Speaker 1: Look at Our Radio is a radiophonic novela, which.
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Speaker 1: I'm Fosa Fem.
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Speaker 2: Trump election year. We've been podcasting through election years, a
Speaker 2: global pandemic, civic unrest, political controversies, the Me Too movement,
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Speaker 1: present and shifting the culture forward. You're tuning into Capitolo
Speaker 1: Doo two nineteen.
Speaker 2: Last time on Loca to Our Radio. We interviewed Aiden Castellanos,
Speaker 2: the host of Susto, a podcast of uki spooky scary stories.
Speaker 2: For sure.
Speaker 3: So one of the earlier ones that I remember that
Speaker 3: isn't Lao Na, because I feel like that is the
Speaker 3: like the go to right away for everyone. I tell people,
Speaker 3: she's like the Beyonce of spirits, right, like everybody knows
Speaker 3: who she is, everybody knows her story. But another one
Speaker 3: that was really popular in my upbringing was the story
Speaker 3: of the Girl who Downs at the Devil, and I think.
Speaker 2: That was centered around the folklore of LATINX and Hispanic cultures.
Speaker 2: Tune into that episode. It's a good one. We learned
Speaker 2: about a bunch of brand new horror stories that we
Speaker 2: had never heard of before. We learn about why Aiden
Speaker 2: calls himself a folklorist and more amazing.
Speaker 1: One of my favorites ever, I say that each of
Speaker 1: a but it's true. One of my favorites.
Speaker 2: Aiden is very knowledgeable, very storage.
Speaker 1: I love when I love meeting someone that is like
Speaker 1: an expert in something that you're like kind of know
Speaker 1: about and they're like they know a lot about it.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: That's just always so fun. It's like you are so
Speaker 1: well researched and well read, and you like love your
Speaker 1: craft so much that you're just going to keep on
Speaker 1: learning and super niche.
Speaker 2: I love how In that episode, Aiden talks about the
Speaker 2: legacy of ghost stories in the Rio Grande Valley specifically,
Speaker 2: and that's sort of where he's drawing his inspiration from
Speaker 2: to pursue this type of research.
Speaker 1: Absolutely, it's very much folklore, scary horror at the intersection
Speaker 1: of like she gotta studies, very fascina, which is probably
Speaker 1: why we love it so much.
Speaker 2: There you go, Okay, you got us weer nerds.
Speaker 1: Tune in, tune in today. We're just we're answering some
Speaker 1: oh you look ask questions. But before that we kind
Speaker 1: of just want to check in, catch up. We haven't
Speaker 1: really had a chance to talk to our look amis
Speaker 1: in a while, so let's just get started.
Speaker 2: Mala, what have you been up to the assie. You've
Speaker 2: been busy as always.
Speaker 1: It's been a very busy couple of weeks. It's been
Speaker 1: a busy year. It's been a busy couple of weeks.
Speaker 1: It was just my birthday. That's a big one. I
Speaker 1: turned thirty one, which is wild. Not that I feel
Speaker 1: old or anything. I just was talking about this with
Speaker 1: my mom. And you know, when you're a kid or
Speaker 1: you hear stories right about like young girls that are
Speaker 1: like when I'm twenty something, I'm going to be married
Speaker 1: with babies and this and that, And I just never
Speaker 1: saw my I never had that image of myself as
Speaker 1: like an adult. And I don't know why. Maybe something
Speaker 1: I need to talk about in therapy, who knows. But
Speaker 1: and now it's like I'm fully in now officially in
Speaker 1: my thirties. I've been thinking about it, like wow, okay,
Speaker 1: like I'm in my thirties, I feel more self actualized.
Speaker 1: I feel more confident in who I am, and feel
Speaker 1: a lot more confident also in setting boundaries and like
Speaker 1: letting go of that people please your identity. And I
Speaker 1: don't know, so I'm thinking that thirties are great so far.
Speaker 1: They're very challenging. I think you're thirty tried to take
Speaker 1: me out. I went through like so many life transitions
Speaker 1: and changes and loss, a lot of loss. So I'm
Speaker 1: just welcoming thirty one and hoping that the universe is like, Okay,
Speaker 1: we're gonna like chill on this one for a little bit.
Speaker 2: Yes, just let it breathe.
Speaker 1: Yes, I can't take any more.
Speaker 2: Please, I didn't flow.
Speaker 1: I'm like enough character development, because your girl can only
Speaker 1: take so much.
Speaker 2: The character is developed.
Speaker 1: Yes, please please give me a break. I need an intermission.
Speaker 2: You're exiting your Saturn return basically at this stage.
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, yes, my Saturn return has been complete for
Speaker 1: about a year, I think so. Yes, please let it
Speaker 1: all be done for a while.
Speaker 2: I think the hard part's over.
Speaker 1: I hope, so, girl. From what do they say, from
Speaker 1: your lips to God's ears?
Speaker 2: Yes, from your lips to God's ears to God's hearing. Aid,
Speaker 2: there we go, turn it up God later, crank of
Speaker 2: the volume.
Speaker 1: And to celebrate my birthday, I went to Vaya the
Speaker 1: Wada Lupe in Baha with a couple of friends and
Speaker 1: that was really fun. It was definitely a different type
Speaker 1: of birthday in the sense that I like was a
Speaker 1: mature adult that didn't get too drunk.
Speaker 2: Amazing, I know. I mean last year we were hiking
Speaker 2: to Machipia.
Speaker 1: I think that might have said it. Yeah, like that
Speaker 1: set everything in motion.
Speaker 2: Yes, it's like a pivot on the way the birthday
Speaker 2: is celebrated.
Speaker 1: Yes, I have spent many a birthday not remembering, Yes,
Speaker 1: and I loved that from my twenties. But as I
Speaker 1: was sharing with you and a couple of our friends,
Speaker 1: there was one birthday where I like didn't make it,
Speaker 1: like I like had to go sleep on the couch.
Speaker 1: Nine yeah, And I remember the next day like all
Speaker 1: like I don't want to spend my birthday not remembering
Speaker 1: and I don't want to spend my birthday asleep when
Speaker 1: my friends are outside with each other. And so for me,
Speaker 1: that was that moment where I was like, Okay, I
Speaker 1: did that and I loved it. It's been fun, but
Speaker 1: like I'm ready for something else totally. And so I
Speaker 1: think I definitely took that energy into the birthday trip
Speaker 1: where it's like I don't want to be passing out.
