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Speaker 1: do with my parents. Keeping this wall up with them

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Speaker 1: growing the longer I put it off. Making another attempt

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Speaker 1: in meditation helps. It helps me see the conflict with

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Speaker 1: for Janelle, the worry that Marco is gonna make a

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Speaker 1: as a production crew. It all feels for a moment

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Speaker 1: manageable part. Of course, I'm interrupted before I can even

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Speaker 1: meet my personal best Amasily five minutes. I checked my

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Speaker 1: that it's from Marker in our group chat with Janelle.

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Speaker 1: All right, Ben, this one took some legwork on Janelle's

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Speaker 1: in my part. But one of the artists we've been

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Speaker 1: emailing with is in town, so we booked you an

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Speaker 1: interview with Stephen Moses at a recording studio in the city.

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Speaker 1: Are you free this Thursday? I can make it. Send

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Speaker 1: me the address. Are you both coming? No, you're flying

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Speaker 1: solo this time. I've got a date in Marco studying

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Speaker 1: for a test. A date. Janelle has a date? What

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Speaker 1: At least I don't have to worry about Marco making

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Speaker 1: it weird. Wait, Marco's studying, since when does he started

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Speaker 1: doing that? That makes me feel way behind on my

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Speaker 1: That's just one more lie. I have to tell my parents,

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Speaker 1: which will only make coming clean harder. Huh, Okay, I'll

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Speaker 1: figure out a cover from my parents. Honest question, do

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Speaker 1: you guys think I should tell them about? Here comes

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Speaker 1: to break immediately both of them show the floating dots

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Speaker 1: of typing responses, Yes, they should be so proud of you.

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Speaker 1: You can't keep it from them forever. I don't know.

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Speaker 1: You know, you don't know Ben's parents. They're nice, but

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Speaker 1: they could be strict. They have big plans for our

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Speaker 1: boy that don't involve him becoming a podcast. That's all

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Speaker 1: the more reason to have the conversation now rather than later.

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Speaker 1: I hear what you know is saying. But Marco's right too.

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Speaker 1: She doesn't know my parents. I don't know how to

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna wait till after this interview. I don't want

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Speaker 1: going into the city alone. Better to ask for forgiveness

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Speaker 1: one last time for the night. It doesn't work. The

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Speaker 1: downtime during the week preparing for the interview. Stephen Moses

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Speaker 1: blew up on SoundCloud. Hometown in Pennsylvania, like Marco said

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Speaker 1: different vibe than my other interview so far. I'm not

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Speaker 1: gonna lie. Conducting this interview without my team got me shook.

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Speaker 1: I'm used to having Mark over Janelle around for back up,

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Speaker 1: can just see their faces now, just judging me. Are

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Speaker 1: you sure this is an impact in your schoolwork? We

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Speaker 1: This guy here, I am getting piste off about an

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Speaker 1: and we get to my I'm still panting for my

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Speaker 1: the city, now's my time. After a few blocks walk,

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Speaker 1: I arrived at the studio entrance, a heavy steel door

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Speaker 1: flanked by glass walls with the name Electric Ladies Studios.

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Speaker 1: I hit the buzzer and in a minute, this big

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Speaker 1: guy in a black T shirt and black jeans answers

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Speaker 1: help you I'm Ruben Robinson mask On from the Here

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Speaker 1: Comes to Break podcast. I'm here from my interview with

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Speaker 1: Stephen Moses, m nice dride Kid. You're the interviewer. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: he sizes me up and lets out another gruff laugh.

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Speaker 1: I'm getting pretty sick of dealing with dormant and after

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Speaker 1: Check the list? What did you say? Your name was again? Reuben? It?

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Speaker 1: Maybe under here? Comes to Rake or mask On? Mask On?

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Speaker 1: What's that like? Your MC name? Sort of? No wonder

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Speaker 1: I get in now? I'm running late. I like to

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Speaker 1: be early for my interviews. There's something else, Yeah, follow me,

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Speaker 1: I'll take care of the back. The Big Guy leads

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Speaker 1: Guy instructs me to sit and wait. Stephen is laying

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Speaker 1: by the history of the place. I can't wait to

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Speaker 1: tell Marco about all of this. He'll be so jealous.

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Speaker 1: As if to prove my point. The door to the

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Speaker 1: album Survival and listen to his paranoia a true story mistake.

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Speaker 1: All the time. I'm rooted to the lounge couch, starstruck.

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Speaker 1: Just being in the room with someone like this feels

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Speaker 1: like I've made it success. He pauses in the lounge

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Speaker 1: and make side contact with you. Hey kid, you an artist.

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Speaker 1: I'm still stuck to my spot, knowing this is going

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Speaker 1: to blow Barcos's mind. I gotta play it cool, don't

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Speaker 1: blow it, at least spit out of normal sentence. Ruben,

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Speaker 1: Come on, I'm a journalist. I'm here to enter you.

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Speaker 1: Stephen Are you're pretty young? How long you've been at it? Oh?

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Speaker 1: You know, just getting started? Really? Uh? A huge fan

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Speaker 1: of your work, By the way, we'll keep it up.

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Speaker 1: I was grinding at it for years before I got signed.

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Speaker 1: Maybe one day man, you will meet up, you know,

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Speaker 1: for interviewers. Son With that, he passes out of the

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Speaker 1: lounge and I collect myself. I think I pulled that

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Speaker 1: have someone I admire so much see my potential, it's

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Speaker 1: incredibly validated. I step to the room he just left.

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Speaker 1: It's the production suite. I see the board all laid out,

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Speaker 1: shelves lined with tapes and demo tracks. There are musical

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Speaker 1: conscious about recording this interview on my phone. It feels

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Speaker 1: It's ready for the mass to come off. Stephen Moses

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Speaker 1: He smarks a little bit and gives me a look

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Speaker 1: like well, and then I dive in. And an industry

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Speaker 1: And why do you think that truth to feeling lost

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Speaker 1: feel out of these kids. That's what music was for

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Speaker 1: what was that song in your life where you were like,

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