919
Speaker 1: They're gonna give them a chance a pretty woman. They're like,

664
00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:19,120
Speaker 1: actually to be on TV.

665
00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:21,360
Speaker 4: You're you're not going to drag us for this conversation.

666
00:28:21,440 --> 00:28:23,560
Speaker 1: No, but it's true because being a pretty woman got

667
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:26,920
Speaker 1: me in so much trouble of radio. Pretty bitches, radio dreams,

668
00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 1: I got passed up. No, it's true, but you know,

669
00:28:29,720 --> 00:28:32,879
Speaker 1: all the pretty girls are now doing podcasts like yourselves. Hello.

670
00:28:33,119 --> 00:28:35,639
Speaker 3: I mean you know, also people are like Erica, they

671
00:28:35,680 --> 00:28:36,960
Speaker 3: don't know who's who because they don't know what the

672
00:28:36,960 --> 00:28:38,960
Speaker 3: fuck weok Okay, I've told the beginning.

673
00:28:38,960 --> 00:28:39,880
Speaker 4: I was like, we're going to win.

674
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:42,680
Speaker 3: People need to see us. Yeah, we need people need

675
00:28:42,680 --> 00:28:44,240
Speaker 3: to see us. I like, we got to use our looks.

676
00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:46,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's true.

677
00:28:45,960 --> 00:28:47,720
Speaker 3: And you know, we know what works for you said,

678
00:28:47,720 --> 00:28:50,800
Speaker 3: I'm ready to use all my assets, every single one,

679
00:28:50,800 --> 00:28:51,440
Speaker 3: including my feet.

680
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:51,760
Speaker 1: Whatever.

681
00:28:51,760 --> 00:28:52,600
Speaker 4: You need.

682
00:28:53,320 --> 00:28:55,000
Speaker 1: Take a lot of money too, by the way, so

683
00:28:55,120 --> 00:28:58,640
Speaker 1: you should. But when I was just doing voice work,

684
00:28:58,720 --> 00:29:01,880
Speaker 1: they were like, okay, so you're Latina. That's going to

685
00:29:01,920 --> 00:29:03,480
Speaker 1: be your brain. You have to change your name. So

686
00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:07,520
Speaker 1: my government name is Abbigail Pignon and I didn't have

687
00:29:07,640 --> 00:29:12,080
Speaker 1: like a stage name or a stage persona. So higher,

688
00:29:12,160 --> 00:29:13,880
Speaker 1: higher up woman was like, I see a lot of

689
00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:16,880
Speaker 1: potential in you. You just need a different name, like

690
00:29:16,920 --> 00:29:19,240
Speaker 1: you need to be more relatable. And I actually have

691
00:29:19,280 --> 00:29:24,080
Speaker 1: a cousin named Abby del Rosa. I have I do

692
00:29:24,240 --> 00:29:26,880
Speaker 1: and my mom again, and my mom's made a name

693
00:29:26,920 --> 00:29:29,320
Speaker 1: is Dela Rosa. So I remember calling her up because

694
00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:33,520
Speaker 1: she's a mom in Arizona of three kids too. You're busy, Yeah,

695
00:29:33,560 --> 00:29:35,240
Speaker 1: I did. I was like, I'm going to start using

696
00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:38,360
Speaker 1: your name and I'll never forget the moment I dropped it,

697
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:42,960
Speaker 1: everyone was like, that's it, Like that is the name

698
00:29:43,120 --> 00:29:45,600
Speaker 1: that's going to be your persona. And then it wasn't

699
00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:48,160
Speaker 1: until I cut all my hair off is when shit

700
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:51,800
Speaker 1: really took off her. I've been a short hair girly

701
00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 1: for years and whenever I try to grow back, I

702
00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:55,360
Speaker 1: just never feel like myself.

703
00:29:55,480 --> 00:29:55,840
Speaker 4: Me too.

704
00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:58,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, so I have been a short hair girly and

705
00:29:58,920 --> 00:30:02,320
Speaker 1: those were the moments that and send it into next level,

706
00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:04,840
Speaker 1: next level, luck, next level. And then I ended up

707
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:09,240
Speaker 1: doing all the podcasts before podcasts or like streaming was

708
00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:13,120
Speaker 1: a thing. I did Ski, I did Free, I did

709
00:30:13,320 --> 00:30:17,080
Speaker 1: SKI Radio, I did every channel on his thing. I

710
00:30:17,120 --> 00:30:20,680
Speaker 1: did all the outside interviews. I did DA when SKI

711
00:30:20,760 --> 00:30:22,520
Speaker 1: did Dash, then I did Dash, and then I did

712
00:30:22,560 --> 00:30:25,880
Speaker 1: Young California, and then I did just everything that you

713
00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:29,440
Speaker 1: could imagine. The grind was so real. I was so hungry.

714
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:33,760
Speaker 1: And then I finally got my big break in the

715
00:30:33,880 --> 00:30:37,840
Speaker 1: ie when I approached at Supper Club. There was one

716
00:30:37,880 --> 00:30:39,720
Speaker 1: of the radio DJs there and I was like, I'm

717
00:30:39,800 --> 00:30:43,160
Speaker 1: really looking for a real radio job this time, not

718
00:30:43,240 --> 00:30:46,520
Speaker 1: like a voice job because I've did commercials for every

719
00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:49,720
Speaker 1: big company you could think of, like everything that you

720
00:30:49,760 --> 00:30:51,840
Speaker 1: can think of. I did all the voice work. I

721
00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:54,680
Speaker 1: did so much, and I just remember just putting myself

722
00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:57,080
Speaker 1: out there like I'm ready to really be on radio,

723
00:30:57,160 --> 00:30:59,920
Speaker 1: like to be a personality. Now I've done the work

724
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:03,480
Speaker 1: for nine plus years, like I was ready, and they

725
00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:05,480
Speaker 1: were like okay. So he was like, actually we are

726
00:31:05,520 --> 00:31:08,280
Speaker 1: looking for just a one day week jock in the

727
00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:10,720
Speaker 1: ie and I remember being like, that's going to be

728
00:31:10,760 --> 00:31:13,480
Speaker 1: for me. I got a meeting and that opened the

729
00:31:13,560 --> 00:31:16,800
Speaker 1: doors to iHeart and then through there, I was probably

730
00:31:16,840 --> 00:31:20,840
Speaker 1: only there for like five months before dra Sinatra, another

731
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:23,680
Speaker 1: one of my DJ friends, was like, LA is now

732
00:31:23,720 --> 00:31:27,080
Speaker 1: looking for a radio personality, and I gave your name,

733
00:31:27,160 --> 00:31:29,800
Speaker 1: so you have to come in. So I did my

734
00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:33,240
Speaker 1: meeting there and then it was just like the stars aligned,

735
00:31:33,400 --> 00:31:37,040
Speaker 1: and that's how music brought me everybody I needed. And

736
00:31:37,120 --> 00:31:39,600
Speaker 1: then that's how Nick and I came about. So you

737
00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:42,760
Speaker 1: met Nick through your while you were a radio host.

738
00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:45,520
Speaker 1: I met Nick. It was like six degrees of separations.

739
00:31:45,600 --> 00:31:48,760
Speaker 1: So through Young California we were like a DJ group

740
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:52,520
Speaker 1: all up and down. Sokell to Norkel and I was

741
00:31:52,600 --> 00:31:54,360
Speaker 1: the interview girl, so I would go to all the

742
00:31:54,400 --> 00:31:57,120
Speaker 1: stations and do all the local talent interviews and things

743
00:31:57,160 --> 00:32:01,240
Speaker 1: like that. So we would part or with his branding

744
00:32:01,320 --> 00:32:04,240
Speaker 1: Credible for a lot of mixtapes that we would drop,

745
00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:07,560
Speaker 1: but in his office. I never went into his office.

746
00:32:07,560 --> 00:32:09,680
Speaker 1: I would just be sitting like on the outside and

747
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:14,000
Speaker 1: just waiting for Charisma or whoever to like finish talking

748
00:32:14,040 --> 00:32:16,200
Speaker 1: to him. So we were always six degrees of separation.

749
00:32:16,960 --> 00:32:20,000
Speaker 1: And then I went to a listening party at a

750
00:32:20,000 --> 00:32:22,560
Speaker 1: big studio and he was walking with his boys and

751
00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:25,600
Speaker 1: he just like turned his entire head and looked at me,

752
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:27,840
Speaker 1: and my friend was like, that was Nick Cannon, and

753
00:32:27,840 --> 00:32:30,080
Speaker 1: I was like, who cares, Like, let's just keep walking,

754
00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:33,200
Speaker 1: like I'm on a mission here. I'm in personality mode,

755
00:32:33,320 --> 00:32:37,800
Speaker 1: like I have to do. So then it wasn't until okay,

756
00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:41,960
Speaker 1: So this is when it really aligned, was my last relationship.

757
00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:45,440
Speaker 1: He was a day to day manager for a big

758
00:32:45,520 --> 00:32:49,800
Speaker 1: rapper and the rapper was booked for Wildin' Out. So

759
00:32:49,880 --> 00:32:53,080
Speaker 1: we walked into wallin' Out and Nick was there in

760
00:32:53,120 --> 00:32:56,560
Speaker 1: the middle, and I remember like sitting at the front

761
00:32:56,560 --> 00:32:59,440
Speaker 1: of will'n Out and just like watching his talent, my

762
00:32:59,520 --> 00:33:02,000
Speaker 1: boy you know, my boyfriend at the times talent and

763
00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:04,239
Speaker 1: being like, oh my god, this is so cool and

764
00:33:04,240 --> 00:33:07,760
Speaker 1: stuff like that. And then later, like the stars finally

765
00:33:07,840 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 1: aligned everything to come about and that's how we really met.

766
00:33:10,960 --> 00:33:13,160
Speaker 1: He started sliding in my DMS to invite me to

767
00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:15,080
Speaker 1: go watch him dj because this is when I was

768
00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:18,640
Speaker 1: DJing like heavily, and he would like see me. I

769
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:20,720
Speaker 1: was DJing in London and he'd be like, please come

770
00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:23,640
Speaker 1: back soon. I want to meet you, like I'm want

771
00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:25,240
Speaker 1: to DJ with you. And then one day I just

772
00:33:25,280 --> 00:33:26,960
Speaker 1: showed up at one of his parties that he had

773
00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:30,120
Speaker 1: been inviting me to. Because also, my first love, even

774
00:33:30,160 --> 00:33:32,840
Speaker 1: though I had a boyfriend, was my career, Like nothing

775
00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:35,880
Speaker 1: could move me from that radio board, Like I was

776
00:33:36,600 --> 00:33:40,360
Speaker 1: locked in in that relationship, and I was always putting

777
00:33:40,360 --> 00:33:43,000
Speaker 1: that first, so I would always be like, oh, I'm sorry,

778
00:33:43,040 --> 00:33:45,440
Speaker 1: I'm working. Oh no, I'm working, I'm working. But then

779
00:33:45,480 --> 00:33:48,240
Speaker 1: finally I showed up one day and then we exchanged

780
00:33:48,280 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 1: numbers and we had a first date and it was

781
00:33:50,600 --> 00:33:52,240
Speaker 1: just kind of like I thought it was just like

782
00:33:52,280 --> 00:33:55,880
Speaker 1: a sex thing because we had really good sex. So

783
00:33:56,040 --> 00:34:00,160
Speaker 1: I didn't like and I knew his reputation in the industry.

784
00:34:00,440 --> 00:34:01,800
Speaker 4: But then it's like he's a huff.

785
00:34:02,280 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 1: Oh, he's definitely who he is, Yes, me who he is.

786
00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:08,960
Speaker 4: I wasn't sure I needed to be. I never heard

787
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:09,520
Speaker 4: the reputation.

788
00:34:09,600 --> 00:34:12,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, it was really especially in the radio industry

789
00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:13,640
Speaker 1: because he was the morning show guy and I was

790
00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:15,719
Speaker 1: the night the night time girl, so I got off

791
00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:17,880
Speaker 1: at five am. He was coming in at five am.

792
00:34:18,120 --> 00:34:20,960
Speaker 1: So then it wasn't until one day my mentor called

793
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:24,120
Speaker 1: me and she was like, Nick had everybody in your

794
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:27,200
Speaker 1: men and the men and the interns on your profile, like,

795
00:34:27,640 --> 00:34:31,040
Speaker 1: and I'm upset because I'm your cist and I'm just thinking,

796
00:34:31,080 --> 00:34:33,480
Speaker 1: why the hell? Well, he just asked me about you,

797
00:34:33,560 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 1: like why is he stalking your Instagram page like that

798
00:34:35,840 --> 00:34:38,080
Speaker 1: and blah blah. And I remember being like, okay, and

799
00:34:38,080 --> 00:34:40,080
Speaker 1: then later on I would see him all my stories

800
00:34:40,200 --> 00:34:43,000
Speaker 1: and then this and that, and then yeah, just turn

801
00:34:43,080 --> 00:34:46,640
Speaker 1: into us just having really good sex for a long time,

802
00:34:46,680 --> 00:34:48,839
Speaker 1: and then he dropped the L word, and then it

803
00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:50,120
Speaker 1: was just kind of like shift in there.

804
00:34:50,239 --> 00:34:51,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, how long ago was that?

805
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:53,040
Speaker 1: Seven years?

806
00:34:53,200 --> 00:34:57,279
Speaker 4: Okay, so you had have been dating in Yes.

807
00:34:57,800 --> 00:35:00,120
Speaker 5: I just want to say, like I think that like

808
00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:04,719
Speaker 5: as an outsider looking in obviously you're I think a

809
00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:07,719
Speaker 5: lot of people obviously associate you with Nick, and I

810
00:35:07,760 --> 00:35:10,840
Speaker 5: think it's really beautiful that you've had such a like long,

811
00:35:10,880 --> 00:35:14,960
Speaker 5: substantial career that I think oftentimes gets overlooked or overshadowed

812
00:35:15,400 --> 00:35:17,680
Speaker 5: because of that because of the man, and as women,

813
00:35:18,080 --> 00:35:20,880
Speaker 5: the men that we choose oftentimes, especially if they're in

814
00:35:20,920 --> 00:35:24,279
Speaker 5: the limelight, often take take away the focus of like

815
00:35:24,520 --> 00:35:27,200
Speaker 5: what our first love is, and then obviously having kids

816
00:35:27,239 --> 00:35:29,440
Speaker 5: like having to take a second back from that. So

817
00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:31,560
Speaker 5: I just want to like commend you for all the

818
00:35:31,600 --> 00:35:33,879
Speaker 5: work that you've done in the space, that you've done

819
00:35:34,719 --> 00:35:38,120
Speaker 5: in radio and like the grind of that, because I

820
00:35:38,160 --> 00:35:40,000
Speaker 5: feel like, I mean, I'm sure like when you're in interviews,

821
00:35:40,040 --> 00:35:41,000
Speaker 5: people are like, so tell.

822
00:35:40,840 --> 00:35:44,640
Speaker 1: Me about Nick. We're gonna get there, and we're getting there.

823
00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:46,920
Speaker 5: But I just wanted to stop and just just affirm

824
00:35:46,960 --> 00:35:48,760
Speaker 5: you because I feel like a lot of times people

825
00:35:48,800 --> 00:35:53,200
Speaker 5: don't don't do that.

826
00:35:53,719 --> 00:35:56,960
Speaker 1: Real and it does. That's probably been my biggest thing,

827
00:35:57,120 --> 00:36:01,720
Speaker 1: was I because I had such a huge career. Sometimes

828
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:05,040
Speaker 1: I feel really like lost in the motherhood of it

829
00:36:05,160 --> 00:36:08,440
Speaker 1: or in the conglomerate of it, because the baby mama

830
00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 1: shit becomes louder than like all your accolades and all

831
00:36:11,480 --> 00:36:14,919
Speaker 1: the shit that you've done. And I worked my ass off,

832
00:36:15,040 --> 00:36:18,560
Speaker 1: like I did so much, and I'm so proud of myself,

833
00:36:18,640 --> 00:36:21,319
Speaker 1: Like I can sit back and I'll be like, I've

834
00:36:21,320 --> 00:36:23,680
Speaker 1: really did that shit before there was one shit like

835
00:36:23,800 --> 00:36:26,719
Speaker 1: I really, you know, I really put in so much groundwork.

836
00:36:26,760 --> 00:36:30,040
Speaker 1: And sometimes I even forget how fucking cool I am

837
00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:35,719
Speaker 1: because of you know, this megastar I have children with

838
00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:39,480
Speaker 1: and all the bullshit that comes with the comparison of

839
00:36:39,520 --> 00:36:41,640
Speaker 1: baby Mama drama and stuff like that, and I'm like,

840
00:36:41,800 --> 00:36:44,239
Speaker 1: even that I'm too cool for I'm like I I

841
00:36:44,280 --> 00:36:47,280
Speaker 1: remember Charisma was like You're just too cool, are you?

842
00:36:47,320 --> 00:36:49,480
Speaker 1: Do you really want to go down this path? Like

843
00:36:49,560 --> 00:36:51,680
Speaker 1: is that really what you want to do? And I

844
00:36:51,719 --> 00:36:54,320
Speaker 1: remember just being like yeah, because I was following my heart,

845
00:36:54,480 --> 00:36:56,399
Speaker 1: you know, I was like, yeah, it's fun. It's fun.

846
00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:59,360
Speaker 1: It's just fun right now. But as far as the

847
00:36:59,400 --> 00:37:03,680
Speaker 1: work is con like, I think that is what I'm

848
00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:07,080
Speaker 1: so proud of and that I wish and I can't

849
00:37:07,120 --> 00:37:11,080
Speaker 1: wait for more people to really learn that side of me,

850
00:37:11,160 --> 00:37:14,279
Speaker 1: but also for me to get back into whatever is

851
00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:17,440
Speaker 1: aligned with my next chapter so I'm really excited. Thank

852
00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:19,320
Speaker 1: you for affirming me. That's really sweet.

853
00:37:19,440 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's important.

854
00:37:20,480 --> 00:37:22,880
Speaker 3: I think a lot of times in relationships, especially with

855
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:25,920
Speaker 3: celebrities or you know, the people want to give all

856
00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:27,680
Speaker 3: the credit to the man. I mean, obviously we live

857
00:37:27,719 --> 00:37:30,560
Speaker 3: in a patriarchy, but you are like stand alone and

858
00:37:30,680 --> 00:37:32,839
Speaker 3: are famous in your own right and have done your work.

859
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:35,360
Speaker 1: And it wasn't even fame that I chose, like I wanted.

860
00:37:35,640 --> 00:37:38,160
Speaker 1: I loved local, I loved everybody.

861
00:37:39,040 --> 00:37:41,200
Speaker 4: So I love radio.

862
00:37:41,360 --> 00:37:46,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, like I love working with local talent. Like as

863
00:37:46,200 --> 00:37:48,640
Speaker 1: long as I had my city, I had everything, you know,

864
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:51,839
Speaker 1: and that was so important to me. So when I

865
00:37:51,880 --> 00:37:54,360
Speaker 1: had that, I was like, oh yes, and then I

866
00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:55,040
Speaker 1: got knocked up.

867
00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:58,279
Speaker 3: Have you experienced any like I mean, I like not

868
00:37:58,360 --> 00:38:02,480
Speaker 3: obviously have you because it's been overshadowed because people want

869
00:38:02,520 --> 00:38:04,759
Speaker 3: to focus on the baby daddy shit or you know,

870
00:38:04,800 --> 00:38:08,759
Speaker 3: the relationship. Have you experienced like shame or guilt or

871
00:38:08,800 --> 00:38:12,560
Speaker 3: regrets like maybe if I had chosen differently, you know,

872
00:38:12,600 --> 00:38:14,279
Speaker 3: like I mean, has that come up for you in

873
00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:14,880
Speaker 3: this process?

874
00:38:14,960 --> 00:38:15,439
Speaker 1: Oh my god?

875
00:38:15,520 --> 00:38:15,759
Speaker 4: Yeah?

876
00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:19,000
Speaker 1: Sometimes I think, like, of course, I think what if,

877
00:38:19,120 --> 00:38:22,359
Speaker 1: for how my career would have been or what it

878
00:38:22,440 --> 00:38:26,239
Speaker 1: is but I just don't believe that life takes you

879
00:38:26,280 --> 00:38:28,480
Speaker 1: in places that you're not supposed to be in. So

880
00:38:28,719 --> 00:38:31,799
Speaker 1: this was already written, This was already my path, This

881
00:38:31,960 --> 00:38:35,640
Speaker 1: was already meant to be. So I definitely don't ever

882
00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:40,279
Speaker 1: live in that too much. I just think out a frustration.