Speaker 1: I don't want to be sick, Like I want to
Speaker 1: have some wine, have some snacks, be with my friends,
Speaker 1: and like take some nice photos, enjoy the ambiance.
Speaker 2: It's wine tasting, but not wine drunk, right, We're not slashed,
Speaker 2: We're just we're sipping.
Speaker 1: Yes. And it's funny because you know, when I went
Speaker 1: to UC Santa Barbara, and that is depending on your age,
Speaker 1: and you know, if you're still an undergrad there is wine,
Speaker 1: there are wineries, and you do wine tasting, but because
Speaker 1: you're so young, you go to get drunk and it's
Speaker 1: like cheap. It's like, oh, I can get like really
Speaker 1: drunk on these wine tastings and it's like twenty dollars.
Speaker 1: But if I do enough of them, I'm good. Yea right,
Speaker 1: And so yeah, you know, we were like twenty and
Speaker 1: like you don't know what you're doing, and so yes,
Speaker 1: you're wine tasting to like actually taste the wine.
Speaker 2: And that's so mature, it's so elevated.
Speaker 1: I know, I know. I was proud of everyone. Nobody
Speaker 1: like the gopas you know. It was definitely like a
Speaker 1: trip where everyone was on the same page.
Speaker 2: That sounds lovely. Yeah, it was lovely and I couldn't
Speaker 2: make it. But we've been talking about a trip to
Speaker 2: Vaya for years and now, and then I couldn't go,
Speaker 2: I know, so I was sad. I have grown accustomed
Speaker 2: to celebrating your birthday with you.
Speaker 1: Oh we've celebrated I think all of the birthday since
Speaker 1: we've known each other together. Yeah, yeah, but you're busy.
Speaker 2: Yeah. I did go to your house with my tizza.
Speaker 2: It did.
Speaker 1: I had a small gathering with my friends that couldn't go,
Speaker 1: and that was really nice.
Speaker 2: Yeah, a small intimate, an intimate gathering of close friends.
Speaker 1: I know. I kept telling everyone, like, this is not
Speaker 1: a party, like don't dress up, don't bring anything, bring
Speaker 1: yourself and like please like just hang with me. And
Speaker 1: that's what we did. We had pizza, we had wine.
Speaker 2: It was lovely. We haet cake.
Speaker 1: It was great.
Speaker 2: You got presents.
Speaker 1: I got presents. What are they called the little Calico critters?
Speaker 2: They're so cute. I know, you got a bedroom set.
Speaker 1: I did. I got a bedroom set, to my dismay,
Speaker 1: but also with gratitude.
Speaker 2: Because you have to like put up on put them
Speaker 2: on a shelf for something.
Speaker 1: I do, yes, And I you know, my best friend
Speaker 1: Jackie has been supporting my Calico critter like kind of obsession.
Speaker 1: But I'm very not willing to be fully obsessed or
Speaker 1: commit to the obsession. And so you know, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I don't have space. I'm also thirty one. I'm like
Speaker 1: not trying to like be the girl with the little things.
Speaker 1: But I love the little things, you know, I love them.
Speaker 1: I love me some Hello Kitty. I think of like
Speaker 1: Hello Kitty as like my Latina birthright, because like you
Speaker 1: go to Mexico, go to my hand gool, there's Hello
Speaker 1: Kitty everywhere were I'm like, oh, this is just I
Speaker 1: was destined.
Speaker 2: At the Santa Fe Spring Swapmeat, the Hello Kitty vendor. Yes,
Speaker 2: we bought things from her.
Speaker 1: We bought thingsats exactly exactly. So anyway, so she gifted
Speaker 1: me a bedroom set for my little herky twins. I
Speaker 1: know it's I know, it's so cute.
Speaker 2: Though, you guys should see it came with bunk beds.
Speaker 1: It's a really adorable and a dk I don't want
Speaker 1: to be known as the girl with the little thing.
Speaker 2: Okay, but you know that that like Renaissance painting, the
Speaker 2: girl with the pearl earring, you're the girl with the
Speaker 2: little things.
Speaker 1: We need to put my things in my hand, my
Speaker 1: little Hello Kitty, my Calico critters.
Speaker 2: You need a portrait, you know, acrylic of you need
Speaker 2: a portrait. You need to sit for a portrait with
Speaker 2: your things.
Speaker 1: I cannot.
Speaker 2: I love it. I cannot.
Speaker 1: Yes, wow, And then finally I mean wrapping up Latino
Speaker 1: Hispanic heritage man. I was asked to moderate a panel
Speaker 1: by Info Blocks. They're a tech company and actually one
Speaker 1: of my book club members, Kiki. She put me up
Speaker 1: for this opportunity and I got to interview the fabulous
Speaker 1: Willie Chavaria.
Speaker 2: Amazing, amazing iconic. I'm so when you texted me that,
Speaker 2: I screamed a little bit. I was like, oh my god.
Speaker 1: What. He's a Chicano designer from Fresno and very much
Speaker 1: grew up with like farm worker family members, and his
Speaker 1: designs and his personal brand paid tribute to that cultural
Speaker 1: historical legacy. And so I got to talk to him
Speaker 1: and he's just incredible, and so I hope we can
Speaker 1: want to get him on the podcast and have him
Speaker 1: talk to us as well, because it was just a
Speaker 1: fabulous time.
Speaker 2: He has blown up and I always come across him
Speaker 2: on TikTok, Like people are always interviewing him on the
Speaker 2: street asking him about his outfit. His work is on
Speaker 2: all the big runways, he's in all the major magazines.
Speaker 2: Like he's becoming a fashion icon in the mainstream, Like
Speaker 2: he really is hot, cature, but make it Chicano, make
Speaker 2: it Fresno. But I think he's been New York based, right.
Speaker 1: Yes, he's New York based and he's also the current
Speaker 1: senior vice president of design at Calvin Klein. So he's
Speaker 1: really in the fashion world, so in it. In addition
Speaker 1: to having his own brand that's his namesake, he's also
Speaker 1: works for Calvin Klein.
Speaker 2: I had no idea he was with Calvin Klein, all American. Yes,
Speaker 2: that's incredible.
Speaker 1: Yes, I'm so honored that I was able to talk
Speaker 1: to him, and hopefully we can get him on look
Speaker 1: at Tora, Don't go Anywhere, Loka Motives. We'll be right.
Speaker 2: Back and we're back with more of our episode.
Speaker 1: So, Maley, you have also been quite busy.
Speaker 2: Yes, I'm in the throes of school. I'm in my
Speaker 2: second semester of my MFA at USC. I'm studying Film
Speaker 2: and Television production, and so this semester, the way it
Speaker 2: works in this class as they put us in trios
Speaker 2: and we take turns doing different jobs and we make
Speaker 2: three movies in one semester. So for the first movie
Speaker 2: of the semester, I was the cinematographer, I was the
Speaker 2: director of photography, and I was our production designer. That
Speaker 2: was a super duper fun experience. I've always been a
Speaker 2: little timid with the camera, and there's a lot of
Speaker 2: pressure in that job to make everything look good and
Speaker 2: make sure things are in focus and that the frame
Speaker 2: is perfect and that the director is getting everything that
Speaker 2: they want. There's just a lot of people buzzing around
Speaker 2: and a lot of details with the camera settings and
Speaker 2: the lighting and continuity and X, Y and Z. But
Speaker 2: doing that and the production design just gave me, like
Speaker 2: I don't know, a really beautiful opportunity to blend, Like
Speaker 2: I love a little interior design, so to blend that
Speaker 2: with the camera work was really really fun. Right now
Speaker 2: with the movie that we're making, I'm our producer, and
Speaker 2: when you're producing a film in this class, you're also
Speaker 2: the on set sound recordist, So I'm like handling the
Speaker 2: mixer and I'm operating the boom, and then I also
Speaker 2: have to edit the film. So they have us cutting
Speaker 2: our dailies, which are the clips that we film over
Speaker 2: the weekend. They have us cut our dailies and then
Speaker 2: screen them in class in between shooting weekends, and then
Speaker 2: our professors give us feedback, and then we go back
Speaker 2: a second weekend and we do any reshoots or whatever
Speaker 2: needs to be shot. So it's a lot of in
Speaker 2: that producing work. It's like a lot of permits and
Speaker 2: forms and insurance and scheduling and meals and keeping track
Speaker 2: of cast and crew and everyone's allergies and who's a
Speaker 2: vegetarian and where's everyone parking? And do we have our
Speaker 2: film LA permit? And do we need a stunt coordinator?
Speaker 2: And is there a fog machine? And like do we
Speaker 2: need a production safety plan? Like it's a lot of paperwork.
Speaker 2: But then I also get to turn around and edit,
Speaker 2: which is also fun. And then the next film that
Speaker 2: we make, I'll be writing and directing, and so stay
Speaker 2: tuned because I have more about that one. I'm doing
Speaker 2: a little horror film which is going to be very
Speaker 2: fun and cute. So yeah, I'm just in the thick
Speaker 2: of it. And then I have like a midterm exam
Speaker 2: in this class called Motion Picture Script Analysis, and we
Speaker 2: watch movies and then analyze them. So like I don't
Speaker 2: carry any books in this program, like as a graduate student,
Speaker 2: there's no books. But we are watching Finding Nemo in
Speaker 2: class and the School of Rock and like doing an
Speaker 2: analysis of the film as a text. So that's very
Speaker 2: fun for me. And yeah, so that's what I've been
Speaker 2: up to.
Speaker 1: That's really cool.
Speaker 2: I thank you.
Speaker 1: I love when you send me photo updates and when
Speaker 1: you just send me general updates about what's going on
Speaker 1: in costs and what you're working on. That's exciting.
Speaker 2: It is very exciting. And like again in my role
Speaker 2: as producer, like this film that I'm working on, we
Speaker 2: have like one character breaks the other character's neck and
Speaker 2: hit somebody over the head with a bat, and we
Speaker 2: have like a fake bomb and a whip and blood
Speaker 2: and rope and baseball bats. And I had to take
Speaker 2: all of those prop weapons to campus to the Department
Speaker 2: of Public Safety to get them inspected by the watch commander.
Speaker 2: And then I had to take them to the physical
Speaker 2: production office and it's like a whole thing. And I
Speaker 2: get there and I like open up my bag and
Speaker 2: the cop is like, okay, let's see these weapons. And
Speaker 2: it's like, you know, rope and blood and a baseball
Speaker 2: bat and like a sticks of dynamite from Amazon. Like
Speaker 2: I just feel so silly, you know, like with my
Speaker 2: Looney Tune ass bag of tricks. So, yeah, film school
Speaker 2: is really fun and I'm very actually very excited for
Speaker 2: the semester to be over because she's tired. But it's okay,
Speaker 2: that's what it's all about. That's me.
Speaker 1: Yeah, grad school is hard. And your program is a
Speaker 1: lot longer than mine. So yes, blessings to.
Speaker 2: You, thank thank you. I will I will take the blessings.
Speaker 1: Thank you and Bill, you know, obviously making the show.
Speaker 1: And we're also hosting an event in collaboration with Sway
Speaker 1: Studio on Thursday, October twenty fourth in la We will
Speaker 1: be in conversation with Liliam Rivera. She is the author
Speaker 1: of Tiny Threads and we're going to be talking about
Speaker 1: her book and all things fashion, sustainability and the fashion
Speaker 1: industry in general.
Speaker 2: Love it. That's going to be really fun. Shout out
Speaker 2: to our friend Sureley for coordinating with us to get
Speaker 2: us involved with this event. We're really looking forward to it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm so excited to just be like out in
Speaker 1: the world again as podcasters, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: Like the studio obviously is amazing, and the podcast is amazing,
Speaker 1: but like doing actual events like we used to is
Speaker 1: really fun and I missed that. So it's really fun
Speaker 1: when we get to be like out and about.
Speaker 2: And we were at USC not too long ago, yes,
Speaker 2: moderating a conversation and that was a great time. And
Speaker 2: it's it's just really fun doing things with students and
Speaker 2: speaking on campuses. When we were doing our university circuit
Speaker 2: back in the day before the pandemic, it was just
Speaker 2: always really fun and the energy is so high, and
Speaker 2: they's a buzz when there's a student run event, and
Speaker 2: it's always like the Latino Center or the Association of
Speaker 2: Latin American Students and you know, all the acronyms, and
Speaker 2: it's just fun.
Speaker 1: It's fun.
Speaker 2: Yeah, they keep us young, they do. Thank god, something
Speaker 2: something's keeping as young. It's the students, it's the youth
Speaker 2: of tomorrow. The listeners, the listeners.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. So that being said, we actually have some
Speaker 1: questions that were submitted today by our listeners in our
Speaker 1: Locomotives channel on Instagram. So in case you missed it,
Speaker 1: their Instagram now has this feature where you can join
Speaker 1: a channel, and in order to do that, you just
Speaker 1: go to our Instagram homepage and there's like a little
Speaker 1: Locomotives Members channel that you can click and you can
Speaker 1: join it. And really, I just like to share a
Speaker 1: little behind the scenes photos and questions and let y'all
Speaker 1: know when we're doing things. And so I posted a
Speaker 1: question box in there and y'all submitted some very fun,
Speaker 1: very interesting questions and so we're just gonna get started
Speaker 1: and see how many we can get through.