883
00:38:40,920 --> 00:38:44,279
Speaker 1: I'll go there sometimes in like the depths of my soul,

884
00:38:44,320 --> 00:38:48,480
Speaker 1: I'll be like shit, like what if. But at the

885
00:38:48,520 --> 00:38:51,000
Speaker 1: same time, I'm like, no, this was like already purpose

886
00:38:51,080 --> 00:38:54,680
Speaker 1: driven and purposeful. So this is already my path. And

887
00:38:55,160 --> 00:38:58,359
Speaker 1: eventually the seven years I took to not speak, it's

888
00:38:58,440 --> 00:38:59,960
Speaker 1: really nice to finally speak.

889
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:01,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's all your own story.

890
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:03,680
Speaker 3: I think it's important too, like for those listening to

891
00:39:03,719 --> 00:39:06,920
Speaker 3: a reminder, because sometimes you're going to tell ourselves who the.

892
00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:07,440
Speaker 4: Fuck we are.

893
00:39:07,880 --> 00:39:09,799
Speaker 3: I find myself having to do that to myself. It's

894
00:39:09,840 --> 00:39:12,400
Speaker 3: like if you're listening and you're like, have this. And

895
00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:14,600
Speaker 3: I'm sure a lot of people we all have self doubt,

896
00:39:14,640 --> 00:39:17,480
Speaker 3: we all are riddled with negative thoughts about ourselves, and

897
00:39:17,520 --> 00:39:21,759
Speaker 3: it's like a literal reprogramming of like every time that

898
00:39:21,800 --> 00:39:23,000
Speaker 3: comes up, like really being like.

899
00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:25,000
Speaker 4: Bitch, who are you talking to? Like you're talking to yourself,

900
00:39:25,000 --> 00:39:26,000
Speaker 4: like bitch, that's yeah.

901
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:27,680
Speaker 3: And there's been times where I've had to tell myself,

902
00:39:27,719 --> 00:39:29,239
Speaker 3: like you've done this, you've done this, you've worked hard,

903
00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:31,240
Speaker 3: you've overcome this. Yeah, and I'm like, am I crazy

904
00:39:31,280 --> 00:39:33,600
Speaker 3: telling like pumping myself up? But it's like you have

905
00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:37,040
Speaker 3: no idea, like you're beautiful, you're successful, your wonderful mother,

906
00:39:37,239 --> 00:39:40,120
Speaker 3: and like even the people that we look up to

907
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:43,799
Speaker 3: often are struggling with those negative self doubts and like

908
00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:45,839
Speaker 3: that negatives, that voice in the back of your head.

909
00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:50,960
Speaker 3: And it's like sometimes it's like actual practice of saying

910
00:39:51,000 --> 00:39:53,560
Speaker 3: out loud who the fuck you are and which what

911
00:39:53,680 --> 00:39:55,560
Speaker 3: you accomplished, even if the things are small.

912
00:39:55,600 --> 00:39:57,319
Speaker 4: I think sometimes we forget to look back and.

913
00:39:57,280 --> 00:39:59,839
Speaker 3: Be like, oh shit, I've come a long fucking way,

914
00:40:00,160 --> 00:40:02,440
Speaker 3: you know, like we are like programmed to be little

915
00:40:02,440 --> 00:40:04,520
Speaker 3: ourselves and not think of the best case scenario and

916
00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:06,520
Speaker 3: think of all the things that we've done. And like

917
00:40:06,560 --> 00:40:09,400
Speaker 3: it's really it's powerful to hear you say that, because

918
00:40:09,680 --> 00:40:12,839
Speaker 3: I know that women and even man experience this like

919
00:40:12,880 --> 00:40:15,680
Speaker 3: this like imposture syndrome.

920
00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:19,160
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I was. I have gone through imposter syndrome

921
00:40:19,280 --> 00:40:22,359
Speaker 1: so much and I still battle it so heavily. And

922
00:40:22,840 --> 00:40:25,360
Speaker 1: it's really crazy because I'm like, I never used to

923
00:40:25,400 --> 00:40:27,360
Speaker 1: be a little bitch when it came to that stuff,

924
00:40:27,400 --> 00:40:29,279
Speaker 1: you know, Like I was very secure in who I am.

925
00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:32,719
Speaker 1: But for the last four and a half years, my

926
00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:35,719
Speaker 1: role has been caretaker for my children, and then my

927
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:39,280
Speaker 1: son was diagnosed with autism in the in the thick

928
00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:42,560
Speaker 1: of that, and it just went from two kids to

929
00:40:42,680 --> 00:40:46,560
Speaker 1: three kids to autism to just trying to finagle this

930
00:40:46,600 --> 00:40:49,200
Speaker 1: world I'm in, and it has just been pouring into

931
00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:52,879
Speaker 1: everybody else. So now in this season, I'm like, God,

932
00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:56,359
Speaker 1: imagine how like beautiful I'm gonna be in phil when

933
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:59,759
Speaker 1: I actually start taking back the energy for myself and

934
00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:03,120
Speaker 1: caring for myself because my kids deserve that, you know,

935
00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:06,120
Speaker 1: And I feel like some mothers we just deplete ourselves

936
00:41:06,160 --> 00:41:09,200
Speaker 1: in pouring and pouring and pouring into everybody else. Because

937
00:41:09,320 --> 00:41:12,879
Speaker 1: I have felt depleted in that that. I'm like, I've

938
00:41:12,880 --> 00:41:14,799
Speaker 1: looked at some pictures of myself and I'm like, I

939
00:41:14,840 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 1: look so drained, and I know that that's not who

940
00:41:17,160 --> 00:41:20,000
Speaker 1: I am. But now I'm in the season of like

941
00:41:20,280 --> 00:41:24,160
Speaker 1: starting to really pour into myself, whether that's starting small

942
00:41:24,400 --> 00:41:28,040
Speaker 1: or even telling myself a bitch, get over imposter syndrome,

943
00:41:28,120 --> 00:41:31,600
Speaker 1: you know, every day and it's made such a difference already.

944
00:41:31,719 --> 00:41:33,680
Speaker 1: So yeah, it makes us.

945
00:41:33,680 --> 00:41:34,880
Speaker 5: It makes me think of the work that we do

946
00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:37,120
Speaker 5: at our retreats, at the Good Vibe Retreat because that's

947
00:41:37,760 --> 00:41:40,960
Speaker 5: essentially why so many of the women come, is like

948
00:41:41,080 --> 00:41:44,439
Speaker 5: they're depleted. They're they've been pouring into their children, they've

949
00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:47,640
Speaker 5: never taken a break from themselves for themselves. They're not

950
00:41:47,680 --> 00:41:50,200
Speaker 5: getting watered in their relationship or they don't they're not

951
00:41:50,280 --> 00:41:52,480
Speaker 5: in a relationship, and so they don't they don't have

952
00:41:52,520 --> 00:41:56,120
Speaker 5: the support. And so if you're listening to this right

953
00:41:56,160 --> 00:41:59,439
Speaker 5: now and that sounds like you, maybe yeah, maybe like you,

954
00:41:59,440 --> 00:42:01,200
Speaker 5: you know, you feel like you're in a similar space.

955
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:04,560
Speaker 5: We're going to Costa Rica with a good Vibratory or

956
00:42:04,680 --> 00:42:06,080
Speaker 5: us talk about this it is.

957
00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:07,400
Speaker 4: You should come, You really should come.

958
00:42:07,800 --> 00:42:10,799
Speaker 5: Definitely really an opportunity for all the things that you

959
00:42:10,840 --> 00:42:13,840
Speaker 5: said to like, for you to have the space to

960
00:42:13,960 --> 00:42:19,000
Speaker 5: actually sit with yourself, to consider, to reimagine, to rebrand,

961
00:42:19,560 --> 00:42:23,480
Speaker 5: and to just show up without any expectation, rest to rest.

962
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:27,480
Speaker 5: We're going to Costa Rica July twenty fourth through the

963
00:42:27,520 --> 00:42:33,600
Speaker 5: twenty ninth, and it's six days of just fucking just

964
00:42:33,719 --> 00:42:36,319
Speaker 5: luxury and being taken care of and being in the

965
00:42:36,360 --> 00:42:38,760
Speaker 5: company of other women that are in the same space,

966
00:42:39,440 --> 00:42:44,040
Speaker 5: and it's wild. It's free. We be nagated, we take

967
00:42:44,040 --> 00:42:45,920
Speaker 5: over the property. You don't have to be naked, but

968
00:42:45,960 --> 00:42:49,919
Speaker 5: we beatablests and running around and just getting served hand

969
00:42:49,960 --> 00:42:52,440
Speaker 5: and foot. And that's as goddesses and as women and

970
00:42:52,480 --> 00:42:53,240
Speaker 5: as mothers, that's.

971
00:42:53,080 --> 00:42:53,720
Speaker 4: What we deserve.

972
00:42:53,920 --> 00:42:56,719
Speaker 5: We are doing just pouring so much into each other,

973
00:42:56,800 --> 00:42:58,920
Speaker 5: into our kids and our families, our.

974
00:42:58,800 --> 00:43:00,160
Speaker 1: Careers, everything.

975
00:43:00,800 --> 00:43:02,719
Speaker 5: And I know I look forward to this trip every

976
00:43:02,760 --> 00:43:05,279
Speaker 5: single year because it always comes at the perfect time

977
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:09,200
Speaker 5: where I feel that same itch, that same like neglect

978
00:43:10,360 --> 00:43:14,040
Speaker 5: coming up. So if you're interested in coming, make sure

979
00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:17,040
Speaker 5: you click the link in our episode description or go

980
00:43:17,080 --> 00:43:20,279
Speaker 5: to Good Mom's Bad Choices dot com slash retreat and

981
00:43:20,400 --> 00:43:22,920
Speaker 5: you can get all the information and put your deposit

982
00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:24,799
Speaker 5: down now time.

983
00:43:25,000 --> 00:43:26,440
Speaker 4: No excuses. That's another thing.

984
00:43:26,520 --> 00:43:28,800
Speaker 3: Wimen make excuses about not pouring into themselves and I

985
00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:30,200
Speaker 3: can't's too expensive, I'm tired.

986
00:43:30,480 --> 00:43:31,279
Speaker 4: But you can figure it out.

987
00:43:31,280 --> 00:43:34,799
Speaker 3: How to get a little Bobby of basketball jersey, you know, like.

988
00:43:34,760 --> 00:43:38,200
Speaker 1: We That is so My sister and I were just

989
00:43:38,280 --> 00:43:40,440
Speaker 1: talking about that last night because she's like, you need

990
00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:43,839
Speaker 1: to go do something fun, like I have not done

991
00:43:43,880 --> 00:43:47,680
Speaker 1: anything super fun or wild or just like exuberant in

992
00:43:47,760 --> 00:43:50,680
Speaker 1: such a long time, and she's like, you need She's like,

993
00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:52,520
Speaker 1: I'm gonna finish my walk and I'm gonna go home

994
00:43:52,560 --> 00:43:55,120
Speaker 1: and you do something. I'm like, I don't know where,

995
00:43:56,400 --> 00:43:58,480
Speaker 1: I don't know what to do, don't know, but also

996
00:43:58,800 --> 00:44:00,440
Speaker 1: like my kids are gonna need this, so maybe I

997
00:44:00,440 --> 00:44:02,399
Speaker 1: could go to the store to do it. She's like, no,

998
00:44:02,719 --> 00:44:06,200
Speaker 1: like you need to just leave, And I just I

999
00:44:06,280 --> 00:44:08,560
Speaker 1: hate that. I'm still in that mode of feeling that

1000
00:44:08,600 --> 00:44:10,400
Speaker 1: type of.

1001
00:44:09,640 --> 00:44:10,399
Speaker 4: Of it too. The kids.

1002
00:44:10,520 --> 00:44:11,479
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

1003
00:44:11,800 --> 00:44:13,880
Speaker 5: Yeah, And sometimes it is like when people give you

1004
00:44:13,920 --> 00:44:15,600
Speaker 5: the permission to go do that, you're like, what the

1005
00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:16,359
Speaker 5: fuck do I do?

1006
00:44:16,600 --> 00:44:17,359
Speaker 1: Like where?

1007
00:44:17,480 --> 00:44:17,680
Speaker 4: What?

1008
00:44:17,800 --> 00:44:18,520
Speaker 1: Huh?

1009
00:44:18,560 --> 00:44:21,200
Speaker 5: And like that can feel like that can also make

1010
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:22,840
Speaker 5: you feel sad, like shit, I don't even know what

1011
00:44:22,880 --> 00:44:25,840
Speaker 5: the fuck to do. But she's right, like being free

1012
00:44:25,920 --> 00:44:28,560
Speaker 5: and poor and doing something fun and a little bit

1013
00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:31,719
Speaker 5: maybe wild a little not ever like it's medicine.

1014
00:44:31,840 --> 00:44:32,719
Speaker 1: It truly is.

1015
00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:32,920
Speaker 6: No.

1016
00:44:33,080 --> 00:44:35,279
Speaker 1: She was my sister, lived in Miami for such a

1017
00:44:35,280 --> 00:44:38,600
Speaker 1: long time, and she I probably didn't hear from her

1018
00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:42,520
Speaker 1: like until once every two months, and when she'd answer,

1019
00:44:42,719 --> 00:44:45,840
Speaker 1: she would look like she was having the best time.

1020
00:44:45,960 --> 00:44:49,000
Speaker 1: And then slowly she's been sharing some of those experiences

1021
00:44:49,040 --> 00:44:52,280
Speaker 1: with me, and I'm like, oh my god, how fucking fun.

1022
00:44:52,440 --> 00:44:55,040
Speaker 4: Women don't forget women forget fun.

1023
00:44:55,120 --> 00:44:58,520
Speaker 3: That being wild is in our nature, like being fairal,

1024
00:44:58,680 --> 00:45:02,439
Speaker 3: being wild, being free, having fun. I think we are

1025
00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:06,840
Speaker 3: so like poisoned by the patriarchy, ourselves, the guilt and

1026
00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:09,799
Speaker 3: the shame that like, ain't shit niggas put on us

1027
00:45:09,880 --> 00:45:12,160
Speaker 3: about like you gotta be a mom, like it's like

1028
00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:14,520
Speaker 3: so they can shrink you. And a part of good

1029
00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:16,640
Speaker 3: Moms and a lot of the good Vibratree is about

1030
00:45:16,680 --> 00:45:19,680
Speaker 3: like healing is fun. Healing looks like shaken ass. Healing

1031
00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:22,239
Speaker 3: looks like doing whatever it makes you feel like.

1032
00:45:22,280 --> 00:45:23,360
Speaker 4: You know, just because you.

1033
00:45:23,239 --> 00:45:25,200
Speaker 3: Have a kid, or have three kids or whatever, you

1034
00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:28,480
Speaker 3: get married, whatever the trajectory it is, doesn't mean you

1035
00:45:28,520 --> 00:45:31,040
Speaker 3: forget the part of yourself that is the animal, like

1036
00:45:31,080 --> 00:45:35,440
Speaker 3: the wildness. We all are entitled to experiencing and exercising

1037
00:45:35,440 --> 00:45:38,319
Speaker 3: that part of us. In fact, if you don't like,

1038
00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:40,080
Speaker 3: something shifts in you and you feel a lot of

1039
00:45:40,080 --> 00:45:42,440
Speaker 3: that inside, like we the whole point of good Moms

1040
00:45:42,480 --> 00:45:44,680
Speaker 3: is that, Like, women are multifaceted, and we are wild

1041
00:45:44,760 --> 00:45:47,080
Speaker 3: and we are free, and we we do howl and

1042
00:45:47,160 --> 00:45:50,840
Speaker 3: moan and like and do, and that's that's in our nature.

1043
00:45:50,880 --> 00:45:53,880
Speaker 3: We are sexual, sensual beings. Yeah, And if we don't

1044
00:45:53,920 --> 00:45:57,640
Speaker 3: exercise that part of our nature, then something dies. And

1045
00:45:57,680 --> 00:46:00,239
Speaker 3: then you feel resentful to your husband, resentful she really ship,

1046
00:46:00,280 --> 00:46:02,040
Speaker 3: resentful to your kids, resembled to your.

1047
00:46:02,000 --> 00:46:04,080
Speaker 4: Friends and your homegirls that are out doing their fucking thing.

1048
00:46:04,160 --> 00:46:06,359
Speaker 1: You could just see it too, Like you could see

1049
00:46:06,400 --> 00:46:07,560
Speaker 1: when someone's not getting fucked.

1050
00:46:08,920 --> 00:46:11,080
Speaker 3: I'd be like, oh my gosh, you're not getting actually

1051
00:46:11,520 --> 00:46:15,239
Speaker 3: like see it, or they're just getting sucked or just

1052
00:46:15,280 --> 00:46:20,440
Speaker 3: getting fucked, like like the dick is not dicking. I mean,

1053
00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:23,160
Speaker 3: like it's dicking, but that's all it's doing. Like he's

1054
00:46:23,160 --> 00:46:25,479
Speaker 3: feeding you with dick, but he's starting the rest of you.

1055
00:46:25,480 --> 00:46:27,200
Speaker 1: You can absolutely see it.

1056
00:46:28,120 --> 00:46:28,319
Speaker 4: Myself.

1057
00:46:28,400 --> 00:46:30,239
Speaker 3: I was like, oh my god, I was dick. I

1058
00:46:30,280 --> 00:46:32,160
Speaker 3: was like I was dick. I was over dick.

1059
00:46:32,239 --> 00:46:32,640
Speaker 1: You can tell.

1060
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:37,640
Speaker 4: I was like fun to depleted.

1061
00:46:38,120 --> 00:46:38,640
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

1062
00:46:38,840 --> 00:46:39,799
Speaker 4: It's crazy.

1063
00:46:40,000 --> 00:46:42,919
Speaker 3: So if you're listening and your dick, you're either digmatized

1064
00:46:42,920 --> 00:46:45,920
Speaker 3: and you're fun depleted or you're dick deprived and you're

1065
00:46:45,960 --> 00:46:47,080
Speaker 3: fun depleted, bitch.

1066
00:46:47,680 --> 00:46:51,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, we're not gonna We're not gonna offer you dick.

1067
00:46:52,360 --> 00:46:53,799
Speaker 4: They're gonna be some fine guys.

1068
00:46:53,719 --> 00:46:57,759
Speaker 5: To massage you upon entry. Shoulders, shoulders not like what

1069
00:46:57,800 --> 00:46:58,439
Speaker 5: we were talking about.

1070
00:46:58,480 --> 00:47:00,719
Speaker 4: Okay, that's a happy ending.

1071
00:47:00,840 --> 00:47:04,279
Speaker 5: No no, no, range some things for you, but no, Like

1072
00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:06,319
Speaker 5: I mean, I was thinking about Caress, who came on

1073
00:47:06,360 --> 00:47:08,160
Speaker 5: our retreat and how we like we're at breakfast and.

1074
00:47:08,160 --> 00:47:09,759
Speaker 2: She's like, God, I really want to just jump in

1075
00:47:09,760 --> 00:47:10,640
Speaker 2: the pool now naked.

1076
00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:14,640
Speaker 5: And we're like literally drinking coffee and eating fucking like pinto,

1077
00:47:14,920 --> 00:47:16,520
Speaker 5: and I think it was like raining, and it was raining,

1078
00:47:16,560 --> 00:47:17,520
Speaker 5: and she's like I want to do it, and I

1079
00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:19,120
Speaker 5: was like, fuck it, let's do it right now. And

1080
00:47:19,160 --> 00:47:21,120
Speaker 5: so we just fucking stripped our clothes off at the

1081
00:47:21,120 --> 00:47:23,399
Speaker 5: breakfast table, at the breakfast table, jumped in the pool

1082
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:26,880
Speaker 5: naked because it's our property. And like, it's moments like

1083
00:47:26,920 --> 00:47:29,799
Speaker 5: that that you don't even think are you have access to,

1084
00:47:30,040 --> 00:47:31,640
Speaker 5: or that are possible, or the things you see in

1085
00:47:31,719 --> 00:47:35,359
Speaker 5: movies that happen in these spaces when women are given

1086
00:47:35,400 --> 00:47:39,799
Speaker 5: permission to just fully express their wildness, fully experience and

1087
00:47:39,880 --> 00:47:44,280
Speaker 5: try on things and I've seen how it's changed their lives.