Speaker 2: You are now listening to Oh yeah, so I love
Speaker 2: this first one. How do I stop taking everything personally?
Speaker 2: This one's hard?
Speaker 1: This it's hard.
Speaker 2: How do I stop taking everything personally?
Speaker 1: That's hard. It's hard, especially when you're sensitive like me.
Speaker 1: But I think I sometimes I when I catch myself
Speaker 1: doing this, I say to myself, it's actually not about you.
Speaker 1: It's not about you, And in the kindest way to myself, say,
Speaker 1: the world actually doesn't revolve around you, and how this
Speaker 1: person is either responding to you right now, or how
Speaker 1: maybe they're not prioritizing what's important to you. Whatever it
Speaker 1: may be, like, it actually has nothing to do with you.
Speaker 1: It has everything to do with them, truly, and where
Speaker 1: they're at in their headspace. That doesn't mean like they
Speaker 1: have the permission to be mean to you or unkind
Speaker 1: to you, or treat you horribly or poorly. But there
Speaker 1: are some things that aren't actually about you.
Speaker 2: It's even like in the way that we say this,
Speaker 2: like taking it personally, it's not that someone's even giving
Speaker 2: it to me personally. I'm just taking it and making
Speaker 2: it personally.
Speaker 1: Yes, that's a good point.
Speaker 2: It's in my control how I receive something and how
Speaker 2: I bring it into my own mind unless there's like
Speaker 2: definitive evidence and proof that oh no, they actually hate me, yeah,
Speaker 2: or they actually have a problem with me, but that
Speaker 2: is that's rarely what happens.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And I also think it's like who is the person? Yes,
Speaker 1: you know, is it your mom? Is it someone that
Speaker 1: loves you and cares about you? Then like it's really
Speaker 1: probably more about them, And if it's someone that doesn't
Speaker 1: like you, then like, well you don't need to take
Speaker 1: anything from them, actually.
Speaker 2: Very much so. And like in life, people are gonna
Speaker 2: not like you. Yeah, this is the other thing is
Speaker 2: actually yeah, maybe they can't stand you. Yeah, but that
Speaker 2: just comes with the territory of existing and being out
Speaker 2: in the world and knowing people and meeting people. So
Speaker 2: it's also just a hard truth we have to just
Speaker 2: accept sometimes like I'm not for this person, and maybe
Speaker 2: I leave them alone because I rub them the wrong way.
Speaker 2: There's something about me that just doesn't mesh with them
Speaker 2: and their vibe. And that's all right. I don't have
Speaker 2: to dwell on it. It doesn't have to keep me
Speaker 2: up at night. I mean, I'm gonna dwell and it
Speaker 2: will keep me up at night, but I don't have to.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think that's part of like letting go. Depending
Speaker 1: if you're you have those people pleasing tendencies like a
Speaker 1: lot of us do, right, especially me, It's like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm not going to let this actually determine how I
Speaker 1: view myself, as hard as it may be. And yes,
Speaker 1: some people are not gonna like me, and that's a
Speaker 1: hard pill to swallow sometimes, but there are lots of
Speaker 1: people that do like you and do love you and
Speaker 1: want to be around you. So be with those people.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And if they don't like you, it's probably because
Speaker 2: they're jealous, such.
Speaker 1: A like default Senora thing to say, Selos, they're jealous
Speaker 1: of you because you're so beautiful and talented and smart
Speaker 1: and they could never and that's why they don't like you.
Speaker 1: There we go.
Speaker 2: They can't be in the same room with you, they
Speaker 2: can't be next to you. They need a burlap sack
Speaker 2: over your head because your shine is just too bright.
Speaker 2: You should tell yourself in the mirror.
Speaker 1: And we don't doll or shine for nobody. Don't go
Speaker 1: anywhere lokomotives. We'll be right back.
Speaker 2: We're back with more. We hope you didn't go anywhere
Speaker 2: all right?
Speaker 1: Next question, what made you finally you prioritize yourself? Was
Speaker 1: it a breaking point with people?
Speaker 2: Have we prioritized ourselves?
Speaker 1: I don't know. I think we were doing better at it.
Speaker 2: I think you're doing better at it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, well I think you are too. I think I
Speaker 1: think you moving was a way of you like prioritizing
Speaker 1: yourself and like a new phase of your life, like
Speaker 1: giving yourself that like independence to grow total. I answer
Speaker 1: the question for you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, definitely, moving, Definitely school. There's also been some personal,
Speaker 2: very personal developments that have been going on that I
Speaker 2: will not share it.
Speaker 1: Am I allowed to say that it's romantic? Yeah, that's it.
Speaker 1: That's all we need to say.
Speaker 2: Not only is it romantic, it's incredibly romantic. Yes, it's
Speaker 2: very romantic.
Speaker 1: It's old timy, it's very old.
Speaker 2: Timey, like I've always wanted.
Speaker 1: It has been manifesting an old timey romance and now
Speaker 1: she has it. But that's all we're saying because we're
Speaker 1: protecting it.
Speaker 2: I will say one more thing. In the vegust of terms,
Speaker 2: my mom was like, well, you know, this person needs
Speaker 2: to go talk to your dad and ask for permission
Speaker 2: to date you.
Speaker 1: It's that old timing, that old that's true. Actually, there's
Speaker 1: that layer.
Speaker 2: There's that layer, and this is that case where like
Speaker 2: a it's funny, but be this person is game and
Speaker 2: see like it's actually appropriate, like it actually makes sense.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it doesn't make sense here, Like no, you go.
Speaker 2: Tell my dad, Yeah, you go knock on the door
Speaker 2: and any who, AnyWho. That's all I'm going to say
Speaker 2: is so that's all I'm going to say.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, okay, okay. So this is how you've finally
Speaker 1: like prioritized yourself.
Speaker 2: By falling madly in love. Yeah, exactly, exactly how have
Speaker 2: you prioritized yourself?
Speaker 1: Oh my god? I okay. I have not shared this
Speaker 1: story with very very many people. Mala obviously knows. But
Speaker 1: I at the beginning of the top of the year,
Speaker 1: I cosplayed as a single girl for a weekend. Nothing
Speaker 1: to do with my amazing partner, but I just needed
Speaker 1: to get away for a weekend because I was at
Speaker 1: my breaking point and that kind of set things in
Speaker 1: motion to change. And you know, sometimes you're around people
Speaker 1: that are not willing to change for themselves, and so
Speaker 1: and you begin to recognize, Okay, these people are not
Speaker 1: going to change, so I have to change, and I
Speaker 1: change my environment, I change myself. I changed my relationship
Speaker 1: with these people, whatever that may look like. And so
Speaker 1: that was my breaking point. My little single girl weekend ended,
Speaker 1: and it wasn't really a single girl weekend, but I
Speaker 1: like stayed alone for the weekend in another place, and
Speaker 1: for me, that was me costplaying as a single girl.
Speaker 1: And when I came back from that little getaway, you know,
Speaker 1: I had a very difficult conversation with my family and
Speaker 1: basically said, like, I'm whatever's going on here, I no
Speaker 1: longer want to be a part of it, and so
Speaker 1: I'm removing myself and by default, my partner is also
Speaker 1: moving himself. And so take what you will with that information.
Speaker 1: And things changed after that, and so I think that was, like, ugh,
Speaker 1: big sigh, Like that was the biggest step that I
Speaker 1: ever took to finally prioritize myself. But it was years
Speaker 1: in the making. It was years of therapy, It was
Speaker 1: all my twenties, all my life practically of like getting
Speaker 1: to this point, and so it took a very long time,
Speaker 1: but it was a process. It was a journey, and
Speaker 1: you know, it was part of what made I think
Speaker 1: this year, however you want to look at it, you're thirty,
Speaker 1: my year, thirty twenty twenty four, like, we're really challenging,
Speaker 1: but I think I'm on the other side of it.
Speaker 1: There's still some challenges, but it was it definitely took
Speaker 1: like getting to my breaking point to finally make some changes.
Speaker 2: Since I've known you, this particular issue has been an issue, right,
Speaker 2: like a big one, yeah, you know, just recurring and
Speaker 2: so to be at the and there had been conversations
Speaker 2: previously about how to fix this, or how it could change,
Speaker 2: or who would need to change, and how the house
Speaker 2: would have to look different. And so then for this
Speaker 2: this big shift to happen like this year, it's one
Speaker 2: of those like, oh, it's happening.
Speaker 1: It's one of those things where you don't believe it's
Speaker 1: happening until it's happened, and you know, the like I
Speaker 1: hate just to speak in such vague terms. The reason
Speaker 1: I'm not so specific it is because it's not just
Speaker 1: involving me, right, it's not my my entirely my story
Speaker 1: to share, which is why I haven't really talked about
Speaker 1: it on the podcast or even on social media because
Speaker 1: it's kind of it's private and it affects it's about
Speaker 1: my family, and so you know, I just will say
Speaker 1: that it was like a really tough couple of months
Speaker 1: to get through, and then you know, I made it
Speaker 1: through the other side, and I have no.
Speaker 2: Regrets, and I do think the hardest part is over.
Speaker 1: Yeah, thank god.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's got to be smooth from here on out.
Speaker 1: Yes, please, truly.
Speaker 2: All right, next, let's see what are you reaching for
Speaker 2: and what are you letting go of? Oh my goodness,
Speaker 2: right now, definitely just reaching for knowledge and learning and
Speaker 2: just evolving as a creative and just really learning this
Speaker 2: filmmaking stuff and then figuring out how to apply it
Speaker 2: back to look at what our productions and then what
Speaker 2: we can do with it. Because we've talked about what
Speaker 2: can be adapted, like what can be adapted for the
Speaker 2: screen in one way or another, and how can our
Speaker 2: story also be told on screen somehow? Because we have
Speaker 2: now all this audio and we've talked about the show
Speaker 2: as an audio archive that is still what it is.
Speaker 2: So we've archived all these years and all these ideas
Speaker 2: and these thoughts and these interviews and these experiences and
Speaker 2: I just think that the podcast itself is so ripe
Speaker 2: for a different art form, you know, like to be
Speaker 2: expressed in another way. So that's really kind of where
Speaker 2: my mind is. And what am I letting go of? Man,
Speaker 2: I'm just trying to let go of, you know. I
Speaker 2: think over the years, I have evolved a lot as
Speaker 2: far as my ideas about like my ideas about even
Speaker 2: things like femininity and feminism and like the type of
Speaker 2: woman I am or the type of woman I want
Speaker 2: to be. And I think I'm letting go of like
Speaker 2: maybe some more immature or like one dimensional ideas like
Speaker 2: what like you know, I think we've talked about over
Speaker 2: the years, how like you know, things like not wanting
Speaker 2: kids right or waiting or doing it in your own time,
Speaker 2: or but also we've had these conversations about like these
Speaker 2: might seem like disconnected, like fem science, you know, and
Speaker 2: how like the domestic space can actually be this place
Speaker 2: of empowerment and such. And I'm just entering into this
Speaker 2: era of like feeling my like soft girl vibes and
Speaker 2: like finding the nurture in myself and like the lover
Speaker 2: in myself and the caretaker in myself, which are categories
Speaker 2: that I have sort of tiptoed around or like I
Speaker 2: haven't touched Like I haven't always been a very like
Speaker 2: touchy feely or emotional person, and maybe my emotions have
Speaker 2: been more stuck to like like passion and excitement or
Speaker 2: joy or like thrill seeking. But uh, I have stayed
Speaker 2: away from like vulnerability, you know, like I'm not the
Speaker 2: most vulnerable and I'm not the most like uh open
Speaker 2: with like sharing my feelings and such. But I am
Speaker 2: coming into this era where I feel like like the
Speaker 2: ice queen is melting, you know, and like the armor
Speaker 2: is being shed, like I am laying down my sword. Wow,
Speaker 2: which is horrible. It's a horrible feeling, right, but vulnerable, Yeah,
Speaker 2: but it also feels so great at the same time.
Speaker 1: Yeah, when you can be safe and you feel safe
Speaker 1: enough to do it, like it should feel good. It
Speaker 1: can be scary, that's always gonna be scary, but it
Speaker 1: shouldn't feel bad if it actually could feel good.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like somebody at school was like, oh my god,
Speaker 2: you're glowing, like what's going on? And I was like,
Speaker 2: you know what, I'm in love and it's awful, Like
Speaker 2: I love it. But it's also like I feel like
Speaker 2: this is very much one of those moments where it's like,
Speaker 2: am I grieving? Low key? Like this is a new chapter. Yeah,
Speaker 2: And so I'm sort of I'm shedding, I'm kind of
Speaker 2: grieving a little bit, but also very happily letting go
Speaker 2: and just kind of letting it. I'm just going with it.