1088
00:47:44,600 --> 00:47:46,319
Speaker 5: I know how it's changed my life. I see how

1089
00:47:46,320 --> 00:47:49,480
Speaker 5: it's changed their life. Their relationship with themselves, their relationship

1090
00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:52,400
Speaker 5: with their friends, the friends that they make there, the

1091
00:47:52,719 --> 00:47:55,000
Speaker 5: relationship they have there with their kids, all of it,

1092
00:47:55,239 --> 00:47:58,480
Speaker 5: like it just it just it's just magic. So anyway,

1093
00:47:58,960 --> 00:48:01,960
Speaker 5: click the link in the bio, bring that ass, bring

1094
00:48:01,960 --> 00:48:03,759
Speaker 5: it as yes, and.

1095
00:48:03,560 --> 00:48:07,560
Speaker 4: Your kids will thank you later. Right now, know that the.

1096
00:48:08,040 --> 00:48:11,160
Speaker 1: Real light you're twirling in your whimsical bitch.

1097
00:48:10,920 --> 00:48:16,160
Speaker 3: Right now, whimsical bitch, So don't forget that. So I

1098
00:48:16,200 --> 00:48:18,839
Speaker 3: have a question about your about about your kids. So

1099
00:48:18,880 --> 00:48:21,920
Speaker 3: you have your mom of three and or two twins.

1100
00:48:22,040 --> 00:48:24,040
Speaker 1: I have a set of twins and a daughter. Yeah,

1101
00:48:24,200 --> 00:48:28,160
Speaker 1: so I got pregnant with my twins. I got how

1102
00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:31,000
Speaker 1: long were you guys dating before you got pregnant? Not

1103
00:48:31,160 --> 00:48:37,319
Speaker 1: that long, probably like six and a half months.

1104
00:48:36,400 --> 00:48:41,800
Speaker 3: Okay, like before when when it escalated from fucking to like.

1105
00:48:41,280 --> 00:48:42,400
Speaker 4: Like yeah, more serious.

1106
00:48:42,440 --> 00:48:44,399
Speaker 1: So we were like seeing each other like we were

1107
00:48:44,440 --> 00:48:46,680
Speaker 1: just fucking, and then all of a sudden, like we

1108
00:48:46,800 --> 00:48:50,919
Speaker 1: kind of had like a little break, and then then

1109
00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:52,440
Speaker 1: we didn't have a break, and then it was like

1110
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:55,320
Speaker 1: you're pregnant and then so it was it wasn't necessarily planned.

1111
00:48:55,320 --> 00:48:58,520
Speaker 1: It was it wasn't planned because I I had just

1112
00:48:58,680 --> 00:49:01,640
Speaker 1: I came out of having steps really bad, like I

1113
00:49:01,680 --> 00:49:03,480
Speaker 1: was in the hospital. I was in the ICU for

1114
00:49:03,760 --> 00:49:08,520
Speaker 1: five freaking intense days of my life, and Nick was

1115
00:49:08,600 --> 00:49:10,719
Speaker 1: just like calling my phone like where are you? And

1116
00:49:10,760 --> 00:49:13,560
Speaker 1: then I remember just being like, oh, I found out,

1117
00:49:13,920 --> 00:49:17,200
Speaker 1: Like we had the conversation about like protection after I

1118
00:49:17,239 --> 00:49:19,120
Speaker 1: was out of the hospital, and I had just found

1119
00:49:19,120 --> 00:49:21,400
Speaker 1: out in the hospital that I couldn't have kids because

1120
00:49:21,400 --> 00:49:23,719
Speaker 1: I had like these huge fibroids and all that, and

1121
00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:26,040
Speaker 1: they were like, yeah, like you can have kids. There

1122
00:49:26,080 --> 00:49:28,400
Speaker 1: was just a lot that happened, and I remember feeling

1123
00:49:28,440 --> 00:49:30,400
Speaker 1: like Okay, well, if that's on my plan. And plus

1124
00:49:30,560 --> 00:49:32,759
Speaker 1: I was in a five year relationship where I had

1125
00:49:32,880 --> 00:49:36,480
Speaker 1: never had a pregnancy scare and it was like monogamous

1126
00:49:36,520 --> 00:49:39,120
Speaker 1: like all the things. So I was like, Okay, that's

1127
00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:41,239
Speaker 1: what's that's what's being told to me.

1128
00:49:41,320 --> 00:49:41,920
Speaker 4: That's true.

1129
00:49:42,000 --> 00:49:44,120
Speaker 1: Then yeah. So I told him like we don't have

1130
00:49:44,120 --> 00:49:47,080
Speaker 1: to worry about it, like it's all good whatever, and

1131
00:49:47,120 --> 00:49:51,000
Speaker 1: he was like okay. He's like I Nick is the

1132
00:49:51,000 --> 00:49:53,560
Speaker 1: type of guy you say no he's gonna find ways

1133
00:49:53,600 --> 00:49:56,280
Speaker 1: and things and all that. And then I got pregnant.

1134
00:49:56,480 --> 00:49:59,200
Speaker 1: But then I had a miscarriage and then I kind

1135
00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:00,759
Speaker 1: of lived my life for a life little bit just

1136
00:50:00,800 --> 00:50:04,680
Speaker 1: to kind of grieve that. And we were still together,

1137
00:50:04,920 --> 00:50:07,400
Speaker 1: but not together. That's like a really weird thing because

1138
00:50:07,440 --> 00:50:11,560
Speaker 1: there's like no title in this, but we were still aligned.

1139
00:50:11,640 --> 00:50:14,480
Speaker 1: It just we were just taking some space. I needed

1140
00:50:14,520 --> 00:50:16,839
Speaker 1: space and he was on tour and all that. So

1141
00:50:16,880 --> 00:50:20,399
Speaker 1: then but he was adamant. He's like, let's try again.

1142
00:50:20,520 --> 00:50:23,120
Speaker 1: Let's do this again. Like whatever you need, I'm down

1143
00:50:23,400 --> 00:50:26,120
Speaker 1: to help you in any way. Let's do it again.

1144
00:50:26,280 --> 00:50:28,960
Speaker 1: And then we got pregnant. And then I was like,

1145
00:50:28,960 --> 00:50:30,840
Speaker 1: I think I'm having twins and he's like, no, you're not.

1146
00:50:30,960 --> 00:50:31,520
Speaker 4: I just felt it.

1147
00:50:31,600 --> 00:50:35,279
Speaker 1: Yeah, I felt it. But my mom also has so

1148
00:50:35,360 --> 00:50:37,879
Speaker 1: many twins in her family that it was like inevitable.

1149
00:50:38,400 --> 00:50:41,320
Speaker 1: And yeah, then I found out I was having my twins.

1150
00:50:41,360 --> 00:50:44,600
Speaker 1: And then six months after my twins, we had a

1151
00:50:44,640 --> 00:50:48,000
Speaker 1: really wild Valentine's date and I got pregnant with my daughter.

1152
00:50:48,719 --> 00:50:52,720
Speaker 4: Yeah, six months after six months.

1153
00:50:52,560 --> 00:50:56,560
Speaker 1: After damn girl, back to back, but back to back. Yep.

1154
00:50:57,440 --> 00:51:01,760
Speaker 5: Did you when you decided to have your child, your children.

1155
00:51:01,960 --> 00:51:04,440
Speaker 5: Was marriage ever like on your mind, like is the

1156
00:51:04,480 --> 00:51:08,680
Speaker 5: trajectory in which your I guess your relationship dynamics and

1157
00:51:08,719 --> 00:51:13,160
Speaker 5: parenting going what you would have thought for yourself, especially.

1158
00:51:12,800 --> 00:51:15,120
Speaker 4: Growing up in a religious house religious household.

1159
00:51:17,400 --> 00:51:20,480
Speaker 1: No, marriage never was like at the forefront of it.

1160
00:51:20,840 --> 00:51:26,720
Speaker 1: I just think because it wasn't. I always saw myself

1161
00:51:26,760 --> 00:51:28,920
Speaker 1: being married to like my prior partner. But because I

1162
00:51:28,920 --> 00:51:33,799
Speaker 1: already knew what was happening here, like what his whole

1163
00:51:33,920 --> 00:51:37,239
Speaker 1: views were, what he believed to be true, things like that,

1164
00:51:37,680 --> 00:51:40,560
Speaker 1: I just that didn't really bother me. I was just

1165
00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:42,440
Speaker 1: kind of like, Okay, I'm a minute, like what you're

1166
00:51:42,440 --> 00:51:43,120
Speaker 1: talking about naky?

1167
00:51:43,200 --> 00:51:44,320
Speaker 4: His views, yes, he was.

1168
00:51:44,360 --> 00:51:46,719
Speaker 5: He were always very open about like what where he

1169
00:51:46,840 --> 00:51:49,439
Speaker 5: was at or was he in developed like developing as

1170
00:51:49,640 --> 00:51:50,760
Speaker 5: your relationship was developed.

1171
00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:52,840
Speaker 1: It was kind of developing because he was never really

1172
00:51:52,960 --> 00:51:56,680
Speaker 1: fort like fort right. Is that the way forts right?

1173
00:51:56,960 --> 00:52:02,120
Speaker 1: In his full truth? And it was yeah, it was

1174
00:52:02,160 --> 00:52:04,560
Speaker 1: like elusive. It was like, oh, you know, you just

1175
00:52:04,600 --> 00:52:07,640
Speaker 1: see certain things online you just really don't know how

1176
00:52:07,680 --> 00:52:11,839
Speaker 1: deep or wide it is. And I was just kind

1177
00:52:11,880 --> 00:52:13,480
Speaker 1: of in it to have fun. But then when the

1178
00:52:13,480 --> 00:52:16,440
Speaker 1: babies came, I didn't think I didn't really think it

1179
00:52:16,480 --> 00:52:22,600
Speaker 1: was like such a serious matter until it was. So yeah,

1180
00:52:22,920 --> 00:52:26,040
Speaker 1: but marriage was never like my thing matter of.

1181
00:52:25,960 --> 00:52:30,440
Speaker 5: Like what like the marriage or like his views on relationship.

1182
00:52:31,280 --> 00:52:33,240
Speaker 5: You said you didn't think it was a serious matter.

1183
00:52:33,400 --> 00:52:36,720
Speaker 1: Oh, oh, like them like the not wanting to be married.

1184
00:52:36,840 --> 00:52:39,799
Speaker 1: I didn't think that was like a serious matter to me,

1185
00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:43,359
Speaker 1: even though that was my example fully of growing up,

1186
00:52:43,440 --> 00:52:45,160
Speaker 1: Like you get married, you have the kids, you have

1187
00:52:45,200 --> 00:52:47,440
Speaker 1: the white pick offense, you have everything you know, but

1188
00:52:47,719 --> 00:52:50,840
Speaker 1: this was I just always knew my path was so different.

1189
00:52:51,120 --> 00:52:54,719
Speaker 1: So in whatever ways that that was from a child,

1190
00:52:54,760 --> 00:52:57,560
Speaker 1: I've always knew my path was different, So I just

1191
00:52:57,800 --> 00:52:59,200
Speaker 1: kind of flowed with it.

1192
00:52:59,280 --> 00:53:01,759
Speaker 3: Did you feel like like a little bit rebellious from

1193
00:53:01,960 --> 00:53:03,520
Speaker 3: since you grew up in a kind of a strict

1194
00:53:03,520 --> 00:53:05,879
Speaker 3: religious household that you were Like, I realized that I've

1195
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:08,160
Speaker 3: experienced this and now I don't have to follow the

1196
00:53:08,239 --> 00:53:08,960
Speaker 3: rules in this way.

1197
00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:12,640
Speaker 1: It's weird, and I've said this so many times, like

1198
00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:15,200
Speaker 1: it never really felt like I was breaking any rules

1199
00:53:15,239 --> 00:53:19,960
Speaker 1: because Nick never collides like any other relationships. Everybody feels

1200
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:22,680
Speaker 1: really individualized and like you kind of just feel like

1201
00:53:22,760 --> 00:53:25,400
Speaker 1: you're with one person and then you open your Instagram

1202
00:53:25,480 --> 00:53:27,359
Speaker 1: and you're with twenty you know what I'm saying. So

1203
00:53:27,400 --> 00:53:29,000
Speaker 1: it was kind of like, really weird.

1204
00:53:29,400 --> 00:53:31,120
Speaker 4: Did you know that other women were expecting?

1205
00:53:31,440 --> 00:53:35,520
Speaker 1: Oh? Yeah? So the same year, I didn't know until

1206
00:53:35,520 --> 00:53:38,400
Speaker 1: I was eight months pregnant after our baby shower. He

1207
00:53:38,880 --> 00:53:41,040
Speaker 1: had just gotten back from a baby moon, and I

1208
00:53:41,080 --> 00:53:44,840
Speaker 1: didn't know girl, but she knew I was pregnant with twins,

1209
00:53:44,840 --> 00:53:48,400
Speaker 1: which was really interesting. So our sons are eight days apart.

1210
00:53:48,520 --> 00:53:48,920
Speaker 4: Wow.

1211
00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:52,840
Speaker 1: And then I didn't know somebody else was pregnant, but

1212
00:53:52,880 --> 00:53:55,400
Speaker 1: she had made herself known, like she would start damning

1213
00:53:55,440 --> 00:53:58,560
Speaker 1: my people like as a like my friend was a

1214
00:53:58,600 --> 00:54:01,360
Speaker 1: stylist and one of his other baby mamas was like dming,

1215
00:54:01,400 --> 00:54:03,000
Speaker 1: like would you like to collab with me? Like, so

1216
00:54:03,040 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 1: she was trying to get in in certain ways and

1217
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:06,879
Speaker 1: it was just like really weird. And I was like, oh,

1218
00:54:06,880 --> 00:54:08,640
Speaker 1: this girl must be messing with nick. She's a willing

1219
00:54:08,719 --> 00:54:10,880
Speaker 1: out girl. She's this She's not. So then I just

1220
00:54:10,920 --> 00:54:13,000
Speaker 1: like put that aside. But then I started seeing like

1221
00:54:13,040 --> 00:54:15,680
Speaker 1: her name more and like following my friends. My friends

1222
00:54:15,719 --> 00:54:17,880
Speaker 1: would be like, Yo, this girl's watching myself. It was

1223
00:54:17,880 --> 00:54:21,360
Speaker 1: just weird. And then a year later she was pregnant.

1224
00:54:21,800 --> 00:54:23,960
Speaker 1: And then I remember us having dinner at NOBU and

1225
00:54:24,000 --> 00:54:26,600
Speaker 1: he was like, I have several people pregnant right now,

1226
00:54:26,600 --> 00:54:27,920
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay.

1227
00:54:27,600 --> 00:54:29,480
Speaker 4: Well are you right for the Yeah, that was the

1228
00:54:29,640 --> 00:54:30,160
Speaker 4: that was the term.

1229
00:54:30,560 --> 00:54:32,480
Speaker 1: You knew he was dating other women while he was

1230
00:54:32,560 --> 00:54:35,400
Speaker 1: dating you, That wasn't yea yeah, no, no, yes, yes, yes,

1231
00:54:35,440 --> 00:54:37,319
Speaker 1: while you were pregnant, you also knew he was dating

1232
00:54:37,320 --> 00:54:37,719
Speaker 1: other women.

1233
00:54:37,920 --> 00:54:40,759
Speaker 5: Yes, yeah, And you were okay with that because you've

1234
00:54:40,760 --> 00:54:43,680
Speaker 5: had other you've had other relationship dynamics, or you had

1235
00:54:43,719 --> 00:54:47,000
Speaker 5: just kind of accepted that, Like how did you come

1236
00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:49,160
Speaker 5: to like be okay with that because you came.

1237
00:54:49,080 --> 00:54:54,600
Speaker 1: From a monogamous relationship. Yeah, okay, So my monogamous relationship

1238
00:54:54,719 --> 00:54:57,520
Speaker 1: put me through the fucking ringer, Like you know when

1239
00:54:57,719 --> 00:55:00,200
Speaker 1: you find out that when you open the door and

1240
00:55:00,239 --> 00:55:02,560
Speaker 1: you just find out like it wasn't actually it wasn't

1241
00:55:02,800 --> 00:55:05,640
Speaker 1: actually monogamous, It was you were actually part of a

1242
00:55:05,680 --> 00:55:10,560
Speaker 1: conglomerate as well the whole time. Rabbit. Yes, this one

1243
00:55:10,600 --> 00:55:14,440
Speaker 1: was actually really nice because like it was just honest

1244
00:55:14,640 --> 00:55:17,480
Speaker 1: and transparent, and it was like, how are you gonna

1245
00:55:17,640 --> 00:55:19,680
Speaker 1: like loose sleep over that when you just know what

1246
00:55:19,719 --> 00:55:22,799
Speaker 1: the vibes are and the level of respect for that person. Yeah, yeah,

1247
00:55:22,960 --> 00:55:26,160
Speaker 1: like things letting me know, you know, it was it

1248
00:55:26,200 --> 00:55:29,080
Speaker 1: was never really fully upfront, but you just knew in

1249
00:55:29,120 --> 00:55:32,000
Speaker 1: the ways where he was like, oh okay, well you know,

1250
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:34,440
Speaker 1: like there was certain things where you were just kind

1251
00:55:34,440 --> 00:55:36,359
Speaker 1: of that you would side eye, but then you'd also

1252
00:55:36,440 --> 00:55:38,520
Speaker 1: be like, you can't be mad at it, like it's honest,

1253
00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:41,879
Speaker 1: you know, but I never really felt a way, if

1254
00:55:41,880 --> 00:55:42,600
Speaker 1: that makes sense.

1255
00:55:42,680 --> 00:55:44,279
Speaker 3: So that night at Nobo, when he was like, by

1256
00:55:44,320 --> 00:55:46,200
Speaker 3: the way, I have several so are you? Was your

1257
00:55:46,440 --> 00:55:48,080
Speaker 3: response immediately angry because.

1258
00:55:47,920 --> 00:55:50,120
Speaker 4: I think I think people forget people.

1259
00:55:49,840 --> 00:55:52,840
Speaker 3: Don't realize, because I realized because I'm a jealous bitch, okay,

1260
00:55:53,239 --> 00:55:55,279
Speaker 3: and I don't want to be so it really irritates me.

1261
00:55:55,360 --> 00:55:58,840
Speaker 3: But I realized in my observe, like observing my own jealousy,

1262
00:55:58,960 --> 00:56:01,239
Speaker 3: that it's visceral, Like it's like it's like almost like

1263
00:56:01,239 --> 00:56:04,040
Speaker 3: I've been trained to react a certain way. Yeah, so

1264
00:56:04,040 --> 00:56:05,720
Speaker 3: it's not like, damn, I'm being told the truth.

1265
00:56:05,800 --> 00:56:08,040
Speaker 4: Damn. It's not like it's no, there's no secrets.

1266
00:56:07,680 --> 00:56:09,600
Speaker 3: Not that I've been open relationship, but we were initially,

1267
00:56:09,680 --> 00:56:11,000
Speaker 3: and I'd just be.

1268
00:56:10,960 --> 00:56:13,680
Speaker 4: Like and then then I'm like, God, who is that?

1269
00:56:13,960 --> 00:56:16,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, but like what so most people would be like, oh,

1270
00:56:16,719 --> 00:56:19,000
Speaker 3: I'm pregnant or just had a baby. This person is

1271
00:56:19,000 --> 00:56:21,920
Speaker 3: a delivering this information, and your first instinct is to

1272
00:56:21,960 --> 00:56:22,879
Speaker 3: be you know, like.

1273
00:56:25,400 --> 00:56:31,000
Speaker 1: I think I was more like good luck. That's crazy,

1274
00:56:31,160 --> 00:56:33,440
Speaker 1: you know, like that's wild work. I don't think I

1275
00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:37,239
Speaker 1: really thought about it in my own perspective because that

1276
00:56:37,320 --> 00:56:40,239
Speaker 1: was December and I got pregnant in February, so it

1277
00:56:40,440 --> 00:56:43,200
Speaker 1: still wasn't I wasn't still involved. It was just the no,

1278
00:56:43,600 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 1: like three people at the time, and then Valentine's Day

1279
00:56:46,680 --> 00:56:48,759
Speaker 1: came and then it was two more of this when

1280
00:56:48,800 --> 00:56:50,759
Speaker 1: you had already had two though with him, Yes, I

1281
00:56:50,800 --> 00:56:53,120
Speaker 1: already had two. So no, no, no, I wasn't like

1282
00:56:53,280 --> 00:56:55,439
Speaker 1: upset or anything. I just didn't want to find out

1283
00:56:55,480 --> 00:56:57,759
Speaker 1: like I did last time on the blogs, like I

1284
00:56:57,760 --> 00:57:00,480
Speaker 1: don't like that. How did you deal with that? That's well,

1285
00:57:00,840 --> 00:57:05,120
Speaker 1: my world got exposed and without my controls, so.