Speaker 2: I'm just letting it take me, and I'm not resisting.
Speaker 2: I'm cooperating. I'm being very cooperative.
Speaker 1: Yeah. I think that our whole lives are filled with
Speaker 1: like a grieving process because we're constantly transforming and evolving, yes,
Speaker 1: and so we're like constantly letting go of a version
Speaker 1: of ourselves. And I think, on that note, I've been
Speaker 1: talking about this with my therapist for on and off
Speaker 1: for a couple of years. Is like, you know, kind
Speaker 1: of grieving that the way my life was set up
Speaker 1: and the type of person that I am, I was
Speaker 1: never going to be someone that moved away from my family.
Speaker 1: And I'm not saying that's good or bad if you did,
Speaker 1: Like there's no judgment there, but it also because that's
Speaker 1: not who I was raised to be, and maybe also
Speaker 1: who I chose to be, because I could have just
Speaker 1: said al Rajo I'm leaving, like y'all figure it out
Speaker 1: by yourselves. That's not who I am. But there's that
Speaker 1: part of me that's like, you know, who could I
Speaker 1: have been? And who? Yeah, who could I have been
Speaker 1: if I had done made some different choices? I think that.
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm happy with my life and I'm happy
Speaker 1: with where I'm at, but there is that question that
Speaker 1: doubt of like could my life have been different if
Speaker 1: I had maybe made a choices differently when I was younger.
Speaker 1: And this is not to say that I regrets or anything,
Speaker 1: but I think that to going back to what you're
Speaker 1: saying about grieving and letting go, it's like, okay, letting
Speaker 1: go that like, well, that person is can no longer be?
Speaker 1: That person's gone, so like I cannot get stuck in
Speaker 1: the what if? And should I? And instead, how can
Speaker 1: I think about qualities that maybe that version of me
Speaker 1: has She's somewhere out there, and how can I bring
Speaker 1: her into my current life? You know, how can I
Speaker 1: have some of those qualities that maybe I feel are
Speaker 1: missing for me or from my life or what I want?
Speaker 1: And you know, let them be, let them be here,
Speaker 1: let them be present, as opposed to like thinking my mind,
Speaker 1: letting going and wandering of like what could have been,
Speaker 1: you know, like let's be here in.
Speaker 2: The present, because then it's like, oh, am I just
Speaker 2: living in this nostalgia versus like living exactly my reality.
Speaker 1: And it's like you're not appreciate, eat what's right in
Speaker 1: front of you, you know, and so and I think
Speaker 1: that we can get caught so caught up in that,
Speaker 1: especially if maybe there's unresolved feelings about something, you know,
Speaker 1: whether that be a person or a situation, anything, you
Speaker 1: can get stuck in that like that nostalgia and it's like, oh, actually,
Speaker 1: you know, my life is fabulous, it's great. I've built
Speaker 1: it to be this way, you know, So let me
Speaker 1: be present here and love what's right in front of
Speaker 1: me exactly.
Speaker 2: So important. Also, like if we just think about the
Speaker 2: human brain and like memories, like our brain cannot retain
Speaker 2: every detail of things that have happened in the past,
Speaker 2: and we like fill in details like our minds, you know,
Speaker 2: like our memories are kind of like fragmented together, and
Speaker 2: so the nostalgia sometimes is not completely accurate. Yeah, you know,
Speaker 2: it's like I remember these major things, but a lot
Speaker 2: of this is kind of like being filled in and
Speaker 2: it's almost guessing in some ways. But what we can
Speaker 2: rely on more is, yeah, what's in front of us
Speaker 2: now is much more trustworthy than what we're remembering.
Speaker 1: Definitely, Yeah, I agree.
Speaker 2: So let's see what's next. If you could have lunch
Speaker 2: with anyone dead or alive, who would it be? I
Speaker 2: would much rather the person be alive that I'm having
Speaker 2: lunch with.
Speaker 1: Who would it be?
Speaker 2: Probably? I mean not to be cliche and corny, but
Speaker 2: I mean probably Selena.
Speaker 1: You just said alive?
Speaker 2: Oh she's dead. I forgot. I forgot she's dead for
Speaker 2: a second. How sad?
Speaker 1: You know her memory lives on this?
Speaker 2: So okay? You know who would be fun? I mean
Speaker 2: I think it's very easy to be like, oh, Beyonce. Right,
Speaker 2: I don't actually know how fun she would be over lunch?
Speaker 2: You know, Aubrey Plaza.
Speaker 1: That would be a fun lunch. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I don't know if it would be fun, but it
Speaker 2: would be okay because I don't think you know what
Speaker 2: I mean, Like it's her like.
Speaker 1: Right, you're not like laughing hysterically with each other. No,
Speaker 1: there's some like witty banter going on.
Speaker 2: Maybe hopefully, I think she would be very very fun.
Speaker 2: How about you.
Speaker 1: I am terrible at these types of questions. My mind
Speaker 1: goes blank. So I don't know.
Speaker 2: Yeah, like, are there people in the world.
Speaker 1: Yeah, there are no No one exists. There's no way
Speaker 1: there's no one in the world right now that I
Speaker 1: would have lunch with.
Speaker 2: I would have lunch with you.
Speaker 1: I was about to say, I would have lunch with you.
Speaker 2: We can get left.
Speaker 1: Yes, there we go.
Speaker 2: Great question, guys. Let's see can you do an episode
Speaker 2: on women in their thirties and how that's still baby?
Speaker 1: Well, I love this questions so much, and you're right,
Speaker 1: just love the phrasing.
Speaker 2: Thirty is baby, thirty is baby, I'm baby, I am baby,
Speaker 2: and that's it.
Speaker 1: That's it, that's baby.
Speaker 2: Say no more.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know. I mean I guess there's that
Speaker 1: expectation that like you're like a full grown adult when
Speaker 1: you're in your thirties, right and so, but in so
Speaker 1: many ways, like no, we're still everyone is still learning.
Speaker 1: Everyone is still baby. I will be eighty years old
Speaker 1: and still babies.
Speaker 2: Oh even more so, I will.
Speaker 1: Be even more of a senorita when I'm eighty.
Speaker 2: Okay, absolutely, I mean we're just thirty something teenage girls.
Speaker 1: Literally I think about that, and I think about too
Speaker 1: God not to be so deep today, but I guess
Speaker 1: here we are. I've been thinking about, like, you know,
Speaker 1: the top of the episode, I was like, I don't
Speaker 1: want to have all these little things. And I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, when I was a little girl, I
Speaker 1: had lots of little things.
Speaker 2: I saw your storage clean up.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yes, I had little beanie babies, I had barbies.
Speaker 1: Like I definitely had things, not like excessively, right, but like,
Speaker 1: you know, my mom bought me things. And so I've
Speaker 1: been thinking about that now as as someone in their thirties,
Speaker 1: and how like everyone is like talking about like we're
Speaker 1: tapping into our inner childs and I think, yeah, I
Speaker 1: think a lot of us in our thirties we start
Speaker 1: to feel safe again to be like I actually don't
Speaker 1: care if anyone thinks this is weird or nerdy or
Speaker 1: you know, immature. I like it and so cares. Yeah,
Speaker 1: And it goes back to like not caring what people think,
Speaker 1: doing it just for you, connecting with your inner child,
Speaker 1: like all those things that I feel like we collectively
Speaker 1: talk about online or women especially talk about online, and
Speaker 1: it's like, yeah, just you're still baby. Just do it, Yeah,
Speaker 1: have your little things.
Speaker 2: Have your little things center play, like finding opportunities to
Speaker 2: not be in charge and to not be in control
Speaker 2: and to not make all the decisions and to like
Speaker 2: not drive and you know, kind of not do anything.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I think that's really important. And that's also very baby.
Speaker 1: He's very baby. I've been talking to Phenenmeno about that
Speaker 1: too recently. I told him, like, you know, so much
Speaker 1: of my day to day, I'm like scheduling things and
Speaker 1: organizing things and making sure we're on track as a production.
Speaker 2: So she keeps us running.
Speaker 1: I keep us running, and I do it because that's
Speaker 1: my that's my strength, right, and I'm okay, I'm okay
Speaker 1: with that. That's my role. But I was telling him, like,
Speaker 1: I actually don't want to pick where to go to dinner.
Speaker 1: I actually don't want to plan a weekend away, So
Speaker 1: can you take lead on that because my brain is
Speaker 1: actually like exhausted. And I didn't realize how I was
Speaker 1: feeling until I told him that. And it's like, you know,
Speaker 1: I don't want to be in charge of a date.
Speaker 1: Like I need you to do that, Like you need
Speaker 1: to take lead on that from now on as he should,
Speaker 1: as he should, and but then it's like, well, he's
Speaker 1: not going to know that unless I tell him, right,
Speaker 1: you know. So it's like I have to you have
Speaker 1: to communicate or whatever. And so it's one of those
Speaker 1: things where it's like, Okay, I'm baby, but I have
Speaker 1: to let everybody know that I'm baby.
Speaker 2: Yes, you have to be a very verbose, communicative baby
Speaker 2: who states their intentions and their boundary exactly, very self
Speaker 2: actualized baby, which is what it's all about. Yeah, it's
Speaker 2: what it's all about. Great question.
Speaker 1: We're just like flowing through these questions right now. I
Speaker 1: didn't think we were going to get through them.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, lookaz, it's fun. Yeah, it's always fun. Send
Speaker 2: us questions, y'all, just like keep them coming, email us,
Speaker 2: go to the website, send us something on speak pipe.
Speaker 2: Do y'all have any tradition traditions for the other loostos
Speaker 2: right now? As a podcast, our tradition is every year
Speaker 2: saying we're gonna like submit anout that for the Grand Park,
Speaker 2: the other Moertos or the Hollywood Forever the other Motos,
Speaker 2: and never doing it, but always talking about it.
Speaker 1: We've been talking about it since twenty sixteen.
Speaker 2: Actually that's our tradition. It's our tradition talking about an
Speaker 2: altar and then not submitting.
Speaker 1: Not doing it. We need a bigger team. There's just
Speaker 1: two of us plus our lovely producer, but she just
Speaker 1: does audio. Like we don't expect her to like event
Speaker 1: plan with us, you know, and so she can't. So yeah,
Speaker 1: that's that is our tradition.
Speaker 2: We have a lot of aspirations and dreams, but something
Speaker 2: like building one of those out that is is it's
Speaker 2: a lot of work. It's construction. Oh yeah, Like it's
Speaker 2: a it's a big art installation.
Speaker 1: And we're not just gonna like throw something together. Like
Speaker 1: it has to be an experience because that's what we
Speaker 1: do here.
Speaker 2: That's what we do here, and at these events, the
Speaker 2: altars are extravagant and they have a purpose and a
Speaker 2: design and intention and a color scheme, and they're they're
Speaker 2: huge and people go all out. So we can't just
Speaker 2: come up with, you know, our little tablecloth and a
Speaker 2: candle and call it a day.
Speaker 1: That's good for your home out that, but not for
Speaker 1: like an installation piece exactly.
Speaker 2: Yeah, how about personally, do you have theos tradition?
Speaker 1: Ah, Well, we build an out of that, and I'm
Speaker 1: actually kind of dreading it this year. Tone shift obviously,
Speaker 1: but this is the this is unexpectedly I am putting
Speaker 1: my dog Glusko on the altar, and I am not
Speaker 1: ready and very devastated and still grieving that loss. And
Speaker 1: so I am, you know, in so many ways. Last
Speaker 1: year was the first year that we put our cat
Speaker 1: are my pet, mister Bean. He had lived with us
Speaker 1: for about eighteen years, and that was his first year
Speaker 1: going on the end, and that was, you know, very sad,
Speaker 1: very beautiful, but an expected loss because he was having
Speaker 1: some problems, some health problems. And then this year, you know,
Speaker 1: just how unexpectedly we lost Gusco. I am just have
Speaker 1: been grieving pretty intensely for the last couple of months,
Speaker 1: and so that is just for me, Like as we
Speaker 1: approach the holiday, I'm feeling very very sad, and you know,
Speaker 1: of course, like there's the human loss, and you know,
Speaker 1: I've lost people, several people in the last couple of years,
Speaker 1: but I just again, like the way I lost Gusco,
Speaker 1: and I haven't shared publicly, but he was hit by
Speaker 1: a car and I have not gotten over it, and
Speaker 1: I don't see myself ever getting over it, and so
Speaker 1: it's just been really hard, really hard, and so yeah,
Speaker 1: that is like something that I'm mentally preparing myself for,
Speaker 1: especially on social media, like the way people build these
Speaker 1: beautiful altars for their dogs. Even I'm like, oh, love
Speaker 1: that for you. I can't. I'm not already.