1286
00:57:05,320 --> 00:57:08,319
Speaker 5: You had already because you had been living in this

1287
00:57:08,360 --> 00:57:10,680
Speaker 5: world already, but no one else but nobody knew.

1288
00:57:11,000 --> 00:57:13,040
Speaker 1: Like if if I could have had it my way,

1289
00:57:13,120 --> 00:57:15,880
Speaker 1: like nobody would have known I had kids with Nick.

1290
00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:18,760
Speaker 4: Secret.

1291
00:57:18,760 --> 00:57:21,200
Speaker 1: I was very secretive about it all and then one

1292
00:57:21,280 --> 00:57:23,840
Speaker 1: day like she just hit the fan and then it

1293
00:57:24,040 --> 00:57:27,000
Speaker 1: just went all over the blogs and the most messiest

1294
00:57:27,040 --> 00:57:29,960
Speaker 1: of ways. And I remember being like, Okay, no, I'm

1295
00:57:29,960 --> 00:57:32,640
Speaker 1: gonna wait, I'm going to plan and then I'll take

1296
00:57:32,640 --> 00:57:35,000
Speaker 1: the narrative back. So I did this like super lovey

1297
00:57:35,040 --> 00:57:37,760
Speaker 1: maternity shoot just to show like you guys can't take

1298
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:40,440
Speaker 1: my power. Like it just was more like this is

1299
00:57:40,480 --> 00:57:42,400
Speaker 1: what I'm doing and this is how it is. And

1300
00:57:42,440 --> 00:57:45,440
Speaker 1: then that was just my way of just kind of

1301
00:57:45,480 --> 00:57:47,040
Speaker 1: being like, Okay, it is what it is. And then

1302
00:57:47,560 --> 00:57:51,640
Speaker 1: we would still have like very open and honest conversations

1303
00:57:52,840 --> 00:57:56,880
Speaker 1: and yeah, it just never really bothered me. I'm really grateful,

1304
00:57:56,920 --> 00:58:00,280
Speaker 1: Like my mom was never really like a like she was.

1305
00:58:00,640 --> 00:58:04,760
Speaker 1: She just always uplifted women and just was different. So

1306
00:58:04,800 --> 00:58:06,920
Speaker 1: for me, like I never really went in this and

1307
00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:09,600
Speaker 1: being like fuck her. Fuck her. It's until the disrespect

1308
00:58:09,680 --> 00:58:12,880
Speaker 1: started happening later on the other oh and later on

1309
00:58:12,920 --> 00:58:16,640
Speaker 1: in motherhood of course. But now it's like like like internally, yeah,

1310
00:58:16,640 --> 00:58:18,840
Speaker 1: internally so yeah, and it's like say the.

1311
00:58:18,800 --> 00:58:21,240
Speaker 4: Grape vine or like someone's calling you up like hey, bitch.

1312
00:58:21,040 --> 00:58:23,640
Speaker 1: No, none of them have the balls. I called him up.

1313
00:58:23,680 --> 00:58:25,400
Speaker 1: But they've always just done the Instagram.

1314
00:58:26,560 --> 00:58:28,439
Speaker 5: I know for me, like when I when my baby

1315
00:58:28,520 --> 00:58:33,600
Speaker 5: daddy started having other children, Like, well, maybe you know

1316
00:58:33,640 --> 00:58:35,520
Speaker 5: this or maybe you don't, but the reason why me

1317
00:58:35,640 --> 00:58:37,480
Speaker 5: and my baby daddy initially broke up is because you

1318
00:58:37,480 --> 00:58:41,560
Speaker 5: got another woman pregnant. Who is your baby daddy. His

1319
00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:44,760
Speaker 5: name's Freddy, Okay, Freddy Gibbs's.

1320
00:58:44,440 --> 00:58:47,560
Speaker 1: Okay, that's your baby daddy. Yes, that's the father of

1321
00:58:47,600 --> 00:58:48,880
Speaker 1: your child. Okay.

1322
00:58:49,200 --> 00:58:50,880
Speaker 2: I don't think I've ever said his full name on

1323
00:58:50,920 --> 00:58:51,360
Speaker 2: the podcast.

1324
00:58:51,360 --> 00:58:54,240
Speaker 1: I don't think i've known that either. Yeah.

1325
00:58:54,280 --> 00:58:56,040
Speaker 5: So we were together for a really long time. Anyway,

1326
00:58:56,120 --> 00:58:59,720
Speaker 5: long story short, he ended up getting another woman pregnant while.

1327
00:58:59,600 --> 00:59:00,920
Speaker 1: We were Are you devastated?

1328
00:59:01,040 --> 00:59:02,800
Speaker 5: Of course I was. I mean I thought we were

1329
00:59:02,960 --> 00:59:05,040
Speaker 5: about it. We were, we were planning our wedding like

1330
00:59:05,160 --> 00:59:08,440
Speaker 5: it was a whole thing. But think, I'm thankful for this.

1331
00:59:08,560 --> 00:59:14,360
Speaker 5: It like spawned a whole world for me. But I

1332
00:59:14,400 --> 00:59:17,880
Speaker 5: even like when that child was born, that was so

1333
00:59:18,040 --> 00:59:21,160
Speaker 5: hard for me. That was so painful for me. Obviously

1334
00:59:21,160 --> 00:59:23,000
Speaker 5: a little bit different because it was like I didn't

1335
00:59:23,040 --> 00:59:24,560
Speaker 5: know he was living these double lives.

1336
00:59:25,120 --> 00:59:27,240
Speaker 1: One would assume now people are like, bitch, you're dating

1337
00:59:27,280 --> 00:59:28,960
Speaker 1: a fucking rapper? What fuck did you think?

1338
00:59:29,240 --> 00:59:31,800
Speaker 5: But like the way our relationship was and our home

1339
00:59:31,840 --> 00:59:34,720
Speaker 5: life was was so intimate, was so connected. That's my

1340
00:59:34,840 --> 00:59:38,320
Speaker 5: best friend. Like it wasn't like what people might think.

1341
00:59:39,240 --> 00:59:42,480
Speaker 5: But then even after that, like the I guess what

1342
00:59:42,480 --> 00:59:45,960
Speaker 5: I'm trying to allude to is like the territorialness we

1343
00:59:46,040 --> 00:59:49,840
Speaker 5: have as mothers over a our children. But also like

1344
00:59:49,880 --> 00:59:52,680
Speaker 5: that that title, that type, not even the title, but

1345
00:59:52,760 --> 00:59:57,960
Speaker 5: like the title the time, and just what that means

1346
00:59:57,960 --> 00:59:59,520
Speaker 5: for me, what that means for my child? Now that

1347
00:59:59,520 --> 01:00:01,600
Speaker 5: you're gonna have all these other kids, What does that

1348
01:00:01,640 --> 01:00:03,400
Speaker 5: mean for my child? What does that mean for like

1349
01:00:03,560 --> 01:00:06,160
Speaker 5: how much time you're going to spend with our child

1350
01:00:06,240 --> 01:00:06,920
Speaker 5: and how much.

1351
01:00:08,240 --> 01:00:11,280
Speaker 1: How much energy you're willing to dedicate to this.

1352
01:00:12,400 --> 01:00:14,280
Speaker 5: And so I'm just curious, like how that's shown up

1353
01:00:14,280 --> 01:00:16,560
Speaker 5: for you as a mom and a mama bear and

1354
01:00:16,640 --> 01:00:19,720
Speaker 5: having you know, your child having twelve or I think

1355
01:00:19,760 --> 01:00:23,200
Speaker 5: twelve siblings or eleven siblings, how do you do?

1356
01:00:23,360 --> 01:00:26,440
Speaker 1: How does that show up? Oh it's been really tough. Yeah, absolutely,

1357
01:00:26,600 --> 01:00:29,520
Speaker 1: Like he's great at balancing the every day and all that,

1358
01:00:29,600 --> 01:00:32,720
Speaker 1: but just as like a mom speaking without nick, like

1359
01:00:32,800 --> 01:00:36,120
Speaker 1: I think father's just in general, it's I know, my

1360
01:00:36,240 --> 01:00:39,480
Speaker 1: dad worked from sun up to sundown, and this man's

1361
01:00:39,560 --> 01:00:42,640
Speaker 1: ambition and just work ethic is so next level. So

1362
01:00:42,760 --> 01:00:44,280
Speaker 1: I always knew it was going to be like an

1363
01:00:44,320 --> 01:00:46,800
Speaker 1: eighty twenty as far as parenting is concerned.

1364
01:00:46,840 --> 01:00:48,480
Speaker 4: Is that a conversation you guys had. Are you just knew?

1365
01:00:48,480 --> 01:00:51,720
Speaker 1: No? I just knew. I just knew. I just knew

1366
01:00:51,720 --> 01:00:53,920
Speaker 1: also too, because my example of a man was like

1367
01:00:54,000 --> 01:00:57,120
Speaker 1: the provider and the worker and I'm going to be gone,

1368
01:00:57,200 --> 01:00:59,640
Speaker 1: and you know, my dad was like I said, five

1369
01:00:59,680 --> 01:01:02,880
Speaker 1: am to five pm, and this one was just different.

1370
01:01:03,000 --> 01:01:07,520
Speaker 1: It was just a different scenario. So I think, thank

1371
01:01:07,760 --> 01:01:13,960
Speaker 1: god it didn't really put too much strain on me

1372
01:01:14,040 --> 01:01:17,240
Speaker 1: because I had such a beautiful support system with my family,

1373
01:01:17,400 --> 01:01:21,040
Speaker 1: like my mom, my dad, my brother, my sister, especially

1374
01:01:21,120 --> 01:01:23,440
Speaker 1: like she moved in with me to help me with

1375
01:01:23,440 --> 01:01:26,840
Speaker 1: my children, and my mom, you know, at the time,

1376
01:01:27,000 --> 01:01:30,200
Speaker 1: was COVID heavy, so she came into my place and

1377
01:01:30,280 --> 01:01:32,720
Speaker 1: set up her work computer and would help me with

1378
01:01:32,760 --> 01:01:36,160
Speaker 1: the kids downstairs. So she I just had the best

1379
01:01:36,560 --> 01:01:40,680
Speaker 1: support system that I can't really say that his lack

1380
01:01:40,720 --> 01:01:44,600
Speaker 1: of like affected my parenting, but I just knew I

1381
01:01:44,720 --> 01:01:48,640
Speaker 1: was going to carry a lot of the load. I

1382
01:01:48,640 --> 01:01:51,880
Speaker 1: have a really I'm very curious about does he have.

1383
01:01:51,800 --> 01:01:57,120
Speaker 5: A home, live in all of the houses of all

1384
01:01:57,160 --> 01:01:58,920
Speaker 5: he lives in all the houses, but he had a

1385
01:01:58,920 --> 01:02:01,520
Speaker 5: closet and every home and he can just step in.

1386
01:02:03,160 --> 01:02:06,240
Speaker 1: He has his Jersey home that's like fully nick like

1387
01:02:06,240 --> 01:02:09,840
Speaker 1: when you go into his Jersey home, it's like exuberant,

1388
01:02:10,040 --> 01:02:14,200
Speaker 1: it's loud, it's luxury. It's just all the things that

1389
01:02:14,320 --> 01:02:17,720
Speaker 1: can expect. And then all of us have like a home,

1390
01:02:17,800 --> 01:02:20,280
Speaker 1: and he has a closet there and he has you know,

1391
01:02:20,520 --> 01:02:21,760
Speaker 1: like he's like a traveling gypsy.

1392
01:02:21,960 --> 01:02:24,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, it kind of feels like that's kind of cool,

1393
01:02:24,960 --> 01:02:25,400
Speaker 4: I said.

1394
01:02:25,560 --> 01:02:27,680
Speaker 1: I said in my last interview, I was like, sister

1395
01:02:27,840 --> 01:02:30,040
Speaker 1: of the traveling pants is like the real thing, because

1396
01:02:30,040 --> 01:02:31,560
Speaker 1: we'll end up with like a pair of pants from

1397
01:02:31,600 --> 01:02:34,280
Speaker 1: the other closet and the other closet. It's just it's

1398
01:02:34,320 --> 01:02:37,320
Speaker 1: really it's a really interesting dynamic. And I don't think

1399
01:02:37,360 --> 01:02:41,080
Speaker 1: people are ever going to understand it doesn't matter how happen. Yeah,

1400
01:02:41,320 --> 01:02:43,880
Speaker 1: I don't think as much as I talk about it,

1401
01:02:43,960 --> 01:02:45,880
Speaker 1: or as much as it gets talked about, people are

1402
01:02:45,920 --> 01:02:48,600
Speaker 1: still not gonna wrap their head around it. It's just

1403
01:02:48,680 --> 01:02:50,720
Speaker 1: you have to be in it to understand you're not

1404
01:02:50,880 --> 01:02:51,200
Speaker 1: You're not.

1405
01:02:51,440 --> 01:02:54,320
Speaker 3: I have a question. Yes, this is really pressing for me.

1406
01:02:55,440 --> 01:02:57,320
Speaker 3: You don't think you're ever gonna want like a little

1407
01:02:57,360 --> 01:02:58,000
Speaker 3: side boyfriend?

1408
01:02:58,680 --> 01:02:59,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, who does?

1409
01:03:00,200 --> 01:03:01,320
Speaker 4: That's what that's I thought.

1410
01:03:01,400 --> 01:03:04,720
Speaker 3: I was like, Nick, don't kill me, but I just

1411
01:03:04,720 --> 01:03:06,360
Speaker 3: want to know because a bitch like me, I'm gonna

1412
01:03:06,320 --> 01:03:08,080
Speaker 3: have a couple of, you know, little hoes on the side,

1413
01:03:08,120 --> 01:03:08,840
Speaker 3: little boyfriend.

1414
01:03:08,920 --> 01:03:10,800
Speaker 4: You know. That's why she was like, Nigga, don't be

1415
01:03:10,800 --> 01:03:15,640
Speaker 4: popping up. I had a schedule, Like.

1416
01:03:17,120 --> 01:03:19,240
Speaker 1: I think. I think I'm at an age right now

1417
01:03:19,280 --> 01:03:22,120
Speaker 1: to where i'm too. I'm thirty, I'm gonna be thirty six, okay,

1418
01:03:22,320 --> 01:03:24,680
Speaker 1: so I'm just out of age where like I'm trying

1419
01:03:24,720 --> 01:03:29,520
Speaker 1: to refine like my sexual you know, just where I'm

1420
01:03:29,520 --> 01:03:32,520
Speaker 1: at as far as that's concerned, like being more free

1421
01:03:32,560 --> 01:03:36,560
Speaker 1: and liberated because my world is so like mommy, mommy,

1422
01:03:36,680 --> 01:03:41,120
Speaker 1: and like all like the p's and q's and dotted

1423
01:03:41,160 --> 01:03:44,800
Speaker 1: eyes and assistants and schedules and it's just like no, no, no,

1424
01:03:44,800 --> 01:03:47,480
Speaker 1: I need to break for myself, you know, and I

1425
01:03:47,520 --> 01:04:03,320
Speaker 1: need to like shake these titties like you know, so many.

1426
01:04:00,840 --> 01:04:03,680
Speaker 5: I bought them, and I haven't shook them.

1427
01:04:04,200 --> 01:04:08,880
Speaker 1: I have not fully taken these in their full recommend

1428
01:04:09,160 --> 01:04:11,320
Speaker 1: I have a cool like I had a full boom job,

1429
01:04:11,360 --> 01:04:13,840
Speaker 1: I had a lollipop lift and all that, and I

1430
01:04:13,880 --> 01:04:16,080
Speaker 1: have not no bitch, it's time.

1431
01:04:16,400 --> 01:04:20,680
Speaker 3: But first were going out, there were were skinny dipping.

1432
01:04:20,760 --> 01:04:23,200
Speaker 4: I wear, I wear my boobs, I got played.

1433
01:04:23,240 --> 01:04:25,200
Speaker 1: I wear a lot of like clothes like this, So

1434
01:04:25,280 --> 01:04:27,080
Speaker 1: I would you would think, but like, I mean, like.

1435
01:04:27,840 --> 01:04:29,320
Speaker 4: You know, I'm here for just let us know when.

1436
01:04:30,280 --> 01:04:32,480
Speaker 5: Okay, Well, I'm glad you asked that question because that

1437
01:04:32,560 --> 01:04:34,000
Speaker 5: leads me into a little game that we like.

1438
01:04:34,480 --> 01:04:38,000
Speaker 3: Okay, I'm gonna light the backwood. Okay, ready, yes, okay,

1439
01:04:38,160 --> 01:04:39,360
Speaker 3: this is our backwood.

1440
01:04:41,040 --> 01:04:44,880
Speaker 1: Okay, so this backwood is our Banana Foster's backwood. Nice.

1441
01:04:45,480 --> 01:04:50,280
Speaker 5: I actually received this from Teddy from the couple's retreat.

1442
01:04:50,760 --> 01:04:53,000
Speaker 4: Teddy gave that which that was six months That was

1443
01:04:53,040 --> 01:04:57,360
Speaker 4: seven months ago. It's it's February. It's also I wanted

1444
01:04:57,360 --> 01:04:57,800
Speaker 4: to tell.

1445
01:04:57,640 --> 01:05:01,000
Speaker 3: You speaking of it being February, happy four year anniversary

1446
01:05:01,040 --> 01:05:03,480
Speaker 3: of our Good Vibe Retreat. Oh my god, we've been

1447
01:05:03,520 --> 01:05:06,040
Speaker 3: in business for four years.

1448
01:05:06,080 --> 01:05:09,480
Speaker 4: Four years. We've been we've been doing four years of retreat. Wow.

1449
01:05:09,560 --> 01:05:11,840
Speaker 3: And we're going on to our twentieth retreat four four

1450
01:05:11,840 --> 01:05:15,040
Speaker 3: to twenty in Jamaica in April. So congratulations, bitch, thank you.

1451
01:05:15,200 --> 01:05:16,440
Speaker 3: And I don't know if you talked about something, this

1452
01:05:16,480 --> 01:05:18,320
Speaker 3: is totally this is totally said. Because I'm eighty d

1453
01:05:18,600 --> 01:05:20,800
Speaker 3: we also reached a million dollars in our business last year.

1454
01:05:20,880 --> 01:05:25,040
Speaker 4: But that's amazing, and I that's a huge deal. I

1455
01:05:25,080 --> 01:05:28,080
Speaker 4: never I never knew ever I would to be a millionaire.

1456
01:05:28,480 --> 01:05:29,600
Speaker 4: I'm not saying we're millionaires.

1457
01:05:29,920 --> 01:05:32,200
Speaker 3: That's I didn't know. I didn't think it was possible.

1458
01:05:32,280 --> 01:05:34,360
Speaker 3: But you did that. We did that, and I'm very

1459
01:05:34,400 --> 01:05:36,040
Speaker 3: proud of you, and I just want you to take

1460
01:05:36,040 --> 01:05:37,400
Speaker 3: that mon Here's to more millions.

1461
01:05:37,760 --> 01:05:39,080
Speaker 4: Yea, thank you, Teddy.

1462
01:05:39,200 --> 01:05:43,280
Speaker 3: You are are our four year o'clock blunt. And it

1463
01:05:43,360 --> 01:05:44,960
Speaker 3: was a little dry, so I had to do some.

1464
01:05:45,120 --> 01:05:46,280
Speaker 1: She had to do some doctoring.

1465
01:05:46,360 --> 01:05:48,520
Speaker 4: You know, I'm a doctor. You just called me doctor Backwood.

1466
01:05:48,520 --> 01:05:52,280
Speaker 3: Okay, I'm a doctor of the blunt and I've the logically,

1467
01:05:52,640 --> 01:05:52,959
Speaker 3: so there.

1468
01:05:52,880 --> 01:05:54,040
Speaker 1: Was a little hole in there and I was like,

1469
01:05:54,040 --> 01:05:55,840
Speaker 1: I don't know what it's like. Don't you worry.

1470
01:05:55,920 --> 01:05:56,400
Speaker 4: We got it.

1471
01:05:56,480 --> 01:05:57,160
Speaker 1: You got it.

1472
01:05:57,520 --> 01:06:07,800
Speaker 4: So happy birthday, bitch? Sweet like it is it working?

1473
01:06:08,520 --> 01:06:09,600
Speaker 4: You need to put your you need to put your

1474
01:06:09,600 --> 01:06:12,160
Speaker 4: finger in the middle. You need secure, secure it more.

1475
01:06:12,200 --> 01:06:14,960
Speaker 3: Okay, let me do this overtime manifest with us. Put

1476
01:06:15,000 --> 01:06:18,480
Speaker 3: a manifestation to more millions, more millions.

1477
01:06:19,160 --> 01:06:19,640
Speaker 4: Oh we got it.

1478
01:06:19,640 --> 01:06:22,280
Speaker 1: Okay, I love you too. Oh sweet?

1479
01:06:23,120 --> 01:06:24,800
Speaker 2: Hmmm that taste that tastes good?

1480
01:06:25,040 --> 01:06:26,440
Speaker 4: Is it about? Anafoster with the band?

1481
01:06:28,120 --> 01:06:31,040
Speaker 3: So we like to play a little game and it's

1482
01:06:31,080 --> 01:06:34,440
Speaker 3: called Trigger. And the whole purpose is that we get

1483
01:06:34,440 --> 01:06:36,560
Speaker 3: to know you quick. Our audience gets to know you quick.

1484
01:06:36,560 --> 01:06:38,560
Speaker 3: So we're going to say one word and you're going

1485
01:06:38,640 --> 01:06:40,600
Speaker 3: to say the first thing one word that comes back,

1486
01:06:40,800 --> 01:06:43,440
Speaker 3: the first thing that comes up. So don't think about it.

1487
01:06:43,480 --> 01:06:47,000
Speaker 3: I'll overthink it. There's no wrong answers, and.

1488
01:06:47,800 --> 01:06:48,400
Speaker 2: This is trigger.

1489
01:06:48,480 --> 01:06:56,800
Speaker 1: Let's do it. Bad habits, I have a word. Yeah,

1490
01:06:56,800 --> 01:07:00,800
Speaker 1: what's your bad habit? What's a bad habit you have? Oh?

1491
01:07:00,880 --> 01:07:04,160
Speaker 1: My god, I don't know.

1492
01:07:04,760 --> 01:07:08,000
Speaker 4: Crushing out then I have a.

1493
01:07:07,960 --> 01:07:12,760
Speaker 1: Lot of bad habits. I just don't know which one.

1494
01:07:13,120 --> 01:07:15,920
Speaker 1: Being emotional that is not a bad habit. That is

1495
01:07:15,920 --> 01:07:22,200
Speaker 1: a healthy Astrology sign Scorpio marriage maybe in the cards. Religion,

1496
01:07:23,520 --> 01:07:29,560
Speaker 1: Jesus breastfeeding. What's for carey icon?

1497
01:07:30,040 --> 01:07:31,320
Speaker 2: Last time you had sex.

1498
01:07:33,200 --> 01:07:39,080
Speaker 1: A few days ago? Was it good? Yeah? Porn category raunchy.

1499
01:07:39,760 --> 01:07:40,600
Speaker 4: That's a category.

1500
01:07:41,640 --> 01:07:43,320
Speaker 1: I don't know, is that or is it wor's your

1501
01:07:43,320 --> 01:07:50,440
Speaker 1: favorite porn category? Oh? My favorite porn category? Just just anything, sensual, sensual,

1502
01:07:50,720 --> 01:07:51,440
Speaker 1: central massage.

1503
01:07:51,520 --> 01:07:59,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, love language, words of affirmation, co parenting, a struggle,

1504
01:08:00,680 --> 01:08:04,760
Speaker 5: sister wives, hilarious, breed to see.

1505
01:08:06,040 --> 01:08:14,320
Speaker 1: Who deal breaker, communication, more kids, I'm gonna think of it.

1506
01:08:15,000 --> 01:08:25,879
Speaker 1: Toxic trait being myself, my whole self, favorite sex position,

1507
01:08:27,160 --> 01:08:28,639
Speaker 1: all of them.

1508
01:08:28,800 --> 01:08:41,679
Speaker 5: Narcissism, interesting femininity, sexy Mahicana, pride, lani Cha cole artsy

1509
01:08:42,600 --> 01:08:51,839
Speaker 5: turn on, ruggedness, just celebrity crush. I guess, Nick Cannon,

1510
01:08:52,600 --> 01:08:57,599
Speaker 5: baby daddy therapy essential, best advice you ever.

1511
01:08:57,479 --> 01:09:10,519
Speaker 1: Got, best advice. God, that's good, Doctor Seuss. There's no

1512
01:09:10,560 --> 01:09:12,280
Speaker 1: one alive more your than you.

1513
01:09:14,320 --> 01:09:17,760
Speaker 2: Threesome had it? How was it?

1514
01:09:17,760 --> 01:09:20,120
Speaker 1: It was one of the baby moms, Really.

1515
01:09:22,479 --> 01:09:22,720
Speaker 4: It was.

1516
01:09:23,000 --> 01:09:25,439
Speaker 1: It was fine. It was cool like that pre babies.

1517
01:09:25,560 --> 01:09:29,280
Speaker 1: That was how my daughter was conceived. It was fun.

1518
01:09:29,479 --> 01:09:30,120
Speaker 4: That's rhythm.

1519
01:09:30,640 --> 01:09:33,240
Speaker 1: It might have combined Valentine's Day?

1520
01:09:33,280 --> 01:09:34,160
Speaker 4: Are you guys cool? Still?

1521
01:09:34,439 --> 01:09:34,759
Speaker 1: No?

1522
01:09:35,040 --> 01:09:36,519
Speaker 4: Damn, damn that would have been.

1523
01:09:36,720 --> 01:09:38,760
Speaker 1: That's that's iconic, which leads me to my next question.

1524
01:09:38,760 --> 01:09:39,360
Speaker 1: Pussy eating.

1525
01:09:39,920 --> 01:09:44,599
Speaker 3: No, so was it like a goddess experience.

1526
01:09:45,200 --> 01:09:47,120
Speaker 1: It was just more like a fun experience. Did you

1527
01:09:47,160 --> 01:09:48,960
Speaker 1: guys play with each other or you guys just I

1528
01:09:48,960 --> 01:09:51,599
Speaker 1: don't really remember much because I was really like we

1529
01:09:51,640 --> 01:09:54,280
Speaker 1: had a lot of tequila. It went from like Tao

1530
01:09:54,400 --> 01:09:57,080
Speaker 1: to like another place to another place, so it was

1531
01:09:57,080 --> 01:10:00,000
Speaker 1: like it was pretty lit. It was it planned or no,

1532
01:10:00,040 --> 01:10:01,519
Speaker 1: because her and I were just having dinner and then

1533
01:10:01,760 --> 01:10:03,880
Speaker 1: Nick knew we were at dinner, so then he showed up,

1534
01:10:03,920 --> 01:10:06,599
Speaker 1: and then her and I had were we were already

1535
01:10:06,600 --> 01:10:09,640
Speaker 1: on like a spiral of tequila shots and the real

1536
01:10:09,680 --> 01:10:12,160
Speaker 1: quick Yeah, and then it happened the first time, and

1537
01:10:12,200 --> 01:10:15,720
Speaker 1: then it happened again in another state. So it just

1538
01:10:15,880 --> 01:10:17,120
Speaker 1: was like a thing more than one time.

1539
01:10:17,680 --> 01:10:19,599
Speaker 4: That was your only three sime experience.

1540
01:10:19,800 --> 01:10:22,479
Speaker 2: Yes, yeah, would you do it again?

1541
01:10:23,080 --> 01:10:25,440
Speaker 1: Yeah? Yeah?

1542
01:10:25,840 --> 01:10:28,559
Speaker 4: She never eat pussy, I don't think so.

1543
01:10:28,640 --> 01:10:32,040
Speaker 1: I don't really really remember about the second time. I

1544
01:10:32,080 --> 01:10:35,960
Speaker 1: don't remember either. Philip had us all like really late.

1545
01:10:36,000 --> 01:10:39,479
Speaker 1: It was like a good time and we were drinking

1546
01:10:39,520 --> 01:10:41,800
Speaker 1: and then we live like a joint at the house,

1547
01:10:41,800 --> 01:10:45,439
Speaker 1: so we were really, you know, we were really next level. Yeah.

1548
01:10:45,479 --> 01:10:46,519
Speaker 2: How many kids does she have?

1549
01:10:48,720 --> 01:10:48,960
Speaker 1: Two?

1550
01:10:49,200 --> 01:10:49,720
Speaker 2: Okay?

1551
01:10:49,800 --> 01:10:50,120
Speaker 4: Three?

1552
01:10:50,320 --> 01:10:51,320
Speaker 1: Three? She has three? Oh?

1553
01:10:51,360 --> 01:10:52,080
Speaker 2: I know which one? It is?

1554
01:10:54,120 --> 01:10:54,519
Speaker 4: Business?

1555
01:10:54,640 --> 01:10:56,480
Speaker 2: I do because I looked at the baby mama.

1556
01:10:56,240 --> 01:10:59,679
Speaker 1: Tree, not the tree. I think that needs to be everywhere.

1557
01:10:59,720 --> 01:11:00,759
Speaker 1: But wait, that was funny.

1558
01:11:00,880 --> 01:11:01,719
Speaker 2: Was a baby tree?

1559
01:11:02,400 --> 01:11:06,559
Speaker 1: Didn't know? Of course? I mean, wait, okay, I just

1560
01:11:06,600 --> 01:11:09,280
Speaker 1: want to go back to the bree one. I didn't

1561
01:11:09,280 --> 01:11:13,679
Speaker 1: mean who. I just was like, wait, who, I guess bosses? Yes,

1562
01:11:13,720 --> 01:11:17,280
Speaker 1: she's boss. Yeah, okay, the boss. Okay, that's kind of you.

1563
01:11:17,360 --> 01:11:20,800
Speaker 2: Malf me cannabis.

1564
01:11:21,160 --> 01:11:24,120
Speaker 1: I think it's very helpful and healing when I hit this. No, no,

1565
01:11:24,160 --> 01:11:26,479
Speaker 1: I'm good. I'm good. I'm good. But I definitely had

1566
01:11:26,600 --> 01:11:31,000
Speaker 1: my era and it's it's it was fun. Yeah, mushrooms

1567
01:11:31,439 --> 01:11:33,599
Speaker 1: never tried no no.

1568
01:11:33,600 --> 01:11:35,519
Speaker 3: So we had to get skinny dip and to get

1569
01:11:35,520 --> 01:11:36,240
Speaker 3: to mushrooms.

1570
01:11:36,479 --> 01:11:38,880
Speaker 1: Girls. I'm nervous about the shrooms. I'm scared to go

1571
01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:41,719
Speaker 1: on like a trip the tree because I'm super up tight,

1572
01:11:41,840 --> 01:11:43,760
Speaker 1: so like I can't even imagine. I'll probably be like

1573
01:11:44,040 --> 01:11:47,639
Speaker 1: it's everything done fixed. No, that will be the first okay,

1574
01:11:47,880 --> 01:11:54,120
Speaker 1: pet peeve, Okay, not communicating.

1575
01:11:55,560 --> 01:11:57,080
Speaker 2: Favorite quality about Nick.

1576
01:12:00,360 --> 01:12:04,240
Speaker 1: Favorite quality about Nick, there's like several. Uh, he's just

1577
01:12:04,280 --> 01:12:09,960
Speaker 1: a really like generous person. He's really kind. Yeah, fair food,

1578
01:12:10,439 --> 01:12:26,280
Speaker 1: Chinese birth traumatic, biggest accomplishment, biggest accomplishment finding myself, motherhood, motherhood. Yeah,

1579
01:12:26,960 --> 01:12:28,760
Speaker 1: just finding myself through that. Yeah.

1580
01:12:28,880 --> 01:12:30,280
Speaker 2: No, the other question is motherhood.

1581
01:12:30,280 --> 01:12:34,440
Speaker 1: Oh, motherhood, I mean beautiful.

1582
01:12:35,160 --> 01:12:35,360
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1583
01:12:35,720 --> 01:12:37,360
Speaker 1: What's Nick's libra?

1584
01:12:37,560 --> 01:12:37,920
Speaker 4: Libra?

1585
01:12:38,360 --> 01:12:42,240
Speaker 5: Well, I'm you've survived a trigger congratulations, Like, let me

1586
01:12:42,320 --> 01:12:48,559
Speaker 5: rephrase that before somebody starts subbing me on instagramatic.

1587
01:12:49,800 --> 01:12:53,000
Speaker 3: I'm sure as time goes, everybody will be I feel

1588
01:12:53,000 --> 01:12:53,639
Speaker 3: like more merry.

1589
01:12:53,920 --> 01:12:56,280
Speaker 5: So you've mentioned that being in this conglomerate that you

1590
01:12:56,360 --> 01:13:00,760
Speaker 5: call it, you feel like you're in a monogas monogamous relationship.

1591
01:13:00,920 --> 01:13:02,840
Speaker 1: I do, but I know it's open. But I think

1592
01:13:02,880 --> 01:13:05,639
Speaker 1: people forget like we're all in an open relationship.

1593
01:13:05,880 --> 01:13:08,720
Speaker 4: So if you got a sideboyfriend, I don't know.

1594
01:13:08,800 --> 01:13:10,439
Speaker 1: I never tried. I gotta try it.

1595
01:13:10,479 --> 01:13:13,560
Speaker 5: But but is the setup that you guys are monogamous

1596
01:13:13,560 --> 01:13:15,200
Speaker 5: to him and that you guys aren't allowed to have

1597
01:13:15,280 --> 01:13:16,560
Speaker 5: your own monopoly?

1598
01:13:16,800 --> 01:13:17,240
Speaker 1: Monopoly?

1599
01:13:17,439 --> 01:13:18,040
Speaker 4: Is that what it's called?

1600
01:13:18,160 --> 01:13:21,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, So like one person, several people, and.

1601
01:13:21,320 --> 01:13:25,160
Speaker 5: This is a conversation that he's had with you guys.

1602
01:13:25,280 --> 01:13:29,280
Speaker 1: This is the dynamic that you guys have just three two, Yeah.

1603
01:13:29,400 --> 01:13:31,479
Speaker 4: You did agree. It's not just like an unspoken thing.

1604
01:13:31,600 --> 01:13:34,479
Speaker 1: No, it is unspoken, friend, but it'd be over between

1605
01:13:34,520 --> 01:13:36,360
Speaker 1: you guys. You think I don't know, I gotta try it.

1606
01:13:36,640 --> 01:13:40,080
Speaker 1: You never had that conversation. You never said, Nick, what

1607
01:13:40,200 --> 01:13:41,320
Speaker 1: if I went and got some date?

1608
01:13:41,560 --> 01:13:45,760
Speaker 4: No conversation.

1609
01:13:46,520 --> 01:13:47,840
Speaker 1: I've never had that conversation.

1610
01:13:48,080 --> 01:13:50,600
Speaker 3: I'm petty the first question, like, listen, I got a

1611
01:13:50,600 --> 01:13:53,000
Speaker 3: couple of niggas, I got their numbers, so I just.

1612
01:13:52,960 --> 01:13:55,760
Speaker 1: Want to Never I just never thought to ask, like,

1613
01:13:55,840 --> 01:13:58,360
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't. It's never crossed my mind to

1614
01:13:58,400 --> 01:13:59,880
Speaker 1: be like, Okay, what's gonna happen.

1615
01:14:00,160 --> 01:14:01,599
Speaker 4: Nick's never gonna let you come back on the show,

1616
01:14:02,439 --> 01:14:06,120
Speaker 4: like fuck those bitches. It's not it's not personal host.

1617
01:14:06,280 --> 01:14:08,840
Speaker 4: This is my personal question. I need to know you

1618
01:14:08,840 --> 01:14:09,880
Speaker 4: don't hang out those bitches.

1619
01:14:09,880 --> 01:14:12,600
Speaker 1: No, Mo, It's true that I've never had that conversation.

1620
01:14:13,000 --> 01:14:16,599
Speaker 4: Really well, I'm just when you do call us, no, no, you.

1621
01:14:16,560 --> 01:14:17,160
Speaker 1: Need a practice.

1622
01:14:17,160 --> 01:14:19,040
Speaker 4: I'm gonna let's just call us and we can track

1623
01:14:19,120 --> 01:14:19,800
Speaker 4: practice right now.

1624
01:14:19,880 --> 01:14:23,880
Speaker 1: I think it'll probably be like not received. Well really yeah,

1625
01:14:24,520 --> 01:14:27,080
Speaker 1: I think the male ego, just with any man, will

1626
01:14:27,120 --> 01:14:30,160
Speaker 1: be like you think you're gonna so you think I'm

1627
01:14:30,200 --> 01:14:31,840
Speaker 1: just gonna come over after you just do what you

1628
01:14:31,920 --> 01:14:33,000
Speaker 1: think it's gonna happen.

1629
01:14:33,160 --> 01:14:35,759
Speaker 3: And you know what, I I think it's so funny

1630
01:14:35,800 --> 01:14:40,240
Speaker 3: about the male ego. They can't handle shit, They can't

1631
01:14:40,280 --> 01:14:41,679
Speaker 3: handle anything that they dish.

1632
01:14:41,800 --> 01:14:43,559
Speaker 5: But look, but look how yeah, because look how much

1633
01:14:43,600 --> 01:14:45,599
Speaker 5: you have to handle. You carry so much, you take

1634
01:14:45,600 --> 01:14:47,800
Speaker 5: care of the kids eighty twenty. You know, you're the

1635
01:14:47,880 --> 01:14:50,120
Speaker 5: shade room you're in all the time you're in the

1636
01:14:50,160 --> 01:14:53,519
Speaker 5: poly monogamy, you know, I would imagine that, like, you know,

1637
01:14:53,560 --> 01:14:55,479
Speaker 5: it's hard to split that time between that many women,

1638
01:14:55,560 --> 01:14:59,360
Speaker 5: so like you're splitting time and splitting splitting moments.

1639
01:14:59,560 --> 01:15:04,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, and these niggas could never these oh my.

1640
01:15:04,200 --> 01:15:08,280
Speaker 1: God, they would literally I just really would love to

1641
01:15:08,360 --> 01:15:10,479
Speaker 1: see that happen, Like I would love to.

1642
01:15:10,560 --> 01:15:12,240
Speaker 5: Like maybe you like maybe you know what you know

1643
01:15:12,280 --> 01:15:14,679
Speaker 5: what reality show y'all needs to do? Nick swap wife

1644
01:15:14,720 --> 01:15:15,479
Speaker 5: swap Nick.

1645
01:15:16,400 --> 01:15:18,280
Speaker 1: He needs to go and live your lives.

1646
01:15:18,320 --> 01:15:20,360
Speaker 3: It's like he needs to live each house as the

1647
01:15:20,400 --> 01:15:22,360
Speaker 3: mom and then you go on dates, y'all.

1648
01:15:22,479 --> 01:15:25,439
Speaker 1: I just know I happened. I would be like rushing

1649
01:15:25,520 --> 01:15:28,000
Speaker 1: home might be like all the kids are good, Like,

1650
01:15:28,080 --> 01:15:28,759
Speaker 1: what's happened?

1651
01:15:28,880 --> 01:15:30,599
Speaker 4: He needs to figure out what he needs to figure

1652
01:15:30,600 --> 01:15:30,800
Speaker 4: it out?

1653
01:15:30,840 --> 01:15:33,160
Speaker 1: Don't call me bitch. He has twelve kids.

1654
01:15:33,160 --> 01:15:34,639
Speaker 5: If you don't know how to pair it a kid

1655
01:15:34,720 --> 01:15:36,760
Speaker 5: by now, like, that's a problem. And that's This is

1656
01:15:36,800 --> 01:15:39,160
Speaker 5: also something that comes up a lot for women moms

1657
01:15:39,479 --> 01:15:40,880
Speaker 5: who even who come.

1658
01:15:40,760 --> 01:15:43,080
Speaker 1: To our retreat, who are afraid to come because they're like,

1659
01:15:43,320 --> 01:15:45,880
Speaker 1: if I leave, everything is going to crumble. My child's

1660
01:15:45,920 --> 01:15:47,479
Speaker 1: not gonna brush their teeth for five days, So the

1661
01:15:47,520 --> 01:15:49,960
Speaker 1: fuck what? That's what has to happen. They have to

1662
01:15:50,040 --> 01:15:50,759
Speaker 1: learn that dynamic.