Speaker 2: It's a lot. That's a lot of attention and like
Speaker 2: thinking about the it's just a lot of focus and energy.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, but you know, I think it's a
Speaker 1: beautiful tradition and we're still going to do it, and
Speaker 1: as hard as it's going to be. I've actually been
Speaker 1: thinking about going to I haven't been. I've strategically avoided
Speaker 1: the street where he died, and so I have been
Speaker 1: thinking about maybe doing like a public altar, if you will, yeah,
Speaker 1: by the road, a little a little display, but we'll see.
Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm actually ready for that, but
Speaker 1: it's been in my mind.
Speaker 2: That's a beautiful way to remember him. We just recognized
Speaker 2: the anniversary of my grandfather's passing a year ago, so
Speaker 2: for the other and what thos will likely will light
Speaker 2: some candles and you know, my grandmother likes to pray
Speaker 2: the rosary, so maybe a little bit of that. The
Speaker 2: other Moretos is also the same day as my friend
Speaker 2: Lilia's birthday, so she always does something so that ends
Speaker 2: up being kind of like what I am doing on
Speaker 2: the other loss Morthos is somehow like celebrating her birthday
Speaker 2: somehow if she's around.
Speaker 1: So yeah, that's lovely. It is.
Speaker 2: It is.
Speaker 1: It's like a it's like a to like a meeting
Speaker 1: of two things of like birth death anniversaries, you know,
Speaker 1: and a celebration, because that is what the other Martos is, right,
Speaker 1: it is a celebration of of life and memory.
Speaker 2: Very true, Yeah, very true. Yes, yes, yes, it's uh,
Speaker 2: there's a lot of energy exchange there, back and forth
Speaker 2: in a very beautiful way. Yeah, let's see what's next.
Speaker 2: At what moment do you risk it all to follow
Speaker 2: your dreams? I would say, don't risk it all. I mean,
Speaker 2: be able to pay your rent and have like a
Speaker 2: backup plan until you have something concrete coming in is
Speaker 2: what I would say. It's okay to work and follow
Speaker 2: your dreams, and sometimes that's what you have to do.
Speaker 2: I don't know about risking it all. I don't know
Speaker 2: if we've had a moment where we like risked it all.
Speaker 1: No, I think we made very strategic jumps, yeah, and leaps,
Speaker 1: like the leaps came when they had to come. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I think that we didn't. We didn't risk it all
Speaker 1: until we knew there was a safety net because we
Speaker 1: just weren't in a position to do that.
Speaker 2: No, because risking it all means what, oh, now I
Speaker 2: can't pay my bills and now what Like you can't
Speaker 2: follow your dreams? Takes money, is the other piece of it. Yeah,
Speaker 2: And like getting work done being a creative, like it
Speaker 2: takes money to get yourself together and to get yourself
Speaker 2: out there and to build your portfolio and to get
Speaker 2: work done, and so quite often you kind of have
Speaker 2: to be self fun did anyways, and so how are
Speaker 2: you going to do that? You gotta work. So I've
Speaker 2: never been one to say, like, yeah, just take the leap,
Speaker 2: I mean, put it on your vision board, work towards it,
Speaker 2: you know, yes, but don't put yourself in like a
Speaker 2: precarious financial situation that we're going to suffer from. And
Speaker 2: then you can't focus on what you want to do,
Speaker 2: Like you can't focus on the next thing if you're
Speaker 2: just you know, if you have no idea how you're
Speaker 2: going to pay your rent.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that would be my same advice. Don't risk it all,
Speaker 1: strategically risk it all, baby steps, little risks. Yeah, I agree,
Speaker 1: I agree. Okay, final question, what advice would you give
Speaker 1: to your younger self? Oh? Lord, have you seen that meme?
Speaker 1: That's like do it for your younger self or think
Speaker 1: of your younger self? And it's like, why would I
Speaker 1: pay attention to a fifteen year old mentally ill girl?
Speaker 2: Ah? Poor young me? What would I say to my
Speaker 2: younger self? I would say to my younger self, Look, girl,
Speaker 2: you're gonna get through it. Buck up, chin up, You're
Speaker 2: gonna be okay. And I promise that older you is
Speaker 2: gonna give you grace and understanding that I can promise, like,
Speaker 2: don't be afraid to make mistakes because there's forgiveness on
Speaker 2: the other side. And I'm not gonna throw you under
Speaker 2: the bus. I'm gonna defend you. Like That's what I
Speaker 2: would say to my younger self is like I got
Speaker 2: you on the other side. I see you. You're gonna
Speaker 2: be fine. And I'm like, now I'm getting emotional, like
Speaker 2: I've got your back, like make your choices, like do
Speaker 2: your thing, learn and like I'm gonna cover you like
Speaker 2: you are protected.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love that. That's beautiful. Yeah, I would say
Speaker 1: something similar, you know, like, it's okay to not be perfect.
Speaker 1: It's okay to not know everything. And it's not your
Speaker 1: job to take care of other people. Actually just a kid.
Speaker 1: And when you're older, I got you. I will take
Speaker 1: care of you, and I will nurture you, and I
Speaker 1: will make sure your emotional needs are met. So it's
Speaker 1: okay to make a mistake. It's okay to not have straight.
Speaker 2: A's ooh big one.
Speaker 1: It's okay to not have the highest GPA ooh big one. Yes,
Speaker 1: Catholic schoolgirl here. It's hard. They're mean to us. It's
Speaker 1: gonna work out, and you know what, the tattoos are fine.
Speaker 1: You're your own boss. Now, it's cool. You got it.
Speaker 2: Literally, nobody cares.
Speaker 1: Nobody cares. My boss Mala said it was fine.
Speaker 2: Get more.
Speaker 1: There we go.
Speaker 2: Great questions, y'all, Yeah, thank.
Speaker 1: You so much for listening to another episode of lok
Speaker 1: A Radio. This was a fun episode to make. We've
Speaker 1: done some heavy episodes this season. Yes, it's nice to
Speaker 1: take a moment to answer the questions. Connect with you
Speaker 1: all in this way and also connect with each other.
Speaker 2: Yes, we laughed, we cried, we did it all. So
Speaker 2: thank you for tuning in to another episode of look
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