1663
01:15:50,800 --> 01:15:52,639
Speaker 5: They have to know how daddy takes care and Daddy

1664
01:15:52,640 --> 01:15:55,519
Speaker 5: got to learn because daddy hasn't learned because we take

1665
01:15:55,520 --> 01:15:55,920
Speaker 5: care of him.

1666
01:15:55,960 --> 01:15:59,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, for sure, and they know how to they really

1667
01:16:00,320 --> 01:16:02,120
Speaker 1: like they might call you like I don't know where

1668
01:16:02,160 --> 01:16:04,639
Speaker 1: the where is the bluff? Figure Like if you don't,

1669
01:16:05,040 --> 01:16:07,200
Speaker 1: they're gonna have to figure out for sure, you know.

1670
01:16:07,400 --> 01:16:09,280
Speaker 5: So he will figure it out because he has twelve

1671
01:16:09,360 --> 01:16:11,680
Speaker 5: of them. And at this point, if you.

1672
01:16:11,920 --> 01:16:15,240
Speaker 3: Do, we need to take Nick to mommy training, Like come,

1673
01:16:15,760 --> 01:16:21,799
Speaker 3: mommy boot camp is there? Okay, we are offering mommy

1674
01:16:21,800 --> 01:16:24,439
Speaker 3: boot camp and send your husbands and we will show

1675
01:16:24,439 --> 01:16:24,880
Speaker 3: them what to do.

1676
01:16:24,960 --> 01:16:26,519
Speaker 1: Yeah, we're gonna put them through the wringer.

1677
01:16:26,600 --> 01:16:27,840
Speaker 4: This is how to make formula. This is how you

1678
01:16:27,880 --> 01:16:29,840
Speaker 4: makes the yea laun wake up at six am.

1679
01:16:29,880 --> 01:16:33,320
Speaker 1: The kids are gonna have forty two questions like.

1680
01:16:33,439 --> 01:16:35,320
Speaker 4: Eggs, this one like egg white, this one doesn't eat.

1681
01:16:35,840 --> 01:16:41,160
Speaker 1: It's so crazy that we can actually manage in that way. Yes,

1682
01:16:41,240 --> 01:16:43,280
Speaker 1: my sons, my kids are all like that, Like my

1683
01:16:43,360 --> 01:16:47,439
Speaker 1: twins are like one only eats breads, one only eats meats,

1684
01:16:47,520 --> 01:16:51,320
Speaker 1: crispy meat, one everything. It's like really interesting how we're

1685
01:16:51,360 --> 01:16:52,519
Speaker 1: able to decipher all that.

1686
01:16:52,600 --> 01:16:54,960
Speaker 3: And I'm realizing, like as I'm talking to you, like

1687
01:16:55,120 --> 01:16:59,479
Speaker 3: we're on the same age but starting mommyhood straight out

1688
01:16:59,520 --> 01:17:03,439
Speaker 3: the gate with two kids. Yeah, it's like, oh yeah, yeah,

1689
01:17:03,439 --> 01:17:06,880
Speaker 3: I know that's an even other like level of postpartum.

1690
01:17:07,000 --> 01:17:09,720
Speaker 1: And oh yeah, I went through the the worst postpartum.

1691
01:17:09,800 --> 01:17:11,160
Speaker 1: I went through the trenches of it.

1692
01:17:11,240 --> 01:17:13,760
Speaker 3: Absolutely, in addition to the outside noise, in addition to

1693
01:17:13,760 --> 01:17:16,599
Speaker 3: people criticizing, additions to people having opinions like on top

1694
01:17:16,640 --> 01:17:19,800
Speaker 3: of just your hormones and two extra people in the house,

1695
01:17:19,840 --> 01:17:22,000
Speaker 3: like that's it, that's a big shout out to you, girl,

1696
01:17:22,040 --> 01:17:22,880
Speaker 3: and you look fucking good.

1697
01:17:22,880 --> 01:17:25,040
Speaker 4: A lot of girls you have one kid and they

1698
01:17:25,040 --> 01:17:27,080
Speaker 4: can't even thank you. They can't even wash their hair

1699
01:17:27,120 --> 01:17:28,280
Speaker 4: once you know, thank you.

1700
01:17:28,960 --> 01:17:30,880
Speaker 1: I'm telling you, my family has just got me through

1701
01:17:30,960 --> 01:17:33,439
Speaker 1: like a lot, like especially through the trenches. But I

1702
01:17:33,520 --> 01:17:36,000
Speaker 1: knew I was out. I actually just got it out

1703
01:17:36,000 --> 01:17:39,360
Speaker 1: of postpartum, that whole like fog that you really experienced,

1704
01:17:39,400 --> 01:17:42,559
Speaker 1: probably about I want to say, like less than a

1705
01:17:42,640 --> 01:17:45,400
Speaker 1: year ago. And it wasn't until I just started like

1706
01:17:45,479 --> 01:17:48,519
Speaker 1: having visions again, or like being able to see things,

1707
01:17:48,760 --> 01:17:51,040
Speaker 1: or even envisioning what I wanted, like my home to

1708
01:17:51,200 --> 01:17:53,479
Speaker 1: look like, like the interior of it. Like I had

1709
01:17:53,479 --> 01:17:56,240
Speaker 1: no want or desire for any of that, Like I

1710
01:17:56,280 --> 01:18:00,040
Speaker 1: couldn't see anything, and I was so fogged up. And

1711
01:18:00,120 --> 01:18:01,639
Speaker 1: it wasn't until one morning I was like I had

1712
01:18:01,640 --> 01:18:03,120
Speaker 1: a dream, Like I told my sister. I was like,

1713
01:18:03,120 --> 01:18:06,320
Speaker 1: I had a dream. I'm starting to see again and

1714
01:18:06,400 --> 01:18:08,639
Speaker 1: that is so important. I was like, I think it's

1715
01:18:08,640 --> 01:18:11,120
Speaker 1: not that I think I know that, like the fog

1716
01:18:11,200 --> 01:18:14,080
Speaker 1: is leaving me, Like there was so much that has

1717
01:18:14,360 --> 01:18:17,000
Speaker 1: been a blur for me. Also, maybe that's why I've

1718
01:18:17,040 --> 01:18:18,880
Speaker 1: been able to handle all this so well, because it

1719
01:18:19,040 --> 01:18:20,439
Speaker 1: just has been such a blur you're.

1720
01:18:20,360 --> 01:18:21,280
Speaker 4: Kind of like numb a little bit.

1721
01:18:21,360 --> 01:18:22,880
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean I think I think at the beginning

1722
01:18:22,880 --> 01:18:25,920
Speaker 3: of motherhood there is a disassociation that happens, like all

1723
01:18:25,960 --> 01:18:27,639
Speaker 3: your association goes into the children.

1724
01:18:28,240 --> 01:18:30,240
Speaker 4: And so I'm happy you spoke on that. And like

1725
01:18:30,280 --> 01:18:32,200
Speaker 4: you know, like postpartum can last up to like five

1726
01:18:32,240 --> 01:18:32,719
Speaker 4: to seventy.

1727
01:18:32,880 --> 01:18:35,479
Speaker 3: Absolutely, it's like not a fucking you have a baby

1728
01:18:35,520 --> 01:18:36,800
Speaker 3: and you know it's a three month thing.

1729
01:18:36,840 --> 01:18:38,000
Speaker 4: It's like an ongoing thing.

1730
01:18:38,080 --> 01:18:40,840
Speaker 5: I will say though, people when a woman comes out

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01:18:40,880 --> 01:18:43,200
Speaker 5: of postpartum and the fog clears that, oh, it's a

1732
01:18:43,240 --> 01:18:43,920
Speaker 5: dangerous woman.

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01:18:44,360 --> 01:18:45,559
Speaker 1: I think that's where I'm at right now.

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01:18:46,479 --> 01:18:50,599
Speaker 5: And that's when like relationships starts to switch and people

1735
01:18:50,640 --> 01:18:53,160
Speaker 5: start to not be able to recognize you anymore.

1736
01:18:53,600 --> 01:18:59,240
Speaker 1: And I think that's what's happening. I think that's what's

1737
01:18:59,439 --> 01:19:02,519
Speaker 1: truly how and I and I love that you're saying

1738
01:19:02,560 --> 01:19:04,920
Speaker 1: that because that actually fits the mold ring.

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01:19:05,000 --> 01:19:07,240
Speaker 5: Yeah, and it's a powerful place to be in. So

1740
01:19:07,320 --> 01:19:10,040
Speaker 5: this is how me versus this, So we're excited. That's exciting.

1741
01:19:10,160 --> 01:19:12,559
Speaker 3: I love that's and remind us to give you a

1742
01:19:12,560 --> 01:19:14,200
Speaker 3: good mom's guide to making bad choices.

1743
01:19:14,280 --> 01:19:16,479
Speaker 4: Yeah, before you leave, because there's a lot.

1744
01:19:16,360 --> 01:19:18,600
Speaker 1: Of plugs there is.

1745
01:19:18,720 --> 01:19:20,600
Speaker 3: I mean, it's we always say this, this is like

1746
01:19:20,640 --> 01:19:23,000
Speaker 3: a book. There's always all these books about like this.

1747
01:19:23,160 --> 01:19:24,000
Speaker 1: I take care of the baby.

1748
01:19:24,040 --> 01:19:27,080
Speaker 4: This is how you swallow. Swaddle, not swallow. That's our book.

1749
01:19:27,200 --> 01:19:28,240
Speaker 6: I know, I'm like swallow.

1750
01:19:28,960 --> 01:19:29,639
Speaker 4: That's a different book.

1751
01:19:29,680 --> 01:19:30,080
Speaker 1: That's ours.

1752
01:19:30,360 --> 01:19:32,360
Speaker 3: But there's a lot, not a lot of books that

1753
01:19:32,400 --> 01:19:35,120
Speaker 3: address the newness for the mother and what you experience

1754
01:19:35,200 --> 01:19:37,000
Speaker 3: and ways to like process that. And so I'd like

1755
01:19:37,080 --> 01:19:39,960
Speaker 3: to say that our book is for the mothers who

1756
01:19:40,000 --> 01:19:41,920
Speaker 3: are having babies. It's not just about the baby, but

1757
01:19:41,960 --> 01:19:43,719
Speaker 3: how you mother yourself in this process.

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01:19:44,160 --> 01:19:46,600
Speaker 4: So I think this is actually Nick's not going to

1759
01:19:46,640 --> 01:19:47,240
Speaker 4: be happy.

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01:19:47,000 --> 01:19:48,680
Speaker 1: But we're going to leave this with you. Oh thank you.

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01:19:50,520 --> 01:19:53,240
Speaker 5: Speaking of motherhood, you mentioned that you're you're is it

1762
01:19:53,240 --> 01:19:55,360
Speaker 5: your son who has autism? How has that been for

1763
01:19:55,400 --> 01:19:58,840
Speaker 5: you as an as an autism mom? It's very difficult

1764
01:19:58,920 --> 01:20:01,920
Speaker 5: at times, but again my support system. I have an

1765
01:20:01,960 --> 01:20:05,440
Speaker 5: amazing sister and my nanny who's not a nanny.

1766
01:20:05,479 --> 01:20:07,720
Speaker 2: She's like my family, so I know what that's like.

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01:20:08,200 --> 01:20:13,360
Speaker 1: She is just amazing. It's always going to be different

1768
01:20:13,400 --> 01:20:16,759
Speaker 1: in my household. Everything requires a different dynamic. The messes

1769
01:20:16,800 --> 01:20:19,960
Speaker 1: are different, the wants are different. You know, you're not

1770
01:20:20,040 --> 01:20:23,320
Speaker 1: communicated with the way other kids would and my child

1771
01:20:23,439 --> 01:20:28,080
Speaker 1: is different. And that's a reality that has was tough

1772
01:20:28,120 --> 01:20:30,000
Speaker 1: for me at first because you know, you want the

1773
01:20:30,040 --> 01:20:32,840
Speaker 1: best for your child, but then you realize that child

1774
01:20:33,040 --> 01:20:35,880
Speaker 1: is like the best thing that has ever happened to you,

1775
01:20:36,000 --> 01:20:41,240
Speaker 1: and my child just he like I can't even imagine

1776
01:20:41,280 --> 01:20:45,080
Speaker 1: my child to not have autism in this like weird way,

1777
01:20:45,200 --> 01:20:47,439
Speaker 1: and I don't know how that's gonna come out, but

1778
01:20:47,520 --> 01:20:50,720
Speaker 1: like I'm so honored to be his mom and to

1779
01:20:50,840 --> 01:20:54,080
Speaker 1: like have that to like advocate him, because him having

1780
01:20:54,120 --> 01:20:57,880
Speaker 1: autism has taught me, like to advocate for something other

1781
01:20:57,920 --> 01:21:01,439
Speaker 1: than myself. And you know, I've always suppressed my voice

1782
01:21:01,439 --> 01:21:03,080
Speaker 1: and now have to use it to be like, you're

1783
01:21:03,160 --> 01:21:06,360
Speaker 1: gonna take my son for an appointment and you're gonna

1784
01:21:06,360 --> 01:21:09,160
Speaker 1: see him and we're gonna get a diagnosis in this

1785
01:21:09,280 --> 01:21:13,679
Speaker 1: then the third So it's really been my biggest blessing

1786
01:21:13,720 --> 01:21:17,599
Speaker 1: in disguise is my son, my son's because Zion is

1787
01:21:17,720 --> 01:21:21,360
Speaker 1: just so he's just the best big brother, Like he

1788
01:21:21,439 --> 01:21:23,680
Speaker 1: speaks for him and the twin till at the b

1789
01:21:23,840 --> 01:21:27,519
Speaker 1: thing is so real, and yes, they're both twins, and

1790
01:21:27,640 --> 01:21:30,920
Speaker 1: he will know who he Mom's a Zilly wants chips

1791
01:21:30,960 --> 01:21:32,800
Speaker 1: and I'm like, no he doesn't, And Zilly will be

1792
01:21:32,920 --> 01:21:36,000
Speaker 1: climbing something five minutes later for chips. Sorry, that's really yeah,

1793
01:21:36,280 --> 01:21:38,360
Speaker 1: Like mom, Zilly needs a diaper change and I'm like,

1794
01:21:38,439 --> 01:21:41,639
Speaker 1: no he doesn't. Then I'll look at needs a diaper. Yeah,

1795
01:21:41,880 --> 01:21:43,720
Speaker 1: Zilly's outside and I'm like, no, he's not. In the

1796
01:21:43,800 --> 01:21:46,800
Speaker 1: five minutes later, I'll hear front door and I'm like wow.

1797
01:21:46,880 --> 01:21:49,000
Speaker 1: The fact that you know, like every move of your brother,

1798
01:21:49,200 --> 01:21:52,320
Speaker 1: what he's saying to you in whatever way that is,

1799
01:21:52,360 --> 01:21:57,160
Speaker 1: it's really sweet. Yeah. But yeah, my son, his diagnosis

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01:21:57,439 --> 01:22:01,840
Speaker 1: changed everything and I'm really honored to be the mother

1801
01:22:01,920 --> 01:22:03,559
Speaker 1: of that. But then also there was like a lot

1802
01:22:03,600 --> 01:22:05,920
Speaker 1: of kind of shame that came with it because my

1803
01:22:06,040 --> 01:22:08,400
Speaker 1: child is also the only child of Nicks that has

1804
01:22:08,439 --> 01:22:11,040
Speaker 1: a special need. So it was also like what did

1805
01:22:11,080 --> 01:22:13,519
Speaker 1: I do? Like I harbored so much guilt, like was

1806
01:22:13,560 --> 01:22:16,280
Speaker 1: it my fault? What could I have done differently? But

1807
01:22:16,439 --> 01:22:20,519
Speaker 1: like everything was the plan, like this is what God

1808
01:22:20,560 --> 01:22:23,760
Speaker 1: wanted and because of that, I just am like this

1809
01:22:23,840 --> 01:22:26,120
Speaker 1: is this is the vibe. This is the move, and.

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01:22:26,000 --> 01:22:28,080
Speaker 3: I'm really excited to see this version of you, like

1811
01:22:28,160 --> 01:22:30,360
Speaker 3: you even saying you found your voice, Like obviously you've

1812
01:22:30,400 --> 01:22:31,360
Speaker 3: already found your voice.

1813
01:22:31,360 --> 01:22:32,840
Speaker 4: You're like a radio host.

1814
01:22:32,960 --> 01:22:35,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, and you've like you said, you followed and chased

1815
01:22:35,080 --> 01:22:38,000
Speaker 3: this specific career. And so now that that like chakra

1816
01:22:38,120 --> 01:22:40,400
Speaker 3: is activated and you are aware of it and you

1817
01:22:40,479 --> 01:22:43,280
Speaker 3: feel like empowered and and you know this chapter of

1818
01:22:43,280 --> 01:22:45,719
Speaker 3: your life, I'm really excited to see how you're gonna

1819
01:22:45,800 --> 01:22:49,040
Speaker 3: like how that spark like lights of fire, because that's

1820
01:22:49,040 --> 01:22:51,160
Speaker 3: what happens. Like I think people under a state birth

1821
01:22:51,200 --> 01:22:53,479
Speaker 3: it's I always say it's to write a passage and

1822
01:22:53,600 --> 01:22:56,439
Speaker 3: like motherhood, because you've been like, if I could give.

1823
01:22:56,280 --> 01:22:58,599
Speaker 4: Birth to a human, bitch, I could do anything. Ain't

1824
01:22:58,640 --> 01:22:59,920
Speaker 4: no doctor or anybody gonna tell me.

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01:23:00,439 --> 01:23:02,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, so there's like a people I think

1826
01:23:02,960 --> 01:23:05,320
Speaker 3: a lot of times people try to make motherhood almost

1827
01:23:05,479 --> 01:23:08,439
Speaker 3: like a handicap in ways like oh, your mom, you

1828
01:23:08,439 --> 01:23:10,599
Speaker 3: can't go, you can't wear that. Your mom, Oh she's

1829
01:23:10,640 --> 01:23:14,200
Speaker 3: making cookies. No bitch, I'm outside, Okay.

1830
01:23:13,720 --> 01:23:14,639
Speaker 4: I'm you know what I mean.

1831
01:23:14,760 --> 01:23:16,400
Speaker 3: Like, I think it's really beautiful and I think this

1832
01:23:16,439 --> 01:23:18,600
Speaker 3: is why this platform is important, and that we have

1833
01:23:18,640 --> 01:23:21,400
Speaker 3: conversations with all different moms and all different dynamics and

1834
01:23:21,479 --> 01:23:24,679
Speaker 3: all different you know, just because people try to make

1835
01:23:24,720 --> 01:23:27,240
Speaker 3: you feel like motherhood is where your life ends. But

1836
01:23:27,280 --> 01:23:29,639
Speaker 3: in reality, ladies, it's where that.

1837
01:23:29,640 --> 01:23:31,080
Speaker 4: Shit gets popping.

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01:23:31,160 --> 01:23:33,040
Speaker 3: And even if you don't have like a physical child,

1839
01:23:33,040 --> 01:23:36,000
Speaker 3: if it's a business or something you're passionate that you've birthed.

1840
01:23:36,360 --> 01:23:40,120
Speaker 3: I think this there's a like a fearlessness that is

1841
01:23:40,200 --> 01:23:42,760
Speaker 3: activated through birth and through like really being in the

1842
01:23:42,760 --> 01:23:45,400
Speaker 3: trenches with someone and creating something. And I think it's

1843
01:23:45,400 --> 01:23:46,920
Speaker 3: gonna be really, really really beautiful for me.

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01:23:47,000 --> 01:23:49,720
Speaker 1: Well, thank you so much. I'm so grateful for to

1845
01:23:49,880 --> 01:23:50,800
Speaker 1: receive that. Thank you.

1846
01:23:50,840 --> 01:23:51,600
Speaker 4: I'm excited for you.

1847
01:23:52,040 --> 01:23:52,479
Speaker 1: Thank you.

1848
01:23:55,400 --> 01:23:59,519
Speaker 5: I have one more question about about motherhood and and

1849
01:23:59,640 --> 01:24:02,360
Speaker 5: just how how you know you have a daughter, And

1850
01:24:02,400 --> 01:24:02,760
Speaker 5: I'm just.

1851
01:24:02,760 --> 01:24:04,839
Speaker 1: Curious, what's your daughter say? Beautiful?

1852
01:24:04,880 --> 01:24:06,280
Speaker 4: Beautiful, beautiful ya?

1853
01:24:06,439 --> 01:24:08,840
Speaker 1: Wow, what a beautiful name called all the time?

1854
01:24:09,040 --> 01:24:12,920
Speaker 5: Yes, I guess I'm curious to know, because you know,

1855
01:24:13,040 --> 01:24:15,400
Speaker 5: like people ask us all the time too, like what

1856
01:24:15,439 --> 01:24:15,800
Speaker 5: are you going to.

1857
01:24:15,840 --> 01:24:16,839
Speaker 1: Tell your kids about?

1858
01:24:17,000 --> 01:24:17,680
Speaker 4: You know this?

1859
01:24:17,880 --> 01:24:20,120
Speaker 1: Yes, I love all this podcasting that you do.

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01:24:20,280 --> 01:24:21,880
Speaker 5: You talk about sex or they're going to read your

1861
01:24:21,880 --> 01:24:24,439
Speaker 5: book and they're going to listen, and I'm just wondering, like,

1862
01:24:25,000 --> 01:24:28,720
Speaker 5: not really so much about, like, you know, the dynamic

1863
01:24:28,760 --> 01:24:30,960
Speaker 5: that you have, but whether or not you would ever

1864
01:24:31,080 --> 01:24:33,000
Speaker 5: encourage her to have the dynamic that you have.

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01:24:33,520 --> 01:24:35,599
Speaker 1: I want my kids, and I've said this even years

1866
01:24:35,600 --> 01:24:38,280
Speaker 1: ago in a different podcast, I want my kids to

1867
01:24:38,360 --> 01:24:40,639
Speaker 1: look back and be like, Mom did it her way,

1868
01:24:41,240 --> 01:24:43,120
Speaker 1: and I too, am going to do it my way

1869
01:24:43,240 --> 01:24:46,160
Speaker 1: and whatever that is to that makes me happy and

1870
01:24:46,200 --> 01:24:49,320
Speaker 1: that feels right in my spirit. Anything that doesn't feel

1871
01:24:49,360 --> 01:24:51,240
Speaker 1: right to them, I want them to actually be able

1872
01:24:51,240 --> 01:24:55,439
Speaker 1: to recognize that there were so many moments in my

1873
01:24:55,560 --> 01:24:58,160
Speaker 1: life that I didn't recognize what was and right for

1874
01:24:58,200 --> 01:25:00,800
Speaker 1: me out of fear of just saying this isn't right

1875
01:25:00,840 --> 01:25:04,040
Speaker 1: for me, and I stayed way too long in situations

1876
01:25:04,080 --> 01:25:06,799
Speaker 1: and in places that I shouldn't have and with something

1877
01:25:06,840 --> 01:25:10,519
Speaker 1: that feels right. When I followed my soul, great things

1878
01:25:10,600 --> 01:25:13,320
Speaker 1: just happened. And you know, following my heart led me

1879
01:25:13,360 --> 01:25:15,640
Speaker 1: to my children, and without my children, I wouldn't be

1880
01:25:15,680 --> 01:25:18,400
Speaker 1: who I am today. And there's so many beautiful things

1881
01:25:18,439 --> 01:25:21,639
Speaker 1: when you listen to that voice inside. So what I'm

1882
01:25:21,640 --> 01:25:23,600
Speaker 1: looking forward to is for my kids to be like

1883
01:25:24,800 --> 01:25:28,479
Speaker 1: mom really did it her way. Now, if they grow

1884
01:25:28,560 --> 01:25:31,080
Speaker 1: up to think that's not a way I would do things,

1885
01:25:32,080 --> 01:25:34,720
Speaker 1: but I'm happy you did it, then that's gonna be

1886
01:25:35,040 --> 01:25:38,560
Speaker 1: their path to go down. But I am so excited

1887
01:25:38,600 --> 01:25:44,040
Speaker 1: to teach my kids a mindset of no limiting beliefs

1888
01:25:44,080 --> 01:25:47,040
Speaker 1: in yourself but also in how you're gonna choose to

1889
01:25:47,080 --> 01:25:50,400
Speaker 1: live your life. You can, you can really co create

1890
01:25:50,439 --> 01:25:52,760
Speaker 1: with the ultimate creator the life of your dreams in

1891
01:25:52,800 --> 01:25:56,519
Speaker 1: whatever ways that is. And it's so important to tap

1892
01:25:56,600 --> 01:26:00,680
Speaker 1: into that and to create everything that you've done in

1893
01:26:00,720 --> 01:26:04,800
Speaker 1: your own way. So, whether that be having six relationships,

1894
01:26:04,800 --> 01:26:07,479
Speaker 1: if that's what you choose, then do it, do it right,

1895
01:26:07,560 --> 01:26:10,040
Speaker 1: deal with integrity, do it with honesty, and do it

1896
01:26:10,080 --> 01:26:12,559
Speaker 1: with you know, your best. Fook forward. If it's not,

1897
01:26:12,720 --> 01:26:15,280
Speaker 1: then you be a one woman man and you are

1898
01:26:15,840 --> 01:26:18,280
Speaker 1: one man woman and you do it to the best

1899
01:26:18,320 --> 01:26:20,639
Speaker 1: of your ability. And I don't know, people, I'm gonna

1900
01:26:20,640 --> 01:26:23,400
Speaker 1: get backlash for even saying that, but it's true. When

1901
01:26:23,439 --> 01:26:26,400
Speaker 1: you have the freedom of choice, it changes everything, you know.

1902
01:26:26,400 --> 01:26:28,000
Speaker 4: I guess we all want for our kids.

1903
01:26:28,120 --> 01:26:30,720
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, I always tell her, like you're she

1904
01:26:30,720 --> 01:26:32,120
Speaker 3: says all the time, She's like we're different.

1905
01:26:32,439 --> 01:26:34,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, She's like, we're different, like you.

1906
01:26:34,240 --> 01:26:35,880
Speaker 3: Like my mom does this and I do this, and

1907
01:26:35,920 --> 01:26:39,080
Speaker 3: I think that is the most powerful message, like sovereignty.

1908
01:26:39,360 --> 01:26:41,040
Speaker 4: Yeah, and like you said, be a good person.

1909
01:26:41,240 --> 01:26:43,240
Speaker 1: Yeah at the end of it, like all the things

1910
01:26:43,280 --> 01:26:45,719
Speaker 1: are nice, but like if you're not a good person

1911
01:26:45,760 --> 01:26:48,960
Speaker 1: to your core or like who you are, like you

1912
01:26:49,120 --> 01:26:52,599
Speaker 1: just it doesn't matter. Like this world is full of

1913
01:26:52,680 --> 01:26:55,360
Speaker 1: like worldly riches and things, and I've been able to

1914
01:26:55,400 --> 01:26:58,280
Speaker 1: see it. I've seen I've been in the best of cars,

1915
01:26:58,320 --> 01:27:00,360
Speaker 1: and I've been in the best of hotels and all that,

1916
01:27:00,400 --> 01:27:01,640
Speaker 1: and at the end of the day, it's like if

1917
01:27:01,640 --> 01:27:04,559
Speaker 1: you're with someone who's trash inside, you just can't wait

1918
01:27:04,600 --> 01:27:06,479
Speaker 1: to get the fuck out of there, Like it doesn't

1919
01:27:06,520 --> 01:27:09,040
Speaker 1: matter any of that. Like that's saying like I'd rather

1920
01:27:09,080 --> 01:27:10,840
Speaker 1: cry in a Rolls Royce than like a Honda, Like

1921
01:27:11,240 --> 01:27:15,479
Speaker 1: I've been in both. Sometimes the Honda is really nice.

1922
01:27:15,760 --> 01:27:17,160
Speaker 4: It's a ride.

1923
01:27:22,360 --> 01:27:23,160
Speaker 1: Several times.

1924
01:27:23,240 --> 01:27:27,000
Speaker 4: So I just got yes, do what.

1925
01:27:26,600 --> 01:27:28,760
Speaker 1: What makes your heart feel the happiest, and be around

1926
01:27:28,800 --> 01:27:31,800
Speaker 1: people that are really truly good people. You know.

1927
01:27:32,400 --> 01:27:34,799
Speaker 3: I like that you said, you know you're co creating

1928
01:27:34,800 --> 01:27:37,160
Speaker 3: your life with the creator. Like that's true, like people

1929
01:27:37,320 --> 01:27:40,519
Speaker 3: forget like you're co creating. You are an extension of

1930
01:27:40,560 --> 01:27:42,760
Speaker 3: that divinity. And like we talk a lot about manifesting

1931
01:27:42,800 --> 01:27:44,599
Speaker 3: and we speak a lot of things into existence and

1932
01:27:44,640 --> 01:27:47,599
Speaker 3: with our friendship and like the entity we've created, we've

1933
01:27:47,600 --> 01:27:49,960
Speaker 3: realized like when we started talking together, we're like.

1934
01:27:49,880 --> 01:27:51,960
Speaker 4: Oh, ship, we came back. That happened kind of quick.

1935
01:27:52,400 --> 01:27:54,120
Speaker 3: You know, like just like that things that start to

1936
01:27:54,240 --> 01:27:58,080
Speaker 3: like manifest and you know, like tangible form. And so

1937
01:27:58,160 --> 01:28:00,439
Speaker 3: like when you think about the your co creating with

1938
01:28:00,479 --> 01:28:01,840
Speaker 3: the universe, you're co creating with God.

1939
01:28:01,960 --> 01:28:02,720
Speaker 4: So I like that.

1940
01:28:03,000 --> 01:28:05,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean that's also too. Where like my brand

1941
01:28:05,439 --> 01:28:08,320
Speaker 1: love and every frequency came from it's because like it's

1942
01:28:08,439 --> 01:28:11,240
Speaker 1: literally a frequency you're putting out every day, like creating

1943
01:28:11,640 --> 01:28:15,080
Speaker 1: or loving everybody my house requires different forms of love

1944
01:28:15,240 --> 01:28:19,200
Speaker 1: in every frequency, whether that be low, high, intense, normal,

1945
01:28:19,320 --> 01:28:22,120
Speaker 1: like all different things. And it's like when you honor that,

1946
01:28:22,439 --> 01:28:25,600
Speaker 1: you really nurture that, you see so much progress and

1947
01:28:25,600 --> 01:28:28,320
Speaker 1: you see your manifestations or your prayers or whatever that

1948
01:28:28,360 --> 01:28:31,080
Speaker 1: may be just happen at the blink of an eye

1949
01:28:31,120 --> 01:28:33,040
Speaker 1: and you're like, wow, all it took was just me

1950
01:28:33,160 --> 01:28:34,320
Speaker 1: following that frequency.

1951
01:28:34,360 --> 01:28:38,720
Speaker 2: And that's soul calling you know, thank you for sharing that.

1952
01:28:39,360 --> 01:28:42,759
Speaker 3: Yes, actually, with all your your your gems that you're ropping,

1953
01:28:42,800 --> 01:28:44,639
Speaker 3: do you have an affirmation for our people?

1954
01:28:46,160 --> 01:28:48,960
Speaker 1: I am love in every frequency. I'm gonna say that.

1955
01:28:49,080 --> 01:28:53,519
Speaker 1: I think that it's just really nice to share space

1956
01:28:53,720 --> 01:28:57,360
Speaker 1: with people and to you have such a beautiful frequency.

1957
01:28:57,400 --> 01:29:00,280
Speaker 1: You're such a free spirit. You're so like when you

1958
01:29:00,320 --> 01:29:02,240
Speaker 1: walk in, I can feel like I've known you one

1959
01:29:02,280 --> 01:29:05,640
Speaker 1: hundred years. You know, like you're such a You're just

1960
01:29:05,680 --> 01:29:08,960
Speaker 1: a light you You're just like deep and intense, but

1961
01:29:09,000 --> 01:29:12,559
Speaker 1: you're also so like open and the way you're like

1962
01:29:12,760 --> 01:29:15,439
Speaker 1: so free with your stories is it gives people space

1963
01:29:15,479 --> 01:29:17,559
Speaker 1: to also be open with their heart and to share

1964
01:29:17,600 --> 01:29:20,640
Speaker 1: with you whatever it is that you you bring that

1965
01:29:20,680 --> 01:29:23,320
Speaker 1: out of people. And I think that your your guys'

1966
01:29:23,439 --> 01:29:26,400
Speaker 1: frequency just allowed me space to also share myself and

1967
01:29:26,439 --> 01:29:29,120
Speaker 1: my frequency. So I am love and every frequency. I

1968
01:29:29,160 --> 01:29:32,120
Speaker 1: think that's a beautiful affirmation. Whether you believe in that

1969
01:29:32,280 --> 01:29:34,240
Speaker 1: or not, I think even if you call that in,

1970
01:29:34,560 --> 01:29:38,280
Speaker 1: you're going to receive love in all different forms and frequencies.

1971
01:29:38,600 --> 01:29:41,560
Speaker 5: I am love and every frequency.

1972
01:29:43,960 --> 01:29:50,479
Speaker 1: Well, you guys said that so beautifully.

1973
01:29:50,680 --> 01:29:55,760
Speaker 3: That we are going to solicit ourselves as video hos drops,

1974
01:29:56,240 --> 01:29:56,839
Speaker 3: you guys.

1975
01:29:56,720 --> 01:29:59,720
Speaker 1: Make the perfect balance of each other, like you're just

1976
01:29:59,840 --> 01:30:02,880
Speaker 1: you guys were meant to do this. Absolutely, you guys,

1977
01:30:03,160 --> 01:30:06,760
Speaker 1: even you guys just smoking backwood on this couch. It

1978
01:30:07,000 --> 01:30:09,280
Speaker 1: just it's so open, Like you feel like any of

1979
01:30:09,320 --> 01:30:11,559
Speaker 1: your bad habits or anything that you feel like you're

1980
01:30:11,640 --> 01:30:14,479
Speaker 1: hiding is just so free in this space to be like,

1981
01:30:14,960 --> 01:30:17,240
Speaker 1: you know, if I'm a pill, pop, you know it

1982
01:30:17,400 --> 01:30:22,519
Speaker 1: just popped a pill, you bitch. You deserve that. That's

1983
01:30:22,560 --> 01:30:26,160
Speaker 1: the You guys are so amazing, and that's in that way.

1984
01:30:26,320 --> 01:30:29,320
Speaker 1: So I really again, like I really love your guys'

1985
01:30:29,360 --> 01:30:30,879
Speaker 1: platform and what you guys have created.

1986
01:30:31,600 --> 01:30:33,880
Speaker 4: It's really needed to hear that. So I appreciate that.

1987
01:30:36,120 --> 01:30:39,360
Speaker 2: Speaking of love and every frequency. Okay, do you have

1988
01:30:39,360 --> 01:30:40,320
Speaker 2: a horror story?

1989
01:30:40,520 --> 01:30:44,360
Speaker 1: I do? Okay, So my horse story, there's several.

1990
01:30:44,600 --> 01:30:49,200
Speaker 3: There's several the highest high, like the highest one of

1991
01:30:49,360 --> 01:30:53,720
Speaker 3: like the favorite one that had the best ending, that

1992
01:30:53,920 --> 01:30:57,040
Speaker 3: was the most the most extreme, whatever you choose, it.

1993
01:30:57,080 --> 01:31:00,880
Speaker 1: Comes up my favorite horse. It's not story, but it

1994
01:31:00,920 --> 01:31:03,720
Speaker 1: was like a selfish story because I hadn't like climax

1995
01:31:03,760 --> 01:31:07,320
Speaker 1: in a really long time and I finally was able

1996
01:31:07,439 --> 01:31:10,919
Speaker 1: to like reach it. And go there. And I remember

1997
01:31:11,120 --> 01:31:14,280
Speaker 1: just like looking at the person and being like, I

1998
01:31:14,280 --> 01:31:17,519
Speaker 1: gotta go, Like I wanted to drive down Sunset with

1999
01:31:17,600 --> 01:31:21,559
Speaker 1: my windows down and like feel that ship, like feel

2000
01:31:21,600 --> 01:31:23,720
Speaker 1: the wind in my hair, like I just wanted to

2001
01:31:23,760 --> 01:31:26,799
Speaker 1: feel all that. And like that person was so offended

2002
01:31:26,840 --> 01:31:29,080
Speaker 1: because it never happened to them, and I remember them

2003
01:31:29,120 --> 01:31:30,599
Speaker 1: being like they made you come, and then you were

2004
01:31:30,600 --> 01:31:33,400
Speaker 1: like bye, No, that's how it was. I gotta go.

2005
01:31:33,520 --> 01:31:33,920
Speaker 4: Suddenly.

2006
01:31:34,640 --> 01:31:42,000
Speaker 1: I really was like no, I really rolled out. I

2007
01:31:42,040 --> 01:31:45,599
Speaker 1: remember just living so much in that And I think

2008
01:31:45,640 --> 01:31:48,559
Speaker 1: because I had been with like one person only for

2009
01:31:48,600 --> 01:31:51,400
Speaker 1: such a long time that it felt so freeing to

2010
01:31:51,479 --> 01:31:55,719
Speaker 1: like not have any obligations there, my man, I had none.

2011
01:31:57,640 --> 01:31:59,600
Speaker 1: Such a fun time and a good time, and I

2012
01:31:59,640 --> 01:32:04,120
Speaker 1: remember being like I gotta go, like and it just

2013
01:32:04,439 --> 01:32:07,280
Speaker 1: hit him in a different way than what I thought

2014
01:32:07,320 --> 01:32:09,200
Speaker 1: it was gonna hit him, because he was really offended

2015
01:32:09,240 --> 01:32:13,160
Speaker 1: by that. But what I got in my car, I

2016
01:32:13,240 --> 01:32:16,400
Speaker 1: just rolled all the windows down, I played my playlist.

2017
01:32:16,600 --> 01:32:19,680
Speaker 1: I felt like I was in full manifesting mode. I

2018
01:32:19,720 --> 01:32:21,160
Speaker 1: was like I got to use this vibration to.

2019
01:32:21,240 --> 01:32:25,000
Speaker 5: Listen after after it could come right orgasm.

2020
01:32:25,479 --> 01:32:28,160
Speaker 1: You can manifest your the portals are open that way,

2021
01:32:29,320 --> 01:32:31,320
Speaker 1: you know. And at the time I drive home was

2022
01:32:31,320 --> 01:32:35,800
Speaker 1: like a good forty five minutes. Oh, I did, absolutely,

2023
01:32:35,880 --> 01:32:37,920
Speaker 1: I did that time. So I was like, you know what,

2024
01:32:38,320 --> 01:32:40,880
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take this moment for myself. And I did.

2025
01:32:40,920 --> 01:32:44,360
Speaker 1: And I remember just like like there was no thought

2026
01:32:44,400 --> 01:32:46,360
Speaker 1: of him at the time. It was just all about me.

2027
01:32:46,600 --> 01:32:49,799
Speaker 1: Like my body felt so good, my mind felt free.

2028
01:32:49,880 --> 01:32:53,040
Speaker 1: I felt like anything was attainable and touchable. And I

2029
01:32:53,080 --> 01:32:55,960
Speaker 1: think in that moment is when I really because I

2030
01:32:56,000 --> 01:32:58,600
Speaker 1: was at the in the top of like Sunset, on

2031
01:32:58,640 --> 01:32:59,280
Speaker 1: the very top.

2032
01:32:59,400 --> 01:33:01,000
Speaker 3: You don't know why when you said that, I was

2033
01:33:01,040 --> 01:33:03,040
Speaker 3: imagining like on the yeah, I was like I had a.

2034
01:33:03,040 --> 01:33:06,280
Speaker 1: Really fly house off of Sunset, Like it was really beautiful.

2035
01:33:06,400 --> 01:33:08,280
Speaker 1: So I had this city to look down on the

2036
01:33:08,320 --> 01:33:10,519
Speaker 1: heels and I was like, no one's gonna take this

2037
01:33:10,560 --> 01:33:14,839
Speaker 1: from me. I'm enjoying this by myself. And I remember

2038
01:33:14,920 --> 01:33:18,160
Speaker 1: like getting home and having like some messages on my

2039
01:33:18,200 --> 01:33:20,160
Speaker 1: phone and I was like, I know you're not gonna

2040
01:33:20,240 --> 01:33:23,280
Speaker 1: understand it, but I just needed my own time. Like, oh,

2041
01:33:23,320 --> 01:33:25,439
Speaker 1: by the way, thanks, thanks so much. I knew that.

2042
01:33:25,760 --> 01:33:28,640
Speaker 3: So you masturbate when I got home, No, do you

2043
01:33:28,680 --> 01:33:29,759
Speaker 3: masturbate just in general.

2044
01:33:29,880 --> 01:33:30,879
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, who doesn't.

2045
01:33:31,080 --> 01:33:34,040
Speaker 3: I mean, are you like a vibrated girl fingers, I'm

2046
01:33:34,040 --> 01:33:37,519
Speaker 3: like all types of ways girl like however, yeah, yeah,

2047
01:33:38,120 --> 01:33:41,760
Speaker 3: whatever I have time for realistically, but yeah, yeah, but

2048
01:33:41,920 --> 01:33:44,720
Speaker 3: I used to be like a girlie who never liked

2049
01:33:44,760 --> 01:33:46,840
Speaker 3: to stay the night anywhere unless it was like my

2050
01:33:46,880 --> 01:33:47,320
Speaker 3: own beds.

2051
01:33:47,320 --> 01:33:51,000
Speaker 1: So I offended a few people off of that strength,

2052
01:33:51,080 --> 01:33:53,920
Speaker 1: because it feels weirdly next to like somebody that.

2053
01:33:53,840 --> 01:33:57,560
Speaker 5: You're not fully I felt like that very when I

2054
01:33:57,640 --> 01:34:01,400
Speaker 5: first started dating. After me and my child's father broke up,

2055
01:34:01,520 --> 01:34:04,160
Speaker 5: I could I would literally sneak out of Nigga's beds.

2056
01:34:04,400 --> 01:34:07,880
Speaker 1: I was like, I would be no one time.

2057
01:34:08,000 --> 01:34:09,880
Speaker 5: I am not waking up in the morning to that face,

2058
01:34:10,439 --> 01:34:12,479
Speaker 5: a face like it was a good face for the time.

2059
01:34:12,479 --> 01:34:15,120
Speaker 4: We don't we don't need to do.

2060
01:34:15,560 --> 01:34:19,599
Speaker 5: I'll never like I get a good cuddling. I want

2061
01:34:19,640 --> 01:34:20,720
Speaker 5: to get a cuddle. It's not that I don't want

2062
01:34:20,720 --> 01:34:22,519
Speaker 5: to be cuddled. I want to be cuddled and then

2063
01:34:22,600 --> 01:34:24,320
Speaker 5: I want you to I don't even like cuddling all

2064
01:34:24,360 --> 01:34:26,400
Speaker 5: the way like into sleep anyway, because I get hot.

2065
01:34:26,680 --> 01:34:28,560
Speaker 5: So I'm like Nigga, Okay, we got the cuddle in

2066
01:34:28,720 --> 01:34:29,360
Speaker 5: and you're good.

2067
01:34:29,520 --> 01:34:33,000
Speaker 1: We're good. Yes, I'm sleep in my bed. Yes, I'll

2068
01:34:33,040 --> 01:34:35,519
Speaker 1: never forget. I did that again, like where I just

2069
01:34:35,560 --> 01:34:37,560
Speaker 1: needed to leave. It wasn't because I was coming, it

2070
01:34:37,600 --> 01:34:39,240
Speaker 1: was just because it was already late, and I was like, well,

2071
01:34:39,240 --> 01:34:42,000
Speaker 1: I just needed to go. And his roommate from the

2072
01:34:42,120 --> 01:34:44,280
Speaker 1: very top was like, why are you leaving? Why don't

2073
01:34:44,320 --> 01:34:47,920
Speaker 1: you ever stay the night? And I was like, oh god,

2074
01:34:48,120 --> 01:34:49,840
Speaker 1: I don't even got to answer to you, like this

2075
01:34:49,880 --> 01:34:52,679
Speaker 1: is weird. But he was like, it's just so weird

2076
01:34:52,720 --> 01:34:54,680
Speaker 1: that you don't ever stay the night. And I was like,

2077
01:34:54,760 --> 01:34:56,680
Speaker 1: thank god, I don't ever stay the night. Like now

2078
01:34:56,720 --> 01:35:00,479
Speaker 1: I got two guys to answer to, Like I'm good off.

2079
01:35:00,560 --> 01:35:03,000
Speaker 1: The roommate was saying, there's nothing that I was sleeping

2080
01:35:03,080 --> 01:35:07,080
Speaker 1: with so interesting. I mean, granted the roommate was a really,

2081
01:35:07,400 --> 01:35:10,000
Speaker 1: really sweet guy, but still he was really concerned for

2082
01:35:10,080 --> 01:35:11,840
Speaker 1: his friend because I would never stay the night. I

2083
01:35:11,880 --> 01:35:14,080
Speaker 1: would just like handle my business and leave. But I

2084
01:35:14,160 --> 01:35:16,400
Speaker 1: was like, why are you so concerned about it? Like

2085
01:35:16,479 --> 01:35:18,719
Speaker 1: we mean, yeah, mind your business.

2086
01:35:18,880 --> 01:35:19,519
Speaker 4: I kind of love that.

2087
01:35:19,560 --> 01:35:22,360
Speaker 3: I love making men feel like how women feel a

2088
01:35:22,400 --> 01:35:24,559
Speaker 3: lot of times, I feel like they a lot. I

2089
01:35:24,640 --> 01:35:27,080
Speaker 3: always ask men like, have you ever felt have you

2090
01:35:27,120 --> 01:35:28,360
Speaker 3: ever felt lousy after life?

2091
01:35:28,360 --> 01:35:29,240
Speaker 4: Have you felt used?

2092
01:35:29,600 --> 01:35:29,840
Speaker 1: Yeah?

2093
01:35:29,880 --> 01:35:31,559
Speaker 4: A lot of time? Have you ever felt guilty?

2094
01:35:31,720 --> 01:35:32,040
Speaker 1: Yes?

2095
01:35:32,120 --> 01:35:34,000
Speaker 4: And sometimes people will say yes, but a lot of

2096
01:35:34,040 --> 01:35:34,719
Speaker 4: times better.

2097
01:35:34,600 --> 01:35:37,559
Speaker 3: Like no, no, yeah, crazy, yeah, because we're all of

2098
01:35:37,600 --> 01:35:40,320
Speaker 3: our sex, all of our sex history is all riddled

2099
01:35:40,320 --> 01:35:42,439
Speaker 3: in shame and guilt. Yeah, And here you guys are

2100
01:35:42,520 --> 01:35:44,360
Speaker 3: just swinging the dick, freeing happy.

2101
01:35:44,439 --> 01:35:46,760
Speaker 1: Yeah. But that I think I utilized that time in

2102
01:35:46,800 --> 01:35:49,440
Speaker 1: my life to just be like all about me, absolutely,

2103
01:35:49,479 --> 01:35:51,760
Speaker 1: and then when it wasn't, it wasn't anymore. So I

2104
01:35:51,920 --> 01:35:54,040
Speaker 1: really have no regrets in that for sure.

2105
01:35:54,160 --> 01:35:56,839
Speaker 4: I love that. I encourage all women listening.

2106
01:35:56,880 --> 01:36:00,360
Speaker 3: If you haven't had have you even had a a

2107
01:36:00,400 --> 01:36:00,720
Speaker 3: couple of.

2108
01:36:00,760 --> 01:36:04,040
Speaker 4: Seasons of acting like the nigga? Try it. It's fine,

2109
01:36:04,320 --> 01:36:06,479
Speaker 4: it's fine, don't call them back. Fuck it.

2110
01:36:07,200 --> 01:36:08,760
Speaker 1: Women aren't good. I know.

2111
01:36:10,000 --> 01:36:11,160
Speaker 4: Toxic, Yeah, I.

2112
01:36:11,080 --> 01:36:11,800
Speaker 1: Mean we're good at that.

2113
01:36:12,240 --> 01:36:16,200
Speaker 5: We're gonna being toxic for like and harming ourselves in

2114
01:36:16,200 --> 01:36:18,960
Speaker 5: the toxicity, yeah, but not like the toxic that actually

2115
01:36:19,040 --> 01:36:19,840
Speaker 5: empowers us and.

2116
01:36:19,920 --> 01:36:22,240
Speaker 3: Not advocating to be toxic or mean, I'm advocating for

2117
01:36:22,240 --> 01:36:24,280
Speaker 3: you to do it's good for you despite what it

2118
01:36:24,320 --> 01:36:25,599
Speaker 3: feels like for somebody else.

2119
01:36:25,520 --> 01:36:30,559
Speaker 1: No, I'm Casper Dela Rossa, Like I am Casper Dela Rosa,

2120
01:36:30,600 --> 01:36:33,040
Speaker 1: Like you will never hear from me again, Like I've

2121
01:36:33,200 --> 01:36:36,479
Speaker 1: never been Casper. My ex is the only one that

2122
01:36:36,600 --> 01:36:39,880
Speaker 1: actually broke through windows for and like actually because you.

2123
01:36:39,920 --> 01:36:42,040
Speaker 5: Get us here and maybe it's a Scorpio thing because

2124
01:36:42,040 --> 01:36:44,720
Speaker 5: me too, like I will literally go silently yeah, like

2125
01:36:45,160 --> 01:36:47,280
Speaker 5: once you push me to the edge, you will not

2126
01:36:47,439 --> 01:36:49,479
Speaker 5: hear from me at all. And that's why I get

2127
01:36:49,520 --> 01:36:51,400
Speaker 5: so last go unless I need to have like a

2128
01:36:51,400 --> 01:36:54,040
Speaker 5: conversation less there's something I need, like I need the

2129
01:36:54,080 --> 01:36:56,080
Speaker 5: closure of some sort years later.

2130
01:36:56,400 --> 01:37:00,120
Speaker 1: Three years later, absolutely right, you're not gonna hear from me, yesh,

2131
01:37:00,160 --> 01:37:02,439
Speaker 1: I get that. Yeah, that we love, we love hard,

2132
01:37:02,720 --> 01:37:03,400
Speaker 1: we do for sure.

2133
01:37:03,400 --> 01:37:07,200
Speaker 5: It's dangerous for us, not for that well could be,

2134
01:37:07,200 --> 01:37:09,160
Speaker 5: but mostly for us. Like I think that's why I

2135
01:37:09,160 --> 01:37:11,240
Speaker 5: Scorpios get such a bad rap of like either we're

2136
01:37:11,280 --> 01:37:14,200
Speaker 5: like totally obsessed or were very cold, and it's like yeah,

2137
01:37:14,240 --> 01:37:17,200
Speaker 5: because like once we're wide open and then we feel

2138
01:37:17,360 --> 01:37:19,880
Speaker 5: like taken for granted or any of those things, like

2139
01:37:20,439 --> 01:37:22,160
Speaker 5: it might take a while for us to get there,

2140
01:37:22,160 --> 01:37:24,360
Speaker 5: but once we do, it's very kind of.

2141
01:37:24,360 --> 01:37:27,200
Speaker 1: Oh, it's done, like it's done when you're Actually, when

2142
01:37:27,240 --> 01:37:31,599
Speaker 1: I'm silent, it's like scarier than me popping off or anything.

2143
01:37:31,720 --> 01:37:31,800
Speaker 4: Like.

2144
01:37:31,880 --> 01:37:35,639
Speaker 1: I actually feel really bad if I'm super silent, because

2145
01:37:35,680 --> 01:37:37,920
Speaker 1: that's a message loud and clear that I don't have.

2146
01:37:38,280 --> 01:37:40,040
Speaker 1: I don't even got to say it, like you already

2147
01:37:40,040 --> 01:37:40,679
Speaker 1: know the vibes.

2148
01:37:40,880 --> 01:37:42,600
Speaker 4: Sometimes I'm like, why are you making me spell it

2149
01:37:42,640 --> 01:37:43,120
Speaker 4: out for you?

2150
01:37:43,760 --> 01:37:45,880
Speaker 1: I'm not spelling nothing. I'm not even mumbling that.

2151
01:37:46,560 --> 01:37:47,880
Speaker 4: I'm not like silence.

2152
01:37:48,040 --> 01:37:50,240
Speaker 5: It means I'm not gonna spell it because I've already

2153
01:37:50,240 --> 01:37:53,160
Speaker 5: said it. Yeah, yes, yes, So don't make me say yes.

2154
01:37:53,520 --> 01:37:55,960
Speaker 1: I really wish I was like a chaser or like

2155
01:37:56,000 --> 01:37:58,120
Speaker 1: a paragraph writer, and Nick, you sa always be like

2156
01:37:58,560 --> 01:38:02,160
Speaker 1: all you say is like kay, or like the like

2157
01:38:02,680 --> 01:38:06,400
Speaker 1: the whole paragraph is like I don't have nothing to say.

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Speaker 1: I already said a paragraph.

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Speaker 4: Kay.

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Speaker 5: I mean I think about him and his poor mental

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Speaker 5: and his poor mental health, but his mental health of

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Speaker 5: all the women he has to deal with on a

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Speaker 5: daily basis that I have that have different personalities and

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Speaker 5: how they deal with anger and how they deal with

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Speaker 5: all the things, and he has to like look at

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Speaker 5: his he must not want to ever look at his phone,

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01:38:26,720 --> 01:38:28,280
Speaker 5: because looking at your phone, you're like, oh my god,

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Speaker 5: I gotta respond to this paragraph.

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Speaker 1: I responded this voice. No, she said, kay.

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Speaker 4: And then the fact is he has twelve kids.

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Speaker 3: But then on top of that, there's additional personalities like

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Speaker 3: he's actually working with even more people because you all

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Speaker 3: are working with him, but he's working with the children

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Speaker 3: plus the mom.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, for sure, So that's another another layer that.

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Speaker 1: Okay, he ship a lot.

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Speaker 4: I'm alive water sign, like I already know is one woman.

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Speaker 4: I'm alive. I tell my man all the time, if

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Speaker 4: you could get another girlfriend, you know.

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Speaker 5: Gradu Lieberman are like I always say, they're like the

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Speaker 5: weirdos of the zodiac signs. They're like kind of loners,

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Speaker 5: but they can kind of float around and be around

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Speaker 5: a lot of people. But they're they're they're they're like

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Speaker 5: they're weirdos. And you have to kind of be a

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Speaker 5: weirdo to be as successful as him. As him because

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Speaker 5: he has been insanely successful from such a young age,

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Speaker 5: there's like there's something else, there's a genius in his mind.

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Speaker 5: He's able to like unlock to be able to have

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Speaker 5: the capacity because you actually he has to have so

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Speaker 5: much capacity to be able.

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Speaker 1: To deal with all.

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Speaker 5: Absolutely, so ship Nick, I'm praying for you, Nick. Or Okay,

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Speaker 5: we go take a nap.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, not so good.

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Speaker 4: Not so good?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, not so good.

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Speaker 5: Well, Abby, I am so grateful and thankful that you

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Speaker 5: came onto the show. It's so great to chat with

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Speaker 5: you and talk to you and get to know you better.

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Speaker 4: Seriously, this is fun. Feels like just to be just chilling.

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Speaker 1: Yes, I'm glad you guys asked me all the things.

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Speaker 1: That's fun. Yeah, I'm glad you have. You gotta tell

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Speaker 1: me what this means. Oh yeah, hello, it's tarot time.

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Speaker 4: It is tterot time. Hmmm, I'm excited to read it now.

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Speaker 2: So we add Abby pulled.

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Speaker 4: Of wands the three of wands.

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Speaker 3: While the two of wands speaks to planning for the

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Speaker 3: future from a place of safety and comfort, the three

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Speaker 3: of wands shows that your plans are now well underway

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Speaker 3: and you're considering considering even more opportunities to expand your

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Speaker 3: current strategy and maximize your ultimate potential. Wow, everything is

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Speaker 3: progressing steadily as expected thanks to your solid preparation and

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Speaker 3: ongoing drive. The three of wands signals the many chances

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Speaker 3: available to you to broaden your horizons through study, travel,

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Speaker 3: business travel, come to retreat, enterprise, and learning. You are

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Speaker 3: becoming more aware of the opportunities that exist for you

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Speaker 3: right now, and there are still more to To take

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Speaker 3: advantage of this potential, you must stay committed to your

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Speaker 3: path and prepare to stretch beyond your comfort zone. Knowing

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Speaker 3: your best hopes lie outside of your current environment, It

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Speaker 3: is time to think big. Consider that you can you can't,

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Speaker 3: Consider what you can to open doors to more development

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Speaker 3: and self expression and self exploration. This card encourages you

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Speaker 3: to dream bigger than your limitations, accept your vision, and

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Speaker 3: be confident you will achieve it. It also brings your

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Speaker 3: attention to the changes and challenges that lie ahead. Given

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Speaker 3: the man in this card can see far into the distance,

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Speaker 3: then you are likely to be already aware of the

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Speaker 3: upcoming developments and obstacles and can prepare for them in

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Speaker 3: ahead of time.

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Speaker 1: Shit, and that wasn't the truth.

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Speaker 3: It also says you're planning to travel overseas or over

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Speaker 3: a body of water, and encourages you to be more

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01:41:46,120 --> 01:41:49,960
Speaker 3: adventurous and venture to unknown places to discover more about

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Speaker 3: yourself and learn many new things.

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Speaker 4: Along the way.

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Speaker 3: You may also explore international job and your opportunities. Oh

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Speaker 3: I love we're also being able to come to visa

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Speaker 3: when you Yeah, yeah, yes, I love that.

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Speaker 1: That's amazing. I was like hoping it wasn't a bad card,

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Speaker 1: but that actually resonates.

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Speaker 3: Very very said always.

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Speaker 1: Amazing because which is you know, I was bleeding on

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Speaker 1: the new the lunar the beginning of the l started.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, same, that's crazy and it felt really intense.

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Speaker 1: Like I was telling my sister, I was like, this

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Speaker 1: is really interesting that I'm bleeding like on the lunar

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Speaker 1: New Year. But yeah, just to say.

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Speaker 4: I was bleeding myself. Okay, I actually started right the

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Speaker 4: day before And that's crazy.

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Speaker 1: Just really powerful individuals and we're tuned in and tapped in.

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Speaker 1: So thank you for allowing me to tune into the

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Speaker 1: good Mom's bad Choices frequency for the day.

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Speaker 2: Of course, amazing. Invited back anytime, and.

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Speaker 3: We're going to get into group chat and we're going

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Speaker 3: to shake those today. Okay, right, microdos and we're gonna

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Speaker 3: go out.

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Speaker 4: I'm just gonna do it.

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Speaker 1: Okay, let's do it. Abby.

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Speaker 2: Where can our people find you.

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Speaker 1: At high Abby Della Rosa or at love in every frequency.

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Speaker 1: Those are my two brands. Anything else from there is

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Speaker 1: not me or it's I can't say it's my burner page.

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Speaker 1: I can't say it's my fin stuff. But what I

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Speaker 1: am gonna say is those are the only two platforms

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Speaker 1: I'm at Hi Abby Dela Rosa, all across the board, YouTube, TikTok,

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Speaker 1: Instagram and all the good stuff perfectly Well.

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Speaker 5: We'll put all of that in this episode's description. Make

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Speaker 5: sure you check out our episode description to check out

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Speaker 5: the Good Vibe treat. Yeah, so check us out on

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Speaker 5: Check out the vibes and follow me at watch Erica and.

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Speaker 4: You can follow me at Mila Underscore map.

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Speaker 5: and go ahead and subscribe to this YouTube channel if

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Speaker 5: so that you know when the episodes drop every Wednesday

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Speaker 5: or I think Thursday's on YouTube.

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Speaker 4: And please rate a review. You said, do it again.

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Speaker 1: We need you to.

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Speaker 3: We need them, we need them, and it makes it, It

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Speaker 3: gives us motivation to keep going.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, thank you, thank you so so you guys next week,

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Speaker 1: love you bye please.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm living so good.

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Speaker 1: Can't you tell?

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Speaker 6: I went through a drought, that's until I found a

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Speaker 6: well maym have been known earth. I used to be

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Speaker 6: broken tail, now got the Blues Dans and like Beyonce,

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Speaker 6: jaw throat shots or pop in his cow wearing our voices.

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Speaker 4: Patriarchy kept it in the box to exploit.

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Speaker 1: Its women put the pee and powers. So what's pointing this?

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Speaker 1: They want me to be good? So I made bad choices.

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Speaker 6: Bad mom, not a bad mom, but a bad mom.

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Speaker 6: Bitters in on, put cannabis in their bath. Bone walked

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Speaker 6: in bosses cap and I blew his cat bass tip dog.

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Speaker 4: Now I'm immune to the cat called Herbie and.

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Speaker 6: No waisted straight to it like a dollar sign.

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Speaker 1: Mother rent the number when to win.

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Speaker 6: It's like a water someone where you're in the winter

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Speaker 6: and resentual will win.

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Speaker 4: In the summertime. I do what all ain't no one

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Speaker 4: that needs to run it by